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Speaker 1: Trigger warning.

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Speaker 2: This episode discusses sexual abuse. Viewer discretion is advised. If

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Speaker 2: you or someone you know is experiencing sexual abuse, please

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Speaker 2: call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at one eight hundred

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Speaker 2: six five six four six seventy three.

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Speaker 1: Hello, and welcome to this episode of Keep It Positive, Sweetie.

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Speaker 1: Today I have with me one of my really really

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Speaker 1: really really really really really really good friends, Go Shay.

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Speaker 1: You guys may know her from Gaschet's Breakfast Bar, Groschet's

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Speaker 1: tap Is Bar, or even when she did hair back

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Speaker 1: in the day, but she is here today. We're gonna

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Speaker 1: have some girls talk. I'm so excited to have you

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Speaker 1: here today.

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Speaker 3: Thank you. You don't have to stay back in the

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Speaker 3: day like I'm fifty.

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Speaker 1: Nine, but you are a restaurant tour now.

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Speaker 3: Honey. Yes, indeed, thank you, Thank you.

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Speaker 1: Beck of course, not on excited because you really have

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Speaker 1: a story to tell.

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Speaker 3: Oh God too, you do.

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Speaker 1: And I like to highlight women, especially successful women who

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Speaker 1: have made a name for themselves doing it the right way,

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Speaker 1: but to show because a lot of people see us

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Speaker 1: and they only see the light and like, oh my gosh,

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Speaker 1: she's a boss, she's doing this, she's doing that. But

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Speaker 1: they don't see everything that it took to get to

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Speaker 1: where you are today.

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Speaker 3: Absolutely, yeah, you know what I'm saying. I say that

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Speaker 3: all the time when it comes to social media. You know,

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Speaker 3: people only show the positive, you know, things that they're doing.

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Speaker 3: Then you don't get to see the grind and how

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Speaker 3: you know, all the hardships that they had to get

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Speaker 3: you know, and you just see the glorified part exactly.

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Speaker 1: That's so real. So I like to give them an

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Speaker 1: insight which makes us more relatable. People can see its

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Speaker 1: me like, oh my god, I'm just like her and

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Speaker 1: I can do it too. That's most important part, seeing

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Speaker 1: that they see themselves in us, but also know that

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Speaker 1: they can do it as well, whatever that is that

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Speaker 1: you want to do. So yeah, so let me see

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Speaker 1: we met. I want to say probably around two thousand

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Speaker 3: I think it was more two thousand and twelve with

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Speaker 3: twelve twenty twelve.

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Speaker 1: Wow, that's gracious. I was been flying, Oh for sure,

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Speaker 1: Tom is flying. I used to wear my hair short

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Speaker 1: like O shake, oh god. She would cut my hair

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Speaker 1: for me. You would cut my hair up until the

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Speaker 1: first restaurant. I would live to go to her office

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Speaker 1: and get my hair. I'm like, Gosha, I need I

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Speaker 1: know you're not doing hair, but I need my hair done.

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Speaker 3: You were my postal child. You just didn't know it.

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Speaker 3: I post Crystal to be like bam bam bam, pam.

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Speaker 3: Hits after hits like yes, come, oh, Christal, I need

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Speaker 3: my hair down. Okay, cool, come on a little bit.

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Speaker 1: Look, no, we used to rock that short hair. My goodness,

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Speaker 1: no bowl coats everything. That was my favorite. Oh, my goodness,

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Speaker 1: my favorite. I ain't abou have to cut my hair off, y'all.

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Speaker 1: But if I have the itch sometimes to cut it off.

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Speaker 3: But yeah, well you know you can wear a little wig.

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Speaker 1: And true true, oh yeah, I could do that. I

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Speaker 1: actually do have a short way. You're just reminded me. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I could do that when I'm feeling a little feisty.

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Speaker 1: I like that.

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Speaker 3: I like that.

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Speaker 1: So when I met you, you were doing hair at

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Speaker 1: the time, you were work you had your own salon

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Speaker 1: and at that time it was that midtown Irish glen Iris.

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Speaker 3: Oh yes, that was glen Iris where yeah, oh yeah,

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Speaker 3: that was back in the day.

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Speaker 4: Yeah see yeah, yeah, yeah, glen Iris was the first

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Speaker 4: line and you were doing the Hawks cheerleaders hair, and

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Speaker 4: then you were also styling celebrities hair.

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Speaker 1: You were doing a lot of things.

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Speaker 3: And that's where I first met Malaysia.

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Speaker 1: Yes, yes, yep, yep. And then you got another salon, beautiful,

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Speaker 1: bigger space in the heart of midtown, right off West Peach.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Then what made you want to say, Okay, I

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Speaker 1: want to do hair? What was it that was like this?

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Speaker 3: Well, the funny part is when I was a kid,

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Speaker 3: I never wanted to do hair, never thought about it

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Speaker 3: you know, if you didn't get on the list, she

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Speaker 3: eighteen dollars. Wow, so a minimum you would get in

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Speaker 3: eighteen years. So I was like, wow, this looks like

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Speaker 3: I needed to know about weave. And I tell people

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Speaker 3: all the time she had to be my guardian angel.

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Speaker 3: Because she got out of school, she became a paralegal.

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Speaker 3: She did not even do hair. It was so crazy.

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Speaker 3: I was like, Wow, But I built up my clientele

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Speaker 1: Wow.

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Speaker 3: So I went straight into a salon with a clientele.

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Speaker 3: That's that's a blessing. That had taught me a lot.

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Speaker 1: That's amazing.

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Speaker 3: Wow, that's yeah.

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Speaker 1: So you say you went to prison, what did you

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Speaker 1: What was that?

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Speaker 3: I went to prison? I did two years? And yeah,

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Speaker 3: I went to prison. I did two years. I had

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Speaker 3: just had my son. And the crazy thing is I

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Speaker 3: The first time it was my husband.

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Speaker 1: That's the worst.

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Speaker 3: Which was the worst.

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Speaker 3: It was unbelievable. But you know, when I went to court,

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Speaker 3: they said they sent his name blah blah blah blah

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Speaker 3: What was on my ath day?

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Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, And you got caught up in that.

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Speaker 3: So I did two years. And I always felt like

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Speaker 1: He really didn't want you in the streets. I want you.

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Speaker 3: His mom got my kids. Yeah, I was trying to

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Speaker 3: it was hard, you know, but you know, it taught me.

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Speaker 3: It taught me a lesson, you know, get out of

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Speaker 3: the streets. But the whole thing was I was looking

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Speaker 3: just trying to find love, yes, and just got caught

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Speaker 1: So wow, where do you feel like that getting caught up?

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Speaker 1: Because I know a lot of women have been that

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Speaker 1: all the wrong places. Where do you think that's still

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Speaker 1: from you felt like that was a childhood thing or

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Speaker 1: do you feel like.

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Speaker 3: I think, you know, as a kid, I was abused

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Speaker 3: like it was a really rough childhood, you know. And

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Speaker 3: I ended up being on my own at fourteen, and

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Speaker 3: I was just looking for love in all the wrong places,

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Speaker 3: just trying to be accepted, trying to find somebody. And

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Speaker 3: that's how I found my husband. I ended up getting

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Speaker 3: pregnant at sixteen, had my first baby at seventeen, got

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Speaker 3: at nineteen, Like it was a lot. And you know,

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Speaker 3: even though I went to prison and did all that.

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Speaker 3: I'm not mad, you know, I'm not. Even though my

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: All these things that I did experience with the abuse

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Speaker 1: You know, I must say, you have turned out amazing.

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Speaker 1: And you know, people never see the scars, you know

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Speaker 1: what I'm saying that people carry. I don't even think

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, you know, because I tell people, don't

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: I don't ever want people to feel sorry for me

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Speaker 3: don't feel sorry for me because it is what it is,

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Speaker 3: be who I am today, you know. So I don't

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Speaker 3: because sometimes I still feel like I'm not accepted in

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Speaker 3: certain areas or I don't hang with the you know,

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Speaker 3: just being accepted even though I am super successful. I

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Speaker 3: now that you're successful even more, you know, So that

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Speaker 3: those are things that I still battle with today. You

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Speaker 3: know I haven't. I tried to go to counseling.

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Speaker 1: Next question.

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Speaker 3: I tried, and when I went to counseling, I didn't

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Speaker 3: feel a connection. I didn't feel like they were there

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Speaker 3: for me that's important. I felt like it was a

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Speaker 3: feel like I could use counseling, but it has to

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Speaker 3: be the right chemistry, the right person.

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Speaker 1: I'm with you, because I struggle with that. I had

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Speaker 1: started doing counseling last year and same thing. It was

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Speaker 1: clothing line. I remember you did. We would go to

440
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Speaker 1: Miami and you were shopping for clothes at the fashion

441
00:22:25,200 --> 00:22:28,159
Speaker 1: I do remember. I forgot about that. Yeah, So guys

442
00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:30,920
Speaker 1: just understand, like there's gonna be different journeys. You're gonna

443
00:22:30,920 --> 00:22:33,440
Speaker 1: fall in and out of love with things. One year,

444
00:22:33,480 --> 00:22:36,719
Speaker 1: one passion may be your thing, the next year may not.

