1 00:00:00,720 --> 00:00:03,360 Speaker 1: What does Colgate mean by live life to the brightest? 2 00:00:03,640 --> 00:00:06,519 Speaker 1: Could it be a rich glass of red sipped inside 3 00:00:06,559 --> 00:00:10,280 Speaker 1: a Parisian cafe on a snowy night when my gaze 4 00:00:10,360 --> 00:00:15,239 Speaker 1: is met by a tall mysterious I mean brushing is 5 00:00:15,280 --> 00:00:18,520 Speaker 1: directed with Colgate Optic White Pro Series toothpaste gives you 6 00:00:18,560 --> 00:00:21,479 Speaker 1: a visibly whiter smile in just three days, So you 7 00:00:21,520 --> 00:00:24,079 Speaker 1: can live life to the brightest and finish that glass 8 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:28,360 Speaker 1: without worrying about teeth stains. Coldergate Optic Wights find it 9 00:00:28,400 --> 00:00:31,480 Speaker 1: at all major retailers. I listened to the Black Guy 10 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:34,800 Speaker 1: Who Tips podcast because Rod and Karen are a. 11 00:00:34,840 --> 00:00:36,320 Speaker 2: Hot different color. 12 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:40,560 Speaker 3: My passport, Instagram, my stack low hashtag my day where 13 00:00:40,720 --> 00:00:43,360 Speaker 3: your girl Drake, my daycare and a born rich life, 14 00:00:43,360 --> 00:00:47,120 Speaker 3: a fair silver spoon coon. Ho ain't nobody zicker in 15 00:00:47,200 --> 00:00:48,560 Speaker 3: my fiskerroom. 16 00:00:48,680 --> 00:00:50,320 Speaker 2: Ho ain't nobody. 17 00:00:50,240 --> 00:00:52,640 Speaker 3: Fishers don't make noise in a startup. Just so you know. 18 00:00:53,640 --> 00:00:56,840 Speaker 3: Top of the hot of total, holy total who love this, 19 00:00:57,160 --> 00:01:00,400 Speaker 3: top of the holy total rich forever a million was 20 00:01:00,440 --> 00:01:03,040 Speaker 3: not the quota for her father on half the moment 21 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:06,000 Speaker 3: and did it with no diploma. Yeah off, got no rules, 22 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:08,720 Speaker 3: tipping off of them toestoos more agreed than Whole Foods. 23 00:01:08,720 --> 00:01:10,640 Speaker 3: And I two fly Jeff Goldblum and got a glass 24 00:01:10,640 --> 00:01:14,520 Speaker 3: house in the Palisades. That aka white hood white hood. 25 00:01:14,760 --> 00:01:17,840 Speaker 3: OKAYKK for the customer shop of the kill. Somebody was 26 00:01:17,920 --> 00:01:19,920 Speaker 3: riding you whipping of Kia, spending their money as longer 27 00:01:19,959 --> 00:01:22,000 Speaker 3: than he look like a cople of mes a Field. 28 00:01:22,000 --> 00:01:23,400 Speaker 2: Wag it up, broke man. Wouldn't want to be a 29 00:01:23,480 --> 00:01:25,840 Speaker 2: friends with a dope man having nigger. Yep, but bring 30 00:01:25,920 --> 00:01:28,880 Speaker 2: your girlfriend, bring a girlfriend, man trouble want to see it? 31 00:01:29,600 --> 00:01:31,959 Speaker 2: I don't want to. Oh, I got my cool long 32 00:01:32,720 --> 00:01:33,680 Speaker 2: Taylor Murray. 33 00:01:34,000 --> 00:01:37,000 Speaker 3: I'm winning, So they got to dump that gatorade and 34 00:01:37,040 --> 00:01:39,080 Speaker 3: I don't give a fuck about my family name. 35 00:01:40,000 --> 00:01:41,800 Speaker 2: Hey, welcome to the Blackout. 36 00:01:41,840 --> 00:01:46,000 Speaker 3: To this podcast, your host Rod and and someone did 37 00:01:46,040 --> 00:01:48,280 Speaker 3: not know the words of that and just decided the 38 00:01:48,280 --> 00:01:49,400 Speaker 3: freestyle a few times. 39 00:01:49,960 --> 00:01:54,440 Speaker 2: Whoever wrote this, somebody translate it? Yeah, top of the 40 00:01:54,480 --> 00:01:57,160 Speaker 2: hold them told them who that doesn't even make sense? No, 41 00:01:57,200 --> 00:01:59,360 Speaker 2: that does not Uh, that's. 42 00:01:59,200 --> 00:02:00,960 Speaker 3: What happened when you use voice translator. 43 00:02:01,360 --> 00:02:01,680 Speaker 2: Yep. 44 00:02:02,120 --> 00:02:06,880 Speaker 3: We're live on Wednesday for a very short edition of 45 00:02:06,920 --> 00:02:09,040 Speaker 3: The black Out Tips, considering you know, we only had 46 00:02:09,040 --> 00:02:12,160 Speaker 3: two shows this week. Because the holidays. Holidays are falling, 47 00:02:12,320 --> 00:02:15,200 Speaker 3: y'all taking days off. Guess who else is taking days off? 48 00:02:15,560 --> 00:02:19,920 Speaker 2: These niggas, right, you can find us on iTunes. 49 00:02:20,320 --> 00:02:23,000 Speaker 4: That's probably what y'all say when y'all don't get no podcasts, 50 00:02:23,040 --> 00:02:23,680 Speaker 4: these nigga. 51 00:02:23,800 --> 00:02:26,040 Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean, it's not as bad as a lot 52 00:02:26,080 --> 00:02:26,400 Speaker 2: of shows. 53 00:02:26,440 --> 00:02:28,360 Speaker 3: A lot of shows. Just I was like, fuck y'all forever, 54 00:02:28,760 --> 00:02:31,240 Speaker 3: but you whole week. See y'all at twenty eighteen. 55 00:02:31,480 --> 00:02:34,959 Speaker 4: I know thee they left y'all eighteenth nineteen. They're like, 56 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:36,240 Speaker 4: fuck y'all for twenty days. 57 00:02:36,360 --> 00:02:37,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, y'all sitting somewhere. 58 00:02:37,639 --> 00:02:39,200 Speaker 2: I'm still waiting. 59 00:02:40,360 --> 00:02:45,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, but at any rate, did I already say? Official 60 00:02:45,680 --> 00:02:48,880 Speaker 3: weapon of the show is up. Unofficial Sport Bullet bo 61 00:02:49,080 --> 00:02:52,360 Speaker 3: At Bulletball extream. You can find this podcast everywhere you 62 00:02:52,400 --> 00:02:56,359 Speaker 3: find podcasts. Appreciate everybody takes the time out to do that. 63 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:01,720 Speaker 3: And today's episode it's about the Legal Equalizer app if 64 00:03:01,720 --> 00:03:05,120 Speaker 3: you encounter if you have an emergency encounter with the police, 65 00:03:05,280 --> 00:03:08,880 Speaker 3: this app is here to help you out. Okay, they're 66 00:03:08,919 --> 00:03:11,680 Speaker 3: trying to save your life and make sure your life 67 00:03:11,720 --> 00:03:13,920 Speaker 3: is safe and that you know all your options in 68 00:03:13,960 --> 00:03:17,240 Speaker 3: any type of emergency encounter. I'll tell you more in 69 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:20,440 Speaker 3: details later, but Legal Equalizer is the name of the app. 70 00:03:20,639 --> 00:03:22,840 Speaker 3: You can find it on the Google Play Store or 71 00:03:22,919 --> 00:03:26,119 Speaker 3: Apple App Store. Like I said, it took a couple 72 00:03:26,160 --> 00:03:29,560 Speaker 3: of seconds of download, set it up, and yeah, then 73 00:03:29,800 --> 00:03:31,760 Speaker 3: you're prepared because you always want to be prepared in 74 00:03:31,800 --> 00:03:32,840 Speaker 3: case of emergency. 75 00:03:34,560 --> 00:03:36,560 Speaker 2: All Right, we got all kinds of stuff to talk about. 76 00:03:36,600 --> 00:03:38,000 Speaker 3: I guess the first thing I wanted to say, though, 77 00:03:38,000 --> 00:03:40,360 Speaker 3: I had a couple of random thoughts me too, and 78 00:03:40,440 --> 00:03:42,240 Speaker 3: Karen did too. So geah, Karen, go ahead. 79 00:03:42,280 --> 00:03:46,480 Speaker 2: I don't want me to go first. Yeah, okay, mine 80 00:03:46,520 --> 00:03:48,840 Speaker 2: not that complex. It's just you don't have to start 81 00:03:48,880 --> 00:03:49,520 Speaker 2: downplaying them. 82 00:03:49,520 --> 00:03:51,000 Speaker 3: I believe in you. Go ahead. 83 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:52,520 Speaker 2: Oh, I believe in me too. 84 00:03:53,120 --> 00:03:56,000 Speaker 4: One thing I wanted to say is that for those 85 00:03:56,400 --> 00:04:00,680 Speaker 4: of you that I've had the pleasure on of meeting 86 00:04:00,720 --> 00:04:03,360 Speaker 4: our fans and the other podcasts and stuff like that, 87 00:04:03,760 --> 00:04:08,800 Speaker 4: I never realized that I gave great hugs until after 88 00:04:08,880 --> 00:04:11,360 Speaker 4: we got back from Podcon, because a lot of people 89 00:04:11,360 --> 00:04:12,120 Speaker 4: were saying. 90 00:04:11,960 --> 00:04:14,080 Speaker 2: Oh my gosh, I love your hugs. Your hugs was 91 00:04:14,120 --> 00:04:15,440 Speaker 2: the best, and you. 92 00:04:15,480 --> 00:04:19,239 Speaker 4: Was like my grandma great up or some other older 93 00:04:19,360 --> 00:04:21,040 Speaker 4: lady with love and the heart. 94 00:04:21,160 --> 00:04:24,960 Speaker 2: And I'm happy that people feel that way about me. 95 00:04:26,520 --> 00:04:28,880 Speaker 4: Because I'm an extrovert and I'm a hugger, and a 96 00:04:28,920 --> 00:04:31,120 Speaker 4: lot of times I ask, I'd be like, hey, I'm 97 00:04:31,120 --> 00:04:33,440 Speaker 4: a hugger because I know some people they got the 98 00:04:34,040 --> 00:04:36,400 Speaker 4: and I've just learned different people's personality. Some people they 99 00:04:36,400 --> 00:04:37,920 Speaker 4: don't like to be touched or they don't like to 100 00:04:37,960 --> 00:04:41,120 Speaker 4: be hugged, so I try to always ask. And I 101 00:04:41,200 --> 00:04:43,360 Speaker 4: hugged from a sincere place and not a hug from 102 00:04:43,360 --> 00:04:46,520 Speaker 4: a really loving place, cause I'm really happy to meet you. 103 00:04:47,160 --> 00:04:49,000 Speaker 2: I'm glad that you're weird. 104 00:04:49,400 --> 00:04:51,920 Speaker 4: I'm looking at you and you're looking at me, and 105 00:04:52,040 --> 00:04:54,919 Speaker 4: I hope, and I'm glad that other people feel my 106 00:04:55,080 --> 00:04:58,479 Speaker 4: joy that comes out of my heart through my hug hugs, 107 00:04:58,520 --> 00:05:00,840 Speaker 4: and I'm just glad that I'm met able to make 108 00:05:00,920 --> 00:05:02,760 Speaker 4: people feel better and brighten that day up. 109 00:05:02,640 --> 00:05:03,159 Speaker 2: With a hug. 110 00:05:03,360 --> 00:05:05,480 Speaker 3: Well, nobody thanked me for my hug, so I'm gonna 111 00:05:05,520 --> 00:05:09,040 Speaker 3: just shut my hug down. Okay, I get the hand guys, 112 00:05:09,080 --> 00:05:13,880 Speaker 3: all right, I didn't get any feedback, so my hug 113 00:05:13,920 --> 00:05:14,679 Speaker 3: game is weak. 114 00:05:14,800 --> 00:05:17,680 Speaker 2: And uh, you know, I think maybe we can just all. 115 00:05:17,920 --> 00:05:21,200 Speaker 3: Go back to handshakes. And high fives in eighteen guys. 116 00:05:21,320 --> 00:05:23,720 Speaker 2: No, no, no. 117 00:05:24,000 --> 00:05:25,800 Speaker 3: Look, I don't wanna. I don't want to force any 118 00:05:25,880 --> 00:05:28,680 Speaker 3: hugs on anybody. You know, I asked beforehand. You know, 119 00:05:28,880 --> 00:05:31,960 Speaker 3: I make sure not to just rush any hug people. Hey, 120 00:05:32,000 --> 00:05:33,920 Speaker 3: I've seen the hashtags. I ain't trying to be out 121 00:05:33,960 --> 00:05:36,760 Speaker 3: franking up in the space right. But you know, even 122 00:05:37,080 --> 00:05:42,039 Speaker 3: when hug initiation procedure is giving the green light, you know, 123 00:05:42,839 --> 00:05:46,479 Speaker 3: apparently it's still lacking. And that's on me, guys, not 124 00:05:46,560 --> 00:05:49,800 Speaker 3: your fault. So let's just go back to handshakes, high 125 00:05:49,839 --> 00:05:52,680 Speaker 3: fives and waves. No for twenty eighteen guys, you see 126 00:05:52,720 --> 00:05:55,640 Speaker 3: me a negro con Hey, good shooting a Gavin will 127 00:05:55,680 --> 00:05:59,360 Speaker 3: do I'll take that. You know you want to maybe 128 00:05:59,400 --> 00:06:00,760 Speaker 3: even a wink. I'll take a wink. 129 00:06:00,880 --> 00:06:03,800 Speaker 2: So yeah, I do that. 130 00:06:04,080 --> 00:06:08,039 Speaker 3: I'll continue hugging Karen and great her hugste yes, And 131 00:06:08,120 --> 00:06:09,000 Speaker 3: it just makes. 132 00:06:08,800 --> 00:06:11,080 Speaker 2: Me feel so good and bring so much joy in 133 00:06:11,120 --> 00:06:11,560 Speaker 2: my heart. 134 00:06:12,279 --> 00:06:14,000 Speaker 4: Uh, Like I said, for those of you, if I 135 00:06:14,160 --> 00:06:16,560 Speaker 4: had the pleasure to honor the meet and it makes 136 00:06:16,600 --> 00:06:19,640 Speaker 4: me feel good that you guys actually enjoying my hugs 137 00:06:19,680 --> 00:06:22,520 Speaker 4: and uh another thing, and we kind of talked, oh 138 00:06:22,680 --> 00:06:25,120 Speaker 4: oh two more things. One thing, you know, we kind 139 00:06:25,120 --> 00:06:27,279 Speaker 4: of talked about this in the car and one is 140 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:31,200 Speaker 4: kind of going to lead into the other. We was 141 00:06:31,200 --> 00:06:34,200 Speaker 4: listening to us that podcast and Color, Yeah podcasting Color. 142 00:06:34,760 --> 00:06:38,680 Speaker 3: Yesterday, Yeah Berry started a podcast called podcast in Color. 143 00:06:39,480 --> 00:06:42,240 Speaker 3: You guys may know her from Podcasts in Color. Her 144 00:06:42,279 --> 00:06:47,240 Speaker 3: website has done a tremendous amount for people in the 145 00:06:47,279 --> 00:06:51,920 Speaker 3: black and brown podcast in space, and she's a tremendous 146 00:06:52,880 --> 00:06:56,520 Speaker 3: resource and also just you know, a huge fan. I 147 00:06:56,560 --> 00:06:59,240 Speaker 3: know she's a huge fan of to Read and and whatnot. 148 00:07:00,040 --> 00:07:03,320 Speaker 3: We saw her podcon, which I thought was, uh, that 149 00:07:03,400 --> 00:07:05,719 Speaker 3: was a that was a really cool That was a 150 00:07:05,720 --> 00:07:07,640 Speaker 3: really cool moment to get to see her cause, like 151 00:07:07,640 --> 00:07:09,400 Speaker 3: I said, she's done so much for a lot of people, 152 00:07:10,080 --> 00:07:15,080 Speaker 3: and you know, almost thanklessly so sometimes yes, so uh 153 00:07:15,160 --> 00:07:18,360 Speaker 3: it was really interesting listening to her story and listening 154 00:07:18,400 --> 00:07:21,760 Speaker 3: to uh her talk about how she almost quit podcast 155 00:07:21,880 --> 00:07:25,200 Speaker 3: quit podcasting Color before she got a shout out on 156 00:07:25,240 --> 00:07:27,600 Speaker 3: the read, which just happened to be serendipity because she 157 00:07:27,640 --> 00:07:29,440 Speaker 3: didn't know what was happening. They didn't know she was 158 00:07:29,440 --> 00:07:34,040 Speaker 3: about to quit. So you just never know whenever your uh, 159 00:07:34,160 --> 00:07:34,880 Speaker 3: your dream is. 160 00:07:34,800 --> 00:07:38,280 Speaker 4: Going And that's true and hearing her tell a story 161 00:07:38,320 --> 00:07:40,400 Speaker 4: and something that she said that really struck a chuote 162 00:07:40,400 --> 00:07:43,160 Speaker 4: with me, and I did not realize that I am also, 163 00:07:44,960 --> 00:07:48,040 Speaker 4: I guess directly indirectly a victim of this. She said 164 00:07:48,040 --> 00:07:52,880 Speaker 4: something about imposture syndrome, and I actually kind of I 165 00:07:52,360 --> 00:07:54,440 Speaker 4: c I actually kind of Roger to kind of explain 166 00:07:54,480 --> 00:07:55,560 Speaker 4: it to me, cause I kind of knew, but I 167 00:07:55,640 --> 00:07:57,720 Speaker 4: want to be sure I had a full understanding of, 168 00:07:57,840 --> 00:08:01,680 Speaker 4: you know, what it was. And I really thought about it, 169 00:08:01,720 --> 00:08:05,080 Speaker 4: and I was like, yeah, a lot of brown people 170 00:08:05,120 --> 00:08:09,320 Speaker 4: and particularly have a tendency to fall victim to this 171 00:08:09,760 --> 00:08:13,360 Speaker 4: knowingly and unknowingly, knowingly and unknowingly at times. 172 00:08:13,720 --> 00:08:16,080 Speaker 2: And let me know if I'm wrong. 173 00:08:16,160 --> 00:08:19,600 Speaker 4: But from my definition of this, when you suffer from this, 174 00:08:20,320 --> 00:08:23,320 Speaker 4: you go into circles or just about anywhere you are. 175 00:08:23,440 --> 00:08:26,920 Speaker 4: You never think that you're good enough, you never think 176 00:08:26,960 --> 00:08:31,200 Speaker 4: that you're worthy. You're always second questioning your knowledge and 177 00:08:31,240 --> 00:08:33,200 Speaker 4: your wisdom and what you know. 178 00:08:34,960 --> 00:08:39,040 Speaker 3: Well, also you haven't you know, women suffer from this 179 00:08:39,120 --> 00:08:44,120 Speaker 3: a lot as well. But it's the feeling of everyone 180 00:08:44,240 --> 00:08:47,480 Speaker 3: else deserves to be here but not me. Right, So 181 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:49,840 Speaker 3: you could be in a room full of entrepreneurs, you're 182 00:08:49,840 --> 00:08:53,240 Speaker 3: a successful business owner, and yet somehow you'll feel like 183 00:08:54,080 --> 00:08:57,080 Speaker 3: I'm the one who shouldn't be here, you know, like 184 00:08:57,200 --> 00:08:59,720 Speaker 3: the rest of these people figured it out. So it's 185 00:08:59,760 --> 00:09:02,960 Speaker 3: even deeper than just doubting yourself is the fact that 186 00:09:03,000 --> 00:09:09,480 Speaker 3: you do attribute that confirmation to everyone but yourself, you know. 187 00:09:09,640 --> 00:09:11,920 Speaker 3: And a lot of times we talk ourselves out opportunities, 188 00:09:13,520 --> 00:09:16,200 Speaker 3: you know, especially for people who thinks come easy to 189 00:09:16,760 --> 00:09:19,439 Speaker 3: then it's almost like, well, this is so easy. It's 190 00:09:19,480 --> 00:09:23,120 Speaker 3: not hard. It's not worth achievement, it's not worth praise, 191 00:09:23,640 --> 00:09:26,840 Speaker 3: it's not you know, I shouldn't even be here. I'm 192 00:09:26,840 --> 00:09:30,040 Speaker 3: not doing anything. And then, you know, sometimes you have 193 00:09:30,080 --> 00:09:32,040 Speaker 3: to have people outside and you kind of point out, like, 194 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:34,160 Speaker 3: look at what you've done, look at what you've accomplished, 195 00:09:34,160 --> 00:09:37,720 Speaker 3: look at where you are. This is like you deserve 196 00:09:37,800 --> 00:09:41,720 Speaker 3: to be here, You belong here, you deserve praise, all 197 00:09:41,760 --> 00:09:44,880 Speaker 3: that stuff. And I think a lot of us, especially 198 00:09:44,880 --> 00:09:49,840 Speaker 3: in independence spaces and especially in places where you are 199 00:09:50,640 --> 00:09:53,520 Speaker 3: in the creative zone, because so much of it is 200 00:09:53,520 --> 00:09:57,400 Speaker 3: subjective and so much of it depends on your audience, 201 00:09:57,920 --> 00:09:59,720 Speaker 3: a lot of times you feel like you don't belong. 202 00:10:00,040 --> 00:10:01,720 Speaker 3: But sometimes you have to fake it till you make it, 203 00:10:01,800 --> 00:10:05,280 Speaker 3: but also, you know, you do have to address that 204 00:10:05,320 --> 00:10:08,920 Speaker 3: because you do belong. You know, it's like if we, well, 205 00:10:08,960 --> 00:10:11,040 Speaker 3: we get left off a podcast list. I don't really 206 00:10:11,080 --> 00:10:13,760 Speaker 3: take it too personal because it is subjective, right but 207 00:10:13,800 --> 00:10:15,559 Speaker 3: to it, but audience a lot of times will take 208 00:10:15,559 --> 00:10:18,160 Speaker 3: it personal. And sometimes I do think about the fact 209 00:10:18,160 --> 00:10:21,040 Speaker 3: that like, okay, but what are they doing there that 210 00:10:21,080 --> 00:10:25,080 Speaker 3: we're not doing that should make them make me feel 211 00:10:25,080 --> 00:10:28,560 Speaker 3: like they deserve to be praised and we don't. You know, 212 00:10:28,760 --> 00:10:33,439 Speaker 3: sometimes it happened when Marissa came down and hang out 213 00:10:33,480 --> 00:10:36,319 Speaker 3: with us for Christmas. It happened then when she was 214 00:10:36,400 --> 00:10:38,080 Speaker 3: kind of talking about the show and kind of giving 215 00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:40,400 Speaker 3: us a little bit of praise about the show, and 216 00:10:40,440 --> 00:10:44,280 Speaker 3: then she was like, you know, like telling people like, yeah, 217 00:10:44,280 --> 00:10:47,079 Speaker 3: they have a podcast's pretty popular, and we're like, it's okay. 218 00:10:47,640 --> 00:10:50,240 Speaker 3: You know, we were doing it then, so you know, 219 00:10:50,320 --> 00:10:53,360 Speaker 3: I think, you know, we all have moments like that. 220 00:10:53,440 --> 00:10:57,080 Speaker 3: But yeah, I think when she said that, I was like, yeah, 221 00:10:57,120 --> 00:10:59,719 Speaker 3: I can definitely relate to that because think about all 222 00:10:59,760 --> 00:11:03,240 Speaker 3: the talent and skilled that she amassed by herself. You know, 223 00:11:03,360 --> 00:11:07,520 Speaker 3: we're talking marketing, talking promotion, you're talking social media, you're 224 00:11:07,559 --> 00:11:14,600 Speaker 3: talking networking, going viral with with different online trends. Content management, 225 00:11:15,360 --> 00:11:18,400 Speaker 3: you're talking social media management as far as like groups 226 00:11:18,400 --> 00:11:22,559 Speaker 3: of people, you know, not to mention, website traffic, all 227 00:11:22,600 --> 00:11:24,959 Speaker 3: this stuff that she did by herself. 228 00:11:24,760 --> 00:11:27,000 Speaker 2: By herself dog, you know, pay. 229 00:11:26,880 --> 00:11:29,920 Speaker 3: For her own hosting, probably learn how to set up 230 00:11:29,920 --> 00:11:33,200 Speaker 3: a website. This is the fount of knowledge, something that 231 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:36,199 Speaker 3: people would pay her to do for them, something that 232 00:11:36,240 --> 00:11:38,200 Speaker 3: people would pay to hear how she did it, pay 233 00:11:38,240 --> 00:11:40,960 Speaker 3: to hear or speak about it, and yet she was 234 00:11:41,160 --> 00:11:43,439 Speaker 3: just about to quit and then the read shout her out. 235 00:11:43,440 --> 00:11:45,080 Speaker 3: And that was a powerful moment listening to it in 236 00:11:45,120 --> 00:11:47,559 Speaker 3: the car, because I'm like, that's some real shit, man, 237 00:11:47,559 --> 00:11:48,520 Speaker 3: people come that close. 238 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:50,080 Speaker 2: How many people have quit? 239 00:11:52,840 --> 00:11:53,120 Speaker 3: Yeah? 240 00:11:53,480 --> 00:11:58,120 Speaker 2: Yeah, so it was your random thought. It was that it. 241 00:11:58,160 --> 00:11:59,600 Speaker 2: I was just trying to tag in with you. 242 00:12:00,280 --> 00:12:02,920 Speaker 4: And it's one of those things where it really just 243 00:12:03,640 --> 00:12:08,520 Speaker 4: made me think and it made me think about a 244 00:12:08,559 --> 00:12:11,800 Speaker 4: lot of different things, and it really made me sit 245 00:12:11,880 --> 00:12:15,640 Speaker 4: back and kind of think and kind of reflect on 246 00:12:17,040 --> 00:12:18,199 Speaker 4: twenty seventeen. 247 00:12:18,640 --> 00:12:23,160 Speaker 2: Twenty seventeen has been the best year, scrash worst year 248 00:12:23,400 --> 00:12:26,800 Speaker 2: all combined in one. It's been the. 249 00:12:26,720 --> 00:12:31,040 Speaker 4: Worst year because like of all the things politically going 250 00:12:31,080 --> 00:12:31,520 Speaker 4: on and. 251 00:12:31,440 --> 00:12:32,199 Speaker 2: Things like that. 252 00:12:33,679 --> 00:12:36,440 Speaker 4: But it's also been the best year because this year, 253 00:12:37,280 --> 00:12:42,400 Speaker 4: we both individually and together have done things that I 254 00:12:42,400 --> 00:12:46,440 Speaker 4: don't think at the beginning of twenty seventeen we would 255 00:12:46,480 --> 00:12:51,240 Speaker 4: have even thought about accomplishing. And it's been awesome and 256 00:12:51,280 --> 00:12:55,000 Speaker 4: it's been wonderful. And I could see the growth in you, 257 00:12:55,040 --> 00:12:56,839 Speaker 4: and I see the growth in me, and I see 258 00:12:56,840 --> 00:12:59,160 Speaker 4: the confidence in what we both do, and you know, 259 00:12:59,360 --> 00:13:02,800 Speaker 4: even it made me think about like when Leslie and 260 00:13:02,840 --> 00:13:05,800 Speaker 4: Marissa had invited me to go to Jamaica with them, 261 00:13:05,840 --> 00:13:07,600 Speaker 4: and how you know, like I said, I was gonna 262 00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:09,559 Speaker 4: say no, and I really really. 263 00:13:11,320 --> 00:13:14,080 Speaker 2: That thing just kind of. 264 00:13:14,080 --> 00:13:15,640 Speaker 4: Set forth and I didn't realize that's what it was 265 00:13:15,679 --> 00:13:17,079 Speaker 4: at the time, Like when she said it just clicked, 266 00:13:17,120 --> 00:13:19,880 Speaker 4: like that's what it was. That's what made me think 267 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:23,440 Speaker 4: that I was in the place that I had no 268 00:13:23,520 --> 00:13:28,959 Speaker 4: beenness being, and I was surrounded by people way more knowledgeable, 269 00:13:30,240 --> 00:13:34,880 Speaker 4: much more intelligent, you know, people got all types of degrees, 270 00:13:35,400 --> 00:13:38,920 Speaker 4: you know, and I'm just a little old, simple ow me. 271 00:13:39,679 --> 00:13:44,240 Speaker 4: But what I came to realize great things come in 272 00:13:44,280 --> 00:13:45,199 Speaker 4: small packages. 273 00:13:46,280 --> 00:13:48,679 Speaker 2: And I realized. 274 00:13:48,160 --> 00:13:54,720 Speaker 4: That, particularly after Jamaica and after Podcon, I've come to 275 00:13:54,840 --> 00:13:58,160 Speaker 4: realize that there are things within me that nobody else 276 00:13:58,200 --> 00:14:00,640 Speaker 4: in the world can do but me. Nobody else in 277 00:14:00,679 --> 00:14:03,440 Speaker 4: the world can do certain things but me. It's just 278 00:14:03,559 --> 00:14:08,240 Speaker 4: unique to me. And I've also come to realize that 279 00:14:09,640 --> 00:14:11,560 Speaker 4: I'm going to start being bold. 280 00:14:12,040 --> 00:14:16,840 Speaker 2: I'm going to start being brave. I'm going to start, 281 00:14:16,400 --> 00:14:22,040 Speaker 2: uh not downplaying myself. I'm going to start speaking my 282 00:14:22,080 --> 00:14:26,720 Speaker 2: own praises when nobody else does. You know, because a. 283 00:14:26,640 --> 00:14:28,360 Speaker 4: Lot of times when you back, when people most people 284 00:14:28,400 --> 00:14:30,400 Speaker 4: look back on in life, you have accomplished a lot. 285 00:14:31,080 --> 00:14:32,680 Speaker 2: But a lot of times, I've. 286 00:14:32,520 --> 00:14:34,720 Speaker 4: Realized, and including me, you're so focused on things that 287 00:14:34,760 --> 00:14:36,680 Speaker 4: you don't have that you don't realize the things that 288 00:14:36,720 --> 00:14:38,720 Speaker 4: you do have and the things that you have accomplished. 289 00:14:38,720 --> 00:14:41,720 Speaker 2: And most people have accomplished way much more than they 290 00:14:41,760 --> 00:14:42,520 Speaker 2: think they have. 291 00:14:43,000 --> 00:14:46,120 Speaker 4: You know, Like I said, I know I personally come 292 00:14:46,160 --> 00:14:49,320 Speaker 4: a long way because I've come from somebody who who 293 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:52,520 Speaker 4: thought she was ugly, who thought she wasn't worthy to 294 00:14:52,560 --> 00:14:58,840 Speaker 4: be loved, you know, who thought that I was just fat, 295 00:14:58,880 --> 00:15:03,440 Speaker 4: And I will just I was depressed at some points 296 00:15:03,440 --> 00:15:06,760 Speaker 4: in my life, and thoughts of suicide at some points 297 00:15:06,800 --> 00:15:11,000 Speaker 4: in my life, and didn't think life was even worth 298 00:15:11,080 --> 00:15:11,560 Speaker 4: living or. 299 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:13,400 Speaker 2: Going on not realizing that. 300 00:15:14,840 --> 00:15:17,120 Speaker 4: No matter how it put like this, no matter what 301 00:15:17,400 --> 00:15:20,680 Speaker 4: I thought about myself, there are always somebody else that 302 00:15:20,760 --> 00:15:23,480 Speaker 4: loved me. And I had to get to the point 303 00:15:23,520 --> 00:15:29,000 Speaker 4: to where I saw the other people loved me. And 304 00:15:29,080 --> 00:15:31,000 Speaker 4: once I seen the other people loved me and they 305 00:15:31,120 --> 00:15:34,280 Speaker 4: truly loved me, it helped me love myself. 306 00:15:35,040 --> 00:15:35,800 Speaker 2: Because the thing. 307 00:15:35,680 --> 00:15:39,840 Speaker 4: About it is that wherever you I've learned this, particularly 308 00:15:39,840 --> 00:15:42,760 Speaker 4: being a black woman, and particularly being in a group 309 00:15:42,800 --> 00:15:46,480 Speaker 4: that's always oppressed and always bashed and always talked about 310 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:50,400 Speaker 4: on social media like we're worthless and not worthy. 311 00:15:50,040 --> 00:15:53,080 Speaker 2: Of being loved, and not worthy of. 312 00:15:52,960 --> 00:15:57,000 Speaker 4: Being praised, and not worthy of just being on the 313 00:15:57,040 --> 00:15:58,840 Speaker 4: face of the earth. I've gotten to the point in 314 00:15:58,880 --> 00:16:01,760 Speaker 4: my life that I I'm going to break this imposter syndrome. 315 00:16:01,800 --> 00:16:03,920 Speaker 4: And I want fans out there to do the same thing. 