1 00:00:06,320 --> 00:00:10,920 Speaker 1: Hello, what's up everybody, and welcome to another episode of 2 00:00:10,920 --> 00:00:13,760 Speaker 1: Bachelor Happy Hour. And you guys, you are in for 3 00:00:13,800 --> 00:00:16,840 Speaker 1: a treat today because not only are you just listening 4 00:00:16,880 --> 00:00:19,959 Speaker 1: to another episode, no no, no, no no, this is 5 00:00:20,040 --> 00:00:26,440 Speaker 1: the first ever Bachelor Happy Hour friends Giving. Now you 6 00:00:26,440 --> 00:00:28,400 Speaker 1: hear some voices in the background, but you don't know 7 00:00:28,440 --> 00:00:30,560 Speaker 1: who that is yet. So let me just start off 8 00:00:30,560 --> 00:00:33,560 Speaker 1: by saying, I couldn't do friends Giving by myself because 9 00:00:33,960 --> 00:00:36,400 Speaker 1: if this was Thanksgiving, I wouldn't be doing it by myself. 10 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:38,720 Speaker 1: I would have my wonderful husband with me. So he 11 00:00:38,840 --> 00:00:41,279 Speaker 1: is in the studio today joining me. He came all 12 00:00:41,320 --> 00:00:43,639 Speaker 1: the way to La to host friends Giving with me. 13 00:00:43,800 --> 00:00:50,080 Speaker 1: What's up everybody? Hi, babe, I am so excited that 14 00:00:50,159 --> 00:00:52,680 Speaker 1: you're here with me, first time in person on the 15 00:00:52,680 --> 00:00:56,600 Speaker 1: Bachelor Happy Hour podcast. And we aren't alone. We have 16 00:00:56,680 --> 00:00:59,240 Speaker 1: some of our dearest friends from Bachelor Nation joining us 17 00:00:59,280 --> 00:01:06,600 Speaker 1: in the studio today. So everybody welcome, Eric, Katie, Tasia, Joe, 18 00:01:06,640 --> 00:01:15,080 Speaker 1: and Kendall. I'm so happy that you guys are here. 19 00:01:15,080 --> 00:01:17,480 Speaker 1: Thankful in the spirit of friends Giving, I'm thankful that 20 00:01:17,520 --> 00:01:18,760 Speaker 1: you guys are here. We're gonna have a lot of 21 00:01:18,800 --> 00:01:23,679 Speaker 1: fun today. We're going to keep it real honest, tell 22 00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:25,720 Speaker 1: us say things we're not supposed to say, which is 23 00:01:25,720 --> 00:01:27,400 Speaker 1: what I love to do. But most of all, we're 24 00:01:27,440 --> 00:01:30,120 Speaker 1: gonna have fun. So let's just get right into it. Okay, 25 00:01:30,360 --> 00:01:32,920 Speaker 1: we all know each other through this Bachelor Nation world, 26 00:01:33,640 --> 00:01:39,000 Speaker 1: but we were all on different seasons. I mean, Brian, Eric, 27 00:01:39,200 --> 00:01:41,760 Speaker 1: we were on the same season together. You guys, Joe 28 00:01:41,760 --> 00:01:45,480 Speaker 1: and Kendall were on Paradise together. You guys were on 29 00:01:45,600 --> 00:01:49,800 Speaker 1: Colton season Katie and Tasia together. But so Brian are 30 00:01:49,800 --> 00:01:51,920 Speaker 1: the first removed from the show. I guess I want 31 00:01:51,920 --> 00:01:54,040 Speaker 1: to feel like, what would you say are some of 32 00:01:54,040 --> 00:01:57,200 Speaker 1: the biggest changes from the show between our time to you? 33 00:01:57,520 --> 00:01:59,280 Speaker 1: You guys, because you're the most recent on the show, 34 00:02:00,280 --> 00:02:04,280 Speaker 1: did you watch the show before? I'm Ben was my 35 00:02:04,320 --> 00:02:06,560 Speaker 1: first season. I watched okay, and then I watched Joe 36 00:02:06,600 --> 00:02:08,880 Speaker 1: Joe's and then I kind of like, oh, you fell 37 00:02:08,919 --> 00:02:15,600 Speaker 1: off to No. No, I watched your season, but I 38 00:02:15,639 --> 00:02:17,480 Speaker 1: just didn't watch it all the way through. I think 39 00:02:17,520 --> 00:02:18,919 Speaker 1: it was more of like the friends that I was 40 00:02:18,960 --> 00:02:22,360 Speaker 1: hanging out with at the time, my girlfriends in high school, especially, 41 00:02:22,400 --> 00:02:25,720 Speaker 1: they had Bachelor Mondays, so they had like a big 42 00:02:25,760 --> 00:02:27,880 Speaker 1: group of girlfriends, and then kind of like when people 43 00:02:27,919 --> 00:02:29,880 Speaker 1: were going to college and moving around all that stuff, 44 00:02:29,880 --> 00:02:34,120 Speaker 1: everything kind of like changed. But yeah, everything was super 45 00:02:34,160 --> 00:02:37,239 Speaker 1: new for me. But the most the thing that I 46 00:02:37,320 --> 00:02:41,240 Speaker 1: learned about most, I would feel was finding myself. I 47 00:02:41,280 --> 00:02:42,920 Speaker 1: think because, like I shared on the show, I went 48 00:02:42,960 --> 00:02:45,680 Speaker 1: through a divorce, so I was just really finding who 49 00:02:45,760 --> 00:02:49,120 Speaker 1: I was and just doing things for me for like 50 00:02:49,160 --> 00:02:51,359 Speaker 1: the first time in my twenties. So it was really 51 00:02:51,360 --> 00:02:54,080 Speaker 1: transformative in that aspect. Yeah, the show is such a 52 00:02:54,200 --> 00:02:59,839 Speaker 1: crazy experience, you know, me personally, I'm glad it's over. 53 00:03:00,560 --> 00:03:02,120 Speaker 1: How do you guys feel about that? Like, are you 54 00:03:02,200 --> 00:03:04,320 Speaker 1: glad that the show is over and done with and 55 00:03:04,600 --> 00:03:07,320 Speaker 1: you can kind of move on? Definitely? I think so 56 00:03:07,440 --> 00:03:10,720 Speaker 1: because when you're on the show, when you're on the show, 57 00:03:10,760 --> 00:03:13,240 Speaker 1: you're looking for love and you're trying to find more 58 00:03:13,240 --> 00:03:16,840 Speaker 1: about yourself and who you are as a partner. And afterwards, 59 00:03:16,840 --> 00:03:18,679 Speaker 1: I feel like I learned so much more about being 60 00:03:18,680 --> 00:03:21,760 Speaker 1: in a relationship, not only with someone else, but also 61 00:03:22,400 --> 00:03:25,239 Speaker 1: being like my individual self in a relationship. I learned 62 00:03:25,240 --> 00:03:27,800 Speaker 1: a lot about um. So I feel like I was 63 00:03:27,840 --> 00:03:31,480 Speaker 1: excited to learn from the show and then go into 64 00:03:31,520 --> 00:03:35,640 Speaker 1: like the real world with that knowledge. So yeah, I 65 00:03:35,680 --> 00:03:39,160 Speaker 1: feel like you Candel and show are together. Yes, Brian 66 00:03:39,200 --> 00:03:42,600 Speaker 1: and I are. Mary Katie, you're engaged, okay? Eric? Are 67 00:03:42,640 --> 00:03:46,520 Speaker 1: you currently single? I'm single, so I've been dating all year. 68 00:03:46,960 --> 00:03:50,440 Speaker 1: Would you go back on the show? No, you're done. 69 00:03:51,240 --> 00:03:55,040 Speaker 1: So we're all done. I mean unless I get to pick. Yeah, 70 00:03:55,320 --> 00:03:57,080 Speaker 1: what if they made you the lead? Would you do it? Yeah? 71 00:03:57,080 --> 00:04:00,120 Speaker 1: I will do it? Okay, sure, just because I have options. No, 72 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:03,480 Speaker 1: that's right out there. I just think it's better that way. 73 00:04:03,560 --> 00:04:05,560 Speaker 1: When you go through Paradise and go through the first season. 74 00:04:05,600 --> 00:04:09,960 Speaker 1: It's a lot twenty Rachelor, I mean, campaign is star. 75 00:04:10,080 --> 00:04:13,080 Speaker 1: This is the first year. Honestly, I really really was like, man, 76 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:15,640 Speaker 1: I really really want to do this early. I be 77 00:04:15,640 --> 00:04:19,560 Speaker 1: in a relationship and figure it out, but failed whole year. 78 00:04:20,520 --> 00:04:23,919 Speaker 1: Really is it really hard to date in LA because 79 00:04:23,960 --> 00:04:26,560 Speaker 1: you don't know women's true intentions? What do they want 80 00:04:26,560 --> 00:04:28,520 Speaker 1: from you? Already dating me because of your status or 81 00:04:28,520 --> 00:04:32,080 Speaker 1: your saying, um, I asked for real questions? So what 82 00:04:32,200 --> 00:04:35,400 Speaker 1: is it about me? You did fail? Though? No, not fail. 83 00:04:35,520 --> 00:04:37,600 Speaker 1: I'm learning. Yeah, but you know what I've learned. It's 84 00:04:37,640 --> 00:04:39,919 Speaker 1: not my time, it's not your time. I'm like, damn, 85 00:04:40,000 --> 00:04:42,040 Speaker 1: like cannot what. I was like, you know what, let 86 00:04:42,080 --> 00:04:44,360 Speaker 1: it happen. It's hard to date in La. I think 87 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:47,080 Speaker 1: there's a lot of different people, a lot of different temptations, 88 00:04:47,160 --> 00:04:50,760 Speaker 1: a lot of shiny things, and being single in LA. 89 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:53,560 Speaker 1: When I was living here as a single woman, it 90 00:04:53,680 --> 00:04:58,680 Speaker 1: was very difficult to stay focused on so many distractions. 91 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:01,520 Speaker 1: Especially with the apps nowadays, it's like, oh gosh, I 92 00:05:01,560 --> 00:05:04,320 Speaker 1: feel like people treated as a game yeah laughter, are 93 00:05:04,320 --> 00:05:06,880 Speaker 1: always trying to upgrade quote unquote so well. You also 94 00:05:06,920 --> 00:05:10,360 Speaker 1: don't feel the sense of like, oh, I have to 95 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:12,960 Speaker 1: really work at this relationship. There's always the thought of, oh, 96 00:05:12,960 --> 00:05:14,640 Speaker 1: if this doesn't work out, I can just go back 97 00:05:14,680 --> 00:05:16,640 Speaker 1: on the app. Like I know so many people who 98 00:05:16,960 --> 00:05:18,800 Speaker 1: download the app to lead it, download it, deleat it, 99 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:22,040 Speaker 1: and it's just you know, it's like a a savior 100 00:05:22,080 --> 00:05:25,040 Speaker 1: if you feel like a relationship isn't work safety net exactly. 101 00:05:25,080 --> 00:05:26,960 Speaker 1: You feel like you feel like you don't have to 102 00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:29,359 Speaker 1: put as much energy into a relationship because there's always 103 00:05:29,360 --> 00:05:31,720 Speaker 1: the next person. Yeah, is that why you went on 104 00:05:31,760 --> 00:05:35,280 Speaker 1: the show, Just because like it's more controlled, you know, 105 00:05:35,320 --> 00:05:37,400 Speaker 1: I guess, and maybe people you would hope people are 106 00:05:37,440 --> 00:05:40,200 Speaker 1: all coming in with the right intentions, and I honestly 107 00:05:40,200 --> 00:05:43,280 Speaker 1: didn't go on the show expecting to ever find anybody. 108 00:05:43,320 --> 00:05:44,760 Speaker 1: I mean, I was definitely open to it. I think 109 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:46,719 Speaker 1: the one thing you have to have is openness to 110 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,559 Speaker 1: find somebody. But I went on it because I thought 111 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:53,040 Speaker 1: it would be a really transformative, amazing experience, and it 112 00:05:53,160 --> 00:05:56,200 Speaker 1: was and I did happen to find somebody, but neither 113 00:05:56,200 --> 00:05:58,680 Speaker 1: of us expected to find each other, which I think 114 00:05:58,720 --> 00:06:00,920 Speaker 1: was the best part, about one hundred percent the best way. 115 00:06:00,960 --> 00:06:03,000 Speaker 1: And Joe, I know why you came on the show. 116 00:06:03,120 --> 00:06:06,400 Speaker 1: If y'all didn't know already, Joe's approached in a grocery 117 00:06:06,400 --> 00:06:11,360 Speaker 1: store and literally said, sure, I'll be the bachelor, and 118 00:06:11,400 --> 00:06:13,359 Speaker 1: she's like, wait a minute, there's steps to this. You 119 00:06:13,360 --> 00:06:16,839 Speaker 1: don't just get to immediately me the bachelor. No, she 120 00:06:16,839 --> 00:06:19,000 Speaker 1: didn't even tell me that. I actually called a friend 121 00:06:19,120 --> 00:06:20,800 Speaker 1: and they're like, no, that's not how it works. You 122 00:06:20,880 --> 00:06:24,800 Speaker 1: need to go on the first one. So we all 123 00:06:24,920 --> 00:06:27,279 Speaker 1: did say yes, and we did it. Tasia and Katie, 124 00:06:27,279 --> 00:06:29,839 Speaker 1: why did you originally decide to go on the show. 125 00:06:31,040 --> 00:06:33,200 Speaker 1: So my girlfriends actually nominated me to go on the show, 126 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:38,279 Speaker 1: and at that time I really just had nothing tying 127 00:06:38,279 --> 00:06:39,720 Speaker 1: me down. It was the thing that I was just 128 00:06:39,760 --> 00:06:42,120 Speaker 1: trying to find myself, and I felt like I was 129 00:06:42,200 --> 00:06:44,200 Speaker 1: open to it, but I just didn't know what I 130 00:06:44,240 --> 00:06:46,479 Speaker 1: wanted yet. So I feel like this is just a 131 00:06:46,520 --> 00:06:47,960 Speaker 1: way for me to grow up. I feel like the 132 00:06:48,000 --> 00:06:51,560 Speaker 1: show helped you find yourself. It does. And before I 133 00:06:51,600 --> 00:06:55,880 Speaker 1: went on Colton season, I was reached out on Instagram 134 00:06:55,880 --> 00:06:58,600 Speaker 1: by a casting really on July fourth, and I was like, 135 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:03,120 Speaker 1: I wonder if she's drinking at a party, maybe she's confused. 136 00:07:03,200 --> 00:07:05,000 Speaker 1: Like I didn't sure, no idea. I was like, I 137 00:07:05,040 --> 00:07:08,039 Speaker 1: don't know what's happening, but then walked into casting. It 138 00:07:08,120 --> 00:07:12,560 Speaker 1: just kind of flowed from there. But my friends definitely 139 00:07:12,680 --> 00:07:15,240 Speaker 1: pushed me to do it. I was really nervous, as 140 00:07:15,280 --> 00:07:18,760 Speaker 1: you should be. You're going on TV today, Like it's yeah. 141 00:07:18,800 --> 00:07:21,880 Speaker 1: I was just feeling almost like, oh, I'm gonna feel 142 00:07:21,920 --> 00:07:24,000 Speaker 1: violated or expose myself too much, but you know what, 143 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:27,520 Speaker 1: then we do it. Who did anybody do anything to 144 00:07:27,600 --> 00:07:31,080 Speaker 1: prepare to go on the show. So, and I'll preface 145 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:33,360 Speaker 1: this by saying, for me, I had never seen an 146 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:35,400 Speaker 1: episode before I went on it. Crazy enough, I had 147 00:07:35,400 --> 00:07:37,240 Speaker 1: been to watch parties, but I just went to socialize 148 00:07:37,240 --> 00:07:39,520 Speaker 1: and drink. I never paid attention to who was actually 149 00:07:39,520 --> 00:07:43,240 Speaker 1: on the screen. So before as I was packing, like 150 00:07:43,280 --> 00:07:46,679 Speaker 1: I'm literally packing to go to La, I watched Bin's 151 00:07:46,680 --> 00:07:48,560 Speaker 1: season and I got through like a couple of episodes, 152 00:07:48,600 --> 00:07:50,280 Speaker 1: and I remember I called the girls who signed me up, 153 00:07:50,280 --> 00:07:52,800 Speaker 1: and I was like, absolutely not. I had a house 154 00:07:52,840 --> 00:07:55,040 Speaker 1: with these type of women. This is not for me. 155 00:07:55,600 --> 00:07:58,320 Speaker 1: I hate this. But I'd already signed the contract and 156 00:07:58,360 --> 00:07:59,720 Speaker 1: so I was like, all right, at this point, I 157 00:07:59,720 --> 00:08:02,480 Speaker 1: just have to go. I was pleasantly surprised. I love 158 00:08:02,560 --> 00:08:05,239 Speaker 1: the people that I was on the season with, um, 159 00:08:05,280 --> 00:08:08,080 Speaker 1: but I'm interested in how you guys prepared. Did you 160 00:08:08,080 --> 00:08:11,160 Speaker 1: watch someone's season? Did you maybe work out? You know, 161 00:08:11,200 --> 00:08:14,560 Speaker 1: I saw it, I met you. Can we talk about that? Yes? 162 00:08:14,840 --> 00:08:18,800 Speaker 1: So I signed up. I probably was the end of January. 