WEBVTT - Miss Manor

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<v Speaker 1>Misspelling with Tory Spelling and iHeartRadio podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>So here in misspelling. I have periodically done episodes titled

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<v Speaker 2>Secrets of the Manner, but recently in the news currently

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<v Speaker 2>the Manor, I guess it's not called the Manner anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>It just sold. It just sold again to a new

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<v Speaker 2>owner that is re titling it to five nine four.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess that's the modern version because the address is

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<v Speaker 2>five nine four South Mapleton Drive, and so it's now

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<v Speaker 2>no longer going to be called the Manner. It's going

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<v Speaker 2>to be called five nine four. So when news broke

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<v Speaker 2>of the Manner selling, a lot of people sent me

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<v Speaker 2>the article and they're like, have you seen this? And

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<v Speaker 2>I did hear about it, but I don't know. There

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<v Speaker 2>was something that kept me from like clicking on this article,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was clickbait for me too, because I wanted

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<v Speaker 2>to know the details. I'm not gonna lie that is,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what people like think of my childhood home,

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<v Speaker 2>even though I technically only lived there for like two years,

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<v Speaker 2>but still it was something my mom created, and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's part of my history. So obviously I have connections

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<v Speaker 2>to it, but I yeah, I don't know. I couldn't

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<v Speaker 2>open the article and I didn't even know why. I

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<v Speaker 2>was just like in my head, like, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>had taken my kids on vacation. I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>focusing on my kids, and like, you know, I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>looking online as much, and I'm not on Instagram and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not you know, all that stuff. But still at

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<v Speaker 2>all the time in the world to click on every

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<v Speaker 2>single article out there about Liam Neeson and Pamela Anderson

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<v Speaker 2>fasting it with those two, like, oh my gosh, the

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<v Speaker 2>new IT couple. I am just like can't get enough

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<v Speaker 2>of them, just like everybody else. But that's like a

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<v Speaker 2>happy story, right, That's like she's like the comeback queen

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<v Speaker 2>and he finally, you know, found love again and they

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<v Speaker 2>both have been through so much personally and professionally and

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<v Speaker 2>now they deserve This is what everyone's saying. And so

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<v Speaker 2>that's a magical, happy ending and that's something we all

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<v Speaker 2>hope to translate into our own lives. So that's something

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<v Speaker 2>we want to see. But I never clicked on the

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<v Speaker 2>manner because I was just like, oh, it's sold again.

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<v Speaker 2>Keep in mind it sold once before when my mom

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<v Speaker 2>owned it. She sold it to the Egglesteins, and I

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<v Speaker 2>did see pictures when she redid it and made it.

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<v Speaker 2>She kept the bones of it and didn't really change

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<v Speaker 2>you know, the bearing wall, you know, nothing really changed

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<v Speaker 2>to the architecture, but just totally renovate the look inside.

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<v Speaker 2>And it was really modern. I remember seeing like black

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<v Speaker 2>lacquered stuff and you know a lot of geometric stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>and I was just like, oh my gosh, very different

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<v Speaker 2>than how my mom. And my mom spent years. She

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<v Speaker 2>designed the home, you know, with a great team and

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<v Speaker 2>did every was involved in every aspect of the architecture.

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<v Speaker 2>And because you know, they tore that home down to

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<v Speaker 2>the ground, and you know, I still remember the day,

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<v Speaker 2>like the day they started building it, and they had

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<v Speaker 2>like a ribbon cutting ceremony and they started construction, so

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<v Speaker 2>like the whole team and I feel like my whole

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<v Speaker 2>family was wearing hard hats and I think I was, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I was twelve, and my brother and I were there

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<v Speaker 2>and they had this whole like ribbon cutting with this huge,

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<v Speaker 2>crazy big scissors, and my mom and dad cut it

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<v Speaker 2>and they broke ground. Basically, I have to find those

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<v Speaker 2>pictures somewhere. But yeah, she puts so much dedication into

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<v Speaker 2>that home. She not only created the entire house itself,

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<v Speaker 2>but she then flew to Europe and did extensive you

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<v Speaker 2>know home decort design and every piece in that home

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<v Speaker 2>and a lot of like antique old French, you know architecture.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm like, isn't it funny? I can talk so

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<v Speaker 2>much about this world, but I'm like, actually finding it

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<v Speaker 2>hard to find my words when it's my own home,

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<v Speaker 2>my family's home. I don't know. I think there's like

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<v Speaker 2>some locked memories there. That not bad, it's just obviously

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<v Speaker 2>it was a gorgeous house and very beautiful pieces in

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<v Speaker 2>each room, but it definitely didn't have the heart of

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<v Speaker 2>when I grew up. You know, we were a family

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<v Speaker 2>of four, and I guess going into a house that big,

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<v Speaker 2>while we tried to keep it and my mom did

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<v Speaker 2>a great job as warm as it could feel, family

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<v Speaker 2>as it could feel. She did a great job executing that.

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<v Speaker 2>But in a home that is what noted is fifty

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<v Speaker 2>six thousand square feet, I think it's just impractical to

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<v Speaker 2>think that it could ever hold the charm and spacing

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<v Speaker 2>of an intimate family home. And I often reflect on,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, the rooms we primarily used as a family

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<v Speaker 2>of four were the kitchen, my mom's office, which was

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<v Speaker 2>like our family office. My dad has owned separate working office,

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<v Speaker 2>but my family office, the kitchen, my parents' bedroom, the

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<v Speaker 2>breakfast room where we would have family dinners. Other than that,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess the screening room, the projection room, but that

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<v Speaker 2>got less and less as my dad got older and

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<v Speaker 2>we were my brother and I got older and we

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<v Speaker 2>were out with our friends, so we didn't do family

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<v Speaker 2>screening nights as much. And yeah, like it's wild to

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<v Speaker 2>think those are the rooms we used. In a room

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<v Speaker 2>in a house, there was fifty six thousand square feet

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<v Speaker 2>estimated to have. Sorry, I sorry, I have to look

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<v Speaker 2>it up. I should know this in my brain from

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<v Speaker 2>reading it for so long and being asked about it.

