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Speaker 1: The Nick Greiser Podcast. O n Here's Nikky. Hello here.

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Speaker 1: I am welcome to the show, this Nick Laser Podcast.

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Speaker 1: How the hell are you? Um? I am here in St. Louis, Missouri.

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Speaker 1: Noah is in Arizona. I'm sitting on the opposite side

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Speaker 1: of the room that I normally do, and I just

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Speaker 1: spilled zevia all over me because I'm not used to

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Speaker 1: navigating this. Mike's standing. Um, I got all wet, and

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Speaker 1: uh it feels good for once in my thirty eight

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Speaker 1: year old life to get wet because it doesn't happen

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Speaker 1: as much anymore. Do you feel do you feel the

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Speaker 1: dryness happening? I definitely am the way less hornier than

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Speaker 1: I was in my twenties. That's it. That's like I

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Speaker 1: feel crazy because of it, because it just feels I

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Speaker 1: just it's too soon for that to start. I want

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Speaker 1: to be I I don't know. I still get get

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Speaker 1: you know what. I got horned up by like some

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Speaker 1: certain things. I sometimes feel like a man because I

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Speaker 1: rarely am just like so turned on by something that

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Speaker 1: it inspires me to do something. But once in a

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Speaker 1: while it gets me. Okay, have you been watching White Lotus?

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Speaker 1: I have not been, but I hear it's very sexy. God, Okay,

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Speaker 1: you're gonna love it so much. I'm excited for you

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Speaker 1: to see it. It's just beautifully shot. It's written by

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Speaker 1: this guy who just like he just gets women. I

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Speaker 1: don't know. It just feels feminist and it's creepy. But

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Speaker 1: it's beautiful and all the actors are so good except

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Speaker 1: for a couple. I won't name names, but just like

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Speaker 1: I didn't name names for the dahm Er thing, but

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Speaker 1: some people guessed who I thought was the worst actor

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Speaker 1: ever because it was so glaringly bad. Um, No, pretty

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Speaker 1: much everyone's a good actor on White Lotus And who

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Speaker 1: am I to say? Because I would probably be the

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Speaker 1: weakest link on there, But I want to get on

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Speaker 1: season three. I think I'm just well known enough, but

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Speaker 1: not known enough to get on there anyway. They're a

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Speaker 1: gie ony theo James. You want to give him a

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Speaker 1: little goog He's I feel bad like I. It's it's

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Speaker 1: it's it's a lot like the thing, like the show alone.

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Speaker 1: When I said, I was watching that with Chris and

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Speaker 1: I was so attracted to that guy Clay that I

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Speaker 1: had to tell Chris because I just felt like it

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Speaker 1: was the elephant in my pants. Like it was just

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Speaker 1: every time he came on screen, I would be like,

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Speaker 1: oh God, he's so hot, and I just felt like

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Speaker 1: I was almost like not cheating, but like I had

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Speaker 1: to share it with him. Like there's something emotional that

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Speaker 1: happens when you're like have a crush on someone on

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Speaker 1: TV that feels like I just want to share it

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Speaker 1: with my partner. That's so much of TV watching was

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Speaker 1: to be like, oh my god, he's so even if

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Speaker 1: it was like I try to um, because if you

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Speaker 1: white watch why Lotus, most people do um, No, you're you're, you're,

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Speaker 1: you're out of the loop. Um. But there's a girl

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Speaker 1: on there too that's a h L prostituto. That's not

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Speaker 1: the Italian for it, but she's a prostitute and or

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Speaker 1: sex worker and um, Lucia Lucia, and she is so

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Speaker 1: hot and much like CEO James, whenever she comes on screen,

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Speaker 1: I'm like, oh my god. But Theo James, there's something

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Speaker 1: about a extremely hot douchebag character that like really gets me.

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Speaker 1: And I was trying to like look at pictures of him.

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Speaker 1: First of all, he has no Instagram, so there's no

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Speaker 1: way to see, Like I just wanted to get like

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Speaker 1: footage of him to like I was eventually gonna end

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Speaker 1: up watching like hardcore porn, but like I wanted to

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Speaker 1: like maybe grease the wheels because I've just been He's

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Speaker 1: just the hottest thing I've seen in a really long time. Um,

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Speaker 1: besides my fucking boyfriend. But you know, the thing that

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Speaker 1: I saw that I don't have with me, and that

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Speaker 1: more desire to it. And he um, he has no

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Speaker 1: presence online and he's kind of like an unknown and

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Speaker 1: he uh yeah that he's that he has no Instagram

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Speaker 1: is so hot. His Instagram him People must think it's

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Speaker 1: him because it's got like two hundred something thousand followers.

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Speaker 1: But it's made by a fan, and I know most

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Speaker 1: people that follow him, I think it's him, But it's

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Speaker 1: not official. It's not it doesn't have a blue check mark.

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Speaker 1: It's called THEO James Official. But all of the captions

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Speaker 1: it's definitely by a fan because the captions are like, um,

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Speaker 1: it says like my DearS in three days. It's just

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Speaker 1: a picture of him like wistfully sitting by a thing

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Speaker 1: he would never owe. Another one is life is not

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Speaker 1: the days that have passed, but those that are remembered.

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Speaker 1: It seems like he's writing these captions, so hundreds of

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Speaker 1: thousands of people think this guy is worse than his character,

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Speaker 1: and his character is scummy. I don't know what it is.

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Speaker 1: The other guy that did this to me, the only

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Speaker 1: one in the past on a TV show is and

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Speaker 1: I'm watching it again. I'm rewatching Veep is Dan's character

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Speaker 1: rapscallion is never to be trusted, will never love one woman,

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Speaker 1: will always cheat, And I don't really want these people

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Speaker 1: to like love me. But it was funny. I was

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Speaker 1: sharing with my friends on the chat that THEO James.

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Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, the guy in White

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Speaker 1: Lotus is so fucking hot, and all of them were like,

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Speaker 1: he's too hot. I wouldn't I couldn't be with someone

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Speaker 1: they're like, I need him to have like discolored teeth

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Speaker 1: big ears. Something needs to offset him so that I

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Speaker 1: know other women won't like that. Everyone doesn't want him.

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Speaker 1: It would drive me crazy to think everyone wanted him,

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Speaker 1: whereas I was like, it would drive me fucking crazy.

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Speaker 1: It would be like so hot to think everyone wanted him,

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Speaker 1: and I'm like, I got him. That made me feel amazing.

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Speaker 1: What do you think, like, Chris, Yes, I see you

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Speaker 1: to him all the time. And Chris is just kind

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Speaker 1: of like you're just saying that so you can get

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Speaker 1: away with saying he's hot. But I'm like, no, he

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Speaker 1: does look like you. Um, it's like dark features. Um.

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Speaker 1: A picture that made me super horned up lately. Yes, please,

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Speaker 1: you posted a photo of you and Esther Pavitski at

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Speaker 1: the awarding and you you're holding her hand and she

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Speaker 1: looks like it's like dumb and slave. It was so

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Speaker 1: it's so I was that was so fun to the

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Speaker 1: People's Choice Awards last night. It came up out of

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Speaker 1: sucking nowhere. Um, over the weekend, things always come up

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Speaker 1: last minute for me. So grateful that someone thought to

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Speaker 1: But um, I presented for Best Late Night Hosts, which

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Speaker 1: red carpets are always fun. Um you get to see

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Speaker 1: cool performances, which I didn't get to see. Shania Twain performed,

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Speaker 1: Shania Dock is pretty Uh, you can tell she had

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Speaker 1: a heavy hand, and it doesn't really delve into her divorce,

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Speaker 1: which is super interesting because he cheated on her with

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Speaker 1: out like God, our partners are together, and then they

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Speaker 1: And she also had lime disease and like it fucked

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Speaker 1: you know, lime disease fox with you neuro logically, and

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Speaker 1: she sounded great last night she performed, but my person

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Speaker 1: I was presenting like forty minutes after she performed, so

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Speaker 1: and then I was like Chris was flying back from

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Speaker 1: after I moved out. So I moved out to l A,

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Speaker 1: came back here. I supposed to have some time off,

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Speaker 1: one of those things where they ask and you kind

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Speaker 1: wish they didn't think of me, because now I have

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Speaker 1: such a cool opportunity. You can't say no, but I

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Speaker 1: do want the time off. You know. It's like when

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Speaker 1: go to a fitting because everything is always so tight

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Speaker 1: and so nice. Whenever it's tight, they're just like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: this is a weird designer. They make things like super

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Speaker 1: like the sizes are all different, and like, honestly, this

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Speaker 1: is a dumb garment, Like they shame the garment. It's

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Speaker 1: so nice. They're always like you, we don't even like this.

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Speaker 1: It would never have worked. I hate this color. They

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Speaker 1: always it clearly is like I'm not the size I

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Speaker 1: then they always make it the dress's fault and I

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Speaker 1: love them for it. What was your question? Did you

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Speaker 1: okay your outfit? Let's talk about it was a lavender dress?

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Speaker 1: Was that a tribute to Taylor Swift? No, I didn't

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Speaker 1: even think to put lavender Hayes as my caption for

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Speaker 1: the pictures until my second post because a bestie, I

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Speaker 1: think a bestie wrote me like, this is your Lavender

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Speaker 1: Hayes moment, and I go there. I was searching through

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Speaker 1: bejeweled lyrics to try to find something that like resonated

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Speaker 1: with the look, and then Lavender Hayes is staring at

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Speaker 1: me the whole time. Um. It was the first dress

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Speaker 1: a couple of things that didn't sit, um, a boostier thing,

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Speaker 1: but there was the second thing I tried on. I

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Speaker 1: was drawn to it. It reminded me of something Porsche

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Speaker 1: would wear on white Lotus. If you're watching it, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it was like this, it's balm and I've never worn

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Speaker 1: bomb me. I think it just to say like a

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Speaker 1: And yeah, it was totally a tailor swift moment. I

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Speaker 1: didn't even think about that. It felt like I felt

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Speaker 1: young in it, you know, it felt like a young look.

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Speaker 1: And there were some other looks that I was dying for.

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Speaker 1: I mean they you we usually go through about ten

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Speaker 1: to twenty looks in a fitting and then we always

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Speaker 1: know like kind of which one is the one like

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Speaker 1: it's just so easy to choose, But this time it

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Speaker 1: was ironic because I went into the fitting being like, guys,

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Speaker 1: I really don't like my body right now. I'm I'm

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Speaker 1: just being honest with you. Don't try to like tell

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Speaker 1: and like what do you think I should do on TikTok?

426
00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:06,200
Speaker 1: Like we were just talking about like like we were

427
00:21:06,280 --> 00:21:08,600
Speaker 1: just in the back of a school bus and Ryan

428
00:21:08,640 --> 00:21:12,960
Speaker 1: Reynolds is like crying about his family or whatever. Um, yeah,

429
00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:15,240
Speaker 1: I like running Ryan Reynolds a lot. He's a class act.

430
00:21:15,480 --> 00:21:18,919
Speaker 1: Lizzo also class act her her award. She like got

431
00:21:18,960 --> 00:21:21,040
Speaker 1: a bunch of time and she gave it all to

432
00:21:21,160 --> 00:21:25,240
Speaker 1: these like women that are all running organizations to help

433
00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:28,600
Speaker 1: with women. And it was like she and they were

434
00:21:28,680 --> 00:21:31,359
Speaker 1: like thirty twenty five of them, and she went through

435
00:21:31,400 --> 00:21:33,040
Speaker 1: each of them and give a biography. And these are

436
00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:36,800
Speaker 1: women that like everyone's like, everyone's clapping, but like really,

437
00:21:36,960 --> 00:21:40,159
Speaker 1: this is like people want star power, and so I

438
00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:43,480
Speaker 1: know that Alizzo did something where she could. They were like,

439
00:21:43,480 --> 00:21:45,040
Speaker 1: we're gonna give you an icon award and she's like,

440
00:21:45,320 --> 00:21:47,159
Speaker 1: the only way I'll except this is if you let

441
00:21:47,240 --> 00:21:50,439
Speaker 1: me give time to these women. Because this was unheard.

442
00:21:50,560 --> 00:21:55,680
Speaker 1: I've never seen people who are not celebrities celebrated for

443
00:21:55,800 --> 00:21:57,560
Speaker 1: so long and like a big I mean it was

444
00:21:57,600 --> 00:22:00,800
Speaker 1: probably six minutes of her just reading off people's bios

445
00:22:00,880 --> 00:22:03,400
Speaker 1: of like this woman removed land mines from an area,

446
00:22:03,480 --> 00:22:05,640
Speaker 1: this person fights for transgender rights. But you would give

447
00:22:05,640 --> 00:22:08,000
Speaker 1: like a detail, bigraphy and there's this whole robe women,

448
00:22:08,040 --> 00:22:09,479
Speaker 1: so you're kind of counting, like, oh my god, we're

449
00:22:09,520 --> 00:22:12,840
Speaker 1: gonna want long to go. It was awesome and um

450
00:22:13,440 --> 00:22:16,359
Speaker 1: and you could tell. So then Lizzo later on accepted

451
00:22:16,359 --> 00:22:18,160
Speaker 1: an award for the best Song of the Year or whatever,

452
00:22:18,960 --> 00:22:21,280
Speaker 1: and she comes out and because she didn't use her

453
00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:24,600
Speaker 1: icon a word time to like sing, which they probably

454
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:26,119
Speaker 1: wanted her to do a song. And she was like no,

455
00:22:26,200 --> 00:22:28,119
Speaker 1: I'm gonna do this instead, either to take it or

456
00:22:28,160 --> 00:22:29,800
Speaker 1: leave it. They could probably go, okay, we'll take it.

457
00:22:30,280 --> 00:22:32,440
Speaker 1: I think she gave them a little bit of a

458
00:22:32,560 --> 00:22:35,680
Speaker 1: song because at her expectance speech, she was like she

459
00:22:35,840 --> 00:22:38,280
Speaker 1: gave she sang a little bit. She's saying acapella and

460
00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:41,960
Speaker 1: it was amazing. She's saying this staring banner, just kidding, um,

461
00:22:42,520 --> 00:22:45,400
Speaker 1: just getting and um. So I just like, like looking

462
00:22:45,440 --> 00:22:47,879
Speaker 1: at the politics of everything. And then Ryan Reynolds his speech.

463
00:22:47,880 --> 00:22:50,720
Speaker 1: If you listen carefully, he name drops his production company

464
00:22:50,800 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 1: like eighteen times, even though it's all about like we

465
00:22:53,920 --> 00:22:57,360
Speaker 1: need to come together, but you know, Moonlight Ride, we're

466
00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,919
Speaker 1: doing amazing things. Like he would just kept saying as

467
00:23:00,080 --> 00:23:02,960
Speaker 1: dumb production company over and over and maybe they are

468
00:23:03,040 --> 00:23:06,600
Speaker 1: doing great things, but like everyone has a bottom line,

469
00:23:06,800 --> 00:23:08,920
Speaker 1: they're all trying to make money, but Lizzo was not.

470
00:23:09,200 --> 00:23:11,480
Speaker 1: Lizzo was just actually using her time for good and

471
00:23:11,520 --> 00:23:14,680
Speaker 1: I thought it was really cool and the people's champion.

472
00:23:15,359 --> 00:23:18,399
Speaker 1: She is a people's champion. She's fucking awesome And I

473
00:23:18,520 --> 00:23:22,120
Speaker 1: just loved watching her video montage made me like cry,

474
00:23:22,240 --> 00:23:23,840
Speaker 1: what was that? What was it like to see her

475
00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:27,320
Speaker 1: in person? She was so far away that it felt

476
00:23:27,440 --> 00:23:30,680
Speaker 1: like I'm more intimate with her on TikTok, you know

477
00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:32,320
Speaker 1: what I mean, Like she's more close up, like I

478
00:23:32,400 --> 00:23:35,359
Speaker 1: see her asked temples every single day I see her,

479
00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:38,439
Speaker 1: Like her side feels like it is like wrapped around

480
00:23:38,560 --> 00:23:40,879
Speaker 1: my head every day because it's so close up, so

481
00:23:41,119 --> 00:23:43,200
Speaker 1: from far. Even in the same room as her, I

482
00:23:43,280 --> 00:23:47,080
Speaker 1: will say that she's just I don't know, I'm just excited.

