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Speaker 1: Bix Fields from the streets. Hello, where are you at?

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Speaker 1: This is o G Gangster Granny and the Gangster Chronicles

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Speaker 1: Chronicles podcast and I'm with my homeboys Jake, Jill and Man.

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Speaker 1: We have a really um poignant story today, Man, sad story.

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Speaker 1: I don't know how this brother actually maintained his composure

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Speaker 1: Michigan City, Indiana here today and he has an incredible story.

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Speaker 1: Pretty much daughter goes out one night. Right yeah, now

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Speaker 1: we're you're a word of where she was going. And

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Speaker 1: she told me she was going somewhere else. Right, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: Why can't you stop that? And you know there's a

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Speaker 1: never saw it being on the other side of the fact,

425
00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:22,000
Speaker 1: the side of offense. I never thought about that. At

426
00:23:22,040 --> 00:23:24,000
Speaker 1: that time, I didn't give a funk who was in

427
00:23:24,119 --> 00:23:27,879
Speaker 1: pain or who hurt. But this is the first time

428
00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:33,040
Speaker 1: really that I like, I feel another another brother pain

429
00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,080
Speaker 1: like that. You know, not only you lose your daughter,

430
00:23:36,680 --> 00:23:40,840
Speaker 1: but then the pain that Pops couldn't take it, you

431
00:23:40,960 --> 00:23:44,040
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And Pops felt like just tired

432
00:23:44,080 --> 00:23:47,359
Speaker 1: of this ship and then here he is. You know,

433
00:23:48,560 --> 00:23:51,399
Speaker 1: he gave you all the signs. He gave you all

434
00:23:51,480 --> 00:23:54,960
Speaker 1: the signs. I just ain't want to listen because you

435
00:23:55,160 --> 00:23:57,359
Speaker 1: you wasn't ready to deal with the fact that he

436
00:23:57,560 --> 00:24:00,800
Speaker 1: couldn't take that. But like, come on, man, we're trying

437
00:24:00,840 --> 00:24:05,040
Speaker 1: to deal with this situation like like that. That's just

438
00:24:05,160 --> 00:24:07,720
Speaker 1: a fathom wh I came see that, So please don't

439
00:24:07,800 --> 00:24:09,960
Speaker 1: bring that you You're gonna block all that ship out.

440
00:24:10,520 --> 00:24:12,640
Speaker 1: And you know what I'm saying, especially if you having

441
00:24:12,720 --> 00:24:16,080
Speaker 1: to deal with the motherfucking pain of the daughter, like man,

442
00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:17,879
Speaker 1: come on, you can't. That's why you still man, I

443
00:24:18,080 --> 00:24:20,120
Speaker 1: want to hear that ship. Don't come around here talking

444
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:24,080
Speaker 1: now and and and there's two sides to it. Not

445
00:24:24,240 --> 00:24:27,440
Speaker 1: only do you have the victims family that's impacted, right

446
00:24:29,640 --> 00:24:31,280
Speaker 1: and you know, as bad as I want to say,

447
00:24:31,320 --> 00:24:33,879
Speaker 1: funk that other kid, the shot that did the shooting,

448
00:24:34,320 --> 00:24:36,760
Speaker 1: he got a mama, he got a daddy, he got

449
00:24:36,800 --> 00:24:39,359
Speaker 1: other people. He was taking him to do robberies and

450
00:24:39,400 --> 00:24:45,280
Speaker 1: ship bro and see if it's the way motherfucker's are

451
00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:49,639
Speaker 1: raised and brought up, saying because sometimes you sometimes you

452
00:24:49,760 --> 00:24:54,240
Speaker 1: know us as parents, we can't help you know what

453
00:24:54,280 --> 00:24:56,960
Speaker 1: I'm saying, because I know what I did or what

454
00:24:57,040 --> 00:24:59,120
Speaker 1: I didn't try to do, or what I taught my son.

455
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:01,359
Speaker 1: But if he decide to go out there and do

456
00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:04,920
Speaker 1: some dumb ship, I'm not gonna be responsible as a

457
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:07,520
Speaker 1: father who tried to raise my son in the right way.

458
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:10,720
Speaker 1: But it's ship. If If I want my son to

459
00:25:10,800 --> 00:25:13,800
Speaker 1: start claiming the hood, and I'm giving him a pack

460
00:25:13,920 --> 00:25:17,280
Speaker 1: to sale and giving him his first strap, then I'm

461
00:25:17,359 --> 00:25:21,479
Speaker 1: contributing to what my man is is filling you exactly.

462
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:23,280
Speaker 1: And that's what I'm saying. His mama should be in

463
00:25:23,359 --> 00:25:27,800
Speaker 1: jailed too, because she pretty much raised the monster. I wouldn't.

464
00:25:27,840 --> 00:25:30,960
Speaker 1: I don't know about that mama going to jail for

465
00:25:31,040 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 1: the actions and with her son doing um, I think

466
00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:38,960
Speaker 1: mama should feel like she's more responsible for his action.

467
00:25:39,640 --> 00:25:43,640
Speaker 1: Disrespectful dads. Man, after she killed They didn't killed my daughter.

468
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:45,960
Speaker 1: They're coming up to the shop to try to get

469
00:25:46,040 --> 00:25:51,400
Speaker 1: work done. Hell yeah, thinking it's a game. See him

470
00:25:51,400 --> 00:25:52,960
Speaker 1: at the club. She trying to hug on me and

471
00:25:53,080 --> 00:25:55,480
Speaker 1: ship like, think it's funny. Man, Man, I took the

472
00:25:55,560 --> 00:25:58,560
Speaker 1: bricks off that motherfucker. She did bring that motherfucking here.

473
00:25:58,600 --> 00:26:00,159
Speaker 1: She'd have been riding the brakes with a went on

474
00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:03,280
Speaker 1: that mother. That's because the motherfucker trying to She trying

475
00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:08,480
Speaker 1: to disassociate herself from the motherfucking from what the product

476
00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:11,160
Speaker 1: of what her raising the kid has been like. He said,

477
00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:15,280
Speaker 1: she's taking him on robberies, probably taking themselves. That's you

478
00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:19,720
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, She contributing to his motherfucking bullshit.

479
00:26:20,640 --> 00:26:23,560
Speaker 1: That's what the That's why my man is so upset

480
00:26:23,600 --> 00:26:26,080
Speaker 1: at them, because it's to be a difference if you

481
00:26:26,400 --> 00:26:29,920
Speaker 1: was a sincere ass motherfucking female who I don't know

482
00:26:30,000 --> 00:26:32,520
Speaker 1: where he went wrong. I tried to raise him right

483
00:26:32,720 --> 00:26:35,440
Speaker 1: was in church. I tried to do this. But I'm

484
00:26:35,480 --> 00:26:38,600
Speaker 1: taking them around the corner to do dirt. So don't

485
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:41,359
Speaker 1: be hugging on me, motherfucker when you contribute into your

486
00:26:41,400 --> 00:26:45,280
Speaker 1: motherfucker's son's downfall. And and because you couldn't take a

487
00:26:45,359 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 1: hold of that ship, I'm suffering. So now I don't

488
00:26:48,000 --> 00:26:50,159
Speaker 1: need no hugs and ship, none of that ship and

489
00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:53,639
Speaker 1: and and thing about death is that it's it's forever.

490
00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:56,640
Speaker 1: It's not you know what I'm saying. That's an infinite thing.

491
00:26:56,800 --> 00:27:00,080
Speaker 1: So it's not like you ever get over it. M

492
00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:02,880
Speaker 1: it's not like you ever get over No. I gotta

493
00:27:02,960 --> 00:27:06,240
Speaker 1: homie right now, who's dealing with the death of his daughter.

494
00:27:06,520 --> 00:27:10,080
Speaker 1: Young girl out there in Vegas, you know, doing her thing,

495
00:27:10,320 --> 00:27:12,720
Speaker 1: you know, young females. You know what I'm saying. She

496
00:27:12,880 --> 00:27:15,680
Speaker 1: died from an overdose. Was was in the motherfucking room

497
00:27:15,720 --> 00:27:19,000
Speaker 1: by herself for three days until somebody found her. So

498
00:27:19,240 --> 00:27:21,920
Speaker 1: even though it's a different predicament, you know what I'm saying,

499
00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:26,920
Speaker 1: it's hurt fault to see your kids you know, taking

500
00:27:26,960 --> 00:27:29,240
Speaker 1: away from you before you get to see them live

501
00:27:29,320 --> 00:27:31,520
Speaker 1: their fucking life and do what they're supposed to do.

502
00:27:31,760 --> 00:27:35,200
Speaker 1: You give me, it's just fucked up the child, to

503
00:27:35,480 --> 00:27:38,440
Speaker 1: your child, your child post especially not at seventeen years old.

504
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:40,960
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, California, That's what we do

505
00:27:41,119 --> 00:27:44,879
Speaker 1: every day exactly bearing our kids. And that's why I

506
00:27:45,000 --> 00:27:48,720
Speaker 1: thought this story would be be good for our show,

507
00:27:48,840 --> 00:27:51,119
Speaker 1: because this is what we're trying to preach to the

508
00:27:51,240 --> 00:27:54,640
Speaker 1: kids out there, the youngsters, the gangsters out there to day.

509
00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:57,879
Speaker 1: And if they just heard a little of this man's

510
00:27:57,920 --> 00:28:01,199
Speaker 1: story right here, maybe we wouldn't pick up that pistol.

511
00:28:01,200 --> 00:28:03,440
Speaker 1: Because if I had heard a story like that back then,

512
00:28:03,960 --> 00:28:06,920
Speaker 1: maybe I wouldn't. Maybe I kept doing what I'm doing.

513
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:11,200
Speaker 1: But we are the problem and a solution to the

514
00:28:11,359 --> 00:28:14,639
Speaker 1: to this whole situation. Let's stop killing each other and

515
00:28:14,680 --> 00:28:16,320
Speaker 1: we ain't got to worry about this ship no more.