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<v Speaker 2>It says it had fourteen bedrooms. That can't be true.

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like there was way more anyway. Yeah, fourteen bedrooms,

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<v Speaker 2>twenty seven baths, fifty six five hundred square feet of space. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it's just wild anyway, I always said, like after it

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<v Speaker 2>was put on the market years ago, I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>oh my gosh, I wonder if I emailed the realtor

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<v Speaker 2>and be like, hi, it's story. Spellings in my family

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<v Speaker 2>home way back when, so anyway I could just come

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<v Speaker 2>see it and bring my kids. When my mom was

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<v Speaker 2>moving out, I believe, before it's sold, I had Liam

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<v Speaker 2>and Stella and they were very little. I think they

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<v Speaker 2>were like three and two maybe two and one baby,

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<v Speaker 2>so they have no memory of it. But I remember

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<v Speaker 2>Dean and I and Liam and Stella went to visit

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<v Speaker 2>Exit before my mom, I mean she pretty much moved out,

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<v Speaker 2>but before she put it on the market, I said,

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<v Speaker 2>I really want my babies to be here. I think

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<v Speaker 2>the rooms were all empty. I remember like holding baby

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<v Speaker 2>Stella and taking her into rooms and they were like

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<v Speaker 2>empty rooms, so taking a picture so I could like

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<v Speaker 2>show them later, like this was Mom's room, This is

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<v Speaker 2>you know, Grandpa Aaron and Grandma Candy's room. Like I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know, I don't know what I was thinking, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so that's like my last memory. And then my really

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<v Speaker 2>like holding memory was my dad passing and that's where

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<v Speaker 2>we had like his funeral gathering afterwards, was back at

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<v Speaker 2>the Manner And so yeah, those two memories are kind

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<v Speaker 2>of not great memory because it's like a finality, and

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<v Speaker 2>when I draw on childhood memories, there's absolutely no connotation

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<v Speaker 2>to that house. It's not in my heart and soul,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not the house I grew up in. So when

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<v Speaker 2>I dream about my childhood and we all go back

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<v Speaker 2>in time, I never have dreams about that house. Like

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be my adult self now, I'll even be with

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<v Speaker 2>my kids now at their present age, but I'm back

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<v Speaker 2>in the house I grew up in, which, for anyone

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<v Speaker 2>that doesn't know, was on the same street so on Mapleton,

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<v Speaker 2>but it was one to eleven North Mapleton, and it

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<v Speaker 2>was still a very big house. But it was, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>maybe ten thousand square feet, which is still enormous, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>something in a lifetime, I don't think I'd ever be

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<v Speaker 2>in a house that big, but like, it definitely was

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<v Speaker 2>a very warm family home and I have really beautiful

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<v Speaker 2>memories growing up there with my family. Anyway, now that

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<v Speaker 2>I have clicked on this, so yes, so it just

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<v Speaker 2>sold again at one hundred and ten million dollars to

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<v Speaker 2>the head of Google, Eric Schmidt. Yeah, so the Google CEO,

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<v Speaker 2>Eric Schmidt and his wife Wendy. So I'm reading this

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<v Speaker 2>for the first time, you guys, while I do this

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<v Speaker 2>with you, because I haven't wanted to before. And yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so I'm scrolling to see what it says, and so

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<v Speaker 2>it's saying, Oh my gosh, it seems like they're not

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<v Speaker 2>even going to live there. It says reportedly they are

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<v Speaker 2>planning to use the manner, which they are now relabeling

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<v Speaker 2>is five ninety four, to host meetings and nonprofit events.

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<v Speaker 2>They already own other properties in LA and nearby Montecito,

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<v Speaker 2>plus London, Washington, DC, Miami Beach, New York City, San Francisco,

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<v Speaker 2>and on Nantucket Island. Wow, that's a lot of properties. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>So I was wondering. It's so funny, I guess something

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<v Speaker 2>that big. It doesn't seem like a family home. But

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<v Speaker 2>my instinct when I heard they bought it, I was like, Oh, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>do they have a big family Like I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>but I mean, I like, they're going to use it

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<v Speaker 2>for nonprofit events, but meetings, I don't know. Kind of

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<v Speaker 2>bums me out, just because in some form it's my

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<v Speaker 2>dad mom's legacy. Like, my dad's not here and it

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<v Speaker 2>was the last place I lived with him, So it's

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<v Speaker 2>hard to think that it's going to be used for

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<v Speaker 2>just like a meeting hall. I wonder if they'll change

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<v Speaker 2>up anything inside. What does Eric Schmidt intend to do

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<v Speaker 2>with the manner that he just bought. It's so hard

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<v Speaker 2>to talk about this. I didn't even think it would

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<v Speaker 2>be this hard to talk about. And it feels weird

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<v Speaker 2>inside talking about it, like some like repressed block, Like

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<v Speaker 2>I feel this is so strange. I'm talking about this

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<v Speaker 2>and it's feeling like an elephant sitting on my chest,

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<v Speaker 2>like maybe I have things I haven't talked about. You guys,

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<v Speaker 2>it's really this topic is very challenging for me to

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<v Speaker 2>talk about because if you know me, you know that

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<v Speaker 2>I have strived my whole life and career to kind

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<v Speaker 2>of be the anti rich girl. It was something that

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<v Speaker 2>I was bullied really bad when I was little about

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<v Speaker 2>my dad having money and being famous, and it's something

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<v Speaker 2>I took on to such a degree that I actually

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<v Speaker 2>change it, manifested in a way that it changed my

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<v Speaker 2>trajectory in my lifetime. Look at me, I'm so savvy

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<v Speaker 2>talking about something serious and I still managed to get

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<v Speaker 2>my name in there. I'm sorry I distracked with comedy.

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<v Speaker 2>It wore on me so heavily that I do feel

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<v Speaker 2>on some level that I manifested my life staying small.

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<v Speaker 2>Like everyone has these perceptions of who I am and

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<v Speaker 2>what I am as defined by who my father is

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<v Speaker 2>and his wealth. So I'm going to make a note

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<v Speaker 2>to be the anti that my whole life and see

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<v Speaker 2>if people like me better then And let me just

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<v Speaker 2>tell you, like lean into what you're given and what

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<v Speaker 2>you are, because it doesn't help to me the other way.