445
00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:39,359
Speaker 1: But don't lose hope because eventually you will find your

446
00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:42,000
Speaker 1: niche and what you love to do. I love that gush.

447
00:22:42,160 --> 00:22:44,440
Speaker 3: Yeah. And I like to tell people that you should

448
00:22:44,480 --> 00:22:46,800
Speaker 3: have more than one iron in the fire. Don't put

449
00:22:46,840 --> 00:22:49,320
Speaker 3: all your eggs in one basket. That's it, because this

450
00:22:49,400 --> 00:22:54,640
Speaker 3: may not work. So continuously making this work, this work,

451
00:22:54,760 --> 00:22:57,800
Speaker 3: this workd you know right, because you know, like even

452
00:22:57,840 --> 00:23:00,800
Speaker 3: when I had my hair salon in Alabama, I had

453
00:23:00,840 --> 00:23:03,760
Speaker 3: a clothing store. Yeah, you know, I let that go

454
00:23:03,880 --> 00:23:07,080
Speaker 3: because it it became too much. It was next door. Now,

455
00:23:07,119 --> 00:23:09,280
Speaker 3: if I would have had the clothes in the store,

456
00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:11,920
Speaker 3: it was, but it was so crazy, girl, I would

457
00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:13,960
Speaker 3: be doing here, somebody would come on to buy something.

458
00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:16,240
Speaker 3: I would have to stop on their hair, go next door,

459
00:23:17,800 --> 00:23:21,760
Speaker 3: try to shut and show people, you know, what they

460
00:23:21,800 --> 00:23:24,000
Speaker 3: needed or what they wanted or whatever. It was crazy.

461
00:23:24,880 --> 00:23:26,920
Speaker 1: You was hustling, Yeah, I was, and.

462
00:23:26,840 --> 00:23:28,680
Speaker 3: It was crazy. I want to say this. I don't

463
00:23:28,680 --> 00:23:30,680
Speaker 3: know if I can or not, but anyway, I tell

464
00:23:30,760 --> 00:23:34,520
Speaker 3: people that, you know, like sometime you go to people

465
00:23:34,800 --> 00:23:38,560
Speaker 3: for knowledge, you ask them to help you. And I

466
00:23:38,640 --> 00:23:40,520
Speaker 3: remember it was this lady who lived in Atlanta. I

467
00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:42,600
Speaker 3: lived in Alabama at the time, and I went to

468
00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,600
Speaker 3: her and I asked her if she could help me

469
00:23:44,760 --> 00:23:47,720
Speaker 3: with my clothing store because I did not know, you know,

470
00:23:48,440 --> 00:23:50,439
Speaker 3: what to do, where to buy the clothes or whatever.

471
00:23:51,480 --> 00:23:54,280
Speaker 3: And this lady told me that she could not help me.

472
00:23:54,359 --> 00:23:57,560
Speaker 3: It was a conflict of interest. Now I'll remind you

473
00:23:57,640 --> 00:24:01,680
Speaker 3: I'm in Alabama and she was in I'm never gonna

474
00:24:01,680 --> 00:24:04,760
Speaker 3: forget this lady. And she had this boutique over here

475
00:24:05,560 --> 00:24:06,560
Speaker 3: like close to Lenox.

476
00:24:06,640 --> 00:24:06,840
Speaker 1: Mom.

477
00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:09,320
Speaker 3: Know if you ever heard a signature boutique back in

478
00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:12,200
Speaker 3: the days, it was his lady named Wendy. I was

479
00:24:12,240 --> 00:24:14,879
Speaker 3: so shocked. Station shot with that lady all the time

480
00:24:14,960 --> 00:24:18,520
Speaker 3: from Alabama and I came up here and she was like, yeah,

481
00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:21,520
Speaker 3: that's a conflict of interest for me. I was so shocked,

482
00:24:22,280 --> 00:24:24,119
Speaker 3: But I just say that to say that, you know,

483
00:24:24,280 --> 00:24:27,920
Speaker 3: sometimes you can seek help from you ask people for help,

484
00:24:27,960 --> 00:24:30,000
Speaker 3: and they don't want to help you because they feel

485
00:24:30,000 --> 00:24:34,359
Speaker 3: like your competition to them, or you might do better

486
00:24:34,400 --> 00:24:37,640
Speaker 3: than them or something. And I'm just happy that I'm

487
00:24:37,680 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 3: not that type of person. And I feel like you can.

488
00:24:43,240 --> 00:24:47,640
Speaker 3: I feel like God blesses you more when you're helping people,

489
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:51,480
Speaker 3: you know what I'm saying, and not having a closed fist.

490
00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,679
Speaker 3: Oh no, I can't. I can't help you because you

491
00:24:54,760 --> 00:24:56,399
Speaker 3: might get ahead.

492
00:24:56,880 --> 00:24:59,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, but it's enough room for everybody to eat. And

493
00:24:59,560 --> 00:25:02,680
Speaker 1: when people understand that, they won't be like that. But yeah,

494
00:25:02,720 --> 00:25:04,880
Speaker 1: enough people like I don't want to be in competition

495
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:05,720
Speaker 1: with you because you know.

496
00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:09,960
Speaker 3: How you helped me with that video. Yes, yes, exactly,

497
00:25:10,600 --> 00:25:13,520
Speaker 3: stop my game up with the videos.

498
00:25:13,040 --> 00:25:15,120
Speaker 1: Because I know that's a big part of your branding.

499
00:25:15,400 --> 00:25:16,960
Speaker 1: You know, that's important to know how to do that,

500
00:25:17,480 --> 00:25:19,639
Speaker 1: and yeah, so I'm like, I'm gonna show you how

501
00:25:19,640 --> 00:25:22,240
Speaker 1: to do it. Like it's not a problem I do.

502
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:24,280
Speaker 1: I feel like a lot of people do that and

503
00:25:25,200 --> 00:25:27,119
Speaker 1: I've always been that type of person, like, if I

504
00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:28,760
Speaker 1: can teach you something, I'm gonna teach you. If I

505
00:25:28,800 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 1: can help you, I'm gonna help you.

506
00:25:30,200 --> 00:25:31,640
Speaker 3: That what you do with is on you.

507
00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:33,400
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I gotta keep doing mind,

508
00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:35,800
Speaker 1: but once I spread your wings and I want you

509
00:25:35,840 --> 00:25:38,639
Speaker 1: to soar, you know, do your thing. But that is

510
00:25:38,680 --> 00:25:40,840
Speaker 1: so getting. That's why people are so blessed for sure.

511
00:25:41,720 --> 00:25:44,560
Speaker 1: I always say your living is and your giving and

512
00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 1: people look at me and like, oh my God, why her,

513
00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:50,080
Speaker 1: like why And I'm like, it's not me, you know

514
00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:52,560
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like it's what God has like bestowed

515
00:25:52,640 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 1: up on me. But also the fact that I'm not

516
00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:58,159
Speaker 1: stingy with it, like yeah, you gotta be able. You

517
00:25:58,240 --> 00:26:01,040
Speaker 1: have to be a giver. It's always gonna come back

518
00:26:01,640 --> 00:26:03,280
Speaker 1: in the ways you don't even expect. It may not

519
00:26:03,320 --> 00:26:05,120
Speaker 1: come back in the way you gave it, but it's

520
00:26:05,119 --> 00:26:07,280
Speaker 1: gonna come back and be like, oh wow, I didn't

521
00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:12,320
Speaker 1: even I didn't even expect that thinking about it. Yeah, yeah,

522
00:26:12,359 --> 00:26:14,920
Speaker 1: So that's a great giver to thank you.

523
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Speaker 3: You heard too all the time, and when you're not

524
00:26:18,480 --> 00:26:21,880
Speaker 3: even thinking about it, it's just eight. Yeah, it's amazing.

525
00:26:22,000 --> 00:26:24,200
Speaker 1: Thank you. No, but like literally, that's I think I've

526
00:26:24,200 --> 00:26:26,520
Speaker 1: been like that since I was a kid. Like mm,

527
00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:27,800
Speaker 1: I think I got it for my dad cause my

528
00:26:27,840 --> 00:26:29,960
Speaker 1: dad is always like whatever you need, yeah, got you

529
00:26:30,200 --> 00:26:33,000
Speaker 1: with anybody, Like just the nicest person I ever knew.

530
00:26:33,359 --> 00:26:36,800
Speaker 1: So I gravitated to the kindness and be like generosity,

531
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:40,159
Speaker 1: let me just do this. And when I was growing up,

532
00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:43,280
Speaker 1: my parents instilled in me tithing. It started with giving

533
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:45,879
Speaker 1: to God, and then I realized I was like, Okay,

534
00:26:45,880 --> 00:26:47,080
Speaker 1: I'm gonna just do it cause they told me to

535
00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 1: do it and I would do it, and I'm like, Daddy,

536
00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:51,720
Speaker 1: I did it. And then I got this. This came

537
00:26:51,960 --> 00:26:55,119
Speaker 1: just like that. I'm like, this type of thing really works.

538
00:26:55,400 --> 00:26:56,720
Speaker 1: And I was like, well, what if I tried that

539
00:26:56,840 --> 00:26:59,960
Speaker 1: with other things? And it like literally it always comes back.

