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Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

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Speaker 1: Mm hmmm. Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 3: I'm Erica and I'm Mila and it's Wednesday some day.

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Speaker 1: And we're back again, back at you, back at.

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Speaker 5: You, Leir Petra Comanasha Clea Patra Vanacha.

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Speaker 4: Genc Comga.

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Speaker 3: Come on that choice, Jimmy Lynn, Erica cominatcha, none of

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Speaker 3: it fucking rolls, Jimmi and Erica was good. Allerica do

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Speaker 3: Manacha no better. We sorry, wait, we're gonna stop, guys,

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Speaker 3: don't leave yet.

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Speaker 5: It's we always got to throw in a nostalgic moment

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Speaker 5: from the early two thousands, just so you know.

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Speaker 4: Hold they were legends in my mind for that year

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Speaker 4: of my life.

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Speaker 1: What happened to them?

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Speaker 3: I was like, Wow, they were like they were like blacks.

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Speaker 3: They were gonna be the Black Spice girls.

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Speaker 1: They were. They were sisters because they're from English.

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Speaker 4: They're funky too. Yeah, there was something.

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Speaker 1: Anyway, Hi, Hi, how are you?

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Speaker 4: I'm good.

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Speaker 3: I'm I've been feeling good because I've been meditating consistently

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Speaker 3: since doing the Open Challenge and it feels really good.

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Speaker 3: And I'm fine as hell and i am capable of

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Speaker 3: all things.

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Speaker 4: So these are fact. You know, you are fine as hell?

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Speaker 5: Open has really after thirty one days, you kind of

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Speaker 5: like inherited as a.

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Speaker 1: Tool're like, oh I can't sleep. Boom. Oh I'm stressed out. Boom.

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Speaker 1: It's just like a little easy like life hack.

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Speaker 3: So yeah, I'm talking about me in positive affirmations.

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Speaker 4: Try to do that every single day.

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Speaker 3: Ask me how I am, how are you well? I'm

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Speaker 3: doing phenomenal. I a so amazing. I'm in my studio,

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Speaker 3: I'm feeling good. I'm fine as hell.

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Speaker 5: I have this eighties vintage disco jogger with no shoulder pads.

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Speaker 4: Although people thought you had shoulder pads on.

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Speaker 1: It's the style of that.

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Speaker 4: I think it's why it's cut. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm a fashion icon.

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Speaker 5: So if you just look through the many YouTube episodes,

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Speaker 5: you will also see I'm a fashion icon in my

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Speaker 5: own right and many different looks. And I'm just so

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Speaker 5: proud to say that to just walk in my purpose

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Speaker 5: as wearing so many hots, including fashion icon of YouTube.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I love that and it's all true.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god. We should we practice talking and affirmations

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Speaker 1: all the time. We should.

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Speaker 3: I really like that's I think I think that's what

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Speaker 3: we have to do moving forward. We're just going to

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Speaker 3: become absurdly overconfident. But it's gonna I.

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Speaker 5: Think Orlando does that already. I don't know why I

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Speaker 5: haven't picked up yet. How are you amazing the blessing

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Speaker 5: of the day. Aren't you so lucky?

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Speaker 1: I'm just so lucky.

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Speaker 3: I'm your co host, I am Aren't you so lucky

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Speaker 3: to know me? I'm so smart, right, I am so.

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Speaker 4: I taught you so much.

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Speaker 1: You're my blessing.

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Speaker 4: I know, so are you.

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Speaker 5: I'm just so thankful for your wisdom and your diligence

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Speaker 5: in our partnership and our friendship.

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Speaker 4: I appreciate you. Thank you.

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Speaker 1: You're great.

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Speaker 4: Thank you.

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Speaker 3: I appreciate your creativity, your intelligence, your graphic design skills,

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Speaker 3: thank you, and just your overall energy that you bring

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Speaker 3: into our business.

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Speaker 4: So thank you.

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Speaker 1: I appreciate that. Thank you.

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Speaker 5: We are just a big blessing, fallow blessings in here.

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Speaker 1: Wooh, should do a light reading?

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Speaker 6: Now?

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Speaker 1: Why is it so corny to talk this way? But

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Speaker 1: we have what we should. I know, right, I.

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Speaker 3: Feel it, and I'm obviously like I'm really received. But

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Speaker 3: it's also a little funny and I'm like, it's not, but.

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Speaker 1: It's all true. It's true, that's true.

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Speaker 4: Only we could all communicate this way.

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Speaker 1: I think.

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Speaker 3: I think you don't have to just be one big

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Speaker 3: orgy of the world. This be one big organy.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, it's called it's it's tantric speech.

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Speaker 6: It is.

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Speaker 1: This is it, this is what they're talking about.

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Speaker 4: I finally get it.

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Speaker 1: You know, all those people who seem absurdly.

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Speaker 5: Happy, they just do it naturally. So now we have

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Speaker 5: to get on the wave.

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Speaker 4: This is our proclamation right here.

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Speaker 5: This is a proclamation that we can do anything because

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Speaker 5: we're great at everything. We're madly talented, good looking, we

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Speaker 5: have soothing, sexy voices and just wow, Like, who would

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Speaker 5: have thought this magic double duo could just witch up

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Speaker 5: the internets and just sprinkle our magic everybody.

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Speaker 1: Even if you were trying to avoid it. You got

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Speaker 1: some of that magic too.

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Speaker 4: Bitch, I know you're still here.

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Speaker 1: It's called the Jamerica Jenerica effect. Did you meet j America.

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Speaker 1: They're so magical.

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Speaker 4: Oh oh, you've attended the Jamerica Effect. You've done that.

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Speaker 1: Wow, I can tell how you're talking about. You've attended

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Speaker 1: the gym America.

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Speaker 4: Do you know America, you know them personally, shut the

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Speaker 4: fuck up.

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Speaker 5: I could tell how you're glowing that you know Jamerica.

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Speaker 5: Call him on the call him on speaker. I want

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Speaker 5: to hear Jamerica speak.

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Speaker 1: It's a cult. It's called America. A good cult. That

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Speaker 1: was beautiful. Well, you know what I thought I was.

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Speaker 3: I was wondering, like, how am I going to evolve

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Speaker 3: with my tantric my tantric teachings? A am I going

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Speaker 3: to get to wear lingerie all the time, which obviously

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Speaker 3: you've already started. It looks like business and sex. I'm Sally,

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Speaker 3: I'm sexy Sally, Sexy Sally, Jesse Raphael.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, and now I remember using our language to only

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Speaker 5: speak positive, highly high vibrational, positive words to ourselves and

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Speaker 5: each other.

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Speaker 1: And even when we have a.

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Speaker 1: Is a unique opportunity to win.

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Speaker 4: Again.

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Speaker 1: Wow, I am growing?

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Speaker 5: Did I do something stupid? Because you know what that means.

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Speaker 5: I am taking accountability and I'm growing.

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Speaker 4: Growth is on the way.

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Speaker 1: It's is it raining? I need to I need God

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Speaker 4: He saw me just so so sell my seats.

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Speaker 1: Did someone hit me on the freeway. They mightn't need

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Speaker 3: Atopped a worse accent ahead, you know I I yes,

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Speaker 3: I like that thinking.

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Speaker 4: But do you know it?

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Speaker 3: Today when I went to go do this car shit

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Speaker 1: Like, Okay, are you sure positive check that one more time?

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Speaker 1: Let me just check that.

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Speaker 4: Can you just confirm? Okay? Got it? I was like

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Speaker 3: And then I got in the car and I was like, Okay,

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Speaker 4: Gonna work out. We're just gonna figure it out.

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Speaker 3: Like I really feel like there's been like I don't

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Speaker 5: The thing is is like you can choose stress, but

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Speaker 1: And I trust what's gonna happen now?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, either way, I have to figure it out, whether

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Speaker 3: It's easier for me to create that boundary if that's

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Speaker 3: but and I'm going to take this space. And this

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Speaker 3: Really excited about that because I feel like it's a

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Speaker 4: And it's crazy because I had that.