483
00:23:47,119 --> 00:23:48,879
Speaker 1: I was excited to be in the same room as her,

484
00:23:49,000 --> 00:23:51,520
Speaker 1: but um and I was excited to hear her sing

485
00:23:51,640 --> 00:23:53,960
Speaker 1: that little bit. She's just got an amazing voice. But

486
00:23:54,040 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 1: then there was this one woman who sang Lauren Conrad

487
00:23:57,400 --> 00:24:00,280
Speaker 1: Spencer I think that's her name. She sang a song

488
00:24:00,359 --> 00:24:08,040
Speaker 1: called Oh God, what's the the sweatsuit? Yes, stressed like

489
00:24:08,080 --> 00:24:12,280
Speaker 1: Billie Eyelash Elash, Billie Eilish, Billy she Yeah, she was.

490
00:24:12,600 --> 00:24:15,720
Speaker 1: She was Billy fake eyelash and um no. I saw

491
00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:17,240
Speaker 1: her on the red carpet. I was like, who's this

492
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:19,679
Speaker 1: kind of like Billie Eilish wanna be And then all

493
00:24:19,720 --> 00:24:21,560
Speaker 1: of a sudden, she has like the most amazing voice,

494
00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:23,920
Speaker 1: and she has this song called Fingers Crossed, So it's

495
00:24:23,920 --> 00:24:25,760
Speaker 1: all about like I wish you said you love me

496
00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:29,000
Speaker 1: without your fingers crossed. It's so good and I instantly esther.

497
00:24:29,119 --> 00:24:30,680
Speaker 1: Came back to the table from the bathroom and the

498
00:24:30,680 --> 00:24:32,600
Speaker 1: s girl was singing. She goes, who is this? And

499
00:24:32,640 --> 00:24:34,680
Speaker 1: I go, I just looked up on Spotify. I'm adding

500
00:24:34,720 --> 00:24:37,720
Speaker 1: her now, this is incredible. So I love discovering that

501
00:24:37,840 --> 00:24:42,119
Speaker 1: new artist. Um. At one point, Heidi Klum walked by

502
00:24:42,160 --> 00:24:44,280
Speaker 1: my table and like bumped into my chair in a

503
00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:45,960
Speaker 1: way that it shook me. But I didn't think anything

504
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:47,840
Speaker 1: of it because we're really like all kind of crowded

505
00:24:47,920 --> 00:24:51,520
Speaker 1: into this section where all the tables tables are. And

506
00:24:51,560 --> 00:24:55,159
Speaker 1: then I heard excuse me, sorry, and I'm like and

507
00:24:55,240 --> 00:24:57,560
Speaker 1: I turned around, I'm like, oh my god, it's Hykling

508
00:24:57,640 --> 00:24:59,680
Speaker 1: just said sorry. Like she's good in my book the

509
00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:01,520
Speaker 1: rest to my life because she apologized to me when

510
00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:03,280
Speaker 1: she didn't need to. I wouldn't have even been like,

511
00:25:03,400 --> 00:25:05,280
Speaker 1: who's that bitch bumping into me? I just was like

512
00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:07,240
Speaker 1: on my phone and didn't care. But she made a

513
00:25:07,280 --> 00:25:10,119
Speaker 1: point to be like, I'm sorry, excuse me, Um you

514
00:25:10,320 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 1: are out and then um oh, and then I saw

515
00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:16,320
Speaker 1: her backstage after I had said clean slate, like that

516
00:25:16,440 --> 00:25:18,159
Speaker 1: girl can do no wrong. She could spit in my

517
00:25:18,200 --> 00:25:19,680
Speaker 1: face and I'd still be like, she's a good person.

518
00:25:20,280 --> 00:25:23,840
Speaker 1: She Um, I left my purse like on this couch

519
00:25:25,000 --> 00:25:27,280
Speaker 1: backstage in this like holding area, and I had to

520
00:25:27,320 --> 00:25:30,399
Speaker 1: go to the bathroom. I went and like you know,

521
00:25:30,600 --> 00:25:32,440
Speaker 1: took care of business, and I came back and my

522
00:25:32,760 --> 00:25:34,359
Speaker 1: I felt so bad because she had moved to the

523
00:25:34,400 --> 00:25:36,000
Speaker 1: couch I was, my purse was on, and you could

524
00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,320
Speaker 1: tell she kind of like moved it to the side

525
00:25:37,359 --> 00:25:38,800
Speaker 1: so she could sit, so my person was just like

526
00:25:38,880 --> 00:25:40,280
Speaker 1: taking up a seat. When I left, there was like

527
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,200
Speaker 1: no one in the room, and then all of a sudden,

528
00:25:42,240 --> 00:25:43,720
Speaker 1: she's like sitting next to my person. I could tell

529
00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:45,920
Speaker 1: she had to like touch it. Sometimes I feel like

530
00:25:46,040 --> 00:25:48,560
Speaker 1: so burdened when like people have to like touch and

531
00:25:48,680 --> 00:25:51,240
Speaker 1: move my things, like she probably was wearing like a

532
00:25:51,359 --> 00:25:53,240
Speaker 1: lip glass would fall out or something. And I felt

533
00:25:53,400 --> 00:25:55,800
Speaker 1: so bad that she even had to like look at

534
00:25:55,880 --> 00:25:58,119
Speaker 1: my purse, even though it was beautiful and expensive, and

535
00:25:58,160 --> 00:25:59,159
Speaker 1: I had to give it back and I was very

536
00:25:59,160 --> 00:26:01,400
Speaker 1: worried I was gonna spill bronze are in it. Um.

537
00:26:01,600 --> 00:26:03,000
Speaker 1: But then I went up and I go, oh my god,

538
00:26:03,000 --> 00:26:05,560
Speaker 1: I'm so sorry, and like moved it, and she looked

539
00:26:05,600 --> 00:26:07,720
Speaker 1: at me very confused, and I go, okay, we're back

540
00:26:07,760 --> 00:26:11,080
Speaker 1: to We're back to net zero. Like she just like

541
00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:13,960
Speaker 1: whatever goodwill I had given her, I was like taking

542
00:26:14,040 --> 00:26:16,760
Speaker 1: it away. But she was very personal. She was making

543
00:26:16,760 --> 00:26:18,840
Speaker 1: eye contact with people and smiling and being like they're

544
00:26:18,920 --> 00:26:22,680
Speaker 1: like hi, Hello, Hi, like she's and she looked stunning.

545
00:26:22,840 --> 00:26:27,439
Speaker 1: And then Chris Jenner. Yes, I'm glad you bring up

546
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:30,359
Speaker 1: Chris Jenner, because I was gonna say, um, Heidi Quim's

547
00:26:30,400 --> 00:26:33,680
Speaker 1: dress looked really hard to manage, but I think Chris Jenner,

548
00:26:33,760 --> 00:26:36,760
Speaker 1: if you give a prize for like the most unmanageable dress,

549
00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:39,119
Speaker 1: it was really Chris Jenner. I didn't even see her

550
00:26:39,240 --> 00:26:44,720
Speaker 1: dress well, apparently when I got up to go backstage

551
00:26:44,760 --> 00:26:47,600
Speaker 1: to the holdings area before I presented esther said that

552
00:26:47,840 --> 00:26:51,080
Speaker 1: Chloe and and Chris sat at our table with us,

553
00:26:51,520 --> 00:26:53,280
Speaker 1: and I missed it because I was in the bag.

554
00:26:53,359 --> 00:26:55,280
Speaker 1: I missed Shanaya and I missed sitting at the same

555
00:26:55,359 --> 00:26:57,160
Speaker 1: table as Chloe and Chris. And she said that Chloe

556
00:26:57,240 --> 00:26:59,639
Speaker 1: and Chris did not look to make eye contact with anyone,

557
00:26:59,760 --> 00:27:01,840
Speaker 1: like with her or anyone, so I think they're so

558
00:27:02,119 --> 00:27:04,359
Speaker 1: used to like everyone wanting something from them, they probably

559
00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:06,920
Speaker 1: just shut off eye contact and like avoid it. Because

560
00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:08,880
Speaker 1: I found that if you don't make eye contact with people,

561
00:27:08,960 --> 00:27:10,800
Speaker 1: you don't have to talk to them. That's how people

562
00:27:10,840 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 1: have an ind where they go, oh hi, you know,

563
00:27:12,560 --> 00:27:14,760
Speaker 1: they wave. But if you just kind of avoid it,

564
00:27:15,320 --> 00:27:17,200
Speaker 1: you can get away with like I just didn't see you.

565
00:27:17,960 --> 00:27:20,119
Speaker 1: But then I was walking back to my seat and

566
00:27:20,200 --> 00:27:23,200
Speaker 1: Chris Jenner was crossing kind of in the backstage area

567
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:25,480
Speaker 1: and I saw her and I go, I love you,

568
00:27:25,800 --> 00:27:28,080
Speaker 1: and she goes, oh, hi, hi, and like kind of

569
00:27:28,520 --> 00:27:30,439
Speaker 1: and we almost like had a moment and like talked.

570
00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:33,600
Speaker 1: She definitely knowledged me, definitely said hi, and it was thrilling.

571
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:35,919
Speaker 1: And then a camera caught it and I go, did

572
00:27:36,000 --> 00:27:38,440
Speaker 1: you catch that? Please? Will you send me that footage?

573
00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:40,560
Speaker 1: So the footage is out there somewhere of me freaking

574
00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:44,080
Speaker 1: out um, And then we went to I did my part.

575
00:27:44,160 --> 00:27:46,879
Speaker 1: I flubbed a line like right away. It was so

576
00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:49,600
Speaker 1: scary because I walked out on stage. There was no rehearsal.

577
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:51,960
Speaker 1: By the way, They're just like, here's your mark. Walk there.

578
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,399
Speaker 1: They're very you know, tell you exactly where to go

579
00:27:54,600 --> 00:27:57,360
Speaker 1: and how to stand and whatever. But I walk up

580
00:27:57,920 --> 00:28:00,639
Speaker 1: and my my speech, what I'm to say, is not

581
00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:03,440
Speaker 1: on the prompter. It's just blank. And I'm walking and

582
00:28:03,520 --> 00:28:06,360
Speaker 1: then all of a sudden, the laughter or the clap

583
00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:10,400
Speaker 1: clapter claps dies down and there's still nothing on things.

584
00:28:10,440 --> 00:28:12,760
Speaker 1: So I am panic mode, and then all of a

585
00:28:12,760 --> 00:28:15,199
Speaker 1: sudden it comes up, and I'm so like overwhelmed by

586
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:17,719
Speaker 1: having to like I was about to just start and go, well,

587
00:28:17,760 --> 00:28:20,000
Speaker 1: there's nothing on the prompter, but I'm gonna wing it

588
00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:22,840
Speaker 1: listen every night, like I was getting ready to just

589
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:24,000
Speaker 1: go into that, and then all of a sudden it

590
00:28:24,000 --> 00:28:26,000
Speaker 1: showed up. Because so it kind of like made me,

591
00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:29,280
Speaker 1: uh stumble over my words a little bit, but I

592
00:28:29,480 --> 00:28:33,080
Speaker 1: always stumble in these scenarios, Like I don't mind it.

593
00:28:33,160 --> 00:28:35,080
Speaker 1: It's never really come back to bite me. It's never

594
00:28:35,160 --> 00:28:37,359
Speaker 1: made me feel like I'm a failure. I don't like,

595
00:28:38,480 --> 00:28:40,680
Speaker 1: I don't walk away from it being like I sucked

596
00:28:40,720 --> 00:28:42,840
Speaker 1: it up, like I'm never gonna work again, which I

597
00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:46,040
Speaker 1: think I used to be like. But I think every

598
00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:48,240
Speaker 1: time I presented an award, which has been maybe twice,

599
00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:51,960
Speaker 1: I have stumbled over the lines. And I'm good at

600
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:54,440
Speaker 1: reading teleprompter, but it just I don't know, I didn't

601
00:28:54,480 --> 00:28:56,240
Speaker 1: get a chance to practice it enough or whatever. It

602
00:28:56,320 --> 00:28:58,560
Speaker 1: was fine, but then um, and then that was over

603
00:28:58,640 --> 00:29:01,479
Speaker 1: and I was like, good to go. And then Esther

604
00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:02,959
Speaker 1: and I watched the rest of the show and then

605
00:29:03,080 --> 00:29:05,440
Speaker 1: we went to the after party where we hung out

606
00:29:05,520 --> 00:29:11,640
Speaker 1: with Um. No, David wasn't there. It was pre taped.

607
00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:14,920
Speaker 1: So if you see the video of me on Betches

608
00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:19,520
Speaker 1: that I posted on my Instagram and it's David presenting

609
00:29:19,600 --> 00:29:22,920
Speaker 1: to Adam Sandler, it cuts to me and you could

610
00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: hear me whispering to or telling Esther full volume. This

611
00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:30,040
Speaker 1: was pre taped, and so you like, right, we saw

612
00:29:30,240 --> 00:29:32,920
Speaker 1: my face up on the screen and I go, oh no,

613
00:29:33,760 --> 00:29:36,120
Speaker 1: like thank god, no one could. You can't really read

614
00:29:36,200 --> 00:29:37,840
Speaker 1: my lips. But if you watch it again, you will

615
00:29:37,880 --> 00:29:40,840
Speaker 1: totally know what I'm saying. This was pre taped because

616
00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:44,680
Speaker 1: I saw it. Um, David was either nominated or something,

617
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:45,880
Speaker 1: and I was like, are you gonna be there? And

618
00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:49,160
Speaker 1: he was like no, And so I think Sandler wasn't available,

619
00:29:49,160 --> 00:29:51,160
Speaker 1: so they had to. But it was so funny because

620
00:29:51,200 --> 00:29:55,160
Speaker 1: the in the place where the wards were it was

621
00:29:55,320 --> 00:29:58,360
Speaker 1: like it was in an airplane hangar, so it wasn't

622
00:29:58,360 --> 00:30:01,320
Speaker 1: like a typical like seating. Then we're all facing one direction.

623
00:30:01,400 --> 00:30:04,960
Speaker 1: There were rewards being presented all around us. So when

624
00:30:05,520 --> 00:30:07,160
Speaker 1: David came up on screen, people were like looking for

625
00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:09,240
Speaker 1: like what stages he on, Like it took about thirty

626
00:30:09,240 --> 00:30:11,960
Speaker 1: seconds to realize, like, oh, he's not here. Um. The

627
00:30:12,080 --> 00:30:16,520
Speaker 1: funniest thing though, was that the one of the biggest

628
00:30:16,560 --> 00:30:21,480
Speaker 1: applause moments in the whole show was when someone casually

629
00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:25,080
Speaker 1: mentioned Taylor Swift. They were like artists like Ed Sheer

630
00:30:25,200 --> 00:30:27,480
Speaker 1: and Taylor Swift, like and then Taylor Swift and people

631
00:30:27,600 --> 00:30:30,760
Speaker 1: fucking lost their minds, like she was there, and like

632
00:30:30,920 --> 00:30:34,080
Speaker 1: this is the power of this woman? Is that just

633
00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:36,440
Speaker 1: the mention of her name. She wasn't there, There was

634
00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:38,160
Speaker 1: no way she would be there. It was like someone

635
00:30:38,280 --> 00:30:41,240
Speaker 1: listing a bunch of artists, and but people still like

636
00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:45,760
Speaker 1: freaked out, and it just made me, Uh, it made

637
00:30:45,800 --> 00:30:49,000
Speaker 1: me happy. But also like, oh, I can tell how

638
00:30:49,040 --> 00:30:52,200
Speaker 1: annoyed everyone is with Taylor Swift fans, Like people are

639
00:30:52,280 --> 00:30:54,600
Speaker 1: just kind of like I've been seeing a lot of

640
00:30:54,680 --> 00:30:57,520
Speaker 1: people just I guess I saw esther post something last

641
00:30:57,600 --> 00:31:01,080
Speaker 1: night on on TikTok, and she was she was She

642
00:31:01,160 --> 00:31:05,760
Speaker 1: had posted something on TikTok about evidence that she's or

643
00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:08,120
Speaker 1: things about her that make her a pick me girl,

644
00:31:08,960 --> 00:31:12,200
Speaker 1: but that she's not actually a pick me girl. Do

645
00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:13,920
Speaker 1: you know what to pick me girl is? Pick me girl?

