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Speaker 1: Hello, and welcome to the podcast. We need to come

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Speaker 1: up with those spooky Simpsons names. You know what they

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Speaker 1: do for a Treehouse of Horror every year. We just

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Speaker 1: have never done that, but so I guess this year again. Still,

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Speaker 1: I'm just Josh Clark, and you're just Charles w Chuck Bryant,

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Speaker 1: and there's Jerry the murderous ghoul Roland. No, you're Josh

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Speaker 1: Spooky Clark and I'm Chuck. He's right behind you, Bryant. Nice.

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Speaker 1: That's good stuff, man, thanks for swooping in there. So

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Speaker 1: this is our Halloween Special, which we do every year

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Speaker 1: these days for those of you who aren't familiar but

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Speaker 1: who like horror fiction prepared to be delighted. Yeah, what

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Speaker 1: we do is, uh, we get together at a year

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Speaker 1: and we should point out this is one of two

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Speaker 1: ad free episodes we do every year, along with the

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Speaker 1: Christmas Holiday Spectacular. Uh. And you know we fight for

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Speaker 1: this every year because it would really ruin the vibe

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Speaker 1: of a good spooky story if we took a commercial break,

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Speaker 1: right yep. But it's our gift to your right. So

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Speaker 1: what we do is we read it used to be

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Speaker 1: one story. Sometimes we've fan sourced stories which was. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: we had a whole horror fiction contest, which we will

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Speaker 1: never do again. No, it was a lot of work,

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Speaker 1: but it yielded some pretty great stuff. Yeah, and I

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Speaker 1: think last year we did the little uh two sentence

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Speaker 1: fans submitted things and that was kind of neat. But

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Speaker 1: this year we're going old school and just reading too

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Speaker 1: straight up horror fiction stories, one of which was written

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Speaker 1: expressly for us for this episode by our favorite writer

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Speaker 1: Ed Grabowski. Yes, and we have a little a little

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Speaker 1: update till last year's story. So Ed wrote us a

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Speaker 1: story last year called extrane of Use Invocot, which was

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Speaker 1: great and terrifying. It was so terrifying, in fact, chuck

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Speaker 1: that over in the UK, a producer of films got

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Speaker 1: in touch with Ed and said, hey, mate, um, I

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Speaker 1: want to turn that story into a movie. What do

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Speaker 1: you say? He said, I'm not your mate, but sure, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and it's happening. That's I mean, how about that? Yeah.

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Speaker 1: They set up a website for it called The Between

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Speaker 1: dot Film. That's the name of the movie, is The

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Speaker 1: Between and Now in the post dot com bubble days,

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Speaker 1: you can call your website dot anything. So again it's

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Speaker 1: the Between dot Film and it will give you some

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Speaker 1: information on the story. There's even a link to last

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Speaker 1: year's Halloween episode, so if you want to go listen

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Speaker 1: to it, go to that site and find it. And

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Speaker 1: they set up a crowdfunding um uh project to help

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Speaker 1: get things like obviously the movie when they complete it. Sure,

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Speaker 1: you can get signed scripts, even a credit in the movie.

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Speaker 1: There's a lot of stuff you can get that they're offering.

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Speaker 1: And the movie slated to come out February fourteen, two

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Speaker 1: thousand and eighteen as it stands right now. Man, that's great,

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Speaker 1: Like that's it's really on track to go. So um

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Speaker 1: things are coming up for the Grabster, and he gave

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Speaker 1: us another great story that I'm I would be surprised

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Speaker 1: I guess that producer said, I love the story, but

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Speaker 1: say that. We're just gonna call it the Between. Cool title,

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Speaker 1: but the Between is definitely a little more marketable, and

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Speaker 1: I think in today's modern world than Latin. Yeah, we

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Speaker 1: That's right. It is called Gifts, not g I F

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Speaker 1: and Jerry, as ever, is going to pull out all

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Speaker 1: A wide staircase of dark, varnished wood led to an

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Speaker 1: He looked up as I entered. Hello, he said, are

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Speaker 1: What's it about a girl who becomes someone else and

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Speaker 1: Do you want to see what I found? Without waiting

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Speaker 1: I don't like the sounds of Bobby. Uh No, not

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Speaker 1: the job, That's great. My husband didn't exactly sound joyful

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Speaker 1: at the news. To be honest, neither did I. Working

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Speaker 1: But times are hard for everyone, and most had it

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Speaker 1: and the young boy Bobby is I paused about to say,

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Speaker 1: I'm glad you got that sappy party. Don't worry about Bobby.

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Speaker 1: this morning, Bobby said. One afternoon, he held out a

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Speaker 1: small pile of coins, worn and blackened with age Latin

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Speaker 1: I said, Oh, I can't sell them. His face was

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Speaker 1: very serious. Mr. Sorrow says their mind to keep children

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Speaker 1: But when Bobby said that name, I felt something on

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Speaker 1: grazes the skin. Mr Sorrow. My voice was just a whisper. Yes,

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Speaker 1: light was always bad in that room. The whole section

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Speaker 1: it felt incorrect. The shadows fell at the wrong angles,

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Speaker 1: He closed a small fist around the coins and ran off.

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Speaker 1: It is very seldom that mere ordinary people like John

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Speaker 1: for personally I disagree with their ideas. Personally I believe

425
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:29,520
Speaker 1: that congenial work, with excitement and change would do me good.

426
00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:32,240
Speaker 1: But what is one to do. I did write for

427
00:24:32,280 --> 00:24:35,280
Speaker 1: a while in spite of them, but it does exhaust

428
00:24:35,359 --> 00:24:37,920
Speaker 1: me a good deal having to be so sly about

429
00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 1: it or else be met with heavy opposition. I sometimes

430
00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:44,280
Speaker 1: fancy that, in my condition, if I had less opposition

431
00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:48,040
Speaker 1: and more society and stimulus. But John says, the very

432
00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:50,760
Speaker 1: worst thing I can do is to think about my condition,

433
00:24:51,480 --> 00:24:53,880
Speaker 1: and I confess it always makes me feel bad. So

434
00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:56,480
Speaker 1: I will let it alone and talk about the house,

435
00:24:56,920 --> 00:25:00,160
Speaker 1: the most beautiful place. It is quite alone, standing well

436
00:25:00,240 --> 00:25:03,000
Speaker 1: back from the road, quite three miles from the village.

437
00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,480
Speaker 1: It makes me think of English places that you read about.

438
00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 1: For there are hedges and walls and gates that lock,

439
00:25:08,440 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 1: and lots of separate little houses for the gardeners and people.

440
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:14,520
Speaker 1: There is a delicious garden. I never saw such a garden,

441
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:17,600
Speaker 1: large and shady, full of box bordered paths and line

442
00:25:17,600 --> 00:25:21,000
Speaker 1: with long grape covered arbors with seats under them. There

443
00:25:21,000 --> 00:25:24,199
Speaker 1: were greenhouses too, but they're all broken now. There was

444
00:25:24,240 --> 00:25:26,800
Speaker 1: some legal trouble. I believe something about the airs and

445
00:25:26,880 --> 00:25:30,119
Speaker 1: co airs. Anyhow, the place has been empty for years

446
00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:33,400
Speaker 1: that spoils my ghostliness. I'm afraid, but I don't care.

447
00:25:33,720 --> 00:25:35,840
Speaker 1: There's something strange about the house. I can feel it.

448
00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:38,919
Speaker 1: I even said so to John one moonlit evening, but

449
00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:41,480
Speaker 1: he said what I felt was a draft and shut

450
00:25:41,480 --> 00:25:45,400
Speaker 1: the window. I get unreasonably angry with John sometimes. I'm

451
00:25:45,440 --> 00:25:47,960
Speaker 1: sure I never used to be so sensitive. I think

452
00:25:47,960 --> 00:25:50,560
Speaker 1: it is due to the nervous condition. But John says

453
00:25:50,600 --> 00:25:53,520
Speaker 1: if I feel so, I shall neglect proper self control.

454
00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:56,960
Speaker 1: So I take pains to control myself before him at least,

455
00:25:57,359 --> 00:25:59,960
Speaker 1: and that makes me very tired. I don't like our

456
00:26:00,080 --> 00:26:02,840
Speaker 1: room a bit. I wanted one downstairs that opened on

457
00:26:02,880 --> 00:26:06,320
Speaker 1: the piazza and had roses all over the window and

458
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:09,560
Speaker 1: such pretty old fashioned chintz hangings. But John would not

459
00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:11,679
Speaker 1: hear of it. He said there was only one window,

460
00:26:11,720 --> 00:26:17,679
Speaker 1: and not room for two beds. Nice touch, and no

461
00:26:17,880 --> 00:26:20,320
Speaker 1: near room for him if he took another. He is

462
00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:22,760
Speaker 1: very careful and loving and hardly lets me stir without

463
00:26:22,800 --> 00:26:27,160
Speaker 1: special direction. I have a schedule, prescription for each hour

464
00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:30,119
Speaker 1: in the day. He takes all care from me, so

465
00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:34,200
Speaker 1: I feel basely ungrateful not to value it more. He said.

