Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, and welcome back to Part two of my
Speaker 1: story on weight loss and how it's affected me over
Speaker 1: the years. If you haven't heard part one, go check
Speaker 1: it out. I talked about some of the lessons I
Speaker 1: was taught as a kid and how it shaped me
Speaker 1: as an adult, and today I want to expand on
Speaker 1: that and talk about what it's been like for me
Speaker 1: over the last few years. There's been a lot of
Speaker 1: trial and error figuring out what works for me and
Speaker 1: my body because everyone is so different. I tried everything
Speaker 1: from keto to working out, to fasting, intermitute fasting. I've
Speaker 1: tried it all under the sun. I have tried diet pills,
Speaker 1: Like I said in Part one, I've tried fenermine. I've
Speaker 1: tried just so many things. And I can tell you
Speaker 1: now that I'm in a place where I'm pretty comfortable
Speaker 1: with the way I look. But even though I've slimmed down,
Speaker 1: there are some things I continue to struggle with, which
Speaker 1: is what I'm going to talk about in a bit
Speaker 1: right now. I have lost and I haven't said this
Speaker 1: I think, well, at least not on the pod, but
Speaker 1: I have lost about sixty five pounds. You guys, in
Speaker 1: the past year, I went from what a size twelve
Speaker 1: to a size six And I said this in part one.
Speaker 2: The last time I was a size six, you guys,
Speaker 2: I was.
Speaker 1: Six years old. Okay, so I don't know. Something just
Speaker 1: clicked in my mind. I went from thinking I want
Speaker 1: to look good to I want to be healthy. And
Speaker 1: I say this in my Keto book, in the Cheek
Speaker 1: is Keto book, because Keto worked for me and I
Speaker 1: loved it. I did lose weight, but then I would
Speaker 1: hit a plateau and I think I was just having
Speaker 1: way too much cheese and stuff like that. And again,
Speaker 1: every body is different, literally, everybody is different. So it
Speaker 1: was like everything else, it'll work in the beginning, but
Speaker 1: your body starts getting used to it, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean, So you have to continuously shock your body.
Speaker 1: And then I realized that it's control. It's not only
Speaker 1: about eating the right things and eating the healthy things.
Speaker 1: It's about eating smaller portions more frequently. And I had
Speaker 1: heard that before and over and over and over, but
Speaker 1: not until I was like it really just It wasn't
Speaker 1: until it just clicked, until I was just like, wait,
Speaker 1: that makes so much sense that my body started changing.
Speaker 1: I've always worked out and that's another thing. I would
Speaker 1: work out, I think too much and too hard, so
Speaker 1: it would backfire on me. And you guys go read
Speaker 1: on this. Don't take my word for it, but there
Speaker 1: are studies that if you work out more than forty
Speaker 1: five minutes, like again, you have to Like so many
Speaker 1: people are like, O, I'm gonna ran really really fast
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna sprint, and that's what's gonna make me
Speaker 1: lose weight. That helps you, yes, lose weight. It helps
Speaker 1: you burn more carbohydrates. But if you're trying to burn fat,
Speaker 1: you need to do intervals. You need to do like
Speaker 1: walking on an incline, like and sometimes even just twenty
Speaker 1: minutes thirty minutes I was doing like sometimes two hours
Speaker 1: of training, and I feel like it was kind of
Speaker 1: backfiring on me. And it all depends on your body again,
Speaker 1: so you have to figure out like your blood type,
Speaker 1: and it's like a whole thing. And I don't want
Speaker 1: to get into that. But I do feel better, absolutely absolutely.
Speaker 1: I feel better mentally physically, I have more energy. I
Speaker 1: do feel like I'm getting sick a little bit more
Speaker 1: frequently than before, and I'm one to take my medicine
Speaker 1: all the time. But I think because I lost so
Speaker 1: much weight that I don't know, maybe my immune system,
Speaker 1: my body's still trying to figure things out. But I
Speaker 1: do feel so much better, like emotionally, like I look
Speaker 1: in the mirror and it's nice to go to the store,
Speaker 1: you guys, and everything fits or I have my fittings
Speaker 1: and I don't have to worry about this hanging out
Speaker 1: and that. And it's like again, like I've always loved myself.
