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Speaker 1: All from Ruby.

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Speaker 2: Hello? Hello, what is your name?

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Speaker 1: My name is Ruby?

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Speaker 2: What's up? Ruby?

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Speaker 3: What's up?

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Speaker 2: How can I get you today? What's what's happening?

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Speaker 1: Shoot? I don't know. Life is crazy? Life.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I do say that a lot. I do say

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Speaker 2: that a lot, and I fucking mean it with my

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Speaker 2: entire body every time.

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Speaker 1: That I say it, I feel it with my entire No,

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Speaker 1: that sounds weird. Hmmm. Yeah, life is crazy. Have you

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Speaker 1: seen Do you have any texts, previous texts?

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Speaker 2: Do I have any previous texts from the past.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I've tried to call him before.

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Speaker 2: Oh okay, well, uh no, no worry about it. Okay,

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Speaker 2: all right, do you have a thing you want to

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Speaker 2: talk about?

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Speaker 1: I mean, shoot, not particularly. Life is just crazy. The

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Speaker 1: last last couple of years been crazy.

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Speaker 2: How old are you reby?

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Speaker 1: I am nineteen?

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Speaker 2: Okay, Uh why have the last few years been crazy?

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Speaker 1: Well? Hm hmm. So I grew up Mormon, whole family

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Speaker 1: left Mormonism. That was pretty crazy. I had to go

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Speaker 1: through like treatment for like crazy uh eating disorder stuff.

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Speaker 1: That was pretty crazy. Anyway, it's just lots of crazy,

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Speaker 1: lots of change, and it's been like it's like the

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Speaker 1: but like i'd write like it's weird. It's like I know,

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Speaker 1: My brother's in the room. Yeah, I don't know. It's

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Speaker 1: life is hard, and it's like I'm glad it happened,

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Speaker 1: but you know it's hard.

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Speaker 2: H Do you think it'll get any easier?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's so yeah, that's kind of what I want

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Speaker 1: to talk about. It's like that's what everybody says, but

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Speaker 1: it's just it's like weird.

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Speaker 4: It's it's like and.

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Speaker 1: Then I okay, that's the thought. I'm finding the words.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, what's the word. Oh, it's just like yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's like I'm only nineteen yet, like everything feels so shit,

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Speaker 2: Yeah, that's an interesting question. Will it get easier? That's

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Speaker 2: an interesting question. I don't like when people say it'll

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Speaker 2: people say that because it's like that's not it's not guaranteed,

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Speaker 2: you know what I mean. Not, by the way, not

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Speaker 2: everything will always will get worse. That's also that's equally

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Speaker 2: as much of a platitude. The truth is that you

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Speaker 2: kind of have no fucking idea, but you can. I

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Speaker 2: get you can do certain things with your life agency

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Speaker 2: two give yourself a better shot that things will get easier.

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Speaker 2: Life can take your agency and shove it up your

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Speaker 2: your only option. I suppose what would what would things

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I think it's just like more routine.

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Speaker 1: I think that's I'm like formulating the words better now.

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Speaker 1: It's like life is just so like crazy, and it's

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Speaker 1: Just like, I don't know, I feel like nothing about

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Speaker 2: Know what's what's the job.

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Speaker 1: I'm a behavioral technician, So I work with adults with

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Speaker 2: Why is that isolating?

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Speaker 1: Well, So, I mean I work one on one with

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Speaker 1: I understand, Yeah, and he just had like really bad regression,

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Speaker 2: I get you, I get because it just you're one

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Speaker 1: I'm a behavioral technician okay, slash like personal assistance. Why

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Speaker 2: So it's just you and this guy, Like I assume,

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Speaker 1: Who is also yeah, like so I work with his family.

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Speaker 2: isolating for sure. Yeah, but that does sound rewarding how

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Speaker 2: I feel? Go ahead? Sorry?

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Speaker 1: Sorry, no, you go ahead.

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Speaker 2: Oh it's just gonna say I'm still thinking about whether

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Speaker 1: Oh I was gonna say, like it's interesting because it's like,

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Speaker 4: It's just yeah, like.

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Speaker 2: Like so when you when you are observing the lives

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Speaker 2: I guess, do you know anyone else who left Mormonism

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Speaker 2: But I did I don't it's a fair argument that

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Speaker 2: I'm glad we could. I'm glad we could reach that conclusion.

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Speaker 1: It gets interesting, it gets more interesting, it gets more interesting.

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Speaker 2: Actually, I disagree with that too. I don't think that's inherent.

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Speaker 2: say it absolutely. I believe with one hundred percent certainty

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Speaker 2: that it can get more interesting. I don't believe with

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Speaker 2: agree with you that it can.

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Speaker 1: Yes, that's fair. Yeah, semi semi adult stage of life

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Speaker 2: I guess how do you, uh, how do you feel

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Speaker 1: It's okay. I was kind of surprised that I'm here,

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Speaker 1: but so my bad.

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Speaker 2: Don't you have nothing to apologize for?

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Speaker 1: Okay, well cool, thank you sir, of course.

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Speaker 2: Is is there anything else you want to say to

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Speaker 1: No?

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Speaker 2: Thank you for calling Ruby, Thank you?

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Speaker 2: Actually, what is your name, Hayley? What do you What

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Speaker 4: Actually, I have an ex boyfriend that used to sit

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Speaker 2: Cool, I'm fine, all right, you know what, Uh, thank you, Hailey.

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, sure, you're thinking about the janitors without even

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Speaker 4: I know you're I'm saying you're considering them without considering them,

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Speaker 2: It's a purely sell fishing. You're trying. You're trying to

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Speaker 4: No, but you could twist it that way if you want.

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Speaker 4: Yes, there you go, there you go.

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Speaker 2: Uh what is it you wanted to talk about today?

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Speaker 2: Because I assume it was not this?

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Speaker 4: Oh yeah, I sent you like a billion texts like

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Speaker 2: That was really cool, very nice. Well, okay, of all

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Speaker 4: Okay. I guess I was kind of thinking about uh

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Speaker 4: but it's also like a feeling that just kind of passes,

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Speaker 4: Okay, Like I had to grow up really really fast

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Speaker 2: You believe that your life has gotten Why do you

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Speaker 2: And do you think it's because of some intentional action

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I think I think it's a lot of like

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Speaker 4: do it. And if you want to fix it, fix it.

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Speaker 2: If you want to do it, do it. If you

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Speaker 2: want to fix it, fix it. I agree with that.

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Speaker 2: I agree with that. I think you're given some agency

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Speaker 4: It's different for everyone, like there are like that's the

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Speaker 2: That's why I don't like saying that. I don't like

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Speaker 4: But like I think unless you have like ten if

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Speaker 2: It's true you can always. You can't, you really can't.

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Speaker 2: I'm trying to think of some any problems that a

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Speaker 2: you can't. I guess there's a lot of problems that

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Speaker 2: a billion dollars can solve. But I guess if you're

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Speaker 4: Right, Yeah, Yeah, it's about kind of making peace with

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Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: There's a quote that I like, I don't know who

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Speaker 2: make a a hell of heaven and a heaven of hell.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, I've heard that before. It's good.

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Speaker 2: Have you ever had to clean human shit?

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Speaker 5: Oh yeah.

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Speaker 4: I'm not as bad as some of the other janitor

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Speaker 4: I'm gonna have to I'm gonna have to kill myself now. Yes,

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Speaker 4: wait at poop, yeah, poop.

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Speaker 2: Water, Oh god, oh Jesus, oh my god.

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Speaker 4: Oh oh yeah, No, it was no nasty. It's not

438
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:42,920
Speaker 4: sixteen an hour.

439
00:24:44,200 --> 00:24:48,280
Speaker 2: Oh god, Oh my god. That's one of the most

440
00:24:48,359 --> 00:24:52,320
Speaker 2: upsetting things I've heard someone say on here. Actually, oh

441
00:24:52,480 --> 00:24:54,920
Speaker 2: oh for real people and yeah, and people have talked

442
00:24:54,920 --> 00:25:00,280
Speaker 2: about like, you know, it's fucking horrible things, and that's yeah.

443
00:25:00,040 --> 00:25:02,919
Speaker 4: Yeah. I mean one janitor that said something about like

444
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:05,240
Speaker 4: kids like writing and poop on the walls. I think

445
00:25:05,280 --> 00:25:07,960
Speaker 4: that's worth worse, honestly, because I actually have to talk about.

446
00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:12,200
Speaker 2: Well, yeah, but that's that. I don't think that's I

447
00:25:12,200 --> 00:25:15,040
Speaker 2: don't think that's it. Well, first of all, yeah, of

448
00:25:15,080 --> 00:25:16,760
Speaker 2: course they're doing that. You know, I'm sure I was

449
00:25:16,800 --> 00:25:19,720
Speaker 2: doing that when I was a kid. But no, but that,

450
00:25:19,800 --> 00:25:21,480
Speaker 2: but you're getting a little spirits of it in your mouth.

451
00:25:21,480 --> 00:25:22,080
Speaker 2: That's one of the words.

452
00:25:22,080 --> 00:25:24,240
Speaker 4: That's horrible, okay, yeah, no, And that's pretty it's pretty foul.

