WEBVTT - Michelle Buteau: Body Confidence, IVF & No Regrets

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<v Speaker 1>Are you disappointed that maybe people didn't show up numbers

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<v Speaker 1>wise the way they should have.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a bigger question about society. It's why are we

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<v Speaker 2>not showing up for women, women of color, queer people,

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<v Speaker 2>fat people, brown and black people.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks for watching, guys. Today's episode is brought to you

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<v Speaker 1>by boost Mobile. Let me introduce you properly. Shit, Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>let's get professional. Let's do it.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's be very serious and professional.

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<v Speaker 1>Today's guest has built the career of telling it like

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<v Speaker 1>it is. From beauty standards to dating to motherhood. She

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<v Speaker 1>has never been afraid to say the quiet part out

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<v Speaker 1>loud and make us laugh while she's doing it. She's

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<v Speaker 1>carved out a lane that.

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<v Speaker 2>Is entirely her own.

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<v Speaker 1>From making history as the first woman to film a

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<v Speaker 1>comedy special at Radio City Music Hall, that's right, that's

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<v Speaker 1>pretty cool. Thank you so much. To adapting her best

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<v Speaker 1>selling essay collection into the hit Netflix series Survival of

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<v Speaker 1>the Thing Is, she is now back for her third

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<v Speaker 1>and final season.

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<v Speaker 2>Please welcome Michelle. Also, I gotta tell you what, It's

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<v Speaker 2>not a New York Times bestselling book.

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<v Speaker 1>Say best selling book, Yeah, but somebody's best selling book.

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<v Speaker 2>But I love that people think it's the best selling

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<v Speaker 2>because it sold pretty well, but it parlayed into something

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<v Speaker 2>bigger than I could have imagined. And so that's why

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<v Speaker 2>I always tell people, don't do something for a list. Wow,

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<v Speaker 2>do it the way you want to do it. The

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<v Speaker 2>time when the books came out and it wasn't and

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<v Speaker 2>it didn't hit New.

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<v Speaker 1>York Times Bestseller, did you think of that as something

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<v Speaker 1>like you didn't achieve a certain.

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<v Speaker 2>No, that it worked for you.

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<v Speaker 1>But in the yeah, and sometimes we want something that

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<v Speaker 1>we think is the important thing.

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<v Speaker 2>I never I never wanted it, like I didn't mind

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<v Speaker 2>if it happened. But I don't like when people put

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<v Speaker 2>next like an unrealistic expectation on something that hasn't happened yet.

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<v Speaker 2>That's like, I can't wait to have sex. I hope

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<v Speaker 2>I have an orgasm. Why don't you just enjoy the

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<v Speaker 2>moment instead of worrying about the company.

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<v Speaker 1>You have sex and don't have an orgasm. Are you disappointed? No,

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<v Speaker 1>because I'll figure out how to get there. But I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just happy that I did the act because now sex

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<v Speaker 1>for me is more about like mental health than anything. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we can go down this road today.

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<v Speaker 2>Set I got an emotional seatbelt. I know the sound

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<v Speaker 2>guy is just like, uh oh, but but I but

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<v Speaker 2>I also like, you don't do something for a list,

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<v Speaker 2>don't know something for a list, but always get always

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<v Speaker 2>have an orgasm, but.

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<v Speaker 1>Always have an orgasm. But if you don't know that,

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<v Speaker 1>you can still yes and enjoy the enjoy the process.

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<v Speaker 2>That's pretty good.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, your process has been a long one, it has.

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<v Speaker 1>I said this to Brittany before we came in, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, you know, being on your show is

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<v Speaker 1>not the first time I met you, and you don't

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<v Speaker 1>remember the first time we met. I'm going to remind

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<v Speaker 1>you right now, and you're gonna remember. The year was

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<v Speaker 1>twenty thirteen. We were Wendy Williams. No, we were both

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<v Speaker 1>guests on The Best in Me in twenty thirteen. We

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<v Speaker 1>were on some panel talking about god knows what. But

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<v Speaker 1>when I think about this number one, I just pulled

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<v Speaker 1>out the picture today and my hair is I can't

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<v Speaker 1>even believe somebody lead you were the cute, super cutest

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<v Speaker 1>you were, I promised, very cute. I can't remember for

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<v Speaker 1>the life of me what we talked about, right, but

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<v Speaker 1>I remember the feeling at that time me. I was

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<v Speaker 1>probably still chasing dreams of like having my own talk show.

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<v Speaker 2>I still thought that was something I needed or wanted

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<v Speaker 2>at that time.

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<v Speaker 1>That later changed, but that feeling of like and then

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<v Speaker 1>seeing you at that stage in your career where you're

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<v Speaker 1>like comedians successful, but you could I could feel you

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<v Speaker 1>chasing something. Yes, that's the only reason we would both

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<v Speaker 1>be there.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, the hunger, the light, the also like you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it was a New York show, and I do love

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<v Speaker 2>that Bethany opened up her show, her panel to people

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<v Speaker 2>that didn't look like her, that had different voices than her,

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<v Speaker 2>and that's what made did a really great New York show.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember meeting you and I was just like, I

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<v Speaker 2>can't believe, like, oh stop, no, truly because you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I grew up listening to you, and so you've shaped

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<v Speaker 2>like some of my you know, adulthood, my youth going

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<v Speaker 2>into adulthood, right, and so I'm just like I can't believe,

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<v Speaker 2>Like I really feel like that was kind of like

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<v Speaker 2>a little like I made it mark when I started

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<v Speaker 2>sitting on stages with people that I admired, So that

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<v Speaker 2>was really cool. And I ride for Bethany because I

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<v Speaker 2>remember doing her show, didn't have any money, would go

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<v Speaker 2>to Macy's to buy blazers and then return them right

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<v Speaker 2>after I did the show. And one blazer I wore

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<v Speaker 2>it was like a cape blazer and it was cool.

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<v Speaker 2>Didn't button you got makeup on it. No, Macy's returns everything,

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<v Speaker 2>by the way, even in receipt. And I remember her

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<v Speaker 2>saying that that blazer's nice on you. I'm like, it's

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<v Speaker 2>one hundred and ten dollars. I can't afford it. And

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<v Speaker 2>she's like, you should keep it, and I'm like, Bethany,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not you, I can't afford it. And as I

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<v Speaker 2>was packing up to go, one of her assistants gave

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<v Speaker 2>me cash out of the petty cash and she said,

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<v Speaker 2>Bethany said, displazer looks good on you.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god. And the blazer doesn't fit, but I

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<v Speaker 1>still have it. So did you return it and still

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<v Speaker 1>keep the money? I just want I'm just wondering I

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<v Speaker 1>used to have it. It's a sweet story, y know.

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<v Speaker 1>Bethany gets a lot of shit because she's like free

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<v Speaker 1>with her mouth sometimes and pisses people off sometimes. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>And as I said to you, when you walk in,

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<v Speaker 1>one of the things I admire about you and women

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<v Speaker 1>like you, it's comedians especially, you have to have like

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<v Speaker 1>created a world where people expect you to say whatever

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<v Speaker 1>you want to say. Yeah, And I don't always do that.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a little more careful.

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<v Speaker 1>I care about people's feelings, and I feel like there's

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<v Speaker 1>such a I have to be kind of diplomatic, and

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<v Speaker 1>I try to be, you know, and sometimes you just

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<v Speaker 1>want let them know, one of them motherfuckers. No.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I'm.

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<v Speaker 1>Not saying I can't or I wouldn't. It's just sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>I haven't really created I do create a platform where

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<v Speaker 1>I could share and.

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<v Speaker 2>Be vulnerable and be honest, try to be honest.

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<v Speaker 1>But when I feel like being petty or talking some shit,

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<v Speaker 1>like I don't necessarily feel that would be received too

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<v Speaker 1>well because something else is it might be healing, you

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<v Speaker 1>might for me and for other for others, for everybody,

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<v Speaker 1>because you have to like sometimes you just gotta get

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<v Speaker 1>it out now, Like, Look, the good thing about comedy

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<v Speaker 1>is I am going to say the thing, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>also going to keep people's feelings in mind.

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<v Speaker 2>And I think that is the huge difference between punching

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<v Speaker 2>up or down. What am I saying it and who

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<v Speaker 2>am I saying it about? And what am I saying

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<v Speaker 2>it for and also I'm gonna make it funny, which

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<v Speaker 2>is like, what a gift. But sometimes you just gotta

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<v Speaker 2>say that shit. You gotta let motherfuckers know too.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you ever said that ship and regretted it? Uh? Sure? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Not not in a special, Not in a comedy special. No,

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<v Speaker 2>by the time we get to the comedy special, I

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<v Speaker 2>said what I said. Sometimes I name names, but I'm

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<v Speaker 2>a good person, you know, and people make you know,

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<v Speaker 2>people make mistakes, okay, you know, But sometimes you just

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<v Speaker 2>got to say that ship. Yeah, say that could Sometimes

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<v Speaker 2>you just gotta say that ship. If you have a

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<v Speaker 2>platform and you can speak up for people that can't

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<v Speaker 2>speak up for themselves.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that I get for sure. And shit, yeah, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>talking about the ship that is like, doesn't really help anybody.

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<v Speaker 1>That's the ship I don't say.

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<v Speaker 2>I like that shit.

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<v Speaker 1>That's yeah. I'm not necessarily afraid to say some shit

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<v Speaker 1>if I think it's for the good and going to

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<v Speaker 1>help somebody, right, But just to talk shit and be

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<v Speaker 1>petty and be funny, I think, I don't know. I

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<v Speaker 1>admire people who do that, who are so free to

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<v Speaker 1>just say I really miss Wendy Williams I think Wendy

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<v Speaker 1>was the prime example of that. She would say shit

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<v Speaker 1>with no regard. Oh probably would hit the hit the ground,

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<v Speaker 1>and then have him as a guest on like a

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<v Speaker 1>month later and roll the video back.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like, oh my.

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<v Speaker 1>God, yeah, so funny. If one of one, like truly

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<v Speaker 1>a crow one time, legit a crow? Yeah? Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Has anybody ever ran up on you about something you said?

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<v Speaker 1>Has that? Has it ever? Ru Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah a few times.

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<v Speaker 1>Not a story you want to share today? Not really.

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<v Speaker 1>I felt it. I pay attention to vibes.

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<v Speaker 2>I felt that she's like, please, God, no, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>so well, the perception of it changed, but it is

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<v Speaker 1>you had kids, you got you were married after that

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<v Speaker 1>thirteen when you married, I was married twenty ten. Oh wow,

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<v Speaker 1>twenty ten. Okay, so you're sixteen years married now. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>you had a hit show. Yeah, a hit show.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's not a small thing. I think it's pretty amazing, right, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I got to take it in sometimes you do. I do,

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<v Speaker 2>because when you're so busy taking these bricks and building

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<v Speaker 2>this house of love and opportunity, sometimes you're like, ooh,

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<v Speaker 2>my back, my shoulder, huh, and you can't see what

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<v Speaker 2>it is. And then all of a sudden, one day

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<v Speaker 2>you wake up and it's a beautiful house and everyone's left.

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<v Speaker 2>And so now the end of season three feels like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm an empty nester. You know, however people describe that

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<v Speaker 2>feeling is what I feel like. This has been my

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<v Speaker 2>whole life. Like I started coming up with the idea

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<v Speaker 2>of writing a book in twenty fifteen, so to see

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<v Speaker 2>where it is now and everybody is, you know, happily

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<v Speaker 2>and happily on their way. I'm like, this is really nice.

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<v Speaker 2>I just need a minute to like take it in.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, a hit show one hundred and ninety one countries,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, over three hundred million subscribers to Netflix is

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<v Speaker 2>not a small thing, and so I have to constantly

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<v Speaker 2>take that in. I can't imagine.

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<v Speaker 1>Whoo oh, I would imagine like, first of all, even

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<v Speaker 1>getting that yeah, and then looking at and thinking about

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<v Speaker 1>where you were in twenty thirteen with problems with dreams

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<v Speaker 1>of this, right. Yeah, It's like I wondered for you

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<v Speaker 1>because when I see people like you who work so

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<v Speaker 1>hard for something, There's been things in my life that

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<v Speaker 1>I've worked so hard for and then you get it.

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<v Speaker 1>For some people, it's the it's the dream. Some people

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<v Speaker 1>it's a weird experience because it's like once you achieve

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<v Speaker 1>the thing, yeah, that you think, this is the thing

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm going to chase my whole life, right, so

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<v Speaker 1>this is the thing that's going to make me happy

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm going to feel successful. Yeah, And somebody goes, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>here's the thing. Yeah, do you feel things you're supposed

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<v Speaker 1>to feel? I feel like, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>What I mean a minute I made. It was when

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<v Speaker 2>I went on stage September fourteen, two thousand and one.

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<v Speaker 2>That's like the first time I grabbed that mic and

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<v Speaker 2>I was like telling some jokes about being bank bonded

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<v Speaker 2>and rides at Disney Rides at Disney World. This is

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<v Speaker 2>one of my first jokes. Rides at Disney World remind

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<v Speaker 2>me of my ex boyfriend three hours of waiting for

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<v Speaker 2>a two minute ride. I thought it was a very

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<v Speaker 2>good joke. I think it still holds up, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>in the pool my finger kind of world. And that

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<v Speaker 2>was the moment where I felt like true freedom and

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<v Speaker 2>liberation from all the like chapters of my life that

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<v Speaker 2>I had to be like I had to straighten my

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<v Speaker 2>hair and go to Ann Taylor Loft and have like

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<v Speaker 2>a certain amount of money in my bank account and

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<v Speaker 2>look for this type of man. And that was like

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<v Speaker 2>a thing where I just felt free the minute I

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<v Speaker 2>grabbed that mic, And so everything else has been pretty

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<v Speaker 2>damn good. Now a TV show to get something greenlit

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<v Speaker 2>is like amazing, right, and it's like one idea out

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<v Speaker 2>of many that you've pitched, and then for people to

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<v Speaker 2>respond to it, it's even better. And you know, the

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<v Speaker 2>whole thing is like, well, you just have to keep going.

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<v Speaker 2>Then what else? Because people are responding to what you're doing,

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<v Speaker 2>which is nice, And what I am doing is being myself,

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<v Speaker 2>which is great. You know, there's so many people in

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<v Speaker 2>my life that still don't know how to be themselves,

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<v Speaker 2>and we're all entering our fifties, and I'm like, when

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<v Speaker 2>is it gonna happen?

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<v Speaker 1>Then?

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<v Speaker 2>When you retire and get a hip replacement, is that

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<v Speaker 2>when you're gonna start living for you and being yourself?

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<v Speaker 1>You know?

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<v Speaker 2>So like I feel like no matter how tired I am,

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<v Speaker 2>or no matter how frustrated I am with like whatever,

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<v Speaker 2>it is like I'm still doing me. But also like

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<v Speaker 2>when I get wrapped up and like what I don't

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<v Speaker 2>have and frustrated about shit, it's just it's just like

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<v Speaker 2>patriarchal shit. It's just like I don't have these numbers,

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<v Speaker 2>But who says those numbers are important? You didn't reach

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<v Speaker 2>these numbers? But look at all the d ms of

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<v Speaker 2>the hearts that I've touched. What about those numbers? So

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<v Speaker 2>every time I actually do catch myself being upset about something,

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<v Speaker 2>it's a made up fucking thing that someone's told me

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<v Speaker 2>I should care about and yes, like no one told me,

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<v Speaker 2>but I had to realize that for myself. I'm just like,

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<v Speaker 2>why is this important again? Why is this important again?

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<v Speaker 2>Like I understand you have to make money. Yeah, we

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<v Speaker 2>can make money if you promote me. Well, promote me

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<v Speaker 2>like you promote all those other you know, little white boys.

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<v Speaker 1>Or or I killed my wife mysteries, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, the documentary women, it's like protect women,

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<v Speaker 2>just not making any documentaries in what. Don't go on

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<v Speaker 2>a cruise, no offense, that's not going a cruise. You

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<v Speaker 2>gotta come back. It's crazy. Don't be don't get in

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<v Speaker 2>a fight, and then going on cruise then you sure,

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, get yourself a tracking device or those

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<v Speaker 2>aren't worth it.

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<v Speaker 1>No, oh my god. I'm not a cruise girl. I've

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<v Speaker 1>never been a cruise girl. Maybe that's why, Maybe that's

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<v Speaker 1>why I subconsciously, yeah, preduct yourself. When you said something

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<v Speaker 1>about oh, knowing yourself, getting to know yourself, Yeah, when

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<v Speaker 1>did that happen for you? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's a slow burn for everybody, but for me,

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<v Speaker 2>it happened around the people that I really love and trust.

