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Speaker 2: Every day up the Breakfast Club.

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Speaker 3: You know, I'm finish for y'all.

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Speaker 2: Done morning.

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Speaker 4: Everybody's DJ envy, just hilarious, chelamage, the god we are

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Speaker 4: the Breakfast Club, Lawnla Roses here as well.

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Speaker 2: We got a special guest in the ballance.

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Speaker 3: Do Meggan good?

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Speaker 2: Welcome back? How are you feeling?

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Speaker 1: I'm feeling good?

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Speaker 2: Good to think about that, well.

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Speaker 1: Because I was like, am I going to say I'm

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Speaker 1: feeling major? A'm I feeling good?

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Speaker 2: Or congratulations?

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Speaker 4: You recently celebrated what one year of marriage?

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Speaker 2: How has that been? How has that one year been?

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Speaker 1: It's been so good. It's been so much fun.

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Speaker 5: Just it's a crazy thing because I feel like we're

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Speaker 5: just such partner's journeying in life and just enjoy each

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Speaker 5: other and just have fun together.

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Speaker 1: And yeah, it's just been really nice.

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Speaker 4: How is it different from your other relationships, like that

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Speaker 4: first year feeling? Because you've been through that first year

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Speaker 4: feeling before, So how is this one different?

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Speaker 5: I think it's just about you know where I am

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Speaker 5: I feel that this person helps me become a better person,

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Speaker 5: and it's someone that I just really really respect, And yeah,

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Speaker 5: I don't compare it like that.

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Speaker 1: It's just different and it's amazing.

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Speaker 4: And you everyone who gives everybody the middle finger that

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Speaker 4: thought it was just a ploy at one time, now

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Speaker 4: they're just doing this just for the internet, just to

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Speaker 4: help them out. You might ever want to just give

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Speaker 4: it stick out your tongue one good time.

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Speaker 2: One time.

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Speaker 5: Probably earlier on I did, but I think at this point,

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Speaker 5: you're just like, you know what those who know you

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Speaker 5: give you the benefit of the doubt and they'll be open.

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Speaker 5: Other people not so much, And it's not really about me.

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Speaker 5: It's more about their own things and things that they've

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Speaker 1: And so you know, not only are you.

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Speaker 6: Aught together and married and and love and all the things.

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Speaker 6: Y'all have businesses, So yeah, y'all both are still busy.

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Speaker 6: How does that how's that balance with you know, personal business,

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Speaker 6: How do y'all still find time to spend times with

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Speaker 5: Well?

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Speaker 1: That helps it, the fact that we work together, you know.

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Speaker 5: But yeah, it's been it's been really interesting to build

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Speaker 5: And then you know, my brother Eric Bellinger, he just

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Speaker 3: So this is a movement. How often is this every

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Speaker 1: He does every day?

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Speaker 5: But you know what's crazy is as I started getting

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Speaker 1: Now, so I'm up at like four thirty am.

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Speaker 7: What are the things?

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Speaker 8: What are the things that you emotionally realized you weren't

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Speaker 8: you weren't fully healed to face that you didn't know

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Speaker 5: Well, I think there was so many things from childhood,

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Speaker 1: It that way.

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Speaker 5: And so for me, I actually just discovered a lot

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Speaker 5: And so it kind of just opened Pandora's box in

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Speaker 7: So how's all that helped you?

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Speaker 4: Now?

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Speaker 8: Because I heard you say, like you're ready to move

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Speaker 5: You know, well, I've never been a mom before yet,

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Speaker 1: And then also I think.

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Speaker 5: It's a lot of it's Jonathan too, Like the way

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Speaker 5: I want to do life and the person I want

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Speaker 5: to do life with. It makes me excited to be,

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Speaker 5: you know, the mother of his children, makes me excited

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Speaker 1: All while you.

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Speaker 4: Do you ever get nervous about that phase, you know,

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Speaker 2: All this thing going on, but being a mom.

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Speaker 5: I think I did have reservations in the past because

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Speaker 1: I'm in a peaceful place. I've done everything that I

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Speaker 5: Life and everything else I want to do. I know

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Speaker 5: because of being a mom. I know that it'll be hard,

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Speaker 7: Is he ready?

