WEBVTT - THE TIC TAC HORROR STORY

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hi, Hi. What's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Is it okay if I remain anonymous?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Sure, what I'm gonna call you Leslie? I think

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<v Speaker 1>that's fine, Leslie. What's up, Leslie? How you doing?

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<v Speaker 2>I'm great? How are you doing?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm also doing pretty good. I'm having fun. I'm enjoying

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<v Speaker 1>talking to people on the phone. Uh, and I'm I'm

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<v Speaker 1>I'm giddy to hear whatever it is that you want

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<v Speaker 1>to talk about today.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I have a questions like is anything off limits

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<v Speaker 2>that I talk about? Is there anything that I can't

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<v Speaker 2>talk about that would like her show or like anything

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<v Speaker 2>like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I you know, that's a tough question because I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like for something like that, I feel like I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like that's a you know it when you see it

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<v Speaker 1>kind of a thing.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, fair enough. I want to without a weird

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<v Speaker 2>series of sexual encounters I had whenever I was nineteen,

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<v Speaker 2>because I haven't really ever got to talk to anybody

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<v Speaker 2>about them, and I've been bored in my brain. It's

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<v Speaker 2>why not talk to internet people's.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna so listen.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>The way you are presenting this to me right now

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<v Speaker 1>is making me think that you you would like to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about some stuff that sounds like it would be

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<v Speaker 1>uh territory most suited for a non gecko therapist. That's

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<v Speaker 1>the vibe.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh it's not been like bad bad. It wasn't. It

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<v Speaker 2>was just some whack, just weird, weird. It was just

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<v Speaker 2>something weird.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't have any friends or anybody that I could

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<v Speaker 2>be like, oh my god, You're never gonna freaking believe

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<v Speaker 2>this ship a year.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, But.

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<v Speaker 2>If I get going and you feel like it's not appropriate,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, obviously you're in charge. You can hang up

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<v Speaker 2>the phone in any moment.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you know what, you know. What what's up, Leslie?

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<v Speaker 1>What's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? So back whenever I was nineteen, I got kicked

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<v Speaker 2>out of the house. So I started living with some

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<v Speaker 2>roommates and I didn't have any rules, and I was

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<v Speaker 2>down home for the first time, and I grew up

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<v Speaker 2>real sheltered. So it's kind of oblivious to a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of shit.

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<v Speaker 3>Right.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, some people that I had met, you know, shortly

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<v Speaker 2>after I got kicked out, were like, yo, there's this

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<v Speaker 2>website you should go on because you can meet all

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<v Speaker 2>these people to boink. And I was like bet. So

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<v Speaker 2>I got on there and there was this forty five

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<v Speaker 2>year old man that lived in my and I should

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<v Speaker 2>say that at that time, that dude was older than

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<v Speaker 2>my parents. And you know, nineteen year old brain, you're

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<v Speaker 2>on hormones, and so you're like, yes, let's do that,

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<v Speaker 2>because that feels like a no, no, why not? But

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<v Speaker 2>I was of age, everyone was of age. Nothing illegal happened.

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<v Speaker 2>But so I meet up with this guy in like

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<v Speaker 2>a public park, right, and am I still on?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, I'm sorry I didn't. I thought I got

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<v Speaker 2>him up on.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I feel no, no, no, I'm not. I I

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you giving me the permission to randomly hang

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<v Speaker 1>up on you, but I won't do that.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. So I meet up with him in a public park,

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<v Speaker 2>and I should say the website we were on, you

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<v Speaker 2>don't you don't post your face, post other things, right,

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<v Speaker 2>So I have no clue what this dude looks like,

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<v Speaker 2>and I and he looks have you ever seen puts

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<v Speaker 2>in boots? He looked like Humpty dumpty hot, like straight

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<v Speaker 2>up like egg with legs.

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<v Speaker 4>And.

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<v Speaker 2>I was kind of put off by it. But the

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<v Speaker 2>dude was like, I have pot and I was like, ooh,

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<v Speaker 2>why not and so we go back to his place

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<v Speaker 2>and he opens up the door and it was a

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<v Speaker 2>fricking hoarder house, like straight up. And he tried to

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<v Speaker 2>cover by it by saying, oh, I botched stuff and

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<v Speaker 2>still it on ebage, don't worry about it. And I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, you're a hoarder. But whatever, I'm already here.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm committed. Let's get this over with, right, And so

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<v Speaker 2>we get down to business and it started off normal,

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<v Speaker 2>and then he was like, hey, you want to try

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<v Speaker 2>something crazy? And I was hired, so I was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>why not, let's go. And he pulls out this pink

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<v Speaker 2>Duffel bag from under his nasty ass bed and it's

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<v Speaker 2>full of you know, you know, odds and ends. But

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<v Speaker 2>the craziest ship that he pulled out was a bamboo cane.

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<v Speaker 1>A bamboo cane.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like he had gone out into the wood. He

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<v Speaker 2>said he made it himself. He went out like into

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<v Speaker 2>the woods because bamboo grows where I live, like just

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<v Speaker 2>out in the wh.

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<v Speaker 1>This man, this man crafted an object for you to

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<v Speaker 1>shove up his ass.

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<v Speaker 2>It wasn't his ass, it was the front part. What yeah, founding.

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<v Speaker 1>Is sound okay? This man asked you to shove a

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<v Speaker 1>bamboo cane into his dick hole.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, I will say it's not like a walking cane.

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<v Speaker 2>It was more like something that you would use like

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know how you were raised, but whenever I

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<v Speaker 2>grew up, my parents popped me with switches and stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>and it was somewhere around there like it was.

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<v Speaker 1>It was.

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<v Speaker 2>It was still pretty. It was scarily big for what

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<v Speaker 2>I was doing with it.

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<v Speaker 1>What is like, what's the circumference of this thing?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Man, I don't know, maybe like not quite an inch,

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<v Speaker 2>but like it was, it's pretty thick, like the size

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<v Speaker 2>of like a regular pencil, like your standard number two pencil. Hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, okay, this is the size of a pencil. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, I could see that fitting in a dick hole.

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<v Speaker 1>There we go, all right, I just did you? Did you?

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<v Speaker 5>Did you?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you shove this cane and this guy's dick hole?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? I did, Yes, I did, And I felt real

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<v Speaker 2>icky do in it, But he was like, it's fine,

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<v Speaker 2>Just I'll give you a bunch of pot when this

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<v Speaker 2>is over with. And I was like, okay, whatever, but

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<v Speaker 2>that's not the worst part. So after that he sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>I get like blish thinking about it, but he was like, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>I want you to. He wanted me to shove tick

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<v Speaker 2>tacks down there and crunch them with my teeth. So

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<v Speaker 2>mm hmm. And so I did it down there.

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<v Speaker 1>You shoved fours into this guy's dick hole and.

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<v Speaker 2>Then yeah, yeah, and crunched thems like crunched on his

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<v Speaker 2>pepe and it made me feel really gross because I

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<v Speaker 2>was scared I was hurting him. And then he was like, no,

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<v Speaker 2>you can do it harder, and I was like, oh

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<v Speaker 2>and I should I need I'm sorry a little bit

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<v Speaker 2>of context. The only reason that I met up with

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<v Speaker 2>this guy is because I saw his picture on the

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<v Speaker 2>site right, which was of his beetpeet and it was

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<v Speaker 2>real large, like a monster can, which didn't fit his

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<v Speaker 2>looks at all, very off putting. That Humpty Dumpty has

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<v Speaker 2>like a like freaking schlong.

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<v Speaker 1>How did they fit in?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>How did they? How did you fit for tic tacks

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<v Speaker 1>into this guy's dickle?

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<v Speaker 2>Very carefully?

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<v Speaker 1>Where does it?

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<v Speaker 3>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>What how did he get how did he get him

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<v Speaker 1>out of there?

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<v Speaker 2>I told you, I crunched him up and so then

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<v Speaker 2>he went in pe after and I got him out.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess let let les leslie real quick just before

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<v Speaker 1>we go any further with this, okay, and again, human

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<v Speaker 1>being to human being, please like just like forget about

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<v Speaker 1>the part like just you like Leslie? Yeah, are you

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<v Speaker 1>fucking with me right now?

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<v Speaker 2>I swear to God I'm not.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Okay, all right, So so go ahead, keep going

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<v Speaker 1>if you want to keep going.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay. I left, and I used to work at a dominoes,

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<v Speaker 2>and so I walked into the dominance where I worked,

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<v Speaker 2>and I told my boss, it was also my roommate,

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<v Speaker 2>that I was probably gonna need to take the next

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<v Speaker 2>day off of work to recuperate the ship that just happened.

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<v Speaker 2>And then I went home. I didn't tell him all

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<v Speaker 2>the details because I didn't feel comfortable. I just said

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<v Speaker 2>I needed some time. And I went home and I

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<v Speaker 2>smoked like a whole half ounce of pot and I

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<v Speaker 2>think I slept for like two days, and I just

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<v Speaker 2>try not to think about it. But I've been thinking

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<v Speaker 2>about it a lot lately, especially since I'm on that site.

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<v Speaker 2>And he reached out to me again recent you wanting

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<v Speaker 2>me to okay again, You're you're.

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<v Speaker 1>You're back, You're back on the website.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I never.

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<v Speaker 1>Left Okay, how how old are you now?

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<v Speaker 6>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Twenty six?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, so this was this TikTok Oh so

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<v Speaker 1>this was like seven years ago.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, this happened a long time ago.

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<v Speaker 1>That tiktac thing is what is maybe one of the

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<v Speaker 1>most that tic tac thing is probably it's at least

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<v Speaker 1>that tiktac thing. I know, like, I know I've thrown

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<v Speaker 1>I know I've thrown this around a lot. That tictac

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<v Speaker 1>thing is probably top three most fucked up things I

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<v Speaker 1>have heard doing this.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm glad I could contribute, but hey, just imagine how ill.

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<v Speaker 1>Of course, of course.

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<v Speaker 2>About it, but it's all fucked up like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Uh, how you how you doing?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh I'm good now I call him down. Okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>married with kids now are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you serious?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>You're married with kids now?

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Wait, so why are you still on the website?

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<v Speaker 2>Me and my husband are both on it.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you meet your.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah I did, Actually I met him on that site.

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<v Speaker 2>Really he was he was supposed to be a one

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<v Speaker 2>night stand mm hmm, but I guess I was just

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<v Speaker 2>too good.

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<v Speaker 1>How long have you and your husband been.

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<v Speaker 2>Together a little bit over five years?

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<v Speaker 1>Wow? Hmmm. Uh uh, that's awesome. How old are your kids?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? I got an eight year old, a five year old,

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<v Speaker 2>and a seven month old. Okay wait, I should clarify

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<v Speaker 2>two of those are step kids. Oh okay, but I

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<v Speaker 2>consider them my children because I've been around the five

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<v Speaker 2>year old. I mean I've been around since he was

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<v Speaker 2>a baby, because my husband and his ex wife they

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<v Speaker 2>divorced while she was like before she even found out

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<v Speaker 2>she was pregnant with him.

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<v Speaker 1>What. What's this website?

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<v Speaker 2>It's called fet life. It's not paid or anything. It's

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<v Speaker 2>just like, oh, okay, I didn't know. Some people aren't

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<v Speaker 2>super familiar with it, at least not where I'm from.

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<v Speaker 1>A well are you are? Have you ever talked to

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<v Speaker 1>a real therapist about any of this?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>I did.

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<v Speaker 2>I went to therapy for like two or three years,

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<v Speaker 2>but that wasn't really one of the things that I

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<v Speaker 2>talked about was way more traumatic shit happened to me

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<v Speaker 2>than that. I look at it as like a funny

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<v Speaker 2>little story, but that was also really fucked up because

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<v Speaker 2>I was young and dumb and made bad decisions. I

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<v Speaker 2>just did it because why not, you only lived once?

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<v Speaker 2>Was my mindset at the time.

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<v Speaker 1>How is how's being a mom way way different, way different.

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<v Speaker 2>It's awesome, though, yeah, it's real rewarding. It's different because well,

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<v Speaker 2>I just I grew up the oldest of ten siblings,

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<v Speaker 2>and so when I got out of that, I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to have kids. I've already raised like

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<v Speaker 2>five kids. And then I actually got told I was

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<v Speaker 2>infertile and thought I couldn't have kids for a long time,

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<v Speaker 2>and I was like, sweet, I only have to pay

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<v Speaker 2>for fucking birth control. And then I guess. And then

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<v Speaker 2>just one day, I just guessed. My ovaries were like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what, we're gonna do our jobs.

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<v Speaker 1>And release an agg and oh so it was an accident.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh but I love it like a happy accident. You know.