163 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:20,240 Speaker 1: It was like, you're on the show. I don't know 164 00:08:20,320 --> 00:08:22,559 Speaker 1: right before you got casted as the league. I didn't 165 00:08:22,560 --> 00:08:25,520 Speaker 1: know she was going to be the bacherette, but I'm 166 00:08:25,560 --> 00:08:27,600 Speaker 1: in La. She was in La at the time. I'm 167 00:08:27,640 --> 00:08:29,640 Speaker 1: getting out of my car and I'm walking into the 168 00:08:29,680 --> 00:08:31,600 Speaker 1: gym and I look over and it's a girl like 169 00:08:31,640 --> 00:08:33,960 Speaker 1: a red band down on working out. I'm a hold up, 170 00:08:35,840 --> 00:08:38,480 Speaker 1: this can't be So I called my boy. I'm like, bro, 171 00:08:38,600 --> 00:08:40,880 Speaker 1: you're not gonna believe this. I think she's at my gym. 172 00:08:40,920 --> 00:08:43,000 Speaker 1: He's like no, he's like, you have to say something. 173 00:08:43,679 --> 00:08:45,360 Speaker 1: I was like, this can't be real. It was like 174 00:08:45,360 --> 00:08:47,280 Speaker 1: the week of my birthday as well. It was crazy 175 00:08:47,480 --> 00:08:49,959 Speaker 1: right before I saw it the week later. But anyway, 176 00:08:50,040 --> 00:08:52,360 Speaker 1: so I go out, I go in, I come back. 177 00:08:52,400 --> 00:08:54,679 Speaker 1: I was like, that's her. What's going on? What is 178 00:08:54,679 --> 00:08:57,120 Speaker 1: the universe trying to tell me? So she came in. 179 00:08:57,920 --> 00:09:00,000 Speaker 1: I said, uh, I was speaking to her as I knew. 180 00:09:00,080 --> 00:09:02,040 Speaker 1: I was like, right, I see you working hard. She's like, 181 00:09:02,360 --> 00:09:04,440 Speaker 1: I'm trying I give a file. I was like, I 182 00:09:04,480 --> 00:09:14,720 Speaker 1: see you seen. She's like, I'm scared. I was like 183 00:09:14,040 --> 00:09:19,440 Speaker 1: and looked at But I've never told anybody because I 184 00:09:19,520 --> 00:09:21,720 Speaker 1: was scared, you know, like when you're when you're new. 185 00:09:21,960 --> 00:09:24,360 Speaker 1: I had already gone through the Bachelor, right, but as 186 00:09:24,360 --> 00:09:26,520 Speaker 1: the Bachelor rette, it's like, do I tell a producer 187 00:09:26,600 --> 00:09:28,800 Speaker 1: that this guy I met this guy? I didn't want 188 00:09:28,800 --> 00:09:30,880 Speaker 1: you to get kicked off the season. So I just 189 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:32,560 Speaker 1: was like, I don't know. So I kept it as 190 00:09:32,559 --> 00:09:34,760 Speaker 1: a secret. So then when you eventually told a producer 191 00:09:34,800 --> 00:09:37,280 Speaker 1: they said, why didn't you say that you met Eric before? 192 00:09:37,320 --> 00:09:38,840 Speaker 1: And I was like, I was just trying to like 193 00:09:38,960 --> 00:09:42,000 Speaker 1: not mess anything up or yeah, no, that was crazy. So, yeah, 194 00:09:42,000 --> 00:09:44,600 Speaker 1: you were at the gym working out before and then 195 00:09:44,600 --> 00:09:47,640 Speaker 1: I saw you on A yea yea yeah. I was like, 196 00:09:47,840 --> 00:09:50,160 Speaker 1: what is this? Yeah, because at the time, you didn't 197 00:09:50,160 --> 00:09:52,000 Speaker 1: know you were going to come on the show. Yeah. 198 00:09:52,040 --> 00:09:54,360 Speaker 1: So my season was the first season where they started 199 00:09:54,600 --> 00:09:57,400 Speaker 1: bringing people out at Afar, So you got to meet 200 00:09:57,440 --> 00:09:59,600 Speaker 1: some of your guys before you actually met them coming 201 00:09:59,600 --> 00:10:01,880 Speaker 1: out of the them that night. And this is crazy, 202 00:10:01,960 --> 00:10:03,840 Speaker 1: and I truly was surprised. A lot of people were like, 203 00:10:03,880 --> 00:10:05,920 Speaker 1: did you know and I said no. They said we 204 00:10:05,960 --> 00:10:07,920 Speaker 1: have to take your phone away early. I was livid, 205 00:10:08,320 --> 00:10:09,960 Speaker 1: and they said, we just don't want you to know 206 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:12,199 Speaker 1: what's about to happen. Something's going to happen, and so 207 00:10:12,320 --> 00:10:15,000 Speaker 1: that's what ended up happening, and I got to meeting. 208 00:10:15,800 --> 00:10:19,440 Speaker 1: It's a miracle season. What about you guys, did you 209 00:10:19,480 --> 00:10:21,559 Speaker 1: do anything to prepare for the show? Joe and Kendall 210 00:10:22,000 --> 00:10:28,040 Speaker 1: A haircut, tell story, tell a story? All right, okay, okay, 211 00:10:28,120 --> 00:10:31,360 Speaker 1: let's say well, funny enough. I actually watched the first 212 00:10:31,440 --> 00:10:35,520 Speaker 1: night of like multiple seasons to prepare myself. So you 213 00:10:36,520 --> 00:10:42,720 Speaker 1: went home the first day and then this I actually went. 214 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:44,720 Speaker 1: So I'm like, okay, I gotta get a nice suit. 215 00:10:44,800 --> 00:10:47,920 Speaker 1: So I went to Gucci and bought and bought a suit, 216 00:10:48,000 --> 00:10:50,600 Speaker 1: and then I thought it was tom for I'm not finished. 217 00:10:52,480 --> 00:10:54,960 Speaker 1: So now we're trying on. It's like we have like 218 00:10:55,080 --> 00:10:57,680 Speaker 1: four days to go and and it like just doesn't 219 00:10:57,720 --> 00:11:00,000 Speaker 1: fit right, and my friends like turn around. Then I'm 220 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:02,439 Speaker 1: at his house. He's like it's really tight on your 221 00:11:02,480 --> 00:11:05,240 Speaker 1: ass and it's like riding up and now, well, I'm like, 222 00:11:05,360 --> 00:11:06,679 Speaker 1: what am I gonna do? Because I can't look like 223 00:11:06,720 --> 00:11:10,200 Speaker 1: pee wee Hermann on this show, and so I'm like, ah, 224 00:11:10,200 --> 00:11:13,480 Speaker 1: So I'm like, I mean I only go on TV once. 225 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:16,520 Speaker 1: Fuck it. We go to tom Ford and buy another suit. 226 00:11:16,559 --> 00:11:19,040 Speaker 1: So I bought. I spent like so much money on 227 00:11:19,160 --> 00:11:23,120 Speaker 1: suits and like nice ones, and then I went home 228 00:11:23,160 --> 00:11:27,840 Speaker 1: the first night, so I have the Time four one, 229 00:11:27,880 --> 00:11:31,240 Speaker 1: the Gucci one. They took it back and they gave 230 00:11:31,280 --> 00:11:34,800 Speaker 1: me the credit. And then I bought another suit and 231 00:11:34,840 --> 00:11:37,000 Speaker 1: tried to wear it to the mentel all and they 232 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:39,040 Speaker 1: wouldn't let me wear it on TV. This bad luck 233 00:11:39,080 --> 00:11:42,680 Speaker 1: with suits and I was like one dude that he 234 00:11:42,800 --> 00:11:45,240 Speaker 1: got like a whole new wardrobe, six suits. He was 235 00:11:45,280 --> 00:11:47,480 Speaker 1: crying like, yeah, you got to send home the first night. 236 00:11:48,600 --> 00:11:54,680 Speaker 1: It was terrible that I remember his name was Milton. Yeah, 237 00:11:54,760 --> 00:11:57,400 Speaker 1: let's talk about first night. This is a big one 238 00:11:57,440 --> 00:11:59,880 Speaker 1: for you, Joe. You can really participate in this station. 239 00:12:01,400 --> 00:12:05,200 Speaker 1: That was the worst night. You know, I don't remember, 240 00:12:05,360 --> 00:12:08,160 Speaker 1: like other than Eric and Brian because you were on 241 00:12:08,280 --> 00:12:12,760 Speaker 1: my season, I don't remember everybody's limo exit. So I'll 242 00:12:12,800 --> 00:12:15,320 Speaker 1: go great, good, this makes for good content. I want 243 00:12:15,320 --> 00:12:17,440 Speaker 1: to know, let's go around the table and say what 244 00:12:17,520 --> 00:12:21,160 Speaker 1: your limo insurance was? Okay, so mine? I was prepping 245 00:12:21,200 --> 00:12:24,160 Speaker 1: and um, the producers like, you know, just don't talk 246 00:12:24,240 --> 00:12:28,040 Speaker 1: until you reach her. I'm like okay, And as soon 247 00:12:28,080 --> 00:12:30,560 Speaker 1: as I've opened the doors, I'm like, are you doing? 248 00:12:31,080 --> 00:12:33,520 Speaker 1: Like mister Italian comes out. Then I walk up to 249 00:12:33,559 --> 00:12:35,480 Speaker 1: where I talked to her for like two minutes and 250 00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:38,000 Speaker 1: I'm not making any sense, and I know I'm not 251 00:12:38,040 --> 00:12:40,680 Speaker 1: making any sense, and I could just feel myself get 252 00:12:40,720 --> 00:12:44,000 Speaker 1: like pale, and I'm like, this is this is just horrible. 253 00:12:44,040 --> 00:12:46,319 Speaker 1: So finally I'm like I forgot everything I was gonna say, 254 00:12:46,400 --> 00:12:48,920 Speaker 1: and she's like after talking for two minutes, She's like what, 255 00:12:49,200 --> 00:12:52,520 Speaker 1: And I'm like, nice to meet you. I'm Joe. And 256 00:12:52,600 --> 00:12:55,560 Speaker 1: I walk in and I say what the fuck? And 257 00:12:55,600 --> 00:12:58,839 Speaker 1: they actually irrit it, which I couldn't believe, and and 258 00:12:58,880 --> 00:13:00,240 Speaker 1: that was it. Then I walked in and I kind 259 00:13:00,240 --> 00:13:02,240 Speaker 1: of was like all right, and I stood there and 260 00:13:02,679 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: got a bear and I tried talking to people, but 261 00:13:04,640 --> 00:13:08,160 Speaker 1: I just couldn't really groove with anyone. Yeah, first night, 262 00:13:08,160 --> 00:13:10,160 Speaker 1: it's tough. And then you got to Becca and he said, 263 00:13:10,280 --> 00:13:12,000 Speaker 1: what's your biggest Then I got to be guy. I 264 00:13:12,000 --> 00:13:14,280 Speaker 1: would have had the second conversation with Becca and I said, 265 00:13:15,000 --> 00:13:17,360 Speaker 1: what's your pet? Peas? And I couldn't believe I asked 266 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:19,760 Speaker 1: that question and I didn't even have an answer for myself. 267 00:13:20,240 --> 00:13:23,360 Speaker 1: She looked at me like I was crazy, And next 268 00:13:23,440 --> 00:13:26,600 Speaker 1: thing I knew, she was gone, and I was standing 269 00:13:26,600 --> 00:13:30,120 Speaker 1: there by myself, and I thought, I cannot believe I 270 00:13:30,160 --> 00:13:34,719 Speaker 1: agreed to come on this show. What is wrong with me? 271 00:13:35,280 --> 00:13:40,160 Speaker 1: This is so embarrassing, And then I went home. I 272 00:13:40,200 --> 00:13:41,719 Speaker 1: would have thought that Joe would have been cute the 273 00:13:41,720 --> 00:13:44,040 Speaker 1: first night, because that nervousness. He's kind of like that 274 00:13:44,160 --> 00:13:47,360 Speaker 1: on Paradise the first day too, But I would say 275 00:13:47,400 --> 00:13:49,280 Speaker 1: that you were a little more suave on the first 276 00:13:49,360 --> 00:13:51,440 Speaker 1: day of Paradise because he went in for the kiss 277 00:13:53,400 --> 00:14:00,880 Speaker 1: the first day. Well, Obrien, it was it was right 278 00:14:00,920 --> 00:14:03,160 Speaker 1: after I said, Oh, I'm so glad that no one's 279 00:14:03,240 --> 00:14:06,480 Speaker 1: trying to kiss me or not kiss me. No one's 280 00:14:06,480 --> 00:14:08,280 Speaker 1: trying to like make claims. Everyone kind of feeling it out. 281 00:14:08,280 --> 00:14:09,360 Speaker 1: And he's like, well, that's what I'm trying to do 282 00:14:09,440 --> 00:14:15,280 Speaker 1: right now. But Paradise. Paradise was different because Paradise you 283 00:14:15,320 --> 00:14:19,440 Speaker 1: could chill for your chilling and talking to everyone for 284 00:14:19,560 --> 00:14:22,680 Speaker 1: like eight hours, you know, and then you're going for 285 00:14:22,720 --> 00:14:26,160 Speaker 1: the kiss. Spoilers like that in the bath re Bachelorette 286 00:14:26,200 --> 00:14:28,800 Speaker 1: where yeah, you had to make a move quickly before 287 00:14:28,800 --> 00:14:31,960 Speaker 1: anybody else did. Correct, Kennel, how did you come out 288 00:14:32,000 --> 00:14:34,160 Speaker 1: of the lima? Oh it, would you have a dead animal? No? 289 00:14:34,200 --> 00:14:35,960 Speaker 1: I did not have an animal. I waited, I think 290 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:40,240 Speaker 1: maybe day to bring it. I brought the first piece 291 00:14:40,240 --> 00:14:42,160 Speaker 1: of text for me. I brought was a pickled bat, 292 00:14:42,640 --> 00:14:45,840 Speaker 1: and so that a pickled bat, and then are named 293 00:14:45,880 --> 00:14:50,520 Speaker 1: her Victoria. Wow. Did we see that? Yeah? Okay, because 294 00:14:50,520 --> 00:14:52,440 Speaker 1: I was gonna say, I like, that's what I hope 295 00:14:52,480 --> 00:14:55,160 Speaker 1: that at friends Giving, we tell some behind the scenes 296 00:14:55,160 --> 00:14:57,080 Speaker 1: things that people don't get. We have so many dead 297 00:14:57,120 --> 00:15:00,200 Speaker 1: animals in our house. Okay, well I like to see 298 00:15:00,240 --> 00:15:02,360 Speaker 1: them as the art of nature, you know, the art 299 00:15:02,360 --> 00:15:05,680 Speaker 1: of nature preserved. We have many specimens. I love it 300 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:08,440 Speaker 1: privage for Halloween by the way, No, yeah, it's And 301 00:15:08,520 --> 00:15:11,560 Speaker 1: Joe actually contributed to the collection. He got me a 302 00:15:11,640 --> 00:15:14,280 Speaker 1: badger that we've named beaver because I thought it was 303 00:15:14,280 --> 00:15:18,440 Speaker 1: a beaver. Well, we were at this tax that room 304 00:15:18,440 --> 00:15:22,360 Speaker 1: shop in Texas and I really wanted this badge because 305 00:15:22,360 --> 00:15:24,360 Speaker 1: I've always wanted a badge room my collection. And Joe 306 00:15:24,640 --> 00:15:27,280 Speaker 1: is like, how much for the beaver and the tax terms? 