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Speaker 1: Hello. All right, Hi, what is your name?

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Speaker 2: My name is Josh.

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Speaker 1: Josh. What's going on?

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Speaker 3: So?

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Speaker 2: Basically, I'm thirty five. I've always kind of been the

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Speaker 2: social guy, like, go out already, have a lot of fun,

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Speaker 2: meet new people, probably drink too much, Okay. I have

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Speaker 2: a fiance and two children with her. Basically over the

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Speaker 2: weekend I got entirely too drunk and she was not

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Speaker 2: very happy, and I ended up sleeping at a relative

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Speaker 2: house that night because she didn't want me in the house.

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Speaker 2: And when I get really drunk, I get mean, and

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Speaker 2: basically she said that she would leave me to happen

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Speaker 2: again and I and I don't want that. But I

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Speaker 2: don't know how to stop being who I associate myself with.

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Speaker 3: As in, like.

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Speaker 2: I'm up, I don't like. I don't want to stop

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Speaker 2: being a partier. Basically I can, Okay.

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Speaker 1: I have a lot of thoughts. What you said. You

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Speaker 1: get mean when you get drunk.

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Speaker 2: Like when I reach like a certain level, Like it's

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Speaker 2: not every time I drink, it's what I'm like just

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Speaker 2: beyond recognition. Drunk, I say mean and hurtful things, I guess,

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Speaker 2: but I don't remember some of it.

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Speaker 1: Were you saying mean? And herful things to your to

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Speaker 1: your wife.

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Speaker 2: So I I there have been times where yes I have,

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Speaker 2: and I regret that obviously. It's it's mostly just like

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Speaker 2: I make I make a lot more money than she does,

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Speaker 2: and I tend to hold that over her head sometimes

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Speaker 2: because that's first. I mean, it's frustrating at the points,

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Speaker 2: but I think i'd like some of that stems from that.

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Speaker 1: What why do you feel like, why do you hold

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Speaker 1: this over her head?

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't like she wanted me to

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Speaker 2: leave the house and I in the path, and I'm like, well,

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Speaker 2: it's my house, I pay for it, and I would

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Speaker 2: just be shitty like that.

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Speaker 1: My dog. Okay, So you say that you're a big

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Speaker 1: part of your person. You like to drink a lot.

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Speaker 1: You just are you drinking by yourself? What do you

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Speaker 1: What are you doing when you're going out drinking?

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Speaker 2: I was at a party. If I was at a

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Speaker 2: party of friends and just just didn't, I don't know

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Speaker 2: my limit, basically.

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Speaker 1: What I gotta When you're thirty five, I assume most

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Speaker 1: of your friends are also in marriages and whatnot. Are

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Speaker 1: you what kind of parties are you guys going to?

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Speaker 2: Yes, yes they are so I've made some new friends

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Speaker 2: who are a little bit younger, who maybe aren't married,

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Speaker 2: don't have kids, probably not the best people necessarily to

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Speaker 2: hang out like be hanging out with that.

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Speaker 1: I'm Josh, Josh, do you do you care? Do you?

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Speaker 1: And by the way, you can be honest about this,

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Speaker 1: do you care about your fiance and your.

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Speaker 2: Kids absolutely more than anything?

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Speaker 1: Do you? Do you? You said that so fast, with

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Speaker 1: so much conviction. Do you really mean it?

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Speaker 2: I do.

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Speaker 4: You?

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Speaker 2: Honestly do? I just don't know how to so?

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Speaker 1: Then? So then, bro, bro, you have a wife and

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Speaker 1: kids in a house. What more are you looking for? Man?

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Speaker 2: I don't. I don't know, you know, that's probably part

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Speaker 2: of the question. My my real dad wasn't around, my

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Speaker 2: stepdad was there. My goal of mife was always be

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Speaker 2: a better dad than my real dad. And I've got

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Speaker 2: that goal, and now I don't know what else I want.

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Speaker 2: I don't know.

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Speaker 1: I don't, Josh, I don't, I don't, I don't. I

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Speaker 1: don't mean to whatever. But it doesn't sound like you

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Speaker 1: have that goal. I mean, if you're if you're going

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Speaker 1: out and fucking all this ship up just to like

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Speaker 1: party with you know, whoever you're partying with I mean,

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Speaker 1: what are you? What are you doing? Man?

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Speaker 2: You're right?

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Speaker 1: And listen, here's the thing, bri Well, here's the thing.

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Speaker 1: Your wife. You're you're the luckiest man on earth right

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Speaker 1: now because your wife hasn't left you yet and your

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Speaker 1: kids haven't announced you yet, so you still have time

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Speaker 1: to go and be a good dad. How old are

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Speaker 2: Five and five and about three?

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Speaker 1: Three five and three? Yea, brother, go go raise your

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Speaker 1: kids and be with your wife.

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Speaker 2: Man, God damn it, Lyle, you're right.

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Speaker 1: You really needed me to well, all right, all right,

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Speaker 1: what's your Josh? Josh? What what the fuck was gonna say?

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Speaker 1: Have you spoken to a real therapist about this?

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Speaker 2: No? I mean we had me and being a had

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Speaker 2: some problems, so we went to the marriage counselor. But

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Speaker 2: I've not spoken to a real therapist about this.

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Speaker 1: I got you. You listen, listen, man, and here's the thing.

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Speaker 1: And you know, I'm sorry. I I try not to,

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Speaker 1: you know, Hey, do you do?

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Speaker 2: I get it? All right?

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna do my all right, I'm gonna do my

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Speaker 1: gack o thing. You you should It's sounds here's what

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Speaker 1: it sounds like to me. You you have a desire

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Speaker 1: within you to be a good dad and a good

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Speaker 1: husband's but you have whatever like addiction issues or trauma

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Speaker 1: or whatever that you feel like is in the way

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Speaker 1: of you doing that. So you gotta you gotta figure

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Speaker 1: that out. Man, You gotta figure that and you're and

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Speaker 1: you're lucky as fun because it's not too late to

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Speaker 1: figure that out yet.

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, but you gotta, like I mean, I mean, man, like,

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Speaker 1: I mean, I don't even I only know vaguely what

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Speaker 1: you've told me. I mean, these like guys who these

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Speaker 1: people who you're partying with, Like how often are you

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Speaker 1: hanging out with them?

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Speaker 2: So this was so it's basically guys on my softball team.

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Speaker 2: They're not they're not bad people. It's not like intention

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Speaker 2: was like it was supposed to be a beer Olympic.

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Speaker 2: So like, I mean, that's and see what You're gonna

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Speaker 2: get pretty drunk, right, I don't know, Like I'm not saying,

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Speaker 2: I mean, I'm not hanging out with these guys, not

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Speaker 2: a once a week thing. Like it's very very rare

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Speaker 2: that I get this drunk, but it's happened enough times

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Speaker 2: throughout the ten years we've been together. She's over it

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Speaker 2: and I'm thirty, Like, here's.

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Speaker 1: What I'm okay, But I said, how often? So like

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Speaker 1: on a typical week? Oh right, no, like like can

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Speaker 1: I hear? Like, but I don't you know, I really

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Speaker 1: actually I kind of I don't know the full extent

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Speaker 2: Or week? How often am I getting like black out drunk?

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Speaker 1: George, Just like, what are you doing? Like are you

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Speaker 1: what do you typically do on an average week?

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Speaker 5: You know?

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Speaker 2: So, I mean it used to be worse. Obviously, I

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Speaker 2: would go out on the weekends with my friends when

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Speaker 2: we were in our twenties.

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Speaker 1: Whatever I'm talking about, I'm talking about that. Now, let's

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Speaker 1: talk about the past. Yeah, the past few weeks.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, the past few weeks. It's only happened once.

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Speaker 2: Like I'll drink. I'll drink maybe on softball nights, a

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Speaker 2: couple of beers, maybe five or six here or there,

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Speaker 2: but nothing like to the point where she wants to leave,

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Speaker 2: so that it's a it's a very rare occasion that

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Speaker 2: I get like that, But it's happened enough before I'm

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Speaker 2: gonna say that kind of stuff happens like once a year.

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Speaker 1: Maybe, what do you think it was about this time

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Speaker 1: that made her like say something to you about it?

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Speaker 2: But I was away from the kids for so long?

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Speaker 1: Were you away from them? From the kids?

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Speaker 2: It's about nine to ten hours?

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Speaker 1: Okay. Have you ever been to AA or or attempted

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Speaker 1: to quit drinking?