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Speaker 4: And I feel like.

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Speaker 3: It's healing in the most like unexpected way because it

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Speaker 3: Yeah, So I feel like it's slowly but surely my heart.

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Speaker 4: And my heart is slowly opening eyes I'm not gonna

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Speaker 5: And there's no person alike. So every relationship is going

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Speaker 3: And it's like how you approach it, Like are you

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Speaker 3: I don't like that. Oh that feels good still, you know,

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Speaker 4: And I think that that's also the lesson too.

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Speaker 3: It's like the people that gave you the wound aren't

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Speaker 3: most of the time, it's not, you know, And granted

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Speaker 4: There was still more. There's still there is still more,

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Speaker 3: I'm like, I don't even know if you can heal

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Speaker 3: Like never there's never going to be a time where

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Speaker 3: And it's like, I think it's how you decide to

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Speaker 5: It is like you really require like a divine masculine

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Speaker 5: like it's true, and it has healed a lot of

445
00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:52,920
Speaker 5: my trust and like I just feel like so much

446
00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:56,200
Speaker 5: inherited suspicion and distrust that I have that I truly

447
00:20:56,200 --> 00:21:00,960
Speaker 5: feel like it's inherited. Like I feel ways that I'm

448
00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:04,320
Speaker 5: triggered or have assumptions that I know I adopted from

449
00:21:04,320 --> 00:21:07,800
Speaker 5: my mom's behavior, and like that's scary. And even like,

450
00:21:09,160 --> 00:21:14,200
Speaker 5: you know, this month is Love Thyself February, so I

451
00:21:14,200 --> 00:21:19,640
Speaker 5: guess we're gonna get really deep. But even like womb

452
00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:23,159
Speaker 5: like healing, you know, speaking with Queen of Fua and stuff,

453
00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:27,200
Speaker 5: it's just like when I start to be realistic with

454
00:21:27,359 --> 00:21:29,679
Speaker 5: my relationship I've had with my womb or my you know,

455
00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:35,439
Speaker 5: my Yoni, as I like, as I'm like getting further

456
00:21:35,520 --> 00:21:39,560
Speaker 5: in this really healthy relationship, I still find things that

457
00:21:39,600 --> 00:21:42,199
Speaker 5: come up that are triggering, and I know that I'm safe,

458
00:21:43,000 --> 00:21:45,520
Speaker 5: but I realize, like these are this is a direct

459
00:21:45,560 --> 00:21:49,320
Speaker 5: result of like moving past shit quickly and not tending

460
00:21:49,359 --> 00:21:51,760
Speaker 5: to it for a long time, and.

461
00:21:51,800 --> 00:21:54,520
Speaker 4: Just like the like you can't run from it.

462
00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:55,080
Speaker 1: You can't.

463
00:21:55,560 --> 00:21:57,080
Speaker 5: And I had a feeling the other day of like,

464
00:21:57,720 --> 00:21:59,960
Speaker 5: this sounds so intense, I text you, but I was

465
00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:05,600
Speaker 5: like feeling used, like my like feeling like disposable and use,

466
00:22:05,760 --> 00:22:07,959
Speaker 5: like just to be like fucked and thrown away. And

467
00:22:08,000 --> 00:22:09,840
Speaker 5: it came up and I was like it was so clear,

468
00:22:10,440 --> 00:22:10,920
Speaker 5: and I was.

469
00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:15,720
Speaker 3: Like, huh, Like damn, I still have to like face

470
00:22:16,000 --> 00:22:18,960
Speaker 3: these things, like some things that I've ignored because I

471
00:22:19,000 --> 00:22:21,560
Speaker 3: didn't want to deal with them or I felt ashamed

472
00:22:21,640 --> 00:22:23,919
Speaker 3: or I felt like things were my fault.

473
00:22:24,480 --> 00:22:29,000
Speaker 1: But there are still some heavy womb like womb wounds

474
00:22:29,040 --> 00:22:29,879
Speaker 1: that I have to deal with.

475
00:22:29,920 --> 00:22:31,560
Speaker 5: And even in a relationship, like you don't just get

476
00:22:31,560 --> 00:22:34,359
Speaker 5: a healthy relationship and then all that shit is it's gone.

477
00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:37,240
Speaker 3: You're like, oh, I'm happy, I've well it can for

478
00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:39,919
Speaker 3: sextended amounts of time, but then you can't run from it,

479
00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:44,359
Speaker 3: like it eventually shows up like anything in any any space.

480
00:22:44,359 --> 00:22:45,919
Speaker 5: And so I had to like sit with that and

481
00:22:45,960 --> 00:22:47,760
Speaker 5: like and what times did I feel that way? And

482
00:22:47,760 --> 00:22:49,399
Speaker 5: what relationships did I feel that way? And there were

483
00:22:49,440 --> 00:22:51,440
Speaker 5: many times I didn't feel safe where I felt like you.

484
00:22:51,359 --> 00:22:54,520
Speaker 3: Should really look at Quina Fua's and her the sacred

485
00:22:54,520 --> 00:22:57,800
Speaker 3: woman that Journals Journal prompts right, well that that kind

486
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:02,239
Speaker 3: of like that not cute it, but I don't know,

487
00:23:02,320 --> 00:23:04,080
Speaker 3: like it's you know, alignment one.

488
00:23:03,880 --> 00:23:08,399
Speaker 5: Thing and then everything else will. Yeah, So it's just

489
00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:10,479
Speaker 5: it's it's you know, it's really interesting. It's just like

490
00:23:10,600 --> 00:23:14,680
Speaker 5: even even things that you think you've avoided you can't

491
00:23:14,680 --> 00:23:18,119
Speaker 5: avoid forever, like when you push down emotions and you

492
00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:21,679
Speaker 5: push down traumatic experiences, when you push down like all

493
00:23:21,680 --> 00:23:24,920
Speaker 5: those things and you start to numb yourself out, which

494
00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:27,760
Speaker 5: you know, like I'm a cancer, so I'm super fucking sensitive.

495
00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:30,480
Speaker 5: So that's a defense mechanism strongly for me.

496
00:23:30,920 --> 00:23:33,119
Speaker 3: Like just like you said, like fuck you fuck that

497
00:23:33,480 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 3: like isolate, but it's just like it still has to

498
00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:38,960
Speaker 3: be dealt with.

499
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:42,399
Speaker 1: Every there's no it's there's no disappearing. You can't.

500
00:23:42,520 --> 00:23:44,360
Speaker 3: Like the more you sweep under the carpet, you at

501
00:23:44,359 --> 00:23:46,240
Speaker 3: some point it will come out from underneath.

502
00:23:46,240 --> 00:23:47,880
Speaker 1: That bitch. It doesn't disappear.

503
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:50,200
Speaker 4: It doesn't. No, it doesn't.

504
00:23:50,440 --> 00:23:54,000
Speaker 3: It's it's true. It just it shows up. Sometimes it

505
00:23:54,040 --> 00:23:56,600
Speaker 3: shows up in relationships. Sometimes it doesn't show up in relationships.

506
00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:58,560
Speaker 3: Sometimes it shows up in your own the way your

507
00:23:58,560 --> 00:24:00,960
Speaker 3: body reacts to something and just triggers you. Like there's

508
00:24:00,960 --> 00:24:04,159
Speaker 3: so many you can't you really can't.

509
00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:08,160
Speaker 5: You can't decide when you're gonna deal with it. In fact,

510
00:24:08,800 --> 00:24:10,639
Speaker 5: it will decide for you if if you choose to

511
00:24:10,680 --> 00:24:12,919
Speaker 5: ignore it, and like it will continue to come up.

512
00:24:12,960 --> 00:24:15,399
Speaker 3: And like sometimes it's more apparent when someone's doing the

513
00:24:15,440 --> 00:24:19,080
Speaker 3: wronging to you versus I'm happy now and why do

514
00:24:19,119 --> 00:24:19,920
Speaker 3: I feel this way?