453
00:25:24,400 --> 00:25:24,600
Speaker 2: Yeah.

454
00:25:24,880 --> 00:25:30,720
Speaker 4: Yeah, I wanted to drink bleach. Yeah.

455
00:25:28,280 --> 00:25:35,639
Speaker 2: Well yeah, Well, honestly, I'm very inspired by the fact

456
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:41,119
Speaker 2: that you have continued to live life even after that experience.

457
00:25:41,359 --> 00:25:42,920
Speaker 2: And I'm gonna think about that next time I have

458
00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:45,639
Speaker 2: a difficult experience. I'm gonna go, this lady got a

459
00:25:45,640 --> 00:25:48,000
Speaker 2: little sprits of poop in her mouth, and she didn't

460
00:25:48,080 --> 00:25:50,840
Speaker 2: kill herself, So I'm not going to either.

461
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:55,640
Speaker 4: I mean, think about people who eat ass.

462
00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:59,879
Speaker 2: It's gotta be worse, right, no, because you can.

463
00:26:01,480 --> 00:26:02,520
Speaker 4: Not everyone cleans.

464
00:26:03,280 --> 00:26:04,440
Speaker 2: Not everyone cleans.

465
00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:07,160
Speaker 4: Oh no, I've had guys just straight up going there

466
00:26:07,200 --> 00:26:11,640
Speaker 4: without even asking. Oh Jesus, oh yeah, no, people don't care.

467
00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:12,440
Speaker 5: It's gross.

468
00:26:14,640 --> 00:26:16,160
Speaker 2: Was there anything else? Who I say to the people

469
00:26:16,160 --> 00:26:17,320
Speaker 2: of the computer before we go?

470
00:26:18,800 --> 00:26:18,960
Speaker 1: Uh?

471
00:26:19,560 --> 00:26:23,560
Speaker 4: Yeah, So yeah, I'm really grateful for this experience. Experience

472
00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:26,399
Speaker 4: by the way, Lyle, so thank you, and I just

473
00:26:26,440 --> 00:26:29,680
Speaker 4: want everyone to enjoy life as much as they can,

474
00:26:29,800 --> 00:26:31,840
Speaker 4: try not to ruminate on the shitty things, and eat

475
00:26:31,880 --> 00:26:33,240
Speaker 4: lots of tasty, good food.

476
00:26:34,400 --> 00:26:37,119
Speaker 2: Beautiful. Thank you for calling, ma'am.

477
00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:41,080
Speaker 4: You're welcome, man, Thank you so much for this opportunity.

478
00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:46,200
Speaker 2: Is there right? Does anyone else sit down? Will ape

479
00:26:46,800 --> 00:26:51,919
Speaker 2: an any others sit down? Peers? But listen to this

480
00:26:52,040 --> 00:26:58,560
Speaker 2: show because I think it's a perfectly respectable way to

481
00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:04,600
Speaker 2: go about life. A friend of the show, I'll call

482
00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:09,120
Speaker 2: him Tim Heidecker, who appeared on an episode I think,

483
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:13,040
Speaker 2: uh one or two years ago, year and a half ago,

484
00:27:13,119 --> 00:27:18,359
Speaker 2: something like that. Uh, Tim, Tim and Eric they have

485
00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:21,760
Speaker 2: a song called I Sit Down When I Pee. It

486
00:27:21,840 --> 00:27:25,520
Speaker 2: goes something like I sit down when I pee. There's

487
00:27:25,560 --> 00:27:28,800
Speaker 2: nothing that crazy about me. I'm just taking a whiz.

488
00:27:28,960 --> 00:27:33,840
Speaker 2: Mind your own biz. What does everybody keep staring at me? And?

489
00:27:33,960 --> 00:27:34,320
Speaker 1: Uh?

490
00:27:35,119 --> 00:27:42,960
Speaker 2: I think those were those were poetic words? Hello, Hi, Hi,

491
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:43,600
Speaker 2: what is your name?

492
00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:45,520
Speaker 3: You need?

493
00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:49,280
Speaker 2: Sntario Santiago? What's going on? Where you call him from? Sir?

494
00:27:51,119 --> 00:27:54,640
Speaker 3: I'm going to yeah.

495
00:27:53,359 --> 00:27:54,080
Speaker 2: From where.

496
00:27:55,359 --> 00:27:56,640
Speaker 3: Colombia South America.

497
00:27:57,480 --> 00:27:59,440
Speaker 2: Oh, very cool. What's going on down there?

498
00:28:01,600 --> 00:28:02,000
Speaker 1: Uh?

499
00:28:02,400 --> 00:28:06,000
Speaker 3: Not much, you know, just chilling watching stream.

500
00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:13,080
Speaker 2: Cool cool, very cool, very sick, very awesome, very nice.

501
00:28:13,880 --> 00:28:17,920
Speaker 2: How can I get you today, Sir Santiago? What's uh,

502
00:28:18,440 --> 00:28:21,400
Speaker 2: what's on your mind? What do you want to talk about?

503
00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:23,880
Speaker 3: I don't know, man, I think there's like a lot

504
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:27,480
Speaker 3: because my life has been pretty eventful over a little

505
00:28:27,600 --> 00:28:31,840
Speaker 3: these last two years, so I wouldn't know like where.

506
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:37,640
Speaker 2: To start, seem start anywhere, all right.

507
00:28:37,720 --> 00:28:43,000
Speaker 3: So turns out like now, I told you I am

508
00:28:43,000 --> 00:28:46,200
Speaker 3: coming from Colombia. But I moved to the US like

509
00:28:47,760 --> 00:28:51,040
Speaker 3: two years almost three years ago, and I lived there

510
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:54,680
Speaker 3: for like two years, and it was one of the

511
00:28:54,720 --> 00:28:57,200
Speaker 3: most fucked up experience so.

512
00:28:57,240 --> 00:29:00,480
Speaker 2: Far living in Living in the US was one of

513
00:29:00,520 --> 00:29:02,360
Speaker 2: the most fucked up experiences you've had so far.

514
00:29:03,560 --> 00:29:04,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was fucking wild.

515
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:08,960
Speaker 2: Tell me why?

516
00:29:09,040 --> 00:29:12,640
Speaker 3: All right? So I moved there, and initially, since I

517
00:29:12,760 --> 00:29:15,440
Speaker 3: lived here, I didn't have a home there. So when

518
00:29:15,480 --> 00:29:17,560
Speaker 3: I moved there, we were supposed to be this thing

519
00:29:17,600 --> 00:29:21,000
Speaker 3: with a friend of my dad who was supposed to

520
00:29:21,440 --> 00:29:23,959
Speaker 3: you know, receive me, helped me. I was going to

521
00:29:24,040 --> 00:29:26,720
Speaker 3: finish high school there because at that time I was

522
00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,640
Speaker 3: I think I was sixteen or something or so, I

523
00:29:30,680 --> 00:29:35,520
Speaker 3: don't remember well. So you know, everything was like a

524
00:29:35,560 --> 00:29:38,440
Speaker 3: really cool plan, trying to say that I will finish

525
00:29:38,520 --> 00:29:42,000
Speaker 3: high school there, go to college there, and he was

526
00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:44,720
Speaker 3: supposed to like, uh not like you drop me, like

527
00:29:45,480 --> 00:29:48,240
Speaker 3: be my new guardian, because I was going to stay

528
00:29:48,240 --> 00:29:51,120
Speaker 3: with him by myself, like my parents will be back

529
00:29:51,160 --> 00:29:55,000
Speaker 3: here in Columbia. And it turns out the dude was

530
00:29:55,040 --> 00:29:57,479
Speaker 3: like a piece of shit and he like made me

531
00:29:57,840 --> 00:30:00,800
Speaker 3: one of the worst months of my life because he

532
00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:06,640
Speaker 3: was extremely narcissistic person and he ended up being like

533
00:30:06,680 --> 00:30:08,280
Speaker 3: a crazy religious man.

534
00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:14,200
Speaker 2: Oh okay, so he moved to the US, and like

535
00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:16,400
Speaker 2: the plan was, You're gonna stay with this guy, and

536
00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:17,720
Speaker 2: then he turned out to be crazy.

537
00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:20,040
Speaker 3: Yeah.

538
00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:20,360
Speaker 1: Yeah.

539
00:30:20,400 --> 00:30:23,680
Speaker 3: Because basically at first everything was like looking fine because

540
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:26,280
Speaker 3: he was like really friendly and he'll had like you know,

541
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:28,800
Speaker 3: his own family, and we were all like getting along.

