1 00:00:02,279 --> 00:00:07,080 Speaker 1: Well, here we are. Hey Hurdler's Emily a body here 2 00:00:07,440 --> 00:00:10,840 Speaker 1: with a new Hurdle moment from Hurdle, a podcast that 3 00:00:10,920 --> 00:00:14,640 Speaker 1: talks to everyone from entrepreneurs to top CEOs and athletes 4 00:00:14,680 --> 00:00:17,880 Speaker 1: about how they've gotten through tough times hurdles of sorts 5 00:00:18,320 --> 00:00:23,279 Speaker 1: by leaning in to wellness. Today the episode that so 6 00:00:23,520 --> 00:00:26,800 Speaker 1: many of you have been asking me for since Sunday's 7 00:00:26,840 --> 00:00:32,800 Speaker 1: Chicago marathon a recap. I thought a lot about writing 8 00:00:32,840 --> 00:00:35,000 Speaker 1: this one down. I thought a lot about how I 9 00:00:35,040 --> 00:00:40,800 Speaker 1: would structure this episode and decided that instead of overthinking it, 10 00:00:41,440 --> 00:00:46,479 Speaker 1: I would just go off the cuff. So in today's episode, 11 00:00:46,600 --> 00:00:49,040 Speaker 1: I'm going to be talking about a day that has 12 00:00:49,200 --> 00:00:53,239 Speaker 1: forever changed my life. If you've been following along on 13 00:00:53,280 --> 00:00:57,280 Speaker 1: social media where if you haven't, regardless, I'm so appreciative 14 00:00:57,360 --> 00:00:59,960 Speaker 1: that you are in my little corner of the Interweay 15 00:01:00,960 --> 00:01:09,440 Speaker 1: Chicago was unbelievable. I did something on Sunday that I 16 00:01:09,520 --> 00:01:12,560 Speaker 1: never thought would be possible for me, and to be 17 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:17,280 Speaker 1: honest with you, wasn't even something in terms of goals 18 00:01:17,319 --> 00:01:21,800 Speaker 1: that was on my radar. On Sunday, I ran twenty 19 00:01:21,840 --> 00:01:25,679 Speaker 1: six point two miles through the streets of Chicago in 20 00:01:25,800 --> 00:01:31,600 Speaker 1: three hours, twenty eight minutes and eight seconds. I say that, 21 00:01:31,680 --> 00:01:35,800 Speaker 1: and I'm an immediate loss for words because although I 22 00:01:35,920 --> 00:01:38,800 Speaker 1: know it's real, although I know it happened, trust me, 23 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:44,800 Speaker 1: my body feels like it happened. It feels surreal. I'm 24 00:01:44,880 --> 00:01:49,640 Speaker 1: so grateful for the experience. I'm so thankful for the 25 00:01:49,680 --> 00:01:52,960 Speaker 1: support of my friends and my family and of course 26 00:01:53,480 --> 00:01:57,120 Speaker 1: from all of you. And in today's episode, I'm going 27 00:01:57,160 --> 00:02:00,840 Speaker 1: to talk through what happened. How did that happened? As 28 00:02:00,840 --> 00:02:05,280 Speaker 1: someone that before Sunday had a marathon personal best of 29 00:02:05,440 --> 00:02:11,320 Speaker 1: three forty nine thirteen that's over a twenty one minute difference, 30 00:02:11,560 --> 00:02:15,040 Speaker 1: And today I'm going to give you some insight into 31 00:02:15,080 --> 00:02:18,040 Speaker 1: how that really happened, or at least you know what 32 00:02:18,120 --> 00:02:22,000 Speaker 1: I've been able to piece together of it. Anyway, you 33 00:02:22,080 --> 00:02:25,200 Speaker 1: guys know the drill. I've been connecting with so many 34 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:28,520 Speaker 1: of you on social media, so of course continue to 35 00:02:28,600 --> 00:02:30,840 Speaker 1: reach out to me. I read all of your messages 36 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:33,359 Speaker 1: and do the best that I can to try and 37 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:35,880 Speaker 1: get back to you. It is at Emily a Body 38 00:02:35,919 --> 00:02:39,520 Speaker 1: and at Hurdle podcast on Instagram, as well as Emily 39 00:02:39,600 --> 00:02:43,840 Speaker 1: at Hurdle dot us over email, and lastly, before I 40 00:02:43,880 --> 00:02:45,800 Speaker 1: get into it a huge thank you to all the 41 00:02:45,880 --> 00:02:48,720 Speaker 1: hurdlers that came out on Friday before the marathon out 42 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:51,920 Speaker 1: in Chicago at Lululemon Lincoln Park for a little running. 43 00:02:52,040 --> 00:02:54,240 Speaker 1: It blows my mind every time when I'm able to 44 00:02:54,360 --> 00:02:57,679 Speaker 1: travel and congregate with a group of like minded individuals 45 00:02:57,720 --> 00:03:01,200 Speaker 1: because of what I have been creating. And so I'm 46 00:03:01,240 --> 00:03:04,240 Speaker 1: eternally grateful, And I guess that's just the theme of 47 00:03:04,240 --> 00:03:06,520 Speaker 1: this week. Just so much gratitude to all of you 48 00:03:07,200 --> 00:03:10,679 Speaker 1: and to everyone who empowers me to do what it 49 00:03:10,720 --> 00:03:15,480 Speaker 1: is that I love every single day. And with the HUT, 50 00:03:16,320 --> 00:03:29,640 Speaker 1: let's get to hurtling. I will always always remember October thirteenth, 51 00:03:29,960 --> 00:03:33,840 Speaker 1: twenty nineteen. To say that what happened in Chicago has 52 00:03:33,840 --> 00:03:39,600 Speaker 1: forever changed me would be a drastic understatement. I think 53 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:41,960 Speaker 1: the best way to kind of go about the formatting 54 00:03:42,000 --> 00:03:44,880 Speaker 1: of this episode is