Speaker 1: I've always been pretty confident, but I didn't really see
Speaker 1: myself as big as I was, to be honest. Now
Speaker 1: I see videos and I see like they do comparisons
Speaker 1: on TikTok, and I'm just like, oh shit. Like I
Speaker 1: see pictures and Emilio and I will be going through
Speaker 1: like you know, vacation pictures and I'm like damn. I'm like,
Speaker 1: did you see me like them? Like why didn't you
Speaker 1: tell me? And he's like, it's like You've always been
Speaker 1: so beautiful, Like I honestly didn't see that, Like now
Speaker 1: I see it's a drastic change. And even me, I'm like, damn,
Speaker 1: my neck was so thick. I didn't have this neck
Speaker 1: like right now, like I have the neck that I
Speaker 1: had when I was freaking, I don't know, twenty four, Like,
Speaker 1: I feel like my neck has come back. It's longer,
Speaker 1: you know, And I didn't really realize, to be honest,
Speaker 1: but now I look in the mirror and it's nice.
Speaker 1: It's nice to be like sometimes I'm even a slice small,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I'm happy. I'm very,
Speaker 1: very happy. And I did it more for health, To
Speaker 1: be honest, I wanted to just finally just be different
Speaker 1: in my mindset and think about I want to be healthy,
Speaker 1: I want to live longer. I want to take care
Speaker 1: of this temple that God has let me borrow this body.
Speaker 1: I want to feed it good things. And I'm not
Speaker 1: saying that I don't have fun, because I still like
Speaker 1: to have pizza, and I like sweets, and I like
Speaker 1: chocolates and bread, like I still have all that stuff,
Speaker 1: but I have a lot.
Speaker 2: Less of it.
Speaker 1: It was just really like portion control and really getting
Speaker 1: my hormones in line and my thyroid issue that comes
Speaker 1: from you know, for my family, it's hereditary and it's
Speaker 1: something that now I'm controlling. And I wish I could
Speaker 1: stop taking that medicine every single day because I feel
Speaker 1: like our bodies heal ourselves, so I want to find
Speaker 1: a more holistic way. But it's helped me, honestly, like
Speaker 1: having your hormones in line and balanced help you so much.
Speaker 1: So that's one thing I'm so grateful for. And one
Speaker 1: thing I haven't really said is that another thing that's
Speaker 1: helped me lose weight is ozembic. I'm sure you guys
Speaker 1: have heard about it. I made all these changes with
Speaker 1: my hormones, with my thyroid, all that stuff, and then
Speaker 1: I started getting that injection. When I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: I hit a plateau and I was like, I still
Speaker 1: want to lose more weight. So I did go that route.
Speaker 1: I'm not telling you guys to do it. It did help
Speaker 1: me lose weight, and I only did it for three months.
Speaker 1: I also got way, like, I don't know, four years ago,
Speaker 1: I got that balloon that they put in your stomach,
Speaker 1: a big ass pill that you swallow, and that helped
Speaker 1: me lose weight as well. But again they remove that balloon.
Speaker 1: It was too uncomfortable for me. So I did lose
Speaker 1: weight and that I think that was the first thing
Speaker 1: that really started everything. And I was like, okay, well,
Speaker 1: if they're putting this balloon in my stomach. That means
Speaker 1: I just have to eat less to shrink my stomach,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I'm like, duh, it's common sense,
Speaker 1: you know. But it really just kind of opened up
Speaker 1: and sparked that in my mind. So I did lose weight,
Speaker 1: but I removed that. And then once you remove it,
Speaker 1: then your stomach goes back to its normal size, you know,
Speaker 1: and you start putting more food in it. So again
Speaker 1: it's all portion control. So anyways, going back to ozempic
Speaker 1: so azempic is, I'm sure you've heard about it. It's
Speaker 1: like the Hollywood injection. It's like a medication that people
Speaker 1: that have diabetes take to control their sugar levels. But
Speaker 1: then they found out that you can use it for
Speaker 1: weight loss. So a lot of people have been using it.
Speaker 1: And I did it, and it helped me. I stopped it,
Speaker 1: and now it's just I need to just I want
Speaker 1: to have control of my body. I don't want to
Speaker 1: have a stimulant or something that I have to take
Speaker 1: all the time. I have to have self control and
Speaker 1: eat better, make better choices, and eat less of everything.
