Speaker 1: What's up. It's a lip service. I'm Angela yee, I'm
Speaker 1: Gigi McGuire, I'm Stop with Santiago, I'm Luria. Yeah. And
Speaker 1: this is this the first time we've all been together.
Speaker 1: Just pandemic. Yeah, ye gang ball here. So we wanted
Speaker 1: to do a check in and update with everybody. So,
Speaker 1: you know, let's start with your gig. You are in Atlanta.
Speaker 1: I am in Atlanta. I am living my very happy
Speaker 1: single life. I have a puppy. It's like and I
Speaker 1: am currently on only fans popping it like I'm dropping
Speaker 1: it nine UM. And also I've been cast it on
Speaker 1: season two of Beyond the Pole on we TV UM
Speaker 1: we do You coronavirus special that we'll be airing any
Speaker 1: day now. It's a ninety minute one episode special called
Speaker 1: UM living in Living in Lockdown or on lockdo UM,
Speaker 1: and season two is gonna start whenever they give us
Speaker 1: a green light. It was supposed to start in August
Speaker 1: and here we are down in September and we haven't
Speaker 1: started yet. So as soon as the network can figure
Speaker 1: out what's going on with UM production and this whole
Speaker 1: COVID situation, then we will start filming. And that's what
Speaker 1: will be occupying my time? So you'll be on the series. Yes,
Speaker 1: I am officially a cast member of Seasons who beyond
Speaker 1: the whole Look, we're not even doing Toast? Why not should?
Speaker 1: I'm so happy I'm get from the bottom. What congatulations?
Speaker 1: G you have you been dating at all? I have
Speaker 1: been dating. I'm single with a whole bunch of boyfriends
Speaker 1: and no real relationship. Okay, nobody that you feel like
Speaker 1: you could lock down with. I don't want to down. Okay,
Speaker 1: now I'll tell you you you know I want. I
Speaker 1: want my freedom right now. Maybe eventually, but right now
Speaker 1: I'm just enjoying the freedom. Okay, I Larry, Yeah, let's
Speaker 1: check in with you. Well, y'all know, um I talk
Speaker 1: about it before another the episode. I've been working from
Speaker 1: home just like you, ye, and just focusing on my
Speaker 1: morning show. We're doing good. We um. We hit a
Speaker 1: number one and a few of the markets were in
Speaker 1: so that's really good. Bully and the Beast podcast is
Speaker 1: doing amazing ever since quarantine. Right now, I'm in l A.
Speaker 1: So I don't think I'm just in a hotel because
Speaker 1: I'm sucking. Um. I needed very can tell that's a hotel.
Speaker 1: But it looks like a hotel to me. But I
Speaker 1: took a little vacation. I'm in l A. I needed
Speaker 1: to clear my mind a little bit. And um, yeah,
Speaker 1: as far as dating, I'm definitely dating. I'm having fun
Speaker 1: and I'm happy. So you know, if y'all have sex,
Speaker 1: you have to have sex with the mask on. I'm
Speaker 1: not popping my pussy just yet. I'm just you know,
Speaker 1: I'm still holding that part down. So uh, you gotta
Speaker 1: do a lot to get some poom poom. But that's it,
Speaker 1: like you know, And I told y'all I was starting
Speaker 1: to work on music sick again, So that's that's good
Speaker 1: for me. It's more of like, ah, I'm not taking
Speaker 1: it as like a job like I was before, more
Speaker 1: like a hobby something that it's fun to me and
Speaker 1: I like to do. So that's cool. And we gotta
Speaker 1: finish that lip service team Timmy was talking about. Yes,
Speaker 1: we're working on that. I actually spoke a black youngster
Speaker 1: because I remember he said he was gonna give us
Speaker 1: yeah exactly, so we're still gonna do that. I spoke
Speaker 1: to him about it. So we will be knocking that
Speaker 1: out very soon. And I'm ready to get back to work.
Speaker 1: So we need a cure that y'all could all take.
Speaker 1: Because I'm not taking a vaccine. I just want to
Speaker 1: make sure we're supposed to take it. I don't think
Speaker 1: so I could come outside. I don't want to take
Speaker 1: a vaccine. You know. I'm sorry now on my nose.
Speaker 1: I feel like I've been I had to do that
Speaker 1: a few times. How was it she was talking about
Speaker 1: another thing being stuck up her nose? What's not in?
Speaker 1: I don't know what you do? Break my question, Sorr. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I'll send you. I've seen go now right. You always
Speaker 1: say that you don't mind having sets with the ex
Speaker 1: is because and it's not a new number for you,
Speaker 1: it's not a new notch off the table. Yeah, that's
Speaker 1: off the table. Like and even like being in l A.
Speaker 1: There's like a couple of guys that I did before
Speaker 1: and it's like, oh, I see you're out here, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh yeah, Like I'm not. I'm off the
Speaker 1: whole EXX wave. Like I don't even speak to my
Speaker 1: X anymore at all. Like I'm good, Like I don't
Speaker 1: want no exits even around. I'm claiming it's extra money
Speaker 1: all right now. Stefanie listen. I'm happy to have you
Speaker 1: here because I know that you've been having a journey
Speaker 1: to go through on your own, and you know we
Speaker 1: support you as your sisters here on lip Service. So
Speaker 1: we did notice like the last couple of the times
Speaker 1: that you were on things were a bit off, like distracted.
Speaker 1: So I wanted you to be able to have the
Speaker 1: floor right now to just kind of talk about some
Speaker 1: things that you've been going through. Okay, to start off,
Speaker 1: I'm doing earning well right now. Thank you God, and
Speaker 1: thank you for everyone who's supports me and that I
Speaker 1: appreciate it. But um so since quarantine, I was, UM,
Speaker 1: I had a really bad drug problem. I was popping
Speaker 1: a lot of pills. I was doing xanax, perkasats of
Speaker 1: baked Vikadin's. UM I was just doing a lot of
Speaker 1: drugs because I had a lot of time I was
Speaker 1: in the house, So I was doing a lot of
Speaker 1: drugs and I ended up really um messing up my health.
