1 00:00:27,800 --> 00:00:31,520 Speaker 1: Take a deep breath in through your nose. 2 00:00:33,640 --> 00:00:34,159 Speaker 2: Holds it. 3 00:00:36,760 --> 00:01:02,080 Speaker 1: Now, release slowly again, deep in, helle hold release, repeating 4 00:01:02,240 --> 00:01:07,800 Speaker 1: internally to yourself as you connect to my voice. 5 00:01:08,040 --> 00:01:23,959 Speaker 3: I am deeply well. I am deeply deep well. I 6 00:01:23,959 --> 00:01:25,039 Speaker 3: am deeply. 7 00:01:26,800 --> 00:01:28,280 Speaker 1: Wow well. 8 00:01:30,480 --> 00:01:35,200 Speaker 2: I'm Debbie Brown and this is the Deeply Well Podcast. 9 00:01:41,480 --> 00:01:44,720 Speaker 2: Welcome to Deeply Well, a soft place to land on 10 00:01:44,760 --> 00:01:48,480 Speaker 2: your journey. A podcast for those that are curious, creative, 11 00:01:49,200 --> 00:01:53,120 Speaker 2: and ready to expand in higher consciousness and self care. 12 00:01:53,720 --> 00:01:58,280 Speaker 2: This is where we heal, this is where we transcend. 13 00:01:59,440 --> 00:02:03,480 Speaker 2: Welcome back to another episode. I'm Debbie Brown. Of course 14 00:02:03,560 --> 00:02:07,720 Speaker 2: this is Deeply Well, and my goodness, this episode is 15 00:02:07,760 --> 00:02:11,720 Speaker 2: a little bit different. I'm actually sitting in my kitchen 16 00:02:12,080 --> 00:02:18,240 Speaker 2: recording this episode, staring out the window as we have 17 00:02:18,400 --> 00:02:25,320 Speaker 2: had one of the toughest times in Los Angeles in 18 00:02:25,400 --> 00:02:29,160 Speaker 2: recent history. This episode, I'm going to be talking about 19 00:02:29,160 --> 00:02:32,800 Speaker 2: the LA fires, and I think my approach to this 20 00:02:32,840 --> 00:02:36,440 Speaker 2: episode is I want to share with you my experience 21 00:02:36,680 --> 00:02:40,000 Speaker 2: and some of the ways that I've been looking at 22 00:02:40,440 --> 00:02:45,320 Speaker 2: this experience. This is not necessarily an episode that is 23 00:02:45,360 --> 00:02:48,400 Speaker 2: going to be super supportive in terms of resources. I 24 00:02:48,440 --> 00:02:53,640 Speaker 2: do feel that there is some incredible information out there 25 00:02:53,720 --> 00:02:56,360 Speaker 2: that is easily accessible. So I don't know if it 26 00:02:56,400 --> 00:03:00,320 Speaker 2: would be the best use of our connection or if 27 00:03:00,360 --> 00:03:03,560 Speaker 2: that's how I can best service to share things that 28 00:03:03,600 --> 00:03:08,399 Speaker 2: I know are really adequately getting around. It's been profound 29 00:03:08,520 --> 00:03:12,040 Speaker 2: and incredible to see the response of aid in the 30 00:03:12,080 --> 00:03:14,960 Speaker 2: world and in the community, and especially on Instagram. It 31 00:03:15,000 --> 00:03:19,720 Speaker 2: feels like there are so many well vetted services and 32 00:03:19,840 --> 00:03:25,360 Speaker 2: charities and ways to connect with different demographics of people 33 00:03:25,400 --> 00:03:29,399 Speaker 2: that have been displaced or harmed or broken by this 34 00:03:30,200 --> 00:03:36,800 Speaker 2: tragedy and by this natural disaster. And so I trust 35 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:40,640 Speaker 2: that those resources are available for those that are looking 36 00:03:40,720 --> 00:03:44,080 Speaker 2: for a way to serve and to help in this moment. 37 00:03:45,240 --> 00:03:48,200 Speaker 2: I found the resources to be incredible for myself. One 38 00:03:48,240 --> 00:03:51,400 Speaker 2: of my focuses that ways I'm looking to really serve 39 00:03:51,480 --> 00:03:54,600 Speaker 2: is to help single moms that have been displaced by 40 00:03:54,640 --> 00:03:57,800 Speaker 2: this buyer, who have lost things or need help in 41 00:03:57,840 --> 00:04:01,000 Speaker 2: this moment. So that is an area actively looking to 42 00:04:01,120 --> 00:04:04,680 Speaker 2: serve children and looking to serve single parents and just 43 00:04:04,760 --> 00:04:09,440 Speaker 2: looking to serve. So I am right along there with everyone, 44 00:04:09,680 --> 00:04:14,680 Speaker 2: and I've been really grateful my dear friend DJ Head, 45 00:04:15,240 --> 00:04:18,200 Speaker 2: who's been a friend of mine for nearly twenty years. 46 00:04:18,200 --> 00:04:21,240 Speaker 2: In the La area. His page at djhad is where 47 00:04:21,240 --> 00:04:25,440 Speaker 2: I've been finding a lot of amazing resources and opportunities 48 00:04:25,480 --> 00:04:28,800 Speaker 2: to get in touch with people and to serve. LAist 49 00:04:28,839 --> 00:04:31,360 Speaker 2: is another site that I've been looking at a lot, 50 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:33,480 Speaker 2: and of course, you know some of the bigger ones. 51 00:04:33,720 --> 00:04:36,360 Speaker 2: I found that KTLA five is giving a lot of 52 00:04:36,640 --> 00:04:39,800 Speaker 2: reporting and coverage that feels really useful to me. So 53 00:04:40,080 --> 00:04:43,880 Speaker 2: I hope that everyone is doing what they can. And 54 00:04:43,960 --> 00:04:47,560 Speaker 2: if you felt called to help us here in this city, 55 00:04:48,120 --> 00:04:51,600 Speaker 2: I hope you're connected to the resource that feels most appropriate, 56 00:04:51,640 --> 00:04:54,720 Speaker 2: most authentic, and most deeply connected to the way that 57 00:04:54,800 --> 00:04:57,400 Speaker 2: you can show up in service and in your gifts. 58 00:04:58,920 --> 00:05:04,640 Speaker 2: This episode, I kind of to talk about what it 59 00:05:04,680 --> 00:05:07,960 Speaker 2: is to feel your way through an experience like this 60 00:05:08,080 --> 00:05:10,560 Speaker 2: and a natural disaster. So I want to share a 61 00:05:10,600 --> 00:05:16,120 Speaker 2: little bit about my love for this beautiful, beautiful city. 62 00:05:17,160 --> 00:05:20,039 Speaker 2: If you've listened to this podcast, and especially if you 63 00:05:20,680 --> 00:05:25,320 Speaker 2: have connected with my work prior to the last decade, 64 00:05:26,480 --> 00:05:29,400 Speaker 2: something that used to always be in my Twitter and 65 00:05:29,520 --> 00:05:32,080 Speaker 2: Instagram bio it used to also be in my regular 66 00:05:32,160 --> 00:05:34,880 Speaker 2: bio is that I always would put down that I'm 67 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:40,600 Speaker 2: a West Coast enthusiast, and it's something that actually Charlemagne 68 00:05:41,400 --> 00:05:43,960 Speaker 2: speaks to a lot about me. It's a big part 69 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:48,000 Speaker 2: about our early relationship is I used to be the 70 00:05:48,200 --> 00:05:53,400 Speaker 2: quintessential La girl, LA sweetheart, running around in Chuck Taylor's 71 00:05:53,880 --> 00:05:59,080 Speaker 2: with the West Coast dub on my hand, at all 72 00:05:59,160 --> 00:06:02,800 Speaker 2: the LAS shows and concerts, and deeply in the community 73 00:06:02,800 --> 00:06:06,320 Speaker 2: of Los Angeles. When I had the opportunity to be 74 00:06:06,440 --> 00:06:09,320 Speaker 2: the director of community service at the radio station I 75 00:06:09,400 --> 00:06:12,200 Speaker 2: used to work at, we would create things within the 76 00:06:12,200 --> 00:06:18,159 Speaker 2: city and within the inner city, summer programs and concert series, 77 00:06:18,240 --> 00:06:22,120 Speaker 2: and I know every inch of this city and it's 78 00:06:22,120 --> 00:06:25,680 Speaker 2: something that I'm very, very very very proud of. I 79 00:06:25,720 --> 00:06:29,919 Speaker 2: have always considered LA to be my soulmate and something 80 00:06:29,960 --> 00:06:32,960 Speaker 2: that I think gets misunderstood about LA, especially if you're 81 00:06:32,960 --> 00:06:36,159 Speaker 2: a transplant or if you just look at LA from 82 00:06:36,200 --> 00:06:39,720 Speaker 2: the outside looking in. You know, the thing about people 83 00:06:40,000 --> 00:06:42,640 Speaker 2: that are born and raised in LA, and I have 84 00:06:42,800 --> 00:06:49,720 Speaker 2: always felt exceptionally proud, honored and lucky to be born 85 00:06:49,760 --> 00:06:55,599 Speaker 2: and raised in LA, is that we don't see Los 86 00:06:55,640 --> 00:06:59,159 Speaker 2: Angeles through the lens that the outside world does. We're 87 00:06:59,160 --> 00:07:03,320 Speaker 2: not looking at LA is opportunity, and Los Angeles has 88 00:07:03,360 --> 00:07:07,080 Speaker 2: roughly around eighteen million people in it, the population is massive. 89 00:07:07,320 --> 00:07:09,720 Speaker 2: We are one of the biggest economies in the world. 90 00:07:09,800 --> 00:07:15,640 Speaker 2: I think we're the fifth biggest economy in the entire globe. 91 00:07:15,760 --> 00:07:19,720 Speaker 2: Our weather is representative of only one percent of the world. 