Speaker 1: And now I don't eat I don't drink soda, I
Speaker 1: rarely drink beer. I think I've had, like in the
Speaker 1: past year, one beer, and that was at snow the Products.
Speaker 1: That's my first beer I think in like a year,
Speaker 1: you guys, I had it there on her podcast. All
Speaker 1: that stuff, all that yeast, all like the sodas, any
Speaker 1: type of anything that's carbonated. It expands your stomach. So
Speaker 1: I started just reading on a bunch of that stuff.
Speaker 2: So I stopped.
Speaker 1: I took that out of my diet or should I
Speaker 1: say my lifestyle, because I don't like to call it
Speaker 1: a diet. It's a lifestyle. And right now I'm not
Speaker 1: necessarily super fixated on what I eat, and I don't
Speaker 1: eat because I don't like to deprive myself, and I
Speaker 1: like to just give myself that Lee way of saying, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna have a little bit of this, but instead
Speaker 1: of having the entire pizza slice, I'll have half of it.
Speaker 1: I'll take a few bites just to get myself, like
Speaker 1: to satisfy that craving, but I won't have the whole thing.
Speaker 1: Before I used to eat three slices, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. So I don't let it get to me
Speaker 1: too much. But I now that I'm just getting older,
Speaker 1: I just want to be healthier. That's what it's like.
Speaker 1: I just want to feel good. I just want, yes
Speaker 1: to look good, but I want to feel good. I
Speaker 1: want to feed myself good things, you know. And working
Speaker 1: out just has been a part of my life since
Speaker 1: oh since I can remember. I mean, my mom would
Speaker 1: make me work out when I was freaking twelve years old,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So it's like it's been
Speaker 1: a part of my life forever, and now as an adult,
Speaker 1: it just helps with my stress. I love boxing, I
Speaker 1: love the bike, I love treadmill, I love hiking. I
Speaker 1: just like to be active because it helps release toxins
Speaker 1: and they say at least sweat at least twenty minutes
Speaker 1: a day. It helps with your mental clarity, it gives
Speaker 1: you more energy, the endorphins, you know, like all that
Speaker 1: helps you on a mental level, and it's just a
Speaker 1: part of my life. For me, it's like I have
Speaker 1: to at least work out, and that's one thing that
Speaker 1: I'm a little bit more. When I got sick this
Speaker 1: last time, it was so tough because it just really
Speaker 1: threw me off track. But I wasn't able to work
Speaker 1: out obviously, so getting back into it was a little tough,
Speaker 1: but I'm like, I push myself. That's one thing that
Speaker 1: I'm like, working out is part of my job. That's
Speaker 1: one thing I can't stop doing because it really does
Speaker 1: help me with my sanity. So I try to do
Speaker 1: it at least no less than three times a week.
Speaker 1: If I can do five, that's like my goal. I
Speaker 1: like to have two rest days in the week. So
Speaker 1: that's one thing that it's like, I need a sweat,
Speaker 1: and the more I sweat, the sexier I feel. It's
Speaker 1: crazy now, Like when I look in the mirror, I
Speaker 1: can tell you, like I'm very happy with what I see.
Speaker 1: I see, like I have less cellulite, Like I'm always
Speaker 1: gonna have sella light like that's just I've learned to
Speaker 1: just come to terms with it and accept that because
Speaker 1: again that's something that's more hereditary. I have creams like
Speaker 1: even a like on my skincare line, I have an
Speaker 1: antisellulite cream. So but I'm happier now to see less
Speaker 1: of it, you know what I mean. So I like
Speaker 1: using things like that. I've always used them. It's something
Speaker 1: that I've struggled with it since I was freaking I
Speaker 1: don't know, thirteen years old. It's something that's just a
Speaker 1: part of my body. But I look in the mirror
Speaker 1: and I'm happy. Sometimes though my stylist will tell me
Speaker 1: Cheeky's I don't think you realize how much you've lost,
Speaker 1: because I'll still go for the size like eight, and
Speaker 1: he's like, wait, you're not an eight anymore, Like you
Speaker 1: can wear six, you can wear this small. Like I
Speaker 1: think it's been so many years that maybe I don't
Speaker 1: see myself like other people see me or the way
Speaker 1: I look. I don't know, but I do look in
Speaker 1: the mirror and I'm like, Okay, now I can go
Speaker 1: back to like I don't know, because for a while,
Speaker 1: I was a little bit more shy to walk naked
Speaker 1: around Emilio, you know what I mean. Like I was
Speaker 1: just like a little bit more shy, and because he's
Speaker 1: all he's thin, you know, and he's younger and whatever.
