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Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, Hi. What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Is it okay if I remain anonymous?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Sure, what I'm gonna call you Leslie? I think

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Speaker 1: that's fine, Leslie. What's up, Leslie? How you doing?

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Speaker 2: I'm great? How are you doing?

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Speaker 1: I'm also doing pretty good. I'm having fun. I'm enjoying

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Speaker 1: talking to people on the phone. Uh, and I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: I'm giddy to hear whatever it is that you want

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Speaker 1: to talk about today.

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Speaker 2: Well, I have a questions like is anything off limits

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Speaker 2: that I talk about? Is there anything that I can't

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Speaker 2: talk about that would like her show or like anything

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Speaker 2: like that.

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Speaker 1: I you know, that's a tough question because I feel

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Speaker 1: like for something like that, I feel like I feel

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Speaker 1: like that's a you know it when you see it

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Speaker 2: I mean, fair enough. I want to without a weird

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Speaker 2: series of sexual encounters I had whenever I was nineteen,

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Speaker 2: because I haven't really ever got to talk to anybody

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Speaker 2: about them, and I've been bored in my brain. It's

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Speaker 2: why not talk to internet people's.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna so listen.

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Speaker 2: Uh.

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Speaker 1: The way you are presenting this to me right now

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Speaker 1: is making me think that you you would like to

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Speaker 1: talk about some stuff that sounds like it would be

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Speaker 1: uh territory most suited for a non gecko therapist. That's

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Speaker 1: the vibe.

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Speaker 2: Oh it's not been like bad bad. It wasn't. It

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Speaker 2: was just some whack, just weird, weird. It was just

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Speaker 2: something weird.

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Speaker 1: Okay.

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Speaker 2: I don't have any friends or anybody that I could

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Speaker 2: be like, oh my god, You're never gonna freaking believe

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Speaker 2: this ship a year.

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Speaker 1: Okay, okay, But.

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Speaker 2: If I get going and you feel like it's not appropriate,

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Speaker 2: you know, obviously you're in charge. You can hang up

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Speaker 2: the phone in any moment.

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Speaker 1: Okay, you know what, you know. What what's up, Leslie?

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Speaker 1: What's up?

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Speaker 2: Okay? So back whenever I was nineteen, I got kicked

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Speaker 2: out of the house. So I started living with some

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Speaker 2: roommates and I didn't have any rules, and I was

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Speaker 2: down home for the first time, and I grew up

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Speaker 2: real sheltered. So it's kind of oblivious to a lot

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Speaker 2: of shit.

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Speaker 3: Right.

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Speaker 2: Well, some people that I had met, you know, shortly

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Speaker 2: after I got kicked out, were like, yo, there's this

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Speaker 2: website you should go on because you can meet all

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Speaker 2: these people to boink. And I was like bet. So

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Speaker 2: I got on there and there was this forty five

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Speaker 2: year old man that lived in my and I should

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Speaker 2: say that at that time, that dude was older than

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Speaker 2: my parents. And you know, nineteen year old brain, you're

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Speaker 2: on hormones, and so you're like, yes, let's do that,

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Speaker 2: because that feels like a no, no, why not? But

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Speaker 2: I was of age, everyone was of age. Nothing illegal happened.

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Speaker 2: But so I meet up with this guy in like

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Speaker 2: a public park, right, and am I still on?

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Speaker 1: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, I'm sorry I didn't. I thought I got

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Speaker 2: him up on.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I feel no, no, no, I'm not. I I

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Speaker 1: I appreciate you giving me the permission to randomly hang

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Speaker 1: up on you, but I won't do that.

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Speaker 2: Okay. So I meet up with him in a public park,

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Speaker 2: and I should say the website we were on, you

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Speaker 2: don't you don't post your face, post other things, right,

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Speaker 2: So I have no clue what this dude looks like,

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Speaker 2: and I and he looks have you ever seen puts

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Speaker 2: in boots? He looked like Humpty dumpty hot, like straight

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Speaker 2: up like egg with legs.

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Speaker 4: And.

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Speaker 2: I was kind of put off by it. But the

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Speaker 2: dude was like, I have pot and I was like, ooh,

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Speaker 2: why not and so we go back to his place

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Speaker 2: and he opens up the door and it was a

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Speaker 2: fricking hoarder house, like straight up. And he tried to

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Speaker 2: cover by it by saying, oh, I botched stuff and

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Speaker 2: still it on ebage, don't worry about it. And I

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Speaker 2: was like, you're a hoarder. But whatever, I'm already here.

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Speaker 2: I'm committed. Let's get this over with, right, And so

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Speaker 2: we get down to business and it started off normal,

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Speaker 2: and then he was like, hey, you want to try

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Speaker 2: something crazy? And I was hired, so I was like, yeah,

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Speaker 2: why not, let's go. And he pulls out this pink

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Speaker 2: Duffel bag from under his nasty ass bed and it's

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Speaker 2: full of you know, you know, odds and ends. But

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Speaker 2: the craziest ship that he pulled out was a bamboo cane.

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Speaker 1: A bamboo cane.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, like he had gone out into the wood. He

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Speaker 2: said he made it himself. He went out like into

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Speaker 2: the woods because bamboo grows where I live, like just

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Speaker 2: out in the wh.

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Speaker 1: This man, this man crafted an object for you to

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Speaker 1: shove up his ass.

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Speaker 2: It wasn't his ass, it was the front part. What yeah, founding.

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Speaker 1: Is sound okay? This man asked you to shove a

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Speaker 1: bamboo cane into his dick hole.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I will say it's not like a walking cane.

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Speaker 2: It was more like something that you would use like

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Speaker 2: I don't know how you were raised, but whenever I

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Speaker 2: grew up, my parents popped me with switches and stuff,

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Speaker 2: and it was somewhere around there like it was.

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Speaker 1: It was.

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Speaker 2: It was still pretty. It was scarily big for what

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Speaker 2: I was doing with it.

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Speaker 1: What is like, what's the circumference of this thing?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Man, I don't know, maybe like not quite an inch,

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Speaker 2: but like it was, it's pretty thick, like the size

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Speaker 2: of like a regular pencil, like your standard number two pencil. Hmm.

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Speaker 1: Okay, okay, okay, this is the size of a pencil. Okay,

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Speaker 1: all right, I could see that fitting in a dick hole.

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Speaker 1: There we go, all right, I just did you? Did you?

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Speaker 5: Did you?

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Speaker 1: Did you shove this cane and this guy's dick hole?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I did, Yes, I did, And I felt real

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Speaker 2: icky do in it, But he was like, it's fine,

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Speaker 2: Just I'll give you a bunch of pot when this

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Speaker 2: is over with. And I was like, okay, whatever, but

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Speaker 2: that's not the worst part. So after that he sorry,

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Speaker 2: I get like blish thinking about it, but he was like, hey,

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Speaker 2: I want you to. He wanted me to shove tick

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Speaker 2: tacks down there and crunch them with my teeth. So

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Speaker 2: mm hmm. And so I did it down there.

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Speaker 1: You shoved fours into this guy's dick hole and.

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Speaker 2: Then yeah, yeah, and crunched thems like crunched on his

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Speaker 2: pepe and it made me feel really gross because I

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Speaker 2: was scared I was hurting him. And then he was like, no,

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Speaker 2: you can do it harder, and I was like, oh

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Speaker 2: and I should I need I'm sorry a little bit

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Speaker 2: of context. The only reason that I met up with

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Speaker 2: this guy is because I saw his picture on the

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Speaker 2: site right, which was of his beetpeet and it was

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Speaker 2: real large, like a monster can, which didn't fit his

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Speaker 2: looks at all, very off putting. That Humpty Dumpty has

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Speaker 2: like a like freaking schlong.

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Speaker 1: How did they fit in?

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Speaker 2: Like?

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Speaker 1: How did they? How did you fit for tic tacks

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Speaker 1: into this guy's dickle?

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Speaker 2: Very carefully?

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Speaker 1: Where does it?

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Speaker 3: Like?

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Speaker 1: What how did he get how did he get him

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Speaker 1: out of there?

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Speaker 2: I told you, I crunched him up and so then

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Speaker 2: he went in pe after and I got him out.

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Speaker 1: I guess let let les leslie real quick just before

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Speaker 1: we go any further with this, okay, and again, human

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Speaker 1: being to human being, please like just like forget about

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Speaker 1: the part like just you like Leslie? Yeah, are you

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Speaker 1: fucking with me right now?

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Speaker 2: I swear to God I'm not.

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Speaker 1: Okay, Okay, all right, So so go ahead, keep going

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Speaker 1: if you want to keep going.

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Speaker 2: Okay. I left, and I used to work at a dominoes,

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Speaker 2: and so I walked into the dominance where I worked,

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Speaker 2: and I told my boss, it was also my roommate,

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Speaker 2: that I was probably gonna need to take the next

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Speaker 2: day off of work to recuperate the ship that just happened.

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Speaker 2: And then I went home. I didn't tell him all

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Speaker 2: the details because I didn't feel comfortable. I just said

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Speaker 2: I needed some time. And I went home and I

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Speaker 2: smoked like a whole half ounce of pot and I

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Speaker 2: think I slept for like two days, and I just

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Speaker 2: try not to think about it. But I've been thinking

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Speaker 2: about it a lot lately, especially since I'm on that site.

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Speaker 2: And he reached out to me again recent you wanting

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Speaker 2: me to okay again, You're you're.

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Speaker 1: You're back, You're back on the website.

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Speaker 2: Oh, I never.

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Speaker 1: Left Okay, how how old are you now?

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Speaker 2: Twenty six?

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, so this was this TikTok Oh so

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Speaker 1: this was like seven years ago.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, this happened a long time ago.

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Speaker 1: That tiktac thing is what is maybe one of the

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Speaker 1: most that tic tac thing is probably it's at least

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Speaker 1: that tiktac thing. I know, like, I know I've thrown

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Speaker 1: I know I've thrown this around a lot. That tictac

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Speaker 1: thing is probably top three most fucked up things I

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Speaker 1: have heard doing this.

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Speaker 2: I'm glad I could contribute, but hey, just imagine how ill.

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Speaker 1: Of course, of course.

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Speaker 2: About it, but it's all fucked up like that.

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Uh, how you how you doing?

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Speaker 2: Oh I'm good now I call him down. Okay, I'm

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Speaker 2: married with kids now are you?

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Speaker 1: Are you serious?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: You're married with kids now?

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Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: Wait, so why are you still on the website?

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Speaker 2: Me and my husband are both on it.

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Speaker 1: Oh you meet your.

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Speaker 2: Yeah I did, Actually I met him on that site.

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Speaker 2: Really he was he was supposed to be a one

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Speaker 2: night stand mm hmm, but I guess I was just

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Speaker 2: too good.

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Speaker 1: How long have you and your husband been.

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Speaker 2: Together a little bit over five years?

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Speaker 1: Wow? Hmmm. Uh uh, that's awesome. How old are your kids?

