WEBVTT - Loving Hard vs. Loving Properly Ft. Teedra Moses

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<v Speaker 1>Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife.

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<v Speaker 2>She couldn't.

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<v Speaker 3>She cleaned and cared for her children and the man

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<v Speaker 3>of the house, and of course she didn't talk back.

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<v Speaker 3>She was both obedient and soft by nature. She was

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<v Speaker 3>a good woman who always made good choices. That shit,

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<v Speaker 3>we're good Mom's bad choices too, single mom who said

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<v Speaker 3>fuck the patriarchy, shared all their bad choices and sound

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<v Speaker 3>out they were so bad.

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<v Speaker 2>After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties.

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<v Speaker 3>Sit back and enjoy the ride.

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<v Speaker 2>I can do it. Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm Erica and I'm Mela.

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<v Speaker 2>Happy Humpday, bitches, Happy motherfucking hump Day. We are back

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<v Speaker 2>with another wonderful episode.

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<v Speaker 3>And guess what, hoes, it's our favorite motherfucking holiday.

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<v Speaker 2>Right after Halloween.

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<v Speaker 3>True, it's for twenty bitch, it's for a twenty week.

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<v Speaker 3>It's my favorite. It's my favorite. This my actually now Halloween.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna take her on st start to lying, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>because I kind of now. But what we can do,

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<v Speaker 2>what we should do is start dressing up on for

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<v Speaker 2>twenty just to combine the holidays, because who said that

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<v Speaker 2>you can't so I think maybe tonight I'm gonna put

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<v Speaker 2>on an outfit.

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<v Speaker 3>Are you to roll yourself in green?

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<v Speaker 2>Or maybe I don't know, Okay, I don't know, like

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<v Speaker 2>Eve put flowers? Yeah, yeah, the flower Gottess noting like that.

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<v Speaker 3>If you are listening to this episode or watching this

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<v Speaker 3>episode and you have some cannabis in your presence, I

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<v Speaker 3>want to encourage you right now to just pause, go

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<v Speaker 3>get your weed. Come back, though, don't get high and forget.

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<v Speaker 3>Come back.

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<v Speaker 2>Be careful. He actually keep us on in the background,

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<v Speaker 2>so you don't forget, don't pause it. Just go get

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<v Speaker 2>the weed, Go get the pipe, Go get the pipers,

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<v Speaker 2>go get the blind, whatever you roll with, just go

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<v Speaker 2>get it. And if you don't smell, go get a

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<v Speaker 2>glass of wine or something. It's time to relax and

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<v Speaker 2>to listen.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, because we have a special guest today, and I'm

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<v Speaker 3>very very very very excited about this one, y'all. We

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<v Speaker 3>have none other than a lioness herself, the overall bad

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<v Speaker 3>bitch herself, the Grammy nominated songwriter, two time song of

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<v Speaker 3>the Year being my award winning artist, Miss t dram Moses.

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<v Speaker 3>Baby welcome.

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<v Speaker 4>That's by having me, you know, I love I love, love,

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<v Speaker 4>love this show.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, I'm so grateful. I'm so happy that

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<v Speaker 3>you know who we are. I'm like, you know, you

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<v Speaker 3>know who.

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<v Speaker 2>We are a little us.

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<v Speaker 4>Of course, it's not a little low us. You've been

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<v Speaker 4>doing this for eight years. That's not a little ship.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you. Thank you. I'm always like I help, I

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<v Speaker 2>help people respond, So I was so happy when you

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<v Speaker 2>responded and that you were available to come join us.

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<v Speaker 4>I responded very excitedly, thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>And we have a mutual friend so I always I

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<v Speaker 2>always like having friends of friends on the show because

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<v Speaker 2>I always friends like if you're friends with him, then

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<v Speaker 2>you're friends with us.

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<v Speaker 3>To Bone, you know, well, because I was okay, okay, well,

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<v Speaker 3>I was okay. It's so funny because when we messaged

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<v Speaker 3>you and you responded, literally to Bone sent me a

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<v Speaker 3>reel of you walking down the street smoking, and he

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<v Speaker 3>was like, you got to have my s on the show.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was like, that is so crazy because she

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<v Speaker 3>just said yes to us today.

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<v Speaker 2>And you know what a funny story about Tabona is

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<v Speaker 2>is when we did our first one of our first

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<v Speaker 2>like out of the state like shows, I was, I

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<v Speaker 2>know a DJ in Atlanta used to live in Atlanta

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<v Speaker 2>and he's my friend. And I was like Tabone and

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<v Speaker 2>I showed her picture. She's like, I met Toabone at

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<v Speaker 2>a bar years ago in Atlanta.

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<v Speaker 3>Everybody knows shout out to d Bone.

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<v Speaker 4>Good people know good people.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, so I was like, wow, look at the synchronicity.

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<v Speaker 3>It's just literally in the same day, connecting us. And

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<v Speaker 3>then yes, of course I love Duran Bernard. Shoutout to

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<v Speaker 3>Duran and all of his success. He's like Rammy winning artists.

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<v Speaker 4>And let's be clear, this did not happen over night.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, very very hard for that.

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<v Speaker 5>And I think sometimes when people see someone and they

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<v Speaker 5>see the shiny part, they don't remember, they don't know

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<v Speaker 5>or think of all the things that came before that.

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<v Speaker 5>And I like to make sure people know that Duran

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<v Speaker 5>worked very, very hard and he's nowhere near where he's going,

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<v Speaker 5>so there's even more work to do.

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<v Speaker 4>But I just love to see where he is.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's beautiful. I love him.

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<v Speaker 5>And he's still goes sing background with Miss eric abodause.

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<v Speaker 2>To do it because it's Erica about you exactly.

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<v Speaker 3>So Miss Tidra, Yes, ma'am, I have lots of questions

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<v Speaker 3>for you.

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<v Speaker 4>Let's go.

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<v Speaker 2>Before you start the questions, I'm gonna start rolling a

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<v Speaker 2>true rap just so we have just so eventually we'll

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<v Speaker 2>have a backwood to smoke during this interview. I just

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<v Speaker 2>got found the aromatic true rap, so it's not just

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<v Speaker 2>a regular te rap, It's an aromatic ture rep and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm really excited about it. So just just letting you

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<v Speaker 2>guys know, I'll be rolling it, roll it up like

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<v Speaker 2>that it is for twenty we might why would we

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<v Speaker 2>be not smoking? So I'm going to get this going immediately.

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<v Speaker 3>So you know, we've done our research and researched a

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<v Speaker 3>lot of different things. I've learned so much about your

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<v Speaker 3>history that I didn't really even know that you were

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<v Speaker 3>like a fashion you were a stylist before your career

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<v Speaker 3>in music, and that you've had You've lived a lot

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<v Speaker 3>of lives. And I also found out that you were

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<v Speaker 3>mama of too twins, not to twins, that's Pacific mama.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm curious what was so you were a young

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<v Speaker 3>mom too, right? How old were you when you had

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<v Speaker 3>your nineteen?

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<v Speaker 5>When I got pregnant right after I turn twenty, I

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<v Speaker 5>had them that I'm a December baby, right in January

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<v Speaker 5>fourth like right after the year started, I had a set.

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<v Speaker 4>Of twins in your family, not in my family.

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<v Speaker 5>Their dad has two sets of twins after I had them.

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<v Speaker 4>Then their dad's aunt had a set of twins.

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<v Speaker 5>But you know, they say that identical twins are are

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<v Speaker 5>can be the from the father or the mother's jeans.

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<v Speaker 4>They say that fraternal twins have to be from the mom.

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<v Speaker 5>I also learned recently that some of the twins that

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<v Speaker 5>people think are fraternal because they're in different sects can

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<v Speaker 5>actually be identical. Because my sons look exactly the same

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<v Speaker 5>to most people, not to me. But when I see

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<v Speaker 5>fraternal twins, they look totally different. You know, for sure,

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<v Speaker 5>they look like siblings, and sometimes they don't even look

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<v Speaker 5>like siblings. So I don't know, my might be they

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<v Speaker 5>might be identical, which would take away from me claiming

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<v Speaker 5>all these years that it was my superpowers twins.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, so identical means they're in the same sack. For

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<v Speaker 2>turnalmans are not in the same sack.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, But as of what I've learned recently, that's not it.

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<v Speaker 2>That's not true.

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<v Speaker 3>Please God don't give me jo I mean I'm talking

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<v Speaker 3>about that's a very great experience at nineteen. But no,

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<v Speaker 3>you're having twins, entering into motherhood as a mother of two?

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<v Speaker 3>What was that like?

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<v Speaker 5>So I moved to Los Angeles from New Orleans in

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<v Speaker 5>when I was fourteen. Okay, when I was ten or eleven,

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<v Speaker 5>girls are pregnant at twelve, you know what I mean. Thirteen,

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<v Speaker 5>that wasn't uncommon. So when I got pregnant at nineteen,

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<v Speaker 5>it was like, okay, I'm having.

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<v Speaker 4>A a child, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>And I remember coming home and my aunt makes she

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<v Speaker 5>rest in peace, my aunt Ramona, she said.

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<v Speaker 4>I was crying, crying, and she said, girl, you ain't

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<v Speaker 4>gotta have no kids. You have my kids. You can,

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<v Speaker 4>but you've grown either way if you want it, but

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<v Speaker 4>you don't have to have no kids. And I was

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<v Speaker 4>just thinking, no, I'm just gonna have the kid. I

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<v Speaker 4>was crying.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm upset. I'm just gonna have the kid. And then

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<v Speaker 5>it turns out to be two. And I'm doing this

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<v Speaker 5>by myself because the dad and I were together, but

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<v Speaker 5>he didn't choose to like, really, it's the girl here

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<v Speaker 5>gonna be mad because I said.

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<v Speaker 3>That, But it is.

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<v Speaker 4>It's the truth. It's the truth.

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<v Speaker 5>And so I'm doing this mostly by myself. And I

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<v Speaker 5>have my family whatever, but.

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<v Speaker 4>It was hard. But it's kind of like, I don't want.

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<v Speaker 5>To say this and sound fucked up, but I think

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<v Speaker 5>it's a young persons sport.

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<v Speaker 4>I think children. I think it's a young person's sport.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna tell you why. You don't fucking think. You

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<v Speaker 4>just do.

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<v Speaker 5>It's all instinct. You're not overthinking. Grown people with kids

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<v Speaker 5>irk the fuck out of me.

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<v Speaker 4>They think too fucking much. Yes, she doesn't like this.

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<v Speaker 5>The bitch don't know her name, but she don't like this,

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<v Speaker 5>and she don't like that. You know, when you're a

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<v Speaker 5>young parent, it's and not all young parents.

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<v Speaker 4>Do it successfully. I just really they were my friends.

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<v Speaker 5>I was to just talk to them, like, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>and be real because I'm not thinking about being superwoman.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm just like and I would literally tell them like,

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<v Speaker 5>you're a kid, but I'm a little key kind of

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<v Speaker 5>a kid too, you know what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 4>So we've about to work together, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 5>So it was like it was like not as shocking

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<v Speaker 5>to me because I'd seen people have babies and I

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<v Speaker 5>thought it was gonna be easier, but then it wasn't

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<v Speaker 5>as easy.

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<v Speaker 4>But it wasn't as hard either.

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<v Speaker 3>Right right, right, yeah? I think. I mean I've always said,

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<v Speaker 3>and don't take offense to this, that twins is the

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<v Speaker 3>devil's work. I would on my worst enemy, but I guess.

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<v Speaker 3>But when you don't know and you don't know anything different, but.

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<v Speaker 5>A second pregnancy is the devil's working because now you

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<v Speaker 5>got three. So I never wanted to have children again

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<v Speaker 5>because I figured, like, what if I end up with four?

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<v Speaker 4>Nobody want all of that bust it out?

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<v Speaker 5>Like it's kind of like really kind of cool because

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<v Speaker 5>they come, they're there, they have a friend, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>And I used to always tell me like, oh mom,

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<v Speaker 5>can't we get blah blah, I don't have enough money

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<v Speaker 5>for that.

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<v Speaker 4>I want, I want.

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<v Speaker 5>Nobody asked you to bring up friend. Nobody asked you

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<v Speaker 5>came with a friend, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>But it was fun.

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<v Speaker 5>It was very very fun watching them, their interactions as kids,

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<v Speaker 5>even now their interactions.

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<v Speaker 4>It's really cool.

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<v Speaker 5>Two people that came in the world and have been

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<v Speaker 5>rolling together the entire time is kind of unique.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, you get like a built in best friend.

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<v Speaker 4>Exactly, and I don't give you an option not to

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<v Speaker 4>be friends.

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<v Speaker 3>We speaking of friends, that's so funny you said that

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<v Speaker 3>because yesterday my daughter had to sleep over with her

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<v Speaker 3>friend and we went out to eat and we were

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<v Speaker 3>like in a strip mall. So I was like, they

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<v Speaker 3>were like, we want Panda Express. I was like, I

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<v Speaker 3>don't want Panda Express. So we're gonna eat here. And

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, we're in a strip mall. It's like

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<v Speaker 3>a little bakery. I'm thinking it's gonna be cheap. Girl.

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<v Speaker 3>We walked in there, everything on the menu was over

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<v Speaker 3>twenty five dollars, even the oatmeal. I was like, we're

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<v Speaker 3>in north Ridge. Where the fuck am I? So IRI's like,

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<v Speaker 3>I'll just take the crape and I'm like, okay, that's

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<v Speaker 3>my girl. Yeah, you get the crape. This little friend

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<v Speaker 3>of hers, She's like.

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<v Speaker 2>Is this your bad choice of the week?

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe this is my bad choice of the week. Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>my bad choice of the week is let it a

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<v Speaker 3>little bit little punk, little baby pup.

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<v Speaker 1>Mem not a bad mom, but a bad mom.

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<v Speaker 4>So Liz.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, because she was like, I don't really want to create,

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<v Speaker 3>but I would like the salmon with rosemary. And I

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<v Speaker 3>was like how much? And then I looked at it

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<v Speaker 3>and it was thirty eight dollars that's who.

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<v Speaker 4>Came to mind. It's a forty dollar plate? Mom?

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<v Speaker 3>Why And I was like, are you sure you really

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<v Speaker 3>want it?

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<v Speaker 2>Because they don't want to tell the kid that's not yours, No,

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<v Speaker 2>you can't eat that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, I'm an embarrass iery, just like like,

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<v Speaker 3>young mothers don't think about that.

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<v Speaker 4>Young mothers do not consider that. You'd be like, okay,

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<v Speaker 4>but you can get that. We're all sharing it. Let's go.

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<v Speaker 4>You want water because that's what we're getting warm.

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<v Speaker 2>Wait, so she ordered it.

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<v Speaker 3>She ordered it, and I was mad, but I was

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<v Speaker 3>just sitting there like and then I'm I'm the one

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<v Speaker 3>that's fucking starving, and now I'm thinking, like, now should

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<v Speaker 3>I order less? Took the budget, but she took the

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<v Speaker 3>whole budget. Bitch. I just took them to five below

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<v Speaker 3>to buy these stupid as was she toys or they

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<v Speaker 3>were fucking obsessed with anyway? Forget. She brings the food

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<v Speaker 3>out and I see the food and I'm like, damn,

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<v Speaker 3>that doesn't good. This little girl ate the whole goddamn filet.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was like, all right, only she ate it,

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<v Speaker 3>because that's what I was going to be mad at

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<v Speaker 3>is she didn't eat it. I would have ate it,

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<v Speaker 3>and then I got my food. My food was nasty.

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm already mad now because she got the good ship.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't. I'm not thought to order right. I was like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 3>yes you can have the salmon, but yeah, that's my

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<v Speaker 3>that's my bad choice of the week. But yes, I

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<v Speaker 3>needed to have a backbone. But I just I let

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<v Speaker 3>it fly on that on that moment.

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<v Speaker 2>You don't want to be the cheap mom.

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<v Speaker 3>I did it, and I was like, I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 3>be and her mom and her mom never like her

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<v Speaker 3>mom be paying for it, like whenever I goes over there,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, she takes care of my daughter.

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<v Speaker 4>So I was like, that's nice.

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<v Speaker 3>So I was like, fuck, we can get.

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<v Speaker 2>How How was your How was your birth with twins?

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<v Speaker 4>I had a cesarean I.

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<v Speaker 5>They came when I was thirty two weeks and I

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<v Speaker 5>had this little Filipino man that was my.

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<v Speaker 4>Doctor. And I say that because he was short.

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<v Speaker 5>And I'm trying to give you a picture of when

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<v Speaker 5>I walked in there, what was going on. I had

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<v Speaker 5>been walking up and down the hallway. It's myself, my

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<v Speaker 5>sister who's older me, and my sister that's younger me.

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<v Speaker 5>None of them had kids before, so they don't know

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<v Speaker 5>what's going on. My mother's at work and I'm walking.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm like, I just got gas. I think if I

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<v Speaker 5>just keep walking, then you know, the gas will come

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<v Speaker 5>out or whatever. And my older sister called her friend

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<v Speaker 5>who had a son or something, and she was like,

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<v Speaker 5>just tell her go to the hospital. And I was like,

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<v Speaker 5>I don't like hospitals. I was like, even with a baby,

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<v Speaker 5>I wanted really go to the hospital. I was like, no,

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<v Speaker 5>I'll just keep walking. She was like, come on, just

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<v Speaker 5>let's go. So I go and they, you know, get

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<v Speaker 5>me out, checked in and everything. And I'm in the room.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not feeling anything, just gassy. I just feel gassy,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, but I'm not feeling anything. And the little

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<v Speaker 5>man comes in there because he was it's a little

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<v Speaker 5>Filipino man, and I'm young, so I'm probably haven't been

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<v Speaker 5>taking care of myself like I'm supposed to whatever, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>And he goes, what.

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<v Speaker 4>Is going on? You were supposed to come and see me.

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<v Speaker 3>Now I know.

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<v Speaker 4>I wasn't supposed supposed to go see this man.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't even know what he's talking about, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>And she goes supposed to come and see.

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<v Speaker 4>Me, and now you're here at this point, blah blah blah.

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<v Speaker 5>First of all, sir, calm down, calm down, We're gonna

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<v Speaker 5>be okay.

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<v Speaker 3>All right.

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<v Speaker 4>Every thirty minutes, I'm having a contraction.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't feel this. I don't feel any kind of

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<v Speaker 5>contraction or anything. And eventually he comes in and he says,

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<v Speaker 5>we're just gonna have to take the babies.

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<v Speaker 4>Now.

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<v Speaker 5>It was fine, it's cool, But in retrospect, I don't

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<v Speaker 5>think they had to do that. I think I was

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<v Speaker 5>young and they wanted the money, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 5>But it was fine, and I had a cesarean and

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<v Speaker 5>I had the kids. They were premature, two pounds for fourteen ounces,

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<v Speaker 5>two pounds fifteen ounces. I stayed in the hospital for

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<v Speaker 5>I sit there for a couple of days. They stayed

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<v Speaker 5>there for six weeks, you know, and then I kind

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<v Speaker 5>of I went every day though, And one day one

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<v Speaker 5>of the nurses told me, baby go home, and I

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<v Speaker 5>was like, well, my babies are here, you know, And she.

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<v Speaker 4>Was like, they're gonna come to you.

