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Speaker 1: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 1: I'm Mela. Happy Wednesday.

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Speaker 2: Happy Wednesday world.

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Speaker 1: It's the first week of February. Welcome to February.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for this beautiful welcome. Yes, it's Black History Month.

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Speaker 3: It is even though every day is Black History Month.

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Speaker 3: When you're black, this is a fact. Let's welcome all

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Speaker 3: the white people.

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Speaker 1: This month, we are focusing on self love. The theme

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Speaker 1: is love Thyself February. So welcome to this month's theme.

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Speaker 1: I'm really excited. I just want to get straight into

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Speaker 1: that because we have an incredible guest today. We have

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Speaker 1: none other than holistic expert, wellness expert, best selling author,

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Speaker 1: just overall amazing, incredible woman, Queen for.

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Speaker 4: I am so happy to be here with you both.

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Speaker 4: Thank you. I feel like I've known you for you

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Speaker 4: lifetime to Actually i'm laughing. I know them. I know their.

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Speaker 1: She called her daughter and she was like, I just

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Speaker 1: have to call my daughter because it feels like she's here.

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Speaker 1: And I was like, I'll be her daughter. Do you

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Speaker 1: need your daughter ever messes up? I'm here, Queen.

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Speaker 2: Okay, if you ever miss her and you are not

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Speaker 2: in New York, we are here for you.

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Speaker 5: Thank you.

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Speaker 3: You know what, I manifested this a very long time ago.

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Speaker 3: You know, I see you on the timeline, I see

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Speaker 3: you working with like amazing women like Erka Bardou, and

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Speaker 3: you've done so much work, you know, and I've I've

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Speaker 3: followed it here and there, and I was like, one

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Speaker 3: day she's gonna come on our show. So finally when

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Speaker 3: it aligned, it feels so good to have you here.

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Speaker 3: And like, honestly, to be honest, me and Erica were

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Speaker 3: super nervous.

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Speaker 4: Very this is how nervous looks. Fabulous nervous.

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Speaker 1: Then yeah, we we got your book, The Sacred Woman,

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Speaker 1: and I was like, I don't think I'm able to

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Speaker 1: finish this in time to meet Queen.

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Speaker 5: I was like, oh no, what am I gonna do it?

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Speaker 5: She's gonna know. I'm like, no, I'm gonna.

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Speaker 4: Living it already. That's why you're relating to it, because

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Speaker 4: you said, oh, okay, that feels familiar. Oh wait a minute,

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Speaker 4: my aunt, my mother. You know, you start to see

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Speaker 4: your family because I connected to you as I was writing.

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Speaker 4: I remember your mother, your grandma, because it's the energy

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Speaker 4: of our culture and that's the unity. So that book

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Speaker 4: is not for you to get stressed out.

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Speaker 1: I wasn't s I mean I was more so just like, wow,

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Speaker 1: I should Firstly, I should have gotten it a long

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Speaker 1: time ago.

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Speaker 4: This is the right time for you to have it.

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Speaker 1: Okay, I received that. Okay, I'm gonna least always glad

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Speaker 1: he has gone. Queen is here. She told me.

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Speaker 4: It's okay.

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Speaker 3: Everything's in divine time, in alignment, when you're ready. I

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Speaker 3: think we're nowis and now we're ready to receive the information.

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Speaker 1: I just am so, I'm just so, I have so

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Speaker 1: many questions, but really I'm just really curious about you know,

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Speaker 1: your journey to queen a fool.

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Speaker 3: And I was just letting on our listeners to know

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Speaker 3: we're referencing this book. She's written many books, but the

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Speaker 3: book that we're referencing is The Sacred Woman, what has

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Speaker 3: been called the women's Bible of our time. In case

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Speaker 3: you are not familiar. So if you're listening and you're wondering,

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Speaker 3: what are they talking about? That is what we were

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Speaker 3: talking about.

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Speaker 1: It is, yes, and will link it here in the

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Speaker 1: episode description so you can check it out. But yeah,

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Speaker 1: what is what has been your journey in becoming a

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Speaker 1: sacred Woman? I mean I know that, like we all

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Speaker 1: really know what exactly that means. So how did you

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Speaker 4: Did I come to that? Well, it's in Nate, I'm

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Speaker 4: coming out of the sixties. So the whole movement of

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Speaker 4: love of culture, a love of holistic healing on different levels.

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Speaker 4: And during that time, I was very sick, you know,

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Speaker 4: I was really looking for my healing. And it's my

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Speaker 4: in my mother's kitchen and having fish on Friday, and

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Speaker 4: It was all in that same zone. So I studied

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Speaker 4: So dance and medicine and holistic and culture. It led me.

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Speaker 4: in talking about the sacred woman, the sacred woman is

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Speaker 4: the woman who's connected to the divine, who's conscious that

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Speaker 4: she is connected to the divine spirit. That could be

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Speaker 4: all the mare Jaja, whole of the most High, all

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Speaker 4: that process of the growth and the healing. I was saying, So, now,

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Speaker 4: Where did Rekie come from African natural lifestyle? We did,

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Speaker 4: color therapy and astrology come from African natural lifestyle. We

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Speaker 4: All that that was considered new age is all African

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Speaker 4: And so the deeper I go into our way, the

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Speaker 1: You're from New York, right, So it sounds like even

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Speaker 1: as a young girl, you had this your your mind

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Speaker 1: and your ear was open to this voice that kind

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Speaker 1: feel I do feel like children have this voice. And

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Speaker 1: like listening to this drum and having this calling. Mila

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Speaker 1: and that you went on this retreat that really kind

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Speaker 1: and even on our retreats. You know, we do women's

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Speaker 1: So it's very intentional, it's very clean, it's basically farm

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Speaker 4: Because they've been raised from generation to generation fast food,

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Speaker 4: we must break because with that habit, we have that diabetes,

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Speaker 1: It's all connected much judgment around eating healthy, which I

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Speaker 1: I am not the healthiest person. I do go in

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Speaker 3: So funny it's one of your friends. The week you

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Speaker 2: She'd be clean for one week, like, oh you don't

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Speaker 2: the pushback. Girl, I think it's your judgment. I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I was like, do I think generally I eat pretty

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Speaker 4: Like? What is wanted to prepare them? You what happens

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Speaker 4: is recreation. So you actually have to build them up

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Speaker 4: to come on your retreats if you try and change

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Speaker 4: my gosh, it's like my whole life is based around food,

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Speaker 4: and now you're taking the food away from me. No,

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Speaker 4: I'm giving you love. I'm showing you love. So it's

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Speaker 4: having compassion and mercy and just taking someone through their transition.

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Speaker 1: You kind of live your life like your lifestyle is

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Speaker 1: detox essentially, like you have this detox.

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Speaker 4: Lifestyle, detox everything. Yeah, do talk the house, detox relationships, attitudes,

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Speaker 4: my own thoughts. I know when detoxing came because I

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Speaker 4: of that. That's a part of the detox. But also

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Speaker 4: my thinking, some thinking that I have to let go of,

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Speaker 4: you know. You know, and when I think about single mothers,

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Speaker 4: I had to detox some thoughts from that too.

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Speaker 5: Which ones were those.

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Speaker 4: That I said, we're not divorced, We're going through transformation

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Speaker 4: that shifts the relationship with your children, with yourself, Because

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Speaker 4: Actually she's raising me now, you know, the circle of

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Speaker 3: Of amazing that you were able to receive that mothering.

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Speaker 1: Thank you.

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Speaker 1: We create a circle for women, whether it's the retreats,

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Speaker 1: and age, you can find your circle on the internet.

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Speaker 4: You can find your circle without even trying to find yoursel.

434
00:22:42,320 --> 00:22:46,240
Speaker 1: Like there really is no reason except you getting in

435
00:22:46,280 --> 00:22:49,880
Speaker 1: your way and you thinking like ah, making excuses like ah,

436
00:22:49,880 --> 00:22:53,480
Speaker 1: that's weird, I don't know them, or maybe like next time,

437
00:22:53,560 --> 00:22:56,000
Speaker 1: or they don't look like my people, or like just

438
00:22:56,000 --> 00:22:59,160
Speaker 1: just making these agreements with yourself without really stepping out

439
00:22:59,600 --> 00:23:01,720
Speaker 1: and trying something different. And that's really what it has

440
00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:04,160
Speaker 1: to be. It has to be you getting uncomfortable and

441
00:23:04,240 --> 00:23:05,679
Speaker 1: just saying, you know what, I'm just gonna start and

442
00:23:05,680 --> 00:23:07,800
Speaker 1: I'm going to try it. When I met Mila, like

443
00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:11,760
Speaker 1: I don't I would never go try to meet a

444
00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:13,920
Speaker 1: friend that I saw on the internet that I knew

445
00:23:14,000 --> 00:23:15,359
Speaker 1: was going to be at a bar. And that was

446
00:23:15,400 --> 00:23:17,800
Speaker 1: my intention, Like that was my only intention in going.

447
00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:20,080
Speaker 1: In fact, I didn't have a lot of time because

448
00:23:20,119 --> 00:23:24,320
Speaker 1: I was breastfeeding and my mom, my mom was my

449
00:23:24,400 --> 00:23:26,480
Speaker 1: daughter was like three months old, and my mom.

450
00:23:26,440 --> 00:23:27,199
Speaker 5: Was like, where are you are?

451
00:23:27,200 --> 00:23:27,679
Speaker 4: You're going?

452
00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:28,280
Speaker 5: Yeah, you're going.

453
00:23:31,920 --> 00:23:33,520
Speaker 1: So I was like, Okay, I got to hurry up

454
00:23:33,520 --> 00:23:35,480
Speaker 1: because my mom was already judging me, and I don't

455
00:23:35,480 --> 00:23:38,240
Speaker 1: want to hear judge, you know, but like I felt

456
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:39,680
Speaker 1: called to do it.

457
00:23:39,800 --> 00:23:42,920
Speaker 4: That's the truth, that's right. Did that intuition. When that

458
00:23:42,960 --> 00:23:47,400
Speaker 4: intuition kicks in, that's God, that's the most high talking

459
00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:50,200
Speaker 4: to you and guide you. Because the most I hears

460
00:23:50,240 --> 00:23:53,679
Speaker 4: you cry and you're call and your need of you

461
00:23:53,920 --> 00:23:58,280
Speaker 4: and your daughter. She was calling. Also she needed a playmate.

462
00:23:58,600 --> 00:24:01,879
Speaker 4: She didn't want the same frequent see so you was

463
00:24:01,920 --> 00:24:05,960
Speaker 4: able to listen. I have a little book called Impeccable Listening.

464
00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:10,239
Speaker 4: And I said, well, and I was going to have

465
00:24:10,400 --> 00:24:16,040
Speaker 4: a meeting with Laura London and Leila Dehlia and I said, most, Hi,

466
00:24:17,560 --> 00:24:21,760
Speaker 4: what am I getting to give to them? And then

467
00:24:21,800 --> 00:24:26,199
Speaker 4: I heard impeccable listening? I said, I said, well, so

468
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:29,320
Speaker 4: what's impeccable? I have this conversation going on. I said, so,

469
00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:34,240
Speaker 4: what's impeccable listening? Peccable listening is listening to your intuition impeccably.

470
00:24:35,200 --> 00:24:37,439
Speaker 4: And I started to reflect on that, because for me,

471
00:24:37,480 --> 00:24:40,960
Speaker 4: that's going to save the world. And I said, when

472
00:24:41,000 --> 00:24:43,960
Speaker 4: I did not listen impeccably, I went down the rabbit

473
00:24:44,000 --> 00:24:48,199
Speaker 4: hole and I had relationships that were toxic and I

474
00:24:48,200 --> 00:24:50,439
Speaker 4: didn't want to see them until they showed up all

475
00:24:50,480 --> 00:24:54,080
Speaker 4: the way. Okay, most when you're back on the ground,

476
00:24:54,200 --> 00:24:55,560
Speaker 4: on the floor, you said, okay, now how do I

477
00:24:55,560 --> 00:24:58,560
Speaker 4: get up off this ground? The next time I asked

478
00:24:58,560 --> 00:25:01,639
Speaker 4: a question, I'm and to listen and packleby. I'm not

479
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:03,520
Speaker 4: gonna make it up. You know how you ask a question,

480
00:25:03,520 --> 00:25:05,240
Speaker 4: but your uni mind said no, but we don't want that.

481
00:25:05,400 --> 00:25:11,000
Speaker 4: Let me go put okayle listening what I gave and

482
00:25:11,119 --> 00:25:15,439
Speaker 4: that has been my savings grace. But even though I

483
00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:18,320
Speaker 4: did not listen to Peckaby, I'm so grateful because I

484
00:25:18,320 --> 00:25:23,800
Speaker 4: wouldn't have had the children. So I'm glad I didn't

485
00:25:23,880 --> 00:25:26,960
Speaker 4: listen because I do love my children, who are adult people.

486
00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:30,160
Speaker 4: And so that's why I just take your whole life

487
00:25:30,680 --> 00:25:33,480
Speaker 4: and just embrace it and say, this is my consciousness,

488
00:25:33,520 --> 00:25:36,840
Speaker 4: is where I was, This is where no regrets. It's

489
00:25:36,920 --> 00:25:40,240
Speaker 4: all lessons. And I always say every lesson is a blessing.

490
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:42,919
Speaker 4: So embrace the lesson that allows me to continue to

491
00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:45,840
Speaker 4: dance and to sing and to spin in my kitchen

492
00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:49,439
Speaker 4: and to be myself. Because what ages women is the

493
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:54,760
Speaker 4: regrets that makes you old and broken and worn, that

494
00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:56,600
Speaker 4: gives you the high blood pressure, that gives you the

495
00:25:56,600 --> 00:25:58,920
Speaker 4: breast cancer, that give you the fibers, all of that

496
00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:04,040
Speaker 4: accumulation of all the relationships that disappointed you. So I said,

497
00:26:04,080 --> 00:26:05,720
Speaker 4: clean house, give.

498
00:26:05,560 --> 00:26:08,199
Speaker 2: Everyone that forgiveness.

499
00:26:08,240 --> 00:26:11,439
Speaker 3: You're right that forgiven that resentment, that anger that builds

500
00:26:11,480 --> 00:26:14,320
Speaker 3: up because so and so took your time and did this.

501
00:26:14,880 --> 00:26:17,520
Speaker 3: I've seen that like fester, and how like ugly that

502
00:26:17,520 --> 00:26:20,160
Speaker 3: can become, and like even thinking about like you know,

503
00:26:20,440 --> 00:26:24,200
Speaker 3: talking about like your tribe and impeccable listening and listening

504
00:26:24,280 --> 00:26:27,359
Speaker 3: to yourself, and like women having a hard time reaching

505
00:26:27,400 --> 00:26:30,360
Speaker 3: out to other women. You know, I realized that when

506
00:26:30,560 --> 00:26:33,479
Speaker 3: during the women's retreats, everyone is like kind of on

507
00:26:33,560 --> 00:26:36,080
Speaker 3: guard in ways because we've kind of learned that too.

508
00:26:36,760 --> 00:26:39,240
Speaker 3: But a lot of times I feel like women don't

509
00:26:39,280 --> 00:26:41,800
Speaker 3: trust women because truly they don't trust themselves.

510
00:26:42,080 --> 00:26:47,480
Speaker 4: Yeah, they have a mother daughter relationship, whatever happened grandmother, mother, auntie,

511
00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:52,040
Speaker 4: you just they're just relationships to du recycle. So in

512
00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:54,320
Speaker 4: the room, you could be women in their twenties, thirties,

513
00:26:54,359 --> 00:26:57,440
Speaker 4: and forties, but in the room is they're seven years old,

514
00:26:57,520 --> 00:27:00,560
Speaker 4: five years old, six years old, and you could your

515
00:27:00,640 --> 00:27:03,440
Speaker 4: eye open. We actually see that age where they're actually

516
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:08,200
Speaker 4: carrying that into every relationship. So when you were bullied

517
00:27:08,720 --> 00:27:11,280
Speaker 4: or someone made you feel small, or you wasn't so

518
00:27:11,400 --> 00:27:14,560
Speaker 4: called pretty enough, or talked about your hair or talked

519
00:27:14,560 --> 00:27:17,159
Speaker 4: about your complain all that stuff, you grow up as

520
00:27:17,200 --> 00:27:21,399
Speaker 4: a woman feeling not worthy. And so those relationships are

521
00:27:21,440 --> 00:27:23,960
Speaker 4: really coming from all the childhood issues.

522
00:27:24,280 --> 00:27:25,800
Speaker 2: They haven't released that pain.

523
00:27:26,680 --> 00:27:30,640
Speaker 4: Because that's what sickness comes from. That's all the diseases

524
00:27:30,680 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 4: coming from the built up of unresolved issues that create

525
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:35,320
Speaker 4: the men in our lives.

526
00:27:35,600 --> 00:27:38,960
Speaker 3: Because then we attracked the men that that's the circumstances

527
00:27:38,960 --> 00:27:42,560
Speaker 3: and the messages that we've heard that are probably aren't true,

528
00:27:42,600 --> 00:27:46,920
Speaker 3: but we haven't listened to ourselves to release them. I

529
00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:50,000
Speaker 3: read in your or maybe I listened in an interview

530
00:27:50,119 --> 00:27:53,160
Speaker 3: that you were saying that you know with your with

531
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:56,920
Speaker 3: your kid's father, is that you recognize that you guys

532
00:27:56,960 --> 00:28:00,040
Speaker 3: would make each other sick if you stayed, and so

533
00:28:00,160 --> 00:28:01,679
Speaker 3: you you know, like.

534
00:28:02,200 --> 00:28:03,679
Speaker 2: How what was that process for you?

535
00:28:03,720 --> 00:28:05,600
Speaker 3: I know a lot of women's I mean, like my mom,

536
00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:08,280
Speaker 3: for instance, stayed in a marriage and a relationship for

537
00:28:08,320 --> 00:28:10,560
Speaker 3: so long. Like I think she lost herself in a

538
00:28:10,560 --> 00:28:12,840
Speaker 3: lot of ways and it's now, you know, trying to

539
00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:15,000
Speaker 3: pick up the pieces and you know, and the same

540
00:28:15,040 --> 00:28:16,639
Speaker 3: I start when I got in a certain age, I'm like, oh,

541
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:17,720
Speaker 3: my mom's like a little girl.

542
00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:18,320
Speaker 2: You know.

543
00:28:18,320 --> 00:28:20,159
Speaker 3: My mom met my dad when she was fourteen, And

544
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:23,360
Speaker 3: sometimes I see her that age, you know, like she'll

545
00:28:23,400 --> 00:28:24,240
Speaker 3: call me like where.

546
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:25,240
Speaker 2: Should I go? What should I do?

547
00:28:25,480 --> 00:28:30,280
Speaker 3: I'm my girl, But I remember, like the roles will always,

548
00:28:30,440 --> 00:28:34,119
Speaker 3: you know, I'll hold her she'll hold me. But I

549
00:28:34,119 --> 00:28:36,280
Speaker 3: think a lot of women have a hard time listening

550
00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:38,320
Speaker 3: to their own voice because we've been taught to you know,

551
00:28:38,360 --> 00:28:41,000
Speaker 3: like not that we're not supposed to follow our men

552
00:28:41,200 --> 00:28:44,680
Speaker 3: or take leadership, but when we choose the men that

553
00:28:44,760 --> 00:28:48,920
Speaker 3: are not worthy of being followed, it can confuse you

554
00:28:48,960 --> 00:28:51,680
Speaker 3: and confuse your own voice. So like during that time,

555
00:28:51,800 --> 00:28:55,320
Speaker 3: having three kids, deciding to make that choice, what was like,

556
00:28:55,400 --> 00:28:57,240
Speaker 3: what was that process for you?

