WEBVTT - “I LIVE ON A NATIVE AMERICAN RESERVATION”

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hi.

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<v Speaker 2>What's your name? Sir?

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, Chris Barty against you or I should say Chris

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<v Speaker 1>Barty Tea is just a Jene Nasha. I am from

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<v Speaker 1>the Nafo Nation in northeastern Arizona. Cool and that just

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<v Speaker 1>gave me to I told you who I am, my name,

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<v Speaker 1>my four clans, and where I'm from.

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<v Speaker 2>I appreciate you telling me your actual name, but I

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<v Speaker 2>do have to let you know. So there's times during

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<v Speaker 2>this podcast where a guy will be like, my name

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<v Speaker 2>is Steve, and I'll forget that immediately, So I probably

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not good at remembering things, but that sounds cool.

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<v Speaker 2>That's a cool name. Do people call you by that name?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? They just leusually called me Chris, like Chris, that's

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<v Speaker 1>my last name, Yeah, Chris Christ.

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<v Speaker 2>And you're from the Navajo Nation.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes?

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<v Speaker 2>Cool, you said living in Phoenix.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm living in uh on the Napo Nation. In the

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<v Speaker 1>community it's called h fitch is it in our language,

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<v Speaker 1>which means rough rock? So I live on the on

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<v Speaker 1>the reservation on the NFL Nation.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, what's it?

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<v Speaker 1>So?

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<v Speaker 2>What's it like on the reservations? Because I've heard a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of different things, but they're all just rumors I

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<v Speaker 2>want to hear from you.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, it depends who you ask. We have what kind

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<v Speaker 1>of in a moment of transition in the culture, Like

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<v Speaker 1>we're still trying to hold on to our traditional ways,

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<v Speaker 1>our language and culture, but at the same time, influence

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<v Speaker 1>from the outside world is kind of drawing a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of our people away, especially our young people. So they

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<v Speaker 1>want to be more westernized, and they mostly some of

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<v Speaker 1>them mostly speak English only or they only speak maybe

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<v Speaker 1>partially now for or some even Like a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>young people are grappling with trying to understand the culture

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<v Speaker 1>and the fluency of the language. But you can ask

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<v Speaker 1>me anything.

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<v Speaker 2>How old How old are you?

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<v Speaker 1>I am thirty eight, Okay?

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<v Speaker 2>And did you grow up speaking this language or did

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<v Speaker 2>you learn it later?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh a uh shamasana a my grandmother and shamato uh

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<v Speaker 1>shatay my my relatives, my aunties, my uncles and people

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<v Speaker 1>were fluent speakers, so they spoke to us at little kids,

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<v Speaker 1>and I grew up speaking the language. Uh. And we're

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<v Speaker 1>learning a lot of things as an adult.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, do you have kids.

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<v Speaker 1>I raised two boys, they're my nephews. One's eighteen and

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<v Speaker 1>one's fourteen with my family. But I don't have any

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<v Speaker 1>children of my own, not biologically.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you raise them like by yourself or was your

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<v Speaker 2>brother slash sister there too?

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<v Speaker 1>My sister she's in college and working and things, so

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<v Speaker 1>I pretty much raised them from babies like when the

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<v Speaker 1>time they came from the hospital to the time they're

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<v Speaker 1>like almost adults now.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's very common with our culture because we we

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<v Speaker 1>have like intergenerational families sometimes living together in the same area,

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<v Speaker 1>and where we we go by clans. We have a

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<v Speaker 1>plan system, so we have an a Our mother and

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<v Speaker 1>our father's plan are the main plans that we affiliate with.

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<v Speaker 1>So that was very.

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<v Speaker 2>Much wall I'm sorry, but are you are you? Are

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<v Speaker 2>you taking a walk right now or something?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I'm hurting sheep or I'm walking off my goats

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<v Speaker 1>and sheep.

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<v Speaker 2>You're walking with your goats and sheep? Yes, whow interesting?

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like you know what I feel like. Normally

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<v Speaker 2>I would ask if you could stand still so that

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<v Speaker 2>we can have this conversation without your phone going in

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<v Speaker 2>and out. But I guess I can't tell you to

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<v Speaker 2>stop hurting the sheep.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh jeez, yeah, I'm standing still at the moment. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not moving.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, all right, you're hurting sheep. Interesting, Okay, we're going.

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<v Speaker 2>There's so much to I want, There's so much to

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<v Speaker 2>talk to you about. How did so, how did you

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<v Speaker 2>grow up? What was it like for you? Did you

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<v Speaker 2>grow Did you grow up on this reservation that you're

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<v Speaker 2>on right now?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I've I've lived here all my life and I've

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<v Speaker 1>grown up here. And I went to school here on

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<v Speaker 1>the reservation, and I went to for a short stint,

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<v Speaker 1>I went to Santa Fe. Yeah, I have a place

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<v Speaker 1>called the Institute of American Indian Arts, and so I

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<v Speaker 1>studied filmmaking there, and I came back here and started

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<v Speaker 1>farming full time years ago. So, yeah, I studied filmmaking.

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<v Speaker 2>Have you made any films?

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<v Speaker 1>Just one? I helped out in some small films. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>also a writer. I write poetry. I've written, uh and

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<v Speaker 1>published poetry, mostly attempting to write a novel. I've done screenplays.

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<v Speaker 1>I've helped edit people's work, you know, sometimes gone uncredited.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's okay because I just volunteer, you know. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I went to Telm school.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmmm. What do most people, uh they do for

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<v Speaker 2>work on the reservation.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, they have odd jobs. Some work with the tribal

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<v Speaker 1>They have a tribal headquarters, so people are work for

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<v Speaker 1>the tribe doing different things. Some work as maintenance people.

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<v Speaker 1>Some go off the reservation to find jobs in the cities,

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<v Speaker 1>like weldings a big thing, electricians, journeymen. Some people are cowboys,

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<v Speaker 1>professional cowboys, you know, like just all sorts of things.

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<v Speaker 1>Some people are medicine people, they do healing work. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in the community and you know, for the world, so

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<v Speaker 1>it all, it all varies. Some are teachers, some are doctors.

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<v Speaker 1>Some are this so that you know. Some people have

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<v Speaker 1>gone to Harvard, some people have gone to Columbia. Some

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<v Speaker 1>people come back to the rask people live. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>we have Navajos everywhere, you know, like the people that

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<v Speaker 1>I uh, the tribe that I belong to.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's a battle going on where younger people are

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<v Speaker 2>becoming more westernized, and like the original culture is kind

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<v Speaker 2>of being being lost, you say, in some ways.

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<v Speaker 1>In some ways a lot of people have seen the

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<v Speaker 1>the change is happening, and they're doing something about it.

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<v Speaker 1>They're being proactive in their families. They're speaking the language

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<v Speaker 1>to the young people, they're bringing them to ceremonies, they're

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<v Speaker 1>engaging with them culturally, teaching them things. We're land based people, uh,

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<v Speaker 1>that we have our origins here on this land. Our

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<v Speaker 1>Cracian stories say, we came out of the earth and

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<v Speaker 1>from there we journey through several worlds into this one

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<v Speaker 1>that we're currently And.

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<v Speaker 2>You journeyed through several several worlds.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, under the earth, like in the ground, like ants. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so we were like spirit beings, but when we came up,

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<v Speaker 1>we came into like material, physical beings like you and me,

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<v Speaker 1>like human being, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Confession blood, I gotta ask why, why why do you

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<v Speaker 2>think we stopped here? Like what is it about this

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<v Speaker 2>place where it's like, you know what, let's stop at

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<v Speaker 2>this world, this wireless one as McDonald's.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, your people came from across the ocean, so you know, actually, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>why why did you guys stop here?

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<v Speaker 2>A wait? Are you talking about like this like soul

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<v Speaker 2>like spiritual souls you're talking about like the Navajo people.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'll talk about my people. We we we uh,

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<v Speaker 1>we came out of the earth, out of out of

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<v Speaker 1>sick place. I can't mention the name, but we came

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<v Speaker 1>into this world and we are our boundaries to our

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<v Speaker 1>homeland is four sacred mountains, and we stayed within those

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<v Speaker 1>four sacred mountains what were supposed to anyway?

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<v Speaker 2>M hm, so I okay, I'm curious about this. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>So yes it is true. Yes, Uh, white people came

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<v Speaker 2>to what was America called before all that stuff happened.

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<v Speaker 1>It depends on who you taught to a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>the tribes like then the Shawnee and the Iroquois First

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<v Speaker 1>Nations people, Uh, the sixth Council of forget how many

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<v Speaker 1>councils they are, the people in the eastern part of

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<v Speaker 1>the US, the Wapanog, the Cayuga, the Shawnee, the Pahatan,

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<v Speaker 1>all those people that the Mayflower people met, the first

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<v Speaker 1>colonists that came you know, Jamestown and all that before

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<v Speaker 1>Columbus and the Spaniards after excuse after they came like

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<v Speaker 1>with plummet Rock and all that. They called this plan

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<v Speaker 1>Turtle Island. Those people over there.

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<v Speaker 2>Hunts Turtle Islands. So okay, So yes, white people came

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<v Speaker 2>and we just fucking did a bunch of shit. And

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<v Speaker 2>then I'm curious, so does the American government, like to

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<v Speaker 2>to what degree has the American government been like, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>are bad we're gonna help you guys like you know

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<v Speaker 2>has has what what does that look like?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, we have what it's called. Uh. We my ancestors

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<v Speaker 1>fought the Americans when they came and tried to control them,

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<v Speaker 1>and a lot of people were captured in the resistance.

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<v Speaker 1>Some people evaded resistance. My ancestors included Uh, they escaped

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<v Speaker 1>and fought back and hid from the It was just

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<v Speaker 1>carried in eighteen sixty four where the federal government came

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<v Speaker 1>and relocated and tried to uh take them at least

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<v Speaker 1>nine thousand Napos from the from our homeland when they

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<v Speaker 1>marched them into New Mexico to a place called Fort

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<v Speaker 1>Sumner and held them at gunpoint for four years. So

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<v Speaker 1>they were incarcerated in a concentration camp like like what

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<v Speaker 1>happened with the Holocaust. Yeah, them us and also Mescalero

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<v Speaker 1>Apaches and some other tribes. But the Muscleros got out

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<v Speaker 1>in the night that it took off. So my people

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<v Speaker 1>we call ourselves the NET. That's that's who it means.

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<v Speaker 1>The people are human beings. So uh, the NET people

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<v Speaker 1>uh were there for four years until eighteen sixty eight,

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<v Speaker 1>where we signed a peace treaty with the United States

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<v Speaker 1>government and military to quit fighting. Okay, so we have

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<v Speaker 1>a peace treaty with the United States or treaty tribe.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's a peace treaty. But like, does the government

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<v Speaker 2>like do anything for you guys like today.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, they're obligated under the provisions of the Treaty of

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<v Speaker 1>eighteen sixty eight to provide whatever way they can to

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<v Speaker 1>try to they give like funding to the tribe contemporarily.

