1 00:00:02,759 --> 00:00:08,200 Speaker 1: Hey guys, welcome to another episode of Horrible Decisions. I 2 00:00:08,240 --> 00:00:13,560 Speaker 1: am your motherfucking girl, that bitch, full court pumps man 3 00:00:13,640 --> 00:00:17,400 Speaker 1: de little my niggle baby pegastaion, What's I don't know 4 00:00:17,440 --> 00:00:19,799 Speaker 1: if this name is. I'm Milannia Trump and I still 5 00:00:19,800 --> 00:00:23,400 Speaker 1: see everybody again, always have that person at the point, 6 00:00:23,440 --> 00:00:25,080 Speaker 1: I feel like you have an obsession with her. You 7 00:00:25,079 --> 00:00:27,440 Speaker 1: have done her accent about three or four times? Now, 8 00:00:27,520 --> 00:00:31,600 Speaker 1: do you know the last month? I no bullshit. One 9 00:00:31,640 --> 00:00:35,159 Speaker 1: of the side projects I'm working on, Um, I'm writing 10 00:00:35,200 --> 00:00:37,239 Speaker 1: where the person is an actor in the in the 11 00:00:37,280 --> 00:00:39,000 Speaker 1: script I'm working on, and they do a lot of 12 00:00:39,000 --> 00:00:42,559 Speaker 1: different voices, and my favorite one is Milan. Oh my god, 13 00:00:42,680 --> 00:00:45,440 Speaker 1: she just said her favorite person is Milannia Trump White. 14 00:00:48,320 --> 00:00:52,040 Speaker 1: Run it back, run it back back hurt. Her accents 15 00:00:52,080 --> 00:00:54,200 Speaker 1: so fun and she's such a fun person to do 16 00:00:54,280 --> 00:00:57,600 Speaker 1: because like as someone that like everybody's like talking about. 17 00:00:57,600 --> 00:00:59,840 Speaker 1: Oh my god, first lady, she's so classy. Remember that 18 00:01:00,080 --> 00:01:05,040 Speaker 1: share with her fingers. I want to say that, Well, 19 00:01:05,120 --> 00:01:08,720 Speaker 1: yes they do. They use to maga Twitter, which I 20 00:01:08,760 --> 00:01:10,400 Speaker 1: love clicking on the hashtag because I like to see 21 00:01:10,400 --> 00:01:12,280 Speaker 1: how racist people are because when I get bored, I'm like, 22 00:01:12,319 --> 00:01:14,840 Speaker 1: let me talk to him. All of them be like, 23 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:18,479 Speaker 1: look at her, gorgeous lady, she's so this, look how 24 00:01:18,520 --> 00:01:20,640 Speaker 1: she carries herself, and I just really want to throw 25 00:01:20,640 --> 00:01:23,880 Speaker 1: her wop on top of that. Well, if you want 26 00:01:23,920 --> 00:01:29,880 Speaker 1: to randomly curse out uh maga, twitter and racist, I 27 00:01:29,920 --> 00:01:32,920 Speaker 1: want to go ahead and curse out the whore hid bitches. 28 00:01:33,360 --> 00:01:36,959 Speaker 1: I'll see here and tell y'all to get the funk 29 00:01:37,000 --> 00:01:41,800 Speaker 1: off my taking ass pussy because apparently y'all are upset 30 00:01:41,840 --> 00:01:46,839 Speaker 1: that a bitch found love in a hard place. No bitch, 31 00:01:46,920 --> 00:01:52,320 Speaker 1: because he's an aquarious And apparently y'all know I don't 32 00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:54,600 Speaker 1: do the stars and moons, but I heard aquarious people 33 00:01:54,880 --> 00:02:00,600 Speaker 1: don't really show or tell their truth. Know he I 34 00:02:00,680 --> 00:02:02,760 Speaker 1: think he tells the truth. He just he's just one 35 00:02:02,760 --> 00:02:05,520 Speaker 1: of those where he's like, you know how I feel 36 00:02:05,560 --> 00:02:08,160 Speaker 1: because I show you how I feel, And so I 37 00:02:08,200 --> 00:02:09,640 Speaker 1: think if I say I love you, I don't think 38 00:02:09,639 --> 00:02:11,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get it back to be there old days 39 00:02:11,600 --> 00:02:16,520 Speaker 1: and aquarious and there we are a relationship birth from 40 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:18,799 Speaker 1: a fight, Like I was like, oh n, I'm done 41 00:02:18,840 --> 00:02:21,320 Speaker 1: with your ass, right we haven't fought yet, and then 42 00:02:21,760 --> 00:02:26,440 Speaker 1: and this was about six that's what comes out at 43 00:02:26,480 --> 00:02:29,520 Speaker 1: least all right, See, I don't want to keep no no, no, 44 00:02:29,520 --> 00:02:33,320 Speaker 1: no no, it's not toxic because sometimes people need to 45 00:02:33,360 --> 00:02:36,120 Speaker 1: lose it to bro it was twenty four hours. It 46 00:02:36,120 --> 00:02:39,440 Speaker 1: happened when we were in Detroit. We were in Detroit 47 00:02:39,600 --> 00:02:41,560 Speaker 1: and I was like so depressed because it was a 48 00:02:41,639 --> 00:02:44,320 Speaker 1: huge fight that Nigga called me and he was like, 49 00:02:44,600 --> 00:02:47,760 Speaker 1: I cannot live my life without you. I'm a fucking idiot. 