557
00:28:58,800 --> 00:29:01,840
Speaker 4: I said to my I remember, I remember where I was.

558
00:29:01,920 --> 00:29:06,920
Speaker 4: I was right in Brooklyn on Flatbush Avenue. And I said, Hm,

559
00:29:07,120 --> 00:29:11,560
Speaker 4: if I stay in this relationship, it was a violent relationship,

560
00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:16,480
Speaker 4: I might destroy my They sure may not have any hope.

561
00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:21,200
Speaker 4: So I can stay in the relationship because growing up,

562
00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:24,920
Speaker 4: you're supposed to stay together, right no matter what, keep

563
00:29:24,960 --> 00:29:30,480
Speaker 4: the family together. But if I go, I might make it,

564
00:29:30,840 --> 00:29:34,720
Speaker 4: they might make it. If I stay, I might die

565
00:29:35,080 --> 00:29:38,320
Speaker 4: in this relationship fully, And then what will they have.

566
00:29:38,560 --> 00:29:44,080
Speaker 4: They'll have a dead mother spiritually, virtually, virtually, emotionally, psychologically,

567
00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:47,000
Speaker 4: and then how will they grow as human beings? And

568
00:29:47,040 --> 00:29:48,840
Speaker 4: I know it's going to be hard if I left

569
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:52,040
Speaker 4: for them, not having the father in the house. I

570
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:53,800
Speaker 4: know it's going to be difficult, but I know it

571
00:29:53,800 --> 00:29:56,320
Speaker 4: would be worse. I had to make a choice if

572
00:29:56,320 --> 00:29:59,080
Speaker 4: I stayed, and then and then my daughter at three

573
00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:01,520
Speaker 4: years old. I can't believe I listened to a three

574
00:30:01,600 --> 00:30:09,080
Speaker 4: year but I trusted what she said. She knew it

575
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:12,800
Speaker 4: was a violent moment, and she said, Mom, let's go

576
00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:16,720
Speaker 4: to grandmother's house. And I had that shoulder that you

577
00:30:16,920 --> 00:30:22,920
Speaker 4: just okay, okay, said let's go to grit making a

578
00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:27,760
Speaker 4: choice for us. I said, okay, because what happens If

579
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:30,920
Speaker 4: I would have stayed and that kept going the voice

580
00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:33,400
Speaker 4: to add to the hands of this, I might have

581
00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:36,520
Speaker 4: just wiped her out fully, you know, over time, her

582
00:30:36,600 --> 00:30:38,800
Speaker 4: love and all of that that, you know, it grew.

583
00:30:38,880 --> 00:30:42,840
Speaker 4: And because I never talked negative about their father no

584
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:45,200
Speaker 4: matter what, I didn't bring all my stuff in it,

585
00:30:45,960 --> 00:30:49,440
Speaker 4: you know, and that helped them because they had to

586
00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:52,720
Speaker 4: make their own choices about life. That was our relationship.

587
00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 4: But that was that crossroads and I don't regret it.

588
00:30:56,600 --> 00:30:59,120
Speaker 4: I'm grateful that I had the strength to take it on.

589
00:30:59,320 --> 00:31:02,640
Speaker 4: And it was not easy journey, you know, I went.

590
00:31:02,960 --> 00:31:05,640
Speaker 4: My story makes my want to cry, but I'm so

591
00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:08,000
Speaker 4: happy that I'm still joyous and I'm in peace in

592
00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:12,200
Speaker 4: my soul. The relationships are all my lessons. So that

593
00:31:12,360 --> 00:31:15,520
Speaker 4: was a huge lesson of growing up and developing and

594
00:31:15,520 --> 00:31:19,360
Speaker 4: being mature and not relying on someone to take care

595
00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:21,200
Speaker 4: of all my knees. So that's that's part of how

596
00:31:21,200 --> 00:31:22,280
Speaker 4: I became a businesswoman.

597
00:31:22,600 --> 00:31:25,200
Speaker 3: You have to You're like, well, now I get his children.

598
00:31:25,760 --> 00:31:28,440
Speaker 2: Then that is a profound statement.

599
00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:31,000
Speaker 3: If I did not stay, I would die and not

600
00:31:31,080 --> 00:31:31,800
Speaker 3: be a dead mother.

601
00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:32,400
Speaker 2: Dead mother.

602
00:31:32,480 --> 00:31:34,880
Speaker 1: I think about all the dead mothers walking the earth

603
00:31:34,960 --> 00:31:35,400
Speaker 1: right now.

604
00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:41,120
Speaker 3: My mom was dead for a long period of my

605
00:31:41,440 --> 00:31:43,360
Speaker 3: growing up. And when you said that, that shit struck

606
00:31:43,400 --> 00:31:45,680
Speaker 3: me because I never thought about it in that way.

607
00:31:45,800 --> 00:31:50,000
Speaker 3: And that is true, you know. And like I had

608
00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:52,239
Speaker 3: a conversation with my mom when I was six, I

609
00:31:52,280 --> 00:31:53,840
Speaker 3: was like maybe five or six, and I was like

610
00:31:53,880 --> 00:31:56,160
Speaker 3: why with like where you're not happy?

611
00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:57,520
Speaker 2: Like do you why don't you leave?

612
00:31:57,960 --> 00:32:00,800
Speaker 3: You See, I remember the same ex where I was at,

613
00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 3: what house we were at, looking across from her, and

614
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:06,160
Speaker 3: like she didn't listen, and you know, in years and

615
00:32:06,240 --> 00:32:09,120
Speaker 3: years past, and like she's still dealing with that anger

616
00:32:09,160 --> 00:32:12,040
Speaker 3: and dealing with that hurt. But that was also the

617
00:32:12,080 --> 00:32:15,200
Speaker 3: motivation for me when I got in a relationship that

618
00:32:15,280 --> 00:32:20,640
Speaker 3: was abusive and difficult, and I saw the makings of

619
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:23,560
Speaker 3: the family dynamic in which I grew up in and

620
00:32:23,600 --> 00:32:25,200
Speaker 3: I was like, oh, hell no, like this is not

621
00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:28,520
Speaker 3: will I will be dead will I've started to feel numb,

622
00:32:29,000 --> 00:32:31,120
Speaker 3: like I wasn't myself anymore. My friends I could tell

623
00:32:31,160 --> 00:32:35,040
Speaker 3: couldn't recognize me. I couldn't recognize myself. But I think

624
00:32:35,040 --> 00:32:38,320
Speaker 3: it's really powerful for our listeners, for us to hear

625
00:32:38,360 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 3: you say that, because I think a lot of times

626
00:32:41,440 --> 00:32:43,959
Speaker 3: as women, you know, we were like, we know that

627
00:32:44,000 --> 00:32:45,040
Speaker 3: we're strong.

628
00:32:44,800 --> 00:32:46,040
Speaker 2: But it feels.

629
00:32:47,320 --> 00:32:52,160
Speaker 3: It feels weak to be like you know, you don't

630
00:32:52,200 --> 00:32:54,600
Speaker 3: think when you think of Queen, Queen of Fool, you're like,

631
00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:56,720
Speaker 3: never she would be in such a relationship and with

632
00:32:56,760 --> 00:32:58,440
Speaker 3: an abusive person that could.

633
00:32:58,880 --> 00:33:06,400
Speaker 4: It was Helen Robinson before Queen a Fool. I grew

634
00:33:06,480 --> 00:33:10,280
Speaker 4: into that reality and that took a lot of growing

635
00:33:10,400 --> 00:33:14,520
Speaker 4: up in it. When I accepted Queen, I said, that's

636
00:33:14,560 --> 00:33:16,760
Speaker 4: a little too much. People are not gonna like me.

637
00:33:18,880 --> 00:33:21,320
Speaker 4: And I accepted it because I felt I was representing

638
00:33:21,400 --> 00:33:24,080
Speaker 4: us and I have to sit up on my seat

639
00:33:24,080 --> 00:33:27,880
Speaker 4: of power. And then I accepted. I accepted a fool

640
00:33:28,040 --> 00:33:30,160
Speaker 4: born on Friday, which is the day of Love and Venus.

641
00:33:30,880 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 4: And I do love myself, my community, my people, my family.

642
00:33:35,960 --> 00:33:39,200
Speaker 4: So I know that everything was in divine order, and

643
00:33:39,240 --> 00:33:41,600
Speaker 4: so I have you know, there was is a shame

644
00:33:41,680 --> 00:33:44,080
Speaker 4: that comes with it, and women don't want to say

645
00:33:44,080 --> 00:33:46,160
Speaker 4: anything or they want to dress up and look pretty

646
00:33:46,200 --> 00:33:48,239
Speaker 4: and look lovely as if they're not getting jacked up

647
00:33:48,280 --> 00:33:51,560
Speaker 4: at home. And then that's a part of the death,

648
00:33:52,280 --> 00:33:55,960
Speaker 4: you know, So the true you never is born. But

649
00:33:56,000 --> 00:33:59,320
Speaker 4: also it's really because there's no blame. It's what you

650
00:33:59,440 --> 00:34:05,200
Speaker 4: go into the relationship with becomes the relationship. So my insecurities,

651
00:34:05,560 --> 00:34:09,640
Speaker 4: my fears, my doubts, all of my energies and attitudes

652
00:34:09,960 --> 00:34:12,799
Speaker 4: connected to this being, you know. And we started off

653
00:34:12,840 --> 00:34:17,000
Speaker 4: really great vegetarian vegetaranir Oh, that's hot. Okay. I was

654
00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:20,480
Speaker 4: powerwalking in Brooklyn and jogging, and I knew he was

655
00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:21,920
Speaker 4: going to kind of try to wrap to me. You

656
00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:24,040
Speaker 4: could always, you know, and too, so he came around,

657
00:34:24,080 --> 00:34:26,200
Speaker 4: he said, Hi, how you doing. Happy Sunday? I said,

658
00:34:26,239 --> 00:34:29,360
Speaker 4: happy Sunday to you jogging and he was in a

659
00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:31,200
Speaker 4: jazz and I was in a jazz and so it

660
00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,920
Speaker 4: was so it was a lovely frame of great possibilities,

661
00:34:35,160 --> 00:34:38,800
Speaker 4: But inside of that there's still your insecurities, your fears,

662
00:34:39,080 --> 00:34:42,040
Speaker 4: your doubts, or am I pretty enough? I'm just so happy.

663
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:44,560
Speaker 4: I'm so grateful for this relationship with that all that's

664
00:34:44,600 --> 00:34:46,160
Speaker 4: coming in. So that's why we have to really get

665
00:34:46,200 --> 00:34:50,839
Speaker 4: to ourselves and help our daughters and talk to them young,

666
00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:54,879
Speaker 4: see yourself, and talk to them now, because otherwise they're

667
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:57,880
Speaker 4: going to fall into the same traps and you're gonna say,

668
00:34:57,880 --> 00:34:58,919
Speaker 4: wait a minute, how.

669
00:34:58,840 --> 00:35:00,000
Speaker 5: Did this happen?

670
00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:04,120
Speaker 4: I didn't tell her that, I didn't have that conversation.

671
00:35:04,200 --> 00:35:06,480
Speaker 4: She never even saw that. But if you don't clear

672
00:35:06,560 --> 00:35:10,920
Speaker 4: that up inside yourself, it will passed down mother to daughter.

673
00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:15,000
Speaker 1: I mean, I think about the frame and how many

674
00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:19,120
Speaker 1: women and men enter relationships based on the frame just

675
00:35:19,280 --> 00:35:21,400
Speaker 1: this this frame frame.

676
00:35:22,080 --> 00:35:25,000
Speaker 4: Oh he looks so fine that frame, and he's got

677
00:35:25,040 --> 00:35:28,800
Speaker 4: the money, and he's got the he likes me, oh great,

678
00:35:30,719 --> 00:35:31,759
Speaker 4: a little bit more than that.

679
00:35:31,880 --> 00:35:35,440
Speaker 1: But sometimes it's not, you know, and and and that's

680
00:35:35,760 --> 00:35:38,080
Speaker 1: and that's where the death begins.

681
00:35:38,239 --> 00:35:41,120
Speaker 3: Well because people, you know what women, men, we're seeking.

682
00:35:41,600 --> 00:35:44,840
Speaker 3: We're seeking validation if we haven't sought it out to

683
00:35:44,920 --> 00:35:48,120
Speaker 3: validate ourselves. We're seeking someone to tell us we're beautiful.

684
00:35:48,120 --> 00:35:49,880
Speaker 3: We're seeking someone to tell us you're so worthy. I

685
00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:52,040
Speaker 3: want to be with you. I love you, you know

686
00:35:52,080 --> 00:35:54,920
Speaker 3: what I mean? And then that feels so good because

687
00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:57,520
Speaker 3: a lot of times we haven't validated ourselves, we haven't

688
00:35:57,520 --> 00:36:00,200
Speaker 3: really really loved ourselves. And I find that a lot

689
00:36:00,239 --> 00:36:01,719
Speaker 3: of us say, of course I love myself, I know

690
00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:04,680
Speaker 3: I'm fine, I'm the bomb, I respect myself, But then

691
00:36:04,719 --> 00:36:06,640
Speaker 3: our actions show up and it's not that. And I

692
00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,920
Speaker 3: had to like really crack myself open and be like, girl,

693
00:36:10,040 --> 00:36:14,040
Speaker 3: you lying that is a lie because this doesn't add up,

694
00:36:14,480 --> 00:36:16,319
Speaker 3: you know. So a lot of times it's like we

695
00:36:16,520 --> 00:36:19,400
Speaker 3: all is. It's in our human nature to want to

696
00:36:19,440 --> 00:36:22,080
Speaker 3: feel needed. I want to feel loved, and if we

697
00:36:22,120 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 3: haven't addressed that like void in ourselves, we will seek

698
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:29,080
Speaker 3: out whomever, even if it's basic, the basic framework to

699
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:33,040
Speaker 3: fill our cups, and like it's never it's never enough

700
00:36:33,920 --> 00:36:35,200
Speaker 3: if it's not first filled by you.

701
00:36:35,760 --> 00:36:37,799
Speaker 4: Well, one of the things is missing. That's why the

702
00:36:37,840 --> 00:36:40,200
Speaker 4: book Sake of Woman, I believe, is an answer to

703
00:36:40,280 --> 00:36:43,800
Speaker 4: so many levels and so many calls, because what's missing

704
00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:49,800
Speaker 4: is a guide to grow into yourself. Stolen people store

705
00:36:49,840 --> 00:36:56,239
Speaker 4: a culture, a language, a land, a home, or medicine away.

706
00:36:56,640 --> 00:36:59,320
Speaker 4: And that's from the beginning of time to walk throughout Africa.

707
00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:01,359
Speaker 4: When we were stolen those four hundred years. That had

708
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:03,799
Speaker 4: a devastating impact on us. And we're still trying to

709
00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:07,880
Speaker 4: recover so many of our men their rights of passages

710
00:37:07,960 --> 00:37:10,920
Speaker 4: in prison, so many of our sisters their rights of

711
00:37:10,960 --> 00:37:13,520
Speaker 4: passages on the pole dancing. You know, we have different

712
00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:17,080
Speaker 4: things that have happened that have us in these situations

713
00:37:17,440 --> 00:37:19,040
Speaker 4: that we need to staw healing. So the rice of

714
00:37:19,160 --> 00:37:21,920
Speaker 4: passage is a way that we can begin to find

715
00:37:22,160 --> 00:37:27,120
Speaker 4: our way home to ourselves and that there's a healing

716
00:37:27,120 --> 00:37:30,960
Speaker 4: affirmation that our ancestors gave to us. It says, we

717
00:37:31,080 --> 00:37:33,480
Speaker 4: are the women who lightened the darkness.

718
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:36,800
Speaker 1: We are the women who lighten the darkness.

719
00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:39,360
Speaker 4: We have come to lighten the darkness.

720
00:37:39,600 --> 00:37:42,800
Speaker 1: We have come to lighten the darkness. It is lightened,

721
00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:47,560
Speaker 1: it is lightened. We have overcome the destroyers. We have

722
00:37:47,719 --> 00:37:48,880
Speaker 1: overcome the destroyers.

723
00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:51,799
Speaker 4: We are there for those who weep, who hide their faces.

724
00:37:52,239 --> 00:37:55,080
Speaker 1: We are there for those who weep and hide their faces,

725
00:37:55,120 --> 00:37:57,640
Speaker 1: who sunk down. We sunk down.

726
00:37:57,760 --> 00:38:00,600
Speaker 4: They looked upon us, then they looked upon us game

727
00:38:01,520 --> 00:38:04,760
Speaker 4: We are the women. We are the healers.

728
00:38:04,760 --> 00:38:05,480
Speaker 5: We are the women.

729
00:38:05,600 --> 00:38:06,600
Speaker 1: We are the healers.

730
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:10,040
Speaker 4: We are the women. We are the healers. So we

731
00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:13,160
Speaker 4: could take time to really go inside our hearts and

732
00:38:13,239 --> 00:38:16,760
Speaker 4: our minds, and our spirit and our blood and our womb,

733
00:38:16,800 --> 00:38:19,799
Speaker 4: all of the healing. That from gateway to gateway, we

734
00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 4: would discover the true beauty and that would radiate and

735
00:38:23,239 --> 00:38:25,520
Speaker 4: then we won't have to look for the man. He

736
00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:28,239
Speaker 4: would seek us out and we would be patient because

737
00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:32,480
Speaker 4: we know that we're ageless and we're beautiful, and that

738
00:38:32,520 --> 00:38:35,440
Speaker 4: we're the original paradigm of the beauty of what a

739
00:38:35,480 --> 00:38:38,160
Speaker 4: woman is. So that we can now hold on to

740
00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:40,879
Speaker 4: our grace and our beauty, and then he will come,

741
00:38:40,920 --> 00:38:43,319
Speaker 4: the right one will come. But he also needs his

742
00:38:43,440 --> 00:38:46,440
Speaker 4: rights of passage. Many of our men, they have not

743
00:38:46,520 --> 00:38:50,120
Speaker 4: been poured into love and nurturing and you know, so

744
00:38:50,360 --> 00:38:52,040
Speaker 4: what do we do with that? They need to heal.

745
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:54,840
Speaker 4: So we have a program for the women, which is

746
00:38:54,920 --> 00:38:56,960
Speaker 4: sacred women rights a passage, and we also have it

747
00:38:56,960 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 4: for the men, which is man heal ourself, wellness, worried.

748
00:39:00,840 --> 00:39:03,840
Speaker 4: So by having a method in a way, in a pathway,

749
00:39:04,160 --> 00:39:06,399
Speaker 4: you can find your way home. And that will only

750
00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:11,080
Speaker 4: inspire whatever your circle is. You have a circle, right

751
00:39:11,360 --> 00:39:13,759
Speaker 4: and another step a circle. If we could have a

752
00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:16,640
Speaker 4: unified circle, someone we can all drink from the well,

753
00:39:16,719 --> 00:39:19,359
Speaker 4: from the water, from the ocean. That would then bring

754
00:39:19,440 --> 00:39:22,640
Speaker 4: us together, because it's the divide and conquer. You know,

755
00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:28,160
Speaker 4: women can't come together because they're divided with their mothers. Okay,

756
00:39:28,360 --> 00:39:31,839
Speaker 4: women can't. Men and women can't come together because women

757
00:39:31,880 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 4: are anger at their fathers. So how do we unify?