466
00:26:34,240 --> 00:26:36,720
Speaker 1: We came here solely on my account, that I was

467
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:38,760
Speaker 1: to have perfect rest and all the air I could get.

468
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:42,879
Speaker 1: Your exercise depends on your strengthen my idea, he said,

469
00:26:43,359 --> 00:26:46,199
Speaker 1: like that, and your food somewhat on your appetite. But

470
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:49,200
Speaker 1: air you can absorb all the time. So we took

471
00:26:49,240 --> 00:26:51,119
Speaker 1: the nursery at the top of the house. It was

472
00:26:51,160 --> 00:26:54,120
Speaker 1: a big airy room, the whole floor nearly with windows

473
00:26:54,160 --> 00:26:57,879
Speaker 1: that look always and air and sunshine galore. It was

474
00:26:57,920 --> 00:27:01,040
Speaker 1: a nursery first, and then play room and aymnasium, I

475
00:27:01,080 --> 00:27:04,240
Speaker 1: should judge, for the windows are barred for little children,

476
00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:07,760
Speaker 1: and there are rings and things in the walls. The

477
00:27:07,800 --> 00:27:10,439
Speaker 1: paint and paper look as if a boy's school had

478
00:27:10,520 --> 00:27:13,560
Speaker 1: used it. It is stripped off the paper and great

479
00:27:13,600 --> 00:27:16,359
Speaker 1: patches all around the head of my bed, about as

480
00:27:16,440 --> 00:27:18,639
Speaker 1: far as I can reach, and in a great place

481
00:27:18,640 --> 00:27:20,840
Speaker 1: on the other side of the room low down. I

482
00:27:20,960 --> 00:27:23,960
Speaker 1: never saw a worse paper in my life. One of

483
00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:28,119
Speaker 1: those sprawling, flamboyant patterns, committing every artistic sin it is

484
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:31,400
Speaker 1: dull enough to confuse the eye, and following pronounced enough

485
00:27:31,440 --> 00:27:34,760
Speaker 1: to constantly irritate and provoke study. And when you follow

486
00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:38,560
Speaker 1: the lame, uncertain curves for a little distance, they suddenly

487
00:27:38,560 --> 00:27:43,119
Speaker 1: commit suicide, plunge off at outrageous angles, destroy themselves, and

488
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:48,840
Speaker 1: unheard of contradictions. The color is repellent, almost revolting, a smoldering,

489
00:27:49,040 --> 00:27:53,760
Speaker 1: unclean yellow, strangely faded by the slow turning sunlight. It

490
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:56,800
Speaker 1: is a dull yet lurid orange, in some places, a

491
00:27:56,920 --> 00:28:00,760
Speaker 1: sickly sulfur tin in others. No wonder the children hated it.

492
00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:03,040
Speaker 1: I should hate it myself if I had to live

493
00:28:03,040 --> 00:28:06,320
Speaker 1: in this room long. There comes John. I must put

494
00:28:06,320 --> 00:28:08,639
Speaker 1: this away. He hates to have me write a word,

495
00:28:10,119 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 1: all right, not bad. It sounds to me early on

496
00:28:15,440 --> 00:28:17,800
Speaker 1: like this lady is already a prisoner in this room,

497
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:21,040
Speaker 1: a prisoner in her life. Maybe even Chuck, you could say,

498
00:28:21,080 --> 00:28:24,119
Speaker 1: I think so, I don't. John strikes me. He's one

499
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 1: of those doctors. It's like, uh, you know, just breathe

500
00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:28,359
Speaker 1: into this bag for a bit and you'll be fine.

501
00:28:28,600 --> 00:28:32,280
Speaker 1: Don't question me, or I'll have you surgically murdered. All right,

502
00:28:32,320 --> 00:28:36,000
Speaker 1: take it away, We've been here two weeks, and I

503
00:28:36,000 --> 00:28:39,400
Speaker 1: haven't felt like writing before since that first day. I'm

504
00:28:39,440 --> 00:28:42,400
Speaker 1: sitting by the window now, up in this atrocious nursery,

505
00:28:42,640 --> 00:28:44,719
Speaker 1: and there's nothing to hinder my writing as much as

506
00:28:44,760 --> 00:28:48,160
Speaker 1: I please, save lack of strength. John is away all

507
00:28:48,240 --> 00:28:50,960
Speaker 1: day and even some nights when his cases are serious.

508
00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:54,600
Speaker 1: I'm glad my case is not serious, but these nervous

509
00:28:54,600 --> 00:28:58,200
Speaker 1: troubles are dreadfully depressing. John does not know how much

510
00:28:58,240 --> 00:29:01,160
Speaker 1: I really suffer. He knows there is no reason to suffer,

511
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:05,000
Speaker 1: and that satisfies it. Of course, it is only nervousness.

512
00:29:05,040 --> 00:29:06,760
Speaker 1: It does weigh on me so not to do my

513
00:29:06,880 --> 00:29:09,640
Speaker 1: duty in any way. I'm meant to be such a

514
00:29:09,680 --> 00:29:12,480
Speaker 1: help to John, such a real rest and comfort, and

515
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:16,400
Speaker 1: here I am a comparative burden. Already. Nobody would believe

516
00:29:16,440 --> 00:29:18,320
Speaker 1: what an effort it is to do what little I

517
00:29:18,320 --> 00:29:22,160
Speaker 1: am able to dress and entertain and order things. It

518
00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:24,840
Speaker 1: is fortunate Mary is so good with the baby, such

519
00:29:24,880 --> 00:29:28,320
Speaker 1: a dear baby, and yet I cannot be with him.

520
00:29:28,360 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 1: It makes me so nervous. I suppose John never was

521
00:29:31,840 --> 00:29:34,640
Speaker 1: nervous in his life. He laughs at me so about

522
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 1: this wallpaper. At first, he meant to repaper the room.

523
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:40,440
Speaker 1: But afterwards he said that I was letting it get

524
00:29:40,440 --> 00:29:42,320
Speaker 1: the better of me, and that nothing was worse for

525
00:29:42,360 --> 00:29:44,800
Speaker 1: a nervous patient than to give way to such fancies.

526
00:29:45,680 --> 00:29:47,960
Speaker 1: He said that after the wallpaper was changed, it would

527
00:29:47,960 --> 00:29:50,640
Speaker 1: be the heavy bedstead, and then the barred windows, and

528
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:52,400
Speaker 1: then the gate at the head of the stairs and

529
00:29:52,400 --> 00:29:55,240
Speaker 1: so on. You know, this place is doing you good,

530
00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:58,080
Speaker 1: he said. And really, dear, I don't care to renovate

531
00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:01,000
Speaker 1: the house, just for three months rental. Then let us

532
00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:04,960
Speaker 1: go downstairs. I said, there's such pretty rooms there. Then

533
00:30:04,960 --> 00:30:06,480
Speaker 1: he took me in his arms, and he called me

534
00:30:06,520 --> 00:30:09,080
Speaker 1: a blessed little goose, and he said he would go

535
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:11,240
Speaker 1: down to the cellar if I wished, and have it

536
00:30:11,280 --> 00:30:14,560
Speaker 1: whitewashed into the bargain. But he has right enough about

537
00:30:14,560 --> 00:30:17,440
Speaker 1: the beds and windows and things. It is an airy

538
00:30:17,520 --> 00:30:20,720
Speaker 1: and comfortable room as anyone need wish. And of course

539
00:30:20,760 --> 00:30:22,400
Speaker 1: I would not be so silly as to make him

540
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:25,840
Speaker 1: uncomfortable just for a whim. I'm really getting quite fond

541
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:29,600
Speaker 1: of the big room, all about that horrid paper. Out

542
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:32,240
Speaker 1: of one window I can see the garden, those mysterious

543
00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:35,880
Speaker 1: deep shaded arbors, the riotous old fashioned flowers and bushes

544
00:30:35,880 --> 00:30:38,960
Speaker 1: and gnarly trees. Out of another, I get a lovely

545
00:30:39,040 --> 00:30:41,520
Speaker 1: view of the bay. In a little private wharf belonging

546
00:30:41,600 --> 00:30:44,560
Speaker 1: to the estate. There is a beautiful shaded lane that

547
00:30:44,640 --> 00:30:47,520
Speaker 1: runs down there from the house. I always fancy that

548
00:30:47,560 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 1: I see people walking in these numerous paths and arbors.

