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Speaker 1: Wait that ass up in the morning Breakfast Club. Morning,

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Speaker 1: Everybody's DJ Envy Angela Yee, Charlemagne the guy. We are

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Speaker 1: to Breakfast Club. We got a special guest in the building,

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Speaker 1: the good brother Kevin Gates. Welcome brother. Thank you for

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Speaker 1: having me. Man. You look good, Man than you like.

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Speaker 1: You're looking shape, healthy, You got the God's going around you. Man,

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Speaker 1: you look good. Also, thank you, brother. Let me see

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Speaker 1: you in the long time. Man, let's not time. Keen

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Speaker 1: up here this ship five year everything bit. Brother, How

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Speaker 1: are you feeling? How are you You want me to

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Speaker 1: be honest? Absolutely, It's been an amazing journey. You've been difficult,

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Speaker 1: but I feel amazing. Wow. What made you want to

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Speaker 1: get into your fitness journey? Man? It go with the

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Speaker 1: spiritual mind, body soul connection. And then I come from

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Speaker 1: a place of doing a lot of drugs and not

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Speaker 1: being self accountable and not holding myself accountable for things

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Speaker 1: and pass traumatic experiences that I went through. I was

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Speaker 1: really operating out of fear not to just go down that.

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Speaker 1: But the first time I ever spoke about this was

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Speaker 1: in on with the Mike Tyson interview. I was talking

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Speaker 1: about like I'm a great father, I'm not a big stepper.

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Speaker 1: Like the violence that I exhibited was because I was

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Speaker 1: molested when I was young. So that's what made me

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Speaker 1: just operate out of fear. I had that fear being vulnerable.

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Speaker 1: You know. I took out all these different styles of

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Speaker 1: martial lords, you know, weapon reality, these things, but I

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Speaker 1: was operating out of a place of feel because even

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Speaker 1: though I'm I'm tough, you still got that feel being vulnerable.

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Speaker 1: And it's just it's something that a lot of men

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Speaker 1: don't speak on. But I had read this book by

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Speaker 1: I think his name, mister Jason Wilson. Yeah, hell yeah, yeah,

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Speaker 1: that's my homie I loved and I was and he

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Speaker 1: was like me and I'm supposed to be. Nurtural was

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Speaker 1: also we great protect as great fathers, but nurtural was

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Speaker 1: also and it was like, yeah, it's like society wants

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Speaker 1: you to just be tough and don't never you know,

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Speaker 1: but I was like I cried too three times a

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Speaker 1: day sometime working out, doing yoga and things that because

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Speaker 1: you have to release or you an implode. And then

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Speaker 1: I'm real conscious of like my words, like what I

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Speaker 1: say to people, I make sure even if I'm hurting

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Speaker 1: a place I love, because I just I've been hurt,

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Speaker 1: so now I operated out of place. I don't like

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Speaker 1: to see people hurt, you know, because there's always a

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Speaker 1: bad story. That's like when I watched the movie A Joker,

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Speaker 1: I was like this, said, yeah, because you see how

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Speaker 1: somebody ends up. We project, we project pain on the people,

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Speaker 1: we project our own pain on the other people. I

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Speaker 1: was gonna ask, what's that book got you to open up?

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Speaker 1: What did you see? You want me to be honest,

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Speaker 1: absolutely honest. I don't think you know any other way

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Speaker 1: don't want to trigger nobody. Ll know. Um, when I

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Speaker 1: was seventeen, I believe I had shot myself in the head.

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Speaker 1: And then twenty twenty, I believe I was gonna push

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Speaker 1: my shit out again. Yeah, so you said that on

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Speaker 1: big fact. I got off Instagram. I did all of that.

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Speaker 1: I was by myself and just through the course of events, like,

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Speaker 1: I don't want to talk about it to trigger nobody,

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Speaker 1: but absolutely I was gonna kill myself. I wasn't happy,

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Speaker 1: and I don't do all that. Hey, I'm about to

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Speaker 1: it in silence because all that talking, this horse plan,

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Speaker 1: if you're gonna do it, hey, let's get it done.

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Speaker 1: It's all about to boat myself to the flow. What

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Speaker 1: got you out of it? What made you stop? Once

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Speaker 1: I got off Instagram, I was making a lot of

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Speaker 1: comparisons because I put in so much work to be

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Speaker 1: an amazing orders but you never celebrated properly, you know,

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Speaker 1: especially when you're a man and I'm not no alpha

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Speaker 1: mea advocate or No, I ain't with all that dumbas ship.

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Speaker 1: I believe it takes balance, you know, like I ain't

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Speaker 1: with that woman gonna do what I This ain't no

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Speaker 1: toxic masculinity feminine. You're talking about the hold of divine,

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Speaker 1: making comparisons because comparisons is to kill all joy. People

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Speaker 1: show the Highlight Room. DJ n't be pulling up in Ferrari's,

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Speaker 1: that's highlight real. And that ship caused depression. So I

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Speaker 1: and I just started living. And I saw that, man,

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Speaker 1: the streets loved me. Everywhere I go people love me.

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Speaker 1: People love me for real, like New York or Hard City.

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Speaker 1: To be your orders and get love in everywhere I go. Here,

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Speaker 1: these people loved me in the streets. These people loved

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Speaker 1: me everywhere I go. Though. Everywhere I go, everybody loved me.

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Speaker 1: And I had to realize, hold on, man, I got

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Speaker 1: to reaffirm some things with myself. I had to get

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Speaker 1: out my own way. Man, I want you. I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: recommend this book. Hey, I got a question if I

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Speaker 1: was to bring the copy of your book up here

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Speaker 1: with you. Sign this is you need to read. Ego

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Speaker 1: is the enemy. I carry it with me, trust me,

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Speaker 1: I know, but I love how I love to talk

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Speaker 1: about it though, And the reason you know it might

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Speaker 1: be triggering the something or for someone helps. So like

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Speaker 1: I did, I was say with you, I was away

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Speaker 1: from shooting myself too, and it's because I didn't think

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Speaker 1: I was worthy. That's right, feel as good as what

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Speaker 1: we could do for somebody. But what help was when

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Speaker 1: I spoke about it, and so many other people were

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Speaker 1: I'm in the gym, man, thank you for being so transparent, Like,

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Speaker 1: you're doing this out of frustration or whatever you're doing

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Speaker 1: that out of. So I changed the way that I

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Speaker 1: to make myself feel good. I go to put positive

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Speaker 1: Before I move because anybody, I'm just big on that.