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Speaker 2: Huh? Or small periods of time? But I think it's

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Speaker 2: a step I should probably take.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, what do you I mean, what do you think

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Speaker 1: is preventing you from taking this step?

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Speaker 2: I don't know who else I am without it?

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Speaker 1: You don't know who else you are without it?

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Speaker 2: Well, it's just it's a big.

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Speaker 1: Does that sound Josh? Josh? Jo Josh? You have so much?

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Speaker 1: What do you? You have? So many better things to be Yeah,

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Speaker 1: your husband and a father?

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Speaker 2: Right, you're right?

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Speaker 1: What do you do for?

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Speaker 2: Work for a factory?

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Speaker 1: Okay? Do you really you don't feel any sense of

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Speaker 1: I guess, Well tell me this. I mean, if you

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Speaker 1: you have this like thing in your mind where you're

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Speaker 1: a lifelong you're what's that guy's name? I haven't even

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Speaker 1: seen this movie? Is this is it? Is it ace Ventura?

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Speaker 1: Is that him?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? Maybe what you're like.

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Speaker 1: Yeah whatever, I don't know or is that what's is

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Speaker 1: I'm alright, all right, I'm officially pledging to no, I'm

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Speaker 1: ever again. Anyway, you have the I you're like Bert Krascher,

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Speaker 1: So you have this idea that you're like this party

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Speaker 2: I mean, like, now that I think about it sounds

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Speaker 1: Think it sounds kind of dumb. Yeah, okay, I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: you know what, Yeah, it's a little dumb.

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Speaker 1: But that's what But that's all right. Look listen, by

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Speaker 1: the way, I'm really like I mean this, it's because

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Speaker 1: I'm really not trying to make you feel like like

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Speaker 2: It's like a like a good dad, like one who's

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Speaker 2: always there for his kids, just like a normal guy.

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I'm realize they're too old to be

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Speaker 1: And okay, okay, yeah, you've got you've you've got you.

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Speaker 1: Like I said, you're a lucky man. You have the

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Speaker 1: opportunity to go be that guy.

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Speaker 2: You're right, I do. I haven't sucked it up enough yet.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, so I guess I mean, go to AA, go

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Speaker 1: to uh a real therapist and hang out with your kids.

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Speaker 1: Where are you now? Where are you? Right now?

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Speaker 2: I'm in the car. I just picked up some dinner

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Speaker 2: and the kids are actually trying to get in the

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Speaker 1: Okay, all right, go, all right, I'm gonna hang up

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Speaker 1: Go just be, just be with your kids, just with

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Speaker 1: not even the drink, and just turn off your phone.

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Speaker 1: Be with their kids. Just stare at them, just I'm serious.

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Speaker 1: Be Just be in your house and stare at your

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Speaker 4: My name is Ryan. Hello, hey Geck. Yeah, so kind

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Speaker 4: of jaling with a lot today. Yeah, I might have

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Speaker 1: Like you're telling me that you don't you think that

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Speaker 1: You're not well okay, I mean, yes, sure you could die,

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Speaker 4: So yeah, no, totally with your friends.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, shouts out to Brandon and Travis. I told them,

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Speaker 1: You know?

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Speaker 4: It's kind of hurts.

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Speaker 1: Well, it's it's really sweet of you even after your

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Speaker 4: I still love them, still love them.

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Speaker 1: Are you going to give them, like when you die tomorrow,

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Speaker 4: Honestly, if like lime disease turn out to be like

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Speaker 1: Okay, So so you're saying that if you die and

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Speaker 4: Own, if there ever comes a time where the Ticks

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Speaker 4: can be sued. Yeah, for sure. I want Brandon and

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Speaker 1: Even after they made fun of you.

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Speaker 4: They're still my friends. Get I still love them.

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Speaker 1: You're not gonna fucking die, dude, I mean that's not true.

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Speaker 4: I'm just nervous.

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Speaker 1: You know, how old are you?

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Speaker 4: I'm thirty, Like I'm young.

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Speaker 1: What do you do for work?

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Speaker 4: I'm a barber. I cut people.

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Speaker 1: You cut people's yeah, man, uh oh yeah, I just

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Speaker 4: So I looked it up because no, because I like people.

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Speaker 4: Actually, I'm just like I'm just thinking about it. So

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Speaker 4: Well, I didn't even get to talk to the doctor.

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Speaker 1: All right. So the fucking doctor told you that you're

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Speaker 4: Yeah, But doctors are wrong all the time, though they're

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Speaker 1: All right, all right, all right, you're wrong. You and

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Speaker 4: Yeah. Probably, but this is still that chance, you know.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, there's a chance that you'll get hit. There's a

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Speaker 1: chance that you'll get you'll like take a shit wrong

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Speaker 4: No, I'm just like pacing in this little bathroom at work,

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Speaker 4: Okay, if I don't die. Can I call you back

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Speaker 4: and like, can we talk?

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Speaker 1: What do you have to do? What do we have

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Speaker 4: I'll tell you my survival story because it's probably gonna

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Speaker 1: You know what, what what do you mean your survival story?

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Speaker 4: If I live, I'm a survivor of lyme disease.

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Speaker 1: Get you don't even have line, you don't even you

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Speaker 4: Yeah, but it's like a big possibility. Well you okay, Okay.

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Speaker 1: If you go to the doctor and you get your

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Speaker 4: But what if I do have it and I take

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Speaker 1: That's like saying that's like saying you've got a fucking

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Speaker 4: No, we're talking about a blood disease here.

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Speaker 1: right now, but you're gonna die. Else do you want

440
00:22:49,600 --> 00:22:51,080
Speaker 1: to do? What else do you want to do before

441
00:22:51,119 --> 00:22:53,560
Speaker 1: you die? You know, besides just go.

442
00:22:53,800 --> 00:22:56,080
Speaker 4: Like major things.

443
00:22:56,560 --> 00:22:58,240
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know.

444
00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:00,879
Speaker 4: I never really thought about it. I like, I've always

445
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:03,000
Speaker 4: been a really happy guy as is. You know, I

446
00:23:03,080 --> 00:23:05,600
Speaker 4: got friends, I got you know, I'm just very happy

447
00:23:05,840 --> 00:23:09,400
Speaker 4: and so like one thing, I don't know, I probably

448
00:23:09,440 --> 00:23:12,359
Speaker 4: like want to eat his cheese steak at like the

449
00:23:12,400 --> 00:23:16,159
Speaker 4: Eiffel Power something like that, like bring a little bit

450
00:23:16,200 --> 00:23:16,919
Speaker 4: of America.

451
00:23:17,480 --> 00:23:17,920
Speaker 1: Why would you?

452
00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:24,560
Speaker 4: Yes, what I want to do? Yeah, from Philadelphia. Yeah,

453
00:23:24,640 --> 00:23:28,760
Speaker 4: to show France what America is really about, because like

454
00:23:28,800 --> 00:23:31,480
Speaker 4: we're the best. I want to prove that by going

455
00:23:31,520 --> 00:23:35,240
Speaker 4: to their monument and eating the cheese steak, which is American.

456
00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:38,200
Speaker 1: Oh, you'll find out that America is the best when

457
00:23:38,200 --> 00:23:41,040
Speaker 1: you get your invoice for your blood work.

458
00:23:42,080 --> 00:23:44,480
Speaker 4: Thanks man. Yeah, I hope you're right. I'll get the

459
00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:46,320
Speaker 4: results of two days, so like I'll try to call

460
00:23:46,359 --> 00:23:48,040
Speaker 4: you hopefully I can get through and let you know.

461
00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:49,760
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

462
00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:51,040
Speaker 4: Ryan?

463
00:23:52,119 --> 00:23:53,240
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

464
00:23:53,280 --> 00:23:54,480
Speaker 1: people the computer before we go?

465
00:23:55,359 --> 00:23:57,479
Speaker 4: I just want to say that if you or your

466
00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:00,800
Speaker 4: friends have line to use or anything like, take it serious.

467
00:24:00,880 --> 00:24:02,760
Speaker 4: You know it's not a joke and I wish you

468
00:24:02,760 --> 00:24:04,000
Speaker 4: guys all the best.

469
00:24:04,160 --> 00:24:06,359
Speaker 1: And you don't have You don't know that you have

470
00:24:06,480 --> 00:24:07,360
Speaker 1: lime disease.

471
00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:10,000
Speaker 4: Yet, I know, but like if I do, I just

472
00:24:10,040 --> 00:24:12,480
Speaker 4: want to give like the precursor for it, like did.