516
00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:18,720
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. But back then, when you

517
00:28:18,800 --> 00:28:21,080
Speaker 1: grab that pistel and you get in that motherfucking car

518
00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:23,760
Speaker 1: and you're going out to do a drive by, nine

519
00:28:23,840 --> 00:28:26,520
Speaker 1: times out of chan, I never thought that I can

520
00:28:26,600 --> 00:28:29,800
Speaker 1: kill a kid opposed to the people that you you're

521
00:28:29,800 --> 00:28:32,680
Speaker 1: aiming at. You know what I'm saying. And the majority

522
00:28:32,720 --> 00:28:36,480
Speaker 1: of the time is kids or somebody innocent that they

523
00:28:36,480 --> 00:28:40,320
Speaker 1: ain't never doing ship that get hit because don't pay

524
00:28:40,320 --> 00:28:43,560
Speaker 1: attention to they did that happens. And coming from here,

525
00:28:43,680 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 1: like you said, coming from here in l A. You

526
00:28:46,120 --> 00:28:48,160
Speaker 1: can be on either side of the fence. You can

527
00:28:48,280 --> 00:28:50,760
Speaker 1: have a kid that get killed by motherfucker, or you

528
00:28:50,840 --> 00:28:53,320
Speaker 1: can have to kill that pulled the trigger because that's

529
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,840
Speaker 1: the lifestyle we have. And with the kids follow the

530
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:57,960
Speaker 1: pathway now right now with a lot of the kids.

531
00:28:58,000 --> 00:29:00,200
Speaker 1: So you gotta you gotta be able to go app

532
00:29:00,240 --> 00:29:01,880
Speaker 1: hold to him and like you said, you don't want

533
00:29:01,880 --> 00:29:05,160
Speaker 1: to restrict them and and have them like you said,

534
00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:08,120
Speaker 1: I'm like prisoners in their own home. But funcking sometimes

535
00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:10,160
Speaker 1: you got to him. You just gotta put that foot down.

536
00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 1: And then you want to you don't want to sing

537
00:29:12,400 --> 00:29:15,400
Speaker 1: like the bad dad or you know, you can't go nowhere,

538
00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:17,880
Speaker 1: You can't go to the game with your friends, you

539
00:29:18,000 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 1: can't go to the little party or whatever. But I'll

540
00:29:22,160 --> 00:29:24,520
Speaker 1: be I'll be a lie. I'll be a motherfucking lie

541
00:29:24,520 --> 00:29:26,600
Speaker 1: if I tell you that every time my kid walked

542
00:29:26,640 --> 00:29:28,960
Speaker 1: out the door, saying he's gonna go somewhere. I'm like,

543
00:29:29,600 --> 00:29:32,440
Speaker 1: every fucking thirty minutes, like, nigger, where you at? Where

544
00:29:32,440 --> 00:29:35,560
Speaker 1: are you at? T where? Now? His mom's got the

545
00:29:35,640 --> 00:29:38,600
Speaker 1: tracker on his phone, Like, motherfucker, don't tell me, like

546
00:29:38,840 --> 00:29:40,760
Speaker 1: I don't even know where you had every single minute

547
00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:43,240
Speaker 1: of the day, because I can't save you from a

548
00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:46,920
Speaker 1: lot of bullshit that you see, it takes for something

549
00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:49,479
Speaker 1: to happen to a kid sometimes, and unfortunately, what these

550
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:52,080
Speaker 1: kids need to know you don't know. Always get to

551
00:29:52,160 --> 00:29:54,240
Speaker 1: get a chance to learn a listen to come back.

552
00:29:55,680 --> 00:29:58,040
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you an example. This is when I

553
00:29:58,120 --> 00:29:59,640
Speaker 1: first got my son a carter. This is when he

554
00:29:59,680 --> 00:30:02,000
Speaker 1: was going high school. Right, So you get a car

555
00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:04,000
Speaker 1: and he tells me it's eleven o'clock on the Friday.

556
00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:05,800
Speaker 1: You know how to goose game? Now? He says with Dad,

557
00:30:05,840 --> 00:30:08,120
Speaker 1: I'm head over the stadium. I said, okay, cool, you

558
00:30:08,240 --> 00:30:10,480
Speaker 1: kind of early, right, he said, But I want to

559
00:30:10,520 --> 00:30:12,560
Speaker 1: get some film working in or whatever like that, So

560
00:30:12,640 --> 00:30:14,560
Speaker 1: I'm kind of my mind. I called kind of like,

561
00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:17,520
Speaker 1: I'm like whatever, go in and go next thing, you know,

562
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:21,160
Speaker 1: my oldest son come downstairs because he called his brother

563
00:30:21,240 --> 00:30:24,239
Speaker 1: because he knew he'd called me. He called brother, said, man,

564
00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:27,920
Speaker 1: Chris been in accent like fun. So I'm like, where

565
00:30:28,000 --> 00:30:30,120
Speaker 1: is he had over on Bell Flower Boulevard or whatever?

566
00:30:30,280 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 1: Is he on Imperial whatever? Because you know, right school

567
00:30:32,840 --> 00:30:36,880
Speaker 1: right around corner, right around the corner. So he's in

568
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:39,480
Speaker 1: Los Alamo, some motherfucker. We're going to go pick up

569
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:42,320
Speaker 1: one of his other friends to bring him to the thing.

570
00:30:42,480 --> 00:30:45,600
Speaker 1: And I'm like, so, I'm telling myself, I just want

571
00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:48,400
Speaker 1: to see if he okay. First. If he okay, ain't

572
00:30:48,440 --> 00:30:50,880
Speaker 1: nobody did. I could deal with everything else right. I

573
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:53,800
Speaker 1: get over to the car tour whole side up. The

574
00:30:53,880 --> 00:30:57,480
Speaker 1: tour wasn't his fault. Lady hit him, she takes on

575
00:30:57,560 --> 00:31:01,960
Speaker 1: the phone or whatever to them. So I wanted the

576
00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:04,080
Speaker 1: first thing I wanted to do is slap the ship

577
00:31:04,120 --> 00:31:07,239
Speaker 1: out of But I didn't maintain my composure. And when

578
00:31:07,280 --> 00:31:08,920
Speaker 1: he got in the car with me to quiet, I said,

579
00:31:09,000 --> 00:31:10,480
Speaker 1: you know, it's a number of things that could have

580
00:31:10,480 --> 00:31:15,280
Speaker 1: happened today. We could be coming to them, view your body,

581
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:19,120
Speaker 1: you could be going to Your friend could be dead,

582
00:31:19,880 --> 00:31:21,880
Speaker 1: all because you didn't do what you were supposed to do,

583
00:31:22,800 --> 00:31:25,320
Speaker 1: All because you didn't do the right thing. And I

584
00:31:25,480 --> 00:31:27,640
Speaker 1: think by that happened to him and then I did

585
00:31:27,760 --> 00:31:29,760
Speaker 1: something to him. He got a lot better after that,

586
00:31:29,880 --> 00:31:31,479
Speaker 1: you know, as far as just doing what you're supposed

587
00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:34,200
Speaker 1: to do. But we don't always get the opportunity to

588
00:31:34,320 --> 00:31:36,520
Speaker 1: come back. So for youall young inns out there, it's

589
00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:38,960
Speaker 1: listening when you know when moms and pops take you

590
00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:41,800
Speaker 1: to stay at home something that's what you need to do,

591
00:31:42,200 --> 00:31:47,760
Speaker 1: and then to the parents when is too strict strict enough?

592
00:31:48,000 --> 00:31:51,520
Speaker 1: You get me, Like, we all want to be cool,

593
00:31:51,720 --> 00:31:57,000
Speaker 1: like not say cool with the children, but we want

594
00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:59,160
Speaker 1: to have that trust with the kids that we can

595
00:31:59,240 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 1: trust that they're doing what they say. Now, like I said,

596
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:03,560
Speaker 1: we've all been down that path, you know, we do.

597
00:32:03,640 --> 00:32:05,680
Speaker 1: I'm told moms, I'm gonna do something that I know,

598
00:32:05,840 --> 00:32:08,040
Speaker 1: damn well, I ain't gonna do. I know, I'm gonna

599
00:32:08,040 --> 00:32:09,959
Speaker 1: tell her I'm gonna go over here, but knowing damn well,

600
00:32:09,960 --> 00:32:11,960
Speaker 1: I'm going to go to the neighborhood and sell some rocks.

601
00:32:12,280 --> 00:32:16,760
Speaker 1: You feel me, I mean so, But I understood all that,

602
00:32:17,440 --> 00:32:20,000
Speaker 1: Hell no, motherfucker, you can't go, and hell no, you

603
00:32:20,040 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 1: ain't getting in the car with them. And I used

604
00:32:22,080 --> 00:32:24,560
Speaker 1: to be pissed the funk off, like embarrassed to the

605
00:32:24,680 --> 00:32:27,080
Speaker 1: point like you got the home, he's pulling up ready

606
00:32:27,080 --> 00:32:29,200
Speaker 1: to pick me up, and you're coming all outside on

607
00:32:29,320 --> 00:32:31,680
Speaker 1: the porch, yelling and screaming you ain't getting in the

608
00:32:31,720 --> 00:32:34,200
Speaker 1: car with them motherfucker's and ship as you crazy get

609
00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:38,560
Speaker 1: your motherfucking ass and the out though you've been lessons

610
00:32:39,320 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 1: what you think moms every chance you get God damn Mike,

611
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:44,000
Speaker 1: you get me, because there's a lot of them niggas

612
00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:46,240
Speaker 1: I see right now that's just getting home from doing

613
00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:48,720
Speaker 1: twenty five years. You get me. It would have never

614
00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:52,320
Speaker 1: been on the wrong because I wanted to be one

615
00:32:52,360 --> 00:32:55,520
Speaker 1: of them wrong niggers though, even though the home was

616
00:32:55,600 --> 00:32:59,000
Speaker 1: gool disciplined whatever. But it's get to the point when

617
00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:02,800
Speaker 1: you hit that fifth sixteen seventeen to where you just

618
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:05,760
Speaker 1: feel like you can't do no fucking wrong and everything

619
00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:09,360
Speaker 1: as a parent, I mean, you don't know ship man, Okay,

620
00:33:09,400 --> 00:33:11,880
Speaker 1: So if I gotta go, yeah, I'm going over the

621
00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:15,200
Speaker 1: pop pops knowing I'm gonna go to the neighborhood. I'm

622
00:33:15,280 --> 00:33:18,600
Speaker 1: looking at it like it's gonna be just another day

623
00:33:18,720 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 1: that I've already then did this ship five or six

624
00:33:21,440 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 1: times and I knew she was lying. Though I knew it.

625
00:33:25,000 --> 00:33:28,160
Speaker 1: You always they know. Just like with my son, he

626
00:33:28,320 --> 00:33:31,120
Speaker 1: telling me some ship, I'd look dead at his motherfucking

627
00:33:31,200 --> 00:33:34,960
Speaker 1: ass and be like, yeah, alright, because they are alright.

628
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:37,320
Speaker 1: You can tell when he gets to do this fix.