probably to talk about the week 55 00:03:45,000 --> 00:03:48,400 Speaker 1: leading up to race day. First, of course, months of 56 00:03:48,440 --> 00:03:54,320 Speaker 1: preparation go into a successful marathon. That means a lot 57 00:03:54,360 --> 00:03:58,240 Speaker 1: of opportunity costs. That means sticking to a training schedule, 58 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:01,720 Speaker 1: It means sometimes go out there when you don't want to, 59 00:04:02,120 --> 00:04:04,760 Speaker 1: and also listening to your body when it says that 60 00:04:04,800 --> 00:04:09,800 Speaker 1: it's had enough for me though this marathon. The biggest 61 00:04:09,840 --> 00:04:12,840 Speaker 1: difference in the lead up In the build up to 62 00:04:12,920 --> 00:04:17,400 Speaker 1: race day was how I handled the week before. I've 63 00:04:17,400 --> 00:04:21,040 Speaker 1: been doing a lot of listening to experts and just 64 00:04:21,160 --> 00:04:25,360 Speaker 1: taking in information about what it is that stress can 65 00:04:25,440 --> 00:04:29,160 Speaker 1: really do to the body, and going into the beginning 66 00:04:29,160 --> 00:04:32,840 Speaker 1: of last week, I made a conscious decision to rid 67 00:04:32,920 --> 00:04:36,440 Speaker 1: myself of the stressors that I did not need, of 68 00:04:36,600 --> 00:04:39,720 Speaker 1: things that did not serve me. I really wanted to 69 00:04:39,800 --> 00:04:43,160 Speaker 1: protect my energy, and so a majority of the week 70 00:04:43,240 --> 00:04:46,000 Speaker 1: leading up to the marathon, I did spend a lot 71 00:04:46,000 --> 00:04:48,240 Speaker 1: of time by myself, but I also made sure that 72 00:04:48,320 --> 00:04:50,679 Speaker 1: the time that I was spending with others was truly 73 00:04:51,000 --> 00:04:55,480 Speaker 1: valuable with friends, with family and so on. I didn't 74 00:04:55,560 --> 00:05:00,080 Speaker 1: open myself up to interactions with individuals that would make 75 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:03,200 Speaker 1: me feel lesser than and so granted, as much as 76 00:05:03,240 --> 00:05:06,840 Speaker 1: I love the social community, I wasn't spending much of 77 00:05:06,880 --> 00:05:11,680 Speaker 1: my time on Instagram or other channels just because I 78 00:05:11,720 --> 00:05:15,839 Speaker 1: didn't want to get into the comparison whole. I also 79 00:05:15,960 --> 00:05:19,240 Speaker 1: consciously did things that made me feel good, that made 80 00:05:19,320 --> 00:05:21,359 Speaker 1: me happy, and this has been a big theme in 81 00:05:21,400 --> 00:05:25,200 Speaker 1: my life lately. For when I feel like I'm struggling 82 00:05:25,320 --> 00:05:27,320 Speaker 1: going back to the list that I keep of what 83 00:05:27,440 --> 00:05:29,880 Speaker 1: these things are. Literally, it's in a journal that I 84 00:05:29,920 --> 00:05:32,279 Speaker 1: have called fifty two Lists for Happiness, and one of 85 00:05:32,320 --> 00:05:34,120 Speaker 1: the things is make a list of the things that 86 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:37,000 Speaker 1: make you happy. On that list is going to dinner 87 00:05:37,040 --> 00:05:39,520 Speaker 1: at my favorite restaurant. It's drinking a glass of wine 88 00:05:39,560 --> 00:05:42,840 Speaker 1: on my couch. It's having deep discussions with people that 89 00:05:42,880 --> 00:05:45,720 Speaker 1: matter to me, taking a walk to my favorite spot 90 00:05:45,800 --> 00:05:49,599 Speaker 1: on the East River, cleaning my apartment, listening to Billie Joel, 91 00:05:49,920 --> 00:05:53,279 Speaker 1: going for a jog. I mean, these are simple things 92 00:05:53,400 --> 00:05:56,400 Speaker 1: that bring me joy, a lot of which don't cost anything. 93 00:05:56,839 --> 00:06:00,120 Speaker 1: My time last week was divided between these things as 94 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:03,119 Speaker 1: well as the necessary things that I could do within 95 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:05,920 Speaker 1: my control to put me and my body in the 96 00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:08,560 Speaker 1: best position for race day. With that said, there are 97 00:06:08,560 --> 00:06:10,960 Speaker 1: a ton of different recovery techniques that I had been 98 00:06:11,080 --> 00:06:14,040 Speaker 1: incorporating leading up to race Day. You can hear about 99 00:06:14,080 --> 00:06:16,279 Speaker 1: a lot of those in the special episode I did 100 00:06:16,400 --> 00:06:20,800 Speaker 1: on Recovery with Dan Gerdano. Those included eastam I use 101 00:06:20,839 --> 00:06:23,880 Speaker 1: a power dot device. I'll link to that in the 102 00:06:23,880 --> 00:06:27,880 Speaker 1: description of this episode. Also foam rolling using my thera gun, 103 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:33,080 Speaker 1: taking ice baths to reduce inflammation, also moving more throughout 104 00:06:33,120 --> 00:06:35,480 Speaker 1: the day, keeping the blood flow going, I mean, and 105 00:06:35,520 --> 00:06:40,320 Speaker 1: then most importantly sleep. I made sleep the biggest priority 106 00:06:40,720 --> 00:06:43,320 Speaker 1: ever last week, to the point where I would almost 107 00:06:43,360 --> 00:06:45,640 Speaker 1: say it ultimately made me a little bit anxious. I 108 00:06:45,720 --> 00:06:48,760 Speaker 1: made it a point last week