WEBVTT - SYSK's 2017 Super Spooktacular!

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, and welcome to the podcast. We need to come

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<v Speaker 1>up with those spooky Simpsons names. You know what they

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<v Speaker 1>do for a Treehouse of Horror every year. We just

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<v Speaker 1>have never done that, but so I guess this year again. Still,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just Josh Clark, and you're just Charles w Chuck Bryant,

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<v Speaker 1>and there's Jerry the murderous ghoul Roland. No, you're Josh

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<v Speaker 1>Spooky Clark and I'm Chuck. He's right behind you, Bryant. Nice.

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<v Speaker 1>That's good stuff, man, thanks for swooping in there. So

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<v Speaker 1>this is our Halloween Special, which we do every year

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<v Speaker 1>these days for those of you who aren't familiar but

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<v Speaker 1>who like horror fiction prepared to be delighted. Yeah, what

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<v Speaker 1>we do is, uh, we get together at a year

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<v Speaker 1>and we should point out this is one of two

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<v Speaker 1>ad free episodes we do every year, along with the

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<v Speaker 1>Christmas Holiday Spectacular. Uh. And you know we fight for

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<v Speaker 1>this every year because it would really ruin the vibe

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<v Speaker 1>of a good spooky story if we took a commercial break,

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<v Speaker 1>right yep. But it's our gift to your right. So

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<v Speaker 1>what we do is we read it used to be

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<v Speaker 1>one story. Sometimes we've fan sourced stories which was. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we had a whole horror fiction contest, which we will

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<v Speaker 1>never do again. No, it was a lot of work,

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<v Speaker 1>but it yielded some pretty great stuff. Yeah, and I

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<v Speaker 1>think last year we did the little uh two sentence

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<v Speaker 1>fans submitted things and that was kind of neat. But

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<v Speaker 1>this year we're going old school and just reading too

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<v Speaker 1>straight up horror fiction stories, one of which was written

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<v Speaker 1>expressly for us for this episode by our favorite writer

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<v Speaker 1>Ed Grabowski. Yes, and we have a little a little

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<v Speaker 1>update till last year's story. So Ed wrote us a

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<v Speaker 1>story last year called extrane of Use Invocot, which was

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<v Speaker 1>great and terrifying. It was so terrifying, in fact, chuck

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<v Speaker 1>that over in the UK, a producer of films got

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<v Speaker 1>in touch with Ed and said, hey, mate, um, I

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<v Speaker 1>want to turn that story into a movie. What do

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<v Speaker 1>you say? He said, I'm not your mate, but sure, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's happening. That's I mean, how about that? Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>They set up a website for it called The Between

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<v Speaker 1>dot Film. That's the name of the movie, is The

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<v Speaker 1>Between and Now in the post dot com bubble days,

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<v Speaker 1>you can call your website dot anything. So again it's

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<v Speaker 1>the Between dot Film and it will give you some

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<v Speaker 1>information on the story. There's even a link to last

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<v Speaker 1>year's Halloween episode, so if you want to go listen

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<v Speaker 1>to it, go to that site and find it. And

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<v Speaker 1>they set up a crowdfunding um uh project to help

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<v Speaker 1>fund the project, and if you kick in you can

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<v Speaker 1>get things like obviously the movie when they complete it. Sure,

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<v Speaker 1>you can get signed scripts, even a credit in the movie.

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<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of stuff you can get that they're offering.

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<v Speaker 1>And the movie slated to come out February fourteen, two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand and eighteen as it stands right now. Man, that's great,

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<v Speaker 1>Like that's it's really on track to go. So um

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<v Speaker 1>things are coming up for the Grabster, and he gave

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<v Speaker 1>us another great story that I'm I would be surprised

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<v Speaker 1>if it doesn't get turned into a movie untially as well. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess that producer said, I love the story, but

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<v Speaker 1>that title's gotta go. Yeah, No one knows how to

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<v Speaker 1>say that. We're just gonna call it the Between. Cool title,

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<v Speaker 1>but the Between is definitely a little more marketable, and

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<v Speaker 1>I think in today's modern world than Latin. Yeah, we

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<v Speaker 1>ought to uh, we ought to get a kickback on that. Huh.

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<v Speaker 1>You know I didn't bring it up. I was hoping

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<v Speaker 1>he would, but he, uh, he hasn't so far. No,

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<v Speaker 1>we're happy to be de facto executive producers. Yeah, we

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<v Speaker 1>could also be facto though if they give us, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>credits in the in the film, maybe a special thanks

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<v Speaker 1>at the end. Yeah, playing money like I owe my

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<v Speaker 1>life to these guys. All right, yeah, all right, Well

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<v Speaker 1>you're ready to read his newest one, the Grabster's newest story.

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<v Speaker 1>That's right. It is called Gifts, not g I F

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<v Speaker 1>F S G I F T S. Right. That was

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<v Speaker 1>a good creepy t thank you. So we're gonna start,

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<v Speaker 1>and Jerry, as ever, is going to pull out all

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<v Speaker 1>the stops and add all the bells and whistles to

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<v Speaker 1>scare the Bejesus out of you while we're reading this. So,

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<v Speaker 1>without further ado, there's Gifts by the Grabster. I'm here

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<v Speaker 1>about the housekeeping job. I'm Marissa called earlier. I reached

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<v Speaker 1>out to shake the man's hand, but he kept his

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<v Speaker 1>face on the paperwork. He was shuffling, holding out an

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<v Speaker 1>up raised index finger in my direction. I returned my

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<v Speaker 1>hand to my side. Finally, he stacked the papers and

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<v Speaker 1>looked up at me. You'll want to speak to my wife.

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<v Speaker 1>Then she's handling those arrangements. She's gone to the market,

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<v Speaker 1>but should be back any moment. If you'd like to wait,

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<v Speaker 1>There's a sitting room at the top of the stairs.

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<v Speaker 1>He nodded briskly and moved on to some other towns.

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<v Speaker 1>A wide staircase of dark, varnished wood led to an

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<v Speaker 1>upstairs hallway running to my left and right. The ornate

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<v Speaker 1>wallpaper was striped by alternating shafts of shadow and sunlight

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<v Speaker 1>coming through open doors, except at one end of the hall.

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<v Speaker 1>There the doors were closed in the hallway and folded

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<v Speaker 1>in shadow. Directly ahead of me was an open archway

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<v Speaker 1>leading to the sitting room, a sunlit chamber with a fireplace,

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<v Speaker 1>a number of well crafted but time worn leather chairs,

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<v Speaker 1>a row of bookshelves stacked with volumes, and a small

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<v Speaker 1>table set up for a game of chess. A young

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<v Speaker 1>boy roughly six years old was sitting in one of

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<v Speaker 1>the chairs, a large book spread out in his lap.

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<v Speaker 1>He looked up as I entered. Hello, he said, are

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<v Speaker 1>you a guest? No? I told him I've come about

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<v Speaker 1>the housekeeping job. Do you mind a little company I've

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<v Speaker 1>got to wait for your mother. Okay, his smile brighton.

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<v Speaker 1>It'll be good to have someone to help again. Mom

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<v Speaker 1>gets stressed when she has to do it all herself,

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<v Speaker 1>along with the shopping and everything. My name is Robert,

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<v Speaker 1>but everyone calls me Bobby. My name is Marissa. What's

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<v Speaker 1>that you're reading? Bobby? He tilted the book up so

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<v Speaker 1>I could see the title A sign on Rosie's door.

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<v Speaker 1>What's it about a girl who becomes someone else and

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<v Speaker 1>takes her friends on adventures? I had an adventure this week.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you want to see what I found? Without waiting

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<v Speaker 1>for me to answer, he hopped off the chair, setting

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<v Speaker 1>the book down behind him, and ran past me through

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<v Speaker 1>the archway into the hall on his short legs. Don't

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<v Speaker 1>follow him, I turned to follow, seeing him head off

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<v Speaker 1>down the brighter half of the corridor. It's in my room,

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<v Speaker 1>he called out, then disappeared into one of the open doorways.

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<v Speaker 1>By the time I got there, he was crawling underneath

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<v Speaker 1>the bed. It was clearly his room, decorated with racing

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<v Speaker 1>cars and car tune characters. He emerged clutching would appeared

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<v Speaker 1>to be a pillow. I had a dream the other

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<v Speaker 1>night that I was in the dark, and no matter

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<v Speaker 1>where I crawled around, I couldn't get out of the dark.

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<v Speaker 1>It was cool inside wherever I was, but so dark,

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<v Speaker 1>so black, I couldn't see anything. When I woke up,

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<v Speaker 1>I was holding this. He held the pillow out to me.

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<v Speaker 1>It was oddly shaped, more narrow than the usual pillow,

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<v Speaker 1>and it was made of white satin, with a satin

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<v Speaker 1>ruffle around the edge. I took it and held it up,

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<v Speaker 1>humoring the child's tall tail. But I noticed the pillow

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<v Speaker 1>was stained in the center, a yellowish brown mark in

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<v Speaker 1>a rough oval shape. That's when I realized what it was.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a pillow from a burial casket. Bobby, where

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<v Speaker 1>did you get this? I tried to keep from sounding alarmed.

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<v Speaker 1>When I woke from my dream, I was lying on

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<v Speaker 1>top of it, holding it with both arms. He gave

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<v Speaker 1>it to me. I heard footsteps coming down the hall

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<v Speaker 1>behind me and turned to see a small framed woman

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<v Speaker 1>with graying black hair striding towards me. I handed the

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<v Speaker 1>pillow back to Bobby ms leventus. She said yes. I

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<v Speaker 1>stuck out my hand again, this time getting a soft

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<v Speaker 1>handshake in return. Bobby's been showing me around. I looked

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<v Speaker 1>back at the child who sat on the edge of

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<v Speaker 1>his bed smiling, the pillow nowhere to be seen. All right,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't like the sounds of Bobby. Uh No, not

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<v Speaker 1>with this little burial casket stained pillow or his short,

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<v Speaker 1>stubby legs, which is creepy all by itself. I got

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<v Speaker 1>the job, That's great. My husband didn't exactly sound joyful

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<v Speaker 1>at the news. To be honest, neither did I. Working

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<v Speaker 1>at Shipped in Grains Hotel for the summer was a

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<v Speaker 1>necessity and something of a hardship. The hotel was two

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<v Speaker 1>hundred miles away from our home, and I'd only be

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<v Speaker 1>able to afford the train back to visit once or

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<v Speaker 1>twice a week in the four months i'd be working there.

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<v Speaker 1>But times are hard for everyone, and most had it

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<v Speaker 1>harder than us. Still, knowing this meant I'd be apart

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<v Speaker 1>from John for the entire summer tempered my enthusiasm, and

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<v Speaker 1>I could hear in his voice, even over the phone line,

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<v Speaker 1>more relief and weariness than glee. We sure needed. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a nice place, old kind of fussy. Mrs Taggart is nice,

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<v Speaker 1>and the young boy Bobby is I paused about to say,

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<v Speaker 1>he's a bit odd, but it felt like gossiping about

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<v Speaker 1>a child, so I told John. He's very inquisitive, but

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't what I meant. It's a lot for you

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<v Speaker 1>to do this, John said, that will help in the

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<v Speaker 1>long run. It's hard to be a part though. I

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<v Speaker 1>love you Mayor, I smiled, looking out the window at

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<v Speaker 1>the tidy gardens in front of shipped and Grange, dissolving

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<v Speaker 1>into shadows as twilight set in. I love you too, John.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad you got that sappy party. Don't worry about Bobby.

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<v Speaker 1>Mrs Tiggert was walking me through the hotel, showing me

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<v Speaker 1>what my duties would include, in which room I'd be

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<v Speaker 1>staying in on the ground floor near the kitchen. She

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<v Speaker 1>stopped awkwardly, placing a hand at my elbow. His imagination

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<v Speaker 1>is a new usual at times, but he's a kind boy,

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<v Speaker 1>he really is, which was true. I think he never

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<v Speaker 1>showed me the funeral pillow again. And Bobby would often

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<v Speaker 1>appear around a corner at the doorway of a room

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<v Speaker 1>I was cleaning, clutching something odd. He was so eager

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<v Speaker 1>to show me and didn't seem to have other friends,

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<v Speaker 1>so I let him linger around while I worked In truth,

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<v Speaker 1>he was more pleasant company than either of his parents,

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<v Speaker 1>whom I found stiff and formal. They rarely spoke to

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<v Speaker 1>me at all about anything not directly related to my job.

