Speaker 1: Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.
Speaker 2: She couldn't.
Speaker 3: She cleaned and cared for her children and the man
Speaker 3: of the house, and of course she didn't talk back.
Speaker 3: She was both obedient and soft by nature. She was
Speaker 3: a good woman who always made good choices. That shit,
Speaker 3: we're good Mom's bad choices too, single mom who said
Speaker 3: fuck the patriarchy, shared all their bad choices and sound
Speaker 3: out they were so bad.
Speaker 2: After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties.
Speaker 3: Sit back and enjoy the ride.
Speaker 2: I can do it. Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 3: I'm Erica and I'm Mela.
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Speaker 3: It's my favorite. It's my favorite. This my actually now Halloween.
Speaker 2: I'm gonna take her on st start to lying, yeah,
Speaker 2: because I kind of now. But what we can do,
Speaker 2: what we should do is start dressing up on for
Speaker 2: twenty just to combine the holidays, because who said that
Speaker 2: you can't so I think maybe tonight I'm gonna put
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Speaker 3: Are you to roll yourself in green?
Speaker 2: Or maybe I don't know, Okay, I don't know, like
Speaker 2: Eve put flowers? Yeah, yeah, the flower Gottess noting like that.
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Speaker 3: Oh my god, I'm so grateful. I'm so happy that
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Speaker 4: Of course, it's not a little low us. You've been
Speaker 4: doing this for eight years. That's not a little ship.
Speaker 2: Thank you. Thank you. I'm always like I help, I
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Speaker 4: I responded very excitedly, thank you.
Speaker 2: And we have a mutual friend so I always I
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Speaker 2: I always friends like if you're friends with him, then
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Speaker 3: I was okay. It's so funny because when we messaged
Speaker 3: you and you responded, literally to Bone sent me a
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Speaker 3: And I was like, that is so crazy because she
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Speaker 2: And you know what a funny story about Tabona is
Speaker 2: is when we did our first one of our first
Speaker 2: like out of the state like shows, I was, I
Speaker 2: know a DJ in Atlanta used to live in Atlanta
Speaker 2: and he's my friend. And I was like Tabone and
Speaker 2: I showed her picture. She's like, I met Toabone at
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Speaker 4: Good people know good people.
Speaker 3: Yeah, so I was like, wow, look at the synchronicity.
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Speaker 4: And let's be clear, this did not happen over night.
Speaker 3: Oh, very very hard for that.
Speaker 5: And I think sometimes when people see someone and they
Speaker 5: see the shiny part, they don't remember, they don't know
Speaker 5: or think of all the things that came before that.
Speaker 5: And I like to make sure people know that Duran
Speaker 5: worked very, very hard and he's nowhere near where he's going,
Speaker 5: so there's even more work to do.
Speaker 4: But I just love to see where he is.
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's beautiful. I love him.
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Speaker 2: To do it because it's Erica about you exactly.
Speaker 3: So Miss Tidra, Yes, ma'am, I have lots of questions
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Speaker 4: Let's go.
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Speaker 3: So you know, we've done our research and researched a
Speaker 3: lot of different things. I've learned so much about your
Speaker 3: history that I didn't really even know that you were
Speaker 3: like a fashion you were a stylist before your career
Speaker 3: in music, and that you've had You've lived a lot
Speaker 3: of lives. And I also found out that you were
Speaker 3: mama of too twins, not to twins, that's Pacific mama.
Speaker 3: So I'm curious what was so you were a young
Speaker 3: mom too, right? How old were you when you had
Speaker 3: your nineteen?
Speaker 5: When I got pregnant right after I turn twenty, I
Speaker 5: had them that I'm a December baby, right in January
Speaker 5: fourth like right after the year started, I had a set.
Speaker 4: Of twins in your family, not in my family.
Speaker 5: Their dad has two sets of twins after I had them.
Speaker 4: Then their dad's aunt had a set of twins.
Speaker 5: But you know, they say that identical twins are are
Speaker 5: can be the from the father or the mother's jeans.
Speaker 4: They say that fraternal twins have to be from the mom.
Speaker 5: I also learned recently that some of the twins that
Speaker 5: people think are fraternal because they're in different sects can
Speaker 5: actually be identical. Because my sons look exactly the same
Speaker 5: to most people, not to me. But when I see
Speaker 5: fraternal twins, they look totally different. You know, for sure,
Speaker 5: they look like siblings, and sometimes they don't even look
Speaker 5: like siblings. So I don't know, my might be they
Speaker 5: might be identical, which would take away from me claiming
Speaker 5: all these years that it was my superpowers twins.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 2: Wait, so identical means they're in the same sack. For
Speaker 2: turnalmans are not in the same sack.
Speaker 4: Yeah, But as of what I've learned recently, that's not it.
Speaker 2: That's not true.
Speaker 3: Please God don't give me jo I mean I'm talking
Speaker 3: about that's a very great experience at nineteen. But no,
Speaker 3: you're having twins, entering into motherhood as a mother of two?
Speaker 3: What was that like?
Speaker 5: So I moved to Los Angeles from New Orleans in
Speaker 5: when I was fourteen. Okay, when I was ten or eleven,
Speaker 5: girls are pregnant at twelve, you know what I mean. Thirteen,
Speaker 5: that wasn't uncommon. So when I got pregnant at nineteen,
Speaker 5: it was like, okay, I'm having.
Speaker 4: A a child, you know.
Speaker 5: And I remember coming home and my aunt makes she
Speaker 5: rest in peace, my aunt Ramona, she said.
Speaker 4: I was crying, crying, and she said, girl, you ain't
Speaker 4: gotta have no kids. You have my kids. You can,
Speaker 4: but you've grown either way if you want it, but
Speaker 4: you don't have to have no kids. And I was
Speaker 4: just thinking, no, I'm just gonna have the kid. I
Speaker 4: was crying.
Speaker 5: I'm upset. I'm just gonna have the kid. And then
Speaker 5: it turns out to be two. And I'm doing this
Speaker 5: by myself because the dad and I were together, but
Speaker 5: he didn't choose to like, really, it's the girl here
Speaker 5: gonna be mad because I said.
Speaker 3: That, But it is.
Speaker 4: It's the truth. It's the truth.
Speaker 5: And so I'm doing this mostly by myself. And I
Speaker 5: have my family whatever, but.
Speaker 4: It was hard. But it's kind of like, I don't want.
Speaker 5: To say this and sound fucked up, but I think
Speaker 5: it's a young persons sport.
Speaker 4: I think children. I think it's a young person's sport.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna tell you why. You don't fucking think. You
Speaker 4: just do.
Speaker 5: It's all instinct. You're not overthinking. Grown people with kids
Speaker 5: irk the fuck out of me.
Speaker 4: They think too fucking much. Yes, she doesn't like this.
Speaker 5: The bitch don't know her name, but she don't like this,
Speaker 5: and she don't like that. You know, when you're a
Speaker 5: young parent, it's and not all young parents.
Speaker 4: Do it successfully. I just really they were my friends.
Speaker 5: I was to just talk to them, like, you know,
Speaker 5: and be real because I'm not thinking about being superwoman.
Speaker 5: I'm just like and I would literally tell them like,
Speaker 5: you're a kid, but I'm a little key kind of
Speaker 5: a kid too, you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 4: So we've about to work together, you know what I mean.
Speaker 5: So it was like it was like not as shocking
Speaker 5: to me because I'd seen people have babies and I
Speaker 5: thought it was gonna be easier, but then it wasn't
Speaker 5: as easy.
Speaker 4: But it wasn't as hard either.
Speaker 3: Right right, right, yeah? I think. I mean I've always said,
Speaker 3: and don't take offense to this, that twins is the
Speaker 3: devil's work. I would on my worst enemy, but I guess.
Speaker 3: But when you don't know and you don't know anything different, but.
Speaker 5: A second pregnancy is the devil's working because now you
Speaker 5: got three. So I never wanted to have children again
Speaker 5: because I figured, like, what if I end up with four?
Speaker 4: Nobody want all of that bust it out?
Speaker 5: Like it's kind of like really kind of cool because
Speaker 5: they come, they're there, they have a friend, you know.
Speaker 5: And I used to always tell me like, oh mom,
Speaker 5: can't we get blah blah, I don't have enough money
Speaker 5: for that.
Speaker 4: I want, I want.
Speaker 5: Nobody asked you to bring up friend. Nobody asked you
Speaker 5: came with a friend, you know.
Speaker 4: But it was fun.
Speaker 5: It was very very fun watching them, their interactions as kids,
Speaker 5: even now their interactions.
Speaker 4: It's really cool.
Speaker 5: Two people that came in the world and have been
Speaker 5: rolling together the entire time is kind of unique.
Speaker 2: You know, you get like a built in best friend.
Speaker 4: Exactly, and I don't give you an option not to
Speaker 4: be friends.
Speaker 3: We speaking of friends, that's so funny you said that
Speaker 3: because yesterday my daughter had to sleep over with her
Speaker 3: friend and we went out to eat and we were
Speaker 3: like in a strip mall. So I was like, they
Speaker 3: were like, we want Panda Express. I was like, I
Speaker 3: don't want Panda Express. So we're gonna eat here. And
Speaker 3: I was like, we're in a strip mall. It's like
Speaker 3: a little bakery. I'm thinking it's gonna be cheap. Girl.
Speaker 3: We walked in there, everything on the menu was over
Speaker 3: twenty five dollars, even the oatmeal. I was like, we're
Speaker 3: in north Ridge. Where the fuck am I? So IRI's like,
Speaker 3: I'll just take the crape and I'm like, okay, that's
Speaker 3: my girl. Yeah, you get the crape. This little friend
Speaker 3: of hers, She's like.
Speaker 2: Is this your bad choice of the week?
Speaker 3: Maybe this is my bad choice of the week. Okay,
Speaker 3: my bad choice of the week is let it a
Speaker 3: little bit little punk, little baby pup.
Speaker 1: Mem not a bad mom, but a bad mom.
Speaker 4: So Liz.
Speaker 3: Okay, because she was like, I don't really want to create,
Speaker 3: but I would like the salmon with rosemary. And I
Speaker 3: was like how much? And then I looked at it
Speaker 3: and it was thirty eight dollars that's who.
Speaker 4: Came to mind. It's a forty dollar plate? Mom?
Speaker 3: Why And I was like, are you sure you really
Speaker 3: want it?
Speaker 2: Because they don't want to tell the kid that's not yours, No,
Speaker 2: you can't eat that.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I was like, I'm an embarrass iery, just like like,
Speaker 3: young mothers don't think about that.
Speaker 4: Young mothers do not consider that. You'd be like, okay,
Speaker 4: but you can get that. We're all sharing it. Let's go.
Speaker 4: You want water because that's what we're getting warm.
Speaker 2: Wait, so she ordered it.
Speaker 3: She ordered it, and I was mad, but I was
Speaker 3: just sitting there like and then I'm I'm the one
Speaker 3: that's fucking starving, and now I'm thinking, like, now should
Speaker 3: I order less? Took the budget, but she took the
Speaker 3: whole budget. Bitch. I just took them to five below
Speaker 3: to buy these stupid as was she toys or they
Speaker 3: were fucking obsessed with anyway? Forget. She brings the food
Speaker 3: out and I see the food and I'm like, damn,
Speaker 3: that doesn't good. This little girl ate the whole goddamn filet.
Speaker 3: And I was like, all right, only she ate it,
Speaker 3: because that's what I was going to be mad at
Speaker 3: is she didn't eat it. I would have ate it,
Speaker 3: and then I got my food. My food was nasty.
Speaker 3: So I'm already mad now because she got the good ship.
Speaker 2: I don't.
Speaker 3: I don't. I'm not thought to order right. I was like, Okay,
Speaker 3: yes you can have the salmon, but yeah, that's my
Speaker 3: that's my bad choice of the week. But yes, I
Speaker 3: needed to have a backbone. But I just I let
Speaker 3: it fly on that on that moment.
Speaker 2: You don't want to be the cheap mom.
Speaker 3: I did it, and I was like, I'm not gonna
Speaker 3: be and her mom and her mom never like her
Speaker 3: mom be paying for it, like whenever I goes over there,
Speaker 3: you know, she takes care of my daughter.
Speaker 4: So I was like, that's nice.
Speaker 3: So I was like, fuck, we can get.
Speaker 2: How How was your How was your birth with twins?
Speaker 4: I had a cesarean I.