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<v Speaker 2>That was actually my birth announcement was Bob Ross. It's

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<v Speaker 2>like there are no mistakes, just happy little accidents.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm mm hmm. Well, let's know, I'm glad. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>glad to hear that you. You sound like you are

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<v Speaker 1>happy and enjoying life. Oh yeah, I scold I could.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry I gave you possibly secondhand uh it trauma

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<v Speaker 2>from that.

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<v Speaker 1>I look, man, you know, you know, look, you know you.

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<v Speaker 2>Know yeah, yeah, you know, the worst part is that

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<v Speaker 2>after that happened, I got really into the dominatrix world

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<v Speaker 2>and I did that as like a profession for like

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<v Speaker 2>two or three years. And that's still the most fucked

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<v Speaker 2>up thing anyone has asked me to do to them.

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<v Speaker 2>And he let me keep the cane, and I kept

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<v Speaker 2>it for a long time. It was like a trophy.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm mm hmm. Oh wait you you kept the cane?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, what.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you let me keep it?

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<v Speaker 3>No?

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<v Speaker 2>So, whenever I first had it, this is really fucked up,

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<v Speaker 2>but I would I would smack people with it, and.

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<v Speaker 1>You gotta fucking you gotta keep that fucking thing under

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<v Speaker 1>like contamination my friends.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I sanitized every love and shit out of that

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<v Speaker 2>thing where I got home with it. But I was like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what, I worked damn hard for this, so

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<v Speaker 2>I guess I'm gonna keep it. And then and then

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<v Speaker 2>I met my husband and he was like, watch this,

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<v Speaker 2>and I told him and he was like, we should

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<v Speaker 2>throw that shit away, and let's do it away.

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<v Speaker 1>So you and your husband are together on this on

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<v Speaker 1>this website. Are you guys like looking for like a

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<v Speaker 1>third or are you guys having your own independent fun experiences.

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<v Speaker 2>For right now. Mainly just everything that we do we

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<v Speaker 2>do together. So it could be a third it could

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<v Speaker 2>be other couples, more like a swinger situation, but it's

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<v Speaker 2>all together, like we don't do anything without the other person.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, so you do everything together.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's been pretty fun because I was worried about

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<v Speaker 2>it because you know, things like that relationships can be messy.

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<v Speaker 2>But we've been really open and honest with each other

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<v Speaker 2>about it, so there have been like zero and like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, problems with it.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmmmm, yeah, well, I guess that's kind of the nice

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<v Speaker 1>thing about having met your husband on a website like that.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like it seems as though it attracts other people

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<v Speaker 1>who are quote unquote down.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. Yeah, for sure. I met a lot of freaking

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<v Speaker 2>crazies on there though, but that's also because of where

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<v Speaker 2>I live, because you said you're familiar with the site.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's mainly just you can look for people in

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<v Speaker 2>your local area and I'll live in like the bump

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<v Speaker 2>fuck middle of nowhere. Meth had pounds, so m a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of crazies on there.

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<v Speaker 1>You said you don't have officials too. What you said

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<v Speaker 1>that you don't have, like you haven't told these stories

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<v Speaker 1>to like your friends or anything.

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<v Speaker 2>No. I told my husband obviously because he found the

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<v Speaker 2>cane and because you know, I feel like he deserved

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<v Speaker 2>to know my my past before he uh put a

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<v Speaker 2>ring on it. But no, I was too embarrassed to

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<v Speaker 2>tell anybody else.

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<v Speaker 5>Mm hmmm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, yeah, that that tic Tac thing, it definitely is

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<v Speaker 1>one of the top three. There was a guy who

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<v Speaker 1>told a story about a lady killing a dog in

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<v Speaker 1>her car and that it's either that or the tic

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<v Speaker 1>Tac thing.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I feel like it was the dog

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<v Speaker 2>is worse because the dog is innocent in all this,

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<v Speaker 2>and that guy is a freak, so he kind of

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<v Speaker 2>deserved it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, do you I do you have? I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if you listened to the podcast, but have you

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<v Speaker 1>heard that dog thing?

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<v Speaker 2>No? I haven't. I do listen to your podcast, just

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<v Speaker 2>not super awesome because you know, Mama three, I'm busy

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<v Speaker 2>a lot, but I listen whenever I get an ofication

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<v Speaker 2>on twitch.

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<v Speaker 1>You have you have three kids?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, like I said, I got two step kids and

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<v Speaker 2>then I have my seven month old, so right right,

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<v Speaker 2>and they stay with and my step kids stay with

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<v Speaker 2>us for like two weeks at a time. Cool, and

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm really close with them and bonded. So I

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<v Speaker 2>consider myself, you know, another parent. I know I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>their mom and I didn't carry them and push them out,

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<v Speaker 2>but I love them just the same.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you are you? Are you happy?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? I mean for the most part, you know, but

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like that's everyone.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's great. I don't think that is everyone.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean, like I think I think it goes

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<v Speaker 2>through that.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, well I think if you can answer well,

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<v Speaker 1>if you can, if you can answer that question with yes,

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<v Speaker 1>for the most part, you're in the top one percent

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<v Speaker 1>of humanity, I think.

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<v Speaker 2>Cool.

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<v Speaker 1>So doing good, doing good. Thank you for sharing, Leslie.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we.

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<v Speaker 2>Go, make good choices about who you have sex with

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<v Speaker 2>whenever you are nineteen. That's the last thing I want

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<v Speaker 2>to say. Thank you for having me.

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<v Speaker 1>God bless you lessly take care. I do not have

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<v Speaker 1>any post call thoughts for that.

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<v Speaker 3>Hello, what's up man?

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<v Speaker 1>How you doing buddy? What's your name?

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<v Speaker 3>My name is Eric, Eric.

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<v Speaker 1>What what do you do? What do you what do

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<v Speaker 1>you what are you doing? What are you doing right now?

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<v Speaker 3>Making a cup of coffee? Playing some World of Warcraft?

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<v Speaker 1>Waiting on that PVPQ he okay, all right, are you

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<v Speaker 1>gonna Are you gonna talk to me while you play

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<v Speaker 1>World of Warcraft?

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<v Speaker 3>No? Right now, I'm sitting here AFK drinking my coffee.

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<v Speaker 1>My dude, cool. It is an honor to be a

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<v Speaker 1>K while you are a FK because I am I

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<v Speaker 1>am currently ak. What's up? What's up? What's up? Buddy?

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<v Speaker 1>How you doing? How's life? Man?

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<v Speaker 3>Life's been a train ride, dude. Last two years have

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<v Speaker 3>been pretty hectic. Man. I got a DUI and they

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<v Speaker 3>waited about a year to serve the warrant and lost

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<v Speaker 3>my license after that, and it's just been a little

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<v Speaker 3>bit downhill on the journey to being sober since then.

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<v Speaker 1>Where are you at on the journey right now?

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<v Speaker 3>I'm about four three and a half, almost four months sober, sober?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, how you liking it?

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<v Speaker 3>It's very depressing realizing that all the people you've surrounded

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<v Speaker 3>yourself with are self destructive and not there for you

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<v Speaker 3>when you need them.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, do you do you have like drinking buddies

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<v Speaker 1>who like once you got sober, you couldn't I guess,

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<v Speaker 1>relate to them, or maybe they were resentful of you

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<v Speaker 1>or anything like that.

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<v Speaker 3>Not necessarily resentful. We just kind of all went ways.

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<v Speaker 3>And it was pretty much everybody I've grown up with

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<v Speaker 3>since being a teenager. Man, I'm thirty years old now,

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<v Speaker 3>and it was just everywhere I went and everywhere around

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<v Speaker 3>me it was drugs, partying, and drinking. And after thirteen

0:22:13.720 --> 0:22:16.479
<v Speaker 3>fourteen years, it took its toll and I became a

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<v Speaker 3>diehard alcoholic and couldn't live without my booze.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, so what was it that made you want to quit?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I was on probation from the DUI that they

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<v Speaker 3>served the war on and well, still I am on

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<v Speaker 3>probation and a night of drinking with my friends ended

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<v Speaker 3>in a fight and argument and my girlfriend at the time,

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<v Speaker 3>and we both got arrested, me for violating her for

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<v Speaker 3>being drunk and disorderly in public while I was being arrested,

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<v Speaker 3>and it led to us separating. She got out of

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<v Speaker 3>jail the next day, but I spent a month and

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<v Speaker 3>they wait for the judge getting my probation back. And yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>we haven't really spoke since then, and since I spent

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<v Speaker 3>a month in there, was my first month sober, and

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<v Speaker 3>it just gave me a lot of clarity on the

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<v Speaker 3>situation and my environments I was putting myself in, and

0:23:08.720 --> 0:23:12.680
<v Speaker 3>it's it's just been a not being not being able

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<v Speaker 3>to re reconcile or apologize to a lot of people

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<v Speaker 3>has been hard to say the least.

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<v Speaker 1>Tell yeah, tell me more about like that clarity if

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<v Speaker 1>you want.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, you see everything you did wrong when people people

0:23:30.240 --> 0:23:33.880
<v Speaker 3>telling you, hey, you need to slow down or sober up,

0:23:33.920 --> 0:23:37.520
<v Speaker 3>and then you realize how far in they are, and

0:23:38.680 --> 0:23:41.160
<v Speaker 3>you see people more talking to themselves when they're telling

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<v Speaker 3>you to get clean and sober and do better for

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<v Speaker 3>yourself than they'll ever speak to themselves in the mirror,

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<v Speaker 3>and you just wish you could help them as much

0:23:49.560 --> 0:23:52.040
<v Speaker 3>as you. But you know, I've reached that part of

0:23:52.040 --> 0:23:54.520
<v Speaker 3>my journey myself. I've lost enough to where I want

0:23:54.560 --> 0:23:57.320
<v Speaker 3>to go forth with it. And I just wonder how

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<v Speaker 3>long until some of my friends finally get to that point,

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<v Speaker 3>you know?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I mean it's tough because like h it's well,

0:24:06.520 --> 0:24:09.880
<v Speaker 1>it's tough because you just you it's such a thing

0:24:09.960 --> 0:24:16.359
<v Speaker 1>that's out of your hands, right, Well, what's your journey?

0:24:16.400 --> 0:24:19.680
<v Speaker 1>Like I mean, I I guess, well, so it's been

0:24:19.680 --> 0:24:25.639
<v Speaker 1>four months. Yeah, in in those four months, I would

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<v Speaker 1>guess that after realizing that this group of friends that

0:24:30.520 --> 0:24:36.000
<v Speaker 1>you have does not align with the the lifestyle you

0:24:36.040 --> 0:24:41.080
<v Speaker 1>are attempting to create for yourself, Now, are you trying

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<v Speaker 1>to find a new group of friends or a new lifestyle,

0:24:45.640 --> 0:24:47.960
<v Speaker 1>Because it's weird, because like if if your whole life

0:24:48.000 --> 0:24:51.160
<v Speaker 1>is one thing and you're like, oh, this is not

0:24:51.240 --> 0:24:55.760
<v Speaker 1>suiting me anymore, I'm gonna get rid of it, you will, Yeah,

0:24:55.800 --> 0:24:59.480
<v Speaker 1>you will be like totally bored and depressed because everything

0:24:59.520 --> 0:25:04.720
<v Speaker 1>you fucking new is gone. Then there's nothing else.

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<v Speaker 3>But that's pretty much from that. Man, can't go to

0:25:10.359 --> 0:25:12.840
<v Speaker 3>the bar anymore. Just have fun, watch the game. You

0:25:13.320 --> 0:25:15.120
<v Speaker 3>see it as a problem for yourself if you're there

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<v Speaker 3>too long, and it's it's hard to find new people.

0:25:20.359 --> 0:25:22.400
<v Speaker 3>You've been around with the same people since middle school

0:25:22.440 --> 0:25:24.840
<v Speaker 3>and high school, and everybody you knew you met through

0:25:24.880 --> 0:25:28.880
<v Speaker 3>them or because of them or with them, And it's

0:25:28.880 --> 0:25:31.399
<v Speaker 3>been really hard to put myself back out there. I

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<v Speaker 3>have definitely I've got on Facebook dating just to communicate

0:25:34.520 --> 0:25:37.200
<v Speaker 3>with people in such a toxic place, but try to

0:25:37.240 --> 0:25:40.000
<v Speaker 3>start conversations and stuff and try to meet new people,

0:25:40.080 --> 0:25:42.720
<v Speaker 3>I suppose, but I'm more afraid to even leave my

0:25:42.760 --> 0:25:45.680
<v Speaker 3>house nowadays. Honestly, if it's not trying to find a

0:25:45.800 --> 0:25:49.720
<v Speaker 3>job or make some money or stick to myself, then

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not really putting myself out there to be around anybody.