50 00:02:47,880 --> 00:02:49,560 Speaker 1: I'm in love with you. Da da da da da 51 00:02:49,600 --> 00:02:51,040 Speaker 1: da da. He was like, I don't know what the funk. 52 00:02:51,040 --> 00:02:54,560 Speaker 1: I was thinking, that's funny that you say all these 53 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:58,440 Speaker 1: things because when we refer back to page I can 54 00:02:58,520 --> 00:03:02,680 Speaker 1: recall you just say, we're talking, we're kicking it even 55 00:03:02,680 --> 00:03:06,639 Speaker 1: though we're meeting families and doing Thanksgiving anything ease, and 56 00:03:06,680 --> 00:03:09,320 Speaker 1: you're talking about how we're not, Like are we not? 57 00:03:09,720 --> 00:03:12,280 Speaker 1: You got you? My girl? Let you wait a second? 58 00:03:12,280 --> 00:03:14,120 Speaker 1: How did my brand turn into your rant? Let me 59 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:17,320 Speaker 1: finish what I mean? Actually just want to take over 60 00:03:17,400 --> 00:03:20,359 Speaker 1: my rant about her? Nigga. I was very pulled into. 61 00:03:20,400 --> 00:03:24,480 Speaker 1: I was like, mind you which that trigger Aquarius. But 62 00:03:24,760 --> 00:03:28,760 Speaker 1: for the for the running time of this podcast, we 63 00:03:29,200 --> 00:03:32,200 Speaker 1: has had her boyfriends along the way. This is my 64 00:03:32,320 --> 00:03:36,280 Speaker 1: first one. And mind you, we had our Patreon recording 65 00:03:36,600 --> 00:03:38,760 Speaker 1: and motherfucking Siggy hots on there and was like, can 66 00:03:38,800 --> 00:03:41,360 Speaker 1: we get single Mandy back? Because I don't know if 67 00:03:41,400 --> 00:03:44,640 Speaker 1: I like this new Mandy bitch. And I'm like, listen, 68 00:03:44,760 --> 00:03:46,520 Speaker 1: but I'm not. I want to think I go to 69 00:03:46,560 --> 00:03:51,320 Speaker 1: the sex club. But no, here's the thing. You can 70 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:54,280 Speaker 1: be slotted out with your nigga. And when we get 71 00:03:54,320 --> 00:03:57,120 Speaker 1: to the motherfucking hor dirt, all my horddrts like me 72 00:03:57,200 --> 00:04:00,440 Speaker 1: that y'all been rocking with the motherfucking beat June and 73 00:04:00,480 --> 00:04:02,880 Speaker 1: all this little other ship come from my niggas. I 74 00:04:02,920 --> 00:04:04,880 Speaker 1: don't think that's the issue. What is the issue? Bro? 75 00:04:05,040 --> 00:04:13,360 Speaker 1: I think the issue? Tell no, I think that it's 76 00:04:13,600 --> 00:04:16,520 Speaker 1: because it has always been an opposing side, like Mandy's 77 00:04:16,520 --> 00:04:20,880 Speaker 1: been single Mandy, relationship, Mandy whatever, And now people don't 78 00:04:20,920 --> 00:04:25,480 Speaker 1: know what to do because what's happening is you're it's 79 00:04:25,480 --> 00:04:29,640 Speaker 1: almost like the person that they knew I'm still here. No, no, no, 80 00:04:29,720 --> 00:04:32,600 Speaker 1: But that's a real thing. That's a real thing because celebrities, 81 00:04:32,680 --> 00:04:34,840 Speaker 1: a lot of them, like when they're known as like 82 00:04:34,880 --> 00:04:37,200 Speaker 1: heart throbs and all that stuff, they stay single or 83 00:04:37,240 --> 00:04:40,240 Speaker 1: they or they're single publicly when they're really in a relationship, 84 00:04:41,080 --> 00:04:43,920 Speaker 1: because because their fan base is not gonna want them 85 00:04:44,000 --> 00:04:46,919 Speaker 1: if they're in a relationship. Stories, it's the attitude, right, 86 00:04:48,200 --> 00:04:50,360 Speaker 1: want me happy, They like the fantasy of you. But 87 00:04:50,520 --> 00:05:00,280 Speaker 1: you were always talking about went off on the show 88 00:05:00,320 --> 00:05:04,360 Speaker 1: about people that fucking post relationship. But that's the thing. 