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<v Speaker 1>And right now there's a lot of discussion and there's

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of controversy how to spend federal funds that

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<v Speaker 1>we get from the tribal government and I'm excuse me,

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<v Speaker 1>from the federal government to the tribal government. You see,

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<v Speaker 1>our tribal government was set up in nineteen twenty three

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<v Speaker 1>as a business council, and so in order to give

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<v Speaker 1>legitimacy to energy corporations to mine and drill into the

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<v Speaker 1>earth for oil, uranium, coal, natural gas, helium, and whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you know water. So on our homeland there's a vast

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<v Speaker 1>amounts of natural resources, including timber, you know, gravel, whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you know. Coal. There was a big thing uranium I

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<v Speaker 1>think I mentioned uranium oil. And so when they discovered

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<v Speaker 1>all these minerals below us are on the land itself.

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<v Speaker 1>They came in and started to mine and established a

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<v Speaker 1>relations with the tribe to modernize the now for people

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<v Speaker 1>through boarding schools and through like things like mission schools,

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<v Speaker 1>boarding schools where they took children away and basically tried

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<v Speaker 1>to teach them how to be like white people. MM.

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<v Speaker 2>So you said that, you said that there's a controversy

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<v Speaker 2>in terms of how this money should be spent by

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<v Speaker 2>the tribal government. What's that controversy? Where do people think

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<v Speaker 2>the money should be spent.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, they have several trust funds and they have several

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<v Speaker 1>funding sources where they set up I guess like big

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<v Speaker 1>bank banking systems. They try to make use to distribute

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<v Speaker 1>the wealth of the tribal government evening among the people,

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<v Speaker 1>but the tribal officials mostly spend it among themselves. They

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<v Speaker 1>pay themselves millions of dollars and the hundreds of thousands

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<v Speaker 1>of US in salary, like six seven figure salaries, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's just really ridiculous. So that's where a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>the local government we see. We have one hundred and

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<v Speaker 1>ten chapters, and we have a tribal council, and we

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<v Speaker 1>have a three branch government like that mirror is to

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<v Speaker 1>the United States government. And so we also have a

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<v Speaker 1>president and there's been like a lot of controversy with

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<v Speaker 1>him and his leadership are lacked thereof.

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<v Speaker 2>So the government is so a lot of the tribal

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<v Speaker 2>government has gotten fairly corrupt.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, just because they haven't learned how to utilize the

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<v Speaker 1>funding correctly. M in my in my opinion, m hm.

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<v Speaker 2>So so the did the reservations right? Do they do?

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<v Speaker 2>They follow? So they have their own government and their

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<v Speaker 2>own kind of rules and laws and stuff, and like

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<v Speaker 2>they do they have to like are are they still

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<v Speaker 2>under the jurisdiction of the federal American government or like

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<v Speaker 2>even or even like the state government that they're located in.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, we have I'll start of the state. We have

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<v Speaker 1>tribal representation within the different districts of the state of Arizona,

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<v Speaker 1>New Mexico, and Utah. And we have uh people out

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<v Speaker 1>in Washington who advocate our behalf. We have a Washington

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<v Speaker 1>office kind of like a like a little embassy that

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<v Speaker 1>people go out there and try to establish not just

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<v Speaker 1>funding but laws that will help our people. And there's

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<v Speaker 1>all sorts of things. I know, if you're familiar with

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<v Speaker 1>federal Indian law, but there was a lot of things

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<v Speaker 1>that happened. The reorganization Department of Interior, which we call

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<v Speaker 1>the bare Indian Affairs, oversaw a lot of tribal government

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<v Speaker 1>business until they handed it over to the tribes. I

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<v Speaker 1>think it was in nineteen fifty two or somewhere around there,

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<v Speaker 1>organized a tribe into a tribal government with a three

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<v Speaker 1>branch system, and so we're like a many Washington.

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<v Speaker 4>I like to say, it's just funny that I'm imagining

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<v Speaker 4>you telling me all of this while you're hurting sheep.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, yes, how is the sheep herding going?

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<v Speaker 1>It's good. I'm actually I'm trying to look over the

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<v Speaker 1>hill here, see where they wait, because I was trying

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<v Speaker 1>to hold steel they wanted at all, but they're not far.

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<v Speaker 2>So okay, you know, let's let's talk. I want to

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<v Speaker 2>talk about you. I'm curious about you.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>So you have these two nephews that are basically like

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<v Speaker 2>your sons. You have two boys that you raised. Do

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<v Speaker 2>you have a wife or a girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>No, it's a I don't have anyone like currently in

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<v Speaker 1>my life like that.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you did you use did you used to? Are

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<v Speaker 2>you divorced or broken up.

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<v Speaker 1>Or oh I've left a long shrill of heartbreaks now. Uh, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>once upon a time ago I did.

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<v Speaker 2>How did you meet these ladies? Like? Where are they like?

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<v Speaker 2>Women that you met on like the reservation?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? I met some in high school. I met some

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<v Speaker 1>in the I was involved in online resistance movements to

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<v Speaker 1>try to protect sacred sites and things like mountains or

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<v Speaker 1>water rights. I fought and want against power plants with

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<v Speaker 1>people you know, and we uh built poalitions to protect

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<v Speaker 1>the Grand Canyon in certain places, the Holy San Francisco

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<v Speaker 1>Peaks and flag Staff. Mhm. We did things like we

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<v Speaker 1>changed ourselves to machinery and as far as protests, lots

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<v Speaker 1>of community involvement, a lot of organizing, a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>spiritual support from our elders and our medicine practitioners are healers.

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<v Speaker 2>So where do you Where do you think we go

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<v Speaker 2>when we die?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>To the spirit world, the spare world. Do you think

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<v Speaker 2>the spirit world is better or worse than the current world?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, there's there's no sadness, there's no grief, there's no pain.

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<v Speaker 1>It's just bliss. You're you're free.

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<v Speaker 2>Interesting, interesting mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>It's better than a Christian heaven.

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<v Speaker 2>So are you I don't know, man, I I guess

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<v Speaker 2>are you? Like who's around? Like, what's the community like?

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<v Speaker 2>Do you have a lot of friends and family hanging around? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I got a whole bunch of followers social media

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<v Speaker 1>people around me, but I live a pretty private life.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't be.

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<v Speaker 2>You have I asked if you have a lot of people?

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<v Speaker 2>Are you have? I asked if you have a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of people around you?

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<v Speaker 1>You have?

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<v Speaker 2>You have social media followers?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I have tons of followers and people that

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<v Speaker 1>follow what I do. I work.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, what about like, like, you know, like people in

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<v Speaker 2>the community.

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<v Speaker 1>Not so much because I don't really mingle with them

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<v Speaker 1>my neighbors, because we're we're like really private people. We

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<v Speaker 1>don't really like get into people's business too much. But

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<v Speaker 1>I do have I'm surrounded by relatives like blood and clan,

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<v Speaker 1>so we all know each other, you know, but we

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<v Speaker 1>just live separate lives.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you prefer the social media followers to the actual people?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Yes, because because the neighbors around me. If people

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<v Speaker 1>get territorial and envious of things that you do, so

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<v Speaker 1>we just kind of like I just or them, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm, it's kind of weird.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you talk with your followers?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Yeah, I engage with people all the time every day.

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<v Speaker 2>Where do you Where do you post this stuff? Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Instagram, Facebook mainly. I don't really do TikTok or anything else,

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<v Speaker 1>but that.

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<v Speaker 2>This is so interesting where you're like a sheep herder influencer.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I have like five thousand followers on Facebook and

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<v Speaker 1>my tenth or five thousand friends. I max it out

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<v Speaker 1>all the time and people come on drop off and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm about two thousand something on on Instagram, But I

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<v Speaker 1>kind of neglect in it because I'm been so busy,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, only kind to do things.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you feel like the sheep are your friends or

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<v Speaker 2>that they're just like fodder? Like, what's your relationship like

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<v Speaker 2>with the sheep?

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<v Speaker 1>Well? I call them my children and do that my babies,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, even though I eat them sometimes.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, sometimes you gotta do that.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm, we.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm fascinated by this. So you prefer being around sheep

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<v Speaker 2>and social media followers to real people?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Because animals they love you unconditionally. People are complicated.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's true, that's true. Do you do you hope

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<v Speaker 2>to one day develop stronger relationships with the people around you.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, yeah, to a point. But like I said, I

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<v Speaker 1>like my private you know, m hm, because once you

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<v Speaker 1>start engaging with the community, they bring into the problems

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<v Speaker 1>and I don't want to get involved people's problems. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I got my own problems.

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<v Speaker 2>So your nephews are so your nephews, I guess, are

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<v Speaker 2>the representation of these young people who are becoming more westernized.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you think that? Do you think your nephews are

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<v Speaker 2>being westernized? Like, what's your relationship with them on that front?

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<v Speaker 1>Well, there's two ways. Show them the culture and bring

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<v Speaker 1>them into it every day, a little by little, you know,

0:23:50.760 --> 0:23:53.840
<v Speaker 1>and you teach them this is what this plant is.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the name of this lizard. This is the

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<v Speaker 1>name of that bird. This is the name of the

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<v Speaker 1>when the clouds, the lightning in the thunder, Mother Earth,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, father Sky, the Sun, father's son, grandmother is

0:24:08.560 --> 0:24:14.000
<v Speaker 1>the moon, the stars. You know. You called them and

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<v Speaker 1>you tell them this is what they're called, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>And that's how I was raised. And uh, this is

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<v Speaker 1>what herb kills pierced. This, this is what herb helps

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<v Speaker 1>the sheep. This is what herb is a tobacco you

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<v Speaker 1>can smoke. This is how you make an offering for rain,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. Hm, we're always praying. We pray with corn

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<v Speaker 1>pollen and corn mill.

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<v Speaker 2>Mmm. Do you are? Are you are? Do you feel

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<v Speaker 2>like they're being westernized? Like, do you like, is there

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<v Speaker 2>like a specific part of Western culture or something like

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<v Speaker 2>that that you think that they have found themselves aligned with.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, movies, TV shows, video games, social media, music, you know,

0:25:07.400 --> 0:25:11.320
<v Speaker 1>that's that's normal. I think every young person native and

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<v Speaker 1>non native loves all that, right, like Fortnite whatever, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>Legend Azelda. I've played all those things and like watch

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<v Speaker 1>movies all the time. I have Wi Fi at my

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<v Speaker 1>house if I just get online and start doing things.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, one of my favorite things that plays Assassin's Creed.

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<v Speaker 2>All those games fucking you play? You played Assassin's Creed three?

