1 00:00:06,960 --> 00:00:10,200 Speaker 1: Hello, Hello, and welcome back to Part two of my 2 00:00:10,320 --> 00:00:12,960 Speaker 1: story on weight loss and how it's affected me over 3 00:00:13,000 --> 00:00:15,320 Speaker 1: the years. If you haven't heard part one, go check 4 00:00:15,360 --> 00:00:17,440 Speaker 1: it out. I talked about some of the lessons I 5 00:00:17,480 --> 00:00:19,119 Speaker 1: was taught as a kid and how it shaped me 6 00:00:19,239 --> 00:00:21,880 Speaker 1: as an adult, and today I want to expand on 7 00:00:21,960 --> 00:00:24,239 Speaker 1: that and talk about what it's been like for me 8 00:00:24,600 --> 00:00:27,479 Speaker 1: over the last few years. There's been a lot of 9 00:00:27,520 --> 00:00:30,200 Speaker 1: trial and error figuring out what works for me and 10 00:00:30,280 --> 00:00:33,640 Speaker 1: my body because everyone is so different. I tried everything 11 00:00:33,680 --> 00:00:37,760 Speaker 1: from keto to working out, to fasting, intermitute fasting. I've 12 00:00:37,760 --> 00:00:41,280 Speaker 1: tried it all under the sun. I have tried diet pills, 13 00:00:42,320 --> 00:00:44,600 Speaker 1: Like I said in Part one, I've tried fenermine. I've 14 00:00:44,640 --> 00:00:47,879 Speaker 1: tried just so many things. And I can tell you 15 00:00:47,960 --> 00:00:49,919 Speaker 1: now that I'm in a place where I'm pretty comfortable 16 00:00:49,960 --> 00:00:52,000 Speaker 1: with the way I look. But even though I've slimmed down, 17 00:00:52,040 --> 00:00:54,520 Speaker 1: there are some things I continue to struggle with, which 18 00:00:54,560 --> 00:00:56,080 Speaker 1: is what I'm going to talk about in a bit 19 00:00:57,040 --> 00:00:59,880 Speaker 1: right now. I have lost and I haven't said this 20 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:02,240 Speaker 1: I think, well, at least not on the pod, but 21 00:01:02,360 --> 00:01:05,080 Speaker 1: I have lost about sixty five pounds. You guys, in 22 00:01:05,120 --> 00:01:10,920 Speaker 1: the past year, I went from what a size twelve 23 00:01:11,920 --> 00:01:16,160 Speaker 1: to a size six And I said this in part one. 24 00:01:16,600 --> 00:01:18,280 Speaker 2: The last time I was a size six, you guys, 25 00:01:18,319 --> 00:01:18,679 Speaker 2: I was. 26 00:01:18,760 --> 00:01:23,200 Speaker 1: Six years old. Okay, so I don't know. Something just 27 00:01:23,280 --> 00:01:28,000 Speaker 1: clicked in my mind. I went from thinking I want 28 00:01:28,040 --> 00:01:31,400 Speaker 1: to look good to I want to be healthy. And 29 00:01:31,600 --> 00:01:33,640 Speaker 1: I say this in my Keto book, in the Cheek 30 00:01:33,720 --> 00:01:36,120 Speaker 1: is Keto book, because Keto worked for me and I 31 00:01:36,160 --> 00:01:39,280 Speaker 1: loved it. I did lose weight, but then I would 32 00:01:39,360 --> 00:01:42,040 Speaker 1: hit a plateau and I think I was just having 33 00:01:42,120 --> 00:01:45,319 Speaker 1: way too much cheese and stuff like that. And again, 34 00:01:45,880 --> 00:01:50,760 Speaker 1: every body is different, literally, everybody is different. So it 35 00:01:50,840 --> 00:01:53,720 Speaker 1: was like everything else, it'll work in the beginning, but 36 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:55,640 Speaker 1: your body starts getting used to it, you know what 37 00:01:55,680 --> 00:01:58,160 Speaker 1: I mean, So you have to continuously shock your body. 38 00:01:58,160 --> 00:02:01,920 Speaker 1: And then I realized that it's control. It's not only 39 00:02:02,000 --> 00:02:05,000 Speaker 1: about eating the right things and eating the healthy things. 40 00:02:05,040 --> 00:02:08,639 Speaker 1: It's about eating smaller portions more frequently. And I had 41 00:02:08,680 --> 00:02:10,360 Speaker 1: heard that before and over and over and over, but 42 00:02:10,440 --> 00:02:13,080 Speaker 1: not until I was like it really just It wasn't 43 00:02:13,160 --> 00:02:15,480 Speaker 1: until it just clicked, until I was just like, wait, 44 00:02:15,520 --> 00:02:18,720 Speaker 1: that makes so much sense that my body started changing. 45 00:02:18,760 --> 00:02:21,880 Speaker 1: I've always worked out and that's another thing. I would 46 00:02:21,919 --> 00:02:24,600 Speaker 1: work out, I think too much and too hard, so 47 00:02:24,600 --> 00:02:26,919 Speaker 1: it would backfire on me. And you guys go read 48 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:29,480 Speaker 1: on this. Don't take my word for it, but there 49 00:02:29,480 --> 00:02:32,720 Speaker 1: are studies that if you work out more than forty 50 00:02:32,720 --> 00:02:34,960 Speaker 1: five minutes, like again, you have to Like so many 51 00:02:35,000 --> 00:02:36,720 Speaker 1: people are like, O, I'm gonna ran really really fast 52 00:02:36,800 --> 00:02:38,560 Speaker 1: and I'm gonna sprint, and that's what's gonna make me 53 00:02:38,639 --> 00:02:41,120 Speaker 1: lose weight. That helps you, yes, lose weight. It helps 54 00:02:41,160 --> 00:02:43,919 Speaker 1: you burn more carbohydrates. But if you're trying to burn fat, 55 00:02:44,440 --> 00:02:47,000 Speaker 1: you need to do intervals. You need to do like 56 00:02:47,320 --> 00:02:50,200 Speaker 1: walking on an incline, like and sometimes even just twenty 57 00:02:50,240 --> 00:02:53,639 Speaker 1: minutes thirty minutes I was doing like sometimes two hours 58 00:02:53,680 --> 00:02:55,600 Speaker 1: of training, and I feel like it was kind of 59 00:02:55,680 --> 00:02:59,200 Speaker 1: backfiring on me. And it all depends on your body again, 60 00:02:59,280 --> 00:03:01,400 Speaker 1: so you have to figure out like your blood type, 61 00:03:01,400 --> 00:03:03,200 Speaker 1: and it's like a whole thing. And I don't want 62 00:03:03,200 --> 00:03:07,840 Speaker 1: to get into that. But I do feel better, absolutely absolutely. 