89 00:05:04,640 --> 00:05:07,159 Speaker 1: I have not posted me and my niggas, but you 90 00:05:07,480 --> 00:05:10,520 Speaker 1: like about him NonStop and you posted him on Patreon. 91 00:05:10,760 --> 00:05:15,680 Speaker 1: I mean, now you see that, really you know? It's 92 00:05:15,760 --> 00:05:19,080 Speaker 1: now you see like when you have someone that you 93 00:05:19,080 --> 00:05:21,919 Speaker 1: want to like, celebrate and you feel like it's you 94 00:05:21,960 --> 00:05:24,359 Speaker 1: can't you almost can't stop, like you want to share it. 95 00:05:24,600 --> 00:05:26,920 Speaker 1: It's like when something good happens to you, like you. 96 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:28,919 Speaker 1: It's not even like a flexing type of thing. In 97 00:05:28,920 --> 00:05:30,720 Speaker 1: my opinion, I don't think people can show off about 98 00:05:30,720 --> 00:05:32,880 Speaker 1: their relationships. I believe people just want to share. That's 99 00:05:32,920 --> 00:05:34,800 Speaker 1: what I'm talking about. I want to say the whore 100 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:36,640 Speaker 1: high because I feel like they didn't want me to 101 00:05:36,640 --> 00:05:39,520 Speaker 1: be happy. Y'all really just wanted me to be a single. 102 00:05:39,960 --> 00:05:43,039 Speaker 1: It's that married niggas forever ship that you were saying. 103 00:05:43,040 --> 00:05:44,880 Speaker 1: I'm not you thirty, y'all still want me to be 104 00:05:44,920 --> 00:05:48,039 Speaker 1: sucking up on Mary niggas forever. It's just the ship 105 00:05:48,200 --> 00:05:50,320 Speaker 1: you were saying does not equate with one. But I'm 106 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:53,880 Speaker 1: still eating booty, I'm still getting fucked in the ass. 107 00:05:54,200 --> 00:05:57,080 Speaker 1: I'm still going to sex clubs. We had a whole 108 00:05:57,120 --> 00:06:00,839 Speaker 1: eight person orgy that I shared with Patreon. Y'all. I 109 00:06:00,880 --> 00:06:03,240 Speaker 1: am still out here getting let the funk out by 110 00:06:03,279 --> 00:06:07,359 Speaker 1: my niggers. I think everyone's he had asshole eating it. 111 00:06:07,480 --> 00:06:10,240 Speaker 1: I think everybody is okay with that bit. He been 112 00:06:10,320 --> 00:06:12,080 Speaker 1: over on all fours the last time we went to 113 00:06:12,120 --> 00:06:14,640 Speaker 1: the sex club and say eat my ass. I ate 114 00:06:14,720 --> 00:06:16,880 Speaker 1: his ass and then I sucked the guy while my 115 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:21,599 Speaker 1: whole face was in his boot hole. Wolf. Okay on 116 00:06:21,680 --> 00:06:25,320 Speaker 1: that note. Anyways, guys and you, uh we do bo 117 00:06:25,440 --> 00:06:27,320 Speaker 1: You included in my red So I'm gonna go ahead 118 00:06:27,320 --> 00:06:30,240 Speaker 1: and introduce y'all, we have a third person joining us today. 119 00:06:30,240 --> 00:06:32,600 Speaker 1: I'm super excited to have this conversation. We is joined 120 00:06:32,600 --> 00:06:38,000 Speaker 1: by reds Why because you ain't red? Right? Everybody says that. 121 00:06:38,240 --> 00:06:40,880 Speaker 1: Everybody says that this is something that spans back to 122 00:06:40,960 --> 00:06:44,480 Speaker 1: when I first started modeling UM and basically nobody knew 123 00:06:44,480 --> 00:06:46,320 Speaker 1: who I was. I was very new to the scene. 124 00:06:46,400 --> 00:06:48,360 Speaker 1: We were doing this fashion show. I had on all 125 00:06:48,440 --> 00:06:50,480 Speaker 1: read and I didn't know what to do, and so 126 00:06:50,480 --> 00:06:53,599 Speaker 1: people just started referencing me by the color because I 127 00:06:53,600 --> 00:06:59,360 Speaker 1: started reference Hey, polka dots. Yeah, I'm so Dallas. That's 128 00:06:59,360 --> 00:07:01,960 Speaker 1: what they else. But you don't like niggas be like 129 00:07:02,160 --> 00:07:07,839 Speaker 1: hey red shirt. No no, because it started like, hey, 130 00:07:08,080 --> 00:07:11,560 Speaker 1: don't do that. Don't do that, bitch, don't do that. No. 