92 00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:24,280 Speaker 2: So certain things about it do make it naturally just 93 00:07:25,960 --> 00:07:29,520 Speaker 2: truthfully a very rare experience, which is not to say 94 00:07:29,520 --> 00:07:32,360 Speaker 2: it's better than anywhere else that anybody is from. I 95 00:07:32,360 --> 00:07:35,800 Speaker 2: think God places us exactly where we are, and every 96 00:07:35,840 --> 00:07:40,040 Speaker 2: place has its power and its beauty and its specialness. 97 00:07:40,120 --> 00:07:43,040 Speaker 2: But to be born and raised in La and to 98 00:07:43,120 --> 00:07:46,560 Speaker 2: be awake to the contrast that is LA is something 99 00:07:46,600 --> 00:07:49,520 Speaker 2: that is so different. And my relationship with this city, 100 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:52,320 Speaker 2: I've always referred to the city itself as my soulmate. 101 00:07:52,520 --> 00:07:55,960 Speaker 2: And even when I had chances to have a successful, 102 00:07:56,000 --> 00:08:00,080 Speaker 2: beautiful life and other great cities like Manhattan, Brookland, and 103 00:08:00,080 --> 00:08:03,040 Speaker 2: I lived in both of those for years. When I 104 00:08:03,080 --> 00:08:06,120 Speaker 2: had the opportunity to live in Houston, Texas. These are 105 00:08:06,160 --> 00:08:10,600 Speaker 2: cities that are rich in culture and beauty and incredible, 106 00:08:11,720 --> 00:08:13,880 Speaker 2: but there was never a time I didn't long to 107 00:08:13,960 --> 00:08:17,360 Speaker 2: be home. And I think for so many of us 108 00:08:17,400 --> 00:08:20,680 Speaker 2: that are born and raised in La, again, we don't 109 00:08:20,720 --> 00:08:23,040 Speaker 2: look at this city as opportunity. We don't look at 110 00:08:23,040 --> 00:08:26,559 Speaker 2: this city as someplace we move to, you know, maybe 111 00:08:26,680 --> 00:08:30,280 Speaker 2: rise or be creative or you know, live our dreams. 112 00:08:30,320 --> 00:08:33,360 Speaker 2: It's just our city. It's just where we're from, you know. 113 00:08:33,440 --> 00:08:36,960 Speaker 2: And so we know it. We don't really congregate in 114 00:08:37,559 --> 00:08:40,080 Speaker 2: the areas that you see on TV. We don't really 115 00:08:40,440 --> 00:08:42,960 Speaker 2: you know, choose to live in Hollywood, or choose to 116 00:08:43,000 --> 00:08:45,840 Speaker 2: live in West Hollywood even or choose to live in 117 00:08:45,880 --> 00:08:50,559 Speaker 2: downtown LA. Like, we understand the vastness and the profound 118 00:08:50,920 --> 00:08:54,720 Speaker 2: diversity that is in this city. And when people come 119 00:08:54,720 --> 00:08:56,320 Speaker 2: here and they say they don't like it or they 120 00:08:56,360 --> 00:09:00,920 Speaker 2: don't understand it, it's a city that requires something of you, 121 00:09:00,920 --> 00:09:03,160 Speaker 2: you know, and it's a city that in some ways 122 00:09:03,200 --> 00:09:06,280 Speaker 2: you have to earn its respect. It's not just about 123 00:09:06,320 --> 00:09:08,520 Speaker 2: what you can come here and take, or the way 124 00:09:08,559 --> 00:09:12,600 Speaker 2: that this city is amplifies one owns ego or optics 125 00:09:12,720 --> 00:09:16,400 Speaker 2: or ability to earn or succeed. It's a city that 126 00:09:16,559 --> 00:09:23,959 Speaker 2: is incredibly resilient, that is living polarity in every second. 127 00:09:24,280 --> 00:09:28,160 Speaker 2: And so whenever people are transplants here and they complain 128 00:09:28,200 --> 00:09:31,680 Speaker 2: about the city, it really, to me always highlights just 129 00:09:31,720 --> 00:09:37,640 Speaker 2: a bigger insecurity or time not spent enough creating a 130 00:09:37,760 --> 00:09:41,800 Speaker 2: life here. A lot of people move here to create career, 131 00:09:42,080 --> 00:09:46,360 Speaker 2: to create content, to create a perception that they want 132 00:09:46,400 --> 00:09:48,360 Speaker 2: the people in the world or in the cities that 133 00:09:48,400 --> 00:09:51,520 Speaker 2: they're from to have about them. But this city is 134 00:09:51,559 --> 00:09:54,600 Speaker 2: its own, and you know, just like the saying for 135 00:09:54,720 --> 00:09:58,280 Speaker 2: New Yorkers, very similar in how protective we are of 136 00:09:58,360 --> 00:10:01,280 Speaker 2: where we're from to those that are or native New Yorkers. 137 00:10:01,920 --> 00:10:03,800 Speaker 2: But if you can make it here, you can make 138 00:10:03,840 --> 00:10:06,640 Speaker 2: it anywhere. But the idea that you can come to 139 00:10:06,800 --> 00:10:09,760 Speaker 2: La and it all makes sense at once is silly. 140 00:10:10,160 --> 00:10:14,280 Speaker 2: It's a city of nearly twenty million people that is 141 00:10:14,600 --> 00:10:20,360 Speaker 2: spread out for miles and miles and miles, with every 142 00:10:20,559 --> 00:10:25,640 Speaker 2: single crevice representing something different and being different. It is 143 00:10:25,679 --> 00:10:30,400 Speaker 2: a true melting pot where our diversity is vast and 144 00:10:30,440 --> 00:10:35,240 Speaker 2: it's interconnected, and we all have a deep respect for 145 00:10:35,360 --> 00:10:38,720 Speaker 2: one another and for the cultures that make this city 146 00:10:38,760 --> 00:10:42,800 Speaker 2: this city. I thought Kendrick's last album was one of 147 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:49,320 Speaker 2: the most beautiful, beautiful dedications to a place so special. 148 00:10:50,160 --> 00:10:53,720 Speaker 2: It wove the culture together and it also showed the resilience. 149 00:10:53,760 --> 00:10:55,880 Speaker 2: And I talked about this a lot in the episode 150 00:10:55,920 --> 00:10:59,920 Speaker 2: I did about integrity The Art of Integrity, where discussed 151 00:11:00,080 --> 00:11:06,040 Speaker 2: Kendrick's incredible career in his connection to the city, and 152 00:11:07,640 --> 00:11:11,080 Speaker 2: LA is something else entirely, and it is not Hollywood. 153 00:11:11,440 --> 00:11:14,560 Speaker 2: Hollywood is the place of transplants, in the place of projection. 154 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:16,840 Speaker 2: It's really not DTLA. 155 00:11:17,880 --> 00:11:18,040 Speaker 4: You know. 156 00:11:18,040 --> 00:11:20,360 Speaker 2: When I was growing up, my mom for over twenty 157 00:11:20,480 --> 00:11:23,120 Speaker 2: years worked at a law firm in downtown LA. So 158 00:11:23,520 --> 00:11:25,880 Speaker 2: as a latchkey kid, as an only child to a 159 00:11:25,920 --> 00:11:29,800 Speaker 2: single parent, Downtown LA was a huge part of my childhood, 160 00:11:30,440 --> 00:11:32,320 Speaker 2: to the point where, if I'm being honest, I really 161 00:11:32,320 --> 00:11:35,600 Speaker 2: can't stand to go to it now because I don't 162 00:11:35,640 --> 00:11:39,840 Speaker 2: really recognize it. It feels like Downtown LA has been 163 00:11:40,120 --> 00:11:43,240 Speaker 2: trying by people that are not from LA to be 164 00:11:44,240 --> 00:11:47,800 Speaker 2: transformed into New York. But it's not and it's not 165 00:11:47,840 --> 00:11:50,680 Speaker 2: what it was ever designed to be. When I was 166 00:11:50,679 --> 00:11:54,800 Speaker 2: growing up, my mom would work extra shifts and do 167 00:11:54,920 --> 00:11:57,960 Speaker 2: overtime in downtown LA, and I remember by six pm 168 00:11:58,679 --> 00:12:01,720 Speaker 2: it was a literal goal because people didn't live there. 169 00:12:02,800 --> 00:12:08,640 Speaker 2: That's where the primary housing for unhoused people was found, 170 00:12:09,160 --> 00:12:11,719 Speaker 2: and a part of the city that some may have 171 00:12:11,800 --> 00:12:14,839 Speaker 2: heard of that was referred to as skid row. It 172 00:12:14,880 --> 00:12:17,200 Speaker 2: was a tough place to be. But it was also 173 00:12:17,640 --> 00:12:20,840 Speaker 2: all commerce, and so when we'd go there on the weekends, 174 00:12:20,920 --> 00:12:23,839 Speaker 2: we'd have to pack a lunch because no businesses were open, 175 00:12:23,960 --> 00:12:28,080 Speaker 2: no restaurants were open. The cities. You know, it looked 176 00:12:28,080 --> 00:12:32,240 Speaker 2: like there should have been a huge like dust ball 177 00:12:32,360 --> 00:12:35,160 Speaker 2: going through it. It was that empty all the time 178 00:12:36,040 --> 00:12:40,280 Speaker 2: in non nine to five hours. I had the chance 179 00:12:40,360 --> 00:12:43,600 Speaker 2: growing up to see and understand this city in a really, 180 00:12:43,679 --> 00:12:48,000 Speaker 2: really unique way. We moved all over all the time, 181 00:12:48,800 --> 00:12:52,720 Speaker 2: and it gave me such a beautiful look at what 182 00:12:52,840 --> 00:12:55,920 Speaker 2: the truth and the heart of this city is. For 183 00:12:56,040 --> 00:13:00,560 Speaker 2: parts of my childhood, I lived deeply within South Central 184 00:13:00,920 --> 00:13:04,800 Speaker 2: and that was I was born in the mid eighties, 185 00:13:05,120 --> 00:13:08,880 Speaker 2: and so that was living in a city right after 186 00:13:09,440 --> 00:13:12,360 Speaker 2: in a part of the city that was ravaged by