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Speaker 2: What was the, what was the, was it a lesson

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Speaker 2: or it was just the, I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I mean, I, what I will say is that I

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Speaker 3: know I'm a fire wife now. Like, you know, I

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Speaker 4: Hey guys, thanks for watching. This episode is brought to

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Speaker 4: you by Boost Mobile. Today's guest went from a child

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Speaker 4: star to becoming one of the defining faces of a

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Speaker 4: generation of cinema. starting as a leading lady in classics

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Speaker 4: like Stomp the Yard and Think Like a Man. She

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Speaker 4: became a household name. And since then, she's stepped behind

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Speaker 4: the camera as a director and producer on several projects

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Speaker 4: of her own. She uses her voice openly and authentically

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Speaker 4: from speaking on issues that she cares about to making

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Speaker 4: deeply personal choices, even when there is public scrutiny. She

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Speaker 4: does everything she does with authenticity. She is now returning

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Speaker 4: as a series regular for season four of Hulu's Reasonable Doubt.

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Speaker 4: Please welcome Megan Good to I.R.M.

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Speaker 3: Hi Meg!

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Speaker 5: How are you?

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Speaker 1: Season 4 is good.

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Speaker 3: Season 4 is so good. It's really good.

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Speaker 4: I feel like it's a real hard world right now.

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Speaker 4: I don't know, season 4 is of shows. You don't

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Speaker 4: even hear that so much.

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Speaker 3: It doesn't happen. But this is definitely a special show.

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Speaker 6: But here we are. It's insane.

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Speaker 1: How are you feeling? What's happening? You happy? I'm happy.

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Speaker 1: Every time I see you, you just see your skin's

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Speaker 1: always glowing. I receive that. The cheeks are up here

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Speaker 1: like this.

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Speaker 5: Thank you.

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Speaker 6: I take that.

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Speaker 3: You know, I take that.

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Speaker 4: Before you came in, they were showing me a clip

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Speaker 4: of you in Friday at 13 years old.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: That was your film debut.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: And I thought, because you look like such a little baby.

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Speaker 1: You were a baby.

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Speaker 3: I was. I was.

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Speaker 1: What do you think that girl would say about who

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Speaker 3: Oh, that almost made me emotional.

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Speaker 6: Really?

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Speaker 3: Yeah. Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Because it's been such a journey. I mean, you know,

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Speaker 5: life's a journey for everybody. But being a child actor

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Speaker 3: It's been a journey.

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Speaker 5: So I think she would be really, really proud of

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Speaker 5: the woman that I've become. And yeah, so the other

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Speaker 5: day I was like, I, I, I, for me, and

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Speaker 5: I say this in a humble way, I've become exactly

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Speaker 1: How many people could say that?

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Speaker 3: I don't know. But I'm like, okay, girl, you did, you,

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Speaker 5: You did it. You're doing it. And, and you're doing it.

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Speaker 5: on your terms and being honest and in your skin.

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Speaker 4: Were you always that like, because women, especially young women

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Speaker 4: struggle with that, you know, outside noises, outside opinions, expectations,

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Speaker 1: Right.

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Speaker 5: And I think, I mean, I struggled with all those

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Speaker 6: I'm it.

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Speaker 5: And like when I mean, I had I had a

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Speaker 1: What a horrible woman.

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Speaker 3: Oh, a lot of horrible teachers, believe it or not.

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Speaker 3: But I also had a great teacher, Mr. Sharon Dave.

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Speaker 4: Isn't that crazy how teachers could literally change everything? The

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Speaker 5: Um, Misha shared naive did because, because I did struggle

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Speaker 3: She was the one teacher that was like, you know what? Like,

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Speaker 5: You know, I had lost my work permit right before Friday.

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Speaker 5: But then I also had other teachers that just made

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Speaker 5: they just gave me determination. They just made me go,

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Speaker 5: you know what?

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Speaker 6: I'll show you.

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Speaker 4: And it's funny that you work at it. It's like,

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Speaker 4: But the fact that you were doing it at four

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Speaker 1: It's really crazy.

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Speaker 3: You're not very pretty. That same teacher.

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Speaker 1: What?

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Speaker 4: So this was just a miserable person.

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Speaker 1: And I was like, what are you talking about?

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Speaker 6: I'm beautiful.

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Speaker 4: You made me want to give Mr. Devin off a

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Speaker 3: It was the audition.

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Speaker 4: And I started, I got so nervous that I started

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Speaker 4: And I started crying and I was about to go

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Speaker 1: Anything, never do anything again.

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Speaker 4: And then he made me do it again. And then

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Speaker 1: And it was okay. Whatever I had learned.

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Speaker 1: You got to push through.

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Speaker 4: But then the next day he came in and he said,

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Speaker 4: he really like leaned it into me.

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Speaker 4: And I, and I've never, and just little things like

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Speaker 4: it just reminded me, I don't know what he's going

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Speaker 5: But that's so great, though, because it's like he made

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Speaker 4: Yeah, so even, so as a girl, comfortably, but not

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Speaker 1: I know to get, I know to.

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Speaker 4: Not be defeated by that.

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Speaker 1: I know to get back up and do it again.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: And you learn that from hopefully a parent or a

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Speaker 6: It does.

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Speaker 3: It really does.

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Speaker 1: Do you ever, ever have.

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Speaker 1: And I was just sitting there watching you.

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Speaker 4: And it's not a regular speech. It's like a speech

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Speaker 4: You just seem so free in that moment to be

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Speaker 1: Is that always the case? Do you always feel that?

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Speaker 5: That's how I have to lead. Because I'm actually terrified

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Speaker 6: Really?

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Speaker 1: Terrified.

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Speaker 3: I've gotten better.

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Speaker 5: But like, I remember I gave a speech at this

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Speaker 5: I was just so scared. And they were like, you

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Speaker 5: I was like, can we just do a panel? And

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Speaker 5: I gave the speech and girl was just like sweating

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Speaker 5: I was like, you know, I just came up here

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Speaker 5: But, but yeah, so, um, it's just, yeah, speeches are

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Speaker 6: Yeah, of course.

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Speaker 5: You got to get your shit together. I was like,

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Speaker 3: But it was like a progression because it was just

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Speaker 1: Oh my God. To know that. And then to see

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Speaker 1: And I just was so like, I don't know. I

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Speaker 3: Thank you.

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Speaker 4: Because it's one thing to like read a prompter and

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Speaker 1: And, you know, just, it was really, it was really impactful.

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Speaker 1: It was beautiful. Now you're like a pro.

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Speaker 3: Thank you. I received that.

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Speaker 1: How do you go from that?

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Speaker 4: Because I'm sure there's people out there, man, that have,

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Speaker 3: That's funny.

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Speaker 1: It's like the Mr. Devenoff thing, right?

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Speaker 4: It's like when you're like afraid of something, it's like,

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Speaker 1: I'm just going to act. I'll show up on set.

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Speaker 1: I'll read the lines.

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Speaker 4: But you could have easily said, please don't ever book

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Speaker 3: No, because I didn't want it to defeat me. And

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Speaker 5: Yeah. The absolute worst case scenario that happened.

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Speaker 3: Well, there's nowhere to go.

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Speaker 1: But up from here.

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Speaker 5: And I was just like, I just I just have

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Speaker 3: I've already done that.

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Speaker 1: But what did you do next?

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Speaker 4: Did you, was there like a, I don't know, is

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Speaker 5: Um, and then being like, you know, let me go

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Speaker 3: Let me see the size, the word preparation, you know,

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Speaker 5: And then when I started to do speeches, really like

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Speaker 1: Yeah. But preparation and then being honest in your moment.

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Speaker 1: So good, Meg.

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Speaker 4: So that night, in your speech, you really just talked

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Speaker 1: It's a year now, right?

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Speaker 3: A year of marriage.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Happy anniversary.

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Speaker 3: Thank you.

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Speaker 1: Is it recently?

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Speaker 3: No, March.

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Speaker 5: Oh, March.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Oh, so you've been, you got the first year down.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: They say the first, is the first year the hardest

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Speaker 1: or the best? Which one?

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Speaker 5: They say it's the hardest. I think for us, especially

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Speaker 5: as the last few months, It's been really amazing.

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Speaker 4: Really?

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Speaker 3: It's been really fun.

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Speaker 5: I think the way that we've gotten to know each

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Speaker 5: all that stuff. But the friendship has become really, really

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Speaker 3: Just a lot of fun.

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Speaker 1: What is the key to that?

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Speaker 5: How? Why?

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Speaker 1: Because I would imagine you had a friendship before.

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Speaker 3: We did, but it's different.

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Speaker 1: It's just because it's the everyday. I think it is.

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Speaker 5: I think it's also the marriage. It's like, all right, it's,

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Speaker 5: But this is one of the first times where it

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Speaker 3: Like, I'm like, we're adults.

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Speaker 5: Like, I can't believe like someone like let us live

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Speaker 1: That is so cute. That's really cute. I love, I loved,

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Speaker 1: I don't know.

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Speaker 4: I wonder this about you because we've been talking about

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Speaker 1: It was crazy.

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Speaker 4: It was a crazy time, which we don't have to

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Speaker 5: Yeah, well, I think what's interesting is it only brought

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Speaker 5: If we're here, that's it. I don't care about nothing else, period.

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Speaker 5: So for me, it was easier for me. For Jonathan,

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Speaker 5: you know, um, for him, it was, it was, you know,

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Speaker 5: it was, it was blindsiding, you know, it was really,

453
00:17:29,940 --> 00:17:32,179
Speaker 5: it was like, you know, you.

454
00:17:32,160 --> 00:17:34,399
Speaker 4: Were probably like, you were probably like an angel to

455
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Speaker 4: him to be able to have, Not just because obviously

456
00:17:37,470 --> 00:17:39,480
Speaker 4: he had fallen in love with you, but somebody who

457
00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:43,600
Speaker 4: had already those experiences who could come to the table

458
00:17:43,660 --> 00:17:46,860
Speaker 4: with that type of understanding of how to navigate those

459
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Speaker 4: waters was probably really helpful to him.

460
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Speaker 5: Yeah, it definitely was a blessing to both of us

461
00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:55,939
Speaker 5: because even still, I was still navigating it as we

462
00:17:55,980 --> 00:17:59,560
Speaker 5: were going, you know. And then he's been an angel

463
00:17:59,680 --> 00:18:03,790
Speaker 5: to me in a totally different way. What I was

464
00:18:03,810 --> 00:18:07,889
Speaker 5: dealing with privately that people aren't really aware of, he

465
00:18:08,550 --> 00:18:12,100
Speaker 5: brought me through and breathed life back into me.

466
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Speaker 3: He's such a godsend.

467
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Speaker 5: And yeah, we were really what each other needed. And

468
00:18:19,780 --> 00:18:22,600
Speaker 5: then that's just constantly grown. So I would say the

469
00:18:22,619 --> 00:18:26,000
Speaker 5: first year of marriage has been amazing because We started

470
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Speaker 5: at step one and we slid all.