131 00:07:11,640 --> 00:07:14,000 Speaker 1: It started because I started calling this girl keys because 132 00:07:14,040 --> 00:07:15,480 Speaker 1: she had her keys on and while she was doing 133 00:07:15,480 --> 00:07:18,440 Speaker 1: her walk that's always jingling. The whole time I was 134 00:07:18,480 --> 00:07:20,440 Speaker 1: calling her keys and she was calling me Red. People 135 00:07:20,480 --> 00:07:23,240 Speaker 1: trying to find me. So we don't give it that. 136 00:07:23,400 --> 00:07:27,120 Speaker 1: We will make up and make it relevant. Great shorts, 137 00:07:28,760 --> 00:07:30,480 Speaker 1: everybody can have great shorts on, but you know who 138 00:07:30,560 --> 00:07:34,200 Speaker 1: they're talking about. So I was gonna say, I'm excited, guys, 139 00:07:34,240 --> 00:07:37,560 Speaker 1: because we're about to have UM dive into during the 140 00:07:37,600 --> 00:07:42,240 Speaker 1: Horrible Decision, a conversation on bisexuality, specifically in the black community. 141 00:07:42,640 --> 00:07:44,160 Speaker 1: UM and so Red is here to join us in 142 00:07:44,160 --> 00:07:46,600 Speaker 1: that conversation, and I'm just I'm super excited. I got 143 00:07:46,600 --> 00:07:50,560 Speaker 1: some questions UM from our audience on Instagram, but also 144 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:53,160 Speaker 1: Weezy and I have wanted to have this conversation for 145 00:07:53,200 --> 00:07:55,120 Speaker 1: so long, um, and so I'm really glad to be 146 00:07:55,160 --> 00:07:57,280 Speaker 1: having this with you. But also this it really stemmed 147 00:07:57,280 --> 00:07:59,360 Speaker 1: from us asking for a buy guy to come on 148 00:07:59,560 --> 00:08:03,000 Speaker 1: because of the whole Jeffrey Star thing with people either 149 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:06,320 Speaker 1: saying like, oh, how because he looks masked or or 150 00:08:06,320 --> 00:08:09,320 Speaker 1: why or it can't be true. And it's all of 151 00:08:09,400 --> 00:08:11,520 Speaker 1: that ship that we thought about right like we've been 152 00:08:11,560 --> 00:08:13,560 Speaker 1: seeing it I think in media and pop culture, whether 153 00:08:13,600 --> 00:08:17,040 Speaker 1: it be I May Destroy You or Insecure and especially 154 00:08:17,120 --> 00:08:19,880 Speaker 1: us talking about like by fantasies or mmf by three 155 00:08:19,880 --> 00:08:23,080 Speaker 1: species And that's and that's the thing, especially with me again, 156 00:08:23,120 --> 00:08:25,920 Speaker 1: I joked pegg the stallion of your nickname early on. 157 00:08:26,200 --> 00:08:27,960 Speaker 1: Of course, I think we brought it up an episode 158 00:08:27,960 --> 00:08:29,960 Speaker 1: two that pegging was something that I enjoyed. And that's 159 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:33,280 Speaker 1: been a common question because a lot of the men 160 00:08:33,360 --> 00:08:36,240 Speaker 1: that I've done this to do identify a straight So 161 00:08:36,280 --> 00:08:39,560 Speaker 1: even the conversation of your masculinity and your hetero normal 162 00:08:39,720 --> 00:08:43,000 Speaker 1: like your hetero sexuality being in your Buddha hole. So 163 00:08:43,040 --> 00:08:44,800 Speaker 1: we're gonna talk about that later on, but you know, 164 00:08:44,800 --> 00:08:47,520 Speaker 1: I want to just say very quickly that I really 165 00:08:47,559 --> 00:08:49,680 Speaker 1: appreciate you saying that we could ask you whatever you 166 00:08:49,679 --> 00:08:51,120 Speaker 1: want because it's just on my mind. And once I 167 00:08:51,160 --> 00:08:53,280 Speaker 1: say it, I'm done. Who do you get better head to? 168 00:08:53,640 --> 00:08:56,520 Speaker 1: What do you think you're better at? Starting? Alright? Anymore? 169 00:08:56,760 --> 00:09:00,760 Speaker 1: I love that? Um, I think personally I'm better sucking 170 00:09:01,640 --> 00:09:06,040 Speaker 1: so much easy, it's easy, it's easier. I'm suffer. But 171 00:09:06,520 --> 00:09:09,200 Speaker 1: because I would say that, and I would say I 172 00:09:09,240 --> 00:09:13,120 Speaker 1: think men suck better dick than women because we have 173 00:09:13,280 --> 00:09:15,000 Speaker 1: it and we know what we want done to it, 174 00:09:15,320 --> 00:09:17,560 Speaker 1: and so we know how to replicate that on another person. 