540
00:27:00,080 --> 00:27:02,879
Speaker 1: Whatever you sew, it's gonna come back. See but good

541
00:27:02,920 --> 00:27:06,240
Speaker 1: to bad? Oh yeah yeah right, whatever you sawing is

542
00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:07,800
Speaker 1: gonna come back on you. That's so good.

543
00:27:07,840 --> 00:27:10,040
Speaker 3: I used to be happy in church passing around a

544
00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:13,600
Speaker 3: little plate now to my little dollar man. Back in

545
00:27:13,640 --> 00:27:16,920
Speaker 3: the day when I was a kids like it used

546
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:18,040
Speaker 3: to be so happy.

547
00:27:18,440 --> 00:27:20,560
Speaker 1: We used to I remember when I was broke, broke.

548
00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:23,679
Speaker 1: I had moved to Atlanta, and I was so embarrassed.

549
00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:28,280
Speaker 1: I was making six hundred dollars every two weeks, and

550
00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:31,200
Speaker 1: when I got paid, I so, I'm like, cause I

551
00:27:31,240 --> 00:27:32,840
Speaker 1: was used to making more money when I was living

552
00:27:32,880 --> 00:27:34,800
Speaker 1: in DC. Yeah, and I came here, I wasn't making

553
00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:36,800
Speaker 1: a lot of money, and I was like, oh, I'm

554
00:27:37,000 --> 00:27:40,200
Speaker 1: sixty dollars. I just felt embarrassed giving God sixty dollars. Yeah,

555
00:27:40,240 --> 00:27:41,800
Speaker 1: but that's I mean, that was the tenth you know,

556
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,720
Speaker 1: just giving what she got. Yeah, And literally a friend

557
00:27:44,760 --> 00:27:46,240
Speaker 1: of mine called me and he's like, hey, He's like,

558
00:27:46,280 --> 00:27:47,800
Speaker 1: God just told me to bless you. He was like,

559
00:27:48,320 --> 00:27:50,240
Speaker 1: gave me like double what I had already, like what

560
00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:50,960
Speaker 1: I was making.

561
00:27:51,200 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 3: Yeah.

562
00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 1: So I was like, God, okay, you can really being faithful,

563
00:27:54,800 --> 00:27:56,160
Speaker 1: Like I see what you're doing.

564
00:27:56,240 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 3: Lord.

565
00:27:56,720 --> 00:27:58,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I used to, like I remember being so

566
00:27:58,800 --> 00:28:00,480
Speaker 1: broke when I first moved to LA and I was like,

567
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:02,120
Speaker 1: I'm trying to stay faithful, but I can.

568
00:28:02,080 --> 00:28:03,840
Speaker 3: Really use this extra sixty dollars.

569
00:28:05,680 --> 00:28:05,920
Speaker 1: Left.

570
00:28:06,040 --> 00:28:07,760
Speaker 3: And I know that some people feel like, you know,

571
00:28:07,880 --> 00:28:10,480
Speaker 3: like when you're giving, you know, like they tell you

572
00:28:10,600 --> 00:28:12,320
Speaker 3: to give your offerings in church, but you don't have

573
00:28:12,440 --> 00:28:15,840
Speaker 3: to always do it at the church. I get people

574
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:19,679
Speaker 3: money all the time. Like I hear stories of some

575
00:28:19,760 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 3: of my employees struggling, I can't pay their rent, or this,

576
00:28:22,680 --> 00:28:24,680
Speaker 3: that and the third exactly, and I blessed them with

577
00:28:26,320 --> 00:28:28,320
Speaker 3: beause they're doing the right thing. So I'll be feeling like, yeah,

578
00:28:28,359 --> 00:28:30,840
Speaker 3: I don't have to be at church to give, you know,

579
00:28:30,960 --> 00:28:32,400
Speaker 3: I could just give to people.

580
00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:34,760
Speaker 1: You know. I had asked my dad that one day.

581
00:28:34,800 --> 00:28:36,600
Speaker 1: I was like, Dad, I was like, I got all

582
00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:39,320
Speaker 1: this money. I was like, do I have to like

583
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:41,800
Speaker 1: give this to the church or what if there's like

584
00:28:41,840 --> 00:28:45,320
Speaker 1: a foundation, or if I want to like take needy

585
00:28:45,320 --> 00:28:48,160
Speaker 1: families on a shopping free or if I allocate some

586
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:50,640
Speaker 1: of this money for different things. He's like absolutely, So

587
00:28:50,680 --> 00:28:52,560
Speaker 1: I still send money to the church, but I also

588
00:28:52,640 --> 00:28:54,440
Speaker 1: take some of the extra money and be like, hey,

589
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 1: I want to give to this foundation, I want to

590
00:28:56,240 --> 00:29:00,719
Speaker 1: help this person. Same thing, because sometimes people think that

591
00:29:00,720 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 1: that's the only way to give, you know, because I

592
00:29:03,360 --> 00:29:06,040
Speaker 1: look at what my churches do and they do amazing things.

593
00:29:06,040 --> 00:29:07,720
Speaker 1: But I was like, I can do that too, and

594
00:29:07,960 --> 00:29:11,240
Speaker 1: I feel like it still serves the same purpose. You know.

595
00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:13,800
Speaker 3: My mom she was like she'd be calling me every

596
00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:15,720
Speaker 3: now and they're like, can you give a donation to

597
00:29:15,760 --> 00:29:19,400
Speaker 3: the church. Yeah, but next Sunday she'll call me, can

598
00:29:19,440 --> 00:29:23,200
Speaker 3: you give it? No, like I'll give. I'll give like

599
00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,320
Speaker 3: from my heart when I want to, not because you

600
00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:29,680
Speaker 3: want me to, Like, I don't like that. I don't

601
00:29:29,720 --> 00:29:31,640
Speaker 3: like to do stuff like that. I like to do

602
00:29:31,680 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 3: it when I want to do it. Yeah, you know

603
00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 3: you gotta put it on your hair. Not because you

604
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:38,720
Speaker 3: feel like I should be giving my money to your.

605
00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:39,840
Speaker 1: Church because it makes you look good.

606
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:40,880
Speaker 3: I don't even go to your church.

607
00:29:42,600 --> 00:29:43,880
Speaker 1: That church is not hitting me.

608
00:29:46,800 --> 00:29:50,280
Speaker 3: Yeah that's just crazy. But yeah, I love giving to

609
00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:52,920
Speaker 3: people and being able to help. I love it.

610
00:29:53,280 --> 00:29:55,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, and that's why you so was. I tell people

611
00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:59,040
Speaker 1: all the time, like I've had friends and even family

612
00:29:59,080 --> 00:30:02,040
Speaker 1: members that I wanted to figure out why that like

613
00:30:02,080 --> 00:30:05,000
Speaker 1: nothing's really moving. I'm like, you sing, yeah, you gotta

614
00:30:05,040 --> 00:30:06,800
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. You gotta help people, bless people,

615
00:30:06,960 --> 00:30:11,040
Speaker 1: be nice. And they're like, okay, cause I'm like I'm

616
00:30:11,160 --> 00:30:13,040
Speaker 1: just saying. I was like, I'm trying to give you

617
00:30:13,080 --> 00:30:15,360
Speaker 1: a blueprint here. Yes, true, I'm trying to give you

618
00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:19,400
Speaker 1: the blueprint I am. Yeah, let's talk about your kids.

619
00:30:19,400 --> 00:30:22,400
Speaker 1: So you have a daughter a son that I know

620
00:30:22,880 --> 00:30:25,160
Speaker 1: it was. It doesn't so, dang, how many kids are

621
00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:25,640
Speaker 1: gonna get me?

622
00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:27,200
Speaker 3: Oh no, I'm thinking green kids?

623
00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:30,480
Speaker 1: Remember yeah, the grandkids didn't got then go yes, God

624
00:30:30,560 --> 00:30:33,240
Speaker 1: in the sun. What was it like cause I know

625
00:30:33,600 --> 00:30:36,800
Speaker 1: you were taking we were in prison when they were young?

626
00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:37,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, really young?

627
00:30:38,000 --> 00:30:40,960
Speaker 1: What was that like? Getting back with him after that?

628
00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:42,600
Speaker 1: Was it tough? And what's that relationship?

629
00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:45,640
Speaker 3: So? Yeah, So you know, once I got out of prison,

630
00:30:46,080 --> 00:30:49,640
Speaker 3: I wanted to the his m my uh ex husband's

631
00:30:49,640 --> 00:30:53,480
Speaker 3: mom was supposed to just give me the kids back

632
00:30:53,560 --> 00:30:56,280
Speaker 3: when I got out, but of course that didn't happen.

633
00:30:56,600 --> 00:30:56,920
Speaker 1: Mm.

634
00:30:56,960 --> 00:31:00,480
Speaker 3: She wanted uh me to go to court. And you

635
00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:03,760
Speaker 3: know that once you get out of prison, you gotta work.

636
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:07,120
Speaker 3: You gotta show some history, you gotta have a stable life.

637
00:31:07,480 --> 00:31:10,360
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, so I was really upset. So it took

638
00:31:10,400 --> 00:31:13,840
Speaker 3: me probably three years after I got out to be

639
00:31:13,960 --> 00:31:15,920
Speaker 3: able to show that I was stable because of course,

640
00:31:15,960 --> 00:31:17,600
Speaker 3: remember I told you how to go to school. I

641
00:31:17,640 --> 00:31:21,520
Speaker 3: had to find me a place, and it took me

642
00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:26,160
Speaker 3: about three years to go to court get the kids back. It.

