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Speaker 1: Mm hmmm. Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 3: I'm Erica and I'm Mila and it's Wednesday some day.
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Speaker 3: don't leave yet.
Speaker 5: It's we always got to throw in a nostalgic moment
Speaker 5: from the early two thousands, just so you know.
Speaker 4: Hold they were legends in my mind for that year
Speaker 4: of my life.
Speaker 1: What happened to them?
Speaker 3: I was like, Wow, they were like they were like blacks.
Speaker 3: They were gonna be the Black Spice girls.
Speaker 1: They were. They were sisters because they're from English.
Speaker 4: They're funky too. Yeah, there was something.
Speaker 1: Anyway, Hi, Hi, how are you?
Speaker 4: I'm good.
Speaker 3: I'm I've been feeling good because I've been meditating consistently
Speaker 3: since doing the Open Challenge and it feels really good.
Speaker 3: And I'm fine as hell and i am capable of
Speaker 3: all things.
Speaker 4: So these are fact. You know, you are fine as hell?
Speaker 5: Open has really after thirty one days, you kind of
Speaker 5: like inherited as a.
Speaker 1: Tool're like, oh I can't sleep. Boom. Oh I'm stressed out. Boom.
Speaker 1: It's just like a little easy like life hack.
Speaker 3: So yeah, I'm talking about me in positive affirmations.
Speaker 4: Try to do that every single day.
Speaker 3: Ask me how I am, how are you well? I'm
Speaker 3: doing phenomenal. I a so amazing. I'm in my studio,
Speaker 3: I'm feeling good. I'm fine as hell.
Speaker 5: I have this eighties vintage disco jogger with no shoulder pads.
Speaker 4: Although people thought you had shoulder pads on.
Speaker 1: It's the style of that.
Speaker 4: I think it's why it's cut. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm a fashion icon.
Speaker 5: So if you just look through the many YouTube episodes,
Speaker 5: you will also see I'm a fashion icon in my
Speaker 5: own right and many different looks. And I'm just so
Speaker 5: proud to say that to just walk in my purpose
Speaker 5: as wearing so many hots, including fashion icon of YouTube.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I love that and it's all true.
Speaker 1: Oh my god. We should we practice talking and affirmations
Speaker 1: all the time. We should.
Speaker 3: I really like that's I think I think that's what
Speaker 3: we have to do moving forward. We're just going to
Speaker 3: become absurdly overconfident. But it's gonna I.
Speaker 5: Think Orlando does that already. I don't know why I
Speaker 5: haven't picked up yet. How are you amazing the blessing
Speaker 5: of the day. Aren't you so lucky?
Speaker 1: I'm just so lucky.
Speaker 3: I'm your co host, I am Aren't you so lucky
Speaker 3: to know me? I'm so smart, right, I am so.
Speaker 4: I taught you so much.
Speaker 1: You're my blessing.
Speaker 4: I know, so are you.
Speaker 5: I'm just so thankful for your wisdom and your diligence
Speaker 5: in our partnership and our friendship.
Speaker 4: I appreciate you. Thank you.
Speaker 1: You're great.
Speaker 4: Thank you.
Speaker 3: I appreciate your creativity, your intelligence, your graphic design skills,
Speaker 3: thank you, and just your overall energy that you bring
Speaker 3: into our business.
Speaker 4: So thank you.
Speaker 1: I appreciate that. Thank you.
Speaker 5: We are just a big blessing, fallow blessings in here.
Speaker 1: Wooh, should do a light reading?
Speaker 6: Now?
Speaker 1: Why is it so corny to talk this way? But
Speaker 1: we have what we should. I know, right, I.
Speaker 3: Feel it, and I'm obviously like I'm really received. But
Speaker 3: it's also a little funny and I'm like, it's not, but.
Speaker 1: It's all true. It's true, that's true.
Speaker 4: Only we could all communicate this way.
Speaker 1: I think.
Speaker 3: I think you don't have to just be one big
Speaker 3: orgy of the world. This be one big organy.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's called it's it's tantric speech.
Speaker 6: It is.
Speaker 1: This is it, this is what they're talking about.
Speaker 4: I finally get it.
Speaker 1: You know, all those people who seem absurdly.
Speaker 5: Happy, they just do it naturally. So now we have
Speaker 5: to get on the wave.
Speaker 4: This is our proclamation right here.
Speaker 5: This is a proclamation that we can do anything because
Speaker 5: we're great at everything. We're madly talented, good looking, we
Speaker 5: have soothing, sexy voices and just wow, Like, who would
Speaker 5: have thought this magic double duo could just witch up
Speaker 5: the internets and just sprinkle our magic everybody.
Speaker 1: Even if you were trying to avoid it. You got
Speaker 1: some of that magic too.
Speaker 4: Bitch, I know you're still here.
Speaker 1: It's called the Jamerica Jenerica effect. Did you meet j America.
Speaker 1: They're so magical.
Speaker 4: Oh oh, you've attended the Jamerica Effect. You've done that.
Speaker 1: Wow, I can tell how you're talking about. You've attended
Speaker 1: the gym America.
Speaker 4: Do you know America, you know them personally, shut the
Speaker 4: fuck up.
Speaker 5: I could tell how you're glowing that you know Jamerica.
Speaker 5: Call him on the call him on speaker. I want
Speaker 5: to hear Jamerica speak.
Speaker 1: It's a cult. It's called America. A good cult. That
Speaker 1: was beautiful. Well, you know what I thought I was.
Speaker 3: I was wondering, like, how am I going to evolve
Speaker 3: with my tantric my tantric teachings? A am I going
Speaker 3: to get to wear lingerie all the time, which obviously
Speaker 3: you've already started. It looks like business and sex. I'm Sally,
Speaker 3: I'm sexy Sally, Sexy Sally, Jesse Raphael.
Speaker 5: Yeah, and now I remember using our language to only
Speaker 5: speak positive, highly high vibrational, positive words to ourselves and
Speaker 5: each other.
Speaker 1: And even when we have a.
Speaker 3: Bad day, we're like, oh my gosh, this is an
Speaker 3: unique experience, this.
Speaker 1: Is a unique opportunity to win.
Speaker 4: Again.
Speaker 1: Wow, I am growing?
Speaker 5: Did I do something stupid? Because you know what that means.
Speaker 5: I am taking accountability and I'm growing.
Speaker 4: Growth is on the way.
Speaker 1: It's is it raining? I need to I need God
Speaker 1: to some i'ming to slow down.
Speaker 4: He saw me just so so sell my seats.
Speaker 1: Did someone hit me on the freeway. They mightn't need
Speaker 1: my they needed.
Speaker 3: Atopped a worse accent ahead, you know I I yes,
Speaker 3: I like that thinking.
Speaker 4: But do you know it?
Speaker 3: Today when I went to go do this car shit
Speaker 3: and they told me basically they couldn't take my money
Speaker 3: give me all this money for this car, I was just.
Speaker 1: Like, Okay, are you sure positive check that one more time?
Speaker 1: Let me just check that.