Speaker 5: They came when I was thirty two weeks and I
Speaker 5: had this little Filipino man that was my.
Speaker 4: Doctor. And I say that because he was short.
Speaker 5: And I'm trying to give you a picture of when
Speaker 5: I walked in there, what was going on. I had
Speaker 5: been walking up and down the hallway. It's myself, my
Speaker 5: sister who's older me, and my sister that's younger me.
Speaker 5: None of them had kids before, so they don't know
Speaker 5: what's going on. My mother's at work and I'm walking.
Speaker 5: I'm like, I just got gas. I think if I
Speaker 5: just keep walking, then you know, the gas will come
Speaker 5: out or whatever. And my older sister called her friend
Speaker 5: who had a son or something, and she was like,
Speaker 5: just tell her go to the hospital. And I was like,
Speaker 5: I don't like hospitals. I was like, even with a baby,
Speaker 5: I wanted really go to the hospital. I was like, no,
Speaker 5: I'll just keep walking. She was like, come on, just
Speaker 5: let's go. So I go and they, you know, get
Speaker 5: me out, checked in and everything. And I'm in the room.
Speaker 5: I'm not feeling anything, just gassy. I just feel gassy,
Speaker 5: you know, but I'm not feeling anything. And the little
Speaker 5: man comes in there because he was it's a little
Speaker 5: Filipino man, and I'm young, so I'm probably haven't been
Speaker 5: taking care of myself like I'm supposed to whatever, you know,
Speaker 5: And he goes, what.
Speaker 4: Is going on? You were supposed to come and see me.
Speaker 3: Now I know.
Speaker 4: I wasn't supposed supposed to go see this man.
Speaker 5: I don't even know what he's talking about, you know,
Speaker 5: And she goes supposed to come and see.
Speaker 4: Me, and now you're here at this point, blah blah blah.
Speaker 5: First of all, sir, calm down, calm down, We're gonna
Speaker 5: be okay.
Speaker 3: All right.
Speaker 4: Every thirty minutes, I'm having a contraction.
Speaker 5: I don't feel this. I don't feel any kind of
Speaker 5: contraction or anything. And eventually he comes in and he says,
Speaker 5: we're just gonna have to take the babies.
Speaker 4: Now.
Speaker 5: It was fine, it's cool, But in retrospect, I don't
Speaker 5: think they had to do that. I think I was
Speaker 5: young and they wanted the money, you know what I mean.
Speaker 5: But it was fine, and I had a cesarean and
Speaker 5: I had the kids. They were premature, two pounds for fourteen ounces,
Speaker 5: two pounds fifteen ounces. I stayed in the hospital for
Speaker 5: I sit there for a couple of days. They stayed
Speaker 5: there for six weeks, you know, and then I kind
Speaker 5: of I went every day though, And one day one
Speaker 5: of the nurses told me, baby go home, and I
Speaker 5: was like, well, my babies are here, you know, And she.
Speaker 4: Was like, they're gonna come to you.
Speaker 5: Why you can't get some rest because then when they
Speaker 5: come home, you know, but you know, you got kids,
Speaker 5: and you feel like this is just supposed to do.
Speaker 4: Then they came home and.
Speaker 2: Then rest for another twenty years.
Speaker 4: There was no restsoever. But it was cool.
Speaker 5: It was cool, like it was just like in retrospect,
Speaker 5: it was terrifying in the beginning, but in retrospect, I'm
Speaker 5: a true believer that God does everything align in alignment
Speaker 5: with what is gonna be good for you, and I
Speaker 5: wouldn't I wouldn't have it any other way. I was
Speaker 5: just telling you, like, you know, I think that it's
Speaker 5: it's a young person's sport. I'm so glad I did
Speaker 5: it young because I watch people care too much. I cared,
Speaker 5: but it was like, Okay, come on, like, wash your clothes.
Speaker 4: What you think this is? Wash those dishes? What you
Speaker 4: think this is.
Speaker 5: I'm not gonna be superwoman. Even if I got a husband,
Speaker 5: I'm not gonna be super wife. You're just gonna have
Speaker 5: to take my very intense moments of being great really great.
Speaker 4: I am great, I'm great.
Speaker 2: But all the other times I'm gonna be regular and
Speaker 2: you're gonna.
Speaker 4: Have to Yeah, and it's time. I'm never regular now.
Speaker 2: Never regular, but I will be.
Speaker 4: Great at sometimes and sometimes I'll just be too, and
Speaker 4: that in itself is so magnificent. Just deal with that,
Speaker 4: you know what I mean, Take that and behad.
Speaker 2: I resonate with that because I think now that I'm
Speaker 2: going to have another kid, I'm like, damn, I know too.
Speaker 3: You're pregnant.
Speaker 4: No, oh, okay, I'm say, girl, what the fuck?
Speaker 3: Like where?
Speaker 2: No, I'm planning to have another I just got married,
Speaker 2: so I'm planning to have another kid, which is wild
Speaker 2: because my kid is eleven. But I'm like, God, I
Speaker 2: like when I when I was fucking twenty six, I
Speaker 2: didn't know shit. I was just like la la la la,
Speaker 2: la la la. I didn't know the fucking death rate
Speaker 2: of like pregnant black women in the hospital. I was
Speaker 2: just in there. I knew didn't want to go to
Speaker 2: the hospital. I went anyway, La la la la la.
Speaker 2: Now I'm like, I'm trying to block all the not
Speaker 2: negative thoughts, but the truthful thoughts that I had the
Speaker 2: knowledge that I know. But I do agree, and I'm scared.
Speaker 2: I'm like, do I have energy for that shit? I
Speaker 2: barely have energy for myself.
Speaker 4: But yeah, is bliss.
Speaker 2: Ignorance is bliss. I was gonna say that ignorance is
Speaker 2: bliss and that, Yeah, I agree.
Speaker 3: What would you say, was is one of the bigger
Speaker 3: less since that your sons have taught you in motherhood.
Speaker 4: The biggest lesson, that's a good question.
Speaker 5: Biggest lessons my sons have taught me in motherhood patience
Speaker 5: number one. And they taught me that I can do
Speaker 5: any fucking thing. My sons gave me all the courage
Speaker 5: in the world. I was so young and pursuing like
Speaker 5: music and this shit is not girl, Go get a
Speaker 5: job at the post office so you can have some
Speaker 5: benefits and stuff like that.
Speaker 4: I couldn't. It just wasn't in my spirit.
Speaker 5: And there were times that I didn't have what I
Speaker 5: needed for them and it would make me feel really
Speaker 5: really bad. But they just never made me feel bad.
Speaker 5: They always were such a strong arm, I guess, like
Speaker 5: they were my faith. We prayed together, we you know,
Speaker 5: like they were my friends. They were my faith. They
Speaker 5: were these little humans that I was molding to be
Speaker 5: my best friends, I guess, And they taught me that
Speaker 5: I could do anything. So really that happened when they
Speaker 5: got grown. By the time they left at nineteen and
Speaker 5: moved to la and then I started seeing them handle
Speaker 5: themselves and just be good people. Anyone that ever met
Speaker 5: them would come to me say, teacher, I met your sons.
Speaker 5: They're so mannerable, they're so cool.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 5: That made me feel feel really good. So I think
Speaker 5: my biggest thing that I learned is like you are
Speaker 5: of the top grade of baddest bitches on the planet
Speaker 5: because you did that.
Speaker 2: You know where did you raise them?
Speaker 5: I raised them in Altadena, California, and then we moved
Speaker 5: to when they were fourteen, we moved to Miami.
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, you live here now.
Speaker 4: I live in Miami. Okay, I'm here all the time.
Speaker 4: I don't want to.
Speaker 2: Be, but I am speaking of courage.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 2: We did a little research and I didn't realize that
Speaker 2: you had a successful career as a wardrobe stylist. As
Speaker 2: a stylist prior to your singing career.
Speaker 4: It was more so of an assistant.
Speaker 5: My best friend is killer Stotted by the name of
Speaker 5: Naja Mackenzie, and I assisted her before I started doing music.
Speaker 5: And she would say, like she would tell everybody, teacher
Speaker 5: can sing, teacher can sing. I just feel like if
Speaker 5: I'm if I'm a waitress, I'm a waitress. I'm not
Speaker 5: going to try to kill you with And I think
Speaker 5: it's cool that people do that, but I'm not kind
Speaker 5: of trying to sing to you while I do the menu,
Speaker 5: you know what I mean.
Speaker 4: I'm not that kind of person.
Speaker 5: And if I'm going to be assistant to my best
Speaker 5: friend as a stylist, I'm going to do that, That's
Speaker 5: what I'm gonna do. And we did really, really great work,
Speaker 5: and she still works with me now, she's my stylist now.
Speaker 5: But I more so was just feeding my kids. It
Speaker 5: wasn't a passion. And at some point I had to
Speaker 5: think about what is my passion? Because I'm seeing my
Speaker 5: friend do very very well and I'm assisting here with
Speaker 5: that and I love doing that, but at some point
Speaker 5: I had to figure out what was my thing.
Speaker 4: But fashion is really not my thing like that, to
Speaker 4: be honest.
Speaker 2: But I think it's cool to know that you've rebranded,
Speaker 2: you've reimagined yourself multiple times, and I think a lot
Speaker 2: of times women, especially moms, have a hard time doing that.
Speaker 2: Like you said, let me go get the job that
Speaker 2: has the benefits, and you know, do what you gotta
Speaker 2: do because that's what the world tells you to do.
Speaker 2: And so like seldomly do people push past that because
Speaker 2: we have mouths to feed and go do what they're
Speaker 2: actually passionate about. So I commend you for doing that,
Speaker 2: and like what you gave the world because you did
Speaker 2: that instead of stopping there and pausing there and saying
Speaker 2: this is good enough, or you know, I'm assisting my
Speaker 2: best friend and you know it's putting food on the table.
Speaker 2: But like, what advice would you give for women or
Speaker 2: moms that are listening that maybe in a place that's good,
Speaker 2: but there's something that may be resonating in their spirit
Speaker 2: that's further that they want to they want to do
Speaker 2: something different.
Speaker 5: I would ask them, what choices would you want your
Speaker 5: child to make in this situation?
Speaker 4: Do you know what I mean?
Speaker 5: Because whatever you would want them to do for themselves,
Speaker 5: you should do that because that's gonna make them know
Speaker 5: it's okay for them to do it.
Speaker 4: Do you understand what I'm saying? If you halt.
Speaker 5: When they get to that scary place, they're probably gonna
Speaker 5: halt too. But if you show courage, then they'll probably
Speaker 5: show courage too.
Speaker 2: I always saw them in that, especially women her are
Speaker 2: like in fucked up relationships or relationships that are mediocre
Speaker 2: as hell. I'd be like, would you let your daughter
Speaker 2: date him? And then bitches rethink it real quick. I
Speaker 2: mean not not all bitches move, but yeah.
Speaker 4: It doesn't think about it.
Speaker 2: It does make it be like, damn, you're.
Speaker 5: Watching everything, right, they're watching everything, so if you really
Speaker 5: That's one of my things that break my heart is
Speaker 5: watching women mothers with daughters in bad relationship too, because
Speaker 5: I was there as a kid. I saw that and
Speaker 5: it formed a lot of my bad choices as an
Speaker 5: adult trying to be in love, you know, so I
Speaker 5: think you gotta be you gotta kind of like consider
Speaker 5: that and if you're gonna be out here crazy and
Speaker 5: foolish and just go do that away from the kids,
Speaker 5: don't let them.
Speaker 2: See you saw your mom being bad relationships.
Speaker 4: Yeah, my father was crazy. You used to abuse my mom. Yeah,
Speaker 4: And it just was like, you know, that first made
Speaker 4: me really tough, like, niggain't gonna fucking hit me. I'll
Speaker 4: kill that, you know what I mean.
Speaker 3: That's how it was, you know.
Speaker 5: But then it was like, Okay, I'm not as tough
Speaker 5: as I think I'm not. I love this boy, I
Speaker 5: love him so much, I'll do anything and I saw
Speaker 5: my mother love through anything.
Speaker 4: My mother loved my father when she died.
Speaker 5: They weren't even together for like years, So it kind
Speaker 5: of formed you into thinking, like, if I just keep loving.
Speaker 4: It'll get better, because that's what I saw her do.
Speaker 5: Which it never got better, but it's still just embedded
Speaker 5: in me like it was. If I just keep loving
Speaker 5: this person, this person eventually have to understand I love
Speaker 5: them and love back or love properly. I don't think
Speaker 5: people don't love back, they just don't love properly.