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<v Speaker 3>M Yeah, that's a problem in.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, uh yeah, it's exhausting, it's fucking I mean, are

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<v Speaker 1>you when you say Facebook dating, are you like trying

0:26:06.480 --> 0:26:09.560
<v Speaker 1>to find like a new GF or are you trying

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<v Speaker 1>to find friends?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, they have like the friendship option on there, and

0:26:13.640 --> 0:26:15.800
<v Speaker 3>I've just opened the conversation get me out of my

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<v Speaker 3>own box. You know, I'm not really the person I

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<v Speaker 3>lost a couple of months ago, really really latched onto

0:26:23.720 --> 0:26:26.520
<v Speaker 3>and really had a lot of plans with so losing

0:26:26.560 --> 0:26:29.159
<v Speaker 3>them kind of like put me in a box, so

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<v Speaker 3>to say, to where I'm closing myself off from that

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<v Speaker 3>kind of connection and just trying to make a new

0:26:35.840 --> 0:26:37.680
<v Speaker 3>group of friends, someone I could go play D and

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<v Speaker 3>D with, if that, or even game night, just to

0:26:39.960 --> 0:26:41.840
<v Speaker 3>go play some cards, some magic or something, you know,

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<v Speaker 3>And it's not really easy to find those groups of people,

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<v Speaker 3>and especially not a sober one. Nowadays, we've all got

0:26:49.400 --> 0:26:51.440
<v Speaker 3>our problems where we all got our clicks and their niches,

0:26:51.520 --> 0:26:56.359
<v Speaker 3>and timing is a issue being an adult, sadly, so

0:26:56.480 --> 0:27:02.280
<v Speaker 3>it's I found it easier to stick myself in home

0:27:02.600 --> 0:27:07.040
<v Speaker 3>and just play Solitaire or PvP on Warcraft, you know,

0:27:07.160 --> 0:27:09.479
<v Speaker 3>and then then waste my time and put myself out

0:27:09.520 --> 0:27:10.280
<v Speaker 3>there to get hurt again.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm yeah, yeah, hmmm, well, well, I I mean, if

0:27:26.600 --> 0:27:31.679
<v Speaker 1>I can give you my optimistic take on this, because

0:27:31.760 --> 0:27:35.400
<v Speaker 1>uh yeah, it's like it's a lot of like building

0:27:35.440 --> 0:27:38.960
<v Speaker 1>a life that you like and at a community that

0:27:39.000 --> 0:27:42.280
<v Speaker 1>you like is a lot of fucking work, and it

0:27:42.320 --> 0:27:44.240
<v Speaker 1>takes a lot of time and a lot of effort

0:27:44.280 --> 0:27:51.399
<v Speaker 1>and a lot of disappointment because you're you're particularly working

0:27:51.440 --> 0:27:54.879
<v Speaker 1>in the realm of things you can't control, right when

0:27:54.920 --> 0:27:58.720
<v Speaker 1>you're trying to build a community or trying to make friends,

0:27:59.680 --> 0:28:03.760
<v Speaker 1>because there's a lot of because you're, yeah, you're playing

0:28:03.800 --> 0:28:06.159
<v Speaker 1>politics without being You're trying to like get other people

0:28:06.200 --> 0:28:10.600
<v Speaker 1>to join your life, and that's hard because you don't

0:28:10.640 --> 0:28:12.840
<v Speaker 1>you don't have control over other people. But I guess

0:28:12.880 --> 0:28:17.240
<v Speaker 1>you have control over like how you go about doing

0:28:17.280 --> 0:28:19.440
<v Speaker 1>it and whether or not you put the effort into

0:28:19.480 --> 0:28:22.959
<v Speaker 1>doing it. But what I My optimistic point of this is,

0:28:23.000 --> 0:28:26.359
<v Speaker 1>like you said, you said, some great stuff just now

0:28:26.760 --> 0:28:28.080
<v Speaker 1>is like you know, you're in the D and D

0:28:28.800 --> 0:28:30.720
<v Speaker 1>and you're in the board games and you're all this

0:28:30.880 --> 0:28:32.399
<v Speaker 1>and you're into all this ship and this is like

0:28:33.840 --> 0:28:39.640
<v Speaker 1>land ship. You know, this is like, well, cass, what

0:28:39.800 --> 0:28:42.240
<v Speaker 1>we're part of the universe you live in.

0:28:43.840 --> 0:28:44.959
<v Speaker 3>I'm in North Florida.

0:28:45.840 --> 0:28:48.880
<v Speaker 1>You're in North Florida. You tell me, you're telling me

0:28:48.920 --> 0:28:52.120
<v Speaker 1>you don't think you can go on uh the fucking

0:28:52.200 --> 0:28:59.000
<v Speaker 1>Internet and assemble a group of six other uh nerdy,

0:28:59.240 --> 0:29:02.560
<v Speaker 1>lonely therety year old men to play D and D with.

0:29:04.360 --> 0:29:05.920
<v Speaker 3>I'm sure it's possible, man, but.

0:29:06.000 --> 0:29:07.440
<v Speaker 1>I'm sure I'm sure they exist.

0:29:08.000 --> 0:29:12.360
<v Speaker 3>Trust somebody in order to, you know, to walk into

0:29:12.360 --> 0:29:14.080
<v Speaker 3>someone's home or he allows them to walk into your

0:29:14.080 --> 0:29:16.960
<v Speaker 3>home after going through so much. It's just a new journey,

0:29:17.000 --> 0:29:17.240
<v Speaker 3>I'm on.

0:29:17.320 --> 0:29:20.760
<v Speaker 1>I suppose yeah, yeah, it takes some time. I'm sorry,

0:29:20.800 --> 0:29:22.120
<v Speaker 1>you said impress somebody.

0:29:23.960 --> 0:29:27.320
<v Speaker 3>I forget not impressed. I forget the terminology I use.

0:29:27.400 --> 0:29:30.960
<v Speaker 3>I'm sorry to trust to somebody to be able.

0:29:30.800 --> 0:29:32.440
<v Speaker 1>To walk to their home or allow them walk in

0:29:32.480 --> 0:29:32.800
<v Speaker 1>your home.

0:29:35.520 --> 0:29:39.120
<v Speaker 3>It's just the no, like leaving the table where you

0:29:39.200 --> 0:29:40.720
<v Speaker 3>do everybody have to sit down at a table full

0:29:40.720 --> 0:29:44.080
<v Speaker 3>of strangers. It's well, it's riddled with anxiety. You know,

0:29:46.480 --> 0:29:48.760
<v Speaker 3>it's a scary thing, even at thirty years old.

0:29:49.440 --> 0:29:57.959
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, you know it. It sucks, Yeah, it it

0:29:57.960 --> 0:29:59.120
<v Speaker 1>it sucks. It's weird.

0:29:59.160 --> 0:29:59.320
<v Speaker 3>Man.

0:29:59.320 --> 0:30:05.880
<v Speaker 1>There's like a there are it's sort of a tale

0:30:05.920 --> 0:30:09.840
<v Speaker 1>as old as time that there are like pros and

0:30:10.040 --> 0:30:14.640
<v Speaker 1>cons of being alone and closing yourself off, and then

0:30:14.680 --> 0:30:17.560
<v Speaker 1>pros and cons of allowing other people to come into

0:30:17.600 --> 0:30:24.760
<v Speaker 1>your life. And it's a very personal decision as to, uh,

0:30:25.560 --> 0:30:27.680
<v Speaker 1>which of those things you're willing to put up with?

0:30:28.200 --> 0:30:32.600
<v Speaker 1>Like nothing's free, nothing's none of these there's nothing's ever

0:30:32.760 --> 0:30:37.000
<v Speaker 1>like uh problem lists. You could even be you could

0:30:37.000 --> 0:30:41.400
<v Speaker 1>be in the most happy fucking marriage or a group

0:30:41.440 --> 0:30:45.200
<v Speaker 1>of friends, and that you're putting up with something. And

0:30:45.240 --> 0:30:46.840
<v Speaker 1>you just decide what you want to put up with

0:30:46.920 --> 0:30:51.960
<v Speaker 1>and what you want to expose yourself to because you

0:30:52.000 --> 0:30:53.760
<v Speaker 1>can go, you can say to your you can say

0:30:53.800 --> 0:30:57.400
<v Speaker 1>to yourself, you know what, I've weighed the pros and cons,

0:30:58.080 --> 0:31:03.280
<v Speaker 1>and I would rather sit at home for the next

0:31:04.920 --> 0:31:08.520
<v Speaker 1>fifty years of my life playing World of Warcraft and

0:31:08.600 --> 0:31:13.000
<v Speaker 1>feeling safe and comfortable and I would rather, I would

0:31:13.080 --> 0:31:21.800
<v Speaker 1>rather deal with loneliness and depression in exchange for this safety,

0:31:23.160 --> 0:31:26.920
<v Speaker 1>or you can go, well, okay, I'd rather deal with

0:31:27.680 --> 0:31:32.800
<v Speaker 1>the idea that I could trust someone and get fucked over.

0:31:35.320 --> 0:31:38.440
<v Speaker 1>But you know, have friends, and I'd rather deal with

0:31:38.520 --> 0:31:46.320
<v Speaker 1>the awkwardness and uncomfortability of effort. I'd rather deal with

0:31:46.360 --> 0:31:51.440
<v Speaker 1>the effort required to put myself out there then be lonely,

0:31:52.040 --> 0:31:54.320
<v Speaker 1>right and you and it's there's pros and cons to

0:31:54.360 --> 0:31:56.680
<v Speaker 1>each of them, but it's a really personal decision as

0:31:56.720 --> 0:32:01.520
<v Speaker 1>to what you want to choose. But yeah, they it

0:32:01.640 --> 0:32:05.720
<v Speaker 1>all all this letting people into your life comes with

0:32:09.720 --> 0:32:13.920
<v Speaker 1>its own set of fuckery, and being alone comes with

0:32:13.960 --> 0:32:16.880
<v Speaker 1>its own set of fuckery. I'm gonna go out on

0:32:17.120 --> 0:32:23.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm just my own personal because I've yeah, spent time

0:32:24.520 --> 0:32:28.680
<v Speaker 1>alone and spent time with other people and observing, you know,

0:32:29.160 --> 0:32:32.000
<v Speaker 1>talking to other people who are entrenched in communities and

0:32:32.280 --> 0:32:34.600
<v Speaker 1>observing and talking to other people who are alone and

0:32:34.640 --> 0:32:36.520
<v Speaker 1>have no one, and it always comes with its own

0:32:36.560 --> 0:32:43.600
<v Speaker 1>set of stuff. Personally, I kind of think it's better

0:32:43.640 --> 0:32:47.440
<v Speaker 1>to try. I think again, it's a very personal decision,

0:32:48.320 --> 0:32:51.640
<v Speaker 1>but from my own point of view, it's better to

0:32:51.800 --> 0:32:59.600
<v Speaker 1>try and put yourself out there and risk getting you

0:32:59.600 --> 0:33:04.479
<v Speaker 1>knows that trust being fucked then to just stay closed

0:33:04.520 --> 0:33:09.960
<v Speaker 1>off forever. And yeah, that's my personal decision. That's that's

0:33:10.000 --> 0:33:13.240
<v Speaker 1>how I look at my own life. But uh uh,

0:33:14.840 --> 0:33:18.360
<v Speaker 1>you know, so it's up to you. That's my that's

0:33:18.360 --> 0:33:19.479
<v Speaker 1>my little thought about it.

0:33:20.520 --> 0:33:22.160
<v Speaker 3>Well you said it's pretty sure and never looked at

0:33:22.200 --> 0:33:24.240
<v Speaker 3>it that way. You're you're trading the comfortability and ask

0:33:24.400 --> 0:33:27.440
<v Speaker 3>the comfortability and the safetiness in your own home. You're

0:33:27.440 --> 0:33:32.080
<v Speaker 3>trading that for the option of being around people and

0:33:32.120 --> 0:33:39.440
<v Speaker 3>being uh in a communal environment. But getting through getting

0:33:39.440 --> 0:33:44.720
<v Speaker 3>through that barrier from wanting safety and Christine environment that

0:33:44.760 --> 0:33:49.120
<v Speaker 3>you could be trustful in is what I'm finding hard

0:33:49.600 --> 0:33:52.320
<v Speaker 3>Like I would agree that getting out there and putting

0:33:52.320 --> 0:33:54.080
<v Speaker 3>yourself out there would be the best course of action

0:33:54.240 --> 0:33:59.320
<v Speaker 3>then wallowing and misery and impression and but trading safety

0:33:59.360 --> 0:34:02.280
<v Speaker 3>is like, it doesn't make sense to my brain right now,

0:34:02.320 --> 0:34:07.200
<v Speaker 3>and it makes me very fearful for like how I

0:34:07.320 --> 0:34:09.840
<v Speaker 3>view the future and how long I'll allow this to

0:34:09.880 --> 0:34:14.680
<v Speaker 3>take control of me. And that's that's really what I'm finding,

0:34:14.760 --> 0:34:16.960
<v Speaker 3>is that not allowing it to take control of me,

0:34:17.000 --> 0:34:20.239
<v Speaker 3>to not to not give up entirely on people and

0:34:20.280 --> 0:34:20.840
<v Speaker 3>in general.