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Speaker 2: Uh? I got an eight year old, a five year old,

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Speaker 2: and a seven month old. Okay wait, I should clarify

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Speaker 2: two of those are step kids. Oh okay, but I

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Speaker 2: consider them my children because I've been around the five

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Speaker 2: year old. I mean I've been around since he was

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Speaker 2: a baby, because my husband and his ex wife they

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Speaker 2: divorced while she was like before she even found out

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Speaker 2: she was pregnant with him.

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Speaker 1: What. What's this website?

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Speaker 2: It's called fet life. It's not paid or anything. It's

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Speaker 2: just like, oh, okay, I didn't know. Some people aren't

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Speaker 2: super familiar with it, at least not where I'm from.

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Speaker 1: A well are you are? Have you ever talked to

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Speaker 1: a real therapist about any of this?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 1: I did.

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Speaker 2: I went to therapy for like two or three years,

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Speaker 1: Well, yeah, that that tic Tac thing, it definitely is

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Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, do you I do you have? I don't

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Speaker 2: No? I haven't. I do listen to your podcast, just

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Speaker 1: You have you have three kids?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? I mean for the most part, you know, but

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Speaker 1: So doing good, doing good. Thank you for sharing, Leslie.

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Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

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Speaker 2: Go, make good choices about who you have sex with

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Speaker 1: God bless you lessly take care. I do not have

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Speaker 3: Hello, what's up man?

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Speaker 1: How you doing buddy? What's your name?

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Speaker 3: My name is Eric, Eric.

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Speaker 1: What what do you do? What do you what do

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Speaker 3: Making a cup of coffee? Playing some World of Warcraft?

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Speaker 1: Waiting on that PVPQ he okay, all right, are you

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Speaker 1: My dude, cool. It is an honor to be a

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Speaker 1: How you doing? How's life? Man?

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Speaker 3: Life's been a train ride, dude. Last two years have

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Speaker 3: I'm about four three and a half, almost four months sober, sober?

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Speaker 3: It's very depressing realizing that all the people you've surrounded

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Speaker 3: But that's pretty much from that. Man, can't go to

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Speaker 3: start conversations and stuff and try to meet new people,

445
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Speaker 3: I suppose, but I'm more afraid to even leave my

446
00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:45,680
Speaker 3: house nowadays. Honestly, if it's not trying to find a

447
00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:49,720
Speaker 3: job or make some money or stick to myself, then

448
00:25:50,080 --> 00:25:53,120
Speaker 3: I'm not really putting myself out there to be around anybody.

449
00:25:54,440 --> 00:25:57,960
Speaker 3: M Yeah, that's a problem in.

450
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Speaker 1: Yeah, uh yeah, it's exhausting, it's fucking I mean, are

451
00:26:04,720 --> 00:26:06,440
Speaker 1: you when you say Facebook dating, are you like trying

452
00:26:06,480 --> 00:26:09,560
Speaker 1: to find like a new GF or are you trying

453
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Speaker 1: to find friends?

454
00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 3: Well, they have like the friendship option on there, and

455
00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:15,800
Speaker 3: I've just opened the conversation get me out of my

456
00:26:15,840 --> 00:26:19,800
Speaker 3: own box. You know, I'm not really the person I

457
00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:23,600
Speaker 3: lost a couple of months ago, really really latched onto

458
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Speaker 3: and really had a lot of plans with so losing

459
00:26:26,560 --> 00:26:29,159
Speaker 3: them kind of like put me in a box, so

460
00:26:29,240 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 3: to say, to where I'm closing myself off from that

461
00:26:31,880 --> 00:26:35,800
Speaker 3: kind of connection and just trying to make a new

462
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Speaker 3: group of friends, someone I could go play D and

463
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Speaker 3: D with, if that, or even game night, just to

464
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Speaker 3: go play some cards, some magic or something, you know,

465
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Speaker 3: And it's not really easy to find those groups of people,

466
00:26:46,400 --> 00:26:49,359
Speaker 3: and especially not a sober one. Nowadays, we've all got

467
00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:51,440
Speaker 3: our problems where we all got our clicks and their niches,

468
00:26:51,520 --> 00:26:56,359
Speaker 3: and timing is a issue being an adult, sadly, so

469
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Speaker 3: it's I found it easier to stick myself in home

470
00:27:02,600 --> 00:27:07,040
Speaker 3: and just play Solitaire or PvP on Warcraft, you know,

471
00:27:07,160 --> 00:27:09,479
Speaker 3: and then then waste my time and put myself out

472
00:27:09,520 --> 00:27:10,280
Speaker 3: there to get hurt again.

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Speaker 1: Mm yeah, yeah, hmmm, well, well, I I mean, if

474
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Speaker 1: I can give you my optimistic take on this, because

475
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Speaker 1: uh yeah, it's like it's a lot of like building

476
00:27:35,440 --> 00:27:38,960
Speaker 1: a life that you like and at a community that

477
00:27:39,000 --> 00:27:42,280
Speaker 1: you like is a lot of fucking work, and it

478
00:27:42,320 --> 00:27:44,240
Speaker 1: takes a lot of time and a lot of effort

479
00:27:44,280 --> 00:27:51,399
Speaker 1: and a lot of disappointment because you're you're particularly working

480
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:54,879
Speaker 1: in the realm of things you can't control, right when

481
00:27:54,920 --> 00:27:58,720
Speaker 1: you're trying to build a community or trying to make friends,

482
00:27:59,680 --> 00:28:03,760
Speaker 1: because there's a lot of because you're, yeah, you're playing

483
00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:06,159
Speaker 1: politics without being You're trying to like get other people

484
00:28:06,200 --> 00:28:10,600
Speaker 1: to join your life, and that's hard because you don't

485
00:28:10,640 --> 00:28:12,840
Speaker 1: you don't have control over other people. But I guess

486
00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:17,240
Speaker 1: you have control over like how you go about doing

487
00:28:17,280 --> 00:28:19,440
Speaker 1: it and whether or not you put the effort into

488
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Speaker 1: doing it. But what I My optimistic point of this is,

489
00:28:23,000 --> 00:28:26,359
Speaker 1: like you said, you said, some great stuff just now

490
00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:28,080
Speaker 1: is like you know, you're in the D and D

491
00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:30,720
Speaker 1: and you're in the board games and you're all this

492
00:28:30,880 --> 00:28:32,399
Speaker 1: and you're into all this ship and this is like

493
00:28:33,840 --> 00:28:39,640
Speaker 1: land ship. You know, this is like, well, cass, what

494
00:28:39,800 --> 00:28:42,240
Speaker 1: we're part of the universe you live in.

495
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Speaker 3: I'm in North Florida.

496
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Speaker 1: You're in North Florida. You tell me, you're telling me

497
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Speaker 1: you don't think you can go on uh the fucking

498
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Speaker 1: Internet and assemble a group of six other uh nerdy,

499
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Speaker 1: lonely therety year old men to play D and D with.

500
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Speaker 3: I'm sure it's possible, man, but.

501
00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:07,440
Speaker 1: I'm sure I'm sure they exist.

502
00:29:08,000 --> 00:29:12,360
Speaker 3: Trust somebody in order to, you know, to walk into

503
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Speaker 3: someone's home or he allows them to walk into your

504
00:29:14,080 --> 00:29:16,960
Speaker 3: home after going through so much. It's just a new journey,

505
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:17,240
Speaker 3: I'm on.

506
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Speaker 1: I suppose yeah, yeah, it takes some time. I'm sorry,

507
00:29:20,800 --> 00:29:22,120
Speaker 1: you said impress somebody.

508
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Speaker 3: I forget not impressed. I forget the terminology I use.

509
00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:30,960
Speaker 3: I'm sorry to trust to somebody to be able.

510
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Speaker 1: To walk to their home or allow them walk in

511
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Speaker 1: your home.

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Speaker 3: It's just the no, like leaving the table where you

513
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Speaker 3: do everybody have to sit down at a table full

514
00:29:40,720 --> 00:29:44,080
Speaker 3: of strangers. It's well, it's riddled with anxiety. You know,

515
00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:48,760
Speaker 3: it's a scary thing, even at thirty years old.

516
00:29:49,440 --> 00:29:57,959
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, you know it. It sucks, Yeah, it it

517
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Speaker 1: it sucks. It's weird.

518
00:29:59,160 --> 00:29:59,320
Speaker 3: Man.

519
00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:05,880
Speaker 1: There's like a there are it's sort of a tale

520
00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 1: as old as time that there are like pros and

521
00:30:10,040 --> 00:30:14,640
Speaker 1: cons of being alone and closing yourself off, and then

522
00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:17,560
Speaker 1: pros and cons of allowing other people to come into

523
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:24,760
Speaker 1: your life. And it's a very personal decision as to, uh,

524
00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:27,680
Speaker 1: which of those things you're willing to put up with?

525
00:30:28,200 --> 00:30:32,600
Speaker 1: Like nothing's free, nothing's none of these there's nothing's ever

526
00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:37,000
Speaker 1: like uh problem lists. You could even be you could

527
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Speaker 1: be in the most happy fucking marriage or a group

528
00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:45,200
Speaker 1: of friends, and that you're putting up with something. And

529
00:30:45,240 --> 00:30:46,840
Speaker 1: you just decide what you want to put up with

530
00:30:46,920 --> 00:30:51,960
Speaker 1: and what you want to expose yourself to because you

531
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Speaker 1: can go, you can say to your you can say

532
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Speaker 1: to yourself, you know what, I've weighed the pros and cons,

533
00:30:58,080 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 1: and I would rather sit at home for the next

534
00:31:04,920 --> 00:31:08,520
Speaker 1: fifty years of my life playing World of Warcraft and

535
00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:13,000
Speaker 1: feeling safe and comfortable and I would rather, I would

536
00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 1: rather deal with loneliness and depression in exchange for this safety,

537
00:31:23,160 --> 00:31:26,920
Speaker 1: or you can go, well, okay, I'd rather deal with

538
00:31:27,680 --> 00:31:32,800
Speaker 1: the idea that I could trust someone and get fucked over.