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<v Speaker 1>This was under my hat when I took it off

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<v Speaker 1>this morning, Bobby said. One afternoon, he held out a

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<v Speaker 1>small pile of coins, worn and blackened with age Latin

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<v Speaker 1>writing barely legible on the faces. Those must be terribly valuable.

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<v Speaker 1>I said, Oh, I can't sell them. His face was

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<v Speaker 1>very serious. Mr. Sorrow says their mind to keep children

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<v Speaker 1>have their flights of fancy and imaginary friends, especially child

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<v Speaker 1>free to rome in old the state, like shipped in Grange.

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<v Speaker 1>But when Bobby said that name, I felt something on

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<v Speaker 1>the back of my neck, like a kiss that barely

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<v Speaker 1>grazes the skin. Mr Sorrow. My voice was just a whisper. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>Bobby Grint, he's very tall. We were in room thirty three,

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<v Speaker 1>which was named the uttermost End, being the last room

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<v Speaker 1>at the end of the longest third floor corridor. The

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<v Speaker 1>light was always bad in that room. The whole section

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<v Speaker 1>of corridor had a dim greenish quality to it. It

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't simply that the light was insufficient, but rather that

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<v Speaker 1>it felt incorrect. The shadows fell at the wrong angles,

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<v Speaker 1>and the sun, when seen reflecting on a window pane

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<v Speaker 1>or crystal decanter, appeared as a dull orange hole board

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<v Speaker 1>into the sky. As we spoke, Bobby's shadow seemed to

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<v Speaker 1>stretch to reach across the room, as if to unfold me.

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<v Speaker 1>He closed a small fist around the coins and ran off.

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<v Speaker 1>The deep, disconcerting shadows remained. I remade the bed covers

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<v Speaker 1>quickly and hurried to leave. No one had stayed in

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<v Speaker 1>the the Most End in the time I've been working

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<v Speaker 1>at Shifting Grange. Maybe it's because they called it the

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<v Speaker 1>uttermost End. It's not the best name for a room.

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<v Speaker 1>They're like, you'll like it. The lighting is incorrect. Even

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<v Speaker 1>Mary and Joseph would have been like, that's okay, we'll

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<v Speaker 1>go out into the manger. You just keep that. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't like the sounds of Mr Sorrow either. By the way,

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<v Speaker 1>I woke up with hands on my throat this morning.

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<v Speaker 1>John said, ice cold. What did someone break in? There

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<v Speaker 1>was no one there. It must have been a nightmare.

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<v Speaker 1>My heart was racing, though, I'd imagine, so check the

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<v Speaker 1>windows around the house before bed tonight, then just to

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<v Speaker 1>humor me, I will. I think I'll sleep like a

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<v Speaker 1>stone tonight. We've fallen behind on orders at the plant,

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<v Speaker 1>and machine four went down again. I'm pulling my hair out.

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<v Speaker 1>John hung up the phone on his end, and I

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<v Speaker 1>listened to the silence on the line for a while,

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<v Speaker 1>the hum and whisper of currents and the echoes of

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<v Speaker 1>a thousand voices. Later that week, I was cleaning the

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<v Speaker 1>main dining room, Bobby playing at the table behind me

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<v Speaker 1>with some wooden army men he'd found in the attic.

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<v Speaker 1>The clatter of his toys had fallen silent, but I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't notice until Missus Tagger walked in. She looked at me,

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<v Speaker 1>then her gaze moved behind me, her eyes widening Bobby.

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<v Speaker 1>She hissed quietly. I turned to see Bobby standing very

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<v Speaker 1>close behind me, clutching in his hand a gleaming steel blade.

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<v Speaker 1>Is that from the kitchen, Mrs Taggart said. Bobby's face

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<v Speaker 1>turned sullen. No. He dropped the knife, climbing to the

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<v Speaker 1>floor and ran from the room. Mrs Taggert collected the blade,

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<v Speaker 1>turning it over in her hands. It appeared to be

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<v Speaker 1>finally made, though it for a dark stain she carried

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<v Speaker 1>it straight out to the trash bins in the rear yard.

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<v Speaker 1>That boy ain't right, you know. That's the that's the

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<v Speaker 1>turning point right there. In midsummer, the weather grew hot

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<v Speaker 1>and close, but shade trees and thick walls kept the

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<v Speaker 1>oldest state quite cool. John and I still spoke on

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<v Speaker 1>the phone every night, and I plan to return home

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<v Speaker 1>for a weekend in just two weeks. It was nearly

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<v Speaker 1>all I could think about at night. I would lie

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<v Speaker 1>in bed, waiting for sleep, trying to slow my breathing,

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<v Speaker 1>taking in the sugar sweet smell from the elder shrubs

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<v Speaker 1>growing all around the open window. I'd often awakened hours later,

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<v Speaker 1>staring into the blind darkness of a strange room in

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<v Speaker 1>a strange town, and feel the weight of loneliness settle

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<v Speaker 1>on my chest like a stone. In those moments, soft

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<v Speaker 1>fingers of shadow would trace my jawline and collar bone

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<v Speaker 1>with the familiarity of a lover, and I spoke to

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<v Speaker 1>voices I could barely hear. One evening, after completing my

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<v Speaker 1>work for the day, I found Bobby rolling a small

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<v Speaker 1>rubber ball slowly up and down the upstairs hallway. Would

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<v Speaker 1>you like to play catch, I said. His face lit

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<v Speaker 1>up with delight, and he took up a position ten

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<v Speaker 1>meters down the hall from me. It's Canadian. We rolled

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<v Speaker 1>and bounced the ball back and forth for some time,

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<v Speaker 1>Bobby letting out the first really genuine laughter I'd heard

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<v Speaker 1>from him. My back was to the long, dim expanse

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<v Speaker 1>of the corridor leading to the uttermost end, but I

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<v Speaker 1>hadn't really thought about it until the door to one

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<v Speaker 1>of the other rooms just behind me slowly opened. I

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<v Speaker 1>saw it swing open from the corner of my eye

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<v Speaker 1>Room twenty seven, the Prince's chamber. I watched the gaping

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<v Speaker 1>doorway for a moment. When no one emerged, I called

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<v Speaker 1>out missus Taggart. There was no reply, but Bobby giggled

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<v Speaker 1>behind me and the ball rolled slowly past me, coming

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<v Speaker 1>to a stop in front of Room twenty seven. I

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<v Speaker 1>crept forward to retrieve it. Crouching to pick up the ball.

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<v Speaker 1>As I stooped in front of the empty, darkened room,

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<v Speaker 1>I was engulfed in a frigid chill. I stuffed my

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<v Speaker 1>hands into my pockets and returned to Bobby. With my

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<v Speaker 1>right hand, I tossed the ball. When I pulled my

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<v Speaker 1>left hand from my pocket. I realized I was holding something.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a pair of scissors. The orange plastic candle

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<v Speaker 1>had been melted and blackened by fire. The blades were

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<v Speaker 1>clean and sharp. I've never seen them before. Oh man.

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<v Speaker 1>The next day I was cleaning the dust from beneath

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<v Speaker 1>one of the guest beds. I like how Ed brings

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<v Speaker 1>us along on the cleaning. Oh yeah, just keep us

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<v Speaker 1>up to date. The next day, I was cleaning the

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<v Speaker 1>dust from beneath one of the guest beds, and as

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<v Speaker 1>I reached for the rag i'd set down, something else

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<v Speaker 1>materialized in my hand. I don't mean to say that

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<v Speaker 1>I reached out and grasped an object. I mean that

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<v Speaker 1>my empty hand suddenly and inexplicably had something in it.

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<v Speaker 1>It had a dry, papery feel, and drawing my hand

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<v Speaker 1>out from under the bed, I saw that it was

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<v Speaker 1>an old scrap of newspaper. There was no date on it,

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<v Speaker 1>as the top edge was torn and nothing on it

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<v Speaker 1>seemed to be of any significance. Advertisements for a furniture

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<v Speaker 1>shop in an article about a winter storm. In the

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<v Speaker 1>center of the paper, a hole had been torn through.

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<v Speaker 1>Looking more closely, I could see that it was actually

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<v Speaker 1>a bite mark. Someone had showed through the center of

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<v Speaker 1>a piece of old newspaper. Mr Sorrow is giving gifts

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<v Speaker 1>to you now, Miss Marissa. It was Bobby in the doorway,

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<v Speaker 1>dark circles under his eyes. He stood and watched me

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<v Speaker 1>for an uncomfortably long time. I threw the newspaper away.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh boy, I'm getting creeped out here. Just one more

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<v Speaker 1>week until I can see you again. I know, I

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<v Speaker 1>really can't wait. I've got a nice dinner plan and

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<v Speaker 1>we can walk down by the star set like we

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<v Speaker 1>used to. The water is so green this time of year.

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<v Speaker 1>There was the joy that had been missing from John's

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<v Speaker 1>voice earlier in the summer, and I'll confess it made

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<v Speaker 1>my heart swell to hear it. That sounds wonderful. Are

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<v Speaker 1>things getting better at the factory a bit? I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>sleeping well, though, John said. I guess it's just that

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<v Speaker 1>the house feels empty without you here. I'm consistently awakened

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<v Speaker 1>in the middle of the night by the feeling of

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<v Speaker 1>someone lying in the bed beside me. But of course

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<v Speaker 1>there's no one there. Someone will be there soon enough.

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<v Speaker 1>I was trying to be reassuring, but it came out wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Me I mean, John laughed, of course you uh yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you better hope it's her, right, John, of course it's you.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, he sounds bully convinced. All right, let me

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<v Speaker 1>bring it home. Mm hmm. I was awakened by a scream.

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<v Speaker 1>Mrs Taggart was wailing, and I ran toward the sound,

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<v Speaker 1>groggy from sleep and stumbling over furniture in the darkness.

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<v Speaker 1>She was in Bobby's room. The bed was empty, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was crouched halfway out the open window. Bobby, she

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<v Speaker 1>cried out into the night. I stood there, halfway through

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<v Speaker 1>the door, stunned. The window opened via a hand crank,

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<v Speaker 1>The handle detached for safety, and the socket was too

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<v Speaker 1>high for Bobby to reach in any case. Mr Taggart

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<v Speaker 1>ran past me down the corridor, and I followed him

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<v Speaker 1>downstairs into the cool night air. Bobby was crumpled on

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<v Speaker 1>the lawn, his right folded under him, his face bloody,

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<v Speaker 1>but he was alive. He'll be all right. Mr Taggart

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<v Speaker 1>called up to his wife, who was still sobbing in

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<v Speaker 1>the window. Call for the doctor. Then Mrs Taggart shrieked,

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<v Speaker 1>glaring at me across the wide lawn. At that moment,

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<v Speaker 1>I noticed something in my hand, the hand crank for

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<v Speaker 1>the window. I stammered and dropped it. I was sound asleep,

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<v Speaker 1>I swear. I ran back into the house for the phone,

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<v Speaker 1>not thinking clearly, not knowing what to do. So I

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<v Speaker 1>rang John. I needed to hear his voice, mayor he

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<v Speaker 1>sounded sleepy. John. Something horrible happened. Bobby fell out the window,

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<v Speaker 1>but I had the crank to open it in my hand.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know how it got there, but I was asleep, John,

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<v Speaker 1>I was asleep. Calmed down, Love, take a breath and

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<v Speaker 1>explain it again. I don't really under. John's voice was

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<v Speaker 1>cut off by a sharp hitch in his breath, a

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<v Speaker 1>sort of short cough, John, John, are you there? The

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<v Speaker 1>only sound over the phone line was a soft, wet

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<v Speaker 1>whistling repeated in a slow rhythmic pattern. I felt something

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<v Speaker 1>in my hand just then, something warm like my fingers

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<v Speaker 1>were wrapped in hair, heavy weight dangling below on the phone.

