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Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya Ren and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Radio Podcast. Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in. In

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Speaker 1: today's episode, we have a very special guests, our first

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Speaker 1: in studio guests. I was like, I'm coming in. It's

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Speaker 1: so much better and I am obsessed with you. This

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Speaker 1: is the voice of Tracy Tutor. Everybody that is listening

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Speaker 1: and doesn't know. Um, I'm like coming off of this

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Speaker 1: high from Rihanna's super Bowl performance because I just feel

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Speaker 1: like she showed us, she showed us that you can

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Speaker 1: really do it all and have it all at the

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Speaker 1: same time. And I feel like you're the perfect guest

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Speaker 1: to have this week because I feel the same energy

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Speaker 1: from you. I feel like you are such a badass

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Speaker 1: in the workspace. I feel like you're constantly reinventing yourself

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Speaker 1: in different ways. You are an author, you are like

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Speaker 1: crushing it in your career, you have a relationship, you're

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Speaker 1: a mom, You're doing all these things and you're doing

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Speaker 1: it so well. And so I'm really excited to have

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Speaker 1: Tracy Tutor on with us because you're just all thing

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Speaker 1: this modern woman energy. Thank you. I'm so excited to

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Speaker 1: be here. I haven't seen you in a long time,

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Speaker 1: and it's so nice to meet you. I know, we

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Speaker 1: well we were talking about this before you came in.

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Speaker 1: You were um helping hand for Tanya while she was

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Speaker 1: going through what we call the trigger of it and

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Speaker 1: her breakup UM, and I remember there was she was

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Speaker 1: just like she took me under her wing. There was

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Speaker 1: like a like a sisterhood bond there of you just

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Speaker 1: like totally helping her navigate it. Well, I remember when

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Speaker 1: you came over to my house and we were having

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Speaker 1: like a glass of wine in the backyard with Haley

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Speaker 1: and like a couple of other friends. And obviously I

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Speaker 1: had gone through the divorce and I was at that

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Speaker 1: time probably three years out of it, out of it.

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Speaker 1: I was like finally like on my two feet again.

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Speaker 1: I had been dating, and I was like, girl, you

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Speaker 1: got this, you can like you need to be out there.

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Speaker 1: And then apparently you got set up. So two of

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Speaker 1: your friends that were outso at your house that night. Yes,

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Speaker 1: we know this guy. He's really great. He doesn't live here,

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Speaker 1: but we want him to move da dada. So they

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Speaker 1: were like showed me his Instagram and I was like, okay, cute.

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Speaker 1: So we started like dm ng on Instagram and this

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Speaker 1: guy we ended up scheduling like a Zoom day because

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Speaker 1: But also he didn't live in l A. So it

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Speaker 1: was like a zoom day, Like we were like going

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Speaker 1: the days. Then this was like my only date that

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Speaker 1: we talked about an hour and a half. He talked

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Speaker 1: about his hex girlfriend and like kind of why he

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Speaker 1: I was talking about Robbie and my breakup and what

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Speaker 1: all went down there. So we basically spent the entire

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Speaker 1: date talking about our exes. It's great cut to cut

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Speaker 1: to a year and a half later. I still follow

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Speaker 1: him on Instagram. He got back together with that girl.

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Speaker 1: They're engaged, Oh my god, and like fully so happy

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Speaker 1: and he we both message each other now, like and

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Speaker 1: when I remember when when Robbie I got back to

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Speaker 1: he was like, oh my gosh, I'm so glad you

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Speaker 1: And I was like, how funny that we both ended

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Speaker 1: up back with our you know, like that that telltale

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Speaker 1: sign of like the first date, when you spend the

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Speaker 1: entire first date talking about your axes. It's not really

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Speaker 1: a strong indicator that you guys are very each other. No,

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Speaker 1: we were not for each other, but I just want

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Speaker 1: it to be such a funny, funny and I still

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Speaker 1: found like, at what point do I unfollow this guy? Like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: I don't know if you're going to run into some date.

