Speaker 1: Misspelling with Tory spelling and iHeartRadio podcast. Okay, so I'm
Speaker 1: here at my public storage that I have four units
Speaker 1: at because I have a long history of stuff. I mean,
Speaker 1: I have stuff in these units. I'm not a order
Speaker 1: I'm a collector. That's my story and sticking to it.
Speaker 1: But I have stuff here from literally from my childhood,
Speaker 1: my stuff from my dad. I have memorabilia from nine
Speaker 1: to two to zero. I have wardrobe from the nineties,
Speaker 1: like everything you were recreating. I have the og stuff here,
Speaker 1: and I have all my kids memories. I have everything
Speaker 1: from like my eighteen year marriage, everything until well, I
Speaker 1: guess a year ago when we had to like escape
Speaker 1: the house with mold and everything was put into storage.
Speaker 1: But anyway, didn't have the money to pay for the units,
Speaker 1: so they actually what happens is I never knew this
Speaker 1: before because I chose not to know it. My brain
Speaker 1: wouldn't accept the knowledge that if you don't pay, it
Speaker 1: like goes into lean and then they cut your locks
Speaker 1: off put their own locks on, then you can't get
Speaker 1: back into it, and then eventually it goes up for auction.
Speaker 1: So a very kind human stopped it from going up
Speaker 1: for auction. Months before last and now, yeah, I have
Speaker 1: friends helping me to get back into some of the
Speaker 1: units right now. So I want to give a special
Speaker 1: thank you to my friend Amy Sugarman for stepping up.
Speaker 1: And I don't know, I always say like it it
Speaker 1: pays off eventually to be a good person, and eventually
Speaker 1: good people get helped, you know, when they need it.
Speaker 1: And she's a really amazing human for stepping in, and
Speaker 1: she paid for two of the units to help me
Speaker 1: get my stuff out. But here we are. So we
Speaker 1: got a locksmith to come out here and we're like, okay,
Speaker 1: we have to do this quick. Didn't anticipate that, and
Speaker 1: he said I can be here in twenty months. He
Speaker 1: was here in twenty minutes. He came up and had
Speaker 1: to By the time we pulled up, he was back
Speaker 1: in his car and we're like, hey, what's going on.
Speaker 1: He's like, oh, I just had the wrong tool. I
Speaker 1: will be back. I was like, oh, okay, I think
Speaker 1: all these locks are the same with public storage, if
Speaker 1: you know, you know. But anyway, my producer Lorraine went
Speaker 1: down to find him and he was gone, car's gone.
Speaker 1: We can't find him. So she called the company and
Speaker 1: the company said I'm really sorry. He's a great locksmith,
Speaker 1: but he got sorry sorry, what is the wording? He
Speaker 1: doesn't work well in crowds. He doesn't work well with
Speaker 1: a crowd. In front of a crowd, people watching. So uh,
Speaker 1: there's three of us here, and it's like, wait, they're
Speaker 1: just like helping me get stuff out and everything. Okay,
Speaker 1: So I mean, hey, you know, performance anxiety comes in
Speaker 1: many forms. We know that he got like lock fright.
Speaker 1: You know us actors get stage fright. He got lock fright. Anyway,
Speaker 1: he's gone. So we had all these plans, and when
Speaker 1: you're in tories world, nothing is easy. You get you
Speaker 1: get roadblocks, and then you move on. So we're sitting
Speaker 1: in it's very cold, right, it's very cold. You guys
Speaker 1: look for their heads up. Last time I was here,
Speaker 1: there was a cockroach. It was the size of a
Speaker 1: small dog. Oh I'm not kidding. I was like, good
Speaker 1: for you that you've kept yourself alive and found some
Speaker 1: stuff in here, probably from my unit. Who knows there's
Speaker 1: probably fucking old food in there. Yeah, so here we are.
Speaker 1: We plan to do this podcast inside the unit. Were
Speaker 1: going through. Someone's here, Okay, someone's coming, so hold please Wow.
Speaker 2: I told him that's what I had to do over
Speaker 2: the phone. I just he was already there.
Speaker 1: He just had to finish. Well, sometimes when you have
Speaker 1: a foreman anxiety, I can't finish, so you know, these
Speaker 1: things happen. Wow. So the owner of the company just came,
Speaker 1: very nice man, he apologized. So, I guess what do
Speaker 1: you say his name was? We'll just call him Bob
Speaker 1: for the sake of privacy, Bob Aari had it drilled.