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<v Speaker 1>The whistling sound faded to a low gurgle, and I screamed.

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<v Speaker 1>And I screamed while something hot and wet splashed onto

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<v Speaker 1>my legs and ran down my feet. But I refused

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<v Speaker 1>to look down. I refused to see what it was

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<v Speaker 1>in my hand, and the voice on the phone was

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<v Speaker 1>familiar and cold. It was not John, and I just screamed, Wow, boom,

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<v Speaker 1>holy cow. That is how it's done. If you're a

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<v Speaker 1>horror Somewhere in Canada, a microphone was just dropped. Where

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<v Speaker 1>did you go, Grabster? That was good stuff. Oh daddy,

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<v Speaker 1>that's a good one. I think that could would make

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<v Speaker 1>a at the very least of wonderful short film. Agreed. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>it's gonna be a tough one to follow. It's going

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<v Speaker 1>to take a literal horror classic to follow that one.

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<v Speaker 1>And we'll get to that right after our eight minute

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<v Speaker 1>commercial break. Hey we're back. Yes, we should set this

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<v Speaker 1>one up a little bit. It's called The Yellow Wallpaper

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<v Speaker 1>by Charlotte Perkins Gilman and it is one of our

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<v Speaker 1>classic old stories that we used to do some of

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<v Speaker 1>these and published first in New England magazine. And this

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<v Speaker 1>is um can only be considered early work of feminist literature.

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<v Speaker 1>And what it really is clearly is a statement on

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<v Speaker 1>the treatment of women at the time. You know, Oh yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>for sure, clearly, um. And it must have been when

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<v Speaker 1>was it originally published? This is very brave to have

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<v Speaker 1>published this because super brave. The author Charlotte Perkins Perkins

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<v Speaker 1>Gilman is definitely um almost poking fun at the status

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<v Speaker 1>quo between men and women UM at the time by

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<v Speaker 1>by making your character just so fully bought into it

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<v Speaker 1>that she's not even really questioning it at first. While

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<v Speaker 1>she's questioning it, you know what I'm saying. Yeah, she's

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<v Speaker 1>questioning the details, but not the structure that is giving

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<v Speaker 1>rise to the details. Yeah, and she's clearly not too

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<v Speaker 1>shy about making her statement. It's not you don't have

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<v Speaker 1>to read between too many lines, you know. I like

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<v Speaker 1>it to good story. And I believe this one's been

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<v Speaker 1>made into a movie on Netflix if I'm not miss

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<v Speaker 1>Oh really, I'm pretty sure I saw the Yellow Wallpaper

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<v Speaker 1>on Netflix. Yeah, alright, the yellow Wallpaper. Here we go.

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<v Speaker 1>It is very seldom that mere ordinary people like John

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<v Speaker 1>and myself secure ancestral halls for the summer, a colonial mansion,

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<v Speaker 1>hereditary estate. I would say, a haunted house, and reach

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<v Speaker 1>the height of romantic felicity. That would be asking too

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<v Speaker 1>much of fate. Still, I will proudly declare that there

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<v Speaker 1>is something queer about it. Else why should it be

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<v Speaker 1>let so cheaply? And why I have stood so long untenanted.

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<v Speaker 1>That's sort of a mouthful, huh, it really is. It's

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<v Speaker 1>a lul for no one rents this place. John laughs

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<v Speaker 1>at me, of course, but one expects that in marriage.

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<v Speaker 1>John is practical in the extreme. He has no patience

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<v Speaker 1>and faith, an intense horror of superstition, and he scoffs

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<v Speaker 1>openly at any talk of things not to be felt

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<v Speaker 1>and seen and put down in figures. John is a physician,

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<v Speaker 1>and perhaps I would not say it to a living soul,

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<v Speaker 1>of course, but this is dead paper and a great

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<v Speaker 1>relief to my mind. Perhaps that is one reason I

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<v Speaker 1>do not get well faster. You see, he does not

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<v Speaker 1>believe I am sick. And what can one do If

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<v Speaker 1>a physician of high standing and one's own husband assures

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<v Speaker 1>friends and relatives that there is really nothing the matter

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<v Speaker 1>with one but temporary nervous depression, a slight hysterical tendency,

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<v Speaker 1>what is one to do. My brother is also a physician,

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<v Speaker 1>and also of high standing, and he says the same thing.

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<v Speaker 1>So I take phosphates or phosph fights, whichever it is,

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<v Speaker 1>and tonics and journeys and air and exercise, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely forbidden to work until I am well again. By

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<v Speaker 1>the way she put work in quotation marks, which I

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<v Speaker 1>think was quite policy for the time. Yeah, little cynical,

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<v Speaker 1>for personally I disagree with their ideas. Personally I believe

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<v Speaker 1>that congenial work, with excitement and change would do me good.

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<v Speaker 1>But what is one to do. I did write for

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<v Speaker 1>a while in spite of them, but it does exhaust

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<v Speaker 1>me a good deal having to be so sly about

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<v Speaker 1>it or else be met with heavy opposition. I sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>fancy that, in my condition, if I had less opposition

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<v Speaker 1>and more society and stimulus. But John says, the very

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<v Speaker 1>worst thing I can do is to think about my condition,

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<v Speaker 1>and I confess it always makes me feel bad. So

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<v Speaker 1>I will let it alone and talk about the house,

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<v Speaker 1>the most beautiful place. It is quite alone, standing well

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<v Speaker 1>back from the road, quite three miles from the village.

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<v Speaker 1>It makes me think of English places that you read about.

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<v Speaker 1>For there are hedges and walls and gates that lock,

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<v Speaker 1>and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people.

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<v Speaker 1>There is a delicious garden. I never saw such a garden,

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<v Speaker 1>large and shady, full of box bordered paths and line

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<v Speaker 1>with long grape covered arbors with seats under them. There

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<v Speaker 1>were greenhouses too, but they're all broken now. There was

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<v Speaker 1>some legal trouble. I believe something about the airs and

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<v Speaker 1>co airs. Anyhow, the place has been empty for years

0:25:30.600 --> 0:25:33.400
<v Speaker 1>that spoils my ghostliness. I'm afraid, but I don't care.

0:25:33.720 --> 0:25:35.840
<v Speaker 1>There's something strange about the house. I can feel it.

0:25:36.240 --> 0:25:38.919
<v Speaker 1>I even said so to John one moonlit evening, but

0:25:39.000 --> 0:25:41.480
<v Speaker 1>he said what I felt was a draft and shut

0:25:41.480 --> 0:25:45.400
<v Speaker 1>the window. I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I'm

0:25:45.440 --> 0:25:47.960
<v Speaker 1>sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think

0:25:47.960 --> 0:25:50.560
<v Speaker 1>it is due to the nervous condition. But John says

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<v Speaker 1>if I feel so, I shall neglect proper self control.

0:25:54.000 --> 0:25:56.960
<v Speaker 1>So I take pains to control myself before him at least,

0:25:57.359 --> 0:25:59.960
<v Speaker 1>and that makes me very tired. I don't like our

0:26:00.080 --> 0:26:02.840
<v Speaker 1>room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on

0:26:02.880 --> 0:26:06.320
<v Speaker 1>the piazza and had roses all over the window and

0:26:06.400 --> 0:26:09.560
<v Speaker 1>such pretty old fashioned chintz hangings. But John would not

0:26:09.600 --> 0:26:11.679
<v Speaker 1>hear of it. He said there was only one window,

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<v Speaker 1>and not room for two beds. Nice touch, and no

0:26:17.880 --> 0:26:20.320
<v Speaker 1>near room for him if he took another. He is

0:26:20.440 --> 0:26:22.760
<v Speaker 1>very careful and loving and hardly lets me stir without

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<v Speaker 1>special direction. I have a schedule, prescription for each hour

0:26:27.280 --> 0:26:30.119
<v Speaker 1>in the day. He takes all care from me, so

0:26:30.160 --> 0:26:34.200
<v Speaker 1>I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more. He said.

0:26:34.240 --> 0:26:36.720
<v Speaker 1>We came here solely on my account, that I was

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<v Speaker 1>to have perfect rest and all the air I could get.

0:26:39.240 --> 0:26:42.879
<v Speaker 1>Your exercise depends on your strengthen my idea, he said,

0:26:43.359 --> 0:26:46.199
<v Speaker 1>like that, and your food somewhat on your appetite. But

0:26:46.240 --> 0:26:49.200
<v Speaker 1>air you can absorb all the time. So we took

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<v Speaker 1>the nursery at the top of the house. It was

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<v Speaker 1>a big airy room, the whole floor nearly with windows

0:26:54.160 --> 0:26:57.879
<v Speaker 1>that look always and air and sunshine galore. It was

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<v Speaker 1>a nursery first, and then play room and aymnasium, I

0:27:01.080 --> 0:27:04.240
<v Speaker 1>should judge, for the windows are barred for little children,

0:27:04.680 --> 0:27:07.760
<v Speaker 1>and there are rings and things in the walls. The

0:27:07.800 --> 0:27:10.439
<v Speaker 1>paint and paper look as if a boy's school had

0:27:10.520 --> 0:27:13.560
<v Speaker 1>used it. It is stripped off the paper and great

0:27:13.600 --> 0:27:16.359
<v Speaker 1>patches all around the head of my bed, about as

0:27:16.440 --> 0:27:18.639
<v Speaker 1>far as I can reach, and in a great place

0:27:18.640 --> 0:27:20.840
<v Speaker 1>on the other side of the room low down. I

0:27:20.960 --> 0:27:23.960
<v Speaker 1>never saw a worse paper in my life. One of

0:27:23.960 --> 0:27:28.119
<v Speaker 1>those sprawling, flamboyant patterns, committing every artistic sin it is

0:27:28.200 --> 0:27:31.400
<v Speaker 1>dull enough to confuse the eye, and following pronounced enough

0:27:31.440 --> 0:27:34.760
<v Speaker 1>to constantly irritate and provoke study. And when you follow

0:27:34.800 --> 0:27:38.560
<v Speaker 1>the lame, uncertain curves for a little distance, they suddenly

0:27:38.560 --> 0:27:43.119
<v Speaker 1>commit suicide, plunge off at outrageous angles, destroy themselves, and

0:27:43.200 --> 0:27:48.840
<v Speaker 1>unheard of contradictions. The color is repellent, almost revolting, a smoldering,

0:27:49.040 --> 0:27:53.760
<v Speaker 1>unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow turning sunlight. It

0:27:53.880 --> 0:27:56.800
<v Speaker 1>is a dull yet lurid orange, in some places, a

0:27:56.920 --> 0:28:00.760
<v Speaker 1>sickly sulfur tin in others. No wonder the children hated it.

0:28:01.200 --> 0:28:03.040
<v Speaker 1>I should hate it myself if I had to live

0:28:03.040 --> 0:28:06.320
<v Speaker 1>in this room long. There comes John. I must put

0:28:06.320 --> 0:28:08.639
<v Speaker 1>this away. He hates to have me write a word,

0:28:10.119 --> 0:28:15.240
<v Speaker 1>all right, not bad. It sounds to me early on

0:28:15.440 --> 0:28:17.800
<v Speaker 1>like this lady is already a prisoner in this room,

0:28:17.960 --> 0:28:21.040
<v Speaker 1>a prisoner in her life. Maybe even Chuck, you could say,

0:28:21.080 --> 0:28:24.119
<v Speaker 1>I think so, I don't. John strikes me. He's one

0:28:24.119 --> 0:28:26.760
<v Speaker 1>of those doctors. It's like, uh, you know, just breathe

0:28:26.760 --> 0:28:28.359
<v Speaker 1>into this bag for a bit and you'll be fine.

