WEBVTT - "I POOPED IN THE LAZY RIVER" 0:00:00.320 --> 0:00:00.679 Rad. 0:00:01.880 --> 0:00:04.040 Hello, what's hi? 0:00:05.360 --> 0:00:05.880 How's it going? 0:00:06.200 --> 0:00:07.280 Not much? How about you? 0:00:09.600 --> 0:00:15.440 I'm I'm chilling. I'm uh, I'm you know, I'm I'm 0:00:15.520 --> 0:00:17.640 a gecko. What's up with you? Rad? 0:00:21.640 --> 0:00:24.880 I'm just chilling too. Just wanted to tell you a story. 0:00:25.720 --> 0:00:30.960 Oh please, Okay, I kind of just needed to get 0:00:31.000 --> 0:00:33.760 this story off my chest because I'm not really sure 0:00:33.840 --> 0:00:34.800 how to feel about it. 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:36.559 Good. 0:00:36.560 --> 0:00:40.760 But when my friend and my best friend and I 0:00:40.800 --> 0:00:44.360 were thirteen, we went to this water park resort thing 0:00:45.200 --> 0:00:48.839 and we were floating down the lazy river together and 0:00:48.880 --> 0:00:51.239 no one was around, and she told me that she 0:00:51.320 --> 0:00:53.479 had this shit really bad, and I was like, okay, 0:00:53.560 --> 0:00:55.880 let's go to the bathroom. But she told me that 0:00:55.960 --> 0:00:57.800 she couldn't hold it and she couldn't make it to 0:00:57.800 --> 0:01:02.360 the bathroom. So she pulled down her bikini bottoms and 0:01:02.440 --> 0:01:03.720 she shit in the lazy river. 0:01:07.200 --> 0:01:08.880 And how did you respond to this? 0:01:11.080 --> 0:01:13.760 Well, I was right in front of her, and you know, 0:01:14.000 --> 0:01:17.920 like lazy rivers have a current, so the poop started 0:01:17.959 --> 0:01:21.800 floating towards me, and like right in the mix of time, 0:01:22.200 --> 0:01:24.840 she scooped the turds up with her hands and threw 0:01:24.880 --> 0:01:27.360 it into the bush right next to the lazy river, 0:01:31.480 --> 0:01:32.400 She scooped. 0:01:32.040 --> 0:01:33.560 The turd up with her head. Did the turd not 0:01:34.520 --> 0:01:37.640 like dissolve into the water a little bit? I don't 0:01:37.680 --> 0:01:39.960 know what the chemical composition is of turds, but I 0:01:40.000 --> 0:01:42.160 would think that it would like sort of dissolve into 0:01:42.240 --> 0:01:46.000 a little like diarrhea. Mist before was it like a 0:01:46.040 --> 0:01:47.680 fully solid thing. 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:53.640 It was like it looked like like little rocks. It 0:01:53.720 --> 0:01:55.160 wasn't like diarrhea. 0:01:55.520 --> 0:01:56.520 It was like solid. 0:01:57.080 --> 0:01:59.720 There was just like three of them, and she just 0:02:00.400 --> 0:02:03.600 cuffed her hands kind of scooped them and tossed them. 0:02:04.240 --> 0:02:05.640 Okay, three little pebbles. 0:02:07.400 --> 0:02:12.520 Yeah, And the water didn't turn brown or anything. It 0:02:12.680 --> 0:02:16.200 just it was pretty clean poop. 0:02:17.040 --> 0:02:19.760 And did this in any way affect your relationship with 0:02:19.760 --> 0:02:20.280 your friends? 0:02:22.880 --> 0:02:31.920 No, not really. It's kind of mmm, We're still best friends. 0:02:32.040 --> 0:02:34.000 We just don't really talk about this incident. 0:02:36.200 --> 0:02:38.480 That's probably for the best. 0:02:39.880 --> 0:02:46.960 But the story also gets worse. So we went back 0:02:47.040 --> 0:02:51.080 in the Lazy River like thirty minutes later, which, in 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:53.920 hindsight is like, we really probably shouldn't have done that, 0:02:54.000 --> 0:02:56.720 because they're supposed to like shock the pool and stuff 0:02:56.720 --> 0:03:00.160 after someone shifts in it. But when we got to 0:03:00.240 --> 0:03:04.120 where she shit, it smelled really it smelled so bad, 0:03:04.680 --> 0:03:06.640 but like for some reason you thought it was like 0:03:06.760 --> 0:03:11.160 really funny and she was feeling kind of bad about it, 0:03:11.240 --> 0:03:14.920 and she was trying to convince me to shit in 0:03:15.000 --> 0:03:19.200 the Lazy river so that she wouldn't do it alone. 0:03:19.440 --> 0:03:24.880 You know, what do you think you would have done? 0:03:28.760 --> 0:03:31.280 I ship next to the lazy river. 0:03:32.800 --> 0:03:38.120 You shipped next to the lazy river? So where where 0:03:38.240 --> 0:03:40.040 was Where was that to the Laser River? Was it 0:03:40.080 --> 0:03:43.920 on the edge? Was it in the bushes? Was it 0:03:44.000 --> 0:03:47.520 so it was not in the water? Where did you 0:03:47.600 --> 0:03:51.440 stand on the edge of the pool and then pull 0:03:51.520 --> 0:03:54.840 down your pants and squat and ship into the pool. 0:03:57.160 --> 0:04:00.600 I did not shit in the pool. I squatted next 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:03.160 to the pool and it was like in a bush 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:07.000 right next to it. I just couldn't do it in 0:04:07.040 --> 0:04:09.040 the pool. I couldn't bring myself to do it. But 0:04:09.160 --> 0:04:11.040 I just wanted to be a good friend. 0:04:12.080 --> 0:04:13.800 And you did that just to make your friend feel better. 0:04:16.120 --> 0:04:25.960 Yes, that's nice, and also we thought it was funny, okay, 0:04:26.240 --> 0:04:28.360 but I just feel really guilty about it now. 0:04:28.960 --> 0:04:30.560 Oh you fuld why do you feel guilty about. 0:04:30.320 --> 0:04:35.279 It because someone had to clean it up or something? 0:04:35.360 --> 0:04:35.640 You know. 0:04:37.960 --> 0:04:40.799 That's true, or like I just I can't. I feel 0:04:40.800 --> 0:04:43.680 bad for whoever like discovered it, like the employee. 0:04:46.360 --> 0:04:47.679 Do you think that makes it less funny? 0:04:47.720 --> 0:04:51.760 I kind of like, yeah, now now I think it 0:04:51.800 --> 0:04:53.599 makes it less funny now that I'm older. 0:04:56.560 --> 0:04:57.719 What were you about to say just now? 0:05:02.800 --> 0:05:04.440 I don't know. I was about to say that it 0:05:04.520 --> 0:05:06.520 keeps me up that night sometimes. 0:05:09.040 --> 0:05:11.279 Can I ask how old you were when this happens. 0:05:12.960 --> 0:05:19.240 We were twelve or thirteen, And I'm not sure if 0:05:19.240 --> 0:05:21.120 that makes the story better or worse. 0:05:21.560 --> 0:05:27.440 So how old are you, know, twenty one? If a 0:05:27.560 --> 0:05:32.800 similar incident happens at this current age, if you were 0:05:32.800 --> 0:05:35.240 with your friend and she shat in the lazy river 0:05:35.520 --> 0:05:38.640 and picked it up and threw it out, how would 0:05:38.680 --> 0:05:39.080 you react? 0:05:39.080 --> 0:05:49.200 Now, I don't think that I would shit next to 0:05:49.240 --> 0:05:52.240 the lazy River again. I think I would just get 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:54.560 off of her emotional support. 0:05:57.279 --> 0:05:59.440 Now, Okay, this is a friend that you've been friends 0:05:59.440 --> 0:06:02.360 with for many years at this point. But let's say you, 0:06:02.400 --> 0:06:05.880 as a twenty one year old, had a new friend 0:06:06.240 --> 0:06:09.640 that you've known for a relatively brief amount of time, 0:06:10.560 --> 0:06:13.359 and you went with them to the water park and 0:06:13.520 --> 0:06:17.120 they did the same thing. Would that change your relationship 0:06:17.120 --> 0:06:18.839 with them in any way or would you be very 0:06:18.920 --> 0:06:19.800 understanding about it. 0:06:23.000 --> 0:06:27.720 I would be shocked that it happened again. But I 0:06:27.800 --> 0:06:33.200 feel like I might think a little differently of them 0:06:33.440 --> 0:06:40.640 because they're not twelve or thirteen anymore. And maybe I 0:06:40.680 --> 0:06:43.920 mean if they had like a medical condition or something 0:06:44.000 --> 0:06:47.240 that caused them to do that, then obviously I wouldn't 0:06:47.600 --> 0:06:52.279 judge them, but like just doing it for ships and giggles. 0:06:51.680 --> 0:06:51.760 Like. 0:06:53.279 --> 0:06:57.360 Literally, I don't know, literally ships and giggles? 0:06:59.480 --> 0:07:00.480 Well, is their name? 0:07:00.480 --> 0:07:00.680 Once? 0:07:03.040 --> 0:07:04.360 Rad Rad? 0:07:04.839 --> 0:07:06.840 Anything else? Want? Side of the people read. 0:07:10.400 --> 0:07:13.800 I'm really sorry to whoever found the ship. I feel 0:07:13.800 --> 0:07:15.240 really bad if you're out there. 0:07:16.960 --> 0:07:20.000 Thank you for calling Brad the night you too. 0:07:20.120 --> 0:07:23.960 Bye, week goes on the line. 0:07:24.280 --> 0:07:27.600 Thank you every night ever goes. 0:07:28.480 --> 0:07:29.200 He's teaching you. 0:07:31.840 --> 0:07:32.119 Red. 0:07:37.800 --> 0:07:45.800 Hello, Anthony, Hello, Hi, thanks for having me. Well, I 0:07:45.800 --> 0:07:47.400 had to have that much, are you? 0:07:49.120 --> 0:07:49.679 That's true. 0:07:49.840 --> 0:07:50.760 I'm glad I have you. 0:07:51.200 --> 0:07:56.520 I'm glad I have you too. Sorry, Anthony, what's going on, man, dude? 0:07:56.520 --> 0:07:57.000 Not much? 0:07:57.480 --> 0:08:00.280 Just uh, I'm just happy for the weekend. I got 0:08:00.280 --> 0:08:04.840 some news today and I don't know how Yeah, I 0:08:04.840 --> 0:08:08.280 don't know how to take it. Like like my girlfriend, uh, 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:10.880 she told me that she kind of wants to bring 0:08:10.960 --> 0:08:12.760 like another female into the relationship. 0:08:13.240 --> 0:08:13.560 Mm hm. 0:08:15.720 --> 0:08:18.240 And I just don't know, Like it sounds really cool 0:08:18.280 --> 0:08:20.680 on paper, but I don't know if I can handle it. 0:08:22.120 --> 0:08:23.640 Why don't you think that you can handle it? 0:08:26.760 --> 0:08:26.920 Well? 0:08:26.960 --> 0:08:30.600 I think, like I think I might like I might 0:08:30.640 --> 0:08:33.240 just get like jealous that she might give this girl 0:08:33.320 --> 0:08:40.000 more attention mmm than she gives me M. And I 0:08:40.000 --> 0:08:42.040 don't know if I can take it m hmm. 0:08:43.320 --> 0:08:47.720 Okay, So when she told you that, when she brought 0:08:47.720 --> 0:08:50.720 this idea up to you, what did you first say 0:08:50.760 --> 0:08:52.560 to her. 0:08:54.120 --> 0:08:56.200 Well, I kind of just said, like, that's cool, like 0:08:57.440 --> 0:09:00.400 that sounds interesting. But as like time, when I like, 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:03.760 I just processed it, and I don't know, I think 0:09:05.000 --> 0:09:07.800 like I would just like jealousy would just creep up 0:09:08.800 --> 0:09:11.840 M And I don't know if that would be a 0:09:11.880 --> 0:09:13.120 good thing for the relationship. 0:09:13.880 --> 0:09:14.840 Okay, did you tell her this? 0:09:17.360 --> 0:09:17.760 I did. 0:09:18.000 --> 0:09:19.960 Yeah, our communication is pretty solid. 0:09:20.800 --> 0:09:24.800 That's good to hear. What did she say. 0:09:25.280 --> 0:09:29.360 She kind of just said, there's nothing really to worry about, 0:09:29.400 --> 0:09:31.520 and uh, we kind of just figured it out as 0:09:31.600 --> 0:09:31.920 we went. 0:09:32.840 --> 0:09:37.080 So okay, she said, she said, we'll figure it out 0:09:37.120 --> 0:09:38.600 as we go. That's what she said. 0:09:39.559 --> 0:09:41.360 Yeah, Yeah, it's kind of like, yeah, we'll just try 0:09:41.400 --> 0:09:42.960 it out and see what happened. 0:09:43.720 --> 0:09:46.680 Okay, all right, so are you what's what? How would 0:09:46.720 --> 0:09:50.680 you rate your comfortability level in just trying it out? 0:09:51.440 --> 0:09:56.360 I don't. I mean, yeah, sure, I'll give it a shot. Okay, 0:09:56.520 --> 0:10:00.520 but like without knowing what this person, I don't there's 0:10:00.520 --> 0:10:03.760 no person yet, so there's not much to worry about. 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:07.400 But like if it does like this, if it does happen, 0:10:07.559 --> 0:10:10.880 like I just don't know how it handled. Like what 0:10:10.920 --> 0:10:12.760 if this girl wanted me out of the picture. 0:10:12.840 --> 0:10:13.200 What if? 0:10:13.559 --> 0:10:16.280 Like there's so many variables that could just change everything, 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:19.360 and it's just like my anxiety is just through the roof. 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:31.439 This is a tough one because you know, if because 0:10:31.480 --> 0:10:35.400 I'm I'm not hearing from you that like you're anxious 0:10:35.480 --> 0:10:38.280 about it, but you're in You're like because like there's 0:10:38.320 --> 0:10:40.079 I feel like they're they're cand there. I feel like 0:10:40.120 --> 0:10:41.079 there can exist a. 0:10:42.960 --> 0:10:43.160 Fee. 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:46.800 I feel like there can exist a I feel like 0:10:46.880 --> 0:10:51.160 somewhere between fuck, yeah, I'm super into this, let's do it, 0:10:51.240 --> 0:10:53.839 and no, absolutely not. I feel like there can exist 0:10:53.880 --> 0:10:58.920 a legitimate emotion of I'm apprehensive but willing to try it. 0:10:59.840 --> 0:11:04.600 You know, Oh, yeah, but I don't, but I don't, 0:11:04.360 --> 0:11:07.200 I don't know, I don't, I don't know. We haven't 0:11:07.200 --> 0:11:09.200 talked for super long. But that's kind of not what 0:11:09.320 --> 0:11:11.920 I'm here. And and again, don't let me like influence 0:11:12.000 --> 0:11:14.640 your whatever thoughts about it. But that's kind of not 0:11:14.679 --> 0:11:17.880 what I'm hearing from you, Like like, Okay, I've heard 0:11:17.880 --> 0:11:20.360 about your anxieties, I've heard about your apprehensions, but like 0:11:22.200 --> 0:11:24.840 what tell me about tell me more about the other 0:11:24.960 --> 0:11:27.520 half of you that is that is into this, you 0:11:27.559 --> 0:11:30.720 know what I'm saying, Like, are you our part could 0:11:30.720 --> 0:11:32.360 be parts of this exciting to you? 0:11:34.240 --> 0:11:35.760 Sure of course? 0:11:36.080 --> 0:11:43.120 Okaye, absolutely, Okay, exciting enough that you're you're going to 0:11:43.840 --> 0:11:45.319 you know, I'm sorry, go ahead. 0:11:45.520 --> 0:11:47.600 Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, give it a go. 0:11:47.840 --> 0:11:48.120 Yeah. 0:11:48.440 --> 0:11:53.600 Sure. But there's there's a fear though that you know, uh, 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:57.600 just something like negative could happen out of this too, 0:11:57.800 --> 0:12:00.480 Like what we have is so great, So like I 0:12:00.520 --> 0:12:05.160 really don't know if I want to disturb it, I 0:12:05.200 --> 0:12:05.520 don't know. 0:12:06.200 --> 0:12:16.040 Mm hmm, well, I'll say, you know, ye, I don't know. Man, 0:12:16.040 --> 0:12:17.880 It sounds like you have a really good communication with 0:12:17.960 --> 0:12:20.600 your partner. And if that's the case, and if that 0:12:20.640 --> 0:12:25.440 remains the case, I feel like you don't have anything 0:12:25.480 --> 0:12:27.640 to worry about, you know, as long as you guys 0:12:27.640 --> 0:12:29.559 are keeping a good, good line of communication. 0:12:31.760 --> 0:12:34.600 Oh wow, I like that. Okay, yeah, dude, Yeah, I 0:12:34.600 --> 0:12:36.520 feel I feel a little bit better about it. Yeah, 0:12:36.600 --> 0:12:37.480 I feel pretty sure. 0:12:39.880 --> 0:12:41.319 Do you feel do you feel like you have the 0:12:42.840 --> 0:12:46.520 do you feel like you have the sexual skill to 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:48.000 please to women at once? 0:12:50.160 --> 0:12:51.000 Oh? Absolutely? 0:12:52.520 --> 0:12:54.000 Oh yes, of course. 0:12:54.160 --> 0:12:56.520 That's you know that, that's the confidence we like to hear. 0:12:57.760 --> 0:13:01.800 Yet try Yeah, I tried. I tried to reconfident. 0:13:02.400 --> 0:13:04.040 What what what was it you were gonna ask me? 0:13:07.280 --> 0:13:07.480 Oh? 0:13:07.960 --> 0:13:10.640 Nothing, I uh, I was good. I don't know. I'm 0:13:10.640 --> 0:13:12.520 just gonna ask you what your I don't know what 0:13:12.559 --> 0:13:20.199 your like? Favorite favorite food is just something random? 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:23.959 I like? Uh, I like chicken tenders not dipped in 0:13:24.040 --> 0:13:27.600 barbecue sauce, but tossed in it, where like the whole 0:13:27.679 --> 0:13:30.320 chicken tender is covered in barbecue sauce from the get go, 0:13:30.720 --> 0:13:32.240 and then you can and then you can dip it 0:13:32.280 --> 0:13:34.679 into a into some ranch or blue cheese. 0:13:36.160 --> 0:13:36.680 Comes rat. 0:13:38.640 --> 0:13:40.199 Thank you for calling, Anthony. I have a good rest 0:13:40.200 --> 0:13:47.440 of the night, Chelsea. Hello, what's up, shel How you doing? 0:13:47.480 --> 0:13:52.319 Doug laying in bed, Chelsea, Chelsea, Uh, would you want 0:13:52.320 --> 0:13:53.360 to talk about today? Hitman? 0:13:56.240 --> 0:13:56.640 I don't know. 0:13:56.720 --> 0:13:58.800 He asked if I had any like cool stories, and 0:13:58.880 --> 0:14:01.640 I thought of, like, I guess while I was waiting, 0:14:02.760 --> 0:14:06.000 but I'm gonna event photographer. I'm from Kansas. I mean, 0:14:06.000 --> 0:14:10.480 if you have any questions about Kansas, I probably could 0:14:10.520 --> 0:14:11.160 answer those. 0:14:11.600 --> 0:14:19.640 But I know all I need Kansas. You do you 0:14:19.840 --> 0:14:22.520 don't know a lot about Kansas, but definitely know enough 0:14:22.560 --> 0:14:27.360 about it. Yeah, not enough in a sufficient amount, but 0:14:27.480 --> 0:14:34.280 enough is in you know it's enough enough exactly? 0:14:34.560 --> 0:14:37.120 Yeah, split your I. 0:14:39.760 --> 0:14:40.880 Did well. 0:14:40.880 --> 0:14:42.960 I can't even like have a piece of like bone 0:14:43.040 --> 0:14:44.400 kind of like floating around. 0:14:46.000 --> 0:14:47.240 I take like. 0:14:47.800 --> 0:14:53.000 Photos that shows like live music shows, and uh, I 0:14:53.560 --> 0:14:56.200 got pushed from behind and like the barricade was only 0:14:56.320 --> 0:15:01.400 like three like three four into his loft, their ground. 0:15:01.400 --> 0:15:04.040 It's like a step basically onto the stage. And I 0:15:04.040 --> 0:15:08.680 got pushed from behind and my head got like went 0:15:08.760 --> 0:15:12.200 directly into the bass drum and I really cracked my 0:15:12.280 --> 0:15:16.920 head open. And I later got arrested that night for 0:15:17.520 --> 0:15:19.320 a dui, but I was not drunk. 