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Speaker 1: Now here's a highlight from Coast to Coast AM on iHeartRadio.

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Speaker 2: Man, Welcome back to Coast to Coast, George Nori with you.

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Speaker 2: Phil Webster is an author. His book is called Letting Glow.

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Speaker 2: He's an actor, spiritual seeker, and after living abroad and

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Speaker 2: traveling the world for twenty years, he returned to his

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Speaker 2: native England back in twenty seventeen and embarked on an

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Speaker 2: acting career. At the tail end of the COVID nineteen pandemic,

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Speaker 2: an unexplained event coupled with a devastating loss sent him

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Speaker 2: down a completely different path forever. We'll talk about that.

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Speaker 2: His debut book, Letting Glow, documents his journey into the

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Speaker 2: mystical and helps us connect with our highest states of intuition,

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Speaker 2: realigning the connection between our thoughts, consciousness and authentic selves,

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Speaker 2: and ultimately searching for proof that we survive physical death. Phil,

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Speaker 2: Welcome to the program. How are things out there in London?

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Speaker 3: George? Thank you very much. Pleasure to be here. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: we'll get here in the middle of a great sum

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Speaker 3: of what.

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Speaker 2: Was this tragedy that occurred after COVID, Well, so we went.

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Speaker 3: Through the pandemic. I guess we don't really need to

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Speaker 3: elaborate on that. We've all heard enough about that. So

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Speaker 3: I've been based in London for the last few years,

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Speaker 3: as you mentioned, and my mom lived on a place

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Speaker 3: called the Isle of Wight, which is an island of

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Speaker 3: the south of the UK, and we've been through all

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Speaker 3: the lockdowns, and you know, I was following the government

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Speaker 3: guidelines and keeping away and then I would go and

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Speaker 3: see her when it would get lifted. But essentially she

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Speaker 3: was pretty much on her own for the most part

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Speaker 3: of the year. And she was seventy six years old

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Speaker 3: and reasonably good health. You know, she had a few

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Speaker 3: age related health problems, like her high blood pressure and

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Speaker 3: a few heart issues, but I expected to her to

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Speaker 3: be around for a while. So I hadn't seen her

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Speaker 3: at this point for a couple of months and due

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Speaker 3: to again through lockdowns and stuff like that, and we

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Speaker 3: went through Christmas of twenty twenty and it looked like

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Speaker 3: there was a light at the end of the tunnel

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Speaker 3: in terms of COVID and all that stuff, and anyway

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Speaker 3: I spoke to her. I would speak to her a

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Speaker 3: couple of times a day FaceTime, called stuff things like that,

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Speaker 3: and on this particular day, I called her quite late

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Speaker 3: at night, it was like nine thirty, ten pm something,

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Speaker 3: and I must mention as well that this place where

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Speaker 3: she lived was very rual. We didn't have any other

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Speaker 3: family there, and I kind of knew everyone that was

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Speaker 3: in her media, you know, in her vicinity, like natives

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Speaker 3: and stuff like that. So I called her this particular night,

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Speaker 3: and actually after the call actually leaned into the screen

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Speaker 3: I saw a man leaning again on the other side

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Speaker 3: because again we were in a lockdown. So I was thinking, well,

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Speaker 3: who's this guy? And I saw him long enough thought

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Speaker 3: I could describe him. He had thinning, gray hair, glasses,

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Speaker 3: kind of gaune looking face, probably in his late sixties,

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Speaker 3: I would say. And then as she kind of moved away,

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Speaker 3: he went out of shop and I said, well, I said, well,

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Speaker 3: who's that and she replied who's what? And I was like, okay, well,

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Speaker 3: I just saw someone, you know, who's the guy? And

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Speaker 3: she said, no, no, that there hasn't been anyone here

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Speaker 3: because I mean I saw the guy and at the time,

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Speaker 3: my mind wasn't really going to the supernatural around for

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Speaker 3: my bad. I hadn't really there hadn't really been my

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Speaker 3: interest for many years. I was living a very sort

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Speaker 3: of practical life and I saw them interrupted her and

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Speaker 3: I said, but mom, okay, I just saw someone, so

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Speaker 3: there's no one here, and she kind of just sort

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Speaker 3: of started telling me about her day. And another thing

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Speaker 3: because her whole demeanor would change. She would just speak

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Speaker 3: So the whole thing, I mean just took on a

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Speaker 2: I'm sure you went through that, but it opened up

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Speaker 2: the door for a lot of other things, didn't it.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, definitely. It's a very strange one, you know, because

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Speaker 3: obviously I'd rather my mom was still here, but my

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Speaker 3: life has just taken a completely different direction now, and

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Speaker 3: and it's almost as though a parting gift from her

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Speaker 2: What kind of acting have you done?