549
00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:52,440
Speaker 1: But John has cautioned me not to give way to

550
00:30:52,480 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 1: fancy in the least. He says that with my imaginative

551
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,200
Speaker 1: power and habit of story making, a nervous weakness like

552
00:30:58,280 --> 00:31:01,000
Speaker 1: mine is sure to lead to all manner of excited fancies,

553
00:31:01,280 --> 00:31:03,200
Speaker 1: and that I ought to use my will in good

554
00:31:03,200 --> 00:31:07,280
Speaker 1: sense to check the tendency. So I try. I think

555
00:31:07,360 --> 00:31:09,600
Speaker 1: sometimes that if I were only well enough to write

556
00:31:09,640 --> 00:31:11,959
Speaker 1: a little, it would relieve the press of ideas and

557
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:15,040
Speaker 1: rest me. But I find I get pretty tired when

558
00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:18,280
Speaker 1: I try. It is so discouraging not to have any

559
00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:21,680
Speaker 1: advice and companionship about my work. When I get really well,

560
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,280
Speaker 1: John says we will ask cousin Henry and Julia down

561
00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:26,200
Speaker 1: for a long visit. But he says he would as

562
00:31:26,200 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 1: soon put fireworks in my pillow cases to let me

563
00:31:28,440 --> 00:31:31,960
Speaker 1: have those stimulating people about. Now. I wish I would

564
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:34,920
Speaker 1: get well faster, but I must not think about that.

565
00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:37,000
Speaker 1: This paper looks to me as if it knew what

566
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:40,480
Speaker 1: a vicious influence it had. There's a recurrent spot where

567
00:31:40,520 --> 00:31:43,720
Speaker 1: the patterned laws like a broken neck, two bulbous eyes

568
00:31:43,760 --> 00:31:47,320
Speaker 1: that stare at you upside down. I get positively angry

569
00:31:47,360 --> 00:31:50,640
Speaker 1: with the impertinence of it, and the everlasting nous. Up

570
00:31:50,680 --> 00:31:53,600
Speaker 1: and down in sideways they crawl, and those absurd, unblinking

571
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:56,760
Speaker 1: eyes are everywhere. There is one place where two breaths

572
00:31:56,760 --> 00:32:00,040
Speaker 1: didn't match, and the eyes go all up and on

573
00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:02,840
Speaker 1: the line, one a little higher than the other. I

574
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:05,880
Speaker 1: never saw so much expression in an inanimate thing before,

575
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:09,040
Speaker 1: and we all know how much expression they have. I

576
00:32:09,160 --> 00:32:11,160
Speaker 1: used to lie awake as a child and get more

577
00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:14,000
Speaker 1: entertainment and terror out of blank walls and plain furniture

578
00:32:14,080 --> 00:32:17,000
Speaker 1: than most children could find in a toy store. I

579
00:32:17,080 --> 00:32:20,200
Speaker 1: remember what kindly wink the knobs of our big old

580
00:32:20,240 --> 00:32:22,760
Speaker 1: bureau used to have. And there was one chair that

581
00:32:22,800 --> 00:32:25,840
Speaker 1: always seemed like a strong friend. He used to feel

582
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:28,240
Speaker 1: that if any of the other things looked too fierce,

583
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:30,400
Speaker 1: I could always hop into that chair and be safe.

584
00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:34,240
Speaker 1: The furniture in this room is no worse than inharmonious, however,

585
00:32:34,600 --> 00:32:37,360
Speaker 1: for we had to bring it all from downstairs. I

586
00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:39,920
Speaker 1: suppose when this was used as a playroom they had

587
00:32:39,960 --> 00:32:42,240
Speaker 1: to take the nursery things out, And no wonder, I

588
00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:45,080
Speaker 1: never saw such ravages as the children have made here.

589
00:32:45,400 --> 00:32:48,520
Speaker 1: The wallpaper, as I said before, is torn off in spots,

590
00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:51,280
Speaker 1: and it sticketh closer than a brother. They must have

591
00:32:51,280 --> 00:32:54,240
Speaker 1: had perseverance as well as hatred. Then the floor is

592
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:57,640
Speaker 1: scratched and gouged and splintered. The plaster itself is dug

593
00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:00,240
Speaker 1: out here or there. And this great heavy bed, which

594
00:33:00,280 --> 00:33:02,200
Speaker 1: is all we found in the room, looks as if

595
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:05,280
Speaker 1: it has been through the wars. But I don't mind

596
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 1: it a bit, only the paper. There comes John's sister.

597
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:12,480
Speaker 1: Such a dear girl as she is, and so careful

598
00:33:12,520 --> 00:33:14,600
Speaker 1: of me, I must not let her find me writing.

599
00:33:15,000 --> 00:33:18,200
Speaker 1: She's a perfect and enthusiastic housekeeper, and hopes for no

600
00:33:18,280 --> 00:33:21,200
Speaker 1: better profession. I verily believe she thinks it is the

601
00:33:21,240 --> 00:33:23,960
Speaker 1: writing which made me sick. But I can write when

602
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:25,960
Speaker 1: she is out and see her A long way off

603
00:33:26,000 --> 00:33:29,280
Speaker 1: from these windows. There's one that commands the road, a

604
00:33:29,320 --> 00:33:32,280
Speaker 1: lovely shaded, winding road, and one that just looks off

605
00:33:32,360 --> 00:33:35,640
Speaker 1: over the country, A lovely country too, full of elms

606
00:33:35,640 --> 00:33:39,560
Speaker 1: and velvet meadows. This wallpaper has a kind of sub

607
00:33:39,600 --> 00:33:44,480
Speaker 1: pattern in a different shade, particularly irritating one, for you

608
00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:47,000
Speaker 1: can only see it in certain lights, and not clearly then,

609
00:33:47,800 --> 00:33:50,080
Speaker 1: but in the places where it isn't faded, where the

610
00:33:50,120 --> 00:33:53,440
Speaker 1: sun is just so, I can see a strange, provoking,

611
00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:57,200
Speaker 1: formless sort of figure that seems to skulk about behind

612
00:33:57,240 --> 00:34:01,800
Speaker 1: that silly and conspicuous front design. There's sister on the stairs.

613
00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:06,640
Speaker 1: Do you ever call uh? You me a blessed little goose? Yeah?

614
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:09,680
Speaker 1: Every day. I couldn't believe the lady took the words

615
00:34:09,760 --> 00:34:11,239
Speaker 1: right out of my mouth. How does that go over?

616
00:34:11,560 --> 00:34:15,239
Speaker 1: It doesn't go over? Well, I have shin splints from

617
00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:18,440
Speaker 1: all right, So the lady is here she uh we

618
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:21,440
Speaker 1: now have learned that her sister in law is the

619
00:34:21,440 --> 00:34:25,799
Speaker 1: housekeeper and nanny of her baby. That she doesn't see right,

620
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:31,440
Speaker 1: and she's in this room going a little nuts? Was

621
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:34,640
Speaker 1: she well to begin with? Who knows? Well? I don't know.

622
00:34:34,680 --> 00:34:37,280
Speaker 1: I think the fact that she's saying like I've always

623
00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:43,400
Speaker 1: considered furniture capable of moving and possessing a personality. I

624
00:34:43,440 --> 00:34:45,239
Speaker 1: don't know if you call that nuts, but maybe she

625
00:34:45,280 --> 00:34:47,680
Speaker 1: has an imagination. The groundwork is there, all right. Here

626
00:34:47,719 --> 00:34:51,640
Speaker 1: we go. Well, the fourth of July is over. The

627
00:34:51,680 --> 00:34:55,319
Speaker 1: people are gone, and I am tired out. John did

628
00:34:55,320 --> 00:35:00,160
Speaker 1: put fireworks in my pillow case. I'm just kidding. The

629
00:35:00,160 --> 00:35:02,399
Speaker 1: people are gone and I am tired out. John thought

630
00:35:02,440 --> 00:35:04,320
Speaker 1: it might do me some good to see a little company,

631
00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:07,640
Speaker 1: so we just had Mother and Nelly and the children

632
00:35:07,719 --> 00:35:09,879
Speaker 1: down for a week. Of course, I didn't do a thing.

633
00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,920
Speaker 1: Jenny sees to everything now, but it tired me all

634
00:35:12,960 --> 00:35:15,520
Speaker 1: the same. John says, if I don't pick up faster,

635
00:35:15,920 --> 00:35:18,160
Speaker 1: he shall send me over to Weir Mitchell and the Fall.