758
00:39:35,560 --> 00:39:38,200
Speaker 4: We have to have a right away home and a

759
00:39:38,320 --> 00:39:40,440
Speaker 4: method that we can all live by that we can

760
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:43,920
Speaker 4: agree with. And when I love the second woman is

761
00:39:43,920 --> 00:39:46,600
Speaker 4: but it's a channel, you know, I just like I

762
00:39:46,600 --> 00:39:48,040
Speaker 4: love the fact that you having to be the card.

763
00:39:49,480 --> 00:39:51,439
Speaker 4: And I just was laughing because I felt so much

764
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:55,719
Speaker 4: of myself and the two of you, and that my work,

765
00:39:55,760 --> 00:39:59,359
Speaker 4: because my work is circles, and those circles will answer

766
00:39:59,400 --> 00:40:02,080
Speaker 4: the question what are you going through? It's in the circle.

767
00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:04,560
Speaker 4: I say, everything that you need is in the circle.

768
00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:07,799
Speaker 4: Just seek And if you seek, and even if this

769
00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:10,759
Speaker 4: circle doesn't have that answer, by you asking, someone will

770
00:40:10,760 --> 00:40:12,920
Speaker 4: come in that circle and they'll have with the circle needs.

771
00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:15,200
Speaker 4: So you just have to know that everything that you

772
00:40:15,239 --> 00:40:18,200
Speaker 4: need is right there and just call on it and

773
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:22,160
Speaker 4: trust your intuition, which is a feminine principle of power.

774
00:40:25,080 --> 00:40:26,880
Speaker 1: Well, you know I have there's a lot there that

775
00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:27,759
Speaker 1: I a.

776
00:40:29,239 --> 00:40:29,759
Speaker 5: Yes to.

777
00:40:29,840 --> 00:40:33,600
Speaker 1: All of that be I feel like this I've always

778
00:40:33,640 --> 00:40:36,600
Speaker 1: been I've always been guided by my intuition. However, I

779
00:40:36,640 --> 00:40:39,000
Speaker 1: have not been impeccable with it.

780
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:41,120
Speaker 4: And you have choice things that you listen to.

781
00:40:41,360 --> 00:40:44,560
Speaker 5: Ye this, I'm like, oh, I don't like that. She

782
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:45,200
Speaker 5: must be wrong.

783
00:40:45,239 --> 00:40:47,439
Speaker 1: She's tripping to that again.

784
00:40:47,600 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 5: Let me say, let's just say something real quick.

785
00:40:51,840 --> 00:40:52,480
Speaker 4: Let me just.

786
00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:57,080
Speaker 1: But I really you know, at the end of last year,

787
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:02,000
Speaker 1: I went through something that really called me to say, Erica,

788
00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:10,120
Speaker 1: you knew you always know, Okay, stop and trust trust

789
00:41:10,120 --> 00:41:12,400
Speaker 1: the voice. And then a voice came to me. I

790
00:41:12,440 --> 00:41:14,520
Speaker 1: had this download and it was just like, this is

791
00:41:14,520 --> 00:41:18,520
Speaker 1: what you must do, and don't betray me again, you know.

792
00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:21,160
Speaker 1: And I was like, Okay, So I feel like I'm

793
00:41:21,239 --> 00:41:23,879
Speaker 1: in this this year, this this next year of my life.

794
00:41:24,080 --> 00:41:30,360
Speaker 1: I am like really listening to Like I'm really really

795
00:41:30,480 --> 00:41:35,799
Speaker 1: listening closely and not letting my emotions guide my my

796
00:41:35,880 --> 00:41:38,839
Speaker 1: decisions to follow my intuition, because I think too there's

797
00:41:38,960 --> 00:41:41,440
Speaker 1: there's a level of sometimes like where I feel like, oh,

798
00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:43,640
Speaker 1: let me just be more. Let me My intuition is

799
00:41:43,680 --> 00:41:46,000
Speaker 1: telling me no, but I want to be I want

800
00:41:46,000 --> 00:41:47,759
Speaker 1: to be compassionate here, So let me.

801
00:41:47,840 --> 00:41:50,600
Speaker 4: Just see you could be compassionate and say thank you

802
00:41:50,640 --> 00:41:51,480
Speaker 4: for so nice meeting.

803
00:41:51,760 --> 00:41:55,880
Speaker 1: I realized that too. I realized that too. And you know, also,

804
00:41:56,080 --> 00:42:00,439
Speaker 1: I think in in beginning to read the same woman,

805
00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:04,640
Speaker 1: and it's really all about, you know, healing and healing

806
00:42:04,640 --> 00:42:06,920
Speaker 1: the womb, and how healing the wom. I mean, I

807
00:42:06,960 --> 00:42:09,719
Speaker 1: don't know what it's all about, but I know that

808
00:42:09,800 --> 00:42:12,600
Speaker 1: at its core, it's really very much about healing the

809
00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:15,360
Speaker 1: woman and how that kind of heals everything else. And

810
00:42:15,600 --> 00:42:18,560
Speaker 1: I was thinking too about my womb and the real

811
00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:20,680
Speaker 1: me and Mila when we met, how I just had

812
00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:23,480
Speaker 1: my child, and how I had never been called to

813
00:42:23,520 --> 00:42:25,799
Speaker 1: do something like this before, and how I feel like

814
00:42:26,239 --> 00:42:30,360
Speaker 1: almost this like my womb called me to find someone

815
00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:33,440
Speaker 1: else who was in the same space as me, and

816
00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:37,400
Speaker 1: and just how too as women like that. And granted,

817
00:42:37,400 --> 00:42:39,840
Speaker 1: we are all mothers in our own rights. Some women

818
00:42:39,920 --> 00:42:42,040
Speaker 1: give birth, some women give birth to other types of things,

819
00:42:42,160 --> 00:42:45,600
Speaker 1: but we all have a womb and it's such a

820
00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:50,279
Speaker 1: gift and it is like blessed and layered with so

821
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:52,920
Speaker 1: much intuition. It is our gift. It is our divine

822
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:55,719
Speaker 1: gift as women that we have, and so often we

823
00:42:55,760 --> 00:42:58,920
Speaker 1: betray ourselves by not listening to it, by not nurturing it.

824
00:42:59,520 --> 00:43:03,080
Speaker 1: And I was reading in the book You Have a

825
00:43:03,120 --> 00:43:06,279
Speaker 1: Sacred Womb Journal, and I was reading some of the

826
00:43:06,400 --> 00:43:10,480
Speaker 1: questions and I was like, okay, I was like a number,

827
00:43:10,520 --> 00:43:12,719
Speaker 1: I'm gonna read some here because I was like, oh

828
00:43:12,719 --> 00:43:14,759
Speaker 1: my god, am I ready to answer these questions like this?

829
00:43:15,640 --> 00:43:18,600
Speaker 5: While it's I was like, these are these are some.

830
00:43:18,640 --> 00:43:21,120
Speaker 1: Questions that we always hope even like no one would

831
00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:24,279
Speaker 1: ever ask us and then let alone ask let let

832
00:43:24,280 --> 00:43:27,399
Speaker 1: alone ask ourselves. Like one of them was how many

833
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:30,040
Speaker 1: men and what type of men have entered your womb?

834
00:43:30,719 --> 00:43:32,840
Speaker 1: And you know, that's always like this taboo question. The

835
00:43:32,880 --> 00:43:36,239
Speaker 1: women are like, don't ask me that shit, how many

836
00:43:36,280 --> 00:43:36,920
Speaker 1: of you?

837
00:43:36,719 --> 00:43:39,000
Speaker 2: Like you know, like it's like it's a loaded question

838
00:43:39,080 --> 00:43:40,560
Speaker 2: for women. But men are like.

839
00:43:40,600 --> 00:43:43,520
Speaker 1: You yeah, because we're because we are valued based on

840
00:43:43,560 --> 00:43:45,520
Speaker 1: that number, I mean at least in their eyes or

841
00:43:45,800 --> 00:43:48,320
Speaker 1: in our eyes too, Like our value comes from that number,

842
00:43:49,239 --> 00:43:52,920
Speaker 1: and that even thinking about that privately sometimes can be

843
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:55,960
Speaker 1: really scary for a woman, and like the fact that

844
00:43:56,000 --> 00:43:57,640
Speaker 1: you can't even face that, but you did.

845
00:43:57,680 --> 00:44:00,440
Speaker 5: The act is it's and you have.

846
00:44:00,560 --> 00:44:03,840
Speaker 4: Left of some things. You were left with, the psyche,

847
00:44:04,280 --> 00:44:07,160
Speaker 4: the emotions. It's not all your emotions. You think it's

848
00:44:07,200 --> 00:44:11,040
Speaker 4: this is just me. Wait a minute, No, that's not right.

849
00:44:11,160 --> 00:44:14,480
Speaker 4: That's another entity that's still in the So you have

850
00:44:14,560 --> 00:44:17,560
Speaker 4: to watch who you say yes to, because they drop

851
00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:20,759
Speaker 4: in their thoughts, their feelings, their hurt, their sadness, their joy,

852
00:44:20,880 --> 00:44:24,480
Speaker 4: their pleasure, the pain, how they see women, and then

853
00:44:24,480 --> 00:44:26,239
Speaker 4: you walk in it. It's in the veins, it's in

854
00:44:26,280 --> 00:44:28,880
Speaker 4: the blood, it's in the womb of the heart, the mind.

855
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:31,959
Speaker 4: So you have to discern and you have to ask

856
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:36,480
Speaker 4: most high guide my relationship, show me, because obviously I

857
00:44:36,520 --> 00:44:38,759
Speaker 4: don't know, because that's why I keep ending one. So

858
00:44:39,080 --> 00:44:42,480
Speaker 4: you make the relationship, you create this to me, and

859
00:44:42,560 --> 00:44:44,799
Speaker 4: I'll do the work to be of the frequency that

860
00:44:44,840 --> 00:44:48,359
Speaker 4: I'm seeking so that I can really become one with that.

861
00:44:48,760 --> 00:44:51,560
Speaker 4: Because the children, I had to think about what state

862
00:44:51,600 --> 00:44:55,879
Speaker 4: of consciousness I was in in conception, because the state

863
00:44:55,920 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 4: of consciousness was the child that came into my wound,

864
00:44:59,120 --> 00:45:02,399
Speaker 4: the soul and house, and then they came into the world.

865
00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:07,600
Speaker 4: I learned compassion out of that with my children. I said, okay,

866
00:45:07,880 --> 00:45:10,719
Speaker 4: I said, I said to yell as a mother, I

867
00:45:10,880 --> 00:45:13,760
Speaker 4: get up. I used to be perfect, like take your juices.

868
00:45:13,800 --> 00:45:16,080
Speaker 4: Do you know I have the workshops? Did I tell

869
00:45:16,080 --> 00:45:21,239
Speaker 4: you to sit up too strict? Extreme? So I had

870
00:45:21,239 --> 00:45:23,840
Speaker 4: to really look at myself and what I was thinking,

871
00:45:24,360 --> 00:45:27,799
Speaker 4: what I was eating, what I was feeling, and the conception,

872
00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:31,799
Speaker 4: because it's the conception that creates the soul and how

873
00:45:31,840 --> 00:45:34,439
Speaker 4: they're move and walk in the world. So it's not

874
00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:38,520
Speaker 4: just what you are carrying yourself and you have a baby. No,

875
00:45:38,640 --> 00:45:41,440
Speaker 4: it's everything that you are and everything that you felt

876
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:43,800
Speaker 4: and everything that they felt, because it's really one spirit

877
00:45:44,600 --> 00:45:47,080
Speaker 4: moving through you. So the information is in your child

878
00:45:47,080 --> 00:45:48,520
Speaker 4: of where you were at that time.

879
00:45:49,640 --> 00:45:52,719
Speaker 1: That's kind of scary because when I was pregnant, I

880
00:45:53,080 --> 00:45:55,480
Speaker 1: think I went through there was a period of a

881
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:57,400
Speaker 1: lot of joy, and then there was a period of

882
00:45:57,440 --> 00:46:03,040
Speaker 1: a lot of fear, sad, not having my mother's support

883
00:46:03,080 --> 00:46:06,920
Speaker 1: of my pregnancy. For for the first few months of

884
00:46:06,920 --> 00:46:12,600
Speaker 1: my pregnancy, my partner like just it just was his

885
00:46:12,719 --> 00:46:16,280
Speaker 1: safety was in question. So I was always worried and concerned,

886
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:18,040
Speaker 1: and so there was a lot of like fear, and

887
00:46:18,080 --> 00:46:21,640
Speaker 1: I'm thinking about my daughter now and she is amazing.

888
00:46:22,640 --> 00:46:25,359
Speaker 1: We are different though, obviously, I think as most children.

889
00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:27,480
Speaker 1: I think as mothers we start to realize that our children,

890
00:46:27,880 --> 00:46:31,440
Speaker 1: we are just portals for them and they're not our minimes.

891
00:46:31,760 --> 00:46:33,360
Speaker 1: But I think of like too, the things that I

892
00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:36,839
Speaker 1: carry during hergnant my pregnancy and how they show up

893
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:40,520
Speaker 1: in her as a human now. Yes, and she is.

894
00:46:41,600 --> 00:46:44,080
Speaker 1: She plays it safe. She is a by the book

895
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:47,280
Speaker 1: type of girl. And if you good mom's bad choices,

896
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:50,640
Speaker 1: clearly we are not so so I think I am.

897
00:46:50,760 --> 00:46:52,800
Speaker 1: I think that there's parts of me that are that way.

898
00:46:52,840 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 1: But I know for me as a mom, it's been

899
00:46:55,160 --> 00:46:58,520
Speaker 1: frustrating sometimes I'm like, girl, we're parking in the red.

900
00:46:58,560 --> 00:47:00,600
Speaker 1: She's like, oh my god, Mom, we could not parking

901
00:47:00,600 --> 00:47:00,919
Speaker 1: the red.

902
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:01,920
Speaker 5: The police are gonna come.

903
00:47:04,800 --> 00:47:07,200
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, that was that fear in the womb.

904
00:47:07,320 --> 00:47:08,600
Speaker 5: Huh.

905
00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:08,959
Speaker 4: Yeah.

906
00:47:09,120 --> 00:47:11,759
Speaker 1: She does not like to break the rules, like she's

907
00:47:11,800 --> 00:47:15,200
Speaker 1: she needs to be on time, like she has expectations,

908
00:47:15,280 --> 00:47:18,840
Speaker 1: and I'm like, okay, and thinking about that and what

909
00:47:18,880 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 1: you just said, I'm like, it's so, it is so important.

910
00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:23,279
Speaker 1: It is kind of scary though it kind of puts

911
00:47:23,320 --> 00:47:25,520
Speaker 1: a lot of pressure on them, on a mother too,

912
00:47:25,600 --> 00:47:28,960
Speaker 1: to like really try and be you have to as.

913
00:47:29,480 --> 00:47:32,920
Speaker 4: You can soul. But then also it's both sides. Like

914
00:47:33,000 --> 00:47:36,040
Speaker 4: my daughter moves slower than I do. I move fast.

915
00:47:36,719 --> 00:47:38,800
Speaker 4: Sometimes we'll go into a brick wall. I'm moving so quick,

916
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:42,160
Speaker 4: so I need to slow down and so when she moves,

917
00:47:42,440 --> 00:47:44,720
Speaker 4: I have to move into that. Really have to practice.

918
00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:47,520
Speaker 4: That's my lesson here. And then we talked about it

919
00:47:47,560 --> 00:47:49,440
Speaker 4: and she says, I need to like when you when

920
00:47:49,480 --> 00:47:51,520
Speaker 4: you get a vision, you just move on it, and

921
00:47:51,680 --> 00:47:53,719
Speaker 4: I need to stop moving on it. So there is

922
00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:56,200
Speaker 4: something is giving a take the ebb and a flow

923
00:47:56,920 --> 00:48:00,800
Speaker 4: that is a dance between mother and daughter. It's really special.

924
00:48:01,120 --> 00:48:03,759
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think my lesson has been to not try

925
00:48:03,760 --> 00:48:06,800
Speaker 1: to change and not try to make her feel bad

926
00:48:06,880 --> 00:48:10,440
Speaker 1: for those things and instead try to I guess, like

927
00:48:11,040 --> 00:48:13,600
Speaker 1: just relate to her and accept it. And yes, I

928
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:15,759
Speaker 1: think we're still she's only seven, so the ebbs and flow,

929
00:48:15,840 --> 00:48:16,520
Speaker 1: you know, I haven't.

930
00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:20,840
Speaker 5: Got there yet, right, But I mean that that is

931
00:48:20,880 --> 00:48:21,960
Speaker 5: my that's my hope.

932
00:48:23,520 --> 00:48:27,040
Speaker 1: And if I ever have another child, I definitely I

933
00:48:27,120 --> 00:48:29,360
Speaker 1: know that it would it would have to be a

934
00:48:29,440 --> 00:48:32,160
Speaker 1: different experience, I'm so much more self aware.

935
00:48:32,239 --> 00:48:32,439
Speaker 5: Yeah.

936
00:48:32,480 --> 00:48:34,959
Speaker 4: Oh well, the level of your consciousness is the level

937
00:48:35,000 --> 00:48:35,600
Speaker 4: of your mate.

938
00:48:36,800 --> 00:48:38,800
Speaker 2: Oh that's the truth.

939
00:48:38,840 --> 00:48:42,840
Speaker 4: Shit, So it has something you can So okay, you

940
00:48:42,880 --> 00:48:45,040
Speaker 4: know what, not right now, let me work on myself

941
00:48:45,040 --> 00:48:48,200
Speaker 4: a little bit further, because when you say okay, this

942
00:48:48,320 --> 00:48:51,080
Speaker 4: is it? Is it? Really it is? There a few

943
00:48:51,120 --> 00:48:53,560
Speaker 4: more things that you can clean up and put in

944
00:48:53,680 --> 00:48:56,400
Speaker 4: order in your life because when you say yes, block,

945
00:48:56,600 --> 00:48:59,400
Speaker 4: you lock into that place of consciousness. And that's what

946
00:48:59,480 --> 00:49:02,840
Speaker 4: she created the relationship or the life that you carry,

947
00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:07,200
Speaker 4: which is a continuation of the relationship. When you talk

948
00:49:07,239 --> 00:49:12,160
Speaker 4: about womb wellness. Well, Sacred Woman opened up the energy

949
00:49:12,200 --> 00:49:14,880
Speaker 4: of the womb healing and the conversation with the womb.

950
00:49:15,680 --> 00:49:17,520
Speaker 4: And the first time I heard the womb speak and

951
00:49:17,560 --> 00:49:20,080
Speaker 4: I call her she because I wanted to have close

952
00:49:20,200 --> 00:49:25,239
Speaker 4: relationship because we stay down there, you know, disconnected. I was.