Speaker 2: Did that work? And what made you?
Speaker 4: Never?
Speaker 2: Ever? Has that ever worked?
Speaker 4: Never has that ever work? I think that.
Speaker 5: My mother taught me how to love. She didn't teach
Speaker 5: me how to love myself. Life taught me how to
Speaker 5: love myself, you know what I mean?
Speaker 2: I think I think a lot of mothers, a lot
Speaker 2: of our mothers don't haven't experience loving themselves, and so
Speaker 2: sometimes you can't teach what you don't know. And I
Speaker 2: think we are hopefully in an error where that is
Speaker 2: more prominent and we're learning to do that and like
Speaker 2: changing the cycle. What caused you to start loving yourself?
Speaker 4: I think that I always did love myself. I'm a sattariust.
Speaker 5: That kind of comes with territory. So I always did
Speaker 5: love myself. But once again, it's the properly part.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 4: What is it? About seven or eight, maybe ten years.
Speaker 5: Ago, I was in a relationship with this guy and
Speaker 5: I went through some crazy shit and he didn't really.
Speaker 4: He didn't really.
Speaker 5: Stand up like he was supposed to, you know. And
Speaker 5: here I'll just keep a g I'll say it. I
Speaker 5: got pregnant at what forty or something like that, and
Speaker 5: my sons are twenty, My sons are twenty. I'm pregnant
Speaker 5: at forty for a man that is kind of similar
Speaker 5: to same sun Shigne as the one that I had
Speaker 5: kids with twenty years ago.
Speaker 3: You know that, I'm curious.
Speaker 4: I love y'all, y'all my good friend. I love all
Speaker 4: of you, particular for the men libres libras.
Speaker 5: And they're not bad people. They just make bad choices sometimes.
Speaker 5: But you know, I'm here, I'm pregnant again. And he
Speaker 5: handled it like a little kid, you know, and I
Speaker 5: was already like, what the fucking I? Once again, I
Speaker 5: didn't get an abortion first time. I wasn't gonna do
Speaker 5: it the second time, but god, I ended up having
Speaker 5: a miscarriage at rehearsal in the UK, like, you know,
Speaker 5: just everything just and I.
Speaker 2: Was really grateful.
Speaker 5: I mean God's speak, that's horrible because I know people
Speaker 5: want to have babies, but I was very grateful because
Speaker 5: I didn't want to have that kid. But the way
Speaker 5: I felt from the time that I found out to
Speaker 5: the time.
Speaker 4: That it went away.
Speaker 5: I had to call my twenty year old sons and
Speaker 5: tell them that I was pregnant.
Speaker 3: Even know how they take that.
Speaker 5: Oh, they were like, oh, you're gonna be a great mom.
Speaker 5: Great when you were a kid. Look what you did
Speaker 5: with us, She's gonna do great. Right, They were like,
Speaker 5: you're gonna be fine, don't worry about and.
Speaker 4: We're gonna help you.
Speaker 2: You're gonna be It makes me want to cry.
Speaker 5: I'm about to cry too, because then when it I
Speaker 5: told him I had I had a miscarriage, my son
Speaker 5: Todge was like, that's so good for you because you
Speaker 5: spent all your life raising up and you know you
Speaker 5: deserve to go out and do your thing, you know.
Speaker 5: But yeah, and that really it more than he affected me.
Speaker 5: How I didn't care for myself to have myself in
Speaker 5: that situation, not get ain't pregnant, that's not the part.
Speaker 4: But for this person, do you understand what I'm saying?
Speaker 5: This person? That you didn't feel safe with this person?
Speaker 5: So how you're gonna bring a child into the world?
Speaker 5: Why would you put yourself in this position? It made
Speaker 5: me feel so low about myself that I had to
Speaker 5: really focus on the great things about me and learn
Speaker 5: more about why I was there and pull myself.
Speaker 4: Out of that. And then I started to really love
Speaker 4: myself properly, like.
Speaker 5: I'm unfuckuiable now because I don't give a fuck. You
Speaker 5: cannot tell me that I'm not the baddest of the
Speaker 5: baddest bitches.
Speaker 4: And I'm not talking about the looks or anything like that.
Speaker 2: I'm loved.
Speaker 5: God loves me, My family loves me, My children love me.
Speaker 5: People I don't fucking know love me.
Speaker 4: Do you understand what I'm saying?
Speaker 5: So love is a thing for me, and I'm okay
Speaker 5: with that now, And I think it's rooted in the
Speaker 5: fact that I love myself enough to not be loved
Speaker 5: by others.
Speaker 4: If you don't want to, it's okay. I got enough.
Speaker 2: That is That is such a statement because I think
Speaker 2: a lot of a lot of times the epiphany comes
Speaker 2: when you are for women, because I think women die
Speaker 2: on this hill of relationships. Yeah, I see so many smart,
Speaker 2: talented women like poor into men that are not worthy,
Speaker 2: and it fucks up their whole trajectory. Like I've seen
Speaker 2: my mom do that. I've seen just so many women
Speaker 2: just put themselves second to love or to a relationship.
Speaker 2: And I think sometimes that turning point is sometimes when
Speaker 2: you're like, how the fuck do I love myself if
Speaker 2: I'm fucking with you? You know exactly. There's always a pivotal moment,
Speaker 2: hopefully when you're in a fucked up relationship and you
Speaker 2: have to be real with yourself, because I think it's
Speaker 2: also not cool to be like, I'm not loving myself properly.
Speaker 2: It's not popular. It's not like I'm a bad bitch,
Speaker 2: you know, Dad, I love myself. But when you realize
Speaker 2: like that is a fucking lie, because if I'm fucking
Speaker 2: with you, I'm laying with you on money, you come
Speaker 2: near me, come in me, then how the fuck is
Speaker 2: that possible? So I think that's always like if you
Speaker 2: can have the introspect to ask yourself, is the relationship
Speaker 2: I'm in validate the way that I love myself. Then
Speaker 2: you can have clarity around if you're loving yourself properly.
Speaker 2: But what a beautiful blessing that you created two men
Speaker 2: that supported you.
Speaker 4: That are married.
Speaker 5: They're both married and their wives tell me all the
Speaker 5: time he did such a good job, my biggest fucking
Speaker 5: you know what I'm saying, because I wasn't trying to
Speaker 5: contribute to the world that type of man that would
Speaker 5: make a woman feel like how I've been made to feel.
Speaker 4: And let's be clear. I want to make it clear because.
Speaker 5: I don't want to make anybody think I'm a down
Speaker 5: trodden bitch because I'm not what I accept as not
Speaker 5: being treated well might be good for somebody else.
Speaker 2: What do you call it? A down? What bitch?
Speaker 4: Down trodden?
Speaker 2: Down?
Speaker 5: Like just like you know, lowly and just let people
Speaker 5: stump on them and ship.
Speaker 4: That's not That's not my thing.
Speaker 5: And so when I say I've been you know that situation,
Speaker 5: I wasn't. It just wasn't what I wanted it to be,
Speaker 5: you know what I mean.
Speaker 4: But it's not.
Speaker 5: He didn't treat me bad bad back in that situation.
Speaker 5: He didn't step up like I thought he should. But
Speaker 5: I think a lot of times women that.
Speaker 4: That grow up with mothers that have bad relationships.
Speaker 5: Your criteria can give come a little bit loyal Lord,
Speaker 5: Because with my children's father, if we got to argument
Speaker 5: and he called me a bitch, I didn't think twice
Speaker 5: about it because my father beat my mom. So that's better, right,
Speaker 5: just be called the bitch, you know, so I would
Speaker 5: like to point that out. I'm not down trodden, but
Speaker 5: I did get to a place that I needed to be.
Speaker 4: I thank God for that.
Speaker 1: Man.
Speaker 4: We're friends now, we're super cool. He just brought me
Speaker 4: some dining room chairs.
Speaker 2: That's lovely.
Speaker 4: We're friends now.
Speaker 3: We cool.
Speaker 4: We just became friends like two days.
Speaker 2: Ago, but we cool.
Speaker 5: We got past it and he said his piece about
Speaker 5: you know, I'm big on that.
Speaker 4: Sorry's a big deal to me.
Speaker 5: He sent his piece on how we got there and
Speaker 5: how he felt, and we worked it out and we're
Speaker 5: cool now.
Speaker 4: And back to my sons though, Yeah, they are with
Speaker 4: wives that love.
Speaker 5: Them very much, and I'm very proud of them, and
Speaker 5: I feel very blessed that there. If I never have
Speaker 5: what I deem to be this great love, if they
Speaker 5: get it, I'm good with that.
Speaker 4: I really am, you know.
Speaker 2: I think it's also really important that you speak the truth.
Speaker 2: And like I think sometimes when people make, you know,
Speaker 2: have conversations about shit like this, and they think it's, oh,
Speaker 2: you're down trout and bitch, I'm rathi. I have to
Speaker 2: use that now. Yes, a lot of strong bitches, successful
Speaker 2: smart strong bitches being down trouten relationships they do one
Speaker 2: thing does not mean the other, like I think a
Speaker 2: lot of times, and then women who are in powerful positions,
Speaker 2: who consider themselves smart or confident, are embarrassed or shamed
Speaker 2: about talking publicly about being in fucked up relationships because
Speaker 2: they're like, they don't want to be seen in a
Speaker 2: certain way. So I think it's powerful and important that
Speaker 2: you say these things because even the smartest, confidentness, baddest
Speaker 2: bitch can be in a fucked up relationship because love
Speaker 2: can have you fucked up. So I think it's important that,
Speaker 2: you know, we remove the shame out of making bad
Speaker 2: relationship decisions, because we've all done it, you know.
Speaker 4: Because we all just want love. We do. But then
Speaker 4: when we start to when it clicked to.
Speaker 5: Me, like I've been all this time looking for something
Speaker 5: that's right here, I've been everywhere looking for this shit
Speaker 5: that's right here and I'm full of it. And so
Speaker 5: I start to first tap into my son's love me
Speaker 5: so much. Then I start to tap into my sisters
Speaker 5: and my brother loved me so much, my best friend
Speaker 5: loves me so much.
Speaker 4: And then it got back around to like you love you.
Speaker 5: But I kind of put aside being a young mom,
Speaker 5: single mom. The entire time, I didn't really date much
Speaker 5: because I had to take care of my kids and
Speaker 5: get some money.
Speaker 4: And if you weren't coming over here with more than
Speaker 4: some good dick, I'm good. I could see you like
Speaker 4: every three months then be straight. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 4: If that you know. So, I didn't really date.
Speaker 5: So when I got to this point where I'm looking
Speaker 5: at me now loving myself, I'm like, wow, I was searching.
Speaker 5: I wanted, I was longing, not even searching, longing for
Speaker 5: this love that was right here the entire time. Now,
Speaker 5: the other side of loving yourself is you might gotta
Speaker 5: be alone for a low while. You might because you
Speaker 5: got criteria. That's like off, it's out of there. Now
Speaker 5: you love yourself now, like, I'm not looking for crumbs
Speaker 5: at all, absolutely not.
Speaker 4: I want the whole big. I want the big whammy.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I always say desperation. Desperation attract spottom feeders.
Speaker 3: Yes, I'm curious that what is like as you speak
Speaker 3: about love? And also I'm thinking of your song that
Speaker 3: I love so much, and I'm thinking about how that
Speaker 3: song that you have, you know that we all know,
Speaker 3: could be turned into like yourself right. But I'm curious,
Speaker 3: now what does love look like for you? Like what
Speaker 3: is your definition of not self love, but like romantic love,
Speaker 3: romantic love life?
Speaker 5: You know, first thing first, I want to love a
Speaker 5: man that loves himself so he doesn't rely on my
Speaker 5: love in a needy way. Some people want to be needed,
Speaker 5: you know. I just want you to want me enough.
Speaker 4: That's it.
Speaker 5: Like I don't I don't like obligations, you know what
Speaker 5: I mean. So romantic life for me is just fun.
Speaker 5: I'm fifty fucking years old. I'm not looking to marry
Speaker 5: you or have children. Maybe I could use a pop
Speaker 5: off for my grandkids when they come, you know what
Speaker 5: I mean, something like that. But it's a good time
Speaker 5: for me. It's like we are choosing this. We are
Speaker 5: not young people that feel like we need we need this.