636
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:20,600
Speaker 1: But I don't want to go there at all. I

637
00:35:20,640 --> 00:35:23,160
Speaker 1: had a friend who was in his hands once, and

638
00:35:23,239 --> 00:35:25,319
Speaker 1: she says he is just like John and my brother,

639
00:35:25,480 --> 00:35:31,320
Speaker 1: only more so, that is to say, a nineteenth century man. Besides,

640
00:35:31,360 --> 00:35:34,000
Speaker 1: it is such an undertaking to go so far. I

641
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,879
Speaker 1: don't feel as if it was worth while to turn

642
00:35:36,960 --> 00:35:40,040
Speaker 1: my hand over for anything, And I'm getting dreadfully fretful

643
00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:44,120
Speaker 1: and querulous. I cry it nothing and cry most at

644
00:35:44,120 --> 00:35:46,839
Speaker 1: the time. Of course, I don't want John is here

645
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:50,120
Speaker 1: or anybody else. But when I am alone, and I'm

646
00:35:50,160 --> 00:35:53,000
Speaker 1: alone a good deal. Just now. John is kept in

647
00:35:53,080 --> 00:35:56,959
Speaker 1: town very often by serious cases. And Jenny is good

648
00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:59,759
Speaker 1: and lets me alone when I want her too. So

649
00:36:00,040 --> 00:36:01,840
Speaker 1: I walk a little in the garden or down that

650
00:36:01,920 --> 00:36:04,640
Speaker 1: lovely lane, sit on the porch under the roses, and

651
00:36:05,160 --> 00:36:08,480
Speaker 1: lie down up here. A good deal. I'm getting really

652
00:36:08,520 --> 00:36:11,960
Speaker 1: fond of the room, in spite of the wallpaper. Perhaps

653
00:36:12,120 --> 00:36:15,640
Speaker 1: because of the wallpaper, it dwells in my mind. So

654
00:36:16,440 --> 00:36:19,160
Speaker 1: I lie here on this great immovable bed. It is

655
00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:22,759
Speaker 1: nailed down, I believe, and follow that pattern about by

656
00:36:22,760 --> 00:36:26,120
Speaker 1: the hour. It is as good as gymnastics, I assure you.

657
00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:29,640
Speaker 1: I start, will say at the bottom, down in the

658
00:36:29,719 --> 00:36:32,759
Speaker 1: corner over there, where it has not been touched, and

659
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:36,560
Speaker 1: I determine for the thousandth time that I will follow

660
00:36:36,960 --> 00:36:40,640
Speaker 1: that pointless pattern to some sort of conclusion. I know

661
00:36:40,719 --> 00:36:43,040
Speaker 1: a little of the principle of design, and I know

662
00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:45,880
Speaker 1: this thing was not arranged on any laws of radiation

663
00:36:46,360 --> 00:36:49,680
Speaker 1: or alternation or repetition or symmetry or anything else that

664
00:36:49,719 --> 00:36:53,080
Speaker 1: I've ever heard of. It is repeated, of course by

665
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:56,640
Speaker 1: the breadths, but not otherwise looked at. In one way,

666
00:36:56,840 --> 00:37:01,239
Speaker 1: each breath stands alone. The bloated curves and wishes kind

667
00:37:01,239 --> 00:37:06,120
Speaker 1: of debased Romanesque with delirium. Tremens go waddling up and

668
00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:10,399
Speaker 1: down in isolated columns of fatuity. But on the other hand,

669
00:37:10,440 --> 00:37:14,080
Speaker 1: they connect diagonally, and the sprawling outlines run off in

670
00:37:14,200 --> 00:37:17,719
Speaker 1: great slanting ways of optic horror, like a lot of

671
00:37:17,719 --> 00:37:21,719
Speaker 1: wallowing seaweeds in full chase. The whole thing goes horizontally too,

672
00:37:22,400 --> 00:37:25,520
Speaker 1: at least it seems so, and I exhaust myself in

673
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:29,080
Speaker 1: trying to distinguish the order of its going in that direction.

674
00:37:29,719 --> 00:37:32,680
Speaker 1: They have used a horizontal breadth for a frieze, and

675
00:37:32,719 --> 00:37:35,759
Speaker 1: that adds wonderfully to the confusion. There is one end

676
00:37:35,760 --> 00:37:38,520
Speaker 1: of the room where it is almost intact, and there,

677
00:37:38,840 --> 00:37:41,600
Speaker 1: when the cross lights fade and the low sun shines

678
00:37:41,640 --> 00:37:45,399
Speaker 1: directly upon it, I can almost fancy radiation. After all,

679
00:37:46,120 --> 00:37:49,360
Speaker 1: the interminable grotesque seemed to form around a common center

680
00:37:49,760 --> 00:37:53,239
Speaker 1: and rush off and headlong plunges of equal distraction. It

681
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:56,239
Speaker 1: makes me tired to follow it. I will take a nap.

682
00:37:56,280 --> 00:37:58,759
Speaker 1: I guess I don't know why I should write this.

683
00:37:59,080 --> 00:38:02,120
Speaker 1: I don't want to. I don't feel able, and I

684
00:38:02,160 --> 00:38:05,040
Speaker 1: know John would think it's absurd, But I must say

685
00:38:05,080 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 1: what I feel and think in some way. It is

686
00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:10,160
Speaker 1: such a relief, But the effort is getting to be

687
00:38:10,239 --> 00:38:13,240
Speaker 1: greater than the relief half the time. Now I am

688
00:38:13,280 --> 00:38:17,520
Speaker 1: awfully lazy and lie down ever so much. John says

689
00:38:17,560 --> 00:38:20,680
Speaker 1: I mustn't lose my strength, and has me take cod,

690
00:38:20,719 --> 00:38:23,480
Speaker 1: liver oil and lots of tonics and things, to say

691
00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:27,080
Speaker 1: nothing of ale and wine and rare meat. Dear John,

692
00:38:27,280 --> 00:38:30,480
Speaker 1: he loves me very dearly and hates to have me sick.

693
00:38:31,040 --> 00:38:33,480
Speaker 1: I tried to have a real, earnest, reasonable talk with

694
00:38:33,560 --> 00:38:35,800
Speaker 1: him the other day and tell him how I wish

695
00:38:35,960 --> 00:38:37,920
Speaker 1: you would let me go and make a visit to

696
00:38:37,960 --> 00:38:40,719
Speaker 1: cousin Henry and Julia. But he said I wasn't able

697
00:38:40,760 --> 00:38:43,600
Speaker 1: to go, nor able to stand it after I got there.

698
00:38:44,160 --> 00:38:46,200
Speaker 1: And I did not make out a very good case

699
00:38:46,239 --> 00:38:49,160
Speaker 1: for myself, for I was crying before I had finished.

700
00:38:50,040 --> 00:38:52,160
Speaker 1: Is getting to be a great effort for me to

701
00:38:52,239 --> 00:38:56,439
Speaker 1: think straight, just this nervous weakness, I suppose, And dear

702
00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 1: John gathered me up in his arms and just carried

703
00:38:58,960 --> 00:39:01,640
Speaker 1: me upstairs and laid me on the bed and sat

704
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:04,359
Speaker 1: by me and read to me till get tired. My

705
00:39:05,200 --> 00:39:11,000
Speaker 1: poor little goose head sorry. I feel terrible for this lady.

706
00:39:11,120 --> 00:39:13,759
Speaker 1: I do, and it just really is suffering from like

707
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:18,719
Speaker 1: massive depression, yeah for sure. And and on top of that,

708
00:39:18,760 --> 00:39:21,040
Speaker 1: she's being locked in her room that's driving her nuts

709
00:39:21,080 --> 00:39:23,879
Speaker 1: by her husband. Yeah, I think that's the problem here.

710
00:39:26,440 --> 00:39:28,239
Speaker 1: He said I was his darling and his comfort and

711
00:39:28,280 --> 00:39:30,440
Speaker 1: all he had, and that I must take care of

712
00:39:30,440 --> 00:39:33,399
Speaker 1: myself for his sake and keep well. He says, yeah,

713
00:39:33,400 --> 00:39:37,000
Speaker 1: because it's all about John, right right, get better for me.

714
00:39:37,560 --> 00:39:40,680
Speaker 1: Why can't you just get better? He says, No one

715
00:39:40,719 --> 00:39:42,719
Speaker 1: but myself can help me out of it. That I

716
00:39:42,800 --> 00:39:45,160
Speaker 1: must use my will and self control and not let

717
00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:48,240
Speaker 1: any silly fancies run away with me. There's one comfort.

718
00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:51,319
Speaker 1: The baby is well and happy and does not have

719
00:39:51,400 --> 00:39:55,839
Speaker 1: to occupy this nursery with that horrid wall paper. If

720
00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:58,200
Speaker 1: we had not used it, that blessed child would have

721
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:02,720
Speaker 1: What a fortunate escape. Why I wouldn't have a child

722
00:40:02,760 --> 00:40:06,080
Speaker 1: of mine, an impressionable little thing, live in such a

723
00:40:06,160 --> 00:40:09,000
Speaker 1: room for worlds. I never thought of it before, But

724
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:11,200
Speaker 1: it is lucky that John kept me here. After all.