crack, 187 00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:17,679 Speaker 2: that was ravaged by police brutality, that was ravaged ravaged 188 00:13:18,160 --> 00:13:24,520 Speaker 2: by gangs, by death, by drug addiction, it was ravaged 189 00:13:24,600 --> 00:13:30,080 Speaker 2: by incarceration. It's an area of the city that so 190 00:13:30,200 --> 00:13:35,440 Speaker 2: many men were ripped out of homes. There were so 191 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:43,040 Speaker 2: so much governmental inequity and systemic oppression and planned and 192 00:13:43,160 --> 00:13:52,080 Speaker 2: executed oppression from all over from the government, from so 193 00:13:52,200 --> 00:13:56,280 Speaker 2: many different systems within the city. It's a place that 194 00:13:56,400 --> 00:14:00,319 Speaker 2: has taken a brutal beating since the White Flight had, 195 00:14:00,960 --> 00:14:04,600 Speaker 2: you know, towards the fifties and the sixties, and it's 196 00:14:04,600 --> 00:14:08,320 Speaker 2: a place that's been ravaged. And some of the way 197 00:14:08,360 --> 00:14:11,040 Speaker 2: God has directed and ordered my life is that I 198 00:14:11,080 --> 00:14:15,720 Speaker 2: am always keenly, keenly aware of contrast. I am always 199 00:14:15,920 --> 00:14:21,720 Speaker 2: keenly aware of polarity and duality. And so for someone 200 00:14:21,760 --> 00:14:25,600 Speaker 2: who is a double Gemini, whose part of my life's 201 00:14:25,680 --> 00:14:31,560 Speaker 2: journey is about serving humanity and recognizing the contrast of humanity, 202 00:14:32,680 --> 00:14:37,040 Speaker 2: Los Angeles was often a feast for my senses as 203 00:14:37,080 --> 00:14:42,800 Speaker 2: a child. I remember in these long commutes my mom 204 00:14:42,800 --> 00:14:45,520 Speaker 2: and I would have. I remember driving through all the 205 00:14:45,560 --> 00:14:49,320 Speaker 2: parts of the city and understanding it on a soul level. 206 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:53,520 Speaker 2: When you drive through Rodeo Drive and you see what 207 00:14:53,560 --> 00:14:56,640 Speaker 2: life looks like there, or you're driving through Manhattan Beach 208 00:14:56,720 --> 00:15:00,480 Speaker 2: or Venice, and then thirty minutes later you're also driving 209 00:15:00,560 --> 00:15:05,120 Speaker 2: through or you're driving through Larchmont Village or Hancock Park, 210 00:15:05,280 --> 00:15:10,440 Speaker 2: and then you make it to your stop in South Central. 211 00:15:12,120 --> 00:15:16,560 Speaker 2: You see the differences, right. You see you're exposed to 212 00:15:16,640 --> 00:15:19,880 Speaker 2: potential and possibility, but you also see profound and fairness, 213 00:15:20,680 --> 00:15:25,920 Speaker 2: and you see that some people, you know, experience life 214 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:29,680 Speaker 2: quite differently from others. So that's something I've always watched 215 00:15:29,720 --> 00:15:34,120 Speaker 2: and studied and one of the things that I find 216 00:15:34,200 --> 00:15:38,200 Speaker 2: so deep and beautiful about this city. So for part 217 00:15:38,200 --> 00:15:41,400 Speaker 2: of my young life, that was my home. For part 218 00:15:41,400 --> 00:15:43,720 Speaker 2: of my young life, I also lived in parts of 219 00:15:43,760 --> 00:15:48,160 Speaker 2: the cities that were almost one hundred percent Mandarin speaking. 220 00:15:48,520 --> 00:15:50,520 Speaker 2: I remember for a portion of my life I lived 221 00:15:50,520 --> 00:15:55,440 Speaker 2: in an area called Alhambra, which was most of the 222 00:15:55,480 --> 00:15:59,640 Speaker 2: businesses there are Chinese owned and operated, and the language 223 00:15:59,680 --> 00:16:03,480 Speaker 2: really revolves around that. So that was a cultural feast 224 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:08,680 Speaker 2: for me in understanding and in exposures, and also experiencing 225 00:16:08,760 --> 00:16:12,120 Speaker 2: some alienation because when you come and you're one of 226 00:16:12,120 --> 00:16:15,040 Speaker 2: the only people a handful of people that look like 227 00:16:15,120 --> 00:16:17,240 Speaker 2: you and your school or in those parts of the city, 228 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:22,200 Speaker 2: and the cultural identity is so strong, there's not really 229 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:26,920 Speaker 2: a lot of crossing the lines. That's what it felt like. 230 00:16:27,880 --> 00:16:30,280 Speaker 2: And for other parts of my life, I was in 231 00:16:30,280 --> 00:16:35,080 Speaker 2: parts of the city that were primarily exclusively Spanish speaking 232 00:16:35,240 --> 00:16:41,760 Speaker 2: and were representative of first generation immigrating from Mexico and 233 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:45,760 Speaker 2: the families building their lives and their businesses and their 234 00:16:45,800 --> 00:16:50,360 Speaker 2: futures in those spaces and being able to be witnessed too, 235 00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:53,720 Speaker 2: and not necessarily always a part of but witness too. 236 00:16:54,760 --> 00:16:59,760 Speaker 2: Very strong, beautiful cultural identity, and in other parts of 237 00:16:59,800 --> 00:17:02,520 Speaker 2: my life, you know, I was very connected and always 238 00:17:02,560 --> 00:17:07,240 Speaker 2: in Santa Monica, Hancock Park, Larchmont Village. It's where I 239 00:17:07,240 --> 00:17:10,720 Speaker 2: went to preschool, was in Larchmont, So I've been around 240 00:17:11,280 --> 00:17:13,280 Speaker 2: a lot. Of My family also lived in the South 241 00:17:13,359 --> 00:17:15,840 Speaker 2: Bay and in Long Beach, and in San Pedro, and 242 00:17:15,880 --> 00:17:20,600 Speaker 2: in Carson and Harbor City, and all these areas that 243 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:24,359 Speaker 2: are night and day from each other. Aside from the 244 00:17:24,440 --> 00:17:28,639 Speaker 2: strength and community, but it's always made me feel safe. 245 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:30,480 Speaker 2: There is not a part of the city that I 246 00:17:30,520 --> 00:17:33,119 Speaker 2: don't go to that I don't feel safe or comfortable in, 247 00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:36,240 Speaker 2: that I don't understand people in and recognize people in. 248 00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:41,600 Speaker 2: I moved through all of Greater Los Angeles regularly with 249 00:17:41,800 --> 00:17:45,719 Speaker 2: constant ease and grace. It's a city that I was 250 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:48,679 Speaker 2: born in. I was born in Hollywood, a city I 251 00:17:48,720 --> 00:17:52,439 Speaker 2: went to college and went to a cal State school here, 252 00:17:53,080 --> 00:17:55,439 Speaker 2: went to school at every step of the way, and 253 00:17:55,480 --> 00:17:58,479 Speaker 2: it's a city I was blessed to start my career 254 00:17:58,560 --> 00:18:01,400 Speaker 2: in before my journey in my mid and late twenties 255 00:18:01,440 --> 00:18:05,560 Speaker 2: brought me to a couple other major cities. So to 256 00:18:05,680 --> 00:18:08,200 Speaker 2: say that I know this city would be an understatement. 257 00:18:08,320 --> 00:18:12,000 Speaker 2: To say that I love this city would be an understatement. 258 00:18:12,119 --> 00:18:16,199 Speaker 2: To say that I respect and revere this city and 259 00:18:16,240 --> 00:18:22,880 Speaker 2: the people in it would be an understatement. So this 260 00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:28,879 Speaker 2: week has been so hard to see so many people 261 00:18:28,920 --> 00:18:32,119 Speaker 2: struggling to see the duality and the contrast that is 262 00:18:32,200 --> 00:18:36,119 Speaker 2: present even in the areas that have burned, and the 263 00:18:36,160 --> 00:18:39,800 Speaker 2: differences of what that might mean to those varying groups 264 00:18:39,840 --> 00:18:45,320 Speaker 2: of people from varying economic statuses, and the heartbreak no 265 00:18:45,359 --> 00:18:48,359 Speaker 2: matter what your background or economic status is, and the 266 00:18:48,400 --> 00:18:52,960 Speaker 2: devastation no matter what and what this means and does 267 00:18:53,000 --> 00:18:57,760 Speaker 2: it mean for the potential and possibility of the people affected, 268 00:18:58,040 --> 00:19:02,480 Speaker 2: and how they're able or not to move forward generationally 269 00:19:03,040 --> 00:19:07,960 Speaker 2: long term. I live in a part of the city 270 00:19:08,280 --> 00:19:13,480 Speaker 2: that is called Encino, and I love this area. When 271 00:19:13,480 --> 00:19:15,360 Speaker 2: it was time for me to move back to La 272 00:19:15,520 --> 00:19:17,439 Speaker 2: God sent it to me in a dream. I had 273 00:19:17,480 --> 00:19:21,520 Speaker 