Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of Horrible Decisions. I
Speaker 1: am your motherfucking girl, that bitch, full court pumps man
Speaker 1: de little my niggle baby pegastaion, What's I don't know
Speaker 1: if this name is. I'm Milannia Trump and I still
Speaker 1: see everybody again, always have that person at the point,
Speaker 1: I feel like you have an obsession with her. You
Speaker 1: have done her accent about three or four times? Now,
Speaker 1: do you know the last month? I no bullshit. One
Speaker 1: of the side projects I'm working on, Um, I'm writing
Speaker 1: where the person is an actor in the in the
Speaker 1: script I'm working on, and they do a lot of
Speaker 1: different voices, and my favorite one is Milan. Oh my god,
Speaker 1: she just said her favorite person is Milannia Trump White.
Speaker 1: Run it back, run it back back hurt. Her accents
Speaker 1: so fun and she's such a fun person to do
Speaker 1: because like as someone that like everybody's like talking about.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, first lady, she's so classy. Remember that
Speaker 1: share with her fingers. I want to say that, Well,
Speaker 1: yes they do. They use to maga Twitter, which I
Speaker 1: love clicking on the hashtag because I like to see
Speaker 1: how racist people are because when I get bored, I'm like,
Speaker 1: let me talk to him. All of them be like,
Speaker 1: look at her, gorgeous lady, she's so this, look how
Speaker 1: she carries herself, and I just really want to throw
Speaker 1: her wop on top of that. Well, if you want
Speaker 1: to randomly curse out uh maga, twitter and racist, I
Speaker 1: want to go ahead and curse out the whore hid bitches.
Speaker 1: I'll see here and tell y'all to get the funk
Speaker 1: off my taking ass pussy because apparently y'all are upset
Speaker 1: that a bitch found love in a hard place. No bitch,
Speaker 1: because he's an aquarious And apparently y'all know I don't
Speaker 1: do the stars and moons, but I heard aquarious people
Speaker 1: don't really show or tell their truth. Know he I
Speaker 1: think he tells the truth. He just he's just one
Speaker 1: of those where he's like, you know how I feel
Speaker 1: because I show you how I feel, And so I
Speaker 1: think if I say I love you, I don't think
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get it back to be there old days
Speaker 1: and aquarious and there we are a relationship birth from
Speaker 1: a fight, Like I was like, oh n, I'm done
Speaker 1: with your ass, right we haven't fought yet, and then
Speaker 1: and this was about six that's what comes out at
Speaker 1: least all right, See, I don't want to keep no no, no,
Speaker 1: no no, it's not toxic because sometimes people need to
Speaker 1: lose it to bro it was twenty four hours. It
Speaker 1: happened when we were in Detroit. We were in Detroit
Speaker 1: and I was like so depressed because it was a
Speaker 1: huge fight that Nigga called me and he was like,
Speaker 1: I cannot live my life without you. I'm a fucking idiot.
Speaker 1: I'm in love with you. Da da da da da
Speaker 1: da da. He was like, I don't know what the funk.
Speaker 1: I was thinking, that's funny that you say all these
Speaker 1: things because when we refer back to page I can
Speaker 1: recall you just say, we're talking, we're kicking it even
Speaker 1: though we're meeting families and doing Thanksgiving anything ease, and
Speaker 1: you're talking about how we're not, Like are we not?
Speaker 1: You got you? My girl? Let you wait a second?
Speaker 1: How did my brand turn into your rant? Let me
Speaker 1: finish what I mean? Actually just want to take over
Speaker 1: my rant about her? Nigga. I was very pulled into.
Speaker 1: I was like, mind you which that trigger Aquarius. But
Speaker 1: for the for the running time of this podcast, we
Speaker 1: has had her boyfriends along the way. This is my
Speaker 1: first one. And mind you, we had our Patreon recording
Speaker 1: and motherfucking Siggy hots on there and was like, can
Speaker 1: we get single Mandy back? Because I don't know if
Speaker 1: I like this new Mandy bitch. And I'm like, listen,
Speaker 1: but I'm not. I want to think I go to
Speaker 1: the sex club. But no, here's the thing. You can
Speaker 1: be slotted out with your nigga. And when we get
Speaker 1: to the motherfucking hor dirt, all my horddrts like me
Speaker 1: that y'all been rocking with the motherfucking beat June and
Speaker 1: all this little other ship come from my niggas. I
Speaker 1: don't think that's the issue. What is the issue? Bro?
Speaker 1: I think the issue? Tell no, I think that it's
Speaker 1: because it has always been an opposing side, like Mandy's
Speaker 1: been single Mandy, relationship, Mandy whatever, And now people don't
Speaker 1: know what to do because what's happening is you're it's
Speaker 1: almost like the person that they knew I'm still here. No, no, no,
Speaker 1: But that's a real thing. That's a real thing because celebrities,
Speaker 1: a lot of them, like when they're known as like
Speaker 1: heart throbs and all that stuff, they stay single or
Speaker 1: they or they're single publicly when they're really in a relationship,
Speaker 1: because because their fan base is not gonna want them
Speaker 1: if they're in a relationship. Stories, it's the attitude, right,
Speaker 1: want me happy, They like the fantasy of you. But
Speaker 1: you were always talking about went off on the show
Speaker 1: about people that fucking post relationship. But that's the thing.
Speaker 1: I have not posted me and my niggas, but you
Speaker 1: like about him NonStop and you posted him on Patreon.
Speaker 1: I mean, now you see that, really you know? It's
Speaker 1: now you see like when you have someone that you
Speaker 1: want to like, celebrate and you feel like it's you
Speaker 1: can't you almost can't stop, like you want to share it.
Speaker 1: It's like when something good happens to you, like you.
Speaker 1: It's not even like a flexing type of thing. In
Speaker 1: my opinion, I don't think people can show off about
Speaker 1: their relationships. I believe people just want to share. That's
Speaker 1: what I'm talking about. I want to say the whore
Speaker 1: high because I feel like they didn't want me to
Speaker 1: be happy. Y'all really just wanted me to be a single.
Speaker 1: It's that married niggas forever ship that you were saying.
Speaker 1: I'm not you thirty, y'all still want me to be
Speaker 1: sucking up on Mary niggas forever. It's just the ship
Speaker 1: you were saying does not equate with one. But I'm
Speaker 1: still eating booty, I'm still getting fucked in the ass.
Speaker 1: I'm still going to sex clubs. We had a whole
Speaker 1: eight person orgy that I shared with Patreon. Y'all. I
Speaker 1: am still out here getting let the funk out by
Speaker 1: my niggers. I think everyone's he had asshole eating it.
Speaker 1: I think everybody is okay with that bit. He been
Speaker 1: over on all fours the last time we went to
Speaker 1: the sex club and say eat my ass. I ate
Speaker 1: his ass and then I sucked the guy while my
Speaker 1: whole face was in his boot hole. Wolf. Okay on
Speaker 1: that note. Anyways, guys and you, uh we do bo
Speaker 1: You included in my red So I'm gonna go ahead
Speaker 1: and introduce y'all, we have a third person joining us today.
Speaker 1: I'm super excited to have this conversation. We is joined
Speaker 1: by reds Why because you ain't red? Right? Everybody says that.
Speaker 1: Everybody says that this is something that spans back to
Speaker 1: when I first started modeling UM and basically nobody knew
Speaker 1: who I was. I was very new to the scene.
Speaker 1: We were doing this fashion show. I had on all
Speaker 1: read and I didn't know what to do, and so
Speaker 1: people just started referencing me by the color because I
Speaker 1: started reference Hey, polka dots. Yeah, I'm so Dallas. That's
Speaker 1: what they else. But you don't like niggas be like
Speaker 1: hey red shirt. No no, because it started like, hey,
Speaker 1: don't do that. Don't do that, bitch, don't do that. No.
Speaker 1: It started because I started calling this girl keys because
Speaker 1: she had her keys on and while she was doing
Speaker 1: her walk that's always jingling. The whole time I was
Speaker 1: calling her keys and she was calling me Red. People
Speaker 1: trying to find me. So we don't give it that.
Speaker 1: We will make up and make it relevant. Great shorts,
Speaker 1: everybody can have great shorts on, but you know who
Speaker 1: they're talking about. So I was gonna say, I'm excited, guys,
Speaker 1: because we're about to have UM dive into during the
Speaker 1: Horrible Decision, a conversation on bisexuality, specifically in the black community.