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Speaker 6: And I love that because you've been working since a child,

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Speaker 6: say there's nothing. I mean, I've already done everything that

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Speaker 5: I'm like, yes, you know, I don't think i'll ever

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Speaker 5: But it's more so because I've become a lot more

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Speaker 5: You know, you ask yourself, like, what are the things

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Speaker 5: But acting has always been my first love, so I'll

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Speaker 3: Is so, what.

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Speaker 6: About what about directing do you love the most? Is

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Speaker 6: it that you get to tell your you know, tell

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Speaker 3: What about it do you love so much?

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Speaker 1: I love that it's not about me.

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Speaker 5: I love that you skip hair and makeup, you come

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Speaker 5: You know, you don't always have to wear the crown.

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Speaker 5: Sometimes you can carry it, you know. And I love

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Speaker 5: I love making it easier for the little black girl

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Speaker 5: You knowing that if you're a real artist, you can

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Speaker 1: And to do the best work that they can do.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 6: I'm not even big one vodka, you know what I'm saying.

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Speaker 6: But this is good as hell. And after my weekend

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Speaker 6: I needed it. What made what made you want to,

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Speaker 3: Go into the partnership with Nebula nine.

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Speaker 1: It's such this is so exciting for me.

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Speaker 8: But you don't talk about what about you meet so

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Speaker 6: I saw that you were being added as a new

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Speaker 5: It's so funny because my manager, Jeff, he also represents me,

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Speaker 5: you know, and the show is fantastic, and he was like,

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Speaker 5: And I was like okay, And so I sat down

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Speaker 5: I don't meet a lot of really super genuine people

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Speaker 5: And then when I got the call to come do it,

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Speaker 1: Yes, I was like, what do we get to.

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Speaker 3: Do to have what's gonna happen?

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Speaker 6: Because I could totally see you on there, so I'm like, oh,

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Speaker 2: My girl?

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Speaker 4: I was gonna say, how do you protect your piece?

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Speaker 4: When you talk about all the different things that you do?

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Speaker 4: How how do you you shut down? Do you not

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Speaker 4: These days? You know when it comes to everything because

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Speaker 5: Do you know what it's I've been through so many

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Speaker 5: it was like the church folks, and then it was

445
00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:02,080
Speaker 5: people thinking that I bleached my skin, and then it

446
00:18:02,119 --> 00:18:04,560
Speaker 5: was this it is that it was this and all

447
00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:09,080
Speaker 5: of these things created what I was saying, that release

448
00:18:09,280 --> 00:18:12,920
Speaker 5: where I went from constantly being concerned and constantly getting

449
00:18:12,920 --> 00:18:16,200
Speaker 5: my feelings hurt and constantly you know, it's like one

450
00:18:16,200 --> 00:18:18,080
Speaker 5: thing about me and anyone who knows me. I'm still

451
00:18:18,080 --> 00:18:20,520
Speaker 5: gonna do what I'm gonna do, but it's still not

452
00:18:20,560 --> 00:18:22,520
Speaker 5: a good feeling to know that every time you step

453
00:18:22,560 --> 00:18:24,639
Speaker 5: out the house, you're walking out to the firing squad.

454
00:18:25,040 --> 00:18:29,359
Speaker 5: And realizing for me that even though I was proud

455
00:18:29,400 --> 00:18:31,800
Speaker 5: of myself for still stepping out and always being authentic

456
00:18:31,800 --> 00:18:32,880
Speaker 5: and true to who I am.

457
00:18:33,040 --> 00:18:35,159
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, you get shot up like you

458
00:18:35,200 --> 00:18:37,399
Speaker 1: getting shot up, shot up like it has a been shot.

459
00:18:39,040 --> 00:18:43,760
Speaker 5: And sitting down and unpacking all of those things and

460
00:18:43,840 --> 00:18:46,080
Speaker 5: asking myself, why do I care that much about this?

461
00:18:46,240 --> 00:18:48,119
Speaker 5: And why does this affect me this way? And what

462
00:18:48,280 --> 00:18:50,440
Speaker 5: is you know, and what's stuff that's good to take

463
00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:52,959
Speaker 5: and stuff that needs to just be put aside, And

464
00:18:52,960 --> 00:18:55,760
Speaker 5: in the process of doing all that, it just it

465
00:18:55,800 --> 00:18:58,879
Speaker 5: has gotten to a place where it's like I wrote

466
00:18:58,880 --> 00:19:01,359
Speaker 5: this poem that talked about that I always felt like

467
00:19:01,359 --> 00:19:04,080
Speaker 5: I was on the edge of a cliff and that

468
00:19:04,119 --> 00:19:06,960
Speaker 5: people were constantly poking and prodding and poking and prodding,

469
00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:09,000
Speaker 5: and I was just trying so hard not to fall off.