471
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Speaker 3: The way down to step eight and nine and, you know.

472
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Speaker 5: And then got to come back and start doing two

473
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Speaker 5: and three and four. And so when you've already done

474
00:18:37,250 --> 00:18:39,490
Speaker 5: eight and nine and ten, it's like.

475
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Speaker 1: This is the fun part. Now you get to have

476
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Speaker 1: some fun.

477
00:18:41,950 --> 00:18:44,210
Speaker 3: Now we get to breathe and like, you know.

478
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Speaker 4: And work together and do really cool little projects and

479
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Speaker 4: things like that.

480
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Speaker 5: Right. Yeah.

481
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Speaker 1: That's amazing.

482
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Speaker 4: What is that thing where you talk about if it's

483
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Speaker 4: okay with God and you're locked in and he's locked

484
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Speaker 4: in with you?

485
00:19:00,740 --> 00:19:03,580
Speaker 1: How do you, how do you get those answers?

486
00:19:04,600 --> 00:19:09,540
Speaker 5: Prayer and listening and being honest with yourself, not convincing

487
00:19:09,580 --> 00:19:11,280
Speaker 5: yourself that you're hearing what you want to hear.

488
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Speaker 1: I feel like God's telling me and then I'm like,

489
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Speaker 1: but is that me telling me?

490
00:19:16,609 --> 00:19:17,240
Speaker 3: Right.

491
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Speaker 1: Sometimes I get a little, a little, a little confused

492
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Speaker 1: in those waters.

493
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Speaker 5: I think for me, it's, It's not a general rule

494
00:19:23,450 --> 00:19:25,850
Speaker 5: of thumb, but it often works. Often what you don't

495
00:19:25,890 --> 00:19:27,590
Speaker 5: want to do is what you're supposed to do. And

496
00:19:27,650 --> 00:19:29,429
Speaker 5: often what you want to do is probably not what

497
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Speaker 5: you should do.

498
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Speaker 1: Really?

499
00:19:30,930 --> 00:19:31,520
Speaker 3: Oftentimes.

500
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Speaker 1: That is disappointing.

501
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Speaker 5: But what you find every time that you do that

502
00:19:37,780 --> 00:19:39,880
Speaker 5: is you end up exactly where you're supposed to be.

503
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Speaker 3: And you're like, oh, thank God.

504
00:19:41,800 --> 00:19:44,270
Speaker 5: Because if I did it my way, I'd have watched

505
00:19:44,290 --> 00:19:49,060
Speaker 5: the whole thing, you know? But I think also sometimes

506
00:19:49,100 --> 00:19:52,659
Speaker 5: just praying and just, I mean, I feel my spirit.

507
00:19:52,700 --> 00:19:55,420
Speaker 5: I feel God telling me like, yes. Other times I'm like,

508
00:19:55,540 --> 00:19:57,900
Speaker 5: I don't know if I can hear you. So then

509
00:19:57,940 --> 00:19:59,460
Speaker 5: I'm like, okay, I'm going to make a move and

510
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Speaker 5: you go make it very clear once I make that move.

511
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Speaker 3: And he always does.

512
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Speaker 4: Wow.

513
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Speaker 1: I'm always fascinated by people.

514
00:20:05,369 --> 00:20:07,570
Speaker 4: This has come up easily three or four times on

515
00:20:07,590 --> 00:20:10,760
Speaker 4: this podcast when I'm talking to people about this. There's

516
00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:16,600
Speaker 4: some people who connect differently and actually can hear his voice.

517
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Speaker 3: Yeah, I can hear his voice.

518
00:20:17,820 --> 00:20:18,300
Speaker 1: You can?

519
00:20:18,340 --> 00:20:18,500
Speaker 6: Yeah.

520
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Speaker 4: That is fascinating to me because I feel very connected,

521
00:20:23,010 --> 00:20:25,950
Speaker 4: especially when I'm trying, when I'm working on it and

522
00:20:26,090 --> 00:20:27,709
Speaker 4: being diligent about prayer and things like that.

523
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Speaker 1: I feel connected.

524
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Speaker 4: But hearing a voice, I don't hear actual voice. Where

525
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Speaker 4: people say... Tasha Smith, Tamar Braxton.

526
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Speaker 1: Who else? There was somebody recently. Miss Pat was just on.

527
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Speaker 4: She just adopted. Was it one more child? It's like

528
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Speaker 4: her eighth child. She's adopted eight children. She said, I

529
00:20:47,330 --> 00:20:51,810
Speaker 4: didn't want no more kids. But God said. And so

530
00:20:51,830 --> 00:20:53,690
Speaker 4: she just did it. She just adopted the kids because

531
00:20:53,750 --> 00:20:56,030
Speaker 4: God said. And I said, well, what does that feel like?

532
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Speaker 1: How do you know? It's actual voice. And she can

533
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Speaker 1: hear it.

534
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Speaker 3: You can actually. And sometimes it's different. Sometimes it's loud.

535
00:21:02,850 --> 00:21:06,090
Speaker 3: Sometimes it's really quiet. Sometimes you can hear, feel it.

536
00:21:06,670 --> 00:21:07,270
Speaker 3: You know what I mean?

537
00:21:07,410 --> 00:21:08,310
Speaker 1: Hear, feel it, I get.

538
00:21:08,410 --> 00:21:10,409
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah. But there's, I mean, that's so crazy.

539
00:21:10,430 --> 00:21:12,649
Speaker 1: I've been trying hard. I've been listening, trying to hear

540
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Speaker 1: actual voice.

541
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Speaker 3: Well, but I mean, look, we got time.

542
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Speaker 5: We got time.

543
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Speaker 6: I'm willing.

544
00:21:16,890 --> 00:21:17,650
Speaker 3: We have plenty of time.

545
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Speaker 1: I keep talking about it because I think I'm willing it.

546
00:21:19,869 --> 00:21:21,119
Speaker 1: I keep wanting to hear it.

547
00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:22,060
Speaker 3: Well, now it's going to happen.

548
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Speaker 1: You think so?

549
00:21:22,730 --> 00:21:23,160
Speaker 3: I think so.

550
00:21:23,180 --> 00:21:23,880
Speaker 1: I hope so.

551
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Speaker 5: Yeah.

552
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Speaker 1: I find it fascinating.

553
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Speaker 4: And everybody who tells me about the actual voice, the

554
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Speaker 4: description is similar.

555
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Speaker 2: Yeah.

556
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Speaker 1: So that's interesting to me always.

557
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Speaker 5: It's so funny because I was thinking just as we

558
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Speaker 5: were talking about this, how there was a period of

559
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Speaker 5: time where I heard God a lot. And then when

560
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Speaker 5: I was going through like the roughest season, I actually

561
00:21:47,710 --> 00:21:48,290
Speaker 5: didn't hear.

562
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Speaker 3: God at all. I was like, where are you? What's happening?

563
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Speaker 6: Yeah.

564
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Speaker 5: And I was so mad because I, because in my

565
00:21:53,550 --> 00:21:55,909
Speaker 5: mind I was like, well, there's some things that you

566
00:21:55,950 --> 00:21:57,330
Speaker 5: told me to do when I did, and that didn't

567
00:21:57,350 --> 00:21:58,949
Speaker 5: work out so well. So now I'm mad at you

568
00:21:58,970 --> 00:22:00,530
Speaker 5: and now I can't even hear you what's going on,

569
00:22:00,590 --> 00:22:04,770
Speaker 5: you know? Um, and it's so interesting because, because now,

570
00:22:04,950 --> 00:22:09,220
Speaker 5: you know, coming full circle, starting to hear God again. And,

571
00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:13,580
Speaker 5: and also the, our dynamic has changed, you know, like the,

572
00:22:14,220 --> 00:22:16,790
Speaker 5: it's like, you all, I think we always think that

573
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Speaker 5: we're in a deep place with them, but then like

574
00:22:18,850 --> 00:22:21,070
Speaker 5: things keep shifting and then you just go deeper and

575
00:22:21,090 --> 00:22:23,100
Speaker 5: deeper and deeper. And you're like, well, I didn't even

576
00:22:23,119 --> 00:22:26,100
Speaker 5: know this was available to me. So I say all

577
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Speaker 5: that to say that I'm sure that you will continue.

578
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Speaker 6: Yeah.

579
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Speaker 3: I'm sure you will.

580
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Speaker 1: I'm so excited. I'm so excited.

581
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Speaker 3: We're all growing.

582
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Speaker 1: So I'm excited.

583
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Speaker 4: What, what is, I'm sure you've talked about so many

584
00:22:37,020 --> 00:22:39,360
Speaker 4: things and so many, but what do you like define

585
00:22:39,460 --> 00:22:43,179
Speaker 4: as the, as the low, as the most challenging that

586
00:22:43,200 --> 00:22:48,250
Speaker 4: you had to get up from? Like when you look

587
00:22:48,270 --> 00:22:50,410
Speaker 4: at the history of your life, and I know, you know.

588
00:22:51,530 --> 00:22:55,340
Speaker 3: Well, one of the hardest things is watching some of

589
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Speaker 3: what Jonathan went through.

590
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Speaker 4: Oh, really?

591
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Speaker 5: You know, that was really heartbreaking. You know, when you

592
00:23:01,940 --> 00:23:07,280
Speaker 5: know what I know, and you wish other people knew

593
00:23:07,300 --> 00:23:10,540
Speaker 5: it too, you know, that for me was really, really,

594
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Speaker 5: really hard to watch.

595
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Speaker 4: Um, because of what it was doing to him or

596
00:23:15,070 --> 00:23:19,390
Speaker 4: because of like what it says about the world or people.

597
00:23:20,930 --> 00:23:21,310
Speaker 3: You know?

598
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Speaker 6: Um, and.

599
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Speaker 5: Yeah, I think that that's probably one of the hardest times.

600
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Speaker 5: And then there's been other hard times, like, you know,

601
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Speaker 5: when I, when I was going through the divorce, cause

602
00:23:33,730 --> 00:23:35,830
Speaker 5: it wasn't so much the divorce itself.

603
00:23:36,490 --> 00:23:37,960
Speaker 3: It was more the God part of it.

604
00:23:38,100 --> 00:23:38,209
Speaker 6: Hmm.

605
00:23:38,770 --> 00:23:41,720
Speaker 5: Um, because God had told me to marry that person,

606
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:43,139
Speaker 5: you know? And so I was just like, I just

607
00:23:43,160 --> 00:23:47,060
Speaker 5: don't understand why this would be the outcome. Now I understand.