63 00:03:07,880 --> 00:03:11,440 Speaker 1: I feel better mentally physically, I have more energy. I 64 00:03:11,520 --> 00:03:13,799 Speaker 1: do feel like I'm getting sick a little bit more 65 00:03:13,800 --> 00:03:17,560 Speaker 1: frequently than before, and I'm one to take my medicine 66 00:03:17,639 --> 00:03:20,840 Speaker 1: all the time. But I think because I lost so 67 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:25,040 Speaker 1: much weight that I don't know, maybe my immune system, 68 00:03:25,080 --> 00:03:26,800 Speaker 1: my body's still trying to figure things out. But I 69 00:03:26,840 --> 00:03:29,400 Speaker 1: do feel so much better, like emotionally, like I look 70 00:03:29,440 --> 00:03:32,400 Speaker 1: in the mirror and it's nice to go to the store, 71 00:03:32,400 --> 00:03:36,160 Speaker 1: you guys, and everything fits or I have my fittings 72 00:03:36,160 --> 00:03:38,080 Speaker 1: and I don't have to worry about this hanging out 73 00:03:38,120 --> 00:03:41,240 Speaker 1: and that. And it's like again, like I've always loved myself. 74 00:03:41,240 --> 00:03:44,640 Speaker 1: I've always been pretty confident, but I didn't really see 75 00:03:44,640 --> 00:03:47,200 Speaker 1: myself as big as I was, to be honest. Now 76 00:03:47,200 --> 00:03:50,680 Speaker 1: I see videos and I see like they do comparisons 77 00:03:50,720 --> 00:03:52,720 Speaker 1: on TikTok, and I'm just like, oh shit. Like I 78 00:03:52,760 --> 00:03:55,000 Speaker 1: see pictures and Emilio and I will be going through 79 00:03:55,040 --> 00:03:57,600 Speaker 1: like you know, vacation pictures and I'm like damn. I'm like, 80 00:03:57,640 --> 00:03:59,160 Speaker 1: did you see me like them? Like why didn't you 81 00:03:59,200 --> 00:04:01,520 Speaker 1: tell me? And he's like, it's like You've always been 82 00:04:01,520 --> 00:04:03,760 Speaker 1: so beautiful, Like I honestly didn't see that, Like now 83 00:04:03,800 --> 00:04:07,280 Speaker 1: I see it's a drastic change. And even me, I'm like, damn, 84 00:04:07,480 --> 00:04:09,840 Speaker 1: my neck was so thick. I didn't have this neck 85 00:04:10,240 --> 00:04:11,800 Speaker 1: like right now, like I have the neck that I 86 00:04:11,840 --> 00:04:14,640 Speaker 1: had when I was freaking, I don't know, twenty four, Like, 87 00:04:14,880 --> 00:04:17,240 Speaker 1: I feel like my neck has come back. It's longer, 88 00:04:17,880 --> 00:04:20,320 Speaker 1: you know, And I didn't really realize, to be honest, 89 00:04:20,360 --> 00:04:22,159 Speaker 1: but now I look in the mirror and it's nice. 90 00:04:22,279 --> 00:04:24,920 Speaker 1: It's nice to be like sometimes I'm even a slice small, 91 00:04:25,160 --> 00:04:28,120 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I'm happy. I'm very, 92 00:04:28,200 --> 00:04:30,919 Speaker 1: very happy. And I did it more for health, To 93 00:04:31,000 --> 00:04:34,239 Speaker 1: be honest, I wanted to just finally just be different 94 00:04:34,600 --> 00:04:37,960 Speaker 1: in my mindset and think about I want to be healthy, 95 00:04:38,160 --> 00:04:40,680 Speaker 1: I want to live longer. I want to take care 96 00:04:40,720 --> 00:04:43,240 Speaker 1: of this temple that God has let me borrow this body. 97 00:04:44,240 --> 00:04:46,120 Speaker 1: I want to feed it good things. And I'm not 98 00:04:46,240 --> 00:04:48,960 Speaker 1: saying that I don't have fun, because I still like 99 00:04:49,040 --> 00:04:51,479 Speaker 1: to have pizza, and I like sweets, and I like 100 00:04:51,560 --> 00:04:53,640 Speaker 1: chocolates and bread, like I still have all that stuff, 101 00:04:53,680 --> 00:04:55,040 Speaker 1: but I have a lot. 102 00:04:55,000 --> 00:04:55,960 Speaker 2: Less of it. 103 00:04:55,960 --> 00:04:58,799 Speaker 1: It was just really like portion control and really getting 104 00:04:58,800 --> 00:05:04,159 Speaker 1: my hormones in line and my thyroid issue that comes 105 00:05:04,160 --> 00:05:07,599 Speaker 1: from you know, for my family, it's hereditary and it's 106 00:05:07,600 --> 00:05:10,080 Speaker 1: something that now I'm controlling. And I wish I could 107 00:05:10,080 --> 00:05:13,000 Speaker 1: stop taking that medicine every single day because I feel 108 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:15,480 Speaker 1: like our bodies heal ourselves, so I want to find 109 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:18,560 Speaker 1: a more holistic way. But it's helped me, honestly, like 110 00:05:19,000 --> 00:05:22,479 Speaker 1: having your hormones in line and balanced help you so much. 111 00:05:22,560 --> 00:05:25,320 Speaker 1: So that's one thing I'm so grateful for. And one 112 00:05:25,320 --> 00:05:28,480 Speaker 1: thing I haven't really said is that another thing that's 113 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:31,440 Speaker 1: helped me lose weight is ozembic. I'm sure you guys 114 00:05:31,480 --> 00:05:33,200 Speaker 1: have heard about it. I made all these changes with 115 00:05:33,240 --> 00:05:35,200 Speaker 1: my hormones, with my thyroid, all that stuff, and then 116 00:05:35,240 --> 00:05:37,240 Speaker 1: I started getting that injection. When I was like, okay, 117 00:05:37,240 --> 00:05:38,360 Speaker 1: I hit a plateau and I was like, I still 118 00:05:38,360 --> 00:05:40,520 Speaker 1: want to lose more weight. So I did go that route. 119 00:05:40,880 --> 00:05:43,520 Speaker 1: I'm not telling you guys to do it. It did help 120 00:05:43,560 --> 00:05:46,960 Speaker 1: me lose weight, and I only did it for three months. 121 00:05:48,080 --> 00:05:52,880 Speaker 1: I also got way, like, I don't know, four years ago, 122 00:05:53,920 --> 00:05:56,000 Speaker 1: I got that balloon that they put in your stomach, 123 00:05:56,160 --> 00:05:58,960 Speaker 1: a big ass pill that you swallow, and that helped 124 00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 1: me lose weight as well. But again they remove that balloon. 