629
00:33:37,480 --> 00:33:40,600
Speaker 1: That's because I want to give him that little bit

630
00:33:40,840 --> 00:33:44,800
Speaker 1: of trust, even though already know he's lying. I don't

631
00:33:44,840 --> 00:33:46,840
Speaker 1: want to see if you're gonna be able to make

632
00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:50,880
Speaker 1: it out of that motherfucking bullshit without something happening, because

633
00:33:50,880 --> 00:33:53,840
Speaker 1: you already know you're telling me some bullshit. So I'm

634
00:33:54,000 --> 00:33:55,840
Speaker 1: gonna give you that because I could just break you

635
00:33:55,960 --> 00:33:58,479
Speaker 1: down right now. You're gonna walk out with the homies,

636
00:33:58,600 --> 00:34:01,440
Speaker 1: y'all all looking now, nigger, you can't go, but I

637
00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:03,360
Speaker 1: finish see if you're gonna take that line, if you

638
00:34:03,400 --> 00:34:06,160
Speaker 1: can make it back from that without no bullshit, because

639
00:34:06,280 --> 00:34:09,040
Speaker 1: let's face it, you already got a fifty percent chance

640
00:34:09,080 --> 00:34:11,400
Speaker 1: of getting in some ship, and you're telling me something

641
00:34:11,480 --> 00:34:14,319
Speaker 1: that you ain't supposed to be doing. She never got

642
00:34:14,960 --> 00:34:16,880
Speaker 1: and done. Mine was a one and done. It was

643
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:20,920
Speaker 1: crazy because I left Saturday to get my load to

644
00:34:21,120 --> 00:34:24,680
Speaker 1: come out here. My son, the one that got um

645
00:34:24,840 --> 00:34:29,440
Speaker 1: that was standing next tour. Birthday was Friday. He asked

646
00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:30,920
Speaker 1: me to come pick him up for work because his

647
00:34:31,000 --> 00:34:34,640
Speaker 1: little girlfriend had his car, So I uh put him

648
00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:36,440
Speaker 1: in my truck and we're riding up taking him home.

649
00:34:36,520 --> 00:34:39,600
Speaker 1: He was like, so, what's the problem. Man? It was

650
00:34:39,680 --> 00:34:47,439
Speaker 1: like my birthday Friday and my sister girl uh man, man,

651
00:34:47,719 --> 00:34:50,160
Speaker 1: you know, and we had to talk about it, and

652
00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:53,600
Speaker 1: and that probably fused with him because he was there

653
00:34:53,960 --> 00:34:56,000
Speaker 1: with her. It's still working with him because when I

654
00:34:56,120 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 1: got to exactly, yeah, blood on him, I said, what

655
00:34:59,680 --> 00:35:02,480
Speaker 1: is that? He's like this because they know they ain't

656
00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:05,160
Speaker 1: supposed to be out there, And now he feels it's

657
00:35:05,200 --> 00:35:07,839
Speaker 1: gonna funk with him because he's standing there with him

658
00:35:08,239 --> 00:35:11,160
Speaker 1: with her and knowing that they've don't told Pops. Now

659
00:35:11,239 --> 00:35:13,919
Speaker 1: he gotta face you because he knowing we've don't told

660
00:35:14,000 --> 00:35:16,120
Speaker 1: you some ship that we ain't supposed to be over there.

661
00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:18,759
Speaker 1: Now I got to feel responsible because my sister then

662
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:21,600
Speaker 1: got killed. I'm next to her. Now, how am I

663
00:35:21,680 --> 00:35:24,239
Speaker 1: gonna explain that to Pops? When I know, God Damn

664
00:35:24,280 --> 00:35:26,879
Speaker 1: Sell was supposed to be. That's a lot to put

665
00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:32,080
Speaker 1: on the thirteen, A thirteen year old little boy seeing

666
00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:35,279
Speaker 1: his sister in trying to help his sister now that

667
00:35:35,400 --> 00:35:39,280
Speaker 1: he's covered in her blood, and man, he gotta be trauma.

668
00:35:44,080 --> 00:35:48,160
Speaker 1: He just doesn't. He just moved out right there. I'm gone.

669
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:53,040
Speaker 1: He is. Wow. So it's a lot for those guys

670
00:35:53,080 --> 00:35:55,279
Speaker 1: to deal with him process because he's probably going through

671
00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:59,080
Speaker 1: a great deal of survivors remorse thinking why not me

672
00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:03,520
Speaker 1: instead of my sister? You know, and you know going

673
00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:08,160
Speaker 1: to that man, the mental anguish it this, I know

674
00:36:08,440 --> 00:36:10,080
Speaker 1: it's gonna be a thing that she could be dealing

675
00:36:10,160 --> 00:36:12,680
Speaker 1: with as long as you walk on this planet. But

676
00:36:13,040 --> 00:36:16,920
Speaker 1: how do you how do you maintain your sanity and

677
00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:19,279
Speaker 1: normalcy through all of this mess? Men of the pain?

678
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:26,479
Speaker 1: I started this foundation for her foundation, her clothing line,

679
00:36:29,120 --> 00:36:34,120
Speaker 1: my clothing line for um. I'm trying to get her

680
00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:36,000
Speaker 1: clothing line. Once I learned how to work this five

681
00:36:36,080 --> 00:36:39,840
Speaker 1: on one three seaboard ship, I'm gonna be hill because

682
00:36:40,760 --> 00:36:44,719
Speaker 1: like we're from Indiana and Texas. But she wanted to

683
00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:47,560
Speaker 1: she was supposed to be on the way out here

684
00:36:48,560 --> 00:36:52,680
Speaker 1: to California, I don't know where, but go to college,

685
00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:55,920
Speaker 1: be a relationship counselor, and live on the beach. That's

686
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,480
Speaker 1: what she wanted to do. So what I'm trying to

687
00:36:58,600 --> 00:37:03,000
Speaker 1: do is getting foundation. Of course, I was trying to

688
00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:05,040
Speaker 1: move back home to Texas, but my mom was like,

689
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 1: you gotta go back to Indiana because that's where it

690
00:37:07,600 --> 00:37:12,840
Speaker 1: happened at. So I wanted foundation in Indiana, Texas and

691
00:37:13,040 --> 00:37:15,000
Speaker 1: out here to get a hold of these little kids.

692
00:37:15,040 --> 00:37:17,680
Speaker 1: You gotta catch you when they're young. So my son's

693
00:37:17,719 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 1: grown right now and they're still saying yes sir and

694
00:37:20,120 --> 00:37:22,600
Speaker 1: yes ma'am. To put that back out in the community

695
00:37:22,640 --> 00:37:25,120
Speaker 1: and help these kids, you know, like they ain't got

696
00:37:25,200 --> 00:37:27,680
Speaker 1: nothing for these kids to do. Like my barber, he

697
00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:32,239
Speaker 1: he a baseball fanatty. I asked him before I came

698
00:37:32,280 --> 00:37:34,520
Speaker 1: out here. Once I get this stuff going on, bro,

699
00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:38,239
Speaker 1: hey can we I want you to run a baseball thing.

700
00:37:38,320 --> 00:37:40,200
Speaker 1: He said, you're trying to start down to keep your name.

701
00:37:40,239 --> 00:37:42,720
Speaker 1: I was like yeah. He said, give me the balls

702
00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:45,600
Speaker 1: in the bats. Let's go. Give me the balls in

703
00:37:45,640 --> 00:37:48,920
Speaker 1: the bat so let's go. Then I got another partner

704
00:37:48,960 --> 00:37:52,520
Speaker 1: of mine. Um he had like a strength coach for

705
00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:55,000
Speaker 1: the kids. He put helping kids get to d one

706
00:37:55,080 --> 00:37:57,839
Speaker 1: playing football. So I actually I told him I want

707
00:37:57,920 --> 00:38:00,840
Speaker 1: him to bring in. I got another friend. He boxed,

708
00:38:01,400 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 1: bring that back you know what I'm saying up there,

709
00:38:05,040 --> 00:38:08,840
Speaker 1: and they had that stuff transferred from Indiana here and

710
00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 1: then out there, and they're like owners um the team

711
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:16,400
Speaker 1: Monster Stuff. I changed my store to her name also,

712
00:38:17,040 --> 00:38:19,920
Speaker 1: so it's Monster Car Audio where I do the sounds

713
00:38:19,960 --> 00:38:22,720
Speaker 1: and stuff. And like every year we have an annual

714
00:38:22,880 --> 00:38:28,080
Speaker 1: Kesha show and that car show sometimes last from three

715
00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:30,560
Speaker 1: in the afternoon to like three in the morning. Man,

716
00:38:31,560 --> 00:38:33,600
Speaker 1: well you know you got a friend come out there.

717
00:38:34,560 --> 00:38:36,239
Speaker 1: I was gonna tell you got a friend of us. Man.

718
00:38:36,320 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 1: We want to be a participant in everything that you've

719
00:38:40,000 --> 00:38:42,000
Speaker 1: got going on, anything that you needed to do, Bro,

720
00:38:42,160 --> 00:38:43,760
Speaker 1: we want to be there. We want to be involved,

721
00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:46,680
Speaker 1: and we're gonna talk about that after this. We'll get

722
00:38:46,719 --> 00:38:49,800
Speaker 1: that together, you know. And this is an important episode

723
00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:54,920
Speaker 1: right here, man, because our youth is everything. Man. Without

724
00:38:54,960 --> 00:38:58,759
Speaker 1: the kids, we don't have no future, definitely. And if

725
00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:01,560
Speaker 1: we keep losing our are young black not just our

726
00:39:01,680 --> 00:39:05,760
Speaker 1: young black males, are young black females. You know, either

727
00:39:05,800 --> 00:39:09,480
Speaker 1: the death or the penitentiary, We're not gonna have a future.

728
00:39:11,160 --> 00:39:13,480
Speaker 1: We're not gonna have a future. So it's very important

729
00:39:13,480 --> 00:39:15,040
Speaker 1: to get it out there, man, so we can change

730
00:39:15,080 --> 00:39:17,719
Speaker 1: the narrative of things. Um, I want to go back

731
00:39:17,760 --> 00:39:20,000
Speaker 1: to the time that you were dealing with the police.

732
00:39:20,360 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 1: I only want to call the police the clowns that

733
00:39:22,680 --> 00:39:25,359
Speaker 1: was up there. You know, the people are pretty much

734
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:31,000
Speaker 1: made up in their mind and they wouldn't go exact justice. Man,

735
00:39:31,800 --> 00:39:34,200
Speaker 1: how long was that process? How long did you have

736
00:39:34,280 --> 00:39:36,239
Speaker 1: to do the march? And how long did you have

737
00:39:36,320 --> 00:39:38,919
Speaker 1: to act? Did they ever threatened to restue anything, threaten

738
00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 1: to arrest me? Man? They broke me. They like they attitude?