Speaker 1: UM and so Red is here to join us in
Speaker 1: that conversation, and I'm just I'm super excited. I got
Speaker 1: some questions UM from our audience on Instagram, but also
Speaker 1: Weezy and I have wanted to have this conversation for
Speaker 1: so long, um, and so I'm really glad to be
Speaker 1: having this with you. But also this it really stemmed
Speaker 1: from us asking for a buy guy to come on
Speaker 1: because of the whole Jeffrey Star thing with people either
Speaker 1: saying like, oh, how because he looks masked or or
Speaker 1: why or it can't be true. And it's all of
Speaker 1: that ship that we thought about right like we've been
Speaker 1: seeing it I think in media and pop culture, whether
Speaker 1: it be I May Destroy You or Insecure and especially
Speaker 1: us talking about like by fantasies or mmf by three
Speaker 1: species And that's and that's the thing, especially with me again,
Speaker 1: I joked pegg the stallion of your nickname early on.
Speaker 1: Of course, I think we brought it up an episode
Speaker 1: two that pegging was something that I enjoyed. And that's
Speaker 1: been a common question because a lot of the men
Speaker 1: that I've done this to do identify a straight So
Speaker 1: even the conversation of your masculinity and your hetero normal
Speaker 1: like your hetero sexuality being in your Buddha hole. So
Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about that later on, but you know,
Speaker 1: I want to just say very quickly that I really
Speaker 1: appreciate you saying that we could ask you whatever you
Speaker 1: want because it's just on my mind. And once I
Speaker 1: say it, I'm done. Who do you get better head to?
Speaker 1: What do you think you're better at? Starting? Alright? Anymore?
Speaker 1: I love that? Um, I think personally I'm better sucking
Speaker 1: so much easy, it's easy, it's easier. I'm suffer. But
Speaker 1: because I would say that, and I would say I
Speaker 1: think men suck better dick than women because we have
Speaker 1: it and we know what we want done to it,
Speaker 1: and so we know how to replicate that on another person.
Speaker 1: I don't have a but I feel like I do
Speaker 1: a way better than Now that's some women that got
Speaker 1: got that throat like yeah, but a lot of people
Speaker 1: are like a lot of women don't know how to
Speaker 1: like suck dick properly. So here's wasn't too much porn porn.
Speaker 1: A lot of women that we even had on his
Speaker 1: guests of the show, they don't enjoy sucking. So I
Speaker 1: feel like in order to be a good dick sucker,
Speaker 1: you have to enjoy doing it. Is because of the
Speaker 1: stigma th like of like not being nerdy, like you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like I do have a question
Speaker 1: for you. This is how you're asking the questions already.
Speaker 1: But this is a really embarrassing story that I haven't
Speaker 1: been wanting to tell on the podcast because I can't
Speaker 1: believe it because I'm so ashamed. But I have to
Speaker 1: tell it because I just want you guys to know.
Speaker 1: Don't doubt me. His dick is huge. Please understand, as
Speaker 1: my mother said, she knows it's genetic. I'm top five
Speaker 1: dick sucker. Oh Bay called me top three. I think
Speaker 1: it really means number one, but he don't want to
Speaker 1: tell me. And that what's it call loverboy too? So
Speaker 1: hospital dick you've heard me talk about. We recently had
Speaker 1: a conversation. But we had a conversation put you in
Speaker 1: the hospital. He didn't put me in the hospital. The
Speaker 1: mic was too close. So we started talking about dick
Speaker 1: sucking and about how he knows like his dick is huge, right,
Speaker 1: particularly like the girl that I want to know what's used,
Speaker 1: because I think women have a different idea of what
Speaker 1: little take it, like that he literally put a bit
Speaker 1: in the hospital. Okay, too tilted uterus, Um, here's the issue.
Speaker 1: He said to me that I cut his dick before
Speaker 1: I was like, why wouldn't you tell me that I
Speaker 1: cut your dick with my teeth? And I know there
Speaker 1: because you got an over byte know. He was like.
Speaker 1: I was like, have you always been feeling under? He said,
Speaker 1: he always feels teeth. I'm like with me, he's like everybody.
Speaker 1: He's like, it takes a special type of person and
Speaker 1: not feel their teeth. And he's like, so I don't
Speaker 1: say anything. I'm like, what does it feel like? He's like,
Speaker 1: it just felt like males. He never told me this.
Speaker 1: When I was working with him, right and I was
Speaker 1: in shock. He's like, because I know you love to
Speaker 1: do it and you it feels good. He's like, but yeah,
Speaker 1: I was so embarrassed me. He said that he went
Speaker 1: to the there was a blood bitch. Believe you if
Speaker 1: you we got to demote you to talk say it
Speaker 1: was a bad day. He said. Everybody stuck his dick
Speaker 1: and he felt teeth. I ain't gonna hold you. I
Speaker 1: put King Noir's mold in my mouth. I couldn't get
Speaker 1: past the head. So that's why was like, thank god
Speaker 1: we never did. I think I'll tell you it's a
Speaker 1: it's a little bit smaller than Kingo's I've had it
Speaker 1: in my head nigga's dick is ginormous. So so this
Speaker 1: is a big dick to me like that, that's that's
Speaker 1: not a no, it's a he is a two hand dick. Upset,
Speaker 1: but no, even that's too big. Okay, y'all are watching
Speaker 1: on the YouTube. This is the tester to know if
Speaker 1: you've got a big old dick or not. And it's
Speaker 1: we're not even talking about length. We're talking about girls.
Speaker 1: Niggas don't need to do you know when you got
Speaker 1: no niggas don't maybe thinking that's why that little go
Speaker 1: wrap a be bagging on the ass. So if you
Speaker 1: can't put your hand around your dick, so okay, if
Speaker 1: you put your hand around your dick and your fingers
Speaker 1: touch your dick, is like it's normal. If normal, it's normal.
Speaker 1: If if a woman or you put your hand around
Speaker 1: your dick and there's a little gap between the fingers,
Speaker 1: that's when you know you got a big old dick,
Speaker 1: so your teeth could eaty. I just want to say,
Speaker 1: we're about to normalize. Bit and didn't do something jaw exercises.
Speaker 1: I'm a legendary dick sucker, though dog and when he
Speaker 1: told me that I was so upset, bro, I had
Speaker 1: to textas nigga like, so how long did it take me? Feel? Like?
Speaker 1: What the fun? I'm dead All We're gonna go ahead
Speaker 1: and get into our vanilla ship, guys, and I am
Speaker 1: going to be inserting a clip because I recently posted
Speaker 1: it to our Horrible Decisions page. But little did you
Speaker 1: guys know, bisexuality has been in hip hop since forever um,
Speaker 1: So we're gonna go ahead and play the little clip
Speaker 1: now and just listen to all some of your top classics,
Speaker 1: your favorite rap artists, and the ship that they motherfucking
Speaker 1: say just walk protected by Niven. Let me tell you something.
Speaker 1: You might got more cash than me, but you might
Speaker 1: got the skills to eat and they can act like me.
Speaker 1: You look so I've never had before. But he told
Speaker 1: me to push you. Alright, So there we go. That's
Speaker 1: what it was. I'm gonna do like, you know, a
Speaker 1: little a little fancy stuff at the end. But basically
Speaker 1: I wanted to bring this up because there's a lot
Speaker 1: of uh, I don't want to say gay, I'll say
Speaker 1: bisexual because these are a lot of openly hetero men,
Speaker 1: but they put some such stuff I guess in their rhymes.
Speaker 1: I also wanted to talk about how recently it's kind
Speaker 1: of been a trend for for men as specifically in
Speaker 1: the music industry to come out as bi sexual or gay.
Speaker 1: So we have low Nozacs, of course, we have Frank
Speaker 1: Ocean Tyler the Creator. It's also been something with athletes
Speaker 1: recently coming out Michael Michael, Sam Michael, you ain't gonna
Speaker 1: know the niggas, she said, touchdown in basketball. So it's
Speaker 1: been kind of, um, trendy, kind of like you said,
Speaker 1: a lot of people just being more open with sharing, uh,
Speaker 1: their sexuality. So I wanted to know how that has
Speaker 1: kind of affected you and do you feel like it
Speaker 1: is trendy and not genuine with people coming out about
Speaker 1: their sexualities in the music and media industry. What are
Speaker 1: your thoughts on kind of again this trend. So I
Speaker 1: definitely feel like I don't know if I would necessarily
Speaker 1: use trendy. I think it's definitely becoming a little more
Speaker 1: acceptable and people are seeing, uh, like they're seeing an avenue.