Speaker 4: Can you just confirm? Okay? Got it? I was like
Speaker 4: all right, well, thank you.
Speaker 3: And then I got in the car and I was like, Okay,
Speaker 3: well it's gonna It's just.
Speaker 4: Gonna work out. We're just gonna figure it out.
Speaker 3: Like I really feel like there's been like I don't
Speaker 3: know what the mind shift is, and I'm sure I'm
Speaker 3: gonna flip out any moment, but I don't know. I
Speaker 3: was just like, Okay, well this feels better than the
Speaker 3: other reaction. The other reaction leaves me like tired, stressed,
Speaker 3: like worried about now I'm worried about other shit that
Speaker 3: I wasn't even thinking about before, just like making up
Speaker 3: just making it like this saga of this is the
Speaker 3: worst moment in my life type shit, or of my
Speaker 3: month or whatever of the day, and.
Speaker 4: Instead I said, no, I'm not gonna do that, and
Speaker 4: I did it.
Speaker 5: The thing is is like you can choose stress, but
Speaker 5: the twenty four hours is gonna go by regardless. So
Speaker 5: it's like, you know, choose twenty four hours, the next
Speaker 5: five hours of stress and heartache, are you gonna be
Speaker 5: like fuck it?
Speaker 1: And I trust what's gonna happen now?
Speaker 3: Yeah, either way, I have to figure it out, whether
Speaker 3: I stress or I don't stress. And that's kind of
Speaker 3: what I was like, all right, well either way if
Speaker 3: you had to figure this out. So yeah, and that's
Speaker 3: and that's kind of like how I've been. I guess
Speaker 3: it's been making me feel a lot happier. Like earlier
Speaker 3: this year, I made a choice about how I was
Speaker 3: gonna handle my relationship and instead of like like saying
Speaker 3: fuck you and fuck niggas and I don't give up,
Speaker 3: like you know, adding another notch to my belt of
Speaker 3: like reason one hundred and twenty thousand why I don't
Speaker 3: trust these niggas, I said, no, bitch, we're not doing
Speaker 3: that this month. We're gonna figure out how you don't
Speaker 3: add to your trust is jews. And also how we
Speaker 3: get you to feel happier faster, and that so you're
Speaker 3: not like you're going to have to feel the sadness,
Speaker 3: Like you can't skip that part and you're going to
Speaker 3: feel it throughout. But like, how what needs to happen
Speaker 3: for you to change this pattern in your life? And literally,
Speaker 3: compassion is the word, because I feel like I'm high.
Speaker 3: I'm really good with my boundaries, even with men and like,
Speaker 3: but the way that I've handled having boundaries is kind
Speaker 3: of by hating them and.
Speaker 4: Saying, like fuck you.
Speaker 3: It's easier for me to create that boundary if that's
Speaker 3: the space that I'm in versus Okay, I'm going to
Speaker 3: create this boundary. I still love you, like you obviously
Speaker 3: have work to do and things you need to figure out,
Speaker 3: but and I'm going to take this space. And this
Speaker 3: space might mean you never have access to me again,
Speaker 3: or it might mean let's revisit this at a future date.
Speaker 3: And that's kind of like how I've been feeling less,
Speaker 3: I guess, angry, mad, sad, like, and it's starting.
Speaker 4: To like trickle down into the other areas of my life.
Speaker 4: And I'm like.
Speaker 3: Really excited about that because I feel like it's a
Speaker 3: wound that I've been needing to heal that it's been
Speaker 3: like affecting everything in my life essentially.
Speaker 4: And it's crazy because I had that.
Speaker 3: Reading by that girl, that lady, not girl, grown ass woman,
Speaker 3: and she told me that I was going something was
Speaker 3: gonna happen at the end of this year that was
Speaker 3: going to like lead me to freedom, and it was
Speaker 3: I was gonna have to choose and that I was
Speaker 3: going to heal the wound with my father, which was
Speaker 3: like not feeling safe or not feeling like I can
Speaker 3: rely on this person, or not feeling safe, and it
Speaker 3: was going to heal at the end of this year
Speaker 3: through January.
Speaker 4: And I feel like.
Speaker 3: It's healing in the most like unexpected way because it
Speaker 3: actually comes from hurt and I didn't expect that. I
Speaker 3: didn't expect the healing, and I thought like something good
Speaker 3: was going to come in my life, whether it was
Speaker 3: a relationship that was perfect that was going to heal
Speaker 3: that wound for me.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 3: It wasn't that like I was going to be in
Speaker 3: this space again with a similar scenario that I've been in,
Speaker 3: but it was like now I have the choice to
Speaker 3: handle it different.
Speaker 4: And that's what's healing about it.
Speaker 5: Yeah, I think there's this like really cool point that
Speaker 5: we've come to in our healing journey. And it's like
Speaker 5: you're never healed, you know, But I think we're at
Speaker 5: this place where we know better than to react a
Speaker 5: certain way. I think we've gotten to a point where
Speaker 5: we've consistently done certain work, like the basics at least
Speaker 5: that build the fundamentals that we trust the process so
Speaker 5: much and we understand and recognize that, like there is
Speaker 5: this bigger picture and there is always a lesson and
Speaker 5: it doesn't always come exactly how we thought it was
Speaker 5: going to come, but it allows us to be more
Speaker 5: gentle with ourselves and more gentle with the process because
Speaker 5: we trust that everything always works out and that spirit
Speaker 5: brings us exactly what we need. And so instead of
Speaker 5: fighting it and the.
Speaker 3: Resistance the resistance is so draining, and then avoiding it
Speaker 3: because I'm you know, we're good at that avoiding and
Speaker 3: then or or like reacting the same way you would
Speaker 3: previously like fuck you, fuck that, let me go ho out,
Speaker 3: let me go get under some somebody else, and like
Speaker 3: really like sit with ourselves and say, like how did
Speaker 3: I attract this?
Speaker 1: Which is like that's that's some I've done some healing
Speaker 1: type shit.
Speaker 5: A lot of times when you're angry about someone else's
Speaker 5: you know, shit, it we take it personally and like,
Speaker 5: I'm proud of you, thank you, And I see you
Speaker 5: and I and I see you know, like whatever wound
Speaker 5: that needs to come up right now, it's it's it's
Speaker 5: it's happening. And you know you have me and I
Speaker 5: support you in it, and I know you're going to
Speaker 5: get through it and come back even better, even more powerful,
Speaker 5: even more divine, even more knowing, even more trusting, even
Speaker 5: more soft, even you know, all of those things, And
Speaker 5: I'm excited for you.
Speaker 4: Thank you.
Speaker 3: Those are all the things that I want too. Like
Speaker 3: I feel like I've been the softest I've ever been.
Speaker 4: In a relationship with this.
Speaker 3: Person and like conquered certain fears. Like it sounds corny, guys,
Speaker 3: but listen up. I don't fuck with feet, Okay, Like
Speaker 3: I really, I don't fuck with feet. I don't like feet.
Speaker 3: Don't put them on me, don't put them near me.