739
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:50,879
Speaker 1: Was he young? He black? He got this shot where

740
00:39:50,920 --> 00:39:55,040
Speaker 1: it's successful. So they're just trying to plant dope on me,

741
00:39:56,120 --> 00:40:00,200
Speaker 1: playing doping stuff on man. Come on, like one of

742
00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:04,239
Speaker 1: the police. Rest in peace, Rob Grant. They didn't know

743
00:40:04,320 --> 00:40:07,040
Speaker 1: men him with the school together. So one day I

744
00:40:07,120 --> 00:40:09,360
Speaker 1: had a hell of a day. Is the police study

745
00:40:09,400 --> 00:40:12,040
Speaker 1: picking with me? Picking with me, picking with me? So

746
00:40:12,520 --> 00:40:16,480
Speaker 1: he pulled up to the shop. I'm like, Rob, I

747
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:18,640
Speaker 1: ain't do nothing. He said, Frost act like me and

748
00:40:18,719 --> 00:40:20,879
Speaker 1: you argue. I said, what are you talking about? He said,

749
00:40:21,000 --> 00:40:23,440
Speaker 1: do what I tell you. So he started on one

750
00:40:23,480 --> 00:40:25,520
Speaker 1: side of the car. I'm standing on the others. He

751
00:40:25,719 --> 00:40:30,680
Speaker 1: pointing and I'm pointing at him. He said, listen, you've

752
00:40:30,719 --> 00:40:33,000
Speaker 1: been seeing a black truck running around here. I said,

753
00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:36,640
Speaker 1: yeah all day. He said, listen, that's the chief of

754
00:40:36,719 --> 00:40:39,120
Speaker 1: police and the mayor. They've been a point dope on you.

755
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:40,719
Speaker 1: I said, what the hell you're talking about? He said,

756
00:40:40,800 --> 00:40:43,640
Speaker 1: let me gonna break it down to you, Keisha Murder.

757
00:40:43,680 --> 00:40:48,319
Speaker 1: What's aul Like? Forty five minutes after it happened, watch

758
00:40:48,400 --> 00:40:50,400
Speaker 1: you bringing in is who you're bringing in the shop

759
00:40:50,640 --> 00:40:53,799
Speaker 1: because they're feen a plant dope on you And they said, funk,

760
00:40:53,880 --> 00:40:57,000
Speaker 1: your daughter there is not finna help you. And you

761
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:02,480
Speaker 1: see it already some white people. Yeah, see, you gotta understand.

762
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:04,640
Speaker 1: To me, being from the Midwest, Indiana is one of

763
00:41:04,680 --> 00:41:08,200
Speaker 1: the most prejudiced states in the Union. Racist like I'm

764
00:41:08,239 --> 00:41:21,759
Speaker 1: talking about Yeah, yeah, this is a kid. Yeah, it's

765
00:41:21,800 --> 00:41:24,440
Speaker 1: people that's racist. Like that's a different type of racism.

766
00:41:24,760 --> 00:41:26,920
Speaker 1: It's like, I'm gonna tell you, and I know it's

767
00:41:26,960 --> 00:41:28,640
Speaker 1: gonna be some people in the audience where I wouldn't

768
00:41:28,640 --> 00:41:30,000
Speaker 1: be going for them. I'm gonna tell you. They got

769
00:41:30,040 --> 00:41:31,920
Speaker 1: white boys down there. They would fight the funk out

770
00:41:32,000 --> 00:41:33,840
Speaker 1: your way as they got guns, they got everything, and

771
00:41:33,880 --> 00:41:35,680
Speaker 1: they would kick your ways going down one of them

772
00:41:35,960 --> 00:41:39,040
Speaker 1: country as back rows and knock you off and kill

773
00:41:39,120 --> 00:41:41,239
Speaker 1: your ass. You hanging from a treat. They had it

774
00:41:41,320 --> 00:41:44,200
Speaker 1: so bad man where one day my AIN'TI comes she

775
00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:48,440
Speaker 1: left church and pull it up to She's like, I

776
00:41:48,560 --> 00:41:52,319
Speaker 1: need to talk to you. Philip that's my little brother,

777
00:41:52,840 --> 00:41:57,200
Speaker 1: and Janice that's my wife. This is like, word is

778
00:41:57,960 --> 00:42:02,360
Speaker 1: you have? You're pulling these cards in, acting like you

779
00:42:02,520 --> 00:42:04,400
Speaker 1: hooking them up and keeping them in the bay for

780
00:42:04,480 --> 00:42:07,040
Speaker 1: three or four hours, loading them up full of dope

781
00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:10,319
Speaker 1: and drawing it off. I said, Mama, come on, are

782
00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:14,319
Speaker 1: you serious. She's like, you're gonna go to prison. Well,

783
00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:16,880
Speaker 1: you know what You're represented for them, bro, You represented

784
00:42:16,880 --> 00:42:19,440
Speaker 1: the problem because you wouldn't just gonna sit back. Because

785
00:42:19,760 --> 00:42:22,040
Speaker 1: for every brother like you to fight, you got ten

786
00:42:22,080 --> 00:42:24,240
Speaker 1: other brothers that just sit back and accept the bullshit.

787
00:42:24,600 --> 00:42:26,239
Speaker 1: They viewed you as a threat, so they wanted to

788
00:42:26,280 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 1: get you out the way they were they're trying to

789
00:42:28,160 --> 00:42:30,319
Speaker 1: get me out the way. So one day, my damn,

790
00:42:30,360 --> 00:42:32,800
Speaker 1: my wife just stopped coming to the shop period. Like

791
00:42:33,040 --> 00:42:35,040
Speaker 1: she was like, I don't know what's going on, baby,

792
00:42:35,080 --> 00:42:37,719
Speaker 1: but I know you're not selling no drugs, no none

793
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 1: of that stuff. But why if I'm working for it?

794
00:42:41,640 --> 00:42:43,960
Speaker 1: Why I can't have nice things. Why I can't buy

795
00:42:44,000 --> 00:42:47,000
Speaker 1: my family life things. So one day I've had a

796
00:42:47,560 --> 00:42:50,719
Speaker 1: nineteen sixty five four Galaxy and pulled it out the garage.

797
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:53,680
Speaker 1: Police pulled up on me. He said, look at you. Uh,

798
00:42:54,000 --> 00:42:56,320
Speaker 1: you're Ryan clean and all that stuff. We want to

799
00:42:56,440 --> 00:42:58,440
Speaker 1: ran clean too. That's why we're not gonna help you

800
00:42:58,560 --> 00:43:05,760
Speaker 1: with your daughter. The police said that like some motherucking

801
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:07,719
Speaker 1: money or something. Man, I don't know. I've that one

802
00:43:07,840 --> 00:43:09,600
Speaker 1: for the extort me. They ain't work for the ship

803
00:43:09,760 --> 00:43:13,160
Speaker 1: I did, like the guy that was talking to you

804
00:43:13,239 --> 00:43:17,759
Speaker 1: at first, or that told you to watch you letting

805
00:43:17,840 --> 00:43:22,480
Speaker 1: your shot? Uh police rob brand Okay, So he basically

806
00:43:22,600 --> 00:43:25,520
Speaker 1: telling you people that your friends ain't your friends and

807
00:43:25,600 --> 00:43:28,640
Speaker 1: whoever in here is working with these motherfucker's just set

808
00:43:28,719 --> 00:43:33,400
Speaker 1: you up. Put your game. Though. The person that I

809
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:38,799
Speaker 1: had sublease, he wanted the sublease from me. He had

810
00:43:38,840 --> 00:43:41,200
Speaker 1: gotten to the fight with one of his girls, and

811
00:43:42,680 --> 00:43:45,880
Speaker 1: so they got into a fight. So we go to

812
00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:50,440
Speaker 1: court and I'm thinking he in there for the We're

813
00:43:50,440 --> 00:43:52,560
Speaker 1: gonna buy them out because it's a fight, you know.

814
00:43:53,520 --> 00:43:57,399
Speaker 1: So while we're in there, that judge was like, he said,

815
00:43:57,400 --> 00:44:00,000
Speaker 1: I'm in here. Um. The judge told him it's gonna

816
00:44:00,040 --> 00:44:02,040
Speaker 1: be a hundred thousand dollars buying. I said, for a

817
00:44:02,239 --> 00:44:05,359
Speaker 1: fight like that, ain't number six, So fire to buying out.

818
00:44:06,000 --> 00:44:07,800
Speaker 1: So he said, oh, he said, I'm in here for

819
00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:10,560
Speaker 1: a fight. He said, no. On such and such a day,

820
00:44:11,080 --> 00:44:13,680
Speaker 1: you sold a hundred and sixty eight grams of cocaine.

821
00:44:13,760 --> 00:44:21,080
Speaker 1: I said, oh, I'm through. The whole time. He was

822
00:44:21,160 --> 00:44:23,239
Speaker 1: good because I didn't even notice what he was doing, bro,

823
00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:30,560
Speaker 1: And it went up, Wow, said such and such a

824
00:44:30,719 --> 00:44:34,680
Speaker 1: day you sold a hundred and eighty six crams. I

825
00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:37,120
Speaker 1: was like what. So they figured they can't shut you

826
00:44:37,320 --> 00:44:40,040
Speaker 1: up about your daughter and you were causing too much,

827
00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:45,080
Speaker 1: too much attention for them, so they figured they had

828
00:44:45,120 --> 00:44:47,399
Speaker 1: to set you up to get you out to wait

829
00:44:47,680 --> 00:44:50,759
Speaker 1: at the pension, and they was doing something and then like,

830
00:44:52,719 --> 00:44:56,040
Speaker 1: I know this dude. He they say it's c I,

831
00:44:56,239 --> 00:44:58,040
Speaker 1: but I don't know if he's c I. But then

832
00:44:58,120 --> 00:45:00,160
Speaker 1: he comes to me. He's like a frost y'all to

833
00:45:00,160 --> 00:45:02,359
Speaker 1: watch it, bro, because they got a picture, said they

834
00:45:02,400 --> 00:45:05,000
Speaker 1: got a chart of you downstairs, and I said downstair

835
00:45:05,000 --> 00:45:07,480
Speaker 1: in the police station. So I'm like, yeah, you're a

836
00:45:07,520 --> 00:45:09,640
Speaker 1: c I for real. But whatever, you're talking about He said,

837
00:45:09,719 --> 00:45:13,840
Speaker 1: you it's the head and they got it branched off, dude,

838
00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:17,000
Speaker 1: and like a chart of y'all and he said they

839
00:45:17,080 --> 00:45:20,160
Speaker 1: got pictures like a month ago, y'all don here down

840
00:45:20,200 --> 00:45:22,480
Speaker 1: there at the police station. So I called my wife

841
00:45:22,520 --> 00:45:24,440
Speaker 1: down and I said, hey, baby, could you please come

842
00:45:24,520 --> 00:45:28,120
Speaker 1: down here and talk to me? And she was like,

843
00:45:28,360 --> 00:45:30,279
Speaker 1: I'm not coming to that shop. I said, please get

844
00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:32,360
Speaker 1: up and come down here and just sit with me.