515
00:24:20,040 --> 00:24:21,160
Speaker 4: Then it's like oh, right.

516
00:24:21,080 --> 00:24:23,040
Speaker 5: Well, but right right, right, Like when there's a reason

517
00:24:23,080 --> 00:24:24,800
Speaker 5: when you're like when you're in a toxic relationship, you

518
00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:26,040
Speaker 5: could be like, oh, this is coming.

519
00:24:25,920 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 1: Up because this person is terrible for me. Yeah. But

520
00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:31,200
Speaker 1: when you're in like a happy relationship.

521
00:24:30,600 --> 00:24:32,960
Speaker 3: And it's still comes up those feelings, how you know

522
00:24:33,480 --> 00:24:35,520
Speaker 3: for sure, like this is this is work, there's work

523
00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:37,280
Speaker 3: here that has to be done, or like there's something

524
00:24:37,280 --> 00:24:40,120
Speaker 3: here that I haven't fully dealt with. But it also

525
00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:42,240
Speaker 3: has taken me to a certain level of like self

526
00:24:42,320 --> 00:24:45,920
Speaker 3: awareness to identify those feelings because sometimes, like I haven't

527
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,200
Speaker 3: always been able to put words. You know, sometimes you'll

528
00:24:48,200 --> 00:24:50,520
Speaker 3: feel ways and then you just because they're uncomfortable, you

529
00:24:50,600 --> 00:24:51,320
Speaker 3: immediately avoid.

530
00:24:51,359 --> 00:24:52,479
Speaker 4: You don't even want to put words to them.

531
00:24:52,600 --> 00:24:54,600
Speaker 1: Feelings are real, yeah, real, then it's real.

532
00:24:54,640 --> 00:24:58,040
Speaker 3: So but then it's like allowing even those feelings to sit,

533
00:24:58,400 --> 00:25:03,240
Speaker 3: putting words to those feelings, communicating those feelings, rehashing some

534
00:25:03,280 --> 00:25:06,480
Speaker 3: shit that happened who fucking knows how long ago, and

535
00:25:06,520 --> 00:25:09,080
Speaker 3: then like all that uncomfortable shit that comes.

536
00:25:08,840 --> 00:25:13,800
Speaker 1: With that part. But you know, it's you have to

537
00:25:13,800 --> 00:25:14,120
Speaker 1: do it.

538
00:25:14,320 --> 00:25:16,600
Speaker 5: And I and I realized just like even talking like

539
00:25:16,680 --> 00:25:22,280
Speaker 5: with the Sacred the Sacred Woman is just like I

540
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:26,560
Speaker 5: don't think that we oftentimes are thinking like as a unit,

541
00:25:26,680 --> 00:25:30,600
Speaker 5: like our mind, our yoni, that's all that's connected, you.

542
00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:32,560
Speaker 1: Know, Like I for sure haven't.

543
00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:35,960
Speaker 5: I'm for sure disconnected you know, myself from my womb

544
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:38,320
Speaker 5: before and like I told you, even at the last retreat,

545
00:25:38,640 --> 00:25:41,760
Speaker 5: that started to come up, like feeling like electrical wiring

546
00:25:41,840 --> 00:25:43,919
Speaker 5: from my heart to my womb, and I was like,

547
00:25:43,920 --> 00:25:47,800
Speaker 5: what's that? But it's like spirit telling my mind and

548
00:25:47,840 --> 00:25:49,960
Speaker 5: my body telling me like bitch, this is what needs

549
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:52,560
Speaker 5: to be worked on, and because you've forgotten that these

550
00:25:52,600 --> 00:25:55,320
Speaker 5: things are connected and like opening up your heart and

551
00:25:55,359 --> 00:25:58,119
Speaker 5: you know, and just feeling safe. And I think as women,

552
00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:02,440
Speaker 5: we forget that, like that little Yoni is an entity, girl,

553
00:26:02,600 --> 00:26:06,160
Speaker 5: and it holds so much energy and it is sacred

554
00:26:06,200 --> 00:26:08,000
Speaker 5: and we do create and it is like the black

555
00:26:08,000 --> 00:26:10,160
Speaker 5: hole of the universe. It is where we bring babies,

556
00:26:10,200 --> 00:26:13,560
Speaker 5: It is where we hold intimacy, and we exchange sacred

557
00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:18,800
Speaker 5: secret secrets and shit we don't we can't even seeing

558
00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:22,480
Speaker 5: in bringing in energy of people that we don't even know,

559
00:26:23,119 --> 00:26:26,400
Speaker 5: and so it requires tending.

560
00:26:26,119 --> 00:26:27,760
Speaker 4: To for sure. For sure.

561
00:26:27,800 --> 00:26:30,720
Speaker 3: I think of like that when they were like I

562
00:26:30,760 --> 00:26:32,679
Speaker 3: think I think everyone's brother on the ornet. Maybe not,

563
00:26:32,720 --> 00:26:35,600
Speaker 3: but like how when you have sexual partners, like there's

564
00:26:35,720 --> 00:26:39,160
Speaker 3: still like remnants of their semen inside of inside of.

565
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:41,520
Speaker 1: You, like when you die. That's what they say for women.

566
00:26:41,600 --> 00:26:44,040
Speaker 5: It's like once you have once you take a man's seamen,

567
00:26:44,119 --> 00:26:46,480
Speaker 5: there's always remnants of it in your When I think

568
00:26:46,520 --> 00:26:46,880
Speaker 5: of that.

569
00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:48,879
Speaker 3: And I think of just energy, I think of just

570
00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:52,040
Speaker 3: also just like the fluids of our body and our

571
00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:56,000
Speaker 3: life source, Like it's almost like a like they become

572
00:26:56,080 --> 00:26:58,720
Speaker 3: like it creates as like blueprint of like anything that's

573
00:26:58,760 --> 00:27:01,399
Speaker 3: gonna be like from that too, and that's why you

574
00:27:01,480 --> 00:27:02,159
Speaker 3: have to heal it.

575
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:05,360
Speaker 5: Well, even think of like, uh, we were in our

576
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:09,480
Speaker 5: mother's wombs. When they were in their mothers, it becomes cellular,

577
00:27:09,640 --> 00:27:10,160
Speaker 5: like it is.

578
00:27:10,119 --> 00:27:15,080
Speaker 3: Cellular, Like yeah, I carried Luna and whatever whatever womb

579
00:27:15,160 --> 00:27:17,280
Speaker 3: Luna carries, I carried that one too.

580
00:27:17,440 --> 00:27:20,560
Speaker 5: We've all at one point been inside and it continues.

581
00:27:20,960 --> 00:27:23,280
Speaker 5: So it is cellular. And that's why I'm feeling those

582
00:27:23,280 --> 00:27:27,040
Speaker 5: inherited feelings of distress or those inherited feelings of not

583
00:27:27,160 --> 00:27:29,520
Speaker 5: feeling safe. Those are things you also have to deal with.

584
00:27:31,080 --> 00:27:31,320
Speaker 1: I know.

585
00:27:32,640 --> 00:27:37,080
Speaker 3: Oh fuck fuck, That's why I've been avoiding you for.

586
00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:38,720
Speaker 4: So do it for our future.

587
00:27:38,800 --> 00:27:42,240
Speaker 1: We have to lessen the loads, just untangle the web for.

588
00:27:42,240 --> 00:27:46,200
Speaker 3: Our future descendants, you know, and for the ancestors or

589
00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:47,640
Speaker 3: lighter for them.

590
00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:49,600
Speaker 4: That's my gift to you. This is my gift to you,

591
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:51,359
Speaker 4: great great great great GRANDDAUGHTERA.

592
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:55,280
Speaker 3: I mean, and think of our daughters absolutely, I mean, shit,

593
00:27:55,440 --> 00:27:57,119
Speaker 3: what's been done in the womb has been done in

594
00:27:57,160 --> 00:27:58,040
Speaker 3: the motherfucking womb.