725
00:40:11,719 --> 00:40:13,720
Speaker 1: I can stand it so much easier than a baby,

726
00:40:13,760 --> 00:40:17,120
Speaker 1: you see. Of course I never mentioned it to them anymore.

727
00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:19,959
Speaker 1: I am too wise, but I keep watching it all

728
00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:22,840
Speaker 1: the same. There are things in that paper that nobody

729
00:40:22,880 --> 00:40:26,480
Speaker 1: knows but me, or ever will. Behind that outside pattern,

730
00:40:26,840 --> 00:40:30,400
Speaker 1: the dim shapes get clearer every day. It is always

731
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:34,400
Speaker 1: the same shape, only very numerous. And it is like

732
00:40:34,440 --> 00:40:38,440
Speaker 1: a woman stooping down and creeping about behind that pattern.

733
00:40:38,920 --> 00:40:41,680
Speaker 1: I don't like it a bit, I wonder. I begin

734
00:40:41,719 --> 00:40:44,680
Speaker 1: to think. I wish John would take me away from here.

735
00:40:45,239 --> 00:40:47,720
Speaker 1: It is so hard to talk to John about my case,

736
00:40:48,320 --> 00:40:51,080
Speaker 1: because he is so wise, because he loves me so

737
00:40:51,680 --> 00:40:55,319
Speaker 1: But I tried. Last night, it was moonlight. The moon

738
00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:58,560
Speaker 1: shines in all around, just as the sun does. I

739
00:40:58,600 --> 00:41:01,160
Speaker 1: hate to see it. Sometimes it creeps so slowly and

740
00:41:01,200 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: always comes in by one window or another. John was asleep,

741
00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:07,279
Speaker 1: and I hated to waken him, so I kept still

742
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:10,200
Speaker 1: and watched the moonlight on that undulating wallpaper until I

743
00:41:10,239 --> 00:41:14,120
Speaker 1: felt creepy. The faint figure behind seemed to shake the pattern,

744
00:41:14,440 --> 00:41:16,839
Speaker 1: just as if she wanted to get out. I got

745
00:41:16,920 --> 00:41:19,120
Speaker 1: up softly and went to feel and see if the

746
00:41:19,160 --> 00:41:22,200
Speaker 1: paper did move. When I came back, John was awake.

747
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:25,560
Speaker 1: What is it, little girl? He said, don't go walking

748
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:28,560
Speaker 1: about like that, you'll get cold. I thought it was

749
00:41:28,600 --> 00:41:30,480
Speaker 1: a good time to talk, so I told him that

750
00:41:30,520 --> 00:41:33,000
Speaker 1: I was really not gaining here, and that I wished

751
00:41:33,000 --> 00:41:35,880
Speaker 1: he would take me away. Why, darling, said he, or

752
00:41:35,880 --> 00:41:37,960
Speaker 1: at least will be up in three weeks, and I

753
00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:40,759
Speaker 1: can't see how to leave before the repairs are not

754
00:41:40,800 --> 00:41:43,640
Speaker 1: done at home, and I cannot possibly leave town just now.

755
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:45,839
Speaker 1: Of course, if you were in any danger, I could

756
00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:48,400
Speaker 1: and would. But you really are better, dear, whether you

757
00:41:48,400 --> 00:41:50,640
Speaker 1: can see it or not. I am a doctor, dear,

758
00:41:50,760 --> 00:41:54,359
Speaker 1: and I know you are gaining flesh and color. Your

759
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 1: appetite is better. I feel really much easier about you.

760
00:41:58,719 --> 00:42:01,160
Speaker 1: I don't weigh a bit more, or said I, nor

761
00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:04,120
Speaker 1: as much, and my appetite maybe better in the evening

762
00:42:04,120 --> 00:42:06,080
Speaker 1: when you are here, but it is worse in the

763
00:42:06,120 --> 00:42:09,640
Speaker 1: morning when you were away. Bless her little heart, said he,

764
00:42:09,719 --> 00:42:12,520
Speaker 1: with a big hug. She shall be as sick as

765
00:42:12,560 --> 00:42:15,440
Speaker 1: she pleases. But now let's improve the shining hours by

766
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:17,520
Speaker 1: going to sleep and talk about it in the morning.

767
00:42:18,320 --> 00:42:22,280
Speaker 1: And you won't go away, I asked gloomily, How can I, dear?

768
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:24,399
Speaker 1: It is only three weeks more, and then we will

769
00:42:24,440 --> 00:42:26,439
Speaker 1: take a nice little trip of a few days. While

770
00:42:26,520 --> 00:42:29,080
Speaker 1: Jeanie is getting the house ready. Really, dear, you are

771
00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:33,360
Speaker 1: better better in body? Perhaps I began and then stop short,

772
00:42:33,800 --> 00:42:35,400
Speaker 1: Or he sat up straight and looked at me with

773
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:38,319
Speaker 1: such a stern, reproachful look that I could not say

774
00:42:38,320 --> 00:42:42,440
Speaker 1: another word. My darling, I beg of you, for my

775
00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:44,600
Speaker 1: sake and for our child's sake, as well as of

776
00:42:44,680 --> 00:42:47,960
Speaker 1: your own, that you will never, for one instant let

777
00:42:47,960 --> 00:42:51,400
Speaker 1: that idea enter your mind. There is nothing so dangerous,

778
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:54,239
Speaker 1: so fascinating to a temperament like yours. It is a

779
00:42:54,280 --> 00:42:57,239
Speaker 1: false and foolish fancy. Can you not trust me as

780
00:42:57,280 --> 00:43:00,600
Speaker 1: a physician when I tell you so? So? Of course

781
00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:02,520
Speaker 1: I said no more on that score, and we went

782
00:43:02,560 --> 00:43:05,680
Speaker 1: to sleep before long. He thought I was asleep first,

783
00:43:05,760 --> 00:43:08,279
Speaker 1: but I wasn't, and lay there for hours trying to

784
00:43:08,320 --> 00:43:11,160
Speaker 1: decide whether that front pattern and the back pattern really

785
00:43:11,160 --> 00:43:14,960
Speaker 1: did move together or separately. On a pattern like this

786
00:43:15,200 --> 00:43:19,080
Speaker 1: by daylight, there's a lack of sequence, defines of law

787
00:43:19,400 --> 00:43:23,120
Speaker 1: that is constant irritant to a normal mind. Color is

788
00:43:23,200 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 1: hideous enough, and unreliable enough, and infuriating enough, but the

789
00:43:27,000 --> 00:43:30,600
Speaker 1: pattern is torturing. You think you have mastered it, but

790
00:43:30,760 --> 00:43:33,200
Speaker 1: just as you get well underway and following it turns

791
00:43:33,239 --> 00:43:36,080
Speaker 1: back a somersault, and there you are. It slaps you

792
00:43:36,080 --> 00:43:38,320
Speaker 1: in the face, knocks you down, and tramples you. It

793
00:43:38,440 --> 00:43:41,680
Speaker 1: is like a bad dream. The outside pattern is a

794
00:43:41,680 --> 00:43:45,839
Speaker 1: florid arabesque reminding one of a fungus. If you can

795
00:43:45,840 --> 00:43:50,560
Speaker 1: imagine a toadstool in joints, an interminable string of toadstools,

796
00:43:50,600 --> 00:43:54,160
Speaker 1: budding and sprouting and endless convolutions, why that is something

797
00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:59,160
Speaker 1: like it? That is, sometimes there's one marked peculiarity about

798
00:43:59,160 --> 00:44:01,760
Speaker 1: this paper, a thing nobody seems to notice but myself,

799
00:44:01,960 --> 00:44:04,720
Speaker 1: and that is that it changes as the light changes

800
00:44:05,320 --> 00:44:08,000
Speaker 1: when the sun shoots in through the east window. I

801
00:44:08,000 --> 00:44:11,240
Speaker 1: always watched for that first long straight ray. It changes

802
00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:14,160
Speaker 1: so quickly that I never can quite believe it. That

803
00:44:14,280 --> 00:44:17,359
Speaker 1: is why I always watch it by moonlight. The moon

804
00:44:17,440 --> 00:44:19,920
Speaker 1: shines in all night. When there is a moon, I

805
00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:22,400
Speaker 1: wouldn't know it was the same paper at night in

806
00:44:22,480 --> 00:44:26,000
Speaker 1: any kind of light, in twilight, candlelight, lamplight, and worst

807
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:29,720
Speaker 1: of all, by moonlight, it becomes bars. The outside pattern

808
00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:32,160
Speaker 1: I mean, and the woman behind it is as plain

809
00:44:32,239 --> 00:44:35,080
Speaker 1: as can be. I didn't realize for a long time

810
00:44:35,160 --> 00:44:38,720
Speaker 1: what the thing was that showed behind that dim sub pattern.