Speaker 1: We're like, oh, shoot, I can get in and not
Speaker 1: get like crucified necessarily for telling my truth, whereas they've
Speaker 1: always had to hide that ship, you know, And so
Speaker 1: I think society makes it hard for people to just
Speaker 1: be authentically themselves. And because we have decided you mess
Speaker 1: with a dude one time, you're gay. You mess with
Speaker 1: you even think about this, you're gay. Everything you do
Speaker 1: that's not super hyper masculine is gay. And so people
Speaker 1: don't want to be labeled that if that's not their
Speaker 1: truth necessary, or even if it is, they don't want
Speaker 1: to be ostracized for it. And so now that it's
Speaker 1: they're seeing people successfully come out and still have successful careers,
Speaker 1: they're they're jumping on right. And I think, Um, one
Speaker 1: of Frank Ocean's biggest um songs, what was it? It was?
Speaker 1: I want to say I was thinking about you, but
Speaker 1: one of them was about a man, and he was
Speaker 1: singing about a man and it came out and I mean,
Speaker 1: ship people still listen to Frank Ocean, like Ludvandro songs
Speaker 1: is about man. People are not gonna admit that. People
Speaker 1: not gonna admit that. I think there's even a lyric
Speaker 1: he has about him holding him or something like that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: but it's also crazy. Well, if we go into all
Speaker 1: of that, y'all love a good Malcolm X. But Malcolm
Speaker 1: exos that turn the tricks in the photo holes. Yeah, like,
Speaker 1: and that's when he was known as what red he
Speaker 1: was he was bisexual and that's something it's so crazy
Speaker 1: because love maybe it was gay as hill what that's
Speaker 1: crazy in the straits around here getting married to him.
Speaker 1: But just let's be clear, gauge, just do everything right,
Speaker 1: do they not? Okay, let's let's go by the list.
Speaker 1: I'm going with you. Let's go take me down there.
Speaker 1: Anything we are all wearing in this room, including the
Speaker 1: homophobe niggas walking on the street, was chosen for us
Speaker 1: by a gay man. Let's be real, dog, I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna I am wearing this nigga and he's questionable. And
Speaker 1: all that colored orange orange in the room, that was like,
Speaker 1: we're not going with jail house orange. We're gonna go
Speaker 1: with a little bit lighter strange. If this ain't the
Speaker 1: devil worst product, you think that blue is just something.
Speaker 1: I just I think that a lot of people don't
Speaker 1: give credit to all the things that are circling in
Speaker 1: their life. They probably were influenced by somebody. Get not
Speaker 1: to mention corsic, you know what I mean? Specifically, music,
Speaker 1: um and like I said, even in the clip that
Speaker 1: that I gave, Oh my god, there's um one one
Speaker 1: where he says he talks about doing it, but as
Speaker 1: long as it's in jail, it's not gay. But we
Speaker 1: learned it from jail to go from behind and just
Speaker 1: a whole uca. That's the annoying part too, about the
Speaker 1: jail thing. Desperation doesn't make you want to suck dick.
Speaker 1: You had it in yet you okay? Well, okay, so
Speaker 1: can we have that conversation real quick because you don't
Speaker 1: want to use the date drug dealers. So I know
Speaker 1: them niggas was in jail one time and they probably
Speaker 1: sucked a little dick or I told you. I don't think.
Speaker 1: I told my friend used to date somebody in jail,
Speaker 1: and I ain't gonna say his name because he don't
Speaker 1: know what I but he said that when he was
Speaker 1: in jail, they would put pictures of their loved ones
Speaker 1: on the backs of the niggas that they would fuck,
Speaker 1: and so they wouldn't necessarily feel like they were sucking
Speaker 1: a guy, but just to feel that penetrations close your eyes,
Speaker 1: what do you close your eyes? I mean they want
Speaker 1: to imagine they sucking They loved ones. Well, yeah, I said,
Speaker 1: that's fine. I mean because again, being gay or it's
Speaker 1: not about the act, it's about like what you feel,
Speaker 1: what you like, what you're attracted to, Like that's where
Speaker 1: it stems from. So it's like, just because you fucking
Speaker 1: nigger one time, like that don't make you gaynsa in
Speaker 1: in the sex club about that. He listened to our episode.
Speaker 1: So I went to the sex club and this guy
Speaker 1: was like, I'm a bone to pick with you. Uh.
Speaker 1: There was just a guy in the CYD club. I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna bring up his name, but he came to
Speaker 1: me and wanted to have the conversation and by about
Speaker 1: bisexuality because he identifies as by. But he also is like,
Speaker 1: I would never be with a man, so I'm not
Speaker 1: fully by. He says, just because a man fox man,
Speaker 1: that doesn't make him by if he wouldn't be romantic, please,
Speaker 1: I also would never be with the Republicand bitch, let's
Speaker 1: be real, what does that mean. That's just such an
Speaker 1: exhausting Like I get so annoyed with that because people
Speaker 1: equate like I'll be with you as the standard to
Speaker 1: how gay you are them to me like, yes, maybe
Speaker 1: you feel like there's maybe there's something about a man
Speaker 1: that you don't see as ideal for you and a partner.
Speaker 1: You've been comments about not being with a woman, but
Speaker 1: you never equate it too. You've talked about, like I
Speaker 1: see myself with a man, You'll see that it's not like, oh,
Speaker 1: I'm not that gay because I won't be with a girl.
Speaker 1: Like I just think that that notion of it is strange.
Speaker 1: It is they always separate that stuff like romance and
Speaker 1: like sexual, like what you're actually doing because I think
Speaker 1: there's something like by romantic and like there's all these
Speaker 1: different terms that they're coming out with, curious, curious on
Speaker 1: the road. I don't know, like I'm not totally hit
Speaker 1: with all the lingo, but I know I'm bi sexual.
Speaker 1: A lot of people want to like, why are you
Speaker 1: not paying sexual? Why are you not? And we're gonna
Speaker 1: dig into it a lot. But also like we've talked
Speaker 1: about it so much, and we've had so many people
Speaker 1: come on here um in this sex space who also
Speaker 1: just hated the labels altogether. They didn't want to identify
Speaker 1: as either or we We talked about the Kinzie scale
Speaker 1: so much on this show. Where is a spectrum to
Speaker 1: where you may not fully align with bi sexuality, but
Speaker 1: you may not be all the way gay, but you
Speaker 1: also may not be something. For Refinery twenty nine for
Speaker 1: queer people. And in the clip that they posted on me,
Speaker 1: I was like, I'm paying by hole whatever, and some
Speaker 1: people are mean, like I've never heard you say pan before.
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't mean to use it as
Speaker 1: a joke, but like nigga, all of them, Yes, I
Speaker 1: can understand me liking people for people but also liking
Speaker 1: men because their men and women for women. Like, what
Speaker 1: the fun you want me to say? That's an umbrella
Speaker 1: thing queer too, ubrella super umbrella. So we are gonna
Speaker 1: now get into our Hord Derve, So go hit and
Speaker 1: handle six tip reading. So the hord Dirt for you
Speaker 1: guys who were maybe watching us or listening to us
Speaker 1: for the very first time. Our Horrid Derve segment is
Speaker 1: sex tips. So we do like to help you all
Speaker 1: in the bedroom just a little bit. And so this
Speaker 1: one comes from my nigga and me said, y'all want
Speaker 1: now on top um. But so this sex tip that
Speaker 1: I have for today is just literally using things that
Speaker 1: are around you for sex. So this actually came because
Speaker 1: I realized me and my partner would be having sex
Speaker 1: and bitch my sex toys and my whole, my whole
Speaker 1: little sex bag is in the closet. So anytime I
Speaker 1: wanted to kind of add anything, it was a whole pause,
Speaker 1: like I'm trying to look in my closet in the
Speaker 1: dark because I don't want to turn on the lights
Speaker 1: and mess up the mood. Um. And so I got
Speaker 1: an end table and I put it by my bed
Speaker 1: and literally now on the end table um and in
Speaker 1: the drawer I have oils for because we do massages
Speaker 1: a lot. I have lotion, I have um lubes and wipes,
Speaker 1: and then I do just keep either a vibrator or
Speaker 1: one of my toys that I may want to use.