125 00:06:02,120 --> 00:06:04,200 Speaker 1: It was too uncomfortable for me. So I did lose 126 00:06:04,240 --> 00:06:05,880 Speaker 1: weight and that I think that was the first thing 127 00:06:05,920 --> 00:06:08,400 Speaker 1: that really started everything. And I was like, okay, well, 128 00:06:08,440 --> 00:06:10,039 Speaker 1: if they're putting this balloon in my stomach. That means 129 00:06:10,040 --> 00:06:12,200 Speaker 1: I just have to eat less to shrink my stomach, 130 00:06:12,320 --> 00:06:14,240 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I'm like, duh, it's common sense, 131 00:06:14,279 --> 00:06:16,720 Speaker 1: you know. But it really just kind of opened up 132 00:06:16,800 --> 00:06:19,520 Speaker 1: and sparked that in my mind. So I did lose weight, 133 00:06:19,760 --> 00:06:22,880 Speaker 1: but I removed that. And then once you remove it, 134 00:06:22,960 --> 00:06:25,719 Speaker 1: then your stomach goes back to its normal size, you know, 135 00:06:25,760 --> 00:06:27,640 Speaker 1: and you start putting more food in it. So again 136 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:30,159 Speaker 1: it's all portion control. So anyways, going back to ozempic 137 00:06:30,200 --> 00:06:32,440 Speaker 1: so azempic is, I'm sure you've heard about it. It's 138 00:06:32,480 --> 00:06:35,920 Speaker 1: like the Hollywood injection. It's like a medication that people 139 00:06:35,920 --> 00:06:40,000 Speaker 1: that have diabetes take to control their sugar levels. But 140 00:06:40,040 --> 00:06:42,039 Speaker 1: then they found out that you can use it for 141 00:06:42,080 --> 00:06:43,880 Speaker 1: weight loss. So a lot of people have been using it. 142 00:06:43,960 --> 00:06:47,720 Speaker 1: And I did it, and it helped me. I stopped it, 143 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:50,400 Speaker 1: and now it's just I need to just I want 144 00:06:50,400 --> 00:06:52,520 Speaker 1: to have control of my body. I don't want to 145 00:06:52,560 --> 00:06:55,240 Speaker 1: have a stimulant or something that I have to take 146 00:06:55,279 --> 00:06:59,200 Speaker 1: all the time. I have to have self control and 147 00:06:59,560 --> 00:07:03,039 Speaker 1: eat better, make better choices, and eat less of everything. 148 00:07:03,240 --> 00:07:05,560 Speaker 1: And now I don't eat I don't drink soda, I 149 00:07:05,680 --> 00:07:07,520 Speaker 1: rarely drink beer. I think I've had, like in the 150 00:07:07,560 --> 00:07:10,440 Speaker 1: past year, one beer, and that was at snow the Products. 151 00:07:11,240 --> 00:07:13,520 Speaker 1: That's my first beer I think in like a year, 152 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:16,040 Speaker 1: you guys, I had it there on her podcast. All 153 00:07:16,080 --> 00:07:19,360 Speaker 1: that stuff, all that yeast, all like the sodas, any 154 00:07:19,400 --> 00:07:22,560 Speaker 1: type of anything that's carbonated. It expands your stomach. So 155 00:07:22,640 --> 00:07:24,160 Speaker 1: I started just reading on a bunch of that stuff. 156 00:07:24,160 --> 00:07:24,559 Speaker 2: So I stopped. 157 00:07:24,600 --> 00:07:26,440 Speaker 1: I took that out of my diet or should I 158 00:07:26,480 --> 00:07:28,200 Speaker 1: say my lifestyle, because I don't like to call it 159 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:31,040 Speaker 1: a diet. It's a lifestyle. And right now I'm not 160 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:33,920 Speaker 1: necessarily super fixated on what I eat, and I don't 161 00:07:33,960 --> 00:07:36,360 Speaker 1: eat because I don't like to deprive myself, and I 162 00:07:36,480 --> 00:07:38,800 Speaker 1: like to just give myself that Lee way of saying, Okay, 163 00:07:38,840 --> 00:07:40,760 Speaker 1: I'm gonna have a little bit of this, but instead 164 00:07:40,760 --> 00:07:45,000 Speaker 1: of having the entire pizza slice, I'll have half of it. 165 00:07:45,040 --> 00:07:47,400 Speaker 1: I'll take a few bites just to get myself, like 166 00:07:47,680 --> 00:07:50,680 Speaker 1: to satisfy that craving, but I won't have the whole thing. 167 00:07:50,720 --> 00:07:52,240 Speaker 1: Before I used to eat three slices, you know what 168 00:07:52,280 --> 00:07:55,320 Speaker 1: I mean. So I don't let it get to me 169 00:07:55,480 --> 00:07:58,400 Speaker 1: too much. But I now that I'm just getting older, 170 00:07:58,400 --> 00:08:00,480 Speaker 1: I just want to be healthier. That's what it's like. 171 00:08:00,520 --> 00:08:03,840 Speaker 1: I just want to feel good. I just want, yes 172 00:08:03,920 --> 00:08:05,800 Speaker 1: to look good, but I want to feel good. I 173 00:08:05,840 --> 00:08:09,120 Speaker 1: want to feed myself good things, you know. And working 174 00:08:09,160 --> 00:08:12,040 Speaker 1: out just has been a part of my life since 175 00:08:12,200 --> 00:08:14,160 Speaker 1: oh since I can remember. I mean, my mom would 176 00:08:14,200 --> 00:08:16,640 Speaker 1: make me work out when I was freaking twelve years old, 177 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:17,840 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So it's like it's been 178 00:08:17,840 --> 00:08:21,560 Speaker 1: a part of my life forever, and now as an adult, 179 00:08:21,560 --> 00:08:23,840 Speaker 1: it just helps with my stress. I love boxing, I 180 00:08:23,880 --> 00:08:26,920 Speaker 1: love the bike, I love treadmill, I love hiking. I 181 00:08:27,120 --> 00:08:31,120 Speaker 1: just like to be active because it helps release toxins 182 00:08:31,160 --> 00:08:33,559 Speaker 1: and they say at least sweat at least twenty minutes 183 00:08:33,559 --> 00:08:35,760 Speaker 1: a day. It helps with your mental clarity, it gives 184 00:08:35,760 --> 00:08:38,719 Speaker 1: you more energy, the endorphins, you know, like all that 185 00:08:39,559 --> 00:08:43,880 Speaker 1: helps you on a mental level, and it's just a 186 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:45,559 Speaker 1: part of my life. For me, it's like I have 187 00:08:45,679 --> 00:08:47,560 Speaker 1: to at least work out, and that's one thing that 188 00:08:47,600 --> 00:08:49,640 Speaker 1: I'm a little bit more. When I got sick this 189 00:08:49,720 --> 00:08:52,040 Speaker 1: last time, it was so tough because it just really 190 00:08:52,320 --> 00:08:54,400 Speaker 1: threw me off track. But I wasn't able to work 191 00:08:54,400 --> 00:08:56,920 Speaker 1: out obviously, so getting back into it was a little tough, 192 00:08:56,960 --> 00:08:58,920 Speaker 1: but I'm like, I push myself. That's one thing that 193 00:08:58,960 --> 00:09:01,439 Speaker 1: I'm like, working out is part of my job. That's 194 00:09:01,480 --> 00:09:04,560 Speaker 1: one thing I can't stop doing because it really does 195 00:09:04,600 --> 00:09:07,720 Speaker 1: help me with my sanity. So I try to do 196 00:09:07,760 --> 00:09:10,280 Speaker 1: it