811
00:44:39,040 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 1: But now I am quite sure it is a woman.

812
00:44:41,840 --> 00:44:45,080
Speaker 1: By daylight, she is subdued quiet. I fancy it is

813
00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:48,200
Speaker 1: the pattern that keeps her so still. It is so puzzling.

814
00:44:48,520 --> 00:44:51,440
Speaker 1: It keeps me quiet by the hour. I lie down

815
00:44:51,520 --> 00:44:54,040
Speaker 1: ever so much. Now John says it is good for

816
00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:57,360
Speaker 1: me and to sleep all I can. Indeed, he started

817
00:44:57,360 --> 00:44:59,480
Speaker 1: the habit by making me lie down for an hour

818
00:44:59,600 --> 00:45:03,480
Speaker 1: after each meal. It's a very bad habit, I am convinced.

819
00:45:03,520 --> 00:45:07,080
Speaker 1: For you see, I don't sleep, and that cultivates deceit

820
00:45:07,400 --> 00:45:10,080
Speaker 1: for I don't tell them I'm awake. Oh No. The

821
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:13,600
Speaker 1: fact is I'm getting a little afraid of John. It

822
00:45:13,680 --> 00:45:18,080
Speaker 1: seems very queer sometimes, and even Jenny has an inexplicable look.

823
00:45:18,760 --> 00:45:22,640
Speaker 1: It strikes me occasionally just as a scientific hypothesis, but

824
00:45:22,760 --> 00:45:26,960
Speaker 1: perhaps it is the paper. All right, un she's coming

825
00:45:27,000 --> 00:45:29,720
Speaker 1: to her senses, right. I don't know if you would

826
00:45:29,760 --> 00:45:33,719
Speaker 1: call that a scientific hypothesis, but yeah, she seems to

827
00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:37,719
Speaker 1: be like, oh I mean about John, right, yeah, okay, yes,

828
00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:44,640
Speaker 1: agreed this quote position unquote mm hmm, all right. I've

829
00:45:44,680 --> 00:45:47,080
Speaker 1: watched John when he did not know I was looking,

830
00:45:47,120 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 1: and come into the room suddenly on the most innocent excuses,

831
00:45:50,719 --> 00:45:53,840
Speaker 1: and I've called him several times looking at the paper

832
00:45:54,239 --> 00:45:56,799
Speaker 1: and Jenny too. I caught Jenny with her hand on

833
00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:59,040
Speaker 1: it once. She didn't know I was in the room,

834
00:45:59,120 --> 00:46:01,920
Speaker 1: and when I asked her, in a quiet, very quiet voice,

835
00:46:02,280 --> 00:46:05,359
Speaker 1: with the most restrained manner possible, what she was doing

836
00:46:05,400 --> 00:46:08,719
Speaker 1: with the paper, she turned around as if she had

837
00:46:08,719 --> 00:46:12,440
Speaker 1: been caught stealing, and looked quite angry and asked me

838
00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:15,360
Speaker 1: why I should frighten her. So then she said that

839
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:18,800
Speaker 1: the paper stained everything it touched, and she had found

840
00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:22,719
Speaker 1: yellow smooches on all my clothes and John's, and she

841
00:46:22,760 --> 00:46:26,680
Speaker 1: wished we would be more careful. Did not that sound innocent?

842
00:46:27,200 --> 00:46:29,600
Speaker 1: But I know she was studying that pattern, and I

843
00:46:29,600 --> 00:46:33,040
Speaker 1: am determined that nobody shall find it out. But myself,

844
00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:35,920
Speaker 1: life is very much more exciting now than it used

845
00:46:35,960 --> 00:46:38,640
Speaker 1: to be. You see, I have something more to expect,

846
00:46:38,640 --> 00:46:41,640
Speaker 1: to look forward to, to watch. I really do eat

847
00:46:41,680 --> 00:46:44,920
Speaker 1: better and more quiet than I was. John is so

848
00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 1: pleased to see me improved. He laughed a little the

849
00:46:47,719 --> 00:46:50,000
Speaker 1: other day and said I seemed to be flourishing in

850
00:46:50,040 --> 00:46:53,680
Speaker 1: spite of my wallpaper. I turned it off with a laugh.

851
00:46:53,920 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 1: I had no intention of telling him it was because

852
00:46:56,280 --> 00:46:59,000
Speaker 1: of the wallpaper. He would make fun of me. He

853
00:46:59,080 --> 00:47:01,799
Speaker 1: might even want to take me away. I don't want

854
00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:04,399
Speaker 1: to leave now until I have found it out. There

855
00:47:04,480 --> 00:47:06,879
Speaker 1: is a week more, and I think that will be enough.

856
00:47:07,280 --> 00:47:10,200
Speaker 1: I'm feeling ever so much better. I don't sleep much

857
00:47:10,239 --> 00:47:13,520
Speaker 1: at night, for it is so interesting to watch the developments,

858
00:47:13,520 --> 00:47:16,160
Speaker 1: but I sleep a good deal in the daytime. In

859
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:19,920
Speaker 1: the daytime it is tiresome and perplexing. There are always

860
00:47:19,960 --> 00:47:22,400
Speaker 1: new shoots on the fungus, and new shades of yellow

861
00:47:22,680 --> 00:47:25,799
Speaker 1: all over it. I cannot keep counting them, though I

862
00:47:25,800 --> 00:47:30,480
Speaker 1: have tried conscientiously. It is the strangest yellow that wallpaper.

863
00:47:31,040 --> 00:47:32,960
Speaker 1: It makes me think of all the yellow things I

864
00:47:33,000 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 1: ever saw, Not the beautiful ones like buttercups, but old, foul,

865
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:42,520
Speaker 1: bad yellow things. There's something else about that paper, the smell.

866
00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:45,239
Speaker 1: I noticed it the moment we came in the room,

867
00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:47,799
Speaker 1: but with so much air and sun it was not bad.

868
00:47:48,520 --> 00:47:50,359
Speaker 1: Now we have had a week of fog and rain,

869
00:47:50,840 --> 00:47:53,120
Speaker 1: and whether the windows are open or not, the smell

870
00:47:53,239 --> 00:47:56,920
Speaker 1: is here. It creeps all over the house, find it

871
00:47:57,000 --> 00:48:00,480
Speaker 1: hovering in the dining room, skulking in the parlor, hiding

872
00:48:00,520 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 1: in the hall, lying in wait for me on the stairs.

873
00:48:04,160 --> 00:48:06,640
Speaker 1: It gets into my hair, even when I go to

874
00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:10,359
Speaker 1: ride by, turning my head suddenly in surprise. It there

875
00:48:10,440 --> 00:48:14,600
Speaker 1: is that smell, Such a peculiar odor too. I spend

876
00:48:14,680 --> 00:48:17,239
Speaker 1: hours in trying to analyze it, to find what it

877
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:21,640
Speaker 1: smelled like. It is not bad at first, and very gentle,

878
00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:25,719
Speaker 1: but quite the subtlest, most enduring odor I ever met.

879
00:48:26,360 --> 00:48:29,040
Speaker 1: In this damp weather, it is awful. I wake up

880
00:48:29,040 --> 00:48:31,520
Speaker 1: in the night and find it hanging over me. It

881
00:48:31,760 --> 00:48:35,120
Speaker 1: used to disturb me. At first I thought seriously of

882
00:48:35,200 --> 00:48:39,400
Speaker 1: burning the house to reach the smell, but now I

883
00:48:39,440 --> 00:48:41,759
Speaker 1: am used to it. The only thing I can think

884
00:48:41,800 --> 00:48:44,560
Speaker 1: of that it is like is the color of the paper,

885
00:48:45,120 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: a yellow smell. There's a very funny mark on the

886
00:48:48,640 --> 00:48:51,640
Speaker 1: wall low down near the mopboard, a streak that runs

887
00:48:51,680 --> 00:48:54,719
Speaker 1: round the room. It goes behind every piece of furniture

888
00:48:54,840 --> 00:49:00,279
Speaker 1: except the bed, A long, straight, even smooch. What are

889
00:49:00,280 --> 00:49:04,840
Speaker 1: these smooches? I think she means like smear, smudge, Okay, smudge,

890
00:49:04,880 --> 00:49:08,239
Speaker 1: I think the old timey smudge. I'm gonna bring that back.

