WEBVTT - EP 96: Ne'Keisha's Story 0:00:00.800 --> 0:00:05.760 When I write you all across the usc Compton Mates 0:00:06.400 --> 0:00:10.719 day to l a from on the California of the Valley. 0:00:11.280 --> 0:00:14.200 We represent that kind of county. So if you're keeping 0:00:14.240 --> 0:00:16.880 it real on your side of your town, you tune 0:00:16.880 --> 0:00:22.919 into Gangster Chronicles. Gangsters are gonna tell you how we go. 0:00:24.040 --> 0:00:26.440 If I lie my nose a girl like Pinocchio, We're 0:00:26.440 --> 0:00:29.200 gonna tell you to choose and nothing but the Gangster 0:00:29.440 --> 0:00:33.760 Chronic goals. This is not your average show. You're now 0:00:33.920 --> 0:00:37.199 tuned into the Reil M c A. Bick James and 0:00:37.280 --> 0:00:45.640 Bix Fields from the streets. Hello, where are you at? 0:00:46.320 --> 0:00:49.880 This is o G Gangster Granny and the Gangster Chronicles 0:00:49.960 --> 0:00:53.720 podcast is back in effect. Get ready for some of 0:00:53.760 --> 0:00:58.200 that G ship and blaze up some wanna met. We 0:00:58.400 --> 0:01:00.440 like to welcome you to another episode of the Gangster 0:01:00.520 --> 0:01:05.399 Chronicles podcast and I'm with my homeboys Jake, Jill and Man. 0:01:05.720 --> 0:01:09.920 We have a really um poignant story today, Man, sad story. 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:14.679 I don't know how this brother actually maintained his composure 0:01:14.720 --> 0:01:17.920 the way he did. Uh. We have Kevin Hawkins from 0:01:18.000 --> 0:01:22.640 Michigan City, Indiana here today and he has an incredible story. 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:28.640 Pretty much daughter goes out one night. Right yeah, now 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:30.040 we're you're a word of where she was going. And 0:01:30.080 --> 0:01:31.760 she told me she was going somewhere else. Right, Yeah, 0:01:31.760 --> 0:01:34.399 she told me she was going to Papa house. But 0:01:34.480 --> 0:01:37.640 you know when you feel somebody lying, I just felt it, 0:01:39.520 --> 0:01:41.440 but she didn't. But she didn't really trip on the 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:44.320 act on it. Right. No. I wanted to tell her stop, 0:01:44.400 --> 0:01:46.640 but I'm just like, go no. I told her, when 0:01:46.680 --> 0:01:48.960 you get to your Papa house, you called me as 0:01:49.000 --> 0:01:52.600 soon as you get over there, m and they called. 0:01:52.640 --> 0:01:55.320 Never came right now. She called the house, but she 0:01:55.440 --> 0:01:59.080 called her mom and said, mom, nay over here fighting. 0:01:59.120 --> 0:02:01.840 I was like at Papa house. She was like, I said, 0:02:01.880 --> 0:02:04.320 I knew y'all was lying. I said, you go over 0:02:04.320 --> 0:02:07.160 there and get her and bring her ass home. So 0:02:07.920 --> 0:02:10.919 my wife should go over there. Fifteen minutes later she 0:02:11.040 --> 0:02:13.560 called me. She was like, ke'sh your dead on the 0:02:13.560 --> 0:02:17.480 phone up called back keeps your dad. I on the 0:02:17.520 --> 0:02:20.280 phone up and just sat there and I got another 0:02:20.280 --> 0:02:22.520 phone call from one of my boys. He was like frost. 0:02:22.880 --> 0:02:27.600 I was like, come get me, said, I'm downstairs. And 0:02:27.680 --> 0:02:29.800 so you found out that your daughter had been shot 0:02:29.840 --> 0:02:32.600 because some guy pulls out of pistol and gets the 0:02:32.639 --> 0:02:35.240 shooting at the party house party. I'm not correct. This 0:02:35.360 --> 0:02:39.360 is like knows traffic light party or something. They were saying, 0:02:40.120 --> 0:02:43.239 just like pretty much a little gathering where you forgather 0:02:43.400 --> 0:02:47.160 that and gather that and congregating. Dude pulls out of gun, 0:02:47.880 --> 0:02:50.320 shoots into the crowd and kills his daughter. Yeah, my 0:02:50.400 --> 0:02:52.680 thirteen year old son was standing right next to her 0:02:53.120 --> 0:02:55.720 and thirteen year old man. And this is this is 0:02:55.760 --> 0:02:59.520 called a traffic black part. It was that they made 0:02:59.600 --> 0:03:02.880 up and if you got old read you with somebody 0:03:03.320 --> 0:03:07.080 yellow that you might them do something green. It's just 0:03:07.240 --> 0:03:10.919 you single with some stuff like that. Wow, just something 0:03:10.960 --> 0:03:12.840 they're doing it and you know that in the whole trade. 