1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:03,920 Speaker 1: Hello, Hi, what's up. Welcome to gek Mail. It is 2 00:00:04,000 --> 00:00:09,880 Speaker 1: a show where I a Gecko, read mail and rant 3 00:00:09,920 --> 00:00:17,400 Speaker 1: to myself. It's a lonely, desolate, single person podcast. Normally, 4 00:00:17,440 --> 00:00:20,360 Speaker 1: on my podcast, I talk to other people, I talk 5 00:00:20,440 --> 00:00:24,040 Speaker 1: to strangers on the phone, and there's a back and forth, 6 00:00:24,120 --> 00:00:29,280 Speaker 1: there's a dialogue. But here there's a monologue and I'm 7 00:00:29,320 --> 00:00:33,520 Speaker 1: just gonna rant and read viewer mails. If you want 8 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:36,559 Speaker 1: to send an email, you can send it to therapy 9 00:00:36,600 --> 00:00:41,239 Speaker 1: geckomail at gmail dot com. I just kinda keep a 10 00:00:41,400 --> 00:00:49,320 Speaker 1: rolling a bunch of emails that I check. I really 11 00:00:49,400 --> 00:00:52,239 Speaker 1: like doing this version of the show. I've realized that 12 00:00:52,840 --> 00:00:57,320 Speaker 1: I'm really I'm trying to have I think, the least 13 00:00:57,520 --> 00:01:03,360 Speaker 1: controversial pod cast that exists. I want no hot takes. 14 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:09,000 Speaker 1: I want to talk as little as That's what I've 15 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:11,280 Speaker 1: been enjoying about the way that I normally do my 16 00:01:11,319 --> 00:01:14,120 Speaker 1: show is that I get to talk as little as possible. 17 00:01:14,160 --> 00:01:16,240 Speaker 1: I just kind of get to sit there while other 18 00:01:16,240 --> 00:01:19,880 Speaker 1: people talk. And I don't know. I guess it's because 19 00:01:19,880 --> 00:01:23,000 Speaker 1: I don't want to say anything, because if you say 20 00:01:23,120 --> 00:01:25,400 Speaker 1: stuff on the internet, people like get mad at you 21 00:01:25,480 --> 00:01:29,080 Speaker 1: and stuff, and I don't know, that's a more peaceful 22 00:01:29,120 --> 00:01:32,800 Speaker 1: way to live. Not doing I really struggle with this. 23 00:01:33,120 --> 00:01:39,840 Speaker 1: Not doing anything or saying anything ever is definitely the 24 00:01:39,840 --> 00:01:42,840 Speaker 1: most peaceful way to go. It's definitely if you want 25 00:01:42,880 --> 00:01:49,000 Speaker 1: to maximize your peace of mind, you just throughout your 26 00:01:49,000 --> 00:01:56,600 Speaker 1: life never do or say anything to anyone ever. That's 27 00:01:56,640 --> 00:01:59,480 Speaker 1: the way to do it. And so that's what that's 28 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:01,760 Speaker 1: what I've It's kind of the train that I've been on. 29 00:02:01,840 --> 00:02:04,960 Speaker 1: It's maybe I should just stop doing things or saying things. 30 00:02:05,120 --> 00:02:07,120 Speaker 1: But then again, I don't know what kind of life 31 00:02:07,200 --> 00:02:12,760 Speaker 1: is that. That's a u pr version of yourself and 32 00:02:13,680 --> 00:02:21,640 Speaker 1: you're kind of diluted down to nothing. But I don't know. 33 00:02:21,720 --> 00:02:24,880 Speaker 1: I think the optimal way to live it's probably somewhere 34 00:02:24,919 --> 00:02:29,240 Speaker 1: within that. It's probably somewhere within saying stuff and not 35 00:02:29,320 --> 00:02:32,639 Speaker 1: saying anything. That's what I'm trying to figure out. I'm 36 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:36,000 Speaker 1: trying to figure out what's the optimal amount of things 37 00:02:36,040 --> 00:02:39,200 Speaker 1: to do and say. Where you're putting yourself out there, 38 00:02:39,600 --> 00:02:42,120 Speaker 1: you're putting you want to put yoursel me. This is 39 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:44,320 Speaker 1: for just for me. I want to put myself out 40 00:02:44,320 --> 00:02:50,640 Speaker 1: there just enough so that I can meaningfully so just 41 00:02:50,800 --> 00:02:53,799 Speaker 1: enough so that I can have like just meaningful enough 42 00:02:54,000 --> 00:03:00,680 Speaker 1: of a life without being too vulnerable, that's all. It's 43 00:03:00,680 --> 00:03:02,560 Speaker 1: probably a stupid thing to do. Don't listen to anything 44 00:03:02,600 --> 00:03:06,919 Speaker 1: that I ever say. I'm go listen to fucking don't 45 00:03:06,919 --> 00:03:10,200 Speaker 1: listen to anything anyone else ever says either. Never listen 46 00:03:10,240 --> 00:03:14,119 Speaker 1: to anything. Everyone says, don't listen to this podcast. Don't 47 00:03:14,120 --> 00:03:20,000 Speaker 1: listen to any other podcast. Go outside and just look 48 00:03:20,000 --> 00:03:25,560 Speaker 1: at the sky and eat grilled chicken and then die. 49 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:28,119 Speaker 1: That's the final piece of advice I will ever give 50 00:03:28,960 --> 00:03:33,000 Speaker 1: on this podcast. Ook or maybe not? Okay, all right, 51 00:03:33,040 --> 00:03:35,120 Speaker 1: let's read some view or mail, shall we? All right? 52 00:03:35,160 --> 00:03:39,440 Speaker 1: This one comes from Daniel and the subject line is urgent. 53 00:03:41,360 --> 00:03:43,400 Speaker 1: I know this isn't the best way to find out, 54 00:03:43,400 --> 00:03:45,560 Speaker 1: but I just wanted you to know that arch and 55 00:03:45,600 --> 00:03:52,080 Speaker 1: nemesis Basketball Dan has passed away on May fifth of 56 00:03:52,160 --> 00:03:57,960 Speaker 1: this year. What the fuck I am now? Just Dan? 57 00:03:58,880 --> 00:04:03,800 Speaker 1: Sometimes Daniel professionally, I love you, and I hope the 58 00:04:03,880 --> 00:04:08,920 Speaker 1: memory of Basketball Dan disappears from my memory because he's dead. Now, Okay, 59 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:11,800 Speaker 1: I'm not I don't have time to give context to this. 60 00:04:11,880 --> 00:04:19,400 Speaker 1: Let's do another one, all right, m yeah, yeah, okay, okay, 61 00:04:19,440 --> 00:04:21,480 Speaker 1: but no one died. I don't think I think this 62 00:04:21,560 --> 00:04:24,760 Speaker 1: is I think this guy Daniel used to be basketball 63 00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:30,400 Speaker 1: Dan and now he's just Dan. So no one died. 64 00:04:31,120 --> 00:04:35,839 Speaker 1: No one died, all right? This is from Odyssey subject line. 65 00:04:38,120 --> 00:04:42,960 Speaker 1: I tricked my ex friends into giving me ASMR hey 66 00:04:43,040 --> 00:04:46,560 Speaker 1: GEK So like this. One time last year, I randomly 67 00:04:46,600 --> 00:04:50,279 Speaker 1: remembered the egg that my mom used to do when 68 00:04:50,320 --> 00:04:53,320 Speaker 1: I was little. What is the egg? It's where you 69 00:04:53,400 --> 00:04:56,920 Speaker 1: tap on someone's kneecap a couple times with your fist 70 00:04:57,480 --> 00:05:01,800 Speaker 1: and then spread your fingers and pushed lightly down on 71 00:05:01,839 --> 00:05:04,800 Speaker 1: their knee and it feels weird. So I did it 72 00:05:04,839 --> 00:05:07,960 Speaker 1: to my friend and he thought it was weird. So 73 00:05:08,040 --> 00:05:10,440 Speaker 1: it started this whole thing of us randomly doing it 74 00:05:10,480 --> 00:05:13,040 Speaker 1: to each other. But I think we all secretly liked 75 00:05:13,040 --> 00:05:15,520 Speaker 1: it and didn't want each other to know. They have 76 00:05:15,640 --> 00:05:21,240 Speaker 1: since become racist, and I moved States because nobody liked 77 00:05:21,279 --> 00:05:24,560 Speaker 1: me because I still hung out with them even though 78 00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:29,320 Speaker 1: they were racist, and I didn't realize until they learned slurs. Okay, 79 00:05:29,320 --> 00:05:34,200 Speaker 1: whoever wrote this email is probably in middle school. I 80 00:05:34,240 --> 00:05:42,039 Speaker 1: have no idea what this is, and I'm gonna read 81 00:05:42,080 --> 00:05:44,000 Speaker 1: a different email. You know. What I've noticed is that 82 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: here's another thing about Gekmel for those of you who 83 00:05:47,279 --> 00:05:50,440 Speaker 1: listened to the whole show, is that I like, I'm 84 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:52,239 Speaker 1: thinking about starting to do it once a week, because 85 00:05:52,560 --> 00:05:56,440 Speaker 1: you know, in the regular show where I'm talking to people, 86 00:05:56,560 --> 00:06:00,000 Speaker 1: I think you guys can probably tell I'm a lot spicier, 87 00:06:00,800 --> 00:06:03,359 Speaker 1: a lot of I'm a much spicier version of myself 88 00:06:04,040 --> 00:06:08,599 Speaker 1: in gek Mail. I think it's because, like, like, I 89 00:06:08,600 --> 00:06:10,640 Speaker 1: don't wanna First of all, I don't really like get 90 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:13,720 Speaker 1: off on being mean. I don't really like I don't 91 00:06:13,760 --> 00:06:17,839 Speaker 1: want to be like a mean guy. But even if 92 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:20,279 Speaker 1: like I wanted to, It's like when you're when you 93 00:06:20,360 --> 00:06:25,200 Speaker 1: have feedback from another human being, it influences the way 94 00:06:25,200 --> 00:06:28,279 Speaker 1: that you act. So like if somebody if I'm talking 95 00:06:28,320 --> 00:06:31,040 Speaker 1: to someone on the phone and they say something and 96 00:06:31,120 --> 00:06:34,560 Speaker 1: I think, in my head, that's really fucking stupid that 97 00:06:34,600 --> 00:06:37,560 Speaker 1: you just said that, I'm not gonna I'll think that 98 00:06:37,600 --> 00:06:40,880 Speaker 1: in my head and then I'll take a second to 99 00:06:41,040 --> 00:06:46,200 Speaker 1: take that thought and push it through a more filter, 100 00:06:46,320 --> 00:06:48,560 Speaker 1: it through a more productive lens, because I don't I 101 00:06:48,600 --> 00:06:51,200 Speaker 1: act genuinely in my soul. I don't think just saying 102 00:06:51,200 --> 00:06:55,000 Speaker 1: to this person you're a fucking idiot is helpful. I 103 00:06:55,000 --> 00:06:57,760 Speaker 1: don't think it's helpful, so I filter it and I'm like, Okay, 104 00:06:57,760 --> 00:07:00,560 Speaker 1: what's a helpful what's a more helpful thing to say. 105 00:07:00,680 --> 00:07:02,240 Speaker 1: I don't do that because I don't want to hurt 106 00:07:02,240 --> 00:07:04,039 Speaker 1: their feelings. I do that because I want I want 107 00:07:04,480 --> 00:07:06,640 Speaker 1: if I'm having a conversation with this person, I want 108 00:07:06,680 --> 00:07:11,920 Speaker 1: to be genuinely helpful in that moment. But here I'm 109 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:16,360 Speaker 1: just a truly, truly, truly alone in a room, and 110 00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:22,360 Speaker 1: so saying that's fucking stupid is something I'm more likely 111 00:07:22,440 --> 00:07:25,480 Speaker 1: to say. But I also don't I also am I 112 00:07:25,480 --> 00:07:31,160 Speaker 1: also don't like that because I say and think and 113 00:07:31,280 --> 00:07:36,400 Speaker 1: do so many stupid things that I don't like being judgmental, 114 00:07:37,280 --> 00:07:39,240 Speaker 1: I know for a lot of reasons, but one of 115 00:07:39,240 --> 00:07:42,320 Speaker 1: them just being that any judgment I could make upon 116 00:07:42,360 --> 00:07:45,640 Speaker 1: someone else, they could easily make on me. So with 117 00:07:45,680 --> 00:07:47,800 Speaker 1: the why am I? Who am I to sit on 118 00:07:47,840 --> 00:07:52,080 Speaker 1: my podcast and call someone say that someone is stupid? 119 00:07:53,840 --> 00:07:58,560 Speaker 1: But then again, it's cathartic, it feels good. That's the 120 00:07:58,680 --> 00:08:03,000 Speaker 1: problem with judgment. I genuinely think we live in a 121 00:08:03,120 --> 00:08:06,640 Speaker 1: very judgmental society and it's a problem, but we do. 122 00:08:06,760 --> 00:08:09,600 Speaker 1: We live in this judgmental society because it feels so 123 00:08:09,880 --> 00:08:13,920 Speaker 1: good to call someone a fucking idiot. It really like 124 00:08:14,400 --> 00:08:20,960 Speaker 1: something in the central nervous system that dopamine just gets released. 125 00:08:22,000 --> 00:08:24,640 Speaker 1: But this, you know, same thing happens when you do heroin. 126 00:08:25,240 --> 00:08:28,120 Speaker 1: So I don't know. I'm gonna I'm let's just let's 127 00:08:28,160 --> 00:08:33,480 Speaker 1: keep reading emails and I'm just gonna keep saying stuff. Okay. 128 00:08:35,040 --> 00:08:40,920 Speaker 1: This is from Stephen, subject line, A question on my mind, 129 00:08:41,480 --> 00:08:52,280 Speaker 1: Dear therapy Gecko. Is everything one thing? Sincerely, Steve. Okay, 130 00:08:53,760 --> 00:08:57,360 Speaker 1: I was about to say no, everything are different things, 131 00:08:58,920 --> 00:09:03,880 Speaker 1: but now I'm thinking about it because if everything, because 132 00:09:03,960 --> 00:09:09,920 Speaker 1: a group of things, could be considered one thing, Like 133 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:15,000 Speaker 1: if you have a bag of stones, the bag is 134 00:09:15,040 --> 00:09:22,360 Speaker 1: one thing, but all the stones are several things. Okay, 135 00:09:22,720 --> 00:09:24,800 Speaker 1: So by that logic, I'm gonna say, if you put 136 00:09:24,840 --> 00:09:28,800 Speaker 1: everything in a bag, it would be one thing. But 137 00:09:28,920 --> 00:09:33,640 Speaker 1: everything on its own is a combination of a bunch 138 00:09:33,720 --> 00:09:35,200 Speaker 1: of things, so if you put it in a bag, 139 00:09:35,200 --> 00:09:49,080 Speaker 1: it's one thing. Okay. This is from Mario. Subject line, 140 00:09:49,240 --> 00:09:54,320 Speaker 1: I'm in love with a Polly, but I'm mono. Hello, 141 00:09:54,400 --> 00:09:57,800 Speaker 1: mister Ghek, I have strong feelings for a girl that 142 00:09:57,960 --> 00:10:01,040 Speaker 1: is Polly she was in an open relationship, but she 143 00:10:01,200 --> 00:10:03,800 Speaker 1: ended it a couple months ago. That's when she started 144 00:10:03,880 --> 00:10:07,600 Speaker 1: dating me. She told me from the beginning that she 145 00:10:07,840 --> 00:10:11,640 Speaker 1: is Polly, but I was really drunk and I didn't 146 00:10:11,640 --> 00:10:14,320 Speaker 1: think much of it. We've been dating for three to 147 00:10:14,400 --> 00:10:16,880 Speaker 1: four months. I chose to take a break from her 148 00:10:17,000 --> 00:10:20,480 Speaker 1: because I was getting really overwhelmed and insecure. She says 149 00:10:20,480 --> 00:10:23,760 Speaker 1: she has strong feelings for me too, but I've began 150 00:10:23,920 --> 00:10:28,040 Speaker 1: to develop trust issues. I start therapy tomorrow because of 151 00:10:28,080 --> 00:10:30,680 Speaker 1: this and other things. There's more to the story, but 152 00:10:30,720 --> 00:10:33,440 Speaker 1: I'm trying to keep it short. What are your thoughts 153 00:10:33,520 --> 00:10:38,840 Speaker 1: on this and what I should do? Best regards Ben, ps, 154 00:10:38,920 --> 00:10:46,480 Speaker 1: don't use my real name. Just say Ben please? All right? Well, okay, 155 00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:49,560 Speaker 1: from now on, if you want me to use your 156 00:10:49,600 --> 00:10:51,920 Speaker 1: real to not use your real name, email me from 157 00:10:51,920 --> 00:10:55,760 Speaker 1: an account that is that doesn't have your real name 158 00:10:56,040 --> 00:10:58,839 