891
00:49:09,239 --> 00:49:11,439
Speaker 1: It goes behind every piece of furniture except the bed,

892
00:49:11,480 --> 00:49:14,200
Speaker 1: A long, straight, even smooch. As if it had been

893
00:49:14,280 --> 00:49:17,120
Speaker 1: rubbed over and over. I wonder how it was done

894
00:49:17,120 --> 00:49:19,000
Speaker 1: and who did it, and what they did it for.

895
00:49:19,680 --> 00:49:23,280
Speaker 1: Round and round and round, round and round and round.

896
00:49:23,960 --> 00:49:28,560
Speaker 1: It makes me dizzy. I really have discovered something at last,

897
00:49:29,120 --> 00:49:31,359
Speaker 1: through watching so much at night when it changes, so

898
00:49:31,520 --> 00:49:34,799
Speaker 1: I have finally found out the front pattern does move,

899
00:49:35,120 --> 00:49:41,720
Speaker 1: and no wonder the woman behind shakes it. Yeah, sometimes

900
00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:44,480
Speaker 1: I think there are a great many women behind, and

901
00:49:44,600 --> 00:49:48,319
Speaker 1: sometimes only one, and she crawls around fast, and her

902
00:49:48,360 --> 00:49:51,520
Speaker 1: crawling shakes it all over. Then in the very bright

903
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:55,320
Speaker 1: spots she keeps still, and in the very shady spots

904
00:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,959
Speaker 1: she just takes hold of the bars and shakes them hard,

905
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:01,640
Speaker 1: and she's all the time haring to climb through. But

906
00:50:01,719 --> 00:50:05,680
Speaker 1: nobody could climb through that pattern. It strangles, So I

907
00:50:05,719 --> 00:50:08,600
Speaker 1: think that is why it has so many heads. They

908
00:50:08,640 --> 00:50:11,520
Speaker 1: get through, and then the pattern strangles them off and

909
00:50:11,560 --> 00:50:14,920
Speaker 1: turns them upside down and makes their eyes white. If

910
00:50:14,960 --> 00:50:17,480
Speaker 1: those heads were covered or taken off, it would not

911
00:50:17,640 --> 00:50:20,719
Speaker 1: be half so bad. I think that woman gets out

912
00:50:20,760 --> 00:50:24,520
Speaker 1: in the daytime, and I'll tell you why. Privately. I've

913
00:50:24,520 --> 00:50:27,000
Speaker 1: seen her. I can see her out of every one

914
00:50:27,000 --> 00:50:29,399
Speaker 1: of my windows, and it's the same woman I know,

915
00:50:29,840 --> 00:50:32,840
Speaker 1: for she is always creeping, and most women do not

916
00:50:32,960 --> 00:50:37,120
Speaker 1: creep by daylight. That is very true, except little gooses.

917
00:50:38,280 --> 00:50:40,319
Speaker 1: I see her on that long road under the tree,

918
00:50:40,400 --> 00:50:43,440
Speaker 1: creeping along. When a carriage comes, she hides under the

919
00:50:43,440 --> 00:50:46,640
Speaker 1: BlackBerry vines. I don't blame her a bit. It must

920
00:50:46,640 --> 00:50:50,440
Speaker 1: be very humiliating to be out creeping by daylight. I

921
00:50:50,480 --> 00:50:53,080
Speaker 1: always locked the door when I creep by daylight. I

922
00:50:53,120 --> 00:50:54,920
Speaker 1: can't do it at night, for I know John will

923
00:50:54,920 --> 00:50:58,720
Speaker 1: suspect something at once. And John is so queer now

924
00:50:59,040 --> 00:51:01,680
Speaker 1: that I don't want to irritate him. I wish he

925
00:51:01,680 --> 00:51:04,920
Speaker 1: would take another room. Besides, I don't want anybody to

926
00:51:04,960 --> 00:51:07,959
Speaker 1: get that woman out at night. But myself often wonder

927
00:51:08,000 --> 00:51:09,600
Speaker 1: if I could see her out of all the windows

928
00:51:09,600 --> 00:51:12,440
Speaker 1: at once, but turn as fast as I can. I

929
00:51:12,480 --> 00:51:15,440
Speaker 1: can only see out of one at a time, And

930
00:51:15,480 --> 00:51:18,239
Speaker 1: though I always see her, she may be able to

931
00:51:18,280 --> 00:51:21,640
Speaker 1: creep faster than I can turn. I watched her sometimes

932
00:51:21,880 --> 00:51:24,360
Speaker 1: away off in the open country, creeping as fast as

933
00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:27,200
Speaker 1: a cloud shadow in a high wind. If only that

934
00:51:27,239 --> 00:51:29,520
Speaker 1: top pattern could be gotten off from the under one,

935
00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:32,279
Speaker 1: I mean to try it a little. By little, I

936
00:51:32,400 --> 00:51:34,920
Speaker 1: found out another funny thing, but I shan't tell it

937
00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:38,040
Speaker 1: this time. Does not do to trust people so much.

938
00:51:38,520 --> 00:51:40,839
Speaker 1: There are only two more days to get this paper off,

939
00:51:41,120 --> 00:51:43,840
Speaker 1: and I believe John is beginning to notice. I don't

940
00:51:43,920 --> 00:51:46,200
Speaker 1: like the look in his eyes. And I heard him

941
00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:49,600
Speaker 1: ask Jenny a lot of professional questions about me. She

942
00:51:49,760 --> 00:51:52,200
Speaker 1: had a very good report to give. She said, I

943
00:51:52,200 --> 00:51:54,960
Speaker 1: slept a good deal in the daytime. John knows I

944
00:51:55,000 --> 00:51:57,880
Speaker 1: don't sleep very well at night, for all, I'm so quiet.

945
00:51:59,000 --> 00:52:01,880
Speaker 1: He asked me all sorts of questions too, and pretended

946
00:52:01,920 --> 00:52:04,640
Speaker 1: to be very loving and kind, as if I couldn't

947
00:52:04,640 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 1: see through him. Still, I don't wonder he x o

948
00:52:08,840 --> 00:52:12,480
Speaker 1: sleeping under this paper for three months. It only interests me,

949
00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:15,760
Speaker 1: but I feel sure John and Jenny are secretly affected

950
00:52:15,800 --> 00:52:20,919
Speaker 1: by it. All right, take his home, brother taken at home.

951
00:52:22,360 --> 00:52:27,040
Speaker 1: Come on, poor lady, let's go hurrah. This is the

952
00:52:27,160 --> 00:52:30,360
Speaker 1: last day. But it is enough John to stay in

953
00:52:30,400 --> 00:52:33,400
Speaker 1: town overnight and won't be out until this evening. Jenny

954
00:52:33,440 --> 00:52:35,880
Speaker 1: wanted to sleep with me the sly thing, but I

955
00:52:35,960 --> 00:52:38,839
Speaker 1: told her I should undoubtedly rest better for a night

956
00:52:38,920 --> 00:52:42,760
Speaker 1: all alone. That was clever, for really, I wasn't alone

957
00:52:42,760 --> 00:52:45,239
Speaker 1: a bit as soon as it was moonlight, and that

958
00:52:45,280 --> 00:52:47,759
Speaker 1: poor thing began to crawl and shake the pattern. I

959
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:50,160
Speaker 1: got up and ran to help her. I pulled and

960
00:52:50,200 --> 00:52:53,200
Speaker 1: she shook. I shook and she pulled, And before morning

961
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:55,920
Speaker 1: we had peeled off yards of that paper, a strip

962
00:52:55,960 --> 00:52:58,640
Speaker 1: about as high as my head and half around the room.

963
00:52:58,719 --> 00:53:01,279
Speaker 1: And then when the sun came, that awful pattern began

964
00:53:01,320 --> 00:53:03,520
Speaker 1: to laugh at me. I declared I would finish it

965
00:53:03,600 --> 00:53:06,879
Speaker 1: to day. We go away tomorrow, and they are moving

966
00:53:06,920 --> 00:53:09,080
Speaker 1: all of my furniture down again, to leave things as

967
00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:12,359
Speaker 1: they were before. Jenny looked at the wall in amazement,

968
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:14,480
Speaker 1: but I told her merrily that I did it out

969
00:53:14,480 --> 00:53:17,160
Speaker 1: of pure fite at the vicious thing. She laughed and

970
00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:19,680
Speaker 1: said she wouldn't mind doing it herself, but I must

971
00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:23,239
Speaker 1: not get tired. How she betrayed herself that time. But

972
00:53:23,360 --> 00:53:26,040
Speaker 1: I am here, and no person touches the paper but

973
00:53:26,280 --> 00:53:29,600
Speaker 1: me not alive. She tried to get me out of

974
00:53:29,640 --> 00:53:32,440
Speaker 1: the room, it was too patent, but I said it

975
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:34,560
Speaker 1: was so quiet and empty and clean now that I

976
00:53:34,600 --> 00:53:37,160
Speaker 1: believed I would lie down again and sleep all I could,

977
00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,640
Speaker 1: and not to wake me even for dinner. I would

978
00:53:39,719 --> 00:53:42,680
Speaker 1: call when I woke. So now she is gone and

979
00:53:42,719 --> 00:53:44,680
Speaker 1: the servants are gone and the things are gone, and

980
00:53:44,719 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 1: there is nothing left with that great bedstead nailed down

981
00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:50,960
Speaker 1: with the canvas mattress we found on it. We shall

982
00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:54,680
Speaker 1: sleep downstairs tonight and take the boat home tomorrow. I

983
00:53:54,800 --> 00:53:57,360
Speaker 1: quite enjoy the room now, but it is bare again.