473
00:24:12,359 --> 00:24:16,240
Speaker 1: You did you even did you even get Why do

474
00:24:16,280 --> 00:24:17,560
Speaker 1: you think you have lime disease?

475
00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:20,119
Speaker 4: I just read the symptoms on one of them.

476
00:24:20,200 --> 00:24:23,280
Speaker 1: D dude, what symptoms do you have?

477
00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:26,800
Speaker 4: I'm just really tired and like I had like a

478
00:24:26,840 --> 00:24:30,560
Speaker 4: stiff neck, but I was also clean in my like addicts.

479
00:24:30,680 --> 00:24:32,480
Speaker 4: I was like tucked in, Like the next day I

480
00:24:32,480 --> 00:24:34,879
Speaker 4: had a really stiff neck, like never had that before.

481
00:24:34,920 --> 00:24:35,639
Speaker 4: So I got worried.

482
00:24:36,720 --> 00:24:39,159
Speaker 1: Did you you did you see any ticks? Did you

483
00:24:39,240 --> 00:24:40,400
Speaker 1: encounter any ticks?

484
00:24:41,280 --> 00:24:45,840
Speaker 4: No? No, no, I've seen him before, like maybe it

485
00:24:45,880 --> 00:24:47,359
Speaker 4: was living in me for like a long time.

486
00:24:48,880 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 2: You know.

487
00:24:50,800 --> 00:24:52,080
Speaker 1: All right, thanks for calling Ryan?

488
00:24:52,720 --> 00:24:53,959
Speaker 4: All right, Geck. Thanks.

489
00:24:56,400 --> 00:25:03,000
Speaker 1: I actually think he's never going to die. Hello, Hello there,

490
00:25:03,040 --> 00:25:03,680
Speaker 1: what is your name?

491
00:25:07,400 --> 00:25:07,840
Speaker 5: I don't know.

492
00:25:09,400 --> 00:25:14,200
Speaker 1: Okay, I'm gonna then I'll just call you Sam. Uh Sam.

493
00:25:14,440 --> 00:25:19,120
Speaker 1: It says here you texted me and you said, I

494
00:25:19,160 --> 00:25:24,280
Speaker 1: think Kanye West spiritually spoke to me and changed my

495
00:25:24,320 --> 00:25:29,119
Speaker 1: whole perception on a six year relationship. What did what

496
00:25:29,200 --> 00:25:31,040
Speaker 1: did that tell me about? That?

497
00:25:35,440 --> 00:25:40,199
Speaker 5: I was driving to work and the night before I

498
00:25:40,280 --> 00:25:42,360
Speaker 5: have seen some ship. I did not want to sing,

499
00:25:43,720 --> 00:25:47,639
Speaker 5: and I was just playing regular playlist I always play.

500
00:25:47,800 --> 00:25:49,120
Speaker 5: And then you know the song run.

501
00:25:49,080 --> 00:25:52,600
Speaker 1: Away, Yeah, yeah.

502
00:25:52,480 --> 00:25:56,760
Speaker 5: Yeah, that song came up, and that whole song. I

503
00:25:56,800 --> 00:26:01,120
Speaker 5: felt like I wasn't even driving, I like, and it's

504
00:26:01,160 --> 00:26:02,400
Speaker 5: I don't I don't know what happened.

505
00:26:06,359 --> 00:26:08,840
Speaker 1: Were any other substances involved in this driving?

506
00:26:09,960 --> 00:26:12,920
Speaker 5: No, I was, I was going to work. I'm in

507
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:13,760
Speaker 5: the medical field.

508
00:26:14,720 --> 00:26:17,840
Speaker 1: So how did this change your perceptions spiritually?

509
00:26:19,119 --> 00:26:22,879
Speaker 5: I don't know. Once he said, how does that line go?

510
00:26:23,480 --> 00:26:27,919
Speaker 5: Once he said, I could have me a good girl

511
00:26:28,280 --> 00:26:31,880
Speaker 5: but still be addicted to them hood rats, I don't

512
00:26:31,880 --> 00:26:34,000
Speaker 5: know what happened. I don't know what happened.

513
00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:37,840
Speaker 1: I can have me a good girl but still be

514
00:26:37,840 --> 00:26:40,520
Speaker 1: addicted to them hood rats? Did you did you have

515
00:26:40,600 --> 00:26:42,920
Speaker 1: your did you have? You a good girl and yet

516
00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:45,879
Speaker 1: you were still addicted to them hood rats?

517
00:26:46,200 --> 00:26:48,639
Speaker 5: No, I was a good girl, and there were always

518
00:26:48,640 --> 00:26:49,400
Speaker 5: said rats.

519
00:26:49,640 --> 00:26:53,080
Speaker 1: Okay, you were the good girl dating somebody who was

520
00:26:53,080 --> 00:27:02,120
Speaker 1: still addicted to the hood rats. Okay, interesting, and so

521
00:27:02,440 --> 00:27:03,560
Speaker 1: I mean tell you more.

522
00:27:05,400 --> 00:27:09,000
Speaker 5: I don't know. I just I was like, oh my god,

523
00:27:10,200 --> 00:27:14,919
Speaker 5: I forgave this man so many fucking times, and the

524
00:27:14,960 --> 00:27:17,320
Speaker 5: whole time, Kanye was just telling me run away.

525
00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:25,680
Speaker 1: Oh that's the song. It's the name of the song. Yeah,

526
00:27:25,920 --> 00:27:28,680
Speaker 1: what's the name of the song. Yeah, Kanye West is

527
00:27:28,720 --> 00:27:33,040
Speaker 1: your boyfriend telling you to run away because he has

528
00:27:33,080 --> 00:27:38,200
Speaker 1: a good girl and is still addicted to the hood rats. Wow.

529
00:27:40,440 --> 00:27:41,159
Speaker 2: All right, that.

530
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:45,480
Speaker 5: I figured it out, I was like, oh my god, Like,

531
00:27:46,040 --> 00:27:48,640
Speaker 5: I've been through so much fucking hurt and I didn't

532
00:27:48,640 --> 00:27:50,760
Speaker 5: even have to. I could have just left first time.

533
00:27:52,720 --> 00:27:57,920
Speaker 1: And I assume that you that you have since left, Well.

534
00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:01,360
Speaker 2: I I have.

535
00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:03,080
Speaker 5: But he still sleeps on my couch.

536
00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:07,440
Speaker 1: He still sleeps on your couch.

537
00:28:08,160 --> 00:28:10,680
Speaker 5: Yeah, this was not too long ago. This was like

538
00:28:11,640 --> 00:28:12,480
Speaker 5: three days ago.

539
00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:15,920
Speaker 1: I don't know if Kanye West has any songs about

540
00:28:15,920 --> 00:28:17,360
Speaker 1: sleeping on women's couches.

541
00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:18,800
Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't think so.

542
00:28:19,119 --> 00:28:23,520
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, uh, why is he still sleeping on your couch?

543
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:27,280
Speaker 5: I don't know. I feel bad. I don't want to

544
00:28:27,359 --> 00:28:33,240
Speaker 5: just like, you know, kick him out. Not that I

545
00:28:33,240 --> 00:28:37,360
Speaker 5: I just love myself more. I want to prioritize meat

546
00:28:37,359 --> 00:28:37,840
Speaker 5: this time.

547
00:28:40,440 --> 00:28:43,760
Speaker 1: So, okay, I have several questions about this. How long

548
00:28:43,840 --> 00:28:45,520
Speaker 1: has this man been living on your couch?

549
00:28:47,840 --> 00:28:52,200
Speaker 5: I mean, we lived together, but now I think I'm

550
00:28:52,320 --> 00:28:54,320
Speaker 5: just I don't know, waiting for.

551
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:57,000
Speaker 1: Him to wait. So you live, so he pays rent?

552
00:28:57,680 --> 00:29:01,040
Speaker 5: Yes he does. That's why I feel even like I

553
00:29:01,040 --> 00:29:02,280
Speaker 5: don't want to just you know.

554
00:29:02,760 --> 00:29:05,880
Speaker 1: Okay, so he's not sleeping on your couch. He's living

555
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:10,680
Speaker 1: with you in the place that you guys both pay

556
00:29:10,880 --> 00:29:15,680
Speaker 1: rents on and live together. Yeah, okay, that's an important difference.

557
00:29:17,320 --> 00:29:19,080
Speaker 1: How long? How long? And when did you break up?

558
00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:24,600
Speaker 5: M Tuesday?