Speaker 1: And now I'm like, Okay, I'm pouncing around with my
Speaker 1: ass out and cute little shorts and I don't care,
Speaker 1: like I'm I feel good and I feel like it's
Speaker 1: happened at the right time because I at this age,
Speaker 1: I am learning to value that and appreciate it on
Speaker 1: a different level. And in a different way. So I'm
Speaker 1: glad it happened now. And one thing that's crazy, because
Speaker 1: I mean I think as women, we all have our
Speaker 1: little insecure the little things that we worry about. And
Speaker 1: for me, because I have gotten plastic surgery, you guys,
Speaker 1: I've gotten liposuction, I've gotten breast augmentation, breast reduction, breast augmentation. Again,
Speaker 1: I took out the implants and put it back in.
Speaker 1: Like I have scars. You know, I have LiPo suction scars,
Speaker 1: and I'm not one to heal very nicely, so I
Speaker 1: keyloid and all this stuff. So I think, and it's
Speaker 1: always been since I started, like since I got my
Speaker 1: first like boob job, Like I have scars, you know
Speaker 1: what i mean. Like and now I'm like whatever, I
Speaker 1: just got to embrace them. But they are a little
Speaker 1: bit like they make me feel a little insecure, like
Speaker 1: when I'm in a bikini or something, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. Like I want to be able to wear
Speaker 1: those like string ones you know, around the breast, but
Speaker 1: I have to wear a little bit thicker so my
Speaker 1: my scars are covered. So it's like little things like that,
Speaker 1: you know. Now, I'm just like before I used to
Speaker 1: be so insecure about my toes, you guys, because I
Speaker 1: had a friend that would always tell me, she's like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, girl, like you're so cute like your face,
Speaker 1: your body, your booty, and then you go down to
Speaker 1: your toes and it's like, damn, what happened to that?
Speaker 1: So she made me feel so like insecure about them.
Speaker 1: But now I'm like, whatever, I don't necessarily have to
Speaker 1: wear open to shoes all the time. That's what I
Speaker 1: tell my stylist. I'm like, don't buy me or get
Speaker 1: me open to shoes, because you know they came for
Speaker 1: me to on social media once when I did, and
Speaker 1: I just now, I'm just like, I just want to
Speaker 1: avoid that. And not only that, like I like closed
Speaker 1: toe shoes anyways, but I do try my best to
Speaker 1: not talk so much crap to myself in the mirror.
Speaker 1: I'm just like, you know what, like I have to
Speaker 1: be grateful for what I have. I have to be thankful,
Speaker 1: like I've come a long way. Like if I have
Speaker 1: a little bit of loose skin on my stomach, okay, whatever,
Speaker 1: because before I didn't have that much loose skin on
Speaker 1: my stomach. Now that I've lost to weight, like you
Speaker 1: could tell a little bit like in my tummy that
Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, do I need like a tummy tuck,
Speaker 1: you know. And I brought it up to a media
Speaker 1: and he's like, you're crazy. You know you're not gonna
Speaker 1: do that. But even today, like I posted a video
Speaker 1: of my post workout, you know, that I was sweating
Speaker 1: or whatever, and I was like, ah, whatever, I have
Speaker 1: loose skin. And I even told I was like I
Speaker 1: put it there. I'm like, don't talk shit, you know. Whatever,
Speaker 1: it is what it is. And I'm learning to just
Speaker 1: love my body in a different in a different way.
Speaker 1: And I will say I've gotten a lot more attention
Speaker 1: from God.
Speaker 2: Then go bay.
Speaker 1: I've always had like you know, guys after me or whatever,
Speaker 1: but now guys have come out of like the woodworks
Speaker 1: and I'm just like trying to slide in the dms
Speaker 1: or whatever, and like I don't open them. I just
Speaker 1: see like the beginning, to be honest, like I'm not
Speaker 1: trying to get myself into any type of situation or
Speaker 1: what an entanglement or anything like that, so I kind
Speaker 1: of just ignore it. But like now it's like, oh,
Speaker 1: you know, I've gotten comments like from even reporters. Okay,
Speaker 1: you guys, well, now I WoT I see stas want
Speaker 1: to eat that. Now you're pretty straight up and now
Speaker 1: it's like, oh they see me like wow, it is big. Yeah,
Speaker 1: Like what was I not pretty before? Like without no shame,
Speaker 1: Like they straight up just say it, Oh my god,
Speaker 1: now you're beautiful. Mm hmm.