Speaker 1: in it, or say it, or say to use a 159 00:10:58,880 --> 00:11:01,360 Speaker 1: fake name in the beginning of the email and not 160 00:11:01,559 --> 00:11:03,200 Speaker 1: in the end of the email. Because if you say, 161 00:11:03,240 --> 00:11:10,959 Speaker 1: if you don't, all right, what should you do? Well? Ah, 162 00:11:11,360 --> 00:11:15,080 Speaker 1: here's the thing is, if you this girl being Polly, 163 00:11:15,200 --> 00:11:18,640 Speaker 1: this seems to be a this seems to be a 164 00:11:18,880 --> 00:11:24,439 Speaker 1: fundamental thing about the way that this girl views her 165 00:11:24,480 --> 00:11:29,760 Speaker 1: relationships and wants to live. And I chose to take 166 00:11:29,760 --> 00:11:35,960 Speaker 1: a break of because because being really insecure, are you well, 167 00:11:36,000 --> 00:11:38,080 Speaker 1: I mean, what's your feelings about Polly? Because you don't 168 00:11:38,320 --> 00:11:42,200 Speaker 1: I think the idea of you forcing yourself into a 169 00:11:42,240 --> 00:11:49,720 Speaker 1: polyamorous relationship just because you like this girl, I don't 170 00:11:50,480 --> 00:11:53,520 Speaker 1: know if I I don't know if that's a good idea, 171 00:11:54,120 --> 00:12:00,640 Speaker 1: because that's like a very fundamental value that is off 172 00:12:00,640 --> 00:12:04,120 Speaker 1: between you two. We've been doating for three or four months, 173 00:12:04,120 --> 00:12:07,120 Speaker 1: so I'm curious what those three four months have been like. 174 00:12:08,400 --> 00:12:14,280 Speaker 1: So I would say, what should you do? Oh, well, 175 00:12:14,320 --> 00:12:16,199 Speaker 1: you can't ask her to not Here's the thing. I 176 00:12:16,200 --> 00:12:19,520 Speaker 1: don't think you could ask her to be monogamous with you, 177 00:12:20,080 --> 00:12:22,280 Speaker 1: And I don't think you could ask yourself to be 178 00:12:22,360 --> 00:12:28,920 Speaker 1: polyamorous with her. If you really really wanted to, you 179 00:12:29,080 --> 00:12:33,280 Speaker 1: could start dating other girls and see how you feel. 180 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:36,920 Speaker 1: But I did, You're not. I'm not even getting a 181 00:12:37,000 --> 00:12:42,679 Speaker 1: sense that you want to do that. So that that's 182 00:12:42,720 --> 00:12:44,920 Speaker 1: all I would say is that you can't just in 183 00:12:45,120 --> 00:12:46,480 Speaker 1: just in the way that I would say that you 184 00:12:46,520 --> 00:12:49,880 Speaker 1: can't force this girl to be monogamous you can't force 185 00:12:49,920 --> 00:12:57,120 Speaker 1: yourself to be polyamorous. And uh and next time, if 186 00:12:57,160 --> 00:12:58,960 Speaker 1: you have a fake dame, put it in the top 187 00:12:59,000 --> 00:13:01,000 Speaker 1: of the email, not the front. What's the chat think? 188 00:13:01,120 --> 00:13:04,040 Speaker 1: Let's see someone in this Someone in the chat says 189 00:13:04,440 --> 00:13:08,000 Speaker 1: I had this exact scenario. I accepted it to begin with, 190 00:13:08,160 --> 00:13:10,040 Speaker 1: but it was the worst few months of my life. 191 00:13:10,679 --> 00:13:12,960 Speaker 1: We ended it eventually, and it was the best decision 192 00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:17,320 Speaker 1: I made to split up. Well, there we go. Someone said, 193 00:13:17,320 --> 00:13:22,960 Speaker 1: what's a polly? All right, let's see here. This is 194 00:13:23,040 --> 00:13:28,280 Speaker 1: from Georgia. Subject line is roller coasters. Hi, Gek, I 195 00:13:28,280 --> 00:13:30,680 Speaker 1: met you in Manchester last year and we had a 196 00:13:30,679 --> 00:13:33,640 Speaker 1: great talk about roller coasters. Thank you for taking the 197 00:13:33,679 --> 00:13:36,640 Speaker 1: time to indulge me. I wanted to share that I 198 00:13:36,679 --> 00:13:40,480 Speaker 1: finally reached my dream of being a roller coaster engineer 199 00:13:40,800 --> 00:13:44,720 Speaker 1: and I design new ride systems. Now that's awesome. I'm 200 00:13:44,720 --> 00:13:47,600 Speaker 1: not gonna lie. I've never experienced a greater existential crisis 201 00:13:47,600 --> 00:13:49,400 Speaker 1: because I no longer have a goal to strive for 202 00:13:49,520 --> 00:13:52,320 Speaker 1: that powers me through the burdens of life. I only 203 00:13:52,360 --> 00:13:54,719 Speaker 1: ever dreamed of getting the job, but I never thought 204 00:13:54,760 --> 00:13:56,760 Speaker 1: about after because I really didn't think I would get 205 00:13:56,760 --> 00:13:59,360 Speaker 1: this far. My job is fucking cool. Though, What do 206 00:13:59,400 --> 00:14:04,559 Speaker 1: I do to find purpose? Again? Thanks Georgia, this is 207 00:14:04,600 --> 00:14:08,840 Speaker 1: a fascinating query. First of all, congrats on becoming a 208 00:14:08,880 --> 00:14:12,640 Speaker 1: real life roller coaster tycoon. That's awesome. This is something 209 00:14:12,720 --> 00:14:18,600 Speaker 1: I'm struggling with myself. I mean, I have other goals. 210 00:14:18,640 --> 00:14:21,320 Speaker 1: My goal now is to get jacked, which I don't 211 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:24,640 Speaker 1: actually like talking about on the podcast because I think 212 00:14:24,640 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 1: you get a little hitted. You're a little hitted dopamine 213 00:14:27,400 --> 00:14:29,760 Speaker 1: or whatever every time you tell someone your goals, and 214 00:14:29,800 --> 00:14:31,400 Speaker 1: then that kind of makes you want to do them less. 215 00:14:31,480 --> 00:14:34,600 Speaker 1: But whatever, I'm getting jack, it's happening anyway. Enough about me, 216 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:39,400 Speaker 1: What do I do to find purpose? Again? Well, well, 217 00:14:39,440 --> 00:14:44,560 Speaker 1: don't don't you find purpose in doing the job? Do 218 00:14:44,600 --> 00:14:48,680 Speaker 1: you not have a roller coaster that you've been dreaming 219 00:14:48,760 --> 00:14:53,080 Speaker 1: up in your brain that you want to do? Can 220 00:14:53,120 --> 00:14:56,880 Speaker 1: you not? Like? Are you like I want to make 221 00:14:56,920 --> 00:15:01,600 Speaker 1: a triple loop, de loop or dupe and eventually get there? 222 00:15:02,120 --> 00:15:04,960 Speaker 1: What's a roller coaster tycoon's career path look like? Oh, 223 00:15:05,000 --> 00:15:09,640 Speaker 1: but you open up your own roller coaster, a kid 224 00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:12,520 Speaker 1: dies on one of your things, and you go bankrupt. 225 00:15:13,400 --> 00:15:16,000 Speaker 1: That could be you. You could have something. I'm just 226 00:15:16,040 --> 00:15:19,320 Speaker 1: saying you will have more events happen in your life. 227 00:15:19,480 --> 00:15:22,120 Speaker 1: You know, what do I do to find purpose? Again? 228 00:15:22,600 --> 00:15:29,800 Speaker 1: Do you have any friends? Friends provide purpose? Uh? Yeah, 229 00:15:30,040 --> 00:15:33,280 Speaker 1: I guess I would say. I guess I would say 230 00:15:33,280 --> 00:15:40,200 Speaker 1: that you can get into Ferris Wheels. Maybe why don't 231 00:15:40,200 --> 00:15:44,560 Speaker 1: you you design new rises? And now doesn't? Okay, So 232 00:15:44,720 --> 00:15:46,480 Speaker 1: here's what I here's the thing as a roller coaster 233 00:15:46,520 --> 00:15:52,000 Speaker 1: engineer and you're constantly making new roller coasters. Isn't each 234 00:15:52,120 --> 00:15:55,400 Speaker 1: roller coaster in and of itself a goal? Isn't each 235 00:15:55,520 --> 00:16:04,840 Speaker 1: project present itself with a goal? Because the purpose it's 236 00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:07,400 Speaker 1: like it's like when you get like like when comedians 237 00:16:07,960 --> 00:16:13,160 Speaker 1: get Saturday Night Live, right, and like getting Saturday Night Live. 238 00:16:13,320 --> 00:16:18,080 Speaker 1: Getting the roller coaster engineer job wasn't the hard part. 239 00:16:18,160 --> 00:16:20,040 Speaker 1: The hard part is now that you're in the role, 240 00:16:20,480 --> 00:16:22,720 Speaker 1: how are you You gotta get your sketches on the air? 241 00:16:22,760 --> 00:16:25,920 Speaker 1: You got your roller coasters in Disneyland or however the 242 00:16:25,960 --> 00:16:28,920 Speaker 1: fuck that works? And so why don't you just focus 243 00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:32,800 Speaker 1: on thriving within the job Once you don't. I don't 244 00:16:32,800 --> 00:16:35,880 Speaker 1: know how old you are, but once you see what 245 00:16:35,920 --> 00:16:38,560 Speaker 1: other ever, you know the people you work with who 246 00:16:38,560 --> 00:16:40,280 Speaker 1: are in their fifties or whatever. What are they doing? 247 00:16:41,000 --> 00:16:44,160 Speaker 1: Can you ascribe to that? And then you just keep 248 00:16:44,880 --> 00:16:51,640 Speaker 1: ascribing to new heights and purposes and achieving goals and 249 00:16:51,680 --> 00:16:56,600 Speaker 1: then you die and it's great. That was really sad. 250 00:16:58,200 --> 00:17:00,680 Speaker 1: I've I think I've been feeling excess essential lately, and 251 00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:04,159 Speaker 1: it's bleeding into everything that I do. I'm really trying 252 00:17:04,160 --> 00:17:06,760 Speaker 1: to find, you know, Georgia, I'm trying to find purpose again. 253 00:17:08,600 --> 00:17:12,000 Speaker 1: It's depressing. I'm like, see, I'm like talking to people, 254 00:17:12,359 --> 00:17:14,240 Speaker 1: not on the show, but just in real life, Like 255 00:17:17,840 --> 00:17:20,760 Speaker 1: I I I'll talk to someone. I think I told, 256 00:17:20,760 --> 00:17:22,280 Speaker 1: I think I did I tell. I think I told 257 00:17:22,280 --> 00:17:24,439 Speaker 1: the story already of how I was going to ride 258 00:17:24,480 --> 00:17:26,679 Speaker 1: a roller coaster, and then I didn't because I was like, oh, 259 00:17:26,720 --> 00:17:28,560 Speaker 1: it's just gonna be over. That's that happens, not with 260 00:17:28,640 --> 00:17:31,400 Speaker 1: people now. Like I'll be at a bar and I'm 261 00:17:31,440 --> 00:17:36,000 Speaker 1: talking to someone and I'll be like, I don't why 262 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:41,879 Speaker 1: am I talking to you right now? It's it's it's exhausting, 263 00:17:42,920 --> 00:17:46,800 Speaker 1: and I don't know if I'm never going to see 264 00:17:46,800 --> 00:17:50,760 Speaker 1: you again. Don't don't let don't let any of this 265 00:17:50,840 --> 00:17:53,800 Speaker 1: happen to you, Georgia, Georgia, you know what Georgia, Please, 266 00:17:53,840 --> 00:17:58,800 Speaker 1: dear God, you're don't don't let don't let yourself become 267 00:17:58,880 --> 00:18:07,160 Speaker 1: existential and crazy. Find joy in the little things. Move 268 00:18:07,200 --> 00:18:12,520 Speaker 1: on to Ferris Wheels. Ferris Wheels are good too. What's 269 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:17,520 Speaker 1: the chat say? Someone said, that's just your midlife crisis 270 00:18:17,560 --> 00:18:21,280 Speaker 1: talking GHEK. Well, I'm about I'm twenty seven, so hopefully 271 00:18:21,359 --> 00:18:26,000 Speaker 1: I don't die at the age of fifty two. I 272 00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:34,720 Speaker 1: think that math sounds right. Someone said, yeah, a bunch 273 00:18:34,720 --> 00:18:37,280 Speaker 1: of people are saying, that's just depression. Is that depression? 274 00:18:41,560 --> 00:18:47,320 Speaker 1: Oh shit? All right, maybe I'm depressed. All right, Well, okay, 275 00:18:47,440 --> 00:18:55,800 Speaker 1: well that's fine. All right. This is from Tucker. Subject line, Lyle, 276 00:18:55,880 --> 00:19:00,440 Speaker 1: I need your sage wisdom. Tucker says, Lyle, you're such 277 00:19:00,440 --> 00:19:03,560 Speaker 1: a model of men's health. Are there any tips you 278 00:19:03,560 --> 00:19:07,159 Speaker 1: can share for losing weight? I think listening to you 279 00:19:07,200 --> 00:19:09,000 Speaker 1: has made me a better person. Thank you for being you. 280 00:19:09,080 --> 00:19:12,560 Speaker 1: I truly hope, I hope you are truly being you. 281 00:19:14,280 --> 00:19:18,800 Speaker 1: Thank you Tucker for asking me how to lose weight, 282 00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:23,960 Speaker 1: even though I am probably about forty pounds overweight, but 283 00:19:24,040 --> 00:19:27,000 Speaker 1: I'm trying. I'm actually act genuinely I'm yeah, fuck it, 284 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:29,000 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna I said, I was gonna talk about 285 00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:33,040 Speaker 1: it on the top ry the thing now. So so 286 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:35,680 Speaker 1: I've been doing the Gecko for like four and a 287 00:19:35,680 --> 00:19:38,160 Speaker 1: half years, and for those four and a half years, 288 00:19:38,240 --> 00:19:40,680 Speaker 1: I really I was looking at a picture of myself 289 00:19:40,720 --> 00:19:43,080 Speaker 1: when I first started, and I was really skinny. And 290 00:19:44,119 --> 00:19:45,399 Speaker 1: over the four and a half years that I was 291 00:19:45,400 --> 00:19:50,800 Speaker 1: doing Gecko, nothing in my life mattered to me other 292 00:19:50,960 --> 00:19:55,439 Speaker 1: than being a gecko on the internet, you know, trying 293 00:19:55,440 --> 00:20:00,560 Speaker 1: to be Internet famous, trying to you know, get people 294 00:20:00,600 --> 00:20:03,080 Speaker 1: to listen to my show, you know, making sure I 295 00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:07,320 Speaker 1: upload three clips a week, streaming and clipping and and 296 00:20:07,320 --> 00:20:10,439 Speaker 1: and selling tickets to my tour, and doing my tour, 297 00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:15,040 Speaker 1: and and and traveling all around and and and embracing 298 00:20:15,080 --> 00:20:17,639 Speaker 1: a life of novelty and this and that and the 299 00:20:17,680 --> 00:20:21,480 Speaker 1: other thing, and just every everything career wise and novelty 300 00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:26,440 Speaker 1: wise mattered to me, and uh way more than my health. 