Speaker 5: This is a part of what you need in life. No,
Speaker 5: we are choosing this. We've made it to this point, successful,
Speaker 5: comfortable with ourselves. Now let's just have a good time.
Speaker 3: You know what.
Speaker 5: The perfect example, and I wish I wrote this song.
Speaker 5: The perfect example of what I want my romantic life
Speaker 5: to look like now is Olivia Dean's.
Speaker 4: Nice to each other. That's it.
Speaker 5: We can be nice to each other, good for each other,
Speaker 5: wrong for each other. We could just be here being
Speaker 5: good together. We don't have to like, you know, you
Speaker 5: can't fuck with nobody else. Got to just be me.
Speaker 5: And that's my ego. My ego couldn't handle.
Speaker 3: It's no sharing.
Speaker 4: No, it's no sharing. I'm not into that.
Speaker 5: But we can be good like if you have to
Speaker 5: be there, you know, we can just communicate and stimulate
Speaker 5: one another.
Speaker 4: It's just be good.
Speaker 5: I don't want stressed. My life is super good. So
Speaker 5: if you come over here, let's have a good time.
Speaker 4: That's all.
Speaker 5: I just want a good time. Good sexist is imperative,
Speaker 5: you know what I mean. Good commis station stimulate my mind.
Speaker 5: I'll try to stimulate yours. When you need time away,
Speaker 5: just tell me I need time away.
Speaker 4: I'll tell you. Never want to live with nobody.
Speaker 3: I was gonna ask you that next ever, No, you can't.
Speaker 5: Even live down the street for me. No, because I
Speaker 5: want time alone. I've been alone a long time, right,
Speaker 5: And people say, teacher, but when you fall in love,
Speaker 5: But no, this is who I am. You're talking to
Speaker 5: a grown woman. I know who I am. I need time.
Speaker 5: I like to miss people. I live away from my family,
Speaker 5: who I love more than I love anybody.
Speaker 4: I like to miss people.
Speaker 5: So at this point, I would love for you to
Speaker 5: live like me and Miami, You in New York, you
Speaker 5: know what I mean, California or somebody.
Speaker 4: Like I travel. I go anywhere.
Speaker 5: Flights take you wherever you want to go. He could
Speaker 5: live in Indonesia. I'll just go stay Indonesia for a year.
Speaker 5: And they're like, maybe I gotta go and I'll come
Speaker 5: back and you can come stay with me.
Speaker 4: But I don't want to.
Speaker 5: I guess when I break it all down, for everything
Speaker 5: I've said, I want us to want to be together.
Speaker 5: I want us to choose it every single day. I
Speaker 5: don't want to be your obligation. I don't want you
Speaker 5: to be my obligation.
Speaker 3: Is there any physical that is a requirement for you?
Speaker 3: Do you have a type I don't.
Speaker 4: It's horrible. I wish I could figure out how that works.
Speaker 4: But I think the type is part. It's not physical.
Speaker 5: First of all, I'm a person that I don't like
Speaker 5: big guys because that makes me think you don't take
Speaker 5: care of yourself, and loving yourself is very important to me.
Speaker 5: If you don't, like if you're a big guy and
Speaker 5: you're like muscular, or you like work out and kind
Speaker 5: of keep it together. Cool, But someone that just kind
Speaker 5: of lets themself go, even if you're a small guy,
Speaker 5: you just don't take care of yourself.
Speaker 4: That's that's not cool to me. That's that doesn't work
Speaker 4: for me.
Speaker 5: But I don't deal in the physical as much because
Speaker 5: I like a guy that looks tall and handsome and stuff,
Speaker 5: you know, But if you open your mouth and you
Speaker 5: sound ridiculous, that goes w w wam you know, And
Speaker 5: I will date a guy is my height if he's
Speaker 5: just if he stimulates me enough.
Speaker 4: I don't really have a type.
Speaker 5: I like nice eyes and teeth. I guess that's would
Speaker 5: be the one thing, because I have to look at.
Speaker 2: Your face teeth.
Speaker 3: Would you date someone in the same industry as you?
Speaker 5: I mean, I don't have a problem with that, not
Speaker 5: at all. I mean I think we get a bad rap. Fuck,
Speaker 5: we all crazy. You might as well date each other
Speaker 5: because we're fucking crazy.
Speaker 4: We shouldn't do that to other people. We really shouldn't.
Speaker 4: We're nuts.
Speaker 3: Well, I would love to play a game with you
Speaker 3: that we like to play on our show called Trigger.
Speaker 3: But before we do, I think we should light this blunt.
Speaker 2: I put some energy to ours.
Speaker 3: We are already thirty three minutes in and we ain't
Speaker 3: even I.
Speaker 2: I was trying to expare us from like getting too
Speaker 2: high too soon. So we've established our intelligence. Now we'll
Speaker 2: just smoke, because you know what happens if we spoke
Speaker 2: too soon. So this is for the love that's long
Speaker 2: distance but present and committed and fun and pleasurable, well
Speaker 2: endowed and can put it down in the bedroom. This
Speaker 2: is for the love of for just for health, and
Speaker 2: for finances that may we never have to work very
Speaker 2: hard to be taken care of in the highest luxury. Lord,
Speaker 2: just put all of that into this wonderful flower that
Speaker 2: you've created and blessed us with, And for all of
Speaker 2: our listeners, I pray that for you too, and.
Speaker 4: Good conception of a beautiful baby that you're.
Speaker 2: Gonna have, Oh, thank you, healthy, beautiful, easeful home birth
Speaker 2: and baby and a very patient, filled easy baby that
Speaker 2: doesn't need a lot and doesn't cry too much and
Speaker 2: knows his mother.
Speaker 3: Amen. So the game is called trigger, and it goes
Speaker 3: a little something like this. I'm gonna say a word,
Speaker 3: and then you're gonna say the first thing that comes
Speaker 3: to mind. Alright, don't overthink it, I won't. Okay, would
Speaker 3: you like to hit this first.
Speaker 5: We're gonna grow when you and when it gets to me,
Speaker 5: we're gonna we're gonna keep it in proper rotation.
Speaker 3: Okay, all right, here we go. We are triggering mis teacher, Moses, y'all,
Speaker 3: bad habits, the man. I've loved marriage, never religion.
Speaker 4: I don't do that.
Speaker 3: New Orleans home nas the best. Wait you wrote that
Speaker 3: song about him? Right?
Speaker 4: Yes?
Speaker 3: I did? Okay, last time you had sex?
Speaker 4: Too long ago?
Speaker 3: What's long?
Speaker 2: Ago?
Speaker 4: Long long? I'm not gonna tell nobody my business like
Speaker 4: that long?
Speaker 5: No, really really like nobody could do what I do,
Speaker 5: like wait that long or wait that long?
Speaker 4: Because okay, So like very briefly, I'll tell.
Speaker 5: You I don't smoke bad weed. I only smoke premium weed. Right,
Speaker 5: I don't eat bad food. You're never gonna see me
Speaker 5: in the line of no damn McDonald's. I don't eat
Speaker 5: like that, you know what I mean. I wear clothes
Speaker 5: that feel good on my body, and you see what I'm saying.
Speaker 5: I'd be around people that are the top notch people.
Speaker 5: I'm not fucking somebody just to be fucking. We're gonna
Speaker 5: do this and it's gonna be good and it's gonna
Speaker 5: feel built good to every.
Speaker 4: Part of my being, or we're not doing this.
Speaker 5: And so if I don't come across that, I really
Speaker 5: am not interested in having sex. I'm not one of
Speaker 5: those people that get drunk enough to have sex. If
Speaker 5: I don't want to fuck you sober, I do not
Speaker 5: want to fuck you drunk.
Speaker 4: You would have to rake me. Oh Jesus, I'm serious.
Speaker 5: This is the truth. I'm just not that kind of person.
Speaker 5: I do not want anything that's not.
Speaker 4: Of the quality that I want. I rather starve, and
Speaker 4: I've been starving.
Speaker 2: Baby luxury dick only I've been luxury dick. I've been
Speaker 2: starving organic, organic, luxury, locally grown.
Speaker 4: Want to starve, I don't either. So let's make a
Speaker 4: p S a. It's not my fault.
Speaker 5: But don't come into d MS if you got there's
Speaker 5: a lot of men.
Speaker 2: There's a lot of men that don't.
Speaker 4: Don't pop for mediocre. I puts it on pop for nonchalance.
Speaker 4: It just doesn't puss.
Speaker 2: It is not here for mediocre and anything.
Speaker 3: Okay, Well, favorite porn category probably, Uh, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 5: You watch I have, I have, but I'm trying to
Speaker 5: think of I don't. I don't think i'm watch enough.
Speaker 3: To know a cate.
Speaker 2: I guess that's what it is.
Speaker 4: Whatever, let's get this thing off. It's only necessity. It's like,
Speaker 4: that's not a something I.
Speaker 2: Just do to just be doing.
Speaker 3: You know, white men they're nice, Would you date them? No? Okay,
Speaker 3: so that's you do have a preference.
Speaker 4: Okay, all right, black men in my preference?
Speaker 3: Then would you date like a Latino or like mhm?
Speaker 2: Okay?
Speaker 5: Because there are black latin there's black perto Ricans, Black Panamanians. Yeah,
Speaker 5: there's black Asians. I'll date anybody if you black, you
Speaker 5: we can relate.
Speaker 4: That's all. It's nothing against anybody else. It's just I
Speaker 4: need to relate. That's all. I feel safer when I
Speaker 4: can relate, and I.
Speaker 2: Feel like the black experience is specific.
Speaker 3: It is.
Speaker 4: It is because I can't be ambiguous.
Speaker 5: You know exactly who I am, so I get I
Speaker 5: walk through the world as a black woman. So you
Speaker 5: have to have some kind of relation to that.
Speaker 4: For me to really kill it.
Speaker 2: All right, girl, get it in one moment in hell
Speaker 2: that backward as soon as it hits you got high.
Speaker 3: Wait, you see my trick, You see my circles.
Speaker 2: Ready every four to twenty you must show her trick.
Speaker 4: That is so good? Is this a tongue thing that
Speaker 4: makes that happen?
Speaker 2: Put the hole in the middle.
Speaker 4: Oh, they just still got it?
Speaker 3: Okay, clearly anyway, here you go.
Speaker 4: It makes me think that you're good at a lot
Speaker 4: of things.
Speaker 3: I am a strong tongue, red at my mouth.
Speaker 5: I have to be careful with this because you know
Speaker 5: y'all have this. This thing has a bite on it.
Speaker 2: It does just ease into it because have this interview.
Speaker 2: I hope you've got a lot to do.
Speaker 4: Girl. I smoked down.
Speaker 5: I smoke down like I smokes amounts of weed.
Speaker 3: Like daily do you wake up to smoke?
Speaker 4: I wake and bake every morning.
Speaker 5: I thank God and I and I thank him for
Speaker 5: the week, just like we just did.
Speaker 3: And deal breaker.
Speaker 4: If you don't take care of your children.
Speaker 3: Mm hmm. Cannabis indica all the time.
Speaker 2: All that slumped me out, Baby, I can move through it.
Speaker 4: I can function through the day being fucked up. I can't.
Speaker 2: I mean New Orleans people are I can't.
Speaker 3: Well. You know what, though, My stepdaddy's weed that I'm
Speaker 3: rationing right now is.
Speaker 4: An indicated that's so funy.
Speaker 2: The weed I got from this little zip blog is
Speaker 2: from my dad too, But all the daddy doesn't daddy blends.
Speaker 2: This is a daddy blend.
Speaker 3: Shout out to Rory. Uh he grew and Miles, he
Speaker 3: grew this weed and it's an indicat Normally I'm not,
Speaker 3: I like, I can do it. Yeah, but it's a
Speaker 3: good like. I'm telling you his indicas are. They don't
Speaker 3: make me slump. They make me relaxed. And then it's
Speaker 3: not the longest high. But I like that. You need
Speaker 3: to be beyond high. I'll just smoke again.
Speaker 4: I don't even know I'm high when I'm smoking to like,
Speaker 4: Am I high? Am I high? I don't know, Teva.
Speaker 3: It's good for me to create sometimes, but it makes
Speaker 3: me a little too like like two space. Yeah yeah,
Speaker 3: hybrid is my is my perfect, my perfect happy place.
Speaker 4: I can see that.
Speaker 3: Mushrooms in small doses micro micro micro. You never gone
Speaker 3: on a hero's journey.
Speaker 5: No, I don't want to go nowhere. I might not
Speaker 5: come back from.