Speaker 1: He just got nervous in front of all three of us.
Speaker 1: And uh, anyway, Jeremy, Jeremy just came and picked the
Speaker 1: and got a sence. So we're in.
Speaker 3: Here we go.
Speaker 1: Mother. I knew this was going to be the case.
Speaker 1: So here's the thing. It was a crap. Shoot you guys.
Speaker 1: There's four units. Didn't know what was in any of them.
Speaker 1: We can only do two right now because Amy helped
Speaker 1: me out with two. Shoot, you guys. I don't think
Speaker 1: this is anything that I actually need. Oh a travel
Speaker 1: bad good. Don't need that. It's all dean stuff. You guys.
Speaker 1: We fucked up, you guys. Wrong unit, wrong unit, wrong unit,
Speaker 1: great nothing, Oh my god. No, there's some artwork of
Speaker 1: mine in a mirror here that I love. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: think this is most of dean stuff. I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: I'm so sad right now. I just wanted to get
Speaker 1: like my memorabilia and my kids stuff, and this is
Speaker 1: nothing that we need.
Speaker 2: For fucking shit. Oh my god, talk about getting screwed,
Speaker 2: Like what the fuck? I still sort up a box
Speaker 2: of screws you guys.
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Oh good h professional spot and stain remover.
Speaker 1: So thanks my friend Amy. We paid for two units,
Speaker 1: but yeah, those two units again will come up if
Speaker 1: we don't clear them out, and if I don't pay
Speaker 1: for the other two units. I mean literally, our whole
Speaker 1: lives are in these units, and I don't know. I
Speaker 1: gotta be honest, like, for a long time Dean wanted
Speaker 1: to clear these out and he was right, and he said,
Speaker 1: we got to pare down and we don't need all
Speaker 1: this stuff. And sometimes stuff is just stuff. But for me,
Speaker 1: it wasn't just stuff, even small things. It was a
Speaker 1: part of it was my story, it was my journey,
Speaker 1: every little thing. He would say, I put too much
Speaker 1: emotional attachment on inanimate objects, but I I don't know.
Speaker 1: It's hard to let go of stuff that you work
Speaker 1: so hard to create, like I created this life, I
Speaker 1: really did, and they're all memories. And to just get
Speaker 1: rid of everything just felt like it was it was.
Speaker 1: It felt to me like part of me didn't exist.
Speaker 1: I was just erasing something, and so I couldn't let go.
Speaker 1: But now I'm ready to let go of a lot
Speaker 1: of stuff. Well because I do, because I can't pay
Speaker 1: for it. But since since Dean and I split, and
Speaker 1: since my life has changed so radically, it is a
Speaker 1: whole fresh start, and I do there's a lot of
Speaker 1: things I want to hold on to. And when I
Speaker 1: go through this, my best friend justices this with me
Speaker 1: a lot, and she'll be like, do you need this?
Speaker 1: Do this? Do you want it? And I was like, no,
Speaker 1: I'll keep that. I'll keep that. And then she's like,
Speaker 1: you don't need it, and I was like, okay, fine,
Speaker 1: it's left in my own devices. I will keep everything
Speaker 1: because everything has a place. I'm holding on to my past.
Speaker 1: I mean, we're finding crap right now in this one.
Speaker 1: There's four units and there's some things here, but a
Speaker 1: lot of it. This sounds so silly, like it's really silly,
Speaker 1: but it like that mirror back there, like it's probably
Speaker 1: worth nothing now, but like at the time, it was
Speaker 1: really expensive and it was from Europe, and it was
Speaker 1: just I worked really hard and I made my own
Speaker 1: way and made my own money, and it was a
Speaker 1: representation of this life I lead that people still in comments, right, oh,
Speaker 1: you know, get a job, Like get a job. I
Speaker 1: have fifty Like I'm fucking struggling, man, Like I have
Speaker 1: five kids to pay for in LA And a part
Speaker 1: of me is like, you know, I was raised a
Speaker 1: certain way and I can't forget that, and it's what
Speaker 1: I knew, and it's like I don't even know what
Speaker 1: I would like in it too, But like you are
Speaker 1: raised a certain way and then all of a sudden,
Speaker 1: it's like, oh but just as I don't know acclimate,
Speaker 1: here's your new life and it's very radically different, and
Speaker 1: just go for it. So there's some things that are
Speaker 1: still ingrained in me. You know, I lived in a
Speaker 1: fifty six thousand square foot house. You guys, it's it's
Speaker 1: all relative. I understand. I don't want sympathy, but it's
Speaker 1: like I was taught, or wasn't taught how to function
Speaker 1: in the real world. You know, that's the reality. And
Speaker 1: I'm doing the best I can. It was fight or flight,
Speaker 1: like I got out there, and then, you know, I
Speaker 1: went from my parents having this huge life to Nino
Speaker 1: two ono and I, you know, my dad gave me
Speaker 1: that life, and I'm grateful, but I created that life
Speaker 1: beyond that, you know, And it just shows them in
Speaker 1: your hand at something you just then it's what you
Speaker 1: make of it. And I made something big of it,
Speaker 1: and I went for it, and I created ten years
Speaker 1: of an amazing character with that show, and then went
Speaker 1: on to do a lot of hard work and create
Speaker 1: a lot of things. And I think people don't even
Speaker 1: I don't want credit. I've never wanted fucking credit. But
Speaker 1: people don't acknowledge that. And I read in comments all
Speaker 1: the time people are like, get job, you know, and
Speaker 1: and people will even write, oh, she's doing a project.