307 00:15:27,360 --> 00:15:32,560 Speaker 1: And I were like, he's actually a badge, So it's 308 00:15:32,560 --> 00:15:35,720 Speaker 1: the badger named beaver um. But yeah. So for the 309 00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:38,520 Speaker 1: first night, I was extremely me nervous. I was also 310 00:15:38,640 --> 00:15:41,000 Speaker 1: very paranoid, and because you don't know going into it, 311 00:15:41,120 --> 00:15:43,320 Speaker 1: I'm thinking I used to work behind the scenes in television, 312 00:15:43,320 --> 00:15:46,080 Speaker 1: and I was thinking where's the actors and all this stuff? 313 00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:48,600 Speaker 1: And I was fully on guard, praying for people to 314 00:15:48,640 --> 00:15:50,600 Speaker 1: mess with me. But it wasn't like that, like there 315 00:15:50,640 --> 00:15:53,640 Speaker 1: were there was no actors. It was very much so 316 00:15:53,720 --> 00:15:55,640 Speaker 1: much more real than I expected it to be. And 317 00:15:55,720 --> 00:15:58,680 Speaker 1: I think after I got an idea of um, oh 318 00:15:58,760 --> 00:16:01,960 Speaker 1: this is real. All these people are here, um and 319 00:16:02,000 --> 00:16:04,680 Speaker 1: they're real people. They're not you know, I don't like 320 00:16:04,680 --> 00:16:07,400 Speaker 1: a script or anything. That's when I let my guard down. 321 00:16:07,400 --> 00:16:10,080 Speaker 1: But it wasn't until like the first week until I 322 00:16:10,120 --> 00:16:12,880 Speaker 1: was actually like realizing that was the case. But what'd 323 00:16:12,880 --> 00:16:15,640 Speaker 1: you say out of the limo? Didn't you sing a song? Oh? No? 324 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:18,640 Speaker 1: I sang. I sang Ari, a song that I had 325 00:16:19,120 --> 00:16:22,760 Speaker 1: written for him the second time we met. Okay, oh 326 00:16:22,800 --> 00:16:24,520 Speaker 1: not the well, like the second talk of the night. 327 00:16:24,600 --> 00:16:27,600 Speaker 1: I'm like, I don't know that they show that they did. 328 00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:31,400 Speaker 1: I was, well, I was so nervous that I sang. 329 00:16:31,480 --> 00:16:33,440 Speaker 1: I mean, my voice wasn't that great. My voice isn't 330 00:16:33,480 --> 00:16:36,800 Speaker 1: great in general. But yeah, so I like had the 331 00:16:36,920 --> 00:16:39,760 Speaker 1: ukulele underneath the bench. We're sitting on the bench and 332 00:16:39,800 --> 00:16:41,520 Speaker 1: I was like, I got something for you whipped up 333 00:16:43,000 --> 00:16:45,840 Speaker 1: and I was like, whoa that. Yeah, I was just 334 00:16:46,440 --> 00:16:48,640 Speaker 1: I think that's a bold move. You know it was 335 00:16:49,080 --> 00:16:50,400 Speaker 1: you didn't know how that was gonna go. No, And 336 00:16:50,440 --> 00:16:53,440 Speaker 1: I wrote the song the night before the day before. 337 00:16:55,200 --> 00:17:00,560 Speaker 1: No one more costume than the first time he got 338 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:02,880 Speaker 1: a skin rash, that was all. Yeah. He was on 339 00:17:02,920 --> 00:17:05,280 Speaker 1: the sidelines for the first night. He was sitting on 340 00:17:05,280 --> 00:17:10,240 Speaker 1: the side like we had a chickens too, chicken, yeah, 341 00:17:10,760 --> 00:17:18,280 Speaker 1: a chicken. We had this yeah cycle running him. Um no, 342 00:17:18,480 --> 00:17:21,160 Speaker 1: I see. I think when people wear a costume it's 343 00:17:21,200 --> 00:17:23,280 Speaker 1: really daring. So it's like, you know, I got to 344 00:17:23,280 --> 00:17:24,840 Speaker 1: give you an a for effort. And then with Matt 345 00:17:24,840 --> 00:17:27,800 Speaker 1: breaking out in a full body rash, I couldn't send 346 00:17:27,880 --> 00:17:33,240 Speaker 1: him all to you and your rash get okay ta, 347 00:17:33,480 --> 00:17:34,879 Speaker 1: how did you come out of? Well? Eric, I know, 348 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:37,120 Speaker 1: I'll let you give a chance to say, how you well? 349 00:17:37,119 --> 00:17:39,960 Speaker 1: It was really simple and quick. I was nervous, purvous. Uh, 350 00:17:40,000 --> 00:17:41,920 Speaker 1: it was frightening. I was in a limo with Dean 351 00:17:42,000 --> 00:17:45,680 Speaker 1: and de Mario and I wasn't drinking. I was so nervous. 352 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:47,320 Speaker 1: I got the rachel. I don't know what I said. 353 00:17:47,480 --> 00:17:49,960 Speaker 1: I think I said, why do I keep seeing you? Yeah? 354 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:51,600 Speaker 1: And I think that was it. Not just but we 355 00:17:51,680 --> 00:17:54,480 Speaker 1: had already met because of well the gym and then Afar, 356 00:17:54,760 --> 00:17:59,280 Speaker 1: so it was like three times three times. So but 357 00:17:59,480 --> 00:18:01,600 Speaker 1: it was cool, but nervous. I was the same way. 358 00:18:01,680 --> 00:18:04,480 Speaker 1: I didn't have anything prepared. Coming out of Lamo, I 359 00:18:04,560 --> 00:18:06,359 Speaker 1: just like walked out and I remember looking at him 360 00:18:06,400 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 1: and I was like, what the heck am I doing here? 361 00:18:08,960 --> 00:18:10,720 Speaker 1: And I completely blacked out and I was like, Hi, 362 00:18:10,840 --> 00:18:14,199 Speaker 1: I'm nervous. I know nothing about you, but you have 363 00:18:14,240 --> 00:18:16,399 Speaker 1: a big heart, so do I. And then I walked in. 364 00:18:16,720 --> 00:18:19,240 Speaker 1: But then I had Tashia land inside, so that was fun. Yeah, 365 00:18:19,280 --> 00:18:22,040 Speaker 1: that's cute. I was like, what do I do? What 366 00:18:22,080 --> 00:18:23,480 Speaker 1: do I do? So I just started coming up with 367 00:18:23,480 --> 00:18:26,000 Speaker 1: lots of ideas and spin things out. All of a sudden, 368 00:18:26,040 --> 00:18:27,600 Speaker 1: I was like, what if I do a magic trick? 369 00:18:27,680 --> 00:18:30,080 Speaker 1: I don't know magic, but I'm gonna try and do one. 370 00:18:30,600 --> 00:18:32,119 Speaker 1: And she was like what are you gonna do? I'm 371 00:18:32,160 --> 00:18:34,960 Speaker 1: like I don't know, So I'm just like give me 372 00:18:34,960 --> 00:18:36,480 Speaker 1: ideas and she's like, what if you do something because 373 00:18:36,480 --> 00:18:38,200 Speaker 1: he's a virgin, and I'm like, shoot, I don't want 374 00:18:38,240 --> 00:18:39,560 Speaker 1: to do this. I don't want to do this. But 375 00:18:40,400 --> 00:18:43,280 Speaker 1: I said pick a card, any card. He grabs a 376 00:18:43,280 --> 00:18:46,520 Speaker 1: card and I'm like, hold on, like, just imagine what 377 00:18:46,600 --> 00:18:49,400 Speaker 1: card that is? Like, like put it into the universe. 378 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:51,560 Speaker 1: I grab the card, I shuffled them up. I'm like, no, 379 00:18:51,640 --> 00:18:53,680 Speaker 1: pick this card. And he's like, okay, I'm like, no, 380 00:18:53,800 --> 00:18:56,119 Speaker 1: pick a card again. I grab it and I'm like 381 00:18:57,400 --> 00:18:58,840 Speaker 1: I look at it, like I think I know what 382 00:18:58,880 --> 00:19:00,480 Speaker 1: your card is. I'm like, I don't know what it was, 383 00:19:00,640 --> 00:19:02,240 Speaker 1: but I think I just took your V card because 384 00:19:02,240 --> 00:19:07,760 Speaker 1: I go, can I take that? I was like, I'm 385 00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:09,639 Speaker 1: so lame. I'm not a nervous person, but I was 386 00:19:09,680 --> 00:19:11,960 Speaker 1: nervous that night because I don't think what people get 387 00:19:12,080 --> 00:19:15,320 Speaker 1: is you roll up to them. It happened so fast. 388 00:19:15,640 --> 00:19:18,320 Speaker 1: You roll up to the mansion and then like whoever 389 00:19:18,359 --> 00:19:21,880 Speaker 1: the lead is is just standing there and it's eerily quiet, 390 00:19:22,480 --> 00:19:24,439 Speaker 1: and you think you're going to see all these cameras 391 00:19:24,440 --> 00:19:27,800 Speaker 1: and they're kind of farther away than you, and the 392 00:19:27,800 --> 00:19:29,760 Speaker 1: ground is wet, and you're like, oh, hey, my dress. 393 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,719 Speaker 1: You know, you guys don't have to worry about that, 394 00:19:31,960 --> 00:19:33,920 Speaker 1: and it's just so scary, and you're like, this is 395 00:19:33,960 --> 00:19:36,680 Speaker 1: it that there's no turning I remember thinking there's no 396 00:19:36,760 --> 00:19:40,040 Speaker 1: turning back. This is it. Here you go. It's terrifying. 397 00:19:40,200 --> 00:19:42,800 Speaker 1: I walked into the bathroom and stared at myself in 398 00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:47,280 Speaker 1: the mirror and thought, there's no going back. I can't, Like, 399 00:19:47,280 --> 00:19:51,000 Speaker 1: there's nothing I could do let me go back out there. 400 00:19:52,000 --> 00:19:54,600 Speaker 1: You're like make your way back out all right times too. Yeah, 401 00:19:55,320 --> 00:19:58,520 Speaker 1: if you have to give advice to someone who, I mean, 402 00:19:58,600 --> 00:20:02,680 Speaker 1: like we know Peter filming his season, and so they've 403 00:20:02,720 --> 00:20:05,040 Speaker 1: already done their first night. So I think that's the 404 00:20:05,040 --> 00:20:06,960 Speaker 1: best night when you get to meet the people for 405 00:20:07,000 --> 00:20:10,520 Speaker 1: the first time, see the hometown packages, and then also 406 00:20:10,560 --> 00:20:12,240 Speaker 1: see what crazy things they do the first night. If 407 00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:15,520 Speaker 1: you're going to give advice to someone for this next season, 408 00:20:15,560 --> 00:20:17,720 Speaker 1: whoever the bachelorette's going to be and who's coming out, 409 00:20:17,760 --> 00:20:20,719 Speaker 1: what would you tell them to do? Should they go 410 00:20:20,920 --> 00:20:23,560 Speaker 1: all out? Should they make a scene? Should they have 411 00:20:23,640 --> 00:20:26,840 Speaker 1: a prop? Should they just say a speech? I mean, 412 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:30,080 Speaker 1: and I always follow the I followed the kiss principles, 413 00:20:30,160 --> 00:20:33,920 Speaker 1: keep it simple, stupid. I came out just myself, smiled, 414 00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,960 Speaker 1: talked a little in Spanish. I actually got great advice 415 00:20:37,040 --> 00:20:38,920 Speaker 1: going on the show a good buddy of mine Eric, 416 00:20:38,920 --> 00:20:43,120 Speaker 1: you know him. Just literally focus on the lead no 417 00:20:43,119 --> 00:20:45,080 Speaker 1: matter what I mean. I had seen the show before, 418 00:20:45,119 --> 00:20:47,840 Speaker 1: so I knew that she was going to have relationships 419 00:20:47,840 --> 00:20:51,040 Speaker 1: and connections with other guys, so I mentally prepared myself 420 00:20:51,080 --> 00:20:54,359 Speaker 1: for that. But then also, don't start any drama, and 421 00:20:54,400 --> 00:20:57,840 Speaker 1: don't talk behind anybody's back. Just follow those three pieces 422 00:20:57,840 --> 00:21:01,400 Speaker 1: of advice, and that kind of helped me out a lot. Yeah, 423 00:21:01,520 --> 00:21:04,719 Speaker 1: I mean you want to showcase your personality in some way. Yeah, 424 00:21:04,760 --> 00:21:09,400 Speaker 1: and I feel like taking a big breath before you 425 00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:11,240 Speaker 1: get out. I was the first one out of my limo, 426 00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:15,320 Speaker 1: and so I think when I walked away, Ari said, oh, 427 00:21:15,400 --> 00:21:18,880 Speaker 1: she was really nervous, you know. So it's it's just 428 00:21:19,320 --> 00:21:23,000 Speaker 1: I think maybe putting it in perspective of, you know, 429 00:21:24,520 --> 00:21:28,360 Speaker 1: it's not just you meeting them, They're also meeting you, 430 00:21:28,359 --> 00:21:30,399 Speaker 1: you know, and so having that perspective of it's not 431 00:21:30,480 --> 00:21:33,160 Speaker 1: all about them, although they are the lead, it's also 432 00:21:33,200 --> 00:21:37,360 Speaker 1: about you, Like that's meeting you and you your personality. 433 00:21:37,400 --> 00:21:39,199 Speaker 1: So I would say that's what I would buys. I mean, 434 00:21:39,240 --> 00:21:43,040 Speaker 1: you were nervous. Imagine I guess I wasn't nervous because 435 00:21:43,080 --> 00:21:45,640 Speaker 1: I thought they are here for me. This is so 436 00:21:45,760 --> 00:21:48,480 Speaker 1: empowering that and then you can I could hear them 437 00:21:48,480 --> 00:21:50,679 Speaker 1: saying Rachel in the car, and I was like, that's me, 438 00:21:51,000 --> 00:21:53,159 Speaker 1: you know, they're here to see me. And I was 439 00:21:53,240 --> 00:21:55,280 Speaker 1: so excited for who was going to come out and 440 00:21:55,320 --> 00:21:57,080 Speaker 1: what they were going to do, and all these new 441 00:21:57,080 --> 00:21:58,879 Speaker 1: people that were coming into my life, and I just 442 00:21:58,880 --> 00:22:01,520 Speaker 1: like couldn't wait to meet everybody, you know, whether you 443 00:22:01,520 --> 00:22:03,439 Speaker 1: were going home the first night or not. I was 444 00:22:03,520 --> 00:22:07,200 Speaker 1: just so excited. And one thing for me, I kept saying, 445 00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:09,960 Speaker 1: never forget what it feels like to be in their shoes. 