953
00:49:25,320 --> 00:49:28,360
Speaker 4: I saw maybe thirty people that week for clients. Everybody

954
00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:31,920
Speaker 4: was in a crisis. And I remember four fifteen. It

955
00:49:32,040 --> 00:49:35,600
Speaker 4: was four fifteen on a Friday, and I had a thump.

956
00:49:35,719 --> 00:49:37,640
Speaker 4: My wound. Life really dropped. I didn't know about a

957
00:49:37,760 --> 00:49:41,320
Speaker 4: prolapse uteris then, and I said, oh wait, a minute.

958
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:43,080
Speaker 4: Oh my goodness, I didn't know what to do. And

959
00:49:43,120 --> 00:49:46,000
Speaker 4: now I began to kind of panic, like I gotta

960
00:49:46,160 --> 00:49:48,719
Speaker 4: take care of myself. I got to heal myself. I

961
00:49:48,760 --> 00:49:50,680
Speaker 4: can't go outside of myself for someone to heal me.

962
00:49:50,719 --> 00:49:52,200
Speaker 4: I've got to heal myself. So I went to my

963
00:49:52,239 --> 00:49:55,920
Speaker 4: girlfriend was in my laboratory building to my product, and

964
00:49:55,960 --> 00:49:57,920
Speaker 4: I said, well, heed her my womb. But like it

965
00:49:58,040 --> 00:50:00,759
Speaker 4: just dropped out of me. She said, well, you're the heel.

966
00:50:00,800 --> 00:50:05,440
Speaker 4: I don't know what to tell you. I said, well, okay,

967
00:50:05,560 --> 00:50:07,800
Speaker 4: And that was the moment I said what am I

968
00:50:07,840 --> 00:50:09,719
Speaker 4: going to do? Ask the question what am I going

969
00:50:09,800 --> 00:50:12,400
Speaker 4: to do? And I heard the inner voice That was

970
00:50:12,440 --> 00:50:14,799
Speaker 4: the loudest I heard the voice in the early days.

971
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:20,560
Speaker 4: It says, go upstairs now, not okay, I'm not questioning

972
00:50:20,560 --> 00:50:22,560
Speaker 4: because I'm desperate. I need a healing right now, and

973
00:50:22,600 --> 00:50:25,560
Speaker 4: I know it has to come from within. And she said,

974
00:50:25,560 --> 00:50:27,920
Speaker 4: go upstairs where I have a meditation room at the

975
00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:30,840
Speaker 4: time in Brooklyn. And she said, now lay down, and

976
00:50:30,880 --> 00:50:32,600
Speaker 4: I put your feet up against the wall, so it

977
00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:35,640
Speaker 4: was like an angle about angle. And now she said,

978
00:50:35,680 --> 00:50:38,239
Speaker 4: put your hands on me. And then she says, not

979
00:50:38,400 --> 00:50:42,439
Speaker 4: breathe brief life into us, and she began to talk

980
00:50:42,480 --> 00:50:44,680
Speaker 4: to me, and then I relaxed. The time went and

981
00:50:44,719 --> 00:50:47,600
Speaker 4: then she gave me a formula and I had to

982
00:50:47,719 --> 00:50:48,800
Speaker 4: leave New York.

983
00:50:49,760 --> 00:50:51,400
Speaker 1: That was one of that was part of the face.

984
00:50:51,440 --> 00:50:54,759
Speaker 4: It was a big formula which I could have debated,

985
00:50:55,560 --> 00:50:58,000
Speaker 4: but I wasn't. I wouldn't want to have HYS directed me.

986
00:50:58,280 --> 00:51:01,160
Speaker 4: If that was not in the cards, I'm not having it.

987
00:51:01,760 --> 00:51:03,359
Speaker 4: So I said, oh, is that what I need to do? Okay,

988
00:51:03,400 --> 00:51:04,960
Speaker 4: now my children? What am gonna do with that? And

989
00:51:05,239 --> 00:51:08,200
Speaker 4: the business? And I have eight people employed. But I

990
00:51:08,520 --> 00:51:11,360
Speaker 4: but I asked Creator, how do I do it? How

991
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:14,440
Speaker 4: do I heal me and keep everything else going? How

992
00:51:14,440 --> 00:51:15,960
Speaker 4: do I heal me and take care of my children?

993
00:51:16,239 --> 00:51:18,320
Speaker 4: How do I heal me and take care of my company?

994
00:51:19,120 --> 00:51:21,680
Speaker 4: And I was given a formulation and I did it

995
00:51:21,760 --> 00:51:25,080
Speaker 4: for six months. Every month I'd come back here, back

996
00:51:25,120 --> 00:51:28,240
Speaker 4: in New York Brooklyn, and I would work to my clients.

997
00:51:28,239 --> 00:51:30,520
Speaker 4: I'd get on that plane ten days later. It's like

998
00:51:30,680 --> 00:51:33,719
Speaker 4: eight nine months birthday, get on the plane, go for

999
00:51:33,840 --> 00:51:36,920
Speaker 4: two weeks work in the same time. St. Croix come

1000
00:51:37,400 --> 00:51:39,080
Speaker 4: and I did that, and I had time to do

1001
00:51:39,160 --> 00:51:43,080
Speaker 4: a healing bath and a sun bath and take fresh pineapple.

1002
00:51:43,360 --> 00:51:45,920
Speaker 4: I was able to really go in. But in that

1003
00:51:46,160 --> 00:51:50,200
Speaker 4: time I really finished that first chapter, which was Womb healing,

1004
00:51:50,719 --> 00:51:53,799
Speaker 4: the Voice of the Womb, the Journal of the Womb,

1005
00:51:53,840 --> 00:51:58,239
Speaker 4: the conversation, the woomb yoga dance. Everything was womb, warm,

1006
00:51:58,280 --> 00:52:00,359
Speaker 4: warm woman. I remember the husband at the time said,

1007
00:52:00,680 --> 00:52:02,680
Speaker 4: what you think everything is the womb? I said, yes,

1008
00:52:03,040 --> 00:52:06,000
Speaker 4: all of you came from out of us. So I'm

1009
00:52:06,080 --> 00:52:09,680
Speaker 4: listening to the womb talk and I'm being obedient. But

1010
00:52:09,800 --> 00:52:13,919
Speaker 4: then what happened over time? Everyone cannot relate to sacred women.

1011
00:52:13,960 --> 00:52:18,120
Speaker 4: It's so intense, right, but everyone knows they have a womb,

1012
00:52:18,600 --> 00:52:21,279
Speaker 4: and those who wombs have been taken and hys directed me,

1013
00:52:21,560 --> 00:52:24,600
Speaker 4: they still have a womb. It's the womb of the mind,

1014
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:27,080
Speaker 4: or what we think we birth, recreate. It's the womb

1015
00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:29,439
Speaker 4: of the heart. But we feel we birth, we create,

1016
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:31,799
Speaker 4: and what we think and what we feel it translates

1017
00:52:31,840 --> 00:52:34,840
Speaker 4: into the condition of our wounds. If we have been

1018
00:52:34,880 --> 00:52:37,919
Speaker 4: domuculosis or fib were tumors or assists. It's really what's

1019
00:52:37,960 --> 00:52:40,400
Speaker 4: inside the heart, how we feel relationships that were not

1020
00:52:40,520 --> 00:52:44,120
Speaker 4: resolved or healed up. So that brought me into womb

1021
00:52:44,200 --> 00:52:46,640
Speaker 4: kill Love, which is what I'm doing now, and I

1022
00:52:46,719 --> 00:52:48,960
Speaker 4: want to invite you both in every all of your

1023
00:52:49,000 --> 00:52:53,400
Speaker 4: listening audience to for the New Year, knew you a

1024
00:52:53,520 --> 00:52:57,839
Speaker 4: womb kill Love holistic party. Oh yeah, So you come

1025
00:52:57,920 --> 00:52:59,200
Speaker 4: on and we're just going to have a part. We're

1026
00:52:59,200 --> 00:53:02,520
Speaker 4: going to celebrate our wombs. We're gonna have conversation with her,

1027
00:53:02,960 --> 00:53:05,640
Speaker 4: We're gonna do some healing movements. I'm gonna talk about

1028
00:53:05,640 --> 00:53:07,480
Speaker 4: the wombfruit jewel up and some things you can do

1029
00:53:07,560 --> 00:53:10,120
Speaker 4: in the kitchen and your healing baths and your love potions.

1030
00:53:10,400 --> 00:53:12,480
Speaker 4: Then we're just gonna have two hours of talking and

1031
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:15,759
Speaker 4: chatting and sharing some of our womb's stories and mother

1032
00:53:15,880 --> 00:53:19,560
Speaker 4: daughter stories about what was your birth story? Do you remember?

1033
00:53:19,640 --> 00:53:21,800
Speaker 4: Do you know? Did your mamma talk to you about it?

1034
00:53:22,520 --> 00:53:24,520
Speaker 4: So we're just gonna have a time where we have

1035
00:53:25,400 --> 00:53:28,040
Speaker 4: time to really reflect in a journal and to go

1036
00:53:28,239 --> 00:53:31,560
Speaker 4: deeper in our healing. So those who are one sacred women,

1037
00:53:31,760 --> 00:53:37,120
Speaker 4: that's a big body of work. From the words as medicine,

1038
00:53:37,280 --> 00:53:40,440
Speaker 4: to movement as medicine, that's a sacred woman, to your

1039
00:53:40,440 --> 00:53:44,359
Speaker 4: inner child's medicine, to your mace has medicine, to your

1040
00:53:44,400 --> 00:53:48,360
Speaker 4: business has medicine, these or twelve gateways of medicine, but

1041
00:53:48,480 --> 00:53:50,200
Speaker 4: those say, well I need to do I can't do

1042
00:53:50,560 --> 00:53:52,600
Speaker 4: all of that. But what I can do is I

1043
00:53:52,640 --> 00:53:55,120
Speaker 4: can focus on this firebird that's growing in me that

1044
00:53:55,239 --> 00:53:57,440
Speaker 4: I don't want to grow anymore and I need to

1045
00:53:57,560 --> 00:54:01,360
Speaker 4: change some habits. So that's for all the women, you know.

1046
00:54:01,719 --> 00:54:04,719
Speaker 4: So that's what we have common ground. It is.

1047
00:54:04,880 --> 00:54:07,319
Speaker 1: That's amazing to think about too. I mean, I've ever

1048
00:54:07,480 --> 00:54:11,960
Speaker 1: considered the womb outside of the like this womb like

1049
00:54:12,040 --> 00:54:13,880
Speaker 1: the womb of the heart and the woman of the mind.

1050
00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:18,600
Speaker 4: Yes, yes, well, I always want to know holistic, how

1051
00:54:18,680 --> 00:54:23,040
Speaker 4: does this all impact everything? How does my womb state

1052
00:54:23,440 --> 00:54:27,400
Speaker 4: impact my children if I'm healthy or not? And what

1053
00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:29,640
Speaker 4: am I birthing a my birthing a business and my

1054
00:54:29,719 --> 00:54:33,840
Speaker 4: birthing a new thought? I see the connection, honess you sauce, Oh,

1055
00:54:33,920 --> 00:54:37,919
Speaker 4: it's a body, mind and spiritual connection. So I would

1056
00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:40,640
Speaker 4: have to then say, what was in my heart at

1057
00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:43,200
Speaker 4: the time that I brought that mate into my life?

1058
00:54:44,560 --> 00:54:48,239
Speaker 4: What was I thinking that I brought that made into

1059
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:51,000
Speaker 4: my life? And according to my thoughts when I started

1060
00:54:51,040 --> 00:54:53,400
Speaker 4: to actually map them and trace them, you know, you

1061
00:54:53,440 --> 00:54:54,880
Speaker 4: get up at between four and six. And the more

1062
00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:56,520
Speaker 4: you can you can see things you can never see.

1063
00:54:56,560 --> 00:54:58,680
Speaker 4: The melon is pouring out. So I said, okay, now,

1064
00:54:58,760 --> 00:55:03,000
Speaker 4: what was that relationship about? And what was I feeling

1065
00:55:03,120 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 4: during that time? Was you feeling lonely? Was you feeling frightened? Scared?

1066
00:55:08,000 --> 00:55:10,759
Speaker 4: So you bring someone into your life to feel a

1067
00:55:10,840 --> 00:55:13,880
Speaker 4: void that it's really for you to heal up. You

1068
00:55:14,040 --> 00:55:17,160
Speaker 4: have to heal yourself. And then to the frequency that

1069
00:55:17,280 --> 00:55:19,239
Speaker 4: you heal yourself, that is the make that will come

1070
00:55:19,320 --> 00:55:22,960
Speaker 4: in and that will be the relationship that is healthy

1071
00:55:23,800 --> 00:55:25,960
Speaker 4: or not healthy. So what are we birthing even in

1072
00:55:26,040 --> 00:55:30,320
Speaker 4: this minute when someone says I just want a man, Okay.

1073
00:55:29,960 --> 00:55:33,560
Speaker 2: Watch out any man. Don't care what you ask for

1074
00:55:35,000 --> 00:55:36,560
Speaker 2: that intation, right.

1075
00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:39,200
Speaker 4: And so we do have to look at everything that

1076
00:55:39,280 --> 00:55:42,160
Speaker 4: we're birthing in our lives. It's coming from inside of ourselves,

1077
00:55:42,200 --> 00:55:45,560
Speaker 4: coming from our mother's story. So I'm miss our mother's story.

1078
00:55:45,680 --> 00:55:47,120
Speaker 4: And I remember there was a young lady, she was

1079
00:55:47,120 --> 00:55:49,879
Speaker 4: about thirty five. She called me and she says, I'm

1080
00:55:49,960 --> 00:55:53,000
Speaker 4: having womb pain every month, and I'm scared about it.

1081
00:55:53,560 --> 00:55:55,480
Speaker 4: I have assists. I don't have it to my assists.

1082
00:55:55,960 --> 00:55:57,440
Speaker 4: So I said, well, tell me about the women in

1083
00:55:57,480 --> 00:56:00,200
Speaker 4: your family. She said, well, I have five on and

1084
00:56:00,320 --> 00:56:04,279
Speaker 4: all five of them had hysterectomies. Okay, my mother had

1085
00:56:04,320 --> 00:56:08,520
Speaker 4: a partial and my grandmother had a partial. I says, okay,

1086
00:56:09,000 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 4: So what are you eating? Dead food, junk food, fried food,

1087
00:56:12,640 --> 00:56:15,680
Speaker 4: fast food? What are your relationships are? Like? Well, I

1088
00:56:15,719 --> 00:56:16,960
Speaker 4: have someone in my life, but I don't know if

1089
00:56:17,000 --> 00:56:18,759
Speaker 4: he's really my mate. So now we get all that

1090
00:56:18,840 --> 00:56:23,400
Speaker 4: confusion going on. I says, okay, well, right now, the

1091
00:56:23,520 --> 00:56:26,200
Speaker 4: direction that you're going on, now you're going to be

1092
00:56:26,280 --> 00:56:30,800
Speaker 4: following your aunts. You have a choice. You can actually

1093
00:56:30,880 --> 00:56:35,120
Speaker 4: save your room by taking time to heal yourself. And

1094
00:56:35,320 --> 00:56:37,560
Speaker 4: taking that time to heal yourself, you can change your

1095
00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:40,960
Speaker 4: whole story and then you become the light of the family. Now,

1096
00:56:41,040 --> 00:56:42,440
Speaker 4: be the light of the family could be a problem

1097
00:56:42,520 --> 00:56:45,319
Speaker 4: for some. They're like, how come I'm different? You better

1098
00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 4: be glad that you the one.

1099
00:56:49,040 --> 00:56:49,920
Speaker 2: Chain makes the change.

1100
00:56:49,960 --> 00:56:50,239
Speaker 5: Come on.

1101
00:56:50,960 --> 00:56:55,160
Speaker 4: My daughter says this story. She says, when her girlfriends,

1102
00:56:55,239 --> 00:56:56,920
Speaker 4: eight of them is in the house, in and out

1103
00:56:56,960 --> 00:56:59,040
Speaker 4: of the house all the time, right, and they would

1104
00:56:59,120 --> 00:57:02,120
Speaker 4: laugh at me, they would teenagers. I have my bells

1105
00:57:02,160 --> 00:57:04,080
Speaker 4: on up in my dance, I have my stylead in

1106
00:57:04,160 --> 00:57:08,640
Speaker 4: my pocketbook. You know me, I'm making a smoothie with

1107
00:57:09,000 --> 00:57:11,759
Speaker 4: berries and fruits and all your mother is just over

1108
00:57:11,840 --> 00:57:15,000
Speaker 4: the top all of Israel. I said, don't worry, I'll

1109
00:57:15,000 --> 00:57:16,080
Speaker 4: see them in their thirties.

1110
00:57:16,760 --> 00:57:18,000
Speaker 5: They'll be back, They'll be back.

1111
00:57:18,520 --> 00:57:20,320
Speaker 4: And I went about my life. I didn't feel no

1112
00:57:20,400 --> 00:57:23,080
Speaker 4: way about it. I left with them, and that's exactly

1113
00:57:23,120 --> 00:57:25,800
Speaker 4: what happened. They thought, well, can you tell me about

1114
00:57:25,920 --> 00:57:28,480
Speaker 4: this movie meal? And I'm having a little problem in

1115
00:57:28,520 --> 00:57:31,080
Speaker 4: this and the third And it's just to have insight

1116
00:57:32,160 --> 00:57:35,280
Speaker 4: that your future is right now and that you have

1117
00:57:35,480 --> 00:57:38,520
Speaker 4: divine wisdom. When you clean the house, this wisdom kicks in.

1118
00:57:38,640 --> 00:57:41,720
Speaker 4: It's amazing. But the Creator can do for our lives

1119
00:57:41,760 --> 00:57:44,520
Speaker 4: and we can actually clean up our house. This is

1120
00:57:44,560 --> 00:57:46,480
Speaker 4: the top of it. Let's just do a deep cleaning.

1121
00:57:47,320 --> 00:57:47,760
Speaker 4: I'm with it.

1122
00:57:47,920 --> 00:57:48,240
Speaker 5: I've been.

1123
00:57:48,480 --> 00:57:52,000
Speaker 1: I have been on the journey of that since that's

1124
00:57:52,040 --> 00:57:54,880
Speaker 1: a little at the end of December, and I want

1125
00:57:54,960 --> 00:57:58,760
Speaker 1: to continue this and not be a detox per se.

1126
00:57:58,880 --> 00:58:02,480
Speaker 2: But my like a life, lie lifestyle, chose life.