0:15:19.360 --> 0:15:20.320 I had a concussion. 0:15:22.920 --> 0:15:28.320 So the influence they did let me go, Yeah, they 0:15:28.320 --> 0:15:32.840 did let me go, oh, well it's not. I mean, 0:15:32.880 --> 0:15:34.520 like they let me go back to my car and 0:15:34.560 --> 0:15:36.000 he told me I should go to the doctor. 0:15:36.040 --> 0:15:42.400 And I was like, yeah, how did they like. 0:15:44.960 --> 0:15:45.000 Me? 0:15:45.120 --> 0:15:47.960 Because he thought I was drunk. Yeah, he thought I 0:15:48.080 --> 0:15:51.440 was drunk because I was leaving the bar at taking 0:15:51.480 --> 0:15:56.560 photos and my my pupils like weren't dilating correctly and uh, 0:15:56.640 --> 0:15:59.160 you know, like I had fallen so like my knee 0:15:59.200 --> 0:16:02.040 was kind of injury. So he arrested me like on 0:16:02.080 --> 0:16:04.440 the field sobriety test. But when he took me back 0:16:04.440 --> 0:16:07.280 to the station and I like blew, he had me 0:16:07.320 --> 0:16:09.720 wait like fifteen minutes or something and had me blow 0:16:09.720 --> 0:16:12.680 into the machine and it turns out I was still 0:16:12.680 --> 0:16:15.320 not drunk, so he had to drive me back to 0:16:15.680 --> 0:16:18.640 where he arrested me, and I drove home. 0:16:20.680 --> 0:16:26.280 You were drunk on the I think the charge you 0:16:26.320 --> 0:16:27.520 were charged with the DUI. 0:16:29.440 --> 0:16:32.600 No, I was arrested for DUI was not charged with 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:33.240 the DUI. 0:16:36.400 --> 0:16:39.800 Yes, So can I ask you at any point in 0:16:39.920 --> 0:16:43.960 time did you tell the officer like I am not drunk, 0:16:43.960 --> 0:16:45.239 I just have a concussion. 0:16:45.840 --> 0:16:51.760 Yeah I did, yeah, absolutely, Like he was pulled me 0:16:51.800 --> 0:16:55.400 over like one block away and he was like, yeah, 0:16:55.720 --> 0:16:57.960 go ahead, but I really was not drunk. 0:16:58.960 --> 0:16:59.200 Yeah. 0:16:59.200 --> 0:17:01.840 He only pulled me over like a block away from 0:17:01.880 --> 0:17:07.040 the bar, and he just assumed that I had been drinking. 0:17:07.080 --> 0:17:09.200 And I told him that I was the event photographer 0:17:09.720 --> 0:17:12.760 for the local band at the bar and that I 0:17:12.800 --> 0:17:16.159 had hit my head, you know, like my eye was 0:17:16.240 --> 0:17:22.960 like obviously swollen, like I was bleeding, and he did not. 0:17:23.440 --> 0:17:24.280 He wasn't having it. 0:17:25.840 --> 0:17:27.960 So did you go to the hospital shortly after this 0:17:29.480 --> 0:17:29.840 as you were? 0:17:31.240 --> 0:17:34.560 I did not. 0:17:35.040 --> 0:17:41.360 I do not have health insurance, so I just rested. 0:17:43.320 --> 0:17:44.119 You rested? 0:17:46.280 --> 0:17:48.919 I yeah, well I just rested, you know, like laid around, 0:17:49.119 --> 0:17:51.720 drank water. I had my friend with me to make sure, 0:17:51.760 --> 0:17:52.920 like I was okay. 0:17:56.440 --> 0:17:58.320 Because your toilet your toilet, you're not supposed to go 0:17:58.400 --> 0:17:59.040 to sleep, I. 0:17:59.040 --> 0:18:04.280 Heard, Well, yeah, I know, but I was also, I 0:18:04.280 --> 0:18:06.080 mean I had to sleep. At some point I left 0:18:06.080 --> 0:18:07.320 the bar like one point thirty. 0:18:09.520 --> 0:18:11.280 Okay, So well, how do you know that you had. 0:18:11.760 --> 0:18:17.120 She's a good friend. Well, like my my pupils weren't dilated. 0:18:17.160 --> 0:18:19.440 I I did have to go to the hospital later 0:18:19.600 --> 0:18:22.080 at like some point, but not not immediately after. 0:18:24.280 --> 0:18:28.360 So you so you were like holding out to go 0:18:28.400 --> 0:18:29.600 to the hospital because you. 0:18:29.640 --> 0:18:31.879 I didn't think it was I didn't think it was 0:18:31.960 --> 0:18:35.600 that serious. I guess at the time I didn't. I 0:18:35.640 --> 0:18:38.240 definitely knew like I was stunned, but I didn't think 0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:42.639 it was worth going to the emergency room over so 0:18:42.800 --> 0:18:45.480 like once once, I I thought it was like a 0:18:45.520 --> 0:18:48.399 lot of makeup on my face as well, and in 0:18:48.600 --> 0:18:54.359 like eyeliner, but it was actually like my eye and 0:18:54.400 --> 0:18:56.879 like I had some like blood pooling and you know, 0:18:57.040 --> 0:19:01.080 like in my underneath my high and my my conjunc 0:19:01.119 --> 0:19:03.479 tiba which is like the white space all around your 0:19:03.520 --> 0:19:07.400 iris was all like bloodshot. And so I eventually did 0:19:07.440 --> 0:19:10.040 go to the doctor because I realized it was that 0:19:10.119 --> 0:19:13.879 was not makeup and it was pretty bad. But I 0:19:13.920 --> 0:19:16.480 went to like a walking clinic, not the emergency room. 0:19:17.760 --> 0:19:19.520 How long after you were injured did you go to 0:19:19.560 --> 0:19:20.000 the doctor. 0:19:22.520 --> 0:19:27.399 It was probably like, oh, gee, see my memory is 0:19:27.400 --> 0:19:31.959 a little shoddy. Why I wouldn't say it was it 0:19:32.000 --> 0:19:33.760 was less than two days? 0:19:36.119 --> 0:19:39.120 Okay? How much was how much was the bill when 0:19:39.160 --> 0:19:41.240 they eventually saw your head. 0:19:41.720 --> 0:19:45.320 Oh, I definitely did not pay any attention to it. 0:19:45.359 --> 0:19:49.840 I definitely did not pay it nice. I think I 0:19:49.880 --> 0:19:52.720 had to pay seventy five dollars to be seen. But 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:54.800 after that, you know, you like get a bill, and 0:19:54.880 --> 0:19:58.440 I don't have money for that. I'm a production specialist. 0:19:58.440 --> 0:20:00.879 I make all kinds of like a la and shit. 0:20:01.480 --> 0:20:04.000 I run a lot of machinery like power cutters and 0:20:06.040 --> 0:20:11.680 like I make like large books, printed materials, so I 0:20:11.840 --> 0:20:12.800 don't get paid a time. 0:20:13.400 --> 0:20:16.160 Well, you know, look, if you don't have health insurance, 0:20:16.160 --> 0:20:19.520 beat beat damn. Careful around that heavy machinery. 0:20:21.640 --> 0:20:24.520 Yeah, well I think, like you know, a work, I 0:20:24.560 --> 0:20:30.080 would get workmen's comps, So I'm definitely careful because it is, Uh, 0:20:30.240 --> 0:20:32.119 it is a little intimidating for sure. 0:20:35.720 --> 0:20:38.120 Would you say your name was Chelsea? 0:20:38.480 --> 0:20:38.840 Chelsea? 0:20:39.960 --> 0:20:42.280 I got a name, right, Chelsea, dude, thank you so 0:20:42.359 --> 0:20:46.240 much for sharing. And I hope your head feels better. 0:20:46.280 --> 0:20:47.200 How long ago is this. 0:20:50.720 --> 0:20:52.640 Probably like a maybe a year and a half. 0:20:52.720 --> 0:20:53.160 I'm good. 0:20:53.200 --> 0:20:53.960 I'm good for sure. 0:20:54.640 --> 0:20:58.480 I've definitely got better about standing. Yeah, about learning where 0:20:58.480 --> 0:21:00.760 to stand and where not to stand. Uh, because I 0:21:01.040 --> 0:21:04.399 did like scoot like her like kick drum back you 0:21:04.440 --> 0:21:07.280 know a little bit when I hit it with my head, 0:21:07.800 --> 0:21:13.919 So that was embarrassing too, like, so definitely a learning experience. 0:21:15.000 --> 0:21:18.120 Well, I'm glad it was a learning experience and think 0:21:18.160 --> 0:21:21.320 of sharing. Chelsea, You're welcome. 0:21:21.359 --> 0:21:22.440 Have a great night, loud. 0:21:24.080 --> 0:21:24.399 Joe? 0:21:24.560 --> 0:21:24.960 Is that you? 0:21:27.400 --> 0:21:27.960 Yeah, it's me. 0:21:28.840 --> 0:21:29.639 What's up Joe? 0:21:32.880 --> 0:21:36.800 Another whole lot in So was your night? 0:21:39.000 --> 0:21:42.600 Joe? Tell me everything? Tell me nothing, you know, go crazy, 0:21:44.920 --> 0:21:48.280 it's such, it's good nuts. 0:21:50.240 --> 0:21:50.400 Uh. 0:21:53.400 --> 0:21:58.479 Basically, Uh, I have a streamed relationship with my sister 0:22:00.640 --> 0:22:03.600 and the source of that well, it's been going on 0:22:03.640 --> 0:22:08.960 for a long time. But the nature of it is 0:22:09.000 --> 0:22:22.199 she kind of disagrees with my chosen procession, and you know, 0:22:22.359 --> 0:22:26.639 I think it kind of spills over from our parents 0:22:26.680 --> 0:22:30.200 a little bit, who also are not too enthused sometimes, 0:22:30.240 --> 0:22:32.240 but I think they've kind of come to peace with it. 0:22:33.920 --> 0:22:39.200 But I think she still kind of holds a grudge 0:22:39.240 --> 0:22:44.720 over it, and I'm just trying to figure out how 0:22:44.760 --> 0:22:46.320 to navigate it sometimes. 0:22:47.280 --> 0:22:50.160 Why do you think she has a problem with your profession? 0:22:56.000 --> 0:22:58.840 You know, I guess from her perspective, there's a moral 0:22:58.920 --> 0:23:05.320 dimension to it that a lot of people have a 0:23:05.359 --> 0:23:08.439 problem or some people I don't know. 0:23:09.960 --> 0:23:14.800 And yet you're how long have you been in this profession? 0:23:18.000 --> 0:23:19.520 Oh? 0:23:20.000 --> 0:23:23.920 Well, as an amateur, you know, I started. I guess 0:23:23.920 --> 0:23:26.720 when I was fifteen or sixteen, but as a paid 0:23:26.760 --> 0:23:35.119 professional I started in my early twenties, so for about 0:23:36.200 --> 0:23:37.480 nine ten years now. 0:23:38.720 --> 0:23:44.600 And you told me that your parents initially were shared 0:23:44.720 --> 0:23:47.120 your sister's sentiment and they weren't into it. But they've 0:23:47.160 --> 0:23:51.040 since come around. 0:23:51.080 --> 0:23:53.520 I wouldn't say they came around, but they kind of, 0:23:55.080 --> 0:23:56.879 you know, they made their peace with us. 0:23:57.240 --> 0:23:59.080 Okay, they're not happling n truly. 0:24:00.520 --> 0:24:03.960 Yeah, yeah, yeah. They haven't asked about it in a 0:24:04.000 --> 0:24:07.040 long time, and so I take that as a kind 0:24:07.040 --> 0:24:11.600 of an indicator that they're you know, that they've come 0:24:11.640 --> 0:24:13.720 to their own form of acceptance with that, and I 0:24:14.080 --> 0:24:18.040 appreciate that. I guess, you know, I certainly don't want 0:24:18.080 --> 0:24:20.520 to upset the Apple card on it or anything. It's 0:24:20.560 --> 0:24:23.560 not something I'm going to bring up. It's maybe in 0:24:23.560 --> 0:24:25.919 the back of their minds at times, you know, but 0:24:25.960 --> 0:24:32.560 my sister is much more overt and sort of letting 0:24:32.600 --> 0:24:34.280 me know how she feels. 0:24:35.840 --> 0:24:37.959 Okay, what do you think about what you do? 0:24:44.160 --> 0:24:50.480 Well? At times, it's fun, it's rewarding. At other times 0:24:50.520 --> 0:24:55.119 I can understand their perspective. You know, it can get messy, 0:24:56.080 --> 0:25:06.240 can get a little interesting, unique, uh varied. You know, 0:25:06.680 --> 0:25:13.000 the conditions are a little uh, you know, they involve 0:25:15.920 --> 0:25:18.200 you know, I'm trying to be opaque here to sort of. 0:25:21.880 --> 0:25:22.280 Uh. 0:25:22.320 --> 0:25:27.640 It involves a lot of substances, a lot a lot 0:25:27.680 --> 0:25:36.359 of substances, okay, and so that kind of uh uh, 0:25:36.520 --> 0:25:42.679 that can get a little weird, I know, but I've 0:25:42.680 --> 0:25:44.680 built up a tolerance for it. You know, I can, 0:25:44.720 --> 0:25:47.400 really I can. I do well in that environment. 0:25:47.440 --> 0:25:54.160 Now, let me ask you. This is a two part, 0:25:54.280 --> 0:25:59.600 two prong question. I'm curious about do you think do 0:25:59.640 --> 0:26:03.720 you think that what you do helps people? And then 0:26:03.760 --> 0:26:06.919 prong too, does it even matter to you if what 0:26:06.960 --> 0:26:07.960 you do helps people? 0:26:10.680 --> 0:26:10.880 Well? 0:26:11.240 --> 0:26:17.119 I think it helps people in some sense, you know, 0:26:17.200 --> 0:26:22.919 in a very physiological sense. I help people, you know, 0:26:23.119 --> 0:26:27.720 And I'm very well of what I do, especially in 0:26:27.840 --> 0:26:36.080 terms of producing the finished product. You know, I'm good 0:26:36.080 --> 0:26:36.960 at getting where. 0:26:36.760 --> 0:26:42.560 We need to go, okay, And so I think in 0:26:42.600 --> 0:26:46.840 that sense, you know, the people that I work with 0:26:47.440 --> 0:26:51.560 to produce what I produce are satisfied with that result, 0:26:52.680 --> 0:26:54.560 and so I think I bring joy. 0:26:55.880 --> 0:27:02.280 To people in that process. Was the second part of 0:27:02.320 --> 0:27:03.119 the question. 0:27:03.320 --> 0:27:05.119 Oh well, the second part of the question was, you know, 0:27:05.200 --> 0:27:07.119 is it important to you that what you do helps people, 0:27:07.160 --> 0:27:09.080 and it doesn't fucking have to be you know, no 0:27:09.119 --> 0:27:12.119 one's that literally doesn't matter at all. But I'm just 0:27:12.160 --> 0:27:14.000 curious if if that is important to you? 0:27:17.000 --> 0:27:21.040 Uh, you know, I I think so if I if 0:27:21.080 --> 0:27:24.679 I didn't do it well, I feel kind of unsatisfied. 0:27:25.520 --> 0:27:28.639 You know, if if I got the sense that the 0:27:28.640 --> 0:27:34.560 people I was doing the work with weren't weren't also happy, 0:27:34.680 --> 0:27:36.800 I think I would feel kind of like I didn't 0:27:36.800 --> 0:27:40.840 do my job well. So for me, yeah, it's really important. 0:27:41.800 --> 0:27:48.440 Are okay? Now, your sister, I wanted to ask you 0:27:48.480 --> 0:27:50.719 if you felt like your sister's opinion is important to you, 0:27:50.800 --> 0:27:53.240 And I feel like the fact that you even called 0:27:53.280 --> 0:27:57.040 to talk about this indicates that to some level it is. 0:27:57.240 --> 0:28:02.720 But I'm curious, like to what extent your senysor's opinion 0:28:02.800 --> 0:28:03.920 is genuinely important too. 0:28:06.040 --> 0:28:12.800 Well, it's important because it's important actually because sometimes she's 0:28:12.840 --> 0:28:22.760 a consumer of what I produce, and so that's actually 0:28:22.840 --> 0:28:24.000 kind of a weird dynamic. 0:28:29.359 --> 0:28:31.480 She's a consumer of what you know. Does she purchase 0:28:31.520 --> 0:28:35.360 what you produce directly from you? 0:28:35.400 --> 0:28:39.480 No? No, it's through a vendor, usually on the internet. 0:28:40.080 --> 0:28:45.560 Okay, interesting, So she purchases what it is you produce, 0:28:46.000 --> 0:28:48.200 but she does not approve of you producing it. 0:28:50.240 --> 0:28:55.000 That's correct. Yeah, that's my sense anyway. Yeah, And I 0:28:55.040 --> 0:28:58.200 don't know if it's like, you know, because I know 0:28:58.280 --> 0:29:03.200 that she's probably watched or sorry, has consumed some of 0:29:03.240 --> 0:29:10.239 the products that I've produced and and particularly you know, 0:29:10.320 --> 0:29:14.320 some of the products that have included me, like prolifically. 0:29:16.280 --> 0:29:19.240 And I don't know if her disapproval kind of stems 0:29:19.280 --> 0:29:21.840 from a result. 0:29:21.560 --> 0:29:23.960 Of, you know, me. 0:29:25.680 --> 0:29:29.920 Not doing well in the product or something like if 0:29:29.960 --> 0:29:33.560 it's my lack of if it's like a critique of 0:29:33.600 --> 0:29:38.880 my performance in that product, or if it's just like 0:29:38.960 --> 0:29:42.120 an overall discussed. 0:29:43.160 --> 0:29:43.360 You know. 0:29:43.560 --> 0:29:46.240 But sometimes I think it's the former, because she's very 0:29:49.480 --> 0:29:54.720 she's very adamant about that, you know, and she sometimes 0:29:54.760 --> 0:30:03.080 she gets quite detailed in describing the product and what 0:30:03.240 --> 0:30:06.640 she doesn't like about it, and it puts me in 0:30:06.640 --> 0:30:09.840 a very uncomfortable position because of the nature of my work. 0:30:10.720 --> 0:30:23.120 Mm hmm. So do you you know there's this thing 0:30:23.320 --> 0:30:27.280 where like, how often do you even see your sister, 0:30:27.680 --> 0:30:30.560 Does she like live with you, does she live in 0:30:30.600 --> 0:30:32.880 the same city as you? How often even around her? 0:30:34.400 --> 0:30:36.720 Yeah, Yeah, we're we're in the same neighborhood in California. 0:30:36.800 --> 0:30:40.080 It's over like a couple of blocks. 0:30:39.800 --> 0:30:44.680 Apart, you know, because you know, I mean, no, go ahead, 0:30:46.440 --> 0:30:46.720 Well what. 0:30:46.800 --> 0:30:48.719 We text often too, you know, we have like an 0:30:48.760 --> 0:30:54.280 open an open uh messenger throughout or whatever. 0:30:54.560 --> 0:30:58.480 So because you know, I mean, you can love your sister, 0:30:58.560 --> 0:31:00.800 and you can like your sister, you can be friendly 0:31:00.800 --> 0:31:04.120 with your sister. But if but at the same time, 0:31:05.280 --> 0:31:09.160 you know, if every time you or often when you're 0:31:09.160 --> 0:31:11.240 interacting with her, she just makes you just walk away 0:31:11.280 --> 0:31:15.080 feeling bad, then I think it's okay for you to 0:31:15.200 --> 0:31:19.080 sort of slowly, like you know, diminish the amount of 0:31:19.080 --> 0:31:22.520 contact that you have with her without like you know, 0:31:22.640 --> 0:31:25.080 damaging the relationship, if only because you want to feel 0:31:25.080 --> 0:31:26.360 bad less. 0:31:27.960 --> 0:31:30.360 Yeah, well, I mean another wrinkle to this too is 0:31:30.720 --> 0:31:34.520 like I agree with that, but you know, in my 0:31:34.600 --> 0:31:37.360 line of work, like there's a really there's actually a 0:31:37.360 --> 0:31:41.080 lot of room for career progression, and I'm kind of 0:31:41.120 --> 0:31:44.160 moving into some different realms in terms of some of 0:31:44.200 --> 0:31:50.480 the products I'm producing, and they're becoming increasingly complex and 0:31:50.640 --> 0:31:56.959 varied and very very physically demanding work. And not just 0:31:57.040 --> 0:32:01.120 like with respect to like physical endurance, but with respect 0:32:01.200 --> 0:32:10.000 to a tolerance or a different uh types of instruments. 0:32:10.240 --> 0:32:14.680 I guess put it that way, you know. And so 0:32:15.480 --> 0:32:21.240 I know that she also uh consumes those products. And 0:32:21.320 --> 0:32:24.960 so it's like, by virtue of me expanding into my roles, 0:32:25.440 --> 0:32:29.640 into the into my career, uh, you know, there's a 0:32:29.720 --> 0:32:34.600 chance that I might expose myself to even more critique. 