Speaker 1: I was really sick, and um I decided to go
Speaker 1: on a fath journey and I got baptized and UM
Speaker 1: I went to a holistic doctor and they looked me
Speaker 1: in my eyes. I didn't tell them what I was doing,
Speaker 1: and they said, you have a drug addiction and if
Speaker 1: you don't stop, you're gonna die, and within the next
Speaker 1: fifteen years. So I'm in my thirties. That's not a
Speaker 1: long time. That's that's too that's too young to die.
Speaker 1: So I decided to do the withdraw all that home
Speaker 1: by myself. And I've been cleaned for about seven weeks now.
Speaker 1: I haven't done any drugs, so you know, I'm feeling
Speaker 1: really healthy. Um, I'm feeling like I'm able to travel again.
Speaker 1: And like lor Rielle said, I'm I'm I'm planning on
Speaker 1: going to l A. And I got a lot of
Speaker 1: things to work on in l A. I didn't feel
Speaker 1: healthy enough. I was scared to leave New York and
Speaker 1: New Jersey because I was worried about where I was
Speaker 1: gonna get my drugs. But everything, you know, came in order.
Speaker 1: The withdrawals were really hard, and I did it by myself.
Speaker 1: I got and you know, it was the probably the
Speaker 1: worst experience I've ever experienced in my entire life. It
Speaker 1: was more painful than giving birth to a baby. And
Speaker 1: it lasted for hellng. The withdrawal lasted about two weeks
Speaker 1: like for it to be completely gone. The worst was
Speaker 1: the first five days and then you know, I felt
Speaker 1: better after are like two weeks, but it really ruined,
Speaker 1: like hercocets really ruined my stomach, Like my stomach was
Speaker 1: so bad. I had to go to the doctor because
Speaker 1: I thought I was done for me. I thought I
Speaker 1: gave myself at the disease, and they just so, you know,
Speaker 1: you gotta get off of pain killers. You're not in pain,
Speaker 1: so you gotta get off of pain killers. And I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm already off of them, and they're like, okay, so
Speaker 1: now it's time to heal. So I've been healing, and
Speaker 1: you know, I've been really deep in my faith. I
Speaker 1: know that's not the most interesting thing to talk about
Speaker 1: on the service, but I think it's somebody. It's it's
Speaker 1: something that people should know. You know, you like you
Speaker 1: can overcome addiction. You can you you can be strong
Speaker 1: enough on your own. I didn't have any friends here
Speaker 1: helping me. I did it all by myself, even though
Speaker 1: that's dangerous and you should have someone there to take
Speaker 1: care of you and support you. But you know, I
Speaker 1: had my mom on the phone and my sister on
Speaker 1: the phone, and they weren't around to be here for me,
Speaker 1: but was able to do it by myself. And I'm
Speaker 1: just very grateful that I caught myself before I got worse.
Speaker 1: I have been doing I have been doing the pill
Speaker 1: since November, and then I got really bad during quarantine.
Speaker 1: Now I'm completely sober. Do be smoking weed like twice
Speaker 1: a day? Though? What made you did? What made you
Speaker 1: even started taking pills? What? Okay, that's a good question.
Speaker 1: And we made start taking pills as I was going
Speaker 1: through two breakups at the same time. So last year,
Speaker 1: I don't know people, if you, if you follow me,
Speaker 1: my friends know, I was engaged to a Puerto Rican guy.
Speaker 1: I remember, so um I left him to go be
Speaker 1: with the guy that I've been with for a couple
Speaker 1: of years. Remember that, And of course me and him
Speaker 1: broke up again. And you know what, I was just like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm checking out. That's it. I want
Speaker 1: to check out. So when right before the pandemic hit,
Speaker 1: I sent them boat to hell I and I decided
Speaker 1: to just knock up on drugs. I stocked up on toil, paper, um,
Speaker 1: water and percocets. It was like taking them yourself from Yeah,
Speaker 1: I just wanted to check out. I just wanted to sleep,
Speaker 1: like like I will wake up and be like okay,
Speaker 1: going back to sleep, like I mean I was up to.
Speaker 1: I was up to like taking sixteen percocets a day stuff,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I was even doing
Speaker 1: when I did Xanax. It wouldn't work for me because
Speaker 1: my body was so immune to it. I was taking
Speaker 1: like four bars a day whenever I did that, I
Speaker 1: just so I could go to sleep, and I was
Speaker 1: waking up really sick. I was waking up like uh, Papa,
Speaker 1: taking more pills. So you know, I'm not gonna lie.
Speaker 1: I probably would have continue to take pills, like wean
Speaker 1: myself off of this one and start another one and
Speaker 1: then wean myself over that one, like we I will
Speaker 1: wean myself off as of a xanax to take percocets,
Speaker 1: and then I will I would try Perkess. It's it's
Speaker 1: it's the worst with draws ever, like where you know xanax,
Speaker 1: we can get off of them, you get a little shaky,
Speaker 1: but Percocess makes you sick like a Heroin at it.
Speaker 1: It is Heroin. It's like Heroin and pilform. So that
Speaker 1: was the worst, Like I would weave myself up with
Speaker 1: the zannis and I started taking percoceses, percuss, perkos, perkases.
Speaker 1: It was my favorite, even though I've always hated it
Speaker 1: the first time, as that Perks said, I was a
Speaker 1: kid and I never liked it. I don't know what
Speaker 1: made me. I do know what made me do it.
Speaker 1: The um I started talking to a guy. I never
Speaker 1: had sex with him. I started talking to this guy
Speaker 1: and he was like, oh, no, you shouldn't take zannas,
Speaker 1: you should just take percocets, right, So I was like okay,
Speaker 1: And then I got really addicted to the percoseys, Like
Speaker 1: I don't even think I've ever been as addicted to
Speaker 1: I was abusing Xanax, but I don't think I was
Speaker 1: as addicted to it as I was a percocets. You know,
Speaker 1: I was telling you earlier. I think it is so
Speaker 1: important that people that you surround yourself with two because
Speaker 1: those influences on you can be really positive or negative.
Speaker 1: You know, for somebody to tell you don't do that,
Speaker 1: it's just take these precos ats like that, somebody that
Speaker 1: cares about your fine, it's like worse or whatever. They
Speaker 1: came step what was your turning point when you just knew, like,
Speaker 1: I can't do this anymore. It's it's coming too much.