559
00:29:26,240 --> 00:29:30,080
Speaker 1: I think Tuesday? Okay, you broke up? Okay, so you

560
00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:31,360
Speaker 1: broke up like four days ago?

561
00:29:32,360 --> 00:29:32,560
Speaker 3: Yep?

562
00:29:33,560 --> 00:29:37,640
Speaker 1: And what was the sort of straw that broke the

563
00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:40,320
Speaker 1: camel's back that caused you to fully break up?

564
00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:49,080
Speaker 5: I basically said, the last time anything happened, I was like,

565
00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:51,800
Speaker 5: all right, just so you know, next time that's it.

566
00:29:52,760 --> 00:29:55,280
Speaker 5: And I guess I don't know, Maybe I'm a fucking joke.

567
00:29:56,000 --> 00:30:02,640
Speaker 5: And the same situation happened. So I was like, okay, okay, how.

568
00:30:02,760 --> 00:30:04,520
Speaker 1: How much longer do you guys have left on that lease?

569
00:30:06,200 --> 00:30:07,000
Speaker 5: I owned this place?

570
00:30:08,080 --> 00:30:09,720
Speaker 1: But you you own the house.

571
00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:14,080
Speaker 5: Uh, it's not a house, it's like a mobile home,

572
00:30:14,320 --> 00:30:15,880
Speaker 5: but pretty much.

573
00:30:16,480 --> 00:30:17,000
Speaker 1: You own it.

574
00:30:18,880 --> 00:30:23,360
Speaker 5: My dad helped me out, but you own it.

575
00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:27,480
Speaker 1: Yep. This and he pays you rent.

576
00:30:28,240 --> 00:30:31,480
Speaker 5: Well, we pay rent together, like my dad.

577
00:30:31,640 --> 00:30:34,560
Speaker 3: Just yeah, okay, okay.

578
00:30:34,360 --> 00:30:37,640
Speaker 1: You're okay. Your dad owns it and you guys pay

579
00:30:37,720 --> 00:30:39,320
Speaker 1: rent to your dad.

580
00:30:39,880 --> 00:30:45,360
Speaker 5: No, everything, it's complicated. Everything's like under my name. That's

581
00:30:45,440 --> 00:30:47,160
Speaker 5: like my dad helped me out. It's kind of like

582
00:30:47,200 --> 00:30:50,400
Speaker 5: renting to own to my dad. But regardless, we still

583
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:52,840
Speaker 5: have to pay rent to like the manager here.

584
00:30:55,960 --> 00:31:01,240
Speaker 1: So you're you know, you're right. This is confusing, all right,

585
00:31:02,000 --> 00:31:03,960
Speaker 1: all right, let me ask you. All right, all right,

586
00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:06,479
Speaker 1: let me let's clear. Let's clear this up. Is his

587
00:31:06,720 --> 00:31:11,240
Speaker 1: name on any legal documents such as a lease?

588
00:31:13,200 --> 00:31:13,240
Speaker 4: No?

589
00:31:15,040 --> 00:31:24,440
Speaker 1: Okay? Does he always pay you rent? That doesn't really matter,

590
00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:36,360
Speaker 1: but I'm curious, yeah, okay, well what do you think?

591
00:31:38,680 --> 00:31:38,840
Speaker 5: Oh?

592
00:31:38,880 --> 00:31:41,040
Speaker 6: I just want to tell you how Conye spoke to

593
00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:47,360
Speaker 6: me like, I don't know right now, looking I'm a

594
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:49,280
Speaker 6: little bit manic, Like I don't.

595
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,520
Speaker 5: Think straight right now. Because don't get me wrong, it

596
00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:57,440
Speaker 5: was a really good relationship. But I just yeah, Conye

597
00:31:57,440 --> 00:32:01,000
Speaker 5: spoke to me somehow, and I don't know, I really

598
00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:02,760
Speaker 5: blacked out. I just want to let you know about that.

599
00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:06,320
Speaker 1: Why did why? Why did it? Why was it a

600
00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:07,440
Speaker 1: really good relationship?

601
00:32:08,800 --> 00:32:13,400
Speaker 5: Oh? We had a lot of good times, Like you know,

602
00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:17,760
Speaker 5: we dinner together every night, we go to gym together,

603
00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:21,400
Speaker 5: we do everything together. And it isn't always bad, like

604
00:32:21,640 --> 00:32:26,280
Speaker 5: you know, sometimes everything was good. Like he's really sweet,

605
00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:31,920
Speaker 5: very kind, He's a good person. Probably just too much.

606
00:32:32,240 --> 00:32:37,200
Speaker 4: I don't know, are you?

607
00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:43,640
Speaker 1: But I'm curious aus something made you decide to break

608
00:32:43,720 --> 00:32:44,920
Speaker 1: up with him?

609
00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:46,040
Speaker 4: Yep?

610
00:32:48,160 --> 00:32:48,840
Speaker 1: And what was that.

611
00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:52,120
Speaker 5: I want on his phone?

612
00:32:54,840 --> 00:32:58,120
Speaker 1: Okay? He was cheating on you for the how third

613
00:32:58,360 --> 00:32:59,080
Speaker 1: fourth time?

614
00:33:01,000 --> 00:33:04,520
Speaker 5: Probably maybe a little bit more. I don't know, can't count.

615
00:33:04,560 --> 00:33:05,480
Speaker 5: It's been a long time.

616
00:33:06,960 --> 00:33:12,080
Speaker 1: Okay, what's Sam? Sam? How old are you?

617
00:33:13,360 --> 00:33:14,920
Speaker 5: I am twenty one?

618
00:33:16,400 --> 00:33:18,840
Speaker 1: And is this the first boyfriend you've ever had?

619
00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:23,240
Speaker 5: No, but I would considered it in my first.

620
00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:31,120
Speaker 1: Okay, are you like, are you like, is life chill?

621
00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:35,800
Speaker 1: I don't know.

622
00:33:36,120 --> 00:33:38,680
Speaker 5: I don't like my job. I don't really have much friends.

623
00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:41,640
Speaker 5: I do have my cousins and my cousins, but I

624
00:33:41,920 --> 00:33:45,960
Speaker 5: would say it's chill. I just I don't know. It's

625
00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:49,280
Speaker 5: like saying as team every day it becomes I don't know.

626
00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:54,080
Speaker 1: Does any part of you want to kick this guy

627
00:33:54,480 --> 00:33:56,240
Speaker 1: out of your house?

628
00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:03,000
Speaker 5: I don't know.

629
00:34:03,240 --> 00:34:03,560
Speaker 1: I'm just.

630
00:34:05,360 --> 00:34:07,120
Speaker 5: You know, when everything went down, I was like, it's

631
00:34:07,160 --> 00:34:10,200
Speaker 5: fuck out. But I don't just just want him sleeping,

632
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:12,880
Speaker 5: you know, the streeting in this car that's fucked up.

633
00:34:14,360 --> 00:34:15,719
Speaker 1: Do you don't want him sleeping on the street in

634
00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:20,440
Speaker 1: his car? How old does this guy also? Come on? Okay?

635
00:34:20,560 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 1: And he's been paying your rent?

636
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:23,480
Speaker 5: Yep?

637
00:34:23,719 --> 00:34:24,040
Speaker 3: He has?

638
00:34:24,239 --> 00:34:24,680
Speaker 4: How much is?

639
00:34:26,400 --> 00:34:27,720
Speaker 1: How much does he pay you in rent?

640
00:34:29,960 --> 00:34:32,239
Speaker 5: It's really cheap here where we live, which is why

641
00:34:32,320 --> 00:34:36,359
Speaker 5: we live, like four hundred bucks around almost five times.

642
00:34:36,400 --> 00:34:43,000
Speaker 1: Okay, you know what, that doesn't even matter. But you know, Sam,

643
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:47,560
Speaker 1: I like, I really think I get where you are

644
00:34:47,719 --> 00:34:51,320
Speaker 1: coming from, because you had a lot of good times

645
00:34:51,360 --> 00:34:56,279
Speaker 1: with this person, and regardless of how they've treated you,

646
00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: you care about them, and so you don't want them

647
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:05,040
Speaker 1: to be on this street. But Ah, I do think

648
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,320
Speaker 1: I don't do you not that you asked for my opinion,

649
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:10,839
Speaker 1: but you kind of did by calling into my show,

650
00:35:10,880 --> 00:35:14,640
Speaker 1: so I'm gonna give it to you. I kind of

651
00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:18,800
Speaker 1: think that, uh again, while you may care about this person,

652
00:35:19,880 --> 00:35:25,160
Speaker 1: their their life is not your responsibility, Like they gotta

653
00:35:25,280 --> 00:35:29,840
Speaker 1: learn as a fucking you know, they gotta they gotta

654
00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:37,800
Speaker 1: fucking you know, handle their own ship, you know, because

655
00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:43,719
Speaker 1: he kind of fucked around and found out. Yeah, and

656
00:35:44,160 --> 00:35:48,960
Speaker 1: I'm you know whatever, that's his journey to deal with.