301 00:20:26,480 --> 00:20:28,879 Speaker 1: And as a result, they gained like fifty pounds something 302 00:20:28,880 --> 00:20:35,280 Speaker 1: crazy like that. And now that I've gotten to a 303 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:38,919 Speaker 1: point with this show where I'm like, if the amount 304 00:20:38,960 --> 00:20:41,040 Speaker 1: of people that currently listen to this is the same 305 00:20:41,040 --> 00:20:43,120 Speaker 1: amount of people that currently listen to it for as 306 00:20:43,160 --> 00:20:49,440 Speaker 1: long as it exists. I'm so happy about that. And 307 00:20:50,960 --> 00:20:55,200 Speaker 1: I have successfully completed two and a half tours around 308 00:20:55,200 --> 00:21:02,600 Speaker 1: the world. And so my my draw for more and 309 00:21:02,640 --> 00:21:05,320 Speaker 1: more and more and more and more of that is 310 00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:11,200 Speaker 1: a dissipating and now my drive is like fucking the 311 00:21:12,000 --> 00:21:15,520 Speaker 1: counting calories and going to the gym and all that stuff, 312 00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:18,840 Speaker 1: and like that's what I really care about the most 313 00:21:18,920 --> 00:21:23,520 Speaker 1: right now is doing that stuff. And I mean tips 314 00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:27,639 Speaker 1: for losing weight. I don't know. I'm like, I'm fasting 315 00:21:28,880 --> 00:21:32,520 Speaker 1: and exercising. That's it. That's all you do is you'd 316 00:21:32,560 --> 00:21:37,400 Speaker 1: eat less and you go to the gym and hopefully 317 00:21:37,520 --> 00:21:42,320 Speaker 1: it makes you better. But I guess caring any tips 318 00:21:42,400 --> 00:21:45,600 Speaker 1: you can share for losing weight giving caring, the only 319 00:21:45,640 --> 00:21:48,879 Speaker 1: time I ever lost weight is when I cared about 320 00:21:49,000 --> 00:21:55,680 Speaker 1: losing weight. All the other times, well, you know, that's 321 00:21:55,720 --> 00:21:58,480 Speaker 1: the tip on how to do anything. You can apply 322 00:21:58,520 --> 00:22:01,760 Speaker 1: that to anything. Anything that you you actually genuinely care 323 00:22:01,840 --> 00:22:05,119 Speaker 1: about doing, you'll do. And then the stuff that you don't, 324 00:22:05,400 --> 00:22:08,640 Speaker 1: the stuff that you don't really care about and you're 325 00:22:08,760 --> 00:22:13,040 Speaker 1: subconscious will tell you what you actually care about. You 326 00:22:13,080 --> 00:22:18,199 Speaker 1: can consciously pretend like you care about certain things, but 327 00:22:18,560 --> 00:22:22,480 Speaker 1: your actions throughout your life will tell you what you 328 00:22:22,520 --> 00:22:25,320 Speaker 1: actually care about, and so just I don't know, and 329 00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:26,919 Speaker 1: pay attention to what you care about. And if you 330 00:22:26,920 --> 00:22:33,000 Speaker 1: give a shit about losing weight, then you know, eat 331 00:22:33,119 --> 00:22:37,120 Speaker 1: less and move more and then you'll lose weight. I'll 332 00:22:37,160 --> 00:22:43,160 Speaker 1: let you know if it works for me. So one said, 333 00:22:43,160 --> 00:22:46,160 Speaker 1: I've lost thirty months. I've lost thirty pounds in three 334 00:22:46,240 --> 00:22:49,560 Speaker 1: months and I eat tons and tons of low calorie foods. 335 00:22:49,720 --> 00:22:53,320 Speaker 1: Is thirty pounds in three month? Three months? Is that healthy? 336 00:22:53,440 --> 00:23:00,679 Speaker 1: I don't know. This is not the This is not 337 00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:05,240 Speaker 1: the what's the name of that go to? That guy's name? 338 00:23:08,920 --> 00:23:13,720 Speaker 1: Andrew Huberman is not the Andrew Human podcast. But I 339 00:23:13,760 --> 00:23:20,920 Speaker 1: don't know anyway, Okay, uh okay, please, okay. This person 340 00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:26,080 Speaker 1: wrote don't name me? All right, I'm gonna call you. You 341 00:23:25,200 --> 00:23:27,320 Speaker 1: know what. Here's what bothers me, though, is that some 342 00:23:27,359 --> 00:23:30,239 Speaker 1: of these people like I'll get a fucking email from 343 00:23:30,280 --> 00:23:33,320 Speaker 1: a guy named Brian and he's like, please don't name me, 344 00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:35,399 Speaker 1: And I'm like, you, you know, how many Brian How 345 00:23:35,400 --> 00:23:37,960 Speaker 1: many Brian's are I'm gonna google this right now. How 346 00:23:37,960 --> 00:23:52,919 Speaker 1: many people named Brian Brian are alive in the world? Okay? 347 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:56,080 Speaker 1: Wick up? Google says there's not much information about how 348 00:23:56,080 --> 00:23:57,880 Speaker 1: many people named Brian are alive in the world. Okay, 349 00:23:57,880 --> 00:23:59,040 Speaker 1: all right, anyway, I was trying to make a point. 350 00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:02,200 Speaker 1: Who cares, I'm gonna read this guy, Okay, high gek. 351 00:24:03,480 --> 00:24:06,399 Speaker 1: I've been thinking about a moral dilemma I experienced a 352 00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:09,080 Speaker 1: couple of years ago. I work a job that sometimes 353 00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:15,720 Speaker 1: involves animals, birds, lizards, bees, and sometimes rabbits. I save 354 00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:18,160 Speaker 1: them whenever I can, but most of the time they're 355 00:24:18,160 --> 00:24:22,480 Speaker 1: dead before I arrive. I have saved one pigeon and 356 00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:26,280 Speaker 1: close to one hundred bees and a couple of lizards. 357 00:24:26,880 --> 00:24:30,280 Speaker 1: One day, I found a pigeon in shock, bleeding with 358 00:24:30,320 --> 00:24:33,119 Speaker 1: a broken wing. I wasn't sure what to do. I 359 00:24:33,200 --> 00:24:38,119 Speaker 1: googled what happens to birds with broken wings or birds 360 00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:40,440 Speaker 1: in shock, and I read that they almost always die. 361 00:24:40,840 --> 00:24:43,600 Speaker 1: I didn't think an animal sanctuary would take a pigeon, 362 00:24:43,640 --> 00:24:46,200 Speaker 1: as most people consider pigeons to be rats of the sky. 363 00:24:46,640 --> 00:24:48,439 Speaker 1: I wanted to put it out of its misery, but 364 00:24:48,480 --> 00:24:49,960 Speaker 1: I didn't have a lot to work with, and I 365 00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:53,119 Speaker 1: couldn't leave it in the customer's backyard. I ended up 366 00:24:53,160 --> 00:24:56,879 Speaker 1: taking a brick from the bed of my truck and 367 00:24:57,000 --> 00:25:02,280 Speaker 1: dropping it on the pigeon's head. It broke its neck immediately, 368 00:25:02,359 --> 00:25:04,680 Speaker 1: and the bird seemed to have one second of pain 369 00:25:04,800 --> 00:25:08,159 Speaker 1: as it freaked out, but then went limp. I genuinely 370 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:11,040 Speaker 1: feel terrible, but I thought a bird with a broken 371 00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:13,560 Speaker 1: wing and in shocks should probably be put down. What 372 00:25:13,560 --> 00:25:15,480 Speaker 1: would you have done in my situation? Am I a 373 00:25:15,480 --> 00:25:20,679 Speaker 1: bad person? Cheers? Wow? Well, I don't think you're a 374 00:25:20,720 --> 00:25:24,720 Speaker 1: bad person, Brian, because you're correct that most people consider 375 00:25:24,800 --> 00:25:28,600 Speaker 1: pigeons they're acts of the sky. And I live in 376 00:25:28,640 --> 00:25:31,880 Speaker 1: New York, and if a pigeon with a broken wing 377 00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:36,800 Speaker 1: was writhing on the side of a sidewalk, hundreds and one, 378 00:25:36,840 --> 00:25:42,440 Speaker 1: hundreds and hundreds and truly hundreds of people would walk by, 379 00:25:43,520 --> 00:25:48,239 Speaker 1: not even noticing that pigeon. So you're at least a 380 00:25:48,240 --> 00:25:56,760 Speaker 1: better person than all of those theoretical people. Shit, man, 381 00:25:57,760 --> 00:26:00,080 Speaker 1: I don't know a bit. That's a tough situation for 382 00:26:00,119 --> 00:26:02,879 Speaker 1: you to be in. That's a tough situation for you 383 00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:05,040 Speaker 1: to be in, because what were your other right what 384 00:26:05,080 --> 00:26:08,520 Speaker 1: were your other options? It's like an animal sanctuary. You're right, 385 00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:12,879 Speaker 1: is probably not gonna take a pigeon. You could have 386 00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:15,040 Speaker 1: just walked away, But then the pigeon would have just 387 00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:18,520 Speaker 1: suffered and died. Uh, you don't. I don't assume you 388 00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:24,960 Speaker 1: know how to do surgery on a pigeon. It's probably true. 389 00:26:25,200 --> 00:26:27,520 Speaker 1: I'm gonna you know, let me google this. What happens 390 00:26:27,560 --> 00:26:34,200 Speaker 1: to birds with broken wings or birds in shock. Let's 391 00:26:34,240 --> 00:26:39,480 Speaker 1: see here. Birds go into shock very easily when injured 392 00:26:39,480 --> 00:26:47,160 Speaker 1: and often die from shock. Yeah, yeah that, yeah, yeah, 393 00:26:47,160 --> 00:26:49,280 Speaker 1: I know. I'm googling this too. That bird, that bird 394 00:26:49,359 --> 00:26:58,040 Speaker 1: was fucked. That bird was very fucked. Yeah, that bird 395 00:26:58,080 --> 00:27:01,000 Speaker 1: was gonna die if you walked away, and uh, there 396 00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:05,480 Speaker 1: was no real way to do anything. So yeah, you 397 00:27:05,520 --> 00:27:09,399 Speaker 1: put that you you had to be the executioner. I 398 00:27:09,440 --> 00:27:12,359 Speaker 1: don't know why our Lord put you in that situation 399 00:27:13,119 --> 00:27:16,560 Speaker 1: where you had to put down that bird, But I 400 00:27:16,600 --> 00:27:19,960 Speaker 1: don't know if I can. I even think the fact 401 00:27:19,960 --> 00:27:22,720 Speaker 1: that you care this much does not make you a 402 00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:25,400 Speaker 1: bad part. The fact that you care this much about 403 00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:27,119 Speaker 1: whether or not you're a bad person for putting this 404 00:27:27,160 --> 00:27:29,280 Speaker 1: pigeon out of your misery makes me believe that you 405 00:27:29,280 --> 00:27:32,359 Speaker 1: were not a bad person. Brian, I forget if your 406 00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:35,159 Speaker 1: name was Brian, but also just the fact that you 407 00:27:35,200 --> 00:27:38,639 Speaker 1: were I don't know why. I'm the fact that you 408 00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:43,600 Speaker 1: were like in all caps. At the beginning of this email, 409 00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:46,440 Speaker 1: you wrote, don't name me as if you're get You're 410 00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:48,160 Speaker 1: not going to go to prison. I'll tell you that much. 411 00:27:48,960 --> 00:27:51,639 Speaker 1: You could have you could have killed. You could have 412 00:27:51,800 --> 00:27:56,200 Speaker 1: on purpose killed hundreds and hundreds of pigeons and you. 413 00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:59,439 Speaker 1: I don't know how do animal abuse laws work in 414 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:02,639 Speaker 1: this country. There's gotta be like I think, if you 415 00:28:02,720 --> 00:28:05,000 Speaker 1: just kill a random pigeon, you're I don't think you 416 00:28:05,040 --> 00:28:07,040 Speaker 1: can go to jail or anything bad's gonna happen to you. 417 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:09,960 Speaker 1: But it's gotta be a number. How many pigeons do 418 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:11,959 Speaker 1: you have to go out of your way to kill 419 00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:18,520 Speaker 1: before they at least tell you to stop. You're not 420 00:28:18,520 --> 00:28:21,320 Speaker 1: gonna go to prison for putting this pigeon out of 421 00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:25,640 Speaker 1: your misery. Let yourself go to sleep tonight. Brian, you're 422 00:28:25,680 --> 00:28:33,960 Speaker 1: a fine bloke. Let's see here. Okay, this is from John. 423 00:28:35,320 --> 00:28:38,960 Speaker 1: Subject line is am I ruining my life for good? 424 00:28:39,520 --> 00:28:45,480 Speaker 1: Or making it significantly better? What's up? Lyle euro fan? Here? 425 00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:48,760 Speaker 1: My name is John. It's not my real name. You 426 00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:50,320 Speaker 1: can just call me any way you want. I'm gonna 427 00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:52,480 Speaker 1: call you John. I'm twenty eight and I am in 428 00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:55,680 Speaker 1: a curious situation. I've been studying to become a high 429 00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:59,160 Speaker 1: school teacher for the past six years, past everything with a's, 430 00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:03,040 Speaker 1: and now I'm to take the national examination to work 431 00:29:03,080 --> 00:29:06,800 Speaker 1: in public schools. The thing is, the exam is extremely 432 00:29:06,840 --> 00:29:10,720 Speaker 1: difficult and it normally takes three to five years to pass, 433 00:29:11,200 --> 00:29:13,320 Speaker 1: and me being broke, I had to move back in 434 00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:16,600 Speaker 1: with my parents. They have several issues and treat me 435 00:29:17,080 --> 00:29:20,480 Speaker 1: really bad. I have to do all the chores and 436 00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:24,480 Speaker 1: take care of everything while I am being verbally abused. 437 00:29:25,000 --> 00:29:28,640 Speaker 1: I feel unable to prepare for the exams in this 438 00:29:28,840 --> 00:29:31,040 Speaker 1: environment and this is hat a deep impact on my 439 00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:35,360 Speaker 1: physical and mental health. So wanting to get out, I 440 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:39,560 Speaker 1: discovered I could take a similar examination, but way easier 441 00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:44,840 Speaker 1: doable in one year to become a train dispatcher, sell 442 00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:48,320 Speaker 1: train tickets or even become a postal worker. Do I 443 00:29:48,440 --> 00:29:51,719 Speaker 1: like those jobs now particularly? But I like that they 444 00:29:51,760 --> 00:29:54,400 Speaker 1: give me the opportunity to break away from this toxicity, 445 00:29:54,440 --> 00:29:56,200 Speaker 1: and I feel like I deserve it. What do you 446 00:29:56,240 --> 00:29:58,080 Speaker 1: guys think? Is it worth it to give up on 447 00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:00,440 Speaker 1: your professional career and abandon your family only just for 448 00:30:00,440 --> 00:30:04,840 Speaker 1: an easy fix. Note that the teachers get paid really well. 449 00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:06,880 Speaker 1: Out here, and any of the jobs I mentioned are 450 00:30:06,920 --> 00:30:13,320 Speaker 1: full time for life jobs. This feels like a lifetime choice. 