Speaker 2: You always come back.
Speaker 4: I don't come back.
Speaker 2: You don't come.
Speaker 3: Actually don't go anywhere. You actually stay here, and you're
Speaker 3: actually like the most here, your most connected self.
Speaker 4: I think I might be low key.
Speaker 5: Control freak a little bit with myself, not everything else.
Speaker 5: Like I like being in control. I like I don't
Speaker 5: like to be in anything where I can't just snap out.
Speaker 4: That's what I love about weed. I can. You can
Speaker 4: blow this high real quick and I can just get
Speaker 4: it right together. Let a cop pull up behind me.
Speaker 4: You know what I mean. I never smoked. I'm just alle.
Speaker 4: But mushrooms is different.
Speaker 5: You in that world, baby, Oh yeah, you gotta swim yours.
Speaker 2: Oh baby baby, we've swimmed our way out of some
Speaker 2: places high.
Speaker 4: You guys have to do it with me.
Speaker 5: I'm happy you said that, because to do it in
Speaker 5: a safe space.
Speaker 2: I literally was saying you should do mushrooms with us,
Speaker 2: and you guys have heard my thoughts. I was like,
Speaker 2: you needed mushrooms.
Speaker 3: With us, so we we have. I don't know if
Speaker 3: you know or we saw that we do women's retreats.
Speaker 3: I'm high. I'm like talking like this. We do women's retreats,
Speaker 3: and at our retreats, we typically have plant medicine. Okay, mushrooms,
Speaker 3: and we have a ceremonial circle. And it's so different
Speaker 3: than like just taking mushrooms and fending for yourself.
Speaker 4: Okay, so you invite me to one.
Speaker 2: So come on, I'm to Costa Rica.
Speaker 3: Have you been to Costa Rica?
Speaker 4: I have never. Oh, yeah, I'm going to show up.
Speaker 3: Favorite sex position.
Speaker 4: Favorite sexual position would probably be.
Speaker 5: I'm torn between top and uh riding on top and
Speaker 5: missionary because I really love a good.
Speaker 4: Face to face.
Speaker 3: I think riding is my favorite.
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's more powerful. You feel more powerful?
Speaker 3: Yeah, I feel because I feel like I've I've mastered
Speaker 3: the lazy ride too, because sometimes writing is also.
Speaker 2: A lot of work commitment.
Speaker 5: When I was younger, I liked writing because I'm from
Speaker 5: New Orleans. What does that mean, pus?
Speaker 4: We grew up, you know what I mean?
Speaker 5: To the point that one time is wait, hold on
Speaker 5: he didn't know what to do. Yeah, real, it's it's different.
Speaker 2: Wait, I have a question for the I know we're
Speaker 2: in a trigger I'm high. Do you guys when you ride,
Speaker 2: do you do you a company with a vibrator?
Speaker 4: Sometimes I haven't.
Speaker 3: I like, I like vibrators more when it's from behind,
Speaker 3: that's kind of okay. Yeah, it's like full access and
Speaker 3: there's like, yeah, riding the front.
Speaker 2: It's a little hard like I was just it was
Speaker 2: not a long one like this one's shaped and he
Speaker 2: was doing it. Yea.
Speaker 5: I don't like to be if I'm doing this part,
Speaker 5: like use your fingers like.
Speaker 4: It's we need you involved.
Speaker 5: I'm not just doing this by myself when I'm on
Speaker 5: top or bottom or whatever. All times clatorial clatorial stimulation
Speaker 5: is important, so you have to use all your things.
Speaker 4: I'm not about to sit here and stimulate my own clitorist.
Speaker 2: Nigga, that's late.
Speaker 3: No no no, no, no, no no no. If he don't try,
Speaker 3: and then what the fuck are we doing? But but
Speaker 3: what also frusht frustrates me though, is when I do
Speaker 3: give a man a vibrator, my man a vibrator, and
Speaker 3: he's not getting it on the spot. And then I'm
Speaker 3: just like, just stop, just give it to me, like
Speaker 3: and now we're just because because it would be hard.
Speaker 3: It's hard to know me. You know, it's not really hard,
Speaker 3: but like, especially when you're getting fucked and trying it,
Speaker 3: it's a lot. Just sometimes I do prefer to take
Speaker 3: control with the vibrating situation. I know where they I
Speaker 3: know where this needs to go. You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: Sorry, I got really pressing options.
Speaker 4: I've learned something.
Speaker 3: Uh, therapy.
Speaker 5: I'm glad people go to therapy, but people not you.
Speaker 5: I've never been to therapy.
Speaker 3: No where'd you go?
Speaker 5: If I had to go with somebody else, I wouldn't
Speaker 5: just go myself. And I'm not against it.
Speaker 3: It's just.
Speaker 5: I have so many people to talk to I do,
Speaker 5: and I do it. I talk to my best friend,
Speaker 5: I talk to my sisters and we like really talk.
Speaker 4: Well.
Speaker 5: I'm not hiding myself from them now. Do they have
Speaker 5: professional advice?
Speaker 4: No?
Speaker 5: But if I ever felt like it was like something
Speaker 5: blocking in me, I would go. But right now, I'm good,
Speaker 5: That's all. I don't knock it at all, though. I
Speaker 5: think people should go to therapy that feel the need.
Speaker 2: To have You ever been a therapy or somebody else.
Speaker 5: No, but I would like if my kids was like
Speaker 5: my mother, let's go to therapy, because I feel like
Speaker 5: blah blah blah, like Ohn, let's go.
Speaker 4: You know what I mean. I'm taking everything the person
Speaker 4: says whatever. Or if I ever just was bored, like
Speaker 4: see what the fuck this is all about?
Speaker 3: Side?
Speaker 4: You know everybody like you need a therapist. You need
Speaker 4: a therapist, y'all know what. I was born in nineteen
Speaker 4: seventy five. You guys, come on, give me a break.
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, And give me a ninety
Speaker 2: seventy five y'all.
Speaker 1: I was.
Speaker 5: It's like, you know, we couldn't afford. Black people don't
Speaker 5: even know nothing about that. But I think it's a
Speaker 5: beautiful thing that we do. I love when especially men,
Speaker 5: because they don't have what we have. They don't have
Speaker 5: people to talk to. I can sit on a phone
Speaker 5: and cry with my friend and get it out and
Speaker 5: get to the root to it and everything, and I'm good.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I know it's true.
Speaker 4: One of the things about me too as well.
Speaker 5: I'm always working to be a better person, not for
Speaker 5: you niggas, for me. You know, I want to be
Speaker 5: a better person. I want to love better. I want
Speaker 5: to be better to my neighbor. I do believe that
Speaker 5: that's very, very important. I don't believe in religion like that,
Speaker 5: but I believe that God wants us to be good
Speaker 5: to each other. I believe in the If there is
Speaker 5: a religion, I believe, and I just believe in the
Speaker 5: religion of love. And I think in order for you
Speaker 5: to be good at loving, you have to be a
Speaker 5: better person. So I'm willing to go if y'all say, teacher,
Speaker 5: I think you should try this person, I go talk.
Speaker 4: To the bitch. Okay, have friends, y'all tell me stuff
Speaker 4: that they're uh that their therapist. So I'm like, you
Speaker 4: should fire that bitch.
Speaker 2: I mean, not all therapists are good. And then if
Speaker 2: they're they're people, they're people, fly people. It's like everybody else.
Speaker 4: And I mean, but they're helpful.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it would be hard. Therapist is hard. Shout out
Speaker 3: to therapist.
Speaker 6: Shout out to the therapist because they're going.
Speaker 3: I think their health is such a high standard too.
Speaker 3: And like, so when a therapist sucks up, it's like, bitch,
Speaker 3: imagine being a therapist and like falling off the deep end, like.
Speaker 2: I mean that happens probably more often than you so much.
Speaker 3: I know, I know, but yeah, God, bless God bless
Speaker 3: the love language.
Speaker 5: Understanding, and I don't even know if that's a love
Speaker 5: take the time to understand me. I'm gonna try to
Speaker 5: understand you. I'm gonna really take the time to understand you. Yeah,
Speaker 5: I would like that back birth birth.
Speaker 3: But see Bobby eating pussy min.
Speaker 5: Anal, no going up my ass now, No, I'm very
Speaker 5: not into that because I'm too into you being into me.
Speaker 2: Oh, if it's two men, though, I maybe highly recommend.
Speaker 4: I probably I'm so prudish. I'm not prudis, But I'm
Speaker 4: just like, what if I had one as one in
Speaker 4: the mouth.
Speaker 2: We'll really tell him no.
Speaker 5: But I just I don't do anything really honestly that
Speaker 5: if somebody found out, I would feel ashamed about.
Speaker 4: I swear to god, I don't do anything like But if.
Speaker 2: You wanted, do you think that what if you enjoyed it, if.
Speaker 4: My children found out, I would feeling ashamed.
Speaker 3: I think that if you and if you had that
Speaker 3: experience and you enjoyed it so much, it would shift
Speaker 3: something in your mind where you actually wouldn't really give
Speaker 3: a fuck. You'd be like yeah, he's like no, no,
Speaker 3: you can't help it.
Speaker 4: I think about it, be like.
Speaker 5: Your mother, I know, but like and you know, to
Speaker 5: be honest, I think it's okay for me to have
Speaker 5: things that's like okay, yeah that could possibly happen that
Speaker 5: don't happen. I just like, like, can we start with
Speaker 5: some good one on one sex.
Speaker 3: We just need to We just need to get one
Speaker 3: luxury dick. Let's start with one okay.
Speaker 2: Oh my god?
Speaker 3: Well motherhood.
Speaker 2: You hear that she would never.
Speaker 3: Afterlife now death, we don't die, pet peeves, white bitches
Speaker 3: that be crying to try to use it.
Speaker 4: Like a weapon.
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, idol.
Speaker 5: My mama icon mm hmmm, I will be one day.
Speaker 5: Bad choices come in here, bitch y'all got to talking
Speaker 5: about three ship.
Speaker 2: This is a good shot. Welcome to the did well
Speaker 2: you have survived? I did survived? Wa wa?
Speaker 4: Wanted a fucking mouth?
Speaker 3: What it is?
Speaker 4: Okay?
Speaker 3: Drink some water too?
Speaker 2: Oh wait one second, fix your mic?
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Please God damn.
Speaker 1: Me.
Speaker 3: There's been Podcasting is a billion dollar industry.
Speaker 2: And I know this is terrible?
Speaker 1: Is it?
Speaker 3: We need more research?
Speaker 2: Do we need to inventive utter. What I know is
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Speaker 4: What's going on?
Speaker 3: Cut this out?
Speaker 2: I did already put the time mark. I'm not kidding.
Speaker 3: I'm really David.
Speaker 2: Right now, we're retiring from podcasting, guys.
Speaker 3: Oh my god. Okay, So, and now that I'm nice
Speaker 3: and high, I have a question about your creative process
Speaker 3: as an artist. I know you've written for a lot
Speaker 3: of iconic people like Raphael Sadik. You actually work with
Speaker 3: a friend of mine who I used to work with.
Speaker 3: I was a personal assistant for many years, Macy Gray.
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I loved her so she was also
Speaker 5: one of my favorite people.
Speaker 4: To work with.
Speaker 3: She was on the show and I worked I was
Speaker 3: her personal system for like three years from like nineteen
Speaker 3: to twenty two. She took me all over the fucking
Speaker 3: world Like it was like the most incredible experience. And
Speaker 3: she's nuts, and I fucking love her and being inside
Speaker 3: of her creative process was so cool too. But I'm
Speaker 3: curious about yours, Like when you write a song or
Speaker 3: you like you're sitting down to write, like is smoking
Speaker 3: part of the process.
Speaker 4: Absolutely absolutely? And I like to be alone and I'm
Speaker 4: not a good collaborator.
Speaker 5: At gate because I need to get my thoughts out
Speaker 5: by myself. And then once I get my thoughts out,
Speaker 5: I can now start to hear what you have to say,
Speaker 5: but it'll it'll just cloud everything that might want to
Speaker 5: come out if you start saying shit to me. So
Speaker 5: I like to be by myself when I'm writing, when
Speaker 5: I'm starting to.
Speaker 4: To record, I like all the lights off.
Speaker 5: I'm not one of those like the young people now
Speaker 5: they put the thing in there, they put the mic
Speaker 5: in the in the control room, and they say, no,
Speaker 5: I'm old school.
