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Speaker 1: Rad.

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Speaker 2: Hello, what's hi?

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Speaker 1: How's it going?

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Speaker 2: Not much? How about you?

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm chilling. I'm uh, I'm you know, I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: a gecko. What's up with you? Rad?

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Speaker 2: I'm just chilling too. Just wanted to tell you a story.

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Speaker 2: Oh please, Okay, I kind of just needed to get

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Speaker 2: this story off my chest because I'm not really sure

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Speaker 2: how to feel about it.

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Speaker 3: Good.

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Speaker 2: But when my friend and my best friend and I

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Speaker 2: were thirteen, we went to this water park resort thing

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Speaker 2: and we were floating down the lazy river together and

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Speaker 2: no one was around, and she told me that she

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Speaker 2: had this shit really bad, and I was like, okay,

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Speaker 2: let's go to the bathroom. But she told me that

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Speaker 2: she couldn't hold it and she couldn't make it to

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Speaker 2: the bathroom. So she pulled down her bikini bottoms and

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Speaker 2: she shit in the lazy river.

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Speaker 1: And how did you respond to this?

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Speaker 2: Well, I was right in front of her, and you know,

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Speaker 2: like lazy rivers have a current, so the poop started

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Speaker 2: floating towards me, and like right in the mix of time,

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Speaker 2: she scooped the turds up with her hands and threw

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Speaker 2: it into the bush right next to the lazy river,

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Speaker 2: She scooped.

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Speaker 1: The turd up with her head. Did the turd not

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Speaker 1: like dissolve into the water a little bit? I don't

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Speaker 1: know what the chemical composition is of turds, but I

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Speaker 1: would think that it would like sort of dissolve into

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Speaker 1: a little like diarrhea. Mist before was it like a

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Speaker 1: fully solid thing.

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Speaker 2: It was like it looked like like little rocks. It

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Speaker 2: wasn't like diarrhea.

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Speaker 4: It was like solid.

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Speaker 2: There was just like three of them, and she just

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Speaker 2: cuffed her hands kind of scooped them and tossed them.

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Speaker 1: Okay, three little pebbles.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And the water didn't turn brown or anything. It

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Speaker 2: just it was pretty clean poop.

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Speaker 1: And did this in any way affect your relationship with

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Speaker 1: your friends?

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Speaker 2: No, not really. It's kind of mmm, We're still best friends.

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Speaker 2: We just don't really talk about this incident.

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Speaker 1: That's probably for the best.

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Speaker 2: But the story also gets worse. So we went back

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Speaker 2: in the Lazy River like thirty minutes later, which, in

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Speaker 2: hindsight is like, we really probably shouldn't have done that,

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Speaker 2: because they're supposed to like shock the pool and stuff

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Speaker 2: after someone shifts in it. But when we got to

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Speaker 2: where she shit, it smelled really it smelled so bad,

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Speaker 2: but like for some reason you thought it was like

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Speaker 2: really funny and she was feeling kind of bad about it,

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Speaker 2: and she was trying to convince me to shit in

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Speaker 2: the Lazy river so that she wouldn't do it alone.

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Speaker 2: You know, what do you think you would have done?

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Speaker 2: I ship next to the lazy river.

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Speaker 1: You shipped next to the lazy river? So where where

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Speaker 1: was Where was that to the Laser River? Was it

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Speaker 1: on the edge? Was it in the bushes? Was it

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Speaker 1: so it was not in the water? Where did you

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Speaker 1: stand on the edge of the pool and then pull

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Speaker 1: down your pants and squat and ship into the pool.

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Speaker 2: I did not shit in the pool. I squatted next

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Speaker 2: to the pool and it was like in a bush

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Speaker 2: right next to it. I just couldn't do it in

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Speaker 2: the pool. I couldn't bring myself to do it. But

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Speaker 2: I just wanted to be a good friend.

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Speaker 1: And you did that just to make your friend feel better.

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Speaker 2: Yes, that's nice, and also we thought it was funny, okay,

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Speaker 2: but I just feel really guilty about it now.

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Speaker 1: Oh you fuld why do you feel guilty about.

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Speaker 2: It because someone had to clean it up or something?

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Speaker 4: You know.

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Speaker 2: That's true, or like I just I can't. I feel

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Speaker 2: bad for whoever like discovered it, like the employee.

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Speaker 1: Do you think that makes it less funny?

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Speaker 2: I kind of like, yeah, now now I think it

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Speaker 2: makes it less funny now that I'm older.

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Speaker 1: What were you about to say just now?

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I was about to say that it

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Speaker 2: keeps me up that night sometimes.

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Speaker 1: Can I ask how old you were when this happens.

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Speaker 2: We were twelve or thirteen, And I'm not sure if

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Speaker 2: that makes the story better or worse.

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Speaker 1: So how old are you, know, twenty one? If a

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Speaker 1: similar incident happens at this current age, if you were

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Speaker 2: Now, I don't think that I would shit next to

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Speaker 2: the lazy River again. I think I would just get

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Speaker 2: off of her emotional support.

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Speaker 1: Now, Okay, this is a friend that you've been friends

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Speaker 1: with for many years at this point. But let's say you,

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Speaker 1: as a twenty one year old, had a new friend

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Speaker 1: they did the same thing. Would that change your relationship

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Speaker 2: I would be shocked that it happened again. But I

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Speaker 2: feel like I might think a little differently of them

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Speaker 2: because they're not twelve or thirteen anymore. And maybe I

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Speaker 2: mean if they had like a medical condition or something

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Speaker 2: that caused them to do that, then obviously I wouldn't

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Speaker 2: judge them, but like just doing it for ships and giggles.

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Speaker 3: Like.

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Speaker 2: Literally, I don't know, literally ships and giggles?

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Speaker 1: Well, is their name?

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Speaker 5: Once?

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Speaker 6: Rad Rad?

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Speaker 1: Anything else? Want? Side of the people read.

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Speaker 2: I'm really sorry to whoever found the ship. I feel

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Speaker 2: really bad if you're out there.

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Speaker 1: Thank you for calling Brad the night you too.

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Speaker 7: Bye, week goes on the line.

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Speaker 1: Thank you every night ever goes.

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Speaker 8: He's teaching you.

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Speaker 6: Red.

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Speaker 1: Hello, Anthony, Hello, Hi, thanks for having me. Well, I

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Speaker 1: had to have that much, are you?

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Speaker 8: That's true.

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Speaker 9: I'm glad I have you.

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Speaker 1: I'm glad I have you too. Sorry, Anthony, what's going on, man, dude?

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Speaker 3: Not much?

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Speaker 10: Just uh, I'm just happy for the weekend. I got

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Speaker 10: some news today and I don't know how Yeah, I

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Speaker 10: don't know how to take it. Like like my girlfriend, uh,

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Speaker 10: she told me that she kind of wants to bring

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Speaker 10: like another female into the relationship.

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Speaker 11: Mm hm.

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Speaker 10: And I just don't know, Like it sounds really cool

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Speaker 10: on paper, but I don't know if I can handle it.

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Speaker 1: Why don't you think that you can handle it?

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Speaker 5: Well?

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Speaker 10: I think, like I think I might like I might

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Speaker 10: more attention mmm than she gives me M. And I

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Speaker 10: don't know if I can take it m hmm.

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Speaker 1: Okay, So when she told you that, when she brought

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Speaker 1: this idea up to you, what did you first say

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Speaker 10: Well, I kind of just said, like, that's cool, like

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Speaker 10: that sounds interesting. But as like time, when I like,

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Speaker 10: I just processed it, and I don't know, I think

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Speaker 10: M And I don't know if that would be a

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Speaker 10: good thing for the relationship.

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Speaker 1: Okay, did you tell her this?

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Speaker 5: I did.

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Speaker 10: Yeah, our communication is pretty solid.

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Speaker 1: That's good to hear. What did she say.

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Speaker 10: She kind of just said, there's nothing really to worry about,

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Speaker 10: and uh, we kind of just figured it out as

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Speaker 10: we went.

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Speaker 1: So okay, she said, she said, we'll figure it out

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Speaker 1: as we go. That's what she said.

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Speaker 10: Yeah, Yeah, it's kind of like, yeah, we'll just try

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Speaker 10: it out and see what happened.

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so are you what's what? How would

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Speaker 1: you rate your comfortability level in just trying it out?

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Speaker 10: I don't. I mean, yeah, sure, I'll give it a shot. Okay,

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Speaker 10: but like without knowing what this person, I don't there's

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Speaker 10: no person yet, so there's not much to worry about.

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Speaker 10: But like if it does like this, if it does happen,

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Speaker 10: like I just don't know how it handled. Like what

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Speaker 12: What if?

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Speaker 10: Like there's so many variables that could just change everything,

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Speaker 10: and it's just like my anxiety is just through the roof.

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Speaker 1: This is a tough one because you know, if because

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Speaker 1: I'm I'm not hearing from you that like you're anxious

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Speaker 1: there can exist a.

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Speaker 3: Fee.

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Speaker 1: I feel like there can exist a I feel like

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Speaker 1: and no, absolutely not. I feel like there can exist

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Speaker 1: a legitimate emotion of I'm apprehensive but willing to try it.

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Speaker 1: You know, Oh, yeah, but I don't, but I don't,

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Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't, I don't know. We haven't

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Speaker 1: I'm here. And and again, don't let me like influence

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Speaker 1: your whatever thoughts about it. But that's kind of not

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Speaker 1: what I'm hearing from you, Like like, Okay, I've heard

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Speaker 1: what tell me about tell me more about the other

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Speaker 1: half of you that is that is into this, you

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Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like, are you our part could

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Speaker 1: be parts of this exciting to you?

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Speaker 10: Sure of course?

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Speaker 1: Okaye, absolutely, Okay, exciting enough that you're you're going to

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Speaker 1: you know, I'm sorry, go ahead.

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Speaker 9: Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, give it a go.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 10: Sure. But there's there's a fear though that you know, uh,

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Speaker 10: just something like negative could happen out of this too,

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Speaker 10: Like what we have is so great, So like I

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Speaker 10: really don't know if I want to disturb it, I

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Speaker 10: don't know.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmm, well, I'll say, you know, ye, I don't know. Man,

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Speaker 1: It sounds like you have a really good communication with

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Speaker 1: your partner. And if that's the case, and if that

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Speaker 1: remains the case, I feel like you don't have anything

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Speaker 1: to worry about, you know, as long as you guys

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Speaker 1: are keeping a good, good line of communication.

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Speaker 10: Oh wow, I like that. Okay, yeah, dude, Yeah, I

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Speaker 10: feel I feel a little bit better about it. Yeah,

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Speaker 10: I feel pretty sure.

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Speaker 1: Do you feel do you feel like you have the

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Speaker 1: do you feel like you have the sexual skill to

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Speaker 1: please to women at once?

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Speaker 5: Oh? Absolutely?

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Speaker 10: Oh yes, of course.

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Speaker 1: That's you know that, that's the confidence we like to hear.

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Speaker 10: Yet try Yeah, I tried. I tried to reconfident.

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Speaker 1: What what what was it you were gonna ask me?

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Speaker 10: Nothing, I uh, I was good. I don't know. I'm

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Speaker 10: just gonna ask you what your I don't know what

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Speaker 1: Thank you for calling, Anthony. I have a good rest

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Speaker 2: Yeah, split your I.

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Speaker 4: I can't even like have a piece of like bone

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Speaker 4: So the influence they did let me go, Yeah, they

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Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, how did they like.

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Speaker 4: Because he thought I was drunk. Yeah, he thought I

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Speaker 1: You were drunk on the I think the charge you

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Speaker 4: No, I was arrested for DUI was not charged with

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Speaker 1: Yes, So can I ask you at any point in

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Speaker 1: I just have a concussion.

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Speaker 4: Yeah I did, yeah, absolutely, Like he was pulled me

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Speaker 4: He only pulled me over like a block away from

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Speaker 4: He wasn't having it.

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Speaker 1: So did you go to the hospital shortly after this

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Speaker 7: I did not.

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Speaker 4: I do not have health insurance, so I just rested.

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Speaker 1: Because your toilet your toilet, you're not supposed to go

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Speaker 4: Heard, Well, yeah, I know, but I was also, I

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Speaker 1: Okay, So well, how do you know that you had.

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Speaker 4: She's a good friend. Well, like my my pupils weren't dilated.

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Speaker 1: So you so you were like holding out to go

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Speaker 4: I didn't think it was I didn't think it was

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Speaker 4: like once once, I I thought it was like a

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Speaker 1: How long after you were injured did you go to

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Speaker 4: It was probably like, oh, gee, see my memory is

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Speaker 4: was less than two days?

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Speaker 1: Okay? How much was how much was the bill when

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Speaker 1: they eventually saw your head.

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Speaker 4: Oh, I definitely did not pay any attention to it.

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Speaker 4: I definitely did not pay it nice. I think I

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Speaker 4: had to pay seventy five dollars to be seen. But

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Speaker 4: after that, you know, you like get a bill, and

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Speaker 4: I don't have money for that. I'm a production specialist.

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Speaker 4: I make all kinds of like a la and shit.

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Speaker 1: Well, you know, look, if you don't have health insurance,

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Speaker 1: beat beat damn. Careful around that heavy machinery.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, well I think, like you know, a work, I

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Speaker 4: it is a little intimidating for sure.

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Speaker 1: Would you say your name was Chelsea?

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Speaker 4: Chelsea?

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Speaker 1: I got a name, right, Chelsea, dude, thank you so

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Speaker 1: much for sharing. And I hope your head feels better.

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Speaker 1: How long ago is this.

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Speaker 4: Probably like a maybe a year and a half.

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Speaker 2: I'm good.

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Speaker 5: I'm good for sure.

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Speaker 4: I've definitely got better about standing. Yeah, about learning where

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Speaker 4: to stand and where not to stand. Uh, because I

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Speaker 4: did like scoot like her like kick drum back you

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Speaker 4: know a little bit when I hit it with my head,

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Speaker 4: So that was embarrassing too, like, so definitely a learning experience.

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Speaker 1: Well, I'm glad it was a learning experience and think

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Speaker 1: of sharing. Chelsea, You're welcome.

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Speaker 4: Have a great night, loud.

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Speaker 3: Joe?

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Speaker 8: Is that you?

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it's me.

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Speaker 1: What's up Joe?

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Speaker 5: Another whole lot in So was your night?

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Speaker 1: Joe? Tell me everything? Tell me nothing, you know, go crazy,

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Speaker 1: it's such, it's good nuts.

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Speaker 4: Uh.

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Speaker 5: Basically, Uh, I have a streamed relationship with my sister

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Speaker 5: and the source of that well, it's been going on

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Speaker 5: for a long time. But the nature of it is

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Speaker 5: she kind of disagrees with my chosen procession, and you know,

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Speaker 5: I think it kind of spills over from our parents

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Speaker 5: but I think they've kind of come to peace with it.

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Speaker 5: But I think she still kind of holds a grudge

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Speaker 5: over it, and I'm just trying to figure out how

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Speaker 1: Why do you think she has a problem with your profession?

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Speaker 5: You know, I guess from her perspective, there's a moral

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Speaker 5: dimension to it that a lot of people have a

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Speaker 5: problem or some people I don't know.

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Speaker 1: And yet you're how long have you been in this profession?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 5: Well, as an amateur, you know, I started. I guess

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Speaker 5: nine ten years now.

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Speaker 1: And you told me that your parents initially were shared

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Speaker 1: your sister's sentiment and they weren't into it. But they've

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Speaker 1: since come around.

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Speaker 5: I wouldn't say they came around, but they kind of,

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Speaker 5: you know, they made their peace with us.

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Speaker 1: Okay, they're not happling n truly.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, yeah. They haven't asked about it in a

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Speaker 5: of an indicator that they're you know, that they've come

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Speaker 5: to their own form of acceptance with that, and I

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Speaker 5: appreciate that. I guess, you know, I certainly don't want

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Speaker 5: to upset the Apple card on it or anything. It's

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Speaker 5: not something I'm going to bring up. It's maybe in

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Speaker 5: the back of their minds at times, you know, but

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Speaker 5: my sister is much more overt and sort of letting

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Speaker 5: me know how she feels.

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Speaker 1: Okay, what do you think about what you do?

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Speaker 5: Well? At times, it's fun, it's rewarding. At other times

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Speaker 5: I can understand their perspective. You know, it can get messy,

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Speaker 5: the conditions are a little uh, you know, they involve

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Speaker 9: Uh.

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Speaker 5: It involves a lot of substances, a lot a lot

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Speaker 5: of substances, okay, and so that kind of uh uh,

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Speaker 5: that can get a little weird, I know, but I've

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Speaker 5: built up a tolerance for it. You know, I can,

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Speaker 5: really I can. I do well in that environment.

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Speaker 1: Now, let me ask you. This is a two part,

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Speaker 1: two prong question. I'm curious about do you think do

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Speaker 1: you think that what you do helps people? And then

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Speaker 1: you do helps people?

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Speaker 9: Well?

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Speaker 5: I think it helps people in some sense, you know,

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Speaker 5: And I'm very well of what I do, especially in

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Speaker 5: at getting where.

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Speaker 11: We need to go, okay, And so I think in

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Speaker 5: To people in that process. Was the second part of

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Speaker 1: Oh well, the second part of the question was, you know,

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Speaker 1: is it important to you that what you do helps people,

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Speaker 1: and it doesn't fucking have to be you know, no

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Speaker 1: curious if if that is important to you?

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Speaker 5: Uh, you know, I I think so if I if

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Speaker 5: I didn't do it well, I feel kind of unsatisfied.

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Speaker 5: You know, if if I got the sense that the

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Speaker 5: I think I would feel kind of like I didn't

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Speaker 5: do my job well. So for me, yeah, it's really important.

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Speaker 1: Are okay? Now, your sister, I wanted to ask you

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Speaker 1: if you felt like your sister's opinion is important to you,

450
00:27:50,800 --> 00:27:53,240
Speaker 1: And I feel like the fact that you even called

451
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:57,040
Speaker 1: to talk about this indicates that to some level it is.

452
00:27:57,240 --> 00:28:02,720
Speaker 1: But I'm curious, like to what extent your senysor's opinion

453
00:28:02,800 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 1: is genuinely important too.

454
00:28:06,040 --> 00:28:12,800
Speaker 5: Well, it's important because it's important actually because sometimes she's

455
00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:22,760
Speaker 5: a consumer of what I produce, and so that's actually

456
00:28:22,840 --> 00:28:24,000
Speaker 5: kind of a weird dynamic.

457
00:28:29,359 --> 00:28:31,480
Speaker 1: She's a consumer of what you know. Does she purchase

458
00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:35,360
Speaker 1: what you produce directly from you?

459
00:28:35,400 --> 00:28:39,480
Speaker 5: No? No, it's through a vendor, usually on the internet.

460
00:28:40,080 --> 00:28:45,560
Speaker 1: Okay, interesting, So she purchases what it is you produce,

461
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:48,200
Speaker 1: but she does not approve of you producing it.

462
00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:55,000
Speaker 5: That's correct. Yeah, that's my sense anyway. Yeah, And I

463
00:28:55,040 --> 00:28:58,200
Speaker 5: don't know if it's like, you know, because I know

464
00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:03,200
Speaker 5: that she's probably watched or sorry, has consumed some of

465
00:29:03,240 --> 00:29:10,239
Speaker 5: the products that I've produced and and particularly you know,

466
00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:14,320
Speaker 5: some of the products that have included me, like prolifically.

467
00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:19,240
Speaker 5: And I don't know if her disapproval kind of stems

468
00:29:19,280 --> 00:29:21,840
Speaker 5: from a result.

469
00:29:21,560 --> 00:29:23,960
Speaker 8: Of, you know, me.

470
00:29:25,680 --> 00:29:29,920
Speaker 5: Not doing well in the product or something like if

471
00:29:29,960 --> 00:29:33,560
Speaker 5: it's my lack of if it's like a critique of

472
00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:38,880
Speaker 5: my performance in that product, or if it's just like

473
00:29:38,960 --> 00:29:42,120
Speaker 5: an overall discussed.

474
00:29:43,160 --> 00:29:43,360
Speaker 3: You know.

475
00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:46,240
Speaker 5: But sometimes I think it's the former, because she's very

476
00:29:49,480 --> 00:29:54,720
Speaker 5: she's very adamant about that, you know, and she sometimes

477
00:29:54,760 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 5: she gets quite detailed in describing the product and what

478
00:30:03,240 --> 00:30:06,640
Speaker 5: she doesn't like about it, and it puts me in

479
00:30:06,640 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 5: a very uncomfortable position because of the nature of my work.

480
00:30:10,720 --> 00:30:23,120
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. So do you you know there's this thing

481
00:30:23,320 --> 00:30:27,280
Speaker 1: where like, how often do you even see your sister,

482
00:30:27,680 --> 00:30:30,560
Speaker 1: Does she like live with you, does she live in

483
00:30:30,600 --> 00:30:32,880
Speaker 1: the same city as you? How often even around her?

484
00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:36,720
Speaker 5: Yeah, Yeah, we're we're in the same neighborhood in California.

485
00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:40,080
Speaker 5: It's over like a couple of blocks.

486
00:30:39,800 --> 00:30:44,680
Speaker 1: Apart, you know, because you know, I mean, no, go ahead,

487
00:30:46,440 --> 00:30:46,720
Speaker 1: Well what.

488
00:30:46,800 --> 00:30:48,719
Speaker 5: We text often too, you know, we have like an

489
00:30:48,760 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 5: open an open uh messenger throughout or whatever.

490
00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:58,480
Speaker 1: So because you know, I mean, you can love your sister,

491
00:30:58,560 --> 00:31:00,800
Speaker 1: and you can like your sister, you can be friendly

492
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:04,120
Speaker 1: with your sister. But if but at the same time,

493
00:31:05,280 --> 00:31:09,160
Speaker 1: you know, if every time you or often when you're

494
00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:11,240
Speaker 1: interacting with her, she just makes you just walk away

495
00:31:11,280 --> 00:31:15,080
Speaker 1: feeling bad, then I think it's okay for you to

496
00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:19,080
Speaker 1: sort of slowly, like you know, diminish the amount of

497
00:31:19,080 --> 00:31:22,520
Speaker 1: contact that you have with her without like you know,

498
00:31:22,640 --> 00:31:25,080
Speaker 1: damaging the relationship, if only because you want to feel

499
00:31:25,080 --> 00:31:26,360
Speaker 1: bad less.

500
00:31:27,960 --> 00:31:30,360
Speaker 5: Yeah, well, I mean another wrinkle to this too is

501
00:31:30,720 --> 00:31:34,520
Speaker 5: like I agree with that, but you know, in my

502
00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:37,360
Speaker 5: line of work, like there's a really there's actually a

503
00:31:37,360 --> 00:31:41,080
Speaker 5: lot of room for career progression, and I'm kind of

504
00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:44,160
Speaker 5: moving into some different realms in terms of some of

505
00:31:44,200 --> 00:31:50,480
Speaker 5: the products I'm producing, and they're becoming increasingly complex and

506
00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:56,959
Speaker 5: varied and very very physically demanding work. And not just

507
00:31:57,040 --> 00:32:01,120
Speaker 5: like with respect to like physical endurance, but with respect

508
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:10,000
Speaker 5: to a tolerance or a different uh types of instruments.

