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Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of our Heart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effect, And just like that, we're back

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Speaker 1: on the air. We're gonna jove right and we got

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Speaker 1: a voice submission and it's pretty long, so that's just listen, y'all. Hey, Jess,

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Speaker 1: I want to reach out to say that I love

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Speaker 1: you so much and I have a story to tell you,

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Speaker 1: and it's a lot. I did send it as a message,

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Speaker 1: but it's too much information and I wouldn't even read

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Speaker 1: all of it. So I'm just going to try to

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Speaker 1: tell you and see if he can fix my mess

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Speaker 1: or just help me with some type of advice on

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Speaker 1: healing from this situation and where I should go from there.

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Speaker 1: So to start off, I am about to be twenty

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Speaker 1: seven years old and I had had a stew past

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Speaker 1: tips a best friend that I had for ten years.

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Speaker 1: He was a male guy, and he was a great friend,

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Speaker 1: Like he was an amazing friend, and I didn't have

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Speaker 1: any doubts about him. I never thought twice or anything like,

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Speaker 1: never question anything about his character anything like that. So

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Speaker 1: to start off, remind you again, we've been friends for

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Speaker 1: ten plus years, literally strictly just friends in my head.

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Speaker 1: I don't see nothing more, nothing less, literally just a

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Speaker 1: friend of friend zone. That's where he is. Don't even

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Speaker 1: found you attractive. So fast forward to a year now,

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Speaker 1: which is three, and in April, he decided he's alreadys

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Speaker 1: been like expressing how he felt about me or just

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Speaker 1: like sending all type of messages about how much he

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Speaker 1: loves me or inspire him and doing these things like

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Speaker 1: sitting all type of every time I post a picture,

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Speaker 1: he's sitting all types of things, like all the hard

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Speaker 1: eyes is super supportive. Like, but I knew that he

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Speaker 1: was floating with me for a very very long time.

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Speaker 1: But again, remind you, I friend zone that man. So

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Speaker 1: I'm not paying attention to any of it. He has girlfriends,

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Speaker 1: multiple girl friends. I'm cool with all. With some of

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Speaker 1: his girlfriends, they didn't told me so many things that

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Speaker 1: he didn't they don't went through. So I went to doctors,

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Speaker 1: depotments and everything with certain females that he used to date,

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Speaker 1: and they were like he they would burn each other like.

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Speaker 1: It was just so much stuff like I that I

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Speaker 1: knew about him and how he moved with women, and

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Speaker 1: he like he was he was one of those people

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Speaker 1: that could never settle down with just one woman and

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Speaker 1: be happy. He needs multiple That is something that I

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Speaker 1: know for sure, is that he needs a person at

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Speaker 1: all times. One person is not good enough for him.

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Speaker 1: So with me knowing that knowledge, I took into myself

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Speaker 1: and said that I would never date this guy. I

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Speaker 1: would like he is a great friend, but I don't

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Speaker 1: never see myself dating him because I've seen all the flags.

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Speaker 1: I've seen all the red flags. We talked about a lot,

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Speaker 1: we talked about both of our dating lives, we talked

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Speaker 1: about a lot of things to each each other. So

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Speaker 1: I always say that I would never date him because

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Speaker 1: of how he treated women. And he's one of those

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Speaker 1: guys that has money, so he thinks that he could

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Speaker 1: just buy people off or I buy this and she

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Speaker 1: wou'd be okay, like, oh, I take on a trip,

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Speaker 1: and she did get over it. So he's definitely one

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Speaker 1: of those people. So back in April, he decided to well,

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Speaker 1: he already knows that I like girls, So I me

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Speaker 1: and him were just talking a lot, and he kept

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Speaker 1: he was flirting more and more, and I really didn't

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Speaker 1: know about the situation that he had going on at home,

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Speaker 1: so I was just peeping that he was flirting way

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Speaker 1: more than usual. So I had said something to him like,

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Speaker 1: and I have really went back on all the messages

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Speaker 1: to see like because I didn't really remind you I

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Speaker 1: had of my friend zone, so I didn't see him

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Speaker 1: like flirting with me. I just was like, oh, thank you, Like, oh,

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Speaker 1: this is my friend. Like anytime he's sitting hard heart

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Speaker 1: emotives or things like that, I was just like, oh,

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Speaker 1: thank you, like I appreciate that, Like, because we're friends,

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Speaker 1: I would do the same thing. So I didn't think

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Speaker 1: that it was like flirting because I literally had strictly

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Speaker 1: in the friend zone. Everything was cut off. So we

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Speaker 1: decided to get in a pologams relationship in April with me,

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Speaker 1: him and his girlfriend at the time, and everything was

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Speaker 1: going good. Everything was going good, Everything was going great.