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Speaker 3: Oh so ill? He's the word acting very lightly when

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Speaker 3: I when I was flat on myself. So this was

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Speaker 3: something I've lived aboard for a long time. And I

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Speaker 3: And and I've always been obsessed with movies, so acting

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Speaker 3: got a few roles. You know, I would kind of

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Speaker 3: you know, that's kind of the fast couple of years.

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Speaker 3: But but it's been fun. I've had a lot of

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Speaker 3: So it's been, it's been, it's been. It's paid the bills.

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Speaker 3: But I must admit the last couple of years now

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Speaker 2: What got you to write in Letting Glow?

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Speaker 3: What What? What prompted? It was essentially that experience with

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Speaker 3: Doctor Strange Too was the movie. Yeah, And I was

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Speaker 3: day I told her. I told a young lady the

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Speaker 3: obviously that was a spirit guide or you know, your guide,

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Speaker 3: she was about to pass. So that and she she

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Speaker 3: suggested that I asked the sign. So I did ask

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Speaker 3: which seemed like coincidences, but in hindsight, I looked as

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Speaker 3: though it was some sort of I don't know, there

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Speaker 3: document this journey and see where it ends up. So

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Speaker 3: the book is kind of my personal journey through grief

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Speaker 3: and then opening up to spiritual practices, and then the

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Speaker 3: theory of the reader could take the journey with me.

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Speaker 2: Is the title Letting Glow sort of a takeoff of

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Speaker 2: Letting Go.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, absolutely, you know, I you know, it starts with

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Speaker 3: much and the help so much as well, particularly around mediumship.

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Speaker 3: So yeah, that's kind of a play on that.

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Speaker 2: What have you learned about the other side at this point, Phil.

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Speaker 3: I've always I've always kind of used to be on

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Speaker 2: You have ignored a lot of spiritual signs your entire life,

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Speaker 3: Bit about Yeah, definitely, So that's that was it again,

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Speaker 3: also as a teenager, I experienced astral projection, which I

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Speaker 2: The subtitle to your book, phill is A Guide to Intuition, Spirituality,

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Speaker 2: and Living Consciously. Tell me about the intuition portion of that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I think that, you know, we all have these

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Speaker 3: or you get a gut feeling, or we can't quite

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Speaker 3: of semantics. We're essentially talking about the same thing, and

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Speaker 3: definitely becomes richer. Through learning about mediumship, I'm beginning to

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Speaker 3: that comes well than over questioning everything, you know, with

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Speaker 2: Was there ever a time in your life where you

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Speaker 2: Now it's a compliment.

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Speaker 3: Film well, yeah, absolutely, But at the time, again, my

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Speaker 2: You know, would you say this, this mystical journey has

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Speaker 3: Yeah, definitely that that experience in itself really smashed my

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Speaker 3: At the time, I was kind of like living this

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Speaker 3: felt that the ego was the first casualty. You know.

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Speaker 3: I was genuinely worried for my mental health at the time,

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Speaker 2: All that God is now your second chapter you devote

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Speaker 2: to the Ouiji board. Tell me about that, all right.

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Speaker 3: So when I was a kid, I would say sixteen seventeen,

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Speaker 3: And yeah, I think a few of us dabbled with

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Speaker 3: this is one of those things that as time went on,

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Speaker 3: I thought, well, what was that, you know, But in hindsight, yeah,

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Speaker 3: I think we definitely tapped into something, but I also

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Speaker 3: Since learning about mediumship, I believe that intention is really everything,

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Speaker 3: going to experience, you know. And I think in those days,

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Speaker 3: we probably weren't in the best environment to start messing

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Speaker 2: Now, I think weg boards and the wrong hands can

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean that was my experience. I didn't know

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Speaker 3: wasn't it wasn't you know. When I'm not talking Hollywood

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