1127
00:58:03,000 --> 00:58:06,920
Speaker 1: I truly do I feel, But my body screams at

1128
00:58:06,960 --> 00:58:09,440
Speaker 1: me like when I am not in alignment with it

1129
00:58:09,560 --> 00:58:11,959
Speaker 1: in all ways, whether it's the food I'm eating, whether

1130
00:58:12,000 --> 00:58:15,520
Speaker 1: it's the company I'm keeping, whether it's whatever it is,

1131
00:58:16,080 --> 00:58:18,240
Speaker 1: and it comes out in different ways. I can be impatient,

1132
00:58:18,320 --> 00:58:21,520
Speaker 1: I could be bitchy. I can My stomach hurts all

1133
00:58:21,600 --> 00:58:23,760
Speaker 1: the time. Even as a child, my stomach always hurt

1134
00:58:23,840 --> 00:58:25,560
Speaker 1: and my mom would never was like, why is your

1135
00:58:25,600 --> 00:58:27,080
Speaker 1: stomach always hurt me? I was like, I don't know,

1136
00:58:27,200 --> 00:58:28,840
Speaker 1: Like she always thought I was kidding, and I was like, no,

1137
00:58:28,960 --> 00:58:31,280
Speaker 1: I'm in pain. And I think a lot of it

1138
00:58:31,600 --> 00:58:33,800
Speaker 1: was my diet. I couldn't figure out what my diet

1139
00:58:33,880 --> 00:58:35,680
Speaker 1: needed to be. And even now, like I know when

1140
00:58:35,720 --> 00:58:38,160
Speaker 1: I have gone over the edge, I have done too

1141
00:58:38,240 --> 00:58:40,000
Speaker 1: much of this or too much of that. My body

1142
00:58:40,120 --> 00:58:46,040
Speaker 1: is like I feel like a burnt I feel like

1143
00:58:46,200 --> 00:58:48,520
Speaker 1: fire in my body. I'm inflamed.

1144
00:58:48,600 --> 00:58:51,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, blames actually, I mean that's what metapause is. Your

1145
00:58:51,640 --> 00:58:54,520
Speaker 4: body's in flames. So you have twenty thirty years of

1146
00:58:54,640 --> 00:58:58,200
Speaker 4: being inflamed, so as you mature, the flames really go.

1147
00:58:59,360 --> 00:59:02,640
Speaker 4: So what you do now will affecate your future. So

1148
00:59:03,160 --> 00:59:05,920
Speaker 4: be wise with your wellness and listen to the body,

1149
00:59:06,560 --> 00:59:08,760
Speaker 4: and then you do. You don't have to jump into it,

1150
00:59:09,320 --> 00:59:11,640
Speaker 4: into it and just okay, I'm gonna do everything now,

1151
00:59:11,880 --> 00:59:12,880
Speaker 4: just start to drink.

1152
00:59:12,920 --> 00:59:14,800
Speaker 5: Water, and that's what I usually do.

1153
00:59:14,960 --> 00:59:17,360
Speaker 1: And so I've been much more patient with myself and

1154
00:59:17,440 --> 00:59:20,240
Speaker 1: it feels better. I feel better doing it this way

1155
00:59:20,560 --> 00:59:22,440
Speaker 1: and I'm just looking and.

1156
00:59:22,480 --> 00:59:24,640
Speaker 4: It's just it feels better because she said, see, when

1157
00:59:24,640 --> 00:59:26,560
Speaker 4: you change up and you get upset with us and

1158
00:59:26,600 --> 00:59:27,400
Speaker 4: tell us start up.

1159
00:59:28,840 --> 00:59:29,320
Speaker 5: That's true.

1160
00:59:29,840 --> 00:59:30,640
Speaker 1: I can be a tyrant.

1161
00:59:35,880 --> 00:59:36,760
Speaker 2: You know what it's like.

1162
00:59:36,960 --> 00:59:38,720
Speaker 3: It's it's when you listen to your body, when you

1163
00:59:38,760 --> 00:59:41,000
Speaker 3: listen to your mind, to your womb, when you listen

1164
00:59:41,080 --> 00:59:43,479
Speaker 3: to your intuition, which a lot of us we lose

1165
00:59:43,560 --> 00:59:46,080
Speaker 3: that that you know, like you hear it, but you're like, eh,

1166
00:59:46,680 --> 00:59:48,840
Speaker 3: you like you just write it off as a voice

1167
00:59:48,880 --> 00:59:52,320
Speaker 3: in your head. I've learned in this in this relationship

1168
00:59:52,360 --> 00:59:53,840
Speaker 3: when you know, when she got the download to come

1169
00:59:53,920 --> 00:59:55,520
Speaker 3: to the club and we met in the bathroom and

1170
00:59:55,560 --> 00:59:59,360
Speaker 3: then I was like I'm going. And then you know,

1171
00:59:59,480 --> 01:00:02,000
Speaker 3: years couple of years later, she's like, let's start this podcast.

1172
01:00:02,080 --> 01:00:03,560
Speaker 3: And I didn't even really know what that was and

1173
01:00:03,680 --> 01:00:05,760
Speaker 3: I didn't really care. I was like, okay, Like I

1174
01:00:05,920 --> 01:00:08,960
Speaker 3: needed a friend, I needed the like, you know, I

1175
01:00:09,000 --> 01:00:12,240
Speaker 3: didn't have that many black friends. I had no mom friends,

1176
01:00:12,720 --> 01:00:14,280
Speaker 3: and I was seeking that. I was like, I need

1177
01:00:14,320 --> 01:00:17,480
Speaker 3: someone who really understands me. But I've learned in this process,

1178
01:00:17,600 --> 01:00:19,880
Speaker 3: and I think Erica has too. It's like when I

1179
01:00:20,400 --> 01:00:23,360
Speaker 3: submitted to like whatever that was that was pushing me

1180
01:00:23,480 --> 01:00:26,360
Speaker 3: to be like, yeah, let's do this. Ye, the world

1181
01:00:26,480 --> 01:00:29,520
Speaker 3: opened up for me in ways. You know, we're sitting

1182
01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:32,120
Speaker 3: in our studio. I'm like that I didn't see that vision.

1183
01:00:32,480 --> 01:00:36,040
Speaker 3: But we took the first step, yes, and it felt uncomfortable.

1184
01:00:36,120 --> 01:00:37,640
Speaker 3: It felt we were to just like turn on a

1185
01:00:37,720 --> 01:00:40,280
Speaker 3: mic and be like no one's listening, but who cares?

1186
01:00:40,440 --> 01:00:42,760
Speaker 3: Or tell our business, or like I've been dating and

1187
01:00:43,160 --> 01:00:45,080
Speaker 3: I slept with this person and I don't really like them,

1188
01:00:45,160 --> 01:00:48,440
Speaker 3: or you know, just like really just pour out. But

1189
01:00:49,080 --> 01:00:52,120
Speaker 3: when we made that decision and we followed our intuition

1190
01:00:52,240 --> 01:00:57,000
Speaker 3: in that way, evy like the universe literally just structured

1191
01:00:57,120 --> 01:01:00,680
Speaker 3: everything in our benefit. And a lot of times people, really,

1192
01:01:01,760 --> 01:01:06,920
Speaker 3: I think, take for granted when you listen to your intuition,

1193
01:01:07,200 --> 01:01:10,960
Speaker 3: how everything else will fall into place, even like in

1194
01:01:11,040 --> 01:01:14,240
Speaker 3: your wildest dreams. And you know, even if I can

1195
01:01:14,320 --> 01:01:17,080
Speaker 3: imagine for you, like coming from going from Helen to Queen,

1196
01:01:17,320 --> 01:01:19,760
Speaker 3: you know, and like just taking that first step into

1197
01:01:19,840 --> 01:01:22,200
Speaker 3: listening to the download into like making change. And it

1198
01:01:22,280 --> 01:01:27,840
Speaker 3: may not be overnight, but the universe like spirit also

1199
01:01:28,120 --> 01:01:31,840
Speaker 3: conspires in your benefit when you listen to your inner voice.

1200
01:01:31,920 --> 01:01:34,240
Speaker 3: And that's how you know, because that's the thing like

1201
01:01:34,280 --> 01:01:36,320
Speaker 3: when me and Erica started like birthing things, and I

1202
01:01:36,440 --> 01:01:37,200
Speaker 3: was like, oh my god.

1203
01:01:37,320 --> 01:01:39,440
Speaker 2: I like, we just talked about that, and now it's here.

1204
01:01:39,920 --> 01:01:41,760
Speaker 2: Oh my god. We just talked about maybe having a book,

1205
01:01:41,800 --> 01:01:42,919
Speaker 2: and now it's here. Oh my god.

1206
01:01:42,960 --> 01:01:45,320
Speaker 3: We talked about having retreat and now when I see

1207
01:01:45,360 --> 01:01:47,800
Speaker 3: us birth those things. It gave me the like the

1208
01:01:47,880 --> 01:01:50,840
Speaker 3: foresight to understand my power as an individual in our

1209
01:01:50,920 --> 01:01:51,640
Speaker 3: power together.

1210
01:01:51,840 --> 01:01:53,720
Speaker 2: And it's like my life.

1211
01:01:53,800 --> 01:01:59,000
Speaker 3: Transformed so much just by making that one step, you know,

1212
01:01:59,200 --> 01:02:01,520
Speaker 3: and like allowing her or take me into this journey

1213
01:02:01,560 --> 01:02:04,439
Speaker 3: and be like okay, you know, and just allowing God

1214
01:02:04,640 --> 01:02:08,040
Speaker 3: to like shift everything else and be the light for

1215
01:02:08,160 --> 01:02:11,000
Speaker 3: our families and for our community. And it's like it

1216
01:02:11,200 --> 01:02:15,520
Speaker 3: really is like our bodies are connected with source, are

1217
01:02:15,560 --> 01:02:17,439
Speaker 3: connected with everything outside of us. Just like you said,

1218
01:02:17,480 --> 01:02:21,760
Speaker 3: when you heighten like your vibration, your sacred partnership will come,

1219
01:02:22,160 --> 01:02:25,560
Speaker 3: your sacred friendships will come. Like all these things it's

1220
01:02:25,640 --> 01:02:29,000
Speaker 3: like a light that radiates outside like an alarm system,

1221
01:02:29,120 --> 01:02:34,560
Speaker 3: like peepe, sister, I'm over here, and it's true and

1222
01:02:34,760 --> 01:02:38,040
Speaker 3: people take for granted like that inner voice. I remember

1223
01:02:38,480 --> 01:02:42,160
Speaker 3: I was living in Atlanta in college, not much intention

1224
01:02:42,400 --> 01:02:46,520
Speaker 3: behind anything, and I was living in the West End,

1225
01:02:46,520 --> 01:02:48,560
Speaker 3: which is like a hippie black area, and I had

1226
01:02:48,640 --> 01:02:50,840
Speaker 3: never been around so many like free thinking black people

1227
01:02:50,840 --> 01:02:52,840
Speaker 3: because I grew up in the Valley. And I was

1228
01:02:52,960 --> 01:02:55,520
Speaker 3: like intrigued by that by like women home birthing and

1229
01:02:55,640 --> 01:02:58,400
Speaker 3: like the conversations I was hearing. And this girl was like, yeah,

1230
01:02:58,440 --> 01:03:00,080
Speaker 3: I had a womb circle and I was like, what

1231
01:03:01,600 --> 01:03:03,440
Speaker 3: are y'all doing over there? But when she said it,

1232
01:03:03,560 --> 01:03:05,840
Speaker 3: it like stuck with me. And at the time, I

1233
01:03:05,960 --> 01:03:10,520
Speaker 3: was like doing nothing intentional, sleeping around. And I remember

1234
01:03:10,560 --> 01:03:12,200
Speaker 3: I went in my phone to go like hit up

1235
01:03:12,280 --> 01:03:14,640
Speaker 3: some guy who did who knows who that was, and

1236
01:03:14,760 --> 01:03:18,000
Speaker 3: I got the loudest message from my womb.

1237
01:03:18,080 --> 01:03:19,760
Speaker 2: It was the first and it was so loud and

1238
01:03:19,800 --> 01:03:24,680
Speaker 2: it was like chill out, stop and I was like,

1239
01:03:24,880 --> 01:03:27,760
Speaker 2: who it's like that. I was like, oh my god,

1240
01:03:27,800 --> 01:03:31,560
Speaker 2: I didn't even know she could talk. What the hell

1241
01:03:31,680 --> 01:03:35,280
Speaker 2: is going on? And it didn't so good.

1242
01:03:35,400 --> 01:03:35,680
Speaker 6: It was.

1243
01:03:35,800 --> 01:03:36,840
Speaker 2: It was so clear.

1244
01:03:37,200 --> 01:03:41,320
Speaker 3: I was like, and they were like, I'm tired a bit,

1245
01:03:41,440 --> 01:03:44,360
Speaker 3: just tired, okay. I was like, well, okay, well I

1246
01:03:44,400 --> 01:03:47,760
Speaker 3: guess I'm gonna lay down. And it took me a

1247
01:03:47,880 --> 01:03:50,560
Speaker 3: long time to like really like hone in on that voice,

1248
01:03:50,600 --> 01:03:53,040
Speaker 3: like a very long time, because I heard it clearly,

1249
01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:55,320
Speaker 3: but I didn't put you know, you know, when you

1250
01:03:55,400 --> 01:03:59,640
Speaker 3: were in denial about your how your actions have not

1251
01:03:59,760 --> 01:04:04,040
Speaker 3: made benefited you. I just remember that and thinking, damn,

1252
01:04:04,160 --> 01:04:07,479
Speaker 3: that's crazy. But just as I've evolved, and even sitting

1253
01:04:07,520 --> 01:04:09,200
Speaker 3: here and having this conversation with you, it's just like

1254
01:04:09,400 --> 01:04:12,960
Speaker 3: so full circle. But it's like those little things really

1255
01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:17,320
Speaker 3: do like manifest whether you listen or you don't listen.

1256
01:04:17,360 --> 01:04:18,800
Speaker 3: And just like you were talking about, you know, like

1257
01:04:18,920 --> 01:04:22,280
Speaker 3: this the situation that you like experience not listening to

1258
01:04:22,360 --> 01:04:26,840
Speaker 3: your intuition. One thing about intuition is that mother Jumper

1259
01:04:26,920 --> 01:04:29,360
Speaker 3: is going to show you oh yes, And it might

1260
01:04:29,440 --> 01:04:31,520
Speaker 3: be in the case of a blow up where you

1261
01:04:31,640 --> 01:04:34,560
Speaker 3: have to like, it might lay you down, it might hurt,

1262
01:04:35,160 --> 01:04:39,240
Speaker 3: it might feel like the end, but it's gonna always

1263
01:04:39,320 --> 01:04:43,720
Speaker 3: shake you. So you remember, oh okay, no, not that direction.

1264
01:04:44,080 --> 01:04:47,120
Speaker 4: It's to be zolved. Actually, the intuition is not going

1265
01:04:47,200 --> 01:04:50,240
Speaker 4: to hurt you, but it's going to give you the information.

1266
01:04:51,320 --> 01:04:54,200
Speaker 4: It's what you do with that truth, that information that

1267
01:04:54,240 --> 01:04:56,800
Speaker 4: will determinef you want to be on the floor under

1268
01:04:56,840 --> 01:04:59,600
Speaker 4: the bed lock in a closet of your own heart.

1269
01:05:00,200 --> 01:05:02,959
Speaker 4: So if you when you hear it's it's called ask,

1270
01:05:03,160 --> 01:05:06,400
Speaker 4: you ask for the question you want help. Often then

1271
01:05:06,440 --> 01:05:11,000
Speaker 4: you listen and then you do. Many will ask hear

1272
01:05:11,120 --> 01:05:14,120
Speaker 4: it and don't do it, and that's when we go

1273
01:05:14,280 --> 01:05:16,240
Speaker 4: down the rabbit hole of pain. That's when you're on

1274
01:05:16,280 --> 01:05:19,640
Speaker 4: the floor, regret, on the floor, on the couch, call

1275
01:05:19,760 --> 01:05:22,560
Speaker 4: your girlfriend up. I'm going through this all over again.

1276
01:05:23,000 --> 01:05:25,640
Speaker 1: It'd be so funny that you're saying that, because the

1277
01:05:25,840 --> 01:05:29,200
Speaker 1: download that I had about my intuition was how do

1278
01:05:29,400 --> 01:05:34,160
Speaker 1: I honor myself in this scenario and get to the

1279
01:05:34,320 --> 01:05:37,720
Speaker 1: joy faster? Like I don't want to add this to

1280
01:05:37,840 --> 01:05:39,640
Speaker 1: my list of This is why I don't trust niggas.

1281
01:05:40,560 --> 01:05:42,040
Speaker 5: You know, no, we're not doing that.

1282
01:05:42,280 --> 01:05:44,400
Speaker 1: We're not going to do that here. So how do

1283
01:05:44,600 --> 01:05:51,280
Speaker 1: I deal with this betrayal and honor myself and not

1284
01:05:51,680 --> 01:05:55,800
Speaker 1: allow this to a like have me on the floor

1285
01:05:56,440 --> 01:05:58,360
Speaker 1: that granted I needed to go through my feels and

1286
01:05:58,440 --> 01:06:00,960
Speaker 1: my feelings, and I did, but I got to the

1287
01:06:01,080 --> 01:06:02,240
Speaker 1: joy so much.

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01:06:02,120 --> 01:06:04,680
Speaker 4: Faster this time because you're listening more because.

1289
01:06:04,480 --> 01:06:06,560
Speaker 1: I listened and she told me what I needed to

1290
01:06:06,680 --> 01:06:09,240
Speaker 1: do to get there doing it, and I'm doing it

1291
01:06:09,280 --> 01:06:12,480
Speaker 1: and I really am doing it and it feels good.

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Speaker 5: And that's why I haven't really been I'm.

1293
01:06:14,960 --> 01:06:19,640
Speaker 1: Calling you like, I'm like, no, you can, I know,

1294
01:06:19,840 --> 01:06:22,400
Speaker 1: but I don't have that feeling like there's of course,

1295
01:06:22,440 --> 01:06:24,480
Speaker 1: there's moments where I'm sad and stuff I went through.

1296
01:06:24,680 --> 01:06:27,440
Speaker 1: I went through a break up, and but I'm overall,

1297
01:06:27,600 --> 01:06:30,040
Speaker 1: I'm just like, Okay, I know, I'm good with my

1298
01:06:30,200 --> 01:06:31,960
Speaker 1: choice and I'm good with how I'm handling this, and

1299
01:06:32,080 --> 01:06:34,240
Speaker 1: my boundaries are set and they feel good to me,

1300
01:06:34,400 --> 01:06:37,280
Speaker 1: and I feel happy and I can move through whatever

1301
01:06:37,320 --> 01:06:39,000
Speaker 1: I need to move through. Now. I'm not going to

1302
01:06:39,240 --> 01:06:42,720
Speaker 1: wallow in my sorrow and add this to my like

1303
01:06:42,800 --> 01:06:44,760
Speaker 1: I said, my list of this is why this is

1304
01:06:44,880 --> 01:06:45,480
Speaker 1: this way, and.

1305
01:06:47,040 --> 01:06:48,840
Speaker 5: It feels so much better.

