1 00:00:08,760 --> 00:00:13,440 Speaker 1: Misspelling with Tory Spelling and iHeartRadio podcast. 2 00:00:14,000 --> 00:00:19,880 Speaker 2: So here in misspelling. I have periodically done episodes titled 3 00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:29,840 Speaker 2: Secrets of the Manner, but recently in the news currently 4 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:35,159 Speaker 2: the Manor, I guess it's not called the Manner anymore. 5 00:00:35,159 --> 00:00:38,639 Speaker 2: It just sold. It just sold again to a new 6 00:00:38,680 --> 00:00:43,720 Speaker 2: owner that is re titling it to five nine four. 7 00:00:43,880 --> 00:00:46,640 Speaker 2: I guess that's the modern version because the address is 8 00:00:46,760 --> 00:00:51,320 Speaker 2: five nine four South Mapleton Drive, and so it's now 9 00:00:51,479 --> 00:00:53,000 Speaker 2: no longer going to be called the Manner. It's going 10 00:00:53,040 --> 00:00:58,360 Speaker 2: to be called five nine four. So when news broke 11 00:00:59,680 --> 00:01:03,640 Speaker 2: of the Manner selling, a lot of people sent me 12 00:01:03,680 --> 00:01:06,160 Speaker 2: the article and they're like, have you seen this? And 13 00:01:06,200 --> 00:01:09,440 Speaker 2: I did hear about it, but I don't know. There 14 00:01:09,520 --> 00:01:13,880 Speaker 2: was something that kept me from like clicking on this article, 15 00:01:14,319 --> 00:01:16,360 Speaker 2: and it was clickbait for me too, because I wanted 16 00:01:16,400 --> 00:01:19,200 Speaker 2: to know the details. I'm not gonna lie that is, 17 00:01:19,319 --> 00:01:21,400 Speaker 2: you know what people like think of my childhood home, 18 00:01:21,480 --> 00:01:25,560 Speaker 2: even though I technically only lived there for like two years, 19 00:01:26,160 --> 00:01:29,080 Speaker 2: but still it was something my mom created, and you know, 20 00:01:29,160 --> 00:01:33,760 Speaker 2: it's part of my history. So obviously I have connections 21 00:01:33,800 --> 00:01:38,840 Speaker 2: to it, but I yeah, I don't know. I couldn't 22 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:40,480 Speaker 2: open the article and I didn't even know why. I 23 00:01:40,640 --> 00:01:42,640 Speaker 2: was just like in my head, like, you know, I 24 00:01:42,640 --> 00:01:44,400 Speaker 2: had taken my kids on vacation. I was like, I'm 25 00:01:44,400 --> 00:01:46,840 Speaker 2: focusing on my kids, and like, you know, I'm not 26 00:01:47,200 --> 00:01:51,040 Speaker 2: looking online as much, and I'm not on Instagram and 27 00:01:51,040 --> 00:01:54,240 Speaker 2: I'm not you know, all that stuff. But still at 28 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:56,480 Speaker 2: all the time in the world to click on every 29 00:01:56,520 --> 00:01:59,400 Speaker 2: single article out there about Liam Neeson and Pamela Anderson 30 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:02,200 Speaker 2: fasting it with those two, like, oh my gosh, the 31 00:02:02,240 --> 00:02:04,920 Speaker 2: new IT couple. I am just like can't get enough 32 00:02:04,920 --> 00:02:07,760 Speaker 2: of them, just like everybody else. But that's like a 33 00:02:07,760 --> 00:02:10,880 Speaker 2: happy story, right, That's like she's like the comeback queen 34 00:02:11,000 --> 00:02:13,760 Speaker 2: and he finally, you know, found love again and they 35 00:02:13,840 --> 00:02:16,320 Speaker 2: both have been through so much personally and professionally and 36 00:02:16,360 --> 00:02:19,120 Speaker 2: now they deserve This is what everyone's saying. And so 37 00:02:19,200 --> 00:02:22,320 Speaker 2: that's a magical, happy ending and that's something we all 38 00:02:23,040 --> 00:02:25,200 Speaker 2: hope to translate into our own lives. So that's something 39 00:02:25,240 --> 00:02:27,960 Speaker 2: we want to see. But I never clicked on the 40 00:02:27,960 --> 00:02:29,919 Speaker 2: manner because I was just like, oh, it's sold again. 41 00:02:30,440 --> 00:02:32,560 Speaker 2: Keep in mind it sold once before when my mom 42 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:40,160 Speaker 2: owned it. She sold it to the Egglesteins, and I 43 00:02:40,160 --> 00:02:45,160 Speaker 2: did see pictures when she redid it and made it. 44 00:02:45,280 --> 00:02:49,400 Speaker 2: She kept the bones of it and didn't really change 45 00:02:49,960 --> 00:02:52,480 Speaker 2: you know, the bearing wall, you know, nothing really changed 46 00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:58,440 Speaker 2: to the architecture, but just totally renovate the look inside. 47 00:02:58,600 --> 00:03:01,000 Speaker 2: And it was really modern. I remember seeing like black 48 00:03:01,080 --> 00:03:05,120 Speaker 2: lacquered stuff and you know a lot of geometric stuff, 49 00:03:05,120 --> 00:03:07,239 Speaker 2: and I was just like, oh my gosh, very different 50 00:03:07,280 --> 00:03:10,760 Speaker 2: than how my mom. And my mom spent years. She 51 00:03:10,960 --> 00:03:13,640 Speaker 2: designed the home, you know, with a great team and 52 00:03:14,480 --> 00:03:17,559 Speaker 2: did every was involved in every aspect of the architecture. 53 00:03:17,720 --> 00:03:21,880 Speaker 2: And because you know, they tore that home down to 54 00:03:21,960 --> 00:03:25,359 Speaker 2: the ground, and you know, I still remember the day, 55 00:03:25,400 --> 00:03:29,680 Speaker 2: like the day they started building it, and they had 56 00:03:29,760 --> 00:03:35,560 Speaker 2: like a ribbon cutting ceremony and they started construction, so 57 00:03:35,640 --> 00:03:37,600 Speaker 2: like the whole team and I feel like my whole 58 00:03:37,600 --> 00:03:41,200 Speaker 2: family was wearing hard hats and I think I was, Yeah, 59 00:03:41,240 --> 00:03:45,360 Speaker 2: I was twelve, and my brother and I were there 60 00:03:45,520 --> 00:03:48,520 Speaker 2: and they had this whole like ribbon cutting with this huge, 61 00:03:48,960 --> 00:03:52,960 Speaker 2: crazy big scissors, and my mom and dad cut it 62 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:57,280 Speaker 2: and they broke ground. Basically, I have to find those 63 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:03,320 Speaker 2: pictures somewhere. But yeah, she puts so much dedication into 64 00:04:03,320 --> 00:04:07,960 Speaker 2: that home. She not only created the entire house itself, 65 00:04:08,040 --> 00:04:12,600 Speaker 2: but she then flew to Europe and did extensive you 66 00:04:12,640 --> 00:04:17,240 Speaker 2: know home decort design and every piece in that home 67 00:04:17,320 --> 00:04:23,400 Speaker 2: and a lot of like antique old French, you know architecture. 