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Speaker 1: I don't even entertain miss no negativity because there's still consumption. Absolutely,

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Speaker 1: So what's the process now? Before you write? When you

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Speaker 1: do your music, I go jogging for like twenty minutes

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Speaker 1: I craved that feeling and feeling good, Like, how do

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Speaker 1: doing it. Like just before I came in here, I say,

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Speaker 1: make me feel better. That's real. I only eat one

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Speaker 1: Everything come out. Now, I'm ready. I'm ready for work.

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Speaker 1: You know. I wanted to ask you, man, because you

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Speaker 1: know a lot of I go to therapy once a week.

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Speaker 1: I'm doing it for like six years. But therapy is

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Speaker 1: not everybody's form of healing. So what else do you

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Speaker 1: I had to get by myself okay. And one one

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Speaker 1: of the biggest things I do. I keep self inventory.

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Speaker 1: He say, you're releasing everything that's not that's no longer

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Speaker 1: focusing on your breath, You're focusing on yourself. This person

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Speaker 1: guess what, everybody is on their own individual journey. So

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Speaker 1: It's a good time to meditate too. And then if

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Speaker 1: I saw your in feature. I'm kind of nice. I

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Speaker 1: I'm amazed that just watching my journey. But that's why

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Speaker 1: these conversations are so powerful coming from you, because I

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Speaker 1: into it. And a woman Badding know when you aiming

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Speaker 1: the police? Huh, A woman Badding knew if you're doing

425
00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:47,399
Speaker 1: this selfishly. A woman Badding know if you're doing this

426
00:21:47,480 --> 00:21:50,159
Speaker 1: with gratitude. And guess what, I'm thankful for you right

427
00:21:50,240 --> 00:21:54,480
Speaker 1: now because this is a whole blessing. I praying everything

428
00:21:54,560 --> 00:21:57,359
Speaker 1: before I have six. This is spiritual. My dick wouldn't

429
00:21:57,400 --> 00:21:59,600
Speaker 1: get hard if it wasn't without the permission of the creator.

430
00:21:59,760 --> 00:22:02,240
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna pray before I do this. I'm gonna

431
00:22:02,240 --> 00:22:05,240
Speaker 1: make it sacred because guess who know about it? Businesses

432
00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:08,000
Speaker 1: between those who make it. That's right. You know you

433
00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:10,560
Speaker 1: got the song thinking with my dick with Juicy J.

434
00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:13,760
Speaker 1: How does a man not think with it? Kevin's like, damn,

435
00:22:13,800 --> 00:22:17,960
Speaker 1: this is all that's so positive? Man, Let me find

436
00:22:18,040 --> 00:22:21,800
Speaker 1: out y'all been plotting only Kevin? How does a man

437
00:22:21,920 --> 00:22:25,120
Speaker 1: not think with it? You want me to be honest. Yeah,

438
00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:29,040
Speaker 1: that glow that you say you see in that order,

439
00:22:29,119 --> 00:22:31,280
Speaker 1: that that presence that you feel when I walk in

440
00:22:31,359 --> 00:22:34,080
Speaker 1: the room. A lot of people are gonna talk against this,

441
00:22:34,400 --> 00:22:39,600
Speaker 1: but this comes from seeming retention and discipline. Like if

442
00:22:39,640 --> 00:22:41,520
Speaker 1: I wake up in the morning, they call it morning,

443
00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:44,520
Speaker 1: would some men wake up dick be hard? You know,

444
00:22:44,800 --> 00:22:46,840
Speaker 1: you could choose to you it's a choice. You could

445
00:22:46,880 --> 00:22:48,960
Speaker 1: choose to put a sock on your dick and beat

446
00:22:49,000 --> 00:22:52,159
Speaker 1: it and shoot your precious life force in a in

447
00:22:52,240 --> 00:22:54,280
Speaker 1: a sock. Or you could choose to get up and

448
00:22:54,359 --> 00:22:57,200
Speaker 1: put that energy into your workout. You could take your

449
00:22:57,240 --> 00:23:00,480
Speaker 1: sexual cravnce and translate that energy in the sun something else,

450
00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:06,560
Speaker 1: and it shows it shows you can translate that energy

451
00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:10,880
Speaker 1: like you can have practice, seeming retention and something else

452
00:23:10,920 --> 00:23:12,679
Speaker 1: that I've noticed since I've been on this journey, I've

453
00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:16,000
Speaker 1: been practicing about maybe three and a half years. And

454
00:23:16,160 --> 00:23:18,640
Speaker 1: it is times that I had with dreams. Because when

455
00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:20,440
Speaker 1: you anything that need to come out with you, it's

456
00:23:20,440 --> 00:23:23,280
Speaker 1: gonna come out. I have we dreams. Don't watch porn

457
00:23:23,400 --> 00:23:27,120
Speaker 1: at all, don't even watch porn. Don't don't even feed

458
00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,680
Speaker 1: that to your man. I'm talking about put it into

459
00:23:29,760 --> 00:23:32,159
Speaker 1: your music. That energy is gonna be different. Everybody that

460
00:23:32,280 --> 00:23:34,479
Speaker 1: meet me not say, man, your energy is so different

461
00:23:34,560 --> 00:23:37,760
Speaker 1: now because I'm translating it. Even when I'm around women,

462
00:23:37,800 --> 00:23:40,000
Speaker 1: they tell me, you know what, you talk about a

463
00:23:40,119 --> 00:23:43,320
Speaker 1: lot of sexuals related topics in your songs. I say,

464
00:23:43,359 --> 00:23:47,000
Speaker 1: you know how, I say because I have stained and

465
00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:50,960
Speaker 1: I put my cravens into the music. Yeah, and when

466
00:23:50,960 --> 00:23:53,200
Speaker 1: I kitch you, guess what. I'm not gonna play with you.

467
00:23:54,240 --> 00:23:56,440
Speaker 1: But I don't get creep energy from you because I

468
00:23:56,480 --> 00:24:00,200
Speaker 1: don't look at women objectively. This is a blessing. Even

469
00:24:00,240 --> 00:24:05,359
Speaker 1: met your matchroom, Um, I met somebody really close, and

470
00:24:05,520 --> 00:24:07,960
Speaker 1: guess what I'm gonna tell you. I'm gonna tell you something.