646
00:31:14,720 --> 00:31:17,360
Speaker 1: It's it sounds like I'm saying pig me. A pick

647
00:31:17,440 --> 00:31:19,280
Speaker 1: me girl is like a girl that's like me, me, me,

648
00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:21,200
Speaker 1: me me, like look at me, like, oh my god,

649
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:24,240
Speaker 1: I hate the word moist. Oh my god, I'm always

650
00:31:24,480 --> 00:31:27,520
Speaker 1: cold or like just trying to get attention, like a

651
00:31:27,600 --> 00:31:30,080
Speaker 1: girl that's just desperate and like trying to be quirky

652
00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 1: and doesn't really have that much going for her otherwise,

653
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:34,080
Speaker 1: so she has to come up with the little things

654
00:31:34,160 --> 00:31:37,400
Speaker 1: that make her interesting. So Esther was like doing this

655
00:31:37,560 --> 00:31:40,479
Speaker 1: really funny list on TikTok, I really recommend following her.

656
00:31:40,560 --> 00:31:42,480
Speaker 1: And I'm not even into TikTok, but I'm about to be.

657
00:31:42,560 --> 00:31:45,640
Speaker 1: I'll get to that a second. And um, but Esther.

658
00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:48,320
Speaker 1: One of Ester's was like, I have small feet. I

659
00:31:48,400 --> 00:31:50,280
Speaker 1: know that seems like a pick me girl thing because

660
00:31:50,320 --> 00:31:52,640
Speaker 1: anytime it comes up people, it seems like I'm trying

661
00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,640
Speaker 1: to get attention because they're very small. I'm a women's

662
00:31:54,640 --> 00:31:57,360
Speaker 1: size five. Like it's just the way it is, and um,

663
00:31:57,560 --> 00:31:59,600
Speaker 1: she's like and then her other one was like, I

664
00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:01,880
Speaker 1: don't really like Taylor Swift and that's almost like a

665
00:32:01,960 --> 00:32:03,680
Speaker 1: pick me girl thing of being like, I'm different than

666
00:32:03,720 --> 00:32:06,200
Speaker 1: other girls. I don't like Taylor Swift. And she was like,

667
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:07,640
Speaker 1: I know, it sounds like a pick me girl thing.

668
00:32:07,720 --> 00:32:10,000
Speaker 1: I just don't have that much enthusiasm for her. But

669
00:32:10,560 --> 00:32:12,920
Speaker 1: it was really cute because I was like, I had

670
00:32:13,040 --> 00:32:14,560
Speaker 1: just been with her, and she was like, I don't know,

671
00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:17,200
Speaker 1: I'm not one of these girls that when someone mentioned

672
00:32:17,240 --> 00:32:21,000
Speaker 1: Taylor Swift, I like get really excited and I was like,

673
00:32:21,080 --> 00:32:23,480
Speaker 1: oh my god. She she filmed this, like, you know,

674
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:25,520
Speaker 1: weeks ago. But then she was with me all night.

675
00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:28,240
Speaker 1: Anytime Taylor was mentioned, I was like, oh my god, wait,

676
00:32:28,320 --> 00:32:30,200
Speaker 1: so wait, what's your favorite song? Like what, so what

677
00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:32,120
Speaker 1: are you thinking about? Like what's the next album? Like

678
00:32:32,440 --> 00:32:35,200
Speaker 1: I was being that all night long, and um, it

679
00:32:35,360 --> 00:32:39,120
Speaker 1: is obnoxious and I, um, I admit to it. So

680
00:32:39,960 --> 00:32:43,800
Speaker 1: the after party was cool though, because it was chill,

681
00:32:44,240 --> 00:32:47,080
Speaker 1: it was there weren't a lot of big celebs there.

682
00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:49,920
Speaker 1: It was just like low key, it wasn't super loud

683
00:32:50,680 --> 00:32:53,720
Speaker 1: and um, so we just ended up esther and I

684
00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:55,760
Speaker 1: talked for a little bit, like alone, and we just

685
00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:58,320
Speaker 1: got to like hang. It was so fun. I love

686
00:32:58,400 --> 00:32:59,880
Speaker 1: a good girl. Hang. All I want to do is

687
00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:02,120
Speaker 1: it in a corner with my girlfriends and talk about

688
00:33:02,240 --> 00:33:06,080
Speaker 1: life and like real things and like sex and feelings

689
00:33:06,200 --> 00:33:09,360
Speaker 1: and not even sex, Like we just talked about feelings

690
00:33:09,480 --> 00:33:12,800
Speaker 1: and our issues and I don't know, it's just awesome.

691
00:33:12,920 --> 00:33:15,480
Speaker 1: I just I feel so bad for men. They never

692
00:33:15,640 --> 00:33:18,000
Speaker 1: have those conversations, but I think they're they're they're almost

693
00:33:18,080 --> 00:33:20,680
Speaker 1: like the way Esther feels about Taylor Swift, like good.

694
00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:25,040
Speaker 1: I don't want to have those. But uh, Nick Vile

695
00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:27,080
Speaker 1: was there from The Bachelor. He's an old friend of mine,

696
00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 1: so it was so good to see him and his

697
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:32,760
Speaker 1: girlfriend and um he it was yeah. I love running

698
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:34,280
Speaker 1: into him and it had been a while. And then

699
00:33:34,360 --> 00:33:37,800
Speaker 1: he was He Wells from The Bachelor in Paradise was

700
00:33:37,880 --> 00:33:42,920
Speaker 1: also there with his wife, Sarah Highland from Modern Family,

701
00:33:43,520 --> 00:33:46,240
Speaker 1: and she was so cool because when they came and

702
00:33:46,480 --> 00:33:48,040
Speaker 1: joined us, and then there was this other girl with

703
00:33:48,200 --> 00:33:52,520
Speaker 1: them who was just so I mean, I can't I

704
00:33:52,560 --> 00:33:54,960
Speaker 1: don't even understand where these people come from. Apparently this

705
00:33:55,080 --> 00:33:58,560
Speaker 1: woman latched onto Wells and Sarah at the show and

706
00:33:58,640 --> 00:34:00,400
Speaker 1: then they were kind of shuttle bus is going to

707
00:34:00,480 --> 00:34:02,960
Speaker 1: the party, and she demanded to get in their ride,

708
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:05,520
Speaker 1: not even their bust their car, like their car service,

709
00:34:05,600 --> 00:34:07,360
Speaker 1: and she's like, I'm just gonna go with you guys.

710
00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:09,680
Speaker 1: Is that cool? Like and didn't really give them an option.

711
00:34:10,000 --> 00:34:12,120
Speaker 1: She's some drunk girl that's like claiming to be like

712
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:16,000
Speaker 1: a high powered lawyer and just talks the entire way.

713
00:34:16,080 --> 00:34:17,880
Speaker 1: She comes over to our table and she's like, I

714
00:34:18,000 --> 00:34:19,640
Speaker 1: know who you are. She sidles up next to me.

715
00:34:19,719 --> 00:34:21,400
Speaker 1: Then she's like, oh my god, I know who you are.

716
00:34:21,520 --> 00:34:24,080
Speaker 1: Your esther, she's she's she knows who everyone is. Then

717
00:34:24,160 --> 00:34:26,759
Speaker 1: she says to Nick, she's like my friend in front

718
00:34:26,760 --> 00:34:28,520
Speaker 1: of Nick's girlfriend. It's just like, no one wants to

719
00:34:28,600 --> 00:34:30,960
Speaker 1: hear this. My friend actually dated you and said you

720
00:34:31,040 --> 00:34:33,200
Speaker 1: were so dumb. But the truth is she's dumb, Like

721
00:34:33,280 --> 00:34:35,480
Speaker 1: you're one of the smartest people ever. I watch you

722
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:37,640
Speaker 1: and she was like, he's so boring, And I was like,

723
00:34:38,640 --> 00:34:41,160
Speaker 1: none of this needs to be said. Why Why do

724
00:34:41,239 --> 00:34:44,960
Speaker 1: people do this where they go, where they they How

725
00:34:45,040 --> 00:34:48,680
Speaker 1: do people not know that sharing something that someone else

726
00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:52,200
Speaker 1: said about this person is not going to win you

727
00:34:52,320 --> 00:34:53,759
Speaker 1: points with this person. People do it to me all

728
00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:56,880
Speaker 1: the time. My fucking wife hates you, but I think

729
00:34:56,920 --> 00:34:59,759
Speaker 1: you're so funny or like. That doesn't feel good. It

730
00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:02,080
Speaker 1: don't make me think you're cooler. It doesn't give you

731
00:35:02,280 --> 00:35:04,920
Speaker 1: any points to tell me how much someone else doesn't

732
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:07,239
Speaker 1: like me. It happens all the time, though, And I

733
00:35:07,360 --> 00:35:09,920
Speaker 1: wanted to fucking punch this woman when she was like,

734
00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 1: but seriously, you're one of the smartest men ever. And

735
00:35:13,719 --> 00:35:15,200
Speaker 1: my friend is like, and I go, first of all,

736
00:35:15,520 --> 00:35:17,439
Speaker 1: you're a bad friend when you're talking about your friend

737
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:21,239
Speaker 1: and how dumb she is. And secondly, she's one of

738
00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:23,200
Speaker 1: these girls too, who like needs to tell people they're

739
00:35:23,200 --> 00:35:25,840
Speaker 1: so smart, like you're so intelligent, like I know, like

740
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:30,239
Speaker 1: because I'm smart. Oh she was the worst and um

741
00:35:30,880 --> 00:35:35,080
Speaker 1: and then yeah, oh wait, hold on, So you were

742
00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:37,479
Speaker 1: just talking about how you had this wonderful time sitting

743
00:35:37,480 --> 00:35:39,680
Speaker 1: in the corner with esther, and then a couple of

744
00:35:39,719 --> 00:35:42,080
Speaker 1: other people joined and you're still having a great time,

745
00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:44,680
Speaker 1: and then it all it takes that one toxic person

746
00:35:45,280 --> 00:35:46,759
Speaker 1: to come and then you guys have to kind of

747
00:35:46,840 --> 00:35:49,800
Speaker 1: like disperse to get rid of her. Yeah, it's like

748
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:52,560
Speaker 1: a fly, like it takes a couple of swats like

749
00:35:52,719 --> 00:35:54,640
Speaker 1: not mean, but like it's going to take a little bit.

750
00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:58,600
Speaker 1: I know enough now that these people aren't gonna stay

751
00:35:58,680 --> 00:36:01,239
Speaker 1: forever because I'm not a push over anymore and I

752
00:36:01,440 --> 00:36:03,600
Speaker 1: really won't tolerate that anymore. And I don't think anyone

753
00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:05,759
Speaker 1: else at the table was really going to tolerate it

754
00:36:05,800 --> 00:36:09,440
Speaker 1: past a moment, like a certain like minute, I think

755
00:36:09,480 --> 00:36:12,640
Speaker 1: we all would have like gotten her out of there.

756
00:36:12,800 --> 00:36:15,959
Speaker 1: But it was like I just felt bad for this woman,

757
00:36:16,120 --> 00:36:17,960
Speaker 1: like how does she exist in life where she thinks

758
00:36:18,040 --> 00:36:20,759
Speaker 1: everything's about her? And then she hands Nick her phone

759
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:21,920
Speaker 1: and was like, you need to take a picture of

760
00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:24,400
Speaker 1: me and Nikki, And I go, okay, professor because she

761
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:26,600
Speaker 1: kept taking so smart, I was like, Professor, take a

762
00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:29,840
Speaker 1: picture of us, since she's already insulted him, but also,

763
00:36:30,200 --> 00:36:32,840
Speaker 1: you know, blanketed it with like I know you're so smart.

764
00:36:33,000 --> 00:36:34,839
Speaker 1: My friend is an idiot, but she thought you were

765
00:36:34,880 --> 00:36:37,839
Speaker 1: really dull. It's just like you are the fucking worst.

766
00:36:37,880 --> 00:36:40,080
Speaker 1: And then she was like I wouldn't say her friend's

767
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:42,719
Speaker 1: name so he couldn't be like who was this? She

768
00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:45,520
Speaker 1: was just sucked. But then out of nowhere, this woman

769
00:36:45,600 --> 00:36:48,040
Speaker 1: sitting next to me, Sarah Highland who has just sat

770
00:36:48,080 --> 00:36:49,920
Speaker 1: down across the table, who I had said high to

771
00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:51,640
Speaker 1: on the red carpet. But we don't know each other,

772
00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:53,560
Speaker 1: and I don't know if she knows me. I definitely

773
00:36:53,600 --> 00:36:55,840
Speaker 1: know who she is. She's the oldest daughter in modern family.

774
00:36:56,560 --> 00:36:59,000
Speaker 1: I've been following her for some time. I think she's

775
00:36:59,040 --> 00:37:02,239
Speaker 1: like so funny and cute and um. And I knew

776
00:37:02,280 --> 00:37:05,040
Speaker 1: she was married to Wells, and Wells I knew from

777
00:37:05,080 --> 00:37:07,640
Speaker 1: before he was on the Bachelor. I remember going to

778
00:37:07,719 --> 00:37:11,280
Speaker 1: a radio station in Nashville to just promote my Zany shows,

779
00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:14,360
Speaker 1: probably ten years ago, eleven years ago, and he was

780
00:37:14,440 --> 00:37:16,360
Speaker 1: this hot DJ that had like a bulldog, and I

781
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:19,000
Speaker 1: remember being like, oh my god, Wow. Usually they're not

782
00:37:19,120 --> 00:37:21,040
Speaker 1: like this attractive. So I noted him, and then when

783
00:37:21,040 --> 00:37:22,480
Speaker 1: he showed up on the batch, I was like, I

784
00:37:22,719 --> 00:37:25,640
Speaker 1: know that guy. So anyway, Mary, Sarah and I since

785
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:28,400
Speaker 1: I had to Sarah on the red carpet. Um. But

786
00:37:28,520 --> 00:37:31,720
Speaker 1: then at the after party, she she's just sitting across

787
00:37:31,719 --> 00:37:33,040
Speaker 1: the table. We had just kind of said hello, but

788
00:37:33,080 --> 00:37:35,279
Speaker 1: this woman is sitting next to me, still talking, and

789
00:37:35,360 --> 00:37:37,480
Speaker 1: she just comes over. She was Nikki, I have to

790
00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:39,440
Speaker 1: tell you something. Oh my god, you're gonna freak out,

791
00:37:39,560 --> 00:37:40,839
Speaker 1: and she was like, hold on, I have to tell

792
00:37:40,920 --> 00:37:42,960
Speaker 1: Nikki something. So she sits down next to me and

793
00:37:43,080 --> 00:37:45,320
Speaker 1: like leans over me, and it's like a girl, it

794
00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:47,240
Speaker 1: is so good to see you. I have been dying

795
00:37:47,440 --> 00:37:50,200
Speaker 1: to tell you, like seriously, you're gonna die. Like she's

796
00:37:50,320 --> 00:37:53,040
Speaker 1: such obviously such a good actress, but this girl did

797
00:37:53,120 --> 00:37:56,000
Speaker 1: not feel like it was it was. It wasn't obvious.