every single night to 109 00:06:48,880 --> 00:06:52,880 Speaker 1: unplug by around eight forty five pm and be in 110 00:06:52,920 --> 00:06:56,400 Speaker 1: my bed sleeping when possible by nine point thirty. All 111 00:06:56,400 --> 00:06:58,640 Speaker 1: the recovery things, just trying to do the best that 112 00:06:58,720 --> 00:07:02,560 Speaker 1: I could to to give my body some love and 113 00:07:03,120 --> 00:07:04,920 Speaker 1: just do the best I could leading into race day. 114 00:07:05,320 --> 00:07:08,680 Speaker 1: All right, So now wheels up to Chicago. Got into 115 00:07:08,760 --> 00:07:13,240 Speaker 1: Chicago on Friday morning around eleven am. I would always 116 00:07:13,320 --> 00:07:15,840 Speaker 1: recommend anyone who is traveling for a race to get 117 00:07:15,840 --> 00:07:20,120 Speaker 1: there at least about forty eight hours beforehand, and definitely 118 00:07:20,160 --> 00:07:22,520 Speaker 1: make sure to have at least one night's sleep in 119 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:26,680 Speaker 1: a foreign place. Before the night's sleep in a foreign place, 120 00:07:26,720 --> 00:07:28,000 Speaker 1: you just want to do the best you can to 121 00:07:28,040 --> 00:07:30,920 Speaker 1: set yourself up to be comfortable where you're laying your 122 00:07:30,960 --> 00:07:33,320 Speaker 1: head at night. The weekend before race day was really 123 00:07:33,520 --> 00:07:36,600 Speaker 1: just doing all the normal things, hitting up the expo, 124 00:07:37,240 --> 00:07:40,040 Speaker 1: checking in with some friends. I went to listen to 125 00:07:40,080 --> 00:07:43,160 Speaker 1: a good friend of mine give a discussion on the 126 00:07:43,240 --> 00:07:45,560 Speaker 1: Nike next percent. I would be remiss if I didn't 127 00:07:45,560 --> 00:07:48,840 Speaker 1: say that I was really, really nervous, but I did 128 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:51,280 Speaker 1: the best that I could just to stay positive and 129 00:07:51,320 --> 00:07:54,320 Speaker 1: continue in those forty eight hours to surround myself and 130 00:07:54,440 --> 00:07:57,760 Speaker 1: talk with really good people. As always my pre race tradition, 131 00:07:58,040 --> 00:08:00,840 Speaker 1: by two pm the day before, I had everything I 132 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:05,000 Speaker 1: would need for Sunday laid out, from bib to pins 133 00:08:05,040 --> 00:08:09,640 Speaker 1: for the bib, to sneakers, clothing, absolutely everything, So that way, 134 00:08:09,800 --> 00:08:12,120 Speaker 1: when I went to dinner on Saturday night, I didn't 135 00:08:12,160 --> 00:08:15,040 Speaker 1: have to come back and worry about the logistics. At 136 00:08:15,080 --> 00:08:17,080 Speaker 1: that time, I was able just to unwind and get 137 00:08:17,080 --> 00:08:20,800 Speaker 1: into bed and just breathe now, just to set up 138 00:08:21,120 --> 00:08:24,600 Speaker 1: the scene for how I felt and where my head 139 00:08:24,640 --> 00:08:27,240 Speaker 1: was that going into Sunday. When I went to the 140 00:08:27,320 --> 00:08:30,080 Speaker 1: expo on Friday and wrote down what I felt was 141 00:08:30,120 --> 00:08:34,480 Speaker 1: my crazy goal of three forty. I've always been really 142 00:08:34,760 --> 00:08:37,839 Speaker 1: intentional about setting smart goals, and that's something that we 143 00:08:38,000 --> 00:08:41,400 Speaker 1: talked about many a time on the podcast before. That 144 00:08:41,440 --> 00:08:47,000 Speaker 1: means specific, measurable, attainable, realistic, and time down for me, 145 00:08:48,240 --> 00:08:52,120 Speaker 1: A three forty marathon would have been over a nine 146 00:08:52,440 --> 00:08:56,400 Speaker 1: minute personal record, and that is a big jump for 147 00:08:56,480 --> 00:08:59,640 Speaker 1: someone to make. So when I wrote down that three forty, 148 00:09:00,040 --> 00:09:02,959 Speaker 1: to be honest, I was very intimidated to even share 149 00:09:03,040 --> 00:09:06,679 Speaker 1: that goal because it felt really crazy. It didn't necessarily 150 00:09:06,720 --> 00:09:10,960 Speaker 1: feel smart, but I was ready to put myself out there, 151 00:09:10,960 --> 00:09:13,679 Speaker 1: and I really thought that by sharing a three forty 152 00:09:13,720 --> 00:09:17,720 Speaker 1: time goal that maybe the pressures of social media of 153 00:09:18,160 --> 00:09:21,600 Speaker 1: wanting to stay accountable and really putting myself out there 154 00:09:22,040 --> 00:09:25,000 Speaker 1: would work for my psyche and kind of push me harder. 155 00:09:25,320 --> 00:09:28,560 Speaker 1: And that's a conversation, to be entirely candid, that I 156 00:09:28,800 --> 00:09:31,960 Speaker 1: have been having a lot lately. I think it is 157 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:35,920 Speaker 1: really scary to be your open and honest self when 158 00:09:35,920 --> 00:09:39,640 Speaker 1: there are so many people that are watching. I fall 159 00:09:39,679 --> 00:09:42,800 Speaker 1: back on smart goals because I know that they are realistic, 160 00:09:42,880 --> 00:09:45,800 Speaker 1: but I also set them in this way so that 161 00:09:46,320 --> 00:09:50,400 Speaker 1: I'm not necessarily failing in front of the masses. The 162 00:09:50,480 --> 00:09:52,680 Speaker 1: thing is, and I've said this so many times as well, 163 00:09:52,720 --> 