0:34:21.840 --> 0:34:25.200
<v Speaker 2>M hm m hmm.

0:34:26.520 --> 0:34:30.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't know what's uh what's preventing you from

0:34:31.320 --> 0:34:34.160
<v Speaker 1>uh hashtag just do it?

0:34:36.600 --> 0:34:39.440
<v Speaker 3>I guess nothing other than just fear.

0:34:42.239 --> 0:34:53.759
<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah that the the I mean, yeah,

0:34:53.760 --> 0:34:59.200
<v Speaker 1>the philosophy behind it is one thing. But the you know,

0:34:59.239 --> 0:35:01.319
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, man, are there any like little thing like?

0:35:01.320 --> 0:35:03.040
<v Speaker 1>Are there any like little things you want to do?

0:35:03.120 --> 0:35:03.200
<v Speaker 2>Like?

0:35:03.239 --> 0:35:06.120
<v Speaker 1>What? Why don't you fucking I mean, I don't know.

0:35:06.160 --> 0:35:10.840
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. Uh. I have ideas if you want ideas,

0:35:10.880 --> 0:35:13.560
<v Speaker 1>but I don't know. I don't know. Uh. I could

0:35:13.600 --> 0:35:15.960
<v Speaker 1>give you ideas if you want ideas.

0:35:16.200 --> 0:35:19.799
<v Speaker 3>I've always open to ideas, mister Lyle. It's I've never

0:35:19.840 --> 0:35:22.200
<v Speaker 3>been one like this, Like to make make a long

0:35:22.200 --> 0:35:25.000
<v Speaker 3>story quick, I've hiked to Applatan Trail, I've traveled the country.

0:35:25.000 --> 0:35:26.880
<v Speaker 3>I was a ski tech and veil for two years.

0:35:27.440 --> 0:35:29.960
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, look at.

0:35:29.239 --> 0:35:32.799
<v Speaker 3>Carolina and sixteen during the wildfires. I've done a lot

0:35:32.840 --> 0:35:37.040
<v Speaker 3>of things in life, so it for me so withdrawn now.

0:35:37.360 --> 0:35:40.160
<v Speaker 3>Like during all those moments, I was hammered out of

0:35:40.160 --> 0:35:42.840
<v Speaker 3>my mind. I was eating acid, I was traveling the country,

0:35:42.920 --> 0:35:45.760
<v Speaker 3>smoking all the weed I could, doing everything I could,

0:35:45.920 --> 0:35:49.880
<v Speaker 3>and then once all of it stops, I'm so stationary

0:35:49.880 --> 0:35:51.839
<v Speaker 3>and afraid of even putting myself out there to chase

0:35:51.840 --> 0:35:59.160
<v Speaker 3>a wildfire. It's I don't know. I guess the alcohol

0:35:59.280 --> 0:36:01.080
<v Speaker 3>put it in me to be brave, the drugs played

0:36:01.080 --> 0:36:02.879
<v Speaker 3>on me to not care and chase for the next one.

0:36:02.920 --> 0:36:04.160
<v Speaker 3>You know, But.

0:36:06.000 --> 0:36:08.040
<v Speaker 1>Can I go? Now? Go ahead? I want to let

0:36:08.040 --> 0:36:09.080
<v Speaker 1>you finish. Go ahead?

0:36:09.360 --> 0:36:10.280
<v Speaker 3>No, go ahead?

0:36:11.440 --> 0:36:13.120
<v Speaker 1>Now you finished first? You finished first.

0:36:13.960 --> 0:36:15.600
<v Speaker 3>I've already lost the train of thought, my man.

0:36:15.760 --> 0:36:18.040
<v Speaker 1>Okay, all right, can I can I have permission? Can I?

0:36:18.080 --> 0:36:22.160
<v Speaker 1>Can I have permission? Uh to to go cheesy motivational

0:36:22.160 --> 0:36:26.280
<v Speaker 1>speaker mode on you real quick, just for a second. Okay,

0:36:26.640 --> 0:36:29.160
<v Speaker 1>all right, I'm gonna what's your name again?

0:36:30.360 --> 0:36:30.520
<v Speaker 6>Eric?

0:36:31.480 --> 0:36:35.640
<v Speaker 1>Listen? Eric, I think uh I I I will invite

0:36:35.640 --> 0:36:40.440
<v Speaker 1>you to uh change your perspective on this because I

0:36:40.520 --> 0:36:45.640
<v Speaker 1>believe that whatever is in your uh uh brain and

0:36:45.719 --> 0:36:51.719
<v Speaker 1>balls that cause you to do all these things, maybe

0:36:52.000 --> 0:36:56.800
<v Speaker 1>maybe sure was aided by doing a ton of acid

0:36:56.840 --> 0:37:01.400
<v Speaker 1>and getting fucked up. Sure, I'm not gonna discount that.

0:37:01.400 --> 0:37:10.880
<v Speaker 1>That would be unrealistic. But the but the adventurous things

0:37:10.960 --> 0:37:14.680
<v Speaker 1>that you just described, the the lust for life that

0:37:14.719 --> 0:37:19.800
<v Speaker 1>you described I think is a thing that came from

0:37:20.040 --> 0:37:26.960
<v Speaker 1>your actual brain and from you, and I think to

0:37:27.600 --> 0:37:33.520
<v Speaker 1>I think it's a brutal mistake of you to give

0:37:33.880 --> 0:37:40.440
<v Speaker 1>credit to Booze for those things, and I would urge

0:37:40.480 --> 0:37:50.000
<v Speaker 1>you to evaluate truly if Booze deserves, you know whatever,

0:37:50.120 --> 0:37:56.240
<v Speaker 1>give Booze twenty percent, Give give Booze, give Booze seventy percent,

0:37:56.440 --> 0:37:58.879
<v Speaker 1>if you want to give Booze seventy percent, but take

0:37:59.160 --> 0:38:02.000
<v Speaker 1>your thirty percent on a credit for doing those things.

0:38:02.840 --> 0:38:05.480
<v Speaker 1>Take you know, take it. Take whatever credit you can

0:38:06.480 --> 0:38:08.960
<v Speaker 1>that you will are gonna reasonably give to yourself for

0:38:09.000 --> 0:38:14.479
<v Speaker 1>those things, and take it to the fucking bank and go.

0:38:14.719 --> 0:38:17.080
<v Speaker 1>You know, look, at least I'll at least credit myself

0:38:17.120 --> 0:38:20.920
<v Speaker 1>thirty percent with hiking the Appellation Trail. Acid could have

0:38:21.000 --> 0:38:23.480
<v Speaker 1>seventy percent, but I'm gonna take the thirty percent of

0:38:23.560 --> 0:38:27.239
<v Speaker 1>credit for hiking the Appllation Trail. There is something in

0:38:27.320 --> 0:38:31.719
<v Speaker 1>my my brain and gut and of me and of

0:38:31.800 --> 0:38:36.000
<v Speaker 1>my essence that does those things, and I'm gonna use

0:38:36.040 --> 0:38:42.640
<v Speaker 1>my fucking whatever to tap into that so that I

0:38:42.680 --> 0:38:47.560
<v Speaker 1>can go attend a stupid Dungeons and Dragons events, you know,

0:38:48.880 --> 0:38:56.960
<v Speaker 1>sober so, yeah, do do with that, whatever you will, I.

0:38:57.040 --> 0:38:58.640
<v Speaker 3>Totally agree to you. I definitely got to give myself

0:38:58.680 --> 0:38:59.120
<v Speaker 3>some credit.

0:38:59.640 --> 0:39:02.480
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, give yourself some credit. You don't have to end

0:39:02.480 --> 0:39:05.879
<v Speaker 1>like whatever you're comfortable with, give us, give alcohol eighty

0:39:05.880 --> 0:39:08.239
<v Speaker 1>percent of the credit, but get you gotta give yourself something.

0:39:09.680 --> 0:39:15.040
<v Speaker 3>Right, You're absolutely right, mister Lyle. I appreciate that.

0:39:17.080 --> 0:39:19.480
<v Speaker 1>Oh man, that sounds fun. I want to go to

0:39:19.520 --> 0:39:21.319
<v Speaker 1>a dungeons I want to go. I want to go

0:39:21.360 --> 0:39:26.960
<v Speaker 1>to a Dungeons and Dragons thing. Maybe. Uh, yeah, that

0:39:27.040 --> 0:39:29.320
<v Speaker 1>sounds fun. That sounds fun. It does sound like it

0:39:29.320 --> 0:39:30.920
<v Speaker 1>would be fun to get fucked up and go. It

0:39:30.960 --> 0:39:35.040
<v Speaker 1>does sound like that's a fun Yeah. Alcohol is Alcohol

0:39:35.120 --> 0:39:39.239
<v Speaker 1>is a tough one. Yeah, because it's like I've never been.

0:39:39.280 --> 0:39:42.280
<v Speaker 3>I'm like, you know, everybody does it. It's in every

0:39:42.320 --> 0:39:45.319
<v Speaker 3>event you can't you can't watch a sports game or

0:39:45.480 --> 0:39:48.040
<v Speaker 3>go to a friend's birthday party at someone drinking a

0:39:48.120 --> 0:39:52.480
<v Speaker 3>beer or offering it to you. Yeah, And I don't

0:39:52.520 --> 0:39:54.440
<v Speaker 3>see that as the hard part. I see more people,

0:39:54.560 --> 0:39:59.280
<v Speaker 3>I see it more. I see it harder to watch

0:39:59.280 --> 0:40:02.399
<v Speaker 3>people that are or farther in the hole than I

0:40:02.440 --> 0:40:06.480
<v Speaker 3>am now continue to put themselves in the hole. Yeah,

0:40:07.160 --> 0:40:08.560
<v Speaker 3>because I don't want to be like, oh, I'm sober,

0:40:08.600 --> 0:40:10.400
<v Speaker 3>you need to get sober too. I'm not that person,

0:40:10.520 --> 0:40:12.080
<v Speaker 3>but I don't. I'm not going to sit there and

0:40:12.160 --> 0:40:13.840
<v Speaker 3>watch you drink yourself as a whole then get to

0:40:13.840 --> 0:40:14.239
<v Speaker 3>your car and.

0:40:14.280 --> 0:40:20.440
<v Speaker 6>Drive like you couldn't do that, Like, yeah, you know,

0:40:20.760 --> 0:40:23.080
<v Speaker 6>people see it as you're the you're the Debbie Downer

0:40:23.360 --> 0:40:27.200
<v Speaker 6>and they don't want to be around you no more,

0:40:27.280 --> 0:40:29.400
<v Speaker 6>or you just decide not to be around them because

0:40:29.400 --> 0:40:31.680
<v Speaker 6>you're tired of it, explaining that you're like, hey, I

0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:32.359
<v Speaker 6>ruined my life.

0:40:32.440 --> 0:40:33.400
<v Speaker 3>Let's not do that together.

0:40:36.120 --> 0:40:40.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah you can't. I listen. I hope, I hope you

0:40:40.080 --> 0:40:45.680
<v Speaker 1>maintain uh, the optimism that you will find a new

0:40:45.960 --> 0:40:48.400
<v Speaker 1>group of people to hang out with.

0:40:50.840 --> 0:40:52.600
<v Speaker 3>It'll take some time, but I'm sure I'll find it

0:40:52.600 --> 0:40:55.799
<v Speaker 3>in me to be able to get out eventually. Yeah.

0:40:56.040 --> 0:40:58.399
<v Speaker 1>God, damn, that's all you need. That's all you need.

0:40:58.600 --> 0:41:01.000
<v Speaker 1>I have things. I have a lot of U ship

0:41:01.120 --> 0:41:05.000
<v Speaker 1>like that where I'm like, you know, think I don't.

