Speaker 1: Rad.
Speaker 2: Hello, what's hi?
Speaker 1: How's it going?
Speaker 2: Not much? How about you?
Speaker 1: I'm I'm chilling. I'm uh, I'm you know, I'm I'm
Speaker 1: a gecko. What's up with you? Rad?
Speaker 2: I'm just chilling too. Just wanted to tell you a story.
Speaker 2: Oh please, Okay, I kind of just needed to get
Speaker 2: this story off my chest because I'm not really sure
Speaker 2: how to feel about it.
Speaker 3: Good.
Speaker 2: But when my friend and my best friend and I
Speaker 2: were thirteen, we went to this water park resort thing
Speaker 2: and we were floating down the lazy river together and
Speaker 2: no one was around, and she told me that she
Speaker 2: had this shit really bad, and I was like, okay,
Speaker 2: let's go to the bathroom. But she told me that
Speaker 2: she couldn't hold it and she couldn't make it to
Speaker 2: the bathroom. So she pulled down her bikini bottoms and
Speaker 2: she shit in the lazy river.
Speaker 1: And how did you respond to this?
Speaker 2: Well, I was right in front of her, and you know,
Speaker 2: like lazy rivers have a current, so the poop started
Speaker 2: floating towards me, and like right in the mix of time,
Speaker 2: she scooped the turds up with her hands and threw
Speaker 2: it into the bush right next to the lazy river,
Speaker 2: She scooped.
Speaker 1: The turd up with her head. Did the turd not
Speaker 1: like dissolve into the water a little bit? I don't
Speaker 1: know what the chemical composition is of turds, but I
Speaker 1: would think that it would like sort of dissolve into
Speaker 1: a little like diarrhea. Mist before was it like a
Speaker 1: fully solid thing.
Speaker 2: It was like it looked like like little rocks. It
Speaker 2: wasn't like diarrhea.
Speaker 4: It was like solid.
Speaker 2: There was just like three of them, and she just
Speaker 2: cuffed her hands kind of scooped them and tossed them.
Speaker 1: Okay, three little pebbles.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And the water didn't turn brown or anything. It
Speaker 2: just it was pretty clean poop.
Speaker 1: And did this in any way affect your relationship with
Speaker 1: your friends?
Speaker 2: No, not really. It's kind of mmm, We're still best friends.
Speaker 2: We just don't really talk about this incident.
Speaker 1: That's probably for the best.
Speaker 2: But the story also gets worse. So we went back
Speaker 2: in the Lazy River like thirty minutes later, which, in
Speaker 2: hindsight is like, we really probably shouldn't have done that,
Speaker 2: because they're supposed to like shock the pool and stuff
Speaker 2: after someone shifts in it. But when we got to
Speaker 2: where she shit, it smelled really it smelled so bad,
Speaker 2: but like for some reason you thought it was like
Speaker 2: really funny and she was feeling kind of bad about it,
Speaker 2: and she was trying to convince me to shit in
Speaker 2: the Lazy river so that she wouldn't do it alone.
Speaker 2: You know, what do you think you would have done?
Speaker 2: I ship next to the lazy river.
Speaker 1: You shipped next to the lazy river? So where where
Speaker 1: was Where was that to the Laser River? Was it
Speaker 1: on the edge? Was it in the bushes? Was it
Speaker 1: so it was not in the water? Where did you
Speaker 1: stand on the edge of the pool and then pull
Speaker 1: down your pants and squat and ship into the pool.
Speaker 2: I did not shit in the pool. I squatted next
Speaker 2: to the pool and it was like in a bush
Speaker 2: right next to it. I just couldn't do it in
Speaker 2: the pool. I couldn't bring myself to do it. But
Speaker 2: I just wanted to be a good friend.
Speaker 1: And you did that just to make your friend feel better.
Speaker 2: Yes, that's nice, and also we thought it was funny, okay,
Speaker 2: but I just feel really guilty about it now.
Speaker 1: Oh you fuld why do you feel guilty about.
Speaker 2: It because someone had to clean it up or something?
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 2: That's true, or like I just I can't. I feel
Speaker 2: bad for whoever like discovered it, like the employee.
Speaker 1: Do you think that makes it less funny?
Speaker 2: I kind of like, yeah, now now I think it
Speaker 2: makes it less funny now that I'm older.
Speaker 1: What were you about to say just now?
Speaker 2: I don't know. I was about to say that it
Speaker 2: keeps me up that night sometimes.
Speaker 1: Can I ask how old you were when this happens.
Speaker 2: We were twelve or thirteen, And I'm not sure if
Speaker 2: that makes the story better or worse.
Speaker 1: So how old are you, know, twenty one? If a
Speaker 1: similar incident happens at this current age, if you were
Speaker 1: with your friend and she shat in the lazy river
Speaker 1: and picked it up and threw it out, how would
Speaker 1: you react?
Speaker 2: Now, I don't think that I would shit next to
Speaker 2: the lazy River again. I think I would just get
Speaker 2: off of her emotional support.
Speaker 1: Now, Okay, this is a friend that you've been friends
Speaker 1: with for many years at this point. But let's say you,
Speaker 1: as a twenty one year old, had a new friend
Speaker 1: that you've known for a relatively brief amount of time,
Speaker 1: and you went with them to the water park and
Speaker 1: they did the same thing. Would that change your relationship
Speaker 1: with them in any way or would you be very
Speaker 1: understanding about it.
Speaker 2: I would be shocked that it happened again. But I
Speaker 2: feel like I might think a little differently of them
Speaker 2: because they're not twelve or thirteen anymore. And maybe I
Speaker 2: mean if they had like a medical condition or something
Speaker 2: that caused them to do that, then obviously I wouldn't
Speaker 2: judge them, but like just doing it for ships and giggles.
Speaker 3: Like.
Speaker 2: Literally, I don't know, literally ships and giggles?
Speaker 1: Well, is their name?
Speaker 5: Once?
Speaker 6: Rad Rad?
Speaker 1: Anything else? Want? Side of the people read.
Speaker 2: I'm really sorry to whoever found the ship. I feel
Speaker 2: really bad if you're out there.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Brad the night you too.
Speaker 7: Bye, week goes on the line.
Speaker 1: Thank you every night ever goes.
Speaker 8: He's teaching you.
Speaker 6: Red.
Speaker 1: Hello, Anthony, Hello, Hi, thanks for having me. Well, I
Speaker 1: had to have that much, are you?
Speaker 8: That's true.
Speaker 9: I'm glad I have you.
Speaker 1: I'm glad I have you too. Sorry, Anthony, what's going on, man, dude?
Speaker 3: Not much?
Speaker 10: Just uh, I'm just happy for the weekend. I got
Speaker 10: some news today and I don't know how Yeah, I
Speaker 10: don't know how to take it. Like like my girlfriend, uh,
Speaker 10: she told me that she kind of wants to bring
Speaker 10: like another female into the relationship.
Speaker 11: Mm hm.
Speaker 10: And I just don't know, Like it sounds really cool
Speaker 10: on paper, but I don't know if I can handle it.
Speaker 1: Why don't you think that you can handle it?
Speaker 5: Well?
Speaker 10: I think, like I think I might like I might
Speaker 10: just get like jealous that she might give this girl
Speaker 10: more attention mmm than she gives me M. And I
Speaker 10: don't know if I can take it m hmm.
Speaker 1: Okay, So when she told you that, when she brought
Speaker 1: this idea up to you, what did you first say
Speaker 1: to her.
Speaker 10: Well, I kind of just said, like, that's cool, like
Speaker 10: that sounds interesting. But as like time, when I like,
Speaker 10: I just processed it, and I don't know, I think
Speaker 10: like I would just like jealousy would just creep up
Speaker 10: M And I don't know if that would be a
Speaker 10: good thing for the relationship.
Speaker 1: Okay, did you tell her this?
Speaker 5: I did.
Speaker 10: Yeah, our communication is pretty solid.
Speaker 1: That's good to hear. What did she say.
Speaker 10: She kind of just said, there's nothing really to worry about,
Speaker 10: and uh, we kind of just figured it out as
Speaker 10: we went.
Speaker 1: So okay, she said, she said, we'll figure it out
Speaker 1: as we go. That's what she said.
Speaker 10: Yeah, Yeah, it's kind of like, yeah, we'll just try
Speaker 10: it out and see what happened.
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so are you what's what? How would
Speaker 1: you rate your comfortability level in just trying it out?
Speaker 10: I don't. I mean, yeah, sure, I'll give it a shot. Okay,
Speaker 10: but like without knowing what this person, I don't there's
Speaker 10: no person yet, so there's not much to worry about.
Speaker 10: But like if it does like this, if it does happen,
Speaker 10: like I just don't know how it handled. Like what
Speaker 10: if this girl wanted me out of the picture.
Speaker 12: What if?
Speaker 10: Like there's so many variables that could just change everything,
Speaker 10: and it's just like my anxiety is just through the roof.
Speaker 1: This is a tough one because you know, if because
Speaker 1: I'm I'm not hearing from you that like you're anxious
Speaker 1: about it, but you're in You're like because like there's
Speaker 1: I feel like they're they're cand there. I feel like
Speaker 1: there can exist a.
Speaker 3: Fee.
Speaker 1: I feel like there can exist a I feel like
Speaker 1: somewhere between fuck, yeah, I'm super into this, let's do it,
Speaker 1: and no, absolutely not. I feel like there can exist
Speaker 1: a legitimate emotion of I'm apprehensive but willing to try it.
Speaker 1: You know, Oh, yeah, but I don't, but I don't,
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't, I don't know. We haven't
Speaker 1: talked for super long. But that's kind of not what
Speaker 1: I'm here. And and again, don't let me like influence
Speaker 1: your whatever thoughts about it. But that's kind of not
Speaker 1: what I'm hearing from you, Like like, Okay, I've heard
Speaker 1: about your anxieties, I've heard about your apprehensions, but like
Speaker 1: what tell me about tell me more about the other
Speaker 1: half of you that is that is into this, you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, are you our part could
Speaker 1: be parts of this exciting to you?
Speaker 10: Sure of course?
Speaker 1: Okaye, absolutely, Okay, exciting enough that you're you're going to
Speaker 1: you know, I'm sorry, go ahead.
Speaker 9: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, give it a go.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 10: Sure. But there's there's a fear though that you know, uh,
Speaker 10: just something like negative could happen out of this too,
Speaker 10: Like what we have is so great, So like I
Speaker 10: really don't know if I want to disturb it, I
Speaker 10: don't know.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, well, I'll say, you know, ye, I don't know. Man,
Speaker 1: It sounds like you have a really good communication with
Speaker 1: your partner. And if that's the case, and if that
Speaker 1: remains the case, I feel like you don't have anything
Speaker 1: to worry about, you know, as long as you guys
Speaker 1: are keeping a good, good line of communication.
Speaker 10: Oh wow, I like that. Okay, yeah, dude, Yeah, I
Speaker 10: feel I feel a little bit better about it. Yeah,
Speaker 10: I feel pretty sure.
Speaker 1: Do you feel do you feel like you have the
Speaker 1: do you feel like you have the sexual skill to
Speaker 1: please to women at once?
Speaker 5: Oh? Absolutely?
Speaker 10: Oh yes, of course.
Speaker 1: That's you know that, that's the confidence we like to hear.
Speaker 10: Yet try Yeah, I tried. I tried to reconfident.
Speaker 1: What what what was it you were gonna ask me?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 10: Nothing, I uh, I was good. I don't know. I'm
Speaker 10: just gonna ask you what your I don't know what
Speaker 10: your like? Favorite favorite food is just something random?
Speaker 1: I like? Uh, I like chicken tenders not dipped in
Speaker 1: barbecue sauce, but tossed in it, where like the whole
Speaker 1: chicken tender is covered in barbecue sauce from the get go,
Speaker 1: and then you can and then you can dip it
Speaker 1: into a into some ranch or blue cheese.
Speaker 10: Comes rat.
Speaker 1: Thank you for calling, Anthony. I have a good rest
Speaker 1: of the night, Chelsea. Hello, what's up, shel How you doing?
Speaker 1: Doug laying in bed, Chelsea, Chelsea, Uh, would you want
Speaker 1: to talk about today? Hitman?
Speaker 2: I don't know.
Speaker 4: He asked if I had any like cool stories, and
Speaker 4: I thought of, like, I guess while I was waiting,
Speaker 4: but I'm gonna event photographer. I'm from Kansas. I mean,
Speaker 4: if you have any questions about Kansas, I probably could
Speaker 4: answer those.
Speaker 1: But I know all I need Kansas. You do you
Speaker 1: don't know a lot about Kansas, but definitely know enough
Speaker 1: about it. Yeah, not enough in a sufficient amount, but
Speaker 1: enough is in you know it's enough enough exactly?
Speaker 2: Yeah, split your I.
Speaker 11: Did well.
Speaker 4: I can't even like have a piece of like bone
Speaker 4: kind of like floating around.
Speaker 5: I take like.
Speaker 4: Photos that shows like live music shows, and uh, I
Speaker 4: got pushed from behind and like the barricade was only
Speaker 4: like three like three four into his loft, their ground.
Speaker 4: It's like a step basically onto the stage. And I
Speaker 4: got pushed from behind and my head got like went
Speaker 4: directly into the bass drum and I really cracked my
Speaker 4: head open. And I later got arrested that night for
Speaker 4: a dui, but I was not drunk.
Speaker 5: I had a concussion.
Speaker 4: So the influence they did let me go, Yeah, they
Speaker 4: did let me go, oh, well it's not. I mean,
Speaker 4: like they let me go back to my car and
Speaker 4: he told me I should go to the doctor.
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, how did they like.
Speaker 9: Me?