0:25:36.080 --> 0:25:39.399
<v Speaker 1>Yes, I played all the Enzo and all that. The

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<v Speaker 1>only one I haven't played the latest one with the

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<v Speaker 1>Samurai storyline.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, well, Assassin's Creed three you play? I think

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, I don't know if he's a Navajo,

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<v Speaker 2>but maybe I think maybe he's a navajo. Yeah, Like

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<v Speaker 2>his name is Ken Kenny something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Ken, No, he's a native from the from the

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<v Speaker 1>East coast. Like he's inspired by is that he's a

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<v Speaker 1>native baby. Yeah, my switch I was playing it one time,

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<v Speaker 1>kind of got far, but it's kind of confusing because

0:26:16.200 --> 0:26:16.960
<v Speaker 1>it's on the switch, you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know, Yeah, and the controls kind of suck.

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<v Speaker 1>I love it. I played Rest of the Wild and

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<v Speaker 1>The Tears of the Kingdom and everything.

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<v Speaker 2>Dude, it's fine. Something dude, something about something about a

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<v Speaker 2>sheep herd, something about like it's very like you. I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm imagining that you right now are in a vast

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<v Speaker 2>field like herding sheep, and then at some point you're

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<v Speaker 2>like fuck this, and then you just pull out your

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<v Speaker 2>switch and then you play play a simulated version of

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<v Speaker 2>of being in a vast field.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I live in the hills below a mountain. M hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>The mountain is just like south of me. Uh, and

0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:14.360
<v Speaker 1>I could go anywhere. There's canyons, there's springs, there's places

0:27:14.400 --> 0:27:17.160
<v Speaker 1>where water comes and it rains it becomes like a river.

0:27:19.720 --> 0:27:24.000
<v Speaker 1>There's also ta mesa tops like hills, rocks everywhere, trees,

0:27:24.920 --> 0:27:31.439
<v Speaker 1>it's like a jungle like a and uh. Where I

0:27:31.480 --> 0:27:34.639
<v Speaker 1>live at it's full of rocks and rocks everywhere, so

0:27:34.680 --> 0:27:36.639
<v Speaker 1>it's not flat. It's like I'm a hill in a

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<v Speaker 1>hill country.

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<v Speaker 2>There's one more thing I actually wanted to ask you

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<v Speaker 2>before we go. You well, you texted me and uh

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<v Speaker 2>you said that you you have a message that you

0:27:50.960 --> 0:27:54.200
<v Speaker 2>wanted to deliver. Is that true? Is that accurate?

0:27:55.520 --> 0:27:55.720
<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, before we go, do you wanna do you wanna

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<v Speaker 2>to deliver your message?

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<v Speaker 1>I want to say that we're in a period of

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<v Speaker 1>great transition on this earth and that we all need

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<v Speaker 1>to come together, all people from all directions of life,

0:28:13.119 --> 0:28:17.159
<v Speaker 1>to remember who we are as human beings, as people

0:28:17.200 --> 0:28:23.119
<v Speaker 1>of the Earth's surface Nona, and no matter what color

0:28:23.280 --> 0:28:26.080
<v Speaker 1>or blood, skin, or wherever we come from, we are

0:28:26.119 --> 0:28:30.159
<v Speaker 1>all children of Mother Earth in the universe, and to

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<v Speaker 1>never lose a connection to the source of life, to

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<v Speaker 1>the Creator.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you think is this transition that we're going through?

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<v Speaker 2>What would you how would you describe it?

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<v Speaker 1>We're coming into new times all the time, and people

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<v Speaker 1>in a spiritual way think it's like a age of

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<v Speaker 1>Aquarius or you know, some transition, some spiritual you know,

0:28:55.320 --> 0:28:58.800
<v Speaker 1>five D reality, who knows, you know, they all have

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<v Speaker 1>different things. You know, the year of the horse. You know,

0:29:03.120 --> 0:29:07.479
<v Speaker 1>people astrologers talk about things with the planet whatever you know.

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<v Speaker 1>But with us, in our traditional people, we see that

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<v Speaker 1>we're coming back to our old ways. We're starting to

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<v Speaker 1>pick up where where our ancestors left off. Nesas that's

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<v Speaker 1>what we call our ancestors. Has two Sania which means

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<v Speaker 1>the way of our old people, the way of life,

0:29:32.560 --> 0:29:36.480
<v Speaker 1>that way they live. Then they then and then not

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<v Speaker 1>the excuse me? Then uh cut it ding j which

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<v Speaker 1>means the corn pollen, the way which means the beauty way.

0:29:47.080 --> 0:29:52.440
<v Speaker 1>We we pray for peace on earth. We also go

0:29:52.520 --> 0:29:57.360
<v Speaker 1>to war. We have a warriors warriors societies. But when

0:29:57.360 --> 0:30:01.720
<v Speaker 1>we come home, we come home with peace and mind. John,

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<v Speaker 1>and we want a beauty and we beauty around us,

0:30:07.360 --> 0:30:10.239
<v Speaker 1>and beauty behind and before us, and are all around us,

0:30:10.680 --> 0:30:13.280
<v Speaker 1>and make beautiful things come from our words and are

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<v Speaker 1>our thinking and our hearing and our our our speak

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<v Speaker 1>to our language. May everything become beautiful again? And j

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<v Speaker 1>John Hasli Koja Hasli k j Hasli k j Hasli.

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<v Speaker 1>I say that four times as a way of confirmation

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<v Speaker 1>to say everything will be restored in harmony.

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<v Speaker 2>Chris, do you want to tell us where we can

0:30:37.920 --> 0:30:40.880
<v Speaker 2>follow you? On social media and and keep up with

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<v Speaker 2>your sheepherding adventures.

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<v Speaker 1>Is uh, you can find me at has teen got

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<v Speaker 1>Herder at h A s T I I n go

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<v Speaker 1>Herder Instagram and Chris Barney O k R I s

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<v Speaker 1>uh space U A R n E Y like the dinosaur.

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<v Speaker 2>You're max you're maxed out on friends. Yes, you got

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<v Speaker 2>to you gotta Oh okay, I was gonna say, you

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<v Speaker 2>gotta purge some people.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I just the other day I was filling kind

0:31:17.280 --> 0:31:20.120
<v Speaker 1>of whimsical and so I I got meta verified. So

0:31:20.840 --> 0:31:24.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm like navigating all that stuff now reels and you know,

0:31:24.880 --> 0:31:27.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to get mon monetization going, and it's like,

0:31:27.400 --> 0:31:29.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't know how this all works. It's all complicated,

0:31:29.400 --> 0:31:30.480
<v Speaker 1>but I'm figuring it out.

0:31:31.760 --> 0:31:34.480
<v Speaker 2>Dude, there's gotta be someone. There's gotta be some funk.

0:31:34.560 --> 0:31:37.120
<v Speaker 2>I wish I was clever enough to come up with

0:31:37.320 --> 0:31:39.960
<v Speaker 2>funny sponsorships for you to take as a sheep herder

0:31:40.520 --> 0:31:44.000
<v Speaker 2>Instagram influencer. But they exist, they exist.

0:31:45.400 --> 0:31:49.920
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Also, I sell seeds. I have a farm and

0:31:50.120 --> 0:31:53.040
<v Speaker 1>my main uh employment is selling seeds.

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<v Speaker 2>Sell them? Do you sell the seeds online?

0:31:58.480 --> 0:32:01.239
<v Speaker 1>Yes? On many on those two platforms. Right now, I'm

0:32:01.240 --> 0:32:03.240
<v Speaker 1>trying to get a website going, but I haven't figured

0:32:03.240 --> 0:32:04.080
<v Speaker 1>it out how to do that?

0:32:04.160 --> 0:32:08.080
<v Speaker 2>Cool cool, cool well ship. I hope some people from

0:32:08.160 --> 0:32:11.080
<v Speaker 2>this show go over and follow you. Maybe you can

0:32:11.120 --> 0:32:12.000
<v Speaker 2>sell a seed or two.

0:32:14.120 --> 0:32:16.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I sell all kinds of corn being squashed the

0:32:16.600 --> 0:32:21.920
<v Speaker 1>back rook and chili tomatoes, mass thoogumsung flowers, we you

0:32:22.040 --> 0:32:25.720
<v Speaker 1>name it, I grow it and I sell and I

0:32:25.800 --> 0:32:27.920
<v Speaker 1>the seeds that grow are very drought tolerant, so they

0:32:27.920 --> 0:32:28.920
<v Speaker 1>don't need much water.

0:32:30.480 --> 0:32:32.800
<v Speaker 2>And you sell the ship online or you like sell

0:32:32.840 --> 0:32:34.240
<v Speaker 2>it at like a store.

0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:38.280
<v Speaker 1>Just out of my Facebook and Instagram at the moment. Cool.

0:32:38.920 --> 0:32:41.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you're like a You're like a You're like a general.

0:32:41.240 --> 0:32:43.680
<v Speaker 1>Store on exactly.

0:32:44.560 --> 0:32:49.920
<v Speaker 2>Okay, yeah, all right here, you know I'll go there

0:32:50.000 --> 0:32:53.640
<v Speaker 2>right now. What what say this? Say this? Say this again?

0:32:54.520 --> 0:32:55.720
<v Speaker 2>I'll live how you act?

0:32:56.960 --> 0:33:02.360
<v Speaker 1>Hasting Hasting goat Herder on Instagram. H A S T

0:33:02.680 --> 0:33:04.240
<v Speaker 1>I I N goat.

0:33:04.040 --> 0:33:13.240
<v Speaker 2>Herder hastin see okay, here you are Chris Barney. Well, okay, right,

0:33:13.280 --> 0:33:14.600
<v Speaker 2>I don't know why. I don't know why I was

0:33:14.640 --> 0:33:19.440
<v Speaker 2>so surprised to see a goat, but look at this goat.

0:33:19.640 --> 0:33:23.640
<v Speaker 2>It's that's why does it have four horns.

0:33:24.920 --> 0:33:29.920
<v Speaker 1>It's a brief called now fla turtle sheet, and they

0:33:29.920 --> 0:33:34.600
<v Speaker 1>have four horns. Most of them the rams. Some of

0:33:34.640 --> 0:33:37.360
<v Speaker 1>them have two horns, some of them have like four horns.

0:33:37.360 --> 0:33:39.400
<v Speaker 1>Some of them are fused together. It all varies.

0:33:39.880 --> 0:33:42.320
<v Speaker 2>Oh, this is you wearing sunglasses. You look pretty cool.

0:33:42.520 --> 0:33:45.120
<v Speaker 2>I like how there's okay, your Instagram right now. I

0:33:45.200 --> 0:33:50.479
<v Speaker 2>like how there's pictures of eagles and beautiful skies and

0:33:50.520 --> 0:33:53.160
<v Speaker 2>then there's a just a meme that you posted and

0:33:53.200 --> 0:33:57.200
<v Speaker 2>it's a guy looking in the mirror talking to himself

0:33:57.320 --> 0:34:05.400
<v Speaker 2>going I'm not crazy, You're crazy. Yeah, Well, you sell seeds.

0:34:05.560 --> 0:34:08.799
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna look at your website. Okay, you have a

0:34:08.840 --> 0:34:12.480
<v Speaker 2>po box, you have a YouTube chip. Wait, how come

0:34:12.560 --> 0:34:14.520
<v Speaker 2>you don't have a link to your website on here?