798
00:37:56,120 --> 00:37:58,480
Speaker 1: It was so real. And also I was like, are

799
00:37:58,520 --> 00:38:00,839
Speaker 1: we best friends? Like she was think it's so hard

800
00:38:00,880 --> 00:38:03,400
Speaker 1: and like kind of laying all over me. I was like,

801
00:38:03,600 --> 00:38:06,719
Speaker 1: this is my night of like trying out being gay,

802
00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:09,439
Speaker 1: like just girls are like holding hands and this girl

803
00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 1: like flapping over me and like just like I don't

804
00:38:12,080 --> 00:38:14,479
Speaker 1: have girlfriends that are super touchy feeling like a girl

805
00:38:14,600 --> 00:38:16,279
Speaker 1: like and she was like playing that way, and I

806
00:38:16,320 --> 00:38:18,120
Speaker 1: was like, oh my god, we're best friends. But she

807
00:38:18,239 --> 00:38:19,880
Speaker 1: saved me. It was awesome and I was like, you

808
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:22,279
Speaker 1: are incredible. Me and Esther were both like that was

809
00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:24,719
Speaker 1: the smoothest move. So then the girl kind of left

810
00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:28,120
Speaker 1: and then um and then we would just started talking

811
00:38:28,200 --> 00:38:31,719
Speaker 1: to Sarah and man, she had such great stories. I

812
00:38:31,840 --> 00:38:34,880
Speaker 1: can't get into them because but man, I was like

813
00:38:35,440 --> 00:38:37,719
Speaker 1: I just got to ask questions that I've always wanted

814
00:38:37,760 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 1: to ask of like someone who's been in the business

815
00:38:40,080 --> 00:38:44,040
Speaker 1: for a while, of like who she's been around, people

816
00:38:44,120 --> 00:38:46,680
Speaker 1: who have since been canceled, who I know she has

817
00:38:46,719 --> 00:38:50,800
Speaker 1: probably been on their shows or worked with and she

818
00:38:51,040 --> 00:38:54,440
Speaker 1: was just telling amazing stories. It was like, I don't know,

819
00:38:54,520 --> 00:38:56,239
Speaker 1: it was just so I want that girl to write

820
00:38:56,280 --> 00:39:00,160
Speaker 1: a book someday. She's really smart, really funny, and I

821
00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:03,279
Speaker 1: was just very impressed and made a new friend. And

822
00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:05,960
Speaker 1: you're just kind of sitting there going like is this real?

823
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:08,680
Speaker 1: Like is this person really someone that would like be

824
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:10,359
Speaker 1: my Like, how am I going to see this person?

825
00:39:10,440 --> 00:39:13,319
Speaker 1: I don't know I should, but it felt it felt real.

826
00:39:13,360 --> 00:39:14,680
Speaker 1: And this is what I kind of like about these

827
00:39:14,800 --> 00:39:17,520
Speaker 1: nights is that I was telling us here like it

828
00:39:17,640 --> 00:39:19,880
Speaker 1: just makes you realize how small all of this is

829
00:39:19,960 --> 00:39:22,120
Speaker 1: and how it's kind of like a high school play,

830
00:39:22,719 --> 00:39:24,799
Speaker 1: Like we're all just putting on a production and being

831
00:39:24,840 --> 00:39:28,759
Speaker 1: like everything's perfect here presenting the next award, Like we're

832
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,640
Speaker 1: using this voice and we're on the red carpet like Hi,

833
00:39:31,840 --> 00:39:34,760
Speaker 1: I've went to fake hair. It's like it's all we're playing.

834
00:39:35,120 --> 00:39:39,680
Speaker 1: We're playing pretend we're playing movie stars. Like nothing. It's

835
00:39:39,800 --> 00:39:42,040
Speaker 1: just as fake as if you were trying to pretend

836
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:44,000
Speaker 1: to be that. You know what I'm saying, Like there's

837
00:39:44,600 --> 00:39:47,160
Speaker 1: and everyone's just wants to be loved and seen and

838
00:39:47,280 --> 00:39:50,200
Speaker 1: feel beautiful. And it's not much different than my twenty

839
00:39:50,280 --> 00:39:52,799
Speaker 1: year reunion. It felt kind of the same, and her

840
00:39:52,920 --> 00:39:56,920
Speaker 1: cheet to be honest, and really it was like it

841
00:39:57,080 --> 00:39:59,799
Speaker 1: just there are certain people though, that have this aura

842
00:40:00,040 --> 00:40:02,800
Speaker 1: you're like, oh my god, like Shania Twain, like I

843
00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:05,399
Speaker 1: just didn't even want to be I just didn't want

844
00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:07,399
Speaker 1: to get in her way. Heidi Klum same way, where

845
00:40:07,440 --> 00:40:08,600
Speaker 1: you're just like I don't want them to have to

846
00:40:08,840 --> 00:40:11,000
Speaker 1: waste any energy on me because they're just so busy

847
00:40:11,040 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 1: and so precious. Um. But it was a really fun

848
00:40:13,880 --> 00:40:15,719
Speaker 1: night and I'm glad that I did. I couldn't sleep

849
00:40:15,800 --> 00:40:20,120
Speaker 1: last night. I got home and uh, I was on

850
00:40:20,239 --> 00:40:22,480
Speaker 1: the way home and I have not been able to

851
00:40:22,600 --> 00:40:30,960
Speaker 1: like really sing Midnight's in a car alone. Um, And

852
00:40:31,080 --> 00:40:32,879
Speaker 1: I have. I've had in St. Louis, like a couple

853
00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:34,279
Speaker 1: of days where I've been able to put my air

854
00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:35,920
Speaker 1: pods in, But singing with your air pods in, you

855
00:40:35,960 --> 00:40:38,640
Speaker 1: don't get to hear your voice with the music. And

856
00:40:38,760 --> 00:40:40,520
Speaker 1: my mom's car that I drive does not have a

857
00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:42,640
Speaker 1: way for me to play the music on this system.

858
00:40:43,239 --> 00:40:46,440
Speaker 1: So last night she, this woman was my driver, and

859
00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:48,200
Speaker 1: I was just like, can I put on my music

860
00:40:48,320 --> 00:40:50,360
Speaker 1: and do you mind if I sing? And I just

861
00:40:50,520 --> 00:40:53,240
Speaker 1: sang the funk out of songs. It felt so good.

862
00:40:53,719 --> 00:40:54,920
Speaker 1: And I got home and I was like, God, I

863
00:40:54,960 --> 00:40:57,320
Speaker 1: wouldn't played guitar so badly. It sucks. Why didn't I

864
00:40:57,360 --> 00:41:00,120
Speaker 1: bring my guitar? Always bring your guitar and always. I

865
00:41:00,200 --> 00:41:02,440
Speaker 1: walked to the lobby to pick up my food that

866
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:04,880
Speaker 1: I had ordered and there's a guitar sitting there and

867
00:41:04,920 --> 00:41:07,440
Speaker 1: I go, can I bring this to my room? And

868
00:41:07,520 --> 00:41:09,960
Speaker 1: they go, no, but we have ones you can rent.

869
00:41:10,320 --> 00:41:13,200
Speaker 1: So I got to rent a tiny baby Taylor guitar

870
00:41:13,640 --> 00:41:16,160
Speaker 1: and take it up to my room and make sweet

871
00:41:16,160 --> 00:41:18,680
Speaker 1: sweet love to it. No, definitely, whatever I had to

872
00:41:18,719 --> 00:41:23,279
Speaker 1: do it Um. It didn't like. UM, it became a

873
00:41:23,320 --> 00:41:25,239
Speaker 1: worst guitar from what I did do it, but um,

874
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:27,040
Speaker 1: and then returned it this morning. I was like, that's

875
00:41:27,080 --> 00:41:29,920
Speaker 1: just a cool thing to have. UM. Because I was like,

876
00:41:30,000 --> 00:41:32,080
Speaker 1: what am I gonna do? And I just I couldn't

877
00:41:32,080 --> 00:41:37,200
Speaker 1: sleep last night, partly adrenaline, part partly just my times

878
00:41:37,320 --> 00:41:40,279
Speaker 1: being so fucked up. Um, and I don't know what

879
00:41:40,400 --> 00:41:43,840
Speaker 1: to do. I have an audition, that's do. It was

880
00:41:43,920 --> 00:41:47,080
Speaker 1: due Monday and it's Wednesday, and I was supposed to

881
00:41:47,200 --> 00:41:49,840
Speaker 1: do Um. I was supposed to have it in Monday,

882
00:41:49,880 --> 00:41:52,120
Speaker 1: and I told him I would. And it's for a

883
00:41:52,320 --> 00:41:54,800
Speaker 1: role in a movie where I would play the wife

884
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:58,000
Speaker 1: and the guy cast as the husband. Role is like

885
00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,920
Speaker 1: one of my favorite like actors where it'd be like, oh,

886
00:42:02,000 --> 00:42:04,480
Speaker 1: this would be a dream to like get to work

887
00:42:04,560 --> 00:42:07,160
Speaker 1: with this person and like just look at them up

888
00:42:07,239 --> 00:42:10,360
Speaker 1: close and maybe even like fake kissed them. Did you

889
00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:13,719
Speaker 1: hear Margot Robbie like asked to kiss Brad Pitt? And yeah,

890
00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:19,920
Speaker 1: I don't care. And everyone's like, what if the roles

891
00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:24,160
Speaker 1: were reversed? Can you imagine? Well, you know what, fuck

892
00:42:24,239 --> 00:42:27,440
Speaker 1: you shut up? Listen the reason why you can't do

893
00:42:27,560 --> 00:42:29,480
Speaker 1: this all the time where you go like there were

894
00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:32,719
Speaker 1: the roles were reversed if Brad Pitt editor Stune, Yeah,

895
00:42:32,760 --> 00:42:35,439
Speaker 1: it would be more predatory. You know why, because Brad

896
00:42:35,520 --> 00:42:37,640
Speaker 1: Pitt is a man who can hold women down and

897
00:42:37,719 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 1: make them feel uncomfortable and she's a light little woman.

898
00:42:41,120 --> 00:42:43,560
Speaker 1: And yeah, I definitely know that women can make men

899
00:42:43,680 --> 00:42:46,839
Speaker 1: feel sexually uncomfortable. I've seen it happen before. I am

900
00:42:46,920 --> 00:42:49,680
Speaker 1: disgusted by it. I am very outspoken about it. But

901
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:51,920
Speaker 1: I don't think Margot Robbie being like I think those

902
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:55,879
Speaker 1: news are kissing. I don't think that really inconvenience Brad

903
00:42:56,040 --> 00:42:59,920
Speaker 1: Pitt single Brad Pitt too much. But everyone's like playing

904
00:43:00,160 --> 00:43:03,480
Speaker 1: like ohlipped around. The reason why you can't do that

905
00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:06,160
Speaker 1: with everything is because men can hold you down and

906
00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:10,880
Speaker 1: rape you. Women can't. Women aren't strong enough to incapacitate

907
00:43:10,920 --> 00:43:13,160
Speaker 1: a man. And that's why you don't get to flip

908
00:43:13,200 --> 00:43:14,960
Speaker 1: all these scenarios and be like, well if a man

909
00:43:15,160 --> 00:43:17,200
Speaker 1: did that, if a man did that, or if a

910
00:43:17,280 --> 00:43:19,479
Speaker 1: woman did that to a man, he'd push her off.

911
00:43:21,000 --> 00:43:22,759
Speaker 1: If a man did that to a woman, we can't

912
00:43:22,800 --> 00:43:24,759
Speaker 1: push you off. That's what it comes down to. And

913
00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:26,680
Speaker 1: I know that Noah does jiu jitsu. Is she could

914
00:43:26,960 --> 00:43:28,840
Speaker 1: do a body slam roll and flip you off and

915
00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:30,840
Speaker 1: no matter how big you are, but most women are

916
00:43:30,880 --> 00:43:37,279
Speaker 1: not like that. So that is the difference. Come at me. Um, So, yeah,

917
00:43:37,280 --> 00:43:39,320
Speaker 1: I gotta get this audition in. But I just I

918
00:43:39,440 --> 00:43:41,799
Speaker 1: don't know. Auditioning is so awkward. I don't know how

919
00:43:41,840 --> 00:43:45,920
Speaker 1: to do it right. Giving me tips last night? Can

920
00:43:46,080 --> 00:43:48,839
Speaker 1: can you talk about how you got the Backstreet Boys thing?

921
00:43:49,320 --> 00:43:51,800
Speaker 1: Because you have to audition for that, you talk about acting? No,

922
00:43:52,120 --> 00:43:54,400
Speaker 1: I don't get I don't know audition for anything because

923
00:43:55,360 --> 00:43:58,799
Speaker 1: it never goes well for me. I've auditioned every I've

924
00:43:58,880 --> 00:44:03,239
Speaker 1: never booked anything I've auditioned for ever. I repeat, I

925
00:44:03,320 --> 00:44:06,480
Speaker 1: have never booked anything I've auditioned for. How many auditions

926
00:44:06,520 --> 00:44:08,960
Speaker 1: have I been on my life? Hundreds of guys, hundreds

927
00:44:09,360 --> 00:44:12,879
Speaker 1: rejection after rejection. No, just you don't even hear back,

928
00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:16,320
Speaker 1: no callbacks. I'm not I don't even get callbacks. And

929
00:44:16,400 --> 00:44:19,400
Speaker 1: that's like, I'm just bad at auditioning. I get nervous.

930
00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:22,080
Speaker 1: I'm not my best self, so I wait for people

931
00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:23,560
Speaker 1: to put me in things I had to get famous

932
00:44:23,600 --> 00:44:25,440
Speaker 1: other ways where people go, oh, you would be great

933
00:44:25,480 --> 00:44:27,319
Speaker 1: in this role, and once I get it, I'll fucking

934
00:44:27,400 --> 00:44:28,840
Speaker 1: kill it. But I'm not going to be good at

935
00:44:28,880 --> 00:44:31,520
Speaker 1: auditioning for it. I auditioned for train Wreck for the

936
00:44:31,680 --> 00:44:34,719
Speaker 1: role that was written for me called Nikki, and I

937
00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:38,080
Speaker 1: didn't even get that. And Vanessa big Bear got it

938
00:44:38,160 --> 00:44:40,960
Speaker 1: and she definitely deserved it over me. But this is

939
00:44:41,000 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 1: the kind of thing I'm talking about, so UM, I

940
00:44:43,080 --> 00:44:45,919
Speaker 1: don't normally audition anymore. This is the one I'm talking

941
00:44:45,920 --> 00:44:47,840
Speaker 1: about today. I'm only doing it because the actor in it.

942
00:44:47,920 --> 00:44:51,239
Speaker 1: I'm just like this, you can't not throw your hat

943
00:44:51,320 --> 00:44:55,960
Speaker 1: in the fucking ring. So um. Backstreet Boys, though, I'm

944
00:44:56,000 --> 00:44:57,880
Speaker 1: in their Christmas special coming up. I don't know what

945
00:44:57,960 --> 00:45:02,960
Speaker 1: the date is, four Bay, thank you December baby. UM,

946
00:45:03,880 --> 00:45:07,840
Speaker 1: it'll be on ABC. It's a Backstreet Boys special Christmas

947
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:12,319
Speaker 1: special and it's funny and UM, I got how did

948
00:45:12,400 --> 00:45:18,520
Speaker 1: that come about? I got a text from a comic

949
00:45:18,880 --> 00:45:20,840
Speaker 1: who was writing on it. This is how this happens.

950
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:23,600
Speaker 1: People go, we need this role field and if you're

951
00:45:23,640 --> 00:45:26,400
Speaker 1: just nice to people, you don't know who is going

952
00:45:26,440 --> 00:45:27,880
Speaker 1: to end up in places where they can give you

953
00:45:27,920 --> 00:45:30,640
Speaker 1: a fucking job like I just wrote about. Um, I

954
00:45:30,719 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 1: just didn't interview for my UM carpool Karaoke with Wilco.

955
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:35,600
Speaker 1: I guess that's coming out at some point. I taped

956
00:45:35,640 --> 00:45:38,799
Speaker 1: it back in March, but it's coming out. And they

957
00:45:38,840 --> 00:45:40,680
Speaker 1: asked me, like, how did that happen? I go because

958
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:43,719
Speaker 1: I knew a producer Conan, who had great experiences with

959
00:45:43,880 --> 00:45:48,239
Speaker 1: working with her. She liked me. We text, We text

960
00:45:48,280 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 1: back and forth because we're just friendly. I'm not like

961
00:45:50,520 --> 00:45:52,719
Speaker 1: sucking her dicks. So she likes me like I'm just

962
00:45:52,800 --> 00:45:54,719
Speaker 1: a nice person. And then it comes back to you

963
00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:56,360
Speaker 1: because they go, oh, I'd like to work with this

964
00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:59,480
Speaker 1: girl again. So that's you gotta be nice to people.

965
00:45:59,520 --> 00:46:01,839
Speaker 1: It's come back to help me so much in life.

966
00:46:02,400 --> 00:46:06,520
Speaker 1: And this girl, Aaron Uh, Aaron Dewey Lennox, she hit

967
00:46:06,640 --> 00:46:08,759
Speaker 1: me up, just texted me being like, hey, they're gonna

968
00:46:08,760 --> 00:46:10,439
Speaker 1: send this offer for you. It's for a Backttery Boys

969
00:46:10,480 --> 00:46:12,440
Speaker 1: Christmas special. And I'm like, say no more, I will

970
00:46:12,480 --> 00:46:16,120
Speaker 1: pay to be in this, Like I I will. What

971
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:19,000
Speaker 1: what do I need to do? Um? How new do

972
00:46:19,120 --> 00:46:21,560
Speaker 1: I need to get? And she was like it's an

973
00:46:21,560 --> 00:46:24,799
Speaker 1: easy You're like a sycophanic fan, like you play a fan.