00:09:56,280 Speaker 1: that obviously there is a lesson in every single failure, 164 00:09:56,360 --> 00:09:59,760 Speaker 1: and I understand that that doesn't mean I want the 165 00:10:00,760 --> 00:10:02,840 Speaker 1: I don't know if embarrassment is the right word, but 166 00:10:02,960 --> 00:10:05,800 Speaker 1: the embarrassment. In having a conversation with a good friend 167 00:10:05,800 --> 00:10:08,480 Speaker 1: of mine on Saturday about this very topic. I said 168 00:10:08,520 --> 00:10:13,120 Speaker 1: to him, I wonder if this scared feeling, of this 169 00:10:13,840 --> 00:10:17,440 Speaker 1: lack of desire to fail publicly is what's been holding 170 00:10:17,480 --> 00:10:21,960 Speaker 1: me back for really going after my crazy. And I think, 171 00:10:22,640 --> 00:10:25,800 Speaker 1: as Chicago showed us, my crazy was the sub three 172 00:10:25,800 --> 00:10:31,120 Speaker 1: point thirty going into the race. On Sunday, I wake 173 00:10:31,240 --> 00:10:33,840 Speaker 1: up at four fifteen in the morning, which is technically 174 00:10:33,920 --> 00:10:36,800 Speaker 1: five fifteen at home, which isn't all that different from 175 00:10:36,800 --> 00:10:40,680 Speaker 1: my usual do some journaling. Then I go grab myself 176 00:10:40,760 --> 00:10:44,720 Speaker 1: a cup of espresso, come back upstairs, and start doing 177 00:10:44,760 --> 00:10:46,640 Speaker 1: all the normal things as if I'm just going out 178 00:10:46,679 --> 00:10:50,199 Speaker 1: for another long run. I breathe my hair, I get dressed, 179 00:10:50,320 --> 00:10:53,000 Speaker 1: I shake up my pre workout. I put the pre 180 00:10:53,080 --> 00:10:55,840 Speaker 1: workout as well as a bagel with peanut butter and jelly, 181 00:10:56,360 --> 00:10:59,920 Speaker 1: and some bodyguide and my spy bel into my race okay, 182 00:11:00,360 --> 00:11:02,559 Speaker 1: bag and then I head out to the bus that's 183 00:11:02,559 --> 00:11:04,840 Speaker 1: going to bring me to the starting line. We get 184 00:11:04,920 --> 00:11:08,200 Speaker 1: to the starting line, I'm lucky enough to have access 185 00:11:08,240 --> 00:11:11,200 Speaker 1: to a VIP tent. I go in there, I put 186 00:11:11,240 --> 00:11:15,160 Speaker 1: on the spy belt, I apply some last minute bodyguide. 187 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:17,880 Speaker 1: I am with some friends and that really helps me 188 00:11:18,000 --> 00:11:20,160 Speaker 1: kind of ease my nerves. And then we all get 189 00:11:20,160 --> 00:11:22,480 Speaker 1: into the corral and kind of separate, and that's when 190 00:11:22,480 --> 00:11:24,640 Speaker 1: I close my eyes, standing in the middle of all 191 00:11:24,760 --> 00:11:28,000 Speaker 1: these people and just take a moment for myself. When 192 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:30,160 Speaker 1: I went into the race, my goal was to run 193 00:11:30,280 --> 00:11:34,840 Speaker 1: comfortable splits between eight fifteen and eight thirty. My previous 194 00:11:35,040 --> 00:11:38,280 Speaker 1: personal record the splits were around eight forty five, so 195 00:11:38,320 --> 00:11:41,360 Speaker 1: I didn't want to shoot too fast, especially from the 196 00:11:41,360 --> 00:11:44,120 Speaker 1: get go, as not to burn out. As I'm closing 197 00:11:44,160 --> 00:11:45,960 Speaker 1: my eyes and I'm standing in the corral and I 198 00:11:45,960 --> 00:11:49,480 Speaker 1: feel so much energy around me, the start actually happens, 199 00:11:49,520 --> 00:11:52,000 Speaker 1: and because I'm in corral e we wait for about 200 00:11:52,040 --> 00:11:54,839 Speaker 1: ten to fifteen minutes before we get the green light 201 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:58,680 Speaker 1: to move, and I'm just standing there, breathing and telling 202 00:11:58,720 --> 00:12:02,000 Speaker 1: myself that whatever is going to happen that day, whatever 203 00:12:02,120 --> 00:12:05,280 Speaker 1: is about to happen, that it is what is supposed 204 00:12:05,320 --> 00:12:09,839 Speaker 1: to happen, and that I need to continually stay calm. Now, 205 00:12:10,240 --> 00:12:13,360 Speaker 1: on the note of calm, I grabbed coffee with a 206 00:12:13,360 --> 00:12:15,800 Speaker 1: girlfriend of mine. Her name's Jess Movall. She's also the 207 00:12:15,880 --> 00:12:18,920 Speaker 1: coach over for Runners World and Movalld and I were 208 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:24,040 Speaker 1: talking on Thursday before I left for Chicago, and her 209 00:12:24,080 --> 00:12:27,079 Speaker 1: biggest piece of advice to me was continually go back 210 00:12:27,120 --> 00:12:30,480 Speaker 1: to calm. And when I left that conversation, I told her, 211 00:12:30,520 --> 00:12:32,120 Speaker 1: I shot her a text and I said, I just 212 00:12:32,200 --> 00:12:34,559 Speaker 1: want you to know that the words that you told 213 00:12:34,600 --> 00:12:38,000 Speaker 1: me are arguably going to be the biggest game changer 214 00:12:38,080 --> 00:12:42,359 Speaker 1: for me comes Sunday and left such a major impact 215 00:12:42,600 --> 00:12:45,000 Speaker 1: and relevant to this situation. But just in general, I 216 00:12:45,040 --> 00:12:48,120 Speaker 1: think we overlook often how awesome it is to have 217 00:12:48,160 --> 00:12:51,800 Speaker 1: the opportunity to have these important conversations with other people 218 00:12:51,880 --> 00:12:55,040 Speaker 1: to say something impactful. I know, I certainly don't take 219 00:12:55,080 --> 00:12:58,720 Speaker 1: it for granted, especially when it comes to this podcasting platform. 