2: never really spent time here. It was an area I think, 274 00:19:22,080 --> 00:19:24,280 Speaker 2: and this is so funny, and I haven't shared this 275 00:19:24,359 --> 00:19:29,440 Speaker 2: story with him even but I remember when I was 276 00:19:29,520 --> 00:19:34,960 Speaker 2: sixteen a girlfriend had her birthday party. I think it 277 00:19:35,000 --> 00:19:38,240 Speaker 2: was her birthday, her graduation party at the only creole 278 00:19:38,359 --> 00:19:41,959 Speaker 2: restaurant in Greater LA. And it was in Encino. And 279 00:19:42,000 --> 00:19:45,040 Speaker 2: I remember, keep in mind, when I was in high school, 280 00:19:46,119 --> 00:19:49,160 Speaker 2: the Lakers and they still are, but they were life. 281 00:19:49,640 --> 00:19:53,119 Speaker 2: So we went to the finals every single year I 282 00:19:53,160 --> 00:19:57,400 Speaker 2: was in high school and freshman, sophomore in junior years, 283 00:19:57,520 --> 00:19:59,800 Speaker 2: that's when we had our three pet and we won 284 00:20:00,440 --> 00:20:04,359 Speaker 2: the championship. It was Shaq, it was Kobe rest in peace, 285 00:20:05,840 --> 00:20:08,040 Speaker 2: and it was just such a special time to be 286 00:20:08,240 --> 00:20:13,040 Speaker 2: young in this city. And I remember so Lakers were gods, 287 00:20:13,040 --> 00:20:15,080 Speaker 2: that they were kings and it was just like and 288 00:20:15,240 --> 00:20:17,720 Speaker 2: Dodgers too. It was just such a huge part of 289 00:20:17,760 --> 00:20:21,560 Speaker 2: my life in childhood. The Dodgers are my favorite sports 290 00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:25,320 Speaker 2: team of all time and baseball is my favorite sport 291 00:20:25,359 --> 00:20:27,320 Speaker 2: of all time to watch and to go to games 292 00:20:27,359 --> 00:20:31,080 Speaker 2: of one hundred percent because as a child, my mom, 293 00:20:31,240 --> 00:20:34,399 Speaker 2: through her job, used to get tickets to go to 294 00:20:34,480 --> 00:20:38,119 Speaker 2: Dodger Stadium and to see the Dodgers play. So the 295 00:20:38,160 --> 00:20:40,520 Speaker 2: fibers of La run so deep in my soul. But 296 00:20:43,119 --> 00:20:51,159 Speaker 2: where was I I remember in Encinel my girlfriend had 297 00:20:51,560 --> 00:20:55,639 Speaker 2: her dinner at this place that was called Stevie's Creole 298 00:20:55,680 --> 00:20:58,880 Speaker 2: Restaurant doesn't exist anymore, but it was a big deal 299 00:20:58,920 --> 00:21:02,040 Speaker 2: in the time, and it was kind of upscale and different. 300 00:21:02,080 --> 00:21:05,760 Speaker 2: And I remember we came and outside of Stevie's I 301 00:21:05,840 --> 00:21:08,960 Speaker 2: got to meet Derek Fisher for the very first time, 302 00:21:09,200 --> 00:21:11,199 Speaker 2: and I remember we were so excited. We're like the 303 00:21:11,320 --> 00:21:16,040 Speaker 2: licerus are here. But that memory came coming back. But 304 00:21:16,240 --> 00:21:18,359 Speaker 2: so I didn't know really anything about this part of 305 00:21:18,359 --> 00:21:21,120 Speaker 2: the city. But when I was thinking about moving back 306 00:21:21,119 --> 00:21:22,840 Speaker 2: to La I had a dream about it. And that's 307 00:21:22,880 --> 00:21:24,640 Speaker 2: how a lot comes to me. I had a dream 308 00:21:24,680 --> 00:21:29,520 Speaker 2: about my son's name seven years before I was pregnant, 309 00:21:29,560 --> 00:21:31,400 Speaker 2: and that's how I knew what to name him. And 310 00:21:31,520 --> 00:21:34,479 Speaker 2: I very often get dreams about things that I should do, 311 00:21:34,720 --> 00:21:38,440 Speaker 2: or places I should invest or places I should live. 312 00:21:39,960 --> 00:21:43,159 Speaker 2: So I've had them so often throughout my life that 313 00:21:43,240 --> 00:21:46,800 Speaker 2: I trust them immediately. And so when God gave me 314 00:21:46,840 --> 00:21:48,280 Speaker 2: that vision, it was like, you will live in and 315 00:21:48,320 --> 00:21:50,639 Speaker 2: see you know. I was like, Okay, I don't know 316 00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:53,000 Speaker 2: where that is. I don't know who lives there, you know, 317 00:21:53,160 --> 00:21:57,320 Speaker 2: but okay, and I found what for me is this 318 00:21:57,359 --> 00:22:03,760 Speaker 2: little chunk of heaven and Paradise, and the first few 319 00:22:03,880 --> 00:22:07,520 Speaker 2: days of the fire, I was driving into Santa Monica 320 00:22:07,560 --> 00:22:09,880 Speaker 2: when the fire broke out, and I just saw these 321 00:22:10,080 --> 00:22:14,800 Speaker 2: huge clouds of smoke instantaneously filled the city and I 322 00:22:14,840 --> 00:22:17,560 Speaker 2: was like, oh my god, I have to get home now. Initially, 323 00:22:17,560 --> 00:22:21,400 Speaker 2: when we have wildfires here, it is something that, especially 324 00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:25,200 Speaker 2: if you were born and raised to some extent, is 325 00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:27,840 Speaker 2: a regular occurrence. We have what is known as like 326 00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:31,119 Speaker 2: a wildfire season in LA And I've been back in 327 00:22:31,280 --> 00:22:34,119 Speaker 2: La living full time for the last eight years, and 328 00:22:35,359 --> 00:22:38,200 Speaker 2: at least four of those years we have had massive 329 00:22:38,240 --> 00:22:41,720 Speaker 2: fires in Malibu, even over by the Getty Center. And 330 00:22:41,840 --> 00:22:44,760 Speaker 2: typically my area is affected by both of those because 331 00:22:45,119 --> 00:22:48,000 Speaker 2: we're not that far from Malibu, very close to the 332 00:22:48,040 --> 00:22:50,280 Speaker 2: Getty Center, and so we would get all the smoke 333 00:22:50,320 --> 00:22:54,879 Speaker 2: and all the ash. This was something different entirely. You know. 334 00:22:54,960 --> 00:22:57,040 Speaker 2: I had been watching for a couple of days the 335 00:22:57,080 --> 00:23:05,040 Speaker 2: fire in Pacific Palace, sayed the fire in Altadena, and 336 00:23:05,080 --> 00:23:08,679 Speaker 2: then the fire made it to me, and it's terrifying. 337 00:23:09,480 --> 00:23:11,680 Speaker 2: I had a lot of peace in my heart because 338 00:23:11,760 --> 00:23:14,960 Speaker 2: I trust God, and my life has been destroyed a 339 00:23:15,040 --> 00:23:19,040 Speaker 2: few times, so I also trust my adaptability and my 340 00:23:19,119 --> 00:23:24,800 Speaker 2: resilience and God's favor and protection and rebuilding. I know, 341 00:23:24,960 --> 00:23:28,639 Speaker 2: nothing on this earth is permanent, but of course you 342 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:34,439 Speaker 2: start to feel and experience the depth of sadness throughout 343 00:23:34,480 --> 00:23:34,919 Speaker 2: the city. 344 00:23:34,960 --> 00:23:36,440 Speaker 1: And for all those. 345 00:23:36,280 --> 00:23:38,840 Speaker 2: That are empaths living here and even watching from afar, 346 00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:40,800 Speaker 2: you know just what that means. You feel it in 347 00:23:40,840 --> 00:23:43,560 Speaker 2: the core of your body. And if you are connected 348 00:23:43,560 --> 00:23:46,399 Speaker 2: to this city, especially in a deep way, if you 349 00:23:46,600 --> 00:23:49,680 Speaker 2: have been in service to this city, if you study 350 00:23:49,720 --> 00:23:52,399 Speaker 2: this city, if you really love and appreciate this city, 351 00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:57,840 Speaker 2: it hits you in a way that is just profoundly painful. 352 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:02,000 Speaker 2: And so the fire made it to me last week 353 00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:06,520 Speaker 2: and some of the experience that I was having was 354 00:24:06,640 --> 00:24:08,920 Speaker 2: I'm a single mom. My son is six and a half. 355 00:24:09,119 --> 00:24:12,439 Speaker 2: Is you realize all that you can't do, you know, 356 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:14,800 Speaker 2: when it's in your back door and you're being told 357 00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:18,080 Speaker 2: to evacuate, And right where I live. It was by 358 00:24:18,240 --> 00:24:23,280 Speaker 2: kind of near the Encino Reservoir, which, thank God, is this, 359 00:24:23,800 --> 00:24:26,240 Speaker 2: you know, reservoir of water that a lot of these 360 00:24:26,400 --> 00:24:29,520 Speaker 2: incredible firefighters, My god, think you think you think you 361 00:24:29,560 --> 00:24:33,159 Speaker 2: thank you, Thank you to these incredible firefighters. Thank you 362 00:24:33,200 --> 00:24:37,520 Speaker 2: to the firefighters who firefighting is your life's work. Thank 363 00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:41,280 Speaker 2: you to the firefighters who are incarcerated men and women 364 00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:46,280 Speaker 2: who have been sacrificing endlessly. Thank you to the police, 365 00:24:46,359 --> 00:24:48,399 Speaker 2: thank you, thank you God to the police. Thank you 366 00:24:48,440 --> 00:24:54,640 Speaker 2: to our city, our first responders. There's just not enough 367 00:24:54,720 --> 00:24:58,520 Speaker 2: words to offer the thanks and the reverence, the gratitude, 368 00:24:58,720 --> 00:25:01,679 Speaker 2: the awe that we have for each one of you. 369 00:25:01,760 --> 00:25:04,159 Speaker 2: I'm so grateful for your lives. I'm so grateful for 370 00:25:04,200 --> 00:25:08,080 Speaker 2: your sacrifice, so grateful for your care, for your concern, 371 00:25:09,080 --> 00:25:11,640 Speaker 2: for your power, for your protection. 