542
00:30:29,360 --> 00:30:32,560
Speaker 3: But then with time he started being like more like

543
00:30:32,640 --> 00:30:36,840
Speaker 3: intrusive in my life because I mean he was really

544
00:30:36,880 --> 00:30:41,760
Speaker 3: really used Christian, but I'm not an't I'm not I

545
00:30:41,800 --> 00:30:44,680
Speaker 3: don't believe in God. He sort of like a little kid,

546
00:30:45,000 --> 00:30:47,720
Speaker 3: but the guy was like really really into it and

547
00:30:47,800 --> 00:30:50,560
Speaker 3: he started like trying to I mean, I would go

548
00:30:50,680 --> 00:30:53,040
Speaker 3: home and just try to sleep after a day of

549
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 3: working going to school, and he would like start like

550
00:30:56,080 --> 00:30:59,760
Speaker 3: preaching me about God and how he I mean he

551
00:30:59,800 --> 00:31:02,760
Speaker 3: was also from Columbia, and he told me that one time,

552
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:08,120
Speaker 3: I'm sorry that one time he helped like a guy

553
00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:11,880
Speaker 3: that he is now two be like a better person,

554
00:31:11,920 --> 00:31:15,320
Speaker 3: and that he converted him to a god a person,

555
00:31:15,360 --> 00:31:17,840
Speaker 3: and he wanted to do the same with me because

556
00:31:17,880 --> 00:31:20,920
Speaker 3: he thought us like that I was like a evil

557
00:31:21,160 --> 00:31:23,920
Speaker 3: or something. Because he tried to take me to church

558
00:31:24,000 --> 00:31:28,240
Speaker 3: and do all kinds of stuff because I I usually

559
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:31,280
Speaker 3: wear all black. I don't wear anything else than that

560
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:35,000
Speaker 3: that isn't black. So he used and for no specific reasons,

561
00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:38,080
Speaker 3: but he used to think that was like an evil thing,

562
00:31:38,280 --> 00:31:43,240
Speaker 3: that I was like the devil or something. So he

563
00:31:43,480 --> 00:31:46,840
Speaker 3: like try to talk to me saying things like that

564
00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:51,400
Speaker 3: I should you know, worship God. And he will say

565
00:31:51,440 --> 00:31:53,920
Speaker 3: like evolution is stupid, and he will like talk to

566
00:31:54,000 --> 00:31:56,360
Speaker 3: me like you think we come from monkeys. I don't

567
00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:59,560
Speaker 3: think so I don't look like him, do I? And

568
00:31:59,680 --> 00:32:02,320
Speaker 3: that can stupid ship to the point where he ended

569
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:04,720
Speaker 3: up like telling me that he used to cheat on

570
00:32:04,840 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 3: his wife, but God changed him and he spent three

571
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:14,800
Speaker 3: and third days without eating drinking and even that was

572
00:32:14,880 --> 00:32:18,400
Speaker 3: he went to the bedroom and pete after no drinking

573
00:32:18,440 --> 00:32:20,560
Speaker 3: for three days, so he thought there was a proof

574
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:26,320
Speaker 3: of God existence and carrying water while he was at leap.

575
00:32:27,240 --> 00:32:30,120
Speaker 2: That is that is extremely funny. Okay. One second, man,

576
00:32:30,200 --> 00:32:32,680
Speaker 2: are you are you like doing it your fun You

577
00:32:32,760 --> 00:32:36,240
Speaker 2: keep like cutting out a little bit. I don't know

578
00:32:36,240 --> 00:32:40,120
Speaker 2: if the chat can hear that, but can is you?

579
00:32:40,160 --> 00:32:42,840
Speaker 2: Are you like doing anything weird with your phone, like

580
00:32:42,960 --> 00:32:45,440
Speaker 2: holding it in a weird way, or are you on

581
00:32:45,560 --> 00:32:47,480
Speaker 2: like headphones or anything like that.

582
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:50,480
Speaker 3: No, No, I'm just on the phone normally. But I

583
00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:53,080
Speaker 3: think it might be because of the distance, because you know,

584
00:32:53,080 --> 00:32:55,880
Speaker 3: I'm here in Colombia and maybe the long distance college

585
00:32:56,000 --> 00:32:56,800
Speaker 3: maybe sucking up.

586
00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:04,280
Speaker 2: Okay, well, anyway, that that is pretty funny that he

587
00:33:04,480 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 2: thought that God was making him piss. Yeah, And he

588
00:33:09,600 --> 00:33:11,120
Speaker 2: told us that that would be kind of that would

589
00:33:11,120 --> 00:33:13,640
Speaker 2: be kind of like if he was like if like

590
00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:16,680
Speaker 2: he came while he was flaccid, you know, and then

591
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:20,600
Speaker 2: he was like God, uh gave me ropes.

592
00:33:22,800 --> 00:33:24,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was kind of something like that. I Mean,

593
00:33:24,840 --> 00:33:27,800
Speaker 3: he would go on and tell us about how he

594
00:33:27,800 --> 00:33:31,320
Speaker 3: would cheer his wife with multiple people. But then one

595
00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:33,400
Speaker 3: day he felt like he had a devil in him

596
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,320
Speaker 3: and after doing that, he felt was really from the levil,

597
00:33:36,520 --> 00:33:38,520
Speaker 3: so he became a better person. And it was so

598
00:33:38,560 --> 00:33:41,160
Speaker 3: obvious that he was just trying to deflect the guild

599
00:33:41,320 --> 00:33:44,600
Speaker 3: of being a cheater into trying to justify it with

600
00:33:44,760 --> 00:33:49,240
Speaker 3: a demon being inside him, and it just like I

601
00:33:49,280 --> 00:33:52,000
Speaker 3: think it probably started just like a lie, and he

602
00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:55,240
Speaker 3: believed it so much that he started like using to

603
00:33:55,240 --> 00:33:56,360
Speaker 3: convert other people.

604
00:33:57,480 --> 00:34:00,760
Speaker 2: M So, how long did you live with this guy?

605
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:05,920
Speaker 3: I think I lived with him for six months and

606
00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:09,239
Speaker 3: in the end I was supposed to stay by myself there,

607
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:12,440
Speaker 3: but luckily, and I don't know what I would have

608
00:34:12,480 --> 00:34:14,480
Speaker 3: done if this didn't happen, but my mom ended up

609
00:34:14,520 --> 00:34:17,759
Speaker 3: staying with me because she didn't like trust the guy.

610
00:34:17,840 --> 00:34:21,040
Speaker 3: She didn't he didn't look like good pipes to her,

611
00:34:21,400 --> 00:34:24,400
Speaker 3: so she stayed with me for a while. And after

612
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:28,520
Speaker 3: doing all that, like it wasn't only with the crazy

613
00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:34,160
Speaker 3: religious things, he will also be like really like he

614
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:37,759
Speaker 3: will be a bad person intentionally, but like try to

615
00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:41,560
Speaker 3: these guys. It so we were living okay, so we

616
00:34:41,840 --> 00:34:43,880
Speaker 3: thought we're going to live, you know, in a The

617
00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:45,759
Speaker 3: guy was a big liar, so he told us he

618
00:34:45,800 --> 00:34:48,440
Speaker 3: was living in a because that he was living you know,

619
00:34:48,680 --> 00:34:51,920
Speaker 3: the American dream. So we felt like comfortable living with

620
00:34:52,000 --> 00:34:53,440
Speaker 3: him because we thought we were going to have like

621
00:34:53,480 --> 00:34:56,319
Speaker 3: a decent place. But it turns out that the guy

622
00:34:56,760 --> 00:35:01,719
Speaker 3: was living in an apartment that was for he has

623
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:04,439
Speaker 3: like two bedrooms, and it was nine of us there

624
00:35:04,840 --> 00:35:07,960
Speaker 3: because it was me and all of his family. He

625
00:35:08,000 --> 00:35:11,520
Speaker 3: had three daughters, his wife, his mom, and his aunt.

626
00:35:11,880 --> 00:35:14,839
Speaker 3: So it was like nine people living in a two

627
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:18,160
Speaker 3: bedroom government. So it was fucked up because we will

628
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:21,160
Speaker 3: sleep in like those I don't know how it's called,

629
00:35:21,239 --> 00:35:24,000
Speaker 3: like those beds that you bump air into them.

630
00:35:24,200 --> 00:35:26,080
Speaker 2: And we were sleeping like in air mattresses.

631
00:35:27,480 --> 00:35:29,920
Speaker 3: Yeah yeah, yeah, an air mattress, and we were like

632
00:35:30,440 --> 00:35:34,160
Speaker 3: sleeping in the I don't know, it's like next to

633
00:35:34,200 --> 00:35:40,200
Speaker 3: the place where you did I forgot, I'm sorry, the kitchen. Yeah,

634
00:35:40,200 --> 00:35:42,280
Speaker 3: we were. We were like sleeping next to the kitchen.

635
00:35:42,560 --> 00:35:45,360
Speaker 3: And we didn't have like no privacy or like anything.

636
00:35:45,960 --> 00:35:50,600
Speaker 3: I only had like a little closet space for my clothes.

637
00:35:50,960 --> 00:35:52,879
Speaker 3: I will have my air mattress and like a night's

638
00:35:52,920 --> 00:35:54,360
Speaker 3: time and that was it, and I didn't have like

639
00:35:54,480 --> 00:35:57,440
Speaker 3: any privacy because next to the kitchen and next to

640
00:35:57,480 --> 00:36:00,840
Speaker 3: the couch. So he was like, I don't know. Uh,

641
00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:02,719
Speaker 3: if I had school the next marine and I had

642
00:36:02,719 --> 00:36:05,640
Speaker 3: to wake up early, he will stay like really really

643
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:08,880
Speaker 3: really with the television, like extremely wild, just to not

644
00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:13,799
Speaker 3: let me sleep. Or he will like hit two small

645
00:36:13,880 --> 00:36:16,680
Speaker 3: daughters and they will leave like all day and they

646
00:36:16,680 --> 00:36:19,480
Speaker 3: didn't like give their give them food, so I will

647
00:36:19,520 --> 00:36:22,759
Speaker 3: have to cook for them, or they'll buy food and

648
00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:25,040
Speaker 3: hide it from us, so they weren't like really fucked

649
00:36:25,120 --> 00:36:25,600
Speaker 3: up stuff.