175 00:09:17,720 --> 00:09:19,080 Speaker 1: I don't have a but I feel like I do 176 00:09:19,120 --> 00:09:21,400 Speaker 1: a way better than Now that's some women that got 177 00:09:21,640 --> 00:09:25,880 Speaker 1: got that throat like yeah, but a lot of people 178 00:09:25,880 --> 00:09:27,360 Speaker 1: are like a lot of women don't know how to 179 00:09:27,559 --> 00:09:31,600 Speaker 1: like suck dick properly. So here's wasn't too much porn porn. 180 00:09:31,840 --> 00:09:33,439 Speaker 1: A lot of women that we even had on his 181 00:09:33,559 --> 00:09:36,600 Speaker 1: guests of the show, they don't enjoy sucking. So I 182 00:09:36,600 --> 00:09:39,440 Speaker 1: feel like in order to be a good dick sucker, 183 00:09:39,720 --> 00:09:41,520 Speaker 1: you have to enjoy doing it. Is because of the 184 00:09:41,559 --> 00:09:46,000 Speaker 1: stigma th like of like not being nerdy, like you 185 00:09:46,040 --> 00:09:47,800 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like I do have a question 186 00:09:47,800 --> 00:09:51,480 Speaker 1: for you. This is how you're asking the questions already. 187 00:09:51,559 --> 00:09:56,160 Speaker 1: But this is a really embarrassing story that I haven't 188 00:09:56,200 --> 00:09:58,120 Speaker 1: been wanting to tell on the podcast because I can't 189 00:09:58,120 --> 00:09:59,760 Speaker 1: believe it because I'm so ashamed. But I have to 190 00:09:59,800 --> 00:10:02,240 Speaker 1: tell it because I just want you guys to know. 191 00:10:02,440 --> 00:10:06,480 Speaker 1: Don't doubt me. His dick is huge. Please understand, as 192 00:10:06,760 --> 00:10:10,240 Speaker 1: my mother said, she knows it's genetic. I'm top five 193 00:10:10,280 --> 00:10:12,800 Speaker 1: dick sucker. Oh Bay called me top three. I think 194 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:14,280 Speaker 1: it really means number one, but he don't want to 195 00:10:14,280 --> 00:10:18,160 Speaker 1: tell me. And that what's it call loverboy too? So 196 00:10:18,440 --> 00:10:21,480 Speaker 1: hospital dick you've heard me talk about. We recently had 197 00:10:21,520 --> 00:10:26,760 Speaker 1: a conversation. But we had a conversation put you in 198 00:10:26,760 --> 00:10:31,880 Speaker 1: the hospital. He didn't put me in the hospital. The 199 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:35,680 Speaker 1: mic was too close. So we started talking about dick 200 00:10:35,760 --> 00:10:40,080 Speaker 1: sucking and about how he knows like his dick is huge, right, 201 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:42,720 Speaker 1: particularly like the girl that I want to know what's used, 202 00:10:43,840 --> 00:10:45,559 Speaker 1: because I think women have a different idea of what 203 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:49,280 Speaker 1: little take it, like that he literally put a bit 204 00:10:49,360 --> 00:10:55,040 Speaker 1: in the hospital. Okay, too tilted uterus, Um, here's the issue. 205 00:10:55,040 --> 00:10:58,880 Speaker 1: He said to me that I cut his dick before 206 00:10:59,320 --> 00:11:00,960 Speaker 1: I was like, why wouldn't you tell me that I 207 00:11:00,960 --> 00:11:03,040 Speaker 1: cut your dick with my teeth? And I know there 208 00:11:03,280 --> 00:11:05,160 Speaker 1: because you got an over byte know. He was like. 209 00:11:05,800 --> 00:11:09,559 Speaker 1: I was like, have you always been feeling under? He said, 210 00:11:10,000 --> 00:11:13,520 Speaker 1: he always feels teeth. I'm like with me, he's like everybody. 