WEBVTT - Friendsgiving: Part 1

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, what's up everybody, and welcome to another episode of

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<v Speaker 1>Bachelor Happy Hour. And you guys, you are in for

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<v Speaker 1>a treat today because not only are you just listening

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<v Speaker 1>to another episode, no no, no, no no, this is

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<v Speaker 1>the first ever Bachelor Happy Hour friends Giving. Now you

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<v Speaker 1>hear some voices in the background, but you don't know

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<v Speaker 1>who that is yet. So let me just start off

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<v Speaker 1>by saying, I couldn't do friends Giving by myself because

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<v Speaker 1>if this was Thanksgiving, I wouldn't be doing it by myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I would have my wonderful husband with me. So he

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<v Speaker 1>is in the studio today joining me. He came all

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<v Speaker 1>the way to La to host friends Giving with me.

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<v Speaker 1>What's up everybody? Hi, babe, I am so excited that

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<v Speaker 1>you're here with me, first time in person on the

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<v Speaker 1>Bachelor Happy Hour podcast. And we aren't alone. We have

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<v Speaker 1>some of our dearest friends from Bachelor Nation joining us

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<v Speaker 1>in the studio today. So everybody welcome, Eric, Katie, Tasia, Joe,

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<v Speaker 1>and Kendall. I'm so happy that you guys are here.

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<v Speaker 1>Thankful in the spirit of friends Giving, I'm thankful that

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<v Speaker 1>you guys are here. We're gonna have a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>fun today. We're going to keep it real honest, tell

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<v Speaker 1>us say things we're not supposed to say, which is

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<v Speaker 1>what I love to do. But most of all, we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna have fun. So let's just get right into it. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>we all know each other through this Bachelor Nation world,

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<v Speaker 1>but we were all on different seasons. I mean, Brian, Eric,

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<v Speaker 1>we were on the same season together. You guys, Joe

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<v Speaker 1>and Kendall were on Paradise together. You guys were on

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<v Speaker 1>Colton season Katie and Tasia together. But so Brian are

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<v Speaker 1>the first removed from the show. I guess I want

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<v Speaker 1>to feel like, what would you say are some of

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<v Speaker 1>the biggest changes from the show between our time to you?

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<v Speaker 1>You guys, because you're the most recent on the show,

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<v Speaker 1>did you watch the show before? I'm Ben was my

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<v Speaker 1>first season. I watched okay, and then I watched Joe

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<v Speaker 1>Joe's and then I kind of like, oh, you fell

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<v Speaker 1>off to No. No, I watched your season, but I

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<v Speaker 1>just didn't watch it all the way through. I think

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<v Speaker 1>it was more of like the friends that I was

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<v Speaker 1>hanging out with at the time, my girlfriends in high school, especially,

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<v Speaker 1>they had Bachelor Mondays, so they had like a big

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<v Speaker 1>group of girlfriends, and then kind of like when people

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<v Speaker 1>were going to college and moving around all that stuff,

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<v Speaker 1>everything kind of like changed. But yeah, everything was super

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<v Speaker 1>new for me. But the most the thing that I

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<v Speaker 1>learned about most, I would feel was finding myself. I

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<v Speaker 1>think because, like I shared on the show, I went

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<v Speaker 1>through a divorce, so I was just really finding who

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<v Speaker 1>I was and just doing things for me for like

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<v Speaker 1>the first time in my twenties. So it was really

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<v Speaker 1>transformative in that aspect. Yeah, the show is such a

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<v Speaker 1>crazy experience, you know, me personally, I'm glad it's over.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you guys feel about that? Like, are you

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<v Speaker 1>glad that the show is over and done with and

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<v Speaker 1>you can kind of move on? Definitely? I think so

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<v Speaker 1>because when you're on the show, when you're on the show,

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<v Speaker 1>you're looking for love and you're trying to find more

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<v Speaker 1>about yourself and who you are as a partner. And afterwards,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like I learned so much more about being

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<v Speaker 1>in a relationship, not only with someone else, but also

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<v Speaker 1>being like my individual self in a relationship. I learned

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<v Speaker 1>a lot about um. So I feel like I was

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<v Speaker 1>excited to learn from the show and then go into

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<v Speaker 1>like the real world with that knowledge. So yeah, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like you Candel and show are together. Yes, Brian

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<v Speaker 1>and I are. Mary Katie, you're engaged, okay? Eric? Are

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<v Speaker 1>you currently single? I'm single, so I've been dating all year.

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<v Speaker 1>Would you go back on the show? No, you're done.

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<v Speaker 1>So we're all done. I mean unless I get to pick. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>what if they made you the lead? Would you do it? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>I will do it? Okay, sure, just because I have options. No,

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<v Speaker 1>that's right out there. I just think it's better that way.

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<v Speaker 1>When you go through Paradise and go through the first season.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a lot twenty Rachelor, I mean, campaign is star.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the first year. Honestly, I really really was like, man,

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<v Speaker 1>I really really want to do this early. I be

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<v Speaker 1>in a relationship and figure it out, but failed whole year.

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<v Speaker 1>Really is it really hard to date in LA because

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<v Speaker 1>you don't know women's true intentions? What do they want

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<v Speaker 1>from you? Already dating me because of your status or

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<v Speaker 1>your saying, um, I asked for real questions? So what

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<v Speaker 1>is it about me? You did fail? Though? No, not fail.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm learning. Yeah, but you know what I've learned. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not my time, it's not your time. I'm like, damn,

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<v Speaker 1>like cannot what. I was like, you know what, let

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<v Speaker 1>it happen. It's hard to date in La. I think

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<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of different people, a lot of different temptations,

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of shiny things, and being single in LA.

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<v Speaker 1>When I was living here as a single woman, it

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<v Speaker 1>was very difficult to stay focused on so many distractions.

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<v Speaker 1>Especially with the apps nowadays, it's like, oh gosh, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like people treated as a game yeah laughter, are

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<v Speaker 1>always trying to upgrade quote unquote so well. You also

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<v Speaker 1>don't feel the sense of like, oh, I have to

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<v Speaker 1>really work at this relationship. There's always the thought of, oh,

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<v Speaker 1>if this doesn't work out, I can just go back

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<v Speaker 1>on the app. Like I know so many people who

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<v Speaker 1>download the app to lead it, download it, deleat it,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's just you know, it's like a a savior

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<v Speaker 1>if you feel like a relationship isn't work safety net exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>You feel like you feel like you don't have to

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<v Speaker 1>put as much energy into a relationship because there's always

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<v Speaker 1>the next person. Yeah, is that why you went on

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<v Speaker 1>the show, Just because like it's more controlled, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I guess, and maybe people you would hope people are

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<v Speaker 1>all coming in with the right intentions, and I honestly

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<v Speaker 1>didn't go on the show expecting to ever find anybody.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I was definitely open to it. I think

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<v Speaker 1>the one thing you have to have is openness to

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<v Speaker 1>find somebody. But I went on it because I thought

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<v Speaker 1>it would be a really transformative, amazing experience, and it

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<v Speaker 1>was and I did happen to find somebody, but neither

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<v Speaker 1>of us expected to find each other, which I think

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<v Speaker 1>was the best part, about one hundred percent the best way.

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<v Speaker 1>And Joe, I know why you came on the show.

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<v Speaker 1>If y'all didn't know already, Joe's approached in a grocery

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<v Speaker 1>store and literally said, sure, I'll be the bachelor, and

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<v Speaker 1>she's like, wait a minute, there's steps to this. You

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<v Speaker 1>don't just get to immediately me the bachelor. No, she

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<v Speaker 1>didn't even tell me that. I actually called a friend

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<v Speaker 1>and they're like, no, that's not how it works. You

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<v Speaker 1>need to go on the first one. So we all

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<v Speaker 1>did say yes, and we did it. Tasia and Katie,

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<v Speaker 1>why did you originally decide to go on the show.

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<v Speaker 1>So my girlfriends actually nominated me to go on the show,

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<v Speaker 1>and at that time I really just had nothing tying

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<v Speaker 1>me down. It was the thing that I was just

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<v Speaker 1>trying to find myself, and I felt like I was

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<v Speaker 1>open to it, but I just didn't know what I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted yet. So I feel like this is just a

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<v Speaker 1>way for me to grow up. I feel like the

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<v Speaker 1>show helped you find yourself. It does. And before I

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<v Speaker 1>went on Colton season, I was reached out on Instagram

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<v Speaker 1>by a casting really on July fourth, and I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>I wonder if she's drinking at a party, maybe she's confused.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I didn't sure, no idea. I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know what's happening, but then walked into casting. It

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<v Speaker 1>just kind of flowed from there. But my friends definitely

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<v Speaker 1>pushed me to do it. I was really nervous, as

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<v Speaker 1>you should be. You're going on TV today, Like it's yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I was just feeling almost like, oh, I'm gonna feel

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<v Speaker 1>violated or expose myself too much, but you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>then we do it. Who did anybody do anything to

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<v Speaker 1>prepare to go on the show. So, and I'll preface

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<v Speaker 1>this by saying, for me, I had never seen an

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<v Speaker 1>episode before I went on it. Crazy enough, I had

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<v Speaker 1>been to watch parties, but I just went to socialize

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<v Speaker 1>and drink. I never paid attention to who was actually

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<v Speaker 1>on the screen. So before as I was packing, like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm literally packing to go to La, I watched Bin's

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<v Speaker 1>season and I got through like a couple of episodes,

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<v Speaker 1>and I remember I called the girls who signed me up,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was like, absolutely not. I had a house

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<v Speaker 1>with these type of women. This is not for me.

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<v Speaker 1>I hate this. But I'd already signed the contract and

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<v Speaker 1>so I was like, all right, at this point, I

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<v Speaker 1>just have to go. I was pleasantly surprised. I love

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<v Speaker 1>the people that I was on the season with, um,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm interested in how you guys prepared. Did you

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<v Speaker 1>watch someone's season? Did you maybe work out? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I saw it, I met you. Can we talk about that? Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>So I signed up. I probably was the end of January.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like, you're on the show. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>right before you got casted as the league. I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>know she was going to be the bacherette, but I'm

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<v Speaker 1>in La. She was in La at the time. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>getting out of my car and I'm walking into the

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<v Speaker 1>gym and I look over and it's a girl like

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<v Speaker 1>a red band down on working out. I'm a hold up,

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<v Speaker 1>this can't be So I called my boy. I'm like, bro,

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<v Speaker 1>you're not gonna believe this. I think she's at my gym.

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<v Speaker 1>He's like no, he's like, you have to say something.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, this can't be real. It was like

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<v Speaker 1>the week of my birthday as well. It was crazy

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<v Speaker 1>right before I saw it the week later. But anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>so I go out, I go in, I come back.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, that's her. What's going on? What is

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<v Speaker 1>the universe trying to tell me? So she came in.

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<v Speaker 1>I said, uh, I was speaking to her as I knew.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, right, I see you working hard. She's like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying I give a file. I was like, I

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<v Speaker 1>see you seen. She's like, I'm scared. I was like

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<v Speaker 1>and looked at But I've never told anybody because I

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<v Speaker 1>was scared, you know, like when you're when you're new.

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<v Speaker 1>I had already gone through the Bachelor, right, but as

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<v Speaker 1>the Bachelor rette, it's like, do I tell a producer

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<v Speaker 1>that this guy I met this guy? I didn't want

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<v Speaker 1>you to get kicked off the season. So I just

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<v Speaker 1>was like, I don't know. So I kept it as

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<v Speaker 1>a secret. So then when you eventually told a producer

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<v Speaker 1>they said, why didn't you say that you met Eric before?

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<v Speaker 1>And I was like, I was just trying to like

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<v Speaker 1>not mess anything up or yeah, no, that was crazy. So, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>you were at the gym working out before and then

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<v Speaker 1>I saw you on A yea yea yeah. I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>what is this? Yeah, because at the time, you didn't

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<v Speaker 1>know you were going to come on the show. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>So my season was the first season where they started

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<v Speaker 1>bringing people out at Afar, So you got to meet

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<v Speaker 1>some of your guys before you actually met them coming

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<v Speaker 1>out of the them that night. And this is crazy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I truly was surprised. A lot of people were like,

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<v Speaker 1>did you know and I said no. They said we

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<v Speaker 1>have to take your phone away early. I was livid,

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<v Speaker 1>and they said, we just don't want you to know

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<v Speaker 1>what's about to happen. Something's going to happen, and so

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<v Speaker 1>that's what ended up happening, and I got to meeting.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a miracle season. What about you guys, did you

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<v Speaker 1>do anything to prepare for the show? Joe and Kendall

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<v Speaker 1>A haircut, tell story, tell a story? All right, okay, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>let's say well, funny enough. I actually watched the first

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<v Speaker 1>night of like multiple seasons to prepare myself. So you

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<v Speaker 1>went home the first day and then this I actually went.

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm like, okay, I gotta get a nice suit.

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<v Speaker 1>So I went to Gucci and bought and bought a suit,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I thought it was tom for I'm not finished.

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<v Speaker 1>So now we're trying on. It's like we have like

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<v Speaker 1>four days to go and and it like just doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>fit right, and my friends like turn around. Then I'm

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<v Speaker 1>at his house. He's like it's really tight on your

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<v Speaker 1>ass and it's like riding up and now, well, I'm like,

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<v Speaker 1>what am I gonna do? Because I can't look like

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<v Speaker 1>pee wee Hermann on this show, and so I'm like, ah,

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<v Speaker 1>So I'm like, I mean I only go on TV once.

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck it. We go to tom Ford and buy another suit.