Speaker 1: When the holistics doctor told me I was gonna die
Speaker 1: because listen, this is the truth. My mother has a
Speaker 1: drug problem. She's been doing drugs for thirty years. He
Speaker 1: told me, listen, your mother could do all the drugs
Speaker 1: she wants and lived to a hundred. You are not
Speaker 1: gonna live past forty five. That's like tomorrow, right fast
Speaker 1: years ago by, and I'm I'm planning. I'm still looking
Speaker 1: good at forty five. What like, I don't want to
Speaker 1: I don't want to die. And then I lost I
Speaker 1: mean taking purpose. As I lost like thirty pounds. I
Speaker 1: was getting really skinny, and everybody he was noticing it.
Speaker 1: And I don't really care about what people think because
Speaker 1: I like being skinny. Yeah, I thought you wanted to
Speaker 1: be skinny. When after that, before he skinny and you'll
Speaker 1: stop eating. So you know, I didn't know myself so
Speaker 1: I could. But then I noticed that I was getting skinny,
Speaker 1: Like I was looking at myself like, oh ship, I
Speaker 1: don't got no legs, like what about my legs? My legs?
Speaker 1: Talking about what about my legs. What was that about
Speaker 1: the other side effects? And now you said, yes, stomach
Speaker 1: was really messed up. Um, the side effects of withdraw
Speaker 1: no like before that, you know, while you were on
Speaker 1: the job, I was really constipated. I was really I
Speaker 1: had a bad attitude. I was treating people bad. Another
Speaker 1: side effect of it, it was making me a little depressed.
Speaker 1: Like I would wake up crying for my dreams. I
Speaker 1: wouldn't even remember the dreams, so I was crying. That's
Speaker 1: that's a sign of depression. It was just it was ever.
Speaker 1: It didn't do anything good for me. The only thing
Speaker 1: good it did for me was let me sleep m
Speaker 1: and for And to be honest, I've been clean for
Speaker 1: over a month and I sleep like a baby now,
Speaker 1: Like I I sleep so much better. Like even before
Speaker 1: I go to sleep, I don't smoke weed because I'm
Speaker 1: scared that it's gonna give me anxiety. And I just
Speaker 1: go to sleep without smoking in the nighttime, Like if
Speaker 1: I smoke too late, I know I'm gonna stay until
Speaker 1: three o'clock in the morning, because I it doesn't put
Speaker 1: me to sleep. Like just being natural drinking, like just
Speaker 1: drinking some water or drinking a tea before I go
Speaker 1: to sleep, I'm not right out, you know, And I
Speaker 1: wanted them to talk about this on lip service because
Speaker 1: I'm not ashamed of it at all. I'm not embarrassed.
Speaker 1: I feel like it's something that should be spoken about
Speaker 1: because there's a lot of people out there doing pills,
Speaker 1: and you know, they wrap about it and they think
Speaker 1: it's okay, and you know, whatever floats your boat. I'm
Speaker 1: not judging anyone. I'm not judging anyone for their habits,
Speaker 1: but you know it's not good for you. Like enough
Speaker 1: other thing. They told me, it's God for a bid
Speaker 1: if I got into an accident. You know, none of
Speaker 1: the painkiller drugs will work on me if I had
Speaker 1: to go into the emergency thirdary or something like that.
Speaker 1: So I I mean, I don't think I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: into an accident, God forbid, but you know, you never
Speaker 1: know what's gonna happen. And that scared me a lot too,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. Did you ever feel like
Speaker 1: you took too many pills and like maybe at one point,
Speaker 1: you know, you were scared, like to even go to
Speaker 1: sleep or anything like that. Because I know there's people
Speaker 1: that they do take a lot of pills. Too, and
Speaker 1: it's like, you know, was that fear ever in your mind?
Speaker 1: Like I might not wake up? That's a good question
Speaker 1: too at one time, because it's one thing getting your
Speaker 1: drugs from the pharmacy, and it's a whole other thing
Speaker 1: getting them from the street, you know what it is.
Speaker 1: One time I had gotten some xanax and they looked
Speaker 1: a little funny, and um, I took them and they
Speaker 1: made me crazy, like I was walking into walls and
Speaker 1: falling on the floor and everything. And I ended up
Speaker 1: buying a drug tests from the pharmacy and I tested
Speaker 1: the drug. It was fencing al and the drug it
Speaker 1: was so you know, if you wouldn't put too much
Speaker 1: at that, they could have killed you. A lot died.
Speaker 1: I would have died. And that's exactly what they told me.
Speaker 1: They said that what's gonna happen is one day I'm
Speaker 1: gonna take a pill and I'm gonna knock the wake up.
Speaker 1: And that is crazy that No, I not really bought it.
Speaker 1: I got it. I got the drug tests in my
Speaker 1: cabinet because I bought the wrong one. First. It was
Speaker 1: just like weed and you know, regular drugs, and I
Speaker 1: was like, oh no, this isn't the right one, So
Speaker 1: I had to go and buy the one. It's like
Speaker 1: thirty different drugs they tested, they test for so whatever,
Speaker 1: I boiled up some water, I let the pill, you know,
Speaker 1: I let the pill this like, I let the pill
Speaker 1: sick water, and then I poured it into the cup
Speaker 1: and it was spence on al inside of the pill
Speaker 1: with the street zan acs. I bought them up the street.
Speaker 1: They were blew So did you know who the person
Speaker 1: that gave them to you? Did you confront them about it?
Speaker 1: Or actually did come front up about it? And I
Speaker 1: went and I got my money back because I was
Speaker 1: pissed off and they could have killed you. And you
Speaker 1: don't know who else he's doing that too. Also, that's
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I'm like, it's mother, it's people like
Speaker 1: you that are killing people out here, you know, for money.
Speaker 1: It just doesn't make sense. So from there, I stopped
Speaker 1: getting I stopped getting any pills from the pharmacy, I
Speaker 1: mean from the from the I will only get my
Speaker 1: pills from from like somewhere. I knew that it was
Speaker 1: coming from the pharmacy. So you know, our mutual friend
Speaker 1: that you's what it pills from. Um, you scared him
Speaker 1: one day to the point where he felt like he
Speaker 1: couldn't even get you drunk anymore. The same I've answering
Speaker 1: my calls. He told me. Not figured that, you know.