608
00:23:47,240 --> 00:23:49,520
Speaker 5: And all of it's a blessing, you know, and you know,

609
00:23:49,600 --> 00:23:51,980
Speaker 5: he's well and his wife's well, and I wish them

610
00:23:52,180 --> 00:23:56,090
Speaker 5: every beautiful, positive, amazing thing. And I'm well, and my

611
00:23:56,130 --> 00:23:59,850
Speaker 5: husband's well, and you know, and so it's, it's, it's

612
00:24:00,050 --> 00:24:02,950
Speaker 5: interesting because when it does come full circle and some

613
00:24:02,970 --> 00:24:05,260
Speaker 5: things never make sense, but for me, this makes sense.

614
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Speaker 2: You know, um, what did you have to learn? What

615
00:24:08,100 --> 00:24:11,419
Speaker 2: was the, what was the, was it a lesson or

616
00:24:11,460 --> 00:24:12,040
Speaker 2: it was just a.

617
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Speaker 3: I don't know. I mean, I, what I will say

618
00:24:14,770 --> 00:24:16,990
Speaker 3: is that I know I'm a fire wife now.

619
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Speaker 5: Like, you know, I definitely learned a lot. Um, and,

620
00:24:24,650 --> 00:24:27,520
Speaker 5: and then also I learned a lot about myself, you know,

621
00:24:27,660 --> 00:24:30,960
Speaker 5: a lot about, um, some of the traumas that I

622
00:24:30,960 --> 00:24:33,830
Speaker 5: had in the past. Um, some of the things that

623
00:24:34,170 --> 00:24:38,300
Speaker 5: informed how I moved or what I thought, um, I

624
00:24:39,820 --> 00:24:42,679
Speaker 5: definitely became less religious, I guess you could say. I'm

625
00:24:43,340 --> 00:24:47,780
Speaker 5: definitely Jesus freak through, through and through and through. Um, and,

626
00:24:47,980 --> 00:24:50,939
Speaker 5: and I'm saved and I'm a Christian, but I realized, like,

627
00:24:50,960 --> 00:24:53,190
Speaker 5: as I said, my dynamic with God changed so much.

628
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Speaker 5: I had this experience where I was talking to God

629
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Speaker 5: and I said, um, Lord, am I getting it right? Hmm.

630
00:25:02,910 --> 00:25:07,830
Speaker 5: And all I heard was, it's okay. And I was

631
00:25:07,869 --> 00:25:10,690
Speaker 5: just like, and it suddenly occurred to me, I wasn't

632
00:25:10,710 --> 00:25:12,590
Speaker 5: getting it right. And I wasn't getting it wrong.

633
00:25:13,109 --> 00:25:15,130
Speaker 1: It's okay.

634
00:25:15,330 --> 00:25:18,530
Speaker 5: And I felt this feeling of like, I saw myself

635
00:25:18,630 --> 00:25:20,770
Speaker 5: just like I was up in the air and I

636
00:25:20,810 --> 00:25:22,659
Speaker 5: was with God.

637
00:25:22,410 --> 00:25:23,890
Speaker 3: In this space.

638
00:25:23,910 --> 00:25:26,960
Speaker 5: And all of a sudden I just opened my arms

639
00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:29,100
Speaker 5: and I just fell back. And it's just like, I

640
00:25:29,140 --> 00:25:31,560
Speaker 5: went falling and I was completely free.

641
00:25:32,130 --> 00:25:35,139
Speaker 3: You know? And so I don't.

642
00:25:35,020 --> 00:25:37,880
Speaker 5: Think I could have gotten to that place without being

643
00:25:37,900 --> 00:25:40,400
Speaker 5: in the other place. That broke me down to such

644
00:25:40,440 --> 00:25:44,959
Speaker 5: a point that everything was questionable and everything was like, well,

645
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:46,899
Speaker 5: this doesn't make sense to me now. And I've got

646
00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:48,660
Speaker 5: to a point where I was like, I'm mad at you, Lord.

647
00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,580
Speaker 5: I don't trust you anymore. I don't trust you. Oh, wow.

648
00:25:51,800 --> 00:25:54,290
Speaker 3: Like you bamboozled me. That's how I feel. And I

649
00:25:54,330 --> 00:25:55,790
Speaker 3: don't understand, you know?

650
00:25:56,930 --> 00:25:59,770
Speaker 5: But getting to a place where I had to get

651
00:25:59,869 --> 00:26:03,800
Speaker 5: really real with God and really, stop like, you know,

652
00:26:03,900 --> 00:26:06,870
Speaker 5: showing up like, Oh, I'm doing everything right. I'm trying

653
00:26:06,880 --> 00:26:08,609
Speaker 5: to do this and trying to like, just, I am

654
00:26:08,630 --> 00:26:11,990
Speaker 5: there and I am raw and I am, I don't know.

655
00:26:12,310 --> 00:26:15,690
Speaker 5: And you have to tell me because, you know, um,

656
00:26:15,910 --> 00:26:17,570
Speaker 5: and it never would have turned me away from God.

657
00:26:17,590 --> 00:26:20,369
Speaker 5: I was just mad at him, you know? And, and

658
00:26:20,450 --> 00:26:22,670
Speaker 5: he was kind of like, energy was kind of like, good.

659
00:26:22,730 --> 00:26:24,410
Speaker 5: Now we really talking good for you.

660
00:26:24,609 --> 00:26:25,109
Speaker 6: Wow.

661
00:26:25,710 --> 00:26:26,910
Speaker 3: Let's get there, you know?

662
00:26:26,990 --> 00:26:30,070
Speaker 5: So, um, I don't think I could have gotten to

663
00:26:30,109 --> 00:26:33,750
Speaker 5: so many places without that experience, that experience as rough

664
00:26:33,810 --> 00:26:36,270
Speaker 5: as it was, it was such a blessing to me.

665
00:26:37,010 --> 00:26:40,770
Speaker 3: And I'm a better woman, a better wife, a better.

666
00:26:40,590 --> 00:26:42,129
Speaker 1: Person, a fire wife.

667
00:26:42,230 --> 00:26:42,610
Speaker 5: Yeah.

668
00:26:42,750 --> 00:26:44,070
Speaker 3: A fire.

669
00:26:44,230 --> 00:26:47,290
Speaker 1: What is a fire wife? What makes a fire wife?

670
00:26:47,570 --> 00:26:48,609
Speaker 1: I have to know.

671
00:26:49,369 --> 00:26:52,070
Speaker 4: Well, for you, for you, not for everybody, but why,

672
00:26:52,310 --> 00:26:54,810
Speaker 4: why you do, do you feel like that? I, I

673
00:26:54,850 --> 00:26:58,890
Speaker 4: just feel so in tune with him.

674
00:26:59,660 --> 00:27:03,000
Speaker 5: And his needs and who he really is at the

675
00:27:03,060 --> 00:27:07,719
Speaker 5: core and able to see like what informs what, and

676
00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,860
Speaker 5: what is this about? And how can I, you know,

677
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,580
Speaker 5: be of service to him this way? And how can

678
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:16,870
Speaker 5: I cover him this way as a wife? And, you know,

679
00:27:16,920 --> 00:27:19,250
Speaker 5: I just, and I'm, and I'm also in a different space.

680
00:27:19,310 --> 00:27:22,830
Speaker 5: So I just love to just be home and up

681
00:27:22,930 --> 00:27:25,909
Speaker 5: under him and just cooking and like, I don't want

682
00:27:25,930 --> 00:27:26,800
Speaker 5: to do nothing else.

683
00:27:27,060 --> 00:27:28,400
Speaker 3: And like, I miss him right now.

684
00:27:28,460 --> 00:27:30,080
Speaker 5: Like, I wish I could get on the plane when

685
00:27:30,100 --> 00:27:31,500
Speaker 5: I leave here and just go and just be in

686
00:27:31,520 --> 00:27:31,940
Speaker 5: his arms.

687
00:27:31,960 --> 00:27:33,620
Speaker 1: You guys were supposed to do the show together.

688
00:27:33,660 --> 00:27:36,159
Speaker 4: I think at one point we were booked, something happened, whatever.

689
00:27:36,180 --> 00:27:38,420
Speaker 1: It's fine. We'll do it one day. We'll do it

690
00:27:38,520 --> 00:27:41,600
Speaker 1: one day. So you don't have to be away. You

691
00:27:41,619 --> 00:27:42,560
Speaker 1: can do press together.

692
00:27:42,580 --> 00:27:44,100
Speaker 3: Yeah.

693
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:49,200
Speaker 5: I just feel, I just feel, um, more equipped, you know,

694
00:27:49,320 --> 00:27:53,300
Speaker 5: I feel like, I know something that I can now

695
00:27:53,420 --> 00:27:58,300
Speaker 5: expand upon and make specifically for him. And, and also

696
00:27:58,320 --> 00:28:01,240
Speaker 5: I feel more in my skin and more aware of

697
00:28:01,480 --> 00:28:04,169
Speaker 5: myself and my needs and who, you know, and I'm

698
00:28:04,250 --> 00:28:07,330
Speaker 5: able to articulate and he's able to articulate, we're able

699
00:28:07,350 --> 00:28:10,470
Speaker 5: to actually listen and like not be defensive and like, just,

700
00:28:10,490 --> 00:28:13,070
Speaker 5: you know, it's just, it's just wonderful. Right.

701
00:28:13,090 --> 00:28:14,330
Speaker 3: So, Yeah, it's fire.

702
00:28:15,580 --> 00:28:16,560
Speaker 1: I love that for you.

703
00:28:17,240 --> 00:28:20,200
Speaker 4: And you're pretty great at a few other things, too,

704
00:28:20,220 --> 00:28:21,420
Speaker 4: besides being a wife, right?

705
00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:21,700
Speaker 5: Yeah.

706
00:28:21,800 --> 00:28:23,439
Speaker 1: Oh, yeah. Do you feel like.

707
00:28:23,460 --> 00:28:26,740
Speaker 4: You're deep in your, like, I don't know, because now

708
00:28:26,800 --> 00:28:28,340
Speaker 4: it's not just acting, it's directing.

709
00:28:28,400 --> 00:28:30,300
Speaker 1: It's like, I don't know, you put a few different

710
00:28:30,340 --> 00:28:30,939
Speaker 1: hats on.

711
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:32,899
Speaker 4: Do you feel like you're in your stride and your

712
00:28:32,940 --> 00:28:33,740
Speaker 4: bag with that?

713
00:28:33,980 --> 00:28:34,460
Speaker 1: I do.

714
00:28:34,720 --> 00:28:38,370
Speaker 3: I mean, I really love directing, you know. I know

715
00:28:38,410 --> 00:28:39,550
Speaker 3: I love it because I would do it for free.

716
00:28:39,590 --> 00:28:39,990
Speaker 6: Yeah.

717
00:28:40,710 --> 00:28:43,510
Speaker 5: Like, I give you all 12, 15 hours of the

718
00:28:43,550 --> 00:28:46,510
Speaker 5: day for free every day for months on out.

719
00:28:46,550 --> 00:28:47,470
Speaker 3: That's how much I love it.

720
00:28:47,530 --> 00:28:48,650
Speaker 1: What was the first thing you directed?