470
00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:13,240
Speaker 5: And then I jumped, and when I jumped, I started flying.

471
00:19:13,920 --> 00:19:15,440
Speaker 5: And that's the experience.

472
00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:15,840
Speaker 3: You know.

473
00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:18,639
Speaker 5: It's like I'm just in a place now where I'm like,

474
00:19:18,680 --> 00:19:21,960
Speaker 5: things are gonna come, people going to say, and the

475
00:19:22,000 --> 00:19:24,640
Speaker 5: peace is knowing that it's really about what God thinks

476
00:19:24,680 --> 00:19:26,879
Speaker 5: about me and what I think about me, and people

477
00:19:26,920 --> 00:19:28,680
Speaker 5: that love me the most and truly know me think

478
00:19:28,720 --> 00:19:31,280
Speaker 5: about me so and that I just kind of, you know,

479
00:19:31,400 --> 00:19:35,320
Speaker 5: I disconnect. It depends if you get me on the

480
00:19:35,359 --> 00:19:38,119
Speaker 5: right day, you might get the middle fingers, but for

481
00:19:38,160 --> 00:19:40,160
Speaker 5: the most part, I kind of don't really care anymore.

482
00:19:40,840 --> 00:19:42,919
Speaker 4: Now, if you're listening and you're in a cliff, if

483
00:19:42,920 --> 00:19:43,800
Speaker 4: you jump, you will not fly.

484
00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:49,760
Speaker 8: If you jump at the edge, you will I was

485
00:19:49,760 --> 00:19:52,040
Speaker 8: gonna say, you just be so well composed through everything.

486
00:19:52,320 --> 00:19:54,600
Speaker 8: Even year you talk about people poking and poking, it

487
00:19:54,640 --> 00:19:57,520
Speaker 8: always feels like you come from that class of Hollywood

488
00:19:57,520 --> 00:19:59,399
Speaker 8: that like it's just so like you.

489
00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:00,920
Speaker 7: Don't even see or feel the pokes.

490
00:20:01,080 --> 00:20:02,840
Speaker 8: You just kind of like move gracefully throughout to like

491
00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:05,959
Speaker 8: I know you're human, but your composure throughout things are

492
00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:07,000
Speaker 8: always very well.

493
00:20:07,240 --> 00:20:09,080
Speaker 1: Thank you, thank you, well, thank you.

494
00:20:09,160 --> 00:20:11,480
Speaker 5: The biggest thing to me is I don't want anybody

495
00:20:11,480 --> 00:20:13,439
Speaker 5: else to control the integrity who I want to be

496
00:20:13,880 --> 00:20:16,600
Speaker 5: just because someone's poking and poking and poking you want

497
00:20:16,600 --> 00:20:18,359
Speaker 5: a certain reaction out of me, you want me to

498
00:20:18,400 --> 00:20:19,280
Speaker 5: respond a certain way.

499
00:20:19,480 --> 00:20:20,719
Speaker 1: First of all, I'll never give it to you.

500
00:20:21,359 --> 00:20:24,760
Speaker 5: Second of all, it's more about you not being able

501
00:20:24,800 --> 00:20:28,320
Speaker 5: to have control over me based on the fact that

502
00:20:28,359 --> 00:20:30,480
Speaker 5: you're just walking this journey out too. You're just trying

503
00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:31,880
Speaker 5: to figure it out, just like I'm trying to.

504
00:20:31,800 --> 00:20:33,840
Speaker 1: Figure it out. Why would I listen to you?

505
00:20:33,840 --> 00:20:36,679
Speaker 5: You know, we're all in this and we're all experiencing it.

506
00:20:36,720 --> 00:20:39,919
Speaker 5: So to each his own on his journey. But I

507
00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:42,480
Speaker 5: think the biggest thing is I'm just like, can't let

508
00:20:42,520 --> 00:20:43,720
Speaker 5: other people control you.

509
00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:45,040
Speaker 1: You've got to be who you're meant to be.