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<v Speaker 5>Why you can't get some rest because then when they

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<v Speaker 5>come home, you know, but you know, you got kids,

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<v Speaker 5>and you feel like this is just supposed to do.

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<v Speaker 4>Then they came home and.

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<v Speaker 2>Then rest for another twenty years.

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<v Speaker 4>There was no restsoever. But it was cool.

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<v Speaker 5>It was cool, like it was just like in retrospect,

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<v Speaker 5>it was terrifying in the beginning, but in retrospect, I'm

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<v Speaker 5>a true believer that God does everything align in alignment

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<v Speaker 5>with what is gonna be good for you, and I

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<v Speaker 5>wouldn't I wouldn't have it any other way. I was

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<v Speaker 5>just telling you, like, you know, I think that it's

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<v Speaker 5>it's a young person's sport. I'm so glad I did

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<v Speaker 5>it young because I watch people care too much. I cared,

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<v Speaker 5>but it was like, Okay, come on, like, wash your clothes.

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<v Speaker 4>What you think this is? Wash those dishes? What you

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<v Speaker 4>think this is.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not gonna be superwoman. Even if I got a husband,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not gonna be super wife. You're just gonna have

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<v Speaker 5>to take my very intense moments of being great really great.

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<v Speaker 4>I am great, I'm great.

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<v Speaker 2>But all the other times I'm gonna be regular and

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<v Speaker 2>you're gonna.

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<v Speaker 4>Have to Yeah, and it's time. I'm never regular now.

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<v Speaker 2>Never regular, but I will be.

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<v Speaker 4>Great at sometimes and sometimes I'll just be too, and

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<v Speaker 4>that in itself is so magnificent. Just deal with that,

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<v Speaker 4>you know what I mean, Take that and behad.

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<v Speaker 2>I resonate with that because I think now that I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to have another kid, I'm like, damn, I know too.

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<v Speaker 3>You're pregnant.

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<v Speaker 4>No, oh, okay, I'm say, girl, what the fuck?

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<v Speaker 3>Like where?

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<v Speaker 2>No, I'm planning to have another I just got married,

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<v Speaker 2>so I'm planning to have another kid, which is wild

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<v Speaker 2>because my kid is eleven. But I'm like, God, I

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<v Speaker 2>like when I when I was fucking twenty six, I

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<v Speaker 2>didn't know shit. I was just like la la la la,

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<v Speaker 2>la la la. I didn't know the fucking death rate

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<v Speaker 2>of like pregnant black women in the hospital. I was

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<v Speaker 2>just in there. I knew didn't want to go to

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<v Speaker 2>the hospital. I went anyway, La la la la la.

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<v Speaker 2>Now I'm like, I'm trying to block all the not

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<v Speaker 2>negative thoughts, but the truthful thoughts that I had the

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<v Speaker 2>knowledge that I know. But I do agree, and I'm scared.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, do I have energy for that shit? I

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<v Speaker 2>barely have energy for myself.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, is bliss.

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<v Speaker 2>Ignorance is bliss. I was gonna say that ignorance is

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<v Speaker 2>bliss and that, Yeah, I agree.

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<v Speaker 3>What would you say, was is one of the bigger

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<v Speaker 3>less since that your sons have taught you in motherhood.

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<v Speaker 4>The biggest lesson, that's a good question.

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<v Speaker 5>Biggest lessons my sons have taught me in motherhood patience

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<v Speaker 5>number one. And they taught me that I can do

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<v Speaker 5>any fucking thing. My sons gave me all the courage

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<v Speaker 5>in the world. I was so young and pursuing like

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<v Speaker 5>music and this shit is not girl, Go get a

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<v Speaker 5>job at the post office so you can have some

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<v Speaker 5>benefits and stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 4>I couldn't. It just wasn't in my spirit.

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<v Speaker 5>And there were times that I didn't have what I

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<v Speaker 5>needed for them and it would make me feel really

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<v Speaker 5>really bad. But they just never made me feel bad.

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<v Speaker 5>They always were such a strong arm, I guess, like

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<v Speaker 5>they were my faith. We prayed together, we you know,

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<v Speaker 5>like they were my friends. They were my faith. They

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<v Speaker 5>were these little humans that I was molding to be

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<v Speaker 5>my best friends, I guess, And they taught me that

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<v Speaker 5>I could do anything. So really that happened when they

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<v Speaker 5>got grown. By the time they left at nineteen and

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<v Speaker 5>moved to la and then I started seeing them handle

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<v Speaker 5>themselves and just be good people. Anyone that ever met

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<v Speaker 5>them would come to me say, teacher, I met your sons.

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<v Speaker 5>They're so mannerable, they're so cool.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 5>That made me feel feel really good. So I think

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<v Speaker 5>my biggest thing that I learned is like you are

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<v Speaker 5>of the top grade of baddest bitches on the planet

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<v Speaker 5>because you did that.

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<v Speaker 2>You know where did you raise them?

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<v Speaker 5>I raised them in Altadena, California, and then we moved

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<v Speaker 5>to when they were fourteen, we moved to Miami.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, yeah, you live here now.

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<v Speaker 4>I live in Miami. Okay, I'm here all the time.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't want to.

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<v Speaker 2>Be, but I am speaking of courage.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 2>We did a little research and I didn't realize that

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<v Speaker 2>you had a successful career as a wardrobe stylist. As

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<v Speaker 2>a stylist prior to your singing career.

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<v Speaker 4>It was more so of an assistant.

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<v Speaker 5>My best friend is killer Stotted by the name of

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<v Speaker 5>Naja Mackenzie, and I assisted her before I started doing music.

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<v Speaker 5>And she would say, like she would tell everybody, teacher

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<v Speaker 5>can sing, teacher can sing. I just feel like if

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<v Speaker 5>I'm if I'm a waitress, I'm a waitress. I'm not

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<v Speaker 5>going to try to kill you with And I think

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<v Speaker 5>it's cool that people do that, but I'm not kind

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<v Speaker 5>of trying to sing to you while I do the menu,

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<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not that kind of person.

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<v Speaker 5>And if I'm going to be assistant to my best

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<v Speaker 5>friend as a stylist, I'm going to do that, That's

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<v Speaker 5>what I'm gonna do. And we did really, really great work,

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<v Speaker 5>and she still works with me now, she's my stylist now.

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<v Speaker 5>But I more so was just feeding my kids. It

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<v Speaker 5>wasn't a passion. And at some point I had to

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<v Speaker 5>think about what is my passion? Because I'm seeing my

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<v Speaker 5>friend do very very well and I'm assisting here with

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<v Speaker 5>that and I love doing that, but at some point

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<v Speaker 5>I had to figure out what was my thing.

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<v Speaker 4>But fashion is really not my thing like that, to

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<v Speaker 4>be honest.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think it's cool to know that you've rebranded,

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<v Speaker 2>you've reimagined yourself multiple times, and I think a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of times women, especially moms, have a hard time doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you said, let me go get the job that

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<v Speaker 2>has the benefits, and you know, do what you gotta

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<v Speaker 2>do because that's what the world tells you to do.

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<v Speaker 2>And so like seldomly do people push past that because

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<v Speaker 2>we have mouths to feed and go do what they're

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<v Speaker 2>actually passionate about. So I commend you for doing that,

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<v Speaker 2>and like what you gave the world because you did

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<v Speaker 2>that instead of stopping there and pausing there and saying

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<v Speaker 2>this is good enough, or you know, I'm assisting my

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<v Speaker 2>best friend and you know it's putting food on the table.

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<v Speaker 2>But like, what advice would you give for women or

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<v Speaker 2>moms that are listening that maybe in a place that's good,

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<v Speaker 2>but there's something that may be resonating in their spirit

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<v Speaker 2>that's further that they want to they want to do

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<v Speaker 2>something different.

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<v Speaker 5>I would ask them, what choices would you want your

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<v Speaker 5>child to make in this situation?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 5>Because whatever you would want them to do for themselves,

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<v Speaker 5>you should do that because that's gonna make them know

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<v Speaker 5>it's okay for them to do it.

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<v Speaker 4>Do you understand what I'm saying? If you halt.

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<v Speaker 5>When they get to that scary place, they're probably gonna

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<v Speaker 5>halt too. But if you show courage, then they'll probably

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<v Speaker 5>show courage too.

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<v Speaker 2>I always saw them in that, especially women her are

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<v Speaker 2>like in fucked up relationships or relationships that are mediocre

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<v Speaker 2>as hell. I'd be like, would you let your daughter

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<v Speaker 2>date him? And then bitches rethink it real quick. I

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<v Speaker 2>mean not not all bitches move, but yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>It doesn't think about it.

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<v Speaker 2>It does make it be like, damn, you're.

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<v Speaker 5>Watching everything, right, they're watching everything, so if you really

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<v Speaker 5>That's one of my things that break my heart is

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<v Speaker 5>watching women mothers with daughters in bad relationship too, because

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<v Speaker 5>I was there as a kid. I saw that and

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<v Speaker 5>it formed a lot of my bad choices as an

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<v Speaker 5>adult trying to be in love, you know, so I

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<v Speaker 5>think you gotta be you gotta kind of like consider

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<v Speaker 5>that and if you're gonna be out here crazy and

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<v Speaker 5>foolish and just go do that away from the kids,

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<v Speaker 5>don't let them.

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<v Speaker 2>See you saw your mom being bad relationships.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, my father was crazy. You used to abuse my mom. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>And it just was like, you know, that first made

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<v Speaker 4>me really tough, like, niggain't gonna fucking hit me. I'll

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<v Speaker 4>kill that, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 3>That's how it was, you know.

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<v Speaker 5>But then it was like, Okay, I'm not as tough

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<v Speaker 5>as I think I'm not. I love this boy, I

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<v Speaker 5>love him so much, I'll do anything and I saw

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<v Speaker 5>my mother love through anything.

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<v Speaker 4>My mother loved my father when she died.

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<v Speaker 5>They weren't even together for like years, So it kind

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<v Speaker 5>of formed you into thinking, like, if I just keep loving.

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<v Speaker 4>It'll get better, because that's what I saw her do.

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<v Speaker 5>Which it never got better, but it's still just embedded

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<v Speaker 5>in me like it was. If I just keep loving

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<v Speaker 5>this person, this person eventually have to understand I love

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<v Speaker 5>them and love back or love properly. I don't think

0:21:08.359 --> 0:21:10.560
<v Speaker 5>people don't love back, they just don't love properly.

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<v Speaker 2>Did that work? And what made you?

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<v Speaker 4>Never?

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<v Speaker 2>Ever? Has that ever worked?

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<v Speaker 4>Never has that ever work? I think that.

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<v Speaker 5>My mother taught me how to love. She didn't teach

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<v Speaker 5>me how to love myself. Life taught me how to

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<v Speaker 5>love myself, you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 2>I think I think a lot of mothers, a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of our mothers don't haven't experience loving themselves, and so

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes you can't teach what you don't know. And I

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<v Speaker 2>think we are hopefully in an error where that is

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<v Speaker 2>more prominent and we're learning to do that and like

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<v Speaker 2>changing the cycle. What caused you to start loving yourself?

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<v Speaker 4>I think that I always did love myself. I'm a sattariust.

0:21:49.760 --> 0:21:52.760
<v Speaker 5>That kind of comes with territory. So I always did

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<v Speaker 5>love myself. But once again, it's the properly part.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>What is it? About seven or eight, maybe ten years.

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<v Speaker 5>Ago, I was in a relationship with this guy and

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<v Speaker 5>I went through some crazy shit and he didn't really.

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<v Speaker 4>He didn't really.

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<v Speaker 5>Stand up like he was supposed to, you know. And

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<v Speaker 5>here I'll just keep a g I'll say it. I

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<v Speaker 5>got pregnant at what forty or something like that, and

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<v Speaker 5>my sons are twenty, My sons are twenty. I'm pregnant

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<v Speaker 5>at forty for a man that is kind of similar

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<v Speaker 5>to same sun Shigne as the one that I had

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<v Speaker 5>kids with twenty years ago.

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<v Speaker 3>You know that, I'm curious.

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<v Speaker 4>I love y'all, y'all my good friend. I love all

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<v Speaker 4>of you, particular for the men libres libras.

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<v Speaker 5>And they're not bad people. They just make bad choices sometimes.

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<v Speaker 5>But you know, I'm here, I'm pregnant again. And he

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<v Speaker 5>handled it like a little kid, you know, and I

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<v Speaker 5>was already like, what the fucking I? Once again, I

0:22:58.040 --> 0:23:01.000
<v Speaker 5>didn't get an abortion first time. I wasn't gonna do

0:23:01.000 --> 0:23:04.040
<v Speaker 5>it the second time, but god, I ended up having

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<v Speaker 5>a miscarriage at rehearsal in the UK, like, you know,

0:23:07.280 --> 0:23:09.640
<v Speaker 5>just everything just and I.

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<v Speaker 2>Was really grateful.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean God's speak, that's horrible because I know people

0:23:13.280 --> 0:23:15.200
<v Speaker 5>want to have babies, but I was very grateful because

0:23:15.200 --> 0:23:16.800
<v Speaker 5>I didn't want to have that kid. But the way

0:23:16.800 --> 0:23:19.000
<v Speaker 5>I felt from the time that I found out to

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<v Speaker 5>the time.

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<v Speaker 4>That it went away.

0:23:20.640 --> 0:23:22.359
<v Speaker 5>I had to call my twenty year old sons and

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<v Speaker 5>tell them that I was pregnant.

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<v Speaker 3>Even know how they take that.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh, they were like, oh, you're gonna be a great mom.

0:23:29.280 --> 0:23:30.800
<v Speaker 5>Great when you were a kid. Look what you did

0:23:30.800 --> 0:23:32.560
<v Speaker 5>with us, She's gonna do great. Right, They were like,

0:23:32.800 --> 0:23:34.199
<v Speaker 5>you're gonna be fine, don't worry about and.

0:23:34.160 --> 0:23:34.840
<v Speaker 4>We're gonna help you.

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<v Speaker 2>You're gonna be It makes me want to cry.

0:23:36.520 --> 0:23:39.040
<v Speaker 5>I'm about to cry too, because then when it I

0:23:39.080 --> 0:23:42.320
<v Speaker 5>told him I had I had a miscarriage, my son

0:23:42.400 --> 0:23:46.040
<v Speaker 5>Todge was like, that's so good for you because you

0:23:46.119 --> 0:23:48.399
<v Speaker 5>spent all your life raising up and you know you

0:23:48.520 --> 0:23:50.280
<v Speaker 5>deserve to go out and do your thing, you know.

0:23:50.359 --> 0:23:54.960
<v Speaker 5>But yeah, and that really it more than he affected me.

0:23:56.320 --> 0:23:59.080
<v Speaker 5>How I didn't care for myself to have myself in

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<v Speaker 5>that situation, not get ain't pregnant, that's not the part.

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<v Speaker 4>But for this person, do you understand what I'm saying?

0:24:04.080 --> 0:24:07.040
<v Speaker 5>This person? That you didn't feel safe with this person?

0:24:07.040 --> 0:24:08.480
<v Speaker 5>So how you're gonna bring a child into the world?

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<v Speaker 5>Why would you put yourself in this position? It made

0:24:10.560 --> 0:24:12.959
<v Speaker 5>me feel so low about myself that I had to

0:24:13.359 --> 0:24:16.840
<v Speaker 5>really focus on the great things about me and learn

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<v Speaker 5>more about why I was there and pull myself.

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<v Speaker 4>Out of that. And then I started to really love

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<v Speaker 4>myself properly, like.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm unfuckuiable now because I don't give a fuck. You

0:24:27.080 --> 0:24:30.199
<v Speaker 5>cannot tell me that I'm not the baddest of the

0:24:30.240 --> 0:24:31.080
<v Speaker 5>baddest bitches.

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<v Speaker 4>And I'm not talking about the looks or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm loved.

0:24:35.280 --> 0:24:37.960
<v Speaker 5>God loves me, My family loves me, My children love me.

0:24:38.160 --> 0:24:39.919
<v Speaker 5>People I don't fucking know love me.

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<v Speaker 4>Do you understand what I'm saying?

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<v Speaker 5>So love is a thing for me, and I'm okay

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<v Speaker 5>with that now, And I think it's rooted in the

0:24:46.359 --> 0:24:49.200
<v Speaker 5>fact that I love myself enough to not be loved

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<v Speaker 5>by others.

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<v Speaker 4>If you don't want to, it's okay. I got enough.

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<v Speaker 2>That is That is such a statement because I think

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of a lot of times the epiphany comes

0:24:57.280 --> 0:25:00.720
<v Speaker 2>when you are for women, because I think women die

0:25:00.800 --> 0:25:04.400
<v Speaker 2>on this hill of relationships. Yeah, I see so many smart,

0:25:05.160 --> 0:25:08.560
<v Speaker 2>talented women like poor into men that are not worthy,

0:25:08.600 --> 0:25:11.160
<v Speaker 2>and it fucks up their whole trajectory. Like I've seen

0:25:11.160 --> 0:25:13.480
<v Speaker 2>my mom do that. I've seen just so many women

0:25:13.640 --> 0:25:16.200
<v Speaker 2>just put themselves second to love or to a relationship.

0:25:16.320 --> 0:25:19.000
<v Speaker 2>And I think sometimes that turning point is sometimes when

0:25:19.080 --> 0:25:21.600
<v Speaker 2>you're like, how the fuck do I love myself if

0:25:21.600 --> 0:25:25.280
<v Speaker 2>I'm fucking with you? You know exactly. There's always a pivotal moment,

0:25:25.359 --> 0:25:27.679
<v Speaker 2>hopefully when you're in a fucked up relationship and you

0:25:27.760 --> 0:25:29.199
<v Speaker 2>have to be real with yourself, because I think it's

0:25:29.200 --> 0:25:31.640
<v Speaker 2>also not cool to be like, I'm not loving myself properly.

0:25:31.800 --> 0:25:33.639
<v Speaker 2>It's not popular. It's not like I'm a bad bitch,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, Dad, I love myself. But when you realize

0:25:35.760 --> 0:25:38.359
<v Speaker 2>like that is a fucking lie, because if I'm fucking

0:25:38.359 --> 0:25:40.080
<v Speaker 2>with you, I'm laying with you on money, you come

0:25:40.320 --> 0:25:42.919
<v Speaker 2>near me, come in me, then how the fuck is

0:25:42.960 --> 0:25:45.919
<v Speaker 2>that possible? So I think that's always like if you

0:25:45.960 --> 0:25:49.320
<v Speaker 2>can have the introspect to ask yourself, is the relationship

0:25:49.359 --> 0:25:53.120
<v Speaker 2>I'm in validate the way that I love myself. Then

0:25:53.160 --> 0:25:55.760
<v Speaker 2>you can have clarity around if you're loving yourself properly.

0:25:55.840 --> 0:25:59.840
<v Speaker 2>But what a beautiful blessing that you created two men

0:26:00.040 --> 0:26:01.040
<v Speaker 2>that supported you.

0:26:01.040 --> 0:26:01.679
<v Speaker 4>That are married.