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<v Speaker 1>So I bought. I spent like so much money on

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<v Speaker 1>suits and like nice ones, and then I went home

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<v Speaker 1>the first night, so I have the Time four one,

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<v Speaker 1>the Gucci one. They took it back and they gave

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<v Speaker 1>me the credit. And then I bought another suit and

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<v Speaker 1>tried to wear it to the mentel all and they

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't let me wear it on TV. This bad luck

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<v Speaker 1>with suits and I was like one dude that he

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<v Speaker 1>got like a whole new wardrobe, six suits. He was

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<v Speaker 1>crying like, yeah, you got to send home the first night.

0:11:48.600 --> 0:11:54.680
<v Speaker 1>It was terrible that I remember his name was Milton. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>let's talk about first night. This is a big one

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<v Speaker 1>for you, Joe. You can really participate in this station.

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<v Speaker 1>That was the worst night. You know, I don't remember,

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<v Speaker 1>like other than Eric and Brian because you were on

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<v Speaker 1>my season, I don't remember everybody's limo exit. So I'll

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<v Speaker 1>go great, good, this makes for good content. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to know, let's go around the table and say what

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<v Speaker 1>your limo insurance was? Okay, so mine? I was prepping

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<v Speaker 1>and um, the producers like, you know, just don't talk

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<v Speaker 1>until you reach her. I'm like okay, And as soon

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<v Speaker 1>as I've opened the doors, I'm like, are you doing?

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<v Speaker 1>Like mister Italian comes out. Then I walk up to

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<v Speaker 1>where I talked to her for like two minutes and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not making any sense, and I know I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>making any sense, and I could just feel myself get

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<v Speaker 1>like pale, and I'm like, this is this is just horrible.

0:12:44.040 --> 0:12:46.319
<v Speaker 1>So finally I'm like I forgot everything I was gonna say,

0:12:46.400 --> 0:12:48.920
<v Speaker 1>and she's like after talking for two minutes, She's like what,

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm like, nice to meet you. I'm Joe. And

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<v Speaker 1>I walk in and I say what the fuck? And

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<v Speaker 1>they actually irrit it, which I couldn't believe, and and

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<v Speaker 1>that was it. Then I walked in and I kind

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<v Speaker 1>of was like all right, and I stood there and

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<v Speaker 1>got a bear and I tried talking to people, but

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<v Speaker 1>I just couldn't really groove with anyone. Yeah, first night,

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<v Speaker 1>it's tough. And then you got to Becca and he said,

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<v Speaker 1>what's your biggest Then I got to be guy. I

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<v Speaker 1>would have had the second conversation with Becca and I said,

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<v Speaker 1>what's your pet? Peas? And I couldn't believe I asked

0:13:17.360 --> 0:13:19.760
<v Speaker 1>that question and I didn't even have an answer for myself.

0:13:20.240 --> 0:13:23.360
<v Speaker 1>She looked at me like I was crazy, And next

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<v Speaker 1>thing I knew, she was gone, and I was standing

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<v Speaker 1>there by myself, and I thought, I cannot believe I

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<v Speaker 1>agreed to come on this show. What is wrong with me?

0:13:35.280 --> 0:13:40.160
<v Speaker 1>This is so embarrassing, And then I went home. I

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<v Speaker 1>would have thought that Joe would have been cute the

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<v Speaker 1>first night, because that nervousness. He's kind of like that

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<v Speaker 1>on Paradise the first day too, But I would say

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<v Speaker 1>that you were a little more suave on the first

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<v Speaker 1>day of Paradise because he went in for the kiss

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<v Speaker 1>the first day. Well, Obrien, it was it was right

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<v Speaker 1>after I said, Oh, I'm so glad that no one's

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<v Speaker 1>trying to kiss me or not kiss me. No one's

0:14:06.480 --> 0:14:08.280
<v Speaker 1>trying to like make claims. Everyone kind of feeling it out.

0:14:08.280 --> 0:14:09.360
<v Speaker 1>And he's like, well, that's what I'm trying to do

0:14:09.440 --> 0:14:15.280
<v Speaker 1>right now. But Paradise. Paradise was different because Paradise you

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<v Speaker 1>could chill for your chilling and talking to everyone for

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<v Speaker 1>like eight hours, you know, and then you're going for

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<v Speaker 1>the kiss. Spoilers like that in the bath re Bachelorette

0:14:26.200 --> 0:14:28.800
<v Speaker 1>where yeah, you had to make a move quickly before

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<v Speaker 1>anybody else did. Correct, Kennel, how did you come out

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<v Speaker 1>of the lima? Oh it, would you have a dead animal? No?

0:14:34.200 --> 0:14:35.960
<v Speaker 1>I did not have an animal. I waited, I think

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<v Speaker 1>maybe day to bring it. I brought the first piece

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<v Speaker 1>of text for me. I brought was a pickled bat,

0:14:42.640 --> 0:14:45.840
<v Speaker 1>and so that a pickled bat, and then are named

0:14:45.880 --> 0:14:50.520
<v Speaker 1>her Victoria. Wow. Did we see that? Yeah? Okay, because

0:14:50.520 --> 0:14:52.440
<v Speaker 1>I was gonna say, I like, that's what I hope

0:14:52.480 --> 0:14:55.160
<v Speaker 1>that at friends Giving, we tell some behind the scenes

0:14:55.160 --> 0:14:57.080
<v Speaker 1>things that people don't get. We have so many dead

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<v Speaker 1>animals in our house. Okay, well I like to see

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<v Speaker 1>them as the art of nature, you know, the art

0:15:02.360 --> 0:15:05.680
<v Speaker 1>of nature preserved. We have many specimens. I love it

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<v Speaker 1>privage for Halloween by the way, No, yeah, it's And

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<v Speaker 1>Joe actually contributed to the collection. He got me a

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<v Speaker 1>badger that we've named beaver because I thought it was

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<v Speaker 1>a beaver. Well, we were at this tax that room

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<v Speaker 1>shop in Texas and I really wanted this badge because

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<v Speaker 1>I've always wanted a badge room my collection. And Joe

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<v Speaker 1>is like, how much for the beaver and the tax terms?

0:15:27.360 --> 0:15:32.560
<v Speaker 1>And I were like, he's actually a badge, So it's

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<v Speaker 1>the badger named beaver um. But yeah. So for the

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<v Speaker 1>first night, I was extremely me nervous. I was also

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<v Speaker 1>very paranoid, and because you don't know going into it,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm thinking I used to work behind the scenes in television,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was thinking where's the actors and all this stuff?

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<v Speaker 1>And I was fully on guard, praying for people to

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<v Speaker 1>mess with me. But it wasn't like that, like there

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<v Speaker 1>were there was no actors. It was very much so

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<v Speaker 1>much more real than I expected it to be. And

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<v Speaker 1>I think after I got an idea of um, oh

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<v Speaker 1>this is real. All these people are here, um and

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<v Speaker 1>they're real people. They're not you know, I don't like

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<v Speaker 1>a script or anything. That's when I let my guard down.

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<v Speaker 1>But it wasn't until like the first week until I

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<v Speaker 1>was actually like realizing that was the case. But what'd

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<v Speaker 1>you say out of the limo? Didn't you sing a song? Oh? No?

0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:18.640
<v Speaker 1>I sang. I sang Ari, a song that I had

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<v Speaker 1>written for him the second time we met. Okay, oh

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<v Speaker 1>not the well, like the second talk of the night.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I don't know that they show that they did.

0:16:27.720 --> 0:16:31.400
<v Speaker 1>I was, well, I was so nervous that I sang.

0:16:31.480 --> 0:16:33.440
<v Speaker 1>I mean, my voice wasn't that great. My voice isn't

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<v Speaker 1>great in general. But yeah, so I like had the

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<v Speaker 1>ukulele underneath the bench. We're sitting on the bench and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I got something for you whipped up

0:16:43.000 --> 0:16:45.840
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, whoa that. Yeah, I was just

0:16:46.440 --> 0:16:48.640
<v Speaker 1>I think that's a bold move. You know it was

0:16:49.080 --> 0:16:50.400
<v Speaker 1>you didn't know how that was gonna go. No, And

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<v Speaker 1>I wrote the song the night before the day before.

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<v Speaker 1>No one more costume than the first time he got

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<v Speaker 1>a skin rash, that was all. Yeah. He was on

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<v Speaker 1>the sidelines for the first night. He was sitting on

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<v Speaker 1>the side like we had a chickens too, chicken, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>a chicken. We had this yeah cycle running him. Um no,

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<v Speaker 1>I see. I think when people wear a costume it's

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<v Speaker 1>really daring. So it's like, you know, I got to

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<v Speaker 1>give you an a for effort. And then with Matt

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<v Speaker 1>breaking out in a full body rash, I couldn't send

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<v Speaker 1>him all to you and your rash get okay ta,

0:17:33.480 --> 0:17:34.879
<v Speaker 1>how did you come out of? Well? Eric, I know,

0:17:35.040 --> 0:17:37.120
<v Speaker 1>I'll let you give a chance to say, how you well?

0:17:37.119 --> 0:17:39.960
<v Speaker 1>It was really simple and quick. I was nervous, purvous. Uh,

0:17:40.000 --> 0:17:41.920
<v Speaker 1>it was frightening. I was in a limo with Dean

0:17:42.000 --> 0:17:45.680
<v Speaker 1>and de Mario and I wasn't drinking. I was so nervous.

0:17:45.760 --> 0:17:47.320
<v Speaker 1>I got the rachel. I don't know what I said.

0:17:47.480 --> 0:17:49.960
<v Speaker 1>I think I said, why do I keep seeing you? Yeah?

0:17:50.000 --> 0:17:51.600
<v Speaker 1>And I think that was it. Not just but we

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<v Speaker 1>had already met because of well the gym and then Afar,

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<v Speaker 1>so it was like three times three times. So but

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<v Speaker 1>it was cool, but nervous. I was the same way.

0:18:01.680 --> 0:18:04.480
<v Speaker 1>I didn't have anything prepared. Coming out of Lamo, I

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<v Speaker 1>just like walked out and I remember looking at him

0:18:06.400 --> 0:18:08.920
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, what the heck am I doing here?

0:18:08.960 --> 0:18:10.720
<v Speaker 1>And I completely blacked out and I was like, Hi,

0:18:10.840 --> 0:18:14.199
<v Speaker 1>I'm nervous. I know nothing about you, but you have

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<v Speaker 1>a big heart, so do I. And then I walked in.

0:18:16.720 --> 0:18:19.240
<v Speaker 1>But then I had Tashia land inside, so that was fun. Yeah,

0:18:19.280 --> 0:18:22.040
<v Speaker 1>that's cute. I was like, what do I do? What

0:18:22.080 --> 0:18:23.480
<v Speaker 1>do I do? So I just started coming up with

0:18:23.480 --> 0:18:26.000
<v Speaker 1>lots of ideas and spin things out. All of a sudden,

0:18:26.040 --> 0:18:27.600
<v Speaker 1>I was like, what if I do a magic trick?

0:18:27.680 --> 0:18:30.080
<v Speaker 1>I don't know magic, but I'm gonna try and do one.

0:18:30.600 --> 0:18:32.119
<v Speaker 1>And she was like what are you gonna do? I'm

0:18:32.160 --> 0:18:34.960
<v Speaker 1>like I don't know, So I'm just like give me

0:18:34.960 --> 0:18:36.480
<v Speaker 1>ideas and she's like, what if you do something because

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<v Speaker 1>he's a virgin, and I'm like, shoot, I don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to do this. I don't want to do this. But

0:18:40.400 --> 0:18:43.280
<v Speaker 1>I said pick a card, any card. He grabs a

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<v Speaker 1>card and I'm like, hold on, like, just imagine what

0:18:46.600 --> 0:18:49.400
<v Speaker 1>card that is? Like, like put it into the universe.

0:18:49.920 --> 0:18:51.560
<v Speaker 1>I grab the card, I shuffled them up. I'm like, no,

0:18:51.640 --> 0:18:53.680
<v Speaker 1>pick this card. And he's like, okay, I'm like, no,

0:18:53.800 --> 0:18:56.119
<v Speaker 1>pick a card again. I grab it and I'm like

0:18:57.400 --> 0:18:58.840
<v Speaker 1>I look at it, like I think I know what

0:18:58.880 --> 0:19:00.480
<v Speaker 1>your card is. I'm like, I don't know what it was,

0:19:00.640 --> 0:19:02.240
<v Speaker 1>but I think I just took your V card because

0:19:02.240 --> 0:19:07.760
<v Speaker 1>I go, can I take that? I was like, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>so lame. I'm not a nervous person, but I was

0:19:09.680 --> 0:19:11.960
<v Speaker 1>nervous that night because I don't think what people get

0:19:12.080 --> 0:19:15.320
<v Speaker 1>is you roll up to them. It happened so fast.

0:19:15.640 --> 0:19:18.320
<v Speaker 1>You roll up to the mansion and then like whoever

0:19:18.359 --> 0:19:21.880
<v Speaker 1>the lead is is just standing there and it's eerily quiet,

0:19:22.480 --> 0:19:24.439
<v Speaker 1>and you think you're going to see all these cameras

0:19:24.440 --> 0:19:27.800
<v Speaker 1>and they're kind of farther away than you, and the

0:19:27.800 --> 0:19:29.760
<v Speaker 1>ground is wet, and you're like, oh, hey, my dress.

0:19:30.000 --> 0:19:31.719
<v Speaker 1>You know, you guys don't have to worry about that,

0:19:31.960 --> 0:19:33.920
<v Speaker 1>and it's just so scary, and you're like, this is

0:19:33.960 --> 0:19:36.680
<v Speaker 1>it that there's no turning I remember thinking there's no

0:19:36.760 --> 0:19:40.040
<v Speaker 1>turning back. This is it. Here you go. It's terrifying.