0:34:15.400 --> 0:34:18.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm going into digital marketing mode. How do I yeah,

0:34:18.680 --> 0:34:21.280
<v Speaker 2>I can't buy. How do we buy your seeds?

0:34:22.600 --> 0:34:25.360
<v Speaker 1>Well? Just message me. I was gonna update a list

0:34:25.400 --> 0:34:29.440
<v Speaker 1>of seeds today and like I just mostly through. Like

0:34:29.520 --> 0:34:33.000
<v Speaker 1>the direct are the it's a messaging direct messaging.

0:34:33.040 --> 0:34:35.600
<v Speaker 2>Ok all right, so you just so people just venmo

0:34:35.719 --> 0:34:36.759
<v Speaker 2>you for seeds.

0:34:37.600 --> 0:34:42.919
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, Venmo cash Okay, all right, wait that's actually wait,

0:34:42.920 --> 0:34:43.720
<v Speaker 1>that's way cooler.

0:34:44.000 --> 0:34:46.719
<v Speaker 2>Wait that's I I thought honestly, I thought what you

0:34:46.760 --> 0:34:49.520
<v Speaker 2>did was cool before, but that's way cooler. You just

0:34:49.640 --> 0:34:51.239
<v Speaker 2>like I thought you. I thought you had like an

0:34:51.239 --> 0:34:54.160
<v Speaker 2>e commerce set up. You just you just kind of

0:34:54.239 --> 0:34:54.799
<v Speaker 2>vibe it out.

0:34:56.160 --> 0:34:56.399
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:34:56.600 --> 0:35:00.239
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, people they border and trade, but were thing too.

0:35:00.280 --> 0:35:02.880
<v Speaker 1>You know. They give me food and we trade seeds

0:35:02.960 --> 0:35:06.160
<v Speaker 1>with other people who are farmers and gardeners from all.

0:35:06.080 --> 0:35:08.759
<v Speaker 2>Over the way. So could I or anyone who messages you.

0:35:08.840 --> 0:35:14.640
<v Speaker 2>Theoretically it like be like, yo, I have a I

0:35:14.680 --> 0:35:17.160
<v Speaker 2>have like this rare Pokemon card, I'll send it to

0:35:17.200 --> 0:35:19.160
<v Speaker 2>you in exchange for like a seed.

0:35:20.200 --> 0:35:24.359
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, or from corn, or like a uh something to eat,

0:35:24.440 --> 0:35:27.600
<v Speaker 1>like maybe some pasole or some chili or you know

0:35:27.680 --> 0:35:31.040
<v Speaker 1>something like that. You know, like there's a seeds butla food,

0:35:31.160 --> 0:35:34.000
<v Speaker 1>and I saw all sorts of stuff. I'm kind of

0:35:34.040 --> 0:35:36.560
<v Speaker 1>like a like a trading post or something, you know.

0:35:37.160 --> 0:35:40.680
<v Speaker 2>Okay, all right, I encourage, all right, I encourage the

0:35:40.760 --> 0:35:45.080
<v Speaker 2>listeners of this podcast to message Husting the Goat Herder

0:35:46.320 --> 0:35:49.799
<v Speaker 2>and and begin to barter. I'm very curious, but I'm

0:35:49.880 --> 0:35:54.200
<v Speaker 2>very please let me know what kind of I'm I'm

0:35:54.239 --> 0:35:58.040
<v Speaker 2>I want to know the most quirky trade that comes

0:35:58.040 --> 0:35:59.680
<v Speaker 2>out of this. I want to see if you get like,

0:36:01.320 --> 0:36:05.080
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, like a picture of someone's grandfather in

0:36:05.160 --> 0:36:09.479
<v Speaker 2>exchange for a piece of wheat, you know, something like that.

0:36:10.760 --> 0:36:15.359
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. I have seeds from all over the place, all

0:36:15.360 --> 0:36:17.520
<v Speaker 1>over the world. I have corns from the Ada Kama

0:36:17.600 --> 0:36:23.080
<v Speaker 1>Desert in Chile. I have seeds from Brazil. I have

0:36:23.200 --> 0:36:28.480
<v Speaker 1>seeds from like Europe, Turkey. I have a friend in

0:36:28.520 --> 0:36:31.759
<v Speaker 1>Morocco that I'm trying to get some castor beans from him,

0:36:31.960 --> 0:36:34.719
<v Speaker 1>you know, because they grow everywhere in Morocco, and I

0:36:34.800 --> 0:36:40.040
<v Speaker 1>send seeds everywhere. I've sent beans to Norway, Australia, Pakistan,

0:36:41.120 --> 0:36:47.680
<v Speaker 1>all over the place, Germany, England, Brooklyn, New York, you know, La,

0:36:48.000 --> 0:36:53.120
<v Speaker 1>Las Vegas, wherever I can send that ship things I tried.

0:36:53.760 --> 0:36:57.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, cool, cool, Thanks for talking to us today, Chris.

0:36:57.520 --> 0:37:00.799
<v Speaker 2>I appreciate this. I hope I hope you get some

0:37:00.840 --> 0:37:03.399
<v Speaker 2>good trades from this. This would be that'd be cool.

0:37:04.560 --> 0:37:08.160
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, even rocks. I like crystals and obsidian and things

0:37:08.160 --> 0:37:09.560
<v Speaker 1>you can make arrow heads out of, you know.

0:37:10.440 --> 0:37:12.640
<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say before we go?

0:37:14.680 --> 0:37:17.000
<v Speaker 1>Just a yet, which means thank you, You know I've

0:37:17.080 --> 0:37:21.160
<v Speaker 1>I've been I've been listening to you for a few

0:37:21.239 --> 0:37:26.160
<v Speaker 1>years now, since probably twenty twenty two. Around there, cool

0:37:26.560 --> 0:37:29.719
<v Speaker 1>and if you touch my heart? Oh, thank you, all

0:37:29.760 --> 0:37:35.480
<v Speaker 1>your all your people on there. Just stay strong with

0:37:35.520 --> 0:37:39.120
<v Speaker 1>each other. You know, we'll get through these tough times,

0:37:39.360 --> 0:37:41.080
<v Speaker 1>you know, in this country, in the world. You know,

0:37:41.600 --> 0:37:44.360
<v Speaker 1>things are kind of upside down, but I think they're

0:37:44.400 --> 0:37:47.120
<v Speaker 1>going to get better eventually, you know. Yeah, you gotta

0:37:47.160 --> 0:37:49.319
<v Speaker 1>have faith and everything we do.

0:37:51.000 --> 0:37:52.920
<v Speaker 2>Hey, thank you, Chris. I appreciate the kind words.

0:37:52.920 --> 0:37:53.120
<v Speaker 1>Man.

0:37:53.239 --> 0:37:58.680
<v Speaker 2>I'll I'll see you around the spiritual, the spiritual realm.

0:37:58.960 --> 0:38:01.759
<v Speaker 1>Oh, definitely in this world too. You know, maybe someday

0:38:01.760 --> 0:38:03.640
<v Speaker 1>I'll come and visit you in New York and then

0:38:03.760 --> 0:38:05.120
<v Speaker 1>Washington wherever you came.

0:38:05.000 --> 0:38:07.799
<v Speaker 2>Out heaving fucking crazy man come through.

0:38:09.040 --> 0:38:10.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I got an eagle feather for you, brother.

0:38:11.239 --> 0:38:13.080
<v Speaker 2>Oh, that'd be cool, all right, I'll chack all right.

0:38:13.080 --> 0:38:14.600
<v Speaker 2>If I ever get to see you in real life,

0:38:14.600 --> 0:38:18.600
<v Speaker 2>I'll trade you an eagle feather for a gecko foot,

0:38:20.440 --> 0:38:24.200
<v Speaker 2>all right, right on. Hey, have it going, Chris, Thank you, man,

0:38:25.520 --> 0:38:31.160
<v Speaker 2>here you will, but go on at by Chris. That

0:38:31.320 --> 0:38:33.439
<v Speaker 2>was fascinating, dude, that man, I fuck with that guy

0:38:33.560 --> 0:38:35.479
<v Speaker 2>that's I was dude, I was in my head thinking

0:38:35.520 --> 0:38:38.040
<v Speaker 2>like he had like a some kind of e commerce store.

0:38:38.840 --> 0:38:41.000
<v Speaker 2>He's got like a Shopify page, and I'm like, no,

0:38:41.080 --> 0:38:45.839
<v Speaker 2>I'm thinking he's fucking just He barters like straight up

0:38:46.520 --> 0:38:50.160
<v Speaker 2>fucking yo. You're in Pakistan. You got a cool rock

0:38:50.239 --> 0:38:52.239
<v Speaker 2>over there. Let me send you a seed in the

0:38:52.239 --> 0:38:55.880
<v Speaker 2>mail you Venmo, no, no Venmo. You send me a seed.

0:38:56.680 --> 0:38:58.640
<v Speaker 2>I'll send you a seed. You send me that cool rock.

0:38:59.719 --> 0:39:03.040
<v Speaker 2>Shit it that's awesome. Everyone go trade with that guy.

0:39:03.080 --> 0:39:11.360
<v Speaker 2>I want that guy to get all sorts of interesting stuff. Hello,

0:39:12.239 --> 0:39:15.200
<v Speaker 2>what's up? Hey, how's it going?

0:39:19.480 --> 0:39:20.960
<v Speaker 1>Oh? Look with you?

0:39:20.960 --> 0:39:21.960
<v Speaker 2>You're about to go to work?

0:39:23.400 --> 0:39:27.600
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I work at UH in thirty minutes, but I

0:39:27.600 --> 0:39:31.760
<v Speaker 3>have to leave out like in like ten minutes.

0:39:32.840 --> 0:39:34.040
<v Speaker 2>So what made you want to call him?

0:39:38.280 --> 0:39:43.200
<v Speaker 3>The guy that was last talking on there on here

0:39:43.280 --> 0:39:47.000
<v Speaker 3>about his culture and all of that was just super

0:39:47.040 --> 0:39:53.439
<v Speaker 3>super interesting. And I have an interesting story about because

0:39:53.480 --> 0:39:58.120
<v Speaker 3>I'm Native American as well. But yeah, but I'm like,

0:39:58.440 --> 0:40:02.920
<v Speaker 3>my dad is half Naive American, half Puerto Rican, and

0:40:02.960 --> 0:40:05.759
<v Speaker 3>my mom is white, so I kind of look just

0:40:05.960 --> 0:40:13.799
<v Speaker 3>white and it's made it like kind of I don't know,

0:40:14.000 --> 0:40:16.479
<v Speaker 3>nobody believes me, and then I have to like show

0:40:16.520 --> 0:40:19.160
<v Speaker 3>them a picture of my dad and like he's like brown,

0:40:19.320 --> 0:40:22.600
<v Speaker 3>so and then it's like I'm just like a kind

0:40:22.600 --> 0:40:27.759
<v Speaker 3>of a white presenting person. But my dad's family was

0:40:27.800 --> 0:40:34.799
<v Speaker 3>super whitewashed because his mom, who is Native, she was

0:40:36.320 --> 0:40:40.920
<v Speaker 3>utterly recognized as white and same with all of her

0:40:44.239 --> 0:40:47.560
<v Speaker 3>brothers and sisters, because like that was like during the

0:40:47.640 --> 0:40:51.799
<v Speaker 3>time of when they were sending like Indian children to

0:40:51.920 --> 0:40:53.759
<v Speaker 3>boarding school. I don't know if you know about that,

0:40:55.080 --> 0:41:00.520
<v Speaker 3>but her mom was like, you know, they were like, oh, no,

0:41:00.719 --> 0:41:01.320
<v Speaker 3>she's white.