451 00:30:13,360 --> 00:30:15,360 Speaker 1: I am a bit stubborn and don't usually follow advice, 452 00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:23,320 Speaker 1: so don't feel pressured. Okay, I like that. Hmm, Okay, 453 00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:26,160 Speaker 1: hold on, Okay, here's the thing, John, You're coming to 454 00:30:26,240 --> 00:30:30,880 Speaker 1: a lot of conclusions that I don't necessarily understand. There's 455 00:30:30,880 --> 00:30:32,680 Speaker 1: a lot of conclusions that you are making in this 456 00:30:32,800 --> 00:30:37,200 Speaker 1: email that I don't understand. So it seems as though 457 00:30:37,400 --> 00:30:41,280 Speaker 1: your don you want to become a high school teacher 458 00:30:42,760 --> 00:30:47,440 Speaker 1: and you got to pass this exam. But you're like, okay, 459 00:30:47,600 --> 00:30:49,800 Speaker 1: the path to me. Okay, So you're like, all right, 460 00:30:49,880 --> 00:30:51,400 Speaker 1: let me. Let me lay out John's life and all 461 00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:54,600 Speaker 1: the variables of it. John needs a job so he 462 00:30:54,640 --> 00:30:56,800 Speaker 1: can make money so he can get out of his parents' 463 00:30:56,840 --> 00:31:03,240 Speaker 1: house because his parents are crazy. And John is gunning 464 00:31:03,680 --> 00:31:06,239 Speaker 1: for this job that he really wants. But if in 465 00:31:06,320 --> 00:31:08,280 Speaker 1: order to get this job, he's got to stay for 466 00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:13,160 Speaker 1: longer in his parents' apartment or whatever, and he could 467 00:31:13,160 --> 00:31:18,840 Speaker 1: get a job quicker, leave your parents' house quicker, but 468 00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:21,760 Speaker 1: it's not the job he wants. But John, I don't understand. 469 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:24,240 Speaker 1: Here's what I understand. Why don't you just if you 470 00:31:24,320 --> 00:31:27,080 Speaker 1: really are like, okay, I'll just take anything just to 471 00:31:27,080 --> 00:31:29,920 Speaker 1: be able to get out of my parents' house. Why 472 00:31:29,960 --> 00:31:33,960 Speaker 1: don't you fucking do the postal working job or the 473 00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:38,320 Speaker 1: train dispatch a job and then on the side study 474 00:31:38,400 --> 00:31:43,120 Speaker 1: for your exam? Are you not allowed to do that? 475 00:31:43,440 --> 00:31:45,640 Speaker 1: Why does you wrote in the email you wrote, this 476 00:31:45,680 --> 00:31:48,840 Speaker 1: feels like a lifetime choice. Why. Here's That's the part 477 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:51,480 Speaker 1: I don't understand is why you feel like this is 478 00:31:51,520 --> 00:31:54,760 Speaker 1: a long term choice because you're twenty eight. You could 479 00:31:54,800 --> 00:32:00,719 Speaker 1: go work as the trained professor for two years and 480 00:32:00,840 --> 00:32:06,520 Speaker 1: meanwhile study for the exam. So I the thing that 481 00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:09,520 Speaker 1: I am getting from this email that's standing out to 482 00:32:09,560 --> 00:32:11,640 Speaker 1: me is I don't understand why this is a lifetime 483 00:32:12,640 --> 00:32:15,920 Speaker 1: choice for you. And you say you're stubborn and you 484 00:32:15,960 --> 00:32:20,640 Speaker 1: don't follow advice, So the is this being a lifetime 485 00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:29,400 Speaker 1: choice because of your stubbornness? Somebody that Chad said stick 486 00:32:29,440 --> 00:32:40,640 Speaker 1: it out? Why don't you just yeah, it's okay. Why 487 00:32:40,640 --> 00:32:42,600 Speaker 1: don't you just get a job that will pay you 488 00:32:42,720 --> 00:32:44,480 Speaker 1: enough that you can get out of your fucking parents' 489 00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:48,280 Speaker 1: house because you clearly hate that, and then study to 490 00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:52,920 Speaker 1: be a teacher. On the side. You're a euro you 491 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:55,479 Speaker 1: said you're a European fan. Where in Europe are you? 492 00:32:55,520 --> 00:32:59,800 Speaker 1: I'm curious because public's working as a public school high 493 00:32:59,800 --> 00:33:07,240 Speaker 1: scho teacher is from all accounts, horrible. That's what people say. 494 00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:10,560 Speaker 1: But I wonder if I don't know if it's as horrible. 495 00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:14,640 Speaker 1: Maybe I'm wondering if it's as horrible in Europe. Usually 496 00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:17,600 Speaker 1: in Europe things are just kind of a little better. 497 00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:21,280 Speaker 1: But I don't know. That's why i'd say to you, John, 498 00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:26,120 Speaker 1: is truly, truly, truly pick apart with yourself and examine 499 00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:29,040 Speaker 1: why you've believed this is a lifetime choice and why 500 00:33:29,440 --> 00:33:32,840 Speaker 1: you refuse to view your life as a long term 501 00:33:32,880 --> 00:33:37,440 Speaker 1: thing in which you can. You can do many things. 502 00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:44,040 Speaker 1: Humans are are multifaceted. They can they can drive trains, 503 00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:50,280 Speaker 1: they can teach high school, and they can they can 504 00:33:51,720 --> 00:34:00,040 Speaker 1: eat crackers. Okay, this is from This is from the 505 00:34:00,080 --> 00:34:02,160 Speaker 1: other person doesn't want me to say their name. I'm 506 00:34:02,160 --> 00:34:10,200 Speaker 1: gonna call a I'm gonna call you Jordan. I hate Okay. 507 00:34:10,320 --> 00:34:13,560 Speaker 1: This is from Jordan's subject line is disgruntled pizza manager. 508 00:34:14,719 --> 00:34:16,600 Speaker 1: I hate my job. I want to quit, but I 509 00:34:16,680 --> 00:34:19,560 Speaker 1: can't get away with the shit that I do anywhere else. 510 00:34:20,320 --> 00:34:23,279 Speaker 1: I enjoy drinking at work, but that's only because they 511 00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:26,480 Speaker 1: make me work long hours. I like to smoke dabs 512 00:34:26,560 --> 00:34:29,520 Speaker 1: into the ovens, and the second I clock out, I 513 00:34:29,520 --> 00:34:32,440 Speaker 1: immediately go buy more alcohol. I okay, I need to 514 00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:35,040 Speaker 1: stop drinking. I think I solved my own problem. I've 515 00:34:35,040 --> 00:34:37,439 Speaker 1: been caught drinking at work a few times, but never 516 00:34:37,480 --> 00:34:42,080 Speaker 1: been fired. I left a bottle in the bathroom lmao. Anyways, 517 00:34:42,120 --> 00:34:45,200 Speaker 1: I'm writing this to you drunk at work. I've talked 518 00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:49,200 Speaker 1: to you on the phone about baby trapping. My happy 519 00:34:49,200 --> 00:34:51,960 Speaker 1: and adorable dad has stopped saying I baby trapped him, 520 00:34:52,000 --> 00:35:01,120 Speaker 1: and now he wants another Okay, oh Jordan, Oh no, 521 00:35:02,560 --> 00:35:07,600 Speaker 1: oh man. Alcohol is a crazy thing. I really, Uh. 522 00:35:09,320 --> 00:35:13,960 Speaker 1: Life is so crazy because it's so fucking difficult for 523 00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:18,960 Speaker 1: so many people that were like, let's get really fucked 524 00:35:19,040 --> 00:35:22,680 Speaker 1: up so that we don't have to live in reality. 525 00:35:23,560 --> 00:35:27,839 Speaker 1: And I understand the attractiveness of that. I have indulged 526 00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:35,279 Speaker 1: in in that before. It's nice. Getting really fucked up 527 00:35:35,880 --> 00:35:42,279 Speaker 1: to avoid reality can be nice. But I just I 528 00:35:42,280 --> 00:35:44,120 Speaker 1: don't know, Jordan. I don't know you, but if I 529 00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:48,120 Speaker 1: could say anything to you, I would say that I 530 00:35:48,200 --> 00:35:53,279 Speaker 1: know you cannot possibly understand it right now in your 531 00:35:53,360 --> 00:35:58,719 Speaker 1: brain that is fogged up with stress and depression and 532 00:35:59,000 --> 00:36:03,359 Speaker 1: fucking whatever else, right, whatever it is that you're using 533 00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:07,120 Speaker 1: alcohol to escape from. When your brain is in a 534 00:36:07,200 --> 00:36:14,239 Speaker 1: dense mental fog, it cannot possibly understand or comprehend the 535 00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:21,879 Speaker 1: idea that things can change and get better. And so I, 536 00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:27,000 Speaker 1: just as an outsider observing this situation, I would say 537 00:36:27,040 --> 00:36:33,759 Speaker 1: to you, Jordan, I hope that you start to I 538 00:36:33,800 --> 00:36:41,240 Speaker 1: hope that you start to find it, find yourself worthy 539 00:36:41,280 --> 00:36:43,919 Speaker 1: of a life that you like enough that you don't 540 00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:48,759 Speaker 1: have to get fucked up all the time to avoid. 541 00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:55,920 Speaker 1: I mean, you have a child, and you have another, 542 00:36:56,120 --> 00:37:01,400 Speaker 1: you have a guy who is romantically related to you 543 00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:04,160 Speaker 1: in some way. You have things to live for, things 544 00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,959 Speaker 1: that would be enjoyed better if you weren't getting sucked 545 00:37:07,000 --> 00:37:13,560 Speaker 1: up all the time. So I don't know. I don't 546 00:37:13,560 --> 00:37:15,920 Speaker 1: know what the first step is to doing that, but 547 00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:19,000 Speaker 1: I hope you take it. Maybe go to anaa meeting 548 00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:26,120 Speaker 1: or see a therapist. I wonder about pizza shop you 549 00:37:26,160 --> 00:37:35,680 Speaker 1: work at. I like pizza. Okay, alright, this is from Skurgel, 550 00:37:38,160 --> 00:37:43,720 Speaker 1: subject line beautiful true Love. Hello, I am Skurgelmeyer gees 551 00:37:45,360 --> 00:37:50,759 Speaker 1: some who cares on precisely. February tenth, twenty twenty four, 552 00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:55,480 Speaker 1: at seven pm, I looked at my longtime best friend 553 00:37:55,520 --> 00:38:01,040 Speaker 1: since elementary school leaning against a pillar, and I fell 554 00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:04,200 Speaker 1: madly in love with them and realized I am a 555 00:38:04,320 --> 00:38:08,840 Speaker 1: massive homosexual. It took me eight months of thinking about 556 00:38:08,840 --> 00:38:11,840 Speaker 1: that to tell them those feelings. While I did so 557 00:38:11,960 --> 00:38:15,480 Speaker 1: with the intent of them surely turning me down so 558 00:38:15,520 --> 00:38:19,239 Speaker 1: I could stop constantly thinking about them, they responded by 559 00:38:19,280 --> 00:38:24,279 Speaker 1: informing me that they really, really desperately wanted me to 560 00:38:24,320 --> 00:38:27,960 Speaker 1: be their boyfriend once their life stopped being in a 561 00:38:28,280 --> 00:38:32,880 Speaker 1: massive chaotic uproar. That was two months ago. I constantly 562 00:38:32,920 --> 00:38:35,640 Speaker 1: think about them and my memories with them, what I 563 00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:38,239 Speaker 1: want to do with them, how I miss them, and 564 00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:39,960 Speaker 1: what I might do with them. All right, you don't 565 00:38:40,000 --> 00:38:43,439 Speaker 1: have to get that spicy, but or do I don't care. 566 00:38:44,080 --> 00:38:47,920 Speaker 1: I don't know when I might ever be able to 567 00:38:47,920 --> 00:38:50,839 Speaker 1: be with them. Even when I'm focused on something else, 568 00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:53,200 Speaker 1: I inevitably start thinking about my memories with them again. 569 00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:57,120 Speaker 1: Is it even moral to like a person this much? 570 00:38:57,520 --> 00:39:04,560 Speaker 1: Am I delusional and insane? I go wailing hashtag let 571 00:39:04,600 --> 00:39:10,719 Speaker 1: me know you're not insane. You're not insane. This is 572 00:39:10,719 --> 00:39:15,239 Speaker 1: what happens when you fall in love is you go 573 00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:17,000 Speaker 1: a little insane, You get a little you got you 574 00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:21,640 Speaker 1: go when you when you're just fucking so attracted to 575 00:39:21,680 --> 00:39:26,000 Speaker 1: someone and sew into them, you go delusional and you 576 00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:31,880 Speaker 1: go insane, and you do stupid things and make bad decisions, 577 00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:36,759 Speaker 1: and you try to talk and you try to convince 578 00:39:36,840 --> 00:39:43,360 Speaker 1: yourself that you're actually not delusional and you're not insane, 579 00:39:44,320 --> 00:39:48,160 Speaker 1: but you are. You're not acting in of logic. I think. 580 00:39:48,239 --> 00:39:51,400 Speaker 1: I think I'm no scientist, but I think it's like 581 00:39:51,440 --> 00:39:58,360 Speaker 1: a drug, like infatuation. Right, It's like a drug of 582 00:39:58,400 --> 00:40:02,080 Speaker 1: some kind and causes you to you become an addict 583 00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:07,319 Speaker 1: and then you go insane. Now here's what I don't 584 00:40:07,360 --> 00:40:11,360 Speaker 1: understand is, uh, this person was like, I want you 585 00:40:11,400 --> 00:40:13,520 Speaker 1: to be my boyfriend, but this person is basically like, 586 00:40:13,600 --> 00:40:16,200 Speaker 1: I like you too, I want you to be my boyfriend, 587 00:40:16,480 --> 00:40:20,400 Speaker 1: but my life is a little crazy right now. Right, 588 00:40:21,280 --> 00:40:22,919 Speaker 1: I want you to be my boyfriend, but my life 589 00:40:22,960 --> 00:40:27,520 Speaker 1: is a little crazy right now. And uh, my you 590 00:40:27,640 --> 00:40:31,200 Speaker 1: as my boyfriend, I can't have you be my boyfriend 591 00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:35,640 Speaker 1: while my life is crazy. And so you're gonna sit there, 592 00:40:36,080 --> 00:40:44,080 Speaker 1: and you are going to wait, you know, wait, you 593 00:40:44,120 --> 00:40:46,520 Speaker 1: know wait, and every day you look at your phone 594 00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:48,560 Speaker 1: and you wait for the text, Hey, my life is 595 00:40:48,600 --> 00:40:53,880 Speaker 1: no longer crazy, so come be my boyfriend. But you 596 00:40:53,880 --> 00:40:57,040 Speaker 1: don't know when that's gonna be, Scurgle, You don't know 597 00:40:57,040 --> 00:41:00,759 Speaker 1: when that's gonna be. I got I, I got I 598 00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:02,680 Speaker 1: got I got I got an idea for you, Skurgle. 599 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:10,000 Speaker 1: What if this person's life is crazy forever as all 600 00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:13,440 Speaker 1: of our lives are, what are you gonna do? Skurgle. 