471
00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:12,680
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you something. I haven't met my match,

472
00:24:13,000 --> 00:24:16,000
Speaker 1: but I miss somebody that's really close. And the reason

473
00:24:16,119 --> 00:24:20,600
Speaker 1: I say, she really really close. Oh God, don't kill it.

474
00:24:21,359 --> 00:24:24,600
Speaker 1: She got acting in her face. I know this gonna

475
00:24:24,640 --> 00:24:27,040
Speaker 1: sound crazy. I know this gonna sound crazy. A lot

476
00:24:27,119 --> 00:24:30,040
Speaker 1: of women were acting in their face, got good pussing

477
00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:34,520
Speaker 1: because they harmones. They harmones are so imbalanced that it

478
00:24:34,680 --> 00:24:38,320
Speaker 1: caused them to have congestion, so they're not releasing properly.

479
00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 1: See once I started really justus caught in. I really

480
00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:43,840
Speaker 1: put it on her. Her face started cleaning up. Because

481
00:24:43,920 --> 00:24:45,879
Speaker 1: a lot of time we break out, you notice we

482
00:24:46,000 --> 00:24:49,000
Speaker 1: have bad acting developed through to what stress and things

483
00:24:49,040 --> 00:24:51,480
Speaker 1: of that nature. I'm not saying all women were acting

484
00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:55,399
Speaker 1: anything with the skin, yeah, but a lot of a

485
00:24:55,440 --> 00:24:57,720
Speaker 1: lot of the things that go on with us are

486
00:24:57,760 --> 00:25:00,960
Speaker 1: really internally. I'm that is just saying it for that.

487
00:25:01,080 --> 00:25:04,160
Speaker 1: But she she uped though she and my top three.

488
00:25:04,359 --> 00:25:05,760
Speaker 1: That's good man, because there's a lot of women out

489
00:25:05,760 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 1: there with acne and they got insecurities because of the acne.

490
00:25:08,119 --> 00:25:12,359
Speaker 1: But you just know, I'm so serious, like like a

491
00:25:12,480 --> 00:25:15,280
Speaker 1: woman with act a little bit of congestion acting in

492
00:25:15,320 --> 00:25:19,880
Speaker 1: our face, then be the ones I'm talking about. Pussy good.

493
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:22,520
Speaker 1: So you don't like the make up, I mean, yeah,

494
00:25:22,560 --> 00:25:23,960
Speaker 1: don't you don't want to see a girl with makeup?

495
00:25:23,960 --> 00:25:26,600
Speaker 1: You want see her for what So you can see

496
00:25:26,640 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: the acne because she covered up with the makeup, you

497
00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:31,439
Speaker 1: won't see it. Oh you could just see acne with makeup.

498
00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:33,800
Speaker 1: I'm gonna say this. I just I'm not a big

499
00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:36,359
Speaker 1: fan of makeup. I like a woman in a natural

500
00:25:36,440 --> 00:25:39,120
Speaker 1: state because sometimes my skin is and she get congested.

501
00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:41,200
Speaker 1: If I eat the wrong things. Anything I put in

502
00:25:41,240 --> 00:25:44,679
Speaker 1: my badg gonna show up in my face. That's dietarr related.

503
00:25:45,160 --> 00:25:47,280
Speaker 1: I know this one out fast for about seven days,

504
00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:50,880
Speaker 1: don't eat nothing, just juice. My skin looked like glass porcelain.

505
00:25:52,280 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 1: It just it's something internal. But I just noticed that

506
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:57,000
Speaker 1: with hood, like in a few women that I a

507
00:25:57,080 --> 00:26:00,800
Speaker 1: run across with acne. Puss it good. You know. I

508
00:26:00,880 --> 00:26:06,960
Speaker 1: wanted to say, I'm talking my great as a fact, yes, Lord,

509
00:26:07,080 --> 00:26:09,280
Speaker 1: speaking of the music, I appreciate the fact you did

510
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:12,399
Speaker 1: by my lonely by speaking knockas over man. Do you

511
00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:15,680
Speaker 1: know where he's from from the same plan, Well, he

512
00:26:15,760 --> 00:26:18,000
Speaker 1: from Columbia. I'm from most corner. But his mom, his

513
00:26:18,160 --> 00:26:22,080
Speaker 1: mom woked like really really good woman. Yeah. Like at

514
00:26:22,160 --> 00:26:23,920
Speaker 1: least I started listening to him in jail, and it

515
00:26:24,040 --> 00:26:25,840
Speaker 1: was always like my dream of like work with him

516
00:26:26,240 --> 00:26:28,960
Speaker 1: and he had dad before I came home. Yep, I started.

517
00:26:29,040 --> 00:26:33,480
Speaker 1: I started communicating with him like four months Carolina, sir, h,

518
00:26:33,760 --> 00:26:36,119
Speaker 1: I love that place, that's home. But what made you

519
00:26:36,160 --> 00:26:38,080
Speaker 1: want to do that? Because you're a fan of music? Yeah,

520
00:26:38,200 --> 00:26:40,359
Speaker 1: I was a fan of him, and I always say that,

521
00:26:40,560 --> 00:26:43,000
Speaker 1: Like at my concert, before I bring the song, I'd

522
00:26:43,000 --> 00:26:45,840
Speaker 1: be like speaking Knockas, I love you forever because I do,

523
00:26:46,240 --> 00:26:48,080
Speaker 1: like I never got a chance to meet you, but

524
00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:52,119
Speaker 1: I met you like Mama Knockas. She just she loved me.

525
00:26:53,160 --> 00:26:54,680
Speaker 1: Now you know what I wanted to ask you about

526
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:57,600
Speaker 1: your relationship, which drinker, because there's been a lot of

527
00:26:57,640 --> 00:27:00,680
Speaker 1: speculation online. So how is everything a little I'm speculated.

528
00:27:00,680 --> 00:27:02,880
Speaker 1: I don't answer. No, I don't. I don't. I don't

529
00:27:02,920 --> 00:27:04,399
Speaker 1: do that with the internet. Let them say what they

530
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:08,120
Speaker 1: want to say about me. I don't kill they say

531
00:27:08,160 --> 00:27:10,399
Speaker 1: all kind of negative things about me. Because then you

532
00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:12,200
Speaker 1: see her and she still know all the lyrics to

533
00:27:12,240 --> 00:27:15,080
Speaker 1: all the songs on the album. She posting that looked

534
00:27:15,119 --> 00:27:18,240
Speaker 1: like she loved me. Yeah, and I love That's it?