509
00:32:10,240 --> 00:32:14,680
Speaker 5: I guess put it that way, you know. And so

510
00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:21,240
Speaker 5: I know that she also uh consumes those products. And

511
00:32:21,320 --> 00:32:24,960
Speaker 5: so it's like, by virtue of me expanding into my roles,

512
00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:29,640
Speaker 5: into the into my career, uh, you know, there's a

513
00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:34,600
Speaker 5: chance that I might expose myself to even more critique.

514
00:32:36,600 --> 00:32:38,760
Speaker 5: And so it kind of becomes a question for me.

515
00:32:38,840 --> 00:32:39,680
Speaker 8: I guess of.

516
00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:42,760
Speaker 5: You know, how much longer do I want to put

517
00:32:42,840 --> 00:32:44,880
Speaker 5: up with with that? Do it? Do I need to

518
00:32:44,880 --> 00:32:49,440
Speaker 5: cut off the relationship or not? You know, but it's

519
00:32:49,480 --> 00:32:50,560
Speaker 5: just a tough situation.

520
00:32:51,280 --> 00:32:55,760
Speaker 1: Have you told her directly, hey, you know, I love you,

521
00:32:55,760 --> 00:32:58,840
Speaker 1: You're my sister, but I don't want to hear it

522
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:05,200
Speaker 1: from you anymore about this it.

523
00:33:05,760 --> 00:33:08,160
Speaker 5: No, I haven't been that open. No, it's been really

524
00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:10,959
Speaker 5: kind of a couched a coach. Because the other thing,

525
00:33:11,000 --> 00:33:15,120
Speaker 5: too is I actually here's a you know, I'm sorry

526
00:33:15,120 --> 00:33:19,440
Speaker 5: to keep adding to the complexity that I kind of

527
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:27,240
Speaker 5: I appreciate that she consumes my products. I think there's

528
00:33:27,240 --> 00:33:31,239
Speaker 5: something to there's something to the critique that like I

529
00:33:31,240 --> 00:33:35,680
Speaker 5: find comfort in because I know that she's watching my

530
00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:43,480
Speaker 5: video or consuming my products, you know, Like I appreciate

531
00:33:43,520 --> 00:33:47,280
Speaker 5: that there's people that are that are appreciate you watching

532
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:49,480
Speaker 5: my seat.

533
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:49,800
Speaker 3: Thank you.

534
00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:54,200
Speaker 5: I appreciate, yes, appreciate my work, you know.

535
00:33:55,720 --> 00:34:02,160
Speaker 1: M hm well Man. You know, I think that the

536
00:34:03,720 --> 00:34:05,120
Speaker 1: and you know, we've all had to sort of do

537
00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:09,040
Speaker 1: something like this. I think that being sort of direct

538
00:34:09,040 --> 00:34:10,799
Speaker 1: with your sister because look, dude, you know, if you're

539
00:34:10,800 --> 00:34:14,279
Speaker 1: not telling her that something she's doing or saying is

540
00:34:14,320 --> 00:34:17,840
Speaker 1: bothering you, she might not even know, you know. So

541
00:34:18,200 --> 00:34:20,680
Speaker 1: I think that if you want this to stop, that's

542
00:34:20,719 --> 00:34:25,560
Speaker 1: the number one initial way to go about it. It's

543
00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:28,560
Speaker 1: just by letting her know that this is bothering you.

544
00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:35,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's a good point. I think being direct and open,

545
00:34:36,160 --> 00:34:37,920
Speaker 5: I mean, that's certainly a value I have in my

546
00:34:38,080 --> 00:34:40,799
Speaker 5: mind of work. Like it's a very it's a very

547
00:34:40,840 --> 00:34:43,719
Speaker 5: exposed setting. So I don't know why I have such

548
00:34:43,719 --> 00:34:46,719
Speaker 5: a problem with that, like with respect to my internal emotions,

549
00:34:47,400 --> 00:34:50,879
Speaker 5: because I certainly don't have an issue, you know, being

550
00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:55,160
Speaker 5: that open in other settings with other parts of myself,

551
00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:59,759
Speaker 5: you know. So I don't know, there's kind of a

552
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:02,160
Speaker 5: weird conflict there, I guess.

553
00:35:02,160 --> 00:35:08,200
Speaker 1: Hm, well Man, would you say name was Joe Joe

554
00:35:08,719 --> 00:35:10,439
Speaker 1: well John Man? Look, I wish you're the best of luck.

555
00:35:10,480 --> 00:35:13,520
Speaker 1: I hope that you know, I hope, I hope you

556
00:35:13,520 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 1: do end up you know, letting your sister know how

557
00:35:15,520 --> 00:35:17,400
Speaker 1: you feel. And I appreciate you sharing.

558
00:35:20,239 --> 00:35:23,040
Speaker 5: Well. Thanks man, and i'd appreciate if all your viewers

559
00:35:23,200 --> 00:35:24,839
Speaker 5: check out browsers dot com as well.

560
00:35:25,440 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 1: Absolutely have aggressed the night.

561
00:35:28,760 --> 00:35:29,600
Speaker 5: All right, thanks ma'am.

562
00:35:35,000 --> 00:35:36,200
Speaker 6: All from Fame Auto?

563
00:35:36,480 --> 00:35:36,920
Speaker 1: What's up?

564
00:35:38,560 --> 00:35:38,799
Speaker 8: Hey?

565
00:35:38,840 --> 00:35:41,440
Speaker 1: What are you doing Fame Auto?

566
00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:43,080
Speaker 8: Yes?

567
00:35:45,160 --> 00:35:48,120
Speaker 1: How I want a new car for free?

568
00:35:49,440 --> 00:35:51,280
Speaker 13: Oh my god, I'm on the radio.

569
00:35:54,160 --> 00:35:57,520
Speaker 1: I want I want a new car, Give me a

570
00:35:57,600 --> 00:35:58,040
Speaker 1: car now.

571
00:35:58,080 --> 00:36:01,759
Speaker 14: Look, I want a lot of Well it's similar to

572
00:36:01,800 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 14: repair demands, I mean very expensive repair them.

573
00:36:09,800 --> 00:36:18,640
Speaker 1: Free car. Any car else I will be upset or

574
00:36:18,680 --> 00:36:20,880
Speaker 1: and I will wind and have a tantrum if I

575
00:36:20,920 --> 00:36:22,480
Speaker 1: do not get a free car.

576
00:36:23,239 --> 00:36:23,840
Speaker 3: Do you mind?

577
00:36:23,840 --> 00:36:25,160
Speaker 14: And what kind of car it is?

578
00:36:26,200 --> 00:36:26,640
Speaker 1: Free? One?

579
00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:28,960
Speaker 8: Okay?

580
00:36:29,000 --> 00:36:31,000
Speaker 13: Because the one I have a free you may not.

581
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:32,560
Speaker 9: Have all the wheels.

582
00:36:33,600 --> 00:36:34,600
Speaker 1: I want it to be blue.

583
00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:36,560
Speaker 3: Oh blue.

584
00:36:37,719 --> 00:36:41,080
Speaker 13: I don't know they get those Joe blue cars per second.

585
00:36:42,719 --> 00:36:43,239
Speaker 1: I want it.

586
00:36:46,360 --> 00:36:47,480
Speaker 3: Well, it is so surreal.

587
00:36:47,560 --> 00:36:49,640
Speaker 13: Like I called earlier and I had your voicemail and

588
00:36:49,680 --> 00:36:52,440
Speaker 13: I left the voice message, I'm just getting off for it.

589
00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:54,440
Speaker 13: And I'm struggling with my dog right now.

590
00:36:54,600 --> 00:37:01,000
Speaker 1: Now, come on, what's up? Man? Tell me everything? Tell

591
00:37:01,040 --> 00:37:04,080
Speaker 1: me nothing, Tell me gecko, you're a guy. We're in

592
00:37:04,080 --> 00:37:09,560
Speaker 1: the forest. Nothing matters. Some things, I don't know who cares?

593
00:37:09,680 --> 00:37:12,360
Speaker 1: Who cares what I have to say? What's up? Fame Otto?

594
00:37:12,400 --> 00:37:14,719
Speaker 1: Have you ever lied to anyone that you love?

595
00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:16,640
Speaker 8: Yes? I have?

596
00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:17,920
Speaker 1: Tell me about it?

597
00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:21,840
Speaker 13: Which one I've writ multiple times?

598
00:37:22,480 --> 00:37:23,800
Speaker 1: Given the most recent time.

599
00:37:25,000 --> 00:37:27,920
Speaker 13: Most recent to Oh my wife said did you leave

600
00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:30,279
Speaker 13: the door open on the refrigerator? And I said no,

601
00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:32,719
Speaker 13: it was clear to me. And I said, I think

602
00:37:32,760 --> 00:37:34,920
Speaker 13: you went out there to go get some cakes. And

603
00:37:35,000 --> 00:37:37,440
Speaker 13: she said, oh, I thought I closed it. I did,

604
00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:38,279
Speaker 13: and he just did open.

605
00:37:40,080 --> 00:37:41,240
Speaker 1: It's called gas lighting.

606
00:37:43,600 --> 00:37:48,799
Speaker 13: Well I lied, like probably a little bit of both.

607
00:37:50,520 --> 00:37:53,200
Speaker 1: Is gaslighting and lying that the same thing? Or are

608
00:37:53,239 --> 00:37:54,799
Speaker 1: they different things?

609
00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,520
Speaker 13: Mm hmm. I think it's depends on the context of

610
00:38:01,560 --> 00:38:02,160
Speaker 13: the situation.

611
00:38:03,239 --> 00:38:05,440
Speaker 1: Why now I can ask why you? Uh? Why did

612
00:38:05,440 --> 00:38:06,080
Speaker 1: you lie about that?

613
00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:09,399
Speaker 13: Because I was I was sitting, I had just sat

614
00:38:09,480 --> 00:38:13,839
Speaker 13: down and I got comfortable and I did not want

615
00:38:13,840 --> 00:38:14,560
Speaker 13: to get up again?

616
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:18,239
Speaker 1: Was it worth it to lie?

617
00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:22,440
Speaker 13: Thinking back about it, now, you know.

618
00:38:25,360 --> 00:38:25,719
Speaker 1: You sure?

619
00:38:28,640 --> 00:38:30,440
Speaker 3: Okay? Uh?

620
00:38:32,400 --> 00:38:34,520
Speaker 13: Yeah, because I guess I think she knew was lying,

621
00:38:34,680 --> 00:38:38,000
Speaker 13: but she just let it slide. And I used one

622
00:38:38,040 --> 00:38:42,000
Speaker 13: of those free like lying cards on the refrigerator door.

623
00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:44,600
Speaker 1: I don't know, I'm gonna look at the pros and

624
00:38:44,680 --> 00:38:47,120
Speaker 1: the concert. The pros. You didn't have to get up

625
00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:48,399
Speaker 1: to close the refrigerator door.

626
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:51,480
Speaker 13: True, I didn't have to give up my seat because

627
00:38:51,520 --> 00:38:53,120
Speaker 13: she wanted that. See too. I know, I know it

628
00:38:53,320 --> 00:38:54,720
Speaker 13: was like she was gonna take.

629
00:38:56,120 --> 00:39:03,000
Speaker 1: The cons H help me out here. Uh.

630
00:39:03,120 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 13: The cons is that, uh, I can't use that lie

631
00:39:07,120 --> 00:39:09,799
Speaker 13: again the times. Probably she's gonna catch up onto it.

632
00:39:12,280 --> 00:39:14,240
Speaker 13: Then I'll feel guilty because.

633
00:39:17,840 --> 00:39:20,320
Speaker 5: Let's see another lie that's.

634
00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:22,879
Speaker 1: Not even I mean, look, I'm sure, but luck man,

635
00:39:23,320 --> 00:39:24,720
Speaker 1: you'll come up with more lies.

636
00:39:26,719 --> 00:39:31,440
Speaker 13: Yeah, all right, so one, you're not.

637
00:39:31,400 --> 00:39:33,160
Speaker 1: Limited to just that one lie. So I don't think

638
00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:35,719
Speaker 1: the fact that you're burning a line that one was

639
00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:39,439
Speaker 1: not bad. You can use the lie again. I don't

640
00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:40,880
Speaker 1: see why you can't use that lie again.

641
00:39:43,120 --> 00:39:44,880
Speaker 14: True, But it's.

642
00:39:44,760 --> 00:39:47,040
Speaker 13: Coming to the point where, like my wife and I

643
00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:50,200
Speaker 13: move each other pretty well, so she knows when I'm

644
00:39:50,239 --> 00:39:52,120
Speaker 13: lying and I know when she's lying. So I have

645
00:39:52,239 --> 00:39:55,200
Speaker 13: to get more created. They guess and I don't want

646
00:39:55,239 --> 00:39:56,359
Speaker 13: to m hm.

647
00:39:59,800 --> 00:40:02,080
Speaker 1: Uh. Do you who lies more.

648
00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:05,080
Speaker 13: As in men or women?

649
00:40:05,840 --> 00:40:07,920
Speaker 1: No, between you and your wife?

650
00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:10,120
Speaker 13: Oh, definitely me hands down.

651
00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:17,040
Speaker 1: What what's the ratio like how for every like is

652
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:19,479
Speaker 1: it like for every one of her lies? For every

653
00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:21,879
Speaker 1: time she lies? How many? How many? How many lies

654
00:40:21,920 --> 00:40:23,759
Speaker 1: do you have? What's the ratio of her lies to

655
00:40:23,800 --> 00:40:24,720
Speaker 1: your lives?

656
00:40:26,040 --> 00:40:28,399
Speaker 13: I think for every night that she does, I would

657
00:40:28,440 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 13: say probably do like six or seven.

658
00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:31,320
Speaker 14: Maybe.

659
00:40:31,440 --> 00:40:33,840
Speaker 1: Really that's a lot of lies.

660
00:40:34,680 --> 00:40:35,000
Speaker 10: All right?

661
00:40:35,040 --> 00:40:36,799
Speaker 1: Tell me tell me you were Tell me all right,

662
00:40:36,800 --> 00:40:38,320
Speaker 1: so you had the frigera? What was it? What's another

663
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:39,520
Speaker 1: lie that you've told your wife?

664
00:40:41,280 --> 00:40:44,960
Speaker 13: Another lie? I told my wife? It's mostly you about

665
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:47,839
Speaker 13: me being irresponsible. Honestly. She tells me like, oh, make

666
00:40:47,880 --> 00:40:50,600
Speaker 13: sure you do a laundry before you know. We go

667
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:52,520
Speaker 13: out into stuff, and I'm like, oh, yeah, for sure,

668
00:40:52,520 --> 00:40:58,879
Speaker 13: I'm gonna good tonight, and surprise, I'm good tonight. Does

669
00:40:58,920 --> 00:40:59,360
Speaker 13: that count?

670
00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:01,120
Speaker 1: Say that again?

671
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:02,879
Speaker 3: All right?

672
00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:06,960
Speaker 13: So we alternately doing laundry, right, yeah, And when she

673
00:41:07,040 --> 00:41:09,640
Speaker 13: says she's gonna do it, she's like, I'm gonna do

674
00:41:09,640 --> 00:41:12,799
Speaker 13: the laundry tonight. Boom she does it. And then she said, oh,

675
00:41:13,000 --> 00:41:14,759
Speaker 13: you just trying to do the laundry.

676
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:15,239
Speaker 3: Do it.

677
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:17,719
Speaker 13: I'm like, oh yeah, I'm gonna do it tomorrow at

678
00:41:17,760 --> 00:41:19,719
Speaker 13: this time, and then I don't do it.

679
00:41:22,840 --> 00:41:28,920
Speaker 1: Okay, So pros you don't have to do the laundry.

680
00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:36,840
Speaker 14: Consh my suppose answer.

681
00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:41,200
Speaker 13: Okay, I guess I get I get to wear gerty

682
00:41:41,280 --> 00:41:44,319
Speaker 13: laundry or I don't have things to wear.

683
00:41:46,640 --> 00:41:48,640
Speaker 1: Look, what's your name again?

684
00:41:50,080 --> 00:41:50,680
Speaker 8: Oh my name?

685
00:41:50,960 --> 00:41:54,560
Speaker 5: My name is Farid s A R I d Red.

686
00:41:56,120 --> 00:41:58,280
Speaker 1: Yeah for read it's I mean, it sounds like lying

687
00:41:58,320 --> 00:41:59,680
Speaker 1: has worked out very well for you.

688
00:42:01,960 --> 00:42:07,120
Speaker 13: Actually that is a pro. Yeah, you know, yeah, but

689
00:42:07,560 --> 00:42:10,600
Speaker 13: I don't like to tell people here make sure you lie,

690
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:15,480
Speaker 13: because then it sounds like you are just taking advantage

691
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:19,000
Speaker 13: of someone, and that's not that's not that's not.

692
00:42:19,040 --> 00:42:19,560
Speaker 3: Nice at all.

693
00:42:20,480 --> 00:42:23,560
Speaker 13: I think people should be genuinely.

694
00:42:24,560 --> 00:42:25,520
Speaker 14: True and.

695
00:42:28,000 --> 00:42:28,600
Speaker 13: To each other.

696
00:42:28,640 --> 00:42:34,279
Speaker 1: And yeah, yeah, but you could also just lie and

697
00:42:34,960 --> 00:42:36,279
Speaker 1: get whatever you want all the time.

698
00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:41,160
Speaker 5: Yeah.

699
00:42:41,320 --> 00:42:51,920
Speaker 13: Well, I guess so have you liked? No, perfect, You're hired,

700
00:42:52,280 --> 00:42:53,160
Speaker 13: Welcome aboard.

701
00:42:54,719 --> 00:42:56,680
Speaker 1: Happy to be here. Thank you so much for calling.

702
00:42:56,800 --> 00:43:01,880
Speaker 1: Uh say say your name again, buddy said, thank you

703
00:43:01,920 --> 00:43:03,600
Speaker 1: for sure, have a good rest that thank you.

704
00:43:03,800 --> 00:43:09,200
Speaker 14: Congratulations fall from Rebecca.

705
00:43:10,360 --> 00:43:14,359
Speaker 1: Rebecca Hello, what's up, dude?

706
00:43:15,880 --> 00:43:19,160
Speaker 7: That's a much I've just been hanging out Rebecca.

707
00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:21,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, what do you believe?

708
00:43:25,320 --> 00:43:29,799
Speaker 7: Okay, I was like deciding between two different options that

709
00:43:29,880 --> 00:43:32,400
Speaker 7: I think I know that I will talk about. Basically,

710
00:43:34,800 --> 00:43:38,879
Speaker 7: I've always had this weird like conflict at the back

711
00:43:38,920 --> 00:43:42,600
Speaker 7: of my mind that I've like depressed over the years

712
00:43:42,880 --> 00:43:48,960
Speaker 7: where I think that like every person I come into

713
00:43:49,080 --> 00:43:52,440
Speaker 7: contact to is like low key obsessed with me.

714
00:43:54,120 --> 00:43:54,839
Speaker 13: But it's like.

715
00:43:56,280 --> 00:43:58,680
Speaker 15: Weird because I also don't like myself.

716
00:43:58,960 --> 00:44:01,239
Speaker 7: Yeah, I have this good things going on where I

717
00:44:01,320 --> 00:44:05,680
Speaker 7: think everyone I meet likes me immediately. It could be

718
00:44:05,719 --> 00:44:10,760
Speaker 7: like romantically or platonically, it depends on the person.

719
00:44:13,440 --> 00:44:17,080
Speaker 1: And how long have you believed this? This has been

720
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:19,160
Speaker 1: something that's been uh.

721
00:44:19,840 --> 00:44:21,160
Speaker 7: Like elementary school.

722
00:44:21,320 --> 00:44:27,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, And what is it that makes you believe that

723
00:44:28,000 --> 00:44:29,040
Speaker 1: people are obsessed with you?

724
00:44:31,800 --> 00:44:36,640
Speaker 7: I would guess just because I don't know, Like, I

725
00:44:37,120 --> 00:44:39,600
Speaker 7: think it's just an inner wants for everyone to be

726
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:44,840
Speaker 7: either just even just basically just like me in general,

727
00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:47,040
Speaker 7: Like I find that to be my usual goal with

728
00:44:47,280 --> 00:44:48,160
Speaker 7: new people I meet.

729
00:44:50,400 --> 00:44:55,359
Speaker 1: So, do you think that people are obsessed with you

730
00:44:55,440 --> 00:44:58,920
Speaker 1: as a result of an intentional effort on your behalf

731
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:05,400
Speaker 1: to get them to be obsessed with you. I think it.

732
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:11,399
Speaker 7: Could be like a no upfort thing, or it takes

733
00:45:11,400 --> 00:45:15,400
Speaker 7: a lot of effort, depending on the person. Usually just

734
00:45:15,480 --> 00:45:18,560
Speaker 7: like in the back of my head, I go, okay,

735
00:45:18,600 --> 00:45:22,160
Speaker 7: I think I did it with this one.

736
00:45:24,440 --> 00:45:27,680
Speaker 1: And how does it make you feel that people are

737
00:45:27,719 --> 00:45:28,279
Speaker 1: obsessed with you?

738
00:45:30,920 --> 00:45:33,840
Speaker 7: I don't like that. I think that people are obsessed

739
00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:36,520
Speaker 7: with me. I think it's a very narcissistic type of

740
00:45:36,520 --> 00:45:40,080
Speaker 7: thing to think about, and that vibe like suppressed it

741
00:45:41,160 --> 00:45:44,279
Speaker 7: all the time, and like, the only first I ever

742
00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:47,040
Speaker 7: talked about it, she is like my best friend. So

743
00:45:47,080 --> 00:45:50,399
Speaker 7: it's kind of like flustering to just suddenly talk about

744
00:45:50,400 --> 00:45:50,719
Speaker 7: it here.

745
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:54,719
Speaker 1: But okay, when you told well, when you told your

746
00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:57,759
Speaker 1: best friend about this whole thing, what did they say?

747
00:46:00,000 --> 00:46:03,680
Speaker 7: It's like, well, I mean look at you, you know,

748
00:46:03,840 --> 00:46:05,520
Speaker 7: like she supported.

749
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:08,600
Speaker 5: M.

750
00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,359
Speaker 7: I feel like if I told anyone else though, they'd

751
00:46:12,360 --> 00:46:14,560
Speaker 7: be like anyways.

752
00:46:14,640 --> 00:46:21,520
Speaker 1: So you know, so you kind of got two things

753
00:46:21,560 --> 00:46:25,800
Speaker 1: going on where you like feel like you think everyone

754
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:27,719
Speaker 1: is obsessed with you and you don't like that you

755
00:46:27,760 --> 00:46:34,439
Speaker 1: think that, But then also you said that you want

756
00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:35,719
Speaker 1: everyone to be obsessed with you.

757
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:43,000
Speaker 7: Yeah, it's like a very angel devil type feel why

758
00:46:43,040 --> 00:46:43,880
Speaker 7: do you want people.

759
00:46:43,680 --> 00:46:44,400
Speaker 1: To be obsessed with you?

760
00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:52,080
Speaker 7: I think just it's because it's like easier that way.

761
00:46:52,640 --> 00:46:53,840
Speaker 1: Why do you think it's easier?