446 00:22:10,520 --> 00:22:12,520 Speaker 1: So anytime I was talking to someone, I tried to 447 00:22:12,520 --> 00:22:14,280 Speaker 1: give them my full attention because I was like, I 448 00:22:14,359 --> 00:22:16,720 Speaker 1: know what it's like to have just five ten minutes 449 00:22:16,760 --> 00:22:19,240 Speaker 1: with them and they've been waiting all day, or you've 450 00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:21,280 Speaker 1: been waiting all day to talk to that person. But 451 00:22:22,720 --> 00:22:26,679 Speaker 1: what was your least favorite part of filming? I'll tell 452 00:22:26,720 --> 00:22:30,719 Speaker 1: you mine. It's girl chats. Straight up, girl, you want 453 00:22:30,760 --> 00:22:34,800 Speaker 1: to go have a girl chat? No, I don't. I 454 00:22:34,800 --> 00:22:37,040 Speaker 1: hate them. And so for those of you who don't 455 00:22:37,080 --> 00:22:40,320 Speaker 1: know girl chats are, or those of you listening, girl 456 00:22:40,400 --> 00:22:43,560 Speaker 1: chats are when you know everyone else, not everyone, but 457 00:22:43,600 --> 00:22:45,000 Speaker 1: people are off on a date, whether it be a 458 00:22:45,000 --> 00:22:46,879 Speaker 1: one on one a group date. You're sitting around the 459 00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:51,840 Speaker 1: house with absolutely nothing to do, but tan read may 460 00:22:51,960 --> 00:22:57,160 Speaker 1: pretend to work out, drink and like they're or cook 461 00:22:57,200 --> 00:22:58,560 Speaker 1: if if you're one of them, I was definitely not 462 00:22:58,600 --> 00:23:00,800 Speaker 1: the going to cooking in the house, there's always one. 463 00:23:01,080 --> 00:23:03,520 Speaker 1: There's no chef in the bachelor mansion. People don't know 464 00:23:03,800 --> 00:23:06,760 Speaker 1: forget that. But girl chats or guy chats are when 465 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:08,520 Speaker 1: they say, hey, do you want to go talk about it? 466 00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:12,119 Speaker 1: And usually you're talking about your feelings or the other 467 00:23:12,200 --> 00:23:14,160 Speaker 1: girls that are on the date and what that feels 468 00:23:14,200 --> 00:23:17,840 Speaker 1: like to be at home. But there I despised them. 469 00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:21,159 Speaker 1: I would always try to, like sleep or I don't know, 470 00:23:21,320 --> 00:23:23,480 Speaker 1: run away, actually have a different perspective. I mean, I 471 00:23:23,520 --> 00:23:26,520 Speaker 1: don't know about you, Eric, but I've never talked about 472 00:23:26,560 --> 00:23:28,679 Speaker 1: my feelings more in my life with another dude. Then 473 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:30,919 Speaker 1: I did on that show for sure, and you liked it. 474 00:23:31,640 --> 00:23:34,080 Speaker 1: I thought it was I thought it helped me be 475 00:23:34,119 --> 00:23:35,680 Speaker 1: a better person. I mean it was funny because when 476 00:23:35,680 --> 00:23:38,000 Speaker 1: I got home, I remember talking to my other guy 477 00:23:38,080 --> 00:23:41,520 Speaker 1: friends that weren't on the show obviously, and just started, hey, man, 478 00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:46,960 Speaker 1: how you feeling. Yeah, I started really getting deep. I 479 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:49,720 Speaker 1: will agree that being on the show almost makes you 480 00:23:49,800 --> 00:23:53,280 Speaker 1: like express your feelings so much more. You talk more 481 00:23:53,320 --> 00:23:55,240 Speaker 1: about your feelings, Like right off the bat, I was 482 00:23:55,280 --> 00:23:57,399 Speaker 1: like crying in front of people, talking about how I 483 00:23:57,440 --> 00:23:59,600 Speaker 1: was feeling in front of people. It was I think 484 00:23:59,600 --> 00:24:01,680 Speaker 1: it was really incredible. It's very transformative, Like I feel 485 00:24:01,680 --> 00:24:03,960 Speaker 1: it helps you be better in relationships and also you 486 00:24:04,040 --> 00:24:06,959 Speaker 1: getting more apathy for other people as well, because you 487 00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:09,040 Speaker 1: see everyone going through the same experience that you went 488 00:24:09,119 --> 00:24:12,639 Speaker 1: through and you have an understanding of, like their perspective. 489 00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:15,159 Speaker 1: I think that's what I got from it. You can 490 00:24:15,680 --> 00:24:21,320 Speaker 1: see I hated that I'd like talking to the producer. Once, 491 00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:23,480 Speaker 1: once I got comfortable with my producer, I enjoyed that. 492 00:24:23,520 --> 00:24:25,960 Speaker 1: But like like you said, girl Chats, Guy Chats, like, 493 00:24:26,520 --> 00:24:28,520 Speaker 1: I don't even think I did any of them, Like 494 00:24:28,600 --> 00:24:30,680 Speaker 1: even even in Paradise, I don't think I was part 495 00:24:30,720 --> 00:24:32,840 Speaker 1: of anyone because I just wouldn't talk. I would just 496 00:24:32,840 --> 00:24:35,719 Speaker 1: sit there and be like, you're full shit, you know. 497 00:24:35,880 --> 00:24:37,919 Speaker 1: And that's kind of how I felt, which is wrong, 498 00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:40,080 Speaker 1: you know, it isn't the right way to be. But 499 00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:43,000 Speaker 1: I was really in my head. Yeah, I was really 500 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,320 Speaker 1: in my head too. For girl Chats. I felt like 501 00:24:45,359 --> 00:24:47,479 Speaker 1: when a question would come up, I felt that I 502 00:24:47,560 --> 00:24:52,640 Speaker 1: was it felt like acting. Yeah, I was thinking, this 503 00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:54,800 Speaker 1: isn't how I talk, this isn't how I would approach 504 00:24:54,800 --> 00:24:57,440 Speaker 1: the conversation. But I'm going to try and give you 505 00:24:57,520 --> 00:25:00,960 Speaker 1: my input, and it was just felt very abnormal to me, 506 00:25:01,040 --> 00:25:03,200 Speaker 1: and so I try to stay away from girl chats 507 00:25:03,240 --> 00:25:05,879 Speaker 1: as well. What was I like? I mean, I like 508 00:25:06,000 --> 00:25:10,800 Speaker 1: man chats only because it allowed me, because I think 509 00:25:10,840 --> 00:25:12,680 Speaker 1: for me, it allowed me to listen to understand a 510 00:25:12,720 --> 00:25:16,040 Speaker 1: person's perspective, how they was raised, what they believe in 511 00:25:16,200 --> 00:25:17,760 Speaker 1: that model of the world. I mean, it was a 512 00:25:17,800 --> 00:25:21,359 Speaker 1: moment we were in I think Copenhagen and you was like, 513 00:25:21,560 --> 00:25:24,000 Speaker 1: man E, I feel like you gotta, you know, some 514 00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:26,919 Speaker 1: momentum because urniracial, who has something going on earlier that 515 00:25:27,000 --> 00:25:29,479 Speaker 1: was wasn't so great And we kind of smooth all 516 00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:31,600 Speaker 1: the way through. And like just having that back and 517 00:25:31,640 --> 00:25:34,560 Speaker 1: forth and that trust amongst one another, it makes you 518 00:25:34,600 --> 00:25:37,880 Speaker 1: feel like grounded and you feel okay. But then there 519 00:25:37,960 --> 00:25:40,760 Speaker 1: was moments where the lead and the right situation when 520 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:42,880 Speaker 1: I'm being vulnerable and I'm telling it and they're using 521 00:25:43,400 --> 00:25:46,120 Speaker 1: my truth against me, and I'm like, yeah, who does that? Yeah, 522 00:25:46,160 --> 00:25:47,760 Speaker 1: that's the other thing. You gotta be careful because you're 523 00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:49,760 Speaker 1: you don't know the other person's intentions. Like you said, 524 00:25:49,760 --> 00:25:52,960 Speaker 1: they might use that information against you, but you are 525 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:56,359 Speaker 1: when you're just on such a high and you and 526 00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:59,720 Speaker 1: you really are grateful. And someone told me as I not. 527 00:25:59,760 --> 00:26:02,840 Speaker 1: Some one Ali told me when I was going into 528 00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:05,920 Speaker 1: this season to be the bachelorette, she said, take advantage 529 00:26:05,960 --> 00:26:09,040 Speaker 1: of every moment. It goes by so fast. It's a lot, 530 00:26:09,080 --> 00:26:12,399 Speaker 1: and you're going to be exhausted, but truly appreciate every 531 00:26:12,400 --> 00:26:15,200 Speaker 1: single day. And so as tired as I was, I 532 00:26:15,200 --> 00:26:18,480 Speaker 1: would always say, Okay, let me just be grateful and 533 00:26:18,640 --> 00:26:21,359 Speaker 1: thankful that I'm here and I have this opportunity, and 534 00:26:21,400 --> 00:26:24,439 Speaker 1: I'm in Norway of all places, and now I'm you know, 535 00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:27,280 Speaker 1: it's just like you have to pinch yourself one to 536 00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:29,680 Speaker 1: see if it's real. I always joke that I swear 537 00:26:30,640 --> 00:26:32,760 Speaker 1: I'm going to pinch myself wake up one day and 538 00:26:32,880 --> 00:26:35,240 Speaker 1: all of you will just be a figment of my imagination. 539 00:26:35,440 --> 00:26:37,520 Speaker 1: Like I'll walk past you in the grocery store, I'm like, 540 00:26:37,560 --> 00:26:40,040 Speaker 1: she looks familiar. Where did I know her from? Oh? 541 00:26:40,080 --> 00:26:42,560 Speaker 1: You know, I don't know. Isn't that how you felt 542 00:26:42,560 --> 00:26:45,479 Speaker 1: when you got home? Though? Like from after filming, I 543 00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:47,560 Speaker 1: felt like was I just inn a dream? Alternate reality? 544 00:26:47,560 --> 00:26:50,000 Speaker 1: Because like you come home and like everything's exactly the 545 00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:51,639 Speaker 1: same like when you left, Like your parents are doing 546 00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:53,760 Speaker 1: the same sact thing. Everything's the same, and I'm like, 547 00:26:53,920 --> 00:26:55,520 Speaker 1: I just went to like five countries, Like I don't 548 00:26:55,520 --> 00:26:58,040 Speaker 1: know what to happen. You're in a dream, yeah, and 549 00:26:58,280 --> 00:26:59,840 Speaker 1: then you come back and you can't really talk about it. 550 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,199 Speaker 1: I was like, what just happened to me? Yeah, but 551 00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:06,000 Speaker 1: you are in another world. It is different. World stops 552 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:10,040 Speaker 1: when you're in that bubble because you don't have your phone, TV. 553 00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:14,000 Speaker 1: You're completely disconnected from everything. Your world is the Bachelor, 554 00:27:14,400 --> 00:27:17,479 Speaker 1: you know, It's like if there was a Chris Harrison 555 00:27:17,560 --> 00:27:19,840 Speaker 1: would be like the god. Yeah, and you know, the 556 00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,359 Speaker 1: producers are your parents and these are your only friends. 557 00:27:22,560 --> 00:27:25,000 Speaker 1: Was one man or one woman in this world? Truly, 558 00:27:25,000 --> 00:27:28,600 Speaker 1: That's how it is. We were talking about this before 559 00:27:29,359 --> 00:27:32,560 Speaker 1: that transition of when the show was over and you're 560 00:27:32,560 --> 00:27:35,840 Speaker 1: done and you come back into the real world. Did 561 00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:39,640 Speaker 1: you you guys find it difficult? Of course, Like, let's 562 00:27:39,640 --> 00:27:41,919 Speaker 1: talk about that. I don't want to go out in public. 563 00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:44,720 Speaker 1: I have social anxiety. My social anxiety was at an 564 00:27:44,720 --> 00:27:47,160 Speaker 1: all time high. Yeah. I felt that everything I did, 565 00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:50,399 Speaker 1: I was facing people, I was faced with questions I 566 00:27:50,480 --> 00:27:52,320 Speaker 1: was everything was and it was almost the same question. 567 00:27:52,359 --> 00:27:54,040 Speaker 1: And I felt that I had to show up and 568 00:27:54,119 --> 00:27:58,480 Speaker 1: not be robotic but deliver with the same enthusiasm as 569 00:27:58,480 --> 00:28:00,360 Speaker 1: when I first came back, and you know, said things 570 00:28:00,359 --> 00:28:03,080 Speaker 1: to my parents or whatever, and even some things that 571 00:28:03,119 --> 00:28:05,680 Speaker 1: were a little bit more I felt more negatively about. 572 00:28:05,720 --> 00:28:08,040 Speaker 1: I felt that I couldn't share or express those feelings 573 00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:13,199 Speaker 1: with just general fans. So it was a weird. It 574 00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:14,600 Speaker 1: was weird to try and get out of my house 575 00:28:14,640 --> 00:28:15,879 Speaker 1: because I felt like, I don't even want to go 576 00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:17,520 Speaker 1: to the grocery store because I don't want people to 577 00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:19,639 Speaker 1: talk to me. Even though I'm grateful and appreciative of 578 00:28:19,680 --> 00:28:22,880 Speaker 1: these people supporting me, I feel that I'm constantly explaining 579 00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:26,720 Speaker 1: myself and it was making me feel it was I 580 00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:29,320 Speaker 1: was disconnecting from the actual emotional part of it because 581 00:28:29,320 --> 00:28:31,520 Speaker 1: I felt like a speech At one point, I felt 582 00:28:31,520 --> 00:28:34,840 Speaker 1: like I was just like spitting out answers and not 583 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:39,120 Speaker 1: giving people full me. Yeah, you go through a lot 584 00:28:39,160 --> 00:28:42,120 Speaker 1: of evolution and growth while you're on the show, and 585 00:28:42,120 --> 00:28:44,200 Speaker 1: so you're almost coming back to the same world as 586 00:28:44,240 --> 00:28:47,360 Speaker 1: a different person. So I felt like everything else was 587 00:28:47,400 --> 00:28:49,480 Speaker 1: the same, but I had changed so much, and everyone 588 00:28:49,480 --> 00:28:51,920 Speaker 1: that I was used to knowing everything about me since 589 00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:54,000 Speaker 1: I was a kid wasn't a part of that, and 590 00:28:54,040 --> 00:28:56,000 Speaker 1: I was also for the first time able to make 591 00:28:56,080 --> 00:29:00,600 Speaker 1: decisions and go through like the mental processes without having 592 00:29:00,640 --> 00:29:02,840 Speaker 1: the people that usually give their input in my life. 593 00:29:03,160 --> 00:29:05,160 Speaker 1: My family's very involved in my life. My friends were 594 00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:08,040 Speaker 1: very involved, especially when it comes to dating, and they 595 00:29:08,040 --> 00:29:10,840 Speaker 1: were not. I think I had strangers basically helping me 596 00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:13,320 Speaker 1: through something that was supposed to be like finding the 597 00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:16,760 Speaker 1: love of my life. So um, I just felt like 598 00:29:16,800 --> 00:29:19,120 Speaker 1: I had a new, a whole new like empowerment for 599 00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:21,920 Speaker 1: what it meant to be myself going through a relationship 600 00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:27,240 Speaker 1: as opposed to UM me and like my posse. You know. Yeah. 601 00:29:27,280 --> 00:29:29,640 Speaker 1: Once I got off, I was like and I knew 602 00:29:29,640 --> 00:29:32,560 Speaker 1: people knew who I was. I was like, this is 603 00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:38,160 Speaker 1: gonna be awesome. I can't wait. Like my friends and 604 00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:39,880 Speaker 1: I we all went to a bar and everyone knew me. 605 00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:45,560 Speaker 1: I was like, you can tell. Yeah, it was great. 