595
00:27:58,040 --> 00:27:59,359
Speaker 4: Okay, I can't go back from.

596
00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:01,800
Speaker 3: Them, no, I can't, you know, like there's things I

597
00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:04,159
Speaker 3: wish I could have like handled better. There's people I

598
00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:06,320
Speaker 3: wish I would have handled better.

599
00:28:06,240 --> 00:28:08,320
Speaker 4: Like all types of shit. Way I would have treated

600
00:28:08,400 --> 00:28:09,120
Speaker 4: my body better.

601
00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,440
Speaker 5: Well, I think I think that like that is important

602
00:28:11,440 --> 00:28:14,359
Speaker 5: to note too, because I think that thought is overwhelming.

603
00:28:14,520 --> 00:28:15,120
Speaker 4: It is for.

604
00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 5: Women, and like that idea that we hold the energy

605
00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:19,160
Speaker 5: of every nigga we ever let in, like.

606
00:28:19,119 --> 00:28:20,520
Speaker 1: Lord God, I hope.

607
00:28:20,320 --> 00:28:25,680
Speaker 5: Not Jesus, but like I think even that primary thought

608
00:28:25,800 --> 00:28:28,480
Speaker 5: is so overwhelming that that is a part of the

609
00:28:29,119 --> 00:28:31,360
Speaker 5: thing that avoids you from doing the work. I don't

610
00:28:31,359 --> 00:28:33,160
Speaker 5: want to think about all these niggas I let into

611
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:35,480
Speaker 5: my body. I don't want to feel like this, I

612
00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:38,120
Speaker 5: made this decision and now I have like you know,

613
00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:41,720
Speaker 5: like there's so much shame that comes with being a

614
00:28:41,800 --> 00:28:46,640
Speaker 5: sexual woman that like they're like the shit. It wasn't

615
00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:48,920
Speaker 5: until like two years ago I've realized my full worth,

616
00:28:49,600 --> 00:28:52,960
Speaker 5: you know, like that the full scope of all Like

617
00:28:53,040 --> 00:28:56,200
Speaker 5: the weight of that is so heavy that it tends

618
00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,959
Speaker 5: to make us avoid dealing with our womb.

619
00:28:59,320 --> 00:29:01,560
Speaker 1: That's a part of the disconnection. There's so much shame

620
00:29:01,720 --> 00:29:02,760
Speaker 1: associated with.

621
00:29:02,960 --> 00:29:05,400
Speaker 3: You know, your history or who you fucked or you know,

622
00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:08,640
Speaker 3: like if you're worthy. It's just like you have to

623
00:29:08,640 --> 00:29:11,280
Speaker 3: peel that off, that shit off too, Like we've all

624
00:29:11,280 --> 00:29:13,800
Speaker 3: done some shit and we're all here to heal. We've

625
00:29:13,800 --> 00:29:17,000
Speaker 3: all fucked, we've all enjoyed it, we've all made decisions

626
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:22,520
Speaker 3: and fucked with the lower vibrational nigga or ten, you know,

627
00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:25,640
Speaker 3: And and it's we have to acknowledge that we're all

628
00:29:26,320 --> 00:29:32,680
Speaker 3: healing some deep wounds and that is okay. And because

629
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 3: we're women, it's not heavier for us, actually more powerful

630
00:29:36,440 --> 00:29:39,719
Speaker 3: and we have the inate ability to heal ourselves. And

631
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:42,000
Speaker 3: so just like not getting so overwhelmed with that.

632
00:29:42,240 --> 00:29:43,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, for sure.

633
00:29:43,800 --> 00:29:49,040
Speaker 3: I think it's it's there's so much beauty and just

634
00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:54,200
Speaker 3: allowing the process to take place and not like it's

635
00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:56,600
Speaker 3: just a step by step, like you don't have to

636
00:29:56,680 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 3: conquer your womb in a day. It's like conquering Rome

637
00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:03,040
Speaker 3: in a day, you know what I mean. Like they're like,

638
00:30:03,080 --> 00:30:04,400
Speaker 3: oh my god, do I need this book?

639
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 4: Do I need this? Do I need that?

640
00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:07,160
Speaker 3: Do I need to you know, do I need to

641
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,200
Speaker 3: hate myself a little bit right now because I did

642
00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:11,920
Speaker 3: all this shit? Like it's like facing your twenties or

643
00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:14,520
Speaker 3: facing your teenage or facing like the parts of you

644
00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:16,960
Speaker 3: that you feel like you've like matured out of, but

645
00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:20,600
Speaker 3: without being hurtful to yourself.

646
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:22,000
Speaker 1: And that's hard.

647
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:25,000
Speaker 5: That's hard because we've all done some stupid shit and

648
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:27,520
Speaker 5: we've all let some shit slide. But we've also all

649
00:30:27,560 --> 00:30:29,960
Speaker 5: been conditioned by this idea that things are our fault

650
00:30:30,640 --> 00:30:33,520
Speaker 5: when we're violated, or when we're hurt, or when we

651
00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:37,040
Speaker 5: don't know better, or when we're seeking we're seeking just

652
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 5: something that feels good because we're seeking validation and so

653
00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:42,200
Speaker 5: we're seeking love and we don't really know the healthy

654
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:46,200
Speaker 5: route to that. It's okay to like to recognize that

655
00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:49,840
Speaker 5: it takes time to recognize those things too, you know.

656
00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:51,960
Speaker 4: That's true.

657
00:30:52,320 --> 00:30:59,200
Speaker 3: It's easier said than done, however, very very possible, and

658
00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:02,320
Speaker 3: just be yourself. I think that's been like the theme

659
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:04,080
Speaker 3: of this It has been the theme of this whole

660
00:31:04,080 --> 00:31:07,320
Speaker 3: month is like just one day at a time.

661
00:31:07,160 --> 00:31:10,600
Speaker 1: Girl, Gentle healing, Gentle healing, gentle lessons.

662
00:31:10,920 --> 00:31:11,760
Speaker 4: Yeah.

663
00:31:11,880 --> 00:31:16,080
Speaker 3: I was reading something on the internet and we're talking

664
00:31:16,080 --> 00:31:19,320
Speaker 3: about like how a lot of the self care that

665
00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:23,280
Speaker 3: we see is not actually self care, it's aftercare and

666
00:31:23,360 --> 00:31:26,400
Speaker 3: that like and that's the problem.

667
00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:28,120
Speaker 4: Like, and I was like damn.

668
00:31:28,520 --> 00:31:30,480
Speaker 3: I was like, how much after caring have I done

669
00:31:30,480 --> 00:31:34,800
Speaker 3: for myself to just avoid something and just like let

670
00:31:34,840 --> 00:31:36,920
Speaker 3: me just do this. I'm actually like, you know what

671
00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:40,360
Speaker 3: I mean, Like it's the aftercare. I was like, whoa,

672
00:31:40,600 --> 00:31:43,640
Speaker 3: that's deep. And I think especially for like I don't know,

673
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:46,280
Speaker 3: I mean, I think it's all women, but I think

674
00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:52,680
Speaker 3: that like the self care movement is for white women.

675
00:31:53,800 --> 00:31:54,360
Speaker 1: What do you mean.

676
00:31:54,440 --> 00:31:56,680
Speaker 3: I don't mean like that self care is for white women,

677
00:31:56,880 --> 00:31:59,880
Speaker 3: but that like their access to it is higher than

678
00:32:00,440 --> 00:32:03,680
Speaker 3: the ways and so therefore, like we are and we're

679
00:32:03,720 --> 00:32:06,320
Speaker 3: often using the form of aftercare because we are like

680
00:32:06,880 --> 00:32:10,440
Speaker 3: facing so much throughout the day just because of you know,

681
00:32:10,520 --> 00:32:14,480
Speaker 3: whether it's socioeconomic status, whether you're black, you're brown, how

682
00:32:14,480 --> 00:32:16,400
Speaker 3: you show up in the world, that there's like this

683
00:32:16,520 --> 00:32:19,680
Speaker 3: level of like the self care actually isn't the self

684
00:32:19,720 --> 00:32:23,120
Speaker 3: care actually isn't helping. It's fucking, it's hoping, it's coping. Yeah,

685
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:26,600
Speaker 3: apps fucking litely, apps of fucking lily. Like when you

686
00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:30,600
Speaker 3: are struggling for the base your basic needs to just.