762
00:46:55,520 --> 00:46:57,640
Speaker 7: Like, for example, I was one of those kids who

763
00:46:57,719 --> 00:46:59,960
Speaker 7: always like tried really hard to be the teacher's pet

764
00:47:00,440 --> 00:47:03,960
Speaker 7: m just because I found that if you've made the

765
00:47:04,000 --> 00:47:08,680
Speaker 7: teacher like you usually got off like with like quote

766
00:47:08,800 --> 00:47:13,960
Speaker 7: mistakes a lot easier than people that you know they

767
00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 7: weren't like either the teacher didn't know very well or

768
00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:18,480
Speaker 7: the teacher full of don't like, full.

769
00:47:18,360 --> 00:47:18,920
Speaker 15: Out don't like.

770
00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:22,680
Speaker 7: So like I would just like intentionally not do an

771
00:47:22,680 --> 00:47:24,719
Speaker 7: assignment every once in a while just because they didn't

772
00:47:24,719 --> 00:47:27,120
Speaker 7: want you, and the teacher would like be like, oh okay,

773
00:47:27,160 --> 00:47:29,160
Speaker 7: it's fine, like you've never done it before.

774
00:47:29,280 --> 00:47:29,719
Speaker 3: You're good.

775
00:47:29,960 --> 00:47:31,000
Speaker 6: I feel like cool.

776
00:47:31,640 --> 00:47:34,040
Speaker 1: So you think life is easier. You feel like life

777
00:47:34,080 --> 00:47:39,960
Speaker 1: is easier when people not just like you you're saying, or

778
00:47:40,080 --> 00:47:40,880
Speaker 1: obsessed with you.

779
00:47:42,840 --> 00:47:46,200
Speaker 7: Yeah, like most of the time, that's what you know.

780
00:47:47,239 --> 00:47:49,080
Speaker 7: The weird part of me wants to think.

781
00:47:51,160 --> 00:47:54,640
Speaker 1: Well, because you know, I'll tell you. Would you say

782
00:47:54,640 --> 00:47:55,120
Speaker 1: your name once?

783
00:47:56,360 --> 00:47:56,840
Speaker 7: Rebecca?

784
00:47:57,520 --> 00:48:00,680
Speaker 1: Rebecca? I feel like life would be easy for you

785
00:48:00,880 --> 00:48:04,520
Speaker 1: not if everyone liked you, because that's it's impossible to

786
00:48:04,520 --> 00:48:07,520
Speaker 1: get everyone to like you, you know where I feel

787
00:48:07,560 --> 00:48:11,880
Speaker 1: like your life would be easier if you just didn't

788
00:48:11,880 --> 00:48:15,839
Speaker 1: care what people thought of you at all. And while

789
00:48:15,880 --> 00:48:20,799
Speaker 1: your friend who tells you like, you know, it's true

790
00:48:20,800 --> 00:48:23,480
Speaker 1: people are obsessed with you, I think has good intentions.

791
00:48:24,040 --> 00:48:27,399
Speaker 1: I think it's important. I think it's important for you

792
00:48:27,600 --> 00:48:33,799
Speaker 1: that like your self esteem comes from a place of

793
00:48:34,719 --> 00:48:40,840
Speaker 1: within and not from everyone else liking you. Does that

794
00:48:40,920 --> 00:48:43,279
Speaker 1: make sense because if it comes from everyone else liking you,

795
00:48:44,560 --> 00:48:49,880
Speaker 1: then yeah, and you've got to try to grow a

796
00:48:49,920 --> 00:48:58,480
Speaker 1: sense of validation from within yourself, you know, because it's

797
00:48:58,920 --> 00:49:01,600
Speaker 1: you know, I know you say it like is easier,

798
00:49:01,640 --> 00:49:03,239
Speaker 1: but it sounds like this is something that is like

799
00:49:05,200 --> 00:49:08,560
Speaker 1: bothering you a lot, this whole game of like wanting

800
00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:10,360
Speaker 1: people to be obsessed with you, thinking people are obsessed

801
00:49:10,360 --> 00:49:14,759
Speaker 1: with you, and it's okay to like like yourself and

802
00:49:14,880 --> 00:49:18,839
Speaker 1: like think that you're great, you know, but you should

803
00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:20,840
Speaker 1: you should be able to and it's and it's hard. No,

804
00:49:20,960 --> 00:49:24,879
Speaker 1: I'm I haven't gotten there. It's like an ever ongoing

805
00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:28,200
Speaker 1: process that a lot of you know that that takes

806
00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:31,080
Speaker 1: a while to get to. But uh, you know, you

807
00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:33,200
Speaker 1: kind of got to start traveling down the path of

808
00:49:33,320 --> 00:49:37,839
Speaker 1: building building that validation from within so that you can

809
00:49:37,960 --> 00:49:40,640
Speaker 1: like yourself regardless of what anyone thinks of you, Because

810
00:49:40,640 --> 00:49:44,280
Speaker 1: that's what I really make life, you know, quote easier?

811
00:49:45,640 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 7: Yeah, for sure?

812
00:49:49,239 --> 00:49:49,640
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

813
00:49:51,960 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 7: Do you want me to bring up the other idea

814
00:49:54,160 --> 00:49:56,600
Speaker 7: I was thinking about talking about?

815
00:49:56,920 --> 00:49:58,840
Speaker 1: Sure, what's the other idea? Are they related?

816
00:50:00,280 --> 00:50:00,400
Speaker 13: No?

817
00:50:00,560 --> 00:50:01,040
Speaker 15: Not at all?

818
00:50:01,480 --> 00:50:02,239
Speaker 1: You know, maybe they are?

819
00:50:02,480 --> 00:50:02,960
Speaker 8: What is it?

820
00:50:04,560 --> 00:50:08,000
Speaker 7: I believe that like when we die, like there's nothing,

821
00:50:08,160 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 7: it's just complete like darkness, no thoughts. Oh, like there's

822
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:17,640
Speaker 7: no chance at like an afterlife or whatever, is just

823
00:50:17,719 --> 00:50:18,759
Speaker 7: complete blackout.

824
00:50:19,239 --> 00:50:20,960
Speaker 1: Well shit, do what do you want to do before them?

825
00:50:23,840 --> 00:50:26,640
Speaker 7: Honestly? Just like have a good time? And I don't know,

826
00:50:27,760 --> 00:50:31,200
Speaker 7: like for sure, like I've always thought about it too,

827
00:50:31,400 --> 00:50:33,640
Speaker 7: or like I don't want to get so old where

828
00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:35,839
Speaker 7: I can't take care of myself because then, like you know,

829
00:50:36,080 --> 00:50:40,640
Speaker 7: what's the fun in that? And like having this idea

830
00:50:40,719 --> 00:50:44,120
Speaker 7: that oh, nothing really will come after all of this.

831
00:50:44,719 --> 00:50:46,839
Speaker 7: I willso get in this place where it's like own

832
00:50:46,920 --> 00:50:48,720
Speaker 7: nothing really matters that much fun.

833
00:50:49,280 --> 00:50:51,719
Speaker 1: Well, Well, that's actually a great place to start for

834
00:50:51,760 --> 00:50:54,239
Speaker 1: that other thing, right, because if nothing really matters and

835
00:50:54,239 --> 00:50:55,879
Speaker 1: we're all going to die at the end, and we're

836
00:50:55,880 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 1: all bonded together so beautifully by our shared fate of

837
00:51:07,000 --> 00:51:13,040
Speaker 1: infinite darkness. That doesn't matter, right, not people like you.

838
00:51:12,640 --> 00:51:12,880
Speaker 8: You know.

839
00:51:14,520 --> 00:51:18,400
Speaker 7: Yeah, I think that's all I got for tonight.

840
00:51:19,480 --> 00:51:21,440
Speaker 1: Well, thank you so much for calling and sharing, Rebecca.

841
00:51:21,680 --> 00:51:22,560
Speaker 1: We have aggress tonight.

842
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:30,160
Speaker 6: Thank you too, all From Aquabert.

843
00:51:30,719 --> 00:51:33,400
Speaker 1: Hello, what's up? How old are you? Aquabert?

844
00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:39,040
Speaker 8: I'm eighteen and by the way, it's Oliver.

845
00:51:40,560 --> 00:51:45,320
Speaker 1: Oliver. That makes a lot more sense, but he is

846
00:51:45,400 --> 00:51:45,920
Speaker 1: less cool.

847
00:51:47,239 --> 00:51:47,719
Speaker 8: Yeah it is.

848
00:51:48,320 --> 00:51:49,480
Speaker 1: Tell me everything, Aquabert.

849
00:51:51,680 --> 00:51:54,600
Speaker 6: I was just I'm in high school, by the way,

850
00:51:54,640 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 6: senior year.

851
00:51:57,160 --> 00:51:58,680
Speaker 1: I'm going to turn you back up because you're a

852
00:51:58,760 --> 00:52:00,279
Speaker 1: lot less loud than that other guy.

853
00:52:01,560 --> 00:52:02,840
Speaker 8: Yeah, he was pretty loud.

854
00:52:03,120 --> 00:52:04,319
Speaker 1: Wait, say something real quick.

855
00:52:05,840 --> 00:52:07,640
Speaker 8: Uh blah blah blah.

856
00:52:08,320 --> 00:52:13,440
Speaker 1: Had Aquabar, you sound not that loud? All right, Oliver

857
00:52:14,120 --> 00:52:16,879
Speaker 1: Aqua I'm not close to call you Aquabar, aqua bear,

858
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:19,560
Speaker 1: what's up? Tell me everything?

859
00:52:21,200 --> 00:52:28,719
Speaker 6: In my class we're talking about this dilemma. Have you

860
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:30,879
Speaker 6: ever heard of the trolley dilemma?

861
00:52:34,200 --> 00:52:35,400
Speaker 1: I've heard of the trolley donna.

862
00:52:37,160 --> 00:52:42,600
Speaker 6: Okay, so in this scenario, right, she's between one person

863
00:52:43,840 --> 00:52:48,919
Speaker 6: on the train track or five people whatever. Yeah, And

864
00:52:49,600 --> 00:52:52,120
Speaker 6: my problem with this bait, even if I didn't know

865
00:52:52,239 --> 00:52:55,200
Speaker 6: this first person who's gonna you know who, I could

866
00:52:55,239 --> 00:52:58,760
Speaker 6: switch the track and kill them instead of these five people.

867
00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:01,640
Speaker 6: Even if if I didn't know this person or I did

868
00:53:01,719 --> 00:53:06,160
Speaker 6: know them, I feel like the best option would just

869
00:53:06,280 --> 00:53:10,840
Speaker 6: be to to just leave it alone, you know, because

870
00:53:11,000 --> 00:53:17,960
Speaker 6: is it better to go, you know, let five people die.

871
00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:20,120
Speaker 6: I mean, like, just for your own sake, is it

872
00:53:20,160 --> 00:53:24,120
Speaker 6: better to go kill a person and then just get

873
00:53:24,200 --> 00:53:26,840
Speaker 6: arrested and then just have all of this, all of

874
00:53:26,920 --> 00:53:32,600
Speaker 6: your life just crumble, you know, just right before your eyes?

875
00:53:33,480 --> 00:53:36,400
Speaker 1: Like, well, I think it depends on which I think

876
00:53:36,440 --> 00:53:39,160
Speaker 1: it depends on which group of people has the most

877
00:53:39,280 --> 00:53:42,120
Speaker 1: valuable stuff on their person that you can steal from them.

878
00:53:42,160 --> 00:53:44,440
Speaker 1: After the trolleyhoods thing. That's how I would make the

879
00:53:44,480 --> 00:53:47,839
Speaker 1: decision on that, Like who, like is there, like, are

880
00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:52,200
Speaker 1: there people wearing like expensive jewelry on like maybe like

881
00:53:52,640 --> 00:53:57,799
Speaker 1: every maybe the five people are all like wearing you know,

882
00:53:57,960 --> 00:54:00,200
Speaker 1: just like plain old T shirts and jeans or not.

883
00:54:00,320 --> 00:54:02,400
Speaker 1: But then the one person is like has like a

884
00:54:02,400 --> 00:54:05,480
Speaker 1: bunch of like gold and jewelry on them. I would

885
00:54:05,640 --> 00:54:07,520
Speaker 1: switch the trolley for them so that I could take

886
00:54:07,560 --> 00:54:11,200
Speaker 1: their stuff after they're they're gone. That's how I think

887
00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:13,319
Speaker 1: the problem.

888
00:54:13,600 --> 00:54:19,399
Speaker 6: I mean, I guess, yeah, anyway, what's going on?

889
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:23,560
Speaker 1: Good, I'm chilling?

890
00:54:25,560 --> 00:54:27,160
Speaker 8: Yeah?

891
00:54:27,560 --> 00:54:28,800
Speaker 1: What class?

892
00:54:29,920 --> 00:54:30,080
Speaker 3: Oh?

893
00:54:30,200 --> 00:54:33,760
Speaker 6: English? English class? I'm in AP English.

894
00:54:33,880 --> 00:54:37,200
Speaker 1: You're in AP English. Well what's your name again?

895
00:54:38,440 --> 00:54:38,840
Speaker 8: Oliver?

896
00:54:39,560 --> 00:54:46,319
Speaker 1: Oliver, Oliver, Aquabert. Well, Aquabert, get those AP credits. Go

897
00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 1: to college or don't go to college. I'll go to college,

898
00:54:51,200 --> 00:54:54,200
Speaker 1: all right, go to college. Do what you want to do, Aquabert.

899
00:54:54,239 --> 00:54:55,960
Speaker 1: Don't let anyone tell you what to do, not even man.

900
00:54:57,360 --> 00:54:59,680
Speaker 6: Okay, I'm gonna go put aquaber.

901
00:54:59,360 --> 00:55:02,960
Speaker 1: Now, beautiful, beautiful, Thank you for calling Uncle Bert. I

902
00:55:03,000 --> 00:55:13,480
Speaker 1: have addressed to the night he too. Call from Ryan, Ryan, Baby,

903
00:55:13,520 --> 00:55:13,960
Speaker 1: talk to me.

904
00:55:16,800 --> 00:55:18,239
Speaker 10: Hello, what's up?

905
00:55:19,520 --> 00:55:19,920
Speaker 1: Oh Hi?

906
00:55:20,120 --> 00:55:22,239
Speaker 9: Sorry, I was My dog is giving me a mean look?

907
00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:24,040
Speaker 9: And I think because she's hungry.

908
00:55:26,440 --> 00:55:28,640
Speaker 1: Is that how she typically signals to you that she's hungry.

909
00:55:30,520 --> 00:55:35,839
Speaker 9: Uh so she's she's seventeen years old, and she really

910
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:39,440
Speaker 9: kind of displays the same traits that my grandma did

911
00:55:39,520 --> 00:55:41,440
Speaker 9: right before she died. She just sits on the couch.

912
00:55:42,400 --> 00:55:45,359
Speaker 9: She just wants, you know, food, and that's all she

913
00:55:45,400 --> 00:55:49,360
Speaker 9: cares about You think she's deaf, but I've learned that

914
00:55:49,440 --> 00:55:52,480
Speaker 9: she just ignores you because so her ear will twitch

915
00:55:53,800 --> 00:55:56,000
Speaker 9: so she hears you. She won't turn around, like she

916
00:55:56,000 --> 00:55:58,120
Speaker 9: can do tricks, she won't. She just won't listen. She can,

917
00:55:59,000 --> 00:56:03,680
Speaker 9: and I actually respect that. She can shake, she can sit,

918
00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:06,919
Speaker 9: she can spin, she can wait on and roll over.

919
00:56:08,440 --> 00:56:10,800
Speaker 9: But she's just like fuck it. She's like, fuck it,

920
00:56:10,880 --> 00:56:14,600
Speaker 9: I've earned the right to do nothing. And I agree,

921
00:56:16,040 --> 00:56:18,279
Speaker 9: So you just kind of let her, let her run

922
00:56:18,320 --> 00:56:19,239
Speaker 9: the house pretty much.

923
00:56:19,640 --> 00:56:22,280
Speaker 1: You know, the reason why dogs are always so hungry

924
00:56:22,320 --> 00:56:24,480
Speaker 1: is because food is really all they know. You know,

925
00:56:24,520 --> 00:56:26,880
Speaker 1: they don't really like like we all have, like our

926
00:56:26,920 --> 00:56:30,080
Speaker 1: careers and our families and our blah blah blah blah blah,

927
00:56:30,160 --> 00:56:32,720
Speaker 1: and you know, trying to do this, trying to humans

928
00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:35,040
Speaker 1: are trying to do things. Dogs they don't even know

929
00:56:35,120 --> 00:56:38,600
Speaker 1: that they can do anything except for eat. So that's

930
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:42,480
Speaker 1: why that their whole world is rolls around that the

931
00:56:42,640 --> 00:56:47,359
Speaker 1: dogs don't do education or no, they just eat food.

932
00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:49,600
Speaker 1: That's all they have. That's all they have. That's why

933
00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:51,759
Speaker 1: their world is so dominated by it.

934
00:56:54,280 --> 00:56:57,640
Speaker 9: It's true, I kind of I kind of should model

935
00:56:57,800 --> 00:57:02,239
Speaker 9: that low expectation lifestyle. Wow, maybe i'd be happier. You

936
00:57:02,280 --> 00:57:04,479
Speaker 9: know dogs, people like, oh, dogs always so happy because

937
00:57:04,480 --> 00:57:06,360
Speaker 9: it's like they don't have to they don't have to work. Food,

938
00:57:06,760 --> 00:57:07,359
Speaker 9: they got food.

939
00:57:07,360 --> 00:57:07,759
Speaker 3: They're good.

940
00:57:07,840 --> 00:57:08,239
Speaker 8: That's it.

941
00:57:10,440 --> 00:57:13,080
Speaker 1: I mean, look, it's it's it's whatever fults you're about.

942
00:57:13,080 --> 00:57:15,360
Speaker 1: I would I would you enjoy that? Would you enjoy

943
00:57:16,440 --> 00:57:22,560
Speaker 1: not doing anything at all and just eating food and sleeping?

944
00:57:25,480 --> 00:57:25,920
Speaker 8: No?

945
00:57:25,920 --> 00:57:26,880
Speaker 9: No, no, I wouldn't.

946
00:57:27,480 --> 00:57:28,120
Speaker 1: No, you can't.

947
00:57:28,120 --> 00:57:31,840
Speaker 9: I blame my human brain prevents me from from being

948
00:57:31,880 --> 00:57:33,240
Speaker 9: so simple and so content.

949
00:57:33,920 --> 00:57:37,760
Speaker 1: Exactly exactly. You have to leave, you have to go

950
00:57:37,800 --> 00:57:39,920
Speaker 1: out the door. You have to do things, go to

951
00:57:40,080 --> 00:57:42,560
Speaker 1: go to school, get a job of the dead. But bah,

952
00:57:42,680 --> 00:57:47,640
Speaker 1: go to fucking Spain. No, there is no dog. No

953
00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:50,440
Speaker 1: dog has ever dreamt of going to Spain.

954
00:57:52,480 --> 00:57:53,360
Speaker 9: But how do we know that?

955
00:57:53,480 --> 00:57:55,080
Speaker 1: Uniquely human traits?

956
00:57:55,560 --> 00:57:56,880
Speaker 9: How do how do we look?

957
00:57:57,120 --> 00:57:58,840
Speaker 1: Look at a dog? Go look at a dog?

958
00:57:59,120 --> 00:58:01,040
Speaker 9: Okay, I'm I'm looking at my dog.

959
00:58:01,480 --> 00:58:02,800
Speaker 1: Is it dreaming of going to Spain?

960
00:58:04,440 --> 00:58:05,960
Speaker 9: I don't know. You want to ask, No, it's not.

961
00:58:07,600 --> 00:58:08,720
Speaker 5: No, I don't.

962
00:58:08,560 --> 00:58:09,000
Speaker 8: Know, man.

963
00:58:09,440 --> 00:58:14,040
Speaker 1: No, look it's not I'll tell you right now, I

964
00:58:14,080 --> 00:58:16,920
Speaker 1: will tell you with one hundred certainty. But look at

965
00:58:16,920 --> 00:58:17,440
Speaker 1: your dog.

966
00:58:17,280 --> 00:58:20,760
Speaker 9: Again, there's nothing behind those eyes.

967
00:58:20,760 --> 00:58:21,200
Speaker 5: Think you're right.

968
00:58:21,880 --> 00:58:23,720
Speaker 1: Your dog is not dreaming of going anywhere. Your dog

969
00:58:24,400 --> 00:58:28,600
Speaker 1: wants food and that's all that will be in her

970
00:58:28,600 --> 00:58:29,320
Speaker 1: brain forever.

971
00:58:30,600 --> 00:58:33,000
Speaker 9: Do you think dogs dream at all? You know, when

972
00:58:33,040 --> 00:58:35,080
Speaker 9: they're like sleeping and they're twitching and they're growling, do

973
00:58:35,120 --> 00:58:37,720
Speaker 9: you think anything's going on? Or like, what's going on

974
00:58:37,760 --> 00:58:42,400
Speaker 9: when that happens?

975
00:58:44,720 --> 00:58:48,520
Speaker 1: Have you ever lied all the time? Tell me the

976
00:58:48,560 --> 00:58:49,320
Speaker 1: last time you lied?

977
00:58:50,400 --> 00:58:53,320
Speaker 9: Oh, the last one got me in big trouble. I

978
00:58:53,360 --> 00:58:55,880
Speaker 9: was seeing a girl for about two and a half

979
00:58:55,920 --> 00:59:02,600
Speaker 9: three months and uh and uh basically from the get go,

980
00:59:02,880 --> 00:59:06,840
Speaker 9: terrible liar, but uh I, I omitted some, uh some

981
00:59:07,040 --> 00:59:11,040
Speaker 9: things about my life and that were probably pertinent to

982
00:59:11,160 --> 00:59:13,520
Speaker 9: the relationship and being honest, and I probably shouldn't have

983
00:59:13,560 --> 00:59:18,440
Speaker 9: even been in a relationship, but uh i, uh I

984
00:59:18,520 --> 00:59:22,720
Speaker 9: for a long time had struggled with drug addiction, and

985
00:59:22,960 --> 00:59:25,160
Speaker 9: in those in those few months, like I was still,

986
00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:28,480
Speaker 9: I had relapsed and I had been using and I

987
00:59:28,560 --> 00:59:31,160
Speaker 9: just hit it from her. But then I got arrested,

988
00:59:31,680 --> 00:59:34,120
Speaker 9: like two weeks ago, two weeks ago, and it's hard

989
00:59:34,120 --> 00:59:36,560
Speaker 9: to it's hard to cover that one up. I missed

990
00:59:36,600 --> 00:59:40,160
Speaker 9: a football game that was that's a little college. And

991
00:59:40,160 --> 00:59:41,600
Speaker 9: then I text her, you know, run to get out

992
00:59:41,600 --> 00:59:44,160
Speaker 9: of like, you know, eleven eleven at night release. I'm like, oh,

993
00:59:44,160 --> 00:59:47,439
Speaker 9: I'm sorry, and I just kind of spill the truth

994
00:59:47,480 --> 00:59:50,000
Speaker 9: to her and she was like, yeah, this isn't gonna work,

995
00:59:50,040 --> 00:59:52,520
Speaker 9: and I was like, I think you're right. So that

996
00:59:52,640 --> 00:59:54,680
Speaker 9: was a big one. That was that was a big

997
00:59:54,720 --> 00:59:56,120
Speaker 9: fuck up on my part there.