372 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:29,120 Speaker 1: Deeply well well, and. 373 00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:31,960 Speaker 2: When that happens, you know, when that happened here, you 374 00:25:32,040 --> 00:25:34,240 Speaker 2: realize what you can't do, and you realize. 375 00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:34,439 Speaker 4: It could all go. 376 00:25:34,720 --> 00:25:39,000 Speaker 2: And you know, my home is truly a sanctuary. And 377 00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:41,840 Speaker 2: it's not something I really share on social media because 378 00:25:42,760 --> 00:25:46,320 Speaker 2: it's mine, you know, it's my sacred space, it's my 379 00:25:46,359 --> 00:25:51,040 Speaker 2: family's sacred space. It's something that I hold private because 380 00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:53,280 Speaker 2: it means a lot, not just to me, but to 381 00:25:53,320 --> 00:25:56,320 Speaker 2: the people that are here that spend time here. I 382 00:25:56,400 --> 00:25:59,640 Speaker 2: take clients here, my friends and family, and I have 383 00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:03,639 Speaker 2: big parties at my house or big cookoffs at my house. 384 00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:09,960 Speaker 2: It's a place that is always filled with romance, with moodiness, 385 00:26:10,000 --> 00:26:15,719 Speaker 2: with music, with love, with life, with laughter, and so 386 00:26:15,840 --> 00:26:19,199 Speaker 2: as I'm watching the news and I'm seeing that it 387 00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:23,080 Speaker 2: is here now in my backyard, and it sounds like 388 00:26:23,160 --> 00:26:26,080 Speaker 2: war outside because again I'm right by the reservoirs. So 389 00:26:27,240 --> 00:26:31,280 Speaker 2: all the helicopters and all the planes are going non stop, 390 00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:35,080 Speaker 2: and you're just hearing that, right, You're hearing the choppers. 391 00:26:35,160 --> 00:26:40,800 Speaker 2: You're hearing these huge, like miraculous vessels fill with water 392 00:26:40,880 --> 00:26:47,040 Speaker 2: and dump water. And yeah, it's something I experience a 393 00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,919 Speaker 2: lot of life, and my memories are really rooted in 394 00:26:50,040 --> 00:26:52,959 Speaker 2: how the nature around me feels as I'm having whatever 395 00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:57,040 Speaker 2: experience I'm having, and so things like that really stay 396 00:26:57,080 --> 00:27:00,840 Speaker 2: with me on a very deep level. And I'm looking around. 397 00:27:01,000 --> 00:27:02,800 Speaker 2: I looked down at my hands and it's me and 398 00:27:02,840 --> 00:27:05,400 Speaker 2: my son, and I'm like, I have a bad back 399 00:27:05,480 --> 00:27:09,040 Speaker 2: in two hands, I can't save anything. You know. It 400 00:27:09,240 --> 00:27:12,680 Speaker 2: just really you think there is a way to pick 401 00:27:12,720 --> 00:27:15,840 Speaker 2: and choose what's important to you, and there really isn't 402 00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:19,680 Speaker 2: you know. I managed, you know, gratefully. I packed meaningful 403 00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:22,359 Speaker 2: things for my son because his life just started, so 404 00:27:22,440 --> 00:27:26,919 Speaker 2: that matters more than anything. And then I have a 405 00:27:26,920 --> 00:27:31,919 Speaker 2: collection of Tupac signatures that I got that, and you know, 406 00:27:32,000 --> 00:27:34,960 Speaker 2: all our important documents and my camera and my computer 407 00:27:35,240 --> 00:27:44,240 Speaker 2: and my sacred books and in my journals, and that's it, right, 408 00:27:44,320 --> 00:27:47,000 Speaker 2: that's it. And we get it in the car and 409 00:27:51,640 --> 00:27:55,360 Speaker 2: I drive to friends of mine who live in Venice, 410 00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:59,239 Speaker 2: who so generously open their home. Does I'm just in 411 00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:01,639 Speaker 2: awe of them and the way they treated us and 412 00:28:01,680 --> 00:28:07,000 Speaker 2: the way they helped us. And you know, as a parent, 413 00:28:07,119 --> 00:28:09,720 Speaker 2: you can't really show fear. You want your children to 414 00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:13,200 Speaker 2: be calm, but you have feelings. And so I let 415 00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:16,120 Speaker 2: myself cried, didn't let myself get hysterical, but I let 416 00:28:16,160 --> 00:28:19,000 Speaker 2: myself cry, and I tried to explain as best I could, 417 00:28:19,040 --> 00:28:23,439 Speaker 2: and we made it to our friends and they just 418 00:28:23,520 --> 00:28:26,239 Speaker 2: held us, you know. They both took my son and 419 00:28:26,280 --> 00:28:28,840 Speaker 2: played with him. He stayed up the latest night he's 420 00:28:28,880 --> 00:28:32,080 Speaker 2: ever been awake, which was like midnight, and he stayed 421 00:28:32,119 --> 00:28:36,760 Speaker 2: awake and drew and made music with the heaven, laughed 422 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:39,840 Speaker 2: and made art and cuddled. And I got to sit 423 00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:44,120 Speaker 2: upstairs just in front of the TV, watching waiting on 424 00:28:44,200 --> 00:28:50,440 Speaker 2: the floor and prayer and tears and in meditation, waiting 425 00:28:50,480 --> 00:28:54,240 Speaker 2: to see what would happen. And so a few days later, 426 00:28:54,800 --> 00:28:59,600 Speaker 2: I decided to get my son. My son remained in safety, 427 00:28:59,640 --> 00:29:02,280 Speaker 2: and I got him to a safe place, and then 428 00:29:02,280 --> 00:29:05,920 Speaker 2: I decided to come home because I felt that I 429 00:29:06,000 --> 00:29:09,560 Speaker 2: wanted to fight for my house, whatever that meant. And 430 00:29:09,800 --> 00:29:12,880 Speaker 2: I watched YouTube videos about how to turn on the 431 00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:16,160 Speaker 2: irrigation and how to turn off the gas, and I 432 00:29:16,280 --> 00:29:19,920 Speaker 2: got my annoying noil out and my prayers, and I 433 00:29:19,960 --> 00:29:22,800 Speaker 2: walked all the perimeters of every window and every door 434 00:29:22,840 --> 00:29:25,479 Speaker 2: and every wall and annoyed at it and prayed over it, 435 00:29:25,520 --> 00:29:28,880 Speaker 2: and went outside on my street and prayed. And you know, 436 00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:34,000 Speaker 2: I had this experience of the fear and the smells, 437 00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:36,760 Speaker 2: and you know, the booming in your chest and the anxiety. 438 00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:40,920 Speaker 2: But I also felt like, my kid is safe, our 439 00:29:41,000 --> 00:29:45,760 Speaker 2: important documents are safe, and I can run. You know, 440 00:29:46,560 --> 00:29:49,800 Speaker 2: I got wheels. So I felt that if I needed 441 00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:51,880 Speaker 2: to run down the hill and get to safety, I 442 00:29:51,880 --> 00:29:56,480 Speaker 2: could make it. And there was no place I wanted 443 00:29:56,520 --> 00:29:59,720 Speaker 2: to be more than here. And so every day and 444 00:30:00,160 --> 00:30:02,480 Speaker 2: it became safe for my son to come back home, 445 00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:05,880 Speaker 2: I would be in my house in silence, and I 446 00:30:06,040 --> 00:30:08,520 Speaker 2: checked the watch Duty app and I would meditate and 447 00:30:08,560 --> 00:30:13,200 Speaker 2: pray and play selection and kind of commune with God, 448 00:30:13,840 --> 00:30:16,080 Speaker 2: and I felt deep peace in that, and I felt 449 00:30:16,080 --> 00:30:22,400 Speaker 2: safety in that gratefully, and I was safe, gratefully. And 450 00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:26,280 Speaker 2: then you also notice not just the beauty of humanity. 