Speaker 3: The onlyest feet who I fuck with is my daughter's.
Speaker 3: And I know this sounds crazy, but actually in school
Speaker 3: I was encouraged, well we have to like do something
Speaker 3: where we have to give someone like teach either we
Speaker 3: receive the pleasure or we tell someone we have to
Speaker 3: give someone pleasure and teach them about the pleasure scale
Speaker 3: and do all that stuff. And I wanted to challenge
Speaker 3: myself and do something that was really uncomfortable for me,
Speaker 3: and so like I I was like, I will give
Speaker 3: you a petticare And it was the most uncomfortable shit
Speaker 3: I've ever done, but it was also like the most
Speaker 3: I felt like, I don't want to say soft, but
Speaker 3: it was like a soft act that I'm doing for
Speaker 3: this person and taking care of like the feet that
Speaker 3: care gat them through life, you know, whether they are
Speaker 3: totally fucked.
Speaker 1: Or beautiful, you know.
Speaker 3: And I did that shit and I was like, wow,
Speaker 3: a bitch is real soft now, But I mean that's
Speaker 3: just one really like stupid example, but it's not stupid.
Speaker 3: But I just feel like in this relationship, I've just
Speaker 3: like been a lot more soft and I enjoy it.
Speaker 4: I enjoyed it.
Speaker 3: And I don't want to stop it, like like I
Speaker 3: know that that's part of I know that's been I
Speaker 3: think as women, we have that in us naturally, but
Speaker 3: I feel like that's something that like I really want
Speaker 3: to I'm proud of and I want to like lead
Speaker 3: with that more too, so whether it's with this person
Speaker 3: or whoever is my lover and my person, but it's
Speaker 3: I just feel like my heart, you know what it is.
Speaker 3: Like I was thinking about our our retreats and how
Speaker 3: we you know, work with Sylvia and we do those
Speaker 3: like you know, the heart opening ceremony and delany and
Speaker 3: I remember the first time that we did it in
Speaker 3: Costa Rica, like that was hard for me, Like I
Speaker 3: could feel how closed and guarded and like all the
Speaker 3: boundaries that I'm so proud of too, like there, and
Speaker 3: I think that's to the lesson too, is like I'm
Speaker 3: I'm I'm trusting myself to know that I have I
Speaker 3: have the boundaries.
Speaker 4: Don't worry. You're good on that.
Speaker 3: Part, you know, like you're not gonna portray your like
Speaker 3: you might betray yourself, but that part is not. Actually no,
Speaker 3: I'm not, but that part you're good at. But when
Speaker 3: I did that exercise, I was like, Yo, this shit
Speaker 3: is like to the opening of your heart.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Yeah, So I feel like it's slowly but surely my heart.
Speaker 4: And my heart is slowly opening eyes I'm not gonna
Speaker 4: be such a cold bitch.
Speaker 3: One one ray of light just enter your cold, black hot.
Speaker 1: I can feel.
Speaker 3: No, but there are space and things and places that
Speaker 3: I get really triggered and it's like nope, no thanks.
Speaker 5: It's interesting, like how much work we've done and you've
Speaker 5: done and then like there's.
Speaker 1: It's just you got to go deeper. You've got to
Speaker 1: go deeper.
Speaker 5: Stop And it's and it tends to just a lot
Speaker 5: of times be mostly digging deeper into yourself. And by
Speaker 5: way of relationships, you know, we get different versions of
Speaker 5: ourselves with different people.
Speaker 1: Yeah, because they're mirrors, yeah, and they bring out different
Speaker 1: things in you.
Speaker 5: And there's no person alike. So every relationship is going
Speaker 5: to draw a different version of you out in some ways.
Speaker 5: And you know, as we evolve, when we attract partners
Speaker 5: that are evolved semi evolved, you know, we're all evolving.
Speaker 5: But it's just I realize you you know, like even
Speaker 5: in manifesting, a lot of women like I want I
Speaker 5: want to do the Sierra prayer, I want this type
Speaker 5: of relationship, I want this, I want that, and I
Speaker 5: want a kid and I want to pick a fence
Speaker 5: and like that, like those are amongst my shit too.
Speaker 5: But it's it's really interesting that even when you get
Speaker 5: those things, or you get like attract a partner that's
Speaker 5: you know, on the same level of you, and ways
Speaker 5: are like you know, like not as not the the toxicity,
Speaker 5: and you know, there's an evolution of the partners that
Speaker 5: you choose. You get to start to see like how
Speaker 5: you evolve with the people that you start to gravitate towards.
Speaker 5: But like it's also those relationships cause you to have
Speaker 5: to dig so much deeper in yourself and and and
Speaker 5: reflect and notice like tam, that is some like some
Speaker 5: deep wound that I have that has nothing to do
Speaker 5: with this, or that's some deep, deep, even deeper shit
Speaker 5: that I have to work through, or you know, I'm
Speaker 5: really having to start like you know, taking responsibility and
Speaker 5: healing those those parts of yourself and recognize them. I
Speaker 5: think it's just like this other portion of healing that
Speaker 5: we're unlocking. And it's interesting. Yeah, you know, yeah, it's
Speaker 5: too like.
Speaker 3: The five years later, five years later, we're this unlucky
Speaker 3: cheat coat level one.
Speaker 4: I don't think no, I don't think so.
Speaker 3: I think I think that we've we've tended to the
Speaker 3: parts of our things that need attended to at that time,
Speaker 3: and we are I feel like we are getting deeper
Speaker 3: into I don't know, like the soil. We're penetrated for sure.
Speaker 3: This is not level one, but that's the beauty of it.
Speaker 3: It just keeps going and going and going and going.
Speaker 4: You know.
Speaker 3: And it's like how you approach it, Like are you
Speaker 3: going to be savvy to do the work or are
Speaker 3: you going to get excited about it? Are you going
Speaker 3: to like say, Okay, well fuck it, this is what
Speaker 3: life is about. Let's do this, let's try this. Like damn,
Speaker 3: I don't like that. Oh that feels good still, you know,
Speaker 3: So I am I'm inviting and I know that like
Speaker 3: to at this point in my life that every person
Speaker 3: that my love space friendships, whatever it might be, like,
Speaker 3: I trust that I am actively working on myself to
Speaker 3: know that those people that come through, whether they are
Speaker 3: healed unhealed, and like they're meant to come for a
Speaker 3: reason and teach me something or show me something or
Speaker 3: have me say yep, you yep, you still don't need that,
Speaker 3: you know, like all of them. So I don't know,
Speaker 3: it's it's good. It's scary though, I mean, I I
Speaker 3: think I always thought, like my father wound would be
Speaker 3: healed by my father or something.
Speaker 4: And I think that that's also the lesson too.
Speaker 3: It's like the people that gave you the wound aren't
Speaker 3: necessarily going to be the one to heal it. In fact,
Speaker 3: most of the time, it's not, you know, And granted
Speaker 3: there's been healing for sure, like my dad, we have
Speaker 3: like he's done his part to make me feel safe
Speaker 3: in our relationship, but.