535
00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:22,239
Speaker 1: Like what else? Like why does my life? Why does

536
00:27:22,280 --> 00:27:24,800
Speaker 1: it matter? People be? I just want to know. I

537
00:27:24,960 --> 00:27:27,760
Speaker 1: just know Listen, you're living by caressly through somebody else.

538
00:27:28,320 --> 00:27:30,639
Speaker 1: You're looking at my life for your source and entertainment.

539
00:27:31,680 --> 00:27:34,760
Speaker 1: My life is not your source entertainment. Last time I checked.

540
00:27:34,760 --> 00:27:38,000
Speaker 1: I'm grown, I'm a real god to do what I want.

541
00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:42,320
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, oh, I just say that because I

542
00:27:42,359 --> 00:27:44,199
Speaker 1: get an X that questions so much, And why does

543
00:27:44,240 --> 00:27:47,840
Speaker 1: it matter? Either you love me or you don't. Either

544
00:27:47,920 --> 00:27:50,160
Speaker 1: you're gonna you're gonna hate me for who I am

545
00:27:50,840 --> 00:27:53,280
Speaker 1: and love me for who You're never gonna love me

546
00:27:53,320 --> 00:27:55,000
Speaker 1: for who I'm at. So this is why does it

547
00:27:55,119 --> 00:27:58,520
Speaker 1: matter for that situation? Because you y'all were so intwined

548
00:27:58,560 --> 00:28:03,080
Speaker 1: with each other, still live between, we're still in. People

549
00:28:03,080 --> 00:28:05,280
Speaker 1: don't see something always why what happened? You know? People

550
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:08,239
Speaker 1: see you with somebody else and then they'll be like, oh,

551
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:10,800
Speaker 1: he's doing this, And did you see me nailing somebody else?

552
00:28:10,840 --> 00:28:13,560
Speaker 1: And you just see me with somebody you ain't seen

553
00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:21,920
Speaker 1: me pinning up and somebody else somebody. I can't even

554
00:28:25,240 --> 00:28:28,520
Speaker 1: But I'm just saying it's a true statement. Like, listen,

555
00:28:29,040 --> 00:28:33,280
Speaker 1: let's go off statistics like a lot of the I'm

556
00:28:33,320 --> 00:28:35,320
Speaker 1: gonna say, all of the women I ran across with

557
00:28:35,440 --> 00:28:40,320
Speaker 1: that acne and they face then being prussire real Prussia,

558
00:28:40,880 --> 00:28:43,680
Speaker 1: and they had an insecurity about the acne. Girl, lick

559
00:28:43,720 --> 00:28:46,000
Speaker 1: your little bomps. You better stop playing with me. What

560
00:28:46,120 --> 00:28:48,320
Speaker 1: did you think about Nick Canada's comments that eighty percent

561
00:28:48,360 --> 00:28:51,280
Speaker 1: of all women don't know how to probably clean the vaginas.

562
00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:55,240
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna say eighty percent, but it's a high

563
00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:57,680
Speaker 1: it's a high percentage, right. But I'm gonna say this,

564
00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:01,080
Speaker 1: It's not their fault. They never were being taught. We

565
00:29:01,280 --> 00:29:03,960
Speaker 1: forced them to a society where the mama might have

566
00:29:04,000 --> 00:29:06,160
Speaker 1: had it been a dad and the mom in a relationship,

567
00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:08,840
Speaker 1: you got something in a single parent households. You know,

568
00:29:09,000 --> 00:29:11,000
Speaker 1: I thank god I had a grandmother, you know that

569
00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:13,360
Speaker 1: taught me and raised me and loved me. Taught me

570
00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:15,800
Speaker 1: how to clean all behind my ears. You know, a

571
00:29:15,840 --> 00:29:18,440
Speaker 1: woman I supposed to putting no soap on they or

572
00:29:18,560 --> 00:29:21,160
Speaker 1: it don't even pppost to go in there. It cleans itself.

573
00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:26,560
Speaker 1: You clean it internally. You can't. Nothing external adds value.

574
00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:29,440
Speaker 1: You clean yourself up from the inside out, not the

575
00:29:29,520 --> 00:29:32,800
Speaker 1: outside end. So as far as cleaning yourself properly, a

576
00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:35,640
Speaker 1: lot of people don't even use wash rags. They don't

577
00:29:35,680 --> 00:29:38,360
Speaker 1: even scrub, they upper derm as, they old layer skin off.

578
00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:41,000
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, It's just not taught. Yeah,

579
00:29:41,400 --> 00:29:44,360
Speaker 1: you can't follow them that they don't know whoever they are. Man,

580
00:29:44,400 --> 00:29:47,320
Speaker 1: I know niggas that don't I know niggas that's like Jason,

581
00:29:47,760 --> 00:29:49,560
Speaker 1: I'm talking about real killers, but scared of get in

582
00:29:49,640 --> 00:29:53,480
Speaker 1: the water. I know niggas like that, just real trolls.

583
00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:55,600
Speaker 1: It's not they fault, it's just they don't know no better.

584
00:29:56,000 --> 00:29:57,920
Speaker 1: So you can't be mad at them if they never

585
00:29:58,040 --> 00:30:02,320
Speaker 1: been shown properly how to clean himselves. You know, cleanliness

586
00:30:02,360 --> 00:30:04,360
Speaker 1: is next to gardliness. I don't even feel right to

587
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:06,960
Speaker 1: the shot off. I came here, that's all. You're on

588
00:30:07,080 --> 00:30:08,960
Speaker 1: stage two and you was telling the crowd like, y'all

589
00:30:08,960 --> 00:30:11,240
Speaker 1: don't don't don't love me based on I guess the

590
00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:13,600
Speaker 1: reception to your album. So what were your expectations? No,

591
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:16,200
Speaker 1: I can't say that, I thought, No, I can't say

592
00:30:16,240 --> 00:30:17,800
Speaker 1: that like that. I just asked him, what cha don't

593
00:30:17,840 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 1: love me? Oh? I thought it was because of the album.

594
00:30:21,520 --> 00:30:24,240
Speaker 1: You know how, I don't measure that off numbers schmumbers. Okay,

595
00:30:24,520 --> 00:30:26,640
Speaker 1: you know how I know the album doing good because

596
00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:29,480
Speaker 1: everywhere I go on the street, like I don't tell

597
00:30:29,600 --> 00:30:31,960
Speaker 1: him I'm popping up over here. I hear that the

598
00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:34,000
Speaker 1: cause of album playing, it's healing the world right now.