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<v Speaker 2>So whether it's a cousin or friends or a teacher,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like I felt like going to an all

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<v Speaker 2>white school in Jersey. I learned how to coach switch

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<v Speaker 2>at a very young age, like this is what you

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<v Speaker 2>do here, is what you do over there with your friends.

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<v Speaker 1>Right.

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<v Speaker 2>And but the more I was able to like do

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<v Speaker 2>whatever I do with my friends like in life, the

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<v Speaker 2>more comfortable and successful I became.

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<v Speaker 1>And so.

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<v Speaker 2>Even like choosing a partner or a neighborhood or whatever

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<v Speaker 2>it is that people don't understand why I'm doing this.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, it's like standing ten toes down and being like,

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<v Speaker 2>but this makes me happy. So whatever you saw for me, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>thank you for thinking of me. But I got to

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<v Speaker 2>see for myself now. And so I think, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know what day or like the moment I

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<v Speaker 2>arrived to it, but it was like, little by little,

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<v Speaker 2>we just have to do us come vibe. That's interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like, if you're how could you possibly really truly

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<v Speaker 1>know yourself if you haven't served yourself. Yeah, you know

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<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying. If you're like busy making everybody else

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<v Speaker 1>happy or living a life you think other people think

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<v Speaker 1>is right for you, how could you ever know yourself

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<v Speaker 1>if you're always accommodating, that's right, to a version of

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<v Speaker 1>yourself that other people see, that's right. It's a really

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<v Speaker 1>good way to describe to And you're just like, but

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<v Speaker 1>how are they going to receive it? And what are

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<v Speaker 1>they going to think?

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<v Speaker 2>And won't make them mad? And will they be proud

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<v Speaker 2>and happy? It's like, or also use all that energy

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<v Speaker 2>to be like, how do I do this the best

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<v Speaker 2>way I could do it for me? So stand ten

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<v Speaker 2>toes down and what works for you?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, there's something to that that that is the guide

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<v Speaker 1>to being confident in yourself and knowing yourself, because then

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<v Speaker 1>you could you know what it is. No, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>like that, or I do like that, and this is

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<v Speaker 1>why and your decisions and your Yeah, and it's important.

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<v Speaker 2>Though because it's like not to sound all wooboo, but

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<v Speaker 2>I like what it's like sometimes you know what I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>But it really is from within because I think a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of people put like so much importance on looks

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<v Speaker 2>and possessions and like numbers or numbers, you know, do

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<v Speaker 2>I have the right body to be accepted? Do I

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<v Speaker 2>have the right car, neighborhood partner? You know? Just being

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<v Speaker 2>successful could also be just being really happy with yourself. Yes,

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<v Speaker 2>you know are you? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>M good for you? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Like there that doesn't mean that I'm not you know,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to say second guessing myself, but like

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<v Speaker 2>doing things a different way, or I could have done

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<v Speaker 2>it this better, I could have done this better, handle

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<v Speaker 2>it that way because like you know, you don't know

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<v Speaker 2>to you know right, And I think if you're doing

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<v Speaker 2>life right, you're like in an experience that you've never

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<v Speaker 2>been in before. Because that's nice because then you're like

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<v Speaker 2>always learning right. But for the most part, yes, So

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<v Speaker 2>when people tell me no or don't get me, then

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<v Speaker 2>I realized that I am not for them, and they're

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<v Speaker 2>probably not for me. But no matter what, like I

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<v Speaker 2>got me, like I know what's good for me.

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<v Speaker 1>And you don't, then wait, don't waste your time trying

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<v Speaker 1>to serve them at all? Yeah at all good for you.

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<v Speaker 2>And that goes for like very immediate family members heard.

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<v Speaker 1>You, Okay, what were the things before you became this

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<v Speaker 1>person or you had confidence in this person? What were

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<v Speaker 1>the things that people wanted from you? I would imagine

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<v Speaker 1>what my goodness to do with all types of things,

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<v Speaker 1>Like you said, body sad hair. Yeah, I think a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of people would be very happy with me if

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't as loud, if I wasn't as vulgar, if

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<v Speaker 1>I was thinner, if I had straighter hair, if I

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<v Speaker 1>covered up my freckles, if I you know, if I

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<v Speaker 1>was just more.

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<v Speaker 2>Dainty and demure. But that's not for me. Imagine you

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<v Speaker 2>spent your whole life trying to be all of those things.

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<v Speaker 1>How could you be happy?

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<v Speaker 2>I couldn't know. It'd be a prison.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, many people are walking around life in that

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<v Speaker 1>prison a lot. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and I'm glad that they find my show.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, Oh god, I can only imagine the responses that

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<v Speaker 1>you've gotten. It's pretty great from people. Yeah, it's pretty.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like heartfelt, but also jarring that like from people

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<v Speaker 2>in their teens to like in their seventies.

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<v Speaker 1>What is it though? What are they saying?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean a lot of overall like people not giving

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<v Speaker 2>themselves the license to be who they are, want to be,

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<v Speaker 2>love who they want to be, you know, finding joy,

0:20:24.320 --> 0:20:29.200
<v Speaker 2>happiness a spark. So many women from so many different

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<v Speaker 2>countries are like, I'm going to stop wearing black, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna try color now. Oh I love that I'm saying yes,

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<v Speaker 2>but then it's also like this is the first time

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<v Speaker 2>I've left since my daughter died or my husband's cancer

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<v Speaker 2>came back. Oh, and especially with this season, people are

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<v Speaker 2>you know, this season has resonated with people in a

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<v Speaker 2>different way, you know, down to like health care, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and the access to health care, and the shame that

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<v Speaker 2>you know, doing IVF for whatever kind of treatment you

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<v Speaker 2>need comes with, and that people don't know how to

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<v Speaker 2>talk about it and they feel bad that they even

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<v Speaker 2>have to. It's so insane and I'm so glad I

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<v Speaker 2>chose to tell that story because I also don't like

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<v Speaker 2>to live and regret and like, I don't like to

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<v Speaker 2>live in regret in like probably a very unhealthy way

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<v Speaker 2>where I will order half the menu just so I

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<v Speaker 2>can see it, because I don't want food envy, you

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<v Speaker 2>know what I mean. I don't want to go home

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<v Speaker 2>and think I should have ordered that. So I want

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<v Speaker 2>to see what all the appetizers look like. Yeah, I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>so I will order two meals because I don't want regret.

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<v Speaker 2>I won't I'll take one home, like I'm not gonna like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's on a food eating contest, but like

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<v Speaker 2>I just have to know. Life is too short. We're

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<v Speaker 2>not promised tomorrow. And so these messages of people and

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<v Speaker 2>even take IVF out of it, you know, like beautiful

0:21:51.040 --> 0:21:54.680
<v Speaker 2>non binary and trans people figure out how to get

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<v Speaker 2>access to whatever kind of health care they need, understanding

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<v Speaker 2>what it's like pumping their body up hormones and not

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<v Speaker 2>feeling like themselves on the journey to being themselves, you know,

0:22:06.119 --> 0:22:09.199
<v Speaker 2>doing whatever you have to do that's physically possible to

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<v Speaker 2>have the life that you want, you know, that's like,

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<v Speaker 2>but still making it funny.

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<v Speaker 1>Still making it funny, and still making the characters whole. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, we were talking about that earlier about the show.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like there's been there's been lots of shows and

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<v Speaker 1>people who have been public about especially just like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>wait and body shaming inside. But I feel like the

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<v Speaker 1>way you guys do it is so it's not the

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<v Speaker 1>main it's not the headline. Yeah it's in there, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's not. It's just part of the story. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not necessarily like and it's not done in a way

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<v Speaker 1>where it's like condescending. You know. Sometimes people Yes, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if I'm saying this right, you are.

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<v Speaker 2>No things back to when you're on set, because you

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<v Speaker 2>know it's such like a New York moment for to

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<v Speaker 2>like go on like a very popular like radio show

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<v Speaker 2>podcast and go in the lines then and think it's

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<v Speaker 2>gonna be one thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I loved coming to that show. Those of you have

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<v Speaker 1>not seen my episode. It was two I played. I

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<v Speaker 1>played on the Dawn the podcast host, and you were

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<v Speaker 1>the guests, and I had the little gotcha moment on

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<v Speaker 1>the show. It was so it was so much fun,

0:23:21.200 --> 0:23:27.159
<v Speaker 1>and the cast, so many women on sets. Yes, you

0:23:27.200 --> 0:23:30.040
<v Speaker 1>could just tell that the love was poured into this

0:23:30.119 --> 0:23:32.200
<v Speaker 1>project if you could feel it on set.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh good, I'm so glad you felt that. And I

0:23:34.560 --> 0:23:35.240
<v Speaker 2>hated leaving.

0:23:35.400 --> 0:23:38.000
<v Speaker 1>I was only there. I was only one there, and

0:23:38.040 --> 0:23:40.440
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't like enough right YouTube grit. We were there

0:23:40.440 --> 0:23:41.760
<v Speaker 1>and we were like, we want to come back here

0:23:41.800 --> 0:23:45.600
<v Speaker 1>every day, and so I can only imagine for you, yeah,

0:23:45.640 --> 0:23:47.960
<v Speaker 1>god to be. Was it like that all the time

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<v Speaker 1>or did we just have an incredible experience out all

0:23:50.160 --> 0:23:54.920
<v Speaker 1>the time since day one? Well? Fun, fun, funny, collaborative.

0:23:54.920 --> 0:23:58.280
<v Speaker 1>Everybody there wants to be there, Yes, everybody has your back.

0:23:58.359 --> 0:23:59.880
<v Speaker 1>How do we make it better? This is a long

0:24:00.040 --> 0:24:02.480
<v Speaker 1>day let's do this together type. It's how do you

0:24:02.560 --> 0:24:06.320
<v Speaker 1>create that world, that environment of people that feel that way?

0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:08.679
<v Speaker 2>You just you are that way, right, Like like it

0:24:08.680 --> 0:24:10.399
<v Speaker 2>starts from the top, and I'm number one on the

0:24:10.440 --> 0:24:12.840
<v Speaker 2>call sheet, you know, the co creator of the show

0:24:12.880 --> 0:24:17.760
<v Speaker 2>and stirring in it. And so you know, you know

0:24:17.840 --> 0:24:20.800
<v Speaker 2>what is that saying, happy wife, happy life? Yeah, I'm

0:24:20.800 --> 0:24:24.520
<v Speaker 2>the wife. And yes, we could talk about weight and

0:24:24.560 --> 0:24:27.959
<v Speaker 2>fat phobia, transphobia and and all that stuff and like

0:24:28.080 --> 0:24:31.439
<v Speaker 2>gender bending fuckery and all that stuff, but like, we

0:24:31.520 --> 0:24:33.879
<v Speaker 2>are so much more than our size, We are so

0:24:34.000 --> 0:24:37.080
<v Speaker 2>much more than our shape and our shade and all that.

0:24:37.600 --> 0:24:41.560
<v Speaker 2>But we are also very much stronger together. And so

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, how do we do it? Like, how do

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<v Speaker 2>we address it but still keep it moving? You know,

0:24:47.080 --> 0:24:49.520
<v Speaker 2>don't sit in it? And that's the thing about comedy too,

0:24:49.760 --> 0:24:53.160
<v Speaker 2>and also like live just a live space. It's timing.

0:24:53.359 --> 0:24:55.240
<v Speaker 2>You know, you got to hit it and move on,

0:24:56.280 --> 0:24:58.040
<v Speaker 2>you know, hit it and quit it, move on. Why

0:24:58.040 --> 0:25:00.520
<v Speaker 2>are we sitting here? Yes, you know, because then you

0:25:00.560 --> 0:25:04.200
<v Speaker 2>become you're serving just this one thing. Really, if you're

0:25:04.240 --> 0:25:05.160
<v Speaker 2>doing that, you're.

0:25:04.960 --> 0:25:09.440
<v Speaker 1>Probably doing it for everyone else because authentically to you, yes,

0:25:09.960 --> 0:25:12.080
<v Speaker 1>you're not sitting around thinking about that all night.

0:25:12.560 --> 0:25:15.080
<v Speaker 2>I'm trying to sit and spin on somebody, well my husband,

0:25:15.080 --> 0:25:19.959
<v Speaker 2>but still and also like also like, you know, you

0:25:19.960 --> 0:25:22.640
<v Speaker 2>have to be confident in what you're saying. Yeah, say

0:25:22.640 --> 0:25:24.160
<v Speaker 2>the thing and move on.

0:25:24.320 --> 0:25:25.240
<v Speaker 1>You know. It's like when I.

0:25:25.160 --> 0:25:27.240
<v Speaker 2>First started to stand up, everybody was like, oh, we

0:25:27.320 --> 0:25:28.600
<v Speaker 2>got We're gonna switch it up.

0:25:28.640 --> 0:25:31.879
<v Speaker 1>Now we got a female coming to the stage. That

0:25:32.080 --> 0:25:32.800
<v Speaker 1>means a lady.

0:25:33.320 --> 0:25:35.720
<v Speaker 2>It was like, why are you doing this whole biology?

0:25:35.760 --> 0:25:41.080
<v Speaker 2>What do we They could tell you, Oh, no, we

0:25:41.160 --> 0:25:44.040
<v Speaker 2>gotta move on. You ain't got to say Michelle, you tawe.

0:25:44.600 --> 0:25:47.280
<v Speaker 1>We got a lady, was switch it up. It's like,

0:25:47.800 --> 0:25:50.800
<v Speaker 1>just get me on the stage up, say the thing

0:25:50.840 --> 0:25:53.719
<v Speaker 1>and move on. The thing's my name, move on, you

0:25:53.760 --> 0:25:55.720
<v Speaker 1>know what I mean. So it's like that, It's like,

0:25:55.760 --> 0:25:59.560
<v Speaker 1>say the thing and move on. Such a good job

0:25:59.600 --> 0:26:06.240
<v Speaker 1>at it. Just speaking of sitting on your husband, you

0:26:06.320 --> 0:26:07.560
<v Speaker 1>clearly like sitting on your husband.

0:26:07.600 --> 0:26:11.280
<v Speaker 2>You've made it sixteen years. Yeah, that's pretty great. Yeah,

0:26:11.320 --> 0:26:13.600
<v Speaker 2>and he's so great, Like, I just love a man

0:26:13.680 --> 0:26:15.760
<v Speaker 2>that just loves me down. Holy, lets me sit on

0:26:15.760 --> 0:26:16.160
<v Speaker 2>his face.

0:26:17.320 --> 0:26:31.240
<v Speaker 1>That's so sweet. I like that. That was good, so sweet.

0:26:32.000 --> 0:26:36.480
<v Speaker 1>Look sweet I love that for you. I love that

0:26:36.520 --> 0:26:39.840
<v Speaker 1>for you. Yeah, I really like him. I like him.

0:26:40.359 --> 0:26:43.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, that's the best. You know what's so

0:26:43.359 --> 0:26:46.960
<v Speaker 1>fascinating about this to me? Why what you started? Yeah,

0:26:47.000 --> 0:26:50.320
<v Speaker 1>this was a one night stand. Yes, this is not

0:26:50.440 --> 0:26:54.120
<v Speaker 1>how normally the story goes. See, this is the problem.

0:26:54.160 --> 0:26:57.040
<v Speaker 1>You set off false expectations. So then women think, oh,

0:26:57.080 --> 0:26:59.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go have this one night stand. It'll probably

0:26:59.560 --> 0:27:02.000
<v Speaker 1>be my hu it's been for sixteen years. Don't think that. Well,

0:27:04.280 --> 0:27:06.040
<v Speaker 1>I didn't say all that. I didn't write a book

0:27:06.040 --> 0:27:07.760
<v Speaker 1>for it to be like a New York Times bestseller.

0:27:07.800 --> 0:27:09.920
<v Speaker 1>I just wrote a book, right, you know, just love

0:27:09.920 --> 0:27:10.680
<v Speaker 1>into it.

0:27:10.680 --> 0:27:12.840
<v Speaker 2>It's whatever it is. I liked a really nice one.

0:27:12.920 --> 0:27:15.120
<v Speaker 1>I stand like I like you know, all the love

0:27:15.119 --> 0:27:17.000
<v Speaker 1>you put in a relationship or putting one. I stand.