Speaker 4: There was still more. There's still there is still more,
Speaker 4: you know that.
Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't even know if you can heal
Speaker 3: this part, Like I got to figure this out right
Speaker 3: and do the work or meet someone else who represents
Speaker 3: you in a way or part of you and allow
Speaker 3: that person or that relationship to heal that.
Speaker 1: Part regain the trust in a different way.
Speaker 4: Yeah, So it's it's but I don't know that it's
Speaker 4: just people just are people just do shit.
Speaker 3: Like never there's never going to be a time where
Speaker 3: like someone doesn't lie to you about something you know,
Speaker 3: And it's like, I think it's how you decide to
Speaker 3: or any trauma, Like there's never going to be a
Speaker 3: time where like you're faced with something that triggers a
Speaker 3: trauma on you, and it's just really like how you
Speaker 3: want to stomach it moving forward and digest it, or
Speaker 3: like roll it off your back moving forward.
Speaker 5: That's true, And I think that's another thing, like when
Speaker 5: you're when you have are you committed to healing? You
Speaker 5: can roll it off your back or you could be like, damn,
Speaker 5: there's this thing that's still bothering me and I can't
Speaker 5: like and you can't ignore it, or you can approach
Speaker 5: it head on and be like, oh wow, there's more
Speaker 5: work to do, and I'm excited to get past this
Speaker 5: because who knows what's another side of that, you know,
Speaker 5: And like I feel that like even being in a
Speaker 5: relationship that is like super healthy and like fucking amazing
Speaker 5: and honest and intimate and like on the same page
Speaker 5: and transparent, all these things, Like I still see things
Speaker 5: in me coming up that are me things, you know,
Speaker 5: and it requires that I acknowledge them. And you know,
Speaker 5: sometimes I can acknowledge things in myself and it takes
Speaker 5: a really hard time for me to like get them out,
Speaker 5: which is surprising. But I mean, but honestly, like this
Speaker 5: space makes me more comfortable in the oddest way. I
Speaker 5: don't know how this happened, maybe because we started in
Speaker 5: the dining room, but it's just like I recognize that,
Speaker 5: you know, even Sylvia told me, and I won't forget this.
Speaker 5: It is like you really require like a divine masculine
Speaker 5: to heal parts of you.
Speaker 1: And it resonated with me. But also it was like
Speaker 1: fuck that.
Speaker 5: I don't need shit to do shit, you know, but
Speaker 5: like it's true, and it has healed a lot of
Speaker 5: my trust and like I just feel like so much
Speaker 5: inherited suspicion and distrust that I have that I truly
Speaker 5: feel like it's inherited. Like I feel ways that I'm
Speaker 5: triggered or have assumptions that I know I adopted from
Speaker 5: my mom's behavior, and like that's scary. And even like,
Speaker 5: you know, this month is Love Thyself February, so I
Speaker 5: guess we're gonna get really deep. But even like womb
Speaker 5: like healing, you know, speaking with Queen of Fua and stuff,
Speaker 5: it's just like when I start to be realistic with
Speaker 5: my relationship I've had with my womb or my you know,
Speaker 5: my Yoni, as I like, as I'm like getting further
Speaker 5: in this really healthy relationship, I still find things that
Speaker 5: come up that are triggering, and I know that I'm safe,
Speaker 5: but I realize, like these are this is a direct
Speaker 5: result of like moving past shit quickly and not tending
Speaker 5: to it for a long time, and.
Speaker 4: Just like the like you can't run from it.
Speaker 1: You can't.
Speaker 5: And I had a feeling the other day of like,
Speaker 5: this sounds so intense, I text you, but I was
Speaker 5: like feeling used, like my like feeling like disposable and use,
Speaker 5: like just to be like fucked and thrown away. And
Speaker 5: it came up and I was like it was so clear,
Speaker 5: and I was.
Speaker 3: Like, huh, Like damn, I still have to like face
Speaker 3: these things, like some things that I've ignored because I
Speaker 3: didn't want to deal with them or I felt ashamed
Speaker 3: or I felt like things were my fault.
Speaker 1: But there are still some heavy womb like womb wounds
Speaker 1: that I have to deal with.
Speaker 5: And even in a relationship, like you don't just get
Speaker 5: a healthy relationship and then all that shit is it's gone.
Speaker 3: You're like, oh, I'm happy, I've well it can for
Speaker 3: sextended amounts of time, but then you can't run from it,
Speaker 3: like it eventually shows up like anything in any any space.
Speaker 5: And so I had to like sit with that and
Speaker 5: like and what times did I feel that way? And
Speaker 5: what relationships did I feel that way? And there were
Speaker 5: many times I didn't feel safe where I felt like you.
Speaker 3: Should really look at Quina Fua's and her the sacred
Speaker 3: woman that Journals Journal prompts right, well that that kind
Speaker 3: of like that not cute it, but I don't know,
Speaker 3: like it's you know, alignment one.
Speaker 5: Thing and then everything else will. Yeah, So it's just
Speaker 5: it's it's you know, it's really interesting. It's just like
Speaker 5: even even things that you think you've avoided you can't
Speaker 5: avoid forever, like when you push down emotions and you
Speaker 5: push down traumatic experiences, when you push down like all
Speaker 5: those things and you start to numb yourself out, which
Speaker 5: you know, like I'm a cancer, so I'm super fucking sensitive.
Speaker 5: So that's a defense mechanism strongly for me.
Speaker 3: Like just like you said, like fuck you fuck that
Speaker 3: like isolate, but it's just like it still has to
Speaker 3: be dealt with.
Speaker 1: Every there's no it's there's no disappearing. You can't.
Speaker 3: Like the more you sweep under the carpet, you at
Speaker 3: some point it will come out from underneath.
Speaker 1: That bitch. It doesn't disappear.
Speaker 4: It doesn't. No, it doesn't.
Speaker 3: It's it's true. It just it shows up. Sometimes it
Speaker 3: shows up in relationships. Sometimes it doesn't show up in relationships.
Speaker 3: Sometimes it shows up in your own the way your
Speaker 3: body reacts to something and just triggers you. Like there's
Speaker 3: so many you can't you really can't.
Speaker 5: You can't decide when you're gonna deal with it. In fact,
Speaker 5: it will decide for you if if you choose to
Speaker 5: ignore it, and like it will continue to come up.
Speaker 3: And like sometimes it's more apparent when someone's doing the
Speaker 3: wronging to you versus I'm happy now and why do
Speaker 3: I feel this way?
Speaker 4: Then it's like oh, right.
Speaker 5: Well, but right right, right, Like when there's a reason
Speaker 5: when you're like when you're in a toxic relationship, you
Speaker 5: could be like, oh, this is coming.
Speaker 1: Up because this person is terrible for me. Yeah. But
Speaker 1: when you're in like a happy relationship.