0:28:28.600 --> 0:28:32.280
<v Speaker 1>Don't question me, or I'll have you surgically murdered. All right,

0:28:32.320 --> 0:28:36.000
<v Speaker 1>take it away, We've been here two weeks, and I

0:28:36.000 --> 0:28:39.400
<v Speaker 1>haven't felt like writing before since that first day. I'm

0:28:39.440 --> 0:28:42.400
<v Speaker 1>sitting by the window now, up in this atrocious nursery,

0:28:42.640 --> 0:28:44.719
<v Speaker 1>and there's nothing to hinder my writing as much as

0:28:44.760 --> 0:28:48.160
<v Speaker 1>I please, save lack of strength. John is away all

0:28:48.240 --> 0:28:50.960
<v Speaker 1>day and even some nights when his cases are serious.

0:28:51.480 --> 0:28:54.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm glad my case is not serious, but these nervous

0:28:54.600 --> 0:28:58.200
<v Speaker 1>troubles are dreadfully depressing. John does not know how much

0:28:58.240 --> 0:29:01.160
<v Speaker 1>I really suffer. He knows there is no reason to suffer,

0:29:01.320 --> 0:29:05.000
<v Speaker 1>and that satisfies it. Of course, it is only nervousness.

0:29:05.040 --> 0:29:06.760
<v Speaker 1>It does weigh on me so not to do my

0:29:06.880 --> 0:29:09.640
<v Speaker 1>duty in any way. I'm meant to be such a

0:29:09.680 --> 0:29:12.480
<v Speaker 1>help to John, such a real rest and comfort, and

0:29:12.560 --> 0:29:16.400
<v Speaker 1>here I am a comparative burden. Already. Nobody would believe

0:29:16.440 --> 0:29:18.320
<v Speaker 1>what an effort it is to do what little I

0:29:18.320 --> 0:29:22.160
<v Speaker 1>am able to dress and entertain and order things. It

0:29:22.280 --> 0:29:24.840
<v Speaker 1>is fortunate Mary is so good with the baby, such

0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:28.320
<v Speaker 1>a dear baby, and yet I cannot be with him.

0:29:28.360 --> 0:29:31.800
<v Speaker 1>It makes me so nervous. I suppose John never was

0:29:31.840 --> 0:29:34.640
<v Speaker 1>nervous in his life. He laughs at me so about

0:29:34.640 --> 0:29:38.280
<v Speaker 1>this wallpaper. At first, he meant to repaper the room.

0:29:38.320 --> 0:29:40.440
<v Speaker 1>But afterwards he said that I was letting it get

0:29:40.440 --> 0:29:42.320
<v Speaker 1>the better of me, and that nothing was worse for

0:29:42.360 --> 0:29:44.800
<v Speaker 1>a nervous patient than to give way to such fancies.

0:29:45.680 --> 0:29:47.960
<v Speaker 1>He said that after the wallpaper was changed, it would

0:29:47.960 --> 0:29:50.640
<v Speaker 1>be the heavy bedstead, and then the barred windows, and

0:29:50.680 --> 0:29:52.400
<v Speaker 1>then the gate at the head of the stairs and

0:29:52.400 --> 0:29:55.240
<v Speaker 1>so on. You know, this place is doing you good,

0:29:55.280 --> 0:29:58.080
<v Speaker 1>he said. And really, dear, I don't care to renovate

0:29:58.120 --> 0:30:01.000
<v Speaker 1>the house, just for three months rental. Then let us

0:30:01.000 --> 0:30:04.960
<v Speaker 1>go downstairs. I said, there's such pretty rooms there. Then

0:30:04.960 --> 0:30:06.480
<v Speaker 1>he took me in his arms, and he called me

0:30:06.520 --> 0:30:09.080
<v Speaker 1>a blessed little goose, and he said he would go

0:30:09.160 --> 0:30:11.240
<v Speaker 1>down to the cellar if I wished, and have it

0:30:11.280 --> 0:30:14.560
<v Speaker 1>whitewashed into the bargain. But he has right enough about

0:30:14.560 --> 0:30:17.440
<v Speaker 1>the beds and windows and things. It is an airy

0:30:17.520 --> 0:30:20.720
<v Speaker 1>and comfortable room as anyone need wish. And of course

0:30:20.760 --> 0:30:22.400
<v Speaker 1>I would not be so silly as to make him

0:30:22.440 --> 0:30:25.840
<v Speaker 1>uncomfortable just for a whim. I'm really getting quite fond

0:30:25.880 --> 0:30:29.600
<v Speaker 1>of the big room, all about that horrid paper. Out

0:30:29.600 --> 0:30:32.240
<v Speaker 1>of one window I can see the garden, those mysterious

0:30:32.240 --> 0:30:35.880
<v Speaker 1>deep shaded arbors, the riotous old fashioned flowers and bushes

0:30:35.880 --> 0:30:38.960
<v Speaker 1>and gnarly trees. Out of another, I get a lovely

0:30:39.040 --> 0:30:41.520
<v Speaker 1>view of the bay. In a little private wharf belonging

0:30:41.600 --> 0:30:44.560
<v Speaker 1>to the estate. There is a beautiful shaded lane that

0:30:44.640 --> 0:30:47.520
<v Speaker 1>runs down there from the house. I always fancy that

0:30:47.560 --> 0:30:50.560
<v Speaker 1>I see people walking in these numerous paths and arbors.

0:30:50.600 --> 0:30:52.440
<v Speaker 1>But John has cautioned me not to give way to

0:30:52.480 --> 0:30:55.320
<v Speaker 1>fancy in the least. He says that with my imaginative

0:30:55.320 --> 0:30:58.200
<v Speaker 1>power and habit of story making, a nervous weakness like

0:30:58.280 --> 0:31:01.000
<v Speaker 1>mine is sure to lead to all manner of excited fancies,

0:31:01.280 --> 0:31:03.200
<v Speaker 1>and that I ought to use my will in good

0:31:03.200 --> 0:31:07.280
<v Speaker 1>sense to check the tendency. So I try. I think

0:31:07.360 --> 0:31:09.600
<v Speaker 1>sometimes that if I were only well enough to write

0:31:09.640 --> 0:31:11.959
<v Speaker 1>a little, it would relieve the press of ideas and

0:31:12.040 --> 0:31:15.040
<v Speaker 1>rest me. But I find I get pretty tired when

0:31:15.040 --> 0:31:18.280
<v Speaker 1>I try. It is so discouraging not to have any

0:31:18.320 --> 0:31:21.680
<v Speaker 1>advice and companionship about my work. When I get really well,

0:31:21.800 --> 0:31:24.280
<v Speaker 1>John says we will ask cousin Henry and Julia down

0:31:24.320 --> 0:31:26.200
<v Speaker 1>for a long visit. But he says he would as

0:31:26.200 --> 0:31:28.400
<v Speaker 1>soon put fireworks in my pillow cases to let me

0:31:28.440 --> 0:31:31.960
<v Speaker 1>have those stimulating people about. Now. I wish I would

0:31:32.000 --> 0:31:34.920
<v Speaker 1>get well faster, but I must not think about that.

0:31:35.200 --> 0:31:37.000
<v Speaker 1>This paper looks to me as if it knew what

0:31:37.080 --> 0:31:40.480
<v Speaker 1>a vicious influence it had. There's a recurrent spot where

0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:43.720
<v Speaker 1>the patterned laws like a broken neck, two bulbous eyes

0:31:43.760 --> 0:31:47.320
<v Speaker 1>that stare at you upside down. I get positively angry

0:31:47.360 --> 0:31:50.640
<v Speaker 1>with the impertinence of it, and the everlasting nous. Up

0:31:50.680 --> 0:31:53.600
<v Speaker 1>and down in sideways they crawl, and those absurd, unblinking

0:31:53.600 --> 0:31:56.760
<v Speaker 1>eyes are everywhere. There is one place where two breaths

0:31:56.760 --> 0:32:00.040
<v Speaker 1>didn't match, and the eyes go all up and on

0:32:00.160 --> 0:32:02.840
<v Speaker 1>the line, one a little higher than the other. I

0:32:02.920 --> 0:32:05.880
<v Speaker 1>never saw so much expression in an inanimate thing before,

0:32:06.280 --> 0:32:09.040
<v Speaker 1>and we all know how much expression they have. I

0:32:09.160 --> 0:32:11.160
<v Speaker 1>used to lie awake as a child and get more

0:32:11.320 --> 0:32:14.000
<v Speaker 1>entertainment and terror out of blank walls and plain furniture

0:32:14.080 --> 0:32:17.000
<v Speaker 1>than most children could find in a toy store. I

0:32:17.080 --> 0:32:20.200
<v Speaker 1>remember what kindly wink the knobs of our big old

0:32:20.240 --> 0:32:22.760
<v Speaker 1>bureau used to have. And there was one chair that

0:32:22.800 --> 0:32:25.840
<v Speaker 1>always seemed like a strong friend. He used to feel

0:32:25.880 --> 0:32:28.240
<v Speaker 1>that if any of the other things looked too fierce,

0:32:28.440 --> 0:32:30.400
<v Speaker 1>I could always hop into that chair and be safe.

0:32:31.280 --> 0:32:34.240
<v Speaker 1>The furniture in this room is no worse than inharmonious, however,

0:32:34.600 --> 0:32:37.360
<v Speaker 1>for we had to bring it all from downstairs. I

0:32:37.400 --> 0:32:39.920
<v Speaker 1>suppose when this was used as a playroom they had

0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:42.240
<v Speaker 1>to take the nursery things out, And no wonder, I

0:32:42.280 --> 0:32:45.080
<v Speaker 1>never saw such ravages as the children have made here.

0:32:45.400 --> 0:32:48.520
<v Speaker 1>The wallpaper, as I said before, is torn off in spots,

0:32:48.560 --> 0:32:51.280
<v Speaker 1>and it sticketh closer than a brother. They must have

0:32:51.280 --> 0:32:54.240
<v Speaker 1>had perseverance as well as hatred. Then the floor is

0:32:54.320 --> 0:32:57.640
<v Speaker 1>scratched and gouged and splintered. The plaster itself is dug

0:32:57.640 --> 0:33:00.240
<v Speaker 1>out here or there. And this great heavy bed, which

0:33:00.280 --> 0:33:02.200
<v Speaker 1>is all we found in the room, looks as if

0:33:02.200 --> 0:33:05.280
<v Speaker 1>it has been through the wars. But I don't mind

0:33:05.280 --> 0:33:09.520
<v Speaker 1>it a bit, only the paper. There comes John's sister.

0:33:10.000 --> 0:33:12.480
<v Speaker 1>Such a dear girl as she is, and so careful

0:33:12.520 --> 0:33:14.600
<v Speaker 1>of me, I must not let her find me writing.

0:33:15.000 --> 0:33:18.200
<v Speaker 1>She's a perfect and enthusiastic housekeeper, and hopes for no

0:33:18.280 --> 0:33:21.200
<v Speaker 1>better profession. I verily believe she thinks it is the

0:33:21.240 --> 0:33:23.960
<v Speaker 1>writing which made me sick. But I can write when

0:33:23.960 --> 0:33:25.960
<v Speaker 1>she is out and see her A long way off

0:33:26.000 --> 0:33:29.280
<v Speaker 1>from these windows. There's one that commands the road, a

0:33:29.320 --> 0:33:32.280
<v Speaker 1>lovely shaded, winding road, and one that just looks off

0:33:32.360 --> 0:33:35.640
<v Speaker 1>over the country, A lovely country too, full of elms

0:33:35.640 --> 0:33:39.560
<v Speaker 1>and velvet meadows. This wallpaper has a kind of sub

0:33:39.600 --> 0:33:44.480
<v Speaker 1>pattern in a different shade, particularly irritating one, for you

0:33:44.520 --> 0:33:47.000
<v Speaker 1>can only see it in certain lights, and not clearly then,

0:33:47.800 --> 0:33:50.080
<v Speaker 1>but in the places where it isn't faded, where the

0:33:50.120 --> 0:33:53.440
<v Speaker 1>sun is just so, I can see a strange, provoking,

0:33:53.720 --> 0:33:57.200
<v Speaker 1>formless sort of figure that seems to skulk about behind

0:33:57.240 --> 0:34:01.800
<v Speaker 1>that silly and conspicuous front design. There's sister on the stairs.

0:34:03.320 --> 0:34:06.640
<v Speaker 1>Do you ever call uh? You me a blessed little goose? Yeah?