Speaker 1: So before he comes over, I normally just make sure
Speaker 1: everything is set up because it helps not having to
Speaker 1: ruin the mood by having to go and get lube
Speaker 1: or having to go just for we can go through.
Speaker 1: We go through a lot of of rounds, and so
Speaker 1: I normally get him a hot towel, but sometimes I'll
Speaker 1: just lay there. I mean, I just do a little
Speaker 1: white since oh no, no no, I wipe them all
Speaker 1: down with hot towel and all of that, but also
Speaker 1: I wanted to bring up something as well as a
Speaker 1: household item that is already there. I brought this up
Speaker 1: on Patreon. Snow I wanted. I wanted to give you, guys,
Speaker 1: maybe if you're not if you're a little bit more
Speaker 1: vanilla and you haven't graduated to purchasing one of your
Speaker 1: sex toys with our code. I don't know if they
Speaker 1: sponsored this episode yet those so I'm gonna say it,
Speaker 1: but anyways, if y'all don't have sex toys, one of
Speaker 1: the things that he's introduced to me and that I've
Speaker 1: used for the very first time is a pillowcase. And
Speaker 1: I brought this up on Patreon. He literally, while he
Speaker 1: was sucking me from behind, he picks up my pillow
Speaker 1: and I'm thinking he's gonna fucking suffocate me or nothing,
Speaker 1: but no, he does not. He picks up the pillow,
Speaker 1: take the pillow case off of my pillow and kind
Speaker 1: of twirls it and uses uses it as a gag. Now,
Speaker 1: then after household this is a household item, bitch. Then
Speaker 1: after he takes it out of my mouth, he then
Speaker 1: puts it underneath me to lift me up. So instead
Speaker 1: of propping me up with hell, yeah, suck me like
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Speaker 1: Did you say you know what to say? A worse
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Speaker 1: with my motherfucking pillow case. Now every time you lay
Speaker 1: on that motherfucker pillow you're thinking like, I don't told
Speaker 1: I didn't hold this nigga like way too much. You
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Speaker 1: what you got. I'm trying to sit my writer brain
Speaker 1: ain't on just yard you said a household item. I
Speaker 1: was ready the household. I don't know what it was
Speaker 1: going for. First off, you missed that whole episode. I
Speaker 1: don't talk about how nigger didn't have a deal though,
Speaker 1: so he sucked his ass with the with the bro
Speaker 1: that't want to get the old story. And at the time,
Speaker 1: because it was it was one of them wave brushes.
Speaker 1: I just thought it because he didn't want with the
Speaker 1: so portant. Now but you know it's still wood the handle.
Speaker 1: Now that's too much. First, we're going a lot. That's
Speaker 1: definitely the gap in between the fingers. But yeah, so
Speaker 1: I wanted to bring like they didn't go for toothbrush.
Speaker 1: I think that really shows personally, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: The shows a little girl too. You got a little
Speaker 1: but you showed me this video before we even had
Speaker 1: a podcast. Yeah. I just remember thinking to myself, like,
Speaker 1: did he have nothing else in the home? Baby? Not?
Speaker 1: But he didn't always he was a struggling college student
Speaker 1: at the time. So you got your little your bathroom
Speaker 1: caddy and stuff whatever, that's all you got when you
Speaker 1: got when you got out the toothbrush and what my
Speaker 1: mom sent me in You think he was waiting for
Speaker 1: his past but a hit, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Because forever can you imagine like he could what it
Speaker 1: was he now he could have only fans and I
Speaker 1: don't know he's actually um I brought it up. I
Speaker 1: ended up sucking him and I stopped at midway and
Speaker 1: I was like, this isn't great. I'll call you uber
Speaker 1: leave Like so actually by the time we did, it
Speaker 1: just was not good to where I stopped midway and
Speaker 1: was like, you're not sucking me like the bitches you
Speaker 1: sent me, I'm cool, Like it just wasn't What did
Speaker 1: he say? Nothing. I called him an uber to go.
Speaker 1: Was he still I don't? Yeah? Yeah, Well, I was
Speaker 1: just like, you gotta go. Well, he did come to
Speaker 1: me from Jersey. He was up here visiting from Jersey,
Speaker 1: so he came and chilled in my crib, and I
Speaker 1: think I really got upset because he didn't give me
Speaker 1: no bacon, egg and cheese, and that's what oh yeah,
Speaker 1: sent him back to Jersey. I was like, you gotta go.
Speaker 1: I would literally die if you like, whoa, my dick
Speaker 1: is bleeding, bitch from that fucking That's why I'm telling
Speaker 1: you that could cripple somebody's I know he loves me,
Speaker 1: and I love him back. He's a sweet man and
Speaker 1: I really cherished him, and I would really appreciate because
Speaker 1: my head would have been sucked up if I knew
Speaker 1: in the middle of us dating that I cut his dick.
Speaker 1: And I was like, so, what did you tell? Well?
Speaker 1: Real quick, then, um, can you give us tip on
Speaker 1: how you would handle something going not so well in
Speaker 1: bed that you didn't like and how you would tell
Speaker 1: your partner because the fact that he didn't tell me,
Speaker 1: I was saying, so how he was just so embarrassed,
Speaker 1: you know, hearing it now. Um To be fair, No,
Speaker 1: I don't think he could have told me in the
Speaker 1: moment because I probably would have been like, too fucked up.
Speaker 1: But he absolutely should have told me. He shouldn't have
Speaker 1: told me now, bro, Now you ain't even got no
Speaker 1: way to fix it. Huh. He just don't remember you
Speaker 1: was making his dick belief. You know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: like your You don't know if I'm sure he got
Speaker 1: you came back from old I mean, I just didn't
Speaker 1: you or maybe it made him believe the last I
Speaker 1: don't even like me. It's still a good dick, sun
Speaker 1: because I asked right. I was so upset about this.
Speaker 1: I was like, so it was really that bad, and
Speaker 1: he was like, no, it was good. It's just like
Speaker 1: you got to you made me bleed. Your teeth came.
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you. I ain't ever going to
Speaker 1: the nail salon and been like, oh, she did my
Speaker 1: nails good. As soon as the bitch made me bleed.
Speaker 1: I hate everything she did. You nick my motherfucking nails.
Speaker 1: I don't care how good God this is not good
Speaker 1: need because he made me bleeve. You know, he told
Speaker 1: me though he said he didn't want to tell me
Speaker 1: because he knew I would start thinking about it when
Speaker 1: I was sucking dick. He's like, I didn't want you
Speaker 1: to be doing it and be like he wanting to
Speaker 1: thank you with a legend. No, but but for me,
Speaker 1: you have a tip. One. I wouldn't do it in
Speaker 1: the bedroom, okay, So I wouldn't do it like while
Speaker 1: in bed or do it before sex. So I think
Speaker 1: that would have put that in my head. But if
Speaker 1: he would have told me while we were out and
Speaker 1: like made a comment about it somewhere else, just outside,
Speaker 1: I think I would have handled it better. But like that,
Speaker 1: it needs to be a lighthearted like mentioned, not like
Speaker 1: talk real quick, not really sensitive. And he's right, he's like,
Speaker 1: you would have been sucking dick scared forever. So are
Speaker 1: you scared now? Okay? So I look, maybe I need
Speaker 1: to add my vis line back in the red. Um,
Speaker 1: let's get a sex tip from you. What sex tip
Speaker 1: do you have? And please let us know if it
Speaker 1: applies to the men or the women? Since you're okay, well,
Speaker 1: since we're talking about giving head, I'll stay on that track.