Speaker 2: Now that you've lost weight, now we accept you. They
Speaker 2: don't have to say it.
Speaker 1: It's kind of like in their face and the way
Speaker 1: they say it and their tone of voice.
Speaker 2: Then I'm like what And I'm like, huh.
Speaker 1: If you didn't love me before, I'm not going to
Speaker 1: let you into my life. Now you want to love
Speaker 1: me now you want to be a part of my
Speaker 1: Now you could be my friend. Now you could support
Speaker 1: me because I've lost weight. No, thank you, Michelkonnach and
Speaker 1: think us to work on me when I was at
Speaker 1: my worst. I will stay with the people that were
Speaker 1: with me when I was at my worst. And that's
Speaker 1: one thing that I love about Emilia because I met
Speaker 1: him at the biggest I had ever been. I didn't
Speaker 1: even realize how much I had weighed. You, guys, I'll
Speaker 1: be honest with you when I weighed myself and I
Speaker 1: had stayed away from the freaking scale for years. For years,
Speaker 1: I had this bad relationship with the scale, And now
Speaker 1: it's become my friend. We're homies now. Now it's like, okay,
Speaker 1: I got to weigh myself once a week so I
Speaker 1: can stay accountable. But when I finally got on that
Speaker 1: freaking scale after years and I realized that I was
Speaker 1: two hundred and six pounds, two hundred and six pounds,
Speaker 1: I'm five to two, I was like, no wonder, no wonder.
Speaker 1: My feet hurt, no wonder, my knees hurt, no wonder,
Speaker 1: no wonder. People or I didn't see myself at two
Speaker 1: hundred and six pounds.
Speaker 2: I thought, okay, maybe I'm pushing one.
Speaker 1: Nighty, No bitch. I was two o six and Emilia
Speaker 1: loved me and he thought it was the sexiest thing
Speaker 1: on earth. So now I'm like, uh huh, boys are
Speaker 1: going to try to come out of the woodworks and
Speaker 1: try to like swoop me up. I'm like, uh uh,
Speaker 1: you did not like me when I was two hundred
Speaker 1: and six pounds. Wuld you now that I'm one hundred
Speaker 1: and forty five pounds, guys, Yes, I'm so happy and
Speaker 1: proud to say that now you want to come into
Speaker 1: my life? Uh huh. And right now I'm fine. I'm
Speaker 1: comfortable at one hundred and forty five pounds. I've never
Speaker 1: shared my weight you guys. Ever, I always light on
Speaker 1: my dad. I d it still says one hundred and
Speaker 1: fifty pounds, and I don't. I was not one hundred
Speaker 1: and fifty pounds for sure. So now I'm sharing. I'm
Speaker 1: comfortable now. I've always weighed more than I look. My
Speaker 1: doctors would always say, like, oh my god, you always
Speaker 1: you weigh more, like I'm hefty, Like I'm freaking thick,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, I'm thick bone how they
Speaker 1: call it. I think I just want to lose, like
Speaker 1: I want to be one forty just for ships and
Speaker 1: giggles like. And now I'm like, okay, my birthday's coming up.
Speaker 1: I'm going to grease. I want to be one forty
Speaker 1: just to challenge myself. So That's where I'm at right now.
Speaker 1: But I can tell you I'm definitely happy with my weight.
Speaker 1: You know, Johnny lives with me, and my brother lives
Speaker 1: with me, so he's saying that. In twenty eighteen, it
Speaker 1: was so bad that I didn't want to get on
Speaker 1: the scale ever at the doctor's office. You guys, I'm
Speaker 1: not joking. I would say, I'm going to turn around,
Speaker 1: you write down the number. I don't want to see it.