0:27:17.040 --> 0:27:19.080
<v Speaker 1>Were you a one nice saying girl? Or was this

0:27:19.200 --> 0:27:21.720
<v Speaker 1>like a rare Did my mom ask you to ask that?

0:27:21.840 --> 0:27:25.199
<v Speaker 1>She did? She did? She called? Or was this the

0:27:25.240 --> 0:27:27.879
<v Speaker 1>first time you'd ever had one and it just so happened?

0:27:27.920 --> 0:27:30.240
<v Speaker 1>He was? He was the one, Miss ma'am. Okay, But

0:27:30.280 --> 0:27:33.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm just saying, miss ma'am, okay, you've seen the hips.

0:27:33.680 --> 0:27:36.680
<v Speaker 2>They don't lie no, this is yeah, it just so happened.

0:27:37.119 --> 0:27:39.280
<v Speaker 2>So yeah, it was like musical chairs, but with dix

0:27:42.440 --> 0:27:45.000
<v Speaker 2>and then you saddled the right one and then I won.

0:27:45.359 --> 0:27:49.240
<v Speaker 1>Good for you, Thank you so much. What was the thing.

0:27:49.280 --> 0:27:52.159
<v Speaker 1>How did you know this was the right chair? I didn't.

0:27:52.280 --> 0:27:56.199
<v Speaker 2>I just felt safe and I was forty. Now, you know,

0:27:56.920 --> 0:27:59.359
<v Speaker 2>I didn't just wake up one day and say I

0:27:59.440 --> 0:28:03.679
<v Speaker 2>am fan of one night stands like I had. I

0:28:03.720 --> 0:28:06.600
<v Speaker 2>took life way too seriously when I was younger. I

0:28:06.640 --> 0:28:08.480
<v Speaker 2>wanted to wait till I was married to have sex.

0:28:09.640 --> 0:28:14.719
<v Speaker 2>And I had like very serious boyfriends in high school

0:28:14.800 --> 0:28:17.359
<v Speaker 2>and college that both cheated on me, and I was

0:28:17.440 --> 0:28:20.479
<v Speaker 2>like torn up. And in high school it was like

0:28:20.560 --> 0:28:22.879
<v Speaker 2>a really good friend, one of my best friends, and

0:28:22.960 --> 0:28:25.320
<v Speaker 2>so I was like torn up. And so what I

0:28:25.320 --> 0:28:27.840
<v Speaker 2>see my friends going through in their forties and fifties

0:28:28.440 --> 0:28:29.639
<v Speaker 2>getting a divorce.

0:28:29.320 --> 0:28:31.679
<v Speaker 1>It's like what I went through. I was listening to

0:28:31.680 --> 0:28:34.359
<v Speaker 1>Anita Baker and all types of stuff at like sixteen seventeen,

0:28:34.720 --> 0:28:36.200
<v Speaker 1>I should have had a bob and a cigarette and

0:28:36.200 --> 0:28:39.200
<v Speaker 1>being like, you know, I was waiting to exail in

0:28:39.640 --> 0:28:40.240
<v Speaker 1>high school.

0:28:41.280 --> 0:28:44.880
<v Speaker 2>It was horrible, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

0:28:44.960 --> 0:28:48.000
<v Speaker 2>Now on the other side because I kind of like

0:28:48.320 --> 0:28:56.800
<v Speaker 2>was Benjamin Button with like dating and so in college,

0:28:56.800 --> 0:28:59.040
<v Speaker 2>I also was like, we should get married and I

0:28:59.080 --> 0:29:01.080
<v Speaker 2>love you and I have your back and your family's

0:29:01.120 --> 0:29:03.320
<v Speaker 2>my family. And then when he cheated on me, I

0:29:03.360 --> 0:29:08.600
<v Speaker 2>was like, maybe I just do me. And I didn't

0:29:08.680 --> 0:29:10.920
<v Speaker 2>like dating. I like doing stand up. I like working,

0:29:10.920 --> 0:29:11.760
<v Speaker 2>I like making money.

0:29:11.800 --> 0:29:12.480
<v Speaker 1>I like doing me.

0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:17.360
<v Speaker 2>And that's how I met him. Wow, because I didn't

0:29:17.400 --> 0:29:19.760
<v Speaker 2>have the expectation of this is a date.

0:29:20.240 --> 0:29:20.800
<v Speaker 1>What do you do?

0:29:20.840 --> 0:29:22.240
<v Speaker 2>Where are you from, what's your job? What do you

0:29:22.240 --> 0:29:25.840
<v Speaker 2>want to do? I felt like I'm a manager on

0:29:25.960 --> 0:29:27.920
<v Speaker 2>LinkedIn looking for an employee when I was dating, and

0:29:27.960 --> 0:29:30.120
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I want to hang out with my friends,

0:29:30.760 --> 0:29:33.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, let loose, order half the menu, get a

0:29:33.040 --> 0:29:35.880
<v Speaker 2>little tipsy, talk shit, you know, to work a little

0:29:35.920 --> 0:29:39.440
<v Speaker 2>bit of home, you know. And again I love stand

0:29:39.520 --> 0:29:42.840
<v Speaker 2>up and I felt like there was no dating is

0:29:42.880 --> 0:29:45.480
<v Speaker 2>like a second job. Now you should go out on

0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:46.920
<v Speaker 2>dates if that's your thing.

0:29:47.080 --> 0:29:47.360
<v Speaker 1>Do that.

0:29:47.480 --> 0:29:49.600
<v Speaker 2>I think you should go out on dates with people

0:29:49.600 --> 0:29:51.479
<v Speaker 2>because you have to see how they act in public.

0:29:54.240 --> 0:30:00.440
<v Speaker 2>Do they have manners? How do they treat the white staff? Yeah?

0:30:00.640 --> 0:30:02.800
<v Speaker 1>Do they chew like a cow? Oh?

0:30:02.960 --> 0:30:08.640
<v Speaker 2>You know, problematic, gross, actually gross, like no table manners.

0:30:08.880 --> 0:30:10.280
<v Speaker 2>I can't put my face in your crutched.

0:30:10.600 --> 0:30:13.680
<v Speaker 1>You know what's so funny is that I've said this before.

0:30:13.840 --> 0:30:16.360
<v Speaker 1>I've thought this before, Like, I don't think people prepare

0:30:17.000 --> 0:30:20.960
<v Speaker 1>young people for heartbreak at that level. Yeah, and we

0:30:21.000 --> 0:30:22.440
<v Speaker 1>all like, oh, in my high school, I got my

0:30:22.480 --> 0:30:23.800
<v Speaker 1>heart broken, and you say it like it's a no

0:30:23.840 --> 0:30:25.280
<v Speaker 1>big deal. So if I'm in high school and I

0:30:25.320 --> 0:30:27.520
<v Speaker 1>see that, I think, oh, it's no big deal. I

0:30:27.520 --> 0:30:30.400
<v Speaker 1>think when it happens to a young person, yeah, so

0:30:31.680 --> 0:30:35.560
<v Speaker 1>intensely like that. Yeah, they're not really prepared for it,

0:30:35.880 --> 0:30:37.600
<v Speaker 1>and it shapes you. It shapes you.

0:30:37.800 --> 0:30:41.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, because what I remember is life as I knew.

0:30:41.880 --> 0:30:44.600
<v Speaker 2>It was completely different.

0:30:44.920 --> 0:30:47.400
<v Speaker 1>The next day. So you were all in.

0:30:47.720 --> 0:30:48.280
<v Speaker 2>I was all in.

0:30:48.360 --> 0:30:51.360
<v Speaker 1>You believed the fairy tale or the not fairy tale.

0:30:51.560 --> 0:30:53.360
<v Speaker 1>You believe, Yeah, I guess fairy tale.

0:30:53.680 --> 0:30:56.360
<v Speaker 2>But I believed people. I didn't think people could lie

0:30:56.360 --> 0:30:59.240
<v Speaker 2>to me. I believe people like he was my Sannah,

0:30:59.480 --> 0:31:03.280
<v Speaker 2>Like I believe him, like I also was like converting

0:31:03.320 --> 0:31:09.440
<v Speaker 2>to Islam for him, like I believed him. And then

0:31:09.480 --> 0:31:12.800
<v Speaker 2>I realized, oh, people can lie. And outside of that,

0:31:12.880 --> 0:31:14.040
<v Speaker 2>I realized.

0:31:15.240 --> 0:31:15.960
<v Speaker 1>People lie.

0:31:16.080 --> 0:31:19.280
<v Speaker 2>But that's because they're lying to themselves. They want to

0:31:19.280 --> 0:31:21.640
<v Speaker 2>be the version of the person that they want to be,

0:31:21.680 --> 0:31:24.000
<v Speaker 2>but don't know how to do it truthfully, and that

0:31:24.040 --> 0:31:26.920
<v Speaker 2>means having hard conversations and also maybe not liking yourself

0:31:26.960 --> 0:31:32.040
<v Speaker 2>for a little bit. And then I realized after that, like, oh,

0:31:32.080 --> 0:31:35.120
<v Speaker 2>this is about you, not me. I have to like

0:31:37.120 --> 0:31:42.000
<v Speaker 2>be my most authentic self because if I'm trying to

0:31:42.080 --> 0:31:46.720
<v Speaker 2>make you happy, then I'm also lying and I'm like,

0:31:46.760 --> 0:31:48.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm not doing that.

0:31:48.600 --> 0:31:53.320
<v Speaker 1>That experience, though, sometimes could make women not trust again,

0:31:53.560 --> 0:31:55.960
<v Speaker 1>or it be hard to jump into a relationship or

0:31:55.960 --> 0:31:59.360
<v Speaker 1>a marriage or yes, but you decided to at some

0:31:59.400 --> 0:32:01.960
<v Speaker 1>point your husb and I guess convinced you or I mean,

0:32:02.200 --> 0:32:03.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna lie.

0:32:03.080 --> 0:32:05.680
<v Speaker 2>Like it was long distance for a very long time,

0:32:05.920 --> 0:32:08.560
<v Speaker 2>for almost two years, and I didn't even know where

0:32:08.600 --> 0:32:09.920
<v Speaker 2>Holland was on a map.

0:32:09.760 --> 0:32:09.920
<v Speaker 1>So.

0:32:11.520 --> 0:32:13.320
<v Speaker 2>I was like, how do I trust this guy? I

0:32:13.360 --> 0:32:16.680
<v Speaker 2>don't even know how to say his name, Like you know,

0:32:16.760 --> 0:32:20.440
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, fly, we're doing long distance. And Holland is

0:32:20.480 --> 0:32:23.920
<v Speaker 2>also very different too, because like you know, it's not

0:32:24.040 --> 0:32:27.000
<v Speaker 2>as like there is not as how do I describe

0:32:27.000 --> 0:32:29.880
<v Speaker 2>it like sexual there, Like there isn't this emphasis on

0:32:30.080 --> 0:32:34.920
<v Speaker 2>like sexuality, yes, and misogyny and stuff, so like even

0:32:34.960 --> 0:32:37.680
<v Speaker 2>the spas are co ed, like bodies are just bodies

0:32:37.960 --> 0:32:40.680
<v Speaker 2>and people are just like friends with people, and I'm like,

0:32:40.800 --> 0:32:44.200
<v Speaker 2>you're you are friends with your exit. That's weird. But

0:32:44.240 --> 0:32:46.760
<v Speaker 2>it's a smaller country and so you just gotta know

0:32:46.800 --> 0:32:49.680
<v Speaker 2>who you gonna know. And I'm like, okay, so it

0:32:49.720 --> 0:32:54.480
<v Speaker 2>took me a long time to like fully trust him,

0:32:54.720 --> 0:32:57.320
<v Speaker 2>but bigger picture, like the process of giving your heart

0:32:57.360 --> 0:33:00.360
<v Speaker 2>to someone, but I'm glad I did because it worked out.

0:33:01.040 --> 0:33:03.200
<v Speaker 2>You know, there was a choice where I was like,

0:33:03.280 --> 0:33:06.640
<v Speaker 2>I could be upset about all this, but I know

0:33:07.280 --> 0:33:09.920
<v Speaker 2>I'm amazing, So why am I feeding into this like

0:33:10.640 --> 0:33:15.080
<v Speaker 2>jealousy bullshit? And I don't want to be jealous. That's

0:33:15.080 --> 0:33:17.520
<v Speaker 2>like road rage is such a wasted emotion and it's

0:33:17.560 --> 0:33:22.560
<v Speaker 2>like for what and for who and at some moment

0:33:23.520 --> 0:33:26.160
<v Speaker 2>and looking in his eyes and believing him and knowing

0:33:26.160 --> 0:33:30.000
<v Speaker 2>how I felt about him, I'm like, jealousy really doesn't

0:33:30.040 --> 0:33:33.000
<v Speaker 2>serve me. And it's really like a thing that happens

0:33:33.000 --> 0:33:36.920
<v Speaker 2>when people haven't realized their power yet. And I'm like, bitch,

0:33:36.960 --> 0:33:40.280
<v Speaker 2>realize your power. Like you guys are good together. Oh,

0:33:40.760 --> 0:33:43.000
<v Speaker 2>you know. Yes, it's important.

0:33:43.040 --> 0:33:46.120
<v Speaker 1>It's important to naming the bad stuff, Like, maybe should

0:33:46.320 --> 0:33:48.080
<v Speaker 1>just make a story about this. I feel like this

0:33:48.120 --> 0:33:51.920
<v Speaker 1>could be like your next show. No give him the

0:33:52.000 --> 0:33:56.920
<v Speaker 1>stuff to do does not show in time?

0:33:57.040 --> 0:33:59.320
<v Speaker 2>All right, okay, you have nothing? You have a plan

0:33:59.520 --> 0:34:03.720
<v Speaker 2>after the show? No, no, I don't.

0:34:04.160 --> 0:34:07.479
<v Speaker 1>You don't, I don't when the show is over, I

0:34:07.520 --> 0:34:09.560
<v Speaker 1>don't know the show is over, right, But you're still

0:34:09.560 --> 0:34:12.280
<v Speaker 1>promoting it. You're still in, You're still yeah.

0:34:12.080 --> 0:34:16.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm still definitely like connected and yeah, yeah, promoting it,

0:34:17.640 --> 0:34:20.120
<v Speaker 2>but I don't usually I have a follow up right away.

0:34:20.200 --> 0:34:23.080
<v Speaker 2>But this took so much out of me, especially like

0:34:23.440 --> 0:34:29.600
<v Speaker 2>directing a very personal episode that I'm I've decided to

0:34:29.640 --> 0:34:33.240
<v Speaker 2>give myself time to enjoy and also rest and heal

0:34:34.480 --> 0:34:38.640
<v Speaker 2>from this whole process. Good for you, yeah, because jumping

0:34:38.680 --> 0:34:42.400
<v Speaker 2>into like very dark traumatic moments in your life for

0:34:42.640 --> 0:34:47.880
<v Speaker 2>art can be dangerous. And kim Win, one of my directors,

0:34:48.480 --> 0:34:51.920
<v Speaker 2>you know, she was like, be careful because once you

0:34:52.040 --> 0:34:55.480
<v Speaker 2>hit that other side sometimes it's hard to like come back.

0:34:55.840 --> 0:34:58.279
<v Speaker 2>And so I remember that going in, and when I

0:34:58.320 --> 0:35:00.120
<v Speaker 2>tapped into it, I was like, oh, I get it,

0:35:00.120 --> 0:35:02.839
<v Speaker 2>because for three days I was just crying. Wow, and

0:35:02.880 --> 0:35:04.399
<v Speaker 2>I would be ordering my lunch.

0:35:04.480 --> 0:35:16.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm like aspectus and generous, but everyone's like, okay, got it, Okay, Yeah,

0:35:17.040 --> 0:35:18.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what this is the personal thing. I

0:35:18.520 --> 0:35:19.960
<v Speaker 1>don't even know if I need to talk about it,

0:35:20.000 --> 0:35:21.560
<v Speaker 1>but I will share this because you just said it

0:35:21.560 --> 0:35:24.360
<v Speaker 1>to me. I just had an experience, and now I

0:35:24.440 --> 0:35:26.319
<v Speaker 1>understand why based on what you just told me.

0:35:26.360 --> 0:35:27.840
<v Speaker 2>I didn't know what was happening to me. So I

0:35:27.880 --> 0:35:29.319
<v Speaker 2>did a documentary like a year ago.