0:03:12.919 --> 0:03:17.760 Then this matter because Charles Gearing he received the sentence 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:19.840 of fifty years for the two thousand and eleven This 0:03:19.919 --> 0:03:23.359 happened back in two thousand and eleven. How long did 0:03:23.400 --> 0:03:26.200 it take for it to come because the shooting actually happened. 0:03:26.680 --> 0:03:29.160 When did the shooting actually happened? It happened at night 0:03:29.520 --> 0:03:33.160 at night, But we four days four days before birthday 0:03:33.280 --> 0:03:39.160 July two thousand and eleven, four days before birthday birthday July. 0:03:39.840 --> 0:03:44.240 She got a casking for eighteen birthday, so and he 0:03:44.320 --> 0:03:49.200 didn't get sentenced to two thousand seventeen though, Yeah, birthday 0:03:49.240 --> 0:03:52.320 on your birthday, so it takes um. I'm not the 0:03:52.360 --> 0:03:54.600 best mathematician in the world, but I know that from 0:03:54.600 --> 0:03:57.680 two thousand and eleven two thousand seventeen, that's entirely too 0:03:57.800 --> 0:04:00.480 long for justice to wait for justice to be served. 0:04:00.840 --> 0:04:04.440 When you're going, you're going too far. Because initially he 0:04:04.560 --> 0:04:08.680 got with thirty days doing a trial. When they first 0:04:08.760 --> 0:04:11.040 started getting up getting at him and stuff. They tried 0:04:11.080 --> 0:04:14.680 to give him thirty to forty days and uh, work 0:04:14.720 --> 0:04:17.600 release they was talking about. We were went to court 0:04:17.640 --> 0:04:21.320 on a Tuesday, so we was downstairs with the d 0:04:21.440 --> 0:04:23.240 A and all that. They didn't want to do their job. 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:26.000 So there's the only thing we can get him was 0:04:26.240 --> 0:04:29.560 thirty to forty days and work release. I told him 0:04:29.600 --> 0:04:31.440 I wasn't going for that ship had he had he 0:04:31.520 --> 0:04:35.560 been identified as they identified him all what was that 0:04:37.200 --> 0:04:39.520 thirty to forty five minutes after the shooting in two 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:42.560 thousand and eleven, they got it all on tape. A 0:04:42.600 --> 0:04:46.240 little kid thought he was fised to record a fight 0:04:46.320 --> 0:04:49.440 when they got the acting up, but he recorded the 0:04:49.480 --> 0:04:53.960 shooting and the police had it the whole time. They 0:04:54.000 --> 0:04:58.000 just ain't like me days. What kind of ship is that? 0:04:58.160 --> 0:05:00.719 How can you even attest to a mon fucking getting 0:05:00.839 --> 0:05:02.960 thirty to forty five because you don't want to do 0:05:03.000 --> 0:05:05.520 your job so you feel like just fuck it. And 0:05:06.000 --> 0:05:08.600 that's where we got right there for it exactly. And 0:05:08.760 --> 0:05:12.440 and the thing about it is this, you have proof, 0:05:12.480 --> 0:05:16.640 you have someone of this actually videotaped this man committing 0:05:16.680 --> 0:05:19.200 these acts of cronics on video, and you don't go 0:05:19.279 --> 0:05:22.680 do nothing. He should have been picked up immediately. Yeah, 0:05:23.040 --> 0:05:25.400 he should have been picked up immediately. And the whole 0:05:25.440 --> 0:05:29.440 thing is you brought the fight to him though you 0:05:29.480 --> 0:05:33.480 wouldn't go allow that to happen. No, Like one morning, 0:05:33.520 --> 0:05:38.120 I was sleeping in my phone and started chiming and chiming. 