657
00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:52,879
Speaker 1: It's not yours. And so if you're keeping this guy

658
00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:59,160
Speaker 1: on your couch at a detriment to yourself, I don't

659
00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:07,000
Speaker 1: think that's a good idea. Yeah, but I understand that

660
00:36:07,120 --> 00:36:10,120
Speaker 1: this just happened about, uh, you know, two seconds ago,

661
00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:12,920
Speaker 1: and that you've been with this guy for six years,

662
00:36:13,000 --> 00:36:16,480
Speaker 1: and that you know, a frog on the internet is

663
00:36:16,600 --> 00:36:21,400
Speaker 1: not gonna change those emotional connections. But just think about it.

664
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:27,800
Speaker 5: Yeah, I have a lot of thinking to do. Honestly.

665
00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:36,080
Speaker 1: Listen, what's that? What's that one song? Listen to? Uh?

666
00:36:38,680 --> 00:36:38,799
Speaker 4: Man?

667
00:36:38,920 --> 00:36:43,560
Speaker 1: You know, sometimes when when I'm like, when you know,

668
00:36:43,680 --> 00:36:47,319
Speaker 1: life is fucking crazy, which it often is, I'll think

669
00:36:47,320 --> 00:36:51,279
Speaker 1: about the Kanye'll I also have a Kanye West line

670
00:36:51,280 --> 00:36:53,680
Speaker 1: I'll think about where he says something like, and the

671
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:56,960
Speaker 1: weather is so breezy, man, why can't life always be

672
00:36:57,120 --> 00:37:01,120
Speaker 1: this easy? But but I don't, I don't. I don't know, Kanye.

673
00:37:01,800 --> 00:37:03,720
Speaker 1: I don't know why. I can't why life can't always

674
00:37:03,719 --> 00:37:07,040
Speaker 1: be this easy? But it can't even for Kanye West,

675
00:37:08,120 --> 00:37:09,520
Speaker 1: life cannot always be easy.

676
00:37:11,360 --> 00:37:13,240
Speaker 5: Kanye, he just speaks the truth.

677
00:37:14,520 --> 00:37:21,480
Speaker 1: Well, hold on, I don't know about that. I do

678
00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:25,680
Speaker 1: not sign off on that statement. He makes very good music,

679
00:37:26,200 --> 00:37:29,200
Speaker 1: but I do not sign off on the statement that

680
00:37:29,320 --> 00:37:33,720
Speaker 1: he speaks the truth because he's because because he speaks

681
00:37:33,760 --> 00:37:36,960
Speaker 1: a lot, he's he speaks a lot of things, and

682
00:37:37,120 --> 00:37:38,880
Speaker 1: I don't know if all those things are the truth,

683
00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:43,680
Speaker 1: my friend, I wouldn't say that. I wouldn't sign off

684
00:37:43,760 --> 00:37:51,759
Speaker 1: on that, but uh, just just think about it, all right, ye? Sam?

685
00:37:51,880 --> 00:37:53,279
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

686
00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

687
00:37:58,600 --> 00:38:02,920
Speaker 5: Just live last love and don't be a good girl.

688
00:38:03,080 --> 00:38:04,240
Speaker 5: Just cheat back, I guess.

689
00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,440
Speaker 1: Hold on before all right, I'll let you go, all right,

690
00:38:10,480 --> 00:38:11,120
Speaker 1: Take care, Sam?

691
00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:13,239
Speaker 5: Yep, thank you too.

692
00:38:15,280 --> 00:38:18,400
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know. I don't know if listen flashing

693
00:38:18,480 --> 00:38:20,200
Speaker 1: lights is a great song, but I don't know if

694
00:38:21,960 --> 00:38:26,560
Speaker 1: if if I sign off on the on those truths?

695
00:38:31,880 --> 00:38:34,799
Speaker 3: Hello, Hello, Hi, Hi?

696
00:38:35,920 --> 00:38:36,600
Speaker 1: What is your name?

697
00:38:38,400 --> 00:38:38,800
Speaker 3: Emily?

698
00:38:40,160 --> 00:38:42,480
Speaker 1: Emily? It says here that you want to talk about

699
00:38:42,840 --> 00:38:48,839
Speaker 1: working for your dad's mistress. Oh my god, your god, rom,

700
00:38:50,239 --> 00:38:51,800
Speaker 1: who do you think? Who did you think it was?

701
00:38:54,400 --> 00:38:56,880
Speaker 3: Wow? Oh my gosh, my heart is tounting.

702
00:38:58,120 --> 00:39:03,719
Speaker 1: Yes, did you think you know what? I gotta say.

703
00:39:03,840 --> 00:39:06,560
Speaker 1: I gotta say, Well, it's so funny because you must

704
00:39:06,640 --> 00:39:09,520
Speaker 1: be very nice to all the telemarketers, because you were

705
00:39:09,560 --> 00:39:12,719
Speaker 1: quite cordial with me, even though you didn't you thought

706
00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:14,800
Speaker 1: I was just some random motherfucker on the phone.

707
00:39:17,080 --> 00:39:19,440
Speaker 3: I'm just like in shock. I just couldn't believe it.

708
00:39:20,480 --> 00:39:23,880
Speaker 1: Wow, So what's up? What's up? Mante?

709
00:39:24,000 --> 00:39:24,279
Speaker 4: What is?

710
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,520
Speaker 1: What is this whole thing that you wanted to wanted

711
00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:27,200
Speaker 1: to speak about?

712
00:39:29,239 --> 00:39:36,960
Speaker 3: So? Growing up, my dad had this secret mistress which

713
00:39:37,080 --> 00:39:40,040
Speaker 3: was actually my best friend's mom, which kind of sucked.

714
00:39:40,840 --> 00:39:44,560
Speaker 3: And I recently like went through a lot of shit

715
00:39:45,160 --> 00:39:49,480
Speaker 3: and lost my job and my dad got me two

716
00:39:49,680 --> 00:39:54,360
Speaker 3: jobs basically working for her. And at first, because I

717
00:39:54,400 --> 00:39:56,560
Speaker 3: don't like her, I'm not a fan.

718
00:39:58,440 --> 00:39:59,200
Speaker 2: You're a homeworker.

719
00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:03,080
Speaker 3: In my opinion, I just can't believe I'm talking to

720
00:40:03,160 --> 00:40:08,040
Speaker 3: you Gek. So yeah, so I'm not a fan of her.

721
00:40:08,320 --> 00:40:10,719
Speaker 3: I don't like her. I don't talk to her ever

722
00:40:10,800 --> 00:40:13,920
Speaker 3: since I found out, I've kind of just like canceled

723
00:40:13,960 --> 00:40:18,759
Speaker 3: her out of my life. But now I'm working for her,

724
00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,080
Speaker 3: so I have no choice but to talk to her.

725
00:40:21,840 --> 00:40:26,360
Speaker 3: And she's actually not that bad, but also, like, I

726
00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:30,640
Speaker 3: have mixed feelings because of what she did when I

727
00:40:30,800 --> 00:40:33,480
Speaker 3: was younger, like to my family and like behind my

728
00:40:33,560 --> 00:40:35,799
Speaker 3: mom's back. But she was like friends with my mom, and.

729
00:40:40,280 --> 00:40:43,839
Speaker 1: So did your So your dad did she your dad

730
00:40:43,960 --> 00:40:47,360
Speaker 1: cheated on your mom with this lady who you're now

731
00:40:47,440 --> 00:40:51,200
Speaker 1: working for, who's also your best friend's mom.

732
00:40:52,680 --> 00:40:55,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, well we're not best friends anymore, but growing up

733
00:40:56,160 --> 00:40:58,960
Speaker 3: we were best friends. Like our families were really close.

734
00:40:59,520 --> 00:41:00,800
Speaker 1: That's like a lifetime movie.