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Speaker 1: It's not like you had like no no connectionever. Yeah

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Speaker 1: that's okay. Yeah, but I do feel like this this

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Speaker 1: Sunday morning? We're going for a walk. Let's get out

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Speaker 1: of it now. Yeah. I wanted to talk to you

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Speaker 1: about this because I had listened to an interview I

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Speaker 1: think it was on a UM like Serious XIM. I

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Speaker 1: don't know if it's a podcast or radio show, but

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Speaker 1: you're talking about your divorce and UM on Monday's episode

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Speaker 1: last week. We were talking about how men get so

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Speaker 1: comfortable or get such an ego that they're with these

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Speaker 1: And I didn't know if you were comfortable talking about it,

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Speaker 1: but I was listening to how Jeff lewis yeah yeah,

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Speaker 1: we had had drinks and before and we were chatting,

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Speaker 1: know what, I've never really spoken about it before, and

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Speaker 1: your ex, but knowing that, knowing just what I know

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Speaker 1: add value in many ways, like you have to kind

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Speaker 1: it goes back to what we were talking about earlier,

430
00:22:40,800 --> 00:22:43,000
Speaker 1: is like this idea that like we can either be

431
00:22:43,040 --> 00:22:46,240
Speaker 1: like this incredible tribe and figure each other out and

432
00:22:46,240 --> 00:22:48,360
Speaker 1: be supportive of each other, or we can be our

433
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,720
Speaker 1: greatest enemy and we can be very defeatist about it.

434
00:22:51,760 --> 00:22:55,280
Speaker 1: And I just feel like by virtue of getting through

435
00:22:55,320 --> 00:22:57,200
Speaker 1: that and coming on the other side of it, I'm

436
00:22:57,240 --> 00:22:59,280
Speaker 1: like happy to talk about. And then it landed with

437
00:22:59,359 --> 00:23:03,320
Speaker 1: Chason and he is like, okay, yeah, He's like, well not,

438
00:23:03,400 --> 00:23:04,960
Speaker 1: you know, don't talk about it that much. And I'm like,

439
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:08,040
Speaker 1: but the bottom line is I am proud of it.

440
00:23:08,119 --> 00:23:11,359
Speaker 1: And I was damning her, you know, this weekend about

441
00:23:11,440 --> 00:23:15,520
Speaker 1: just dogs or something, and you know, we chat all

442
00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:17,800
Speaker 1: the time, and the more I get to know her,

443
00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:20,280
Speaker 1: the more I realize why he fell in love with

444
00:23:20,280 --> 00:23:24,359
Speaker 1: her and why they're together, and had it not happened,

445
00:23:24,400 --> 00:23:28,320
Speaker 1: all of this crazy, you know, I I wouldn't be

446
00:23:28,640 --> 00:23:31,080
Speaker 1: as happy as I am today. I probably would still

447
00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 1: be in the marriage. You know. Yeah, well I was

448
00:23:34,160 --> 00:23:39,719
Speaker 1: gonna yeah that was That was My biggest takeaway from

449
00:23:39,760 --> 00:23:42,200
Speaker 1: the interview was the fact that y'all have come full

450
00:23:42,200 --> 00:23:45,000
Speaker 1: circle to a point where you were saying I'm able

451
00:23:45,040 --> 00:23:47,399
Speaker 1: to go to dinner with her and she is wonderful

452
00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:49,840
Speaker 1: for my girls. And I was like, wow, that takes.

453
00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:52,879
Speaker 1: I mean, that takes. And obviously the bad stuff is

454
00:23:52,960 --> 00:23:54,680
Speaker 1: part of the journey that leads you to that point,

455
00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:56,480
Speaker 1: as part of the story and what you tell. But

456
00:23:56,560 --> 00:23:59,639
Speaker 1: it's such a beautiful like ending for for you to

457
00:23:59,680 --> 00:24:03,239
Speaker 1: have percent Like I like, it's like a you know,

458
00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:06,040
Speaker 1: a way. It's been lifted off my chest, you know

459
00:24:06,160 --> 00:24:09,040
Speaker 1: where for five years, and it took me that long,

460
00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:11,200
Speaker 1: you know, to get to get to the other side

461
00:24:11,200 --> 00:24:13,239
Speaker 1: of it. And I'm glad I never spoke about it,

462
00:24:13,320 --> 00:24:17,480
Speaker 1: not once and never never, never, and the kids obviously know.

463
00:24:17,840 --> 00:24:21,480
Speaker 1: So it's we're at a different place now and it's

464
00:24:21,640 --> 00:24:23,520
Speaker 1: I think, a healthy and good thing to talk about.