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Speaker 1: Our communication was good. Me and her, we're talking, We

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Speaker 1: all three going dates together. We would do separate dates.

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Speaker 1: Were like. It was just a good vibe. For probably

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Speaker 1: two months, me and him went to Atlanta for some reason,

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Speaker 1: she did not go. When we got to Atlanta, everything

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Speaker 1: was cool, but his energy was off, like something was

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Speaker 1: while you're being sneaky, if we all three communicate properly

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Speaker 1: and know what's going on, everything was okay. The trip

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Speaker 1: posted a picture on social media because my one of

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Speaker 1: my shirts had got wine spilt over it. So I

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Speaker 1: asked him for one of his shirts, and I still

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Speaker 1: used it as a nice outfit. Put it together and

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Speaker 1: I used one of his shirts. His girlfriend realized that

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Speaker 1: But remind you, we all agreed to this polygamous relationship,

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Speaker 1: so I'm confused on what's going on. Don't get me wrong,

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Speaker 1: I'm not a victim in this situation, because again I

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Speaker 1: walked into the situation knowing that they are in a

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Speaker 1: relationship and I'm just another person that's being added to it.

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Speaker 1: So I never was one of those people to like

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Speaker 1: cock block on their situation or if she ever felt uncomfortable,

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Speaker 1: I wanted her to voice it to me so I

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Speaker 1: can notice step back and things like that. So we

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Speaker 1: get back from Atlanta, all of a sudden, they announced

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Speaker 1: that she's pregnant. Didn't tell me anything about it, didn't

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Speaker 1: keep me in a loop. So it was like a

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Speaker 1: getting into a little disagreement, I want to say, an

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Speaker 1: And it just threw me off because why wouldn't you

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Speaker 1: tell me, like, I know, y'all in a relationship, so

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Speaker 1: why did you just let me know? Like I'm not

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Speaker 1: a hating as bitch. So I congratulated them. I don't

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Speaker 1: year old, so it's like, it ain't me that got pregnant.

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Speaker 1: So I'm not tripping. So we fast forward again, move

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Speaker 1: up some We all went to Vegas. Vegas was amazing. Um,

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Speaker 1: we went to Vegas for Mother's Day. He asked me

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Speaker 1: on that trip. I want to point this out. Every

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Speaker 1: trip that he ever asks me to go one, it

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Speaker 1: was never like he flew me out. I always paid

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Speaker 1: my half on everything anything we did. We always went

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Speaker 1: never like him doing everything for me unless it was

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Speaker 1: You're doing your manly duties. We came back from Vegas

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Speaker 1: and then that's when we did the gender reveal. I've

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Speaker 1: been invited to the gender reveal. I literally helped set

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Speaker 1: I'm near the whole time. Everything's great, everything's cordial, everybody's

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Speaker 1: the thing, like just being the best person as I can,

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Speaker 1: genuine as I can be. So everything was okay, and

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Speaker 1: then all of a sudden, she just started getting rockier

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Speaker 1: telling me, no, everything's fine. She just want to get

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Speaker 1: Or am I just sucking on them? And or excuse me,

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Speaker 1: like if he on both of us, like and it

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Speaker 1: all these feelings coming from? Now? Like is it the hormones?

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Speaker 1: Is that this? Is this? Do you want me to

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Speaker 1: She tells me, no, don't back off. Everything's fine, Everything's okay.

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Speaker 1: She just wanted a better understanding. So basically, I realized

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Speaker 1: And that's where I messed up on my end, because

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Speaker 1: not gonna lie. We definitely still was messing on each

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Speaker 1: had some type of feelings going on, something was going on,

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Speaker 1: Hold up, Hold up, I know the ship getting good,

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Speaker 1: but listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial.

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Speaker 1: If you love me, you'll listen. We're gonna move to July.