735
00:41:02,520 --> 00:41:05,400
Speaker 3: Like seriously and me, I grew up on the Carnival,

736
00:41:05,560 --> 00:41:09,840
Speaker 3: so like we were always together. You grew up on

737
00:41:09,920 --> 00:41:13,839
Speaker 3: the Cardinal Cruise ship like like the Traveling Fair. Sorry

738
00:41:13,880 --> 00:41:15,800
Speaker 3: people get it confused, Hold on that.

739
00:41:16,080 --> 00:41:18,640
Speaker 1: I just want to say real quick, it's extremely funny

740
00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:22,640
Speaker 1: that when like because okay, when you said Carnival, no,

741
00:41:22,680 --> 00:41:25,000
Speaker 1: I knew exactly what you meant but you thought that

742
00:41:25,239 --> 00:41:28,160
Speaker 1: meant you thought I thought you meant the cruise line

743
00:41:28,239 --> 00:41:30,400
Speaker 1: never mind, okay you not you.

744
00:41:30,760 --> 00:41:33,040
Speaker 3: But there's people out there who I've told that too,

745
00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:36,320
Speaker 3: and they're like on the cruise group and I'm like nobody.

746
00:41:36,840 --> 00:41:39,440
Speaker 1: It's funny that they've taken over the Carnival brand anyway,

747
00:41:40,000 --> 00:41:45,320
Speaker 1: So you're you see, all your life, you hated this woman.

748
00:41:45,719 --> 00:41:48,319
Speaker 1: You wanted her out of your out of your uh uh,

749
00:41:48,560 --> 00:41:51,080
Speaker 1: you canceled her out of your brain, and then you

750
00:41:51,239 --> 00:41:53,759
Speaker 1: told me you started working for her, and you say

751
00:41:53,800 --> 00:41:56,560
Speaker 1: she's actually not that bad. What led you to lead?

752
00:41:56,640 --> 00:41:58,200
Speaker 1: What led you to feel that way?

753
00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:04,800
Speaker 3: So I'm a caregiver so and I also do like

754
00:42:04,920 --> 00:42:07,080
Speaker 3: bill coding, so that's what I'm doing for her. I

755
00:42:07,200 --> 00:42:10,360
Speaker 3: take care of her mother, and I also do bill

756
00:42:10,640 --> 00:42:14,279
Speaker 3: coding for her business as well, and so I have

757
00:42:14,480 --> 00:42:16,920
Speaker 3: to talk to her, like I can't avoid it, and

758
00:42:17,080 --> 00:42:20,520
Speaker 3: we've actually had some like really great conversations. I think

759
00:42:20,600 --> 00:42:25,080
Speaker 3: that she's like kind and I think she's funny and

760
00:42:25,200 --> 00:42:28,759
Speaker 3: a nice person. But like, also, again, you were like

761
00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:33,200
Speaker 3: fucking my dad, like behind my mom's back, and that's

762
00:42:33,239 --> 00:42:37,439
Speaker 3: like you caused all that dramas. So but then again,

763
00:42:37,520 --> 00:42:40,600
Speaker 3: everyone's human, So I just have like mixed feelings, like

764
00:42:40,760 --> 00:42:43,280
Speaker 3: I don't know if I should still like have anger

765
00:42:43,400 --> 00:42:47,040
Speaker 3: towards her or like ill will for her or what.

766
00:42:48,600 --> 00:42:54,800
Speaker 1: Let me ask you a question, Yes, what feeling towards

767
00:42:54,880 --> 00:42:57,440
Speaker 1: her would make your life the easiest?

768
00:43:00,640 --> 00:43:01,759
Speaker 3: Probably forgiveness?

769
00:43:03,680 --> 00:43:12,160
Speaker 1: Okay, So so look, if if you feel that your

770
00:43:12,400 --> 00:43:19,600
Speaker 1: life would be easier for just for you, then you know,

771
00:43:19,800 --> 00:43:25,520
Speaker 1: I don't think that that's a terrible thing. If you

772
00:43:25,800 --> 00:43:29,640
Speaker 1: want to hold a grudge and you feel like that's

773
00:43:30,840 --> 00:43:33,440
Speaker 1: important and that it's it's an important thing for you

774
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:36,400
Speaker 1: and you don't want to forgive and whatnot, I mean,

775
00:43:36,440 --> 00:43:45,360
Speaker 1: you can do that too, but personally, I think again

776
00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:48,760
Speaker 1: it's an it's your You get to answer that question

777
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:50,600
Speaker 1: of which of those feelings is going to make your

778
00:43:51,080 --> 00:43:52,880
Speaker 1: life easier, especially because you have to work with this

779
00:43:52,960 --> 00:43:55,000
Speaker 1: person every single day. I mean, you don't have to.

780
00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:57,799
Speaker 1: You can go find another another gig if you really

781
00:43:57,840 --> 00:43:58,120
Speaker 1: want to.

782
00:43:58,800 --> 00:44:03,719
Speaker 3: But you know, again not really, I'm on probation. So

783
00:44:03,960 --> 00:44:06,200
Speaker 3: like I'm kind of like I can't go really anywhere

784
00:44:06,280 --> 00:44:06,560
Speaker 3: right now.

785
00:44:07,480 --> 00:44:09,720
Speaker 1: Huh, why are you on probation?

786
00:44:12,400 --> 00:44:19,040
Speaker 3: So I was at a music festival and I was

787
00:44:19,160 --> 00:44:21,200
Speaker 3: you know, doing my hippie thing in the middle of

788
00:44:21,280 --> 00:44:26,120
Speaker 3: the crowd, and basically the cops were wandering through the crowd, uh,

789
00:44:27,080 --> 00:44:32,360
Speaker 3: and they caught me doing ketamine. So they caught a

790
00:44:32,440 --> 00:44:34,200
Speaker 3: lot of people doing a lot of things. It was

791
00:44:34,239 --> 00:44:35,680
Speaker 3: actually pretty terrible.

792
00:44:38,360 --> 00:44:38,920
Speaker 2: Experience.

793
00:44:39,520 --> 00:44:40,960
Speaker 1: We just we I guess got to talk about this

794
00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:46,560
Speaker 1: real quick, kedemy, Like, I don't understand ketamine because well,

795
00:44:46,560 --> 00:44:48,960
Speaker 1: I know, it's a depression medication that people they were

796
00:44:49,080 --> 00:44:51,360
Speaker 1: like a depression treatment that people really fuck with, but

797
00:44:52,440 --> 00:44:55,520
Speaker 1: you know people also like use it, uh likes it.

798
00:44:55,880 --> 00:44:57,919
Speaker 1: It kind of locks you into the couch, right, isn't

799
00:44:57,920 --> 00:44:59,480
Speaker 1: that what a k hole is? Like you don't want

800
00:44:59,520 --> 00:45:00,840
Speaker 1: to get up or move or doing it. It's like

801
00:45:00,840 --> 00:45:02,000
Speaker 1: a down or drug. Right.

802
00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:07,480
Speaker 3: So I've had my experiences with it where it does

803
00:45:07,600 --> 00:45:12,680
Speaker 3: that to me. But then uh, it just like depends

804
00:45:12,719 --> 00:45:15,920
Speaker 3: on how much you take and like what kind it is.

805
00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:19,240
Speaker 3: I don't really know the whole scientific like the different

806
00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:23,520
Speaker 3: versions of it, but it just depends. Uh, I'm not

807
00:45:23,600 --> 00:45:25,560
Speaker 3: going to do any that's just gonna have me sitting

808
00:45:25,640 --> 00:45:28,040
Speaker 3: there in a whole nother world. I don't like that feeling.

809
00:45:28,200 --> 00:45:31,279
Speaker 3: I just like the lighthearted feeling that it gives me.

810
00:45:34,360 --> 00:45:37,640
Speaker 3: You just have to do a little bit at a time.

811
00:45:39,680 --> 00:45:42,200
Speaker 3: Some people enjoyed the K hole. I don't. I find

812
00:45:42,239 --> 00:45:42,800
Speaker 3: it scary.

813
00:45:44,440 --> 00:45:49,080
Speaker 1: I I did a bump of ketamine once and it

814
00:45:49,280 --> 00:45:50,880
Speaker 1: like I just I thought I was gonna have a

815
00:45:50,960 --> 00:45:51,840
Speaker 1: fucking heart attack.

816
00:45:54,080 --> 00:45:56,799
Speaker 3: It could be scary. There was one time I did

817
00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:58,759
Speaker 3: it and I felt like I was traveling out of

818
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:02,920
Speaker 3: my body and like whatever I was traveling in, like

819
00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:05,319
Speaker 3: I would call myself like a little orb. It felt

820
00:46:05,360 --> 00:46:07,600
Speaker 3: like I couldn't find my way back to my body.

