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Speaker 1: the excite. These are the radio blogs on the Fred Show.

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Speaker 2: All right, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna do a

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Speaker 2: But dear blog, see like this is not like this

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Speaker 1: I'm not being cryptic. I'm really not. I'm going to

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Speaker 2: Do you ever have you ever come to a point

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Speaker 2: She'll text me later and go, are you talking about me?

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Speaker 1: Energy? When you think about me? That's what you sue.

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Speaker 2: You kind of sit back and you're like, because I

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Speaker 3: Yep, welcome. It's a wonderful feeling.

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Speaker 6: I've gotten rid of everyone toxic in my life, aside

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Speaker 6: for a few that need to be in there, be

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Speaker 6: I mean, it's interesting, take a step back and just

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Speaker 6: you very clearly if they're doing anything for you and

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm telling you, like, I'm not being cryptic, I'm

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Speaker 2: Like we could have it out and I could walk

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Speaker 2: You're not gonna punish me, well, Caylen would, but no,

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Speaker 2: I'm kidding, No, I'm messing with you. I do joke though,

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Speaker 2: I'm kidding too, sure, yeah, no, exactly, you're right, she

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Speaker 6: It's been about seven years. But no, no, not. Everyone's

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Speaker 6: meant to be in your life. For I call them

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Speaker 1: You're gonna do this job.

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Speaker 6: People are always going to have comments and judgment, but

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Speaker 3: Well, when you're reincarnated, then you get to well, it.

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Speaker 2: Doesn't it Before you had the boyfriend, I know you

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Speaker 1: I love that you would choose this life. Yes, projection,

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Speaker 4: Damn, I wish I was there, right I wish I

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Speaker 6: Whoever fits into my life and right now that's my boyfriend.

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Speaker 3: And he's great about that. I mean, I'm not changing.

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Speaker 3: I'm still gonna do me. I'll be the same person.

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Speaker 2: Well, and I'm sure I've done things to hurt people's feelings,

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Speaker 5: Oh I've been listening to you guys, and I was like,

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Speaker 5: And you're always hurting my feelings. I think we need

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Speaker 2: But at the same time, I think, you know, maybe

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Speaker 2: let them do it.

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Speaker 1: They're never going to stop. They're never going to stop.

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Speaker 5: Yep, there's a there's a problem with everything. She doesn't

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Speaker 2: Way, that has nothing to do with anything like.

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Speaker 5: Yeah about yeah I got I have a brand new Chevy.

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Speaker 5: Would you get a Chevy? Room had a Chevy my dad,

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Speaker 2: drive your Chevy in the other direction, because you got

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Speaker 2: to he Julian we gotta go. Thank you, have a

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Speaker 2: great day.

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Speaker 1: That's crazy. Thank you, I know people are. That is

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Speaker 1: so wild. How someone lives their life and they're Chevy.

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Speaker 1: You're mad about that? Great well, thank you for coming

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Speaker 1: to my tech