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Speaker 1: July six, She's texting my phone reminds me, I'm still

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Speaker 1: think everything is quartil. She has not told me that

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Speaker 1: she doesn't like me, that she has beef with me,

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Speaker 1: that she just don't like this situation. She has not

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Speaker 1: still thinking everything's courtial. I'm still going over their house.

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Speaker 1: If they call them they need something, like I'm doing,

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Speaker 1: I'm helping them. If I call them and I need something,

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Speaker 1: they're helping. Like it was just so mutual. It was

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Speaker 1: still mutual. Nothing was like weird. Her energy was weird,

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Speaker 1: like when I stepped around, but everything was still of cordial. Well,

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Speaker 1: So I thought everything was still cordroo and adult and

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Speaker 1: my son. So we text each other set up a

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Speaker 1: And talk to us if you want me to fall

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Speaker 1: Remind you go back everything that we did since April

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Speaker 1: I do apologize, but I just shoot, at this point,

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Speaker 1: This man fell in love with me, and now you

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Speaker 1: gonna beat your ass. Listen, girl, that's the whole goddamn episode.

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00:20:25,440 --> 00:20:28,480
Speaker 1: I can't even fit in another story, but listen, I

428
00:20:28,600 --> 00:20:30,840
Speaker 1: know you're saying that you only need help on one part.

429
00:20:30,960 --> 00:20:32,680
Speaker 1: But you shouldn't have told me all that ship because

430
00:20:32,680 --> 00:20:36,200
Speaker 1: I got something to say about everything. Everything, everything. So

431
00:20:36,359 --> 00:20:39,479
Speaker 1: you're gonna listen. You already seen pretty smart, You already

432
00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:42,240
Speaker 1: know exactly you know what you want to do. Okay,

433
00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:44,120
Speaker 1: so you stop talking to the friend. Let's start from

434
00:20:44,160 --> 00:20:47,080
Speaker 1: the fucking beginning, because I got a couple of jokes

435
00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:48,800
Speaker 1: for you. First of all, you called this nigga a

436
00:20:48,880 --> 00:20:51,240
Speaker 1: mail guy, as if that's not the same thing. So

437
00:20:51,359 --> 00:20:54,320
Speaker 1: you basically said this is a man man. All right, Cool,

438
00:20:54,480 --> 00:20:56,480
Speaker 1: that was just for a little after y'all been best

439
00:20:56,520 --> 00:20:59,399
Speaker 1: friends for templus gears. Okay, so you were prone to

440
00:20:59,520 --> 00:21:03,040
Speaker 1: exactly how he treated women before, you know, since high school,

441
00:21:03,080 --> 00:21:05,719
Speaker 1: you guys have been knowing each other like you had

442
00:21:05,760 --> 00:21:07,879
Speaker 1: the best seat in the house to see exactly how

443
00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:09,879
Speaker 1: he treated women. So if you keep that in the

444
00:21:09,920 --> 00:21:12,760
Speaker 1: back of your fucking mind, you should totally not be

445
00:21:12,840 --> 00:21:15,240
Speaker 1: shocked at anything that he does even now to take

446
00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:18,080
Speaker 1: an accountability for anything that he have me may be

447
00:21:18,160 --> 00:21:21,560
Speaker 1: contributed to which resulted and you getting you goddamn teeth

448
00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:25,040
Speaker 1: knocked out the fuck. He's always been non faithful, He's

449
00:21:25,040 --> 00:21:28,240
Speaker 1: always had money. So we know guys who have money,

450
00:21:28,600 --> 00:21:30,720
Speaker 1: they use that. Not all of them, a lot of

451
00:21:30,840 --> 00:21:33,879
Speaker 1: them use that as power over other people, you know,

452
00:21:33,920 --> 00:21:36,679
Speaker 1: whether that be women or men, whatever, but mainly women.