721
00:28:49,850 --> 00:28:52,320
Speaker 3: First thing I directed, I started doing music videos.

722
00:28:52,540 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 1: Oh, was it Video Girl?

723
00:28:53,630 --> 00:28:53,800
Speaker 5: No.

724
00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:54,840
Speaker 3: No, no, I produced that.

725
00:28:54,860 --> 00:28:55,240
Speaker 1: You produced that.

726
00:28:55,260 --> 00:28:56,700
Speaker 3: That's one of the first things I produced that you

727
00:28:56,740 --> 00:28:57,380
Speaker 3: came and played.

728
00:28:57,440 --> 00:28:59,500
Speaker 1: Yay! I got to see. But I felt like you

729
00:28:59,540 --> 00:29:01,460
Speaker 1: were in your... You were a producer.

730
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:02,320
Speaker 3: I was in my producing bag.

731
00:29:02,340 --> 00:29:04,180
Speaker 1: But I feel like you were in the directing bag

732
00:29:04,220 --> 00:29:06,020
Speaker 1: a little bit, too. Like, I think... Well, I think

733
00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:08,600
Speaker 1: that's why. Maybe internally, like, you were starting to.

734
00:29:09,470 --> 00:29:10,030
Speaker 3: I think so.

735
00:29:10,090 --> 00:29:12,910
Speaker 5: Because when you're on set and you see things and

736
00:29:12,930 --> 00:29:14,330
Speaker 5: you're like, well, if we just do this, we could

737
00:29:14,370 --> 00:29:16,850
Speaker 5: actually get this and that, and this would actually be

738
00:29:16,870 --> 00:29:19,729
Speaker 5: a beautiful like floating shot. And like, well, I don't

739
00:29:19,750 --> 00:29:21,590
Speaker 5: know why we're not putting this in this, you know,

740
00:29:21,610 --> 00:29:23,910
Speaker 5: and it's just like, you see all the things or like,

741
00:29:23,930 --> 00:29:25,630
Speaker 5: you're like, oh, this is a fight scene. You know,

742
00:29:25,650 --> 00:29:27,989
Speaker 5: if you did, if you started with this, that would

743
00:29:28,010 --> 00:29:30,130
Speaker 5: actually make that work better, you know? And so I

744
00:29:30,230 --> 00:29:32,990
Speaker 5: already was in that space and in that mindset. So

745
00:29:33,010 --> 00:29:37,020
Speaker 5: it was a natural progression, to move into directing. But

746
00:29:37,680 --> 00:29:41,459
Speaker 5: what's interesting is, is acting. I, I chose it as

747
00:29:41,520 --> 00:29:44,260
Speaker 5: a child, you know, but I was a child. And

748
00:29:44,340 --> 00:29:46,740
Speaker 5: so it's always been my first love and I, I

749
00:29:47,060 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 5: will always love it. And I will always be in

750
00:29:49,100 --> 00:29:52,110
Speaker 5: front of the camera to some degree, but directing, I

751
00:29:52,170 --> 00:29:55,390
Speaker 5: chose as an adult when I knew myself.

752
00:29:56,010 --> 00:29:56,970
Speaker 3: And as I know myself.

753
00:29:57,050 --> 00:29:58,610
Speaker 1: And also with your bag of tools.

754
00:29:58,910 --> 00:29:59,430
Speaker 5: Yeah.

755
00:29:59,650 --> 00:30:01,230
Speaker 1: You've learned so much over the years.

756
00:30:01,450 --> 00:30:05,150
Speaker 5: There's potential that it might not be my first love,

757
00:30:05,170 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 5: but it might be my greatest love.

758
00:30:06,840 --> 00:30:07,440
Speaker 1: It's like right there.

759
00:30:07,500 --> 00:30:08,200
Speaker 5: Oh, wow. Yeah.

760
00:30:08,480 --> 00:30:08,980
Speaker 3: Oh, wow.

761
00:30:09,820 --> 00:30:10,040
Speaker 6: Yeah.

762
00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:11,280
Speaker 1: So more to come.

763
00:30:11,860 --> 00:30:12,160
Speaker 6: Oh, yeah.

764
00:30:12,340 --> 00:30:16,120
Speaker 1: What is the project with Jonathan that you're doing? Honor Culture.

765
00:30:16,160 --> 00:30:16,660
Speaker 3: Honor Culture.

766
00:30:16,790 --> 00:30:19,430
Speaker 1: Tell me about Honor Culture. Yeah.

767
00:30:20,510 --> 00:30:22,800
Speaker 3: So when everything was going on, Jim.

768
00:30:25,030 --> 00:30:27,570
Speaker 5: Going to the gym became kind of our refuge. And

769
00:30:27,610 --> 00:30:30,450
Speaker 5: it's like, you know, you can pray, you can, you know,

770
00:30:30,550 --> 00:30:32,350
Speaker 5: get therapy, you can do all these things and not

771
00:30:32,370 --> 00:30:36,360
Speaker 5: the prayer goes in the same category. But sometimes you

772
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:40,280
Speaker 5: need to physically move your body in a way that

773
00:30:40,320 --> 00:30:42,160
Speaker 5: something can come off you and it can't come off

774
00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:44,880
Speaker 5: in any other way. And I kind of like, you know, it's,

775
00:30:45,420 --> 00:30:47,040
Speaker 5: I feel like, you know, when God has us to

776
00:30:47,080 --> 00:30:50,270
Speaker 5: get baptized, you know, it's like, it's not that you

777
00:30:50,310 --> 00:30:52,090
Speaker 5: actually have to go in the water and come up.

778
00:30:52,490 --> 00:30:54,820
Speaker 5: it's a physical thing that you need to do for

779
00:30:54,860 --> 00:30:57,560
Speaker 5: your brain to understand what it is that God is

780
00:30:57,580 --> 00:31:00,240
Speaker 5: sharing with you and for you to understand what this

781
00:31:00,460 --> 00:31:03,850
Speaker 5: means to be born again, you know? And so going

782
00:31:03,880 --> 00:31:07,870
Speaker 5: to the gym, the way that Jonathan was working out,

783
00:31:08,370 --> 00:31:11,130
Speaker 5: I found that things were starting to come off of

784
00:31:11,170 --> 00:31:13,850
Speaker 5: me where I, after like a set or something, I

785
00:31:13,870 --> 00:31:16,040
Speaker 5: would just sit there and I would just cry. And

786
00:31:16,060 --> 00:31:18,940
Speaker 5: it would be like the deep guttural, like just, just

787
00:31:19,000 --> 00:31:21,050
Speaker 5: things needed to come out. And for some reason, I

788
00:31:21,070 --> 00:31:22,360
Speaker 5: couldn't get to it any other way.

789
00:31:22,620 --> 00:31:23,280
Speaker 3: And so.

790
00:31:24,640 --> 00:31:27,160
Speaker 5: I started inviting my sister and then my brother-in-law, who

791
00:31:27,180 --> 00:31:28,920
Speaker 5: had just lost his mother at the time. And then

792
00:31:29,240 --> 00:31:31,540
Speaker 5: my best friend, who was working on getting pregnant. And

793
00:31:31,560 --> 00:31:35,710
Speaker 5: then my godmother, my godfather, Jim Brown, had just passed away.

794
00:31:35,870 --> 00:31:39,810
Speaker 5: And then his two youngest. And next thing you know,

795
00:31:40,250 --> 00:31:42,960
Speaker 5: there's about a group of 20 of us. And we're

796
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:45,900
Speaker 5: working out this way and everybody's having the same experience.

797
00:31:45,940 --> 00:31:47,680
Speaker 5: And I'm like, I've worked out my entire life to

798
00:31:47,700 --> 00:31:49,860
Speaker 5: some degree. I don't know why this is different, but

799
00:31:49,900 --> 00:31:55,070
Speaker 5: it is. And Jonathan has such a massive wealth of

800
00:31:55,140 --> 00:31:58,350
Speaker 5: knowledge on the body from magazine dreams, from creed, from,

801
00:31:58,430 --> 00:32:00,770
Speaker 5: you know, and then he just, our house is like

802
00:32:00,810 --> 00:32:03,330
Speaker 5: full of books now because he reads everything and he's

803
00:32:03,370 --> 00:32:07,440
Speaker 5: constantly educating himself. And so what he brought specifically to

804
00:32:07,460 --> 00:32:09,780
Speaker 5: the workout just started to transition everything.

805
00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:13,740
Speaker 1: And so, um, what is that though? What is that? Like,

806
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:15,420
Speaker 1: is it just, is it a routine?

807
00:32:15,460 --> 00:32:19,180
Speaker 4: Is it a mental, like when you say you brought everybody,

808
00:32:19,220 --> 00:32:20,240
Speaker 4: what is the experience?

809
00:32:20,260 --> 00:32:21,340
Speaker 3: Well, everyone just shows up.

810
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:23,740
Speaker 5: Some show up at 5am, some show up at 9am

811
00:32:24,370 --> 00:32:26,910
Speaker 5: and we get into the workouts and Jonathan leads them.

812
00:32:27,290 --> 00:32:29,370
Speaker 5: And then we just like work, work, work. And then

813
00:32:29,550 --> 00:32:31,770
Speaker 5: things just start happening. And it's more of like a

814
00:32:31,790 --> 00:32:36,990
Speaker 5: spiritual experience. And, um, And then everybody's body started transforming

815
00:32:37,030 --> 00:32:39,250
Speaker 5: really quick, which for me was amazing because I'm like, look,

816
00:32:39,350 --> 00:32:42,670
Speaker 5: you know, at this time, I think I was like 40, 41,

817
00:32:42,670 --> 00:32:44,870
Speaker 5: maybe 42. But I was like, I've never seen my

818
00:32:44,910 --> 00:32:48,410
Speaker 5: body change this quickly. And especially at this age, that's crazy.

819
00:32:48,710 --> 00:32:50,830
Speaker 5: And everybody was having the same experience. The oldest person

820
00:32:50,850 --> 00:32:54,970
Speaker 5: in the group was 56 and the youngest person was 21.

821
00:32:54,970 --> 00:32:59,890
Speaker 3: Everybody's bodies change. Everybody's. And so how do we do it?

822
00:32:59,940 --> 00:33:00,400
Speaker 1: What do we do?

823
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:02,180
Speaker 3: So we have it coming out.

824
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:04,520
Speaker 5: We're working on an app now and we're going to

825
00:33:04,540 --> 00:33:06,360
Speaker 5: start putting some of the workouts out, but we just,

826
00:33:06,460 --> 00:33:09,320
Speaker 5: just right now we just started the community, which is

827
00:33:09,360 --> 00:33:12,410
Speaker 5: on Instagram. And then now we're getting ready to do

828
00:33:12,650 --> 00:33:15,010
Speaker 5: the run clubs and go to different States and kind

829
00:33:15,050 --> 00:33:18,030
Speaker 5: of do like a tour basically of the workouts. And

830
00:33:18,370 --> 00:33:20,350
Speaker 5: then we have something called the honor shuffle, which is

831
00:33:20,370 --> 00:33:22,190
Speaker 5: something that you can do at home without going to

832
00:33:22,230 --> 00:33:22,730
Speaker 5: the gym.