539
00:31:35,320 --> 00:31:38,440
Speaker 1: But you know, have friends, and I'd rather deal with

540
00:31:38,520 --> 00:31:46,320
Speaker 1: the awkwardness and uncomfortability of effort. I'd rather deal with

541
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:51,440
Speaker 1: the effort required to put myself out there then be lonely,

542
00:31:52,040 --> 00:31:54,320
Speaker 1: right and you and it's there's pros and cons to

543
00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:56,680
Speaker 1: each of them, but it's a really personal decision as

544
00:31:56,720 --> 00:32:01,520
Speaker 1: to what you want to choose. But yeah, they it

545
00:32:01,640 --> 00:32:05,720
Speaker 1: all all this letting people into your life comes with

546
00:32:09,720 --> 00:32:13,920
Speaker 1: its own set of fuckery, and being alone comes with

547
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:16,880
Speaker 1: its own set of fuckery. I'm gonna go out on

548
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:23,960
Speaker 1: I'm just my own personal because I've yeah, spent time

549
00:32:24,520 --> 00:32:28,680
Speaker 1: alone and spent time with other people and observing, you know,

550
00:32:29,160 --> 00:32:32,000
Speaker 1: talking to other people who are entrenched in communities and

551
00:32:32,280 --> 00:32:34,600
Speaker 1: observing and talking to other people who are alone and

552
00:32:34,640 --> 00:32:36,520
Speaker 1: have no one, and it always comes with its own

553
00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:43,600
Speaker 1: set of stuff. Personally, I kind of think it's better

554
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:47,440
Speaker 1: to try. I think again, it's a very personal decision,

555
00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:51,640
Speaker 1: but from my own point of view, it's better to

556
00:32:51,800 --> 00:32:59,600
Speaker 1: try and put yourself out there and risk getting you

557
00:32:59,600 --> 00:33:04,479
Speaker 1: knows that trust being fucked then to just stay closed

558
00:33:04,520 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 1: off forever. And yeah, that's my personal decision. That's that's

559
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:13,240
Speaker 1: how I look at my own life. But uh uh,

560
00:33:14,840 --> 00:33:18,360
Speaker 1: you know, so it's up to you. That's my that's

561
00:33:18,360 --> 00:33:19,479
Speaker 1: my little thought about it.

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00:33:20,520 --> 00:33:22,160
Speaker 3: Well you said it's pretty sure and never looked at

563
00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:24,240
Speaker 3: it that way. You're you're trading the comfortability and ask

564
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 3: the comfortability and the safetiness in your own home. You're

565
00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:32,080
Speaker 3: trading that for the option of being around people and

566
00:33:32,120 --> 00:33:39,440
Speaker 3: being uh in a communal environment. But getting through getting

567
00:33:39,440 --> 00:33:44,720
Speaker 3: through that barrier from wanting safety and Christine environment that

568
00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:49,120
Speaker 3: you could be trustful in is what I'm finding hard

569
00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:52,320
Speaker 3: Like I would agree that getting out there and putting

570
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,080
Speaker 3: yourself out there would be the best course of action

571
00:33:54,240 --> 00:33:59,320
Speaker 3: then wallowing and misery and impression and but trading safety

572
00:33:59,360 --> 00:34:02,280
Speaker 3: is like, it doesn't make sense to my brain right now,

573
00:34:02,320 --> 00:34:07,200
Speaker 3: and it makes me very fearful for like how I

574
00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:09,840
Speaker 3: view the future and how long I'll allow this to

575
00:34:09,880 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 3: take control of me. And that's that's really what I'm finding,

576
00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:16,960
Speaker 3: is that not allowing it to take control of me,

577
00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 3: to not to not give up entirely on people and

578
00:34:20,280 --> 00:34:20,840
Speaker 3: in general.

579
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Speaker 2: M hm m hmm.

580
00:34:26,520 --> 00:34:30,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know what's uh what's preventing you from

581
00:34:31,320 --> 00:34:34,160
Speaker 1: uh hashtag just do it?

582
00:34:36,600 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 3: I guess nothing other than just fear.

583
00:34:42,239 --> 00:34:53,759
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah that the the I mean, yeah,

584
00:34:53,760 --> 00:34:59,200
Speaker 1: the philosophy behind it is one thing. But the you know,

585
00:34:59,239 --> 00:35:01,319
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, are there any like little thing like?

586
00:35:01,320 --> 00:35:03,040
Speaker 1: Are there any like little things you want to do?

587
00:35:03,120 --> 00:35:03,200
Speaker 2: Like?

588
00:35:03,239 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 1: What? Why don't you fucking I mean, I don't know.

589
00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:10,840
Speaker 1: I don't know. Uh. I have ideas if you want ideas,

590
00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 1: but I don't know. I don't know. Uh. I could

591
00:35:13,600 --> 00:35:15,960
Speaker 1: give you ideas if you want ideas.

592
00:35:16,200 --> 00:35:19,799
Speaker 3: I've always open to ideas, mister Lyle. It's I've never

593
00:35:19,840 --> 00:35:22,200
Speaker 3: been one like this, Like to make make a long

594
00:35:22,200 --> 00:35:25,000
Speaker 3: story quick, I've hiked to Applatan Trail, I've traveled the country.

595
00:35:25,000 --> 00:35:26,880
Speaker 3: I was a ski tech and veil for two years.

596
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:29,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, look at.

597
00:35:29,239 --> 00:35:32,799
Speaker 3: Carolina and sixteen during the wildfires. I've done a lot

598
00:35:32,840 --> 00:35:37,040
Speaker 3: of things in life, so it for me so withdrawn now.

599
00:35:37,360 --> 00:35:40,160
Speaker 3: Like during all those moments, I was hammered out of

600
00:35:40,160 --> 00:35:42,840
Speaker 3: my mind. I was eating acid, I was traveling the country,

601
00:35:42,920 --> 00:35:45,760
Speaker 3: smoking all the weed I could, doing everything I could,

602
00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:49,880
Speaker 3: and then once all of it stops, I'm so stationary

603
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:51,839
Speaker 3: and afraid of even putting myself out there to chase

604
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:59,160
Speaker 3: a wildfire. It's I don't know. I guess the alcohol

605
00:35:59,280 --> 00:36:01,080
Speaker 3: put it in me to be brave, the drugs played

606
00:36:01,080 --> 00:36:02,879
Speaker 3: on me to not care and chase for the next one.

607
00:36:02,920 --> 00:36:04,160
Speaker 3: You know, But.

608
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,040
Speaker 1: Can I go? Now? Go ahead? I want to let

609
00:36:08,040 --> 00:36:09,080
Speaker 1: you finish. Go ahead?

610
00:36:09,360 --> 00:36:10,280
Speaker 3: No, go ahead?

611
00:36:11,440 --> 00:36:13,120
Speaker 1: Now you finished first? You finished first.

612
00:36:13,960 --> 00:36:15,600
Speaker 3: I've already lost the train of thought, my man.

613
00:36:15,760 --> 00:36:18,040
Speaker 1: Okay, all right, can I can I have permission? Can I?

614
00:36:18,080 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 1: Can I have permission? Uh to to go cheesy motivational

615
00:36:22,160 --> 00:36:26,280
Speaker 1: speaker mode on you real quick, just for a second. Okay,

616
00:36:26,640 --> 00:36:29,160
Speaker 1: all right, I'm gonna what's your name again?

617
00:36:30,360 --> 00:36:30,520
Speaker 6: Eric?

618
00:36:31,480 --> 00:36:35,640
Speaker 1: Listen? Eric, I think uh I I I will invite

619
00:36:35,640 --> 00:36:40,440
Speaker 1: you to uh change your perspective on this because I

620
00:36:40,520 --> 00:36:45,640
Speaker 1: believe that whatever is in your uh uh brain and

621
00:36:45,719 --> 00:36:51,719
Speaker 1: balls that cause you to do all these things, maybe

622
00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:56,800
Speaker 1: maybe sure was aided by doing a ton of acid

623
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Speaker 1: and getting fucked up. Sure, I'm not gonna discount that.

624
00:37:01,400 --> 00:37:10,880
Speaker 1: That would be unrealistic. But the but the adventurous things

625
00:37:10,960 --> 00:37:14,680
Speaker 1: that you just described, the the lust for life that

626
00:37:14,719 --> 00:37:19,800
Speaker 1: you described I think is a thing that came from

627
00:37:20,040 --> 00:37:26,960
Speaker 1: your actual brain and from you, and I think to

628
00:37:27,600 --> 00:37:33,520
Speaker 1: I think it's a brutal mistake of you to give

629
00:37:33,880 --> 00:37:40,440
Speaker 1: credit to Booze for those things, and I would urge

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00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:50,000
Speaker 1: you to evaluate truly if Booze deserves, you know whatever,

631
00:37:50,120 --> 00:37:56,240
Speaker 1: give Booze twenty percent, Give give Booze, give Booze seventy percent,

632
00:37:56,440 --> 00:37:58,879
Speaker 1: if you want to give Booze seventy percent, but take

633
00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:02,000
Speaker 1: your thirty percent on a credit for doing those things.

634
00:38:02,840 --> 00:38:05,480
Speaker 1: Take you know, take it. Take whatever credit you can

635
00:38:06,480 --> 00:38:08,960
Speaker 1: that you will are gonna reasonably give to yourself for

636
00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:14,479
Speaker 1: those things, and take it to the fucking bank and go.

637
00:38:14,719 --> 00:38:17,080
Speaker 1: You know, look, at least I'll at least credit myself

638
00:38:17,120 --> 00:38:20,920
Speaker 1: thirty percent with hiking the Appellation Trail. Acid could have

639
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:23,480
Speaker 1: seventy percent, but I'm gonna take the thirty percent of

640
00:38:23,560 --> 00:38:27,239
Speaker 1: credit for hiking the Appllation Trail. There is something in

641
00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:31,719
Speaker 1: my my brain and gut and of me and of

642
00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:36,000
Speaker 1: my essence that does those things, and I'm gonna use

643
00:38:36,040 --> 00:38:42,640
Speaker 1: my fucking whatever to tap into that so that I

644
00:38:42,680 --> 00:38:47,560
Speaker 1: can go attend a stupid Dungeons and Dragons events, you know,

645
00:38:48,880 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 1: sober so, yeah, do do with that, whatever you will, I.

646
00:38:57,040 --> 00:38:58,640
Speaker 3: Totally agree to you. I definitely got to give myself

647
00:38:58,680 --> 00:38:59,120
Speaker 3: some credit.

648
00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:02,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, give yourself some credit. You don't have to end

649
00:39:02,480 --> 00:39:05,879
Speaker 1: like whatever you're comfortable with, give us, give alcohol eighty

650
00:39:05,880 --> 00:39:08,239
Speaker 1: percent of the credit, but get you gotta give yourself something.

651
00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:15,040
Speaker 3: Right, You're absolutely right, mister Lyle. I appreciate that.

652
00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 1: Oh man, that sounds fun. I want to go to

653
00:39:19,520 --> 00:39:21,319
Speaker 1: a dungeons I want to go. I want to go

654
00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:26,960
Speaker 1: to a Dungeons and Dragons thing. Maybe. Uh, yeah, that

655
00:39:27,040 --> 00:39:29,320
Speaker 1: sounds fun. That sounds fun. It does sound like it

656
00:39:29,320 --> 00:39:30,920
Speaker 1: would be fun to get fucked up and go. It

657
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:35,040
Speaker 1: does sound like that's a fun Yeah. Alcohol is Alcohol

658
00:39:35,120 --> 00:39:39,239
Speaker 1: is a tough one. Yeah, because it's like I've never been.