821
00:46:07,760 --> 00:46:08,960
Speaker 3: And that was very scary.

822
00:46:09,920 --> 00:46:12,200
Speaker 1: That's pretty cool. So what do you think you're what

823
00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:13,320
Speaker 1: do you think you're gonna do with this?

824
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:18,360
Speaker 3: Uh, with this lady that you work for, I basically

825
00:46:18,520 --> 00:46:21,680
Speaker 3: just like take care of her, make sure she takes

826
00:46:21,719 --> 00:46:23,719
Speaker 3: her medication and I cook for her.

827
00:46:24,040 --> 00:46:26,120
Speaker 2: And so do you do it?

828
00:46:26,680 --> 00:46:30,720
Speaker 1: So you're a caretaker for your dad's former mistress.

829
00:46:32,000 --> 00:46:33,240
Speaker 3: I'm for her mom?

830
00:46:34,320 --> 00:46:38,400
Speaker 1: Oh okay, all right, now, okay, how's her? What's her?

831
00:46:38,560 --> 00:46:39,600
Speaker 1: Is her mom? Cool?

832
00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:43,160
Speaker 4: Uh? Yeah, she's cool.

833
00:46:43,440 --> 00:46:46,840
Speaker 3: She like is quiet and like keeps to herself. So

834
00:46:47,719 --> 00:46:50,359
Speaker 3: it can be like boring at times, but I mean

835
00:46:50,520 --> 00:46:53,120
Speaker 3: she's cool. No complaints.

836
00:46:55,239 --> 00:46:55,840
Speaker 1: Do you still?

837
00:46:56,520 --> 00:46:56,560
Speaker 4: So?

838
00:46:56,880 --> 00:46:59,120
Speaker 1: Does this is this lady and your dad are they like,

839
00:46:59,239 --> 00:46:59,920
Speaker 1: are they together in.

840
00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 3: And no, So he's still like with my mom kind

841
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:08,400
Speaker 3: of they're like a partner. They're like a partnership and

842
00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:12,360
Speaker 3: she's still with her husband, but she's like friends with

843
00:47:12,520 --> 00:47:12,879
Speaker 3: my dad.

844
00:47:13,000 --> 00:47:17,400
Speaker 1: Still your mom, what's your mom think about that?

845
00:47:19,360 --> 00:47:22,520
Speaker 3: My mom's just like the sweetest person ever. So she's

846
00:47:22,600 --> 00:47:26,000
Speaker 3: just like whatever, I have a nice house and he

847
00:47:26,120 --> 00:47:30,239
Speaker 3: buys me, pursues so and I've been with him for

848
00:47:30,320 --> 00:47:32,800
Speaker 3: this long, so I told him, like I was the

849
00:47:32,920 --> 00:47:35,640
Speaker 3: one who told my mom. I was like, yo, dad's

850
00:47:35,719 --> 00:47:40,840
Speaker 3: cheating on you with uh this lady that you know.

851
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:44,160
Speaker 3: And then she almost like left him and like got

852
00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:47,279
Speaker 3: a different house and he like he like came home

853
00:47:47,400 --> 00:47:50,920
Speaker 3: and like convinced her otherwise. And Yeah, that was it.

854
00:47:53,000 --> 00:47:53,239
Speaker 1: Damn.

855
00:47:53,360 --> 00:47:56,000
Speaker 3: Which sucks because I was so young to carry that

856
00:47:56,320 --> 00:47:59,040
Speaker 3: and like know about that. It kind of gave me

857
00:47:59,120 --> 00:48:00,520
Speaker 3: trust is she was not gonna lie.

858
00:48:01,280 --> 00:48:01,880
Speaker 1: How old were you?

859
00:48:03,640 --> 00:48:06,880
Speaker 3: I was like in middle school and it was happening

860
00:48:06,920 --> 00:48:10,320
Speaker 3: for a while, and everybody knew and nobody told.

861
00:48:10,160 --> 00:48:14,040
Speaker 1: My mom just like fucked and you're twenty nine now,

862
00:48:15,440 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 1: I am. I'm so damn. This was like fifteen years ago.

863
00:48:20,600 --> 00:48:24,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, but it was like happening for a while, damn.

864
00:48:25,120 --> 00:48:28,440
Speaker 1: So you were like, fucking what was it like when

865
00:48:28,440 --> 00:48:30,799
Speaker 1: you were fourteen and you told your mom that your

866
00:48:30,880 --> 00:48:33,560
Speaker 1: dad heard your dad was cheating on her? Howd she like?

867
00:48:33,760 --> 00:48:34,160
Speaker 2: What was that?

868
00:48:34,600 --> 00:48:34,640
Speaker 1: Like?

869
00:48:37,120 --> 00:48:41,560
Speaker 3: She was like upset, but we didn't really like talk

870
00:48:41,600 --> 00:48:43,800
Speaker 3: about it. My mom's not a very like she's not

871
00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:47,040
Speaker 3: a big person on like talking about her feelings and

872
00:48:47,160 --> 00:48:50,560
Speaker 3: stuff like that, so she kind of just like acknowledged

873
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:55,440
Speaker 3: it and then like kept on going through her days.

874
00:48:55,760 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 3: I know that she had like a conversation with my

875
00:48:58,400 --> 00:49:00,880
Speaker 3: dad saying that she was going to leave even she

876
00:49:01,040 --> 00:49:05,200
Speaker 3: was showing me houses, and then he came home and

877
00:49:05,360 --> 00:49:08,360
Speaker 3: he stayed with her like at her house for like

878
00:49:08,520 --> 00:49:11,360
Speaker 3: a week, and then everything changed, like it was like

879
00:49:11,440 --> 00:49:15,560
Speaker 3: everything was back to normal, like it never happened and

880
00:49:15,640 --> 00:49:17,800
Speaker 3: it was just like not spoken on again.

881
00:49:19,040 --> 00:49:22,320
Speaker 1: Do you do you think your mom is like chill now, Like,

882
00:49:22,400 --> 00:49:23,480
Speaker 1: do you think she's happy?

883
00:49:26,640 --> 00:49:29,440
Speaker 3: Yeah? I think my mom just like has accepted where

884
00:49:29,480 --> 00:49:32,520
Speaker 3: her life is and like who she's with and that's

885
00:49:32,640 --> 00:49:39,880
Speaker 3: just like fine with her. So in her in her words,

886
00:49:39,960 --> 00:49:42,120
Speaker 3: she's like, oh, I built a life with him for

887
00:49:42,200 --> 00:49:44,840
Speaker 3: the past like twenty years, and I have two kids,

888
00:49:45,000 --> 00:49:49,759
Speaker 3: and so yeah, me, I would have been like, fuck you,

889
00:49:49,880 --> 00:49:51,759
Speaker 3: I'm out of here. I'll start over.

890
00:49:53,160 --> 00:49:56,040
Speaker 1: I guess I get it. I guess it's like, uh

891
00:49:56,760 --> 00:50:02,160
Speaker 1: like I gotta say the there was no greater force

892
00:50:03,840 --> 00:50:11,279
Speaker 1: that repels people from doing stuff then uh something being

893
00:50:11,400 --> 00:50:15,320
Speaker 1: a whole fucking thing, you know what I mean? Like,

894
00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:19,440
Speaker 1: uh Like, it's like I guess, I guess I get

895
00:50:19,480 --> 00:50:21,680
Speaker 1: where she's coming from. Where it's like, yeah, this guy

896
00:50:21,880 --> 00:50:25,719
Speaker 1: fucking cheated on me and I'm gonna leave. But then

897
00:50:25,760 --> 00:50:28,800
Speaker 1: you look at you're like, damn man, fucking rebuilding my

898
00:50:28,920 --> 00:50:32,680
Speaker 1: life after this is just like it's a whole fucking thing.

899
00:50:32,760 --> 00:50:35,759
Speaker 3: I don't want to deal with it, like, you know, Yeah,

900
00:50:35,840 --> 00:50:38,200
Speaker 3: and my mom came from My mom came from nothing,

901
00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:41,400
Speaker 3: like she's from a small ass town in North Carolina.

902
00:50:42,160 --> 00:50:45,719
Speaker 3: So he kind of like they really built like a

903
00:50:45,880 --> 00:50:50,480
Speaker 3: life together. So I understand now that I'm adult, I understand,

904
00:50:51,640 --> 00:50:53,799
Speaker 3: And you know, can I tell you how they met?