Speaker 3: And it's still comes up those feelings, how you know
Speaker 3: for sure, like this is this is work, there's work
Speaker 3: here that has to be done, or like there's something
Speaker 3: here that I haven't fully dealt with. But it also
Speaker 3: has taken me to a certain level of like self
Speaker 3: awareness to identify those feelings because sometimes, like I haven't
Speaker 3: always been able to put words. You know, sometimes you'll
Speaker 3: feel ways and then you just because they're uncomfortable, you
Speaker 3: immediately avoid.
Speaker 4: You don't even want to put words to them.
Speaker 1: Feelings are real, yeah, real, then it's real.
Speaker 3: So but then it's like allowing even those feelings to sit,
Speaker 3: putting words to those feelings, communicating those feelings, rehashing some
Speaker 3: shit that happened who fucking knows how long ago, and
Speaker 3: then like all that uncomfortable shit that comes.
Speaker 1: With that part. But you know, it's you have to
Speaker 1: do it.
Speaker 5: And I and I realized just like even talking like
Speaker 5: with the Sacred the Sacred Woman is just like I
Speaker 5: don't think that we oftentimes are thinking like as a unit,
Speaker 5: like our mind, our yoni, that's all that's connected, you.
Speaker 1: Know, Like I for sure haven't.
Speaker 5: I'm for sure disconnected you know, myself from my womb
Speaker 5: before and like I told you, even at the last retreat,
Speaker 5: that started to come up, like feeling like electrical wiring
Speaker 5: from my heart to my womb, and I was like,
Speaker 5: what's that? But it's like spirit telling my mind and
Speaker 5: my body telling me like bitch, this is what needs
Speaker 5: to be worked on, and because you've forgotten that these
Speaker 5: things are connected and like opening up your heart and
Speaker 5: you know, and just feeling safe. And I think as women,
Speaker 5: we forget that, like that little Yoni is an entity, girl,
Speaker 5: and it holds so much energy and it is sacred
Speaker 5: and we do create and it is like the black
Speaker 5: hole of the universe. It is where we bring babies,
Speaker 5: It is where we hold intimacy, and we exchange sacred
Speaker 5: secret secrets and shit we don't we can't even seeing
Speaker 5: in bringing in energy of people that we don't even know,
Speaker 5: and so it requires tending.
Speaker 4: To for sure. For sure.
Speaker 3: I think of like that when they were like I
Speaker 3: think I think everyone's brother on the ornet. Maybe not,
Speaker 3: but like how when you have sexual partners, like there's
Speaker 3: still like remnants of their semen inside of inside of.
Speaker 1: You, like when you die. That's what they say for women.
Speaker 5: It's like once you have once you take a man's seamen,
Speaker 5: there's always remnants of it in your When I think
Speaker 5: of that.
Speaker 3: And I think of just energy, I think of just
Speaker 3: also just like the fluids of our body and our
Speaker 3: life source, Like it's almost like a like they become
Speaker 3: like it creates as like blueprint of like anything that's
Speaker 3: gonna be like from that too, and that's why you
Speaker 3: have to heal it.
Speaker 5: Well, even think of like, uh, we were in our
Speaker 5: mother's wombs. When they were in their mothers, it becomes cellular,
Speaker 5: like it is.
Speaker 3: Cellular, Like yeah, I carried Luna and whatever whatever womb
Speaker 3: Luna carries, I carried that one too.
Speaker 5: We've all at one point been inside and it continues.
Speaker 5: So it is cellular. And that's why I'm feeling those
Speaker 5: inherited feelings of distress or those inherited feelings of not
Speaker 5: feeling safe. Those are things you also have to deal with.
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 3: Oh fuck fuck, That's why I've been avoiding you for.
Speaker 4: So do it for our future.
Speaker 1: We have to lessen the loads, just untangle the web for.
Speaker 3: Our future descendants, you know, and for the ancestors or
Speaker 3: lighter for them.
Speaker 4: That's my gift to you. This is my gift to you,
Speaker 4: great great great great GRANDDAUGHTERA.
Speaker 3: I mean, and think of our daughters absolutely, I mean, shit,
Speaker 3: what's been done in the womb has been done in
Speaker 3: the motherfucking womb.
Speaker 4: Okay, I can't go back from.
Speaker 3: Them, no, I can't, you know, like there's things I
Speaker 3: wish I could have like handled better. There's people I
Speaker 3: wish I would have handled better.
Speaker 4: Like all types of shit. Way I would have treated
Speaker 4: my body better.
Speaker 5: Well, I think I think that like that is important
Speaker 5: to note too, because I think that thought is overwhelming.
Speaker 4: It is for.
Speaker 5: Women, and like that idea that we hold the energy
Speaker 5: of every nigga we ever let in, like.
Speaker 1: Lord God, I hope.
Speaker 5: Not Jesus, but like I think even that primary thought
Speaker 5: is so overwhelming that that is a part of the
Speaker 5: thing that avoids you from doing the work. I don't
Speaker 5: want to think about all these niggas I let into
Speaker 5: my body. I don't want to feel like this, I
Speaker 5: made this decision and now I have like you know,
Speaker 5: like there's so much shame that comes with being a
Speaker 5: sexual woman that like they're like the shit. It wasn't
Speaker 5: until like two years ago I've realized my full worth,
Speaker 5: you know, like that the full scope of all Like
Speaker 5: the weight of that is so heavy that it tends
Speaker 5: to make us avoid dealing with our womb.
Speaker 1: That's a part of the disconnection. There's so much shame
Speaker 1: associated with.
Speaker 3: You know, your history or who you fucked or you know,
Speaker 3: like if you're worthy. It's just like you have to
Speaker 3: peel that off, that shit off too, Like we've all
Speaker 3: done some shit and we're all here to heal. We've
Speaker 3: all fucked, we've all enjoyed it, we've all made decisions
Speaker 3: and fucked with the lower vibrational nigga or ten, you know,
Speaker 3: And and it's we have to acknowledge that we're all
Speaker 3: healing some deep wounds and that is okay. And because
Speaker 3: we're women, it's not heavier for us, actually more powerful
Speaker 3: and we have the inate ability to heal ourselves. And
Speaker 3: so just like not getting so overwhelmed with that.
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, for sure.
Speaker 3: I think it's it's there's so much beauty and just
Speaker 3: allowing the process to take place and not like it's
Speaker 3: just a step by step, like you don't have to
Speaker 3: conquer your womb in a day. It's like conquering Rome
Speaker 3: in a day, you know what I mean. Like they're like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, do I need this book?
Speaker 4: Do I need this? Do I need that?
Speaker 3: Do I need to you know, do I need to
Speaker 3: hate myself a little bit right now because I did
Speaker 3: all this shit? Like it's like facing your twenties or
Speaker 3: facing your teenage or facing like the parts of you
Speaker 3: that you feel like you've like matured out of, but
Speaker 3: without being hurtful to yourself.
Speaker 1: And that's hard.