453
00:21:37,160 --> 00:21:40,640
Speaker 1: And that is a woman's weakness. A man with money,

454
00:21:40,640 --> 00:21:43,480
Speaker 1: I don't give a fuck. Not every woman, but a

455
00:21:43,560 --> 00:21:47,480
Speaker 1: lot of women, okay, especially these days, a man with money, okay,

456
00:21:47,520 --> 00:21:50,119
Speaker 1: because everybody's looking to be taken care of instead of

457
00:21:50,160 --> 00:21:53,040
Speaker 1: taking care of their motherfucking selves. But you also bought

458
00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:56,080
Speaker 1: to my attention that he wanted to be more than

459
00:21:56,160 --> 00:21:57,920
Speaker 1: best friends for a long time, and you kept friends

460
00:21:57,960 --> 00:22:00,359
Speaker 1: zoning it. And you also told me that you like women.

461
00:22:00,680 --> 00:22:03,520
Speaker 1: Obviously you're not gay, though you're bisexual, or you wouldn't

462
00:22:03,520 --> 00:22:05,840
Speaker 1: have been sucking him at any point in time because

463
00:22:05,920 --> 00:22:09,240
Speaker 1: gay is just gay by you know what that is. Okay,

464
00:22:09,320 --> 00:22:11,320
Speaker 1: So you were into women, but you were also into

465
00:22:11,359 --> 00:22:14,200
Speaker 1: men as well, had to be. So when he got

466
00:22:14,280 --> 00:22:18,200
Speaker 1: this this girlfriend who deemed it to be okay for

467
00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:23,160
Speaker 1: the polly relationship, that now was not just a girlfriend

468
00:22:23,160 --> 00:22:26,320
Speaker 1: and boyfriend, that was girlfriend boyfriend girlfriend. So that was

469
00:22:26,400 --> 00:22:28,800
Speaker 1: all three of y'all out of nowhere, right, And then

470
00:22:28,880 --> 00:22:31,560
Speaker 1: you said the first trip to Atlanta. He was being sneaky.

471
00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,160
Speaker 1: The girlfriend didn't come, and that's because she was pregnant,

472
00:22:34,200 --> 00:22:36,520
Speaker 1: you know, and just probably didn't want to travel there

473
00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:40,320
Speaker 1: and have her hormones everywhere or mourning sickness or whatever.

474
00:22:40,680 --> 00:22:43,280
Speaker 1: But you were upset first red flag. They didn't tell

475
00:22:43,280 --> 00:22:45,720
Speaker 1: you she was pregnant. I think if this was a

476
00:22:45,800 --> 00:22:51,119
Speaker 1: polygamous relationship, and y'all are practicing true polygamy, everybody is

477
00:22:51,160 --> 00:22:54,240
Speaker 1: supposed to know everything. It's just like a regular relationship

478
00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:56,639
Speaker 1: with just two people. You have to be honest with

479
00:22:56,880 --> 00:23:00,119
Speaker 1: your mates or mates in this case, you know every bud.

480
00:23:00,160 --> 00:23:02,480
Speaker 1: He shouldn't know everything you know, so nobody is shocked

481
00:23:02,560 --> 00:23:04,920
Speaker 1: or nobody has hurt, or nobody is betrayed or feels

482
00:23:04,960 --> 00:23:08,000
Speaker 1: betrayed when anything comes out. Okay, you felt betrayed, and

483
00:23:08,080 --> 00:23:09,960
Speaker 1: you did feel some type of way. You said that

484
00:23:10,080 --> 00:23:12,879
Speaker 1: you got upset. Why did you get upset if you

485
00:23:13,160 --> 00:23:14,680
Speaker 1: then turned around and said that you didn't give a

486
00:23:14,720 --> 00:23:17,080
Speaker 1: fund because you weren't the one pregnant. Was it more

487
00:23:17,160 --> 00:23:19,359
Speaker 1: so that they didn't keep it real with you. They

488
00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:21,720
Speaker 1: kept from you that they were pregnant. Is that why

489
00:23:21,760 --> 00:23:23,800
Speaker 1: you're upset? Was it upset because you felt like you

490
00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:26,760
Speaker 1: would now be less interesting to the both of them

491
00:23:26,800 --> 00:23:29,080
Speaker 1: because they now have a baby on the way, you know,

492
00:23:29,200 --> 00:23:32,840
Speaker 1: between them too, Like, what exactly frustrated you? Why? I mean,

493
00:23:32,920 --> 00:23:35,080
Speaker 1: why did you get so upset with that? If it

494
00:23:35,240 --> 00:23:37,359
Speaker 1: wasn't all about them just keeping it a hunted Let