0:05:38.400 --> 0:05:41.039 By this time, excuse me, by this time the kids 0:05:41.080 --> 0:05:44.800 that came up in the age. So I'm steady getting 0:05:44.960 --> 0:05:48.640 chimes on Facebook from people that I didn't know. I'm like, 0:05:48.640 --> 0:05:52.720 what the looking at the thing, and it's them talking 0:05:52.720 --> 0:05:57.400 about my daughter's murder. They're arguing about it, like five 0:05:57.480 --> 0:06:01.359 years later. So I get up and go to the 0:06:01.440 --> 0:06:04.560 police station and took it down there and showed them. 0:06:04.880 --> 0:06:07.240 They told me they can't do nothing for me. So 0:06:07.320 --> 0:06:09.240 I said, hey, man, you go to evidence and y'all 0:06:09.240 --> 0:06:11.000 have been knowing this. There's like we all we ain't 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:13.920 gonna do nothing for you. So I told him I'm 0:06:14.000 --> 0:06:16.640 asleep in this police station. So they kicked me out 0:06:16.640 --> 0:06:20.960 of there. So the next day I got up, I 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:22.960 went back home. The next day, I waited to my 0:06:23.000 --> 0:06:27.560 wife to go to work, and then I would put 0:06:27.600 --> 0:06:30.479 the police station and asked again, is y'all gonna help me? 0:06:30.560 --> 0:06:33.360 They said no, I'm all right, I got something for you. 0:06:33.480 --> 0:06:36.520 So I drove back home, got a picture of my daughter, 0:06:37.000 --> 0:06:39.200 went to the store. I got to post the board 0:06:39.200 --> 0:06:43.200 and wrote justice for Keisha and hunk your horns. And 0:06:43.279 --> 0:06:45.360 I didn't even know how to do Facebook live. I 0:06:45.440 --> 0:06:48.839 just looked on my Facebook hit live and it said 0:06:48.880 --> 0:06:51.000 three to one, and I know in the industry that 0:06:51.080 --> 0:06:55.440 means action. So that's what I did. I went live. 0:06:55.880 --> 0:06:58.200 And that's what you did. So how long did this 0:06:58.240 --> 0:07:00.400 fight go on with you and the police to apartment 0:07:01.960 --> 0:07:04.560 after that or before that? After that? You know, after that, 0:07:04.640 --> 0:07:06.800 from the time you're going up to the station, you're 0:07:06.800 --> 0:07:10.240 protesting everything. How long did that? How long had that gone? Oh? 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:15.080 They are I think it was before Christmas then, because 0:07:15.080 --> 0:07:17.480 it was in I think it was in November when 0:07:17.520 --> 0:07:21.080 I went alive, and before Christmas they had one picked 0:07:21.120 --> 0:07:23.480 him up. But they came to my house and I 0:07:23.480 --> 0:07:26.440 told them, if you're doing this just to shut me up, 0:07:26.800 --> 0:07:31.080 or y'all playing games, it's really funna be all. Exactly 0:07:31.760 --> 0:07:35.040 what I want to know is, you know, all of 0:07:35.120 --> 0:07:39.720 us up here, fathers, fathers, we all got children. And 0:07:39.760 --> 0:07:42.200 that's the phone call that you never want to get, 0:07:42.280 --> 0:07:45.320 that you're a child, that you brought them to this 0:07:45.440 --> 0:07:48.880 world is no longer here because somebody has decided to 0:07:48.920 --> 0:07:53.120 take upon theirselves to end their life. How did you 0:07:53.200 --> 0:07:55.559 not just go get a pistol and blow everybody's brains 0:07:55.560 --> 0:07:57.240 out in that city? They had something to do with it. 0:07:57.480 --> 0:08:01.200 I tried to one night. I got upset, found them 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:05.040 and I had got a backpack. I had three hundred 0:08:05.080 --> 0:08:12.120 rounds in there and I had a gun, and UM, 0:08:12.280 --> 0:08:14.360 take your time, man, take your time. I'm sorry, bro, 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:19.080 take your time. As you know, as father's man, it's 0:08:19.120 --> 0:08:23.560 really like it's a situation to where, um, you know 0:08:23.680 --> 0:08:25.120 you want to be a dad, you want to be 0:08:25.160 --> 0:08:28.240 a parent to your kids, and you want to trust 0:08:28.280 --> 0:08:30.480 your kids that they will be safe when you let 0:08:30.520 --> 0:08:31.880 them go out, because, like I said, I got a 0:08:31.920 --> 0:08:37.199 sixteen ye olds plays football. He's out there. Um, I'm 0:08:37.240 --> 0:08:39.280 trying to give him that that talk, you know what 0:08:39.360 --> 0:08:42.800 I'm saying to where you gotta watch your surroundings and 0:08:42.840 --> 0:08:45.440 the people you be around, because even though you think 0:08:45.480 --> 0:08:48.400 motherfucker's might be cool and perfect, you never know in 0:08:48.480 --> 0:08:50.760 the situations, and you want to give your kids lenien 0:08:50.840 --> 0:08:53.760 see because you don't want to be that you know, 0:08:54.200 --> 0:08:57.600 tight grip ass motherfucking parents to where now you can't 0:08:57.600 --> 0:08:59.880 do this, you can't go nowhere, and then they will 0:08:59.920 --> 0:09:03.000 be held against you in the end. But you worry 0:09:03.040 --> 0:09:05.840 every motherfucking time they step out the motherfucking door because 0:09:05.880 --> 0:09:09.280 I'll ship, I worry when my son is getting the 0:09:09.320 --> 0:09:13.240 car with motherfucker's you know what accident could happen or 0:09:13.360 --> 0:09:15.560 you know, I tell them, watch you hanging around just 0:09:15.600 --> 0:09:19.160 because you're cool with motherfucker's don't mean they're cool with you. Uh, 0:09:19.280 --> 0:09:21.720 watch what you wear around motherfucker's because you don't know 0:09:21.760 --> 0:09:25.480 the surrounders. So again, you know, it's kind of it's 0:09:25.559 --> 0:09:28.880 kind of a funked up because knowing what we did 0:09:29.000 --> 0:09:31.960 as kids. You want to try to change that pattern, 0:09:32.080 --> 0:09:33.920 you know what I'm saying. And you want to try 0:09:33.960 --> 0:09:36.319 to hold onto your kids and be as tight. But 0:09:36.720 --> 0:09:38.520 you don't want your kids, like I said, to rebel 0:09:38.600 --> 0:09:41.160 against you and be all upset. Dad, don't let me 0:09:41.200 --> 0:09:43.280 do this, Dad, don't let me do that. But it's 0:09:43.360 --> 0:09:47.199 kind of hard because it's fucked up people out there 0:09:47.200 --> 0:09:50.360 in the world. I'm saying, you can't protect them from everything. Listen, man, 0:09:50.400 --> 0:09:53.679 they they're gonna they always trying to be sneaky. And 0:09:53.760 --> 0:09:56.000 that's that's another thing. And that's the thing. Well, you 0:09:56.000 --> 0:09:58.320 know what the thing with with with youth feels, man. 0:09:58.400 --> 0:10:01.240 Youth would give you a false s of your own mortality. 0:10:01.880 --> 0:10:03.880 They would give you a false sense because when you're young, 0:10:04.000 --> 0:10:07.320 you think no nothing Anglena happened to me, Mom's tripping, 0:10:07.360 --> 0:10:09.200 Pops tripping. They don't want to let me do nothing 0:10:09.240 --> 0:10:12.640 because I tell you, um, I'm so glad that my 0:10:12.679 --> 0:10:15.120 son is in college now, man, And I know when 0:10:15.160 --> 0:10:17.560 they keep them so busy because he plays football. He's 0:10:17.600 --> 0:10:19.200 so busy. He don't have no time to do nothing. 0:10:19.240 --> 0:10:22.760 Because I swear you wanna be you want to put 0:10:22.760 --> 0:10:24.800 your kids in a situation where you want to trust 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:26.679 them after the game, they want to go somewhere, they 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:28.040 want to go to in and out, they want to 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:32.040 go to the pizza place, hang out. But we've been around, 0:10:32.120 --> 0:10:34.440 We've seen the monsters that are out there in the world, 0:10:34.520 --> 0:10:36.840 so we want to protect them from them. That's why 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:38.760 we worked hard and moved them out. You do all 0:10:38.800 --> 0:10:42.360 the right things, Todad, but then you got some guy 0:10:42.400 --> 0:10:44.960 out there that pretty much I don't want to put 0:10:44.960 --> 0:10:46.920 his hands up to fight somebody so he can pull 0:10:46.920 --> 0:10:50.439 out a gun and just regorlessly aim into a crowd 0:10:50.920 --> 0:10:56.160 and take somebody's life. Man, It's it's just it's depends nightmare. 