0:32:36.600 --> 0:32:38.760 And so it kind of becomes a question for me. 0:32:38.840 --> 0:32:39.680 I guess of. 0:32:41.040 --> 0:32:42.760 You know, how much longer do I want to put 0:32:42.840 --> 0:32:44.880 up with with that? Do it? Do I need to 0:32:44.880 --> 0:32:49.440 cut off the relationship or not? You know, but it's 0:32:49.480 --> 0:32:50.560 just a tough situation. 0:32:51.280 --> 0:32:55.760 Have you told her directly, hey, you know, I love you, 0:32:55.760 --> 0:32:58.840 You're my sister, but I don't want to hear it 0:32:58.880 --> 0:33:05.200 from you anymore about this it. 0:33:05.760 --> 0:33:08.160 No, I haven't been that open. No, it's been really 0:33:08.240 --> 0:33:10.959 kind of a couched a coach. Because the other thing, 0:33:11.000 --> 0:33:15.120 too is I actually here's a you know, I'm sorry 0:33:15.120 --> 0:33:19.440 to keep adding to the complexity that I kind of 0:33:20.040 --> 0:33:27.240 I appreciate that she consumes my products. I think there's 0:33:27.240 --> 0:33:31.239 something to there's something to the critique that like I 0:33:31.240 --> 0:33:35.680 find comfort in because I know that she's watching my 0:33:35.800 --> 0:33:43.480 video or consuming my products, you know, Like I appreciate 0:33:43.520 --> 0:33:47.280 that there's people that are that are appreciate you watching 0:33:47.440 --> 0:33:49.480 my seat. 0:33:49.480 --> 0:33:49.800 Thank you. 0:33:49.840 --> 0:33:54.200 I appreciate, yes, appreciate my work, you know. 0:33:55.720 --> 0:34:02.160 M hm well Man. You know, I think that the 0:34:03.720 --> 0:34:05.120 and you know, we've all had to sort of do 0:34:05.160 --> 0:34:09.040 something like this. I think that being sort of direct 0:34:09.040 --> 0:34:10.799 with your sister because look, dude, you know, if you're 0:34:10.800 --> 0:34:14.279 not telling her that something she's doing or saying is 0:34:14.320 --> 0:34:17.840 bothering you, she might not even know, you know. So 0:34:18.200 --> 0:34:20.680 I think that if you want this to stop, that's 0:34:20.719 --> 0:34:25.560 the number one initial way to go about it. It's 0:34:25.640 --> 0:34:28.560 just by letting her know that this is bothering you. 0:34:32.960 --> 0:34:35.280 Yeah, that's a good point. I think being direct and open, 0:34:36.160 --> 0:34:37.920 I mean, that's certainly a value I have in my 0:34:38.080 --> 0:34:40.799 mind of work. Like it's a very it's a very 0:34:40.840 --> 0:34:43.719 exposed setting. So I don't know why I have such 0:34:43.719 --> 0:34:46.719 a problem with that, like with respect to my internal emotions, 0:34:47.400 --> 0:34:50.879 because I certainly don't have an issue, you know, being 0:34:50.920 --> 0:34:55.160 that open in other settings with other parts of myself, 0:34:55.840 --> 0:34:59.759 you know. So I don't know, there's kind of a 0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:02.160 weird conflict there, I guess. 0:35:02.160 --> 0:35:08.200 Hm, well Man, would you say name was Joe Joe 0:35:08.719 --> 0:35:10.439 well John Man? Look, I wish you're the best of luck. 0:35:10.480 --> 0:35:13.520 I hope that you know, I hope, I hope you 0:35:13.520 --> 0:35:15.520 do end up you know, letting your sister know how 0:35:15.520 --> 0:35:17.400 you feel. And I appreciate you sharing. 0:35:20.239 --> 0:35:23.040 Well. 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Any car else I will be upset or 0:36:18.680 --> 0:36:20.880 and I will wind and have a tantrum if I 0:36:20.920 --> 0:36:22.480 do not get a free car. 0:36:23.239 --> 0:36:23.840 Do you mind? 0:36:23.840 --> 0:36:25.160 And what kind of car it is? 0:36:26.200 --> 0:36:26.640 Free? One? 0:36:28.680 --> 0:36:28.960 Okay? 0:36:29.000 --> 0:36:31.000 Because the one I have a free you may not. 0:36:30.960 --> 0:36:32.560 Have all the wheels. 0:36:33.600 --> 0:36:34.600 I want it to be blue. 0:36:35.840 --> 0:36:36.560 Oh blue. 0:36:37.719 --> 0:36:41.080 I don't know they get those Joe blue cars per second. 0:36:42.719 --> 0:36:43.239 I want it. 0:36:46.360 --> 0:36:47.480 Well, it is so surreal. 0:36:47.560 --> 0:36:49.640 Like I called earlier and I had your voicemail and 0:36:49.680 --> 0:36:52.440 I left the voice message, I'm just getting off for it. 0:36:52.880 --> 0:36:54.440 And I'm struggling with my dog right now. 0:36:54.600 --> 0:37:01.000 Now, come on, what's up? Man? Tell me everything? Tell 0:37:01.040 --> 0:37:04.080 me nothing, Tell me gecko, you're a guy. We're in 0:37:04.080 --> 0:37:09.560 the forest. Nothing matters. Some things, I don't know who cares? 0:37:09.680 --> 0:37:12.360 Who cares what I have to say? What's up? Fame Otto? 0:37:12.400 --> 0:37:14.719 Have you ever lied to anyone that you love? 0:37:16.000 --> 0:37:16.640 Yes? I have? 0:37:17.239 --> 0:37:17.920 Tell me about it? 0:37:19.840 --> 0:37:21.840 Which one I've writ multiple times? 0:37:22.480 --> 0:37:23.800 Given the most recent time. 0:37:25.000 --> 0:37:27.920 Most recent to Oh my wife said did you leave 0:37:27.960 --> 0:37:30.279 the door open on the refrigerator? And I said no, 0:37:30.840 --> 0:37:32.719 it was clear to me. And I said, I think 0:37:32.760 --> 0:37:34.920 you went out there to go get some cakes. And 0:37:35.000 --> 0:37:37.440 she said, oh, I thought I closed it. I did, 0:37:37.480 --> 0:37:38.279 and he just did open. 0:37:40.080 --> 0:37:41.240 It's called gas lighting. 0:37:43.600 --> 0:37:48.799 Well I lied, like probably a little bit of both. 0:37:50.520 --> 0:37:53.200 Is gaslighting and lying that the same thing? Or are 0:37:53.239 --> 0:37:54.799 they different things? 0:37:58.400 --> 0:38:01.520 Mm hmm. I think it's depends on the context of 0:38:01.560 --> 0:38:02.160 the situation. 0:38:03.239 --> 0:38:05.440 Why now I can ask why you? Uh? Why did 0:38:05.440 --> 0:38:06.080 you lie about that? 0:38:07.239 --> 0:38:09.399 Because I was I was sitting, I had just sat 0:38:09.480 --> 0:38:13.839 down and I got comfortable and I did not want 0:38:13.840 --> 0:38:14.560 to get up again? 0:38:16.840 --> 0:38:18.239 Was it worth it to lie? 0:38:20.760 --> 0:38:22.440 Thinking back about it, now, you know. 0:38:25.360 --> 0:38:25.719 You sure? 0:38:28.640 --> 0:38:30.440 Okay? Uh? 0:38:32.400 --> 0:38:34.520 Yeah, because I guess I think she knew was lying, 0:38:34.680 --> 0:38:38.000 but she just let it slide. And I used one 0:38:38.040 --> 0:38:42.000 of those free like lying cards on the refrigerator door. 0:38:42.320 --> 0:38:44.600 I don't know, I'm gonna look at the pros and 0:38:44.680 --> 0:38:47.120 the concert. The pros. You didn't have to get up 0:38:47.120 --> 0:38:48.399 to close the refrigerator door. 0:38:49.880 --> 0:38:51.480 True, I didn't have to give up my seat because 0:38:51.520 --> 0:38:53.120 she wanted that. See too. I know, I know it 0:38:53.320 --> 0:38:54.720 was like she was gonna take. 0:38:56.120 --> 0:39:03.000 The cons H help me out here. Uh. 0:39:03.120 --> 0:39:07.080 The cons is that, uh, I can't use that lie 0:39:07.120 --> 0:39:09.799 again the times. Probably she's gonna catch up onto it. 0:39:12.280 --> 0:39:14.240 Then I'll feel guilty because. 0:39:17.840 --> 0:39:20.320 Let's see another lie that's. 0:39:20.120 --> 0:39:22.879 Not even I mean, look, I'm sure, but luck man, 0:39:23.320 --> 0:39:24.720 you'll come up with more lies. 0:39:26.719 --> 0:39:31.440 Yeah, all right, so one, you're not. 0:39:31.400 --> 0:39:33.160 Limited to just that one lie. So I don't think 0:39:33.200 --> 0:39:35.719 the fact that you're burning a line that one was 0:39:35.800 --> 0:39:39.439 not bad. You can use the lie again. I don't 0:39:39.440 --> 0:39:40.880 see why you can't use that lie again. 0:39:43.120 --> 0:39:44.880 True, But it's. 0:39:44.760 --> 0:39:47.040 Coming to the point where, like my wife and I 0:39:47.239 --> 0:39:50.200 move each other pretty well, so she knows when I'm 0:39:50.239 --> 0:39:52.120 lying and I know when she's lying. So I have 0:39:52.239 --> 0:39:55.200 to get more created. They guess and I don't want 0:39:55.239 --> 0:39:56.359 to m hm. 0:39:59.800 --> 0:40:02.080 Uh. Do you who lies more. 0:40:04.160 --> 0:40:05.080 As in men or women? 0:40:05.840 --> 0:40:07.920 No, between you and your wife? 0:40:08.440 --> 0:40:10.120 Oh, definitely me hands down. 0:40:12.320 --> 0:40:17.040 What what's the ratio like how for every like is 0:40:17.040 --> 0:40:19.479 it like for every one of her lies? For every 0:40:19.520 --> 0:40:21.879 time she lies? How many? How many? How many lies 0:40:21.920 --> 0:40:23.759 do you have? What's the ratio of her lies to 0:40:23.800 --> 0:40:24.720 your lives? 0:40:26.040 --> 0:40:28.399 I think for every night that she does, I would 0:40:28.440 --> 0:40:30.400 say probably do like six or seven. 0:40:31.000 --> 0:40:31.320 Maybe. 0:40:31.440 --> 0:40:33.840 Really that's a lot of lies. 0:40:34.680 --> 0:40:35.000 All right? 0:40:35.040 --> 0:40:36.799 Tell me tell me you were Tell me all right, 0:40:36.800 --> 0:40:38.320 so you had the frigera? What was it? What's another 0:40:38.360 --> 0:40:39.520 lie that you've told your wife? 0:40:41.280 --> 0:40:44.960 Another lie? I told my wife? It's mostly you about 0:40:45.000 --> 0:40:47.839 me being irresponsible. Honestly. She tells me like, oh, make 0:40:47.880 --> 0:40:50.600 sure you do a laundry before you know. We go 0:40:50.680 --> 0:40:52.520 out into stuff, and I'm like, oh, yeah, for sure, 0:40:52.520 --> 0:40:58.879 I'm gonna good tonight, and surprise, I'm good tonight. Does 0:40:58.920 --> 0:40:59.360 that count? 0:41:00.440 --> 0:41:01.120 Say that again? 0:41:02.520 --> 0:41:02.879 All right? 0:41:02.920 --> 0:41:06.960 So we alternately doing laundry, right, yeah, And when she 0:41:07.040 --> 0:41:09.640 says she's gonna do it, she's like, I'm gonna do 0:41:09.640 --> 0:41:12.799 the laundry tonight. Boom she does it. And then she said, oh, 0:41:13.000 --> 0:41:14.759 you just trying to do the laundry. 0:41:14.960 --> 0:41:15.239 Do it. 0:41:15.360 --> 0:41:17.719 I'm like, oh yeah, I'm gonna do it tomorrow at 0:41:17.760 --> 0:41:19.719 this time, and then I don't do it. 0:41:22.840 --> 0:41:28.920 Okay, So pros you don't have to do the laundry. 0:41:29.920 --> 0:41:36.840 Consh my suppose answer. 0:41:37.120 --> 0:41:41.200 Okay, I guess I get I get to wear gerty 0:41:41.280 --> 0:41:44.319 laundry or I don't have things to wear. 0:41:46.640 --> 0:41:48.640 Look, what's your name again? 0:41:50.080 --> 0:41:50.680 Oh my name? 0:41:50.960 --> 0:41:54.560 My name is Farid s A R I d Red. 0:41:56.120 --> 0:41:58.280 Yeah for read it's I mean, it sounds like lying 0:41:58.320 --> 0:41:59.680 has worked out very well for you. 0:42:01.960 --> 0:42:07.120 Actually that is a pro. Yeah, you know, yeah, but 0:42:07.560 --> 0:42:10.600 I don't like to tell people here make sure you lie, 0:42:11.080 --> 0:42:15.480 because then it sounds like you are just taking advantage 0:42:15.480 --> 0:42:19.000 of someone, and that's not that's not that's not. 0:42:19.040 --> 0:42:19.560 Nice at all. 0:42:20.480 --> 0:42:23.560 I think people should be genuinely. 0:42:24.560 --> 0:42:25.520 True and. 0:42:28.000 --> 0:42:28.600 To each other. 0:42:28.640 --> 0:42:34.279 And yeah, yeah, but you could also just lie and 0:42:34.960 --> 0:42:36.279 get whatever you want all the time. 0:42:40.880 --> 0:42:41.160 Yeah. 0:42:41.320 --> 0:42:51.920 Well, I guess so have you liked? No, perfect, You're hired, 0:42:52.280 --> 0:42:53.160 Welcome aboard. 0:42:54.719 --> 0:42:56.680 Happy to be here. Thank you so much for calling. 0:42:56.800 --> 0:43:01.880 Uh say say your name again, buddy said, thank you 0:43:01.920 --> 0:43:03.600 for sure, have a good rest that thank you. 0:43:03.800 --> 0:43:09.200 Congratulations fall from Rebecca. 0:43:10.360 --> 0:43:14.359 Rebecca Hello, what's up, dude? 0:43:15.880 --> 0:43:19.160 That's a much I've just been hanging out Rebecca. 0:43:20.080 --> 0:43:21.440 Yeah, what do you believe? 0:43:25.320 --> 0:43:29.799 Okay, I was like deciding between two different options that 0:43:29.880 --> 0:43:32.400 I think I know that I will talk about. Basically, 0:43:34.800 --> 0:43:38.879 I've always had this weird like conflict at the back 0:43:38.920 --> 0:43:42.600 of my mind that I've like depressed over the years 0:43:42.880 --> 0:43:48.960 where I think that like every person I come into 0:43:49.080 --> 0:43:52.440 contact to is like low key obsessed with me. 0:43:54.120 --> 0:43:54.839 But it's like. 0:43:56.280 --> 0:43:58.680 Weird because I also don't like myself. 0:43:58.960 --> 0:44:01.239 Yeah, I have this good things going on where I 0:44:01.320 --> 0:44:05.680 think everyone I meet likes me immediately. It could be 0:44:05.719 --> 0:44:10.760 like romantically or platonically, it depends on the person. 0:44:13.440 --> 0:44:17.080 And how long have you believed this? This has been 0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:19.160 something that's been uh. 0:44:19.840 --> 0:44:21.160 Like elementary school. 0:44:21.320 --> 0:44:27.000 Yeah, And what is it that makes you believe that 0:44:28.000 --> 0:44:29.040 people are obsessed with you? 0:44:31.800 --> 0:44:36.640 I would guess just because I don't know, Like, I 0:44:37.120 --> 0:44:39.600 think it's just an inner wants for everyone to be 0:44:40.880 --> 0:44:44.840 either just even just basically just like me in general, 0:44:44.960 --> 0:44:47.040 Like I find that to be my usual goal with 0:44:47.280 --> 0:44:48.160 new people I meet. 0:44:50.400 --> 0:44:55.359 So, do you think that people are obsessed with you 0:44:55.440 --> 0:44:58.920 as a result of an intentional effort on your behalf 0:44:59.000 --> 0:45:05.400 to get them to be obsessed with you. I think it. 0:45:07.880 --> 0:45:11.399 Could be like a no upfort thing, or it takes 0:45:11.400 --> 0:45:15.400 a lot of effort, depending on the person. Usually just 0:45:15.480 --> 0:45:18.560 like in the back of my head, I go, okay, 0:45:18.600 --> 0:45:22.160 I think I did it with this one. 0:45:24.440 --> 0:45:27.680 And how does it make you feel that people are 0:45:27.719 --> 0:45:28.279 obsessed with you? 0:45:30.920 --> 0:45:33.840 I don't like that. I think that people are obsessed 0:45:33.840 --> 0:45:36.520 with me. I think it's a very narcissistic type of 0:45:36.520 --> 0:45:40.080 thing to think about, and that vibe like suppressed it 0:45:41.160 --> 0:45:44.279 all the time, and like, the only first I ever 0:45:44.320 --> 0:45:47.040 talked about it, she is like my best friend. So 0:45:47.080 --> 0:45:50.399 it's kind of like flustering to just suddenly talk about 0:45:50.400 --> 0:45:50.719 it here. 0:45:50.800 --> 0:45:54.719 But okay, when you told well, when you told your 0:45:54.760 --> 0:45:57.759 best friend about this whole thing, what did they say? 0:46:00.000 --> 0:46:03.680 It's like, well, I mean look at you, you know, 0:46:03.840 --> 0:46:05.520 like she supported. 0:46:08.560 --> 0:46:08.600 M. 0:46:10.400 --> 0:46:12.359 I feel like if I told anyone else though, they'd 0:46:12.360 --> 0:46:14.560 be like anyways. 0:46:14.640 --> 0:46:21.520 So you know, so you kind of got two things 0:46:21.560 --> 0:46:25.800 going on where you like feel like you think everyone 0:46:25.840 --> 0:46:27.719 is obsessed with you and you don't like that you 0:46:27.760 --> 0:46:34.439 think that, But then also you said that you want 0:46:34.480 --> 0:46:35.719 everyone to be obsessed with you. 0:46:37.120 --> 0:46:43.000 Yeah, it's like a very angel devil type feel why 0:46:43.040 --> 0:46:43.880 do you want people. 0:46:43.680 --> 0:46:44.400 To be obsessed with you? 0:46:47.600 --> 0:46:52.080 I think just it's because it's like easier that way. 0:46:52.640 --> 0:46:53.840 Why do you think it's easier? 0:46:55.520 --> 0:46:57.640 Like, for example, I was one of those kids who 0:46:57.719 --> 0:46:59.960 always like tried really hard to be the teacher's pet 0:47:00.440 --> 0:47:03.960 m just because I found that if you've made the 0:47:04.000 --> 0:47:08.680 teacher like you usually got off like with like quote 0:47:08.800 --> 0:47:13.960 mistakes a lot easier than people that you know they 0:47:14.000 --> 0:47:16.120 weren't like either the teacher didn't know very well or 0:47:16.320 --> 0:47:18.480 the teacher full of don't like, full. 0:47:18.360 --> 0:47:18.920 Out don't like. 0:47:20.320 --> 0:47:22.680 So like I would just like intentionally not do an 0:47:22.680 --> 0:47:24.719 assignment every once in a while just because they didn't 0:47:24.719 --> 0:47:27.120 want you, and the teacher would like be like, oh okay, 0:47:27.160 --> 0:47:29.160 it's fine, like you've never done it before. 0:47:29.280 --> 0:47:29.719 You're good. 0:47:29.960 --> 0:47:31.000 I feel like cool. 0:47:31.640 --> 0:47:34.040 So you think life is easier. You feel like life 0:47:34.080 --> 0:47:39.960 is easier when people not just like you you're saying, or 0:47:40.080 --> 0:47:40.880 obsessed with you. 0:47:42.840 --> 0:47:46.200 Yeah, like most of the time, that's what you know. 0:47:47.239 --> 0:47:49.080 The weird part of me wants to think. 0:47:51.160 --> 0:47:54.640 Well, because you know, I'll tell you. Would you say 0:47:54.640 --> 0:47:55.120 your name once? 0:47:56.360 --> 0:47:56.840 Rebecca? 0:47:57.520 --> 0:48:00.680 Rebecca? I feel like life would be easy for you 0:48:00.880 --> 0:48:04.520 not if everyone liked you, because that's it's impossible to 0:48:04.520 --> 0:48:07.520 get everyone to like you, you know where I feel 0:48:07.560 --> 0:48:11.880 like your life would be easier if you just didn't 0:48:11.880 --> 0:48:15.839 care what people thought of you at all. And while 0:48:15.880 --> 0:48:20.799 your friend who tells you like, you know, it's true 0:48:20.800 --> 0:48:23.480 people are obsessed with you, I think has good intentions. 