1306
01:06:49,040 --> 01:06:52,400
Speaker 4: And I'm like, oh, you are better because you're listening

1307
01:06:53,160 --> 01:06:57,240
Speaker 4: and you're trusting and what you receive you go even

1308
01:06:57,280 --> 01:06:59,919
Speaker 4: if it looks crazy at the beginning, like why would

1309
01:06:59,920 --> 01:07:01,920
Speaker 4: I do that to myself. Why would I fast? Why

1310
01:07:01,960 --> 01:07:04,680
Speaker 4: would I not eat today? Why would And then you listen,

1311
01:07:04,760 --> 01:07:07,360
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, that's why I needed to elevate to

1312
01:07:07,440 --> 01:07:10,640
Speaker 4: actually hear the next message. I'm excited every day to

1313
01:07:10,680 --> 01:07:13,200
Speaker 4: wake up between four and six. What's going to be

1314
01:07:13,280 --> 01:07:16,960
Speaker 4: the download today. It's like coming attractions. I'm going to

1315
01:07:17,000 --> 01:07:20,880
Speaker 4: get more information, more direction, more guidance, clarity. And so

1316
01:07:22,240 --> 01:07:25,000
Speaker 4: I'm finishing up a manuscript and I said, it's going

1317
01:07:25,080 --> 01:07:28,360
Speaker 4: to be finished today by seven o'clock most I said it,

1318
01:07:28,440 --> 01:07:30,200
Speaker 4: and I have The editors are doing what they have

1319
01:07:30,320 --> 01:07:32,200
Speaker 4: to do because I'm here right now and I've got

1320
01:07:32,280 --> 01:07:34,480
Speaker 4: to be right here, and the spirit has said I

1321
01:07:34,680 --> 01:07:37,320
Speaker 4: have it. Don't worry, don't for you have to add

1322
01:07:37,400 --> 01:07:40,760
Speaker 4: one more line or one more page or any of that,

1323
01:07:41,160 --> 01:07:44,560
Speaker 4: because it's the most high in us. It's always got Mary.

1324
01:07:44,600 --> 01:07:48,120
Speaker 4: Mary loved this song. Goded me. When I played that song,

1325
01:07:48,160 --> 01:07:51,640
Speaker 4: I said, okay, yes, I need that because we have

1326
01:07:52,000 --> 01:07:55,960
Speaker 4: such We have this vast greatness inside of us when

1327
01:07:56,000 --> 01:08:00,320
Speaker 4: we started to say yes to ourselves, our highest self.

1328
01:08:00,360 --> 01:08:03,120
Speaker 4: But you have that relationship in the beginning. You don't

1329
01:08:03,160 --> 01:08:06,360
Speaker 4: have a healthy relationship. So you say yes, everybody else,

1330
01:08:06,760 --> 01:08:09,080
Speaker 4: Yes to what everybody else wants you to do, Yes

1331
01:08:09,200 --> 01:08:11,440
Speaker 4: to your past and all of that. But when you

1332
01:08:11,480 --> 01:08:15,240
Speaker 4: start to say slow down, sit a moment, meditate a bit,

1333
01:08:16,200 --> 01:08:20,680
Speaker 4: think before you move, ask before you go forward, you

1334
01:08:20,760 --> 01:08:25,360
Speaker 4: are having self time and self care time enough to hear.

1335
01:08:25,840 --> 01:08:29,120
Speaker 4: Because it is frequency. The reason why we keep going

1336
01:08:29,160 --> 01:08:32,160
Speaker 4: through the same trauma is because our frequency is at

1337
01:08:32,200 --> 01:08:37,400
Speaker 4: the low level. The higher our frequency, the greater our innerhering.

1338
01:08:38,400 --> 01:08:41,160
Speaker 4: The higher our frequency, the more that we can see

1339
01:08:41,240 --> 01:08:45,519
Speaker 4: from our oocha. And then it's magic. Tap into your

1340
01:08:45,760 --> 01:08:50,840
Speaker 4: supernatural magic, and that's the joy, that's the freedom, that's

1341
01:08:50,880 --> 01:08:51,880
Speaker 4: the agelessness.

1342
01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:57,040
Speaker 1: It's just a wonderful thing. I want the agelessness. I

1343
01:08:57,120 --> 01:08:58,040
Speaker 1: want the agelessness.

1344
01:09:00,160 --> 01:09:01,320
Speaker 4: You live in the life. You don't have to be

1345
01:09:01,400 --> 01:09:03,840
Speaker 4: afraid of it. Otherwise I say, I'm going to be thirty, Okay,

1346
01:09:03,880 --> 01:09:05,920
Speaker 4: that's the problem. I'm going to be forty, that's a problem.

1347
01:09:06,120 --> 01:09:08,400
Speaker 4: I'm going to be fifties. I'm going to be sixty,

1348
01:09:08,439 --> 01:09:10,280
Speaker 4: that's a problem. I'm going to be seven. It's not

1349
01:09:10,360 --> 01:09:13,360
Speaker 4: a problem. Okay, I'm not making it a problem. But

1350
01:09:13,400 --> 01:09:15,840
Speaker 4: the spirits said, now you, okay, you've been away from

1351
01:09:15,880 --> 01:09:18,040
Speaker 4: your wom yoga dance for a minute. Get on this

1352
01:09:18,160 --> 01:09:20,320
Speaker 4: yoga Matt right now, I said. But I started to saying,

1353
01:09:20,360 --> 01:09:22,280
Speaker 4: I was, wait a minute, catch yourself. When I started saying,

1354
01:09:22,360 --> 01:09:25,320
Speaker 4: would I get on this yoga Matten Street And when

1355
01:09:25,320 --> 01:09:29,680
Speaker 4: I do my movements, I said, almost hot things. Then

1356
01:09:29,720 --> 01:09:31,760
Speaker 4: you say, it's such a gratitude because your whole life.

1357
01:09:31,800 --> 01:09:33,599
Speaker 4: This is a song that came out in the sixties.

1358
01:09:33,880 --> 01:09:35,360
Speaker 4: You were not born, You were not even a thought

1359
01:09:35,400 --> 01:09:38,360
Speaker 4: at that time. The nervous, the creator has a master

1360
01:09:38,479 --> 01:09:43,160
Speaker 4: plan by Parrosnders, and that I heard when I was sixteen,

1361
01:09:43,360 --> 01:09:45,600
Speaker 4: and I would say, and I was in Brooklyn on

1362
01:09:45,800 --> 01:09:49,719
Speaker 4: Saint John's and New York Avenue, and this is black

1363
01:09:49,760 --> 01:09:51,479
Speaker 4: they called the black Shop. Back then you had the

1364
01:09:51,520 --> 01:09:55,320
Speaker 4: Cali shells, Angela Davis all powers to the people of Dashiki's.

1365
01:09:55,320 --> 01:09:58,280
Speaker 4: It's those little shops. And this Muslim brother would be

1366
01:09:58,280 --> 01:10:00,439
Speaker 4: outside and he would always be playing this smith every

1367
01:10:00,520 --> 01:10:02,479
Speaker 4: single day. The credit has a master plan. And then

1368
01:10:02,600 --> 01:10:04,720
Speaker 4: when I just stood there and I said, let me

1369
01:10:04,800 --> 01:10:06,800
Speaker 4: go into the shop and had little Frankinson some mirror.

1370
01:10:06,880 --> 01:10:09,479
Speaker 4: Let me just stand here, pick up a little carrier shell,

1371
01:10:10,280 --> 01:10:12,559
Speaker 4: and I heard it went to my soul. That song

1372
01:10:13,040 --> 01:10:17,240
Speaker 4: has carried me from sixteen up to sixty nine. The

1373
01:10:17,320 --> 01:10:21,519
Speaker 4: Creator has a plan already for your life. It's already

1374
01:10:21,680 --> 01:10:25,080
Speaker 4: in you. And when you start clearing the house and

1375
01:10:25,240 --> 01:10:29,360
Speaker 4: saying yes to the divine of your divineness, all of

1376
01:10:29,400 --> 01:10:32,200
Speaker 4: a sudden, your life begins to work and the things

1377
01:10:32,280 --> 01:10:35,280
Speaker 4: of your past begins to shed. So I've got to

1378
01:10:35,280 --> 01:10:38,599
Speaker 4: get younger with time at this point, but with wisdom.

1379
01:10:39,160 --> 01:10:42,200
Speaker 4: So you don't want to get older and have no wisdom.

1380
01:10:43,120 --> 01:10:45,280
Speaker 4: The wisdom comes with the age of having the trial

1381
01:10:45,360 --> 01:10:48,400
Speaker 4: and error, having the experiences that didn't work, that you overcame,

1382
01:10:48,479 --> 01:10:50,680
Speaker 4: that you learned from. That's the wisdom. You pay the

1383
01:10:50,760 --> 01:10:54,920
Speaker 4: price for that. So embrace the wisdom. And the wisdom

1384
01:10:55,000 --> 01:10:57,840
Speaker 4: is our intuition. So as you get older, you'll keep

1385
01:10:57,880 --> 01:11:01,479
Speaker 4: your beauty, you keep your grace, you'll maintain your peace

1386
01:11:01,560 --> 01:11:07,600
Speaker 4: as opposed to be angry with age, mad, regretful, revengeful,

1387
01:11:07,800 --> 01:11:11,360
Speaker 4: and nobody want to be around you, so not even

1388
01:11:11,439 --> 01:11:14,559
Speaker 4: your own self right, And that's that's that's the pattern

1389
01:11:14,640 --> 01:11:17,519
Speaker 4: of dying away burst the breast that have a breast

1390
01:11:17,560 --> 01:11:20,040
Speaker 4: removed and the overars you moved, and then a knavy

1391
01:11:20,120 --> 01:11:23,519
Speaker 4: placement and then hit replacement and it takes your mind

1392
01:11:23,680 --> 01:11:26,760
Speaker 4: and you're looking out the window for your entertainment, you know.

1393
01:11:27,000 --> 01:11:31,040
Speaker 4: So we have a full life. Live a full life

1394
01:11:31,120 --> 01:11:34,120
Speaker 4: every day, you know, and stud your healing and make

1395
01:11:34,160 --> 01:11:36,840
Speaker 4: it a way of life, and you'll just continue to

1396
01:11:36,960 --> 01:11:39,400
Speaker 4: grow and grow and grow and don't carry the weight

1397
01:11:39,600 --> 01:11:42,360
Speaker 4: of the relationships on the past. Say I want to

1398
01:11:42,439 --> 01:11:46,360
Speaker 4: thank you. When I was closing out the last marriage,

1399
01:11:48,000 --> 01:11:52,559
Speaker 4: we've been nineteen years, he supported me writing a book,

1400
01:11:52,600 --> 01:11:57,920
Speaker 4: say good woman, a great craftsman, a great soul, great teacher,

1401
01:11:58,960 --> 01:12:01,240
Speaker 4: and it was time for the relationship to close out.

1402
01:12:01,600 --> 01:12:03,360
Speaker 4: And I knew when it was because I grew up.

1403
01:12:03,479 --> 01:12:05,439
Speaker 4: I was, I became. When I was in relationship, I

1404
01:12:05,560 --> 01:12:07,720
Speaker 4: was like a little girl of the grown little girl,

1405
01:12:08,240 --> 01:12:11,000
Speaker 4: and I needed to put someone to protect me until

1406
01:12:11,040 --> 01:12:15,040
Speaker 4: I learned how to protect myself. And then the relationship

1407
01:12:15,120 --> 01:12:19,120
Speaker 4: didn't really have the same purpose. But I remember when

1408
01:12:19,160 --> 01:12:22,280
Speaker 4: I was leaving, physically leaving out of the space of

1409
01:12:22,400 --> 01:12:25,560
Speaker 4: his studio and I said goodbye, the spirit said go

1410
01:12:25,720 --> 01:12:32,000
Speaker 4: back and thank him. See that, Well, really I went

1411
01:12:32,120 --> 01:12:34,880
Speaker 4: back and I just said wow, I said thank you.

1412
01:12:35,400 --> 01:12:37,760
Speaker 4: I'm saying thank you for the nineteen years, the ups,

1413
01:12:37,800 --> 01:12:40,960
Speaker 4: the downs, this that, whatever it showed up and I

1414
01:12:41,040 --> 01:12:44,799
Speaker 4: kissed him on his first eye, and then I partied.

1415
01:12:45,000 --> 01:12:47,639
Speaker 4: Because you know the thing about any relationship in well,

1416
01:12:48,439 --> 01:12:52,439
Speaker 4: because the relationship will follow you like a badgeram I

1417
01:12:52,560 --> 01:12:52,960
Speaker 4: believe that?

1418
01:12:53,840 --> 01:12:54,200
Speaker 2: In well?

1419
01:12:54,320 --> 01:12:54,840
Speaker 5: I believe that.

1420
01:12:54,920 --> 01:12:57,360
Speaker 1: And one of the things that I'm doing this year

1421
01:12:57,560 --> 01:13:00,880
Speaker 1: is releasing certain relationships that I have that have been

1422
01:13:00,960 --> 01:13:04,160
Speaker 1: following me and that I've given power to. And I'm ready.

1423
01:13:04,240 --> 01:13:07,240
Speaker 1: I'm ready to really release that. And even thinking about

1424
01:13:07,600 --> 01:13:09,200
Speaker 1: I just want to go back because it's been bothering

1425
01:13:09,280 --> 01:13:12,600
Speaker 1: me since I said it, like ten minutes ago, I

1426
01:13:12,680 --> 01:13:14,439
Speaker 1: said my break, I broke, we had broke up.

1427
01:13:14,640 --> 01:13:15,720
Speaker 5: I want to just say I.

1428
01:13:15,760 --> 01:13:21,840
Speaker 1: Am in transformation, all right, I am in transformation because

1429
01:13:21,880 --> 01:13:24,120
Speaker 1: that sounds so heartbreaking.

1430
01:13:23,720 --> 01:13:27,160
Speaker 4: And it's not that breaking breaks your heart, yeah it's

1431
01:13:27,200 --> 01:13:28,879
Speaker 4: and it's so nice that spirit.

1432
01:13:29,000 --> 01:13:31,680
Speaker 1: I might have done breakups before, because the aftermath of

1433
01:13:31,760 --> 01:13:34,680
Speaker 1: that I did break, but this, this is not that,

1434
01:13:35,120 --> 01:13:36,240
Speaker 1: and it feels so much better.

1435
01:13:36,439 --> 01:13:38,360
Speaker 2: Graduating. You're evolving.

1436
01:13:38,439 --> 01:13:41,719
Speaker 4: We're choosing the words. That's some heck o, words of power,

1437
01:13:42,360 --> 01:13:45,840
Speaker 4: words of majesty, words as medicines go heck oh. So

1438
01:13:45,960 --> 01:13:51,080
Speaker 4: you're saying I grew evolved, You evolved like you're not

1439
01:13:51,240 --> 01:13:55,439
Speaker 4: less because we separated. We are evolving, and so then

1440
01:13:55,479 --> 01:13:59,200
Speaker 4: the gratitude allows you to now continue to blossom in

1441
01:13:59,320 --> 01:14:02,479
Speaker 4: sacred women about you're in the mud. That's neph for

1442
01:14:02,479 --> 01:14:05,200
Speaker 4: a tomb. In that mud, it's a lot of information.

1443
01:14:05,600 --> 01:14:08,479
Speaker 4: It's like clay. Clay is a medicine. But then you

1444
01:14:08,520 --> 01:14:10,960
Speaker 4: don't want to live and dwell in the mud. You

1445
01:14:11,000 --> 01:14:13,599
Speaker 4: want to now grow. So that's when the fast and cleansing,

1446
01:14:13,720 --> 01:14:16,800
Speaker 4: the changing of the diet, the forgiveness, the love, and

1447
01:14:16,840 --> 01:14:19,320
Speaker 4: you start coming up through the water. You're purifying and

1448
01:14:19,360 --> 01:14:21,720
Speaker 4: then at the top and you finally blossom. You come

1449
01:14:21,800 --> 01:14:24,160
Speaker 4: to the top. This is the lotus, and this is

1450
01:14:24,200 --> 01:14:28,160
Speaker 4: our ancestral gift that was given to us. You open up,

1451
01:14:28,760 --> 01:14:32,680
Speaker 4: I'll say lotus, you say blossom, Lotus, Lotus, blossom. I'll

1452
01:14:32,720 --> 01:14:36,160
Speaker 4: say lotus, you say blossom. I'll say loads, you say blossom.

1453
01:14:36,240 --> 01:14:38,680
Speaker 4: And that's what we do. So then any relationship that

1454
01:14:38,680 --> 01:14:42,720
Speaker 4: we're going through, Wow, I blossom. Because of that. I

1455
01:14:42,840 --> 01:14:46,560
Speaker 4: became a business woman out of the most stressful relationship,

1456
01:14:47,560 --> 01:14:50,840
Speaker 4: a holistic business because I had to heal myself, and

1457
01:14:50,960 --> 01:14:54,200
Speaker 4: I healed myself every single time. I'm still fifty three

1458
01:14:54,240 --> 01:14:55,200
Speaker 4: years healing myself.

1459
01:14:55,640 --> 01:14:56,280
Speaker 5: That's beautiful.

1460
01:14:57,000 --> 01:14:59,760
Speaker 4: That's what that relationship did. It said, if you don't

1461
01:14:59,800 --> 01:15:02,719
Speaker 4: heal yourself, you're going to be peat the relationship again.

1462
01:15:03,360 --> 01:15:06,519
Speaker 3: And people people, I think, forget that. Like you could

1463
01:15:06,640 --> 01:15:08,880
Speaker 3: date all different people, but if you haven't done the

1464
01:15:08,920 --> 01:15:11,280
Speaker 3: work on yourself, you will continue to meet the same

1465
01:15:11,320 --> 01:15:13,760
Speaker 3: person with the same trades and the same toxic. It

1466
01:15:13,800 --> 01:15:16,200
Speaker 3: will Maine show up different in a different suit, but

1467
01:15:16,400 --> 01:15:18,120
Speaker 3: consistently you will.

1468
01:15:18,920 --> 01:15:20,759
Speaker 2: You will, Yeah, you will.

1469
01:15:20,640 --> 01:15:24,280
Speaker 3: See the same lower vibrational people. The relationship that you're

1470
01:15:24,280 --> 01:15:26,760
Speaker 3: talking about is that the relationship with your kid's father.

1471
01:15:27,640 --> 01:15:30,120
Speaker 2: Did you did you date or Mary or after that?

1472
01:15:30,840 --> 01:15:37,120
Speaker 4: I've always stayed in relationship. I love a relationship. Wait, actually,

1473
01:15:37,160 --> 01:15:37,439
Speaker 4: you know this.

1474
01:15:37,640 --> 01:15:39,800
Speaker 1: This brings me to something because I know we're going

1475
01:15:39,840 --> 01:15:41,720
Speaker 1: to get out of here soon because I'm hot.

1476
01:15:41,760 --> 01:15:42,320
Speaker 5: I don't know about you.

1477
01:15:42,439 --> 01:15:46,400
Speaker 1: I'm hot, but we do. We play a little game

1478
01:15:46,479 --> 01:15:48,080
Speaker 1: on our show with guests, and I would love to

1479
01:15:48,120 --> 01:15:50,640
Speaker 1: play it with you. It's called Trigger, and I'm going

1480
01:15:50,720 --> 01:15:52,479
Speaker 1: we're gonna learn a little bit about Queen a fool

1481
01:15:52,520 --> 01:15:55,880
Speaker 1: really quickly that I'm and maybe dive into a little

1482
01:15:55,880 --> 01:15:59,000
Speaker 1: bit of that. So the purpose of the game is

1483
01:15:59,040 --> 01:16:00,720
Speaker 1: I'm going to say a word, and then you say

1484
01:16:00,760 --> 01:16:01,960
Speaker 1: the first thing that comes to your mind.

1485
01:16:02,240 --> 01:16:02,960
Speaker 5: Don't overthink it.

1486
01:16:05,520 --> 01:16:07,559
Speaker 1: I can't even get ready. I can't get little spie.