650
00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:30,760
Speaker 2: Have you ever played Grand Theft Auto four?

651
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:33,120
Speaker 3: Yeah?

652
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:33,360
Speaker 5: I have.

653
00:36:34,360 --> 00:36:37,239
Speaker 2: This is kind of like the plot of Grand Theft

654
00:36:37,239 --> 00:36:39,480
Speaker 2: Auto four, although it's not exactly the plot of Grand

655
00:36:39,520 --> 00:36:42,680
Speaker 2: Theft Autal four, but it's like, I mean, you like

656
00:36:42,880 --> 00:36:46,279
Speaker 2: the plot of Grand Theft Tootal four is like, Uh,

657
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 2: Nico Beleck's cousin, He's like, Yo, come to America, stay

658
00:36:50,719 --> 00:36:52,920
Speaker 2: with me. I'm living large. I got a mansion, I

659
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:56,000
Speaker 2: got a billion dollars. Uh, life in America is sick.

660
00:36:56,280 --> 00:36:58,000
Speaker 2: And then he gets there and it's like, oh shitty.

661
00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:00,560
Speaker 1: Yeah.

662
00:37:00,600 --> 00:37:02,439
Speaker 3: It was kind of like that because you know, many

663
00:37:02,480 --> 00:37:05,279
Speaker 3: people like outside the US, could you probably know this,

664
00:37:05,719 --> 00:37:07,960
Speaker 3: but feel like the US as the American dream, like

665
00:37:08,000 --> 00:37:10,759
Speaker 3: this place where you go and you, I don't know,

666
00:37:10,840 --> 00:37:13,800
Speaker 3: get a lot of money, rich and you just improved

667
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:16,480
Speaker 3: your life out of Maui by just being there. But

668
00:37:16,600 --> 00:37:20,640
Speaker 3: actually for me was the complete opposite, because I'm not

669
00:37:20,719 --> 00:37:22,759
Speaker 3: that I'm living here in Colombia. I was never rich

670
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:25,840
Speaker 3: here nor like, like me a lot of money. But

671
00:37:25,880 --> 00:37:27,360
Speaker 3: I used to live like a you know, a pretty

672
00:37:27,400 --> 00:37:29,600
Speaker 3: normal life. I had my own room, I used to

673
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:32,120
Speaker 3: go to school, everything, But it was like such a

674
00:37:32,200 --> 00:37:34,439
Speaker 3: down grade, like I went from having my own room,

675
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:37,759
Speaker 3: my own bed, like living in a kitchen in an

676
00:37:37,800 --> 00:37:41,600
Speaker 3: air mattress with nothing else than that. So yeah, yeah,

677
00:37:41,600 --> 00:37:42,640
Speaker 3: I guess it was kind of like that.

678
00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:44,919
Speaker 2: I thought, you know, I was actually I was thinking

679
00:37:44,920 --> 00:37:48,759
Speaker 2: about this today. It's like why, I'm sure, like an

680
00:37:48,840 --> 00:37:52,479
Speaker 2: actual I'm sure there that like somebody who's familiar with

681
00:37:52,680 --> 00:37:56,880
Speaker 2: like socioeconomics and stuff could give an actual explanation to

682
00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:59,640
Speaker 2: this shit. But like I guess I do kind of

683
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:02,960
Speaker 2: wonder it's like why, yeah, like why did your family

684
00:38:03,080 --> 00:38:07,200
Speaker 2: think that things would be better in America? Because I

685
00:38:07,239 --> 00:38:10,320
Speaker 2: guess you're like America is like way more fucking expensive

686
00:38:10,960 --> 00:38:15,160
Speaker 2: I assume than Yeahlumbia. So like if you move from

687
00:38:15,160 --> 00:38:18,320
Speaker 2: Colombia to America, it just seems like everything's going to

688
00:38:18,360 --> 00:38:20,200
Speaker 2: be like more expensive and more annoying.

689
00:38:22,840 --> 00:38:25,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean for us, it started when I mean

690
00:38:25,880 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 3: we didn't have plan, We didn't plan to like stay

691
00:38:29,080 --> 00:38:31,960
Speaker 3: living there because we were just like on vacation. But

692
00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:34,399
Speaker 3: then we met like a lady that was from her

693
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:36,960
Speaker 3: saint country that was working in one of the places

694
00:38:37,040 --> 00:38:39,799
Speaker 3: we went to visit when we were doing tourism, and

695
00:38:39,880 --> 00:38:42,480
Speaker 3: she started like talking with my own like saying she

696
00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:45,799
Speaker 3: used to be a lawyer she in Colombia, and she

697
00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:51,560
Speaker 3: was like a train driver for like a kids sitting

698
00:38:51,640 --> 00:38:54,120
Speaker 3: in a park in the US. And she was telling

699
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:57,280
Speaker 3: her like, oh that she lived a better life driving

700
00:38:57,280 --> 00:38:59,320
Speaker 3: a train for kids in the US than being a

701
00:38:59,400 --> 00:39:03,280
Speaker 3: liar in Colombia. So my mom had like this really

702
00:39:03,320 --> 00:39:06,319
Speaker 3: idea of like, oh, yeah, that's that's possible. I mean,

703
00:39:06,800 --> 00:39:09,320
Speaker 3: I can stay here. So she got into that idea

704
00:39:09,360 --> 00:39:14,120
Speaker 3: of like things were going to be better there, but

705
00:39:14,200 --> 00:39:16,399
Speaker 3: they actually weren't. Like a lot of people think that

706
00:39:16,680 --> 00:39:18,719
Speaker 3: even though America is more expensive. At the same time,

707
00:39:18,800 --> 00:39:22,120
Speaker 3: did you like Earman Morning, Because I mean just say

708
00:39:22,239 --> 00:39:26,080
Speaker 3: better there. So it's kind of like the balance thing.

709
00:39:26,560 --> 00:39:28,799
Speaker 3: But I don't know many people like to do that.

710
00:39:28,840 --> 00:39:32,200
Speaker 3: And I didn't even like believe in the American realm

711
00:39:32,239 --> 00:39:34,520
Speaker 3: at first, Like they didn't even want to leave in

712
00:39:34,560 --> 00:39:36,160
Speaker 3: the US, like, oh yeah, I'm going to leave in

713
00:39:36,160 --> 00:39:38,960
Speaker 3: the US and it's going to be like in the movies.

714
00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:43,120
Speaker 3: But I ended up like being absorbed by that too

715
00:39:43,320 --> 00:39:44,200
Speaker 3: without knowing.

716
00:39:46,760 --> 00:39:50,360
Speaker 2: So did you ever get out of that that house?

717
00:39:50,960 --> 00:39:53,160
Speaker 2: And like where, like where are you at? I mean

718
00:39:53,160 --> 00:39:55,200
Speaker 2: you're in Columbia, So I guess so you left that

719
00:39:55,239 --> 00:39:58,719
Speaker 2: guy's house and then like did you get anything? Did

720
00:39:58,719 --> 00:40:00,799
Speaker 2: you get like a better situation? I were you just

721
00:40:00,880 --> 00:40:02,920
Speaker 2: like all right, this guy's house sucks. I'm going back

722
00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:03,960
Speaker 2: to Columbia.

723
00:40:04,680 --> 00:40:07,800
Speaker 3: And that was actually worse. That's that's why I said,

724
00:40:07,840 --> 00:40:11,200
Speaker 3: like this, those two years were pretty eventful because there

725
00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 3: were those were just the first six months, and so

726
00:40:15,880 --> 00:40:19,880
Speaker 3: during those six months turns out like a lot of

727
00:40:19,960 --> 00:40:23,319
Speaker 3: stuff that was before that work in Boldlare, Like my

728
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:26,080
Speaker 3: dad was supposed to help us with the rent, but

729
00:40:26,200 --> 00:40:30,560
Speaker 3: he like disappeared for that time, so it was only

730
00:40:30,600 --> 00:40:33,400
Speaker 3: my mom and me, and she was working in a hotel,

731
00:40:33,520 --> 00:40:36,520
Speaker 3: like doing the planning to be able to pay the

732
00:40:36,560 --> 00:40:39,799
Speaker 3: billius and I was working at store electring store, so

733
00:40:39,840 --> 00:40:42,440
Speaker 3: we couldn't pay an apartment bar stuff, so we couldn't

734
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:44,880
Speaker 3: get out of there. It was like almost impossible because

735
00:40:45,000 --> 00:40:49,480
Speaker 3: the rent was so high everywhere, and they also require

736
00:40:49,600 --> 00:40:52,360
Speaker 3: like you know, credit history and a lot of stuff

737
00:40:52,360 --> 00:40:54,520
Speaker 3: that we didn't have, so she was almost impossible to

738
00:40:54,520 --> 00:40:58,239
Speaker 3: move out of there. And in the end we ended

739
00:40:58,320 --> 00:41:01,719
Speaker 3: up being so desperate of like leaving this guy that

740
00:41:01,800 --> 00:41:05,880
Speaker 3: we ended up living in a hotel for a few months.