998
00:59:57,200 --> 00:59:59,440
Speaker 1: Why why relying to her that you got arrested?

999
01:00:01,160 --> 01:00:01,560
Speaker 5: Well, I didn't.

1000
01:00:01,600 --> 01:00:06,120
Speaker 9: I didn't lie about getting arrested. But uh, there's definitely

1001
01:00:07,120 --> 01:00:09,960
Speaker 9: the whole lyeing about drug addiction. I think you'll find

1002
01:00:10,000 --> 01:00:12,240
Speaker 9: a lot of a lot of addicts and alcoholics will

1003
01:00:13,720 --> 01:00:16,320
Speaker 9: either they lie to continue using because that's what they

1004
01:00:16,360 --> 01:00:20,920
Speaker 9: want to do or drinking, or they or we me

1005
01:00:21,240 --> 01:00:24,400
Speaker 9: are so ashamed of the fact that we are the

1006
01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:26,320
Speaker 9: way we are, you know, because we don't want to

1007
01:00:26,360 --> 01:00:29,560
Speaker 9: continue doing these things. A lot of us, it's a compulsion.

1008
01:00:29,600 --> 01:00:33,760
Speaker 9: We do it when we have good days, bad days, happy, sad.

1009
01:00:33,800 --> 01:00:36,560
Speaker 9: We find excuses to use because there's something going on,

1010
01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:39,880
Speaker 9: like we're built a little weird compared to everyone else,

1011
01:00:40,240 --> 01:00:43,440
Speaker 9: and so you lie to because you're ashamed of it.

1012
01:00:44,160 --> 01:00:44,280
Speaker 5: HM.

1013
01:00:44,760 --> 01:00:46,800
Speaker 9: So I think it's usually one of those two things.

1014
01:00:47,480 --> 01:00:51,520
Speaker 1: Are you are you like actively seeking any sort of

1015
01:00:51,520 --> 01:00:53,080
Speaker 1: help for your drug addiction?

1016
01:00:54,640 --> 01:00:58,640
Speaker 9: So yeah, yeah, So I went to a medical detox

1017
01:00:58,760 --> 01:01:01,200
Speaker 9: a couple of weeks ago, and it's kind of fucked

1018
01:01:01,280 --> 01:01:06,160
Speaker 9: like the whole, like healthcare in America, Like I switched

1019
01:01:06,160 --> 01:01:09,360
Speaker 9: from health I switched healthcare about a month ago, and

1020
01:01:09,400 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 9: it's not as good. So they're basically like, oh, you

1021
01:01:11,920 --> 01:01:14,360
Speaker 9: can be here a week when I really needed two, three,

1022
01:01:14,440 --> 01:01:16,520
Speaker 9: four weeks there, They're like, well, you can stay of

1023
01:01:16,600 --> 01:01:19,120
Speaker 9: four weeks, but it's gonna cost you. It's gonna cost

1024
01:01:19,120 --> 01:01:21,840
Speaker 9: you about twenty five thousand dollars. Yeah, so I could

1025
01:01:21,880 --> 01:01:24,680
Speaker 9: only get about a week and a half out of it,

1026
01:01:25,280 --> 01:01:27,840
Speaker 9: and then they transfer you to like a lower level

1027
01:01:27,840 --> 01:01:28,160
Speaker 9: of care.

1028
01:01:28,720 --> 01:01:29,120
Speaker 5: So I'll go.

1029
01:01:29,280 --> 01:01:33,480
Speaker 9: I have like individual therapists and a psychiatrist for like medications,

1030
01:01:33,520 --> 01:01:36,320
Speaker 9: but I only go into a place three days a week,

1031
01:01:36,840 --> 01:01:39,480
Speaker 9: like during the day instead of like full around the

1032
01:01:39,480 --> 01:01:41,640
Speaker 9: clock care out of facility. So I live at home

1033
01:01:41,880 --> 01:01:44,560
Speaker 9: and in three days a week, I go into a

1034
01:01:44,600 --> 01:01:46,720
Speaker 9: place and you know, did you do the group therapy

1035
01:01:47,520 --> 01:01:51,840
Speaker 9: individual sessions like uh, lectures, YadA YadA.

1036
01:01:51,640 --> 01:01:55,120
Speaker 1: That stuff all right, So of this of the stuff

1037
01:01:55,120 --> 01:01:57,960
Speaker 1: that you know you can afford. How is it? How

1038
01:01:58,040 --> 01:01:59,080
Speaker 1: is it going so far?

1039
01:02:00,640 --> 01:02:03,640
Speaker 9: Uh, it's well, well, I'll have to admit it's kind

1040
01:02:03,640 --> 01:02:08,080
Speaker 9: of I'd want to say I might be numb to

1041
01:02:08,120 --> 01:02:12,360
Speaker 9: the process because I started getting I was an adolescent,

1042
01:02:12,760 --> 01:02:16,560
Speaker 9: about fourteen years old. I started getting sent to treatment.

1043
01:02:17,120 --> 01:02:19,960
Speaker 9: So my first one my parents. They what happens is parents.

1044
01:02:20,040 --> 01:02:21,880
Speaker 9: I was in California at the time. They shifted you

1045
01:02:21,880 --> 01:02:22,440
Speaker 9: out of state.

1046
01:02:22,960 --> 01:02:23,520
Speaker 5: Like your parents.

1047
01:02:23,520 --> 01:02:25,680
Speaker 9: You literally in the middle of the night will have

1048
01:02:25,760 --> 01:02:27,680
Speaker 9: like two guys come into your room and handcuff you

1049
01:02:28,160 --> 01:02:28,920
Speaker 9: and like drag you to.

1050
01:02:28,920 --> 01:02:31,040
Speaker 1: The airport and fly you are your parents organize that.

1051
01:02:32,280 --> 01:02:33,919
Speaker 9: Yeah, So I went to a place for a year

1052
01:02:33,960 --> 01:02:36,160
Speaker 9: when I was I was fourteen. I was there from

1053
01:02:36,200 --> 01:02:38,800
Speaker 9: fourteen to fifteen. It was a year, a year long

1054
01:02:38,840 --> 01:02:43,160
Speaker 9: in patient treatment. Yeah, but I've done that. It was

1055
01:02:43,600 --> 01:02:46,080
Speaker 9: these places they're kind of not around anymore because they're

1056
01:02:46,160 --> 01:02:49,160
Speaker 9: kind of fucked up. But they call it behavioral modification,

1057
01:02:49,760 --> 01:02:54,120
Speaker 9: and it's basically like dangling the carrot and punishment, like

1058
01:02:54,160 --> 01:02:56,120
Speaker 9: you do something bad. And they had a lot of

1059
01:02:56,160 --> 01:03:03,120
Speaker 9: weird ways of enforcing enforcing things, just like weird like

1060
01:03:03,160 --> 01:03:06,200
Speaker 9: weird programs they'd put you on like had to like

1061
01:03:06,720 --> 01:03:12,120
Speaker 9: trying to drill therapeutic skills into your head, or like dressing. Okay,

1062
01:03:12,240 --> 01:03:14,840
Speaker 9: the the the most like I guess dramatic would be

1063
01:03:15,800 --> 01:03:19,280
Speaker 9: they called it off the team, which was if you

1064
01:03:19,320 --> 01:03:22,520
Speaker 9: fucked up bad enough, and especially if they considered you

1065
01:03:22,600 --> 01:03:25,120
Speaker 9: like dangerous to yourself or like you were like self

1066
01:03:25,120 --> 01:03:28,720
Speaker 9: harm or like you're a risk to run away. They

1067
01:03:28,720 --> 01:03:31,600
Speaker 9: would dress you in lime green scrubs and like you'd

1068
01:03:31,640 --> 01:03:34,040
Speaker 9: have like the same color like slideslip blops, kind of

1069
01:03:34,040 --> 01:03:37,400
Speaker 9: like jail. And you weren't allowed to talk to anybody,

1070
01:03:37,680 --> 01:03:40,400
Speaker 9: not even to staff. You were only allowed to communicate

1071
01:03:40,480 --> 01:03:42,400
Speaker 9: using your hand in your hands, so like you'd hold

1072
01:03:42,480 --> 01:03:49,440
Speaker 9: up fingers. So I think one one was a bathroom

1073
01:03:50,440 --> 01:03:53,440
Speaker 9: like two fingers up was supplies, like like a you

1074
01:03:53,440 --> 01:03:55,800
Speaker 9: weren't i'd have a pencil, only cram because they were

1075
01:03:55,800 --> 01:03:59,120
Speaker 9: word you're gonna like stab yourself for something. So two

1076
01:03:59,120 --> 01:04:05,080
Speaker 9: was supplies, Three was medication, four with laundry, and five

1077
01:04:05,400 --> 01:04:09,800
Speaker 9: was emergency. I think you had those five options and

1078
01:04:09,880 --> 01:04:13,800
Speaker 9: you couldn't no one. If anyone responded to you, they

1079
01:04:13,800 --> 01:04:16,320
Speaker 9: would also get thrown off the team. And you had

1080
01:04:16,360 --> 01:04:18,720
Speaker 9: to be ten feet away from everyone else, and you'd

1081
01:04:18,720 --> 01:04:21,080
Speaker 9: have like one staff next to you, like you know,

1082
01:04:21,240 --> 01:04:25,240
Speaker 9: arms linked away all the time, and you had.

1083
01:04:25,160 --> 01:04:27,560
Speaker 1: Like that intentional sort of isolation tactic.

1084
01:04:28,920 --> 01:04:32,280
Speaker 9: Yeah, so I guess, and at that point, at during

1085
01:04:32,320 --> 01:04:35,240
Speaker 9: that time, you would also typically be assigned some kind

1086
01:04:35,240 --> 01:04:40,720
Speaker 9: of writing assignment. Like I remember one time, but whatever

1087
01:04:40,760 --> 01:04:44,240
Speaker 9: I was doing, I got called for being just whatever,

1088
01:04:44,440 --> 01:04:48,200
Speaker 9: just oppositionally defiant to everything because I was fourteen, and

1089
01:04:48,440 --> 01:04:52,680
Speaker 9: they made me write like maybe it was like kind

1090
01:04:52,680 --> 01:04:54,880
Speaker 9: of like an autobiography, but they kind of wanted me

1091
01:04:54,920 --> 01:04:58,200
Speaker 9: to like highlight or find certain parts of my life

1092
01:04:58,240 --> 01:05:01,400
Speaker 9: where I was doing similar shit. Whatever the assignment was,

1093
01:05:01,440 --> 01:05:03,760
Speaker 9: but you have that to work on, but again you

1094
01:05:03,760 --> 01:05:06,080
Speaker 9: have to write it in kran. You get really good

1095
01:05:06,120 --> 01:05:08,280
Speaker 9: at like writing techniques where you like write with one

1096
01:05:08,320 --> 01:05:10,360
Speaker 9: side of the cran and kind of sharpens it and

1097
01:05:10,520 --> 01:05:13,560
Speaker 9: flip it, you know, do a little twizzle ninety degrees

1098
01:05:13,600 --> 01:05:16,040
Speaker 9: and it's still sharp. Yeah, you get. So I got

1099
01:05:16,080 --> 01:05:19,000
Speaker 9: if you have I'm I'm proficient with the cran.

1100
01:05:19,400 --> 01:05:20,960
Speaker 1: You're proficient? Is that on your resume?

1101
01:05:22,240 --> 01:05:26,480
Speaker 9: It's at yeah, like you know, like related skills. Yeah,

1102
01:05:26,560 --> 01:05:29,920
Speaker 9: these programs they don't really exist anymore. You can because

1103
01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:33,640
Speaker 9: they're also just breeding grounds for like abuse from the facility.

1104
01:05:33,760 --> 01:05:36,360
Speaker 9: Like like even though at the time they had like

1105
01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:38,560
Speaker 9: two staff to one, like in a room alone, you

1106
01:05:38,560 --> 01:05:41,919
Speaker 9: had to have three people, so it was either like

1107
01:05:42,040 --> 01:05:44,280
Speaker 9: two clients and staff or two staffs and a client.

1108
01:05:44,320 --> 01:05:47,680
Speaker 9: But it was like always like places getting shut down

1109
01:05:47,720 --> 01:05:52,440
Speaker 9: for like like like sexual abuse and just like just

1110
01:05:52,440 --> 01:05:55,440
Speaker 9: just terrible things. This was in Salt Lake City in Utah,

1111
01:05:55,760 --> 01:05:58,480
Speaker 9: and uh, but this was like a pat This has

1112
01:05:58,520 --> 01:06:02,400
Speaker 9: been a pattern for like the last like fourteen years

1113
01:06:02,440 --> 01:06:05,560
Speaker 9: of my life. Like I've been to that facility plus

1114
01:06:05,600 --> 01:06:11,640
Speaker 9: another fifteen sixteen of them, and it just gets tiring,

1115
01:06:11,760 --> 01:06:14,720
Speaker 9: that lifestyle. And and then you like, you know, you're

1116
01:06:14,760 --> 01:06:18,080
Speaker 9: beating your head against the wall, like continuing to do

1117
01:06:18,120 --> 01:06:24,680
Speaker 9: the same things over and over again. And it's it's

1118
01:06:25,120 --> 01:06:27,160
Speaker 9: hard to love someone like that too. You know. My

1119
01:06:27,200 --> 01:06:30,440
Speaker 9: sister is the same way. And because on the surface,

1120
01:06:30,480 --> 01:06:33,720
Speaker 9: the things we do are terrible. We're you know, we're stealing, relying,

1121
01:06:33,840 --> 01:06:37,480
Speaker 9: we're cheating, we're running around like we're like not showing

1122
01:06:37,520 --> 01:06:41,600
Speaker 9: up to family events or relationships or whatever. But at

1123
01:06:41,600 --> 01:06:43,680
Speaker 9: the same time, although like we are choosing to do

1124
01:06:43,720 --> 01:06:47,040
Speaker 9: those things, there's a component where we it's almost compulsive.

1125
01:06:47,080 --> 01:06:52,680
Speaker 9: It's like a weird mixture between two and so yeah,

1126
01:06:52,720 --> 01:06:54,959
Speaker 9: for the moment, I'm doing pretty you know, well enough,

1127
01:06:55,120 --> 01:06:59,440
Speaker 9: considering like I have about two and a half weeks

1128
01:07:00,120 --> 01:07:03,680
Speaker 9: ober off everything this is like alcohol included. And then

1129
01:07:03,760 --> 01:07:10,320
Speaker 9: uh well yeah, yeah, although I will say me hunched

1130
01:07:10,360 --> 01:07:13,520
Speaker 9: over in my on my computer, you know, dialing the

1131
01:07:13,560 --> 01:07:15,880
Speaker 9: phone over and over again is very reminiscent of like

1132
01:07:15,960 --> 01:07:17,960
Speaker 9: maybe like crack smoking, you know what I mean. I

1133
01:07:18,600 --> 01:07:20,680
Speaker 9: figured out how many clicks it takes to your reset

1134
01:07:20,720 --> 01:07:25,360
Speaker 9: the call, So I'm kind of like, you know, well,

1135
01:07:25,440 --> 01:07:27,040
Speaker 9: I'm happy junkie over here.

1136
01:07:27,400 --> 01:07:30,680
Speaker 1: I'm happy that I could I could give you some

1137
01:07:30,720 --> 01:07:37,440
Speaker 1: sort of placeholder addiction m for the to you know,

1138
01:07:37,600 --> 01:07:40,160
Speaker 1: tidy over from the other one.

1139
01:07:41,080 --> 01:07:42,520
Speaker 9: I don't know what my therapist is going to say

1140
01:07:42,560 --> 01:07:46,280
Speaker 9: it that I spent all night, you know, tonight trying

1141
01:07:46,320 --> 01:07:47,840
Speaker 9: to call a get go to talk to. She might

1142
01:07:47,920 --> 01:07:49,680
Speaker 9: fucking think I'm using again.

1143
01:07:51,560 --> 01:07:54,480
Speaker 1: So well is that what people do? By the way, like, uh, like,

1144
01:07:54,560 --> 01:07:56,440
Speaker 1: if you like to kick an addiction, you kind of

1145
01:07:56,440 --> 01:08:01,600
Speaker 1: pick up one that's not as bad, like drinking copious

1146
01:08:01,600 --> 01:08:03,400
Speaker 1: amounts of mountain dew or something like that.

1147
01:08:04,400 --> 01:08:08,280
Speaker 9: Oh yeah, cigarettes coffee. Candy is a big thing, especially alcoholics.

1148
01:08:08,320 --> 01:08:12,360
Speaker 9: Like alcohol is basically metabolized as a sugar. You take

1149
01:08:12,400 --> 01:08:15,160
Speaker 9: that away, you crave sugar, so like you'll see alcoholics

1150
01:08:15,200 --> 01:08:18,720
Speaker 9: like have a bunch of candy or yeah, they tell

1151
01:08:18,760 --> 01:08:21,120
Speaker 9: you like don't don't try to don't try to dump

1152
01:08:21,120 --> 01:08:23,880
Speaker 9: all your addictions at once, like obviously the drugs, yes,

1153
01:08:23,960 --> 01:08:27,160
Speaker 9: but like don't try to quit caffeine and cigarettes on

1154
01:08:27,160 --> 01:08:29,880
Speaker 9: top of the all the ones. And yeah, you got

1155
01:08:29,880 --> 01:08:31,960
Speaker 9: to replace it. I mean if you don't, you can't

1156
01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:34,040
Speaker 9: just take away the drugs and alcohol from someone. There's

1157
01:08:34,080 --> 01:08:35,720
Speaker 9: like it leaves a big hole in your life, like

1158
01:08:35,760 --> 01:08:37,719
Speaker 9: the time that's spent for you to like get the drugs,

1159
01:08:38,240 --> 01:08:40,360
Speaker 9: use them, the time you spend getting high your friends

1160
01:08:40,360 --> 01:08:42,840
Speaker 9: that use you take that away. I mean you're just

1161
01:08:42,840 --> 01:08:45,759
Speaker 9: like a shell of nothing, like you have to replace

1162
01:08:45,800 --> 01:08:46,320
Speaker 9: it with stuff.

1163
01:08:46,400 --> 01:08:48,040
Speaker 1: You know, So I can I ask you something? So

1164
01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:53,519
Speaker 1: over can I hold you right now? Twenty six twenty six?

1165
01:08:53,680 --> 01:08:58,640
Speaker 1: So you know, having been like in these facilities for

1166
01:08:58,640 --> 01:09:02,200
Speaker 1: for so long and like what you're telling me about

1167
01:09:02,320 --> 01:09:06,920
Speaker 1: how you're just getting used to it, like is there

1168
01:09:07,080 --> 01:09:09,920
Speaker 1: and congratulations on on on two and a half weeks,

1169
01:09:10,880 --> 01:09:17,320
Speaker 1: Is there? Something that's like keep keeping you going because

1170
01:09:17,360 --> 01:09:19,840
Speaker 1: because it's it's clear that you're like trying. You know,

1171
01:09:19,880 --> 01:09:22,799
Speaker 1: it's clear that whether whether or not you've like fully

1172
01:09:22,920 --> 01:09:27,360
Speaker 1: kicked your addiction, like it's clear that you are continuously trying,

1173
01:09:27,400 --> 01:09:30,559
Speaker 1: you have not given up. You know what's keeping you

1174
01:09:30,640 --> 01:09:31,040
Speaker 1: doing that?

1175
01:09:34,439 --> 01:09:37,040
Speaker 9: I will say, And there's been periods where I've had

1176
01:09:37,400 --> 01:09:40,960
Speaker 9: longer amounts of sobriety. The longest was I turned just

1177
01:09:41,000 --> 01:09:44,280
Speaker 9: when I turned eighteen. I got two and a half

1178
01:09:44,360 --> 01:09:48,080
Speaker 9: years again like no drinking, you know, I wasn't even

1179
01:09:48,080 --> 01:09:52,960
Speaker 9: spoke a cigarettes, like no, no anything. And during that time,

1180
01:09:53,000 --> 01:09:56,000
Speaker 9: I think beforehand, my problem was I kept trying to

1181
01:09:56,000 --> 01:09:59,080
Speaker 9: get sober for other people. So it's like, oh, whether

1182
01:09:59,080 --> 01:10:00,720
Speaker 9: it was like I have legal stuff on my back

1183
01:10:00,800 --> 01:10:03,519
Speaker 9: or my parents are crying, my mom's upset, and I

1184
01:10:03,640 --> 01:10:06,000
Speaker 9: keep scring over everyone I know, and I kept trying

1185
01:10:06,000 --> 01:10:08,599
Speaker 9: to get sober for them, so like things would get

1186
01:10:08,640 --> 01:10:10,920
Speaker 9: better and then they would be happy with me. But

1187
01:10:10,960 --> 01:10:14,120
Speaker 9: then it's like, well, mission accomplished, Like they're happy with me.

1188
01:10:14,400 --> 01:10:17,400
Speaker 9: Done right, So I think it had I had, I

1189
01:10:17,439 --> 01:10:20,800
Speaker 9: had to switch it where my I have to I

1190
01:10:20,840 --> 01:10:24,599
Speaker 9: have to love and care about myself enough to change

1191
01:10:24,600 --> 01:10:27,920
Speaker 9: for myself or else it will never stick. And I

1192
01:10:27,920 --> 01:10:30,519
Speaker 9: think that's for a lot of things, not just not

1193
01:10:30,640 --> 01:10:32,880
Speaker 9: just addiction, but if you don't if you don't value

1194
01:10:32,880 --> 01:10:35,760
Speaker 9: and care about yourself, like why why bother going through

1195
01:10:35,800 --> 01:10:37,920
Speaker 9: all the effort to do all these things when at

1196
01:10:37,960 --> 01:10:39,880
Speaker 9: the end of the day, I mean, it helps other people,

1197
01:10:39,960 --> 01:10:44,360
Speaker 9: but as a byproduct of helping yourself. First, I asked

1198
01:10:44,400 --> 01:10:46,800
Speaker 9: me number one.

1199
01:10:45,960 --> 01:10:49,360
Speaker 1: And how long you know is so you say that

1200
01:10:49,479 --> 01:10:52,120
Speaker 1: for the majority of the time, for a long amounts

1201
01:10:52,120 --> 01:10:55,000
Speaker 1: of time, you've been trying to get sober for other people.

1202
01:10:55,400 --> 01:10:58,200
Speaker 1: When around when do you feel like you made the

1203
01:10:58,439 --> 01:11:00,360
Speaker 1: sort of mental switch to be like, I'm alright, I'm

1204
01:11:00,360 --> 01:11:01,240
Speaker 1: gonna do this for myself.