0:34:07.360 --> 0:34:09.680
<v Speaker 1>Every day. I couldn't believe the lady took the words

0:34:09.760 --> 0:34:11.239
<v Speaker 1>right out of my mouth. How does that go over?

0:34:11.560 --> 0:34:15.239
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't go over? Well, I have shin splints from

0:34:15.280 --> 0:34:18.440
<v Speaker 1>all right, So the lady is here she uh we

0:34:18.560 --> 0:34:21.440
<v Speaker 1>now have learned that her sister in law is the

0:34:21.440 --> 0:34:25.799
<v Speaker 1>housekeeper and nanny of her baby. That she doesn't see right,

0:34:26.000 --> 0:34:31.440
<v Speaker 1>and she's in this room going a little nuts? Was

0:34:31.480 --> 0:34:34.640
<v Speaker 1>she well to begin with? Who knows? Well? I don't know.

0:34:34.680 --> 0:34:37.280
<v Speaker 1>I think the fact that she's saying like I've always

0:34:37.360 --> 0:34:43.400
<v Speaker 1>considered furniture capable of moving and possessing a personality. I

0:34:43.440 --> 0:34:45.239
<v Speaker 1>don't know if you call that nuts, but maybe she

0:34:45.280 --> 0:34:47.680
<v Speaker 1>has an imagination. The groundwork is there, all right. Here

0:34:47.719 --> 0:34:51.640
<v Speaker 1>we go. Well, the fourth of July is over. The

0:34:51.680 --> 0:34:55.319
<v Speaker 1>people are gone, and I am tired out. John did

0:34:55.320 --> 0:35:00.160
<v Speaker 1>put fireworks in my pillow case. I'm just kidding. The

0:35:00.160 --> 0:35:02.399
<v Speaker 1>people are gone and I am tired out. John thought

0:35:02.440 --> 0:35:04.320
<v Speaker 1>it might do me some good to see a little company,

0:35:04.400 --> 0:35:07.640
<v Speaker 1>so we just had Mother and Nelly and the children

0:35:07.719 --> 0:35:09.879
<v Speaker 1>down for a week. Of course, I didn't do a thing.

0:35:10.000 --> 0:35:12.920
<v Speaker 1>Jenny sees to everything now, but it tired me all

0:35:12.960 --> 0:35:15.520
<v Speaker 1>the same. John says, if I don't pick up faster,

0:35:15.920 --> 0:35:18.160
<v Speaker 1>he shall send me over to Weir Mitchell and the Fall.

0:35:18.840 --> 0:35:20.600
<v Speaker 1>But I don't want to go there at all. I

0:35:20.640 --> 0:35:23.160
<v Speaker 1>had a friend who was in his hands once, and

0:35:23.239 --> 0:35:25.319
<v Speaker 1>she says he is just like John and my brother,

0:35:25.480 --> 0:35:31.320
<v Speaker 1>only more so, that is to say, a nineteenth century man. Besides,

0:35:31.360 --> 0:35:34.000
<v Speaker 1>it is such an undertaking to go so far. I

0:35:34.040 --> 0:35:36.879
<v Speaker 1>don't feel as if it was worth while to turn

0:35:36.960 --> 0:35:40.040
<v Speaker 1>my hand over for anything, And I'm getting dreadfully fretful

0:35:40.080 --> 0:35:44.120
<v Speaker 1>and querulous. I cry it nothing and cry most at

0:35:44.120 --> 0:35:46.839
<v Speaker 1>the time. Of course, I don't want John is here

0:35:46.920 --> 0:35:50.120
<v Speaker 1>or anybody else. But when I am alone, and I'm

0:35:50.160 --> 0:35:53.000
<v Speaker 1>alone a good deal. Just now. John is kept in

0:35:53.080 --> 0:35:56.959
<v Speaker 1>town very often by serious cases. And Jenny is good

0:35:56.960 --> 0:35:59.759
<v Speaker 1>and lets me alone when I want her too. So

0:36:00.040 --> 0:36:01.840
<v Speaker 1>I walk a little in the garden or down that

0:36:01.920 --> 0:36:04.640
<v Speaker 1>lovely lane, sit on the porch under the roses, and

0:36:05.160 --> 0:36:08.480
<v Speaker 1>lie down up here. A good deal. I'm getting really

0:36:08.520 --> 0:36:11.960
<v Speaker 1>fond of the room, in spite of the wallpaper. Perhaps

0:36:12.120 --> 0:36:15.640
<v Speaker 1>because of the wallpaper, it dwells in my mind. So

0:36:16.440 --> 0:36:19.160
<v Speaker 1>I lie here on this great immovable bed. It is

0:36:19.280 --> 0:36:22.759
<v Speaker 1>nailed down, I believe, and follow that pattern about by

0:36:22.760 --> 0:36:26.120
<v Speaker 1>the hour. It is as good as gymnastics, I assure you.

0:36:26.800 --> 0:36:29.640
<v Speaker 1>I start, will say at the bottom, down in the

0:36:29.719 --> 0:36:32.759
<v Speaker 1>corner over there, where it has not been touched, and

0:36:32.840 --> 0:36:36.560
<v Speaker 1>I determine for the thousandth time that I will follow

0:36:36.960 --> 0:36:40.640
<v Speaker 1>that pointless pattern to some sort of conclusion. I know

0:36:40.719 --> 0:36:43.040
<v Speaker 1>a little of the principle of design, and I know

0:36:43.200 --> 0:36:45.880
<v Speaker 1>this thing was not arranged on any laws of radiation

0:36:46.360 --> 0:36:49.680
<v Speaker 1>or alternation or repetition or symmetry or anything else that

0:36:49.719 --> 0:36:53.080
<v Speaker 1>I've ever heard of. It is repeated, of course by

0:36:53.080 --> 0:36:56.640
<v Speaker 1>the breadths, but not otherwise looked at. In one way,

0:36:56.840 --> 0:37:01.239
<v Speaker 1>each breath stands alone. The bloated curves and wishes kind

0:37:01.239 --> 0:37:06.120
<v Speaker 1>of debased Romanesque with delirium. Tremens go waddling up and

0:37:06.160 --> 0:37:10.399
<v Speaker 1>down in isolated columns of fatuity. But on the other hand,

0:37:10.440 --> 0:37:14.080
<v Speaker 1>they connect diagonally, and the sprawling outlines run off in

0:37:14.200 --> 0:37:17.719
<v Speaker 1>great slanting ways of optic horror, like a lot of

0:37:17.719 --> 0:37:21.719
<v Speaker 1>wallowing seaweeds in full chase. The whole thing goes horizontally too,

0:37:22.400 --> 0:37:25.520
<v Speaker 1>at least it seems so, and I exhaust myself in

0:37:25.560 --> 0:37:29.080
<v Speaker 1>trying to distinguish the order of its going in that direction.

0:37:29.719 --> 0:37:32.680
<v Speaker 1>They have used a horizontal breadth for a frieze, and

0:37:32.719 --> 0:37:35.759
<v Speaker 1>that adds wonderfully to the confusion. There is one end

0:37:35.760 --> 0:37:38.520
<v Speaker 1>of the room where it is almost intact, and there,

0:37:38.840 --> 0:37:41.600
<v Speaker 1>when the cross lights fade and the low sun shines

0:37:41.640 --> 0:37:45.399
<v Speaker 1>directly upon it, I can almost fancy radiation. After all,

0:37:46.120 --> 0:37:49.360
<v Speaker 1>the interminable grotesque seemed to form around a common center

0:37:49.760 --> 0:37:53.239
<v Speaker 1>and rush off and headlong plunges of equal distraction. It

0:37:53.320 --> 0:37:56.239
<v Speaker 1>makes me tired to follow it. I will take a nap.

0:37:56.280 --> 0:37:58.759
<v Speaker 1>I guess I don't know why I should write this.

0:37:59.080 --> 0:38:02.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to. I don't feel able, and I

0:38:02.160 --> 0:38:05.040
<v Speaker 1>know John would think it's absurd, But I must say

0:38:05.080 --> 0:38:07.520
<v Speaker 1>what I feel and think in some way. It is

0:38:07.560 --> 0:38:10.160
<v Speaker 1>such a relief, But the effort is getting to be

0:38:10.239 --> 0:38:13.240
<v Speaker 1>greater than the relief half the time. Now I am

0:38:13.280 --> 0:38:17.520
<v Speaker 1>awfully lazy and lie down ever so much. John says

0:38:17.560 --> 0:38:20.680
<v Speaker 1>I mustn't lose my strength, and has me take cod,

0:38:20.719 --> 0:38:23.480
<v Speaker 1>liver oil and lots of tonics and things, to say

0:38:23.520 --> 0:38:27.080
<v Speaker 1>nothing of ale and wine and rare meat. Dear John,

0:38:27.280 --> 0:38:30.480
<v Speaker 1>he loves me very dearly and hates to have me sick.

0:38:31.040 --> 0:38:33.480
<v Speaker 1>I tried to have a real, earnest, reasonable talk with

0:38:33.560 --> 0:38:35.800
<v Speaker 1>him the other day and tell him how I wish

0:38:35.960 --> 0:38:37.920
<v Speaker 1>you would let me go and make a visit to

0:38:37.960 --> 0:38:40.719
<v Speaker 1>cousin Henry and Julia. But he said I wasn't able

0:38:40.760 --> 0:38:43.600
<v Speaker 1>to go, nor able to stand it after I got there.

0:38:44.160 --> 0:38:46.200
<v Speaker 1>And I did not make out a very good case

0:38:46.239 --> 0:38:49.160
<v Speaker 1>for myself, for I was crying before I had finished.

0:38:50.040 --> 0:38:52.160
<v Speaker 1>Is getting to be a great effort for me to

0:38:52.239 --> 0:38:56.439
<v Speaker 1>think straight, just this nervous weakness, I suppose, And dear

0:38:56.520 --> 0:38:58.920
<v Speaker 1>John gathered me up in his arms and just carried

0:38:58.960 --> 0:39:01.640
<v Speaker 1>me upstairs and laid me on the bed and sat

0:39:01.760 --> 0:39:04.359
<v Speaker 1>by me and read to me till get tired. My

0:39:05.200 --> 0:39:11.000
<v Speaker 1>poor little goose head sorry. I feel terrible for this lady.

0:39:11.120 --> 0:39:13.759
<v Speaker 1>I do, and it just really is suffering from like

0:39:15.000 --> 0:39:18.719
<v Speaker 1>massive depression, yeah for sure. And and on top of that,

0:39:18.760 --> 0:39:21.040
<v Speaker 1>she's being locked in her room that's driving her nuts

0:39:21.080 --> 0:39:23.879
<v Speaker 1>by her husband. Yeah, I think that's the problem here.

0:39:26.440 --> 0:39:28.239
<v Speaker 1>He said I was his darling and his comfort and

0:39:28.280 --> 0:39:30.440
<v Speaker 1>all he had, and that I must take care of

0:39:30.440 --> 0:39:33.399
<v Speaker 1>myself for his sake and keep well. He says, yeah,

0:39:33.400 --> 0:39:37.000
<v Speaker 1>because it's all about John, right right, get better for me.

0:39:37.560 --> 0:39:40.680
<v Speaker 1>Why can't you just get better? He says, No one

0:39:40.719 --> 0:39:42.719
<v Speaker 1>but myself can help me out of it. That I

0:39:42.800 --> 0:39:45.160
<v Speaker 1>must use my will and self control and not let

0:39:45.160 --> 0:39:48.240
<v Speaker 1>any silly fancies run away with me. There's one comfort.

0:39:48.520 --> 0:39:51.319
<v Speaker 1>The baby is well and happy and does not have

0:39:51.400 --> 0:39:55.839
<v Speaker 1>to occupy this nursery with that horrid wall paper. If

0:39:55.880 --> 0:39:58.200
<v Speaker 1>we had not used it, that blessed child would have

0:39:59.320 --> 0:40:02.720
<v Speaker 1>What a fortunate escape. Why I wouldn't have a child

0:40:02.760 --> 0:40:06.080
<v Speaker 1>of mine, an impressionable little thing, live in such a

0:40:06.160 --> 0:40:09.000
<v Speaker 1>room for worlds. I never thought of it before, But

0:40:09.080 --> 0:40:11.200
<v Speaker 1>it is lucky that John kept me here. After all.