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<v Speaker 2>Like anyone that's met me will say, oh, she's so nice,

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<v Speaker 2>she's so kind, she's great. But in some way, I

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a very intelligent woman, and I feel like I

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<v Speaker 2>have not on purpose, but like almost like subconsciously like

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<v Speaker 2>defeated myself or like tanked myself at times throughout my career.

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<v Speaker 2>I think people said, you know, people would say things

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<v Speaker 2>all the time like she's not talented, she's not And

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<v Speaker 2>now doing a nine oh two and a rewatch that

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<v Speaker 2>Jenny Garth and I do called nine O two one, OMG,

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<v Speaker 2>check it out if you haven't. We are on season

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<v Speaker 2>seven doing a rewatch. Now I watch it all back

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, gosh, I moved forward in a career

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<v Speaker 2>thinking I couldn't act, thinking I wasn't good enough, thinking

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<v Speaker 2>that I would never have succeeded in this industry if

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<v Speaker 2>it wasn't for my dad. I heard it so often

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<v Speaker 2>that I actually believed it. And now I watch it

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<v Speaker 2>back and I'm like, subjectively, I'm watching as a fan,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, Donna is really good. Taking myself out

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<v Speaker 2>of it for a second, you guys, Tory spelling. Look,

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<v Speaker 2>it's even hard for me to say is a very

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<v Speaker 2>good actress. And it's like, wow, now at fifty two,

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<v Speaker 2>my brain's like, what we have to rewire and learn this.

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<v Speaker 2>We believed all the other stuff for so long. So anyway,

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<v Speaker 2>going back, I think I don't even know what I

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<v Speaker 2>was talking about. You know, I get so sidetracked. But

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<v Speaker 2>going back, it was so ingrained in me to be

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<v Speaker 2>the opposite. I mean, growing up, I used to go

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<v Speaker 2>into our laundry room and I would bring my blanket

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<v Speaker 2>and my stuffed animals, and I would get like food

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<v Speaker 2>and drink and books and like my diary, and I

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<v Speaker 2>would go into a cupboard in the laundry room and

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<v Speaker 2>I'd be like, I was always very respectful, So I

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<v Speaker 2>would never tell my parents like I hate that we

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<v Speaker 2>have this like big house, and I hate that we

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<v Speaker 2>have this big these big lives, and it's really hard

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<v Speaker 2>for me. So I think keeping that repressed as a

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<v Speaker 2>little girl at like five and six and seven and eight,

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<v Speaker 2>and just kept going. But yeah, granted, our lifelaundry room

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<v Speaker 2>is like was bigger than like the size of my

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<v Speaker 2>bedroom now, but it wasn't crazy thing. But like the cupboard,

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<v Speaker 2>it was large enough for me, as like a six

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<v Speaker 2>year old child to fully stand up in. But I

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<v Speaker 2>would go in there and like decorate and put stickers

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<v Speaker 2>on one of the cupboards in the laundry room and

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<v Speaker 2>take the rooms down and everything and be like, this

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<v Speaker 2>is my home. This is all I want, Like I

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<v Speaker 2>don't want this big house. And I was like, this

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<v Speaker 2>is where I feel coziest. And keep in mind, I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like now we're so forward thinkers. We're such forward thinkers,

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<v Speaker 2>especially with our children about you know, therapy and you know,

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<v Speaker 2>mental health awareness and conversations about emotions. Keep in mind,

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<v Speaker 2>I grew up in the seventies and it was no

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<v Speaker 2>fault to my parents, but that just wasn't really talked about.

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<v Speaker 2>So as a child, you know, having these thoughts, it

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't like my parents weren't talking me through stuff. But

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<v Speaker 2>I never thought to communicate that to them. I never thought,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, and I'm sure they didn't think to communicate

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<v Speaker 2>it with me a child. So yeah, you can imagine

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<v Speaker 2>if I lived in a ten thousand square foot house

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<v Speaker 2>and was so shamed because of that that I wanted

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<v Speaker 2>to live in a cupboard in the laundry room. Imagine

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<v Speaker 2>what it was like when the world found out we

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<v Speaker 2>were building a house and moving into a fifty six

0:16:28.040 --> 0:16:32.000
<v Speaker 2>thousand square foot house. I think I just literally went

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<v Speaker 2>numb inside, and I don't know, just like shut off

0:16:36.960 --> 0:16:42.320
<v Speaker 2>that part of that connection with that house. And still

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<v Speaker 2>when my kids see pictures of it online, they're like,

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<v Speaker 2>is that the White House is that? They're like, what

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<v Speaker 2>is that? And I'm like, that's my family home. And

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<v Speaker 2>I still I look at it and I feel like

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<v Speaker 2>I have no real real connection to it. But I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sure it just lies beneath the emotions are there, and

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<v Speaker 2>it's just so strange to see it turning over to

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<v Speaker 2>new hands. Anyway, I always wish I could get one

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<v Speaker 2>more walk through it, but maybe the past is better

0:17:16.280 --> 0:17:20.240
<v Speaker 2>left in the past. So I wonder what they'll do

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<v Speaker 2>to it. I wonder how they'll redecorate it. I wonder

0:17:24.800 --> 0:17:27.600
<v Speaker 2>if they're well, they're having a nonprofit event I could

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<v Speaker 2>get an invitation one day. Remember when it was it

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<v Speaker 2>was all in the news that j Lo and Ben

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<v Speaker 2>when they were together, they were going to possibly buy it.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you remember this, Yeah, and they had looked at it.