316 00:16:04,080 --> 00:16:07,480 Speaker 4: So that's why I'm sharing this. I want people to 317 00:16:07,600 --> 00:16:10,760 Speaker 4: realize that you are worthy and you and you and 318 00:16:10,840 --> 00:16:14,680 Speaker 4: somebody does love you. And you know, I know people 319 00:16:14,720 --> 00:16:17,520 Speaker 4: struggle through various different things, and people have to deal 320 00:16:17,520 --> 00:16:19,720 Speaker 4: with very different things, and I know that some people 321 00:16:19,760 --> 00:16:23,040 Speaker 4: are look in the mirror every day or pinch their 322 00:16:23,040 --> 00:16:26,000 Speaker 4: thighs or pinch their belly fat and just think, oh 323 00:16:26,000 --> 00:16:29,000 Speaker 4: my gosh, I'm not perfect, but baby, nobody's perfect. No, 324 00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:32,040 Speaker 4: nobody's perfect. And whatever circle you are, and you are 325 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:33,440 Speaker 4: worthy and you're supposed to be. 326 00:16:33,400 --> 00:16:34,240 Speaker 2: There, you know. 327 00:16:34,640 --> 00:16:36,560 Speaker 4: And it's one of those things where not only I'm 328 00:16:36,640 --> 00:16:39,600 Speaker 4: encouraging y'all, I'm encouraging myself too as I talk, you know, 329 00:16:40,200 --> 00:16:43,200 Speaker 4: and not talking myself out of opportunities, you know, and 330 00:16:43,240 --> 00:16:46,360 Speaker 4: not you know, thinking that I'm not worthy to be there, 331 00:16:46,440 --> 00:16:50,120 Speaker 4: and you know, not being humble because you know, particularly 332 00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:53,720 Speaker 4: being black, being female, you know, you always taught that 333 00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:57,400 Speaker 4: you're always supposed to push other people and everybody else 334 00:16:57,480 --> 00:17:00,520 Speaker 4: is supposed to be before you. Your husband, your mate, 335 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:04,600 Speaker 4: your children, your significant other, you know, your boyfriend, your girlfriend, 336 00:17:04,920 --> 00:17:06,600 Speaker 4: you know, or whatever. 337 00:17:06,800 --> 00:17:09,360 Speaker 2: Sexuality you are, that person is supposed to before yourself. 338 00:17:09,800 --> 00:17:12,679 Speaker 4: And you know, it's to the point where, you know, 339 00:17:13,720 --> 00:17:16,000 Speaker 4: a lot of people are tired of that. That's why 340 00:17:16,040 --> 00:17:18,600 Speaker 4: you have a lot of brown people having brown particular 341 00:17:18,640 --> 00:17:20,399 Speaker 4: brown women have a mental breakdowns and stuff like that 342 00:17:20,440 --> 00:17:23,240 Speaker 4: because they're not taking care of themselves, because they're giving 343 00:17:23,280 --> 00:17:24,800 Speaker 4: all their energy to other things. 344 00:17:25,119 --> 00:17:28,040 Speaker 2: And so, you know, twenty eighteen I'm. 345 00:17:27,880 --> 00:17:31,399 Speaker 4: Breaking that, you know, And a lot of times, once 346 00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:33,920 Speaker 4: you begin to break that, a lot of people will 347 00:17:33,960 --> 00:17:35,960 Speaker 4: realize it's a change in you, and a lot of 348 00:17:35,960 --> 00:17:37,879 Speaker 4: people will want you to go back to what you 349 00:17:38,000 --> 00:17:39,919 Speaker 4: used to be because they are well comfortable with you 350 00:17:40,040 --> 00:17:41,879 Speaker 4: sitting down, shutting up, and saying nothing. 351 00:17:42,400 --> 00:17:44,720 Speaker 2: And so you have to fight against that. 352 00:17:44,680 --> 00:17:47,879 Speaker 4: Thing, because the thing is there's something in you that 353 00:17:47,920 --> 00:17:50,840 Speaker 4: intimidates other people, and you don't realize that until it 354 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:53,840 Speaker 4: comes out. You know, when you start getting the promotions 355 00:17:53,880 --> 00:17:57,040 Speaker 4: and you start getting double looks, and you start getting 356 00:17:57,040 --> 00:17:59,520 Speaker 4: the gigs, and you people start looking your way and 357 00:17:59,600 --> 00:18:02,240 Speaker 4: you're so media start blowing up, you'll realize people. 358 00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:04,320 Speaker 2: Around you will begin to change and we'll begin to 359 00:18:04,400 --> 00:18:08,119 Speaker 2: question you. Well, those people. I realized this. As you grow, 360 00:18:08,359 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 2: people are. 361 00:18:08,840 --> 00:18:11,600 Speaker 4: Either gonna grow with you or y'all gonna grow apart 362 00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:14,399 Speaker 4: as his life and so if you can't grow with me, 363 00:18:14,480 --> 00:18:17,720 Speaker 4: we grow apart. That's cool, and it's nothing personal against you. 364 00:18:18,160 --> 00:18:22,040 Speaker 4: We just can't go this next route of my journey 365 00:18:22,200 --> 00:18:24,640 Speaker 4: because people are in your life for reasons and seasons, 366 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:27,520 Speaker 4: and your season might be over and that's okay. And 367 00:18:27,600 --> 00:18:29,720 Speaker 4: so you know, I'm to the point in my life 368 00:18:29,720 --> 00:18:32,879 Speaker 4: where I'm gonna step into my fullness, step into my boldness. 369 00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,919 Speaker 2: You know, I'm to the point in my life that 370 00:18:35,160 --> 00:18:35,880 Speaker 2: I'm going to. 371 00:18:37,400 --> 00:18:39,879 Speaker 4: In certain situations not take no for an answer, you know, 372 00:18:39,960 --> 00:18:43,119 Speaker 4: because the mediocre white man, honey, he will raise hell 373 00:18:43,160 --> 00:18:45,200 Speaker 4: if you tell him he ain't supposed to be goddamn 374 00:18:45,240 --> 00:18:47,359 Speaker 4: mediocre getting over paid for what the fuck he does? 375 00:18:47,560 --> 00:18:48,280 Speaker 2: Why can't I? 376 00:18:48,560 --> 00:18:51,359 Speaker 4: Why can't I have the same confidence as somebody who's 377 00:18:51,440 --> 00:18:53,919 Speaker 4: underqualified for a job making eight times more than me, 378 00:18:53,960 --> 00:18:55,400 Speaker 4: and I can do their job better than them? 379 00:18:55,400 --> 00:18:56,639 Speaker 2: Why can't I? You know? 380 00:18:57,200 --> 00:19:00,240 Speaker 4: And it's one of those things where yes, I'm read 381 00:19:00,280 --> 00:19:02,679 Speaker 4: the applications. No, I don't have no no degree to 382 00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:04,720 Speaker 4: do that. No, I might not ever could do the job, 383 00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:06,880 Speaker 4: but fuck it, I'm gonna put my name in there anyway, 384 00:19:07,200 --> 00:19:10,520 Speaker 4: you know. So I'm encouraging everybody in twenty eighteen to 385 00:19:10,560 --> 00:19:12,920 Speaker 4: walk in your fulld is walking your boldness. And that's 386 00:19:12,920 --> 00:19:16,800 Speaker 4: something that for me personally that I'm trying to get 387 00:19:16,840 --> 00:19:20,439 Speaker 4: stronger and bolder in. And I know You've encouraged me 388 00:19:20,560 --> 00:19:24,640 Speaker 4: a lot to get to that point that I can 389 00:19:25,600 --> 00:19:28,800 Speaker 4: do things and not be afraid and not be scared 390 00:19:28,840 --> 00:19:32,320 Speaker 4: and not worry about rejection, because the thing is failure 391 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:33,120 Speaker 4: is not the end. 392 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:34,800 Speaker 2: Saying no is not the end. 393 00:19:35,000 --> 00:19:37,240 Speaker 4: When somebody tells you know what you do, you go 394 00:19:37,359 --> 00:19:39,640 Speaker 4: back and you think of an ulterior motive to get 395 00:19:39,680 --> 00:19:43,360 Speaker 4: around their no. Okay, let's say I can't get through 396 00:19:43,400 --> 00:19:44,920 Speaker 4: the dough. But you know what I can't do. I 397 00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:46,600 Speaker 4: go around your dough. You know. 398 00:19:47,000 --> 00:19:50,480 Speaker 2: Let's say you know I can't go you know a. 399 00:19:50,320 --> 00:19:52,960 Speaker 4: Certain route, Well I can go above it or below it, 400 00:19:53,080 --> 00:19:56,639 Speaker 4: Like like one way ain't the only way that's designed, 401 00:19:56,640 --> 00:19:59,160 Speaker 4: because even what we do with podcasting, it's multiple ways. 402 00:19:59,200 --> 00:20:01,920 Speaker 2: The podcast just one way to do this thing. 403 00:20:02,440 --> 00:20:05,800 Speaker 4: And so you know, I'm getting to the point that 404 00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:09,159 Speaker 4: I want to be bolder in twenty eighteen. 405 00:20:09,160 --> 00:20:11,280 Speaker 2: I want to be stronger in twenty eighteen. 406 00:20:12,359 --> 00:20:16,359 Speaker 4: And I realized this too as the podcast has grown 407 00:20:16,480 --> 00:20:20,680 Speaker 4: and growing that I did we become a personality personalities, 408 00:20:20,680 --> 00:20:23,159 Speaker 4: and that's something that that was kind of hard for 409 00:20:23,200 --> 00:20:25,199 Speaker 4: me to accept too, because I'm like, well, I'm not 410 00:20:25,240 --> 00:20:27,680 Speaker 4: a personality. I'm just a normal ass person. 411 00:20:28,000 --> 00:20:29,440 Speaker 2: But what I realized is that. 412 00:20:30,840 --> 00:20:35,760 Speaker 4: I am somebody, and we do extraordinary thing more than 413 00:20:37,240 --> 00:20:40,040 Speaker 4: I more than I thought we did. You know, like 414 00:20:40,080 --> 00:20:41,879 Speaker 4: I said, when you go out and you see the fans, 415 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:43,720 Speaker 4: you see the people, and you see these various different 416 00:20:43,760 --> 00:20:44,560 Speaker 4: things going on. 417 00:20:44,920 --> 00:20:47,040 Speaker 2: You realize that, oh, I touched people. 418 00:20:46,800 --> 00:20:50,240 Speaker 4: More than I think I do, and and people actually 419 00:20:50,280 --> 00:20:52,000 Speaker 4: do listen to me, and people actually do hear me, 420 00:20:52,119 --> 00:20:54,919 Speaker 4: and and things like that. So I'm starting to, you know, 421 00:20:55,080 --> 00:20:59,359 Speaker 4: accept certain things that I kind of rejected before. But 422 00:20:59,720 --> 00:21:03,399 Speaker 4: you know, sometimes life bring things your way whether you 423 00:21:03,480 --> 00:21:05,639 Speaker 4: want it to or not, you know, And I've just 424 00:21:05,760 --> 00:21:11,119 Speaker 4: learned how to embrace these things as they come. Easier 425 00:21:11,200 --> 00:21:15,000 Speaker 4: said than done sometimes because I have to untrain myself 426 00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:20,280 Speaker 4: to not be humble, and untrain myself to accept praise, 427 00:21:20,359 --> 00:21:23,439 Speaker 4: and untrain myself to take the flowers while I'm alive, 428 00:21:23,760 --> 00:21:27,240 Speaker 4: you know, and untrain myself from being a little girl 429 00:21:27,280 --> 00:21:28,879 Speaker 4: when you told to sit down and shut up and 430 00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:30,879 Speaker 4: be quiet and do nothing and shrink yourself and not 431 00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:33,240 Speaker 4: to be seen, and don't nobody care about what you're saying, 432 00:21:33,280 --> 00:21:37,200 Speaker 4: and your opinions don't matter, you know, start walking out 433 00:21:37,440 --> 00:21:40,480 Speaker 4: and being bold and being beautiful and putting on my 434 00:21:40,560 --> 00:21:43,720 Speaker 4: sexy dresses and you know, putting on my fine pants 435 00:21:43,720 --> 00:21:46,280 Speaker 4: and putting on my heels and putting on makeup and 436 00:21:46,320 --> 00:21:49,880 Speaker 4: doing my hair and looking in a mirror and telling myself, 437 00:21:49,920 --> 00:21:51,880 Speaker 4: I look good. Even if I'm not at the way 438 00:21:51,960 --> 00:21:54,439 Speaker 4: I want to be, I still look good, you know, 439 00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:56,920 Speaker 4: And learning how to love on yourself, I mean, and 440 00:21:57,080 --> 00:22:01,160 Speaker 4: completely love on yourself on all the flaws that I have, 441 00:22:01,440 --> 00:22:04,920 Speaker 4: you know, all the you know, stretch marks or whatever 442 00:22:04,960 --> 00:22:08,640 Speaker 4: else is on my body that that this not perfect. 443 00:22:08,680 --> 00:22:12,720 Speaker 2: It's all right, It's okay. I still love me, you know. 444 00:22:13,119 --> 00:22:16,320 Speaker 4: And those are some things that was in my random 445 00:22:16,320 --> 00:22:17,920 Speaker 4: thoughts that I was just you know, just thinking about 446 00:22:17,960 --> 00:22:20,440 Speaker 4: what we was riding around in the car. And one 447 00:22:20,480 --> 00:22:23,440 Speaker 4: thing I can say, I am so thankful for this podcast. 448 00:22:23,520 --> 00:22:24,680 Speaker 2: I'm thankful for the fans. 449 00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:27,600 Speaker 4: I'm thankful for everybody that loves and supports us, you know, 450 00:22:28,720 --> 00:22:32,160 Speaker 4: because we've always said you are reflection on your fans, 451 00:22:32,240 --> 00:22:35,119 Speaker 4: and we try to give love, and we try to 452 00:22:35,400 --> 00:22:39,440 Speaker 4: you know, be peaceful, and we try to do these things, and. 453 00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:41,960 Speaker 2: You guys give it back to us more than you 454 00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:42,520 Speaker 2: ever know. 455 00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:45,720 Speaker 4: Like I said, you guys talk about how much we 456 00:22:45,880 --> 00:22:50,120 Speaker 4: change your lives, You guys have truly and tremendously changed 457 00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:53,359 Speaker 4: our lives more than you would ever know. You know, 458 00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:56,879 Speaker 4: your five star reviews on iTunes and Stitcher, you know, 459 00:22:57,880 --> 00:23:00,600 Speaker 4: hitting us up on Twitter and Facebook saying that you 460 00:23:00,680 --> 00:23:04,440 Speaker 4: love the show using the hashtag, being a premium person, 461 00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:09,560 Speaker 4: being a PayPal donor you know it like that stuff 462 00:23:09,640 --> 00:23:13,240 Speaker 4: really helps us know that what we do is not 463 00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:13,720 Speaker 4: in vain. 464 00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:16,760 Speaker 2: And so you know, I'm encouraging myself and. 465 00:23:16,760 --> 00:23:20,320 Speaker 4: Y'all, y'all twenty eighteen, walking your food and regardless of 466 00:23:20,320 --> 00:23:23,000 Speaker 4: what's going on around you, living your best white woman 467 00:23:23,040 --> 00:23:25,120 Speaker 4: of color and don't let this shit stress you out. 468 00:23:26,640 --> 00:23:29,080 Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, I I agree with all that I think, 469 00:23:30,320 --> 00:23:35,280 Speaker 3: especially though, like imposter syndrome thing that's definitely you know, 470 00:23:35,600 --> 00:23:37,840 Speaker 3: it's easy to fall into, especially when you do something 471 00:23:37,920 --> 00:23:40,120 Speaker 3: that's not traditional right. 472 00:23:40,160 --> 00:23:41,399 Speaker 2: And like I said, I didn't realize I was a 473 00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:42,160 Speaker 2: victim of it. 474 00:23:42,320 --> 00:23:44,520 Speaker 3: I think a lot of people, if they think about it, are, 475 00:23:44,800 --> 00:23:48,240 Speaker 3: you know, especially if you're trying to do something in 476 00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:49,119 Speaker 3: the creative lane. 477 00:23:49,200 --> 00:23:51,760 Speaker 2: It's my shit isn't good enough. I'm not right, it's. 478 00:23:51,640 --> 00:23:53,320 Speaker 3: Not popping off the way I thought it would be. 479 00:23:54,640 --> 00:23:57,040 Speaker 3: And then one of the things you said about failure, 480 00:23:58,480 --> 00:24:01,560 Speaker 3: you know, in the last Jedi, you know, Yoda said 481 00:24:02,040 --> 00:24:06,080 Speaker 3: the best teacher failure is and you know, He was 482 00:24:06,080 --> 00:24:08,560 Speaker 3: talking about passing on legacies and that you don't just 483 00:24:08,640 --> 00:24:11,960 Speaker 3: pass on the strengths and the good, you pass on 484 00:24:12,000 --> 00:24:15,920 Speaker 3: the bad too, because you the lessons you learn from 485 00:24:15,920 --> 00:24:17,640 Speaker 3: the bad, that the lessons you learn from the things 486 00:24:17,680 --> 00:24:21,120 Speaker 3: you tried it didn't work are the lessons that you 487 00:24:21,160 --> 00:24:23,680 Speaker 3: give to other people so that they can go after 488 00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:26,919 Speaker 3: you and to pass you. You know. You know with 489 00:24:27,000 --> 00:24:29,280 Speaker 3: our audience, those are the lessons that they get from 490 00:24:29,359 --> 00:24:31,840 Speaker 3: us too, you know. And it's, hey, we tried this thing, 491 00:24:31,840 --> 00:24:33,680 Speaker 3: it didn't work. There's guests we've had on the show 492 00:24:33,720 --> 00:24:38,560 Speaker 3: we won't have back. There's you know, sound issues we've had, 493 00:24:38,600 --> 00:24:42,119 Speaker 3: There's topics and stuff we broke, you know, like, uh, 494 00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:45,199 Speaker 3: you know, I try to be very thoughtful, but you know, 495 00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:47,439 Speaker 3: part of the thing is you're gonna make mistakes and 496 00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:50,040 Speaker 3: whatnot to and not penalize yourself too much for it. 497 00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,280 Speaker 3: I think we're in an environment right now where like 498 00:24:54,359 --> 00:24:57,040 Speaker 3: I was listening to Chris on It and Sandy Check 499 00:24:57,280 --> 00:25:00,560 Speaker 3: last week and uh or two weeks ago, and he said, 500 00:25:00,840 --> 00:25:03,560 Speaker 3: one thing in this age now is if you don't 501 00:25:03,680 --> 00:25:07,240 Speaker 3: like someone, you can find a reason to not like them. 502 00:25:07,440 --> 00:25:10,119 Speaker 2: And I think doing what we do for a living. 503 00:25:10,680 --> 00:25:13,080 Speaker 3: You know, we want to be liked. That's part of 504 00:25:13,119 --> 00:25:15,800 Speaker 3: what we do, that's part of the bag is I 505 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:18,000 Speaker 3: would never want to put out a show that hurts people. 506 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:22,320 Speaker 3: I would never want to be associated with down in 507 00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:25,560 Speaker 3: people that I support or that I love or that 508 00:25:25,640 --> 00:25:29,840 Speaker 3: you know, I would like to be create create a 509 00:25:29,920 --> 00:25:32,680 Speaker 3: space for that what they can come and hang out too. 510 00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:36,240 Speaker 3: But that's just also kind of the nature of humanity. 511 00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:38,880 Speaker 3: You're gonna mess up and make mistakes, and I think 512 00:25:38,920 --> 00:25:42,120 Speaker 3: sometimes you can get paralyzed and like, well, I don't 513 00:25:42,119 --> 00:25:44,280 Speaker 3: want to make a mistake. I don't want to create 514 00:25:44,359 --> 00:25:50,159 Speaker 3: an opportunity that goes wrong, you know. And definitely stepping 515 00:25:50,200 --> 00:25:53,199 Speaker 3: out has been a lot for me, at least in 516 00:25:53,280 --> 00:25:54,119 Speaker 3: twenty seventeen. 517 00:25:54,480 --> 00:25:57,680 Speaker 2: Like awesome Con was cool. 518 00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:01,960 Speaker 3: But that was like the spark that made me think like, well, 519 00:26:01,960 --> 00:26:03,840 Speaker 3: maybe this is possible, you know, as. 520 00:26:03,680 --> 00:26:06,119 Speaker 2: Far as and it was a very safe space. 521 00:26:06,920 --> 00:26:11,240 Speaker 3: Yeah, but also not just that, but like maybe it's 522 00:26:11,280 --> 00:26:14,720 Speaker 3: possible to do more than what we're doing correct, you know, 523 00:26:14,760 --> 00:26:18,440 Speaker 3: maybe it's possible to see people more, to to say 524 00:26:18,520 --> 00:26:21,040 Speaker 3: yes to more stuff then, because you know, I like 525 00:26:21,080 --> 00:26:27,520 Speaker 3: to I know when you control things, you're at least 526 00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:30,320 Speaker 3: for me, I like I like control as far as 527 00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:34,960 Speaker 3: like to keep from fucking up. So you know, it's 528 00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:36,720 Speaker 3: one of the reasons we don't have spin off shows 529 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:39,840 Speaker 3: that involve too many other people. You know, we have 530 00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:42,240 Speaker 3: a spin off show Justin's on It Cool. 531 00:26:42,640 --> 00:26:45,320 Speaker 2: I know Justin. I trust Justin. Justin come to my 532 00:26:45,359 --> 00:26:46,600 Speaker 2: house and kick it all the time. 533 00:26:48,200 --> 00:26:51,480 Speaker 3: But uh, you know those people that reached out and 534 00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:54,119 Speaker 3: be like, CANi, will you add us to like your 535 00:26:54,119 --> 00:26:56,560 Speaker 3: premium now, And I've been like, no, it's better for 536 00:26:56,560 --> 00:26:58,160 Speaker 3: you to want to learn these skills on your own. 537 00:26:58,200 --> 00:26:59,640 Speaker 2: I really do mean that, not as. 538 00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:03,359 Speaker 4: It is because they're unvaluable, like you learn that you 539 00:27:03,359 --> 00:27:04,960 Speaker 4: can go right. 540 00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:10,280 Speaker 3: But also, you know, I see how many relationships and 541 00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:13,800 Speaker 3: things disintegrade. You know, you're the best partner I can 542 00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:17,359 Speaker 3: have because I know that we're compatible. I know that 543 00:27:17,400 --> 00:27:20,960 Speaker 3: we'll you care about this as much as I do. Yeah, 544 00:27:21,200 --> 00:27:23,680 Speaker 3: I know that you'll listen to me and vice versa 545 00:27:24,760 --> 00:27:27,199 Speaker 3: as opposed to you know, I see so many partnerships 546 00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:29,919 Speaker 3: break down. You know, motherfuckers look like they cool online, 547 00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:33,600 Speaker 3: all up into videos, don't even really fuck with each other, 548 00:27:33,760 --> 00:27:36,840 Speaker 3: you know, or a week later, you know they dragging 549 00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:39,520 Speaker 3: each other they're sub tweeting each other or they're you 550 00:27:39,560 --> 00:27:43,840 Speaker 3: know whatever, and and like you know, maybe nuns the wiser, 551 00:27:43,960 --> 00:27:47,119 Speaker 3: maybe everybody knows, but you just kind of see like 552 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:51,560 Speaker 3: that people branch out sometimes and you see the failure. 553 00:27:52,400 --> 00:27:54,280 Speaker 3: And that makes me worry because I learned from other 554 00:27:54,320 --> 00:27:56,760 Speaker 3: people's mistakes just as much I learned from my own, sir. 555 00:27:58,240 --> 00:28:00,480 Speaker 3: But this year, you know, even when all the things 556 00:28:00,480 --> 00:28:03,600 Speaker 3: that can go wrong, because I'm such a like pragmatic 557 00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:07,560 Speaker 3: and cynical person, you know, I've kind of tried to, like, 558 00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:11,000 Speaker 3: you know, step outside of that zone a little bit 559 00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:14,959 Speaker 3: for you and experience, you know. I mean, you know, 560 00:28:15,040 --> 00:28:18,199 Speaker 3: this Christmas, we had people in my parents' house that 561 00:28:19,000 --> 00:28:21,240 Speaker 3: you know, I had never some of my only met 562 00:28:21,240 --> 00:28:23,040 Speaker 3: once or twice before in my life. Some of them 563 00:28:23,080 --> 00:28:27,639 Speaker 3: I had never met before. That was, you know, to me, 564 00:28:27,760 --> 00:28:29,919 Speaker 3: that's a big thing. I wouldn't just let anybody do that. 565 00:28:31,440 --> 00:28:31,639 Speaker 2: You know. 566 00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:33,879 Speaker 3: It's not something that we may even be able to 567 00:28:33,920 --> 00:28:36,600 Speaker 3: do forever, Like that may be something where it's like, hey, 568 00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:40,360 Speaker 3: hey calm down, this ain't this ain't that kind of relationship. 569 00:28:40,400 --> 00:28:43,320 Speaker 3: But it was good to be able to have that, 570 00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:47,440 Speaker 3: you know, that moment, you know, going to DC meeting, 571 00:28:47,440 --> 00:28:50,960 Speaker 3: all those people talking to fans and stuff. I mean, 572 00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:54,360 Speaker 3: negro Con wasn't supposed to be a thing. We were 573 00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:57,560 Speaker 3: supposed to go to Awesome Con. Yes, we got rejected 574 00:28:57,600 --> 00:28:59,600 Speaker 3: at a panel there, and we end up having this 575 00:28:59,800 --> 00:29:05,120 Speaker 3: very black affirmative space with our friends that we had 576 00:29:05,200 --> 00:29:08,280 Speaker 3: known since we started podcasting. And it meant a lot 577 00:29:08,320 --> 00:29:11,160 Speaker 3: to do it with those people specifically, right, And. 578 00:29:11,240 --> 00:29:13,760 Speaker 4: That's why I say no, it's not the end, and 579 00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:15,000 Speaker 4: sometimes you don't take no. 580 00:29:15,040 --> 00:29:15,640 Speaker 2: For an answer. 581 00:29:16,120 --> 00:29:19,240 Speaker 3: Yeah, but that was that was an ambitious thing that 582 00:29:19,320 --> 00:29:22,200 Speaker 3: could have all fallen on his face. People would have 583 00:29:22,240 --> 00:29:25,760 Speaker 3: been clowning us if the shit would have went bad 584 00:29:25,880 --> 00:29:29,680 Speaker 3: or went wrong, and it still was an ideal, but 585 00:29:29,760 --> 00:29:32,120 Speaker 3: we had the right people there and it made it ideal, 586 00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:37,760 Speaker 3: correct because they ran out of chicken. It was hot 587 00:29:37,800 --> 00:29:42,400 Speaker 3: as hell, you know, and hopeful and we learned. But 588 00:29:42,480 --> 00:29:45,360 Speaker 3: we learned a lot from that. You know, we'll learn 589 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:49,200 Speaker 3: from it next time too, you know. So you know, 590 00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:52,239 Speaker 3: you look at things like the Bourbon Ball and how 591 00:29:52,280 --> 00:29:55,360 Speaker 3: that shit went down in twenty seventeen and all the 592 00:29:55,440 --> 00:29:59,200 Speaker 3: end fighting and people making it up about people, people 593 00:30:00,520 --> 00:30:03,040 Speaker 3: telling the truth about shit, people assuming the worst of people, 594 00:30:03,040 --> 00:30:06,040 Speaker 3: assuming the best of all this stuff. And I mean 595 00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:08,200 Speaker 3: that's a collection of people that met via the Internet 596 00:30:08,240 --> 00:30:10,120 Speaker 3: for the most part, and decided to do this thing. 597 00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:12,560 Speaker 2: And a lot of people got hurt by it. 598 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:18,040 Speaker 3: A lot of people were you know, felt taken advantage 599 00:30:18,040 --> 00:30:23,840 Speaker 3: of or even harassed and assaulted. And that's the same 600 00:30:24,040 --> 00:30:27,080 Speaker 3: like to me, that's the worst thing that could happen. 601 00:30:27,320 --> 00:30:29,760 Speaker 2: Correct, And I'm. 602 00:30:29,560 --> 00:30:35,200 Speaker 3: Glad that we have attracted people and have surrounded ourselves 603 00:30:35,240 --> 00:30:39,800 Speaker 3: with like minded podcasters and stuff to where our space 604 00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:43,520 Speaker 3: didn't feel that way. You know, it wasn't the hey, 605 00:30:43,600 --> 00:30:46,360 Speaker 3: let's you know, get out here and grind on each 606 00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:48,640 Speaker 3: other type of space. It was very much a like, hey, 607 00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:51,600 Speaker 3: let's come here, have a good time, hang out, respect 608 00:30:51,640 --> 00:30:52,040 Speaker 3: each other. 