Speaker 1: And this is for men and women. Um, when you're
Speaker 1: giving head, don't be don't be afraid to choke on
Speaker 1: the day, like like, don't be afraid to choke on it,
Speaker 1: Like a little gag is actually sexy, like it's it's
Speaker 1: because for a lot of men, specifically, you know, sex
Speaker 1: has a lot to do with like a power. It's
Speaker 1: like a power thing. And like to notice somebody is
Speaker 1: like gagging on your ship, like that's really hot. And
Speaker 1: I would say, if you're afraid, like some people say,
Speaker 1: oh no, I don't want to the up or whatever,
Speaker 1: don't eat, don't eat within the hour of like of
Speaker 1: like fucking somebody you know, and if you before you
Speaker 1: suck them, because then it should be all down, you know,
Speaker 1: you should be good. But again, I ain't dying on
Speaker 1: the dick. I ain't gonna lie. I hate gagging, but
Speaker 1: I'm all some more dumb and I feel like the
Speaker 1: gag is me in a Submissters scene because I feel
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Speaker 1: But you'll never get better until you get past that
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Speaker 1: much dicken in black. Oh I can't Like no, I
Speaker 1: ain't gonna be mad even be brushing my teeth and
Speaker 1: be mad, I can't my teeth. I'll be like type
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Speaker 1: we are getting into our hoary blade decision and for
Speaker 1: this episode we are literally asking all things bisexual and
Speaker 1: black because I think it is easier and I'll be
Speaker 1: honest with shout outs to our twenty seven white listeners,
Speaker 1: I do feel like this is a conversation easier had
Speaker 1: um with the whites. Um, but it's came out of
Speaker 1: my mom's vagina knowing I was a non binary. I mean, listen,
Speaker 1: I think it's just it's an easier conversation in that community.
Speaker 1: I think a lot of guys, I mean, they play,
Speaker 1: especially with the friend Well, I mean we know where
Speaker 1: it stems from. It's the mask complex that black men have. Right.
Speaker 1: So before we get into literally diving into our questions,
Speaker 1: I do want you to kind of open up with
Speaker 1: us about um, your journey with bisexuality and when you
Speaker 1: realize or when you came to know that you know what,
Speaker 1: I like men and women. So my journey, um well one,
Speaker 1: I'll start with this. I was never a hyper masculine
Speaker 1: kid like growing up like I was. I was just
Speaker 1: regularly I think I was just a regular dude. But
Speaker 1: I also was inquired. I was like I ran track,
Speaker 1: like step team stuff like that. Um and so I
Speaker 1: was just kind of like that kid. I didn't want
Speaker 1: to do the sports that much, you know, until I
Speaker 1: got the later part of high school. But um so,
Speaker 1: people always thought I was like a little soft, like
Speaker 1: just just for that reason, you know, being in the South,
Speaker 1: not playing sports, not you know, wearing all the bag clothes.
Speaker 1: My parents was not going for that. Um So I
Speaker 1: was very like prep preppy, you know, dressed um and
Speaker 1: put together. And so because of that, people were like,
Speaker 1: oh y, And I was like, I don't like no
Speaker 1: niggas like I don't. I don't got nothing to do
Speaker 1: with me, you know what I'm saying. So battling that
Speaker 1: was one thing. I think. My first experience with the
Speaker 1: guy was the summer after high school. It was a
Speaker 1: friend of mine and they were they were on football
Speaker 1: team all that kind of time. First, Oh yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: I started being women when I was like eleven, so
Speaker 1: like so like I started doing like, you know, mainly
Speaker 1: oral stuff and stuff like that. And then my first
Speaker 1: like serious girlfriend. We were each other's first when when
Speaker 1: we were sixteen, so so that was all I knew
Speaker 1: up until then, so I was like well versed in
Speaker 1: like sex up until this point. Um. And then my HOMEOK,
Speaker 1: we were just chilling, you know, watching TV, started wrastling
Speaker 1: and stuff like that as kids do, and then and
Speaker 1: then suddenly, you know, you, I felt like something like
Speaker 1: grabbing my dick or whatever, and I was like, oh, chill,
Speaker 1: like whoa, whoa, like too much. It was like that.
Speaker 1: We stopped and then maybe like ten fifteen minutes go by,
Speaker 1: and suddenly my basketball starts to being pulled down and
Speaker 1: he's like sucking my dick basically. So I was like,
Speaker 1: I was stunned at first, but I didn't know what.
Speaker 1: I didn't know what to do because it felt good,
Speaker 1: but I was like, this ain't right, and so I
Speaker 1: made him stop and I left. We didn't talk for
Speaker 1: like like and this was my close friend. We didn't
Speaker 1: talk for a couple of months, and then finally he
Speaker 1: hit me up and we were like, yeah, that was crazy.
Speaker 1: We came back over to chill because we were like,
Speaker 1: it's whatever, and we kind of just picked up where
Speaker 1: we left off. And you said, this isn't right. Did
Speaker 1: that come from? Did you grow up in the church. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I grew up. I grew up you did you have
Speaker 1: of homosexuality earlier? Right? So growing up in a Bible belt, um,
Speaker 1: it's religion is a big thing. Baptist, Like, that's all
Speaker 1: I knew. I was in church five days a week,
Speaker 1: you know. I was in the choir, I was in
Speaker 1: the drill team, I was in I was in everything
Speaker 1: like and so yeah, my parents were not feeling that,
Speaker 1: Like my grandfather is a pastor, you know all that stuff.
Speaker 1: So so I didn't. I never hung around gay people, Like,
Speaker 1: I didn't know any gay people up until this point
Speaker 1: when you had that experience and you said, you guys
Speaker 1: didn't talk for those couple of months. Did you start
Speaker 1: looking up that like porn? I started. I did started
Speaker 1: looking at porn um like gay porn. And my mom
Speaker 1: actually saw it one time on the browser and was
Speaker 1: trying to figure out what it was and I was like,
Speaker 1: I don't know what happened. I was just like, right,
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know what happened. I was
Speaker 1: through all emotions. But I used to hate sharing the
Speaker 1: Mottle desktops. You it was the worst. And I remember
Speaker 1: my computer almost like jammed. One time I almost tried
Speaker 1: to print something like the internet page, but the printer
Speaker 1: was jammed, so it never printed. But then months later
Speaker 1: something printed out and I was like, oh my guy,
Speaker 1: yeah right, I caught it, but right, like a whole
Speaker 1: web page. But anyway, so a couple of months went by,
Speaker 1: I was looking at a little bit of porn because
Speaker 1: I was kind of curious. I just liked sex. I
Speaker 1: thought I had like a sex addiction at first. Um,
Speaker 1: and I remember just I got to college and I
Speaker 1: met my serious girlfriend at the time and we were together,
Speaker 1: and I was just like, we went on a break
Speaker 1: and I started messing with these dudes like from the
Speaker 1: neighboring school, um, neighboring university, just because I wasn't trying
Speaker 1: to do with nobody by me. I was like, for real,
Speaker 1: d L. At this point, I was paranoid. I was like,
Speaker 1: everybody's watching me everything I'm doing. And then finally, um,
Speaker 1: I was getting really depressed about my sexuality. And I
Speaker 1: went through this this very low period and I finally
Speaker 1: told my mom, Like I called her and I was like, yo,
Speaker 1: I think I'm bisexual, like dealing with this. Her response
Speaker 1: at first was you know, while you know, I love you,
Speaker 1: and like we'll get through this, We'll figure it out,
Speaker 1: are you sure? Kind of thing. Later on the line,
Speaker 1: it was a very different story. We went through a
Speaker 1: lot of bumps down the road. She's definitely coming back around. Um,
Speaker 1: my mom's from Mississippi, my dad's from New Jersey. Um, Camden,
Speaker 1: but we grew up in Arlington, Texas, so right outside
Speaker 1: of Dallas. But um, but yeah, so that was that
Speaker 1: was a different thing. So after I told my mom,
Speaker 1: I was able to tell my girlfriend at the time,
Speaker 1: and so, and that's one of the things that we're
Speaker 1: definitely gonna get into once we um start asking about dating.
Speaker 1: So you did tell her when you guys decided to
Speaker 1: get back together. Yeah, once we got back together, I
Speaker 1: guess I was eighteen nineteen, yeah around that. And no,
Speaker 1: she's actually four years older than me, and that was
Speaker 1: a freshman, she was senior. Can you share what that
Speaker 1: conversation was like? It was okay. So this was around
Speaker 1: the time that and I can't remember what the exact
Speaker 1: exact site was, but they were like going through all
Speaker 1: the campuses and like out in people about stuff like
Speaker 1: I don't know, there was a whole form. There was
Speaker 1: like a whole form was like so and so is
Speaker 1: like going through it was like a U. S. Yde
Speaker 1: thing like where all the campuses had a kind of site. Yeah,
Speaker 1: all the colleges had a site and so anyways, there
Speaker 1: was a lot of things circular circulating around, like athletes
Speaker 1: out of school and all these people. So I was like,
Speaker 1: let me just go because my name kind of like Linger,
Speaker 1: but it wasn't my name. It was like I knew
Speaker 1: they were talking about me though, and I was like,
Speaker 1: let me just talk to her before something gets out
Speaker 1: of hand and like, and so I told her and
Speaker 1: she was like okay, okay, like and then she just
Speaker 1: had a million questions that she wanted to ask him.