0:48:24.040 --> 0:48:27.399 I think it's important. I think it's important for you 0:48:27.600 --> 0:48:33.799 that like your self esteem comes from a place of 0:48:34.719 --> 0:48:40.840 within and not from everyone else liking you. Does that 0:48:40.920 --> 0:48:43.279 make sense because if it comes from everyone else liking you, 0:48:44.560 --> 0:48:49.880 then yeah, and you've got to try to grow a 0:48:49.920 --> 0:48:58.480 sense of validation from within yourself, you know, because it's 0:48:58.920 --> 0:49:01.600 you know, I know you say it like is easier, 0:49:01.640 --> 0:49:03.239 but it sounds like this is something that is like 0:49:05.200 --> 0:49:08.560 bothering you a lot, this whole game of like wanting 0:49:08.560 --> 0:49:10.360 people to be obsessed with you, thinking people are obsessed 0:49:10.360 --> 0:49:14.759 with you, and it's okay to like like yourself and 0:49:14.880 --> 0:49:18.839 like think that you're great, you know, but you should 0:49:18.880 --> 0:49:20.840 you should be able to and it's and it's hard. No, 0:49:20.960 --> 0:49:24.879 I'm I haven't gotten there. It's like an ever ongoing 0:49:24.960 --> 0:49:28.200 process that a lot of you know that that takes 0:49:28.200 --> 0:49:31.080 a while to get to. But uh, you know, you 0:49:31.160 --> 0:49:33.200 kind of got to start traveling down the path of 0:49:33.320 --> 0:49:37.839 building building that validation from within so that you can 0:49:37.960 --> 0:49:40.640 like yourself regardless of what anyone thinks of you, Because 0:49:40.640 --> 0:49:44.280 that's what I really make life, you know, quote easier? 0:49:45.640 --> 0:49:47.440 Yeah, for sure? 0:49:49.239 --> 0:49:49.640 Mm hmm. 0:49:51.960 --> 0:49:54.080 Do you want me to bring up the other idea 0:49:54.160 --> 0:49:56.600 I was thinking about talking about? 0:49:56.920 --> 0:49:58.840 Sure, what's the other idea? Are they related? 0:50:00.280 --> 0:50:00.400 No? 0:50:00.560 --> 0:50:01.040 Not at all? 0:50:01.480 --> 0:50:02.239 You know, maybe they are? 0:50:02.480 --> 0:50:02.960 What is it? 0:50:04.560 --> 0:50:08.000 I believe that like when we die, like there's nothing, 0:50:08.160 --> 0:50:15.120 it's just complete like darkness, no thoughts. Oh, like there's 0:50:15.160 --> 0:50:17.640 no chance at like an afterlife or whatever, is just 0:50:17.719 --> 0:50:18.759 complete blackout. 0:50:19.239 --> 0:50:20.960 Well shit, do what do you want to do before them? 0:50:23.840 --> 0:50:26.640 Honestly? Just like have a good time? And I don't know, 0:50:27.760 --> 0:50:31.200 like for sure, like I've always thought about it too, 0:50:31.400 --> 0:50:33.640 or like I don't want to get so old where 0:50:33.640 --> 0:50:35.839 I can't take care of myself because then, like you know, 0:50:36.080 --> 0:50:40.640 what's the fun in that? And like having this idea 0:50:40.719 --> 0:50:44.120 that oh, nothing really will come after all of this. 0:50:44.719 --> 0:50:46.839 I willso get in this place where it's like own 0:50:46.920 --> 0:50:48.720 nothing really matters that much fun. 0:50:49.280 --> 0:50:51.719 Well, Well, that's actually a great place to start for 0:50:51.760 --> 0:50:54.239 that other thing, right, because if nothing really matters and 0:50:54.239 --> 0:50:55.879 we're all going to die at the end, and we're 0:50:55.880 --> 0:51:06.080 all bonded together so beautifully by our shared fate of 0:51:07.000 --> 0:51:13.040 infinite darkness. That doesn't matter, right, not people like you. 0:51:12.640 --> 0:51:12.880 You know. 0:51:14.520 --> 0:51:18.400 Yeah, I think that's all I got for tonight. 0:51:19.480 --> 0:51:21.440 Well, thank you so much for calling and sharing, Rebecca. 0:51:21.680 --> 0:51:22.560 We have aggress tonight. 0:51:23.600 --> 0:51:30.160 Thank you too, all From Aquabert. 0:51:30.719 --> 0:51:33.400 Hello, what's up? How old are you? Aquabert? 0:51:35.040 --> 0:51:39.040 I'm eighteen and by the way, it's Oliver. 0:51:40.560 --> 0:51:45.320 Oliver. That makes a lot more sense, but he is 0:51:45.400 --> 0:51:45.920 less cool. 0:51:47.239 --> 0:51:47.719 Yeah it is. 0:51:48.320 --> 0:51:49.480 Tell me everything, Aquabert. 0:51:51.680 --> 0:51:54.600 I was just I'm in high school, by the way, 0:51:54.640 --> 0:51:55.120 senior year. 0:51:57.160 --> 0:51:58.680 I'm going to turn you back up because you're a 0:51:58.760 --> 0:52:00.279 lot less loud than that other guy. 0:52:01.560 --> 0:52:02.840 Yeah, he was pretty loud. 0:52:03.120 --> 0:52:04.319 Wait, say something real quick. 0:52:05.840 --> 0:52:07.640 Uh blah blah blah. 0:52:08.320 --> 0:52:13.440 Had Aquabar, you sound not that loud? All right, Oliver 0:52:14.120 --> 0:52:16.879 Aqua I'm not close to call you Aquabar, aqua bear, 0:52:18.400 --> 0:52:19.560 what's up? Tell me everything? 0:52:21.200 --> 0:52:28.719 In my class we're talking about this dilemma. Have you 0:52:28.760 --> 0:52:30.879 ever heard of the trolley dilemma? 0:52:34.200 --> 0:52:35.400 I've heard of the trolley donna. 0:52:37.160 --> 0:52:42.600 Okay, so in this scenario, right, she's between one person 0:52:43.840 --> 0:52:48.919 on the train track or five people whatever. Yeah, And 0:52:49.600 --> 0:52:52.120 my problem with this bait, even if I didn't know 0:52:52.239 --> 0:52:55.200 this first person who's gonna you know who, I could 0:52:55.239 --> 0:52:58.760 switch the track and kill them instead of these five people. 0:52:59.640 --> 0:53:01.640 Even if if I didn't know this person or I did 0:53:01.719 --> 0:53:06.160 know them, I feel like the best option would just 0:53:06.280 --> 0:53:10.840 be to to just leave it alone, you know, because 0:53:11.000 --> 0:53:17.960 is it better to go, you know, let five people die. 0:53:18.120 --> 0:53:20.120 I mean, like, just for your own sake, is it 0:53:20.160 --> 0:53:24.120 better to go kill a person and then just get 0:53:24.200 --> 0:53:26.840 arrested and then just have all of this, all of 0:53:26.920 --> 0:53:32.600 your life just crumble, you know, just right before your eyes? 0:53:33.480 --> 0:53:36.400 Like, well, I think it depends on which I think 0:53:36.440 --> 0:53:39.160 it depends on which group of people has the most 0:53:39.280 --> 0:53:42.120 valuable stuff on their person that you can steal from them. 0:53:42.160 --> 0:53:44.440 After the trolleyhoods thing. That's how I would make the 0:53:44.480 --> 0:53:47.839 decision on that, Like who, like is there, like, are 0:53:47.840 --> 0:53:52.200 there people wearing like expensive jewelry on like maybe like 0:53:52.640 --> 0:53:57.799 every maybe the five people are all like wearing you know, 0:53:57.960 --> 0:54:00.200 just like plain old T shirts and jeans or not. 0:54:00.320 --> 0:54:02.400 But then the one person is like has like a 0:54:02.400 --> 0:54:05.480 bunch of like gold and jewelry on them. I would 0:54:05.640 --> 0:54:07.520 switch the trolley for them so that I could take 0:54:07.560 --> 0:54:11.200 their stuff after they're they're gone. That's how I think 0:54:11.360 --> 0:54:13.319 the problem. 0:54:13.600 --> 0:54:19.399 I mean, I guess, yeah, anyway, what's going on? 0:54:21.239 --> 0:54:23.560 Good, I'm chilling? 0:54:25.560 --> 0:54:27.160 Yeah? 0:54:27.560 --> 0:54:28.800 What class? 0:54:29.920 --> 0:54:30.080 Oh? 0:54:30.200 --> 0:54:33.760 English? English class? I'm in AP English. 0:54:33.880 --> 0:54:37.200 You're in AP English. Well what's your name again? 0:54:38.440 --> 0:54:38.840 Oliver? 0:54:39.560 --> 0:54:46.319 Oliver, Oliver, Aquabert. Well, Aquabert, get those AP credits. Go 0:54:46.360 --> 0:54:51.000 to college or don't go to college. I'll go to college, 0:54:51.200 --> 0:54:54.200 all right, go to college. Do what you want to do, Aquabert. 0:54:54.239 --> 0:54:55.960 Don't let anyone tell you what to do, not even man. 0:54:57.360 --> 0:54:59.680 Okay, I'm gonna go put aquaber. 0:54:59.360 --> 0:55:02.960 Now, beautiful, beautiful, Thank you for calling Uncle Bert. I 0:55:03.000 --> 0:55:13.480 have addressed to the night he too. Call from Ryan, Ryan, Baby, 0:55:13.520 --> 0:55:13.960 talk to me. 0:55:16.800 --> 0:55:18.239 Hello, what's up? 0:55:19.520 --> 0:55:19.920 Oh Hi? 0:55:20.120 --> 0:55:22.239 Sorry, I was My dog is giving me a mean look? 0:55:22.800 --> 0:55:24.040 And I think because she's hungry. 0:55:26.440 --> 0:55:28.640 Is that how she typically signals to you that she's hungry. 0:55:30.520 --> 0:55:35.839 Uh so she's she's seventeen years old, and she really 0:55:35.960 --> 0:55:39.440 kind of displays the same traits that my grandma did 0:55:39.520 --> 0:55:41.440 right before she died. She just sits on the couch. 0:55:42.400 --> 0:55:45.359 She just wants, you know, food, and that's all she 0:55:45.400 --> 0:55:49.360 cares about You think she's deaf, but I've learned that 0:55:49.440 --> 0:55:52.480 she just ignores you because so her ear will twitch 0:55:53.800 --> 0:55:56.000 so she hears you. She won't turn around, like she 0:55:56.000 --> 0:55:58.120 can do tricks, she won't. She just won't listen. She can, 0:55:59.000 --> 0:56:03.680 and I actually respect that. She can shake, she can sit, 0:56:03.840 --> 0:56:06.919 she can spin, she can wait on and roll over. 0:56:08.440 --> 0:56:10.800 But she's just like fuck it. She's like, fuck it, 0:56:10.880 --> 0:56:14.600 I've earned the right to do nothing. And I agree, 0:56:16.040 --> 0:56:18.279 So you just kind of let her, let her run 0:56:18.320 --> 0:56:19.239 the house pretty much. 0:56:19.640 --> 0:56:22.280 You know, the reason why dogs are always so hungry 0:56:22.320 --> 0:56:24.480 is because food is really all they know. You know, 0:56:24.520 --> 0:56:26.880 they don't really like like we all have, like our 0:56:26.920 --> 0:56:30.080 careers and our families and our blah blah blah blah blah, 0:56:30.160 --> 0:56:32.720 and you know, trying to do this, trying to humans 0:56:32.760 --> 0:56:35.040 are trying to do things. Dogs they don't even know 0:56:35.120 --> 0:56:38.600 that they can do anything except for eat. So that's 0:56:38.640 --> 0:56:42.480 why that their whole world is rolls around that the 0:56:42.640 --> 0:56:47.359 dogs don't do education or no, they just eat food. 0:56:47.400 --> 0:56:49.600 That's all they have. That's all they have. That's why 0:56:50.000 --> 0:56:51.759 their world is so dominated by it. 0:56:54.280 --> 0:56:57.640 It's true, I kind of I kind of should model 0:56:57.800 --> 0:57:02.239 that low expectation lifestyle. Wow, maybe i'd be happier. You 0:57:02.280 --> 0:57:04.479 know dogs, people like, oh, dogs always so happy because 0:57:04.480 --> 0:57:06.360 it's like they don't have to they don't have to work. Food, 0:57:06.760 --> 0:57:07.359 they got food. 0:57:07.360 --> 0:57:07.759 They're good. 0:57:07.840 --> 0:57:08.239 That's it. 0:57:10.440 --> 0:57:13.080 I mean, look, it's it's it's whatever fults you're about. 0:57:13.080 --> 0:57:15.360 I would I would you enjoy that? Would you enjoy 0:57:16.440 --> 0:57:22.560 not doing anything at all and just eating food and sleeping? 0:57:25.480 --> 0:57:25.920 No? 0:57:25.920 --> 0:57:26.880 No, no, I wouldn't. 0:57:27.480 --> 0:57:28.120 No, you can't. 0:57:28.120 --> 0:57:31.840 I blame my human brain prevents me from from being 0:57:31.880 --> 0:57:33.240 so simple and so content. 0:57:33.920 --> 0:57:37.760 Exactly exactly. You have to leave, you have to go 0:57:37.800 --> 0:57:39.920 out the door. You have to do things, go to 0:57:40.080 --> 0:57:42.560 go to school, get a job of the dead. But bah, 0:57:42.680 --> 0:57:47.640 go to fucking Spain. No, there is no dog. No 0:57:47.800 --> 0:57:50.440 dog has ever dreamt of going to Spain. 0:57:52.480 --> 0:57:53.360 But how do we know that? 0:57:53.480 --> 0:57:55.080 Uniquely human traits? 0:57:55.560 --> 0:57:56.880 How do how do we look? 0:57:57.120 --> 0:57:58.840 Look at a dog? Go look at a dog? 0:57:59.120 --> 0:58:01.040 Okay, I'm I'm looking at my dog. 0:58:01.480 --> 0:58:02.800 Is it dreaming of going to Spain? 0:58:04.440 --> 0:58:05.960 I don't know. You want to ask, No, it's not. 0:58:07.600 --> 0:58:08.720 No, I don't. 0:58:08.560 --> 0:58:09.000 Know, man. 0:58:09.440 --> 0:58:14.040 No, look it's not I'll tell you right now, I 0:58:14.080 --> 0:58:16.920 will tell you with one hundred certainty. But look at 0:58:16.920 --> 0:58:17.440 your dog. 0:58:17.280 --> 0:58:20.760 Again, there's nothing behind those eyes. 0:58:20.760 --> 0:58:21.200 Think you're right. 0:58:21.880 --> 0:58:23.720 Your dog is not dreaming of going anywhere. Your dog 0:58:24.400 --> 0:58:28.600 wants food and that's all that will be in her 0:58:28.600 --> 0:58:29.320 brain forever. 0:58:30.600 --> 0:58:33.000 Do you think dogs dream at all? You know, when 0:58:33.040 --> 0:58:35.080 they're like sleeping and they're twitching and they're growling, do 0:58:35.120 --> 0:58:37.720 you think anything's going on? Or like, what's going on 0:58:37.760 --> 0:58:42.400 when that happens? 0:58:44.720 --> 0:58:48.520 Have you ever lied all the time? Tell me the 0:58:48.560 --> 0:58:49.320 last time you lied? 0:58:50.400 --> 0:58:53.320 Oh, the last one got me in big trouble. I 0:58:53.360 --> 0:58:55.880 was seeing a girl for about two and a half 0:58:55.920 --> 0:59:02.600 three months and uh and uh basically from the get go, 0:59:02.880 --> 0:59:06.840 terrible liar, but uh I, I omitted some, uh some 0:59:07.040 --> 0:59:11.040 things about my life and that were probably pertinent to 0:59:11.160 --> 0:59:13.520 the relationship and being honest, and I probably shouldn't have 0:59:13.560 --> 0:59:18.440 even been in a relationship, but uh i, uh I 0:59:18.520 --> 0:59:22.720 for a long time had struggled with drug addiction, and 0:59:22.960 --> 0:59:25.160 in those in those few months, like I was still, 0:59:25.520 --> 0:59:28.480 I had relapsed and I had been using and I 0:59:28.560 --> 0:59:31.160 just hit it from her. But then I got arrested, 0:59:31.680 --> 0:59:34.120 like two weeks ago, two weeks ago, and it's hard 0:59:34.120 --> 0:59:36.560 to it's hard to cover that one up. I missed 0:59:36.600 --> 0:59:40.160 a football game that was that's a little college. And 0:59:40.160 --> 0:59:41.600 then I text her, you know, run to get out 0:59:41.600 --> 0:59:44.160 of like, you know, eleven eleven at night release. I'm like, oh, 0:59:44.160 --> 0:59:47.439 I'm sorry, and I just kind of spill the truth 0:59:47.480 --> 0:59:50.000 to her and she was like, yeah, this isn't gonna work, 0:59:50.040 --> 0:59:52.520 and I was like, I think you're right. So that 0:59:52.640 --> 0:59:54.680 was a big one. That was that was a big 0:59:54.720 --> 0:59:56.120 fuck up on my part there. 0:59:57.200 --> 0:59:59.440 Why why relying to her that you got arrested? 1:00:01.160 --> 1:00:01.560 Well, I didn't. 1:00:01.600 --> 1:00:06.120 I didn't lie about getting arrested. But uh, there's definitely 1:00:07.120 --> 1:00:09.960 the whole lyeing about drug addiction. I think you'll find 1:00:10.000 --> 1:00:12.240 a lot of a lot of addicts and alcoholics will 1:00:13.720 --> 1:00:16.320 either they lie to continue using because that's what they 1:00:16.360 --> 1:00:20.920 want to do or drinking, or they or we me 1:00:21.240 --> 1:00:24.400 are so ashamed of the fact that we are the 1:00:24.400 --> 1:00:26.320 way we are, you know, because we don't want to 1:00:26.360 --> 1:00:29.560 continue doing these things. A lot of us, it's a compulsion. 1:00:29.600 --> 1:00:33.760 We do it when we have good days, bad days, happy, sad. 1:00:33.800 --> 1:00:36.560 We find excuses to use because there's something going on, 1:00:36.760 --> 1:00:39.880 like we're built a little weird compared to everyone else, 1:00:40.240 --> 1:00:43.440 and so you lie to because you're ashamed of it. 1:00:44.160 --> 1:00:44.280 HM. 1:00:44.760 --> 1:00:46.800 So I think it's usually one of those two things. 1:00:47.480 --> 1:00:51.520 Are you are you like actively seeking any sort of 1:00:51.520 --> 1:00:53.080 help for your drug addiction? 1:00:54.640 --> 1:00:58.640 So yeah, yeah, So I went to a medical detox 1:00:58.760 --> 1:01:01.200 a couple of weeks ago, and it's kind of fucked 1:01:01.280 --> 1:01:06.160 like the whole, like healthcare in America, Like I switched 1:01:06.160 --> 1:01:09.360 from health I switched healthcare about a month ago, and 1:01:09.400 --> 1:01:11.880 it's not as good. So they're basically like, oh, you 1:01:11.920 --> 1:01:14.360 can be here a week when I really needed two, three, 1:01:14.440 --> 1:01:16.520 four weeks there, They're like, well, you can stay of 1:01:16.600 --> 1:01:19.120 four weeks, but it's gonna cost you. It's gonna cost 1:01:19.120 --> 1:01:21.840 you about twenty five thousand dollars. Yeah, so I could 1:01:21.880 --> 1:01:24.680 only get about a week and a half out of it, 1:01:25.280 --> 1:01:27.840 and then they transfer you to like a lower level 1:01:27.840 --> 1:01:28.160 of care. 1:01:28.720 --> 1:01:29.120 So I'll go. 1:01:29.280 --> 1:01:33.480 I have like individual therapists and a psychiatrist for like medications, 1:01:33.520 --> 1:01:36.320 but I only go into a place three days a week, 1:01:36.840 --> 1:01:39.480 like during the day instead of like full around the 1:01:39.480 --> 1:01:41.640 clock care out of facility. So I live at home 1:01:41.880 --> 1:01:44.560 and in three days a week, I go into a 1:01:44.600 --> 1:01:46.720 place and you know, did you do the group therapy 1:01:47.520 --> 1:01:51.840 individual sessions like uh, lectures, YadA YadA. 1:01:51.640 --> 1:01:55.120 That stuff all right, So of this of the stuff 1:01:55.120 --> 1:01:57.960 that you know you can afford. How is it? How 1:01:58.040 --> 1:01:59.080 is it going so far? 1:02:00.640 --> 1:02:03.640 Uh, it's well, well, I'll have to admit it's kind 1:02:03.640 --> 1:02:08.080 of I'd want to say I might be numb to 1:02:08.120 --> 1:02:12.360 the process because I started getting I was an adolescent, 1:02:12.760 --> 1:02:16.560 about fourteen years old. I started getting sent to treatment. 1:02:17.120 --> 1:02:19.960 So my first one my parents. They what happens is parents. 1:02:20.040 --> 1:02:21.880 I was in California at the time. They shifted you 1:02:21.880 --> 1:02:22.440 out of state. 1:02:22.960 --> 1:02:23.520 Like your parents. 