Speaker 4: Put because I'm kind of shy. I really don't want
Speaker 4: you to look at me. It is extremely vulnerable to
Speaker 4: me to create. Maybe it's not. I will say, this
Speaker 4: is creating, creating.
Speaker 3: Having your pussy open exactly. That's what I was Literally, it's.
Speaker 5: Like sex to me. I don't I can't just have
Speaker 5: sex with anybody, you know. I'm not that kind of person.
Speaker 5: So I need time to like figure out what I'm
Speaker 5: doing first, and then we can come in here and collect.
Speaker 4: And I have to feel safe with you.
Speaker 5: I've been in rooms with people that are brilliant and
Speaker 5: great and Grammys and all the things, but I just
Speaker 5: didn't feel comfortable and nothing came out, and they might
Speaker 5: walk away from that thinking that I'm not as dope
Speaker 5: as I am.
Speaker 4: No, really you're not, because you didn't make me feel like.
Speaker 5: I need to come out. So my process is really
Speaker 5: like intimate me by myself. I'm not like burning candles
Speaker 5: and shit like that, but I just need some smoke
Speaker 5: and I need a space to get to by myself.
Speaker 4: That's the smaller the better. I write in my car
Speaker 4: a lot.
Speaker 5: You know, I look in the mirror when I'm at
Speaker 5: home because I love mirrors. I have mirrors all over
Speaker 5: my house because I just love looking at myself.
Speaker 4: But I look at the mirror a lot.
Speaker 5: I stand like dead in front of the mirror, and
Speaker 5: I just sing to myself, looking in my eyes, and
Speaker 5: then kind of like convincing myself for the lyrics because
Speaker 5: I don't write them. I sing them over and over
Speaker 5: and over and over again.
Speaker 2: Util they stick.
Speaker 3: Oh you don't write, you don't write.
Speaker 4: No, because what the fuck I'm gonna be like? And then.
Speaker 5: But I do need to start using my voice, and
Speaker 5: I do sometimes more because I get high and it's
Speaker 5: and I didn't write me girl, and I don't have
Speaker 5: the discipline to say I'm gonna call you right right back.
Speaker 5: You know, I end up in a conversation song gone,
Speaker 5: that's happened a million times.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, that's so interesting like that you say that
Speaker 3: because I think sometimes too, like talking into I think
Speaker 3: that's why, like what we've created and talking like having
Speaker 3: like something recorded that you can come back to, even
Speaker 3: pulling out your phone and just being like I'm gonna
Speaker 3: I'm gonna just sing this in here so I don't
Speaker 3: forget and get high. I think too, Like when you're
Speaker 3: talking about your process of needing small spaces and needing
Speaker 3: to be alone, I think about my process with Jamila,
Speaker 3: because we're you know, we're creators together. We have our
Speaker 3: own entity, and like the way that we collaborate is
Speaker 3: so intuitive, like it's just a conversation. It just kind
Speaker 3: of builds we should do this. Oh yeah, then we
Speaker 3: could do that. Actually, hold out, let me look that
Speaker 3: up real quick, and like, oh, how can we do that? Oh?
Speaker 3: This is cute? I like that. What are we gonna wear?
Speaker 3: Like it's like, so we're like this all over the
Speaker 3: place and then it kind of forms into one thing.
Speaker 3: And then I think about out my creating and like
Speaker 3: because I like to write to and I've like sometimes
Speaker 3: I'll you know, make music and stuff, but it's so
Speaker 3: into me you have to slip.
Speaker 4: That in there, like ah, sometimes I because.
Speaker 3: It's not I mean, because it's I just it's for
Speaker 3: fun at this point. But like I just I know
Speaker 3: that I can't create in that It's a different energy
Speaker 3: that I have to be in to create. And like
Speaker 3: even like speaking to like you know, the Grammy people
Speaker 3: that can create in that way, Like everyone has their
Speaker 3: own little process, and I think sometimes that like people
Speaker 3: can feel can be shamed even for their process, Like
Speaker 3: someone like you who needs to be a fucking loan.
Speaker 3: I don't want to create with everybody in the room.
Speaker 5: And I remember back in the day, it's a friend
Speaker 5: of mine who's very very successful writer and artists. He
Speaker 5: used to say, it's okay, I go in and you know,
Speaker 5: I can work with all these people and I may
Speaker 5: come out with a good record, so you can go
Speaker 5: and buy yourself and make like a killer record. He's like,
Speaker 5: you know, I used to always tell them, you can
Speaker 5: make ten records in a day.
Speaker 4: How do you do that? It takes me all day
Speaker 4: to make one record, or two days to make one record.
Speaker 4: You know, sometimes months I'll leave.
Speaker 5: That motherfucker alone because it's just got me stumped, and
Speaker 5: I'll back maybe years, and oh I love this, and
Speaker 5: then I can now I see the vision for it.
Speaker 5: But he told me, he said ten maybe two good.
Speaker 5: You write two? You got too good records. And I
Speaker 5: think it's because I'm hard on myself. Not that I'm not.
Speaker 4: That I'm like in there like a mad scientist.
Speaker 5: I'm just hard on myself in the sense that it's
Speaker 5: this honest, It's not is it good?
Speaker 4: Just is it honest? It's somebody. If I write this song.
Speaker 5: And I give the Senate song to you guys, will
Speaker 5: you be able to relate to it? Like do you
Speaker 5: do you have an experience with the record? More so
Speaker 5: then if it's a good record, won't there it is?
Speaker 5: It's a fucking good record.
Speaker 3: Yeah, No, I feel that. What was the process of
Speaker 3: writing I don't know if I got what was that?
Speaker 4: Like?
Speaker 6: Were you alone in the small It was a long
Speaker 6: process because that started out as the different different drums,
Speaker 6: and I kind of started writing it on different drums,
Speaker 6: and then the new drums came in.
Speaker 5: But I would sit on my sofa often as I
Speaker 5: do still. I like to, you know, consume copie some
Speaker 5: mouse of cannabis, and I'll just sit there watching TV,
Speaker 5: you know, whatever it's on the television at this time.
Speaker 5: Back then, it was like an Animal Planet. I used
Speaker 5: to watch a lot, because that's why I call myself
Speaker 5: the Linings, because I love looking at Animal Planet when
Speaker 5: I would be high when I was younger, and this
Speaker 5: would be like a relief from being a mom and
Speaker 5: stuff like that, and I would watch it, and then
Speaker 5: I would go from that, watching The Pride to Belly.
Speaker 4: I would go back and forth from Belly.
Speaker 5: To Animal Planet, you know, and because I back then
Speaker 5: still when they had like DVD's.
Speaker 4: And stuff like that, So it's just kind of like, yeah,
Speaker 4: go back and forth. And I just.
Speaker 5: I wanted to know if since there had a girl
Speaker 5: because I see him around my way and that might
Speaker 5: not be New York, that might be Pasadena, but on
Speaker 5: my television he's there every day, do you know what
Speaker 5: I mean? So I just kind of and I remember
Speaker 5: when I met Nasen and he said, I don't understand
Speaker 5: how that song is about me, because you know, but
Speaker 5: I just kind of I'm you guys are creative, you know,
Speaker 5: we make up worlds in our head. You know, if
Speaker 5: I really followed through with the things in my head,
Speaker 5: I be in jail because I could have really stalked
Speaker 5: this man because at the time I had a real
Speaker 5: relationship in my head that this man I was even
Speaker 5: after that, like it kind of like it kind of
Speaker 5: for a while. I think I dated Nads in my
Speaker 5: head for like about two whole years.
Speaker 3: That's kind of I've had those time. Did you hear
Speaker 3: those feelings? It's like where you feel like you know, yeah.
Speaker 4: And it was really based on Sincere just that character.
Speaker 4: I want to go back to Africa.
Speaker 3: You've met Na's at this point. Yeah, he said.
Speaker 4: No nods as cool as hell about it. That's the
Speaker 4: cool thing.
Speaker 5: Like it's like kind of like okay, and I think
Speaker 5: it's an amazing rapper, you know what I mean. Like,
Speaker 5: but you know, and he's a beautiful man. But even
Speaker 5: more so, I'm crazy and I gotta stop telling people that.
Speaker 5: The more I tell people this, some more I realize
Speaker 5: not age.
Speaker 2: Nobody is altogether. You know what, when you were talking
Speaker 2: about the creative process and you're talking about how we
Speaker 2: create together because we also will smoke and like, yeah,
Speaker 2: I guess because you're an artist, we think about what
Speaker 2: is your creative process, But I hadn't applied it to
Speaker 2: just yeah, the creativity and the process of anything else.
Speaker 2: So when I thought when you were talking, I was
Speaker 2: thinking about our process and how like yeah, the visuals
Speaker 2: and the things that come up, and like the safety
Speaker 2: that has to be created, and like, yeah, the flow
Speaker 2: that happened, And that was thinking like sometimes she used
Speaker 2: AI like when she's talking to it, I'm like, stop
Speaker 2: doing that. I keep confusing me, Like you're talking to me,
Speaker 2: She's like. And then I'm like, huh huh, wait what
Speaker 2: should and so like what the fuck? And I'm like,
Speaker 2: am I old? Because I'm like, why is she doing this?
Speaker 2: You're confusing me? But I never considered the process feeling,
Speaker 2: like the feeling that has to come with it, and
Speaker 2: and like even the things that we've created, even in
Speaker 2: writing a book together and like sitting with each other
Speaker 2: and like even I'm the airway like there had like
Speaker 2: literally when we come in this sermon, closed this door.
Speaker 2: Every single time, there's an energy that's created. It's a love,
Speaker 2: like I feel such genuinely like I love you, you know,
Speaker 2: and like we do create like this little bubble every time,
Speaker 2: and like, and we bring people into that process when
Speaker 2: we sit down and ask crazy questions and stuff like that.
Speaker 2: But yeah, thank you for sharing that. And even if
Speaker 2: you're listening, whatever you do to create in this world,
Speaker 2: whatever you're creating, whatever that is, like to sit and
Speaker 2: observe what your process is and how you and what
Speaker 2: makes you feel good and like, uh and yeah, like
Speaker 2: I love that you you said that because it made
Speaker 2: me sit and think about that my process and so
Speaker 2: many things. So yeah, and I think once you know,
Speaker 2: you can hone in on that environment and hone in
Speaker 2: on that process and so yeah, applying that to all work.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and once you know and you know your process
Speaker 5: and you find yourself comfortable comfortable with your process, you
Speaker 5: don't let people take you out of that process to
Speaker 5: get the best out of yourself.
Speaker 4: I will say, I.
Speaker 5: Remember when Missy Elliott was like the premiere writer for
Speaker 5: you to go to. And I remember someone telling me
Speaker 5: a story because I don't like people there when I write,
Speaker 5: I would write for.
Speaker 4: People, but bitch go over there, like do you want
Speaker 4: this or not? And I was like right there that
Speaker 4: word bitch go over there, you know? And so she
Speaker 4: someone this person told.
Speaker 5: Me Missy would not let anyone in the room, and
Speaker 5: there was this particular artist that kept trying to come
Speaker 5: in and see what she was doing.
Speaker 4: They went back and the next time and Missy.
Speaker 3: Was going, he was gone. She said, I guess I
Speaker 3: gotta go.
Speaker 5: I don't know how true that story is if somebody
Speaker 5: told me that, you know, and I think that it
Speaker 5: let people have their process, especially if you like what
Speaker 5: they do. I also remember them talking about shaw dey
Speaker 5: h Drake. I don't know how true this stuff is,
Speaker 5: but ask her for a feature or something like that,
Speaker 5: and for her to come in and all this stuff,
Speaker 5: and it's like, I don't want you to see how
Speaker 5: the magic is made. And I don't either because I
Speaker 5: be in there crazy. I don't want you to see,
Speaker 5: not because I'm afraid of you or anything like that.
Speaker 5: I don't want you to see me figuring it out.
Speaker 5: I want to just go figure it out.
Speaker 2: Like while I your makeup, on your makeup. I don't
Speaker 2: like when people watching, like men watching put on my makeup, Like.
Speaker 3: Do you think that the like create? As you're talking
Speaker 3: and I'm thinking about like people's creative processes, and then
Speaker 3: I'm also thinking about like like the male creative process
Speaker 3: versus the female creative process, because I like, I'm curious
Speaker 3: you think there's a difference like how men create in
Speaker 3: that space because as women, we are emotional beings, we
Speaker 3: do we kind of need to retreat. Not all women, right,
Speaker 3: some women can create in full frontal, but I find
Speaker 3: that a lot of the female creators that I know,
Speaker 3: there is this like there is a step in whatever
Speaker 3: that process is that requires like this this alone. And
Speaker 3: I think sometimes with men, not to say they don't,
Speaker 3: I feel like there's but there's more.