599
00:30:34,480 --> 00:30:36,960
Speaker 1: I spoke on subject matters that no rappers even touch.

600
00:30:37,920 --> 00:30:40,400
Speaker 1: You got from the young to the old. It's gyms

601
00:30:40,400 --> 00:30:43,040
Speaker 1: in there for everybody. It's healing the world. Because my

602
00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 1: son don't learn through through on. He don't learn through education.

603
00:30:49,840 --> 00:30:53,000
Speaker 1: He learned through entertainment. I make his learning fun for him,

604
00:30:53,760 --> 00:30:56,320
Speaker 1: and that's how he learned because he hands on. Like

605
00:30:56,640 --> 00:30:58,560
Speaker 1: I can't sit in no class like this all day,

606
00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:01,600
Speaker 1: that's true. Would you want me to be asign? I

607
00:31:01,760 --> 00:31:04,000
Speaker 1: want to be hands on and the experienced. Don't you

608
00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:05,920
Speaker 1: teach me? Show me? Don't you do more? Why don't

609
00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:08,000
Speaker 1: you cover like we we ever seen you a six

610
00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:13,880
Speaker 1: years man. You don't over the last time, and we

611
00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:16,520
Speaker 1: couldn't somebody and somebody in his team at Colby, that's

612
00:31:16,520 --> 00:31:18,320
Speaker 1: what it was. Anytime you you would have come. I

613
00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:21,960
Speaker 1: don't understand like you. I don't think you understand. Forget

614
00:31:22,000 --> 00:31:24,320
Speaker 1: all people heal from the words that you that's right,

615
00:31:24,880 --> 00:31:27,200
Speaker 1: that's the most important thing. The music, yes, of course,

616
00:31:27,280 --> 00:31:30,120
Speaker 1: but people heal from your words and the music. Yeah,

617
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:31,400
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. When I'm telling watching that

618
00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:33,240
Speaker 1: Big Fact podcast, I was like, man, we're in a

619
00:31:33,400 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 1: We're in a different time where Brothers is really embracing

620
00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:39,760
Speaker 1: the healing process. And I love Kendrick's album, I love

621
00:31:39,880 --> 00:31:42,960
Speaker 1: your project. You know, a West Side bookie like all

622
00:31:42,960 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 1: of these brothers talking about healing and therapy. Have you

623
00:31:46,320 --> 00:31:49,200
Speaker 1: ever told you nough ani ya? No. I never told

624
00:31:49,240 --> 00:31:51,200
Speaker 1: me no. But you know what I did want to

625
00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:52,840
Speaker 1: ask you when we since we're talk about healing pt

626
00:31:53,280 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 1: ptoe right, and you're talking about protect me from my friends,

627
00:31:56,920 --> 00:31:59,320
Speaker 1: and several times you do discuss having friends and people

628
00:31:59,400 --> 00:32:02,160
Speaker 1: close to you that I have betrayed you financially. A

629
00:32:02,280 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 1: lot of times it is how do you heal and

630
00:32:04,120 --> 00:32:07,120
Speaker 1: move on from that? And is there ever any conversations

631
00:32:07,160 --> 00:32:09,200
Speaker 1: of forgiveness because you said you just they just can't

632
00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:11,320
Speaker 1: get in touch with you. I'm gonna be honest with you.

633
00:32:12,480 --> 00:32:16,120
Speaker 1: Sometimes when you forgive people, it's not to rectify the

634
00:32:16,680 --> 00:32:20,200
Speaker 1: or get the matter resolved. It's to resolve the matter internally.

635
00:32:20,600 --> 00:32:23,920
Speaker 1: I'm forgiving you for me, not for you. I'll probably

636
00:32:24,040 --> 00:32:27,040
Speaker 1: never deal with you again, but I forgive you. But

637
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:29,520
Speaker 1: It just showed me I can't be looking for myself

638
00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:31,400
Speaker 1: inside of other people, and we do that a lot

639
00:32:31,480 --> 00:32:33,800
Speaker 1: of times. I can't expect you to be the way

640
00:32:33,840 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 1: I'm built because I'm cut from a band down. A

641
00:32:36,040 --> 00:32:38,480
Speaker 1: lot of these dudes cut from shit paper. So I

642
00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:41,440
Speaker 1: can't expect you to be like me. And I understand

643
00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:43,600
Speaker 1: that and not respect it. I just know how far

644
00:32:43,680 --> 00:32:48,160
Speaker 1: to go with you know, hey, like trusting people is scary.

645
00:32:49,040 --> 00:32:52,280
Speaker 1: It's scary, like you have I got a question, Like

646
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:55,000
Speaker 1: you have a conversation with somebody and it's supposed to

647
00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:57,440
Speaker 1: be in private, but mad they come, they ask your

648
00:32:57,480 --> 00:33:01,600
Speaker 1: dirt or launch route, like that's not platinum, that's not

649
00:33:01,680 --> 00:33:03,160
Speaker 1: a platinum, and then it kind of put you on

650
00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:06,240
Speaker 1: a share and make you well. I can't even say

651
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:08,680
Speaker 1: what I want to say fulfill that they might. You

652
00:33:08,760 --> 00:33:10,920
Speaker 1: know what, guess what, I'm transparent in a way, bitch,

653
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,480
Speaker 1: say what you want about me. I don't even imitate it.

654
00:33:13,680 --> 00:33:17,480
Speaker 1: I wouldn't made for everybody to like, what has impactaged

655
00:33:17,520 --> 00:33:19,800
Speaker 1: your life? Man? More? What has impacage your life? More?

656
00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 1: Islama hip hop? You know, I'm me to tell you

657
00:33:23,840 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 1: something to be honest, since you're speaking about that and

658
00:33:29,280 --> 00:33:33,560
Speaker 1: I mean it's with all due respect, the people that

659
00:33:34,160 --> 00:33:40,640
Speaker 1: hurt me the most, it's my own people. Like they

660
00:33:41,080 --> 00:33:43,600
Speaker 1: hurt me the most, been my own people, people that

661
00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:46,960
Speaker 1: look like me. Like it's a lot of Muslims that

662
00:33:47,080 --> 00:33:49,640
Speaker 1: loved me, but it's also a lot of Muslims that judgement.