1:02:23.520 --> 1:02:25.680 You literally in the middle of the night will have 1:02:25.760 --> 1:02:27.680 like two guys come into your room and handcuff you 1:02:28.160 --> 1:02:28.920 and like drag you to. 1:02:28.920 --> 1:02:31.040 The airport and fly you are your parents organize that. 1:02:32.280 --> 1:02:33.919 Yeah, So I went to a place for a year 1:02:33.960 --> 1:02:36.160 when I was I was fourteen. I was there from 1:02:36.200 --> 1:02:38.800 fourteen to fifteen. It was a year, a year long 1:02:38.840 --> 1:02:43.160 in patient treatment. Yeah, but I've done that. It was 1:02:43.600 --> 1:02:46.080 these places they're kind of not around anymore because they're 1:02:46.160 --> 1:02:49.160 kind of fucked up. But they call it behavioral modification, 1:02:49.760 --> 1:02:54.120 and it's basically like dangling the carrot and punishment, like 1:02:54.160 --> 1:02:56.120 you do something bad. And they had a lot of 1:02:56.160 --> 1:03:03.120 weird ways of enforcing enforcing things, just like weird like 1:03:03.160 --> 1:03:06.200 weird programs they'd put you on like had to like 1:03:06.720 --> 1:03:12.120 trying to drill therapeutic skills into your head, or like dressing. Okay, 1:03:12.240 --> 1:03:14.840 the the the most like I guess dramatic would be 1:03:15.800 --> 1:03:19.280 they called it off the team, which was if you 1:03:19.320 --> 1:03:22.520 fucked up bad enough, and especially if they considered you 1:03:22.600 --> 1:03:25.120 like dangerous to yourself or like you were like self 1:03:25.120 --> 1:03:28.720 harm or like you're a risk to run away. They 1:03:28.720 --> 1:03:31.600 would dress you in lime green scrubs and like you'd 1:03:31.640 --> 1:03:34.040 have like the same color like slideslip blops, kind of 1:03:34.040 --> 1:03:37.400 like jail. And you weren't allowed to talk to anybody, 1:03:37.680 --> 1:03:40.400 not even to staff. You were only allowed to communicate 1:03:40.480 --> 1:03:42.400 using your hand in your hands, so like you'd hold 1:03:42.480 --> 1:03:49.440 up fingers. So I think one one was a bathroom 1:03:50.440 --> 1:03:53.440 like two fingers up was supplies, like like a you 1:03:53.440 --> 1:03:55.800 weren't i'd have a pencil, only cram because they were 1:03:55.800 --> 1:03:59.120 word you're gonna like stab yourself for something. So two 1:03:59.120 --> 1:04:05.080 was supplies, Three was medication, four with laundry, and five 1:04:05.400 --> 1:04:09.800 was emergency. I think you had those five options and 1:04:09.880 --> 1:04:13.800 you couldn't no one. If anyone responded to you, they 1:04:13.800 --> 1:04:16.320 would also get thrown off the team. And you had 1:04:16.360 --> 1:04:18.720 to be ten feet away from everyone else, and you'd 1:04:18.720 --> 1:04:21.080 have like one staff next to you, like you know, 1:04:21.240 --> 1:04:25.240 arms linked away all the time, and you had. 1:04:25.160 --> 1:04:27.560 Like that intentional sort of isolation tactic. 1:04:28.920 --> 1:04:32.280 Yeah, so I guess, and at that point, at during 1:04:32.320 --> 1:04:35.240 that time, you would also typically be assigned some kind 1:04:35.240 --> 1:04:40.720 of writing assignment. Like I remember one time, but whatever 1:04:40.760 --> 1:04:44.240 I was doing, I got called for being just whatever, 1:04:44.440 --> 1:04:48.200 just oppositionally defiant to everything because I was fourteen, and 1:04:48.440 --> 1:04:52.680 they made me write like maybe it was like kind 1:04:52.680 --> 1:04:54.880 of like an autobiography, but they kind of wanted me 1:04:54.920 --> 1:04:58.200 to like highlight or find certain parts of my life 1:04:58.240 --> 1:05:01.400 where I was doing similar shit. Whatever the assignment was, 1:05:01.440 --> 1:05:03.760 but you have that to work on, but again you 1:05:03.760 --> 1:05:06.080 have to write it in kran. You get really good 1:05:06.120 --> 1:05:08.280 at like writing techniques where you like write with one 1:05:08.320 --> 1:05:10.360 side of the cran and kind of sharpens it and 1:05:10.520 --> 1:05:13.560 flip it, you know, do a little twizzle ninety degrees 1:05:13.600 --> 1:05:16.040 and it's still sharp. Yeah, you get. So I got 1:05:16.080 --> 1:05:19.000 if you have I'm I'm proficient with the cran. 1:05:19.400 --> 1:05:20.960 You're proficient? Is that on your resume? 1:05:22.240 --> 1:05:26.480 It's at yeah, like you know, like related skills. Yeah, 1:05:26.560 --> 1:05:29.920 these programs they don't really exist anymore. You can because 1:05:30.440 --> 1:05:33.640 they're also just breeding grounds for like abuse from the facility. 1:05:33.760 --> 1:05:36.360 Like like even though at the time they had like 1:05:36.400 --> 1:05:38.560 two staff to one, like in a room alone, you 1:05:38.560 --> 1:05:41.919 had to have three people, so it was either like 1:05:42.040 --> 1:05:44.280 two clients and staff or two staffs and a client. 1:05:44.320 --> 1:05:47.680 But it was like always like places getting shut down 1:05:47.720 --> 1:05:52.440 for like like like sexual abuse and just like just 1:05:52.440 --> 1:05:55.440 just terrible things. This was in Salt Lake City in Utah, 1:05:55.760 --> 1:05:58.480 and uh, but this was like a pat This has 1:05:58.520 --> 1:06:02.400 been a pattern for like the last like fourteen years 1:06:02.440 --> 1:06:05.560 of my life. Like I've been to that facility plus 1:06:05.600 --> 1:06:11.640 another fifteen sixteen of them, and it just gets tiring, 1:06:11.760 --> 1:06:14.720 that lifestyle. And and then you like, you know, you're 1:06:14.760 --> 1:06:18.080 beating your head against the wall, like continuing to do 1:06:18.120 --> 1:06:24.680 the same things over and over again. And it's it's 1:06:25.120 --> 1:06:27.160 hard to love someone like that too. You know. My 1:06:27.200 --> 1:06:30.440 sister is the same way. And because on the surface, 1:06:30.480 --> 1:06:33.720 the things we do are terrible. We're you know, we're stealing, relying, 1:06:33.840 --> 1:06:37.480 we're cheating, we're running around like we're like not showing 1:06:37.520 --> 1:06:41.600 up to family events or relationships or whatever. But at 1:06:41.600 --> 1:06:43.680 the same time, although like we are choosing to do 1:06:43.720 --> 1:06:47.040 those things, there's a component where we it's almost compulsive. 1:06:47.080 --> 1:06:52.680 It's like a weird mixture between two and so yeah, 1:06:52.720 --> 1:06:54.959 for the moment, I'm doing pretty you know, well enough, 1:06:55.120 --> 1:06:59.440 considering like I have about two and a half weeks 1:07:00.120 --> 1:07:03.680 ober off everything this is like alcohol included. And then 1:07:03.760 --> 1:07:10.320 uh well yeah, yeah, although I will say me hunched 1:07:10.360 --> 1:07:13.520 over in my on my computer, you know, dialing the 1:07:13.560 --> 1:07:15.880 phone over and over again is very reminiscent of like 1:07:15.960 --> 1:07:17.960 maybe like crack smoking, you know what I mean. I 1:07:18.600 --> 1:07:20.680 figured out how many clicks it takes to your reset 1:07:20.720 --> 1:07:25.360 the call, So I'm kind of like, you know, well, 1:07:25.440 --> 1:07:27.040 I'm happy junkie over here. 1:07:27.400 --> 1:07:30.680 I'm happy that I could I could give you some 1:07:30.720 --> 1:07:37.440 sort of placeholder addiction m for the to you know, 1:07:37.600 --> 1:07:40.160 tidy over from the other one. 1:07:41.080 --> 1:07:42.520 I don't know what my therapist is going to say 1:07:42.560 --> 1:07:46.280 it that I spent all night, you know, tonight trying 1:07:46.320 --> 1:07:47.840 to call a get go to talk to. She might 1:07:47.920 --> 1:07:49.680 fucking think I'm using again. 1:07:51.560 --> 1:07:54.480 So well is that what people do? By the way, like, uh, like, 1:07:54.560 --> 1:07:56.440 if you like to kick an addiction, you kind of 1:07:56.440 --> 1:08:01.600 pick up one that's not as bad, like drinking copious 1:08:01.600 --> 1:08:03.400 amounts of mountain dew or something like that. 1:08:04.400 --> 1:08:08.280 Oh yeah, cigarettes coffee. Candy is a big thing, especially alcoholics. 1:08:08.320 --> 1:08:12.360 Like alcohol is basically metabolized as a sugar. You take 1:08:12.400 --> 1:08:15.160 that away, you crave sugar, so like you'll see alcoholics 1:08:15.200 --> 1:08:18.720 like have a bunch of candy or yeah, they tell 1:08:18.760 --> 1:08:21.120 you like don't don't try to don't try to dump 1:08:21.120 --> 1:08:23.880 all your addictions at once, like obviously the drugs, yes, 1:08:23.960 --> 1:08:27.160 but like don't try to quit caffeine and cigarettes on 1:08:27.160 --> 1:08:29.880 top of the all the ones. And yeah, you got 1:08:29.880 --> 1:08:31.960 to replace it. I mean if you don't, you can't 1:08:32.000 --> 1:08:34.040 just take away the drugs and alcohol from someone. There's 1:08:34.080 --> 1:08:35.720 like it leaves a big hole in your life, like 1:08:35.760 --> 1:08:37.719 the time that's spent for you to like get the drugs, 1:08:38.240 --> 1:08:40.360 use them, the time you spend getting high your friends 1:08:40.360 --> 1:08:42.840 that use you take that away. I mean you're just 1:08:42.840 --> 1:08:45.759 like a shell of nothing, like you have to replace 1:08:45.800 --> 1:08:46.320 it with stuff. 1:08:46.400 --> 1:08:48.040 You know, So I can I ask you something? So 1:08:48.200 --> 1:08:53.519 over can I hold you right now? Twenty six twenty six? 1:08:53.680 --> 1:08:58.640 So you know, having been like in these facilities for 1:08:58.640 --> 1:09:02.200 for so long and like what you're telling me about 1:09:02.320 --> 1:09:06.920 how you're just getting used to it, like is there 1:09:07.080 --> 1:09:09.920 and congratulations on on on two and a half weeks, 1:09:10.880 --> 1:09:17.320 Is there? Something that's like keep keeping you going because 1:09:17.360 --> 1:09:19.840 because it's it's clear that you're like trying. You know, 1:09:19.880 --> 1:09:22.799 it's clear that whether whether or not you've like fully 1:09:22.920 --> 1:09:27.360 kicked your addiction, like it's clear that you are continuously trying, 1:09:27.400 --> 1:09:30.559 you have not given up. You know what's keeping you 1:09:30.640 --> 1:09:31.040 doing that? 1:09:34.439 --> 1:09:37.040 I will say, And there's been periods where I've had 1:09:37.400 --> 1:09:40.960 longer amounts of sobriety. The longest was I turned just 1:09:41.000 --> 1:09:44.280 when I turned eighteen. I got two and a half 1:09:44.360 --> 1:09:48.080 years again like no drinking, you know, I wasn't even 1:09:48.080 --> 1:09:52.960 spoke a cigarettes, like no, no anything. And during that time, 1:09:53.000 --> 1:09:56.000 I think beforehand, my problem was I kept trying to 1:09:56.000 --> 1:09:59.080 get sober for other people. So it's like, oh, whether 1:09:59.080 --> 1:10:00.720 it was like I have legal stuff on my back 1:10:00.800 --> 1:10:03.519 or my parents are crying, my mom's upset, and I 1:10:03.640 --> 1:10:06.000 keep scring over everyone I know, and I kept trying 1:10:06.000 --> 1:10:08.599 to get sober for them, so like things would get 1:10:08.640 --> 1:10:10.920 better and then they would be happy with me. But 1:10:10.960 --> 1:10:14.120 then it's like, well, mission accomplished, Like they're happy with me. 1:10:14.400 --> 1:10:17.400 Done right, So I think it had I had, I 1:10:17.439 --> 1:10:20.800 had to switch it where my I have to I 1:10:20.840 --> 1:10:24.599 have to love and care about myself enough to change 1:10:24.600 --> 1:10:27.920 for myself or else it will never stick. And I 1:10:27.920 --> 1:10:30.519 think that's for a lot of things, not just not 1:10:30.640 --> 1:10:32.880 just addiction, but if you don't if you don't value 1:10:32.880 --> 1:10:35.760 and care about yourself, like why why bother going through 1:10:35.800 --> 1:10:37.920 all the effort to do all these things when at 1:10:37.960 --> 1:10:39.880 the end of the day, I mean, it helps other people, 1:10:39.960 --> 1:10:44.360 but as a byproduct of helping yourself. First, I asked 1:10:44.400 --> 1:10:46.800 me number one. 1:10:45.960 --> 1:10:49.360 And how long you know is so you say that 1:10:49.479 --> 1:10:52.120 for the majority of the time, for a long amounts 1:10:52.120 --> 1:10:55.000 of time, you've been trying to get sober for other people. 1:10:55.400 --> 1:10:58.200 When around when do you feel like you made the 1:10:58.439 --> 1:11:00.360 sort of mental switch to be like, I'm alright, I'm 1:11:00.360 --> 1:11:01.240 gonna do this for myself. 1:11:03.960 --> 1:11:08.280 That I think around eighteen, like I but it wasn't 1:11:08.360 --> 1:11:11.479 just hitting eighteen. I moved out on my own right 1:11:11.520 --> 1:11:14.240 before that, and I think the combination of I moved 1:11:14.240 --> 1:11:15.920 to Louisiana. I kind of just like drew a dart 1:11:16.000 --> 1:11:17.360 on board and it was like, fuck it, We're going 1:11:17.360 --> 1:11:20.160 to Louisiana. And I think just being on my own 1:11:20.160 --> 1:11:23.600 and only having myself and spending so much time like 1:11:23.640 --> 1:11:25.599 I went to work, I came home to my apartment 1:11:25.680 --> 1:11:28.280 with I spent so much time with just myself, like 1:11:28.320 --> 1:11:30.280 I didn't have friends yet or anything, like no family 1:11:30.360 --> 1:11:32.880 out there. Like I had to come to terms with 1:11:33.000 --> 1:11:35.439 like myself because everywhere I went there I was. It 1:11:35.439 --> 1:11:38.680 didn't matter. I couldn't outrun myself, of course, and like 1:11:39.240 --> 1:11:41.360 I just had to like face the fact that it's 1:11:41.360 --> 1:11:43.200 like look in the mirror, like this is what it 1:11:43.240 --> 1:11:46.120 is and not in a depressing way. But I don't, 1:11:46.160 --> 1:11:47.800 I don't. I think I spent so much time just 1:11:47.840 --> 1:11:51.720 like running and avoiding that I never really took inventory 1:11:51.760 --> 1:11:55.559 and like figured out really like who I was enough 1:11:55.600 --> 1:11:58.800 to like to say, like, oh, I actually love myself, 1:11:58.840 --> 1:12:01.040 because I didn't even know if I just said, oh 1:12:01.120 --> 1:12:02.240 I love who is Ryan? 1:12:02.280 --> 1:12:02.680 I don't know. 1:12:03.200 --> 1:12:05.559 I don't know, and the only things I do know 1:12:05.680 --> 1:12:08.000 is like all the shitty things I've done. And uh 1:12:09.439 --> 1:12:10.920 so I think it was just that like being on 1:12:10.960 --> 1:12:14.240 my own and not having especially my parents like bail 1:12:14.280 --> 1:12:18.000 me out all the time, Like fortunately or unfortunately, I 1:12:18.120 --> 1:12:20.639 like my parents. I grew up like well off enough 1:12:20.640 --> 1:12:23.120 where like mommy and Daddy could come like bail me 1:12:23.120 --> 1:12:25.439 out of jail or get me a lawyer or go 1:12:25.479 --> 1:12:27.479 talk to the school, and like beg them not to 1:12:27.520 --> 1:12:33.280 expel me or you know, and uh yet I had 1:12:33.280 --> 1:12:34.000 to get away from that. 1:12:34.680 --> 1:12:38.960 No, you learn so much more about yourself in isolation, it. 1:12:38.960 --> 1:12:43.360 Sounds like, but yeah, I mean there's you don't have 1:12:43.360 --> 1:12:44.920 anything else to like distract yourself. 1:12:45.880 --> 1:12:50.320 So tell me, how's your outlook moving forward? What's your 1:12:50.360 --> 1:12:54.360 outlook like are you Are you feeling optimistic about the future. 1:12:55.600 --> 1:12:58.800 I would say cautiously optimistic might be the best way 1:12:58.800 --> 1:13:02.760 to put it. Yeah, I don't have any I ran 1:13:02.800 --> 1:13:07.240 out of excuses, you know, like uh like I know, 1:13:08.000 --> 1:13:11.040 like I know I can't like like my my poison 1:13:11.080 --> 1:13:13.840 specifically with heroin, that was but that was what done 1:13:14.000 --> 1:13:16.360 like did me and the worst like that's what I 1:13:16.400 --> 1:13:19.360 always went back to. And I've just proven to myself 1:13:19.640 --> 1:13:22.320 with like some research and development, like it doesn't I can't. 1:13:22.360 --> 1:13:23.479 I can't get high. 1:13:23.520 --> 1:13:25.640 And live successfully. 1:13:25.760 --> 1:13:27.880 So I kind of hit a point where it was 1:13:27.960 --> 1:13:32.000 like I either will die from it or I'll I'll 1:13:32.040 --> 1:13:34.639 get sober. And I know what to do. I've done 1:13:34.640 --> 1:13:38.800 it before, like put together multiple years, so I know how, 1:13:38.920 --> 1:13:41.479 I know how to get there, and I really don't 1:13:41.520 --> 1:13:44.080 have any excuse excepted just to go do it. And 1:13:44.800 --> 1:13:46.600 so I mean, I'm I have good people around me, 1:13:46.680 --> 1:13:53.240 luckily that are still around, and I'm in a good 1:13:53.280 --> 1:13:56.559 living situation. It's stable enough, like I didn't wreck my truck, 1:13:56.640 --> 1:13:59.040 like I still have that, So I have I have 1:13:59.160 --> 1:14:03.840 all the reasons and means in the world too. Uh 1:14:04.200 --> 1:14:06.600 start you know, getting things done, start doing some some 1:14:06.680 --> 1:14:10.000 actual physical work on it. So I don't see why not. 1:14:10.320 --> 1:14:13.080 And uh, you know, I have, I have goals short term, 1:14:13.120 --> 1:14:17.040 long term. Uh, I'm young enough, like I don't feel 1:14:17.040 --> 1:14:18.320 like I've like blown a bunch of time. 1:14:19.160 --> 1:14:21.880 So you know, because a lot of. 1:14:21.840 --> 1:14:24.120 People are fifty years old, fifty year old heroin addict, 1:14:24.200 --> 1:14:26.360 like I could only imagine like feeling like you wasted 1:14:26.920 --> 1:14:29.519 you know, four or five decades. And it's like I'm 1:14:29.560 --> 1:14:31.360 sitting next to them, and I always hear like, honest, 1:14:31.400 --> 1:14:34.000 I wish I would have gotten sober that young, because 1:14:34.000 --> 1:14:35.720 all my friends are still partying and even though they're 1:14:35.720 --> 1:14:37.120 out of college, they're still. 1:14:38.560 --> 1:14:39.439 Still doing whatever. 1:14:39.720 --> 1:14:42.880 But uh, they're they're normal and that you know, they 1:14:42.920 --> 1:14:44.639 can they can put it down and go. 1:14:44.600 --> 1:14:45.120 Back to work. 1:14:46.720 --> 1:14:51.879 So Ryan Man, you know, I think you're You're obviously 1:14:51.960 --> 1:14:55.680 a smart guy, and you obviously like you know, have 1:14:55.760 --> 1:14:58.960 some some sense and a and a plan for yourself. 1:14:59.040 --> 1:15:02.840 And uh man, I'm I'm I'm rooting for you, dude, 1:15:03.479 --> 1:15:07.040 I really am. I I think it's like I said, 1:15:07.040 --> 1:15:09.920 I'm impressed. I'm impressed with you because I feel like, 1:15:09.960 --> 1:15:18.000 after so many like tries, you know it, it seems 1:15:18.000 --> 1:15:22.440 like you're still putting in the effort to help yourself, 1:15:22.800 --> 1:15:27.200 which is like the most important thing, you know. So 1:15:27.439 --> 1:15:31.479 I'm very very glad to hear that. And dude, thank 1:15:31.479 --> 1:15:36.000 you so much for sharing. And we wish you the 1:15:36.040 --> 1:15:36.639 best of luck. 1:15:37.960 --> 1:15:42.280 Yeah, And if anyone else out there is struggling, I 1:15:42.320 --> 1:15:46.920 just hope they reach out tell someone and I love them, 1:15:46.960 --> 1:15:48.679 and you can do it. I mean, it's it's possible. 