451 00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:30,120 Speaker 2: Like watching first, I also have to say, I'm so 452 00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:32,240 Speaker 2: grateful for every person that reached out to me. There 453 00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:34,880 Speaker 2: are no words, there are no words, there are no words. 454 00:30:36,280 --> 00:30:39,200 Speaker 2: I got thousands of dms that I still have not 455 00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:42,320 Speaker 2: been able to open all of them. But I will 456 00:30:42,520 --> 00:30:44,600 Speaker 2: and I will respond to each one of them. That 457 00:30:44,800 --> 00:30:49,520 Speaker 2: is my promise. And I'm so grateful. So many calls, 458 00:30:49,800 --> 00:30:54,680 Speaker 2: so many calls, so many text messages. Some of my 459 00:30:54,760 --> 00:30:58,120 Speaker 2: friends were just really true warriors for me and were like, yo, 460 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,240 Speaker 2: I can get a truck or you all right now 461 00:31:00,280 --> 00:31:02,080 Speaker 2: and get to your house with you. We can pack 462 00:31:02,120 --> 00:31:05,920 Speaker 2: it up, we can do whatever you need. I remember 463 00:31:05,920 --> 00:31:09,960 Speaker 2: I told one of my very close homeboys like he 464 00:31:10,080 --> 00:31:11,760 Speaker 2: was like, do you have that thang thing? And I 465 00:31:11,800 --> 00:31:15,800 Speaker 2: was like, yep, I got it. I lived in Texas, 466 00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:18,240 Speaker 2: so I know how to shoot. I used to go 467 00:31:18,320 --> 00:31:21,760 Speaker 2: to the shooting range all the time for many, many, many, 468 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,320 Speaker 2: many many years, and I pray to God it's not 469 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:28,120 Speaker 2: anything I ever have to do, but I do know how. 470 00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:34,239 Speaker 2: And so I was like, no, I feel protected. So 471 00:31:34,280 --> 00:31:37,200 Speaker 2: you're noticing the best in humanity, and I'm seeing all 472 00:31:37,280 --> 00:31:39,360 Speaker 2: of the aid coming to the city and all of 473 00:31:39,400 --> 00:31:42,800 Speaker 2: the care and all of the concern and the power 474 00:31:42,840 --> 00:31:45,280 Speaker 2: and the protection and the tenderness, and then you're also 475 00:31:45,360 --> 00:31:50,960 Speaker 2: seeing the despicable nature of humans as well. One of 476 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:55,480 Speaker 2: the things that was experienced on my street because aside 477 00:31:55,480 --> 00:31:59,680 Speaker 2: from me and one other neighbor two houses down, my 478 00:31:59,720 --> 00:32:04,479 Speaker 2: whole street was empty. Everyone left, and looters hit the street. 479 00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:09,760 Speaker 2: I remember seeing what felt like someone casing a house 480 00:32:10,720 --> 00:32:13,640 Speaker 2: the night before, pretending to walk a dog but wearing 481 00:32:13,920 --> 00:32:17,680 Speaker 2: army fatigues. And I know everybody on the street, and 482 00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,720 Speaker 2: it's a very kind of strange street that I live 483 00:32:20,760 --> 00:32:23,640 Speaker 2: on that's not really walkable, so most people don't typically 484 00:32:23,680 --> 00:32:24,640 Speaker 2: walk on this street. 485 00:32:26,120 --> 00:32:26,560 Speaker 4: And so. 486 00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:31,200 Speaker 2: We then got an alert, and it was seen on 487 00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:35,120 Speaker 2: cameras in my neighborhood that men with ski masks and 488 00:32:35,320 --> 00:32:38,760 Speaker 2: unmarked white vans hit my street. And we got an 489 00:32:38,760 --> 00:32:43,360 Speaker 2: immediate response from the police, from undercover police and from 490 00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:48,040 Speaker 2: the National Guard who came and protected this street and 491 00:32:48,080 --> 00:32:50,800 Speaker 2: stood watch and stayed at all the corners. And I'm 492 00:32:50,880 --> 00:32:54,240 Speaker 2: so grateful for them, and I felt so safe because 493 00:32:54,240 --> 00:32:57,400 Speaker 2: of that. But even watching that and feeling that energy, 494 00:32:57,480 --> 00:32:59,920 Speaker 2: it's just, you know, the kind of person that could 495 00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:02,080 Speaker 2: and would do that is also the kind of person 496 00:33:03,000 --> 00:33:06,280 Speaker 2: that couldn't would do anything to anyone for any reason, 497 00:33:06,400 --> 00:33:11,880 Speaker 2: and so just the deceptive, evil energy of that in 498 00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:16,880 Speaker 2: and of itself is just so striking to encounter and 499 00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:22,760 Speaker 2: to feel. One of the things that was really ringing 500 00:33:22,880 --> 00:33:26,600 Speaker 2: true for me as we were packing up and leaving 501 00:33:27,600 --> 00:33:32,719 Speaker 2: was I was kind of getting this instant filing of 502 00:33:32,800 --> 00:33:35,760 Speaker 2: so many of my experiences come into my mind and 503 00:33:35,800 --> 00:33:40,800 Speaker 2: into my heart, and that was around all the different 504 00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:43,080 Speaker 2: things I've witnessed in this city, because we have had 505 00:33:43,120 --> 00:33:45,920 Speaker 2: a lot of devastation in a lot of different kinds 506 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:50,320 Speaker 2: of ways. But I remembered one of my very first, 507 00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:54,880 Speaker 2: earliest core memories of being alive. I was right around 508 00:33:54,880 --> 00:33:57,560 Speaker 2: five years old, and at the time my mom and 509 00:33:57,600 --> 00:34:03,240 Speaker 2: I were living in Watts my family came to California. 510 00:34:03,800 --> 00:34:05,840 Speaker 2: I believe it was I could be wrong, but I 511 00:34:05,880 --> 00:34:08,840 Speaker 2: believe it was right around the twenties and they came. 512 00:34:09,640 --> 00:34:13,080 Speaker 2: Half of my family came from Oklahoma, that is where 513 00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:20,399 Speaker 2: the majority of my ancestors were from, and they came 514 00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:25,759 Speaker 2: from Oklahoma, and they bought homes in Watts And this 515 00:34:25,840 --> 00:34:29,800 Speaker 2: is before the White Flight happened, and so my early 516 00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:34,319 Speaker 2: life was living in one of my family in the 517 00:34:34,360 --> 00:34:37,640 Speaker 2: back house of one of my family's houses in Watts, 518 00:34:38,200 --> 00:34:42,680 Speaker 2: right around ninety eighth and Central. And one of my 519 00:34:42,719 --> 00:34:46,120 Speaker 2: first core memories is being five and feeling fear in 520 00:34:46,200 --> 00:34:49,359 Speaker 2: my body because the Rodney King riots had broke out 521 00:34:49,719 --> 00:34:52,719 Speaker 2: and I saw fire everywhere, and I didn't know what 522 00:34:52,760 --> 00:34:55,400 Speaker 2: that meant, right, I didn't know that La was bigger 523 00:34:55,440 --> 00:34:57,719 Speaker 2: than my area, so it seemed like the world was 524 00:34:57,760 --> 00:35:02,920 Speaker 2: on fire. And I remembered the sounds of looting. I 525 00:35:02,960 --> 00:35:06,360 Speaker 2: remember the breaking of glass. I remember seeing the glow 526 00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:11,719 Speaker 2: of orange through my window and kind of shooting shadows 527 00:35:11,760 --> 00:35:17,040 Speaker 2: onto the walls. I remember being confused as to why 528 00:35:17,080 --> 00:35:19,319 Speaker 2: we didn't have anywhere else to go and why we 529 00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:24,000 Speaker 2: were in that and confused. You know, a couple weeks later, 530 00:35:24,160 --> 00:35:28,160 Speaker 2: when you're walking around the neighborhood and everything is burned down. 531 00:35:28,280 --> 00:35:32,760 Speaker 2: The place that I went to get fried catfish burned down, 532 00:35:32,840 --> 00:35:40,560 Speaker 2: and you know, the the stores and the liquor stores 533 00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:44,560 Speaker 2: and all the things that are in your community burned down. 534 00:35:45,719 --> 00:35:48,359 Speaker 2: And I remember being so scared for my mom, who 535 00:35:48,400 --> 00:35:50,760 Speaker 