0:35:29.320 --> 0:35:33.240
<v Speaker 1>It was my first directing, my first thing, and my friend,

0:35:33.400 --> 0:35:34.960
<v Speaker 1>the person I directed was a friend of mine, and

0:35:34.960 --> 0:35:38.160
<v Speaker 1>he was telling me about this experience of making this

0:35:38.280 --> 0:35:42.759
<v Speaker 1>song he made Brooklyn's Finus Jason Clark Clark Kent DJ

0:35:42.800 --> 0:35:44.600
<v Speaker 1>Clark Kent. Right. So I'm working on a documentary with

0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.279
<v Speaker 1>him for like a year directing it, and he's telling

0:35:47.280 --> 0:35:49.560
<v Speaker 1>me about the making of Brooklyn's Finance, bringing jay Z

0:35:49.719 --> 0:35:51.840
<v Speaker 1>and Biggie in and the day he did this and

0:35:52.480 --> 0:35:55.240
<v Speaker 1>the how he tricked them to be in the studio together.

0:35:55.400 --> 0:35:58.680
<v Speaker 1>So I could I actually, I'm now realizing what happens

0:35:58.719 --> 0:36:03.520
<v Speaker 1>to me. I took I had it inside me, the story,

0:36:03.640 --> 0:36:06.040
<v Speaker 1>overtelling the story so many times that I almost could

0:36:06.080 --> 0:36:08.720
<v Speaker 1>see it. I can almost be present in the making

0:36:08.760 --> 0:36:10.360
<v Speaker 1>of it. So then the other day I'm at the

0:36:10.400 --> 0:36:13.880
<v Speaker 1>Jay Z concert and he's playing Brooklyn's Finance, and I

0:36:13.880 --> 0:36:16.120
<v Speaker 1>could feel something coming up, and I'm like, what is this?

0:36:16.280 --> 0:36:19.319
<v Speaker 1>Like what he's been He's been gone for a little

0:36:19.320 --> 0:36:21.840
<v Speaker 1>while now, you know, I've cried about it, I've been fine,

0:36:21.920 --> 0:36:24.000
<v Speaker 1>And so I could feel it coming up and I

0:36:24.040 --> 0:36:27.080
<v Speaker 1>realized I was seeing it the way I would imagine

0:36:27.120 --> 0:36:29.839
<v Speaker 1>he would see it, because it was like inside of me, right,

0:36:29.920 --> 0:36:32.760
<v Speaker 1>And so I was having that feeling and then Jay says,

0:36:34.080 --> 0:36:36.200
<v Speaker 1>shout out to a rest in peace DJ Clarkett, and

0:36:36.239 --> 0:36:38.840
<v Speaker 1>he said that, and I I just like lost it

0:36:38.840 --> 0:36:42.000
<v Speaker 1>and I couldn't figure out why. It was just I

0:36:42.040 --> 0:36:44.439
<v Speaker 1>was so emotional and I couldn't figure it. And now

0:36:44.480 --> 0:36:47.560
<v Speaker 1>you just explained to me what was happening. It's because

0:36:47.600 --> 0:36:52.839
<v Speaker 1>I ingested something that sits now inside of me. Yes,

0:36:53.600 --> 0:36:56.200
<v Speaker 1>And then in that moment it kind of came back up.

0:36:56.440 --> 0:36:59.080
<v Speaker 1>And so I could only imagine for you, in directing

0:36:59.080 --> 0:37:03.480
<v Speaker 1>an episode of IVF and having all the emotions inside

0:37:03.480 --> 0:37:06.880
<v Speaker 1>of you already. Yeah, it's like you're re ingesting it

0:37:06.960 --> 0:37:08.680
<v Speaker 1>in a way. Yeah. Does that make sense?

0:37:08.960 --> 0:37:10.360
<v Speaker 2>Does that what you're happening into that?

0:37:10.520 --> 0:37:14.360
<v Speaker 1>Yes, interesting. Yeah, I'd never experienced that before. So and

0:37:14.400 --> 0:37:16.120
<v Speaker 1>I didn't even know that that's what I was experiencing

0:37:16.239 --> 0:37:17.759
<v Speaker 1>until you just explained it to me.

0:37:17.880 --> 0:37:21.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I didn't know until it happened to me.

0:37:23.040 --> 0:37:26.120
<v Speaker 1>So what what? What was the did you? So? Why

0:37:26.160 --> 0:37:28.239
<v Speaker 1>did you decide? Was it just because you know you

0:37:28.280 --> 0:37:31.600
<v Speaker 1>had been through that and decided to direct that specific episode.

0:37:32.000 --> 0:37:36.400
<v Speaker 2>Well, we were telling a story about IVF and you know,

0:37:36.480 --> 0:37:38.799
<v Speaker 2>and we were trying to like figure out timeline and

0:37:38.920 --> 0:37:42.200
<v Speaker 2>what is useful and serves the story and what's important

0:37:42.239 --> 0:37:47.000
<v Speaker 2>and honoring the story. And one day, like like months

0:37:47.000 --> 0:37:50.279
<v Speaker 2>and months in like we have good stories already like

0:37:50.480 --> 0:37:54.640
<v Speaker 2>lined up. I I just told everyone, like my writer

0:37:55.160 --> 0:37:59.759
<v Speaker 2>my writer's room. I'm like, it can't just all be good.

0:38:01.120 --> 0:38:04.200
<v Speaker 2>It can't just all be like shots. It's not that

0:38:05.040 --> 0:38:09.640
<v Speaker 2>like some heavy shit goes on. You know, your eggs

0:38:09.640 --> 0:38:15.239
<v Speaker 2>aren't viable, you don't have a heartbeat, you are completely

0:38:15.840 --> 0:38:20.879
<v Speaker 2>in like just insanely anxious for each appointment because you're

0:38:20.960 --> 0:38:24.120
<v Speaker 2>just waiting for bad news, you know. So I'm like,

0:38:24.520 --> 0:38:26.400
<v Speaker 2>there's got to be some of that in there in

0:38:26.520 --> 0:38:30.080
<v Speaker 2>order for it to feel like a real story, and

0:38:30.160 --> 0:38:33.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I realized we're doing a comedy. Okay, it

0:38:33.280 --> 0:38:37.360
<v Speaker 2>will be funny, but the funny will be the relief,

0:38:38.080 --> 0:38:41.360
<v Speaker 2>the release you feel after putting your body through that.

0:38:42.000 --> 0:38:44.759
<v Speaker 2>And I did so much of it for so long

0:38:44.800 --> 0:38:47.520
<v Speaker 2>and still maintained to have like a career as happy clown.

0:38:47.920 --> 0:38:50.560
<v Speaker 2>So I'm like, let's just do it. We can do it.

0:38:50.760 --> 0:38:52.640
<v Speaker 2>We just have to figure it out. And so we

0:38:52.800 --> 0:38:54.920
<v Speaker 2>cracked the We cracked the code. I can't believe we

0:38:54.960 --> 0:38:59.680
<v Speaker 2>did it, but everybody was like really cool and vulnerable

0:38:59.680 --> 0:39:02.440
<v Speaker 2>and to share and like even like put in other

0:39:02.480 --> 0:39:04.719
<v Speaker 2>people's stories and like figure out how we can like

0:39:06.760 --> 0:39:09.200
<v Speaker 2>just mind the material to have it make sense. But

0:39:09.920 --> 0:39:15.160
<v Speaker 2>ultimately it was the things that I went through, and

0:39:15.520 --> 0:39:18.640
<v Speaker 2>I thought nobody else could direct me but me, especially

0:39:18.680 --> 0:39:22.200
<v Speaker 2>through this process, because even if somebody had four losses

0:39:22.200 --> 0:39:25.040
<v Speaker 2>in five years and hundreds of thousands of dollars spent,

0:39:25.680 --> 0:39:31.240
<v Speaker 2>their experience will be different than mine. So I chose

0:39:31.400 --> 0:39:33.520
<v Speaker 2>the hot seat, and I'm glad I and I'm glad

0:39:33.560 --> 0:39:37.960
<v Speaker 2>I did because now I know I already knew I

0:39:37.960 --> 0:39:41.360
<v Speaker 2>could do hard things, but like other hard things, you know,

0:39:41.920 --> 0:39:48.200
<v Speaker 2>and now I know I can go into I can

0:39:48.239 --> 0:39:52.400
<v Speaker 2>go on a set and direct someone because I know

0:39:52.600 --> 0:39:54.719
<v Speaker 2>what I needed for myself and I was able to

0:39:54.760 --> 0:39:59.200
<v Speaker 2>do that, And yeah, and I would love to do

0:39:59.239 --> 0:40:01.719
<v Speaker 2>that for someone. Mmm, would that?

0:40:01.880 --> 0:40:06.279
<v Speaker 1>Yeah? What do you say to somebody who's about to

0:40:06.320 --> 0:40:10.000
<v Speaker 1>go on an IVF journey or somebody maybe that's supporting

0:40:10.040 --> 0:40:11.920
<v Speaker 1>someone who was in the midst of that.

0:40:12.160 --> 0:40:16.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like what should we know? I mean if you

0:40:16.520 --> 0:40:18.600
<v Speaker 2>are going through an IVF journey or about to go

0:40:18.680 --> 0:40:27.359
<v Speaker 2>through one. My friend Jordan Carlos told me this when

0:40:27.719 --> 0:40:29.719
<v Speaker 2>my surrogate was pregnant and it was like still high

0:40:29.800 --> 0:40:32.560
<v Speaker 2>risk and all stuff, and he goes, you know, Michelle,

0:40:32.600 --> 0:40:36.319
<v Speaker 2>sometimes you can have a happy ending. And so I

0:40:36.360 --> 0:40:40.919
<v Speaker 2>really held on to that because the happy ending might

0:40:40.960 --> 0:40:43.040
<v Speaker 2>not look like how you want it to be, but

0:40:43.080 --> 0:40:46.960
<v Speaker 2>it's still good. So hold on to the positive parts,

0:40:47.200 --> 0:40:53.120
<v Speaker 2>you know. And for someone who knows someone going through it,

0:40:53.960 --> 0:40:58.239
<v Speaker 2>I mean, all you have to do is show up

0:40:58.280 --> 0:41:03.399
<v Speaker 2>and say, okay, are you okay? I'm here for you.

0:41:03.400 --> 0:41:07.640
<v Speaker 2>You don't have to like explain or fix or overstand

0:41:07.880 --> 0:41:10.080
<v Speaker 2>or like have an article or a link and tell

0:41:10.120 --> 0:41:12.600
<v Speaker 2>them what they should and shouldn't be doing. Eat less

0:41:12.640 --> 0:41:14.040
<v Speaker 2>of this, more of that. You don't have to do.

0:41:14.120 --> 0:41:15.120
<v Speaker 2>You don't have to do that. She you don't have

0:41:15.120 --> 0:41:17.680
<v Speaker 2>to be doctor oz. He ain't even a doctor. Oh no,

0:41:19.400 --> 0:41:24.240
<v Speaker 2>oh no, she said what she said, what she said.

0:41:24.719 --> 0:41:28.960
<v Speaker 1>Said it was funny, right, but yeah, just be there.

0:41:29.040 --> 0:41:32.560
<v Speaker 2>Are you okay? Can I take you out for a sandwich?

0:41:32.600 --> 0:41:32.960
<v Speaker 1>That's it?

0:41:33.320 --> 0:41:34.840
<v Speaker 2>Where the days you were not okay?

0:41:35.080 --> 0:41:40.000
<v Speaker 1>One hundred one. I have never experienced that, so I

0:41:40.000 --> 0:41:43.239
<v Speaker 1>don't I could understand you, but not I don't, you know,

0:41:43.280 --> 0:41:44.719
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what that process is like.

0:41:44.760 --> 0:41:48.320
<v Speaker 2>So it's a shit show because you're made to feel

0:41:48.680 --> 0:41:52.719
<v Speaker 2>guilty for having a family in this alternative way that

0:41:53.000 --> 0:41:57.640
<v Speaker 2>is not supported by healthcare. It is a little bit

0:41:57.640 --> 0:42:01.200
<v Speaker 2>better now, but the fact that we don't have access

0:42:02.960 --> 0:42:05.600
<v Speaker 2>to IVF in the way that we should. We don't

0:42:05.640 --> 0:42:07.759
<v Speaker 2>have access to like basic health care. The fact that

0:42:07.800 --> 0:42:10.680
<v Speaker 2>we don't even have access to like like the most

0:42:10.800 --> 0:42:13.560
<v Speaker 2>basic human needs is just like so insane to me.

0:42:13.680 --> 0:42:14.719
<v Speaker 1>But then a.

0:42:14.719 --> 0:42:16.160
<v Speaker 2>Lot of people don't know about it, and so there's

0:42:16.160 --> 0:42:18.719
<v Speaker 2>like conversations that you can't have because then you're gonna

0:42:18.760 --> 0:42:21.560
<v Speaker 2>have to explain stuff to someone that you don't fully

0:42:21.560 --> 0:42:24.880
<v Speaker 2>know how to explain and they can't take in. You know,

0:42:24.920 --> 0:42:26.960
<v Speaker 2>there's already shame in saying that you want a kid

0:42:27.000 --> 0:42:29.480
<v Speaker 2>or that you don't want a kid, you know, instead

0:42:29.480 --> 0:42:32.400
<v Speaker 2>of just like, whatever you want, I want that for you,

0:42:32.400 --> 0:42:32.680
<v Speaker 2>you know.

0:42:33.640 --> 0:42:36.120
<v Speaker 1>Right, the basics, the basics. Yeah, and then it's just

0:42:36.160 --> 0:42:38.600
<v Speaker 1>like you're too old or you're too young, or you

0:42:38.600 --> 0:42:41.240
<v Speaker 1>should lose weight, you should like not work as much,

0:42:41.320 --> 0:42:45.080
<v Speaker 1>and you know, and then there's like the the feelings

0:42:45.120 --> 0:42:48.040
<v Speaker 1>of shooting yourself up with hormones and not realizing that,

0:42:48.120 --> 0:42:50.640
<v Speaker 1>Like you're doing a fun.

0:42:50.440 --> 0:42:55.080
<v Speaker 2>Scene with Gene is it Gina Rodriguez? Is that her name?

0:42:55.760 --> 0:42:56.400
<v Speaker 1>Yes? Yes?

0:42:56.520 --> 0:43:00.560
<v Speaker 2>Right, yes, and yeah the version y.

0:43:00.800 --> 0:43:00.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:43:01.000 --> 0:43:02.800
<v Speaker 2>I did a movie with her. I was in a

0:43:02.840 --> 0:43:06.120
<v Speaker 2>scene with her. I don't remember the name of the movie.

0:43:06.600 --> 0:43:08.360
<v Speaker 2>It was hilarious. How do you do a movie and

0:43:08.400 --> 0:43:10.319
<v Speaker 2>don't remember the name? That's fascinating.

0:43:11.480 --> 0:43:13.839
<v Speaker 1>I know. I had fun because you've done so much. Look,

0:43:14.440 --> 0:43:17.280
<v Speaker 1>it just goes through a day. Do you like it? Perfect?

0:43:17.840 --> 0:43:20.680
<v Speaker 2>But it was supposed to be one scene, like four lines,

0:43:20.719 --> 0:43:23.120
<v Speaker 2>and then we ended up improving this whole thing. I

0:43:23.160 --> 0:43:24.920
<v Speaker 2>was hopped up in hormones. I think I was like

0:43:24.960 --> 0:43:28.240
<v Speaker 2>probably experienced the miscarriage at the time, and at one point,

0:43:28.280 --> 0:43:30.600
<v Speaker 2>like her boyfriend breaks up with her. I start crying

0:43:30.680 --> 0:43:33.040
<v Speaker 2>because the hormones are there, but the jokes are there too,

0:43:33.480 --> 0:43:35.279
<v Speaker 2>And then she starts reacting to me crying.

0:43:35.280 --> 0:43:37.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, why break up with you? With them big

0:43:37.560 --> 0:43:39.719
<v Speaker 1>ass teeth chomping on his date? Why he don't want that?

0:43:40.239 --> 0:43:41.880
<v Speaker 2>And she's like gro what? And I was like gro

0:43:42.000 --> 0:43:45.480
<v Speaker 2>by and we had a toime. But like there's also

0:43:45.560 --> 0:43:50.160
<v Speaker 2>like leaving that set feeling nuts, like what just happened?