Speaker 4: Because he thought I was drunk. Yeah, he thought I
Speaker 4: was drunk because I was leaving the bar at taking
Speaker 4: photos and my my pupils like weren't dilating correctly and uh,
Speaker 4: you know, like I had fallen so like my knee
Speaker 4: was kind of injury. So he arrested me like on
Speaker 4: the field sobriety test. But when he took me back
Speaker 4: to the station and I like blew, he had me
Speaker 4: wait like fifteen minutes or something and had me blow
Speaker 4: into the machine and it turns out I was still
Speaker 4: not drunk, so he had to drive me back to
Speaker 4: where he arrested me, and I drove home.
Speaker 1: You were drunk on the I think the charge you
Speaker 1: were charged with the DUI.
Speaker 4: No, I was arrested for DUI was not charged with
Speaker 4: the DUI.
Speaker 1: Yes, So can I ask you at any point in
Speaker 1: time did you tell the officer like I am not drunk,
Speaker 1: I just have a concussion.
Speaker 4: Yeah I did, yeah, absolutely, Like he was pulled me
Speaker 4: over like one block away and he was like, yeah,
Speaker 4: go ahead, but I really was not drunk.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 4: He only pulled me over like a block away from
Speaker 4: the bar, and he just assumed that I had been drinking.
Speaker 4: And I told him that I was the event photographer
Speaker 4: for the local band at the bar and that I
Speaker 4: had hit my head, you know, like my eye was
Speaker 4: like obviously swollen, like I was bleeding, and he did not.
Speaker 4: He wasn't having it.
Speaker 1: So did you go to the hospital shortly after this
Speaker 1: as you were?
Speaker 7: I did not.
Speaker 4: I do not have health insurance, so I just rested.
Speaker 1: You rested?
Speaker 4: I yeah, well I just rested, you know, like laid around,
Speaker 4: drank water. I had my friend with me to make sure,
Speaker 4: like I was okay.
Speaker 1: Because your toilet your toilet, you're not supposed to go
Speaker 1: to sleep, I.
Speaker 4: Heard, Well, yeah, I know, but I was also, I
Speaker 4: mean I had to sleep. At some point I left
Speaker 4: the bar like one point thirty.
Speaker 1: Okay, So well, how do you know that you had.
Speaker 4: She's a good friend. Well, like my my pupils weren't dilated.
Speaker 4: I I did have to go to the hospital later
Speaker 4: at like some point, but not not immediately after.
Speaker 1: So you so you were like holding out to go
Speaker 1: to the hospital because you.
Speaker 4: I didn't think it was I didn't think it was
Speaker 4: that serious. I guess at the time I didn't. I
Speaker 4: definitely knew like I was stunned, but I didn't think
Speaker 4: it was worth going to the emergency room over so
Speaker 4: like once once, I I thought it was like a
Speaker 4: lot of makeup on my face as well, and in
Speaker 4: like eyeliner, but it was actually like my eye and
Speaker 4: like I had some like blood pooling and you know,
Speaker 4: like in my underneath my high and my my conjunc
Speaker 4: tiba which is like the white space all around your
Speaker 4: iris was all like bloodshot. And so I eventually did
Speaker 4: go to the doctor because I realized it was that
Speaker 4: was not makeup and it was pretty bad. But I
Speaker 4: went to like a walking clinic, not the emergency room.
Speaker 1: How long after you were injured did you go to
Speaker 1: the doctor.
Speaker 4: It was probably like, oh, gee, see my memory is
Speaker 4: a little shoddy. Why I wouldn't say it was it
Speaker 4: was less than two days?
Speaker 1: Okay? How much was how much was the bill when
Speaker 1: they eventually saw your head.
Speaker 4: Oh, I definitely did not pay any attention to it.
Speaker 4: I definitely did not pay it nice. I think I
Speaker 4: had to pay seventy five dollars to be seen. But
Speaker 4: after that, you know, you like get a bill, and
Speaker 4: I don't have money for that. I'm a production specialist.
Speaker 4: I make all kinds of like a la and shit.
Speaker 4: I run a lot of machinery like power cutters and
Speaker 4: like I make like large books, printed materials, so I
Speaker 4: don't get paid a time.
Speaker 1: Well, you know, look, if you don't have health insurance,
Speaker 1: beat beat damn. Careful around that heavy machinery.
Speaker 4: Yeah, well I think, like you know, a work, I
Speaker 4: would get workmen's comps, So I'm definitely careful because it is, Uh,
Speaker 4: it is a little intimidating for sure.
Speaker 1: Would you say your name was Chelsea?
Speaker 4: Chelsea?
Speaker 1: I got a name, right, Chelsea, dude, thank you so
Speaker 1: much for sharing. And I hope your head feels better.
Speaker 1: How long ago is this.
Speaker 4: Probably like a maybe a year and a half.
Speaker 2: I'm good.
Speaker 5: I'm good for sure.
Speaker 4: I've definitely got better about standing. Yeah, about learning where
Speaker 4: to stand and where not to stand. Uh, because I
Speaker 4: did like scoot like her like kick drum back you
Speaker 4: know a little bit when I hit it with my head,
Speaker 4: So that was embarrassing too, like, so definitely a learning experience.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad it was a learning experience and think
Speaker 1: of sharing. Chelsea, You're welcome.
Speaker 4: Have a great night, loud.
Speaker 3: Joe?
Speaker 8: Is that you?
Speaker 5: Yeah, it's me.
Speaker 1: What's up Joe?
Speaker 5: Another whole lot in So was your night?
Speaker 1: Joe? Tell me everything? Tell me nothing, you know, go crazy,
Speaker 1: it's such, it's good nuts.
Speaker 4: Uh.
Speaker 5: Basically, Uh, I have a streamed relationship with my sister
Speaker 5: and the source of that well, it's been going on
Speaker 5: for a long time. But the nature of it is
Speaker 5: she kind of disagrees with my chosen procession, and you know,
Speaker 5: I think it kind of spills over from our parents
Speaker 5: a little bit, who also are not too enthused sometimes,
Speaker 5: but I think they've kind of come to peace with it.
Speaker 5: But I think she still kind of holds a grudge
Speaker 5: over it, and I'm just trying to figure out how
Speaker 5: to navigate it sometimes.
Speaker 1: Why do you think she has a problem with your profession?
Speaker 5: You know, I guess from her perspective, there's a moral
Speaker 5: dimension to it that a lot of people have a
Speaker 5: problem or some people I don't know.
Speaker 1: And yet you're how long have you been in this profession?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 5: Well, as an amateur, you know, I started. I guess
Speaker 5: when I was fifteen or sixteen, but as a paid
Speaker 5: professional I started in my early twenties, so for about
Speaker 5: nine ten years now.
Speaker 1: And you told me that your parents initially were shared
Speaker 1: your sister's sentiment and they weren't into it. But they've
Speaker 1: since come around.
Speaker 5: I wouldn't say they came around, but they kind of,
Speaker 5: you know, they made their peace with us.
Speaker 1: Okay, they're not happling n truly.
Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah. They haven't asked about it in a
Speaker 5: long time, and so I take that as a kind
Speaker 5: of an indicator that they're you know, that they've come
Speaker 5: to their own form of acceptance with that, and I
Speaker 5: appreciate that. I guess, you know, I certainly don't want
Speaker 5: to upset the Apple card on it or anything. It's
Speaker 5: not something I'm going to bring up. It's maybe in
Speaker 5: the back of their minds at times, you know, but
Speaker 5: my sister is much more overt and sort of letting
Speaker 5: me know how she feels.
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you think about what you do?
Speaker 5: Well? At times, it's fun, it's rewarding. At other times
Speaker 5: I can understand their perspective. You know, it can get messy,
Speaker 5: can get a little interesting, unique, uh varied. You know,
Speaker 5: the conditions are a little uh, you know, they involve
Speaker 5: you know, I'm trying to be opaque here to sort of.
Speaker 9: Uh.
Speaker 5: It involves a lot of substances, a lot a lot
Speaker 5: of substances, okay, and so that kind of uh uh,
Speaker 5: that can get a little weird, I know, but I've
Speaker 5: built up a tolerance for it. You know, I can,
Speaker 5: really I can. I do well in that environment.
Speaker 1: Now, let me ask you. This is a two part,
Speaker 1: two prong question. I'm curious about do you think do
Speaker 1: you think that what you do helps people? And then
Speaker 1: prong too, does it even matter to you if what
Speaker 1: you do helps people?
Speaker 9: Well?
Speaker 5: I think it helps people in some sense, you know,
Speaker 5: in a very physiological sense. I help people, you know,
Speaker 5: And I'm very well of what I do, especially in
Speaker 5: terms of producing the finished product. You know, I'm good
Speaker 5: at getting where.
Speaker 11: We need to go, okay, And so I think in
Speaker 11: that sense, you know, the people that I work with
Speaker 11: to produce what I produce are satisfied with that result,
Speaker 11: and so I think I bring joy.
Speaker 5: To people in that process. Was the second part of
Speaker 5: the question.
Speaker 1: Oh well, the second part of the question was, you know,
Speaker 1: is it important to you that what you do helps people,
Speaker 1: and it doesn't fucking have to be you know, no
Speaker 1: one's that literally doesn't matter at all. But I'm just
Speaker 1: curious if if that is important to you?
Speaker 5: Uh, you know, I I think so if I if
Speaker 5: I didn't do it well, I feel kind of unsatisfied.
Speaker 5: You know, if if I got the sense that the
Speaker 5: people I was doing the work with weren't weren't also happy,
Speaker 5: I think I would feel kind of like I didn't
Speaker 5: do my job well. So for me, yeah, it's really important.
Speaker 1: Are okay? Now, your sister, I wanted to ask you
Speaker 1: if you felt like your sister's opinion is important to you,
Speaker 1: And I feel like the fact that you even called
Speaker 1: to talk about this indicates that to some level it is.
Speaker 1: But I'm curious, like to what extent your senysor's opinion
Speaker 1: is genuinely important too.
Speaker 5: Well, it's important because it's important actually because sometimes she's
Speaker 5: a consumer of what I produce, and so that's actually
Speaker 5: kind of a weird dynamic.
Speaker 1: She's a consumer of what you know. Does she purchase
Speaker 1: what you produce directly from you?
Speaker 5: No? No, it's through a vendor, usually on the internet.
Speaker 1: Okay, interesting, So she purchases what it is you produce,
Speaker 1: but she does not approve of you producing it.
Speaker 5: That's correct. Yeah, that's my sense anyway. Yeah, And I
Speaker 5: don't know if it's like, you know, because I know
Speaker 5: that she's probably watched or sorry, has consumed some of
Speaker 5: the products that I've produced and and particularly you know,
Speaker 5: some of the products that have included me, like prolifically.
Speaker 5: And I don't know if her disapproval kind of stems
Speaker 5: from a result.
Speaker 8: Of, you know, me.
Speaker 5: Not doing well in the product or something like if
Speaker 5: it's my lack of if it's like a critique of
Speaker 5: my performance in that product, or if it's just like
Speaker 5: an overall discussed.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 5: But sometimes I think it's the former, because she's very
Speaker 5: she's very adamant about that, you know, and she sometimes
Speaker 5: she gets quite detailed in describing the product and what
Speaker 5: she doesn't like about it, and it puts me in
Speaker 5: a very uncomfortable position because of the nature of my work.
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So do you you know there's this thing
Speaker 1: where like, how often do you even see your sister,
Speaker 1: Does she like live with you, does she live in
Speaker 1: the same city as you? How often even around her?
Speaker 5: Yeah, Yeah, we're we're in the same neighborhood in California.
Speaker 5: It's over like a couple of blocks.
Speaker 1: Apart, you know, because you know, I mean, no, go ahead,
Speaker 1: Well what.
Speaker 5: We text often too, you know, we have like an
Speaker 5: open an open uh messenger throughout or whatever.
Speaker 1: So because you know, I mean, you can love your sister,
Speaker 1: and you can like your sister, you can be friendly
Speaker 1: with your sister. But if but at the same time,
Speaker 1: you know, if every time you or often when you're
Speaker 1: interacting with her, she just makes you just walk away
Speaker 1: feeling bad, then I think it's okay for you to
Speaker 1: sort of slowly, like you know, diminish the amount of
Speaker 1: contact that you have with her without like you know,
Speaker 1: damaging the relationship, if only because you want to feel
Speaker 1: bad less.
Speaker 5: Yeah, well, I mean another wrinkle to this too is
Speaker 5: like I agree with that, but you know, in my
Speaker 5: line of work, like there's a really there's actually a
Speaker 5: lot of room for career progression, and I'm kind of
Speaker 5: moving into some different realms in terms of some of
Speaker 5: the products I'm producing, and they're becoming increasingly complex and
Speaker 5: varied and very very physically demanding work. And not just
Speaker 5: like with respect to like physical endurance, but with respect
Speaker 5: to a tolerance or a different uh types of instruments.
Speaker 5: I guess put it that way, you know. And so
Speaker 5: I know that she also uh consumes those products. And
Speaker 5: so it's like, by virtue of me expanding into my roles,
Speaker 5: into the into my career, uh, you know, there's a
Speaker 5: chance that I might expose myself to even more critique.
Speaker 5: And so it kind of becomes a question for me.
Speaker 8: I guess of.
Speaker 5: You know, how much longer do I want to put
Speaker 5: up with with that? Do it? Do I need to
Speaker 5: cut off the relationship or not? You know, but it's
Speaker 5: just a tough situation.
Speaker 1: Have you told her directly, hey, you know, I love you,
Speaker 1: You're my sister, but I don't want to hear it
Speaker 1: from you anymore about this it.