833
00:33:24,270 --> 00:33:26,060
Speaker 3: So it really just became.

834
00:33:25,730 --> 00:33:30,380
Speaker 5: A kind of a movement around honoring yourself. honoring your

835
00:33:30,420 --> 00:33:34,200
Speaker 5: mind your body your spirit um honoring what you're going

836
00:33:34,240 --> 00:33:37,940
Speaker 5: through honoring each other holding each other accountable and um

837
00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:39,990
Speaker 5: and yeah it's like a budding.

838
00:33:39,890 --> 00:33:41,970
Speaker 4: I needed i needed i needed to hear all that

839
00:33:42,010 --> 00:33:43,370
Speaker 4: today i told you when you came in i was

840
00:33:43,410 --> 00:33:47,670
Speaker 4: like i'm starting a new kind of discipline i'm trying

841
00:33:47,750 --> 00:33:49,830
Speaker 4: a new way of looking at the gym yeah yeah

842
00:33:49,850 --> 00:33:51,870
Speaker 4: yeah i've never really been able to lock into the

843
00:33:51,930 --> 00:33:54,350
Speaker 4: discipline of it but i just recently was like okay

844
00:33:54,370 --> 00:33:56,550
Speaker 4: i'm gonna try this and it has to it's just

845
00:33:56,590 --> 00:33:58,940
Speaker 4: a It's just, it's an internal thing, how I look

846
00:33:59,000 --> 00:34:03,180
Speaker 4: at it, reframing my discipline about it, like reprioritizing.

847
00:34:03,200 --> 00:34:05,440
Speaker 1: So that was my goal in my new place. I

848
00:34:05,460 --> 00:34:07,720
Speaker 1: just moved into a new spot. So I'm in that,

849
00:34:07,850 --> 00:34:09,750
Speaker 1: so I'm like, I'm open to.

850
00:34:09,670 --> 00:34:11,770
Speaker 3: Like those type of gems.

851
00:34:11,790 --> 00:34:15,190
Speaker 5: Because I have the moments where I'm just like, no,

852
00:34:15,790 --> 00:34:17,980
Speaker 5: I just remind myself, I will never regret it.

853
00:34:19,190 --> 00:34:20,800
Speaker 3: Anytime I go, I'll never regret it.

854
00:34:21,410 --> 00:34:22,970
Speaker 5: And there's not many things in life that you can

855
00:34:22,989 --> 00:34:25,480
Speaker 5: say that for sure about, but you can absolutely say

856
00:34:25,520 --> 00:34:26,339
Speaker 5: that about the gems.

857
00:34:26,780 --> 00:34:28,000
Speaker 3: You go, you will never regret it.

858
00:34:28,420 --> 00:34:28,780
Speaker 5: Always.

859
00:34:29,000 --> 00:34:31,239
Speaker 1: You've always been pretty disciplined though, right? Like of that.

860
00:34:31,460 --> 00:34:33,250
Speaker 1: Cause I feel like you've always, at least from the outside,

861
00:34:33,270 --> 00:34:34,370
Speaker 1: it always looked like you're in shape.

862
00:34:35,270 --> 00:34:40,399
Speaker 5: Uh, I, I, I've gotten better discipline. Um, I think

863
00:34:40,520 --> 00:34:43,520
Speaker 5: because of being a child actor, I was just disciplined

864
00:34:43,660 --> 00:34:44,260
Speaker 5: as an actor.

865
00:34:44,280 --> 00:34:44,360
Speaker 6: Yeah.

866
00:34:45,380 --> 00:34:48,430
Speaker 5: And whatever that entailed. But outside of that.

867
00:34:48,510 --> 00:34:49,989
Speaker 1: Also, it's like a hot girl actor, too.

868
00:34:50,110 --> 00:34:54,610
Speaker 4: I'm just saying, you were cast as, you know, the

869
00:34:54,630 --> 00:34:54,910
Speaker 4: hot girl.

870
00:34:54,950 --> 00:34:57,529
Speaker 1: I'm sure there's expectation also connected to that.

871
00:34:57,550 --> 00:34:57,830
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah.

872
00:34:58,010 --> 00:34:59,390
Speaker 1: How you show up physically, right?

873
00:34:59,410 --> 00:35:04,080
Speaker 5: What's interesting is I, before, before, like, 27, I didn't

874
00:35:04,100 --> 00:35:04,719
Speaker 5: have to work at it.

875
00:35:05,000 --> 00:35:08,080
Speaker 3: It was just, my, naturally, genetically, it was not a

876
00:35:08,100 --> 00:35:08,459
Speaker 3: big deal.

877
00:35:08,860 --> 00:35:11,299
Speaker 5: And then 26, I just was like, I just want

878
00:35:11,320 --> 00:35:13,489
Speaker 5: to get voluptuous and I just got way too comfortable

879
00:35:13,680 --> 00:35:16,690
Speaker 5: and started eating like burgers and chili cheese fries, like

880
00:35:16,870 --> 00:35:18,770
Speaker 5: a few times a week. Next thing, you know, I

881
00:35:19,150 --> 00:35:22,450
Speaker 5: gained like probably 20 pounds and on, you know, five

882
00:35:22,489 --> 00:35:25,320
Speaker 5: foot three for me, it was a lot. Like I

883
00:35:25,340 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 5: couldn't get into my jings. I was like getting on

884
00:35:27,100 --> 00:35:29,680
Speaker 5: a bed, like, ah, and like, it was just a lot.

885
00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:31,779
Speaker 5: And then I went to do this job and I

886
00:35:31,800 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 5: had previously worked with a studio on waist deep and

887
00:35:35,300 --> 00:35:38,319
Speaker 5: they offered me this job. And when I got there,

888
00:35:38,340 --> 00:35:40,670
Speaker 5: they were like, Oh no, sweetheart, you're going to have

889
00:35:40,690 --> 00:35:42,819
Speaker 5: to lose some weight. Oh, Like, and that's back when

890
00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:45,299
Speaker 5: they couldn't say that, you know? And they were like, yeah,

891
00:35:45,420 --> 00:35:47,319
Speaker 5: if you want to work on this movie, that's, that's.

892
00:35:47,460 --> 00:35:50,060
Speaker 5: And so I was like on set literally. And the

893
00:35:50,160 --> 00:35:53,170
Speaker 5: other lead girl, she was too thin. So both of

894
00:35:53,290 --> 00:35:55,750
Speaker 5: us at lunch, she would have to stock up and

895
00:35:55,830 --> 00:35:57,469
Speaker 5: she'd be like trying to really eat.

896
00:35:57,850 --> 00:35:58,910
Speaker 3: And they would be watching me.

897
00:35:58,989 --> 00:36:00,390
Speaker 5: Like I could see the producers at the end of

898
00:36:00,410 --> 00:36:01,549
Speaker 5: the thing, like seeing what I was going to put

899
00:36:01,590 --> 00:36:02,150
Speaker 5: on my plate.

900
00:36:02,739 --> 00:36:06,020
Speaker 3: Girl, I'd go home at night and this was in Chicago.

901
00:36:06,060 --> 00:36:06,739
Speaker 3: I'd go home at night.

902
00:36:06,760 --> 00:36:08,739
Speaker 5: I had like a little chocolate thing underneath my pillow

903
00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:10,480
Speaker 5: and I'd take one bite at night and cry.

904
00:36:10,640 --> 00:36:13,400
Speaker 1: Oh my God. That's horrible Megan.

905
00:36:13,420 --> 00:36:15,739
Speaker 5: But you know, but then I was like, I, I,

906
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:18,310
Speaker 5: you know, I, I felt like I looked good, but

907
00:36:18,350 --> 00:36:20,550
Speaker 5: I also was like, but you're not healthy. And that's

908
00:36:20,610 --> 00:36:23,150
Speaker 5: the issue is you feel, you don't feel great. And

909
00:36:23,190 --> 00:36:27,530
Speaker 5: so after that, I kind of like yo-yoed for years.

910
00:36:28,070 --> 00:36:30,290
Speaker 5: And then around like 34, I was like, that's it.

911
00:36:30,350 --> 00:36:31,390
Speaker 5: I'm going to get in the best shape of my

912
00:36:31,430 --> 00:36:33,860
Speaker 5: life because you're not getting any younger and you got it.

913
00:36:33,969 --> 00:36:37,010
Speaker 5: You have to start deciding what you want for yourself

914
00:36:37,160 --> 00:36:40,660
Speaker 5: in the future, you know? And so that year I

915
00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:43,480
Speaker 5: decided to really get in shape and really be disciplined

916
00:36:43,500 --> 00:36:44,520
Speaker 5: about it. And I was like, I'm going to get

917
00:36:44,540 --> 00:36:47,080
Speaker 5: in the DC or Marvel universe by the end of

918
00:36:47,120 --> 00:36:48,620
Speaker 5: this year. And I did, I ended up getting into

919
00:36:48,660 --> 00:36:52,469
Speaker 5: DC by the end of that year. But I, I

920
00:36:52,510 --> 00:36:55,640
Speaker 5: can be off and on the, the, the child actor

921
00:36:55,680 --> 00:36:57,250
Speaker 5: in me is like really rebellious.

922
00:36:57,290 --> 00:36:59,430
Speaker 3: It's like, I don't want anyone telling me what to do.

923
00:36:59,469 --> 00:37:00,969
Speaker 3: I don't want to have any responsibility.

924
00:37:01,030 --> 00:37:03,470
Speaker 5: I already have a shitload of responsibilities that I already

925
00:37:03,489 --> 00:37:06,129
Speaker 5: got to do and pay attention to and make sure that,

926
00:37:06,850 --> 00:37:08,910
Speaker 5: and when I think of it, I've been working my

927
00:37:08,950 --> 00:37:11,950
Speaker 5: entire life. I've never not had a job. There's never

928
00:37:11,969 --> 00:37:13,640
Speaker 5: been a year. There's, I think there's only been one

929
00:37:13,680 --> 00:37:15,480
Speaker 5: year in my entire career that I haven't worked.

930
00:37:15,820 --> 00:37:17,060
Speaker 1: Wow.

931
00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:17,980
Speaker 3: By the grace of God.

932
00:37:18,540 --> 00:37:20,719
Speaker 5: So, but it wasn't, it's not like I'm going to

933
00:37:20,760 --> 00:37:22,319
Speaker 5: just be an actor and have a.

934
00:37:22,380 --> 00:37:24,560
Speaker 3: Career because This is the only job I've had my

935
00:37:24,600 --> 00:37:27,100
Speaker 3: entire life. I got to work, you know? And so

936
00:37:28,060 --> 00:37:29,860
Speaker 3: that was the mentality for so long.