68 00:04:23,440 --> 00:04:27,000 Speaker 2: And I'm like, isn't it funny? I can talk so 69 00:04:27,080 --> 00:04:29,159 Speaker 2: much about this world, but I'm like, actually finding it 70 00:04:29,200 --> 00:04:31,359 Speaker 2: hard to find my words when it's my own home, 71 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:33,240 Speaker 2: my family's home. I don't know. I think there's like 72 00:04:33,279 --> 00:04:37,039 Speaker 2: some locked memories there. That not bad, it's just obviously 73 00:04:38,680 --> 00:04:43,240 Speaker 2: it was a gorgeous house and very beautiful pieces in 74 00:04:43,320 --> 00:04:47,560 Speaker 2: each room, but it definitely didn't have the heart of 75 00:04:48,120 --> 00:04:50,760 Speaker 2: when I grew up. You know, we were a family 76 00:04:50,800 --> 00:04:54,600 Speaker 2: of four, and I guess going into a house that big, 77 00:04:54,839 --> 00:04:56,640 Speaker 2: while we tried to keep it and my mom did 78 00:04:56,680 --> 00:05:00,440 Speaker 2: a great job as warm as it could feel, family 79 00:05:00,480 --> 00:05:05,279 Speaker 2: as it could feel. She did a great job executing that. 80 00:05:05,880 --> 00:05:08,640 Speaker 2: But in a home that is what noted is fifty 81 00:05:08,680 --> 00:05:12,440 Speaker 2: six thousand square feet, I think it's just impractical to 82 00:05:12,480 --> 00:05:18,160 Speaker 2: think that it could ever hold the charm and spacing 83 00:05:18,279 --> 00:05:23,160 Speaker 2: of an intimate family home. And I often reflect on, 84 00:05:23,320 --> 00:05:26,120 Speaker 2: you know, the rooms we primarily used as a family 85 00:05:26,160 --> 00:05:32,479 Speaker 2: of four were the kitchen, my mom's office, which was 86 00:05:32,520 --> 00:05:36,000 Speaker 2: like our family office. My dad has owned separate working office, 87 00:05:36,040 --> 00:05:44,160 Speaker 2: but my family office, the kitchen, my parents' bedroom, the 88 00:05:44,600 --> 00:05:48,880 Speaker 2: breakfast room where we would have family dinners. Other than that, 89 00:05:48,960 --> 00:05:51,200 Speaker 2: I guess the screening room, the projection room, but that 90 00:05:51,240 --> 00:05:53,920 Speaker 2: got less and less as my dad got older and 91 00:05:54,000 --> 00:05:55,720 Speaker 2: we were my brother and I got older and we 92 00:05:55,720 --> 00:05:57,400 Speaker 2: were out with our friends, so we didn't do family 93 00:05:57,440 --> 00:06:03,320 Speaker 2: screening nights as much. And yeah, like it's wild to 94 00:06:03,400 --> 00:06:06,320 Speaker 2: think those are the rooms we used. In a room 95 00:06:06,360 --> 00:06:08,719 Speaker 2: in a house, there was fifty six thousand square feet 96 00:06:09,000 --> 00:06:11,200 Speaker 2: estimated to have. Sorry, I sorry, I have to look 97 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:14,160 Speaker 2: it up. I should know this in my brain from 98 00:06:14,240 --> 00:06:16,960 Speaker 2: reading it for so long and being asked about it. 99 00:06:16,960 --> 00:06:20,040 Speaker 2: It says it had fourteen bedrooms. That can't be true. 100 00:06:20,040 --> 00:06:26,280 Speaker 2: I feel like there was way more anyway. Yeah, fourteen bedrooms, 101 00:06:26,400 --> 00:06:32,039 Speaker 2: twenty seven baths, fifty six five hundred square feet of space. Yeah, 102 00:06:32,040 --> 00:06:35,880 Speaker 2: it's just wild anyway, I always said, like after it 103 00:06:35,920 --> 00:06:37,359 Speaker 2: was put on the market years ago, I was like, 104 00:06:37,400 --> 00:06:40,200 Speaker 2: oh my gosh, I wonder if I emailed the realtor 105 00:06:41,160 --> 00:06:44,120 Speaker 2: and be like, hi, it's story. Spellings in my family 106 00:06:44,200 --> 00:06:46,760 Speaker 2: home way back when, so anyway I could just come 107 00:06:46,800 --> 00:06:50,720 Speaker 2: see it and bring my kids. When my mom was 108 00:06:50,800 --> 00:06:55,599 Speaker 2: moving out, I believe, before it's sold, I had Liam 109 00:06:55,640 --> 00:06:57,560 Speaker 2: and Stella and they were very little. I think they 110 00:06:57,560 --> 00:07:01,960 Speaker 2: were like three and two maybe two and one baby, 111 00:07:02,040 --> 00:07:05,040 Speaker 2: so they have no memory of it. But I remember 112 00:07:06,640 --> 00:07:10,320 Speaker 2: Dean and I and Liam and Stella went to visit 113 00:07:10,360 --> 00:07:14,160 Speaker 2: Exit before my mom, I mean she pretty much moved out, 114 00:07:15,040 --> 00:07:17,920 Speaker 2: but before she put it on the market, I said, 115 00:07:17,960 --> 00:07:19,920 Speaker 2: I really want my babies to be here. I think 116 00:07:19,920 --> 00:07:22,720 Speaker 2: the rooms were all empty. I remember like holding baby 117 00:07:22,760 --> 00:07:25,840 Speaker 2: Stella and taking her into rooms and they were like 118 00:07:25,840 --> 00:07:28,120 Speaker 2: empty rooms, so taking a picture so I could like 119 00:07:28,480 --> 00:07:32,200 Speaker 2: show them later, like this was Mom's room, This is 120 00:07:32,240 --> 00:07:35,360 Speaker 2: you know, Grandpa Aaron and Grandma Candy's room. Like I 121 00:07:35,360 --> 00:07:38,280 Speaker 2: don't know, I don't know what I was thinking, but yeah, 122 00:07:38,720 --> 00:07:42,160 Speaker 2: so that's like my last memory. And then my really 123 00:07:42,240 --> 00:07:48,360 Speaker 2: like holding memory was my dad passing and that's where 124 00:07:48,360 --> 00:07:52,720 Speaker 2: we had like his funeral gathering afterwards, was back at 125 00:07:52,720 --> 00:07:57,360 Speaker 2: the Manner And so yeah, those two memories are kind 126 00:07:57,360 --> 00:08:03,000 Speaker 2: of not great memory because it's like a finality, and 127 00:08:05,520 --> 00:08:11,440 Speaker 2: when I draw on childhood memories, there's absolutely no connotation 128 00:08:11,560 --> 00:08:14,200 Speaker 2: to that house. It's not in my heart and soul, 129 00:08:14,240 --> 00:08:16,800 Speaker 2: it's not the house I grew up in. So when 130 00:08:16,800 --> 00:08:19,480 Speaker 2: I dream about my childhood and we all go back 131 00:08:19,520 --> 00:08:22,440 Speaker 2: in time, I never have dreams about that house. Like 132 00:08:22,960 --> 00:08:25,360 Speaker 2: I'll be my adult self now, I'll even be with 133 00:08:25,400 --> 00:08:27,680 Speaker 2: my kids now at their present age, but I'm back 134 00:08:27,680 --> 00:08:30,840 Speaker 2: in the house I grew up in, which, for anyone 135 00:08:30,840 --> 00:08:33,920 Speaker 2: that doesn't know, was on the same street so on Mapleton, 136 00:08:34,040 --> 00:08:38,840 Speaker 2: but it was one to eleven North Mapleton, and it 137 00:08:38,920 --> 00:08:44,520 Speaker 2: was still a very big house. But it was, you know, 138 00:08:45,080 --> 00:08:48,800 Speaker 2: maybe ten thousand square feet, which is still enormous, you know, 139 00:08:48,920 --> 00:08:51,200 Speaker 2: something in a lifetime, I don't think I'd ever be 140 00:08:51,200 --> 00:08:54,520 Speaker 2: in a house that big, but like, it definitely was 141 00:08:54,600 --> 00:08:58,160 Speaker 2: a very warm family home and I have really beautiful 142 00:08:58,240 --> 00:09:01,560 Speaker 2: memories growing up there with my family. Anyway, now that 143 00:09:01,640 --> 00:09:06,560 Speaker 2: I have clicked on this, so yes, so it just 144 00:09:06,600 --> 00:09:10,120 Speaker 2: sold again at one hundred and ten million dollars to 145 00:09:12,160 --> 00:09:18,800 Speaker 2: the head of Google, Eric Schmidt. Yeah, so the Google CEO, 146 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:22,800 Speaker 2: Eric Schmidt and his wife Wendy. So I'm reading this 147 00:09:22,880 --> 00:09:24,800 Speaker 2: for the first time, you guys, while I do this 148 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:30,400 Speaker 2: with you, because I haven't wanted to before. And yeah, 149 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:36,880 Speaker 2: so I'm scrolling to see what it says, and so 150 00:09:37,000 --> 00:09:40,480 Speaker 2: it's saying, Oh my gosh, it seems like they're not 151 00:09:40,520 --> 00:09:42,720 Speaker 2: even going to live there. It says reportedly they are 152 00:09:42,760 --> 00:09:46,440 Speaker 2: planning to use the manner, which they are now relabeling 153 00:09:46,559 --> 00:09:50,719 Speaker 2: is five ninety four, to host meetings and nonprofit events. 