663
00:33:49,680 --> 00:33:52,240
Speaker 1: You can't have tattoos. That's hard m this this that

664
00:33:52,400 --> 00:33:54,800
Speaker 1: hard arm. It means forbidden. You can't do this. And

665
00:33:54,920 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 1: this man you know, who helped me, like really get

666
00:33:58,200 --> 00:34:00,840
Speaker 1: back on my feet since my last tool. It been

667
00:34:00,960 --> 00:34:05,040
Speaker 1: Jews and transgenders, like the people that the world will

668
00:34:05,080 --> 00:34:07,000
Speaker 1: say is the worst people them the people that helped me,

669
00:34:07,400 --> 00:34:09,840
Speaker 1: Like I'm doing business. They bring like I got a

670
00:34:09,920 --> 00:34:13,000
Speaker 1: pot to here, jew he bringing me coffee deals and

671
00:34:13,080 --> 00:34:16,080
Speaker 1: all of this. We're doing all these investments. This Later

672
00:34:16,160 --> 00:34:18,439
Speaker 1: she transgender. She say, baby, you can use my white

673
00:34:18,480 --> 00:34:20,920
Speaker 1: house if you want to put all your merchant up.

674
00:34:21,320 --> 00:34:23,399
Speaker 1: Just gave me the whitehouse. Man, the words you say,

675
00:34:23,600 --> 00:34:25,600
Speaker 1: they speak to my spirit. I love who, I love

676
00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:27,640
Speaker 1: who you are. I love what you stand for. It

677
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:29,879
Speaker 1: be the people that the world say is the most

678
00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:33,239
Speaker 1: worst people, fucked up people on earth, been the people

679
00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:35,960
Speaker 1: that helped me. And it's my own people that judge

680
00:34:36,040 --> 00:34:37,960
Speaker 1: me and kicked me when I'm down, and I always

681
00:34:38,000 --> 00:34:39,880
Speaker 1: got something negative to say about me. I always in

682
00:34:40,000 --> 00:34:42,799
Speaker 1: my business, keep my name and miss like like. Then

683
00:34:42,880 --> 00:34:44,759
Speaker 1: they say black lives matter and get mad when I

684
00:34:44,760 --> 00:34:46,839
Speaker 1: don't support it. Who they matter to? We kill each

685
00:34:46,840 --> 00:34:49,919
Speaker 1: other all day? Who they matter to? We talk behind

686
00:34:50,000 --> 00:34:53,360
Speaker 1: each other back. We always what the fuck? Like I

687
00:34:53,560 --> 00:34:55,560
Speaker 1: told garden Man, I hate to say it. I mean

688
00:34:55,600 --> 00:34:57,279
Speaker 1: it's without the respect of the Look, if I gotta

689
00:34:57,280 --> 00:34:59,600
Speaker 1: come back a nigga, I just waited to see them

690
00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:02,799
Speaker 1: else come available. Pig I don't even won't be no nigga. Really,

691
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:05,399
Speaker 1: everybody won't be a nigga teller time to be one.

692
00:35:06,280 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 1: That's I just you're a black guard though. Niggas the

693
00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:14,360
Speaker 1: nigga mean king. That's what they say. No, that's what

694
00:35:16,040 --> 00:35:18,520
Speaker 1: why you hear me say b o, n big old nigga,

695
00:35:18,840 --> 00:35:22,080
Speaker 1: that mean king. We was taught wrong, We was taught

696
00:35:22,160 --> 00:35:27,440
Speaker 1: wrong and nigga mean king, big old nigga. I got that, nigga.

697
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:29,680
Speaker 1: I'm a big old nigga. It's nothing I can't go

698
00:35:29,760 --> 00:35:33,279
Speaker 1: through and and adapt and adjust and become greater. But

699
00:35:33,440 --> 00:35:36,680
Speaker 1: that's what most of my problems don't come from other people,

700
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:40,640
Speaker 1: come from niggasjudge me. That's who kicked me when I'm down,

701
00:35:40,800 --> 00:35:42,719
Speaker 1: But that's also who supports you to But we also

702
00:35:42,719 --> 00:35:44,759
Speaker 1: got I'm gonna be honest. I'm gonna be honest with you.

703
00:35:46,160 --> 00:35:49,000
Speaker 1: I can't say it's just niggas that support me. You

704
00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:52,200
Speaker 1: know what it is that supports me, real people. I

705
00:35:52,280 --> 00:35:53,800
Speaker 1: don't look at that like that. I look at it

706
00:35:53,840 --> 00:35:57,000
Speaker 1: as real people and fake people. Real people do real things,

707
00:35:57,360 --> 00:36:01,000
Speaker 1: fake people do fake shit, and you never know who

708
00:36:01,040 --> 00:36:04,799
Speaker 1: your blessing gonna come through, so you can't judge. Don't

709
00:36:04,840 --> 00:36:09,040
Speaker 1: you believe it's a white supremacist system that created that

710
00:36:09,160 --> 00:36:10,839
Speaker 1: put us in this position to even be the way

711
00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:12,600
Speaker 1: we all to each other. They say that, but I

712
00:36:12,680 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 1: ain't shit. I got a good heart. I try to

713
00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:17,920
Speaker 1: help niggas. I get shitted on. But every time think

714
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:20,320
Speaker 1: about how you think about how you working for the

715
00:36:20,440 --> 00:36:22,360
Speaker 1: healing process, there's a bunch of brothers and sisters that

716
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:25,279
Speaker 1: support you. Yeah, the real people. It's real people and

717
00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:27,880
Speaker 1: fake people. And I ain't trying to be controversial with

718
00:36:27,960 --> 00:36:30,400
Speaker 1: this shit, but it's real people and fake people. But

719
00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:33,080
Speaker 1: the people that didn't really kick me when I'm down

720
00:36:33,239 --> 00:36:34,759
Speaker 1: be the people that look like me, the people that

721
00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 1: judge me, Be the people that look like me. That's

722
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:39,319
Speaker 1: why I didn't God using you as a vessel. Now

723
00:36:39,360 --> 00:36:42,040
Speaker 1: that I hope somebody to hear this and realize that

724
00:36:42,200 --> 00:36:45,000
Speaker 1: main't look hey, it's like I can't do no, I

725
00:36:45,080 --> 00:36:47,359
Speaker 1: can't do no right. I started to get rid of killed,

726
00:36:47,440 --> 00:36:50,320
Speaker 1: talked about, kicked in my ass for nothing, for what?