0:41:01.360 --> 0:41:02.960
<v Speaker 5>She doesn't need to go to boarding school.

0:41:03.480 --> 0:41:07.160
<v Speaker 3>You know, I'm white. And so basically because my grandparents

0:41:07.400 --> 0:41:10.680
<v Speaker 3>or my great great grandparents kind of led to the

0:41:10.719 --> 0:41:15.319
<v Speaker 3>federal government, I in turn have less federal recognization for

0:41:15.440 --> 0:41:20.960
<v Speaker 3>my native heritage, which is kind of like just this

0:41:21.160 --> 0:41:24.680
<v Speaker 3>crazy unfortunate event. I've talked to a lot of other

0:41:24.719 --> 0:41:27.359
<v Speaker 3>people in my situation. It's it's a really common thing.

0:41:28.800 --> 0:41:33.360
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I wish. I so wish that my family

0:41:33.560 --> 0:41:36.880
<v Speaker 3>was not kind of whitewashed out of their culture because

0:41:36.920 --> 0:41:45.239
<v Speaker 3>of you know, like segregation and prejudice. But yeah, I

0:41:45.280 --> 0:41:47.640
<v Speaker 3>really like I just love hearing stories like the last

0:41:47.680 --> 0:41:50.959
<v Speaker 3>guy that called, who's putting such an effort to keep

0:41:51.000 --> 0:41:55.719
<v Speaker 3>his language alive and share it with the use. But yeah,

0:41:55.719 --> 0:41:58.080
<v Speaker 3>I just wanted to say that, you know, there's a

0:41:58.160 --> 0:42:01.880
<v Speaker 3>lot going on in like the Native American world, I think,

0:42:02.480 --> 0:42:04.880
<v Speaker 3>and I just thought his call was really interesting.

0:42:05.400 --> 0:42:07.680
<v Speaker 2>Wild from I mean, what's going on in the Native

0:42:07.680 --> 0:42:09.920
<v Speaker 2>American world from your perspectives.

0:42:12.800 --> 0:42:16.440
<v Speaker 3>What he was talking about, like with the uranium minds,

0:42:16.480 --> 0:42:19.719
<v Speaker 3>and like all of the minds going on at the

0:42:19.800 --> 0:42:24.200
<v Speaker 3>reservations are super or not, they're not on the reservations,

0:42:24.239 --> 0:42:29.080
<v Speaker 3>but I know specifically what he's talking about is the

0:42:29.200 --> 0:42:32.160
<v Speaker 3>uranium mind that is poisoning the water supply to the

0:42:32.200 --> 0:42:36.520
<v Speaker 3>reservation of the Navajo people. And it's just like this

0:42:36.800 --> 0:42:43.000
<v Speaker 3>super super fucked up situation that they're in and people

0:42:43.000 --> 0:42:46.960
<v Speaker 3>are getting really sick, davies are born with like deformities,

0:42:47.040 --> 0:42:51.239
<v Speaker 3>Like it's like a horrible, horrible thing. And it's kind

0:42:51.239 --> 0:42:54.440
<v Speaker 3>of like a trend, like not necessarily a trend, but.

0:42:56.200 --> 0:42:58.200
<v Speaker 5>You know, it happens everywhere.

0:42:58.080 --> 0:43:02.160
<v Speaker 3>Just like minds and water contamination. And since they are

0:43:02.239 --> 0:43:05.960
<v Speaker 3>kind of a separate federal entity, it's like it's not

0:43:06.000 --> 0:43:10.360
<v Speaker 3>being treated as kind of a another country would treat

0:43:11.160 --> 0:43:14.319
<v Speaker 3>you know, it's not like we're kind of poisoning Mexico's water.

0:43:14.360 --> 0:43:17.880
<v Speaker 3>In Mexico is like this giant, you know, entity, so

0:43:17.920 --> 0:43:20.719
<v Speaker 3>they could easily fight back, but you know, Native American

0:43:20.800 --> 0:43:23.360
<v Speaker 3>power is like very limited.

0:43:28.400 --> 0:43:32.560
<v Speaker 2>What so do you you said your mother was Native

0:43:32.640 --> 0:43:37.480
<v Speaker 2>or your father was Native? My dad and what does

0:43:37.520 --> 0:43:42.440
<v Speaker 2>your dad like like embrace uh, like a lot of

0:43:42.440 --> 0:43:43.280
<v Speaker 2>cultural things.

0:43:44.880 --> 0:43:48.280
<v Speaker 3>No, it's like super sad, Like me and my sisters

0:43:48.840 --> 0:43:50.200
<v Speaker 3>and my cousins on my.

0:43:50.200 --> 0:43:53.520
<v Speaker 5>Dad's side are starting.

0:43:53.160 --> 0:43:57.799
<v Speaker 3>To embrace that type like part of our heritage. But yeah,

0:43:57.840 --> 0:44:01.880
<v Speaker 3>it's like, you know, during the time of trying to

0:44:02.120 --> 0:44:05.080
<v Speaker 3>figure out who's Indian and who's not and putting them

0:44:05.080 --> 0:44:07.960
<v Speaker 3>in boarding schools, it was just like so normalized to

0:44:08.000 --> 0:44:10.959
<v Speaker 3>be like, oh, no, we're white, don't worry about us.

0:44:11.120 --> 0:44:13.920
<v Speaker 5>And my dad's dad, my.

0:44:13.880 --> 0:44:17.040
<v Speaker 3>Grandpa, he and migrated from Puerto Rico and he was

0:44:17.080 --> 0:44:21.000
<v Speaker 3>facing a lot of discrimination too. So when my grandparents

0:44:21.040 --> 0:44:24.000
<v Speaker 3>got together, it was kind of like a we're going

0:44:24.080 --> 0:44:27.560
<v Speaker 3>to decide to not teach our kids about this because

0:44:27.600 --> 0:44:30.759
<v Speaker 3>we don't want them to feel the racism that we experienced.

0:44:31.480 --> 0:44:31.760
<v Speaker 1>Hmm.

0:44:32.760 --> 0:44:34.440
<v Speaker 2>And okay, so they were just like we don't want

0:44:34.440 --> 0:44:35.680
<v Speaker 2>to deal with any of the We don't want them

0:44:35.680 --> 0:44:37.040
<v Speaker 2>to deal with any of that stuff, so we're just

0:44:37.040 --> 0:44:38.799
<v Speaker 2>not going to even bother with.

0:44:38.719 --> 0:44:44.800
<v Speaker 3>It exactly, like we don't want them to to feel different.

0:44:45.680 --> 0:44:47.440
<v Speaker 3>But you know, now it's so cool.

0:44:47.280 --> 0:44:47.840
<v Speaker 1>To be different.

0:44:48.719 --> 0:44:50.000
<v Speaker 3>I think back then it was.

0:44:50.040 --> 0:44:54.680
<v Speaker 2>Like yeah, yeah, that's that's interesting. I feel like that's

0:44:54.960 --> 0:44:59.360
<v Speaker 2>like a it's a very interesting general cultural shift where

0:44:59.400 --> 0:45:04.720
<v Speaker 2>like yeah, yeah, it's it's now cool to be different.

0:45:04.920 --> 0:45:09.200
<v Speaker 2>When it used to be bad to be different, it did.

0:45:09.280 --> 0:45:12.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, And it's like in you know, I think that

0:45:13.440 --> 0:45:16.359
<v Speaker 3>it's hard for people I don't know. I don't want

0:45:16.360 --> 0:45:18.920
<v Speaker 3>to say it's hard for people like me, but it

0:45:19.000 --> 0:45:23.959
<v Speaker 3>is kind of just like invalidating because I look kind

0:45:23.960 --> 0:45:27.440
<v Speaker 3>of white. I look maybe a little bit hispanic. My

0:45:27.520 --> 0:45:30.880
<v Speaker 3>hair is like super curly, so people think, you know,

0:45:31.000 --> 0:45:33.840
<v Speaker 3>some people think I'm mixed, some people think I'm white.

0:45:33.920 --> 0:45:37.640
<v Speaker 3>But it's like other people don't believe me. They're like,

0:45:38.560 --> 0:45:40.440
<v Speaker 3>you know, I work in a restaurant, so like the

0:45:40.560 --> 0:45:43.120
<v Speaker 3>chefs are always like, oh, white girl, this white girl

0:45:43.160 --> 0:45:46.600
<v Speaker 3>that the just making jokes about, like you know, because

0:45:46.600 --> 0:45:49.840
<v Speaker 3>I look white, and it's like, oh, well, you know,

0:45:50.080 --> 0:45:52.520
<v Speaker 3>I'm not really And then it's like nobody believes me

0:45:54.360 --> 0:45:57.560
<v Speaker 3>because also it's like everybody wants to not be white.

0:45:57.600 --> 0:45:59.719
<v Speaker 3>Everybody wants to like kind of stand out like that.

0:46:00.080 --> 0:46:02.800
<v Speaker 3>So it comes off as like I'm trying to be different,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, mm hmm.

0:46:06.239 --> 0:46:09.320
<v Speaker 5>But I am like suttterly recognized.

0:46:08.760 --> 0:46:10.640
<v Speaker 3>As natives still.

0:46:10.680 --> 0:46:14.800
<v Speaker 5>But I don't like have the correct amount of Native

0:46:14.880 --> 0:46:21.280
<v Speaker 5>blood on my records because of my family not claiming

0:46:21.320 --> 0:46:22.960
<v Speaker 5>their Native American heritage.

0:46:23.560 --> 0:46:28.080
<v Speaker 2>Have you ever been to been to a reservation? I have.

0:46:29.360 --> 0:46:33.759
<v Speaker 3>I've not been to the one my tribe, my tribe's reservation,

0:46:34.239 --> 0:46:34.879
<v Speaker 3>but I have.

0:46:35.320 --> 0:46:35.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:46:35.640 --> 0:46:42.799
<v Speaker 3>My sister teaches high school at a reservation in Arizona.

0:46:43.040 --> 0:46:45.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, how has that been for her? Like what was

0:46:45.719 --> 0:46:47.279
<v Speaker 2>she reported about that experience?