465
00:24:23,560 --> 00:24:27,040
Speaker 1: And it's actually positive. Yeah, I think sometimes having those

466
00:24:27,040 --> 00:24:30,160
Speaker 1: hard conversations with kids, like sometimes I feel like our

467
00:24:30,240 --> 00:24:34,320
Speaker 1: parents try to protect us from anything bad and sometimes

468
00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:36,320
Speaker 1: you like I get older and I'm like, wait, what

469
00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 1: actually happened there? Right? Do I have all the information

470
00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:44,600
Speaker 1: about because I mean the way we all grew up

471
00:24:44,600 --> 00:24:46,640
Speaker 1: and you guys are obviously younger than me, but even

472
00:24:46,680 --> 00:24:52,240
Speaker 1: your generation, they didn't talk about their problems in their marriage.

473
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,240
Speaker 1: You know, you really hit on something because I deal

474
00:24:54,240 --> 00:24:56,320
Speaker 1: with it in therapy all the time. It's like this

475
00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:59,919
Speaker 1: this this reality that we all had or these expectations

476
00:25:00,080 --> 00:25:04,880
Speaker 1: we had for our lives, um and life isn't perfect,

477
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:07,360
Speaker 1: you know, like things happen in a different way than

478
00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:10,040
Speaker 1: you expected. And I think that we can internalize those

479
00:25:10,080 --> 00:25:12,399
Speaker 1: things and get and get really down on ourselves, like

480
00:25:12,880 --> 00:25:15,359
Speaker 1: you know, when I started doing my boyfriend has two kids,

481
00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:19,120
Speaker 1: and you know, it's a it's crazy thing to step into,

482
00:25:19,280 --> 00:25:21,080
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like you don't know how

483
00:25:21,119 --> 00:25:23,200
Speaker 1: to handle it. You don't know what you're getting yourself into,

484
00:25:23,240 --> 00:25:26,159
Speaker 1: and your real reality is different than you thought it

485
00:25:26,200 --> 00:25:28,959
Speaker 1: would be. It's amazing in so many ways, but it's

486
00:25:28,960 --> 00:25:31,640
Speaker 1: also challenging in certain ways. And so I think that,

487
00:25:31,720 --> 00:25:33,520
Speaker 1: you know, you can get really hard on yourself because

488
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:37,000
Speaker 1: it's like this isn't the way you know, I dreamed

489
00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:41,400
Speaker 1: of it to be, but this is my story totally. Yeah. Yeah,

490
00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: it's hard to kind of shake that because it's been

491
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:46,600
Speaker 1: ingrained in us for so many years that you just

492
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:49,040
Speaker 1: feel like a failure if you if if you're anything

493
00:25:49,040 --> 00:26:08,600
Speaker 1: other than what that that path. Yeah, I think a

494
00:26:08,600 --> 00:26:11,240
Speaker 1: lot of people that listen to this podcast, there are

495
00:26:11,280 --> 00:26:14,320
Speaker 1: They are independent women, They are fierce, they want to

496
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:16,719
Speaker 1: Maybe some people are wanting to start their own companies,

497
00:26:16,760 --> 00:26:19,440
Speaker 1: but like don't know how if you like just because

498
00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:21,000
Speaker 1: you have, I feel like learned so much, and you've

499
00:26:21,000 --> 00:26:25,359
Speaker 1: been in such a crazy career path. Um, what's something

500
00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 1: that you've learned that you wish you would have known

501
00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:34,000
Speaker 1: ten years ago? Professionally, embrace your feminine energy. UM. I

502
00:26:34,080 --> 00:26:37,200
Speaker 1: remember when I was first starting off in real estate

503
00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:39,639
Speaker 1: and I was working really hard, and it was a

504
00:26:39,760 --> 00:26:42,040
Speaker 1: few it was a rough five years just trying to

505
00:26:42,080 --> 00:26:46,679
Speaker 1: like find my my feet in a new industry. UM.

506
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:50,480
Speaker 1: And I remember being competitive with men um, going out

507
00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:54,320
Speaker 1: for listing appointments or pitches or whatever. Um, even in

508
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:58,600
Speaker 1: negotiations against an agent on another deal. UM. And I

509
00:26:58,640 --> 00:27:03,119
Speaker 1: would find myself being like in my masculine body, you know,

510
00:27:03,280 --> 00:27:07,000
Speaker 1: like I've got to be like super tough, like show

511
00:27:07,160 --> 00:27:12,480
Speaker 1: zero vulnerability. UM. And I think what I learned now

512
00:27:12,680 --> 00:27:18,040
Speaker 1: is that showing those vulnerabilities, embracing sort of my feminine energy,

513
00:27:18,160 --> 00:27:21,399
Speaker 1: which actually is like change for me probably in the

514
00:27:21,480 --> 00:27:27,119
Speaker 1: last few years. I think it's catapulted, like my relationships, um, my,

515
00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:31,480
Speaker 1: my business relationships and personal relationships, and I would like

516
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:35,040
Speaker 1: take away that idea that, particularly in the corporate world,

517
00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:40,240
Speaker 1: that you have to be like demand, if anything, be

518
00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:46,240
Speaker 1: the opposite, be vulnerable, be accessible, um be feminine because

519
00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:50,200
Speaker 1: you can be as strong in your feminine body as

520
00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:53,080
Speaker 1: you can be sort of trying to play at their level.