659
00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:42,280
Speaker 3: I'm like, you know, everybody does it. It's in every

660
00:39:42,320 --> 00:39:45,319
Speaker 3: event you can't you can't watch a sports game or

661
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Speaker 3: go to a friend's birthday party at someone drinking a

662
00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:52,480
Speaker 3: beer or offering it to you. Yeah, And I don't

663
00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:54,440
Speaker 3: see that as the hard part. I see more people,

664
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Speaker 3: I see it more. I see it harder to watch

665
00:39:59,280 --> 00:40:02,399
Speaker 3: people that are or farther in the hole than I

666
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:06,480
Speaker 3: am now continue to put themselves in the hole. Yeah,

667
00:40:07,160 --> 00:40:08,560
Speaker 3: because I don't want to be like, oh, I'm sober,

668
00:40:08,600 --> 00:40:10,400
Speaker 3: you need to get sober too. I'm not that person,

669
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Speaker 3: but I don't. I'm not going to sit there and

670
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Speaker 3: watch you drink yourself as a whole then get to

671
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Speaker 3: your car and.

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Speaker 6: Drive like you couldn't do that, Like, yeah, you know,

673
00:40:20,760 --> 00:40:23,080
Speaker 6: people see it as you're the you're the Debbie Downer

674
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Speaker 6: and they don't want to be around you no more,

675
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:29,400
Speaker 6: or you just decide not to be around them because

676
00:40:29,400 --> 00:40:31,680
Speaker 6: you're tired of it, explaining that you're like, hey, I

677
00:40:31,760 --> 00:40:32,359
Speaker 6: ruined my life.

678
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Speaker 3: Let's not do that together.

679
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Speaker 1: Yeah you can't. I listen. I hope, I hope you

680
00:40:40,080 --> 00:40:45,680
Speaker 1: maintain uh, the optimism that you will find a new

681
00:40:45,960 --> 00:40:48,400
Speaker 1: group of people to hang out with.

682
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Speaker 3: It'll take some time, but I'm sure I'll find it

683
00:40:52,600 --> 00:40:55,799
Speaker 3: in me to be able to get out eventually. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: God, damn, that's all you need. That's all you need.

685
00:40:58,600 --> 00:41:01,000
Speaker 1: I have things. I have a lot of U ship

686
00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:05,000
Speaker 1: like that where I'm like, you know, think I don't.

687
00:41:05,040 --> 00:41:08,120
Speaker 1: Things you know are not going the way I absolutely

688
00:41:08,120 --> 00:41:10,680
Speaker 1: want them to write this very moment, but I'm I

689
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:16,920
Speaker 1: maintain steady optimism that they will eventually because I'm gonna

690
00:41:16,960 --> 00:41:22,520
Speaker 1: just like fucking figure this out. Uh, So you know,

691
00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:25,560
Speaker 1: as long as you have that, you'll you'll maybe probably

692
00:41:25,640 --> 00:41:26,560
Speaker 1: who knows, be fine.

693
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Speaker 3: Right, Just don't give up, dude. I'm sure life is

694
00:41:31,000 --> 00:41:33,319
Speaker 3: a struggle. We're all going through something that puts us down,

695
00:41:34,000 --> 00:41:36,320
Speaker 3: and every everybody has a hurdle to get to the

696
00:41:36,360 --> 00:41:38,960
Speaker 3: next step in the next day. So definitely don't put

697
00:41:38,960 --> 00:41:41,680
Speaker 3: yourself down in your process. Man. I know you're traveling

698
00:41:41,719 --> 00:41:45,160
Speaker 3: a lot, and you're you're posting your you're two to

699
00:41:45,239 --> 00:41:49,720
Speaker 3: three times a week, you're on the air. Just uh,

700
00:41:50,120 --> 00:41:51,680
Speaker 3: just make sure you take care of yourself in that

701
00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:52,359
Speaker 3: process as well.

702
00:41:52,440 --> 00:41:58,960
Speaker 1: My friend, you know, I uh, yeah, I don't know.

703
00:41:59,000 --> 00:41:59,360
Speaker 2: I don't know.

704
00:41:59,400 --> 00:42:02,200
Speaker 1: I don't I don't, I don't know anything anymore. I'm

705
00:42:02,360 --> 00:42:04,640
Speaker 1: actually I'm really happy that we had this conversation because

706
00:42:04,680 --> 00:42:07,960
Speaker 1: for the past twenty minutes, I think giving you that

707
00:42:08,080 --> 00:42:11,120
Speaker 1: motivational speech, I got to live in the Yeah, I

708
00:42:11,120 --> 00:42:12,840
Speaker 1: got to for twenty minutes, I got to live in

709
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Speaker 1: a world where I felt like I knew something and

710
00:42:15,719 --> 00:42:20,680
Speaker 1: that was good. So this was a good conversation, hopefully

711
00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:22,359
Speaker 1: for both of us. Hopefully for both of us.

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00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:25,960
Speaker 3: Definitely, I'm definitely leaving with something from it, and man,

713
00:42:26,480 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 3: just so you know, for the last four months going

714
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:31,160
Speaker 3: through I've been going through, I've been listening to your

715
00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:34,240
Speaker 3: podcast at least two or three episodes a day, just bored.

716
00:42:35,760 --> 00:42:38,200
Speaker 3: It helps me out, helped me a lot. You definitely

717
00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:40,640
Speaker 3: are helping people out there, and you're teaching people things.

718
00:42:40,680 --> 00:42:42,480
Speaker 3: You're making people realize the things that they don't realize

719
00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:44,560
Speaker 3: by themselves, and I appreciate it.

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Speaker 1: Man, Thanks, Eric, I appreciate that. Man, I'm trying my best.

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Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

722
00:42:51,280 --> 00:42:52,799
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

723
00:42:54,520 --> 00:42:56,839
Speaker 3: Don't give up. Love yourself as much as you love

724
00:42:56,880 --> 00:42:59,000
Speaker 3: the person in the front or beside you. Take care of.

725
00:42:59,040 --> 00:43:02,040
Speaker 1: Yourselves, all right, Go have a beer. You earned it.

726
00:43:02,160 --> 00:43:02,880
Speaker 1: Just kidding, all right?

727
00:43:02,960 --> 00:43:05,400
Speaker 3: See your letter, Eric night Mustow.

728
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Speaker 1: I like that guy. He was a cool guy. Do

729
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Speaker 1: I have any post call thoughts about that? I'm sure

730
00:43:17,600 --> 00:43:21,960
Speaker 1: I do. I'm sure I do. I feel good in

731
00:43:22,000 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 1: this moment. I drank a coffee before. Sometimes I should.

732
00:43:26,680 --> 00:43:28,560
Speaker 1: Sometimes I show up to do this podcast and I

733
00:43:29,000 --> 00:43:31,920
Speaker 1: just feel like a dead guy and I'm like, I

734
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:37,799
Speaker 1: don't have the like I just I yeah, I just

735
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Speaker 1: I don't have the thing. I think to be able

736
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Speaker 1: to do this. But then I sometimes I show up

737
00:43:42,920 --> 00:43:44,600
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I feel good right now. I feel

738
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Speaker 1: like it's a my I was talking to a friend

739
00:43:50,800 --> 00:43:52,920
Speaker 1: the other day and I was telling her, I was like,

740
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:55,279
Speaker 1: sometimes I show up to do this podcast and I

741
00:43:55,400 --> 00:43:57,799
Speaker 1: just like don't feel like I can I have the

742
00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:01,680
Speaker 1: like I can give to it. Like I'm like, oh,

743
00:44:01,719 --> 00:44:04,480
Speaker 1: I don't feel like I can give to it what

744
00:44:04,480 --> 00:44:08,719
Speaker 1: what I think it demands, you know. And she told me,

745
00:44:08,760 --> 00:44:10,799
Speaker 1: she was like, why don't you just use it, like

746
00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:16,800
Speaker 1: as a thought experiment to just be just be like

747
00:44:16,840 --> 00:44:18,120
Speaker 1: when you're on the phone with someone, just be like,

748
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Speaker 1: I'm just gonna be in the fucking moment with this

749
00:44:19,960 --> 00:44:23,760
Speaker 1: one person at this time and not think about how

750
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Speaker 1: it is being perceived as a conversation or like anything

751
00:44:29,800 --> 00:44:32,279
Speaker 1: like that. Just like, can I challenge myself is just

752
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:34,400
Speaker 1: as a thought process to just be in the moment

753
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:38,239
Speaker 1: with the person I'm talking to, and like how I like,

754
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:40,880
Speaker 1: how like because I have you know, I talk a

755
00:44:40,920 --> 00:44:42,840
Speaker 1: whole bunch of shit on this podcast about like perspective

756
00:44:42,920 --> 00:44:46,359
Speaker 1: or whatnot, but I have tons of shitty perspectives and

757
00:44:47,000 --> 00:44:52,799
Speaker 1: I'm trying to uh rattle him and get him better.

758
00:44:53,800 --> 00:44:56,200
Speaker 1: Uh so I don't know. Yeah, that's what I'm gonna do,

759
00:44:57,400 --> 00:45:02,000
Speaker 1: at least today and all. So it's easier because of coffee.

760
00:45:02,120 --> 00:45:03,080
Speaker 1: Coffee is good.

761
00:45:05,520 --> 00:45:06,279
Speaker 5: Holy shit?

762
00:45:07,120 --> 00:45:11,400
Speaker 1: Hey, what's up? Hi? Hello? Where are you? Are you

763
00:45:11,480 --> 00:45:13,799
Speaker 1: at a party or something?

764
00:45:14,080 --> 00:45:17,719
Speaker 5: I was at a bar and now I'm outside.

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Speaker 1: What bar were you at?

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Speaker 5: It's called Hammerhead?

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00:45:23,960 --> 00:45:27,799
Speaker 1: Hammerhead? Tell me about the bar. What kind of bar

768
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Speaker 1: is it?

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Speaker 5: It's a dive bar. It is by at a beach town.

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Speaker 1: Are you on vacation or do you do? You live

771
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Speaker 1: in this beach town?

772
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Speaker 5: I live in the beach town.

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Speaker 1: Oh can I ask? Can I ask? Where you are? Yeah?

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Speaker 5: It's called Amelia Island.

775
00:45:48,000 --> 00:45:51,840
Speaker 1: Amelia Island? Is that where the plane lady went missing?

776
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Speaker 2: I Amelia?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Yeah?

778
00:46:00,560 --> 00:46:03,120
Speaker 2: Uh no, I don't think that's where she went missing.

779
00:46:03,840 --> 00:46:06,000
Speaker 1: Where is a meal? I've never heard of Emilia Island?

780
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:06,480
Speaker 1: Where is this?

781
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Speaker 5: It's in Florida, North Florida.

782
00:46:11,560 --> 00:46:14,799
Speaker 1: Okay, So how's living on an island? And how's how

783
00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:18,640
Speaker 1: is living in a Florida beachtown? That sounds like that

784
00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:20,799
Speaker 1: sounds like something I would have dreamed of doing when

785
00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:21,439
Speaker 1: I was a boy.

786
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Speaker 5: Uh you know, when you grow up here it's a

787
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Speaker 5: little different, like you want to get out, but it's

788
00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:31,960
Speaker 5: now that I'm older, it's pretty fucking sweet. I'm not

789
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Speaker 5: gonna lie.

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Speaker 1: You sound like you're having a fun time. Yeah, you

791
00:46:35,920 --> 00:46:36,919
Speaker 1: sound like you're having a good time.