Speaker 1: Oh did her dad make that? I'm like, my dad
Speaker 1: passed away seventeen years ago. No, this project is mine.
Speaker 1: I created it, I produced it, I'm making it. I
Speaker 1: want to tell you something that's not going to be shocking.
Speaker 1: I'm not good with money. I suck with money. I
Speaker 1: didn't even know how to write a check till I
Speaker 1: was in my forties. I had never been inside a
Speaker 1: bank till I was in my forties. I just saw
Speaker 1: them in movies. I love a good heist film. In
Speaker 1: my twenties, you know, and I've written about it in
Speaker 1: my books. You know, I had an endless stream of money.
Speaker 1: I worked my butt off for it. You know. I worked,
Speaker 1: you know, five days a week. We would film seventeen
Speaker 1: hour days sometimes, but I would spend it as soon
Speaker 1: as it came in. I would spend it. And I
Speaker 1: didn't understand. And I remember, like Ian Searing telling me, like,
Speaker 1: what do you doing? You got to invest, like you
Speaker 1: need to buy a house. You're making all this money,
Speaker 1: how come no investment. I didn't understand what it meant.
Speaker 1: All my co stars in Nintima were making investments, they
Speaker 1: were buying properties, they were being smart about it, and
Speaker 1: I didn't know. And I had no guidance at all.
Speaker 1: I had no guidance. So I was really good at
Speaker 1: collecting beanie babies though they're in here somewhere. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: have like every single one, even slother super rare. So
Speaker 1: this is the first step. May first we lose all
Speaker 1: of this again. So I gotta get all of this
Speaker 1: out of here. Because again I'll just lose it again. So, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm a hoarder. You guys. Hi, my name's Torrian. I'm
Speaker 1: a hoarder. There I said it real. I always tell
Speaker 1: people I'm not a hoarder. I'm a collector. You know
Speaker 1: what was interesting is, for the first time in forever,
Speaker 1: when we left the house that had mold, we had
Speaker 1: to go to an Airbnb and it's all clean and
Speaker 1: it's all beautiful, and I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I can breathe. And I was like, why can I breathe?
Speaker 1: I can breathe because I don't have oh my shit
Speaker 1: falling on top of me like it's you know, I
Speaker 1: walk into other people's houses and they're pristine, and I'm
Speaker 1: just make a joke like, oh, you're a neat freak.
Speaker 1: Oh I'm like the opposite. I'm messy. But I'm not
Speaker 1: just messy. I'm cluttered. I'm cluttered. I'd lead a very
Speaker 1: cluttered life. Hey, they say creatives are often very cluttered
Speaker 1: and they thrive not just in chaos and clutter. But hey,
Speaker 1: I can turn over a new leaf because I can't
Speaker 1: afford a new locker here. So I would like to change.
Speaker 1: I would like to start to paar, damn. I would
Speaker 1: like to clean up my life for my kids because
Speaker 1: they deserve better. What I got the worst dress list?
Speaker 1: Do I seem faith? Oh in touch cool Tori spelling
Speaker 1: slash worst cool. This crop top and low slung pants
Speaker 1: looks like something she would wear out shopping. Not on
Speaker 1: a red carpet. Well it was a yellow carpet. But
Speaker 1: I mean, okay, so here's what happened. We the current
Speaker 1: airbnb we are in because we are not in a
Speaker 1: permanent house since mold, we've gone from airbnb to airbnb,
Speaker 1: not an RB Airbnb. I said, m A clear, McLear?