937
00:37:30,060 --> 00:37:32,920
Speaker 5: So whenever I wasn't working, I didn't really want to

938
00:37:32,960 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 5: work out. Now I work out because it's not about

939
00:37:36,600 --> 00:37:39,180
Speaker 5: the job. It's about the life that I want. It's

940
00:37:39,219 --> 00:37:41,640
Speaker 5: about starting a family. It's about making sure that I

941
00:37:41,660 --> 00:37:44,410
Speaker 5: can run around with that kid. It's about my husband

942
00:37:44,489 --> 00:37:46,830
Speaker 5: is eight years younger than me. You know, I want

943
00:37:46,890 --> 00:37:48,270
Speaker 5: to travel the world with him.

944
00:37:48,350 --> 00:37:50,750
Speaker 1: You got a young boy you got to keep up with.

945
00:37:50,770 --> 00:37:52,890
Speaker 5: Yeah, I got a little young boy. So, you know,

946
00:37:52,969 --> 00:37:55,239
Speaker 5: you got to keep up with him. And I do.

947
00:37:56,040 --> 00:37:59,620
Speaker 5: But it's about having quality of life. And I want

948
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:02,640
Speaker 5: to look up and be 60 and 70 and be

949
00:38:02,780 --> 00:38:05,600
Speaker 5: in shape and be in the fitness space as someone

950
00:38:05,700 --> 00:38:07,219
Speaker 5: who is consistently doing that.

951
00:38:07,760 --> 00:38:10,100
Speaker 3: That's important to me. That to me is legacy and

952
00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:11,500
Speaker 3: that's what I want. Yeah, for life.

953
00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:14,320
Speaker 1: More so than just those roles.

954
00:38:20,160 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 4: I can't even imagine the fact that that was okay

955
00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:23,919
Speaker 4: back then is absolutely nuts.

956
00:38:24,360 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 3: Isn't it crazy?

957
00:38:25,260 --> 00:38:28,020
Speaker 1: No, it's crazy. And I'm glad that we've come so far.

958
00:38:28,219 --> 00:38:29,580
Speaker 1: That's not okay.

959
00:38:29,620 --> 00:38:32,520
Speaker 5: They weren't telling it to girls who didn't look like me.

960
00:38:32,560 --> 00:38:33,800
Speaker 5: There was a time where they were telling it to

961
00:38:33,980 --> 00:38:36,950
Speaker 5: everybody and then there was a season where it was like,

962
00:38:37,400 --> 00:38:41,779
Speaker 5: Certain people like Kate Winslet or Scarlett Johansson, whoever they are,

963
00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:45,080
Speaker 5: Jennifer Lawrence, they'd be like, go F yourself. No.

964
00:38:45,120 --> 00:38:48,109
Speaker 3: But you couldn't say that. Yeah, back then.

965
00:38:48,620 --> 00:38:50,590
Speaker 4: But even with age, we were just talking about Jasmine

966
00:38:50,610 --> 00:38:53,489
Speaker 4: Guy and the way that's been a big conversation about-

967
00:38:53,670 --> 00:38:57,170
Speaker 4: Just crazy. Have you seen some of that with Different World?

968
00:38:57,969 --> 00:39:01,890
Speaker 4: I love that she didn't just sit home and let

969
00:39:01,930 --> 00:39:06,940
Speaker 4: the comments eat at her spirit and- you know, whatever,

970
00:39:07,060 --> 00:39:10,080
Speaker 4: have to live in that quietly, which is what a

971
00:39:10,120 --> 00:39:11,920
Speaker 4: lot of people do, right? You sit, you sit at

972
00:39:11,960 --> 00:39:13,700
Speaker 4: home and you read that and you're like, and.

973
00:39:13,620 --> 00:39:15,970
Speaker 5: Then you just like, oh, you know, and then you

974
00:39:15,989 --> 00:39:19,790
Speaker 5: carry it by yourself and people assume that it doesn't

975
00:39:19,870 --> 00:39:22,790
Speaker 5: affect you or people, you know, they just, they forget

976
00:39:22,810 --> 00:39:23,970
Speaker 5: that that's actually.

977
00:39:23,610 --> 00:39:24,310
Speaker 3: A human being.

978
00:39:24,330 --> 00:39:28,069
Speaker 5: And I'm really glad that she said something because, you know,

979
00:39:28,130 --> 00:39:29,730
Speaker 5: it's like, we're at the end of the day, we're

980
00:39:29,770 --> 00:39:34,340
Speaker 5: all aging. Every single human harsh on women specifically, everybody's aging,

981
00:39:34,739 --> 00:39:37,040
Speaker 5: you know, like a certain, uh, some man somewhere, his

982
00:39:37,120 --> 00:39:39,000
Speaker 5: body's not doing exactly what he wants it to do

983
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:41,719
Speaker 5: right now. And that feels terrible, you know, but this,

984
00:39:41,820 --> 00:39:44,339
Speaker 5: but being able to age, getting a chance to age,

985
00:39:44,380 --> 00:39:48,020
Speaker 5: we should be celebrating that and we should be supporting

986
00:39:48,160 --> 00:39:52,870
Speaker 5: everybody in that. But especially women in the sense of like, yeah,

987
00:39:52,910 --> 00:39:54,930
Speaker 5: we're going to look different. That's going to happen. We're

988
00:39:55,050 --> 00:39:56,390
Speaker 5: never going to look the way that we used to look.

989
00:39:56,650 --> 00:39:57,169
Speaker 3: And that's fine.

990
00:39:57,210 --> 00:39:59,780
Speaker 5: It's about looking and feeling your best at every single

991
00:39:59,880 --> 00:40:02,860
Speaker 5: age and understanding that that is different for everyone and

992
00:40:02,900 --> 00:40:04,819
Speaker 5: celebrating that, you know? Yeah.

993
00:40:04,920 --> 00:40:08,100
Speaker 1: Good for her. I like to see when we clap

994
00:40:08,140 --> 00:40:10,060
Speaker 1: back a little bit.

995
00:40:10,080 --> 00:40:13,210
Speaker 3: Her little self, she's such a beautiful little spirit.

996
00:40:13,430 --> 00:40:14,000
Speaker 1: Do you know her?

997
00:40:14,270 --> 00:40:14,670
Speaker 5: Yeah.

998
00:40:14,690 --> 00:40:15,509
Speaker 3: We did Harlem together.

999
00:40:15,530 --> 00:40:17,690
Speaker 1: Oh, that's right. Oh my God. That's right.

1000
00:40:17,870 --> 00:40:18,190
Speaker 6: Yeah.

1001
00:40:19,110 --> 00:40:21,879
Speaker 1: Shaz, my guy. Have you seen Different Worlds? It's so good, right?

1002
00:40:21,900 --> 00:40:22,610
Speaker 3: I haven't seen it yet.

1003
00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:24,200
Speaker 1: Oh my God, it's so good. You should watch it.

1004
00:40:24,300 --> 00:40:24,920
Speaker 1: I think you'll like it.

1005
00:40:24,920 --> 00:40:27,020
Speaker 3: I've been traveling, but I have it on my list

1006
00:40:27,060 --> 00:40:27,759
Speaker 3: to watch. I can't wait.

1007
00:40:27,860 --> 00:40:30,200
Speaker 4: What happened is I watched it and then it took

1008
00:40:30,239 --> 00:40:31,900
Speaker 4: me to the old ones. And so now I've been

1009
00:40:31,920 --> 00:40:34,719
Speaker 4: binge watching the original, which is really cute to see too.

1010
00:40:34,739 --> 00:40:36,759
Speaker 4: It's like, oh wow, it just takes you to a

1011
00:40:36,780 --> 00:40:39,759
Speaker 4: whole different time. whatever what are you watching right now

1012
00:40:39,780 --> 00:40:42,240
Speaker 4: do you watch yourself are you watching reasonable death.

1013
00:40:41,840 --> 00:40:44,140
Speaker 3: I am gonna watch will you watch it i will definitely.

1014
00:40:43,780 --> 00:40:45,920
Speaker 1: Be watching it yeah at home with your husband like

1015
00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:46,560
Speaker 1: what do you do.

1016
00:40:46,440 --> 00:40:48,840
Speaker 5: A thousand percent really a thousand percent yeah he doesn't

1017
00:40:48,890 --> 00:40:51,290
Speaker 5: watch himself at all but i watch myself i'm like

1018
00:40:51,330 --> 00:40:54,630
Speaker 5: no i'm gonna watch this you know um so it's

1019
00:40:54,650 --> 00:40:57,290
Speaker 5: gonna be it's gonna be such a good season really

1020
00:40:57,410 --> 00:40:59,630
Speaker 5: like i can't wait to like i mean some of

1021
00:40:59,650 --> 00:41:01,549
Speaker 5: the stuff and i'm like reading the scripts i'm like

1022
00:41:01,650 --> 00:41:04,380
Speaker 5: oh And then like other times I'm like crying.

1023
00:41:04,420 --> 00:41:06,279
Speaker 3: I'm like, this is the sweetest thing ever.

1024
00:41:06,320 --> 00:41:08,480
Speaker 5: And then like other times I'm like, oh, this is crazy. Oh,

1025
00:41:08,540 --> 00:41:10,120
Speaker 5: this is about to get so wild. I can't wait

1026
00:41:10,140 --> 00:41:11,460
Speaker 5: to see how this turns out. Yeah.

1027
00:41:11,540 --> 00:41:12,480
Speaker 1: Well, it's officially out.

1028
00:41:12,500 --> 00:41:14,759
Speaker 4: Hey guys, this episode of IRL is brought to you

1029
00:41:14,800 --> 00:41:19,460
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1030
00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:22,880
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1031
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1034
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1035
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1036
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1037
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1039
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1040
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1045
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1047
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1048
00:42:19,270 --> 00:42:23,259
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1049
00:42:23,280 --> 00:42:24,200
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1050
00:42:24,500 --> 00:42:26,660
Speaker 1: But I do have a bowl. I have a bowl.

1051
00:42:26,700 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 1: This is our in real life bowl.

1052
00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:29,180
Speaker 3: Okay.

1053
00:42:29,360 --> 00:42:29,720
Speaker 4: Mm-hmm.

1054
00:42:30,410 --> 00:42:32,300
Speaker 1: Take a little question in there.

1055
00:42:33,060 --> 00:42:33,460
Speaker 3: Okay.

1056
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:43,589
Speaker 5: What do you hope people learn from you? I hope

1057
00:42:43,660 --> 00:42:55,190
Speaker 5: that people learn that it doesn't matter where you've been,

1058
00:42:55,510 --> 00:42:58,060
Speaker 5: what you've done, or what's been done to you, that

1059
00:42:58,100 --> 00:43:01,110
Speaker 5: you are so worthy of of God's best.

1060
00:43:01,750 --> 00:43:03,069
Speaker 3: And that's what God has for you.