Speaker 5: No, I haven't been that open. No, it's been really
Speaker 5: kind of a couched a coach. Because the other thing,
Speaker 5: too is I actually here's a you know, I'm sorry
Speaker 5: to keep adding to the complexity that I kind of
Speaker 5: I appreciate that she consumes my products. I think there's
Speaker 5: something to there's something to the critique that like I
Speaker 5: find comfort in because I know that she's watching my
Speaker 5: video or consuming my products, you know, Like I appreciate
Speaker 5: that there's people that are that are appreciate you watching
Speaker 5: my seat.
Speaker 3: Thank you.
Speaker 5: I appreciate, yes, appreciate my work, you know.
Speaker 1: M hm well Man. You know, I think that the
Speaker 1: and you know, we've all had to sort of do
Speaker 1: something like this. I think that being sort of direct
Speaker 1: with your sister because look, dude, you know, if you're
Speaker 1: not telling her that something she's doing or saying is
Speaker 1: bothering you, she might not even know, you know. So
Speaker 1: I think that if you want this to stop, that's
Speaker 1: the number one initial way to go about it. It's
Speaker 1: just by letting her know that this is bothering you.
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's a good point. I think being direct and open,
Speaker 5: I mean, that's certainly a value I have in my
Speaker 5: mind of work. Like it's a very it's a very
Speaker 5: exposed setting. So I don't know why I have such
Speaker 5: a problem with that, like with respect to my internal emotions,
Speaker 5: because I certainly don't have an issue, you know, being
Speaker 5: that open in other settings with other parts of myself,
Speaker 5: you know. So I don't know, there's kind of a
Speaker 5: weird conflict there, I guess.
Speaker 1: Hm, well Man, would you say name was Joe Joe
Speaker 1: well John Man? Look, I wish you're the best of luck.
Speaker 1: I hope that you know, I hope, I hope you
Speaker 1: do end up you know, letting your sister know how
Speaker 1: you feel. And I appreciate you sharing.
Speaker 5: Well. Thanks man, and i'd appreciate if all your viewers
Speaker 5: check out browsers dot com as well.
Speaker 1: Absolutely have aggressed the night.
Speaker 5: All right, thanks ma'am.
Speaker 6: All from Fame Auto?
Speaker 1: What's up?
Speaker 8: Hey?
Speaker 1: What are you doing Fame Auto?
Speaker 8: Yes?
Speaker 1: How I want a new car for free?
Speaker 13: Oh my god, I'm on the radio.
Speaker 1: I want I want a new car, Give me a
Speaker 1: car now.
Speaker 14: Look, I want a lot of Well it's similar to
Speaker 14: repair demands, I mean very expensive repair them.
Speaker 1: Free car. Any car else I will be upset or
Speaker 1: and I will wind and have a tantrum if I
Speaker 1: do not get a free car.
Speaker 3: Do you mind?
Speaker 14: And what kind of car it is?
Speaker 1: Free? One?
Speaker 8: Okay?
Speaker 13: Because the one I have a free you may not.
Speaker 9: Have all the wheels.
Speaker 1: I want it to be blue.
Speaker 3: Oh blue.
Speaker 13: I don't know they get those Joe blue cars per second.
Speaker 1: I want it.
Speaker 3: Well, it is so surreal.
Speaker 13: Like I called earlier and I had your voicemail and
Speaker 13: I left the voice message, I'm just getting off for it.
Speaker 13: And I'm struggling with my dog right now.
Speaker 1: Now, come on, what's up? Man? Tell me everything? Tell
Speaker 1: me nothing, Tell me gecko, you're a guy. We're in
Speaker 1: the forest. Nothing matters. Some things, I don't know who cares?
Speaker 1: Who cares what I have to say? What's up? Fame Otto?
Speaker 1: Have you ever lied to anyone that you love?
Speaker 8: Yes? I have?
Speaker 1: Tell me about it?
Speaker 13: Which one I've writ multiple times?
Speaker 1: Given the most recent time.
Speaker 13: Most recent to Oh my wife said did you leave
Speaker 13: the door open on the refrigerator? And I said no,
Speaker 13: it was clear to me. And I said, I think
Speaker 13: you went out there to go get some cakes. And
Speaker 13: she said, oh, I thought I closed it. I did,
Speaker 13: and he just did open.
Speaker 1: It's called gas lighting.
Speaker 13: Well I lied, like probably a little bit of both.
Speaker 1: Is gaslighting and lying that the same thing? Or are
Speaker 1: they different things?
Speaker 13: Mm hmm. I think it's depends on the context of
Speaker 13: the situation.
Speaker 1: Why now I can ask why you? Uh? Why did
Speaker 1: you lie about that?
Speaker 13: Because I was I was sitting, I had just sat
Speaker 13: down and I got comfortable and I did not want
Speaker 13: to get up again?
Speaker 1: Was it worth it to lie?
Speaker 13: Thinking back about it, now, you know.
Speaker 1: You sure?
Speaker 3: Okay? Uh?
Speaker 13: Yeah, because I guess I think she knew was lying,
Speaker 13: but she just let it slide. And I used one
Speaker 13: of those free like lying cards on the refrigerator door.
Speaker 1: I don't know, I'm gonna look at the pros and
Speaker 1: the concert. The pros. You didn't have to get up
Speaker 1: to close the refrigerator door.
Speaker 13: True, I didn't have to give up my seat because
Speaker 13: she wanted that. See too. I know, I know it
Speaker 13: was like she was gonna take.
Speaker 1: The cons H help me out here. Uh.
Speaker 13: The cons is that, uh, I can't use that lie
Speaker 13: again the times. Probably she's gonna catch up onto it.
Speaker 13: Then I'll feel guilty because.
Speaker 5: Let's see another lie that's.
Speaker 1: Not even I mean, look, I'm sure, but luck man,
Speaker 1: you'll come up with more lies.
Speaker 13: Yeah, all right, so one, you're not.
Speaker 1: Limited to just that one lie. So I don't think
Speaker 1: the fact that you're burning a line that one was
Speaker 1: not bad. You can use the lie again. I don't
Speaker 1: see why you can't use that lie again.
Speaker 14: True, But it's.
Speaker 13: Coming to the point where, like my wife and I
Speaker 13: move each other pretty well, so she knows when I'm
Speaker 13: lying and I know when she's lying. So I have
Speaker 13: to get more created. They guess and I don't want
Speaker 13: to m hm.
Speaker 1: Uh. Do you who lies more.
Speaker 13: As in men or women?
Speaker 1: No, between you and your wife?
Speaker 13: Oh, definitely me hands down.
Speaker 1: What what's the ratio like how for every like is
Speaker 1: it like for every one of her lies? For every
Speaker 1: time she lies? How many? How many? How many lies
Speaker 1: do you have? What's the ratio of her lies to
Speaker 1: your lives?
Speaker 13: I think for every night that she does, I would
Speaker 13: say probably do like six or seven.
Speaker 14: Maybe.
Speaker 1: Really that's a lot of lies.
Speaker 10: All right?
Speaker 1: Tell me tell me you were Tell me all right,
Speaker 1: so you had the frigera? What was it? What's another
Speaker 1: lie that you've told your wife?
Speaker 13: Another lie? I told my wife? It's mostly you about
Speaker 13: me being irresponsible. Honestly. She tells me like, oh, make
Speaker 13: sure you do a laundry before you know. We go
Speaker 13: out into stuff, and I'm like, oh, yeah, for sure,
Speaker 13: I'm gonna good tonight, and surprise, I'm good tonight. Does
Speaker 13: that count?
Speaker 1: Say that again?
Speaker 3: All right?
Speaker 13: So we alternately doing laundry, right, yeah, And when she
Speaker 13: says she's gonna do it, she's like, I'm gonna do
Speaker 13: the laundry tonight. Boom she does it. And then she said, oh,
Speaker 13: you just trying to do the laundry.
Speaker 3: Do it.
Speaker 13: I'm like, oh yeah, I'm gonna do it tomorrow at
Speaker 13: this time, and then I don't do it.
Speaker 1: Okay, So pros you don't have to do the laundry.
Speaker 14: Consh my suppose answer.
Speaker 13: Okay, I guess I get I get to wear gerty
Speaker 13: laundry or I don't have things to wear.
Speaker 1: Look, what's your name again?
Speaker 8: Oh my name?
Speaker 5: My name is Farid s A R I d Red.
Speaker 1: Yeah for read it's I mean, it sounds like lying
Speaker 1: has worked out very well for you.
Speaker 13: Actually that is a pro. Yeah, you know, yeah, but
Speaker 13: I don't like to tell people here make sure you lie,
Speaker 13: because then it sounds like you are just taking advantage
Speaker 13: of someone, and that's not that's not that's not.
Speaker 3: Nice at all.
Speaker 13: I think people should be genuinely.
Speaker 14: True and.
Speaker 13: To each other.
Speaker 1: And yeah, yeah, but you could also just lie and
Speaker 1: get whatever you want all the time.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 13: Well, I guess so have you liked? No, perfect, You're hired,
Speaker 13: Welcome aboard.
Speaker 1: Happy to be here. Thank you so much for calling.
Speaker 1: Uh say say your name again, buddy said, thank you
Speaker 1: for sure, have a good rest that thank you.
Speaker 14: Congratulations fall from Rebecca.
Speaker 1: Rebecca Hello, what's up, dude?
Speaker 7: That's a much I've just been hanging out Rebecca.
Speaker 2: Yeah, what do you believe?
Speaker 7: Okay, I was like deciding between two different options that
Speaker 7: I think I know that I will talk about. Basically,
Speaker 7: I've always had this weird like conflict at the back
Speaker 7: of my mind that I've like depressed over the years
Speaker 7: where I think that like every person I come into
Speaker 7: contact to is like low key obsessed with me.
Speaker 13: But it's like.
Speaker 15: Weird because I also don't like myself.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I have this good things going on where I
Speaker 7: think everyone I meet likes me immediately. It could be
Speaker 7: like romantically or platonically, it depends on the person.
Speaker 1: And how long have you believed this? This has been
Speaker 1: something that's been uh.
Speaker 7: Like elementary school.
Speaker 1: Yeah, And what is it that makes you believe that
Speaker 1: people are obsessed with you?
Speaker 7: I would guess just because I don't know, Like, I
Speaker 7: think it's just an inner wants for everyone to be
Speaker 7: either just even just basically just like me in general,
Speaker 7: Like I find that to be my usual goal with
Speaker 7: new people I meet.
Speaker 1: So, do you think that people are obsessed with you
Speaker 1: as a result of an intentional effort on your behalf
Speaker 1: to get them to be obsessed with you. I think it.
Speaker 7: Could be like a no upfort thing, or it takes
Speaker 7: a lot of effort, depending on the person. Usually just
Speaker 7: like in the back of my head, I go, okay,
Speaker 7: I think I did it with this one.
Speaker 1: And how does it make you feel that people are
Speaker 1: obsessed with you?
Speaker 7: I don't like that. I think that people are obsessed
Speaker 7: with me. I think it's a very narcissistic type of
Speaker 7: thing to think about, and that vibe like suppressed it
Speaker 7: all the time, and like, the only first I ever
Speaker 7: talked about it, she is like my best friend. So
Speaker 7: it's kind of like flustering to just suddenly talk about
Speaker 7: it here.
Speaker 1: But okay, when you told well, when you told your
Speaker 1: best friend about this whole thing, what did they say?
Speaker 7: It's like, well, I mean look at you, you know,
Speaker 7: like she supported.
Speaker 5: M.
Speaker 7: I feel like if I told anyone else though, they'd
Speaker 7: be like anyways.
Speaker 1: So you know, so you kind of got two things
Speaker 1: going on where you like feel like you think everyone
Speaker 1: is obsessed with you and you don't like that you
Speaker 1: think that, But then also you said that you want
Speaker 1: everyone to be obsessed with you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, it's like a very angel devil type feel why
Speaker 7: do you want people.
Speaker 1: To be obsessed with you?
Speaker 7: I think just it's because it's like easier that way.
Speaker 1: Why do you think it's easier?
Speaker 7: Like, for example, I was one of those kids who
Speaker 7: always like tried really hard to be the teacher's pet
Speaker 7: m just because I found that if you've made the
Speaker 7: teacher like you usually got off like with like quote
Speaker 7: mistakes a lot easier than people that you know they
Speaker 7: weren't like either the teacher didn't know very well or
Speaker 7: the teacher full of don't like, full.
Speaker 15: Out don't like.
Speaker 7: So like I would just like intentionally not do an
Speaker 7: assignment every once in a while just because they didn't
Speaker 7: want you, and the teacher would like be like, oh okay,
Speaker 7: it's fine, like you've never done it before.
Speaker 3: You're good.
Speaker 6: I feel like cool.
Speaker 1: So you think life is easier. You feel like life
Speaker 1: is easier when people not just like you you're saying, or
Speaker 1: obsessed with you.
Speaker 7: Yeah, like most of the time, that's what you know.
Speaker 7: The weird part of me wants to think.
Speaker 1: Well, because you know, I'll tell you. Would you say
Speaker 1: your name once?
Speaker 7: Rebecca?
Speaker 1: Rebecca? I feel like life would be easy for you
Speaker 1: not if everyone liked you, because that's it's impossible to
Speaker 1: get everyone to like you, you know where I feel
Speaker 1: like your life would be easier if you just didn't
Speaker 1: care what people thought of you at all. And while
Speaker 1: your friend who tells you like, you know, it's true
Speaker 1: people are obsessed with you, I think has good intentions.