609 00:30:52,720 --> 00:30:52,960 Speaker 2: You know. 610 00:30:53,240 --> 00:30:56,320 Speaker 3: We wanted to have LGTBTQ people in the house. We 611 00:30:56,360 --> 00:30:58,880 Speaker 3: want to have women in the house. We want to 612 00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:02,800 Speaker 3: have you know, a place where you can you know, 613 00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:04,960 Speaker 3: the age range doesn't matter. Who want to have a 614 00:31:05,000 --> 00:31:09,040 Speaker 3: place where all these people can come together, you know, 615 00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:12,240 Speaker 3: where even if there's white people in there, those white 616 00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:14,320 Speaker 3: people are there because they're fans of the show and 617 00:31:14,320 --> 00:31:16,600 Speaker 3: they understand the conversations that are gonna take place. Right 618 00:31:18,080 --> 00:31:24,840 Speaker 3: That shit really mattered, you know, so that pocon you know, 619 00:31:24,920 --> 00:31:27,800 Speaker 3: even traveling, you know, is a thing for me, like 620 00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:32,640 Speaker 3: getting on plane a couple more times this year, going 621 00:31:32,680 --> 00:31:35,000 Speaker 3: through the airport, all that shit, like it was all 622 00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:37,600 Speaker 3: stepping out of my comfort zone. But I feel like 623 00:31:37,840 --> 00:31:43,960 Speaker 3: I've been rewarded and I've learned more about. 624 00:31:43,680 --> 00:31:44,680 Speaker 2: Myself, you know. 625 00:31:45,000 --> 00:31:48,360 Speaker 3: So I think, you know, hopefully keep that going in 626 00:31:48,440 --> 00:31:53,040 Speaker 3: twenty eighteen. You know, it's the kind of thing where 627 00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,520 Speaker 3: you see yourself on a path and you don't feel 628 00:31:57,520 --> 00:32:00,640 Speaker 3: and I don't feel like what's over now, Like Okay, 629 00:32:00,680 --> 00:32:02,600 Speaker 3: we reached this mountaintop. I just feel like, well, let's 630 00:32:02,600 --> 00:32:04,560 Speaker 3: just keep going. Let's see what else is possible, Let's 631 00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:05,160 Speaker 3: see where we go. 632 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:05,640 Speaker 2: You know. 633 00:32:06,160 --> 00:32:11,000 Speaker 3: So I'm kind of excited about twenty eighteen and twenty seventeen. 634 00:32:11,040 --> 00:32:14,959 Speaker 3: I'll say the most thing, one word I would use 635 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:16,760 Speaker 3: to describe twenty seventeen is thankful. 636 00:32:17,760 --> 00:32:18,760 Speaker 2: Yeah, agreed. 637 00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:22,000 Speaker 3: You know, I'm just very thankful to the people that 638 00:32:22,240 --> 00:32:26,440 Speaker 3: believed in us, Very thankful to you, Very thankful to 639 00:32:26,480 --> 00:32:30,840 Speaker 3: the people that support us, whether it be our sponsors, 640 00:32:30,920 --> 00:32:33,320 Speaker 3: whether it be all the premium folks, whether it just 641 00:32:33,360 --> 00:32:36,480 Speaker 3: be people that donated. People don't let reviews, people that 642 00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:38,760 Speaker 3: wrote about us, people that shared us on social media, like, 643 00:32:39,200 --> 00:32:45,360 Speaker 3: I'm just thankful, you know. You know, it's I feel 644 00:32:45,360 --> 00:32:50,840 Speaker 3: like the worst thing happened last November, you know, and 645 00:32:50,920 --> 00:32:53,320 Speaker 3: for most of us, it put us in a bad space, 646 00:32:54,480 --> 00:32:58,280 Speaker 3: you know. And I think even people that claim to 647 00:32:58,640 --> 00:33:01,080 Speaker 3: not care and that it was both to say, I 648 00:33:01,080 --> 00:33:06,160 Speaker 3: think even they would admit that they really didn't think 649 00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:13,440 Speaker 3: that this would come to pass, you know. And I 650 00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:20,120 Speaker 3: watched like friends break down. I watched people kind of retreat. 651 00:33:20,560 --> 00:33:22,440 Speaker 2: Yeah, just walk away from social media. 652 00:33:22,520 --> 00:33:24,440 Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean a lot of people that talked a 653 00:33:24,440 --> 00:33:27,640 Speaker 3: lot of a lot of game going into it. 654 00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:30,240 Speaker 2: Where are they crickets? You know? 655 00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:31,480 Speaker 3: I watched. 656 00:33:32,680 --> 00:33:34,800 Speaker 2: People kind of run away from community. 657 00:33:34,880 --> 00:33:36,520 Speaker 3: And the same people who claim they were going to 658 00:33:36,640 --> 00:33:40,040 Speaker 3: organize and change the world and ship when this stuff happened, 659 00:33:40,280 --> 00:33:44,440 Speaker 3: I haven't heard from them, haven't seen them. We watch 660 00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:47,280 Speaker 3: the mass exodus of black voices from so from from 661 00:33:47,360 --> 00:33:48,160 Speaker 3: media spaces. 662 00:33:48,320 --> 00:33:49,120 Speaker 2: Yes we have. 663 00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:59,160 Speaker 3: Right, We've seen you know, elections, We've seen you know, 664 00:34:00,120 --> 00:34:03,200 Speaker 3: a pedophile only lose about one point five percent of 665 00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:06,800 Speaker 3: a vote. Like, we've really seen a lot of the 666 00:34:06,840 --> 00:34:11,120 Speaker 3: worst this year. But as we always with things with 667 00:34:11,239 --> 00:34:15,799 Speaker 3: black people. When the conditions are bad. That's when we sow. 668 00:34:16,120 --> 00:34:19,120 Speaker 3: It's sad that it's that way. It shouldn't have to 669 00:34:19,120 --> 00:34:23,520 Speaker 3: be that way. But you know, our art is sowing, 670 00:34:24,880 --> 00:34:28,880 Speaker 3: you know, our spaces are sowing, our communities are sawing 671 00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:33,839 Speaker 3: in ways that like I said, it's sadly you have 672 00:34:33,920 --> 00:34:36,880 Speaker 3: to just to survive. And everybody's not gonna survive. 673 00:34:37,200 --> 00:34:38,279 Speaker 5: No, everybody's not. 674 00:34:38,760 --> 00:34:40,640 Speaker 2: You know, and it's gonna get worse. 675 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:44,600 Speaker 3: You know, there's a lot of people that aren't here 676 00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:49,560 Speaker 3: today because specifically because of the state this country's in correct. 677 00:34:49,960 --> 00:34:55,800 Speaker 2: So I'm thankful, you know, I'm thankful to still be here. Agreed, 678 00:34:55,960 --> 00:34:57,040 Speaker 2: you know, Yeah. 679 00:34:56,760 --> 00:35:01,760 Speaker 3: I'm thankful to see the effect we had on people. 680 00:35:03,680 --> 00:35:06,680 Speaker 3: Meet people, shake hands, hugs, all that stuff, even though 681 00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:09,000 Speaker 3: they don't want my trash hugs. I get it, and 682 00:35:09,040 --> 00:35:11,680 Speaker 3: I'm gonna work on that in twenty eighteen. But I'm thankful. 683 00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:11,960 Speaker 2: Man. 684 00:35:12,360 --> 00:35:16,160 Speaker 3: So this is not the start to the show I 685 00:35:16,239 --> 00:35:20,040 Speaker 3: had planned, but you know this is why I show it. 686 00:35:20,120 --> 00:35:22,360 Speaker 3: So it's so different, you know, because we can do this. 687 00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:29,920 Speaker 3: But yeah, I'm I'm more than anything. I'm just just 688 00:35:30,160 --> 00:35:32,239 Speaker 3: like I said, I'm appreciative of all the people that 689 00:35:32,640 --> 00:35:35,200 Speaker 3: looked out for us because it's a lot of people 690 00:35:35,239 --> 00:35:40,320 Speaker 3: that ain't here. It's a lot of people that can't 691 00:35:40,320 --> 00:35:44,120 Speaker 3: have this connection with people that we have. So you know, 692 00:35:44,239 --> 00:35:46,440 Speaker 3: when I see like, you know, to go up and 693 00:35:46,440 --> 00:35:49,200 Speaker 3: meet these people and to have them to say stuff like, hey, 694 00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:51,840 Speaker 3: you changed the way I did this, or you know, 695 00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:53,600 Speaker 3: I just love your show because of that. Or I 696 00:35:53,680 --> 00:35:55,719 Speaker 3: hate my job and y'all help me get through it. 697 00:35:55,760 --> 00:35:58,439 Speaker 3: I hate my commuting, y'all, y'all with me every day, 698 00:35:58,600 --> 00:36:02,319 Speaker 3: Like that's some real shit. And I've been on the 699 00:36:02,320 --> 00:36:04,279 Speaker 3: other side of them headphones, so I'll never take it 700 00:36:04,280 --> 00:36:04,760 Speaker 3: for granted. 701 00:36:04,800 --> 00:36:05,720 Speaker 2: I ain't that the truth. 702 00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:10,760 Speaker 4: I've been at my desk, you know, mundane job and 703 00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:14,320 Speaker 4: you did the hours just feel like they're dragging away forever, 704 00:36:15,239 --> 00:36:17,879 Speaker 4: and listen to podcasts and they helped me get through 705 00:36:18,120 --> 00:36:19,440 Speaker 4: so much. 706 00:36:19,719 --> 00:36:22,560 Speaker 3: Yeah, I was reading this person sent a It was 707 00:36:22,600 --> 00:36:25,600 Speaker 3: a link to horoscopes, like what you're supposed to learn 708 00:36:25,640 --> 00:36:27,759 Speaker 3: for twenty sixteen, twenty seventeen, and what's supposed to take 709 00:36:27,760 --> 00:36:30,720 Speaker 3: in twenty eighteen. And I'm a liver and I normally 710 00:36:30,719 --> 00:36:32,840 Speaker 3: don't do the Hardscoe thing, but I. 711 00:36:32,960 --> 00:36:34,200 Speaker 2: Just read it. 712 00:36:34,200 --> 00:36:36,360 Speaker 3: It's weird, though, because every time I read a fucking 713 00:36:36,360 --> 00:36:39,600 Speaker 3: horoscope about Libra, I'll be like, Okay, this is who's 714 00:36:39,640 --> 00:36:43,240 Speaker 3: stocking my page, Like ah a, this is a little 715 00:36:43,239 --> 00:36:47,040 Speaker 3: bit ridiculous, But this is twenty sixteen. For Libra. You 716 00:36:47,080 --> 00:36:50,080 Speaker 3: were supposed to learn how this plant seeds. The past 717 00:36:50,080 --> 00:36:52,040 Speaker 3: few years have been nothing short to radical for you. 718 00:36:52,200 --> 00:36:55,840 Speaker 3: It's all again with your Emerald Jupiter year in twenty sixteen, 719 00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:58,720 Speaker 3: lighting the way for you to start making connections, perhaps 720 00:36:58,719 --> 00:37:02,200 Speaker 3: with partners, employers, or even with your inner self. That 721 00:37:02,239 --> 00:37:04,160 Speaker 3: world will come to fruition over the next few years. 722 00:37:04,560 --> 00:37:06,640 Speaker 3: Twenty seventeen, you. 723 00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:08,959 Speaker 2: Were supposed to realize how you were holding yourself back, 724 00:37:10,560 --> 00:37:14,160 Speaker 2: which that is true. I mean, that's how we got 725 00:37:14,160 --> 00:37:14,879 Speaker 2: the white woman to come. 726 00:37:16,080 --> 00:37:18,239 Speaker 3: This year was all about letting nose sees start to 727 00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:21,640 Speaker 3: sprout and identifying the ways in which you were stomping 728 00:37:22,000 --> 00:37:23,280 Speaker 3: on your garden before you gave. 729 00:37:23,160 --> 00:37:26,799 Speaker 2: It a chance to grow. And that's true. I mean, 730 00:37:28,440 --> 00:37:32,960 Speaker 2: I value the power of no, but there's so many. 731 00:37:35,239 --> 00:37:41,080 Speaker 3: Things I've stopped myself from doing that I knew I 732 00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:44,759 Speaker 3: could do, so I don't know when I read that. 733 00:37:45,080 --> 00:37:49,480 Speaker 3: I'm sorry to get emotional, but when I read that, 734 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:54,520 Speaker 3: it touched me because I was like, you know, I've. 735 00:37:56,280 --> 00:37:59,399 Speaker 2: I've been in my own way before, so I didn't 736 00:37:59,400 --> 00:38:06,520 Speaker 2: want to be that way. Sorry. So starting twenty seventeen, 737 00:38:07,719 --> 00:38:12,520 Speaker 2: there were people that I reached out to that I 738 00:38:12,560 --> 00:38:13,320 Speaker 2: haven't been. 739 00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:17,880 Speaker 3: You know, that I wanted, like, I wanted to be 740 00:38:18,000 --> 00:38:20,600 Speaker 3: friends with them. So I started hitting them up, like, 741 00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:23,239 Speaker 3: you know, hey, what's up, how you doing? You know, 742 00:38:23,360 --> 00:38:26,799 Speaker 3: checking on them every once in a while, doing a 743 00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:34,239 Speaker 3: better job with that. You know, there's people that I 744 00:38:34,239 --> 00:38:37,440 Speaker 3: didn't think I'll ever be cool with, right, that I'm 745 00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:43,640 Speaker 3: happy to be cool with now, right, you know, you know, 746 00:38:43,760 --> 00:38:47,480 Speaker 3: thinking about. 747 00:38:46,960 --> 00:38:51,440 Speaker 2: How I come back, Yeah, don come on, dog, And 748 00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:57,799 Speaker 2: we're very fortunate to beat him, Yes we were, Yeah, 749 00:38:57,920 --> 00:38:58,400 Speaker 2: we were. 750 00:38:59,160 --> 00:39:04,960 Speaker 3: And he had a beautiful energy. And I thought that, 751 00:39:07,200 --> 00:39:11,280 Speaker 3: you know about how when he passed, how many people 752 00:39:11,320 --> 00:39:17,680 Speaker 3: he touched, right, and how we might be doing that 753 00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:19,200 Speaker 3: for people without even knowing it. 754 00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:21,160 Speaker 2: And I don't want to take it for. 755 00:39:21,120 --> 00:39:24,640 Speaker 3: Granted me either, And I don't want to. I want 756 00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:29,520 Speaker 3: to live in a moment, stop like you know, always 757 00:39:29,520 --> 00:39:34,600 Speaker 3: thinking of what can go wrong and thinking of what 758 00:39:34,760 --> 00:39:38,960 Speaker 3: I'm messing up or what I'm leaving out or you know, 759 00:39:39,160 --> 00:39:44,040 Speaker 3: how I'm not being perfect or things of that nature. 760 00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:46,000 Speaker 3: You know, I had to learn to let things go too. 761 00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:51,319 Speaker 3: You know, it hurt me to let the Facebook group go, 762 00:39:54,200 --> 00:40:02,520 Speaker 3: but I had to. You know, I think we pride 763 00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:11,800 Speaker 3: ourselves on humanity, on strength, but sometimes strength is measured 764 00:40:11,800 --> 00:40:16,400 Speaker 3: in the wrong ways, you know, like we like to 765 00:40:16,440 --> 00:40:18,920 Speaker 3: measure of strength and how much we can be subjected to, 766 00:40:20,000 --> 00:40:23,440 Speaker 3: how much pain we can deal with, how many insults 767 00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:28,640 Speaker 3: we can take, how many haters you've accumulated. And one 768 00:40:28,640 --> 00:40:32,200 Speaker 3: of the things for twenty seventeen from me was like, no, 769 00:40:32,400 --> 00:40:37,959 Speaker 3: I'm not letting that define me anymore. And if that's 770 00:40:37,960 --> 00:40:42,480 Speaker 3: a if that's a thing that makes other people feel strong, 771 00:40:42,800 --> 00:40:46,480 Speaker 3: that won't be my thing because it's not in my nature. 772 00:40:47,000 --> 00:40:53,000 Speaker 3: And holding grudges and canceling people and ostracizing people, I 773 00:40:53,120 --> 00:40:57,560 Speaker 3: know that that makes people feel strong, and it makes 774 00:40:57,600 --> 00:41:01,399 Speaker 3: people feel that they have control, because we don't want 775 00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:03,680 Speaker 3: to admit that we don't have that much control over stuff. 776 00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:08,680 Speaker 3: You know, we're only in each other's lives for such 777 00:41:08,719 --> 00:41:10,839 Speaker 3: a brief period of time. We'll only on this earth 778 00:41:10,880 --> 00:41:13,480 Speaker 3: for such a brief period of time. And that's not a. 779 00:41:13,520 --> 00:41:17,920 Speaker 2: Legacy I want to leave behind. That's not what I 780 00:41:17,920 --> 00:41:20,040 Speaker 2: want to teach people in my life. 781 00:41:20,239 --> 00:41:28,720 Speaker 3: You know, we have invited people to witness us grow, fail, 782 00:41:29,200 --> 00:41:34,680 Speaker 3: try again through this microphone. It's why when people see 783 00:41:34,680 --> 00:41:37,000 Speaker 3: me they feel like they know me. It's why people 784 00:41:37,000 --> 00:41:39,600 Speaker 3: want to hug me, you know, even with my trash 785 00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:40,360 Speaker 3: ass hugs. 786 00:41:42,160 --> 00:41:43,640 Speaker 2: But that. 787 00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:50,239 Speaker 3: I'm thankful to be able to do that. But like 788 00:41:50,280 --> 00:41:52,759 Speaker 3: I said, I had to move out of my own way. 789 00:41:53,320 --> 00:41:56,680 Speaker 3: I had to be like yo, you know, I tell 790 00:41:56,719 --> 00:41:59,359 Speaker 3: people more now. I love them too, and I don't 791 00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:03,719 Speaker 3: mean that necessary like romantically, but just my friends, my 792 00:42:04,760 --> 00:42:07,400 Speaker 3: you know, the people I'm fortunate enough to have my life. 793 00:42:07,560 --> 00:42:09,640 Speaker 2: You know, I want to be able to listen to them. 794 00:42:10,160 --> 00:42:11,920 Speaker 2: I want to learn from them. I want to be 795 00:42:11,960 --> 00:42:12,719 Speaker 2: present for him. 796 00:42:13,080 --> 00:42:14,359 Speaker 3: I want to be honest with them. 797 00:42:14,920 --> 00:42:17,399 Speaker 2: I want to communicate with them so that they hear 798 00:42:17,480 --> 00:42:17,879 Speaker 2: me too. 799 00:42:19,080 --> 00:42:25,080 Speaker 3: You know, these are things that they matter to me 800 00:42:25,120 --> 00:42:28,759 Speaker 3: and I and I feel like they always did. But 801 00:42:28,800 --> 00:42:34,600 Speaker 3: whether it's from being like, uh, being a black man, 802 00:42:34,680 --> 00:42:41,600 Speaker 3: sometimes you want to like put up a wall because uh, 803 00:42:43,160 --> 00:42:45,399 Speaker 3: it's like you're afraid someone's gonna see you. 804 00:42:47,920 --> 00:42:48,680 Speaker 2: And know you're not. 805 00:42:51,000 --> 00:42:55,239 Speaker 3: That you're not honest, that you're not made of that 806 00:42:55,320 --> 00:43:01,880 Speaker 3: you're not impervious, that that things get to you, that 807 00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,279 Speaker 3: you can be bothered. You know, these are things, These 808 00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:08,360 Speaker 3: are illusions that I wanted to drop because to me, 809 00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:12,680 Speaker 3: it was fooling nobody but myself to be like, I'm 810 00:43:12,719 --> 00:43:15,279 Speaker 3: not bothered by this, or I'm over there, so I 811 00:43:15,280 --> 00:43:16,080 Speaker 3: don't care about this. 812 00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:19,759 Speaker 2: I do care. I care how people view me, I 813 00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:21,120 Speaker 2: care the things. 814 00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:24,120 Speaker 3: That come out of my mouth, how people feel about them. 815 00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:27,440 Speaker 3: And I can still do that and be vigilant and 816 00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:32,759 Speaker 3: protective of my folk, of myself, of my feelings, of 817 00:43:32,800 --> 00:43:34,920 Speaker 3: all that stuff. I can still do all that at 818 00:43:34,920 --> 00:43:38,640 Speaker 3: the same time. And I think that balance is what 819 00:43:38,680 --> 00:43:41,200 Speaker 3: I was striving for, and I feel like I found 820 00:43:41,200 --> 00:43:43,920 Speaker 3: some of it this year. You know, I want to 821 00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:46,400 Speaker 3: be the person that makes my mom and my father proud. 822 00:43:47,080 --> 00:43:49,400 Speaker 3: I want to be that person, and I want to 823 00:43:49,440 --> 00:43:50,760 Speaker 3: be the person that makes people laugh. 824 00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:52,040 Speaker 2: But I also want to be. 825 00:43:52,000 --> 00:43:54,960 Speaker 3: The person that lives with integrity that I can judge. 826 00:43:55,480 --> 00:43:57,240 Speaker 3: You know, I don't want to live for other people 827 00:43:57,520 --> 00:44:00,480 Speaker 3: in that way. I see so much stuff now where 828 00:44:00,480 --> 00:44:03,720 Speaker 3: I feel like, Oh, this person's performing, this person's on brand, 829 00:44:03,960 --> 00:44:07,240 Speaker 3: this person is they're never off. This person is about 830 00:44:07,520 --> 00:44:10,799 Speaker 3: how they look to other people. All the time. I 831 00:44:10,800 --> 00:44:14,880 Speaker 3: don't want to be like that, you know, like I 832 00:44:14,960 --> 00:44:17,400 Speaker 3: need we have to fight for this space just so 833 00:44:17,440 --> 00:44:19,160 Speaker 3: that we can have a place where people can stop 834 00:44:19,320 --> 00:44:23,319 Speaker 3: bullshitting all the time. So, you know, to me, that's 835 00:44:23,360 --> 00:44:25,760 Speaker 3: what was kind of something that I gained in twenty 836 00:44:25,760 --> 00:44:28,560 Speaker 3: seventeen that I never thought about going into the year, like, oh, 837 00:44:28,600 --> 00:44:30,640 Speaker 3: this is what I will gain, But I didn't know 838 00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:32,200 Speaker 3: what I would get. I just was like, I'm gonna 839 00:44:32,239 --> 00:44:34,840 Speaker 3: just step out and just kind of kind of step 840 00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:36,440 Speaker 3: away from certain shit. You know. 841 00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:39,840 Speaker 2: I think. 842 00:44:41,080 --> 00:44:44,840 Speaker 3: When you're passionate and you're resolute, people kind of mistake 843 00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:48,480 Speaker 3: that for being impervious, for being unable to be hard. 844 00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:51,800 Speaker 3: But I am in passion. I am passionate and passion 845 00:44:51,960 --> 00:44:55,200 Speaker 3: I am resolute. But at the same time, I can 846 00:44:55,239 --> 00:44:58,920 Speaker 3: still be hard. I still can be antagonized. I can 847 00:44:58,960 --> 00:45:02,840 Speaker 3: still you know, I still hate conflict in a way 848 00:45:03,040 --> 00:45:05,800 Speaker 3: like I'm not afraid of it, but I don't want 849 00:45:05,840 --> 00:45:08,400 Speaker 3: that to define me the person that's always just in 850 00:45:08,440 --> 00:45:13,480 Speaker 3: the middle of some fucking conflict. Some of the most 851 00:45:13,520 --> 00:45:17,800 Speaker 3: important stuff that's happened on this show has been to me, bridging, 852 00:45:18,000 --> 00:45:21,279 Speaker 3: bridging that gap hanging, you know, being able to say, like, yes, 853 00:45:21,360 --> 00:45:24,600 Speaker 3: still cool with Firestarter after that very public shit, like 854 00:45:25,480 --> 00:45:27,480 Speaker 3: I didn't want that to define our show or me 855 00:45:27,840 --> 00:45:30,160 Speaker 3: because I'm not that person that just fucked them. 856 00:45:30,320 --> 00:45:30,640 Speaker 2: Nigga. 857 00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:33,239 Speaker 3: I'm right now, everybody go when they mentioned I'm not 858 00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:36,240 Speaker 3: that person, you know, I didn't want to hurt those dudes. 859 00:45:36,880 --> 00:45:40,600 Speaker 3: And clearly what happened was in the midst of that, 860 00:45:40,680 --> 00:45:43,640 Speaker 3: whether I meant to or not, somebody got hurt, you know, 861 00:45:43,719 --> 00:45:45,759 Speaker 3: and then people just kept hurting each other. And then 862 00:45:45,800 --> 00:45:48,160 Speaker 3: all of course, you know, the black girl nerd people, 863 00:45:48,200 --> 00:45:50,920 Speaker 3: they're getting hurt, you know, just grudges that people never 864 00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:52,560 Speaker 3: gonna let go because they need to be protective of 865 00:45:52,600 --> 00:45:53,520 Speaker 3: themselves in their space. 866 00:45:54,280 --> 00:45:56,279 Speaker 2: DJ Ben Amen got hurt. You know. 867 00:45:57,920 --> 00:46:00,360 Speaker 3: I got people that I that I love. They're not 868 00:46:00,400 --> 00:46:03,640 Speaker 3: cool what been I mean now, you know, and I'm like, 869 00:46:03,880 --> 00:46:06,160 Speaker 3: that's not the space I want to have. I want 870 00:46:06,160 --> 00:46:07,919 Speaker 3: to have a space where all those people can kind 871 00:46:07,920 --> 00:46:11,759 Speaker 3: of understand at least look stop looking past each other, 872 00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,680 Speaker 3: you know, let that stupid shit go, you know, cause 873 00:46:15,719 --> 00:46:19,040 Speaker 3: it really in the scheme of things. Some of this 874 00:46:19,120 --> 00:46:23,759 Speaker 3: shit is so stupid, you know, and I don't know 875 00:46:23,800 --> 00:46:28,200 Speaker 3: how we can keep putting up these walls and pretending 876 00:46:28,239 --> 00:46:33,000 Speaker 3: like we're not cutting ourselves off, you know, letting people 877 00:46:33,800 --> 00:46:38,160 Speaker 3: love us, letting people see us, letting people tell us 878 00:46:39,040 --> 00:46:42,759 Speaker 3: that shit. That shit matters so much to me this year. 879 00:46:43,719 --> 00:46:45,680 Speaker 3: You know, I didn't want to take a six hour 880 00:46:45,719 --> 00:46:48,640 Speaker 3: trip to Seattle. I don't like none of that is 881 00:46:49,280 --> 00:46:51,960 Speaker 3: That's not something I would ever want to do, you know, 882 00:46:52,760 --> 00:46:53,360 Speaker 3: in general. 883 00:46:54,239 --> 00:46:56,680 Speaker 2: You know, I didn't want to be. 884 00:46:56,719 --> 00:46:59,200 Speaker 3: On a plane eating plain food, or everybody using a 885 00:46:59,239 --> 00:47:00,880 Speaker 3: plain bathroom, being a hotel. 886 00:47:01,640 --> 00:47:03,240 Speaker 2: I don't want to ever do any of that shit. 887 00:47:03,640 --> 00:47:04,399 Speaker 2: You know, I don't like. 888 00:47:04,360 --> 00:47:07,920 Speaker 3: Eating food on the road and stuff. You know, meeting 889 00:47:07,920 --> 00:47:10,480 Speaker 3: people makes me a little bit nervous. It's harving me 890 00:47:10,520 --> 00:47:13,719 Speaker 3: to keep food down. Like these are real anxieties that 891 00:47:13,760 --> 00:47:16,480 Speaker 3: I had to deal with, but it's worth it for 892 00:47:18,239 --> 00:47:21,520 Speaker 3: our folks. Like when I see them, that shit goes away, 893 00:47:22,320 --> 00:47:26,080 Speaker 3: no matter how fucked up I feel that time, it's 894 00:47:26,480 --> 00:47:30,160 Speaker 3: like that it's gone. So but I would have never 895 00:47:30,320 --> 00:47:32,719 Speaker 3: known that if I hadn't got over the fear of 896 00:47:32,760 --> 00:47:38,719 Speaker 3: seeing people in the first place, you know, so that 897 00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:42,040 Speaker 3: you know, that's what twenty seventeen was for me, you know, 898 00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:45,319 Speaker 3: And twenty eighteen, according to this Hardscope, we'll see they 899 00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:47,200 Speaker 3: two for two. Let's see what's up with twenty eighteen. 900 00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:50,359 Speaker 3: You're supposed to learn twenty eighteen, you're supposed to learn 901 00:47:50,440 --> 00:47:52,920 Speaker 3: how to let your garden feed you. This year is 902 00:47:52,920 --> 00:47:55,120 Speaker 3: about finishing up what you began in twenty sixteen, allowing 903 00:47:55,160 --> 00:47:58,759 Speaker 3: yourself to thrive in it. It's about making serious relationship commitments, 904 00:47:58,920 --> 00:48:01,960 Speaker 3: becoming more financial stable than ever, and adjusting to your 905 00:48:02,040 --> 00:48:04,279 Speaker 3: highest vision of yourself because deep down that's who you've 906 00:48:04,320 --> 00:48:08,719 Speaker 3: been all along. So I hope it's right. Kind of like, 907 00:48:09,000 --> 00:48:11,359 Speaker 3: you know, forty is alone. I mean, I'm thirty nine, 908 00:48:11,360 --> 00:48:14,160 Speaker 3: but that'll be year forty. Your forty is a long 909 00:48:14,280 --> 00:48:16,640 Speaker 3: way to go to learn that lesson. But you know, 910 00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:19,480 Speaker 3: gonna just keep faking it till I'll make it or whatever. 