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<v Speaker 2>That would have been fun, But like, what did they

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<v Speaker 2>need the house that size for? What does anyone need

0:17:46.680 --> 0:17:52.879
<v Speaker 2>house that size for kids? I mean except between my

0:17:52.960 --> 0:17:57.320
<v Speaker 2>brother and I we have seven kids as grown adults

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<v Speaker 2>will be grandparents to multiple generations grandkids and great grandkids hopefully,

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<v Speaker 2>and we could have used that. It could have been

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<v Speaker 2>like I mean, honestly, I would say it should be

0:18:12.160 --> 0:18:14.919
<v Speaker 2>like a bet. I always wanted it to be like

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<v Speaker 2>a bed and breakfast that my brother and I like

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<v Speaker 2>had together and then our kids could like stay there.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, it would have been nice. I want

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<v Speaker 2>to say it would have been nice to keep it

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<v Speaker 2>in the family, but again, it's not something that I

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<v Speaker 2>feel represents our family. Like my childhood home. I would

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<v Speaker 2>love like if my brother and I still had that

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<v Speaker 2>and keep it in the family, and because that's where

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<v Speaker 2>all the memories are. It's so rare in life. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>always curious about people that say, you know, the stories

0:18:46.760 --> 0:18:50.479
<v Speaker 2>that people are like, Okay, later in life, like their family,

0:18:50.720 --> 0:18:53.560
<v Speaker 2>they kept the family home in the family and then

0:18:53.720 --> 0:18:57.520
<v Speaker 2>when people passed away, it got handed down and they

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<v Speaker 2>kind of moved their own family in there and make

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<v Speaker 2>new memory. I'm always curious about people who are like, oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I still live in my family home, like my mom

0:19:05.800 --> 0:19:09.960
<v Speaker 2>dad passed away and then we kept it. I'm always curious,

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<v Speaker 2>like what happens, like because you have such memories of

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<v Speaker 2>being a kid there, They're like, then you have to

0:19:15.800 --> 0:19:19.000
<v Speaker 2>shift gears to being an adult there. I don't know.

0:19:19.080 --> 0:19:22.480
<v Speaker 2>The pool house alone in that property is bigger than

0:19:22.640 --> 0:19:25.679
<v Speaker 2>my own house, so that I could have easily my

0:19:25.680 --> 0:19:27.199
<v Speaker 2>my five kids and I could have lived in the

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<v Speaker 2>house alone, been very, very happy. We could have been squatters.

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<v Speaker 2>It was on the market for a long time. I've

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<v Speaker 2>seen horror films. What are they called froggers. Have you

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<v Speaker 2>heard of this? No? Oh, that's right, Damn. We had

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<v Speaker 2>so much in common till that froggers. I believe maybe

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<v Speaker 2>this is not a real thing, Like if you have

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<v Speaker 2>an attic space or something like people live there, they

0:20:02.080 --> 0:20:07.520
<v Speaker 2>break in and live there and while you're living in

0:20:07.560 --> 0:20:14.280
<v Speaker 2>the house. Nope, never am I making this up? No,

0:20:14.359 --> 0:20:16.560
<v Speaker 2>but I'm saying nope, like, I don't want any part

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<v Speaker 2>of that. What are froggers that live in your house? Frogging?

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<v Speaker 2>It's p hrgg i g when someone secretly lives in

0:20:28.119 --> 0:20:31.080
<v Speaker 2>your attic without your knowledge. Yeah. This term refers to

0:20:31.080 --> 0:20:33.439
<v Speaker 2>the act of someone living in a house without the

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<v Speaker 2>homeowner's consent or knowledge, often in hidden spaces like addicts,

0:20:37.200 --> 0:20:40.200
<v Speaker 2>crawl spaces, or even basements. The term is thought to

0:20:40.280 --> 0:20:43.320
<v Speaker 2>originate from the idea of a person leaping from space

0:20:43.800 --> 0:20:48.800
<v Speaker 2>to space like a frog, potentially to avoid detection. So

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<v Speaker 2>if you didn't know about it, I'd scare the shit

0:20:50.520 --> 0:20:52.960
<v Speaker 2>out of everybody out there, because if you have any

0:20:53.000 --> 0:20:56.560
<v Speaker 2>type of attict space or something, it could be a

0:20:56.560 --> 0:21:04.400
<v Speaker 2>frogger living in it. Sorry anyway, my point being, oh

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<v Speaker 2>my gosh, if someone lived in the attic of the

0:21:06.720 --> 0:21:13.520
<v Speaker 2>manor the attic was my mom had like a beauty

0:21:13.520 --> 0:21:16.080
<v Speaker 2>salon up there, but not really a beauty salon. My

0:21:16.200 --> 0:21:20.000
<v Speaker 2>dad would always go to the barber, but as he

0:21:20.040 --> 0:21:21.840
<v Speaker 2>got older or have the barber come to him and

0:21:21.880 --> 0:21:26.600
<v Speaker 2>just cut his hair in his bathroom. But she put

0:21:26.680 --> 0:21:30.480
<v Speaker 2>up a salon up there with like a hair like

0:21:31.320 --> 0:21:35.040
<v Speaker 2>washing bowl, everything like a stand like to like you

0:21:35.040 --> 0:21:37.040
<v Speaker 2>would go to a beauty salon and you're at like

0:21:37.080 --> 0:21:39.600
<v Speaker 2>a station. She put like two stations in there. One

0:21:39.600 --> 0:21:41.399
<v Speaker 2>and half was like the barbershop. One was the beauty

0:21:41.400 --> 0:21:44.159
<v Speaker 2>salon for her, and that was up in what you

0:21:44.200 --> 0:21:46.720
<v Speaker 2>would call an attic. But literally the attic didn't look

0:21:46.760 --> 0:21:49.520
<v Speaker 2>like the addict, you know, it was like pallacious, I

0:21:49.560 --> 0:21:53.040
<v Speaker 2>want to say, like, oh my gosh. The square footage

0:21:53.040 --> 0:21:55.679
<v Speaker 2>had to have been I mean, it's the length of

0:21:55.720 --> 0:21:58.199
<v Speaker 2>the house, but it was like the third floor and

0:21:58.240 --> 0:22:00.360
<v Speaker 2>our basement was in a basement. The base is where

0:22:00.359 --> 0:22:03.439
<v Speaker 2>we had the bowling alley and the arcade and the

0:22:03.440 --> 0:22:07.920
<v Speaker 2>doll museum and the gym and the bar and recreation room.

0:22:08.680 --> 0:22:13.320
<v Speaker 2>So we technically didn't have like like in the the

0:22:13.359 --> 0:22:17.440
<v Speaker 2>mechanics of the house, like you know what am I

0:22:17.440 --> 0:22:21.080
<v Speaker 2>talking about, Like the air conditioning unit and the air filters.