643
00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:29,040
Speaker 3: It was real challenging at that time, and I was

644
00:31:29,080 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 3: super depressed about it because I had already been taken

645
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:35,520
Speaker 3: away from them, and then to get out and then

646
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:40,360
Speaker 3: have to, you know, show my life that I'm capable

647
00:31:40,360 --> 00:31:43,640
Speaker 3: and worthy of being in their life. It was a

648
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 3: challenging process for me, but you know, I got them back,

649
00:31:47,520 --> 00:31:50,760
Speaker 3: needless to say, and you know, we've been through some

650
00:31:50,920 --> 00:31:55,320
Speaker 3: times because even though he wasn't in my life, I

651
00:31:55,360 --> 00:31:58,360
Speaker 3: still had to raise them by myself, and so the

652
00:31:58,480 --> 00:32:04,520
Speaker 3: things that I thought was right raising them was basically

653
00:32:04,640 --> 00:32:07,680
Speaker 3: giving them everything, making sure we lived in the best places,

654
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:09,840
Speaker 3: and making sure they had the best clothes, went to

655
00:32:09,880 --> 00:32:13,520
Speaker 3: the best schools. All that I didn't find out till

656
00:32:13,640 --> 00:32:19,280
Speaker 3: now that they're older, that that wasn't important to them.

657
00:32:20,440 --> 00:32:24,120
Speaker 3: And it was very hurtful and disheartening for them to

658
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:27,280
Speaker 3: tell me that because I felt like I was doing

659
00:32:27,360 --> 00:32:30,960
Speaker 3: everything right, getting the best, but they felt like, you

660
00:32:31,040 --> 00:32:34,360
Speaker 3: weren't at my gains, you weren't this, and you weren't there.

661
00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:37,640
Speaker 3: How could I be there if I was the only

662
00:32:37,720 --> 00:32:39,920
Speaker 3: bread winner, you know, I was the one who was

663
00:32:39,960 --> 00:32:43,760
Speaker 3: taking care of everybody right, So you know, they still

664
00:32:43,880 --> 00:32:46,520
Speaker 3: hold that against me, you know, still to this day,

665
00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:49,920
Speaker 3: and it's very disheartening, you know, but I did the

666
00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:52,400
Speaker 3: best that I knew how to do as a parent

667
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:55,760
Speaker 3: with what I had been dealt with, you know.

668
00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:59,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, so wow, And they're grown now, so all my

669
00:32:59,640 --> 00:33:02,680
Speaker 1: hope is that they realized mom was doing the best

670
00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:05,600
Speaker 1: she could with what she knew to do. Oh absolutely,

671
00:33:05,600 --> 00:33:08,080
Speaker 1: you know, because that was something that I finally can't

672
00:33:08,120 --> 00:33:11,320
Speaker 1: agree with with my parents, they were just doing what

673
00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,400
Speaker 1: And I think it's adults we end up learning that

674
00:33:14,080 --> 00:33:16,400
Speaker 1: like dang, like because they we see, like dang, they

675
00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:18,240
Speaker 1: were really just doing the best they could with what

676
00:33:18,280 --> 00:33:21,000
Speaker 1: they knew. It's like a generational thing, you know.

677
00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:23,280
Speaker 3: I mean my parents didn't grow up saying I love

678
00:33:23,360 --> 00:33:25,960
Speaker 3: you and all that. I didn't get all that nurturing

679
00:33:26,040 --> 00:33:28,360
Speaker 3: and all that stuff, like you know, so it was

680
00:33:28,680 --> 00:33:32,840
Speaker 3: it's even hard to this day in relationships, you know,

681
00:33:33,120 --> 00:33:35,680
Speaker 3: saying I love you like I was gonna ask you.

682
00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:38,800
Speaker 3: I used to that. It's like, how do you say it?

683
00:33:38,800 --> 00:33:42,920
Speaker 3: It feels weird? You know, it feels does affection feel weird?

684
00:33:43,400 --> 00:33:46,800
Speaker 3: You know? It used to. I'm learning I'm learning now

685
00:33:47,360 --> 00:33:51,840
Speaker 3: to like it, but before like that was weird.

686
00:33:51,680 --> 00:33:56,600
Speaker 1: Like yeah, yeah, I can imagine then we want to

687
00:33:56,640 --> 00:34:00,440
Speaker 1: be touched, right, Yeah, for most reasons.

688
00:34:00,480 --> 00:34:01,680
Speaker 3: I can totally understand that.

689
00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:05,720
Speaker 1: You set you mentioned even like with your children, j

690
00:34:05,840 --> 00:34:09,040
Speaker 1: after getting out of prison, having still having to prove yourself.

691
00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:11,000
Speaker 1: You know, I feel like that's been like a a

692
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:12,880
Speaker 1: thing that keeps coming up. I had to prove myself.

693
00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:16,000
Speaker 1: I never felt worthy. Yeah, I'm happy that you're n

694
00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:18,440
Speaker 1: finally to a place now where you feel that, you

695
00:34:18,480 --> 00:34:21,440
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, that fulfillment, that worthiness to know

696
00:34:21,480 --> 00:34:24,080
Speaker 1: that like I do deserve this. Yeah, and I'm good. Yeah,

697
00:34:24,080 --> 00:34:27,319
Speaker 1: you know, Yeah, that's good. And I hope that your kids, Ya,

698
00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:31,400
Speaker 1: your kids. I love your kids, two amazing individuals. I

699
00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:33,799
Speaker 1: hope that they see even with their own kids. You know,

700
00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:36,719
Speaker 1: I know your daughter has children. I hope that she

701
00:34:36,840 --> 00:34:39,000
Speaker 1: sees that she's doing the best that she can and

702
00:34:39,360 --> 00:34:42,279
Speaker 1: can at some point see herself in you. Right, you

703
00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:44,560
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, cause that'll make that makes all

704
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:46,560
Speaker 1: the difference. Yeah, you know, And that's all a mom

705
00:34:46,560 --> 00:34:48,520
Speaker 1: really wants to hear, Like I get in mon, Yeah,

706
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:49,839
Speaker 1: you did the best you could.

707
00:34:49,920 --> 00:34:50,280
Speaker 3: Yeah.

708
00:34:50,360 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 1: But I do understand too, coming from a p a

709
00:34:53,239 --> 00:34:56,680
Speaker 1: home where my both my parents worked, one of the

710
00:34:56,840 --> 00:34:58,840
Speaker 1: one of them at least tried to be there for everything,

711
00:34:58,920 --> 00:35:01,600
Speaker 1: But my dad missed a lot because he was always

712
00:35:01,640 --> 00:35:04,200
Speaker 1: working like one or two jobs, at least two jobs

713
00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:07,880
Speaker 1: at once. And as a kid, you do want that,

714
00:35:08,200 --> 00:35:10,200
Speaker 1: you know. It's like that that didn't matter. And I

715
00:35:10,239 --> 00:35:12,240
Speaker 1: would look at my friends that lived in the hood

716
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:14,840
Speaker 1: where all they had was family because they didn't have

717
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:15,399
Speaker 1: the other thing.

718
00:35:15,480 --> 00:35:17,359
Speaker 3: That's so crazy you said that lived in hood because

719
00:35:17,400 --> 00:35:21,000
Speaker 3: I remember my son saying, I got friends who live

720
00:35:21,040 --> 00:35:23,800
Speaker 3: in the projects and they just as happy. You know

721
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:25,719
Speaker 3: what I'm saying. He say, they don't have nothing and

722
00:35:25,719 --> 00:35:30,480
Speaker 3: they happy. And I was like, well, go your ass shit,

723
00:35:31,760 --> 00:35:32,759
Speaker 3: and that's what school to do.

724
00:35:32,760 --> 00:35:33,440
Speaker 1: I'll let you be there.

725
00:35:33,600 --> 00:35:36,360
Speaker 3: Yeah shit. I mean he used to make me feel

726
00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:39,520
Speaker 3: guilty all the time, like it was so crazy, and

727
00:35:39,680 --> 00:35:42,960
Speaker 3: still to this day he still makes me feel guilty.

728
00:35:43,680 --> 00:35:44,640
Speaker 1: Yeah I hate that.

729
00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:46,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, me too, I do.

730
00:35:46,640 --> 00:35:49,040
Speaker 1: Because you hope at some point they'd be like, I.

731
00:35:49,000 --> 00:35:52,640
Speaker 3: Know, because they like and you still we still having

732
00:35:52,640 --> 00:35:53,600
Speaker 3: these conversations.

733
00:35:54,640 --> 00:35:58,000
Speaker 1: You're gonna let me live, right, Mama got to have

734
00:35:58,040 --> 00:35:58,600
Speaker 1: a life too.

735
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:03,600
Speaker 3: When you say, okay, i'm'a let you, i'm'a let you

736
00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:06,480
Speaker 3: have that. You did what you could. Yeah, so we

737
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:07,520
Speaker 3: gonna move forward.

738
00:36:07,800 --> 00:36:11,520
Speaker 1: Right, I don't know. Yeah, no, I I I get it.