0:19:40.200 --> 0:19:42.800
<v Speaker 1>I walked into the bathroom and stared at myself in

0:19:42.840 --> 0:19:47.280
<v Speaker 1>the mirror and thought, there's no going back. I can't, Like,

0:19:47.280 --> 0:19:51.000
<v Speaker 1>there's nothing I could do let me go back out there.

0:19:52.000 --> 0:19:54.600
<v Speaker 1>You're like make your way back out all right times too. Yeah,

0:19:55.320 --> 0:19:58.520
<v Speaker 1>if you have to give advice to someone who, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>like we know Peter filming his season, and so they've

0:20:02.720 --> 0:20:05.040
<v Speaker 1>already done their first night. So I think that's the

0:20:05.040 --> 0:20:06.960
<v Speaker 1>best night when you get to meet the people for

0:20:07.000 --> 0:20:10.520
<v Speaker 1>the first time, see the hometown packages, and then also

0:20:10.560 --> 0:20:12.240
<v Speaker 1>see what crazy things they do the first night. If

0:20:12.240 --> 0:20:15.520
<v Speaker 1>you're going to give advice to someone for this next season,

0:20:15.560 --> 0:20:17.720
<v Speaker 1>whoever the bachelorette's going to be and who's coming out,

0:20:17.760 --> 0:20:20.719
<v Speaker 1>what would you tell them to do? Should they go

0:20:20.920 --> 0:20:23.560
<v Speaker 1>all out? Should they make a scene? Should they have

0:20:23.640 --> 0:20:26.840
<v Speaker 1>a prop? Should they just say a speech? I mean,

0:20:27.760 --> 0:20:30.080
<v Speaker 1>and I always follow the I followed the kiss principles,

0:20:30.160 --> 0:20:33.920
<v Speaker 1>keep it simple, stupid. I came out just myself, smiled,

0:20:34.320 --> 0:20:36.960
<v Speaker 1>talked a little in Spanish. I actually got great advice

0:20:37.040 --> 0:20:38.920
<v Speaker 1>going on the show a good buddy of mine Eric,

0:20:38.920 --> 0:20:43.120
<v Speaker 1>you know him. Just literally focus on the lead no

0:20:43.119 --> 0:20:45.080
<v Speaker 1>matter what I mean. I had seen the show before,

0:20:45.119 --> 0:20:47.840
<v Speaker 1>so I knew that she was going to have relationships

0:20:47.840 --> 0:20:51.040
<v Speaker 1>and connections with other guys, so I mentally prepared myself

0:20:51.080 --> 0:20:54.359
<v Speaker 1>for that. But then also, don't start any drama, and

0:20:54.400 --> 0:20:57.840
<v Speaker 1>don't talk behind anybody's back. Just follow those three pieces

0:20:57.840 --> 0:21:01.400
<v Speaker 1>of advice, and that kind of helped me out a lot. Yeah,

0:21:01.520 --> 0:21:04.719
<v Speaker 1>I mean you want to showcase your personality in some way. Yeah,

0:21:04.760 --> 0:21:09.400
<v Speaker 1>and I feel like taking a big breath before you

0:21:09.440 --> 0:21:11.240
<v Speaker 1>get out. I was the first one out of my limo,

0:21:11.400 --> 0:21:15.320
<v Speaker 1>and so I think when I walked away, Ari said, oh,

0:21:15.400 --> 0:21:18.880
<v Speaker 1>she was really nervous, you know. So it's it's just

0:21:19.320 --> 0:21:23.000
<v Speaker 1>I think maybe putting it in perspective of, you know,

0:21:24.520 --> 0:21:28.360
<v Speaker 1>it's not just you meeting them, They're also meeting you,

0:21:28.359 --> 0:21:30.399
<v Speaker 1>you know, and so having that perspective of it's not

0:21:30.480 --> 0:21:33.160
<v Speaker 1>all about them, although they are the lead, it's also

0:21:33.200 --> 0:21:37.360
<v Speaker 1>about you, Like that's meeting you and you your personality.

0:21:37.400 --> 0:21:39.199
<v Speaker 1>So I would say that's what I would buys. I mean,

0:21:39.240 --> 0:21:43.040
<v Speaker 1>you were nervous. Imagine I guess I wasn't nervous because

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<v Speaker 1>I thought they are here for me. This is so

0:21:45.760 --> 0:21:48.480
<v Speaker 1>empowering that and then you can I could hear them

0:21:48.480 --> 0:21:50.679
<v Speaker 1>saying Rachel in the car, and I was like, that's me,

0:21:51.000 --> 0:21:53.159
<v Speaker 1>you know, they're here to see me. And I was

0:21:53.240 --> 0:21:55.280
<v Speaker 1>so excited for who was going to come out and

0:21:55.320 --> 0:21:57.080
<v Speaker 1>what they were going to do, and all these new

0:21:57.080 --> 0:21:58.879
<v Speaker 1>people that were coming into my life, and I just

0:21:58.880 --> 0:22:01.520
<v Speaker 1>like couldn't wait to meet everybody, you know, whether you

0:22:01.520 --> 0:22:03.439
<v Speaker 1>were going home the first night or not. I was

0:22:03.520 --> 0:22:07.200
<v Speaker 1>just so excited. And one thing for me, I kept saying,

0:22:07.480 --> 0:22:09.960
<v Speaker 1>never forget what it feels like to be in their shoes.

0:22:10.520 --> 0:22:12.520
<v Speaker 1>So anytime I was talking to someone, I tried to

0:22:12.520 --> 0:22:14.280
<v Speaker 1>give them my full attention because I was like, I

0:22:14.359 --> 0:22:16.720
<v Speaker 1>know what it's like to have just five ten minutes

0:22:16.760 --> 0:22:19.240
<v Speaker 1>with them and they've been waiting all day, or you've

0:22:19.240 --> 0:22:21.280
<v Speaker 1>been waiting all day to talk to that person. But

0:22:22.720 --> 0:22:26.679
<v Speaker 1>what was your least favorite part of filming? I'll tell

0:22:26.720 --> 0:22:30.719
<v Speaker 1>you mine. It's girl chats. Straight up, girl, you want

0:22:30.760 --> 0:22:34.800
<v Speaker 1>to go have a girl chat? No, I don't. I

0:22:34.800 --> 0:22:37.040
<v Speaker 1>hate them. And so for those of you who don't

0:22:37.080 --> 0:22:40.320
<v Speaker 1>know girl chats are, or those of you listening, girl

0:22:40.400 --> 0:22:43.560
<v Speaker 1>chats are when you know everyone else, not everyone, but

0:22:43.600 --> 0:22:45.000
<v Speaker 1>people are off on a date, whether it be a

0:22:45.000 --> 0:22:46.879
<v Speaker 1>one on one a group date. You're sitting around the

0:22:46.920 --> 0:22:51.840
<v Speaker 1>house with absolutely nothing to do, but tan read may

0:22:51.960 --> 0:22:57.160
<v Speaker 1>pretend to work out, drink and like they're or cook

0:22:57.200 --> 0:22:58.560
<v Speaker 1>if if you're one of them, I was definitely not

0:22:58.600 --> 0:23:00.800
<v Speaker 1>the going to cooking in the house, there's always one.

0:23:01.080 --> 0:23:03.520
<v Speaker 1>There's no chef in the bachelor mansion. People don't know

0:23:03.800 --> 0:23:06.760
<v Speaker 1>forget that. But girl chats or guy chats are when

0:23:06.760 --> 0:23:08.520
<v Speaker 1>they say, hey, do you want to go talk about it?

0:23:08.520 --> 0:23:12.119
<v Speaker 1>And usually you're talking about your feelings or the other

0:23:12.200 --> 0:23:14.160
<v Speaker 1>girls that are on the date and what that feels

0:23:14.200 --> 0:23:17.840
<v Speaker 1>like to be at home. But there I despised them.

0:23:17.880 --> 0:23:21.159
<v Speaker 1>I would always try to, like sleep or I don't know,

0:23:21.320 --> 0:23:23.480
<v Speaker 1>run away, actually have a different perspective. I mean, I

0:23:23.520 --> 0:23:26.520
<v Speaker 1>don't know about you, Eric, but I've never talked about

0:23:26.560 --> 0:23:28.679
<v Speaker 1>my feelings more in my life with another dude. Then

0:23:28.720 --> 0:23:30.919
<v Speaker 1>I did on that show for sure, and you liked it.

0:23:31.640 --> 0:23:34.080
<v Speaker 1>I thought it was I thought it helped me be

0:23:34.119 --> 0:23:35.680
<v Speaker 1>a better person. I mean it was funny because when

0:23:35.680 --> 0:23:38.000
<v Speaker 1>I got home, I remember talking to my other guy

0:23:38.080 --> 0:23:41.520
<v Speaker 1>friends that weren't on the show obviously, and just started, hey, man,

0:23:41.560 --> 0:23:46.960
<v Speaker 1>how you feeling. Yeah, I started really getting deep. I

0:23:47.000 --> 0:23:49.720
<v Speaker 1>will agree that being on the show almost makes you

0:23:49.800 --> 0:23:53.280
<v Speaker 1>like express your feelings so much more. You talk more

0:23:53.320 --> 0:23:55.240
<v Speaker 1>about your feelings, Like right off the bat, I was

0:23:55.280 --> 0:23:57.399
<v Speaker 1>like crying in front of people, talking about how I

0:23:57.440 --> 0:23:59.600
<v Speaker 1>was feeling in front of people. It was I think

0:23:59.600 --> 0:24:01.680
<v Speaker 1>it was really incredible. It's very transformative, Like I feel

0:24:01.680 --> 0:24:03.960
<v Speaker 1>it helps you be better in relationships and also you

0:24:04.040 --> 0:24:06.959
<v Speaker 1>getting more apathy for other people as well, because you

0:24:07.000 --> 0:24:09.040
<v Speaker 1>see everyone going through the same experience that you went

0:24:09.119 --> 0:24:12.639
<v Speaker 1>through and you have an understanding of, like their perspective.

0:24:12.680 --> 0:24:15.159
<v Speaker 1>I think that's what I got from it. You can

0:24:15.680 --> 0:24:21.320
<v Speaker 1>see I hated that I'd like talking to the producer. Once,

0:24:21.400 --> 0:24:23.480
<v Speaker 1>once I got comfortable with my producer, I enjoyed that.

0:24:23.520 --> 0:24:25.960
<v Speaker 1>But like like you said, girl Chats, Guy Chats, like,

0:24:26.520 --> 0:24:28.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't even think I did any of them, Like

0:24:28.600 --> 0:24:30.680
<v Speaker 1>even even in Paradise, I don't think I was part

0:24:30.720 --> 0:24:32.840
<v Speaker 1>of anyone because I just wouldn't talk. I would just

0:24:32.840 --> 0:24:35.719
<v Speaker 1>sit there and be like, you're full shit, you know.

0:24:35.880 --> 0:24:37.919
<v Speaker 1>And that's kind of how I felt, which is wrong,

0:24:38.160 --> 0:24:40.080
<v Speaker 1>you know, it isn't the right way to be. But

0:24:40.480 --> 0:24:43.000
<v Speaker 1>I was really in my head. Yeah, I was really

0:24:43.000 --> 0:24:45.320
<v Speaker 1>in my head too. For girl Chats. I felt like

0:24:45.359 --> 0:24:47.479
<v Speaker 1>when a question would come up, I felt that I

0:24:47.560 --> 0:24:52.640
<v Speaker 1>was it felt like acting. Yeah, I was thinking, this

0:24:52.680 --> 0:24:54.800
<v Speaker 1>isn't how I talk, this isn't how I would approach

0:24:54.800 --> 0:24:57.440
<v Speaker 1>the conversation. But I'm going to try and give you

0:24:57.520 --> 0:25:00.960
<v Speaker 1>my input, and it was just felt very abnormal to me,

0:25:01.040 --> 0:25:03.200
<v Speaker 1>and so I try to stay away from girl chats

0:25:03.240 --> 0:25:05.879
<v Speaker 1>as well. What was I like? I mean, I like

0:25:06.000 --> 0:25:10.800
<v Speaker 1>man chats only because it allowed me, because I think

0:25:10.840 --> 0:25:12.680
<v Speaker 1>for me, it allowed me to listen to understand a

0:25:12.720 --> 0:25:16.040
<v Speaker 1>person's perspective, how they was raised, what they believe in

0:25:16.200 --> 0:25:17.760
<v Speaker 1>that model of the world. I mean, it was a

0:25:17.800 --> 0:25:21.359
<v Speaker 1>moment we were in I think Copenhagen and you was like,

0:25:21.560 --> 0:25:24.000
<v Speaker 1>man E, I feel like you gotta, you know, some

0:25:24.080 --> 0:25:26.919
<v Speaker 1>momentum because urniracial, who has something going on earlier that

0:25:27.000 --> 0:25:29.479
<v Speaker 1>was wasn't so great And we kind of smooth all

0:25:29.520 --> 0:25:31.600
<v Speaker 1>the way through. And like just having that back and

0:25:31.640 --> 0:25:34.560
<v Speaker 1>forth and that trust amongst one another, it makes you

0:25:34.600 --> 0:25:37.880
<v Speaker 1>feel like grounded and you feel okay. But then there

0:25:37.960 --> 0:25:40.760
<v Speaker 1>was moments where the lead and the right situation when

0:25:40.800 --> 0:25:42.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm being vulnerable and I'm telling it and they're using

0:25:43.400 --> 0:25:46.120
<v Speaker 1>my truth against me, and I'm like, yeah, who does that? Yeah,

0:25:46.160 --> 0:25:47.760
<v Speaker 1>that's the other thing. You gotta be careful because you're

0:25:47.880 --> 0:25:49.760
<v Speaker 1>you don't know the other person's intentions. Like you said,

0:25:49.760 --> 0:25:52.960
<v Speaker 1>they might use that information against you, but you are

0:25:53.200 --> 0:25:56.359
<v Speaker 1>when you're just on such a high and you and

0:25:56.400 --> 0:25:59.720
<v Speaker 1>you really are grateful. And someone told me as I not.