845
00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:39,879
Speaker 1: So we're all outside and we're sitting outside, but I'm

846
00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:42,719
Speaker 1: on leven Street, but on tenth Street. The whole time,

847
00:45:42,840 --> 00:45:47,680
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm saying, a helicopter just hovering, okay, whatever.

848
00:45:48,480 --> 00:45:50,120
Speaker 1: So I go in the back of my shop and

849
00:45:50,200 --> 00:45:52,520
Speaker 1: I get up on the way bench and look out

850
00:45:52,560 --> 00:45:55,319
Speaker 1: the window, and they had like ten police back there

851
00:45:56,800 --> 00:46:00,800
Speaker 1: coming in and get there. Then next thing I know,

852
00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:03,359
Speaker 1: I've seen the helicopter just flying over the shop. It's

853
00:46:03,400 --> 00:46:05,920
Speaker 1: flying so low. My wife came outside and looked up.

854
00:46:05,960 --> 00:46:07,520
Speaker 1: She said, I don't know what the hell going on

855
00:46:07,680 --> 00:46:12,440
Speaker 1: down here, But I said, this is crazy at all.

856
00:46:12,840 --> 00:46:22,160
Speaker 1: And so the Grahama nothing nothing, you don't. Yeah, that

857
00:46:22,560 --> 00:46:26,320
Speaker 1: was I was seriously music and real. That was just

858
00:46:26,640 --> 00:46:30,600
Speaker 1: some people. That was the attention you was bringing because

859
00:46:30,960 --> 00:46:34,160
Speaker 1: the lack of the police doing their jobs because they

860
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:36,239
Speaker 1: wanted to just sweep it under the rug. It's just

861
00:46:36,360 --> 00:46:41,800
Speaker 1: another black fucking killing of gang bullshit or just nigga

862
00:46:41,840 --> 00:46:44,600
Speaker 1: on nigga killing. So because of the attention you was

863
00:46:44,719 --> 00:46:47,120
Speaker 1: bringing it because your daughter was an innocent and she

864
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:49,880
Speaker 1: was a young child. That who was innocent, That who

865
00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:52,880
Speaker 1: was you know, victim? You know some bullshit, and the

866
00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:56,880
Speaker 1: people that was buying sounds. But like I told the police, dude,

867
00:46:56,960 --> 00:47:00,239
Speaker 1: Walmart asked them where the money come from? When they

868
00:47:00,320 --> 00:47:03,920
Speaker 1: come in there, it's been their money. I'm doing a

869
00:47:04,000 --> 00:47:08,480
Speaker 1: service too. So because of the clientele, you can't of course,

870
00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:11,160
Speaker 1: the local drug dealer gonna go to the homie shop

871
00:47:11,280 --> 00:47:13,920
Speaker 1: to get this ship, the local banger or whatever. But

872
00:47:14,040 --> 00:47:16,080
Speaker 1: that ship, just like on the ship of my ship,

873
00:47:16,360 --> 00:47:19,120
Speaker 1: you can't tell me I'm working. I'm not gonna question

874
00:47:19,200 --> 00:47:22,600
Speaker 1: the motherfucker about where his dollar came from. Trying to

875
00:47:22,680 --> 00:47:24,960
Speaker 1: take care of my family. If a nigger got five

876
00:47:25,040 --> 00:47:27,520
Speaker 1: hundred to pay for this speaker box and these two

877
00:47:27,600 --> 00:47:31,200
Speaker 1: speakers in this radio, it's going in When you're dealing

878
00:47:31,239 --> 00:47:34,120
Speaker 1: with crys and stuff like that, people don't know a

879
00:47:34,200 --> 00:47:36,600
Speaker 1: lot of DC is getting some good money. Man, they're

880
00:47:36,600 --> 00:47:39,600
Speaker 1: getting some good bread. So and a lot of them

881
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:43,680
Speaker 1: anna fuck you over from your bread like a motherfucker. Well,

882
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:46,080
Speaker 1: they have to be lying like a motherfucker for him

883
00:47:46,120 --> 00:47:47,920
Speaker 1: to come into your shop and do all of this.

884
00:47:48,400 --> 00:47:53,239
Speaker 1: I've never said I ain't sell nothing, but I think

885
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:56,600
Speaker 1: my little brother though, because one day we're up in

886
00:47:56,680 --> 00:48:00,320
Speaker 1: there and um, they were to tell I had a

887
00:48:01,239 --> 00:48:03,719
Speaker 1: whole lobby full of customers. Me and my wife was

888
00:48:03,800 --> 00:48:07,399
Speaker 1: were sitting in the back. Fids walked in the doors

889
00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:10,279
Speaker 1: and one just like this flash just badge and said

890
00:48:10,360 --> 00:48:12,920
Speaker 1: go to the back and go to the back. Like,

891
00:48:13,080 --> 00:48:15,399
Speaker 1: what did you talking about? To go to the back?

892
00:48:16,120 --> 00:48:20,360
Speaker 1: We go to the back. He's like, well we need this.

893
00:48:20,560 --> 00:48:24,400
Speaker 1: I said, whatever y'all looking for? I don't have. I

894
00:48:24,640 --> 00:48:26,799
Speaker 1: don't know what you're talking about. They try to play

895
00:48:26,840 --> 00:48:28,719
Speaker 1: the good cop bad cop stuff. You know how didn't

896
00:48:28,719 --> 00:48:30,759
Speaker 1: do that. So then the other one say, you know what,

897
00:48:30,840 --> 00:48:33,759
Speaker 1: I'm sick of your ship, dude, fun this Uh, we

898
00:48:33,880 --> 00:48:36,400
Speaker 1: know about your daughter getting killed. Then he got my attention.

899
00:48:37,320 --> 00:48:39,560
Speaker 1: You know about your daughter getting killed, and we know

900
00:48:39,640 --> 00:48:43,200
Speaker 1: about your other sons and your wife out there. We

901
00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:46,680
Speaker 1: got a conspiracy charge on you, and we're gonna give

902
00:48:46,680 --> 00:48:48,759
Speaker 1: you sixteen years. I supposed to be going to two

903
00:48:48,840 --> 00:48:52,840
Speaker 1: thousand nine. I said, what am I conspiring so that

904
00:48:54,080 --> 00:48:56,719
Speaker 1: they could give you sixteen years? But the motherfucker that

905
00:48:56,800 --> 00:48:59,239
Speaker 1: killed your daughters out there gather va and around like

906
00:48:59,320 --> 00:49:01,520
Speaker 1: he's like it ain't ship. Yeah, that's talk about giving

907
00:49:01,600 --> 00:49:04,239
Speaker 1: him some bullshit. They walked in there thought they was

908
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:07,480
Speaker 1: Finn punking. Because if you, if the fans got something moment,

909
00:49:07,560 --> 00:49:10,200
Speaker 1: they're taking your answer to jail, especially once they expose

910
00:49:10,280 --> 00:49:13,319
Speaker 1: theirselves and they're gonna come get you. They ain't gonna

911
00:49:13,320 --> 00:49:16,440
Speaker 1: say we got you on conspiracy, but we're gonna come

912
00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:19,640
Speaker 1: get you later. That don't happen like that. So they

913
00:49:19,760 --> 00:49:22,080
Speaker 1: was trying to him in trying to get something from him.

914
00:49:22,840 --> 00:49:25,560
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Maybe he got scared, shut

915
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:28,560
Speaker 1: the shot down, did whatever the case might be, whatever

916
00:49:29,080 --> 00:49:31,839
Speaker 1: somebody else wanted, just like what's the name We did

917
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:38,759
Speaker 1: the interview with how his marijuana spots. You couldn't go

918
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:42,960
Speaker 1: back too much competition, y'all get rid of Woot the wolf.

919
00:49:43,239 --> 00:49:45,480
Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep lacing y'all with a little paper. That's

920
00:49:45,480 --> 00:49:47,880
Speaker 1: how I work out here. And that's how they'd be

921
00:49:47,960 --> 00:49:51,320
Speaker 1: doing the dumb ship. So with all this ship that

922
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:55,040
Speaker 1: that that he's doing and and rapping and riding about

923
00:49:55,080 --> 00:50:00,279
Speaker 1: his daughter, they're trying to do that. The whole killed

924
00:50:00,280 --> 00:50:02,920
Speaker 1: two birds once, don't think. Yeah, and I'm not no man.

925
00:50:02,960 --> 00:50:05,879
Speaker 1: We gonna take another break, y'all against the Chronics. We'll

926
00:50:05,880 --> 00:50:11,919
Speaker 1: be right back still, James eight, y'all need to better

927
00:50:11,960 --> 00:50:14,000
Speaker 1: give me my fire, donard, I put that on a sht.

928
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:17,239
Speaker 1: I need to go get me some water. Mirror my

929
00:50:17,400 --> 00:50:21,359
Speaker 1: motherfucking feet fucking with me, gangster Chronicles for my ass

930
00:50:21,760 --> 00:50:25,360
Speaker 1: pay granted her money, This gangster granny. Y'all know me?

931
00:50:25,920 --> 00:50:30,080
Speaker 1: Where are you at? And we're back. So you have

932
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:33,920
Speaker 1: this clothing line that you've started, and it's a it's

933
00:50:33,960 --> 00:50:37,360
Speaker 1: a continuation of your daughter's a original vision. Am I correct? No?

934
00:50:37,520 --> 00:50:41,960
Speaker 1: I just I just did it? Just okay, perfect. We

935
00:50:42,120 --> 00:50:43,960
Speaker 1: have some of the clothing line here today and it's

936
00:50:44,000 --> 00:50:47,879
Speaker 1: a team monster dot com. Monster were dot com. Okay, yeah,

937
00:50:47,880 --> 00:50:50,200
Speaker 1: we make sure we got the link in the description. Everybody.

938
00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:52,799
Speaker 1: We got some hashta and he blessed us right there.

939
00:50:52,840 --> 00:50:54,839
Speaker 1: You know, me and James got the hoodies on right now.

940
00:50:55,280 --> 00:50:57,759
Speaker 1: So you guys, make sure y'all go and support my man.