739
00:36:11,560 --> 00:36:14,239
Speaker 1: As a child who was on the opposite end, like

740
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:15,840
Speaker 1: the same with the same thing. I always be l

741
00:36:16,040 --> 00:36:17,520
Speaker 1: look at my friends in the hood and be like

742
00:36:18,120 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 1: or I would go hang with him and I'd be like, dang,

743
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:24,080
Speaker 1: it's like a lot of love here, you know. But

744
00:36:24,120 --> 00:36:26,080
Speaker 1: my pa, it was love in my h household too,

745
00:36:26,160 --> 00:36:28,960
Speaker 1: but it was shown a different way. Making sure we

746
00:36:29,000 --> 00:36:31,040
Speaker 1: had a nice roof over our head, making sure we

747
00:36:31,120 --> 00:36:35,080
Speaker 1: had a car, making sure we had clothes. Yeah, all

748
00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:37,359
Speaker 1: the things, vacations, you know, saying making sure we got

749
00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:40,439
Speaker 1: a new wardrobe every season, like things did My friends

750
00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:42,480
Speaker 1: in the hood probably even get even know what that

751
00:36:42,680 --> 00:36:45,440
Speaker 1: was like, you know, but it was something about just

752
00:36:45,480 --> 00:36:48,040
Speaker 1: the love and the fun they had the families to

753
00:36:48,120 --> 00:36:50,719
Speaker 1: have fun in the hood. That's crazy, he said that,

754
00:36:50,880 --> 00:36:52,520
Speaker 1: cause I used to say the same thing.

755
00:36:53,040 --> 00:36:56,680
Speaker 3: Make conversation, right, why shut up?

756
00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:01,319
Speaker 1: I love it? I love it. So what is next Forgochet? Like,

757
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:07,160
Speaker 1: I know you have the restaurants you just started franchising. Yeah,

758
00:37:07,760 --> 00:37:11,839
Speaker 1: that's crazy. Yeah, girl, you're out of here.

759
00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:12,319
Speaker 3: Yeah.

760
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:14,160
Speaker 1: How much is it what it costs you can get

761
00:37:14,160 --> 00:37:14,640
Speaker 1: a s ballpark?

762
00:37:14,680 --> 00:37:15,000
Speaker 3: Figure?

763
00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:17,719
Speaker 1: If somebody's watching and wants to franchise.

764
00:37:18,160 --> 00:37:20,759
Speaker 3: So if they wanted to franchise, we sell our franchises

765
00:37:20,800 --> 00:37:21,880
Speaker 3: for thirty five thousand.

766
00:37:22,080 --> 00:37:24,239
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, so kind of like Chick fil A, Cause

767
00:37:24,280 --> 00:37:25,560
Speaker 1: Chick fil A isn't that it seems to be there.

768
00:37:25,560 --> 00:37:28,319
Speaker 3: But you guys, you gotta have this networth and all

769
00:37:28,400 --> 00:37:34,200
Speaker 3: this money and yeah implicated as Chick fil A because

770
00:37:34,239 --> 00:37:36,960
Speaker 3: you know, Chick fil A, you have to be you know,

771
00:37:37,239 --> 00:37:39,200
Speaker 3: Christian and all this stuff.

772
00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:41,360
Speaker 1: Got some stipulations.

773
00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:44,360
Speaker 3: We love you, Chick fil A. We just want you

774
00:37:44,480 --> 00:37:45,920
Speaker 3: to be passionate about it.

775
00:37:46,000 --> 00:37:52,080
Speaker 5: Okay, I know that's right, but but my thing, like

776
00:37:52,160 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 5: even with my fa uh franchise, I want you to

777
00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:57,640
Speaker 5: be a owner operator, not just someone who can buy

778
00:37:57,680 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 5: the franchise and get open.

779
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:03,120
Speaker 3: I want you to actually care about the product, the brand,

780
00:38:03,800 --> 00:38:05,080
Speaker 3: and care about the people.

781
00:38:05,280 --> 00:38:09,120
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, Now do your recipes go along with every

782
00:38:09,160 --> 00:38:11,160
Speaker 1: franchise that they have their own menus.

783
00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:14,160
Speaker 3: So we are going to make the recipes for them

784
00:38:14,320 --> 00:38:17,080
Speaker 3: and batch them. Yeah, move her to have a cole

785
00:38:17,160 --> 00:38:20,320
Speaker 3: packer so they have to buy it from us. You smart?

786
00:38:20,560 --> 00:38:23,959
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, big boss energy and y'all, and I get

787
00:38:23,960 --> 00:38:25,760
Speaker 1: these recipes okay at.

788
00:38:25,600 --> 00:38:27,880
Speaker 3: All because we want to make sure that it's consistent

789
00:38:28,360 --> 00:38:29,720
Speaker 3: all the way through every brand.

790
00:38:29,760 --> 00:38:32,040
Speaker 1: And that's what I love about your restaurants. Every time

791
00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:35,239
Speaker 1: I go, everything tastes like it tasted the last time

792
00:38:35,400 --> 00:38:37,239
Speaker 1: or the first time I fell in love with. It's like, oh,

793
00:38:37,239 --> 00:38:39,000
Speaker 1: I can't wait to get back and either and then

794
00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:41,000
Speaker 1: it's like, because you know, you go to some restaurants,

795
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:42,680
Speaker 1: you're like, oh, I can't wait to go get them

796
00:38:42,760 --> 00:38:44,200
Speaker 1: laves of buce and you go on this and do

797
00:38:44,280 --> 00:38:44,680
Speaker 1: not hit me.

798
00:38:44,840 --> 00:38:47,680
Speaker 3: Or sometimes you can order I can order something at

799
00:38:47,680 --> 00:38:49,839
Speaker 3: a restaurant today and then I turn around say, oh,

800
00:38:49,840 --> 00:38:51,960
Speaker 3: I'm gonna get that again, like another appetite, the same

801
00:38:52,239 --> 00:38:54,799
Speaker 3: sitting right yeah, and it come out and it don't

802
00:38:54,840 --> 00:38:58,520
Speaker 3: even taste saying I'd be like what happened right y? Yeah?

803
00:38:58,560 --> 00:38:59,120
Speaker 1: It be weird.

804
00:38:59,200 --> 00:39:02,520
Speaker 3: So I'm big on consistency for sure.

805
00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:05,719
Speaker 1: That's good. So if you were to give any young

806
00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,719
Speaker 1: woman or young man advice on entrepreneurship, because this is

807
00:39:08,760 --> 00:39:12,080
Speaker 1: what you. You are a serial entrepreneur, a woman who

808
00:39:12,200 --> 00:39:13,680
Speaker 1: has literally figured it out.

809
00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:14,600
Speaker 3: Yeah have you?

810
00:39:14,680 --> 00:39:16,719
Speaker 1: I know you did a book. What was your first book.

811
00:39:16,440 --> 00:39:18,520
Speaker 3: Called Ten Steps to being a Boss.

812
00:39:18,600 --> 00:39:21,040
Speaker 1: See okay, Ten Steps to being a boss. Make sure

813
00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:23,120
Speaker 1: you guys check that out. It'll probably give you everything

814
00:39:23,200 --> 00:39:26,000
Speaker 1: you have to say in depth though, so make sure

815
00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:27,560
Speaker 1: you go check that out. But if you could tell

816
00:39:27,600 --> 00:39:29,799
Speaker 1: them something, what would you tell them so that they

817
00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:31,759
Speaker 1: can know? Okay, these are things I need to do

818
00:39:31,880 --> 00:39:32,880
Speaker 1: to even get started.

819
00:39:34,040 --> 00:39:37,920
Speaker 3: Number one, I would say, be knowledgeable about whatever it

820
00:39:38,000 --> 00:39:45,200
Speaker 3: is that you would like to do. Be consistent, persistent,

821
00:39:46,440 --> 00:39:51,560
Speaker 3: and make sure that you are pushing out a quality product.

822
00:39:52,120 --> 00:39:56,000
Speaker 3: You know, the product is very important. And just making

823
00:39:56,040 --> 00:40:00,880
Speaker 3: sure that you understand that you gonna get some nose.

824
00:40:01,480 --> 00:40:04,320
Speaker 3: You're not gonna always get a yes. Might not be

825
00:40:04,360 --> 00:40:08,440
Speaker 3: your first, second, third, fourth, but don't give up because

826
00:40:09,719 --> 00:40:15,080
Speaker 3: it's not easy and you just have to continue to go.

827
00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:17,720
Speaker 3: You gotta have drive, gotta have passion.

828
00:40:18,360 --> 00:40:21,520
Speaker 1: And because you be up early.

829
00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:25,719
Speaker 3: With my work never stops. It don't never stops, no

830
00:40:25,760 --> 00:40:29,320
Speaker 3: matter how big I get. Yeah, it never stops.

831
00:40:30,400 --> 00:40:33,040
Speaker 1: And you'd be like, turn the my mouth. I can't.

832
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:35,799
Speaker 3: I know it's put the find that I can't. Yeah,

833
00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:38,080
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh my god, I try to have a

834
00:40:38,200 --> 00:40:42,320
Speaker 3: work life balance, but I really don't know what that means. Yeah,

835
00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:47,400
Speaker 3: I feel like when you are a entrepreneur, it's just

836
00:40:47,480 --> 00:40:50,640
Speaker 3: get it when I can. Yeah, yeah, yeah, that's it.