495
00:23:37,480 --> 00:23:39,920
Speaker 1: me know, Hey, I'm in this relationship too. Why didn't

496
00:23:39,960 --> 00:23:41,800
Speaker 1: I know that she was having a baby. You said

497
00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:44,440
Speaker 1: Vegas was nice? Then at the gender reveal, you were

498
00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:47,680
Speaker 1: doing your duties as the second girlfriend, you know, as

499
00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,520
Speaker 1: the other girlfriend. I don't see how the funk if

500
00:23:50,560 --> 00:23:53,520
Speaker 1: you were so upset about this pregnancy, you still was

501
00:23:53,560 --> 00:23:56,160
Speaker 1: at the gender reveal doing everything you said. You helped

502
00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:58,680
Speaker 1: put it up, you helped take it down. Jesus Christ,

503
00:23:59,119 --> 00:24:01,200
Speaker 1: you involved yourself for a lot. Wait, let's just go

504
00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:03,359
Speaker 1: back a little bit. I think that you also involved

505
00:24:03,400 --> 00:24:07,000
Speaker 1: yourself in this guy's relationships before this one a little

506
00:24:07,080 --> 00:24:08,480
Speaker 1: too much. You told me that she was going to

507
00:24:08,560 --> 00:24:10,600
Speaker 1: the doctors with the pitches and ship because he was

508
00:24:10,640 --> 00:24:13,119
Speaker 1: burning them left and right. You were a way too

509
00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:17,320
Speaker 1: involved with the girlfriends, way way way way too involved.

510
00:24:17,680 --> 00:24:21,679
Speaker 1: But that was then. This is now okay, going forward.

511
00:24:22,080 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 1: You said the girlfriend eventually started acting different, out of nowhere.

512
00:24:26,359 --> 00:24:28,720
Speaker 1: Y'all just kept asking her, what is the problem? Do

513
00:24:28,800 --> 00:24:31,720
Speaker 1: you want me to step back? Do you instead of

514
00:24:31,840 --> 00:24:33,639
Speaker 1: waiting for her to tell you that? I think you

515
00:24:33,760 --> 00:24:36,120
Speaker 1: just should have. You just should have. You didn't really

516
00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:38,520
Speaker 1: tell me that he had a lot to say, but

517
00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:41,640
Speaker 1: from woman to woman, from her to you, I think

518
00:24:41,720 --> 00:24:43,760
Speaker 1: you should have kind of read the room, because with

519
00:24:43,920 --> 00:24:46,680
Speaker 1: you telling me this, I even already figured it out.

520
00:24:47,080 --> 00:24:50,560
Speaker 1: She was upset because she had only did this polygamous

521
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:53,880
Speaker 1: relationship for him. She was never into women. I'm gonna

522
00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:55,560
Speaker 1: tell you that. That's why she had that best friend

523
00:24:55,560 --> 00:24:59,160
Speaker 1: come and whoop your ass. Sorry, she did not whoop

524
00:24:59,160 --> 00:25:01,199
Speaker 1: your way as girl. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. But if

525
00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:03,399
Speaker 1: you knock a bitch tooth out, that's automatic you won.

526
00:25:03,560 --> 00:25:04,840
Speaker 1: I don't give a funk what I did to you

527
00:25:04,920 --> 00:25:06,920
Speaker 1: after you knocked my tooth out. But you'd beat my

528
00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:08,919
Speaker 1: ass if you knocked my tooth out, because you can

529
00:25:09,000 --> 00:25:11,440
Speaker 1: go and help from the bruises. I can't help from

530
00:25:11,480 --> 00:25:14,560
Speaker 1: a missing tooth. Jesus. So, okay, I'm sorry. We're gonna

531
00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:16,639
Speaker 1: back it up a little bit more. This story is crazy,

532
00:25:17,160 --> 00:25:21,200
Speaker 1: all right. She was never into women. She compromised herself

533
00:25:21,600 --> 00:25:23,600
Speaker 1: for your best friend with the money and the person

534
00:25:23,680 --> 00:25:25,399
Speaker 1: taking care of her, and the person that was winding

535
00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:28,520
Speaker 1: and dinning and wooing her. I also think that he

536
00:25:29,280 --> 00:25:32,000
Speaker 1: may have told her all the feelings that he has