741
00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:06,759
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

742
00:41:08,120 --> 00:41:11,600
Speaker 2: So when did you When did you go back to Columbia.

743
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:18,000
Speaker 3: I came back in December last year, because yeah, after

744
00:41:18,080 --> 00:41:20,880
Speaker 3: all that foot up stuff, we went to the hotel.

745
00:41:20,920 --> 00:41:23,560
Speaker 3: We lived there for a few months. Then things like

746
00:41:23,600 --> 00:41:26,319
Speaker 3: we got a little better. We started living in a

747
00:41:26,360 --> 00:41:29,799
Speaker 3: basement so that that we weren'ted, but things were like

748
00:41:29,920 --> 00:41:32,279
Speaker 3: I mean, I wasn't happy, especially with school there. I

749
00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:36,040
Speaker 3: don't know what your then, what your opinion is from

750
00:41:36,080 --> 00:41:39,200
Speaker 3: school in the US, but for me, it absolutely sucked.

751
00:41:39,360 --> 00:41:43,759
Speaker 3: I didn't I couldn't stand like being living there and

752
00:41:44,200 --> 00:41:46,840
Speaker 3: going to school there. So I was desperate for coming

753
00:41:46,880 --> 00:41:49,760
Speaker 3: back and I begged my mom to let me go back,

754
00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:52,000
Speaker 3: like I will tell her that I would buy the

755
00:41:52,080 --> 00:41:54,719
Speaker 3: point ticket for myself, that I would work for it,

756
00:41:54,800 --> 00:41:58,280
Speaker 3: that I just wanted to come back, and he didn't

757
00:41:58,640 --> 00:42:00,640
Speaker 3: let me do it. So I I ended up like

758
00:42:01,000 --> 00:42:08,239
Speaker 3: staying the like more time than I expected, and after

759
00:42:08,320 --> 00:42:10,120
Speaker 3: working for a long time, I was able to like,

760
00:42:10,200 --> 00:42:12,000
Speaker 3: you know, save up and I made up my mind

761
00:42:12,040 --> 00:42:14,000
Speaker 3: to come back, and I ended up coming back December

762
00:42:14,120 --> 00:42:14,600
Speaker 3: last year.

763
00:42:16,040 --> 00:42:17,839
Speaker 2: How's it been since you've gotten back.

764
00:42:20,920 --> 00:42:24,919
Speaker 3: I don't know, man, It's didn't kindtast because the people

765
00:42:24,960 --> 00:42:28,880
Speaker 3: that I knew. I mean, when when I left from Columbia,

766
00:42:29,400 --> 00:42:31,440
Speaker 3: I was still in high school, so I had, you know,

767
00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:35,160
Speaker 3: my friends, my school everything. But now when I came back,

768
00:42:35,480 --> 00:42:38,680
Speaker 3: I mean I particularly lost contact with all those people.

769
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:41,799
Speaker 3: So I was kind of like by myself. And at

770
00:42:41,840 --> 00:42:43,800
Speaker 3: the same time, I was like kind of lost because

771
00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:47,640
Speaker 3: the plan here is to build college, but I didn't

772
00:42:47,640 --> 00:42:52,600
Speaker 3: know where to start what you and yeah, I was

773
00:42:52,640 --> 00:42:56,640
Speaker 3: like we lost After all that, now I'm trying to

774
00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:59,160
Speaker 3: get into college. But then it like it's really hard

775
00:42:59,200 --> 00:43:02,200
Speaker 3: because I had take an extent. That's what my big

776
00:43:02,280 --> 00:43:04,719
Speaker 3: hardest in the country. So I'm really worried that I

777
00:43:05,000 --> 00:43:05,640
Speaker 3: min not pass.

778
00:43:08,760 --> 00:43:15,840
Speaker 2: Hm, that's crazy, man, that's crazy. Yeah. I guess I

779
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:19,040
Speaker 2: don't know. I don't know, I get I I yeah,

780
00:43:19,040 --> 00:43:20,719
Speaker 2: I was, like I said, I was thinking about I

781
00:43:20,719 --> 00:43:25,000
Speaker 2: guess why people come Why, Like, you know, people have

782
00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:27,880
Speaker 2: always been trying to come to America for a better life,

783
00:43:27,880 --> 00:43:30,080
Speaker 2: and like if actually I mean, we talked to a

784
00:43:30,200 --> 00:43:34,879
Speaker 2: dude who came uh to America from like El Salvador,

785
00:43:35,719 --> 00:43:37,520
Speaker 2: and like it was chill for a while and then

786
00:43:37,560 --> 00:43:40,160
Speaker 2: he was like, oh wait, it actually kind of sucks

787
00:43:40,160 --> 00:43:46,000
Speaker 2: and then he went back there. But uh, I don't know,

788
00:43:46,040 --> 00:43:48,719
Speaker 2: there could be some reason I guess why people keep

789
00:43:48,920 --> 00:43:53,520
Speaker 2: trying to come to America. It's definitely not but I

790
00:43:53,520 --> 00:43:56,160
Speaker 2: guess I like why, like why America, Like there's a

791
00:43:56,280 --> 00:43:59,080
Speaker 2: I don't know, like fucking what about like see things

792
00:43:59,200 --> 00:44:05,720
Speaker 2: things seem pretty cool in a fucking Germany or Italy

793
00:44:05,920 --> 00:44:10,080
Speaker 2: or France. You know, I guess I guess why America.

794
00:44:10,120 --> 00:44:13,600
Speaker 2: America seems kind of like it sucks.

795
00:44:14,920 --> 00:44:20,520
Speaker 3: I guess America's sure because you know, I think also

796
00:44:20,560 --> 00:44:23,400
Speaker 3: because of the location. I mean, the US is streamly

797
00:44:23,480 --> 00:44:26,799
Speaker 3: big and between the states, there's so many differences that

798
00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:28,960
Speaker 3: you can it's kind of like be in a different

799
00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:31,080
Speaker 3: concrete in our state, Durian or that's how it looks

800
00:44:31,160 --> 00:44:33,880
Speaker 3: like to me since I'm not from there, while in

801
00:44:33,920 --> 00:44:36,960
Speaker 3: our countries it's maybe like almost the same everywhere. So

802
00:44:37,000 --> 00:44:42,439
Speaker 3: maybe the US had like more variety when it comes

803
00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:44,520
Speaker 3: to places depending on the state during.

804
00:44:46,600 --> 00:44:52,160
Speaker 2: Mhmm. Well, well, thanks for sharing your story about all

805
00:44:52,160 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 2: this stuff. Man, I'm sorry that the American dream was

806
00:44:56,800 --> 00:45:01,440
Speaker 2: not what what what it presented itself be. Do you

807
00:45:01,480 --> 00:45:04,480
Speaker 2: have like a an ultimate like goal with your with

808
00:45:04,520 --> 00:45:05,880
Speaker 2: your life? I mean it's not kind of young. How

809
00:45:05,880 --> 00:45:06,279
Speaker 2: old are you?

810
00:45:07,719 --> 00:45:08,280
Speaker 3: I'm twenty?

811
00:45:09,120 --> 00:45:13,760
Speaker 2: Okay, what's your what's your ultimate dream here?

812
00:45:15,560 --> 00:45:18,480
Speaker 3: And I guess I guess it's going to college right now.

813
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:22,080
Speaker 3: I've always wanted to and I always always had that goal.

814
00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:25,720
Speaker 3: So yeah, that's the reason. That's that's the main reason

815
00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:28,120
Speaker 3: why I came back to go to college here.

816
00:45:30,160 --> 00:45:32,680
Speaker 2: M hm uh. And then how do you what do

817
00:45:32,719 --> 00:45:34,239
Speaker 2: you like do you have to take an exam? How

818
00:45:34,280 --> 00:45:37,880
Speaker 2: do you study for this exam?

819
00:45:37,920 --> 00:45:39,520
Speaker 3: Well, I don't know, it's really hard. I had to

820
00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 3: say like a bunch of classes because it's like one

821
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:48,239
Speaker 3: hundred and twenty questions exam. But it's one of the

822
00:45:48,280 --> 00:45:50,399
Speaker 3: top colleges of the country, so they can ask you

823
00:45:50,440 --> 00:45:53,640
Speaker 3: literally about like anything, anything that you could they could

824
00:45:53,719 --> 00:45:57,400
Speaker 3: ask you. So I've been like taking many tests and

825
00:45:58,440 --> 00:46:00,640
Speaker 3: it's like really hard to bet, like out of the

826
00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:04,960
Speaker 3: I don't know, thirty thousand people that uh take Big

827
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:09,080
Speaker 3: Sam for one semester, I'll be like three hundred or

828
00:46:09,080 --> 00:46:12,319
Speaker 3: so people can pack. So it's like Jesus heard.