1487
01:16:07,560 --> 01:16:09,639
Speaker 1: I'm gonna let you know, might get a little spicy. Okay,

1488
01:16:10,840 --> 01:16:27,120
Speaker 1: let you know now you must ready, Okay. Religion, freedom, feminism, power, birth, now, motherhood,

1489
01:16:27,720 --> 01:16:34,200
Speaker 1: you love, language, hugs, cannabis, I don't do it.

1490
01:16:35,920 --> 01:16:38,479
Speaker 5: Psychedelics this room.

1491
01:16:40,400 --> 01:16:41,200
Speaker 2: That's what we're going for.

1492
01:16:42,160 --> 01:16:52,400
Speaker 1: Black man power, white man suppression, favorite food, grapes, guilty, pleasure.

1493
01:16:52,960 --> 01:17:10,120
Speaker 7: Africa, home, porn, porn, I don't even have.

1494
01:17:11,640 --> 01:17:12,040
Speaker 2: Porn.

1495
01:17:13,720 --> 01:17:25,200
Speaker 5: First thing that comes to mind, that's a good one.

1496
01:17:25,320 --> 01:17:27,720
Speaker 4: Why is that? That's the whole thing. I gotta think

1497
01:17:27,760 --> 01:17:28,800
Speaker 4: about that. Why did I.

1498
01:17:28,840 --> 01:17:42,439
Speaker 8: Scream open relationship with self, love me, pussy power, yoni, egg,

1499
01:17:45,000 --> 01:17:49,320
Speaker 8: after life, tomorrow.

1500
01:17:51,360 --> 01:17:52,719
Speaker 5: Do what death?

1501
01:17:54,200 --> 01:17:54,439
Speaker 8: There go?

1502
01:17:55,360 --> 01:18:04,000
Speaker 1: Self care, us semen, retention, Oh you know how to

1503
01:18:04,040 --> 01:18:05,519
Speaker 1: get me at different levels?

1504
01:18:07,040 --> 01:18:09,559
Speaker 4: But celebrated. Why don't I remember all.

1505
01:18:12,040 --> 01:18:12,559
Speaker 2: You remember?

1506
01:18:14,680 --> 01:18:14,920
Speaker 5: Human?

1507
01:18:16,840 --> 01:18:20,639
Speaker 1: Biggest accomplishment writing having children?

1508
01:18:21,439 --> 01:18:23,759
Speaker 4: Witch, rich children?

1509
01:18:23,960 --> 01:18:26,160
Speaker 1: No witch, just a witch, the witch? Witch?

1510
01:18:26,880 --> 01:18:28,920
Speaker 2: W I t c oh.

1511
01:18:30,320 --> 01:18:32,080
Speaker 4: Wish? What do I wish with witch?

1512
01:18:32,280 --> 01:18:34,519
Speaker 1: Like like a witch?

1513
01:18:34,600 --> 01:18:43,360
Speaker 4: Doctor? Oh? Oh, medicine, pet peeve, pet peeve. I'm trying

1514
01:18:43,400 --> 01:18:46,519
Speaker 4: to find the words for it, because it's it's social media.

1515
01:18:47,240 --> 01:18:56,760
Speaker 4: When women talk about you, you can't talk back, dating, dating, rest.

1516
01:18:57,800 --> 01:19:15,559
Speaker 1: Monogamy, ancient polyamory, ancient idle, the mosag, bad choices, relationships, therapy,

1517
01:19:17,840 --> 01:19:20,200
Speaker 1: green juice. That's it.

1518
01:19:22,800 --> 01:19:23,720
Speaker 2: I survived you.

1519
01:19:28,160 --> 01:19:30,880
Speaker 4: I have a thing about triggers because this is the

1520
01:19:30,960 --> 01:19:35,040
Speaker 4: generation of everyone has a trigger, right, Everyone's triggered. And

1521
01:19:35,160 --> 01:19:36,680
Speaker 4: I said, you know what the triggers. The trigger is

1522
01:19:36,720 --> 01:19:40,280
Speaker 4: a gun. So if you say that you triggered me,

1523
01:19:40,360 --> 01:19:42,439
Speaker 4: that means you shot me, and then I've got to

1524
01:19:42,439 --> 01:19:45,200
Speaker 4: shoot you back. There's a point where you can heal

1525
01:19:45,280 --> 01:19:46,920
Speaker 4: up enough to you'll have any more triggers.

1526
01:19:47,040 --> 01:19:49,160
Speaker 2: Nothing can bother you. So it feels like a womb.

1527
01:19:49,320 --> 01:19:53,960
Speaker 4: You're just okay, like that's your choice, that's your thinking. Yeah, okay,

1528
01:19:54,240 --> 01:19:56,000
Speaker 4: you know what I have done with the trigger, and

1529
01:19:56,080 --> 01:19:58,040
Speaker 4: people I didn't know I was doing it. There was

1530
01:19:58,080 --> 01:20:00,680
Speaker 4: something would say something. I'm just always say it was

1531
01:20:00,720 --> 01:20:05,200
Speaker 4: a heavy dressat okay, got it.

1532
01:20:05,600 --> 01:20:06,200
Speaker 2: I got it.

1533
01:20:06,920 --> 01:20:10,160
Speaker 4: And that was me not being judgmental just by saying

1534
01:20:10,880 --> 01:20:13,000
Speaker 4: but people said, what does that mean? I said, well,

1535
01:20:13,160 --> 01:20:15,640
Speaker 4: you know, it's just I'm just taking an information.

1536
01:20:17,760 --> 01:20:19,760
Speaker 1: I feel that sometimes it's better to just say nothing.

1537
01:20:21,320 --> 01:20:23,400
Speaker 1: So at the beginning of our show, we asked Queen

1538
01:20:23,479 --> 01:20:24,120
Speaker 1: to pull a card.

1539
01:20:24,200 --> 01:20:26,120
Speaker 2: Oh wait, before we pull a card, do you have

1540
01:20:26,160 --> 01:20:27,400
Speaker 2: an affirmation for us today?

1541
01:20:27,439 --> 01:20:28,040
Speaker 5: We recited it.

1542
01:20:28,120 --> 01:20:29,840
Speaker 2: Oh, that's that your affirmation was one of them.

1543
01:20:29,840 --> 01:20:32,519
Speaker 4: I have one more show one. This is what I've

1544
01:20:32,560 --> 01:20:36,120
Speaker 4: been saying for seventeen years because of my granddaughter, onto Net.

1545
01:20:36,760 --> 01:20:39,200
Speaker 4: She was three years old when it came through her

1546
01:20:39,439 --> 01:20:44,880
Speaker 4: to me. And that is the power to heal is

1547
01:20:44,960 --> 01:20:48,639
Speaker 4: within me, and I have the mighty power to heal myself.

1548
01:20:49,439 --> 01:20:52,800
Speaker 1: The power to heal is within me, and I have

1549
01:20:53,000 --> 01:20:55,200
Speaker 1: the mighty power to heal myself.

1550
01:20:56,280 --> 01:20:58,400
Speaker 4: And I put that to everything, no matter what it

1551
01:20:58,479 --> 01:21:01,400
Speaker 4: looks like, I can heal myself. I can overcome.

1552
01:21:02,000 --> 01:21:03,000
Speaker 2: That's from your granddaughter.

1553
01:21:03,600 --> 01:21:05,720
Speaker 4: Well, she was three years old and the family was

1554
01:21:05,760 --> 01:21:11,000
Speaker 4: fighting around food around her and she was crying inside.

1555
01:21:11,040 --> 01:21:13,000
Speaker 4: Did you know the inside cried? You look at someone's

1556
01:21:13,000 --> 01:21:15,280
Speaker 4: face and I said, come to my center. I said,

1557
01:21:15,320 --> 01:21:17,439
Speaker 4: sit down, let's meditate. Now. She didn't know what I'm doing.

1558
01:21:17,840 --> 01:21:20,040
Speaker 4: Sit down across her legs. I said, let's go in

1559
01:21:20,280 --> 01:21:24,200
Speaker 4: and let's breathe. And after her breathing and relaxing because

1560
01:21:24,240 --> 01:21:26,000
Speaker 4: she was sad. I said, how do you feel now

1561
01:21:26,000 --> 01:21:28,880
Speaker 4: after a meditation? I don't even know what the meditation was,

1562
01:21:29,000 --> 01:21:35,760
Speaker 4: but she said, hm, I feel powerful. And I said, oh,

1563
01:21:36,120 --> 01:21:39,479
Speaker 4: the powdery healer is within you and you have the

1564
01:21:39,600 --> 01:21:42,800
Speaker 4: mighty power to heal yourself. And from that point on,

1565
01:21:43,040 --> 01:21:45,479
Speaker 4: I've been saying that affirmation every day to my client.

1566
01:21:45,680 --> 01:21:47,400
Speaker 5: That's beautiful, beautiful.

1567
01:21:48,360 --> 01:21:51,960
Speaker 2: And the three the three year old just realize that

1568
01:21:52,240 --> 01:21:52,759
Speaker 2: three year.

1569
01:21:52,600 --> 01:22:01,800
Speaker 4: Old numbers and you Lloyd straight out were talking about that. Wow.

1570
01:22:02,320 --> 01:22:03,879
Speaker 4: I mean being with you all there is an adventure.

1571
01:22:04,800 --> 01:22:06,600
Speaker 4: I feel like I've been up the mountain.

1572
01:22:06,360 --> 01:22:08,679
Speaker 2: Down the bun Wow.

1573
01:22:09,400 --> 01:22:09,880
Speaker 4: I'm glad.

1574
01:22:10,120 --> 01:22:13,800
Speaker 1: We're such a mental workout, you know. I saw I

1575
01:22:13,880 --> 01:22:16,720
Speaker 1: see your workouts on Instagram. I know that movement is

1576
01:22:17,800 --> 01:22:19,600
Speaker 1: even in our school in Tantra, and I think in

1577
01:22:19,840 --> 01:22:24,200
Speaker 1: just the schools of spirituality is movement is always at

1578
01:22:24,240 --> 01:22:26,040
Speaker 1: the center of it. You have to and that's actually

1579
01:22:26,040 --> 01:22:28,200
Speaker 1: that's when I got this download too. I hadn't moved

1580
01:22:28,240 --> 01:22:29,800
Speaker 1: my body in a few days, and then I went

1581
01:22:30,160 --> 01:22:33,720
Speaker 1: to movement and it was like, and that is why

1582
01:22:33,760 --> 01:22:36,760
Speaker 1: I've been honoring that movement since I've not stopped moving

1583
01:22:36,840 --> 01:22:39,920
Speaker 1: every day. I'm committed and this is a big commitment,

1584
01:22:39,960 --> 01:22:42,120
Speaker 1: but I feel like I can do it. And I

1585
01:22:42,200 --> 01:22:44,160
Speaker 1: have three hundred and sixty five days of movement. And

1586
01:22:44,240 --> 01:22:47,400
Speaker 1: whether that is a walk, whether that is a stretch, yes,

1587
01:22:47,920 --> 01:22:49,640
Speaker 1: Like it doesn't have to be a big thing, but

1588
01:22:50,120 --> 01:22:52,839
Speaker 1: I know that I have to do that for myself

1589
01:22:53,000 --> 01:22:55,800
Speaker 1: to keep my intuition impeccable.

1590
01:22:57,439 --> 01:22:58,920
Speaker 5: And to keep myself healthy and.

1591
01:22:59,000 --> 01:23:03,000
Speaker 1: Happy, you know, and feeling like grounded in my sacred womanness.

1592
01:23:03,160 --> 01:23:06,920
Speaker 1: So you said second woman has a T shirt sacred

1593
01:23:06,960 --> 01:23:07,439
Speaker 1: woman is you.

1594
01:23:07,520 --> 01:23:08,080
Speaker 2: Might need to make that.

1595
01:23:08,439 --> 01:23:12,200
Speaker 1: Oh that's it.

1596
01:23:12,479 --> 01:23:15,040
Speaker 2: That's it. Okay, you can take it.

1597
01:23:15,240 --> 01:23:15,800
Speaker 8: You can take it.

1598
01:23:16,800 --> 01:23:18,639
Speaker 2: Do you want to collaborate? We can make this happen,

1599
01:23:21,240 --> 01:23:21,560
Speaker 2: you know what.

1600
01:23:21,840 --> 01:23:23,960
Speaker 3: Even because we're in school and like the style of

1601
01:23:24,040 --> 01:23:27,520
Speaker 3: tanser that we're studying is Tibetan, an ancient Tibetan tantrums.

1602
01:23:28,240 --> 01:23:31,000
Speaker 3: But our school is owned by a black woman from Detroit. Actually,

1603
01:23:31,600 --> 01:23:35,639
Speaker 3: but the studies and when I've realized, like we as people,

1604
01:23:35,880 --> 01:23:40,000
Speaker 3: we equate medicine so much with like these Western medicines

1605
01:23:40,120 --> 01:23:44,360
Speaker 3: of really drugs, narcotics, but the true medicine is all

1606
01:23:44,400 --> 01:23:46,439
Speaker 3: the things that we have access to right here. And

1607
01:23:46,520 --> 01:23:48,479
Speaker 3: it's like it's the same, it's all the same principles.

1608
01:23:48,520 --> 01:23:51,960
Speaker 3: Even opening your book is movement, it's meditation, it's breathwork.

1609
01:23:52,560 --> 01:23:55,040
Speaker 3: It's like, you know, moving if it's whether it's dance,

1610
01:23:55,120 --> 01:23:58,439
Speaker 3: whether it's yoga. And I'm like, damn, you know we

1611
01:23:58,720 --> 01:24:02,680
Speaker 3: are so we're I'm so confused about what medicine really is.

1612
01:24:03,360 --> 01:24:06,160
Speaker 3: Is that we will take a foreign drug from a

1613
01:24:06,360 --> 01:24:08,280
Speaker 3: person we don't know because they're wearing a white coat,

1614
01:24:08,680 --> 01:24:11,000
Speaker 3: versus taking the time to think, you know, sit down

1615
01:24:11,080 --> 01:24:11,800
Speaker 3: and you know.

1616
01:24:12,200 --> 01:24:13,400
Speaker 1: What does my body want?

1617
01:24:13,439 --> 01:24:16,439
Speaker 2: It's telling me you chan't a mantra. That seems so crazy,

1618
01:24:16,560 --> 01:24:19,320
Speaker 2: like and I'm like, rom if everybody be like, what

1619
01:24:19,479 --> 01:24:20,040
Speaker 2: is wrong with her?

1620
01:24:20,120 --> 01:24:20,680
Speaker 5: You know what I mean?

1621
01:24:20,880 --> 01:24:22,760
Speaker 4: What they do it in the church, I mean it's

1622
01:24:22,800 --> 01:24:27,960
Speaker 4: always music is always accompanying our spiritual development. So definitely movement.

1623
01:24:28,120 --> 01:24:30,439
Speaker 4: Even in the church, they are moving and rocking with

1624
01:24:30,520 --> 01:24:33,479
Speaker 4: the tambourine. So do all of the spiritual practice in

1625
01:24:33,560 --> 01:24:36,040
Speaker 4: all the spiritual houses. There is movement. There is motion,

1626
01:24:36,560 --> 01:24:40,000
Speaker 4: but there's a movement without movement, and that is when

1627
01:24:40,040 --> 01:24:43,880
Speaker 4: you shift your thinking. That movement even to do that,

1628
01:24:44,840 --> 01:24:48,160
Speaker 4: you know, shift your attitude. How you see life. That's

1629
01:24:48,200 --> 01:24:48,599
Speaker 4: a movement.

1630
01:24:48,640 --> 01:24:50,400
Speaker 1: I will add that to my three hundred and sixty.

1631
01:24:50,439 --> 01:24:51,760
Speaker 4: You will add that, and you could do that.

1632
01:24:52,160 --> 01:24:52,640
Speaker 5: I love that.

1633
01:24:52,800 --> 01:24:55,639
Speaker 1: Thank you. Well.

1634
01:24:55,680 --> 01:24:58,920
Speaker 3: Before we started the show, we had you choose a card. Okay,

1635
01:24:59,400 --> 01:25:02,000
Speaker 3: so we'd like to wait till the end to read

1636
01:25:02,160 --> 01:25:05,760
Speaker 3: the card. And this card is the Star, and it

1637
01:25:05,920 --> 01:25:13,280
Speaker 3: means hope, faith, purpose, renewal, and spirituality. The Star card

1638
01:25:13,320 --> 01:25:15,240
Speaker 3: shows a naked woman kneeling at the edge of a

1639
01:25:15,320 --> 01:25:19,560
Speaker 3: small pool. She holds two containers of water, one in

1640
01:25:19,680 --> 01:25:22,240
Speaker 3: her left hand, the subconscious, and one in her right

1641
01:25:22,400 --> 01:25:25,360
Speaker 3: the conscious. She pours the water out to nourish the

1642
01:25:25,479 --> 01:25:29,280
Speaker 3: earth and to continue the cycle of fertility, represented by

1643
01:25:29,360 --> 01:25:33,200
Speaker 3: the lush greenery around her. The other container pours the

1644
01:25:33,280 --> 01:25:38,200
Speaker 3: water onto dry land. In five revolts representing the five senses,

1645
01:25:39,320 --> 01:25:41,640
Speaker 3: the woman has one foot on the ground, representing her

1646
01:25:41,680 --> 01:25:44,320
Speaker 3: practical abilities and good common sense, and the other foot

1647
01:25:44,360 --> 01:25:48,840
Speaker 3: in the water, representing her intuition and inner resources and

1648
01:25:49,080 --> 01:25:53,320
Speaker 3: listening to her inner voice. She is naked, representing her

1649
01:25:53,400 --> 01:25:57,800
Speaker 3: vulnerability and purity under the vastness, one large star representing

1650
01:25:57,840 --> 01:26:01,719
Speaker 3: her core essence, and seven small your stars representing the chakras.

1651
01:26:03,320 --> 01:26:08,000
Speaker 2: Wow as if we were every where, every word, every

1652
01:26:09,000 --> 01:26:09,719
Speaker 2: it never fails.

1653
01:26:10,040 --> 01:26:13,000
Speaker 3: As the star follows the tower card in tarot, it

1654
01:26:13,080 --> 01:26:16,400
Speaker 3: comes as a welcome reprieve after a period of destruction

1655
01:26:16,640 --> 01:26:20,759
Speaker 3: and turmoil. You have endured many challenges and stripped yourself

1656
01:26:20,880 --> 01:26:24,400
Speaker 3: bare of any limiting beliefs that have previously held you back.

1657
01:26:24,880 --> 01:26:28,320
Speaker 3: You're realizing your core essence who you are beneath all

1658
01:26:28,400 --> 01:26:31,400
Speaker 3: the layers. No matter what life throws your way, you

1659
01:26:31,640 --> 01:26:35,160
Speaker 3: know that you are always connected to the divine and

1660
01:26:35,320 --> 01:26:39,439
Speaker 3: pure loving energy. You hold a new sense of self,

1661
01:26:39,600 --> 01:26:42,840
Speaker 3: a new appreciation for the core of your being. The

1662
01:26:42,880 --> 01:26:45,160
Speaker 3: star brings renewed hope and faith in a sense that

1663
01:26:45,240 --> 01:26:49,360
Speaker 3: you are truly blessed by the universe. You're entering a peaceful,

1664
01:26:49,640 --> 01:26:53,080
Speaker 3: loving phase in your life, filled with calm energy, mental stability,

1665
01:26:53,479 --> 01:26:56,639
Speaker 3: and more in depth understanding of both yourself and others

1666
01:26:56,720 --> 01:26:59,960
Speaker 3: around you. This is a time of significant personal growth,

1667
01:27:00,000 --> 01:27:03,280
Speaker 3: growth and development, as you're now ready to receive the

1668
01:27:03,400 --> 01:27:04,879
Speaker 3: many blessings of the universe.