837
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:54,839
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's good. Hopefully you can find that balance soon.

838
00:40:55,239 --> 00:40:57,799
Speaker 3: I hope so, I mean, I'm not really looking for it,

839
00:40:57,840 --> 00:40:58,440
Speaker 3: but I hope so.

840
00:40:58,800 --> 00:41:02,600
Speaker 1: Yeah. Right, Oh that's right. I know, that's right. That's

841
00:41:02,640 --> 00:41:04,839
Speaker 1: because I know people want to know that. Like, I'm

842
00:41:04,840 --> 00:41:07,080
Speaker 1: sure that's a question. One of the viewers would ask you,

843
00:41:09,000 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 1: when it comes to everything that you've been through in

844
00:41:11,360 --> 00:41:16,080
Speaker 1: your life and we look at forgiveness, how have you

845
00:41:16,160 --> 00:41:18,840
Speaker 1: been able to forgive the people that have done me wrong?

846
00:41:19,120 --> 00:41:22,600
Speaker 1: Or have you not? Well that deep breath she said,

847
00:41:26,040 --> 00:41:27,640
Speaker 1: how I mean, have you been able to do that?

848
00:41:27,760 --> 00:41:30,719
Speaker 1: Or do you just like some things just need to

849
00:41:30,719 --> 00:41:32,759
Speaker 1: be left have said, and you know.

850
00:41:32,960 --> 00:41:39,920
Speaker 3: I did approach only one person that did me wrong

851
00:41:41,560 --> 00:41:45,200
Speaker 3: as far as my lestation. I did approach them. I

852
00:41:45,239 --> 00:41:49,279
Speaker 3: did tell them that, hey, what you did to me

853
00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:52,560
Speaker 3: affected me and it has affected me my entire life

854
00:41:53,440 --> 00:41:56,480
Speaker 3: still to this day. And they didn't say anything.

855
00:41:57,239 --> 00:42:00,240
Speaker 1: Are you kidding me? How old were you?

856
00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:04,040
Speaker 3: That was probably about like when that had when they

857
00:42:04,040 --> 00:42:05,640
Speaker 3: were doing that to you. Oh yeah, I had to

858
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:08,280
Speaker 3: be about twelve.

859
00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:11,080
Speaker 1: See, at that age, you don't even really know what's

860
00:42:11,120 --> 00:42:13,560
Speaker 1: happening to you. You don't just you know what I'm saying,

861
00:42:13,560 --> 00:42:16,880
Speaker 1: you don't know. And I've had people open up and

862
00:42:16,920 --> 00:42:21,160
Speaker 1: say that they were molested by cousins or uncles, uh,

863
00:42:21,400 --> 00:42:24,120
Speaker 1: even women, would you know what I'm saying, vice versa

864
00:42:24,360 --> 00:42:27,359
Speaker 1: have done that. And I as a child, you don't

865
00:42:27,400 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 1: know what's happening to you. You know what I'm saying.

866
00:42:29,200 --> 00:42:31,759
Speaker 1: You don't know what's going on as your hormones and

867
00:42:31,760 --> 00:42:34,120
Speaker 1: stuff starting to kick in and you can feel certain things,

868
00:42:34,120 --> 00:42:35,960
Speaker 1: you're like, CLA, I think I kind of like that,

869
00:42:36,360 --> 00:42:39,359
Speaker 1: but you don't understand why this person's doing that to you. M.

870
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:41,640
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. So it's like a complete

871
00:42:41,640 --> 00:42:46,640
Speaker 1: mind fuck. It literally is. And he's probably thinking, oh, yeah,

872
00:42:46,680 --> 00:42:48,000
Speaker 1: she doesn't you know what I'm saying. She probably won't

873
00:42:48,000 --> 00:42:49,200
Speaker 1: remember that or she's not gonna sing it.

874
00:42:49,239 --> 00:42:52,440
Speaker 3: And even when I told other family members M, they

875
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:56,040
Speaker 3: didn't believe me. No, they didn't believe me at all.

876
00:42:56,920 --> 00:43:00,160
Speaker 3: So I I I always think about other kids who

877
00:43:00,160 --> 00:43:04,560
Speaker 3: are going through that today and no one's listening, no

878
00:43:04,600 --> 00:43:10,680
Speaker 3: one believes them, you know, So it was hard. Even

879
00:43:11,000 --> 00:43:15,200
Speaker 3: those people, you know, I've had to who didn't believe me.

880
00:43:15,640 --> 00:43:19,600
Speaker 3: I've had to ask for forgiveness, you know, for me

881
00:43:19,880 --> 00:43:21,120
Speaker 3: for being mad at.

882
00:43:20,960 --> 00:43:26,600
Speaker 1: Them, because yeah, they didn't believe it, you know.

883
00:43:26,920 --> 00:43:30,839
Speaker 3: And so I just asked the Lord to you know,

884
00:43:31,040 --> 00:43:34,920
Speaker 3: help me get through it and to forgive these people.

885
00:43:36,040 --> 00:43:37,880
Speaker 3: But I definitely don't forget.

886
00:43:38,520 --> 00:43:39,520
Speaker 1: No, it's hard to forget.

887
00:43:39,680 --> 00:43:42,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, don't forget for sure, I mean. And that affected

888
00:43:42,600 --> 00:43:45,200
Speaker 3: me through my kids because it was like I didn't

889
00:43:45,200 --> 00:43:47,920
Speaker 3: want to let my kids go to people's house spend

890
00:43:47,920 --> 00:43:50,560
Speaker 3: the night who had me in at their houses and

891
00:43:50,640 --> 00:43:52,200
Speaker 3: my kids they never understood it.

892
00:43:55,360 --> 00:43:55,719
Speaker 1: Come here.

893
00:43:55,840 --> 00:43:57,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's how I was.

894
00:43:57,360 --> 00:43:57,520
Speaker 6: Like.

895
00:43:57,880 --> 00:43:59,480
Speaker 3: My daughter used to be mad at me all the

896
00:43:59,520 --> 00:44:03,080
Speaker 3: time because I would not let her go to people's house. Wow,

897
00:44:03,120 --> 00:44:03,839
Speaker 3: I spend the night.

898
00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:06,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, man, they didn't get it. But you were protecting them.

899
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:09,200
Speaker 3: But I told her at some point, you know, when

900
00:44:09,200 --> 00:44:13,279
Speaker 3: she got older and why I did that. Yeah, So

901
00:44:13,600 --> 00:44:17,000
Speaker 3: some of those people she still hasn't forgiven, you know.

902
00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:19,160
Speaker 3: But no, we were just talking about the other day.

903
00:44:19,480 --> 00:44:21,319
Speaker 3: She was like, oh, I'm still mad, and I was like,

904
00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:23,600
Speaker 3: how can you still be mad when I'm you know,

905
00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:26,440
Speaker 3: like I've already forgiven them, so why are you still

906
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:28,600
Speaker 3: mad with you?

907
00:44:28,680 --> 00:44:32,600
Speaker 1: But it's just like still, Yeah, it's like that situation when,

908
00:44:32,760 --> 00:44:36,680
Speaker 1: like you say, relationship and that person does you wrong.

909
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:38,840
Speaker 1: Yeah you can get over, but we can't. Yeah, you

910
00:44:38,880 --> 00:44:39,319
Speaker 1: know so.

911
00:44:39,680 --> 00:44:41,120
Speaker 3: And that's why I tell people all the time, be

912
00:44:41,200 --> 00:44:45,600
Speaker 3: careful what you tell your parents about your relationships and

913
00:44:45,640 --> 00:44:48,680
Speaker 3: your friends because certain things they do not forgive.

914
00:44:48,960 --> 00:44:50,840
Speaker 1: And yeah they don't. Y.

915
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:54,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, you have to be careful and the information that

916
00:44:54,680 --> 00:44:56,680
Speaker 3: you share. Yeah, someone's not doing you right.

917
00:44:56,840 --> 00:44:58,080
Speaker 1: Yeah that is so true.

918
00:44:58,160 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 3: That is so true.

919
00:44:59,719 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 1: But anyone out there who is feeling it weird about

920
00:45:04,080 --> 00:45:06,360
Speaker 1: anything or I don't know if there's any young girls

921
00:45:06,360 --> 00:45:07,800
Speaker 1: that watch I mean, I know there's young girls that

922
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:10,520
Speaker 1: watch the show, but that maybe going through something like that,

923
00:45:10,600 --> 00:45:14,960
Speaker 1: please speak up, Please say something, because those people need

924
00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:18,520
Speaker 1: to be stopped. And I pray that you have someone

925
00:45:18,520 --> 00:45:21,200
Speaker 1: in your family that listens to you, because I can't

926
00:45:21,239 --> 00:45:23,640
Speaker 1: imagine growing up and like and then getting to the

927
00:45:23,680 --> 00:45:27,239
Speaker 1: point where you confront the person and they just they

928
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:28,520
Speaker 1: have nothing.

929
00:45:28,160 --> 00:45:29,440
Speaker 3: To say nothing.