Speaker 1: We talked about it and it was actually really it
Speaker 1: set me up to be able to tell people going forward.
Speaker 1: And I love that your first experience with someone that
Speaker 1: you were dating was that way, because we brought it
Speaker 1: up even early on in the in the UM episode
Speaker 1: where we've seen it now more on TV with Molly
Speaker 1: Um and she was dating someone who came out and
Speaker 1: just said, hey, yeah, I experimented in college and there
Speaker 1: was this whole Her response to it wasn't inquisitive, nor
Speaker 1: was it that accepting. And I think that that is
Speaker 1: why we do have so many men that remain in
Speaker 1: the d L. So that's pretty good. But also we
Speaker 1: we've had a lot of conversation and we've wanted to
Speaker 1: talk about this with a buy man for a long time,
Speaker 1: about d L culture and like why it exists and
Speaker 1: things like that. Can you tell us, like did you
Speaker 1: have any first off, like role models or mentors and
Speaker 1: people to talk to about No, so when you talked
Speaker 1: to her, you didn't get any friends. Even now, I'm
Speaker 1: I'm a super like like men. People think I'm like
Speaker 1: just open and I do talk about stuff now, but
Speaker 1: in general, I'm a very private person. My parents don't
Speaker 1: even know things unless I tell them. They don't know
Speaker 1: who my friends like. Like, I'm very I've just always
Speaker 1: been that way. Um, So I didn't really have anybody
Speaker 1: talked to. I didn't have anybody to run it by
Speaker 1: first to figure out. So I was just like kind
Speaker 1: of going off the cup, like this is this is
Speaker 1: what I'm doing and and I just want to know
Speaker 1: what do you want to do? Like because I care
Speaker 1: about you and you say you care about me, but
Speaker 1: like what's this meaning for us? And so she was
Speaker 1: very she was with it. You know, she was with it.
Speaker 1: She actually she was well, I don't want to say,
Speaker 1: but no, okay. So she was the first person I
Speaker 1: actually did an't know with so so because of that experience,
Speaker 1: because like she was like, well you have experience with this,
Speaker 1: like I want to know down the path she was like,
Speaker 1: she was like she wanted to try it. She always
Speaker 1: wants to try an before and she said, well, you
Speaker 1: have experience with anal with other people, like fucking people,
Speaker 1: and that like like I want to try it. I
Speaker 1: want to try it. And I'm like that's as okay,
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Speaker 1: I get that, but I'm choosing to be with you,
Speaker 1: so like you have everything that I need. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. That was actually I was gonna real
Speaker 1: quick because it's going saying, um, someone actually asked that question,
Speaker 1: and UM, the question is do you need different things
Speaker 1: from men they you do from women, And do you
Speaker 1: feel that being a bisexual man one of these people
Speaker 1: can actually fulfill you? I think, Um, I think there
Speaker 1: are aspects of each gender that that appealed to me. Um.
Speaker 1: I think at a base level, there are certain things
Speaker 1: that I want from a human being, and like that's
Speaker 1: how I that's how I look at sexuality, things like
Speaker 1: I'm vibing with the soul, I'm vibing with a person,
Speaker 1: and that's what I'm going for. As far as sexually, Yeah,
Speaker 1: there's certain things like the more feminine side of women,
Speaker 1: but I don't want necessarily want that for my for
Speaker 1: the men that I'm dating, Like, and I've kind of
Speaker 1: come to a point where I don't know if I
Speaker 1: if I totally subscribe to monogamy at this point because
Speaker 1: of because of that me personally, I know there's a
Speaker 1: lot of bisexual people that are totally, you know, good
Speaker 1: with monogamy there with one person and they love it.
Speaker 1: And I want to be with one person emotionally, but sexually,
Speaker 1: I know that I like to experience more than one person,
Speaker 1: not necessarily, not necessarily more than one gender, like, but
Speaker 1: more than one person, someone who's by for myself. Like
Speaker 1: I had a uple which I felt like was like
Speaker 1: the best thing, right, yeah, that's were you going to
Speaker 1: trouble with a man and a woman? I was in
Speaker 1: a trouble with two men. Now okay for the future, right,
Speaker 1: Like you mentioned one person emotionally, which I think I
Speaker 1: would want for myself. Do you think you can handle
Speaker 1: a throuble with a man man and a woman? It
Speaker 1: depends on them, Like, because it's a maturity level. It's
Speaker 1: it's like how you relate to jealousy, It's how you
Speaker 1: see yourself self esteem and things like that go into
Speaker 1: a lot of it, and it's it's really about it's
Speaker 1: like a chemistry project, like getting three people on you know,
Speaker 1: three different mind mindsets to come together and say this
Speaker 1: is what we're doing and understand that every relationship is
Speaker 1: going to be different, like my relationship with you and
Speaker 1: my ship with you, it can be totally different. Has
Speaker 1: been different levels of relationship together. But like, I can't
Speaker 1: say what that has something to do with me? What's
Speaker 1: ideal for you? If you had to paint it? And
Speaker 1: even if if it's not something that you can like,
Speaker 1: where do you see yourself when you think about it?
Speaker 1: When I m hm, that's something I think about all
Speaker 1: the time. Yeah, I don't because I'm not sure. Sometimes
Speaker 1: I say like I might just need to be single,
Speaker 1: like and like go have a baby and like have
Speaker 1: my kids. I want kids and stuff like that. Um
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know. So with this, so a
Speaker 1: lot of people do like what you're saying, it's crazy
Speaker 1: because we kind of have gone through it too. As
Speaker 1: being women who identify as bisexual, A lot of people
Speaker 1: either view you as confused, greedy or even in this
Speaker 1: realm Polly, um So A lot of times and someone
Speaker 1: are But do you associate being bisexual with being polly
Speaker 1: because kind of like and even what we say, I know,
Speaker 1: I've talked about often wanting to be in a swinger
Speaker 1: type of couple. She's been in a thruffle and also open,
Speaker 1: and you're saying you've been in a thruffle and also both.
Speaker 1: Do you feel like they're one and the same? I
Speaker 1: feel like, um, it's conducive to that, Like it makes
Speaker 1: it makes sense why they would go together. But it's
Speaker 1: not a it's not a half to. It's not an
Speaker 1: end all, be all for people, like there are people
Speaker 1: that still just to be with one person, you know,
Speaker 1: and pollies are like a lifestyle. You know, it's not
Speaker 1: just like right, it's not just one time. But it's
Speaker 1: not just like oh I don't I don't have a
Speaker 1: three people tell me they're in the lifestyle. I'm like,
Speaker 1: oh my god, just say you're working free. So here's
Speaker 1: my country. We talked about this often as well. Um,
Speaker 1: and of course, just amongst the sexuality spectrum. When you're dating,
Speaker 1: because you date men and women, how early do you
Speaker 1: disclose that you're bisexual? Yeah, so okay, so go ahead,
Speaker 1: go ahead with men. Off the top, it could be
Speaker 1: easiest ship with women's women, you gotta feel them out
Speaker 1: to you, hoping they are like I gotta see if
Speaker 1: they're feeling me first, Like I always tell them before
Speaker 1: we have sex. Okay, So that's that's kind of like
Speaker 1: my hardline is like before we have sex, um, And
Speaker 1: that could be because I feel like, wait, bit y'all
Speaker 1: in bed and then you'd be like I'm about no, no, no.
Speaker 1: It's like you kind of get a vibe, like if
Speaker 1: you got a gender or whatever, you kind of know
Speaker 1: where it's leading, like the night is leading. So I
Speaker 1: might bring it up and just say, hey, how do
Speaker 1: you feel about this or what it like? Have you
Speaker 1: had any experiences around it? Like, and kind of segue
Speaker 1: it into there you know, to get But it's always
Speaker 1: a nervous conversation to have just because you never know
Speaker 1: how they're going to react. And if it's somebody you've
Speaker 1: been talking to for a minute, you don't want them
Speaker 1: to be upset. You don't want them to see you
Speaker 1: some kind of way, but like you also want them
Speaker 1: to know the real you know, And so I want
Speaker 1: to get that out the way off jump because I
Speaker 1: don't want to spend three months or whatever trying to
Speaker 1: like get to know you and make things pop, and
Speaker 1: then suddenly like, oh, I could never do that. I
Speaker 1: don't really use data apps. You haven't ever I have
Speaker 1: you seen his Instagram? Well that is like a data
Speaker 1: app if you it can be. But I'm curious to
Speaker 1: know because it's like if you did, have you just
Speaker 1: used like a gay dating app for if it was
Speaker 1: for men or when you were you use both? So
Speaker 1: I because I have both. I jumped on Tender before,
Speaker 1: but it was like it was like passively. It was
Speaker 1: like for like a month and a half or two
Speaker 1: I just wasn't feeling it. I don't know um and
Speaker 1: that I was just looking for women at that point.