at least no less than three times a week. 197 00:09:10,320 --> 00:09:12,080 Speaker 1: If I can do five, that's like my goal. I 198 00:09:12,160 --> 00:09:14,040 Speaker 1: like to have two rest days in the week. So 199 00:09:14,080 --> 00:09:16,080 Speaker 1: that's one thing that it's like, I need a sweat, 200 00:09:16,120 --> 00:09:18,280 Speaker 1: and the more I sweat, the sexier I feel. It's 201 00:09:18,280 --> 00:09:27,120 Speaker 1: crazy now, Like when I look in the mirror, I 202 00:09:27,120 --> 00:09:29,240 Speaker 1: can tell you, like I'm very happy with what I see. 203 00:09:29,280 --> 00:09:31,199 Speaker 1: I see, like I have less cellulite, Like I'm always 204 00:09:31,240 --> 00:09:33,280 Speaker 1: gonna have sella light like that's just I've learned to 205 00:09:33,360 --> 00:09:35,360 Speaker 1: just come to terms with it and accept that because 206 00:09:35,679 --> 00:09:38,640 Speaker 1: again that's something that's more hereditary. I have creams like 207 00:09:38,679 --> 00:09:41,160 Speaker 1: even a like on my skincare line, I have an 208 00:09:41,160 --> 00:09:44,800 Speaker 1: antisellulite cream. So but I'm happier now to see less 209 00:09:44,840 --> 00:09:46,400 Speaker 1: of it, you know what I mean. So I like 210 00:09:46,520 --> 00:09:48,200 Speaker 1: using things like that. I've always used them. It's something 211 00:09:48,240 --> 00:09:50,360 Speaker 1: that I've struggled with it since I was freaking I 212 00:09:50,400 --> 00:09:53,080 Speaker 1: don't know, thirteen years old. It's something that's just a 213 00:09:53,120 --> 00:09:56,000 Speaker 1: part of my body. But I look in the mirror 214 00:09:56,080 --> 00:10:02,200 Speaker 1: and I'm happy. Sometimes though my stylist will tell me 215 00:10:02,280 --> 00:10:06,240 Speaker 1: Cheeky's I don't think you realize how much you've lost, 216 00:10:06,480 --> 00:10:09,120 Speaker 1: because I'll still go for the size like eight, and 217 00:10:09,160 --> 00:10:10,840 Speaker 1: he's like, wait, you're not an eight anymore, Like you 218 00:10:10,840 --> 00:10:13,840 Speaker 1: can wear six, you can wear this small. Like I 219 00:10:13,880 --> 00:10:16,319 Speaker 1: think it's been so many years that maybe I don't 220 00:10:16,360 --> 00:10:19,439 Speaker 1: see myself like other people see me or the way 221 00:10:19,480 --> 00:10:21,920 Speaker 1: I look. I don't know, but I do look in 222 00:10:21,960 --> 00:10:23,840 Speaker 1: the mirror and I'm like, Okay, now I can go 223 00:10:23,920 --> 00:10:25,920 Speaker 1: back to like I don't know, because for a while, 224 00:10:25,960 --> 00:10:29,000 Speaker 1: I was a little bit more shy to walk naked 225 00:10:29,040 --> 00:10:30,960 Speaker 1: around Emilio, you know what I mean. Like I was 226 00:10:31,040 --> 00:10:32,800 Speaker 1: just like a little bit more shy, and because he's 227 00:10:32,800 --> 00:10:35,160 Speaker 1: all he's thin, you know, and he's younger and whatever. 228 00:10:35,440 --> 00:10:38,040 Speaker 1: And now I'm like, Okay, I'm pouncing around with my 229 00:10:38,120 --> 00:10:40,800 Speaker 1: ass out and cute little shorts and I don't care, 230 00:10:40,960 --> 00:10:43,199 Speaker 1: like I'm I feel good and I feel like it's 231 00:10:43,240 --> 00:10:46,560 Speaker 1: happened at the right time because I at this age, 232 00:10:46,640 --> 00:10:49,560 Speaker 1: I am learning to value that and appreciate it on 233 00:10:49,600 --> 00:10:52,880 Speaker 1: a different level. And in a different way. So I'm 234 00:10:52,920 --> 00:10:56,520 Speaker 1: glad it happened now. And one thing that's crazy, because 235 00:10:57,040 --> 00:10:59,320 Speaker 1: I mean I think as women, we all have our 236 00:10:59,360 --> 00:11:02,000 Speaker 1: little insecure the little things that we worry about. And 237 00:11:02,200 --> 00:11:04,559 Speaker 1: for me, because I have gotten plastic surgery, you guys, 238 00:11:04,960 --> 00:11:09,600 Speaker 1: I've gotten liposuction, I've gotten breast augmentation, breast reduction, breast augmentation. Again, 239 00:11:09,720 --> 00:11:11,400 Speaker 1: I took out the implants and put it back in. 240 00:11:11,520 --> 00:11:14,480 Speaker 1: Like I have scars. You know, I have LiPo suction scars, 241 00:11:14,480 --> 00:11:17,960 Speaker 1: and I'm not one to heal very nicely, so I 242 00:11:18,080 --> 00:11:20,640 Speaker 1: keyloid and all this stuff. So I think, and it's 243 00:11:20,640 --> 00:11:22,560 Speaker 1: always been since I started, like since I got my 244 00:11:22,600 --> 00:11:25,240 Speaker 1: first like boob job, Like I have scars, you know 245 00:11:25,240 --> 00:11:26,920 Speaker 1: what i mean. Like and now I'm like whatever, I 246 00:11:26,920 --> 00:11:28,679 Speaker 1: just got to embrace them. But they are a little 247 00:11:28,679 --> 00:11:30,160 Speaker 1: bit like they make me feel a little insecure, like 248 00:11:30,160 --> 00:11:32,079 Speaker 1: when I'm in a bikini or something, you know what 249 00:11:32,120 --> 00:11:33,760 Speaker 1: I mean. Like I want to be able to wear 250 00:11:33,800 --> 00:11:37,000 Speaker 1: those like string ones you know, around the breast, but 251 00:11:37,200 --> 00:11:39,199 Speaker 1: I have to wear a little bit thicker so my 252 00:11:39,200 --> 00:11:42,080 Speaker 1: my scars are covered. So it's like little things like that, 253 00:11:42,240 --> 00:11:44,160 Speaker 1: you know. Now, I'm just like before I used to 254 00:11:44,160 --> 00:11:46,079 Speaker 1: be so insecure about my toes, you guys, because I 255 00:11:46,120 --> 00:11:48,040 Speaker 1: had a friend that would always tell me, she's like, 256 00:11:48,080 --> 00:11:50,800 Speaker 1: oh my god, girl, like you're so cute like your face, 257 00:11:50,920 --> 00:11:52,920 Speaker 1: your body, your booty, and then you go down to 258 00:11:52,960 --> 00:11:55,360 Speaker 1: your toes and it's like, damn, what happened to that? 259 00:11:56,240 --> 00:11:58,559 Speaker 1: So she made me feel so like insecure about them. 260 00:11:58,559 --> 00:12:01,559 Speaker 1: But now I'm like, whatever, I don't necessarily have to 261 00:12:01,600 --> 00:12:03,200 Speaker 1: wear open to shoes all the time. That's what I 262 00:12:03,200 --> 00:12:05,480 Speaker 1: tell my stylist. I'm like, don't buy me or get 263 00:12:05,520 --> 00:12:08,560 Speaker 1: me open to shoes, because you know they came for 264 00:12:08,640 --> 00:12:10,679 Speaker 1: me to on social media once when I did, and 265 00:12:10,760 --> 00:12:12,320 Speaker 1: I just now, I'm just like, I just want to 266 00:12:12,360 --> 00:12:14,600 Speaker 1: avoid that. And not only that, like I like closed 267 00:12:14,600 --> 00:12:17,600 Speaker 1: toe shoes anyways, but I do try my best to 268 00:12:17,720 --> 00:12:20,640 Speaker 1: not talk so much crap to myself in the mirror. 