687
00:32:30,600 --> 00:32:35,920
Speaker 1: Survive, what the fuck self care? Self care is the survival.

688
00:32:35,760 --> 00:32:38,360
Speaker 3: You know, but it's not even necessarily like basic needs

689
00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:40,480
Speaker 3: like food, water. Okay, let's say you have that, but

690
00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:43,360
Speaker 3: you are struggling mentally and there's no resources for you,

691
00:32:43,360 --> 00:32:44,840
Speaker 3: at least you don't know where they are. You don't

692
00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:47,360
Speaker 3: feel safe because you've been grown up in a family

693
00:32:47,360 --> 00:32:51,240
Speaker 3: that has made therapy or any sort of like assistance

694
00:32:51,280 --> 00:32:53,680
Speaker 3: outside of you know, whatever it is you believe seem

695
00:32:53,760 --> 00:32:57,440
Speaker 3: like you're weak or there's something wrong with you, and therefore,

696
00:32:57,480 --> 00:33:00,800
Speaker 3: like you're just now practicing after care by.

697
00:33:00,880 --> 00:33:02,760
Speaker 1: Traveling a lot or hang.

698
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:05,800
Speaker 3: Out with friends or like getting massages, like you're not

699
00:33:05,920 --> 00:33:09,800
Speaker 3: actually enjoying the fruits of self care, like it's really

700
00:33:10,560 --> 00:33:13,200
Speaker 3: because of your coping. And I was like, I don't know.

701
00:33:13,240 --> 00:33:15,360
Speaker 3: I've read that, and I got really deep in my head.

702
00:33:15,400 --> 00:33:17,880
Speaker 3: I was like, oh my god, we're am I only

703
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:18,880
Speaker 3: doing aftercare?

704
00:33:19,480 --> 00:33:20,920
Speaker 4: Like what is self care?

705
00:33:21,800 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 3: And I'm just thinking about like yeah, that and loving

706
00:33:25,680 --> 00:33:29,480
Speaker 3: yourself and like just the journey of all of those things.

707
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:30,400
Speaker 1: Well, I think that's true.

708
00:33:30,400 --> 00:33:31,960
Speaker 5: I think like you could go to yoga, you could

709
00:33:31,960 --> 00:33:34,240
Speaker 5: go on vacation, you can like hang out with friends,

710
00:33:34,760 --> 00:33:38,200
Speaker 5: but if you're not asking yourself those really deep questions

711
00:33:38,880 --> 00:33:41,880
Speaker 5: and you're not tackling them head on, and you're not crying.

712
00:33:42,200 --> 00:33:44,560
Speaker 1: I mean yeah, and are you really honoring yourself? Are

713
00:33:44,600 --> 00:33:46,720
Speaker 1: you really? Are you really which is.

714
00:33:46,720 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 4: Really what self care is about, is honoring yourself right.

715
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:50,800
Speaker 5: Right at the root of it, tending to yourself so

716
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:53,720
Speaker 5: that you can grow. But if you're just like covering

717
00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:57,960
Speaker 5: it up more with like pedicures, because the.

718
00:33:57,920 --> 00:34:00,560
Speaker 3: Real true self care is yeah, you can do all

719
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:04,240
Speaker 3: these things, but like like are you honoring yourself in

720
00:34:04,280 --> 00:34:07,000
Speaker 3: these moments of these things? Are you really taking care

721
00:34:07,040 --> 00:34:09,759
Speaker 3: and tending to yourself? Or are you putting a band

722
00:34:09,800 --> 00:34:12,319
Speaker 3: aid over something? Are you actually avoiding yourself in these

723
00:34:12,320 --> 00:34:13,200
Speaker 3: self care moments?

724
00:34:13,920 --> 00:34:16,359
Speaker 4: You know? So I don't know, it's just the thought

725
00:34:16,360 --> 00:34:16,879
Speaker 4: that I had.

726
00:34:17,360 --> 00:34:18,480
Speaker 1: It's like that's deep.

727
00:34:18,520 --> 00:34:21,080
Speaker 5: I didn't ever thought about that, but that's absolutely true.

728
00:34:21,560 --> 00:34:23,759
Speaker 5: And I think it even speaks a lot to like,

729
00:34:24,760 --> 00:34:26,600
Speaker 5: you know, for us, Like you know, we've built this

730
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:30,520
Speaker 5: like amazing brand, top one percent of podcasts in the world, baby,

731
00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 5: and you know, births all these other business babies from it,

732
00:34:35,320 --> 00:34:38,040
Speaker 5: and still there's like so much anxiety and fear and

733
00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:41,200
Speaker 5: like it's because you've never been in this position before.

734
00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:43,640
Speaker 5: And it's like you can prepare and prepare and be

735
00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:45,399
Speaker 5: like work work, work, I'm gonna get this and don't

736
00:34:45,480 --> 00:34:47,120
Speaker 5: do this, and they're like, oh shit, it's here, Oh shit,

737
00:34:47,160 --> 00:34:50,799
Speaker 5: that's here, And then you're here. You're like, am I happy?

738
00:34:49,560 --> 00:34:53,160
Speaker 5: I'm happy to how I got it?

739
00:34:53,239 --> 00:34:55,799
Speaker 1: Yeah? Am I stressed? I'm still stressed, you know.

740
00:34:55,840 --> 00:34:59,560
Speaker 5: And it's not that we're not grateful, but it's like like, yeah,

741
00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:03,600
Speaker 5: like if you haven't if you're not at peace, then

742
00:35:04,040 --> 00:35:06,359
Speaker 5: none of those things. You know, you haven't learned how

743
00:35:06,360 --> 00:35:09,920
Speaker 5: to access the peace, and you haven't learned how to

744
00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,839
Speaker 5: thrive at a certain level and maintain those things.

745
00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:14,920
Speaker 1: That not knowing is going to scare you.

746
00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:20,680
Speaker 4: Yeah.

747
00:35:21,120 --> 00:35:25,680
Speaker 5: Yes, So I think for love Thyself twenty twenty three,

748
00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:30,720
Speaker 5: I'm going to be really focusing on my like my womb,

749
00:35:30,920 --> 00:35:37,000
Speaker 5: like my womb wounds and my worthiness, which I think

750
00:35:37,600 --> 00:35:42,239
Speaker 5: is tied and connected and just like trusting spirit and

751
00:35:42,400 --> 00:35:45,879
Speaker 5: just knowing that I'm worthy, and I'm just stepping into

752
00:35:45,920 --> 00:35:50,080
Speaker 5: my mother fucking power, right, bitch, that's right, right, you know,

753
00:35:50,360 --> 00:35:53,279
Speaker 5: Like I'm a badass bitch, ju are And I do

754
00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:55,799
Speaker 5: everything I say I'm going to do, and I you know,

755
00:35:56,080 --> 00:36:00,600
Speaker 5: and like that's amazing. Like when I have an idea,

756
00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:03,479
Speaker 5: it comes to fruition. I see it through and through.

757
00:36:03,520 --> 00:36:06,960
Speaker 5: I see it till it's tangible. And that's dope, you know,

758
00:36:07,280 --> 00:36:08,200
Speaker 5: And I'm sexy.

759
00:36:10,360 --> 00:36:10,960
Speaker 4: Yes, you are.

760
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:12,479
Speaker 1: My pussy's wet.

761
00:36:12,560 --> 00:36:14,440
Speaker 4: So I mean, I don't know.

762
00:36:17,520 --> 00:36:20,840
Speaker 1: I mean it is it is you trust your friends.

763
00:36:20,880 --> 00:36:23,640
Speaker 3: I know that it is, but I don't know that

764
00:36:23,840 --> 00:36:25,399
Speaker 3: because whatever you know what.