984
00:53:57,719 --> 00:54:00,840
Speaker 1: How those children did tear about here? The bedstet is

985
00:54:00,880 --> 00:54:03,960
Speaker 1: fairly gnawed. But I must get to work. I have

986
00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:05,960
Speaker 1: locked the door and thrown the key down into the

987
00:54:05,960 --> 00:54:08,759
Speaker 1: front path. I don't want to go out, and I

988
00:54:08,800 --> 00:54:11,240
Speaker 1: don't want to have anybody come in until John comes.

989
00:54:11,719 --> 00:54:15,879
Speaker 1: I wanted to astonish him. I've got a rope up here,

990
00:54:16,160 --> 00:54:19,120
Speaker 1: and that even Jenny did not find. If that woman

991
00:54:19,160 --> 00:54:21,160
Speaker 1: does get out and tries to get away, I can

992
00:54:21,200 --> 00:54:24,080
Speaker 1: tie her. But I forgot. I could not reach far

993
00:54:24,160 --> 00:54:27,600
Speaker 1: without anything to stand on. This bed will not move.

994
00:54:28,160 --> 00:54:30,120
Speaker 1: I tried to lift it and push it until I

995
00:54:30,200 --> 00:54:32,279
Speaker 1: was lame, and then I got so angry. I bit

996
00:54:32,360 --> 00:54:34,439
Speaker 1: off a little piece at one corner, but it hurt

997
00:54:34,480 --> 00:54:37,279
Speaker 1: my teeth. Then I peeled off all the paper I

998
00:54:37,320 --> 00:54:40,080
Speaker 1: could reach standing on the floor. It sticks horribly, and

999
00:54:40,160 --> 00:54:43,560
Speaker 1: the pattern just enjoys it. All those strangled heads and

1000
00:54:43,640 --> 00:54:47,520
Speaker 1: bulbous eyes and waddling fungus growths to shriek with derision.

1001
00:54:48,320 --> 00:54:51,439
Speaker 1: I'm getting angry enough to do something desperate. To jump

1002
00:54:51,440 --> 00:54:54,400
Speaker 1: out the window would be an admirable exercise, but the

1003
00:54:54,400 --> 00:54:57,880
Speaker 1: bars are too strong to even try. Besides, I wouldn't

1004
00:54:57,920 --> 00:55:00,360
Speaker 1: do it, of course, not. I know well enough that

1005
00:55:00,440 --> 00:55:03,200
Speaker 1: a step like that is improper. It might be misconstrued.

1006
00:55:03,640 --> 00:55:06,279
Speaker 1: I don't like to look out the windows even There

1007
00:55:06,280 --> 00:55:08,400
Speaker 1: are so many of those creeping women, and they creep

1008
00:55:08,520 --> 00:55:11,120
Speaker 1: so fast. I wonder if they all come out of

1009
00:55:11,120 --> 00:55:15,520
Speaker 1: that wallpaper as I did. But I am securely fastened

1010
00:55:15,520 --> 00:55:18,080
Speaker 1: now by my well hidden rope. You don't get me

1011
00:55:18,120 --> 00:55:20,880
Speaker 1: out into the road there. I suppose I shall have

1012
00:55:20,960 --> 00:55:23,160
Speaker 1: to get back behind the pattern when it comes at night,

1013
00:55:23,480 --> 00:55:25,960
Speaker 1: and that is hard. It is so pleasant to be

1014
00:55:26,000 --> 00:55:28,440
Speaker 1: out in this great room and creep around as I please.

1015
00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:31,520
Speaker 1: I don't want to go outside. I won't even if

1016
00:55:31,600 --> 00:55:34,080
Speaker 1: Jenny asks me to. For outside, you have to creep

1017
00:55:34,120 --> 00:55:36,600
Speaker 1: on the ground, and everything is green instead of yellow.

1018
00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:39,440
Speaker 1: But here I can creep smoothly on the floor, and

1019
00:55:39,480 --> 00:55:42,320
Speaker 1: my shoulder just fits in that long smooch around the wall,

1020
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:45,520
Speaker 1: so I cannot lose my way. Why there's John at

1021
00:55:45,520 --> 00:55:48,319
Speaker 1: the door. It is no use, young man. You can't

1022
00:55:48,400 --> 00:55:51,520
Speaker 1: open it. How he does call and pound. Now he's

1023
00:55:51,560 --> 00:55:54,120
Speaker 1: crying for an axe. It would be ashamed to break

1024
00:55:54,120 --> 00:55:57,239
Speaker 1: down that beautiful door, John dear, said I, in the

1025
00:55:57,320 --> 00:55:59,880
Speaker 1: gentlest voice. The key is down by the front steps

1026
00:56:00,040 --> 00:56:03,960
Speaker 1: under a plantain leaf. That silenced him for a few moments.

1027
00:56:04,400 --> 00:56:07,480
Speaker 1: Then he said, very quietly, indeed, opened the door, my darling,

1028
00:56:08,160 --> 00:56:10,400
Speaker 1: I can't, said I. The key is down by the

1029
00:56:10,440 --> 00:56:13,319
Speaker 1: front door, under a plantain leaf. And then I said

1030
00:56:13,360 --> 00:56:17,000
Speaker 1: it again several times, very gently and slowly, and said

1031
00:56:17,000 --> 00:56:18,840
Speaker 1: it so often that he had to go and see.

1032
00:56:19,280 --> 00:56:20,880
Speaker 1: And he got it, of course, and he came in.

1033
00:56:21,719 --> 00:56:25,080
Speaker 1: He stopped short by the door. What is the matter,

1034
00:56:25,160 --> 00:56:28,040
Speaker 1: he cried, for God's sake, what are you doing? I

1035
00:56:28,120 --> 00:56:30,400
Speaker 1: kept on creeping just the same, But I looked at

1036
00:56:30,480 --> 00:56:33,319
Speaker 1: him over my shoulder. I've got out at last, said I,

1037
00:56:33,360 --> 00:56:35,799
Speaker 1: in spite of you and Jane. And I've pulled off

1038
00:56:35,880 --> 00:56:38,680
Speaker 1: most of the paper, so you can't put me back. Now.

1039
00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:41,680
Speaker 1: Why should that man have fainted? But he did, and

1040
00:56:41,760 --> 00:56:44,040
Speaker 1: right across my path by the wall, so that I

1041
00:56:44,080 --> 00:56:55,400
Speaker 1: had to creep over him every time. Alrighty, that was

1042
00:56:55,400 --> 00:57:02,600
Speaker 1: a good story. Creeping she she became part of the wallpaper. Yeah,

1043
00:57:02,640 --> 00:57:07,240
Speaker 1: and I love how um Madam Perkins Uh to switch

1044
00:57:07,360 --> 00:57:10,239
Speaker 1: suddenly where your brains like, wait, what happened? And then

1045
00:57:10,400 --> 00:57:13,480
Speaker 1: it starts to sink in. It's great stuff. Yeah, very

1046
00:57:13,520 --> 00:57:17,120
Speaker 1: creepy uh and quite a feminist statement. Like I said,

1047
00:57:17,240 --> 00:57:18,880
Speaker 1: you don't have to read between any lines on that one.

1048
00:57:20,080 --> 00:57:24,160
Speaker 1: Um yeah, being held behind bars Yeah yeah. Uh. Well,

1049
00:57:24,200 --> 00:57:27,040
Speaker 1: happy Halloween everybody, Thanks for joining us. We hope you

1050
00:57:27,120 --> 00:57:29,920
Speaker 1: liked this one. Yeah, and this one uh is released

1051
00:57:30,000 --> 00:57:32,800
Speaker 1: right on Halloween, which is always nice. It is perfect,

1052
00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:36,520
Speaker 1: as they say, so until the next episode. If you

1053
00:57:36,560 --> 00:57:38,400
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1054
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1055
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1056
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1057
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1058
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