974
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:26,720
Speaker 1: And then I got to do it with Ron Funches,

975
00:46:26,760 --> 00:46:28,840
Speaker 1: so me and Ron Funches are like uber fans of

976
00:46:28,880 --> 00:46:31,440
Speaker 1: Backstreet Boys. I got to set this was. I filmed

977
00:46:31,480 --> 00:46:35,040
Speaker 1: this to last week Wednesday. Last Wednesday. It was crazy

978
00:46:35,080 --> 00:46:38,120
Speaker 1: because I'm like, usually you film Christmas things in like August,

979
00:46:38,320 --> 00:46:40,719
Speaker 1: and you have to be like happy Holidays, and you're

980
00:46:40,800 --> 00:46:43,200
Speaker 1: like it's a hundred and four degrees. But this time

981
00:46:43,239 --> 00:46:45,160
Speaker 1: it was like, whoa, this is like actually Christmas. And

982
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:47,360
Speaker 1: you walk on set and it's just like this beautiful

983
00:46:47,440 --> 00:46:51,640
Speaker 1: Christmas set. And I got there and I'm excited because

984
00:46:51,800 --> 00:46:53,480
Speaker 1: I don't know your relationship with the back Street Boys.

985
00:46:53,520 --> 00:46:57,400
Speaker 1: You probably were like not into that, so not into them? Yeah,

986
00:46:57,719 --> 00:47:02,719
Speaker 1: I was, like I was aware. I was. I went

987
00:47:02,760 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 1: to a back Street Boys concert at the Keel Center

988
00:47:05,239 --> 00:47:06,960
Speaker 1: with Kursen, I think at one point because my dad

989
00:47:07,000 --> 00:47:10,399
Speaker 1: got free tickets. I like Backstreets back all right. I like, um,

990
00:47:11,280 --> 00:47:15,040
Speaker 1: show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely? I love that song.

991
00:47:15,320 --> 00:47:17,400
Speaker 1: I like a lot of their songs. But and I

992
00:47:17,480 --> 00:47:19,719
Speaker 1: always thought, out of all of them, who do you

993
00:47:19,760 --> 00:47:25,680
Speaker 1: think is the hottest? Um? I played the fifth? You

994
00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:29,200
Speaker 1: don't know, okay. I always was into Kevin. It was

995
00:47:29,239 --> 00:47:30,680
Speaker 1: the first, but I was too young. It was like

996
00:47:30,760 --> 00:47:32,480
Speaker 1: eighth grade, and I was like, these are men, like

997
00:47:32,600 --> 00:47:34,560
Speaker 1: they even they didn't feel like boys back then. They

998
00:47:34,600 --> 00:47:37,719
Speaker 1: were in their twenties and I'm, you know, fourteen. It

999
00:47:37,840 --> 00:47:40,680
Speaker 1: just didn't feel like right to pine after these guys.

1000
00:47:40,760 --> 00:47:43,680
Speaker 1: I wasn't in that place in my life. Even in sync,

1001
00:47:43,719 --> 00:47:47,920
Speaker 1: I was just like no um, but Kevin was the

1002
00:47:48,080 --> 00:47:50,080
Speaker 1: is the oldest. He's a decade older than the youngest

1003
00:47:50,120 --> 00:47:52,640
Speaker 1: person in the group. But there was something about him,

1004
00:47:52,640 --> 00:47:54,640
Speaker 1: and I couldn't tell anyone that I felt feelings for

1005
00:47:54,760 --> 00:47:57,359
Speaker 1: Kevin because he was just like he was just a man,

1006
00:47:57,560 --> 00:47:59,800
Speaker 1: and it felt like naughty that I was like a

1007
00:48:00,000 --> 00:48:02,399
Speaker 1: acted this like man in the group. He was tall,

1008
00:48:02,640 --> 00:48:05,960
Speaker 1: dark and handsome, and so he was my favor and

1009
00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:09,880
Speaker 1: he I got there. I go into hair and makeup

1010
00:48:09,920 --> 00:48:11,759
Speaker 1: and I can like hear the Baxter boys are walking

1011
00:48:11,800 --> 00:48:13,919
Speaker 1: through my makeup the makeup room to get to their

1012
00:48:13,960 --> 00:48:17,800
Speaker 1: like holding area, and I swear to god, a J

1013
00:48:18,480 --> 00:48:20,400
Speaker 1: is so nice and so funny. A J from the

1014
00:48:20,400 --> 00:48:25,080
Speaker 1: Backter Boys. He Um walked in and I swear to god,

1015
00:48:25,360 --> 00:48:29,239
Speaker 1: he uh put on his phone before he entered the room.

1016
00:48:29,440 --> 00:48:33,480
Speaker 1: He queued up Backstreets Back all right, and then he

1017
00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:38,560
Speaker 1: walked in. He was like it and he like walked up.

1018
00:48:38,560 --> 00:48:40,239
Speaker 1: He was like hey, he was like they were so

1019
00:48:40,560 --> 00:48:43,680
Speaker 1: freaking nice, so grateful for me to be there, thanking

1020
00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:47,200
Speaker 1: me profusely, telling me like how big of fans they are,

1021
00:48:47,400 --> 00:48:50,280
Speaker 1: and like really proving it too. And then Kevin walks

1022
00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:53,480
Speaker 1: in statue as Kevin. He looked like an oracle. He

1023
00:48:53,560 --> 00:48:56,760
Speaker 1: had this. He's so tall, he has this long black

1024
00:48:56,920 --> 00:49:01,439
Speaker 1: hair that's shiny. His face is exactly like it. He's

1025
00:49:01,480 --> 00:49:04,560
Speaker 1: so tall. He looks like a wise man, like one

1026
00:49:04,600 --> 00:49:08,520
Speaker 1: of the Christian wise men, and he had uh, he

1027
00:49:08,680 --> 00:49:10,239
Speaker 1: just looks he looks like Keanu Reeves. I'm like, this

1028
00:49:10,320 --> 00:49:13,520
Speaker 1: guy cannot go anywhere without being stopped. He looks so famous.

1029
00:49:14,320 --> 00:49:16,239
Speaker 1: He looked like some kind of like I don't know,

1030
00:49:16,320 --> 00:49:19,000
Speaker 1: maybe that he like was the leader of some kind

1031
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:21,080
Speaker 1: of cult too. I didn't know. I was ready to join.

1032
00:49:21,280 --> 00:49:22,600
Speaker 1: He came up and he was so nice. He put

1033
00:49:22,640 --> 00:49:23,680
Speaker 1: his arm around me. He was like, I just want

1034
00:49:23,719 --> 00:49:26,400
Speaker 1: to let you know we were on this pastor. We

1035
00:49:26,560 --> 00:49:29,759
Speaker 1: watched f Boy Island. I am obsessed with it. I'm

1036
00:49:29,800 --> 00:49:32,120
Speaker 1: obsessed and it was so nice. And then we did

1037
00:49:32,160 --> 00:49:35,239
Speaker 1: the scenes and God, these guys were just like so

1038
00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:39,120
Speaker 1: kind and appreciative. That goes such a long way when

1039
00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:40,960
Speaker 1: people are just like, thank you for doing this, thank

1040
00:49:41,000 --> 00:49:42,920
Speaker 1: you for taking me. I'm like, you're a backstreet boy.

1041
00:49:42,960 --> 00:49:44,759
Speaker 1: I would do anything to me. I would be like

1042
00:49:44,880 --> 00:49:47,560
Speaker 1: a lighting guy on set, Like you guys are the

1043
00:49:47,600 --> 00:49:50,720
Speaker 1: back Street Boys. There's that is a level of fame

1044
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:54,160
Speaker 1: that you don't see anymore. That's so only like so

1045
00:49:54,440 --> 00:49:56,880
Speaker 1: few people get to touch and Ron and I were

1046
00:49:56,880 --> 00:49:58,640
Speaker 1: just kind of marveling at it, like looking at them

1047
00:49:58,719 --> 00:50:03,120
Speaker 1: like this is it's rare to be in the company

1048
00:50:03,160 --> 00:50:06,000
Speaker 1: of people who went through that. Like I don't think

1049
00:50:06,040 --> 00:50:08,080
Speaker 1: even last night I was mean beat Lizzo out of

1050
00:50:08,080 --> 00:50:11,040
Speaker 1: all those people have know anything about like how being

1051
00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:15,200
Speaker 1: that famous? It's just a different level. And um, my

1052
00:50:15,320 --> 00:50:19,400
Speaker 1: biggest fear all day though, was accidentally calling Nick Carter Aaron.

1053
00:50:19,960 --> 00:50:23,720
Speaker 1: That was my biggest fear because his brother just died.

1054
00:50:24,080 --> 00:50:26,480
Speaker 1: I don't want to say his brother's name, but he

1055
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:28,440
Speaker 1: was on my mind of like don't say Aaron. And

1056
00:50:28,480 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 1: then I'm like, wait a second, what if I say it?

1057
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:32,360
Speaker 1: Because I'm trying not to. So I was so scared.

1058
00:50:32,400 --> 00:50:33,640
Speaker 1: I had to do a couple of lines with him.

1059
00:50:33,640 --> 00:50:36,680
Speaker 1: But he was so nice and so sweet and they

1060
00:50:36,680 --> 00:50:38,320
Speaker 1: were all just like funny and cool. It was a

1061
00:50:38,400 --> 00:50:43,520
Speaker 1: great day and I'm excited to see it. Um, and yeah,

1062
00:50:43,640 --> 00:50:48,719
Speaker 1: that was That's been my last couple weeks. It's been

1063
00:50:48,960 --> 00:50:52,920
Speaker 1: it's been NonStop and I'm really tired. But I'm so

1064
00:50:53,120 --> 00:50:56,279
Speaker 1: glad that I get to do this stuff. I'm it's

1065
00:50:56,320 --> 00:50:59,360
Speaker 1: not lost on me. It's still fun. F Boy Island

1066
00:50:59,440 --> 00:51:02,320
Speaker 1: did get hanceled. It was announced that we got canceled

1067
00:51:02,920 --> 00:51:06,000
Speaker 1: a couple of days ago. I got all these calls

1068
00:51:06,120 --> 00:51:08,880
Speaker 1: from the um, one of the co producers of the

1069
00:51:08,920 --> 00:51:12,040
Speaker 1: show Bill, and he was like, I don't know if

1070
00:51:12,080 --> 00:51:14,920
Speaker 1: you've seen Variety, and I don't. I haven't. He's like,

1071
00:51:14,960 --> 00:51:17,400
Speaker 1: I'm sure your phone's blowing up. I'm like, by you

1072
00:51:17,760 --> 00:51:20,480
Speaker 1: And he's like, I don't believe anything you're reading. And

1073
00:51:20,520 --> 00:51:22,279
Speaker 1: I'm like, i'm not, haven't read anything. Tell me what

1074
00:51:22,360 --> 00:51:26,040
Speaker 1: you're talking about. And he's like, it's said that Variety

1075
00:51:26,120 --> 00:51:28,759
Speaker 1: says f By Islands canceled. And then the next day

1076
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:30,920
Speaker 1: in my Google alerts, it's like I have a Google

1077
00:51:30,920 --> 00:51:33,919
Speaker 1: alert from my name and it's like cancer. Like people

1078
00:51:34,000 --> 00:51:36,439
Speaker 1: are so exciting. Either people are excited it's canceled because

1079
00:51:36,440 --> 00:51:38,640
Speaker 1: they're like, yeah, it's sucking doom shows going away, or

1080
00:51:38,680 --> 00:51:42,759
Speaker 1: people are devastated. It's mostly devastated because it's a hit show.

1081
00:51:43,520 --> 00:51:46,960
Speaker 1: Why is it canceled? There was no indication of this happening,

1082
00:51:47,480 --> 00:51:50,840
Speaker 1: but I just want to say, is not done you

1083
00:51:50,920 --> 00:51:52,879
Speaker 1: guys know how this stuff works. At this point, when

1084
00:51:52,960 --> 00:51:55,480
Speaker 1: network gives up on a show, it jumps to something else,

1085
00:51:55,560 --> 00:51:58,399
Speaker 1: so it will find a home. F boy will never die,

1086
00:51:58,600 --> 00:52:02,919
Speaker 1: I hope ever. Um, But the truth is, like things

1087
00:52:03,040 --> 00:52:10,759
Speaker 1: have changed. I think Discovery Network bought HBO Max and

1088
00:52:12,160 --> 00:52:14,719
Speaker 1: it's just budget things, you know, Like it's just it's

1089
00:52:14,760 --> 00:52:18,160
Speaker 1: a very expensive show to make, not because of me necessarily,

1090
00:52:18,280 --> 00:52:20,279
Speaker 1: but it's just that's why it looks so fucking good.

1091
00:52:20,360 --> 00:52:22,520
Speaker 1: It's expensive to make, and I think the producers don't

1092
00:52:22,560 --> 00:52:26,600
Speaker 1: want to like skimp on on production, and so it's

1093
00:52:26,640 --> 00:52:29,600
Speaker 1: going to find another home. Just you wait, I cannot wait.

1094
00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:32,239
Speaker 1: And um, but that was kind of sad to just

1095
00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:35,640
Speaker 1: be like, oh, it's canceled, um and just see that word,

1096
00:52:35,760 --> 00:52:39,000
Speaker 1: because guess what. Discovery also didn't pick up a ton

1097
00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:41,400
Speaker 1: of other shows on the HBO Max slate, but they

1098
00:52:41,440 --> 00:52:44,279
Speaker 1: weren't announced as canceled. We just weren't picked up. It

1099
00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:47,200
Speaker 1: doesn't mean canceled. And this has happened to me for

1100
00:52:47,360 --> 00:52:50,720
Speaker 1: every show I've ever done in my entire life. Anything

1101
00:52:50,800 --> 00:52:53,359
Speaker 1: you do will go away at some point, it will

1102
00:52:53,400 --> 00:52:58,040
Speaker 1: find another network, but everything will be canceled. And it's

1103
00:52:58,080 --> 00:52:59,920
Speaker 1: kind of nice because I've had so many shows can

1104
00:53:00,040 --> 00:53:03,520
Speaker 1: unsold that. I don't care it don't I don't take

1105
00:53:03,560 --> 00:53:06,880
Speaker 1: it personally. I do take many things personally. And there

1106
00:53:06,880 --> 00:53:09,200
Speaker 1: are some things in life that hold me up so much,

1107
00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:12,960
Speaker 1: like a bad comment, someone just being like she thinks

1108
00:53:13,040 --> 00:53:17,800
Speaker 1: she's cool, or someone not understanding my motives of something,

1109
00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:20,399
Speaker 1: or I don't know, someone saying I look old. There's

1110
00:53:20,440 --> 00:53:22,440
Speaker 1: little things that can set me off. But you know,

1111
00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:26,560
Speaker 1: flooding a line at the People's Choice Awards or um

1112
00:53:28,440 --> 00:53:31,040
Speaker 1: or having a show canceled. I can get through it.

1113
00:53:31,440 --> 00:53:34,800
Speaker 1: I can get through that because I approve of myself.

1114
00:53:35,280 --> 00:53:40,520
Speaker 1: I approve of myself. I approve of myself. Until she

1115
00:53:40,560 --> 00:53:47,920
Speaker 1: says that, go listen to Louise Hey, We'll be right back. Alrighty,

1116
00:53:48,680 --> 00:53:58,879
Speaker 1: let's get to good old fashioned fan tracks. Hell, Yes,

1117
00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:02,960
Speaker 1: what do the people have for us? No? Uh, what

1118
00:54:03,080 --> 00:54:05,360
Speaker 1: are the best? He's up to? Okay, we got a

1119
00:54:05,440 --> 00:54:09,480
Speaker 1: lot of really great messages. I think I'll start off

1120
00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:15,960
Speaker 1: with Annie Hey, Nikki, Noah, and hopefully Joel's because honestly,

1121
00:54:16,080 --> 00:54:20,200
Speaker 1: Jewels is my favorite gasco host on the pod Um.