220 00:12:58,920 --> 00:13:01,600 Speaker 1: And so for me, me in that moment, it was 221 00:13:01,800 --> 00:13:04,560 Speaker 1: just exactly what I needed to hear. So the starting 222 00:13:04,640 --> 00:13:07,200 Speaker 1: end goes off and we start kicking. At the beginning, 223 00:13:07,280 --> 00:13:10,920 Speaker 1: we go under a few different bridges, obviously knowing that 224 00:13:11,000 --> 00:13:12,920 Speaker 1: the GPS was going to be off a little bit, 225 00:13:13,120 --> 00:13:16,840 Speaker 1: and I started moving and by mile three I realized 226 00:13:16,880 --> 00:13:19,760 Speaker 1: that I was maintaining a seven forty five mile and 227 00:13:20,280 --> 00:13:23,320 Speaker 1: as I said, this wasn't the goal, especially not at 228 00:13:23,320 --> 00:13:25,880 Speaker 1: the beginning, not for the warm up. But what I 229 00:13:25,960 --> 00:13:28,959 Speaker 1: continually kept to do was check in with myself on 230 00:13:29,240 --> 00:13:32,720 Speaker 1: an RPE scale, which is a rate of perceived exertion. 231 00:13:33,520 --> 00:13:35,880 Speaker 1: I asked myself, okay, right now, if you were to 232 00:13:35,920 --> 00:13:38,800 Speaker 1: close your eyes and keep running, how hard did you 233 00:13:38,920 --> 00:13:41,760 Speaker 1: feel as though you were trying? Knowing again that we're 234 00:13:41,800 --> 00:13:44,120 Speaker 1: at the beginning, that I'm not trying to tire out, 235 00:13:44,160 --> 00:13:46,600 Speaker 1: that I wanted to be responsible, and when I would 236 00:13:46,600 --> 00:13:49,200 Speaker 1: close my eyes, I could say without a doubt that 237 00:13:49,320 --> 00:13:51,880 Speaker 1: I felt as though I was at about a six. 238 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:54,960 Speaker 1: A six is somewhere that I felt comfortable at. It 239 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,720 Speaker 1: was a place that I knew that I could maintain, 240 00:13:57,160 --> 00:13:59,959 Speaker 1: and so I kept going based off of that feel. 241 00:14:00,679 --> 00:14:03,040 Speaker 1: I feel like this is a lot of rambling about pace, 242 00:14:03,080 --> 00:14:04,920 Speaker 1: but when I was running at a seven forty five, 243 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:07,480 Speaker 1: which was definitely faster than what I was aiming for, 244 00:14:07,720 --> 00:14:10,400 Speaker 1: I still felt comfortable and I didn't feel like I 245 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:13,480 Speaker 1: was over exerting myself, so I went with it. I 246 00:14:13,600 --> 00:14:16,800 Speaker 1: kept getting the alert from my watch at every mile, 247 00:14:17,040 --> 00:14:21,760 Speaker 1: and every single mile from one to I don't know, 248 00:14:22,120 --> 00:14:26,480 Speaker 1: I think mile eighteen. The timing was between a seven 249 00:14:26,720 --> 00:14:30,160 Speaker 1: forty five and an eight minute mile most of them 250 00:14:30,360 --> 00:14:33,280 Speaker 1: seven fifty five, seven forty five, seven forty six, seven 251 00:14:33,320 --> 00:14:36,280 Speaker 1: forty five, seven forty seven, seven fifty nine, I mean 252 00:14:36,360 --> 00:14:39,160 Speaker 1: all in this sweet spot. I started to realize that 253 00:14:39,280 --> 00:14:43,360 Speaker 1: something was happening here. Either I was going to be 254 00:14:43,400 --> 00:14:46,720 Speaker 1: able to hold this steady pace or I was going 255 00:14:46,800 --> 00:14:50,000 Speaker 1: to be frustrated with myself that I had given it 256 00:14:50,040 --> 00:14:51,960 Speaker 1: too much of the beginning. And I was nervous a 257 00:14:51,960 --> 00:14:53,920 Speaker 1: little bit that I was going to fade. But by 258 00:14:53,960 --> 00:14:58,080 Speaker 1: the time that I got to mile eighteen and I 259 00:14:58,160 --> 00:15:01,440 Speaker 1: was still within this fifteen second and range every single 260 00:15:01,480 --> 00:15:04,200 Speaker 1: time it clicked by this is when I knew that 261 00:15:04,440 --> 00:15:08,800 Speaker 1: Sunday had the opportunity to be really special. Now. I 262 00:15:08,840 --> 00:15:12,280 Speaker 1: hadn't held my phone or looked at it throughout the 263 00:15:12,440 --> 00:15:14,520 Speaker 1: entire race. At this point called my dad and I 264 00:15:14,600 --> 00:15:16,160 Speaker 1: was like, I need you to tell me what it 265 00:15:16,240 --> 00:15:18,440 Speaker 1: says is my projected finish time? And he tells me 266 00:15:18,520 --> 00:15:21,040 Speaker 1: that at mile eighteen it says my projected finish is 267 00:15:21,080 --> 00:15:27,560 Speaker 1: three twenty six. I start crying immediately, obviously still running. 