Speaker 1: I think it's important. I think it's important for you
Speaker 1: that like your self esteem comes from a place of
Speaker 1: within and not from everyone else liking you. Does that
Speaker 1: make sense because if it comes from everyone else liking you,
Speaker 1: then yeah, and you've got to try to grow a
Speaker 1: sense of validation from within yourself, you know, because it's
Speaker 1: you know, I know you say it like is easier,
Speaker 1: but it sounds like this is something that is like
Speaker 1: bothering you a lot, this whole game of like wanting
Speaker 1: people to be obsessed with you, thinking people are obsessed
Speaker 1: with you, and it's okay to like like yourself and
Speaker 1: like think that you're great, you know, but you should
Speaker 1: you should be able to and it's and it's hard. No,
Speaker 1: I'm I haven't gotten there. It's like an ever ongoing
Speaker 1: process that a lot of you know that that takes
Speaker 1: a while to get to. But uh, you know, you
Speaker 1: kind of got to start traveling down the path of
Speaker 1: building building that validation from within so that you can
Speaker 1: like yourself regardless of what anyone thinks of you, Because
Speaker 1: that's what I really make life, you know, quote easier?
Speaker 7: Yeah, for sure?
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.
Speaker 7: Do you want me to bring up the other idea
Speaker 7: I was thinking about talking about?
Speaker 1: Sure, what's the other idea? Are they related?
Speaker 13: No?
Speaker 15: Not at all?
Speaker 1: You know, maybe they are?
Speaker 8: What is it?
Speaker 7: I believe that like when we die, like there's nothing,
Speaker 7: it's just complete like darkness, no thoughts. Oh, like there's
Speaker 7: no chance at like an afterlife or whatever, is just
Speaker 7: complete blackout.
Speaker 1: Well shit, do what do you want to do before them?
Speaker 7: Honestly? Just like have a good time? And I don't know,
Speaker 7: like for sure, like I've always thought about it too,
Speaker 7: or like I don't want to get so old where
Speaker 7: I can't take care of myself because then, like you know,
Speaker 7: what's the fun in that? And like having this idea
Speaker 7: that oh, nothing really will come after all of this.
Speaker 7: I willso get in this place where it's like own
Speaker 7: nothing really matters that much fun.
Speaker 1: Well, Well, that's actually a great place to start for
Speaker 1: that other thing, right, because if nothing really matters and
Speaker 1: we're all going to die at the end, and we're
Speaker 1: all bonded together so beautifully by our shared fate of
Speaker 1: infinite darkness. That doesn't matter, right, not people like you.
Speaker 8: You know.
Speaker 7: Yeah, I think that's all I got for tonight.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you so much for calling and sharing, Rebecca.
Speaker 1: We have aggress tonight.
Speaker 6: Thank you too, all From Aquabert.
Speaker 1: Hello, what's up? How old are you? Aquabert?
Speaker 8: I'm eighteen and by the way, it's Oliver.
Speaker 1: Oliver. That makes a lot more sense, but he is
Speaker 1: less cool.
Speaker 8: Yeah it is.
Speaker 1: Tell me everything, Aquabert.
Speaker 6: I was just I'm in high school, by the way,
Speaker 6: senior year.
Speaker 1: I'm going to turn you back up because you're a
Speaker 1: lot less loud than that other guy.
Speaker 8: Yeah, he was pretty loud.
Speaker 1: Wait, say something real quick.
Speaker 8: Uh blah blah blah.
Speaker 1: Had Aquabar, you sound not that loud? All right, Oliver
Speaker 1: Aqua I'm not close to call you Aquabar, aqua bear,
Speaker 1: what's up? Tell me everything?
Speaker 6: In my class we're talking about this dilemma. Have you
Speaker 6: ever heard of the trolley dilemma?
Speaker 1: I've heard of the trolley donna.
Speaker 6: Okay, so in this scenario, right, she's between one person
Speaker 6: on the train track or five people whatever. Yeah, And
Speaker 6: my problem with this bait, even if I didn't know
Speaker 6: this first person who's gonna you know who, I could
Speaker 6: switch the track and kill them instead of these five people.
Speaker 6: Even if if I didn't know this person or I did
Speaker 6: know them, I feel like the best option would just
Speaker 6: be to to just leave it alone, you know, because
Speaker 6: is it better to go, you know, let five people die.
Speaker 6: I mean, like, just for your own sake, is it
Speaker 6: better to go kill a person and then just get
Speaker 6: arrested and then just have all of this, all of
Speaker 6: your life just crumble, you know, just right before your eyes?
Speaker 1: Like, well, I think it depends on which I think
Speaker 1: it depends on which group of people has the most
Speaker 1: valuable stuff on their person that you can steal from them.
Speaker 1: After the trolleyhoods thing. That's how I would make the
Speaker 1: decision on that, Like who, like is there, like, are
Speaker 1: there people wearing like expensive jewelry on like maybe like
Speaker 1: every maybe the five people are all like wearing you know,
Speaker 1: just like plain old T shirts and jeans or not.
Speaker 1: But then the one person is like has like a
Speaker 1: bunch of like gold and jewelry on them. I would
Speaker 1: switch the trolley for them so that I could take
Speaker 1: their stuff after they're they're gone. That's how I think
Speaker 1: the problem.
Speaker 6: I mean, I guess, yeah, anyway, what's going on?
Speaker 1: Good, I'm chilling?
Speaker 8: Yeah?
Speaker 1: What class?
Speaker 3: Oh?
Speaker 6: English? English class? I'm in AP English.
Speaker 1: You're in AP English. Well what's your name again?
Speaker 8: Oliver?
Speaker 1: Oliver, Oliver, Aquabert. Well, Aquabert, get those AP credits. Go
Speaker 1: to college or don't go to college. I'll go to college,
Speaker 1: all right, go to college. Do what you want to do, Aquabert.
Speaker 1: Don't let anyone tell you what to do, not even man.
Speaker 6: Okay, I'm gonna go put aquaber.
Speaker 1: Now, beautiful, beautiful, Thank you for calling Uncle Bert. I
Speaker 1: have addressed to the night he too. Call from Ryan, Ryan, Baby,
Speaker 1: talk to me.
Speaker 10: Hello, what's up?
Speaker 1: Oh Hi?
Speaker 9: Sorry, I was My dog is giving me a mean look?
Speaker 9: And I think because she's hungry.
Speaker 1: Is that how she typically signals to you that she's hungry.
Speaker 9: Uh so she's she's seventeen years old, and she really
Speaker 9: kind of displays the same traits that my grandma did
Speaker 9: right before she died. She just sits on the couch.
Speaker 9: She just wants, you know, food, and that's all she
Speaker 9: cares about You think she's deaf, but I've learned that
Speaker 9: she just ignores you because so her ear will twitch
Speaker 9: so she hears you. She won't turn around, like she
Speaker 9: can do tricks, she won't. She just won't listen. She can,
Speaker 9: and I actually respect that. She can shake, she can sit,
Speaker 9: she can spin, she can wait on and roll over.
Speaker 9: But she's just like fuck it. She's like, fuck it,
Speaker 9: I've earned the right to do nothing. And I agree,
Speaker 9: So you just kind of let her, let her run
Speaker 9: the house pretty much.
Speaker 1: You know, the reason why dogs are always so hungry
Speaker 1: is because food is really all they know. You know,
Speaker 1: they don't really like like we all have, like our
Speaker 1: careers and our families and our blah blah blah blah blah,
Speaker 1: and you know, trying to do this, trying to humans
Speaker 1: are trying to do things. Dogs they don't even know
Speaker 1: that they can do anything except for eat. So that's
Speaker 1: why that their whole world is rolls around that the
Speaker 1: dogs don't do education or no, they just eat food.
Speaker 1: That's all they have. That's all they have. That's why
Speaker 1: their world is so dominated by it.
Speaker 9: It's true, I kind of I kind of should model
Speaker 9: that low expectation lifestyle. Wow, maybe i'd be happier. You
Speaker 9: know dogs, people like, oh, dogs always so happy because
Speaker 9: it's like they don't have to they don't have to work. Food,
Speaker 9: they got food.
Speaker 3: They're good.
Speaker 8: That's it.
Speaker 1: I mean, look, it's it's it's whatever fults you're about.
Speaker 1: I would I would you enjoy that? Would you enjoy
Speaker 1: not doing anything at all and just eating food and sleeping?
Speaker 8: No?
Speaker 9: No, no, I wouldn't.
Speaker 1: No, you can't.
Speaker 9: I blame my human brain prevents me from from being
Speaker 9: so simple and so content.
Speaker 1: Exactly exactly. You have to leave, you have to go
Speaker 1: out the door. You have to do things, go to
Speaker 1: go to school, get a job of the dead. But bah,
Speaker 1: go to fucking Spain. No, there is no dog. No
Speaker 1: dog has ever dreamt of going to Spain.
Speaker 9: But how do we know that?
Speaker 1: Uniquely human traits?
Speaker 9: How do how do we look?
Speaker 1: Look at a dog? Go look at a dog?
Speaker 9: Okay, I'm I'm looking at my dog.
Speaker 1: Is it dreaming of going to Spain?
Speaker 9: I don't know. You want to ask, No, it's not.
Speaker 5: No, I don't.
Speaker 8: Know, man.
Speaker 1: No, look it's not I'll tell you right now, I
Speaker 1: will tell you with one hundred certainty. But look at
Speaker 1: your dog.
Speaker 9: Again, there's nothing behind those eyes.
Speaker 5: Think you're right.
Speaker 1: Your dog is not dreaming of going anywhere. Your dog
Speaker 1: wants food and that's all that will be in her
Speaker 1: brain forever.
Speaker 9: Do you think dogs dream at all? You know, when
Speaker 9: they're like sleeping and they're twitching and they're growling, do
Speaker 9: you think anything's going on? Or like, what's going on
Speaker 9: when that happens?
Speaker 1: Have you ever lied all the time? Tell me the
Speaker 1: last time you lied?
Speaker 9: Oh, the last one got me in big trouble. I
Speaker 9: was seeing a girl for about two and a half
Speaker 9: three months and uh and uh basically from the get go,
Speaker 9: terrible liar, but uh I, I omitted some, uh some
Speaker 9: things about my life and that were probably pertinent to
Speaker 9: the relationship and being honest, and I probably shouldn't have
Speaker 9: even been in a relationship, but uh i, uh I
Speaker 9: for a long time had struggled with drug addiction, and
Speaker 9: in those in those few months, like I was still,
Speaker 9: I had relapsed and I had been using and I
Speaker 9: just hit it from her. But then I got arrested,
Speaker 9: like two weeks ago, two weeks ago, and it's hard
Speaker 9: to it's hard to cover that one up. I missed
Speaker 9: a football game that was that's a little college. And
Speaker 9: then I text her, you know, run to get out
Speaker 9: of like, you know, eleven eleven at night release. I'm like, oh,
Speaker 9: I'm sorry, and I just kind of spill the truth
Speaker 9: to her and she was like, yeah, this isn't gonna work,
Speaker 9: and I was like, I think you're right. So that
Speaker 9: was a big one. That was that was a big
Speaker 9: fuck up on my part there.
Speaker 1: Why why relying to her that you got arrested?
Speaker 5: Well, I didn't.
Speaker 9: I didn't lie about getting arrested. But uh, there's definitely
Speaker 9: the whole lyeing about drug addiction. I think you'll find
Speaker 9: a lot of a lot of addicts and alcoholics will
Speaker 9: either they lie to continue using because that's what they
Speaker 9: want to do or drinking, or they or we me
Speaker 9: are so ashamed of the fact that we are the
Speaker 9: way we are, you know, because we don't want to
Speaker 9: continue doing these things. A lot of us, it's a compulsion.
Speaker 9: We do it when we have good days, bad days, happy, sad.
Speaker 9: We find excuses to use because there's something going on,
Speaker 9: like we're built a little weird compared to everyone else,
Speaker 9: and so you lie to because you're ashamed of it.
Speaker 5: HM.
Speaker 9: So I think it's usually one of those two things.
Speaker 1: Are you are you like actively seeking any sort of
Speaker 1: help for your drug addiction?
Speaker 9: So yeah, yeah, So I went to a medical detox
Speaker 9: a couple of weeks ago, and it's kind of fucked
Speaker 9: like the whole, like healthcare in America, Like I switched
Speaker 9: from health I switched healthcare about a month ago, and
Speaker 9: it's not as good. So they're basically like, oh, you
Speaker 9: can be here a week when I really needed two, three,
Speaker 9: four weeks there, They're like, well, you can stay of
Speaker 9: four weeks, but it's gonna cost you. It's gonna cost
Speaker 9: you about twenty five thousand dollars. Yeah, so I could
Speaker 9: only get about a week and a half out of it,
Speaker 9: and then they transfer you to like a lower level
Speaker 9: of care.
Speaker 5: So I'll go.
Speaker 9: I have like individual therapists and a psychiatrist for like medications,
Speaker 9: but I only go into a place three days a week,
Speaker 9: like during the day instead of like full around the
Speaker 9: clock care out of facility. So I live at home
Speaker 9: and in three days a week, I go into a
Speaker 9: place and you know, did you do the group therapy
Speaker 9: individual sessions like uh, lectures, YadA YadA.
Speaker 1: That stuff all right, So of this of the stuff
Speaker 1: that you know you can afford. How is it? How
Speaker 1: is it going so far?
Speaker 9: Uh, it's well, well, I'll have to admit it's kind
Speaker 9: of I'd want to say I might be numb to
Speaker 9: the process because I started getting I was an adolescent,
Speaker 9: about fourteen years old. I started getting sent to treatment.
Speaker 9: So my first one my parents. They what happens is parents.
Speaker 9: I was in California at the time. They shifted you
Speaker 9: out of state.
Speaker 5: Like your parents.
Speaker 9: You literally in the middle of the night will have
Speaker 9: like two guys come into your room and handcuff you
Speaker 9: and like drag you to.
Speaker 1: The airport and fly you are your parents organize that.