Speaker 1: Like who do you feel more emotionally connected to from
Speaker 1: your experiences do you feel? I think I think women. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I like that. I like the nurturing like I like that.
Speaker 1: I love that, like softness, just like the motherly type
Speaker 1: of feeling, like that they want to embrace and bring
Speaker 1: you in. And I'm not super outwardly emotional, and so
Speaker 1: I like people who are and like because they kind
Speaker 1: of like cooks me out of it a little bit,
Speaker 1: like if I'm with somebody's stone face, like me, I'm
Speaker 1: we're just gonna be looking at do you see yourself generally?
Speaker 1: Like when if you could think back in relationships, are
Speaker 1: you more masked with women or I'm I'm definitely because
Speaker 1: how I was, how I was raised and like how
Speaker 1: my dad taught me, like this is how to be
Speaker 1: a man kind of thing, like and being in the South. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's like I'm super chivalrous, opening doors all that kind
Speaker 1: of stuff, and like I really catered to the women
Speaker 1: and like make sure they have a great experience, like
Speaker 1: all that kind of stuff. But I do some of
Speaker 1: the best relationships with women are the ones where I
Speaker 1: was able to just let, you know, let my hair
Speaker 1: down kind of and like just be be comfortable because
Speaker 1: like I'm a former ballet modern dancer UM. I used
Speaker 1: to date a dancer UM as well. And our because
Speaker 1: I guess because she is exposed to gay men all
Speaker 1: the time, the dynamics difference, She's not expecting me to
Speaker 1: be hyper masculine. It was. That was actually one of
Speaker 1: the questions asked if as a bisexual man you're how
Speaker 1: you behave does it change around women than when you're
Speaker 1: around It actually changes based off the individual because even
Speaker 1: even with men. You know, you have more feminine men,
Speaker 1: you have more masculine men, And so I tend to
Speaker 1: be a more dominant person in general, and I so
Speaker 1: I tend to date a little bit more feminine men.
Speaker 1: Um not not super not not most of the time.
Speaker 1: Do you ever see I'm I'm not saying I'm verse,
Speaker 1: but I'm not saying I'm verse, but I mostly top.
Speaker 1: But how would you feel about or could you not
Speaker 1: do it because it's a woman, How would you feel
Speaker 1: about pegging? Yeah? I thought about that. I don't think
Speaker 1: I could do it. Why couldn't you see? Because I
Speaker 1: love this conversation because this is people are assuming people.
Speaker 1: People also assume that as a man, if you're taking
Speaker 1: a strap from a woman, you may as well take
Speaker 1: a real dick, right. I love as a bisexual man
Speaker 1: who you know has taken dick, you like, I'm good
Speaker 1: on Yeah, it's not the same, but my strong game
Speaker 1: is good. You know, I believe I'll give you that
Speaker 1: because like when I've had a strap used on me
Speaker 1: from a woman, I'm just like it's fun. And again
Speaker 1: it's it's I think for me, it goes back to
Speaker 1: that like power dynamic, Like it's like I would feel
Speaker 1: totally emasculated, like by a woman like now I love
Speaker 1: I do actually like like somewhat aggressive women, so like
Speaker 1: I would love I love wo women like choke me
Speaker 1: or like all that kind of ship, like that is
Speaker 1: kind of hot for me, like to bend me over,
Speaker 1: like to bend me over, and like, I don't know,
Speaker 1: that's just like a like a really feminine dude, like
Speaker 1: trying to climb my back, Like that's not It's like
Speaker 1: if you if you're if you're masculine enough, if you're
Speaker 1: masculine enough, and like you're dominant enough to be if
Speaker 1: you're more dominant than I am, you can make that work.
Speaker 1: If you're not, you're not convincing me. We're not like
Speaker 1: your turn women. What's your type of like normally, what's
Speaker 1: your type? Um? Normally they're they're short, right skin normally
Speaker 1: just being from some but right right right, um there.
Speaker 1: I'm an ask man, so I love a fat ass
Speaker 1: um and they're usually like more not I don't want
Speaker 1: to say submissive, but they're usually a little bit quieter
Speaker 1: than not, Like they're not like rowy, what about your mama?
Speaker 1: Like that vibe to me? What you described is like
Speaker 1: ideal girl. So like for me, I think I picked
Speaker 1: men and women based off of that as well. I
Speaker 1: think a lot of by friends I have do the same.
Speaker 1: Men especially, they'll talk about there the women that they
Speaker 1: like being with me, like smaller, more petite, like kind
Speaker 1: of girlly flirty, and the dude beings like broader shoulders,
Speaker 1: super bill whatever, like do you like height? Like what
Speaker 1: is it your thing? For men? For men? What? Again?
Speaker 1: That that changes because I'm versed. So if they're a top,
Speaker 1: I want them obviously to be like bigger than me,
Speaker 1: like broad shoulders. Everybody I want to be athletic and fit,
Speaker 1: and that's I just like that aesthetic for myself. I
Speaker 1: like people that care about their body and work on
Speaker 1: it um. But if if I'm topping, then they can
Speaker 1: be smaller, that can be thin, you know, a little
Speaker 1: bit of booty like we are. The questions that if
Speaker 1: you're having like your versing, you are having sex with women,
Speaker 1: but you also don't like to be damned by women.
Speaker 1: Have you ever had sex with a woman and been
Speaker 1: thinking about a man or vice versa. Have you ever
Speaker 1: had sex with a man and you've thought about being
Speaker 1: I've definitely both yes, it's definitely happened, and I don't
Speaker 1: think it was like necessarily intentional unless we were getting
Speaker 1: to the point I was like, Okay, this is not
Speaker 1: like like maybe the sex wasn't that great and I'm
Speaker 1: like trying to get through it. So I started thinking
Speaker 1: about something that was really good and it may just
Speaker 1: happen to be the opposite sex or or at the time,
Speaker 1: you know what I'm referencing with. When it comes to women,
Speaker 1: like you have talked about good experience, what's been your
Speaker 1: worst experience that someone's like, has anyone ever made you
Speaker 1: feel like ship for me and by or I've had Listen,
Speaker 1: I've definitely had women like flat out just like turned
Speaker 1: me down, just like oh no, you're cute, but like
Speaker 1: that gay ship like I don't and I'm like I
Speaker 1: can't fault to you, like do what you want to
Speaker 1: do whatever. But I've had I've had a girl like
Speaker 1: tearing to me like you ain't ship your gay like
Speaker 1: going on and like loud, like we were like at
Speaker 1: a restaurant and I was like, first of all, I'm
Speaker 1: not a public arguer or anything to that, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm just very quiet and calm and and so I
Speaker 1: just got up. I just like left because I was
Speaker 1: like this some bullshit, Like and you said your first
Speaker 1: experience with opening up to your girlfriend went well, your
Speaker 1: mom kind of took it well in the beginning, Um,
Speaker 1: before we get into the homemail and wrap everything up,
Speaker 1: do you have any advice for any men listening to
Speaker 1: this and and what you would tell them as far
Speaker 1: as how to navigate their bisexuality? Yeah, I would, I
Speaker 1: would say, And I don't want to start here because
Speaker 1: you know, people talk about like being d L and
Speaker 1: bisexual and how they kind of conflate the two, and
Speaker 1: I would say definitely, there was a period that a
Speaker 1: lot of bisexual people do go through a DL period
Speaker 1: because they're afraid, you know, but it's because of society
Speaker 1: does not allow people to be who they are authentically,
Speaker 1: and so they feel like they have to hide it.