268 00:15:27,720 --> 00:15:30,600 Speaker 1: Still crying, I said, okay, I needed that I hang 269 00:15:30,680 --> 00:15:33,200 Speaker 1: up with him and I just keep going. And this 270 00:15:33,280 --> 00:15:36,800 Speaker 1: is the point in the race. That completely changes everything 271 00:15:36,840 --> 00:15:39,440 Speaker 1: for me, because this is the point where I stop 272 00:15:39,520 --> 00:15:42,000 Speaker 1: being scared about the things that I can't control and 273 00:15:42,120 --> 00:15:46,560 Speaker 1: what could happen, and I'm more decisive of creating that 274 00:15:46,680 --> 00:15:49,720 Speaker 1: for myself. And so I'm running these seven forty five 275 00:15:49,800 --> 00:15:53,120 Speaker 1: eight minute miles and I'm not willing to change that. 276 00:15:53,640 --> 00:15:55,720 Speaker 1: Instead of thinking to myself, when am I going to 277 00:15:55,800 --> 00:15:58,320 Speaker 1: hit the wall, I changed the conversation too, I'm not 278 00:15:58,480 --> 00:16:00,640 Speaker 1: going to hit the wall. Also, I had done a 279 00:16:00,680 --> 00:16:03,560 Speaker 1: really great job setting myself up to not hit the 280 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:06,320 Speaker 1: wall throughout this entire race. I would say I ate 281 00:16:06,560 --> 00:16:09,840 Speaker 1: throughout the duration of the entire marathon at least five 282 00:16:09,960 --> 00:16:13,120 Speaker 1: full packets of the Gatorade and Durance Choose. I'm a 283 00:16:13,160 --> 00:16:15,960 Speaker 1: really big fan of the fruit punch flavor. I also 284 00:16:16,280 --> 00:16:18,320 Speaker 1: had a quarter of a banana at one point that 285 00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:20,360 Speaker 1: someone gave me from the sides because I was like, 286 00:16:20,400 --> 00:16:23,880 Speaker 1: this is gonna help with muscle cramping. I drank a 287 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:28,280 Speaker 1: sip of Gatorade and Durance Formula at every single aid station, 288 00:16:28,640 --> 00:16:31,760 Speaker 1: Like there was not one water station that I passed 289 00:16:31,800 --> 00:16:34,560 Speaker 1: that I did not grab a cup from someone. Also 290 00:16:34,880 --> 00:16:37,040 Speaker 1: a user tip for that when you're grabbing the cup, 291 00:16:37,080 --> 00:16:39,600 Speaker 1: I always kind of make a little funnel with it, 292 00:16:39,640 --> 00:16:41,800 Speaker 1: So squeeze it together so it's more of an oval 293 00:16:41,840 --> 00:16:44,080 Speaker 1: opening instead of a circle. Pour a little bit out 294 00:16:44,120 --> 00:16:46,200 Speaker 1: and then drink so it's easier to drink, it's not 295 00:16:46,240 --> 00:16:49,920 Speaker 1: spilling all over yourself, and you can keep moving. Who 296 00:16:50,760 --> 00:16:53,720 Speaker 1: tire just talking about this, all right? So at this 297 00:16:53,840 --> 00:16:57,000 Speaker 1: point my mindset is different. I hadn't said out loud 298 00:16:57,040 --> 00:17:00,120 Speaker 1: the words I'm going for a BQ, but I I 299 00:17:00,160 --> 00:17:04,919 Speaker 1: started to think them, and it was really overwhelming, to 300 00:17:04,920 --> 00:17:09,440 Speaker 1: be honest with you, because literally, in my wildest dreams, 301 00:17:09,520 --> 00:17:12,240 Speaker 1: I never thought that I would be the kind of 302 00:17:12,320 --> 00:17:15,479 Speaker 1: runner that was doing what I was doing at that time. 303 00:17:16,640 --> 00:17:20,080 Speaker 1: It was one thing earlier in the summer to train 304 00:17:20,400 --> 00:17:23,400 Speaker 1: for a single mile distance, to learn how to run 305 00:17:23,480 --> 00:17:26,760 Speaker 1: really fast, to learn how that feels. But it's a 306 00:17:26,840 --> 00:17:31,479 Speaker 1: completely different beast to be able to hold any amount 307 00:17:31,480 --> 00:17:34,119 Speaker 1: of speed for twenty six point two miles. And so 308 00:17:34,720 --> 00:17:38,320 Speaker 1: because this was never a goal of mine, that made 309 00:17:38,400 --> 00:17:41,320 Speaker 1: what was happening just so much more surreal. And in 310 00:17:41,359 --> 00:17:44,160 Speaker 1: my gut, it was like I never dreamed of even 311 00:17:44,200 --> 00:17:46,960 Speaker 1: getting to a place in a marathon where eighteen miles 312 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:49,960 Speaker 1: in a BQ was a possibility, and so when it 313 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:54,920 Speaker 1: became a possibility, you better believe there was absolutely nothing 314 00:17:55,000 --> 00:17:57,199 Speaker 1: that was going to happen that was going to stop 315 00:17:57,200 --> 00:17:59,119 Speaker 1: me from giving it my all to go after it. 316 00:17:59,520 --> 00:18:02,840 Speaker 1: At my twenty I saw a girlfriend of mine on 317 00:18:02,920 --> 00:18:05,640 Speaker 1: the sidelines and it was the first time I said 318 00:18:05,680 --> 00:18:08,480 Speaker 1: out loud, I'm going for the BQ, and I got 319 00:18:08,520 --> 00:18:11,359 Speaker 1: an instant burst of energy, and I kept pushing forward, 320 00:18:11,480 --> 00:18:14,720 Speaker 1: knowing that I had at least two more friends that 321 00:18:14,760 --> 00:18:16,760 Speaker 1: would be on the sides before I got to the 322 00:18:16,760 --> 00:18:20,199 Speaker 1: finish over the next six miles, and I really used 323 00:18:20,320 --> 00:18:24,199 Speaker 1: those two individuals as benchmarks for pushing myself. Both of 324 00:18:24,240 --> 00:18:26,600 Speaker 1: them would be after mile twenty five. But I just 325 00:18:26,680 --> 00:18:29,479 Speaker 1: kept pushing forward, and again when it felt hard, when 326 00:18:29,520 --> 00:18:32,520 Speaker 1: I felt like my legs were getting toward that point 327 00:18:32,560 --> 00:18:36,439 Speaker 1: of hitting the wall, I just didn't let it take me. 328 00:18:36,640 --> 00:18:39,920 Speaker 1: I didn't let it overcome me. I kept pushing forward, 329 00:18:40,040 --> 00:18:43,320 Speaker 1: and I was so dialed in on what was happening there. 