0:25:59.760 --> 0:26:02.840
<v Speaker 1>Some one Ali told me when I was going into

0:26:02.920 --> 0:26:05.920
<v Speaker 1>this season to be the bachelorette, she said, take advantage

0:26:05.960 --> 0:26:09.040
<v Speaker 1>of every moment. It goes by so fast. It's a lot,

0:26:09.080 --> 0:26:12.399
<v Speaker 1>and you're going to be exhausted, but truly appreciate every

0:26:12.400 --> 0:26:15.200
<v Speaker 1>single day. And so as tired as I was, I

0:26:15.200 --> 0:26:18.480
<v Speaker 1>would always say, Okay, let me just be grateful and

0:26:18.640 --> 0:26:21.359
<v Speaker 1>thankful that I'm here and I have this opportunity, and

0:26:21.400 --> 0:26:24.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm in Norway of all places, and now I'm you know,

0:26:24.560 --> 0:26:27.280
<v Speaker 1>it's just like you have to pinch yourself one to

0:26:27.280 --> 0:26:29.680
<v Speaker 1>see if it's real. I always joke that I swear

0:26:30.640 --> 0:26:32.760
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to pinch myself wake up one day and

0:26:32.880 --> 0:26:35.240
<v Speaker 1>all of you will just be a figment of my imagination.

0:26:35.440 --> 0:26:37.520
<v Speaker 1>Like I'll walk past you in the grocery store, I'm like,

0:26:37.560 --> 0:26:40.040
<v Speaker 1>she looks familiar. Where did I know her from? Oh?

0:26:40.080 --> 0:26:42.560
<v Speaker 1>You know, I don't know. Isn't that how you felt

0:26:42.560 --> 0:26:45.479
<v Speaker 1>when you got home? Though? Like from after filming, I

0:26:45.520 --> 0:26:47.560
<v Speaker 1>felt like was I just inn a dream? Alternate reality?

0:26:47.560 --> 0:26:50.000
<v Speaker 1>Because like you come home and like everything's exactly the

0:26:50.040 --> 0:26:51.639
<v Speaker 1>same like when you left, Like your parents are doing

0:26:51.640 --> 0:26:53.760
<v Speaker 1>the same sact thing. Everything's the same, and I'm like,

0:26:53.920 --> 0:26:55.520
<v Speaker 1>I just went to like five countries, Like I don't

0:26:55.520 --> 0:26:58.040
<v Speaker 1>know what to happen. You're in a dream, yeah, and

0:26:58.280 --> 0:26:59.840
<v Speaker 1>then you come back and you can't really talk about it.

0:27:00.000 --> 0:27:02.199
<v Speaker 1>I was like, what just happened to me? Yeah, but

0:27:02.280 --> 0:27:06.000
<v Speaker 1>you are in another world. It is different. World stops

0:27:06.200 --> 0:27:10.040
<v Speaker 1>when you're in that bubble because you don't have your phone, TV.

0:27:10.440 --> 0:27:14.000
<v Speaker 1>You're completely disconnected from everything. Your world is the Bachelor,

0:27:14.400 --> 0:27:17.479
<v Speaker 1>you know, It's like if there was a Chris Harrison

0:27:17.560 --> 0:27:19.840
<v Speaker 1>would be like the god. Yeah, and you know, the

0:27:19.880 --> 0:27:22.359
<v Speaker 1>producers are your parents and these are your only friends.

0:27:22.560 --> 0:27:25.000
<v Speaker 1>Was one man or one woman in this world? Truly,

0:27:25.000 --> 0:27:28.600
<v Speaker 1>That's how it is. We were talking about this before

0:27:29.359 --> 0:27:32.560
<v Speaker 1>that transition of when the show was over and you're

0:27:32.560 --> 0:27:35.840
<v Speaker 1>done and you come back into the real world. Did

0:27:35.920 --> 0:27:39.640
<v Speaker 1>you you guys find it difficult? Of course, Like, let's

0:27:39.640 --> 0:27:41.919
<v Speaker 1>talk about that. I don't want to go out in public.

0:27:41.960 --> 0:27:44.720
<v Speaker 1>I have social anxiety. My social anxiety was at an

0:27:44.720 --> 0:27:47.160
<v Speaker 1>all time high. Yeah. I felt that everything I did,

0:27:47.200 --> 0:27:50.399
<v Speaker 1>I was facing people, I was faced with questions I

0:27:50.480 --> 0:27:52.320
<v Speaker 1>was everything was and it was almost the same question.

0:27:52.359 --> 0:27:54.040
<v Speaker 1>And I felt that I had to show up and

0:27:54.119 --> 0:27:58.480
<v Speaker 1>not be robotic but deliver with the same enthusiasm as

0:27:58.480 --> 0:28:00.360
<v Speaker 1>when I first came back, and you know, said things

0:28:00.359 --> 0:28:03.080
<v Speaker 1>to my parents or whatever, and even some things that

0:28:03.119 --> 0:28:05.680
<v Speaker 1>were a little bit more I felt more negatively about.

0:28:05.720 --> 0:28:08.040
<v Speaker 1>I felt that I couldn't share or express those feelings

0:28:08.040 --> 0:28:13.199
<v Speaker 1>with just general fans. So it was a weird. It

0:28:13.240 --> 0:28:14.600
<v Speaker 1>was weird to try and get out of my house

0:28:14.640 --> 0:28:15.879
<v Speaker 1>because I felt like, I don't even want to go

0:28:15.920 --> 0:28:17.520
<v Speaker 1>to the grocery store because I don't want people to

0:28:17.600 --> 0:28:19.639
<v Speaker 1>talk to me. Even though I'm grateful and appreciative of

0:28:19.680 --> 0:28:22.880
<v Speaker 1>these people supporting me, I feel that I'm constantly explaining

0:28:22.920 --> 0:28:26.720
<v Speaker 1>myself and it was making me feel it was I

0:28:26.760 --> 0:28:29.320
<v Speaker 1>was disconnecting from the actual emotional part of it because

0:28:29.320 --> 0:28:31.520
<v Speaker 1>I felt like a speech At one point, I felt

0:28:31.520 --> 0:28:34.840
<v Speaker 1>like I was just like spitting out answers and not

0:28:34.880 --> 0:28:39.120
<v Speaker 1>giving people full me. Yeah, you go through a lot

0:28:39.160 --> 0:28:42.120
<v Speaker 1>of evolution and growth while you're on the show, and

0:28:42.120 --> 0:28:44.200
<v Speaker 1>so you're almost coming back to the same world as

0:28:44.240 --> 0:28:47.360
<v Speaker 1>a different person. So I felt like everything else was

0:28:47.400 --> 0:28:49.480
<v Speaker 1>the same, but I had changed so much, and everyone

0:28:49.480 --> 0:28:51.920
<v Speaker 1>that I was used to knowing everything about me since

0:28:51.960 --> 0:28:54.000
<v Speaker 1>I was a kid wasn't a part of that, and

0:28:54.040 --> 0:28:56.000
<v Speaker 1>I was also for the first time able to make

0:28:56.080 --> 0:29:00.600
<v Speaker 1>decisions and go through like the mental processes without having

0:29:00.640 --> 0:29:02.840
<v Speaker 1>the people that usually give their input in my life.

0:29:03.160 --> 0:29:05.160
<v Speaker 1>My family's very involved in my life. My friends were

0:29:05.240 --> 0:29:08.040
<v Speaker 1>very involved, especially when it comes to dating, and they

0:29:08.040 --> 0:29:10.840
<v Speaker 1>were not. I think I had strangers basically helping me

0:29:10.880 --> 0:29:13.320
<v Speaker 1>through something that was supposed to be like finding the

0:29:13.360 --> 0:29:16.760
<v Speaker 1>love of my life. So um, I just felt like

0:29:16.800 --> 0:29:19.120
<v Speaker 1>I had a new, a whole new like empowerment for

0:29:19.160 --> 0:29:21.920
<v Speaker 1>what it meant to be myself going through a relationship

0:29:21.960 --> 0:29:27.240
<v Speaker 1>as opposed to UM me and like my posse. You know. Yeah.

0:29:27.280 --> 0:29:29.640
<v Speaker 1>Once I got off, I was like and I knew

0:29:29.640 --> 0:29:32.560
<v Speaker 1>people knew who I was. I was like, this is

0:29:32.560 --> 0:29:38.160
<v Speaker 1>gonna be awesome. I can't wait. Like my friends and

0:29:38.160 --> 0:29:39.880
<v Speaker 1>I we all went to a bar and everyone knew me.

0:29:39.920 --> 0:29:45.560
<v Speaker 1>I was like, you can tell. Yeah, it was great.

0:29:45.960 --> 0:29:48.160
<v Speaker 1>I was super excited for it. I could see Joe

0:29:48.160 --> 0:29:50.880
<v Speaker 1>walking down the street the first time. Yeah. I literally

0:29:50.880 --> 0:29:55.520
<v Speaker 1>I walked down on this grocery store job to Michigan Avenue,

0:29:55.800 --> 0:29:57.880
<v Speaker 1>UM in Chicago. I was walking down the stream and

0:29:58.240 --> 0:30:00.000
<v Speaker 1>girls were all like, oh my god, that sounds like,

0:30:02.400 --> 0:30:08.000
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, my life. So what is the first

0:30:08.000 --> 0:30:10.080
<v Speaker 1>thing you did when you came back from filming. Obviously

0:30:10.080 --> 0:30:14.320
<v Speaker 1>you went walking down Michigan. Take full advantage of this

0:30:14.520 --> 0:30:18.000
<v Speaker 1>bathe in the film. I remember getting really sick, like

0:30:18.040 --> 0:30:20.200
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I poured all my emotions. I called you,

0:30:20.240 --> 0:30:23.200
<v Speaker 1>remember I FaceTime you, like early on I was bedridden,

0:30:23.440 --> 0:30:25.400
<v Speaker 1>Like I think I just poured out so much emotion

0:30:25.800 --> 0:30:28.440
<v Speaker 1>and I didn't get sick throughout the show. And then

0:30:28.600 --> 0:30:30.760
<v Speaker 1>literally when I got home better than for like four

0:30:30.840 --> 0:30:33.239
<v Speaker 1>days with the full your going. Yeah, I like so

0:30:33.320 --> 0:30:37.600
<v Speaker 1>much adrenalineybody. Ideople don't understand either, Like we sacrificed so much. Yeah,

0:30:37.600 --> 0:30:40.440
<v Speaker 1>life out time, we energy and I don't think you

0:30:40.480 --> 0:30:42.760
<v Speaker 1>know Broun or Rachel when when we were filming in Spain,

0:30:43.000 --> 0:30:46.400
<v Speaker 1>I stayed extra ten days because right, they didn't want

0:30:46.400 --> 0:30:49.920
<v Speaker 1>me to fly home. Yeah. So because I'm home and

0:30:49.920 --> 0:30:51.960
<v Speaker 1>I'm looking at the world, I'm like this is weird.

0:30:52.040 --> 0:30:54.080
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm training people getting like I can't do this,

0:30:54.120 --> 0:30:56.720
<v Speaker 1>and I was on edge. I was chippy, like I

0:30:56.760 --> 0:30:58.840
<v Speaker 1>didn't have patience for anything. If you did anything I

0:30:58.840 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 1>didn't like, I will let you know, yeah, letting people now, Yeah,

0:31:03.040 --> 0:31:06.240
<v Speaker 1>because you're so like in this energy and this vibration

0:31:06.320 --> 0:31:09.320
<v Speaker 1>of how you feeling, what's going on, people in being

0:31:09.320 --> 0:31:11.240
<v Speaker 1>your space and I don't want to talk about that.

0:31:11.280 --> 0:31:13.000
<v Speaker 1>And you get home when someone does something like Noah,

0:31:13.080 --> 0:31:15.160
<v Speaker 1>stop that. I felt like I had the Joe effect.

0:31:15.200 --> 0:31:18.320
<v Speaker 1>I went out on party, yet I went straight to

0:31:18.360 --> 0:31:23.600
<v Speaker 1>the club. I was like, my friend back, I'm the

0:31:23.600 --> 0:31:28.720
<v Speaker 1>coolest person here, right, so awesome. After Paradise, Joe, you

0:31:28.760 --> 0:31:32.120
<v Speaker 1>went to uh, like, what was it? It was oh no,

0:31:32.200 --> 0:31:36.600
<v Speaker 1>sorry bachelorette. It was Saint Patrick's. Well that wasn't as

0:31:36.640 --> 0:31:38.800
<v Speaker 1>good because that I was like, oh, fa fa, I

0:31:38.840 --> 0:31:41.840
<v Speaker 1>can't show. The first night Paradise was hard for me

0:31:41.880 --> 0:31:43.440
<v Speaker 1>because I was like trying to hold back crying the

0:31:43.560 --> 0:31:45.440
<v Speaker 1>entire time on the plane, the entire time on the Uber.