537
00:25:32,080 --> 00:25:35,000
Speaker 1: had for you, because he's obviously an honest person. He

538
00:25:35,160 --> 00:25:37,280
Speaker 1: just don't give a funk because he got money. He

539
00:25:37,359 --> 00:25:38,600
Speaker 1: like I can tell his bitch is the truth and

540
00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:41,959
Speaker 1: where they're going nowhere. So I think that he literally

541
00:25:42,119 --> 00:25:44,320
Speaker 1: may have confessed to her his real love for you

542
00:25:44,400 --> 00:25:46,639
Speaker 1: and how long that he was probably chasing you, and

543
00:25:46,720 --> 00:25:49,399
Speaker 1: how you are probably the only woman that understands him

544
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:51,720
Speaker 1: because you were his best friend for a long time,

545
00:25:52,160 --> 00:25:54,960
Speaker 1: and in your story that's what I got. You were

546
00:25:55,280 --> 00:25:57,840
Speaker 1: maybe the only woman that showed him that you understood him,

547
00:25:57,960 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 1: and you still obliged to even get a three way

548
00:26:00,560 --> 00:26:03,320
Speaker 1: relationship with him and his girlfriend and be having sex

549
00:26:03,400 --> 00:26:06,200
Speaker 1: with both of them. Now understand, when she got pregnant,

550
00:26:06,400 --> 00:26:09,240
Speaker 1: she started acting different because now I'm pregnant, now, I

551
00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:11,520
Speaker 1: don't want to bring a baby in the world with

552
00:26:11,560 --> 00:26:13,520
Speaker 1: a girlfriend and a boyfriend. I was only doing this

553
00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:16,200
Speaker 1: ship for you, Marquise, I just gave him my name.

554
00:26:16,400 --> 00:26:18,280
Speaker 1: I was only doing this ship for you, Marquise, but

555
00:26:18,359 --> 00:26:20,880
Speaker 1: now you're your best friend. Gonna have to stop sucking,

556
00:26:21,280 --> 00:26:23,000
Speaker 1: and we're gonna have to stop all working together. I

557
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:25,640
Speaker 1: have a baby, I'm pregnant. Now. I want to take

558
00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:29,399
Speaker 1: our relationship and subtract her and it can just be

559
00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:32,760
Speaker 1: us and we can finally live a regular relationship life.

560
00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:34,960
Speaker 1: I think that's what she's always wanted, but she just

561
00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:38,920
Speaker 1: wasn't truthful enough to say it, and then she probably

562
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,240
Speaker 1: felt like it wasn't her place to dismiss you, to

563
00:26:41,359 --> 00:26:44,080
Speaker 1: break up with you. The idea was brought by him,

564
00:26:44,440 --> 00:26:46,360
Speaker 1: so I think that she had already been telling him

565
00:26:46,359 --> 00:26:48,320
Speaker 1: how she felt the whole time. He just didn't tell you.

566
00:26:48,840 --> 00:26:51,080
Speaker 1: I think he knew that she didn't want polygamy anymore.

567
00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:54,080
Speaker 1: I think that he just never told you because it's

568
00:26:54,119 --> 00:26:56,719
Speaker 1: something that he enjoyed. So that's why you and him

569
00:26:56,760 --> 00:26:59,880
Speaker 1: were still fucking off. He never told you how she felt,

570
00:27:00,200 --> 00:27:02,360
Speaker 1: but you, in the back of your mind, you knew

571
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:05,639
Speaker 1: exactly how she felt because in your story you're telling me,

572
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:08,720
Speaker 1: you could have easily guessed this girl was uncomfortable with

573
00:27:08,760 --> 00:27:11,600
Speaker 1: this ship. Now it's ran its course, it's not fun anymore.