606 00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:48,160 Speaker 1: I was super excited for it. I could see Joe 607 00:29:48,160 --> 00:29:50,880 Speaker 1: walking down the street the first time. Yeah. I literally 608 00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:55,520 Speaker 1: I walked down on this grocery store job to Michigan Avenue, 609 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:57,880 Speaker 1: UM in Chicago. I was walking down the stream and 610 00:29:58,240 --> 00:30:00,000 Speaker 1: girls were all like, oh my god, that sounds like, 611 00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:08,000 Speaker 1: oh my god, my life. So what is the first 612 00:30:08,000 --> 00:30:10,080 Speaker 1: thing you did when you came back from filming. Obviously 613 00:30:10,080 --> 00:30:14,320 Speaker 1: you went walking down Michigan. Take full advantage of this 614 00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:18,000 Speaker 1: bathe in the film. I remember getting really sick, like 615 00:30:18,040 --> 00:30:20,200 Speaker 1: I feel like I poured all my emotions. I called you, 616 00:30:20,240 --> 00:30:23,200 Speaker 1: remember I FaceTime you, like early on I was bedridden, 617 00:30:23,440 --> 00:30:25,400 Speaker 1: Like I think I just poured out so much emotion 618 00:30:25,800 --> 00:30:28,440 Speaker 1: and I didn't get sick throughout the show. And then 619 00:30:28,600 --> 00:30:30,760 Speaker 1: literally when I got home better than for like four 620 00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,239 Speaker 1: days with the full your going. Yeah, I like so 621 00:30:33,320 --> 00:30:37,600 Speaker 1: much adrenalineybody. Ideople don't understand either, Like we sacrificed so much. Yeah, 622 00:30:37,600 --> 00:30:40,440 Speaker 1: life out time, we energy and I don't think you 623 00:30:40,480 --> 00:30:42,760 Speaker 1: know Broun or Rachel when when we were filming in Spain, 624 00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:46,400 Speaker 1: I stayed extra ten days because right, they didn't want 625 00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:49,920 Speaker 1: me to fly home. Yeah. So because I'm home and 626 00:30:49,920 --> 00:30:51,960 Speaker 1: I'm looking at the world, I'm like this is weird. 627 00:30:52,040 --> 00:30:54,080 Speaker 1: Like I'm training people getting like I can't do this, 628 00:30:54,120 --> 00:30:56,720 Speaker 1: and I was on edge. I was chippy, like I 629 00:30:56,760 --> 00:30:58,840 Speaker 1: didn't have patience for anything. If you did anything I 630 00:30:58,840 --> 00:31:03,000 Speaker 1: didn't like, I will let you know, yeah, letting people now, Yeah, 631 00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:06,240 Speaker 1: because you're so like in this energy and this vibration 632 00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:09,320 Speaker 1: of how you feeling, what's going on, people in being 633 00:31:09,320 --> 00:31:11,240 Speaker 1: your space and I don't want to talk about that. 634 00:31:11,280 --> 00:31:13,000 Speaker 1: And you get home when someone does something like Noah, 635 00:31:13,080 --> 00:31:15,160 Speaker 1: stop that. I felt like I had the Joe effect. 636 00:31:15,200 --> 00:31:18,320 Speaker 1: I went out on party, yet I went straight to 637 00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:23,600 Speaker 1: the club. I was like, my friend back, I'm the 638 00:31:23,600 --> 00:31:28,720 Speaker 1: coolest person here, right, so awesome. After Paradise, Joe, you 639 00:31:28,760 --> 00:31:32,120 Speaker 1: went to uh, like, what was it? It was oh no, 640 00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:36,600 Speaker 1: sorry bachelorette. It was Saint Patrick's. Well that wasn't as 641 00:31:36,640 --> 00:31:38,800 Speaker 1: good because that I was like, oh, fa fa, I 642 00:31:38,840 --> 00:31:41,840 Speaker 1: can't show. The first night Paradise was hard for me 643 00:31:41,880 --> 00:31:43,440 Speaker 1: because I was like trying to hold back crying the 644 00:31:43,560 --> 00:31:45,440 Speaker 1: entire time on the plane, the entire time on the Uber. 645 00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:48,600 Speaker 1: I couldn't tell people I had gotten home until I 646 00:31:48,600 --> 00:31:52,800 Speaker 1: actually landed back in um California, and so I was 647 00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:55,040 Speaker 1: trying to cry the entire time. I called my mom 648 00:31:55,120 --> 00:31:56,680 Speaker 1: and she's like, how was it? What happened? I was like, 649 00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:01,719 Speaker 1: And so as soon as I got home, my roommate 650 00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:04,200 Speaker 1: come came running out to me, and I burst into tears, 651 00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:05,840 Speaker 1: and I swear I don't think I stopped crying for 652 00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:09,160 Speaker 1: like three days until Joe got done in those dms 653 00:32:09,280 --> 00:32:12,600 Speaker 1: and then I was fine. But I I just remember 654 00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:13,840 Speaker 1: the first thing I did is I got all my 655 00:32:13,840 --> 00:32:15,720 Speaker 1: girlfriends together. We had wine. I went up in my 656 00:32:15,760 --> 00:32:17,920 Speaker 1: attic that I kind of turned into a little hangout 657 00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:19,720 Speaker 1: room and I just went up there and told everyone 658 00:32:20,000 --> 00:32:23,280 Speaker 1: what happened, and like was crying and drinking wine. So well, 659 00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:25,959 Speaker 1: that's good. She surrounded yourself a play? Yeah, yeah, what 660 00:32:26,000 --> 00:32:28,200 Speaker 1: do you what is the most you know, what's the 661 00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:31,200 Speaker 1: question that everyone asks you when you come off the show? Like, 662 00:32:31,280 --> 00:32:35,240 Speaker 1: what's the most prominent or consistent question? Is it real? Yeah? 663 00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,560 Speaker 1: Is it really produced? Do you still a grocery store? 664 00:32:38,560 --> 00:32:40,520 Speaker 1: Are you? Did you really fall in love? Were you 665 00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:45,920 Speaker 1: gonna get married? Are you are you doing? Yeah? Like, 666 00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:50,240 Speaker 1: don't get that. Yeah. Did anybody keep anything from the show? 667 00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:53,440 Speaker 1: Oh I have a whole bot? What Okay, we're starting 668 00:32:53,440 --> 00:32:55,680 Speaker 1: with you. I definitely I feel like the girls do 669 00:32:55,720 --> 00:32:57,720 Speaker 1: it more. But go ahead, say show. I have all 670 00:32:57,720 --> 00:33:02,320 Speaker 1: my roses have on my journal. I know, because it's 671 00:33:02,320 --> 00:33:05,080 Speaker 1: like a it's a it's a it's a big deal. 672 00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:07,520 Speaker 1: You guys, you know you have like this little box 673 00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:14,400 Speaker 1: and like nobody will ever like the rose I would 674 00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:16,200 Speaker 1: like come out and like I showed my friend a 675 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:20,600 Speaker 1: little something and they're like no, Like I had like 676 00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:26,120 Speaker 1: a shirt from my skydiving I that I have I suit, 677 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:31,200 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, fighting suit. So um, I have like a 678 00:33:31,360 --> 00:33:35,000 Speaker 1: random towel um from one of my dates. It's just 679 00:33:35,040 --> 00:33:36,440 Speaker 1: like I have a lot of whole things. How did 680 00:33:36,480 --> 00:33:38,960 Speaker 1: you preserve the roses? I tried that for like the 681 00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:40,880 Speaker 1: first couple of weeks and they all started a stink 682 00:33:40,920 --> 00:33:45,280 Speaker 1: and mylded. I molded, hang them upside down, and then 683 00:33:45,320 --> 00:33:50,560 Speaker 1: like I was smashing in my book. Yeah, I just 684 00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:53,000 Speaker 1: put them in like a ziplock and they all molded 685 00:33:53,040 --> 00:33:56,320 Speaker 1: and done. Kindel, you kept roses. I kept the rose 686 00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:58,880 Speaker 1: that Joe gave me from Paradise. I still have that 687 00:33:58,960 --> 00:34:01,920 Speaker 1: rose on those roses. But Andy, all of them from 688 00:34:02,040 --> 00:34:04,600 Speaker 1: the Bachelor, they all molded because you had to travel, 689 00:34:04,600 --> 00:34:06,280 Speaker 1: and I put them a little bag as well. And 690 00:34:06,280 --> 00:34:10,319 Speaker 1: the moisture of course. Yeah sorry, I was always so 691 00:34:10,680 --> 00:34:13,880 Speaker 1: like nervous or giddy afterwards. I would always pluck on 692 00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:16,359 Speaker 1: my roses just so it was just a stem, every 693 00:34:16,360 --> 00:34:18,920 Speaker 1: single rose. You even see me when I get engaged, 694 00:34:19,040 --> 00:34:21,840 Speaker 1: I'm doing the little We filmed a little afterwards and 695 00:34:21,960 --> 00:34:24,680 Speaker 1: my roses just like nothing, there's nothing on her. It 696 00:34:24,800 --> 00:34:26,359 Speaker 1: was just a stem. I was just like waving around 697 00:34:26,400 --> 00:34:28,680 Speaker 1: a stem because it's like your nervous that's my nervous habit. 698 00:34:28,680 --> 00:34:32,359 Speaker 1: I'm just plucking the whole rose, like les, I got it. 699 00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:36,120 Speaker 1: I say roses too. When I was on nixt season 700 00:34:36,200 --> 00:34:38,759 Speaker 1: and I say date cards. I don't know. There was 701 00:34:38,800 --> 00:34:41,840 Speaker 1: something about getting the date card and like keeping it 702 00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:45,080 Speaker 1: and then when especially when you separate and go to hometowns, 703 00:34:45,080 --> 00:34:47,000 Speaker 1: it's like I would read the date cards again, like 704 00:34:47,239 --> 00:34:48,960 Speaker 1: you try to see if there's like a deeper meaning. 705 00:34:48,960 --> 00:34:54,160 Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, you did that. Yeah you do. Yeah, 706 00:34:54,320 --> 00:34:57,000 Speaker 1: I'm doing too. I mean that's your world. So it's 707 00:34:57,000 --> 00:34:59,279 Speaker 1: like you're holding on to all of that. I but 708 00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:01,560 Speaker 1: don't worry. I mean once once I was bastrette, I 709 00:35:01,600 --> 00:35:05,839 Speaker 1: threw everything away an experience, so probably a year ago 710 00:35:06,840 --> 00:35:08,759 Speaker 1: around this time, I want to go take my pea 711 00:35:08,800 --> 00:35:11,000 Speaker 1: coat to the cleaners, right, And that was the pea 712 00:35:11,040 --> 00:35:13,239 Speaker 1: coat I was wearing in Spain. So I'm like, what 713 00:35:13,360 --> 00:35:17,520 Speaker 1: is this some like pocket So it's the fantasy sweetcart 714 00:35:17,560 --> 00:35:27,040 Speaker 1: with the key. Funny, but it brought back those memories 715 00:35:27,080 --> 00:35:30,000 Speaker 1: and time. It was just beautiful, but I'm like, damn, 716 00:35:30,160 --> 00:35:31,680 Speaker 1: I wasn't trying to hold on to it, but I 717 00:35:31,680 --> 00:35:42,440 Speaker 1: guess it was Oh my gosh, present someone with that box. 718 00:35:42,520 --> 00:35:45,440 Speaker 1: But it was funny. All right, let's get juicy. Oh, 719 00:35:46,120 --> 00:35:50,480 Speaker 1: anybody has something to share, some tea to spill, or 720 00:35:50,520 --> 00:35:52,919 Speaker 1: your champagne, since that's what we're drinking in the room. 721 00:35:53,040 --> 00:35:56,080 Speaker 1: Some champagne to spill about things that happened, maybe behind 722 00:35:56,080 --> 00:35:59,200 Speaker 1: the scenes, maybe a funny moment that we don't know about. 723 00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:03,000 Speaker 1: You can start. Can we just do a toast because 724 00:36:03,040 --> 00:36:05,839 Speaker 1: they say his friends give. Oh we did talk about gratitude, 725 00:36:05,840 --> 00:36:08,040 Speaker 1: and I think I appreciate everyone at this table while 726 00:36:08,120 --> 00:36:13,240 Speaker 1: laves have changed and you know, some of us happy 727 00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:19,960 Speaker 1: friends giving. Okay, who's got the tea? Don't try to 728 00:36:20,040 --> 00:36:23,400 Speaker 1: change the subject. No, anything behind the scenes, Like there 729 00:36:23,480 --> 00:36:29,319 Speaker 1: has to be something. We had babies in one I 730 00:36:29,400 --> 00:36:30,920 Speaker 1: was cute though, I feel like I like seeing you 731 00:36:31,239 --> 00:36:34,480 Speaker 1: with a baby. Yeah, yeah, it was really cute. After that, 732 00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:36,239 Speaker 1: you cried, you broke down. You're like, oh, I don't know, 733 00:36:36,880 --> 00:36:40,600 Speaker 1: Oh yeah, yeah, that's another thing. After before we went 734 00:36:40,760 --> 00:36:43,720 Speaker 1: to get a drink. After handling the babies, I literally 735 00:36:43,719 --> 00:36:46,640 Speaker 1: we literally had two hours of sleep. It's that and 736 00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:48,400 Speaker 1: then I had to like take care of a child. 