211 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:15,320 Speaker 1: He's like, it takes a special type of person and 212 00:11:15,320 --> 00:11:17,120 Speaker 1: not feel their teeth. And he's like, so I don't 213 00:11:17,120 --> 00:11:19,400 Speaker 1: say anything. I'm like, what does it feel like? He's like, 214 00:11:19,440 --> 00:11:21,400 Speaker 1: it just felt like males. He never told me this. 215 00:11:21,440 --> 00:11:22,920 Speaker 1: When I was working with him, right and I was 216 00:11:22,960 --> 00:11:24,440 Speaker 1: in shock. He's like, because I know you love to 217 00:11:24,480 --> 00:11:29,599 Speaker 1: do it and you it feels good. He's like, but yeah, 218 00:11:29,640 --> 00:11:32,560 Speaker 1: I was so embarrassed me. He said that he went 219 00:11:32,640 --> 00:11:38,280 Speaker 1: to the there was a blood bitch. Believe you if 220 00:11:38,280 --> 00:11:46,880 Speaker 1: you we got to demote you to talk say it 221 00:11:46,920 --> 00:11:48,920 Speaker 1: was a bad day. He said. Everybody stuck his dick 222 00:11:48,960 --> 00:11:54,640 Speaker 1: and he felt teeth. I ain't gonna hold you. I 223 00:11:54,720 --> 00:11:58,280 Speaker 1: put King Noir's mold in my mouth. I couldn't get 224 00:11:58,320 --> 00:12:00,719 Speaker 1: past the head. So that's why was like, thank god 225 00:12:00,720 --> 00:12:02,600 Speaker 1: we never did. I think I'll tell you it's a 226 00:12:02,840 --> 00:12:07,040 Speaker 1: it's a little bit smaller than Kingo's I've had it 227 00:12:07,040 --> 00:12:09,520 Speaker 1: in my head nigga's dick is ginormous. So so this 228 00:12:09,559 --> 00:12:18,880 Speaker 1: is a big dick to me like that, that's that's 229 00:12:18,880 --> 00:12:23,320 Speaker 1: not a no, it's a he is a two hand dick. Upset, 230 00:12:23,760 --> 00:12:26,439 Speaker 1: but no, even that's too big. Okay, y'all are watching 231 00:12:26,480 --> 00:12:28,920 Speaker 1: on the YouTube. This is the tester to know if 232 00:12:28,920 --> 00:12:30,839 Speaker 1: you've got a big old dick or not. And it's 233 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:33,280 Speaker 1: we're not even talking about length. We're talking about girls. 234 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:34,880 Speaker 1: Niggas don't need to do you know when you got 235 00:12:35,240 --> 00:12:38,240 Speaker 1: no niggas don't maybe thinking that's why that little go 236 00:12:38,400 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: wrap a be bagging on the ass. So if you 237 00:12:41,280 --> 00:12:43,800 Speaker 1: can't put your hand around your dick, so okay, if 238 00:12:43,800 --> 00:12:45,920 Speaker 1: you put your hand around your dick and your fingers 239 00:12:45,960 --> 00:12:50,280 Speaker 1: touch your dick, is like it's normal. If normal, it's normal. 240 00:12:50,800 --> 00:12:53,680 Speaker 1: If if a woman or you put your hand around 241 00:12:53,679 --> 00:12:56,000 Speaker 1: your dick and there's a little gap between the fingers, 242 00:12:56,320 --> 00:12:58,360 Speaker 1: that's when you know you got a big old dick, 243 00:12:58,720 --> 00:13:02,280 Speaker 1: so your teeth could eaty. I just want to say, 244 00:13:02,280 --> 00:13:05,640 Speaker 1: we're about to normalize. Bit and didn't do something jaw exercises. 245 00:13:05,880 --> 00:13:07,880 Speaker 1: I'm a legendary dick sucker, though dog and when he 246 00:13:07,920 --> 00:13:10,280 Speaker 1: told me that I was so upset, bro, I had 247 00:13:10,320 --> 00:13:12,920 Speaker 1: to textas nigga like, so how long did it take me? Feel? Like? 248 00:13:12,960 --> 00:13:22,560 Speaker 1: What the fun? I'm dead All We're gonna go ahead 249 00:13:22,600 --> 00:13:26,040 Speaker 1: and get into our vanilla ship, guys, and I am 250 00:13:26,080 --> 00:13:29,160 Speaker 1: going to be inserting a clip because I recently posted 251 00:13:29,160 --> 00:13:32,319 Speaker 1: it to our Horrible Decisions page. But little did you 252 00:13:32,360 --> 00:13:38,360 Speaker 1: guys know, bisexuality has been in hip hop since forever um, 253 00:13:38,440 --> 00:13:40,840 Speaker 1: So we're gonna go ahead and play the little clip 254 00:13:40,880 --> 00:13:43,679 Speaker 1: now and just listen to all some of your top classics, 255 00:13:43,880 --> 00:13:46,960 Speaker 1: your favorite rap artists, and the ship that they motherfucking 256 00:13:47,080 --> 00:13:57,160 Speaker 1: say just walk protected by Niven. Let me tell you something. 