930
00:45:30,600 --> 00:45:34,920
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I can't imagine. But you have like literally

931
00:45:35,360 --> 00:45:37,359
Speaker 1: turned out to be such a I mean, I they

932
00:45:37,400 --> 00:45:40,600
Speaker 1: probably watching like, dang, God had his hand on her,

933
00:45:41,000 --> 00:45:41,879
Speaker 1: yeah cause look at her.

934
00:45:42,000 --> 00:45:43,640
Speaker 3: And I think about that all the time when I

935
00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:44,880
Speaker 3: think about my journey.

936
00:45:45,040 --> 00:45:46,839
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I.

937
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:48,799
Speaker 3: I look and I be like, God, God like he

938
00:45:49,040 --> 00:45:52,560
Speaker 3: continuously blesses me. And I said, I think he'd be like,

939
00:45:53,040 --> 00:45:55,040
Speaker 3: I'm gonna do this for you cause you've been through

940
00:45:55,080 --> 00:45:57,279
Speaker 3: this and you know you had this rough like I

941
00:45:57,400 --> 00:46:00,520
Speaker 3: got you, Like I really be believing that it my.

942
00:46:02,000 --> 00:46:04,680
Speaker 1: I believe that when I hear people's stories and then

943
00:46:04,719 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 1: I see how God has blessed him, I really do

944
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:13,719
Speaker 1: feel like He's it's almost like a even saying like

945
00:46:14,440 --> 00:46:17,000
Speaker 1: I got you, Like just know that I know what

946
00:46:17,040 --> 00:46:19,520
Speaker 1: you went through, but I don't know why it had

947
00:46:19,560 --> 00:46:22,239
Speaker 1: to happen. I can't explain that part. But I've seen

948
00:46:22,239 --> 00:46:23,919
Speaker 1: when I hear people's stories, I'm like, oh my God,

949
00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:25,919
Speaker 1: you went through that, and then I see how God

950
00:46:26,120 --> 00:46:31,080
Speaker 1: could like bless them tremendously. Yeah, I've thought the same way.

951
00:46:31,200 --> 00:46:34,520
Speaker 6: I think that all the God be like, yeah, have

952
00:46:34,719 --> 00:46:40,000
Speaker 6: you had enough? Oh that's it you Because I'd be

953
00:46:40,080 --> 00:46:45,560
Speaker 6: like he say, if you tell somebody this happened to you,

954
00:46:45,640 --> 00:46:48,160
Speaker 6: and this happened, they would not believe that you went

955
00:46:48,200 --> 00:46:52,279
Speaker 6: through so much stuff and you're still here today and

956
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:56,959
Speaker 6: you're still positive and you're still striving, Like nobody would

957
00:46:57,000 --> 00:47:00,960
Speaker 6: believe like if I ever, like literally told every single

958
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:05,200
Speaker 6: thing that happened to me, nobody would believe it like this.

959
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:10,560
Speaker 6: One person could not have experienced this much stuff period.

960
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:14,239
Speaker 1: Wow, Yeah, that's crazy. I'm just I want to say

961
00:47:14,239 --> 00:47:16,120
Speaker 1: I'm proud of you. I'm proud of the woman that

962
00:47:16,160 --> 00:47:20,040
Speaker 1: you become. I'm proud that you did not let all

963
00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:23,480
Speaker 1: the odds that were stacked up against you prevail. And

964
00:47:23,560 --> 00:47:25,560
Speaker 1: I'm just so proud of you and thank you for

965
00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:28,520
Speaker 1: coming because I know somebody's be blessed from this conversation.

966
00:47:29,840 --> 00:47:31,840
Speaker 1: We touched on a lot of things, but i just

967
00:47:31,840 --> 00:47:33,560
Speaker 1: want to say thank you and I'm so proud.

968
00:47:33,280 --> 00:47:38,360
Speaker 3: Of you, happy to have been here. Oh my gosh,

969
00:47:38,520 --> 00:47:39,120
Speaker 3: I love it.

970
00:47:39,200 --> 00:47:44,040
Speaker 1: I love it. I love it. So this is my

971
00:47:44,080 --> 00:47:46,759
Speaker 1: favorite part. This is where the listeners write in, ask

972
00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:48,680
Speaker 1: us a question, tell us that a little scenario whatever

973
00:47:48,680 --> 00:47:51,399
Speaker 1: they're going through, and we give them advice. All right,

974
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:56,560
Speaker 1: so it's positive outcomes. This letter is from Melody. She says, Hi, Crystal,

975
00:47:56,600 --> 00:47:59,320
Speaker 1: my name is Melody. I'm from North Carolina. I absolutely

976
00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:01,960
Speaker 1: love an endor you. I'm so proud of you, and

977
00:48:02,120 --> 00:48:04,839
Speaker 1: just know I'm a die hard Fatima fan, but an

978
00:48:04,880 --> 00:48:07,520
Speaker 1: even more Crystal fan, I can relate so much to

979
00:48:07,560 --> 00:48:09,520
Speaker 1: you in the stories that you shared on your podcast.

980
00:48:09,880 --> 00:48:12,680
Speaker 1: I'm a single mother of four adult children. I was

981
00:48:12,680 --> 00:48:15,239
Speaker 1: once married in high school to my high school sweetheart.

982
00:48:15,840 --> 00:48:19,000
Speaker 1: We went our separate ways after sixteen years of marriage.

983
00:48:19,160 --> 00:48:23,000
Speaker 1: I'm educated, well rounded, and I love God. After divorce,

984
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:25,920
Speaker 1: I started to learn to focus a lot on myself

985
00:48:25,960 --> 00:48:29,280
Speaker 1: and rededicate my life to Christ. I've always prided myself

986
00:48:29,280 --> 00:48:31,759
Speaker 1: on trying to do the right things, set good examples,

987
00:48:32,160 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 1: show people grace. But it seems as if I'm always overlooked.

988
00:48:36,600 --> 00:48:40,239
Speaker 1: I felt that before Melody, since my ex husband and

989
00:48:40,280 --> 00:48:45,400
Speaker 1: I had one situationship that led nowhere simply loving a

990
00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:48,040
Speaker 1: man who was not capable of loving me back, and

991
00:48:48,239 --> 00:48:51,640
Speaker 1: most recently, I was overlooked for promotion that I know

992
00:48:51,760 --> 00:48:54,719
Speaker 1: darn well I deserved. My feelings has really hurt, more

993
00:48:54,800 --> 00:48:57,960
Speaker 1: so because my supervisor, who I love dearly, rooted for

994
00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:00,840
Speaker 1: another person and bragged me a bit it. How do

995
00:49:00,920 --> 00:49:03,920
Speaker 1: I continue to walk in grace when I literally feel

996
00:49:03,960 --> 00:49:07,560
Speaker 1: like doing the right thing gets me nowhere but overlooked.

997
00:49:08,560 --> 00:49:14,880
Speaker 1: The encourager needs encouraging, Melody, Ooh, the encouraging needs encouraging.

998
00:49:15,239 --> 00:49:18,399
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I feel your paying Melody. I think

999
00:49:18,440 --> 00:49:21,240
Speaker 1: we both have been here at some point in our lives.

1000
00:49:22,280 --> 00:49:26,719
Speaker 1: I have not been married before, Melody, but I can

1001
00:49:26,920 --> 00:49:29,400
Speaker 1: say that I know what it's like to feel overlooked.

1002
00:49:30,160 --> 00:49:32,960
Speaker 1: Just speaking for my career, I was overlooked for ten years,

1003
00:49:33,640 --> 00:49:36,680
Speaker 1: like literally for ten years, knowing that I had something

1004
00:49:37,280 --> 00:49:38,880
Speaker 1: that I could do it. I knew I could do it,

1005
00:49:38,880 --> 00:49:41,160
Speaker 1: I knew I could be an amazing actor, but nobody

1006
00:49:41,160 --> 00:49:44,480
Speaker 1: believed in me except for me. And for those years,

1007
00:49:44,520 --> 00:49:48,880
Speaker 1: I literally continue to encourage myself and kept encouraging myself

1008
00:49:48,880 --> 00:49:50,440
Speaker 1: and saying, Hey, Crystal, this is what you really want

1009
00:49:50,440 --> 00:49:53,640
Speaker 1: to do. You just got to keep qushing, sweetie. But

1010
00:49:53,840 --> 00:49:57,040
Speaker 1: for you know that your fate is not in the

1011
00:49:57,040 --> 00:49:59,720
Speaker 1: hands of your supervisor. It is not in the hands

1012
00:49:59,719 --> 00:50:03,440
Speaker 1: of me who are overlooking you, because I too have

1013
00:50:03,520 --> 00:50:06,160
Speaker 1: felt that too. Where Like for the past few years,

1014
00:50:06,239 --> 00:50:08,200
Speaker 1: I felt like I was overlooked by men. Me and

1015
00:50:08,280 --> 00:50:10,080
Speaker 1: my girls. We would go out and I'm like, nobody

1016
00:50:10,120 --> 00:50:13,440
Speaker 1: approaches me, like, nobody says anything. I'm like, goodness, like

1017
00:50:13,480 --> 00:50:15,719
Speaker 1: I just wanna date. Like it was hard to even

1018
00:50:15,760 --> 00:50:18,719
Speaker 1: find men that would approach me today cause I wasn't

1019
00:50:18,760 --> 00:50:20,400
Speaker 1: going up to know me and be like, what's up.