601 00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:19,000 Speaker 1: You're gonna sit wait forever. You're gonna be a skeleton 602 00:41:19,160 --> 00:41:25,560 Speaker 1: with a crush. I understand holding out hope, especially when 603 00:41:25,560 --> 00:41:28,879 Speaker 1: this person this person also, it's specially especially when it's like, oh, 604 00:41:28,960 --> 00:41:31,239 Speaker 1: this is a life circumstantial thing. If now, if you 605 00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:32,799 Speaker 1: had told me that this person was like I just 606 00:41:32,840 --> 00:41:35,200 Speaker 1: don't like you, but who knows, maybe I will, then 607 00:41:35,200 --> 00:41:37,480 Speaker 1: I would say it or not that you know, to 608 00:41:37,560 --> 00:41:45,040 Speaker 1: move on. Are you still allowing yourself to be available 609 00:41:45,080 --> 00:41:48,120 Speaker 1: to other people, is my question? Or are you really 610 00:41:48,160 --> 00:41:51,799 Speaker 1: holding out? Are you like saying, are you are you 611 00:41:51,920 --> 00:42:01,200 Speaker 1: not pursuing other romantic endeavors because of this person? Don't 612 00:42:01,200 --> 00:42:05,840 Speaker 1: do that. Sometimes that's the thing takes solace in this 613 00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:09,360 Speaker 1: right sometimes genuine by the way this person. I know 614 00:42:09,440 --> 00:42:11,440 Speaker 1: that some people might be like, oh, this person actually 615 00:42:11,440 --> 00:42:15,080 Speaker 1: doesn't like scruggle their life, just genuinely their they And 616 00:42:15,160 --> 00:42:17,600 Speaker 1: you know, there's the whole concept of like, if they 617 00:42:17,600 --> 00:42:20,799 Speaker 1: wanted to, they would, which I actually like ninety nine 618 00:42:20,840 --> 00:42:23,880 Speaker 1: percent believe that if if someone wanted to that they 619 00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:31,920 Speaker 1: would like this person. When it comes like the imbalance 620 00:42:33,120 --> 00:42:37,160 Speaker 1: that occurs in romantic relationships, I think this person likes you, 621 00:42:38,080 --> 00:42:43,040 Speaker 1: they don't like you enough to uh move their life 622 00:42:43,080 --> 00:42:49,439 Speaker 1: around for you, and you clearly like them enough that 623 00:42:49,480 --> 00:42:53,440 Speaker 1: you would move across the country to be with them. 624 00:42:53,800 --> 00:42:56,359 Speaker 1: And that just happens in these fucking things. Is that 625 00:42:56,440 --> 00:42:58,360 Speaker 1: this is just you're always going to deal with some 626 00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:05,200 Speaker 1: level of inequitable investment in each other. In a beautiful, 627 00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:08,680 Speaker 1: perfect world, two people meet who have exactly the same 628 00:43:08,719 --> 00:43:12,400 Speaker 1: amount of investment in each other and they have a baby, 629 00:43:12,719 --> 00:43:16,279 Speaker 1: and they get married forever and then they die. But 630 00:43:18,480 --> 00:43:22,400 Speaker 1: should you go whaling? Yeah, well no, would you? Why 631 00:43:22,440 --> 00:43:26,360 Speaker 1: did you go whaling? Don't kill a whale. I'm not 632 00:43:26,360 --> 00:43:30,319 Speaker 1: making a joke. I think that's what you meant. Is 633 00:43:30,360 --> 00:43:34,719 Speaker 1: it moral to like a person? This much. That's what 634 00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:44,640 Speaker 1: you said. Yeah, I don't think it's I mean, unless 635 00:43:44,640 --> 00:43:51,920 Speaker 1: if they're a child, I don't think they are. Am 636 00:43:51,920 --> 00:43:56,520 Speaker 1: I delusional and insane? That those are the questions you are? 637 00:43:57,120 --> 00:44:00,200 Speaker 1: I forget what I said earlier. I forget if I 638 00:44:00,239 --> 00:44:02,480 Speaker 1: said that you were or you weren't. But I think 639 00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:04,799 Speaker 1: you are. You are delusional and you are insane. But 640 00:44:04,960 --> 00:44:09,360 Speaker 1: being delusional and insane is a normal is a natural 641 00:44:09,400 --> 00:44:14,120 Speaker 1: human experience. It's a natural response to these feelings. So 642 00:44:17,600 --> 00:44:20,920 Speaker 1: you are delusional and insane, but you're not off course 643 00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:27,840 Speaker 1: of the typical human experience in your delusions and your insanity, 644 00:44:29,040 --> 00:44:32,120 Speaker 1: unless if you are, Unless if this person is not real, 645 00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:36,560 Speaker 1: then that would be abnormal and you should talk to 646 00:44:36,600 --> 00:44:41,000 Speaker 1: a psychiatrist. Okay, I don't know if any of what 647 00:44:41,040 --> 00:44:44,000 Speaker 1: I just said was helpful, but I'm gonna read another 648 00:44:44,040 --> 00:44:50,319 Speaker 1: email unless if the chat has anything to say. Someone said, 649 00:44:50,360 --> 00:44:55,000 Speaker 1: this person is just keeping you on the sidelines kind of. 650 00:44:55,080 --> 00:44:57,719 Speaker 1: Someone said, yeah, that my life is too crazy right 651 00:44:57,719 --> 00:45:00,040 Speaker 1: now thing. I don't buy the here's here's what, but 652 00:45:00,200 --> 00:45:04,160 Speaker 1: my life is too crazy right now? Could mean a 653 00:45:04,280 --> 00:45:06,719 Speaker 1: could just mean that this person doesn't like you. It 654 00:45:06,880 --> 00:45:09,120 Speaker 1: either means this person doesn't like you, or they do 655 00:45:09,280 --> 00:45:11,319 Speaker 1: like you, they just don't like you enough to make 656 00:45:11,360 --> 00:45:22,560 Speaker 1: time for you. Which is a hard pill to swallow, 657 00:45:22,760 --> 00:45:32,520 Speaker 1: but it must be done alrighty as this is from eSeL. 658 00:45:33,320 --> 00:45:40,439 Speaker 1: Subject line is the societal pressure of becoming something. Hey, Lyle, 659 00:45:40,480 --> 00:45:42,720 Speaker 1: I wanted to talk to you about this constant pressure 660 00:45:42,800 --> 00:45:46,600 Speaker 1: I feel to become wildly successful and my internal debate 661 00:45:46,719 --> 00:45:48,719 Speaker 1: over whether this is a feeling I was born with 662 00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:51,880 Speaker 1: or something that was brainwashed into me by the hustle 663 00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:55,120 Speaker 1: culture we find ourselves in. Oh I like this, Okay. 664 00:45:55,440 --> 00:45:58,000 Speaker 1: I am a twenty one year old male from Amsterdam, 665 00:45:58,200 --> 00:46:00,200 Speaker 1: and lately I've been feeling a lot of pressure sure 666 00:46:00,280 --> 00:46:03,400 Speaker 1: to become successful, not just in a hopeful way, but 667 00:46:03,440 --> 00:46:07,400 Speaker 1: also in a stressful way. On the one hand, I 668 00:46:07,480 --> 00:46:10,200 Speaker 1: feel like I have to try because I really do 669 00:46:10,239 --> 00:46:13,200 Speaker 1: want to build something for myself, my family and my 670 00:46:13,280 --> 00:46:15,680 Speaker 1: loved ones. I want to be proud to have built 671 00:46:15,680 --> 00:46:18,279 Speaker 1: something and pat myself on the shoulder and say I 672 00:46:18,360 --> 00:46:21,000 Speaker 1: really built that. On the other hand, I feel like 673 00:46:21,040 --> 00:46:23,280 Speaker 1: this is just something that was printed into my mind. 674 00:46:23,680 --> 00:46:26,640 Speaker 1: I feel like, especially as a young man Andrew tate 675 00:46:26,800 --> 00:46:29,600 Speaker 1: E comm hustlers, etc. You get told that you have 676 00:46:29,680 --> 00:46:32,080 Speaker 1: to become rich. Oh, you will be a forgettable loser 677 00:46:32,200 --> 00:46:37,240 Speaker 1: until you die and vanish into nothingness. Would you say 678 00:46:37,360 --> 00:46:41,360 Speaker 1: these feelings are internally created or externally created? Have you 679 00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:44,319 Speaker 1: experienced this pressures? How do you deal with them? Would 680 00:46:44,360 --> 00:46:46,600 Speaker 1: you say that this has partially influenced you into starting 681 00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:53,520 Speaker 1: your podcast. Have a happy New Year, Best wishes, Salah. Ps. 682 00:46:53,560 --> 00:46:57,040 Speaker 1: English is not my first language, so forget any grammical 683 00:46:57,080 --> 00:46:59,839 Speaker 1: mistakes I have made. Feel free to mention my name 684 00:47:00,200 --> 00:47:03,640 Speaker 1: or not. I don't care this guy's name is. This 685 00:47:03,719 --> 00:47:05,680 Speaker 1: guy has like a unique name, and he's like, I 686 00:47:05,680 --> 00:47:08,520 Speaker 1: don't mention my name. I don't give a fuck. Meanwhile, 687 00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:11,200 Speaker 1: all the John's of the world are like, don't say 688 00:47:11,239 --> 00:47:15,800 Speaker 1: don't say my name anyway? All right? I love this email. 689 00:47:15,800 --> 00:47:19,000 Speaker 1: I really I I feel pressure right now to give 690 00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:20,680 Speaker 1: a good response to this email because I really want to, 691 00:47:20,680 --> 00:47:25,000 Speaker 1: because I totally get where this person is coming from. 692 00:47:25,880 --> 00:47:29,279 Speaker 1: And I actually feel like I have pretty good perspective 693 00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:35,239 Speaker 1: now on this issue because I've been wanting to be 694 00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:40,920 Speaker 1: successful for my whole life. I mean since I started. 695 00:47:41,600 --> 00:47:45,680 Speaker 1: I started making videos and movies and doing comedy and shit. 696 00:47:45,760 --> 00:47:48,920 Speaker 1: When I was like, you know, fucking fifteen, and I 697 00:47:49,040 --> 00:47:53,840 Speaker 1: always wanted to be successful in it. And now you know, 698 00:47:54,200 --> 00:47:59,360 Speaker 1: twelve years later, I've experienced a success in that I 699 00:47:59,400 --> 00:48:01,560 Speaker 1: have this podcast that people listen to and and I 700 00:48:01,600 --> 00:48:05,560 Speaker 1: go on this tour and I know what that So 701 00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:12,080 Speaker 1: I kind of know what material success looks like. And 702 00:48:12,800 --> 00:48:18,640 Speaker 1: I'm still on a journey with it, but I've totally 703 00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:27,120 Speaker 1: began to understand that it is not the It does 704 00:48:27,160 --> 00:48:29,600 Speaker 1: not solve every problem that you maybe think it would solve. 705 00:48:30,480 --> 00:48:33,319 Speaker 1: And I have a new perspective on it. And so 706 00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:36,799 Speaker 1: let's see, let me answer all these questions at once. 707 00:48:36,840 --> 00:48:39,520 Speaker 1: Would you say these feelings are internally created or externally created? 708 00:48:39,560 --> 00:48:43,160 Speaker 1: I think it's a little bit of both. I think yes, 709 00:48:43,239 --> 00:48:47,560 Speaker 1: since I think some people do have like ambition and 710 00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:53,440 Speaker 1: entrepreneurial spirit, you know, genuinely within them. Maybe it's like 711 00:48:53,520 --> 00:48:58,080 Speaker 1: a trait that they inherited from their family, or it's 712 00:48:58,160 --> 00:49:04,560 Speaker 1: just within them, and they they understand life to be 713 00:49:04,640 --> 00:49:08,239 Speaker 1: a fragile thing and they want more out of their 714 00:49:08,280 --> 00:49:11,000 Speaker 1: lives than themselves. And I don't think there's anything wrong 715 00:49:11,040 --> 00:49:16,400 Speaker 1: with wanting to be successful and wanting to, you know, 716 00:49:18,239 --> 00:49:21,680 Speaker 1: build a life that you're proud of, right, Like the 717 00:49:21,719 --> 00:49:26,920 Speaker 1: feelings that you're feeling. I don't think are bad ones, 718 00:49:28,360 --> 00:49:33,680 Speaker 1: at least from the way that you've talked about them, 719 00:49:34,520 --> 00:49:36,799 Speaker 1: like the like this this line in your email. I 720 00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:39,400 Speaker 1: want to be proud to have built something for myself 721 00:49:39,440 --> 00:49:41,759 Speaker 1: and pat myself on the shoulder and say, I really 722 00:49:41,760 --> 00:49:44,759 Speaker 1: built that. So here's what's so okay, okay this It 723 00:49:44,840 --> 00:49:47,000 Speaker 1: has now come to me this whole like internal versus 724 00:49:47,000 --> 00:49:52,400 Speaker 1: external thing. If you want to be successful because you 725 00:49:53,120 --> 00:49:58,160 Speaker 1: because you feel like you know whatever, Andrew Tait or 726 00:49:58,480 --> 00:50:03,520 Speaker 1: or some fucking guy on Instagram has a cool car 727 00:50:03,600 --> 00:50:06,279 Speaker 1: and you want to show off to people, and you 728 00:50:06,320 --> 00:50:10,920 Speaker 1: want to be successful because you want other people to 729 00:50:11,080 --> 00:50:15,920 Speaker 1: respect you, you will learn that other people, whether you're 730 00:50:15,920 --> 00:50:20,080 Speaker 1: successful or not, don't really give that much of a 731 00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:26,120 Speaker 1: fuck about you and your family and your friends. Ideally, 732 00:50:26,160 --> 00:50:28,560 Speaker 1: if you have the right ones will love you and 733 00:50:28,600 --> 00:50:34,520 Speaker 1: be your friend whether or not you're successful. All of 734 00:50:34,560 --> 00:50:37,840 Speaker 1: my good friends in my life right now are pretty 735 00:50:37,880 --> 00:50:41,040 Speaker 1: much people I met before I became successful, and they 736 00:50:41,120 --> 00:50:49,160 Speaker 1: all treat me exactly the same. Becoming successful as an 737 00:50:49,160 --> 00:50:53,960 Speaker 1: internet guy has not. I still feel all the same 738 00:50:54,000 --> 00:50:57,239 Speaker 1: feelings in the universe, and I still get pissed off 739 00:50:57,239 --> 00:50:58,880 Speaker 1: of my friends and my friends get pissed off of 740 00:50:58,960 --> 00:51:01,959 Speaker 1: you know how, it's just how it goes in that world. 