0:40:11.719 --> 0:40:13.720
<v Speaker 1>I can stand it so much easier than a baby,

0:40:13.760 --> 0:40:17.120
<v Speaker 1>you see. Of course I never mentioned it to them anymore.

0:40:17.320 --> 0:40:19.959
<v Speaker 1>I am too wise, but I keep watching it all

0:40:20.040 --> 0:40:22.840
<v Speaker 1>the same. There are things in that paper that nobody

0:40:22.880 --> 0:40:26.480
<v Speaker 1>knows but me, or ever will. Behind that outside pattern,

0:40:26.840 --> 0:40:30.400
<v Speaker 1>the dim shapes get clearer every day. It is always

0:40:30.440 --> 0:40:34.400
<v Speaker 1>the same shape, only very numerous. And it is like

0:40:34.440 --> 0:40:38.440
<v Speaker 1>a woman stooping down and creeping about behind that pattern.

0:40:38.920 --> 0:40:41.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't like it a bit, I wonder. I begin

0:40:41.719 --> 0:40:44.680
<v Speaker 1>to think. I wish John would take me away from here.

0:40:45.239 --> 0:40:47.720
<v Speaker 1>It is so hard to talk to John about my case,

0:40:48.320 --> 0:40:51.080
<v Speaker 1>because he is so wise, because he loves me so

0:40:51.680 --> 0:40:55.319
<v Speaker 1>But I tried. Last night, it was moonlight. The moon

0:40:55.440 --> 0:40:58.560
<v Speaker 1>shines in all around, just as the sun does. I

0:40:58.600 --> 0:41:01.160
<v Speaker 1>hate to see it. Sometimes it creeps so slowly and

0:41:01.200 --> 0:41:04.920
<v Speaker 1>always comes in by one window or another. John was asleep,

0:41:04.960 --> 0:41:07.279
<v Speaker 1>and I hated to waken him, so I kept still

0:41:07.320 --> 0:41:10.200
<v Speaker 1>and watched the moonlight on that undulating wallpaper until I

0:41:10.239 --> 0:41:14.120
<v Speaker 1>felt creepy. The faint figure behind seemed to shake the pattern,

0:41:14.440 --> 0:41:16.839
<v Speaker 1>just as if she wanted to get out. I got

0:41:16.920 --> 0:41:19.120
<v Speaker 1>up softly and went to feel and see if the

0:41:19.160 --> 0:41:22.200
<v Speaker 1>paper did move. When I came back, John was awake.

0:41:22.800 --> 0:41:25.560
<v Speaker 1>What is it, little girl? He said, don't go walking

0:41:25.600 --> 0:41:28.560
<v Speaker 1>about like that, you'll get cold. I thought it was

0:41:28.600 --> 0:41:30.480
<v Speaker 1>a good time to talk, so I told him that

0:41:30.520 --> 0:41:33.000
<v Speaker 1>I was really not gaining here, and that I wished

0:41:33.000 --> 0:41:35.880
<v Speaker 1>he would take me away. Why, darling, said he, or

0:41:35.880 --> 0:41:37.960
<v Speaker 1>at least will be up in three weeks, and I

0:41:38.000 --> 0:41:40.759
<v Speaker 1>can't see how to leave before the repairs are not

0:41:40.800 --> 0:41:43.640
<v Speaker 1>done at home, and I cannot possibly leave town just now.

0:41:43.960 --> 0:41:45.839
<v Speaker 1>Of course, if you were in any danger, I could

0:41:45.920 --> 0:41:48.400
<v Speaker 1>and would. But you really are better, dear, whether you

0:41:48.400 --> 0:41:50.640
<v Speaker 1>can see it or not. I am a doctor, dear,

0:41:50.760 --> 0:41:54.359
<v Speaker 1>and I know you are gaining flesh and color. Your

0:41:54.400 --> 0:41:57.960
<v Speaker 1>appetite is better. I feel really much easier about you.

0:41:58.719 --> 0:42:01.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't weigh a bit more, or said I, nor

0:42:01.200 --> 0:42:04.120
<v Speaker 1>as much, and my appetite maybe better in the evening

0:42:04.120 --> 0:42:06.080
<v Speaker 1>when you are here, but it is worse in the

0:42:06.120 --> 0:42:09.640
<v Speaker 1>morning when you were away. Bless her little heart, said he,

0:42:09.719 --> 0:42:12.520
<v Speaker 1>with a big hug. She shall be as sick as

0:42:12.560 --> 0:42:15.440
<v Speaker 1>she pleases. But now let's improve the shining hours by

0:42:15.480 --> 0:42:17.520
<v Speaker 1>going to sleep and talk about it in the morning.

0:42:18.320 --> 0:42:22.280
<v Speaker 1>And you won't go away, I asked gloomily, How can I, dear?

0:42:22.600 --> 0:42:24.399
<v Speaker 1>It is only three weeks more, and then we will

0:42:24.440 --> 0:42:26.439
<v Speaker 1>take a nice little trip of a few days. While

0:42:26.520 --> 0:42:29.080
<v Speaker 1>Jeanie is getting the house ready. Really, dear, you are

0:42:29.200 --> 0:42:33.360
<v Speaker 1>better better in body? Perhaps I began and then stop short,

0:42:33.800 --> 0:42:35.400
<v Speaker 1>Or he sat up straight and looked at me with

0:42:35.480 --> 0:42:38.319
<v Speaker 1>such a stern, reproachful look that I could not say

0:42:38.320 --> 0:42:42.440
<v Speaker 1>another word. My darling, I beg of you, for my

0:42:42.560 --> 0:42:44.600
<v Speaker 1>sake and for our child's sake, as well as of

0:42:44.680 --> 0:42:47.960
<v Speaker 1>your own, that you will never, for one instant let

0:42:47.960 --> 0:42:51.400
<v Speaker 1>that idea enter your mind. There is nothing so dangerous,

0:42:51.440 --> 0:42:54.239
<v Speaker 1>so fascinating to a temperament like yours. It is a

0:42:54.280 --> 0:42:57.239
<v Speaker 1>false and foolish fancy. Can you not trust me as

0:42:57.280 --> 0:43:00.600
<v Speaker 1>a physician when I tell you so? So? Of course

0:43:00.640 --> 0:43:02.520
<v Speaker 1>I said no more on that score, and we went

0:43:02.560 --> 0:43:05.680
<v Speaker 1>to sleep before long. He thought I was asleep first,

0:43:05.760 --> 0:43:08.279
<v Speaker 1>but I wasn't, and lay there for hours trying to

0:43:08.320 --> 0:43:11.160
<v Speaker 1>decide whether that front pattern and the back pattern really

0:43:11.160 --> 0:43:14.960
<v Speaker 1>did move together or separately. On a pattern like this

0:43:15.200 --> 0:43:19.080
<v Speaker 1>by daylight, there's a lack of sequence, defines of law

0:43:19.400 --> 0:43:23.120
<v Speaker 1>that is constant irritant to a normal mind. Color is

0:43:23.200 --> 0:43:26.960
<v Speaker 1>hideous enough, and unreliable enough, and infuriating enough, but the

0:43:27.000 --> 0:43:30.600
<v Speaker 1>pattern is torturing. You think you have mastered it, but

0:43:30.760 --> 0:43:33.200
<v Speaker 1>just as you get well underway and following it turns

0:43:33.239 --> 0:43:36.080
<v Speaker 1>back a somersault, and there you are. It slaps you

0:43:36.080 --> 0:43:38.320
<v Speaker 1>in the face, knocks you down, and tramples you. It

0:43:38.440 --> 0:43:41.680
<v Speaker 1>is like a bad dream. The outside pattern is a

0:43:41.680 --> 0:43:45.839
<v Speaker 1>florid arabesque reminding one of a fungus. If you can

0:43:45.840 --> 0:43:50.560
<v Speaker 1>imagine a toadstool in joints, an interminable string of toadstools,

0:43:50.600 --> 0:43:54.160
<v Speaker 1>budding and sprouting and endless convolutions, why that is something

0:43:54.239 --> 0:43:59.160
<v Speaker 1>like it? That is, sometimes there's one marked peculiarity about

0:43:59.160 --> 0:44:01.760
<v Speaker 1>this paper, a thing nobody seems to notice but myself,

0:44:01.960 --> 0:44:04.720
<v Speaker 1>and that is that it changes as the light changes

0:44:05.320 --> 0:44:08.000
<v Speaker 1>when the sun shoots in through the east window. I

0:44:08.000 --> 0:44:11.240
<v Speaker 1>always watched for that first long straight ray. It changes

0:44:11.280 --> 0:44:14.160
<v Speaker 1>so quickly that I never can quite believe it. That

0:44:14.280 --> 0:44:17.359
<v Speaker 1>is why I always watch it by moonlight. The moon

0:44:17.440 --> 0:44:19.920
<v Speaker 1>shines in all night. When there is a moon, I

0:44:19.960 --> 0:44:22.400
<v Speaker 1>wouldn't know it was the same paper at night in

0:44:22.480 --> 0:44:26.000
<v Speaker 1>any kind of light, in twilight, candlelight, lamplight, and worst

0:44:26.000 --> 0:44:29.720
<v Speaker 1>of all, by moonlight, it becomes bars. The outside pattern

0:44:29.800 --> 0:44:32.160
<v Speaker 1>I mean, and the woman behind it is as plain

0:44:32.239 --> 0:44:35.080
<v Speaker 1>as can be. I didn't realize for a long time

0:44:35.160 --> 0:44:38.720
<v Speaker 1>what the thing was that showed behind that dim sub pattern.

0:44:39.040 --> 0:44:41.120
<v Speaker 1>But now I am quite sure it is a woman.

0:44:41.840 --> 0:44:45.080
<v Speaker 1>By daylight, she is subdued quiet. I fancy it is

0:44:45.120 --> 0:44:48.200
<v Speaker 1>the pattern that keeps her so still. It is so puzzling.

0:44:48.520 --> 0:44:51.440
<v Speaker 1>It keeps me quiet by the hour. I lie down

0:44:51.520 --> 0:44:54.040
<v Speaker 1>ever so much. Now John says it is good for

0:44:54.120 --> 0:44:57.360
<v Speaker 1>me and to sleep all I can. Indeed, he started

0:44:57.360 --> 0:44:59.480
<v Speaker 1>the habit by making me lie down for an hour

0:44:59.600 --> 0:45:03.480
<v Speaker 1>after each meal. It's a very bad habit, I am convinced.

0:45:03.520 --> 0:45:07.080
<v Speaker 1>For you see, I don't sleep, and that cultivates deceit

0:45:07.400 --> 0:45:10.080
<v Speaker 1>for I don't tell them I'm awake. Oh No. The

0:45:10.120 --> 0:45:13.600
<v Speaker 1>fact is I'm getting a little afraid of John. It

0:45:13.680 --> 0:45:18.080
<v Speaker 1>seems very queer sometimes, and even Jenny has an inexplicable look.