0:31:45.920 --> 0:31:48.600
<v Speaker 1>I couldn't tell people I had gotten home until I

0:31:48.600 --> 0:31:52.800
<v Speaker 1>actually landed back in um California, and so I was

0:31:52.840 --> 0:31:55.040
<v Speaker 1>trying to cry the entire time. I called my mom

0:31:55.120 --> 0:31:56.680
<v Speaker 1>and she's like, how was it? What happened? I was like,

0:31:58.720 --> 0:32:01.719
<v Speaker 1>And so as soon as I got home, my roommate

0:32:01.720 --> 0:32:04.200
<v Speaker 1>come came running out to me, and I burst into tears,

0:32:04.200 --> 0:32:05.840
<v Speaker 1>and I swear I don't think I stopped crying for

0:32:05.880 --> 0:32:09.160
<v Speaker 1>like three days until Joe got done in those dms

0:32:09.280 --> 0:32:12.600
<v Speaker 1>and then I was fine. But I I just remember

0:32:12.600 --> 0:32:13.840
<v Speaker 1>the first thing I did is I got all my

0:32:13.840 --> 0:32:15.720
<v Speaker 1>girlfriends together. We had wine. I went up in my

0:32:15.760 --> 0:32:17.920
<v Speaker 1>attic that I kind of turned into a little hangout

0:32:17.960 --> 0:32:19.720
<v Speaker 1>room and I just went up there and told everyone

0:32:20.000 --> 0:32:23.280
<v Speaker 1>what happened, and like was crying and drinking wine. So well,

0:32:23.280 --> 0:32:25.959
<v Speaker 1>that's good. She surrounded yourself a play? Yeah, yeah, what

0:32:26.000 --> 0:32:28.200
<v Speaker 1>do you what is the most you know, what's the

0:32:28.280 --> 0:32:31.200
<v Speaker 1>question that everyone asks you when you come off the show? Like,

0:32:31.280 --> 0:32:35.240
<v Speaker 1>what's the most prominent or consistent question? Is it real? Yeah?

0:32:35.320 --> 0:32:38.560
<v Speaker 1>Is it really produced? Do you still a grocery store?

0:32:38.560 --> 0:32:40.520
<v Speaker 1>Are you? Did you really fall in love? Were you

0:32:40.520 --> 0:32:45.920
<v Speaker 1>gonna get married? Are you are you doing? Yeah? Like,

0:32:46.800 --> 0:32:50.240
<v Speaker 1>don't get that. Yeah. Did anybody keep anything from the show?

0:32:50.400 --> 0:32:53.440
<v Speaker 1>Oh I have a whole bot? What Okay, we're starting

0:32:53.440 --> 0:32:55.680
<v Speaker 1>with you. I definitely I feel like the girls do

0:32:55.720 --> 0:32:57.720
<v Speaker 1>it more. But go ahead, say show. I have all

0:32:57.720 --> 0:33:02.320
<v Speaker 1>my roses have on my journal. I know, because it's

0:33:02.320 --> 0:33:05.080
<v Speaker 1>like a it's a it's a it's a big deal.

0:33:05.240 --> 0:33:07.520
<v Speaker 1>You guys, you know you have like this little box

0:33:07.800 --> 0:33:14.400
<v Speaker 1>and like nobody will ever like the rose I would

0:33:14.400 --> 0:33:16.200
<v Speaker 1>like come out and like I showed my friend a

0:33:16.200 --> 0:33:20.600
<v Speaker 1>little something and they're like no, Like I had like

0:33:20.640 --> 0:33:26.120
<v Speaker 1>a shirt from my skydiving I that I have I suit,

0:33:27.000 --> 0:33:31.200
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, fighting suit. So um, I have like a

0:33:31.360 --> 0:33:35.000
<v Speaker 1>random towel um from one of my dates. It's just

0:33:35.040 --> 0:33:36.440
<v Speaker 1>like I have a lot of whole things. How did

0:33:36.480 --> 0:33:38.960
<v Speaker 1>you preserve the roses? I tried that for like the

0:33:38.960 --> 0:33:40.880
<v Speaker 1>first couple of weeks and they all started a stink

0:33:40.920 --> 0:33:45.280
<v Speaker 1>and mylded. I molded, hang them upside down, and then

0:33:45.320 --> 0:33:50.560
<v Speaker 1>like I was smashing in my book. Yeah, I just

0:33:50.560 --> 0:33:53.000
<v Speaker 1>put them in like a ziplock and they all molded

0:33:53.040 --> 0:33:56.320
<v Speaker 1>and done. Kindel, you kept roses. I kept the rose

0:33:56.400 --> 0:33:58.880
<v Speaker 1>that Joe gave me from Paradise. I still have that

0:33:58.960 --> 0:34:01.920
<v Speaker 1>rose on those roses. But Andy, all of them from

0:34:02.040 --> 0:34:04.600
<v Speaker 1>the Bachelor, they all molded because you had to travel,

0:34:04.600 --> 0:34:06.280
<v Speaker 1>and I put them a little bag as well. And

0:34:06.280 --> 0:34:10.319
<v Speaker 1>the moisture of course. Yeah sorry, I was always so

0:34:10.680 --> 0:34:13.880
<v Speaker 1>like nervous or giddy afterwards. I would always pluck on

0:34:13.960 --> 0:34:16.359
<v Speaker 1>my roses just so it was just a stem, every

0:34:16.360 --> 0:34:18.920
<v Speaker 1>single rose. You even see me when I get engaged,

0:34:19.040 --> 0:34:21.840
<v Speaker 1>I'm doing the little We filmed a little afterwards and

0:34:21.960 --> 0:34:24.680
<v Speaker 1>my roses just like nothing, there's nothing on her. It

0:34:24.800 --> 0:34:26.359
<v Speaker 1>was just a stem. I was just like waving around

0:34:26.400 --> 0:34:28.680
<v Speaker 1>a stem because it's like your nervous that's my nervous habit.

0:34:28.680 --> 0:34:32.359
<v Speaker 1>I'm just plucking the whole rose, like les, I got it.

0:34:32.760 --> 0:34:36.120
<v Speaker 1>I say roses too. When I was on nixt season

0:34:36.200 --> 0:34:38.759
<v Speaker 1>and I say date cards. I don't know. There was

0:34:38.800 --> 0:34:41.840
<v Speaker 1>something about getting the date card and like keeping it

0:34:41.880 --> 0:34:45.080
<v Speaker 1>and then when especially when you separate and go to hometowns,

0:34:45.080 --> 0:34:47.000
<v Speaker 1>it's like I would read the date cards again, like

0:34:47.239 --> 0:34:48.960
<v Speaker 1>you try to see if there's like a deeper meaning.

0:34:48.960 --> 0:34:54.160
<v Speaker 1>Oh my gosh, you did that. Yeah you do. Yeah,

0:34:54.320 --> 0:34:57.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm doing too. I mean that's your world. So it's

0:34:57.000 --> 0:34:59.279
<v Speaker 1>like you're holding on to all of that. I but

0:34:59.320 --> 0:35:01.560
<v Speaker 1>don't worry. I mean once once I was bastrette, I

0:35:01.600 --> 0:35:05.839
<v Speaker 1>threw everything away an experience, so probably a year ago

0:35:06.840 --> 0:35:08.759
<v Speaker 1>around this time, I want to go take my pea

0:35:08.800 --> 0:35:11.000
<v Speaker 1>coat to the cleaners, right, And that was the pea

0:35:11.040 --> 0:35:13.239
<v Speaker 1>coat I was wearing in Spain. So I'm like, what

0:35:13.360 --> 0:35:17.520
<v Speaker 1>is this some like pocket So it's the fantasy sweetcart

0:35:17.560 --> 0:35:27.040
<v Speaker 1>with the key. Funny, but it brought back those memories

0:35:27.080 --> 0:35:30.000
<v Speaker 1>and time. It was just beautiful, but I'm like, damn,

0:35:30.160 --> 0:35:31.680
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't trying to hold on to it, but I

0:35:31.680 --> 0:35:42.440
<v Speaker 1>guess it was Oh my gosh, present someone with that box.

0:35:42.520 --> 0:35:45.440
<v Speaker 1>But it was funny. All right, let's get juicy. Oh,

0:35:46.120 --> 0:35:50.480
<v Speaker 1>anybody has something to share, some tea to spill, or

0:35:50.520 --> 0:35:52.919
<v Speaker 1>your champagne, since that's what we're drinking in the room.

0:35:53.040 --> 0:35:56.080
<v Speaker 1>Some champagne to spill about things that happened, maybe behind

0:35:56.080 --> 0:35:59.200
<v Speaker 1>the scenes, maybe a funny moment that we don't know about.

0:36:01.320 --> 0:36:03.000
<v Speaker 1>You can start. Can we just do a toast because

0:36:03.040 --> 0:36:05.839
<v Speaker 1>they say his friends give. Oh we did talk about gratitude,

0:36:05.840 --> 0:36:08.040
<v Speaker 1>and I think I appreciate everyone at this table while

0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:13.240
<v Speaker 1>laves have changed and you know, some of us happy

0:36:13.239 --> 0:36:19.960
<v Speaker 1>friends giving. Okay, who's got the tea? Don't try to

0:36:20.040 --> 0:36:23.400
<v Speaker 1>change the subject. No, anything behind the scenes, Like there

0:36:23.480 --> 0:36:29.319
<v Speaker 1>has to be something. We had babies in one I

0:36:29.400 --> 0:36:30.920
<v Speaker 1>was cute though, I feel like I like seeing you

0:36:31.239 --> 0:36:34.480
<v Speaker 1>with a baby. Yeah, yeah, it was really cute. After that,

0:36:34.480 --> 0:36:36.239
<v Speaker 1>you cried, you broke down. You're like, oh, I don't know,

0:36:36.880 --> 0:36:40.600
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, yeah, that's another thing. After before we went

0:36:40.760 --> 0:36:43.720
<v Speaker 1>to get a drink. After handling the babies, I literally

0:36:43.719 --> 0:36:46.640
<v Speaker 1>we literally had two hours of sleep. It's that and

0:36:46.680 --> 0:36:48.400
<v Speaker 1>then I had to like take care of a child.

0:36:48.880 --> 0:36:50.960
<v Speaker 1>Um was crying the entire time. It was really hot,

0:36:51.000 --> 0:36:53.520
<v Speaker 1>and I felt really bad and emotionally, of course you're

0:36:53.560 --> 0:36:56.719
<v Speaker 1>going through everything. Um. And so yeah, right before we went,

0:36:57.600 --> 0:36:59.600
<v Speaker 1>I broke down and I was like, oh, can I

0:36:59.600 --> 0:37:02.000
<v Speaker 1>get ready before we go? Get drinks like on the beach,

0:37:02.000 --> 0:37:05.040
<v Speaker 1>and I was just like, I just want to feel pretty.

0:37:06.960 --> 0:37:09.160
<v Speaker 1>There's my most diva moment. I think of the entire thing.

0:37:10.080 --> 0:37:11.959
<v Speaker 1>I cried when you say when you said I wanted

0:37:11.960 --> 0:37:14.200
<v Speaker 1>to feel pretty, that makes me think of the proposal day,

0:37:14.320 --> 0:37:18.799
<v Speaker 1>because the wind was insane and when I tell you,

0:37:18.920 --> 0:37:21.880
<v Speaker 1>I looked so pretty before, like my hair was together

0:37:22.040 --> 0:37:24.680
<v Speaker 1>in this messy bun, and then we step out there

0:37:24.880 --> 0:37:27.239
<v Speaker 1>and it's just And they had moved the date up

0:37:27.320 --> 0:37:29.400
<v Speaker 1>because the weather was supposed to be so bad the

0:37:29.440 --> 0:37:31.839
<v Speaker 1>real day, and it was still awful and my hair

0:37:32.000 --> 0:37:34.480
<v Speaker 1>was flying over and you could see my weed and

0:37:34.640 --> 0:37:38.879
<v Speaker 1>I was mortified, and I'm literally in tears. And then

0:37:38.960 --> 0:37:40.799
<v Speaker 1>Brian starts walking up and I was like, get out

0:37:40.800 --> 0:37:44.640
<v Speaker 1>of you're gotta here. Was mortified. I used to always

0:37:44.719 --> 0:37:48.000
<v Speaker 1>with Brian, try to give him my room number. Yeah,

0:37:48.040 --> 0:37:50.120
<v Speaker 1>and and so like I would like if my room

0:37:50.200 --> 0:37:58.360
<v Speaker 1>number was like one, two, three, I'd be like like that,

0:37:59.400 --> 0:38:02.239
<v Speaker 1>Oh yes, I'm putting fingers on the table. Yes, So

0:38:02.280 --> 0:38:04.520
<v Speaker 1>you gave me your room in multiple times and I

0:38:04.640 --> 0:38:07.000
<v Speaker 1>was like, I never I never got a chance to

0:38:07.040 --> 0:38:09.000
<v Speaker 1>go up there because my producers like, no, you can't

0:38:09.040 --> 0:38:12.200
<v Speaker 1>do that, and I was very by the rules, by

0:38:12.200 --> 0:38:15.840
<v Speaker 1>the books. I was like, unless the follower, but I

0:38:15.920 --> 0:38:17.640
<v Speaker 1>was so upset. I was like, if any if I

0:38:17.680 --> 0:38:19.719
<v Speaker 1>see on the show when it airs, anybody else go

0:38:19.800 --> 0:38:24.200
<v Speaker 1>up to because I had multiple chances, but they said,

0:38:24.280 --> 0:38:26.680
<v Speaker 1>they said that you could, but there would have to

0:38:26.719 --> 0:38:29.640
<v Speaker 1>be a camera also when we have to having a

0:38:29.680 --> 0:38:32.080
<v Speaker 1>camera in when you're yeah, I was like, no, no, no,

0:38:32.080 --> 0:38:34.680
<v Speaker 1>it's about sneaking into the room. Yes, And then one

0:38:34.800 --> 0:38:36.759
<v Speaker 1>after one of those, this makes me think of something else,

0:38:36.760 --> 0:38:39.440
<v Speaker 1>And I wonder if this happened to anyone during your

0:38:39.440 --> 0:38:43.400
<v Speaker 1>time of filming. When we were in Norway, ours, the

0:38:43.440 --> 0:38:45.920
<v Speaker 1>whole everything was haunted. Did you guys deal with that?