Speaker 1: Uh And and yeah, we don't know how, but somebody
Speaker 1: like literally put our address out in the press, which
Speaker 1: you know, everyone's like, oh, what's the big deal? And
Speaker 1: by the way, not paying fifteen thousand dollars a month,
Speaker 1: just saying that, I want to make that clear. But whatever
Speaker 1: they picked up what that house usually runs for? Lovely
Speaker 1: house by the way, anyway, love the house. It's great house.
Speaker 1: But the addresses out there, it's right in the street.
Speaker 1: Everybody drives by it. There's press sitting on the street.
Speaker 1: Twenty four to seven. The kids and I have to
Speaker 1: like literally creep into the car to get somewhere because
Speaker 1: they followed my kids and I to school and everything,
Speaker 1: and it's just it's not ideal. So when the news
Speaker 1: was breaking of the divorce, I didn't want the kids
Speaker 1: to have to, on top of everything else, go through
Speaker 1: news cruise and stuff sitting on the street. So we
Speaker 1: left the house and when stayed at the Warners Center
Speaker 1: maryon Woodland Hills, which shout out to them. They've always
Speaker 1: been amazing when we're going through mole during last summer
Speaker 1: we stayed there. Anyway, I had my out there that
Speaker 1: was amazing and styled and it was going to be
Speaker 1: such I was going to crush that yellow carpet like
Speaker 1: I was going to get not just best dressed like
Speaker 1: I was. I was going to win the night. And
Speaker 1: it was white. It was symbolic of like new beginnings
Speaker 1: and rebirth and I was so proud. And anyway, got
Speaker 1: to the Roosevelt Hotel to do glam and that's where
Speaker 1: everyone from my heart was staying and getting ready, and
Speaker 1: walked across the street to the awards and doing glam.
Speaker 1: Everything's on point. I should have known something was going
Speaker 1: to go wrong because in my life when I plan,
Speaker 1: it doesn't happen. I'm a last minute person and if
Speaker 1: I don't do it last minute, it's just how I thrive.
Speaker 1: It never works out. And then I was glammed. I
Speaker 1: was already hair on point, makeup on point, yeah. And
Speaker 1: then all of a sudden, we were like, okay, let's
Speaker 1: get the outfit out and looked through the bags because
Speaker 1: we had moved everything from the Marriott that morning, and
Speaker 1: the only bag that didn't make it was the bag
Speaker 1: with my outfit and my jewelbery. So the outfit was
Speaker 1: just gone and I had nothing else. I literally was
Speaker 1: in sweats, and immediately I was like, I don't know
Speaker 1: what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna have to borrow an outfit.
Speaker 1: And I looked at my hairstylist, Kim, and I was
Speaker 1: like your pants. I love your pants and she was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, really okay, And I said I'm so sorry,
Speaker 1: I need to take your pants right now, and she's like,
Speaker 1: I don't have underwear on and I was like nothing,
Speaker 1: I haven't seen before. We got to take him off,
Speaker 1: and then I was like, okay, what top am I
Speaker 1: putting with this? And literally my daughter Stella was like
Speaker 1: anything I have, mom, you can borrow. So it took
Speaker 1: her like tank top, brawlt off her, put it on myself,
Speaker 1: put it on the pants, and we had it out
Speaker 1: the door, and there, folks, you have I guess I
Speaker 1: guess what one would call worse dress. I call it
Speaker 1: how to make something work in a pinch. Literally, My
Speaker 1: producer went next door and Rachel from you know, from Scandabal,
Speaker 1: she offered an outfit, which I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: she's a really kind human. So see there's two storre
Speaker 1: wait so see, there's two sides, three sides, many sides
Speaker 1: to every story and scandal. There you go. But unfortunately
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, okay, sounds good, and
Speaker 1: she was like I think I have a pants suit
Speaker 1: in the car, but then she didn't, So yeah, I
Speaker 1: was like, okay, anyone, everyone here, we are in my room.
Speaker 1: Who's offering me their outfit? And I literally took off
Speaker 1: my hairstylist kin's pants, my daughter Sella's tank top, put
Speaker 1: it all on, headed out the door without a moment
Speaker 1: to even think about it. And I'm not bummed at
Speaker 1: the outfit. The outfit was super cute? Is it was? It?