765
00:36:28,400 --> 00:36:30,760
Speaker 1: We know way too much about it. Oh my god,

766
00:36:31,200 --> 00:36:33,400
Speaker 1: don't ask him an every single fact.

767
00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:36,480
Speaker 5: You're just gonna keep the rumor going that maybe, just

768
00:36:36,520 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 5: maybe we've slept together.

769
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:41,000
Speaker 1: It might be getting us more views. I don't know.

770
00:36:43,280 --> 00:36:46,160
Speaker 4: I mean, we're hot, we are both really fine as fuck, So.

771
00:36:46,160 --> 00:36:49,960
Speaker 5: I don't doubt that somewhere someone has had a mental

772
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:52,200
Speaker 5: fantasy getting through weighted by us.

773
00:36:52,480 --> 00:36:54,279
Speaker 1: In fact, I think someone told us that. So that's

774
00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:54,640
Speaker 1: the fact.

775
00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:56,280
Speaker 4: So it's fact.

776
00:36:57,840 --> 00:36:59,560
Speaker 1: Another another braggable moment.

777
00:36:59,640 --> 00:37:02,800
Speaker 3: And if you haven't yet you will now just imagine

778
00:37:03,120 --> 00:37:05,480
Speaker 3: sitting right here in the middle of this couch, close

779
00:37:05,520 --> 00:37:08,560
Speaker 3: your eyes. You could just slowly zip down this eighties

780
00:37:08,600 --> 00:37:11,760
Speaker 3: one piece jumper and then Erica is gonna slowly remove

781
00:37:11,800 --> 00:37:21,200
Speaker 3: her four piece business professional sex it blaze it get

782
00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:24,200
Speaker 3: on YouTube so you can see these outfits.

783
00:37:26,360 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 4: Like you like Sally Jesse, Raphael and I was like,

784
00:37:28,520 --> 00:37:29,879
Speaker 4: where is she? I love her?

785
00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:31,520
Speaker 1: Is she alive?

786
00:37:31,640 --> 00:37:33,360
Speaker 4: I don't know. I feel like she was a scorpio.

787
00:37:33,480 --> 00:37:34,760
Speaker 4: She gave me like scorpio vibes.

788
00:37:35,640 --> 00:37:36,680
Speaker 1: We might need to look it up.

789
00:37:37,120 --> 00:37:40,280
Speaker 4: Same Sally, good old Sally, Do you have an affirmation?

790
00:37:40,400 --> 00:37:50,080
Speaker 1: I love for the day I did? What was it? I?

791
00:37:50,080 --> 00:38:02,239
Speaker 1: I I welcome. I welcome gentle healing, even when who

792
00:38:02,320 --> 00:38:05,480
Speaker 1: was it? Even when I fucking up?

793
00:38:05,520 --> 00:38:06,160
Speaker 4: I fuck it up?

794
00:38:07,000 --> 00:38:11,680
Speaker 5: I welcome gentle gentle lessons, even when I fuck it up.

795
00:38:12,440 --> 00:38:15,719
Speaker 3: I welcome gentle lessons, even when I fuck it up.

796
00:38:16,640 --> 00:38:17,120
Speaker 4: I like that.

797
00:38:17,520 --> 00:38:21,959
Speaker 3: Okay, I think that's legendary, Okay, perfect, just like Sally

798
00:38:22,040 --> 00:38:23,200
Speaker 3: Jesse Raphael.

799
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:24,840
Speaker 4: Who is not a scorpio?

800
00:38:25,000 --> 00:38:25,480
Speaker 1: Who is she?

801
00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:33,640
Speaker 4: Lea? I think she's a Pisces cusp of Aquarius. It

802
00:38:33,719 --> 00:38:36,520
Speaker 4: is February twenty fifth, Aquarius and Pisces.

803
00:38:36,600 --> 00:38:39,160
Speaker 1: Yep, yeah she's I could see that.

804
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:43,279
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's eighty seven, she's still wive. Okay, Sally, Oh

805
00:38:43,320 --> 00:38:45,280
Speaker 3: my god, she's eighty. We haven't seen her in years.

806
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:46,400
Speaker 3: I wonder how she's doing.

807
00:38:46,560 --> 00:38:47,400
Speaker 1: She's probably rich.

808
00:38:47,640 --> 00:38:49,439
Speaker 4: She's probably like in a nursing home.

809
00:38:49,680 --> 00:38:51,520
Speaker 1: No, why haven't we seen Sally?

810
00:38:51,640 --> 00:38:54,560
Speaker 5: Then she would be out she's white, she put her

811
00:38:54,600 --> 00:38:57,319
Speaker 5: money into good places. No one's taking care of her.

812
00:38:57,600 --> 00:39:00,120
Speaker 5: I hope that would be a fucking tragedy.

813
00:39:00,560 --> 00:39:02,000
Speaker 4: Okay, well now.

814
00:39:01,880 --> 00:39:02,560
Speaker 1: She's in at home.

815
00:39:02,600 --> 00:39:04,960
Speaker 5: Why the fuck would you put that on Sally? She

816
00:39:05,200 --> 00:39:06,520
Speaker 5: was a fucking icon.

817
00:39:06,640 --> 00:39:07,239
Speaker 4: Where is Sally?

818
00:39:07,360 --> 00:39:10,239
Speaker 3: Jesse Raphael, I'm starting a campaign. I feel like that's

819
00:39:10,239 --> 00:39:16,600
Speaker 3: a hashtag. Where's Murray? Where's where's uh? Jerry Springer he

820
00:39:16,800 --> 00:39:19,759
Speaker 3: was a man like the father of our around. Uncle

821
00:39:19,840 --> 00:39:20,440
Speaker 3: Jerry is rich.

822
00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:23,799
Speaker 4: I feel like he was like I feel like he

823
00:39:24,120 --> 00:39:25,520
Speaker 4: was like Hugh Hafner for of TV.

824
00:39:25,960 --> 00:39:28,839
Speaker 5: He was I saw I saw something that he brought

825
00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:31,200
Speaker 5: put out that he takes responsibility. He feels kind of

826
00:39:31,239 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 5: bad for like poisoning our our generation. And I said,

827
00:39:35,760 --> 00:39:38,200
Speaker 5: you were a fucking icon, Uncle Jerry, you.

828
00:39:38,160 --> 00:39:38,719
Speaker 1: Need to chill.

829
00:39:40,520 --> 00:39:41,600
Speaker 4: He did do some poisoning.

830
00:39:41,719 --> 00:39:43,680
Speaker 1: There was, I mean hip hop.

831
00:39:43,760 --> 00:39:45,520
Speaker 4: It kind of was the set off of that. It

832
00:39:45,600 --> 00:39:46,560
Speaker 4: was inspired by.

833
00:39:46,719 --> 00:39:47,759
Speaker 1: It was like I feel like it was.

834
00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:51,000
Speaker 5: It was racially like it was like white trash and

835
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:52,839
Speaker 5: black so was everybody wasn't.

836
00:39:52,560 --> 00:39:55,239
Speaker 1: Just specifically.

837
00:39:56,000 --> 00:40:00,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, Sally, Okay, sorry, I'm sorry.

838
00:40:00,320 --> 00:40:07,560
Speaker 6: Tarot time, Terot time, terot time, beaches, I chose the

839
00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:11,840
Speaker 6: Two of Pentacles and the two of Pentacles.

840
00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:14,720
Speaker 3: A young man dances well, juggling two coins in his hands.

841
00:40:14,760 --> 00:40:17,839
Speaker 3: The infinity symbol links the coin, suggesting that this man

842
00:40:17,920 --> 00:40:21,520
Speaker 3: can handle unlimited problems so lag, so long as he

843
00:40:21,600 --> 00:40:25,360
Speaker 3: manages his time, energy, and resource as well. In the background,

844
00:40:25,440 --> 00:40:28,560
Speaker 3: two ships sail the high seas, bobbing up and down

845
00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:30,960
Speaker 3: on the huge waves, another sign that there's ups and

846
00:40:31,000 --> 00:40:34,840
Speaker 3: downs of life are manageable with focus and attention.