574
00:27:11,960 --> 00:27:15,200
Speaker 1: It probably was never fun, but for a man, you

575
00:27:15,280 --> 00:27:17,680
Speaker 1: tend to do anything to make him happy and to

576
00:27:17,880 --> 00:27:20,640
Speaker 1: keep him happy so he can keep you happy. Get

577
00:27:20,640 --> 00:27:23,199
Speaker 1: what I'm saying now. When she called and met up

578
00:27:23,240 --> 00:27:25,639
Speaker 1: with your ass, and you went, you ran to our

579
00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:27,840
Speaker 1: rescue because you still just loved her, you know, and

580
00:27:28,200 --> 00:27:29,960
Speaker 1: or whether you loved he or not, you were still

581
00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:32,040
Speaker 1: concerned about her because you seem to be a really

582
00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:34,359
Speaker 1: really good person. You just like what you like, but

583
00:27:34,960 --> 00:27:38,159
Speaker 1: you seem to be a really genuine person. So you

584
00:27:38,200 --> 00:27:39,600
Speaker 1: went to see what was up. You didn't know what

585
00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:41,399
Speaker 1: she had to talk to you about. I agree that

586
00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:43,520
Speaker 1: they set you up. She had her best friend come

587
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:48,399
Speaker 1: because this nigga never relayed the message to her that

588
00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:52,240
Speaker 1: he had told you how she felt. He was supposed

589
00:27:52,280 --> 00:27:54,320
Speaker 1: to tell you. Look, look, look y'all, I think that

590
00:27:54,640 --> 00:27:56,440
Speaker 1: we just got chilled until she had a baby or

591
00:27:56,520 --> 00:27:58,280
Speaker 1: we just can't do this ship no more. That was

592
00:27:58,320 --> 00:28:00,480
Speaker 1: too much like right. He would have never did that, obviously,

593
00:28:00,880 --> 00:28:04,560
Speaker 1: and he probably lied to her and told her that

594
00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:07,080
Speaker 1: he did tell you that, and she just probably think

595
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:09,440
Speaker 1: that you didn't give a fuck and you just kept

596
00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:11,760
Speaker 1: sucking him because obviously, if she had his phone to

597
00:28:11,800 --> 00:28:13,920
Speaker 1: answer text messages and all that she's been going through

598
00:28:13,920 --> 00:28:15,800
Speaker 1: the phone and y'all probably was still meeting up and

599
00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:18,040
Speaker 1: sucking all that type of ship. So she felt like

600
00:28:18,520 --> 00:28:20,680
Speaker 1: y'all was playing in her face, hence why she said

601
00:28:20,720 --> 00:28:23,000
Speaker 1: it t y'all playing in my face. And then da,

602
00:28:23,240 --> 00:28:25,680
Speaker 1: You're like, how, how? How? When really there was no

603
00:28:25,760 --> 00:28:29,480
Speaker 1: communication between you two girls. He knows everything, but he's

604
00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:32,680
Speaker 1: only telling one side to one person. You understand what

605
00:28:32,720 --> 00:28:35,119
Speaker 1: I'm saying, making you think that she is still sweet,

606
00:28:35,520 --> 00:28:37,320
Speaker 1: but you knew in the back of your mind it wasn't.

607
00:28:37,960 --> 00:28:39,840
Speaker 1: So the best friend, not your motherfucking teeth, felt you

608
00:28:39,920 --> 00:28:41,760
Speaker 1: beat her ass. You gotta restrain a note on the

609
00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:44,000
Speaker 1: girl and look card he said it best, got a

610
00:28:44,080 --> 00:28:46,240
Speaker 1: bag and fixed my teeth. Hope you hold No, it

611
00:28:46,280 --> 00:28:48,640
Speaker 1: ain't cheap, you tell on you five thousand dollars, dun

612
00:28:48,920 --> 00:28:52,640
Speaker 1: teeth ain't cheap. Okay, I'm tripping off the fact that

613
00:28:52,680 --> 00:28:54,520
Speaker 1: you shoved that motherfucker back up in your mother. Girl.

614
00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:56,120
Speaker 1: You could have sucked up that route. You could have

615
00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,800
Speaker 1: sucked it up they girl, you could have sucked up

616
00:28:58,840 --> 00:29:02,840
Speaker 1: your gums. You don't be doing that ship. You put

617
00:29:02,880 --> 00:29:04,160
Speaker 1: it back in your off like it was a piece

618
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:07,800
Speaker 1: of track. Girl, what the fuck? Mm hmm. And then

619
00:29:07,840 --> 00:29:10,960
Speaker 1: another thing, I'm almost done with you. Another thing you

620
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:13,400
Speaker 1: keep saying, Oh, he was my best friend. He's my

621
00:29:13,440 --> 00:29:14,640
Speaker 1: best friend. He's the one who got me in this.

