1 00:00:00,720 --> 00:00:02,840 Speaker 1: Jewbiles dirty little secret. 2 00:00:03,000 --> 00:00:06,840 Speaker 2: Hello, hihy's you have a dirty little secret. 3 00:00:07,560 --> 00:00:09,119 Speaker 1: Yes, I do have a dirty little secret. 4 00:00:09,360 --> 00:00:11,240 Speaker 2: Sweet what is it? Okay? 5 00:00:11,320 --> 00:00:14,640 Speaker 1: My dirty little secret is that, well, I'm a well 6 00:00:14,680 --> 00:00:18,360 Speaker 1: put together lady or swallowing preface by saying that, and 7 00:00:18,560 --> 00:00:22,119 Speaker 1: I'm very fashionable. Everybody compliments me and what I wear 8 00:00:22,160 --> 00:00:27,360 Speaker 1: every day. That my dirty little secret is I wear well. 9 00:00:27,400 --> 00:00:30,200 Speaker 1: I seek out the dirty socks because I have this 10 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:32,159 Speaker 1: relief that I need to get the full wear out 11 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:33,920 Speaker 1: of them before I watch them. 12 00:00:34,280 --> 00:00:37,600 Speaker 2: Oh so you wear you wear dirty socks? You wear? 13 00:00:38,440 --> 00:00:41,920 Speaker 1: I do? I wear. I wear dirty socks on purpose, 14 00:00:41,960 --> 00:00:45,320 Speaker 1: and honestly, the dirty or the better, like I kind 15 00:00:45,320 --> 00:00:48,200 Speaker 1: of like if they're smelly. Then those are the ones 16 00:00:48,240 --> 00:00:49,680 Speaker 1: that are the thoughts of the day for me. 17 00:00:50,680 --> 00:00:54,840 Speaker 2: Oh you like the So this man does something for you? 18 00:00:55,520 --> 00:00:58,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean it reminds me that I'm alive, I'm human, 19 00:00:58,800 --> 00:00:59,560 Speaker 1: It wakes me up. 20 00:01:01,480 --> 00:01:04,920 Speaker 2: Good morning smell test Yeah interesting? Well give me an 21 00:01:05,280 --> 00:01:09,920 Speaker 2: both whatever works for Yeah, some pody will need coffee, 22 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:15,000 Speaker 2: some people need stinky toes. Thank you for telling us 23 00:01:15,040 --> 00:01:15,920 Speaker 2: your dirty little secret? 24 00:01:16,240 --> 00:01:16,520 Speaker 3: All right? 25 00:01:16,640 --> 00:01:16,920 Speaker 1: Thanks? 26 00:01:16,959 --> 00:01:19,400 Speaker 2: By Hey, what's up? You have a dirty little secret? 27 00:01:19,560 --> 00:01:22,479 Speaker 3: I sure do. I just want to preface this by 28 00:01:22,520 --> 00:01:25,600 Speaker 3: beginning to say, I am not this person anymore. 29 00:01:25,400 --> 00:01:27,720 Speaker 2: Okay, and well this is going to be good. 30 00:01:28,160 --> 00:01:30,080 Speaker 3: I think about this all the time, and I just 31 00:01:30,280 --> 00:01:33,000 Speaker 3: I am like riddled with guilt. Oh. Back in the 32 00:01:33,080 --> 00:01:36,320 Speaker 3: days where flip phones were a thing, like me before iPhones, 33 00:01:36,760 --> 00:01:39,720 Speaker 3: I was dating this guy who was awful. He was abusive, 34 00:01:39,760 --> 00:01:41,679 Speaker 3: he was mean to me, which wouldn't have been together. 35 00:01:41,880 --> 00:01:45,960 Speaker 3: So while we were together, I started to cheat on 36 00:01:46,040 --> 00:01:48,080 Speaker 3: him with my ex boyfriend, who was my high school 37 00:01:48,120 --> 00:01:51,440 Speaker 3: sweetheart at the time. Okay, I did that because my 38 00:01:51,520 --> 00:01:54,560 Speaker 3: boyfriend at the time was so mean and so toxic. 39 00:01:54,600 --> 00:01:56,600 Speaker 3: She would always look at my phone I was sleeping. 40 00:01:56,600 --> 00:01:58,360 Speaker 3: He would read my messages like it was just a 41 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:01,400 Speaker 3: relationship I need to be okay. So one day my 42 00:02:01,480 --> 00:02:03,240 Speaker 3: ex boyfriend messaged me and said, hey, do you want 43 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:04,960 Speaker 3: to come over? And I'm like, yeah, of course I do. 44 00:02:05,040 --> 00:02:07,520 Speaker 3: I want to get away from this guy. So I 45 00:02:07,560 --> 00:02:09,880 Speaker 3: tell my boyfriend that my best friend needed to ride 46 00:02:09,880 --> 00:02:11,720 Speaker 3: because she got drunk and I needed to go pick 47 00:02:11,720 --> 00:02:13,840 Speaker 3: her up. And so I leave and go to my 48 00:02:14,040 --> 00:02:16,960 Speaker 3: ex boyfriend's house and go hook up with