Speaker 1: He said that it was frequent and it was a lot,
Speaker 1: and he's like, you know, steps, my girl, you my folks,
Speaker 1: you know, so I'm gonna look out for her. But
Speaker 1: once it started to scare me, he said, what happened
Speaker 1: was he gave you a lot one day and then
Speaker 1: he texts you and you didn't respond, and he he said,
Speaker 1: all that could go through his head was like you odeed,
Speaker 1: and like we're some ghost and we're on the show
Speaker 1: together and we're friends. And he was just like I
Speaker 1: couldn't head that on my conscious. So I just really
Speaker 1: had to just like stop, he stop. He stopped answering
Speaker 1: my calls. And I appreciate that, But girlfriend, I was
Speaker 1: driving from you know, I was driving from New New
Speaker 1: York to Philly to go see him. You know that,
Speaker 1: even when I was with my man out there, I
Speaker 1: was like hit him. I was like, because I just
Speaker 1: wanted it so bad, and it's like I felt like,
Speaker 1: you know, when you're addicted to something, you were like,
Speaker 1: I'm not just so I just was to sleep, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like, I'm not really trying to
Speaker 1: get high, but that's if you need something to sleep,
Speaker 1: If you need a hard drug to sleep every single night,
Speaker 1: you have a drug, especially if you're not getting it
Speaker 1: from you know, a doctor, right, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: So I knew that's why he wasn't answering. Um, he
Speaker 1: wasn't answer in my toals and I respect that about him.
Speaker 1: You know that. You know that as this people are listening.
Speaker 1: They might have like a friend who's addicted to pills.
Speaker 1: What would you tell them? Because sometimes you can't talk
Speaker 1: to someone like do you feel like anybody could have
Speaker 1: told you listen, girl, you gotta slow down, like you
Speaker 1: need to stop doing this, and you would have listened,
Speaker 1: Like what would you tell somebody? I think you gotta
Speaker 1: do it on your own? Is that? Like? You know,
Speaker 1: you encourage your friends. Out of my friends tried to
Speaker 1: give me the advice like yourself, slow down, slow down
Speaker 1: and look even our folks, um, jeez, folks, was like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not giving it to her no more.
Speaker 1: You know, So I had friends like that, But I
Speaker 1: really feel like you need to take it upon yourself
Speaker 1: unless it's someone who has experienced that. I would have
Speaker 1: took took the advice. Like if someone would have told me, like, hey,
Speaker 1: step I was on precoss and I was taking sixteen
Speaker 1: a day and I almost died from the withdrawal, I
Speaker 1: probably would have been a little scared. But you know how,
Speaker 1: you know how people are, especially people with strong personalities
Speaker 1: and strong heads like me. I'm like, I'll listen to
Speaker 1: your advice and I'll respect it and i'll take But
Speaker 1: for me to take advice is a whole different story.
Speaker 1: And I still do what you want exactly. I'm still
Speaker 1: gonna do what I want. But I have to say,
Speaker 1: as soon as I found out what I was doing,
Speaker 1: because they told me deefinitely, look how skinny you are.
Speaker 1: The first thing that happens before you die is your
Speaker 1: body starts to eat you up. And then I looked
Speaker 1: at myself in the mirror. I got bones in my chest,
Speaker 1: my I have words sticking out. I mean, I'm like, damn,
Speaker 1: my little that's crazy. But you can see like my
Speaker 1: face sinking. And I had to go get fillers. So
Speaker 1: that way I went and looked so sick in the
Speaker 1: face because it was literally making me sick. Now, what
Speaker 1: was it with youral process? Like for somebody that is
Speaker 1: watching and they're like, okay, I want to kick this,
Speaker 1: Like what was that? Like? How it you get started? Okay?
Speaker 1: So I there all my purposes until I ran Now
Speaker 1: I had bought I had bought seven of them. Now
Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you the cost of it too, because
Speaker 1: I want you to understand how much money I was
Speaker 1: spending on this drug too. I bought seventy purposes that
Speaker 1: ran me about two thousand dollars or less. Maybe a
Speaker 1: little less because in pandemic they're really expensive. So but
Speaker 1: you know, I'm like whatever, I'm being money only care.
Speaker 1: So I brought seventy of them and I took all
Speaker 1: of them. I took all of them about five days.
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh. So I was like, all right, I
Speaker 1: ain't got no more. I'm buying no more. That's it.
Speaker 1: This is the day that I'm gonna stop. So the
Speaker 1: first day it was feverintials during a pandemic. That's really scary.
Speaker 1: I was like, oh shift, I got the fucking coronavirus.
Speaker 1: And my mom was like, no, idiot, you're going through
Speaker 1: withdrawals lax so I'm like, okay, mom, And then the
Speaker 1: next day it goes to heart like the worst contractions
Speaker 1: and your stomach the worst cramps. I mean, I was
Speaker 1: so cramped up I couldn't even move, Like every time
Speaker 1: I got up to use the bathroom, I was like
Speaker 1: bent over like an old lady because it hurts so bad. Then,
Speaker 1: I know, we talked about ship on the show. I
Speaker 1: always say, girls, don't We're being real and serious right now.
Speaker 1: I had a massive diarrhea for like a week, including cramps.
Speaker 1: I had to like drink bottles of pepto bismol to
Speaker 1: make myself feel better. When the Sword of work, it
Speaker 1: didn't work that good, but it helped, you know, stop
Speaker 1: the diarrhea. And from there it went to just being
Speaker 1: really tired, like feeling really like like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I have danage you to do anything. And then I
Speaker 1: got hungry. Then I started wanting to eat. My appetite
Speaker 1: came back. That's when I knew I was starting to
Speaker 1: heal up because my appetite came back. But the worst, worst, worst, worst,
Speaker 1: worst is the first five days. The first five days
Speaker 1: five If you could get through the first week, you
Speaker 1: could get through it because I'm telling you. It started
Speaker 1: from fever and chilled throwing up. I forgot about that part.
Speaker 1: It was fever and show throwing up, um, a little coughing,
Speaker 1: a little coughing. I'm telling you, I stood to a corona.
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't thank God, and um. Then
Speaker 1: it went to the terrible cramps diarrhea every ten twenty minutes.
Speaker 1: So imagine your stomacher and really really bad and then
Speaker 1: having to get up every ten minutes to go sit
Speaker 1: on the toilet and kill yourself on the toilet. You're
Speaker 1: like and mad pain sitting on the toilet. It was awful.