521
00:27:53,960 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 1: That's interesting because I think there's um a perspective that's

522
00:27:57,640 --> 00:28:01,679
Speaker 1: like being vulnerable and embracing your feminine energy is like

523
00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:05,080
Speaker 1: a sign of weakness, you know, like people assume that

524
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:08,680
Speaker 1: that means you're weak. But I think people underestimate the

525
00:28:09,240 --> 00:28:13,879
Speaker 1: power and vulnerability and being you're like feminine energy and

526
00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:16,560
Speaker 1: like the power you have using that. It's not a

527
00:28:16,560 --> 00:28:19,560
Speaker 1: weakness at all, but it's perceived that way sometimes, Like

528
00:28:19,560 --> 00:28:21,679
Speaker 1: if you're not acting tough like one of the guys,

529
00:28:21,720 --> 00:28:25,159
Speaker 1: then you're weak or your lesson, you know, as opposed

530
00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:27,840
Speaker 1: to being like using it to your advantage. Well, it's

531
00:28:27,880 --> 00:28:30,640
Speaker 1: all about connection, right, you know, in business, So if

532
00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:32,880
Speaker 1: you walk into a room and your walls are up

533
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:35,560
Speaker 1: and you have zero vulnerability, then you have zero ability

534
00:28:35,560 --> 00:28:38,120
Speaker 1: to connect with the person that's sitting across from you,

535
00:28:38,280 --> 00:28:40,840
Speaker 1: even like talking about what we're talking about today, like

536
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:45,360
Speaker 1: I have to like remind myself it's okay to be vulnerable.

537
00:28:45,360 --> 00:28:48,080
Speaker 1: It's okay to talk about you know, your divorce or

538
00:28:48,160 --> 00:28:51,760
Speaker 1: you know what happened in your marriage, etcetera. Um, because

539
00:28:51,840 --> 00:28:54,719
Speaker 1: people relate to that. And the more you put yourself

540
00:28:54,720 --> 00:28:57,400
Speaker 1: out there and and you know you wouldn't necessarily do

541
00:28:57,440 --> 00:28:59,760
Speaker 1: that interview, I'm not. I'm not telling you guys to

542
00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:04,400
Speaker 1: do but but but being I think vulnerable allows you

543
00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:07,640
Speaker 1: the ability to connect with people. And that's ultimately why

544
00:29:07,720 --> 00:29:11,680
Speaker 1: we hire who we hire. It's not resume only takes

545
00:29:11,680 --> 00:29:14,200
Speaker 1: you so far. It's it's when you're in the room

546
00:29:14,240 --> 00:29:18,080
Speaker 1: with somebody is what gets you ultimately the job. And

547
00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:20,920
Speaker 1: so um, that would be the advice that I would

548
00:29:20,960 --> 00:29:24,320
Speaker 1: give to like young women starting out or even women

549
00:29:24,320 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: that are getting back into the workforce. Yeah, I love that.

550
00:29:27,760 --> 00:29:29,600
Speaker 1: That's really good advice. I think a lot of people

551
00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:32,440
Speaker 1: feel like they're just competing with the like in male

552
00:29:32,480 --> 00:29:34,800
Speaker 1: dominated spaces that they have to do, and it's okay

553
00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:37,640
Speaker 1: to feel those things. It's okay to feel like I

554
00:29:37,760 --> 00:29:40,640
Speaker 1: blew it, and like live in that moment and live

555
00:29:40,680 --> 00:29:44,920
Speaker 1: in that space. But also don't pretend that it wasn't

556
00:29:44,960 --> 00:29:47,440
Speaker 1: a failure. Oh it's fine. I don't know. I just

557
00:29:47,480 --> 00:29:49,320
Speaker 1: didn't get a good night's sleep. It wasn't a good interview,