0:46:49.560 --> 0:46:53.960
<v Speaker 3>Well, like kind of what he was saying, like the

0:46:54.040 --> 0:47:01.359
<v Speaker 3>funds are super you know, stretched thin, and and they

0:47:01.400 --> 0:47:04.759
<v Speaker 3>don't have a lot of resources for the school and uh,

0:47:06.160 --> 0:47:11.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, people are, but people are like.

0:47:11.280 --> 0:47:13.279
<v Speaker 5>I will say that she said specifically.

0:47:13.320 --> 0:47:15.799
<v Speaker 3>I don't think it was the Navajo who she was

0:47:15.840 --> 0:47:19.279
<v Speaker 3>working with, but she did say that, like there is

0:47:19.320 --> 0:47:26.160
<v Speaker 3>a resurgence in teaching kids their native language. And she

0:47:26.239 --> 0:47:29.120
<v Speaker 3>said that they're like trilingual, like they have like their

0:47:29.200 --> 0:47:32.440
<v Speaker 3>native language and then they have they know Spanish and

0:47:32.440 --> 0:47:33.960
<v Speaker 3>then they know English.

0:47:33.600 --> 0:47:34.279
<v Speaker 1>Obviously, but.

0:47:36.080 --> 0:47:38.920
<v Speaker 3>She said, it's it's a little bit, it's just kind

0:47:38.920 --> 0:47:41.359
<v Speaker 3>of hard conditions.

0:47:41.760 --> 0:47:46.600
<v Speaker 2>Mmmm, what is this? What job are you going to

0:47:46.760 --> 0:47:47.160
<v Speaker 2>right now?

0:47:49.040 --> 0:47:50.400
<v Speaker 3>I'm a server at a restaurant?

0:47:50.920 --> 0:47:53.799
<v Speaker 2>Okay? What are your what are your aspirations for your

0:47:53.840 --> 0:47:55.000
<v Speaker 2>existence on this planet?

0:47:57.200 --> 0:48:01.279
<v Speaker 3>You know, it kind of segues perfectly because I just

0:48:01.320 --> 0:48:05.440
<v Speaker 3>had a breakdown about that exact question a few hours ago.

0:48:06.239 --> 0:48:14.560
<v Speaker 3>But I I I studied art in college, and I

0:48:14.600 --> 0:48:18.520
<v Speaker 3>had some like good jobs with it, surprisingly outside of college,

0:48:19.120 --> 0:48:21.680
<v Speaker 3>didn't really stick with any of them long enough.

0:48:22.280 --> 0:48:25.840
<v Speaker 5>But you know, I'm kind of trying to figure it

0:48:25.840 --> 0:48:26.239
<v Speaker 5>out still.

0:48:26.239 --> 0:48:28.280
<v Speaker 3>I might go back to school. And I was actually

0:48:28.280 --> 0:48:32.759
<v Speaker 3>considering studying Native American art history because I had this

0:48:32.880 --> 0:48:38.680
<v Speaker 3>super cool professor in college who she like has a

0:48:38.719 --> 0:48:44.760
<v Speaker 3>doctorate degree in art history with this like a specification

0:48:44.880 --> 0:48:48.600
<v Speaker 3>or whatever in Native American art history studies, so and

0:48:48.760 --> 0:48:51.160
<v Speaker 3>like she's just the coolest person ever. So I'm kind

0:48:51.200 --> 0:48:54.160
<v Speaker 3>of like that's an option. But then I'm like, I

0:48:54.200 --> 0:48:57.160
<v Speaker 3>don't I don't give a I don't like school that much.

0:48:57.880 --> 0:49:00.239
<v Speaker 3>I don't really know, I don't know. I just want

0:49:00.239 --> 0:49:04.160
<v Speaker 3>to do something really sick and cool and feel fulfilled,

0:49:04.360 --> 0:49:07.200
<v Speaker 3>and obviously working in the restaurant is not that for me,

0:49:07.880 --> 0:49:10.520
<v Speaker 3>but that's okay, do what you gotta do.

0:49:10.560 --> 0:49:13.640
<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm I'm I'm I'm kind of the

0:49:13.680 --> 0:49:15.120
<v Speaker 2>same way. I think it's a good way to be.

0:49:15.320 --> 0:49:16.719
<v Speaker 2>I think when you get to when you get to

0:49:16.800 --> 0:49:20.560
<v Speaker 2>a chat, when you get too attached to any kind

0:49:20.560 --> 0:49:25.440
<v Speaker 2>of specific dream, you sort of set yourself up for failure.

0:49:25.960 --> 0:49:28.800
<v Speaker 2>But uh, like for me, I'm always I'm. I remember

0:49:29.200 --> 0:49:31.560
<v Speaker 2>long a while ago, I remember thinking, like I don't

0:49:31.560 --> 0:49:33.640
<v Speaker 2>really care what I do. I just want to do

0:49:33.840 --> 0:49:37.880
<v Speaker 2>something interesting, something that like if I tell people what

0:49:37.960 --> 0:49:39.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm up to, like, I just always want to be

0:49:39.680 --> 0:49:41.960
<v Speaker 2>like if I'm like telling people what I'm up to,

0:49:42.160 --> 0:49:44.040
<v Speaker 2>I want to be like excited to talk to them

0:49:44.080 --> 0:49:48.080
<v Speaker 2>about it. That's my that's really my main barometer for

0:49:48.920 --> 0:49:49.719
<v Speaker 2>my existence.

0:49:50.320 --> 0:49:50.520
<v Speaker 3>You know.

0:49:50.600 --> 0:49:53.040
<v Speaker 2>I think when you get to you definitely general. When

0:49:53.040 --> 0:49:56.319
<v Speaker 2>you get to a specific things get you know, you

0:49:56.360 --> 0:49:57.719
<v Speaker 2>set yourself up for disappointment.

0:49:57.760 --> 0:50:02.520
<v Speaker 3>Like I said, we're too general, Like what if you're just.

0:50:02.440 --> 0:50:06.240
<v Speaker 2>Like I do finance, that's very that's specific.

0:50:08.760 --> 0:50:11.000
<v Speaker 3>Well, I mean, yeah, I guess I was thinking like

0:50:11.440 --> 0:50:14.319
<v Speaker 3>in terms of like your job is so niche and

0:50:14.440 --> 0:50:18.080
<v Speaker 3>interesting and cool, and it's like you could just be

0:50:18.160 --> 0:50:19.400
<v Speaker 3>somebody that does finance.

0:50:20.600 --> 0:50:22.520
<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean, you could be somebody who's like, I

0:50:22.560 --> 0:50:26.520
<v Speaker 2>want to make a lot of money and you know

0:50:26.719 --> 0:50:32.760
<v Speaker 2>that could be achieved in a myriad of different ways,

0:50:34.239 --> 0:50:36.080
<v Speaker 2>or you could be like I want to be financed.

0:50:36.280 --> 0:50:38.880
<v Speaker 2>You know, I think the I think the more general.

0:50:39.040 --> 0:50:42.880
<v Speaker 2>There's a weird dude. There's a weird paradoxical thing where

0:50:42.920 --> 0:50:46.840
<v Speaker 2>like your dreams need to be both Like it's so

0:50:46.960 --> 0:50:50.560
<v Speaker 2>paradoxical where it's like they need to be both specific

0:50:50.760 --> 0:50:55.440
<v Speaker 2>enough that you can actually achieve them, but general enough

0:50:56.239 --> 0:50:59.360
<v Speaker 2>that you're like open to the world, you know what

0:50:59.440 --> 0:50:59.920
<v Speaker 2>I mean.

0:51:01.719 --> 0:51:07.640
<v Speaker 3>For sure, Like, yeah, I don't know, Yeah, it is

0:51:07.680 --> 0:51:10.800
<v Speaker 3>this weird paradox I'm really like kind of been spiraling

0:51:10.880 --> 0:51:13.720
<v Speaker 3>the last couple of months over it because it's like, Wow,

0:51:13.760 --> 0:51:16.440
<v Speaker 3>what I went to college and studied four years to

0:51:16.520 --> 0:51:18.400
<v Speaker 3>do and I got a job and I didn't like it,

0:51:18.440 --> 0:51:20.520
<v Speaker 3>and I am now doing the same job I was

0:51:20.560 --> 0:51:24.480
<v Speaker 3>doing when I was sixteen, and it's like that is

0:51:26.000 --> 0:51:28.439
<v Speaker 3>kind of I don't know, it just kind of makes

0:51:28.480 --> 0:51:30.879
<v Speaker 3>me feel bad, kind of makes me feel like I've

0:51:31.040 --> 0:51:31.600
<v Speaker 3>failed a.

0:51:31.520 --> 0:51:32.120
<v Speaker 1>Little bit.

0:51:33.680 --> 0:51:34.960
<v Speaker 2>That you that you failed.

0:51:37.120 --> 0:51:40.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, not like I failed, but I mean I definitely

0:51:40.040 --> 0:51:43.439
<v Speaker 3>got in closer now to what I want to do,

0:51:43.719 --> 0:51:47.040
<v Speaker 3>like with all my life experience and whatever. But you know,

0:51:47.280 --> 0:51:49.799
<v Speaker 3>I like went to college for a specific thing and

0:51:49.840 --> 0:51:53.239
<v Speaker 3>I like didn't like it at the end of the day.

0:51:53.560 --> 0:51:55.600
<v Speaker 2>Did you mention what that specific thing is?

0:51:57.040 --> 0:51:58.120
<v Speaker 3>I went to school for art.

0:51:59.520 --> 0:52:01.920
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but you don't like art? Why don't you like art?

0:52:02.960 --> 0:52:05.800
<v Speaker 3>No? No, I love art. I don't like the commodification

0:52:05.920 --> 0:52:08.960
<v Speaker 3>of art and like the commercial side of art.

0:52:09.280 --> 0:52:13.040
<v Speaker 2>Sure, yeah, the fast is way. Yeah, yeah, I think.

0:52:14.200 --> 0:52:18.760
<v Speaker 2>I think there is a lot of value in separating

0:52:19.080 --> 0:52:22.760
<v Speaker 2>what you do for money and what you do for

0:52:25.480 --> 0:52:30.200
<v Speaker 2>personal fulfillments. There's also there's also there's also a lot

0:52:30.239 --> 0:52:34.480
<v Speaker 2>of value in those two being the same thing. But

0:52:34.640 --> 0:52:39.560
<v Speaker 2>they each each situation, each situation has its trade offs,

0:52:40.160 --> 0:52:40.360
<v Speaker 2>you know.

0:52:42.800 --> 0:52:47.319
<v Speaker 3>Yes, it's just like I can't, ah, I just like,

0:52:48.560 --> 0:52:51.160
<v Speaker 3>you know, other than doing a restaurant job, which is

0:52:51.440 --> 0:52:53.959
<v Speaker 3>like in my head, this is like the easy job.