0:43:50.280 --> 0:43:54.520
<v Speaker 1>What just happened? That's that's how I felt that the

0:43:54.560 --> 0:43:57.160
<v Speaker 1>jay Z concert really yeah, because I was crying in

0:43:57.200 --> 0:44:00.839
<v Speaker 1>this I'm in them with the terror squad in the

0:43:59.680 --> 0:44:04.279
<v Speaker 1>bo vip suite and everybody's just drinking duce and a

0:44:04.520 --> 0:44:06.160
<v Speaker 1>space and having a good time. When a jay Z

0:44:06.280 --> 0:44:09.120
<v Speaker 1>concert and I'm like crying.

0:44:09.680 --> 0:44:13.600
<v Speaker 2>It was terrible, but it's emotional. I know, HU cry

0:44:13.719 --> 0:44:17.719
<v Speaker 2>now And it's history, yeah, you know, And it's like

0:44:17.760 --> 0:44:23.600
<v Speaker 2>also like it's also remembering of like what that time was,

0:44:24.360 --> 0:44:27.160
<v Speaker 2>Like that was a good time, you know for sure.

0:44:27.680 --> 0:44:29.600
<v Speaker 2>So that's how you felt when you left the set.

0:44:29.920 --> 0:44:34.560
<v Speaker 1>You were like what was going on with me? Yeah?

0:44:34.840 --> 0:44:37.520
<v Speaker 2>Like I remember, like my husband made a sandwich and

0:44:37.560 --> 0:44:41.760
<v Speaker 2>he left crumbs on the kitchen counter. And I started crying.

0:44:41.840 --> 0:44:44.719
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I can't live like this. I might

0:44:44.760 --> 0:44:47.360
<v Speaker 2>need a divorce. I'm like, you don't think about me,

0:44:47.560 --> 0:44:50.440
<v Speaker 2>you know? And he was like, or is it the hormones.

0:44:50.480 --> 0:44:54.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, oh, I like him so much? Yeah, I'm

0:44:54.920 --> 0:44:55.520
<v Speaker 1>a good guy.

0:44:55.719 --> 0:44:56.839
<v Speaker 2>He's a pretty good guy.

0:44:57.280 --> 0:45:02.040
<v Speaker 1>That's pretty good. I know. Did he say it that calm? Yeah,

0:45:02.080 --> 0:45:03.600
<v Speaker 1>he did. My type of person.

0:45:04.080 --> 0:45:08.399
<v Speaker 2>Well, he's a virgo. So these earth signs be keeping me.

0:45:08.640 --> 0:45:13.319
<v Speaker 2>That's so good. Yeah, you said something before. What did

0:45:13.320 --> 0:45:14.680
<v Speaker 2>you call it? The comic?

0:45:15.960 --> 0:45:16.160
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:45:16.280 --> 0:45:17.120
<v Speaker 2>What did you call it?

0:45:17.160 --> 0:45:17.560
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

0:45:17.840 --> 0:45:18.840
<v Speaker 2>Called it a comic?

0:45:21.000 --> 0:45:22.920
<v Speaker 1>What you do? It's like you just said it like

0:45:22.960 --> 0:45:25.120
<v Speaker 1>a couple of minutes ago. God, I should have wrote

0:45:25.160 --> 0:45:27.600
<v Speaker 1>it down. Oh my gosh, what did I say?

0:45:27.800 --> 0:45:30.719
<v Speaker 2>I don't get me started. It was like the comic face,

0:45:30.760 --> 0:45:33.640
<v Speaker 2>So the comic I don't remember.

0:45:34.000 --> 0:45:34.279
<v Speaker 1>This is what.

0:45:34.320 --> 0:45:35.360
<v Speaker 2>I don't remember what movies.

0:45:35.200 --> 0:45:38.800
<v Speaker 1>Like you like possessed like you just say things. I

0:45:38.840 --> 0:45:40.640
<v Speaker 1>don't remember what movies I'm in. It gave me a

0:45:40.680 --> 0:45:43.560
<v Speaker 1>sense that you had an idea about like how comedy

0:45:43.680 --> 0:45:46.560
<v Speaker 1>you people use comedy as like a shield. It's like

0:45:46.600 --> 0:45:50.160
<v Speaker 1>a oh, like to be guarded, no, like to cover

0:45:50.320 --> 0:45:54.760
<v Speaker 1>up like you're being funny. Oh did I misread something

0:45:54.800 --> 0:45:57.320
<v Speaker 1>you said? Totally? I don't know. I really do be

0:45:57.360 --> 0:46:00.680
<v Speaker 1>forgetting stuff like do you ever and be like the

0:46:00.680 --> 0:46:02.480
<v Speaker 1>two of us together just you don't even know what

0:46:02.480 --> 0:46:10.200
<v Speaker 1>you said. I can't remember that questions we're crying, We're

0:46:10.239 --> 0:46:15.960
<v Speaker 1>only here crying. Oh shit, it's stupid. It's just so dumb.

0:46:16.120 --> 0:46:20.560
<v Speaker 1>I don't think. God, I we're an adult typo. How

0:46:20.600 --> 0:46:23.480
<v Speaker 1>are you doing with age? You know what? Because you're

0:46:23.520 --> 0:46:26.920
<v Speaker 1>about to be what forty nine? I think I'm doing okay,

0:46:27.040 --> 0:46:27.200
<v Speaker 1>you know.

0:46:27.320 --> 0:46:30.279
<v Speaker 2>My body's just like I hope this person doesn't like

0:46:30.280 --> 0:46:31.880
<v Speaker 2>this chair because you're about to sneeze.

0:46:31.600 --> 0:46:32.960
<v Speaker 1>The ruin it.

0:46:34.480 --> 0:46:36.839
<v Speaker 2>But other than that, like I don't remember most things

0:46:36.840 --> 0:46:38.359
<v Speaker 2>like where I just was and what I just said.

0:46:38.400 --> 0:46:42.480
<v Speaker 2>But other than that, but I do feel the need

0:46:42.520 --> 0:46:44.240
<v Speaker 2>to like be as healthy as possible.

0:46:44.280 --> 0:46:45.520
<v Speaker 1>I think something happens.

0:46:45.200 --> 0:46:48.640
<v Speaker 2>When you're an older parent, Like my kids are seven,

0:46:49.200 --> 0:46:50.640
<v Speaker 2>and I want them to get older.

0:46:51.000 --> 0:46:52.239
<v Speaker 1>But the happy place is.

0:46:52.160 --> 0:46:54.520
<v Speaker 2>Like I don't want to get older. I don't want

0:46:54.520 --> 0:46:56.440
<v Speaker 2>to get older to like hold on to youth or whatever.

0:46:56.800 --> 0:46:59.160
<v Speaker 2>I just want to be there for them all the time.

0:46:59.760 --> 0:47:02.959
<v Speaker 2>So that's like the main thing about aging that I'm

0:47:03.040 --> 0:47:05.360
<v Speaker 2>like anxious about. I just want to be there for

0:47:05.440 --> 0:47:07.279
<v Speaker 2>the health of it all. Yeah, I want to be

0:47:07.320 --> 0:47:08.719
<v Speaker 2>there for them. I want to know how their day

0:47:08.840 --> 0:47:10.960
<v Speaker 2>was and smell them and hold them and just have

0:47:11.040 --> 0:47:12.759
<v Speaker 2>them tell me whatever story they want to tell me,

0:47:12.840 --> 0:47:14.239
<v Speaker 2>or look to just completely ignore.

0:47:14.000 --> 0:47:17.719
<v Speaker 1>Me in a room. And I'm fine with that. Are

0:47:17.760 --> 0:47:20.239
<v Speaker 1>you obsessed with your child upset? Yeah?

0:47:20.280 --> 0:47:23.000
<v Speaker 2>I might be like, I'm yeah. Whatever you think of,

0:47:23.080 --> 0:47:25.759
<v Speaker 2>like neurodivergent people doing, That's how I am with my kids.

0:47:25.800 --> 0:47:29.359
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, ah, Like I just love to clean their

0:47:29.400 --> 0:47:33.799
<v Speaker 2>ears and clip their toenails and braid their hair. Do

0:47:33.840 --> 0:47:34.399
<v Speaker 2>you so great?

0:47:34.480 --> 0:47:37.480
<v Speaker 1>Do you? I wonder sometimes like my girlfriend Adrian, you

0:47:37.520 --> 0:47:40.240
<v Speaker 1>know Adrian how and she used to be on the rail. Yeah,

0:47:40.360 --> 0:47:44.000
<v Speaker 1>she also had IVF and then wind up having a surrogate.

0:47:44.320 --> 0:47:48.239
<v Speaker 1>Oh the way she loves on her son. Yeah, it's

0:47:48.280 --> 0:47:51.160
<v Speaker 1>because she wanted. I mean, she's she's just a good soul,

0:47:51.360 --> 0:47:52.680
<v Speaker 1>you know she she would have probably been a great

0:47:52.680 --> 0:47:57.279
<v Speaker 1>mother anyway. But something about wanting children and working so

0:47:57.440 --> 0:48:01.320
<v Speaker 1>hard to be a mother. Yeah, the way motherhood hits

0:48:01.480 --> 0:48:04.279
<v Speaker 1>I think it's a little different. Not to say, well,

0:48:04.320 --> 0:48:05.759
<v Speaker 1>there's all I love my kids to death too. But

0:48:05.800 --> 0:48:09.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm just saying I notice in friends who have really

0:48:09.120 --> 0:48:12.520
<v Speaker 1>had a difficult time getting there, yeah, that you experience

0:48:12.600 --> 0:48:15.200
<v Speaker 1>your kids in it. I don't know. I think you do.

0:48:15.320 --> 0:48:18.640
<v Speaker 2>I think that's right. I think there's like there's a

0:48:18.680 --> 0:48:20.759
<v Speaker 2>thing that happened when I first brought them home, or

0:48:20.800 --> 0:48:23.080
<v Speaker 2>like not even brought them home, but like out in

0:48:23.160 --> 0:48:27.160
<v Speaker 2>public where I didn't know because everyone wants to know

0:48:27.200 --> 0:48:29.400
<v Speaker 2>your birth story, like right away twins had it, and

0:48:29.440 --> 0:48:32.319
<v Speaker 2>you're like, it's very jarring because it's like do you

0:48:32.320 --> 0:48:37.040
<v Speaker 2>tell people your story? It felt like it could have

0:48:37.080 --> 0:48:39.440
<v Speaker 2>gone into imposter syndrome for a minute because I'm like,

0:48:39.800 --> 0:48:43.520
<v Speaker 2>these are my kids. But but again, because of who

0:48:43.520 --> 0:48:45.279
<v Speaker 2>I am, and I have to remind myself of how

0:48:45.320 --> 0:48:48.640
<v Speaker 2>I live being in a new situation now in my life,

0:48:48.680 --> 0:48:51.799
<v Speaker 2>in a new chapter, this is who I am, this

0:48:51.840 --> 0:48:56.480
<v Speaker 2>is what happened. And I realized sharing my truth not

0:48:56.480 --> 0:48:59.879
<v Speaker 2>only will educate but also probably help someone being there.

0:49:00.640 --> 0:49:04.359
<v Speaker 2>So I'm just like, this is what it is, and

0:49:04.480 --> 0:49:06.960
<v Speaker 2>this is how they came to be. But there was

0:49:07.000 --> 0:49:10.360
<v Speaker 2>a moment too where I was like, am I doing

0:49:10.400 --> 0:49:15.480
<v Speaker 2>the most at motherhood? Because I didn't carry them? And

0:49:15.800 --> 0:49:19.480
<v Speaker 2>now that there's seven and I'm still running myself.

0:49:19.680 --> 0:49:22.239
<v Speaker 1>Ragged, doing the most, doing the most. I'm like, oh,

0:49:22.239 --> 0:49:25.560
<v Speaker 1>this is who I ye know. It's just like sometimes

0:49:25.600 --> 0:49:28.040
<v Speaker 1>I just like to make sweet potato waffles from scratch

0:49:28.239 --> 0:49:30.160
<v Speaker 1>when I got to be somewhere at eight am, and

0:49:30.160 --> 0:49:31.839
<v Speaker 1>I'll wake up at six am to do it. This

0:49:31.920 --> 0:49:34.040
<v Speaker 1>is who I am. I want to make sure they

0:49:34.080 --> 0:49:38.200
<v Speaker 1>eat good, but just know that that might change. There's seven,

0:49:38.239 --> 0:49:40.759
<v Speaker 1>but when they're sixteen, you might not be in that

0:49:40.920 --> 0:49:43.479
<v Speaker 1>phase of life. You might be like one hundred. What's

0:49:43.520 --> 0:49:46.800
<v Speaker 1>the math? When they're sixteen? How old am I? Uh?

0:49:46.840 --> 0:49:51.680
<v Speaker 1>What are you? In nine years? You're gonna be fifty eight? No, yeah, yeah,

0:49:51.719 --> 0:49:53.120
<v Speaker 1>fifty eight fifty.

0:49:53.400 --> 0:49:57.000
<v Speaker 2>I'll be on my like hollyberry shit and I have

0:49:57.080 --> 0:49:59.320
<v Speaker 2>to like use like a spray to still get wet.

0:50:00.040 --> 0:50:03.640
<v Speaker 2>And I'll be boogie ubrals and a captain, you know,

0:50:04.160 --> 0:50:06.440
<v Speaker 2>getting my hair wet, jumping off of boats like Beyonce

0:50:06.560 --> 0:50:09.879
<v Speaker 2>and or Gabriel Union, and I'll have like a really

0:50:09.960 --> 0:50:12.359
<v Speaker 2>nice skincare line, you know what I mean.

0:50:12.840 --> 0:50:14.680
<v Speaker 1>I think my feet will still be sucked up. Just

0:50:14.800 --> 0:50:17.200
<v Speaker 1>you know, ther vision for yourself is so clear, Thank

0:50:17.239 --> 0:50:19.240
<v Speaker 1>you so much. Yeah, I just want soft feet.

0:50:19.320 --> 0:50:19.919
<v Speaker 2>You know what I mean?

0:50:20.000 --> 0:50:20.479
<v Speaker 1>That's all.

0:50:20.880 --> 0:50:23.360
<v Speaker 2>I don't even need soft life any soft feet and

0:50:23.440 --> 0:50:26.400
<v Speaker 2>a wet and a wet vagina soft feet, you know,

0:50:26.800 --> 0:50:30.840
<v Speaker 2>hard money, wet pussy soft life.

0:50:30.920 --> 0:50:39.799
<v Speaker 1>Okay, you want to You're like, It's like when I

0:50:39.840 --> 0:50:44.319
<v Speaker 1>get my mom likes She's like you like it? I

0:50:44.400 --> 0:50:44.719
<v Speaker 1>love it?

0:50:44.800 --> 0:50:52.000
<v Speaker 2>Since mm, that's it, That's what I want for myself.

0:50:52.080 --> 0:50:56.239
<v Speaker 1>How about that, halle Berry? Huh? How about it? How

0:50:56.280 --> 0:50:59.400
<v Speaker 1>about if not as because you talked about the allointments

0:50:59.400 --> 0:51:01.360
<v Speaker 1>and stuff, but she also has a gadget that is

0:51:01.360 --> 0:51:04.880
<v Speaker 1>some type of red light. Have you seen this? Yes,

0:51:05.040 --> 0:51:06.920
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if I need don't it. I'm not

0:51:06.960 --> 0:51:10.680
<v Speaker 1>saying you need it. I'm fascinated. Okay, what if you

0:51:10.680 --> 0:51:15.440
<v Speaker 1>were saying that? I heard? So I heard. By the

0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:20.680
<v Speaker 1>way we have I r L wh so like we

0:51:20.680 --> 0:51:23.520
<v Speaker 1>don't get a lot of oxygen down there, So I

0:51:23.520 --> 0:51:24.319
<v Speaker 1>guess the red light?

0:51:24.480 --> 0:51:24.960
<v Speaker 2>What do you mean?

0:51:25.120 --> 0:51:32.560
<v Speaker 1>What do you mean? What? What? What is wrong with us?

0:51:32.640 --> 0:51:35.640
<v Speaker 2>It doesn't get aired out a lot? Okay, so I'm

0:51:35.680 --> 0:51:38.480
<v Speaker 2>sure the red light makes it feel like it's got

0:51:38.480 --> 0:51:41.319
<v Speaker 2>some warmth on there is that is that?

0:51:42.960 --> 0:51:43.640
<v Speaker 1>Is that? Look?

0:51:43.760 --> 0:51:46.719
<v Speaker 2>I'm not doctor Oz, but I will say, I don't

0:51:46.719 --> 0:51:49.520
<v Speaker 2>even play one on TV, although I did play orthopedic surgeon,

0:51:49.680 --> 0:51:51.960
<v Speaker 2>did you? I did in First Wives Club. I don't

0:51:52.000 --> 0:51:53.839
<v Speaker 2>know how to spelt worthopedic, like what are we doing?