Speaker 1: You're throwing up and you're shipping at the same time.
Speaker 1: It was terrible. I know body there to help me,
Speaker 1: but I felt like I had God with me. I know,
Speaker 1: I know that's I know that that's what you need
Speaker 1: with you. Yeah, but I know I know a lot
Speaker 1: of people, you know, they're like what she's talking about.
Speaker 1: She making on the internet talking about God on the time.
Speaker 1: You know, God, I love hoes. God loves and some
Speaker 1: love hols. Read the Bible, Bird loves all his children. Guys,
Speaker 1: let me ask you a question. When you were going
Speaker 1: through it, those really hard days. Did you ever think
Speaker 1: to yourself, like or what was the motivation to get
Speaker 1: you not to be like, you know what, let me
Speaker 1: just take a pill to make this feel better again.
Speaker 1: And I had other pills. I have vikings Ins in
Speaker 1: the house, and I had Zannis and I was like,
Speaker 1: I'm not taking any of that. Ship Um. The motivation
Speaker 1: and the motivation was the strength inside of me. I
Speaker 1: was like, I'm stronger than these pills. These pills don't
Speaker 1: run my life. I run my life. God runs my life.
Speaker 1: So I had the pills right there on my table
Speaker 1: and looking at them like nope, nope, nope, I'm not
Speaker 1: I don't care. I'm not taking that. The most I
Speaker 1: took was motran and Thailand. All that's it. That's the
Speaker 1: only medicines that I took, besides I'll say a pepo business,
Speaker 1: Pepto bismo, motoring, and Thailand. At the same time, I
Speaker 1: was doing four motorants or emotion eight hundred and two
Speaker 1: thailannels at the same time, just so I could, you know,
Speaker 1: get any kind of thing, really I could. It didn't
Speaker 1: work that good, but it helped. If anything, it probably
Speaker 1: was a plausibo to make you feel like it was
Speaker 1: doing something exactly. It was my mind exactly. That's how
Speaker 1: I feel like, Oh okay, I think I'm getting work. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but it was probably just in my mind, you know.
Speaker 1: But also you are super religious, and I feel like
Speaker 1: it comes out more when you get drunk or when
Speaker 1: you did used to be unpelled. So what did that
Speaker 1: say to you? You know what I mean? Like through
Speaker 1: through those times, even that's a that's that's good, that's
Speaker 1: a the observation all real, because when you're doing wrong
Speaker 1: is when God is like what are you doing? Like,
Speaker 1: like what's up? Like, oh, you want to be in
Speaker 1: faith or you wanna get drunk? Which one? You know
Speaker 1: what I mean? And I totally agree with you. I
Speaker 1: was that one time, all right, one time I was
Speaker 1: so high, I was so fucked up on I was
Speaker 1: so fucked up on percocets, right, I was just sitting there,
Speaker 1: sitting there, so fucked up on perkose that I had
Speaker 1: a hallucination of my guardian angels telling me, like, you're
Speaker 1: doing the wrong thing. And I was just like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm dreaming, I'm bugging right now. I'm bugging. I'm totally bugging.
Speaker 1: So when I came out to trance. I was like, yo,
Speaker 1: I wasn't bugging. That was like like I just had
Speaker 1: a moment, But that still did it made me stop?
Speaker 1: That still that it made me stop. I was like, oh, well,
Speaker 1: I guess I'm just stripping out. That was that high. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I was like you said, and you you guys know,
Speaker 1: I've been on a faith journey for a couple of years,
Speaker 1: and right now I feel like I'm closer to my
Speaker 1: faith than i've ever been, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: So as when as soon as I got baptized, and
Speaker 1: you know, I went and stow the person that I
Speaker 1: needed to see to tell me what was going on
Speaker 1: in my life, I didn't even tell them I had
Speaker 1: a drug problem, and they knew from looking in my eyes.
Speaker 1: You they thought they thought they thought that I was
Speaker 1: doing cocaine. They thought that I was doing cocaine. They
Speaker 1: asked me if I sniff coke, and I was like, oh, um,
Speaker 1: I automatically through. It's like he sees that I'm skinny,
Speaker 1: so he thinks I'm sniff of coke and I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm not sniffing coke. I don't sniff cooke.
Speaker 1: I was like, um, he's like, but you have another
Speaker 1: drug problem. And I'm like, yeah, I do pills and
Speaker 1: he's like, oh, that's even worse than doing coke. He
Speaker 1: was like, um, he was like okay. He looked at me.
Speaker 1: He was like, yeah, you're gonna die. You're gonna die
Speaker 1: before you turn forty five if you keep taking these pills.
Speaker 1: He's like, when you went to get baptized, just after
Speaker 1: I got baptized. So I shook. It scared the ship
Speaker 1: out of me. Like, I have a son. I have
Speaker 1: a fourteen year old son. You know, I wouldn't want
Speaker 1: him to live like that with his mom and knowing
Speaker 1: that his mom died from doing drugs. Like my mom
Speaker 1: is in my life, still in my dirties, and she's
Speaker 1: been partying in her whole life. And I feel very blessed,
Speaker 1: but I know that, you know, she's like she has
Speaker 1: alien blood, Like she's different. She's it's not like I'm
Speaker 1: not as strong as she is. And I don't think
Speaker 1: the drugs that she was doing when I was a
Speaker 1: kid is the same drugs that they have now, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? So, do you know what your
Speaker 1: triggers are? Staff like what you have to stay away
Speaker 1: from to make sure she stay clean. My triggers are
Speaker 1: when my boyfriend's got me depressed, like when my boyfriends
Speaker 1: that's when the father. I don't thought about anything. I
Speaker 1: don't shuss all about anything at all. I don't stress
Speaker 1: out about money, even if I if I'm not rich,
Speaker 1: I don't stress out about money. I don't stress out
Speaker 1: about material things. I don't stress out about anything. But
Speaker 1: a man does something wrong to me, I forget. I'm
Speaker 1: like already over and already check out, time to lights out,
Speaker 1: I'm going to sleep. I'm going to sleep for a month.
Speaker 1: I don't even want to deal with this, but that
Speaker 1: was my trigger. That was my trigger. I um, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm still dealing with the same guy I've been dealing
Speaker 1: with for the for so long, and he ain't going nowhere.