941
00:50:58,000 --> 00:51:00,960
Speaker 1: Uh And I wanted to you about something we've been

942
00:51:01,040 --> 00:51:06,000
Speaker 1: lately talking about just our health is um our health.

943
00:51:06,360 --> 00:51:07,960
Speaker 1: You know, it's a lot of stuff going on to day.

944
00:51:08,000 --> 00:51:09,719
Speaker 1: You know, you got this thing with the COVID man

945
00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:12,839
Speaker 1: and where everybody is shutting doors and indoors. A lot

946
00:51:12,920 --> 00:51:15,480
Speaker 1: of people have lost their jobs, man, and just you know,

947
00:51:16,040 --> 00:51:17,759
Speaker 1: it's kind of hard because it's almost like you know

948
00:51:17,800 --> 00:51:20,320
Speaker 1: where you're stuck inside for the longest, and then you

949
00:51:20,440 --> 00:51:23,239
Speaker 1: got situations like this, man, how did you deal with

950
00:51:23,320 --> 00:51:25,520
Speaker 1: all the stress mentally? Man? Like, how do you deal

951
00:51:25,600 --> 00:51:29,680
Speaker 1: with how do you maintain? And drove me crazy? My

952
00:51:29,800 --> 00:51:32,480
Speaker 1: wife had to give me a psychiatrists for a little bit. Bet.

953
00:51:33,160 --> 00:51:36,040
Speaker 1: I wasn't trying to listen to her because I felt

954
00:51:36,200 --> 00:51:39,640
Speaker 1: she didn't lose a kid, so she can't tell me nothing. Yeah,

955
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:41,920
Speaker 1: so so you didn't think the therapy help. No, I

956
00:51:42,080 --> 00:51:45,080
Speaker 1: was driving her crazy. I draw the psychiatrist show you crazy.

957
00:51:45,200 --> 00:51:49,200
Speaker 1: She told my wife to divorce me. You need to

958
00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:53,359
Speaker 1: divorce him because he didn't exact words was he didn't

959
00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:55,960
Speaker 1: jumped off the boat and drowned. And I need you

960
00:51:56,040 --> 00:51:58,360
Speaker 1: to stay in this boat with me. But you know,

961
00:51:58,520 --> 00:52:03,239
Speaker 1: my wife, she she still about me. Like in it

962
00:52:03,440 --> 00:52:05,359
Speaker 1: was an episode ninety three when you said they can't

963
00:52:05,400 --> 00:52:07,920
Speaker 1: tell me nothing, Big Jay. I didn't feel she can

964
00:52:07,960 --> 00:52:10,120
Speaker 1: tell me nothing, but my wife said maybe because I

965
00:52:10,200 --> 00:52:13,200
Speaker 1: didn't want it to help. Yeah, therapy is only effective

966
00:52:13,280 --> 00:52:17,279
Speaker 1: when you want to go the whole time. But I

967
00:52:17,400 --> 00:52:20,680
Speaker 1: did go back to her like one side started fighting

968
00:52:20,680 --> 00:52:23,880
Speaker 1: and stuff healthy as I am man like. I think

969
00:52:23,920 --> 00:52:26,960
Speaker 1: it was a week later, I'm steady going crazy, going

970
00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:28,759
Speaker 1: off from my white man left and went to the

971
00:52:28,920 --> 00:52:33,520
Speaker 1: store and she come back home and I'm outside waiting

972
00:52:33,560 --> 00:52:35,719
Speaker 1: on it with my arms down. She's like, what's wrong

973
00:52:35,760 --> 00:52:37,520
Speaker 1: with you? I said, I think I'm having a heart attack.

974
00:52:37,680 --> 00:52:41,880
Speaker 1: You like just looked at me. I said, I'm not

975
00:52:41,960 --> 00:52:44,480
Speaker 1: gonna argue with you. Just take me to the hospital. Ship.

976
00:52:44,640 --> 00:52:46,440
Speaker 1: She took me to the hospital. Show enough I had

977
00:52:46,440 --> 00:52:49,719
Speaker 1: a heart attack. The heart attack. We have to take

978
00:52:49,800 --> 00:52:54,720
Speaker 1: care of ourselves out there because we've lost so many people.

979
00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:58,360
Speaker 1: The heart attacks and stress will kill you know it

980
00:52:58,560 --> 00:53:00,880
Speaker 1: almost did you know stress will take you off the planet.

981
00:53:01,080 --> 00:53:03,880
Speaker 1: Frist will take you off the planet. And I know

982
00:53:04,040 --> 00:53:06,080
Speaker 1: you mentioned that you had a friend of actually came

983
00:53:06,120 --> 00:53:07,960
Speaker 1: in and told you to like to kind of pull

984
00:53:08,040 --> 00:53:09,759
Speaker 1: together because you had gained a bunch of weight and

985
00:53:09,840 --> 00:53:14,600
Speaker 1: everything like that. Yeah. His name scant like Yeah, came

986
00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:16,600
Speaker 1: to the house. Yeah. It called me as like Frost.

987
00:53:16,640 --> 00:53:18,000
Speaker 1: So I was like, what up, bro? He was like,

988
00:53:19,960 --> 00:53:21,960
Speaker 1: I need a radio and stuff hooked up, some silence

989
00:53:22,000 --> 00:53:23,719
Speaker 1: hooked up. I said, all right, coming on to the shop.

990
00:53:23,800 --> 00:53:26,480
Speaker 1: So I come out the house and he looked at me,

991
00:53:26,600 --> 00:53:29,040
Speaker 1: and he's like, because I had stayed in the house

992
00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:31,759
Speaker 1: in my bedroom, like I was a prisoner in my

993
00:53:31,840 --> 00:53:34,640
Speaker 1: own home. I stayed in the house for like two

994
00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:37,399
Speaker 1: years in my bedroom, I wouldn't come out. The only

995
00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:39,640
Speaker 1: thing I would do is just eat, take a shower,

996
00:53:39,680 --> 00:53:41,400
Speaker 1: and go back to bed because I didn't want to

997
00:53:41,440 --> 00:53:43,959
Speaker 1: deal with it no more. And he looked at me, said,

998
00:53:44,040 --> 00:53:45,719
Speaker 1: I don't even want no word from you. You was

999
00:53:45,760 --> 00:53:48,000
Speaker 1: out online, he said. And if ain't got nobody gonna

1000
00:53:48,040 --> 00:53:51,000
Speaker 1: tell you about yourself, I'm gonna tell you about your

1001
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:53,440
Speaker 1: damn self. He said, Bro, you need to get your

1002
00:53:53,440 --> 00:53:57,000
Speaker 1: ship together. I know you, Miss Keisha, but you look terrible.

1003
00:53:57,320 --> 00:54:02,680
Speaker 1: I had a game. I went from one one ninety

1004
00:54:02,719 --> 00:54:05,560
Speaker 1: two to eighty almost three hundred problems up in there

1005
00:54:06,040 --> 00:54:07,800
Speaker 1: and then he see me like six months later and

1006
00:54:07,880 --> 00:54:10,279
Speaker 1: he's like, that's the frost so I'm talking about And

1007
00:54:10,360 --> 00:54:12,600
Speaker 1: then I was like, thanks, bro, I said, man, you

1008
00:54:12,760 --> 00:54:19,040
Speaker 1: hurt my feelings. Family said somebody needed to be a friend. Yeah,

1009
00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:23,520
Speaker 1: and just to have that one friend come and chell

1010
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:27,280
Speaker 1: you that what's his name? Scan? You're a good many

1011
00:54:27,480 --> 00:54:30,000
Speaker 1: shut up there. You're a real friend because a friend

1012
00:54:30,040 --> 00:54:32,560
Speaker 1: will tell you when you out of pocket. A real

1013
00:54:32,640 --> 00:54:34,160
Speaker 1: friends will tell you when you at the pocket. And

1014
00:54:34,280 --> 00:54:37,120
Speaker 1: so he helped pretty much gets you back up on

1015
00:54:37,200 --> 00:54:39,040
Speaker 1: your feet and everything gets you back and thing, it's

1016
00:54:39,040 --> 00:54:40,680
Speaker 1: pretty much. It sounds like you have lost your wheel

1017
00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:43,279
Speaker 1: to live. Yeah, I didn't care. I got up and

1018
00:54:44,719 --> 00:54:47,200
Speaker 1: took all the pictures off the wall of Keisha and

1019
00:54:47,280 --> 00:54:48,839
Speaker 1: my dad. I didn't want to see it. No more

1020
00:54:49,000 --> 00:54:54,680
Speaker 1: like they're not gonna help you. So I just gave up. Man,

1021
00:54:55,080 --> 00:54:57,759
Speaker 1: I've seen those texts on my phone. That's what made

1022
00:54:57,760 --> 00:55:00,439
Speaker 1: me snap off. Well man, you know, and I wanted

1023
00:55:00,440 --> 00:55:02,480
Speaker 1: to get you want to show every since James that

1024
00:55:02,600 --> 00:55:04,799
Speaker 1: showed me your story and everything. And I said, man,

1025
00:55:04,880 --> 00:55:07,520
Speaker 1: it's important that we get this brother on here because

1026
00:55:07,600 --> 00:55:09,839
Speaker 1: you you would be surprised man, on how many it's

1027
00:55:09,920 --> 00:55:12,200
Speaker 1: somebody out there right now that's going through the same

1028
00:55:12,280 --> 00:55:14,160
Speaker 1: thing that you went through that you are going through.

1029
00:55:14,520 --> 00:55:16,120
Speaker 1: What would you have to say to them right now?

1030
00:55:17,520 --> 00:55:19,440
Speaker 1: I just told him, well, I got the text from

1031
00:55:19,480 --> 00:55:21,800
Speaker 1: other people when I've seen that. I had got text

1032
00:55:21,880 --> 00:55:27,759
Speaker 1: from Dubai like Spain, and these people had text me

1033
00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:30,080
Speaker 1: from I think it was like New York or something

1034
00:55:30,120 --> 00:55:33,120
Speaker 1: that's like, we see what you're doing. Could you help us?

1035
00:55:34,040 --> 00:55:36,560
Speaker 1: I said, help y'all do what? There was like fight

1036
00:55:36,640 --> 00:55:38,600
Speaker 1: fer I think it was his sister or something that

1037
00:55:38,680 --> 00:55:40,640
Speaker 1: he was going through the same thing. I said, Hey, listen,

1038
00:55:41,320 --> 00:55:44,520
Speaker 1: what y'all have to do is don't let the police

1039
00:55:44,520 --> 00:55:47,320
Speaker 1: scare y'all. I said, once you take one step forward

1040
00:55:47,400 --> 00:55:50,000
Speaker 1: towards them, if they try to push you back, one

1041
00:55:50,480 --> 00:55:53,239
Speaker 1: you go to most steps forward, don't tell and don't

1042
00:55:53,280 --> 00:55:55,520
Speaker 1: take the word no. I told him, I'm allergic to

1043
00:55:55,560 --> 00:56:01,680
Speaker 1: the word no. That's a lot of people don't possess

1044
00:56:01,760 --> 00:56:06,920
Speaker 1: that power to to piper what what they believe is right.