0:22:21.119 --> 0:22:24.080
<v Speaker 2>Like everything was like in the behind the scenes of

0:22:24.480 --> 0:22:26.879
<v Speaker 2>the manor. So you would like push a wall in

0:22:26.960 --> 0:22:29.320
<v Speaker 2>one room, which was the bowling alley, and you would

0:22:29.359 --> 0:22:32.359
<v Speaker 2>go into like hallways behind the scenes where all the

0:22:32.400 --> 0:22:35.119
<v Speaker 2>power stuff was and like everything that made the manner

0:22:35.840 --> 0:22:38.600
<v Speaker 2>light up and have power, and then you would come

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<v Speaker 2>down the other side in the Doll Museum, like a

0:22:41.320 --> 0:22:46.000
<v Speaker 2>hidden passageway got him. I'm like creeping myself out now

0:22:46.000 --> 0:22:48.280
<v Speaker 2>telling these stories. But it wasn't creepy. It was like

0:22:48.400 --> 0:22:52.359
<v Speaker 2>fun and friends were really impressed, were really excited, and

0:22:52.440 --> 0:22:57.720
<v Speaker 2>I was always like, oh god, no. But anyway, froggers,

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<v Speaker 2>if you lived in an attic at the Manor, you

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<v Speaker 2>have literally it had to have been at least ten

0:23:02.040 --> 0:23:07.000
<v Speaker 2>thousand square feet or more, so you could have literally

0:23:07.080 --> 0:23:12.399
<v Speaker 2>a huge home. You could have like two families lived there. Okay,

0:23:14.760 --> 0:23:19.000
<v Speaker 2>that's my view on the Manor five ninety four. And

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<v Speaker 2>my mom always had like stationery that would say like

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<v Speaker 2>all the heads of the sorry, all the notepads. The

0:23:25.560 --> 0:23:29.920
<v Speaker 2>header would say the Manor and property of the Manor

0:23:30.119 --> 0:23:34.720
<v Speaker 2>like pens and everything, all that stuff that like hotels

0:23:34.760 --> 0:23:38.000
<v Speaker 2>would have, but kind of we had that. That's so wild.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my gosh, I wish I had some of those saved.

0:23:41.359 --> 0:23:44.960
<v Speaker 2>I love that. Yeah, it was pretty cool. I mean

0:23:45.000 --> 0:23:48.080
<v Speaker 2>think about it. It was the size bigger than hotels anywhere.

0:23:48.119 --> 0:23:51.040
<v Speaker 2>Like you had to have some like wink wink nod nod,

0:23:51.200 --> 0:23:56.399
<v Speaker 2>like kind of fun gesture about like I have the

0:23:55.960 --> 0:24:02.000
<v Speaker 2>biggest at the time single family residence anywhere. It's being

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<v Speaker 2>compared to the taj Mahal on Google, Like, oh my god,

0:24:07.760 --> 0:24:09.080
<v Speaker 2>I feel like I read that it was bigger than

0:24:09.080 --> 0:24:10.720
<v Speaker 2>the taj Ma Hall. But I could be I read

0:24:10.760 --> 0:24:15.720
<v Speaker 2>that too, and my brain always trying to like apologize

0:24:15.760 --> 0:24:18.760
<v Speaker 2>for growing up with wealth. I read that too, and

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<v Speaker 2>instead of saying it was even bigger than the taj Mahll,

0:24:22.200 --> 0:24:24.280
<v Speaker 2>I couldn't even say that. So I said the size

0:24:24.280 --> 0:24:27.919
<v Speaker 2>of the taj Mahll. Fine, they say it was bigger.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh what wild what a wild ride life is?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you watch the video to see what it looks like?

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<v Speaker 2>No, I can't open and wait to hold them.

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to the Manor, one of the finest estates in

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<v Speaker 1>Los Angeles is over fifty six thousand square feet.

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<v Speaker 2>That's where I got married.

0:24:48.520 --> 0:24:52.600
<v Speaker 1>The White House close that offers fourteen bedrooms twenty seven

0:24:52.680 --> 0:24:56.040
<v Speaker 1>bathrooms on four point six acres all. This is on

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<v Speaker 1>the market for one hundred and sixty five million dollars.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the foyer of the Manor. The ceilings are

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<v Speaker 1>thirty feet high. It has a double staircase, very grand.

0:25:11.240 --> 0:25:13.960
<v Speaker 1>The chandelier has a mechanism that raises and lowers it

0:25:14.480 --> 0:25:18.640
<v Speaker 1>and the staircase railing is a one continuous piece hand

0:25:18.680 --> 0:25:21.600
<v Speaker 1>forged in Texas. It is legendary in the city. It

0:25:21.680 --> 0:25:24.520
<v Speaker 1>is the most important entry hall by far, and it

0:25:24.600 --> 0:25:26.760
<v Speaker 1>is a site to behold. The manner was built in

0:25:26.760 --> 0:25:29.880
<v Speaker 1>the style of a French chateau, with many details from

0:25:29.880 --> 0:25:31.720
<v Speaker 1>that period, including.

0:25:31.920 --> 0:25:34.479
<v Speaker 2>The lions out front of day Lackerism flat.

0:25:34.800 --> 0:25:37.760
<v Speaker 1>The manor was built on the former estate of Big Crosby.

0:25:38.359 --> 0:25:41.200
<v Speaker 1>Aaron and Candy Spelling tore the house down to build

0:25:41.240 --> 0:25:44.040
<v Speaker 1>their dream vision, a family home that would be cherished

0:25:44.040 --> 0:25:47.520
<v Speaker 1>for them and for other generations. It took seven years

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<v Speaker 1>and one hundred and fifty workers every day.

0:25:50.480 --> 0:25:55.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh that part made me sad that he said, like

0:25:55.600 --> 0:26:02.960
<v Speaker 2>their dream vision, first family home for many generations to come,

0:26:04.040 --> 0:26:10.680
<v Speaker 2>that didn't happen. It looks nice. I think that's the design.