330 00:18:44,240 --> 00:18:47,320 Speaker 1: I saw my friend at twenty five as well as 331 00:18:47,359 --> 00:18:49,960 Speaker 1: another friend of mine that's a photographer, and he snapped 332 00:18:49,960 --> 00:18:51,840 Speaker 1: a photo, and when he was running with me to 333 00:18:51,880 --> 00:18:54,360 Speaker 1: grab the photo, I said to him, today's the day, 334 00:18:54,359 --> 00:18:57,520 Speaker 1: I'm gonna beq. We better make this good. And after 335 00:18:57,640 --> 00:18:59,680 Speaker 1: he snapped it, and I kept running and kept thinking 336 00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:02,239 Speaker 1: to myself, you better not f this up, because if 337 00:19:02,280 --> 00:19:06,040 Speaker 1: you do, you're gonna be embarrassed forever. Looking at that photo. 338 00:19:07,080 --> 00:19:10,399 Speaker 1: I saw my best friend at mile twenty five about 339 00:19:10,600 --> 00:19:13,200 Speaker 1: and she was just so excited for me, and she said, 340 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:14,840 Speaker 1: You've got this in the bag. You've got this in 341 00:19:14,880 --> 00:19:17,960 Speaker 1: the bag. And I kept pushing and pushing until I 342 00:19:18,000 --> 00:19:19,440 Speaker 1: got to the small hill at the end and I 343 00:19:19,520 --> 00:19:21,560 Speaker 1: ran down the hill to the finish and I crossed, 344 00:19:21,560 --> 00:19:27,240 Speaker 1: and I was just beside myself. I get into a 345 00:19:27,280 --> 00:19:30,880 Speaker 1: loss of words every time I say it, like every 346 00:19:30,920 --> 00:19:34,400 Speaker 1: time it comes out of my mouth, because so many 347 00:19:34,520 --> 00:19:39,800 Speaker 1: things went into that moment, not just the fourteen weeks 348 00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:42,919 Speaker 1: of training, not just to the exercises I was doing 349 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:45,720 Speaker 1: before race day on that week leading up to it, 350 00:19:45,880 --> 00:19:50,680 Speaker 1: not just how I executed that race. What I realized 351 00:19:50,800 --> 00:19:54,160 Speaker 1: in that moment after I crossed the finish line is that, 352 00:19:54,240 --> 00:19:57,360 Speaker 1: maybe more so than ever before in my life, did 353 00:19:57,400 --> 00:20:02,760 Speaker 1: I believe that I was capable. And I truly, in 354 00:20:02,800 --> 00:20:05,959 Speaker 1: my gut and in my heart, I know that the 355 00:20:06,000 --> 00:20:08,520 Speaker 1: way that I was talking to myself. The way that 356 00:20:08,600 --> 00:20:13,159 Speaker 1: I handled that marathon from a mental perspective, that is 357 00:20:13,200 --> 00:20:17,280 Speaker 1: what got me to that place. Now, I think what's 358 00:20:17,320 --> 00:20:22,000 Speaker 1: really important, just to reiterate, is that a twenty one 359 00:20:22,240 --> 00:20:28,639 Speaker 1: minute pr took me nine years of running. For the 360 00:20:28,680 --> 00:20:31,879 Speaker 1: first seven marathons that I did, they were all within 361 00:20:31,960 --> 00:20:36,119 Speaker 1: a thirteen minute span, with one outlier. I've run marathons 362 00:20:36,119 --> 00:20:38,280 Speaker 1: that were three forty nine and I've run marathons that 363 00:20:38,320 --> 00:20:41,240 Speaker 1: were four fourteen. And when I think about what made 364 00:20:41,280 --> 00:20:45,040 Speaker 1: this one different, aside from the mental parts of it, 365 00:20:45,200 --> 00:20:47,479 Speaker 1: was that this was the year that I found my 366 00:20:47,640 --> 00:20:51,480 Speaker 1: fast and I believed that I could training for the mile. 367 00:20:51,560 --> 00:20:55,399 Speaker 1: As I mentioned earlier, that was game changing for me 368 00:20:55,520 --> 00:20:59,000 Speaker 1: because I was finding paces that the Emily who started 369 00:20:59,080 --> 00:21:01,760 Speaker 1: running back into two thousand and eight she never thought 370 00:21:01,800 --> 00:21:06,119 Speaker 1: were possible. And now Emily in twenty nineteen, she wasn't 371 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:08,879 Speaker 1: just capable of running a six oh seven mile, she 372 00:21:09,000 --> 00:21:12,040 Speaker 1: was capable of a mile warm up around a track 373 00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:14,680 Speaker 1: at eight minutes and feeling good. I keep going back 374 00:21:14,800 --> 00:21:18,080 Speaker 1: to the quote that Shelaine said about Kipchogi when she 375 00:21:18,160 --> 00:21:20,720 Speaker 1: was announcing the breaking two over the weekend. She said, 376 00:21:20,920 --> 00:21:24,040 Speaker 1: sometimes you can't be what you can't see he's going 377 00:21:24,080 --> 00:21:26,960 Speaker 1: to be an example for all future athletes. More than that, 378 00:21:27,080 --> 00:21:29,760 Speaker 1: his message is to the world, what are you capable 379 00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:35,520 Speaker 1: of doing? What is your best self? For me on Sunday, 380 00:21:36,520 --> 00:21:40,359 Speaker 1: I knew what I was capable of, I accepted it, 381 00:21:40,480 --> 00:21:44,280 Speaker 1: and I went after my best knowing that I could. 