0:51:54.840 --> 0:51:54.880
<v Speaker 3>Like?

0:51:55.000 --> 0:51:56.799
<v Speaker 1>What are we doing? It was probably in the script

0:51:56.400 --> 0:51:57.400
<v Speaker 1>it was.

0:51:57.400 --> 0:52:00.560
<v Speaker 2>Beatt plush, probably shout out you have your past word.

0:52:07.600 --> 0:52:11.480
<v Speaker 1>More water? You can't we have we have unlimited supply water.

0:52:11.760 --> 0:52:14.960
<v Speaker 2>You guys got the good budget water and on crustables

0:52:18.160 --> 0:52:21.520
<v Speaker 2>there they're like, go outside, Yeah, you have to what

0:52:23.719 --> 0:52:25.560
<v Speaker 2>for yours because there's no sun down there?

0:52:25.640 --> 0:52:31.480
<v Speaker 1>Right? Is that right? Yeah? No, No, it's important to

0:52:31.600 --> 0:52:40.640
<v Speaker 1>Factestetician No serious, can somebody chat GPT it? It stimulates

0:52:41.000 --> 0:52:47.759
<v Speaker 1>my andria minochandria which DC, thank yous, avatar, thank you

0:52:47.800 --> 0:52:58.000
<v Speaker 1>so much, anaconda vagina, it's it's stimulates. I'm so sorry. No,

0:52:58.160 --> 0:53:00.600
<v Speaker 1>you've opened so many questions. I have so many follow

0:53:00.680 --> 0:53:04.080
<v Speaker 1>up questions about oxygen and do we get enough oxygen?

0:53:04.640 --> 0:53:06.760
<v Speaker 2>Brittany says, they're women who, yeah.

0:53:06.640 --> 0:53:09.000
<v Speaker 1>You have to sunbathe with theirs open.

0:53:09.200 --> 0:53:12.480
<v Speaker 2>Well, if you have like a colation down there, like

0:53:12.680 --> 0:53:16.040
<v Speaker 2>sometimes it gets a little purple or like dark brown

0:53:16.160 --> 0:53:18.319
<v Speaker 2>or black, is because it doesn't get enough sun.

0:53:19.880 --> 0:53:22.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh it is something I've never considered.

0:53:22.440 --> 0:53:22.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I know.

0:53:23.600 --> 0:53:25.000
<v Speaker 1>I've learned so much from you today.

0:53:25.360 --> 0:53:26.320
<v Speaker 2>Thank you, thank you.

0:53:26.480 --> 0:53:27.080
<v Speaker 1>I could talk.

0:53:27.520 --> 0:53:29.680
<v Speaker 2>I could just talk about bodies all day, like really,

0:53:30.000 --> 0:53:32.279
<v Speaker 2>we're fast, it's fascinating, and we don't know anything about

0:53:32.280 --> 0:53:35.320
<v Speaker 2>our body until something goes wrong. Oh my god, you

0:53:35.440 --> 0:53:37.960
<v Speaker 2>know more about our car than our bodies, and our

0:53:38.000 --> 0:53:41.120
<v Speaker 2>bodies are like fucking amazing. So that's why I'm just

0:53:41.239 --> 0:53:44.360
<v Speaker 2>like celebrate. And also no, no, it's powerful.

0:53:44.719 --> 0:53:47.560
<v Speaker 1>Yes, you know, are you like a naked person, like

0:53:47.640 --> 0:53:49.600
<v Speaker 1>do you enjoy being naked? You got it?

0:53:49.920 --> 0:53:51.960
<v Speaker 2>You are her, you got it. You picked it up

0:53:52.040 --> 0:53:53.920
<v Speaker 2>right away stead of Roger, your camera guy, he's like

0:53:54.000 --> 0:53:56.680
<v Speaker 2>a bitch, we're the naked family.

0:53:56.880 --> 0:53:59.880
<v Speaker 1>Are you sunbathing your vagina for oxygen?

0:54:00.080 --> 0:54:00.320
<v Speaker 2>Why not?

0:54:00.920 --> 0:54:00.960
<v Speaker 1>No?

0:54:01.680 --> 0:54:04.479
<v Speaker 2>No, I mean no, not with all the fruit flies

0:54:04.520 --> 0:54:04.880
<v Speaker 2>and stuff.

0:54:04.960 --> 0:54:11.400
<v Speaker 1>Just kidding, but like will, I will never under say that.

0:54:11.800 --> 0:54:16.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm so sorry, but yeah, I just like to be freak.

0:54:16.160 --> 0:54:18.440
<v Speaker 2>I would ever consider that. Now you've put fruit flies

0:54:18.480 --> 0:54:21.280
<v Speaker 2>into the equation. I'm so sorry. I was doing Bebby

0:54:21.360 --> 0:54:24.640
<v Speaker 2>Smith's podcast in ben and it was in Miami and

0:54:24.680 --> 0:54:26.200
<v Speaker 2>there were fruit flies down there, and I was like,

0:54:26.280 --> 0:54:28.680
<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, and she's like, it's the neck.

0:54:28.640 --> 0:54:32.960
<v Speaker 1>To Darling, it's a sweet neck doll. And I was like, thanks, Bebby,

0:54:33.440 --> 0:54:40.480
<v Speaker 1>Wow what hype woman. But anyway, yeah, I like to

0:54:40.520 --> 0:54:42.600
<v Speaker 1>be a little free because you know what it is too.

0:54:42.760 --> 0:54:46.360
<v Speaker 1>I always had a like like I've had this body.

0:54:46.880 --> 0:54:48.879
<v Speaker 2>It was bigger when I was like eleven or twelve,

0:54:48.920 --> 0:54:50.680
<v Speaker 2>and so I always had to like be under a

0:54:50.760 --> 0:54:52.959
<v Speaker 2>male gaze, like stand up straight, not too straight?

0:54:53.000 --> 0:54:55.360
<v Speaker 1>Where bra you know? Do this? Do that?

0:54:55.600 --> 0:54:58.240
<v Speaker 2>Like button down shirt, button down shirts and Catholic school

0:54:58.320 --> 0:55:01.080
<v Speaker 2>my whole life. And now I'm like, I'm free. I'm

0:55:01.200 --> 0:55:03.319
<v Speaker 2>just free to be who I want, how I want,

0:55:03.360 --> 0:55:05.840
<v Speaker 2>And this is how I'm comfortable. I still put on

0:55:05.920 --> 0:55:09.480
<v Speaker 2>clothes when people come over. You put them only when

0:55:09.480 --> 0:55:12.719
<v Speaker 2>people come over, yes, And when they're not there, it's off.

0:55:14.200 --> 0:55:15.560
<v Speaker 1>It's off, you know.

0:55:15.840 --> 0:55:17.560
<v Speaker 2>And the wonder Woll in my house is like, we

0:55:17.760 --> 0:55:19.840
<v Speaker 2>have to wear clothes at the dinner table, like we

0:55:19.920 --> 0:55:21.520
<v Speaker 2>can't all Winnie the poet.

0:55:22.800 --> 0:55:28.040
<v Speaker 1>At dinner? Have we lunch? You know, yes, lunch? What

0:55:28.360 --> 0:55:30.399
<v Speaker 1>kind of question is that? Such?

0:55:30.840 --> 0:55:32.840
<v Speaker 2>Wait asked, what are the quests? You have?

0:55:32.960 --> 0:55:33.520
<v Speaker 1>All the cards?

0:55:33.600 --> 0:55:35.279
<v Speaker 2>It was on the card I want to if you

0:55:35.360 --> 0:55:38.080
<v Speaker 2>were clothing for like, really, yes, no, it's not.

0:55:39.080 --> 0:55:41.239
<v Speaker 1>Why would that be in the car? Why would I

0:55:41.280 --> 0:55:43.759
<v Speaker 1>even know that we were going to go? Heree, This

0:55:43.880 --> 0:55:47.800
<v Speaker 1>whole conversation is not unexpected. It's taking so many unexpected turns,

0:55:48.400 --> 0:55:52.439
<v Speaker 1>just like the Jersey Turnpike. She is a Jersey girl.

0:55:53.080 --> 0:55:54.839
<v Speaker 1>We did have a Jersey card that we didn't get

0:55:54.880 --> 0:55:55.280
<v Speaker 1>to today.

0:55:55.360 --> 0:55:56.400
<v Speaker 2>Oh my goodness, what is it?

0:55:56.680 --> 0:55:57.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't know.

0:55:57.120 --> 0:55:58.080
<v Speaker 2>It's just a background.

0:55:58.120 --> 0:56:00.600
<v Speaker 1>And you come from where you come from, growing up

0:56:00.640 --> 0:56:04.080
<v Speaker 1>in Jersey and you have your parents are Jamaican and Haitian,

0:56:05.280 --> 0:56:10.520
<v Speaker 1>which is amazing because isn't there like a there's always

0:56:10.680 --> 0:56:13.840
<v Speaker 1>something something right. It's like Puerto Ricans and Dominicans and

0:56:13.960 --> 0:56:20.319
<v Speaker 1>Jamaican and Haitians, Dominicans, Dominicans and Jamaicans too. I grew

0:56:20.400 --> 0:56:22.960
<v Speaker 1>up with a lot Jamaicans. Always felt like one thinks

0:56:23.000 --> 0:56:23.799
<v Speaker 1>they're better than the other.

0:56:24.480 --> 0:56:28.799
<v Speaker 2>Always yeah, you know, Cuba, it's all coolbia Venezuela, it's

0:56:28.800 --> 0:56:32.600
<v Speaker 2>all but you know, same at the end of the day,

0:56:32.600 --> 0:56:34.520
<v Speaker 2>we're all just like beautiful souls trying to figure out

0:56:34.520 --> 0:56:35.120
<v Speaker 2>how to do life.

0:56:35.360 --> 0:56:36.239
<v Speaker 1>Word, you know.

0:56:37.160 --> 0:56:38.600
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, but that's a lot of Caribbean.

0:56:39.120 --> 0:56:41.279
<v Speaker 1>It's a lot of Caribbean in the home, it is,

0:56:41.719 --> 0:56:47.000
<v Speaker 1>how is that navigating your choices like who I want

0:56:47.040 --> 0:56:48.239
<v Speaker 1>to date, what I want to look like, what I

0:56:48.280 --> 0:56:51.760
<v Speaker 1>want to do for a career, any old school Haitian

0:56:51.840 --> 0:56:55.160
<v Speaker 1>Jamaican ideas that kind of went against any of that?

0:56:56.160 --> 0:57:02.719
<v Speaker 2>Or are your parents pretty liberal and modern? But a

0:57:02.800 --> 0:57:03.319
<v Speaker 2>great question.

0:57:05.239 --> 0:57:05.759
<v Speaker 1>I feel like.

0:57:08.239 --> 0:57:13.600
<v Speaker 2>I feel like they were. They were strict, they were religious,

0:57:13.680 --> 0:57:17.800
<v Speaker 2>they were conservative, but they also weren't like our families

0:57:17.840 --> 0:57:20.919
<v Speaker 2>are so big that everybody was sort of like making

0:57:20.960 --> 0:57:23.360
<v Speaker 2>the right and the wrong choices. So by the time

0:57:23.440 --> 0:57:26.400
<v Speaker 2>it got to me and they realized I was who

0:57:26.480 --> 0:57:30.120
<v Speaker 2>I was, They're like, just be a good person. Don't

0:57:30.120 --> 0:57:31.400
<v Speaker 2>get pregnant in high school.

0:57:32.160 --> 0:57:33.080
<v Speaker 1>Just you know what I mean.

0:57:33.160 --> 0:57:35.360
<v Speaker 2>They're like, because I was always like in a small class.

0:57:36.240 --> 0:57:38.320
<v Speaker 2>I didn't even realize I was like dyslexic till later

0:57:38.400 --> 0:57:42.040
<v Speaker 2>in life and and you know, probably have add hello

0:57:42.640 --> 0:57:46.440
<v Speaker 2>and so they were just like, just be a good person.

0:57:47.560 --> 0:57:49.160
<v Speaker 2>We want the best for you. But you know, and

0:57:49.320 --> 0:57:50.840
<v Speaker 2>I feel like by the time they got to me,

0:57:51.280 --> 0:57:53.600
<v Speaker 2>they're like, it's not going to be a doctor, it's

0:57:53.640 --> 0:57:55.360
<v Speaker 2>not gonna be a lawyer. She can't remember anything.

0:57:56.960 --> 0:58:00.480
<v Speaker 1>Did they think you were funny. Yeah, is it always

0:58:00.520 --> 0:58:00.960
<v Speaker 1>taken well?

0:58:01.600 --> 0:58:05.640
<v Speaker 2>So no, No, my funny to them sometimes was just

0:58:05.720 --> 0:58:08.600
<v Speaker 2>like very American, but my funny to my friends was

0:58:08.680 --> 0:58:11.920
<v Speaker 2>like very Caribbean. So that's the great thing about being

0:58:12.040 --> 0:58:15.560
<v Speaker 2>first generation, like you're just you really do have the

0:58:15.640 --> 0:58:16.480
<v Speaker 2>best of both worlds.

0:58:17.280 --> 0:58:17.560
<v Speaker 1>And so.

0:58:19.360 --> 0:58:21.960
<v Speaker 2>While when we went to Jamaica it was like be free,

0:58:22.040 --> 0:58:26.240
<v Speaker 2>b you be proud of your body, while we were

0:58:26.240 --> 0:58:29.960
<v Speaker 2>in America, it's like, you know again, straighten your hair

0:58:30.360 --> 0:58:33.240
<v Speaker 2>like iron your shir like you know, you have to

0:58:33.400 --> 0:58:37.960
<v Speaker 2>like go along to get along, assimilate. You don't have

0:58:38.040 --> 0:58:40.640
<v Speaker 2>to tell everybody where your parents are from. You know,

0:58:41.960 --> 0:58:49.920
<v Speaker 2>we're from here. And so you know, now realizing how

0:58:50.000 --> 0:58:53.920
<v Speaker 2>my dad was about being Haitian coming here in the

0:58:54.080 --> 0:58:58.600
<v Speaker 2>sixties and what's going on with Ice, I realized why

0:58:58.680 --> 0:58:59.360
<v Speaker 2>he was the.

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<v Speaker 1>Way he was.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, what do you mean, like careful or trying

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<v Speaker 2>to blend the trying to stimilate or yeah, like not

0:59:08.280 --> 0:59:10.800
<v Speaker 2>giving people too much information about you that they can

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<v Speaker 2>hold against you, you know, not Yeah, not being as

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<v Speaker 2>like freeing spaces as you could have been because of

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<v Speaker 2>the government. I always thought he was paranoid, but this

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<v Speaker 2>is the time he was talking about It's like he

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<v Speaker 2>knew yeah, yeah, yeah, fascinating right. Yeah, but I wouldn't

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<v Speaker 2>change it for the like I wouldn't change it for

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<v Speaker 2>the world. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean because I like good food in your house.

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<v Speaker 1>My god, oh very My dad was a cook. He

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<v Speaker 1>was he was a cook.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And I'm looking at my kids now, like they

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<v Speaker 2>can't even make a sandwich. I'm like I was cut

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<v Speaker 2>and chicken up when I was when I was their age,

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<v Speaker 2>when I was seven. Yeah, I was laying my clothes

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<v Speaker 2>out at five, making my breakfast and it.

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<v Speaker 1>Was a different world. It really is on the subway

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<v Speaker 1>at seven by myself, like a crazy child, and I

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<v Speaker 1>really ain't even Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Does that make my mother sound like a bad parent.

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<v Speaker 1>No, Well, because we all were and we were going

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<v Speaker 1>to school. So I was on the bus, on the

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<v Speaker 1>train and the bus or walking Careah, well maybe eight.

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<v Speaker 1>I was eight when I used to go by myselok

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<v Speaker 1>at that it.

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<v Speaker 2>Were so independent. Meanwhile, I'm like chasing my kids around

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<v Speaker 2>with the water bottle.

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<v Speaker 1>What am I doing? Said? Water? By Drason station? Did

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<v Speaker 1>you were like you were doing connections? You were like

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<v Speaker 1>giving people directions. I had to sit in the near

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<v Speaker 1>the conductor that was my one Oh, that was my

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<v Speaker 1>one direction. Sit near the conductor case anything goes wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh No, I would. I would sit next to the conductor.