847
00:40:35,520 --> 00:40:38,280
Speaker 1: What the fuck? How does this always happen?

848
00:40:38,880 --> 00:40:39,320
Speaker 4: Witches?

849
00:40:39,760 --> 00:40:40,120
Speaker 1: Witches?

850
00:40:41,800 --> 00:40:45,800
Speaker 5: Okay, when the two of Pentacles appears in a tarot reading,

851
00:40:45,800 --> 00:40:48,960
Speaker 5: it's safe to say you're juggling your priorities, roles, and responsibilities.

852
00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,040
Speaker 5: For examples, he may be a working parent, my kid's

853
00:40:52,080 --> 00:40:56,480
Speaker 5: another room, a general manager of a business this is

854
00:40:56,480 --> 00:41:00,160
Speaker 5: my business, and an administrative assistant in a busy off

855
00:41:00,520 --> 00:41:04,840
Speaker 5: almost at the assistic we are our office is busy,

856
00:41:05,239 --> 00:41:07,680
Speaker 5: or someone who works multiple jobs.

857
00:41:07,760 --> 00:41:12,120
Speaker 1: Yeah it's me, it's me. I'm Jamaican. In the upright position.

858
00:41:12,160 --> 00:41:14,440
Speaker 1: This card knows you are doing an excellent job.

859
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:16,520
Speaker 5: Of balancing these different priorities and you can take on

860
00:41:16,560 --> 00:41:19,239
Speaker 5: whatever life throws at you. But this two reminds you

861
00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:22,440
Speaker 5: that the line between coping with these demands and losing

862
00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:25,680
Speaker 5: control is thin. You need to manage your time, energy,

863
00:41:25,680 --> 00:41:28,480
Speaker 5: and resources carefully so you do not lose your balance.

864
00:41:29,120 --> 00:41:31,400
Speaker 5: The two of pinnacles often appears when you are busy

865
00:41:31,600 --> 00:41:34,480
Speaker 5: rushing from one thing to the next with little downtime

866
00:41:34,520 --> 00:41:36,560
Speaker 5: in between. You may tell yourself that you haven't had

867
00:41:36,640 --> 00:41:38,960
Speaker 5: enough time or you're in a rush. However, remember that

868
00:41:39,000 --> 00:41:40,960
Speaker 5: you don't have to be busy to get things done.

869
00:41:41,120 --> 00:41:43,680
Speaker 5: Sometimes taking a break is the most productive thing you

870
00:41:43,719 --> 00:41:46,920
Speaker 5: can do. Similarly, the two pentacles can appear when you

871
00:41:46,920 --> 00:41:49,160
Speaker 5: are getting caught up in the day to day demands

872
00:41:49,440 --> 00:41:52,759
Speaker 5: and losing sight of the bigger picture. If this resonates,

873
00:41:52,840 --> 00:41:55,399
Speaker 5: ask yourself, what life do I want and how can

874
00:41:55,440 --> 00:41:58,400
Speaker 5: I reorganize my schedule to recreate the life I desire.

875
00:41:59,040 --> 00:42:01,760
Speaker 5: It invites you to manage your time and your priorities carefully.

876
00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:05,200
Speaker 5: Your workload is high right now, and to get everything

877
00:42:05,280 --> 00:42:07,560
Speaker 5: done you need to stay focused and productive. You may

878
00:42:07,600 --> 00:42:11,120
Speaker 5: benefit from a to do list, better better calendar management,

879
00:42:11,320 --> 00:42:14,480
Speaker 5: shout out to Nelly, and a sucter schedule. You may

880
00:42:14,520 --> 00:42:17,000
Speaker 5: even enlist the support of an assistant or business coach.

881
00:42:17,040 --> 00:42:18,520
Speaker 5: To help you make the right changes.

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Speaker 4: To a business coach, I forgot those exists.

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Speaker 1: I think we need one.

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Speaker 5: Basic time management is crucial to your ability to juggle

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Speaker 5: these various priorities and keep your head above water. This

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00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:30,440
Speaker 5: card also reminds you to pay special attention to your

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Speaker 5: general administration, including paying bills, managing finances, staying on top

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Speaker 5: of your commitments, and maintaining your diary. Be careful that

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Speaker 5: you do not miss important deadlines, meetings, and other obligations.

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Speaker 3: Shout out to Audrey, Okay, I love that for us,

891
00:42:47,880 --> 00:42:51,240
Speaker 3: it sounds like we're handling everything well.

892
00:42:51,920 --> 00:42:53,520
Speaker 4: We are, and we're going to continue to We.

893
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Speaker 1: Are handling everything well.

894
00:42:54,800 --> 00:42:56,840
Speaker 4: We are amazing business women.

895
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Speaker 1: We are phenomenal business women. Our power fucking We.

896
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Speaker 3: Are guided our spirits, our intuition, our partnership, our entity.

897
00:43:06,080 --> 00:43:06,800
Speaker 1: We're protected.

898
00:43:07,120 --> 00:43:10,560
Speaker 3: We make thoughtful decisions. We're not hasty. We know our value.

899
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Speaker 3: We don't say yes to everything, but we say yes

900
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Speaker 3: to a lot and the things that our spirit says

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Speaker 3: yes to.

902
00:43:17,280 --> 00:43:22,920
Speaker 5: Wet manifest generators. We are and we are meant to

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Speaker 5: be where we're at, doing what we're supposed to be

904
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Speaker 5: doing what we're doing, and for that reason, everything flows

905
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Speaker 5: to us easily and with ease.

906
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Speaker 1: In abundance.

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Speaker 3: Well, guys, side note, I was looking at the Discord

908
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Speaker 3: because I wanted to find a whorry because.

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Speaker 4: We got lots and lots of hories in there.

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00:43:45,239 --> 00:43:48,920
Speaker 3: They're just some of them are very, very long, and

911
00:43:49,000 --> 00:43:51,120
Speaker 3: others are, you know, too short.

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Speaker 1: So not too long and too short. So did you

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Speaker 1: find one something? Right?

914
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Speaker 4: I don't know. I was going to just like shuffle

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Speaker 4: through and just pick one. I don't know. I don't

916
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Speaker 4: think we've done this.

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Speaker 3: Nope, maybe this this is from one of our fellow

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Speaker 3: Discord gentlemen. Okay, there's also one about period sex threesomes.

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Speaker 5: A period sex during a threesome. Well, I don't know

920
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Speaker 5: if I've ever done that one.

921
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Speaker 4: No, not bold enough?

922
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Speaker 1: Oh I have? Actually, no, you have?

923
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Speaker 4: Are you sure?

924
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Speaker 1: Are you sure you haven't done it? I know? Okay,

925
00:44:37,800 --> 00:44:42,360
Speaker 1: shut up that kind of I was not that bold. Okay,

926
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Speaker 1: Well it was light.

927
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Speaker 5: Oh my god, I have because one time I remember

928
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Speaker 5: me and my friend party at this guy and she

929
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Speaker 5: was riding him and I was sitting on his face.

930
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Speaker 5: And the next day she was like, I could see

931
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Speaker 5: your tampon stirring on his chin. She's like when I

932
00:45:02,200 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 5: was riding him, was so funny. Your tam punch string

933
00:45:04,200 --> 00:45:08,160
Speaker 5: was on his chin. This is like ten years ago.

934
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Speaker 5: Oh my god, that was There's no way you can

935
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Speaker 5: feel that. I mean, we're all drunk, but there's no

936
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Speaker 5: way you can't feel tamp. He's a nasty nigga.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't think it's nasty. I think that's perfectly fine.

938
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Speaker 1: I think it makes perfect sense to me. It stopped

939
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Speaker 1: up focus on the clip.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I think it's fine.

941
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Speaker 3: I think like I had an X that didn't give

942
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Speaker 3: a fuck, and now I like, my standards are that.