792
00:46:39,040 --> 00:46:42,640
Speaker 5: Yeah. I've been trying to call you for so long,

793
00:46:42,920 --> 00:46:45,439
Speaker 5: and I'm so excited to be talking to you right now.

794
00:46:46,040 --> 00:46:49,279
Speaker 1: I'm excited to be talking to you too. The fact

795
00:46:49,320 --> 00:46:51,840
Speaker 1: that you and I are talking means that both of

796
00:46:51,960 --> 00:46:56,120
Speaker 1: us have not died yet, which is really good. I think.

797
00:46:56,320 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 1: I don't watch. I don't know. Death could be better

798
00:46:58,200 --> 00:47:01,839
Speaker 1: than uh, life, but I don't want to I'll find

799
00:47:01,840 --> 00:47:05,720
Speaker 1: that out eventually. For now, I'm going to.

800
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Speaker 2: Like, Yeah, I like live.

801
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Speaker 1: What's your name again, Lula, Lola, Lula, Lula, l U,

802
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Speaker 1: l A. That's it, Lula. What a great name, Lula?

803
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Speaker 1: What's up? How you doing you? Is there anything? Is

804
00:47:28,040 --> 00:47:30,080
Speaker 1: there anything ahead?

805
00:47:31,239 --> 00:47:33,360
Speaker 5: I'm so sorry. I just want to tell you, like,

806
00:47:33,480 --> 00:47:36,080
Speaker 5: I met my boyfriend because of you, and that's what.

807
00:47:36,080 --> 00:47:37,360
Speaker 2: I really need to talk about.

808
00:47:37,840 --> 00:47:39,879
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, go ahead.

809
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Speaker 5: So we I went to I live in Florida, and

810
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Speaker 5: I went to the Atlanta show just because I go

811
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Speaker 5: to Atlanta kind of often. And I met my boyfriend

812
00:47:51,760 --> 00:47:54,560
Speaker 5: there and now he lives with me and we've been

813
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Speaker 5: together for like four or five months.

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Speaker 1: Wow, that's so cool. I love that. That's amazing. How

815
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Speaker 1: did can I? So, did you go to the show

816
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Speaker 1: by yourself?

817
00:48:07,080 --> 00:48:07,279
Speaker 2: Yeah?

818
00:48:07,320 --> 00:48:09,680
Speaker 5: I did, and then I met him at the bar.

819
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Speaker 5: It was at the earl and yeah, I sat next

820
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Speaker 5: to him and then we just started talking and he

821
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Speaker 5: was alone too, and then we went in together.

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Speaker 2: We met you.

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Speaker 5: We were the people that came in both shows, which

824
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Speaker 5: I don't know if that happens often.

825
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Speaker 4: M M.

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Speaker 1: That's so cool. And what did he come alone too?

827
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Speaker 2: Yeah?

828
00:48:35,320 --> 00:48:38,680
Speaker 1: Wow? This is uh, this is this is this is great.

829
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Speaker 1: This is great promotion for when I do my next tour.

830
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Speaker 5: It really is. We want you to associate the wedding

831
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Speaker 5: when it happened.

832
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Speaker 1: Well, I'll say if you, if you, here's my promise

833
00:48:51,600 --> 00:48:53,600
Speaker 1: to you is if you promised to do the wedding

834
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Speaker 1: within a fifteen minute walk of wherever I currently am

835
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Speaker 1: in the world at that time, I I one hundred percent,

836
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Speaker 1: we'll do, we'll do, We'll officiate your wedding.

837
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Speaker 5: Heard that.

838
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Speaker 2: I appreciate that.

839
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Speaker 1: No, that's sick. That's fucking really cool. I'm really stoked

840
00:49:11,040 --> 00:49:13,600
Speaker 1: about that. Can I can I ask them? So, what

841
00:49:13,680 --> 00:49:15,000
Speaker 1: can you tell me a little bit more about like

842
00:49:15,040 --> 00:49:18,600
Speaker 1: what was the conversation you guys first had, Like what

843
00:49:18,640 --> 00:49:18,839
Speaker 1: was it?

844
00:49:18,880 --> 00:49:18,960
Speaker 3: Like?

845
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Speaker 1: Would you guys talk about.

846
00:49:20,280 --> 00:49:24,240
Speaker 5: Like, uh, well he was well he was a chef.

847
00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:27,560
Speaker 5: Now he does something different. So and I used to cook.

848
00:49:27,719 --> 00:49:31,279
Speaker 5: So we talked about that for a long time and

849
00:49:31,320 --> 00:49:34,120
Speaker 5: then it just kind of ventured off. We did coke

850
00:49:34,200 --> 00:49:34,839
Speaker 5: the whole night.

851
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Speaker 2: It was cool as fuck, you guys.

852
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Speaker 1: You guys stayed up all night after the Therapy Get

853
00:49:40,760 --> 00:49:42,360
Speaker 1: Go show doing cocaine together.

854
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:46,400
Speaker 5: Yes, yes, so he did it.

855
00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:48,839
Speaker 1: Sounds it sounds like that sounds like an awesome night.

856
00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:50,560
Speaker 1: Actually what d did he?

857
00:49:51,040 --> 00:49:51,160
Speaker 3: All?

858
00:49:51,239 --> 00:49:51,359
Speaker 5: Right?

859
00:49:51,440 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 1: Let me so let's say that. Uh, I'm I'm curious

860
00:49:58,080 --> 00:50:01,480
Speaker 1: about this because like if a young gentleman comes alone

861
00:50:01,480 --> 00:50:04,680
Speaker 1: to a therapy Gecko show and he and he sees

862
00:50:04,880 --> 00:50:07,560
Speaker 1: and he sees another lady that he likes, and maybe

863
00:50:07,600 --> 00:50:09,560
Speaker 1: he's scared to like go up and talk to her.

864
00:50:09,880 --> 00:50:13,000
Speaker 1: I think people get people get fixated on like, oh

865
00:50:13,040 --> 00:50:15,360
Speaker 1: what do I say? Like like because what because the

866
00:50:15,880 --> 00:50:19,840
Speaker 1: middle of a conversation is the easiest part. It's the

867
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Speaker 1: it's the like courage to start one. That's the hardest thing.

868
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Speaker 1: So that's that's what I'm curious about. What what was

869
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Speaker 1: the first thing he said to you?

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Speaker 5: Well, I said something to him because he was sitting

871
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:34,040
Speaker 5: alone and there was an empty bar school next to him.

872
00:50:34,160 --> 00:50:36,080
Speaker 5: So I came up and I was like, Hey, is

873
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Speaker 5: anyone sitting here? And he was like no, And then

874
00:50:39,640 --> 00:50:42,239
Speaker 5: I was like hey to the bartender, I was like,

875
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Speaker 5: am I here for the right thing?

876
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Speaker 1: Like?

877
00:50:44,480 --> 00:50:47,160
Speaker 5: Am I here for therapy? Get go? Because I was

878
00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:49,799
Speaker 5: pretty confused, not gonna lie because it didn't look like

879
00:50:49,840 --> 00:50:54,359
Speaker 5: there was a stage or anything. And then so he

880
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:56,479
Speaker 5: heard me say that, and he was like, oh my god,

881
00:50:56,560 --> 00:51:00,279
Speaker 5: you're here for therapy. Get and I said yeah, obviously, boy,

882
00:51:01,120 --> 00:51:06,959
Speaker 5: and then we just started talking after that.

883
00:51:06,960 --> 00:51:10,200
Speaker 1: That's awesome. So you started talking to him, Well, okay,

884
00:51:10,239 --> 00:51:13,520
Speaker 1: so it sounds like like you you It sounds like

885
00:51:13,680 --> 00:51:18,120
Speaker 1: you slid in a tiny little thing of like, I

886
00:51:18,200 --> 00:51:21,200
Speaker 1: am open to speaking with other people in this room

887
00:51:21,280 --> 00:51:24,000
Speaker 1: right now. And then he and then he was like

888
00:51:24,200 --> 00:51:26,000
Speaker 1: and then he and then and then and then he

889
00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:30,000
Speaker 1: picked up on that, and that made a little bit easier. Yeah, okay,

890
00:51:30,120 --> 00:51:34,520
Speaker 1: all right. Yeah, so yeah, so it wasn't like, hey,

891
00:51:34,560 --> 00:51:37,880
Speaker 1: you come here often kind of a vibe.

892
00:51:38,280 --> 00:51:39,560
Speaker 5: No, no, not like that.

893
00:51:40,360 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, but he's I guess he still had to

894
00:51:43,400 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 1: have the situational awareness to pick up on your little,

895
00:51:48,080 --> 00:51:51,600
Speaker 1: your little cue of being open to speaking with other people.

896
00:51:51,600 --> 00:51:56,160
Speaker 1: In that moment, he did you gave you get You

897
00:51:56,200 --> 00:52:00,560
Speaker 1: gave it like by by initiating the conversation of hey,

898
00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:03,319
Speaker 1: is anyone sitting here you I think you gave you

899
00:52:03,360 --> 00:52:06,080
Speaker 1: gave him a lot to work with there. Then if

900
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:08,120
Speaker 1: then if he was, then if you were like sitting

901
00:52:08,120 --> 00:52:10,480
Speaker 1: there on your phone and he had to come in

902
00:52:10,560 --> 00:52:12,680
Speaker 1: and be like, hey, are you here for the Gecko

903
00:52:12,760 --> 00:52:15,480
Speaker 1: show and risk you being like I don't know what

904
00:52:15,520 --> 00:52:17,879
Speaker 1: the fuck that is and don't look at me.

905
00:52:19,560 --> 00:52:24,320
Speaker 5: Exactly and like no offense, but like how many people,

906
00:52:24,719 --> 00:52:26,440
Speaker 5: I mean a lot of people know about the Gecko?

907
00:52:26,520 --> 00:52:30,600
Speaker 5: So like, come on, no.

908
00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:35,359
Speaker 1: No, no, no offense taken. I am. I am exactly

909
00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,480
Speaker 1: as famous as I ever desire to be.

910
00:52:40,520 --> 00:52:42,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're a favoite of my world.

911
00:52:42,239 --> 00:52:46,560
Speaker 1: Man, Well that's nice. Is has he done anything to

912
00:52:46,560 --> 00:52:48,360
Speaker 1: piss you off in the last five months? Or are you

913
00:52:48,400 --> 00:52:49,319
Speaker 1: guys good?

914
00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:50,600
Speaker 2: No?

915
00:52:50,760 --> 00:52:52,400
Speaker 5: He's literally perfect.

916
00:52:53,120 --> 00:52:53,359
Speaker 1: Wow.

917
00:52:53,440 --> 00:52:54,040
Speaker 5: I could not.