1205
01:11:03,960 --> 01:11:08,280
Speaker 9: That I think around eighteen, like I but it wasn't

1206
01:11:08,360 --> 01:11:11,479
Speaker 9: just hitting eighteen. I moved out on my own right

1207
01:11:11,520 --> 01:11:14,240
Speaker 9: before that, and I think the combination of I moved

1208
01:11:14,240 --> 01:11:15,920
Speaker 9: to Louisiana. I kind of just like drew a dart

1209
01:11:16,000 --> 01:11:17,360
Speaker 9: on board and it was like, fuck it, We're going

1210
01:11:17,360 --> 01:11:20,160
Speaker 9: to Louisiana. And I think just being on my own

1211
01:11:20,160 --> 01:11:23,600
Speaker 9: and only having myself and spending so much time like

1212
01:11:23,640 --> 01:11:25,599
Speaker 9: I went to work, I came home to my apartment

1213
01:11:25,680 --> 01:11:28,280
Speaker 9: with I spent so much time with just myself, like

1214
01:11:28,320 --> 01:11:30,280
Speaker 9: I didn't have friends yet or anything, like no family

1215
01:11:30,360 --> 01:11:32,880
Speaker 9: out there. Like I had to come to terms with

1216
01:11:33,000 --> 01:11:35,439
Speaker 9: like myself because everywhere I went there I was. It

1217
01:11:35,439 --> 01:11:38,680
Speaker 9: didn't matter. I couldn't outrun myself, of course, and like

1218
01:11:39,240 --> 01:11:41,360
Speaker 9: I just had to like face the fact that it's

1219
01:11:41,360 --> 01:11:43,200
Speaker 9: like look in the mirror, like this is what it

1220
01:11:43,240 --> 01:11:46,120
Speaker 9: is and not in a depressing way. But I don't,

1221
01:11:46,160 --> 01:11:47,800
Speaker 9: I don't. I think I spent so much time just

1222
01:11:47,840 --> 01:11:51,720
Speaker 9: like running and avoiding that I never really took inventory

1223
01:11:51,760 --> 01:11:55,559
Speaker 9: and like figured out really like who I was enough

1224
01:11:55,600 --> 01:11:58,800
Speaker 9: to like to say, like, oh, I actually love myself,

1225
01:11:58,840 --> 01:12:01,040
Speaker 9: because I didn't even know if I just said, oh

1226
01:12:01,120 --> 01:12:02,240
Speaker 9: I love who is Ryan?

1227
01:12:02,280 --> 01:12:02,680
Speaker 5: I don't know.

1228
01:12:03,200 --> 01:12:05,559
Speaker 9: I don't know, and the only things I do know

1229
01:12:05,680 --> 01:12:08,000
Speaker 9: is like all the shitty things I've done. And uh

1230
01:12:09,439 --> 01:12:10,920
Speaker 9: so I think it was just that like being on

1231
01:12:10,960 --> 01:12:14,240
Speaker 9: my own and not having especially my parents like bail

1232
01:12:14,280 --> 01:12:18,000
Speaker 9: me out all the time, Like fortunately or unfortunately, I

1233
01:12:18,120 --> 01:12:20,639
Speaker 9: like my parents. I grew up like well off enough

1234
01:12:20,640 --> 01:12:23,120
Speaker 9: where like mommy and Daddy could come like bail me

1235
01:12:23,120 --> 01:12:25,439
Speaker 9: out of jail or get me a lawyer or go

1236
01:12:25,479 --> 01:12:27,479
Speaker 9: talk to the school, and like beg them not to

1237
01:12:27,520 --> 01:12:33,280
Speaker 9: expel me or you know, and uh yet I had

1238
01:12:33,280 --> 01:12:34,000
Speaker 9: to get away from that.

1239
01:12:34,680 --> 01:12:38,960
Speaker 1: No, you learn so much more about yourself in isolation, it.

1240
01:12:38,960 --> 01:12:43,360
Speaker 9: Sounds like, but yeah, I mean there's you don't have

1241
01:12:43,360 --> 01:12:44,920
Speaker 9: anything else to like distract yourself.

1242
01:12:45,880 --> 01:12:50,320
Speaker 1: So tell me, how's your outlook moving forward? What's your

1243
01:12:50,360 --> 01:12:54,360
Speaker 1: outlook like are you Are you feeling optimistic about the future.

1244
01:12:55,600 --> 01:12:58,800
Speaker 9: I would say cautiously optimistic might be the best way

1245
01:12:58,800 --> 01:13:02,760
Speaker 9: to put it. Yeah, I don't have any I ran

1246
01:13:02,800 --> 01:13:07,240
Speaker 9: out of excuses, you know, like uh like I know,

1247
01:13:08,000 --> 01:13:11,040
Speaker 9: like I know I can't like like my my poison

1248
01:13:11,080 --> 01:13:13,840
Speaker 9: specifically with heroin, that was but that was what done

1249
01:13:14,000 --> 01:13:16,360
Speaker 9: like did me and the worst like that's what I

1250
01:13:16,400 --> 01:13:19,360
Speaker 9: always went back to. And I've just proven to myself

1251
01:13:19,640 --> 01:13:22,320
Speaker 9: with like some research and development, like it doesn't I can't.

1252
01:13:22,360 --> 01:13:23,479
Speaker 9: I can't get high.

1253
01:13:23,520 --> 01:13:25,640
Speaker 5: And live successfully.

1254
01:13:25,760 --> 01:13:27,880
Speaker 9: So I kind of hit a point where it was

1255
01:13:27,960 --> 01:13:32,000
Speaker 9: like I either will die from it or I'll I'll

1256
01:13:32,040 --> 01:13:34,639
Speaker 9: get sober. And I know what to do. I've done

1257
01:13:34,640 --> 01:13:38,800
Speaker 9: it before, like put together multiple years, so I know how,

1258
01:13:38,920 --> 01:13:41,479
Speaker 9: I know how to get there, and I really don't

1259
01:13:41,520 --> 01:13:44,080
Speaker 9: have any excuse excepted just to go do it. And

1260
01:13:44,800 --> 01:13:46,600
Speaker 9: so I mean, I'm I have good people around me,

1261
01:13:46,680 --> 01:13:53,240
Speaker 9: luckily that are still around, and I'm in a good

1262
01:13:53,280 --> 01:13:56,559
Speaker 9: living situation. It's stable enough, like I didn't wreck my truck,

1263
01:13:56,640 --> 01:13:59,040
Speaker 9: like I still have that, So I have I have

1264
01:13:59,160 --> 01:14:03,840
Speaker 9: all the reasons and means in the world too. Uh

1265
01:14:04,200 --> 01:14:06,600
Speaker 9: start you know, getting things done, start doing some some

1266
01:14:06,680 --> 01:14:10,000
Speaker 9: actual physical work on it. So I don't see why not.

1267
01:14:10,320 --> 01:14:13,080
Speaker 9: And uh, you know, I have, I have goals short term,

1268
01:14:13,120 --> 01:14:17,040
Speaker 9: long term. Uh, I'm young enough, like I don't feel

1269
01:14:17,040 --> 01:14:18,320
Speaker 9: like I've like blown a bunch of time.

1270
01:14:19,160 --> 01:14:21,880
Speaker 11: So you know, because a lot of.

1271
01:14:21,840 --> 01:14:24,120
Speaker 9: People are fifty years old, fifty year old heroin addict,

1272
01:14:24,200 --> 01:14:26,360
Speaker 9: like I could only imagine like feeling like you wasted

1273
01:14:26,920 --> 01:14:29,519
Speaker 9: you know, four or five decades. And it's like I'm

1274
01:14:29,560 --> 01:14:31,360
Speaker 9: sitting next to them, and I always hear like, honest,

1275
01:14:31,400 --> 01:14:34,000
Speaker 9: I wish I would have gotten sober that young, because

1276
01:14:34,000 --> 01:14:35,720
Speaker 9: all my friends are still partying and even though they're

1277
01:14:35,720 --> 01:14:37,120
Speaker 9: out of college, they're still.

1278
01:14:38,560 --> 01:14:39,439
Speaker 5: Still doing whatever.

1279
01:14:39,720 --> 01:14:42,880
Speaker 9: But uh, they're they're normal and that you know, they

1280
01:14:42,920 --> 01:14:44,639
Speaker 9: can they can put it down and go.

1281
01:14:44,600 --> 01:14:45,120
Speaker 12: Back to work.

1282
01:14:46,720 --> 01:14:51,879
Speaker 1: So Ryan Man, you know, I think you're You're obviously

1283
01:14:51,960 --> 01:14:55,680
Speaker 1: a smart guy, and you obviously like you know, have

1284
01:14:55,760 --> 01:14:58,960
Speaker 1: some some sense and a and a plan for yourself.

1285
01:14:59,040 --> 01:15:02,840
Speaker 1: And uh man, I'm I'm I'm rooting for you, dude,

1286
01:15:03,479 --> 01:15:07,040
Speaker 1: I really am. I I think it's like I said,

1287
01:15:07,040 --> 01:15:09,920
Speaker 1: I'm impressed. I'm impressed with you because I feel like,

1288
01:15:09,960 --> 01:15:18,000
Speaker 1: after so many like tries, you know it, it seems

1289
01:15:18,000 --> 01:15:22,440
Speaker 1: like you're still putting in the effort to help yourself,

1290
01:15:22,800 --> 01:15:27,200
Speaker 1: which is like the most important thing, you know. So

1291
01:15:27,439 --> 01:15:31,479
Speaker 1: I'm very very glad to hear that. And dude, thank

1292
01:15:31,479 --> 01:15:36,000
Speaker 1: you so much for sharing. And we wish you the

1293
01:15:36,040 --> 01:15:36,639
Speaker 1: best of luck.

1294
01:15:37,960 --> 01:15:42,280
Speaker 9: Yeah, And if anyone else out there is struggling, I

1295
01:15:42,320 --> 01:15:46,920
Speaker 9: just hope they reach out tell someone and I love them,

1296
01:15:46,960 --> 01:15:48,679
Speaker 9: and you can do it. I mean, it's it's possible.

1297
01:15:48,680 --> 01:15:50,439
Speaker 9: If I could do, anyone can and I've done it

1298
01:15:50,439 --> 01:15:53,640
Speaker 9: before and I know many people who have, so you know,

1299
01:15:53,920 --> 01:15:56,800
Speaker 9: any all the love and support to anyone out there struggling.

1300
01:15:57,040 --> 01:15:57,920
Speaker 9: Thanks for taking my call.

1301
01:15:57,960 --> 01:16:00,200
Speaker 1: I appreciate you anytime. Ryan, You take care.

1302
01:16:00,240 --> 01:16:02,200
Speaker 5: I have a good night, all right.

1303
01:16:05,400 --> 01:16:07,519
Speaker 1: Amy?

1304
01:16:08,280 --> 01:16:10,200
Speaker 16: Oh my gosh, Hello.

1305
01:16:10,640 --> 01:16:12,799
Speaker 1: What's up? Amy?

1306
01:16:14,840 --> 01:16:15,799
Speaker 16: What's up? Gecko?

1307
01:16:17,360 --> 01:16:21,680
Speaker 1: Amy from Arizona? You chilling with your fame? You want

1308
01:16:21,720 --> 01:16:27,280
Speaker 1: to talk about how hard math is? Yes, I do

1309
01:16:28,720 --> 01:16:30,439
Speaker 1: tell me, tell me how hard is math?

1310
01:16:32,479 --> 01:16:37,719
Speaker 16: Well, I'm uh, I'm not at your average college age.

1311
01:16:37,760 --> 01:16:38,759
Speaker 4: I'm a little bit older.

1312
01:16:39,000 --> 01:16:44,000
Speaker 16: And I started taking math recently, and I realized how

1313
01:16:44,760 --> 01:16:47,840
Speaker 16: how difficult it is, Like right now, I have to

1314
01:16:47,840 --> 01:16:50,280
Speaker 16: figure out like functions and functions.

1315
01:16:50,280 --> 01:16:51,240
Speaker 15: They're super hard.

1316
01:16:51,320 --> 01:16:53,200
Speaker 16: And I was wondering, maybe if you knew a little

1317
01:16:53,200 --> 01:16:55,679
Speaker 16: bit about functions, you can help me out.

1318
01:16:56,400 --> 01:17:00,160
Speaker 1: I know, I you know, I go to functions, I

1319
01:17:00,200 --> 01:17:03,240
Speaker 1: talk to people. Uh, you know, I'll pet a dog

1320
01:17:03,320 --> 01:17:05,360
Speaker 1: if it's there. I'll eat some tortilla chips.

1321
01:17:07,200 --> 01:17:08,800
Speaker 16: Right, Yeah, I'm good at that too.

1322
01:17:09,400 --> 01:17:11,599
Speaker 1: I go to I I you know, I'm okay at functions.

1323
01:17:11,600 --> 01:17:14,400
Speaker 1: I'm not the best. I'm not like you know, I

1324
01:17:14,439 --> 01:17:17,880
Speaker 1: know that I'm able to be like, you know, confident

1325
01:17:17,960 --> 01:17:21,880
Speaker 1: here because it's it's a digital thing, and you know

1326
01:17:21,960 --> 01:17:24,760
Speaker 1: it's it's it's my twitch whatever the fuck. But I

1327
01:17:24,760 --> 01:17:27,519
Speaker 1: had an actual function. You know, I'm I'm a lot

1328
01:17:27,760 --> 01:17:31,320
Speaker 1: you know, you know, I'll I'll pick my spots strategically,

1329
01:17:33,560 --> 01:17:37,120
Speaker 1: right right, you're in college. You just went back to college.

1330
01:17:38,840 --> 01:17:39,200
Speaker 9: I did.

1331
01:17:39,280 --> 01:17:40,320
Speaker 16: I just went back to college.

1332
01:17:40,400 --> 01:17:40,559
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1333
01:17:40,600 --> 01:17:44,720
Speaker 16: I worked in nonprofit for ten years and now I'm

1334
01:17:44,720 --> 01:17:47,240
Speaker 16: back in college to go into the medical field, so

1335
01:17:47,360 --> 01:17:48,679
Speaker 16: I need to know all the math.

1336
01:17:49,320 --> 01:17:50,880
Speaker 1: Can I would you be kind? You know, I have

1337
01:17:50,920 --> 01:17:52,200
Speaker 1: to believe would be comfortble sharing.

1338
01:17:52,240 --> 01:17:56,479
Speaker 16: Hold you are, I'm forty.

1339
01:17:57,080 --> 01:18:02,479
Speaker 1: My my step year, my step mom became uh my

1340
01:18:02,720 --> 01:18:04,880
Speaker 1: mom did a very similar thing at a at a

1341
01:18:05,080 --> 01:18:07,200
Speaker 1: I think she was actually even older than you when

1342
01:18:07,200 --> 01:18:10,559
Speaker 1: she did a like extremely similar same thing is what

1343
01:18:10,600 --> 01:18:14,000
Speaker 1: you're doing right now, and she became a doctor.

1344
01:18:14,680 --> 01:18:16,559
Speaker 9: You know, so nice.

1345
01:18:17,840 --> 01:18:20,840
Speaker 16: I mean, i'd like to positions assistant. But we'll see,

1346
01:18:21,200 --> 01:18:21,679
Speaker 16: we'll see.

1347
01:18:22,200 --> 01:18:24,280
Speaker 1: No, it'll happen, it will happen. I mean, how much

1348
01:18:24,280 --> 01:18:26,120
Speaker 1: do you really need to know to be a physician's assistant?

1349
01:18:26,160 --> 01:18:29,080
Speaker 1: You know, you gotta you gotta know about the brain

1350
01:18:29,200 --> 01:18:32,760
Speaker 1: and the heart and the lungs and probably something about

1351
01:18:32,760 --> 01:18:35,559
Speaker 1: the brands. Okay, something goes wrong with those.

1352
01:18:35,800 --> 01:18:39,719
Speaker 16: Yeah, hands, feet, all those things, uh, all the things

1353
01:18:39,720 --> 01:18:41,960
Speaker 16: in between the hands and the feet. I'm pretty sure.

1354
01:18:47,560 --> 01:18:51,559
Speaker 1: Do you give me? Do you have any like words

1355
01:18:51,600 --> 01:18:54,400
Speaker 1: of wisdom that you want to pass to the to

1356
01:18:54,479 --> 01:18:57,040
Speaker 1: the viewers tonight, Amy.

1357
01:18:57,320 --> 01:18:57,799
Speaker 16: Of course.

1358
01:18:57,920 --> 01:18:58,160
Speaker 3: Yeah.

1359
01:18:58,240 --> 01:19:00,800
Speaker 16: I mean, it's never too late to do what you love.

1360
01:19:01,000 --> 01:19:04,120
Speaker 16: I think, like you know, forty, sometimes people think that

1361
01:19:04,160 --> 01:19:08,320
Speaker 16: it's too late to pursue a different career. But I am.

1362
01:19:09,360 --> 01:19:11,519
Speaker 16: I loved my past career, but now I'm ready for

1363
01:19:11,520 --> 01:19:13,720
Speaker 16: a new career. And I think, I think anybody can

1364
01:19:13,760 --> 01:19:16,280
Speaker 16: do it as long as you have the u, you

1365
01:19:16,320 --> 01:19:18,920
Speaker 16: have the desire, you know, beautiful.

1366
01:19:19,080 --> 01:19:22,360
Speaker 1: I like that. I like that a lot. What's your

1367
01:19:22,400 --> 01:19:24,960
Speaker 1: what's your ultimate goal in love? What's your modest operenda?

1368
01:19:25,040 --> 01:19:29,439
Speaker 1: How do you? How do you how do you approach life? Amy?

1369
01:19:29,800 --> 01:19:30,800
Speaker 1: What's your philosophy?

1370
01:19:32,840 --> 01:19:37,479
Speaker 16: I guess with an open mind is the best m

1371
01:19:37,520 --> 01:19:40,720
Speaker 16: O I can probably pass on to others. Is like,

1372
01:19:40,800 --> 01:19:44,160
Speaker 16: you never know what's what's gonna come towards you, and

1373
01:19:44,240 --> 01:19:47,320
Speaker 16: you gotta you gotta, you gotta feed it with an

1374
01:19:47,320 --> 01:19:50,960
Speaker 16: open mind. If not, you're gonna be in trouble, you know.

1375
01:19:51,960 --> 01:20:01,040
Speaker 1: I like that. I like that. Can get some medical advice, Well,

1376
01:20:01,080 --> 01:20:06,240
Speaker 1: what you got going on? I'm afraid that, Well, I can't.

1377
01:20:06,520 --> 01:20:08,639
Speaker 1: It's hard. It's hard to explain, but I've been covering

1378
01:20:08,640 --> 01:20:12,960
Speaker 1: my face and a talk based green paint for several

1379
01:20:13,000 --> 01:20:15,720
Speaker 1: hours every year that we see that, and I'm kind

1380
01:20:15,760 --> 01:20:19,040
Speaker 1: of wondering, like, you know, based on your professional medical opinion,

1381
01:20:21,160 --> 01:20:23,719
Speaker 1: how long do I have left to live?

1382
01:20:26,120 --> 01:20:30,080
Speaker 16: I mean it depends on the level of of color

1383
01:20:30,200 --> 01:20:34,320
Speaker 16: that you're using in the amount of you know, like

1384
01:20:34,760 --> 01:20:40,040
Speaker 16: I guess it's artificial ingredients in there. But a good

1385
01:20:40,600 --> 01:20:43,639
Speaker 16: a good baking soda rub like you make a little

1386
01:20:43,640 --> 01:20:45,880
Speaker 16: bit of baking soda. I would say like three table

1387
01:20:45,920 --> 01:20:48,599
Speaker 16: soons a baking soda with like a cup of water.

1388
01:20:50,479 --> 01:20:53,680
Speaker 16: Rub that on there. That'll draw out all these toxins

1389
01:20:54,160 --> 01:20:57,200
Speaker 16: of sim salt is really good for that. You also

1390
01:20:57,240 --> 01:20:59,240
Speaker 16: have some witch hazel which you can get from the

1391
01:20:59,320 --> 01:21:03,679
Speaker 16: drug shot really and extensively metal draw all that those

1392
01:21:03,840 --> 01:21:06,439
Speaker 16: toxins out hopefully.

1393
01:21:07,840 --> 01:21:09,720
Speaker 1: Oh you know what I do is I you know

1394
01:21:09,800 --> 01:21:14,280
Speaker 1: that three and one shampoo condition or body wash.

1395
01:21:14,479 --> 01:21:14,880
Speaker 16: I do.

1396
01:21:15,200 --> 01:21:18,080
Speaker 1: I just I just go in the shower. I throw

1397
01:21:18,160 --> 01:21:20,599
Speaker 1: that on there. It usually does the trick gets it off.

1398
01:21:22,560 --> 01:21:27,280
Speaker 16: I mean that's better than nothing, right, But I'm not

1399
01:21:27,320 --> 01:21:29,960
Speaker 16: sure it'll get all the green toxins out of the

1400
01:21:30,200 --> 01:21:30,960
Speaker 16: out of the skin.

1401
01:21:32,000 --> 01:21:37,560
Speaker 1: Do you think there's like a like a do you

1402
01:21:37,600 --> 01:21:39,400
Speaker 1: think it's skin cancer or something like that?

1403
01:21:41,880 --> 01:21:49,040
Speaker 16: I mean cancer cancer is not typically caused by topical applications,

1404
01:21:49,200 --> 01:21:50,080
Speaker 16: but it's possible.

1405
01:21:52,520 --> 01:21:55,560
Speaker 1: Well, thank you for looking at for me, Amy.

1406
01:21:56,240 --> 01:21:57,760
Speaker 16: I'm just saying, like maybe you want to go with

1407
01:21:57,800 --> 01:22:00,920
Speaker 16: a natural green, like maybe you can like do some

1408
01:22:01,080 --> 01:22:05,400
Speaker 16: kale or some spinach and you can get the same

1409
01:22:05,479 --> 01:22:09,040
Speaker 16: color without the same risk to your hope.

1410
01:22:11,800 --> 01:22:13,840
Speaker 1: All right, don't I do that. I'll show about, show,

1411
01:22:13,840 --> 01:22:16,439
Speaker 1: I'll show up. I'll show up next stream with a

1412
01:22:16,439 --> 01:22:17,920
Speaker 1: bunch of shredded lettuce on my face.

1413
01:22:19,320 --> 01:22:21,120
Speaker 16: I love it. I love that. I love that look

1414
01:22:21,160 --> 01:22:24,280
Speaker 16: for you. I think that would be like a good

1415
01:22:24,360 --> 01:22:25,960
Speaker 16: example to set for the public.

1416
01:22:26,040 --> 01:22:26,280
Speaker 11: Tune.

1417
01:22:26,880 --> 01:22:30,920
Speaker 1: Thank you, Amy, Thank you, Amy, Amy, good luck. I

1418
01:22:30,920 --> 01:22:34,439
Speaker 1: hope to be under your knife one day because I

1419
01:22:34,479 --> 01:22:37,400
Speaker 1: trust you, and I hope you have a gross tonight.

1420
01:22:39,560 --> 01:22:41,559
Speaker 16: Thank you. I appreciate it, and you have a wonderful

1421
01:22:41,640 --> 01:22:42,120
Speaker 16: night too.

1422
01:22:42,960 --> 01:22:57,080
Speaker 1: Amy Forever. Hello, Blake, Hello, how's it going, Blake? Are

1423
01:22:57,080 --> 01:22:58,000
Speaker 1: you super well?

1424
01:22:58,160 --> 01:22:58,439
Speaker 8: Are you?

1425
01:22:59,520 --> 01:23:01,960
Speaker 1: Way? Is actually extremely way?