0:41:05.040 --> 0:41:08.120
<v Speaker 1>Things you know are not going the way I absolutely

0:41:08.120 --> 0:41:10.680
<v Speaker 1>want them to write this very moment, but I'm I

0:41:11.040 --> 0:41:16.920
<v Speaker 1>maintain steady optimism that they will eventually because I'm gonna

0:41:16.960 --> 0:41:22.520
<v Speaker 1>just like fucking figure this out. Uh, So you know,

0:41:22.520 --> 0:41:25.560
<v Speaker 1>as long as you have that, you'll you'll maybe probably

0:41:25.640 --> 0:41:26.560
<v Speaker 1>who knows, be fine.

0:41:28.440 --> 0:41:30.960
<v Speaker 3>Right, Just don't give up, dude. I'm sure life is

0:41:31.000 --> 0:41:33.319
<v Speaker 3>a struggle. We're all going through something that puts us down,

0:41:34.000 --> 0:41:36.320
<v Speaker 3>and every everybody has a hurdle to get to the

0:41:36.360 --> 0:41:38.960
<v Speaker 3>next step in the next day. So definitely don't put

0:41:38.960 --> 0:41:41.680
<v Speaker 3>yourself down in your process. Man. I know you're traveling

0:41:41.719 --> 0:41:45.160
<v Speaker 3>a lot, and you're you're posting your you're two to

0:41:45.239 --> 0:41:49.720
<v Speaker 3>three times a week, you're on the air. Just uh,

0:41:50.120 --> 0:41:51.680
<v Speaker 3>just make sure you take care of yourself in that

0:41:51.719 --> 0:41:52.359
<v Speaker 3>process as well.

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<v Speaker 1>My friend, you know, I uh, yeah, I don't know.

0:41:59.000 --> 0:41:59.360
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:41:59.400 --> 0:42:02.200
<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't, I don't know anything anymore. I'm

0:42:02.360 --> 0:42:04.640
<v Speaker 1>actually I'm really happy that we had this conversation because

0:42:04.680 --> 0:42:07.960
<v Speaker 1>for the past twenty minutes, I think giving you that

0:42:08.080 --> 0:42:11.120
<v Speaker 1>motivational speech, I got to live in the Yeah, I

0:42:11.120 --> 0:42:12.840
<v Speaker 1>got to for twenty minutes, I got to live in

0:42:12.880 --> 0:42:15.680
<v Speaker 1>a world where I felt like I knew something and

0:42:15.719 --> 0:42:20.680
<v Speaker 1>that was good. So this was a good conversation, hopefully

0:42:20.719 --> 0:42:22.359
<v Speaker 1>for both of us. Hopefully for both of us.

0:42:23.640 --> 0:42:25.960
<v Speaker 3>Definitely, I'm definitely leaving with something from it, and man,

0:42:26.480 --> 0:42:29.000
<v Speaker 3>just so you know, for the last four months going

0:42:29.000 --> 0:42:31.160
<v Speaker 3>through I've been going through, I've been listening to your

0:42:31.200 --> 0:42:34.240
<v Speaker 3>podcast at least two or three episodes a day, just bored.

0:42:35.760 --> 0:42:38.200
<v Speaker 3>It helps me out, helped me a lot. You definitely

0:42:38.280 --> 0:42:40.640
<v Speaker 3>are helping people out there, and you're teaching people things.

0:42:40.680 --> 0:42:42.480
<v Speaker 3>You're making people realize the things that they don't realize

0:42:42.520 --> 0:42:44.560
<v Speaker 3>by themselves, and I appreciate it.

0:42:44.600 --> 0:42:48.480
<v Speaker 1>Man, Thanks, Eric, I appreciate that. Man, I'm trying my best.

0:42:49.920 --> 0:42:51.239
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:42:51.280 --> 0:42:52.799
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

0:42:54.520 --> 0:42:56.839
<v Speaker 3>Don't give up. Love yourself as much as you love

0:42:56.880 --> 0:42:59.000
<v Speaker 3>the person in the front or beside you. Take care of.

0:42:59.040 --> 0:43:02.040
<v Speaker 1>Yourselves, all right, Go have a beer. You earned it.

0:43:02.160 --> 0:43:02.880
<v Speaker 1>Just kidding, all right?

0:43:02.960 --> 0:43:05.400
<v Speaker 3>See your letter, Eric night Mustow.

0:43:09.000 --> 0:43:13.440
<v Speaker 1>I like that guy. He was a cool guy. Do

0:43:13.520 --> 0:43:17.600
<v Speaker 1>I have any post call thoughts about that? I'm sure

0:43:17.600 --> 0:43:21.960
<v Speaker 1>I do. I'm sure I do. I feel good in

0:43:22.000 --> 0:43:26.200
<v Speaker 1>this moment. I drank a coffee before. Sometimes I should.

0:43:26.680 --> 0:43:28.560
<v Speaker 1>Sometimes I show up to do this podcast and I

0:43:29.000 --> 0:43:31.920
<v Speaker 1>just feel like a dead guy and I'm like, I

0:43:31.960 --> 0:43:37.799
<v Speaker 1>don't have the like I just I yeah, I just

0:43:37.880 --> 0:43:40.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't have the thing. I think to be able

0:43:40.200 --> 0:43:42.920
<v Speaker 1>to do this. But then I sometimes I show up

0:43:42.920 --> 0:43:44.600
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, I feel good right now. I feel

0:43:44.600 --> 0:43:50.360
<v Speaker 1>like it's a my I was talking to a friend

0:43:50.800 --> 0:43:52.920
<v Speaker 1>the other day and I was telling her, I was like,

0:43:52.960 --> 0:43:55.279
<v Speaker 1>sometimes I show up to do this podcast and I

0:43:55.400 --> 0:43:57.799
<v Speaker 1>just like don't feel like I can I have the

0:43:59.760 --> 0:44:01.680
<v Speaker 1>like I can give to it. Like I'm like, oh,

0:44:01.719 --> 0:44:04.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't feel like I can give to it what

0:44:04.480 --> 0:44:08.719
<v Speaker 1>what I think it demands, you know. And she told me,

0:44:08.760 --> 0:44:10.799
<v Speaker 1>she was like, why don't you just use it, like

0:44:10.840 --> 0:44:16.800
<v Speaker 1>as a thought experiment to just be just be like

0:44:16.840 --> 0:44:18.120
<v Speaker 1>when you're on the phone with someone, just be like,

0:44:18.120 --> 0:44:19.920
<v Speaker 1>I'm just gonna be in the fucking moment with this

0:44:19.960 --> 0:44:23.760
<v Speaker 1>one person at this time and not think about how

0:44:25.200 --> 0:44:29.720
<v Speaker 1>it is being perceived as a conversation or like anything

0:44:29.800 --> 0:44:32.279
<v Speaker 1>like that. Just like, can I challenge myself is just

0:44:32.320 --> 0:44:34.400
<v Speaker 1>as a thought process to just be in the moment

0:44:34.440 --> 0:44:38.239
<v Speaker 1>with the person I'm talking to, and like how I like,

0:44:38.320 --> 0:44:40.880
<v Speaker 1>how like because I have you know, I talk a

0:44:40.920 --> 0:44:42.840
<v Speaker 1>whole bunch of shit on this podcast about like perspective

0:44:42.920 --> 0:44:46.359
<v Speaker 1>or whatnot, but I have tons of shitty perspectives and

0:44:47.000 --> 0:44:52.799
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to uh rattle him and get him better.

0:44:53.800 --> 0:44:56.200
<v Speaker 1>Uh so I don't know. Yeah, that's what I'm gonna do,

0:44:57.400 --> 0:45:02.000
<v Speaker 1>at least today and all. So it's easier because of coffee.

0:45:02.120 --> 0:45:03.080
<v Speaker 1>Coffee is good.

0:45:05.520 --> 0:45:06.279
<v Speaker 5>Holy shit?

0:45:07.120 --> 0:45:11.400
<v Speaker 1>Hey, what's up? Hi? Hello? Where are you? Are you

0:45:11.480 --> 0:45:13.799
<v Speaker 1>at a party or something?

0:45:14.080 --> 0:45:17.719
<v Speaker 5>I was at a bar and now I'm outside.

0:45:18.880 --> 0:45:20.959
<v Speaker 1>What bar were you at?

0:45:21.760 --> 0:45:22.839
<v Speaker 5>It's called Hammerhead?

0:45:23.960 --> 0:45:27.799
<v Speaker 1>Hammerhead? Tell me about the bar. What kind of bar

0:45:27.880 --> 0:45:29.480
<v Speaker 1>is it?

0:45:29.480 --> 0:45:33.680
<v Speaker 5>It's a dive bar. It is by at a beach town.

0:45:36.120 --> 0:45:37.920
<v Speaker 1>Are you on vacation or do you do? You live

0:45:37.920 --> 0:45:38.719
<v Speaker 1>in this beach town?

0:45:40.200 --> 0:45:41.239
<v Speaker 5>I live in the beach town.

0:45:42.120 --> 0:45:45.479
<v Speaker 1>Oh can I ask? Can I ask? Where you are? Yeah?

0:45:45.600 --> 0:45:47.040
<v Speaker 5>It's called Amelia Island.

0:45:48.000 --> 0:45:51.840
<v Speaker 1>Amelia Island? Is that where the plane lady went missing?

0:45:53.680 --> 0:45:54.920
<v Speaker 2>I Amelia?

0:45:55.840 --> 0:45:59.839
<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Yeah?

0:46:00.560 --> 0:46:03.120
<v Speaker 2>Uh no, I don't think that's where she went missing.

0:46:03.840 --> 0:46:06.000
<v Speaker 1>Where is a meal? I've never heard of Emilia Island?

0:46:06.000 --> 0:46:06.480
<v Speaker 1>Where is this?

0:46:07.880 --> 0:46:10.520
<v Speaker 5>It's in Florida, North Florida.

0:46:11.560 --> 0:46:14.799
<v Speaker 1>Okay, So how's living on an island? And how's how

0:46:14.920 --> 0:46:18.640
<v Speaker 1>is living in a Florida beachtown? That sounds like that

0:46:18.680 --> 0:46:20.799
<v Speaker 1>sounds like something I would have dreamed of doing when

0:46:20.840 --> 0:46:21.439
<v Speaker 1>I was a boy.

0:46:23.360 --> 0:46:25.759
<v Speaker 5>Uh you know, when you grow up here it's a

0:46:25.840 --> 0:46:28.880
<v Speaker 5>little different, like you want to get out, but it's

0:46:29.680 --> 0:46:31.960
<v Speaker 5>now that I'm older, it's pretty fucking sweet. I'm not

0:46:32.000 --> 0:46:32.520
<v Speaker 5>gonna lie.

0:46:33.080 --> 0:46:35.840
<v Speaker 1>You sound like you're having a fun time. Yeah, you

0:46:35.920 --> 0:46:36.919
<v Speaker 1>sound like you're having a good time.

0:46:39.040 --> 0:46:42.640
<v Speaker 5>Yeah. I've been trying to call you for so long,

0:46:42.920 --> 0:46:45.439
<v Speaker 5>and I'm so excited to be talking to you right now.

0:46:46.040 --> 0:46:49.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm excited to be talking to you too. The fact

0:46:49.320 --> 0:46:51.840
<v Speaker 1>that you and I are talking means that both of

0:46:51.960 --> 0:46:56.120
<v Speaker 1>us have not died yet, which is really good. I think.

0:46:56.320 --> 0:46:58.160
<v Speaker 1>I don't watch. I don't know. Death could be better

0:46:58.200 --> 0:47:01.839
<v Speaker 1>than uh, life, but I don't want to I'll find

0:47:01.840 --> 0:47:05.720
<v Speaker 1>that out eventually. For now, I'm going to.

0:47:06.800 --> 0:47:09.399
<v Speaker 2>Like, Yeah, I like live.

0:47:10.040 --> 0:47:18.319
<v Speaker 1>What's your name again, Lula, Lola, Lula, Lula, l U,

0:47:18.520 --> 0:47:24.080
<v Speaker 1>l A. That's it, Lula. What a great name, Lula?

0:47:24.160 --> 0:47:28.000
<v Speaker 1>What's up? How you doing you? Is there anything? Is

0:47:28.040 --> 0:47:30.080
<v Speaker 1>there anything ahead?

0:47:31.239 --> 0:47:33.360
<v Speaker 5>I'm so sorry. I just want to tell you, like,

0:47:33.480 --> 0:47:36.080
<v Speaker 5>I met my boyfriend because of you, and that's what.

0:47:36.080 --> 0:47:37.360
<v Speaker 2>I really need to talk about.

0:47:37.840 --> 0:47:39.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, yeah, go ahead.