510
00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,119
Speaker 8: And I think you have a lot of like us,

511
00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:50,040
Speaker 8: like not us here, but just like people that are

512
00:20:50,080 --> 00:20:53,000
Speaker 8: fans of you or supporters that kind of rally for.

513
00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:53,520
Speaker 7: You as well.

514
00:20:53,680 --> 00:20:54,600
Speaker 1: And I can feel that too.

515
00:20:54,720 --> 00:20:55,640
Speaker 7: Yeah, they be going hard.

516
00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:58,800
Speaker 8: Like when the Nli Choppa Jonathan Major's whatever that was

517
00:20:58,960 --> 00:21:01,080
Speaker 8: was happening, people was like, let them be in there,

518
00:21:01,440 --> 00:21:03,679
Speaker 8: you know, in their marriage and be happy and do

519
00:21:03,800 --> 00:21:04,160
Speaker 8: their thing.

520
00:21:04,280 --> 00:21:05,600
Speaker 7: Like why are we even talking about this?

521
00:21:06,040 --> 00:21:06,280
Speaker 3: Yeah?

522
00:21:06,920 --> 00:21:11,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, period.

523
00:21:11,440 --> 00:21:13,119
Speaker 4: When did you get to that place when you could

524
00:21:13,280 --> 00:21:16,040
Speaker 4: let things bounce off your back? When did you get there?

525
00:21:16,119 --> 00:21:17,080
Speaker 4: And how did you get there?

526
00:21:18,560 --> 00:21:19,760
Speaker 1: It was a skin bleaching thing.

527
00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:24,800
Speaker 5: It was because this woman had messed me up so bad,

528
00:21:25,440 --> 00:21:29,080
Speaker 5: and I realized. I was like, people think I saw them,

529
00:21:30,200 --> 00:21:33,840
Speaker 5: It's okay, but no, actually I was in a place

530
00:21:33,840 --> 00:21:37,240
Speaker 5: where I quiet sorry.

531
00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:38,240
Speaker 3: I was like.

532
00:21:40,480 --> 00:21:42,080
Speaker 5: I looked at it and I was like, I actually

533
00:21:42,119 --> 00:21:44,359
Speaker 5: have to laugh because it's not like dead, this is

534
00:21:44,400 --> 00:21:45,200
Speaker 5: actually true.

535
00:21:45,440 --> 00:21:47,240
Speaker 2: You know, I don't say I'm stupid.

536
00:21:47,280 --> 00:21:48,920
Speaker 4: I have no idea what you're talking about skin bleaching

537
00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:50,359
Speaker 4: and I don't know what the hell are you talking about.

538
00:21:50,440 --> 00:21:53,560
Speaker 5: So the short version is I went to this esthetician

539
00:21:53,760 --> 00:21:56,760
Speaker 5: in La who was helping me with like anti aging things,

540
00:21:57,200 --> 00:21:59,920
Speaker 5: and then and she'd like, you know these so far

541
00:22:00,160 --> 00:22:01,560
Speaker 5: and all this kind of stuff, and the anti aging

542
00:22:01,720 --> 00:22:04,159
Speaker 5: was like beautiful. So then she was like, well, I

543
00:22:04,240 --> 00:22:05,720
Speaker 5: just want to fix like some of the dark spots

544
00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:06,000
Speaker 5: that you.

545
00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:07,800
Speaker 1: Have, and I'm like, no, it's kind of like natural contour.

546
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:09,399
Speaker 1: And she was like no, but your skin will be

547
00:22:09,440 --> 00:22:10,520
Speaker 1: so clear. D da da da da.

548
00:22:11,200 --> 00:22:13,439
Speaker 5: I start using the product, I instantly see that I'm

549
00:22:13,480 --> 00:22:15,760
Speaker 5: getting lighter, and she's like, don't.

550
00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:17,600
Speaker 1: Worry, just give it a few weeks. All your color

551
00:22:17,600 --> 00:22:18,719
Speaker 1: will come back that da da da.

552
00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:21,800
Speaker 5: I give it a few weeks and I look like

553
00:22:21,920 --> 00:22:24,200
Speaker 5: so pale and so crazy. And then I go to

554
00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:26,840
Speaker 5: shoot this show here in New York and I'm at

555
00:22:26,960 --> 00:22:30,320
Speaker 5: a premiere and a picture was taken a where it

556
00:22:30,359 --> 00:22:32,480
Speaker 5: was dark around me, but I was blown out, so

557
00:22:32,520 --> 00:22:33,200
Speaker 5: I just looked white.