154 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:54,319 Speaker 2: They already own other properties in LA and nearby Montecito, 155 00:09:54,400 --> 00:09:59,160 Speaker 2: plus London, Washington, DC, Miami Beach, New York City, San Francisco, 156 00:09:59,360 --> 00:10:05,240 Speaker 2: and on Nantucket Island. Wow, that's a lot of properties. Okay, 157 00:10:05,280 --> 00:10:08,800 Speaker 2: So I was wondering. It's so funny, I guess something 158 00:10:08,920 --> 00:10:12,600 Speaker 2: that big. It doesn't seem like a family home. But 159 00:10:12,640 --> 00:10:15,360 Speaker 2: my instinct when I heard they bought it, I was like, Oh, okay, 160 00:10:15,400 --> 00:10:17,640 Speaker 2: do they have a big family Like I don't know, 161 00:10:18,280 --> 00:10:19,599 Speaker 2: but I mean, I like, they're going to use it 162 00:10:19,640 --> 00:10:25,280 Speaker 2: for nonprofit events, but meetings, I don't know. Kind of 163 00:10:25,320 --> 00:10:29,200 Speaker 2: bums me out, just because in some form it's my 164 00:10:29,320 --> 00:10:32,720 Speaker 2: dad mom's legacy. Like, my dad's not here and it 165 00:10:32,880 --> 00:10:36,560 Speaker 2: was the last place I lived with him, So it's 166 00:10:36,559 --> 00:10:38,680 Speaker 2: hard to think that it's going to be used for 167 00:10:38,880 --> 00:10:42,760 Speaker 2: just like a meeting hall. I wonder if they'll change 168 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:56,720 Speaker 2: up anything inside. What does Eric Schmidt intend to do 169 00:10:57,400 --> 00:11:01,000 Speaker 2: with the manner that he just bought. It's so hard 170 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:02,360 Speaker 2: to talk about this. I didn't even think it would 171 00:11:02,520 --> 00:11:05,520 Speaker 2: be this hard to talk about. And it feels weird 172 00:11:05,559 --> 00:11:09,040 Speaker 2: inside talking about it, like some like repressed block, Like 173 00:11:09,080 --> 00:11:13,040 Speaker 2: I feel this is so strange. I'm talking about this 174 00:11:13,120 --> 00:11:15,760 Speaker 2: and it's feeling like an elephant sitting on my chest, 175 00:11:16,600 --> 00:11:20,160 Speaker 2: like maybe I have things I haven't talked about. You guys, 176 00:11:20,200 --> 00:11:23,600 Speaker 2: it's really this topic is very challenging for me to 177 00:11:23,640 --> 00:11:26,080 Speaker 2: talk about because if you know me, you know that 178 00:11:26,960 --> 00:11:30,040 Speaker 2: I have strived my whole life and career to kind 179 00:11:30,080 --> 00:11:34,440 Speaker 2: of be the anti rich girl. It was something that 180 00:11:34,600 --> 00:11:38,640 Speaker 2: I was bullied really bad when I was little about 181 00:11:38,679 --> 00:11:42,720 Speaker 2: my dad having money and being famous, and it's something 182 00:11:42,800 --> 00:11:45,760 Speaker 2: I took on to such a degree that I actually 183 00:11:45,880 --> 00:11:48,640 Speaker 2: change it, manifested in a way that it changed my 184 00:11:48,800 --> 00:11:53,880 Speaker 2: trajectory in my lifetime. Look at me, I'm so savvy 185 00:11:54,800 --> 00:11:56,719 Speaker 2: talking about something serious and I still managed to get 186 00:11:56,720 --> 00:12:02,520 Speaker 2: my name in there. I'm sorry I distracked with comedy. 187 00:12:02,559 --> 00:12:06,640 Speaker 2: It wore on me so heavily that I do feel 188 00:12:06,679 --> 00:12:12,520 Speaker 2: on some level that I manifested my life staying small. 189 00:12:12,559 --> 00:12:17,319 Speaker 2: Like everyone has these perceptions of who I am and 190 00:12:17,360 --> 00:12:20,000 Speaker 2: what I am as defined by who my father is 191 00:12:20,520 --> 00:12:24,960 Speaker 2: and his wealth. So I'm going to make a note 192 00:12:25,360 --> 00:12:27,480 Speaker 2: to be the anti that my whole life and see 193 00:12:27,520 --> 00:12:30,120 Speaker 2: if people like me better then And let me just 194 00:12:30,160 --> 00:12:33,439 Speaker 2: tell you, like lean into what you're given and what 195 00:12:33,520 --> 00:12:37,480 Speaker 2: you are, because it doesn't help to me the other way. 196 00:12:37,559 --> 00:12:40,920 Speaker 2: Like anyone that's met me will say, oh, she's so nice, 197 00:12:40,920 --> 00:12:47,280 Speaker 2: she's so kind, she's great. But in some way, I 198 00:12:47,280 --> 00:12:52,000 Speaker 2: I'm a very intelligent woman, and I feel like I 199 00:12:52,080 --> 00:12:58,160 Speaker 2: have not on purpose, but like almost like subconsciously like 200 00:13:00,320 --> 00:13:04,320 Speaker 2: defeated myself or like tanked myself at times throughout my career. 201 00:13:05,440 --> 00:13:09,079 Speaker 2: I think people said, you know, people would say things 202 00:13:09,080 --> 00:13:11,000 Speaker 2: all the time like she's not talented, she's not And 203 00:13:11,040 --> 00:13:13,400 Speaker 2: now doing a nine oh two and a rewatch that 204 00:13:13,559 --> 00:13:16,240 Speaker 2: Jenny Garth and I do called nine O two one, OMG, 205 00:13:16,440 --> 00:13:18,760 Speaker 2: check it out if you haven't. We are on season 206 00:13:18,840 --> 00:13:21,880 Speaker 2: seven doing a rewatch. Now I watch it all back 207 00:13:21,920 --> 00:13:27,360 Speaker 2: and I'm like, gosh, I moved forward in a career 208 00:13:28,080 --> 00:13:31,840 Speaker 2: thinking I couldn't act, thinking I wasn't good enough, thinking 209 00:13:32,440 --> 00:13:35,400 Speaker 2: that I would never have succeeded in this industry if 210 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:39,480 Speaker 2: it wasn't for my dad. I heard it so often 211 00:13:39,600 --> 00:13:41,640 Speaker 2: that I actually believed it. And now I watch it 212 00:13:41,679 --> 00:13:45,760 Speaker 2: back and I'm like, subjectively, I'm watching as a fan, 213 00:13:46,240 --> 00:13:50,559 Speaker 2: and I'm like, Donna is really good. Taking myself out 214 00:13:50,559 --> 00:13:53,880 Speaker 2: of it for a second, you guys, Tory spelling. Look, 215 00:13:53,880 --> 00:13:55,600 Speaker 2: it's even hard for me to say is a very 216 00:13:55,679 --> 00:13:59,880 Speaker 2: good actress. And it's like, wow, now at fifty two, 217 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:03,640 Speaker 2: my brain's like, what we have to rewire and learn this. 218 00:14:04,160 --> 00:14:08,360 Speaker 2: We believed all the other stuff for so long. So anyway, 219 00:14:08,400 --> 00:14:11,480 Speaker 2: going back, I think I don't even know what I 220 00:14:11,520 --> 00:14:15,160 Speaker 2: was talking about. You know, I get so sidetracked. But 221 00:14:15,280 --> 00:14:19,760 Speaker 2: going back, it was so ingrained in me to be 222 00:14:19,880 --> 00:14:23,400 Speaker 2: the opposite. I mean, growing up, I used to go 223 00:14:23,440 --> 00:14:25,920 Speaker 2: into our laundry room and I would bring my blanket 224 00:14:26,120 --> 00:14:30,640 Speaker 2: and my stuffed animals, and I would get like food 225 00:14:30,680 --> 00:14:36,640 Speaker 2: and drink and books and like my diary, and I 226 00:14:36,640 --> 00:14:39,800 Speaker 2: would go into a cupboard in the laundry room and 227 00:14:39,880 --> 00:14:43,640 Speaker 2: I'd be like, I was