0:26:10.960 --> 0:26:15.239
<v Speaker 2>Like the renovation, not renovation, but like the home deke Hoar.

0:26:15.320 --> 0:26:21.119
<v Speaker 2>Inside is what the Eggosteines did before. Definitely modernized it

0:26:21.240 --> 0:26:23.840
<v Speaker 2>a bit. It did. It did look a little more

0:26:23.960 --> 0:26:28.280
<v Speaker 2>like Homie like cozy. The foyer was changed. The foye

0:26:28.359 --> 0:26:31.480
<v Speaker 2>is exactly the way my mom built it, except it

0:26:31.520 --> 0:26:36.040
<v Speaker 2>was like a brass I think the chandelier I believe

0:26:36.119 --> 0:26:37.600
<v Speaker 2>is the same. My mom had that put in and

0:26:37.800 --> 0:26:39.560
<v Speaker 2>it did like you could push a button and it

0:26:39.560 --> 0:26:42.320
<v Speaker 2>would come down so that they could clean all the crystals.

0:26:42.880 --> 0:26:44.879
<v Speaker 2>You push a button, it would raise back up because

0:26:46.760 --> 0:26:50.119
<v Speaker 2>thirty feet what do you say, thirty feet dolls ceilings

0:26:50.160 --> 0:26:55.159
<v Speaker 2>and thirty foot dolls. Wow. But that staircase, I remember

0:26:55.160 --> 0:26:59.720
<v Speaker 2>asking her once because it was this double entryway Foye staircase,

0:27:00.800 --> 0:27:03.720
<v Speaker 2>and it was so grand and it completely connected. So

0:27:03.760 --> 0:27:05.960
<v Speaker 2>you would go one side of the staircase and it

0:27:06.040 --> 0:27:08.440
<v Speaker 2>was like the little, you know, hallway. You would stand

0:27:08.480 --> 0:27:12.840
<v Speaker 2>looking over very like Romeo and Juliet, and then you

0:27:12.880 --> 0:27:14.840
<v Speaker 2>would go down the other side, so it was all

0:27:14.920 --> 0:27:22.560
<v Speaker 2>one continuous staircase. And I did ask her once why

0:27:22.640 --> 0:27:26.080
<v Speaker 2>such a big staircase, and she said, so when you

0:27:26.119 --> 0:27:29.800
<v Speaker 2>get married one day, you can walk down that staircase.

0:27:29.880 --> 0:27:32.320
<v Speaker 2>And I was like, oh, that's so romantic. But I

0:27:32.359 --> 0:27:35.920
<v Speaker 2>did actually get married there first to my first husband,

0:27:37.200 --> 0:27:39.760
<v Speaker 2>but we didn't walk down that staircase. We actually started

0:27:39.840 --> 0:27:45.119
<v Speaker 2>outside and my dad was old and sick by that point,

0:27:45.280 --> 0:27:47.639
<v Speaker 2>so he couldn't walk me that far. I was already

0:27:47.680 --> 0:27:51.000
<v Speaker 2>walking across the whole driveway. It was a long walk,

0:27:51.119 --> 0:27:53.639
<v Speaker 2>so maybe that's why we didn't come down the staircase.

0:27:54.560 --> 0:27:57.919
<v Speaker 2>And also that staircase like growing up spelling like my

0:27:58.080 --> 0:28:02.200
<v Speaker 2>dad his vision like Dinahs, that staircase reminded me of Dynasty,

0:28:02.359 --> 0:28:04.920
<v Speaker 2>which came before the Manner, So I'm like, oh my gosh,

0:28:04.960 --> 0:28:09.439
<v Speaker 2>I wonder if that was always the intention, like to

0:28:09.440 --> 0:28:23.760
<v Speaker 2>walk down that staircase. Very very fancy. I feel like

0:28:25.720 --> 0:28:29.040
<v Speaker 2>it's been so prevalent in the news about the Manner selling,

0:28:29.840 --> 0:28:33.600
<v Speaker 2>and everyone has asked me how I feel about it

0:28:33.760 --> 0:28:37.000
<v Speaker 2>that I just I don't know, like I said, shut

0:28:37.040 --> 0:28:41.840
<v Speaker 2>down on it, and I thought, well, it's probably interesting

0:28:41.880 --> 0:28:43.840
<v Speaker 2>for people to hear my thoughts on how I feel

0:28:43.840 --> 0:28:47.480
<v Speaker 2>about it selling. So I decided to do this episode

0:28:47.520 --> 0:28:51.120
<v Speaker 2>on it. Didn't read any of the information except that,

0:28:51.160 --> 0:28:52.920
<v Speaker 2>you know, I knew the head of Google bought it

0:28:54.240 --> 0:28:58.120
<v Speaker 2>until I started this podcast today, and I just wanted

0:28:58.280 --> 0:29:01.360
<v Speaker 2>to be raw and kind of whatever came up. You know,

0:29:01.480 --> 0:29:05.480
<v Speaker 2>me never at a loss for gab, Like I can

0:29:05.520 --> 0:29:08.640
<v Speaker 2>talk and talk and talk, and like I've said, this

0:29:09.080 --> 0:29:14.240
<v Speaker 2>episode might seem a little scattered, but it's because I

0:29:14.280 --> 0:29:16.120
<v Speaker 2>always have something to talk about, and I could talk

0:29:16.120 --> 0:29:19.200
<v Speaker 2>about anything, and I never shy away from any topic,

0:29:19.320 --> 0:29:24.640
<v Speaker 2>as you guys know, and this one, as as it's

0:29:24.720 --> 0:29:28.560
<v Speaker 2>unfolded right now in the last hour, been very hard

0:29:28.600 --> 0:29:30.880
<v Speaker 2>for me to talk about. And like I said, it's

0:29:30.920 --> 0:29:33.240
<v Speaker 2>feeling like a weight on my chest and it's feeling

0:29:34.680 --> 0:29:38.840
<v Speaker 2>bringing up some sort of memories and emotions that I

0:29:38.880 --> 0:29:42.240
<v Speaker 2>am trying to access while keeping the ball rolling as

0:29:42.320 --> 0:29:47.240
<v Speaker 2>a host of this podcast. And it's conflicting because I

0:29:47.280 --> 0:29:50.040
<v Speaker 2>don't know what all these emotions are that are coming up.