727
00:36:51,719 --> 00:36:54,319
Speaker 1: Every time? I mean, I'm I ain't trying to admit

728
00:36:54,400 --> 00:36:57,080
Speaker 1: this type of emotion, but man, this shit hurt, This

729
00:36:57,160 --> 00:37:00,319
Speaker 1: shit hurt, homie. I feel like I asked, I asked

730
00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:03,640
Speaker 1: on the one interview, I say, man, you know I

731
00:37:03,719 --> 00:37:06,120
Speaker 1: ain't even make contact with that girl in the Florida

732
00:37:06,320 --> 00:37:11,560
Speaker 1: You got don't under standing? Light on me a nigga like,

733
00:37:11,760 --> 00:37:14,080
Speaker 1: and I love you because maybe Guard used you for

734
00:37:14,160 --> 00:37:16,000
Speaker 1: me to go through this transition, I wouldn't be who

735
00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:18,640
Speaker 1: I am not, So I tached that positive energy to it.

736
00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:20,640
Speaker 1: But I had harbored a lot of resentment from they

737
00:37:20,680 --> 00:37:24,000
Speaker 1: all took me from my children over a four hundred dollars. Fine,

738
00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:27,120
Speaker 1: y'all gave me six months for that. When it's time

739
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:30,360
Speaker 1: for me to come home Illinois, say you got a warrant.

740
00:37:30,480 --> 00:37:32,960
Speaker 1: What you know about having your heartbroke like that? Get

741
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:36,200
Speaker 1: to Chicago jail. You know, I'm doing my bid, Miller,

742
00:37:36,280 --> 00:37:39,040
Speaker 1: my bid. Your brother just got murdered. What you know

743
00:37:39,080 --> 00:37:41,120
Speaker 1: about having your heart broke like that? I could keep going,

744
00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:46,200
Speaker 1: But like I could keep going, I was destroyed on

745
00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:50,319
Speaker 1: the inside. Man, you shit hurt like so of course

746
00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:52,560
Speaker 1: I get emotional just thinking about it, Like it's like

747
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:56,759
Speaker 1: I can't do no right. But with the people. That's

748
00:37:56,880 --> 00:37:59,360
Speaker 1: like when I say real people, it's real people and

749
00:37:59,480 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 1: fake people. It's just that's how I look at life.

750
00:38:03,120 --> 00:38:05,120
Speaker 1: I can't go through this with it and attach myself

751
00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:07,040
Speaker 1: to know. But you'd be surprised how many people you're

752
00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 1: helping right now. Yeah, Like I mean, I mean, I mean,

753
00:38:12,719 --> 00:38:16,000
Speaker 1: I just you know, I love I look at the

754
00:38:16,440 --> 00:38:18,520
Speaker 1: at Malcolm Mix and all the ship that he stood

755
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:21,200
Speaker 1: funning all that shit, and I identify with him. I do.

756
00:38:22,480 --> 00:38:24,920
Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, you know, went to jail.

757
00:38:25,360 --> 00:38:28,000
Speaker 1: We're gonna ride in this bitch. Yeah, they're feeding us

758
00:38:28,040 --> 00:38:30,160
Speaker 1: cold food. I'm about to stand. Yeah, come on, let's

759
00:38:30,160 --> 00:38:31,880
Speaker 1: go when they come in this bitch, let's go. You

760
00:38:32,000 --> 00:38:34,360
Speaker 1: know what the niggas did when they came in up

761
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,560
Speaker 1: with them guns and ship niggas. Whin't got nig wreck.

762
00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:39,279
Speaker 1: I'm out there fighting by myself. Don't nor the war.

763
00:38:39,320 --> 00:38:41,160
Speaker 1: And told me, he said, I respect you, your man,

764
00:38:41,239 --> 00:38:46,200
Speaker 1: but start sticking by yourself. I can't win, you know,

765
00:38:46,320 --> 00:38:47,960
Speaker 1: minister fragon I said one time in this fag and

766
00:38:48,000 --> 00:38:50,359
Speaker 1: I said, you have to love black people more than

767
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:56,680
Speaker 1: they hate themselves. I guess I love I love, I

768
00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:59,839
Speaker 1: love God, and I love my family, and I love

769
00:39:00,040 --> 00:39:02,480
Speaker 1: people that love me. I'm not walking out, hey, I'm

770
00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:04,919
Speaker 1: gonna be honest with you. You're gonna be honest, said

771
00:39:05,000 --> 00:39:07,960
Speaker 1: like people I don't like, I don't wish no good

772
00:39:08,040 --> 00:39:11,520
Speaker 1: on them. I hope you. I hope you drive down

773
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:13,040
Speaker 1: the street and get hit by a car, and that

774
00:39:13,400 --> 00:39:15,919
Speaker 1: this is why healing is like like, I don't wish

775
00:39:16,040 --> 00:39:19,040
Speaker 1: good footnot linear, I don't. I don't like. I don't

776
00:39:19,080 --> 00:39:22,120
Speaker 1: wish like. I'm gonna be honest. I don't wish good like.

777
00:39:22,320 --> 00:39:24,400
Speaker 1: I'll be hearing people say that man, he hurt you.

778
00:39:24,520 --> 00:39:26,719
Speaker 1: I wish the best for you. I'm gonna say I

779
00:39:26,800 --> 00:39:28,400
Speaker 1: wish you the best because I'm not gonna put no

780
00:39:28,520 --> 00:39:30,759
Speaker 1: negative energy. But I don't wish no good for you.

781
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:33,279
Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck what happened to you. This

782
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,400
Speaker 1: is why healing isn't a task. It's a practice, all right,

783
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:40,520
Speaker 1: it's a journey. It's no harm on anybody. I just

784
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:43,239
Speaker 1: mind my business man. That shit sound cool, that shit,

785
00:39:43,640 --> 00:39:46,600
Speaker 1: that shit sound cool, that shit sound I'm gonna tell

786
00:39:46,600 --> 00:39:48,799
Speaker 1: the truth, though. Hey, if you hurt me or funk

787
00:39:48,840 --> 00:39:51,000
Speaker 1: over me, man, I wish something bad happened to you.