always very respectful, So I 228 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:45,600 Speaker 2: would never tell my parents like I hate that we 229 00:14:45,680 --> 00:14:48,160 Speaker 2: have this like big house, and I hate that we 230 00:14:48,200 --> 00:14:51,000 Speaker 2: have this big these big lives, and it's really hard 231 00:14:51,040 --> 00:14:53,760 Speaker 2: for me. So I think keeping that repressed as a 232 00:14:53,760 --> 00:14:56,920 Speaker 2: little girl at like five and six and seven and eight, 233 00:14:57,000 --> 00:15:00,600 Speaker 2: and just kept going. But yeah, granted, our lifelaundry room 234 00:15:00,720 --> 00:15:03,320 Speaker 2: is like was bigger than like the size of my 235 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:08,360 Speaker 2: bedroom now, but it wasn't crazy thing. But like the cupboard, 236 00:15:08,640 --> 00:15:12,080 Speaker 2: it was large enough for me, as like a six 237 00:15:12,200 --> 00:15:15,360 Speaker 2: year old child to fully stand up in. But I 238 00:15:15,400 --> 00:15:17,640 Speaker 2: would go in there and like decorate and put stickers 239 00:15:17,680 --> 00:15:20,160 Speaker 2: on one of the cupboards in the laundry room and 240 00:15:20,280 --> 00:15:22,200 Speaker 2: take the rooms down and everything and be like, this 241 00:15:22,240 --> 00:15:24,240 Speaker 2: is my home. This is all I want, Like I 242 00:15:24,280 --> 00:15:27,400 Speaker 2: don't want this big house. And I was like, this 243 00:15:27,440 --> 00:15:31,120 Speaker 2: is where I feel coziest. And keep in mind, I 244 00:15:31,160 --> 00:15:34,640 Speaker 2: feel like now we're so forward thinkers. We're such forward thinkers, 245 00:15:35,360 --> 00:15:40,120 Speaker 2: especially with our children about you know, therapy and you know, 246 00:15:40,280 --> 00:15:45,040 Speaker 2: mental health awareness and conversations about emotions. Keep in mind, 247 00:15:45,040 --> 00:15:47,920 Speaker 2: I grew up in the seventies and it was no 248 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:50,960 Speaker 2: fault to my parents, but that just wasn't really talked about. 249 00:15:53,840 --> 00:15:56,640 Speaker 2: So as a child, you know, having these thoughts, it 250 00:15:56,720 --> 00:16:00,760 Speaker 2: wasn't like my parents weren't talking me through stuff. But 251 00:16:00,960 --> 00:16:04,120 Speaker 2: I never thought to communicate that to them. I never thought, 252 00:16:04,760 --> 00:16:06,960 Speaker 2: you know, and I'm sure they didn't think to communicate 253 00:16:07,040 --> 00:16:11,720 Speaker 2: it with me a child. So yeah, you can imagine 254 00:16:11,720 --> 00:16:14,120 Speaker 2: if I lived in a ten thousand square foot house 255 00:16:14,360 --> 00:16:17,080 Speaker 2: and was so shamed because of that that I wanted 256 00:16:17,120 --> 00:16:21,800 Speaker 2: to live in a cupboard in the laundry room. Imagine 257 00:16:21,800 --> 00:16:25,160 Speaker 2: what it was like when the world found out we 258 00:16:25,160 --> 00:16:27,960 Speaker 2: were building a house and moving into a fifty six 259 00:16:28,040 --> 00:16:32,000 Speaker 2: thousand square foot house. I think I just literally went 260 00:16:32,120 --> 00:16:36,920 Speaker 2: numb inside, and I don't know, just like shut off 261 00:16:36,960 --> 00:16:42,320 Speaker 2: that part of that connection with that house. And still 262 00:16:42,360 --> 00:16:45,760 Speaker 2: when my kids see pictures of it online, they're like, 263 00:16:46,160 --> 00:16:48,320 Speaker 2: is that the White House is that? They're like, what 264 00:16:48,560 --> 00:16:53,960 Speaker 2: is that? And I'm like, that's my family home. And 265 00:16:54,040 --> 00:16:55,560 Speaker 2: I still I look at it and I feel like 266 00:16:55,600 --> 00:16:58,560 Speaker 2: I have no real real connection to it. But I'm 267 00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:02,000 Speaker 2: sure it just lies beneath the emotions are there, and 268 00:17:02,040 --> 00:17:09,040 Speaker 2: it's just so strange to see it turning over to 269 00:17:09,200 --> 00:17:12,320 Speaker 2: new hands. Anyway, I always wish I could get one 270 00:17:12,359 --> 00:17:16,200 Speaker 2: more walk through it, but maybe the past is better 271 00:17:16,280 --> 00:17:20,240 Speaker 2: left in the past. So I wonder what they'll do 272 00:17:20,320 --> 00:17:24,600 Speaker 2: to it. I wonder how they'll redecorate it. I wonder 273 00:17:24,800 --> 00:17:27,600 Speaker 2: if they're well, they're having a nonprofit event I could 274 00:17:27,600 --> 00:17:31,040 Speaker 2: get an invitation one day. Remember when it was it 275 00:17:31,080 --> 00:17:33,960 Speaker 2: was all in the news that j Lo and Ben 276 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:36,159 Speaker 2: when they were together, they were going to possibly buy it. 277 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:39,640 Speaker 2: Do you remember this, Yeah, and they had looked at it. 278 00:17:40,720 --> 00:17:42,840 Speaker 2: That would have been fun, But like, what did they 279 00:17:42,920 --> 00:17:46,600 Speaker 2: need the house that size for? What does anyone need 280 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:52,879 Speaker 2: house that size for kids? I mean except between my 281 00:17:52,960 --> 00:17:57,320 Speaker 2: brother and I we have seven kids as grown adults 282 00:17:57,359 --> 00:18:03,160 Speaker 2: will be grandparents to multiple generations grandkids and great grandkids hopefully, 283 00:18:03,840 --> 00:18:07,680 Speaker 2: and we could have used that. It could have been 284 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:12,159 Speaker 2: like I mean, honestly, I would say it should be 285 00:18:12,160 --> 00:18:14,919 Speaker 2: like a bet. I always wanted it to be like 286 00:18:14,920 --> 00:18:16,840 Speaker 2: a bed and breakfast that my brother and I like 287 00:18:17,200 --> 00:18:19,440 Speaker 2: had together and then our kids could like stay there. 288 00:18:20,840 --> 00:18:22,720 Speaker 2: I don't know, it would have been nice. I want 289 00:18:22,720 --> 00:18:24,119 Speaker 2: to say it would have been nice to keep it 290 00:18:24,160 --> 00:18:28,439 Speaker 2: in the family, but again, it's not something that I 291 00:18:28,480 --> 00:18:33,280 Speaker 2: feel represents our family. Like my childhood home. I would 292 00:18:33,320 --> 00:18:37,000 Speaker 2: love like if my brother and I still had that 293 00:18:37,119 --> 00:18:39,400 Speaker 2: and keep it in the family, and because that's where 294 00:18:39,400 --> 00:18:42,639 Speaker 2: all the memories are. It's so rare in life. I'm 295 00:18:42,680 --> 00:18:46,760 Speaker 2: always curious about people that say, you know, the stories 296 00:18:46,760 --> 00:18:50,479 Speaker 2: that people are like, Okay, later in life, like their family, 297 00:18:50,720 --> 00:18:53,560 Speaker 2: they kept the family home in the family and then 298 00:18:53,720 --> 00:18:57,520 Speaker 2: when people passed away, it got handed down and they 299 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:59,440 Speaker 2: kind of moved their own family in there and make 300 00:18:59,480 --> 00:19:02,440 Speaker 2: new memory. I'm always curious about people who are like, oh, 301 00:19:02,480 --> 00:19:05,600 Speaker 2: I still live in my family home, like my mom 302 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:09,960 Speaker 2: dad passed away and then we kept it. I'm always curious, 303 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:13,359 Speaker 2: like what happens, like because you have such memories of 304 00:19:13,440 --> 00:19:15,720 Speaker 2: being a kid there, They're like, then you have to 305 00:19:15,800 --> 00:19:19,000 Speaker 2: shift gears to being an adult there. I don't know. 306 00:19:19,080 --> 00:19:22,480 Speaker 2: The pool house alone in that property is bigger than 307 00:19:22,640 --> 00:19:25,679 Speaker 2: my own house, so that I could have easily my 308 00:19:25,680 --> 00:19:27,199 Speaker 2: my five kids and I could have lived in the 309 00:19:27,440 --> 00:19:33,240 Speaker 2: house alone, been very, very happy. We could have been squatters. 