558
00:22:33,240 --> 00:22:36,679
Speaker 1: I just look crazy. And I went back to La.

559
00:22:36,880 --> 00:22:38,320
Speaker 5: I flew home over the weekend and I was like,

560
00:22:38,400 --> 00:22:41,320
Speaker 5: you need to fix this right now. And she was like, well,

561
00:22:41,359 --> 00:22:42,680
Speaker 5: you know, it's a process. I was like, I don't

562
00:22:42,680 --> 00:22:44,679
Speaker 5: care about no process. I was like, fix it. So

563
00:22:44,720 --> 00:22:47,280
Speaker 5: she gives me this serum. I put the serm on.

564
00:22:47,440 --> 00:22:49,440
Speaker 5: She said stay in the sun for like fifteen minutes.

565
00:22:49,480 --> 00:22:51,600
Speaker 5: Something in myself like, m I'm like, thirty nine, I

566
00:22:51,600 --> 00:22:55,440
Speaker 5: don't really like lay inles sunlight. But I was so desperate.

567
00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:57,320
Speaker 5: I went and lay in the sun for thirty minutes.

568
00:22:57,920 --> 00:22:59,920
Speaker 5: I came back in the house, tried to wash it off.

569
00:23:00,040 --> 00:23:00,680
Speaker 1: Would not come off.

570
00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:04,080
Speaker 5: With Scott, I had to wash my face over and

571
00:23:04,119 --> 00:23:05,720
Speaker 5: over and over again, to the point of where I

572
00:23:05,880 --> 00:23:08,880
Speaker 5: actually flesh was coming off my face from scrubbing because it.

573
00:23:08,800 --> 00:23:10,320
Speaker 1: Was like latched onto my skin.

574
00:23:11,840 --> 00:23:14,439
Speaker 5: And so it was like really traumatic and like really

575
00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:16,680
Speaker 5: kind of embarrassing because I was like, as a black woman,

576
00:23:16,680 --> 00:23:17,160
Speaker 5: I would.

577
00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:19,120
Speaker 1: Never do that to myself. Yeah, And it just broke

578
00:23:19,160 --> 00:23:19,760
Speaker 1: my heart.

579
00:23:19,560 --> 00:23:21,720
Speaker 5: To think that like young black girls would think that

580
00:23:21,800 --> 00:23:23,480
Speaker 5: I did that, or like I don't like myself.

581
00:23:23,560 --> 00:23:24,800
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, would I do that all of

582
00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:26,840
Speaker 1: a sudden, a thirty nine years old. That's crazy.

583
00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:30,399
Speaker 5: But what it was is the backlash that I was seeing,

584
00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:32,199
Speaker 5: and I actually don't even know if it was as

585
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,399
Speaker 5: big as I thought it was, but because it was

586
00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:39,040
Speaker 5: so humiliating, and because in the past, when something is wrong,

587
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:41,280
Speaker 5: I would be able to go, oh, well here's what

588
00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:43,080
Speaker 5: this is or this is not true. Now if you

589
00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:45,160
Speaker 5: don't like it, I don't really care, but at least

590
00:23:45,160 --> 00:23:48,320
Speaker 5: you know the truth. I couldn't do anything. I was like,

591
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:50,600
Speaker 5: I look crazy, Like I literally have to just sit

592
00:23:50,640 --> 00:23:52,360
Speaker 5: in this and accept that people are going to think

593
00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:54,680
Speaker 5: that I did this to myself, and there's no way

594
00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:57,880
Speaker 5: to defend myself. There's no way to say it isn't true.

595
00:23:57,880 --> 00:23:59,320
Speaker 5: It's not like I can go on social media and

596
00:23:59,320 --> 00:24:00,680
Speaker 5: be like it's not true. Oh look at me other

597
00:24:00,720 --> 00:24:04,600
Speaker 5: crazy so and then the realization of like, what if

598
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:05,600
Speaker 5: it never corrects itself?

599
00:24:06,280 --> 00:24:07,320
Speaker 1: What if I'm stuck like this?

600
00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:10,240
Speaker 5: What if this is like that's it, that's my lot,

601
00:24:10,280 --> 00:24:12,160
Speaker 5: that's what's going to happen in life moving forward.

602
00:24:12,240 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 1: I'm just stuck.