0:10:56.559 --> 0:11:00.560 Why can't you stop that? And you know there's a 0:11:00.559 --> 0:11:05.359 lot of guys out there in your situation, in my situation, 0:11:05.520 --> 0:11:08.679 there's a lot of guys out there that that put 0:11:08.720 --> 0:11:11.840 people in situations like this. You know what I'm saying, 0:11:12.360 --> 0:11:16.839 where innocent kids is killed. We don't think about when 0:11:16.920 --> 0:11:19.120 you do that drive by, you don't know who or 0:11:19.160 --> 0:11:22.160 what you're gonna hit. We don't think about how many 0:11:22.240 --> 0:11:27.240 people are affected, affected by the loss of they loved one. 0:11:27.760 --> 0:11:29.680 You know what I'm saying, Just like just like you 0:11:30.200 --> 0:11:34.000 what you're going through. I didn't realize it until two 0:11:34.040 --> 0:11:37.280 thousand and two, you know what I'm saying. And it's like, damn, 0:11:37.480 --> 0:11:42.720 just think you heard so many people in five minutes 0:11:43.640 --> 0:11:45.960 take somebody life in five minutes. And this is what 0:11:46.080 --> 0:11:49.360 these kids and these youngsters out here that they gotta see. 0:11:49.679 --> 0:11:52.880 They gotta feel his pain because I feel it, you 0:11:52.920 --> 0:11:55.440 know what I'm saying. I don't think I would have 0:11:55.440 --> 0:12:00.280 been able to sit down if some knuckle head shaped 0:12:00.320 --> 0:12:03.959 my kid and then bragging and boasting on Facebook about it. 0:12:04.360 --> 0:12:05.960 I don't think I would have been able to do that. 0:12:06.040 --> 0:12:10.160 I wouldn't win to the police station. So I commend 0:12:10.160 --> 0:12:13.880 this brother because he fought for justice for his daughter, 0:12:14.440 --> 0:12:16.199 you know what I'm saying. And now the dudes is 0:12:16.320 --> 0:12:19.640 doing fifty years, you know what I'm saying. Other than 0:12:19.679 --> 0:12:23.719 that they would have swept this under the rug. That's 0:12:23.760 --> 0:12:25.560 kind of hard to do if you're coming from that 0:12:25.600 --> 0:12:28.200 street lifestyle for you to try to, you know, take 0:12:28.240 --> 0:12:31.400 the route of being uh, you know, a straight up 0:12:31.440 --> 0:12:35.440 and letting a justice system take the course, because I 0:12:35.440 --> 0:12:37.400 don't know if I could have dealt with the motherfucker's 0:12:37.440 --> 0:12:40.400 just telling me uh and going through the years and years, 0:12:40.400 --> 0:12:43.320 and the motherfucker just somebody would have from what we 0:12:43.480 --> 0:12:45.640 come from, or that would have been a no brainer. Man. 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:47.800 The police just told me, you know who did it. 0:12:48.080 --> 0:12:50.440 We know who did it. Fucking hand yourself. That's what 0:12:50.520 --> 0:12:56.000 the police told me. Man. So now you've got a situation. Um, 0:12:55.480 --> 0:12:57.959 and this is the dynamical this like when like with 0:12:58.160 --> 0:13:01.560 James said, there's so many people impacted when somebody lose 0:13:01.640 --> 0:13:04.240 their life because how many other children do you have? 0:13:05.080 --> 0:13:07.680 I have three other trips? Okay, so you have three 0:13:07.720 --> 0:13:11.480 other kids. So you go out in exact revenge for Keisha. 