Speaker 1: But I would say, you know, because with that comes
Speaker 1: a lot of paranoia, like people are not checking for
Speaker 1: you like that, like they're not looking at you that hard,
Speaker 1: like like relax, take a deep breath, and like live
Speaker 1: for you, because at the end of the day, you've
Speaker 1: got one life. Nobody else is gonna live it for you,
Speaker 1: and you don't want to have regrets. And honestly, the
Speaker 1: more open I got about my sexuality, the easier it
Speaker 1: was for me to breathe um in life. Like it
Speaker 1: was just because I knew where I stood and I
Speaker 1: was very clear about it, and so what anybody else
Speaker 1: had to say, I was like, okay, Like that's are
Speaker 1: you trying to fund me? Or like what are we doing?
Speaker 1: Because if you're not, we don't need what were we
Speaker 1: talking about? You know, what are we talking about? Keep talking?
Speaker 1: But I do like it because I think it is
Speaker 1: easier or more acceptable for women to be biseys than
Speaker 1: men um but also for a lot of the women listening.
Speaker 1: I guess this is where you guys listened to this
Speaker 1: show a lot and open up your mind about kinks.
Speaker 1: I love seeing the tweets that nothing surprises you all
Speaker 1: now because we've talked about all of these kinks. But
Speaker 1: I think sexuality needs to be a part of that.
Speaker 1: And I think that this is where as women, we
Speaker 1: can help alleviate the paranoia or even the d L
Speaker 1: community with a lot of our our own brothers um
Speaker 1: who are afraid to come out about being bisexual. The
Speaker 1: thing about that, like with so with women. It's like
Speaker 1: it's like I have a lot of friends who are like, oh, yeah, no,
Speaker 1: we accept you, We love that. Yeah, look at this guy.
Speaker 1: Like they're always like they're very into it. But if
Speaker 1: if they were to say, oh, this guy's trying to
Speaker 1: talk to me, but he's not, they would not before
Speaker 1: like they're not feeling it at all, Like they're very
Speaker 1: like like tearing them that kind of kind of that way,
Speaker 1: but they would. They think I'm the exception, right because
Speaker 1: I'm their friends. It's like, you can't just be choosy.
Speaker 1: And I think in the black community that I was
Speaker 1: about to say, that's like saying I work with her
Speaker 1: good but you know what I mean. Yeah, so it's
Speaker 1: kind of the same. It's like, did do you align
Speaker 1: that with homosexuality? Like I just had that question in
Speaker 1: my head, Like I was, I was like, can you
Speaker 1: be kind of kind of homosexual? Let mean kind of
Speaker 1: like homophobius be kind of right? No, like you can't,
Speaker 1: And so like, damn that because that knocks off a
Speaker 1: lot of people you know in my life who are
Speaker 1: like choosy with me, but like, damn, Liken also believe
Speaker 1: them because there's a lot of things that they'll say
Speaker 1: that they're accepting of or okay with in front of
Speaker 1: your face, but they'll be right there to keep that
Speaker 1: that's true whoever's talking about people that are essentially a
Speaker 1: part of your because it also they're worried about what
Speaker 1: it makes them look like, right right right, They're like, oh, now,
Speaker 1: like you're dating a guy. Who's this? I mean, where
Speaker 1: do we just see this? What show was it? Where
Speaker 1: she was someone's beard? Was it the politician? Oh? I
Speaker 1: don't know, it might have been the politician On Netflix?
Speaker 1: There's there's a billions. I feel like billions maybe that,
Speaker 1: And it's like they're terrified the fucking you know, women
Speaker 1: are embarrassed to about that ship. Final question before we
Speaker 1: get into homemail, who you got more under your belt? Well,
Speaker 1: at this point, man, getting dick is the easiest thing.
Speaker 1: Can you go on? If you go on an app
Speaker 1: or Instagram, Facebook, anywhere and you message message guy social experiment,
Speaker 1: literally be like what's up? They'd be like, come chilling, horny,
Speaker 1: You look at like it's you. You have to wine
Speaker 1: and die and you have to fund that that you
Speaker 1: have to like give them experience. I do to a
Speaker 1: certain extent, but like sometimes I'm just I just want
Speaker 1: to funk like and it's like sex and emotion are
Speaker 1: very separate from me. You know, I can just have
Speaker 1: sex and it doesn't mean anything, but I can also
Speaker 1: apply emotion to sex and making something amazing. And I think,
Speaker 1: you know, women wanted to be the two all the time,
Speaker 1: and I just want to fund sometimes like I don't
Speaker 1: want to go through all this like this left and right.
Speaker 1: I don't want to take you on three dates and
Speaker 1: then try to find like. I mean, we can if
Speaker 1: I'm feeling you like that, but if I'm just like,
Speaker 1: damn you fine, like about reading the Steve Harvey book.
Speaker 1: You want to put you on throe. Oh that's not happening.
Speaker 1: That's not happening that I gotta be likely. I might
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Speaker 1: you get people who are cruising. They come and they're like, listen,
Speaker 1: I just want to come to class because I'm looking
Speaker 1: for some pussy. Uh no, there there's there's a group
Speaker 1: of people that I like to call Polly for pussy
Speaker 1: and that's pretty much all their interesting. Yeah, don't steal it.
Speaker 1: Um you can. Well, pussy is like someone who's not
Speaker 1: really interested in developing meaningful relationships with people, whatever meaningful means.
Speaker 1: They just have sex, you know, I mean, but they'll
Speaker 1: describe themselves as Polly as opposed to saying I'm a
Speaker 1: swinger or I like to have sex with a lot
Speaker 1: of people. There's nothing wrong with that, So we want
Speaker 1: to take the stigma away from whatever decisions you make.
Speaker 1: So actually ethically a monogamous because of that, Okay, that's yeah,
Speaker 1: that's a distinction a lot of people use. Yeah it's
Speaker 1: crazy because I feel like a lot of people don't
Speaker 1: know how to even self diagnose themselves that way. Like
Speaker 1: you could have a lot of sex with someone and
Speaker 1: then get in a relationship, and then you're also the
Speaker 1: person that's probably going to but trade the person you're
Speaker 1: with because you're cheating. But people don't know how to
Speaker 1: openly say, Hey, although I like you and I know
Speaker 1: you want to be with me, and I do want
Speaker 1: to be with you, I also like to have sex
Speaker 1: with just a lot of people. A lot of people
Speaker 1: also don't know how to accept that. What's your definition
Speaker 1: of the difference between the both being Polly and non monogamist. Well,
Speaker 1: I think, uh, non monogamy is like an umbrella term, right,
Speaker 1: So it just means you don't practice monogamy, right at
Speaker 1: least in the current part of time in your life.
Speaker 1: You don't practice monogamy. Now polyamory, which I think is
Speaker 1: actually a very small group of people, because those are
Speaker 1: people who are developing like actual loving relationships with folks,
Speaker 1: multiple people, and trying to maintain those relationships, you know.
Speaker 1: So that's not necessarily always the easiest thing to do.
Speaker 1: Um So it's a lot it's a lot more challenging,
Speaker 1: and I think a fewer people fall into that category.
Speaker 1: I'd recently did a piece for Refinary twenty nine about
Speaker 1: being black and queer. Don't identify as Polly. However, for
Speaker 1: this piece, I identified with every single term that fit
Speaker 1: with me because they are such an umbrella, which led
Speaker 1: me to say, I am non monogamous, ethically non monogous, polyamorous.
Speaker 1: I also called myself a hoe I use the term
Speaker 1: they then I called myself bisexual, queer pan sexual as well,
Speaker 1: which I don't do on a daily basis, But that's
Speaker 1: how fitting they were because a lot of these seems
Speaker 1: so broad. I'm like, well, pan sexual, of course, I
Speaker 1: sucked people for their personalities they look like. But I'm
Speaker 1: also definitely bisexual because I'm looking at you for your
Speaker 1: masculinity and women for their femininity. So it's like there's
Speaker 1: so much ship. I feel like it's so hard to
Speaker 1: pick your lane sometimes, and I'm curious to know with
Speaker 1: your polyamory and POC conversations, you said you specialize in that,
Speaker 1: are those like for people of color? So why do
Speaker 1: they need something separate? I try to specialize in it,
Speaker 1: you now, So it's introducing that conversation UM on a
Speaker 1: broader scale is definitely more challenging. I think people of color,
Speaker 1: especially when they have the experience of living in the US, right, so,
Speaker 1: our sexuality is either over sexualized and fetishized or it's
Speaker 1: over sexualized and demonized, you know. So we've so the
Speaker 1: America has used the black sexuality to outlaw drugs to
Speaker 1: create segregation laws.