911 00:48:19,560 --> 00:48:24,839 Speaker 3: But you know, it's it's been a rewarding year and 912 00:48:24,880 --> 00:48:26,239 Speaker 3: we could not have done this without you. 913 00:48:26,239 --> 00:48:28,920 Speaker 2: Guys should not have done it. 914 00:48:28,960 --> 00:48:33,560 Speaker 4: And it's one of those things to where I realized 915 00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:36,080 Speaker 4: I was wrong about some things I used to be 916 00:48:36,520 --> 00:48:39,160 Speaker 4: very very problem. I've even said on the show, how 917 00:48:39,400 --> 00:48:41,279 Speaker 4: I can't wait till I get old to not give 918 00:48:41,320 --> 00:48:45,200 Speaker 4: a fuck, And I realized that's absolutely wrong. Not giving 919 00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:47,640 Speaker 4: a fuck is how we got Trump right, And so 920 00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:51,759 Speaker 4: I publicly said that on Facebook and Twitter, and I 921 00:48:51,800 --> 00:48:54,000 Speaker 4: do mean that you need to give a fuck, but 922 00:48:54,120 --> 00:48:56,840 Speaker 4: only about things is important. You can't care about everything, 923 00:48:57,640 --> 00:49:02,040 Speaker 4: but you need to care about things. It's important because 924 00:49:02,200 --> 00:49:07,000 Speaker 4: what I realized is that loving and caring and being 925 00:49:07,120 --> 00:49:10,359 Speaker 4: kind and then they're opening up your heart. That shit 926 00:49:10,480 --> 00:49:12,759 Speaker 4: is hard to do. People think that's easy. It is 927 00:49:12,840 --> 00:49:15,120 Speaker 4: very very hard to do because when you do that, 928 00:49:15,280 --> 00:49:18,400 Speaker 4: you open yourself to pain, You open yourself to hurt, 929 00:49:18,760 --> 00:49:20,439 Speaker 4: you open yourself to loss. 930 00:49:20,080 --> 00:49:23,000 Speaker 2: Like, you open yourself up to so much. But truth 931 00:49:23,080 --> 00:49:24,319 Speaker 2: be told, those are the. 932 00:49:24,200 --> 00:49:27,520 Speaker 4: Things that make us alive, like like like like, those are. 933 00:49:27,360 --> 00:49:31,399 Speaker 2: The things that define us and who we are. 934 00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:36,200 Speaker 4: You know, there's so many people that I realize they're 935 00:49:36,760 --> 00:49:41,240 Speaker 4: grown quote unquote as adults thirties, forties, fifties, but they 936 00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:43,960 Speaker 4: still were hurt by childhood pain. You know. It's to 937 00:49:44,040 --> 00:49:48,040 Speaker 4: the point now that even for myself, you have to 938 00:49:48,080 --> 00:49:51,520 Speaker 4: get over that pain in order to move on, because, 939 00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:54,239 Speaker 4: like you say, you can throw walls up about some 940 00:49:54,280 --> 00:49:55,919 Speaker 4: shit that happened to you when you were ten. 941 00:49:56,760 --> 00:49:59,560 Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean that was one of the things that 942 00:49:59,719 --> 00:50:01,960 Speaker 3: helped me when we were talking about, you know, that 943 00:50:02,040 --> 00:50:05,600 Speaker 3: whole dem Throns thing was think about everybody as kids again, 944 00:50:06,400 --> 00:50:08,520 Speaker 3: and like what happened to us then to make us 945 00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:11,000 Speaker 3: be old as fuck now and sitting up here having 946 00:50:11,040 --> 00:50:14,239 Speaker 3: the same battles that we had when we were kids, 947 00:50:14,280 --> 00:50:17,240 Speaker 3: Because essentially those things go back to when your formative years, 948 00:50:17,840 --> 00:50:20,640 Speaker 3: you know, nerves versus the cool guys versus people from 949 00:50:20,640 --> 00:50:23,040 Speaker 3: the hood versus suburbs, all that shit. That's when you're 950 00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:25,759 Speaker 3: a kid that you really start forming those opinions. 951 00:50:26,080 --> 00:50:27,120 Speaker 2: How do you let that go? 952 00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:30,440 Speaker 3: You know, because you really can't make a space for 953 00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:34,799 Speaker 3: each other if you're more worried about excluding somebody out 954 00:50:34,800 --> 00:50:37,839 Speaker 3: of the space rather than making a place for them 955 00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:40,759 Speaker 3: to come as long as they're of you know, some 956 00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:43,040 Speaker 3: reasonable approach, you know. 957 00:50:44,360 --> 00:50:46,640 Speaker 2: You know that was one of the things out the Facebook. 958 00:50:46,680 --> 00:50:48,440 Speaker 3: Thing that was killing me with the group was just 959 00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:51,360 Speaker 3: I was finding myself in the middle of people fighting 960 00:50:51,520 --> 00:50:55,120 Speaker 3: all the time and them being like fixed this despite 961 00:50:55,200 --> 00:50:58,040 Speaker 3: nobody being willing to admit anything they did was wrong, 962 00:50:58,600 --> 00:51:00,880 Speaker 3: nobody being willing to admit that they played part in 963 00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:04,080 Speaker 3: any of it, nobody being willing to admit that maybe 964 00:51:04,080 --> 00:51:05,960 Speaker 3: there was a way where they could have some mediation. 965 00:51:07,040 --> 00:51:09,400 Speaker 3: And you see that enough and you start feeling like 966 00:51:09,440 --> 00:51:13,120 Speaker 3: you're the problem. You know, I let people convince me 967 00:51:13,239 --> 00:51:18,440 Speaker 3: that it was my fault for their unhappiness, you know, 968 00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:21,520 Speaker 3: while trying to create a space for people to come 969 00:51:21,640 --> 00:51:25,160 Speaker 3: be happy, to respect each other and have fun and 970 00:51:25,680 --> 00:51:26,839 Speaker 3: be in the spirit of the show. 971 00:51:27,960 --> 00:51:30,640 Speaker 2: But some people weren't gonna be happy with that. 972 00:51:31,360 --> 00:51:34,439 Speaker 3: And like I said, letting that go help me because 973 00:51:34,480 --> 00:51:37,279 Speaker 3: I was able to be like, Okay, sometimes you have 974 00:51:37,280 --> 00:51:39,280 Speaker 3: to leave a place for people to feel how they feel. 975 00:51:39,320 --> 00:51:42,239 Speaker 3: So if they gonna not like me, or they're not 976 00:51:42,280 --> 00:51:45,799 Speaker 3: gonna like the show, or they're not gonna like each other, 977 00:51:46,680 --> 00:51:48,319 Speaker 3: that's not my business. 978 00:51:48,920 --> 00:51:49,160 Speaker 2: You know. 979 00:51:49,320 --> 00:51:51,920 Speaker 3: That was a hard lesson to learn. But you know, 980 00:51:52,000 --> 00:51:54,799 Speaker 3: like I said, I started talking to people looking for 981 00:51:54,840 --> 00:51:57,400 Speaker 3: more of a real connection with people that I already 982 00:51:57,440 --> 00:52:00,680 Speaker 3: care about that I never was finding time for it, right, 983 00:52:00,760 --> 00:52:02,640 Speaker 3: So it helped me to find more time for people. 984 00:52:03,680 --> 00:52:07,040 Speaker 3: So I think all that stuff kind of manifested in 985 00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:11,040 Speaker 3: twenty seventeen, and like I said, it's just been really 986 00:52:11,040 --> 00:52:15,680 Speaker 3: fulfilling journey so far. And you know, I look forward 987 00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:20,920 Speaker 3: to twenty eighteen and what that's gonna bring, because you 988 00:52:21,000 --> 00:52:23,120 Speaker 3: just you never know that. 989 00:52:23,239 --> 00:52:27,880 Speaker 4: And also growth, you know, because the show has been growing, 990 00:52:28,560 --> 00:52:32,840 Speaker 4: and as the show grows, there's you know, some things 991 00:52:32,840 --> 00:52:35,960 Speaker 4: that we have to adapt and adjust and change. So 992 00:52:36,680 --> 00:52:40,000 Speaker 4: you know, as of now, people still have access to us, 993 00:52:40,080 --> 00:52:43,440 Speaker 4: and I'm gonna, like Roger said, I'm enjoyed while it lasts, 994 00:52:43,440 --> 00:52:46,359 Speaker 4: because we may get to the point where people may 995 00:52:46,400 --> 00:52:48,560 Speaker 4: not be able to have the access to us like 996 00:52:48,640 --> 00:52:50,960 Speaker 4: they do now for various different reasons, being and a 997 00:52:50,960 --> 00:52:52,200 Speaker 4: lot of times beyond our control. 998 00:52:52,640 --> 00:52:56,239 Speaker 3: Like I said twenty seventeen, I probably people probably know 999 00:52:56,280 --> 00:52:58,000 Speaker 3: what I'm about to say because I said that enough 1000 00:52:58,120 --> 00:53:00,239 Speaker 3: so much this year. But I have to learn love 1001 00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:04,319 Speaker 3: people a different way, correct, Because it's like standing into 1002 00:53:04,320 --> 00:53:07,360 Speaker 3: the sun sometimes, like you want to see them for 1003 00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:08,920 Speaker 3: who they are, You want to see them all, but 1004 00:53:09,520 --> 00:53:12,000 Speaker 3: sometimes you have to step back and get perspective to 1005 00:53:12,200 --> 00:53:16,080 Speaker 3: truly understand people and to allow them to be the 1006 00:53:16,080 --> 00:53:17,319 Speaker 3: flawed people that they're gonna be. 1007 00:53:20,000 --> 00:53:20,279 Speaker 6: You know. 1008 00:53:20,560 --> 00:53:22,200 Speaker 3: I had to learn how to be friends with people 1009 00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:24,680 Speaker 3: that don't fuck with each other, correct, Like that was 1010 00:53:24,719 --> 00:53:26,000 Speaker 3: a thing I had to you know. It used to 1011 00:53:26,040 --> 00:53:27,279 Speaker 3: be a time where I would be like, well, why 1012 00:53:27,360 --> 00:53:29,080 Speaker 3: you don't fuck with so and so like they cool, 1013 00:53:29,600 --> 00:53:31,439 Speaker 3: and I know to eat down. 1014 00:53:31,480 --> 00:53:34,520 Speaker 2: I know that if y'all could just see each. 1015 00:53:34,320 --> 00:53:37,359 Speaker 3: Other, y'all would be fine, right because I see what's 1016 00:53:37,360 --> 00:53:40,279 Speaker 3: good in both of y'all, but y'all can't see it 1017 00:53:40,320 --> 00:53:40,839 Speaker 3: in each other. 1018 00:53:40,880 --> 00:53:43,319 Speaker 2: And I had to accept that, you know. I had 1019 00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:44,400 Speaker 2: to accept that some people. 1020 00:53:44,239 --> 00:53:49,880 Speaker 3: Are permanently in pain via whatever things they're going through 1021 00:53:50,040 --> 00:53:54,719 Speaker 3: correct and that whatever solutions they need to heal, they're 1022 00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:57,440 Speaker 3: gonna have to find on their own. It's not up 1023 00:53:57,480 --> 00:54:00,400 Speaker 3: to me to help to make them whole. Is not 1024 00:54:00,480 --> 00:54:03,520 Speaker 3: for me to point out that shit like that's something 1025 00:54:03,560 --> 00:54:04,120 Speaker 3: they gotta do. 1026 00:54:05,000 --> 00:54:05,279 Speaker 2: You know. 1027 00:54:05,520 --> 00:54:09,880 Speaker 3: It's things where I I've had to step into the 1028 00:54:09,920 --> 00:54:14,040 Speaker 3: fact that I, you know, and this isn't a humble brag. 1029 00:54:14,120 --> 00:54:15,440 Speaker 2: I really just think it's the truth. 1030 00:54:15,920 --> 00:54:18,799 Speaker 3: Sometimes I just see people for who they are when 1031 00:54:18,800 --> 00:54:23,000 Speaker 3: they don't know, and I had to just understand, like, oh, 1032 00:54:23,040 --> 00:54:24,240 Speaker 3: they don't see what I see. 1033 00:54:25,239 --> 00:54:28,320 Speaker 2: They don't know like what they're doing. 1034 00:54:29,040 --> 00:54:31,640 Speaker 3: I can see, like, oh, this is because of this 1035 00:54:31,680 --> 00:54:34,600 Speaker 3: thing that happened to you, or this is because you've 1036 00:54:34,640 --> 00:54:36,520 Speaker 3: been fighting this bat of your whole life, so you. 1037 00:54:36,440 --> 00:54:38,839 Speaker 2: Can't see anything but this fight. 1038 00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:41,719 Speaker 3: I had to step back and be like, well, maybe 1039 00:54:42,000 --> 00:54:44,680 Speaker 3: I just have to distance myself from you and let 1040 00:54:44,719 --> 00:54:46,359 Speaker 3: you work that out. Maybe it'll work it out, maybe 1041 00:54:46,360 --> 00:54:52,080 Speaker 3: you won't. Not really my responsibility, but I had to understand, 1042 00:54:52,160 --> 00:54:54,440 Speaker 3: like people are in so much pain and this I 1043 00:54:54,440 --> 00:54:57,360 Speaker 3: feel like it's been exacerbated in the last year. I 1044 00:54:57,400 --> 00:54:59,880 Speaker 3: feel like people were barely holding on as is. But 1045 00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:03,799 Speaker 3: but something about this last was not something. But in 1046 00:55:03,840 --> 00:55:07,600 Speaker 3: America at least, it's really exacerbated to a large point. 1047 00:55:07,600 --> 00:55:10,160 Speaker 3: When I just see people, I'm like, whatever it is 1048 00:55:10,160 --> 00:55:13,640 Speaker 3: you're fighting, it's not what you think you're fighting, right, 1049 00:55:13,880 --> 00:55:15,960 Speaker 3: And I just had to step back, and I think 1050 00:55:16,560 --> 00:55:20,240 Speaker 3: to a certain extent, it taught me just to be like, Okay, 1051 00:55:20,239 --> 00:55:25,440 Speaker 3: I love you, but I know that that doesn't mean 1052 00:55:25,440 --> 00:55:30,760 Speaker 3: we have to be connected or you know, in constant 1053 00:55:31,320 --> 00:55:33,120 Speaker 3: discussion and shit, I love you, and then. 1054 00:55:33,000 --> 00:55:34,920 Speaker 4: That's just it, Like I love you from a distance, 1055 00:55:35,000 --> 00:55:36,320 Speaker 4: and yeah, a lot of times people don't want to 1056 00:55:36,320 --> 00:55:38,760 Speaker 4: hear that, but I have family members like I love dearly, 1057 00:55:39,120 --> 00:55:41,000 Speaker 4: but I have to love them from a distance. 1058 00:55:41,719 --> 00:55:45,320 Speaker 3: And also we us each other, we have things where 1059 00:55:45,719 --> 00:55:46,480 Speaker 3: everyone should. 1060 00:55:46,520 --> 00:55:48,960 Speaker 2: I believe probably everybody's been through this. 1061 00:55:49,120 --> 00:55:50,680 Speaker 3: When you went through a time where you're like I 1062 00:55:50,719 --> 00:55:53,360 Speaker 3: can't be reached because I won't let myself be reached. Yes, 1063 00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:56,040 Speaker 3: you know, like it's not that it's anyone's fault. 1064 00:55:56,080 --> 00:55:58,200 Speaker 2: It's not. It's like I'm not in. 1065 00:55:58,200 --> 00:56:01,839 Speaker 3: A place to be healed from this, or to cope 1066 00:56:01,880 --> 00:56:04,400 Speaker 3: with this, or to move on from this or anything. 1067 00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:06,680 Speaker 3: So you have to sit back and be like everyone 1068 00:56:06,719 --> 00:56:09,680 Speaker 3: get away from me, or attack mode every day. Like 1069 00:56:09,719 --> 00:56:12,640 Speaker 3: I watch some people and how they're in attack mode 1070 00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:15,719 Speaker 3: every day, and I think about, oh, this is you 1071 00:56:15,800 --> 00:56:20,600 Speaker 3: protecting yourself, right, You're preemptively jumping on everybody saying everything 1072 00:56:20,640 --> 00:56:24,160 Speaker 3: ain't shit. Everything's hurting you. Everything is violence. Everything's the 1073 00:56:24,200 --> 00:56:27,040 Speaker 3: worse because you Because how are you gonna control how 1074 00:56:27,120 --> 00:56:30,960 Speaker 3: fucked up this world is? Like you gotta start that way. 1075 00:56:31,040 --> 00:56:31,520 Speaker 2: You can't. 1076 00:56:31,560 --> 00:56:34,520 Speaker 3: Like if you wake up, there's like when you wake 1077 00:56:34,600 --> 00:56:37,200 Speaker 3: up like that there's a good day. Is faith quote 1078 00:56:37,239 --> 00:56:40,720 Speaker 3: unquote fighting the bad guys on the internet, or fighting 1079 00:56:40,760 --> 00:56:43,759 Speaker 3: the slaying the dragons with your podcasts, or your activism 1080 00:56:43,920 --> 00:56:46,840 Speaker 3: or your. 1081 00:56:45,520 --> 00:56:48,040 Speaker 2: Misogyny even not all these are good things. 1082 00:56:48,920 --> 00:56:52,560 Speaker 3: A lot of this shit is you know, when I 1083 00:56:52,640 --> 00:56:55,560 Speaker 3: for for for example, when I think about the hotel 1084 00:56:55,680 --> 00:56:59,920 Speaker 3: dudes that on the internet hiding themselves behind this false 1085 00:57:00,080 --> 00:57:04,319 Speaker 3: idea of masculinity and massage, no war and stuff. There's 1086 00:57:04,360 --> 00:57:07,000 Speaker 3: something fucked up in them that they think I can 1087 00:57:07,040 --> 00:57:10,960 Speaker 3: control the world from these views, right, they think the 1088 00:57:11,000 --> 00:57:14,200 Speaker 3: world I can make the world make sense if I 1089 00:57:14,280 --> 00:57:17,120 Speaker 3: say that the black man is the most da da 1090 00:57:17,200 --> 00:57:19,560 Speaker 3: da da, and nobody else is having problems except the 1091 00:57:19,600 --> 00:57:21,680 Speaker 3: black man, and the only way to fix the community 1092 00:57:21,720 --> 00:57:23,560 Speaker 3: is that the black man gets to do what he 1093 00:57:23,600 --> 00:57:27,320 Speaker 3: wants to first, whether he needs seven wives, whether it means, 1094 00:57:27,760 --> 00:57:32,360 Speaker 3: you know, calling himself African names and shit. Meanwhile, I 1095 00:57:32,360 --> 00:57:34,760 Speaker 3: can have seven baby mamas, but it's. 1096 00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:35,800 Speaker 2: Black women's fault for that. 1097 00:57:35,920 --> 00:57:40,120 Speaker 3: Like that, even that dude is fucked up in some 1098 00:57:40,200 --> 00:57:43,360 Speaker 3: kind of way that he had to take, not had to, 1099 00:57:43,640 --> 00:57:46,880 Speaker 3: but he chose to take on that cloak to feel 1100 00:57:46,920 --> 00:57:48,640 Speaker 3: that he's not fucked up. So when I say I 1101 00:57:48,680 --> 00:57:52,960 Speaker 3: love people differently, I do you know, I watched like 1102 00:57:53,040 --> 00:57:55,000 Speaker 3: some of the things I would have said just a 1103 00:57:55,080 --> 00:57:57,840 Speaker 3: year ago, I wouldn't say now, not because I don't 1104 00:57:57,840 --> 00:58:02,040 Speaker 3: believe him, but because I know how fucked up people are, 1105 00:58:02,120 --> 00:58:05,440 Speaker 3: and they're just gonna take it as picking a side 1106 00:58:05,480 --> 00:58:08,040 Speaker 3: in a fight that they've been having all their lives. 1107 00:58:08,120 --> 00:58:09,760 Speaker 3: When I'm just saying no, this is the thing that 1108 00:58:09,800 --> 00:58:12,640 Speaker 3: needs to happen for you to heal yourself. You know, 1109 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:14,800 Speaker 3: I don't want to give off the illusion that I 1110 00:58:14,800 --> 00:58:17,800 Speaker 3: don't care about people, because I do, yes, you know 1111 00:58:17,880 --> 00:58:21,120 Speaker 3: what I mean, Like, I would love to see all 1112 00:58:21,160 --> 00:58:22,880 Speaker 3: of us be salvage, but it just ain't. 1113 00:58:22,680 --> 00:58:24,640 Speaker 2: Possible, correct. 1114 00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:28,480 Speaker 4: And the thing is, I've been at a place where 1115 00:58:28,560 --> 00:58:31,560 Speaker 4: I've just been angry at the world. Like I've literally 1116 00:58:31,640 --> 00:58:36,360 Speaker 4: been there where I've just been mad and angry and 1117 00:58:36,480 --> 00:58:39,880 Speaker 4: it was just like fuck everything and everybody around me, 1118 00:58:40,000 --> 00:58:43,240 Speaker 4: and I cut off relationships and friendships and I kind 1119 00:58:43,240 --> 00:58:46,000 Speaker 4: of put myself in a bubble and it was a 1120 00:58:46,040 --> 00:58:48,920 Speaker 4: self protection thing. And it took me a long time 1121 00:58:49,720 --> 00:58:54,440 Speaker 4: to get out of that bubble. Because when you're in 1122 00:58:54,520 --> 00:58:56,520 Speaker 4: a place of hurt, and you're in the place of pain, 1123 00:58:56,600 --> 00:59:00,640 Speaker 4: you're in the place of anger. Like you say, everything 1124 00:59:00,720 --> 00:59:05,160 Speaker 4: is a fight, and and everybody that comes in interaction 1125 00:59:05,320 --> 00:59:07,560 Speaker 4: with you, even if they're saying, hey, good morning, how 1126 00:59:07,600 --> 00:59:10,280 Speaker 4: you doing it is a motherfucking fight in your mind. 1127 00:59:10,360 --> 00:59:13,400 Speaker 2: And there's a season for that too. To protect yourself. 1128 00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:19,120 Speaker 3: You know, there's a season to be vigilant with your 1129 00:59:19,160 --> 00:59:22,120 Speaker 3: anger because that's real too. Like I said, these are 1130 00:59:22,160 --> 00:59:25,360 Speaker 3: things I learned this year. Why I had to be like, oh, 1131 00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:28,280 Speaker 3: this person is mad about this. I don't think it's 1132 00:59:28,280 --> 00:59:30,520 Speaker 3: healthy for them to be mad about it. I don't 1133 00:59:30,520 --> 00:59:33,960 Speaker 3: think that that's their natural way of being. But I 1134 00:59:34,000 --> 00:59:37,280 Speaker 3: have to step back because it's also natural to not 1135 00:59:37,360 --> 00:59:41,520 Speaker 3: let someone be mad right when they've been wrong, you know, 1136 00:59:42,360 --> 00:59:45,200 Speaker 3: like they like, maybe they'll come to their senses quote unquote, 1137 00:59:45,800 --> 00:59:48,280 Speaker 3: maybe eventually they can let that go, but they can't 1138 00:59:48,320 --> 00:59:48,680 Speaker 3: right now. 1139 00:59:49,440 --> 00:59:49,640 Speaker 2: You know. 1140 00:59:50,320 --> 00:59:52,920 Speaker 3: I look at how people argued over shit like Insecure. 1141 00:59:53,200 --> 00:59:55,560 Speaker 3: It's a TV show, has nothing to do with us, 1142 00:59:56,480 --> 00:59:59,320 Speaker 3: but I watch people lose their minds, not be friends. 1143 00:59:59,440 --> 01:00:01,520 Speaker 3: Are you a peop? Will call each other out their names. 1144 01:00:02,160 --> 01:00:04,000 Speaker 3: I still feel like the vast majority of people took 1145 01:00:04,040 --> 01:00:08,040 Speaker 3: it in stride, made jokes, but I watched people legitimately 1146 01:00:08,080 --> 01:00:10,200 Speaker 3: go at people, and I said, I know it's not 1147 01:00:10,240 --> 01:00:13,160 Speaker 3: the show, correct, So that's something. 1148 01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:14,480 Speaker 2: Inside of you. 1149 01:00:14,480 --> 01:00:16,600 Speaker 3: You know, you watch people if someone makes a joke 1150 01:00:16,680 --> 01:00:19,000 Speaker 3: or some shit on Facebook and they say, you know, 1151 01:00:19,480 --> 01:00:23,200 Speaker 3: they gotta get roall shit canceled and blocked, and you're like, Okay, 1152 01:00:23,200 --> 01:00:26,000 Speaker 3: that's still something inside of me, cause it's hard to 1153 01:00:26,040 --> 01:00:27,760 Speaker 3: look at yourself like that because I just want to 1154 01:00:27,760 --> 01:00:29,960 Speaker 3: feel black and white. I'm right all the time, everybody 1155 01:00:29,960 --> 01:00:32,280 Speaker 3: else is wrong, but sometimes I have to be like 1156 01:00:32,400 --> 01:00:36,440 Speaker 3: that's just another way, Like yeah, I mean, I've been 1157 01:00:36,440 --> 01:00:38,680 Speaker 3: reading books and stuff, but like with the whole black 1158 01:00:38,680 --> 01:00:42,440 Speaker 3: socialist shit, Like there was a time where I was 1159 01:00:42,480 --> 01:00:44,400 Speaker 3: just been like, fuck them niggas. They don't know how 1160 01:00:44,400 --> 01:00:47,400 Speaker 3: to talk to people. They rude, they shit never gonna 1161 01:00:47,400 --> 01:00:49,080 Speaker 3: pop off, and I hope it never pops off. 1162 01:00:49,080 --> 01:00:50,960 Speaker 2: Fuck them, blah blah blah. I'm alone with on that. 1163 01:00:51,160 --> 01:00:53,560 Speaker 3: And I'm not some you know, like because I got 1164 01:00:53,560 --> 01:00:55,280 Speaker 3: tired of being called out my name. I got tired 1165 01:00:55,280 --> 01:00:57,080 Speaker 3: of people lying on me. I got tired of people 1166 01:00:57,600 --> 01:00:59,880 Speaker 3: using slurs and shit that don't have nothing to do 1167 01:00:59,920 --> 01:01:01,920 Speaker 3: with the way I believe in the politics I have, 1168 01:01:02,200 --> 01:01:04,160 Speaker 3: Like they don't even know me and the calling me, 1169 01:01:04,400 --> 01:01:07,040 Speaker 3: and you react to it, You react like, man, who 1170 01:01:07,080 --> 01:01:09,000 Speaker 3: the fuck you think you talking to? Like I'm not 1171 01:01:09,200 --> 01:01:13,640 Speaker 3: some Hillary by I'm not some fucking Obama's stand. I'm 1172 01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:16,920 Speaker 3: not like I'm smart enough to be like this nigga 1173 01:01:16,960 --> 01:01:20,000 Speaker 3: drone people and that's fucked up. And also he was 1174 01:01:20,040 --> 01:01:23,200 Speaker 3: a huge symbol to black Americas, Black Americans, and'll be 1175 01:01:23,320 --> 01:01:25,480 Speaker 3: kids that didn't think this was possible. They will grow 1176 01:01:25,560 --> 01:01:28,040 Speaker 3: up thinking this is not a big deal, and that 1177 01:01:28,240 --> 01:01:32,000 Speaker 3: is a milestone for Black America. But at the same time, yes, 1178 01:01:32,080 --> 01:01:33,920 Speaker 3: that's also fucked up. He didn't say nothing when the 1179 01:01:33,920 --> 01:01:35,040 Speaker 3: God's Script got bombed. 1180 01:01:35,400 --> 01:01:36,960 Speaker 2: Like, I can. 1181 01:01:36,800 --> 01:01:39,400 Speaker 3: Code two of those things at the same time. And 1182 01:01:39,520 --> 01:01:41,840 Speaker 3: you're no closer to a solution to this than by 1183 01:01:41,920 --> 01:01:44,320 Speaker 3: yelling at me on the internet than I am by 1184 01:01:44,400 --> 01:01:49,360 Speaker 3: yelling back at you. You know, we're both almost powerless 1185 01:01:49,440 --> 01:01:52,240 Speaker 3: and yelling at each other, and both of us feeling 1186 01:01:52,280 --> 01:01:55,200 Speaker 3: powerful because we're yelling at each other. So I just 1187 01:01:55,200 --> 01:01:57,520 Speaker 3: stopped interacting with folks like that. And I don't and 1188 01:01:57,520 --> 01:01:59,160 Speaker 3: I don't have any ill will because I didn't have it. 1189 01:02:00,040 --> 01:02:02,160 Speaker 3: If motherfuckers find a way to pass socialists you told 1190 01:02:02,160 --> 01:02:04,160 Speaker 3: you of tomorrow, sign me the fuck up. Let's do it, 1191 01:02:04,720 --> 01:02:07,000 Speaker 3: you know what I mean. I'm not beholden to McDonald's 1192 01:02:07,000 --> 01:02:09,920 Speaker 3: Corporation or whoever the fuck. Like, good, let's let's go, 1193 01:02:09,960 --> 01:02:12,200 Speaker 3: they can go. Let's let's find a way to do this. 1194 01:02:12,320 --> 01:02:15,600 Speaker 3: But like that was a thing that this year happened, 1195 01:02:15,640 --> 01:02:18,200 Speaker 3: and I was like, yeah, I'm gonna be different this time, 1196 01:02:19,280 --> 01:02:24,000 Speaker 3: you know, like I'm listening, and also I'm gonna educate 1197 01:02:24,000 --> 01:02:27,000 Speaker 3: myself on this thing. And then also more importantly, I'm 1198 01:02:27,000 --> 01:02:29,520 Speaker 3: not I'm not your enemy. I'm not fighting you on it. 1199 01:02:29,640 --> 01:02:32,600 Speaker 4: Right my job, my job is not to put up swords. 1200 01:02:33,000 --> 01:02:34,920 Speaker 4: I don't want to hurt you more than you're already 1201 01:02:34,920 --> 01:02:35,320 Speaker 4: in pain. 1202 01:02:35,480 --> 01:02:38,120 Speaker 3: And once I started doing that, I started seeing how 1203 01:02:38,160 --> 01:02:41,440 Speaker 3: other people were doing the opposite and doing what I 1204 01:02:41,560 --> 01:02:43,840 Speaker 3: used to do, and I realized it's like I could. 1205 01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:45,600 Speaker 3: I don't know, It's like when you see the matrix 1206 01:02:45,920 --> 01:02:49,720 Speaker 3: in the code instead of I'm like, oh, you're doing 1207 01:02:49,760 --> 01:02:51,919 Speaker 3: what I was doing when I was lashing out because 1208 01:02:51,960 --> 01:02:55,240 Speaker 3: I was unhappy about something, you know, where I was 1209 01:02:55,280 --> 01:02:57,160 Speaker 3: like everyone needs to think like me or they're wrong. 1210 01:02:57,520 --> 01:02:58,280 Speaker 2: Where I gotta go. 1211 01:02:58,320 --> 01:03:01,120 Speaker 3: Find a tweet that disagrees with me and elevated to 1212 01:03:01,160 --> 01:03:05,160 Speaker 3: the level of a national fucking emergency or where you know, 1213 01:03:05,240 --> 01:03:07,120 Speaker 3: I had to go on, you know, like I just 1214 01:03:07,160 --> 01:03:08,840 Speaker 3: opted out of that kind of shit. You know, I 1215 01:03:08,880 --> 01:03:11,560 Speaker 3: had already kind of been doing it because I just 1216 01:03:11,640 --> 01:03:13,680 Speaker 3: like to have my opinion and leave other people out 1217 01:03:13,720 --> 01:03:14,120 Speaker 3: of my shit. 1218 01:03:14,560 --> 01:03:16,480 Speaker 2: I don't have much power, I don't have much control. 1219 01:03:16,560 --> 01:03:17,560 Speaker 2: I just have my opinion. 1220 01:03:18,280 --> 01:03:21,200 Speaker 3: But it took, you know, I had to understand, well, 1221 01:03:21,200 --> 01:03:23,200 Speaker 3: this is how other people see me, this how I 1222 01:03:23,240 --> 01:03:25,560 Speaker 3: see myself, and this how I see them, and that shit. 1223 01:03:26,200 --> 01:03:29,840 Speaker 3: Like I said, it kind of helped me evolve on 1224 01:03:29,920 --> 01:03:35,080 Speaker 3: certain shit that I really felt like not too long ago, I. 1225 01:03:35,200 --> 01:03:37,040 Speaker 2: Was still been stuck in the in the muck and 1226 01:03:37,080 --> 01:03:39,880 Speaker 2: the mar not seeing the farest for the trees with 1227 01:03:39,960 --> 01:03:42,520 Speaker 2: folks correct And I think. 