829
00:46:13,080 --> 00:46:15,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, I feel like that's I mean, the fact that

830
00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:17,400
Speaker 2: they're like, all right, we're gonna give you one hundred

831
00:46:17,440 --> 00:46:21,560
Speaker 2: and twenty questions about whatever, man and you just have

832
00:46:21,640 --> 00:46:25,160
Speaker 2: to figure it out. That's insane. I've never heard of that.

833
00:46:27,360 --> 00:46:29,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean they have they able to have like

834
00:46:29,640 --> 00:46:32,920
Speaker 3: a different areas that the astream, like math or physics

835
00:46:33,000 --> 00:46:35,520
Speaker 3: or stuff like that. But in the stuff they can

836
00:46:35,520 --> 00:46:39,120
Speaker 3: ask you, like anything, they can ask you from I

837
00:46:39,160 --> 00:46:42,840
Speaker 3: don't know, uh, chemistry to knowing the anatomy of the

838
00:46:42,880 --> 00:46:45,319
Speaker 3: heart of a fucking fuck or I get goo.

839
00:46:47,200 --> 00:46:52,560
Speaker 2: Well, if you need to study the anatomy of a gecko, Uh,

840
00:46:53,000 --> 00:46:55,600
Speaker 2: I actually can't help you because I'm just a guy

841
00:46:55,600 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 2: in a gecko suit and if you cut me open,

842
00:46:59,239 --> 00:47:02,760
Speaker 2: you'd see like a bunch of human ship. But from

843
00:47:02,760 --> 00:47:04,920
Speaker 2: but I don't know if it's helpful to you. But

844
00:47:05,000 --> 00:47:07,839
Speaker 2: I have a friend who is in med school and

845
00:47:07,880 --> 00:47:10,400
Speaker 2: he like cuts people open and stuff. And he told

846
00:47:10,480 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 2: me that the human body is just a bunch of tubes.

847
00:47:14,760 --> 00:47:18,440
Speaker 2: So if that's one of the questions you should have,

848
00:47:18,520 --> 00:47:21,920
Speaker 2: like what's inside the human body? Uh? Just right, just

849
00:47:22,080 --> 00:47:24,560
Speaker 2: you should circle the answer that says tubes.

850
00:47:26,560 --> 00:47:29,239
Speaker 3: But what if from being the gecko suit so long,

851
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:31,640
Speaker 3: your anatomy has changed. I don't know. I think we

852
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:34,640
Speaker 3: have to maybe check it. I think we have to

853
00:47:34,680 --> 00:47:35,279
Speaker 3: open you man.

854
00:47:35,800 --> 00:47:38,400
Speaker 2: Oh my, all right, this is this call has officially

855
00:47:38,440 --> 00:47:39,080
Speaker 2: gone too far.

856
00:47:41,600 --> 00:47:45,480
Speaker 3: It's name of science. You don't want to improve the

857
00:47:45,520 --> 00:47:47,640
Speaker 3: studies and human gecko people?

858
00:47:49,520 --> 00:47:51,080
Speaker 2: You know what? You know what I'll do? You know

859
00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:54,319
Speaker 2: what I'll do is when I die, here's what I'll

860
00:47:54,320 --> 00:47:56,879
Speaker 2: do for you. So what's your name again, Santiago. Here's

861
00:47:56,920 --> 00:47:59,320
Speaker 2: what I'll do for your Santiago. If you ever decide

862
00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:00,800
Speaker 2: that you do on a to a career in the

863
00:48:00,840 --> 00:48:05,400
Speaker 2: medical industry, I will pledge that when I die, you

864
00:48:05,480 --> 00:48:09,960
Speaker 2: may have my body to dissect for your research.

865
00:48:12,840 --> 00:48:15,279
Speaker 3: S arety sure that if to call you in five

866
00:48:15,360 --> 00:48:17,960
Speaker 3: years from now and as you hate you, remember your

867
00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:20,760
Speaker 3: promise of hitting your gig a body to say.

868
00:48:20,719 --> 00:48:23,000
Speaker 2: Hold on, hold on, hold on, I'm only twenty six

869
00:48:23,080 --> 00:48:25,839
Speaker 2: years old, all right, I'm not I haven't been. I mean,

870
00:48:25,880 --> 00:48:28,360
Speaker 2: I could die in the next five years. Who knows. Yeah,

871
00:48:28,360 --> 00:48:28,760
Speaker 2: go ahead.

872
00:48:28,760 --> 00:48:33,000
Speaker 3: Sorry what we're saying, Yeah, I'm just saying, if you

873
00:48:33,160 --> 00:48:36,280
Speaker 3: if you do this promise, you have plushed your body

874
00:48:36,600 --> 00:48:39,719
Speaker 3: to Gecko sayings, so you have to actually do it.

875
00:48:41,239 --> 00:48:42,759
Speaker 2: No, I'm not gonna actually do it and stuff. When

876
00:48:42,760 --> 00:48:44,960
Speaker 2: I die, I want I want to. I don't know

877
00:48:44,960 --> 00:48:46,560
Speaker 2: what I want them to do with me when I die.

878
00:48:46,800 --> 00:48:49,200
Speaker 2: I guess just I guess do I guess I'm dead,

879
00:48:49,200 --> 00:48:50,719
Speaker 2: I guess you get Who gives a fuck? You can

880
00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:53,680
Speaker 2: just now I'll get buried. You don't have to like

881
00:48:53,719 --> 00:48:56,880
Speaker 2: freeze me or anything. I can just but but I

882
00:48:56,880 --> 00:48:58,279
Speaker 2: don't want to be buried in a cough and I

883
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:00,759
Speaker 2: want to just be thrown into the ground. You know,

884
00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:03,960
Speaker 2: I feel like coffins kind of fuck you up, because

885
00:49:04,440 --> 00:49:05,520
Speaker 2: like you want to be you want to be You

886
00:49:05,520 --> 00:49:07,200
Speaker 2: want to be buried right into the ground so that

887
00:49:07,239 --> 00:49:10,000
Speaker 2: you can like grow into a flower and ship like that.

888
00:49:10,160 --> 00:49:10,800
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying.

889
00:49:12,160 --> 00:49:13,680
Speaker 3: You know, you can become a tree after to day.

890
00:49:14,440 --> 00:49:16,520
Speaker 2: Really, okay, I want to do that. That sounds awesome.

891
00:49:16,560 --> 00:49:17,920
Speaker 2: It sounds way better than being a person.

892
00:49:19,000 --> 00:49:19,200
Speaker 1: Yeah.

893
00:49:19,239 --> 00:49:21,279
Speaker 3: I take a product where they take your body and

894
00:49:21,320 --> 00:49:23,279
Speaker 3: they put it like in the brown. I don't know

895
00:49:23,280 --> 00:49:25,520
Speaker 3: how it exactly it works, but you end up like

896
00:49:25,560 --> 00:49:27,399
Speaker 3: being the seat for a tree and it grows from

897
00:49:27,440 --> 00:49:27,920
Speaker 3: your body.

898
00:49:28,239 --> 00:49:32,359
Speaker 2: So maybe, all right, I formally retract my offer to you, Santiago,

899
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:37,000
Speaker 2: and I replace it with a desire to become a tree.

900
00:49:38,960 --> 00:49:40,640
Speaker 3: So you will be a geka tree and you will

901
00:49:40,800 --> 00:49:42,640
Speaker 3: grow gekas from your leaves.

902
00:49:43,600 --> 00:49:48,799
Speaker 2: I think you're ready for this test, huh, I said,

903
00:49:48,840 --> 00:49:51,080
Speaker 2: I think you're ready for this test. You've showed a

904
00:49:51,080 --> 00:49:56,680
Speaker 2: great amount of knowledge on a on on trees and geckos.

905
00:50:00,360 --> 00:50:00,560
Speaker 1: Yeah.

906
00:50:00,600 --> 00:50:02,799
Speaker 3: I mean, if the Christians are really big, I think

907
00:50:02,800 --> 00:50:04,600
Speaker 3: it probably is it. Yeah.

908
00:50:04,840 --> 00:50:07,880
Speaker 2: Is there anything else? Is there anything else you want

909
00:50:07,920 --> 00:50:09,319
Speaker 2: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

910
00:50:12,200 --> 00:50:19,680
Speaker 3: I don't know. Maybe even if foxed Up happens, if

911
00:50:19,719 --> 00:50:22,600
Speaker 3: you learn from it, maybe it's not that bad. I mean,

912
00:50:22,680 --> 00:50:25,920
Speaker 3: at the end of the day, everything that happens, if

913
00:50:25,960 --> 00:50:28,759
Speaker 3: it gives you acknowledge or something that can help you

914
00:50:29,800 --> 00:50:35,040
Speaker 3: avoid those chitty situations again. Maybe it was worth living it,

915
00:50:35,320 --> 00:50:36,759
Speaker 3: even though it seems shitty at the time.

916
00:50:37,840 --> 00:50:41,080
Speaker 2: Santiago. I hope when I die that you will visit

917
00:50:41,160 --> 00:50:43,520
Speaker 2: my tree and take of my geckos.