0:45:18.760 --> 0:45:22.640
<v Speaker 1>It strikes me occasionally just as a scientific hypothesis, but

0:45:22.760 --> 0:45:26.960
<v Speaker 1>perhaps it is the paper. All right, un she's coming

0:45:27.000 --> 0:45:29.720
<v Speaker 1>to her senses, right. I don't know if you would

0:45:29.760 --> 0:45:33.719
<v Speaker 1>call that a scientific hypothesis, but yeah, she seems to

0:45:33.760 --> 0:45:37.719
<v Speaker 1>be like, oh I mean about John, right, yeah, okay, yes,

0:45:37.800 --> 0:45:44.640
<v Speaker 1>agreed this quote position unquote mm hmm, all right. I've

0:45:44.680 --> 0:45:47.080
<v Speaker 1>watched John when he did not know I was looking,

0:45:47.120 --> 0:45:50.360
<v Speaker 1>and come into the room suddenly on the most innocent excuses,

0:45:50.719 --> 0:45:53.840
<v Speaker 1>and I've called him several times looking at the paper

0:45:54.239 --> 0:45:56.799
<v Speaker 1>and Jenny too. I caught Jenny with her hand on

0:45:56.840 --> 0:45:59.040
<v Speaker 1>it once. She didn't know I was in the room,

0:45:59.120 --> 0:46:01.920
<v Speaker 1>and when I asked her, in a quiet, very quiet voice,

0:46:02.280 --> 0:46:05.359
<v Speaker 1>with the most restrained manner possible, what she was doing

0:46:05.400 --> 0:46:08.719
<v Speaker 1>with the paper, she turned around as if she had

0:46:08.719 --> 0:46:12.440
<v Speaker 1>been caught stealing, and looked quite angry and asked me

0:46:12.480 --> 0:46:15.360
<v Speaker 1>why I should frighten her. So then she said that

0:46:15.400 --> 0:46:18.800
<v Speaker 1>the paper stained everything it touched, and she had found

0:46:18.880 --> 0:46:22.719
<v Speaker 1>yellow smooches on all my clothes and John's, and she

0:46:22.760 --> 0:46:26.680
<v Speaker 1>wished we would be more careful. Did not that sound innocent?

0:46:27.200 --> 0:46:29.600
<v Speaker 1>But I know she was studying that pattern, and I

0:46:29.600 --> 0:46:33.040
<v Speaker 1>am determined that nobody shall find it out. But myself,

0:46:33.800 --> 0:46:35.920
<v Speaker 1>life is very much more exciting now than it used

0:46:35.960 --> 0:46:38.640
<v Speaker 1>to be. You see, I have something more to expect,

0:46:38.640 --> 0:46:41.640
<v Speaker 1>to look forward to, to watch. I really do eat

0:46:41.680 --> 0:46:44.920
<v Speaker 1>better and more quiet than I was. John is so

0:46:45.000 --> 0:46:47.680
<v Speaker 1>pleased to see me improved. He laughed a little the

0:46:47.719 --> 0:46:50.000
<v Speaker 1>other day and said I seemed to be flourishing in

0:46:50.040 --> 0:46:53.680
<v Speaker 1>spite of my wallpaper. I turned it off with a laugh.

0:46:53.920 --> 0:46:56.200
<v Speaker 1>I had no intention of telling him it was because

0:46:56.280 --> 0:46:59.000
<v Speaker 1>of the wallpaper. He would make fun of me. He

0:46:59.080 --> 0:47:01.799
<v Speaker 1>might even want to take me away. I don't want

0:47:01.800 --> 0:47:04.399
<v Speaker 1>to leave now until I have found it out. There

0:47:04.480 --> 0:47:06.879
<v Speaker 1>is a week more, and I think that will be enough.

0:47:07.280 --> 0:47:10.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm feeling ever so much better. I don't sleep much

0:47:10.239 --> 0:47:13.520
<v Speaker 1>at night, for it is so interesting to watch the developments,

0:47:13.520 --> 0:47:16.160
<v Speaker 1>but I sleep a good deal in the daytime. In

0:47:16.160 --> 0:47:19.920
<v Speaker 1>the daytime it is tiresome and perplexing. There are always

0:47:19.960 --> 0:47:22.400
<v Speaker 1>new shoots on the fungus, and new shades of yellow

0:47:22.680 --> 0:47:25.799
<v Speaker 1>all over it. I cannot keep counting them, though I

0:47:25.800 --> 0:47:30.480
<v Speaker 1>have tried conscientiously. It is the strangest yellow that wallpaper.

0:47:31.040 --> 0:47:32.960
<v Speaker 1>It makes me think of all the yellow things I

0:47:33.000 --> 0:47:37.600
<v Speaker 1>ever saw, Not the beautiful ones like buttercups, but old, foul,

0:47:37.719 --> 0:47:42.520
<v Speaker 1>bad yellow things. There's something else about that paper, the smell.

0:47:43.160 --> 0:47:45.239
<v Speaker 1>I noticed it the moment we came in the room,

0:47:45.320 --> 0:47:47.799
<v Speaker 1>but with so much air and sun it was not bad.

0:47:48.520 --> 0:47:50.359
<v Speaker 1>Now we have had a week of fog and rain,

0:47:50.840 --> 0:47:53.120
<v Speaker 1>and whether the windows are open or not, the smell

0:47:53.239 --> 0:47:56.920
<v Speaker 1>is here. It creeps all over the house, find it

0:47:57.000 --> 0:48:00.480
<v Speaker 1>hovering in the dining room, skulking in the parlor, hiding

0:48:00.520 --> 0:48:03.440
<v Speaker 1>in the hall, lying in wait for me on the stairs.

0:48:04.160 --> 0:48:06.640
<v Speaker 1>It gets into my hair, even when I go to

0:48:06.800 --> 0:48:10.359
<v Speaker 1>ride by, turning my head suddenly in surprise. It there

0:48:10.440 --> 0:48:14.600
<v Speaker 1>is that smell, Such a peculiar odor too. I spend

0:48:14.680 --> 0:48:17.239
<v Speaker 1>hours in trying to analyze it, to find what it

0:48:17.360 --> 0:48:21.640
<v Speaker 1>smelled like. It is not bad at first, and very gentle,

0:48:22.400 --> 0:48:25.719
<v Speaker 1>but quite the subtlest, most enduring odor I ever met.

0:48:26.360 --> 0:48:29.040
<v Speaker 1>In this damp weather, it is awful. I wake up

0:48:29.040 --> 0:48:31.520
<v Speaker 1>in the night and find it hanging over me. It

0:48:31.760 --> 0:48:35.120
<v Speaker 1>used to disturb me. At first I thought seriously of

0:48:35.200 --> 0:48:39.400
<v Speaker 1>burning the house to reach the smell, but now I

0:48:39.440 --> 0:48:41.759
<v Speaker 1>am used to it. The only thing I can think

0:48:41.800 --> 0:48:44.560
<v Speaker 1>of that it is like is the color of the paper,

0:48:45.120 --> 0:48:48.640
<v Speaker 1>a yellow smell. There's a very funny mark on the

0:48:48.640 --> 0:48:51.640
<v Speaker 1>wall low down near the mopboard, a streak that runs

0:48:51.680 --> 0:48:54.719
<v Speaker 1>round the room. It goes behind every piece of furniture

0:48:54.840 --> 0:49:00.279
<v Speaker 1>except the bed, A long, straight, even smooch. What are

0:49:00.280 --> 0:49:04.840
<v Speaker 1>these smooches? I think she means like smear, smudge, Okay, smudge,

0:49:04.880 --> 0:49:08.239
<v Speaker 1>I think the old timey smudge. I'm gonna bring that back.

0:49:09.239 --> 0:49:11.439
<v Speaker 1>It goes behind every piece of furniture except the bed,

0:49:11.480 --> 0:49:14.200
<v Speaker 1>A long, straight, even smooch. As if it had been

0:49:14.280 --> 0:49:17.120
<v Speaker 1>rubbed over and over. I wonder how it was done

0:49:17.120 --> 0:49:19.000
<v Speaker 1>and who did it, and what they did it for.

0:49:19.680 --> 0:49:23.280
<v Speaker 1>Round and round and round, round and round and round.

0:49:23.960 --> 0:49:28.560
<v Speaker 1>It makes me dizzy. I really have discovered something at last,

0:49:29.120 --> 0:49:31.359
<v Speaker 1>through watching so much at night when it changes, so

0:49:31.520 --> 0:49:34.799
<v Speaker 1>I have finally found out the front pattern does move,

0:49:35.120 --> 0:49:41.720
<v Speaker 1>and no wonder the woman behind shakes it. Yeah, sometimes

0:49:41.719 --> 0:49:44.480
<v Speaker 1>I think there are a great many women behind, and

0:49:44.600 --> 0:49:48.319
<v Speaker 1>sometimes only one, and she crawls around fast, and her

0:49:48.360 --> 0:49:51.520
<v Speaker 1>crawling shakes it all over. Then in the very bright

0:49:51.600 --> 0:49:55.320
<v Speaker 1>spots she keeps still, and in the very shady spots

0:49:55.360 --> 0:49:57.959
<v Speaker 1>she just takes hold of the bars and shakes them hard,

0:49:58.880 --> 0:50:01.640
<v Speaker 1>and she's all the time haring to climb through. But

0:50:01.719 --> 0:50:05.680
<v Speaker 1>nobody could climb through that pattern. It strangles, So I

0:50:05.719 --> 0:50:08.600
<v Speaker 1>think that is why it has so many heads. They

0:50:08.640 --> 0:50:11.520
<v Speaker 1>get through, and then the pattern strangles them off and

0:50:11.560 --> 0:50:14.920
<v Speaker 1>turns them upside down and makes their eyes white. If

0:50:14.960 --> 0:50:17.480
<v Speaker 1>those heads were covered or taken off, it would not

0:50:17.640 --> 0:50:20.719
<v Speaker 1>be half so bad. I think that woman gets out

0:50:20.760 --> 0:50:24.520
<v Speaker 1>in the daytime, and I'll tell you why. Privately. I've

0:50:24.520 --> 0:50:27.000
<v Speaker 1>seen her. I can see her out of every one

0:50:27.000 --> 0:50:29.399
<v Speaker 1>of my windows, and it's the same woman I know,

0:50:29.840 --> 0:50:32.840
<v Speaker 1>for she is always creeping, and most women do not

0:50:32.960 --> 0:50:37.120
<v Speaker 1>creep by daylight. That is very true, except little gooses.

0:50:38.280 --> 0:50:40.319
<v Speaker 1>I see her on that long road under the tree,

0:50:40.400 --> 0:50:43.440
<v Speaker 1>creeping along. When a carriage comes, she hides under the

0:50:43.440 --> 0:50:46.640
<v Speaker 1>BlackBerry vines. I don't blame her a bit. It must

0:50:46.640 --> 0:50:50.440
<v Speaker 1>be very humiliating to be out creeping by daylight. I

0:50:50.480 --> 0:50:53.080
<v Speaker 1>always locked the door when I creep by daylight. I

0:50:53.120 --> 0:50:54.920
<v Speaker 1>can't do it at night, for I know John will

0:50:54.920 --> 0:50:58.720
<v Speaker 1>suspect something at once. And John is so queer now

0:50:59.040 --> 0:51:01.680
<v Speaker 1>that I don't want to irritate him. I wish he

0:51:01.680 --> 0:51:04.920
<v Speaker 1>would take another room. Besides, I don't want anybody to

0:51:04.960 --> 0:51:07.959
<v Speaker 1>get that woman out at night. But myself often wonder

0:51:08.000 --> 0:51:09.600
<v Speaker 1>if I could see her out of all the windows

0:51:09.600 --> 0:51:12.440
<v Speaker 1>at once, but turn as fast as I can. I

0:51:12.480 --> 0:51:15.440
<v Speaker 1>can only see out of one at a time, And

0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:18.239
<v Speaker 1>though I always see her, she may be able to

0:51:18.280 --> 0:51:21.640
<v Speaker 1>creep faster than I can turn. I watched her sometimes

0:51:21.880 --> 0:51:24.360
<v Speaker 1>away off in the open country, creeping as fast as

0:51:24.400 --> 0:51:27.200
<v Speaker 1>a cloud shadow in a high wind. If only that

0:51:27.239 --> 0:51:29.520
<v Speaker 1>top pattern could be gotten off from the under one,

0:51:30.000 --> 0:51:32.279
<v Speaker 1>I mean to try it a little. By little, I

0:51:32.400 --> 0:51:34.920
<v Speaker 1>found out another funny thing, but I shan't tell it

0:51:35.000 --> 0:51:38.040
<v Speaker 1>this time. Does not do to trust people so much.