Speaker 5: Of a bravado like we're going to do be their
Speaker 5: ego driven nature.
Speaker 4: They need somebody else around.
Speaker 3: But that's because the creative creative energy is feminine. So
Speaker 3: even when they're in their creativeness, like there's a femininity
Speaker 3: that they have vulnerability and openness literally that has to
Speaker 3: exist in order for them to create. So maybe I'm
Speaker 3: just answering my own question.
Speaker 2: And I'm impressed you should manifest like full frontals.
Speaker 4: A full frontal creative processing.
Speaker 2: I think full frontal creative process like open the legs.
Speaker 3: So having a full frontal leading guys.
Speaker 2: Having a full frontal creative process just letting you know
Speaker 2: it's so vulnerable and just really get the creative energy.
Speaker 2: I think maybe we're missing a mark. Yeah, you're right,
Speaker 2: open your legs, your legs.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I would like.
Speaker 3: I want to know about your upcoming project and your single.
Speaker 4: I have a new single coming out. I don't know
Speaker 4: the exact date just yet. You guys, I listen but.
Speaker 5: Don't absorb sometimes and I read skimming past these things.
Speaker 5: I really just like to make music, and I'm grateful
Speaker 5: for the people around me to do all other stuff.
Speaker 4: But I have a single coming out.
Speaker 5: That it will be the first record for an album
Speaker 5: that I have coming later in the summer that's called
Speaker 5: Grown War in Realness. In the first singles call single
Speaker 5: and I literally talk about why I'm single.
Speaker 4: And yeah it's something that PJ.
Speaker 5: Morton and I were supposed to do this collaborative project
Speaker 5: and it didn't pan out. But the first record he
Speaker 5: sent me was this track. And instantly when I started
Speaker 5: to write, I was like, I think I needed to
Speaker 5: say that.
Speaker 4: It came out like what you know what I mean?
Speaker 4: It wasn't like a keep running it over and over.
Speaker 5: It just literally was there. I knew it as soon
Speaker 5: as I heard it. It just kind of like when
Speaker 5: you asked me a question, it just flows. That's kind
Speaker 5: of how it was, you know, And I really needed
Speaker 5: to tell people because I've been single a very long time,
Speaker 5: you know, and people always say, teacher, you're not you're such.
Speaker 4: A beautiful girl, like you're so cool, blah blah blah
Speaker 4: blah blah. Why are you single? Why are you single?
Speaker 5: As if it's a question that I should even have
Speaker 5: to answer. You know, I I'm here, I'm present, listen.
Speaker 4: You could go online and find out where I am
Speaker 4: at any time.
Speaker 3: Well, most people don't ask like why are you married? Married?
Speaker 3: Why are you married if you're not single? It's why
Speaker 3: are you single? It's just asking people why why are
Speaker 3: you married?
Speaker 5: And I'm not offended by you asking me this.
Speaker 4: I just think you're asking the wrong people. Why don't
Speaker 4: you round up all the men.
Speaker 3: That's the wrong question.
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're asking the wrong person, right, round up all
Speaker 5: the men in my age record that are healthy black men,
Speaker 5: And I would even consider and ask them why I'm
Speaker 5: single if they're single, because married men don't want me
Speaker 5: to be single, they want me to.
Speaker 3: Be with them.
Speaker 5: I don't want to message that, so it would have
Speaker 5: to be single men like, I don't think it's a
Speaker 5: question for me. I'm gonna choose what presents itself properly.
Speaker 5: But I'm not gonna chase fucking ship. That is not
Speaker 5: the nature to me of this woman. I can't tell
Speaker 5: you the nature of every other woman I receive. I
Speaker 5: don't chase shit.
Speaker 3: Would you day a younger man?
Speaker 4: They owe my ass?
Speaker 3: So trying they are.
Speaker 4: It's once again my children, girl, they're married. But if
Speaker 4: a man is five years old.
Speaker 3: My children knew that they're gonna support you no matter what.
Speaker 4: They're gonna support me no matter what.
Speaker 5: But I swear I feel like it's kind of leaning
Speaker 5: towards pedophilia for me.
Speaker 4: I can't get into it twenty not all.
Speaker 5: But like my sons are thirty, okay, so when you
Speaker 5: got a man it's thirty five.
Speaker 3: It feels too close to you close.
Speaker 5: You were five when I was literally like getting cut
Speaker 5: over to these babies were coming out.
Speaker 4: You know you probably you.
Speaker 2: Can't put it. You can't put in that contact, you
Speaker 2: can't put it.
Speaker 4: In that but you cannot not.
Speaker 5: So do you have a girl, Yeah, you have a girl.
Speaker 5: I'm not fucking talking to y'all host because you have girls.
Speaker 5: If I had a girl, I.
Speaker 2: Wouldn't know you're talking to me.
Speaker 5: Then you you probably would feel that way about it
Speaker 5: if you had a girl.
Speaker 4: But I can't because I have boys.
Speaker 2: Thirty okay, but I.
Speaker 3: Think that what if you just start just let it go,
Speaker 3: just don't think about it.
Speaker 2: Just think about the soul.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think about the soul and the human presenting
Speaker 3: himself in front of you.
Speaker 5: Once again, I was born in nineteen seventy. So here's
Speaker 5: the thing. I'm not mad at other people doing it.
Speaker 5: And I see it a lot. I see it a lot.
Speaker 5: I see seventy year old women with twenty year old men.
Speaker 5: I don't know how you flip that she's disgusting me,
Speaker 5: but go off, you know, But I just really just
Speaker 5: I like grown men.
Speaker 4: I like grown men. And then the younger you get
Speaker 4: younger to me, I gotta consider this ship you saying
Speaker 4: that really don't interest me.
Speaker 5: You know, like you are younger than me, and I'm
Speaker 5: a grown woman, and I really want to enjoy a
Speaker 5: grown ass man. But they on my ass, and the
Speaker 5: grown men justed to do not They're not as direct,
Speaker 5: they're not, you know, so we may get there and
Speaker 5: I might just have to have a little fun and
Speaker 5: keep it moving.
Speaker 3: You know, I.
Speaker 2: Support that, even if it may not be fine, it
Speaker 2: may get serious, but just be open to you. Never know.
Speaker 3: You're also going on tour soon, right, maybe maybe maybe
Speaker 3: a lot.
Speaker 4: I think you guys are very optimistic, and I'm gonna take.
Speaker 2: That energy in.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna take that energy in. I just want to
Speaker 4: I don't want a grown ass man doing his own thing.
Speaker 4: I want you know what I would be in the
Speaker 4: perfect world. Well, he just comes to get me. I'm
Speaker 4: right here.
Speaker 2: He's gonna come.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's all I'm I'm chilling like and then that's.
Speaker 2: It will be so clear and so easy. It'll be
Speaker 2: just like ship.
Speaker 3: Yeah. Where are you going to be on tour?
Speaker 5: I'm gonna be all across the United States of America.
Speaker 5: It's we start in. Actually, I want to make sure
Speaker 5: I tell you what.
Speaker 4: Tour it is.
Speaker 5: It is the Floor Tree Presents the Say Yes Tour,
Speaker 5: and I will be a guest on that tour. And
Speaker 5: if you come out, they got me up there the
Speaker 5: first thing you see, So bitch, get there early.
Speaker 4: I'm gonna hit you with a little avatize.
Speaker 3: Beautiful way to open.
Speaker 4: Yeah, but yeah, it's gonna be super cool. I'm very excited.
Speaker 4: I love the floor trees music always have.
Speaker 5: And the vibes of everybody on stage should be pretty good.
Speaker 5: And we start in on April eighth, I think in
Speaker 5: New New Jersey, Newark, New Jersey, and we have two
Speaker 5: shoes shows in New Newark, New Jersey, and I don't
Speaker 5: know where we go after that, but I think at
Speaker 5: some point we will be in New Orleans.
Speaker 3: I will get back to home, yeah, I will.
Speaker 5: I will get so I think it's the sixth or eighth.
Speaker 5: I don't let me get but yes, I will be
Speaker 5: on that tour and it's gonna be super cool.
Speaker 3: And we'll put all the information in please, yeah, so
Speaker 3: our people can find you. You need to go see her.
Speaker 2: You need to go see Rugby.
Speaker 3: There I'm going. Are you coming here?
Speaker 4: I am definitely coming to Yeah.
Speaker 5: And while I am on tour, I will be performing
Speaker 5: the new record single, so you know if you want
Speaker 5: a little preview, and while I'm on tour, should be
Speaker 5: coming out during that time too, So it'll be good.
Speaker 4: It's gonna be really really good.
Speaker 2: Excited for you.
Speaker 5: I'm very excited about new music and new perspective, because
Speaker 5: it's I don't think people understand the double edged sword
Speaker 5: of having a cult fan base that loves one project,
Speaker 5: you know what I mean, and not that they don't
Speaker 5: love everything else, but they're drawn to that, and then
Speaker 5: here that is.
Speaker 4: That's twenty something years later. I'm a grown ass woman now.
Speaker 5: I'm not saying the same shit, even though the core
Speaker 5: of me is that, right, But I have new perspectives now,
Speaker 5: and I'm just really excited for people to hear my
Speaker 5: new perspectives, that's all.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm excited for that. Oh my god. I'm women
Speaker 3: as women, like we have to be. Oftentimes we get stuck, right,
Speaker 3: people like try to like to pigeonhole us, and like,
Speaker 3: I think that women have come through in this time
Speaker 3: and space in such a like powerful way. We're commanding
Speaker 3: our creations to be forefront. And I'm just going to
Speaker 3: put so much love and energy into this project because
Speaker 3: it's going to be legendary. PJ. Morton is iconic. All
Speaker 3: the projects, all the things that you do are iconic
Speaker 3: because you're an iconic badass bitch. I like that, thank you,
Speaker 3: so yes, I'm excited to hear, and I really want.
Speaker 4: Women to.
Speaker 5: Embrace aging. It's not a bad thing. It's better than so.
Speaker 5: First of all, men sold you that shit. Why did
Speaker 5: you buy it?
Speaker 4: You know what I mean? Why did you buy?
Speaker 2: Now?
Speaker 4: I love men.
Speaker 5: I'm not speaking against men, but they sold you that shit.
Speaker 5: And I feel like aging is it's so I'm better
Speaker 5: with time, you know, get I get wisdom, and if
Speaker 5: you keep yourself up, you still look good.
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying?
Speaker 5: Like, I don't see the bad thing in aging, and
Speaker 5: I know that it's not the same for everyone, but
Speaker 5: I think we as women tend to be very hard
Speaker 5: on an ageing process with ourselves, and I don't think we.
Speaker 2: Should do that.
Speaker 4: You should look at the beauty.
Speaker 5: And what I do is I pay attention to women
Speaker 5: that are before me that age naturally and still look
Speaker 5: just as beautiful, and not.
Speaker 4: Just to me, but sexually to other too. Men, do
Speaker 4: you know what I mean?
Speaker 6: So?
Speaker 5: I think that this album hopefully makes people feel like
Speaker 5: it's cool to become a grown woman.
Speaker 4: You know what I mean.
Speaker 5: You don't lose your cool because you become more grown.
Speaker 5: I think you kind of sink deeper into it.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think that's so important as someone
Speaker 3: as someone who's I'm gonna be thirty nine? Am I
Speaker 3: thirty nine? I'm gonna be thirty nine this year? And
Speaker 3: we were talking about this in the last episode, Like
Speaker 3: being on camera too, you can physically watch yourself, like
Speaker 3: we as a human we in this time and space,
Speaker 3: we are looking at ourselves more than a fucking ever,
Speaker 3: more than ever. We're not supposed to be seeing ourselves
Speaker 3: just much like it's too much. And so I think
Speaker 3: like aging in particular for women, like it has become
Speaker 3: this thing that we think that we can freeze, and
Speaker 3: we can freeze, and we're seeing the results. We're seeing
Speaker 3: what's happening to the bitches who have frozen too early.
Speaker 5: Sometimes they look crazy and they look I'm being kind, yes,
Speaker 5: said most of them.