943
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Speaker 4: Those are my standards now. I don't like, you're not

944
00:45:31,280 --> 00:45:32,480
Speaker 4: allowed to not like.

945
00:45:33,000 --> 00:45:35,480
Speaker 1: No, I'm not with it because I know some niggas

946
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Speaker 1: that well.

947
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Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't expect you to do it all the time,

948
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Speaker 4: but you should.

949
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Speaker 5: I'm not losing out. I'm like, you should two years

950
00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:47,680
Speaker 5: of sex because my period.

951
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Speaker 4: Mm. So here's one.

952
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Speaker 7: Okay, horror stories, hor stories, it's short, who stories.

953
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Speaker 3: So I had my first intimate threesome with my boyfriend

954
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Speaker 3: and this girl, and I realized how much I need

955
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Speaker 3: that balance of feminine and masculine all the time. I whispered,

956
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Speaker 3: sweet nothings in her ear, pulled her hair, stroked and

957
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Speaker 3: caressed her while he fucked her.

958
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Speaker 4: Sounds beautiful.

959
00:46:16,520 --> 00:46:19,040
Speaker 3: It's really nice. I've experienced that before. It's really nice

960
00:46:19,320 --> 00:46:23,560
Speaker 3: person receiving that. Okay, yeah, I was in Unicorn. It

961
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Speaker 3: was beautiful plot twist. We were both on our periods.

962
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Speaker 3: So now my man got a nickname for calling me

963
00:46:28,320 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 3: a ketchup packet. Oh my god, wait, a ketchup not

964
00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:33,960
Speaker 3: ketchup packet.

965
00:46:34,040 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 1: That's a long ass nickname, is it?

966
00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:39,480
Speaker 3: Because the ketchup got like? Is it just squash? Finished

967
00:46:39,520 --> 00:46:41,520
Speaker 3: this up? Okay, Okay, I don't. I didn't care, though

968
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Speaker 3: I did a little. I did a little spit shine

969
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:46,719
Speaker 3: and sucked on her clit and fingered her and cleaned up.

970
00:46:46,920 --> 00:46:49,080
Speaker 3: I sat on her face and there were no complaints.

971
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Speaker 3: Still need to read you to truly slut a woman out,

972
00:46:51,440 --> 00:46:52,719
Speaker 3: But I have no regrets.

973
00:46:52,960 --> 00:46:54,239
Speaker 1: She said she didn't slutter around enough.

974
00:46:54,280 --> 00:46:55,160
Speaker 4: Yeah, she needs to redo.

975
00:46:55,200 --> 00:46:56,680
Speaker 1: Okay, she was just going gentle to start.

976
00:46:57,680 --> 00:47:00,879
Speaker 5: That was beautiful. I mean, you definitely a spell on him.

977
00:47:00,880 --> 00:47:03,760
Speaker 5: That's some blood both blood sex magic for sure.

978
00:47:04,239 --> 00:47:04,359
Speaker 4: See.

979
00:47:04,719 --> 00:47:06,680
Speaker 3: That's that would be my hold up in allowing another

980
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Speaker 3: woman to have sex with my man on her period.

981
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:10,200
Speaker 1: I have, I have.

982
00:47:10,400 --> 00:47:12,719
Speaker 5: I think that's the boundary for I have certain things.

983
00:47:12,760 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 5: I'm like, no, that's only my job.

984
00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:15,600
Speaker 4: I think that's a threecome boundary for me.

985
00:47:15,760 --> 00:47:18,880
Speaker 1: Yeah right, yeah, we don't both need to be in

986
00:47:18,920 --> 00:47:22,960
Speaker 1: our periods. Will wait for you to come back you

987
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Speaker 1: now call us in about five to seven daries.

988
00:47:25,160 --> 00:47:28,920
Speaker 5: But you, nigga, you you better get tended she goes home,

989
00:47:30,200 --> 00:47:30,600
Speaker 5: come here.

990
00:47:32,520 --> 00:47:35,680
Speaker 1: But you know, I'm I'm I'm jealousy.

991
00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:37,920
Speaker 3: I mean, no, I don't think that's geos. I think

992
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:39,360
Speaker 3: that's perfectly normal.

993
00:47:39,440 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 5: Well, I think it's it's a spell that must be

994
00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:42,640
Speaker 5: like really close.

995
00:47:42,640 --> 00:47:43,920
Speaker 1: Maybe that they're really close friends.

996
00:47:44,040 --> 00:47:46,800
Speaker 4: I don't know. But that's just my boundary. Doesn't have

997
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 4: to be everybody else's.

998
00:47:47,640 --> 00:47:49,359
Speaker 3: But no, no, no, no, no, no no, I'm the only

999
00:47:49,400 --> 00:47:50,600
Speaker 3: ketchup packing motherfucker.

1000
00:47:50,680 --> 00:47:56,600
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, you know, blood bonds hold a very special

1001
00:47:56,680 --> 00:47:58,040
Speaker 5: high regard in my relationship.

1002
00:47:58,080 --> 00:48:01,680
Speaker 1: I have everybody doing it. Might have you stuck like

1003
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Speaker 1: chuck like me?

1004
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:03,680
Speaker 4: Oh my god?

1005
00:48:05,760 --> 00:48:08,280
Speaker 1: Get anything to add to this to this week's episode.

1006
00:48:08,320 --> 00:48:10,120
Speaker 4: I think this concludes the episode.

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00:48:10,120 --> 00:48:13,400
Speaker 3: The moral of the story is talk good to yourself

1008
00:48:13,880 --> 00:48:15,640
Speaker 3: out loud all the time.

1009
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Speaker 5: And to your loved ones to your loved ones, and

1010
00:48:18,840 --> 00:48:21,719
Speaker 5: normalize bragging about yourself just a little bit, actually a lot.

1011
00:48:21,760 --> 00:48:24,640
Speaker 1: Fuck it just go all the way, yep.

1012
00:48:24,760 --> 00:48:29,600
Speaker 3: I agree, And yeah, check in with yourself. Be honest

1013
00:48:29,600 --> 00:48:33,880
Speaker 3: with yourself even if you feel really good, just you know,

1014
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:38,239
Speaker 3: never stop asking questions. I feel like, even in your happiness,

1015
00:48:38,280 --> 00:48:40,400
Speaker 3: because I feel like that's what happens. We get comfortable

1016
00:48:40,520 --> 00:48:42,920
Speaker 3: and then the shit is exposed. But if we just

1017
00:48:42,960 --> 00:48:46,000
Speaker 3: are always kind of curious about where we're at, then

1018
00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:48,520
Speaker 3: we're always kind of like happily doing the work instead

1019
00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:52,600
Speaker 3: of like being triggered or like just things coming up unexpectedly.

1020
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Speaker 5: Well, it doesn't always have to be like triggers, don't

1021
00:48:54,440 --> 00:48:57,040
Speaker 5: have to be some like abrasive thing. And I think

1022
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Speaker 5: sometimes we think that it could be just literally feeling

1023
00:48:59,239 --> 00:49:01,680
Speaker 5: a little bit uncomfort and then sitting with it. But

1024
00:49:01,880 --> 00:49:04,319
Speaker 5: I like, let it get a little uncomfortable and sit

1025
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:06,400
Speaker 5: with it before it does some shit triggers you and

1026
00:49:06,480 --> 00:49:08,600
Speaker 5: then you really are like out on the floor trying

1027
00:49:08,600 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 5: to figure it out, you know, picking up the pieces.

1028
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Speaker 1: But yeah, sit with yourself and do the.

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Speaker 3: Work and follow us on Instagram at Good Mom's Underscore

1030
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Speaker 3: Bad Choices and make sure you follow our retreat page.

1031
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Speaker 3: We just announced another retreat. We're going to Mexico. So

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Speaker 3: if you and your friends or your girls, or come

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Speaker 3: by yourself, because really that's what I recommend when I

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Speaker 2: Yep, love you bye.

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