2: worked in downtown LA, because I was like, is everywhere 536 00:35:50,760 --> 00:35:54,839 Speaker 2: going to be on fire? And and you know, to 537 00:35:54,920 --> 00:35:58,480 Speaker 2: this day those communities have not been adequately rebuilt. And 538 00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:02,520 Speaker 2: this was ninety one, it is the year twenty twenty five. 539 00:36:03,320 --> 00:36:06,759 Speaker 2: So on one hand, you understand what it is to 540 00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:10,680 Speaker 2: see a community burned down and it never be rebuilt 541 00:36:11,440 --> 00:36:14,640 Speaker 2: or never be rebuilt well, and money never really be 542 00:36:14,719 --> 00:36:18,560 Speaker 2: put back into it again ever, right, and what that 543 00:36:18,640 --> 00:36:22,279 Speaker 2: means generationally, Like we've now been able to observe that 544 00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:27,560 Speaker 2: what it is for an entire area to really burn 545 00:36:27,800 --> 00:36:32,000 Speaker 2: and to not be supported in generational homes to not 546 00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:36,640 Speaker 2: be rebuilt, and businesses to never be rebuilt or recover, 547 00:36:36,800 --> 00:36:39,920 Speaker 2: and to just kind of continue on a path of hardship. 548 00:36:40,280 --> 00:36:42,680 Speaker 2: It's one of the hardest communities still to this day 549 00:36:42,719 --> 00:36:45,879 Speaker 2: to live in. And the people there are still some 550 00:36:45,960 --> 00:36:49,799 Speaker 2: of the most resilient people that have ever lived, with 551 00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:54,000 Speaker 2: so much creativity and so many stories to tell. So 552 00:36:54,040 --> 00:36:58,000 Speaker 2: I was remembering that and those feelings and that first 553 00:36:58,160 --> 00:37:03,480 Speaker 2: kind of understanding of destruction, and then I remembered in 554 00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:06,359 Speaker 2: nineteen ninety four. Now, at this point in ninety four, 555 00:37:06,400 --> 00:37:08,759 Speaker 2: we were living in a different area that was night 556 00:37:08,800 --> 00:37:11,520 Speaker 2: and day to the area I had come from. And 557 00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:15,120 Speaker 2: that's when we were living in the primarily Mandarin speaking community. 558 00:37:16,280 --> 00:37:24,680 Speaker 2: And the Northridge earthquake hit, which was devastating, devastating to 559 00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:27,640 Speaker 2: so much of LA and it also hit so much 560 00:37:27,760 --> 00:37:34,799 Speaker 2: of LA that had a different socioeconomic status, and so 561 00:37:34,960 --> 00:37:40,360 Speaker 2: I remember, like cal State Northridge crumbled, the University Northridge crumbled, 562 00:37:41,800 --> 00:37:46,040 Speaker 2: so many buildings and offices crumbled to the ground. I 563 00:37:46,120 --> 00:37:49,520 Speaker 2: remember the four or five Freeway, which is a vast freeway, 564 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:54,640 Speaker 2: one of the most important routes of transport here in 565 00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:58,400 Speaker 2: Los Angeles. I'm the Greater Los Angeles area. I remember 566 00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,640 Speaker 2: the freeway collapsed and a part of the overpass of 567 00:38:01,640 --> 00:38:05,080 Speaker 2: the four or five literally split in half. I remember 568 00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:08,080 Speaker 2: my aunt had a family back east in or friends 569 00:38:08,120 --> 00:38:12,280 Speaker 2: back east in Baltimore, and they asked us to mail 570 00:38:12,400 --> 00:38:15,799 Speaker 2: them chunks from the freeway, and they took it to 571 00:38:15,840 --> 00:38:19,600 Speaker 2: show and tell at their school, you know, And I 572 00:38:19,640 --> 00:38:22,560 Speaker 2: remember after that, you know, it took a lot to rebuild, 573 00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:25,680 Speaker 2: and there was a lot of devastation, but it did 574 00:38:25,680 --> 00:38:28,200 Speaker 2: get rebuilt, and it got rebuilt well, and it also 575 00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:36,520 Speaker 2: brought different levels of long term better systems being in 576 00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:39,480 Speaker 2: place to fight one of the things that does regularly 577 00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,600 Speaker 2: happen here, which is earthquakes. So a lot of the 578 00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:45,799 Speaker 2: buildings that had been here legally now have to be 579 00:38:45,920 --> 00:38:48,520 Speaker 2: up to code by being retrofit so they can't just 580 00:38:48,600 --> 00:38:52,480 Speaker 2: fall apart and crumble. It changed some of the codes 581 00:38:52,560 --> 00:38:57,280 Speaker 2: throughout the city planning, city building. It created different process 582 00:38:57,880 --> 00:39:00,600 Speaker 2: for how we evacuate or how we get through something. 583 00:39:00,719 --> 00:39:03,359 Speaker 2: Different programs even in our schools for what to do 584 00:39:03,520 --> 00:39:07,880 Speaker 2: if an earthquake hit. There were, you know, now constant 585 00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:11,160 Speaker 2: we had commercials on TV and my childhood after that 586 00:39:11,360 --> 00:39:13,640 Speaker 2: about what to do if an earthquake happened. There was 587 00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:14,440 Speaker 2: a song. 588 00:39:14,280 --> 00:39:17,239 Speaker 5: That went along with it, so you knew, you know, 589 00:39:17,320 --> 00:39:20,400 Speaker 5: to stand under a door frame or get under a table, 590 00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:24,120 Speaker 5: or you know, all these things that are very much 591 00:39:24,320 --> 00:39:26,200 Speaker 5: ingrained in the LA experience now. 592 00:39:27,280 --> 00:39:29,719 Speaker 2: So I was just kind of noticing two of the 593 00:39:29,760 --> 00:39:35,600 Speaker 2: ways that I've observed kind of more mass devastation in 594 00:39:35,640 --> 00:39:42,560 Speaker 2: this city through natural disaster or through elemental disaster, and 595 00:39:42,640 --> 00:39:46,920 Speaker 2: also how different the response to each was. And I 596 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:50,200 Speaker 2: kind of conclude that storytelling was saying, I'm still thinking 597 00:39:50,239 --> 00:39:53,640 Speaker 2: about all of that. Right, we don't know, but I'm 598 00:39:53,680 --> 00:39:58,040 Speaker 2: observing it, I'm aware of it, and I know mentally 599 00:39:58,080 --> 00:40:00,480 Speaker 2: it's serving purpose and the way that I feel that 600 00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:02,759 Speaker 2: I can show up in this city long term, and 601 00:40:02,800 --> 00:40:06,440 Speaker 2: I think more than ever, I am committed to really 602 00:40:07,239 --> 00:40:10,840 Speaker 2: even more deeply planting in this city. Being a part 603 00:40:10,960 --> 00:40:13,680 Speaker 2: of the community of Los Angeles has always meant the 604 00:40:13,719 --> 00:40:17,640 Speaker 2: world to me. At times when I was younger and 605 00:40:17,680 --> 00:40:21,480 Speaker 2: didn't have the demands of my business and parenting and 606 00:40:21,520 --> 00:40:25,000 Speaker 2: all those things, I was very entrenched and constant giving 607 00:40:25,040 --> 00:40:29,239 Speaker 2: here and in volunteering, and that is something that I 608 00:40:29,320 --> 00:40:32,799 Speaker 2: realize now I cannot live without. And it is my 609 00:40:32,920 --> 00:40:37,920 Speaker 2: intention to spend a lot more time in service in 610 00:40:37,960 --> 00:40:42,799 Speaker 2: this city forever. I love this city. I'm grateful to 611 00:40:42,840 --> 00:40:45,279 Speaker 2: be from here. I'm grateful to live here now. And 612 00:40:45,360 --> 00:40:50,280 Speaker 2: my heart is broken for everyone that is broken and hurting. 613 00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:52,920 Speaker 2: One thing I know for certain, and I know this 614 00:40:52,960 --> 00:40:56,960 Speaker 2: doesn't always feel useful until we get some of the 615 00:40:57,000 --> 00:41:03,960 Speaker 2: initial shock and done and reaction and the initial waves 616 00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:10,040 Speaker 2: of grief out. But God will provide. God will provide. 