Speaker 1: Like that's That's another thing that I've realized in this time,
Speaker 1: Like no matter what happens, he's gonna be there, whether
Speaker 1: we're fighting or not. He ain't going nowhere. What does
Speaker 1: he think about all of this? Like what what did
Speaker 1: he do while you were going through everything with he
Speaker 1: supportive with you know, Like what what role did he
Speaker 1: actually fighting we were actually fighting? And when he saw
Speaker 1: that I would um because he knows me, so he
Speaker 1: knew that I was doing something different. So when he
Speaker 1: saw that I was um on that I was getting baptized,
Speaker 1: when he saw that I was wearing, you know, a
Speaker 1: white handkerchief and you know, getting baptized into my religion. Um,
Speaker 1: he hit me up right away like, I'm so proud
Speaker 1: of you. I know this is something you've been wanting
Speaker 1: to do for a long time. I love you so much, Like,
Speaker 1: I'm so happy you're doing these ceremonies. I'm so like
Speaker 1: and that was like, wow, I cannot believe it, Like
Speaker 1: so I can't lie. He was very supportive. He asked
Speaker 1: me what made me He was like, I know it's
Speaker 1: me that made you do this. And I'm like, no,
Speaker 1: it's not you that made me do this. I've been
Speaker 1: on this journey before I met you. I've been on
Speaker 1: this journey on his Spade journey for like seven years.
Speaker 1: So it's like, it's just you making me feel terrible
Speaker 1: about things, just pushed me further to want to go
Speaker 1: and to my faith. It's not because of you, It's
Speaker 1: just I took a bigger step while we were fighting.
Speaker 1: What was he doing about you? Were taking pills. What
Speaker 1: was like, was he doing them too? Or was he like?
Speaker 1: What was his thing when um too? But he would
Speaker 1: be like, oh, oh, what's wrong. You can't sleep here?
Speaker 1: Take a pill? Oh you're upset? Okay, okay, yeah, go
Speaker 1: take one of your pills because you got it bad.
Speaker 1: We go take one of your pills. So he didn't care.
Speaker 1: He didn't care. You don't care if I was doing
Speaker 1: drugs or not. You didn't getting funk? And what was
Speaker 1: his reaction to you becoming clean? When I told him?
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, I'm I'm I'm in ceremony and
Speaker 1: you know, I'm doing all of this spur so that
Speaker 1: way you don't stress me out and I don't have
Speaker 1: to take drugs to go to sleep. And he's like, oh,
Speaker 1: you're not taking drugs to go to sleep. I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm not taking drugs at all. I'm just fighting through it.
Speaker 1: And he's like, oh, I'm so proud of you baby
Speaker 1: when you come home up and give you a gift. Uh, Like, bro,
Speaker 1: I don't need should reward me for something that I
Speaker 1: decided to do myself. Like the reward is me being healthy.
Speaker 1: The reward is is is me being able to get
Speaker 1: up and go and do what I want to do,
Speaker 1: to have to have my house the way it's supposed
Speaker 1: to be, to be organized, to organize my life, organized,
Speaker 1: my career, organized my home. You know that's the reward
Speaker 1: for me. It's not you, because you're not going anywhere.
Speaker 1: But if he's a trigger right at some former fashion,
Speaker 1: how do you think that's gonna play a part on
Speaker 1: your recovery and your new journey? Like? Is that a
Speaker 1: positive thing? You know what I mean? Like one thing,
Speaker 1: one thing I have to say is you know, I
Speaker 1: do love this guy. I do love this guy, but
Speaker 1: I know I don't got a future with him. He's
Speaker 1: not the man that I'm gonna marry. I know that
Speaker 1: for sure. If I don't, we're not getting married. It
Speaker 1: is what it is. I don't expect for him, man,
Speaker 1: I never. I mean maybe in the beginning I thought,
Speaker 1: oh maybe it's me the guy don't marry when you else?
Speaker 1: I body, you know what I mean? But I know
Speaker 1: him really well, just like he knows me really well.
Speaker 1: So I feel like at this point, after after everything
Speaker 1: I've been through in faith and um and getting sober,
Speaker 1: he there's nothing he could do to get me to
Speaker 1: get me upset at this point, like he tries, he
Speaker 1: has tried too, but there's really nothing he could do.
Speaker 1: It sounds like he's not good for you though stuff.
Speaker 1: And if he's trying to get you upset, and you know,
Speaker 1: I know he's not, y'all, don't wan't to talking about
Speaker 1: y'all know you, we know, but you know you. We
Speaker 1: don't want to say too much. And if you know,
Speaker 1: you're not gonna end up with him, if he's trying
Speaker 1: to do things to upset you, and you know it
Speaker 1: is like you said, you know when you get upset,
Speaker 1: when you're in a relationship, when you're fighting, this is
Speaker 1: what you return to. So now you've got to figure
Speaker 1: out how are you gonna handle things differently because he's toxic.
Speaker 1: It sounds as though and if you're intoxifying yourself. I
Speaker 1: just think that when those people come in your space,
Speaker 1: it's a negative it can cause negative things. And I
Speaker 1: think you look so great right now. You sound so positive,
Speaker 1: You sound amazing, like I'm happy for I see the
Speaker 1: different honestly, like and you know, Stephanie, when we did
Speaker 1: some Loot Service episodes and I was actually just doesn't
Speaker 1: look like she's well, and she's here in present I
Speaker 1: was she's dead high or waiting to get high. So
Speaker 1: we're like, is it over? Is it over? Do you
Speaker 1: think if I go over here? Though? Stevie Poppico right,
Speaker 1: this is the best that I've seen you in a
Speaker 1: long time. And we don't want to say too much
Speaker 1: because we don't want to be triggers as far as
Speaker 1: like to make you upset, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: We want to support you as friends. But sometimes you
Speaker 1: could push a person the wrong way, you know what
Speaker 1: I mean, and and saying things to them and they
Speaker 1: could shut down and not want to talk to you.