1228 01:03:44,120 --> 01:03:48,840 Speaker 4: For me, as we're talking about reflecting, and this might 1229 01:03:48,880 --> 01:03:51,800 Speaker 4: not sound big, and I'm gonna say this, shout out 1230 01:03:51,800 --> 01:03:53,920 Speaker 4: to dext I remember me and you and Dexter. 1231 01:03:54,800 --> 01:03:56,440 Speaker 2: I don't remember if you recorded it or not. 1232 01:03:56,640 --> 01:03:59,680 Speaker 4: But for those of you that don't know, we're professional 1233 01:03:59,720 --> 01:04:04,040 Speaker 4: voice actors, which is something I didn't really think about. 1234 01:04:04,080 --> 01:04:05,840 Speaker 4: But I sit back, I think I was like, well, god, 1235 01:04:05,920 --> 01:04:08,360 Speaker 4: damn caring y'all. Y'all really, when you sit back and 1236 01:04:08,400 --> 01:04:12,280 Speaker 4: look at the shit we've accomplished. We've literally accomplished a 1237 01:04:12,400 --> 01:04:18,600 Speaker 4: lot of shit. And I remember I used to actually, 1238 01:04:19,240 --> 01:04:21,680 Speaker 4: and it's not even a jealousy thing. I used to 1239 01:04:21,720 --> 01:04:26,200 Speaker 4: be very very intimidated when we would go read because 1240 01:04:26,840 --> 01:04:30,480 Speaker 4: a lot of the reading came very natural to Roderick 1241 01:04:30,560 --> 01:04:33,680 Speaker 4: a lot of the was acting a lot of the 1242 01:04:34,080 --> 01:04:37,040 Speaker 4: voices and shit like that. I mean, he would read 1243 01:04:37,080 --> 01:04:39,080 Speaker 4: it and he would breathe through it. 1244 01:04:39,400 --> 01:04:42,800 Speaker 2: Me, I felt like I struggled. 1245 01:04:43,360 --> 01:04:47,360 Speaker 4: I struggled a lot, And as time went on, I 1246 01:04:47,400 --> 01:04:48,400 Speaker 4: got a lot better at it. 1247 01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:53,280 Speaker 2: It became a lot easier. And I remember dex was telling. 1248 01:04:53,040 --> 01:04:56,000 Speaker 4: Me like, I would not have asked you to come 1249 01:04:56,000 --> 01:04:58,840 Speaker 4: back if I thought you were bad, you know, like, you're 1250 01:04:58,840 --> 01:05:01,520 Speaker 4: actually really good at this, You're actually great at this, 1251 01:05:01,800 --> 01:05:05,840 Speaker 4: like and Dexter actually really really good about writing stuff 1252 01:05:05,880 --> 01:05:08,280 Speaker 4: for you, like for you and for your voice and 1253 01:05:08,320 --> 01:05:15,280 Speaker 4: your personality. And it made me think about, even with that, 1254 01:05:15,560 --> 01:05:19,000 Speaker 4: being better in that and stronger in that, and being 1255 01:05:19,000 --> 01:05:21,880 Speaker 4: more comfortable in my voice. Because I hear my voice 1256 01:05:21,920 --> 01:05:25,560 Speaker 4: on the podcast, that's one thing. But when I hear 1257 01:05:25,640 --> 01:05:28,120 Speaker 4: my voice over the voice acting thing, you know, to me, 1258 01:05:28,360 --> 01:05:30,160 Speaker 4: that's almost like that's one of those things, but that's 1259 01:05:30,200 --> 01:05:32,280 Speaker 4: a different realm, and it's one of those things where 1260 01:05:32,440 --> 01:05:34,360 Speaker 4: I just love to be here just like other people do, 1261 01:05:34,560 --> 01:05:36,800 Speaker 4: just like other people that's been doing this twenty five years. 1262 01:05:36,560 --> 01:05:38,280 Speaker 2: Like I just love to be there too. And I 1263 01:05:38,320 --> 01:05:41,400 Speaker 2: remember the one we did about Fries. 1264 01:05:42,920 --> 01:05:45,680 Speaker 4: The one where we did like the drive through and 1265 01:05:46,400 --> 01:05:47,960 Speaker 4: me and you were in there, we were doing it, 1266 01:05:48,080 --> 01:05:51,040 Speaker 4: and it was one dude that was back there listening 1267 01:05:51,280 --> 01:05:53,400 Speaker 4: and he had been voice acting for years, and he 1268 01:05:53,440 --> 01:05:55,640 Speaker 4: came and he was like, you did an excellent job. 1269 01:05:55,680 --> 01:05:58,760 Speaker 4: And it almost walked ten Somebody was like, oh my god, 1270 01:05:58,760 --> 01:06:01,439 Speaker 4: are you serious. And it's one of those things where 1271 01:06:02,760 --> 01:06:07,080 Speaker 4: I you know, you never know what talents are within you, 1272 01:06:08,000 --> 01:06:13,520 Speaker 4: and so I've learned to be I'm gonna be happier 1273 01:06:13,680 --> 01:06:16,240 Speaker 4: and I'm gonna take my happiness and to the best 1274 01:06:16,320 --> 01:06:19,520 Speaker 4: of my ability, be a light for somebody else that's 1275 01:06:19,560 --> 01:06:21,840 Speaker 4: in the dark place. So my like you said, I 1276 01:06:21,840 --> 01:06:24,120 Speaker 4: don't want to hurt you. I don't want to harm you. 1277 01:06:24,400 --> 01:06:27,040 Speaker 4: Sometimes that mean I have to walk away. But it 1278 01:06:27,080 --> 01:06:29,400 Speaker 4: does not mean I don't care, And it does not 1279 01:06:29,560 --> 01:06:32,040 Speaker 4: mean I don't love you as an individual person. 1280 01:06:32,080 --> 01:06:34,440 Speaker 2: It does not mean I don't love your blackness. I 1281 01:06:34,480 --> 01:06:37,240 Speaker 2: don't love who you are, you know. It just means 1282 01:06:37,360 --> 01:06:40,080 Speaker 2: I will be here whenever the time is right. 1283 01:06:39,960 --> 01:06:43,479 Speaker 4: Because I think relationships happen for a reason, conversations happen 1284 01:06:43,560 --> 01:06:45,960 Speaker 4: for a reason. We feder realize this right now, you 1285 01:06:46,040 --> 01:06:47,600 Speaker 4: might not be in a place to talk to me 1286 01:06:47,640 --> 01:06:50,080 Speaker 4: about certain things. But one day you will be and 1287 01:06:50,160 --> 01:06:52,480 Speaker 4: I will be here when that happens, you know. 1288 01:06:53,120 --> 01:06:58,640 Speaker 2: So I think it we've evolved in I know what 1289 01:06:58,680 --> 01:07:01,000 Speaker 2: I want to ask you. Iimist. I don't ask you. 1290 01:07:01,080 --> 01:07:04,360 Speaker 2: What is it said about arising? Oh? 1291 01:07:04,400 --> 01:07:06,160 Speaker 3: I looked it up, but I don't I didn't say 1292 01:07:06,160 --> 01:07:09,240 Speaker 3: the pictures. Okay, Well give me a second. 1293 01:07:09,240 --> 01:07:10,440 Speaker 2: I try to find it. No problem. 1294 01:07:10,440 --> 01:07:12,120 Speaker 4: I just wanted to see what it said about aris 1295 01:07:12,400 --> 01:07:15,880 Speaker 4: and talking about signs, y'all know what I didn't know. 1296 01:07:15,920 --> 01:07:17,520 Speaker 4: I didn't even know what my sign was that I 1297 01:07:17,560 --> 01:07:19,200 Speaker 4: went to college. You know, I was one of them 1298 01:07:19,480 --> 01:07:22,520 Speaker 4: children who went with church, so we ain't do all 1299 01:07:22,560 --> 01:07:25,040 Speaker 4: them signs and stuff. So I think we played this game. 1300 01:07:25,120 --> 01:07:26,560 Speaker 4: So I asked me what my sign was. 1301 01:07:26,560 --> 01:07:30,600 Speaker 2: I was like, what time? What is we talking about here? Yeah? 1302 01:07:30,960 --> 01:07:33,360 Speaker 3: I know, like for me this year, I probably cried 1303 01:07:33,400 --> 01:07:36,280 Speaker 3: more this year than I've ever cried in my life. Correct, 1304 01:07:36,280 --> 01:07:37,800 Speaker 3: mostly because of this is us, but. 1305 01:07:40,480 --> 01:07:44,560 Speaker 2: I think a lot of people have. Yeah, but you know, 1306 01:07:44,760 --> 01:07:46,240 Speaker 2: some of the stuff that. 1307 01:07:48,040 --> 01:07:50,400 Speaker 3: Was just that, it was stuff that I wasn't allowing 1308 01:07:50,400 --> 01:07:53,840 Speaker 3: myself to feel before, you know, which is a kind 1309 01:07:53,840 --> 01:07:56,760 Speaker 3: of freedom because, like I said, you don't want to. 1310 01:07:56,760 --> 01:07:58,000 Speaker 2: Be trapped in that boxing. 1311 01:07:58,040 --> 01:07:59,919 Speaker 3: I think a lot of people talk a good game, 1312 01:08:00,160 --> 01:08:03,000 Speaker 3: but ultimately they don't really mean it. You know, you 1313 01:08:03,040 --> 01:08:07,760 Speaker 3: still view yourself as like weak or failing or just whatever, 1314 01:08:08,080 --> 01:08:12,240 Speaker 3: you know, for allowing yourself to feel something other than 1315 01:08:12,280 --> 01:08:17,640 Speaker 3: anger or rage or or laughter, you know, or joy sometimes. 1316 01:08:17,680 --> 01:08:21,160 Speaker 3: But I feel like I got to kind of experience 1317 01:08:21,160 --> 01:08:23,840 Speaker 3: some full range of emotions this year, but mostly because 1318 01:08:23,920 --> 01:08:27,120 Speaker 3: I just stopped giving a fuck what other people thought 1319 01:08:27,160 --> 01:08:31,160 Speaker 3: about it, you know, like and it's okay, Like yeah, 1320 01:08:31,240 --> 01:08:33,559 Speaker 3: like if someone judges me because of that, that says 1321 01:08:33,560 --> 01:08:36,920 Speaker 3: more about them, you know. But I had to, you know, 1322 01:08:37,200 --> 01:08:43,040 Speaker 3: I remember the Trayvon Martin verdict, the George zm Been verdict, 1323 01:08:43,040 --> 01:08:46,960 Speaker 3: really but I remember the closing arguments, and that was 1324 01:08:47,000 --> 01:08:51,240 Speaker 3: the first time I cried in years, like George, because 1325 01:08:52,880 --> 01:08:56,599 Speaker 3: the prosecutor made the case for Trayvon Martin's life and 1326 01:08:56,600 --> 01:09:00,519 Speaker 3: not in a way where I was like, you know, yes, 1327 01:09:00,920 --> 01:09:04,200 Speaker 3: that's what we've been saying, you know, like this kid 1328 01:09:04,200 --> 01:09:07,920 Speaker 3: didn't deserve to die. And you know, like I still 1329 01:09:07,960 --> 01:09:10,880 Speaker 3: remember thinking that at that moment, like damn in my house, crying, 1330 01:09:11,640 --> 01:09:11,880 Speaker 3: you know what. 1331 01:09:11,960 --> 01:09:14,280 Speaker 2: I mean like like but it couldn't. 1332 01:09:14,320 --> 01:09:17,960 Speaker 3: But not because I was angry, but because he saw me, 1333 01:09:18,680 --> 01:09:21,439 Speaker 3: and he saw every other black dude and every other 1334 01:09:21,479 --> 01:09:25,240 Speaker 3: black kid that would be killed by the cops. You know, 1335 01:09:25,320 --> 01:09:27,240 Speaker 3: in that in that moment, he saw her Kia boy. 1336 01:09:27,560 --> 01:09:29,200 Speaker 2: In that moment, he saw. 1337 01:09:29,240 --> 01:09:32,519 Speaker 3: Timya rights, you know, like in that moment he sounded, 1338 01:09:32,840 --> 01:09:34,840 Speaker 3: he saw Orlando cast Still, he saw all. 1339 01:09:34,720 --> 01:09:37,360 Speaker 2: Of us, and he put and he's still lost. 1340 01:09:37,840 --> 01:09:40,280 Speaker 3: Those jurors still didn't care. I didn't know that they 1341 01:09:40,280 --> 01:09:45,320 Speaker 3: would give that verdict at the time, but I said, well, sadly, 1342 01:09:45,360 --> 01:09:47,439 Speaker 3: I actually kind of did know that because I remember saying, 1343 01:09:47,800 --> 01:09:51,040 Speaker 3: he's not gonna be found guilty. But I also remember going, 1344 01:09:51,520 --> 01:09:54,080 Speaker 3: if there's a case to make, he just made it. 1345 01:09:54,120 --> 01:09:57,120 Speaker 3: And that's the best possible case you can make for 1346 01:09:57,320 --> 01:09:59,680 Speaker 3: black life. And we have to just I might have 1347 01:09:59,720 --> 01:10:06,439 Speaker 3: to up that because you know, I you know, I 1348 01:10:06,479 --> 01:10:09,320 Speaker 3: am kind of a pessimistic, not helpful person about racism 1349 01:10:09,320 --> 01:10:12,559 Speaker 3: in America, but that that moment made me feel like 1350 01:10:13,880 --> 01:10:18,040 Speaker 3: you fought the right fight and there's no shame in 1351 01:10:18,080 --> 01:10:18,920 Speaker 3: what you just did. 1352 01:10:19,280 --> 01:10:20,759 Speaker 2: I want to be on the right side of history, 1353 01:10:20,960 --> 01:10:22,920 Speaker 2: and you know, and after that, you know, it's kind 1354 01:10:22,920 --> 01:10:27,439 Speaker 2: of like easier to be able to let that shit go. 1355 01:10:27,840 --> 01:10:33,599 Speaker 3: But yeah, I think a lot more people hopefully maybe 1356 01:10:33,600 --> 01:10:36,400 Speaker 3: this has made us have to do a lot of reflection, yes, 1357 01:10:37,000 --> 01:10:40,720 Speaker 3: and maybe people will be able to let some of 1358 01:10:40,720 --> 01:10:43,479 Speaker 3: their baggage down go and and kind of step into 1359 01:10:43,479 --> 01:10:46,880 Speaker 3: being themselves because especially with the aspects of the Internet, 1360 01:10:46,920 --> 01:10:50,200 Speaker 3: are so performative and see the part The part of 1361 01:10:50,240 --> 01:10:54,760 Speaker 3: it I don't think people realize is you know, it 1362 01:10:54,920 --> 01:10:59,720 Speaker 3: hurt me to be like, oh man, this we as 1363 01:10:59,720 --> 01:11:02,960 Speaker 3: black men holding on to this shit that was never 1364 01:11:03,000 --> 01:11:05,519 Speaker 3: meant for us. It's patriarchy, that was never they never 1365 01:11:05,560 --> 01:11:08,559 Speaker 3: considered us a human being. Us holding on to that 1366 01:11:09,760 --> 01:11:13,240 Speaker 3: is to our own detriment and to our people's detriment 1367 01:11:13,280 --> 01:11:14,040 Speaker 3: by extension. 1368 01:11:14,640 --> 01:11:15,120 Speaker 2: And to be. 1369 01:11:16,640 --> 01:11:21,520 Speaker 3: Kind of rejected for even saying that, for even approaching 1370 01:11:21,520 --> 01:11:25,320 Speaker 3: that thought for one second, to be like, what about 1371 01:11:25,320 --> 01:11:29,320 Speaker 3: our role in the oppression of other people within our stratosphere? 1372 01:11:29,479 --> 01:11:31,920 Speaker 3: What about our role in the oppression of our women? 1373 01:11:32,320 --> 01:11:36,000 Speaker 3: What about our role like forget the word oppression? Are 1374 01:11:36,040 --> 01:11:40,759 Speaker 3: we making it better? Are we making it worse? Knowing 1375 01:11:40,800 --> 01:11:43,920 Speaker 3: what has been done to us, what are we passing on? 1376 01:11:44,120 --> 01:11:46,160 Speaker 2: What legacy are we leaving you? 1377 01:11:46,200 --> 01:11:49,480 Speaker 3: Know it's absentee fatherhood leaving a positive legacy and then 1378 01:11:49,640 --> 01:11:52,840 Speaker 3: blaming women saying you stop sleeping with niggas that's gonna 1379 01:11:52,920 --> 01:11:55,200 Speaker 3: leave you that they could not know until after they 1380 01:11:55,200 --> 01:11:59,400 Speaker 3: slept with them is not raising our kids, but blaming 1381 01:11:59,400 --> 01:12:02,280 Speaker 3: women for doing good job of raising kids by themselves. 1382 01:12:02,720 --> 01:12:08,639 Speaker 3: Stat helping is the killing of trans women of color 1383 01:12:10,240 --> 01:12:13,120 Speaker 3: and then going acting like who did this? It couldn't 1384 01:12:13,120 --> 01:12:16,880 Speaker 3: be us? Is it helping? You know? Like I hate 1385 01:12:17,040 --> 01:12:20,280 Speaker 3: to bring that shit up because the one I know, 1386 01:12:20,400 --> 01:12:23,200 Speaker 3: the you know, the reaction that niggas have it is 1387 01:12:23,280 --> 01:12:26,000 Speaker 3: just to shut me down, Like to shut you must 1388 01:12:26,000 --> 01:12:28,479 Speaker 3: be ostracized, you must be shut the fuck like, you know, 1389 01:12:28,560 --> 01:12:32,120 Speaker 3: I have motherfuckers threatened me. I have people go on 1390 01:12:32,160 --> 01:12:34,640 Speaker 3: my Instagram and comment on a picture of me and 1391 01:12:34,680 --> 01:12:43,120 Speaker 3: my niece, you know, like like I. 1392 01:12:42,360 --> 01:12:43,080 Speaker 2: I would. 1393 01:12:44,960 --> 01:12:47,719 Speaker 3: They would never do that to my face, And and 1394 01:12:47,880 --> 01:12:51,040 Speaker 3: part of me knowing that knows that there's something in 1395 01:12:51,080 --> 01:12:53,320 Speaker 3: them that got hit and they want to punch back, 1396 01:12:54,040 --> 01:12:55,640 Speaker 3: and they just want to find a way to hurt me. 1397 01:12:56,680 --> 01:12:56,880 Speaker 2: You know. 1398 01:12:57,960 --> 01:13:00,000 Speaker 3: You know, I have friends asking like are you okay? 1399 01:13:00,200 --> 01:13:02,559 Speaker 3: Are you just trying to say this to impressed feelin 1400 01:13:02,960 --> 01:13:04,760 Speaker 3: Why would you say someone, and I'm like, cause it's 1401 01:13:04,760 --> 01:13:06,719 Speaker 3: fucking true the same reasons I say everything. 1402 01:13:06,920 --> 01:13:09,360 Speaker 2: But that doesn't mean that we have to stay stuck here. 1403 01:13:09,720 --> 01:13:13,760 Speaker 3: But still, even with that, even with that, it's still 1404 01:13:13,880 --> 01:13:16,639 Speaker 3: hurt to see other black men come in me like that, 1405 01:13:18,040 --> 01:13:20,160 Speaker 3: you know. And and I'm not even trying to say 1406 01:13:20,160 --> 01:13:21,639 Speaker 3: that it's any worse. 1407 01:13:22,479 --> 01:13:23,720 Speaker 2: Black women would have got it worse. 1408 01:13:23,840 --> 01:13:25,880 Speaker 3: If an LGBTQ person would have said that, they would 1409 01:13:25,880 --> 01:13:28,160 Speaker 3: have got it worse. Other people have said it and 1410 01:13:28,240 --> 01:13:30,000 Speaker 3: have gotten it worse. It was not a matter of like, 1411 01:13:30,040 --> 01:13:31,880 Speaker 3: look at rid the martyr. It was just a matter 1412 01:13:31,920 --> 01:13:34,960 Speaker 3: of that that we would cause that kind of pain 1413 01:13:35,040 --> 01:13:40,599 Speaker 3: towards somebody else for what reason. You know, even if 1414 01:13:40,600 --> 01:13:43,639 Speaker 3: you disagree, it was still just my fucking opinion, even 1415 01:13:43,680 --> 01:13:46,840 Speaker 3: if that's what you took from it, right and vice versa, 1416 01:13:47,840 --> 01:13:50,840 Speaker 3: you know. But it's it's that kind of thing, though, 1417 01:13:50,840 --> 01:13:54,040 Speaker 3: that lessons that I've just taken in the cap past 1418 01:13:54,120 --> 01:13:57,639 Speaker 3: couple of years where I'm like, Okay, y'all aren't ready 1419 01:13:57,640 --> 01:14:02,040 Speaker 3: to hear that, y'all already have that conversation, y'all are 1420 01:14:02,080 --> 01:14:02,880 Speaker 3: gonna shut down. 1421 01:14:03,600 --> 01:14:06,200 Speaker 2: Let's try to have it a different way, you know. 1422 01:14:06,560 --> 01:14:09,400 Speaker 3: I'm like, I'm taking like I'm taking those lessons in humility, 1423 01:14:09,439 --> 01:14:14,639 Speaker 3: because to me, it's not about raging against some shit 1424 01:14:14,800 --> 01:14:16,840 Speaker 3: just to make a point and not but no one 1425 01:14:16,960 --> 01:14:19,240 Speaker 3: heard it. If I make the point that no one 1426 01:14:19,280 --> 01:14:21,320 Speaker 3: heard it, that's still a failure on me. So how 1427 01:14:21,320 --> 01:14:23,640 Speaker 3: can I make that point a different way? Can I 1428 01:14:23,680 --> 01:14:28,800 Speaker 3: talk about our privilege within the sphere of blackness, even 1429 01:14:28,840 --> 01:14:32,400 Speaker 3: while being oppressed, even while being the most incarcerated, even 1430 01:14:32,400 --> 01:14:35,479 Speaker 3: while being under educated, even while being underpaid. Can I 1431 01:14:35,520 --> 01:14:38,720 Speaker 3: still talk about the physical violence we put on each 1432 01:14:38,720 --> 01:14:40,880 Speaker 3: other and say, can we can we do better? 1433 01:14:41,000 --> 01:14:43,680 Speaker 2: Can we stop doing that? You know? 1434 01:14:44,240 --> 01:14:50,800 Speaker 3: Can we not center our theory of blackness around black 1435 01:14:50,840 --> 01:14:53,479 Speaker 3: men have to be the bread winners and the ones 1436 01:14:53,560 --> 01:14:57,439 Speaker 3: most elevated when black women have passed us. In many ways, 1437 01:14:57,880 --> 01:15:01,960 Speaker 3: the paradigm of the black male le household isn't really 1438 01:15:02,600 --> 01:15:05,840 Speaker 3: beneficial as it used to be, or if it ever was, 1439 01:15:06,080 --> 01:15:09,120 Speaker 3: because black women have always worked from the fields to 1440 01:15:09,400 --> 01:15:13,240 Speaker 3: out to the house of white people and every time. 1441 01:15:13,320 --> 01:15:15,559 Speaker 3: So black women have never got to be the gentail 1442 01:15:15,640 --> 01:15:18,320 Speaker 3: Southern bell that sits in the house and the air 1443 01:15:18,360 --> 01:15:21,600 Speaker 3: conditioning and and it tells the other people what to 1444 01:15:21,640 --> 01:15:24,800 Speaker 3: do they've always worked, they've always been our partners. And 1445 01:15:24,840 --> 01:15:27,479 Speaker 3: if we don't see them as such, then that then 1446 01:15:27,600 --> 01:15:30,360 Speaker 3: then what point of what point do we have? If 1447 01:15:30,400 --> 01:15:33,680 Speaker 3: we don't see our lgbt Q people, of our of 1448 01:15:33,720 --> 01:15:38,120 Speaker 3: our crowd as part of blackness, then what then? What 1449 01:15:38,200 --> 01:15:41,439 Speaker 3: fucking point is the point of us saying anything about 1450 01:15:41,520 --> 01:15:42,840 Speaker 3: how white people are fucked up? 1451 01:15:42,920 --> 01:15:44,360 Speaker 2: If we're just gonna do it to each other. 1452 01:15:45,000 --> 01:15:47,120 Speaker 3: And and like I said, I've tried to find other 1453 01:15:47,160 --> 01:15:49,960 Speaker 3: ways to make that point without saying black men are 1454 01:15:49,960 --> 01:15:51,920 Speaker 3: the white people are white black people, because I know 1455 01:15:52,000 --> 01:15:54,439 Speaker 3: that that's one shot that all it's gonna do is 1456 01:15:54,439 --> 01:15:56,920 Speaker 3: get me rah rah rah, and black men are gonna 1457 01:15:56,960 --> 01:15:59,160 Speaker 3: be upset about it, and then they're gonna shut down 1458 01:15:59,160 --> 01:16:01,160 Speaker 3: the whole conversation, turn it into some other shit. 1459 01:16:01,920 --> 01:16:04,160 Speaker 2: So I'm trying to find other ways to say these things. 1460 01:16:04,800 --> 01:16:06,200 Speaker 2: You know, these are. 1461 01:16:06,160 --> 01:16:09,240 Speaker 3: Things I think about now, Whereas before I would have 1462 01:16:09,240 --> 01:16:12,280 Speaker 3: just been like, fuck them, them niggas mad. But I 1463 01:16:12,280 --> 01:16:12,840 Speaker 3: ain't wrong. 1464 01:16:13,240 --> 01:16:16,439 Speaker 2: Well I'm not wrong, and that's true, I'm still not wrong. 1465 01:16:16,800 --> 01:16:20,720 Speaker 3: But if I can't get the message across, then I'm 1466 01:16:20,760 --> 01:16:21,400 Speaker 3: not effective. 1467 01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:24,000 Speaker 2: So that's the things I work I think about now. 1468 01:16:24,160 --> 01:16:24,840 Speaker 2: You know, so. 1469 01:16:26,720 --> 01:16:29,559 Speaker 3: Anyway I find your heart scope you want to hear it. Yes, 1470 01:16:29,920 --> 01:16:33,240 Speaker 3: twenty sixteen, you were supposed to differentiate from what you 1471 01:16:33,280 --> 01:16:35,680 Speaker 3: want from what you think the world wants from you. 1472 01:16:36,920 --> 01:16:39,600 Speaker 3: This was a year of self discovery, one that that 1473 01:16:39,680 --> 01:16:41,360 Speaker 3: had you challenging the question a lot of things you 1474 01:16:41,439 --> 01:16:42,400 Speaker 3: previously been accepting. 1475 01:16:42,400 --> 01:16:44,720 Speaker 2: This fact. You did a lot of soul searching this year. 1476 01:16:44,760 --> 01:16:48,040 Speaker 3: It came out on the other end with some pivotal realizations. 1477 01:16:49,120 --> 01:16:53,400 Speaker 3: Twenty seventeen, you're supposed to dive off the highboard. When 1478 01:16:53,400 --> 01:16:55,479 Speaker 3: you knew what needed to change, you went for it 1479 01:16:56,200 --> 01:16:58,360 Speaker 3: and probably head first. This is the year in what 1480 01:16:58,479 --> 01:17:01,599 Speaker 3: you experienced radical change. I did and saw a world 1481 01:17:01,640 --> 01:17:04,720 Speaker 3: that was beyond what you'd ever conceive of before. All 1482 01:17:04,760 --> 01:17:06,960 Speaker 3: of this new understanding brought a change of perspective and 1483 01:17:07,000 --> 01:17:10,599 Speaker 3: a welcome one on that at that Oh in twenty 1484 01:17:10,640 --> 01:17:13,559 Speaker 3: eighteen coming up, this is the year you de side 1485 01:17:13,560 --> 01:17:15,800 Speaker 3: what you want to do from here on out. This 1486 01:17:15,840 --> 01:17:17,680 Speaker 3: is the year you get clear on some of the 1487 01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:20,360 Speaker 3: big lingering question marks that still exist in your life. 1488 01:17:20,760 --> 01:17:23,280 Speaker 3: You'll regain your clarity and focusing work and in love, 1489 01:17:23,640 --> 01:17:26,240 Speaker 3: and you'll get ready to start deepening those roots come 1490 01:17:26,320 --> 01:17:27,000 Speaker 3: twenty nineteen. 1491 01:17:27,280 --> 01:17:29,559 Speaker 2: All I feel like, all that's true. 1492 01:17:30,840 --> 01:17:35,680 Speaker 4: Yeah, because I'm I'm ready, like been talking. 1493 01:17:35,680 --> 01:17:38,160 Speaker 3: And I'm not just talking twenty eighteen. I'm saying twenty seventeen, 1494 01:17:38,280 --> 01:17:42,040 Speaker 3: jumping off the high board, you know, taking going to Jamaica. 1495 01:17:43,080 --> 01:17:44,840 Speaker 2: Yes, I know you you. 1496 01:17:44,760 --> 01:17:46,639 Speaker 3: Were kind of scared to do that, kind of scared 1497 01:17:46,640 --> 01:17:49,920 Speaker 3: to let people, you know, get their life through you, 1498 01:17:50,200 --> 01:17:53,080 Speaker 3: let people that I was you know, you were kind 1499 01:17:53,080 --> 01:17:54,960 Speaker 3: of scared to believe that you were worthy of going 1500 01:17:55,000 --> 01:17:57,400 Speaker 3: on that trip and that there was a reason that 1501 01:17:57,439 --> 01:17:59,519 Speaker 3: you should be there as much as anybody else. And 1502 01:17:59,600 --> 01:18:02,000 Speaker 3: I think, oh, I know that was a big thing, 1503 01:18:02,320 --> 01:18:07,000 Speaker 3: you know, with the with the podcast and with the 1504 01:18:07,000 --> 01:18:09,479 Speaker 3: trips of Seattle and Negro kind of stuff. I mean, 1505 01:18:09,479 --> 01:18:12,400 Speaker 3: you did you doubt right hand first here, Like yeah, and. 1506 01:18:12,400 --> 01:18:16,840 Speaker 4: I'm a naturally I'm naturally an extrovert, extroverted person. So 1507 01:18:16,880 --> 01:18:19,240 Speaker 4: I'm out there and I'm bubbly and stuff like that. 1508 01:18:19,320 --> 01:18:21,599 Speaker 4: But those are kind of internal things that I deal with. 1509 01:18:22,200 --> 01:18:25,000 Speaker 4: And yeah, it was one of those things where I 1510 01:18:25,120 --> 01:18:28,240 Speaker 4: kind of if you would have asked me a year ago, 1511 01:18:29,600 --> 01:18:34,000 Speaker 4: would I have went to Jamaica and every day had 1512 01:18:34,040 --> 01:18:36,040 Speaker 4: a picture of me in the basiness suit, the picture 1513 01:18:36,040 --> 01:18:38,840 Speaker 4: of me and my pajamas, taking pictures of you know, for. 1514 01:18:38,840 --> 01:18:39,719 Speaker 5: A whole week. 1515 01:18:40,040 --> 01:18:43,519 Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, right, you know, because it's literally for me, 1516 01:18:44,160 --> 01:18:47,160 Speaker 4: this is the this year, this year just passed is 1517 01:18:47,160 --> 01:18:49,559 Speaker 4: the most active I've ever been on social media because 1518 01:18:49,560 --> 01:18:52,559 Speaker 4: You've always been a lot more active than me. I'm 1519 01:18:52,600 --> 01:18:55,360 Speaker 4: a lot more out there voice in your opinion on 1520 01:18:55,400 --> 01:18:58,599 Speaker 4: Facebook and Twitter and all these other platforms, and for me, 1521 01:18:58,760 --> 01:19:02,040 Speaker 4: I've kind of been more reserved because it's one of 1522 01:19:02,080 --> 01:19:05,240 Speaker 4: those things for me personally, I didn't know you would 1523 01:19:05,240 --> 01:19:07,479 Speaker 4: they have, people would accept me. I didn't know how 1524 01:19:07,520 --> 01:19:10,000 Speaker 4: people would respond to me, you know, And when you 1525 01:19:10,040 --> 01:19:11,920 Speaker 4: see people get harassed and stuff, you was like, I 1526 01:19:11,960 --> 01:19:13,479 Speaker 4: don't want to deal with none of that bullshit. 1527 01:19:13,600 --> 01:19:16,160 Speaker 2: Like for me, that's just how it was. I was like, oh, 1528 01:19:16,160 --> 01:19:17,400 Speaker 2: I ain't got I ain't got time for that. I 1529 01:19:17,479 --> 01:19:19,519 Speaker 2: got other more important things to do than they fight 1530 01:19:19,600 --> 01:19:20,200 Speaker 2: with motherfuckers. 1531 01:19:20,240 --> 01:19:21,240 Speaker 5: I got there day long. 1532 01:19:21,600 --> 01:19:23,160 Speaker 2: I'm gone with something else. 1533 01:19:23,520 --> 01:19:27,200 Speaker 4: But what I realized is that for the most part 1534 01:19:27,880 --> 01:19:30,360 Speaker 4: right now, I haven't received any of that, and if 1535 01:19:30,400 --> 01:19:32,160 Speaker 4: I do, I know me, I'm a block and keep 1536 01:19:32,160 --> 01:19:34,519 Speaker 4: going like like I don't interact with people like that 1537 01:19:34,840 --> 01:19:37,880 Speaker 4: me personally period. You know, I want to have intelligent 1538 01:19:37,920 --> 01:19:40,520 Speaker 4: and smart conversations. I don't like to talk to dumbasses, 1539 01:19:40,520 --> 01:19:42,000 Speaker 4: and I don't like to talk to people that come 1540 01:19:42,080 --> 01:19:45,000 Speaker 4: and scream at me. And I know that your intentions 1541 01:19:45,080 --> 01:19:47,559 Speaker 4: might be another way, YadA, YadA YadA, but you need 1542 01:19:47,640 --> 01:19:48,960 Speaker 4: to talk to me like you would talk to me 1543 01:19:49,000 --> 01:19:50,040 Speaker 4: if you see me on the street. 