0:13:12.160 --> 0:13:14.680 Now you've got three other kids that's gonna be impacted to. 0:13:14.720 --> 0:13:18.360 They've already lost their sister. Now their father's gone. Yeah, 0:13:18.400 --> 0:13:20.360 he locked up in a penitential. Say, I got a 0:13:20.400 --> 0:13:24.559 strong wife because she don't want to stop. She's like, no, 0:13:24.800 --> 0:13:27.160 you gotta come home, like you gotta come home to 0:13:27.240 --> 0:13:29.920 meet Yeah, and what you what you what you need? 0:13:30.000 --> 0:13:32.960 Get a good woman gonna do that for you, especially 0:13:33.000 --> 0:13:34.959 if she she know the pain because it's her kid 0:13:35.040 --> 0:13:37.559 as her daughter too, but she know as the man, 0:13:37.840 --> 0:13:39.920 you know, the father with the other kids and the 0:13:40.320 --> 0:13:43.599 support and the stability they need, you can't afford to 0:13:43.720 --> 0:13:46.240 go down that growth, You know what I'm saying, because 0:13:46.280 --> 0:13:49.120 then what's gonna happen to the family unit we destroyed 0:13:49.160 --> 0:13:51.760 as another black family unit? You feel what I'm saying 0:13:52.440 --> 0:13:56.280 right well, not only that, I mean you gotta give 0:13:56.360 --> 0:14:01.240 him the story about your pops and like it affected 0:14:01.280 --> 0:14:06.720 everybody after after a very like like when I see 0:14:06.760 --> 0:14:09.600 my daughter there, I didn't even cry that night at all. 0:14:09.920 --> 0:14:13.080 I'm just standing there staying at I just want revenge. 0:14:13.679 --> 0:14:17.079 So it was a hundred and fifty kids, man, that 0:14:17.160 --> 0:14:22.360 same my daughter get killed. Hundred and fifty. So instead 0:14:22.400 --> 0:14:25.120 of they're going down there to the police station because 0:14:25.120 --> 0:14:30.560 you know, they want to question everybody. Police brought me 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:32.480 down there. They had a board with all their names, 0:14:32.640 --> 0:14:37.560 but the parents telling them, don't say nothing. Parents apparance, 0:14:37.760 --> 0:14:43.440 they don't say nothing at all. Don't say nothing. Just 0:14:43.600 --> 0:14:46.080 leave it alone. Don't say nothing. To see that that's 0:14:46.120 --> 0:14:50.120 a part of this bullshit culture that we got. Don't 0:14:50.360 --> 0:14:52.560 you don't say nothing. And I know it's gonna be 0:14:52.680 --> 0:14:55.640 some assholes and the audience right now, y'all not keep 0:14:55.920 --> 0:14:58.120 you funk all y'all, because I'm gonna tell you some 0:14:58.160 --> 0:15:00.160 of these motherfucker's need to be locked the funk up. 0:15:00.880 --> 0:15:04.240 I don't know, no, I mean in it's innocent is 0:15:04.440 --> 0:15:06.560 one thing. I mean, Like I said, when you're in 0:15:06.640 --> 0:15:09.200 that lifestyle, then you know, you take what it comes with. 0:15:09.600 --> 0:15:16.200 But when you're innocent that we make we make mistakes 0:15:16.320 --> 0:15:18.680 as kids. We all did you know, we're all naive 0:15:18.760 --> 0:15:21.320 to what happens in the streets. You give me, we 0:15:21.480 --> 0:15:24.080 see it and it's really glorified to an aspect. It's 0:15:24.160 --> 0:15:26.320 fun to be in the streets, but a lot of 0:15:26.400 --> 0:15:29.880 kids are naive to what really happens and ship, so um, 0:15:30.600 --> 0:15:33.520 that route you can't take. So you can't just sit 0:15:33.600 --> 0:15:35.360 there and try to take the street route with some 0:15:35.440 --> 0:15:38.320 ship that affected on an innocent you know what I'm saying, 0:15:38.480 --> 0:15:40.880 it's a young female, young woman who had nothing to 0:15:40.920 --> 0:15:43.920 do with that lifestyle. So for motherfucker's to not want 0:15:43.960 --> 0:15:46.280 to get involved, because like you said, we've been born 0:15:46.360 --> 0:15:50.240 to that culture in the streets of especially us as 0:15:50.400 --> 0:15:53.040 as niggas, we've been born in that culture of you 0:15:53.080 --> 0:15:56.040 don't tell on ship or you try to handle it yourself. 0:15:56.120 --> 0:15:58.320 But then that's not justice for the daughter and in 0:15:58.440 --> 0:16:00.760 the family, you know what I'm saying exactly, So what 0:16:00.840 --> 0:16:03.480 we're gonna do. We go take a quick break right now, 0:16:04.240 --> 0:16:06.200 and we go come back and go into the details 0:16:06.240 --> 0:16:08.400 about how this impacted your father. We'll be back in 0:16:08.480 --> 0:16:10.760 a minute. We're here with Calvin Hawkins. Y'all, well right 0:16:10.800 --> 0:16:17.360 back still, James eight, y'all need to better give me 0:16:17.440 --> 0:16:20.120 my fire, Donard. I put that