788
00:39:51,120 --> 00:39:54,439
Speaker 1: That's why you point that wrestler so hard. No no comment,

789
00:39:55,719 --> 00:40:03,759
Speaker 1: no comment. I'm just asking. Don't like the world, the

790
00:40:03,880 --> 00:40:06,560
Speaker 1: world want to be politically correct. I'm not trying to

791
00:40:08,080 --> 00:40:12,040
Speaker 1: do is be successful. I'll be feeling. I can't just

792
00:40:12,120 --> 00:40:14,080
Speaker 1: be successful and cut somebody off so that they have

793
00:40:14,200 --> 00:40:16,279
Speaker 1: no access to you. And I think that's I mean,

794
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:18,640
Speaker 1: why would I throw away all of this behind a

795
00:40:18,719 --> 00:40:21,840
Speaker 1: peon a pisant mindset? If you did something pussy on

796
00:40:21,960 --> 00:40:24,120
Speaker 1: Malaysius to me, that just showed me where your mind

797
00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:26,239
Speaker 1: said that you are pisant. But I ain't wishing a

798
00:40:26,280 --> 00:40:28,760
Speaker 1: biss for you. I don't care what the fuck happened

799
00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:30,520
Speaker 1: to you now. I'm not wishing the best. But I'm

800
00:40:30,520 --> 00:40:33,680
Speaker 1: just saying I said I would cut off access to you,

801
00:40:33,880 --> 00:40:36,440
Speaker 1: but would be successful. I don't wish the biss. I

802
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:39,600
Speaker 1: might say that he stay bliss boy boy, thank you

803
00:40:40,400 --> 00:40:45,719
Speaker 1: that today I ain't gonna say the boy fuck you,

804
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:48,719
Speaker 1: ditt thank you, but I think the man you I'm

805
00:40:48,760 --> 00:40:51,640
Speaker 1: gonna hey, listen, I'm gonna say with everybody scared to say,

806
00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:54,680
Speaker 1: I'm not with that politically correct. But all of that

807
00:40:55,160 --> 00:40:56,920
Speaker 1: intro was gonna be how you have to start the

808
00:40:56,960 --> 00:41:00,279
Speaker 1: album off because I see all of that in the intro. Yeah,

809
00:41:00,320 --> 00:41:03,040
Speaker 1: that like when I make music, that therapy for me.

810
00:41:03,320 --> 00:41:06,800
Speaker 1: I'm releasing all of these emotions and things of that nature,

811
00:41:06,960 --> 00:41:09,000
Speaker 1: and it's healing for people to hear that. Oh man,

812
00:41:09,080 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 1: I'm going through the same thing he going through. This

813
00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:13,400
Speaker 1: is how he did with it, with fitness, this is

814
00:41:13,400 --> 00:41:14,880
Speaker 1: how he did with it. I take I could go

815
00:41:15,160 --> 00:41:18,080
Speaker 1: smoke weed, but I love with eNCA Johnson say. He

816
00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:20,080
Speaker 1: said a lot of these brothers when she get difficult,

817
00:41:20,120 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 1: they just go blow weed. Da ain't got nothing invested. See,

818
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:26,440
Speaker 1: when you're investing something and you hustle and you work

819
00:41:26,480 --> 00:41:28,440
Speaker 1: for something, you got a different type of attachment to it.

820
00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:30,600
Speaker 1: You're gonna have a cold day in hell for somebody

821
00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:32,560
Speaker 1: to try to take this from you. We live by this,

822
00:41:32,719 --> 00:41:35,440
Speaker 1: we die by this. We don't surrender, we don't retreat.

823
00:41:35,520 --> 00:41:37,600
Speaker 1: Every man want to search his own soul. I listened

824
00:41:37,600 --> 00:41:40,360
Speaker 1: to that quote every morning. Every man wanna search his

825
00:41:40,480 --> 00:41:43,320
Speaker 1: own soul. And I gotta just tell a truth. I

826
00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:45,120
Speaker 1: don't feel like a lot of these people feel. Oh

827
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:47,239
Speaker 1: they're scared to say that's how they feel. I don't

828
00:41:47,280 --> 00:41:51,560
Speaker 1: care whatever you think about me. I don't care. I'm happy,

829
00:41:52,960 --> 00:41:54,640
Speaker 1: but I ain't gonna lie. That was triggering when I

830
00:41:54,680 --> 00:42:00,400
Speaker 1: got to think about all the hurt. But would you

831
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:03,320
Speaker 1: do sky diving again? You saw me? Yeah, did you

832
00:42:03,360 --> 00:42:07,000
Speaker 1: do that again? I would never wait. I jumped off

833
00:42:07,040 --> 00:42:11,040
Speaker 1: the thing in Jamaica that was healing. Yeah, I did

834
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:13,120
Speaker 1: it one time too. Then you start looking up on

835
00:42:13,200 --> 00:42:15,320
Speaker 1: him YouTube because I didn't wear a cot. I was

836
00:42:15,360 --> 00:42:18,960
Speaker 1: gonna join a club because it was so free. Right,

837
00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:21,279
Speaker 1: join the club and we go every week. And then

838
00:42:21,360 --> 00:42:24,400
Speaker 1: somebody up here showed me the sky diving accidents. And

839
00:42:24,480 --> 00:42:26,680
Speaker 1: I've seen people getting electrocq to get caught, the lines,

840
00:42:26,760 --> 00:42:28,560
Speaker 1: the polls and everything that happen. I's like, now, I'm good.

841
00:42:28,560 --> 00:42:32,879
Speaker 1: I got six Hey, Faith over fear, buddy. The moral

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Speaker 1: of this interview. Is healing isn't a task? And he

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Speaker 1: trying to do all healing? Is it? Linear? Healing is

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Speaker 1: a journey. Now that's right, that's right. You really gonna

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Speaker 1: autograph my book? You just said that because I got you. Man.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate when I have autograph because I ain't bringing

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Speaker 1: my book done. I got give it the crust, but

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Speaker 1: I'll have enough. But I appreciate what you out here doing. Cab.

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Speaker 1: I do, I really do because people need to hear

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Speaker 1: from me. Don't care to day smelling it. That was

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Speaker 1: a learning that wasn't donna get to day though. That

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Speaker 1: was It was funny. I thought that should have been

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Speaker 1: a challenge. I wanted people to do it like you want.

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Speaker 1: You want me to. He wanted me to eat this

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Speaker 1: Kevin Gates, It's the breakfast song. Good morning,