918
00:50:45,120 --> 00:50:47,560
Speaker 3: Hopefully I will do hopefully in a long time and

919
00:50:47,680 --> 00:50:48,560
Speaker 3: not too soon.

920
00:50:49,800 --> 00:50:50,920
Speaker 2: Have a good night, Santiago.

921
00:50:52,160 --> 00:50:52,960
Speaker 3: All right, man, you.

922
00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:57,759
Speaker 2: Two can geckos grow on trees.

923
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:01,799
Speaker 3: All from bars Hie.

924
00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:09,040
Speaker 2: Hello, Hi, Hey, what's your name? I'm Lee?

925
00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:10,200
Speaker 1: Lee?

926
00:51:10,600 --> 00:51:11,000
Speaker 2: What's up?

927
00:51:11,080 --> 00:51:11,279
Speaker 3: Lee?

928
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:12,600
Speaker 2: How can I get you today?

929
00:51:13,920 --> 00:51:14,680
Speaker 3: Oh?

930
00:51:14,719 --> 00:51:18,160
Speaker 5: My goodness, I got a lot going on Tomorrow. I'm

931
00:51:18,200 --> 00:51:21,640
Speaker 5: gonna ask my roommate if she can leave, and I'm

932
00:51:21,760 --> 00:51:24,560
Speaker 5: very nervous. I am not a confrontational person at all,

933
00:51:25,360 --> 00:51:27,200
Speaker 5: and just so my partner can move in.

934
00:51:28,160 --> 00:51:30,000
Speaker 2: You're gonna ask your roommate if they can leave so

935
00:51:30,080 --> 00:51:36,200
Speaker 2: your partner can move in? Yes, uh, okay, tell me,

936
00:51:36,360 --> 00:51:39,360
Speaker 2: is it like what is it a two bedroom? One bedroom?

937
00:51:40,600 --> 00:51:41,520
Speaker 5: It's a two bedroom.

938
00:51:41,640 --> 00:51:44,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, okay, you're gonna ask your roommate to leave. Do

939
00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:47,440
Speaker 2: you have any like grounds to do that?

940
00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:49,560
Speaker 1: Well?

941
00:51:49,680 --> 00:51:52,239
Speaker 5: I was in the apartment first, and then she moved in.

942
00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:54,480
Speaker 5: I was been here for about a year before she

943
00:51:54,719 --> 00:51:57,480
Speaker 5: moved in, so it's my second year here. Basically, I

944
00:51:57,520 --> 00:52:00,239
Speaker 5: mean it's kind of my place, and she just rents

945
00:52:00,360 --> 00:52:02,719
Speaker 5: room in there. There's I mean, we're both on the lease.

946
00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:04,640
Speaker 2: So, oh do you want it?

947
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:06,160
Speaker 1: No?

948
00:52:06,360 --> 00:52:10,840
Speaker 2: I don't. So you were just there first.

949
00:52:12,360 --> 00:52:17,200
Speaker 5: Yeah, and her name's on the lease, yeah, both of

950
00:52:17,239 --> 00:52:17,640
Speaker 5: our names.

951
00:52:17,680 --> 00:52:20,120
Speaker 2: Is when did when does the lease expire? When does

952
00:52:20,160 --> 00:52:20,880
Speaker 2: the lease renew?

953
00:52:22,400 --> 00:52:24,680
Speaker 5: Well, it ended in Well we renewed it in July.

954
00:52:24,960 --> 00:52:26,600
Speaker 5: But it's kind of a just more of like a

955
00:52:27,000 --> 00:52:28,719
Speaker 5: come and go type of thing. Is just we sign

956
00:52:28,760 --> 00:52:31,000
Speaker 5: a new lease if someone else wants to move in.

957
00:52:33,280 --> 00:52:37,200
Speaker 2: So like she's not on the hook for like, she's

958
00:52:37,239 --> 00:52:38,839
Speaker 2: not gonna have to Well I guess she wouldn't because

959
00:52:38,840 --> 00:52:41,040
Speaker 2: you could find us some letter. But like, but hold on,

960
00:52:41,239 --> 00:52:44,239
Speaker 2: So I guess I still don't understand how you have

961
00:52:44,280 --> 00:52:46,000
Speaker 2: the grounds to tell her that she has to leave.

962
00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 5: No, I'm not I'm not asking. I'm gonna ask her

963
00:52:49,239 --> 00:52:50,960
Speaker 5: to leave. I'm not telling her to leave. I'm gonna

964
00:52:51,000 --> 00:52:52,759
Speaker 5: request if she can find a new place, you know,

965
00:52:52,920 --> 00:52:56,000
Speaker 5: give her own time to leave. I'm just very nervous

966
00:52:56,040 --> 00:52:56,400
Speaker 5: about that.

967
00:52:57,640 --> 00:52:59,520
Speaker 2: Why don't why don't you find a new place.

968
00:53:01,239 --> 00:53:03,920
Speaker 5: It's I'm I'm in a pretty big city and it's

969
00:53:04,280 --> 00:53:06,960
Speaker 5: a really, really good rent for a two bedroom, and

970
00:53:07,440 --> 00:53:08,680
Speaker 5: I don't think I would be able to.

971
00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:10,239
Speaker 3: Afford another place for that.

972
00:53:10,480 --> 00:53:12,239
Speaker 2: Do you do you think she'll be able to do that?

973
00:53:14,320 --> 00:53:16,960
Speaker 5: She's definitely in a better spot just because she's just

974
00:53:17,080 --> 00:53:19,279
Speaker 5: looking for a one bedroom and I know she has

975
00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:20,600
Speaker 5: a lot of connects in the city.

976
00:53:22,040 --> 00:53:23,960
Speaker 3: But yeah, it's probably way better.

977
00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:25,640
Speaker 5: She's probably in a better spot than I am.

978
00:53:26,800 --> 00:53:29,080
Speaker 2: All right, what do you think she's going to say

979
00:53:29,080 --> 00:53:29,960
Speaker 2: when you ask her to leave?

980
00:53:31,560 --> 00:53:34,080
Speaker 5: I don't know. We're the type of roommates where we

981
00:53:34,120 --> 00:53:36,680
Speaker 5: don't really talk aside from just the interactions we have

982
00:53:36,960 --> 00:53:40,360
Speaker 5: when in like the communal area. She's a very nice person,

983
00:53:40,440 --> 00:53:43,279
Speaker 5: which is why I really don't want to do it,

984
00:53:43,360 --> 00:53:46,840
Speaker 5: But it's something that I, you know, I would desire

985
00:53:46,920 --> 00:53:47,600
Speaker 5: the outcome for.

986
00:53:48,320 --> 00:53:50,680
Speaker 3: I guess, can I can?

987
00:53:50,719 --> 00:53:54,759
Speaker 2: I be very honest with you, Yeah, it it really

988
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:56,600
Speaker 2: doesn't sound like you have any grounds to ask her

989
00:53:56,640 --> 00:53:56,960
Speaker 2: to leave.

990
00:53:59,640 --> 00:54:02,040
Speaker 5: I guess you're right. That's and that's why I'm nervous.

991
00:54:03,520 --> 00:54:06,040
Speaker 5: I And it's more of just she she can say no,

992
00:54:06,560 --> 00:54:09,200
Speaker 5: like and that's my whole thing, and just kind of

993
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:11,239
Speaker 5: shooting my shot. And if she says no, then I

994
00:54:11,360 --> 00:54:12,400
Speaker 5: I guess, you know, I'll have to look for my

995
00:54:12,440 --> 00:54:12,839
Speaker 5: own place.

996
00:54:12,920 --> 00:54:13,759
Speaker 3: I'm not kicking her.

997
00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:22,560
Speaker 2: Out, Okay, I mean, yes, you don't have any grounds

998
00:54:22,600 --> 00:54:25,600
Speaker 2: to kick her out. I guess you know what, Okay,

999
00:54:25,840 --> 00:54:31,200
Speaker 2: I guess theoretically, sure, if you can shoot your shot

1000
00:54:32,120 --> 00:54:36,880
Speaker 2: and ask her to leave, and if she says no,

1001
00:54:37,160 --> 00:54:40,880
Speaker 2: deal with the answer. I guess. I guess theoretically you

1002
00:54:41,040 --> 00:54:41,480
Speaker 2: can do that.

1003
00:54:44,160 --> 00:54:44,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, it does.

1004
00:54:46,040 --> 00:54:48,719
Speaker 2: Yeah, but it does. I mean it doesn't. There's no

1005
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:52,239
Speaker 2: incentive for her to leave, I guess, other than no

1006
00:54:52,440 --> 00:54:55,239
Speaker 2: longer being in a place where her roommate doesn't want

1007
00:54:55,280 --> 00:54:56,919
Speaker 2: her there. But it doesn't sound like you guys even

1008
00:54:57,000 --> 00:54:58,600
Speaker 2: have that much interaction.

1009
00:55:00,880 --> 00:55:06,200
Speaker 5: No, No, I am, I'm very aware of that. I yeah,

1010
00:55:06,480 --> 00:55:10,040
Speaker 5: I just cause not going the way I guess it

1011
00:55:10,080 --> 00:55:11,479
Speaker 5: would have thought it would have gone.