0:52:54.480 --> 0:52:58.480
<v Speaker 3>Like I can't think of anything else like that I

0:52:58.560 --> 0:53:01.000
<v Speaker 3>want to do for money that I would like, Like,

0:53:01.640 --> 0:53:04.160
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, I just can't find fulfillment in a

0:53:04.239 --> 0:53:06.400
<v Speaker 3>job where I just get a paycheck. Money doesn't like

0:53:06.480 --> 0:53:09.239
<v Speaker 3>motivate me, and I like wish it did, but it

0:53:09.400 --> 0:53:13.359
<v Speaker 3>just like makes me feel kind of like icky when

0:53:13.360 --> 0:53:15.000
<v Speaker 3>I'm chasing a bag, do you know.

0:53:15.000 --> 0:53:16.759
<v Speaker 2>What I mean? Well, can you take me? I have

0:53:16.800 --> 0:53:17.839
<v Speaker 2>a speakerphone real quick?

0:53:19.040 --> 0:53:20.439
<v Speaker 3>Oh sorry, not no words.

0:53:22.360 --> 0:53:29.160
<v Speaker 2>I was no I heard. I heard you said. Why

0:53:29.160 --> 0:53:31.560
<v Speaker 2>do you say you wish money motivated you?

0:53:34.040 --> 0:53:36.759
<v Speaker 3>Because then I'd have more of it and then I

0:53:36.760 --> 0:53:38.439
<v Speaker 3>could do what I wanted to do.

0:53:38.520 --> 0:53:39.600
<v Speaker 1>You know that is.

0:53:41.280 --> 0:53:44.040
<v Speaker 3>I Yeah, I can't like do so I'm like starting

0:53:44.080 --> 0:53:46.640
<v Speaker 3>to apply to a bunch of because I'm kind of

0:53:46.680 --> 0:53:49.200
<v Speaker 3>you know, figuring out, Okay, I want to do art.

0:53:49.440 --> 0:53:51.880
<v Speaker 3>I'm going to make this happen. So I started applying

0:53:51.880 --> 0:53:56.640
<v Speaker 3>to like different art grants in my state and trying

0:53:56.640 --> 0:53:59.680
<v Speaker 3>to make it happen for myself and like planning on

0:53:59.719 --> 0:54:05.880
<v Speaker 3>moving to a more populated area that has more opportunities

0:54:05.920 --> 0:54:09.520
<v Speaker 3>and whatever for that. And it's just like, at the

0:54:09.600 --> 0:54:11.480
<v Speaker 3>end of the day, I can't make art if I

0:54:11.480 --> 0:54:14.759
<v Speaker 3>don't have money, But I can't make money if I

0:54:14.800 --> 0:54:15.840
<v Speaker 3>don't have time to create.

0:54:15.880 --> 0:54:16.080
<v Speaker 1>You know.

0:54:16.280 --> 0:54:17.200
<v Speaker 3>It's yeah, like the.

0:54:17.160 --> 0:54:23.080
<v Speaker 2>Paradox, yes, yes, yeah, that's why the goal. The goal

0:54:23.440 --> 0:54:25.920
<v Speaker 2>is to like, well, that's the trade off, right, is

0:54:25.960 --> 0:54:29.240
<v Speaker 2>because the goal is to like be able to spend

0:54:29.600 --> 0:54:33.920
<v Speaker 2>as much time, like and energy doing the things you

0:54:33.960 --> 0:54:40.000
<v Speaker 2>really want to do. And then yeah, paradoxically, yes, you

0:54:40.040 --> 0:54:42.319
<v Speaker 2>need money to do them, and then paradoxically, in order

0:54:42.360 --> 0:54:44.920
<v Speaker 2>to get that money, you have to spend time doing

0:54:44.960 --> 0:54:46.799
<v Speaker 2>things you don't want to do. It's's weird. It's as

0:54:46.880 --> 0:54:50.680
<v Speaker 2>weird like when you like when you like overlap them

0:54:51.120 --> 0:54:55.680
<v Speaker 2>where it becomes a thing of like, you know, your

0:54:55.719 --> 0:55:01.600
<v Speaker 2>your incentives start getting like, you know, you don't know

0:55:01.640 --> 0:55:03.200
<v Speaker 2>what you're doing because you like it. You don't know

0:55:03.239 --> 0:55:06.719
<v Speaker 2>what you're doing because you want to make money. But

0:55:06.760 --> 0:55:10.120
<v Speaker 2>I guess the goal is to figure out. That's why

0:55:10.160 --> 0:55:13.200
<v Speaker 2>everyone's scheming all the time. You know, It's like we

0:55:13.280 --> 0:55:16.640
<v Speaker 2>have everyone's everyone's we're like the goals like figure out

0:55:16.680 --> 0:55:20.439
<v Speaker 2>how can I spend as little amount of time doing

0:55:20.480 --> 0:55:22.359
<v Speaker 2>things I don't want to do and make as much

0:55:22.400 --> 0:55:26.279
<v Speaker 2>money as possible? And that is that That is kind

0:55:26.320 --> 0:55:34.919
<v Speaker 2>of the twenty twenty six American dream, just figuring out

0:55:35.000 --> 0:55:36.320
<v Speaker 2>figuring out a good scheme.

0:55:39.080 --> 0:55:41.520
<v Speaker 3>True that I mean, I'm kind of in a scheme.

0:55:42.160 --> 0:55:46.440
<v Speaker 3>What's your Yeah, I'm scheming for sure. I'm definitely on

0:55:46.520 --> 0:55:49.480
<v Speaker 3>the come up, giving my way to a bag.

0:55:50.239 --> 0:55:52.359
<v Speaker 2>I guess you could say, what are you scheming? What's

0:55:52.400 --> 0:55:53.160
<v Speaker 2>the scheme.

0:55:54.760 --> 0:55:58.360
<v Speaker 3>The Well, my scheme is like the art grants and

0:55:58.520 --> 0:56:02.120
<v Speaker 3>like trying to find money to create and try to

0:56:02.120 --> 0:56:03.840
<v Speaker 3>create off of somebody else's dime.

0:56:04.520 --> 0:56:07.320
<v Speaker 2>That's a good scheme, is my schemes?

0:56:07.480 --> 0:56:07.719
<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

0:56:07.920 --> 0:56:08.279
<v Speaker 1>Fuck it?

0:56:09.040 --> 0:56:12.960
<v Speaker 3>And I'm also kind of like I have a long

0:56:13.040 --> 0:56:15.719
<v Speaker 3>term boyfriend, so it's kind of like, why don't I

0:56:15.800 --> 0:56:18.120
<v Speaker 3>just move in with you and then we could live

0:56:19.360 --> 0:56:23.280
<v Speaker 3>cut our rent cost in half and it would be dreamy.

0:56:23.400 --> 0:56:24.000
<v Speaker 3>That's a scheme.

0:56:24.400 --> 0:56:27.520
<v Speaker 2>That's a classic scheme. That's a that's a that's a

0:56:27.560 --> 0:56:28.719
<v Speaker 2>scheme as old as time.

0:56:30.000 --> 0:56:30.320
<v Speaker 1>True.

0:56:30.560 --> 0:56:35.239
<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah, yeah, you pay people. People have talked about this.

0:56:35.280 --> 0:56:38.080
<v Speaker 2>You pay like a there's there is a single tax

0:56:38.160 --> 0:56:39.200
<v Speaker 2>that you have to pay.

0:56:42.040 --> 0:56:47.239
<v Speaker 3>Like being for being single? Yeah yeah yeah, And like, yeah,

0:56:47.280 --> 0:56:49.440
<v Speaker 3>why would I pay that? If I have a boyfriend,

0:56:49.480 --> 0:56:53.320
<v Speaker 3>I'm just gonna But then it's like why would I?

0:56:53.320 --> 0:56:55.520
<v Speaker 3>I told my mom I might move in with him,

0:56:55.520 --> 0:56:58.080
<v Speaker 3>and she was like, why don't you just get married?

0:56:58.719 --> 0:57:03.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, what in this economy now? Not getting married?

0:57:03.719 --> 0:57:06.320
<v Speaker 2>How long have you guys been together.

0:57:08.080 --> 0:57:09.040
<v Speaker 3>Three years?

0:57:09.480 --> 0:57:12.719
<v Speaker 2>Three years? What's he do? What's his deal?

0:57:15.200 --> 0:57:17.520
<v Speaker 3>Oh my gosh, I wish I had more time to

0:57:17.560 --> 0:57:20.000
<v Speaker 3>talk to you, but looking at the clock, I feel

0:57:20.000 --> 0:57:21.440
<v Speaker 3>like I'm gonna.

0:57:21.200 --> 0:57:21.880
<v Speaker 1>Be late for work.

0:57:22.160 --> 0:57:24.440
<v Speaker 2>We have, in fact gone over ten minutes. So I

0:57:24.440 --> 0:57:27.160
<v Speaker 2>will let you get on with your life. What is

0:57:27.160 --> 0:57:28.080
<v Speaker 2>your name? One more time?

0:57:29.400 --> 0:57:29.800
<v Speaker 1>Nicole?

0:57:30.320 --> 0:57:33.440
<v Speaker 2>Nicole? It was nice talking to you, Nicole. I will

0:57:33.600 --> 0:57:35.880
<v Speaker 2>I will see you around the universe. And good luck

0:57:35.920 --> 0:57:40.000
<v Speaker 2>on your on your artistic endeavors.

0:57:40.360 --> 0:57:44.000
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, thank you. I liked your perspectives, the paradox.

0:57:44.720 --> 0:57:45.000
<v Speaker 4>Thank you.

0:57:46.040 --> 0:57:46.440
<v Speaker 2>Thank you.

0:57:47.520 --> 0:57:48.360
<v Speaker 3>Nice to talk about.

0:57:48.800 --> 0:57:51.800
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, life is crazy. I always say it, I always

0:57:51.800 --> 0:57:55.040
<v Speaker 2>feel it. I never I never don't feel that way.

0:57:58.360 --> 0:57:59.800
<v Speaker 3>Okay, love you, talk to you later.

0:58:00.640 --> 0:58:05.800
<v Speaker 2>See you, man. What's up, folks, It's me. I'm gonna

0:58:05.840 --> 0:58:11.000
<v Speaker 2>do a little bit of view or mail just to

0:58:11.200 --> 0:58:14.360
<v Speaker 2>end us out, just because I just because I'm like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what, it's a nice I don't know, it's

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<v Speaker 2>a nice way to end the podcast. I feel, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I can just talk directly to you, guys. I feel

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<v Speaker 2>like I'm always talking to all to the I feel

0:58:28.560 --> 0:58:30.920
<v Speaker 2>like I talk to the people who listen to this podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>One at a time usually, and I like doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>But this is nice because I can talk to all

0:58:38.120 --> 0:58:43.640
<v Speaker 2>of you at once by also, I guess, but I'm

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<v Speaker 2>also reading emails, so which is also kind of talking

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<v Speaker 2>to people one at a time still. But you know what,

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<v Speaker 2>let's not think about it too much. Let's just let's

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<v Speaker 2>read a few we don't. It's not gonna be crazy,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not gonna be a lot, but let's just read

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<v Speaker 2>a couple. Just is a nice way to end the show.