558
00:29:49,440 --> 00:29:52,440
Speaker 1: or wasn't a great pitch. I just was off. It

559
00:29:52,520 --> 00:29:54,560
Speaker 1: was okay, I'm sure it'll be fine, or I didn't

560
00:29:54,560 --> 00:29:57,360
Speaker 1: really want it. Then why do you go in on it? Right? So,

561
00:29:57,480 --> 00:29:59,480
Speaker 1: like we kind of tell ourselves these lies that we

562
00:29:59,480 --> 00:30:02,280
Speaker 1: can like put shout the failure, when in fact, if

563
00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:06,320
Speaker 1: we were just embracing the fact that it went because

564
00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:11,280
Speaker 1: we didn't show up like as ourselves a prepared, be

565
00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:14,720
Speaker 1: ready to connect and be vulnerable and you know, see

566
00:30:14,800 --> 00:30:17,200
Speaker 1: walk into the room and look people in the eye

567
00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:20,680
Speaker 1: and and be confident what you're talking about. Um, if

568
00:30:20,680 --> 00:30:23,600
Speaker 1: you can't have all those things aligned, then you weren't

569
00:30:23,600 --> 00:30:25,160
Speaker 1: ready to walk in the door in the first place.

570
00:30:25,880 --> 00:30:31,440
Speaker 1: M wow, you know, preparation. How do you balance it all?

571
00:30:31,600 --> 00:30:36,680
Speaker 1: I don't really I'm tired a lot. Really, Um, I

572
00:30:36,760 --> 00:30:40,120
Speaker 1: get up really early. I really try to, Like I'm

573
00:30:40,240 --> 00:30:43,400
Speaker 1: good in the mornings by like six seven o'clock. I

574
00:30:43,440 --> 00:30:49,160
Speaker 1: am tapped out. Um yeah, yeah, yeah about it, like three.

575
00:30:49,600 --> 00:30:53,840
Speaker 1: But like I'm my most creative, my my best energy,

576
00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:56,920
Speaker 1: my best ideas all come in the morning and and

577
00:30:57,000 --> 00:31:00,760
Speaker 1: so for me, that's like waking up and spending some

578
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:06,320
Speaker 1: time with myself, exercising, doing me you know, before like

579
00:31:06,520 --> 00:31:08,720
Speaker 1: entering like you know, right around seven thirty, I'm like,

580
00:31:08,960 --> 00:31:13,680
Speaker 1: I'm working. So I'm up at typically five thirty, UM

581
00:31:13,680 --> 00:31:15,760
Speaker 1: and in the gym by six sep at what time

582
00:31:16,760 --> 00:31:18,640
Speaker 1: last night? Didn't go to bed until like eleven thirty.

583
00:31:18,680 --> 00:31:25,280
Speaker 1: I was watching you. Really it's sucked into that tragic stuff. Um.

584
00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:28,400
Speaker 1: But typically I'm in bed by like eight thirty, nine o'clock.

585
00:31:28,480 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 1: Like my kids are like, good night, Bob, and they're

586
00:31:32,400 --> 00:31:35,200
Speaker 1: like up doing homework until ten thirty eleven, and I'm like,

587
00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:40,000
Speaker 1: I'm like lights out by ten. Typically I did see

588
00:31:40,160 --> 00:31:42,280
Speaker 1: So you're right now you're on You're on Million Dollar

589
00:31:42,360 --> 00:31:44,440
Speaker 1: Listening l A, which is on Bravo, which we love,

590
00:31:44,600 --> 00:31:46,320
Speaker 1: and I love that you are holding it down. Also,

591
00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:49,560
Speaker 1: I love Heather Altman. Yes, she's great, so great. So

592
00:31:49,640 --> 00:31:51,800
Speaker 1: I just I love that show. Everybody should stream it,

593
00:31:51,920 --> 00:31:55,040
Speaker 1: watch it, support Tracy. Um. But I think I saw

594
00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:57,160
Speaker 1: a rumor that they're recording you for the Real Housewives

595
00:31:57,160 --> 00:31:59,720
Speaker 1: of Beverly Hills. Is that a rumor? I got true?