Speaker 1: So that's why it was also difficult for us, like
Speaker 1: we would, if anything, have conversations like, well, what can
Speaker 1: we do? But at the same time, you did have
Speaker 1: to come around yourself and and figure it out, and
Speaker 1: you did, and I think that's amazing. But I will
Speaker 1: feel like we have to kill this nigga is and
Speaker 1: I do. I do I feel that way because he's
Speaker 1: obviously something is not all the way positive with him,
Speaker 1: you know. You know it's funny because my sister gave
Speaker 1: me the same advice. You like stuff even though you
Speaker 1: think the things that he does can't bother you. One
Speaker 1: day it might and you might just go off the
Speaker 1: rails again. So I'm I mean moving forward. Honestly, I
Speaker 1: don't think I'm gonna give him another year. I don't
Speaker 1: think so it's been for and I don't I don't
Speaker 1: really think I'm gonna like I know, I know that
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get what I want no matter what. And
Speaker 1: it's like, do you want to be in a relationship
Speaker 1: that's going nowhere? Because that's what you're gonna get over there,
Speaker 1: right And I just don't want you to slide back
Speaker 1: in because I know it could be just one day
Speaker 1: something goes wrong and he's not gonna discourage it. No,
Speaker 1: no hold going by the bills for me, okay, And
Speaker 1: that's not what you need right now. You've got too
Speaker 1: many great things happening. And it's crazy because it's not
Speaker 1: like you don't have options of plenty other men, men
Speaker 1: that are trying to talk to you. But I know
Speaker 1: when we have this habit and this love for a
Speaker 1: certain person, we stick around. I mean, everybody excel inch,
Speaker 1: but like every like we all have been through something
Speaker 1: where we've stayed in toxic situations. And I felt like
Speaker 1: That's why now, like even me talking to you about it,
Speaker 1: I know that I've been in a situation where things
Speaker 1: were going great and positive and this man who has
Speaker 1: nothing was able to bring me back down to ground zero.
Speaker 1: But I had to fight back up through it. And
Speaker 1: I don't want to see that happen when you know,
Speaker 1: we want you to be doing great, We want you
Speaker 1: to be president like this Stephanie. Yeah, we love this
Speaker 1: Stephanie like it's the other one that scares us, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? But how can we talk because
Speaker 1: you'll snap at us too. You have before. That's what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I get nasty, you know, I get nasty
Speaker 1: when I'm on the joke, especially when I'm coming all
Speaker 1: for them. When we were on tour, I was looking
Speaker 1: at danas everywhere, everywhere, everywhere we went for one of
Speaker 1: my friends. I got you dance, we get then we
Speaker 1: get something in Atlanta. We got some in Atlanta, we
Speaker 1: got some in La. You're gonna stop being a guy,
Speaker 1: Jamn the neighbler. Yeah, it's like right here, my friend
Speaker 1: tell her, okay, when any time she asked you about
Speaker 1: some ship like that? No, we already know the next
Speaker 1: in adderall in Atlanta. We gonna have to cut g
Speaker 1: off in a second, like I can mest somebody tell
Speaker 1: Laurie y'all I was addicted to adderall and I was like, well, yeah,
Speaker 1: I had to check that. And the guy I was like,
Speaker 1: if she's addicted to adderall, I got a problem with
Speaker 1: her because she didn't give me nothing. I never had
Speaker 1: adderall in my life. I was like, and it was
Speaker 1: an artist too, and I'm like this and he was
Speaker 1: saying in front of other people and I had to
Speaker 1: shut hand down, like, bro, no, it was can I
Speaker 1: say who it was? Yeah? It was Joe Betton. It
Speaker 1: was Joe Betton telling people I'm addicted to add run
Speaker 1: and I was like, dude, I've never done adderall in
Speaker 1: my life. He was like, I don't even got much
Speaker 1: for him to say that. I have no idea where
Speaker 1: he got that from. He said it's a need though,
Speaker 1: and I was like caught off guard, Like he was like,
Speaker 1: you know because then just addicted the adderall And I
Speaker 1: was like like, I wasn't gonna tell my friend, Like
Speaker 1: Joe was cool, but Angela's my friend friend like in
Speaker 1: real life, no industry ship. So I'm like, what would
Speaker 1: you addint that the adderall, bitch, and now I need
Speaker 1: the adderall. And you didn't get like. I never why
Speaker 1: you didn't give me a yeah, Like I tell you
Speaker 1: what I do, I've done. I have no problem with that.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I did it shroom the
Speaker 1: other day. I'm never doing shrooms again in life. Like Arizona,
Speaker 1: I got him from Arizona. There was albino something. When
Speaker 1: I tell y'all, I just freaked the funk out, like
Speaker 1: a couple of days ago, because I had him. I
Speaker 1: would never do them. I thought I was getting kidnapped.
Speaker 1: I'm just like fun that ship I was seeing ship
Speaker 1: like and it was I took a little. Drugs are bad, bay.
Speaker 1: But Stephanie, and let's all make sure that we keep
Speaker 1: on continuing to check in on Stephanie even when we're
Speaker 1: not doing an episode, just to see how you're doing.
Speaker 1: And I am happy that you decided to share this
Speaker 1: because there's so many people we all know somebody that
Speaker 1: has had problems with pills, and you know, we're just
Speaker 1: happy that you were able to catch yourself. We do
Speaker 1: not want this to ever happen again. We love this healthy,
Speaker 1: beautiful Stephanie. That we have here with us if you
Speaker 1: need anything from myself question and we're here. I know
Speaker 1: we're going out next week to catch up and sit
Speaker 1: down and talk, but I'm just you know, I'm just
Speaker 1: cautious about this, dude, because you don't need negative influences
Speaker 1: in your life. And I understand that we care about
Speaker 1: people and whatever. But back to with Lord rialhi. Um.
Speaker 1: You know, I spoke to my sister and our sisters.
Speaker 1: You know, she very supportive and she lives not too
Speaker 1: far from me, so she's been coming to visit me
Speaker 1: and cook for me and things like that, and she
Speaker 1: told me the same thing. She's like, stuff, I know
Speaker 1: you love them, you know, I know you love them,
Speaker 1: but sometimes you just gotta let people go, like if
Speaker 1: they're not if they're not good for your health, especially
Speaker 1: because you're the one thing having a broken heart. But
Speaker 1: it's a whole other thing when you're killing yourself with
Speaker 1: substances right for being the price, you gotta love you
Speaker 1: more than you left someone else exactly, because that's exactly
Speaker 1: where I feel like my faith took me because I
Speaker 1: felt like I was I feel like I'm so close
Speaker 1: to my faith and it makes me love myself so much.