0:26:01.880 --> 0:26:04.720
<v Speaker 5>They're both married and their wives tell me all the

0:26:04.760 --> 0:26:07.800
<v Speaker 5>time he did such a good job, my biggest fucking

0:26:08.320 --> 0:26:10.399
<v Speaker 5>you know what I'm saying, because I wasn't trying to

0:26:10.400 --> 0:26:14.000
<v Speaker 5>contribute to the world that type of man that would

0:26:14.000 --> 0:26:16.119
<v Speaker 5>make a woman feel like how I've been made to feel.

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<v Speaker 4>And let's be clear. I want to make it clear because.

0:26:18.119 --> 0:26:19.760
<v Speaker 5>I don't want to make anybody think I'm a down

0:26:19.760 --> 0:26:23.919
<v Speaker 5>trodden bitch because I'm not what I accept as not

0:26:23.960 --> 0:26:26.080
<v Speaker 5>being treated well might be good for somebody else.

0:26:26.080 --> 0:26:27.480
<v Speaker 2>What do you call it? A down? What bitch?

0:26:27.600 --> 0:26:28.200
<v Speaker 4>Down trodden?

0:26:28.560 --> 0:26:28.800
<v Speaker 2>Down?

0:26:30.440 --> 0:26:33.520
<v Speaker 5>Like just like you know, lowly and just let people

0:26:33.560 --> 0:26:34.640
<v Speaker 5>stump on them and ship.

0:26:34.760 --> 0:26:36.399
<v Speaker 4>That's not That's not my thing.

0:26:36.480 --> 0:26:39.040
<v Speaker 5>And so when I say I've been you know that situation,

0:26:39.119 --> 0:26:41.480
<v Speaker 5>I wasn't. It just wasn't what I wanted it to be,

0:26:41.560 --> 0:26:42.120
<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean.

0:26:42.119 --> 0:26:42.560
<v Speaker 4>But it's not.

0:26:42.960 --> 0:26:45.200
<v Speaker 5>He didn't treat me bad bad back in that situation.

0:26:45.320 --> 0:26:47.119
<v Speaker 5>He didn't step up like I thought he should. But

0:26:47.160 --> 0:26:52.200
<v Speaker 5>I think a lot of times women that.

0:26:50.600 --> 0:26:54.080
<v Speaker 4>That grow up with mothers that have bad relationships.

0:26:54.880 --> 0:26:58.200
<v Speaker 5>Your criteria can give come a little bit loyal Lord,

0:26:58.200 --> 0:27:00.480
<v Speaker 5>Because with my children's father, if we got to argument

0:27:00.480 --> 0:27:01.800
<v Speaker 5>and he called me a bitch, I didn't think twice

0:27:01.800 --> 0:27:05.600
<v Speaker 5>about it because my father beat my mom. So that's better, right,

0:27:06.000 --> 0:27:08.119
<v Speaker 5>just be called the bitch, you know, so I would

0:27:08.160 --> 0:27:10.639
<v Speaker 5>like to point that out. I'm not down trodden, but

0:27:10.720 --> 0:27:12.560
<v Speaker 5>I did get to a place that I needed to be.

0:27:12.640 --> 0:27:13.320
<v Speaker 4>I thank God for that.

0:27:13.400 --> 0:27:13.520
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:27:13.560 --> 0:27:15.639
<v Speaker 4>We're friends now, we're super cool. He just brought me

0:27:15.640 --> 0:27:16.480
<v Speaker 4>some dining room chairs.

0:27:17.480 --> 0:27:18.000
<v Speaker 2>That's lovely.

0:27:19.359 --> 0:27:19.879
<v Speaker 4>We're friends now.

0:27:19.880 --> 0:27:20.200
<v Speaker 3>We cool.

0:27:20.560 --> 0:27:22.320
<v Speaker 4>We just became friends like two days.

0:27:22.119 --> 0:27:26.600
<v Speaker 2>Ago, but we cool.

0:27:26.640 --> 0:27:28.720
<v Speaker 5>We got past it and he said his piece about

0:27:28.760 --> 0:27:29.760
<v Speaker 5>you know, I'm big on that.

0:27:30.080 --> 0:27:31.520
<v Speaker 4>Sorry's a big deal to me.

0:27:31.600 --> 0:27:33.360
<v Speaker 5>He sent his piece on how we got there and

0:27:33.400 --> 0:27:35.720
<v Speaker 5>how he felt, and we worked it out and we're

0:27:35.720 --> 0:27:36.160
<v Speaker 5>cool now.

0:27:36.320 --> 0:27:39.800
<v Speaker 4>And back to my sons though, Yeah, they are with

0:27:40.080 --> 0:27:41.640
<v Speaker 4>wives that love.

0:27:41.520 --> 0:27:43.480
<v Speaker 5>Them very much, and I'm very proud of them, and

0:27:43.520 --> 0:27:47.480
<v Speaker 5>I feel very blessed that there. If I never have

0:27:48.080 --> 0:27:51.680
<v Speaker 5>what I deem to be this great love, if they

0:27:51.720 --> 0:27:52.919
<v Speaker 5>get it, I'm good with that.

0:27:53.560 --> 0:27:54.639
<v Speaker 4>I really am, you know.

0:27:54.680 --> 0:27:57.240
<v Speaker 2>I think it's also really important that you speak the truth.

0:27:57.280 --> 0:27:59.919
<v Speaker 2>And like I think sometimes when people make, you know,

0:28:00.240 --> 0:28:02.560
<v Speaker 2>have conversations about shit like this, and they think it's, oh,

0:28:02.560 --> 0:28:04.520
<v Speaker 2>you're down trout and bitch, I'm rathi. I have to

0:28:04.600 --> 0:28:08.600
<v Speaker 2>use that now. Yes, a lot of strong bitches, successful

0:28:08.680 --> 0:28:12.320
<v Speaker 2>smart strong bitches being down trouten relationships they do one

0:28:12.359 --> 0:28:14.119
<v Speaker 2>thing does not mean the other, like I think a

0:28:14.119 --> 0:28:16.440
<v Speaker 2>lot of times, and then women who are in powerful positions,

0:28:16.680 --> 0:28:19.960
<v Speaker 2>who consider themselves smart or confident, are embarrassed or shamed

0:28:20.400 --> 0:28:24.000
<v Speaker 2>about talking publicly about being in fucked up relationships because

0:28:24.000 --> 0:28:25.200
<v Speaker 2>they're like, they don't want to be seen in a

0:28:25.240 --> 0:28:27.560
<v Speaker 2>certain way. So I think it's powerful and important that

0:28:27.600 --> 0:28:31.480
<v Speaker 2>you say these things because even the smartest, confidentness, baddest

0:28:31.480 --> 0:28:33.479
<v Speaker 2>bitch can be in a fucked up relationship because love

0:28:33.480 --> 0:28:35.440
<v Speaker 2>can have you fucked up. So I think it's important that,

0:28:35.680 --> 0:28:38.440
<v Speaker 2>you know, we remove the shame out of making bad

0:28:38.640 --> 0:28:40.640
<v Speaker 2>relationship decisions, because we've all done it, you know.

0:28:40.640 --> 0:28:44.040
<v Speaker 4>Because we all just want love. We do. But then

0:28:44.040 --> 0:28:47.080
<v Speaker 4>when we start to when it clicked to.

0:28:47.040 --> 0:28:49.400
<v Speaker 5>Me, like I've been all this time looking for something

0:28:49.400 --> 0:28:52.800
<v Speaker 5>that's right here, I've been everywhere looking for this shit

0:28:52.880 --> 0:28:55.080
<v Speaker 5>that's right here and I'm full of it. And so

0:28:55.480 --> 0:28:58.080
<v Speaker 5>I start to first tap into my son's love me

0:28:58.120 --> 0:29:00.480
<v Speaker 5>so much. Then I start to tap into my sisters

0:29:00.480 --> 0:29:02.200
<v Speaker 5>and my brother loved me so much, my best friend

0:29:02.240 --> 0:29:02.920
<v Speaker 5>loves me so much.

0:29:03.040 --> 0:29:05.160
<v Speaker 4>And then it got back around to like you love you.

0:29:05.440 --> 0:29:08.840
<v Speaker 5>But I kind of put aside being a young mom,

0:29:09.600 --> 0:29:11.800
<v Speaker 5>single mom. The entire time, I didn't really date much

0:29:11.800 --> 0:29:13.160
<v Speaker 5>because I had to take care of my kids and

0:29:13.200 --> 0:29:13.800
<v Speaker 5>get some money.

0:29:13.960 --> 0:29:16.280
<v Speaker 4>And if you weren't coming over here with more than

0:29:16.320 --> 0:29:20.800
<v Speaker 4>some good dick, I'm good. I could see you like

0:29:20.840 --> 0:29:23.080
<v Speaker 4>every three months then be straight. You know what I'm saying.

0:29:23.120 --> 0:29:24.800
<v Speaker 4>If that you know. So, I didn't really date.

0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:27.920
<v Speaker 5>So when I got to this point where I'm looking

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:31.800
<v Speaker 5>at me now loving myself, I'm like, wow, I was searching.

0:29:32.000 --> 0:29:34.880
<v Speaker 5>I wanted, I was longing, not even searching, longing for

0:29:34.960 --> 0:29:37.800
<v Speaker 5>this love that was right here the entire time. Now,

0:29:37.960 --> 0:29:40.720
<v Speaker 5>the other side of loving yourself is you might gotta

0:29:40.720 --> 0:29:43.320
<v Speaker 5>be alone for a low while. You might because you

0:29:43.360 --> 0:29:46.440
<v Speaker 5>got criteria. That's like off, it's out of there. Now

0:29:47.000 --> 0:29:50.440
<v Speaker 5>you love yourself now, like, I'm not looking for crumbs

0:29:50.960 --> 0:29:52.800
<v Speaker 5>at all, absolutely not.

0:29:53.440 --> 0:29:55.920
<v Speaker 4>I want the whole big. I want the big whammy.

0:29:56.400 --> 0:29:59.959
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I always say desperation. Desperation attract spottom feeders.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I'm curious that what is like as you speak

0:30:03.320 --> 0:30:05.040
<v Speaker 3>about love? And also I'm thinking of your song that

0:30:05.080 --> 0:30:06.800
<v Speaker 3>I love so much, and I'm thinking about how that

0:30:07.400 --> 0:30:10.120
<v Speaker 3>song that you have, you know that we all know,

0:30:11.200 --> 0:30:15.120
<v Speaker 3>could be turned into like yourself right. But I'm curious,

0:30:15.160 --> 0:30:18.960
<v Speaker 3>now what does love look like for you? Like what

0:30:19.080 --> 0:30:22.800
<v Speaker 3>is your definition of not self love, but like romantic love,

0:30:22.880 --> 0:30:23.800
<v Speaker 3>romantic love life?

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<v Speaker 5>You know, first thing first, I want to love a

0:30:29.000 --> 0:30:33.600
<v Speaker 5>man that loves himself so he doesn't rely on my

0:30:33.680 --> 0:30:37.720
<v Speaker 5>love in a needy way. Some people want to be needed,

0:30:38.000 --> 0:30:41.920
<v Speaker 5>you know. I just want you to want me enough.

0:30:42.360 --> 0:30:42.800
<v Speaker 4>That's it.

0:30:42.920 --> 0:30:46.120
<v Speaker 5>Like I don't I don't like obligations, you know what

0:30:46.160 --> 0:30:50.000
<v Speaker 5>I mean. So romantic life for me is just fun.

0:30:50.080 --> 0:30:52.640
<v Speaker 5>I'm fifty fucking years old. I'm not looking to marry

0:30:52.640 --> 0:30:54.840
<v Speaker 5>you or have children. Maybe I could use a pop

0:30:54.880 --> 0:30:56.680
<v Speaker 5>off for my grandkids when they come, you know what

0:30:56.720 --> 0:30:59.240
<v Speaker 5>I mean, something like that. But it's a good time

0:30:59.280 --> 0:31:02.200
<v Speaker 5>for me. It's like we are choosing this. We are

0:31:02.200 --> 0:31:05.920
<v Speaker 5>not young people that feel like we need we need this.

0:31:05.920 --> 0:31:07.320
<v Speaker 5>This is a part of what you need in life. No,

0:31:07.440 --> 0:31:10.840
<v Speaker 5>we are choosing this. We've made it to this point, successful,

0:31:11.040 --> 0:31:13.760
<v Speaker 5>comfortable with ourselves. Now let's just have a good time.

0:31:13.920 --> 0:31:14.240
<v Speaker 3>You know what.

0:31:14.360 --> 0:31:17.200
<v Speaker 5>The perfect example, and I wish I wrote this song.

0:31:17.600 --> 0:31:22.000
<v Speaker 5>The perfect example of what I want my romantic life

0:31:22.000 --> 0:31:25.080
<v Speaker 5>to look like now is Olivia Dean's.

0:31:24.800 --> 0:31:26.400
<v Speaker 4>Nice to each other. That's it.

0:31:26.520 --> 0:31:28.960
<v Speaker 5>We can be nice to each other, good for each other,

0:31:29.000 --> 0:31:32.240
<v Speaker 5>wrong for each other. We could just be here being

0:31:32.280 --> 0:31:35.240
<v Speaker 5>good together. We don't have to like, you know, you

0:31:35.280 --> 0:31:37.680
<v Speaker 5>can't fuck with nobody else. Got to just be me.

0:31:38.200 --> 0:31:40.440
<v Speaker 5>And that's my ego. My ego couldn't handle.

0:31:40.480 --> 0:31:41.080
<v Speaker 3>It's no sharing.

0:31:41.240 --> 0:31:43.040
<v Speaker 4>No, it's no sharing. I'm not into that.

0:31:43.240 --> 0:31:45.160
<v Speaker 5>But we can be good like if you have to

0:31:45.200 --> 0:31:49.000
<v Speaker 5>be there, you know, we can just communicate and stimulate

0:31:49.080 --> 0:31:49.480
<v Speaker 5>one another.

0:31:49.520 --> 0:31:50.320
<v Speaker 4>It's just be good.

0:31:50.480 --> 0:31:53.640
<v Speaker 5>I don't want stressed. My life is super good. So

0:31:53.640 --> 0:31:55.400
<v Speaker 5>if you come over here, let's have a good time.

0:31:55.520 --> 0:31:55.840
<v Speaker 4>That's all.

0:31:55.880 --> 0:31:58.640
<v Speaker 5>I just want a good time. Good sexist is imperative,

0:31:59.000 --> 0:32:01.720
<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean. Good commis station stimulate my mind.

0:32:01.760 --> 0:32:03.800
<v Speaker 5>I'll try to stimulate yours. When you need time away,

0:32:03.880 --> 0:32:05.240
<v Speaker 5>just tell me I need time away.

0:32:05.280 --> 0:32:07.360
<v Speaker 4>I'll tell you. Never want to live with nobody.

0:32:07.440 --> 0:32:10.400
<v Speaker 3>I was gonna ask you that next ever, No, you can't.

0:32:10.200 --> 0:32:13.440
<v Speaker 5>Even live down the street for me. No, because I

0:32:13.480 --> 0:32:16.240
<v Speaker 5>want time alone. I've been alone a long time, right,

0:32:16.480 --> 0:32:18.240
<v Speaker 5>And people say, teacher, but when you fall in love,

0:32:18.280 --> 0:32:20.760
<v Speaker 5>But no, this is who I am. You're talking to

0:32:20.840 --> 0:32:23.280
<v Speaker 5>a grown woman. I know who I am. I need time.

0:32:23.600 --> 0:32:26.280
<v Speaker 5>I like to miss people. I live away from my family,

0:32:26.280 --> 0:32:27.840
<v Speaker 5>who I love more than I love anybody.

0:32:28.120 --> 0:32:29.240
<v Speaker 4>I like to miss people.

0:32:29.560 --> 0:32:31.200
<v Speaker 5>So at this point, I would love for you to

0:32:31.240 --> 0:32:33.600
<v Speaker 5>live like me and Miami, You in New York, you

0:32:33.600 --> 0:32:35.560
<v Speaker 5>know what I mean, California or somebody.

0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:36.560
<v Speaker 4>Like I travel. I go anywhere.

0:32:36.760 --> 0:32:39.600
<v Speaker 5>Flights take you wherever you want to go. He could

0:32:39.640 --> 0:32:42.719
<v Speaker 5>live in Indonesia. I'll just go stay Indonesia for a year.

0:32:42.720 --> 0:32:44.720
<v Speaker 5>And they're like, maybe I gotta go and I'll come

0:32:44.760 --> 0:32:46.040
<v Speaker 5>back and you can come stay with me.

0:32:46.120 --> 0:32:47.560
<v Speaker 4>But I don't want to.

0:32:48.240 --> 0:32:50.000
<v Speaker 5>I guess when I break it all down, for everything

0:32:50.040 --> 0:32:53.000
<v Speaker 5>I've said, I want us to want to be together.

0:32:53.680 --> 0:32:55.960
<v Speaker 5>I want us to choose it every single day. I

0:32:55.960 --> 0:32:57.680
<v Speaker 5>don't want to be your obligation. I don't want you

0:32:57.720 --> 0:32:58.440
<v Speaker 5>to be my obligation.

0:32:59.000 --> 0:33:01.720
<v Speaker 3>Is there any physical that is a requirement for you?

0:33:01.840 --> 0:33:04.000
<v Speaker 3>Do you have a type I don't.

0:33:04.280 --> 0:33:06.680
<v Speaker 4>It's horrible. I wish I could figure out how that works.

0:33:06.720 --> 0:33:10.479
<v Speaker 4>But I think the type is part. It's not physical.

0:33:10.600 --> 0:33:13.880
<v Speaker 5>First of all, I'm a person that I don't like

0:33:14.000 --> 0:33:16.840
<v Speaker 5>big guys because that makes me think you don't take

0:33:16.880 --> 0:33:19.240
<v Speaker 5>care of yourself, and loving yourself is very important to me.

0:33:19.520 --> 0:33:21.160
<v Speaker 5>If you don't, like if you're a big guy and

0:33:21.160 --> 0:33:22.959
<v Speaker 5>you're like muscular, or you like work out and kind

0:33:22.960 --> 0:33:25.040
<v Speaker 5>of keep it together. Cool, But someone that just kind

0:33:25.040 --> 0:33:26.800
<v Speaker 5>of lets themself go, even if you're a small guy,

0:33:26.880 --> 0:33:28.280
<v Speaker 5>you just don't take care of yourself.

0:33:28.360 --> 0:33:31.040
<v Speaker 4>That's that's not cool to me. That's that doesn't work

0:33:31.040 --> 0:33:31.240
<v Speaker 4>for me.

0:33:31.600 --> 0:33:35.080
<v Speaker 5>But I don't deal in the physical as much because

0:33:35.800 --> 0:33:38.000
<v Speaker 5>I like a guy that looks tall and handsome and stuff,

0:33:38.040 --> 0:33:40.200
<v Speaker 5>you know, But if you open your mouth and you

0:33:40.280 --> 0:33:42.920
<v Speaker 5>sound ridiculous, that goes w w wam you know, And

0:33:42.960 --> 0:33:46.640
<v Speaker 5>I will date a guy is my height if he's

0:33:46.680 --> 0:33:48.320
<v Speaker 5>just if he stimulates me enough.

0:33:48.440 --> 0:33:49.520
<v Speaker 4>I don't really have a type.