918
00:52:55,680 --> 00:52:59,880
Speaker 1: Wow. I'm so I'm so happy about it because if

919
00:52:59,880 --> 00:53:01,759
Speaker 1: it because if it'd be one thing, if like, uh,

920
00:53:02,520 --> 00:53:04,920
Speaker 1: you know, you were like I met my boyfriend at

921
00:53:04,960 --> 00:53:07,160
Speaker 1: your show, but he's actually a total piece of ship,

922
00:53:07,400 --> 00:53:09,400
Speaker 1: and so I'm mad at you.

923
00:53:09,440 --> 00:53:12,719
Speaker 5: No, literally the best man I've ever met.

924
00:53:13,239 --> 00:53:17,080
Speaker 1: Literally, that's so wonderful. I love that. That's awesome, that's

925
00:53:17,120 --> 00:53:25,600
Speaker 1: so great. Wow. Wow, Well were you at the early

926
00:53:25,640 --> 00:53:29,200
Speaker 1: show or the late show? Oh yeah, you were both.

927
00:53:29,200 --> 00:53:32,720
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, you were at both the late that's the

928
00:53:32,880 --> 00:53:35,239
Speaker 1: this is I get. I'm alienating people who weren't there,

929
00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:39,279
Speaker 1: which is several thousands of people who listening to this.

930
00:53:39,440 --> 00:53:43,239
Speaker 1: But that late show, that was the drunkest group of

931
00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:46,240
Speaker 1: people I think I've ever seen in my life.

932
00:53:46,480 --> 00:53:49,320
Speaker 5: Oh that show was fun. But I really do think

933
00:53:49,400 --> 00:53:51,080
Speaker 5: that the first show was better.

934
00:53:52,480 --> 00:53:54,640
Speaker 1: Uh yeah, they were, you know, they were fun. They

935
00:53:54,680 --> 00:53:59,400
Speaker 1: were fun. Well, no, no, no, I thought they were

936
00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:02,080
Speaker 1: both fun. I I always that the Atlanta is a

937
00:54:02,080 --> 00:54:06,600
Speaker 1: great city. I always I loved all the shows I've

938
00:54:06,600 --> 00:54:09,040
Speaker 1: done there, both in twenty twenty three and twenty twenty four,

939
00:54:09,080 --> 00:54:11,799
Speaker 1: and who knows, maybe twenty twenty six, I'll get back

940
00:54:11,800 --> 00:54:12,680
Speaker 1: on the road.

941
00:54:13,840 --> 00:54:18,759
Speaker 5: Well, I'm hoping you come to jacks Man Jacksonville.

942
00:54:19,280 --> 00:54:21,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't think I'm gonna do that.

943
00:54:23,200 --> 00:54:25,640
Speaker 5: Oh that's hurtful.

944
00:54:26,600 --> 00:54:29,080
Speaker 1: It is hurtful, But would would Can I ask you

945
00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:29,960
Speaker 1: a real question?

946
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:31,760
Speaker 2: Sure?

947
00:54:32,239 --> 00:54:35,840
Speaker 1: What's more hurtful to you? Me telling you honestly that

948
00:54:35,880 --> 00:54:38,880
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna come to Jacksonville, Florida or me or

949
00:54:38,960 --> 00:54:42,000
Speaker 1: me going like oh yeah, maybe you know what, Yeah,

950
00:54:42,040 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 1: maybe I'll come to Jacksonville, Florida knowing full well that

951
00:54:44,680 --> 00:54:45,600
Speaker 1: I'm never gonna go.

952
00:54:48,160 --> 00:54:51,520
Speaker 5: Both are equally as hurtful. I'm gonna be honest.

953
00:54:52,760 --> 00:54:55,640
Speaker 1: Okay, Well, I guess I guess we live in a

954
00:54:55,680 --> 00:55:01,279
Speaker 1: world where being slightly hurtful to you as an unfortunate

955
00:55:01,360 --> 00:55:05,600
Speaker 1: inevitability that we both must go on a journey through.

956
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:19,000
Speaker 5: Fair enough, But hey, Jacksonville is pretty cool. I'm just saying, well, uh,

957
00:55:19,120 --> 00:55:20,120
Speaker 5: what's your name again?

958
00:55:20,160 --> 00:55:22,280
Speaker 1: I'm sorry? I know I've asked you probably ten times.

959
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:24,120
Speaker 5: It's cool.

960
00:55:24,280 --> 00:55:26,920
Speaker 2: I know it's Lula, Lula.

961
00:55:27,080 --> 00:55:28,560
Speaker 1: How could I forget that name? Is a good name?

962
00:55:29,640 --> 00:55:31,799
Speaker 1: Is your boy? Yeah? Is? Is?

963
00:55:31,920 --> 00:55:32,200
Speaker 5: Uh?

964
00:55:32,280 --> 00:55:34,160
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

965
00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:35,960
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

966
00:55:39,160 --> 00:55:43,680
Speaker 5: No, I just want to thank you for assisting and

967
00:55:43,800 --> 00:55:46,200
Speaker 5: meeting the person that I love so much.

968
00:55:47,080 --> 00:55:49,759
Speaker 1: Thanks so thank you, thank you for calling me and

969
00:55:49,760 --> 00:55:52,680
Speaker 1: telling me this. This is uh. I'm very I'm very

970
00:55:52,719 --> 00:55:58,520
Speaker 1: happy that I could have a positive influence of some

971
00:55:58,640 --> 00:56:01,080
Speaker 1: kind in this way. This is this is good. I'm

972
00:56:01,120 --> 00:56:03,520
Speaker 1: taking this to the bank. I'm gonna feel I'm gonna

973
00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:05,839
Speaker 1: try to feel good about this throughout the day. I'm

974
00:56:05,840 --> 00:56:09,120
Speaker 1: gonna try. I honestly, I'm gonna use this as an

975
00:56:09,160 --> 00:56:11,880
Speaker 1: excuse to commit a crime of some kind today. I

976
00:56:11,920 --> 00:56:14,759
Speaker 1: think I'm gonna steal. Maybe I'll steal something from a

977
00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:18,440
Speaker 1: convenience store or a jaywalk or something like that. I

978
00:56:18,480 --> 00:56:18,680
Speaker 1: don't know.

979
00:56:18,760 --> 00:56:21,920
Speaker 5: I'm gonna think of something you like, some diamonds or

980
00:56:22,000 --> 00:56:22,719
Speaker 5: something like that.

981
00:56:23,680 --> 00:56:29,239
Speaker 1: Dies too. I that's that's that's you're Yeah. Maybe i'll

982
00:56:29,800 --> 00:56:34,279
Speaker 1: how happy are you exactly? Because that's gonna determine how

983
00:56:34,320 --> 00:56:36,880
Speaker 1: sadistic whatever crime I commit will be?

984
00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:41,640
Speaker 5: Okay, well, you'll be good. Thank you so much for

985
00:56:41,680 --> 00:56:42,359
Speaker 5: taking my call.

986
00:56:42,560 --> 00:56:43,319
Speaker 2: This was so great.

987
00:56:43,360 --> 00:56:44,680
Speaker 5: I can't wait to O'Connor.

988
00:56:45,320 --> 00:56:48,319
Speaker 1: Thank you, Lula. I have a good night you too.

989
00:56:48,600 --> 00:56:55,320
Speaker 2: Bye bye bye.

990
00:56:56,640 --> 00:56:59,799
Speaker 1: That's fun. That's fun. That's good. I like that all right?

991
00:57:00,239 --> 00:57:06,200
Speaker 1: Uh see that you know what I really I love

992
00:57:06,800 --> 00:57:09,120
Speaker 1: my like my real like passion. The thing I just

993
00:57:09,160 --> 00:57:14,719
Speaker 1: really fucking love is I love, Uh like create, whether

994
00:57:14,760 --> 00:57:19,240
Speaker 1: it's like my tours or through like whatever the fuck.

995
00:57:19,360 --> 00:57:25,000
Speaker 1: I love like creating. Gathering folks together in physical proximity.

996
00:57:25,120 --> 00:57:29,120
Speaker 1: It's fun. It's cool. I like this makes me happy

997
00:57:29,120 --> 00:57:32,680
Speaker 1: that these two people met because of because of this thing.

998
00:57:33,800 --> 00:57:36,520
Speaker 1: So this is cool. I want to do more stuff

999
00:57:37,160 --> 00:57:44,280
Speaker 1: where people meet in person. Uh, it's cool, it's exciting.

1000
00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:49,080
Speaker 1: I don't have anything else. I don't have I don't

1001
00:57:49,120 --> 00:57:51,720
Speaker 1: have anything else to say, or maybe I do. I

1002
00:57:51,720 --> 00:57:53,320
Speaker 1: don't know. I'm on a lot of coffee. Let's keep

1003
00:57:53,320 --> 00:57:58,240
Speaker 1: it rolling. Let's keep it rolling. Hello, hey Lyle, Yeah, Hi,

1004
00:57:58,400 --> 00:57:59,000
Speaker 1: what's your name?

1005
00:57:59,360 --> 00:58:00,840
Speaker 4: Hey, my name's Alice.

1006
00:58:01,040 --> 00:58:04,320
Speaker 1: How are you doing, Alice? Alice? What's up, Alice? How

1007
00:58:04,360 --> 00:58:08,959
Speaker 1: am I doing? I'm doing pretty good? Actually? Uh yeah,

1008
00:58:09,000 --> 00:58:13,439
Speaker 1: I'm doing pretty good. Actually, I'm enjoying life. I am.

1009
00:58:14,040 --> 00:58:20,880
Speaker 1: I am in Tokyo right now, hanging out. Uh. I'm

1010
00:58:20,960 --> 00:58:26,640
Speaker 1: in a room, I'm not wearing a shirt, and uh

1011
00:58:26,760 --> 00:58:30,520
Speaker 1: I have to pee, but not enough that I'm willing

1012
00:58:30,560 --> 00:58:34,360
Speaker 1: to interrupt this conversation. That's how I'm doing in this

1013
00:58:34,480 --> 00:58:38,040
Speaker 1: very moment. How are you doing well.

1014
00:58:38,080 --> 00:58:42,120
Speaker 4: I'm doing great. I so weird. I knew today was

1015
00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:42,520
Speaker 4: my day.

1016
00:58:44,240 --> 00:58:45,640
Speaker 1: You knew today was your day?

1017
00:58:47,080 --> 00:58:51,200
Speaker 4: I knew, yeah, you know, I haven't. I wasn't talking

1018
00:58:51,200 --> 00:58:53,560
Speaker 4: to my little brother for a while because he's like, uh,

1019
00:58:54,040 --> 00:58:55,960
Speaker 4: you know, he's in foster care. Things are a little

1020
00:58:55,960 --> 00:58:58,640
Speaker 4: weird for him. And he called me today. But then

1021
00:58:58,680 --> 00:59:00,920
Speaker 4: I saw you WeLive and I'm like, hey man, I'm sorry,

1022
00:59:00,920 --> 00:59:01,960
Speaker 4: I think today's day.

1023
00:59:02,000 --> 00:59:02,480
Speaker 2: I gotta go.

1024
00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:10,920
Speaker 1: He's like, alrighty, I uh you. I'm trying to understand.