603
00:24:13,400 --> 00:24:16,199
Speaker 5: And in that time, I was just like praying and

604
00:24:16,240 --> 00:24:18,640
Speaker 5: praying and praying crying. I was like, Lord, why would

605
00:24:18,640 --> 00:24:21,320
Speaker 5: you let this happen to me? And then I realized

606
00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 5: I was like, this is an answer prayer. The answer

607
00:24:26,280 --> 00:24:29,400
Speaker 5: to the prayer is you're so concerned. You kept saying, Lord,

608
00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:31,919
Speaker 5: help me not care what people think. Lord helped me

609
00:24:31,960 --> 00:24:34,199
Speaker 5: not to be so concerned with this. Lord released me

610
00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:37,200
Speaker 5: from these feelings. Well, now you don't have a choice,

611
00:24:38,280 --> 00:24:41,000
Speaker 5: and you have to still live your life. You still

612
00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:42,720
Speaker 5: have to be happy if you're stuck this way, you

613
00:24:42,760 --> 00:24:44,359
Speaker 5: still have to have quality of life. You still have

614
00:24:44,400 --> 00:24:45,960
Speaker 5: to figure out how you go and work instead of

615
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,439
Speaker 5: figure all these things out. And if that's what it is,

616
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:50,399
Speaker 5: are you going to be miserable and sad and on

617
00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:52,080
Speaker 5: the floor, or are you going to move forward and

618
00:24:52,119 --> 00:24:54,200
Speaker 5: have the most joy that you can have in life.

619
00:24:54,440 --> 00:24:56,000
Speaker 1: So I made the decision to move forward.

620
00:24:56,040 --> 00:24:57,640
Speaker 5: The moment that I made the decision to move forward,

621
00:24:57,680 --> 00:25:00,720
Speaker 5: my colors started coming back, and just I'm.

622
00:25:00,680 --> 00:25:08,439
Speaker 6: Sorry, Like Michael Jackson, you think it's funny. I do

623
00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:11,359
Speaker 6: want to genuinely apologize to you. You know, sometimes this

624
00:25:11,400 --> 00:25:12,720
Speaker 6: ship don't be funny all the time.

625
00:25:12,800 --> 00:25:15,320
Speaker 1: You know, it was funny. I'm not gonna lie, it

626
00:25:15,359 --> 00:25:15,760
Speaker 1: was kind.

627
00:25:15,680 --> 00:25:19,199
Speaker 6: Of but now to hear you know what, just you

628
00:25:19,359 --> 00:25:21,760
Speaker 6: just never know. That's the biggest thing about being a comedian.

629
00:25:21,920 --> 00:25:25,600
Speaker 6: Shut up, and that's the biggest thing about being a comedian.

630
00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:27,679
Speaker 6: You just never know what people are going through, you know.

631
00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:30,040
Speaker 3: And and I love you. I've always loved you.

632
00:25:30,320 --> 00:25:33,000
Speaker 6: And I'm very sorry about that because because to hear you,

633
00:25:33,040 --> 00:25:33,920
Speaker 6: even in.

634
00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:36,400
Speaker 3: Your testimony about the process that you were going.

635
00:25:36,240 --> 00:25:37,800
Speaker 6: You know, what the fuck was going on with your face,

636
00:25:37,840 --> 00:25:40,040
Speaker 6: you know, and you're like, look, fix this ship, you know.

637
00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:41,560
Speaker 3: So I'm sorry.

638
00:25:42,119 --> 00:25:42,359
Speaker 1: Yeah.

639
00:25:42,560 --> 00:25:44,240
Speaker 4: Crazy thing is, Megan has been up here a bunch

640
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:46,119
Speaker 4: of times and she ain't like you. One day I

641
00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:47,880
Speaker 4: forgot I didn't know because.

642
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:50,800
Speaker 2: I would have spoke to you.

643
00:25:52,600 --> 00:25:54,880
Speaker 8: That's why you be so blessed though, because you're posturing

644
00:25:54,920 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 8: about things would have out Yeah, yeah, like hound.

645
00:26:00,280 --> 00:26:00,920
Speaker 4: The fuck with you?

646
00:26:01,760 --> 00:26:05,240
Speaker 5: But I mean because you because you are a comedian,

647
00:26:05,280 --> 00:26:06,840
Speaker 5: though I know that it wasn't personal.