Speaker 9: Yeah, So I went to a place for a year
Speaker 9: when I was I was fourteen. I was there from
Speaker 9: fourteen to fifteen. It was a year, a year long
Speaker 9: in patient treatment. Yeah, but I've done that. It was
Speaker 9: these places they're kind of not around anymore because they're
Speaker 9: kind of fucked up. But they call it behavioral modification,
Speaker 9: and it's basically like dangling the carrot and punishment, like
Speaker 9: you do something bad. And they had a lot of
Speaker 9: weird ways of enforcing enforcing things, just like weird like
Speaker 9: weird programs they'd put you on like had to like
Speaker 9: trying to drill therapeutic skills into your head, or like dressing. Okay,
Speaker 9: the the the most like I guess dramatic would be
Speaker 9: they called it off the team, which was if you
Speaker 9: fucked up bad enough, and especially if they considered you
Speaker 9: like dangerous to yourself or like you were like self
Speaker 9: harm or like you're a risk to run away. They
Speaker 9: would dress you in lime green scrubs and like you'd
Speaker 9: have like the same color like slideslip blops, kind of
Speaker 9: like jail. And you weren't allowed to talk to anybody,
Speaker 9: not even to staff. You were only allowed to communicate
Speaker 9: using your hand in your hands, so like you'd hold
Speaker 9: up fingers. So I think one one was a bathroom
Speaker 9: like two fingers up was supplies, like like a you
Speaker 9: weren't i'd have a pencil, only cram because they were
Speaker 9: word you're gonna like stab yourself for something. So two
Speaker 9: was supplies, Three was medication, four with laundry, and five
Speaker 9: was emergency. I think you had those five options and
Speaker 9: you couldn't no one. If anyone responded to you, they
Speaker 9: would also get thrown off the team. And you had
Speaker 9: to be ten feet away from everyone else, and you'd
Speaker 9: have like one staff next to you, like you know,
Speaker 9: arms linked away all the time, and you had.
Speaker 1: Like that intentional sort of isolation tactic.
Speaker 9: Yeah, so I guess, and at that point, at during
Speaker 9: that time, you would also typically be assigned some kind
Speaker 9: of writing assignment. Like I remember one time, but whatever
Speaker 9: I was doing, I got called for being just whatever,
Speaker 9: just oppositionally defiant to everything because I was fourteen, and
Speaker 9: they made me write like maybe it was like kind
Speaker 9: of like an autobiography, but they kind of wanted me
Speaker 9: to like highlight or find certain parts of my life
Speaker 9: where I was doing similar shit. Whatever the assignment was,
Speaker 9: but you have that to work on, but again you
Speaker 9: have to write it in kran. You get really good
Speaker 9: at like writing techniques where you like write with one
Speaker 9: side of the cran and kind of sharpens it and
Speaker 9: flip it, you know, do a little twizzle ninety degrees
Speaker 9: and it's still sharp. Yeah, you get. So I got
Speaker 9: if you have I'm I'm proficient with the cran.
Speaker 1: You're proficient? Is that on your resume?
Speaker 9: It's at yeah, like you know, like related skills. Yeah,
Speaker 9: these programs they don't really exist anymore. You can because
Speaker 9: they're also just breeding grounds for like abuse from the facility.
Speaker 9: Like like even though at the time they had like
Speaker 9: two staff to one, like in a room alone, you
Speaker 9: had to have three people, so it was either like
Speaker 9: two clients and staff or two staffs and a client.
Speaker 9: But it was like always like places getting shut down
Speaker 9: for like like like sexual abuse and just like just
Speaker 9: just terrible things. This was in Salt Lake City in Utah,
Speaker 9: and uh, but this was like a pat This has
Speaker 9: been a pattern for like the last like fourteen years
Speaker 9: of my life. Like I've been to that facility plus
Speaker 9: another fifteen sixteen of them, and it just gets tiring,
Speaker 9: that lifestyle. And and then you like, you know, you're
Speaker 9: beating your head against the wall, like continuing to do
Speaker 9: the same things over and over again. And it's it's
Speaker 9: hard to love someone like that too. You know. My
Speaker 9: sister is the same way. And because on the surface,
Speaker 9: the things we do are terrible. We're you know, we're stealing, relying,
Speaker 9: we're cheating, we're running around like we're like not showing
Speaker 9: up to family events or relationships or whatever. But at
Speaker 9: the same time, although like we are choosing to do
Speaker 9: those things, there's a component where we it's almost compulsive.
Speaker 9: It's like a weird mixture between two and so yeah,
Speaker 9: for the moment, I'm doing pretty you know, well enough,
Speaker 9: considering like I have about two and a half weeks
Speaker 9: ober off everything this is like alcohol included. And then
Speaker 9: uh well yeah, yeah, although I will say me hunched
Speaker 9: over in my on my computer, you know, dialing the
Speaker 9: phone over and over again is very reminiscent of like
Speaker 9: maybe like crack smoking, you know what I mean. I
Speaker 9: figured out how many clicks it takes to your reset
Speaker 9: the call, So I'm kind of like, you know, well,
Speaker 9: I'm happy junkie over here.
Speaker 1: I'm happy that I could I could give you some
Speaker 1: sort of placeholder addiction m for the to you know,
Speaker 1: tidy over from the other one.
Speaker 9: I don't know what my therapist is going to say
Speaker 9: it that I spent all night, you know, tonight trying
Speaker 9: to call a get go to talk to. She might
Speaker 9: fucking think I'm using again.
Speaker 1: So well is that what people do? By the way, like, uh, like,
Speaker 1: if you like to kick an addiction, you kind of
Speaker 1: pick up one that's not as bad, like drinking copious
Speaker 1: amounts of mountain dew or something like that.
Speaker 9: Oh yeah, cigarettes coffee. Candy is a big thing, especially alcoholics.
Speaker 9: Like alcohol is basically metabolized as a sugar. You take
Speaker 9: that away, you crave sugar, so like you'll see alcoholics
Speaker 9: like have a bunch of candy or yeah, they tell
Speaker 9: you like don't don't try to don't try to dump
Speaker 9: all your addictions at once, like obviously the drugs, yes,
Speaker 9: but like don't try to quit caffeine and cigarettes on
Speaker 9: top of the all the ones. And yeah, you got
Speaker 9: to replace it. I mean if you don't, you can't
Speaker 9: just take away the drugs and alcohol from someone. There's
Speaker 9: like it leaves a big hole in your life, like
Speaker 9: the time that's spent for you to like get the drugs,
Speaker 9: use them, the time you spend getting high your friends
Speaker 9: that use you take that away. I mean you're just
Speaker 9: like a shell of nothing, like you have to replace
Speaker 9: it with stuff.
Speaker 1: You know, So I can I ask you something? So
Speaker 1: over can I hold you right now? Twenty six twenty six?
Speaker 1: So you know, having been like in these facilities for
Speaker 1: for so long and like what you're telling me about
Speaker 1: how you're just getting used to it, like is there
Speaker 1: and congratulations on on on two and a half weeks,
Speaker 1: Is there? Something that's like keep keeping you going because
Speaker 1: because it's it's clear that you're like trying. You know,
Speaker 1: it's clear that whether whether or not you've like fully
Speaker 1: kicked your addiction, like it's clear that you are continuously trying,
Speaker 1: you have not given up. You know what's keeping you
Speaker 1: doing that?
Speaker 9: I will say, And there's been periods where I've had
Speaker 9: longer amounts of sobriety. The longest was I turned just
Speaker 9: when I turned eighteen. I got two and a half
Speaker 9: years again like no drinking, you know, I wasn't even
Speaker 9: spoke a cigarettes, like no, no anything. And during that time,
Speaker 9: I think beforehand, my problem was I kept trying to
Speaker 9: get sober for other people. So it's like, oh, whether
Speaker 9: it was like I have legal stuff on my back
Speaker 9: or my parents are crying, my mom's upset, and I
Speaker 9: keep scring over everyone I know, and I kept trying
Speaker 9: to get sober for them, so like things would get
Speaker 9: better and then they would be happy with me. But
Speaker 9: then it's like, well, mission accomplished, Like they're happy with me.
Speaker 9: Done right, So I think it had I had, I
Speaker 9: had to switch it where my I have to I
Speaker 9: have to love and care about myself enough to change
Speaker 9: for myself or else it will never stick. And I
Speaker 9: think that's for a lot of things, not just not
Speaker 9: just addiction, but if you don't if you don't value
Speaker 9: and care about yourself, like why why bother going through
Speaker 9: all the effort to do all these things when at
Speaker 9: the end of the day, I mean, it helps other people,
Speaker 9: but as a byproduct of helping yourself. First, I asked
Speaker 9: me number one.
Speaker 1: And how long you know is so you say that
Speaker 1: for the majority of the time, for a long amounts
Speaker 1: of time, you've been trying to get sober for other people.
Speaker 1: When around when do you feel like you made the
Speaker 1: sort of mental switch to be like, I'm alright, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna do this for myself.
Speaker 9: That I think around eighteen, like I but it wasn't
Speaker 9: just hitting eighteen. I moved out on my own right
Speaker 9: before that, and I think the combination of I moved
Speaker 9: to Louisiana. I kind of just like drew a dart
Speaker 9: on board and it was like, fuck it, We're going
Speaker 9: to Louisiana. And I think just being on my own
Speaker 9: and only having myself and spending so much time like
Speaker 9: I went to work, I came home to my apartment
Speaker 9: with I spent so much time with just myself, like
Speaker 9: I didn't have friends yet or anything, like no family
Speaker 9: out there. Like I had to come to terms with
Speaker 9: like myself because everywhere I went there I was. It
Speaker 9: didn't matter. I couldn't outrun myself, of course, and like
Speaker 9: I just had to like face the fact that it's
Speaker 9: like look in the mirror, like this is what it
Speaker 9: is and not in a depressing way. But I don't,
Speaker 9: I don't. I think I spent so much time just
Speaker 9: like running and avoiding that I never really took inventory
Speaker 9: and like figured out really like who I was enough
Speaker 9: to like to say, like, oh, I actually love myself,
Speaker 9: because I didn't even know if I just said, oh
Speaker 9: I love who is Ryan?
Speaker 5: I don't know.
Speaker 9: I don't know, and the only things I do know
Speaker 9: is like all the shitty things I've done. And uh
Speaker 9: so I think it was just that like being on
Speaker 9: my own and not having especially my parents like bail
Speaker 9: me out all the time, Like fortunately or unfortunately, I
Speaker 9: like my parents. I grew up like well off enough
Speaker 9: where like mommy and Daddy could come like bail me
Speaker 9: out of jail or get me a lawyer or go
Speaker 9: talk to the school, and like beg them not to
Speaker 9: expel me or you know, and uh yet I had
Speaker 9: to get away from that.
Speaker 1: No, you learn so much more about yourself in isolation, it.
Speaker 9: Sounds like, but yeah, I mean there's you don't have
Speaker 9: anything else to like distract yourself.
Speaker 1: So tell me, how's your outlook moving forward? What's your
Speaker 1: outlook like are you Are you feeling optimistic about the future.
Speaker 9: I would say cautiously optimistic might be the best way
Speaker 9: to put it. Yeah, I don't have any I ran
Speaker 9: out of excuses, you know, like uh like I know,
Speaker 9: like I know I can't like like my my poison
Speaker 9: specifically with heroin, that was but that was what done
Speaker 9: like did me and the worst like that's what I
Speaker 9: always went back to. And I've just proven to myself
Speaker 9: with like some research and development, like it doesn't I can't.
Speaker 9: I can't get high.
Speaker 5: And live successfully.
Speaker 9: So I kind of hit a point where it was
Speaker 9: like I either will die from it or I'll I'll
Speaker 9: get sober. And I know what to do. I've done
Speaker 9: it before, like put together multiple years, so I know how,
Speaker 9: I know how to get there, and I really don't
Speaker 9: have any excuse excepted just to go do it. And
Speaker 9: so I mean, I'm I have good people around me,
Speaker 9: luckily that are still around, and I'm in a good
Speaker 9: living situation. It's stable enough, like I didn't wreck my truck,
Speaker 9: like I still have that, So I have I have
Speaker 9: all the reasons and means in the world too. Uh
Speaker 9: start you know, getting things done, start doing some some
Speaker 9: actual physical work on it. So I don't see why not.
Speaker 9: And uh, you know, I have, I have goals short term,
Speaker 9: long term. Uh, I'm young enough, like I don't feel
Speaker 9: like I've like blown a bunch of time.
Speaker 11: So you know, because a lot of.
Speaker 9: People are fifty years old, fifty year old heroin addict,
Speaker 9: like I could only imagine like feeling like you wasted
Speaker 9: you know, four or five decades. And it's like I'm
Speaker 9: sitting next to them, and I always hear like, honest,
Speaker 9: I wish I would have gotten sober that young, because
Speaker 9: all my friends are still partying and even though they're
Speaker 9: out of college, they're still.
Speaker 5: Still doing whatever.
Speaker 9: But uh, they're they're normal and that you know, they
Speaker 9: can they can put it down and go.
Speaker 12: Back to work.
Speaker 1: So Ryan Man, you know, I think you're You're obviously
Speaker 1: a smart guy, and you obviously like you know, have
Speaker 1: some some sense and a and a plan for yourself.
Speaker 1: And uh man, I'm I'm I'm rooting for you, dude,
Speaker 1: I really am. I I think it's like I said,
Speaker 1: I'm impressed. I'm impressed with you because I feel like,
Speaker 1: after so many like tries, you know it, it seems
Speaker 1: like you're still putting in the effort to help yourself,
Speaker 1: which is like the most important thing, you know. So
Speaker 1: I'm very very glad to hear that. And dude, thank
Speaker 1: you so much for sharing. And we wish you the
Speaker 1: best of luck.
Speaker 9: Yeah, And if anyone else out there is struggling, I
Speaker 9: just hope they reach out tell someone and I love them,
Speaker 9: and you can do it. I mean, it's it's possible.