Speaker 1: It makes me feel like I um, you know, like
Speaker 1: I'm so proud of myself, Like I know I can
Speaker 1: feel the love of God because I could feel the
Speaker 1: love for myself, because that's what God really wants you
Speaker 1: to do. He wants you to love what He gave you,
Speaker 1: and that's your life. You know what I mean. And
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, guys, I know I noticed. Is live serious, Listen,
Speaker 1: we know all about it. This is helped anybody else.
Speaker 1: And that's what Little Serce is about too. It's not
Speaker 1: just about relationships and sect it is you know, relationship
Speaker 1: with yourself is it really just that's important and honesty
Speaker 1: and also no judgment, like that's what Let's service is.
Speaker 1: This is a no judgment place for us to be
Speaker 1: honest and to help other people too with our own
Speaker 1: personal stories and journeys and help each other the best
Speaker 1: we can. And I really wanted to share this because
Speaker 1: I'm not ashamed of it. I'm not embarrassed that I was,
Speaker 1: that I fell into a whole of addiction. I'm not
Speaker 1: embarrassed my mom. You know my mom with my mom
Speaker 1: has a bad, bad addiction. And you know, I mean,
Speaker 1: she was good and she's fine and everything, but you know,
Speaker 1: not everybody's the same. And and I've never been ashamed
Speaker 1: that because my mom was a great mom. She you know,
Speaker 1: we were never abused, and she showed us a lot
Speaker 1: of love and and spoke brook values into us. But
Speaker 1: you know, she she did party and it is what
Speaker 1: that is, what it is. She's good person, but she
Speaker 1: she has her issues. And you know, not that I
Speaker 1: didn't want to end up like my mom, but you know,
Speaker 1: seeing my mom, I should know better. You know what
Speaker 1: I mean. And she doesn't want that for you either, No,
Speaker 1: not at all. When I told her I was clean,
Speaker 1: she didn't want to talk to me when I was
Speaker 1: doing when I was doing the pills. At first she
Speaker 1: was like take this, this will get you all for this.
Speaker 1: I'll take this, this will get you all for that.
Speaker 1: But then I started calling her like hey man, can
Speaker 1: I get some more of that? And she was like,
Speaker 1: don't call me. I'll say you over this because then
Speaker 1: you started becoming addicted to that. And even my sister,
Speaker 1: my sister was like, Stephanie, is don't get you doing drugs.
Speaker 1: I'm not talking to you. And you have your son
Speaker 1: and I have my son. I didn't so I told
Speaker 1: my son's father and he told me anything I need
Speaker 1: if I needed him to come and help me out.
Speaker 1: And he has a he has a whole wife, he
Speaker 1: has a girlfriend. But he he was like, stepping you listen,
Speaker 1: you're the daughter my mom. Excuse. I was like, what
Speaker 1: problems like that? You know you're something, you're you're the
Speaker 1: mother of my son, and you know, anything you need,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be there for you to have. You got
Speaker 1: to go to the hospital. I'll take you to the hospital.
Speaker 1: Anything you need, I'm gonna help you with it. I
Speaker 1: don't want to see you like this. But he knew
Speaker 1: right off the bat. But now I was doing drugs
Speaker 1: because he knows me real good. We were together for
Speaker 1: seven and a half years, so he knew right away.
Speaker 1: He never saw me so skinny. And I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: lie like me skinny. I'm really remember health plasticated. Okay, healthy,
Speaker 1: but that's what I'm saying. It's one thing being skinny
Speaker 1: and a whole different thing, big healthy skinny. Right, And please,
Speaker 1: people that are listening, don't think like I want to
Speaker 1: lose weight. Let me go buy a sephny purpose that
Speaker 1: makes that breaking And Stephanie so can you admit now
Speaker 1: on this podcast that girls do Ship? You're annoying Angela?
Speaker 1: All right, this is the one and all this time,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna admit girls Ship. That's it. Somebody I supposed
Speaker 1: to wre recorded it never just saying all right, well listen. Yeah,
Speaker 1: thank you guys so much, and thank you Stephanie for
Speaker 1: being self open and transparent with us, because you don't
Speaker 1: know how many people this could be helping right now.
Speaker 1: And that's why I wanted to do it. I really, um,
Speaker 1: like I said, I'm not embarrassed, and no one should
Speaker 1: be embarrassed. You just take care of yourself. It's so important,
Speaker 1: especially in these times I was I was messing up
Speaker 1: my immune system. I could have really got even sicker
Speaker 1: from doing all those shrugs. So right, and in particular
Speaker 1: right now with coronavirus, it is a tough time for
Speaker 1: people who are in the house, who are going through
Speaker 1: relationship issues, who are going through financial issues, everything that
Speaker 1: you're going through. We know it's not easy, but that's
Speaker 1: not that's not gonna be the fixed to anything. You know,
Speaker 1: it's just making worst. It's stopping you from I've actually
Speaker 1: missed a lot of opportunities because I was too high
Speaker 1: on drugs. To be honest, I mean, I'm very grateful
Speaker 1: that there's other opportunities that are always being an offer
Speaker 1: to me. How you guys in my life, and I'm
Speaker 1: very grateful for you guys. I'm always grateful for you guys.
Speaker 1: You know. Um. But of course there was a lot
Speaker 1: of things that I missed out on because I was
Speaker 1: doing drugs. I didn't want to outside. I'm too lazy.
Speaker 1: I mean, the one thing I could say is I'm
Speaker 1: never lazy to take a shower. I was always in
Speaker 1: the show every time she's like, I'm taking a shower
Speaker 1: and brush your feet. Don't forget that gross to the
Speaker 1: tooth thing. All right, Well, yeah, please enjoy the rest
Speaker 1: of your week. We'll be back next week. Best that,
Speaker 1: Stephanie again, thank you. It was nice to have all
Speaker 1: of us on here. And we love you, Stephanie and
Speaker 1: we support you. If you need you already enough you
Speaker 1: need anything from us, like you call us and we're
Speaker 1: gonna make sure we're there as that's as we can be.
Speaker 1: Thank you. I love you guys. I love you guys
Speaker 1: so much, and we love all of everybody listening to
Speaker 1: group group bring it in bad guys, and we love
Speaker 1: you too. Dan. Even though you're not my only Dan,
Speaker 1: I love you