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Speaker 1: Native Plan Pod is a production of iHeartRadio and partnership

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Speaker 1: with Recent Choice Media. Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, Welcome, Welcome,

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Speaker 1: all right, Welcome home, everybody. This is Tiffany Gross, Andrew

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Speaker 1: Gailam and Angela Rai and you are tuned into this

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Speaker 1: week's mini pod. Welcome Home. Welcome Home is not enthusiastic enough.

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Speaker 2: Welcome, we mean it, We mean it.

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Speaker 3: I mean it.

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Speaker 2: I don't have to yell to be we mean it.

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Speaker 1: Welcome home. This is our home and this is your home.

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Speaker 1: And just like any family, we have disagreements sometimes, and

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Speaker 1: so we thought it was important to share one of

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Speaker 1: those more heated, intense discussions that we had last week

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Speaker 1: with you all, and to know that right after that

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Speaker 1: podcast was over, maybe ten minutes after everybody was good,

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Speaker 1: we were all all back, because that's how it works

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Speaker 1: with family.

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Speaker 3: Well, you skip some steps, but I'll let you have it.

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Speaker 1: What do you we can say what we want to

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Speaker 1: say about it. And Andrew, do you want me to

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Speaker 1: say the whole thing or do you want me to say.

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Speaker 2: I'll say this is I knew that in the moment

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Speaker 2: while we had already had a long day, and then

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Speaker 2: of course we got to the subject of what value

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Speaker 2: each of us puts on what we choose and desire

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Speaker 2: to platform. And that does feel a little personal because

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Speaker 2: you're now asking me what lens, what vet do I

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Speaker 2: put on on on what I think we should be

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Speaker 2: talking about on the show, and to the extent that

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Speaker 2: we scrutinize each other's you know, vetting, it could feel

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Speaker 2: real personal. So I completely got that. But I will

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Speaker 2: sell you this and I think I said this angelout tip.

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Speaker 2: I can't remember who one of y'all that. What I

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Speaker 2: knew in that moment, although it was very tense and whatnot,

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Speaker 2: was that we were not going to leave New York

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Speaker 2: without resolution, which is not something that I would bet on.

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Speaker 2: And many really relationships that I know of, friendships, romantic

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Speaker 2: relationships are otherwise where you have confidence that there's enough

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Speaker 2: love and respect in this space that before we leave

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Speaker 2: this place we will be reconciled, even if it is

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Speaker 2: we still disagree. But guess what, it was never my

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Speaker 2: intention to hurt you and not I'm really sorry that

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Speaker 2: you were hurt by what I say, like that backhanded thing.

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Speaker 2: Right fact, that's not going to happen because that's not

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Speaker 2: who we are that's not who we are at this

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Speaker 2: stage in our lives. And the other thing that I

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Speaker 2: appreciate about who we are and not who we are

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Speaker 2: about this stage in our lives is that I don't

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Speaker 2: think either of us feel like we've got to beast

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Speaker 2: one another like we got to one up end. I

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Speaker 2: don't feel like I have anything to prove to either

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Speaker 2: one of you. What I felt like I want to

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Speaker 2: do is to show up as my best self every time,

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Speaker 2: and even in those moments where I can't. I want

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Speaker 2: to be able to count on the fact that y'all

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Speaker 2: know me well enough that you and loved me and

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Speaker 2: care for me enough that you'll have grace and those

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Speaker 2: moments where we can't. And so I just I know

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Speaker 2: y'all have more to say about this, because you had

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Speaker 2: some after conversation. I just felt like, I know it's

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Speaker 2: heated right now, but you know what, keep it pushing

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Speaker 2: because we're not leaving this space without feeling complete.

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Speaker 3: I love that. I think you know.

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Speaker 4: I was feeling really defensive, and I was telling Tiff

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Speaker 4: when we walked out of the room, like we were

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Speaker 4: all walking down the stairs quietly. We recorded some other

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Speaker 4: evergreen content that honestly, it might end up being trash

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Speaker 4: because my energy was completely off. I wouldn't even hardly

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Speaker 4: look at tiv I was like lookingside was talking about

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Speaker 4: Andrew feels like he was talking himself, which doesn't just

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Speaker 4: happen when we're mad.

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Speaker 3: Sometimes Andrew to preach it anyway by himself.

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Speaker 4: He'd be like, somebody gonna get it, hello, lights. But

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Speaker 4: the bottom line is I literally walked out the room

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Speaker 4: and I turned around the Tivy. I was like, you

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Speaker 4: she was like, don't cry. You're gonna make me cry,

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Speaker 4: and that is I mean, that's it. I think that

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Speaker 4: I think I've done a lot of work from a

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Speaker 3: I was feeling bullied.