Speaker 9: If I could do, anyone can and I've done it
Speaker 9: before and I know many people who have, so you know,
Speaker 9: any all the love and support to anyone out there struggling.
Speaker 9: Thanks for taking my call.
Speaker 1: I appreciate you anytime. Ryan, You take care.
Speaker 5: I have a good night, all right.
Speaker 1: Amy?
Speaker 16: Oh my gosh, Hello.
Speaker 1: What's up? Amy?
Speaker 16: What's up? Gecko?
Speaker 1: Amy from Arizona? You chilling with your fame? You want
Speaker 1: to talk about how hard math is? Yes, I do
Speaker 1: tell me, tell me how hard is math?
Speaker 16: Well, I'm uh, I'm not at your average college age.
Speaker 4: I'm a little bit older.
Speaker 16: And I started taking math recently, and I realized how
Speaker 16: how difficult it is, Like right now, I have to
Speaker 16: figure out like functions and functions.
Speaker 15: They're super hard.
Speaker 16: And I was wondering, maybe if you knew a little
Speaker 16: bit about functions, you can help me out.
Speaker 1: I know, I you know, I go to functions, I
Speaker 1: talk to people. Uh, you know, I'll pet a dog
Speaker 1: if it's there. I'll eat some tortilla chips.
Speaker 16: Right, Yeah, I'm good at that too.
Speaker 1: I go to I I you know, I'm okay at functions.
Speaker 1: I'm not the best. I'm not like you know, I
Speaker 1: know that I'm able to be like, you know, confident
Speaker 1: here because it's it's a digital thing, and you know
Speaker 1: it's it's it's my twitch whatever the fuck. But I
Speaker 1: had an actual function. You know, I'm I'm a lot
Speaker 1: you know, you know, I'll I'll pick my spots strategically,
Speaker 1: right right, you're in college. You just went back to college.
Speaker 9: I did.
Speaker 16: I just went back to college.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 16: I worked in nonprofit for ten years and now I'm
Speaker 16: back in college to go into the medical field, so
Speaker 16: I need to know all the math.
Speaker 1: Can I would you be kind? You know, I have
Speaker 1: to believe would be comfortble sharing.
Speaker 16: Hold you are, I'm forty.
Speaker 1: My my step year, my step mom became uh my
Speaker 1: mom did a very similar thing at a at a
Speaker 1: I think she was actually even older than you when
Speaker 1: she did a like extremely similar same thing is what
Speaker 1: you're doing right now, and she became a doctor.
Speaker 9: You know, so nice.
Speaker 16: I mean, i'd like to positions assistant. But we'll see,
Speaker 16: we'll see.
Speaker 1: No, it'll happen, it will happen. I mean, how much
Speaker 1: do you really need to know to be a physician's assistant?
Speaker 1: You know, you gotta you gotta know about the brain
Speaker 1: and the heart and the lungs and probably something about
Speaker 1: the brands. Okay, something goes wrong with those.
Speaker 16: Yeah, hands, feet, all those things, uh, all the things
Speaker 16: in between the hands and the feet. I'm pretty sure.
Speaker 1: Do you give me? Do you have any like words
Speaker 1: of wisdom that you want to pass to the to
Speaker 1: the viewers tonight, Amy.
Speaker 16: Of course.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 16: I mean, it's never too late to do what you love.
Speaker 16: I think, like you know, forty, sometimes people think that
Speaker 16: it's too late to pursue a different career. But I am.
Speaker 16: I loved my past career, but now I'm ready for
Speaker 16: a new career. And I think, I think anybody can
Speaker 16: do it as long as you have the u, you
Speaker 16: have the desire, you know, beautiful.
Speaker 1: I like that. I like that a lot. What's your
Speaker 1: what's your ultimate goal in love? What's your modest operenda?
Speaker 1: How do you? How do you how do you approach life? Amy?
Speaker 1: What's your philosophy?
Speaker 16: I guess with an open mind is the best m
Speaker 16: O I can probably pass on to others. Is like,
Speaker 16: you never know what's what's gonna come towards you, and
Speaker 16: you gotta you gotta, you gotta feed it with an
Speaker 16: open mind. If not, you're gonna be in trouble, you know.
Speaker 1: I like that. I like that. Can get some medical advice, Well,
Speaker 1: what you got going on? I'm afraid that, Well, I can't.
Speaker 1: It's hard. It's hard to explain, but I've been covering
Speaker 1: my face and a talk based green paint for several
Speaker 1: hours every year that we see that, and I'm kind
Speaker 1: of wondering, like, you know, based on your professional medical opinion,
Speaker 1: how long do I have left to live?
Speaker 16: I mean it depends on the level of of color
Speaker 16: that you're using in the amount of you know, like
Speaker 16: I guess it's artificial ingredients in there. But a good
Speaker 16: a good baking soda rub like you make a little
Speaker 16: bit of baking soda. I would say like three table
Speaker 16: soons a baking soda with like a cup of water.
Speaker 16: Rub that on there. That'll draw out all these toxins
Speaker 16: of sim salt is really good for that. You also
Speaker 16: have some witch hazel which you can get from the
Speaker 16: drug shot really and extensively metal draw all that those
Speaker 16: toxins out hopefully.
Speaker 1: Oh you know what I do is I you know
Speaker 1: that three and one shampoo condition or body wash.
Speaker 16: I do.
Speaker 1: I just I just go in the shower. I throw
Speaker 1: that on there. It usually does the trick gets it off.
Speaker 16: I mean that's better than nothing, right, But I'm not
Speaker 16: sure it'll get all the green toxins out of the
Speaker 16: out of the skin.
Speaker 1: Do you think there's like a like a do you
Speaker 1: think it's skin cancer or something like that?
Speaker 16: I mean cancer cancer is not typically caused by topical applications,
Speaker 16: but it's possible.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you for looking at for me, Amy.
Speaker 16: I'm just saying, like maybe you want to go with
Speaker 16: a natural green, like maybe you can like do some
Speaker 16: kale or some spinach and you can get the same
Speaker 16: color without the same risk to your hope.
Speaker 1: All right, don't I do that. I'll show about, show,
Speaker 1: I'll show up. I'll show up next stream with a
Speaker 1: bunch of shredded lettuce on my face.
Speaker 16: I love it. I love that. I love that look
Speaker 16: for you. I think that would be like a good
Speaker 16: example to set for the public.
Speaker 11: Tune.
Speaker 1: Thank you, Amy, Thank you, Amy, Amy, good luck. I
Speaker 1: hope to be under your knife one day because I
Speaker 1: trust you, and I hope you have a gross tonight.
Speaker 16: Thank you. I appreciate it, and you have a wonderful
Speaker 16: night too.
Speaker 1: Amy Forever. Hello, Blake, Hello, how's it going, Blake? Are
Speaker 1: you super well?
Speaker 8: Are you?
Speaker 1: Way? Is actually extremely way?
Speaker 9: Oh about?
Speaker 3: And lose my ship right down?
Speaker 1: I lose my ship? What's up? Blake? Tell me everythough?
Speaker 8: Let me kid, I catch my breath, bro.
Speaker 1: All the time. I'll take I'll take a sip of water.
Speaker 1: You want anything, I'm gonna give myself a sip of water.
Speaker 8: If you want anything, you're gonna have to save this
Speaker 8: sip for me. Give me at least ten seconds.
Speaker 13: Holy to lely though this is climbing holy to the
Speaker 13: one second.
Speaker 8: I love you, law.
Speaker 1: Going on man, not much blake? How uh, how how
Speaker 1: might what tell tell us? Tell us? What's up?
Speaker 8: My heart's beating on my chest? A man?
Speaker 1: Take your time, take your time.
Speaker 8: Well, to be honest with you alone, got a little
Speaker 8: O C. D obsoinition like to line things up, you
Speaker 8: know what I mean? And uh, the wife she's not
Speaker 8: having it. M hmm yeah, basically I can tell you
Speaker 8: just here, bam, bam bam, putting everything in a row,
Speaker 8: everything organized, you know what I mean?
Speaker 10: Mm hmm.
Speaker 8: That's not it.
Speaker 1: How does it make you feel when you see things
Speaker 1: that are unorganized?
Speaker 8: It gives me sure satisfaction. You can't even describe it.
Speaker 8: Just beautiful, just satisfaction.
Speaker 1: Oh I meant, how how do you feel when you
Speaker 1: see things that are disorganized?
Speaker 8: Oh? Well, of course the complete opposite. Just it just
Speaker 8: pisses me the funk.
Speaker 1: Okay, So how long have you been obsessively organizing stuff
Speaker 1: and putting things in line? You know?
Speaker 8: My whole adult career? Basically? What's about that?
Speaker 5: Mm hm?
Speaker 1: And how long have you heard what the get is?
Speaker 3: Are you?
Speaker 1: Are you with so bad.
Speaker 8: Now, I'm sorry. No, no, I'm you know, every time
Speaker 8: I hear you, you know, you're like, are you near anybody?
Speaker 8: So I ran to the basement for you.
Speaker 1: Look, I'm not I look, I'm not here to keep
Speaker 1: you away from your friends. You don't you don't have
Speaker 1: to be alive.
Speaker 8: And I was just kid.
Speaker 1: Am I own speaker phone. I feel like I can
Speaker 1: hear myself on the thing, although I don't know.
Speaker 8: If no, no, sir, no, sir? Okay, and beautiful, I
Speaker 8: got to hear what you got to say.
Speaker 1: Romantic. How long have you been with your wife for?
Speaker 1: Not necessarily married, but just together?
Speaker 8: Seven years?
Speaker 1: Seven years? Okay? And don't look at the chat. Don't
Speaker 1: look at the chat. We're the only chat going on
Speaker 1: between you and I. I need your whole focus. I
Speaker 1: need your whole focus here.
Speaker 8: I got you, but I mean be honestly, is it bad?
Speaker 1: I'm not. I don't know. I'm not looking. It's just
Speaker 1: justuing me. We're just chatting. No looking at the chat?
Speaker 1: All right, Blake, you said your name was.
Speaker 8: Yes, Blake Adams being totally transparent last night. We're being transparent.
Speaker 1: Of course, of course, Blake. All right, so you met
Speaker 1: your wife, you've been the refe seven years. I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: I know you just fucking told me, but you said
Speaker 1: you've been like obsessively organizing things for three years.
Speaker 8: Yeah, well that's we just bought a house together. That's
Speaker 8: you know, that's when you really get the whole. You know,
Speaker 8: when you're together and you can see how each person lives,
Speaker 8: you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: Okay, and okay, you just bought a house together recently,
Speaker 1: you've only recently started living together.
Speaker 8: Well, we're going on two years, I mean, but it's
Speaker 8: been rough. Well, the you know organization, I mean, I
Speaker 8: like everything to look like a chess game or you
Speaker 8: know what I mean.
Speaker 1: Okay, And how would you describe her style is it?
Speaker 1: Would you describe her style as actively disorganized or just
Speaker 1: simply not as anal about things as you.
Speaker 8: It would look like you know, where they dump trash
Speaker 8: in like a landfill, That would be her style.
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm.
Speaker 8: Yeah, so actively disorganized would be an understatement. So you're
Speaker 8: just looking at pure slob basically. So you see where
Speaker 8: I'm coming from.
Speaker 5: M h.
Speaker 1: M hmm. What do you like about your wife? What?
Speaker 1: What drew you to her and continues to draw you
Speaker 1: to her every day.
Speaker 8: I knew with these hard questions, it's not even hard.
Speaker 9: You know.
Speaker 1: I don't know flag that you described that as a
Speaker 1: hard question.
Speaker 8: Yeah I heard that, but go ahead, you know, I
Speaker 8: don't I don't know. I mean maybe that was on
Speaker 8: our question. I mean she she takes care of the
Speaker 8: things that need to be taken care of.
Speaker 3: How about that?
Speaker 1: You like her because she's care of the things that
Speaker 1: need to be taken care of.
Speaker 8: Wow, Well, I don't want you to put words in
Speaker 8: my mouth.
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to you. I want you to question.
Speaker 8: I know you. I've listened to you for hundreds of hours.
Speaker 8: She she fulfills the roles of the house. We'll just
Speaker 8: let's go with that.
Speaker 3: Long.
Speaker 8: Tell me what I need to do, because you're the
Speaker 8: therapy gecko. I'm looking for advice.
Speaker 1: Well, I don't know if I have advice, but I
Speaker 1: I am interested in, uh sort of talking about the situation. Okay,
Speaker 1: so you like her because she fills the roles of
Speaker 1: the house. Do you guys have a kid?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 8: Yeah, yeah, we do.
Speaker 1: Okay, how old is the kid?
Speaker 3: Just?
Speaker 8: Uh, he won't be one years old in a couple
Speaker 8: of days. And we went through IVF. I don't know.
Speaker 8: You know what in vitro fertilization is no, So that's
Speaker 8: where like you don't even leave the kids that have
Speaker 8: to artificially and simulate you and all that pay all
Speaker 8: that money. I don't know. Yeah, so that's what we do,
Speaker 8: but anyone, you know, I don't want to take every
Speaker 8: time long.
Speaker 1: Uh No, it's fine, man, I'm kind of well, I'm curious.
Speaker 1: Have you ever been to any form of Okay, so
Speaker 1: you so you you have you been like, have you
Speaker 1: been like formally diagnosed with OCD?
Speaker 8: I just grew up on adderall, just like all these
Speaker 8: other kids have. I'm not going to claim.
Speaker 13: All that, you know, but I just have an obsession.
Speaker 8: With everything having to be perfect. My whole house got
Speaker 8: to be perfect. Just I just like perfect. You know,
Speaker 8: it doesn't it doesn't necessarily have to be like per
Speaker 8: se perfect, but it needs to be organized all the time.
Speaker 8: And that's just me as a person.
Speaker 1: Have you talked to a real therapist about this? That's
Speaker 1: why I was asking if you had the.