269 00:12:20,640 --> 00:12:22,000 Speaker 1: I'm just like, you know what, like I have to 270 00:12:22,000 --> 00:12:24,199 Speaker 1: be grateful for what I have. I have to be thankful, 271 00:12:24,280 --> 00:12:25,760 Speaker 1: like I've come a long way. Like if I have 272 00:12:25,840 --> 00:12:28,960 Speaker 1: a little bit of loose skin on my stomach, okay, whatever, 273 00:12:29,120 --> 00:12:31,480 Speaker 1: because before I didn't have that much loose skin on 274 00:12:31,520 --> 00:12:34,480 Speaker 1: my stomach. Now that I've lost to weight, like you 275 00:12:34,480 --> 00:12:36,240 Speaker 1: could tell a little bit like in my tummy that 276 00:12:36,280 --> 00:12:38,200 Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, do I need like a tummy tuck, 277 00:12:38,360 --> 00:12:39,640 Speaker 1: you know. And I brought it up to a media 278 00:12:39,679 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: and he's like, you're crazy. You know you're not gonna 279 00:12:41,200 --> 00:12:43,520 Speaker 1: do that. But even today, like I posted a video 280 00:12:43,520 --> 00:12:45,640 Speaker 1: of my post workout, you know, that I was sweating 281 00:12:45,720 --> 00:12:47,160 Speaker 1: or whatever, and I was like, ah, whatever, I have 282 00:12:47,240 --> 00:12:49,240 Speaker 1: loose skin. And I even told I was like I 283 00:12:49,280 --> 00:12:51,320 Speaker 1: put it there. I'm like, don't talk shit, you know. Whatever, 284 00:12:51,400 --> 00:12:53,480 Speaker 1: it is what it is. And I'm learning to just 285 00:12:53,559 --> 00:12:55,760 Speaker 1: love my body in a different in a different way. 286 00:12:56,160 --> 00:12:58,840 Speaker 1: And I will say I've gotten a lot more attention 287 00:12:59,280 --> 00:13:00,120 Speaker 1: from God. 288 00:13:01,880 --> 00:13:02,439 Speaker 2: Then go bay. 289 00:13:03,320 --> 00:13:06,040 Speaker 1: I've always had like you know, guys after me or whatever, 290 00:13:07,120 --> 00:13:09,160 Speaker 1: but now guys have come out of like the woodworks 291 00:13:09,200 --> 00:13:10,920 Speaker 1: and I'm just like trying to slide in the dms 292 00:13:11,000 --> 00:13:12,560 Speaker 1: or whatever, and like I don't open them. I just 293 00:13:12,559 --> 00:13:14,320 Speaker 1: see like the beginning, to be honest, like I'm not 294 00:13:14,360 --> 00:13:18,120 Speaker 1: trying to get myself into any type of situation or 295 00:13:18,440 --> 00:13:22,559 Speaker 1: what an entanglement or anything like that, so I kind 296 00:13:22,559 --> 00:13:24,640 Speaker 1: of just ignore it. But like now it's like, oh, 297 00:13:24,760 --> 00:13:28,440 Speaker 1: you know, I've gotten comments like from even reporters. Okay, 298 00:13:28,480 --> 00:13:31,160 Speaker 1: you guys, well, now I WoT I see stas want 299 00:13:31,160 --> 00:13:34,719 Speaker 1: to eat that. Now you're pretty straight up and now 300 00:13:34,760 --> 00:13:37,280 Speaker 1: it's like, oh they see me like wow, it is big. Yeah, 301 00:13:37,400 --> 00:13:41,079 Speaker 1: Like what was I not pretty before? Like without no shame, 302 00:13:41,200 --> 00:13:43,600 Speaker 1: Like they straight up just say it, Oh my god, 303 00:13:43,679 --> 00:13:45,040 Speaker 1: now you're beautiful. Mm hmm. 304 00:13:45,400 --> 00:13:47,600 Speaker 2: Now that you've lost weight, now we accept you. They 305 00:13:47,600 --> 00:13:48,320 Speaker 2: don't have to say it. 306 00:13:48,320 --> 00:13:50,280 Speaker 1: It's kind of like in their face and the way 307 00:13:50,280 --> 00:13:51,720 Speaker 1: they say it and their tone of voice. 308 00:13:52,160 --> 00:13:54,280 Speaker 2: Then I'm like what And I'm like, huh. 309 00:13:54,320 --> 00:13:57,120 Speaker 1: If you didn't love me before, I'm not going to 310 00:13:57,200 --> 00:13:58,800 Speaker 1: let you into my life. Now you want to love 311 00:13:58,840 --> 00:14:00,000 Speaker 1: me now you want to be a part of my 312 00:14:00,320 --> 00:14:02,480 Speaker 1: Now you could be my friend. Now you could support 313 00:14:02,480 --> 00:14:05,960 Speaker 1: me because I've lost weight. No, thank you, Michelkonnach and 314 00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:07,200 Speaker 1: think us to work on me when I was at 315 00:14:07,200 --> 00:14:09,520 Speaker 1: my worst. I will stay with the people that were 316 00:14:09,559 --> 00:14:11,040 Speaker 1: with me when I was at my worst. And that's 317 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:13,400 Speaker 1: one thing that I love about Emilia because I met 318 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:15,240 Speaker 1: him at the biggest I had ever been. I didn't 319 00:14:15,240 --> 00:14:16,880 Speaker 1: even realize how much I had weighed. You, guys, I'll 320 00:14:16,920 --> 00:14:20,160 Speaker 1: be honest with you when I weighed myself and I 321 00:14:20,160 --> 00:14:23,760 Speaker 1: had stayed away from the freaking scale for years. For years, 322 00:14:23,760 --> 00:14:25,680 Speaker 1: I had this bad relationship with the scale, And now 323 00:14:25,760 --> 00:14:28,640 Speaker 1: it's become my friend. We're homies now. Now it's like, okay, 324 00:14:28,640 --> 00:14:30,160 Speaker 1: I got to weigh myself once a week so I 325 00:14:30,160 --> 00:14:32,720 Speaker 1: can stay accountable. But when I finally got on that 326 00:14:33,080 --> 00:14:36,520 Speaker 1: freaking scale after years and I realized that I was 327 00:14:36,560 --> 00:14:40,560 Speaker 1: two hundred and six pounds, two hundred and six pounds, 328 00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:44,480 Speaker 1: I'm five to two, I was like, no wonder, no wonder. 