737 00:36:48,880 --> 00:36:50,960 Speaker 1: Um was crying the entire time. It was really hot, 738 00:36:51,000 --> 00:36:53,520 Speaker 1: and I felt really bad and emotionally, of course you're 739 00:36:53,560 --> 00:36:56,719 Speaker 1: going through everything. Um. And so yeah, right before we went, 740 00:36:57,600 --> 00:36:59,600 Speaker 1: I broke down and I was like, oh, can I 741 00:36:59,600 --> 00:37:02,000 Speaker 1: get ready before we go? Get drinks like on the beach, 742 00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:05,040 Speaker 1: and I was just like, I just want to feel pretty. 743 00:37:06,960 --> 00:37:09,160 Speaker 1: There's my most diva moment. I think of the entire thing. 744 00:37:10,080 --> 00:37:11,959 Speaker 1: I cried when you say when you said I wanted 745 00:37:11,960 --> 00:37:14,200 Speaker 1: to feel pretty, that makes me think of the proposal day, 746 00:37:14,320 --> 00:37:18,799 Speaker 1: because the wind was insane and when I tell you, 747 00:37:18,920 --> 00:37:21,880 Speaker 1: I looked so pretty before, like my hair was together 748 00:37:22,040 --> 00:37:24,680 Speaker 1: in this messy bun, and then we step out there 749 00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:27,239 Speaker 1: and it's just And they had moved the date up 750 00:37:27,320 --> 00:37:29,400 Speaker 1: because the weather was supposed to be so bad the 751 00:37:29,440 --> 00:37:31,839 Speaker 1: real day, and it was still awful and my hair 752 00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:34,480 Speaker 1: was flying over and you could see my weed and 753 00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:38,879 Speaker 1: I was mortified, and I'm literally in tears. And then 754 00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:40,799 Speaker 1: Brian starts walking up and I was like, get out 755 00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:44,640 Speaker 1: of you're gotta here. Was mortified. I used to always 756 00:37:44,719 --> 00:37:48,000 Speaker 1: with Brian, try to give him my room number. Yeah, 757 00:37:48,040 --> 00:37:50,120 Speaker 1: and and so like I would like if my room 758 00:37:50,200 --> 00:37:58,360 Speaker 1: number was like one, two, three, I'd be like like that, 759 00:37:59,400 --> 00:38:02,239 Speaker 1: Oh yes, I'm putting fingers on the table. Yes, So 760 00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:04,520 Speaker 1: you gave me your room in multiple times and I 761 00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,000 Speaker 1: was like, I never I never got a chance to 762 00:38:07,040 --> 00:38:09,000 Speaker 1: go up there because my producers like, no, you can't 763 00:38:09,040 --> 00:38:12,200 Speaker 1: do that, and I was very by the rules, by 764 00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:15,840 Speaker 1: the books. I was like, unless the follower, but I 765 00:38:15,920 --> 00:38:17,640 Speaker 1: was so upset. I was like, if any if I 766 00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:19,719 Speaker 1: see on the show when it airs, anybody else go 767 00:38:19,800 --> 00:38:24,200 Speaker 1: up to because I had multiple chances, but they said, 768 00:38:24,280 --> 00:38:26,680 Speaker 1: they said that you could, but there would have to 769 00:38:26,719 --> 00:38:29,640 Speaker 1: be a camera also when we have to having a 770 00:38:29,680 --> 00:38:32,080 Speaker 1: camera in when you're yeah, I was like, no, no, no, 771 00:38:32,080 --> 00:38:34,680 Speaker 1: it's about sneaking into the room. Yes, And then one 772 00:38:34,800 --> 00:38:36,759 Speaker 1: after one of those, this makes me think of something else, 773 00:38:36,760 --> 00:38:39,440 Speaker 1: And I wonder if this happened to anyone during your 774 00:38:39,440 --> 00:38:43,400 Speaker 1: time of filming. When we were in Norway, ours, the 775 00:38:43,440 --> 00:38:45,920 Speaker 1: whole everything was haunted. Did you guys deal with that? 776 00:38:46,640 --> 00:38:50,120 Speaker 1: I had a spirit in my room every in Denver. 777 00:38:50,800 --> 00:38:56,640 Speaker 1: Did you feel something? It was odd? But apparently that 778 00:38:56,760 --> 00:39:00,080 Speaker 1: was a haunted hotel they told me later, Tasia, I 779 00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:02,400 Speaker 1: want to hear your story after this. But my TV. 780 00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:07,120 Speaker 1: So I had a two story room and my TV. Look, 781 00:39:07,160 --> 00:39:13,240 Speaker 1: I see this skeptic go looking at me. I'm not kidding. 782 00:39:13,280 --> 00:39:17,440 Speaker 1: My TV turned on by itself upstairs, and I'm so 783 00:39:17,520 --> 00:39:20,200 Speaker 1: exhausted that I just put the covers over my head 784 00:39:20,200 --> 00:39:22,279 Speaker 1: and I was like whatever, I'm too tired to care 785 00:39:22,280 --> 00:39:24,600 Speaker 1: about it. And it was like two in the morning 786 00:39:24,640 --> 00:39:26,839 Speaker 1: or something in your hotel. In my hotel, that's probably 787 00:39:26,880 --> 00:39:30,040 Speaker 1: because like all the TV's are connected, and I would say, 788 00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:32,080 Speaker 1: maybe like the room above you might have changed. There 789 00:39:32,200 --> 00:39:35,360 Speaker 1: was no room above me. The roof was above me. Okay, 790 00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:40,800 Speaker 1: I have two story. It was two story, so anyways, 791 00:39:40,920 --> 00:39:43,680 Speaker 1: universal romote maybe two. So then the next day I'm 792 00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:47,560 Speaker 1: talking to audio and the cameraman and they're telling me 793 00:39:47,640 --> 00:39:51,920 Speaker 1: all these stories about um past seasons of having haunted 794 00:39:51,960 --> 00:39:55,120 Speaker 1: hotels and seeing things and weird things that have happened, 795 00:39:55,320 --> 00:39:57,440 Speaker 1: and we're doing it in the room and I was like, yeah, 796 00:39:57,480 --> 00:39:59,120 Speaker 1: that was like two nights ago. And then they all left. 797 00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:02,600 Speaker 1: And then that next next night, the same time of night, 798 00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:07,520 Speaker 1: the TV turn on again by itself. I grabbed everything 799 00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:12,839 Speaker 1: that I could across the hall that was planning, bing, 800 00:40:14,160 --> 00:40:17,080 Speaker 1: ran across the hall to a producer's room, banged on 801 00:40:17,120 --> 00:40:19,000 Speaker 1: the door and I was like, let me sleep in here. 802 00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,520 Speaker 1: I'm not doing it again. I was, I had a 803 00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:24,359 Speaker 1: haunted room, but go ahead, and it's so scary. Okay, 804 00:40:24,360 --> 00:40:25,880 Speaker 1: Well we seed it at a haunted house in Denver. 805 00:40:26,040 --> 00:40:31,239 Speaker 1: I wasn't there, okay, somewhere on a plane. So we 806 00:40:31,320 --> 00:40:35,360 Speaker 1: see hoell in Denver that was haunted and um, Kirpa 807 00:40:35,400 --> 00:40:37,359 Speaker 1: and I were staying in this room. It was like 808 00:40:37,400 --> 00:40:40,440 Speaker 1: it's very old. It's like an old library and um, 809 00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:43,480 Speaker 1: I just remember it was at night and I'm like 810 00:40:43,520 --> 00:40:46,719 Speaker 1: a light sleeper kind of and I heard this noise 811 00:40:46,760 --> 00:40:48,439 Speaker 1: and it was like like you know, like a nail 812 00:40:48,480 --> 00:40:53,000 Speaker 1: scratching like on like a linails. Like okay, I heard that, 813 00:40:53,080 --> 00:40:58,000 Speaker 1: and I was like okay, and like I like close 814 00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:00,440 Speaker 1: my eyes again and I heard again, like tenute later, 815 00:41:00,680 --> 00:41:02,560 Speaker 1: and I was like as soon as I heard that, 816 00:41:02,560 --> 00:41:05,040 Speaker 1: I was like Kurpa and Kurpa sleeping and I hit her. 817 00:41:05,040 --> 00:41:08,000 Speaker 1: I'm like Kurpa and she was like yeah, I'm like Kurpa, 818 00:41:08,040 --> 00:41:10,120 Speaker 1: did you hear that? She's like no, what's wrong? And 819 00:41:10,239 --> 00:41:13,000 Speaker 1: like Kurpa and then she turns over. She's like Tasia 820 00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:15,360 Speaker 1: I'm like what. I'm like, why are you saying my 821 00:41:15,480 --> 00:41:17,600 Speaker 1: name like that? She turned the light. I'm like Tasha. 822 00:41:18,200 --> 00:41:19,719 Speaker 1: She's like, Tashia, turn on the light. And I'm like, 823 00:41:19,760 --> 00:41:21,840 Speaker 1: Kurpa stopped playing with me right now. I turn on 824 00:41:21,920 --> 00:41:24,200 Speaker 1: the light. And the curtain was like it looked like 825 00:41:24,200 --> 00:41:28,440 Speaker 1: a body was behind the curtain, okay, and we're staring 826 00:41:28,520 --> 00:41:30,200 Speaker 1: at it. We're straight up staring at it. There's like 827 00:41:30,239 --> 00:41:32,640 Speaker 1: a hump in the curtain and we're like and then 828 00:41:32,680 --> 00:41:34,400 Speaker 1: we started like hitting each other, like what do we do? 829 00:41:34,440 --> 00:41:36,239 Speaker 1: What do we do? And I'm like, no, it has 830 00:41:36,400 --> 00:41:38,560 Speaker 1: like the air conditioning event, like it has to be something. 831 00:41:38,920 --> 00:41:41,040 Speaker 1: So then I don't know what I did. But I 832 00:41:41,080 --> 00:41:44,399 Speaker 1: literally took my comforter and I lifted it up because 833 00:41:44,400 --> 00:41:45,880 Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm gonna go, like I don't know what 834 00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:47,440 Speaker 1: I thought I was gonna do. I lived at a 835 00:41:47,480 --> 00:41:51,840 Speaker 1: comforter and it literally what it flackened out and I 836 00:41:51,960 --> 00:41:56,800 Speaker 1: was like, oh, hero, no, and you guys, it was 837 00:41:56,800 --> 00:41:58,880 Speaker 1: three o'clock in the morning. It was three o'clock in 838 00:41:58,880 --> 00:42:02,640 Speaker 1: the morning, and so we chill iroom. We literally were 839 00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:04,040 Speaker 1: like screaming like what do we do? What do we do? 840 00:42:04,080 --> 00:42:06,759 Speaker 1: What do we do, and then um I prayed and 841 00:42:06,760 --> 00:42:08,200 Speaker 1: I was like, okay, let's go back into the room. 842 00:42:08,640 --> 00:42:10,600 Speaker 1: We went back in the room, and then UM, in 843 00:42:10,640 --> 00:42:12,320 Speaker 1: the morning we looked and there was an air conditioning 844 00:42:12,400 --> 00:42:14,719 Speaker 1: vent like right in the spot right and I was like, 845 00:42:14,960 --> 00:42:17,239 Speaker 1: see it was the air conditioning. It was nothing. So 846 00:42:17,280 --> 00:42:21,000 Speaker 1: then I went to like the hostess lady. I was like, so, like, um, 847 00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:23,799 Speaker 1: is like the air conditioning on like at night or 848 00:42:23,840 --> 00:42:25,239 Speaker 1: like the heater, I mean, because it was like cold. 849 00:42:25,440 --> 00:42:26,840 Speaker 1: She's like, oh no, we haven't turned it on for 850 00:42:26,840 --> 00:42:28,480 Speaker 1: the winter yet. I'm like, so, like, there's like no 851 00:42:28,520 --> 00:42:30,880 Speaker 1: air coming on that thing. She's like no. I'm like, okay, cool. 852 00:42:31,000 --> 00:42:35,239 Speaker 1: We had a spirit no airs coming out of I 853 00:42:35,280 --> 00:42:38,680 Speaker 1: would die. It was you, guys, I'm not kidding you. 854 00:42:38,719 --> 00:42:40,640 Speaker 1: The second I lifted my comforter as if I was 855 00:42:40,640 --> 00:42:42,640 Speaker 1: getting out of the bed, it flattened out and it 856 00:42:42,719 --> 00:42:46,959 Speaker 1: was gone. I believe you. I remembered when during nixt 857 00:42:47,000 --> 00:42:52,760 Speaker 1: season we were in Wisconsin and there Sarah and Raven 858 00:42:52,800 --> 00:42:56,440 Speaker 1: were in a room and they said they both saw 859 00:42:56,640 --> 00:43:00,520 Speaker 1: the same lighting in the room and I was across 860 00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:02,200 Speaker 1: I was across the hall from them, and I was like, 861 00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,560 Speaker 1: but but, like, how close was she to my room? 862 00:43:06,440 --> 00:43:09,480 Speaker 1: But they said they described her to it. It was 863 00:43:09,560 --> 00:43:12,000 Speaker 1: it was something weird like that, like a lady or whatever. 