741 00:51:04,239 --> 00:51:06,480 Speaker 1: Nothing changes in that world. Your friends will not look 742 00:51:06,480 --> 00:51:15,400 Speaker 1: at you any differently before or after success. And also, ultimately, 743 00:51:15,680 --> 00:51:18,920 Speaker 1: like the kind of the people who would look at 744 00:51:18,920 --> 00:51:23,360 Speaker 1: you differently after being successful are not like them, are 745 00:51:23,480 --> 00:51:26,160 Speaker 1: They're not like the main main, main people in your 746 00:51:26,200 --> 00:51:31,759 Speaker 1: life will be ultimately unaffected. I believe by this, So 747 00:51:32,160 --> 00:51:34,759 Speaker 1: it's a stupid and also and also having people like 748 00:51:34,880 --> 00:51:43,319 Speaker 1: admire you or admire your stuff is worth is kind 749 00:51:43,320 --> 00:51:48,160 Speaker 1: of not worth anything. So that's a bad reason to 750 00:51:48,239 --> 00:51:54,440 Speaker 1: want to be successful. Conversely, for me, one of the 751 00:51:54,480 --> 00:51:59,759 Speaker 1: things that has been really great about having had a 752 00:51:59,760 --> 00:52:03,880 Speaker 1: scessful thing is that if I died tomorrow, I really 753 00:52:04,360 --> 00:52:07,760 Speaker 1: could feel like I lived my life to the fullest 754 00:52:08,160 --> 00:52:14,719 Speaker 1: and I tried. You know. So, what you're talking about, like, uh, 755 00:52:15,400 --> 00:52:19,839 Speaker 1: wanting to be successful in something because of this internal 756 00:52:20,440 --> 00:52:30,760 Speaker 1: desire to have tried and to have to have built 757 00:52:30,800 --> 00:52:35,320 Speaker 1: something that you're just internally proud of, I think is good. 758 00:52:36,960 --> 00:52:39,839 Speaker 1: And you said, have I experienced these pressures and would 759 00:52:39,840 --> 00:52:41,879 Speaker 1: I say that this has partially influenced you in starting 760 00:52:41,920 --> 00:52:44,960 Speaker 1: your own podcast? Yeah? I think when it comes to 761 00:52:45,040 --> 00:52:48,160 Speaker 1: like I think, I just like I've always kind of 762 00:52:48,160 --> 00:52:55,400 Speaker 1: been ambitious and wanted more out of my life. And uh, 763 00:52:55,200 --> 00:52:58,880 Speaker 1: I that that those pressures, the societal pressures and the 764 00:52:58,920 --> 00:53:02,520 Speaker 1: internal pressures that you're talking talking about, definitely influence. I 765 00:53:02,520 --> 00:53:04,480 Speaker 1: think if it wasn't therapy Gecko, it would have been 766 00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:06,880 Speaker 1: something I would have started. And I had, you know, 767 00:53:07,360 --> 00:53:09,400 Speaker 1: endeavors that I was doing stand up and making movies 768 00:53:09,440 --> 00:53:11,400 Speaker 1: and I started a little comedy club and I was 769 00:53:11,440 --> 00:53:14,320 Speaker 1: doing stuff before I did this, And if this wasn't 770 00:53:14,320 --> 00:53:17,000 Speaker 1: the thing that took off, I would have kept doing 771 00:53:17,080 --> 00:53:22,280 Speaker 1: things until something was successful or took off, just because 772 00:53:23,600 --> 00:53:25,640 Speaker 1: you know, that's was just kind of always in me. 773 00:53:26,680 --> 00:53:28,960 Speaker 1: But again, now that the thing has took taken off 774 00:53:29,080 --> 00:53:30,480 Speaker 1: and now none of that, if at the time to 775 00:53:30,600 --> 00:53:36,880 Speaker 1: kind of reflect, I've learned that really the only things 776 00:53:36,920 --> 00:53:43,279 Speaker 1: that matter are like the people around you and what 777 00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:46,359 Speaker 1: you're actually doing right, Because if you want to if 778 00:53:46,360 --> 00:53:49,160 Speaker 1: you're like, oh, I'm gonna get rich by like doing 779 00:53:49,200 --> 00:53:53,120 Speaker 1: real estate, you can have all the money in the world, 780 00:53:53,680 --> 00:53:59,600 Speaker 1: but you're still spending your life doing real estate. Do 781 00:53:59,640 --> 00:54:04,080 Speaker 1: you like real estate? You know? Then there's like, okay, 782 00:54:04,160 --> 00:54:06,120 Speaker 1: well let me make a whole bunch of money in 783 00:54:06,640 --> 00:54:09,080 Speaker 1: real estate so that I can do my true passion, 784 00:54:09,880 --> 00:54:12,919 Speaker 1: or even just fucking let me get a normal ass 785 00:54:13,040 --> 00:54:16,360 Speaker 1: job so I can have enough money left over to 786 00:54:16,440 --> 00:54:20,640 Speaker 1: do my actual passion, which is a perfectly legitimate way 787 00:54:20,680 --> 00:54:24,640 Speaker 1: to live life too. I feel like I've just been 788 00:54:24,719 --> 00:54:28,239 Speaker 1: ranting for a while. I'm trying to. I'm trying to. 789 00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:31,200 Speaker 1: I just I love this subject because I feel like 790 00:54:31,239 --> 00:54:33,520 Speaker 1: I've had a lot of different kind of perspectives on it. 791 00:54:33,800 --> 00:54:38,279 Speaker 1: But yeah, just make sure, like when you say you 792 00:54:38,320 --> 00:54:42,200 Speaker 1: want to be, when you say you want to become something, Salah, 793 00:54:42,600 --> 00:54:45,080 Speaker 1: just make sure that whatever it is that you're doing 794 00:54:46,040 --> 00:54:50,960 Speaker 1: to become something, make sure that to make sure two 795 00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:54,439 Speaker 1: things of whatever it is that you're doing to become something. One, 796 00:54:54,560 --> 00:54:57,640 Speaker 1: make sure that you really fucking like doing it, and 797 00:54:57,680 --> 00:55:02,480 Speaker 1: then to make sure that you're doing it with people 798 00:55:02,760 --> 00:55:10,359 Speaker 1: you really like. Okay, because after a certain point like those, 799 00:55:10,680 --> 00:55:12,759 Speaker 1: I've just learned that those are the only two things 800 00:55:12,800 --> 00:55:15,480 Speaker 1: that matter. Just make sure that you really like what 801 00:55:15,520 --> 00:55:18,160 Speaker 1: you're doing and that you're doing it with people that 802 00:55:18,200 --> 00:55:20,880 Speaker 1: you like. And then like, as long as you have 803 00:55:21,040 --> 00:55:28,160 Speaker 1: enough money to fucking uh not die, you're fine. You're 804 00:55:28,239 --> 00:55:31,480 Speaker 1: something right then and there. I also think the idea 805 00:55:31,520 --> 00:55:35,279 Speaker 1: of like becoming something like you're something right now, you're 806 00:55:35,320 --> 00:55:39,560 Speaker 1: a human being. We all fucking will we will, like 807 00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:41,759 Speaker 1: this line you have in here where you're like, you 808 00:55:41,840 --> 00:55:43,799 Speaker 1: have to either become rich or you will be a 809 00:55:44,080 --> 00:55:47,759 Speaker 1: forgettable loser until you die and vanish into nothingness. Guess what, 810 00:55:48,120 --> 00:55:51,520 Speaker 1: We're all going to be forgettable and die and vanish 811 00:55:51,560 --> 00:55:54,359 Speaker 1: into nothingness. No one really cares that much about us. 812 00:55:54,600 --> 00:55:57,800 Speaker 1: You could be Donald Trump and live in a period 813 00:55:57,800 --> 00:56:00,000 Speaker 1: of time on the earth where everyone says your name 814 00:56:00,760 --> 00:56:05,839 Speaker 1: every two seconds, but eventually he's gonna fucking die and 815 00:56:05,960 --> 00:56:08,520 Speaker 1: be forgotten, and we're all gonna die and be forgotten. 816 00:56:08,560 --> 00:56:11,239 Speaker 1: So just do whatever it is that you actually want 817 00:56:11,280 --> 00:56:16,440 Speaker 1: to fucking do, and don't be obsessed with leaving a legacy. 818 00:56:16,480 --> 00:56:22,080 Speaker 1: I think legacy is just stupid in that regard. So 819 00:56:26,800 --> 00:56:31,000 Speaker 1: don't start from a place of what's gonna make me successful? 820 00:56:31,040 --> 00:56:33,279 Speaker 1: Start from a place of who do I like being 821 00:56:33,320 --> 00:56:36,839 Speaker 1: around and what do I like to do? Because those 822 00:56:36,880 --> 00:56:38,640 Speaker 1: are the things that are gonna matter, not any kind 823 00:56:38,680 --> 00:56:50,879 Speaker 1: of material success. All right, rant over? Uh what else? 824 00:56:50,920 --> 00:56:54,799 Speaker 1: What else? What does the chat say? Someone said? Kind 825 00:56:54,800 --> 00:56:56,680 Speaker 1: of unfortunate for you that the thing that took off 826 00:56:56,719 --> 00:56:59,960 Speaker 1: involved you panting your face green every time. Bro, there's 827 00:57:00,080 --> 00:57:03,759 Speaker 1: people who put I will here, dude, putting on the 828 00:57:03,800 --> 00:57:08,080 Speaker 1: makeup and gecko suit takes me way less time than 829 00:57:08,160 --> 00:57:10,879 Speaker 1: like putting on makeup and a suit and tie, which 830 00:57:10,920 --> 00:57:12,520 Speaker 1: is what a lot of people do to go to 831 00:57:12,560 --> 00:57:18,560 Speaker 1: their jobs. So so and said, developing self worth is 832 00:57:18,600 --> 00:57:22,160 Speaker 1: an internal process. It is. Developing self worth is an 833 00:57:22,160 --> 00:57:26,760 Speaker 1: internal process. I say that from like I have, you 834 00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:29,040 Speaker 1: know I've done. I do these tours and at every 835 00:57:29,040 --> 00:57:32,880 Speaker 1: single one of my shows, I stand around and I 836 00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:36,040 Speaker 1: meet everyone I meet at all of the shows that 837 00:57:36,080 --> 00:57:37,720 Speaker 1: I did. I did one hundred and twenty three shows 838 00:57:37,720 --> 00:57:40,560 Speaker 1: over the past I did one hundred and twenty three 839 00:57:40,600 --> 00:57:43,320 Speaker 1: shows over the past two years, and I've at every 840 00:57:43,360 --> 00:57:46,000 Speaker 1: one of those shows, I stand around in the lobby 841 00:57:46,000 --> 00:57:53,600 Speaker 1: and I meet every single person until until the venue's empty. 842 00:57:54,040 --> 00:57:57,520 Speaker 1: And I will have nights. I would have nights where 843 00:57:57,840 --> 00:58:01,040 Speaker 1: I would literally like have in a single file line 844 00:58:01,080 --> 00:58:05,479 Speaker 1: of people one by one telling me how how much 845 00:58:05,560 --> 00:58:08,920 Speaker 1: they fucking love me and how awesome I am and 846 00:58:09,280 --> 00:58:13,080 Speaker 1: all this like stuff that you would think would be validating. 847 00:58:14,040 --> 00:58:16,880 Speaker 1: But then the next day I'm still in my own brain, 848 00:58:16,920 --> 00:58:18,360 Speaker 1: and I'm still like, ah, I'm a piece of shit 849 00:58:18,440 --> 00:58:21,800 Speaker 1: and I suck and and no one likes me and 850 00:58:21,840 --> 00:58:25,920 Speaker 1: blah blah blah. So there's no I'm telling you firsthand, 851 00:58:25,960 --> 00:58:35,800 Speaker 1: there's no amount of external validation that can actually have 852 00:58:35,840 --> 00:58:39,200 Speaker 1: a lasting impact on your brain. It's all external. It's 853 00:58:39,240 --> 00:58:42,080 Speaker 1: a hunt. No, I'm sorry, it's all internal. It's one 854 00:58:42,120 --> 00:58:44,520 Speaker 1: hundred percent internal. You have to have a rock solid 855 00:58:45,080 --> 00:58:52,880 Speaker 1: foundation within you that you're something and that your life matters, 856 00:58:53,560 --> 00:58:57,560 Speaker 1: and that you're not a piece of shit. There's you know, 857 00:58:57,640 --> 00:59:00,920 Speaker 1: everything else is just is is not going to be 858 00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:03,240 Speaker 1: helpful for you. And how do you And I believe 859 00:59:04,560 --> 00:59:10,440 Speaker 1: that you don't get that internal rock solid belief by 860 00:59:10,520 --> 00:59:13,040 Speaker 1: being successful. I think you get. 861 00:59:12,840 --> 00:59:18,640 Speaker 2: It by knowing that you tried, like when you go 862 00:59:18,720 --> 00:59:21,880 Speaker 2: to bed at I knowing that you tried really hard 863 00:59:22,560 --> 00:59:25,360 Speaker 2: to make an effort towards the kind of life you 864 00:59:25,400 --> 00:59:26,080 Speaker 2: want to live. 865 00:59:26,080 --> 00:59:30,640 Speaker 1: Is what actually gives you that internal validation more so 866 00:59:30,760 --> 00:59:34,640 Speaker 1: than any sort of like actual success with it. Oh 867 00:59:34,680 --> 00:59:43,480 Speaker 1: my god, I'm being a fucking Tony Robbins guy. All right, anyway, 868 00:59:44,280 --> 00:59:48,880 Speaker 1: all right, okay, all right, Oh god, I was talking 869 00:59:48,920 --> 00:59:55,320 Speaker 1: for way too long about that shit. Let's keep going. Okay. 870 00:59:55,360 --> 00:59:59,560 Speaker 1: This is from Mohammed. Subject line, drugs are cool, but 871 00:59:59,640 --> 01:00:03,680 Speaker 1: don't do them, yo, ghek typing this from the comfort 872 01:00:03,680 --> 01:00:05,880 Speaker 1: of my bed, which I'll sadly have to get up 873 01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:08,160 Speaker 1: out of in order to go to work to earn 874 01:00:08,200 --> 01:00:13,160 Speaker 1: money to essentially fund my drug use lol. I moved 875 01:00:13,240 --> 01:00:16,120 Speaker 1: from the UK, back home to Africa for a while, 876 01:00:16,480 --> 01:00:19,160 Speaker 1: then to the Gulf Region and back here to London. 877 01:00:19,560 --> 01:00:23,320 Speaker 1: Drugs are keeping me intact to some extent, don't And 878 01:00:23,320 --> 01:00:27,439 Speaker 1: then in all caps, he wrote, don't do them? Love 879 01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:31,080 Speaker 1: you ghek. Feel free to call for further context if needed. Well, 880 01:00:31,120 --> 01:00:42,600 Speaker 1: I don't okay, Well I hope you're okay. Someone said, 881 01:00:42,920 --> 01:00:46,480 Speaker 1: all right, let's see hold on. Okay. This is from Diana. 882 01:00:47,760 --> 01:00:50,960 Speaker 1: Subject line, just got to Korea and now everyone is 883 01:00:50,960 --> 01:00:54,320 Speaker 1: saying to leave all right. This email is twelve days ago, 884 01:00:54,480 --> 01:00:56,640 Speaker 1: so this is when they were like declaring martial law 885 01:00:56,720 --> 01:00:59,480 Speaker 1: or anything. What is martial law? Because I know they 886 01:00:59,520 --> 01:01:01,360 Speaker 1: declared it, and then like an hour later they were like, 887 01:01:01,440 --> 01:01:04,800 Speaker 1: never mind, all right, Hi, Lyle, big fan of the show. 888 01:01:04,840 --> 01:01:07,000 Speaker 1: Had a blast seeing you in Seattle earlier this year. 889 01:01:07,040 --> 01:01:09,600 Speaker 1: Thank you. I have nothing really interesting going on in 890 01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:11,400 Speaker 1: my life right now, other than I just landed in 891 01:01:11,440 --> 01:01:13,640 Speaker 1: South Korea a day ago and now there was a 892 01:01:13,680 --> 01:01:17,040 Speaker 1: lot of military and political uprising going on. Everyone back 893 01:01:17,080 --> 01:01:19,240 Speaker 1: home is telling me I should fly back, but I 894 01:01:19,400 --> 01:01:21,600 Speaker 1: just landed and planned to be here until March to 895 01:01:21,640 --> 01:01:24,560 Speaker 1: spend time with my husband out here. Also, I haven't 896 01:01:24,600 --> 01:01:26,520 Speaker 1: even had the chance to go to seven to eleven 897 01:01:26,600 --> 01:01:30,480 Speaker 1: yet and get the onegree and snacks. You can obviously 898 01:01:30,520 --> 01:01:33,400 Speaker 1: see where my priorities lie. We'll see what ends up happening. 899 01:01:33,440 --> 01:01:35,320 Speaker 1: But I plan to ride it out and stay until March. 900 01:01:35,640 --> 01:01:37,280 Speaker 1: Keep gecking and hope I can see you next time 901 01:01:37,320 --> 01:01:41,840 Speaker 1: you go on tour. Are you still there? I guess 902 01:01:41,920 --> 01:01:43,160 Speaker 1: I don't know why I said that, as if I 903 01:01:43,200 --> 01:01:45,240 Speaker 1: was talking to you and not just reading an email. 904 01:01:47,800 --> 01:01:50,440 Speaker 1: This person's probably fine, because I think they declared martial 905 01:01:50,520 --> 01:01:57,160 Speaker 1: law and then just immediately said never mind, right, let 906 01:01:57,200 --> 01:02:07,400 Speaker 1: me google this South Korea Marshall law. Okay, all right, 907 01:02:07,440 --> 01:02:13,160 Speaker 1: so yes, this is twelve days ago. Yeah, okay, so 908 01:02:13,240 --> 01:02:17,160 Speaker 1: they were oh yeah, okay, so no if they were 909 01:02:17,200 --> 01:02:20,320 Speaker 1: still okay, martial law is over now. It was like 910 01:02:20,360 --> 01:02:27,320 Speaker 1: twenty four hours. Did you guys know that the longest 911 01:02:27,600 --> 01:02:34,600 Speaker 1: the Declaration of of martial law was in Syria from 912 01:02:34,680 --> 01:02:39,840 Speaker 1: nineteen sixty seven to twenty eleven, or maybe it was Taiwan. 