1:15:48.680 --> 1:15:50.439 If I could do, anyone can and I've done it 1:15:50.439 --> 1:15:53.640 before and I know many people who have, so you know, 1:15:53.920 --> 1:15:56.800 any all the love and support to anyone out there struggling. 1:15:57.040 --> 1:15:57.920 Thanks for taking my call. 1:15:57.960 --> 1:16:00.200 I appreciate you anytime. Ryan, You take care. 1:16:00.240 --> 1:16:02.200 I have a good night, all right. 1:16:05.400 --> 1:16:07.519 Amy? 1:16:08.280 --> 1:16:10.200 Oh my gosh, Hello. 1:16:10.640 --> 1:16:12.799 What's up? Amy? 1:16:14.840 --> 1:16:15.799 What's up? Gecko? 1:16:17.360 --> 1:16:21.680 Amy from Arizona? You chilling with your fame? You want 1:16:21.720 --> 1:16:27.280 to talk about how hard math is? Yes, I do 1:16:28.720 --> 1:16:30.439 tell me, tell me how hard is math? 1:16:32.479 --> 1:16:37.719 Well, I'm uh, I'm not at your average college age. 1:16:37.760 --> 1:16:38.759 I'm a little bit older. 1:16:39.000 --> 1:16:44.000 And I started taking math recently, and I realized how 1:16:44.760 --> 1:16:47.840 how difficult it is, Like right now, I have to 1:16:47.840 --> 1:16:50.280 figure out like functions and functions. 1:16:50.280 --> 1:16:51.240 They're super hard. 1:16:51.320 --> 1:16:53.200 And I was wondering, maybe if you knew a little 1:16:53.200 --> 1:16:55.679 bit about functions, you can help me out. 1:16:56.400 --> 1:17:00.160 I know, I you know, I go to functions, I 1:17:00.200 --> 1:17:03.240 talk to people. Uh, you know, I'll pet a dog 1:17:03.320 --> 1:17:05.360 if it's there. I'll eat some tortilla chips. 1:17:07.200 --> 1:17:08.800 Right, Yeah, I'm good at that too. 1:17:09.400 --> 1:17:11.599 I go to I I you know, I'm okay at functions. 1:17:11.600 --> 1:17:14.400 I'm not the best. I'm not like you know, I 1:17:14.439 --> 1:17:17.880 know that I'm able to be like, you know, confident 1:17:17.960 --> 1:17:21.880 here because it's it's a digital thing, and you know 1:17:21.960 --> 1:17:24.760 it's it's it's my twitch whatever the fuck. But I 1:17:24.760 --> 1:17:27.519 had an actual function. You know, I'm I'm a lot 1:17:27.760 --> 1:17:31.320 you know, you know, I'll I'll pick my spots strategically, 1:17:33.560 --> 1:17:37.120 right right, you're in college. You just went back to college. 1:17:38.840 --> 1:17:39.200 I did. 1:17:39.280 --> 1:17:40.320 I just went back to college. 1:17:40.400 --> 1:17:40.559 Yeah. 1:17:40.600 --> 1:17:44.720 I worked in nonprofit for ten years and now I'm 1:17:44.720 --> 1:17:47.240 back in college to go into the medical field, so 1:17:47.360 --> 1:17:48.679 I need to know all the math. 1:17:49.320 --> 1:17:50.880 Can I would you be kind? You know, I have 1:17:50.920 --> 1:17:52.200 to believe would be comfortble sharing. 1:17:52.240 --> 1:17:56.479 Hold you are, I'm forty. 1:17:57.080 --> 1:18:02.479 My my step year, my step mom became uh my 1:18:02.720 --> 1:18:04.880 mom did a very similar thing at a at a 1:18:05.080 --> 1:18:07.200 I think she was actually even older than you when 1:18:07.200 --> 1:18:10.559 she did a like extremely similar same thing is what 1:18:10.600 --> 1:18:14.000 you're doing right now, and she became a doctor. 1:18:14.680 --> 1:18:16.559 You know, so nice. 1:18:17.840 --> 1:18:20.840 I mean, i'd like to positions assistant. But we'll see, 1:18:21.200 --> 1:18:21.679 we'll see. 1:18:22.200 --> 1:18:24.280 No, it'll happen, it will happen. I mean, how much 1:18:24.280 --> 1:18:26.120 do you really need to know to be a physician's assistant? 1:18:26.160 --> 1:18:29.080 You know, you gotta you gotta know about the brain 1:18:29.200 --> 1:18:32.760 and the heart and the lungs and probably something about 1:18:32.760 --> 1:18:35.559 the brands. Okay, something goes wrong with those. 1:18:35.800 --> 1:18:39.719 Yeah, hands, feet, all those things, uh, all the things 1:18:39.720 --> 1:18:41.960 in between the hands and the feet. I'm pretty sure. 1:18:47.560 --> 1:18:51.559 Do you give me? Do you have any like words 1:18:51.600 --> 1:18:54.400 of wisdom that you want to pass to the to 1:18:54.479 --> 1:18:57.040 the viewers tonight, Amy. 1:18:57.320 --> 1:18:57.799 Of course. 1:18:57.920 --> 1:18:58.160 Yeah. 1:18:58.240 --> 1:19:00.800 I mean, it's never too late to do what you love. 1:19:01.000 --> 1:19:04.120 I think, like you know, forty, sometimes people think that 1:19:04.160 --> 1:19:08.320 it's too late to pursue a different career. But I am. 1:19:09.360 --> 1:19:11.519 I loved my past career, but now I'm ready for 1:19:11.520 --> 1:19:13.720 a new career. And I think, I think anybody can 1:19:13.760 --> 1:19:16.280 do it as long as you have the u, you 1:19:16.320 --> 1:19:18.920 have the desire, you know, beautiful. 1:19:19.080 --> 1:19:22.360 I like that. I like that a lot. What's your 1:19:22.400 --> 1:19:24.960 what's your ultimate goal in love? What's your modest operenda? 1:19:25.040 --> 1:19:29.439 How do you? How do you how do you approach life? Amy? 1:19:29.800 --> 1:19:30.800 What's your philosophy? 1:19:32.840 --> 1:19:37.479 I guess with an open mind is the best m 1:19:37.520 --> 1:19:40.720 O I can probably pass on to others. Is like, 1:19:40.800 --> 1:19:44.160 you never know what's what's gonna come towards you, and 1:19:44.240 --> 1:19:47.320 you gotta you gotta, you gotta feed it with an 1:19:47.320 --> 1:19:50.960 open mind. If not, you're gonna be in trouble, you know. 1:19:51.960 --> 1:20:01.040 I like that. I like that. Can get some medical advice, Well, 1:20:01.080 --> 1:20:06.240 what you got going on? I'm afraid that, Well, I can't. 1:20:06.520 --> 1:20:08.639 It's hard. It's hard to explain, but I've been covering 1:20:08.640 --> 1:20:12.960 my face and a talk based green paint for several 1:20:13.000 --> 1:20:15.720 hours every year that we see that, and I'm kind 1:20:15.760 --> 1:20:19.040 of wondering, like, you know, based on your professional medical opinion, 1:20:21.160 --> 1:20:23.719 how long do I have left to live? 1:20:26.120 --> 1:20:30.080 I mean it depends on the level of of color 1:20:30.200 --> 1:20:34.320 that you're using in the amount of you know, like 1:20:34.760 --> 1:20:40.040 I guess it's artificial ingredients in there. But a good 1:20:40.600 --> 1:20:43.639 a good baking soda rub like you make a little 1:20:43.640 --> 1:20:45.880 bit of baking soda. I would say like three table 1:20:45.920 --> 1:20:48.599 soons a baking soda with like a cup of water. 1:20:50.479 --> 1:20:53.680 Rub that on there. That'll draw out all these toxins 1:20:54.160 --> 1:20:57.200 of sim salt is really good for that. You also 1:20:57.240 --> 1:20:59.240 have some witch hazel which you can get from the 1:20:59.320 --> 1:21:03.679 drug shot really and extensively metal draw all that those 1:21:03.840 --> 1:21:06.439 toxins out hopefully. 1:21:07.840 --> 1:21:09.720 Oh you know what I do is I you know 1:21:09.800 --> 1:21:14.280 that three and one shampoo condition or body wash. 1:21:14.479 --> 1:21:14.880 I do. 1:21:15.200 --> 1:21:18.080 I just I just go in the shower. I throw 1:21:18.160 --> 1:21:20.599 that on there. It usually does the trick gets it off. 1:21:22.560 --> 1:21:27.280 I mean that's better than nothing, right, But I'm not 1:21:27.320 --> 1:21:29.960 sure it'll get all the green toxins out of the 1:21:30.200 --> 1:21:30.960 out of the skin. 1:21:32.000 --> 1:21:37.560 Do you think there's like a like a do you 1:21:37.600 --> 1:21:39.400 think it's skin cancer or something like that? 1:21:41.880 --> 1:21:49.040 I mean cancer cancer is not typically caused by topical applications, 1:21:49.200 --> 1:21:50.080 but it's possible. 1:21:52.520 --> 1:21:55.560 Well, thank you for looking at for me, Amy. 1:21:56.240 --> 1:21:57.760 I'm just saying, like maybe you want to go with 1:21:57.800 --> 1:22:00.920 a natural green, like maybe you can like do some 1:22:01.080 --> 1:22:05.400 kale or some spinach and you can get the same 1:22:05.479 --> 1:22:09.040 color without the same risk to your hope. 1:22:11.800 --> 1:22:13.840 All right, don't I do that. I'll show about, show, 1:22:13.840 --> 1:22:16.439 I'll show up. I'll show up next stream with a 1:22:16.439 --> 1:22:17.920 bunch of shredded lettuce on my face. 1:22:19.320 --> 1:22:21.120 I love it. I love that. I love that look 1:22:21.160 --> 1:22:24.280 for you. I think that would be like a good 1:22:24.360 --> 1:22:25.960 example to set for the public. 1:22:26.040 --> 1:22:26.280 Tune. 1:22:26.880 --> 1:22:30.920 Thank you, Amy, Thank you, Amy, Amy, good luck. I 1:22:30.920 --> 1:22:34.439 hope to be under your knife one day because I 1:22:34.479 --> 1:22:37.400 trust you, and I hope you have a gross tonight. 1:22:39.560 --> 1:22:41.559 Thank you. I appreciate it, and you have a wonderful 1:22:41.640 --> 1:22:42.120 night too. 1:22:42.960 --> 1:22:57.080 Amy Forever. Hello, Blake, Hello, how's it going, Blake? Are 1:22:57.080 --> 1:22:58.000 you super well? 1:22:58.160 --> 1:22:58.439 Are you? 1:22:59.520 --> 1:23:01.960 Way? Is actually extremely way? 1:23:02.479 --> 1:23:05.599 Oh about? 1:23:05.720 --> 1:23:07.360 And lose my ship right down? 1:23:07.560 --> 1:23:09.839 I lose my ship? What's up? Blake? Tell me everythough? 1:23:10.920 --> 1:23:12.880 Let me kid, I catch my breath, bro. 1:23:14.400 --> 1:23:16.800 All the time. I'll take I'll take a sip of water. 1:23:16.920 --> 1:23:19.559 You want anything, I'm gonna give myself a sip of water. 1:23:19.560 --> 1:23:21.640 If you want anything, you're gonna have to save this 1:23:21.720 --> 1:23:25.320 sip for me. Give me at least ten seconds. 1:23:26.680 --> 1:23:30.960 Holy to lely though this is climbing holy to the 1:23:31.360 --> 1:23:31.920 one second. 1:23:37.360 --> 1:23:38.360 I love you, law. 1:23:40.479 --> 1:23:44.120 Going on man, not much blake? How uh, how how 1:23:44.240 --> 1:23:47.519 might what tell tell us? Tell us? What's up? 1:23:50.479 --> 1:23:53.439 My heart's beating on my chest? A man? 1:23:53.520 --> 1:23:55.600 Take your time, take your time. 1:23:57.800 --> 1:24:02.679 Well, to be honest with you alone, got a little 1:24:03.280 --> 1:24:10.280 O C. D obsoinition like to line things up, you 1:24:10.320 --> 1:24:16.880 know what I mean? And uh, the wife she's not 1:24:16.920 --> 1:24:23.479 having it. M hmm yeah, basically I can tell you 1:24:23.800 --> 1:24:26.920 just here, bam, bam bam, putting everything in a row, 1:24:27.920 --> 1:24:29.800 everything organized, you know what I mean? 1:24:30.560 --> 1:24:31.000 Mm hmm. 1:24:35.080 --> 1:24:35.680 That's not it. 1:24:37.320 --> 1:24:40.160 How does it make you feel when you see things 1:24:40.200 --> 1:24:41.200 that are unorganized? 1:24:43.200 --> 1:24:50.920 It gives me sure satisfaction. You can't even describe it. 1:24:51.040 --> 1:24:54.560 Just beautiful, just satisfaction. 1:24:55.960 --> 1:24:57.559 Oh I meant, how how do you feel when you 1:24:57.600 --> 1:24:59.560 see things that are disorganized? 1:25:01.720 --> 1:25:09.080 Oh? Well, of course the complete opposite. Just it just 1:25:09.160 --> 1:25:10.120 pisses me the funk. 1:25:10.439 --> 1:25:20.559 Okay, So how long have you been obsessively organizing stuff 1:25:20.720 --> 1:25:24.960 and putting things in line? You know? 1:25:27.080 --> 1:25:33.680 My whole adult career? Basically? What's about that? 1:25:34.439 --> 1:25:34.720 Mm hm? 1:25:37.439 --> 1:25:39.760 And how long have you heard what the get is? 1:25:40.840 --> 1:25:41.040 Are you? 1:25:41.080 --> 1:25:41.880 Are you with so bad. 1:25:41.920 --> 1:25:46.680 Now, I'm sorry. No, no, I'm you know, every time 1:25:46.720 --> 1:25:49.679 I hear you, you know, you're like, are you near anybody? 1:25:49.720 --> 1:25:54.439 So I ran to the basement for you. 1:25:55.320 --> 1:25:57.599 Look, I'm not I look, I'm not here to keep 1:25:57.640 --> 1:25:59.479 you away from your friends. You don't you don't have 1:25:59.560 --> 1:25:59.960 to be alive. 1:26:00.000 --> 1:26:00.879 And I was just kid. 1:26:02.560 --> 1:26:04.479 Am I own speaker phone. I feel like I can 1:26:04.560 --> 1:26:06.760 hear myself on the thing, although I don't know. 1:26:06.760 --> 1:26:13.400 If no, no, sir, no, sir? Okay, and beautiful, I 1:26:13.479 --> 1:26:14.599 got to hear what you got to say. 1:26:14.800 --> 1:26:19.080 Romantic. How long have you been with your wife for? 1:26:19.360 --> 1:26:21.160 Not necessarily married, but just together? 1:26:23.040 --> 1:26:24.040 Seven years? 1:26:24.479 --> 1:26:30.200 Seven years? Okay? And don't look at the chat. Don't 1:26:30.200 --> 1:26:32.880 look at the chat. We're the only chat going on 1:26:33.000 --> 1:26:35.600 between you and I. I need your whole focus. I 1:26:35.640 --> 1:26:36.679 need your whole focus here. 1:26:37.320 --> 1:26:39.679 I got you, but I mean be honestly, is it bad? 1:26:40.320 --> 1:26:41.720 I'm not. I don't know. I'm not looking. It's just 1:26:41.920 --> 1:26:43.840 justuing me. We're just chatting. No looking at the chat? 1:26:44.160 --> 1:26:49.720 All right, Blake, you said your name was. 1:26:51.600 --> 1:26:59.400 Yes, Blake Adams being totally transparent last night. We're being transparent. 1:26:59.280 --> 1:27:04.320 Of course, of course, Blake. All right, so you met 1:27:04.360 --> 1:27:06.439 your wife, you've been the refe seven years. I'm sorry, 1:27:06.479 --> 1:27:08.160 I know you just fucking told me, but you said 1:27:08.160 --> 1:27:15.360 you've been like obsessively organizing things for three years. 1:27:15.600 --> 1:27:18.759 Yeah, well that's we just bought a house together. That's 1:27:19.040 --> 1:27:22.240 you know, that's when you really get the whole. You know, 1:27:22.280 --> 1:27:25.320 when you're together and you can see how each person lives, 1:27:25.360 --> 1:27:26.040 you know what I'm saying. 1:27:26.960 --> 1:27:30.680 Okay, and okay, you just bought a house together recently, 1:27:31.320 --> 1:27:33.599 you've only recently started living together. 1:27:36.840 --> 1:27:39.360 Well, we're going on two years, I mean, but it's 1:27:39.400 --> 1:27:45.200 been rough. Well, the you know organization, I mean, I 1:27:45.360 --> 1:27:47.760 like everything to look like a chess game or you 1:27:47.800 --> 1:27:48.320 know what I mean. 1:27:49.120 --> 1:27:54.200 Okay, And how would you describe her style is it? 1:27:54.439 --> 1:27:59.040 Would you describe her style as actively disorganized or just 1:27:59.320 --> 1:28:02.599 simply not as anal about things as you. 1:28:04.920 --> 1:28:07.680 It would look like you know, where they dump trash 1:28:07.960 --> 1:28:10.920 in like a landfill, That would be her style. 1:28:11.680 --> 1:28:12.440 Mm hmmm. 1:28:14.720 --> 1:28:21.160 Yeah, so actively disorganized would be an understatement. So you're 1:28:21.200 --> 1:28:25.559 just looking at pure slob basically. So you see where 1:28:25.560 --> 1:28:26.120 I'm coming from. 1:28:26.720 --> 1:28:27.000 M h. 1:28:28.720 --> 1:28:31.120 M hmm. What do you like about your wife? What? 1:28:31.439 --> 1:28:33.439 What drew you to her and continues to draw you 1:28:33.479 --> 1:28:34.080 to her every day. 1:28:38.040 --> 1:28:41.920 I knew with these hard questions, it's not even hard. 1:28:42.920 --> 1:28:43.080 You know. 1:28:45.040 --> 1:28:47.680 I don't know flag that you described that as a 1:28:47.720 --> 1:28:48.559 hard question. 1:28:51.400 --> 1:28:57.360 Yeah I heard that, but go ahead, you know, I 1:28:57.360 --> 1:29:00.680 don't I don't know. I mean maybe that was on 1:29:00.680 --> 1:29:05.080 our question. I mean she she takes care of the 1:29:05.120 --> 1:29:06.960 things that need to be taken care of. 1:29:07.479 --> 1:29:07.920 How about that? 1:29:10.479 --> 1:29:13.400 You like her because she's care of the things that 1:29:13.520 --> 1:29:14.560 need to be taken care of. 1:29:15.080 --> 1:29:18.800 Wow, Well, I don't want you to put words in 1:29:18.840 --> 1:29:19.120 my mouth. 1:29:19.720 --> 1:29:23.080 I'm not trying to you. I want you to question. 1:29:24.240 --> 1:29:28.439 I know you. I've listened to you for hundreds of hours. 1:29:29.439 --> 1:29:36.840 She she fulfills the roles of the house. We'll just 1:29:37.520 --> 1:29:38.200 let's go with that. 1:29:38.360 --> 1:29:38.559 Long. 1:29:39.840 --> 1:29:42.599 Tell me what I need to do, because you're the 1:29:42.600 --> 1:29:44.679 therapy gecko. I'm looking for advice. 1:29:45.800 --> 1:29:47.680 Well, I don't know if I have advice, but I 1:29:48.080 --> 1:29:55.440 I am interested in, uh sort of talking about the situation. Okay, 1:29:55.680 --> 1:30:01.880 so you like her because she fills the roles of 1:30:01.960 --> 1:30:03.720 the house. Do you guys have a kid? 1:30:05.840 --> 1:30:06.000 Oh? 1:30:06.080 --> 1:30:07.360 Yeah, yeah, we do. 1:30:08.280 --> 1:30:09.519 Okay, how old is the kid? 1:30:10.000 --> 1:30:10.080 Just? 1:30:12.240 --> 1:30:16.519 Uh, he won't be one years old in a couple 1:30:16.520 --> 1:30:20.360 of days. And we went through IVF. I don't know. 1:30:21.000 --> 1:30:27.240 You know what in vitro fertilization is no, So that's 1:30:27.280 --> 1:30:29.600 where like you don't even leave the kids that have 1:30:29.680 --> 1:30:34.040 to artificially and simulate you and all that pay all 1:30:34.040 --> 1:30:39.680 that money. I don't know. Yeah, so that's what we do, 1:30:41.560 --> 1:30:45.599 but anyone, you know, I don't want to take every 1:30:45.680 --> 1:30:46.120 time long. 1:30:46.640 --> 1:30:49.719 Uh No, it's fine, man, I'm kind of well, I'm curious. 1:30:49.720 --> 1:30:55.400 Have you ever been to any form of Okay, so 1:30:55.520 --> 1:30:57.640 you so you you have you been like, have you 1:30:57.680 --> 1:30:59.880 been like formally diagnosed with OCD? 1:31:05.640 --> 1:31:09.320 I just grew up on adderall, just like all these 1:31:09.360 --> 1:31:12.480 other kids have. I'm not going to claim. 1:31:12.160 --> 1:31:15.520 All that, you know, but I just have an obsession. 1:31:15.280 --> 1:31:19.120 With everything having to be perfect. My whole house got 1:31:19.160 --> 1:31:24.040 to be perfect. Just I just like perfect. You know, 1:31:24.120 --> 1:31:28.320 it doesn't it doesn't necessarily have to be like per 1:31:28.400 --> 1:31:32.639 se perfect, but it needs to be organized all the time. 1:31:33.080 --> 1:31:35.000 And that's just me as a person. 