622
00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:17,120
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, And he's not a taken accountability.

623
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:18,840
Speaker 1: I did take accountability, but he's my best friend. I

624
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:21,960
Speaker 1: didn't expect this. Listen, the moment y'all started sucking, y'all

625
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:24,360
Speaker 1: got into a relationship, whether that be three way, four way,

626
00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:27,160
Speaker 1: or g one back and forth, whatever, he wasn't your

627
00:29:27,200 --> 00:29:29,960
Speaker 1: best friend no more. You don't fuck your best friend.

628
00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:32,719
Speaker 1: You can suck your best friend, but then y'all are

629
00:29:32,760 --> 00:29:36,160
Speaker 1: no longer real best friends. You understand what I'm saying.

630
00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:39,440
Speaker 1: That's hard to do. He fell in love with you, Yes,

631
00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:42,400
Speaker 1: I believe he's in love with both of y'all. That's

632
00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:43,959
Speaker 1: why he doesn't want to let you go. That's why

633
00:29:44,040 --> 00:29:46,000
Speaker 1: he got so angry with you, because the ship ain't

634
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:48,440
Speaker 1: working out no more. In his perfect world, he can

635
00:29:48,480 --> 00:29:51,400
Speaker 1: have both of y'all together. He would probably even marriable

636
00:29:51,480 --> 00:29:54,400
Speaker 1: for y'all. But listen, because they have a baby, and

637
00:29:54,480 --> 00:29:57,360
Speaker 1: because they are still living together, you will never be

638
00:29:57,480 --> 00:30:00,240
Speaker 1: able to have him without her even as your best friend,

639
00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:02,920
Speaker 1: because now they have an obligation. They have a child,

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Speaker 1: and they'll probably have more. Who knows. He'll probably even

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Speaker 1: try another polygamy relationship with her because she did it

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Speaker 1: the first time and he enjoyed it so fucking much.

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Speaker 1: It just didn't work out with his best friend. You.

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Speaker 1: You should have left the friendship alone, and I think

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Speaker 1: you should stay gone. And then you kept saying, oh,

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Speaker 1: she's sneaky and she using him and all of that.

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Speaker 1: But when y'all all three were together, you knew all

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Speaker 1: this because that was your girlfriend too, Okay, So I

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Speaker 1: just think that you did what you were supposed to do.

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Speaker 1: Keep that motherfucking piece order, restraining order, whatever, because you

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Speaker 1: definitely got set up. Keep away from him. I get it.

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Speaker 1: You're gonna miss him, You're gonna you're you know, you

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Speaker 1: love him, You're concerned, you care about him. Yeah, and

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Speaker 1: I believe that he loves you and he cares about

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Speaker 1: you too. But what y'all went through, it's too damaging

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Speaker 1: to come back from with her. Definitely for her, but

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Speaker 1: also for you too. You understand what I'm saying. I

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Speaker 1: think that's a friendship that YA can maybe revisit later

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Speaker 1: on in life, like later, later later, right now, it's

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Speaker 1: still fucking fresh. All this just happened months ago, baby girl.

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Speaker 1: I think you need to keep that and they're going

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Speaker 1: on some ice. Even if he does call you feeding

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Speaker 1: with a long hand of spoon, you know, keep your distance.

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Speaker 1: You know, if he just has to be your friend,

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Speaker 1: keep your distance. But I don't think it's it's good

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Speaker 1: that you guys are friends at all, um right now,

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Speaker 1: and then you're gonna say if you want the parts two,

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Speaker 1: it's a motherfucking part two. Yes, please send me the

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Speaker 1: part two, but this is all I got for you

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Speaker 1: right now. Check back in send apart too. And I

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Speaker 1: talked to your ass next week. Girl. You'd took up

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Speaker 1: all my damn time. And just like that, we come

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Speaker 1: to the end of another Carefully Reckless episode with your girl.

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Speaker 1: Just hilarious. Make sure you watch Reckless Discussions tonight. It

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Speaker 1: parents and Therapy. Me and Jerome are setting down with

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Speaker 1: other couples that are trying to co parent effectively with

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Speaker 1: their exes. Tune into Carefully Reckless each and every Wednesday.

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Speaker 1: always tune in in my deepest pay but with peace. Yeah.

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