Speaker 8: I love to. I would love to. I would love to.
Speaker 8: Maybe I should.
Speaker 1: Anything, but totally should. It sounds like.
Speaker 8: Could you say it's a money thing is that.
Speaker 1: No, I was I was asking, is it is it
Speaker 1: a money thing? Like like because you know I know
Speaker 1: people fuck, No, I just I just.
Speaker 8: I just like I just I just love it. You know,
Speaker 8: I don't have any problems with it, you know what
Speaker 8: I mean.
Speaker 9: It's just like, what's.
Speaker 8: One thing that you like about yourself that you wouldn't change?
Speaker 8: You know?
Speaker 17: Well, well you know, okay, well you know, no, No,
Speaker 17: here's what Here's what I'm gonna Here's what I was
Speaker 17: gonna say, is like, you know, I'm actually kind of
Speaker 17: less interested in in because.
Speaker 1: The way that uh, you know, at least you know
Speaker 1: this was presented on you know, the notes that from
Speaker 1: from what you told to the to the call screen
Speaker 1: ran a little bit from what you've told me, was
Speaker 1: the way you presented it as like your O C.
Speaker 1: D is like the central sort of thing.
Speaker 8: That's that it's ruining things for sure.
Speaker 1: But okay, But on the other hand, it's like, and again,
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know you man, I don't know
Speaker 1: your relationship. But like, on the other hand, it's like,
Speaker 1: you know, if if you can't you know, if you
Speaker 1: if you claim that you only like your wife because
Speaker 1: she fulfills the roles of the house, I feel like,
Speaker 1: and I don't know what they are and I'm not
Speaker 1: making not trying to make any assumptions, but there might
Speaker 1: be other things going on besides just the OCD. And
Speaker 1: maybe it's not anything like, you know, horrible or tragic
Speaker 1: about about either of you as people, but maybe there's
Speaker 1: like yeah, and I was gonna say, maybe there's incompatibility,
Speaker 1: but you've been together for seven years. I don't know, man,
Speaker 1: I mean, well, you know what I mean.
Speaker 8: Time doesn't you know? Tell all you know, you figure
Speaker 8: it out, you know, later than sooner sometimes. I mean, yeah,
Speaker 8: this is why I call it you. I mean everything,
Speaker 8: you know. One thing that I'm gonna tell you this,
Speaker 8: I'm gonna let you go long. Sure, you are so
Speaker 8: intelligent and you don't let a whole lot of people
Speaker 8: you're You're so smart, but you you like to be
Speaker 8: shy about it, and that's one thing I love about you.
Speaker 1: Well, thank you, Blake, Man. I appreciate that. And okay, man,
Speaker 1: go ahead. Well I was gonna say, like, if you can, man,
Speaker 1: you know, I appreciate all the kind words, but you know,
Speaker 1: if you can, man, totally go try and see uh
Speaker 1: A real therapist. I'm curious personally what they would have
Speaker 1: to say about something like this.
Speaker 8: Well, you know one thing, but one thing. Have you
Speaker 8: ever been to a therapist? Nobody's asked you before.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've been to a therapist. I don't really like
Speaker 1: their I like, I feel like I journal for my therapy.
Speaker 1: You know, I gotta all.
Speaker 8: I'm gonna let you go, all right, buddy, All right, man.
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you. Thank you for calling, Thank you
Speaker 1: for sharing. I love you, letter man, thank you.
Speaker 15: Hello.
Speaker 2: Hello, Yes did I get through?
Speaker 1: Yes?
Speaker 15: That's fucking crazy.
Speaker 1: Hi.
Speaker 2: I'm just hanging out. How are you.
Speaker 1: I'm also kind of just hanging out as well. I'm chilling.
Speaker 2: I'm waiting on a pizza right now.
Speaker 1: What kind of pizza?
Speaker 15: Okay, hear me out here.
Speaker 1: It happens.
Speaker 15: It's half banana pepper's on the left and then half
Speaker 15: pineapple on the right, both extra on the toppings.
Speaker 1: Now, how do you know which side is the left
Speaker 1: side and which side is the right side? Because you
Speaker 1: could take it and then turn it and then with
Speaker 1: that then be upside down. Or how do you determine
Speaker 1: which is the right and which is the left?
Speaker 15: Well, I mean with the structure of the box, Like
Speaker 15: when you're opening it up, that's the front and I
Speaker 15: chosen the app because I've an app. And then when
Speaker 15: you open it up, it's like left is left, right
Speaker 15: is right?
Speaker 1: Do what if they put the pizza? What if they
Speaker 1: make it half but they put but they put it
Speaker 1: on the wrong halves you know what I'm talking about.
Speaker 1: And you're like, and you call them back and you're like,
Speaker 1: the banana peppers were supposed to be on the right side,
Speaker 1: but they were on the left side.
Speaker 15: No, no, no, no, no, no. I forgive them. I
Speaker 15: forgive them because like I like being sucked over by
Speaker 15: the food service industry, like they I like being the
Speaker 15: person that they can like mess it up on and
Speaker 15: then forgiving them.
Speaker 1: Oh okay, you enjoy being in a position to forgive
Speaker 1: other people?
Speaker 10: Sure?
Speaker 1: Does it make you feel powerful to forget? No?
Speaker 15: I mean I definitely.
Speaker 5: Do.
Speaker 1: You go, like, you know, I could be an asshole
Speaker 1: about this, but I'm choosing not to because I am merciful.
Speaker 15: No, I kind of always yeah, No, I'm really easy
Speaker 15: to please, Like I'll put up with whatever.
Speaker 1: Does that ever backfire on you? Yeah, tell me about
Speaker 1: the last time that that backfired on you?
Speaker 15: I guess the people I choose to be in committed
Speaker 15: relationships with I sort of start like, I'm like, oh
Speaker 15: my gosh, I love the way you are as a person,
Speaker 15: I love your individuality, and like I completely put them
Speaker 15: on a pedestal and ignore any mistakes. Anyways, they you
Speaker 15: would say they sucked me.
Speaker 1: Over, and listen, you don't have to get you owe
Speaker 1: me nothing. You don't have to get specific with this
Speaker 1: at all, you know, if you're unoc comfortable with it.
Speaker 1: But would you be one to talk about the last person,
Speaker 1: like the negative quality that you did, not that you
Speaker 1: overlooked in them because you were focusing on the positives.
Speaker 15: Yeah. My most recent ex shared a shower towel with
Speaker 15: his whole family, really.
Speaker 1: Just one communal towel.
Speaker 15: Yeah, and like the first time I went to take
Speaker 15: a shower at his house, I was like, okay, like
Speaker 15: what's in appropriate tality use? And he was like, I'll
Speaker 15: just use that one. I was like, oh, Like like,
Speaker 15: who's is it yours? Like, well, yeah, it's everyone's. I
Speaker 15: was like everyone's. And then I told every person I
Speaker 15: knew about that that was the way he did things.
Speaker 1: And what did you think about the fact that he
Speaker 1: shared a communal towel with his whole family.
Speaker 15: I was very disturbed because I I'm kind of a
Speaker 15: strange for my own family, so that, like that level
Speaker 15: of intimacy confused me. And also I just think it's
Speaker 15: weird either way.
Speaker 1: Is it a germ thing?
Speaker 16: I mean.
Speaker 15: That's I mean, like, I mean, how thorough do you
Speaker 15: get when you're drying yourself, you know what you're passing
Speaker 15: it on to, like your brother you can call me
Speaker 15: ja dog.
Speaker 1: You know. I feel like you should be honored, right,
Speaker 1: doesn't this sort of mean that he's saying you're part
Speaker 1: of the family.
Speaker 15: Yeah, but like diseases passed through orifices and like that
Speaker 15: is an honor. Yeah, I mean.
Speaker 1: I but also he's honoring you with the family disease.
Speaker 16: For sure.
Speaker 15: For sure. I mean yeah, whatever, I mean, I used it. Whatever, whatever,
Speaker 15: whatever they have, I have it too.
Speaker 10: You know.
Speaker 15: It did make me feel like I had a real
Speaker 15: family unit. I was like, all right, this is this
Speaker 15: is what we're doing.
Speaker 1: So you ended up using it after all?
Speaker 15: Yeah, I didn't want to be rude. I didn't want to, like,
Speaker 15: you know, have that confrontation in the moment. I was like, Okay,
Speaker 15: I'm just going to fuck use the towel.
Speaker 5: Hmm.
Speaker 1: Okay, So you went from I'm I'm really enjoying the
Speaker 1: the character development here. You went from thinking it was
Speaker 1: gross you the way.
Speaker 15: That I'm like, I'm not going to critique him the
Speaker 15: same like you're like you were saying the food service industry,
Speaker 15: I'm very easy to please. I'm not going to complain.
Speaker 15: I'll just keep quiet. I'm like, I'll just use the towel.
Speaker 2: You know, right.
Speaker 1: But you went from you know, using you went from
Speaker 1: being adverse using the towel being you know a little
Speaker 1: bit like, you know, I can't imagine being that close
Speaker 1: with my family to you then used it. And it
Speaker 1: sounds as though you felt like you then had a
Speaker 1: family of your own after going through the experience.
Speaker 15: I love, I love, still love his parents. His brother
Speaker 15: was chill too, so I was like, you know what,
Speaker 15: I'll share it all of them. But like everyone I
Speaker 15: told about that was so, I think they were more
Speaker 15: bothered than me, Like I think it was more fucked
Speaker 15: up to them, And it made me reflect on my
Speaker 15: own decision to use it.
Speaker 1: That's a very big idea. But I wouldn't like the
Speaker 1: character development.
Speaker 15: Yeah, thank you. Thanks. I try every day.
Speaker 1: Well, Jay Doug, thank you for sharing. I hope you
Speaker 1: have a one for rest of the night.
Speaker 15: Thank you you too. It's so great talking to you.
Speaker 6: How from Cuba?
Speaker 1: What's up? What's her name? Tuba?
Speaker 3: Cuba?
Speaker 1: Have we spoken before?
Speaker 3: We have lost?
Speaker 1: Your name is Cubo?
Speaker 3: Cubo. It's like k I d a.
Speaker 1: Ohkiba. Is that your actual name or is that like
Speaker 1: a screen name?
Speaker 14: It's a it's my name's cool name.
Speaker 5: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, how's it going, Ceba? Do you like your name?
Speaker 1: Do you like yourself as a person? Do you like yourself?
Speaker 3: Uh, that's a difficult question.
Speaker 1: It is.
Speaker 17: It's a.
Speaker 8: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I mean, I mean, I mean essentially I do some
Speaker 3: parts of me, but you know there's some there's some
Speaker 3: things I guess I could work on.
Speaker 1: By the way, that makes perfect sense. I think you
Speaker 1: know when you say essentially you do, it's like the
Speaker 1: macro in the mag at it in the macro sense
Speaker 1: when push comes to shove, you like yourself. But maybe
Speaker 1: you know when you break it down into the units
Speaker 1: of the days and the actions as individually, you're like
Speaker 1: I you know, maybe because have done that better or
Speaker 1: something like that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's that's basically it. M it's a bit s
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 1: Keep have you ever lied before to.
Speaker 3: Someone absolutely who hasn't tell me?
Speaker 1: Tell me about the time, about the the most recent
Speaker 1: lie you told.
Speaker 3: All right, Well, it actually happened at work not too
Speaker 3: longears ago. So let me just give you a little background.
Speaker 3: I got hired not too long ago, maybe like a
Speaker 3: month and a half of the max, And uh, I
Speaker 3: was so excited about the job, so I just told
Speaker 3: my friend about it, and uh, you got hired. We
Speaker 3: started working together. You know, he has some fun too,
Speaker 3: and uh, there was a little mishap at work that
Speaker 3: I kind of put the blame on him, you know,
Speaker 3: and he doesn't really suspect the thing.
Speaker 1: Mhm. All right, So you got hired at a job.
Speaker 1: Your buddy got hired at the same place. You guys
Speaker 1: are paling around something, you fuck something up, you blame
Speaker 1: it on your buddy.
Speaker 8: Yeah, m.
Speaker 1: So it's up Keea, I forgot we did the whole
Speaker 1: thing with that. Can you tell us what it is
Speaker 1: that you fucked up?
Speaker 3: So we were working the ship together, mind you, we're
Speaker 3: not even working near each other. It's kind of like
Speaker 3: a kind of sports job. Sports oriented. It's like a
Speaker 3: daycare for kids, but we include sports and everything like that.
Speaker 3: Oh no, it's get alot worse. I know you did
Speaker 3: it was it wasn't involving the kids. It wasn't involving
Speaker 3: the kids. But I may have during you know, closed
Speaker 3: them down, drop the shelf that may have broken a
Speaker 3: few things that were valuable. Then you know, there was
Speaker 3: some question going on. I hauled, asked to get out,
Speaker 3: and they just saw I wouldn't be suspected. And uh yeah,
Speaker 3: my broken vacuum cleaner. That was very expensive.
Speaker 1: You broke a vacuum cleaner.
Speaker 3: Not not just that.
Speaker 1: It was walk me through, walk me through, keep walk
Speaker 1: me through the things that were destroyed.
Speaker 3: Okay, well, firstly, you know of the vacuum cleaner for
Speaker 3: one time. Now, we just we got inventory about a
Speaker 3: week before, so brand new toys and everything like that,
Speaker 3: and about five hundred dollars with inventory.
Speaker 1: Okay, hold on, shattered, What how can one shelf contain
Speaker 1: five hundred dollars worth of toys?
Speaker 3: Well, we aren't the biggest facility, so our backspace is
Speaker 3: not as big as it should be. So if you
Speaker 3: make one small mistake and trist something over it's basically
Speaker 3: game over. So, yeah, we have like a bunch of toys,
Speaker 3: brand new toys for the kids to play with, usually
Speaker 3: the younger ages, and it just still happened that my
Speaker 3: friend was there at the wrong place in the wrong time.