329 00:14:44,480 --> 00:14:46,720 Speaker 1: My feet hurt, no wonder, my knees hurt, no wonder, 330 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:50,120 Speaker 1: no wonder. People or I didn't see myself at two 331 00:14:50,160 --> 00:14:51,160 Speaker 1: hundred and six pounds. 332 00:14:51,200 --> 00:14:52,560 Speaker 2: I thought, okay, maybe I'm pushing one. 333 00:14:52,560 --> 00:14:57,120 Speaker 1: Nighty, No bitch. I was two o six and Emilia 334 00:14:57,200 --> 00:14:59,000 Speaker 1: loved me and he thought it was the sexiest thing 335 00:14:59,040 --> 00:15:01,720 Speaker 1: on earth. So now I'm like, uh huh, boys are 336 00:15:01,720 --> 00:15:03,520 Speaker 1: going to try to come out of the woodworks and 337 00:15:03,560 --> 00:15:05,920 Speaker 1: try to like swoop me up. I'm like, uh uh, 338 00:15:05,920 --> 00:15:07,360 Speaker 1: you did not like me when I was two hundred 339 00:15:07,360 --> 00:15:10,160 Speaker 1: and six pounds. Wuld you now that I'm one hundred 340 00:15:10,200 --> 00:15:12,880 Speaker 1: and forty five pounds, guys, Yes, I'm so happy and 341 00:15:12,920 --> 00:15:15,520 Speaker 1: proud to say that now you want to come into 342 00:15:15,520 --> 00:15:17,960 Speaker 1: my life? Uh huh. And right now I'm fine. I'm 343 00:15:18,000 --> 00:15:20,040 Speaker 1: comfortable at one hundred and forty five pounds. I've never 344 00:15:20,160 --> 00:15:22,920 Speaker 1: shared my weight you guys. Ever, I always light on 345 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:24,600 Speaker 1: my dad. I d it still says one hundred and 346 00:15:24,640 --> 00:15:26,600 Speaker 1: fifty pounds, and I don't. I was not one hundred 347 00:15:26,600 --> 00:15:29,640 Speaker 1: and fifty pounds for sure. So now I'm sharing. I'm 348 00:15:29,640 --> 00:15:32,320 Speaker 1: comfortable now. I've always weighed more than I look. My 349 00:15:32,480 --> 00:15:34,400 Speaker 1: doctors would always say, like, oh my god, you always 350 00:15:34,760 --> 00:15:38,360 Speaker 1: you weigh more, like I'm hefty, Like I'm freaking thick, 351 00:15:38,400 --> 00:15:40,200 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, I'm thick bone how they 352 00:15:40,280 --> 00:15:42,160 Speaker 1: call it. I think I just want to lose, like 353 00:15:42,200 --> 00:15:44,040 Speaker 1: I want to be one forty just for ships and 354 00:15:44,080 --> 00:15:46,280 Speaker 1: giggles like. And now I'm like, okay, my birthday's coming up. 355 00:15:46,520 --> 00:15:48,800 Speaker 1: I'm going to grease. I want to be one forty 356 00:15:48,920 --> 00:15:51,680 Speaker 1: just to challenge myself. So That's where I'm at right now. 357 00:15:51,720 --> 00:15:55,120 Speaker 1: But I can tell you I'm definitely happy with my weight. 358 00:15:55,560 --> 00:15:57,080 Speaker 1: You know, Johnny lives with me, and my brother lives 359 00:15:57,080 --> 00:15:58,840 Speaker 1: with me, so he's saying that. In twenty eighteen, it 360 00:15:58,880 --> 00:16:00,520 Speaker 1: was so bad that I didn't want to get on 361 00:16:00,560 --> 00:16:02,680 Speaker 1: the scale ever at the doctor's office. You guys, I'm 362 00:16:02,680 --> 00:16:05,240 Speaker 1: not joking. I would say, I'm going to turn around, 363 00:16:05,640 --> 00:16:07,400 Speaker 1: you write down the number. I don't want to see it. 364 00:16:07,400 --> 00:16:09,040 Speaker 1: I don't want you to repeat it. And it so 365 00:16:09,080 --> 00:16:11,120 Speaker 1: happened to be that Johnny went with me. He's saying, 366 00:16:11,160 --> 00:16:13,640 Speaker 1: in October of twenty eighteen, this guy, his freaking memory 367 00:16:13,680 --> 00:16:16,320 Speaker 1: is crazy. He went to the doctor's office with me, 368 00:16:16,680 --> 00:16:19,000 Speaker 1: and they, you know, the doctor says the number out loud, 369 00:16:19,040 --> 00:16:20,600 Speaker 1: and I look at Johnny and I'm like, if you 370 00:16:20,720 --> 00:16:23,520 Speaker 1: ever fing say anything and repeat that, I'm I'm going 371 00:16:23,560 --> 00:16:25,200 Speaker 1: to ask you to move out osat Like I don't 372 00:16:25,200 --> 00:16:27,080 Speaker 1: remember saying that, but I know he's not lying because 373 00:16:27,080 --> 00:16:28,560 Speaker 1: it sounds like something I would say. 374 00:16:29,120 --> 00:16:30,160 Speaker 2: But it was bad, you guys. 375 00:16:30,200 --> 00:16:32,560 Speaker 1: And now I've learned to just love the scale and say, okay, 376 00:16:32,560 --> 00:16:34,760 Speaker 1: I have to hold myself accountable, like I have to 377 00:16:34,800 --> 00:16:37,240 Speaker 1: get on it so that I'm like, Okay, if I 378 00:16:37,280 --> 00:16:39,600 Speaker 1: gain two pounds, it okay. Then this week I need 379 00:16:39,640 --> 00:16:42,360 Speaker 1: to eat a little bit better, you know what I mean, 380 00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:45,120 Speaker 1: or drink more water, or just make small changes. So 381 00:16:45,360 --> 00:16:54,960 Speaker 1: now I've learned to love the scale. Now that I've 382 00:16:55,000 --> 00:16:58,920 Speaker 1: lost weight. I can tell you guys that I have 383 00:16:59,040 --> 00:17:04,600 Speaker 1: gotten more work up oportunities. It's crazy, brands are seeing 384 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:08,040 Speaker 1: me in a different way, in a different light. That's 385 00:17:08,119 --> 00:17:10,720 Speaker 1: insane to think about. And I haven't said that out loud, 386 00:17:11,320 --> 00:17:15,520 Speaker 1: but it makes me sad because it's just we live 387 00:17:15,720 --> 00:17:22,679 Speaker 1: in such an artificial, superficial world that it's just the 388 00:17:22,720 --> 00:17:26,040 Speaker 1: thinner you are, the more perfect you are, the more 389 00:17:26,080 --> 00:17:29,760 Speaker 1: accepted you are, you know. And I have gotten more 390 00:17:29,800 --> 00:17:34,159 Speaker 1: opportunities and more people reaching out like big brands, like big, big, 391 00:17:34,200 --> 00:17:39,000 Speaker 1: big brands, And I'm grateful. I'm definitely grateful, absolutely, But 392 00:17:39,240 --> 00:17:42,000 Speaker 1: in my heart, I'm just like damn, and I still 393 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:45,879 Speaker 1: feel like I represent thick, curvy women. But imagine, like 394 00:17:46,680 --> 