1122
00:54:20,960 --> 00:54:23,480
Speaker 1: I'm literally just calling because I'm right right now, I'm

1123
00:54:23,520 --> 00:54:27,239
Speaker 1: watching the mass Singer and de Honest, I already knew

1124
00:54:27,480 --> 00:54:31,040
Speaker 1: Snowstorm with NICKI, Um, I'm only twenty four minutes into

1125
00:54:31,080 --> 00:54:34,400
Speaker 1: this episode, so like anything could happen in this However,

1126
00:54:34,680 --> 00:54:39,800
Speaker 1: I'm convinced this is Nicky Snowstorm the house, uh, welcome

1127
00:54:39,840 --> 00:54:44,439
Speaker 1: home Nicky Glazer and the unsafe box not safe, It's

1128
00:54:44,719 --> 00:54:47,680
Speaker 1: all there. I mean, we all know it, all of us,

1129
00:54:48,520 --> 00:54:52,280
Speaker 1: all of us besties know this is. It's so awesome.

1130
00:54:52,640 --> 00:54:55,120
Speaker 1: I don't know how you pulled this off. I'm so

1131
00:54:55,239 --> 00:54:58,320
Speaker 1: excited for you, Like they're comparing you to uh Sabrina

1132
00:54:58,320 --> 00:55:02,439
Speaker 1: Carpenter and Olivia Roun. You go, you're freaking probably gonna

1133
00:55:02,440 --> 00:55:04,920
Speaker 1: win this episode, which means you're probably gonna met I'm

1134
00:55:04,960 --> 00:55:08,239
Speaker 1: assuming that Middler because I'm pretty sure that Pumpkin had

1135
00:55:08,440 --> 00:55:11,319
Speaker 1: is that Middler. Like this is so awesome and I'm

1136
00:55:11,440 --> 00:55:15,160
Speaker 1: just so excited and good job, Nikki. I literally saw

1137
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:20,240
Speaker 1: this clue say and I was like, fuck, yeah, okay, anyways,

1138
00:55:20,400 --> 00:55:24,680
Speaker 1: have a good day and happy mass Singer and Jack

1139
00:55:25,840 --> 00:55:30,239
Speaker 1: the Jackalope, Oh my god, I'm sorry. Oh you're so great.

1140
00:55:30,280 --> 00:55:31,800
Speaker 1: I love it that there She's like, should I for

1141
00:55:32,000 --> 00:55:34,800
Speaker 1: record it? Do a better one? No, Jack, lobes are awesome,

1142
00:55:34,840 --> 00:55:38,120
Speaker 1: though they're like bunnies with like horns. Um, thank you

1143
00:55:38,200 --> 00:55:40,279
Speaker 1: so much. I felt like a message I got from

1144
00:55:40,320 --> 00:55:42,480
Speaker 1: like a friend who was like, we haven't talked since college,

1145
00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:44,359
Speaker 1: but I'm watching a singer. I'm freaking out. It's too

1146
00:55:44,480 --> 00:55:48,040
Speaker 1: like that just felt like sometimes I would say, most

1147
00:55:48,040 --> 00:55:50,840
Speaker 1: of the time I meet besties, I'm like, you just

1148
00:55:50,920 --> 00:55:54,560
Speaker 1: have the same cadence and compassion that I sense from

1149
00:55:55,520 --> 00:55:57,800
Speaker 1: like my best friends. So it's so nice to hear that.

1150
00:55:58,000 --> 00:56:00,400
Speaker 1: And uh, yeah, I don't know how I pulled it

1151
00:56:00,440 --> 00:56:03,880
Speaker 1: off either. It's hard to keep a secret. Um, And

1152
00:56:03,960 --> 00:56:06,000
Speaker 1: how did I pull off that mask? Well, with a

1153
00:56:06,040 --> 00:56:08,440
Speaker 1: lot of help from people who like were very gentle

1154
00:56:08,480 --> 00:56:10,520
Speaker 1: because it was so fucking heavy and I didn't get

1155
00:56:10,560 --> 00:56:13,719
Speaker 1: to keep it and um, and I am on a

1156
00:56:13,880 --> 00:56:16,799
Speaker 1: Christmas special tonight, which by the time this podcast comes out,

1157
00:56:16,840 --> 00:56:19,239
Speaker 1: I'm sure it's already aired, but you can go watch

1158
00:56:19,360 --> 00:56:23,440
Speaker 1: me sing. Um. There's a mass singer Christmas special Wednesday

1159
00:56:23,560 --> 00:56:28,120
Speaker 1: night on Fox, which is tonight, And I'm singing Ariana

1160
00:56:28,160 --> 00:56:33,239
Speaker 1: Grande's Santa Wait, Santa, tell me that song? Do you

1161
00:56:33,320 --> 00:56:37,000
Speaker 1: know that song? Noah, No, it sounds beautiful, so good

1162
00:56:37,200 --> 00:56:38,600
Speaker 1: at first, when they gave it to me, I was like,

1163
00:56:38,760 --> 00:56:41,320
Speaker 1: oh God, can I just do like Deck the Halls?

1164
00:56:41,440 --> 00:56:43,800
Speaker 1: Like can I just do a song that's like Frosty

1165
00:56:43,920 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 1: the Snow and like just basic easy. I have to

1166
00:56:46,680 --> 00:56:48,520
Speaker 1: learn because I didn't know the song at all, and

1167
00:56:48,520 --> 00:56:50,239
Speaker 1: you have to learn a new song, and it's it's

1168
00:56:50,280 --> 00:56:52,279
Speaker 1: kind of it took a minute, and I you know,

1169
00:56:52,320 --> 00:56:54,000
Speaker 1: it took like a day for me listening over and

1170
00:56:54,080 --> 00:56:57,680
Speaker 1: over and now it's my favorite Christmas song. If you

1171
00:56:57,760 --> 00:57:00,640
Speaker 1: don't add Santa, tell me it should be an instant classic.

1172
00:57:00,719 --> 00:57:04,279
Speaker 1: It is as good as Mariah carries Um. You know

1173
00:57:04,640 --> 00:57:07,400
Speaker 1: that one that she sings a lot. Uh that that

1174
00:57:07,719 --> 00:57:11,120
Speaker 1: that one movie made famous? It's Santa. Tell me watch

1175
00:57:11,239 --> 00:57:12,520
Speaker 1: me on the mass sing or sing it, but then

1176
00:57:12,560 --> 00:57:14,160
Speaker 1: actually go back and listen to the real version. But

1177
00:57:14,200 --> 00:57:16,160
Speaker 1: I'm obsessed. I'm learning it on a guitar. I love

1178
00:57:16,200 --> 00:57:18,320
Speaker 1: it so much. Thank you for guessing it was me.

1179
00:57:18,520 --> 00:57:21,360
Speaker 1: It was so nice. Are you back in your snowstorm

1180
00:57:21,440 --> 00:57:24,160
Speaker 1: costume or you bring something else? Yes? So I filmed,

1181
00:57:24,360 --> 00:57:27,400
Speaker 1: let me be honest, I filmed it and July so

1182
00:57:27,600 --> 00:57:30,120
Speaker 1: this was filmed like before I got kicked off the show.

1183
00:57:30,800 --> 00:57:32,640
Speaker 1: But we just did it as an added episode, and

1184
00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:34,800
Speaker 1: I got a little choreography going in this one too,

1185
00:57:34,840 --> 00:57:37,160
Speaker 1: so I danced a little, a very very little bit

1186
00:57:37,880 --> 00:57:41,720
Speaker 1: um which made it so much more fun because most

1187
00:57:41,760 --> 00:57:42,960
Speaker 1: of the time I'm asking or I didn't know what

1188
00:57:43,040 --> 00:57:45,920
Speaker 1: to do with my body. I wasn't really given much

1189
00:57:46,040 --> 00:57:47,760
Speaker 1: notes about what to do. And then all of a

1190
00:57:47,800 --> 00:57:49,640
Speaker 1: sudden we did this Christmas one and this woman comes

1191
00:57:49,640 --> 00:57:51,720
Speaker 1: out and started choregraphing me, and I go, where have

1192
00:57:51,840 --> 00:57:54,160
Speaker 1: you been? Can I get you for the other stuff?

1193
00:57:54,160 --> 00:57:55,480
Speaker 1: I don't know what to do with my hand, I

1194
00:57:55,520 --> 00:57:57,200
Speaker 1: don't know anything. I don't know how to move in this.

1195
00:57:57,720 --> 00:57:59,560
Speaker 1: It would have been so nice because it felt so

1196
00:57:59,600 --> 00:58:02,200
Speaker 1: good to have something to do while I sang. And

1197
00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:04,920
Speaker 1: you can't really do much in that costume, so you're limited.

1198
00:58:04,960 --> 00:58:07,440
Speaker 1: So it was very simple steps. But I'm excited to

1199
00:58:07,480 --> 00:58:10,360
Speaker 1: see it tonight because, um, it was my favorite song

1200
00:58:10,520 --> 00:58:13,280
Speaker 1: to sing of all the ones I sang. And yeah,

1201
00:58:13,320 --> 00:58:15,440
Speaker 1: it's such a good song. Added to your playlist for

1202
00:58:15,520 --> 00:58:18,640
Speaker 1: Christmas time, don't fight it. Just let a new Christmas

1203
00:58:18,680 --> 00:58:22,360
Speaker 1: song in your heart. All right? Next mant Rex, All right,

1204
00:58:22,400 --> 00:58:25,760
Speaker 1: here's one from Alexis with something that I think a

1205
00:58:25,800 --> 00:58:31,000
Speaker 1: lot of besties can relate to. I know that I can. Hi, Nicki, Andrew,

1206
00:58:31,080 --> 00:58:34,560
Speaker 1: and Noah. This is Alexis. I'm actually from Gavenport, Iowa,

1207
00:58:34,640 --> 00:58:39,240
Speaker 1: where just did a show. Unfortunately couldn't go because I'm

1208
00:58:39,280 --> 00:58:42,360
Speaker 1: actually living in Australia for my job for a year.

1209
00:58:43,520 --> 00:58:47,200
Speaker 1: I just do that. I have been talking to friends

1210
00:58:47,280 --> 00:58:49,560
Speaker 1: and family on the phone a lot more now that

1211
00:58:49,680 --> 00:58:52,800
Speaker 1: I live across the world, and I found myself that

1212
00:58:52,880 --> 00:58:55,600
Speaker 1: when I start to say my goodbyes on the phone,

1213
00:58:55,880 --> 00:59:02,320
Speaker 1: that I want to say, don't be cause Jack podcast

1214
00:59:02,440 --> 00:59:05,160
Speaker 1: every single day. So I just love to call that

1215
00:59:05,240 --> 00:59:07,720
Speaker 1: in and tell you that that's always in the back

1216
00:59:07,760 --> 00:59:09,120
Speaker 1: of my mind when I hang up the phone with

1217
00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:13,200
Speaker 1: my literally stop myself from Oh my god, thank you

1218
00:59:13,320 --> 00:59:15,360
Speaker 1: so much for all that you do. I love listening

1219
00:59:15,480 --> 00:59:18,320
Speaker 1: to you when the time zone is off and I

1220
00:59:18,400 --> 00:59:20,160
Speaker 1: can't talk to friends and family at home and I

1221
00:59:20,240 --> 00:59:22,400
Speaker 1: feel like I have friends here, So thank you so much,

1222
00:59:24,160 --> 00:59:28,200
Speaker 1: Jackaroo Jack Arru. Oh my god, is that a really animal? Um?

1223
00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:32,240
Speaker 1: That was so nice? And um No, that doesn't happen

1224
00:59:32,280 --> 00:59:33,880
Speaker 1: to me. I feel like it's very like I need

1225
00:59:33,920 --> 00:59:36,000
Speaker 1: to be in this room. It's very situational for me.

1226
00:59:36,080 --> 00:59:37,680
Speaker 1: I need to be in the setting. So does happen

1227
00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:40,400
Speaker 1: to you? Noah? Do you almost say it? Sometimes? Okay?

1228
00:59:40,560 --> 00:59:43,720
Speaker 1: What I found myself doing lately is I'll start talking

1229
00:59:43,840 --> 00:59:49,480
Speaker 1: like Julie, Oh yeah, in what way? Like where does

1230
00:59:49,520 --> 00:59:54,520
Speaker 1: it come up? I don't just like, oh my goodness,

1231
00:59:54,760 --> 01:00:00,040
Speaker 1: like if kidding me with that ship? Oh god, what

1232
01:00:00,960 --> 01:00:03,560
Speaker 1: I'll tell you it's fine, But I'm not doing it

1233
01:00:04,120 --> 01:00:07,240
Speaker 1: all right, Mac, I just a Julie app with just

1234
01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:10,320
Speaker 1: her juliasms. Yeah, we need to do that, with like

1235
01:00:10,480 --> 01:00:14,040
Speaker 1: all of her catchphrases. I truly, she is so fucking funny.

1236
01:00:14,680 --> 01:00:16,919
Speaker 1: I love her so much. She makes me laugh so hard.

1237
01:00:16,960 --> 01:00:19,479
Speaker 1: She wrote me this morning, and she wrote, I asked

1238
01:00:19,520 --> 01:00:21,800
Speaker 1: her to the pod today, but she couldn't. She's working,

1239
01:00:22,280 --> 01:00:25,680
Speaker 1: you know, she's stage in homes with her friend Debbie. Um,

1240
01:00:26,440 --> 01:00:29,439
Speaker 1: that's the next stray. I go, stop taking these jobs, mom,

1241
01:00:29,640 --> 01:00:31,400
Speaker 1: I don't want you working anymore. I will. I told

1242
01:00:31,440 --> 01:00:33,400
Speaker 1: my mom, I will pay you whatever Debbie is paying you.

1243
01:00:33,440 --> 01:00:36,040
Speaker 1: I will pay you to stay home and not do it.

1244
01:00:36,320 --> 01:00:39,360
Speaker 1: And she goes, you're ridiculous, I'm not taking that, and

1245
01:00:39,440 --> 01:00:42,720
Speaker 1: I go, it matters to me because you're not gonna

1246
01:00:42,760 --> 01:00:45,280
Speaker 1: try to hang up a heavy painting or move some

1247
01:00:45,560 --> 01:00:50,040
Speaker 1: bureau that you're too. You know, when people get older,

1248
01:00:50,280 --> 01:00:52,480
Speaker 1: it must be very hard to relinquish the things you

1249
01:00:52,560 --> 01:00:54,480
Speaker 1: used to just be able to move so easily as

1250
01:00:54,560 --> 01:00:57,920
Speaker 1: a younger person. I can understand how you would fight that.

1251
01:00:58,480 --> 01:01:00,600
Speaker 1: But my mom is getting injured on these jobs and

1252
01:01:00,640 --> 01:01:02,440
Speaker 1: I'm just like, why are you doing it? But my

1253
01:01:02,560 --> 01:01:05,000
Speaker 1: dad goes she likes it. I'm like, she's getting injured

1254
01:01:05,040 --> 01:01:07,080
Speaker 1: and you're gonna lose her faster than you would like.

1255
01:01:07,160 --> 01:01:09,320
Speaker 1: But she wrote me today she said, you looked amazing

1256
01:01:09,400 --> 01:01:11,040
Speaker 1: last night and you did such a great job. So

1257
01:01:11,280 --> 01:01:15,800
Speaker 1: proud of you. I mean, if I don't know what

1258
01:01:15,960 --> 01:01:17,520
Speaker 1: the funk I'm going to do when my parents die.

1259
01:01:17,600 --> 01:01:20,640
Speaker 1: I was telling Esther this last night. I only do

1260
01:01:20,840 --> 01:01:24,640
Speaker 1: things so they're proud of me. I literally don't. I

1261
01:01:24,880 --> 01:01:27,920
Speaker 1: all my biggest joy in life is telling them I

1262
01:01:28,040 --> 01:01:31,760
Speaker 1: got something and then doing it and hearing them go.

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01:01:31,920 --> 01:01:34,480
Speaker 1: Like like, even last night after I presented, I was

1264
01:01:34,520 --> 01:01:36,560
Speaker 1: just looking at my phone being like, I know they're watching.