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<v Speaker 1>I would feel safe. I would think the conductor who

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<v Speaker 1>didn't know me, but I just I was like fake security.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah he didn't know. You know, the conductors never know.

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<v Speaker 1>But when you were young, that's what our parents used

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<v Speaker 1>to say. No, you're from Jersey, so probably different than

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<v Speaker 1>being in the city, right, Like, yeah, I'd be like,

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<v Speaker 1>sit near the conductor. I did the city, ED.

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<v Speaker 2>Did the city. I did Long Island. I just I

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<v Speaker 2>did a lot of it was growing up in Jersey

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<v Speaker 2>was like, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>It was dope.

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<v Speaker 2>I wish it was less aggressive.

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<v Speaker 1>Because by the time I went to college in Miami,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, who were fighting tonight?

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<v Speaker 2>And everyone's like, nobody.

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<v Speaker 1>Calmed down, Vammitch sequin shirt stop. I'm like, wait, fight nobody.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm so like, you know, I'm thankful for a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of things. Well, like, no way, I used to

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<v Speaker 1>fight that much. We had to get to our irol questions.

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<v Speaker 1>But I have to ask you no Way before we do.

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<v Speaker 1>I just have to ask you this, are you are

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<v Speaker 1>you disappointed that maybe people didn't show up numbers.

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<v Speaker 2>Wise the way they should have for this spot for

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<v Speaker 2>the show. That's a really good question because it's it's

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<v Speaker 2>a bigger question about society.

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<v Speaker 1>What do you mean?

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<v Speaker 2>It's why are we not showing up for women, women

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<v Speaker 2>of color, queer people, fat people, brown and black people.

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<v Speaker 2>It isn't just showing up for my comedy show. It's

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<v Speaker 2>showing up for people trying to get their papers in

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<v Speaker 2>order for ice or like you know, for immigration and

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<v Speaker 2>still being detained and sometimes killed by ice. Do you

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<v Speaker 2>know what I mean? It's showing up for marginalized communities,

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<v Speaker 2>And so what do I expect?

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<v Speaker 1>What did I expect?

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<v Speaker 2>It's really hard to crack, you know, the code. That's

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<v Speaker 2>why you have to celebrate the Quintas and everybody else,

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<v Speaker 2>because it's really hard. Because I and I'm saying this

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<v Speaker 2>as the most positive person.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, you're the glasses half full girl, I am.

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<v Speaker 2>But I also have to be realistic in what society

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<v Speaker 2>did these norms tell us and show us we have

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<v Speaker 2>to show up for we have to show up for

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<v Speaker 2>each other, and we have to respect each other. But

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<v Speaker 2>like there's so many levels of like disrespect on just

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<v Speaker 2>even comedy and female comedy. There's the reason why you're

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<v Speaker 2>never gonna see Best Picture at the Oscars that's not

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<v Speaker 2>only a comedy, but you know, probably with a bunch

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<v Speaker 2>of black people, unless it's like pain porn. There's like,

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<v Speaker 2>there's just a bigger picture that doesn't have to do

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<v Speaker 2>with me. But I'm just gonna do my best to

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<v Speaker 2>do what I do, and so do. I wish the

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<v Speaker 2>numbers were like astronomical, just so I could say to like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, capitalism essentially, look at this, it matters, we matter,

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<v Speaker 2>and now you can see because of the money. Yes,

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<v Speaker 2>but the truth of the matter is a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>people probably can't afford these platforms, or they just don't

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<v Speaker 2>know about it because they're working, or it doesn't show

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<v Speaker 2>up in their algorithm, because that doesn't serve the advertising,

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<v Speaker 2>because everyone's.

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<v Speaker 1>Like, who's this show for.

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<v Speaker 2>If people don't et there's I remember Glad came to

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<v Speaker 2>set for Peppermint's wedding episode in season two and shared

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<v Speaker 2>some wild facts about trans people, and one of them

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<v Speaker 2>was people in America, most people believe that they've seen

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<v Speaker 2>a ghost before a trans person.

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<v Speaker 1>So yes, But so all this to say, the bigger

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<v Speaker 1>picture is.

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<v Speaker 2>What we were saying about us, you know, the respect

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<v Speaker 2>and the support we get as marginalized communities, like essentially.

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<v Speaker 2>So wow, yeah, I don't remember the question at this point,

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<v Speaker 2>I really went awful one or.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you disappointed that, oh yes, that people didn't show

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<v Speaker 1>up in a bigger way?

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<v Speaker 2>But I feel yeah, and I feel like the people

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<v Speaker 2>that needed it did show up, Like I can't. You

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<v Speaker 2>can't compete with like people who literally are pouring their

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<v Speaker 2>hearts out in DMS messages and letters to you of

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<v Speaker 2>how this show say not only saved them, but like

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<v Speaker 2>change how they saw themselves and people in the world.

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<v Speaker 2>So I'm like, oh, job, will, dumbitch, you did it,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean? Yeah, And we had a

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<v Speaker 2>good time off set, and we didn't trauma bond.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know everybody.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, everybody told their therapists they had a good time. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I mean we didn't have any avocados, but other than that,

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<v Speaker 2>the guacamolea that government tub did as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Well done, then thank you so much. We'll then very

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<v Speaker 1>well done. Well look here, so that now that you're

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<v Speaker 1>moving forward, I know you're taking a break right now,

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<v Speaker 1>a little break. I said that, Well, I'm taking like

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<v Speaker 1>a mental like well not not that is what you

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<v Speaker 1>said to me, I know, but not like a break

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<v Speaker 1>where like don't call me, I'm not available, all right,

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<v Speaker 1>call me, I'm available for you still have something set

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<v Speaker 1>up right yet like kind of put maybe you got

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<v Speaker 1>a little maybe got little seeds. Okay, you got seeds.

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<v Speaker 1>But yes, I'm not like there is always wonder if

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<v Speaker 1>you go into it differently based on where this landed

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<v Speaker 1>in the world. Yeah, yeah, I mean, it's it's exciting,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. I wrote a couple of things that I'm

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<v Speaker 1>trying to see where they go. But like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't wait to see me too, Like I don't

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<v Speaker 1>kind of how everybody shows up the way they're supposed to.

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<v Speaker 2>For it, thank you? I mean August twenty first, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know when this rash. August twenty first, have a

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<v Speaker 2>movie coming out called Spot Weekend Elizabeth Leslie Man, Anna

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<v Speaker 2>Faris and Isla Fisher, and that's really fun because it

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<v Speaker 2>is giving Mount rushmore comedy. Is there a reason that

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<v Speaker 2>you say comedy so aggressively.

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<v Speaker 1>So people know him sarruh's Oh my god? Wait were

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<v Speaker 1>those questions? Those were most of those were my IRL

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<v Speaker 1>This is presented by Boost Mobiles. Is a segment where

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<v Speaker 1>somebody calls in or sends a message or I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know what it is. Sometimes it's a comment. Sometimes it's

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<v Speaker 1>a question. Okay, what do we got from Michelle today?

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<v Speaker 1>So what's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Where you came from?

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<v Speaker 1>Hey? Michelle?

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<v Speaker 2>So fat girls.

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<v Speaker 3>The movie with Monique was such a rare example of

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<v Speaker 3>a plus sized black woman getting to be funny, romantic

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<v Speaker 3>and fully realized on screen. Survival of the Thickest feels

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<v Speaker 3>like it's building on that legacy. Was Monique or that

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<v Speaker 3>film and inspiration for you at all?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god? I want to say yes, but no,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to say but no. It wasn't like Monique

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<v Speaker 1>is always like Monique is always like.

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<v Speaker 2>She's in the Zeigeist for me for sure. And it

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<v Speaker 2>wasn't just that movie, like Monique is that bitch, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like the talk show, the movies, the stand up specials,

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<v Speaker 2>the multi hyphen it, the loving yourself no matter what.

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<v Speaker 2>So it wasn't necessarily that movie. It was just Monique

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<v Speaker 2>in fact, like the mo the m Apostrophe, because there's

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<v Speaker 2>more of her, like I put that in the show,

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<v Speaker 2>like moment that's like episode one, season one, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>when Khalil asked, Mavis, don't you always say think girls

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<v Speaker 2>I have in a moment, She's like moment like m Apostrophe.

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<v Speaker 2>You know so yes in that part, yes that you know,

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<v Speaker 2>yes Monique there, but no not necessarily the.

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<v Speaker 1>Sure you don't have to apologize for your truth. That's

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<v Speaker 1>when I don't never mind if you took that move.

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<v Speaker 1>You told us that today. All right, now we have

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<v Speaker 1>an IRL ball.

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<v Speaker 2>Go into the ball.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh there's some meaningful in real life questions. Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh so pick up question. Oh look at y'all be

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<v Speaker 2>printing stuff and cutting it out. Yeah, we have a crap.

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<v Speaker 2>We have ll arts graph department.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh my god. Oh.

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<v Speaker 2>If you could instantly master any skill, what would it be.

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<v Speaker 1>Quefing? Okay, see.

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<v Speaker 2>You think that's right?

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<v Speaker 1>Can't It's like would what would mastering that entail? Good question?

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, but if you were mastering it, you

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<v Speaker 2>would know. I guess it's like direction of air.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, like like target targeting. Maybe carry on the next question.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 2>If God were to text you right now, what would

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<v Speaker 2>it say?

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<v Speaker 1>It's text? Oh okay, that's my favorite question of the ball.

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<v Speaker 1>Really it seems light, but try to answer it and

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<v Speaker 1>see what happens for you. If you got a text

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<v Speaker 1>message from God, yeah, what would it say to you?

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<v Speaker 1>It would say something along the lines of keep going.

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<v Speaker 1>You're doing the right thing.

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<v Speaker 2>That's pretty good. I think it's pretty good too. That's

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<v Speaker 2>often what she tells me. What's something you used to

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<v Speaker 2>be embarrassed about that you own now? Oh my goodness,

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<v Speaker 2>my body for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>I thought you were never I thought you were always.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I'm no, You're not born that way.

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<v Speaker 1>You just yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I guess I don't think we're born with insecurities,

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<v Speaker 2>but people put them on you, and I'm like, this

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<v Speaker 2>is weird. I thought I was doing good, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, oh, I guess I'm I never saw myself

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<v Speaker 2>in magazines were chiev each like, so I didn't know,

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<v Speaker 2>and so I would cover up and be like, I

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<v Speaker 2>guess I'm not doing this. But man, the moment I

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<v Speaker 2>found like a halter top or a tank top or

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<v Speaker 2>like a thing or you know, when I just started

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<v Speaker 2>to do me a little bit more, I'm like, this

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<v Speaker 2>is good. Why would it be anything else? You know,

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<v Speaker 2>And also like getting out of my mind of like

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<v Speaker 2>am I not enough for him to be with me?

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<v Speaker 1>That sucked.

1:11:03.800 --> 1:11:05.840
<v Speaker 2>But the minute I was like, you're welcome to this

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<v Speaker 2>body because it's amazing orgasm. Who knew?

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<v Speaker 1>This is great? I know I'm just gonna do like

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<v Speaker 1>a for every woman, no matter the size, because if

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<v Speaker 1>it's not weight, it's the your hips or your brooding proportion,

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<v Speaker 1>or it's short. Yeah. Well, I think there's all types

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<v Speaker 1>of insecurities that's that do the same thing. It's not

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<v Speaker 1>even about the specific insecurity. It's just the insecurities, yes,

1:11:30.160 --> 1:11:32.360
<v Speaker 1>that are put on us, that are put on us

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<v Speaker 1>that make us not enjoy life. It is a form

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<v Speaker 1>of control. Oh oh, that's good.

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<v Speaker 2>It is a form of control designed Yes, yes, and

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<v Speaker 2>and and it goes back and it's like also biblical

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<v Speaker 2>like it's a form of control. And dare I say

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<v Speaker 2>mental abuse? Because what would it actually look like if

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<v Speaker 2>if everyone actually loved themselves and they were enough mm hmm, equality,

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<v Speaker 2>that's what would happen. Yeah, they don't want that, not

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<v Speaker 2>at all, because then you gotta pay me what you

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<v Speaker 2>owe me. What's one thing you hope never changes about you?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>My god, I don't know what do you think? What

1:12:18.960 --> 1:12:20.760
<v Speaker 2>do I hope nothing that doesn't change about you?

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<v Speaker 1>Yes? Okay, yes? Are you talking with the balls? You're

1:12:24.760 --> 1:12:26.519
<v Speaker 1>bored now with the ball. You can keep going with

1:12:26.560 --> 1:12:29.519
<v Speaker 1>the ball. What do I hope never changes about you. Yes,

1:12:32.920 --> 1:12:37.280
<v Speaker 1>your glasses have fullness, but also the joy that you

1:12:37.360 --> 1:12:43.000
<v Speaker 1>wrap that up in yeap for everyone else. Yes, is

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<v Speaker 1>that a good answer? That's a very good answer.

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<v Speaker 2>You're so pretty? Stop you're so pretty. Oh that's so nice,

1:12:52.280 --> 1:12:56.040
<v Speaker 2>thank you, But like, oh, that's really sweet. When I

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<v Speaker 2>did her show, you didn't say it about me. You

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<v Speaker 2>only said about her. These are great questions. I sure,

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<v Speaker 2>what is it fear that you are actively working through?

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<v Speaker 2>That's a good one because you present yeah as fearless. Wow, really,

1:13:17.600 --> 1:13:19.120
<v Speaker 2>I just told you I was so scared of spiders,

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<v Speaker 2>like right before we saw.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but that's not the same thing. It's not.

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<v Speaker 2>No, you're not scared of spiders is going to stop

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<v Speaker 2>you from living your life?

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<v Speaker 1>That's true, but I don't go camping. Well then, so

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<v Speaker 1>maybe slightly living your life if you wanted to camp.

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<v Speaker 1>But you present as fearless. Yeah, So are there fears

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<v Speaker 1>that you've had to overcome to be able to be

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<v Speaker 1>the person that you are? I? Yes, yes, yes, but

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<v Speaker 1>the inevitable is my ultimate fear, which is death.

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<v Speaker 2>Sorry, no, you're bringing to stop. Don't stop there.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh this is a really good ball. You shouldn't have

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<v Speaker 1>some money in here. I know it will Usually people

1:14:07.280 --> 1:14:09.640
<v Speaker 1>just picked one, but you do like a glutton for that.

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<v Speaker 1>I wasn't going to stop you. No, I wasn't going

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<v Speaker 1>to stop you. It's just that you were so good.

1:14:17.600 --> 1:14:19.840
<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to stop you. That could be the

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<v Speaker 1>last one. But that could be the last one. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>we under death. We ended death. But it's not death,

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<v Speaker 1>it's fear of death. Yeah, because fear of losing people.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh so that your fear of death is other people dying,

1:14:34.240 --> 1:14:38.400
<v Speaker 1>not you dying both. Yes, Okay, there's levels to this.

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<v Speaker 1>There is because I have people who think about it

1:14:40.680 --> 1:14:42.240
<v Speaker 1>all the time. I know people who think about it

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<v Speaker 1>all the time, and then some people who don't fear

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<v Speaker 1>it at all at all. Yeah. Usually the people who

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<v Speaker 1>have come really close to it don't really fear it

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<v Speaker 1>as much. Yeah. I don't know where do you sit?

1:14:59.520 --> 1:15:03.400
<v Speaker 1>I you know what this podcast was called. When we

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<v Speaker 1>first launched the pod, it was called We're all going

1:15:07.720 --> 1:15:11.840
<v Speaker 1>to die, so we better start living? Would you have

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<v Speaker 1>would you have come to the show if that? If

1:15:14.160 --> 1:15:15.840
<v Speaker 1>that was the name of it, I'll come to any

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<v Speaker 1>show you do. Yeah, But it was called that because

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<v Speaker 1>I had had a lot of loss at that time. Also,

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<v Speaker 1>I was in a really bad car as I saw

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<v Speaker 1>all these things, and I realized, we're all going to die,

1:15:25.680 --> 1:15:26.840
<v Speaker 1>Like what do I really want to do? What do

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<v Speaker 1>I really care about? Knowing that our time here is limited?

1:15:30.520 --> 1:15:32.759
<v Speaker 1>What's important to me? And so that was the concept

1:15:33.000 --> 1:15:35.040
<v Speaker 1>of it. But I realized that would scare some people off.