1:31:36.840 --> 1:31:40.920 Have you talked to a real therapist about this? That's 1:31:40.920 --> 1:31:42.000 why I was asking if you had the. 1:31:42.640 --> 1:31:47.400 I love to. I would love to. I would love to. 1:31:47.560 --> 1:31:48.520 Maybe I should. 1:31:48.240 --> 1:31:51.439 Anything, but totally should. It sounds like. 1:31:53.000 --> 1:31:55.720 Could you say it's a money thing is that. 1:31:55.280 --> 1:31:56.760 No, I was I was asking, is it is it 1:31:56.760 --> 1:31:59.120 a money thing? Like like because you know I know 1:31:59.200 --> 1:32:01.679 people fuck, No, I just I just. 1:32:01.600 --> 1:32:06.240 I just like I just I just love it. You know, 1:32:06.720 --> 1:32:09.320 I don't have any problems with it, you know what 1:32:09.360 --> 1:32:09.679 I mean. 1:32:10.560 --> 1:32:11.839 It's just like, what's. 1:32:11.640 --> 1:32:14.439 One thing that you like about yourself that you wouldn't change? 1:32:14.920 --> 1:32:15.240 You know? 1:32:15.520 --> 1:32:21.200 Well, well you know, okay, well you know, no, No, 1:32:21.240 --> 1:32:22.479 here's what Here's what I'm gonna Here's what I was 1:32:22.479 --> 1:32:27.000 gonna say, is like, you know, I'm actually kind of 1:32:27.760 --> 1:32:30.360 less interested in in because. 1:32:30.840 --> 1:32:34.920 The way that uh, you know, at least you know 1:32:35.080 --> 1:32:39.680 this was presented on you know, the notes that from 1:32:39.720 --> 1:32:41.759 from what you told to the to the call screen 1:32:41.840 --> 1:32:44.840 ran a little bit from what you've told me, was 1:32:44.880 --> 1:32:46.920 the way you presented it as like your O C. 1:32:47.120 --> 1:32:52.679 D is like the central sort of thing. 1:32:52.800 --> 1:32:56.160 That's that it's ruining things for sure. 1:32:56.720 --> 1:33:00.920 But okay, But on the other hand, it's like, and again, 1:33:00.920 --> 1:33:02.040 you know, I don't know you man, I don't know 1:33:02.080 --> 1:33:04.200 your relationship. But like, on the other hand, it's like, 1:33:04.240 --> 1:33:07.439 you know, if if you can't you know, if you 1:33:07.560 --> 1:33:10.360 if you claim that you only like your wife because 1:33:10.360 --> 1:33:15.519 she fulfills the roles of the house, I feel like, 1:33:15.560 --> 1:33:17.160 and I don't know what they are and I'm not 1:33:17.200 --> 1:33:19.360 making not trying to make any assumptions, but there might 1:33:19.400 --> 1:33:24.000 be other things going on besides just the OCD. And 1:33:24.040 --> 1:33:27.679 maybe it's not anything like, you know, horrible or tragic 1:33:27.760 --> 1:33:32.360 about about either of you as people, but maybe there's 1:33:32.520 --> 1:33:37.200 like yeah, and I was gonna say, maybe there's incompatibility, 1:33:37.280 --> 1:33:40.280 but you've been together for seven years. I don't know, man, 1:33:40.560 --> 1:33:42.240 I mean, well, you know what I mean. 1:33:42.479 --> 1:33:45.960 Time doesn't you know? Tell all you know, you figure 1:33:46.000 --> 1:33:50.280 it out, you know, later than sooner sometimes. I mean, yeah, 1:33:50.280 --> 1:33:53.599 this is why I call it you. I mean everything, 1:33:54.280 --> 1:33:57.000 you know. One thing that I'm gonna tell you this, 1:33:57.040 --> 1:34:00.719 I'm gonna let you go long. Sure, you are so 1:34:00.920 --> 1:34:03.840 intelligent and you don't let a whole lot of people 1:34:04.040 --> 1:34:07.080 you're You're so smart, but you you like to be 1:34:07.160 --> 1:34:09.280 shy about it, and that's one thing I love about you. 1:34:10.000 --> 1:34:17.200 Well, thank you, Blake, Man. I appreciate that. And okay, man, 1:34:17.520 --> 1:34:19.960 go ahead. Well I was gonna say, like, if you can, man, 1:34:20.120 --> 1:34:22.400 you know, I appreciate all the kind words, but you know, 1:34:22.439 --> 1:34:25.000 if you can, man, totally go try and see uh 1:34:25.680 --> 1:34:29.000 A real therapist. I'm curious personally what they would have 1:34:29.040 --> 1:34:30.360 to say about something like this. 1:34:32.280 --> 1:34:35.280 Well, you know one thing, but one thing. Have you 1:34:35.360 --> 1:34:38.040 ever been to a therapist? Nobody's asked you before. 1:34:38.439 --> 1:34:39.960 Yeah, I've been to a therapist. I don't really like 1:34:40.000 --> 1:34:42.960 their I like, I feel like I journal for my therapy. 1:34:45.360 --> 1:34:46.320 You know, I gotta all. 1:34:46.640 --> 1:34:48.759 I'm gonna let you go, all right, buddy, All right, man. 1:34:48.680 --> 1:34:51.240 I'll talk to you. Thank you for calling, Thank you 1:34:51.280 --> 1:34:55.600 for sharing. I love you, letter man, thank you. 1:34:56.640 --> 1:34:56.960 Hello. 1:34:58.640 --> 1:35:01.920 Hello, Yes did I get through? 1:35:03.200 --> 1:35:03.519 Yes? 1:35:04.720 --> 1:35:05.719 That's fucking crazy. 1:35:06.760 --> 1:35:07.000 Hi. 1:35:07.800 --> 1:35:10.040 I'm just hanging out. How are you. 1:35:11.400 --> 1:35:14.599 I'm also kind of just hanging out as well. I'm chilling. 1:35:20.960 --> 1:35:22.639 I'm waiting on a pizza right now. 1:35:23.080 --> 1:35:23.880 What kind of pizza? 1:35:25.280 --> 1:35:27.120 Okay, hear me out here. 1:35:27.160 --> 1:35:28.040 It happens. 1:35:29.560 --> 1:35:32.920 It's half banana pepper's on the left and then half 1:35:32.920 --> 1:35:37.360 pineapple on the right, both extra on the toppings. 1:35:39.560 --> 1:35:41.280 Now, how do you know which side is the left 1:35:41.320 --> 1:35:43.320 side and which side is the right side? Because you 1:35:43.360 --> 1:35:45.800 could take it and then turn it and then with 1:35:45.960 --> 1:35:49.799 that then be upside down. Or how do you determine 1:35:49.800 --> 1:35:51.160 which is the right and which is the left? 1:35:52.479 --> 1:35:54.439 Well, I mean with the structure of the box, Like 1:35:54.479 --> 1:35:58.120 when you're opening it up, that's the front and I 1:35:58.240 --> 1:36:01.439 chosen the app because I've an app. And then when 1:36:01.439 --> 1:36:04.320 you open it up, it's like left is left, right 1:36:04.439 --> 1:36:04.760 is right? 1:36:06.080 --> 1:36:08.400 Do what if they put the pizza? What if they 1:36:08.400 --> 1:36:11.439 make it half but they put but they put it 1:36:11.479 --> 1:36:13.400 on the wrong halves you know what I'm talking about. 1:36:13.439 --> 1:36:15.280 And you're like, and you call them back and you're like, 1:36:15.479 --> 1:36:17.479 the banana peppers were supposed to be on the right side, 1:36:17.520 --> 1:36:19.479 but they were on the left side. 1:36:19.840 --> 1:36:22.880 No, no, no, no, no, no. I forgive them. I 1:36:22.960 --> 1:36:26.000 forgive them because like I like being sucked over by 1:36:26.040 --> 1:36:29.120 the food service industry, like they I like being the 1:36:29.160 --> 1:36:31.640 person that they can like mess it up on and 1:36:31.680 --> 1:36:33.080 then forgiving them. 1:36:33.400 --> 1:36:35.519 Oh okay, you enjoy being in a position to forgive 1:36:35.520 --> 1:36:36.000 other people? 1:36:37.320 --> 1:36:37.599 Sure? 1:36:37.960 --> 1:36:45.000 Does it make you feel powerful to forget? No? 1:36:46.960 --> 1:36:48.000 I mean I definitely. 1:36:49.240 --> 1:36:49.320 Do. 1:36:49.360 --> 1:36:51.479 You go, like, you know, I could be an asshole 1:36:51.520 --> 1:36:55.800 about this, but I'm choosing not to because I am merciful. 1:36:58.160 --> 1:37:02.840 No, I kind of always yeah, No, I'm really easy 1:37:02.880 --> 1:37:04.679 to please, Like I'll put up with whatever. 1:37:06.000 --> 1:37:10.400 Does that ever backfire on you? Yeah, tell me about 1:37:10.439 --> 1:37:11.960 the last time that that backfired on you? 1:37:15.160 --> 1:37:21.000 I guess the people I choose to be in committed 1:37:21.040 --> 1:37:26.680 relationships with I sort of start like, I'm like, oh 1:37:26.720 --> 1:37:29.799 my gosh, I love the way you are as a person, 1:37:29.840 --> 1:37:34.240 I love your individuality, and like I completely put them 1:37:34.240 --> 1:37:38.920 on a pedestal and ignore any mistakes. Anyways, they you 1:37:38.960 --> 1:37:40.840 would say they sucked me. 1:37:40.840 --> 1:37:45.240 Over, and listen, you don't have to get you owe 1:37:45.280 --> 1:37:46.840 me nothing. You don't have to get specific with this 1:37:46.920 --> 1:37:48.880 at all, you know, if you're unoc comfortable with it. 1:37:48.960 --> 1:37:52.400 But would you be one to talk about the last person, 1:37:52.720 --> 1:37:55.840 like the negative quality that you did, not that you 1:37:55.880 --> 1:37:58.759 overlooked in them because you were focusing on the positives. 1:38:00.280 --> 1:38:05.400 Yeah. My most recent ex shared a shower towel with 1:38:05.479 --> 1:38:10.200 his whole family, really. 1:38:09.960 --> 1:38:12.000 Just one communal towel. 1:38:12.600 --> 1:38:15.640 Yeah, and like the first time I went to take 1:38:15.640 --> 1:38:18.080 a shower at his house, I was like, okay, like 1:38:18.280 --> 1:38:20.240 what's in appropriate tality use? And he was like, I'll 1:38:20.240 --> 1:38:23.120 just use that one. I was like, oh, Like like, 1:38:23.479 --> 1:38:27.080 who's is it yours? Like, well, yeah, it's everyone's. I 1:38:27.120 --> 1:38:31.920 was like everyone's. And then I told every person I 1:38:32.000 --> 1:38:36.800 knew about that that was the way he did things. 1:38:37.400 --> 1:38:39.559 And what did you think about the fact that he 1:38:39.640 --> 1:38:41.559 shared a communal towel with his whole family. 1:38:42.960 --> 1:38:47.880 I was very disturbed because I I'm kind of a 1:38:47.960 --> 1:38:50.439 strange for my own family, so that, like that level 1:38:50.479 --> 1:38:55.080 of intimacy confused me. And also I just think it's 1:38:55.120 --> 1:38:55.960 weird either way. 1:38:56.520 --> 1:38:57.439 Is it a germ thing? 1:39:00.800 --> 1:39:01.320 I mean. 1:39:04.680 --> 1:39:09.720 That's I mean, like, I mean, how thorough do you 1:39:09.760 --> 1:39:14.280 get when you're drying yourself, you know what you're passing 1:39:14.320 --> 1:39:17.960 it on to, like your brother you can call me 1:39:18.080 --> 1:39:18.559 ja dog. 1:39:21.720 --> 1:39:25.639 You know. I feel like you should be honored, right, 1:39:25.680 --> 1:39:29.040 doesn't this sort of mean that he's saying you're part 1:39:29.040 --> 1:39:29.719 of the family. 1:39:31.720 --> 1:39:37.680 Yeah, but like diseases passed through orifices and like that 1:39:37.840 --> 1:39:39.240 is an honor. Yeah, I mean. 1:39:39.160 --> 1:39:43.439 I but also he's honoring you with the family disease. 1:39:44.520 --> 1:39:44.920 For sure. 1:39:45.000 --> 1:39:51.880 For sure. I mean yeah, whatever, I mean, I used it. Whatever, whatever, 1:39:52.600 --> 1:39:54.080 whatever they have, I have it too. 1:39:54.800 --> 1:39:55.000 You know. 1:39:55.439 --> 1:39:58.120 It did make me feel like I had a real 1:39:58.160 --> 1:40:01.640 family unit. I was like, all right, this is this 1:40:01.720 --> 1:40:02.360 is what we're doing. 1:40:04.840 --> 1:40:06.400 So you ended up using it after all? 1:40:07.960 --> 1:40:10.240 Yeah, I didn't want to be rude. I didn't want to, like, 1:40:10.800 --> 1:40:13.200 you know, have that confrontation in the moment. I was like, Okay, 1:40:13.400 --> 1:40:14.719 I'm just going to fuck use the towel. 1:40:15.600 --> 1:40:15.800 Hmm. 1:40:16.200 --> 1:40:20.759 Okay, So you went from I'm I'm really enjoying the 1:40:20.760 --> 1:40:22.640 the character development here. You went from thinking it was 1:40:22.680 --> 1:40:26.799 gross you the way. 1:40:26.560 --> 1:40:29.439 That I'm like, I'm not going to critique him the 1:40:29.439 --> 1:40:32.000 same like you're like you were saying the food service industry, 1:40:32.000 --> 1:40:33.879 I'm very easy to please. I'm not going to complain. 1:40:34.600 --> 1:40:37.120 I'll just keep quiet. I'm like, I'll just use the towel. 1:40:36.920 --> 1:40:38.320 You know, right. 1:40:38.320 --> 1:40:40.320 But you went from you know, using you went from 1:40:40.360 --> 1:40:43.080 being adverse using the towel being you know a little 1:40:43.120 --> 1:40:46.200 bit like, you know, I can't imagine being that close 1:40:46.200 --> 1:40:49.080 with my family to you then used it. And it 1:40:49.200 --> 1:40:53.800 sounds as though you felt like you then had a 1:40:53.800 --> 1:40:56.600 family of your own after going through the experience. 1:40:57.600 --> 1:41:01.800 I love, I love, still love his parents. His brother 1:41:01.880 --> 1:41:03.360 was chill too, so I was like, you know what, 1:41:04.479 --> 1:41:07.160 I'll share it all of them. But like everyone I 1:41:07.200 --> 1:41:09.439 told about that was so, I think they were more 1:41:09.439 --> 1:41:11.439 bothered than me, Like I think it was more fucked 1:41:11.479 --> 1:41:14.640 up to them, And it made me reflect on my 1:41:14.720 --> 1:41:16.320 own decision to use it. 1:41:18.080 --> 1:41:20.840 That's a very big idea. But I wouldn't like the 1:41:20.920 --> 1:41:21.639 character development. 1:41:22.360 --> 1:41:26.920 Yeah, thank you. Thanks. I try every day. 1:41:27.640 --> 1:41:29.640 Well, Jay Doug, thank you for sharing. I hope you 1:41:29.640 --> 1:41:30.599 have a one for rest of the night. 1:41:31.680 --> 1:41:33.680 Thank you you too. It's so great talking to you. 1:41:35.760 --> 1:41:37.679 How from Cuba? 1:41:40.439 --> 1:41:42.599 What's up? What's her name? Tuba? 1:41:44.120 --> 1:41:47.080 Cuba? 1:41:47.200 --> 1:41:48.160 Have we spoken before? 1:41:49.560 --> 1:41:50.240 We have lost? 1:41:51.200 --> 1:41:52.160 Your name is Cubo? 1:41:53.479 --> 1:41:55.160 Cubo. It's like k I d a. 1:41:56.840 --> 1:41:58.720 Ohkiba. Is that your actual name or is that like 1:41:58.720 --> 1:41:59.320 a screen name? 1:42:00.360 --> 1:42:03.200 It's a it's my name's cool name. 1:42:05.040 --> 1:42:05.240 Yeah. 1:42:05.360 --> 1:42:11.920 Yeah, how's it going, Ceba? Do you like your name? 1:42:12.120 --> 1:42:14.599 Do you like yourself as a person? Do you like yourself? 1:42:16.840 --> 1:42:20.080 Uh, that's a difficult question. 1:42:23.320 --> 1:42:23.720 It is. 1:42:24.040 --> 1:42:27.639 It's a. 1:42:27.760 --> 1:42:27.960 Yeah. 1:42:28.160 --> 1:42:30.920 I mean, I mean, I mean essentially I do some 1:42:31.040 --> 1:42:33.240 parts of me, but you know there's some there's some 1:42:33.320 --> 1:42:34.639 things I guess I could work on. 1:42:36.280 --> 1:42:39.880 By the way, that makes perfect sense. I think you 1:42:39.920 --> 1:42:42.120 know when you say essentially you do, it's like the 1:42:42.160 --> 1:42:44.799 macro in the mag at it in the macro sense 1:42:45.479 --> 1:42:49.320 when push comes to shove, you like yourself. But maybe 1:42:50.520 --> 1:42:53.120 you know when you break it down into the units 1:42:53.160 --> 1:42:58.559 of the days and the actions as individually, you're like 1:42:58.680 --> 1:43:01.479 I you know, maybe because have done that better or 1:43:01.520 --> 1:43:01.880 something like that. 1:43:03.000 --> 1:43:11.120 Yeah, that's that's basically it. M it's a bit s 1:43:11.560 --> 1:43:11.800 you know. 1:43:12.920 --> 1:43:14.920 Keep have you ever lied before to. 1:43:14.880 --> 1:43:19.160 Someone absolutely who hasn't tell me? 1:43:19.240 --> 1:43:22.120 Tell me about the time, about the the most recent 1:43:22.240 --> 1:43:23.600 lie you told. 1:43:25.360 --> 1:43:28.519 All right, Well, it actually happened at work not too 1:43:28.520 --> 1:43:33.160 longears ago. So let me just give you a little background. 1:43:33.680 --> 1:43:36.439 I got hired not too long ago, maybe like a 1:43:36.479 --> 1:43:40.559 month and a half of the max, And uh, I 1:43:40.680 --> 1:43:43.000 was so excited about the job, so I just told 1:43:43.000 --> 1:43:47.720 my friend about it, and uh, you got hired. We 1:43:48.040 --> 1:43:50.439 started working together. You know, he has some fun too, 1:43:51.280 --> 1:43:54.519 and uh, there was a little mishap at work that 1:43:57.680 --> 1:43:59.720 I kind of put the blame on him, you know, 1:44:01.600 --> 1:44:03.840 and he doesn't really suspect the thing. 1:44:07.040 --> 1:44:11.360 Mhm. All right, So you got hired at a job. 1:44:11.520 --> 1:44:14.200 Your buddy got hired at the same place. You guys 1:44:14.200 --> 1:44:18.360 are paling around something, you fuck something up, you blame 1:44:18.400 --> 1:44:19.000 it on your buddy. 1:44:20.640 --> 1:44:22.120 Yeah, m. 1:44:24.560 --> 1:44:28.280 So it's up Keea, I forgot we did the whole 1:44:28.280 --> 1:44:33.160 thing with that. Can you tell us what it is 1:44:33.200 --> 1:44:33.840 that you fucked up? 1:44:37.200 --> 1:44:40.519 So we were working the ship together, mind you, we're 1:44:40.520 --> 1:44:44.240 not even working near each other. It's kind of like 1:44:44.280 --> 1:44:48.240 a kind of sports job. Sports oriented. It's like a 1:44:48.320 --> 1:44:51.880 daycare for kids, but we include sports and everything like that. 1:44:56.840 --> 1:45:00.519 Oh no, it's get alot worse. I know you did 1:45:00.479 --> 1:45:04.799 it was it wasn't involving the kids. It wasn't involving 1:45:04.840 --> 1:45:10.400 the kids. But I may have during you know, closed 1:45:10.439 --> 1:45:14.960 them down, drop the shelf that may have broken a 1:45:15.000 --> 1:45:22.600 few things that were valuable. Then you know, there was 1:45:22.600 --> 1:45:25.479 some question going on. I hauled, asked to get out, 1:45:25.479 --> 1:45:32.560 and they just saw I wouldn't be suspected. And uh yeah, 1:45:33.320 --> 1:45:36.400 my broken vacuum cleaner. That was very expensive. 1:45:36.920 --> 1:45:38.480 You broke a vacuum cleaner. 1:45:39.640 --> 1:45:40.439 Not not just that. 1:45:40.840 --> 1:45:43.679 It was walk me through, walk me through, keep walk 1:45:43.800 --> 1:45:46.160 me through the things that were destroyed. 1:45:47.439 --> 1:45:51.320 Okay, well, firstly, you know of the vacuum cleaner for 1:45:51.400 --> 1:45:57.680 one time. Now, we just we got inventory about a 1:45:57.720 --> 1:46:00.760 week before, so brand new toys and everything like that, 1:46:02.960 --> 1:46:06.760 and about five hundred dollars with inventory. 