1265
01:01:36,800 --> 01:01:38,720
Speaker 1: Did I do that bad? Why haven't they wrote me

1266
01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:41,320
Speaker 1: written me yet? Like what's going on? And I'm like,

1267
01:01:41,960 --> 01:01:43,920
Speaker 1: why do I need this? And Esther was like, do

1268
01:01:43,960 --> 01:01:46,000
Speaker 1: you think that's maybe like bad that you need that approval,

1269
01:01:46,000 --> 01:01:49,880
Speaker 1: and I go, no, I need It's not even about

1270
01:01:49,960 --> 01:01:52,200
Speaker 1: like I need to feel like a star and like

1271
01:01:52,360 --> 01:01:55,000
Speaker 1: I'm the best. I want people to be proud of

1272
01:01:55,160 --> 01:01:57,760
Speaker 1: me Like that is I think. My that's what I

1273
01:01:57,840 --> 01:02:00,440
Speaker 1: get off on, Like I want. I don't need you

1274
01:02:00,520 --> 01:02:04,640
Speaker 1: to go like you're so pretty, you're so funny, you're

1275
01:02:04,680 --> 01:02:06,720
Speaker 1: so like I just want people to go like wow,

1276
01:02:07,680 --> 01:02:09,840
Speaker 1: from what I know of you, like this is what

1277
01:02:09,960 --> 01:02:12,400
Speaker 1: it matters both to me too when besties say that.

1278
01:02:12,520 --> 01:02:16,640
Speaker 1: It when my best friends and my lover and like

1279
01:02:16,760 --> 01:02:20,360
Speaker 1: my family, because you guys and all these other people

1280
01:02:20,880 --> 01:02:23,200
Speaker 1: know the real me, which is a little bit insecure,

1281
01:02:23,560 --> 01:02:27,320
Speaker 1: a little bit quirky, a little bit like more normal

1282
01:02:27,440 --> 01:02:30,640
Speaker 1: than maybe your average celebrity I would think, not normal,

1283
01:02:30,720 --> 01:02:32,600
Speaker 1: but like a little bit flawed and a little bit

1284
01:02:32,680 --> 01:02:36,280
Speaker 1: maybe just just brought down to earth in a way.

1285
01:02:36,360 --> 01:02:38,320
Speaker 1: So when you see me all glitz and glamoder on

1286
01:02:38,640 --> 01:02:41,200
Speaker 1: mass singer, when you're like, I'm so proud of you, Bustie,

1287
01:02:41,400 --> 01:02:43,760
Speaker 1: that means so much more to me than like you

1288
01:02:44,640 --> 01:02:48,200
Speaker 1: like you're I don't know, and that the it's I

1289
01:02:48,360 --> 01:02:51,360
Speaker 1: just pinpointed it and it's like pride. What is that?

1290
01:02:52,080 --> 01:02:54,720
Speaker 1: And is it sad that I need that validation? I

1291
01:02:54,880 --> 01:02:57,200
Speaker 1: need pride. I need people to be like, I'm proud

1292
01:02:57,280 --> 01:02:59,800
Speaker 1: of you, even if it's like, wow, you went on

1293
01:02:59,880 --> 01:03:02,120
Speaker 1: a run like my mom's always just like you ran

1294
01:03:02,280 --> 01:03:05,760
Speaker 1: four miles, Oh my god, you're amazing, and like that

1295
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:09,880
Speaker 1: does something for me? Why why can't it be enough?

1296
01:03:09,960 --> 01:03:12,920
Speaker 1: Would I still do these things in a vacuum? Probably not?

1297
01:03:13,600 --> 01:03:17,560
Speaker 1: Do you think most artists would still produce their art

1298
01:03:17,800 --> 01:03:21,080
Speaker 1: in a vacuum? I don't know. You probably didn't get

1299
01:03:21,120 --> 01:03:23,320
Speaker 1: to hear what she said last night, but she said

1300
01:03:23,520 --> 01:03:29,080
Speaker 1: she say she said something very similar to vacuum. Sorry.

1301
01:03:30,440 --> 01:03:35,520
Speaker 1: She She praised her fans for supporting her and kind

1302
01:03:35,560 --> 01:03:39,360
Speaker 1: of being that encouragement through sick and thin and and

1303
01:03:39,440 --> 01:03:41,880
Speaker 1: all that stuff. It's it's it sounded very similar to

1304
01:03:42,000 --> 01:03:47,760
Speaker 1: what you just said. Yeah, like just yeah, believing it,

1305
01:03:47,920 --> 01:03:50,840
Speaker 1: just being like but it's so it feels so selfish

1306
01:03:50,920 --> 01:03:53,240
Speaker 1: to want that and to need that of like I

1307
01:03:53,480 --> 01:03:56,840
Speaker 1: want like all my I've talked about this so much

1308
01:03:56,880 --> 01:03:58,919
Speaker 1: of like you know, I don't feel like my parents

1309
01:03:59,000 --> 01:04:01,000
Speaker 1: are I've complained about to my girlfriends so much that

1310
01:04:01,040 --> 01:04:03,680
Speaker 1: anytime I do something. They're like, Nicky, We're so proud

1311
01:04:03,720 --> 01:04:05,520
Speaker 1: of you, and I'm like, oh god, I've trained them

1312
01:04:05,680 --> 01:04:08,320
Speaker 1: so well, and they're like posting all the links so

1313
01:04:08,400 --> 01:04:10,360
Speaker 1: that they can watch everything, because I'm like, I feel

1314
01:04:10,400 --> 01:04:12,160
Speaker 1: like my parents don't even care to watch it. I'll

1315
01:04:12,200 --> 01:04:14,160
Speaker 1: like complain about someone not watching something and they're like

1316
01:04:14,680 --> 01:04:17,160
Speaker 1: so over the top about it. But I need that.

1317
01:04:17,760 --> 01:04:20,040
Speaker 1: I think I just need that, like some girls like

1318
01:04:20,400 --> 01:04:22,880
Speaker 1: need I don't know, to get their nails done or

1319
01:04:22,960 --> 01:04:25,240
Speaker 1: some ship like I just need people to be proud

1320
01:04:25,320 --> 01:04:28,360
Speaker 1: of me. And I don't think it necessarily depends on

1321
01:04:28,480 --> 01:04:33,360
Speaker 1: being famous. I will say that I need my loved

1322
01:04:33,400 --> 01:04:35,720
Speaker 1: ones and people who know the real meat I eat. Besties.

1323
01:04:35,760 --> 01:04:37,600
Speaker 1: You guys are the only ones I would say in

1324
01:04:37,720 --> 01:04:41,000
Speaker 1: my fan base who like know me on a personal level,

1325
01:04:41,920 --> 01:04:44,120
Speaker 1: like my family, Does you really do know me like

1326
01:04:44,200 --> 01:04:46,360
Speaker 1: my family does? I would? I would. I would venture

1327
01:04:46,400 --> 01:04:47,920
Speaker 1: to guess you probably know more about me than my

1328
01:04:47,960 --> 01:04:49,520
Speaker 1: family does at this point, if you've been listening to

1329
01:04:49,520 --> 01:04:52,439
Speaker 1: the show long enough. I need. I want those people

1330
01:04:52,480 --> 01:04:55,280
Speaker 1: to go like, WHOA, that's impressed. I want people to

1331
01:04:55,280 --> 01:04:57,800
Speaker 1: be impressed. This goes back to also what I want

1332
01:04:57,840 --> 01:05:00,040
Speaker 1: in bed. I want to be an impressive whore. I

1333
01:05:00,120 --> 01:05:01,880
Speaker 1: want to be such a whore that people go, I

1334
01:05:02,000 --> 01:05:04,760
Speaker 1: didn't even know you were capable of phorring this much.

1335
01:05:04,840 --> 01:05:08,720
Speaker 1: I just want people to go, wow, um. I don't

1336
01:05:08,760 --> 01:05:09,880
Speaker 1: know what that is, and I don't know if I

1337
01:05:09,960 --> 01:05:12,320
Speaker 1: need to lose it. But there's some things I don't

1338
01:05:12,360 --> 01:05:14,479
Speaker 1: want to lose. I think there's a lot of things

1339
01:05:15,440 --> 01:05:19,040
Speaker 1: that we discover about ourselves. Our character defects are things

1340
01:05:19,080 --> 01:05:21,760
Speaker 1: that like we need like validation, and it seems like

1341
01:05:21,840 --> 01:05:24,360
Speaker 1: self serving and it seems like it's keeping you from

1342
01:05:25,240 --> 01:05:26,920
Speaker 1: loving yourself, and you're supposed to be able to love

1343
01:05:26,960 --> 01:05:30,080
Speaker 1: yourself without getting things from the outside world. I don't

1344
01:05:30,120 --> 01:05:33,280
Speaker 1: need massive amounts of likes. I don't need massive amounts

1345
01:05:33,280 --> 01:05:34,920
Speaker 1: of fans. I don't care if I go to a

1346
01:05:35,000 --> 01:05:36,920
Speaker 1: theater and it's half sold. I don't give a ship.

1347
01:05:37,200 --> 01:05:39,640
Speaker 1: I'm just happy that half people came there. I think

1348
01:05:39,880 --> 01:05:42,600
Speaker 1: I'm not like, Wow, this down fucking sucks. They don't

1349
01:05:42,600 --> 01:05:44,720
Speaker 1: get what's up. I just go no, this half of

1350
01:05:44,760 --> 01:05:47,800
Speaker 1: people do get what's up. I'm only sad because like

1351
01:05:48,360 --> 01:05:51,120
Speaker 1: the people working there, like people aren't making money off me,

1352
01:05:51,240 --> 01:05:54,880
Speaker 1: and I want to like theater half kind of gal yes,

1353
01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:59,000
Speaker 1: thank you. Yes, I just feel embarrassed. I don't feel

1354
01:05:59,000 --> 01:06:01,120
Speaker 1: I don't feel embarrassed, just feel bad for people who

1355
01:06:01,200 --> 01:06:02,760
Speaker 1: are like God, we're supposed to make money tonight and

1356
01:06:02,800 --> 01:06:04,560
Speaker 1: we did it. That's where I feel bad. But I

1357
01:06:04,600 --> 01:06:06,800
Speaker 1: don't feel bad in my soul. If I'll take one

1358
01:06:06,880 --> 01:06:10,080
Speaker 1: fan who's proud of me. So UM, I really appreciate

1359
01:06:10,240 --> 01:06:13,800
Speaker 1: that message, is what I'm trying to say. Final thought.

1360
01:06:14,280 --> 01:06:18,640
Speaker 1: Uh So, Nikki, you want to give some advice? Yes, okay,

1361
01:06:19,560 --> 01:06:23,680
Speaker 1: he would love to a question from someone who's wants

1362
01:06:23,720 --> 01:06:27,800
Speaker 1: to be kept anonymous. Hi, no jerky, I'm calling you

1363
01:06:27,800 --> 01:06:31,520
Speaker 1: in to ask for some relationship advice. Um. Months ago,

1364
01:06:31,640 --> 01:06:34,400
Speaker 1: my husband gave me the password to his phone and

1365
01:06:34,720 --> 01:06:39,960
Speaker 1: said he has nothing to hide. UM, and I just

1366
01:06:40,080 --> 01:06:42,200
Speaker 1: was feeling kind of suspicious, like something was off the

1367
01:06:42,240 --> 01:06:44,640
Speaker 1: other day and I went through his phone while he

1368
01:06:44,720 --> 01:06:47,520
Speaker 1: was sleeping with the password that he gave me, and

1369
01:06:47,640 --> 01:06:50,640
Speaker 1: I found this app called Telegram, And on the app

1370
01:06:50,720 --> 01:06:54,200
Speaker 1: there were all these chats of like nudes and like

1371
01:06:54,360 --> 01:06:56,400
Speaker 1: videos of girls. And they were all like local girls,

1372
01:06:56,480 --> 01:06:59,840
Speaker 1: like from the towns around us and where we live,

1373
01:07:00,640 --> 01:07:03,320
Speaker 1: so they're like real life girls who's knuds are probably

1374
01:07:03,440 --> 01:07:06,480
Speaker 1: unknowingly being sent back and forth between all these chats,

1375
01:07:06,560 --> 01:07:09,160
Speaker 1: and it just was really fucking like disturbing to me.

1376
01:07:10,160 --> 01:07:12,760
Speaker 1: And I didn't see any evidence of him talking to

1377
01:07:12,800 --> 01:07:14,960
Speaker 1: any girls on his phone at all. I think it's

1378
01:07:15,040 --> 01:07:18,320
Speaker 1: just like creepy guys sending the ship back and forth. UM.

1379
01:07:19,000 --> 01:07:20,400
Speaker 1: I just don't know if I should like bring this

1380
01:07:20,560 --> 01:07:23,040
Speaker 1: up to him and have like have that difficult conversation

1381
01:07:23,120 --> 01:07:25,360
Speaker 1: of like, I went through your phone, you're sleeping and

1382
01:07:25,440 --> 01:07:27,840
Speaker 1: this is what I found, and like, can you explain

1383
01:07:27,960 --> 01:07:30,840
Speaker 1: this or or not? Like I get so scared and

1384
01:07:30,880 --> 01:07:35,400
Speaker 1: anxious about confrontation, and I don't know if I should

1385
01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:37,840
Speaker 1: just keep an eye on this or if it's worth

1386
01:07:37,960 --> 01:07:42,600
Speaker 1: bringing up right now. Um. Again, thank you so much

1387
01:07:42,640 --> 01:07:44,320
Speaker 1: for any advice that you have. Would love to hear

1388
01:07:44,440 --> 01:07:47,160
Speaker 1: your opinions on this, like Andrew from the guy's perspective,

1389
01:07:47,520 --> 01:07:51,640
Speaker 1: NICKI and Noah, Um, I love you all. And my

1390
01:07:51,760 --> 01:07:58,080
Speaker 1: husband said to jack Off, oh my god, Okay, so well,

1391
01:07:58,240 --> 01:08:00,720
Speaker 1: we don't have Andrew's perspective on this one. It would

1392
01:08:00,760 --> 01:08:03,280
Speaker 1: be good to have here, but we're going to try

1393
01:08:03,280 --> 01:08:08,560
Speaker 1: our best. Okay, Noah, I feel she definitely needs to

1394
01:08:08,600 --> 01:08:11,560
Speaker 1: confront of about it. What you need to do, though,

1395
01:08:11,680 --> 01:08:14,280
Speaker 1: what I would do is own your side of things

1396
01:08:14,400 --> 01:08:18,200
Speaker 1: of like, listen, I'm really sorry I fucked up, and

1397
01:08:18,280 --> 01:08:20,439
Speaker 1: I don't want to do this again, because what are

1398
01:08:20,479 --> 01:08:23,559
Speaker 1: your options? You either come say what you did, which

1399
01:08:23,600 --> 01:08:25,680
Speaker 1: was you went through his phone without asking while he

1400
01:08:25,760 --> 01:08:27,680
Speaker 1: was asleep or whatever, and he gets mad at you

1401
01:08:27,680 --> 01:08:30,280
Speaker 1: about that, or you keep doing that and that guilt

1402
01:08:30,320 --> 01:08:33,840
Speaker 1: that you have about doing that to collect information keeps

1403
01:08:33,880 --> 01:08:36,600
Speaker 1: building up. So you're gonna, at some point in this

1404
01:08:36,880 --> 01:08:39,320
Speaker 1: have to admit you did that, whether it's down the road, like,

1405
01:08:39,439 --> 01:08:41,280
Speaker 1: you're not going to get over this. You're not gonna

1406
01:08:41,280 --> 01:08:44,680
Speaker 1: get answers from this unless you get him from him.

1407
01:08:44,720 --> 01:08:47,479
Speaker 1: You know, there's nothing I don't think you're gonna get

1408
01:08:47,479 --> 01:08:50,799
Speaker 1: any more collecting more data that's going to make you go, oh, suddenly,

1409
01:08:50,800 --> 01:08:52,439
Speaker 1: I don't care about this, and we can just I

1410
01:08:52,479 --> 01:08:55,080
Speaker 1: can die without ever knowing. You're gonna eventually get to

1411
01:08:55,080 --> 01:08:56,479
Speaker 1: a point where you're like, what the fund is going on?