0:47:41.040 --> 0:47:43.840
<v Speaker 5>So we I went to I live in Florida, and

0:47:43.920 --> 0:47:47.560
<v Speaker 5>I went to the Atlanta show just because I go

0:47:47.640 --> 0:47:51.759
<v Speaker 5>to Atlanta kind of often. And I met my boyfriend

0:47:51.760 --> 0:47:54.560
<v Speaker 5>there and now he lives with me and we've been

0:47:54.600 --> 0:47:58.000
<v Speaker 5>together for like four or five months.

0:47:59.080 --> 0:48:02.960
<v Speaker 1>Wow, that's so cool. I love that. That's amazing. How

0:48:02.960 --> 0:48:05.040
<v Speaker 1>did can I? So, did you go to the show

0:48:05.040 --> 0:48:05.600
<v Speaker 1>by yourself?

0:48:07.080 --> 0:48:07.279
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:48:07.320 --> 0:48:09.680
<v Speaker 5>I did, and then I met him at the bar.

0:48:09.800 --> 0:48:13.880
<v Speaker 5>It was at the earl and yeah, I sat next

0:48:13.920 --> 0:48:17.319
<v Speaker 5>to him and then we just started talking and he

0:48:17.480 --> 0:48:20.200
<v Speaker 5>was alone too, and then we went in together.

0:48:20.400 --> 0:48:20.920
<v Speaker 2>We met you.

0:48:21.080 --> 0:48:24.680
<v Speaker 5>We were the people that came in both shows, which

0:48:24.719 --> 0:48:26.440
<v Speaker 5>I don't know if that happens often.

0:48:27.080 --> 0:48:28.440
<v Speaker 4>M M.

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<v Speaker 1>That's so cool. And what did he come alone too?

0:48:33.760 --> 0:48:35.280
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

0:48:35.320 --> 0:48:38.680
<v Speaker 1>Wow? This is uh, this is this is this is great.

0:48:39.000 --> 0:48:41.840
<v Speaker 1>This is great promotion for when I do my next tour.

0:48:43.680 --> 0:48:46.480
<v Speaker 5>It really is. We want you to associate the wedding

0:48:46.800 --> 0:48:47.680
<v Speaker 5>when it happened.

0:48:48.520 --> 0:48:51.560
<v Speaker 1>Well, I'll say if you, if you, here's my promise

0:48:51.600 --> 0:48:53.600
<v Speaker 1>to you is if you promised to do the wedding

0:48:54.120 --> 0:48:58.000
<v Speaker 1>within a fifteen minute walk of wherever I currently am

0:48:58.400 --> 0:49:01.080
<v Speaker 1>in the world at that time, I I one hundred percent,

0:49:01.280 --> 0:49:04.240
<v Speaker 1>we'll do, we'll do, We'll officiate your wedding.

0:49:05.640 --> 0:49:06.000
<v Speaker 5>Heard that.

0:49:06.440 --> 0:49:07.279
<v Speaker 2>I appreciate that.

0:49:08.400 --> 0:49:11.040
<v Speaker 1>No, that's sick. That's fucking really cool. I'm really stoked

0:49:11.040 --> 0:49:13.600
<v Speaker 1>about that. Can I can I ask them? So, what

0:49:13.680 --> 0:49:15.000
<v Speaker 1>can you tell me a little bit more about like

0:49:15.040 --> 0:49:18.600
<v Speaker 1>what was the conversation you guys first had, Like what

0:49:18.640 --> 0:49:18.839
<v Speaker 1>was it?

0:49:18.880 --> 0:49:18.960
<v Speaker 3>Like?

0:49:19.000 --> 0:49:20.160
<v Speaker 1>Would you guys talk about.

0:49:20.280 --> 0:49:24.240
<v Speaker 5>Like, uh, well he was well he was a chef.

0:49:24.360 --> 0:49:27.560
<v Speaker 5>Now he does something different. So and I used to cook.

0:49:27.719 --> 0:49:31.279
<v Speaker 5>So we talked about that for a long time and

0:49:31.320 --> 0:49:34.120
<v Speaker 5>then it just kind of ventured off. We did coke

0:49:34.200 --> 0:49:34.839
<v Speaker 5>the whole night.

0:49:35.040 --> 0:49:37.439
<v Speaker 2>It was cool as fuck, you guys.

0:49:37.680 --> 0:49:40.759
<v Speaker 1>You guys stayed up all night after the Therapy Get

0:49:40.760 --> 0:49:42.360
<v Speaker 1>Go show doing cocaine together.

0:49:43.680 --> 0:49:46.400
<v Speaker 5>Yes, yes, so he did it.

0:49:46.480 --> 0:49:48.839
<v Speaker 1>Sounds it sounds like that sounds like an awesome night.

0:49:48.920 --> 0:49:50.560
<v Speaker 1>Actually what d did he?

0:49:51.040 --> 0:49:51.160
<v Speaker 3>All?

0:49:51.239 --> 0:49:51.359
<v Speaker 5>Right?

0:49:51.440 --> 0:49:58.080
<v Speaker 1>Let me so let's say that. Uh, I'm I'm curious

0:49:58.080 --> 0:50:01.480
<v Speaker 1>about this because like if a young gentleman comes alone

0:50:01.480 --> 0:50:04.680
<v Speaker 1>to a therapy Gecko show and he and he sees

0:50:04.880 --> 0:50:07.560
<v Speaker 1>and he sees another lady that he likes, and maybe

0:50:07.600 --> 0:50:09.560
<v Speaker 1>he's scared to like go up and talk to her.

0:50:09.880 --> 0:50:13.000
<v Speaker 1>I think people get people get fixated on like, oh

0:50:13.040 --> 0:50:15.360
<v Speaker 1>what do I say? Like like because what because the

0:50:15.880 --> 0:50:19.840
<v Speaker 1>middle of a conversation is the easiest part. It's the

0:50:20.200 --> 0:50:23.359
<v Speaker 1>it's the like courage to start one. That's the hardest thing.

0:50:23.440 --> 0:50:25.480
<v Speaker 1>So that's that's what I'm curious about. What what was

0:50:25.520 --> 0:50:26.719
<v Speaker 1>the first thing he said to you?

0:50:28.360 --> 0:50:31.320
<v Speaker 5>Well, I said something to him because he was sitting

0:50:31.360 --> 0:50:34.040
<v Speaker 5>alone and there was an empty bar school next to him.

0:50:34.160 --> 0:50:36.080
<v Speaker 5>So I came up and I was like, Hey, is

0:50:36.120 --> 0:50:39.520
<v Speaker 5>anyone sitting here? And he was like no, And then

0:50:39.640 --> 0:50:42.239
<v Speaker 5>I was like hey to the bartender, I was like,

0:50:42.320 --> 0:50:44.080
<v Speaker 5>am I here for the right thing?

0:50:44.320 --> 0:50:44.400
<v Speaker 1>Like?

0:50:44.480 --> 0:50:47.160
<v Speaker 5>Am I here for therapy? Get go? Because I was

0:50:47.440 --> 0:50:49.799
<v Speaker 5>pretty confused, not gonna lie because it didn't look like

0:50:49.840 --> 0:50:54.359
<v Speaker 5>there was a stage or anything. And then so he

0:50:54.360 --> 0:50:56.479
<v Speaker 5>heard me say that, and he was like, oh my god,

0:50:56.560 --> 0:51:00.279
<v Speaker 5>you're here for therapy. Get and I said yeah, obviously, boy,

0:51:01.120 --> 0:51:06.959
<v Speaker 5>and then we just started talking after that.

0:51:06.960 --> 0:51:10.200
<v Speaker 1>That's awesome. So you started talking to him, Well, okay,

0:51:10.239 --> 0:51:13.520
<v Speaker 1>so it sounds like like you you It sounds like

0:51:13.680 --> 0:51:18.120
<v Speaker 1>you slid in a tiny little thing of like, I

0:51:18.200 --> 0:51:21.200
<v Speaker 1>am open to speaking with other people in this room

0:51:21.280 --> 0:51:24.000
<v Speaker 1>right now. And then he and then he was like

0:51:24.200 --> 0:51:26.000
<v Speaker 1>and then he and then and then and then he

0:51:26.080 --> 0:51:30.000
<v Speaker 1>picked up on that, and that made a little bit easier. Yeah, okay,

0:51:30.120 --> 0:51:34.520
<v Speaker 1>all right. Yeah, so yeah, so it wasn't like, hey,

0:51:34.560 --> 0:51:37.880
<v Speaker 1>you come here often kind of a vibe.

0:51:38.280 --> 0:51:39.560
<v Speaker 5>No, no, not like that.

0:51:40.360 --> 0:51:43.120
<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, but he's I guess he still had to

0:51:43.400 --> 0:51:48.040
<v Speaker 1>have the situational awareness to pick up on your little,

0:51:48.080 --> 0:51:51.600
<v Speaker 1>your little cue of being open to speaking with other people.

0:51:51.600 --> 0:51:56.160
<v Speaker 1>In that moment, he did you gave you get You

0:51:56.200 --> 0:52:00.560
<v Speaker 1>gave it like by by initiating the conversation of hey,

0:52:00.600 --> 0:52:03.319
<v Speaker 1>is anyone sitting here you I think you gave you

0:52:03.360 --> 0:52:06.080
<v Speaker 1>gave him a lot to work with there. Then if

0:52:06.120 --> 0:52:08.120
<v Speaker 1>then if he was, then if you were like sitting

0:52:08.120 --> 0:52:10.480
<v Speaker 1>there on your phone and he had to come in

0:52:10.560 --> 0:52:12.680
<v Speaker 1>and be like, hey, are you here for the Gecko

0:52:12.760 --> 0:52:15.480
<v Speaker 1>show and risk you being like I don't know what

0:52:15.520 --> 0:52:17.879
<v Speaker 1>the fuck that is and don't look at me.

0:52:19.560 --> 0:52:24.320
<v Speaker 5>Exactly and like no offense, but like how many people,

0:52:24.719 --> 0:52:26.440
<v Speaker 5>I mean a lot of people know about the Gecko?

0:52:26.520 --> 0:52:30.600
<v Speaker 5>So like, come on, no.

0:52:30.280 --> 0:52:35.359
<v Speaker 1>No, no, no offense taken. I am. I am exactly

0:52:35.400 --> 0:52:37.480
<v Speaker 1>as famous as I ever desire to be.

0:52:40.520 --> 0:52:42.160
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, you're a favoite of my world.

0:52:42.239 --> 0:52:46.560
<v Speaker 1>Man, Well that's nice. Is has he done anything to

0:52:46.560 --> 0:52:48.360
<v Speaker 1>piss you off in the last five months? Or are you

0:52:48.400 --> 0:52:49.319
<v Speaker 1>guys good?

0:52:50.400 --> 0:52:50.600
<v Speaker 2>No?

0:52:50.760 --> 0:52:52.400
<v Speaker 5>He's literally perfect.

0:52:53.120 --> 0:52:53.359
<v Speaker 1>Wow.

0:52:53.440 --> 0:52:54.040
<v Speaker 5>I could not.

0:52:55.680 --> 0:52:59.880
<v Speaker 1>Wow. I'm so I'm so happy about it because if

0:52:59.880 --> 0:53:01.759
<v Speaker 1>it because if it'd be one thing, if like, uh,

0:53:02.520 --> 0:53:04.920
<v Speaker 1>you know, you were like I met my boyfriend at

0:53:04.960 --> 0:53:07.160
<v Speaker 1>your show, but he's actually a total piece of ship,

0:53:07.400 --> 0:53:09.400
<v Speaker 1>and so I'm mad at you.

0:53:09.440 --> 0:53:12.719
<v Speaker 5>No, literally the best man I've ever met.

0:53:13.239 --> 0:53:17.080
<v Speaker 1>Literally, that's so wonderful. I love that. That's awesome, that's

0:53:17.120 --> 0:53:25.600
<v Speaker 1>so great. Wow. Wow, Well were you at the early

0:53:25.640 --> 0:53:29.200
<v Speaker 1>show or the late show? Oh yeah, you were both.

0:53:29.200 --> 0:53:32.720
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, you were at both the late that's the

0:53:32.880 --> 0:53:35.239
<v Speaker 1>this is I get. I'm alienating people who weren't there,

0:53:35.280 --> 0:53:39.279
<v Speaker 1>which is several thousands of people who listening to this.

0:53:39.440 --> 0:53:43.239
<v Speaker 1>But that late show, that was the drunkest group of

0:53:43.320 --> 0:53:46.240
<v Speaker 1>people I think I've ever seen in my life.

0:53:46.480 --> 0:53:49.320
<v Speaker 5>Oh that show was fun. But I really do think

0:53:49.400 --> 0:53:51.080
<v Speaker 5>that the first show was better.