1061
00:43:04,500 --> 00:43:11,319
Speaker 5: And I hope that people get from me that your

1062
00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:14,600
Speaker 5: authenticity is the fullness of who you are.

1063
00:43:14,860 --> 00:43:16,760
Speaker 3: And we need that.

1064
00:43:17,570 --> 00:43:19,990
Speaker 5: And you can't go wrong in just being the fullness

1065
00:43:20,010 --> 00:43:24,630
Speaker 5: of who you are and that people move unapologetically and

1066
00:43:24,690 --> 00:43:28,250
Speaker 5: that they really listen to God, you know, and, and

1067
00:43:28,450 --> 00:43:31,940
Speaker 5: if them and God are good, then That's it. Move

1068
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:33,940
Speaker 5: from that place and everything else will come the way

1069
00:43:33,980 --> 00:43:35,440
Speaker 5: it's supposed to come and be a blessing.

1070
00:43:35,460 --> 00:43:39,160
Speaker 4: I mean, that's not a bad little inspiration to leave

1071
00:43:39,239 --> 00:43:45,000
Speaker 4: on people. Thank you. I hope so. In real life,

1072
00:43:48,650 --> 00:43:52,970
Speaker 4: I guess that's the same thing. I'll leave that.

1073
00:43:53,410 --> 00:43:54,670
Speaker 1: What are you still working on?

1074
00:43:57,489 --> 00:43:58,130
Speaker 3: More discipline.

1075
00:43:58,989 --> 00:43:59,489
Speaker 6: Really?

1076
00:43:59,570 --> 00:44:00,690
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah.

1077
00:44:00,770 --> 00:44:01,969
Speaker 3: But not with working out.

1078
00:44:02,090 --> 00:44:06,310
Speaker 5: Just I'm, I'm such a free spirited person that like,

1079
00:44:06,390 --> 00:44:08,200
Speaker 5: you know, growing up, like, you know, if I was

1080
00:44:08,219 --> 00:44:09,880
Speaker 5: like 19, someone's like, let's go to Vegas right now.

1081
00:44:09,880 --> 00:44:10,589
Speaker 3: I'm like, let's go.

1082
00:44:10,610 --> 00:44:12,859
Speaker 1: It's like, we don't have a hotel room.

1083
00:44:12,900 --> 00:44:13,799
Speaker 3: Oh, we'll figure it out.

1084
00:44:13,840 --> 00:44:16,580
Speaker 5: You know? And I do love that about myself, but

1085
00:44:16,620 --> 00:44:20,380
Speaker 5: I also want, um, I want to make sure that

1086
00:44:20,460 --> 00:44:25,160
Speaker 5: in my free spirit. Um, that everything that I do

1087
00:44:25,400 --> 00:44:30,000
Speaker 5: is serving me. what I want to accomplish. Um, because

1088
00:44:30,540 --> 00:44:33,359
Speaker 5: sometimes when you're too free spirited, it can be more

1089
00:44:33,440 --> 00:44:35,500
Speaker 5: destructive than helpful at certain times.

1090
00:44:35,660 --> 00:44:36,640
Speaker 1: Like a focus, right?

1091
00:44:36,700 --> 00:44:36,939
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1092
00:44:36,980 --> 00:44:37,180
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1093
00:44:37,460 --> 00:44:41,180
Speaker 3: Yeah. And so I think growing up, sometimes it was destructive.

1094
00:44:41,200 --> 00:44:42,400
Speaker 5: I mean, not just growing up, like, I mean, like

1095
00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:45,660
Speaker 5: growing up in my twenties and thirties and forties sometimes, you.

1096
00:44:45,620 --> 00:44:47,800
Speaker 1: Know, we'll give yourself a break. Cause you are a creative.

1097
00:44:48,540 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 3: That's true.

1098
00:44:49,219 --> 00:44:51,299
Speaker 1: You can't be too tight of a box. Then how

1099
00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:53,030
Speaker 1: can you be free and creative?

1100
00:44:53,050 --> 00:44:55,430
Speaker 5: But I also think like, I thought this was going

1101
00:44:55,450 --> 00:44:56,890
Speaker 5: to sound bad, but I also think a lot of

1102
00:44:56,950 --> 00:44:59,440
Speaker 5: creatives crash and burn because they, because they need a

1103
00:44:59,460 --> 00:45:05,120
Speaker 5: little bit more like without, without, without dimming that creativity

1104
00:45:05,140 --> 00:45:08,900
Speaker 5: and without losing that light and that freedom, making sure

1105
00:45:08,980 --> 00:45:11,930
Speaker 5: that some of those things are just good things that

1106
00:45:11,950 --> 00:45:13,730
Speaker 5: are good for them, you know, and things that are

1107
00:45:13,790 --> 00:45:16,089
Speaker 5: serving what their ultimate goals are.

1108
00:45:16,110 --> 00:45:16,490
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1109
00:45:16,590 --> 00:45:20,009
Speaker 5: You know, some, some creatives like, you know, can't really feel,

1110
00:45:20,030 --> 00:45:23,260
Speaker 5: don't feel comfortable making a song without, you know, smoking

1111
00:45:23,300 --> 00:45:25,120
Speaker 5: a lot, then that's fine to each his own.

1112
00:45:26,239 --> 00:45:28,830
Speaker 3: But like, if you're, if you're a singer at some point,

1113
00:45:28,850 --> 00:45:31,089
Speaker 3: that's going to damage your voice, you know? And it's

1114
00:45:31,110 --> 00:45:35,910
Speaker 3: like just having the balance of, of being free and

1115
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Speaker 3: using wisdom.

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Speaker 1: I get that. Should we do a voice note?

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Speaker 4: Hey guys, you ever signed up for a phone plan thinking, wow,

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00:45:43,130 --> 00:45:43,950
Speaker 4: what a great price.

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00:45:44,090 --> 00:45:46,270
Speaker 1: And then a few months later, it's like, surprise, your

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Speaker 1: bill is higher. We hate that.

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Speaker 4: With Boost Mobile, you pay $ 25 a month forever. That's

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00:45:52,420 --> 00:45:55,790
Speaker 4: unlimited talk, text, and data starting at just $ 25 a month.

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Speaker 4: There's no price hikes, there's no contract, and this is forever. Plus,

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Speaker 4: Boost Mobile is now a legit nationwide 5G network. They

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Speaker 4: invested billions building 5G.

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Speaker 1: Towers across the country.

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Speaker 6: So.

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Speaker 4: What you need to do is visit BoostMobile.com or head

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Speaker 4: to your local Boost store today and get unlimited talk, text,

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Speaker 4: and data for $ 25 a month forever. 5G speeds not

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Speaker 4: available in all areas. After 30 gigabytes, customers may experience

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Speaker 4: lower speeds. Customers will pay $ 25 a month as long

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Speaker 4: as they remain active on the Boost unlimited plan.

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Speaker 1: We have a segment called Voice Notes. Somebody asked you

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00:46:29,570 --> 00:46:30,530
Speaker 1: a question or a comment?

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00:46:30,830 --> 00:46:31,150
Speaker 6: Okay.

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00:46:31,330 --> 00:46:33,790
Speaker 1: I don't know who it is. We got an IRL

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00:46:34,390 --> 00:46:35,430
Speaker 1: voice note for Meg.

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00:46:35,450 --> 00:46:37,530
Speaker 3: Hi, Megan.

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00:46:38,510 --> 00:46:42,270
Speaker 8: I love two of your movies. I love Waste Deep

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00:46:42,469 --> 00:46:45,779
Speaker 8: and Debs. I think those are some of your throwback

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00:46:45,860 --> 00:46:49,720
Speaker 8: greatest hits. But which one did you have more fun shooting?

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00:46:51,700 --> 00:46:53,440
Speaker 1: This is your life.

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00:46:53,920 --> 00:46:54,260
Speaker 5: Right.

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00:46:54,280 --> 00:46:55,340
Speaker 1: This is your movie life.

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00:46:56,810 --> 00:46:57,790
Speaker 3: Oh, my goodness.

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00:46:58,070 --> 00:47:07,300
Speaker 5: Okay, so I was 21 when I shot Debs. I'm

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00:47:07,300 --> 00:47:10,960
Speaker 5: 22 and I was 24 when I shot Waste Deep. I.

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00:47:11,550 --> 00:47:14,290
Speaker 3: Waste Deep.

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00:47:14,670 --> 00:47:14,980
Speaker 5: Yeah. I....

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00:47:17,110 --> 00:47:18,770
Speaker 3: I had fun on both of them.

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00:47:20,950 --> 00:47:27,380
Speaker 5: But maybe Debs because all I wanted to do and

1153
00:47:27,400 --> 00:47:30,020
Speaker 5: sometimes all I want to do is wear a short

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00:47:30,100 --> 00:47:32,440
Speaker 5: skirt and walk around with a gun and shoot things.

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00:47:34,800 --> 00:47:35,780
Speaker 3: So with Debs.

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00:47:36,390 --> 00:47:39,810
Speaker 5: It was really fun because it had this Charlie's Angel

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00:47:40,010 --> 00:47:43,330
Speaker 5: element to it. But then Max was such a badass

1158
00:47:43,610 --> 00:47:46,700
Speaker 5: and so tough. And then I also was like, I

1159
00:47:46,739 --> 00:47:50,719
Speaker 5: remember being inside my trailer using my guns because they were.

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00:47:50,640 --> 00:47:52,660
Speaker 3: So heavy as weights to work out.

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Speaker 5: So maybe Debs, but I did have fun on Waste

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Speaker 5: Deep because Tyrese is my brother.

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Speaker 1: Good times all around. Do you always have fun on

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00:48:00,060 --> 00:48:00,319
Speaker 1: the set?

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00:48:01,020 --> 00:48:01,259
Speaker 6: Yeah.

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00:48:01,420 --> 00:48:01,700
Speaker 4: Really?

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 3: It's my choice.

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Speaker 1: You really enjoy it, right?

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00:48:03,739 --> 00:48:07,210
Speaker 5: Yeah. But I'm like a conscious, you know, I, I

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00:48:07,270 --> 00:48:09,630
Speaker 5: create the space that I want to live in and

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Speaker 5: I try to make sure that I bring like just

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00:48:12,719 --> 00:48:15,680
Speaker 5: positivity and good energy to every set that I go to,

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00:48:15,760 --> 00:48:19,040
Speaker 5: to every actor, to every crew member, to everybody involved.

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Speaker 3: I really try to create that everywhere.

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00:48:21,950 --> 00:48:23,930
Speaker 5: And then there's places sometimes where, you know, other people

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00:48:23,969 --> 00:48:26,630
Speaker 5: got things going on. And so, you know, I create

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00:48:26,670 --> 00:48:28,890
Speaker 5: that space just like off to the side of my

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00:48:28,930 --> 00:48:30,330
Speaker 5: own little world and, you know.

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Speaker 1: Protect yourself.

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Speaker 3: And I shoot my superpowers of love towards them and

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Speaker 3: keep it pushing.