1544 01:19:50,040 --> 01:19:53,600 Speaker 2: And people don't holler at each other on ten, So if. 1545 01:19:53,280 --> 01:19:56,240 Speaker 4: You start on ten, that's no for me my personality, 1546 01:19:56,439 --> 01:19:58,920 Speaker 4: there's no conversation to be had there for me. 1547 01:19:59,400 --> 01:19:59,680 Speaker 2: And so. 1548 01:20:01,439 --> 01:20:06,479 Speaker 4: I think that, uh, I have I've walked into that, 1549 01:20:06,600 --> 01:20:09,760 Speaker 4: like I said before, that boldness, that fullness. I've got 1550 01:20:09,840 --> 01:20:12,599 Speaker 4: over a lot of things that prevented me from doing 1551 01:20:13,280 --> 01:20:18,320 Speaker 4: things like uh, posting stuff on Instagram and Facebook and Twitter. 1552 01:20:18,439 --> 01:20:21,720 Speaker 4: I think I've came a mighty mighty long way. And 1553 01:20:21,760 --> 01:20:24,960 Speaker 4: I was so happy and excited for me that people 1554 01:20:25,160 --> 01:20:27,360 Speaker 4: you know, kind of got their life quote unquote through me. 1555 01:20:27,880 --> 01:20:29,720 Speaker 4: Because it's one of those things where, like I said, 1556 01:20:29,720 --> 01:20:32,080 Speaker 4: I'm getting better at it, but I'm like not trying 1557 01:20:32,120 --> 01:20:33,679 Speaker 4: to who the hell am I di? These many people 1558 01:20:33,720 --> 01:20:35,920 Speaker 4: don't know what the fuck I'm doing. But apparently there's 1559 01:20:35,920 --> 01:20:38,800 Speaker 4: people out there. There was like they woke up every 1560 01:20:38,920 --> 01:20:40,320 Speaker 4: morning because I was you know. 1561 01:20:40,360 --> 01:20:40,840 Speaker 2: Y'all know me. 1562 01:20:40,840 --> 01:20:42,320 Speaker 5: I'll wake up at the fucking crack of dawn. 1563 01:20:42,720 --> 01:20:45,160 Speaker 4: And before y'all got up to hit your feet hit 1564 01:20:45,200 --> 01:20:47,200 Speaker 4: the ground, I have been posting for an hour already. 1565 01:20:47,640 --> 01:20:50,640 Speaker 3: Yeah, it's a lot more people rooting Forrest and against us, 1566 01:20:50,880 --> 01:20:53,519 Speaker 3: and I never realized that that was something I had 1567 01:20:53,560 --> 01:20:56,800 Speaker 3: to I had to realize for twenty seventeen, you know. 1568 01:20:56,840 --> 01:20:59,439 Speaker 2: And I'd be willing to bet most of us are 1569 01:20:59,439 --> 01:20:59,800 Speaker 2: that way. 1570 01:21:00,760 --> 01:21:03,360 Speaker 3: And if we stop concentrating on the people, the few 1571 01:21:03,439 --> 01:21:04,760 Speaker 3: people that don't fuck with us. 1572 01:21:04,840 --> 01:21:08,680 Speaker 2: Right, because it's a small you'll be happier, you know. 1573 01:21:08,720 --> 01:21:10,120 Speaker 2: I can learn to let that shit go. 1574 01:21:10,880 --> 01:21:13,840 Speaker 3: Yeah, And honestly, what's funny is as I let it go, 1575 01:21:14,680 --> 01:21:17,800 Speaker 3: some people came back around, which is which is which 1576 01:21:17,880 --> 01:21:20,600 Speaker 3: is also been interesting, you know, as I was like, 1577 01:21:20,800 --> 01:21:22,759 Speaker 3: you know, what, fuck it, I have to live my life. 1578 01:21:22,920 --> 01:21:26,679 Speaker 3: And if you can't see that what kind of person 1579 01:21:26,760 --> 01:21:28,920 Speaker 3: I am from the way I live my life, then 1580 01:21:29,920 --> 01:21:32,400 Speaker 3: that's on you. Like you're looking with your hate colored 1581 01:21:32,439 --> 01:21:34,559 Speaker 3: goggles or whatever the fuck, right, And if I stop 1582 01:21:34,720 --> 01:21:38,120 Speaker 3: thinking about how you're viewing me, if I stop thinking 1583 01:21:38,160 --> 01:21:40,760 Speaker 3: about the conflict we might have, if I stop thinking 1584 01:21:40,800 --> 01:21:43,680 Speaker 3: about where I might disagree with you, and start just 1585 01:21:43,760 --> 01:21:48,360 Speaker 3: worrying about the good that I can do, the positivity 1586 01:21:48,400 --> 01:21:48,559 Speaker 3: that I. 1587 01:21:48,560 --> 01:21:49,479 Speaker 2: Can bring to myself. 1588 01:21:50,960 --> 01:21:53,599 Speaker 3: Either you have to get down and lay down, which 1589 01:21:53,680 --> 01:21:56,960 Speaker 3: you know, which is fine, Like You're not gonna stop 1590 01:21:57,000 --> 01:21:59,800 Speaker 3: my road anymore than I'm gonna stop yours. But more importantly, 1591 01:22:00,560 --> 01:22:02,439 Speaker 3: like I said, I think some people have kind of 1592 01:22:03,479 --> 01:22:06,439 Speaker 3: they had to let shit go because I did, right, 1593 01:22:07,160 --> 01:22:09,479 Speaker 3: you know, like I genuinely let it. And when I 1594 01:22:09,520 --> 01:22:12,400 Speaker 3: say let it go, I don't mean like let it go, 1595 01:22:12,760 --> 01:22:14,600 Speaker 3: but I can't wait to hop in your ass. I 1596 01:22:14,680 --> 01:22:18,439 Speaker 3: mean literally like, fuck it, that's over. That period of 1597 01:22:18,479 --> 01:22:21,040 Speaker 3: my life is over, That that conflict with that person 1598 01:22:21,200 --> 01:22:21,519 Speaker 3: is over. 1599 01:22:22,560 --> 01:22:26,840 Speaker 2: That that shit is dead to me. And if they 1600 01:22:26,920 --> 01:22:27,679 Speaker 2: want to stay. 1601 01:22:27,479 --> 01:22:31,000 Speaker 3: There, they can, but I'm not going to, right, you know, 1602 01:22:31,280 --> 01:22:33,479 Speaker 3: like they need that power to feel a way that 1603 01:22:33,600 --> 01:22:36,880 Speaker 3: I'm stuck in some moment that they have pictured that 1604 01:22:37,160 --> 01:22:39,640 Speaker 3: that's something they need. It's not something I need. Like 1605 01:22:39,680 --> 01:22:41,400 Speaker 3: I said, I had to learn to love people different ways. 1606 01:22:41,400 --> 01:22:42,880 Speaker 3: I had to learn to be like that's what they need. 1607 01:22:43,040 --> 01:22:45,439 Speaker 3: I don't need it, you know, I don't need to 1608 01:22:45,520 --> 01:22:47,479 Speaker 3: hold on. I don't need to spar with you. I 1609 01:22:47,520 --> 01:22:50,519 Speaker 3: don't need to look like you know, I don't. 1610 01:22:51,680 --> 01:22:53,960 Speaker 2: You know. One of the things I realized, I think 1611 01:22:54,000 --> 01:22:54,479 Speaker 2: it was this year. 1612 01:22:54,600 --> 01:22:56,479 Speaker 3: Last year, there were people on my Facebook page they 1613 01:22:56,520 --> 01:22:58,400 Speaker 3: didn't even like me, that was want to be my 1614 01:22:58,439 --> 01:23:01,360 Speaker 3: Facebook friend. They were just honort in my every move. 1615 01:23:01,439 --> 01:23:04,160 Speaker 3: I thought it was such a weird It's such a 1616 01:23:04,240 --> 01:23:07,160 Speaker 3: weird impulse to have, and I don't want anybody like 1617 01:23:07,200 --> 01:23:09,600 Speaker 3: that around me. For the record, I mean, you know, 1618 01:23:10,160 --> 01:23:12,320 Speaker 3: I try to be open, but I ain't that fucking open, Like, 1619 01:23:12,320 --> 01:23:14,040 Speaker 3: if you don't like me, stay the fuck away from me. 1620 01:23:14,720 --> 01:23:19,360 Speaker 3: But but you know, it was a different space I had, like, Wow, 1621 01:23:19,640 --> 01:23:21,920 Speaker 3: I'm in a different space than I was in life before. 1622 01:23:22,800 --> 01:23:24,920 Speaker 3: You know, who the fuck hate follow somebody? I would 1623 01:23:25,000 --> 01:23:26,479 Speaker 3: never do it, but other people were. 1624 01:23:26,680 --> 01:23:29,000 Speaker 2: That's a thing apparently, And I've realized that that is a. 1625 01:23:29,040 --> 01:23:31,160 Speaker 3: Thing, you know. But it helped to be able to 1626 01:23:31,240 --> 01:23:33,759 Speaker 3: realize that that was a thing that was happening, because 1627 01:23:33,800 --> 01:23:35,360 Speaker 3: it made me step back from people. 1628 01:23:36,400 --> 01:23:37,880 Speaker 2: You know, maybe I'm not as tight with. 1629 01:23:38,280 --> 01:23:42,400 Speaker 3: With people in general as I was before, but I'm 1630 01:23:42,439 --> 01:23:45,080 Speaker 3: much tighter with the people I love and trust, right, 1631 01:23:45,520 --> 01:23:47,160 Speaker 3: And I think too, and those are the people that 1632 01:23:47,280 --> 01:23:50,240 Speaker 3: matter quality minutes over quantity, right. 1633 01:23:50,320 --> 01:23:56,639 Speaker 4: I think twenty and eighteen has made I mean, twenty seventeen, 1634 01:23:56,640 --> 01:24:00,600 Speaker 4: I'm sorry, has made me realize that I have some 1635 01:24:00,840 --> 01:24:04,960 Speaker 4: friends in my life and some of I've met on 1636 01:24:05,080 --> 01:24:08,280 Speaker 4: the internet that are some of my best friends in 1637 01:24:08,360 --> 01:24:12,320 Speaker 4: the world that I wouldn't trade for anything, and I, 1638 01:24:13,120 --> 01:24:16,760 Speaker 4: you know, start speaking out and spending more time and 1639 01:24:16,920 --> 01:24:19,800 Speaker 4: texting and things like that, communicate, like you said, communicate 1640 01:24:19,880 --> 01:24:22,360 Speaker 4: with them more, checking on them, being sure they're okay, 1641 01:24:22,760 --> 01:24:25,920 Speaker 4: being sure they are all right, you know, because those 1642 01:24:26,000 --> 01:24:28,000 Speaker 4: are the relationships that matter to me. 1643 01:24:28,240 --> 01:24:31,960 Speaker 2: And I realized that this year has caused some of those, 1644 01:24:32,080 --> 01:24:34,160 Speaker 2: a lot of those relationships to grow stronger. 1645 01:24:35,479 --> 01:24:38,600 Speaker 4: And I'm very thankful, you know for that, you know, 1646 01:24:38,760 --> 01:24:42,120 Speaker 4: because sometimes as you get older, you go back to 1647 01:24:42,200 --> 01:24:45,080 Speaker 4: the foundation and your roots, and so you know, I 1648 01:24:45,160 --> 01:24:50,559 Speaker 4: can truly say doing negro Cohn actually meant the world 1649 01:24:50,680 --> 01:24:53,800 Speaker 4: to me, because for all four of us, Me and you, 1650 01:24:53,920 --> 01:24:57,960 Speaker 4: Chris and Brandon, it was like home, you know, because 1651 01:24:58,080 --> 01:25:01,439 Speaker 4: like all us like like regardless of when we started, 1652 01:25:02,439 --> 01:25:05,720 Speaker 4: that meant something to us. And it's one of those 1653 01:25:05,840 --> 01:25:11,040 Speaker 4: things where I'm thankful to even know them, you know, 1654 01:25:11,520 --> 01:25:14,439 Speaker 4: and have those close relationship because the thing is a 1655 01:25:14,520 --> 01:25:18,400 Speaker 4: lot of times, just like you say, when people talk 1656 01:25:18,439 --> 01:25:20,720 Speaker 4: about people and say things about people across the social media, 1657 01:25:20,760 --> 01:25:21,880 Speaker 4: you don't know who's fucking who. 1658 01:25:22,479 --> 01:25:25,439 Speaker 2: You also don't know who got real life friendships too, 1659 01:25:25,880 --> 01:25:26,280 Speaker 2: So when. 1660 01:25:26,200 --> 01:25:28,120 Speaker 4: You're out here talking all that shit, you really don't 1661 01:25:28,200 --> 01:25:30,439 Speaker 4: know who really knows who and who is really tight. 1662 01:25:30,400 --> 01:25:30,960 Speaker 2: With who either. 1663 01:25:31,520 --> 01:25:36,479 Speaker 3: Yeah, it's gonna yeah, And I think maybe we're at 1664 01:25:36,520 --> 01:25:38,880 Speaker 3: a tipping point where people are starting to kind of 1665 01:25:38,960 --> 01:25:42,040 Speaker 3: get because I think so many people just speculate like 1666 01:25:42,080 --> 01:25:43,720 Speaker 3: the Internet's gonna be your death of us. People don't 1667 01:25:43,720 --> 01:25:45,800 Speaker 3: see each other more people, And I'm like, maybe we're 1668 01:25:45,800 --> 01:25:47,360 Speaker 3: at a tipping point where people are gonna get tired 1669 01:25:47,400 --> 01:25:49,679 Speaker 3: of that shit too, right, because I'm starting to see 1670 01:25:49,680 --> 01:25:51,960 Speaker 3: people that have lived for the whole and maybe they're 1671 01:25:51,960 --> 01:25:55,040 Speaker 3: just running out of time. Maybe culture is changing, maybe 1672 01:25:55,800 --> 01:26:00,680 Speaker 3: because real shit is getting worse than before in a 1673 01:26:00,720 --> 01:26:03,960 Speaker 3: long period of time, people are letting some some some 1674 01:26:04,080 --> 01:26:05,920 Speaker 3: of the little ship go again. 1675 01:26:06,200 --> 01:26:08,960 Speaker 2: Yes, but but but I'm wondering. 1676 01:26:09,160 --> 01:26:11,479 Speaker 3: I hope we're on the precipice of a of a 1677 01:26:11,600 --> 01:26:13,800 Speaker 3: new era where people well some people can start to 1678 01:26:13,880 --> 01:26:17,680 Speaker 3: let a little bit of the ship go for their 1679 01:26:17,760 --> 01:26:21,720 Speaker 3: own sanity, because we're not control freaks. Human humans are 1680 01:26:21,800 --> 01:26:24,400 Speaker 3: messy as fuck, and none of us can control each other, 1681 01:26:25,040 --> 01:26:28,920 Speaker 3: you know, And to a certain extent, you have to 1682 01:26:28,960 --> 01:26:31,200 Speaker 3: live your life and try to do the best you can. 1683 01:26:32,920 --> 01:26:35,320 Speaker 3: And that's almost all you ever could have controlled anyway, 1684 01:26:36,360 --> 01:26:39,479 Speaker 3: you know, all right? That is a long tangent of 1685 01:26:39,520 --> 01:26:40,920 Speaker 3: random thoughts. I wouldn't even. 1686 01:26:42,320 --> 01:26:44,200 Speaker 2: I don't even know how to categoryize any of this. 1687 01:26:44,439 --> 01:26:46,920 Speaker 2: I don't know that we even talk about yours. What 1688 01:26:46,960 --> 01:26:48,160 Speaker 2: are yours? Well? 1689 01:26:48,200 --> 01:26:49,760 Speaker 3: Mine was supposed to be funny, so. 1690 01:26:51,400 --> 01:26:54,720 Speaker 2: Well we can do the funny. I didn't mean to 1691 01:26:54,760 --> 01:26:56,519 Speaker 2: make the show all furious and ship. 1692 01:26:56,720 --> 01:26:57,759 Speaker 3: Well that's what happens. 1693 01:26:58,960 --> 01:26:59,760 Speaker 2: You let me go first. 1694 01:27:01,520 --> 01:27:05,040 Speaker 3: Uh Now, I just feel so in approch they feel 1695 01:27:05,120 --> 01:27:08,280 Speaker 3: so there's nothing that can make these okay, But I 1696 01:27:08,320 --> 01:27:13,160 Speaker 3: will try. God. Sorry, it was just Christmas and I 1697 01:27:13,240 --> 01:27:15,639 Speaker 3: was thinking, how you know Santa isn't real. It's because 1698 01:27:16,439 --> 01:27:19,519 Speaker 3: with the amount of guns sold in America, somewhat have shot. 1699 01:27:19,360 --> 01:27:21,559 Speaker 2: That nigga coming down to Chimney a long time ago. 1700 01:27:21,840 --> 01:27:24,320 Speaker 2: Oh he wouldn't survive. Yeah, he just be dead. 1701 01:27:24,360 --> 01:27:26,599 Speaker 3: In Texas one day like we just be the day 1702 01:27:26,640 --> 01:27:29,960 Speaker 3: after after Christmas, Fox mused, be like, we have to 1703 01:27:30,040 --> 01:27:32,240 Speaker 3: report Santa Claus is dead. 1704 01:27:32,560 --> 01:27:35,400 Speaker 2: And it Rudolph out there with his big ass blinked 1705 01:27:35,479 --> 01:27:35,960 Speaker 2: red nose. 1706 01:27:36,000 --> 01:27:38,599 Speaker 3: Oh they the shot that he was caught coming down 1707 01:27:38,640 --> 01:27:43,240 Speaker 3: to chimney in Arlington. And yes, they ate several reindeer 1708 01:27:43,439 --> 01:27:44,080 Speaker 3: as venison. 1709 01:27:44,240 --> 01:27:45,960 Speaker 2: That night was barbecue win them. 1710 01:27:47,880 --> 01:27:49,920 Speaker 3: This is this is not really funny, but it's just 1711 01:27:50,000 --> 01:27:54,200 Speaker 3: a quick question. Remember when Russell Simmons said he was 1712 01:27:54,240 --> 01:27:56,880 Speaker 3: gonna clear his name and present evidence that he was 1713 01:27:56,920 --> 01:28:01,240 Speaker 3: innocent a couple of weeks ago. What happened to that? 1714 01:28:01,960 --> 01:28:04,679 Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, I don't know. I guess they're still trying 1715 01:28:05,200 --> 01:28:06,840 Speaker 2: trying to get packed forth together. When we were gonna 1716 01:28:06,880 --> 01:28:11,519 Speaker 2: get that update, Russ to get the PDF together, and 1717 01:28:11,680 --> 01:28:13,400 Speaker 2: he said the next day he was gonna approve that 1718 01:28:13,479 --> 01:28:18,080 Speaker 2: the other one was lying to And I just I 1719 01:28:18,400 --> 01:28:20,120 Speaker 2: wish him. Look, I hope he goes and find out 1720 01:28:20,120 --> 01:28:22,599 Speaker 2: all the documentation. But when we ain't heard that clock 1721 01:28:22,680 --> 01:28:27,280 Speaker 2: is ticking on it clock is ticking also. This Uh, 1722 01:28:28,760 --> 01:28:33,000 Speaker 2: it was something I noticed that Karen didn't say. 1723 01:28:33,080 --> 01:28:34,760 Speaker 3: None of the women in the chat room said to me, 1724 01:28:34,880 --> 01:28:36,280 Speaker 3: none of the men in the chatroom said to me, 1725 01:28:39,479 --> 01:28:43,639 Speaker 3: I didn't get any congratulations today, and I'm a little 1726 01:28:43,760 --> 01:28:48,719 Speaker 3: disappointing you guys because as a man who didn't abuse 1727 01:28:48,840 --> 01:28:52,400 Speaker 3: anyone today, Ah, I feel that I deserve a f 1728 01:28:52,479 --> 01:28:55,400 Speaker 3: U surve praise for doing the bad, fucking minimum of 1729 01:28:55,560 --> 01:28:58,559 Speaker 3: human decency. Okay, guys, I need some cookies and pats 1730 01:28:58,600 --> 01:28:58,960 Speaker 3: on the back. 1731 01:28:59,040 --> 01:28:59,800 Speaker 2: It's the whole box. 1732 01:28:59,880 --> 01:29:03,840 Speaker 3: And I went for twenty four hours without grabbing any 1733 01:29:03,920 --> 01:29:06,920 Speaker 3: pusses or any of that type of shit. And I 1734 01:29:07,040 --> 01:29:09,160 Speaker 3: feel like you guys feel like me and Matt Damon 1735 01:29:09,280 --> 01:29:11,680 Speaker 3: are not being What about the good guys? What about us? 1736 01:29:12,360 --> 01:29:17,120 Speaker 3: Who's gonna tell us that we are doing a great job? Okay, 1737 01:29:17,479 --> 01:29:19,880 Speaker 3: y'all you hear about in the news these days. This 1738 01:29:20,120 --> 01:29:23,200 Speaker 3: dude did some inappropriate shit. This dude whipping his dick out. 1739 01:29:23,400 --> 01:29:27,280 Speaker 3: This dude sent me a text, This dude is out 1740 01:29:27,320 --> 01:29:30,400 Speaker 3: here grabbing people. Well, you know what, what about all 1741 01:29:30,560 --> 01:29:36,280 Speaker 3: of us men that aren't making the paper? Whereas my articles, 1742 01:29:37,200 --> 01:29:39,200 Speaker 3: Rod didn't grab nobody today. 1743 01:29:39,160 --> 01:29:45,040 Speaker 2: Headline, nobody gives a fuck about breaking news, breaking news. 1744 01:29:45,520 --> 01:29:48,720 Speaker 3: He didn't pull his dick out, no, you know, And 1745 01:29:48,800 --> 01:29:51,719 Speaker 3: I'm lying too, And I'm lying I just realized twenty 1746 01:29:51,760 --> 01:29:55,679 Speaker 3: four hours ago. I definitely, I definitely sexual harassed Karen 1747 01:29:55,720 --> 01:29:57,840 Speaker 3: because when I put on a seat button, the car. 1748 01:29:57,840 --> 01:30:01,400 Speaker 2: Did re those to this I's welcome Jered Richison style. 1749 01:30:01,840 --> 01:30:04,400 Speaker 4: But I started it thought because I had was putting 1750 01:30:04,439 --> 01:30:06,280 Speaker 4: on some blue jeans and I was trying to get 1751 01:30:06,360 --> 01:30:07,200 Speaker 4: in them, and I. 1752 01:30:07,280 --> 01:30:10,040 Speaker 2: Licked at Roger and I think I called him mister Richesster. 1753 01:30:10,120 --> 01:30:11,840 Speaker 2: He tell you what you know? It's missed. Yeah, it's 1754 01:30:13,560 --> 01:30:15,000 Speaker 2: I said, mister. I wiggled to get. 1755 01:30:14,920 --> 01:30:15,599 Speaker 5: In these jeans. 1756 01:30:17,560 --> 01:30:19,360 Speaker 3: I said, how you getting them jeans? You had to 1757 01:30:19,400 --> 01:30:22,680 Speaker 3: jump off the bed and creepy old ass man. 1758 01:30:23,560 --> 01:30:25,479 Speaker 2: So then he pulled the seat belt maneuve on me. 1759 01:30:25,560 --> 01:30:26,759 Speaker 2: I gotta go to the next session. 1760 01:30:26,800 --> 01:30:27,719 Speaker 3: We right at the break. 1761 01:30:29,040 --> 01:30:32,560 Speaker 2: Let me go bring this right back. Guys, Sorry about this. 1762 01:30:33,320 --> 01:30:35,320 Speaker 2: I feel like we didn't talk about anything else on 1763 01:30:35,400 --> 01:30:36,960 Speaker 2: the docket. That's mine. 1764 01:30:37,840 --> 01:30:45,599 Speaker 3: Okay, that's true, that is true. Let me call y'all 1765 01:30:45,640 --> 01:30:50,080 Speaker 3: a session again and put card on the screen again. 1766 01:30:50,960 --> 01:30:52,960 Speaker 3: All right, let's try to do something something. 1767 01:30:54,640 --> 01:30:57,920 Speaker 2: I said that that was your last random do Yeah, 1768 01:30:57,960 --> 01:30:58,320 Speaker 2: that was it. 1769 01:30:58,960 --> 01:31:00,760 Speaker 3: I just told you I had a I didn't know 1770 01:31:00,760 --> 01:31:02,400 Speaker 3: what yours is gonna be an hour and a half long. 1771 01:31:02,479 --> 01:31:05,800 Speaker 3: I thought, you know, I thought I was on line 1772 01:31:05,840 --> 01:31:06,919 Speaker 3: with everything. 1773 01:31:09,720 --> 01:31:13,080 Speaker 2: Come in and derail, derail the buildings. 1774 01:31:13,360 --> 01:31:15,599 Speaker 3: That's all right, you know what, it's our show. It's 1775 01:31:15,640 --> 01:31:18,400 Speaker 3: almost the end of the year. We got one feedback 1776 01:31:18,479 --> 01:31:21,360 Speaker 3: show until the end of the year. Yes, I don't 1777 01:31:21,360 --> 01:31:23,000 Speaker 3: know if we're doing New Year's at You show or not. 1778 01:31:23,360 --> 01:31:24,679 Speaker 2: I don't know what that see. 1779 01:31:25,479 --> 01:31:30,120 Speaker 3: Uh that's Sunday maybe, but uh, I'll try to get 1780 01:31:30,160 --> 01:31:33,440 Speaker 3: into some I'll try to get into some some segments. 1781 01:31:33,760 --> 01:31:33,880 Speaker 4: Uh. 1782 01:31:34,160 --> 01:31:37,599 Speaker 3: Some news here. Azalea Banks issued and apology to Beyonce. 1783 01:31:39,120 --> 01:31:41,479 Speaker 3: What I hope she keeps it and don't go back 1784 01:31:41,560 --> 01:31:44,719 Speaker 3: on it at Beyonce on Instagram. I believe, she said 1785 01:31:45,240 --> 01:31:47,679 Speaker 3: at Beyonce, I apologized with throwing tangents in the past. 1786 01:31:47,720 --> 01:31:49,639 Speaker 3: They totally came from a place of feeling left out. 1787 01:31:49,880 --> 01:31:51,920 Speaker 3: You've inspired so much of the way I think about 1788 01:31:52,160 --> 01:31:54,960 Speaker 3: value you myself as a performer, and I adore you. 1789 01:31:55,080 --> 01:31:56,920 Speaker 3: Your presence in the art world and on earth is 1790 01:31:57,000 --> 01:32:00,280 Speaker 3: supernatural and I am so so so inspired by you all. 1791 01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:06,720 Speaker 3: Uh so, I don't know. She's also handed out of 1792 01:32:06,760 --> 01:32:09,880 Speaker 3: parties a little kim Nicki, minad Zaye Malick and even 1793 01:32:09,920 --> 01:32:14,000 Speaker 3: iggya Zelia. So I don't know. 1794 01:32:14,080 --> 01:32:14,760 Speaker 5: I hope it last. 1795 01:32:14,880 --> 01:32:15,240 Speaker 2: That's all. 1796 01:32:15,479 --> 01:32:19,320 Speaker 3: Like, I hope so too. Man Once again she said 1797 01:32:19,360 --> 01:32:23,120 Speaker 3: and done some fucked up ship. But you know, I 1798 01:32:23,280 --> 01:32:25,280 Speaker 3: was thinking about that that shirt I got that I'm 1799 01:32:25,360 --> 01:32:26,360 Speaker 3: rooting for all the black people. 1800 01:32:26,400 --> 01:32:29,000 Speaker 2: I'm root for everybody black. One of the ways of 1801 01:32:29,160 --> 01:32:29,840 Speaker 2: rooting for people. 1802 01:32:30,479 --> 01:32:33,080 Speaker 3: It's gonna sound convoluted, but it's serious. And I do 1803 01:32:33,240 --> 01:32:36,320 Speaker 3: mean this is that I really wish root for people 1804 01:32:36,360 --> 01:32:39,680 Speaker 3: to get better. I understand some people they're they're well 1805 01:32:39,760 --> 01:32:42,280 Speaker 3: protecting themselves as they cancel people and they get off 1806 01:32:42,320 --> 01:32:44,760 Speaker 3: on that or they or they really need to do 1807 01:32:44,840 --> 01:32:48,160 Speaker 3: it to keep themselves. I really be rooting for people 1808 01:32:48,439 --> 01:32:52,000 Speaker 3: to grow away from the toxic ship they do and 1809 01:32:52,160 --> 01:32:54,720 Speaker 3: heal and the and the step back and and and 1810 01:32:55,240 --> 01:32:57,200 Speaker 3: you know, I hope and I think some people do 1811 01:32:57,760 --> 01:33:01,400 Speaker 3: manipulate and capitalize on that fielming like they know that 1812 01:33:01,479 --> 01:33:03,920 Speaker 3: we're going. I hope a Zelie base gets it together. 1813 01:33:04,000 --> 01:33:06,800 Speaker 3: So next week when she's like, man, fuck, we'll say 1814 01:33:06,880 --> 01:33:09,800 Speaker 3: everything I said, bitch, da da da da, it's gonna 1815 01:33:09,800 --> 01:33:11,400 Speaker 3: be right back to like here we go again with 1816 01:33:11,479 --> 01:33:14,560 Speaker 3: this bullshit. But you know, that's an impost that I 1817 01:33:14,640 --> 01:33:17,479 Speaker 3: think a lot of us have, and we're at a 1818 01:33:17,520 --> 01:33:20,000 Speaker 3: point where it's kind of not popular to have that anymore. 1819 01:33:20,600 --> 01:33:22,519 Speaker 3: But I really do be hoping people get better. I 1820 01:33:22,600 --> 01:33:25,439 Speaker 3: hope when they apologize they mean it. I hope they 1821 01:33:25,520 --> 01:33:28,800 Speaker 3: make sincere apologies. I hope even if the words fail 1822 01:33:28,840 --> 01:33:31,240 Speaker 3: them on their apologies, their actions will then go out 1823 01:33:31,280 --> 01:33:32,679 Speaker 3: and prove that they meant the shit. 1824 01:33:33,320 --> 01:33:34,000 Speaker 2: I don't think that. 1825 01:33:34,120 --> 01:33:37,760 Speaker 3: Happens very often. We're being up frank most of the time. 1826 01:33:37,840 --> 01:33:40,040 Speaker 2: I think people just move on from crisis to crisis like, well, 1827 01:33:40,080 --> 01:33:40,599 Speaker 2: fuck it then. 1828 01:33:41,080 --> 01:33:45,240 Speaker 3: But you know, the same way I felt about jay 1829 01:33:45,320 --> 01:33:49,280 Speaker 3: Z having fucking getting some common sense about how to 1830 01:33:49,320 --> 01:33:53,000 Speaker 3: treat his people in his life at forty something. 1831 01:33:53,800 --> 01:33:55,640 Speaker 2: I mean, shit, it ain't never too late. 1832 01:33:55,720 --> 01:33:59,479 Speaker 3: I hope everybody gets some of that, you know, And 1833 01:33:59,640 --> 01:34:02,040 Speaker 3: I always be here rooting for people to get it, 1834 01:34:02,160 --> 01:34:05,600 Speaker 3: because the alternative is you just stay, ain't ship for 1835 01:34:05,640 --> 01:34:07,439 Speaker 3: the rest of your life and never try to improve. 1836 01:34:08,160 --> 01:34:11,080 Speaker 3: And I don't want to ever encourage that from anyone, 1837 01:34:11,880 --> 01:34:17,679 Speaker 3: you know, intentionally or unintentionally, you know, especially if they're trying. 1838 01:34:18,439 --> 01:34:22,519 Speaker 3: You know, you can't trust everybody, and Lord knows, everybody 1839 01:34:22,560 --> 01:34:26,640 Speaker 3: don't mean it. So I hope for Azalea's sake that 1840 01:34:26,760 --> 01:34:31,160 Speaker 3: she really is serious and you know, and that I 1841 01:34:31,280 --> 01:34:33,080 Speaker 3: hope she don't be in the news for some crazy 1842 01:34:33,120 --> 01:34:35,000 Speaker 3: shit next week. You know, I really do hope that 1843 01:34:36,640 --> 01:34:39,720 Speaker 3: she could, because I think everybody that read those things 1844 01:34:39,800 --> 01:34:42,000 Speaker 3: she said about people, we all had the same feeling 1845 01:34:42,080 --> 01:34:45,400 Speaker 3: of this isn't It's like Cornell West, this isn't really 1846 01:34:45,479 --> 01:34:46,160 Speaker 3: what this is about? 1847 01:34:47,000 --> 01:34:47,479 Speaker 2: Something else? 1848 01:34:47,600 --> 01:34:50,960 Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, like you know, I remember on Twitter 1849 01:34:51,080 --> 01:34:55,280 Speaker 3: she was like yah ya ya yeah when fucking Beyonce 1850 01:34:55,479 --> 01:34:58,040 Speaker 3: dropped Formation and shit, and then within an hour or 1851 01:34:58,080 --> 01:35:00,120 Speaker 3: so she was like, and this is why Beyonce And 1852 01:35:00,200 --> 01:35:02,200 Speaker 3: it was like, so do you want attention? 1853 01:35:02,560 --> 01:35:02,760 Speaker 4: Do you? 1854 01:35:03,320 --> 01:35:03,439 Speaker 3: Are? 1855 01:35:03,479 --> 01:35:03,519 Speaker 6: You? 1856 01:35:03,640 --> 01:35:06,960 Speaker 3: Machin't called you? Like, what what is it that that's 1857 01:35:07,040 --> 01:35:08,640 Speaker 3: missing in your life that will make you turn this 1858 01:35:08,760 --> 01:35:11,640 Speaker 3: way on somebody that you clearly admire, But now you, 1859 01:35:11,920 --> 01:35:13,599 Speaker 3: for some reason, you want to pretend that you don't 1860 01:35:13,720 --> 01:35:17,080 Speaker 3: for who's benefit hours, you know, for the attention, for 1861 01:35:17,160 --> 01:35:17,439 Speaker 3: the fight. 1862 01:35:17,560 --> 01:35:17,920 Speaker 2: I don't know. 1863 01:35:18,120 --> 01:35:21,439 Speaker 3: I really don't have an answer, but it was obvious 1864 01:35:21,479 --> 01:35:23,160 Speaker 3: that it wasn't because of some ship she did. She's 1865 01:35:23,200 --> 01:35:29,280 Speaker 3: not concerned with you. Umar Johnson announced that he's under 1866 01:35:29,280 --> 01:35:31,320 Speaker 3: investigation for his hotel hogwarts. 1867 01:35:31,600 --> 01:35:33,960 Speaker 2: Shout out to the Root dot com for writing this article. 1868 01:35:35,880 --> 01:35:38,080 Speaker 2: But yeah, he is. 1869 01:35:40,880 --> 01:35:43,120 Speaker 3: It has been I believe it's been confirmed that he 1870 01:35:43,280 --> 01:35:46,720 Speaker 3: is indeed a doctor. I remember the ran An article saying, Hey, 1871 01:35:46,880 --> 01:35:50,120 Speaker 3: this dude is actually a doctor according to some source. Right, 1872 01:35:51,080 --> 01:35:53,320 Speaker 3: they still got jokes and they still fucking with him 1873 01:35:53,320 --> 01:35:55,719 Speaker 3: about it, which I don't care because it's doctor Umar 1874 01:35:56,040 --> 01:36:01,240 Speaker 3: and that motherfucker is anti lgbt Q, anti black woman. 