0:33:50.000 --> 0:33:52.600
<v Speaker 5>I like nice eyes and teeth. I guess that's would

0:33:52.640 --> 0:33:53.920
<v Speaker 5>be the one thing, because I have to look at.

0:33:53.800 --> 0:33:54.480
<v Speaker 2>Your face teeth.

0:33:54.600 --> 0:33:56.480
<v Speaker 3>Would you date someone in the same industry as you?

0:33:57.280 --> 0:33:59.000
<v Speaker 5>I mean, I don't have a problem with that, not

0:33:59.080 --> 0:34:02.000
<v Speaker 5>at all. I mean I think we get a bad rap. Fuck,

0:34:02.040 --> 0:34:04.520
<v Speaker 5>we all crazy. You might as well date each other

0:34:04.560 --> 0:34:05.480
<v Speaker 5>because we're fucking crazy.

0:34:05.520 --> 0:34:08.840
<v Speaker 4>We shouldn't do that to other people. We really shouldn't.

0:34:09.000 --> 0:34:09.560
<v Speaker 4>We're nuts.

0:34:11.480 --> 0:34:13.279
<v Speaker 3>Well, I would love to play a game with you

0:34:13.440 --> 0:34:15.360
<v Speaker 3>that we like to play on our show called Trigger.

0:34:15.440 --> 0:34:18.360
<v Speaker 3>But before we do, I think we should light this blunt.

0:34:18.560 --> 0:34:19.759
<v Speaker 2>I put some energy to ours.

0:34:19.840 --> 0:34:22.479
<v Speaker 3>We are already thirty three minutes in and we ain't

0:34:22.520 --> 0:34:23.759
<v Speaker 3>even I.

0:34:23.760 --> 0:34:26.480
<v Speaker 2>I was trying to expare us from like getting too

0:34:26.600 --> 0:34:31.840
<v Speaker 2>high too soon. So we've established our intelligence. Now we'll

0:34:31.840 --> 0:34:34.600
<v Speaker 2>just smoke, because you know what happens if we spoke

0:34:34.640 --> 0:34:37.439
<v Speaker 2>too soon. So this is for the love that's long

0:34:37.480 --> 0:34:41.719
<v Speaker 2>distance but present and committed and fun and pleasurable, well

0:34:41.840 --> 0:34:44.640
<v Speaker 2>endowed and can put it down in the bedroom. This

0:34:44.840 --> 0:34:48.319
<v Speaker 2>is for the love of for just for health, and

0:34:48.400 --> 0:34:51.239
<v Speaker 2>for finances that may we never have to work very

0:34:51.320 --> 0:34:53.840
<v Speaker 2>hard to be taken care of in the highest luxury. Lord,

0:34:54.360 --> 0:34:56.480
<v Speaker 2>just put all of that into this wonderful flower that

0:34:56.520 --> 0:34:59.080
<v Speaker 2>you've created and blessed us with, And for all of

0:34:59.120 --> 0:35:01.319
<v Speaker 2>our listeners, I pray that for you too, and.

0:35:01.320 --> 0:35:03.600
<v Speaker 4>Good conception of a beautiful baby that you're.

0:35:03.480 --> 0:35:08.360
<v Speaker 2>Gonna have, Oh, thank you, healthy, beautiful, easeful home birth

0:35:08.600 --> 0:35:13.239
<v Speaker 2>and baby and a very patient, filled easy baby that

0:35:13.320 --> 0:35:16.480
<v Speaker 2>doesn't need a lot and doesn't cry too much and

0:35:16.560 --> 0:35:17.439
<v Speaker 2>knows his mother.

0:35:18.040 --> 0:35:26.200
<v Speaker 3>Amen. So the game is called trigger, and it goes

0:35:26.239 --> 0:35:29.200
<v Speaker 3>a little something like this. I'm gonna say a word,

0:35:29.560 --> 0:35:31.200
<v Speaker 3>and then you're gonna say the first thing that comes

0:35:31.200 --> 0:35:35.080
<v Speaker 3>to mind. Alright, don't overthink it, I won't. Okay, would

0:35:35.080 --> 0:35:36.040
<v Speaker 3>you like to hit this first.

0:35:36.400 --> 0:35:38.000
<v Speaker 5>We're gonna grow when you and when it gets to me,

0:35:38.000 --> 0:35:39.760
<v Speaker 5>we're gonna we're gonna keep it in proper rotation.

0:35:39.800 --> 0:35:46.400
<v Speaker 3>Okay, all right, here we go. We are triggering mis teacher, Moses, y'all,

0:35:48.560 --> 0:35:58.320
<v Speaker 3>bad habits, the man. I've loved marriage, never religion.

0:35:58.880 --> 0:35:59.440
<v Speaker 4>I don't do that.

0:36:00.360 --> 0:36:06.880
<v Speaker 3>New Orleans home nas the best. Wait you wrote that

0:36:06.880 --> 0:36:07.640
<v Speaker 3>song about him? Right?

0:36:07.719 --> 0:36:07.879
<v Speaker 4>Yes?

0:36:07.920 --> 0:36:10.640
<v Speaker 3>I did? Okay, last time you had sex?

0:36:13.280 --> 0:36:14.120
<v Speaker 4>Too long ago?

0:36:14.560 --> 0:36:15.080
<v Speaker 3>What's long?

0:36:15.080 --> 0:36:15.319
<v Speaker 2>Ago?

0:36:16.239 --> 0:36:18.200
<v Speaker 4>Long long? I'm not gonna tell nobody my business like

0:36:18.280 --> 0:36:20.840
<v Speaker 4>that long?

0:36:21.000 --> 0:36:24.279
<v Speaker 5>No, really really like nobody could do what I do,

0:36:26.200 --> 0:36:27.879
<v Speaker 5>like wait that long or wait that long?

0:36:27.920 --> 0:36:30.840
<v Speaker 4>Because okay, So like very briefly, I'll tell.

0:36:30.680 --> 0:36:34.560
<v Speaker 5>You I don't smoke bad weed. I only smoke premium weed. Right,

0:36:34.640 --> 0:36:36.600
<v Speaker 5>I don't eat bad food. You're never gonna see me

0:36:36.640 --> 0:36:38.279
<v Speaker 5>in the line of no damn McDonald's. I don't eat

0:36:38.320 --> 0:36:39.920
<v Speaker 5>like that, you know what I mean. I wear clothes

0:36:39.920 --> 0:36:41.799
<v Speaker 5>that feel good on my body, and you see what I'm saying.

0:36:41.800 --> 0:36:44.240
<v Speaker 5>I'd be around people that are the top notch people.

0:36:44.600 --> 0:36:47.520
<v Speaker 5>I'm not fucking somebody just to be fucking. We're gonna

0:36:47.560 --> 0:36:48.799
<v Speaker 5>do this and it's gonna be good and it's gonna

0:36:48.800 --> 0:36:50.359
<v Speaker 5>feel built good to every.

0:36:50.120 --> 0:36:52.040
<v Speaker 4>Part of my being, or we're not doing this.

0:36:52.320 --> 0:36:54.080
<v Speaker 5>And so if I don't come across that, I really

0:36:54.120 --> 0:36:55.920
<v Speaker 5>am not interested in having sex. I'm not one of

0:36:55.960 --> 0:36:57.879
<v Speaker 5>those people that get drunk enough to have sex. If

0:36:57.880 --> 0:36:59.440
<v Speaker 5>I don't want to fuck you sober, I do not

0:36:59.480 --> 0:37:00.720
<v Speaker 5>want to fuck you drunk.

0:37:00.719 --> 0:37:03.160
<v Speaker 4>You would have to rake me. Oh Jesus, I'm serious.

0:37:03.360 --> 0:37:05.480
<v Speaker 5>This is the truth. I'm just not that kind of person.

0:37:06.239 --> 0:37:08.479
<v Speaker 5>I do not want anything that's not.

0:37:08.640 --> 0:37:11.640
<v Speaker 4>Of the quality that I want. I rather starve, and

0:37:11.719 --> 0:37:13.080
<v Speaker 4>I've been starving.

0:37:12.680 --> 0:37:15.759
<v Speaker 2>Baby luxury dick only I've been luxury dick. I've been

0:37:15.800 --> 0:37:19.640
<v Speaker 2>starving organic, organic, luxury, locally grown.

0:37:19.880 --> 0:37:22.400
<v Speaker 4>Want to starve, I don't either. So let's make a

0:37:22.480 --> 0:37:24.880
<v Speaker 4>p S a. It's not my fault.

0:37:24.920 --> 0:37:29.000
<v Speaker 5>But don't come into d MS if you got there's

0:37:29.040 --> 0:37:29.640
<v Speaker 5>a lot of men.

0:37:29.760 --> 0:37:31.240
<v Speaker 2>There's a lot of men that don't.

0:37:31.360 --> 0:37:34.520
<v Speaker 4>Don't pop for mediocre. I puts it on pop for nonchalance.

0:37:35.200 --> 0:37:36.040
<v Speaker 4>It just doesn't puss.

0:37:36.040 --> 0:37:38.600
<v Speaker 2>It is not here for mediocre and anything.

0:37:39.880 --> 0:37:47.960
<v Speaker 3>Okay, Well, favorite porn category probably, Uh, I don't know.

0:37:50.160 --> 0:37:50.560
<v Speaker 3>I don't know.

0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:54.600
<v Speaker 5>You watch I have, I have, but I'm trying to

0:37:54.600 --> 0:37:56.640
<v Speaker 5>think of I don't. I don't think i'm watch enough.

0:37:56.440 --> 0:37:56.920
<v Speaker 3>To know a cate.

0:37:57.400 --> 0:37:58.319
<v Speaker 2>I guess that's what it is.

0:37:59.480 --> 0:38:05.920
<v Speaker 4>Whatever, let's get this thing off. It's only necessity. It's like,

0:38:05.960 --> 0:38:07.279
<v Speaker 4>that's not a something I.

0:38:07.280 --> 0:38:08.279
<v Speaker 2>Just do to just be doing.

0:38:08.400 --> 0:38:12.800
<v Speaker 3>You know, white men they're nice, Would you date them? No? Okay,

0:38:12.840 --> 0:38:14.320
<v Speaker 3>so that's you do have a preference.

0:38:14.640 --> 0:38:16.920
<v Speaker 4>Okay, all right, black men in my preference?

0:38:16.920 --> 0:38:21.320
<v Speaker 3>Then would you date like a Latino or like mhm?

0:38:21.800 --> 0:38:22.040
<v Speaker 2>Okay?

0:38:22.040 --> 0:38:28.400
<v Speaker 5>Because there are black latin there's black perto Ricans, Black Panamanians. Yeah,

0:38:28.560 --> 0:38:32.319
<v Speaker 5>there's black Asians. I'll date anybody if you black, you

0:38:32.440 --> 0:38:33.320
<v Speaker 5>we can relate.

0:38:33.480 --> 0:38:36.239
<v Speaker 4>That's all. It's nothing against anybody else. It's just I

0:38:36.280 --> 0:38:40.040
<v Speaker 4>need to relate. That's all. I feel safer when I

0:38:40.040 --> 0:38:41.440
<v Speaker 4>can relate, and I.

0:38:41.360 --> 0:38:43.360
<v Speaker 2>Feel like the black experience is specific.

0:38:43.800 --> 0:38:44.160
<v Speaker 3>It is.

0:38:44.960 --> 0:38:47.239
<v Speaker 4>It is because I can't be ambiguous.

0:38:47.239 --> 0:38:49.799
<v Speaker 5>You know exactly who I am, so I get I

0:38:49.840 --> 0:38:52.239
<v Speaker 5>walk through the world as a black woman. So you

0:38:52.360 --> 0:38:55.520
<v Speaker 5>have to have some kind of relation to that.

0:38:55.800 --> 0:38:57.720
<v Speaker 4>For me to really kill it.

0:39:00.400 --> 0:39:03.120
<v Speaker 2>All right, girl, get it in one moment in hell

0:39:03.360 --> 0:39:05.279
<v Speaker 2>that backward as soon as it hits you got high.

0:39:05.360 --> 0:39:07.160
<v Speaker 3>Wait, you see my trick, You see my circles.

0:39:07.680 --> 0:39:11.200
<v Speaker 2>Ready every four to twenty you must show her trick.

0:39:13.480 --> 0:39:16.560
<v Speaker 4>That is so good? Is this a tongue thing that

0:39:16.600 --> 0:39:17.120
<v Speaker 4>makes that happen?

0:39:18.320 --> 0:39:19.280
<v Speaker 2>Put the hole in the middle.

0:39:19.520 --> 0:39:20.640
<v Speaker 4>Oh, they just still got it?

0:39:21.000 --> 0:39:23.360
<v Speaker 3>Okay, clearly anyway, here you go.

0:39:23.440 --> 0:39:24.759
<v Speaker 4>It makes me think that you're good at a lot

0:39:24.760 --> 0:39:25.120
<v Speaker 4>of things.

0:39:25.160 --> 0:39:27.240
<v Speaker 3>I am a strong tongue, red at my mouth.

0:39:32.560 --> 0:39:34.960
<v Speaker 5>I have to be careful with this because you know

0:39:35.000 --> 0:39:37.480
<v Speaker 5>y'all have this. This thing has a bite on it.

0:39:37.480 --> 0:39:42.440
<v Speaker 2>It does just ease into it because have this interview.

0:39:42.520 --> 0:39:43.480
<v Speaker 2>I hope you've got a lot to do.

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<v Speaker 4>Girl. I smoked down.

0:39:46.480 --> 0:39:49.439
<v Speaker 5>I smoke down like I smokes amounts of weed.

0:39:49.560 --> 0:39:51.560
<v Speaker 3>Like daily do you wake up to smoke?

0:39:51.880 --> 0:39:53.120
<v Speaker 4>I wake and bake every morning.

0:39:53.600 --> 0:39:55.400
<v Speaker 5>I thank God and I and I thank him for

0:39:55.480 --> 0:39:59.279
<v Speaker 5>the week, just like we just did.

0:39:56.840 --> 0:40:00.759
<v Speaker 3>And deal breaker.

0:40:02.520 --> 0:40:03.760
<v Speaker 4>If you don't take care of your children.

0:40:04.000 --> 0:40:11.719
<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm. Cannabis indica all the time.

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<v Speaker 2>All that slumped me out, Baby, I can move through it.

0:40:16.719 --> 0:40:20.319
<v Speaker 4>I can function through the day being fucked up. I can't.

0:40:20.320 --> 0:40:22.239
<v Speaker 2>I mean New Orleans people are I can't.

0:40:22.239 --> 0:40:24.520
<v Speaker 3>Well. You know what, though, My stepdaddy's weed that I'm

0:40:24.760 --> 0:40:27.279
<v Speaker 3>rationing right now is.

0:40:27.280 --> 0:40:30.439
<v Speaker 4>An indicated that's so funy.

0:40:30.440 --> 0:40:32.040
<v Speaker 2>The weed I got from this little zip blog is

0:40:32.080 --> 0:40:37.320
<v Speaker 2>from my dad too, But all the daddy doesn't daddy blends.

0:40:37.400 --> 0:40:38.360
<v Speaker 2>This is a daddy blend.

0:40:38.880 --> 0:40:41.600
<v Speaker 3>Shout out to Rory. Uh he grew and Miles, he

0:40:41.600 --> 0:40:43.640
<v Speaker 3>grew this weed and it's an indicat Normally I'm not,

0:40:43.680 --> 0:40:46.560
<v Speaker 3>I like, I can do it. Yeah, but it's a

0:40:46.560 --> 0:40:48.839
<v Speaker 3>good like. I'm telling you his indicas are. They don't

0:40:48.840 --> 0:40:51.839
<v Speaker 3>make me slump. They make me relaxed. And then it's

0:40:51.880 --> 0:40:54.799
<v Speaker 3>not the longest high. But I like that. You need

0:40:54.840 --> 0:40:57.360
<v Speaker 3>to be beyond high. I'll just smoke again.

0:40:57.760 --> 0:41:00.719
<v Speaker 4>I don't even know I'm high when I'm smoking to like,

0:41:00.760 --> 0:41:03.240
<v Speaker 4>Am I high? Am I high? I don't know, Teva.

0:41:03.719 --> 0:41:06.439
<v Speaker 3>It's good for me to create sometimes, but it makes

0:41:06.480 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 3>me a little too like like two space. Yeah yeah,

0:41:10.960 --> 0:41:13.959
<v Speaker 3>hybrid is my is my perfect, my perfect happy place.

0:41:14.120 --> 0:41:14.680
<v Speaker 4>I can see that.

0:41:16.200 --> 0:41:23.080
<v Speaker 3>Mushrooms in small doses micro micro micro. You never gone

0:41:23.120 --> 0:41:24.200
<v Speaker 3>on a hero's journey.

0:41:24.840 --> 0:41:28.200
<v Speaker 5>No, I don't want to go nowhere. I might not

0:41:28.280 --> 0:41:29.160
<v Speaker 5>come back from.

0:41:29.200 --> 0:41:30.360
<v Speaker 2>You always come back.

0:41:30.840 --> 0:41:31.759
<v Speaker 4>I don't come back.

0:41:31.840 --> 0:41:33.600
<v Speaker 2>You don't come.

0:41:33.560 --> 0:41:36.160
<v Speaker 3>Actually don't go anywhere. You actually stay here, and you're

0:41:36.200 --> 0:41:39.600
<v Speaker 3>actually like the most here, your most connected self.

0:41:39.800 --> 0:41:41.640
<v Speaker 4>I think I might be low key.

0:41:43.440 --> 0:41:46.560
<v Speaker 5>Control freak a little bit with myself, not everything else.

0:41:46.600 --> 0:41:49.200
<v Speaker 5>Like I like being in control. I like I don't

0:41:49.239 --> 0:41:51.799
<v Speaker 5>like to be in anything where I can't just snap out.

0:41:51.800 --> 0:41:53.440
<v Speaker 4>That's what I love about weed. I can. You can

0:41:53.520 --> 0:41:55.560
<v Speaker 4>blow this high real quick and I can just get

0:41:55.560 --> 0:41:57.680
<v Speaker 4>it right together. Let a cop pull up behind me.

0:41:57.800 --> 0:42:00.200
<v Speaker 4>You know what I mean. I never smoked. I'm just alle.

0:42:00.560 --> 0:42:01.880
<v Speaker 4>But mushrooms is different.

0:42:02.520 --> 0:42:05.799
<v Speaker 5>You in that world, baby, Oh yeah, you gotta swim yours.

0:42:06.160 --> 0:42:09.440
<v Speaker 2>Oh baby baby, we've swimmed our way out of some

0:42:09.480 --> 0:42:10.840
<v Speaker 2>places high.

0:42:13.680 --> 0:42:14.920
<v Speaker 4>You guys have to do it with me.

0:42:15.400 --> 0:42:18.080
<v Speaker 5>I'm happy you said that, because to do it in

0:42:18.080 --> 0:42:18.680
<v Speaker 5>a safe space.

0:42:18.719 --> 0:42:20.520
<v Speaker 2>I literally was saying you should do mushrooms with us,

0:42:20.520 --> 0:42:22.800
<v Speaker 2>and you guys have heard my thoughts. I was like,

0:42:22.880 --> 0:42:24.200
<v Speaker 2>you needed mushrooms.