310 00:19:33,320 --> 00:19:37,000 Speaker 2: It was on the market for a long time. I've 311 00:19:37,040 --> 00:19:41,280 Speaker 2: seen horror films. What are they called froggers. Have you 312 00:19:41,280 --> 00:19:49,520 Speaker 2: heard of this? No? Oh, that's right, Damn. We had 313 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:56,040 Speaker 2: so much in common till that froggers. I believe maybe 314 00:19:56,800 --> 00:19:58,680 Speaker 2: this is not a real thing, Like if you have 315 00:19:58,720 --> 00:20:02,080 Speaker 2: an attic space or something like people live there, they 316 00:20:02,080 --> 00:20:07,520 Speaker 2: break in and live there and while you're living in 317 00:20:07,560 --> 00:20:14,280 Speaker 2: the house. Nope, never am I making this up? No, 318 00:20:14,359 --> 00:20:16,560 Speaker 2: but I'm saying nope, like, I don't want any part 319 00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:21,720 Speaker 2: of that. What are froggers that live in your house? Frogging? 320 00:20:21,840 --> 00:20:28,080 Speaker 2: It's p hrgg i g when someone secretly lives in 321 00:20:28,119 --> 00:20:31,080 Speaker 2: your attic without your knowledge. Yeah. This term refers to 322 00:20:31,080 --> 00:20:33,439 Speaker 2: the act of someone living in a house without the 323 00:20:33,440 --> 00:20:37,120 Speaker 2: homeowner's consent or knowledge, often in hidden spaces like addicts, 324 00:20:37,200 --> 00:20:40,200 Speaker 2: crawl spaces, or even basements. The term is thought to 325 00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:43,320 Speaker 2: originate from the idea of a person leaping from space 326 00:20:43,800 --> 00:20:48,800 Speaker 2: to space like a frog, potentially to avoid detection. So 327 00:20:48,840 --> 00:20:50,480 Speaker 2: if you didn't know about it, I'd scare the shit 328 00:20:50,520 --> 00:20:52,960 Speaker 2: out of everybody out there, because if you have any 329 00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:56,560 Speaker 2: type of attict space or something, it could be a 330 00:20:56,560 --> 00:21:04,400 Speaker 2: frogger living in it. Sorry anyway, my point being, oh 331 00:21:04,440 --> 00:21:06,639 Speaker 2: my gosh, if someone lived in the attic of the 332 00:21:06,720 --> 00:21:13,520 Speaker 2: manor the attic was my mom had like a beauty 333 00:21:13,520 --> 00:21:16,080 Speaker 2: salon up there, but not really a beauty salon. My 334 00:21:16,200 --> 00:21:20,000 Speaker 2: dad would always go to the barber, but as he 335 00:21:20,040 --> 00:21:21,840 Speaker 2: got older or have the barber come to him and 336 00:21:21,880 --> 00:21:26,600 Speaker 2: just cut his hair in his bathroom. But she put 337 00:21:26,680 --> 00:21:30,480 Speaker 2: up a salon up there with like a hair like 338 00:21:31,320 --> 00:21:35,040 Speaker 2: washing bowl, everything like a stand like to like you 339 00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:37,040 Speaker 2: would go to a beauty salon and you're at like 340 00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:39,600 Speaker 2: a station. She put like two stations in there. One 341 00:21:39,600 --> 00:21:41,399 Speaker 2: and half was like the barbershop. One was the beauty 342 00:21:41,400 --> 00:21:44,159 Speaker 2: salon for her, and that was up in what you 343 00:21:44,200 --> 00:21:46,720 Speaker 2: would call an attic. But literally the attic didn't look 344 00:21:46,760 --> 00:21:49,520 Speaker 2: like the addict, you know, it was like pallacious, I 345 00:21:49,560 --> 00:21:53,040 Speaker 2: want to say, like, oh my gosh. The square footage 346 00:21:53,040 --> 00:21:55,679 Speaker 2: had to have been I mean, it's the length of 347 00:21:55,720 --> 00:21:58,199 Speaker 2: the house, but it was like the third floor and 348 00:21:58,240 --> 00:22:00,360 Speaker 2: our basement was in a basement. The base is where 349 00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:03,439 Speaker 2: we had the bowling alley and the arcade and the 350 00:22:03,440 --> 00:22:07,920 Speaker 2: doll museum and the gym and the bar and recreation room. 351 00:22:08,680 --> 00:22:13,320 Speaker 2: So we technically didn't have like like in the the 352 00:22:13,359 --> 00:22:17,440 Speaker 2: mechanics of the house, like you know what am I 353 00:22:17,440 --> 00:22:21,080 Speaker 2: talking about, Like the air conditioning unit and the air filters. 354 00:22:21,119 --> 00:22:24,080 Speaker 2: Like everything was like in the behind the scenes of 355 00:22:24,480 --> 00:22:26,879 Speaker 2: the manor. So you would like push a wall in 356 00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:29,320 Speaker 2: one room, which was the bowling alley, and you would 357 00:22:29,359 --> 00:22:32,359 Speaker 2: go into like hallways behind the scenes where all the 358 00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:35,119 Speaker 2: power stuff was and like everything that made the manner 359 00:22:35,840 --> 00:22:38,600 Speaker 2: light up and have power, and then you would come 360 00:22:38,600 --> 00:22:41,240 Speaker 2: down the other side in the Doll Museum, like a 361 00:22:41,320 --> 00:22:46,000 Speaker 2: hidden passageway got him. I'm like creeping myself out now 362 00:22:46,000 --> 00:22:48,280 Speaker 2: telling these stories. But it wasn't creepy. It was like 363 00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:52,359 Speaker 2: fun and friends were really impressed, were really excited, and 364 00:22:52,440 --> 00:22:57,720 Speaker 2: I was always like, oh god, no. But anyway, froggers, 365 00:22:57,760 --> 00:22:59,800 Speaker 2: if you lived in an attic at the Manor, you 366 00:23:00,200 --> 00:23:02,000 Speaker 2: have literally it had to have been at least ten 367 00:23:02,040 --> 00:23:07,000 Speaker 2: thousand square feet or more, so you could have literally 368 00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:12,399 Speaker 2: a huge home. You could have like two families lived there. Okay, 369 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:19,000 Speaker 2: that's my view on the Manor five ninety four. And 370 00:23:19,040 --> 00:23:22,080 Speaker 2: my mom always had like stationery that would say like 371 00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:25,520 Speaker 2: all the heads of the sorry, all the notepads. The 372 00:23:25,560 --> 00:23:29,920 Speaker 2: header would say the Manor and property of the Manor 373 00:23:30,119 --> 00:23:34,720 Speaker 2: like pens and everything, all that stuff that like hotels 374 00:23:34,760 --> 00:23:38,000 Speaker 2: would have, but kind of we had that. That's so wild. 375 00:23:38,240 --> 00:23:40,480 Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, I wish I had some of those saved. 