1426
01:23:02,479 --> 01:23:05,599
Speaker 9: Oh about?

1427
01:23:05,720 --> 01:23:07,360
Speaker 3: And lose my ship right down?

1428
01:23:07,560 --> 01:23:09,839
Speaker 1: I lose my ship? What's up? Blake? Tell me everythough?

1429
01:23:10,920 --> 01:23:12,880
Speaker 8: Let me kid, I catch my breath, bro.

1430
01:23:14,400 --> 01:23:16,800
Speaker 1: All the time. I'll take I'll take a sip of water.

1431
01:23:16,920 --> 01:23:19,559
Speaker 1: You want anything, I'm gonna give myself a sip of water.

1432
01:23:19,560 --> 01:23:21,640
Speaker 8: If you want anything, you're gonna have to save this

1433
01:23:21,720 --> 01:23:25,320
Speaker 8: sip for me. Give me at least ten seconds.

1434
01:23:26,680 --> 01:23:30,960
Speaker 13: Holy to lely though this is climbing holy to the

1435
01:23:31,360 --> 01:23:31,920
Speaker 13: one second.

1436
01:23:37,360 --> 01:23:38,360
Speaker 8: I love you, law.

1437
01:23:40,479 --> 01:23:44,120
Speaker 1: Going on man, not much blake? How uh, how how

1438
01:23:44,240 --> 01:23:47,519
Speaker 1: might what tell tell us? Tell us? What's up?

1439
01:23:50,479 --> 01:23:53,439
Speaker 8: My heart's beating on my chest? A man?

1440
01:23:53,520 --> 01:23:55,600
Speaker 1: Take your time, take your time.

1441
01:23:57,800 --> 01:24:02,679
Speaker 8: Well, to be honest with you alone, got a little

1442
01:24:03,280 --> 01:24:10,280
Speaker 8: O C. D obsoinition like to line things up, you

1443
01:24:10,320 --> 01:24:16,880
Speaker 8: know what I mean? And uh, the wife she's not

1444
01:24:16,920 --> 01:24:23,479
Speaker 8: having it. M hmm yeah, basically I can tell you

1445
01:24:23,800 --> 01:24:26,920
Speaker 8: just here, bam, bam bam, putting everything in a row,

1446
01:24:27,920 --> 01:24:29,800
Speaker 8: everything organized, you know what I mean?

1447
01:24:30,560 --> 01:24:31,000
Speaker 10: Mm hmm.

1448
01:24:35,080 --> 01:24:35,680
Speaker 8: That's not it.

1449
01:24:37,320 --> 01:24:40,160
Speaker 1: How does it make you feel when you see things

1450
01:24:40,200 --> 01:24:41,200
Speaker 1: that are unorganized?

1451
01:24:43,200 --> 01:24:50,920
Speaker 8: It gives me sure satisfaction. You can't even describe it.

1452
01:24:51,040 --> 01:24:54,560
Speaker 8: Just beautiful, just satisfaction.

1453
01:24:55,960 --> 01:24:57,559
Speaker 1: Oh I meant, how how do you feel when you

1454
01:24:57,600 --> 01:24:59,560
Speaker 1: see things that are disorganized?

1455
01:25:01,720 --> 01:25:09,080
Speaker 8: Oh? Well, of course the complete opposite. Just it just

1456
01:25:09,160 --> 01:25:10,120
Speaker 8: pisses me the funk.

1457
01:25:10,439 --> 01:25:20,559
Speaker 1: Okay, So how long have you been obsessively organizing stuff

1458
01:25:20,720 --> 01:25:24,960
Speaker 1: and putting things in line? You know?

1459
01:25:27,080 --> 01:25:33,680
Speaker 8: My whole adult career? Basically? What's about that?

1460
01:25:34,439 --> 01:25:34,720
Speaker 5: Mm hm?

1461
01:25:37,439 --> 01:25:39,760
Speaker 1: And how long have you heard what the get is?

1462
01:25:40,840 --> 01:25:41,040
Speaker 3: Are you?

1463
01:25:41,080 --> 01:25:41,880
Speaker 1: Are you with so bad.

1464
01:25:41,920 --> 01:25:46,680
Speaker 8: Now, I'm sorry. No, no, I'm you know, every time

1465
01:25:46,720 --> 01:25:49,679
Speaker 8: I hear you, you know, you're like, are you near anybody?

1466
01:25:49,720 --> 01:25:54,439
Speaker 8: So I ran to the basement for you.

1467
01:25:55,320 --> 01:25:57,599
Speaker 1: Look, I'm not I look, I'm not here to keep

1468
01:25:57,640 --> 01:25:59,479
Speaker 1: you away from your friends. You don't you don't have

1469
01:25:59,560 --> 01:25:59,960
Speaker 1: to be alive.

1470
01:26:00,000 --> 01:26:00,879
Speaker 8: And I was just kid.

1471
01:26:02,560 --> 01:26:04,479
Speaker 1: Am I own speaker phone. I feel like I can

1472
01:26:04,560 --> 01:26:06,760
Speaker 1: hear myself on the thing, although I don't know.

1473
01:26:06,760 --> 01:26:13,400
Speaker 8: If no, no, sir, no, sir? Okay, and beautiful, I

1474
01:26:13,479 --> 01:26:14,599
Speaker 8: got to hear what you got to say.

1475
01:26:14,800 --> 01:26:19,080
Speaker 1: Romantic. How long have you been with your wife for?

1476
01:26:19,360 --> 01:26:21,160
Speaker 1: Not necessarily married, but just together?

1477
01:26:23,040 --> 01:26:24,040
Speaker 8: Seven years?

1478
01:26:24,479 --> 01:26:30,200
Speaker 1: Seven years? Okay? And don't look at the chat. Don't

1479
01:26:30,200 --> 01:26:32,880
Speaker 1: look at the chat. We're the only chat going on

1480
01:26:33,000 --> 01:26:35,600
Speaker 1: between you and I. I need your whole focus. I

1481
01:26:35,640 --> 01:26:36,679
Speaker 1: need your whole focus here.

1482
01:26:37,320 --> 01:26:39,679
Speaker 8: I got you, but I mean be honestly, is it bad?

1483
01:26:40,320 --> 01:26:41,720
Speaker 1: I'm not. I don't know. I'm not looking. It's just

1484
01:26:41,920 --> 01:26:43,840
Speaker 1: justuing me. We're just chatting. No looking at the chat?

1485
01:26:44,160 --> 01:26:49,720
Speaker 1: All right, Blake, you said your name was.

1486
01:26:51,600 --> 01:26:59,400
Speaker 8: Yes, Blake Adams being totally transparent last night. We're being transparent.

1487
01:26:59,280 --> 01:27:04,320
Speaker 1: Of course, of course, Blake. All right, so you met

1488
01:27:04,360 --> 01:27:06,439
Speaker 1: your wife, you've been the refe seven years. I'm sorry,

1489
01:27:06,479 --> 01:27:08,160
Speaker 1: I know you just fucking told me, but you said

1490
01:27:08,160 --> 01:27:15,360
Speaker 1: you've been like obsessively organizing things for three years.

1491
01:27:15,600 --> 01:27:18,759
Speaker 8: Yeah, well that's we just bought a house together. That's

1492
01:27:19,040 --> 01:27:22,240
Speaker 8: you know, that's when you really get the whole. You know,

1493
01:27:22,280 --> 01:27:25,320
Speaker 8: when you're together and you can see how each person lives,

1494
01:27:25,360 --> 01:27:26,040
Speaker 8: you know what I'm saying.

1495
01:27:26,960 --> 01:27:30,680
Speaker 1: Okay, and okay, you just bought a house together recently,

1496
01:27:31,320 --> 01:27:33,599
Speaker 1: you've only recently started living together.

1497
01:27:36,840 --> 01:27:39,360
Speaker 8: Well, we're going on two years, I mean, but it's

1498
01:27:39,400 --> 01:27:45,200
Speaker 8: been rough. Well, the you know organization, I mean, I

1499
01:27:45,360 --> 01:27:47,760
Speaker 8: like everything to look like a chess game or you

1500
01:27:47,800 --> 01:27:48,320
Speaker 8: know what I mean.

1501
01:27:49,120 --> 01:27:54,200
Speaker 1: Okay, And how would you describe her style is it?

1502
01:27:54,439 --> 01:27:59,040
Speaker 1: Would you describe her style as actively disorganized or just

1503
01:27:59,320 --> 01:28:02,599
Speaker 1: simply not as anal about things as you.

1504
01:28:04,920 --> 01:28:07,680
Speaker 8: It would look like you know, where they dump trash

1505
01:28:07,960 --> 01:28:10,920
Speaker 8: in like a landfill, That would be her style.

1506
01:28:11,680 --> 01:28:12,440
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm.

1507
01:28:14,720 --> 01:28:21,160
Speaker 8: Yeah, so actively disorganized would be an understatement. So you're

1508
01:28:21,200 --> 01:28:25,559
Speaker 8: just looking at pure slob basically. So you see where

1509
01:28:25,560 --> 01:28:26,120
Speaker 8: I'm coming from.

1510
01:28:26,720 --> 01:28:27,000
Speaker 5: M h.

1511
01:28:28,720 --> 01:28:31,120
Speaker 1: M hmm. What do you like about your wife? What?

1512
01:28:31,439 --> 01:28:33,439
Speaker 1: What drew you to her and continues to draw you

1513
01:28:33,479 --> 01:28:34,080
Speaker 1: to her every day.

1514
01:28:38,040 --> 01:28:41,920
Speaker 8: I knew with these hard questions, it's not even hard.

1515
01:28:42,920 --> 01:28:43,080
Speaker 9: You know.

1516
01:28:45,040 --> 01:28:47,680
Speaker 1: I don't know flag that you described that as a

1517
01:28:47,720 --> 01:28:48,559
Speaker 1: hard question.

1518
01:28:51,400 --> 01:28:57,360
Speaker 8: Yeah I heard that, but go ahead, you know, I

1519
01:28:57,360 --> 01:29:00,680
Speaker 8: don't I don't know. I mean maybe that was on

1520
01:29:00,680 --> 01:29:05,080
Speaker 8: our question. I mean she she takes care of the

1521
01:29:05,120 --> 01:29:06,960
Speaker 8: things that need to be taken care of.

1522
01:29:07,479 --> 01:29:07,920
Speaker 3: How about that?

1523
01:29:10,479 --> 01:29:13,400
Speaker 1: You like her because she's care of the things that

1524
01:29:13,520 --> 01:29:14,560
Speaker 1: need to be taken care of.

1525
01:29:15,080 --> 01:29:18,800
Speaker 8: Wow, Well, I don't want you to put words in

1526
01:29:18,840 --> 01:29:19,120
Speaker 8: my mouth.

1527
01:29:19,720 --> 01:29:23,080
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to you. I want you to question.

1528
01:29:24,240 --> 01:29:28,439
Speaker 8: I know you. I've listened to you for hundreds of hours.

1529
01:29:29,439 --> 01:29:36,840
Speaker 8: She she fulfills the roles of the house. We'll just

1530
01:29:37,520 --> 01:29:38,200
Speaker 8: let's go with that.

1531
01:29:38,360 --> 01:29:38,559
Speaker 3: Long.

1532
01:29:39,840 --> 01:29:42,599
Speaker 8: Tell me what I need to do, because you're the

1533
01:29:42,600 --> 01:29:44,679
Speaker 8: therapy gecko. I'm looking for advice.

1534
01:29:45,800 --> 01:29:47,680
Speaker 1: Well, I don't know if I have advice, but I

1535
01:29:48,080 --> 01:29:55,440
Speaker 1: I am interested in, uh sort of talking about the situation. Okay,

1536
01:29:55,680 --> 01:30:01,880
Speaker 1: so you like her because she fills the roles of

1537
01:30:01,960 --> 01:30:03,720
Speaker 1: the house. Do you guys have a kid?

1538
01:30:05,840 --> 01:30:06,000
Speaker 5: Oh?

1539
01:30:06,080 --> 01:30:07,360
Speaker 8: Yeah, yeah, we do.

1540
01:30:08,280 --> 01:30:09,519
Speaker 1: Okay, how old is the kid?

1541
01:30:10,000 --> 01:30:10,080
Speaker 3: Just?

1542
01:30:12,240 --> 01:30:16,519
Speaker 8: Uh, he won't be one years old in a couple

1543
01:30:16,520 --> 01:30:20,360
Speaker 8: of days. And we went through IVF. I don't know.

1544
01:30:21,000 --> 01:30:27,240
Speaker 8: You know what in vitro fertilization is no, So that's

1545
01:30:27,280 --> 01:30:29,600
Speaker 8: where like you don't even leave the kids that have

1546
01:30:29,680 --> 01:30:34,040
Speaker 8: to artificially and simulate you and all that pay all

1547
01:30:34,040 --> 01:30:39,680
Speaker 8: that money. I don't know. Yeah, so that's what we do,

1548
01:30:41,560 --> 01:30:45,599
Speaker 8: but anyone, you know, I don't want to take every

1549
01:30:45,680 --> 01:30:46,120
Speaker 8: time long.

1550
01:30:46,640 --> 01:30:49,719
Speaker 1: Uh No, it's fine, man, I'm kind of well, I'm curious.

1551
01:30:49,720 --> 01:30:55,400
Speaker 1: Have you ever been to any form of Okay, so

1552
01:30:55,520 --> 01:30:57,640
Speaker 1: you so you you have you been like, have you

1553
01:30:57,680 --> 01:30:59,880
Speaker 1: been like formally diagnosed with OCD?

1554
01:31:05,640 --> 01:31:09,320
Speaker 8: I just grew up on adderall, just like all these

1555
01:31:09,360 --> 01:31:12,480
Speaker 8: other kids have. I'm not going to claim.

1556
01:31:12,160 --> 01:31:15,520
Speaker 13: All that, you know, but I just have an obsession.

1557
01:31:15,280 --> 01:31:19,120
Speaker 8: With everything having to be perfect. My whole house got

1558
01:31:19,160 --> 01:31:24,040
Speaker 8: to be perfect. Just I just like perfect. You know,

1559
01:31:24,120 --> 01:31:28,320
Speaker 8: it doesn't it doesn't necessarily have to be like per

1560
01:31:28,400 --> 01:31:32,639
Speaker 8: se perfect, but it needs to be organized all the time.

1561
01:31:33,080 --> 01:31:35,000
Speaker 8: And that's just me as a person.

1562
01:31:36,840 --> 01:31:40,920
Speaker 1: Have you talked to a real therapist about this? That's

1563
01:31:40,920 --> 01:31:42,000
Speaker 1: why I was asking if you had the.

1564
01:31:42,640 --> 01:31:47,400
Speaker 8: I love to. I would love to. I would love to.

1565
01:31:47,560 --> 01:31:48,520
Speaker 8: Maybe I should.

1566
01:31:48,240 --> 01:31:51,439
Speaker 1: Anything, but totally should. It sounds like.

1567
01:31:53,000 --> 01:31:55,720
Speaker 8: Could you say it's a money thing is that.

1568
01:31:55,280 --> 01:31:56,760
Speaker 1: No, I was I was asking, is it is it

1569
01:31:56,760 --> 01:31:59,120
Speaker 1: a money thing? Like like because you know I know

1570
01:31:59,200 --> 01:32:01,679
Speaker 1: people fuck, No, I just I just.

1571
01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:06,240
Speaker 8: I just like I just I just love it. You know,

1572
01:32:06,720 --> 01:32:09,320
Speaker 8: I don't have any problems with it, you know what

1573
01:32:09,360 --> 01:32:09,679
Speaker 8: I mean.

1574
01:32:10,560 --> 01:32:11,839
Speaker 9: It's just like, what's.

1575
01:32:11,640 --> 01:32:14,439
Speaker 8: One thing that you like about yourself that you wouldn't change?

1576
01:32:14,920 --> 01:32:15,240
Speaker 8: You know?

1577
01:32:15,520 --> 01:32:21,200
Speaker 17: Well, well you know, okay, well you know, no, No,

1578
01:32:21,240 --> 01:32:22,479
Speaker 17: here's what Here's what I'm gonna Here's what I was

1579
01:32:22,479 --> 01:32:27,000
Speaker 17: gonna say, is like, you know, I'm actually kind of

1580
01:32:27,760 --> 01:32:30,360
Speaker 17: less interested in in because.

1581
01:32:30,840 --> 01:32:34,920
Speaker 1: The way that uh, you know, at least you know

1582
01:32:35,080 --> 01:32:39,680
Speaker 1: this was presented on you know, the notes that from

1583
01:32:39,720 --> 01:32:41,759
Speaker 1: from what you told to the to the call screen

1584
01:32:41,840 --> 01:32:44,840
Speaker 1: ran a little bit from what you've told me, was

1585
01:32:44,880 --> 01:32:46,920
Speaker 1: the way you presented it as like your O C.

1586
01:32:47,120 --> 01:32:52,679
Speaker 1: D is like the central sort of thing.

1587
01:32:52,800 --> 01:32:56,160
Speaker 8: That's that it's ruining things for sure.

1588
01:32:56,720 --> 01:33:00,920
Speaker 1: But okay, But on the other hand, it's like, and again,

1589
01:33:00,920 --> 01:33:02,040
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know you man, I don't know

1590
01:33:02,080 --> 01:33:04,200
Speaker 1: your relationship. But like, on the other hand, it's like,

1591
01:33:04,240 --> 01:33:07,439
Speaker 1: you know, if if you can't you know, if you

1592
01:33:07,560 --> 01:33:10,360
Speaker 1: if you claim that you only like your wife because

1593
01:33:10,360 --> 01:33:15,519
Speaker 1: she fulfills the roles of the house, I feel like,

1594
01:33:15,560 --> 01:33:17,160
Speaker 1: and I don't know what they are and I'm not

1595
01:33:17,200 --> 01:33:19,360
Speaker 1: making not trying to make any assumptions, but there might

1596
01:33:19,400 --> 01:33:24,000
Speaker 1: be other things going on besides just the OCD. And

1597
01:33:24,040 --> 01:33:27,679
Speaker 1: maybe it's not anything like, you know, horrible or tragic

1598
01:33:27,760 --> 01:33:32,360
Speaker 1: about about either of you as people, but maybe there's

1599
01:33:32,520 --> 01:33:37,200
Speaker 1: like yeah, and I was gonna say, maybe there's incompatibility,

1600
01:33:37,280 --> 01:33:40,280
Speaker 1: but you've been together for seven years. I don't know, man,

1601
01:33:40,560 --> 01:33:42,240
Speaker 1: I mean, well, you know what I mean.

1602
01:33:42,479 --> 01:33:45,960
Speaker 8: Time doesn't you know? Tell all you know, you figure

1603
01:33:46,000 --> 01:33:50,280
Speaker 8: it out, you know, later than sooner sometimes. I mean, yeah,

1604
01:33:50,280 --> 01:33:53,599
Speaker 8: this is why I call it you. I mean everything,

1605
01:33:54,280 --> 01:33:57,000
Speaker 8: you know. One thing that I'm gonna tell you this,

1606
01:33:57,040 --> 01:34:00,719
Speaker 8: I'm gonna let you go long. Sure, you are so

1607
01:34:00,920 --> 01:34:03,840
Speaker 8: intelligent and you don't let a whole lot of people

1608
01:34:04,040 --> 01:34:07,080
Speaker 8: you're You're so smart, but you you like to be

1609
01:34:07,160 --> 01:34:09,280
Speaker 8: shy about it, and that's one thing I love about you.

1610
01:34:10,000 --> 01:34:17,200
Speaker 1: Well, thank you, Blake, Man. I appreciate that. And okay, man,

1611
01:34:17,520 --> 01:34:19,960
Speaker 1: go ahead. Well I was gonna say, like, if you can, man,

1612
01:34:20,120 --> 01:34:22,400
Speaker 1: you know, I appreciate all the kind words, but you know,

1613
01:34:22,439 --> 01:34:25,000
Speaker 1: if you can, man, totally go try and see uh

1614
01:34:25,680 --> 01:34:29,000
Speaker 1: A real therapist. I'm curious personally what they would have

1615
01:34:29,040 --> 01:34:30,360
Speaker 1: to say about something like this.

1616
01:34:32,280 --> 01:34:35,280
Speaker 8: Well, you know one thing, but one thing. Have you

1617
01:34:35,360 --> 01:34:38,040
Speaker 8: ever been to a therapist? Nobody's asked you before.

1618
01:34:38,439 --> 01:34:39,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, I've been to a therapist. I don't really like

1619
01:34:40,000 --> 01:34:42,960
Speaker 1: their I like, I feel like I journal for my therapy.

1620
01:34:45,360 --> 01:34:46,320
Speaker 1: You know, I gotta all.

1621
01:34:46,640 --> 01:34:48,759
Speaker 8: I'm gonna let you go, all right, buddy, All right, man.

1622
01:34:48,680 --> 01:34:51,240
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you. Thank you for calling, Thank you

1623
01:34:51,280 --> 01:34:55,600
Speaker 1: for sharing. I love you, letter man, thank you.

1624
01:34:56,640 --> 01:34:56,960
Speaker 15: Hello.

1625
01:34:58,640 --> 01:35:01,920
Speaker 2: Hello, Yes did I get through?

1626
01:35:03,200 --> 01:35:03,519
Speaker 1: Yes?

1627
01:35:04,720 --> 01:35:05,719
Speaker 15: That's fucking crazy.

1628
01:35:06,760 --> 01:35:07,000
Speaker 1: Hi.

1629
01:35:07,800 --> 01:35:10,040
Speaker 2: I'm just hanging out. How are you.

1630
01:35:11,400 --> 01:35:14,599
Speaker 1: I'm also kind of just hanging out as well. I'm chilling.

1631
01:35:20,960 --> 01:35:22,639
Speaker 2: I'm waiting on a pizza right now.

1632
01:35:23,080 --> 01:35:23,880
Speaker 1: What kind of pizza?

1633
01:35:25,280 --> 01:35:27,120
Speaker 15: Okay, hear me out here.

1634
01:35:27,160 --> 01:35:28,040
Speaker 1: It happens.

1635
01:35:29,560 --> 01:35:32,920
Speaker 15: It's half banana pepper's on the left and then half

1636
01:35:32,920 --> 01:35:37,360
Speaker 15: pineapple on the right, both extra on the toppings.

1637
01:35:39,560 --> 01:35:41,280
Speaker 1: Now, how do you know which side is the left

1638
01:35:41,320 --> 01:35:43,320
Speaker 1: side and which side is the right side? Because you

1639
01:35:43,360 --> 01:35:45,800
Speaker 1: could take it and then turn it and then with

1640
01:35:45,960 --> 01:35:49,799
Speaker 1: that then be upside down. Or how do you determine

1641
01:35:49,800 --> 01:35:51,160
Speaker 1: which is the right and which is the left?

1642
01:35:52,479 --> 01:35:54,439
Speaker 15: Well, I mean with the structure of the box, Like

1643
01:35:54,479 --> 01:35:58,120
Speaker 15: when you're opening it up, that's the front and I

1644
01:35:58,240 --> 01:36:01,439
Speaker 15: chosen the app because I've an app. And then when

1645
01:36:01,439 --> 01:36:04,320
Speaker 15: you open it up, it's like left is left, right

1646
01:36:04,439 --> 01:36:04,760
Speaker 15: is right?