Speaker 5: That's hard because we've all done some stupid shit and
Speaker 5: we've all let some shit slide. But we've also all
Speaker 5: been conditioned by this idea that things are our fault
Speaker 5: when we're violated, or when we're hurt, or when we
Speaker 5: don't know better, or when we're seeking we're seeking just
Speaker 5: something that feels good because we're seeking validation and so
Speaker 5: we're seeking love and we don't really know the healthy
Speaker 5: route to that. It's okay to like to recognize that
Speaker 5: it takes time to recognize those things too, you know.
Speaker 4: That's true.
Speaker 3: It's easier said than done, however, very very possible, and
Speaker 3: just be yourself. I think that's been like the theme
Speaker 3: of this It has been the theme of this whole
Speaker 3: month is like just one day at a time.
Speaker 1: Girl, Gentle healing, Gentle healing, gentle lessons.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 3: I was reading something on the internet and we're talking
Speaker 3: about like how a lot of the self care that
Speaker 3: we see is not actually self care, it's aftercare and
Speaker 3: that like and that's the problem.
Speaker 4: Like, and I was like damn.
Speaker 3: I was like, how much after caring have I done
Speaker 3: for myself to just avoid something and just like let
Speaker 3: me just do this. I'm actually like, you know what
Speaker 3: I mean, Like it's the aftercare. I was like, whoa,
Speaker 3: that's deep. And I think especially for like I don't know,
Speaker 3: I mean, I think it's all women, but I think
Speaker 3: that like the self care movement is for white women.
Speaker 1: What do you mean.
Speaker 3: I don't mean like that self care is for white women,
Speaker 3: but that like their access to it is higher than
Speaker 3: the ways and so therefore, like we are and we're
Speaker 3: often using the form of aftercare because we are like
Speaker 3: facing so much throughout the day just because of you know,
Speaker 3: whether it's socioeconomic status, whether you're black, you're brown, how
Speaker 3: you show up in the world, that there's like this
Speaker 3: level of like the self care actually isn't the self
Speaker 3: care actually isn't helping. It's fucking, it's hoping, it's coping. Yeah,
Speaker 3: apps fucking litely, apps of fucking lily. Like when you
Speaker 3: are struggling for the base your basic needs to just.
Speaker 1: Survive, what the fuck self care? Self care is the survival.
Speaker 3: You know, but it's not even necessarily like basic needs
Speaker 3: like food, water. Okay, let's say you have that, but
Speaker 3: you are struggling mentally and there's no resources for you,
Speaker 3: at least you don't know where they are. You don't
Speaker 3: feel safe because you've been grown up in a family
Speaker 3: that has made therapy or any sort of like assistance
Speaker 3: outside of you know, whatever it is you believe seem
Speaker 3: like you're weak or there's something wrong with you, and therefore,
Speaker 3: like you're just now practicing after care by.
Speaker 1: Traveling a lot or hang.
Speaker 3: Out with friends or like getting massages, like you're not
Speaker 3: actually enjoying the fruits of self care, like it's really
Speaker 3: because of your coping. And I was like, I don't know.
Speaker 3: I've read that, and I got really deep in my head.
Speaker 3: I was like, oh my god, we're am I only
Speaker 3: doing aftercare?
Speaker 4: Like what is self care?
Speaker 3: And I'm just thinking about like yeah, that and loving
Speaker 3: yourself and like just the journey of all of those things.
Speaker 1: Well, I think that's true.
Speaker 5: I think like you could go to yoga, you could
Speaker 5: go on vacation, you can like hang out with friends,
Speaker 5: but if you're not asking yourself those really deep questions
Speaker 5: and you're not tackling them head on, and you're not crying.
Speaker 1: I mean yeah, and are you really honoring yourself? Are
Speaker 1: you really? Are you really which is.
Speaker 4: Really what self care is about, is honoring yourself right.
Speaker 5: Right at the root of it, tending to yourself so
Speaker 5: that you can grow. But if you're just like covering
Speaker 5: it up more with like pedicures, because the.
Speaker 3: Real true self care is yeah, you can do all
Speaker 3: these things, but like like are you honoring yourself in
Speaker 3: these moments of these things? Are you really taking care
Speaker 3: and tending to yourself? Or are you putting a band
Speaker 3: aid over something? Are you actually avoiding yourself in these
Speaker 3: self care moments?
Speaker 4: You know? So I don't know, it's just the thought
Speaker 4: that I had.
Speaker 1: It's like that's deep.
Speaker 5: I didn't ever thought about that, but that's absolutely true.
Speaker 5: And I think it even speaks a lot to like,
Speaker 5: you know, for us, Like you know, we've built this
Speaker 5: like amazing brand, top one percent of podcasts in the world, baby,
Speaker 5: and you know, births all these other business babies from it,
Speaker 5: and still there's like so much anxiety and fear and
Speaker 5: like it's because you've never been in this position before.
Speaker 5: And it's like you can prepare and prepare and be
Speaker 5: like work work, work, I'm gonna get this and don't
Speaker 5: do this, and they're like, oh shit, it's here, Oh shit,
Speaker 5: that's here, And then you're here. You're like, am I happy?
Speaker 5: I'm happy to how I got it?
Speaker 1: Yeah? Am I stressed? I'm still stressed, you know.
Speaker 5: And it's not that we're not grateful, but it's like like, yeah,
Speaker 5: like if you haven't if you're not at peace, then
Speaker 5: none of those things. You know, you haven't learned how
Speaker 5: to access the peace, and you haven't learned how to
Speaker 5: thrive at a certain level and maintain those things.
Speaker 1: That not knowing is going to scare you.
Speaker 4: Yeah.
Speaker 5: Yes, So I think for love Thyself twenty twenty three,
Speaker 5: I'm going to be really focusing on my like my womb,
Speaker 5: like my womb wounds and my worthiness, which I think
Speaker 5: is tied and connected and just like trusting spirit and
Speaker 5: just knowing that I'm worthy, and I'm just stepping into
Speaker 5: my mother fucking power, right, bitch, that's right, right, you know,
Speaker 5: Like I'm a badass bitch, ju are And I do
Speaker 5: everything I say I'm going to do, and I you know,
Speaker 5: and like that's amazing. Like when I have an idea,
Speaker 5: it comes to fruition. I see it through and through.
Speaker 5: I see it till it's tangible. And that's dope, you know,
Speaker 5: And I'm sexy.
Speaker 4: Yes, you are.
Speaker 1: My pussy's wet.
Speaker 4: So I mean, I don't know.
Speaker 1: I mean it is it is you trust your friends.
Speaker 3: I know that it is, but I don't know that
Speaker 3: because whatever you know what.
Speaker 1: We know way too much about it. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: don't ask him an every single fact.
Speaker 5: You're just gonna keep the rumor going that maybe, just
Speaker 5: maybe we've slept together.
Speaker 1: It might be getting us more views. I don't know.
Speaker 4: I mean, we're hot, we are both really fine as fuck, So.
Speaker 5: I don't doubt that somewhere someone has had a mental
Speaker 5: fantasy getting through weighted by us.
Speaker 1: In fact, I think someone told us that. So that's
Speaker 1: the fact.