1012
00:55:11,560 --> 00:55:15,120
Speaker 2: But if you're moving in with a partner, why don't

1013
00:55:15,120 --> 00:55:17,680
Speaker 2: you just go find a one bedroom? You'd probably be

1014
00:55:17,760 --> 00:55:20,640
Speaker 2: paying Yeah, I mean shit, if it's you and your partner,

1015
00:55:20,680 --> 00:55:22,560
Speaker 2: you'd probably be paying less than what you'd be paying

1016
00:55:22,719 --> 00:55:24,160
Speaker 2: at the place you're at right now. So why don't

1017
00:55:24,160 --> 00:55:25,480
Speaker 2: you just find a one bedroom?

1018
00:55:25,800 --> 00:55:25,840
Speaker 1: No?

1019
00:55:27,480 --> 00:55:30,359
Speaker 5: No, with current rates, I'm basically paying a lot less

1020
00:55:30,440 --> 00:55:32,279
Speaker 5: with the two bedroom than I would with a one

1021
00:55:32,320 --> 00:55:36,799
Speaker 5: bedroom letl on a studio. Where are you at I'm in.

1022
00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:38,600
Speaker 2: La, okay.

1023
00:55:40,960 --> 00:55:41,000
Speaker 1: Is?

1024
00:55:41,120 --> 00:55:42,719
Speaker 2: And would your partner pay rent?

1025
00:55:44,160 --> 00:55:44,359
Speaker 1: Yes?

1026
00:55:45,719 --> 00:55:49,320
Speaker 2: So are you interested in like sharing a room or

1027
00:55:49,400 --> 00:55:50,440
Speaker 2: a bed with your partner?

1028
00:55:52,160 --> 00:55:52,359
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1029
00:55:52,440 --> 00:55:53,880
Speaker 5: And I mean we kind of he kind of already

1030
00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:56,279
Speaker 5: does that, and that's that's what I'm saying. Ideally we

1031
00:55:56,280 --> 00:55:58,239
Speaker 5: would like both bedrooms. But if that doesn't work out,

1032
00:55:58,280 --> 00:56:00,120
Speaker 5: then you know, that's life because I have really I

1033
00:56:00,160 --> 00:56:01,320
Speaker 5: obviously have no ground on it.

1034
00:56:01,440 --> 00:56:03,759
Speaker 3: You know, she pays rent, I pay rent. She has

1035
00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:04,760
Speaker 3: total right to say.

1036
00:56:04,680 --> 00:56:07,040
Speaker 2: No, which but so but your I guess what I

1037
00:56:07,040 --> 00:56:10,600
Speaker 2: don't understand is your if you were to leave and

1038
00:56:10,800 --> 00:56:15,440
Speaker 2: find a new find a one bedroom in LA and

1039
00:56:15,640 --> 00:56:20,680
Speaker 2: share that one bedroom with your partner, you'd probably pay

1040
00:56:20,920 --> 00:56:23,720
Speaker 2: less money than if you were sharing a two bedroom.

1041
00:56:25,320 --> 00:56:25,440
Speaker 1: Uh.

1042
00:56:25,840 --> 00:56:29,520
Speaker 5: Yes, and no, I'm paying like so to be upfront,

1043
00:56:29,560 --> 00:56:32,719
Speaker 5: I'm paying two thousand for or well total of two

1044
00:56:32,760 --> 00:56:35,520
Speaker 5: thousand for two bed, two baths. And that's how much

1045
00:56:35,560 --> 00:56:37,920
Speaker 5: of one at most a one bedroom.

1046
00:56:37,680 --> 00:56:38,800
Speaker 3: Is let alone a studio.

1047
00:56:40,360 --> 00:56:43,160
Speaker 2: You know that actually is not completely crazy, that that

1048
00:56:43,280 --> 00:56:51,480
Speaker 2: actually does not sound Yeah, that does not sound wild. Yeah,

1049
00:56:51,480 --> 00:56:52,800
Speaker 2: I could see, I can see. I can see a

1050
00:56:52,920 --> 00:56:55,840
Speaker 2: universe where a one bedroom and I can see a

1051
00:56:55,960 --> 00:56:58,880
Speaker 2: universe where the costs are negligible. Sure, why not?

1052
00:57:00,560 --> 00:57:01,879
Speaker 5: Yeah, And I guess that's kind of why I want

1053
00:57:01,880 --> 00:57:04,080
Speaker 5: to shoot my shot, because I like this place. It's

1054
00:57:04,120 --> 00:57:07,000
Speaker 5: in a good location and it's dirt cheap, and I mean, obviously,

1055
00:57:07,000 --> 00:57:09,160
Speaker 5: if that doesn't work out, then yeah, that's that's how

1056
00:57:09,239 --> 00:57:11,319
Speaker 5: it's gonna work. You know, I'll have to do something else.

1057
00:57:11,480 --> 00:57:14,680
Speaker 5: But you know, it's because the situation right now for

1058
00:57:14,800 --> 00:57:17,400
Speaker 5: me with Rant is so cheap, as I guess that's

1059
00:57:17,440 --> 00:57:20,720
Speaker 5: why I even had the thought of even doing that,

1060
00:57:20,800 --> 00:57:23,560
Speaker 5: because I would I would never even think of the

1061
00:57:23,640 --> 00:57:26,280
Speaker 5: day where I would ask a roommate to leave, except

1062
00:57:26,320 --> 00:57:28,840
Speaker 5: for the certain current circumstances.

1063
00:57:32,000 --> 00:57:37,800
Speaker 2: Uh, I mean, like, I don't know, dude, I guess

1064
00:57:37,840 --> 00:57:42,400
Speaker 2: you I fucking I guess you can ask. But it's

1065
00:57:42,520 --> 00:57:47,640
Speaker 2: kinda there's it's kind I think it's kind of stupid,

1066
00:57:47,840 --> 00:57:48,800
Speaker 2: but I guess you can ask.

1067
00:57:49,920 --> 00:57:50,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know.

1068
00:57:50,440 --> 00:57:52,280
Speaker 5: And at the same time, it's going to make her uncomfortable,

1069
00:57:52,280 --> 00:57:53,960
Speaker 5: which is why I don't want to fucking do it.

1070
00:57:54,040 --> 00:57:56,560
Speaker 5: At the same time, which is why I'm currently in

1071
00:57:56,600 --> 00:57:57,800
Speaker 5: the still MA college.

1072
00:57:59,360 --> 00:58:01,360
Speaker 2: Are you asking me my advice.

1073
00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:06,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, I mean, I've talked to people in my life

1074
00:58:06,000 --> 00:58:08,000
Speaker 5: and it's just kind of kind of got it mixed,

1075
00:58:08,240 --> 00:58:09,120
Speaker 5: uh signals.

1076
00:58:09,320 --> 00:58:11,720
Speaker 2: Okay, what the what are the people in your life

1077
00:58:11,760 --> 00:58:12,000
Speaker 2: tell you?

1078
00:58:13,720 --> 00:58:17,360
Speaker 5: So, my my dad told me, he was like, because

1079
00:58:17,360 --> 00:58:19,840
Speaker 5: I've had I've been in really bad roommate situations up

1080
00:58:19,880 --> 00:58:21,479
Speaker 5: to the point where I had to see an old

1081
00:58:21,560 --> 00:58:24,480
Speaker 5: roommate because they didn't pay their share of rent. And

1082
00:58:24,640 --> 00:58:26,560
Speaker 5: so he was like, do you finally have a good

1083
00:58:26,640 --> 00:58:28,920
Speaker 5: roommate And in the chances that you break up with

1084
00:58:29,200 --> 00:58:31,400
Speaker 5: your partner, you're gonna have to find another roommate, and

1085
00:58:31,680 --> 00:58:34,320
Speaker 5: chances are you could be in another bad situation. So

1086
00:58:34,400 --> 00:58:36,200
Speaker 5: it's like, you finally secured a good roommate, do you

1087
00:58:36,280 --> 00:58:36,760
Speaker 5: really want.

1088
00:58:36,600 --> 00:58:44,800
Speaker 2: To get rid of that? Okay? Yeah, but okay, look dude,

1089
00:58:44,840 --> 00:58:47,240
Speaker 2: if your heart is set on moving within with your partner,

1090
00:58:47,240 --> 00:58:48,439
Speaker 2: you should probably get a new place.

1091
00:58:50,640 --> 00:58:53,280
Speaker 5: Yeah. No, definitely, And that's yeah, I definitely will look

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Speaker 5: into that. But it's right now.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I would I would leave your roommate alone. Okay, thanks, gig,

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Speaker 2: all right, anything else?

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Speaker 3: Uh no, thanks for taking my call?

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Speaker 2: All right, take care dog. See hello, folks, it's Lyle here.

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Speaker 4: His content did with one person.

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Speaker 2: Yes, okay, and he okay, so in the past he

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Speaker 1: Yes.

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Speaker 2: And he told you immediately immediately that he has porn

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Speaker 2: that's cool, that's fine, that's whatever. No, I was like

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Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, yeah, all right, Like this is the very

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