913 01:02:40,800 --> 01:02:43,640 Speaker 1: I don't know. I'm just looking at Wikipedia, all right, 914 01:02:43,680 --> 01:02:45,280 Speaker 1: So there we go. You can get all your snacks 915 01:02:45,400 --> 01:02:46,800 Speaker 1: and you're gonna be fine and you don't even have 916 01:02:46,880 --> 01:02:50,040 Speaker 1: to die or I don't know. I don't know why 917 01:02:50,080 --> 01:02:59,280 Speaker 1: you would die, but okay, okay. This is from Lars 918 01:03:02,080 --> 01:03:04,440 Speaker 1: High GEK. My friends and I were in college and 919 01:03:04,480 --> 01:03:07,200 Speaker 1: we were playing dodgeball with this group of guys. We 920 01:03:07,200 --> 01:03:09,600 Speaker 1: were having a good time goofing around and not taking 921 01:03:09,600 --> 01:03:12,080 Speaker 1: it super seriously, but there was this one guy who 922 01:03:12,120 --> 01:03:15,920 Speaker 1: took it very personal and started to make comments on 923 01:03:15,960 --> 01:03:17,960 Speaker 1: how we weren't playing the game right because we were 924 01:03:17,960 --> 01:03:20,320 Speaker 1: just goofing around. On the way home, we talked about 925 01:03:20,320 --> 01:03:22,880 Speaker 1: how much of a douche canoe he was. My friend, 926 01:03:22,920 --> 01:03:24,960 Speaker 1: who was an ARA at the time, knew what dorm 927 01:03:25,000 --> 01:03:27,440 Speaker 1: he was living in, so we decided to tape douches 928 01:03:27,480 --> 01:03:30,440 Speaker 1: to his door. Later that year, my friend who was 929 01:03:30,440 --> 01:03:34,120 Speaker 1: the RA started dating this guy, so when he moved 930 01:03:34,160 --> 01:03:36,840 Speaker 1: out of that dorm, we still knew where he lived. 931 01:03:37,080 --> 01:03:40,959 Speaker 1: So a year later, on that same night, at three am. 932 01:03:41,080 --> 01:03:43,960 Speaker 1: We douched his door again. We did this for two 933 01:03:43,960 --> 01:03:46,640 Speaker 1: more years before my friend ruined it all and told 934 01:03:46,720 --> 01:03:50,120 Speaker 1: him that it was us. They are still together today. 935 01:03:52,000 --> 01:03:55,240 Speaker 1: Why'd you do it twice? I mean doing it one 936 01:03:55,320 --> 01:03:57,720 Speaker 1: and doing it once is just like a stupid prank. 937 01:03:57,760 --> 01:04:03,160 Speaker 1: But doing it twice, I don't know, as I guess 938 01:04:03,160 --> 01:04:11,160 Speaker 1: that's kind of funny. Let's see here, Let's do a 939 01:04:11,160 --> 01:04:13,080 Speaker 1: couple more emails show we shall we do a couple 940 01:04:13,120 --> 01:04:15,200 Speaker 1: more emails. How long is this episode so far? It's 941 01:04:15,200 --> 01:04:19,120 Speaker 1: at least an hour. Okay, this is from Paul. The 942 01:04:19,160 --> 01:04:23,400 Speaker 1: subject line is mystics and hermits. I have this recurring 943 01:04:23,440 --> 01:04:25,720 Speaker 1: thought of moving into a cave in the mountains to 944 01:04:25,720 --> 01:04:28,760 Speaker 1: spend time reading and thinking. I used to live in 945 01:04:28,800 --> 01:04:31,920 Speaker 1: a pseudo ghost town, and that experience altered my perspective 946 01:04:31,960 --> 01:04:35,120 Speaker 1: on life. I lived in an old miner's cabin and 947 01:04:35,200 --> 01:04:37,600 Speaker 1: spent about three years fixing it and repairing it to 948 01:04:37,600 --> 01:04:40,360 Speaker 1: be more livable. The biggest lesson I learned out there 949 01:04:40,720 --> 01:04:43,920 Speaker 1: was that the romanticized parts of history are only romantic 950 01:04:43,960 --> 01:04:46,400 Speaker 1: if one does not have to live with their consequences 951 01:04:47,040 --> 01:04:50,840 Speaker 1: this experience, what does that mean? Holy shit? The romanticized 952 01:04:50,880 --> 01:04:53,720 Speaker 1: parts of history are only romantic if one doesn't have 953 01:04:53,760 --> 01:04:57,560 Speaker 1: to live with their consequences. What does that mean? This 954 01:04:57,680 --> 01:05:01,240 Speaker 1: experience has made me very wary trying anything new in 955 01:05:01,280 --> 01:05:05,800 Speaker 1: the realm of living a hermetic or mystic lifestyle. But 956 01:05:05,840 --> 01:05:08,440 Speaker 1: the thought is still circulating in my mind. Is it 957 01:05:08,480 --> 01:05:11,480 Speaker 1: worth considering doing a trial run every few weeks or 958 01:05:11,480 --> 01:05:15,160 Speaker 1: should I bag the whole thought and keep on keeping on? Okay, 959 01:05:15,160 --> 01:05:16,920 Speaker 1: I'm really trying to understand what this guy is saying. 960 01:05:18,320 --> 01:05:20,600 Speaker 1: I used to Okay, this guy spent three years in 961 01:05:20,640 --> 01:05:23,200 Speaker 1: an old miner's cabin, and then he said the biggest 962 01:05:23,280 --> 01:05:27,000 Speaker 1: lesson I learned was that the romanticized parts of life 963 01:05:27,000 --> 01:05:28,840 Speaker 1: are only romantic if one doesn't have to live with 964 01:05:28,880 --> 01:05:31,400 Speaker 1: their consequences. Okay, So this guy, I think is sad. Okay, 965 01:05:31,480 --> 01:05:37,560 Speaker 1: I think this person is saying that they made the 966 01:05:37,600 --> 01:05:40,080 Speaker 1: decision to live in a miner's cabin and that they 967 01:05:40,080 --> 01:05:43,560 Speaker 1: didn't like it. But why the fuck did they stay 968 01:05:43,600 --> 01:05:51,800 Speaker 1: there for three years if they didn't like it? Why 969 01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:55,200 Speaker 1: you say you say living you say it's only romantic 970 01:05:55,200 --> 01:05:57,080 Speaker 1: if you don't have to live with your consequences, But 971 01:05:57,120 --> 01:05:58,920 Speaker 1: why do you have to live with them? Why do 972 01:05:58,960 --> 01:06:01,560 Speaker 1: you have to live with the consequences of going somewhere 973 01:06:01,560 --> 01:06:05,000 Speaker 1: when you can just leave. I guess I mean you 974 01:06:05,000 --> 01:06:08,920 Speaker 1: didn't move to like, you know, North Korea and get 975 01:06:09,560 --> 01:06:12,960 Speaker 1: thrown in jail. You just you're an American. It seems 976 01:06:13,000 --> 01:06:19,520 Speaker 1: I'm gonna assume this experience has made me very wary 977 01:06:19,560 --> 01:06:22,680 Speaker 1: of trying anything new. You're wary of trying, Paul. You 978 01:06:22,720 --> 01:06:25,160 Speaker 1: seem like you're weary of trying new things because you 979 01:06:25,200 --> 01:06:30,000 Speaker 1: think that you have to stick it out. You ever 980 01:06:30,040 --> 01:06:33,080 Speaker 1: heard of vacation? You could just you could just you 981 01:06:33,120 --> 01:06:37,920 Speaker 1: ever heard of airbnb, Paul, Paul, go get an airbnb 982 01:06:38,040 --> 01:06:40,320 Speaker 1: for a week. You don't have to buy and you 983 01:06:40,320 --> 01:06:42,720 Speaker 1: don't have to You don't have to. We live in 984 01:06:42,760 --> 01:06:44,960 Speaker 1: twenty twenty four, man. You don't have to buy a 985 01:06:45,000 --> 01:06:53,200 Speaker 1: cabin and and dedicate find and make financial commitments to 986 01:06:53,280 --> 01:06:56,880 Speaker 1: fixing it up. Just go on Airbnb, man, and get 987 01:06:56,920 --> 01:07:10,040 Speaker 1: a little cabin in a shitty place. All right. This 988 01:07:10,120 --> 01:07:20,040 Speaker 1: is from John. The subject line is future Howdy. My 989 01:07:20,120 --> 01:07:23,120 Speaker 1: name is John and I'm thirty one years old. Life 990 01:07:23,120 --> 01:07:25,200 Speaker 1: has been a wild ride and I am finding myself 991 01:07:25,360 --> 01:07:28,040 Speaker 1: entering a new chapter of life. Over the past year, 992 01:07:28,200 --> 01:07:30,520 Speaker 1: I have been prepping my house to sell. Everyone wants 993 01:07:30,560 --> 01:07:36,320 Speaker 1: to talk about homes. Fixing up a house to sell 994 01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:38,720 Speaker 1: is expensive and creates a lot of stress, all while 995 01:07:38,760 --> 01:07:40,760 Speaker 1: not being able to present be present for the people 996 01:07:40,800 --> 01:07:42,960 Speaker 1: you want to be with. However, I am getting to 997 01:07:43,000 --> 01:07:44,520 Speaker 1: the end, and in the next two months I will 998 01:07:44,560 --> 01:07:46,240 Speaker 1: have my house listed for sale and be able to 999 01:07:46,240 --> 01:07:48,240 Speaker 1: buy a new house with my girlfriend and her two 1000 01:07:48,720 --> 01:07:52,080 Speaker 1: year old daughter. We have been dating for two years 1001 01:07:52,080 --> 01:07:54,680 Speaker 1: and do not live together yet because my house is 1002 01:07:54,720 --> 01:07:57,680 Speaker 1: too small to raise a child. Marriage, kids, and building 1003 01:07:57,720 --> 01:08:00,480 Speaker 1: a life together has been a constant conversation since we met. 1004 01:08:00,720 --> 01:08:02,960 Speaker 1: It is very exciting and scary that the next phase 1005 01:08:02,960 --> 01:08:05,160 Speaker 1: of our relationship is about to I was about to begin, 1006 01:08:05,480 --> 01:08:08,120 Speaker 1: but oh man, I am so ready for it to start. 1007 01:08:08,360 --> 01:08:11,160 Speaker 1: If you would have asked me five years ago, if 1008 01:08:11,160 --> 01:08:13,000 Speaker 1: this is where I would be, If you would have 1009 01:08:13,080 --> 01:08:15,080 Speaker 1: told me five years ago this is where I would be, 1010 01:08:15,080 --> 01:08:17,519 Speaker 1: I would never have believed you. A younger me would 1011 01:08:17,560 --> 01:08:20,880 Speaker 1: have never considered dating someone with a child, and maybe 1012 01:08:20,880 --> 01:08:23,200 Speaker 1: some people listening are feeling the same way. But I 1013 01:08:23,200 --> 01:08:25,800 Speaker 1: can promise you that taking the opportunity has filled my 1014 01:08:25,880 --> 01:08:28,320 Speaker 1: heart with so much love and I have been gifted 1015 01:08:28,600 --> 01:08:33,519 Speaker 1: with the most beautiful future. Thanks for listening. Gek, I 1016 01:08:33,600 --> 01:08:38,880 Speaker 1: love that. I think that's really nice. John, Well, it's funny. Yeah, 1017 01:08:38,880 --> 01:08:43,120 Speaker 1: you're about five years older than I am, and uh yeah, 1018 01:08:43,680 --> 01:08:47,920 Speaker 1: I think, like I'm actually inspired reading your email because 1019 01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:54,160 Speaker 1: I'm trying to keep my heart and mind open to 1020 01:08:55,760 --> 01:08:59,080 Speaker 1: things that maybe I would have been turned off to, 1021 01:09:01,360 --> 01:09:04,640 Speaker 1: you know, at this current point in my life. But 1022 01:09:04,720 --> 01:09:07,040 Speaker 1: that's exciting that. Like I know, I talked earlier about 1023 01:09:07,040 --> 01:09:08,880 Speaker 1: like being a depression, but I read an email like 1024 01:09:08,920 --> 01:09:12,280 Speaker 1: this and it excites me because it's like I think, 1025 01:09:12,320 --> 01:09:14,519 Speaker 1: I think a lot of like my depression has come 1026 01:09:14,560 --> 01:09:17,280 Speaker 1: from like this theory that like, well this is this 1027 01:09:17,360 --> 01:09:19,840 Speaker 1: idea that like, you know, I've already like there's no 1028 01:09:20,120 --> 01:09:23,759 Speaker 1: nothing's in my future, Like I don't see any further 1029 01:09:24,680 --> 01:09:29,960 Speaker 1: life experiences past this. Like I woke up at like 1030 01:09:30,160 --> 01:09:32,559 Speaker 1: five am and I just had like a panic attack 1031 01:09:32,600 --> 01:09:33,920 Speaker 1: where I was like, oh, no, life is going to 1032 01:09:33,960 --> 01:09:36,840 Speaker 1: be the same, It's going to be this forever and 1033 01:09:36,840 --> 01:09:40,920 Speaker 1: then I'm gonna die, you know, but uh, I don't know. 1034 01:09:40,960 --> 01:09:42,519 Speaker 1: Then I read something like this and I'm like, oh, well, 1035 01:09:42,560 --> 01:09:45,120 Speaker 1: here's this guy who you know said that five years 1036 01:09:45,160 --> 01:09:50,480 Speaker 1: later you would he's experiencing something that five years ago 1037 01:09:51,439 --> 01:09:56,679 Speaker 1: he would have never sought himself to experience. So thanks 1038 01:09:56,720 --> 01:09:59,920 Speaker 1: for sharing your future with us, John. Maybe it's inspiring 1039 01:10:00,040 --> 01:10:07,920 Speaker 1: to other people as well. Someone said, why must I 1040 01:10:08,080 --> 01:10:12,719 Speaker 1: piss every day? Okay, let's read. Let's read another email. 1041 01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:19,360 Speaker 1: Let's see. Okay, we can read a cuple we can 1042 01:10:19,400 --> 01:10:22,960 Speaker 1: read a few more emails. Hey Gecko is from Paul. 1043 01:10:23,160 --> 01:10:29,120 Speaker 1: Subject line bros Before hose Hey Gecko, longtime listener and fan. 1044 01:10:29,720 --> 01:10:32,760 Speaker 1: I went through this crazy situation with one of my 1045 01:10:32,840 --> 01:10:37,519 Speaker 1: best friends and his girlfriend earlier this year. Long story short. 1046 01:10:37,640 --> 01:10:40,120 Speaker 1: I started dating his ex soon after they broke up, 1047 01:10:40,439 --> 01:10:43,080 Speaker 1: and it caused a huge rift between me and my friends. 1048 01:10:43,320 --> 01:10:45,120 Speaker 1: I'd always had a crush on her, and I fell 1049 01:10:45,200 --> 01:10:47,559 Speaker 1: hard for her once she started showing interest in me. 1050 01:10:47,960 --> 01:10:51,559 Speaker 1: Jen ended up dumping me too soon after. Karma is real, 1051 01:10:51,920 --> 01:10:54,160 Speaker 1: and I was left to deal with losing my friends 1052 01:10:54,200 --> 01:10:56,959 Speaker 1: and being a heartbroken. It sent me into a depression 1053 01:10:56,960 --> 01:10:58,960 Speaker 1: for a while, and I spent a few months loathing 1054 01:10:58,960 --> 01:11:01,599 Speaker 1: myself and not talking to anyone. I ended up reaching 1055 01:11:01,600 --> 01:11:04,800 Speaker 1: out to my friends who my friend, whose ex it was, 1056 01:11:04,920 --> 01:11:08,400 Speaker 1: and now we're better friends than ever. That's really nice. 1057 01:11:08,520 --> 01:11:11,880 Speaker 1: We bonded over the trauma this woman had caused both 1058 01:11:11,920 --> 01:11:15,000 Speaker 1: of us. Nowadays, I've forgiven myself and tried to learn 1059 01:11:15,040 --> 01:11:17,280 Speaker 1: and grow from the mistakes I've made. I picked up 1060 01:11:17,280 --> 01:11:20,320 Speaker 1: new hobbies and made new friends, and I'm doing great. 1061 01:11:20,360 --> 01:11:22,439 Speaker 1: BTWI went to both your Tampa shows and had a 1062 01:11:22,439 --> 01:11:26,040 Speaker 1: great time. Here's a picture of us. I'm on the left, 1063 01:11:26,520 --> 01:11:28,639 Speaker 1: the X is between us. Oh, this is a Oh 1064 01:11:28,680 --> 01:11:31,400 Speaker 1: this is too personal that I can see this now. 1065 01:11:33,080 --> 01:11:35,360 Speaker 1: You know what's funny is that I'm looking at a picture. 1066 01:11:35,600 --> 01:11:37,960 Speaker 1: This is normally like when I'm on the phone with 1067 01:11:38,000 --> 01:11:39,439 Speaker 1: someone and they're talking to me, but like, oh, my 1068 01:11:39,439 --> 01:11:41,280 Speaker 1: ex boyfriend and this and then the other thing. It's 1069 01:11:41,280 --> 01:11:44,040 Speaker 1: like it's it makes it so much. It's like impersonal 1070 01:11:44,360 --> 01:11:46,000 Speaker 1: because I don't know these people. But now I'm like 1071 01:11:46,160 --> 01:11:49,760 Speaker 1: staring at a photo of these people who he's talking 1072 01:11:49,760 --> 01:11:54,599 Speaker 1: about in the story. I hope everyone's doing all right. Oh, 1073 01:11:54,600 --> 01:11:59,439 Speaker 1: she's holding my tail. She's holding my tail in the photo. 