0:42:23.760 --> 0:42:25.480
<v Speaker 3>With us, so we we have. I don't know if

0:42:25.520 --> 0:42:28.200
<v Speaker 3>you know or we saw that we do women's retreats.

0:42:28.640 --> 0:42:31.800
<v Speaker 3>I'm high. I'm like talking like this. We do women's retreats,

0:42:31.800 --> 0:42:35.160
<v Speaker 3>and at our retreats, we typically have plant medicine. Okay, mushrooms,

0:42:35.320 --> 0:42:37.640
<v Speaker 3>and we have a ceremonial circle. And it's so different

0:42:37.640 --> 0:42:40.240
<v Speaker 3>than like just taking mushrooms and fending for yourself.

0:42:40.320 --> 0:42:41.920
<v Speaker 4>Okay, so you invite me to one.

0:42:42.600 --> 0:42:44.760
<v Speaker 2>So come on, I'm to Costa Rica.

0:42:45.160 --> 0:42:46.000
<v Speaker 3>Have you been to Costa Rica?

0:42:46.160 --> 0:42:50.239
<v Speaker 4>I have never. Oh, yeah, I'm going to show up.

0:42:50.960 --> 0:42:51.920
<v Speaker 3>Favorite sex position.

0:42:53.560 --> 0:42:56.640
<v Speaker 4>Favorite sexual position would probably be.

0:42:59.800 --> 0:43:02.920
<v Speaker 5>I'm torn between top and uh riding on top and

0:43:03.120 --> 0:43:04.760
<v Speaker 5>missionary because I really love a good.

0:43:04.600 --> 0:43:05.200
<v Speaker 4>Face to face.

0:43:07.200 --> 0:43:08.800
<v Speaker 3>I think riding is my favorite.

0:43:09.080 --> 0:43:11.440
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's more powerful. You feel more powerful?

0:43:11.560 --> 0:43:14.200
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I feel because I feel like I've I've mastered

0:43:14.200 --> 0:43:16.960
<v Speaker 3>the lazy ride too, because sometimes writing is also.

0:43:17.000 --> 0:43:18.160
<v Speaker 2>A lot of work commitment.

0:43:18.239 --> 0:43:20.120
<v Speaker 5>When I was younger, I liked writing because I'm from

0:43:20.160 --> 0:43:23.440
<v Speaker 5>New Orleans. What does that mean, pus?

0:43:23.920 --> 0:43:26.400
<v Speaker 4>We grew up, you know what I mean?

0:43:27.000 --> 0:43:30.920
<v Speaker 5>To the point that one time is wait, hold on

0:43:30.960 --> 0:43:36.920
<v Speaker 5>he didn't know what to do. Yeah, real, it's it's different.

0:43:37.239 --> 0:43:38.839
<v Speaker 2>Wait, I have a question for the I know we're

0:43:38.880 --> 0:43:42.560
<v Speaker 2>in a trigger I'm high. Do you guys when you ride,

0:43:42.600 --> 0:43:44.800
<v Speaker 2>do you do you a company with a vibrator?

0:43:44.920 --> 0:43:46.960
<v Speaker 4>Sometimes I haven't.

0:43:47.640 --> 0:43:50.120
<v Speaker 3>I like, I like vibrators more when it's from behind,

0:43:51.080 --> 0:43:54.279
<v Speaker 3>that's kind of okay. Yeah, it's like full access and

0:43:54.320 --> 0:43:56.440
<v Speaker 3>there's like, yeah, riding the front.

0:43:56.520 --> 0:43:58.440
<v Speaker 2>It's a little hard like I was just it was

0:43:58.440 --> 0:44:00.960
<v Speaker 2>not a long one like this one's shaped and he

0:44:01.680 --> 0:44:02.440
<v Speaker 2>was doing it. Yea.

0:44:04.400 --> 0:44:07.040
<v Speaker 5>I don't like to be if I'm doing this part,

0:44:07.239 --> 0:44:08.759
<v Speaker 5>like use your fingers like.

0:44:08.920 --> 0:44:12.160
<v Speaker 4>It's we need you involved.

0:44:12.280 --> 0:44:14.239
<v Speaker 5>I'm not just doing this by myself when I'm on

0:44:14.320 --> 0:44:20.279
<v Speaker 5>top or bottom or whatever. All times clatorial clatorial stimulation

0:44:21.080 --> 0:44:23.680
<v Speaker 5>is important, so you have to use all your things.

0:44:23.760 --> 0:44:25.640
<v Speaker 4>I'm not about to sit here and stimulate my own clitorist.

0:44:25.680 --> 0:44:26.359
<v Speaker 2>Nigga, that's late.

0:44:26.680 --> 0:44:28.600
<v Speaker 3>No no no, no, no, no no no. If he don't try,

0:44:28.640 --> 0:44:30.359
<v Speaker 3>and then what the fuck are we doing? But but

0:44:30.440 --> 0:44:33.440
<v Speaker 3>what also frusht frustrates me though, is when I do

0:44:33.560 --> 0:44:36.319
<v Speaker 3>give a man a vibrator, my man a vibrator, and

0:44:36.360 --> 0:44:38.920
<v Speaker 3>he's not getting it on the spot. And then I'm

0:44:38.960 --> 0:44:41.040
<v Speaker 3>just like, just stop, just give it to me, like

0:44:41.160 --> 0:44:43.919
<v Speaker 3>and now we're just because because it would be hard.

0:44:43.920 --> 0:44:45.799
<v Speaker 3>It's hard to know me. You know, it's not really hard,

0:44:45.800 --> 0:44:48.160
<v Speaker 3>but like, especially when you're getting fucked and trying it,

0:44:48.160 --> 0:44:51.560
<v Speaker 3>it's a lot. Just sometimes I do prefer to take

0:44:51.560 --> 0:44:54.000
<v Speaker 3>control with the vibrating situation. I know where they I

0:44:54.040 --> 0:44:55.800
<v Speaker 3>know where this needs to go. You know what I'm saying.

0:44:55.960 --> 0:45:00.440
<v Speaker 2>Sorry, I got really pressing options.

0:45:01.000 --> 0:45:01.840
<v Speaker 4>I've learned something.

0:45:03.440 --> 0:45:05.640
<v Speaker 3>Uh, therapy.

0:45:05.920 --> 0:45:08.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm glad people go to therapy, but people not you.

0:45:09.239 --> 0:45:10.240
<v Speaker 5>I've never been to therapy.

0:45:10.280 --> 0:45:11.360
<v Speaker 3>No where'd you go?

0:45:12.520 --> 0:45:14.760
<v Speaker 5>If I had to go with somebody else, I wouldn't

0:45:14.840 --> 0:45:17.320
<v Speaker 5>just go myself. And I'm not against it.

0:45:17.320 --> 0:45:17.839
<v Speaker 3>It's just.

0:45:20.400 --> 0:45:23.360
<v Speaker 5>I have so many people to talk to I do,

0:45:24.000 --> 0:45:26.120
<v Speaker 5>and I do it. I talk to my best friend,

0:45:26.200 --> 0:45:28.279
<v Speaker 5>I talk to my sisters and we like really talk.

0:45:28.320 --> 0:45:28.480
<v Speaker 4>Well.

0:45:28.520 --> 0:45:30.680
<v Speaker 5>I'm not hiding myself from them now. Do they have

0:45:30.880 --> 0:45:32.560
<v Speaker 5>professional advice?

0:45:32.880 --> 0:45:33.080
<v Speaker 4>No?

0:45:33.400 --> 0:45:37.600
<v Speaker 5>But if I ever felt like it was like something

0:45:37.640 --> 0:45:40.120
<v Speaker 5>blocking in me, I would go. But right now, I'm good,

0:45:40.440 --> 0:45:42.360
<v Speaker 5>That's all. I don't knock it at all, though. I

0:45:42.360 --> 0:45:44.560
<v Speaker 5>think people should go to therapy that feel the need.

0:45:44.520 --> 0:45:46.480
<v Speaker 2>To have You ever been a therapy or somebody else.

0:45:46.880 --> 0:45:48.799
<v Speaker 5>No, but I would like if my kids was like

0:45:48.800 --> 0:45:51.080
<v Speaker 5>my mother, let's go to therapy, because I feel like

0:45:51.080 --> 0:45:52.279
<v Speaker 5>blah blah blah, like Ohn, let's go.

0:45:52.560 --> 0:45:54.920
<v Speaker 4>You know what I mean. I'm taking everything the person

0:45:54.960 --> 0:45:58.279
<v Speaker 4>says whatever. Or if I ever just was bored, like

0:45:58.360 --> 0:45:59.640
<v Speaker 4>see what the fuck this is all about?

0:45:59.680 --> 0:45:59.879
<v Speaker 3>Side?

0:46:00.120 --> 0:46:03.319
<v Speaker 4>You know everybody like you need a therapist. You need

0:46:03.360 --> 0:46:05.200
<v Speaker 4>a therapist, y'all know what. I was born in nineteen

0:46:05.200 --> 0:46:07.320
<v Speaker 4>seventy five. You guys, come on, give me a break.

0:46:07.280 --> 0:46:09.680
<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm saying, And give me a ninety

0:46:09.719 --> 0:46:11.359
<v Speaker 2>seventy five y'all.

0:46:11.400 --> 0:46:11.719
<v Speaker 1>I was.

0:46:11.760 --> 0:46:15.560
<v Speaker 5>It's like, you know, we couldn't afford. Black people don't

0:46:15.560 --> 0:46:17.279
<v Speaker 5>even know nothing about that. But I think it's a

0:46:17.280 --> 0:46:20.120
<v Speaker 5>beautiful thing that we do. I love when especially men,

0:46:20.160 --> 0:46:23.080
<v Speaker 5>because they don't have what we have. They don't have

0:46:23.120 --> 0:46:25.239
<v Speaker 5>people to talk to. I can sit on a phone

0:46:25.280 --> 0:46:27.120
<v Speaker 5>and cry with my friend and get it out and

0:46:27.160 --> 0:46:29.799
<v Speaker 5>get to the root to it and everything, and I'm good.

0:46:31.000 --> 0:46:31.759
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I know it's true.

0:46:32.719 --> 0:46:34.080
<v Speaker 4>One of the things about me too as well.

0:46:34.480 --> 0:46:36.799
<v Speaker 5>I'm always working to be a better person, not for

0:46:36.840 --> 0:46:39.840
<v Speaker 5>you niggas, for me. You know, I want to be

0:46:39.880 --> 0:46:42.120
<v Speaker 5>a better person. I want to love better. I want

0:46:42.120 --> 0:46:44.359
<v Speaker 5>to be better to my neighbor. I do believe that

0:46:44.360 --> 0:46:47.279
<v Speaker 5>that's very, very important. I don't believe in religion like that,

0:46:47.360 --> 0:46:50.319
<v Speaker 5>but I believe that God wants us to be good

0:46:50.320 --> 0:46:52.440
<v Speaker 5>to each other. I believe in the If there is

0:46:52.480 --> 0:46:53.960
<v Speaker 5>a religion, I believe, and I just believe in the

0:46:53.960 --> 0:46:55.759
<v Speaker 5>religion of love. And I think in order for you

0:46:55.800 --> 0:46:57.040
<v Speaker 5>to be good at loving, you have to be a

0:46:57.080 --> 0:46:59.960
<v Speaker 5>better person. So I'm willing to go if y'all say, teacher,

0:47:00.080 --> 0:47:02.040
<v Speaker 5>I think you should try this person, I go talk.

0:47:01.920 --> 0:47:06.919
<v Speaker 4>To the bitch. Okay, have friends, y'all tell me stuff

0:47:06.960 --> 0:47:09.759
<v Speaker 4>that they're uh that their therapist. So I'm like, you

0:47:09.800 --> 0:47:10.759
<v Speaker 4>should fire that bitch.

0:47:12.400 --> 0:47:14.480
<v Speaker 2>I mean, not all therapists are good. And then if

0:47:14.520 --> 0:47:17.759
<v Speaker 2>they're they're people, they're people, fly people. It's like everybody else.

0:47:17.840 --> 0:47:19.440
<v Speaker 4>And I mean, but they're helpful.

0:47:19.800 --> 0:47:22.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it would be hard. Therapist is hard. Shout out

0:47:22.600 --> 0:47:23.040
<v Speaker 3>to therapist.

0:47:23.239 --> 0:47:26.239
<v Speaker 6>Shout out to the therapist because they're going.

0:47:26.360 --> 0:47:28.239
<v Speaker 3>I think their health is such a high standard too.

0:47:28.320 --> 0:47:30.760
<v Speaker 3>And like, so when a therapist sucks up, it's like, bitch,

0:47:31.560 --> 0:47:34.160
<v Speaker 3>imagine being a therapist and like falling off the deep end, like.

0:47:34.600 --> 0:47:37.480
<v Speaker 2>I mean that happens probably more often than you so much.

0:47:37.520 --> 0:47:41.240
<v Speaker 3>I know, I know, but yeah, God, bless God bless

0:47:41.280 --> 0:47:44.040
<v Speaker 3>the love language.

0:47:46.320 --> 0:47:48.600
<v Speaker 5>Understanding, and I don't even know if that's a love

0:47:49.239 --> 0:47:51.320
<v Speaker 5>take the time to understand me. I'm gonna try to

0:47:51.400 --> 0:47:55.120
<v Speaker 5>understand you. I'm gonna really take the time to understand you. Yeah,

0:47:55.120 --> 0:47:58.000
<v Speaker 5>I would like that back birth birth.

0:47:59.600 --> 0:48:04.240
<v Speaker 3>But see Bobby eating pussy min.

0:48:06.560 --> 0:48:13.120
<v Speaker 5>Anal, no going up my ass now, No, I'm very

0:48:13.400 --> 0:48:16.360
<v Speaker 5>not into that because I'm too into you being into me.

0:48:17.120 --> 0:48:21.880
<v Speaker 2>Oh, if it's two men, though, I maybe highly recommend.

0:48:23.120 --> 0:48:27.640
<v Speaker 4>I probably I'm so prudish. I'm not prudis, But I'm

0:48:27.680 --> 0:48:31.200
<v Speaker 4>just like, what if I had one as one in

0:48:31.200 --> 0:48:31.800
<v Speaker 4>the mouth.

0:48:32.600 --> 0:48:34.000
<v Speaker 2>We'll really tell him no.

0:48:34.040 --> 0:48:37.120
<v Speaker 5>But I just I don't do anything really honestly that

0:48:37.760 --> 0:48:40.080
<v Speaker 5>if somebody found out, I would feel ashamed about.

0:48:40.120 --> 0:48:42.160
<v Speaker 4>I swear to god, I don't do anything like But if.

0:48:42.080 --> 0:48:44.560
<v Speaker 2>You wanted, do you think that what if you enjoyed it, if.

0:48:44.560 --> 0:48:47.120
<v Speaker 4>My children found out, I would feeling ashamed.

0:48:47.400 --> 0:48:49.239
<v Speaker 3>I think that if you and if you had that

0:48:49.320 --> 0:48:51.680
<v Speaker 3>experience and you enjoyed it so much, it would shift

0:48:51.680 --> 0:48:53.279
<v Speaker 3>something in your mind where you actually wouldn't really give

0:48:53.280 --> 0:48:57.320
<v Speaker 3>a fuck. You'd be like yeah, he's like no, no,

0:49:00.160 --> 0:49:01.600
<v Speaker 3>you can't help it.

0:49:02.160 --> 0:49:03.279
<v Speaker 4>I think about it, be like.

0:49:07.040 --> 0:49:09.759
<v Speaker 5>Your mother, I know, but like and you know, to

0:49:09.800 --> 0:49:12.239
<v Speaker 5>be honest, I think it's okay for me to have

0:49:12.360 --> 0:49:14.680
<v Speaker 5>things that's like okay, yeah that could possibly happen that

0:49:14.800 --> 0:49:18.160
<v Speaker 5>don't happen. I just like, like, can we start with

0:49:18.200 --> 0:49:19.479
<v Speaker 5>some good one on one sex.

0:49:21.400 --> 0:49:23.040
<v Speaker 3>We just need to We just need to get one

0:49:23.120 --> 0:49:26.600
<v Speaker 3>luxury dick. Let's start with one okay.

0:49:27.400 --> 0:49:28.040
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god?

0:49:33.080 --> 0:49:37.520
<v Speaker 3>Well motherhood.

0:49:39.080 --> 0:49:40.600
<v Speaker 2>You hear that she would never.

0:49:43.640 --> 0:49:53.800
<v Speaker 3>Afterlife now death, we don't die, pet peeves, white bitches

0:49:53.840 --> 0:49:55.600
<v Speaker 3>that be crying to try to use it.

0:49:55.560 --> 0:49:56.120
<v Speaker 4>Like a weapon.

0:49:56.360 --> 0:50:00.080
<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, idol.

0:50:01.320 --> 0:50:09.879
<v Speaker 5>My mama icon mm hmmm, I will be one day.

0:50:11.080 --> 0:50:14.839
<v Speaker 5>Bad choices come in here, bitch y'all got to talking

0:50:14.840 --> 0:50:16.160
<v Speaker 5>about three ship.

0:50:17.760 --> 0:50:23.279
<v Speaker 2>This is a good shot. Welcome to the did well

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<v Speaker 2>you have survived? I did survived? Wa wa?

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<v Speaker 4>Wanted a fucking mouth?

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<v Speaker 3>What it is?

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<v Speaker 4>Okay?

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<v Speaker 3>Drink some water too?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh wait one second, fix your mic?

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>Please God damn.

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<v Speaker 1>Me.

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<v Speaker 3>There's been Podcasting is a billion dollar industry.

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<v Speaker 2>And I know this is terrible?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it?

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<v Speaker 3>We need more research?

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<v Speaker 2>Do we need to inventive utter. What I know is

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<v Speaker 2>this is this what we're gonna get?

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<v Speaker 4>What's going on?

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<v Speaker 3>Cut this out?

0:51:05.680 --> 0:51:08.000
<v Speaker 2>I did already put the time mark. I'm not kidding.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm really David.

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<v Speaker 2>Right now, we're retiring from podcasting, guys.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god. Okay, So, and now that I'm nice

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<v Speaker 3>and high, I have a question about your creative process

0:51:22.120 --> 0:51:24.759
<v Speaker 3>as an artist. I know you've written for a lot

0:51:24.760 --> 0:51:28.600
<v Speaker 3>of iconic people like Raphael Sadik. You actually work with

0:51:28.680 --> 0:51:29.880
<v Speaker 3>a friend of mine who I used to work with.

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<v Speaker 3>I was a personal assistant for many years, Macy Gray.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh my god, I loved her so she was also

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<v Speaker 5>one of my favorite people.

0:51:35.120 --> 0:51:35.440
<v Speaker 4>To work with.

0:51:35.600 --> 0:51:37.480
<v Speaker 3>She was on the show and I worked I was

0:51:37.480 --> 0:51:39.720
<v Speaker 3>her personal system for like three years from like nineteen

0:51:39.760 --> 0:51:41.680
<v Speaker 3>to twenty two. She took me all over the fucking

0:51:41.719 --> 0:51:44.920
<v Speaker 3>world Like it was like the most incredible experience. And

0:51:44.960 --> 0:51:48.920
<v Speaker 3>she's nuts, and I fucking love her and being inside

0:51:48.920 --> 0:51:50.799
<v Speaker 3>of her creative process was so cool too. But I'm

0:51:50.840 --> 0:51:53.840
<v Speaker 3>curious about yours, Like when you write a song or

0:51:53.840 --> 0:51:56.840
<v Speaker 3>you like you're sitting down to write, like is smoking

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<v Speaker 3>part of the process.