257 00:13:57,240 --> 00:13:59,080 Speaker 1: You might got more cash than me, but you might 258 00:13:59,120 --> 00:14:01,040 Speaker 1: got the skills to eat and they can act like me. 259 00:14:10,480 --> 00:14:19,240 Speaker 1: You look so I've never had before. But he told 260 00:14:19,240 --> 00:14:23,080 Speaker 1: me to push you. Alright, So there we go. That's 261 00:14:23,080 --> 00:14:25,520 Speaker 1: what it was. I'm gonna do like, you know, a 262 00:14:25,600 --> 00:14:29,360 Speaker 1: little a little fancy stuff at the end. But basically 263 00:14:29,440 --> 00:14:31,920 Speaker 1: I wanted to bring this up because there's a lot 264 00:14:32,240 --> 00:14:35,560 Speaker 1: of uh, I don't want to say gay, I'll say 265 00:14:35,600 --> 00:14:38,480 Speaker 1: bisexual because these are a lot of openly hetero men, 266 00:14:39,160 --> 00:14:42,680 Speaker 1: but they put some such stuff I guess in their rhymes. 267 00:14:42,880 --> 00:14:45,800 Speaker 1: I also wanted to talk about how recently it's kind 268 00:14:45,800 --> 00:14:49,920 Speaker 1: of been a trend for for men as specifically in 269 00:14:50,040 --> 00:14:52,360 Speaker 1: the music industry to come out as bi sexual or gay. 270 00:14:52,440 --> 00:14:54,960 Speaker 1: So we have low Nozacs, of course, we have Frank 271 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:58,440 Speaker 1: Ocean Tyler the Creator. It's also been something with athletes 272 00:14:58,520 --> 00:15:04,480 Speaker 1: recently coming out Michael Michael, Sam Michael, you ain't gonna 273 00:15:04,480 --> 00:15:11,800 Speaker 1: know the niggas, she said, touchdown in basketball. So it's 274 00:15:11,800 --> 00:15:15,080 Speaker 1: been kind of, um, trendy, kind of like you said, 275 00:15:15,080 --> 00:15:18,200 Speaker 1: a lot of people just being more open with sharing, uh, 276 00:15:18,280 --> 00:15:21,240 Speaker 1: their sexuality. So I wanted to know how that has 277 00:15:21,320 --> 00:15:24,040 Speaker 1: kind of affected you and do you feel like it 278 00:15:24,160 --> 00:15:26,680 Speaker 1: is trendy and not genuine with people coming out about 279 00:15:26,720 --> 00:15:30,120 Speaker 1: their sexualities in the music and media industry. What are 280 00:15:30,160 --> 00:15:33,120 Speaker 1: your thoughts on kind of again this trend. So I 281 00:15:33,160 --> 00:15:35,600 Speaker 1: definitely feel like I don't know if I would necessarily 282 00:15:35,640 --> 00:15:38,360 Speaker 1: use trendy. I think it's definitely becoming a little more 283 00:15:38,360 --> 00:15:42,000 Speaker 1: acceptable and people are seeing, uh, like they're seeing an avenue. 284 00:15:42,040 --> 00:15:43,920 Speaker 1: We're like, oh, shoot, I can get in and not 285 00:15:44,040 --> 00:15:47,560 Speaker 1: get like crucified necessarily for telling my truth, whereas they've 286 00:15:47,600 --> 00:15:49,640 Speaker 1: always had to hide that ship, you know, And so 287 00:15:49,800 --> 00:15:52,120 Speaker 1: I think society makes it hard for people to just 288 00:15:52,160 --> 00:15:56,560 Speaker 1: be authentically themselves. And because we have decided you mess 289 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:58,360 Speaker 1: with a dude one time, you're gay. You mess with 290 00:15:58,560 --> 00:16:01,120 Speaker 1: you even think about this, you're gay. Everything you do 291 00:16:01,280 --> 00:16:04,840 Speaker 1: that's not super hyper masculine is gay. And so people 292 00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:07,640 Speaker 1: don't want to be labeled that if that's not their 293 00:16:07,640 --> 00:16:09,360 Speaker 1: truth necessary, or even if it is, they don't want 294 00:16:09,400 --> 00:16:11,840 Speaker 1: to be ostracized for it. And so now that it's 295 00:16:12,360 --> 00:16:16,360 Speaker 1: they're seeing people successfully come out and still have successful careers, 296 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:20,000 Speaker 1: they're they're jumping on right. And I think, Um, one 297 00:16:20,040 --> 00:16:23,560 Speaker 1: of Frank Ocean's biggest um songs, what was it? It was? 298 00:16:24,160 --> 00:16:25,880 Speaker 1: I want to say I was thinking about you, but 299 00:16:25,960 --> 00:16:27,800 Speaker 1: one of them was about a man, and he was 300 00:16:27,800 --> 00:16:30,200 Speaker 1: singing about a man and it came out and I mean, 301 00:16:30,240 --> 00:16:34,800 Speaker 1: ship people still listen to Frank Ocean, like Ludvandro songs 302 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:39,320 