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Speaker 4: Nobody was saying anything to bully me, but I was

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Speaker 4: We're working really hard on Marilyn Moseby's petition, like there's

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Speaker 4: so many things happening. I'm waking up at tiffany hours,

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Speaker 4: and for any of you all that know me, no,

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Speaker 4: I was uniquely tender from that, just like when you

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Speaker 4: It was one of those sleepy you're not thinking clearly,

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Speaker 4: podspace that we've created where I could say I'm feeling tender.

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Speaker 3: And when Tiff said you think I said.

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Speaker 4: That, how I heard it was very different than her

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Speaker 4: intention because she started feeling defensive, like, how could you possibly.

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Speaker 3: Think I was saying that? And then I was like

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Speaker 4: And then we were crying, and then Andrew missed all

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Speaker 4: the tears, but I think deep down somewhere he probably

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Speaker 3: Every now and then not the glory tear too.

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Speaker 4: But I will also just say I think one of

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Speaker 4: the things that that moment did for me, you guys,

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Speaker 4: have felt when they talked about how answer questions. And

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Speaker 4: so the question I have today really is, in this

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Speaker 4: space that we created, our pod, our unique little bubble,

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Speaker 4: our safety bubble, what is our obligation to each other

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Speaker 4: to ensure that people don't feel over attacked, that they

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Speaker 4: don't feel like they're being put on the defensive, that

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Speaker 4: they don't feel like we're trivializing what they say, and

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Speaker 4: certainly that we're not doing that to each other. And

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Speaker 3: Like how do you navigate that space?

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Speaker 4: I think this is one thing that will help us

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Speaker 4: be in relationship with whether it's your church, community, your family,

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Speaker 1: Sure, well, I will give my assessment and answering that question.

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Speaker 1: You know, Angela, you carry a lot, and we're all

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Speaker 1: Type A person out like extreme Type A personalities, and

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Speaker 1: it's very few people being a Type A personality. It's

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Speaker 1: very few people I'm going to trust that you have

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Speaker 1: it all together. But Angela is definitely one of those people.

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Speaker 1: If Angel's like I'm taking lead on this, I trust

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Speaker 1: that you have it all together. So my takeaway might

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Speaker 1: takeaway is just because there are people in your life

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Speaker 1: Andrew are wrong. And I think I did not in

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Speaker 1: ANGELI are always quick to take ownership of things. And

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Speaker 1: you know, saying we needn't be so high brow or whatever.

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Speaker 1: Like Andrew says said that to me sometimes, and I

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Speaker 1: I thought it was a really robust conversation that one.

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Speaker 1: I don't like when things escalate to that level. But

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Speaker 1: But it it just I thought, it's a different lesson,

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Speaker 2: And I think we all deal with like these things differently, right,

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Speaker 2: So Angela at a different point may have needed us

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Speaker 2: if things got really emotional, my first comment was, and

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Speaker 2: Jay is going to like, amen, this was You're not

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Speaker 2: like you're not a victim. That is like the worst

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Speaker 2: introducing me to therapy in a way that I had

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Speaker 2: because the only thing I needed to hear was how

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Speaker 2: something to necessitate that or not. The truth is is

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Speaker 2: I want you to hear me, clearly, but I certainly

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Speaker 4: talking points to take back to your families, into your communities.

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Speaker 3: What does it look like to create safety here?

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Speaker 1: Do we want that on video or in comments or both?

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Speaker 4: I would love the videos I love because I want

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Speaker 4: the video responses. We have a video on our Instagram

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Speaker 4: page at native lampod where you can see how to

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Speaker 4: submit a video. We will repost that in our stories

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Speaker 4: when this air, so you all can send in your

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Speaker 4: videos and let us know what safety looks like to

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Speaker 4: you on and.

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Speaker 2: That. We love the money that jingles, but we prefer the.

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Speaker 1: We did a whole Broadway routine in Central Park.

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Speaker 3: We and our movies. We did a whole thing.

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Speaker 1: Anyway, Stay tuned for me and Andrew.

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Speaker 3: I'm excited that he's got some movie lines.

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Speaker 2: We have a whole.

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Speaker 4: We'll do.

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Speaker 1: That's well, that's so welcome home. Thanks for listening, y'all.

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Speaker 1: Remember to rate, review, subscribe, and tune into our regular

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Speaker 1: episode on Thursday. Thank you guys for giving us safety

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Speaker 1: to even have this platform. We look forward to hearing

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Speaker 1: how we can give you that safety back. Welcome home, y'all,

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