Speaker 1: I don't want you to repeat it. And it so
Speaker 1: happened to be that Johnny went with me. He's saying,
Speaker 1: in October of twenty eighteen, this guy, his freaking memory
Speaker 1: is crazy. He went to the doctor's office with me,
Speaker 1: and they, you know, the doctor says the number out loud,
Speaker 1: and I look at Johnny and I'm like, if you
Speaker 1: ever fing say anything and repeat that, I'm I'm going
Speaker 1: to ask you to move out osat Like I don't
Speaker 1: remember saying that, but I know he's not lying because
Speaker 1: it sounds like something I would say.
Speaker 2: But it was bad, you guys.
Speaker 1: And now I've learned to just love the scale and say, okay,
Speaker 1: I have to hold myself accountable, like I have to
Speaker 1: get on it so that I'm like, Okay, if I
Speaker 1: gain two pounds, it okay. Then this week I need
Speaker 1: to eat a little bit better, you know what I mean,
Speaker 1: or drink more water, or just make small changes. So
Speaker 1: now I've learned to love the scale. Now that I've
Speaker 1: lost weight. I can tell you guys that I have
Speaker 1: gotten more work up oportunities. It's crazy, brands are seeing
Speaker 1: me in a different way, in a different light. That's
Speaker 1: insane to think about. And I haven't said that out loud,
Speaker 1: but it makes me sad because it's just we live
Speaker 1: in such an artificial, superficial world that it's just the
Speaker 1: thinner you are, the more perfect you are, the more
Speaker 1: accepted you are, you know. And I have gotten more
Speaker 1: opportunities and more people reaching out like big brands, like big, big,
Speaker 1: big brands, And I'm grateful. I'm definitely grateful, absolutely, But
Speaker 1: in my heart, I'm just like damn, and I still
Speaker 1: feel like I represent thick, curvy women. But imagine, like
Speaker 1: there are so many women like me, like us that
Speaker 1: are more of a normal I guess size, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. Like it's like it's there are so
Speaker 1: many more of us, and I want to always represent that.
Speaker 1: So anyways, I mean, I'm grateful, no make oh, I'm
Speaker 1: not complaining. But I have seen the difference. I have
Speaker 1: noticed a difference. I feel the difference with people in
Speaker 1: the industry, with other artists, other men. They look at
Speaker 1: you in a different way, they smile you in a
Speaker 1: different way, they say hello to you in a different way.
Speaker 1: More designers want to work with me, and I'm grateful.
Speaker 1: But I see all those things because I also remember
Speaker 1: the pain I felt when they would look at me
Speaker 1: with like a face of disgust. Because I've always been
Speaker 1: the girl, you know, to push the limit, to try
Speaker 1: something different, to wear that dress that maybe a girl
Speaker 1: my side shouldn't wear. I've always been that girl, like
Speaker 1: I'm gonna wear whatever the hell I want to wear,
Speaker 1: you know. So sometimes on red carpets, it was always
Speaker 1: a conversation like, oh my god, you know, I don't
Speaker 1: know if she should be wearing that because you know,
Speaker 1: she should be smaller, she shouldn't wear that color because
Speaker 1: it makes her look bigger.
Speaker 2: So it's just it's insane. It's it's insane.
Speaker 1: So it is crazy to think about and to notice
Speaker 1: and to live because I'm living it. But what's even crazier,
Speaker 1: it's that I've always been the same person in my heart.
Speaker 1: I've always had the same talents. I mean, i feel
Speaker 1: like my singing has gotten better throughout the years, but
Speaker 1: I've always had I feel like something special to show
Speaker 1: and to share with the world that I just feel like,
Speaker 1: are you guys not seeing me, for me, for Jane,
Speaker 1: for the woman, or is it just all about my
Speaker 1: freaking weight. It makes me sad for all the children,
Speaker 1: all the adolescents, the generations to come. I think women
Speaker 1: are beautiful in all shapes and sizes. Men are too, though,
Speaker 1: Like it's still like insane sometimes, like to think of
Speaker 1: like the world we live in, like you even the
Speaker 1: color of your skin, you know what I mean. Like
Speaker 1: I grew up and I won't say who in my family,
Speaker 1: but they would think that. And this is the honest
Speaker 1: truth that my mom's kids, us, my siblings and I
Speaker 1: that we were better looking because we were lighter and
Speaker 1: some of my cousins were a little bit darker. You
Speaker 1: could see it, you could feel the difference. And one
Speaker 1: of my cousins once told me, and I didn't realize
Speaker 1: that they had realized it, that they noticed, but they're like,
Speaker 1: you know, this person always treated you differently, and I
Speaker 1: can't help but to think that it's because I'm darker
Speaker 1: than you guys. Like it's crazy, and I just feel
Speaker 1: like it makes me sad. And that's why I want
Speaker 1: to talk about these things. On my podcast, Thank God
Speaker 1: for my podcast, where I can share these things with
Speaker 1: you guys, so that it can maybe like open up
Speaker 1: something in your heart and in your mind to say, like,
Speaker 1: we have to change, we have to be different. We
Speaker 1: have to love and accept people for who they are,
Speaker 1: not what they look like, what they have to give
Speaker 1: to us, not what we could take. It's just changing
Speaker 1: the mindset and having more of these open conversations you guys,
Speaker 1: because yes, I do agree there's always room for improvement. Yes,
Speaker 1: we want to be healthier. We should be healthier, especially
Speaker 1: as we get older. I'm always going to be that person.