617 00:41:10,239 --> 00:41:16,360 Speaker 2: God will provide. God always provides. God always provides. God 618 00:41:16,480 --> 00:41:21,000 Speaker 2: always provides. This is not a time to lecture anyone 619 00:41:21,040 --> 00:41:25,200 Speaker 2: who has gone through this about stuff being stuff. If 620 00:41:25,200 --> 00:41:27,840 Speaker 2: I see that or hear that from anyone, it's just 621 00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:33,000 Speaker 2: like disgusting. That's for your Anyone that says that that 622 00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:38,040 Speaker 2: is for your personal discomfort and it does not offer 623 00:41:38,160 --> 00:41:41,480 Speaker 2: any help. And especially if it's not a lesson you 624 00:41:41,680 --> 00:41:45,880 Speaker 2: actually know personally or have metabolized, don't say that to anybody. 625 00:41:46,200 --> 00:41:53,880 Speaker 2: It's stupid and it's selfish, and it causes more harm. 626 00:41:54,239 --> 00:41:56,560 Speaker 2: I think the best if anybody wants to know how 627 00:41:56,640 --> 00:42:02,400 Speaker 2: to help, I think really individual donation could be so helpful. 628 00:42:02,640 --> 00:42:06,480 Speaker 2: Sometimes people make mass donations to the Red Cross, but 629 00:42:06,880 --> 00:42:09,400 Speaker 2: when you donate to the Red Cross, that doesn't necessarily 630 00:42:09,440 --> 00:42:12,960 Speaker 2: go to a specific need. It goes to the Red Cross, 631 00:42:13,040 --> 00:42:16,359 Speaker 2: and then the Red Cross chooses how to disperse those 632 00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:22,080 Speaker 2: funds all over the country based on you know how 633 00:42:22,120 --> 00:42:25,920 Speaker 2: they give. So right now, I would say I've been 634 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:30,759 Speaker 2: really more so connecting on go fundme and looking for 635 00:42:30,800 --> 00:42:33,520 Speaker 2: the pages that have only reached thirty percent of their 636 00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:36,399 Speaker 2: donation goals. If you see that someone has reached a goal, 637 00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:41,040 Speaker 2: it's not to say don't give, because people absolutely typically 638 00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:44,440 Speaker 2: need far more than their even requesting, but look for 639 00:42:44,480 --> 00:42:47,680 Speaker 2: the people, look for the places that have not yet 640 00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:50,200 Speaker 2: met that goal. You know, look for the people that 641 00:42:50,360 --> 00:42:53,880 Speaker 2: maybe because if their background or their family support or 642 00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:57,440 Speaker 2: the types of jobs that they work, may not have 643 00:42:57,640 --> 00:43:00,960 Speaker 2: long term help to re establish in their lives. They 644 00:43:01,000 --> 00:43:05,960 Speaker 2: may not, you know, have insurance of any kind, health insurance, 645 00:43:06,000 --> 00:43:10,080 Speaker 2: home insurance, They may not have first last, all these 646 00:43:10,120 --> 00:43:13,239 Speaker 2: things to get into a new place. One of the 647 00:43:13,280 --> 00:43:14,600 Speaker 2: stories I was watching. 648 00:43:14,360 --> 00:43:17,120 Speaker 4: In the news that really got to me it was 649 00:43:17,160 --> 00:43:19,799 Speaker 4: this mom of a young baby, and she's a single mom, 650 00:43:21,120 --> 00:43:24,719 Speaker 4: and she's working a job that doesn't give her benefits, 651 00:43:24,960 --> 00:43:29,919 Speaker 4: and she just had this little baby who wasn't even 652 00:43:29,960 --> 00:43:37,520 Speaker 4: one yet, and they lost absolutely everything, and she doesn't 653 00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:40,239 Speaker 4: know how to rebuild long term, and how much it 654 00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:43,960 Speaker 4: took to probably even get what needs they had accomplished 655 00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:48,160 Speaker 4: before this fire. You know, look for some of the 656 00:43:48,200 --> 00:43:51,440 Speaker 4: people that may not even be social media savvy to 657 00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:53,680 Speaker 4: be able to set up these pages, or don't have 658 00:43:53,800 --> 00:43:57,480 Speaker 4: community rallying behind them to bring light or attention to 659 00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:00,719 Speaker 4: what they're going through. But whatever ways you feel called 660 00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:02,680 Speaker 4: to serve, I just want you to know, especially if 661 00:44:02,719 --> 00:44:04,640 Speaker 4: you're not in this city, we are grateful. We are 662 00:44:04,680 --> 00:44:07,520 Speaker 4: so grateful. We're so grateful for your care. We're so 663 00:44:07,640 --> 00:44:10,480 Speaker 4: grateful for your concern. We are grateful for your thoughts 664 00:44:10,560 --> 00:44:13,480 Speaker 4: and prayers. This is a time where I can say, honestly, 665 00:44:13,560 --> 00:44:17,360 Speaker 4: thoughts and prayers have meant everything to me. I felt 666 00:44:17,920 --> 00:44:21,040 Speaker 4: prayer enter my home from the people that said they 667 00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:25,919 Speaker 4: were praying for me. I felt prayers entering my body, 668 00:44:25,960 --> 00:44:29,120 Speaker 4: and I'm so grateful. So again I shared at the 669 00:44:29,120 --> 00:44:31,719 Speaker 4: top of this episode, this is a reflection episode. I 670 00:44:31,760 --> 00:44:33,759 Speaker 4: don't have solutions, I don't have a way to make 671 00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:36,840 Speaker 4: anyone feel better, but I will say I am present, 672 00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:39,080 Speaker 4: I am bearing witness to all of it. I am 673 00:44:39,160 --> 00:44:43,759 Speaker 4: here to serve and God will provide. This is one 674 00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:51,720 Speaker 4: of the most resilient, creative, compassionate cities in the world, 675 00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:56,440 Speaker 4: in the world, And if you don't understand how Ala works, 676 00:44:56,560 --> 00:45:00,279 Speaker 4: that is okay, but put some humility on it, some 677 00:45:00,360 --> 00:45:03,880 Speaker 4: respect on our name, because this city is one of 678 00:45:03,960 --> 00:45:08,840 Speaker 4: the most incredible, special, rare, synchronistic places on earth. That 679 00:45:08,960 --> 00:45:13,040 Speaker 4: is just a fact. And the people that are from 680 00:45:13,120 --> 00:45:17,600 Speaker 4: here have survived so much already. The majority of Los 681 00:45:17,640 --> 00:45:23,040 Speaker 4: Angeles is not Hollywood. It is not rich people. It 682 00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:28,399 Speaker 4: is not you know this kind of like privileged life. 683 00:45:28,560 --> 00:45:32,000 Speaker 2: It is a place that you have to earn its respect, 684 00:45:32,080 --> 00:45:34,239 Speaker 2: and you've got to work your ass off to live here, 685 00:45:35,160 --> 00:45:38,960 Speaker 2: and it can take a lot from you and it 686 00:45:39,000 --> 00:45:43,120 Speaker 2: can give so much to you. So I think, in closing, 687 00:45:43,280 --> 00:45:45,239 Speaker 2: just thank you for sharing this space with me. My 688 00:45:45,360 --> 00:45:48,439 Speaker 2: heart is so grateful for every person that reached out. 689 00:45:48,880 --> 00:45:51,880 Speaker 2: My son and I are safe, we are back home. 690 00:45:52,640 --> 00:46:00,560 Speaker 2: The the evacuation orders in my close proximity as of today, 691 00:46:00,880 --> 00:46:05,600 Speaker 2: which is Thursday, January sixteenth, they have not been lifted yet, 692 00:46:06,200 --> 00:46:10,520 Speaker 2: but the fire has stayed on the ridge and it's 693 00:46:10,560 --> 00:46:16,040 Speaker 2: stayed where it's at, and I feel safe. We are safe, 694 00:46:16,520 --> 00:46:19,200 Speaker 2: We are home. We are getting back into our routine. 695 00:46:19,280 --> 00:46:23,319 Speaker 2: We are calming down, and we are finding all the 696 00:46:23,360 --> 00:46:26,600 Speaker 2: ways that we can best serve and show up for 697 00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:30,520 Speaker 2: the incredible people of this beautiful city and for all 698 00:46:30,560 --> 00:46:34,600 Speaker 2: those that are suffering and broken and confused. I love you, 699 00:46:34,920 --> 00:46:38,279 Speaker 2: I love you. I love you. God will provide, God 700 00:46:38,360 --> 00:46:42,120 Speaker 2: will make you hold. God will heal this. God bless you, God, 701 00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:47,239 Speaker 2: bless you, God, bless you, God bless us. And so 702 00:46:47,360 --> 00:46:54,000 Speaker 2: it is. Thank you for listening, and we will We'll 703 00:46:54,080 --> 00:46:57,000 Speaker 2: keep going. Big love, big love, big love, Thank you. 704 00:46:57,280 --> 00:47:03,960 Speaker 2: I must stay. 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