382 00:21:44,840 --> 00:21:49,120 Speaker 1: I stopped worrying about what other people thought, I stopped 383 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:55,400 Speaker 1: being so concerned with what wasn't and instead I put 384 00:21:55,440 --> 00:21:58,400 Speaker 1: myself out there and I went after what I deserved 385 00:21:58,400 --> 00:22:01,760 Speaker 1: because I had put in the world. People run marathons 386 00:22:01,800 --> 00:22:04,080 Speaker 1: and they say that the sport it changes your life, 387 00:22:04,119 --> 00:22:07,840 Speaker 1: and it does. Because this is just it's evidence to 388 00:22:07,920 --> 00:22:10,679 Speaker 1: me that I have the ability to go after my 389 00:22:10,840 --> 00:22:14,680 Speaker 1: dreams in any sense of the word, whatever it is. 390 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:17,280 Speaker 1: You know, there are so many things and people and 391 00:22:17,359 --> 00:22:20,840 Speaker 1: situations that make you feel like you are lesser than 392 00:22:21,160 --> 00:22:24,359 Speaker 1: whether it is in business or in your relationships. I 393 00:22:24,359 --> 00:22:28,080 Speaker 1: can fairly certainly tell you that being a woman that's 394 00:22:28,119 --> 00:22:31,240 Speaker 1: single in her early thirties, I'm so tired of being 395 00:22:31,280 --> 00:22:34,359 Speaker 1: made to feel like something is wrong with me. But 396 00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:40,640 Speaker 1: for me, with running with Sunday, I went after something 397 00:22:41,760 --> 00:22:45,960 Speaker 1: that was mine and no one could take that from me. 398 00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:52,520 Speaker 1: And it's really special when you show up for yourself, 399 00:22:52,560 --> 00:22:59,800 Speaker 1: you know, really really special. And so what's her streaming 400 00:23:00,240 --> 00:23:06,080 Speaker 1: my face? All I want to offer you all from this, 401 00:23:06,240 --> 00:23:10,520 Speaker 1: My biggest taking from this is that show up for yourself. 402 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:14,840 Speaker 1: There are going to be times when it's hard, there 403 00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:18,639 Speaker 1: are going to be people that have opinions, but putting 404 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:29,520 Speaker 1: yourself out there, it's really it's special. I want you 405 00:23:29,600 --> 00:23:34,920 Speaker 1: to know that I understand that these things are scary, 406 00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:38,639 Speaker 1: but it takes a really awesome person to have the 407 00:23:38,720 --> 00:23:42,959 Speaker 1: courage to be brave, to show up in the first place, 408 00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:46,679 Speaker 1: to put it all on the line, whether it's a 409 00:23:46,720 --> 00:23:50,720 Speaker 1: marathon or it's anywhere else. I want you to know 410 00:23:50,920 --> 00:23:54,400 Speaker 1: that you are valuable no matter what would have happened 411 00:23:54,440 --> 00:23:57,320 Speaker 1: on Sunday, whether or not I got this PR or not. 412 00:23:57,800 --> 00:24:01,119 Speaker 1: This training cycle in particular showed up for myself in 413 00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:04,080 Speaker 1: ways that I never have before, and for that I 414 00:24:04,119 --> 00:24:08,520 Speaker 1: am eternally grateful. And so the question comes up, right, 415 00:24:09,280 --> 00:24:12,600 Speaker 1: what's next? That's what you always want to know. I 416 00:24:12,640 --> 00:24:16,600 Speaker 1: don't know what's next. I think that I am gonna 417 00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:19,280 Speaker 1: take some time off in terms of just listening to 418 00:24:19,320 --> 00:24:21,680 Speaker 1: my body and doing the things that make me feel good. 419 00:24:22,400 --> 00:24:25,040 Speaker 1: I may or may not have my sights set on 420 00:24:25,280 --> 00:24:27,560 Speaker 1: Tokyo in twenty twenty. I think that's going to be 421 00:24:27,680 --> 00:24:31,560 Speaker 1: the most unbelievable race and opportunity. I would be remiss 422 00:24:31,600 --> 00:24:33,920 Speaker 1: if I didn't say that I'd love to go over 423 00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:37,439 Speaker 1: there and run myself a marathon. I never thought that 424 00:24:37,520 --> 00:24:40,080 Speaker 1: a BQY is possible for me, and here we are. 425 00:24:40,640 --> 00:24:44,919 Speaker 1: Will I run Boston? Well, that's probably our conversation for 426 00:24:45,000 --> 00:24:49,080 Speaker 1: another day. But what I do know is that I'm 427 00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:54,840 Speaker 1: proud of me, and I'm just in awe of what 428 00:24:54,960 --> 00:24:58,720 Speaker 1: the human body and the right mindset can really do. 429 00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:02,359 Speaker 1: And that's all for now. Thank you all of you 430 00:25:02,800 --> 00:25:07,600 Speaker 1: for listening to me, for believing in me, for making 431 00:25:07,640 --> 00:25:13,679 Speaker 1: me feel accepted, and giving me this platform to inspire 432 00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:17,720 Speaker 1: and help in whatever way that I can. I am 433 00:25:17,800 --> 00:25:21,720 Speaker 1: eternally grateful, not just for this weekend, but for all 434 00:25:21,760 --> 00:25:29,720 Speaker 1: of you. Another hurdle conquered. Catch you guys next time.