376 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:44,960 Speaker 2: I love that. Yeah, it was pretty cool. I mean 377 00:23:45,000 --> 00:23:48,080 Speaker 2: think about it. It was the size bigger than hotels anywhere. 378 00:23:48,119 --> 00:23:51,040 Speaker 2: Like you had to have some like wink wink nod nod, 379 00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:56,399 Speaker 2: like kind of fun gesture about like I have the 380 00:23:55,960 --> 00:24:02,000 Speaker 2: biggest at the time single family residence anywhere. It's being 381 00:24:02,160 --> 00:24:05,800 Speaker 2: compared to the taj Mahal on Google, Like, oh my god, 382 00:24:07,760 --> 00:24:09,080 Speaker 2: I feel like I read that it was bigger than 383 00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:10,720 Speaker 2: the taj Ma Hall. But I could be I read 384 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:15,720 Speaker 2: that too, and my brain always trying to like apologize 385 00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:18,760 Speaker 2: for growing up with wealth. I read that too, and 386 00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:22,119 Speaker 2: instead of saying it was even bigger than the taj Mahll, 387 00:24:22,200 --> 00:24:24,280 Speaker 2: I couldn't even say that. So I said the size 388 00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:27,919 Speaker 2: of the taj Mahll. Fine, they say it was bigger. 389 00:24:28,119 --> 00:24:32,119 Speaker 2: Oh what wild what a wild ride life is? 390 00:24:34,880 --> 00:24:36,840 Speaker 1: Did you watch the video to see what it looks like? 391 00:24:38,400 --> 00:24:40,680 Speaker 2: No, I can't open and wait to hold them. 392 00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:43,399 Speaker 1: Welcome to the Manor, one of the finest estates in 393 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:46,440 Speaker 1: Los Angeles is over fifty six thousand square feet. 394 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:47,480 Speaker 2: That's where I got married. 395 00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:52,600 Speaker 1: The White House close that offers fourteen bedrooms twenty seven 396 00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:56,040 Speaker 1: bathrooms on four point six acres all. This is on 397 00:24:56,080 --> 00:25:00,280 Speaker 1: the market for one hundred and sixty five million dollars. 398 00:25:04,760 --> 00:25:07,520 Speaker 1: This is the foyer of the Manor. The ceilings are 399 00:25:07,560 --> 00:25:11,119 Speaker 1: thirty feet high. It has a double staircase, very grand. 400 00:25:11,240 --> 00:25:13,960 Speaker 1: The chandelier has a mechanism that raises and lowers it 401 00:25:14,480 --> 00:25:18,640 Speaker 1: and the staircase railing is a one continuous piece hand 402 00:25:18,680 --> 00:25:21,600 Speaker 1: forged in Texas. It is legendary in the city. It 403 00:25:21,680 --> 00:25:24,520 Speaker 1: is the most important entry hall by far, and it 404 00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:26,760 Speaker 1: is a site to behold. The manner was built in 405 00:25:26,760 --> 00:25:29,880 Speaker 1: the style of a French chateau, with many details from 406 00:25:29,880 --> 00:25:31,720 Speaker 1: that period, including. 407 00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:34,479 Speaker 2: The lions out front of day Lackerism flat. 408 00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:37,760 Speaker 1: The manor was built on the former estate of Big Crosby. 409 00:25:38,359 --> 00:25:41,200 Speaker 1: Aaron and Candy Spelling tore the house down to build 410 00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,040 Speaker 1: their dream vision, a family home that would be cherished 411 00:25:44,040 --> 00:25:47,520 Speaker 1: for them and for other generations. It took seven years 412 00:25:47,800 --> 00:25:49,560 Speaker 1: and one hundred and fifty workers every day. 413 00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:55,520 Speaker 2: Oh that part made me sad that he said, like 414 00:25:55,600 --> 00:26:02,960 Speaker 2: their dream vision, first family home for many generations to come, 415 00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:10,680 Speaker 2: that didn't happen. It looks nice. I think that's the design. 416 00:26:10,960 --> 00:26:15,239 Speaker 2: Like the renovation, not renovation, but like the home deke Hoar. 417 00:26:15,320 --> 00:26:21,119 Speaker 2: Inside is what the Eggosteines did before. Definitely modernized it 418 00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:23,840 Speaker 2: a bit. It did. It did look a little more 419 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:28,280 Speaker 2: like Homie like cozy. The foyer was changed. The foye 420 00:26:28,359 --> 00:26:31,480 Speaker 2: is exactly the way my mom built it, except it 421 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:36,040 Speaker 2: was like a brass I think the chandelier I believe 422 00:26:36,119 --> 00:26:37,600 Speaker 2: is the same. My mom had that put in and 423 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,560 Speaker 2: it did like you could push a button and it 424 00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:42,320 Speaker 2: would come down so that they could clean all the crystals. 425 00:26:42,880 --> 00:26:44,879 Speaker 2: You push a button, it would raise back up because 426 00:26:46,760 --> 00:26:50,119 Speaker 2: thirty feet what do you say, thirty feet dolls ceilings 427 00:26:50,160 --> 00:26:55,159 Speaker 2: and thirty foot dolls. Wow. But that staircase, I remember 428 00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:59,720 Speaker 2: asking her once because it was this double entryway Foye staircase, 429 00:27:00,800 --> 00:27:03,720 Speaker 2: and it was so grand and it completely connected. So 430 00:27:03,760 --> 00:27:05,960 Speaker 2: you would go one side of the staircase and it 431 00:27:06,040 --> 00:27:08,440 Speaker 2: was like the little, you know, hallway. You would stand 432 00:27:08,480 --> 00:27:12,840 Speaker 2: looking over very like Romeo and Juliet, and then you 433 00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:14,840 Speaker 2: would go down the other side, so it was all 434 00:27:14,920 --> 00:27:22,560 Speaker 2: one continuous staircase. And I did ask her once why 435 00:27:22,640 --> 00:27:26,080 Speaker 2: such a big staircase, and she said, so when you 436 00:27:26,119 --> 00:27:29,800 Speaker 2: get married one day, you can walk down that staircase. 437 00:27:29,880 --> 00:27:32,320 Speaker 2: And I was like, oh, that's so romantic. But I 438 00:27:32,359 --> 00:27:35,920 Speaker 2: did actually get married there first to my first husband, 439 00:27:37,200 --> 00:27:39,760 Speaker 2: but we didn't walk down that staircase. We actually started 440 00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:45,119 Speaker 2: outside and my dad was old and sick by that point, 441 00:27:45,280 --> 00:27:47,639 Speaker 2: so he couldn't walk me that far. I was already 442 00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:51,000 Speaker 2: walking across the whole driveway. It was a long walk, 443 00:27:51,119 --> 00:27:53,639 Speaker 2: so maybe that's why we didn't come down the staircase. 