1:15:35.080 --> 1:15:36.519
<v Speaker 1>So we went to in real life, like what do

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<v Speaker 1>we what do we care about in real life? And

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<v Speaker 1>so we landed in real life. But yeah, I'm very

1:15:41.240 --> 1:15:44.080
<v Speaker 1>interested in the subject because I do think it our

1:15:44.200 --> 1:15:48.879
<v Speaker 1>fear of it. Sometimes I don't know, it's it controls

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<v Speaker 1>how we how we live and what we do at

1:15:52.360 --> 1:15:55.880
<v Speaker 1>the time we have and sometimes we get we get

1:15:55.920 --> 1:15:58.519
<v Speaker 1>scared to do certain things because what we live in

1:15:58.600 --> 1:16:01.160
<v Speaker 1>fear or worry or can I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I just wonder where it lands for you.

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<v Speaker 1>I Yeah, no, I'm fearless.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm definitely fearless because because it's coming, you know, and

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<v Speaker 2>so so and that's why I started stand up, because

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<v Speaker 2>after nine eleven, I'm like, oh, we might die, so

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<v Speaker 2>we better start living.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh that's right.

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<v Speaker 2>So you were fueled by that too, I did hear that. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and my dad has had dementia for a long time,

1:16:26.840 --> 1:16:29.639
<v Speaker 2>and he's sort of like wasting away, and so it's

1:16:29.680 --> 1:16:34.120
<v Speaker 2>like this prolonged goodbye but also like a prolong like

1:16:34.320 --> 1:16:36.960
<v Speaker 2>I still have you, Like it's just a very And

1:16:37.080 --> 1:16:42.920
<v Speaker 2>then you know people that are very close to me

1:16:43.800 --> 1:16:49.680
<v Speaker 2>that have cancer, it's uh, it's death. That's the one

1:16:49.760 --> 1:16:52.679
<v Speaker 2>thing that we can't control that we can't control.

1:16:53.240 --> 1:16:53.920
<v Speaker 1>Fuck it sucks.

1:16:54.080 --> 1:16:56.560
<v Speaker 2>It fucking sucks, and I want them here. Yeah, and

1:16:56.640 --> 1:16:57.320
<v Speaker 2>I want them here.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah. Yeah, I have two friends dealing with parents with

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<v Speaker 1>dementia right now. What a challenging kind of roller coaster.

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<v Speaker 1>Very yeah, very But but to your point, there's some

1:17:12.880 --> 1:17:18.799
<v Speaker 1>type of collateral beauty like in appreciating, Yeah, the moments.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's almost like I get to take care of

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<v Speaker 2>my dad now. But it's also like the thing where

1:17:27.680 --> 1:17:30.200
<v Speaker 2>like I know he wouldn't have wanted this, but I'm

1:17:30.200 --> 1:17:33.120
<v Speaker 2>looking at him and he's so happy, but then he's

1:17:33.160 --> 1:17:37.240
<v Speaker 2>also like, you know not, It's just it is a

1:17:37.600 --> 1:17:44.920
<v Speaker 2>very fucked up, confusing thing where you just truly it

1:17:45.160 --> 1:17:48.200
<v Speaker 2>humanizes every and anything you can ever be with, do

1:17:48.200 --> 1:17:51.160
<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean? And uh, like even my

1:17:51.360 --> 1:17:54.120
<v Speaker 2>kids when I show them pictures like of them with

1:17:54.320 --> 1:17:56.200
<v Speaker 2>my dad three years ago. They're like, who's that guy?

1:17:56.240 --> 1:17:59.360
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, that is your grandfather playing with you, the

1:17:59.439 --> 1:18:03.360
<v Speaker 2>scary guy in the bed. And I'm like, he's not scary.

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<v Speaker 3>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>That's tough, tough, and so yeah, it's just yeah, death,

1:18:12.360 --> 1:18:14.720
<v Speaker 1>that's this is a shitty way to end the conversation.

1:18:15.160 --> 1:18:18.000
<v Speaker 1>It's pretty great, you think so, think so we had

1:18:18.040 --> 1:18:22.160
<v Speaker 1>such a like bright, happy conversation.

1:18:23.240 --> 1:18:26.280
<v Speaker 2>We can't land it on us. No, I don't think.

1:18:26.360 --> 1:18:30.080
<v Speaker 1>So go back at the go, back at the ball,

1:18:32.360 --> 1:18:36.800
<v Speaker 1>back at the ball. I go, bitch, question, what are

1:18:36.840 --> 1:18:40.200
<v Speaker 1>some of your pet peeves or triggers? Oh? How much

1:18:40.280 --> 1:18:42.600
<v Speaker 1>time we got? Tell me that was before you go?

1:18:44.040 --> 1:18:46.360
<v Speaker 2>I mean, I think, I mean.

1:18:46.320 --> 1:18:47.719
<v Speaker 1>Adults that act like children.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you need a pillow on a fucking plane?

1:18:49.520 --> 1:18:50.000
<v Speaker 1>You don't.

1:18:50.840 --> 1:18:53.000
<v Speaker 2>Do you need to complain about your food allergy? No,

1:18:53.400 --> 1:18:56.840
<v Speaker 2>fucking be an adult person. Order what the fuck you

1:18:56.880 --> 1:18:58.520
<v Speaker 2>gotta order, and don't tell me about.

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<v Speaker 1>Your gas at dinner.

1:19:03.280 --> 1:19:06.679
<v Speaker 2>At dinner, stop trying to put pet peet. When somebody

1:19:06.880 --> 1:19:09.639
<v Speaker 2>wants to yuck, you're yum when they do the yeah,

1:19:09.720 --> 1:19:12.280
<v Speaker 2>but get the fuck out of here. Talk to your

1:19:12.320 --> 1:19:13.320
<v Speaker 2>mom about that bullshit.

1:19:13.439 --> 1:19:14.679
<v Speaker 1>Somebody who yucks you'r yum.

1:19:14.800 --> 1:19:19.240
<v Speaker 2>No yuck, my yum ever ever, this is my yummy moment?

1:19:20.040 --> 1:19:22.720
<v Speaker 1>Is your husband? Is your husband good at that? Not yuck?

1:19:22.760 --> 1:19:23.280
<v Speaker 2>And you're yum?

1:19:23.520 --> 1:19:24.240
<v Speaker 1>No, he's a virgo?

1:19:24.720 --> 1:19:25.840
<v Speaker 2>Does he's born to yuck?

1:19:26.040 --> 1:19:28.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh? Really? I thought that was going to be the

1:19:28.120 --> 1:19:30.760
<v Speaker 1>key to your to finding the right person for you.

1:19:31.640 --> 1:19:32.679
<v Speaker 1>You know, it's so funny.

1:19:34.160 --> 1:19:37.559
<v Speaker 2>It's so funny because he has to think about everything

1:19:37.600 --> 1:19:41.360
<v Speaker 2>he does and like read the comments and and you know,

1:19:41.680 --> 1:19:43.920
<v Speaker 2>and not the comments or what is it called when

1:19:43.920 --> 1:19:47.240
<v Speaker 2>people like leave reviews about something. He has to be

1:19:47.360 --> 1:19:48.800
<v Speaker 2>very organized in his thought process.

1:19:48.920 --> 1:19:51.639
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, or we could do it and then fuck

1:19:51.760 --> 1:19:53.960
<v Speaker 1>up and learn from our mistake. I love sucking up

1:19:54.000 --> 1:19:55.800
<v Speaker 1>and learning from my massage. Oh it's my most favorite thing.

1:19:55.800 --> 1:19:56.360
<v Speaker 1>What's your moon?

1:19:57.160 --> 1:19:58.200
<v Speaker 2>My moon? Is it a fire?

1:19:58.960 --> 1:20:01.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't know? Should I know? You should know? How

1:20:01.720 --> 1:20:06.800
<v Speaker 1>do I find out? Ask somebody? Ooh yeah, oh I

1:20:06.920 --> 1:20:08.360
<v Speaker 1>did this? Yeah I did it.

1:20:08.520 --> 1:20:10.240
<v Speaker 2>Do you know your rising in your moon? No?

1:20:10.800 --> 1:20:14.080
<v Speaker 1>Okay, would that serve me to know? Yes? It would?

1:20:14.120 --> 1:20:17.719
<v Speaker 2>I think it's fire. Might have a fire in your chart? Okay?

1:20:18.560 --> 1:20:20.280
<v Speaker 2>What is the fear that you're actually working through?

1:20:21.520 --> 1:20:24.080
<v Speaker 1>Do I do that? I really think you've done all

1:20:24.120 --> 1:20:26.040
<v Speaker 1>the damn wolves I'm trying to find.

1:20:26.439 --> 1:20:28.200
<v Speaker 2>I'm really just stalling, letting you do it till I

1:20:28.240 --> 1:20:31.680
<v Speaker 2>find my like some perfect Lately, I've been reminding myself that,

1:20:32.040 --> 1:20:35.479
<v Speaker 2>oh it's okay, it's okay, it's okay to not be

1:20:35.560 --> 1:20:39.640
<v Speaker 2>okay because menopause is like new for me. Oh you

1:20:39.840 --> 1:20:43.280
<v Speaker 2>just it's new for me, and I don't sweat, but

1:20:43.760 --> 1:20:46.120
<v Speaker 2>the hot flash makes me feel anxious, and I'm like,

1:20:46.240 --> 1:20:50.760
<v Speaker 2>are we going to die? It was like, is there turbulence?

1:20:50.840 --> 1:20:53.559
<v Speaker 2>Everyone looks so happy, and I'm like, can we turn

1:20:53.640 --> 1:20:55.960
<v Speaker 2>the arron? And because it's like yeah, okay, I'm like

1:20:57.320 --> 1:21:00.920
<v Speaker 2>so like it's a weird thing where I'm like, nobody

1:21:01.000 --> 1:21:04.160
<v Speaker 2>else feels like that with something you used to be

1:21:04.200 --> 1:21:07.040
<v Speaker 2>embarrassed about that now you own. What if every answer

1:21:07.160 --> 1:21:11.960
<v Speaker 2>was just queping, you should totally do that? Okay, guilty pleasure.

1:21:12.360 --> 1:21:16.679
<v Speaker 2>I found two here Democracy, Democracy, that's my guilty pleasure.

1:21:16.960 --> 1:21:21.760
<v Speaker 1>MM. When everybody's gotta say, mom, what a kick? I

1:21:21.880 --> 1:21:25.360
<v Speaker 1>am no longer fucking ho, I am no longer available for.

1:21:26.960 --> 1:21:31.519
<v Speaker 2>You're bullshit? Do some get therapy. There's a whole you

1:21:31.640 --> 1:21:34.160
<v Speaker 2>can you don't have to go in person. You can

1:21:34.200 --> 1:21:38.719
<v Speaker 2>get your degree from DeVry online and also get therapy.

1:21:41.240 --> 1:21:45.880
<v Speaker 2>The best advice someone has ever given you, Oh my god,

1:21:46.080 --> 1:21:49.080
<v Speaker 2>so many things. Will Sylviance, who's a really funny comedian

1:21:50.360 --> 1:21:52.200
<v Speaker 2>you know well love well.

1:21:52.280 --> 1:21:55.360
<v Speaker 1>He does a lot of stuff with cipher yah cypha sounds.

1:21:56.240 --> 1:21:59.000
<v Speaker 2>Will When I first started comedy, he was like one

1:21:59.040 --> 1:22:02.800
<v Speaker 2>of the only straight dudes who was like who wasn't

1:22:02.920 --> 1:22:06.840
<v Speaker 2>like touched my dick for stage time and uh, that

1:22:07.000 --> 1:22:08.640
<v Speaker 2>wasn't his advice, but he was just nice to me,

1:22:08.800 --> 1:22:12.600
<v Speaker 2>and he said, as soon as you get good in

1:22:12.720 --> 1:22:15.920
<v Speaker 2>this room, go to another room where you suck, and

1:22:16.000 --> 1:22:18.400
<v Speaker 2>that's how you get better. Because everybody wants to answer

1:22:18.439 --> 1:22:19.080
<v Speaker 2>how do I make money?

1:22:19.120 --> 1:22:19.719
<v Speaker 1>Have my money?

1:22:19.800 --> 1:22:22.519
<v Speaker 2>And he was like, get good, get good, and I

1:22:22.640 --> 1:22:24.400
<v Speaker 2>was like, oh, got you. And then I got good

1:22:24.439 --> 1:22:27.160
<v Speaker 2>and I was like, oo, be so undeniable that nobody

1:22:27.200 --> 1:22:30.439
<v Speaker 2>could fuck with you. And so that really helped me

1:22:30.560 --> 1:22:33.040
<v Speaker 2>and like shaped me because then I was already fearless

1:22:33.200 --> 1:22:35.240
<v Speaker 2>enough to like get on stage. But then like everybody

1:22:35.320 --> 1:22:38.280
<v Speaker 2>puts the thing on you. Like even within comedy, when

1:22:38.360 --> 1:22:39.720
<v Speaker 2>you make up your own rules, people are like, you

1:22:39.800 --> 1:22:41.759
<v Speaker 2>got to go to this club, you gotta sit around

1:22:41.800 --> 1:22:43.400
<v Speaker 2>and hang out. I'm like I want to fuck a

1:22:43.479 --> 1:22:45.880
<v Speaker 2>hang out. I got friends, Okay, I want to see

1:22:45.920 --> 1:22:48.040
<v Speaker 2>my friends. I want to hang with you fucks. I

1:22:48.160 --> 1:22:49.479
<v Speaker 2>want to do what I want to do my set

1:22:49.479 --> 1:22:51.200
<v Speaker 2>and want to go and I hang out with you

1:22:51.240 --> 1:22:54.720
<v Speaker 2>and talk about your fucking joke. So that advice with

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<v Speaker 2>some people who have had success. Sometimes you get content

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<v Speaker 2>in your little box of success or. But to go

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<v Speaker 2>into a different room, and that's a different kind of ego.

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<v Speaker 2>That's an insecure ego, the one that always has to

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<v Speaker 2>be big fish and be right. I think a really healthy,

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<v Speaker 2>beautiful ego is the one that's working that doesn't mind

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<v Speaker 2>like going into rooms where you don't know everything, but

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<v Speaker 2>you still know what you know and you want to

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<v Speaker 2>work with people. That's like the type of ego I

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<v Speaker 2>want to work with. M Yeah, And how can you

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<v Speaker 2>learn if you stay in that same little room.

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<v Speaker 1>That's the thing. And people don't want to learn because

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<v Speaker 1>they think they know everything. Okay, Will with the good advice.

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<v Speaker 2>It's good advice, yeah, Will, it's good.

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<v Speaker 1>You never know when you say something to somebody how

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<v Speaker 1>it sits and lands with them forever. It's two thousand

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<v Speaker 1>and two. Yeah, Yeah, And this last one, I'd like

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<v Speaker 1>to end with this because when okay, because you got

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<v Speaker 1>to end it. You got to end it at some

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<v Speaker 1>point because we could literally sit here, then we could

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<v Speaker 1>do a whole other interview and you could be Mavis

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<v Speaker 1>and I could be Dawn.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Charles Renee, he was great. Run Ricau's amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>But you had this incredible show movies. You're about to

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<v Speaker 1>go on tour and Netflix special is going to be filmed,

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<v Speaker 1>getting filmed. You've broken barriers. You're a great mom who

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<v Speaker 1>adores her kids, sixteen year marriage, a long time, I

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<v Speaker 1>mean a lot of successes in your life. Yeah, you're happy,

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<v Speaker 1>you're taking care of your dad, You're seeing even the

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<v Speaker 1>beauty in some of those moments. Yeah, Like, this is

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<v Speaker 1>a lot that you've that you've done. What are you

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<v Speaker 1>most proud of about yourself? All of those things that.

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<v Speaker 3>I am.

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<v Speaker 2>That no matter what I am, who I am, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>still this thick, titty, freckle faces bitch that wants to

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<v Speaker 2>make people laugh and trying to have a clean kitchen

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<v Speaker 2>and manicured feet and have a good day, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>and uh it it feels me to uplift people, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, then I'm that bitch that I still have

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<v Speaker 2>friends from like first grade to high school of college

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<v Speaker 2>that you know. I'm still that bitch. Yeah, fame is

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<v Speaker 2>like what is fame? Famous? Just a tax bracket. We're

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<v Speaker 2>like a fucking check on a social media page, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>I think success is you know when you're happy, right,

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<v Speaker 2>when you're happy, when you're a good person, you do

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<v Speaker 2>good things.

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<v Speaker 1>That's really good.

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<v Speaker 2>Now, that's how you end the college.

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