him. And 49 00:02:17,040 --> 00:02:21,200 Speaker 3: while my ex boyfriend is in the shower, I take 50 00:02:21,280 --> 00:02:24,840 Speaker 3: his cell phone and I have a fake conversation with 51 00:02:24,919 --> 00:02:28,560 Speaker 3: myself from his phone to my phone, and in his phone, 52 00:02:28,600 --> 00:02:30,280 Speaker 3: I text me and I say, hey, you want to 53 00:02:30,280 --> 00:02:33,080 Speaker 3: come over? And I say no, I can't, and like 54 00:02:33,120 --> 00:02:35,120 Speaker 3: I deleted the message where I said yes, obviously do 55 00:02:35,400 --> 00:02:37,959 Speaker 3: I said no, I can't, and so I made myself 56 00:02:37,960 --> 00:02:40,359 Speaker 3: say why and I said I can't. I'm trying to 57 00:02:40,400 --> 00:02:43,160 Speaker 3: work things out with my boyfriend's name now and I 58 00:02:43,160 --> 00:02:44,799 Speaker 3: don't want him to be upset with me. I really 59 00:02:44,880 --> 00:02:48,040 Speaker 3: love him. And he's like, okay, I understand, I'm sorry, 60 00:02:48,080 --> 00:02:49,680 Speaker 3: and I'm like it's okay, I just don't reach out 61 00:02:49,720 --> 00:02:52,040 Speaker 3: to me again. Like I had this entire fake conversation 62 00:02:52,600 --> 00:02:55,880 Speaker 3: in my phone and then I deleted everything. Okay, So 63 00:02:56,040 --> 00:02:58,440 Speaker 3: when I went home, I knew my boyfriend was going 64 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:00,360 Speaker 3: to go through my phone, and so the next morning 65 00:03:00,440 --> 00:03:02,960 Speaker 3: I woke up and he told me I love you 66 00:03:03,000 --> 00:03:04,919 Speaker 3: so much, and he gave me a kiss because he 67 00:03:05,000 --> 00:03:07,120 Speaker 3: went through my messages and he saw those fake messages. 68 00:03:07,160 --> 00:03:10,799 Speaker 3: So anyway, I'm not that person anymore. We eventually broke 69 00:03:10,880 --> 00:03:13,120 Speaker 3: up I think three weeks after that, and I am 70 00:03:13,160 --> 00:03:15,040 Speaker 3: also not a cheater anymore. Like that was like a 71 00:03:15,120 --> 00:03:17,200 Speaker 3: time back when I was young and just stupid and 72 00:03:17,240 --> 00:03:19,520 Speaker 3: not doing smart things. So I'd like to practice also 73 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:21,640 Speaker 3: that once a cheater is always a cheater is not 74 00:03:21,680 --> 00:03:24,160 Speaker 3: the thing with me once I got married. Once I 75 00:03:24,200 --> 00:03:26,160 Speaker 3: got married, I would never cheat. I would You would 76 00:03:26,200 --> 00:03:27,720 Speaker 3: have to pay me to even think about it. But 77 00:03:28,040 --> 00:03:30,280 Speaker 3: that's my dirty little seat. I feel terrible for like 78 00:03:30,320 --> 00:03:32,200 Speaker 3: having a conversation like a psychopath. 79 00:03:33,600 --> 00:03:35,960 Speaker 2: But whoa Anyways, I don't know. I think you should 80 00:03:35,960 --> 00:03:38,280 Speaker 2: be easy on yourself about that. It's like survival at 81 00:03:38,280 --> 00:03:40,080 Speaker 2: that point. If it was like if he's checking your 82 00:03:40,080 --> 00:03:42,480 Speaker 2: phone like that and it was abused with stuff, you know. 83 00:03:42,640 --> 00:03:45,040 Speaker 3: Man, I guess, but I still think about it. So 84 00:03:45,160 --> 00:03:47,240 Speaker 3: I feel guilty because this is a terrible way to live, 85 00:03:47,240 --> 00:03:49,640 Speaker 3: and it just it sits heavy on my heart, even 86 00:03:49,680 --> 00:03:50,560 Speaker 3: though I was really young. 87 00:03:50,680 --> 00:03:53,000 Speaker 2: But you don't live that way anymore, and you definitely 88 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:55,800 Speaker 2: learned a lesson, and thank you for sharing it. You 89 00:03:55,880 --> 00:03:57,760 Speaker 2: also have to show people how stressful cheating is. 90 00:03:59,560 --> 00:04:02,320 Speaker 3: That's saying I don't know how people do that, Like, 91 00:04:02,360 --> 00:04:04,880 Speaker 3: how do you like? It's hard to juggle? I could 92 00:04:04,880 --> 00:04:07,160 Speaker 3: never do it again. It was so You're so right, 93 00:04:07,200 --> 00:04:13,000 Speaker 3: it was so stressful garbage man. 94 00:04:14,960 --> 00:04:16,840 Speaker 2: Well, thank you for telling us your dirty little secret. 95 00:04:16,960 --> 00:04:21,040 Speaker 2: I love you guys, you too. What's your dirty little secret.