0:38:46.640 --> 0:38:50.120
<v Speaker 1>I had a spirit in my room every in Denver.

0:38:50.800 --> 0:38:56.640
<v Speaker 1>Did you feel something? It was odd? But apparently that

0:38:56.760 --> 0:39:00.080
<v Speaker 1>was a haunted hotel they told me later, Tasia, I

0:39:00.080 --> 0:39:02.400
<v Speaker 1>want to hear your story after this. But my TV.

0:39:03.040 --> 0:39:07.120
<v Speaker 1>So I had a two story room and my TV. Look,

0:39:07.160 --> 0:39:13.240
<v Speaker 1>I see this skeptic go looking at me. I'm not kidding.

0:39:13.280 --> 0:39:17.440
<v Speaker 1>My TV turned on by itself upstairs, and I'm so

0:39:17.520 --> 0:39:20.200
<v Speaker 1>exhausted that I just put the covers over my head

0:39:20.200 --> 0:39:22.279
<v Speaker 1>and I was like whatever, I'm too tired to care

0:39:22.280 --> 0:39:24.600
<v Speaker 1>about it. And it was like two in the morning

0:39:24.640 --> 0:39:26.839
<v Speaker 1>or something in your hotel. In my hotel, that's probably

0:39:26.880 --> 0:39:30.040
<v Speaker 1>because like all the TV's are connected, and I would say,

0:39:30.080 --> 0:39:32.080
<v Speaker 1>maybe like the room above you might have changed. There

0:39:32.200 --> 0:39:35.360
<v Speaker 1>was no room above me. The roof was above me. Okay,

0:39:35.600 --> 0:39:40.800
<v Speaker 1>I have two story. It was two story, so anyways,

0:39:40.920 --> 0:39:43.680
<v Speaker 1>universal romote maybe two. So then the next day I'm

0:39:43.760 --> 0:39:47.560
<v Speaker 1>talking to audio and the cameraman and they're telling me

0:39:47.640 --> 0:39:51.920
<v Speaker 1>all these stories about um past seasons of having haunted

0:39:51.960 --> 0:39:55.120
<v Speaker 1>hotels and seeing things and weird things that have happened,

0:39:55.320 --> 0:39:57.440
<v Speaker 1>and we're doing it in the room and I was like, yeah,

0:39:57.480 --> 0:39:59.120
<v Speaker 1>that was like two nights ago. And then they all left.

0:39:59.320 --> 0:40:02.600
<v Speaker 1>And then that next next night, the same time of night,

0:40:03.080 --> 0:40:07.520
<v Speaker 1>the TV turn on again by itself. I grabbed everything

0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:12.839
<v Speaker 1>that I could across the hall that was planning, bing,

0:40:14.160 --> 0:40:17.080
<v Speaker 1>ran across the hall to a producer's room, banged on

0:40:17.120 --> 0:40:19.000
<v Speaker 1>the door and I was like, let me sleep in here.

0:40:19.120 --> 0:40:21.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm not doing it again. I was, I had a

0:40:21.520 --> 0:40:24.359
<v Speaker 1>haunted room, but go ahead, and it's so scary. Okay,

0:40:24.360 --> 0:40:25.880
<v Speaker 1>Well we seed it at a haunted house in Denver.

0:40:26.040 --> 0:40:31.239
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't there, okay, somewhere on a plane. So we

0:40:31.320 --> 0:40:35.360
<v Speaker 1>see hoell in Denver that was haunted and um, Kirpa

0:40:35.400 --> 0:40:37.359
<v Speaker 1>and I were staying in this room. It was like

0:40:37.400 --> 0:40:40.440
<v Speaker 1>it's very old. It's like an old library and um,

0:40:41.320 --> 0:40:43.480
<v Speaker 1>I just remember it was at night and I'm like

0:40:43.520 --> 0:40:46.719
<v Speaker 1>a light sleeper kind of and I heard this noise

0:40:46.760 --> 0:40:48.439
<v Speaker 1>and it was like like you know, like a nail

0:40:48.480 --> 0:40:53.000
<v Speaker 1>scratching like on like a linails. Like okay, I heard that,

0:40:53.080 --> 0:40:58.000
<v Speaker 1>and I was like okay, and like I like close

0:40:58.080 --> 0:41:00.440
<v Speaker 1>my eyes again and I heard again, like tenute later,

0:41:00.680 --> 0:41:02.560
<v Speaker 1>and I was like as soon as I heard that,

0:41:02.560 --> 0:41:05.040
<v Speaker 1>I was like Kurpa and Kurpa sleeping and I hit her.

0:41:05.040 --> 0:41:08.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm like Kurpa and she was like yeah, I'm like Kurpa,

0:41:08.040 --> 0:41:10.120
<v Speaker 1>did you hear that? She's like no, what's wrong? And

0:41:10.239 --> 0:41:13.000
<v Speaker 1>like Kurpa and then she turns over. She's like Tasia

0:41:13.200 --> 0:41:15.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm like what. I'm like, why are you saying my

0:41:15.480 --> 0:41:17.600
<v Speaker 1>name like that? She turned the light. I'm like Tasha.

0:41:18.200 --> 0:41:19.719
<v Speaker 1>She's like, Tashia, turn on the light. And I'm like,

0:41:19.760 --> 0:41:21.840
<v Speaker 1>Kurpa stopped playing with me right now. I turn on

0:41:21.920 --> 0:41:24.200
<v Speaker 1>the light. And the curtain was like it looked like

0:41:24.200 --> 0:41:28.440
<v Speaker 1>a body was behind the curtain, okay, and we're staring

0:41:28.520 --> 0:41:30.200
<v Speaker 1>at it. We're straight up staring at it. There's like

0:41:30.239 --> 0:41:32.640
<v Speaker 1>a hump in the curtain and we're like and then

0:41:32.680 --> 0:41:34.400
<v Speaker 1>we started like hitting each other, like what do we do?

0:41:34.440 --> 0:41:36.239
<v Speaker 1>What do we do? And I'm like, no, it has

0:41:36.400 --> 0:41:38.560
<v Speaker 1>like the air conditioning event, like it has to be something.

0:41:38.920 --> 0:41:41.040
<v Speaker 1>So then I don't know what I did. But I

0:41:41.080 --> 0:41:44.399
<v Speaker 1>literally took my comforter and I lifted it up because

0:41:44.400 --> 0:41:45.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I'm gonna go, like I don't know what

0:41:45.920 --> 0:41:47.440
<v Speaker 1>I thought I was gonna do. I lived at a

0:41:47.480 --> 0:41:51.840
<v Speaker 1>comforter and it literally what it flackened out and I

0:41:51.960 --> 0:41:56.800
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh, hero, no, and you guys, it was

0:41:56.800 --> 0:41:58.880
<v Speaker 1>three o'clock in the morning. It was three o'clock in

0:41:58.880 --> 0:42:02.640
<v Speaker 1>the morning, and so we chill iroom. We literally were

0:42:02.640 --> 0:42:04.040
<v Speaker 1>like screaming like what do we do? What do we do?

0:42:04.080 --> 0:42:06.759
<v Speaker 1>What do we do, and then um I prayed and

0:42:06.760 --> 0:42:08.200
<v Speaker 1>I was like, okay, let's go back into the room.

0:42:08.640 --> 0:42:10.600
<v Speaker 1>We went back in the room, and then UM, in

0:42:10.640 --> 0:42:12.320
<v Speaker 1>the morning we looked and there was an air conditioning

0:42:12.400 --> 0:42:14.719
<v Speaker 1>vent like right in the spot right and I was like,

0:42:14.960 --> 0:42:17.239
<v Speaker 1>see it was the air conditioning. It was nothing. So

0:42:17.280 --> 0:42:21.000
<v Speaker 1>then I went to like the hostess lady. I was like, so, like, um,

0:42:21.440 --> 0:42:23.799
<v Speaker 1>is like the air conditioning on like at night or

0:42:23.840 --> 0:42:25.239
<v Speaker 1>like the heater, I mean, because it was like cold.

0:42:25.440 --> 0:42:26.840
<v Speaker 1>She's like, oh no, we haven't turned it on for

0:42:26.840 --> 0:42:28.480
<v Speaker 1>the winter yet. I'm like, so, like, there's like no

0:42:28.520 --> 0:42:30.880
<v Speaker 1>air coming on that thing. She's like no. I'm like, okay, cool.

0:42:31.000 --> 0:42:35.239
<v Speaker 1>We had a spirit no airs coming out of I

0:42:35.280 --> 0:42:38.680
<v Speaker 1>would die. It was you, guys, I'm not kidding you.

0:42:38.719 --> 0:42:40.640
<v Speaker 1>The second I lifted my comforter as if I was

0:42:40.640 --> 0:42:42.640
<v Speaker 1>getting out of the bed, it flattened out and it

0:42:42.719 --> 0:42:46.959
<v Speaker 1>was gone. I believe you. I remembered when during nixt

0:42:47.000 --> 0:42:52.760
<v Speaker 1>season we were in Wisconsin and there Sarah and Raven

0:42:52.800 --> 0:42:56.440
<v Speaker 1>were in a room and they said they both saw

0:42:56.640 --> 0:43:00.520
<v Speaker 1>the same lighting in the room and I was across

0:43:00.640 --> 0:43:02.200
<v Speaker 1>I was across the hall from them, and I was like,

0:43:02.200 --> 0:43:04.560
<v Speaker 1>but but, like, how close was she to my room?

0:43:06.440 --> 0:43:09.480
<v Speaker 1>But they said they described her to it. It was

0:43:09.560 --> 0:43:12.000
<v Speaker 1>it was something weird like that, like a lady or whatever.

0:43:12.080 --> 0:43:14.160
<v Speaker 1>And when they told us, we were all in their

0:43:14.239 --> 0:43:16.960
<v Speaker 1>room having snacks for some reason, and I was like, uh,

0:43:17.080 --> 0:43:21.120
<v Speaker 1>because I do this thing can't attach to me. Do

0:43:21.120 --> 0:43:23.000
<v Speaker 1>you have a Joe, do you have a spirit story

0:43:23.000 --> 0:43:25.319
<v Speaker 1>to tell? Joe's the biggest skeptic. He doesn't believe any

0:43:25.360 --> 0:43:29.040
<v Speaker 1>of this right now. No, I don't. You don't believe

0:43:29.080 --> 0:43:32.680
<v Speaker 1>my spirit story. I believe that's what you. I believe

0:43:32.719 --> 0:43:36.640
<v Speaker 1>you believe it. I do believe that, like I believe

0:43:36.680 --> 0:43:40.080
<v Speaker 1>you saw like like I just think. You know, I

0:43:40.120 --> 0:43:42.480
<v Speaker 1>just don't believe in ghosts. I just don't, do you

0:43:42.560 --> 0:43:47.759
<v Speaker 1>kindle um, I used to have, uh, sleep paralysis. I

0:43:47.800 --> 0:43:49.799
<v Speaker 1>still kind of have it. I get that too in

0:43:49.880 --> 0:43:52.200
<v Speaker 1>that sense. I don't know if it's either a ghost

0:43:52.280 --> 0:43:56.279
<v Speaker 1>or maybe my brain. I think your reality can be

0:43:56.320 --> 0:43:59.160
<v Speaker 1>greatly skewed by a number of factors, Like our brains

0:43:59.400 --> 0:44:02.319
<v Speaker 1>are our brains constructed reality we see and you can

0:44:02.320 --> 0:44:04.239
<v Speaker 1>see by some people if they're color blind, or some

0:44:04.280 --> 0:44:08.200
<v Speaker 1>people who have different like views of reality, Like your

0:44:08.239 --> 0:44:12.520
<v Speaker 1>mind is in control of that change. I mean I

0:44:12.560 --> 0:44:14.680
<v Speaker 1>always feel like there has to be some scientific explanation

0:44:14.760 --> 0:44:17.080
<v Speaker 1>to like why you see certain things, why I experience

0:44:17.160 --> 0:44:20.640
<v Speaker 1>certain things like sleep. Last paralysis for me was something

0:44:20.880 --> 0:44:23.640
<v Speaker 1>in my mind that you know, got me stuck in

0:44:23.680 --> 0:44:25.880
<v Speaker 1>the middle of rem sleep. Or it was anxiety, or

0:44:25.920 --> 0:44:29.320
<v Speaker 1>it was something like that. So I mean because if I,

0:44:29.320 --> 0:44:31.719
<v Speaker 1>if I didn't allow myself to see a scientific explanation,

0:44:31.760 --> 0:44:34.000
<v Speaker 1>I would probably like feel like I was possessed by

0:44:34.000 --> 0:44:36.400
<v Speaker 1>a demon, which I don't want at that point on

0:44:36.440 --> 0:44:39.680
<v Speaker 1>the show, even if it is a spirit, you are

0:44:39.719 --> 0:44:42.279
<v Speaker 1>so sleep deprived by that point that it could be

0:44:42.400 --> 0:44:45.640
<v Speaker 1>a number of things, and your mind will go anywhere. No,

0:44:45.960 --> 0:44:51.840
<v Speaker 1>it was out there with you because that TV. I

0:44:51.920 --> 0:44:54.600
<v Speaker 1>did not imagine that that TV was on, and it

0:44:54.640 --> 0:44:57.719
<v Speaker 1>turned on twice by itself now. And what I also

0:44:57.760 --> 0:44:59.680
<v Speaker 1>didn't tell you was the first night that it changed

0:44:59.719 --> 0:45:03.560
<v Speaker 1>on was changing channels. Oh okay, And I did not

0:45:04.000 --> 0:45:07.120
<v Speaker 1>like it, Like yeah, like it's not that I could hear.