Speaker 4: So it's fact.
Speaker 1: Another another braggable moment.
Speaker 3: And if you haven't yet you will now just imagine
Speaker 3: sitting right here in the middle of this couch, close
Speaker 3: your eyes. You could just slowly zip down this eighties
Speaker 3: one piece jumper and then Erica is gonna slowly remove
Speaker 3: her four piece business professional sex it blaze it get
Speaker 3: on YouTube so you can see these outfits.
Speaker 4: Like you like Sally Jesse, Raphael and I was like,
Speaker 4: where is she? I love her?
Speaker 1: Is she alive?
Speaker 4: I don't know. I feel like she was a scorpio.
Speaker 4: She gave me like scorpio vibes.
Speaker 1: We might need to look it up.
Speaker 4: Same Sally, good old Sally, Do you have an affirmation?
Speaker 1: I love for the day I did? What was it? I?
Speaker 1: I I welcome. I welcome gentle healing, even when who
Speaker 1: was it? Even when I fucking up?
Speaker 4: I fuck it up?
Speaker 5: I welcome gentle gentle lessons, even when I fuck it up.
Speaker 3: I welcome gentle lessons, even when I fuck it up.
Speaker 4: I like that.
Speaker 3: Okay, I think that's legendary, Okay, perfect, just like Sally
Speaker 3: Jesse Raphael.
Speaker 4: Who is not a scorpio?
Speaker 1: Who is she?
Speaker 4: Lea? I think she's a Pisces cusp of Aquarius. It
Speaker 4: is February twenty fifth, Aquarius and Pisces.
Speaker 1: Yep, yeah she's I could see that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's eighty seven, she's still wive. Okay, Sally, Oh
Speaker 3: my god, she's eighty. We haven't seen her in years.
Speaker 3: I wonder how she's doing.
Speaker 1: She's probably rich.
Speaker 4: She's probably like in a nursing home.
Speaker 1: No, why haven't we seen Sally?
Speaker 5: Then she would be out she's white, she put her
Speaker 5: money into good places. No one's taking care of her.
Speaker 5: I hope that would be a fucking tragedy.
Speaker 4: Okay, well now.
Speaker 1: She's in at home.
Speaker 5: Why the fuck would you put that on Sally? She
Speaker 5: was a fucking icon.
Speaker 4: Where is Sally?
Speaker 3: Jesse Raphael, I'm starting a campaign. I feel like that's
Speaker 3: a hashtag. Where's Murray? Where's where's uh? Jerry Springer he
Speaker 3: was a man like the father of our around. Uncle
Speaker 3: Jerry is rich.
Speaker 4: I feel like he was like I feel like he
Speaker 4: was like Hugh Hafner for of TV.
Speaker 5: He was I saw I saw something that he brought
Speaker 5: put out that he takes responsibility. He feels kind of
Speaker 5: bad for like poisoning our our generation. And I said,
Speaker 5: you were a fucking icon, Uncle Jerry, you.
Speaker 1: Need to chill.
Speaker 4: He did do some poisoning.
Speaker 1: There was, I mean hip hop.
Speaker 4: It kind of was the set off of that. It
Speaker 4: was inspired by.
Speaker 1: It was like I feel like it was.
Speaker 5: It was racially like it was like white trash and
Speaker 5: black so was everybody wasn't.
Speaker 1: Just specifically.
Speaker 4: Yeah, Sally, Okay, sorry, I'm sorry.
Speaker 6: Tarot time, Terot time, terot time, beaches, I chose the
Speaker 6: Two of Pentacles and the two of Pentacles.
Speaker 3: A young man dances well, juggling two coins in his hands.
Speaker 3: The infinity symbol links the coin, suggesting that this man
Speaker 3: can handle unlimited problems so lag, so long as he
Speaker 3: manages his time, energy, and resource as well. In the background,
Speaker 3: two ships sail the high seas, bobbing up and down
Speaker 3: on the huge waves, another sign that there's ups and
Speaker 3: downs of life are manageable with focus and attention.
Speaker 1: What the fuck? How does this always happen?
Speaker 4: Witches?
Speaker 1: Witches?
Speaker 5: Okay, when the two of Pentacles appears in a tarot reading,
Speaker 5: it's safe to say you're juggling your priorities, roles, and responsibilities.
Speaker 5: For examples, he may be a working parent, my kid's
Speaker 5: another room, a general manager of a business this is
Speaker 5: my business, and an administrative assistant in a busy off
Speaker 5: almost at the assistic we are our office is busy,
Speaker 5: or someone who works multiple jobs.
Speaker 1: Yeah it's me, it's me. I'm Jamaican. In the upright position.
Speaker 1: This card knows you are doing an excellent job.
Speaker 5: Of balancing these different priorities and you can take on
Speaker 5: whatever life throws at you. But this two reminds you
Speaker 5: that the line between coping with these demands and losing
Speaker 5: control is thin. You need to manage your time, energy,
Speaker 5: and resources carefully so you do not lose your balance.
Speaker 5: The two of pinnacles often appears when you are busy
Speaker 5: rushing from one thing to the next with little downtime
Speaker 5: in between. You may tell yourself that you haven't had
Speaker 5: enough time or you're in a rush. However, remember that
Speaker 5: you don't have to be busy to get things done.
Speaker 5: Sometimes taking a break is the most productive thing you
Speaker 5: can do. Similarly, the two pentacles can appear when you
Speaker 5: are getting caught up in the day to day demands
Speaker 5: and losing sight of the bigger picture. If this resonates,
Speaker 5: ask yourself, what life do I want and how can
Speaker 5: I reorganize my schedule to recreate the life I desire.
Speaker 5: It invites you to manage your time and your priorities carefully.
Speaker 5: Your workload is high right now, and to get everything
Speaker 5: done you need to stay focused and productive. You may
Speaker 5: benefit from a to do list, better better calendar management,
Speaker 5: shout out to Nelly, and a sucter schedule. You may
Speaker 5: even enlist the support of an assistant or business coach.
Speaker 5: To help you make the right changes.
Speaker 4: To a business coach, I forgot those exists.
Speaker 1: I think we need one.
Speaker 5: Basic time management is crucial to your ability to juggle
Speaker 5: these various priorities and keep your head above water. This
Speaker 5: card also reminds you to pay special attention to your
Speaker 5: general administration, including paying bills, managing finances, staying on top
Speaker 5: of your commitments, and maintaining your diary. Be careful that
Speaker 5: you do not miss important deadlines, meetings, and other obligations.
Speaker 3: Shout out to Audrey, Okay, I love that for us,
Speaker 3: it sounds like we're handling everything well.
Speaker 4: We are, and we're going to continue to We.
Speaker 1: Are handling everything well.
Speaker 4: We are amazing business women.
Speaker 1: We are phenomenal business women. Our power fucking We.
Speaker 3: Are guided our spirits, our intuition, our partnership, our entity.
Speaker 1: We're protected.
Speaker 3: We make thoughtful decisions. We're not hasty. We know our value.