1669
01:27:05,160 --> 01:27:07,040
Speaker 4: Did you all give me a read of the day

1670
01:27:08,280 --> 01:27:09,440
Speaker 4: all praises.

1671
01:27:11,360 --> 01:27:12,080
Speaker 2: The most high?

1672
01:27:12,720 --> 01:27:17,720
Speaker 4: Oh wow, thank you? That exactly where I am. I mean,

1673
01:27:17,840 --> 01:27:20,479
Speaker 4: I'm actually shifting sacred women as we speak and I

1674
01:27:20,920 --> 01:27:24,360
Speaker 4: for fourteen days, I was asking for the channel. I said,

1675
01:27:24,400 --> 01:27:26,760
Speaker 4: Most High, guide me, show me how is this to do?

1676
01:27:27,280 --> 01:27:27,559
Speaker 1: And this.

1677
01:27:29,040 --> 01:27:31,280
Speaker 4: Great awakening. I woke up at six in the morning

1678
01:27:32,000 --> 01:27:35,599
Speaker 4: and I spoke to five women based on sacred women

1679
01:27:35,640 --> 01:27:37,760
Speaker 4: in the rights of passage. And so this is the

1680
01:27:37,880 --> 01:27:41,240
Speaker 4: time I go back to the three day retreat, and

1681
01:27:41,320 --> 01:27:44,439
Speaker 4: I haven't done a sacred retreat on that level since

1682
01:27:44,520 --> 01:27:48,880
Speaker 4: two thousand and one. And so they'll come to wherever

1683
01:27:49,000 --> 01:27:52,920
Speaker 4: I am in Atlanta will be and then they'll go

1684
01:27:53,200 --> 01:27:55,800
Speaker 4: for the twelve weeks. But it will be different than

1685
01:27:55,840 --> 01:27:57,679
Speaker 4: it has been in the past. And it will allow

1686
01:27:57,760 --> 01:28:02,640
Speaker 4: me to have more contemplative time, meditative time, because when

1687
01:28:02,680 --> 01:28:04,519
Speaker 4: I write, I write and run. I'm running and writing.

1688
01:28:05,040 --> 01:28:07,120
Speaker 4: You know, everything is always you know clock, you know,

1689
01:28:07,320 --> 01:28:09,720
Speaker 4: like that. But I'm getting ready into a whole nother

1690
01:28:10,439 --> 01:28:14,560
Speaker 4: era of my reality. And I'm so grateful and this

1691
01:28:15,280 --> 01:28:17,320
Speaker 4: you have the opening of the way. I must say.

1692
01:28:17,360 --> 01:28:20,599
Speaker 4: I wanted to say it earlier. Your Ost and never had.

1693
01:28:21,960 --> 01:28:22,240
Speaker 2: Ost.

1694
01:28:22,680 --> 01:28:26,720
Speaker 4: The Great Mother in your a composite. That's why there's

1695
01:28:26,760 --> 01:28:29,640
Speaker 4: so much greatness that comes from the two of your pylons,

1696
01:28:29,720 --> 01:28:34,400
Speaker 4: literally of gateways. Os is the great Mother and she

1697
01:28:34,560 --> 01:28:38,160
Speaker 4: comes in and out according to who needs what. Neverthead

1698
01:28:38,320 --> 01:28:43,240
Speaker 4: is her sacred sister, helper of the spiritual realm. There's

1699
01:28:43,280 --> 01:28:46,200
Speaker 4: a story behind that won't take the time, but inside

1700
01:28:46,240 --> 01:28:48,200
Speaker 4: of sacred and what makes sacred work is because of

1701
01:28:48,320 --> 01:28:53,200
Speaker 4: us and neverthead sister to sister on the same path,

1702
01:28:53,439 --> 01:28:57,200
Speaker 4: going in the same direction to heal themselves. And you

1703
01:28:57,280 --> 01:28:59,839
Speaker 4: all coming together helps you to birth in some amounts.

1704
01:29:00,000 --> 01:29:02,200
Speaker 4: When I first sat down and said, you'll have a book,

1705
01:29:03,200 --> 01:29:05,479
Speaker 4: you said, well, it actually is coming out in the

1706
01:29:05,560 --> 01:29:09,519
Speaker 4: spurring all the summer, so that that birthday and you're

1707
01:29:09,560 --> 01:29:12,680
Speaker 4: seeking each other. It's like thousands of years have come

1708
01:29:12,760 --> 01:29:15,920
Speaker 4: and gone and you found each other. And that's the

1709
01:29:16,000 --> 01:29:19,519
Speaker 4: spirit of sacred woman. And and I put the book

1710
01:29:19,520 --> 01:29:21,120
Speaker 4: in my bag. Let me take the book with me,

1711
01:29:21,280 --> 01:29:22,719
Speaker 4: like it's like here's the Bible.

1712
01:29:23,280 --> 01:29:26,120
Speaker 2: We got, we got each I want you sign.

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01:29:26,720 --> 01:29:30,840
Speaker 4: I will so have a book signing moment. Don't worry, No,

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01:29:31,000 --> 01:29:32,479
Speaker 4: don't worry. You're in la.

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01:29:32,600 --> 01:29:34,640
Speaker 2: Yeah, we're right around the barn stuff for you.

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01:29:36,640 --> 01:29:39,439
Speaker 4: I got some gifts for you. So I'm going to

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01:29:39,520 --> 01:29:40,920
Speaker 4: give you all my spirits said, I'm going to give

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01:29:40,920 --> 01:29:42,240
Speaker 4: you all the wood killed love kid.

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01:29:42,880 --> 01:29:46,040
Speaker 2: Thank you. Thank you, and I really hope to join

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01:29:46,160 --> 01:29:51,000
Speaker 2: the Sacred Woman, uh, the love party.

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01:29:51,600 --> 01:29:52,960
Speaker 4: That's what I'm saying. That's why you're gonna give you

1722
01:29:52,960 --> 01:29:59,200
Speaker 4: the gear. You see, we are our intuition is just bouncing.

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01:29:58,960 --> 01:30:03,080
Speaker 2: Off these and walls, and it's beautiful, it is.

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01:30:03,200 --> 01:30:05,960
Speaker 4: It's so wonderful, you know. And that when I first came,

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01:30:06,040 --> 01:30:08,840
Speaker 4: I kept laughing as I'm coming, I'm laughing but trying

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01:30:08,880 --> 01:30:12,439
Speaker 4: to keep it cool because I felt my energy and

1727
01:30:12,560 --> 01:30:15,600
Speaker 4: your energy. I said, what kind of mo sign? This

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01:30:15,760 --> 01:30:19,799
Speaker 4: is something else there just like me. It looks different,

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01:30:19,840 --> 01:30:22,120
Speaker 4: but there's a there's a part that I connect to

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01:30:22,880 --> 01:30:26,200
Speaker 4: in the two of you, and I'm just so ecstatic

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01:30:26,240 --> 01:30:28,240
Speaker 4: about it. That's how to get my door, I said,

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01:30:28,320 --> 01:30:30,080
Speaker 4: just just feel the vibe. I don't know what you

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01:30:30,160 --> 01:30:34,160
Speaker 4: might pick up. All right, we're here, You're here, wall

1734
01:30:34,240 --> 01:30:39,479
Speaker 4: here together. That's the magic of life. Life is so

1735
01:30:39,760 --> 01:30:42,679
Speaker 4: magical and so misty. It's not just pain and agony

1736
01:30:42,840 --> 01:30:47,080
Speaker 4: and doubt and fear. There's another level and it's a frequency.

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01:30:48,240 --> 01:30:50,400
Speaker 4: I'm gonna give you allttimate tune up, and the next

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01:30:50,479 --> 01:30:52,880
Speaker 4: seven days I'm give you attiminate tune up, and I'm

1739
01:30:52,880 --> 01:30:55,000
Speaker 4: gonna just read your frequency real quick, and I'm just okay,

1740
01:30:55,000 --> 01:30:57,040
Speaker 4: now I'll do this. Boom bam boom boom boom.

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01:30:57,200 --> 01:30:59,960
Speaker 5: I'm like a gas I'm great.

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01:31:00,120 --> 01:31:02,080
Speaker 4: You just gave me to read of life. I said this,

1743
01:31:02,280 --> 01:31:05,040
Speaker 4: that and the third I said, oh really, oh that's true. Okay,

1744
01:31:05,280 --> 01:31:08,120
Speaker 4: I was confirming as you was talking. So I've got

1745
01:31:08,160 --> 01:31:09,960
Speaker 4: to give it back. You know. It's just you know,

1746
01:31:10,040 --> 01:31:13,200
Speaker 4: when you're gifted, give a give a gift, you know,

1747
01:31:13,320 --> 01:31:15,240
Speaker 4: so we can all elevate together.

1748
01:31:15,160 --> 01:31:18,400
Speaker 2: Keep giving. It's a circle. It's a circle of giving

1749
01:31:18,520 --> 01:31:20,200
Speaker 2: and receiving.

1750
01:31:20,680 --> 01:31:23,960
Speaker 3: And I'm so grateful for you, for you coming down

1751
01:31:24,040 --> 01:31:26,680
Speaker 3: here and hanging out with us and chatting with us

1752
01:31:26,720 --> 01:31:30,080
Speaker 3: and giving us all your amazing advice and just spending

1753
01:31:30,120 --> 01:31:31,559
Speaker 3: time with us and holding space.

1754
01:31:31,600 --> 01:31:32,640
Speaker 2: I appreciate you, you.

1755
01:31:32,760 --> 01:31:36,400
Speaker 4: Wise women, you other wise women. Thank you, and you're

1756
01:31:36,439 --> 01:31:39,160
Speaker 4: better together than a part. So no matter what you

1757
01:31:39,280 --> 01:31:42,639
Speaker 4: may go through in life, stay together and grow grow

1758
01:31:42,720 --> 01:31:44,960
Speaker 4: each other because you have the history of the stories,

1759
01:31:45,240 --> 01:31:47,639
Speaker 4: and you can remind each other and you can support

1760
01:31:47,680 --> 01:31:49,519
Speaker 4: and help each other. And you've done it already because

1761
01:31:49,560 --> 01:31:52,120
Speaker 4: your circle is getting bigger and others who have the

1762
01:31:52,200 --> 01:31:55,080
Speaker 4: same stories are coming in for the healing, for this,

1763
01:31:55,280 --> 01:31:57,400
Speaker 4: and then the book is happening. You know, when you

1764
01:31:57,479 --> 01:32:01,920
Speaker 4: get to the book, that's a big feet. So much

1765
01:32:02,000 --> 01:32:04,360
Speaker 4: as you think you're working. Now, oh my gosh, take

1766
01:32:04,400 --> 01:32:06,280
Speaker 4: that deep breath, because it's gonna be about to be

1767
01:32:06,400 --> 01:32:10,280
Speaker 4: so on even more, just more is coming to you.

1768
01:32:10,439 --> 01:32:13,800
Speaker 4: More blessings are coming to you, and people will You'll

1769
01:32:13,840 --> 01:32:15,200
Speaker 4: come into a town and there will be hundreds and

1770
01:32:15,320 --> 01:32:18,000
Speaker 4: hundreds of women, not only because of social media, but

1771
01:32:18,120 --> 01:32:20,880
Speaker 4: because of the work that you've done, and they'll open

1772
01:32:21,000 --> 01:32:23,559
Speaker 4: up a page and they'll hear your story and they'll

1773
01:32:23,600 --> 01:32:28,000
Speaker 4: be transformed by you. Thank you, Thank you to the

1774
01:32:28,080 --> 01:32:28,880
Speaker 4: literary work.

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01:32:29,800 --> 01:32:39,880
Speaker 9: Describe works definitely, and uh my little cancers, right, can

1776
01:32:41,040 --> 01:32:41,640
Speaker 9: you what are you?

1777
01:32:41,840 --> 01:32:42,320
Speaker 5: Scorpio?

1778
01:32:42,520 --> 01:32:45,840
Speaker 4: Scorpion? Okay? All that water Okay, so y'all are just

1779
01:32:45,960 --> 01:32:46,840
Speaker 4: bathing in the water.

1780
01:32:47,600 --> 01:32:50,599
Speaker 3: Okay, tonight's a full moon and cancer. I'm gonna prepare

1781
01:32:50,640 --> 01:32:51,880
Speaker 3: the baths for the whole family.

1782
01:32:53,439 --> 01:32:56,840
Speaker 4: To prepare the whole bath for the whole family.

1783
01:32:56,680 --> 01:32:57,960
Speaker 2: And everybody gets a bathroom.

1784
01:32:58,520 --> 01:33:00,439
Speaker 4: All right. That's the Great Mother talking.

1785
01:33:04,120 --> 01:33:07,200
Speaker 5: Thank you, queen. Where can our people find you?

1786
01:33:07,600 --> 01:33:12,080
Speaker 1: And on all your platforms and all your discovery boxes,

1787
01:33:12,240 --> 01:33:15,439
Speaker 1: all your things, or just go to queenfood dot com.

1788
01:33:15,640 --> 01:33:20,560
Speaker 4: Okay, the whole world. And also I'm going to be

1789
01:33:20,640 --> 01:33:23,640
Speaker 4: doing something this afternoon. Just I'm gonna talk about you

1790
01:33:23,680 --> 01:33:29,200
Speaker 4: a little bit. It's wombcare Love dot Com. It's my

1791
01:33:29,439 --> 01:33:32,360
Speaker 4: first time really officially coming on the I G Growing

1792
01:33:32,439 --> 01:33:35,040
Speaker 4: that baby. My daughter said, well, why aren't you coming

1793
01:33:35,080 --> 01:33:37,360
Speaker 4: on the I G of boom Kill Love. I said,

1794
01:33:37,360 --> 01:33:45,000
Speaker 4: today's day. I have my face a beach on and

1795
01:33:45,160 --> 01:33:47,320
Speaker 4: so I'm going to share. I'm gonna share this moment.

1796
01:33:47,600 --> 01:33:50,599
Speaker 4: So thank you for you, you know, opening the way

1797
01:33:50,640 --> 01:33:53,120
Speaker 4: for me to be here any time.

1798
01:33:53,360 --> 01:33:53,639
Speaker 5: Please.

1799
01:33:53,880 --> 01:33:55,960
Speaker 4: It's such a treat. Oh my gosh. Well, you know

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01:33:56,000 --> 01:33:57,960
Speaker 4: when I give you, that's what I'm gonna do. When

1801
01:33:58,000 --> 01:34:00,920
Speaker 4: I give you your your kid, your womb kill Love

1802
01:34:01,040 --> 01:34:04,679
Speaker 4: Kid with your woom Food, jew Love with your womb

1803
01:34:04,760 --> 01:34:09,519
Speaker 4: killed Love, super Food with your woombkle Love, Pink Roast Clay,

1804
01:34:10,320 --> 01:34:12,320
Speaker 4: and this, that and the third, and I put all

1805
01:34:12,360 --> 01:34:15,400
Speaker 4: that in some little special gifts in there. I want

1806
01:34:15,479 --> 01:34:18,680
Speaker 4: you to open it up for everyone. Is absolutely absolutely

1807
01:34:19,160 --> 01:34:19,960
Speaker 4: take out your steps.

1808
01:34:20,120 --> 01:34:21,759
Speaker 5: Oh girl, we gonna do a whole.

1809
01:34:23,080 --> 01:34:27,720
Speaker 2: A whole by word, thank you, no worries. I can't

1810
01:34:27,760 --> 01:34:29,680
Speaker 2: wait to guess who I'm friends with like, what she's

1811
01:34:29,680 --> 01:34:31,000
Speaker 2: saying the queen.

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01:34:33,560 --> 01:34:35,560
Speaker 1: I actually told my daughters, I said, I'm interviewing a

1813
01:34:35,640 --> 01:34:37,800
Speaker 1: queen today. She's like a queen, like a real queen.

1814
01:34:37,840 --> 01:34:38,960
Speaker 1: I was like, yep, I know.

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01:34:39,080 --> 01:34:40,880
Speaker 2: Luna was like, can I wear pajama's the office? I

1816
01:34:41,040 --> 01:34:42,880
Speaker 2: was like, no, the queen is coming.

1817
01:34:45,240 --> 01:34:48,280
Speaker 4: But she said, the princess is here, old princess. She's

1818
01:34:48,320 --> 01:34:48,840
Speaker 4: all girl.

1819
01:34:50,760 --> 01:34:53,240
Speaker 5: Oh my god. Well, you guys, I guess we're gonna

1820
01:34:53,280 --> 01:34:54,719
Speaker 5: end it here. I love you guys.

1821
01:34:54,960 --> 01:34:57,160
Speaker 3: You know where to find us on Good Mom's Underscore,

1822
01:34:57,240 --> 01:35:00,880
Speaker 3: Bad Choices on Instagram, good Moms by Choices dot com.

1823
01:35:00,960 --> 01:35:02,840
Speaker 3: Because we got a website and she you guys, go

1824
01:35:03,000 --> 01:35:09,320
Speaker 3: visit it. Join our newsletter. We are constantly launching new retreats.

1825
01:35:09,560 --> 01:35:13,120
Speaker 3: Please follow our retreat page at the Good Vibe Retreat

1826
01:35:13,920 --> 01:35:16,639
Speaker 3: and join us. If this was your calling to say

1827
01:35:16,680 --> 01:35:18,320
Speaker 3: I need to make a change, I need to say yes,

1828
01:35:18,400 --> 01:35:21,120
Speaker 3: I need to shift, join us on the next retreat.

1829
01:35:21,200 --> 01:35:25,080
Speaker 3: It's some beautiful women's circle work, womb healing going on

1830
01:35:25,320 --> 01:35:27,479
Speaker 3: in the jungles and we would love to have you.

1831
01:35:27,760 --> 01:35:30,599
Speaker 1: Yes, We're going to Mexico in July and I cannot

1832
01:35:30,680 --> 01:35:33,360
Speaker 1: wait to share this new space.

1833
01:35:33,439 --> 01:35:33,840
Speaker 5: With you guys.

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01:35:33,880 --> 01:35:35,640
Speaker 1: You know, me and Mila have only ever done our

1835
01:35:35,680 --> 01:35:38,040
Speaker 1: retreats in Costa Rica, so this is a new new

1836
01:35:38,200 --> 01:35:40,600
Speaker 1: energy and new space and I'm really really excited for

1837
01:35:40,800 --> 01:35:43,479
Speaker 1: these for the first group to come, Like I always

1838
01:35:43,479 --> 01:35:46,799
Speaker 1: think about our OG Costa Rica group and I'm really excited.

1839
01:35:46,880 --> 01:35:50,360
Speaker 1: So to meet the OG Mexico group me too.

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01:35:51,800 --> 01:35:52,960
Speaker 5: And I guess that's it.

1841
01:35:53,479 --> 01:35:55,240
Speaker 4: Bye, love you, Bye.

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01:36:01,080 --> 01:36:18,439
Speaker 6: To yao ellenor j Solo ba record

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Speaker 8: Las