00:17:51,399 Speaker 1: there are so many women like me, like us that 395 00:17:51,480 --> 00:17:54,480 Speaker 1: are more of a normal I guess size, you know 396 00:17:54,920 --> 00:17:56,760 Speaker 1: what I mean. Like it's like it's there are so 397 00:17:56,840 --> 00:18:00,280 Speaker 1: many more of us, and I want to always represent that. 398 00:18:00,480 --> 00:18:05,120 Speaker 1: So anyways, I mean, I'm grateful, no make oh, I'm 399 00:18:05,119 --> 00:18:08,280 Speaker 1: not complaining. But I have seen the difference. I have 400 00:18:08,359 --> 00:18:11,119 Speaker 1: noticed a difference. I feel the difference with people in 401 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:15,679 Speaker 1: the industry, with other artists, other men. They look at 402 00:18:15,760 --> 00:18:18,960 Speaker 1: you in a different way, they smile you in a 403 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:21,440 Speaker 1: different way, they say hello to you in a different way. 404 00:18:21,600 --> 00:18:25,040 Speaker 1: More designers want to work with me, and I'm grateful. 405 00:18:25,280 --> 00:18:27,720 Speaker 1: But I see all those things because I also remember 406 00:18:28,240 --> 00:18:31,080 Speaker 1: the pain I felt when they would look at me 407 00:18:31,160 --> 00:18:33,800 Speaker 1: with like a face of disgust. Because I've always been 408 00:18:33,840 --> 00:18:36,359 Speaker 1: the girl, you know, to push the limit, to try 409 00:18:36,400 --> 00:18:39,440 Speaker 1: something different, to wear that dress that maybe a girl 410 00:18:39,480 --> 00:18:42,399 Speaker 1: my side shouldn't wear. I've always been that girl, like 411 00:18:42,440 --> 00:18:44,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna wear whatever the hell I want to wear, 412 00:18:44,080 --> 00:18:46,280 Speaker 1: you know. So sometimes on red carpets, it was always 413 00:18:46,280 --> 00:18:48,680 Speaker 1: a conversation like, oh my god, you know, I don't 414 00:18:48,680 --> 00:18:51,280 Speaker 1: know if she should be wearing that because you know, 415 00:18:51,320 --> 00:18:53,920 Speaker 1: she should be smaller, she shouldn't wear that color because 416 00:18:53,920 --> 00:18:54,840 Speaker 1: it makes her look bigger. 417 00:18:55,359 --> 00:18:58,320 Speaker 2: So it's just it's insane. It's it's insane. 418 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:00,879 Speaker 1: So it is crazy to think about and to notice 419 00:19:00,920 --> 00:19:04,240 Speaker 1: and to live because I'm living it. But what's even crazier, 420 00:19:04,440 --> 00:19:08,440 Speaker 1: it's that I've always been the same person in my heart. 421 00:19:08,760 --> 00:19:11,040 Speaker 1: I've always had the same talents. I mean, i feel 422 00:19:11,040 --> 00:19:13,159 Speaker 1: like my singing has gotten better throughout the years, but 423 00:19:13,480 --> 00:19:16,320 Speaker 1: I've always had I feel like something special to show 424 00:19:16,600 --> 00:19:18,560 Speaker 1: and to share with the world that I just feel like, 425 00:19:18,600 --> 00:19:21,120 Speaker 1: are you guys not seeing me, for me, for Jane, 426 00:19:21,280 --> 00:19:24,040 Speaker 1: for the woman, or is it just all about my 427 00:19:24,160 --> 00:19:28,520 Speaker 1: freaking weight. It makes me sad for all the children, 428 00:19:28,720 --> 00:19:34,120 Speaker 1: all the adolescents, the generations to come. I think women 429 00:19:34,160 --> 00:19:38,080 Speaker 1: are beautiful in all shapes and sizes. Men are too, though, 430 00:19:38,160 --> 00:19:41,800 Speaker 1: Like it's still like insane sometimes, like to think of 431 00:19:41,840 --> 00:19:43,840 Speaker 1: like the world we live in, like you even the 432 00:19:43,840 --> 00:19:45,679 Speaker 1: color of your skin, you know what I mean. Like 433 00:19:46,359 --> 00:19:48,680 Speaker 1: I grew up and I won't say who in my family, 434 00:19:48,760 --> 00:19:52,719 Speaker 1: but they would think that. And this is the honest 435 00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:56,239 Speaker 1: truth that my mom's kids, us, my siblings and I 436 00:19:56,600 --> 00:20:00,400 Speaker 1: that we were better looking because we were lighter and 437 00:20:00,600 --> 00:20:02,800 Speaker 1: some of my cousins were a little bit darker. You 438 00:20:02,840 --> 00:20:04,439 Speaker 1: could see it, you could feel the difference. And one 439 00:20:04,440 --> 00:20:07,080 Speaker 1: of my cousins once told me, and I didn't realize 440 00:20:07,119 --> 00:20:11,399 Speaker 1: that they had realized it, that they noticed, but they're like, 441 00:20:11,560 --> 00:20:14,439 Speaker 1: you know, this person always treated you differently, and I 442 00:20:14,480 --> 00:20:16,480 Speaker 1: can't help but to think that it's because I'm darker 443 00:20:16,480 --> 00:20:19,240 Speaker 1: than you guys. Like it's crazy, and I just feel 444 00:20:19,280 --> 00:20:21,320 Speaker 1: like it makes me sad. And that's why I want 445 00:20:21,320 --> 00:20:23,440 Speaker 1: to talk about these things. On my podcast, Thank God 446 00:20:23,480 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 1: for my podcast, where I can share these things with 447 00:20:25,560 --> 00:20:28,200 Speaker 1: you guys, so that it can maybe like open up 448 00:20:28,480 --> 00:20:30,560 Speaker 1: something in your heart and in your mind to say, like, 449 00:20:30,680 --> 00:20:32,760 Speaker 1: we have to change, we have to be different. We 450 00:20:32,840 --> 00:20:35,880 Speaker 1: have to love and accept people for who they are, 451 00:20:36,320 --> 00:20:39,160 Speaker 1: not what they look like, what they have to give 452 00:20:39,240 --> 00:20:42,840 Speaker 1: to us, not what we could take. It's just changing 453 00:20:42,880 --> 00:20:45,639 Speaker 1: the mindset and having more of these open conversations you guys, 454 00:20:45,680 --> 00:20:50,480 Speaker 1: because yes, I do agree there's always room for improvement. Yes, 455 00:20:50,720 --> 00:20:53,560 Speaker 1: we want to be healthier. We should be healthier, especially 456 00:20:53,600 --> 00:20:56,719 Speaker 1: as we get older. I'm always going to be that person. 