on the ship. I 0:16:20.240 --> 0:16:23.160 need to go give me some water. Mirror my motherfucking 0:16:23.280 --> 0:16:27.160 feet fucking with me, gangster chronicles for my ass. Pay 0:16:27.240 --> 0:16:31.320 granny her money. This gangster granny. Y'all know me. When 0:16:33.120 --> 0:16:37.680 we're back with Calvin Hawkins. So, Calvin, this is impacted 0:16:37.760 --> 0:16:41.960 your father. Just the roughness is impact that you can 0:16:42.000 --> 0:16:44.600 you take taking your take us through them. After the funeral, 0:16:44.880 --> 0:16:49.840 like because I didn't even cry like they had, it 0:16:50.040 --> 0:16:52.920 was huge and funeral was big. It was like everything 0:16:53.040 --> 0:16:56.560 out the door. People was out the door. So the preacher, 0:16:56.760 --> 0:17:00.520 the pastor um, he asked for everybody to come up 0:17:01.680 --> 0:17:04.280 and say they piece. I was like, ain't nobody talking 0:17:04.320 --> 0:17:08.080 in here today but me? Yeah. I got up there 0:17:08.119 --> 0:17:10.680 and I talked and everything, and then like at one 0:17:10.720 --> 0:17:13.399 point is like I went blind and something like when 0:17:13.440 --> 0:17:16.600 I was talking to everybody, then when I stopped talking, 0:17:17.200 --> 0:17:19.440 like I seen everybody jump up clap their hands like, 0:17:20.800 --> 0:17:22.159 but I don't know. I guess it was like an 0:17:22.160 --> 0:17:25.200 out of body experience or something like everybody was clapping 0:17:25.560 --> 0:17:28.639 them like a lot of old schools. There's like, I 0:17:28.680 --> 0:17:31.520 don't know how you just did that? Your strong as you, 0:17:31.640 --> 0:17:33.879 strong as ill, because I couldn't do that. If I 0:17:33.920 --> 0:17:36.760 see my baby laying in the casket, they're talking about 0:17:36.800 --> 0:17:39.080 this a celebration. I told him they ain't no celebration 0:17:39.119 --> 0:17:41.960 because she wasn't sick and she wasn't suffering. So what 0:17:42.119 --> 0:17:46.200 I need to celebrate? Folks? That was my only daughter. Like, 0:17:48.280 --> 0:17:52.200 and so your father, it's going The whole family is 0:17:52.280 --> 0:17:54.720 going through it, but your father in particular. Man, it 0:17:55.520 --> 0:17:58.960 killed my dad, Like that was a I never see 0:17:59.040 --> 0:18:01.200 my dad cry. And like one day he came to 0:18:01.320 --> 0:18:03.680 my shop. He's like, they didn't kill my baby. I 0:18:03.720 --> 0:18:07.400 don't want to deal with this no more. I'm I'm tired. 0:18:07.480 --> 0:18:09.920 It is like, man, what are you talking about? So 0:18:10.280 --> 0:18:12.040 he had pulled off. I'm trying to take him out 0:18:12.080 --> 0:18:15.119 the truck. He poured off. So the next week he 0:18:15.320 --> 0:18:18.760 come to the shop. I'll never forget this, bro. He 0:18:18.880 --> 0:18:20.960 comes to the shop. It was a Monday. He was 0:18:21.800 --> 0:18:24.440 going on and on about Keisha, and I'm like, hey, man, listen, 0:18:24.520 --> 0:18:26.480 I'm not trying to hear what you're talking about. You 0:18:26.560 --> 0:18:30.240 don't want to be here. I just lost Keisha. I 0:18:30.359 --> 0:18:36.280 need you too. So he's like, everything you drove, everything 0:18:36.359 --> 0:18:38.119 I got for you, you drive on. I'm like, what 0:18:38.200 --> 0:18:42.440 the hell, let's just dude talking about like so he's like, 0:18:42.560 --> 0:18:45.879 everything is in the back of the car for you. 0:18:46.040 --> 0:18:48.119 I say, I'm not trying to hear the ship period. 0:18:48.280 --> 0:18:51.000 I need you. So I go outside and my cousin 0:18:51.080 --> 0:18:52.720 stayed in the shop with him, and he's like, hey, 0:18:53.160 --> 0:18:55.000 I think you need to listen to your dad. When 0:18:55.040 --> 0:18:56.520 I came back in, I said, he'll be all right. 0:18:56.560 --> 0:18:59.840 He just upset. Tuesday come he come back to the shop. 0:19:00.200 --> 0:19:05.160 He normal, acting a food and Wednesday come he asked 0:19:05.200 --> 0:19:08.000 for my wife. He comes back to the shop. He's like, 0:19:08.040 --> 0:19:10.040 we're your wife. Fair, he said with Janet. I said 0:19:10.080 --> 0:19:12.040 she didn't hear Dad, she'll be back in a couple hours. 