1025
00:59:10,920 --> 00:59:15,919
Speaker 1: He you your brother's in foster care. Yeah, how old

1026
00:59:16,000 --> 00:59:17,600
Speaker 1: is he?

1027
00:59:17,600 --> 00:59:18,440
Speaker 4: He's sixteen?

1028
00:59:19,360 --> 00:59:21,240
Speaker 1: And he and he was calling you on the phone

1029
00:59:21,280 --> 00:59:23,040
Speaker 1: to talk to you about something, and you were like, sorry,

1030
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 1: I can't talk right now. I got to call the

1031
00:59:24,560 --> 00:59:25,280
Speaker 1: therapy gecko.

1032
00:59:27,360 --> 00:59:30,400
Speaker 4: Well yeah, we were already talking for like three hours,

1033
00:59:30,600 --> 00:59:32,920
Speaker 4: and you know sometime we're just like sitting there listening

1034
00:59:32,920 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 4: to music or whatever.

1035
00:59:33,960 --> 00:59:35,160
Speaker 2: So it's all cool, all.

1036
00:59:35,040 --> 00:59:37,640
Speaker 1: Right, all right, all right, Well then we'll then screw him.

1037
00:59:37,680 --> 00:59:39,080
Speaker 1: What's up? What's up? How you doing?

1038
00:59:40,880 --> 00:59:42,040
Speaker 2: I'm doing okay.

1039
00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:45,240
Speaker 4: You know, I was doing pretty rough like last week

1040
00:59:45,320 --> 00:59:48,280
Speaker 4: or so, but I dropped a couple of courses because

1041
00:59:48,280 --> 00:59:50,760
Speaker 4: I'm in college and they gave me like eight classes

1042
00:59:50,760 --> 00:59:54,280
Speaker 4: this semester, so I just dropped a couple decided I'm

1043
00:59:54,280 --> 00:59:57,760
Speaker 4: going to take it a little bit like longer than

1044
00:59:58,040 --> 01:00:00,320
Speaker 4: normal because I was like on a fast track, which

1045
01:00:00,360 --> 01:00:03,919
Speaker 4: was just stupid. And I'm feeling a lot better now.

1046
01:00:04,200 --> 01:00:06,080
Speaker 4: And yeah, things are looking up.

1047
01:00:07,000 --> 01:00:10,760
Speaker 1: Good, very good. It's good when things look up. You know,

1048
01:00:11,960 --> 01:00:13,080
Speaker 1: what are you studying?

1049
01:00:14,880 --> 01:00:18,720
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, it's a Bachelor of Health Information Sciences,

1050
01:00:19,120 --> 01:00:22,400
Speaker 4: but it's basically digital health. They're changing the name to that,

1051
01:00:22,480 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 4: so when I graduate, that's it's going to be on

1052
01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:24,840
Speaker 4: the diploma.

1053
01:00:25,680 --> 01:00:27,760
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, you said digital health.

1054
01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:32,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, like like computer science but for healthcare.

1055
01:00:33,360 --> 01:00:36,520
Speaker 1: Yoh, so you're going to be like doing fucking surgery

1056
01:00:36,640 --> 01:00:37,520
Speaker 1: on zoom.

1057
01:00:38,720 --> 01:00:39,760
Speaker 2: No, oh my god.

1058
01:00:39,880 --> 01:00:43,720
Speaker 4: No, I'm going to be like like making sure the

1059
01:00:43,800 --> 01:00:48,560
Speaker 4: people that do surgery all the information from that surgery

1060
01:00:48,760 --> 01:00:50,120
Speaker 4: is taken care of properly.

1061
01:00:50,640 --> 01:00:55,600
Speaker 1: So like so like when Sonic the Hedgehog is having

1062
01:00:55,840 --> 01:00:58,080
Speaker 1: chest pains, you're going to go into the computer and

1063
01:00:58,120 --> 01:01:00,440
Speaker 1: save him.

1064
01:01:00,840 --> 01:01:04,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, basically we're gonna look at like we can do programming,

1065
01:01:04,920 --> 01:01:07,760
Speaker 4: so we could look up find Sonic the Hedgehog, select

1066
01:01:08,040 --> 01:01:13,040
Speaker 4: Sonic's heart talent beats per minute.

1067
01:01:13,120 --> 01:01:16,120
Speaker 1: Yo, because I don't know why he runs so fast

1068
01:01:16,120 --> 01:01:18,160
Speaker 1: in it, but it might have something to it might

1069
01:01:18,400 --> 01:01:22,800
Speaker 1: lead to a heart complications. All right, I'm done with

1070
01:01:22,840 --> 01:01:23,360
Speaker 1: this joke.

1071
01:01:24,600 --> 01:01:25,800
Speaker 2: O love Sonic.

1072
01:01:25,840 --> 01:01:26,200
Speaker 3: You're good.

1073
01:01:26,360 --> 01:01:29,000
Speaker 1: You said you said today was your day. Well, so

1074
01:01:29,120 --> 01:01:32,120
Speaker 1: I guess I'll ask you this. And it's completely fine

1075
01:01:32,600 --> 01:01:35,240
Speaker 1: if not. Normally sometimes I say it's fine if not,

1076
01:01:35,840 --> 01:01:38,080
Speaker 1: and I don't mean it. But today, I mean it,

1077
01:01:38,480 --> 01:01:41,960
Speaker 1: was there anything in particular that you wanted to talk about? Uh?

1078
01:01:42,000 --> 01:01:43,040
Speaker 1: And again it's fine if not.

1079
01:01:46,800 --> 01:01:48,960
Speaker 4: Man, I just want to talk about life and like

1080
01:01:50,000 --> 01:01:51,120
Speaker 4: human connection, I.

1081
01:01:51,040 --> 01:01:54,840
Speaker 1: Guess human connection. What about human connection?

1082
01:01:56,960 --> 01:01:59,520
Speaker 4: Like it's kind of like the reason I called you

1083
01:01:59,560 --> 01:02:01,440
Speaker 4: and the reason and like I talked, listen to your

1084
01:02:01,440 --> 01:02:06,400
Speaker 4: podcast all the time. It's like so interesting the interactions

1085
01:02:06,400 --> 01:02:08,920
Speaker 4: that humans can have with each other. It's like just

1086
01:02:09,240 --> 01:02:10,080
Speaker 4: fascinating to me.

1087
01:02:11,200 --> 01:02:17,360
Speaker 1: It is it's a little upsetting to see I don't know,

1088
01:02:17,680 --> 01:02:20,840
Speaker 1: it's a little it's a little upsetting to see that. Like, uh,

1089
01:02:21,480 --> 01:02:26,160
Speaker 1: I guess a lot of people don't have that, and

1090
01:02:26,240 --> 01:02:30,760
Speaker 1: so they are like they just kind of like sit

1091
01:02:30,840 --> 01:02:34,040
Speaker 1: on the computer and like I don't know, I don't

1092
01:02:34,080 --> 01:02:38,080
Speaker 1: know get like like leap be argue with people in

1093
01:02:38,200 --> 01:02:40,160
Speaker 1: like Internet comments sections and stuff.

1094
01:02:41,920 --> 01:02:44,680
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, yeah, sometimes I'm on Reddit arguing with people.

1095
01:02:44,920 --> 01:02:47,960
Speaker 4: But m hm, do be like that?

1096
01:02:48,720 --> 01:02:50,479
Speaker 1: What do you what do you argue with people about

1097
01:02:50,480 --> 01:02:51,000
Speaker 1: on Reddit?

1098
01:02:53,480 --> 01:02:54,320
Speaker 3: Oh? Fuck?

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01:02:56,400 --> 01:02:58,360
Speaker 4: Well, the last time it was about how bad a

1100
01:02:58,360 --> 01:03:01,120
Speaker 4: pizza was. I was posting a picture boat kiwis on

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01:03:01,160 --> 01:03:01,640
Speaker 4: a pizza.

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01:03:03,880 --> 01:03:10,480
Speaker 1: Okay, that's that's you know what that's that's relatively Uh

1103
01:03:10,720 --> 01:03:15,640
Speaker 1: what's the word. Uh, that's relatively malignant. Uh. When it

1104
01:03:15,680 --> 01:03:18,160
Speaker 1: comes to Internet arguments.

1105
01:03:17,880 --> 01:03:18,760
Speaker 4: Maybe I'm stupid.

1106
01:03:18,800 --> 01:03:19,200
Speaker 2: What do you mean?

1107
01:03:19,320 --> 01:03:23,720
Speaker 1: Sorry? Uh no, maybe I'm stupid, Like maybe that uh,

1108
01:03:24,280 --> 01:03:29,760
Speaker 1: relatively mild. I think when it comes to Internet arguments, malignant.

1109
01:03:29,760 --> 01:03:31,400
Speaker 1: I gotta stop using words that I don't know what

1110
01:03:31,440 --> 01:03:34,760
Speaker 1: the fuck they mean. I'm Google, hold on malignant malig

1111
01:03:35,720 --> 01:03:38,520
Speaker 1: like a malignant tumor, Like a tumor. That's not that bad.

1112
01:03:38,600 --> 01:03:43,640
Speaker 2: Hold on, you're is like cancerous?

1113
01:03:44,440 --> 01:03:47,280
Speaker 1: Oh wait, oh wait, oh malignant is bad. Okay, malignant

1114
01:03:47,360 --> 01:03:51,760
Speaker 1: is the opposite of what I thought. It meant, oh

1115
01:03:51,800 --> 01:03:57,600
Speaker 1: my whole but not yes, I meant benign. Holy ship,

1116
01:03:57,680 --> 01:03:59,640
Speaker 1: that's what that? Oh my god? Okay, No, no, you're

1117
01:03:59,800 --> 01:04:03,040
Speaker 1: you You are not stupid. I'm stupid, Belind. I meant

1118
01:04:03,040 --> 01:04:08,160
Speaker 1: but not malignants the opposites. Okay, I just this. I

1119
01:04:08,200 --> 01:04:12,520
Speaker 1: actually had a this happened to me. I'm twenty seven.

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01:04:12,680 --> 01:04:18,400
Speaker 1: My whole life, I always thought malignant meant not that bad. Okay,

1121
01:04:18,440 --> 01:04:19,760
Speaker 1: this happened to me one O the time. I'm just

1122
01:04:19,840 --> 01:04:28,840
Speaker 1: gonna real quick, the word approximate. I was twenty four, No,

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01:04:28,920 --> 01:04:31,680
Speaker 1: I was twenty three. Maybe I was maybe like twenty

1124
01:04:31,720 --> 01:04:34,520
Speaker 1: three years old when I found out that I thought

1125
01:04:34,560 --> 01:04:40,480
Speaker 1: approximate meant like precise, Like when you said like approximately

1126
01:04:40,520 --> 01:04:43,440
Speaker 1: seven pm, I thought that met exactly seven pm. And

1127
01:04:43,480 --> 01:04:45,200
Speaker 1: then one day I realized. And then when one day

1128
01:04:45,200 --> 01:04:48,400
Speaker 1: I found out that approximate it means the opposite. So

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01:04:48,480 --> 01:04:51,560
Speaker 1: this is the second time that I have been using

1130
01:04:51,560 --> 01:04:57,680
Speaker 1: a word incorrectly for my entire life. And I'm glad.