1045
00:56:07,400 --> 00:56:10,719
Speaker 1: A lot of it is just pretty much give up

1046
00:56:10,800 --> 00:56:14,800
Speaker 1: and really think that there's no help, you know, and

1047
00:56:15,360 --> 00:56:20,040
Speaker 1: people reaching out to you because they saw it in you.

1048
00:56:20,719 --> 00:56:24,839
Speaker 1: Everybody don't possess that and all the people, and maybe

1049
00:56:24,880 --> 00:56:27,160
Speaker 1: that's what your daughter wants you to do. You know,

1050
00:56:27,600 --> 00:56:31,000
Speaker 1: help other people. You know what I'm saying, do them,

1051
00:56:31,160 --> 00:56:33,760
Speaker 1: Help them just like you did me. You got justice

1052
00:56:33,840 --> 00:56:36,960
Speaker 1: for me, get justice for them, help them. Got them

1053
00:56:37,040 --> 00:56:40,000
Speaker 1: in the right way. And I think that's so positive

1054
00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:44,360
Speaker 1: that you're doing that. I truly believe we all got

1055
00:56:44,480 --> 00:56:47,920
Speaker 1: a purpose. That's why I started that foundation and the name. Also,

1056
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:52,320
Speaker 1: besides the closing line, and the more I talk about

1057
00:56:52,440 --> 00:56:55,640
Speaker 1: this and get it out, I can finish her book

1058
00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:59,680
Speaker 1: because right now I'm stuck on the chapters of her

1059
00:56:59,760 --> 00:57:03,960
Speaker 1: birth day, the wake, in the funeral. But by me

1060
00:57:04,080 --> 00:57:06,600
Speaker 1: keep talking and keep talking, I can go and finish

1061
00:57:06,680 --> 00:57:10,359
Speaker 1: those chapters and everything else beside after that, I could

1062
00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:12,840
Speaker 1: write about the depression and the fighting everything. It just

1063
00:57:13,000 --> 00:57:16,160
Speaker 1: throws three chapters that I'm stuck on. Once I finished that,

1064
00:57:16,320 --> 00:57:18,680
Speaker 1: the book will be finished. So so this is something

1065
00:57:18,720 --> 00:57:20,520
Speaker 1: I want to ask you because you're a friend of mine. Now,

1066
00:57:21,520 --> 00:57:24,280
Speaker 1: are you still um? Because I know you gonna deal

1067
00:57:24,360 --> 00:57:28,000
Speaker 1: with this anguish. Like I said, this is for everything, man,

1068
00:57:28,040 --> 00:57:30,840
Speaker 1: It's not something that you would forget. Are you still

1069
00:57:30,960 --> 00:57:33,280
Speaker 1: making sure and everything that your mental and stuff is

1070
00:57:34,040 --> 00:57:37,040
Speaker 1: in pocket? Yeah? Yeah, I have slip ups though I'm

1071
00:57:37,080 --> 00:57:40,400
Speaker 1: not gonna even lie to you. But if my friend,

1072
00:57:41,920 --> 00:57:44,920
Speaker 1: like some of my friends that's on uh team Monston

1073
00:57:44,960 --> 00:57:47,439
Speaker 1: because I got a cardio club two up under her name.

1074
00:57:47,840 --> 00:57:49,440
Speaker 1: If they don't talk to me for like three or

1075
00:57:49,440 --> 00:57:51,120
Speaker 1: four days and they know I ain't on that, send

1076
00:57:51,160 --> 00:57:54,080
Speaker 1: my truck and they know I'm home, they gonna tell

1077
00:57:54,160 --> 00:57:56,680
Speaker 1: his phone up or they come into the house knocking

1078
00:57:56,680 --> 00:57:58,600
Speaker 1: on the door. Come on, get up, because we know

1079
00:57:58,680 --> 00:58:01,760
Speaker 1: what's going on because they don't been times. Man where

1080
00:58:02,520 --> 00:58:04,160
Speaker 1: if I don't hear from Shane, because I talked to

1081
00:58:04,240 --> 00:58:06,400
Speaker 1: this man every day. He's like you remember my family now,

1082
00:58:06,480 --> 00:58:07,880
Speaker 1: you know. If I don't talk to him, you know,

1083
00:58:08,040 --> 00:58:10,080
Speaker 1: the day one thing, but if it goes two days,

1084
00:58:10,600 --> 00:58:12,640
Speaker 1: I'm tearing is lying up, Like bro, what you're doing?

1085
00:58:12,760 --> 00:58:14,520
Speaker 1: You're good? I need to come out there because I

1086
00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:17,640
Speaker 1: know last time he has stuff going on, and me

1087
00:58:17,760 --> 00:58:19,400
Speaker 1: and one of the homies was on his way out there.

1088
00:58:19,480 --> 00:58:21,200
Speaker 1: We was on our way out to where he stilling.

1089
00:58:21,240 --> 00:58:22,840
Speaker 1: He had to see you know, if he was good.

1090
00:58:22,880 --> 00:58:24,560
Speaker 1: But you know what I mean, So so we do.

1091
00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:26,360
Speaker 1: We have to check on our friends and everything. And

1092
00:58:26,480 --> 00:58:30,160
Speaker 1: it's my message for the people out there. Don't just

1093
00:58:30,280 --> 00:58:32,400
Speaker 1: ignore your friend. If somebody is your friend and you

1094
00:58:32,520 --> 00:58:34,880
Speaker 1: love them, check on them, make sure they are right.

1095
00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:36,760
Speaker 1: Talk to him because I'm gonna tell you what. Our

1096
00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:39,440
Speaker 1: most powerful thing is on our as human beings. The

1097
00:58:39,520 --> 00:58:42,560
Speaker 1: most powerful too, in our body is our mouth, our

1098
00:58:42,600 --> 00:58:46,600
Speaker 1: ability to communicate. So we have to um communicate with

1099
00:58:46,680 --> 00:58:48,840
Speaker 1: our loved ones, man, and our friends when they're going

1100
00:58:48,880 --> 00:58:50,760
Speaker 1: through stuff. Man, because you don't know. You know, the

1101
00:58:50,920 --> 00:58:54,680
Speaker 1: suicide rate amongst black males is up right now. Are

1102
00:58:54,760 --> 00:58:58,560
Speaker 1: incarceration that rates have been stunned, you know, climbing steadily

1103
00:58:58,640 --> 00:59:00,800
Speaker 1: since then. You know, we have a lot of issues

1104
00:59:00,840 --> 00:59:03,720
Speaker 1: going on right now. Man. You know, life is hard, man,

1105
00:59:03,840 --> 00:59:05,880
Speaker 1: Life is hard. You shouldn't ever had to deal with it. Alan,

1106
00:59:07,520 --> 00:59:09,520
Speaker 1: she would have to do with a loan. Man. How

1107
00:59:09,560 --> 00:59:12,880
Speaker 1: how can people contact you? Bro? Are you gonna contact

1108
00:59:12,960 --> 00:59:16,360
Speaker 1: me on my Facebook page at Calval and Hawkins. You

1109
00:59:16,560 --> 00:59:19,000
Speaker 1: see me up there? Well, you see my daughter and

1110
00:59:19,080 --> 00:59:23,520
Speaker 1: then the banner of her foundation and we just got

1111
00:59:23,600 --> 00:59:27,800
Speaker 1: our foundation email up and it is let me double

1112
00:59:27,880 --> 00:59:31,320
Speaker 1: checking because my wife just did it. It's in in

1113
00:59:31,840 --> 00:59:36,120
Speaker 1: m H H F I N C at gmail dot

1114
00:59:36,200 --> 00:59:40,760
Speaker 1: com and their foundation we got a foundation page up.

1115
00:59:40,800 --> 00:59:43,120
Speaker 1: My wife just wanted me to look over it and

1116
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:46,440
Speaker 1: then I'm gonna launch it on Facebook. And it's Nickesha

1117
00:59:46,560 --> 00:59:50,840
Speaker 1: Nicole Monster Hodges Hawkins Foundation, and it's the banner. And

1118
00:59:50,920 --> 00:59:53,680
Speaker 1: they had me and her up there, her face and

1119
00:59:53,760 --> 00:59:56,000
Speaker 1: then my wife and my daughter. This is all on

1120
00:59:56,080 --> 00:59:59,960
Speaker 1: the same banner. Yeah, man, please let us man, please

1121
01:00:00,000 --> 01:00:02,320
Speaker 1: to go out and support this brother. Hit him up.

1122
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:04,160
Speaker 1: If you have any questions, don't hit them with the

1123
01:00:04,200 --> 01:00:07,000
Speaker 1: bullshit is We will come and let your ass, but

1124
01:00:07,200 --> 01:00:10,640
Speaker 1: appreciate you know. One thing I wanted to get out there, man,

1125
01:00:10,800 --> 01:00:13,600
Speaker 1: it's very important that our young people not to come

1126
01:00:13,640 --> 01:00:15,600
Speaker 1: up here sound like an old preaching asks man, because

1127
01:00:15,600 --> 01:00:19,760
Speaker 1: I'm far from it. It's very important that you kids

1128
01:00:19,840 --> 01:00:22,840
Speaker 1: listen to your parents when they tell ya something, because

1129
01:00:22,880 --> 01:00:26,479
Speaker 1: sometimes as parents were worried about everything, I'm always worried

1130
01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:29,479
Speaker 1: about my kids. Um, I know you always worried about yours, James,

1131
01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:31,280
Speaker 1: you know, but we can't be with your twin for

1132
01:00:31,400 --> 01:00:34,120
Speaker 1: seven So when we do tell y'all something, take notes

1133
01:00:34,160 --> 01:00:36,160
Speaker 1: to it, man, because you don't get a chance all

1134
01:00:36,160 --> 01:00:39,160
Speaker 1: the time to learn that that mistake, doesn't get the

1135
01:00:39,200 --> 01:00:43,640
Speaker 1: opportunity to decresh to a lesson for everybody. Right, I'm

1136
01:00:43,960 --> 01:00:47,960
Speaker 1: gonna say this, and I think it's really important. And

1137
01:00:48,600 --> 01:00:51,560
Speaker 1: I can say this because I lived that life. I

1138
01:00:51,720 --> 01:00:55,600
Speaker 1: lived the life behind the gun, and I can hologly shave.