444 00:27:54,560 --> 00:27:57,919 Speaker 2: And also that staircase like growing up spelling like my 445 00:27:58,080 --> 00:28:02,200 Speaker 2: dad his vision like Dinahs, that staircase reminded me of Dynasty, 446 00:28:02,359 --> 00:28:04,920 Speaker 2: which came before the Manner, So I'm like, oh my gosh, 447 00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:09,439 Speaker 2: I wonder if that was always the intention, like to 448 00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:23,760 Speaker 2: walk down that staircase. Very very fancy. I feel like 449 00:28:25,720 --> 00:28:29,040 Speaker 2: it's been so prevalent in the news about the Manner selling, 450 00:28:29,840 --> 00:28:33,600 Speaker 2: and everyone has asked me how I feel about it 451 00:28:33,760 --> 00:28:37,000 Speaker 2: that I just I don't know, like I said, shut 452 00:28:37,040 --> 00:28:41,840 Speaker 2: down on it, and I thought, well, it's probably interesting 453 00:28:41,880 --> 00:28:43,840 Speaker 2: for people to hear my thoughts on how I feel 454 00:28:43,840 --> 00:28:47,480 Speaker 2: about it selling. So I decided to do this episode 455 00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:51,120 Speaker 2: on it. Didn't read any of the information except that, 456 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:52,920 Speaker 2: you know, I knew the head of Google bought it 457 00:28:54,240 --> 00:28:58,120 Speaker 2: until I started this podcast today, and I just wanted 458 00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:01,360 Speaker 2: to be raw and kind of whatever came up. You know, 459 00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:05,480 Speaker 2: me never at a loss for gab, Like I can 460 00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:08,640 Speaker 2: talk and talk and talk, and like I've said, this 461 00:29:09,080 --> 00:29:14,240 Speaker 2: episode might seem a little scattered, but it's because I 462 00:29:14,280 --> 00:29:16,120 Speaker 2: always have something to talk about, and I could talk 463 00:29:16,120 --> 00:29:19,200 Speaker 2: about anything, and I never shy away from any topic, 464 00:29:19,320 --> 00:29:24,640 Speaker 2: as you guys know, and this one, as as it's 465 00:29:24,720 --> 00:29:28,560 Speaker 2: unfolded right now in the last hour, been very hard 466 00:29:28,600 --> 00:29:30,880 Speaker 2: for me to talk about. And like I said, it's 467 00:29:30,920 --> 00:29:33,240 Speaker 2: feeling like a weight on my chest and it's feeling 468 00:29:34,680 --> 00:29:38,840 Speaker 2: bringing up some sort of memories and emotions that I 469 00:29:38,880 --> 00:29:42,240 Speaker 2: am trying to access while keeping the ball rolling as 470 00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:47,240 Speaker 2: a host of this podcast. And it's conflicting because I 471 00:29:47,280 --> 00:29:50,040 Speaker 2: don't know what all these emotions are that are coming up. 472 00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:57,840 Speaker 2: I guess I should ask my therapist what this means. Oh, 473 00:29:57,880 --> 00:29:59,920 Speaker 2: I should bring around the show. We should talk about 474 00:30:00,120 --> 00:30:05,400 Speaker 2: the manner. But yeah, so I just wanted to say, 475 00:30:05,840 --> 00:30:07,760 Speaker 2: you're kind of getting me at my ross right now. 476 00:30:07,800 --> 00:30:11,160 Speaker 2: And this is the intimate Like I don't even have 477 00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:15,000 Speaker 2: any comedic things to say about it right now, but 478 00:30:15,360 --> 00:30:19,440 Speaker 2: it's definitely bringing up a lot of emotions. I think 479 00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:25,280 Speaker 2: there's a twofold thing coming to hand right now, to 480 00:30:25,400 --> 00:30:28,080 Speaker 2: head to hand to heart, to all of the above. 481 00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:33,800 Speaker 2: I did a TV series which was a single camera 482 00:30:34,760 --> 00:30:39,600 Speaker 2: sitcom which was loosely based on my life called So Notorious. 483 00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:46,480 Speaker 2: With it was an amazing show. It was It's okay 484 00:30:46,520 --> 00:30:50,320 Speaker 2: for me to say that, hey is the first time 485 00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:53,400 Speaker 2: in my life. I got critical acclaim from like people 486 00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:55,800 Speaker 2: out there, They're like, oh my gosh, And I knew 487 00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:57,880 Speaker 2: that was a kiss of death when everyone wrote, like 488 00:30:57,880 --> 00:31:02,760 Speaker 2: in the press, the was like critically acclaimed that I 489 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:05,680 Speaker 2: was actually good for ones, Like I should have known 490 00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:10,719 Speaker 2: it wasn't going to work. But that said, it was 491 00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:15,760 Speaker 2: me and Lannie Anderson and Zach Quinto and James Carbonello, 492 00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:21,840 Speaker 2: and it was and a wonderful cast, and it was 493 00:31:22,320 --> 00:31:27,280 Speaker 2: a really fun show because it was, while loosely based 494 00:31:27,320 --> 00:31:29,720 Speaker 2: on my life, it basically was a show that I 495 00:31:29,760 --> 00:31:33,080 Speaker 2: co created and the idea came from everyone had a 496 00:31:33,080 --> 00:31:35,240 Speaker 2: preconceived notion of me, of my life. And this took 497 00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:38,400 Speaker 2: place when I was in my late twenties. So at 498 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:40,560 Speaker 2: that time I was off nine o two and zero. 499 00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:43,000 Speaker 2: But you know, the press always had something to write 500 00:31:43,040 --> 00:31:44,960 Speaker 2: about me. The tabloid said something I'd write about me, 501 00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:48,240 Speaker 2: and this was my time to you know, I remember 502 00:31:48,560 --> 00:31:52,840 Speaker 2: my pitch was I took all the bad tabloid articles 503 00:31:52,880 --> 00:31:56,960 Speaker 2: about me, the crazy stuff written even and made a 504 00:31:56,960 --> 00:31:59,360 Speaker 2: little scrap book and I took that into pitch meetings 505 00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:03,440 Speaker 2: a T shirt with all the rumors about me and everything, 506 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:09,920 Speaker 2: and yeah, and I went in and said, I laughed 507 00:32:09,920 --> 00:32:12,360 Speaker 2: about it, and I said, here's everything. It was very 508 00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:17,960 Speaker 2: you know, relied on self deprecating humor and just kind 509 00:32:18,000 --> 00:32:21,720 Speaker 2: of if you can't beat them, join them. And the 510 00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:26,840 Speaker 2: show originally was created for NBC and