0:53:52.480 --> 0:53:54.640
<v Speaker 1>Uh yeah, they were, you know, they were fun. They

0:53:54.680 --> 0:53:59.400
<v Speaker 1>were fun. Well, no, no, no, I thought they were

0:53:59.440 --> 0:54:02.080
<v Speaker 1>both fun. I I always that the Atlanta is a

0:54:02.080 --> 0:54:06.600
<v Speaker 1>great city. I always I loved all the shows I've

0:54:06.600 --> 0:54:09.040
<v Speaker 1>done there, both in twenty twenty three and twenty twenty four,

0:54:09.080 --> 0:54:11.799
<v Speaker 1>and who knows, maybe twenty twenty six, I'll get back

0:54:11.800 --> 0:54:12.680
<v Speaker 1>on the road.

0:54:13.840 --> 0:54:18.759
<v Speaker 5>Well, I'm hoping you come to jacks Man Jacksonville.

0:54:19.280 --> 0:54:21.520
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't think I'm gonna do that.

0:54:23.200 --> 0:54:25.640
<v Speaker 5>Oh that's hurtful.

0:54:26.600 --> 0:54:29.080
<v Speaker 1>It is hurtful, But would would Can I ask you

0:54:29.280 --> 0:54:29.960
<v Speaker 1>a real question?

0:54:31.440 --> 0:54:31.760
<v Speaker 2>Sure?

0:54:32.239 --> 0:54:35.840
<v Speaker 1>What's more hurtful to you? Me telling you honestly that

0:54:35.880 --> 0:54:38.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm never gonna come to Jacksonville, Florida or me or

0:54:38.960 --> 0:54:42.000
<v Speaker 1>me going like oh yeah, maybe you know what, Yeah,

0:54:42.040 --> 0:54:44.600
<v Speaker 1>maybe I'll come to Jacksonville, Florida knowing full well that

0:54:44.680 --> 0:54:45.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm never gonna go.

0:54:48.160 --> 0:54:51.520
<v Speaker 5>Both are equally as hurtful. I'm gonna be honest.

0:54:52.760 --> 0:54:55.640
<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, I guess I guess we live in a

0:54:55.680 --> 0:55:01.279
<v Speaker 1>world where being slightly hurtful to you as an unfortunate

0:55:01.360 --> 0:55:05.600
<v Speaker 1>inevitability that we both must go on a journey through.

0:55:07.680 --> 0:55:19.000
<v Speaker 5>Fair enough, But hey, Jacksonville is pretty cool. I'm just saying, well, uh,

0:55:19.120 --> 0:55:20.120
<v Speaker 5>what's your name again?

0:55:20.160 --> 0:55:22.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry? I know I've asked you probably ten times.

0:55:23.680 --> 0:55:24.120
<v Speaker 5>It's cool.

0:55:24.280 --> 0:55:26.920
<v Speaker 2>I know it's Lula, Lula.

0:55:27.080 --> 0:55:28.560
<v Speaker 1>How could I forget that name? Is a good name?

0:55:29.640 --> 0:55:31.799
<v Speaker 1>Is your boy? Yeah? Is? Is?

0:55:31.920 --> 0:55:32.200
<v Speaker 5>Uh?

0:55:32.280 --> 0:55:34.160
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:55:34.200 --> 0:55:35.960
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go?

0:55:39.160 --> 0:55:43.680
<v Speaker 5>No, I just want to thank you for assisting and

0:55:43.800 --> 0:55:46.200
<v Speaker 5>meeting the person that I love so much.

0:55:47.080 --> 0:55:49.759
<v Speaker 1>Thanks so thank you, thank you for calling me and

0:55:49.760 --> 0:55:52.680
<v Speaker 1>telling me this. This is uh. I'm very I'm very

0:55:52.719 --> 0:55:58.520
<v Speaker 1>happy that I could have a positive influence of some

0:55:58.640 --> 0:56:01.080
<v Speaker 1>kind in this way. This is this is good. I'm

0:56:01.120 --> 0:56:03.520
<v Speaker 1>taking this to the bank. I'm gonna feel I'm gonna

0:56:03.520 --> 0:56:05.839
<v Speaker 1>try to feel good about this throughout the day. I'm

0:56:05.840 --> 0:56:09.120
<v Speaker 1>gonna try. I honestly, I'm gonna use this as an

0:56:09.160 --> 0:56:11.880
<v Speaker 1>excuse to commit a crime of some kind today. I

0:56:11.920 --> 0:56:14.759
<v Speaker 1>think I'm gonna steal. Maybe I'll steal something from a

0:56:14.800 --> 0:56:18.440
<v Speaker 1>convenience store or a jaywalk or something like that. I

0:56:18.480 --> 0:56:18.680
<v Speaker 1>don't know.

0:56:18.760 --> 0:56:21.920
<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna think of something you like, some diamonds or

0:56:22.000 --> 0:56:22.719
<v Speaker 5>something like that.

0:56:23.680 --> 0:56:29.239
<v Speaker 1>Dies too. I that's that's that's you're Yeah. Maybe i'll

0:56:29.800 --> 0:56:34.279
<v Speaker 1>how happy are you exactly? Because that's gonna determine how

0:56:34.320 --> 0:56:36.880
<v Speaker 1>sadistic whatever crime I commit will be?

0:56:38.640 --> 0:56:41.640
<v Speaker 5>Okay, well, you'll be good. Thank you so much for

0:56:41.680 --> 0:56:42.359
<v Speaker 5>taking my call.

0:56:42.560 --> 0:56:43.319
<v Speaker 2>This was so great.

0:56:43.360 --> 0:56:44.680
<v Speaker 5>I can't wait to O'Connor.

0:56:45.320 --> 0:56:48.319
<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Lula. I have a good night you too.

0:56:48.600 --> 0:56:55.320
<v Speaker 2>Bye bye bye.

0:56:56.640 --> 0:56:59.799
<v Speaker 1>That's fun. That's fun. That's good. I like that all right?

0:57:00.239 --> 0:57:06.200
<v Speaker 1>Uh see that you know what I really I love

0:57:06.800 --> 0:57:09.120
<v Speaker 1>my like my real like passion. The thing I just

0:57:09.160 --> 0:57:14.719
<v Speaker 1>really fucking love is I love, Uh like create, whether

0:57:14.760 --> 0:57:19.240
<v Speaker 1>it's like my tours or through like whatever the fuck.

0:57:19.360 --> 0:57:25.000
<v Speaker 1>I love like creating. Gathering folks together in physical proximity.

0:57:25.120 --> 0:57:29.120
<v Speaker 1>It's fun. It's cool. I like this makes me happy

0:57:29.120 --> 0:57:32.680
<v Speaker 1>that these two people met because of because of this thing.

0:57:33.800 --> 0:57:36.520
<v Speaker 1>So this is cool. I want to do more stuff

0:57:37.160 --> 0:57:44.280
<v Speaker 1>where people meet in person. Uh, it's cool, it's exciting.

0:57:47.160 --> 0:57:49.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't have anything else. I don't have I don't

0:57:49.120 --> 0:57:51.720
<v Speaker 1>have anything else to say, or maybe I do. I

0:57:51.720 --> 0:57:53.320
<v Speaker 1>don't know. I'm on a lot of coffee. Let's keep

0:57:53.320 --> 0:57:58.240
<v Speaker 1>it rolling. Let's keep it rolling. Hello, hey Lyle, Yeah, Hi,

0:57:58.400 --> 0:57:59.000
<v Speaker 1>what's your name?

0:57:59.360 --> 0:58:00.840
<v Speaker 4>Hey, my name's Alice.

0:58:01.040 --> 0:58:04.320
<v Speaker 1>How are you doing, Alice? Alice? What's up, Alice? How

0:58:04.360 --> 0:58:08.959
<v Speaker 1>am I doing? I'm doing pretty good? Actually? Uh yeah,

0:58:09.000 --> 0:58:13.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm doing pretty good. Actually, I'm enjoying life. I am.

0:58:14.040 --> 0:58:20.880
<v Speaker 1>I am in Tokyo right now, hanging out. Uh. I'm

0:58:20.960 --> 0:58:26.640
<v Speaker 1>in a room, I'm not wearing a shirt, and uh

0:58:26.760 --> 0:58:30.520
<v Speaker 1>I have to pee, but not enough that I'm willing

0:58:30.560 --> 0:58:34.360
<v Speaker 1>to interrupt this conversation. That's how I'm doing in this

0:58:34.480 --> 0:58:38.040
<v Speaker 1>very moment. How are you doing well.

0:58:38.080 --> 0:58:42.120
<v Speaker 4>I'm doing great. I so weird. I knew today was

0:58:42.160 --> 0:58:42.520
<v Speaker 4>my day.

0:58:44.240 --> 0:58:45.640
<v Speaker 1>You knew today was your day?

0:58:47.080 --> 0:58:51.200
<v Speaker 4>I knew, yeah, you know, I haven't. I wasn't talking

0:58:51.200 --> 0:58:53.560
<v Speaker 4>to my little brother for a while because he's like, uh,

0:58:54.040 --> 0:58:55.960
<v Speaker 4>you know, he's in foster care. Things are a little

0:58:55.960 --> 0:58:58.640
<v Speaker 4>weird for him. And he called me today. But then

0:58:58.680 --> 0:59:00.920
<v Speaker 4>I saw you WeLive and I'm like, hey man, I'm sorry,

0:59:00.920 --> 0:59:01.960
<v Speaker 4>I think today's day.

0:59:02.000 --> 0:59:02.480
<v Speaker 2>I gotta go.

0:59:03.120 --> 0:59:10.920
<v Speaker 1>He's like, alrighty, I uh you. I'm trying to understand.

0:59:10.920 --> 0:59:15.919
<v Speaker 1>He you your brother's in foster care. Yeah, how old

0:59:16.000 --> 0:59:17.600
<v Speaker 1>is he?

0:59:17.600 --> 0:59:18.440
<v Speaker 4>He's sixteen?

0:59:19.360 --> 0:59:21.240
<v Speaker 1>And he and he was calling you on the phone

0:59:21.280 --> 0:59:23.040
<v Speaker 1>to talk to you about something, and you were like, sorry,

0:59:23.080 --> 0:59:24.560
<v Speaker 1>I can't talk right now. I got to call the

0:59:24.560 --> 0:59:25.280
<v Speaker 1>therapy gecko.

0:59:27.360 --> 0:59:30.400
<v Speaker 4>Well yeah, we were already talking for like three hours,

0:59:30.600 --> 0:59:32.920
<v Speaker 4>and you know sometime we're just like sitting there listening

0:59:32.920 --> 0:59:33.880
<v Speaker 4>to music or whatever.

0:59:33.960 --> 0:59:35.160
<v Speaker 2>So it's all cool, all.

0:59:35.040 --> 0:59:37.640
<v Speaker 1>Right, all right, all right, Well then we'll then screw him.

0:59:37.680 --> 0:59:39.080
<v Speaker 1>What's up? What's up? How you doing?

0:59:40.880 --> 0:59:42.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm doing okay.

0:59:42.280 --> 0:59:45.240
<v Speaker 4>You know, I was doing pretty rough like last week

0:59:45.320 --> 0:59:48.280
<v Speaker 4>or so, but I dropped a couple of courses because

0:59:48.280 --> 0:59:50.760
<v Speaker 4>I'm in college and they gave me like eight classes

0:59:50.760 --> 0:59:54.280
<v Speaker 4>this semester, so I just dropped a couple decided I'm

0:59:54.280 --> 0:59:57.760
<v Speaker 4>going to take it a little bit like longer than

0:59:58.040 --> 1:00:00.320
<v Speaker 4>normal because I was like on a fast track, which

1:00:00.360 --> 1:00:03.919
<v Speaker 4>was just stupid. And I'm feeling a lot better now.

1:00:04.200 --> 1:00:06.080
<v Speaker 4>And yeah, things are looking up.

1:00:07.000 --> 1:00:10.760
<v Speaker 1>Good, very good. It's good when things look up. You know,

1:00:11.960 --> 1:00:13.080
<v Speaker 1>what are you studying?

1:00:14.880 --> 1:00:18.720
<v Speaker 4>Oh my gosh, it's a Bachelor of Health Information Sciences,

1:00:19.120 --> 1:00:22.400
<v Speaker 4>but it's basically digital health. They're changing the name to that,

1:00:22.480 --> 1:00:24.280
<v Speaker 4>so when I graduate, that's it's going to be on

1:00:24.320 --> 1:00:24.840
<v Speaker 4>the diploma.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry, you said digital health.