1074 01:12:02,320 --> 01:12:07,880 Speaker 1: All right. Let's read another email. Uh okay, this is 1075 01:12:07,920 --> 01:12:14,040 Speaker 1: from some guy. Subject line is life. Hi. I'm m 1076 01:12:14,280 --> 01:12:17,400 Speaker 1: from Saudi Arabia. I've got finals next week and I'm 1077 01:12:17,439 --> 01:12:21,040 Speaker 1: fucking scared. Bro. I'll graduate from UNI in May of 1078 01:12:21,080 --> 01:12:24,559 Speaker 1: twenty twenty five. I guess I'm an accounting I always 1079 01:12:24,560 --> 01:12:27,360 Speaker 1: listen to your podcast while I shower every morning. It's amazing, Bro, 1080 01:12:27,479 --> 01:12:29,320 Speaker 1: Thank you. I want to call someday, but I know 1081 01:12:29,360 --> 01:12:31,080 Speaker 1: I'll get super nervous. You're doing a great job and 1082 01:12:31,120 --> 01:12:32,760 Speaker 1: I really enjoy your content. You're a good get go. 1083 01:12:32,880 --> 01:12:36,679 Speaker 1: Best wishes. Listen, m listen, listen. Let me tell you something. 1084 01:12:38,439 --> 01:12:41,720 Speaker 1: Let me tell you something that I'm let me tell 1085 01:12:41,720 --> 01:12:43,040 Speaker 1: you know what, Fuck it, I'm gonna have a little 1086 01:12:43,040 --> 01:12:51,519 Speaker 1: bit of conviction today. Look. Everyone, there are institutions around 1087 01:12:51,560 --> 01:12:56,400 Speaker 1: the world throughout time whose sole purpose is to make 1088 01:12:56,520 --> 01:13:03,360 Speaker 1: you think that they have control over you and your life. 1089 01:13:04,439 --> 01:13:08,080 Speaker 1: These are like this is like fucking like high school, 1090 01:13:08,439 --> 01:13:10,680 Speaker 1: and especially when you're young and you're will and you 1091 01:13:10,760 --> 01:13:13,120 Speaker 1: buy into it right when you're young. When you're in 1092 01:13:13,200 --> 01:13:19,080 Speaker 1: high school, okay, the education system tries to tell you 1093 01:13:20,040 --> 01:13:24,760 Speaker 1: that if you do not succeed in their rigid system 1094 01:13:25,040 --> 01:13:29,680 Speaker 1: of if you do not pass this test, you are 1095 01:13:30,400 --> 01:13:36,720 Speaker 1: banned from having a successful, fulfilling, happy life. That's what 1096 01:13:36,800 --> 01:13:39,519 Speaker 1: they try to tell you is that if you do 1097 01:13:39,640 --> 01:13:42,160 Speaker 1: this is just a test coming up, and if you 1098 01:13:42,240 --> 01:13:46,680 Speaker 1: fail the test, you're You're fucked forever. You can not 1099 01:13:46,840 --> 01:13:50,559 Speaker 1: achieve any of your dreams, you can never help people, 1100 01:13:50,720 --> 01:13:53,000 Speaker 1: and the way you wanted to help people. You can 1101 01:13:53,200 --> 01:13:56,040 Speaker 1: never be happy, you can never do It's all a lie. 1102 01:13:57,479 --> 01:14:01,960 Speaker 1: It's all a lie when in fact, you live in 1103 01:14:02,040 --> 01:14:06,679 Speaker 1: a vast infinite universe with no rules except the ones 1104 01:14:06,720 --> 01:14:11,839 Speaker 1: that fucking everyone just fucking made up. Okay, so study 1105 01:14:11,840 --> 01:14:15,120 Speaker 1: for your test. Please study free tests and do the 1106 01:14:15,120 --> 01:14:19,719 Speaker 1: best you can. And then beyond that, if you study 1107 01:14:19,760 --> 01:14:21,880 Speaker 1: for the test and you do the best you can, 1108 01:14:23,000 --> 01:14:25,559 Speaker 1: you have nothing to be scared of, because that's all 1109 01:14:25,560 --> 01:14:27,479 Speaker 1: you needed to do was study free test, do the 1110 01:14:27,520 --> 01:14:29,960 Speaker 1: best you can. If you get the test back and 1111 01:14:30,040 --> 01:14:33,679 Speaker 1: you got an F you don't need to freak out 1112 01:14:34,120 --> 01:14:38,520 Speaker 1: because you live in advanced infinite universe with literally infinite 1113 01:14:40,080 --> 01:14:44,960 Speaker 1: systems and methodologies. For you to become the happy, successful 1114 01:14:44,960 --> 01:14:48,360 Speaker 1: person that you desire to become doesn't necessarily have to 1115 01:14:48,400 --> 01:14:54,960 Speaker 1: be within the structure of this education system. I do 1116 01:14:55,080 --> 01:14:57,920 Speaker 1: genuinely believe all of that. So take the pressure off 1117 01:14:57,920 --> 01:15:00,479 Speaker 1: a little bit. But you know, studying, do your do 1118 01:15:00,520 --> 01:15:04,479 Speaker 1: you fucking work all right? What's going on in Saudi 1119 01:15:04,520 --> 01:15:11,680 Speaker 1: Arabia is Saudi Arabia chill ummm. So someone said, how 1120 01:15:11,680 --> 01:15:14,000 Speaker 1: do you expect to be taken seriously when you're shirtless? 1121 01:15:14,040 --> 01:15:17,280 Speaker 1: I don't. I don't expect to be taken seriously at all. 1122 01:15:17,720 --> 01:15:23,280 Speaker 1: I actively actively would like to not be taken seriously. 1123 01:15:25,840 --> 01:15:32,360 Speaker 1: Ah okay, subject line, how a transgender milf hookup saved 1124 01:15:32,400 --> 01:15:36,439 Speaker 1: my relationship? Howdy, please call me worm. It's a bit 1125 01:15:36,479 --> 01:15:38,960 Speaker 1: of a long story, but I'll try to keep it brief. 1126 01:15:40,200 --> 01:15:44,280 Speaker 1: I'm in my twenties, kind of asexual, and currently unmedicated. 1127 01:15:44,720 --> 01:15:47,320 Speaker 1: Over the summer, I went cold turkey on my meds 1128 01:15:47,360 --> 01:15:49,360 Speaker 1: because I ran out of them before I received my 1129 01:15:49,400 --> 01:15:54,280 Speaker 1: next ones. I became sort of agitated and emotional during withdraws, 1130 01:15:54,320 --> 01:15:57,000 Speaker 1: and I was having some issues with my partner. I 1131 01:15:57,000 --> 01:15:59,559 Speaker 1: had been thinking of this before, and we discussed it, 1132 01:15:59,760 --> 01:16:02,519 Speaker 1: but I wanted to try hooking up with someone simply 1133 01:16:02,520 --> 01:16:05,839 Speaker 1: because I hadn't done it before and since my partner 1134 01:16:06,120 --> 01:16:09,320 Speaker 1: is also a sexual. They were totally supportive of this, 1135 01:16:09,600 --> 01:16:13,200 Speaker 1: which was great. I found a cool trans lady on 1136 01:16:13,320 --> 01:16:15,479 Speaker 1: the web I like what they called it the web, 1137 01:16:15,960 --> 01:16:18,480 Speaker 1: and set up a date with her. She was extremely 1138 01:16:18,600 --> 01:16:21,760 Speaker 1: nice and accommodating. We smoked a lot of weed and 1139 01:16:21,880 --> 01:16:24,679 Speaker 1: did the deed. I had a great time, but after 1140 01:16:24,720 --> 01:16:27,920 Speaker 1: this experience I had to have a difficult conversation with 1141 01:16:27,920 --> 01:16:31,800 Speaker 1: my partner about where our relationship was going. Fast forward 1142 01:16:31,880 --> 01:16:34,799 Speaker 1: about a week we took edibles and watched Rocky Horror 1143 01:16:34,800 --> 01:16:39,000 Speaker 1: Picture Show. Pretty much fixed most of our problems. Fast 1144 01:16:39,040 --> 01:16:42,280 Speaker 1: forward another couple weeks. We're at my partner's parents' house 1145 01:16:42,680 --> 01:16:48,559 Speaker 1: having sex for the first time. It was swag. We're 1146 01:16:48,560 --> 01:16:51,799 Speaker 1: doing great now, better than we were probably before this happened. 1147 01:16:52,080 --> 01:16:57,720 Speaker 1: Love you, Lyle, keep gecking. Okay, so you're basically what 1148 01:16:57,760 --> 01:17:01,880 Speaker 1: you're saying is that you were a sexual will and 1149 01:17:01,920 --> 01:17:04,880 Speaker 1: then you tried it and you were like, oh, this 1150 01:17:04,920 --> 01:17:10,080 Speaker 1: is actually pretty nice. That's kind of interesting. I get 1151 01:17:10,120 --> 01:17:18,160 Speaker 1: this is like I'm not good at metaphors, but whatever. Yeah, yeah, 1152 01:17:18,240 --> 01:17:21,920 Speaker 1: I don't know. I guess is that a thing like 1153 01:17:21,960 --> 01:17:26,160 Speaker 1: you just you're just asexual but you never maybe if 1154 01:17:26,160 --> 01:17:28,400 Speaker 1: you're I get, is that how many? I do wonder 1155 01:17:28,439 --> 01:17:31,520 Speaker 1: that with like asexual people, Like how many? How many 1156 01:17:32,000 --> 01:17:35,439 Speaker 1: are there? Like what's the makeup between asexual people who 1157 01:17:35,439 --> 01:17:39,800 Speaker 1: are like I just never had any interest versus tried it? 1158 01:17:40,000 --> 01:17:45,920 Speaker 1: Not for me asexual people? I do wonder, but I 1159 01:17:45,960 --> 01:17:48,360 Speaker 1: don't know. I guess that's why you wrote kind of asexual, 1160 01:17:48,400 --> 01:17:52,200 Speaker 1: because you were not asexual enough that you were like, 1161 01:17:52,360 --> 01:17:56,599 Speaker 1: let's give let's give sex a try. And now you're 1162 01:17:56,640 --> 01:18:01,720 Speaker 1: having sex and smoking weed and you are going to 1163 01:18:01,840 --> 01:18:05,880 Speaker 1: probably go to hell because of that. But you know, 1164 01:18:05,920 --> 01:18:07,639 Speaker 1: at least you'll have fun on the way over there. 1165 01:18:08,760 --> 01:18:13,719 Speaker 1: Good for you, worm, good for you. Okay, let's see 1166 01:18:14,520 --> 01:18:17,920 Speaker 1: this is from killing. When I'm upset, I'll buy a 1167 01:18:17,920 --> 01:18:20,080 Speaker 1: whole mini tub of frosting and eat it over the 1168 01:18:20,120 --> 01:18:24,160 Speaker 1: span of the week. Okay, before I finish this email. 1169 01:18:29,080 --> 01:18:33,880 Speaker 1: One of the luxuries that I indulge in from time 1170 01:18:33,920 --> 01:18:37,200 Speaker 1: to time. I actually got this from my sister is 1171 01:18:37,439 --> 01:18:46,599 Speaker 1: I will buy a tub of icing, like vanilla icing 1172 01:18:47,600 --> 01:18:56,200 Speaker 1: or even chocolate icing. I will buy pretzel sticks and 1173 01:18:56,280 --> 01:19:00,640 Speaker 1: I will eat. I will dip the pretzel sticks in 1174 01:19:00,680 --> 01:19:09,120 Speaker 1: the icing, and it's it's awesome. It's great. Don't do it, 1175 01:19:09,120 --> 01:19:12,519 Speaker 1: it will it will make your life worse. Okay, Anyway, 1176 01:19:12,680 --> 01:19:14,280 Speaker 1: when I'm upset, I'll buy a whole mini tep of 1177 01:19:14,280 --> 01:19:15,760 Speaker 1: frosting and eat it over the span of a week. 1178 01:19:16,120 --> 01:19:18,000 Speaker 1: One time I got Halloween frosting, and when I ate it, 1179 01:19:18,040 --> 01:19:20,000 Speaker 1: my shit would come out blue. Yet I still kept 1180 01:19:20,000 --> 01:19:23,000 Speaker 1: eating the frosting because I have free will, so fuck everyone, 1181 01:19:23,040 --> 01:19:26,160 Speaker 1: I'll eat what I want. My shit kept coming out 1182 01:19:26,160 --> 01:19:29,599 Speaker 1: blue until after like two weeks. I'd like to assume 1183 01:19:29,760 --> 01:19:32,720 Speaker 1: I look like a smurf on the inside. Surprisingly, I 1184 01:19:32,720 --> 01:19:35,360 Speaker 1: don't have diabetes. I don't know how, but it's okay. 1185 01:19:35,760 --> 01:19:43,320 Speaker 1: I don't want diabetes. You know, I'm brother, you know brother, 1186 01:19:43,400 --> 01:19:48,080 Speaker 1: killing I'm with you. I don't. I heard I'm a 1187 01:19:48,160 --> 01:19:51,439 Speaker 1: I'm a stavros helkiest pod fan, and I heard him 1188 01:19:51,479 --> 01:19:54,519 Speaker 1: say on a podcast something like he said something like, 1189 01:19:54,560 --> 01:19:56,880 Speaker 1: if I don't have diabetes, I don't know what it's 1190 01:19:56,920 --> 01:20:00,720 Speaker 1: gonna take. And I fucking identified with that at so 1191 01:20:00,920 --> 01:20:04,519 Speaker 1: much because I really do feel like, if I don't 1192 01:20:04,560 --> 01:20:06,719 Speaker 1: have diabetes, what the fuck is it gonna take? Because 1193 01:20:06,760 --> 01:20:09,320 Speaker 1: I have done that ice. I've been on a fucking 1194 01:20:09,439 --> 01:20:14,960 Speaker 1: tear before of sweets and candy and sugar and all 1195 01:20:15,000 --> 01:20:18,360 Speaker 1: that shit, and uh, I don't know. I'm trying to 1196 01:20:18,360 --> 01:20:21,120 Speaker 1: eat less of it, but we'll see if I ever 1197 01:20:21,160 --> 01:20:26,840 Speaker 1: get diabetes. What a way to end this podcast. That 1198 01:20:26,920 --> 01:20:29,519 Speaker 1: was a little ominous. Maybe that wasn't the best way 1199 01:20:29,560 --> 01:20:32,800 Speaker 1: to end this podcast, but it's gonna have to be 1200 01:20:34,040 --> 01:20:36,240 Speaker 1: well that was it. That was gek mail. That's the 1201 01:20:36,320 --> 01:20:39,000 Speaker 1: end of reading males. I think this was good. I 1202 01:20:39,040 --> 01:20:44,120 Speaker 1: don't I think this was good. I ran to you 1203 01:20:44,120 --> 01:20:46,760 Speaker 1: ever talk for so long that you're like, what the 1204 01:20:46,800 --> 01:20:48,840 Speaker 1: fuck did I just say? You just getting When you 1205 01:20:48,840 --> 01:20:50,479 Speaker 1: talk for this long, you just get in a trance. 1206 01:20:51,320 --> 01:20:53,240 Speaker 1: You don't think too much about what you're saying. You 1207 01:20:53,280 --> 01:20:56,280 Speaker 1: just you just expec this is, this is These podcasts 1208 01:20:56,280 --> 01:20:59,080 Speaker 1: are really just like an hour and a half of 1209 01:20:59,160 --> 01:21:04,519 Speaker 1: me challenging myself to expel words out of my mouth 1210 01:21:05,360 --> 01:21:08,439 Speaker 1: for as long as I feel like I can. And 1211 01:21:09,280 --> 01:21:15,679 Speaker 1: I am delighted that people seem to enjoy it, because 1212 01:21:15,720 --> 01:21:18,479 Speaker 1: for me, it's an exercise in expelling words out of 1213 01:21:18,520 --> 01:21:26,560 Speaker 1: my mouth. But I think it's good to do that exercise. 1214 01:21:27,320 --> 01:21:29,240 Speaker 1: See if you can expel words out of your mouth 1215 01:21:29,400 --> 01:21:31,880 Speaker 1: like I'm doing it right now. I'm just talking. There's 1216 01:21:31,920 --> 01:21:34,599 Speaker 1: no substance to anything I'm saying right now, or maybe 1217 01:21:34,600 --> 01:21:41,640 Speaker 1: there is. Okay, all right, does anyone does anyone in 1218 01:21:41,680 --> 01:21:45,559 Speaker 1: the chat have anything that any questions? Before we go? 1219 01:21:46,960 --> 01:21:51,920 Speaker 1: Someone said, uh, I like to cover myself in sugar 1220 01:21:52,360 --> 01:21:55,479 Speaker 1: and get off to ants looking and biting me. All right, 1221 01:21:55,479 --> 01:21:57,720 Speaker 1: that's it. That's the end of the podcast. Thank you 1222 01:21:57,760 --> 01:22:03,040 Speaker 1: for listening, uh ghek bless you and have a good 1223 01:22:03,080 --> 01:22:05,360 Speaker 1: rest of your entire life and your entire day. I 1224 01:22:05,400 --> 01:22:07,760 Speaker 1: don't know what you're doing while you're listening to this podcast, 1225 01:22:07,880 --> 01:22:12,639 Speaker 1: but I don't know. Go oudside, just godside. Don't look 1226 01:22:12,640 --> 01:22:15,600 Speaker 1: at your phone. Please stop look at your phone. I 1227 01:22:15,640 --> 01:22:18,200 Speaker 1: know you're probably listening to this on a phone, but 1228 01:22:18,360 --> 01:22:21,400 Speaker 1: now that this is over, just put your phone in 1229 01:22:21,520 --> 01:22:24,599 Speaker 1: your house or something and go outside without it and 1230 01:22:24,680 --> 01:22:28,200 Speaker 1: just walk around and keep doing that and never look 1231 01:22:28,200 --> 01:22:32,679 Speaker 1: at your phone ever again, because it's bad. The internet 1232 01:22:32,760 --> 01:22:37,360 Speaker 1: is bad, all right, Thank you bye? Think it goes 1233 01:22:37,439 --> 01:22:41,120 Speaker 1: on the line, taking your phone calls every night, everything 1234 01:22:41,520 --> 01:22:44,280 Speaker 1: goes to side. He's teaching you aloud in the of 1235 01:22:44,280 --> 01:22:44,719 Speaker 1: your line. 1236 01:22:45,439 --> 01:22:49,160 Speaker 2: He's not an expert.