596
00:32:00,000 --> 00:32:02,200
Speaker 1: It's not a rumor. Um. I wouldn't say, they wouldn't

597
00:32:02,200 --> 00:32:05,600
Speaker 1: say they were according me, but I was when I

598
00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:10,920
Speaker 1: did watch What Happens that fans have sort of yeah,

599
00:32:10,960 --> 00:32:13,800
Speaker 1: and fans have mentioned this for a bit and it

600
00:32:13,880 --> 00:32:16,160
Speaker 1: was asked and then Andy kind of looked at me

601
00:32:16,200 --> 00:32:18,920
Speaker 1: and said, would you ever do that? And I just

602
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:21,200
Speaker 1: looked at miss had a hundred percent and he was

603
00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:25,520
Speaker 1: like floored, and it like started a whole thing about

604
00:32:26,080 --> 00:32:28,800
Speaker 1: she shot a hundred percent to it and has become

605
00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:32,160
Speaker 1: like a thing. Yeah, got it. So I love that show.

606
00:32:32,200 --> 00:32:34,880
Speaker 1: I think those I think it's fantastic and fun to

607
00:32:34,920 --> 00:32:37,680
Speaker 1: watch and you know, like I mean, I am a

608
00:32:37,680 --> 00:32:42,000
Speaker 1: Bravo holic, like I watch all these shows. So for me,

609
00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:45,280
Speaker 1: it's like a fun escape. And um, it's interesting because

610
00:32:45,280 --> 00:32:48,480
Speaker 1: I feel like, to me, your show, you embody just

611
00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:52,160
Speaker 1: like this powerful modern woman that's doing anything that housewives

612
00:32:52,160 --> 00:32:53,680
Speaker 1: need a little bit more. And I feel like the

613
00:32:53,720 --> 00:32:56,160
Speaker 1: housewives are the opposite. Like I feel like the housewives

614
00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:58,800
Speaker 1: are very catty and fight with each other, and like

615
00:32:59,440 --> 00:33:02,760
Speaker 1: there's that sense of of kind of where women were

616
00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:05,080
Speaker 1: ten twenty years ago, you know what I mean. And

617
00:33:05,120 --> 00:33:08,200
Speaker 1: so I don't I don't see you in that, but well,

618
00:33:08,240 --> 00:33:10,400
Speaker 1: and a lot of people have said that too, like,

619
00:33:11,240 --> 00:33:14,880
Speaker 1: you know, it's it's not your lane really, like you're

620
00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:17,480
Speaker 1: above that or whatever. I'm not above anything. I'm about

621
00:33:17,480 --> 00:33:23,400
Speaker 1: getting paid, okay. But what I think is cool is

622
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:28,120
Speaker 1: that energy on that show is very much one note

623
00:33:28,160 --> 00:33:29,880
Speaker 1: and it can be catty, and it can be all

624
00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:32,800
Speaker 1: those things, but it's also super entertaining, and it'd be

625
00:33:32,880 --> 00:33:35,360
Speaker 1: nice to have some energy in there with someone that's

626
00:33:35,440 --> 00:33:39,760
Speaker 1: running a business, that actually lives in Beverly Hills and

627
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:45,480
Speaker 1: you know, can also hold around and not be bullied by,

628
00:33:45,920 --> 00:33:47,920
Speaker 1: you know, someone else on the show that maybe has

629
00:33:47,960 --> 00:33:50,440
Speaker 1: a louder or bigger voice or is obviously more comfortable

630
00:33:50,440 --> 00:33:52,960
Speaker 1: in front of the camera. I'm friends with a few

631
00:33:52,960 --> 00:33:54,880
Speaker 1: of the girls. I mean, Crystal is a good friend.

632
00:33:55,280 --> 00:33:59,360
Speaker 1: I love Garcella as well. I know Kyle Um. I've

633
00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:04,920
Speaker 1: meant to read eat Um. That's all I'll say. Well,

634
00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:10,399
Speaker 1: the other two I've never met, Erica or Lisa, Well,

635
00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:13,560
Speaker 1: I do feel like you being on TV, there's not

636
00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:16,760
Speaker 1: that need, like there wouldn't be that need to prove

637
00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:19,800
Speaker 1: yourself with someone because you're kind of like established for viewers,

638
00:34:19,880 --> 00:34:23,120
Speaker 1: like people already know you were on the Housewives. I'd

639
00:34:23,160 --> 00:34:25,320
Speaker 1: watch it too. I don't watch, but I would watch

640
00:34:25,320 --> 00:34:32,560
Speaker 1: it because, Yeah, we're gonna class it up. I love

641
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Speaker 1: that so much. Well, where can people follow you and

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Speaker 1: and learn all about you? Um? I'm on all social

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Speaker 1: they knew what they're doing. Yeah, well, thanks for being

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