Speaker 3: We don't say yes to everything, but we say yes
Speaker 3: to a lot and the things that our spirit says
Speaker 3: yes to.
Speaker 5: Wet manifest generators. We are and we are meant to
Speaker 5: be where we're at, doing what we're supposed to be
Speaker 5: doing what we're doing, and for that reason, everything flows
Speaker 5: to us easily and with ease.
Speaker 1: In abundance.
Speaker 3: Well, guys, side note, I was looking at the Discord
Speaker 3: because I wanted to find a whorry because.
Speaker 4: We got lots and lots of hories in there.
Speaker 3: They're just some of them are very, very long, and
Speaker 3: others are, you know, too short.
Speaker 1: So not too long and too short. So did you
Speaker 1: find one something? Right?
Speaker 4: I don't know. I was going to just like shuffle
Speaker 4: through and just pick one. I don't know. I don't
Speaker 4: think we've done this.
Speaker 3: Nope, maybe this this is from one of our fellow
Speaker 3: Discord gentlemen. Okay, there's also one about period sex threesomes.
Speaker 5: A period sex during a threesome. Well, I don't know
Speaker 5: if I've ever done that one.
Speaker 4: No, not bold enough?
Speaker 1: Oh I have? Actually, no, you have?
Speaker 4: Are you sure?
Speaker 1: Are you sure you haven't done it? I know? Okay,
Speaker 1: shut up that kind of I was not that bold. Okay,
Speaker 1: Well it was light.
Speaker 5: Oh my god, I have because one time I remember
Speaker 5: me and my friend party at this guy and she
Speaker 5: was riding him and I was sitting on his face.
Speaker 5: And the next day she was like, I could see
Speaker 5: your tampon stirring on his chin. She's like when I
Speaker 5: was riding him, was so funny. Your tam punch string
Speaker 5: was on his chin. This is like ten years ago.
Speaker 5: Oh my god, that was There's no way you can
Speaker 5: feel that. I mean, we're all drunk, but there's no
Speaker 5: way you can't feel tamp. He's a nasty nigga.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't think it's nasty. I think that's perfectly fine.
Speaker 1: I think it makes perfect sense to me. It stopped
Speaker 1: up focus on the clip.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I think it's fine.
Speaker 3: I think like I had an X that didn't give
Speaker 3: a fuck, and now I like, my standards are that.
Speaker 4: Those are my standards now. I don't like, you're not
Speaker 4: allowed to not like.
Speaker 1: No, I'm not with it because I know some niggas
Speaker 1: that well.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't expect you to do it all the time,
Speaker 4: but you should.
Speaker 5: I'm not losing out. I'm like, you should two years
Speaker 5: of sex because my period.
Speaker 4: Mm. So here's one.
Speaker 7: Okay, horror stories, hor stories, it's short, who stories.
Speaker 3: So I had my first intimate threesome with my boyfriend
Speaker 3: and this girl, and I realized how much I need
Speaker 3: that balance of feminine and masculine all the time. I whispered,
Speaker 3: sweet nothings in her ear, pulled her hair, stroked and
Speaker 3: caressed her while he fucked her.
Speaker 4: Sounds beautiful.
Speaker 3: It's really nice. I've experienced that before. It's really nice
Speaker 3: person receiving that. Okay, yeah, I was in Unicorn. It
Speaker 3: was beautiful plot twist. We were both on our periods.
Speaker 3: So now my man got a nickname for calling me
Speaker 3: a ketchup packet. Oh my god, wait, a ketchup not
Speaker 3: ketchup packet.
Speaker 1: That's a long ass nickname, is it?
Speaker 3: Because the ketchup got like? Is it just squash? Finished
Speaker 3: this up? Okay, Okay, I don't. I didn't care, though
Speaker 3: I did a little. I did a little spit shine
Speaker 3: and sucked on her clit and fingered her and cleaned up.
Speaker 3: I sat on her face and there were no complaints.
Speaker 3: Still need to read you to truly slut a woman out,
Speaker 3: But I have no regrets.
Speaker 1: She said she didn't slutter around enough.
Speaker 4: Yeah, she needs to redo.
Speaker 1: Okay, she was just going gentle to start.
Speaker 5: That was beautiful. I mean, you definitely a spell on him.
Speaker 5: That's some blood both blood sex magic for sure.
Speaker 4: See.
Speaker 3: That's that would be my hold up in allowing another
Speaker 3: woman to have sex with my man on her period.
Speaker 1: I have, I have.
Speaker 5: I think that's the boundary for I have certain things.
Speaker 5: I'm like, no, that's only my job.
Speaker 4: I think that's a threecome boundary for me.
Speaker 1: Yeah right, yeah, we don't both need to be in
Speaker 1: our periods. Will wait for you to come back you
Speaker 1: now call us in about five to seven daries.
Speaker 5: But you, nigga, you you better get tended she goes home,
Speaker 5: come here.
Speaker 1: But you know, I'm I'm I'm jealousy.
Speaker 3: I mean, no, I don't think that's geos. I think
Speaker 3: that's perfectly normal.
Speaker 5: Well, I think it's it's a spell that must be
Speaker 5: like really close.
Speaker 1: Maybe that they're really close friends.
Speaker 4: I don't know. But that's just my boundary. Doesn't have
Speaker 4: to be everybody else's.
Speaker 3: But no, no, no, no, no, no no, I'm the only
Speaker 3: ketchup packing motherfucker.
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, you know, blood bonds hold a very special
Speaker 5: high regard in my relationship.
Speaker 1: I have everybody doing it. Might have you stuck like
Speaker 1: chuck like me?
Speaker 4: Oh my god?
Speaker 1: Get anything to add to this to this week's episode.
Speaker 4: I think this concludes the episode.
Speaker 3: The moral of the story is talk good to yourself
Speaker 3: out loud all the time.
Speaker 5: And to your loved ones to your loved ones, and
Speaker 5: normalize bragging about yourself just a little bit, actually a lot.
Speaker 1: Fuck it just go all the way, yep.
Speaker 3: I agree, And yeah, check in with yourself. Be honest
Speaker 3: with yourself even if you feel really good, just you know,
Speaker 3: never stop asking questions. I feel like, even in your happiness,
Speaker 3: because I feel like that's what happens. We get comfortable
Speaker 3: and then the shit is exposed. But if we just
Speaker 3: are always kind of curious about where we're at, then
Speaker 3: we're always kind of like happily doing the work instead
Speaker 3: of like being triggered or like just things coming up unexpectedly.
Speaker 5: Well, it doesn't always have to be like triggers, don't
Speaker 5: have to be some like abrasive thing. And I think
Speaker 5: sometimes we think that it could be just literally feeling
Speaker 5: a little bit uncomfort and then sitting with it. But
Speaker 5: I like, let it get a little uncomfortable and sit
Speaker 5: with it before it does some shit triggers you and
Speaker 5: then you really are like out on the floor trying
Speaker 5: to figure it out, you know, picking up the pieces.
Speaker 1: But yeah, sit with yourself and do the.
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