1:46:08.840 --> 1:46:17.599 Okay, hold on, shattered, What how can one shelf contain 1:46:17.880 --> 1:46:22.640 five hundred dollars worth of toys? 1:46:22.720 --> 1:46:27.840 Well, we aren't the biggest facility, so our backspace is 1:46:27.920 --> 1:46:31.400 not as big as it should be. So if you 1:46:31.520 --> 1:46:35.439 make one small mistake and trist something over it's basically 1:46:35.479 --> 1:46:41.280 game over. So, yeah, we have like a bunch of toys, 1:46:41.360 --> 1:46:43.599 brand new toys for the kids to play with, usually 1:46:43.600 --> 1:46:50.320 the younger ages, and it just still happened that my 1:46:50.439 --> 1:46:52.639 friend was there at the wrong place in the wrong time. 1:46:54.520 --> 1:46:58.400 I have so many problems with this because okay, how 1:46:58.560 --> 1:47:02.400 first of all, okay, so you said that the okay, okay, 1:47:02.400 --> 1:47:04.679 five hundred dollars, Because here's the thing, five hundred dollars 1:47:04.720 --> 1:47:07.720 worth of toys. What children's toy especially when you said 1:47:07.720 --> 1:47:12.240 for younger kids. Yeah, Like also, by the way, I've 1:47:12.520 --> 1:47:14.559 you know, I was a child, I played with like 1:47:14.760 --> 1:47:20.320 Fisher Price fucking xylophones. You could take a fucking Fisher 1:47:20.360 --> 1:47:23.640 Price xylophone and chuck it off a building and that 1:47:23.680 --> 1:47:30.680 ship will still be good to go. What fucking children's 1:47:30.760 --> 1:47:35.800 toys are five hundred dollars? And also fragile? Are they 1:47:35.840 --> 1:47:42.240 playing with like glass or something? What? What are these toys? 1:47:42.800 --> 1:47:46.000 No, it was like, you know, the classic dollars, a 1:47:46.080 --> 1:47:49.679 remote control of all that. Sure, it's just a lot 1:47:49.720 --> 1:47:53.600 of those. And then it's like some ceramic dolls that 1:47:53.640 --> 1:47:56.720 are on the kind of what kid is. 1:47:56.680 --> 1:48:00.479 Playing with ceramic dolls? Those are not those are for display. 1:48:02.520 --> 1:48:05.080 We I don't know why we bought We bought them 1:48:05.080 --> 1:48:06.200 for some reason. 1:48:05.920 --> 1:48:09.240 Though, I I you know what I think so much 1:48:09.240 --> 1:48:13.360 of this is I would I blame the facility because no, 1:48:13.479 --> 1:48:17.120 this doesn't make sense, because dude, these these children's toys 1:48:17.160 --> 1:48:19.520 are not meant are meant to withstand. 1:48:20.720 --> 1:48:26.840 Yeah, yeah, it's a pretty tall shelf that requires a 1:48:26.880 --> 1:48:29.799 step letter to obtain most of these toys. 1:48:29.880 --> 1:48:34.479 Have you ever seen children play with toys? I fucking will. 1:48:34.680 --> 1:48:37.920 I've seen a kid take one of those fucking remote 1:48:37.920 --> 1:48:41.680 controlled dinosaurs and they're playing dinosaur and they slam that 1:48:41.840 --> 1:48:46.960 ship onto the floor and the thing and it's fine. 1:48:48.280 --> 1:48:50.360 I say, this doesn't make sense. I don't know, I 1:48:50.360 --> 1:48:52.280 don't know why. Something about this doesn't make sense to me. 1:48:52.840 --> 1:48:57.320 That's that's the thing. I think so many tipping over. 1:48:57.439 --> 1:49:01.000 I tried to save it, Like, don't count that. I 1:49:01.080 --> 1:49:06.400 at least tried to, you know, keep it in place. 1:49:08.840 --> 1:49:13.200 And you know, I wasn't expecting it to break because 1:49:13.400 --> 1:49:20.160 you know, ceramic dolls, yes, yes, absolutely, but the plastic dinosaurs. 1:49:22.520 --> 1:49:26.040 I play the facility for buying ceramic dolls for children 1:49:26.080 --> 1:49:27.840 to play, well, you know. 1:49:27.960 --> 1:49:31.040 I do too, But as I digress. You know, I 1:49:31.080 --> 1:49:34.400 got my out of it, and my friend was, you know, 1:49:34.439 --> 1:49:36.840 putting the ship in, and my manager walked in and 1:49:37.880 --> 1:49:41.559 he was He wasn't necessarily near it, but he was 1:49:41.600 --> 1:49:47.920 close enough to be suspected. And I might have told 1:49:47.920 --> 1:49:50.120 a little white lie to a. 1:49:51.600 --> 1:49:56.880 Not to asonerate yourself. Yeah, all right, So just your 1:49:56.880 --> 1:49:58.519 friend now about this that you lied. 1:49:59.320 --> 1:50:04.439 He doesn't and he just he was fine with leaving 1:50:04.560 --> 1:50:07.559 with whatever reason. He didn't even try to fight the clean. 1:50:08.280 --> 1:50:10.800 And I don't know how to tell him. I don't 1:50:10.800 --> 1:50:13.760 know if I should tell him that. 1:50:13.760 --> 1:50:14.200 It was me. 1:50:14.840 --> 1:50:16.080 Do you think you should tell him it was you? 1:50:19.520 --> 1:50:21.839 So that first question you asked, if I like myself, 1:50:21.880 --> 1:50:24.759 I feel like this is like this guilt inside. It's 1:50:24.840 --> 1:50:27.439 kind of just like pushing me over to him now 1:50:27.479 --> 1:50:31.400 liking myself, I think I should tell him, but I 1:50:31.439 --> 1:50:34.439 am not necessarily sure. 1:50:38.880 --> 1:50:40.800 Well, I'm not gonna tell you what you should do, 1:50:40.960 --> 1:50:44.040 but I mean, is. 1:50:44.040 --> 1:50:47.000 There anything you can you can advise me to GHEK? 1:50:47.200 --> 1:50:51.439 Is there anything? Should I just come clean? 1:50:52.080 --> 1:50:53.920 I mean, like, yeah, you should come clean, I think, 1:50:54.120 --> 1:50:56.599 especially because by the way, it sounds like the steaks 1:50:57.160 --> 1:50:59.760 are very by the way, you're gonna lie. It sounds 1:50:59.760 --> 1:51:01.880 like you're actually in a very lucky position, right because 1:51:02.000 --> 1:51:05.080 from what you've told me, the stakes are low, because 1:51:05.080 --> 1:51:08.040 from what you've told me, your friend when he got 1:51:08.040 --> 1:51:11.439 fired from the job, was not like, oh that was dumb. 1:51:12.080 --> 1:51:14.200 He's like he wasn't like fighting it and like, oh 1:51:14.320 --> 1:51:16.360 that was my dream job and now it's over. And 1:51:16.680 --> 1:51:19.040 it sounds like from what you've told me that he 1:51:19.160 --> 1:51:21.160 was like, oh whatever, I was gonna leave anyway or 1:51:21.160 --> 1:51:22.960 something like that. It sounds like it doesn't care that much. 1:51:25.160 --> 1:51:28.200 To be fair, he was only there for like two weeks, right, Okay. 1:51:28.280 --> 1:51:29.720 But so would you say that it sounds like it 1:51:29.720 --> 1:51:31.639 doesn't care, because then you're I mean, that doesn't make 1:51:31.720 --> 1:51:34.360 you know anything more or less whatever morally, whatever the fuck. 1:51:34.360 --> 1:51:37.000 I'm not here to be a judgment on fucking morals. 1:51:37.000 --> 1:51:39.280 But yeah, it. 1:51:39.240 --> 1:51:41.320 Sounds like it'll be easier for you than to break 1:51:41.320 --> 1:51:45.120 the news if he's not all that upset about it. 1:51:44.640 --> 1:51:48.840 It does, but I just he really also liked the 1:51:48.920 --> 1:51:52.400 job while he was there, but he wasn't opposed to 1:51:52.479 --> 1:51:57.599 being fired and take him blame for it, which is cool. 1:51:57.640 --> 1:52:02.479 I guess, tell the tell, Tell tell your boss. Do 1:52:02.520 --> 1:52:06.000 you still work there. Yes, this place is crazy. I 1:52:06.040 --> 1:52:11.360 hate this place. Tell them that go in there and 1:52:11.400 --> 1:52:14.839 be like, you guys need to buy these kids fucking 1:52:14.920 --> 1:52:18.640 g I Joe, whatever the fucking not. You know, ceramic 1:52:18.720 --> 1:52:23.360 dolls that you got from your fucking grandma's house. Get 1:52:23.360 --> 1:52:26.559 some real toys in there, by the way, I brought 1:52:26.600 --> 1:52:29.240 those toys, and you it was your guys fault for 1:52:29.240 --> 1:52:32.439 buying shitty toys like that. Get my friend back in 1:52:32.520 --> 1:52:34.640 there and then you leave forever. That's what you should do. 1:52:34.880 --> 1:52:37.840 Tell your boss, tell your friend, and just get the 1:52:37.840 --> 1:52:39.840 guilt away. That's what you gotta do. You gotta come clean. 1:52:39.960 --> 1:52:41.280 That's what I tell you to do. Man, you gotta 1:52:41.280 --> 1:52:41.679 come clean. 1:52:44.080 --> 1:52:44.439 You know it. 1:52:44.520 --> 1:52:45.519 That does sound good. 1:52:47.880 --> 1:52:48.559 I've been trying. 1:52:49.320 --> 1:52:52.559 It's been like taking the tour. I've been trying to, 1:52:53.360 --> 1:52:56.719 you know, get it out there, but keep on bringing 1:52:56.760 --> 1:52:57.240 it up. 1:52:59.680 --> 1:53:01.800 Going tomorrow. Tell the truth to everyone. That's what I'll 1:53:01.800 --> 1:53:05.600 tell you. I know it's easier said than done, but 1:53:06.320 --> 1:53:09.120 do it for us, all right, man, talk to you soon. 1:53:10.040 --> 1:53:12.160 Thank you very much. Have a great day. 1:53:12.240 --> 1:53:20.799 Dick Russell. Kai, what's up? Russell? 1:53:22.479 --> 1:53:24.040 So I got a good story for you. 1:53:24.720 --> 1:53:29.040 Hit man. Hit me in the face with your asshole, 1:53:30.240 --> 1:53:33.960 fart in my face with that story. Fart into my 1:53:34.120 --> 1:53:37.360 mouth with your story. I want your story to be 1:53:37.400 --> 1:53:41.080 a big, wet, juicy fart that goes into my mouth. 1:53:41.080 --> 1:53:42.640 And I and not just and I don't want to 1:53:42.680 --> 1:53:45.240 just passively take your story fart into my mouth. I 1:53:45.280 --> 1:53:49.280 want to I want to like breathe, breathe it in 1:53:49.640 --> 1:53:51.559 and inhale it, and I want to keep it there. 1:53:51.640 --> 1:53:54.240 I'm not just gonna like I want you to fart 1:53:54.360 --> 1:53:59.040 your story into my mouth. I hold it in like 1:53:59.200 --> 1:54:03.639 this for a long time as long as that possibly can, 1:54:10.000 --> 1:54:15.439 and then just and then digest it. I'm sorry, that 1:54:15.520 --> 1:54:17.880 was stupid. What's up? Tell me what you were gonna say? 1:54:19.800 --> 1:54:23.000 All right? So question tonight is how. 1:54:22.840 --> 1:54:23.519 Have I sinned? 1:54:23.560 --> 1:54:23.680 Right? 1:54:26.640 --> 1:54:27.000 All right? 1:54:27.040 --> 1:54:28.680 So first off, let me tell you where I. 1:54:28.640 --> 1:54:39.920 Am right now. Sorry, we'll continue. 1:54:40.960 --> 1:54:41.320 All right. 1:54:41.600 --> 1:54:47.640 So, I'm currently living in my apartment with my fiance, 1:54:48.480 --> 1:54:52.200 my dog, my cat. I have two bunnies here. I'm 1:54:52.200 --> 1:54:54.880 living a really good life. I've been engaged for a 1:54:54.920 --> 1:54:58.640 little bit. I've been dating this girl for two years. 1:54:59.280 --> 1:55:05.640 Everything's going pretty great. The thing is, her dad doesn't know, 1:55:08.800 --> 1:55:10.960 and he has no idea that we were even dating. 1:55:11.000 --> 1:55:18.720 In the first place. So I mean, I don't know 1:55:18.840 --> 1:55:21.360 how to tell him. And the thing is, he's like, 1:55:21.480 --> 1:55:24.880 he's super abusive, and for the second that he finds out, 1:55:25.280 --> 1:55:27.560 I thinks she's gonna go self instantly. 1:55:28.320 --> 1:55:30.640 Well, I knew I need some more information here. You 1:55:30.720 --> 1:55:35.800 said that your dating you are You're no, you're engaged 1:55:36.360 --> 1:55:39.040 to this girl. You've been together with her for four years, 1:55:39.040 --> 1:55:43.960 you said, right, two years? Okay, Well, because you've been 1:55:43.960 --> 1:55:45.440 together for how long? You've engaged for. 1:55:47.840 --> 1:55:50.320 About six months? 1:55:50.920 --> 1:55:52.760 All right, You've been together for two years, engaged for 1:55:52.800 --> 1:55:56.800 six months? And her dad does not know? Why? Well, 1:55:56.880 --> 1:56:00.680 why is it such a How old are you guys? 1:56:01.640 --> 1:56:04.600 So I'm twenty one, she is nineteen. 1:56:04.320 --> 1:56:09.400 She's nineteen, okay, Okay, So her dad does not know 1:56:10.600 --> 1:56:18.760 that she is engaged to you? No, And why is 1:56:18.800 --> 1:56:20.320 it a problem if he were to know that? 1:56:22.440 --> 1:56:26.160 All right? So we went on a date when we 1:56:26.160 --> 1:56:29.720 were both in high school, right, And on this date 1:56:29.760 --> 1:56:34.680 we went to a movie theater and we were there 1:56:34.720 --> 1:56:37.040 a little bit early, and you know, one thing led 1:56:37.040 --> 1:56:41.920 to another thing in the movie theater parking lot cops 1:56:42.040 --> 1:56:45.320 ended up catching up and she got taken away in 1:56:45.320 --> 1:56:49.840 a cop d or you know, the squad car back 1:56:49.840 --> 1:56:54.600 to her dad. So we didn't talk to each other 1:56:54.640 --> 1:56:57.440 for about a year and then she reached out to me. 1:56:58.920 --> 1:57:02.959 However much, however long ago, and I don't know. Everything's 1:57:02.960 --> 1:57:07.480 been great since. And her dad doesn't know. She moved 1:57:07.520 --> 1:57:10.840 out from her dad's house. Turns out I didn't know 1:57:11.160 --> 1:57:13.840 at the time, but she was living in a really 1:57:13.840 --> 1:57:18.320 toxic situation. Like I don't know, I really don't even 1:57:18.360 --> 1:57:19.960 know the full story. I don't know the extent of 1:57:20.000 --> 1:57:23.280 it all, but I know it was really dramatizing to her. 1:57:25.520 --> 1:57:25.960 She's living. 1:57:26.200 --> 1:57:30.080 She went to go live with her mom, and that's 1:57:30.160 --> 1:57:33.680 how I got the opportunity to start talking to her again. 1:57:36.320 --> 1:57:40.240 So, so her dad does not like you because of 1:57:40.240 --> 1:57:50.280 that incidence, correct, Okay, regardless of my or anyone else's 1:57:50.320 --> 1:57:58.440 opinions on how you both as adults should live your life. Okay, 1:57:58.480 --> 1:58:01.080 if so, do you do you guys work? Does she? 1:58:01.280 --> 1:58:03.000 Does she live? Do you guys live together? 1:58:03.880 --> 1:58:04.000 Like? 1:58:04.040 --> 1:58:07.000 What's the the reason? The reason what I'm getting at 1:58:07.120 --> 1:58:10.480 is like your her dad does not like financially support 1:58:10.520 --> 1:58:11.680 either of you, does he? 1:58:12.720 --> 1:58:13.880 Oh? No, absolutely not? 1:58:14.240 --> 1:58:15.120 Okay, Then who. 1:58:16.600 --> 1:58:20.720 Is actually a CNA? She actually takes care of schizophrenic 1:58:20.840 --> 1:58:23.800 people for a living. I don't know, it's pretty crazy. 1:58:24.720 --> 1:58:26.720 Well, so then why why is it who gives a ship? 1:58:26.760 --> 1:58:28.560 Would he know? If he if he's not, you know, 1:58:28.680 --> 1:58:32.280 financially supporting anyone, and you know, if she doesn't have 1:58:32.320 --> 1:58:34.240 a great relationship with him to begin with, you know, 1:58:34.280 --> 1:58:36.640 why is it mather what he does or doesn't know? 1:58:36.920 --> 1:58:37.160 You know? 1:58:39.680 --> 1:58:44.080 Yeah, I guess that's true. 1:58:44.480 --> 1:58:48.520 I mean, you both, Well, she has a job, she's 1:58:48.560 --> 1:58:50.520 a caretaker. And then do you have a Do you. 1:58:50.480 --> 1:58:50.960 Have a job? 1:58:53.080 --> 1:58:58.920 Yeah, currently, I'm working at a restaurant called h I'm 1:58:58.960 --> 1:59:00.880 not going to name the place, but I'm working at 1:59:00.880 --> 1:59:02.160 a restaurant. Yeah. 1:59:02.200 --> 1:59:06.040 Well, dude, I mean, look, you both are independent adults, 1:59:06.440 --> 1:59:10.240 financially supporting yourselves. You're free to do whatever you want. 1:59:10.360 --> 1:59:13.800 You know, who cares what her dad thinks? 1:59:14.480 --> 1:59:14.680 Yeah? 1:59:14.680 --> 1:59:23.360 That's true. I mean I guess the one thing that 1:59:23.480 --> 1:59:28.920 I would say is that she's paranoid about what her 1:59:29.040 --> 1:59:33.959 dad might do when he finds out there was incidents 1:59:34.000 --> 1:59:39.080 in her childhood where he had like threatened gun violence 1:59:39.120 --> 1:59:43.280 towards her and just things that CPS should have gotten 1:59:43.280 --> 1:59:47.240 involved with, just not good stuff. 1:59:49.280 --> 1:59:52.520 Does does he know where does he know. Does she 1:59:52.600 --> 1:59:54.760 keep in contact with her dad often? 1:59:57.000 --> 1:59:58.880 She talks to him every once in a while just 1:59:58.920 --> 2:00:01.480 to like keep tabs him, to make sure that you know, 2:00:02.000 --> 2:00:05.000 he's not doing anything hurtful to any of the other 2:00:05.080 --> 2:00:06.320 children or anything like that. 2:00:07.000 --> 2:00:10.040 Are you Are you afraid that if he finds out 2:00:10.120 --> 2:00:11.600 that you guys are gett married, that he'll like come 2:00:11.680 --> 2:00:12.800 to where you guys live and hurt you. 2:00:16.400 --> 2:00:21.720 I'm afraid that there's a chance he might try. 2:00:25.120 --> 2:00:30.360 Well, I'll say one thing. You know this, this is 2:00:30.360 --> 2:00:35.280 hard for me to say because, Okay, what I I'm not. 2:00:35.360 --> 2:00:38.000 I'm not I'm not committing to this as my like 2:00:38.080 --> 2:00:42.280 take on this or whatever. But I I hate, regardless 2:00:42.280 --> 2:00:44.840 of regardless of what I personally think about getting married 2:00:44.840 --> 2:00:48.120 at twenty one, I hate to see you make any 2:00:48.160 --> 2:00:51.160 of your decisions in your life based on like fear 2:00:51.960 --> 2:00:58.240 of some guy's violence. You know, even even though I 2:00:58.320 --> 2:01:07.160 understand the fear of that violence, It's uh, I don't know. 2:01:07.160 --> 2:01:09.000 I don't want you to live your life and fear man, 2:01:10.120 --> 2:01:11.920 what can you I'm trying to think what you can do. 2:01:15.200 --> 2:01:18.040 I mean to be honest, I'm not really scared. It's 2:01:18.120 --> 2:01:20.720 kind of like, if he finds out he finds out, 2:01:21.160 --> 2:01:23.720 you know, like I live my life just day to 2:01:23.840 --> 2:01:28.200 day doing whatever I do. You know, if it happens, 2:01:28.400 --> 2:01:30.520 if it so happens that he finds out, I'll deal 2:01:30.560 --> 2:01:31.200 with it then. 2:01:31.240 --> 2:01:33.400 You know, h. 2:01:35.880 --> 2:01:37.480 Well, I mean shit. Man, Well then good on you 2:01:37.520 --> 2:01:41.000 for living your life with no fear or you know, 2:01:41.160 --> 2:01:43.160 not with no fear, but you know, not letting that 2:01:43.200 --> 2:01:43.680 control you. 2:01:45.800 --> 2:01:47.360 Yeah. 2:01:47.960 --> 2:01:51.640 I wish you both the best of luck. Man, Thank you. 2:01:53.400 --> 2:01:55.360 The wedding is in twelve months. 2:01:56.920 --> 2:02:00.400 Hell yeah, you know, good luck to you guys. 2:02:02.800 --> 2:02:03.160 Thank you. 2:02:03.920 --> 2:02:04.880 I have a good rest of the night. 2:02:04.920 --> 2:02:07.240 Man, you too. 2:02:08.200 --> 2:02:11.680 Never Get goes on the line taking your phone calls 2:02:11.760 --> 2:02:12.320 every night. 2:02:12.680 --> 2:02:16.040 Never Peak goes doing his night's teaching you a house. 2:02:16.240 --> 2:02:16.840 Of your life. 2:02:17.160 --> 2:02:19.400 But he's not really an expert.