the pilot didn't 511 00:32:26,840 --> 00:32:28,960 Speaker 2: get picked up there. We then took it to vh one, 512 00:32:29,520 --> 00:32:32,160 Speaker 2: where it went one season. But this was at a 513 00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:34,320 Speaker 2: time when they hadn't done scripted TV. It was all 514 00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:39,440 Speaker 2: unscripted reality and competition shows and the big big show 515 00:32:39,440 --> 00:32:43,600 Speaker 2: there was like Flavor of Love and you know, Finding 516 00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:45,800 Speaker 2: Love and all that. So it didn't quite work for 517 00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:48,840 Speaker 2: that audience, but I still stand by it was a 518 00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:53,440 Speaker 2: really fun show and really well received and a lot 519 00:32:53,480 --> 00:32:55,800 Speaker 2: of it took place. The reason I'm bringing this up 520 00:32:55,880 --> 00:33:00,040 Speaker 2: is we had a fictitious manner and a lot of 521 00:33:00,080 --> 00:33:02,560 Speaker 2: it was like the jokes of going We obviously couldn't 522 00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:07,479 Speaker 2: use the real manner, and you know, all names it 523 00:33:07,520 --> 00:33:10,040 Speaker 2: was loosely based on people that had been in my life, 524 00:33:10,400 --> 00:33:12,600 Speaker 2: but we changed all the names and we added different 525 00:33:12,640 --> 00:33:17,920 Speaker 2: qualities of you know, new characters. The only one that 526 00:33:18,040 --> 00:33:21,680 Speaker 2: was really real ish was me, you know, and I 527 00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:24,000 Speaker 2: played Tory Spelling. But it was like a heightened version, 528 00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:30,360 Speaker 2: a comedic version of everything, and you know, every joke 529 00:33:30,560 --> 00:33:33,280 Speaker 2: in the book, and then some about me making fun 530 00:33:33,320 --> 00:33:38,840 Speaker 2: of myself basically because everyone else does. And we had 531 00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:41,760 Speaker 2: to rent another house that was oddly enough, in the 532 00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:46,440 Speaker 2: same area as my parents' house. Couldn't quite get one 533 00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:51,000 Speaker 2: as big because it didn't exist, but we filmed there 534 00:33:51,120 --> 00:33:53,280 Speaker 2: and we filmed it as the manner and all that 535 00:33:53,440 --> 00:33:57,200 Speaker 2: and me getting lost in the house and my friends 536 00:33:57,200 --> 00:34:01,400 Speaker 2: couldn't find me, all those jokes. But it's just odd 537 00:34:01,480 --> 00:34:05,000 Speaker 2: timing that memories of that are coming up. And my 538 00:34:05,160 --> 00:34:09,719 Speaker 2: on camera mother, Lonnie Anderson, just passed away recently, so 539 00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:15,040 Speaker 2: it and she was so amazing and lovely and one 540 00:34:15,080 --> 00:34:18,319 Speaker 2: of those people that come into your life and we 541 00:34:18,480 --> 00:34:20,799 Speaker 2: didn't work together for that long, only for a year, 542 00:34:20,880 --> 00:34:25,040 Speaker 2: but she's someone who has stayed in my heart for 543 00:34:25,080 --> 00:34:30,080 Speaker 2: the rest of my life and really taught me so 544 00:34:30,239 --> 00:34:36,040 Speaker 2: much about a female in this business and on screen. 545 00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:40,680 Speaker 2: And you know, I was still the age at the 546 00:34:40,680 --> 00:34:43,680 Speaker 2: time and she had been you know, the Angeenu for 547 00:34:43,760 --> 00:34:46,000 Speaker 2: years and now it was a different time and place, 548 00:34:46,200 --> 00:34:48,759 Speaker 2: you know, playing an older woman on TV. And she 549 00:34:48,800 --> 00:34:51,480 Speaker 2: always taught me, you know, you don't need this now, 550 00:34:51,560 --> 00:34:53,759 Speaker 2: but lighting's going to be very important to you later 551 00:34:54,160 --> 00:34:56,960 Speaker 2: as an actress. Always have them light you from below. 552 00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:03,080 Speaker 2: I've never forgotten that. Yeah, And she just taught me 553 00:35:03,120 --> 00:35:06,400 Speaker 2: so much about being kind and humble, and she was 554 00:35:06,440 --> 00:35:11,160 Speaker 2: such a legend and a star and so and was 555 00:35:11,280 --> 00:35:14,480 Speaker 2: very formative in my life when I started my relationship 556 00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:17,080 Speaker 2: with Dean and when I became a mom for the 557 00:35:17,080 --> 00:35:20,080 Speaker 2: first time, and just one of those amazing humans that 558 00:35:20,239 --> 00:35:24,520 Speaker 2: just sticks with you and your soul forever. But it's 559 00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:29,560 Speaker 2: just the uncanny timing of she played my mom in 560 00:35:29,600 --> 00:35:35,920 Speaker 2: a fictitious world based on my life and her passing away, 561 00:35:36,120 --> 00:35:40,120 Speaker 2: and then like the keys of the kingdom changing hands, 562 00:35:40,239 --> 00:35:44,680 Speaker 2: the manner itself getting sold, and it's just now I'm 563 00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:47,080 Speaker 2: talking about my feelings of that, and it's just like, 564 00:35:47,239 --> 00:35:50,279 Speaker 2: oh my god, I can't find the words, and it's 565 00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:55,240 Speaker 2: just all like all coming into my being right now 566 00:35:55,480 --> 00:36:00,479 Speaker 2: of emotions of how I feel about everything. So it's 567 00:36:00,520 --> 00:36:05,279 Speaker 2: just bizarre timing, that's all. But yeah, so I just 568 00:36:05,280 --> 00:36:07,200 Speaker 2: want to say sorry, this episode might have seem a 569 00:36:07,200 --> 00:36:10,760 Speaker 2: little scattered, but this is how I feel, and I 570 00:36:10,800 --> 00:36:12,520 Speaker 2: feel like I want to do a deeper dive into 571 00:36:12,520 --> 00:36:16,040 Speaker 2: how I really feel about what others call my childhood 572 00:36:16,080 --> 00:36:20,720 Speaker 2: home because it would be interesting to figure out where 573 00:36:21,200 --> 00:36:24,240 Speaker 2: the repressed memories are and feelings that I'm obviously having 574 00:36:25,239 --> 00:36:28,239 Speaker 2: get to the bottom of that. So I guess, as 575 00:36:28,280 --> 00:36:30,440 Speaker 2: I'm trying to say, is I don't have an end 576 00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:36,000 Speaker 2: to this ending. I know there's a lot of finality 577 00:36:36,040 --> 00:36:40,640 Speaker 2: with this, but I guess I haven't found my finality 578 00:36:40,680 --> 00:36:47,440 Speaker 2: with this in my heart. So yeah, but you know me, 579 00:36:47,480 --> 00:36:49,799 Speaker 2: I always got to bring comedy into it. So I 580 00:36:49,800 --> 00:36:51,560 Speaker 2: guess when they say you can't ever go home again, 581 00:36:52,640 --> 00:36:54,800 Speaker 2: this is true. It just sold I really can't go 582 00:36:54,840 --> 00:37:01,719 Speaker 2: home now.