1020
00:50:20,880 --> 00:50:22,759
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I wasn't doing that, but

1021
00:50:23,120 --> 00:50:26,320
Speaker 1: I definitely understand how hard it is. I would say

1022
00:50:26,440 --> 00:50:31,160
Speaker 1: that you need to continue to poor intimility, poor INTI melody,

1023
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:33,960
Speaker 1: and don't look for that from anybody else, cause you know,

1024
00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:35,880
Speaker 1: I feel like sometimes we're looking for everybody else to

1025
00:50:35,920 --> 00:50:37,200
Speaker 1: pour into just when we had to take time to

1026
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:38,080
Speaker 1: pour into ourselves.

1027
00:50:38,160 --> 00:50:38,759
Speaker 3: Yeah, we would just.

1028
00:50:38,800 --> 00:50:42,359
Speaker 1: Talk about yeah, yeah, yeah, so that's what I would say.

1029
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:43,879
Speaker 1: What would you tell her grossht.

1030
00:50:43,840 --> 00:50:48,080
Speaker 3: I would say pretty much did ooh, same thing, And

1031
00:50:48,440 --> 00:50:54,560
Speaker 3: I would say to not give up on yourself. And

1032
00:50:54,719 --> 00:50:57,799
Speaker 3: as far as the job part, I would not be

1033
00:50:57,920 --> 00:51:02,840
Speaker 3: upset because someone else got the promotion. I would continue

1034
00:51:02,880 --> 00:51:06,600
Speaker 3: to work, you know, on bettering myself. As far as

1035
00:51:06,640 --> 00:51:10,879
Speaker 3: my career, I would talk to my supervisor about it,

1036
00:51:11,680 --> 00:51:15,480
Speaker 3: and I would see if there's other opportunities on the table,

1037
00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:20,120
Speaker 3: and not only other opportunities, I would start seeking elsewhere

1038
00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:24,440
Speaker 3: for other opportunities that I know I'm worthy of. For sure.

1039
00:51:24,840 --> 00:51:27,640
Speaker 1: I love that. That's good. That's good melody. I hope

1040
00:51:27,640 --> 00:51:31,160
Speaker 1: this advice hits you home and like you receive it,

1041
00:51:31,200 --> 00:51:38,799
Speaker 1: and I hope it helps. Okay, all right, Gosha, We're

1042
00:51:38,840 --> 00:51:42,280
Speaker 1: gonna do what I'm going through and what I'm growing through.

1043
00:51:42,880 --> 00:51:44,959
Speaker 1: So you watched the podcast, so you know how this goes.

1044
00:51:45,840 --> 00:51:49,800
Speaker 1: So as it pertains to this episode, always like to

1045
00:51:49,840 --> 00:51:53,480
Speaker 1: tie it into what we talked about I am going through.

1046
00:51:56,400 --> 00:52:03,800
Speaker 1: I'm going through trying to figure out when it's okay

1047
00:52:03,880 --> 00:52:08,359
Speaker 1: to let go and when you should hold on, you know,

1048
00:52:08,400 --> 00:52:12,760
Speaker 1: And that's what relationships, that's with friendships, that's with family

1049
00:52:13,400 --> 00:52:16,800
Speaker 1: all across the board, even in Koreas. Like trying to

1050
00:52:16,800 --> 00:52:20,759
Speaker 1: find time okay, is just still serving me working on

1051
00:52:20,800 --> 00:52:23,160
Speaker 1: that cause I have a heart, you know, like I

1052
00:52:23,200 --> 00:52:25,200
Speaker 1: always want to be like I just want to I

1053
00:52:25,360 --> 00:52:26,719
Speaker 1: wanted you know, I'm saying I always want the best

1054
00:52:26,719 --> 00:52:29,360
Speaker 1: for people. I wanted to work out and sometimes I

1055
00:52:29,480 --> 00:52:32,080
Speaker 1: hold on too long. But I'm working on that. And

1056
00:52:32,120 --> 00:52:37,200
Speaker 1: then what I'm growing through I am I'm always growing

1057
00:52:37,239 --> 00:52:40,040
Speaker 1: through trying to not be in control of everything. I think.

1058
00:52:40,040 --> 00:52:41,160
Speaker 1: I feel like I said it all the time, but

1059
00:52:41,239 --> 00:52:43,040
Speaker 1: it is something I really am growing.

1060
00:52:43,160 --> 00:52:45,759
Speaker 3: You took my words like that's it, that's it. Don't

1061
00:52:45,760 --> 00:52:56,200
Speaker 3: even so. I feel like I am going through a

1062
00:52:57,200 --> 00:53:05,719
Speaker 3: time in my life where I'm realizing people things that

1063
00:53:05,960 --> 00:53:11,040
Speaker 3: are you know, right for me, the right people in

1064
00:53:11,080 --> 00:53:18,279
Speaker 3: my life. And I am growing through just trying to

1065
00:53:20,880 --> 00:53:25,319
Speaker 3: being able to delegate, being able to sit back and

1066
00:53:25,440 --> 00:53:31,160
Speaker 3: let my team career wise take the wheel. And so

1067
00:53:31,680 --> 00:53:37,040
Speaker 3: just being able to give up some of that control

1068
00:53:37,200 --> 00:53:38,279
Speaker 3: is very hard.

1069
00:53:38,080 --> 00:53:40,680
Speaker 1: For me because it's your baby.

1070
00:53:40,160 --> 00:53:43,080
Speaker 3: And I know that in order to go to the

1071
00:53:43,120 --> 00:53:46,880
Speaker 3: next level of where I want to be, I cannot

1072
00:53:47,080 --> 00:53:52,520
Speaker 3: always because me, I'm like, yes, I cannot be in

1073
00:53:52,560 --> 00:53:56,600
Speaker 3: control like that. So that's what I'm growing through.

1074
00:53:57,520 --> 00:53:58,680
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, that's good.

1075
00:53:59,200 --> 00:54:04,040
Speaker 3: And just understand myself better, my brands, my products. You know,

1076
00:54:04,080 --> 00:54:09,040
Speaker 3: I have retail products, So just understanding how this is

1077
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:12,439
Speaker 3: how I'm going to be making money in my sleep. Hey,

1078
00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:17,840
Speaker 3: and not just continuously running running running myself.

1079
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:20,080
Speaker 1: You know. Now, can you tell us what products I

1080
00:54:20,080 --> 00:54:20,680
Speaker 1: want people to know?

1081
00:54:20,719 --> 00:54:25,680
Speaker 3: If you can do, absolutely so my products. I have grits, pancakes,

1082
00:54:26,480 --> 00:54:30,800
Speaker 3: hot sauce, seasonings, all of these are coming out.

1083
00:54:31,239 --> 00:54:35,200
Speaker 1: Oh my goodness. Within the next I feel like cooking

1084
00:54:35,239 --> 00:54:41,839
Speaker 1: with Chris and to you know, okay, so we need

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Speaker 1: to do another lifestyle episode cooking with Chris. Have Gochet

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Speaker 1: come in the kitchen. Use your products? Oh yes, yes,

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Speaker 1: use your products because I love some pancakes, and I

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Speaker 1: love you some grits, and I love I like hot

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Speaker 1: sauce on my fried calfish. So yeah, we can do

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Speaker 1: all the things we gotta do that that'd be amazing.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, be on the lookout for that. And then

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Speaker 1: the last thing we do is keep it blank, sweetie.

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Speaker 1: And I'm gonna tell the people this week to keep

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Speaker 1: it ambitious, Sweetie. I think what I'm taking from you

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Speaker 1: today is ambition and drive. So I will tell you

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Speaker 1: all my entrepreneurs out there, everybody out there, keep it ambitious.

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Speaker 1: What about you? What do you got to keep it safe?

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Speaker 3: Keep it positive? Negativity, baby, period.

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Speaker 1: We thrive off of positivity. That's why I love you

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Speaker 1: because you'd be like now, you don't play that, you

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Speaker 1: be like positivity for I love it. I love legotiate.

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much, thank you. I appreciate you coming. Guys.

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Speaker 1: I hope you enjoyed this episode. If you want to

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Speaker 1: write into our Positive Outcomes listener letter, you can write

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Speaker 1: into keep It Positive Sweetie at gmail dot com and

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Speaker 1: that's Sweetie with an Ie and you can follow me

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Speaker 1: on all platforms at love l U V. Chrystal Renee

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Speaker 1: Gach tell them where they can find you.

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Speaker 3: You can find me at go Chase, breakfast bar dot com,

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Speaker 3: Go Tapas bar dot com, and all social media Go

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Speaker 3: Schey Hawkins.

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Speaker 1: Yes, that's it. Make sure you guys check her restaurants out.

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Speaker 1: She has two. You have two breakfast bars one and

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Speaker 1: a tapas bar so and a food truck. So you

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Speaker 1: have no reason not to get it because she has

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Speaker 1: you covered on all fronts, all right, make sure you

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Speaker 1: check it out. I promise you you will not be disappointed.

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Speaker 1: Everything on the menu is good like there's not one

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Speaker 1: thing and I'm y'all know I don't play it by

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Speaker 1: my food, So make sure you guys are able to

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Speaker 1: check it out. In the meantime, you know what to do.

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Speaker 1: Keep it positive, so keep it going. That's right by y'all.