1875 01:36:02,400 --> 01:36:04,840 Speaker 3: He's anti science, a bunch of shit, and I don't 1876 01:36:04,880 --> 01:36:07,880 Speaker 3: think what he does is good for anybody, and it 1877 01:36:08,040 --> 01:36:11,280 Speaker 3: is dangerous because he literally did rip off a bunch 1878 01:36:11,360 --> 01:36:13,920 Speaker 3: of poor black people to start a school that he 1879 01:36:13,960 --> 01:36:16,639 Speaker 3: ain't never gonna start. Well, if he would have started 1880 01:36:16,680 --> 01:36:18,640 Speaker 3: the school, he would have been teaching what exactly to 1881 01:36:18,720 --> 01:36:23,559 Speaker 3: these little black boys, more homophobia, more black girls, all 1882 01:36:23,600 --> 01:36:27,639 Speaker 3: the problem with everybody, you know, more anti science bullshit. 1883 01:36:28,479 --> 01:36:28,720 Speaker 4: It was. 1884 01:36:28,920 --> 01:36:29,559 Speaker 2: It's not good. 1885 01:36:31,120 --> 01:36:36,240 Speaker 3: So yeah, he's had his credentials question enough that he 1886 01:36:36,520 --> 01:36:44,960 Speaker 3: it is now being investigated whether or not he whether 1887 01:36:45,080 --> 01:36:48,360 Speaker 3: or not he won stole that money, didn't refund the 1888 01:36:48,400 --> 01:36:50,360 Speaker 3: money he collected from the school that he was supposed 1889 01:36:50,400 --> 01:36:53,880 Speaker 3: to have, and if his uh, if he should still 1890 01:36:53,880 --> 01:36:57,240 Speaker 3: have his degree, because if you're using that degree to 1891 01:36:57,360 --> 01:37:01,000 Speaker 3: spread some bullshit, I mean, it should. 1892 01:37:00,760 --> 01:37:02,320 Speaker 2: Be questioned, you know. 1893 01:37:02,400 --> 01:37:04,080 Speaker 3: And I saw, you know, he of course tried to 1894 01:37:04,080 --> 01:37:07,200 Speaker 3: turn this into these coons trying to take take me. 1895 01:37:07,280 --> 01:37:10,800 Speaker 2: Down University it went into investigation run. 1896 01:37:10,840 --> 01:37:14,600 Speaker 3: If black people brought it to the university or Pennsylvania 1897 01:37:14,640 --> 01:37:18,800 Speaker 3: State boards awareness, I don't care, Like this literally would 1898 01:37:18,840 --> 01:37:20,360 Speaker 3: be better for black people for him not to have 1899 01:37:20,479 --> 01:37:23,160 Speaker 3: a degree and not to be getting paid to spread 1900 01:37:23,240 --> 01:37:27,880 Speaker 3: falsehoods and bigotry. It's not okay, it is not. It's 1901 01:37:28,200 --> 01:37:30,360 Speaker 3: like you know what I mean, Like that's not good 1902 01:37:30,439 --> 01:37:35,200 Speaker 3: for anybody on any level. So yeah, he but of 1903 01:37:35,280 --> 01:37:37,240 Speaker 3: course he posed it as these coons trying to take 1904 01:37:37,320 --> 01:37:40,920 Speaker 3: me down. I've been ordered to stand trialing Harrisburg, PA 1905 01:37:41,080 --> 01:37:44,439 Speaker 3: on January eighth, twenty eighteen, before the Border Psychology to 1906 01:37:44,479 --> 01:37:47,639 Speaker 3: be stripped of my school psychology credential as a result 1907 01:37:47,720 --> 01:37:50,479 Speaker 3: of constant complaints for members of my race pleading to 1908 01:37:50,600 --> 01:37:53,960 Speaker 3: the white man via phone email to bring an into 1909 01:37:54,000 --> 01:37:59,599 Speaker 3: my professional career. You ridiculous and grace have achieved your goal. Yeah, 1910 01:37:59,720 --> 01:38:02,920 Speaker 3: well that's that's how it goes when you you know 1911 01:38:04,000 --> 01:38:06,960 Speaker 3: are antiscience homophobic. 1912 01:38:07,520 --> 01:38:08,040 Speaker 6: Yeah, and. 1913 01:38:09,640 --> 01:38:10,760 Speaker 3: All the massage noir yea. 1914 01:38:10,840 --> 01:38:13,360 Speaker 4: And it may even been some of your own people 1915 01:38:13,439 --> 01:38:15,720 Speaker 4: within the university like you might not you know, it 1916 01:38:15,800 --> 01:38:18,440 Speaker 4: might not always be just random black black folks. 1917 01:38:18,479 --> 01:38:21,280 Speaker 3: Hero on Instagram. Sometimes I ask myself, why did I 1918 01:38:21,360 --> 01:38:24,560 Speaker 3: start this campaign? I'm ready to return all my donations 1919 01:38:24,640 --> 01:38:27,880 Speaker 3: and move to Africa with a k and effort to 1920 01:38:28,040 --> 01:38:30,920 Speaker 3: give our boys at school they deserve. I've had countless 1921 01:38:31,000 --> 01:38:34,240 Speaker 3: coons consistently harassed white people in the power structure until 1922 01:38:34,240 --> 01:38:36,640 Speaker 3: they decide to strip me and my credentials, arrest my 1923 01:38:36,760 --> 01:38:39,920 Speaker 3: fund and audit me. Hundreds of phone calls to my degree, 1924 01:38:40,000 --> 01:38:44,080 Speaker 3: granding institutions, harassing them about my credentials, and the same 1925 01:38:44,200 --> 01:38:46,799 Speaker 3: questions over and over again on every radio show, countless 1926 01:38:46,800 --> 01:38:50,200 Speaker 3: social network jokes and campaigns to diminish the credibility of 1927 01:38:50,280 --> 01:38:53,360 Speaker 3: one man. Black parents can count on to assist free 1928 01:38:54,200 --> 01:38:58,040 Speaker 3: with saving their children. Assist for free with saving their 1929 01:38:58,120 --> 01:39:01,600 Speaker 3: children with the mental health and miseducation systems. This is 1930 01:39:01,920 --> 01:39:04,360 Speaker 3: the thanks I get to help him save a generation 1931 01:39:04,520 --> 01:39:07,439 Speaker 3: of black boys. Keep in mind, he also is a 1932 01:39:07,520 --> 01:39:11,800 Speaker 3: person that says black boys don't have like black kids 1933 01:39:11,800 --> 01:39:15,800 Speaker 3: don't have adhd that's just made up on top of 1934 01:39:15,800 --> 01:39:18,680 Speaker 3: all the betrayals. I have my own father join in 1935 01:39:18,800 --> 01:39:21,439 Speaker 3: on the fund. This Quanta tour will be my farewell 1936 01:39:21,520 --> 01:39:24,240 Speaker 3: conscious community tour for a while. I'm taking a break 1937 01:39:24,240 --> 01:39:27,160 Speaker 3: from social network as well. I need to take care 1938 01:39:27,200 --> 01:39:28,840 Speaker 3: of me now. I will be pushing for the school 1939 01:39:28,920 --> 01:39:32,120 Speaker 3: until my detracted successfully kill that campaign. Also, whether we 1940 01:39:32,240 --> 01:39:34,479 Speaker 3: succeed or fail, just know that my intention of honorable. 1941 01:39:34,520 --> 01:39:36,880 Speaker 3: I try my best. This is another victory for the 1942 01:39:36,960 --> 01:39:37,759 Speaker 3: mentallyest slave. 1943 01:39:39,720 --> 01:39:45,080 Speaker 2: Yeah. Like I said, I personally do not feel that 1944 01:39:46,840 --> 01:39:49,200 Speaker 2: this dude needs to be protected or defended in any way. 1945 01:39:49,760 --> 01:39:53,240 Speaker 3: I saw a couple people trying to find a way 1946 01:39:53,400 --> 01:39:55,280 Speaker 3: to defend him and trying to find a way to 1947 01:39:55,360 --> 01:39:57,960 Speaker 3: frame it as he you know, we just need to. 1948 01:39:58,200 --> 01:40:00,920 Speaker 2: Not say anything and let him just do his thing 1949 01:40:01,040 --> 01:40:03,000 Speaker 2: on the internet and he'll go away. 1950 01:40:03,320 --> 01:40:06,880 Speaker 3: No, he won't. And if we don't challenge these ideas 1951 01:40:06,880 --> 01:40:09,560 Speaker 3: within the community, because his idea is spread and I 1952 01:40:09,640 --> 01:40:14,080 Speaker 3: see people propagating his ideas throughout the dias daspara all 1953 01:40:14,160 --> 01:40:17,280 Speaker 3: the time, you know, and it is alluring. 1954 01:40:17,439 --> 01:40:19,160 Speaker 2: We have had people come up to us and be 1955 01:40:19,280 --> 01:40:20,960 Speaker 2: like I used to listen to this and I used 1956 01:40:20,960 --> 01:40:21,519 Speaker 2: to listen to that. 1957 01:40:21,920 --> 01:40:23,680 Speaker 3: And I and it's because of y'all that I kind 1958 01:40:23,720 --> 01:40:26,800 Speaker 3: of understood how harmful those things were and y'all helped 1959 01:40:26,880 --> 01:40:29,000 Speaker 3: me to see that that was wrong. And I'm gonna 1960 01:40:29,000 --> 01:40:31,040 Speaker 3: continue to do that every fucking day that we do 1961 01:40:31,160 --> 01:40:34,240 Speaker 3: this show, because it is important that we get as many, 1962 01:40:34,680 --> 01:40:38,680 Speaker 3: especially SIS had black men, off of that fucking bullshit 1963 01:40:38,840 --> 01:40:39,479 Speaker 3: as we can. 1964 01:40:40,479 --> 01:40:41,760 Speaker 2: Okay, we have to do it. 1965 01:40:41,840 --> 01:40:46,120 Speaker 3: It's our responsibility. It's my responsibility, you know. I don't 1966 01:40:46,200 --> 01:40:48,559 Speaker 3: need to have other brothers over there thinking that that's 1967 01:40:48,680 --> 01:40:51,360 Speaker 3: a viable, just an alternative way of thinking when you're 1968 01:40:51,439 --> 01:40:54,080 Speaker 3: literally talking about the humanity of our fellow brothers and 1969 01:40:54,160 --> 01:40:59,360 Speaker 3: sisters and gendernized binary people like we like. 1970 01:40:59,640 --> 01:41:01,760 Speaker 2: It can just be a difference of opinion. When it 1971 01:41:01,800 --> 01:41:05,400 Speaker 2: comes to people's humanity, someone has to be drawn and 1972 01:41:05,520 --> 01:41:07,519 Speaker 2: that dude is that dude is an. 1973 01:41:07,439 --> 01:41:14,560 Speaker 3: Example of someone who uh allows a harmful, toxic mentality 1974 01:41:15,240 --> 01:41:18,479 Speaker 3: to be spread in our community. Man, it's not good 1975 01:41:18,560 --> 01:41:21,439 Speaker 3: for us, you know, there's a there's a ton of 1976 01:41:21,479 --> 01:41:23,040 Speaker 3: shit that ain't good for us. But I know for 1977 01:41:23,120 --> 01:41:25,960 Speaker 3: a fact that ain't good for us, you know, And 1978 01:41:26,080 --> 01:41:27,760 Speaker 3: I can think about more than one thing at a time. 1979 01:41:27,880 --> 01:41:32,680 Speaker 3: So yeah, I absolutely hope that, uh they get that 1980 01:41:32,840 --> 01:41:35,360 Speaker 3: money back to and it should go back to those 1981 01:41:35,400 --> 01:41:37,680 Speaker 3: people because that money could have went to something that 1982 01:41:37,720 --> 01:41:42,200 Speaker 3: actually helped their community. Like there's been years. They what school? 1983 01:41:42,280 --> 01:41:45,400 Speaker 3: It's been years. You ain't even start nothing, you know, 1984 01:41:45,760 --> 01:41:48,280 Speaker 3: like what the fuck is the plan? You know for 1985 01:41:48,400 --> 01:41:51,360 Speaker 3: you to do another tour and they keep that money? 1986 01:41:53,160 --> 01:41:55,040 Speaker 2: Sorry, cant running the scam. 1987 01:41:55,600 --> 01:41:57,519 Speaker 4: And you know, it's also one of these things too, 1988 01:41:57,680 --> 01:42:00,519 Speaker 4: to where yes, people can demand what they money is 1989 01:42:00,640 --> 01:42:02,320 Speaker 4: and what are you doing with it because they gave 1990 01:42:02,400 --> 01:42:03,360 Speaker 4: it to you for a purpose. 1991 01:42:04,000 --> 01:42:07,160 Speaker 3: Yeah, it's it's GoFundMe. Trust and Safety reached out to 1992 01:42:07,240 --> 01:42:11,160 Speaker 3: him to say, hey, this shit looks scamworthy. What's going 1993 01:42:11,240 --> 01:42:14,439 Speaker 3: on with this? You know, to say we're gonna suspend 1994 01:42:14,439 --> 01:42:17,080 Speaker 3: your accounting forty eight hours. This is all according to 1995 01:42:17,160 --> 01:42:20,639 Speaker 3: him from his his the pictures he posted on social media. 1996 01:42:20,680 --> 01:42:26,000 Speaker 3: Then he posted a picture of Rosa Parks being arrested 1997 01:42:26,920 --> 01:42:31,960 Speaker 3: as a way of promoting him himself, as I guess 1998 01:42:32,000 --> 01:42:39,599 Speaker 3: as if he's Rosa Parks, that's not the same anyway. Yeah, 1999 01:42:39,680 --> 01:42:46,400 Speaker 3: I hope it does get get revoked because that's he's 2000 01:42:46,479 --> 01:42:51,280 Speaker 3: using that degree to basically to lie to people and 2001 01:42:51,360 --> 01:42:53,880 Speaker 3: get people to do fucked up shit. And this isn't 2002 01:42:53,880 --> 01:42:56,479 Speaker 3: about a personal ven debt. I don't know this dude, 2003 01:42:57,120 --> 01:42:59,559 Speaker 3: but I've seen the damage he's done within our community, 2004 01:42:59,600 --> 01:43:03,280 Speaker 3: and I've seen people act like it's just a difference 2005 01:43:03,320 --> 01:43:05,360 Speaker 3: of opinion, and the same way I feel about the 2006 01:43:05,439 --> 01:43:08,120 Speaker 3: alt right, I feel about hotel dudes like that too. 2007 01:43:09,160 --> 01:43:12,080 Speaker 3: And someone wrote an email in to us, and maybe 2008 01:43:12,120 --> 01:43:13,880 Speaker 3: we'll get to a Saturday or not, she says, she 2009 01:43:13,960 --> 01:43:16,160 Speaker 3: haven't been listening for a long time. We've discussed this before, 2010 01:43:16,240 --> 01:43:18,920 Speaker 3: when Mark Lamont Hill brought up the idea using the 2011 01:43:18,960 --> 01:43:26,439 Speaker 3: word hotel to describe these massage noir, homophobic, bigoted black 2012 01:43:26,520 --> 01:43:30,800 Speaker 3: men who just want white patriarchy for themselves. We will 2013 01:43:30,800 --> 01:43:34,560 Speaker 3: continue to use that term. It's not a slur. This 2014 01:43:34,720 --> 01:43:38,479 Speaker 3: is what they refer to themselves as I feel. You know, 2015 01:43:38,640 --> 01:43:42,800 Speaker 3: if the good hoteps, whoever they are, whatever that means, 2016 01:43:43,120 --> 01:43:44,839 Speaker 3: I've never really met a good hotel. 2017 01:43:46,280 --> 01:43:48,080 Speaker 2: If they want to fight that battle and get their 2018 01:43:48,160 --> 01:43:49,320 Speaker 2: turn back, they need to. 2019 01:43:49,320 --> 01:43:51,240 Speaker 3: Go out here and start facing these battles and taking 2020 01:43:51,280 --> 01:43:53,439 Speaker 3: these men down in the name of hotel free or 2021 01:43:53,479 --> 01:43:54,519 Speaker 3: whatever it is they believe. 2022 01:43:54,920 --> 01:43:56,479 Speaker 2: They need to go and fight for that name. 2023 01:43:56,560 --> 01:43:57,960 Speaker 3: But I'm not gonna be the one to fight for 2024 01:43:58,040 --> 01:44:00,240 Speaker 3: it on their behalf, because I've never met somebody they 2025 01:44:00,320 --> 01:44:03,160 Speaker 3: called themselves a hotep that wasn't just like these niggas. 2026 01:44:03,920 --> 01:44:06,559 Speaker 2: So they gotta they have a pr battle on their hands, 2027 01:44:07,520 --> 01:44:07,720 Speaker 2: you know. 2028 01:44:09,280 --> 01:44:09,320 Speaker 7: So. 2029 01:44:09,479 --> 01:44:11,040 Speaker 3: And I don't mean that, and I don't mean that 2030 01:44:11,120 --> 01:44:13,800 Speaker 3: to be dismissive or angry towards you or anything. I 2031 01:44:13,920 --> 01:44:17,840 Speaker 3: just mean it sincerely. These niggas. This isn't us taking 2032 01:44:17,920 --> 01:44:19,840 Speaker 3: a turn that's not meant for that and calling them 2033 01:44:19,920 --> 01:44:22,080 Speaker 3: something they don't want to be called. Right, these niggas 2034 01:44:22,120 --> 01:44:24,560 Speaker 3: come to you and say, I'm a hotep, what's going on, 2035 01:44:24,680 --> 01:44:28,920 Speaker 3: fellow hotel? What my hoteps at? And then about this 2036 01:44:29,160 --> 01:44:32,200 Speaker 3: this ship that is anti everything I believe in. So 2037 01:44:33,360 --> 01:44:34,960 Speaker 3: that's where that that's where we're at with that, And 2038 01:44:35,160 --> 01:44:37,160 Speaker 3: like I said, I continue, I will continue to call 2039 01:44:37,240 --> 01:44:43,720 Speaker 3: them uh hotels because fuck that ship. All right, Let's see, 2040 01:44:44,280 --> 01:44:48,040 Speaker 3: there's enough news. Maybe we can do uh definitely, no 2041 01:44:48,120 --> 01:44:52,040 Speaker 3: fucking black people. Let me see how about. 2042 01:44:53,280 --> 01:44:55,840 Speaker 2: You know what, how about white people news. Let's do it. 2043 01:44:55,920 --> 01:44:57,720 Speaker 3: It's just some white people news and then we'll get 2044 01:44:57,760 --> 01:45:00,120 Speaker 3: out of here. That'll be a nice way to in 2045 01:45:00,200 --> 01:45:09,880 Speaker 3: the show pull up a song. Uh, let's see, how 2046 01:45:10,000 --> 01:45:15,519 Speaker 3: about how about this one? 2047 01:45:16,280 --> 01:45:21,000 Speaker 2: All right? White People News is brought to you by 2048 01:45:21,120 --> 01:45:22,080 Speaker 2: Legal Equalizer. 2049 01:45:22,520 --> 01:45:22,960 Speaker 5: Mm hmm. 2050 01:45:23,200 --> 01:45:27,000 Speaker 3: That's right, y'all. 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Keep no, I'll never leave 2077 01:47:19,840 --> 01:47:29,040 Speaker 6: him on my misura because I need some afoulture. Yeah, 2078 01:47:29,720 --> 01:47:33,960 Speaker 6: I'm just creeping on, said they supper. 2079 01:47:38,520 --> 01:47:46,560 Speaker 2: Yeah, he pronounce it too clearly. Boo this Remember it 2080 01:47:46,640 --> 01:47:54,640 Speaker 2: is the favorite podcast of Living Color. They were not 2081 01:47:54,720 --> 01:47:57,080 Speaker 2: approve of her singing. I sing better than noun than this. 2082 01:48:00,200 --> 01:48:03,960 Speaker 2: You know, Corey gloves go sing alone. He said he's 2083 01:48:04,000 --> 01:48:05,800 Speaker 2: had a lot of help, a lot better than she does. 2084 01:48:05,880 --> 01:48:07,719 Speaker 2: Do I rather hear him sing his song. 2085 01:48:08,040 --> 01:48:11,120 Speaker 5: Change bogain cuz. 2086 01:48:13,080 --> 01:48:13,479 Speaker 2: Shame. 2087 01:48:14,160 --> 01:48:16,400 Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I keep. 2088 01:48:17,880 --> 01:48:20,360 Speaker 2: I know he's gonna want to a bush shaking his 2089 01:48:20,439 --> 01:48:21,599 Speaker 2: head at this white woman. 2090 01:48:25,560 --> 01:48:27,160 Speaker 5: If he knew those things down. 2091 01:48:30,240 --> 01:48:39,160 Speaker 2: I used to keep him. Yeah, keep it on the dialog. 2092 01:48:39,560 --> 01:48:47,840 Speaker 3: There's nobody else supposed and no yeah so high great, Yeah, love. 2093 01:48:49,880 --> 01:48:54,080 Speaker 2: Got do that brock carry on them were like Mariah Curry. 2094 01:48:56,439 --> 01:49:03,519 Speaker 2: Oh why not Mariah Curry because you make her sound 2095 01:49:03,560 --> 01:49:10,960 Speaker 2: like she's season No Ron Steph Curry, thank you? Oh 2096 01:49:13,520 --> 01:49:16,439 Speaker 2: good job, Michelle. That was no, that was Michelle G. 2097 01:49:16,600 --> 01:49:19,680 Speaker 3: Music dot com. You guys want more more of what 2098 01:49:19,800 --> 01:49:20,639 Speaker 3: we just heard there. 2099 01:49:21,439 --> 01:49:24,560 Speaker 2: I'm assuming many of you guys can't wait to hit Michelle. 2100 01:49:24,280 --> 01:49:24,840 Speaker 3: G dot com. 2101 01:49:25,040 --> 01:49:29,000 Speaker 2: I do not miss nop Okay, all right, well let's 2102 01:49:29,000 --> 01:49:30,160 Speaker 2: get the white people new guys. 2103 01:49:30,520 --> 01:49:34,880 Speaker 3: See these folk up to million dollar listing star Josh 2104 01:49:34,960 --> 01:49:38,240 Speaker 3: Autman and his brother Matt Autman and real estate firm 2105 01:49:38,280 --> 01:49:40,599 Speaker 3: are being sued for three point seven million for steering 2106 01:49:40,680 --> 01:49:42,160 Speaker 3: the client in the wrong direction. 2107 01:49:42,720 --> 01:49:46,000 Speaker 2: Oh shit, Now you better enjoy this. Why you can, 2108 01:49:46,080 --> 01:49:49,320 Speaker 2: because Trump gonna be like y'all can't suit nobody. Mm hmm. 2109 01:49:49,560 --> 01:49:53,240 Speaker 3: I've heard of one direction, but the wrong direction. That 2110 01:49:53,439 --> 01:49:56,240 Speaker 3: is not what I want to invest in A three 2111 01:49:56,280 --> 01:49:59,760 Speaker 3: million dollars too, that's a that's a grip. Homy Uh. 2112 01:50:00,760 --> 01:50:00,960 Speaker 2: Yeah. 2113 01:50:01,360 --> 01:50:05,120 Speaker 3: They're being sued and their real estate firm as well, 2114 01:50:05,600 --> 01:50:08,080 Speaker 3: for three point seven million dollars for allegedly's climb in 2115 01:50:08,120 --> 01:50:10,000 Speaker 3: a wrong direction during the twenty twelve cel. 2116 01:50:11,040 --> 01:50:12,760 Speaker 2: The federal court documents attained man. 2117 01:50:12,840 --> 01:50:16,880 Speaker 3: You know what, the Home and Guarden Network or whatever, 2118 01:50:16,960 --> 01:50:18,639 Speaker 3: they starting to have their own little scandals. 2119 01:50:18,640 --> 01:50:19,679 Speaker 2: They starting to get up there. 2120 01:50:19,560 --> 01:50:23,200 Speaker 4: With age, right, because then that other couple, right, they 2121 01:50:23,280 --> 01:50:24,280 Speaker 4: got divorced and stuff. 2122 01:50:24,479 --> 01:50:28,280 Speaker 2: Right, there's two couples. Oh another one. Yeah, remember one 2123 01:50:28,800 --> 01:50:31,160 Speaker 2: was the with a husband and the wife. 2124 01:50:31,280 --> 01:50:33,519 Speaker 4: The white people, well they all white, but the husband 2125 01:50:33,560 --> 01:50:35,599 Speaker 4: and the wife were doing the show. And I think 2126 01:50:35,680 --> 01:50:38,200 Speaker 4: they got divorced. But I think he did the outside 2127 01:50:38,240 --> 01:50:41,960 Speaker 4: and she did the inside, and then it was I'm 2128 01:50:41,960 --> 01:50:43,960 Speaker 4: gonna say, this is a different couple. Yeah, it is 2129 01:50:44,040 --> 01:50:45,360 Speaker 4: a completely different couple. 2130 01:50:45,520 --> 01:50:48,640 Speaker 2: Same thing. They end up getting the vorce. I think 2131 01:50:48,680 --> 01:50:50,439 Speaker 2: they're still doing shows well. 2132 01:50:50,520 --> 01:50:53,360 Speaker 3: The federal court documents attained by page six on Wednesday, 2133 01:50:53,439 --> 01:50:57,040 Speaker 3: Pete Peter Clydman named Autman thirty eight, his brother Matt 2134 01:50:57,280 --> 01:51:01,280 Speaker 3: forty one, and Hilton, Hot and Highland in the suit 2135 01:51:01,439 --> 01:51:04,720 Speaker 3: that was filed last January. Cliveman claimed in the suit 2136 01:51:04,800 --> 01:51:08,720 Speaker 3: that he gave Hilton and Holland, the firm where the 2137 01:51:08,880 --> 01:51:12,240 Speaker 3: Altman's work at the time, listening for the home in 2138 01:51:12,360 --> 01:51:14,560 Speaker 3: December twenty twelve, but he was forced to file for 2139 01:51:14,640 --> 01:51:18,479 Speaker 3: bankruptcy two months later. A year later, the firm sold 2140 01:51:18,520 --> 01:51:20,519 Speaker 3: his home for five point three million, and the firm 2141 01:51:20,560 --> 01:51:23,320 Speaker 3: represented both the buyer and Peter in the deal. Matt 2142 01:51:23,320 --> 01:51:25,960 Speaker 3: and Josh only represented the buyer and the suit Climbing 2143 01:51:26,000 --> 01:51:29,280 Speaker 3: alleged that once the buyer brought brought his property, he 2144 01:51:29,320 --> 01:51:30,760 Speaker 3: flipped the home for a profit of. 2145 01:51:30,720 --> 01:51:32,320 Speaker 2: At least ten million dollars whoo. 2146 01:51:33,640 --> 01:51:35,679 Speaker 3: But the suit claims Hilton and Holland and the Altmis 2147 01:51:35,800 --> 01:51:38,040 Speaker 3: did not disclose their knowledge of the two different valuations 2148 01:51:38,080 --> 01:51:40,559 Speaker 3: because they were allied far more strongly to the buyer. 2149 01:51:40,960 --> 01:51:43,479 Speaker 3: Cliven claimed if he knew he could sell his home 2150 01:51:43,520 --> 01:51:45,720 Speaker 3: for higher value, he would likely have been selling it 2151 01:51:46,520 --> 01:51:48,720 Speaker 3: unwilling to sell it for five point three million. He 2152 01:51:48,920 --> 01:51:51,400 Speaker 3: is asking the court to cancel the residential listing agreement 2153 01:51:51,479 --> 01:51:56,320 Speaker 3: they made and seeking an undisclosed amount of damages. The 2154 01:51:56,400 --> 01:51:58,320 Speaker 3: atmists have asked the court to dismiss the suit, but 2155 01:51:58,400 --> 01:52:01,120 Speaker 3: cliveban filed a mended complain to continue the case on 2156 01:52:01,240 --> 01:52:04,000 Speaker 3: December eleventh. Fortunately, and unfortunately, when you're at the top 2157 01:52:04,000 --> 01:52:06,320 Speaker 3: of the real estate game, you're a target for frivolous lawsuits, 2158 01:52:06,360 --> 01:52:09,320 Speaker 3: the Altman brother said. The appoints claim Clydman had his 2159 01:52:09,439 --> 01:52:11,920 Speaker 3: own agent and they represented the buyer. The seller was 2160 01:52:11,960 --> 01:52:14,320 Speaker 3: in bankruptcy and asked the court to approve the sale 2161 01:52:14,360 --> 01:52:16,760 Speaker 3: so that he can pay his creditors. Our buyer gout 2162 01:52:16,800 --> 01:52:19,000 Speaker 3: at the house at a great cost and sold it 2163 01:52:19,160 --> 01:52:20,800 Speaker 3: over a year later for a huge profit. 2164 01:52:20,880 --> 01:52:24,360 Speaker 2: The case is still open. M. That's some white treachery 2165 01:52:24,479 --> 01:52:25,200 Speaker 2: right there, ain't it? 2166 01:52:25,280 --> 01:52:25,479 Speaker 4: Though? 2167 01:52:25,720 --> 01:52:28,840 Speaker 3: I think them Outmans was lying, Oh you think they 2168 01:52:28,960 --> 01:52:30,680 Speaker 3: tell the truth? M. 2169 01:52:31,120 --> 01:52:33,080 Speaker 2: It's money involved. You don't never know doubt? 2170 01:52:35,240 --> 01:52:39,000 Speaker 3: Uh See the hilarious Christmas gift Jennifer Lawrence gave her 2171 01:52:39,120 --> 01:52:41,200 Speaker 3: BFF Chris Jenner. 2172 01:52:42,960 --> 01:52:44,800 Speaker 5: Oh the bff' So I did. 2173 01:52:44,760 --> 01:52:47,640 Speaker 2: Not know this? How many BFFs does j Long have 2174 01:52:48,040 --> 01:52:50,040 Speaker 2: a lot? I thought hearing Taylor. 2175 01:52:49,840 --> 01:52:50,920 Speaker 3: Swift was bfls? 2176 01:52:51,680 --> 01:52:54,599 Speaker 2: The hell is this shit? Wait till Tay take get 2177 01:52:54,640 --> 01:52:55,120 Speaker 2: a whif of this. 2178 01:52:57,040 --> 01:52:59,759 Speaker 3: Jennifer lawrence obsession over keeping up with the car dashians 2179 01:52:59,760 --> 01:53:02,560 Speaker 3: has the too a closer friendship with Chris Jenner, so 2180 01:53:02,760 --> 01:53:06,519 Speaker 3: close in fact that she, oh wait, what happened to my? Okay, 2181 01:53:06,920 --> 01:53:09,800 Speaker 3: so close in fact that she gave the mamager a 2182 01:53:09,920 --> 01:53:12,920 Speaker 3: car for Christmas? What sort of Chris sixty two revealed 2183 01:53:12,960 --> 01:53:16,120 Speaker 3: all on Instagram, posting a shot of the holiday president. 2184 01:53:16,240 --> 01:53:19,360 Speaker 2: Look at them. They in the bed together, all wrapped 2185 01:53:19,439 --> 01:53:20,799 Speaker 2: up reading books and stuff. 2186 01:53:21,960 --> 01:53:25,600 Speaker 3: My bff jenn hashtag Jennifer Lawrence asked me what I 2187 01:53:25,720 --> 01:53:27,960 Speaker 3: wanted for Christmas, and of course I said a Porsche. 2188 01:53:28,080 --> 01:53:29,120 Speaker 2: Duh, my girl. 2189 01:53:29,160 --> 01:53:31,559 Speaker 3: Didn't disappoint Chris ro Of course, instead of getting christ 2190 01:53:31,600 --> 01:53:34,600 Speaker 3: a actual Porsch, Lawrence gifted a toy win with that 2191 01:53:34,720 --> 01:53:36,960 Speaker 3: was a perfect fit. Next to the mother of six 2192 01:53:37,120 --> 01:53:40,720 Speaker 3: is beloved giant metal and glass red polar bear named 2193 01:53:40,800 --> 01:53:44,240 Speaker 3: Christmas and her elegant four your decorated with rainbow theme 2194 01:53:44,280 --> 01:53:45,440 Speaker 3: decord for the holidays. 2195 01:53:45,600 --> 01:53:48,360 Speaker 5: Oh that's cute. Oh that that's precioust. 2196 01:53:48,840 --> 01:53:50,920 Speaker 2: Thank you, Jen, I love you, Chris said. 2197 01:53:51,000 --> 01:53:58,360 Speaker 3: Hashtag BFFs Forever, hashtag Christmas surprise, hashtag j long, hashtag so. 2198 01:53:58,439 --> 01:54:02,000 Speaker 2: Excited she did. Car probably costs more than the regular 2199 01:54:02,040 --> 01:54:07,200 Speaker 2: ass carter. That little mini push mm hm, well maybe 2200 01:54:08,240 --> 01:54:14,000 Speaker 2: North can drive it like it's drivable. Oh yes, drive 2201 01:54:14,160 --> 01:54:17,160 Speaker 2: that little thing. You know, you got dreams, you got 2202 01:54:17,600 --> 01:54:21,920 Speaker 2: you nen't gotta get no license rain Penelope Saint North, 2203 01:54:22,000 --> 01:54:23,679 Speaker 2: I mean, who knows? 2204 01:54:23,840 --> 01:54:25,720 Speaker 3: And they got a couple more sound like on the way, 2205 01:54:26,760 --> 01:54:30,000 Speaker 3: just full of children, full of I was gonna say, 2206 01:54:30,040 --> 01:54:33,720 Speaker 3: black sea. But yes, children, it's correct. That's also acceptable 2207 01:54:33,760 --> 01:54:37,879 Speaker 3: answer speaking of being speaking of a gut full of blackness. 2208 01:54:38,520 --> 01:54:43,120 Speaker 3: Collie Jenner might be pregnant and alone. Oh, Travis Scott 2209 01:54:43,160 --> 01:54:49,280 Speaker 3: reportedly leaves after a fight. Mm mm mm hmmm. Inside 2210 01:54:49,320 --> 01:54:51,840 Speaker 3: of say the twenty year old Collie Jenner might be 2211 01:54:51,920 --> 01:54:53,480 Speaker 3: a single mom if the pregnancy. 2212 01:54:53,200 --> 01:54:55,960 Speaker 2: Room was a true The cosmetics Mogo. 2213 01:54:55,720 --> 01:54:58,680 Speaker 3: Reportedly had a blowout fight with a boyfriend Travis Scott, 2214 01:54:59,080 --> 01:55:01,919 Speaker 3: and friends say the rap walked out without resolving anything. 