0:29:51.880 --> 0:29:57.840
<v Speaker 2>I guess I should ask my therapist what this means. Oh,

0:29:57.880 --> 0:29:59.920
<v Speaker 2>I should bring around the show. We should talk about

0:30:00.120 --> 0:30:05.400
<v Speaker 2>the manner. But yeah, so I just wanted to say,

0:30:05.840 --> 0:30:07.760
<v Speaker 2>you're kind of getting me at my ross right now.

0:30:07.800 --> 0:30:11.160
<v Speaker 2>And this is the intimate Like I don't even have

0:30:11.200 --> 0:30:15.000
<v Speaker 2>any comedic things to say about it right now, but

0:30:15.360 --> 0:30:19.440
<v Speaker 2>it's definitely bringing up a lot of emotions. I think

0:30:19.840 --> 0:30:25.280
<v Speaker 2>there's a twofold thing coming to hand right now, to

0:30:25.400 --> 0:30:28.080
<v Speaker 2>head to hand to heart, to all of the above.

0:30:30.200 --> 0:30:33.800
<v Speaker 2>I did a TV series which was a single camera

0:30:34.760 --> 0:30:39.600
<v Speaker 2>sitcom which was loosely based on my life called So Notorious.

0:30:42.080 --> 0:30:46.480
<v Speaker 2>With it was an amazing show. It was It's okay

0:30:46.520 --> 0:30:50.320
<v Speaker 2>for me to say that, hey is the first time

0:30:50.320 --> 0:30:53.400
<v Speaker 2>in my life. I got critical acclaim from like people

0:30:53.440 --> 0:30:55.800
<v Speaker 2>out there, They're like, oh my gosh, And I knew

0:30:56.080 --> 0:30:57.880
<v Speaker 2>that was a kiss of death when everyone wrote, like

0:30:57.880 --> 0:31:02.760
<v Speaker 2>in the press, the was like critically acclaimed that I

0:31:02.920 --> 0:31:05.680
<v Speaker 2>was actually good for ones, Like I should have known

0:31:05.720 --> 0:31:10.719
<v Speaker 2>it wasn't going to work. But that said, it was

0:31:10.800 --> 0:31:15.760
<v Speaker 2>me and Lannie Anderson and Zach Quinto and James Carbonello,

0:31:15.880 --> 0:31:21.840
<v Speaker 2>and it was and a wonderful cast, and it was

0:31:22.320 --> 0:31:27.280
<v Speaker 2>a really fun show because it was, while loosely based

0:31:27.320 --> 0:31:29.720
<v Speaker 2>on my life, it basically was a show that I

0:31:29.760 --> 0:31:33.080
<v Speaker 2>co created and the idea came from everyone had a

0:31:33.080 --> 0:31:35.240
<v Speaker 2>preconceived notion of me, of my life. And this took

0:31:35.280 --> 0:31:38.400
<v Speaker 2>place when I was in my late twenties. So at

0:31:38.400 --> 0:31:40.560
<v Speaker 2>that time I was off nine o two and zero.

0:31:41.080 --> 0:31:43.000
<v Speaker 2>But you know, the press always had something to write

0:31:43.040 --> 0:31:44.960
<v Speaker 2>about me. The tabloid said something I'd write about me,

0:31:45.440 --> 0:31:48.240
<v Speaker 2>and this was my time to you know, I remember

0:31:48.560 --> 0:31:52.840
<v Speaker 2>my pitch was I took all the bad tabloid articles

0:31:52.880 --> 0:31:56.960
<v Speaker 2>about me, the crazy stuff written even and made a

0:31:56.960 --> 0:31:59.360
<v Speaker 2>little scrap book and I took that into pitch meetings

0:32:00.480 --> 0:32:03.440
<v Speaker 2>a T shirt with all the rumors about me and everything,

0:32:06.080 --> 0:32:09.920
<v Speaker 2>and yeah, and I went in and said, I laughed

0:32:09.920 --> 0:32:12.360
<v Speaker 2>about it, and I said, here's everything. It was very

0:32:12.400 --> 0:32:17.960
<v Speaker 2>you know, relied on self deprecating humor and just kind

0:32:18.000 --> 0:32:21.720
<v Speaker 2>of if you can't beat them, join them. And the

0:32:21.800 --> 0:32:26.840
<v Speaker 2>show originally was created for NBC and the pilot didn't

0:32:26.840 --> 0:32:28.960
<v Speaker 2>get picked up there. We then took it to vh one,

0:32:29.520 --> 0:32:32.160
<v Speaker 2>where it went one season. But this was at a

0:32:32.200 --> 0:32:34.320
<v Speaker 2>time when they hadn't done scripted TV. It was all

0:32:34.400 --> 0:32:39.440
<v Speaker 2>unscripted reality and competition shows and the big big show

0:32:39.440 --> 0:32:43.600
<v Speaker 2>there was like Flavor of Love and you know, Finding

0:32:43.640 --> 0:32:45.800
<v Speaker 2>Love and all that. So it didn't quite work for

0:32:45.840 --> 0:32:48.840
<v Speaker 2>that audience, but I still stand by it was a

0:32:48.920 --> 0:32:53.440
<v Speaker 2>really fun show and really well received and a lot

0:32:53.480 --> 0:32:55.800
<v Speaker 2>of it took place. The reason I'm bringing this up

0:32:55.880 --> 0:33:00.040
<v Speaker 2>is we had a fictitious manner and a lot of

0:33:00.080 --> 0:33:02.560
<v Speaker 2>it was like the jokes of going We obviously couldn't

0:33:02.640 --> 0:33:07.479
<v Speaker 2>use the real manner, and you know, all names it

0:33:07.520 --> 0:33:10.040
<v Speaker 2>was loosely based on people that had been in my life,

0:33:10.400 --> 0:33:12.600
<v Speaker 2>but we changed all the names and we added different

0:33:12.640 --> 0:33:17.920
<v Speaker 2>qualities of you know, new characters. The only one that