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<v Speaker 4>Absolutely absolutely? And I like to be alone and I'm

0:52:03.480 --> 0:52:05.000
<v Speaker 4>not a good collaborator.

0:52:05.080 --> 0:52:07.680
<v Speaker 5>At gate because I need to get my thoughts out

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<v Speaker 5>by myself. And then once I get my thoughts out,

0:52:10.360 --> 0:52:12.000
<v Speaker 5>I can now start to hear what you have to say,

0:52:12.000 --> 0:52:14.920
<v Speaker 5>but it'll it'll just cloud everything that might want to

0:52:14.960 --> 0:52:17.040
<v Speaker 5>come out if you start saying shit to me. So

0:52:17.320 --> 0:52:20.640
<v Speaker 5>I like to be by myself when I'm writing, when

0:52:20.640 --> 0:52:21.520
<v Speaker 5>I'm starting to.

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<v Speaker 4>To record, I like all the lights off.

0:52:24.760 --> 0:52:26.719
<v Speaker 5>I'm not one of those like the young people now

0:52:26.760 --> 0:52:28.719
<v Speaker 5>they put the thing in there, they put the mic

0:52:28.760 --> 0:52:30.880
<v Speaker 5>in the in the control room, and they say, no,

0:52:31.120 --> 0:52:31.840
<v Speaker 5>I'm old school.

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<v Speaker 4>Put because I'm kind of shy. I really don't want

0:52:34.400 --> 0:52:37.319
<v Speaker 4>you to look at me. It is extremely vulnerable to

0:52:37.400 --> 0:52:39.840
<v Speaker 4>me to create. Maybe it's not. I will say, this

0:52:39.880 --> 0:52:41.960
<v Speaker 4>is creating, creating.

0:52:42.280 --> 0:52:49.040
<v Speaker 3>Having your pussy open exactly. That's what I was Literally, it's.

0:52:48.880 --> 0:52:51.759
<v Speaker 5>Like sex to me. I don't I can't just have

0:52:51.800 --> 0:52:53.960
<v Speaker 5>sex with anybody, you know. I'm not that kind of person.

0:52:54.040 --> 0:52:57.640
<v Speaker 5>So I need time to like figure out what I'm

0:52:57.680 --> 0:53:00.000
<v Speaker 5>doing first, and then we can come in here and collect.

0:53:00.400 --> 0:53:01.680
<v Speaker 4>And I have to feel safe with you.

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<v Speaker 5>I've been in rooms with people that are brilliant and

0:53:04.400 --> 0:53:08.040
<v Speaker 5>great and Grammys and all the things, but I just

0:53:08.080 --> 0:53:10.719
<v Speaker 5>didn't feel comfortable and nothing came out, and they might

0:53:10.960 --> 0:53:12.560
<v Speaker 5>walk away from that thinking that I'm not as dope

0:53:12.560 --> 0:53:12.920
<v Speaker 5>as I am.

0:53:12.960 --> 0:53:16.240
<v Speaker 4>No, really you're not, because you didn't make me feel like.

0:53:16.880 --> 0:53:18.959
<v Speaker 5>I need to come out. So my process is really

0:53:19.000 --> 0:53:21.720
<v Speaker 5>like intimate me by myself. I'm not like burning candles

0:53:21.760 --> 0:53:23.440
<v Speaker 5>and shit like that, but I just need some smoke

0:53:23.800 --> 0:53:25.720
<v Speaker 5>and I need a space to get to by myself.

0:53:25.760 --> 0:53:28.680
<v Speaker 4>That's the smaller the better. I write in my car

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<v Speaker 4>a lot.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, I look in the mirror when I'm at

0:53:31.040 --> 0:53:33.080
<v Speaker 5>home because I love mirrors. I have mirrors all over

0:53:33.080 --> 0:53:34.760
<v Speaker 5>my house because I just love looking at myself.

0:53:35.600 --> 0:53:37.160
<v Speaker 4>But I look at the mirror a lot.

0:53:37.200 --> 0:53:38.840
<v Speaker 5>I stand like dead in front of the mirror, and

0:53:38.840 --> 0:53:40.799
<v Speaker 5>I just sing to myself, looking in my eyes, and

0:53:40.800 --> 0:53:43.200
<v Speaker 5>then kind of like convincing myself for the lyrics because

0:53:43.200 --> 0:53:45.239
<v Speaker 5>I don't write them. I sing them over and over

0:53:45.320 --> 0:53:46.240
<v Speaker 5>and over and over again.

0:53:46.080 --> 0:53:46.600
<v Speaker 2>Util they stick.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh you don't write, you don't write.

0:53:48.520 --> 0:53:51.160
<v Speaker 4>No, because what the fuck I'm gonna be like? And then.

0:53:52.800 --> 0:53:55.160
<v Speaker 5>But I do need to start using my voice, and

0:53:55.200 --> 0:53:58.560
<v Speaker 5>I do sometimes more because I get high and it's

0:53:58.840 --> 0:54:03.920
<v Speaker 5>and I didn't write me girl, and I don't have

0:54:04.040 --> 0:54:06.719
<v Speaker 5>the discipline to say I'm gonna call you right right back.

0:54:06.760 --> 0:54:08.919
<v Speaker 5>You know, I end up in a conversation song gone,

0:54:09.960 --> 0:54:11.080
<v Speaker 5>that's happened a million times.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, that's so interesting like that you say that

0:54:15.000 --> 0:54:18.279
<v Speaker 3>because I think sometimes too, like talking into I think

0:54:18.280 --> 0:54:21.960
<v Speaker 3>that's why, like what we've created and talking like having

0:54:22.000 --> 0:54:25.040
<v Speaker 3>like something recorded that you can come back to, even

0:54:25.040 --> 0:54:27.000
<v Speaker 3>pulling out your phone and just being like I'm gonna

0:54:27.080 --> 0:54:28.480
<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna just sing this in here so I don't

0:54:28.480 --> 0:54:31.719
<v Speaker 3>forget and get high. I think too, Like when you're

0:54:31.760 --> 0:54:36.959
<v Speaker 3>talking about your process of needing small spaces and needing

0:54:37.000 --> 0:54:39.600
<v Speaker 3>to be alone, I think about my process with Jamila,

0:54:39.640 --> 0:54:41.680
<v Speaker 3>because we're you know, we're creators together. We have our

0:54:41.760 --> 0:54:44.440
<v Speaker 3>own entity, and like the way that we collaborate is

0:54:44.480 --> 0:54:46.920
<v Speaker 3>so intuitive, like it's just a conversation. It just kind

0:54:46.920 --> 0:54:48.640
<v Speaker 3>of builds we should do this. Oh yeah, then we

0:54:48.640 --> 0:54:50.320
<v Speaker 3>could do that. Actually, hold out, let me look that

0:54:50.400 --> 0:54:52.480
<v Speaker 3>up real quick, and like, oh, how can we do that? Oh?

0:54:52.480 --> 0:54:54.520
<v Speaker 3>This is cute? I like that. What are we gonna wear?

0:54:54.800 --> 0:54:57.680
<v Speaker 3>Like it's like, so we're like this all over the

0:54:57.680 --> 0:54:59.239
<v Speaker 3>place and then it kind of forms into one thing.

0:54:59.320 --> 0:55:01.920
<v Speaker 3>And then I think about out my creating and like

0:55:02.040 --> 0:55:04.080
<v Speaker 3>because I like to write to and I've like sometimes

0:55:04.120 --> 0:55:06.520
<v Speaker 3>I'll you know, make music and stuff, but it's so

0:55:06.640 --> 0:55:07.840
<v Speaker 3>into me you have to slip.

0:55:07.640 --> 0:55:09.560
<v Speaker 4>That in there, like ah, sometimes I because.

0:55:09.320 --> 0:55:10.719
<v Speaker 3>It's not I mean, because it's I just it's for

0:55:10.760 --> 0:55:13.040
<v Speaker 3>fun at this point. But like I just I know

0:55:13.080 --> 0:55:15.600
<v Speaker 3>that I can't create in that It's a different energy

0:55:15.600 --> 0:55:18.200
<v Speaker 3>that I have to be in to create. And like

0:55:18.280 --> 0:55:20.600
<v Speaker 3>even like speaking to like you know, the Grammy people

0:55:20.640 --> 0:55:22.880
<v Speaker 3>that can create in that way, Like everyone has their

0:55:22.920 --> 0:55:25.960
<v Speaker 3>own little process, and I think sometimes that like people

0:55:25.960 --> 0:55:28.799
<v Speaker 3>can feel can be shamed even for their process, Like

0:55:29.120 --> 0:55:31.279
<v Speaker 3>someone like you who needs to be a fucking loan.

0:55:31.560 --> 0:55:33.919
<v Speaker 3>I don't want to create with everybody in the room.

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<v Speaker 5>And I remember back in the day, it's a friend

0:55:35.960 --> 0:55:40.319
<v Speaker 5>of mine who's very very successful writer and artists. He

0:55:40.440 --> 0:55:43.080
<v Speaker 5>used to say, it's okay, I go in and you know,

0:55:43.280 --> 0:55:44.839
<v Speaker 5>I can work with all these people and I may

0:55:44.880 --> 0:55:46.279
<v Speaker 5>come out with a good record, so you can go

0:55:46.280 --> 0:55:48.880
<v Speaker 5>and buy yourself and make like a killer record. He's like,

0:55:48.920 --> 0:55:50.560
<v Speaker 5>you know, I used to always tell them, you can

0:55:50.560 --> 0:55:51.640
<v Speaker 5>make ten records in a day.

0:55:51.680 --> 0:55:53.359
<v Speaker 4>How do you do that? It takes me all day

0:55:53.400 --> 0:55:55.479
<v Speaker 4>to make one record, or two days to make one record.

0:55:55.520 --> 0:55:57.359
<v Speaker 4>You know, sometimes months I'll leave.

0:55:57.280 --> 0:55:59.640
<v Speaker 5>That motherfucker alone because it's just got me stumped, and

0:55:59.640 --> 0:56:02.560
<v Speaker 5>I'll back maybe years, and oh I love this, and

0:56:02.560 --> 0:56:04.600
<v Speaker 5>then I can now I see the vision for it.

0:56:04.640 --> 0:56:08.719
<v Speaker 5>But he told me, he said ten maybe two good.

0:56:09.400 --> 0:56:12.160
<v Speaker 5>You write two? You got too good records. And I

0:56:12.160 --> 0:56:16.520
<v Speaker 5>think it's because I'm hard on myself. Not that I'm not.

0:56:16.560 --> 0:56:19.080
<v Speaker 4>That I'm like in there like a mad scientist.

0:56:19.480 --> 0:56:22.600
<v Speaker 5>I'm just hard on myself in the sense that it's

0:56:22.680 --> 0:56:24.359
<v Speaker 5>this honest, It's not is it good?

0:56:24.680 --> 0:56:28.160
<v Speaker 4>Just is it honest? It's somebody. If I write this song.

0:56:28.120 --> 0:56:30.480
<v Speaker 5>And I give the Senate song to you guys, will

0:56:30.520 --> 0:56:32.720
<v Speaker 5>you be able to relate to it? Like do you

0:56:32.800 --> 0:56:34.719
<v Speaker 5>do you have an experience with the record? More so

0:56:34.800 --> 0:56:36.799
<v Speaker 5>then if it's a good record, won't there it is?

0:56:36.800 --> 0:56:37.720
<v Speaker 5>It's a fucking good record.

0:56:40.320 --> 0:56:43.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, No, I feel that. What was the process of

0:56:43.040 --> 0:56:47.839
<v Speaker 3>writing I don't know if I got what was that?

0:56:47.920 --> 0:56:48.040
<v Speaker 4>Like?

0:56:48.800 --> 0:56:51.480
<v Speaker 6>Were you alone in the small It was a long

0:56:51.560 --> 0:56:56.520
<v Speaker 6>process because that started out as the different different drums,

0:56:56.520 --> 0:56:58.720
<v Speaker 6>and I kind of started writing it on different drums,

0:56:59.000 --> 0:57:00.640
<v Speaker 6>and then the new drums came in.

0:57:00.640 --> 0:57:04.680
<v Speaker 5>But I would sit on my sofa often as I

0:57:04.719 --> 0:57:07.400
<v Speaker 5>do still. I like to, you know, consume copie some

0:57:07.480 --> 0:57:10.600
<v Speaker 5>mouse of cannabis, and I'll just sit there watching TV,

0:57:10.960 --> 0:57:13.600
<v Speaker 5>you know, whatever it's on the television at this time.

0:57:13.640 --> 0:57:15.520
<v Speaker 5>Back then, it was like an Animal Planet. I used

0:57:15.560 --> 0:57:17.800
<v Speaker 5>to watch a lot, because that's why I call myself

0:57:17.840 --> 0:57:21.760
<v Speaker 5>the Linings, because I love looking at Animal Planet when

0:57:21.760 --> 0:57:23.960
<v Speaker 5>I would be high when I was younger, and this

0:57:24.000 --> 0:57:25.960
<v Speaker 5>would be like a relief from being a mom and

0:57:26.000 --> 0:57:28.080
<v Speaker 5>stuff like that, and I would watch it, and then

0:57:28.080 --> 0:57:30.960
<v Speaker 5>I would go from that, watching The Pride to Belly.

0:57:31.360 --> 0:57:33.520
<v Speaker 4>I would go back and forth from Belly.

0:57:33.800 --> 0:57:36.480
<v Speaker 5>To Animal Planet, you know, and because I back then

0:57:36.600 --> 0:57:39.040
<v Speaker 5>still when they had like DVD's.

0:57:38.600 --> 0:57:40.480
<v Speaker 4>And stuff like that, So it's just kind of like, yeah,

0:57:40.760 --> 0:57:43.040
<v Speaker 4>go back and forth. And I just.

0:57:44.600 --> 0:57:46.520
<v Speaker 5>I wanted to know if since there had a girl

0:57:47.800 --> 0:57:49.960
<v Speaker 5>because I see him around my way and that might

0:57:50.000 --> 0:57:52.160
<v Speaker 5>not be New York, that might be Pasadena, but on

0:57:52.240 --> 0:57:54.040
<v Speaker 5>my television he's there every day, do you know what

0:57:54.080 --> 0:57:55.960
<v Speaker 5>I mean? So I just kind of and I remember

0:57:55.960 --> 0:57:57.840
<v Speaker 5>when I met Nasen and he said, I don't understand

0:57:57.840 --> 0:58:01.000
<v Speaker 5>how that song is about me, because you know, but

0:58:01.120 --> 0:58:03.520
<v Speaker 5>I just kind of I'm you guys are creative, you know,

0:58:03.560 --> 0:58:05.800
<v Speaker 5>we make up worlds in our head. You know, if

0:58:05.920 --> 0:58:08.360
<v Speaker 5>I really followed through with the things in my head,

0:58:08.440 --> 0:58:10.840
<v Speaker 5>I be in jail because I could have really stalked

0:58:10.840 --> 0:58:12.640
<v Speaker 5>this man because at the time I had a real

0:58:12.680 --> 0:58:16.000
<v Speaker 5>relationship in my head that this man I was even

0:58:16.040 --> 0:58:18.760
<v Speaker 5>after that, like it kind of like it kind of

0:58:19.080 --> 0:58:20.840
<v Speaker 5>for a while. I think I dated Nads in my

0:58:20.880 --> 0:58:22.720
<v Speaker 5>head for like about two whole years.

0:58:23.160 --> 0:58:24.520
<v Speaker 3>That's kind of I've had those time. Did you hear

0:58:24.560 --> 0:58:27.520
<v Speaker 3>those feelings? It's like where you feel like you know, yeah.

0:58:27.880 --> 0:58:30.520
<v Speaker 4>And it was really based on Sincere just that character.

0:58:30.800 --> 0:58:31.960
<v Speaker 4>I want to go back to Africa.

0:58:33.560 --> 0:58:36.720
<v Speaker 3>You've met Na's at this point. Yeah, he said.

0:58:38.280 --> 0:58:40.000
<v Speaker 4>No nods as cool as hell about it. That's the

0:58:40.000 --> 0:58:40.440
<v Speaker 4>cool thing.

0:58:40.520 --> 0:58:43.040
<v Speaker 5>Like it's like kind of like okay, and I think

0:58:43.040 --> 0:58:45.160
<v Speaker 5>it's an amazing rapper, you know what I mean. Like,

0:58:45.560 --> 0:58:49.000
<v Speaker 5>but you know, and he's a beautiful man. But even

0:58:49.040 --> 0:58:54.000
<v Speaker 5>more so, I'm crazy and I gotta stop telling people that.

0:58:54.240 --> 0:58:57.360
<v Speaker 5>The more I tell people this, some more I realize

0:58:58.000 --> 0:58:58.800
<v Speaker 5>not age.

0:58:59.440 --> 0:59:02.200
<v Speaker 2>Nobody is altogether. You know what, when you were talking

0:59:02.200 --> 0:59:04.320
<v Speaker 2>about the creative process and you're talking about how we

0:59:04.360 --> 0:59:07.720
<v Speaker 2>create together because we also will smoke and like, yeah,

0:59:08.160 --> 0:59:11.240
<v Speaker 2>I guess because you're an artist, we think about what

0:59:11.360 --> 0:59:13.800
<v Speaker 2>is your creative process, But I hadn't applied it to

0:59:14.000 --> 0:59:18.000
<v Speaker 2>just yeah, the creativity and the process of anything else.

0:59:18.480 --> 0:59:20.000
<v Speaker 2>So when I thought when you were talking, I was

0:59:20.040 --> 0:59:22.880
<v Speaker 2>thinking about our process and how like yeah, the visuals

0:59:23.000 --> 0:59:25.760
<v Speaker 2>and the things that come up, and like the safety

0:59:25.800 --> 0:59:28.640
<v Speaker 2>that has to be created, and like, yeah, the flow

0:59:28.680 --> 0:59:30.600
<v Speaker 2>that happened, And that was thinking like sometimes she used

0:59:30.600 --> 0:59:32.520
<v Speaker 2>AI like when she's talking to it, I'm like, stop

0:59:32.600 --> 0:59:35.960
<v Speaker 2>doing that. I keep confusing me, Like you're talking to me,

0:59:35.960 --> 0:59:39.800
<v Speaker 2>She's like. And then I'm like, huh huh, wait what

0:59:39.880 --> 0:59:43.520
<v Speaker 2>should and so like what the fuck? And I'm like,

0:59:43.560 --> 0:59:46.280
<v Speaker 2>am I old? Because I'm like, why is she doing this?