0:19:12.119 --> 0:19:14.880 She said okay. So he came back and he told 0:19:14.960 --> 0:19:19.280 her and told us when you have problems, he said, 0:19:19.359 --> 0:19:22.760 get you a big nip a drink, go to the 0:19:22.840 --> 0:19:27.840 beach and just let it all out and just relieve yourself. 0:19:27.880 --> 0:19:30.520 I said, hey, man, ain't nobody trying to hear that today? Pop? 0:19:30.960 --> 0:19:33.880 And he turned to Ryn and said, I love y'all. Thursday, come, 0:19:36.000 --> 0:19:37.959 my little brother seen him. I said, hey, bro, you've 0:19:37.960 --> 0:19:40.119 seen all Dad. He's like, yeah, he just passed. You 0:19:40.119 --> 0:19:44.440 said he's gonna come back Friday. Come my uncle and 0:19:44.520 --> 0:19:48.040 everybody looking for him. I'm I'm like, man, he probably 0:19:48.080 --> 0:19:53.920 at home sleep. So my uncle called me again, said, 0:19:53.960 --> 0:19:56.479 your dad ain't show up all right here all right, 0:19:56.600 --> 0:19:59.159 so I'm doing paperwork. Then I've seen one of his 0:19:59.240 --> 0:20:02.240 girlfriends come into the shop because he had about six 0:20:02.320 --> 0:20:05.440 out them. So she's like, your dad was supposed to 0:20:05.480 --> 0:20:07.040 meet me at ten thirty. I said, what are you 0:20:07.080 --> 0:20:09.679 talking about? Said for breakfast, but he didn't show up. 0:20:10.200 --> 0:20:13.200 And both of the cars outside, Like when my dad 0:20:13.320 --> 0:20:16.440 was home, one of the cars would be outside. I 0:20:16.560 --> 0:20:19.080 want to be in the garage and the screen door 0:20:19.200 --> 0:20:21.120 be locked. So I said, let me go over here. 0:20:22.800 --> 0:20:24.920 I went over there to the house. Both of the 0:20:25.000 --> 0:20:27.600 cars was outside. Now they opened up one of his 0:20:27.720 --> 0:20:29.960 trucks because I got the keys. I've seen a big 0:20:30.600 --> 0:20:34.159 thing of crown rolling there and I closed the door 0:20:34.240 --> 0:20:38.000 and saying fell down off his car. So he's been 0:20:38.040 --> 0:20:40.800 to the beach, so I said, went the hill going on. 0:20:41.000 --> 0:20:43.840 So I went to the screen door just to see 0:20:43.880 --> 0:20:46.879 if it's locked. But the screen door open. So I 0:20:46.960 --> 0:20:49.679 go next door and I was like, Ms. Bernard, when 0:20:49.720 --> 0:20:51.520 the last time you see them cards moved? She was 0:20:51.600 --> 0:20:54.480 like two days ago. And I looked at it, She's 0:20:54.520 --> 0:20:58.040 like kicking the door. I kicked the door in and 0:20:58.240 --> 0:21:01.600 I was like, dude, you better be breathing. And he 0:21:01.760 --> 0:21:06.480 was stiff as hell. Man. So in the spanding this time, 0:21:06.920 --> 0:21:10.720 you just you you still dealing with your daughter, grieving 0:21:10.800 --> 0:21:14.320 your daughter, and injustice. Now your father is going to 0:21:14.440 --> 0:21:16.760 y'all had a really good relationship. Oh he was cool 0:21:16.800 --> 0:21:19.600 as hell. Every day every day he came to the 0:21:19.680 --> 0:21:22.920 shopping he told me in my customers, my boys, that 0:21:23.080 --> 0:21:25.960 he didn't care who it was and and that that 0:21:26.160 --> 0:21:29.840 killed him and that killed him. So where is your 0:21:29.880 --> 0:21:33.440 mind that during this time I was screaming man like, 0:21:34.320 --> 0:21:40.720 like I didn't cry when I see my daughter. It's 0:21:40.720 --> 0:21:44.280 all right, man going let it out though, But that 0:21:44.480 --> 0:21:52.720 killed me. Man um it um. You want to say 0:21:52.760 --> 0:21:59.520 that family members, you don't have connection your grandparents really 0:22:00.000 --> 0:22:02.160 know what I'm saying, They had that connection with your kids. 0:22:02.280 --> 0:22:05.239 You know, James, you know you got the grandson right now, 0:22:05.440 --> 0:22:06.760 so you know what I'm saying. You know how that 0:22:06.880 --> 0:22:09.960