1131
01:04:57,720 --> 01:05:01,040
Speaker 1: I okay, good, Okay, I'm glad that I had this conversation.

1132
01:05:01,040 --> 01:05:04,240
Speaker 1: This was extremely If this was all, If this entire

1133
01:05:04,280 --> 01:05:08,240
Speaker 1: conversation was just me finding out that malignant means bad,

1134
01:05:08,320 --> 01:05:13,439
Speaker 1: then there was really good productive conversation for at least me. Yeah.

1135
01:05:13,520 --> 01:05:16,520
Speaker 4: No, I would be like eternally grateful if I could

1136
01:05:16,520 --> 01:05:20,760
Speaker 4: have facilitated that for you or maybe even for anyone listening. Yeah,

1137
01:05:21,320 --> 01:05:24,840
Speaker 4: and just like a lasting impassion. That's human connection. Man,

1138
01:05:24,960 --> 01:05:26,200
Speaker 4: that's exactly what I wanted.

1139
01:05:30,120 --> 01:05:34,880
Speaker 1: Okay, well, okay, we connected a little bit just now

1140
01:05:34,920 --> 01:05:36,320
Speaker 1: in this moment. Then be with that.

1141
01:05:37,440 --> 01:05:43,600
Speaker 4: Wait, Lyle, Yeah, do you know my name? No? Oh,

1142
01:05:44,440 --> 01:05:49,200
Speaker 4: no worries, no worries. Well you know there was something

1143
01:05:49,720 --> 01:05:51,960
Speaker 4: this ice cream truck lady was talking to you about,

1144
01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:54,280
Speaker 4: like if you could look at a rock you could

1145
01:05:54,280 --> 01:05:54,760
Speaker 4: be happy.

1146
01:05:56,920 --> 01:05:59,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I remember, I was contructing. I love talking

1147
01:05:59,440 --> 01:06:04,760
Speaker 1: about Yeah, I remember, I remember her name. It was Angie. Sorry,

1148
01:06:04,760 --> 01:06:06,840
Speaker 1: that was I don't know why I said that. I

1149
01:06:06,840 --> 01:06:13,919
Speaker 1: think I only I think yeah that was you. Yeah, yeah, yeah,

1150
01:06:13,960 --> 01:06:15,840
Speaker 1: if you could look at a rock and be happy. Yeah,

1151
01:06:15,840 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 1: you're good. You're chilling. I'm trying to. I'm debating whether

1152
01:06:20,320 --> 01:06:22,080
Speaker 1: or not I can do I've been recently debating whether

1153
01:06:22,160 --> 01:06:25,640
Speaker 1: I can do that, whether or not I can be

1154
01:06:25,680 --> 01:06:27,680
Speaker 1: happy with like a less than perfect life.

1155
01:06:29,400 --> 01:06:30,400
Speaker 2: No, do you.

1156
01:06:30,400 --> 01:06:33,640
Speaker 4: Collect rocks at all? That's what you should do?

1157
01:06:33,680 --> 01:06:36,000
Speaker 1: You think I should collect rocks?

1158
01:06:36,400 --> 01:06:39,240
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's what I've been doing, like, you know, like

1159
01:06:39,400 --> 01:06:50,240
Speaker 4: geodes and like crystals and whatnot. Okay, this planet is

1160
01:06:50,240 --> 01:06:53,200
Speaker 4: fucking neat. Look what this planet did.

1161
01:06:54,400 --> 01:06:54,440
Speaker 2: You?

1162
01:06:54,560 --> 01:06:56,840
Speaker 1: But I okay for me, I don't have to collect

1163
01:06:56,880 --> 01:06:59,080
Speaker 1: I can just you don't need to collect them. I

1164
01:06:59,080 --> 01:07:00,720
Speaker 1: don't need to be in possession of it. I can

1165
01:07:00,800 --> 01:07:02,360
Speaker 1: just look at the rock and be like, this is

1166
01:07:02,360 --> 01:07:04,360
Speaker 1: a cool rock. I don't got to take it home

1167
01:07:04,360 --> 01:07:04,600
Speaker 1: with me.

1168
01:07:06,080 --> 01:07:09,440
Speaker 4: Okay, fine, Well we can all look look at rock

1169
01:07:09,520 --> 01:07:10,120
Speaker 4: and be happy.

1170
01:07:11,120 --> 01:07:16,440
Speaker 5: Yeah, own place. Yeah.

1171
01:07:16,560 --> 01:07:18,439
Speaker 1: Do you feel like you know you said the way

1172
01:07:18,480 --> 01:07:24,040
Speaker 1: you said today is your day? It made it it.

1173
01:07:24,240 --> 01:07:27,200
Speaker 1: I guess it indicated to me that you really wanted

1174
01:07:27,200 --> 01:07:30,360
Speaker 1: to have this conversation, which I'm honored by, and I

1175
01:07:30,520 --> 01:07:33,160
Speaker 1: just in this moment I want to check in with

1176
01:07:33,240 --> 01:07:37,440
Speaker 1: you and see if the results of this conversation matched

1177
01:07:37,480 --> 01:07:42,080
Speaker 1: your expectations in any way, shape or form.

1178
01:07:42,720 --> 01:07:45,640
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, like like, I still can't even believe

1179
01:07:45,640 --> 01:07:46,720
Speaker 4: I'm talking to you right now.

1180
01:07:49,200 --> 01:07:51,640
Speaker 1: Okay, good, Okay, good. I was I was worried about that.

1181
01:07:53,600 --> 01:07:53,680
Speaker 2: No.

1182
01:07:53,800 --> 01:07:56,200
Speaker 4: I think you facilitate a lot of good in this world,

1183
01:07:56,320 --> 01:07:58,280
Speaker 4: and you put a lot of good vibes in there,

1184
01:07:58,320 --> 01:08:01,120
Speaker 4: and I've definitely received those vibes from you during this

1185
01:08:01,160 --> 01:08:02,200
Speaker 4: phone call, for sure.

1186
01:08:02,280 --> 01:08:05,200
Speaker 1: Okay, good, okay, good. I appreciate that. I appreciate that.

1187
01:08:05,240 --> 01:08:06,920
Speaker 1: I'm gonna try to remember your name. Give me two

1188
01:08:06,920 --> 01:08:15,040
Speaker 1: seconds on only one. Oh, okay, Alice, there we go. Okay,

1189
01:08:15,160 --> 01:08:17,599
Speaker 1: you kind of gave that to me though, I'm sorry.

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01:08:18,240 --> 01:08:20,559
Speaker 1: It's no, no, it's it's okay, it's okay. I would,

1191
01:08:20,560 --> 01:08:23,120
Speaker 1: I would. I was going to guess Erica.

1192
01:08:24,479 --> 01:08:26,840
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I'm glad I gave it to you.

1193
01:08:28,760 --> 01:08:30,120
Speaker 1: Alice. Is there anything else you want to say to

1194
01:08:30,120 --> 01:08:31,280
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

1195
01:08:34,760 --> 01:08:38,320
Speaker 4: Just appreciate the people around you. That's all I gotta say. Guys,

1196
01:08:38,720 --> 01:08:43,160
Speaker 4: have a good one and gex bluff, I think, Alice.

1197
01:08:43,200 --> 01:08:46,599
Speaker 1: I will uh, I will see you in uh. I'll

1198
01:08:46,600 --> 01:08:50,559
Speaker 1: see you in hell or heaven or wherever, or in

1199
01:08:50,600 --> 01:08:52,679
Speaker 1: the dirt or in or in Wonderland or in the dirt.

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01:08:53,120 --> 01:08:56,080
Speaker 1: But I'll be seeing you at some point.

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01:08:56,439 --> 01:08:58,479
Speaker 4: Come to Toronto. I'm going to your.

1202
01:08:58,320 --> 01:09:02,759
Speaker 1: Show, okay, cool? Yeah. Jacksonville, Florida, I don't know, but Toronto,

1203
01:09:02,800 --> 01:09:05,560
Speaker 1: I'm I'm there, beautiful.

1204
01:09:05,720 --> 01:09:07,439
Speaker 4: We'll see you then, all.

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01:09:07,400 --> 01:09:13,160
Speaker 1: Right, by Ellis. I don't have anything particularly against the

1206
01:09:13,240 --> 01:09:15,680
Speaker 1: actual city of Jacksonville, Florida. I've never been there. If

1207
01:09:15,680 --> 01:09:16,599
Speaker 1: you're from Jacksonville, Florida.

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01:09:16,600 --> 01:09:16,840
Speaker 4: I'm not.

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01:09:17,280 --> 01:09:23,439
Speaker 1: I've been. I we did Miami, Orlando, Tampa is just

1210
01:09:23,560 --> 01:09:26,160
Speaker 1: but Jacksonville. Other people in Jacksonville that would want to

1211
01:09:26,280 --> 01:09:32,720
Speaker 1: come to a thing. Also, Toronto is a better city,

1212
01:09:33,479 --> 01:09:35,280
Speaker 1: no offense to jackson I can't you know what, you

1213
01:09:35,280 --> 01:09:36,960
Speaker 1: know what. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that because

1214
01:09:37,040 --> 01:09:39,200
Speaker 1: I've never been to Jacksonville. I've only been to Toronto.

1215
01:09:41,080 --> 01:09:44,160
Speaker 1: Toronto's a great city, though I like it a lot. Uh,

1216
01:09:45,520 --> 01:09:47,840
Speaker 1: I'm sure Jacksonville is good too. You know what, I'm leaving.

1217
01:09:47,880 --> 01:09:49,680
Speaker 1: I can't cut this out. I'm leaving it in. I

1218
01:09:49,720 --> 01:09:55,000
Speaker 1: mean I can, but I don't want to because I'm

1219
01:09:55,080 --> 01:10:04,519
Speaker 1: not that worried about the about it. Yeah, you know what,

1220
01:10:04,680 --> 01:10:08,040
Speaker 1: maybe one day I'll go to Jacksonville, Florida to do.

1221
01:10:08,280 --> 01:10:11,200
Speaker 1: But I don't know what I would do there. I

1222
01:10:11,240 --> 01:10:13,759
Speaker 1: guess I guess the same I guess the same fucking

1223
01:10:13,840 --> 01:10:16,120
Speaker 1: thing I would do anywhere else I went in the world,

1224
01:10:16,200 --> 01:10:20,920
Speaker 1: which is walk around, saft things and eat. It's the

1225
01:10:20,920 --> 01:10:27,120
Speaker 1: only thing to ever do anywhere. All Right, podcast over.

1226
01:10:26,880 --> 01:10:30,040
Speaker 3: Goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

1227
01:10:30,400 --> 01:10:33,800
Speaker 6: Derek goes and he's teaching you a loud in the

1228
01:10:33,800 --> 01:10:37,080
Speaker 6: memory life, Money's not rem an expert