648
00:26:07,240 --> 00:26:09,119
Speaker 1: And even if in the moment and I'm.

649
00:26:08,960 --> 00:26:10,880
Speaker 5: Not gonna lie, I did dead ass did laugh because

650
00:26:10,880 --> 00:26:12,800
Speaker 5: it was funny to me and it felt good to

651
00:26:12,840 --> 00:26:13,400
Speaker 5: be able to.

652
00:26:13,400 --> 00:26:14,679
Speaker 1: Laugh at myself in that moment.

653
00:26:14,960 --> 00:26:18,040
Speaker 5: But I mean, I think that the message is still

654
00:26:18,040 --> 00:26:19,760
Speaker 5: the message was is that you never really know what

655
00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:20,440
Speaker 5: someone's going through.

656
00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:21,760
Speaker 1: You buy something appears the.

657
00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:24,400
Speaker 5: Way that it is, absolutely but in the same breath,

658
00:26:24,840 --> 00:26:27,080
Speaker 5: you know, It's like, for what we do for a living,

659
00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:28,400
Speaker 5: we're out in the public eye.

660
00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:30,159
Speaker 1: People are gonna say things.

661
00:26:30,520 --> 00:26:33,119
Speaker 5: And if you take everything personal, and if you get

662
00:26:33,160 --> 00:26:36,200
Speaker 5: mad at everybody who thinks something or says something, you're

663
00:26:36,200 --> 00:26:37,480
Speaker 5: gonna be angry all the time.

664
00:26:37,960 --> 00:26:40,119
Speaker 1: You gotta be you gotta be freeing that, you know.

665
00:26:40,520 --> 00:26:45,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, well, thank you, damn Jess, so foul.

666
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Speaker 2: Stop when I ask anything else now, No, I don't

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Speaker 2: want to anywhere else with this now ything else.

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Speaker 6: You just shout forgive this one is crazy. I'm glad

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Speaker 6: chard I.

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Speaker 8: Know you said just your color. I mean, I see

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Speaker 8: your color right, But are there treatments that you have

672
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Speaker 8: to do? Where is it just like naturally just kind

673
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Speaker 8: of like replenishing itself.

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Speaker 5: I was going to doctor Pearl Grimes, who I had

675
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Speaker 5: to get like in it kind of like this weird incubation,

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Speaker 5: like some block thing, and I would cover up the

677
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Speaker 5: rest of my body because the rest of my body

678
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Speaker 5: was the right color. But I would just go in

679
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Speaker 5: there and they would just constantly like let this kind

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Speaker 5: of sun effect like hit my skin, and then I

681
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Speaker 5: would do stuff to protect my skin. And it really

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Speaker 5: was my fortieth birthday. I went to the Dominican Republic

683
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Speaker 5: and that sun was.

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Speaker 1: So harsh and so crazy, but I was like.

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Speaker 5: That skin just started flipping over and I was like,

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Speaker 5: praise the Lord who knew.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm gonna go lay out on the sun. Choose

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Speaker 1: between it making me age and not half of my color.

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Speaker 1: I would rather have my color as a black woman.

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Speaker 4: Yes, yeah, Jesus, well, definitely go pick up Nebula non vodka.

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Speaker 3: Please, I'm almost done. The first came.

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Speaker 2: You better do a good commercial. You better do a

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Speaker 2: good commercial right now?

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Speaker 4: Here?

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Speaker 1: Can we cheers? Yes?

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Speaker 2: Early in the morning, y'all want to drink this.

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Speaker 1: Early in the morning somewhere I'm drinking aside of vinegar.

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Speaker 7: So you got to do the cheers since Nebula nine

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Speaker 7: is yours.

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Speaker 1: Okay, let me see.

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Speaker 5: Cheers to the weekend, the week and all the beautiful

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Speaker 5: things ahead and enjoying life and different business ventures and quality.

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Speaker 1: Of life for everybody, and God being amazing.

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Speaker 4: If you don't want to chance Jess, I understand, I said,

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Speaker 4: if you don't want to chair with Jess, understand, Cheers

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Speaker 4: to God, ladies and gentlemen.

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Speaker 2: It's Megan Good.

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Speaker 4: We wish you the best with everything. It's the Breakfast Club.

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Speaker 4: It's Megan Good.

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Speaker 8: Every day.

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Speaker 2: Click up the Breakfast club'