0:59:46.400 --> 0:59:51.400
<v Speaker 2>You're confusing me? But I never considered the process feeling,

0:59:51.480 --> 0:59:53.439
<v Speaker 2>like the feeling that has to come with it, and

0:59:53.440 --> 0:59:55.840
<v Speaker 2>and like even the things that we've created, even in

0:59:55.880 --> 0:59:58.320
<v Speaker 2>writing a book together and like sitting with each other

0:59:58.400 --> 1:00:01.880
<v Speaker 2>and like even I'm the airway like there had like

1:00:02.160 --> 1:00:03.960
<v Speaker 2>literally when we come in this sermon, closed this door.

1:00:04.040 --> 1:00:06.960
<v Speaker 2>Every single time, there's an energy that's created. It's a love,

1:00:07.080 --> 1:00:10.280
<v Speaker 2>like I feel such genuinely like I love you, you know,

1:00:10.880 --> 1:00:13.200
<v Speaker 2>and like we do create like this little bubble every time,

1:00:13.280 --> 1:00:15.280
<v Speaker 2>and like, and we bring people into that process when

1:00:15.280 --> 1:00:17.560
<v Speaker 2>we sit down and ask crazy questions and stuff like that.

1:00:17.920 --> 1:00:20.040
<v Speaker 2>But yeah, thank you for sharing that. And even if

1:00:20.040 --> 1:00:22.400
<v Speaker 2>you're listening, whatever you do to create in this world,

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<v Speaker 2>whatever you're creating, whatever that is, like to sit and

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<v Speaker 2>observe what your process is and how you and what

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<v Speaker 2>makes you feel good and like, uh and yeah, like

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<v Speaker 2>I love that you you said that because it made

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<v Speaker 2>me sit and think about that my process and so

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<v Speaker 2>many things. So yeah, and I think once you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you can hone in on that environment and hone in

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<v Speaker 2>on that process and so yeah, applying that to all work.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, and once you know and you know your process

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<v Speaker 5>and you find yourself comfortable comfortable with your process, you

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<v Speaker 5>don't let people take you out of that process to

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<v Speaker 5>get the best out of yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>I will say, I.

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<v Speaker 5>Remember when Missy Elliott was like the premiere writer for

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<v Speaker 5>you to go to. And I remember someone telling me

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<v Speaker 5>a story because I don't like people there when I write,

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<v Speaker 5>I would write for.

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<v Speaker 4>People, but bitch go over there, like do you want

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<v Speaker 4>this or not? And I was like right there that

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<v Speaker 4>word bitch go over there, you know? And so she

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<v Speaker 4>someone this person told.

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<v Speaker 5>Me Missy would not let anyone in the room, and

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<v Speaker 5>there was this particular artist that kept trying to come

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<v Speaker 5>in and see what she was doing.

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<v Speaker 4>They went back and the next time and Missy.

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<v Speaker 3>Was going, he was gone. She said, I guess I

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<v Speaker 3>gotta go.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know how true that story is if somebody

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<v Speaker 5>told me that, you know, and I think that it

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<v Speaker 5>let people have their process, especially if you like what

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<v Speaker 5>they do. I also remember them talking about shaw dey

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<v Speaker 5>h Drake. I don't know how true this stuff is,

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<v Speaker 5>but ask her for a feature or something like that,

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<v Speaker 5>and for her to come in and all this stuff,

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<v Speaker 5>and it's like, I don't want you to see how

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<v Speaker 5>the magic is made. And I don't either because I

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<v Speaker 5>be in there crazy. I don't want you to see,

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<v Speaker 5>not because I'm afraid of you or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't want you to see me figuring it out.

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<v Speaker 5>I want to just go figure it out.

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<v Speaker 2>Like while I your makeup, on your makeup. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>like when people watching, like men watching put on my makeup, Like.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you think that the like create? As you're talking

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<v Speaker 3>and I'm thinking about like people's creative processes, and then

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<v Speaker 3>I'm also thinking about like like the male creative process

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<v Speaker 3>versus the female creative process, because I like, I'm curious

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<v Speaker 3>you think there's a difference like how men create in

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<v Speaker 3>that space because as women, we are emotional beings, we

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<v Speaker 3>do we kind of need to retreat. Not all women, right,

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<v Speaker 3>some women can create in full frontal, but I find

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<v Speaker 3>that a lot of the female creators that I know,

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<v Speaker 3>there is this like there is a step in whatever

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<v Speaker 3>that process is that requires like this this alone. And

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<v Speaker 3>I think sometimes with men, not to say they don't,

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like there's but there's more.

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<v Speaker 5>Of a bravado like we're going to do be their

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<v Speaker 5>ego driven nature.

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<v Speaker 4>They need somebody else around.

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<v Speaker 3>But that's because the creative creative energy is feminine. So

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<v Speaker 3>even when they're in their creativeness, like there's a femininity

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<v Speaker 3>that they have vulnerability and openness literally that has to

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<v Speaker 3>exist in order for them to create. So maybe I'm

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<v Speaker 3>just answering my own question.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm impressed you should manifest like full frontals.

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<v Speaker 4>A full frontal creative processing.

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<v Speaker 2>I think full frontal creative process like open the legs.

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<v Speaker 3>So having a full frontal leading guys.

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<v Speaker 2>Having a full frontal creative process just letting you know

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<v Speaker 2>it's so vulnerable and just really get the creative energy.

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<v Speaker 2>I think maybe we're missing a mark. Yeah, you're right,

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<v Speaker 2>open your legs, your legs.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I would like.

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<v Speaker 3>I want to know about your upcoming project and your single.

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<v Speaker 4>I have a new single coming out. I don't know

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<v Speaker 4>the exact date just yet. You guys, I listen but.

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<v Speaker 5>Don't absorb sometimes and I read skimming past these things.

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<v Speaker 5>I really just like to make music, and I'm grateful

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<v Speaker 5>for the people around me to do all other stuff.

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<v Speaker 4>But I have a single coming out.

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<v Speaker 5>That it will be the first record for an album

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<v Speaker 5>that I have coming later in the summer that's called

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<v Speaker 5>Grown War in Realness. In the first singles call single

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<v Speaker 5>and I literally talk about why I'm single.

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<v Speaker 4>And yeah it's something that PJ.

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<v Speaker 5>Morton and I were supposed to do this collaborative project

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<v Speaker 5>and it didn't pan out. But the first record he

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<v Speaker 5>sent me was this track. And instantly when I started

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<v Speaker 5>to write, I was like, I think I needed to

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<v Speaker 5>say that.

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<v Speaker 4>It came out like what you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 4>It wasn't like a keep running it over and over.

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<v Speaker 5>It just literally was there. I knew it as soon

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<v Speaker 5>as I heard it. It just kind of like when

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<v Speaker 5>you asked me a question, it just flows. That's kind

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<v Speaker 5>of how it was, you know, And I really needed

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<v Speaker 5>to tell people because I've been single a very long time,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, and people always say, teacher, you're not you're such.

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<v Speaker 4>A beautiful girl, like you're so cool, blah blah blah

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<v Speaker 4>blah blah. Why are you single? Why are you single?

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<v Speaker 5>As if it's a question that I should even have

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<v Speaker 5>to answer. You know, I I'm here, I'm present, listen.

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<v Speaker 4>You could go online and find out where I am

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<v Speaker 4>at any time.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, most people don't ask like why are you married? Married?

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<v Speaker 3>Why are you married if you're not single? It's why

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<v Speaker 3>are you single? It's just asking people why why are

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<v Speaker 3>you married?

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<v Speaker 5>And I'm not offended by you asking me this.

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<v Speaker 4>I just think you're asking the wrong people. Why don't

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<v Speaker 4>you round up all the men.

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<v Speaker 3>That's the wrong question.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, you're asking the wrong person, right, round up all

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<v Speaker 5>the men in my age record that are healthy black men,

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<v Speaker 5>And I would even consider and ask them why I'm

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<v Speaker 5>single if they're single, because married men don't want me

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<v Speaker 5>to be single, they want me to.

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<v Speaker 3>Be with them.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't want to message that, so it would have

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<v Speaker 5>to be single men like, I don't think it's a

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<v Speaker 5>question for me. I'm gonna choose what presents itself properly.

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<v Speaker 5>But I'm not gonna chase fucking ship. That is not

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<v Speaker 5>the nature to me of this woman. I can't tell

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<v Speaker 5>you the nature of every other woman I receive. I

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<v Speaker 5>don't chase shit.

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<v Speaker 3>Would you day a younger man?

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<v Speaker 4>They owe my ass?

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<v Speaker 3>So trying they are.

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<v Speaker 4>It's once again my children, girl, they're married. But if

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<v Speaker 4>a man is five years old.

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<v Speaker 3>My children knew that they're gonna support you no matter what.

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<v Speaker 4>They're gonna support me no matter what.

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<v Speaker 5>But I swear I feel like it's kind of leaning

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<v Speaker 5>towards pedophilia for me.

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<v Speaker 4>I can't get into it twenty not all.

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<v Speaker 5>But like my sons are thirty, okay, so when you

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<v Speaker 5>got a man it's thirty five.

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<v Speaker 3>It feels too close to you close.

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<v Speaker 5>You were five when I was literally like getting cut

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<v Speaker 5>over to these babies were coming out.

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<v Speaker 4>You know you probably you.

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<v Speaker 2>Can't put it. You can't put in that contact, you

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<v Speaker 2>can't put it.

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<v Speaker 4>In that but you cannot not.

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<v Speaker 5>So do you have a girl, Yeah, you have a girl.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not fucking talking to y'all host because you have girls.

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<v Speaker 5>If I had a girl, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Wouldn't know you're talking to me.

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<v Speaker 5>Then you you probably would feel that way about it

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<v Speaker 5>if you had a girl.

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<v Speaker 4>But I can't because I have boys.

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<v Speaker 2>Thirty okay, but I.

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<v Speaker 3>Think that what if you just start just let it go,

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<v Speaker 3>just don't think about it.

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<v Speaker 2>Just think about the soul.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I think about the soul and the human presenting

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<v Speaker 3>himself in front of you.

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<v Speaker 5>Once again, I was born in nineteen seventy. So here's

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<v Speaker 5>the thing. I'm not mad at other people doing it.

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<v Speaker 5>And I see it a lot. I see it a lot.

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<v Speaker 5>I see seventy year old women with twenty year old men.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know how you flip that she's disgusting me,

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<v Speaker 5>but go off, you know, But I just really just

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<v Speaker 5>I like grown men.

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<v Speaker 4>I like grown men. And then the younger you get

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<v Speaker 4>younger to me, I gotta consider this ship you saying

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<v Speaker 4>that really don't interest me.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, like you are younger than me, and I'm

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<v Speaker 5>a grown woman, and I really want to enjoy a

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<v Speaker 5>grown ass man. But they on my ass, and the

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<v Speaker 5>grown men justed to do not They're not as direct,

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<v Speaker 5>they're not, you know, so we may get there and

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<v Speaker 5>I might just have to have a little fun and

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<v Speaker 5>keep it moving.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Support that, even if it may not be fine, it

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<v Speaker 2>may get serious, but just be open to you. Never know.

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<v Speaker 3>You're also going on tour soon, right, maybe maybe maybe

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<v Speaker 3>a lot.

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<v Speaker 4>I think you guys are very optimistic, and I'm gonna take.

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<v Speaker 2>That energy in.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna take that energy in. I just want to

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<v Speaker 4>I don't want a grown ass man doing his own thing.

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<v Speaker 4>I want you know what I would be in the

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<v Speaker 4>perfect world. Well, he just comes to get me. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>right here.

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<v Speaker 2>He's gonna come.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's all I'm I'm chilling like and then that's.

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<v Speaker 2>It will be so clear and so easy. It'll be

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<v Speaker 2>just like ship.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Where are you going to be on tour?

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<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna be all across the United States of America.

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<v Speaker 5>It's we start in. Actually, I want to make sure

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<v Speaker 5>I tell you what.

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<v Speaker 4>Tour it is.

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<v Speaker 5>It is the Floor Tree Presents the Say Yes Tour,

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<v Speaker 5>and I will be a guest on that tour. And

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<v Speaker 5>if you come out, they got me up there the

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<v Speaker 5>first thing you see, So bitch, get there early.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna hit you with a little avatize.

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<v Speaker 3>Beautiful way to open.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, but yeah, it's gonna be super cool. I'm very excited.

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<v Speaker 4>I love the floor trees music always have.

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<v Speaker 5>And the vibes of everybody on stage should be pretty good.

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<v Speaker 5>And we start in on April eighth, I think in

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<v Speaker 5>New New Jersey, Newark, New Jersey, and we have two

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<v Speaker 5>shoes shows in New Newark, New Jersey, and I don't

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<v Speaker 5>know where we go after that, but I think at

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<v Speaker 5>some point we will be in New Orleans.

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<v Speaker 3>I will get back to home, yeah, I will.

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<v Speaker 5>I will get so I think it's the sixth or eighth.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't let me get but yes, I will be

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<v Speaker 5>on that tour and it's gonna be super cool.

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<v Speaker 3>And we'll put all the information in please, yeah, so

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<v Speaker 3>our people can find you. You need to go see her.

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<v Speaker 2>You need to go see Rugby.

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<v Speaker 3>There I'm going. Are you coming here?

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<v Speaker 4>I am definitely coming to Yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>And while I am on tour, I will be performing

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<v Speaker 5>the new record single, so you know if you want

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<v Speaker 5>a little preview, and while I'm on tour, should be

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<v Speaker 5>coming out during that time too, So it'll be good.

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<v Speaker 4>It's gonna be really really good.

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<v Speaker 2>Excited for you.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm very excited about new music and new perspective, because

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<v Speaker 5>it's I don't think people understand the double edged sword

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<v Speaker 5>of having a cult fan base that loves one project,

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<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean, and not that they don't

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<v Speaker 5>love everything else, but they're drawn to that, and then

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<v Speaker 5>here that is.

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<v Speaker 4>That's twenty something years later. I'm a grown ass woman now.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not saying the same shit, even though the core

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<v Speaker 5>of me is that, right, But I have new perspectives now,

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<v Speaker 5>and I'm just really excited for people to hear my

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<v Speaker 5>new perspectives, that's all.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I'm excited for that. Oh my god. I'm women

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<v Speaker 3>as women, like we have to be. Oftentimes we get stuck, right,

1:10:12.800 --> 1:10:15.120
<v Speaker 3>people like try to like to pigeonhole us, and like,

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<v Speaker 3>I think that women have come through in this time

1:10:19.200 --> 1:10:22.720
<v Speaker 3>and space in such a like powerful way. We're commanding

1:10:23.600 --> 1:10:27.400
<v Speaker 3>our creations to be forefront. And I'm just going to

1:10:27.439 --> 1:10:29.920
<v Speaker 3>put so much love and energy into this project because

1:10:29.920 --> 1:10:32.960
<v Speaker 3>it's going to be legendary. PJ. Morton is iconic. All

1:10:32.960 --> 1:10:35.360
<v Speaker 3>the projects, all the things that you do are iconic

1:10:35.400 --> 1:10:38.680
<v Speaker 3>because you're an iconic badass bitch. I like that, thank you,

1:10:38.920 --> 1:10:42.320
<v Speaker 3>so yes, I'm excited to hear, and I really want.

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<v Speaker 4>Women to.

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<v Speaker 5>Embrace aging. It's not a bad thing. It's better than so.

1:10:49.360 --> 1:10:51.720
<v Speaker 5>First of all, men sold you that shit. Why did

1:10:51.760 --> 1:10:52.240
<v Speaker 5>you buy it?

1:10:52.560 --> 1:10:54.040
<v Speaker 4>You know what I mean? Why did you buy?

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<v Speaker 2>Now?

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<v Speaker 4>I love men.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not speaking against men, but they sold you that shit.

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<v Speaker 5>And I feel like aging is it's so I'm better

1:11:01.280 --> 1:11:04.240
<v Speaker 5>with time, you know, get I get wisdom, and if

1:11:04.280 --> 1:11:05.960
<v Speaker 5>you keep yourself up, you still look good.

1:11:06.000 --> 1:11:06.719
<v Speaker 4>You know what I'm saying?

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<v Speaker 5>Like, I don't see the bad thing in aging, and

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<v Speaker 5>I know that it's not the same for everyone, but

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<v Speaker 5>I think we as women tend to be very hard

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<v Speaker 5>on an ageing process with ourselves, and I don't think we.

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<v Speaker 2>Should do that.

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<v Speaker 4>You should look at the beauty.

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<v Speaker 5>And what I do is I pay attention to women

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<v Speaker 5>that are before me that age naturally and still look

1:11:25.479 --> 1:11:27.240
<v Speaker 5>just as beautiful, and not.

1:11:27.200 --> 1:11:30.479
<v Speaker 4>Just to me, but sexually to other too. Men, do

1:11:30.520 --> 1:11:31.080
<v Speaker 4>you know what I mean?

1:11:31.120 --> 1:11:31.280
<v Speaker 6>So?

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<v Speaker 5>I think that this album hopefully makes people feel like

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<v Speaker 5>it's cool to become a grown woman.

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<v Speaker 4>You know what I mean.

1:11:38.120 --> 1:11:40.439
<v Speaker 5>You don't lose your cool because you become more grown.

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<v Speaker 5>I think you kind of sink deeper into it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think that's so important as someone

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<v Speaker 3>as someone who's I'm gonna be thirty nine? Am I

1:11:50.640 --> 1:11:52.960
<v Speaker 3>thirty nine? I'm gonna be thirty nine this year? And

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<v Speaker 3>we were talking about this in the last episode, Like

1:11:55.320 --> 1:11:58.280
<v Speaker 3>being on camera too, you can physically watch yourself, like

1:11:58.680 --> 1:12:01.439
<v Speaker 3>we as a human we in this time and space,

1:12:01.520 --> 1:12:04.840
<v Speaker 3>we are looking at ourselves more than a fucking ever,

1:12:06.400 --> 1:12:08.719
<v Speaker 3>more than ever. We're not supposed to be seeing ourselves

1:12:08.800 --> 1:12:12.080
<v Speaker 3>just much like it's too much. And so I think

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<v Speaker 3>like aging in particular for women, like it has become

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<v Speaker 3>this thing that we think that we can freeze, and

1:12:19.000 --> 1:12:21.840
<v Speaker 3>we can freeze, and we're seeing the results. We're seeing

1:12:21.880 --> 1:12:24.559
<v Speaker 3>what's happening to the bitches who have frozen too early.

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<v Speaker 5>Sometimes they look crazy and they look I'm being kind, yes,

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<v Speaker 5>said most of them.

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<v Speaker 3>But I also say, like the fountain of youth is joy,

1:12:38.160 --> 1:12:42.560
<v Speaker 3>and the found of youth is like saying yes life,

1:12:42.920 --> 1:12:48.400
<v Speaker 3>and like curiosity and being open and evolving and learning.

1:12:48.280 --> 1:12:49.559
<v Speaker 4>Trying to get me to have a threesome.

1:12:49.600 --> 1:12:58.080
<v Speaker 2>Girl curious pleasure.

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<v Speaker 4>And her preferences with young men.