1412
01:08:57,160 --> 01:09:00,840
Speaker 1: Just do that sooner than later before you completely like

1413
01:09:01,000 --> 01:09:02,680
Speaker 1: I have done it so many times because you're just

1414
01:09:02,760 --> 01:09:04,400
Speaker 1: it's gonna make you feel bad, It's gonna make you

1415
01:09:04,439 --> 01:09:06,320
Speaker 1: feel like you have a lie going between you which

1416
01:09:06,560 --> 01:09:11,120
Speaker 1: you know he may have already started. Um, just go listen.

1417
01:09:11,200 --> 01:09:13,760
Speaker 1: I had a really weak moment. I felt things were

1418
01:09:13,760 --> 01:09:15,960
Speaker 1: off between us. I'm so scared of losing you because

1419
01:09:15,960 --> 01:09:17,920
Speaker 1: I love you so much. If that's true, you can

1420
01:09:18,000 --> 01:09:20,920
Speaker 1: present when you do things like this like go through

1421
01:09:20,960 --> 01:09:23,840
Speaker 1: someone's phone, a way to soften and I do, I

1422
01:09:23,920 --> 01:09:27,080
Speaker 1: do believe is to explain like this is all coming

1423
01:09:27,120 --> 01:09:29,160
Speaker 1: from a place of not wanting to lose you because

1424
01:09:29,160 --> 01:09:32,040
Speaker 1: I love you. I think that helps people because sometimes

1425
01:09:32,080 --> 01:09:34,120
Speaker 1: they feel so betray and you go it's a it's

1426
01:09:34,120 --> 01:09:35,760
Speaker 1: a it was a bad way to go about this,

1427
01:09:35,880 --> 01:09:38,120
Speaker 1: but I promise it was motivated because I just I'm

1428
01:09:38,160 --> 01:09:40,800
Speaker 1: so scared to lose you, and I know that's I

1429
01:09:40,840 --> 01:09:42,479
Speaker 1: should have done a different way in the future. I

1430
01:09:42,520 --> 01:09:45,560
Speaker 1: want to do it this way, but I shouldn't have

1431
01:09:45,560 --> 01:09:47,680
Speaker 1: done it because I found something and I don't even

1432
01:09:47,720 --> 01:09:49,240
Speaker 1: know how to approach you about the thing I found.

1433
01:09:49,280 --> 01:09:51,360
Speaker 1: So I'm just coming clean. You are allowed to be

1434
01:09:51,479 --> 01:09:54,040
Speaker 1: upset with me about this. It's a completely separate issue

1435
01:09:54,080 --> 01:09:56,120
Speaker 1: than the one I want to talk to you about

1436
01:09:56,200 --> 01:09:58,200
Speaker 1: what I found. But I just need you to know,

1437
01:09:58,360 --> 01:10:00,439
Speaker 1: like come clean about your thing, and just like without

1438
01:10:00,479 --> 01:10:03,200
Speaker 1: confronting him about it at first, and like, see what

1439
01:10:03,320 --> 01:10:07,040
Speaker 1: he does, work through that, and then go now, can

1440
01:10:07,120 --> 01:10:09,560
Speaker 1: we talk about what I saw and make it a

1441
01:10:09,640 --> 01:10:12,439
Speaker 1: separate issue. I think that might be my advice. But

1442
01:10:12,479 --> 01:10:15,200
Speaker 1: I'm really sorry you're going through this and you're feeling

1443
01:10:16,160 --> 01:10:18,920
Speaker 1: that way right now, because I hate. I hate in

1444
01:10:19,000 --> 01:10:21,439
Speaker 1: relationships when I've done something that I know I shouldn't

1445
01:10:21,479 --> 01:10:23,040
Speaker 1: have done and I have to carry it around, and

1446
01:10:23,400 --> 01:10:25,760
Speaker 1: especially when you also, on the other side, feel like

1447
01:10:26,400 --> 01:10:29,040
Speaker 1: he's done something that you don't really understand and I

1448
01:10:29,160 --> 01:10:31,280
Speaker 1: do not understand what that app could be. And it's

1449
01:10:31,400 --> 01:10:34,599
Speaker 1: nice to know that he has not written anything, but God,

1450
01:10:34,680 --> 01:10:36,800
Speaker 1: it just sucks to learn that your husband might be

1451
01:10:36,880 --> 01:10:38,560
Speaker 1: like looking at something that just kind of gives you

1452
01:10:38,640 --> 01:10:41,920
Speaker 1: the willies. What do you think? So? I love the

1453
01:10:41,960 --> 01:10:44,720
Speaker 1: advice you gave her. I think it's a very good

1454
01:10:45,080 --> 01:10:49,080
Speaker 1: way to start the conversation. Um. I guess when I

1455
01:10:49,160 --> 01:10:51,800
Speaker 1: first heard this, the local part didn't really stick out

1456
01:10:51,840 --> 01:10:53,479
Speaker 1: to me that much as much as it does this

1457
01:10:53,640 --> 01:10:57,200
Speaker 1: time around. But I honestly think it's just like a

1458
01:10:57,320 --> 01:11:03,040
Speaker 1: guy looking at porn or just wanting to have access

1459
01:11:03,040 --> 01:11:05,960
Speaker 1: to those kinds of images, very like easily I guess, like,

1460
01:11:06,040 --> 01:11:09,840
Speaker 1: I don't think it's anything against her or because she's

1461
01:11:09,880 --> 01:11:13,519
Speaker 1: not fulfilling something. I think it's just guys like to

1462
01:11:13,560 --> 01:11:17,400
Speaker 1: look at porn, and you know, it's separate from how

1463
01:11:17,520 --> 01:11:20,479
Speaker 1: he feels about you. So I hope that she goes

1464
01:11:20,560 --> 01:11:24,680
Speaker 1: into it not taking like a personal offense about it

1465
01:11:24,800 --> 01:11:29,160
Speaker 1: and just it's just like yeah that I guess. I

1466
01:11:29,200 --> 01:11:30,960
Speaker 1: didn't even touch on the porn part of it. Like

1467
01:11:32,000 --> 01:11:35,040
Speaker 1: I don't know though, like the local thing bothers me

1468
01:11:35,160 --> 01:11:38,599
Speaker 1: because it just feels like I get it because obviously

1469
01:11:38,680 --> 01:11:41,400
Speaker 1: there's something that is attractive to men about hearing about

1470
01:11:41,479 --> 01:11:45,160
Speaker 1: local horny women around you, like in your area, because

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Speaker 1: it's all over point you watch porn, there's always like

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Speaker 1: people fucking in your neighborhood waiting for you. And these

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Speaker 1: guys are not actually meeting up with these women, but

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Speaker 1: just the illusion that they're close makes them hornier. So

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Speaker 1: I do believe that this is just a type of porn,

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01:11:59,479 --> 01:12:01,840
Speaker 1: like low local porn. So it doesn't mean he's like,

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Speaker 1: oh I could funk these women, they lived on the street.

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Speaker 1: It just makes it sexier to them, um to here local.

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Speaker 1: But you gotta get some answers on this. I if

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Speaker 1: it doesn't make you feel, right, I mean, like I'm

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01:12:14,439 --> 01:12:17,559
Speaker 1: someone who doesn't mind if my boyfriend watches Born. Um,

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Speaker 1: I think I would mind this because it just feels

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Speaker 1: like the next step of like you downloaded a weird

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01:12:23,680 --> 01:12:27,720
Speaker 1: app like or listen. If I found a weird app,

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01:12:27,720 --> 01:12:29,920
Speaker 1: I'd be like explained to me the hotness behind this

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Speaker 1: and what turns you on about this? Yes, not that

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Speaker 1: I need to start dressing like a local or something

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01:12:34,760 --> 01:12:38,080
Speaker 1: or like, because that's something he wants and he doesn't

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01:12:38,080 --> 01:12:39,439
Speaker 1: know how to bring up to her, Like I think

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Speaker 1: you turn into something very positive and healthy for their relationship,

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01:12:44,479 --> 01:12:47,280
Speaker 1: maybe something she doesn't know that turns him on. Like

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Speaker 1: you just said, I hope I do understand that thing

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01:12:50,880 --> 01:12:52,519
Speaker 1: of like being scared to bring up something that you

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Speaker 1: think might embarrass him to you know, like you're showing

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01:12:56,320 --> 01:12:58,640
Speaker 1: him this thing that you found, and he you know

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01:12:58,800 --> 01:13:00,400
Speaker 1: that he's going to have to either make up a

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Speaker 1: lie which is gonna be embarrassing to watch, or tell

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01:13:03,040 --> 01:13:06,320
Speaker 1: you the truth might which might really embarrass him and

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01:13:06,360 --> 01:13:09,400
Speaker 1: then might make emasculate him to you. Of like my

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Speaker 1: husband's like admitting he like jerks off to these local

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01:13:12,600 --> 01:13:16,559
Speaker 1: women are like, um, but the fact that he gave

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01:13:16,640 --> 01:13:19,080
Speaker 1: you his password was really cool too. Yeah, that's why

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01:13:19,080 --> 01:13:21,360
Speaker 1: I don't think it's anything malicious. And I wonder if

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01:13:21,360 --> 01:13:23,760
Speaker 1: he needs to send you an invite to this app. Yeah,

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01:13:25,360 --> 01:13:27,559
Speaker 1: show on this app. You find this app and submit

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01:13:27,640 --> 01:13:33,280
Speaker 1: your headless photos and then have and have him like that.

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01:13:33,520 --> 01:13:37,400
Speaker 1: How crazy would that be to submit your own photos

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01:13:37,479 --> 01:13:38,960
Speaker 1: on the app that you know your husband's looking at

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01:13:38,960 --> 01:13:40,600
Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden you come up on it.

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Speaker 1: That would be amazing. That would be like the light

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01:13:44,160 --> 01:13:46,280
Speaker 1: Lotus scene with the condom rapper where she just leaves

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01:13:46,320 --> 01:13:49,280
Speaker 1: it out spoiler alert, like just throwing it the thing,

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01:13:49,439 --> 01:13:53,639
Speaker 1: you know, in his face. Oh, I love it. That's

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Speaker 1: a good one. Um. I'm sorry though this sounds really

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01:13:56,720 --> 01:13:59,160
Speaker 1: that's shitty, and you know what, it's nice to know.

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Speaker 1: I think it's they you for sharing that, because I

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01:14:01,040 --> 01:14:02,400
Speaker 1: think a lot of people did with the stuff in

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01:14:02,439 --> 01:14:04,800
Speaker 1: their marriages and they're ashamed of like we don't have

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01:14:05,000 --> 01:14:07,720
Speaker 1: complete communication and there might be some shadiness going on.

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01:14:08,760 --> 01:14:12,280
Speaker 1: Um that. Yeah, everyone just has shameful things that they

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01:14:12,360 --> 01:14:17,439
Speaker 1: even hide from their spouses. And it's the best case

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01:14:17,479 --> 01:14:20,320
Speaker 1: scenario that you're just like totally open with one another

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01:14:20,360 --> 01:14:25,639
Speaker 1: and share everything. But we're so we're so repressed around

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01:14:25,720 --> 01:14:28,920
Speaker 1: sex and our desires and and it's so hard to

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01:14:28,960 --> 01:14:31,439
Speaker 1: share the stuff with our partner. But I heard the

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Speaker 1: sadness in your voice of like, I just don't know

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Speaker 1: what to do, and I'm only sorry you're feeling that way.

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01:14:35,960 --> 01:14:38,080
Speaker 1: But I think this is very normal. I think it's

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01:14:38,160 --> 01:14:40,519
Speaker 1: very resolvable. Just own your side of the street, which

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01:14:40,560 --> 01:14:42,519
Speaker 1: is you funked up and went through his phone without

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01:14:43,280 --> 01:14:45,240
Speaker 1: you know asking, which makes sense why you did it.

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01:14:45,320 --> 01:14:46,960
Speaker 1: I guest why you did it, But just own it,

1533
01:14:47,760 --> 01:14:49,960
Speaker 1: because then you will have carte blanche to go after

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01:14:50,160 --> 01:14:52,759
Speaker 1: him for what he's done once you really like repent

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01:14:52,880 --> 01:14:54,720
Speaker 1: for what you did without getting accused story of him,

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01:14:54,800 --> 01:14:58,800
Speaker 1: like own your thing first, make sure that it is tidy, like,

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01:14:58,880 --> 01:15:00,640
Speaker 1: don't even accuse him of it. I would say I

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01:15:00,680 --> 01:15:02,040
Speaker 1: went through your phone, babe, but I just want to

1539
01:15:02,040 --> 01:15:03,720
Speaker 1: say I feel really rotten about it. I wish I

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01:15:03,760 --> 01:15:05,600
Speaker 1: wouldn't have done it. You were sleeping, and I just

1541
01:15:05,720 --> 01:15:07,040
Speaker 1: need to be honest with you. I don't want to

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01:15:07,080 --> 01:15:09,479
Speaker 1: do it again. I don't know what you know. Here's

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01:15:09,479 --> 01:15:12,160
Speaker 1: why I was compelled to do it, but did um

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01:15:12,280 --> 01:15:13,800
Speaker 1: and I hate. I hate that I did too, and

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Speaker 1: I'm so sorry. And then eventually he'll go and did

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Speaker 1: you see anything, and you can go, I did, but

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Speaker 1: we can talk about that at another time. Really like

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01:15:20,280 --> 01:15:22,840
Speaker 1: own it. I think that will give you so much

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01:15:22,880 --> 01:15:25,760
Speaker 1: more in the end, and it will you didn't do

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01:15:25,840 --> 01:15:27,640
Speaker 1: everything right. I think so often we just like a

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01:15:28,240 --> 01:15:30,160
Speaker 1: and you already know that, I hear it in your voice.

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01:15:30,200 --> 01:15:33,160
Speaker 1: But I think so often we approach fights like they

1553
01:15:33,280 --> 01:15:35,880
Speaker 1: did this. It's just like, find something that you did wrong,

1554
01:15:35,960 --> 01:15:38,360
Speaker 1: because it gives you so much more going into the

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01:15:38,360 --> 01:15:40,040
Speaker 1: part where you get to present them with what they

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01:15:40,080 --> 01:15:43,400
Speaker 1: did wrong. There's so much blessed defensive if you've already

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01:15:43,680 --> 01:15:45,360
Speaker 1: kind of shown them how to own up to ship.

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01:15:46,080 --> 01:15:47,760
Speaker 1: And women usually have to be the ones to lead

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01:15:47,800 --> 01:15:50,920
Speaker 1: that because we're smarter. Um, we're not necessarily, but in

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01:15:51,000 --> 01:15:54,479
Speaker 1: these relationships we read the books and everything like that. Um. Please, men,

1561
01:15:54,560 --> 01:15:55,960
Speaker 1: don't stop listening to me because I said that I

1562
01:15:56,040 --> 01:15:57,519
Speaker 1: love you so much and I you know you are

1563
01:15:57,560 --> 01:16:00,519
Speaker 1: smarter and we got to keep that eye going so

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01:16:00,680 --> 01:16:04,400
Speaker 1: that you believe it and still like us and let

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01:16:04,479 --> 01:16:07,599
Speaker 1: us live and have reproductive rights. Uh not all men,

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Speaker 1: especially not Steve, love you guys so much. Thank you

1567
01:16:10,360 --> 01:16:13,160
Speaker 1: for listening to the podcast. We will see you next week.

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Speaker 1: We're doing one episode a week till the end of

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Speaker 1: the year, and then we will revisit and let you

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Speaker 1: know of the new plan. But I'm very excited for

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Speaker 1: everything to come for the podcast. I love you guys

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Speaker 1: so much. If you're waiting a whole week, come see

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Speaker 1: me on the road. I'm going to be in Waterloo,

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Speaker 1: New York this week. I'm gonna be in Hershey, Pennsylvania.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to be in the Atlantic City. Tickets still

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Speaker 1: available Nick Glazer dot com. Plus so many more dates

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Speaker 1: just came out arounding up the end of the year,

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Speaker 1: Oklahoma City, Tulsa, and St. Louis New Year's Eve. Get

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Speaker 1: out um quickly. And then I just released a bunch

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Speaker 1: of new dates that you can check out at my Instagram.

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Speaker 1: There's a whole graphic with all of them, and I

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Speaker 1: would love to see you there. I love you guys

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01:16:52,720 --> 01:16:54,800
Speaker 1: so much. Thank you for your support, Thank you for listening.

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Speaker 1: Have a great week, and don't be cool and g