Speaker 1: I have so many problems with this because okay, how
Speaker 1: first of all, okay, so you said that the okay, okay,
Speaker 1: five hundred dollars, Because here's the thing, five hundred dollars
Speaker 1: worth of toys. What children's toy especially when you said
Speaker 1: for younger kids. Yeah, Like also, by the way, I've
Speaker 1: you know, I was a child, I played with like
Speaker 1: Fisher Price fucking xylophones. You could take a fucking Fisher
Speaker 1: Price xylophone and chuck it off a building and that
Speaker 1: ship will still be good to go. What fucking children's
Speaker 1: toys are five hundred dollars? And also fragile? Are they
Speaker 1: playing with like glass or something? What? What are these toys?
Speaker 3: No, it was like, you know, the classic dollars, a
Speaker 3: remote control of all that. Sure, it's just a lot
Speaker 3: of those. And then it's like some ceramic dolls that
Speaker 3: are on the kind of what kid is.
Speaker 1: Playing with ceramic dolls? Those are not those are for display.
Speaker 3: We I don't know why we bought We bought them
Speaker 3: for some reason.
Speaker 1: Though, I I you know what I think so much
Speaker 1: of this is I would I blame the facility because no,
Speaker 1: this doesn't make sense, because dude, these these children's toys
Speaker 1: are not meant are meant to withstand.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, it's a pretty tall shelf that requires a
Speaker 3: step letter to obtain most of these toys.
Speaker 1: Have you ever seen children play with toys? I fucking will.
Speaker 1: I've seen a kid take one of those fucking remote
Speaker 1: controlled dinosaurs and they're playing dinosaur and they slam that
Speaker 1: ship onto the floor and the thing and it's fine.
Speaker 1: I say, this doesn't make sense. I don't know, I
Speaker 1: don't know why. Something about this doesn't make sense to me.
Speaker 3: That's that's the thing. I think so many tipping over.
Speaker 3: I tried to save it, Like, don't count that. I
Speaker 3: at least tried to, you know, keep it in place.
Speaker 3: And you know, I wasn't expecting it to break because
Speaker 3: you know, ceramic dolls, yes, yes, absolutely, but the plastic dinosaurs.
Speaker 1: I play the facility for buying ceramic dolls for children
Speaker 1: to play, well, you know.
Speaker 3: I do too, But as I digress. You know, I
Speaker 3: got my out of it, and my friend was, you know,
Speaker 3: putting the ship in, and my manager walked in and
Speaker 3: he was He wasn't necessarily near it, but he was
Speaker 3: close enough to be suspected. And I might have told
Speaker 3: a little white lie to a.
Speaker 1: Not to asonerate yourself. Yeah, all right, So just your
Speaker 1: friend now about this that you lied.
Speaker 3: He doesn't and he just he was fine with leaving
Speaker 3: with whatever reason. He didn't even try to fight the clean.
Speaker 3: And I don't know how to tell him. I don't
Speaker 3: know if I should tell him that.
Speaker 8: It was me.
Speaker 1: Do you think you should tell him it was you?
Speaker 3: So that first question you asked, if I like myself,
Speaker 3: I feel like this is like this guilt inside. It's
Speaker 3: kind of just like pushing me over to him now
Speaker 3: liking myself, I think I should tell him, but I
Speaker 3: am not necessarily sure.
Speaker 1: Well, I'm not gonna tell you what you should do,
Speaker 1: but I mean, is.
Speaker 3: There anything you can you can advise me to GHEK?
Speaker 3: Is there anything? Should I just come clean?
Speaker 1: I mean, like, yeah, you should come clean, I think,
Speaker 1: especially because by the way, it sounds like the steaks
Speaker 1: are very by the way, you're gonna lie. It sounds
Speaker 1: like you're actually in a very lucky position, right because
Speaker 1: from what you've told me, the stakes are low, because
Speaker 1: from what you've told me, your friend when he got
Speaker 1: fired from the job, was not like, oh that was dumb.
Speaker 1: He's like he wasn't like fighting it and like, oh
Speaker 1: that was my dream job and now it's over. And
Speaker 1: it sounds like from what you've told me that he
Speaker 1: was like, oh whatever, I was gonna leave anyway or
Speaker 1: something like that. It sounds like it doesn't care that much.
Speaker 3: To be fair, he was only there for like two weeks, right, Okay.
Speaker 1: But so would you say that it sounds like it
Speaker 1: doesn't care, because then you're I mean, that doesn't make
Speaker 1: you know anything more or less whatever morally, whatever the fuck.
Speaker 1: I'm not here to be a judgment on fucking morals.
Speaker 5: But yeah, it.
Speaker 1: Sounds like it'll be easier for you than to break
Speaker 1: the news if he's not all that upset about it.
Speaker 3: It does, but I just he really also liked the
Speaker 3: job while he was there, but he wasn't opposed to
Speaker 3: being fired and take him blame for it, which is cool.
Speaker 1: I guess, tell the tell, Tell tell your boss. Do
Speaker 1: you still work there. Yes, this place is crazy. I
Speaker 1: hate this place. Tell them that go in there and
Speaker 1: be like, you guys need to buy these kids fucking
Speaker 1: g I Joe, whatever the fucking not. You know, ceramic
Speaker 1: dolls that you got from your fucking grandma's house. Get
Speaker 1: some real toys in there, by the way, I brought
Speaker 1: those toys, and you it was your guys fault for
Speaker 1: buying shitty toys like that. Get my friend back in
Speaker 1: there and then you leave forever. That's what you should do.
Speaker 1: Tell your boss, tell your friend, and just get the
Speaker 1: guilt away. That's what you gotta do. You gotta come clean.
Speaker 1: That's what I tell you to do. Man, you gotta
Speaker 1: come clean.
Speaker 8: You know it.
Speaker 3: That does sound good.
Speaker 8: I've been trying.
Speaker 3: It's been like taking the tour. I've been trying to,
Speaker 3: you know, get it out there, but keep on bringing
Speaker 3: it up.
Speaker 1: Going tomorrow. Tell the truth to everyone. That's what I'll
Speaker 1: tell you. I know it's easier said than done, but
Speaker 1: do it for us, all right, man, talk to you soon.
Speaker 3: Thank you very much. Have a great day.
Speaker 1: Dick Russell. Kai, what's up? Russell?
Speaker 9: So I got a good story for you.
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Speaker 1: fart in my face with that story. Fart into my
Speaker 1: mouth with your story. I want your story to be
Speaker 1: a big, wet, juicy fart that goes into my mouth.
Speaker 1: And I and not just and I don't want to
Speaker 1: just passively take your story fart into my mouth. I
Speaker 1: want to I want to like breathe, breathe it in
Speaker 1: and inhale it, and I want to keep it there.
Speaker 1: I'm not just gonna like I want you to fart
Speaker 1: your story into my mouth. I hold it in like
Speaker 1: this for a long time as long as that possibly can,
Speaker 1: and then just and then digest it. I'm sorry, that
Speaker 1: was stupid. What's up? Tell me what you were gonna say?
Speaker 9: All right? So question tonight is how.
Speaker 8: Have I sinned?
Speaker 7: Right?
Speaker 8: All right?
Speaker 12: So first off, let me tell you where I.
Speaker 1: Am right now. Sorry, we'll continue.
Speaker 3: All right.
Speaker 12: So, I'm currently living in my apartment with my fiance,
Speaker 12: my dog, my cat. I have two bunnies here. I'm
Speaker 12: living a really good life. I've been engaged for a
Speaker 12: little bit. I've been dating this girl for two years.
Speaker 12: Everything's going pretty great. The thing is, her dad doesn't know,
Speaker 12: and he has no idea that we were even dating.
Speaker 12: In the first place. So I mean, I don't know
Speaker 12: how to tell him. And the thing is, he's like,
Speaker 12: he's super abusive, and for the second that he finds out,
Speaker 12: I thinks she's gonna go self instantly.
Speaker 1: Well, I knew I need some more information here. You
Speaker 1: said that your dating you are You're no, you're engaged
Speaker 1: to this girl. You've been together with her for four years,
Speaker 1: you said, right, two years? Okay, Well, because you've been
Speaker 1: together for how long? You've engaged for.
Speaker 10: About six months?
Speaker 1: All right, You've been together for two years, engaged for
Speaker 1: six months? And her dad does not know? Why? Well,
Speaker 1: why is it such a How old are you guys?
Speaker 12: So I'm twenty one, she is nineteen.
Speaker 1: She's nineteen, okay, Okay, So her dad does not know
Speaker 1: that she is engaged to you? No, And why is
Speaker 1: it a problem if he were to know that?
Speaker 12: All right? So we went on a date when we
Speaker 12: were both in high school, right, And on this date
Speaker 12: we went to a movie theater and we were there
Speaker 12: a little bit early, and you know, one thing led
Speaker 12: to another thing in the movie theater parking lot cops
Speaker 12: ended up catching up and she got taken away in
Speaker 12: a cop d or you know, the squad car back
Speaker 12: to her dad. So we didn't talk to each other
Speaker 12: for about a year and then she reached out to me.
Speaker 12: However much, however long ago, and I don't know. Everything's
Speaker 12: been great since. And her dad doesn't know. She moved
Speaker 12: out from her dad's house. Turns out I didn't know
Speaker 12: at the time, but she was living in a really
Speaker 12: toxic situation. Like I don't know, I really don't even
Speaker 12: know the full story. I don't know the extent of
Speaker 12: it all, but I know it was really dramatizing to her.
Speaker 3: She's living.
Speaker 12: She went to go live with her mom, and that's
Speaker 12: how I got the opportunity to start talking to her again.
Speaker 1: So, so her dad does not like you because of
Speaker 1: that incidence, correct, Okay, regardless of my or anyone else's
Speaker 1: opinions on how you both as adults should live your life. Okay,
Speaker 1: if so, do you do you guys work? Does she?
Speaker 1: Does she live? Do you guys live together?
Speaker 5: Like?
Speaker 1: What's the the reason? The reason what I'm getting at
Speaker 1: is like your her dad does not like financially support
Speaker 1: either of you, does he?
Speaker 9: Oh? No, absolutely not?
Speaker 1: Okay, Then who.
Speaker 12: Is actually a CNA? She actually takes care of schizophrenic
Speaker 12: people for a living. I don't know, it's pretty crazy.
Speaker 1: Well, so then why why is it who gives a ship?
Speaker 1: Would he know? If he if he's not, you know,
Speaker 1: financially supporting anyone, and you know, if she doesn't have
Speaker 1: a great relationship with him to begin with, you know,
Speaker 1: why is it mather what he does or doesn't know?
Speaker 1: You know?
Speaker 12: Yeah, I guess that's true.
Speaker 1: I mean, you both, Well, she has a job, she's
Speaker 1: a caretaker. And then do you have a Do you.
Speaker 5: Have a job?
Speaker 12: Yeah, currently, I'm working at a restaurant called h I'm
Speaker 12: not going to name the place, but I'm working at
Speaker 12: a restaurant. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Well, dude, I mean, look, you both are independent adults,
Speaker 1: financially supporting yourselves. You're free to do whatever you want.
Speaker 1: You know, who cares what her dad thinks?
Speaker 14: Yeah?
Speaker 12: That's true. I mean I guess the one thing that
Speaker 12: I would say is that she's paranoid about what her
Speaker 12: dad might do when he finds out there was incidents
Speaker 12: in her childhood where he had like threatened gun violence
Speaker 12: towards her and just things that CPS should have gotten
Speaker 12: involved with, just not good stuff.
Speaker 1: Does does he know where does he know. Does she
Speaker 1: keep in contact with her dad often?
Speaker 12: She talks to him every once in a while just
Speaker 12: to like keep tabs him, to make sure that you know,
Speaker 12: he's not doing anything hurtful to any of the other
Speaker 12: children or anything like that.
Speaker 1: Are you Are you afraid that if he finds out
Speaker 1: that you guys are gett married, that he'll like come
Speaker 1: to where you guys live and hurt you.
Speaker 12: I'm afraid that there's a chance he might try.
Speaker 1: Well, I'll say one thing. You know this, this is
Speaker 1: hard for me to say because, Okay, what I I'm not.
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not committing to this as my like
Speaker 1: take on this or whatever. But I I hate, regardless
Speaker 1: of regardless of what I personally think about getting married
Speaker 1: at twenty one, I hate to see you make any
Speaker 1: of your decisions in your life based on like fear
Speaker 1: of some guy's violence. You know, even even though I
Speaker 1: understand the fear of that violence, It's uh, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I don't want you to live your life and fear man,
Speaker 1: what can you I'm trying to think what you can do.
Speaker 12: I mean to be honest, I'm not really scared. It's
Speaker 12: kind of like, if he finds out he finds out,
Speaker 12: you know, like I live my life just day to
Speaker 12: day doing whatever I do. You know, if it happens,
Speaker 12: if it so happens that he finds out, I'll deal
Speaker 12: with it then.
Speaker 2: You know, h.
Speaker 1: Well, I mean shit. Man, Well then good on you
Speaker 1: for living your life with no fear or you know,
Speaker 1: not with no fear, but you know, not letting that
Speaker 1: control you.
Speaker 12: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I wish you both the best of luck. Man, Thank you.
Speaker 9: The wedding is in twelve months.
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, you know, good luck to you guys.
Speaker 12: Thank you.
Speaker 1: I have a good rest of the night.
Speaker 9: Man, you too.
Speaker 17: Never Get goes on the line taking your phone calls
Speaker 17: every night.
Speaker 1: Never Peak goes doing his night's teaching you a house.
Speaker 3: Of your life.
Speaker 1: But he's not really an expert.