0:51:38.520 --> 0:51:40.839
<v Speaker 1>There are only two more days to get this paper off,

0:51:41.120 --> 0:51:43.840
<v Speaker 1>and I believe John is beginning to notice. I don't

0:51:43.920 --> 0:51:46.200
<v Speaker 1>like the look in his eyes. And I heard him

0:51:46.200 --> 0:51:49.600
<v Speaker 1>ask Jenny a lot of professional questions about me. She

0:51:49.760 --> 0:51:52.200
<v Speaker 1>had a very good report to give. She said, I

0:51:52.200 --> 0:51:54.960
<v Speaker 1>slept a good deal in the daytime. John knows I

0:51:55.000 --> 0:51:57.880
<v Speaker 1>don't sleep very well at night, for all, I'm so quiet.

0:51:59.000 --> 0:52:01.880
<v Speaker 1>He asked me all sorts of questions too, and pretended

0:52:01.920 --> 0:52:04.640
<v Speaker 1>to be very loving and kind, as if I couldn't

0:52:04.640 --> 0:52:08.080
<v Speaker 1>see through him. Still, I don't wonder he x o

0:52:08.840 --> 0:52:12.480
<v Speaker 1>sleeping under this paper for three months. It only interests me,

0:52:12.880 --> 0:52:15.760
<v Speaker 1>but I feel sure John and Jenny are secretly affected

0:52:15.800 --> 0:52:20.919
<v Speaker 1>by it. All right, take his home, brother taken at home.

0:52:22.360 --> 0:52:27.040
<v Speaker 1>Come on, poor lady, let's go hurrah. This is the

0:52:27.160 --> 0:52:30.360
<v Speaker 1>last day. But it is enough John to stay in

0:52:30.400 --> 0:52:33.400
<v Speaker 1>town overnight and won't be out until this evening. Jenny

0:52:33.440 --> 0:52:35.880
<v Speaker 1>wanted to sleep with me the sly thing, but I

0:52:35.960 --> 0:52:38.839
<v Speaker 1>told her I should undoubtedly rest better for a night

0:52:38.920 --> 0:52:42.760
<v Speaker 1>all alone. That was clever, for really, I wasn't alone

0:52:42.760 --> 0:52:45.239
<v Speaker 1>a bit as soon as it was moonlight, and that

0:52:45.280 --> 0:52:47.759
<v Speaker 1>poor thing began to crawl and shake the pattern. I

0:52:47.800 --> 0:52:50.160
<v Speaker 1>got up and ran to help her. I pulled and

0:52:50.200 --> 0:52:53.200
<v Speaker 1>she shook. I shook and she pulled, And before morning

0:52:53.200 --> 0:52:55.920
<v Speaker 1>we had peeled off yards of that paper, a strip

0:52:55.960 --> 0:52:58.640
<v Speaker 1>about as high as my head and half around the room.

0:52:58.719 --> 0:53:01.279
<v Speaker 1>And then when the sun came, that awful pattern began

0:53:01.320 --> 0:53:03.520
<v Speaker 1>to laugh at me. I declared I would finish it

0:53:03.600 --> 0:53:06.879
<v Speaker 1>to day. We go away tomorrow, and they are moving

0:53:06.920 --> 0:53:09.080
<v Speaker 1>all of my furniture down again, to leave things as

0:53:09.120 --> 0:53:12.359
<v Speaker 1>they were before. Jenny looked at the wall in amazement,

0:53:12.600 --> 0:53:14.480
<v Speaker 1>but I told her merrily that I did it out

0:53:14.480 --> 0:53:17.160
<v Speaker 1>of pure fite at the vicious thing. She laughed and

0:53:17.200 --> 0:53:19.680
<v Speaker 1>said she wouldn't mind doing it herself, but I must

0:53:19.680 --> 0:53:23.239
<v Speaker 1>not get tired. How she betrayed herself that time. But

0:53:23.360 --> 0:53:26.040
<v Speaker 1>I am here, and no person touches the paper but

0:53:26.280 --> 0:53:29.600
<v Speaker 1>me not alive. She tried to get me out of

0:53:29.640 --> 0:53:32.440
<v Speaker 1>the room, it was too patent, but I said it

0:53:32.480 --> 0:53:34.560
<v Speaker 1>was so quiet and empty and clean now that I

0:53:34.600 --> 0:53:37.160
<v Speaker 1>believed I would lie down again and sleep all I could,

0:53:37.440 --> 0:53:39.640
<v Speaker 1>and not to wake me even for dinner. I would

0:53:39.719 --> 0:53:42.680
<v Speaker 1>call when I woke. So now she is gone and

0:53:42.719 --> 0:53:44.680
<v Speaker 1>the servants are gone and the things are gone, and

0:53:44.719 --> 0:53:47.640
<v Speaker 1>there is nothing left with that great bedstead nailed down

0:53:47.920 --> 0:53:50.960
<v Speaker 1>with the canvas mattress we found on it. We shall

0:53:50.960 --> 0:53:54.680
<v Speaker 1>sleep downstairs tonight and take the boat home tomorrow. I

0:53:54.800 --> 0:53:57.360
<v Speaker 1>quite enjoy the room now, but it is bare again.

0:53:57.719 --> 0:54:00.840
<v Speaker 1>How those children did tear about here? The bedstet is

0:54:00.880 --> 0:54:03.960
<v Speaker 1>fairly gnawed. But I must get to work. I have

0:54:04.000 --> 0:54:05.960
<v Speaker 1>locked the door and thrown the key down into the

0:54:05.960 --> 0:54:08.759
<v Speaker 1>front path. I don't want to go out, and I

0:54:08.800 --> 0:54:11.240
<v Speaker 1>don't want to have anybody come in until John comes.

0:54:11.719 --> 0:54:15.879
<v Speaker 1>I wanted to astonish him. I've got a rope up here,

0:54:16.160 --> 0:54:19.120
<v Speaker 1>and that even Jenny did not find. If that woman

0:54:19.160 --> 0:54:21.160
<v Speaker 1>does get out and tries to get away, I can

0:54:21.200 --> 0:54:24.080
<v Speaker 1>tie her. But I forgot. I could not reach far

0:54:24.160 --> 0:54:27.600
<v Speaker 1>without anything to stand on. This bed will not move.

0:54:28.160 --> 0:54:30.120
<v Speaker 1>I tried to lift it and push it until I

0:54:30.200 --> 0:54:32.279
<v Speaker 1>was lame, and then I got so angry. I bit

0:54:32.360 --> 0:54:34.439
<v Speaker 1>off a little piece at one corner, but it hurt

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:37.279
<v Speaker 1>my teeth. Then I peeled off all the paper I

0:54:37.320 --> 0:54:40.080
<v Speaker 1>could reach standing on the floor. It sticks horribly, and

0:54:40.160 --> 0:54:43.560
<v Speaker 1>the pattern just enjoys it. All those strangled heads and

0:54:43.640 --> 0:54:47.520
<v Speaker 1>bulbous eyes and waddling fungus growths to shriek with derision.

0:54:48.320 --> 0:54:51.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm getting angry enough to do something desperate. To jump

0:54:51.440 --> 0:54:54.400
<v Speaker 1>out the window would be an admirable exercise, but the

0:54:54.400 --> 0:54:57.880
<v Speaker 1>bars are too strong to even try. Besides, I wouldn't

0:54:57.920 --> 0:55:00.360
<v Speaker 1>do it, of course, not. I know well enough that

0:55:00.440 --> 0:55:03.200
<v Speaker 1>a step like that is improper. It might be misconstrued.

0:55:03.640 --> 0:55:06.279
<v Speaker 1>I don't like to look out the windows even There

0:55:06.280 --> 0:55:08.400
<v Speaker 1>are so many of those creeping women, and they creep

0:55:08.520 --> 0:55:11.120
<v Speaker 1>so fast. I wonder if they all come out of

0:55:11.120 --> 0:55:15.520
<v Speaker 1>that wallpaper as I did. But I am securely fastened

0:55:15.520 --> 0:55:18.080
<v Speaker 1>now by my well hidden rope. You don't get me

0:55:18.120 --> 0:55:20.880
<v Speaker 1>out into the road there. I suppose I shall have

0:55:20.960 --> 0:55:23.160
<v Speaker 1>to get back behind the pattern when it comes at night,

0:55:23.480 --> 0:55:25.960
<v Speaker 1>and that is hard. It is so pleasant to be

0:55:26.000 --> 0:55:28.440
<v Speaker 1>out in this great room and creep around as I please.

0:55:29.040 --> 0:55:31.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to go outside. I won't even if

0:55:31.600 --> 0:55:34.080
<v Speaker 1>Jenny asks me to. For outside, you have to creep

0:55:34.120 --> 0:55:36.600
<v Speaker 1>on the ground, and everything is green instead of yellow.

0:55:37.000 --> 0:55:39.440
<v Speaker 1>But here I can creep smoothly on the floor, and

0:55:39.480 --> 0:55:42.320
<v Speaker 1>my shoulder just fits in that long smooch around the wall,

0:55:42.520 --> 0:55:45.520
<v Speaker 1>so I cannot lose my way. Why there's John at

0:55:45.520 --> 0:55:48.319
<v Speaker 1>the door. It is no use, young man. You can't

0:55:48.400 --> 0:55:51.520
<v Speaker 1>open it. How he does call and pound. Now he's

0:55:51.560 --> 0:55:54.120
<v Speaker 1>crying for an axe. It would be ashamed to break

0:55:54.120 --> 0:55:57.239
<v Speaker 1>down that beautiful door, John dear, said I, in the

0:55:57.320 --> 0:55:59.880
<v Speaker 1>gentlest voice. The key is down by the front steps

0:56:00.040 --> 0:56:03.960
<v Speaker 1>under a plantain leaf. That silenced him for a few moments.

0:56:04.400 --> 0:56:07.480
<v Speaker 1>Then he said, very quietly, indeed, opened the door, my darling,

0:56:08.160 --> 0:56:10.400
<v Speaker 1>I can't, said I. The key is down by the

0:56:10.440 --> 0:56:13.319
<v Speaker 1>front door, under a plantain leaf. And then I said

0:56:13.360 --> 0:56:17.000
<v Speaker 1>it again several times, very gently and slowly, and said

0:56:17.000 --> 0:56:18.840
<v Speaker 1>it so often that he had to go and see.

0:56:19.280 --> 0:56:20.880
<v Speaker 1>And he got it, of course, and he came in.

0:56:21.719 --> 0:56:25.080
<v Speaker 1>He stopped short by the door. What is the matter,

0:56:25.160 --> 0:56:28.040
<v Speaker 1>he cried, for God's sake, what are you doing? I

0:56:28.120 --> 0:56:30.400
<v Speaker 1>kept on creeping just the same, But I looked at

0:56:30.480 --> 0:56:33.319
<v Speaker 1>him over my shoulder. I've got out at last, said I,

0:56:33.360 --> 0:56:35.799
<v Speaker 1>in spite of you and Jane. And I've pulled off

0:56:35.880 --> 0:56:38.680
<v Speaker 1>most of the paper, so you can't put me back. Now.

0:56:38.680 --> 0:56:41.680
<v Speaker 1>Why should that man have fainted? But he did, and

0:56:41.760 --> 0:56:44.040
<v Speaker 1>right across my path by the wall, so that I

0:56:44.080 --> 0:56:55.400
<v Speaker 1>had to creep over him every time. Alrighty, that was

0:56:55.400 --> 0:57:02.600
<v Speaker 1>a good story. Creeping she she became part of the wallpaper. Yeah,

0:57:02.640 --> 0:57:07.240
<v Speaker 1>and I love how um Madam Perkins Uh to switch

0:57:07.360 --> 0:57:10.239
<v Speaker 1>suddenly where your brains like, wait, what happened? And then

0:57:10.400 --> 0:57:13.480
<v Speaker 1>it starts to sink in. It's great stuff. Yeah, very

0:57:13.520 --> 0:57:17.120
<v Speaker 1>creepy uh and quite a feminist statement. Like I said,

0:57:17.240 --> 0:57:18.880
<v Speaker 1>you don't have to read between any lines on that one.

0:57:20.080 --> 0:57:24.160
<v Speaker 1>Um yeah, being held behind bars Yeah yeah. Uh. Well,

0:57:24.200 --> 0:57:27.040
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