1647
01:36:06,080 --> 01:36:08,400
Speaker 1: Do what if they put the pizza? What if they

1648
01:36:08,400 --> 01:36:11,439
Speaker 1: make it half but they put but they put it

1649
01:36:11,479 --> 01:36:13,400
Speaker 1: on the wrong halves you know what I'm talking about.

1650
01:36:13,439 --> 01:36:15,280
Speaker 1: And you're like, and you call them back and you're like,

1651
01:36:15,479 --> 01:36:17,479
Speaker 1: the banana peppers were supposed to be on the right side,

1652
01:36:17,520 --> 01:36:19,479
Speaker 1: but they were on the left side.

1653
01:36:19,840 --> 01:36:22,880
Speaker 15: No, no, no, no, no, no. I forgive them. I

1654
01:36:22,960 --> 01:36:26,000
Speaker 15: forgive them because like I like being sucked over by

1655
01:36:26,040 --> 01:36:29,120
Speaker 15: the food service industry, like they I like being the

1656
01:36:29,160 --> 01:36:31,640
Speaker 15: person that they can like mess it up on and

1657
01:36:31,680 --> 01:36:33,080
Speaker 15: then forgiving them.

1658
01:36:33,400 --> 01:36:35,519
Speaker 1: Oh okay, you enjoy being in a position to forgive

1659
01:36:35,520 --> 01:36:36,000
Speaker 1: other people?

1660
01:36:37,320 --> 01:36:37,599
Speaker 10: Sure?

1661
01:36:37,960 --> 01:36:45,000
Speaker 1: Does it make you feel powerful to forget? No?

1662
01:36:46,960 --> 01:36:48,000
Speaker 15: I mean I definitely.

1663
01:36:49,240 --> 01:36:49,320
Speaker 5: Do.

1664
01:36:49,360 --> 01:36:51,479
Speaker 1: You go, like, you know, I could be an asshole

1665
01:36:51,520 --> 01:36:55,800
Speaker 1: about this, but I'm choosing not to because I am merciful.

1666
01:36:58,160 --> 01:37:02,840
Speaker 15: No, I kind of always yeah, No, I'm really easy

1667
01:37:02,880 --> 01:37:04,679
Speaker 15: to please, Like I'll put up with whatever.

1668
01:37:06,000 --> 01:37:10,400
Speaker 1: Does that ever backfire on you? Yeah, tell me about

1669
01:37:10,439 --> 01:37:11,960
Speaker 1: the last time that that backfired on you?

1670
01:37:15,160 --> 01:37:21,000
Speaker 15: I guess the people I choose to be in committed

1671
01:37:21,040 --> 01:37:26,680
Speaker 15: relationships with I sort of start like, I'm like, oh

1672
01:37:26,720 --> 01:37:29,799
Speaker 15: my gosh, I love the way you are as a person,

1673
01:37:29,840 --> 01:37:34,240
Speaker 15: I love your individuality, and like I completely put them

1674
01:37:34,240 --> 01:37:38,920
Speaker 15: on a pedestal and ignore any mistakes. Anyways, they you

1675
01:37:38,960 --> 01:37:40,840
Speaker 15: would say they sucked me.

1676
01:37:40,840 --> 01:37:45,240
Speaker 1: Over, and listen, you don't have to get you owe

1677
01:37:45,280 --> 01:37:46,840
Speaker 1: me nothing. You don't have to get specific with this

1678
01:37:46,920 --> 01:37:48,880
Speaker 1: at all, you know, if you're unoc comfortable with it.

1679
01:37:48,960 --> 01:37:52,400
Speaker 1: But would you be one to talk about the last person,

1680
01:37:52,720 --> 01:37:55,840
Speaker 1: like the negative quality that you did, not that you

1681
01:37:55,880 --> 01:37:58,759
Speaker 1: overlooked in them because you were focusing on the positives.

1682
01:38:00,280 --> 01:38:05,400
Speaker 15: Yeah. My most recent ex shared a shower towel with

1683
01:38:05,479 --> 01:38:10,200
Speaker 15: his whole family, really.

1684
01:38:09,960 --> 01:38:12,000
Speaker 1: Just one communal towel.

1685
01:38:12,600 --> 01:38:15,640
Speaker 15: Yeah, and like the first time I went to take

1686
01:38:15,640 --> 01:38:18,080
Speaker 15: a shower at his house, I was like, okay, like

1687
01:38:18,280 --> 01:38:20,240
Speaker 15: what's in appropriate tality use? And he was like, I'll

1688
01:38:20,240 --> 01:38:23,120
Speaker 15: just use that one. I was like, oh, Like like,

1689
01:38:23,479 --> 01:38:27,080
Speaker 15: who's is it yours? Like, well, yeah, it's everyone's. I

1690
01:38:27,120 --> 01:38:31,920
Speaker 15: was like everyone's. And then I told every person I

1691
01:38:32,000 --> 01:38:36,800
Speaker 15: knew about that that was the way he did things.

1692
01:38:37,400 --> 01:38:39,559
Speaker 1: And what did you think about the fact that he

1693
01:38:39,640 --> 01:38:41,559
Speaker 1: shared a communal towel with his whole family.

1694
01:38:42,960 --> 01:38:47,880
Speaker 15: I was very disturbed because I I'm kind of a

1695
01:38:47,960 --> 01:38:50,439
Speaker 15: strange for my own family, so that, like that level

1696
01:38:50,479 --> 01:38:55,080
Speaker 15: of intimacy confused me. And also I just think it's

1697
01:38:55,120 --> 01:38:55,960
Speaker 15: weird either way.

1698
01:38:56,520 --> 01:38:57,439
Speaker 1: Is it a germ thing?

1699
01:39:00,800 --> 01:39:01,320
Speaker 16: I mean.

1700
01:39:04,680 --> 01:39:09,720
Speaker 15: That's I mean, like, I mean, how thorough do you

1701
01:39:09,760 --> 01:39:14,280
Speaker 15: get when you're drying yourself, you know what you're passing

1702
01:39:14,320 --> 01:39:17,960
Speaker 15: it on to, like your brother you can call me

1703
01:39:18,080 --> 01:39:18,559
Speaker 15: ja dog.

1704
01:39:21,720 --> 01:39:25,639
Speaker 1: You know. I feel like you should be honored, right,

1705
01:39:25,680 --> 01:39:29,040
Speaker 1: doesn't this sort of mean that he's saying you're part

1706
01:39:29,040 --> 01:39:29,719
Speaker 1: of the family.

1707
01:39:31,720 --> 01:39:37,680
Speaker 15: Yeah, but like diseases passed through orifices and like that

1708
01:39:37,840 --> 01:39:39,240
Speaker 15: is an honor. Yeah, I mean.

1709
01:39:39,160 --> 01:39:43,439
Speaker 1: I but also he's honoring you with the family disease.

1710
01:39:44,520 --> 01:39:44,920
Speaker 16: For sure.

1711
01:39:45,000 --> 01:39:51,880
Speaker 15: For sure. I mean yeah, whatever, I mean, I used it. Whatever, whatever,

1712
01:39:52,600 --> 01:39:54,080
Speaker 15: whatever they have, I have it too.

1713
01:39:54,800 --> 01:39:55,000
Speaker 10: You know.

1714
01:39:55,439 --> 01:39:58,120
Speaker 15: It did make me feel like I had a real

1715
01:39:58,160 --> 01:40:01,640
Speaker 15: family unit. I was like, all right, this is this

1716
01:40:01,720 --> 01:40:02,360
Speaker 15: is what we're doing.

1717
01:40:04,840 --> 01:40:06,400
Speaker 1: So you ended up using it after all?

1718
01:40:07,960 --> 01:40:10,240
Speaker 15: Yeah, I didn't want to be rude. I didn't want to, like,

1719
01:40:10,800 --> 01:40:13,200
Speaker 15: you know, have that confrontation in the moment. I was like, Okay,

1720
01:40:13,400 --> 01:40:14,719
Speaker 15: I'm just going to fuck use the towel.

1721
01:40:15,600 --> 01:40:15,800
Speaker 5: Hmm.

1722
01:40:16,200 --> 01:40:20,759
Speaker 1: Okay, So you went from I'm I'm really enjoying the

1723
01:40:20,760 --> 01:40:22,640
Speaker 1: the character development here. You went from thinking it was

1724
01:40:22,680 --> 01:40:26,799
Speaker 1: gross you the way.

1725
01:40:26,560 --> 01:40:29,439
Speaker 15: That I'm like, I'm not going to critique him the

1726
01:40:29,439 --> 01:40:32,000
Speaker 15: same like you're like you were saying the food service industry,

1727
01:40:32,000 --> 01:40:33,879
Speaker 15: I'm very easy to please. I'm not going to complain.

1728
01:40:34,600 --> 01:40:37,120
Speaker 15: I'll just keep quiet. I'm like, I'll just use the towel.

1729
01:40:36,920 --> 01:40:38,320
Speaker 2: You know, right.

1730
01:40:38,320 --> 01:40:40,320
Speaker 1: But you went from you know, using you went from

1731
01:40:40,360 --> 01:40:43,080
Speaker 1: being adverse using the towel being you know a little

1732
01:40:43,120 --> 01:40:46,200
Speaker 1: bit like, you know, I can't imagine being that close

1733
01:40:46,200 --> 01:40:49,080
Speaker 1: with my family to you then used it. And it

1734
01:40:49,200 --> 01:40:53,800
Speaker 1: sounds as though you felt like you then had a

1735
01:40:53,800 --> 01:40:56,600
Speaker 1: family of your own after going through the experience.

1736
01:40:57,600 --> 01:41:01,800
Speaker 15: I love, I love, still love his parents. His brother

1737
01:41:01,880 --> 01:41:03,360
Speaker 15: was chill too, so I was like, you know what,

1738
01:41:04,479 --> 01:41:07,160
Speaker 15: I'll share it all of them. But like everyone I

1739
01:41:07,200 --> 01:41:09,439
Speaker 15: told about that was so, I think they were more

1740
01:41:09,439 --> 01:41:11,439
Speaker 15: bothered than me, Like I think it was more fucked

1741
01:41:11,479 --> 01:41:14,640
Speaker 15: up to them, And it made me reflect on my

1742
01:41:14,720 --> 01:41:16,320
Speaker 15: own decision to use it.

1743
01:41:18,080 --> 01:41:20,840
Speaker 1: That's a very big idea. But I wouldn't like the

1744
01:41:20,920 --> 01:41:21,639
Speaker 1: character development.

1745
01:41:22,360 --> 01:41:26,920
Speaker 15: Yeah, thank you. Thanks. I try every day.

1746
01:41:27,640 --> 01:41:29,640
Speaker 1: Well, Jay Doug, thank you for sharing. I hope you

1747
01:41:29,640 --> 01:41:30,599
Speaker 1: have a one for rest of the night.

1748
01:41:31,680 --> 01:41:33,680
Speaker 15: Thank you you too. It's so great talking to you.

1749
01:41:35,760 --> 01:41:37,679
Speaker 6: How from Cuba?

1750
01:41:40,439 --> 01:41:42,599
Speaker 1: What's up? What's her name? Tuba?

1751
01:41:44,120 --> 01:41:47,080
Speaker 3: Cuba?

1752
01:41:47,200 --> 01:41:48,160
Speaker 1: Have we spoken before?

1753
01:41:49,560 --> 01:41:50,240
Speaker 3: We have lost?

1754
01:41:51,200 --> 01:41:52,160
Speaker 1: Your name is Cubo?

1755
01:41:53,479 --> 01:41:55,160
Speaker 3: Cubo. It's like k I d a.

1756
01:41:56,840 --> 01:41:58,720
Speaker 1: Ohkiba. Is that your actual name or is that like

1757
01:41:58,720 --> 01:41:59,320
Speaker 1: a screen name?

1758
01:42:00,360 --> 01:42:03,200
Speaker 14: It's a it's my name's cool name.

1759
01:42:05,040 --> 01:42:05,240
Speaker 5: Yeah.

1760
01:42:05,360 --> 01:42:11,920
Speaker 1: Yeah, how's it going, Ceba? Do you like your name?

1761
01:42:12,120 --> 01:42:14,599
Speaker 1: Do you like yourself as a person? Do you like yourself?

1762
01:42:16,840 --> 01:42:20,080
Speaker 3: Uh, that's a difficult question.

1763
01:42:23,320 --> 01:42:23,720
Speaker 1: It is.

1764
01:42:24,040 --> 01:42:27,639
Speaker 17: It's a.

1765
01:42:27,760 --> 01:42:27,960
Speaker 8: Yeah.

1766
01:42:28,160 --> 01:42:30,920
Speaker 3: I mean, I mean, I mean essentially I do some

1767
01:42:31,040 --> 01:42:33,240
Speaker 3: parts of me, but you know there's some there's some

1768
01:42:33,320 --> 01:42:34,639
Speaker 3: things I guess I could work on.

1769
01:42:36,280 --> 01:42:39,880
Speaker 1: By the way, that makes perfect sense. I think you

1770
01:42:39,920 --> 01:42:42,120
Speaker 1: know when you say essentially you do, it's like the

1771
01:42:42,160 --> 01:42:44,799
Speaker 1: macro in the mag at it in the macro sense

1772
01:42:45,479 --> 01:42:49,320
Speaker 1: when push comes to shove, you like yourself. But maybe

1773
01:42:50,520 --> 01:42:53,120
Speaker 1: you know when you break it down into the units

1774
01:42:53,160 --> 01:42:58,559
Speaker 1: of the days and the actions as individually, you're like

1775
01:42:58,680 --> 01:43:01,479
Speaker 1: I you know, maybe because have done that better or

1776
01:43:01,520 --> 01:43:01,880
Speaker 1: something like that.

1777
01:43:03,000 --> 01:43:11,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's that's basically it. M it's a bit s

1778
01:43:11,560 --> 01:43:11,800
Speaker 3: you know.

1779
01:43:12,920 --> 01:43:14,920
Speaker 1: Keep have you ever lied before to.

1780
01:43:14,880 --> 01:43:19,160
Speaker 3: Someone absolutely who hasn't tell me?

1781
01:43:19,240 --> 01:43:22,120
Speaker 1: Tell me about the time, about the the most recent

1782
01:43:22,240 --> 01:43:23,600
Speaker 1: lie you told.

1783
01:43:25,360 --> 01:43:28,519
Speaker 3: All right, Well, it actually happened at work not too

1784
01:43:28,520 --> 01:43:33,160
Speaker 3: longears ago. So let me just give you a little background.

1785
01:43:33,680 --> 01:43:36,439
Speaker 3: I got hired not too long ago, maybe like a

1786
01:43:36,479 --> 01:43:40,559
Speaker 3: month and a half of the max, And uh, I

1787
01:43:40,680 --> 01:43:43,000
Speaker 3: was so excited about the job, so I just told

1788
01:43:43,000 --> 01:43:47,720
Speaker 3: my friend about it, and uh, you got hired. We

1789
01:43:48,040 --> 01:43:50,439
Speaker 3: started working together. You know, he has some fun too,

1790
01:43:51,280 --> 01:43:54,519
Speaker 3: and uh, there was a little mishap at work that

1791
01:43:57,680 --> 01:43:59,720
Speaker 3: I kind of put the blame on him, you know,

1792
01:44:01,600 --> 01:44:03,840
Speaker 3: and he doesn't really suspect the thing.

1793
01:44:07,040 --> 01:44:11,360
Speaker 1: Mhm. All right, So you got hired at a job.

1794
01:44:11,520 --> 01:44:14,200
Speaker 1: Your buddy got hired at the same place. You guys

1795
01:44:14,200 --> 01:44:18,360
Speaker 1: are paling around something, you fuck something up, you blame

1796
01:44:18,400 --> 01:44:19,000
Speaker 1: it on your buddy.

1797
01:44:20,640 --> 01:44:22,120
Speaker 8: Yeah, m.

1798
01:44:24,560 --> 01:44:28,280
Speaker 1: So it's up Keea, I forgot we did the whole

1799
01:44:28,280 --> 01:44:33,160
Speaker 1: thing with that. Can you tell us what it is

1800
01:44:33,200 --> 01:44:33,840
Speaker 1: that you fucked up?

1801
01:44:37,200 --> 01:44:40,519
Speaker 3: So we were working the ship together, mind you, we're

1802
01:44:40,520 --> 01:44:44,240
Speaker 3: not even working near each other. It's kind of like

1803
01:44:44,280 --> 01:44:48,240
Speaker 3: a kind of sports job. Sports oriented. It's like a

1804
01:44:48,320 --> 01:44:51,880
Speaker 3: daycare for kids, but we include sports and everything like that.

1805
01:44:56,840 --> 01:45:00,519
Speaker 3: Oh no, it's get alot worse. I know you did

1806
01:45:00,479 --> 01:45:04,799
Speaker 3: it was it wasn't involving the kids. It wasn't involving

1807
01:45:04,840 --> 01:45:10,400
Speaker 3: the kids. But I may have during you know, closed

1808
01:45:10,439 --> 01:45:14,960
Speaker 3: them down, drop the shelf that may have broken a

1809
01:45:15,000 --> 01:45:22,600
Speaker 3: few things that were valuable. Then you know, there was

1810
01:45:22,600 --> 01:45:25,479
Speaker 3: some question going on. I hauled, asked to get out,

1811
01:45:25,479 --> 01:45:32,560
Speaker 3: and they just saw I wouldn't be suspected. And uh yeah,

1812
01:45:33,320 --> 01:45:36,400
Speaker 3: my broken vacuum cleaner. That was very expensive.

1813
01:45:36,920 --> 01:45:38,480
Speaker 1: You broke a vacuum cleaner.

1814
01:45:39,640 --> 01:45:40,439
Speaker 3: Not not just that.

1815
01:45:40,840 --> 01:45:43,679
Speaker 1: It was walk me through, walk me through, keep walk

1816
01:45:43,800 --> 01:45:46,160
Speaker 1: me through the things that were destroyed.

1817
01:45:47,439 --> 01:45:51,320
Speaker 3: Okay, well, firstly, you know of the vacuum cleaner for

1818
01:45:51,400 --> 01:45:57,680
Speaker 3: one time. Now, we just we got inventory about a

1819
01:45:57,720 --> 01:46:00,760
Speaker 3: week before, so brand new toys and everything like that,

1820
01:46:02,960 --> 01:46:06,760
Speaker 3: and about five hundred dollars with inventory.

1821
01:46:08,840 --> 01:46:17,599
Speaker 1: Okay, hold on, shattered, What how can one shelf contain

1822
01:46:17,880 --> 01:46:22,640
Speaker 1: five hundred dollars worth of toys?

1823
01:46:22,720 --> 01:46:27,840
Speaker 3: Well, we aren't the biggest facility, so our backspace is

1824
01:46:27,920 --> 01:46:31,400
Speaker 3: not as big as it should be. So if you

1825
01:46:31,520 --> 01:46:35,439
Speaker 3: make one small mistake and trist something over it's basically

1826
01:46:35,479 --> 01:46:41,280
Speaker 3: game over. So, yeah, we have like a bunch of toys,

1827
01:46:41,360 --> 01:46:43,599
Speaker 3: brand new toys for the kids to play with, usually

1828
01:46:43,600 --> 01:46:50,320
Speaker 3: the younger ages, and it just still happened that my

1829
01:46:50,439 --> 01:46:52,639
Speaker 3: friend was there at the wrong place in the wrong time.

1830
01:46:54,520 --> 01:46:58,400
Speaker 1: I have so many problems with this because okay, how

1831
01:46:58,560 --> 01:47:02,400
Speaker 1: first of all, okay, so you said that the okay, okay,

1832
01:47:02,400 --> 01:47:04,679
Speaker 1: five hundred dollars, Because here's the thing, five hundred dollars

1833
01:47:04,720 --> 01:47:07,720
Speaker 1: worth of toys. What children's toy especially when you said

1834
01:47:07,720 --> 01:47:12,240
Speaker 1: for younger kids. Yeah, Like also, by the way, I've

1835
01:47:12,520 --> 01:47:14,559
Speaker 1: you know, I was a child, I played with like

1836
01:47:14,760 --> 01:47:20,320
Speaker 1: Fisher Price fucking xylophones. You could take a fucking Fisher

1837
01:47:20,360 --> 01:47:23,640
Speaker 1: Price xylophone and chuck it off a building and that

1838
01:47:23,680 --> 01:47:30,680
Speaker 1: ship will still be good to go. What fucking children's

1839
01:47:30,760 --> 01:47:35,800
Speaker 1: toys are five hundred dollars? And also fragile? Are they

1840
01:47:35,840 --> 01:47:42,240
Speaker 1: playing with like glass or something? What? What are these toys?

1841
01:47:42,800 --> 01:47:46,000
Speaker 3: No, it was like, you know, the classic dollars, a

1842
01:47:46,080 --> 01:47:49,679
Speaker 3: remote control of all that. Sure, it's just a lot

1843
01:47:49,720 --> 01:47:53,600
Speaker 3: of those. And then it's like some ceramic dolls that

1844
01:47:53,640 --> 01:47:56,720
Speaker 3: are on the kind of what kid is.

1845
01:47:56,680 --> 01:48:00,479
Speaker 1: Playing with ceramic dolls? Those are not those are for display.

1846
01:48:02,520 --> 01:48:05,080
Speaker 3: We I don't know why we bought We bought them

1847
01:48:05,080 --> 01:48:06,200
Speaker 3: for some reason.

1848
01:48:05,920 --> 01:48:09,240
Speaker 1: Though, I I you know what I think so much

1849
01:48:09,240 --> 01:48:13,360
Speaker 1: of this is I would I blame the facility because no,

1850
01:48:13,479 --> 01:48:17,120
Speaker 1: this doesn't make sense, because dude, these these children's toys

1851
01:48:17,160 --> 01:48:19,520
Speaker 1: are not meant are meant to withstand.

1852
01:48:20,720 --> 01:48:26,840
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, it's a pretty tall shelf that requires a

1853
01:48:26,880 --> 01:48:29,799
Speaker 3: step letter to obtain most of these toys.

1854
01:48:29,880 --> 01:48:34,479
Speaker 1: Have you ever seen children play with toys? I fucking will.

1855
01:48:34,680 --> 01:48:37,920
Speaker 1: I've seen a kid take one of those fucking remote

1856
01:48:37,920 --> 01:48:41,680
Speaker 1: controlled dinosaurs and they're playing dinosaur and they slam that

1857
01:48:41,840 --> 01:48:46,960
Speaker 1: ship onto the floor and the thing and it's fine.

1858
01:48:48,280 --> 01:48:50,360
Speaker 1: I say, this doesn't make sense. I don't know, I

1859
01:48:50,360 --> 01:48:52,280
Speaker 1: don't know why. Something about this doesn't make sense to me.

1860
01:48:52,840 --> 01:48:57,320
Speaker 3: That's that's the thing. I think so many tipping over.

1861
01:48:57,439 --> 01:49:01,000
Speaker 3: I tried to save it, Like, don't count that. I

1862
01:49:01,080 --> 01:49:06,400
Speaker 3: at least tried to, you know, keep it in place.

1863
01:49:08,840 --> 01:49:13,200
Speaker 3: And you know, I wasn't expecting it to break because

1864
01:49:13,400 --> 01:49:20,160
Speaker 3: you know, ceramic dolls, yes, yes, absolutely, but the plastic dinosaurs.