0:45:07.320 --> 0:45:10.120
<v Speaker 1>I could tell that the programs were different, like I

0:45:10.160 --> 0:45:13.040
<v Speaker 1>could hear it changing, but I was so exhausted I

0:45:13.080 --> 0:45:15.160
<v Speaker 1>just thought, well, if it's gonna come get me, it's

0:45:15.200 --> 0:45:17.759
<v Speaker 1>gonna come get me. Because I'm so tired at this

0:45:17.840 --> 0:45:20.200
<v Speaker 1>point to deal with it. But this is this is

0:45:20.239 --> 0:45:25.640
<v Speaker 1>a perfect segue into mental health because because this show

0:45:25.840 --> 0:45:29.880
<v Speaker 1>can drive you crazy and it and I still stand

0:45:29.880 --> 0:45:33.520
<v Speaker 1>by Tasha. I believe you saw a spirit. I believe

0:45:33.560 --> 0:45:36.080
<v Speaker 1>there was one in my room, but that is not

0:45:36.600 --> 0:45:39.799
<v Speaker 1>a guitar or sanity in any kind of way. But

0:45:40.040 --> 0:45:42.120
<v Speaker 1>what is the best way that you guys, because we

0:45:42.120 --> 0:45:44.640
<v Speaker 1>talk about we talk about the kennel. You said the anxiety,

0:45:44.760 --> 0:45:47.920
<v Speaker 1>and um, Katie, you said sleep deprived and you're you know,

0:45:47.960 --> 0:45:50.279
<v Speaker 1>you're exhausted and you're going through so many emotions in

0:45:50.320 --> 0:45:53.000
<v Speaker 1>a way that you haven't before, and it's also accelerated.

0:45:53.040 --> 0:45:55.399
<v Speaker 1>So each of you and anybody can take this first.

0:45:55.480 --> 0:45:58.480
<v Speaker 1>What's the best way to deal with your mental health?

0:45:58.520 --> 0:46:00.319
<v Speaker 1>But what were some ways that you were able to

0:46:00.320 --> 0:46:05.040
<v Speaker 1>cope with, you know, being in this world. I journaled

0:46:05.080 --> 0:46:08.440
<v Speaker 1>a lot on my season, and I think because it

0:46:08.480 --> 0:46:11.040
<v Speaker 1>was very hard to meditate because if you ever were

0:46:11.080 --> 0:46:14.040
<v Speaker 1>caught just sitting doing nothing, I felt that people needed

0:46:14.040 --> 0:46:16.160
<v Speaker 1>you for some reason or needed to go do a

0:46:16.200 --> 0:46:17.719
<v Speaker 1>girl chat or whatever it was. So I was like,

0:46:17.760 --> 0:46:20.800
<v Speaker 1>I can't be caught doing nothing, even if it's meditating.

0:46:20.840 --> 0:46:23.000
<v Speaker 1>They won't see it as that, so I would journal,

0:46:23.040 --> 0:46:26.880
<v Speaker 1>and that journaling would kind of you know, it was

0:46:26.920 --> 0:46:28.680
<v Speaker 1>a puzzle to my mind and how my mind was

0:46:28.719 --> 0:46:30.799
<v Speaker 1>working or why I was thinking certain ways. So that

0:46:30.880 --> 0:46:33.959
<v Speaker 1>helped me the most, I would say, Yeah, it helped

0:46:34.000 --> 0:46:36.600
<v Speaker 1>me grow while I was there, because there were things

0:46:36.600 --> 0:46:39.800
<v Speaker 1>I felt I couldn't talk to the girls about and

0:46:40.400 --> 0:46:43.160
<v Speaker 1>that were only for me, and journaling was like my

0:46:43.320 --> 0:46:46.120
<v Speaker 1>number one go too. There's when you're on the show,

0:46:46.160 --> 0:46:48.600
<v Speaker 1>I feel like feeling like, of course, these are your

0:46:48.600 --> 0:46:50.600
<v Speaker 1>friends and you trust people to a certain extent, but

0:46:50.640 --> 0:46:53.960
<v Speaker 1>in reality you've only known them for how long, you know,

0:46:54.040 --> 0:46:55.800
<v Speaker 1>So I felt like there's a lot of things I

0:46:55.840 --> 0:46:58.160
<v Speaker 1>did keep to myself, and in Paradise I would write

0:46:58.239 --> 0:47:01.160
<v Speaker 1>a journal. But I think after the show, um, when

0:47:01.160 --> 0:47:03.520
<v Speaker 1>it wasn't being filmed and you weren't as vulnerable in

0:47:03.520 --> 0:47:07.120
<v Speaker 1>that sense, Um, I did find security with other people

0:47:07.120 --> 0:47:09.359
<v Speaker 1>who went through the same experience, which is why I

0:47:09.360 --> 0:47:11.920
<v Speaker 1>feel like after the show you do more. So I

0:47:11.960 --> 0:47:14.560
<v Speaker 1>feel like you connect with people that were on your season,

0:47:15.200 --> 0:47:17.960
<v Speaker 1>so um, in the group chats, or you can meet

0:47:18.000 --> 0:47:19.680
<v Speaker 1>up with people who live in like near you, you

0:47:19.719 --> 0:47:24.279
<v Speaker 1>can just talk about what happened in paradise for me,

0:47:24.320 --> 0:47:26.719
<v Speaker 1>I felt like, I'm like, this is like a vacation,

0:47:27.520 --> 0:47:29.719
<v Speaker 1>so like I mean, I really was, because you know,

0:47:29.760 --> 0:47:33.240
<v Speaker 1>I like I worked, you know, in the real world,

0:47:33.239 --> 0:47:34.880
<v Speaker 1>I worked a lot of hours. And then when I

0:47:34.920 --> 0:47:37.239
<v Speaker 1>was there, I'm like, oh this is they take my

0:47:37.280 --> 0:47:39.400
<v Speaker 1>cell phone. I deal with no bullshit and I'm just

0:47:39.480 --> 0:47:45.120
<v Speaker 1>chilling on the beach. Everything's free, you know, I'm like,

0:47:45.160 --> 0:47:47.440
<v Speaker 1>this is this is great. But you know, if I

0:47:47.480 --> 0:47:50.839
<v Speaker 1>did like panic a little bit, I pace, I pace

0:47:50.920 --> 0:47:53.560
<v Speaker 1>a lot. So in Paradise, I was always pacing, like

0:47:53.600 --> 0:47:56.279
<v Speaker 1>always pascing because I was always thinking, like how could

0:47:56.280 --> 0:47:59.840
<v Speaker 1>I become the next Bachelor? How could I know? I

0:48:00.239 --> 0:48:02.960
<v Speaker 1>was always pacing though, because that just helps me, you know,

0:48:03.160 --> 0:48:06.160
<v Speaker 1>my mind. Also, Joe plays with things like in his

0:48:06.160 --> 0:48:08.439
<v Speaker 1>hands always is kind of messing with something. So during

0:48:08.480 --> 0:48:10.520
<v Speaker 1>the entirety of this podcast, Joe has been playing with

0:48:10.560 --> 0:48:13.839
<v Speaker 1>a little miniature pumpkin. I did, I did. I thought

0:48:13.840 --> 0:48:15.480
<v Speaker 1>you were like squeezing. I thought it was I thought

0:48:15.480 --> 0:48:17.759
<v Speaker 1>it was nervous energy or something like that. Well kind

0:48:17.760 --> 0:48:20.560
<v Speaker 1>of it kind of is. It's just like it calms me.

0:48:20.640 --> 0:48:22.200
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, it just works for me to fidget

0:48:22.280 --> 0:48:25.520
<v Speaker 1>with things. Yeah, I feel like working out would be

0:48:25.560 --> 0:48:30.279
<v Speaker 1>a good stress relief. But the damn mansion still to

0:48:30.320 --> 0:48:32.920
<v Speaker 1>this day has no gem am I right, yeah, right, terrible.

0:48:33.000 --> 0:48:35.239
<v Speaker 1>So people are just like making up exercises and you

0:48:35.280 --> 0:48:38.799
<v Speaker 1>weren't allowed to run dangerous in that area around the

0:48:38.960 --> 0:48:43.080
<v Speaker 1>mansion to run. Yeah. Yeah, I hate the Bachelor Mansion.

0:48:43.239 --> 0:48:45.920
<v Speaker 1>Like I don't feel any kind of way when I

0:48:46.000 --> 0:48:47.520
<v Speaker 1>go back and I see it, Like, I don't get

0:48:47.560 --> 0:48:50.359
<v Speaker 1>any kind of feeling. It is not, no no sense

0:48:50.360 --> 0:48:54.040
<v Speaker 1>of nostal I'm like, those beds are nasty and every

0:48:54.120 --> 0:48:57.920
<v Speaker 1>night I wuldn't sleep there. I remember remember, like and

0:48:58.000 --> 0:49:00.640
<v Speaker 1>I was having an interview actually, and I remember my

0:49:00.680 --> 0:49:03.000
<v Speaker 1>eyes were swollen the day we were about to leave.

0:49:03.040 --> 0:49:06.600
<v Speaker 1>My eyes were swollen, like I was delirious, and she's like, well,

0:49:06.680 --> 0:49:09.280
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I just think I'm allergic to this mansion.

0:49:09.440 --> 0:49:11.960
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I hated it. There's no chef, which I

0:49:12.040 --> 0:49:15.040
<v Speaker 1>still am upset about. There's no place to work out.

0:49:15.320 --> 0:49:17.720
<v Speaker 1>We actually could maybe they stopped it after our season,

0:49:17.800 --> 0:49:21.840
<v Speaker 1>but we could go down and walk and run the

0:49:23.000 --> 0:49:27.040
<v Speaker 1>workout classes like I led some. Yeah, so I guess

0:49:27.080 --> 0:49:29.200
<v Speaker 1>it's the secret of the show. We would And then

0:49:29.239 --> 0:49:33.680
<v Speaker 1>they called on to this. We'd wake up before anyone else, Me, Whitney,

0:49:33.719 --> 0:49:36.719
<v Speaker 1>and Astroop would wake up like super early in the

0:49:36.719 --> 0:49:39.360
<v Speaker 1>morning before they mic. You. We'd get a cup of coffee,

0:49:39.480 --> 0:49:42.400
<v Speaker 1>we go to the gazebo and we would just talk,

0:49:42.520 --> 0:49:45.640
<v Speaker 1>like say all the things that we couldn't say, um,

0:49:46.600 --> 0:49:48.800
<v Speaker 1>like on camera or when we were mike. And then

0:49:48.960 --> 0:49:51.040
<v Speaker 1>they eventually caught onto that and then they made us

0:49:51.080 --> 0:49:53.880
<v Speaker 1>they pulled us away. Also, I would you know how

0:49:53.880 --> 0:49:55.840
<v Speaker 1>there's the room with the balcony and it consted the

0:49:55.920 --> 0:49:59.480
<v Speaker 1>other room. Yeah, we had this crazy hall monitor and

0:49:59.560 --> 0:50:02.080
<v Speaker 1>so when the girls would come back from their day.

0:50:02.200 --> 0:50:03.759
<v Speaker 1>I think it was her first season, so she was

0:50:03.760 --> 0:50:05.839
<v Speaker 1>like really trying to impress. So when the girls would

0:50:05.840 --> 0:50:07.480
<v Speaker 1>come back, we wanted to know what happened, but they

0:50:07.480 --> 0:50:10.000
<v Speaker 1>would tell us to go to sleep. So I would

0:50:10.320 --> 0:50:15.520
<v Speaker 1>bear crawl across the balcony, pull back the curtains, and

0:50:15.600 --> 0:50:17.759
<v Speaker 1>I would be like, ashtrif what happened on the day

0:50:18.600 --> 0:50:20.440
<v Speaker 1>because at one time, I don't know if you saw this.

0:50:20.520 --> 0:50:22.960
<v Speaker 1>During next season, they sent a girl home mid day, Liz.

0:50:23.280 --> 0:50:25.000
<v Speaker 1>So Liz was in my room, so I was like,

0:50:25.040 --> 0:50:28.080
<v Speaker 1>where's Liz, Why isn't she here? So we're like peeking,

0:50:28.120 --> 0:50:31.359
<v Speaker 1>and she was like, where's Rachel. And what I had

0:50:31.360 --> 0:50:33.040
<v Speaker 1>done is like I wear a scarf at night, and

0:50:33.040 --> 0:50:35.760
<v Speaker 1>I'd put the scarf over the pillow and I wouldn't

0:50:36.000 --> 0:50:39.200
<v Speaker 1>like bodies, and I had put the thing on. This

0:50:39.880 --> 0:50:43.040
<v Speaker 1>phenomenal a lot of work, I know, but I was

0:50:43.080 --> 0:50:45.400
<v Speaker 1>like destined to know all the information. And then she

0:50:45.480 --> 0:50:46.959
<v Speaker 1>caught me and she's like, what are you doing because

0:50:46.960 --> 0:50:48.800
<v Speaker 1>we put our suitcases on the balcony. I don't know

0:50:48.800 --> 0:50:50.440
<v Speaker 1>if you guys did that too, Yeah, and I was like,

0:50:50.480 --> 0:50:56.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm looking for socks. Just random thing. Anyways, all that

0:50:56.600 --> 0:50:58.600
<v Speaker 1>to say, I didn't know if you guys share my sentiment.