864 00:43:12,080 --> 00:43:14,160 Speaker 1: And when they told us, we were all in their 865 00:43:14,239 --> 00:43:16,960 Speaker 1: room having snacks for some reason, and I was like, uh, 866 00:43:17,080 --> 00:43:21,120 Speaker 1: because I do this thing can't attach to me. Do 867 00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:23,000 Speaker 1: you have a Joe, do you have a spirit story 868 00:43:23,000 --> 00:43:25,319 Speaker 1: to tell? Joe's the biggest skeptic. He doesn't believe any 869 00:43:25,360 --> 00:43:29,040 Speaker 1: of this right now. No, I don't. You don't believe 870 00:43:29,080 --> 00:43:32,680 Speaker 1: my spirit story. I believe that's what you. I believe 871 00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:36,640 Speaker 1: you believe it. I do believe that, like I believe 872 00:43:36,680 --> 00:43:40,080 Speaker 1: you saw like like I just think. You know, I 873 00:43:40,120 --> 00:43:42,480 Speaker 1: just don't believe in ghosts. I just don't, do you 874 00:43:42,560 --> 00:43:47,759 Speaker 1: kindle um, I used to have, uh, sleep paralysis. I 875 00:43:47,800 --> 00:43:49,799 Speaker 1: still kind of have it. I get that too in 876 00:43:49,880 --> 00:43:52,200 Speaker 1: that sense. I don't know if it's either a ghost 877 00:43:52,280 --> 00:43:56,279 Speaker 1: or maybe my brain. I think your reality can be 878 00:43:56,320 --> 00:43:59,160 Speaker 1: greatly skewed by a number of factors, Like our brains 879 00:43:59,400 --> 00:44:02,319 Speaker 1: are our brains constructed reality we see and you can 880 00:44:02,320 --> 00:44:04,239 Speaker 1: see by some people if they're color blind, or some 881 00:44:04,280 --> 00:44:08,200 Speaker 1: people who have different like views of reality, Like your 882 00:44:08,239 --> 00:44:12,520 Speaker 1: mind is in control of that change. I mean I 883 00:44:12,560 --> 00:44:14,680 Speaker 1: always feel like there has to be some scientific explanation 884 00:44:14,760 --> 00:44:17,080 Speaker 1: to like why you see certain things, why I experience 885 00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:20,640 Speaker 1: certain things like sleep. Last paralysis for me was something 886 00:44:20,880 --> 00:44:23,640 Speaker 1: in my mind that you know, got me stuck in 887 00:44:23,680 --> 00:44:25,880 Speaker 1: the middle of rem sleep. Or it was anxiety, or 888 00:44:25,920 --> 00:44:29,320 Speaker 1: it was something like that. So I mean because if I, 889 00:44:29,320 --> 00:44:31,719 Speaker 1: if I didn't allow myself to see a scientific explanation, 890 00:44:31,760 --> 00:44:34,000 Speaker 1: I would probably like feel like I was possessed by 891 00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:36,400 Speaker 1: a demon, which I don't want at that point on 892 00:44:36,440 --> 00:44:39,680 Speaker 1: the show, even if it is a spirit, you are 893 00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:42,279 Speaker 1: so sleep deprived by that point that it could be 894 00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:45,640 Speaker 1: a number of things, and your mind will go anywhere. No, 895 00:44:45,960 --> 00:44:51,840 Speaker 1: it was out there with you because that TV. I 896 00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:54,600 Speaker 1: did not imagine that that TV was on, and it 897 00:44:54,640 --> 00:44:57,719 Speaker 1: turned on twice by itself now. And what I also 898 00:44:57,760 --> 00:44:59,680 Speaker 1: didn't tell you was the first night that it changed 899 00:44:59,719 --> 00:45:03,560 Speaker 1: on was changing channels. Oh okay, And I did not 900 00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:07,120 Speaker 1: like it, Like yeah, like it's not that I could hear. 901 00:45:07,320 --> 00:45:10,120 Speaker 1: I could tell that the programs were different, like I 902 00:45:10,160 --> 00:45:13,040 Speaker 1: could hear it changing, but I was so exhausted I 903 00:45:13,080 --> 00:45:15,160 Speaker 1: just thought, well, if it's gonna come get me, it's 904 00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:17,759 Speaker 1: gonna come get me. Because I'm so tired at this 905 00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:20,200 Speaker 1: point to deal with it. But this is this is 906 00:45:20,239 --> 00:45:25,640 Speaker 1: a perfect segue into mental health because because this show 907 00:45:25,840 --> 00:45:29,880 Speaker 1: can drive you crazy and it and I still stand 908 00:45:29,880 --> 00:45:33,520 Speaker 1: by Tasha. I believe you saw a spirit. I believe 909 00:45:33,560 --> 00:45:36,080 Speaker 1: there was one in my room, but that is not 910 00:45:36,600 --> 00:45:39,799 Speaker 1: a guitar or sanity in any kind of way. But 911 00:45:40,040 --> 00:45:42,120 Speaker 1: what is the best way that you guys, because we 912 00:45:42,120 --> 00:45:44,640 Speaker 1: talk about we talk about the kennel. You said the anxiety, 913 00:45:44,760 --> 00:45:47,920 Speaker 1: and um, Katie, you said sleep deprived and you're you know, 914 00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:50,279 Speaker 1: you're exhausted and you're going through so many emotions in 915 00:45:50,320 --> 00:45:53,000 Speaker 1: a way that you haven't before, and it's also accelerated. 916 00:45:53,040 --> 00:45:55,399 Speaker 1: So each of you and anybody can take this first. 917 00:45:55,480 --> 00:45:58,480 Speaker 1: What's the best way to deal with your mental health? 918 00:45:58,520 --> 00:46:00,319 Speaker 1: But what were some ways that you were able to 919 00:46:00,320 --> 00:46:05,040 Speaker 1: cope with, you know, being in this world. I journaled 920 00:46:05,080 --> 00:46:08,440 Speaker 1: a lot on my season, and I think because it 921 00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:11,040 Speaker 1: was very hard to meditate because if you ever were 922 00:46:11,080 --> 00:46:14,040 Speaker 1: caught just sitting doing nothing, I felt that people needed 923 00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:16,160 Speaker 1: you for some reason or needed to go do a 924 00:46:16,200 --> 00:46:17,719 Speaker 1: girl chat or whatever it was. So I was like, 925 00:46:17,760 --> 00:46:20,800 Speaker 1: I can't be caught doing nothing, even if it's meditating. 926 00:46:20,840 --> 00:46:23,000 Speaker 1: They won't see it as that, so I would journal, 927 00:46:23,040 --> 00:46:26,880 Speaker 1: and that journaling would kind of you know, it was 928 00:46:26,920 --> 00:46:28,680 Speaker 1: a puzzle to my mind and how my mind was 929 00:46:28,719 --> 00:46:30,799 Speaker 1: working or why I was thinking certain ways. So that 930 00:46:30,880 --> 00:46:33,959 Speaker 1: helped me the most, I would say, Yeah, it helped 931 00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:36,600 Speaker 1: me grow while I was there, because there were things 932 00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:39,800 Speaker 1: I felt I couldn't talk to the girls about and 933 00:46:40,400 --> 00:46:43,160 Speaker 1: that were only for me, and journaling was like my 934 00:46:43,320 --> 00:46:46,120 Speaker 1: number one go too. There's when you're on the show, 935 00:46:46,160 --> 00:46:48,600 Speaker 1: I feel like feeling like, of course, these are your 936 00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:50,600 Speaker 1: friends and you trust people to a certain extent, but 937 00:46:50,640 --> 00:46:53,960 Speaker 1: in reality you've only known them for how long, you know, 938 00:46:54,040 --> 00:46:55,800 Speaker 1: So I felt like there's a lot of things I 939 00:46:55,840 --> 00:46:58,160 Speaker 1: did keep to myself, and in Paradise I would write 940 00:46:58,239 --> 00:47:01,160 Speaker 1: a journal. But I think after the show, um, when 941 00:47:01,160 --> 00:47:03,520 Speaker 1: it wasn't being filmed and you weren't as vulnerable in 942 00:47:03,520 --> 00:47:07,120 Speaker 1: that sense, Um, I did find security with other people 943 00:47:07,120 --> 00:47:09,359 Speaker 1: who went through the same experience, which is why I 944 00:47:09,360 --> 00:47:11,920 Speaker 1: feel like after the show you do more. So I 945 00:47:11,960 --> 00:47:14,560 Speaker 1: feel like you connect with people that were on your season, 946 00:47:15,200 --> 00:47:17,960 Speaker 1: so um, in the group chats, or you can meet 947 00:47:18,000 --> 00:47:19,680 Speaker 1: up with people who live in like near you, you 948 00:47:19,719 --> 00:47:24,279 Speaker 1: can just talk about what happened in paradise for me, 949 00:47:24,320 --> 00:47:26,719 Speaker 1: I felt like, I'm like, this is like a vacation, 950 00:47:27,520 --> 00:47:29,719 Speaker 1: so like I mean, I really was, because you know, 951 00:47:29,760 --> 00:47:33,240 Speaker 1: I like I worked, you know, in the real world, 952 00:47:33,239 --> 00:47:34,880 Speaker 1: I worked a lot of hours. And then when I 953 00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:37,239 Speaker 1: was there, I'm like, oh this is they take my 954 00:47:37,280 --> 00:47:39,400 Speaker 1: cell phone. I deal with no bullshit and I'm just 955 00:47:39,480 --> 00:47:45,120 Speaker 1: chilling on the beach. Everything's free, you know, I'm like, 956 00:47:45,160 --> 00:47:47,440 Speaker 1: this is this is great. But you know, if I 957 00:47:47,480 --> 00:47:50,839 Speaker 1: did like panic a little bit, I pace, I pace 958 00:47:50,920 --> 00:47:53,560 Speaker 1: a lot. So in Paradise, I was always pacing, like 959 00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:56,279 Speaker 1: always pascing because I was always thinking, like how could 960 00:47:56,280 --> 00:47:59,840 Speaker 1: I become the next Bachelor? How could I know? I 961 00:48:00,239 --> 00:48:02,960 Speaker 1: was always pacing though, because that just helps me, you know, 962 00:48:03,160 --> 00:48:06,160 Speaker 1: my mind. Also, Joe plays with things like in his 963 00:48:06,160 --> 00:48:08,439 Speaker 1: hands always is kind of messing with something. So during 964 00:48:08,480 --> 00:48:10,520 Speaker 1: the entirety of this podcast, Joe has been playing with 965 00:48:10,560 --> 00:48:13,839 Speaker 1: a little miniature pumpkin. I did, I did. I thought 966 00:48:13,840 --> 00:48:15,480 Speaker 1: you were like squeezing. I thought it was I thought 967 00:48:15,480 --> 00:48:17,759 Speaker 1: it was nervous energy or something like that. Well kind 968 00:48:17,760 --> 00:48:20,560 Speaker 1: of it kind of is. It's just like it calms me. 969 00:48:20,640 --> 00:48:22,200 Speaker 1: I don't know, it just works for me to fidget 970 00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:25,520 Speaker 1: with things. Yeah, I feel like working out would be 971 00:48:25,560 --> 00:48:30,279 Speaker 1: a good stress relief. But the damn mansion still to 972 00:48:30,320 --> 00:48:32,920 Speaker 1: this day has no gem am I right, yeah, right, terrible. 973 00:48:33,000 --> 00:48:35,239 Speaker 1: So people are just like making up exercises and you 974 00:48:35,280 --> 00:48:38,799 Speaker 1: weren't allowed to run dangerous in that area around the 975 00:48:38,960 --> 00:48:43,080 Speaker 1: mansion to run. Yeah. Yeah, I hate the Bachelor Mansion. 976 00:48:43,239 --> 00:48:45,920 Speaker 1: Like I don't feel any kind of way when I 977 00:48:46,000 --> 00:48:47,520 Speaker 1: go back and I see it, Like, I don't get 978 00:48:47,560 --> 00:48:50,359 Speaker 1: any kind of feeling. It is not, no no sense 979 00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:54,040 Speaker 1: of nostal I'm like, those beds are nasty and every 980 00:48:54,120 --> 00:48:57,920 Speaker 1: night I wuldn't sleep there. I remember remember, like and 981 00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:00,640 Speaker 1: I was having an interview actually, and I remember my 982 00:49:00,680 --> 00:49:03,000 Speaker 1: eyes were swollen the day we were about to leave. 983 00:49:03,040 --> 00:49:06,600 Speaker 1: My eyes were swollen, like I was delirious, and she's like, well, 984 00:49:06,680 --> 00:49:09,280 Speaker 1: I was like, I just think I'm allergic to this mansion. 985 00:49:09,440 --> 00:49:11,960 Speaker 1: I mean, I hated it. There's no chef, which I 986 00:49:12,040 --> 00:49:15,040 Speaker 1: still am upset about. There's no place to work out. 987 00:49:15,320 --> 00:49:17,720 Speaker 1: We actually could maybe they stopped it after our season, 988 00:49:17,800 --> 00:49:21,840 Speaker 1: but we could go down and walk and run the 989 00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:27,040 Speaker 1: workout classes like I led some. Yeah, so I guess 990 00:49:27,080 --> 00:49:29,200 Speaker 1: it's the secret of the show. We would And then 991 00:49:29,239 --> 00:49:33,680 Speaker 1: they called on to this. We'd wake up before anyone else, Me, Whitney, 992 00:49:33,719 --> 00:49:36,719 Speaker 1: and Astroop would wake up like super early in the 993 00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:39,360 Speaker 1: morning before they mic. You. We'd get a cup of coffee, 994 00:49:39,480 --> 00:49:42,400 Speaker 1: we go to the gazebo and we would just talk, 995 00:49:42,520 --> 00:49:45,640 Speaker 1: like say all the things that we couldn't say, um, 996 00:49:46,600 --> 00:49:48,800 Speaker 1: like on camera or when we were mike. And then 997 00:49:48,960 --> 00:49:51,040 Speaker 1: they eventually caught onto that and then they made us 998 00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:53,880 Speaker 1: they pulled us away. Also, I would you know how 999 00:49:53,880 --> 00:49:55,840 Speaker 1: there's the room with the balcony and it consted the 1000 00:49:55,920 --> 00:49:59,480 Speaker 1: other room. Yeah, we had this crazy hall monitor and 1001 00:49:59,560 --> 00:50:02,080 Speaker 1: so when the girls would come back from their day. 1002 00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:03,759 Speaker 1: I think it was her first season, so she was 1003 00:50:03,760 --> 00:50:05,839 Speaker 1: like really trying to impress. So when the girls would 1004 00:50:05,840 --> 00:50:07,480 Speaker 1: come back, we wanted to know what happened, but they 1005 00:50:07,480 --> 00:50:10,000 Speaker 1: would tell us to go to sleep. So I would 1006 00:50:10,320 --> 00:50:15,520 Speaker 1: bear crawl across the balcony, pull back the curtains, and 1007 00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:17,759 Speaker 1: I would be like, ashtrif what happened on the day 1008 00:50:18,600 --> 00:50:20,440 Speaker 1: because at one time, I don't know if you saw this. 1009 00:50:20,520 --> 00:50:22,960 Speaker 1: During next season, they sent a girl home mid day, Liz. 1010 00:50:23,280 --> 00:50:25,000 Speaker 1: So Liz was in my room, so I was like, 1011 00:50:25,040 --> 00:50:28,080 Speaker 1: where's Liz, Why isn't she here? So we're like peeking, 1012 00:50:28,120 --> 00:50:31,359 Speaker 1: and she was like, where's Rachel. And what I had 1013 00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:33,040 Speaker 1: done is like I wear a scarf at night, and 1014 00:50:33,040 --> 00:50:35,760 Speaker 1: I'd put the scarf over the pillow and I wouldn't 1015 00:50:36,000 --> 00:50:39,200 Speaker 1: like bodies, and I had put the thing on. This 1016 00:50:39,880 --> 00:50:43,040 Speaker 1: phenomenal a lot of work, I know, but I was 1017 00:50:43,080 --> 00:50:45,400 Speaker 1: like destined to know all the information. And then she 1018 00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:46,959 Speaker 1: caught me and she's like, what are you doing because 1019 00:50:46,960 --> 00:50:48,800 Speaker 1: we put our suitcases on the balcony. I don't know 1020 00:50:48,800 --> 00:50:50,440 Speaker 1: if you guys did that too, Yeah, and I was like, 1021 00:50:50,480 --> 00:50:56,520 Speaker 1: I'm looking for socks. Just random thing. Anyways, all that 1022 00:50:56,600 --> 00:50:58,600 Speaker 1: to say, I didn't know if you guys share my sentiment. 