1865
01:49:22,520 --> 01:49:26,040
Speaker 1: I play the facility for buying ceramic dolls for children

1866
01:49:26,080 --> 01:49:27,840
Speaker 1: to play, well, you know.

1867
01:49:27,960 --> 01:49:31,040
Speaker 3: I do too, But as I digress. You know, I

1868
01:49:31,080 --> 01:49:34,400
Speaker 3: got my out of it, and my friend was, you know,

1869
01:49:34,439 --> 01:49:36,840
Speaker 3: putting the ship in, and my manager walked in and

1870
01:49:37,880 --> 01:49:41,559
Speaker 3: he was He wasn't necessarily near it, but he was

1871
01:49:41,600 --> 01:49:47,920
Speaker 3: close enough to be suspected. And I might have told

1872
01:49:47,920 --> 01:49:50,120
Speaker 3: a little white lie to a.

1873
01:49:51,600 --> 01:49:56,880
Speaker 1: Not to asonerate yourself. Yeah, all right, So just your

1874
01:49:56,880 --> 01:49:58,519
Speaker 1: friend now about this that you lied.

1875
01:49:59,320 --> 01:50:04,439
Speaker 3: He doesn't and he just he was fine with leaving

1876
01:50:04,560 --> 01:50:07,559
Speaker 3: with whatever reason. He didn't even try to fight the clean.

1877
01:50:08,280 --> 01:50:10,800
Speaker 3: And I don't know how to tell him. I don't

1878
01:50:10,800 --> 01:50:13,760
Speaker 3: know if I should tell him that.

1879
01:50:13,760 --> 01:50:14,200
Speaker 8: It was me.

1880
01:50:14,840 --> 01:50:16,080
Speaker 1: Do you think you should tell him it was you?

1881
01:50:19,520 --> 01:50:21,839
Speaker 3: So that first question you asked, if I like myself,

1882
01:50:21,880 --> 01:50:24,759
Speaker 3: I feel like this is like this guilt inside. It's

1883
01:50:24,840 --> 01:50:27,439
Speaker 3: kind of just like pushing me over to him now

1884
01:50:27,479 --> 01:50:31,400
Speaker 3: liking myself, I think I should tell him, but I

1885
01:50:31,439 --> 01:50:34,439
Speaker 3: am not necessarily sure.

1886
01:50:38,880 --> 01:50:40,800
Speaker 1: Well, I'm not gonna tell you what you should do,

1887
01:50:40,960 --> 01:50:44,040
Speaker 1: but I mean, is.

1888
01:50:44,040 --> 01:50:47,000
Speaker 3: There anything you can you can advise me to GHEK?

1889
01:50:47,200 --> 01:50:51,439
Speaker 3: Is there anything? Should I just come clean?

1890
01:50:52,080 --> 01:50:53,920
Speaker 1: I mean, like, yeah, you should come clean, I think,

1891
01:50:54,120 --> 01:50:56,599
Speaker 1: especially because by the way, it sounds like the steaks

1892
01:50:57,160 --> 01:50:59,760
Speaker 1: are very by the way, you're gonna lie. It sounds

1893
01:50:59,760 --> 01:51:01,880
Speaker 1: like you're actually in a very lucky position, right because

1894
01:51:02,000 --> 01:51:05,080
Speaker 1: from what you've told me, the stakes are low, because

1895
01:51:05,080 --> 01:51:08,040
Speaker 1: from what you've told me, your friend when he got

1896
01:51:08,040 --> 01:51:11,439
Speaker 1: fired from the job, was not like, oh that was dumb.

1897
01:51:12,080 --> 01:51:14,200
Speaker 1: He's like he wasn't like fighting it and like, oh

1898
01:51:14,320 --> 01:51:16,360
Speaker 1: that was my dream job and now it's over. And

1899
01:51:16,680 --> 01:51:19,040
Speaker 1: it sounds like from what you've told me that he

1900
01:51:19,160 --> 01:51:21,160
Speaker 1: was like, oh whatever, I was gonna leave anyway or

1901
01:51:21,160 --> 01:51:22,960
Speaker 1: something like that. It sounds like it doesn't care that much.

1902
01:51:25,160 --> 01:51:28,200
Speaker 3: To be fair, he was only there for like two weeks, right, Okay.

1903
01:51:28,280 --> 01:51:29,720
Speaker 1: But so would you say that it sounds like it

1904
01:51:29,720 --> 01:51:31,639
Speaker 1: doesn't care, because then you're I mean, that doesn't make

1905
01:51:31,720 --> 01:51:34,360
Speaker 1: you know anything more or less whatever morally, whatever the fuck.

1906
01:51:34,360 --> 01:51:37,000
Speaker 1: I'm not here to be a judgment on fucking morals.

1907
01:51:37,000 --> 01:51:39,280
Speaker 5: But yeah, it.

1908
01:51:39,240 --> 01:51:41,320
Speaker 1: Sounds like it'll be easier for you than to break

1909
01:51:41,320 --> 01:51:45,120
Speaker 1: the news if he's not all that upset about it.

1910
01:51:44,640 --> 01:51:48,840
Speaker 3: It does, but I just he really also liked the

1911
01:51:48,920 --> 01:51:52,400
Speaker 3: job while he was there, but he wasn't opposed to

1912
01:51:52,479 --> 01:51:57,599
Speaker 3: being fired and take him blame for it, which is cool.

1913
01:51:57,640 --> 01:52:02,479
Speaker 1: I guess, tell the tell, Tell tell your boss. Do

1914
01:52:02,520 --> 01:52:06,000
Speaker 1: you still work there. Yes, this place is crazy. I

1915
01:52:06,040 --> 01:52:11,360
Speaker 1: hate this place. Tell them that go in there and

1916
01:52:11,400 --> 01:52:14,839
Speaker 1: be like, you guys need to buy these kids fucking

1917
01:52:14,920 --> 01:52:18,640
Speaker 1: g I Joe, whatever the fucking not. You know, ceramic

1918
01:52:18,720 --> 01:52:23,360
Speaker 1: dolls that you got from your fucking grandma's house. Get

1919
01:52:23,360 --> 01:52:26,559
Speaker 1: some real toys in there, by the way, I brought

1920
01:52:26,600 --> 01:52:29,240
Speaker 1: those toys, and you it was your guys fault for

1921
01:52:29,240 --> 01:52:32,439
Speaker 1: buying shitty toys like that. Get my friend back in

1922
01:52:32,520 --> 01:52:34,640
Speaker 1: there and then you leave forever. That's what you should do.

1923
01:52:34,880 --> 01:52:37,840
Speaker 1: Tell your boss, tell your friend, and just get the

1924
01:52:37,840 --> 01:52:39,840
Speaker 1: guilt away. That's what you gotta do. You gotta come clean.

1925
01:52:39,960 --> 01:52:41,280
Speaker 1: That's what I tell you to do. Man, you gotta

1926
01:52:41,280 --> 01:52:41,679
Speaker 1: come clean.

1927
01:52:44,080 --> 01:52:44,439
Speaker 8: You know it.

1928
01:52:44,520 --> 01:52:45,519
Speaker 3: That does sound good.

1929
01:52:47,880 --> 01:52:48,559
Speaker 8: I've been trying.

1930
01:52:49,320 --> 01:52:52,559
Speaker 3: It's been like taking the tour. I've been trying to,

1931
01:52:53,360 --> 01:52:56,719
Speaker 3: you know, get it out there, but keep on bringing

1932
01:52:56,760 --> 01:52:57,240
Speaker 3: it up.

1933
01:52:59,680 --> 01:53:01,800
Speaker 1: Going tomorrow. Tell the truth to everyone. That's what I'll

1934
01:53:01,800 --> 01:53:05,600
Speaker 1: tell you. I know it's easier said than done, but

1935
01:53:06,320 --> 01:53:09,120
Speaker 1: do it for us, all right, man, talk to you soon.

1936
01:53:10,040 --> 01:53:12,160
Speaker 3: Thank you very much. Have a great day.

1937
01:53:12,240 --> 01:53:20,799
Speaker 1: Dick Russell. Kai, what's up? Russell?

1938
01:53:22,479 --> 01:53:24,040
Speaker 9: So I got a good story for you.

1939
01:53:24,720 --> 01:53:29,040
Speaker 1: Hit man. Hit me in the face with your asshole,

1940
01:53:30,240 --> 01:53:33,960
Speaker 1: fart in my face with that story. Fart into my

1941
01:53:34,120 --> 01:53:37,360
Speaker 1: mouth with your story. I want your story to be

1942
01:53:37,400 --> 01:53:41,080
Speaker 1: a big, wet, juicy fart that goes into my mouth.

1943
01:53:41,080 --> 01:53:42,640
Speaker 1: And I and not just and I don't want to

1944
01:53:42,680 --> 01:53:45,240
Speaker 1: just passively take your story fart into my mouth. I

1945
01:53:45,280 --> 01:53:49,280
Speaker 1: want to I want to like breathe, breathe it in

1946
01:53:49,640 --> 01:53:51,559
Speaker 1: and inhale it, and I want to keep it there.

1947
01:53:51,640 --> 01:53:54,240
Speaker 1: I'm not just gonna like I want you to fart

1948
01:53:54,360 --> 01:53:59,040
Speaker 1: your story into my mouth. I hold it in like

1949
01:53:59,200 --> 01:54:03,639
Speaker 1: this for a long time as long as that possibly can,

1950
01:54:10,000 --> 01:54:15,439
Speaker 1: and then just and then digest it. I'm sorry, that

1951
01:54:15,520 --> 01:54:17,880
Speaker 1: was stupid. What's up? Tell me what you were gonna say?

1952
01:54:19,800 --> 01:54:23,000
Speaker 9: All right? So question tonight is how.

1953
01:54:22,840 --> 01:54:23,519
Speaker 8: Have I sinned?

1954
01:54:23,560 --> 01:54:23,680
Speaker 7: Right?

1955
01:54:26,640 --> 01:54:27,000
Speaker 8: All right?

1956
01:54:27,040 --> 01:54:28,680
Speaker 12: So first off, let me tell you where I.

1957
01:54:28,640 --> 01:54:39,920
Speaker 1: Am right now. Sorry, we'll continue.

1958
01:54:40,960 --> 01:54:41,320
Speaker 3: All right.

1959
01:54:41,600 --> 01:54:47,640
Speaker 12: So, I'm currently living in my apartment with my fiance,

1960
01:54:48,480 --> 01:54:52,200
Speaker 12: my dog, my cat. I have two bunnies here. I'm

1961
01:54:52,200 --> 01:54:54,880
Speaker 12: living a really good life. I've been engaged for a

1962
01:54:54,920 --> 01:54:58,640
Speaker 12: little bit. I've been dating this girl for two years.

1963
01:54:59,280 --> 01:55:05,640
Speaker 12: Everything's going pretty great. The thing is, her dad doesn't know,

1964
01:55:08,800 --> 01:55:10,960
Speaker 12: and he has no idea that we were even dating.

1965
01:55:11,000 --> 01:55:18,720
Speaker 12: In the first place. So I mean, I don't know

1966
01:55:18,840 --> 01:55:21,360
Speaker 12: how to tell him. And the thing is, he's like,

1967
01:55:21,480 --> 01:55:24,880
Speaker 12: he's super abusive, and for the second that he finds out,

1968
01:55:25,280 --> 01:55:27,560
Speaker 12: I thinks she's gonna go self instantly.

1969
01:55:28,320 --> 01:55:30,640
Speaker 1: Well, I knew I need some more information here. You

1970
01:55:30,720 --> 01:55:35,800
Speaker 1: said that your dating you are You're no, you're engaged

1971
01:55:36,360 --> 01:55:39,040
Speaker 1: to this girl. You've been together with her for four years,

1972
01:55:39,040 --> 01:55:43,960
Speaker 1: you said, right, two years? Okay, Well, because you've been

1973
01:55:43,960 --> 01:55:45,440
Speaker 1: together for how long? You've engaged for.

1974
01:55:47,840 --> 01:55:50,320
Speaker 10: About six months?

1975
01:55:50,920 --> 01:55:52,760
Speaker 1: All right, You've been together for two years, engaged for

1976
01:55:52,800 --> 01:55:56,800
Speaker 1: six months? And her dad does not know? Why? Well,

1977
01:55:56,880 --> 01:56:00,680
Speaker 1: why is it such a How old are you guys?

1978
01:56:01,640 --> 01:56:04,600
Speaker 12: So I'm twenty one, she is nineteen.

1979
01:56:04,320 --> 01:56:09,400
Speaker 1: She's nineteen, okay, Okay, So her dad does not know

1980
01:56:10,600 --> 01:56:18,760
Speaker 1: that she is engaged to you? No, And why is

1981
01:56:18,800 --> 01:56:20,320
Speaker 1: it a problem if he were to know that?

1982
01:56:22,440 --> 01:56:26,160
Speaker 12: All right? So we went on a date when we

1983
01:56:26,160 --> 01:56:29,720
Speaker 12: were both in high school, right, And on this date

1984
01:56:29,760 --> 01:56:34,680
Speaker 12: we went to a movie theater and we were there

1985
01:56:34,720 --> 01:56:37,040
Speaker 12: a little bit early, and you know, one thing led

1986
01:56:37,040 --> 01:56:41,920
Speaker 12: to another thing in the movie theater parking lot cops

1987
01:56:42,040 --> 01:56:45,320
Speaker 12: ended up catching up and she got taken away in

1988
01:56:45,320 --> 01:56:49,840
Speaker 12: a cop d or you know, the squad car back

1989
01:56:49,840 --> 01:56:54,600
Speaker 12: to her dad. So we didn't talk to each other

1990
01:56:54,640 --> 01:56:57,440
Speaker 12: for about a year and then she reached out to me.

1991
01:56:58,920 --> 01:57:02,959
Speaker 12: However much, however long ago, and I don't know. Everything's

1992
01:57:02,960 --> 01:57:07,480
Speaker 12: been great since. And her dad doesn't know. She moved

1993
01:57:07,520 --> 01:57:10,840
Speaker 12: out from her dad's house. Turns out I didn't know

1994
01:57:11,160 --> 01:57:13,840
Speaker 12: at the time, but she was living in a really

1995
01:57:13,840 --> 01:57:18,320
Speaker 12: toxic situation. Like I don't know, I really don't even

1996
01:57:18,360 --> 01:57:19,960
Speaker 12: know the full story. I don't know the extent of

1997
01:57:20,000 --> 01:57:23,280
Speaker 12: it all, but I know it was really dramatizing to her.

1998
01:57:25,520 --> 01:57:25,960
Speaker 3: She's living.

1999
01:57:26,200 --> 01:57:30,080
Speaker 12: She went to go live with her mom, and that's

2000
01:57:30,160 --> 01:57:33,680
Speaker 12: how I got the opportunity to start talking to her again.

2001
01:57:36,320 --> 01:57:40,240
Speaker 1: So, so her dad does not like you because of

2002
01:57:40,240 --> 01:57:50,280
Speaker 1: that incidence, correct, Okay, regardless of my or anyone else's

2003
01:57:50,320 --> 01:57:58,440
Speaker 1: opinions on how you both as adults should live your life. Okay,

2004
01:57:58,480 --> 01:58:01,080
Speaker 1: if so, do you do you guys work? Does she?

2005
01:58:01,280 --> 01:58:03,000
Speaker 1: Does she live? Do you guys live together?

2006
01:58:03,880 --> 01:58:04,000
Speaker 5: Like?

2007
01:58:04,040 --> 01:58:07,000
Speaker 1: What's the the reason? The reason what I'm getting at

2008
01:58:07,120 --> 01:58:10,480
Speaker 1: is like your her dad does not like financially support

2009
01:58:10,520 --> 01:58:11,680
Speaker 1: either of you, does he?

2010
01:58:12,720 --> 01:58:13,880
Speaker 9: Oh? No, absolutely not?

2011
01:58:14,240 --> 01:58:15,120
Speaker 1: Okay, Then who.

2012
01:58:16,600 --> 01:58:20,720
Speaker 12: Is actually a CNA? She actually takes care of schizophrenic

2013
01:58:20,840 --> 01:58:23,800
Speaker 12: people for a living. I don't know, it's pretty crazy.

2014
01:58:24,720 --> 01:58:26,720
Speaker 1: Well, so then why why is it who gives a ship?

2015
01:58:26,760 --> 01:58:28,560
Speaker 1: Would he know? If he if he's not, you know,

2016
01:58:28,680 --> 01:58:32,280
Speaker 1: financially supporting anyone, and you know, if she doesn't have

2017
01:58:32,320 --> 01:58:34,240
Speaker 1: a great relationship with him to begin with, you know,

2018
01:58:34,280 --> 01:58:36,640
Speaker 1: why is it mather what he does or doesn't know?

2019
01:58:36,920 --> 01:58:37,160
Speaker 1: You know?

2020
01:58:39,680 --> 01:58:44,080
Speaker 12: Yeah, I guess that's true.

2021
01:58:44,480 --> 01:58:48,520
Speaker 1: I mean, you both, Well, she has a job, she's

2022
01:58:48,560 --> 01:58:50,520
Speaker 1: a caretaker. And then do you have a Do you.

2023
01:58:50,480 --> 01:58:50,960
Speaker 5: Have a job?

2024
01:58:53,080 --> 01:58:58,920
Speaker 12: Yeah, currently, I'm working at a restaurant called h I'm

2025
01:58:58,960 --> 01:59:00,880
Speaker 12: not going to name the place, but I'm working at

2026
01:59:00,880 --> 01:59:02,160
Speaker 12: a restaurant. Yeah.

2027
01:59:02,200 --> 01:59:06,040
Speaker 1: Well, dude, I mean, look, you both are independent adults,

2028
01:59:06,440 --> 01:59:10,240
Speaker 1: financially supporting yourselves. You're free to do whatever you want.

2029
01:59:10,360 --> 01:59:13,800
Speaker 1: You know, who cares what her dad thinks?

2030
01:59:14,480 --> 01:59:14,680
Speaker 14: Yeah?

2031
01:59:14,680 --> 01:59:23,360
Speaker 12: That's true. I mean I guess the one thing that

2032
01:59:23,480 --> 01:59:28,920
Speaker 12: I would say is that she's paranoid about what her

2033
01:59:29,040 --> 01:59:33,959
Speaker 12: dad might do when he finds out there was incidents

2034
01:59:34,000 --> 01:59:39,080
Speaker 12: in her childhood where he had like threatened gun violence

2035
01:59:39,120 --> 01:59:43,280
Speaker 12: towards her and just things that CPS should have gotten

2036
01:59:43,280 --> 01:59:47,240
Speaker 12: involved with, just not good stuff.

2037
01:59:49,280 --> 01:59:52,520
Speaker 1: Does does he know where does he know. Does she

2038
01:59:52,600 --> 01:59:54,760
Speaker 1: keep in contact with her dad often?

2039
01:59:57,000 --> 01:59:58,880
Speaker 12: She talks to him every once in a while just

2040
01:59:58,920 --> 02:00:01,480
Speaker 12: to like keep tabs him, to make sure that you know,

2041
02:00:02,000 --> 02:00:05,000
Speaker 12: he's not doing anything hurtful to any of the other

2042
02:00:05,080 --> 02:00:06,320
Speaker 12: children or anything like that.

2043
02:00:07,000 --> 02:00:10,040
Speaker 1: Are you Are you afraid that if he finds out

2044
02:00:10,120 --> 02:00:11,600
Speaker 1: that you guys are gett married, that he'll like come

2045
02:00:11,680 --> 02:00:12,800
Speaker 1: to where you guys live and hurt you.

2046
02:00:16,400 --> 02:00:21,720
Speaker 12: I'm afraid that there's a chance he might try.

2047
02:00:25,120 --> 02:00:30,360
Speaker 1: Well, I'll say one thing. You know this, this is

2048
02:00:30,360 --> 02:00:35,280
Speaker 1: hard for me to say because, Okay, what I I'm not.

2049
02:00:35,360 --> 02:00:38,000
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not committing to this as my like

2050
02:00:38,080 --> 02:00:42,280
Speaker 1: take on this or whatever. But I I hate, regardless

2051
02:00:42,280 --> 02:00:44,840
Speaker 1: of regardless of what I personally think about getting married

2052
02:00:44,840 --> 02:00:48,120
Speaker 1: at twenty one, I hate to see you make any

2053
02:00:48,160 --> 02:00:51,160
Speaker 1: of your decisions in your life based on like fear

2054
02:00:51,960 --> 02:00:58,240
Speaker 1: of some guy's violence. You know, even even though I

2055
02:00:58,320 --> 02:01:07,160
Speaker 1: understand the fear of that violence, It's uh, I don't know.

2056
02:01:07,160 --> 02:01:09,000
Speaker 1: I don't want you to live your life and fear man,

2057
02:01:10,120 --> 02:01:11,920
Speaker 1: what can you I'm trying to think what you can do.

2058
02:01:15,200 --> 02:01:18,040
Speaker 12: I mean to be honest, I'm not really scared. It's

2059
02:01:18,120 --> 02:01:20,720
Speaker 12: kind of like, if he finds out he finds out,

2060
02:01:21,160 --> 02:01:23,720
Speaker 12: you know, like I live my life just day to

2061
02:01:23,840 --> 02:01:28,200
Speaker 12: day doing whatever I do. You know, if it happens,

2062
02:01:28,400 --> 02:01:30,520
Speaker 12: if it so happens that he finds out, I'll deal

2063
02:01:30,560 --> 02:01:31,200
Speaker 12: with it then.

2064
02:01:31,240 --> 02:01:33,400
Speaker 2: You know, h.

2065
02:01:35,880 --> 02:01:37,480
Speaker 1: Well, I mean shit. Man, Well then good on you

2066
02:01:37,520 --> 02:01:41,000
Speaker 1: for living your life with no fear or you know,

2067
02:01:41,160 --> 02:01:43,160
Speaker 1: not with no fear, but you know, not letting that

2068
02:01:43,200 --> 02:01:43,680
Speaker 1: control you.

2069
02:01:45,800 --> 02:01:47,360
Speaker 12: Yeah.

2070
02:01:47,960 --> 02:01:51,640
Speaker 1: I wish you both the best of luck. Man, Thank you.

2071
02:01:53,400 --> 02:01:55,360
Speaker 9: The wedding is in twelve months.

2072
02:01:56,920 --> 02:02:00,400
Speaker 1: Hell yeah, you know, good luck to you guys.

2073
02:02:02,800 --> 02:02:03,160
Speaker 12: Thank you.

2074
02:02:03,920 --> 02:02:04,880
Speaker 1: I have a good rest of the night.

2075
02:02:04,920 --> 02:02:07,240
Speaker 9: Man, you too.

2076
02:02:08,200 --> 02:02:11,680
Speaker 17: Never Get goes on the line taking your phone calls

2077
02:02:11,760 --> 02:02:12,320
Speaker 17: every night.

2078
02:02:12,680 --> 02:02:16,040
Speaker 1: Never Peak goes doing his night's teaching you a house.

2079
02:02:16,240 --> 02:02:16,840
Speaker 3: Of your life.

2080
02:02:17,160 --> 02:02:19,400
Speaker 1: But he's not really an expert.