0:50:58.680 --> 0:51:02.000
<v Speaker 1>It's I think the Bachelor may Mansion is a beautiful home. Hell,

0:51:02.000 --> 0:51:04.279
<v Speaker 1>it's just not a home for twenty five people. How

0:51:04.280 --> 0:51:06.440
<v Speaker 1>long were you guys there because we left early? Yeah,

0:51:07.440 --> 0:51:11.000
<v Speaker 1>in the week three. Well some people were like week

0:51:11.560 --> 0:51:14.200
<v Speaker 1>I thought it was I think your season on season

0:51:14.239 --> 0:51:17.160
<v Speaker 1>it was that you got to oversee Ok, yeah, that

0:51:17.239 --> 0:51:19.160
<v Speaker 1>normally doesn't happen that fast. You're really only in the

0:51:19.160 --> 0:51:22.279
<v Speaker 1>mansion for like two weeks. Yeah, that's enough. It's enough

0:51:22.320 --> 0:51:29.879
<v Speaker 1>to start crazy. I'd like to check it out. Joe,

0:51:29.880 --> 0:51:35.920
<v Speaker 1>you didn't get the experienced part of me that kind

0:51:35.920 --> 0:51:37.520
<v Speaker 1>of wishes I wasn't in love, because I'd be like,

0:51:37.600 --> 0:51:40.280
<v Speaker 1>I'd love to get back there. Would you say casually,

0:51:40.360 --> 0:51:43.880
<v Speaker 1>go like I should invite me. I mean we should

0:51:43.920 --> 0:51:46.120
<v Speaker 1>do a little staycasions there. That would be I'm sure

0:51:46.200 --> 0:51:48.000
<v Speaker 1>you don't know what this is a segment you guys

0:51:48.040 --> 0:51:50.520
<v Speaker 1>should truly do this. You should do something maybe at

0:51:50.560 --> 0:51:53.640
<v Speaker 1>the beginning of Peter's season before he comes in, just

0:51:53.680 --> 0:51:57.160
<v Speaker 1>a segment of Joe experiencing the mansion for the first

0:51:57.200 --> 0:52:05.760
<v Speaker 1>time upstairs, but jam him. Instead of Chris Harrison greeting

0:52:05.800 --> 0:52:08.520
<v Speaker 1>the guy like Peter, you go greet him at first

0:52:08.520 --> 0:52:10.239
<v Speaker 1>and then then and then like that's it, and then

0:52:10.320 --> 0:52:12.200
<v Speaker 1>I just want I just want to expect put up

0:52:12.200 --> 0:52:14.960
<v Speaker 1>in a lima. Well, I guess that's already happened, but

0:52:15.440 --> 0:52:20.719
<v Speaker 1>alread happened. I changed group date, guys, I never had

0:52:20.760 --> 0:52:22.600
<v Speaker 1>a group date. I never had a group date. Or

0:52:22.680 --> 0:52:25.279
<v Speaker 1>maybe you lead like a tour for the first nighter

0:52:27.600 --> 0:52:29.919
<v Speaker 1>you a lot. What is one thing no one told

0:52:29.960 --> 0:52:31.920
<v Speaker 1>you about going on the show that you wish you

0:52:32.000 --> 0:52:35.399
<v Speaker 1>have known. Oh, that's a good question. That's a great question,

0:52:35.400 --> 0:52:37.319
<v Speaker 1>because I'm thinking, like, what is it. I will tell

0:52:37.360 --> 0:52:41.279
<v Speaker 1>you that as the lead, I wish someone would have

0:52:41.280 --> 0:52:43.680
<v Speaker 1>told me how hard it was going to be sending

0:52:43.680 --> 0:52:46.920
<v Speaker 1>people home when I came on before, I was like,

0:52:47.360 --> 0:52:49.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't know these people. It's gonna be nothing to

0:52:49.480 --> 0:52:52.720
<v Speaker 1>be like I'm saving you, you know, like, just go home,

0:52:52.840 --> 0:52:54.160
<v Speaker 1>you'll be fine. You get to go back to your

0:52:54.160 --> 0:52:57.439
<v Speaker 1>normal life, It'll be fine. And I'm telling you from

0:52:57.440 --> 0:53:00.360
<v Speaker 1>the first night, it is so hard for people to

0:53:00.360 --> 0:53:03.200
<v Speaker 1>express to you their feelings and you're pushing them to

0:53:03.239 --> 0:53:05.040
<v Speaker 1>open up and then you got to send them home.

0:53:05.360 --> 0:53:08.080
<v Speaker 1>It is. It is truly something that I underestimated, and

0:53:08.080 --> 0:53:09.680
<v Speaker 1>I wish somebody would have told me how hard that

0:53:09.760 --> 0:53:12.719
<v Speaker 1>was going to be before. Yeah, I think I wish

0:53:12.760 --> 0:53:14.560
<v Speaker 1>somebody would have home to relax more, because I was

0:53:14.600 --> 0:53:16.560
<v Speaker 1>like so serious. I think the first question I asked

0:53:16.560 --> 0:53:19.239
<v Speaker 1>you in the house was what was your biggest fear? Yeah? Yeah,

0:53:24.000 --> 0:53:27.880
<v Speaker 1>She's like, it's like Rachel coming in. Yeah. I was like,

0:53:27.920 --> 0:53:30.879
<v Speaker 1>you're too serious, mister. I was the same way. I

0:53:30.960 --> 0:53:32.960
<v Speaker 1>was very like, oh, this is supposed to be accelerated.

0:53:33.040 --> 0:53:36.000
<v Speaker 1>Let me ask accelerated questions d D. And then I'm like, man,

0:53:36.080 --> 0:53:38.000
<v Speaker 1>I think I'm scaring them away. I think I'm scaring

0:53:38.080 --> 0:53:40.040
<v Speaker 1>them away. You got to find a balance, yeah, because

0:53:40.080 --> 0:53:43.360
<v Speaker 1>you get you're nervous. I would say maybe not to

0:53:43.440 --> 0:53:45.960
<v Speaker 1>keep your guard up as much because it is an

0:53:45.960 --> 0:53:49.279
<v Speaker 1>expedited experience. You kind of have to force yourself to

0:53:49.360 --> 0:53:51.719
<v Speaker 1>be ready for things way earlier, at least for me

0:53:51.920 --> 0:53:54.920
<v Speaker 1>than I usually would be. So maybe just to how

0:53:54.920 --> 0:53:56.920
<v Speaker 1>do you how do you drop your guard? I mean,

0:53:56.960 --> 0:53:59.799
<v Speaker 1>just throw yourself at the experience, you know, I mean,

0:53:59.840 --> 0:54:02.520
<v Speaker 1>just you know, Yeah, I mean why not? I think

0:54:02.560 --> 0:54:04.640
<v Speaker 1>I think there's strength and vulnerability. I mean then I

0:54:04.680 --> 0:54:07.520
<v Speaker 1>say this after going through everything. Um, I wish that

0:54:07.600 --> 0:54:10.800
<v Speaker 1>I saw the strength in my vulnerability earlier on because

0:54:10.800 --> 0:54:13.319
<v Speaker 1>on the Bachelor I felt like I was definitely like

0:54:13.440 --> 0:54:16.160
<v Speaker 1>holding everything at an arms distance. So by the time

0:54:16.320 --> 0:54:19.120
<v Speaker 1>Paradise came around, I was a lot more receptive towards that.

0:54:19.520 --> 0:54:21.880
<v Speaker 1>But um, but yeah, maybe have a drink first. And

0:54:23.000 --> 0:54:25.160
<v Speaker 1>I did not drink for like the first couple of weeks.

0:54:25.239 --> 0:54:27.120
<v Speaker 1>I was like, no alcohol, I will not have an

0:54:27.120 --> 0:54:31.440
<v Speaker 1>impaired judgment. Smart. I wish I would have taken like

0:54:32.480 --> 0:54:36.120
<v Speaker 1>a friend that had a camera and just roll and

0:54:36.160 --> 0:54:40.319
<v Speaker 1>just let me talk on camera. Yeah, just so because

0:54:40.880 --> 0:54:43.000
<v Speaker 1>because I don't. I really didn't. I've never done that.

0:54:43.120 --> 0:54:45.360
<v Speaker 1>So like when I was so when I saw the

0:54:45.400 --> 0:54:47.960
<v Speaker 1>cameras and they were like, we're you know you are,

0:54:48.400 --> 0:54:52.040
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, what at least because they're all

0:54:52.120 --> 0:54:53.839
<v Speaker 1>judging me right now, I'm being judged. You guys are

0:54:53.880 --> 0:54:56.319
<v Speaker 1>judging me. And I'm thinking that in my head because

0:54:56.360 --> 0:54:58.200
<v Speaker 1>I wasn't used to it. And then I started hearing

0:54:58.239 --> 0:55:01.480
<v Speaker 1>myself talk and I'm like, this is horrible. You know,

0:55:01.480 --> 0:55:08.760
<v Speaker 1>I destroyed myself before I could even be myself judging years. Yeah,

0:55:08.800 --> 0:55:11.320
<v Speaker 1>you would have really benefited by being in a costume.

0:55:11.960 --> 0:55:15.160
<v Speaker 1>And I'm dead serious because Joe would never but well,

0:55:15.200 --> 0:55:18.200
<v Speaker 1>they asked me, they asked, I think say that. I

0:55:18.200 --> 0:55:20.160
<v Speaker 1>think you would have taken away some of your nerves,

0:55:20.280 --> 0:55:22.719
<v Speaker 1>like they can't see you, but you can see them,

0:55:22.800 --> 0:55:25.000
<v Speaker 1>and then you know, once you would have taken it off,

0:55:25.200 --> 0:55:27.239
<v Speaker 1>then he've been like okay, like he's not a dud,

0:55:27.719 --> 0:55:29.040
<v Speaker 1>you know when you come, because that's what you're always

0:55:29.040 --> 0:55:30.879
<v Speaker 1>afraid of when they when they're wearing them. That would

0:55:30.880 --> 0:55:32.520
<v Speaker 1>have been. So if you're a Joe and you go

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<v Speaker 1>on the season, well they asked me, They're like, do

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<v Speaker 1>you want to do anything? And I'm like, no, I'm good,

0:55:36.200 --> 0:55:38.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna be myself. And I remember one of the

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<v Speaker 1>producers is like, just have something, you know, just have

0:55:43.680 --> 0:55:46.480
<v Speaker 1>something to say anything, but you need something to fall

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<v Speaker 1>back on. And I had nothing and out there nothing

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<v Speaker 1>and that's when I came home. What about you? Right

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<v Speaker 1>for me? I don't know. I think it's just not

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<v Speaker 1>be so much of a rule follower. Probably yeah, you

0:56:04.120 --> 0:56:07.239
<v Speaker 1>had a game plan and it worked, it did, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I just I guess I just listened to producers every

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<v Speaker 1>single time, and I was like, you know, maybe I

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<v Speaker 1>should just do it, like wing it and do it.

0:56:13.680 --> 0:56:17.399
<v Speaker 1>And but that's like he's such a rule follower, Like

0:56:17.400 --> 0:56:19.359
<v Speaker 1>he's always like, well it says this. I'm like, oh,

0:56:19.400 --> 0:56:22.680
<v Speaker 1>who cares about that. But it's such a good balance.

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<v Speaker 1>I love that you're a rule follower. It's a good

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<v Speaker 1>it's really a good balance. Tatia, what about you? I

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<v Speaker 1>was really nervous, so I think I was a little

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<v Speaker 1>more reserved. I wish I would have like just let me, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>let lease let my personality show a little bit earlier

0:56:35.760 --> 0:56:37.840
<v Speaker 1>on as opposed to like, I mean, you saw me

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<v Speaker 1>sit in chocolate, you saw me be like silly towards

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<v Speaker 1>the end, like that's just Tasia, that's like a Tatia

0:56:42.760 --> 0:56:44.640
<v Speaker 1>moment for you. But I just wish I would have

0:56:44.719 --> 0:56:46.320
<v Speaker 1>let loose a little bit because I was so nervous.

0:56:46.320 --> 0:56:47.720
<v Speaker 1>I didn't even know what I was saying to Colton

0:56:47.719 --> 0:56:50.000
<v Speaker 1>when I was talking to him. Yeah, you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>think it's like regret that, Like I wish I would

0:56:51.880 --> 0:56:53.640
<v Speaker 1>have opened up a little more. And I think the

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<v Speaker 1>moral of it all is when it comes to things

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<v Speaker 1>we wish we would have known before going on the show,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I think that you should get it for of

0:57:00.200 --> 0:57:04.000
<v Speaker 1>a camera. It's just about being practice talking or seeing

0:57:04.000 --> 0:57:06.000
<v Speaker 1>a camera follow you and be there. I think that

0:57:06.040 --> 0:57:09.080
<v Speaker 1>you should just try to let go and be yourself

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<v Speaker 1>and not try to over anticipate you know what they may,

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<v Speaker 1>they may do, you know, just be you do because

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<v Speaker 1>then at the end of the day you can say

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<v Speaker 1>you can rest assure at least I gave them all

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<v Speaker 1>and I was myself no matter when you go home, right,

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<v Speaker 1>unless it's more unless you know the better you might be. Yeah,

0:57:27.760 --> 0:57:30.640
<v Speaker 1>you might fit. Yeah, you're playing a game based on

0:57:30.640 --> 0:57:32.320
<v Speaker 1>what you think is going to happen. Too many things

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<v Speaker 1>in your head and don't judge anyone either yes, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. It's very easy to be in the house

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<v Speaker 1>and be like that person looks like an idiot or

0:57:38.600 --> 0:57:41.600
<v Speaker 1>that person sounds like an idiot, and then you start

0:57:41.600 --> 0:57:44.080
<v Speaker 1>you judge other people, you judge yourself, you're in your head.

0:57:44.680 --> 0:57:47.600
<v Speaker 1>It's too much. It's just go out there and chill

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<v Speaker 1>the best way you can. Thank you, guys so much

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