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Speaker 1: You do have a free spirit to it.

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Speaker 4: I also, before you were coming, I watched the Friday

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Speaker 4: clip and then there was a clip of you.

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Speaker 1: God, you had to be in your 20s. I guess

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Speaker 1: you had like a wardrobe malfunction or something.

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Speaker 6: Yeah.

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00:48:46,300 --> 00:48:48,280
Speaker 1: It was on TMZ. And you were like, I'm so sorry.

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Speaker 1: I didn't mean to make a nipple slip. But I

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00:48:49,860 --> 00:48:52,910
Speaker 1: didn't have a bra on. But like... You were just like,

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00:48:52,950 --> 00:48:55,300
Speaker 1: but who cares? I'm totally fine with it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah.

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Speaker 1: You just always had this like freedom about you.

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Speaker 3: It's nice that... There was a time where.

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Speaker 5: I felt that I kind of like lost that a bit.

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Speaker 3: Like I really had... I just.

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Speaker 3: I felt a bit suffocated.

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Speaker 5: The rebel in me was like, yeah, but I am

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Speaker 5: who I am and I love who I am. you know? Um,

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00:49:17,230 --> 00:49:18,890
Speaker 5: but I was like, let me just find the balance.

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Speaker 5: And I think that, I think I've just now gotten

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Speaker 5: back to that Megan where that kind of freedom, like

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Speaker 5: I saw this post that it said, um, you know,

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00:49:29,460 --> 00:49:32,580
Speaker 5: being in your forties is like being 16 again, except

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Speaker 5: for not judging yourself.

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Speaker 3: You know?

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Speaker 5: And I think at that time, like by the time

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Speaker 5: I was in my twenties, I just was completely free.

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Speaker 5: And then I think I went to a space of

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Speaker 5: kind of judging myself a little bit, but being like,

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Speaker 5: but I'm still going to be me.

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Speaker 3: And now I just feel kind of like that 16

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Speaker 3: year old again.

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Speaker 1: Free again. Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: In real life, I'm no longer available for. Bullshit.

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Speaker 5: Yes.

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Speaker 1: On any level.

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Speaker 3: And exhaustion. I like to be exhausted.

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Speaker 1: You sleep well?

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00:50:05,560 --> 00:50:07,920
Speaker 3: I sleep well, but sometimes people exhaust me.

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Speaker 5: So I'm like, I just can't.

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Speaker 3: Before, I just sit there and I'm like, mm-hmm, mm-hmm.

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Speaker 3: Now I'm like, I'm so sorry.

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Speaker 6: I can't.

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Speaker 5: I got to go to this thing. You get out. Yeah,

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Speaker 5: I can't do it.

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Speaker 3: I've done enough to not feel bad about saying I can't.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to do that. I'm going to read you

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Speaker 1: a bit. I'll be right back. I can't do this.

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Speaker 1: I'm so sorry. I can't do this.

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Speaker 3: I'm nice about it, but I'm bored.

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Speaker 1: Lately, I have been reminding myself that.

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Speaker 5: God's got it all like under control. And I think

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Speaker 5: sometimes we forget to just be like, oh yeah, you

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Speaker 5: know what?

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Speaker 3: No matter what, God's got it all under control. It's

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Speaker 3: all good.

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Speaker 1: Do you have a bucket list thing? Is there anything

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00:50:52,460 --> 00:50:53,920
Speaker 1: that you haven't done at this point?

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00:50:54,340 --> 00:50:59,480
Speaker 5: Oh, my bucket list is to have me, my husband

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00:50:59,540 --> 00:51:04,750
Speaker 5: and my baby just like backpacking. you know, just go

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00:51:04,989 --> 00:51:07,149
Speaker 5: out into the world and just like backpack for like

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Speaker 5: a year, just not with much stuff.

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Speaker 3: I mean, you can give me a tent. I don't

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Speaker 3: need much.

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00:51:11,930 --> 00:51:13,549
Speaker 5: Like I just, as long as I can brush my

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00:51:13,590 --> 00:51:16,810
Speaker 5: teeth and have a brow pencil, I'm just kidding.

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00:51:17,730 --> 00:51:21,359
Speaker 3: No, some good chapstick. Um, yeah. And, and he's really

1251
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:22,000
Speaker 3: liked that too.

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00:51:22,460 --> 00:51:25,779
Speaker 5: So it's, yeah, that's, I just want to travel like

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Speaker 5: with me and my husband and my child and just travel,

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Speaker 5: go live somewhere like Lisbon, you know, for a year

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Speaker 5: and just explore.

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Speaker 6: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: And be free and just in the moment.

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Speaker 3: I want to go where nobody knows my name.

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Speaker 1: In real life, what was the last time you cried

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Speaker 1: from gratitude?

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00:51:44,510 --> 00:51:45,529
Speaker 3: That almost just made me cry.

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00:51:46,030 --> 00:51:46,270
Speaker 1: What?

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Speaker 3: Just the question.

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00:51:47,690 --> 00:51:48,010
Speaker 4: Really?

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00:51:48,050 --> 00:51:51,820
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I'm in such gratitude. I'm in such gratitude.

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00:51:52,780 --> 00:51:54,420
Speaker 3: Like such gratitude.

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00:51:55,060 --> 00:51:55,259
Speaker 6: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: For?

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00:51:58,920 --> 00:52:00,320
Speaker 3: What God has brought me through.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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00:52:02,790 --> 00:52:07,589
Speaker 5: For my husband, for my family, for the family that

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Speaker 5: I believe is coming, for the career that I've had,

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00:52:13,530 --> 00:52:18,950
Speaker 5: for the friends that I have, for the joy that

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Speaker 5: I hold, that I protect very well, or that God

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00:52:23,150 --> 00:52:28,330
Speaker 5: protects very well, to be healthy, to have made it

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00:52:28,370 --> 00:52:37,930
Speaker 5: to 45. to make people smile when people come up

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00:52:37,950 --> 00:52:40,980
Speaker 5: to me on the street and they say how i

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00:52:41,020 --> 00:52:44,120
Speaker 5: inspired them or i was their childhood or they loved

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00:52:44,200 --> 00:52:48,530
Speaker 5: harlem or whatever it is um to be in that

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00:52:48,570 --> 00:52:53,270
Speaker 5: position and to be whole and to have gotten to

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00:52:53,310 --> 00:52:57,150
Speaker 5: this point inside myself and outside myself i'm in such.

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00:52:56,989 --> 00:53:00,650
Speaker 4: Gratitude That's going to take me to my last bowl question,

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00:53:00,750 --> 00:53:02,170
Speaker 4: which is always my favorite.

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00:53:02,210 --> 00:53:04,730
Speaker 1: Even when they don't pick it, I ask it every episode.

1285
00:53:05,430 --> 00:53:07,759
Speaker 1: That if God were to text you right now, what

1286
00:53:07,780 --> 00:53:08,279
Speaker 1: would it say?

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00:53:08,300 --> 00:53:20,650
Speaker 6: I think he would say he's proud of me.

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00:53:23,510 --> 00:53:27,569
Speaker 1: Gets you, right? And you believe that, yeah?

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00:53:27,790 --> 00:53:29,669
Speaker 5: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

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00:53:29,870 --> 00:53:32,880
Speaker 1: Well then, well done. You win. I mean, if you

1291
00:53:32,890 --> 00:53:34,340
Speaker 1: made him proud, right? You did good.

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00:53:34,420 --> 00:53:34,780
Speaker 5: Yeah.

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00:53:35,000 --> 00:53:38,180
Speaker 1: You did great. And also, you got a show coming

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00:53:38,239 --> 00:53:38,580
Speaker 1: and you got.

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00:53:38,940 --> 00:53:41,660
Speaker 3: Yeah. You got to do stuff. Y'all watch Reasonable Doubt.

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00:53:41,700 --> 00:53:43,799
Speaker 8: It's so good.

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00:53:45,500 --> 00:53:47,560
Speaker 4: And you can leave everybody with one thing because you have...

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00:53:47,980 --> 00:53:51,590
Speaker 4: You are in this beautiful space of grace and joy

1299
00:53:51,660 --> 00:53:53,970
Speaker 4: and love and all those things. It's like you really

1300
00:53:54,010 --> 00:53:55,830
Speaker 4: have figured this thing out, right?

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00:53:55,910 --> 00:53:56,750
Speaker 1: It seems like it.

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00:53:56,750 --> 00:53:59,150
Speaker 3: Well, girl, you have until you know how life goes.

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00:53:59,190 --> 00:54:01,390
Speaker 3: I know. Then different seasons.

1304
00:54:02,390 --> 00:54:04,950
Speaker 4: But if somebody's watching and really inspired by that and

1305
00:54:05,030 --> 00:54:08,239
Speaker 4: not really there yet, or in the dark of where

1306
00:54:08,280 --> 00:54:11,779
Speaker 4: you have been, or in the down of where, what

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00:54:12,239 --> 00:54:12,880
Speaker 4: would you say to them?

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00:54:12,980 --> 00:54:13,819
Speaker 1: Let's leave them with that.

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00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:19,700
Speaker 5: I would say it may not feel like it, but

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00:54:19,739 --> 00:54:20,879
Speaker 5: God really has you.

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00:54:21,620 --> 00:54:22,780
Speaker 3: God really has you.

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00:54:23,550 --> 00:54:30,650
Speaker 5: Every horrible or hard thing that happens, rather private, rather public,

1313
00:54:32,670 --> 00:54:34,910
Speaker 5: all of it at some point will turn around and

1314
00:54:34,950 --> 00:54:37,250
Speaker 5: be such a blessing and add to who you are

1315
00:54:37,270 --> 00:54:39,750
Speaker 5: as a person and make you so much more powerful,

1316
00:54:40,190 --> 00:54:43,250
Speaker 5: so much stronger, will give you the ability to pour

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00:54:43,290 --> 00:54:47,460
Speaker 5: into other people's lives. from a place of authority and truth.

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00:54:49,540 --> 00:54:54,460
Speaker 5: And you will come through stronger and better than you

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00:54:54,600 --> 00:54:59,730
Speaker 5: ever were before. And the going through part is the

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00:54:59,770 --> 00:55:01,860
Speaker 5: hard part, but there's so much to get out of it.

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00:55:01,950 --> 00:55:04,070
Speaker 5: And there is a way to dance even in the rain.

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00:55:05,110 --> 00:55:09,290
Speaker 5: And just don't forget your dance and know that the rain.

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00:55:10,590 --> 00:55:11,560
Speaker 3: Will come and go.

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00:55:13,530 --> 00:55:16,590
Speaker 1: Making good in real life.

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00:55:19,230 --> 00:55:21,710
Speaker 3: This is making good in real life.

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Speaker 1: Hey guys, thanks for watching.

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Speaker 4: Make sure you subscribe, like, comment, and check out all

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Speaker 4: of the other episodes we have on Angel Martinez IRL podcast.