0:33:18.040 --> 0:33:21.680
<v Speaker 2>was really real ish was me, you know, and I

0:33:21.720 --> 0:33:24.000
<v Speaker 2>played Tory Spelling. But it was like a heightened version,

0:33:24.400 --> 0:33:30.360
<v Speaker 2>a comedic version of everything, and you know, every joke

0:33:30.560 --> 0:33:33.280
<v Speaker 2>in the book, and then some about me making fun

0:33:33.320 --> 0:33:38.840
<v Speaker 2>of myself basically because everyone else does. And we had

0:33:38.840 --> 0:33:41.760
<v Speaker 2>to rent another house that was oddly enough, in the

0:33:41.800 --> 0:33:46.440
<v Speaker 2>same area as my parents' house. Couldn't quite get one

0:33:46.480 --> 0:33:51.000
<v Speaker 2>as big because it didn't exist, but we filmed there

0:33:51.120 --> 0:33:53.280
<v Speaker 2>and we filmed it as the manner and all that

0:33:53.440 --> 0:33:57.200
<v Speaker 2>and me getting lost in the house and my friends

0:33:57.200 --> 0:34:01.400
<v Speaker 2>couldn't find me, all those jokes. But it's just odd

0:34:01.480 --> 0:34:05.000
<v Speaker 2>timing that memories of that are coming up. And my

0:34:05.160 --> 0:34:09.719
<v Speaker 2>on camera mother, Lonnie Anderson, just passed away recently, so

0:34:10.320 --> 0:34:15.040
<v Speaker 2>it and she was so amazing and lovely and one

0:34:15.080 --> 0:34:18.319
<v Speaker 2>of those people that come into your life and we

0:34:18.480 --> 0:34:20.799
<v Speaker 2>didn't work together for that long, only for a year,

0:34:20.880 --> 0:34:25.040
<v Speaker 2>but she's someone who has stayed in my heart for

0:34:25.080 --> 0:34:30.080
<v Speaker 2>the rest of my life and really taught me so

0:34:30.239 --> 0:34:36.040
<v Speaker 2>much about a female in this business and on screen.

0:34:36.719 --> 0:34:40.680
<v Speaker 2>And you know, I was still the age at the

0:34:40.680 --> 0:34:43.680
<v Speaker 2>time and she had been you know, the Angeenu for

0:34:43.760 --> 0:34:46.000
<v Speaker 2>years and now it was a different time and place,

0:34:46.200 --> 0:34:48.759
<v Speaker 2>you know, playing an older woman on TV. And she

0:34:48.800 --> 0:34:51.480
<v Speaker 2>always taught me, you know, you don't need this now,

0:34:51.560 --> 0:34:53.759
<v Speaker 2>but lighting's going to be very important to you later

0:34:54.160 --> 0:34:56.960
<v Speaker 2>as an actress. Always have them light you from below.

0:34:58.440 --> 0:35:03.080
<v Speaker 2>I've never forgotten that. Yeah, And she just taught me

0:35:03.120 --> 0:35:06.400
<v Speaker 2>so much about being kind and humble, and she was

0:35:06.440 --> 0:35:11.160
<v Speaker 2>such a legend and a star and so and was

0:35:11.280 --> 0:35:14.480
<v Speaker 2>very formative in my life when I started my relationship

0:35:14.520 --> 0:35:17.080
<v Speaker 2>with Dean and when I became a mom for the

0:35:17.080 --> 0:35:20.080
<v Speaker 2>first time, and just one of those amazing humans that

0:35:20.239 --> 0:35:24.520
<v Speaker 2>just sticks with you and your soul forever. But it's

0:35:24.600 --> 0:35:29.560
<v Speaker 2>just the uncanny timing of she played my mom in

0:35:29.600 --> 0:35:35.920
<v Speaker 2>a fictitious world based on my life and her passing away,

0:35:36.120 --> 0:35:40.120
<v Speaker 2>and then like the keys of the kingdom changing hands,

0:35:40.239 --> 0:35:44.680
<v Speaker 2>the manner itself getting sold, and it's just now I'm

0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.080
<v Speaker 2>talking about my feelings of that, and it's just like,

0:35:47.239 --> 0:35:50.279
<v Speaker 2>oh my god, I can't find the words, and it's

0:35:50.440 --> 0:35:55.240
<v Speaker 2>just all like all coming into my being right now

0:35:55.480 --> 0:36:00.479
<v Speaker 2>of emotions of how I feel about everything. So it's

0:36:00.520 --> 0:36:05.279
<v Speaker 2>just bizarre timing, that's all. But yeah, so I just

0:36:05.280 --> 0:36:07.200
<v Speaker 2>want to say sorry, this episode might have seem a

0:36:07.200 --> 0:36:10.760
<v Speaker 2>little scattered, but this is how I feel, and I

0:36:10.800 --> 0:36:12.520
<v Speaker 2>feel like I want to do a deeper dive into

0:36:12.520 --> 0:36:16.040
<v Speaker 2>how I really feel about what others call my childhood

0:36:16.080 --> 0:36:20.720
<v Speaker 2>home because it would be interesting to figure out where

0:36:21.200 --> 0:36:24.240
<v Speaker 2>the repressed memories are and feelings that I'm obviously having

0:36:25.239 --> 0:36:28.239
<v Speaker 2>get to the bottom of that. So I guess, as

0:36:28.280 --> 0:36:30.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to say, is I don't have an end

0:36:30.480 --> 0:36:36.000
<v Speaker 2>to this ending. I know there's a lot of finality

0:36:36.040 --> 0:36:40.640
<v Speaker 2>with this, but I guess I haven't found my finality

0:36:40.680 --> 0:36:47.440
<v Speaker 2>with this in my heart. So yeah, but you know me,

0:36:47.480 --> 0:36:49.799
<v Speaker 2>I always got to bring comedy into it. So I

0:36:49.800 --> 0:36:51.560
<v Speaker 2>guess when they say you can't ever go home again,

0:36:52.640 --> 0:36:54.800
<v Speaker 2>this is true. It just sold I really can't go

0:36:54.840 --> 0:37:01.719
<v Speaker 2>home now.