1023 00:50:58,680 --> 00:51:02,000 Speaker 1: It's I think the Bachelor may Mansion is a beautiful home. Hell, 1024 00:51:02,000 --> 00:51:04,279 Speaker 1: it's just not a home for twenty five people. How 1025 00:51:04,280 --> 00:51:06,440 Speaker 1: long were you guys there because we left early? Yeah, 1026 00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:11,000 Speaker 1: in the week three. Well some people were like week 1027 00:51:11,560 --> 00:51:14,200 Speaker 1: I thought it was I think your season on season 1028 00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:17,160 Speaker 1: it was that you got to oversee Ok, yeah, that 1029 00:51:17,239 --> 00:51:19,160 Speaker 1: normally doesn't happen that fast. You're really only in the 1030 00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:22,279 Speaker 1: mansion for like two weeks. Yeah, that's enough. It's enough 1031 00:51:22,320 --> 00:51:29,879 Speaker 1: to start crazy. I'd like to check it out. Joe, 1032 00:51:29,880 --> 00:51:35,920 Speaker 1: you didn't get the experienced part of me that kind 1033 00:51:35,920 --> 00:51:37,520 Speaker 1: of wishes I wasn't in love, because I'd be like, 1034 00:51:37,600 --> 00:51:40,280 Speaker 1: I'd love to get back there. Would you say casually, 1035 00:51:40,360 --> 00:51:43,880 Speaker 1: go like I should invite me. I mean we should 1036 00:51:43,920 --> 00:51:46,120 Speaker 1: do a little staycasions there. That would be I'm sure 1037 00:51:46,200 --> 00:51:48,000 Speaker 1: you don't know what this is a segment you guys 1038 00:51:48,040 --> 00:51:50,520 Speaker 1: should truly do this. You should do something maybe at 1039 00:51:50,560 --> 00:51:53,640 Speaker 1: the beginning of Peter's season before he comes in, just 1040 00:51:53,680 --> 00:51:57,160 Speaker 1: a segment of Joe experiencing the mansion for the first 1041 00:51:57,200 --> 00:52:05,760 Speaker 1: time upstairs, but jam him. Instead of Chris Harrison greeting 1042 00:52:05,800 --> 00:52:08,520 Speaker 1: the guy like Peter, you go greet him at first 1043 00:52:08,520 --> 00:52:10,239 Speaker 1: and then then and then like that's it, and then 1044 00:52:10,320 --> 00:52:12,200 Speaker 1: I just want I just want to expect put up 1045 00:52:12,200 --> 00:52:14,960 Speaker 1: in a lima. Well, I guess that's already happened, but 1046 00:52:15,440 --> 00:52:20,719 Speaker 1: alread happened. I changed group date, guys, I never had 1047 00:52:20,760 --> 00:52:22,600 Speaker 1: a group date. I never had a group date. Or 1048 00:52:22,680 --> 00:52:25,279 Speaker 1: maybe you lead like a tour for the first nighter 1049 00:52:27,600 --> 00:52:29,919 Speaker 1: you a lot. What is one thing no one told 1050 00:52:29,960 --> 00:52:31,920 Speaker 1: you about going on the show that you wish you 1051 00:52:32,000 --> 00:52:35,399 Speaker 1: have known. Oh, that's a good question. That's a great question, 1052 00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,319 Speaker 1: because I'm thinking, like, what is it. I will tell 1053 00:52:37,360 --> 00:52:41,279 Speaker 1: you that as the lead, I wish someone would have 1054 00:52:41,280 --> 00:52:43,680 Speaker 1: told me how hard it was going to be sending 1055 00:52:43,680 --> 00:52:46,920 Speaker 1: people home when I came on before, I was like, 1056 00:52:47,360 --> 00:52:49,440 Speaker 1: I don't know these people. It's gonna be nothing to 1057 00:52:49,480 --> 00:52:52,720 Speaker 1: be like I'm saving you, you know, like, just go home, 1058 00:52:52,840 --> 00:52:54,160 Speaker 1: you'll be fine. You get to go back to your 1059 00:52:54,160 --> 00:52:57,439 Speaker 1: normal life, It'll be fine. And I'm telling you from 1060 00:52:57,440 --> 00:53:00,360 Speaker 1: the first night, it is so hard for people to 1061 00:53:00,360 --> 00:53:03,200 Speaker 1: express to you their feelings and you're pushing them to 1062 00:53:03,239 --> 00:53:05,040 Speaker 1: open up and then you got to send them home. 1063 00:53:05,360 --> 00:53:08,080 Speaker 1: It is. It is truly something that I underestimated, and 1064 00:53:08,080 --> 00:53:09,680 Speaker 1: I wish somebody would have told me how hard that 1065 00:53:09,760 --> 00:53:12,719 Speaker 1: was going to be before. Yeah, I think I wish 1066 00:53:12,760 --> 00:53:14,560 Speaker 1: somebody would have home to relax more, because I was 1067 00:53:14,600 --> 00:53:16,560 Speaker 1: like so serious. I think the first question I asked 1068 00:53:16,560 --> 00:53:19,239 Speaker 1: you in the house was what was your biggest fear? Yeah? Yeah, 1069 00:53:24,000 --> 00:53:27,880 Speaker 1: She's like, it's like Rachel coming in. Yeah. I was like, 1070 00:53:27,920 --> 00:53:30,879 Speaker 1: you're too serious, mister. I was the same way. I 1071 00:53:30,960 --> 00:53:32,960 Speaker 1: was very like, oh, this is supposed to be accelerated. 1072 00:53:33,040 --> 00:53:36,000 Speaker 1: Let me ask accelerated questions d D. And then I'm like, man, 1073 00:53:36,080 --> 00:53:38,000 Speaker 1: I think I'm scaring them away. I think I'm scaring 1074 00:53:38,080 --> 00:53:40,040 Speaker 1: them away. You got to find a balance, yeah, because 1075 00:53:40,080 --> 00:53:43,360 Speaker 1: you get you're nervous. I would say maybe not to 1076 00:53:43,440 --> 00:53:45,960 Speaker 1: keep your guard up as much because it is an 1077 00:53:45,960 --> 00:53:49,279 Speaker 1: expedited experience. You kind of have to force yourself to 1078 00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:51,719 Speaker 1: be ready for things way earlier, at least for me 1079 00:53:51,920 --> 00:53:54,920 Speaker 1: than I usually would be. So maybe just to how 1080 00:53:54,920 --> 00:53:56,920 Speaker 1: do you how do you drop your guard? I mean, 1081 00:53:56,960 --> 00:53:59,799 Speaker 1: just throw yourself at the experience, you know, I mean, 1082 00:53:59,840 --> 00:54:02,520 Speaker 1: just you know, Yeah, I mean why not? I think 1083 00:54:02,560 --> 00:54:04,640 Speaker 1: I think there's strength and vulnerability. I mean then I 1084 00:54:04,680 --> 00:54:07,520 Speaker 1: say this after going through everything. Um, I wish that 1085 00:54:07,600 --> 00:54:10,800 Speaker 1: I saw the strength in my vulnerability earlier on because 1086 00:54:10,800 --> 00:54:13,319 Speaker 1: on the Bachelor I felt like I was definitely like 1087 00:54:13,440 --> 00:54:16,160 Speaker 1: holding everything at an arms distance. So by the time 1088 00:54:16,320 --> 00:54:19,120 Speaker 1: Paradise came around, I was a lot more receptive towards that. 1089 00:54:19,520 --> 00:54:21,880 Speaker 1: But um, but yeah, maybe have a drink first. And 1090 00:54:23,000 --> 00:54:25,160 Speaker 1: I did not drink for like the first couple of weeks. 1091 00:54:25,239 --> 00:54:27,120 Speaker 1: I was like, no alcohol, I will not have an 1092 00:54:27,120 --> 00:54:31,440 Speaker 1: impaired judgment. Smart. I wish I would have taken like 1093 00:54:32,480 --> 00:54:36,120 Speaker 1: a friend that had a camera and just roll and 1094 00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:40,319 Speaker 1: just let me talk on camera. Yeah, just so because 1095 00:54:40,880 --> 00:54:43,000 Speaker 1: because I don't. I really didn't. I've never done that. 1096 00:54:43,120 --> 00:54:45,360 Speaker 1: So like when I was so when I saw the 1097 00:54:45,400 --> 00:54:47,960 Speaker 1: cameras and they were like, we're you know you are, 1098 00:54:48,400 --> 00:54:52,040 Speaker 1: and I was like, what at least because they're all 1099 00:54:52,120 --> 00:54:53,839 Speaker 1: judging me right now, I'm being judged. You guys are 1100 00:54:53,880 --> 00:54:56,319 Speaker 1: judging me. And I'm thinking that in my head because 1101 00:54:56,360 --> 00:54:58,200 Speaker 1: I wasn't used to it. And then I started hearing 1102 00:54:58,239 --> 00:55:01,480 Speaker 1: myself talk and I'm like, this is horrible. You know, 1103 00:55:01,480 --> 00:55:08,760 Speaker 1: I destroyed myself before I could even be myself judging years. Yeah, 1104 00:55:08,800 --> 00:55:11,320 Speaker 1: you would have really benefited by being in a costume. 1105 00:55:11,960 --> 00:55:15,160 Speaker 1: And I'm dead serious because Joe would never but well, 1106 00:55:15,200 --> 00:55:18,200 Speaker 1: they asked me, they asked, I think say that. I 1107 00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:20,160 Speaker 1: think you would have taken away some of your nerves, 1108 00:55:20,280 --> 00:55:22,719 Speaker 1: like they can't see you, but you can see them, 1109 00:55:22,800 --> 00:55:25,000 Speaker 1: and then you know, once you would have taken it off, 1110 00:55:25,200 --> 00:55:27,239 Speaker 1: then he've been like okay, like he's not a dud, 1111 00:55:27,719 --> 00:55:29,040 Speaker 1: you know when you come, because that's what you're always 1112 00:55:29,040 --> 00:55:30,879 Speaker 1: afraid of when they when they're wearing them. That would 1113 00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:32,520 Speaker 1: have been. So if you're a Joe and you go 1114 00:55:32,560 --> 00:55:34,319 Speaker 1: on the season, well they asked me, They're like, do 1115 00:55:34,320 --> 00:55:36,160 Speaker 1: you want to do anything? And I'm like, no, I'm good, 1116 00:55:36,200 --> 00:55:38,480 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be myself. And I remember one of the 1117 00:55:38,520 --> 00:55:43,440 Speaker 1: producers is like, just have something, you know, just have 1118 00:55:43,680 --> 00:55:46,480 Speaker 1: something to say anything, but you need something to fall 1119 00:55:46,520 --> 00:55:50,080 Speaker 1: back on. And I had nothing and out there nothing 1120 00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:55,399 Speaker 1: and that's when I came home. What about you? Right 1121 00:55:56,160 --> 00:55:59,319 Speaker 1: for me? I don't know. I think it's just not 1122 00:55:59,440 --> 00:56:04,040 Speaker 1: be so much of a rule follower. Probably yeah, you 1123 00:56:04,120 --> 00:56:07,239 Speaker 1: had a game plan and it worked, it did, but yeah, 1124 00:56:07,280 --> 00:56:09,279 Speaker 1: I just I guess I just listened to producers every 1125 00:56:09,320 --> 00:56:10,960 Speaker 1: single time, and I was like, you know, maybe I 1126 00:56:10,960 --> 00:56:13,640 Speaker 1: should just do it, like wing it and do it. 1127 00:56:13,680 --> 00:56:17,399 Speaker 1: And but that's like he's such a rule follower, Like 1128 00:56:17,400 --> 00:56:19,359 Speaker 1: he's always like, well it says this. I'm like, oh, 1129 00:56:19,400 --> 00:56:22,680 Speaker 1: who cares about that. But it's such a good balance. 1130 00:56:23,320 --> 00:56:25,120 Speaker 1: I love that you're a rule follower. It's a good 1131 00:56:25,160 --> 00:56:27,399 Speaker 1: it's really a good balance. Tatia, what about you? I 1132 00:56:27,520 --> 00:56:29,640 Speaker 1: was really nervous, so I think I was a little 1133 00:56:29,680 --> 00:56:33,200 Speaker 1: more reserved. I wish I would have like just let me, yeah, 1134 00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:35,719 Speaker 1: let lease let my personality show a little bit earlier 1135 00:56:35,760 --> 00:56:37,840 Speaker 1: on as opposed to like, I mean, you saw me 1136 00:56:37,880 --> 00:56:40,240 Speaker 1: sit in chocolate, you saw me be like silly towards 1137 00:56:40,280 --> 00:56:42,680 Speaker 1: the end, like that's just Tasia, that's like a Tatia 1138 00:56:42,760 --> 00:56:44,640 Speaker 1: moment for you. But I just wish I would have 1139 00:56:44,719 --> 00:56:46,320 Speaker 1: let loose a little bit because I was so nervous. 1140 00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:47,720 Speaker 1: I didn't even know what I was saying to Colton 1141 00:56:47,719 --> 00:56:50,000 Speaker 1: when I was talking to him. Yeah, you know, I 1142 00:56:50,000 --> 00:56:51,879 Speaker 1: think it's like regret that, Like I wish I would 1143 00:56:51,880 --> 00:56:53,640 Speaker 1: have opened up a little more. And I think the 1144 00:56:53,719 --> 00:56:55,879 Speaker 1: moral of it all is when it comes to things 1145 00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:57,800 Speaker 1: we wish we would have known before going on the show, 1146 00:56:58,120 --> 00:57:00,200 Speaker 1: Like I think that you should get it for of 1147 00:57:00,200 --> 00:57:04,000 Speaker 1: a camera. It's just about being practice talking or seeing 1148 00:57:04,000 --> 00:57:06,000 Speaker 1: a camera follow you and be there. I think that 1149 00:57:06,040 --> 00:57:09,080 Speaker 1: you should just try to let go and be yourself 1150 00:57:09,400 --> 00:57:13,200 Speaker 1: and not try to over anticipate you know what they may, 1151 00:57:13,239 --> 00:57:17,400 Speaker 1: they may do, you know, just be you do because 1152 00:57:17,440 --> 00:57:19,080 Speaker 1: then at the end of the day you can say 1153 00:57:19,120 --> 00:57:20,800 Speaker 1: you can rest assure at least I gave them all 1154 00:57:20,840 --> 00:57:23,840 Speaker 1: and I was myself no matter when you go home, right, 1155 00:57:25,200 --> 00:57:27,600 Speaker 1: unless it's more unless you know the better you might be. Yeah, 1156 00:57:27,760 --> 00:57:30,640 Speaker 1: you might fit. Yeah, you're playing a game based on 1157 00:57:30,640 --> 00:57:32,320 Speaker 1: what you think is going to happen. Too many things 1158 00:57:32,320 --> 00:57:34,960 Speaker 1: in your head and don't judge anyone either yes, yes, 1159 00:57:35,160 --> 00:57:36,680 Speaker 1: you know. It's very easy to be in the house 1160 00:57:36,680 --> 00:57:38,560 Speaker 1: and be like that person looks like an idiot or 1161 00:57:38,600 --> 00:57:41,600 Speaker 1: that person sounds like an idiot, and then you start 1162 00:57:41,600 --> 00:57:44,080 Speaker 1: you judge other people, you judge yourself, you're in your head. 1163 00:57:44,680 --> 00:57:47,600 Speaker 1: It's too much. It's just go out there and chill 1164 00:57:47,680 --> 00:57:50,080 Speaker 1: the best way you can. Thank you, guys so much 1165 00:57:50,120 --> 00:57:53,080 Speaker 1: for listening to this episode. And if you didn't get enough, 1166 00:57:53,240 --> 00:57:56,160 Speaker 1: guess what. Next week we're going to have part two 1167 00:57:56,320 --> 00:57:58,960 Speaker 1: of Bachelor Happy our Friends Giving, so make sure you 1168 00:57:59,000 --> 00:58:00,720 Speaker 1: tune in because you don't want to miss out. In 1169 00:58:00,760 --> 00:58:03,480 Speaker 1: the meantime, you can get all the latest batchternation news 1170 00:58:03,480 --> 00:58:06,400 Speaker 1: on batchlnation dot com right now, and if you have 1171 00:58:06,480 --> 00:58:08,720 Speaker 1: something that you want to tell us, good, bad, whatever, 1172 00:58:08,760 --> 00:58:11,520 Speaker 1: we're open to constructive criticism. You can email us at 1173 00:58:11,520 --> 00:58:15,000 Speaker 1: happy hour at batchlnation dot com or visit batchlnation dot 1174 00:58:15,080 --> 00:58:18,040 Speaker 1: com and click podcast. Thank you so much, guys for listening.