2215 01:55:03,400 --> 01:55:04,440 Speaker 2: I like Travis Scott too. 2216 01:55:04,520 --> 01:55:07,840 Speaker 3: That's sad. They k kid man. According to a report 2217 01:55:07,880 --> 01:55:10,840 Speaker 3: by Okay Magazine via Hollywood Life, an anonymous source close 2218 01:55:10,880 --> 01:55:12,840 Speaker 3: to Jenner and Scott said the two have been going 2219 01:55:12,880 --> 01:55:14,600 Speaker 3: distant due to Scott's constant torring. 2220 01:55:14,400 --> 01:55:17,480 Speaker 2: Schedule in Rockstar Lifestyle. Even before the alleged. 2221 01:55:17,160 --> 01:55:20,040 Speaker 3: Fight, Jenna was concerned that she'd be raising their child 2222 01:55:20,080 --> 01:55:22,640 Speaker 3: on her own while Scott was. Scott continued to wrap 2223 01:55:22,720 --> 01:55:24,840 Speaker 3: on the road. It seemed like he just wants to 2224 01:55:24,920 --> 01:55:27,240 Speaker 3: have fun with his friends. And Collie's word, I mean, 2225 01:55:27,320 --> 01:55:29,680 Speaker 3: y'all be getting the worst niggas anyway, that's your fault. 2226 01:55:30,080 --> 01:55:33,440 Speaker 3: And College's word that like, listen I won't blame black 2227 01:55:33,480 --> 01:55:36,320 Speaker 3: women for being single moms, but them goddamn kar dashers. No, 2228 01:55:36,440 --> 01:55:40,879 Speaker 3: they be going after the most unattainable ass niggas is possible. 2229 01:55:40,960 --> 01:55:42,480 Speaker 2: Come on, uh. 2230 01:55:44,480 --> 01:55:46,880 Speaker 3: I say that, But then what's the name? Found a way? 2231 01:55:47,120 --> 01:55:50,560 Speaker 3: Kim found a way. She locked Kanye down somehow, Yeah, 2232 01:55:50,600 --> 01:55:53,880 Speaker 3: she did, and we all know nothing of y'all wanted 2233 01:55:53,920 --> 01:55:55,560 Speaker 3: to deal with Kanye's you know, we trying to act 2234 01:55:55,680 --> 01:55:58,200 Speaker 3: like all she does stole the good black man. Y'all know, 2235 01:55:58,320 --> 01:56:04,640 Speaker 3: y'all was not gonna put up with that. Kanye was 2236 01:56:04,680 --> 01:56:05,800 Speaker 3: doing the most. 2237 01:56:08,080 --> 01:56:08,840 Speaker 2: Having him this year. 2238 01:56:08,880 --> 01:56:10,280 Speaker 3: It feel like he just was like, you know what, 2239 01:56:10,520 --> 01:56:13,120 Speaker 3: never mind, Like he started talking about jay Z on 2240 01:56:13,200 --> 01:56:14,680 Speaker 3: the tour and stuff, and then it was just like 2241 01:56:14,760 --> 01:56:17,400 Speaker 3: at some point he went, nah, you know what I 2242 01:56:17,480 --> 01:56:20,240 Speaker 3: see all twenty eighteen, I'm good, Like I don't even 2243 01:56:20,280 --> 01:56:20,560 Speaker 3: feel it. 2244 01:56:20,600 --> 01:56:22,600 Speaker 2: This drama ain't even worth it. It's it just boom. 2245 01:56:22,680 --> 01:56:24,960 Speaker 3: He just disappeared. That was wild. 2246 01:56:25,120 --> 01:56:25,680 Speaker 2: He'll be back. 2247 01:56:26,640 --> 01:56:28,040 Speaker 3: It seems like he just wants to have a fun 2248 01:56:28,120 --> 01:56:30,000 Speaker 3: with his friend. Kylie's worried when it's tied for him 2249 01:56:30,040 --> 01:56:31,680 Speaker 3: to be here there for her and the baby. He 2250 01:56:31,720 --> 01:56:34,240 Speaker 3: won't step up. But her nagging only makes him distance 2251 01:56:34,320 --> 01:56:36,920 Speaker 3: himself more. He couldn't take it anymore. He needed space, 2252 01:56:37,160 --> 01:56:39,240 Speaker 3: the sore said. The tension between them came to a 2253 01:56:39,320 --> 01:56:41,960 Speaker 3: head recently resulting in the earth shatter and fight. Scott 2254 01:56:42,160 --> 01:56:44,440 Speaker 3: is poorly growing more and more distant as Jenna tries 2255 01:56:44,480 --> 01:56:47,480 Speaker 3: to remind him of his possibilities. Kylie is really paranoid 2256 01:56:47,560 --> 01:56:50,040 Speaker 3: that Travis is partying with strippers instead of being there 2257 01:56:50,120 --> 01:56:53,440 Speaker 3: for her. He's a real, live, live for the moment 2258 01:56:53,560 --> 01:56:55,840 Speaker 3: to kind of guy and didn't expect he become a 2259 01:56:55,960 --> 01:56:58,600 Speaker 3: dash so young. Well that's why you don't have unprotected 2260 01:56:58,680 --> 01:57:02,040 Speaker 3: sex with a Kardashian dude. That's what happens, okay did 2261 01:57:02,040 --> 01:57:04,960 Speaker 3: they don't want to teach anyone about protection over there? 2262 01:57:05,880 --> 01:57:06,320 Speaker 3: He doesn't. 2263 01:57:06,400 --> 01:57:08,200 Speaker 2: I mean they have one thing that they like to do. 2264 01:57:08,280 --> 01:57:10,720 Speaker 3: Get pregnant out black dudes. What are you doing? I 2265 01:57:10,800 --> 01:57:12,440 Speaker 3: didn't think she would take the condom off. 2266 01:57:13,400 --> 01:57:13,520 Speaker 5: Uh. 2267 01:57:13,600 --> 01:57:15,200 Speaker 2: He doesn't quite feel ready for it. 2268 01:57:15,600 --> 01:57:18,200 Speaker 3: Kylie thought that some tough love was what Travis needed, 2269 01:57:18,240 --> 01:57:20,240 Speaker 3: but it backfired and now there's no telling whether he'll 2270 01:57:20,280 --> 01:57:22,520 Speaker 3: come back. Travis is a decent guy, and his friends 2271 01:57:22,600 --> 01:57:23,960 Speaker 3: think he would try to do the right thing about 2272 01:57:23,960 --> 01:57:26,520 Speaker 3: his child, but Kylie has to face the sad reality 2273 01:57:26,600 --> 01:57:29,440 Speaker 3: that things may be over between them for good. Scott 2274 01:57:29,640 --> 01:57:32,240 Speaker 3: is a full five years older than Jenner and build 2275 01:57:32,280 --> 01:57:36,280 Speaker 3: his career on songs about partying and drug use, or, 2276 01:57:36,320 --> 01:57:37,960 Speaker 3: as I like to call him, foreshadowing. 2277 01:57:38,760 --> 01:57:42,920 Speaker 2: Uh, what does that got to do with anything? Five 2278 01:57:43,040 --> 01:57:43,640 Speaker 2: four years? 2279 01:57:44,280 --> 01:57:46,440 Speaker 3: My favorite song is No, I'm Not taking care of 2280 01:57:46,520 --> 01:57:49,440 Speaker 3: my baby. That one's that's my favorite Travis Scott's song. 2281 01:57:51,160 --> 01:57:54,280 Speaker 3: That's the jam, That's my decie. That's the one, y'all, 2282 01:57:54,400 --> 01:57:57,400 Speaker 3: y'all should check it out. That one an absentee father. 2283 01:57:57,680 --> 01:57:59,920 Speaker 3: That's that album Flames. 2284 01:58:00,240 --> 01:58:01,760 Speaker 5: Oh did you hear the one that? 2285 01:58:02,640 --> 01:58:04,680 Speaker 2: It was like, you know already know I ain't shit? 2286 01:58:05,640 --> 01:58:08,680 Speaker 3: You should have known now I'm on these drugs. Jenner's 2287 01:58:08,680 --> 01:58:10,960 Speaker 3: pregnancy is still technically a secret, as a reality starts 2288 01:58:11,000 --> 01:58:13,520 Speaker 3: yet to officially confirm it, because you gotta sell it 2289 01:58:13,600 --> 01:58:15,480 Speaker 3: for the TV man, gotta get it on camera. 2290 01:58:16,280 --> 01:58:18,160 Speaker 2: When she's ready to tell that story, I'm sure she'll 2291 01:58:18,200 --> 01:58:18,520 Speaker 2: sell it. 2292 01:58:19,040 --> 01:58:19,400 Speaker 4: Of course. 2293 01:58:19,560 --> 01:58:20,240 Speaker 3: By Felicia. 2294 01:58:22,920 --> 01:58:23,720 Speaker 2: Let's see what else. 2295 01:58:24,200 --> 01:58:27,280 Speaker 3: Anna Kendrick said she once spent one thousand dollars on 2296 01:58:27,480 --> 01:58:30,120 Speaker 3: shoes for a premiere because no one would loan her 2297 01:58:30,200 --> 01:58:30,440 Speaker 3: in it. 2298 01:58:31,720 --> 01:58:34,400 Speaker 2: It's not getting much wider than that. Guys. Yeah, you know, 2299 01:58:34,440 --> 01:58:37,560 Speaker 2: I don't know who this woman is. Anna Kendrick is 2300 01:58:37,720 --> 01:58:44,720 Speaker 2: an actress, a blonde actress. She was in some movies. 2301 01:58:46,920 --> 01:58:48,760 Speaker 2: Up in the Air is a movie she was in. 2302 01:58:50,920 --> 01:58:51,680 Speaker 2: I didn't see it either. 2303 01:58:52,360 --> 01:58:55,240 Speaker 3: Anna Kendrick couldn't even afford a pair of shoes during 2304 01:58:55,280 --> 01:58:57,160 Speaker 3: the film's premiere Up in the Air in two thousand 2305 01:58:57,160 --> 01:59:01,240 Speaker 3: and nine. Wait, couldn't afford a pair of shoes. I 2306 01:59:01,440 --> 01:59:03,800 Speaker 3: was not famous, so nobody wanted to lend me shoes. 2307 01:59:03,840 --> 01:59:06,720 Speaker 3: But I was broke, she says. I got talked in 2308 01:59:06,800 --> 01:59:08,640 Speaker 3: and spending money I really didn't have on a pair 2309 01:59:08,640 --> 01:59:09,440 Speaker 3: of lubatons. 2310 01:59:09,720 --> 01:59:10,760 Speaker 2: They were a thousand dollars. 2311 01:59:10,800 --> 01:59:13,360 Speaker 3: I still have them as super sparkly and spangly, but 2312 01:59:13,480 --> 01:59:15,120 Speaker 3: I will never get rid of them because I'm like, 2313 01:59:15,160 --> 01:59:15,680 Speaker 3: I spent my. 2314 01:59:15,720 --> 01:59:19,480 Speaker 2: Rent on you, and those are the shoes right there, 2315 01:59:20,160 --> 01:59:24,000 Speaker 2: thousand dollars shoes. I would keep them too. Yeah. I 2316 01:59:24,120 --> 01:59:26,160 Speaker 2: like how white people say stuff like I spent money. 2317 01:59:26,200 --> 01:59:26,680 Speaker 3: I didn't have. 2318 01:59:27,120 --> 01:59:27,160 Speaker 4: No. 2319 01:59:28,480 --> 01:59:30,440 Speaker 3: If you didn't have the money, you. 2320 01:59:30,960 --> 01:59:33,240 Speaker 4: You would have been stretching some payless shoes across that 2321 01:59:33,360 --> 01:59:35,120 Speaker 4: stage and called it to day and they could have 2322 01:59:35,160 --> 01:59:36,480 Speaker 4: been just sparkling too. 2323 01:59:37,120 --> 01:59:38,520 Speaker 3: And you know the worst part, if she would have 2324 01:59:38,520 --> 01:59:41,880 Speaker 3: showed up in some payless shoes, she would have got 2325 01:59:42,200 --> 01:59:45,280 Speaker 3: lauded as a hero. I'm still waiting on somebody to 2326 01:59:45,360 --> 01:59:47,160 Speaker 3: do that, to show up to the red carpet and 2327 01:59:47,280 --> 01:59:50,120 Speaker 3: just like a shirt from like What'd you Where'd you Go? 2328 01:59:50,480 --> 01:59:54,200 Speaker 3: It's like KG Target, Like every once in a while, 2329 01:59:54,240 --> 01:59:56,000 Speaker 3: somebody'd give somebody props for that. They'd be like, oh 2330 01:59:56,400 --> 01:59:58,080 Speaker 3: what did you get your outfit? Girl up off this 2331 01:59:58,360 --> 02:00:02,280 Speaker 3: TJ Max Like, oh shit, I'll see you may give 2332 02:00:02,280 --> 02:00:05,040 Speaker 3: you a little deal what you got from Ross, right, 2333 02:00:05,560 --> 02:00:08,360 Speaker 3: But they you know I would have pulled that move. 2334 02:00:08,400 --> 02:00:08,839 Speaker 3: I wouldn't. 2335 02:00:08,880 --> 02:00:10,800 Speaker 2: I wouldn't spend a thousand dollars if I really didn't 2336 02:00:10,840 --> 02:00:12,760 Speaker 2: have it, come on with but I did. 2337 02:00:12,800 --> 02:00:16,480 Speaker 4: Is if you don't have it, because that's the thing, 2338 02:00:17,360 --> 02:00:21,360 Speaker 4: you had it, because you spent it, Like you said, 2339 02:00:21,360 --> 02:00:22,000 Speaker 4: if you didn't. 2340 02:00:21,800 --> 02:00:25,560 Speaker 3: Have it, It's like it's like white people problem movies 2341 02:00:26,760 --> 02:00:28,480 Speaker 3: where they'd be like, I don't have any money, and 2342 02:00:28,520 --> 02:00:31,080 Speaker 3: then the next scene they on the plane going to 2343 02:00:31,160 --> 02:00:33,760 Speaker 3: Wilmington or something, and you're like, but but you said 2344 02:00:33,800 --> 02:00:36,240 Speaker 3: you were broke. The whole movie been about you're never 2345 02:00:36,320 --> 02:00:38,280 Speaker 3: gonna get to live your dreams because you don't have nothing. 2346 02:00:38,600 --> 02:00:40,600 Speaker 2: But white people always got it. They always got it 2347 02:00:40,680 --> 02:00:41,920 Speaker 2: in the movies. Well, that's a question. 2348 02:00:42,120 --> 02:00:43,800 Speaker 4: Somebody else paid to rent that much because you bet 2349 02:00:43,840 --> 02:00:46,280 Speaker 4: your rent money on it. That mean rent didn't get paid, right. 2350 02:00:46,400 --> 02:00:48,320 Speaker 3: I don't know. I went to I watched this movie 2351 02:00:48,400 --> 02:00:50,760 Speaker 3: Lady Bird today and it was about white people problems, 2352 02:00:51,280 --> 02:00:53,360 Speaker 3: and it was about how broke this girl was. 2353 02:00:53,480 --> 02:00:55,000 Speaker 2: She on't gonna be able to go to college, and 2354 02:00:55,080 --> 02:00:56,360 Speaker 2: the parents and daddy have a job. 2355 02:00:56,440 --> 02:00:58,480 Speaker 3: Da da da dah. And then at some point she's 2356 02:00:58,560 --> 02:01:01,040 Speaker 3: just on a plane going to college in another state. 2357 02:01:01,760 --> 02:01:06,000 Speaker 3: Somehow it worked out. Hey, they always got it in 2358 02:01:06,040 --> 02:01:11,160 Speaker 3: the movies. Man ain't no disguised the limit paying this? 2359 02:01:11,320 --> 02:01:14,480 Speaker 2: So you know how our stories go. Ain't nobody got it? Then? 2360 02:01:14,560 --> 02:01:15,440 Speaker 2: Nick ain't going nowhere. 2361 02:01:15,840 --> 02:01:19,200 Speaker 3: Emma Watson splits from tech entrepreneur William mack knight after 2362 02:01:19,280 --> 02:01:20,160 Speaker 3: two years a date. 2363 02:01:20,640 --> 02:01:20,680 Speaker 4: What. 2364 02:01:21,760 --> 02:01:22,560 Speaker 2: I can't believe it. 2365 02:01:23,640 --> 02:01:25,440 Speaker 3: She is back hermione is back. 2366 02:01:25,320 --> 02:01:26,240 Speaker 2: On these streets, y'all. 2367 02:01:27,080 --> 02:01:31,880 Speaker 3: Harry Potter, she has split from my boyfriend William mac knight. 2368 02:01:32,240 --> 02:01:35,280 Speaker 3: The couple, it's not Mick Knight like Brian McKnight. It's 2369 02:01:35,400 --> 02:01:38,640 Speaker 3: Mac is the name he goes by. The couple of 2370 02:01:38,760 --> 02:01:41,360 Speaker 3: nearly two years broke up earlier this year. The twenty 2371 02:01:41,400 --> 02:01:43,360 Speaker 3: seven year old Beauty and the Beast actress was last 2372 02:01:43,520 --> 02:01:46,440 Speaker 3: last spotted with the tech entrepreneur in May. 2373 02:01:46,960 --> 02:01:49,080 Speaker 2: A rep for the English actress had no comment. 2374 02:01:49,360 --> 02:01:51,920 Speaker 3: The duo, who are both Ivy League educated, were first 2375 02:01:51,920 --> 02:01:55,280 Speaker 3: spotted together October twenty fifteen at the musical Hamilton in 2376 02:01:55,360 --> 02:01:55,800 Speaker 3: New York. 2377 02:01:57,200 --> 02:01:59,880 Speaker 2: Washson graduated from Brown University. 2378 02:02:01,080 --> 02:02:07,280 Speaker 3: Oh for real, good for her man? Oh wait? Representative 2379 02:02:07,480 --> 02:02:10,120 Speaker 3: decline to comment when approached by Daily Mail. 2380 02:02:10,160 --> 02:02:12,440 Speaker 2: The door first about at Hamilton. 2381 02:02:14,000 --> 02:02:16,360 Speaker 3: Emma up here, happy and relaxed, and she stepped out 2382 02:02:16,400 --> 02:02:19,320 Speaker 3: with a female friend, opting for a casual look and 2383 02:02:19,440 --> 02:02:20,400 Speaker 3: a black leather. 2384 02:02:20,280 --> 02:02:22,720 Speaker 2: Leggings, trainers and baseball cap. 2385 02:02:23,720 --> 02:02:26,080 Speaker 3: Well, these are pictures of them. Was Oh, that's here, okay? 2386 02:02:26,280 --> 02:02:29,360 Speaker 3: Later on all right. After shooting to fame as a 2387 02:02:29,440 --> 02:02:32,320 Speaker 3: child started playing Harmione Granger and the Harry Potter franchise, 2388 02:02:32,360 --> 02:02:33,680 Speaker 3: Emma graduated from. 2389 02:02:33,560 --> 02:02:35,240 Speaker 2: Brown University May twenty fourteen. 2390 02:02:35,640 --> 02:02:39,600 Speaker 3: Night received a bachelors in ecology and evolutionary biology from 2391 02:02:39,680 --> 02:02:41,440 Speaker 3: Princeton in two thousand and three. As well as the 2392 02:02:41,560 --> 02:02:44,280 Speaker 3: NBA from Columbia Business School in twenty eleven. 2393 02:02:44,360 --> 02:02:45,440 Speaker 2: Come on with these degrees. 2394 02:02:47,560 --> 02:02:50,640 Speaker 3: Emma kept their relationship extremely private and would avoid talking 2395 02:02:50,680 --> 02:02:53,440 Speaker 3: about her boyfriend and interviews. In February, she told that's 2396 02:02:53,480 --> 02:02:55,040 Speaker 3: the wony shit have known she was gonna drop them. 2397 02:02:55,280 --> 02:02:58,480 Speaker 3: In February, she told Vanity Fair, I will be consistent. 2398 02:02:58,560 --> 02:03:00,200 Speaker 3: I can't talk about my boyfriend in and if you 2399 02:03:00,320 --> 02:03:03,120 Speaker 3: then expect people not to take popularizing pictures of me 2400 02:03:03,200 --> 02:03:05,840 Speaker 3: walking around outside my home, it can't have it both ways. 2401 02:03:06,400 --> 02:03:09,360 Speaker 3: She continued, I've noticed in Hollywood who your dating gets 2402 02:03:09,400 --> 02:03:12,760 Speaker 3: tied up into your film promote films promotion and becomes 2403 02:03:12,800 --> 02:03:14,920 Speaker 3: part of the performance in the circus. I would hate 2404 02:03:14,920 --> 02:03:17,280 Speaker 3: anyone that I were with to feel like they were 2405 02:03:17,320 --> 02:03:19,120 Speaker 3: in any way part of the show or the act. 2406 02:03:19,520 --> 02:03:21,400 Speaker 3: Things seem to be serious between the couple, as it 2407 02:03:21,440 --> 02:03:24,240 Speaker 3: was reported in February that the American businessman introduced Emma 2408 02:03:24,320 --> 02:03:27,200 Speaker 3: to his parents. His mother, Catherine, told the Daily Mirror 2409 02:03:27,320 --> 02:03:29,840 Speaker 3: newspaper at the time, I've met Emma and she's a 2410 02:03:29,920 --> 02:03:33,440 Speaker 3: wonderful girl. We don't see them very often because she's 2411 02:03:33,520 --> 02:03:34,840 Speaker 3: busy and working very hard. 2412 02:03:35,160 --> 02:03:38,480 Speaker 2: I like that dress. She's wearing that and it's so 2413 02:03:38,680 --> 02:03:41,280 Speaker 2: like a little shirt on underneath. That's a sheer dress. 2414 02:03:42,200 --> 02:03:42,640 Speaker 2: I like that. 2415 02:03:42,720 --> 02:03:43,440 Speaker 5: I like that a lot. 2416 02:03:44,360 --> 02:03:47,760 Speaker 3: The tech entrepreneur reportedly makes one hundred and fifty thousand 2417 02:03:47,800 --> 02:03:50,400 Speaker 3: dollars a year, and in his online profile, he writes 2418 02:03:50,440 --> 02:03:54,520 Speaker 3: that he is a tech entrepreneur, enthusiast, business school grad, writer, artist, photographer, 2419 02:03:54,560 --> 02:03:55,720 Speaker 3: adventure and naturalists, etc. 2420 02:03:56,680 --> 02:03:58,320 Speaker 2: Ooh is black when even better? 2421 02:03:58,800 --> 02:04:02,680 Speaker 3: And he's also wrote in his uh and his online 2422 02:04:02,720 --> 02:04:03,720 Speaker 3: profile that. 2423 02:04:03,800 --> 02:04:06,680 Speaker 2: He's the guard and uh, the Jane, the job, the. 2424 02:04:06,800 --> 02:04:11,360 Speaker 3: Cool come on, h he has thirteen jobs prior to 2425 02:04:11,520 --> 02:04:15,000 Speaker 3: his Prior to her relationship with Knight, immitated British rugby 2426 02:04:15,040 --> 02:04:18,440 Speaker 3: player Oxford University student Max Matthew Janey for a year. 2427 02:04:18,800 --> 02:04:21,680 Speaker 3: The actress was previously linked to British singer, model George Craig, 2428 02:04:21,840 --> 02:04:26,960 Speaker 3: Oxford University student will at Adam Adama Wicks, and financier 2429 02:04:27,600 --> 02:04:31,560 Speaker 3: j Barrymore. In the past, Emma has joked that she 2430 02:04:31,880 --> 02:04:34,920 Speaker 3: looks as though she's had six thoules of boyfriends because 2431 02:04:34,920 --> 02:04:38,000 Speaker 3: the public interests arounding her love life. Speaking of Glamor magazine, 2432 02:04:38,120 --> 02:04:41,160 Speaker 3: she said, anyone I get photographed with is automatically my boyfriend, 2433 02:04:41,440 --> 02:04:43,280 Speaker 3: So it just makes it look as if I've had 2434 02:04:43,360 --> 02:04:47,240 Speaker 3: like six thus of boyfriends. Well that's still not as 2435 02:04:47,320 --> 02:04:50,600 Speaker 3: many as Taylor Swift, So nope, don't worry about it, Emma. 2436 02:04:51,280 --> 02:04:53,200 Speaker 3: All right, let's do sored ratchiness and then we got 2437 02:04:53,320 --> 02:04:55,880 Speaker 3: to get out of here. Guys, gotta wrap this up. 2438 02:04:56,760 --> 02:05:01,880 Speaker 3: Oh let's see here, where's my sword raction and sound effect? 2439 02:05:01,920 --> 02:05:05,080 Speaker 3: Because that would help uh before we get into the 2440 02:05:05,200 --> 02:05:08,680 Speaker 3: next segment. I also like this time to take a 2441 02:05:08,960 --> 02:05:11,840 Speaker 3: brief shout out to my man Justin, who came through 2442 02:05:11,880 --> 02:05:15,760 Speaker 3: on balls deep today. He got me bathroom body works 2443 02:05:16,360 --> 02:05:21,880 Speaker 3: a latte love with pure honey marshmallow pumpkin latte body cream. 2444 02:05:22,000 --> 02:05:28,080 Speaker 2: That's right, baby, how does it smell like angels farting? Caaren? 2445 02:05:28,360 --> 02:05:31,240 Speaker 3: He'll smell. Take you a whiff, gohead and get you 2446 02:05:31,320 --> 02:05:35,440 Speaker 3: some of that. Mm hmmm, it'll make it. It'll make 2447 02:05:35,480 --> 02:05:35,880 Speaker 3: you smile. 2448 02:05:36,280 --> 02:05:37,160 Speaker 2: That does smell good. 2449 02:05:37,280 --> 02:05:40,640 Speaker 3: I try to tell you. Let me see him. 2450 02:05:40,960 --> 02:05:41,400 Speaker 6: Mm hm. 2451 02:05:47,920 --> 02:05:50,160 Speaker 2: Oh it's so pretty. And look at the label, y'all 2452 02:05:50,200 --> 02:05:53,400 Speaker 2: are so pretty. All right, that's enough. You getting a 2453 02:05:53,400 --> 02:05:55,560 Speaker 2: little too handsy with my cream. Let's get that back 2454 02:05:55,600 --> 02:05:55,960 Speaker 2: over here. 2455 02:05:56,120 --> 02:06:00,280 Speaker 5: Oh lord, just dab, just a dab Aaron. 2456 02:06:00,400 --> 02:06:09,920 Speaker 3: Okay, I don't know where you live. A man willing 2457 02:06:09,960 --> 02:06:12,200 Speaker 3: a machete stabs two people in Newport. 2458 02:06:11,960 --> 02:06:15,960 Speaker 2: News, oh ship, guess the race white black? 2459 02:06:16,040 --> 02:06:19,800 Speaker 3: Newport News is black. A man will in the machete 2460 02:06:19,840 --> 02:06:23,080 Speaker 3: stab two people during the incident Wednesday morning in Newport News. 2461 02:06:24,040 --> 02:06:29,480 Speaker 3: Neighbor say, twenty six year old Gamar Penny Pennyfeather, I 2462 02:06:29,720 --> 02:06:30,920 Speaker 3: get that last, naw, I don't. 2463 02:06:31,000 --> 02:06:32,760 Speaker 2: I don't know, but yeah, I should have waited on 2464 02:06:32,800 --> 02:06:33,120 Speaker 2: the name. 2465 02:06:33,200 --> 02:06:33,560 Speaker 5: My bad. 2466 02:06:33,680 --> 02:06:37,120 Speaker 2: His families must have had some good some good masters, sprum. 2467 02:06:37,160 --> 02:06:38,760 Speaker 2: We're in preaching the starting internets. 2468 02:06:38,760 --> 02:06:42,400 Speaker 3: People play the news don't care nothing about the spectrum, Pennyfeather. 2469 02:06:42,480 --> 02:06:48,480 Speaker 3: They must have been some aristocratic name, right, you know 2470 02:06:48,640 --> 02:06:51,080 Speaker 3: they came up over the boat goa mall. I'm also 2471 02:06:51,240 --> 02:06:53,120 Speaker 3: never seen that it's not Jamal's. 2472 02:06:53,480 --> 02:06:54,640 Speaker 2: It's g A m a l. 2473 02:06:55,080 --> 02:06:56,960 Speaker 3: Maybe it's pronounced Jamal, even though. 2474 02:06:56,880 --> 02:07:00,520 Speaker 8: It's come on brand new totels on a bazarre at 2475 02:07:00,520 --> 02:07:04,480 Speaker 8: a Newport News apartment complex, the weapon of choice a machete, 2476 02:07:04,880 --> 02:07:07,440 Speaker 8: And tonight we now know the suspect at that attack 2477 02:07:07,520 --> 02:07:10,360 Speaker 8: at the Maple Point apartments just off Warwick of Boulevard. 2478 02:07:10,680 --> 02:07:13,720 Speaker 8: He's twenty six year old Gamal Pennyfeather. Police say that 2479 02:07:14,480 --> 02:07:16,800 Speaker 8: because of his actions, two people are in the hospital 2480 02:07:16,880 --> 02:07:20,400 Speaker 8: with serious cuts. Center on your Signdany Fox's following developments 2481 02:07:20,440 --> 02:07:21,640 Speaker 8: on this story tonight, Handy. 2482 02:07:23,280 --> 02:07:25,480 Speaker 7: It is very clear that what happened out here has 2483 02:07:25,640 --> 02:07:29,480 Speaker 7: left this apartment community stun One lady came out just 2484 02:07:29,640 --> 02:07:33,120 Speaker 7: moments ago crying about what had happened, and it is 2485 02:07:33,240 --> 02:07:36,840 Speaker 7: clear what happened out here could easily have ended in death. 2486 02:07:38,800 --> 02:07:40,960 Speaker 7: The day began at one thirty sixth this morning, when 2487 02:07:41,000 --> 02:07:44,360 Speaker 7: Newport News police called to Maple Point Apartments reports of 2488 02:07:44,440 --> 02:07:47,880 Speaker 7: Gamal Pennyfeather throwing items out of his house. Police knocked 2489 02:07:47,920 --> 02:07:50,080 Speaker 7: on the door, but no one answered. We couldn't find 2490 02:07:50,120 --> 02:07:53,680 Speaker 7: anyone who really knows Pennyfeather. By morning, the items still 2491 02:07:53,720 --> 02:07:54,160 Speaker 7: on the ground. 2492 02:07:54,200 --> 02:07:55,680 Speaker 2: Gamal in full rage. 2493 02:07:55,720 --> 02:07:59,320 Speaker 7: According to neighbor John Turner, who found Pennyfeather lighting air 2494 02:07:59,400 --> 02:08:01,800 Speaker 7: in the hallway this morning, he came out of his apartment, 2495 02:08:02,040 --> 02:08:05,200 Speaker 7: he was upset, had a machete in his hand, threw 2496 02:08:05,400 --> 02:08:06,360 Speaker 7: materials down on the. 2497 02:08:06,400 --> 02:08:07,680 Speaker 2: Floor lit it. 2498 02:08:07,960 --> 02:08:11,120 Speaker 7: Pennyfeather then ran with a machete to Jacqueline Sim's apartment, 2499 02:08:11,360 --> 02:08:14,160 Speaker 7: banged on her door, and then ran upstairs and, according 2500 02:08:14,200 --> 02:08:16,920 Speaker 7: to police, attacked a fifty four year old woman who 2501 02:08:17,040 --> 02:08:19,600 Speaker 7: was rushed to the hospital. He was trying to kill you. 2502 02:08:20,040 --> 02:08:21,920 Speaker 3: Yeah, he just went and finished out on her. 2503 02:08:22,280 --> 02:08:25,120 Speaker 2: He cut her arm side and her finger. His blood 2504 02:08:25,280 --> 02:08:28,680 Speaker 2: was blood was just pawn from him. Sim says. 2505 02:08:28,800 --> 02:08:32,160 Speaker 7: After attacking the woman upstairs, he macheted her window and 2506 02:08:32,280 --> 02:08:34,120 Speaker 7: tried to light her apartment on fire. 2507 02:08:34,000 --> 02:08:36,080 Speaker 2: And he kicked that one hand. He lit a match. 2508 02:08:36,760 --> 02:08:39,160 Speaker 2: He fielded in my children's the baby's chill. 2509 02:08:39,320 --> 02:08:42,320 Speaker 7: Neighbors say he also tried attacking the letter carrier, but 2510 02:08:42,440 --> 02:08:46,360 Speaker 7: she got away. Pennyfeather then entered Isaiah Trumblesope. His son 2511 02:08:46,440 --> 02:08:48,680 Speaker 7: Michael was also in the house and doesn't want to 2512 02:08:48,720 --> 02:08:51,640 Speaker 7: be identified. He was scratched and bruised trying to help 2513 02:08:51,680 --> 02:08:54,560 Speaker 7: his father. He came into the house and then attacked 2514 02:08:54,600 --> 02:08:54,920 Speaker 7: your dad. 2515 02:08:55,040 --> 02:08:56,080 Speaker 3: Yeah, light was sleep. 2516 02:08:56,280 --> 02:08:56,400 Speaker 2: Oh. 2517 02:08:56,480 --> 02:08:58,840 Speaker 3: I snatched him up, help him till the police guy 2518 02:08:58,920 --> 02:09:00,000 Speaker 3: here they took him. 2519 02:09:01,160 --> 02:09:02,040 Speaker 7: What was he saying to you? 2520 02:09:02,480 --> 02:09:05,080 Speaker 3: He told me he was crazy. He's like Gus sent 2521 02:09:05,160 --> 02:09:07,360 Speaker 3: him to kill my dad because he has the tragedy 2522 02:09:07,400 --> 02:09:08,960 Speaker 3: the yard, all kinds of crazy stuff. 2523 02:09:11,680 --> 02:09:14,120 Speaker 7: And that's Penny Feathers apartment right there. You can see 2524 02:09:14,280 --> 02:09:18,320 Speaker 7: his computer is still on. He is charged with unlawful 2525 02:09:18,480 --> 02:09:20,760 Speaker 7: wounding and also with ursaid. 2526 02:09:20,840 --> 02:09:21,880 Speaker 2: He is not up there. 2527 02:09:22,160 --> 02:09:25,760 Speaker 7: He remains in custody. A very long day out here 2528 02:09:25,960 --> 02:09:29,000 Speaker 7: in this apartment complex. Michael did visit with his father 2529 02:09:29,400 --> 02:09:32,000 Speaker 7: and says that his father is in good spirits. In 2530 02:09:32,080 --> 02:09:34,520 Speaker 7: Newport News, Andy Fox tent on your side, Yo. 2531 02:09:34,640 --> 02:09:38,320 Speaker 2: He tried to fuck up the mail person, right, yo. 2532 02:09:39,520 --> 02:09:41,760 Speaker 2: I'm just I'm just trying to be sure everybody to 2533 02:09:41,800 --> 02:09:43,000 Speaker 2: get these bills they don't want. 2534 02:09:43,040 --> 02:09:46,920 Speaker 3: Don't fuck me up, right, good grief. I guess that's 2535 02:09:46,960 --> 02:09:47,960 Speaker 3: one way to open the letter. 2536 02:09:48,320 --> 02:09:50,960 Speaker 2: Yes, you don't want that letter open him? 2537 02:09:51,240 --> 02:09:53,000 Speaker 3: All right, guys, we'll talk to you on Saturday for 2538 02:09:53,080 --> 02:09:56,480 Speaker 3: our feedback show. We'll let you know. Maybe we'll do 2539 02:09:56,560 --> 02:10:00,160 Speaker 3: a show New Year's Eve. Maybe not, Yeah, you. 2540 02:10:00,200 --> 02:10:03,000 Speaker 2: Guys, I'm sure we'll know when we go forward to 2541 02:10:03,080 --> 02:10:07,000 Speaker 2: that future. Yes, until then, thank you so much for 2542 02:10:07,000 --> 02:10:10,120 Speaker 2: everything this year. Yes, thank you everybody, and we love 2543 02:10:10,200 --> 02:10:13,640 Speaker 2: you all. Thank you, and I love you. I love 2544 02:10:13,720 --> 02:10:14,640 Speaker 2: you too, baby Na