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<v Speaker 2>This is David. This is an email from a guy

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<v Speaker 2>named David. The subject line is I used to write

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<v Speaker 2>gay erotica. Hey, Gek. In your latest gek Mal episode,

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<v Speaker 2>you read an email of mine. I was the guy

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<v Speaker 2>who asked you about your favorite movies, and you told

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<v Speaker 2>me that you are not a movie guy. This is true.

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<v Speaker 2>I thought you were because I thought you talked about

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<v Speaker 2>going to film school and made the connection that way.

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<v Speaker 2>I did go to film school. I don't I like

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<v Speaker 2>making stuff, but I this stuff I like. The the

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<v Speaker 2>stuff I like to make and the stuff I like

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<v Speaker 2>to watch are very very different, like my whole Like

0:59:46.600 --> 0:59:52.520
<v Speaker 2>I make videos about like like talking to people and

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<v Speaker 2>about like real world stuff. I guess, but all of

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<v Speaker 2>my like actual YouTube algorithm is like is like, we

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<v Speaker 2>play the over the Hedge video game from two thousand

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<v Speaker 2>and six and we reviewed it, and I'm like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I want to watch tho. That's great. Anyways, while listening

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<v Speaker 2>to my own email, I thought it was so fucking

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<v Speaker 2>boring that I wanted to reach out again and share

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<v Speaker 2>something more interesting that I could actually use some advice on.

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<v Speaker 2>As the subject line says, I used to write gay

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<v Speaker 2>erotica stories. Sometimes I'll start by saying I'm actually kind

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<v Speaker 2>of a straight guy. I had two sexual experiences with

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<v Speaker 2>men in an experimental phase that I met online, but

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<v Speaker 2>came to the conclusion no pun intended that was good.

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<v Speaker 2>He wrote, no pun intended that was good. I concluded

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<v Speaker 2>I wasn't into guys like that if I had to

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<v Speaker 2>put a label on it. If I had to put

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<v Speaker 2>a label on it, I would probably call myself by

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<v Speaker 2>But I feel sure I'll end up with a woman

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<v Speaker 2>in my life as I feel more attraction towards them.

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<v Speaker 2>During this experimental phase, I also started reading some erotica

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<v Speaker 2>and wanted to try writing one myself because I enjoyed

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<v Speaker 2>the act of writing. Because I recently had these experiences

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<v Speaker 2>with guys, I thought I would take them as inspiration

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<v Speaker 2>for the stories. After writing my first story, I posted

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<v Speaker 2>it on the gay story subreddit I had been reading on,

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<v Speaker 2>just to see if it would get any reactions. To

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<v Speaker 2>my surprise, the next morning, I checked and saw it

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<v Speaker 2>got a bunch of comments and likes fifteen thousand views.

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<v Speaker 2>It felt kind of cool to reach so many people

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<v Speaker 2>and possibly make their day a little better. I kept

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<v Speaker 2>writing stories, and some of them got more than one

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<v Speaker 2>hundred and fifty thousand views, accumulating to a total of

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<v Speaker 2>more than a million views on my gay erotica stories.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not sure if this is for a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>Reddit posts, as I don't use it otherwise, but it

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<v Speaker 2>sure felt like it for me. Some people actually kept

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<v Speaker 2>reaching out asking me to write more with special requests.

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<v Speaker 2>It was like I had a little fan base, and

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<v Speaker 2>I actually fulfilled some of these requests, but mostly stayed

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<v Speaker 2>with my own imagination for inspiration. I'm also not sure

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<v Speaker 2>why I kept writing exclusively gay stories. I guess I

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<v Speaker 2>just stuck with what was working for me, as I

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<v Speaker 2>liked the engagement I was getting. I love the you

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<v Speaker 2>know what, I love the fucking idea of like, you

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<v Speaker 2>know how, like I don't know, I this is this

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<v Speaker 2>is this sounds uh, this is ironic as somebody who's

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<v Speaker 2>been dressing up in a gecko costume for almost six

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<v Speaker 2>years now. But you know how, there are those content

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<v Speaker 2>creators where it's like they figure out their niche and

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<v Speaker 2>they're like, well, this is what's working, so we got

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<v Speaker 2>to keep staying with it. This guy, this guy's like,

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<v Speaker 2>I guess my niche is being gay, So I have

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<v Speaker 2>to keep being gay because it's what's working. It's just

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<v Speaker 2>it's an interesting way to approach one's sexuality. I stuck

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<v Speaker 2>with what was working for me is I liked the engagement.

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<v Speaker 2>Now here's what I'm debating with myself. I haven't written

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<v Speaker 2>a story or read one, for that matter, in over

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<v Speaker 2>a year because I lost interest in it. I'm currently single,

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<v Speaker 2>but if I were to get with someone, should I

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<v Speaker 2>tell them about this anonymous gay erotica presence I had online?

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<v Speaker 2>On one hand, I want to be open with my

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<v Speaker 2>future partner about stuff like this, But on the other hand,

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<v Speaker 2>I have never told anyone about it or my gay experiences.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not something I'm ashamed of, per se, but I

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<v Speaker 2>feel like it's a chapter I've closed and it might

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<v Speaker 2>be off putting to a future partner. Should some things

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<v Speaker 2>stay secret or it does honesty last the longest. I

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<v Speaker 2>would love to hear your thoughts and advice. Thank you

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<v Speaker 2>for sharing. This is a great email. So it's interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>This is a very is a deeply it's a deeply

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<v Speaker 2>personal thing, right. I will say this. It's a deeply

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<v Speaker 2>personal thing, and there's a lot different ways to look

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<v Speaker 2>at it. Here's a few things that I will say confidently.

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<v Speaker 2>I will say confidently that I don't believe in any way,

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<v Speaker 2>shape or form, you have some kind of external obligation

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<v Speaker 2>to tell a future partner about this stuff. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>feel like you're obligated too. So if for whatever reason,

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<v Speaker 2>you're gonna share it with them, I don't think you

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<v Speaker 2>should share with them out of obligation. I think it's

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<v Speaker 2>a bad reason if you share if now now now listen,

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<v Speaker 2>Some people like I don't know, I have a thing

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<v Speaker 2>where it's like I can't fucking keep my mouth shut

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<v Speaker 2>about shit. So I like sharing. I like when I

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<v Speaker 2>share a thing that I'm a little ashamed of with

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<v Speaker 2>the person, I feel closer to them. And that's my

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<v Speaker 2>motivation for sharing stuff. There's things I don't share because

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm uncomfortable, but some things are on the line

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<v Speaker 2>of comfortability where it's like, I'm comfortable enough with this,

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<v Speaker 2>I have enough confidence that I can share this with

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<v Speaker 2>this person and it'll it'll strengthen our relationship rather than

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<v Speaker 2>making it worse, and I'm gonna do it. And so

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<v Speaker 2>I have kind of an intuitive thing that tells me

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<v Speaker 2>whether or not I want to share something with someone,

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<v Speaker 2>and I follow that intuition. So I think that for you,

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<v Speaker 2>you probably have an intuition about that as well. And

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<v Speaker 2>I hope that intuition isn't guided by some form of

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<v Speaker 2>obligation to keep a secret or obligation to tell someone something,

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<v Speaker 2>but rather that your intuition is is again just guided

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<v Speaker 2>by the principles of like, I don't know this, like

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<v Speaker 2>intangible kind of feeling. Oh, I think it would. I

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<v Speaker 2>think I think this person would. I'm this interesting. I

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<v Speaker 2>think this person might know me more if they knew this. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm kind of feel comfortable enough with this person to

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<v Speaker 2>show this side of myself. So I can't say, yes,

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<v Speaker 2>you should tell her, Yes you shouldn't, but uh, you

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<v Speaker 2>know I think you should stick your intuition on that.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, it's it's really interesting, it's cool. I don't

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<v Speaker 2>think it's I don't you know you said you said

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<v Speaker 2>it's not something you're ashamed of. I don't think it's

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<v Speaker 2>something you should be ashamed of at all, or or

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<v Speaker 2>that it might. I don't know why it would be

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<v Speaker 2>off putting to a future partner. Yeah, you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>I used you know what I used to believe. Maybe

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<v Speaker 2>some parts of me I used to believe, and maybe

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<v Speaker 2>some part of my brain still believes this and it

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<v Speaker 2>doesn't want to because it's the more difficult way of

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<v Speaker 2>going through life, I believe. But there's also the whole

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<v Speaker 2>thing of like, well, you know, walk the reads naked

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<v Speaker 2>metaphorically of course, or if I were naked, or just

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<v Speaker 2>walk the streets naked, if that's your thing that you

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<v Speaker 2>want to do. If if if walking the streets naked

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<v Speaker 2>is your metaphorical walking the streets naked, then you know

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<v Speaker 2>that's then that's what it is. You know, do that,

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<v Speaker 2>but it walked the streets naked, and whoever's around, that's

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<v Speaker 2>who's meant to be in your life. Like if you

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<v Speaker 2>literally walk to the streets naked, and there was and

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<v Speaker 2>nine and most and everyone was horrified, except like one

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<v Speaker 2>guy came up to you and was like, Hey, what

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<v Speaker 2>are you doing? It's interesting? What's your name? Why you

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<v Speaker 2>walk around naked? What's your name? What do you what

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<v Speaker 2>are you doing? You're crazy, man? You want to hang

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<v Speaker 2>out later? This is wild, Like that could happen to you.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, but yeah, this part of me, part

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<v Speaker 2>of me wants to believe that. But then another part

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<v Speaker 2>of me believes that walking the streets naked metaphorically is

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<v Speaker 2>a little similar to doing it literally, where everyone's like, wow,

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<v Speaker 2>that guy's naked. He looks like a crazy person. Let's

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<v Speaker 2>uh go to another part of the streets. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 2>but I appreciate you writing this email to me, David.

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<v Speaker 2>Good luck with your with your Oh wait, okay, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>you know you lost interest in it.

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<v Speaker 3>MM.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know why I'm pausing. I don't have anything

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<v Speaker 2>else to say. I said everything I wanted to say.

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<v Speaker 2>That was the podcast. That was it. We read one email.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think I needed to read more. I feel

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<v Speaker 2>like that email was worth five emails. I liked, I

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<v Speaker 2>liked all the people we interacted with today. Chris. I

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<v Speaker 2>forget the name of the girl who I was just

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<v Speaker 2>talking to, but I liked her. She was nice. Then

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<v Speaker 2>this guy David, who I saw. His name. I only

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<v Speaker 2>know because I can read it directly in front of me.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, if anyone ends up bartering with that guy,

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<v Speaker 2>that'd be awesome. All Right, thanks for listening to this podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll keep making it. Uh, get bless see you around

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<v Speaker 2>the universe. Have a good one. Goes on the line,

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<v Speaker 2>taking your phone calls.

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<v Speaker 3>Every night, goes to ride.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just teaching you. Cloud's not really an expert.