Speaker 1: Red carpet. Well, iheart's yellow carpet worthy. No, but and
Speaker 1: that's the only thing is I was like, Okay, I
Speaker 1: know when I step onto this carpet tonight, everyone's gonna
Speaker 1: be like, oh wait. But there's like a great story
Speaker 1: and I always have a fun story. But it wasn't
Speaker 1: the moment to tell it. But here I am. You know,
Speaker 1: so it all worked out and tell it on my
Speaker 1: podcast There It Is, Land It Down.
Speaker 3: Litlberty told me that you weren't super five thousand percent
Speaker 3: invested in the outfit. I don't think you've sabotaged it
Speaker 3: on purpose, But do you think there's something inside of
Speaker 3: you that didn't want to wear it and was like,
Speaker 3: we're going to make this go awry?
Speaker 1: No? I actually do not think that because while at
Speaker 1: first so anyway, I'm a fashionista, I can call myself
Speaker 1: that whatever, h I One thing I know is fashion,
Speaker 1: and like stylus, over the years, I always had input
Speaker 1: and they're like, I've had a stylist say to me once.
Speaker 1: It was someone I used to be friends with, so
Speaker 1: he could have said it. It wasn't like talking out of school,
Speaker 1: and he said, you know, all my other clients just
Speaker 1: let me dress them, and I was like, because I
Speaker 1: have good taste and I have input, Like that's weird,
Speaker 1: and you know, I just love fashion. It's something I'm into.
Speaker 1: It's a big part of my life and my amazing
Speaker 1: iHeart team. We were all kind of on it together,
Speaker 1: like picking my outfit and like, this is a new beginning.
Speaker 1: We want something very amy kep referencing Jennifer Aniston and
Speaker 1: I was like, okay, okay, And then literally the day
Speaker 1: before I was like, I gotta be honest with you.
Speaker 1: I love Jennifer Aniston with all my heart and soul,
Speaker 1: but I think her style is plain Jane. I don't
Speaker 1: want to be vanilla like I like to make a statement.
Speaker 1: But we compromised, and actually the outfit I fell in
Speaker 1: love with, and I was not just on board with it.
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, my iHeart family. They
Speaker 1: made a great call, like it was kind of very me. Well,
Speaker 1: I'm not going to tell you about it because you're
Speaker 1: gonna see it. I'm gonna wear it again. We're holding
Speaker 1: on to that sucker because we have it. But it
Speaker 1: was white and it was lacy, and it was very
Speaker 1: Donna Martin meets Tory present day. By the way, I
Speaker 1: never wear white. I gotta tell you one time in
Speaker 1: my twenties, I was smoking weed and I got paranoid
Speaker 1: and I had white overalls on. And I'll never forget
Speaker 1: this because there used to be it was called Nancy's,
Speaker 1: and I think it was like a do you guys
Speaker 1: remember this. It was in the valley, and it was
Speaker 1: like everything was like diet it was before, like it
Speaker 1: was before everyone was like gluten free. It was like
Speaker 1: one of those gluten free restaurants. But this is like
Speaker 1: in literally the late nineties didn't exist. And we went
Speaker 1: there and my friend and I were like, oh, it's
Speaker 1: so funny, like let's order one of everything because it's
Speaker 1: all fat free, like it doesn't matter. And we were
Speaker 1: super high and I got paranoid and while he was ordering,
Speaker 1: I was like, Ooh, the room's spinning. Something's happening. And
Speaker 1: I went into the bathroom and they had to call him. Uh.
Speaker 1: He came in and I was on the ground hugging
Speaker 1: the toilet and I just remember saying, Oh my god,
Speaker 1: please don't let me die in these white overalls because
Speaker 1: I'm sure I've dirtied them now, and like that's gonna
Speaker 1: look terrible. I'm like in like soiled like overalls, I'm
Speaker 1: on a dirty floor and he was like tea and
Speaker 1: I was like, hey, I'm gonna die. He's like, You're
Speaker 1: not gonna die, You're just high. And sure enough, I
Speaker 1: was just high. From that moment on, I never wore
Speaker 1: white again in public, So maybe maybe that's why I
Speaker 1: somehow self sabotaged it. Clearly, there's more here than meets
Speaker 1: the eye. I mean literally, you guys fine, I've said it,
Speaker 1: I'm on record saying it. I'm a order and and
Speaker 1: I'm going to change though. People don't change right now.
Speaker 1: I love great expectations the movie That's why I named
Speaker 1: my son Finn. Gwyneth Paltrow says people don't change