1:00:29.320 --> 1:00:32.600
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, like like computer science but for healthcare.

1:00:33.360 --> 1:00:36.520
<v Speaker 1>Yoh, so you're going to be like doing fucking surgery

1:00:36.640 --> 1:00:37.520
<v Speaker 1>on zoom.

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<v Speaker 2>No, oh my god.

1:00:39.880 --> 1:00:43.720
<v Speaker 4>No, I'm going to be like like making sure the

1:00:43.800 --> 1:00:48.560
<v Speaker 4>people that do surgery all the information from that surgery

1:00:48.760 --> 1:00:50.120
<v Speaker 4>is taken care of properly.

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<v Speaker 1>So like so like when Sonic the Hedgehog is having

1:00:55.840 --> 1:00:58.080
<v Speaker 1>chest pains, you're going to go into the computer and

1:00:58.120 --> 1:01:00.440
<v Speaker 1>save him.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, basically we're gonna look at like we can do programming,

1:01:04.920 --> 1:01:07.760
<v Speaker 4>so we could look up find Sonic the Hedgehog, select

1:01:08.040 --> 1:01:13.040
<v Speaker 4>Sonic's heart talent beats per minute.

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<v Speaker 1>Yo, because I don't know why he runs so fast

1:01:16.120 --> 1:01:18.160
<v Speaker 1>in it, but it might have something to it might

1:01:18.400 --> 1:01:22.800
<v Speaker 1>lead to a heart complications. All right, I'm done with

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<v Speaker 1>this joke.

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<v Speaker 2>O love Sonic.

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<v Speaker 3>You're good.

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<v Speaker 1>You said you said today was your day. Well, so

1:01:29.120 --> 1:01:32.120
<v Speaker 1>I guess I'll ask you this. And it's completely fine

1:01:32.600 --> 1:01:35.240
<v Speaker 1>if not. Normally sometimes I say it's fine if not,

1:01:35.840 --> 1:01:38.080
<v Speaker 1>and I don't mean it. But today, I mean it,

1:01:38.480 --> 1:01:41.960
<v Speaker 1>was there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about? Uh?

1:01:42.000 --> 1:01:43.040
<v Speaker 1>And again it's fine if not.

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<v Speaker 4>Man, I just want to talk about life and like

1:01:50.000 --> 1:01:51.120
<v Speaker 4>human connection, I.

1:01:51.040 --> 1:01:54.840
<v Speaker 1>Guess human connection. What about human connection?

1:01:56.960 --> 1:01:59.520
<v Speaker 4>Like it's kind of like the reason I called you

1:01:59.560 --> 1:02:01.440
<v Speaker 4>and the reason and like I talked, listen to your

1:02:01.440 --> 1:02:06.400
<v Speaker 4>podcast all the time. It's like so interesting the interactions

1:02:06.400 --> 1:02:08.920
<v Speaker 4>that humans can have with each other. It's like just

1:02:09.240 --> 1:02:10.080
<v Speaker 4>fascinating to me.

1:02:11.200 --> 1:02:17.360
<v Speaker 1>It is it's a little upsetting to see I don't know,

1:02:17.680 --> 1:02:20.840
<v Speaker 1>it's a little it's a little upsetting to see that. Like, uh,

1:02:21.480 --> 1:02:26.160
<v Speaker 1>I guess a lot of people don't have that, and

1:02:26.240 --> 1:02:30.760
<v Speaker 1>so they are like they just kind of like sit

1:02:30.840 --> 1:02:34.040
<v Speaker 1>on the computer and like I don't know, I don't

1:02:34.080 --> 1:02:38.080
<v Speaker 1>know get like like leap be argue with people in

1:02:38.200 --> 1:02:40.160
<v Speaker 1>like Internet comments sections and stuff.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, yeah, sometimes I'm on Reddit arguing with people.

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<v Speaker 4>But m hm, do be like that?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you what do you argue with people about

1:02:50.480 --> 1:02:51.000
<v Speaker 1>on Reddit?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh? Fuck?

1:02:56.400 --> 1:02:58.360
<v Speaker 4>Well, the last time it was about how bad a

1:02:58.360 --> 1:03:01.120
<v Speaker 4>pizza was. I was posting a picture boat kiwis on

1:03:01.160 --> 1:03:01.640
<v Speaker 4>a pizza.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that's that's you know what that's that's relatively Uh

1:03:10.720 --> 1:03:15.640
<v Speaker 1>what's the word. Uh, that's relatively malignant. Uh. When it

1:03:15.680 --> 1:03:18.160
<v Speaker 1>comes to Internet arguments.

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<v Speaker 4>Maybe I'm stupid.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you mean?

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<v Speaker 1>Sorry? Uh no, maybe I'm stupid, Like maybe that uh,

1:03:24.280 --> 1:03:29.760
<v Speaker 1>relatively mild. I think when it comes to Internet arguments, malignant.

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta stop using words that I don't know what

1:03:31.440 --> 1:03:34.760
<v Speaker 1>the fuck they mean. I'm Google, hold on malignant malig

1:03:35.720 --> 1:03:38.520
<v Speaker 1>like a malignant tumor, Like a tumor. That's not that bad.

1:03:38.600 --> 1:03:43.640
<v Speaker 2>Hold on, you're is like cancerous?

1:03:44.440 --> 1:03:47.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh wait, oh wait, oh malignant is bad. Okay, malignant

1:03:47.360 --> 1:03:51.760
<v Speaker 1>is the opposite of what I thought. It meant, oh

1:03:51.800 --> 1:03:57.600
<v Speaker 1>my whole but not yes, I meant benign. Holy ship,

1:03:57.680 --> 1:03:59.640
<v Speaker 1>that's what that? Oh my god? Okay, No, no, you're

1:03:59.800 --> 1:04:03.040
<v Speaker 1>you You are not stupid. I'm stupid, Belind. I meant

1:04:03.040 --> 1:04:08.160
<v Speaker 1>but not malignants the opposites. Okay, I just this. I

1:04:08.200 --> 1:04:12.520
<v Speaker 1>actually had a this happened to me. I'm twenty seven.

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<v Speaker 1>My whole life, I always thought malignant meant not that bad. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this happened to me one O the time. I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>gonna real quick, the word approximate. I was twenty four, No,

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<v Speaker 1>I was twenty three. Maybe I was maybe like twenty

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<v Speaker 1>three years old when I found out that I thought

1:04:34.560 --> 1:04:40.480
<v Speaker 1>approximate meant like precise, Like when you said like approximately

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<v Speaker 1>seven pm, I thought that met exactly seven pm. And

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<v Speaker 1>then one day I realized. And then when one day

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<v Speaker 1>I found out that approximate it means the opposite. So

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<v Speaker 1>this is the second time that I have been using

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<v Speaker 1>a word incorrectly for my entire life. And I'm glad.

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<v Speaker 1>I okay, good, Okay, I'm glad that I had this conversation.

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<v Speaker 1>This was extremely If this was all, If this entire

1:05:04.280 --> 1:05:08.240
<v Speaker 1>conversation was just me finding out that malignant means bad,

1:05:08.320 --> 1:05:13.439
<v Speaker 1>then there was really good productive conversation for at least me. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>No, I would be like eternally grateful if I could

1:05:16.520 --> 1:05:20.760
<v Speaker 4>have facilitated that for you or maybe even for anyone listening. Yeah,

1:05:21.320 --> 1:05:24.840
<v Speaker 4>and just like a lasting impassion. That's human connection. Man,

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<v Speaker 4>that's exactly what I wanted.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, well, okay, we connected a little bit just now

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<v Speaker 1>in this moment. Then be with that.

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<v Speaker 4>Wait, Lyle, Yeah, do you know my name? No? Oh,

1:05:44.440 --> 1:05:49.200
<v Speaker 4>no worries, no worries. Well you know there was something

1:05:49.720 --> 1:05:51.960
<v Speaker 4>this ice cream truck lady was talking to you about,

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<v Speaker 4>like if you could look at a rock you could

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<v Speaker 4>be happy.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I remember, I was contructing. I love talking

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<v Speaker 1>about Yeah, I remember, I remember her name. It was Angie. Sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>that was I don't know why I said that. I

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<v Speaker 1>think I only I think yeah that was you. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>if you could look at a rock and be happy. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you're good. You're chilling. I'm trying to. I'm debating whether

1:06:20.320 --> 1:06:22.080
<v Speaker 1>or not I can do I've been recently debating whether

1:06:22.160 --> 1:06:25.640
<v Speaker 1>I can do that, whether or not I can be

1:06:25.680 --> 1:06:27.680
<v Speaker 1>happy with like a less than perfect life.

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<v Speaker 2>No, do you.

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<v Speaker 4>Collect rocks at all? That's what you should do?

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<v Speaker 1>You think I should collect rocks?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that's what I've been doing, like, you know, like

1:06:39.400 --> 1:06:50.240
<v Speaker 4>geodes and like crystals and whatnot. Okay, this planet is

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<v Speaker 4>fucking neat. Look what this planet did.

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<v Speaker 2>You?

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<v Speaker 1>But I okay for me, I don't have to collect

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<v Speaker 1>I can just you don't need to collect them. I

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<v Speaker 1>don't need to be in possession of it. I can

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<v Speaker 1>just look at the rock and be like, this is

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<v Speaker 1>a cool rock. I don't got to take it home

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<v Speaker 1>with me.

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<v Speaker 4>Okay, fine, Well we can all look look at rock

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<v Speaker 4>and be happy.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, own place. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like you know you said the way

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<v Speaker 1>you said today is your day? It made it it.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess it indicated to me that you really wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to have this conversation, which I'm honored by, and I

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<v Speaker 1>just in this moment I want to check in with

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<v Speaker 1>you and see if the results of this conversation matched

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<v Speaker 1>your expectations in any way, shape or form.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh my gosh, like like, I still can't even believe

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<v Speaker 4>I'm talking to you right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, good, Okay, good. I was I was worried about that.

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<v Speaker 2>No.

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<v Speaker 4>I think you facilitate a lot of good in this world,

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<v Speaker 4>and you put a lot of good vibes in there,

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<v Speaker 4>and I've definitely received those vibes from you during this

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<v Speaker 4>phone call, for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, good, okay, good. I appreciate that. I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna try to remember your name. Give me two

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<v Speaker 1>seconds on only one. Oh, okay, Alice, there we go. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>you kind of gave that to me though, I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 1>It's no, no, it's it's okay, it's okay. I would,

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<v Speaker 1>I would. I was going to guess Erica.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh yeah, I'm glad I gave it to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Alice. Is there anything else you want to say to

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<v Speaker 1>the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 4>Just appreciate the people around you. That's all I gotta say. Guys,

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<v Speaker 4>have a good one and gex bluff, I think, Alice.

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<v Speaker 1>I will uh, I will see you in uh. I'll

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<v Speaker 1>see you in hell or heaven or wherever, or in

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<v Speaker 1>the dirt or in or in Wonderland or in the dirt.

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<v Speaker 1>But I'll be seeing you at some point.

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<v Speaker 4>Come to Toronto. I'm going to your.

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<v Speaker 1>Show, okay, cool? Yeah. Jacksonville, Florida, I don't know, but Toronto,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm there, beautiful.

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<v Speaker 4>We'll see you then, all.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, by Ellis. I don't have anything particularly against the

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<v Speaker 1>actual city of Jacksonville, Florida. I've never been there. If

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<v Speaker 1>you're from Jacksonville, Florida.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not.

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<v Speaker 1>I've been. I we did Miami, Orlando, Tampa is just

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<v Speaker 1>but Jacksonville. Other people in Jacksonville that would want to

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<v Speaker 1>come to a thing. Also, Toronto is a better city,

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<v Speaker 1>no offense to jackson I can't you know what, you

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<v Speaker 1>know what. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that because

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<v Speaker 1>I've never been to Jacksonville. I've only been to Toronto.

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<v Speaker 1>Toronto's a great city, though I like it a lot. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure Jacksonville is good too. You know what, I'm leaving.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't cut this out. I'm leaving it in. I

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<v Speaker 1>mean I can, but I don't want to because I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not that worried about the about it. Yeah, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>maybe one day I'll go to Jacksonville, Florida to do.

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<v Speaker 1>But I don't know what I would do there. I

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<v Speaker 1>guess I guess the same I guess the same fucking

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<v Speaker 1>thing I would do anywhere else I went in the world,

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<v Speaker 1>which is walk around, saft things and eat. It's the

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<v Speaker 1>only thing to ever do anywhere. All Right, podcast over.

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<v Speaker 3>Goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 6>Derek goes and he's teaching you a loud in the

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<v Speaker 6>memory life, Money's not rem an expert