Speaker 1: I love supplements, I love taking greens, I love taking
Speaker 1: college like I've always been about that and I'm always
Speaker 1: going to share, you know. But I also want people
Speaker 1: to love themselves for who they are. And if you're
Speaker 1: going to make a change, and if you want to
Speaker 1: lose weight, for it to be because you want to,
Speaker 1: not because you feel forced, because you feel the pressure
Speaker 1: of the world. Because that's never going to last forever,
Speaker 1: that's not going to be long term. You have to
Speaker 1: do it for yourself. And I think that's what I did.
Speaker 1: I didn't care about anyone else. I just realized, Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm two hundred and six pounds. I'm not healthy. That's
Speaker 1: not healthy. That can't be healthy. That's a lot of
Speaker 1: weight on my heart, on my knees. I'm getting older.
Speaker 1: I have to be better. I want to be better,
Speaker 1: and I did it for me, and yeah, other people
Speaker 1: are happy about it and great, But at the end
Speaker 1: of the day, what really matters is if I'm happy,
Speaker 1: if I accept myself. And thank God, I've always accepted myself,
Speaker 1: even when I was a size twelve, when I was
Speaker 1: two hundred and six pounds, and now that I'm one
Speaker 1: hundred and forty five pounds. I love myself. And if
Speaker 1: I gain weight because I get pregnant, then I'm still
Speaker 1: gonna love myself. And I don't gotta worry worry about
Speaker 1: it because my man loves me anyways, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean. That's what I always say. I'm like, if, okay,
Speaker 1: if I gave fifty pounds, you're gonna be okay with it.
Speaker 1: He's like, well, yeah, And those are little conversations we have.
Speaker 1: I joke with him all the time, but it's really
Speaker 1: about accepting yourself and making the change for yourself, not
Speaker 1: anyone else. And especially not for the society that we
Speaker 1: live in that it's like everyone has to be perfect.
Speaker 1: Let me tell you, the people that you see all
Speaker 1: the magazines, even the people that see on TV, It's okay.
Speaker 2: They've gotten work done.
Speaker 1: It's okay, honestly, Like what it takes is a lot
Speaker 1: of money to do the fillers and to do this
Speaker 1: and to do that. I'm not against any of it.
Speaker 1: You guys know, I love both tox I love filler,
Speaker 1: I love cosmetic surgery. If you can afford it, do
Speaker 1: your thing, but do it for yourself. Don't do it
Speaker 1: because you want to look like so and so because
Speaker 1: you feel that you're going to be more socially accepted.
Speaker 1: Fuck that, you guys. Fuck that. That only lasts so long.
Speaker 1: So love yourself. That's the best advice that I can
Speaker 1: give you, guys. And I just wanted to come on
Speaker 1: here and just be open about this subject because I
Speaker 1: know it's been a conversation everywhere about my weight loss
Speaker 1: and how I lost weight, and people have so many
Speaker 1: different opinions, and you know whatever, I'm happy and I
Speaker 1: hope that my story, my journey, my honesty can help
Speaker 1: you guys become a better you. That's all I want,
Speaker 1: all right, guys, asma, I love you. I hope you
Speaker 1: guys all have a wonderful week, kick ass, and I'll
Speaker 1: see you here on the next episode of Cheeky's and Chow.
Speaker 2: I love you, guys.
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