457 00:20:57,160 --> 00:20:59,600 Speaker 1: I love supplements, I love taking greens, I love taking 458 00:20:59,640 --> 00:21:02,399 Speaker 1: college like I've always been about that and I'm always 459 00:21:02,440 --> 00:21:04,560 Speaker 1: going to share, you know. But I also want people 460 00:21:04,600 --> 00:21:07,240 Speaker 1: to love themselves for who they are. And if you're 461 00:21:07,240 --> 00:21:09,840 Speaker 1: going to make a change, and if you want to 462 00:21:09,880 --> 00:21:12,040 Speaker 1: lose weight, for it to be because you want to, 463 00:21:12,080 --> 00:21:14,399 Speaker 1: not because you feel forced, because you feel the pressure 464 00:21:14,440 --> 00:21:17,439 Speaker 1: of the world. Because that's never going to last forever, 465 00:21:17,480 --> 00:21:19,720 Speaker 1: that's not going to be long term. You have to 466 00:21:19,760 --> 00:21:21,800 Speaker 1: do it for yourself. And I think that's what I did. 467 00:21:22,400 --> 00:21:25,840 Speaker 1: I didn't care about anyone else. I just realized, Okay, 468 00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:27,920 Speaker 1: I'm two hundred and six pounds. I'm not healthy. That's 469 00:21:27,960 --> 00:21:30,040 Speaker 1: not healthy. That can't be healthy. That's a lot of 470 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:33,360 Speaker 1: weight on my heart, on my knees. I'm getting older. 471 00:21:34,080 --> 00:21:36,280 Speaker 1: I have to be better. I want to be better, 472 00:21:37,000 --> 00:21:39,480 Speaker 1: and I did it for me, and yeah, other people 473 00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:42,399 Speaker 1: are happy about it and great, But at the end 474 00:21:42,400 --> 00:21:44,440 Speaker 1: of the day, what really matters is if I'm happy, 475 00:21:44,720 --> 00:21:49,400 Speaker 1: if I accept myself. And thank God, I've always accepted myself, 476 00:21:49,520 --> 00:21:51,040 Speaker 1: even when I was a size twelve, when I was 477 00:21:51,080 --> 00:21:52,639 Speaker 1: two hundred and six pounds, and now that I'm one 478 00:21:52,720 --> 00:21:56,200 Speaker 1: hundred and forty five pounds. I love myself. And if 479 00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:58,760 Speaker 1: I gain weight because I get pregnant, then I'm still 480 00:21:58,760 --> 00:22:00,400 Speaker 1: gonna love myself. And I don't gotta worry worry about 481 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:02,119 Speaker 1: it because my man loves me anyways, you know what 482 00:22:02,119 --> 00:22:03,480 Speaker 1: I mean. That's what I always say. I'm like, if, okay, 483 00:22:03,520 --> 00:22:05,159 Speaker 1: if I gave fifty pounds, you're gonna be okay with it. 484 00:22:05,200 --> 00:22:08,399 Speaker 1: He's like, well, yeah, And those are little conversations we have. 485 00:22:08,440 --> 00:22:10,480 Speaker 1: I joke with him all the time, but it's really 486 00:22:10,520 --> 00:22:14,960 Speaker 1: about accepting yourself and making the change for yourself, not 487 00:22:15,119 --> 00:22:18,199 Speaker 1: anyone else. And especially not for the society that we 488 00:22:18,240 --> 00:22:20,679 Speaker 1: live in that it's like everyone has to be perfect. 489 00:22:20,800 --> 00:22:23,240 Speaker 1: Let me tell you, the people that you see all 490 00:22:23,240 --> 00:22:26,480 Speaker 1: the magazines, even the people that see on TV, It's okay. 491 00:22:26,520 --> 00:22:27,480 Speaker 2: They've gotten work done. 492 00:22:27,680 --> 00:22:31,400 Speaker 1: It's okay, honestly, Like what it takes is a lot 493 00:22:31,440 --> 00:22:33,800 Speaker 1: of money to do the fillers and to do this 494 00:22:33,920 --> 00:22:35,879 Speaker 1: and to do that. I'm not against any of it. 495 00:22:35,920 --> 00:22:37,919 Speaker 1: You guys know, I love both tox I love filler, 496 00:22:38,000 --> 00:22:40,240 Speaker 1: I love cosmetic surgery. If you can afford it, do 497 00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:44,159 Speaker 1: your thing, but do it for yourself. Don't do it 498 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:46,760 Speaker 1: because you want to look like so and so because 499 00:22:47,160 --> 00:22:49,600 Speaker 1: you feel that you're going to be more socially accepted. 500 00:22:49,680 --> 00:22:53,480 Speaker 1: Fuck that, you guys. Fuck that. That only lasts so long. 501 00:22:54,080 --> 00:22:58,080 Speaker 1: So love yourself. That's the best advice that I can 502 00:22:58,119 --> 00:22:59,919 Speaker 1: give you, guys. And I just wanted to come on 503 00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:03,080 Speaker 1: here and just be open about this subject because I 504 00:23:03,119 --> 00:23:06,680 Speaker 1: know it's been a conversation everywhere about my weight loss 505 00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:08,400 Speaker 1: and how I lost weight, and people have so many 506 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:12,760 Speaker 1: different opinions, and you know whatever, I'm happy and I 507 00:23:12,840 --> 00:23:16,320 Speaker 1: hope that my story, my journey, my honesty can help 508 00:23:16,359 --> 00:23:19,120 Speaker 1: you guys become a better you. That's all I want, 509 00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:22,960 Speaker 1: all right, guys, asma, I love you. I hope you 510 00:23:23,040 --> 00:23:27,120 Speaker 1: guys all have a wonderful week, kick ass, and I'll 511 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,760 Speaker 1: see you here on the next episode of Cheeky's and Chow. 512 00:23:29,880 --> 00:23:30,560 Speaker 2: I love you, guys. 513 00:23:33,800 --> 00:23:38,000 Speaker 1: This is a production of iHeartRadio and the MICROGDA podcast Network. 514 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:41,359 Speaker 2: Follow us on Instagram at Michael Goda Podcasts and follow 515 00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:44,040 Speaker 2: me Cheeky's That's c h I q u i s. 516 00:23:44,560 --> 00:23:49,000 Speaker 1: For more podcasts from iHeart, visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, 517 00:23:49,119 --> 00:23:51,920 Speaker 1: or wherever you listen to your favorite podcast, and check 518 00:23:52,000 --> 00:24:00,240 Speaker 1: us out on YouTube.