1139
01:00:56,000 --> 01:00:58,440
Speaker 1: I never thought about checking the kids life when I

1140
01:00:58,520 --> 01:01:02,439
Speaker 1: went out there and did my thing, And thank god

1141
01:01:02,520 --> 01:01:05,360
Speaker 1: I don't live that life no more. But the catch

1142
01:01:05,520 --> 01:01:08,520
Speaker 1: is out there with the pistols and doing aything. Think

1143
01:01:08,560 --> 01:01:11,520
Speaker 1: about who you might hit opposed to who you want

1144
01:01:11,560 --> 01:01:15,200
Speaker 1: to hit when you're shooting that pistol. And and this

1145
01:01:15,440 --> 01:01:18,280
Speaker 1: is the effect you get all the time, this man

1146
01:01:18,440 --> 01:01:22,200
Speaker 1: right here, you know what I'm saying. And nobody want

1147
01:01:22,240 --> 01:01:25,600
Speaker 1: to cause nobody that much pain and grief, man, And

1148
01:01:26,120 --> 01:01:27,760
Speaker 1: it's not worth it at the end of the day.

1149
01:01:28,200 --> 01:01:30,720
Speaker 1: So I say that every motherfucker that lived the life

1150
01:01:30,800 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 1: I live, sit down, put the pistol up, get out

1151
01:01:35,480 --> 01:01:36,760
Speaker 1: there and do it like we used to do it,

1152
01:01:36,800 --> 01:01:39,520
Speaker 1: and they can knuckle up and and be a man

1153
01:01:39,600 --> 01:01:43,200
Speaker 1: about it. That's that's that's what I say, And and

1154
01:01:44,120 --> 01:01:49,080
Speaker 1: I can honestly say, I apologize because you have stupid

1155
01:01:49,120 --> 01:01:52,920
Speaker 1: people out there, and I include myself with it, because

1156
01:01:53,400 --> 01:01:56,680
Speaker 1: we do things thinking that we're doing the right ship.

1157
01:01:57,200 --> 01:02:00,480
Speaker 1: When we game banking and and and we heard innocent

1158
01:02:00,600 --> 01:02:05,360
Speaker 1: people and it's a whole lot of cash out there.

1159
01:02:05,440 --> 01:02:09,120
Speaker 1: Like myself, I'm far from a hypocrite. I came down

1160
01:02:09,320 --> 01:02:11,840
Speaker 1: now cat to pick up a pistol and hit a

1161
01:02:11,920 --> 01:02:15,240
Speaker 1: block because that's the life I used to live. But

1162
01:02:15,440 --> 01:02:19,520
Speaker 1: I can't say it's enough, is enough, and for you

1163
01:02:19,720 --> 01:02:22,320
Speaker 1: and all the other people. I'm getting cheery out of

1164
01:02:22,600 --> 01:02:26,680
Speaker 1: saying this. You know, it's that ship is our fault.

1165
01:02:27,600 --> 01:02:30,920
Speaker 1: It ain't Mama faught, it ain't Daddy fought. It ain't

1166
01:02:31,120 --> 01:02:34,280
Speaker 1: because the kids didn't listen. This is the consequences of

1167
01:02:34,440 --> 01:02:42,160
Speaker 1: not listening. It's stupid. Motherfucker's that that thinks stupid. They

1168
01:02:42,240 --> 01:02:45,840
Speaker 1: can do it, man, Let's take care of each other. Man.

1169
01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:51,600
Speaker 1: This is a very emotional episode, and I'm jumping into

1170
01:02:51,640 --> 01:02:56,280
Speaker 1: something right now. Just all our fans out there, thank you.

1171
01:02:56,400 --> 01:02:59,200
Speaker 1: On We're coming up on a hundredth episode. We will

1172
01:02:59,240 --> 01:03:01,040
Speaker 1: have a celebration. This is for you, guys. We're not

1173
01:03:01,200 --> 01:03:02,920
Speaker 1: charged no money for it. We want you to come

1174
01:03:02,920 --> 01:03:04,800
Speaker 1: out and hang out with us. We will have Mac

1175
01:03:04,880 --> 01:03:07,960
Speaker 1: teen in the house, Glass Malone, young mother for some

1176
01:03:08,040 --> 01:03:10,000
Speaker 1: other surprisors. I don't want to say too many people's

1177
01:03:10,080 --> 01:03:11,520
Speaker 1: name because you know how to deal. Some people don't

1178
01:03:11,520 --> 01:03:13,720
Speaker 1: show up the stuff. But it's gonna be a big,

1179
01:03:13,840 --> 01:03:17,040
Speaker 1: big event. Um, that's gonna be Sunday, Marks twenty one

1180
01:03:17,280 --> 01:03:19,600
Speaker 1: at three o'clock. It's gonna be the secret location. All

1181
01:03:19,800 --> 01:03:22,720
Speaker 1: were asking is that you hit us up in rs

1182
01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:26,760
Speaker 1: VP by Mark Tin info at Digital soapbox Media dot com.

1183
01:03:26,920 --> 01:03:30,360
Speaker 1: That's info at Digital soapbox Media dot com. We asked

1184
01:03:30,400 --> 01:03:32,720
Speaker 1: the mascot mandatory, so you can't come up here without

1185
01:03:32,800 --> 01:03:35,120
Speaker 1: no mask on, no ship like that. We're trying to

1186
01:03:35,240 --> 01:03:37,360
Speaker 1: keep each other safe, man, and this could we will

1187
01:03:37,400 --> 01:03:39,440
Speaker 1: have a good time. Man. Hopefully Calvin be back out

1188
01:03:39,960 --> 01:03:41,960
Speaker 1: out here. I get another load to come out here

1189
01:03:42,000 --> 01:03:46,040
Speaker 1: and kick on with y'all your family now the show man, Yes, yes, yes, indeed, man,

1190
01:03:46,120 --> 01:03:48,840
Speaker 1: and um, well, I'm gonna have mash Michelle. I'm gonna

1191
01:03:48,840 --> 01:03:53,320
Speaker 1: go get that thirty. I'm charging five dollars of mash. Yeah.

1192
01:03:53,360 --> 01:03:55,080
Speaker 1: So if y'all don't want to pay James that five

1193
01:03:55,120 --> 01:03:59,120
Speaker 1: dollars a man, make a team that make sure. Yeah,

1194
01:03:59,480 --> 01:04:01,560
Speaker 1: bring bring your own ship, man. And you know what

1195
01:04:01,880 --> 01:04:05,800
Speaker 1: this is, Um, this is the most emotional episode where

1196
01:04:05,800 --> 01:04:09,280
Speaker 1: you've done. I don't see you know, James, she tears.

1197
01:04:09,320 --> 01:04:13,040
Speaker 1: Don't shared tears, man and eight don't share it tears

1198
01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:17,280
Speaker 1: up here on all our children are most valuable resource.

1199
01:04:17,320 --> 01:04:19,000
Speaker 1: So let's take care of um. To those guys out

1200
01:04:19,040 --> 01:04:22,320
Speaker 1: there with the gun, if you go, do what you do,

1201
01:04:22,440 --> 01:04:26,360
Speaker 1: be a closer personal with it, make it to where

1202
01:04:26,400 --> 01:04:28,600
Speaker 1: you can't hit nobody else. And you know, actually put

1203
01:04:28,680 --> 01:04:32,080
Speaker 1: that motherfucker down and go fight, Go fight. You know

1204
01:04:32,120 --> 01:04:34,040
Speaker 1: what I mean, because because a lot of times you know,

1205
01:04:34,320 --> 01:04:37,000
Speaker 1: and I see it man. You know, Um, the Goodie

1206
01:04:37,120 --> 01:04:39,680
Speaker 1: Mom had a saying with somebody asking what they name meant,

1207
01:04:39,720 --> 01:04:42,320
Speaker 1: and they said, the good die Young mostly over bullshit,

1208
01:04:42,560 --> 01:04:45,120
Speaker 1: and that's exactly what it is. Last And we're gonna

1209
01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:48,920
Speaker 1: get up body and we holic y'all next week. Reggie.

1210
01:04:49,560 --> 01:04:52,880
Speaker 1: This update on Reggie. Reggie is up and talking and

1211
01:04:53,640 --> 01:04:56,640
Speaker 1: he's getting better. So everybody out there that's worried about

1212
01:04:56,720 --> 01:05:02,480
Speaker 1: Reg Reg is better. Um, we already know he's getting

1213
01:05:02,520 --> 01:05:07,360
Speaker 1: better because he's talking. Ship. So that's a good thing. Man. Um,

1214
01:05:08,000 --> 01:05:11,479
Speaker 1: I'm glad you're doing better. And that Kovid ship ain't

1215
01:05:11,480 --> 01:05:15,240
Speaker 1: no bullshit, some real ship, yeah it is. And um,

1216
01:05:16,720 --> 01:05:19,280
Speaker 1: prayers and everything like that work. Keep praying for the

1217
01:05:19,360 --> 01:05:21,600
Speaker 1: brother because you know he's still gotta. You know he's

1218
01:05:21,640 --> 01:05:23,960
Speaker 1: doing better. He up and talking right now, but keep

1219
01:05:24,040 --> 01:05:27,280
Speaker 1: him stealing your prayers and everything because he gotta. Um. So,

1220
01:05:27,720 --> 01:05:32,440
Speaker 1: he's getting better, he's getting better. Better, But we're out

1221
01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:37,120
Speaker 1: there for real this time. We halic you'all next week. Well,

1222
01:05:37,160 --> 01:05:40,680
Speaker 1: that concludes another episode of the gainst Chronicles podcast. Be

1223
01:05:40,840 --> 01:05:43,120
Speaker 1: sure to download the I Heart Happen. Subscribe to the

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Speaker 1: Gangster Chronicles podcast for Apple users. Find that Purple Michael

1225
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Speaker 1: the front screening your phone. Subscribe to the show, leave

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Speaker 1: for comment and a rating. Executive producers for The Gangster

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Speaker 1: Chronicles of Norm Steele, James McDonald and Aaron M c taylor.

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Speaker 1: Our visual media directors Brian Watt shows all the will

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Speaker 1: editor this tailor haes the Gangster Chronicles. Here's the production

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Speaker 1: of the Black Effect Podcast Network and I Heart Media.

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01:06:06,120 --> 01:06:08,840
Speaker 1: Any questions the comments hit us up The Gangster Chronicles

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Speaker 1: podcasts at gmail dot com. Peace be safe out there.