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<v Speaker 2>Want to cut my hair, sexy knows what he wants

1:13:03.040 --> 1:13:08.479
<v Speaker 2>to established. I agree, though, And there's so much pressure

1:13:08.560 --> 1:13:10.800
<v Speaker 2>on women. There's so much pressure especially living in LA

1:13:10.880 --> 1:13:13.519
<v Speaker 2>and shit, it's just it's pressure and the like. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>like I think the power is in doing it gracefully

1:13:17.040 --> 1:13:21.040
<v Speaker 2>and like being and bold the time. Yeah, yeah, graceful,

1:13:21.080 --> 1:13:26.080
<v Speaker 2>not in modestly, but yeah, like living fun and be

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<v Speaker 2>free and like without nobody telling you shit about why

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<v Speaker 2>are you single, nigga? Why are you talking to me? Right?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean it's like it's not even the looks too.

1:13:34.600 --> 1:13:37.719
<v Speaker 3>It's like even like you know, being in the music industry,

1:13:37.760 --> 1:13:39.439
<v Speaker 3>being in a career, being in front of the camera,

1:13:39.760 --> 1:13:44.680
<v Speaker 3>there has been this like this fake reality that you

1:13:44.760 --> 1:13:47.840
<v Speaker 3>have a timeline there too, write like that, like you

1:13:47.880 --> 1:13:50.080
<v Speaker 3>can't you can't start a singing career in your forties.

1:13:50.160 --> 1:13:52.000
<v Speaker 3>What the fuck are you talking about? You know, let

1:13:52.040 --> 1:13:56.040
<v Speaker 3>you continue rules like you can't shift your career, Like

1:13:56.040 --> 1:13:57.880
<v Speaker 3>what are you talking about? Like you can't become a

1:13:57.880 --> 1:14:00.439
<v Speaker 3>mom again, Like you know, there's all these things about

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<v Speaker 3>what we can't do, and it's all fucking fake. And

1:14:04.000 --> 1:14:06.720
<v Speaker 3>you see the women that are that are aging the

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<v Speaker 3>most gracefully, the ones that you love and adore, those

1:14:10.040 --> 1:14:13.200
<v Speaker 3>women's didn't they didn't subscribe to that ship. But it

1:14:13.280 --> 1:14:15.519
<v Speaker 3>is a small group of women because only a small

1:14:15.560 --> 1:14:18.000
<v Speaker 3>group of us have the balls enough, not the balls,

1:14:18.000 --> 1:14:21.679
<v Speaker 3>the pussy enough to really say, fuck y'all. I'm gonna

1:14:21.720 --> 1:14:23.200
<v Speaker 3>just do what I want to do and be me.

1:14:23.800 --> 1:14:25.920
<v Speaker 3>And we're all over here, not well, not me, not

1:14:25.960 --> 1:14:27.960
<v Speaker 3>all of us. Well, I've had a little botox, but

1:14:29.000 --> 1:14:31.720
<v Speaker 3>the people that I've had a little bunch, I'm not

1:14:31.720 --> 1:14:33.840
<v Speaker 3>gonna lie. But like the people that are like so

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<v Speaker 3>like just want to fight against the natural process of

1:14:37.960 --> 1:14:42.440
<v Speaker 3>who we are as women, which is wise, which is cellulite,

1:14:42.600 --> 1:14:44.000
<v Speaker 3>which is wrinkly.

1:14:44.479 --> 1:14:46.360
<v Speaker 4>And I don't think men care as much as we do.

1:14:46.479 --> 1:14:48.479
<v Speaker 3>They don't. They don't give a fuck.

1:14:48.760 --> 1:14:49.720
<v Speaker 2>It's us.

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<v Speaker 5>But they started it, Yeah they did.

1:14:53.880 --> 1:14:56.720
<v Speaker 3>We've perpetuated it, but how dare they?

1:14:57.160 --> 1:14:59.000
<v Speaker 2>The one promise we're all given is that we're gonna

1:14:59.040 --> 1:15:02.040
<v Speaker 2>fucking age every Okay, no one's exempt.

1:15:02.080 --> 1:15:05.400
<v Speaker 4>There's an alternative. You can die, yep.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, thank god for the aging.

1:15:07.800 --> 1:15:09.800
<v Speaker 4>But I think you touched on something about this. It's

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<v Speaker 4>not just the looks.

1:15:10.760 --> 1:15:12.920
<v Speaker 5>I think the spirit of a person like I still

1:15:12.960 --> 1:15:16.400
<v Speaker 5>feel in my spirit like a teenager, Like I feel

1:15:16.439 --> 1:15:18.760
<v Speaker 5>like I can do anything my body can't, you know

1:15:18.800 --> 1:15:21.200
<v Speaker 5>what I mean. But and I will probably stop myself

1:15:21.240 --> 1:15:23.120
<v Speaker 5>because now I'm more mature, but I.

1:15:23.080 --> 1:15:25.880
<v Speaker 4>Just feel open to things. I feel excited about things.

1:15:25.920 --> 1:15:28.360
<v Speaker 5>And I think that when you start to let life

1:15:28.520 --> 1:15:32.360
<v Speaker 5>wear you down, you start to stop seeing possibilities.

1:15:32.400 --> 1:15:33.840
<v Speaker 4>You know what I'm saying. You start you be.

1:15:33.840 --> 1:15:36.360
<v Speaker 5>Literally become old, and you feel old, and you look

1:15:36.400 --> 1:15:37.200
<v Speaker 5>old to yourself.

1:15:37.280 --> 1:15:41.920
<v Speaker 2>Yes, feeling how you feel literally makes you ages you.

1:15:42.040 --> 1:15:44.080
<v Speaker 2>If you're feeling down, if you're feeling deprised, if you're

1:15:44.080 --> 1:15:46.680
<v Speaker 2>feeling beat up, then you will look like even if

1:15:46.720 --> 1:15:48.320
<v Speaker 2>you look at pictures many times you were not doing

1:15:48.360 --> 1:15:50.679
<v Speaker 2>so well in a bad relationship. You can physically see

1:15:50.680 --> 1:15:53.679
<v Speaker 2>it on yourself because the inside is going to always

1:15:53.720 --> 1:15:58.920
<v Speaker 2>project to the physical. Yeah, I've enjoyed talking to you

1:15:58.960 --> 1:16:01.400
<v Speaker 2>and getting high. It was lovely. It's lovely.

1:16:01.880 --> 1:16:04.559
<v Speaker 3>Thank you guys for having yes before we get out

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<v Speaker 3>of here. This has been wonderful and I feel like

1:16:08.360 --> 1:16:10.800
<v Speaker 3>we've hit so many marks. We've covered a lot. I'll

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<v Speaker 3>talk a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>Stories, a hor a horror story.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't really have a horry story. I told you

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<v Speaker 5>the time, but if I think back, I don't.

1:16:36.720 --> 1:16:38.720
<v Speaker 4>I'm trying to. I've been trying to conjure one all

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<v Speaker 4>day because.

1:16:42.000 --> 1:16:44.880
<v Speaker 5>I will I will have one another time because I'm

1:16:44.880 --> 1:16:45.679
<v Speaker 5>gonna go get one.

1:16:46.560 --> 1:16:47.320
<v Speaker 4>I have an assignment.

1:16:48.200 --> 1:16:51.599
<v Speaker 3>Yes, this is your homework, this is your horry assignment. Yes,

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<v Speaker 3>and a freaky.

1:16:53.960 --> 1:16:56.439
<v Speaker 5>I have gotten very freaky, but I think it's basic

1:16:56.479 --> 1:17:01.040
<v Speaker 5>freaky though, vanilla.

1:17:00.800 --> 1:17:03.000
<v Speaker 2>And basic freaky.

1:17:03.240 --> 1:17:06.160
<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, no, yeah, I might yeah kind of.

1:17:06.280 --> 1:17:07.880
<v Speaker 3>Maybe, just maybe you don't have to go all the way.

1:17:07.880 --> 1:17:09.479
<v Speaker 3>Maybe you just get a nice man with the nice

1:17:09.520 --> 1:17:13.160
<v Speaker 3>eyes and the nice teeth. Seems like he takes care

1:17:13.200 --> 1:17:15.400
<v Speaker 3>of his kids and is healthy to just eat your

1:17:15.400 --> 1:17:16.320
<v Speaker 3>pussy on tour.

1:17:17.520 --> 1:17:18.320
<v Speaker 4>And it comes along.

1:17:18.360 --> 1:17:20.160
<v Speaker 3>I'm not gonna you don't have to say he needs

1:17:20.160 --> 1:17:20.640
<v Speaker 3>to serve you.

1:17:20.760 --> 1:17:22.439
<v Speaker 4>He could do all of it if he comes along.

1:17:22.600 --> 1:17:25.160
<v Speaker 2>If he comes along, I'm the manifestation.

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<v Speaker 5>But yeah, I'll take that. I'll take that. I'll take

1:17:29.120 --> 1:17:30.720
<v Speaker 5>it if you turn me on. It's not for a

1:17:30.840 --> 1:17:32.760
<v Speaker 5>lack of me wanting to. It's a lack of being

1:17:32.800 --> 1:17:35.040
<v Speaker 5>turned on. Yeah, I can't turn my cel phone.

1:17:35.280 --> 1:17:37.439
<v Speaker 4>I'm doud I do. I ain't gonna but go ahead.

1:17:37.479 --> 1:17:39.519
<v Speaker 3>But it's but it's great when someone else can. I

1:17:39.520 --> 1:17:44.040
<v Speaker 3>would it literally triggers something else, Bitch that the moment

1:17:44.080 --> 1:17:46.800
<v Speaker 3>that happened, something else is about to like awaken inside

1:17:46.840 --> 1:17:59.800
<v Speaker 3>of you again. Speaking of awakenings, it's terrible time and

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<v Speaker 3>chose the tower card. Shout out to a hockey terror

1:18:03.160 --> 1:18:09.439
<v Speaker 3>I love you through the Tower card represents awakening. Okay,

1:18:09.600 --> 1:18:16.960
<v Speaker 3>sudden change, revelation, chaos. Let's see what the tower card

1:18:17.000 --> 1:18:19.280
<v Speaker 3>has in store. When the Tower card appears in a

1:18:19.360 --> 1:18:24.760
<v Speaker 3>taroor reading, expect the unexpected, massive change, destruction, chaos, and

1:18:24.800 --> 1:18:29.200
<v Speaker 3>maybe a divorce. Okay, it's kind of dark. I'm not

1:18:29.200 --> 1:18:30.960
<v Speaker 3>gonna lie. It's gonna get dark for a second. But

1:18:31.000 --> 1:18:32.080
<v Speaker 3>there's always light on the end.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay.

1:18:32.560 --> 1:18:36.879
<v Speaker 2>Okay, was it reverse?

1:18:37.560 --> 1:18:42.120
<v Speaker 3>I don't think so. It may be divorce, death of

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<v Speaker 3>a loved one, financial failure, health problems, natural disaster, job loss,

1:18:45.520 --> 1:18:47.320
<v Speaker 3>or an event that shakes you to the core, affecting

1:18:47.360 --> 1:18:50.840
<v Speaker 3>your spirituality, mentality, or physicality. There's no escaping it.

1:18:50.960 --> 1:18:51.799
<v Speaker 2>Change America.

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<v Speaker 3>Change is here to tear things up. Just when you

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<v Speaker 3>think you're safe and comfortable, a tower moment comes and

1:18:57.880 --> 1:19:00.240
<v Speaker 3>hits and throws you for a loop. A lightning bolt

1:19:00.240 --> 1:19:02.920
<v Speaker 3>of clarity and insight cuts through the lies and illusions

1:19:02.920 --> 1:19:05.240
<v Speaker 3>you've been telling yourself, and now the truth comes to

1:19:05.280 --> 1:19:09.519
<v Speaker 3>light that you want your preciate your world may come

1:19:09.560 --> 1:19:12.160
<v Speaker 3>crashing down because it's so fucking good in ways you

1:19:12.200 --> 1:19:15.559
<v Speaker 3>could never have imagined. Teader as you realize that you

1:19:15.600 --> 1:19:20.640
<v Speaker 3>have been building your life on unstable foundations, mistruths, illusions.

1:19:21.360 --> 1:19:23.519
<v Speaker 3>Everything you thought to be true has turned on its head.

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<v Speaker 3>You are now questioning what is real and what is not.

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<v Speaker 3>The best way forward is to let this structure self

1:19:29.840 --> 1:19:32.680
<v Speaker 3>This structure self destruct so you can rebuild and refocus,

1:19:32.720 --> 1:19:35.080
<v Speaker 3>and let's be real. With a card like tower, you

1:19:35.080 --> 1:19:37.600
<v Speaker 3>have no choice but to surrender to this destruction, no

1:19:37.680 --> 1:19:40.679
<v Speaker 3>matter how unwanted or painful. Change on this deep level

1:19:40.720 --> 1:19:42.439
<v Speaker 3>is hard, but you need to trust that life is

1:19:42.479 --> 1:19:45.000
<v Speaker 3>happening for you, not to you, and that is all,

1:19:45.040 --> 1:19:48.879
<v Speaker 3>and it's all for a reason. You will grow stronger, wiser,

1:19:48.920 --> 1:19:51.360
<v Speaker 3>and more resilient and develop a new perspective on life

1:19:51.360 --> 1:19:54.840
<v Speaker 3>you did not even know existed. It doesn't always associate

1:19:54.840 --> 1:19:57.000
<v Speaker 3>with pain and turmoil. If you are highly aware and

1:19:57.040 --> 1:19:59.280
<v Speaker 3>in tune with your inner guidance system, then this Tarot

1:19:59.280 --> 1:20:02.880
<v Speaker 3>card can indicate a spiritual awakening or a revelation. You

1:20:02.920 --> 1:20:04.720
<v Speaker 3>may be able to see the cracks forming and take

1:20:04.800 --> 1:20:08.120
<v Speaker 3>action before the whole structure comes tumbling down. The tower

1:20:08.160 --> 1:20:10.960
<v Speaker 3>card is your opportunity to break free from the old

1:20:11.000 --> 1:20:13.200
<v Speaker 3>ways of thinking that have been holding you back.

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<v Speaker 4>All right, So I'm gonna have to fuck.

1:20:15.439 --> 1:20:17.920
<v Speaker 3>With the young Yeah I am.

1:20:17.640 --> 1:20:19.679
<v Speaker 2>I am season I'm.

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<v Speaker 4>Not fucking with ym. I'll fuck with a young man

1:20:23.200 --> 1:20:26.080
<v Speaker 4>I am.

1:20:26.160 --> 1:20:29.000
<v Speaker 3>And if you're older and older, even Olderman you know.

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<v Speaker 5>I listen, that card is taking me to where i've

1:20:33.880 --> 1:20:36.280
<v Speaker 5>It makes me feel like I've already been in that process,

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<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean. So yeah, I'm open. I'm

1:20:38.960 --> 1:20:41.559
<v Speaker 5>far more open than it seems. It's just certain things

1:20:41.560 --> 1:20:43.400
<v Speaker 5>that just know one of the things by means I

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<v Speaker 5>know myself. I'm okay with knowing myself. Yeah, I'm solid

1:20:46.760 --> 1:20:49.960
<v Speaker 5>in that, I know where I know that. Okay, this,

1:20:50.240 --> 1:20:52.400
<v Speaker 5>I'll open myself up that that's a fucking hard No.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I hope you don't feel pre pressured from us, because.

1:20:57.840 --> 1:21:01.240
<v Speaker 4>I feel a hell of a lot of things, because we're.

1:21:01.080 --> 1:21:03.240
<v Speaker 3>All for knowing yourself and taking your time and not

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<v Speaker 3>giving your pussy away.

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah, I want to I think you'll have it.

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<v Speaker 3>I want to give it a when the right the

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<v Speaker 3>right one comes though.

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<v Speaker 4>And the right one just turn me on. Yeah, you know,

1:21:16.320 --> 1:21:19.599
<v Speaker 4>nobody's turning me on. That's all. Pray for me.

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<v Speaker 5>Next blunt y'all do with the next people to come

1:21:22.040 --> 1:21:23.719
<v Speaker 5>sit that put my name in that blunch.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, we got you.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, thank you so much for coming.

1:21:28.560 --> 1:21:30.840
<v Speaker 4>Thank you for having me. I had a great fucking time.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm high as hell.

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<v Speaker 5>I am very high, and I want to say that

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<v Speaker 5>what you're doing is beautiful and wonderful to make mothers

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<v Speaker 5>have this moment of just who I don't have to

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<v Speaker 5>be perfect. I can come here with these crazy holes

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<v Speaker 5>and just listen to this crazy ship.

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<v Speaker 4>They talking about and have a good time. You're doing

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<v Speaker 4>the lord's.

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<v Speaker 3>Work, baby.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you, you're doing the Lord's for.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you, Thank you for coming. Can tell the people

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<v Speaker 3>where they can find you.

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<v Speaker 5>Yes, you can find me on all these social network

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<v Speaker 5>things at teacher Moses and please go to t moses

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<v Speaker 5>dot com and buy merch because that's how I pay

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<v Speaker 5>for this fabulous life style all I have.

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<v Speaker 4>And don't you want me to keep at fabulous lights?

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<v Speaker 3>What kind of merged you have?

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<v Speaker 4>I have all kinds of things. I have T shirts

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<v Speaker 4>and records and bags.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you sign your records?

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<v Speaker 5>I always sign every single fucking record, but I sell

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<v Speaker 5>the records more so getting signed live. So if you

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<v Speaker 5>want one of the vinyls, come to the show signed.

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<v Speaker 5>But if you buy it online a girl like that,

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<v Speaker 5>I'm not signing nothing.

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<v Speaker 3>But if you bring it to a show, well I'm

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<v Speaker 3>coming to your show with the records, or you can

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<v Speaker 3>sign my record. Please, thank you. Will y'all know where

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<v Speaker 3>to find us at Good Mom's Underscore Bad Choices on Instagram.

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<v Speaker 3>If you haven't already, make sure you hit the subscribe

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<v Speaker 3>button and subscribe to our YouTube channel. We have retreats

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<v Speaker 3>coming up this summer. We were talking about the retreat

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<v Speaker 3>in Costa Rica. I'll give you more little more information

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<v Speaker 3>about that, but it's a beautiful experience. Y'all heard us

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<v Speaker 3>talk about it. Actually, I'm probably let's put a commercial

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<v Speaker 3>at the end of this episode so you can just

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<v Speaker 3>see what we're talking about instead of us talking about

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<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I believe everything in the episode.

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<v Speaker 4>Just yeah, I'm living until I find out Well, maym

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<v Speaker 4>have been known?

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<v Speaker 1>Earth that used to be broken till now I got

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<v Speaker 1>the blues in to like Beyonce just throat shot and

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<v Speaker 1>popping his cow wearing our voices. Patriarchy kept it in

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<v Speaker 1>the box to exploit it. Women put the pee and powers.

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<v Speaker 1>So it's pointing that they want me to be good,

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<v Speaker 1>so I make bad choices. Bad mom, not a bad mom,

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<v Speaker 1>but a bad mom. It he's in on put cannabis

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<v Speaker 1>in their bathbon walked in bossas cap and I blew

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<v Speaker 1>his cat ball tip dog. Now I'm immune to the

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<v Speaker 1>cat called her being no waisted straight to it like

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<v Speaker 1>a dollar sign.

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<v Speaker 4>Mother, rent the lover when too.

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<v Speaker 1>It looks like a water sign where you're rent the

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<v Speaker 1>winter essential will when the summertime.

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<v Speaker 3>I do with all?

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<v Speaker 4>Ain't know when that needs a rerunning. B