905
00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:56,400
Speaker 3: It's kind of fucked up, but funny.

906
00:50:57,160 --> 00:50:57,399
Speaker 1: Sure.

907
00:50:59,640 --> 00:51:03,160
Speaker 3: So she went to the county fair of course, and

908
00:51:03,280 --> 00:51:06,520
Speaker 3: he was working there and he was like buckling them

909
00:51:06,600 --> 00:51:09,480
Speaker 3: in and he hit on her cousin who she was

910
00:51:09,520 --> 00:51:11,320
Speaker 3: sitting next to and she's like, oh, no, I have

911
00:51:11,400 --> 00:51:13,799
Speaker 3: a boyfriend. So then he was like buckling my mom

912
00:51:13,880 --> 00:51:16,120
Speaker 3: and he was like, oh what about you, You're hot,

913
00:51:16,800 --> 00:51:21,319
Speaker 3: and that's how they met. And then she just ran

914
00:51:21,400 --> 00:51:22,920
Speaker 3: away with him on the carnival.

915
00:51:24,440 --> 00:51:26,840
Speaker 1: Damn. So she just ran away, which so he was

916
00:51:27,120 --> 00:51:29,360
Speaker 1: in town like as a traveling carnye.

917
00:51:30,320 --> 00:51:34,239
Speaker 3: Yeah, and she just went there with her cousin.

918
00:51:35,800 --> 00:51:38,120
Speaker 1: And she and she ran away with him. She was like,

919
00:51:38,200 --> 00:51:39,680
Speaker 1: he was about to leave town and she was like,

920
00:51:39,719 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 1: I's to go with you.

921
00:51:41,840 --> 00:51:44,600
Speaker 3: Well okay, so he was like leaving right and my

922
00:51:44,760 --> 00:51:48,560
Speaker 3: mom was like going to like law school, and they

923
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:51,200
Speaker 3: had kept in contact and he came and like pict

924
00:51:51,239 --> 00:51:54,440
Speaker 3: her back up within like a month. And yeah, then

925
00:51:54,520 --> 00:51:57,320
Speaker 3: she just went with him. She just dropped out and

926
00:51:58,640 --> 00:52:00,279
Speaker 3: started traveling on the carnival them.

927
00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:04,120
Speaker 1: Dude, your mom drafted out of law school to join

928
00:52:04,200 --> 00:52:05,719
Speaker 1: the circus with your dad.

929
00:52:07,160 --> 00:52:10,960
Speaker 3: Yes, actually she worked at it. She works at a

930
00:52:11,040 --> 00:52:15,600
Speaker 3: law it's not but she's not a lawyer, but yeah, crazy,

931
00:52:16,800 --> 00:52:18,399
Speaker 3: she traded law for a word.

932
00:52:20,960 --> 00:52:26,160
Speaker 1: Bro, your mom deserves a gold fucking metal I swear.

933
00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:29,120
Speaker 3: And that's why I get so mad that my dad

934
00:52:29,200 --> 00:52:31,880
Speaker 3: did her so wrong. And she just like, in my

935
00:52:32,080 --> 00:52:35,520
Speaker 3: mind she's settled, but I guess she she didn't. Like

936
00:52:35,840 --> 00:52:37,800
Speaker 3: in her perception, she didn't.

937
00:52:40,360 --> 00:52:45,560
Speaker 1: That's really crazy. Damn does what does your dad do?

938
00:52:45,719 --> 00:52:47,279
Speaker 1: Does he work? Does he used to work on the

939
00:52:48,080 --> 00:52:49,200
Speaker 1: Is he still a carnival guy?

940
00:52:50,120 --> 00:52:55,520
Speaker 3: He's still a carneye. Him and all my uncles they

941
00:52:55,600 --> 00:52:57,840
Speaker 3: all run away when they were young to the carnival

942
00:52:58,200 --> 00:52:59,600
Speaker 3: and they've been doing it ever since.

943
00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:05,880
Speaker 1: Man, do you have siblings.

944
00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:10,320
Speaker 3: I have one older sibling. I have a sister.

945
00:53:11,160 --> 00:53:13,040
Speaker 1: What do they think about the whole situation.

946
00:53:15,520 --> 00:53:18,439
Speaker 3: She's kind of like she was hoping my mom would

947
00:53:18,600 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 3: leave him, but she's seven years older than me, so

948
00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:26,360
Speaker 3: she was kind of like more understanding, like, yeah, I

949
00:53:26,440 --> 00:53:29,160
Speaker 3: made her decision. You know, she's not going to leave him.

950
00:53:29,239 --> 00:53:33,200
Speaker 3: So but my sister she went and got she went

951
00:53:33,200 --> 00:53:36,120
Speaker 3: and got married really young and had kids and moved away.

952
00:53:36,400 --> 00:53:40,359
Speaker 3: So she's like created her own life. I'm still kind

953
00:53:40,360 --> 00:53:41,520
Speaker 3: of over here by my mom.

954
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:45,319
Speaker 1: Are you do you desire to create your own life

955
00:53:45,320 --> 00:53:45,799
Speaker 1: at some point?

956
00:53:47,760 --> 00:53:47,960
Speaker 4: Yeah?

957
00:53:48,160 --> 00:53:52,880
Speaker 3: I mean I have been. It's just I'm a wild child.

958
00:53:53,040 --> 00:53:56,919
Speaker 3: I guess we'll not a child anymore. But uh, it's

959
00:53:57,040 --> 00:53:58,880
Speaker 3: just been a little bit harder for me than it

960
00:53:59,040 --> 00:53:59,760
Speaker 3: was for my sister.

961
00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:04,560
Speaker 1: H What what is your? What is if you? If

962
00:54:04,560 --> 00:54:06,680
Speaker 1: you could create a life of some kind, what would

963
00:54:06,680 --> 00:54:06,840
Speaker 1: it be?

964
00:54:11,120 --> 00:54:15,000
Speaker 3: I would like to I would like to travel like

965
00:54:16,120 --> 00:54:19,680
Speaker 3: I think I would want to get r V and

966
00:54:20,160 --> 00:54:25,759
Speaker 3: travel the state. Uh, working from home or having Uh.

967
00:54:28,000 --> 00:54:29,200
Speaker 3: I don't know what type of job.

968
00:54:29,239 --> 00:54:29,480
Speaker 1: I mean.

969
00:54:29,520 --> 00:54:31,719
Speaker 3: I'm a caregiver, so I would like to continue doing that,

970
00:54:31,920 --> 00:54:34,239
Speaker 3: but not full time, like maybe like half the year

971
00:54:34,280 --> 00:54:36,560
Speaker 3: and spend the rest of the year like traveling and

972
00:54:37,640 --> 00:54:41,000
Speaker 3: maybe buying like properties to do airbnbs and two and

973
00:54:41,120 --> 00:54:47,839
Speaker 3: then traveling even even further outside the state. That would

974
00:54:47,840 --> 00:54:48,800
Speaker 3: be for me.

975
00:54:49,239 --> 00:54:53,920
Speaker 1: I guess whatever you do, don't don't run away and

976
00:54:54,040 --> 00:54:55,360
Speaker 1: join the circus to travel.

977
00:54:57,520 --> 00:55:00,960
Speaker 3: I won't. I won't. Only it's only if you asked

978
00:55:01,000 --> 00:55:02,880
Speaker 3: me to, Greg, Only.

979
00:55:02,719 --> 00:55:06,160
Speaker 1: If I asked you to I, uh no, don't don't

980
00:55:06,200 --> 00:55:15,200
Speaker 1: do it if I ask you to, Emily, Yes, is

981
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:17,040
Speaker 1: there anything else you want to say to the people

982
00:55:17,120 --> 00:55:18,360
Speaker 1: of the computer before we go?

983
00:55:21,200 --> 00:55:24,840
Speaker 3: Stay golden, don't don't run away with the carnival.

984
00:55:26,280 --> 00:55:29,960
Speaker 1: By Emily, and good luck with taking care of that

985
00:55:30,960 --> 00:55:33,280
Speaker 1: lady and cleaning her poops and stuff.

986
00:55:34,320 --> 00:55:39,240
Speaker 3: Oh thanks, Greg, take care man, take care bye.

987
00:55:40,840 --> 00:55:44,920
Speaker 1: Never goes on the line taking your phone calls every night,

988
00:55:45,360 --> 00:55:51,960
Speaker 1: never goes to teaching you an expert