Speaker 3: But I also say, like the fountain of youth is joy,
Speaker 3: and the found of youth is like saying yes life,
Speaker 3: and like curiosity and being open and evolving and learning.
Speaker 4: Trying to get me to have a threesome.
Speaker 2: Girl curious pleasure.
Speaker 4: And her preferences with young men.
Speaker 2: Want to cut my hair, sexy knows what he wants
Speaker 2: to established. I agree, though, And there's so much pressure
Speaker 2: on women. There's so much pressure especially living in LA
Speaker 2: and shit, it's just it's pressure and the like. Yeah,
Speaker 2: like I think the power is in doing it gracefully
Speaker 2: and like being and bold the time. Yeah, yeah, graceful,
Speaker 2: not in modestly, but yeah, like living fun and be
Speaker 2: free and like without nobody telling you shit about why
Speaker 2: are you single, nigga? Why are you talking to me? Right?
Speaker 3: I mean it's like it's not even the looks too.
Speaker 3: It's like even like you know, being in the music industry,
Speaker 3: being in a career, being in front of the camera,
Speaker 3: there has been this like this fake reality that you
Speaker 3: have a timeline there too, write like that, like you
Speaker 3: can't you can't start a singing career in your forties.
Speaker 3: What the fuck are you talking about? You know, let
Speaker 3: you continue rules like you can't shift your career, Like
Speaker 3: what are you talking about? Like you can't become a
Speaker 3: mom again, Like you know, there's all these things about
Speaker 3: what we can't do, and it's all fucking fake. And
Speaker 3: you see the women that are that are aging the
Speaker 3: most gracefully, the ones that you love and adore, those
Speaker 3: women's didn't they didn't subscribe to that ship. But it
Speaker 3: is a small group of women because only a small
Speaker 3: group of us have the balls enough, not the balls,
Speaker 3: the pussy enough to really say, fuck y'all. I'm gonna
Speaker 3: just do what I want to do and be me.
Speaker 3: And we're all over here, not well, not me, not
Speaker 3: all of us. Well, I've had a little botox, but
Speaker 3: the people that I've had a little bunch, I'm not
Speaker 3: gonna lie. But like the people that are like so
Speaker 3: like just want to fight against the natural process of
Speaker 3: who we are as women, which is wise, which is cellulite,
Speaker 3: which is wrinkly.
Speaker 4: And I don't think men care as much as we do.
Speaker 3: They don't. They don't give a fuck.
Speaker 2: It's us.
Speaker 5: But they started it, Yeah they did.
Speaker 3: We've perpetuated it, but how dare they?
Speaker 2: The one promise we're all given is that we're gonna
Speaker 2: fucking age every Okay, no one's exempt.
Speaker 4: There's an alternative. You can die, yep.
Speaker 2: Yeah, thank god for the aging.
Speaker 4: But I think you touched on something about this. It's
Speaker 4: not just the looks.
Speaker 5: I think the spirit of a person like I still
Speaker 5: feel in my spirit like a teenager, Like I feel
Speaker 5: like I can do anything my body can't, you know
Speaker 5: what I mean. But and I will probably stop myself
Speaker 5: because now I'm more mature, but I.
Speaker 4: Just feel open to things. I feel excited about things.
Speaker 5: And I think that when you start to let life
Speaker 5: wear you down, you start to stop seeing possibilities.
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying. You start you be.
Speaker 5: Literally become old, and you feel old, and you look
Speaker 5: old to yourself.
Speaker 2: Yes, feeling how you feel literally makes you ages you.
Speaker 2: If you're feeling down, if you're feeling deprised, if you're
Speaker 2: feeling beat up, then you will look like even if
Speaker 2: you look at pictures many times you were not doing
Speaker 2: so well in a bad relationship. You can physically see
Speaker 2: it on yourself because the inside is going to always
Speaker 2: project to the physical. Yeah, I've enjoyed talking to you
Speaker 2: and getting high. It was lovely. It's lovely.
Speaker 3: Thank you guys for having yes before we get out
Speaker 3: of here. This has been wonderful and I feel like
Speaker 3: we've hit so many marks. We've covered a lot. I'll
Speaker 3: talk a lot.
Speaker 2: Stories, a hor a horror story.
Speaker 5: I don't really have a horry story. I told you
Speaker 5: the time, but if I think back, I don't.
Speaker 4: I'm trying to. I've been trying to conjure one all
Speaker 4: day because.
Speaker 5: I will I will have one another time because I'm
Speaker 5: gonna go get one.
Speaker 4: I have an assignment.
Speaker 3: Yes, this is your homework, this is your horry assignment. Yes,
Speaker 3: and a freaky.
Speaker 5: I have gotten very freaky, but I think it's basic
Speaker 5: freaky though, vanilla.
Speaker 2: And basic freaky.
Speaker 4: No, no, no, no, yeah, I might yeah kind of.
Speaker 3: Maybe, just maybe you don't have to go all the way.
Speaker 3: Maybe you just get a nice man with the nice
Speaker 3: eyes and the nice teeth. Seems like he takes care
Speaker 3: of his kids and is healthy to just eat your
Speaker 3: pussy on tour.
Speaker 4: And it comes along.
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna you don't have to say he needs
Speaker 3: to serve you.
Speaker 4: He could do all of it if he comes along.
Speaker 2: If he comes along, I'm the manifestation.
Speaker 5: But yeah, I'll take that. I'll take that. I'll take
Speaker 5: it if you turn me on. It's not for a
Speaker 5: lack of me wanting to. It's a lack of being
Speaker 5: turned on. Yeah, I can't turn my cel phone.
Speaker 4: I'm doud I do. I ain't gonna but go ahead.
Speaker 3: But it's but it's great when someone else can. I
Speaker 3: would it literally triggers something else, Bitch that the moment
Speaker 3: that happened, something else is about to like awaken inside
Speaker 3: of you again. Speaking of awakenings, it's terrible time and
Speaker 3: chose the tower card. Shout out to a hockey terror
Speaker 3: I love you through the Tower card represents awakening. Okay,
Speaker 3: sudden change, revelation, chaos. Let's see what the tower card
Speaker 3: has in store. When the Tower card appears in a
Speaker 3: taroor reading, expect the unexpected, massive change, destruction, chaos, and
Speaker 3: maybe a divorce. Okay, it's kind of dark. I'm not
Speaker 3: gonna lie. It's gonna get dark for a second. But
Speaker 3: there's always light on the end.
Speaker 4: Okay.
Speaker 2: Okay, was it reverse?
Speaker 3: I don't think so. It may be divorce, death of
Speaker 3: a loved one, financial failure, health problems, natural disaster, job loss,
Speaker 3: or an event that shakes you to the core, affecting
Speaker 3: your spirituality, mentality, or physicality. There's no escaping it.
Speaker 2: Change America.
Speaker 3: Change is here to tear things up. Just when you
Speaker 3: think you're safe and comfortable, a tower moment comes and
Speaker 3: hits and throws you for a loop. A lightning bolt
Speaker 3: of clarity and insight cuts through the lies and illusions
Speaker 3: you've been telling yourself, and now the truth comes to
Speaker 3: light that you want your preciate your world may come
Speaker 3: crashing down because it's so fucking good in ways you
Speaker 3: could never have imagined. Teader as you realize that you
Speaker 3: have been building your life on unstable foundations, mistruths, illusions.
Speaker 3: Everything you thought to be true has turned on its head.
Speaker 3: You are now questioning what is real and what is not.
Speaker 3: The best way forward is to let this structure self
Speaker 3: This structure self destruct so you can rebuild and refocus,
Speaker 3: and let's be real. With a card like tower, you
Speaker 3: have no choice but to surrender to this destruction, no
Speaker 3: matter how unwanted or painful. Change on this deep level
Speaker 3: is hard, but you need to trust that life is
Speaker 3: happening for you, not to you, and that is all,
Speaker 3: and it's all for a reason. You will grow stronger, wiser,
Speaker 3: and more resilient and develop a new perspective on life
Speaker 3: you did not even know existed. It doesn't always associate
Speaker 3: with pain and turmoil. If you are highly aware and
Speaker 3: in tune with your inner guidance system, then this Tarot
Speaker 3: card can indicate a spiritual awakening or a revelation. You
Speaker 3: may be able to see the cracks forming and take
Speaker 3: action before the whole structure comes tumbling down. The tower
Speaker 3: card is your opportunity to break free from the old
Speaker 3: ways of thinking that have been holding you back.
Speaker 4: All right, So I'm gonna have to fuck.
Speaker 3: With the young Yeah I am.
Speaker 2: I am season I'm.
Speaker 4: Not fucking with ym. I'll fuck with a young man
Speaker 4: I am.
Speaker 3: And if you're older and older, even Olderman you know.
Speaker 5: I listen, that card is taking me to where i've
Speaker 5: It makes me feel like I've already been in that process,
Speaker 5: you know what I mean. So yeah, I'm open. I'm
Speaker 5: far more open than it seems. It's just certain things
Speaker 5: that just know one of the things by means I
Speaker 5: know myself. I'm okay with knowing myself. Yeah, I'm solid
Speaker 5: in that, I know where I know that. Okay, this,
Speaker 5: I'll open myself up that that's a fucking hard No.
Speaker 3: Well, I hope you don't feel pre pressured from us, because.
Speaker 4: I feel a hell of a lot of things, because we're.
Speaker 3: All for knowing yourself and taking your time and not
Speaker 3: giving your pussy away.
Speaker 4: So yeah, I want to I think you'll have it.
Speaker 3: I want to give it a when the right the
Speaker 3: right one comes though.
Speaker 4: And the right one just turn me on. Yeah, you know,
Speaker 4: nobody's turning me on. That's all. Pray for me.
Speaker 5: Next blunt y'all do with the next people to come
Speaker 5: sit that put my name in that blunch.
Speaker 2: Okay, we got you.
Speaker 3: Well, thank you so much for coming.
Speaker 4: Thank you for having me. I had a great fucking time.
Speaker 3: I'm high as hell.
Speaker 5: I am very high, and I want to say that
Speaker 5: what you're doing is beautiful and wonderful to make mothers
Speaker 5: have this moment of just who I don't have to
Speaker 5: be perfect. I can come here with these crazy holes
Speaker 5: and just listen to this crazy ship.
Speaker 4: They talking about and have a good time. You're doing
Speaker 4: the lord's.
Speaker 3: Work, baby.
Speaker 2: Thank you, you're doing the Lord's for.
Speaker 3: Thank you, Thank you for coming. Can tell the people
Speaker 3: where they can find you.
Speaker 5: Yes, you can find me on all these social network
Speaker 5: things at teacher Moses and please go to t moses
Speaker 5: dot com and buy merch because that's how I pay
Speaker 5: for this fabulous life style all I have.
Speaker 4: And don't you want me to keep at fabulous lights?
Speaker 3: What kind of merged you have?
Speaker 4: I have all kinds of things. I have T shirts
Speaker 4: and records and bags.
Speaker 3: Do you sign your records?
Speaker 5: I always sign every single fucking record, but I sell
Speaker 5: the records more so getting signed live. So if you
Speaker 5: want one of the vinyls, come to the show signed.
Speaker 5: But if you buy it online a girl like that,
Speaker 5: I'm not signing nothing.
Speaker 3: But if you bring it to a show, well I'm
Speaker 3: coming to your show with the records, or you can
Speaker 3: sign my record. Please, thank you. Will y'all know where
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Speaker 3: But yeah, I believe everything in the episode.
Speaker 4: Just yeah, I'm living until I find out Well, maym
Speaker 4: have been known?
Speaker 1: Earth that used to be broken till now I got
Speaker 1: the blues in to like Beyonce just throat shot and
Speaker 1: popping his cow wearing our voices. Patriarchy kept it in
Speaker 1: the box to exploit it. Women put the pee and powers.
Speaker 1: So it's pointing that they want me to be good,
Speaker 1: so I make bad choices. Bad mom, not a bad mom,
Speaker 1: but a bad mom. It he's in on put cannabis
Speaker 1: in their bathbon walked in bossas cap and I blew
Speaker 1: his cat ball tip dog. Now I'm immune to the
Speaker 1: cat called her being no waisted straight to it like
Speaker 1: a dollar sign.
Speaker 4: Mother, rent the lover when too.
Speaker 1: It looks like a water sign where you're rent the
Speaker 1: winter essential will when the summertime.
Speaker 3: I do with all?
Speaker 4: Ain't know when that needs a rerunning. B