Speaker 1: is about man. People are not gonna admit that. People 303 00:16:39,360 --> 00:16:41,440 Speaker 1: not gonna admit that. I think there's even a lyric 304 00:16:41,480 --> 00:16:44,240 Speaker 1: he has about him holding him or something like that. Yeah, 305 00:16:44,320 --> 00:16:47,200 Speaker 1: but it's also crazy. Well, if we go into all 306 00:16:47,200 --> 00:16:50,480 Speaker 1: of that, y'all love a good Malcolm X. But Malcolm 307 00:16:50,480 --> 00:16:54,040 Speaker 1: exos that turn the tricks in the photo holes. Yeah, like, 308 00:16:54,360 --> 00:16:55,960 Speaker 1: and that's when he was known as what red he 309 00:16:56,040 --> 00:16:59,560 Speaker 1: was he was bisexual and that's something it's so crazy 310 00:16:59,600 --> 00:17:02,640 Speaker 1: because love maybe it was gay as hill what that's 311 00:17:02,760 --> 00:17:06,280 Speaker 1: crazy in the straits around here getting married to him. 312 00:17:06,720 --> 00:17:10,600 Speaker 1: But just let's be clear, gauge, just do everything right, 313 00:17:11,200 --> 00:17:15,160 Speaker 1: do they not? Okay, let's let's go by the list. 314 00:17:15,280 --> 00:17:17,359 Speaker 1: I'm going with you. Let's go take me down there. 315 00:17:17,440 --> 00:17:19,679 Speaker 1: Anything we are all wearing in this room, including the 316 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:22,199 Speaker 1: homophobe niggas walking on the street, was chosen for us 317 00:17:22,240 --> 00:17:24,320 Speaker 1: by a gay man. Let's be real, dog, I'm not 318 00:17:24,359 --> 00:17:28,600 Speaker 1: gonna I am wearing this nigga and he's questionable. And 319 00:17:28,680 --> 00:17:38,840 Speaker 1: all that colored orange orange in the room, that was like, 320 00:17:38,840 --> 00:17:40,879 Speaker 1: we're not going with jail house orange. We're gonna go 321 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:46,240 Speaker 1: with a little bit lighter strange. If this ain't the 322 00:17:46,280 --> 00:17:49,160 Speaker 1: devil worst product, you think that blue is just something. 323 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:52,360 Speaker 1: I just I think that a lot of people don't 324 00:17:52,400 --> 00:17:54,439 Speaker 1: give credit to all the things that are circling in 325 00:17:54,440 --> 00:17:56,760 Speaker 1: their life. They probably were influenced by somebody. Get not 326 00:17:56,800 --> 00:17:59,320 Speaker 1: to mention corsic, you know what I mean? Specifically, music, 327 00:17:59,520 --> 00:18:02,200 Speaker 1: um and like I said, even in the clip that 328 00:18:02,200 --> 00:18:05,120 Speaker 1: that I gave, Oh my god, there's um one one 329 00:18:05,200 --> 00:18:07,879 Speaker 1: where he says he talks about doing it, but as 330 00:18:07,880 --> 00:18:09,600 Speaker 1: long as it's in jail, it's not gay. But we 331 00:18:09,720 --> 00:18:12,399 Speaker 1: learned it from jail to go from behind and just 332 00:18:12,440 --> 00:18:14,800 Speaker 1: a whole uca. That's the annoying part too, about the 333 00:18:14,840 --> 00:18:17,680 Speaker 1: jail thing. Desperation doesn't make you want to suck dick. 334 00:18:17,800 --> 00:18:21,760 Speaker 1: You had it in yet you okay? Well, okay, so 335 00:18:21,880 --> 00:18:24,240 Speaker 1: can we have that conversation real quick because you don't 336 00:18:24,240 --> 00:18:25,760 Speaker 1: want to use the date drug dealers. So I know 337 00:18:25,800 --> 00:18:28,240 Speaker 1: them niggas was in jail one time and they probably 338 00:18:28,320 --> 00:18:31,800 Speaker 1: sucked a little dick or I told you. I don't think. 339 00:18:32,800 --> 00:18:37,160 Speaker 1: I told my friend used to date somebody in jail, 340 00:18:37,160 --> 00:18:39,720 Speaker 1: and I ain't gonna say his name because he don't 341 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:42,080 Speaker 1: know what I but he said that when he was 342 00:18:42,119 --> 00:18:44,800 Speaker 1: in jail, they would put pictures of their loved ones 343 00:18:44,920 --> 00:18:47,240 Speaker 1: on the backs of the niggas that they would fuck, 344 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:50,720 Speaker 1: and so they wouldn't necessarily feel like they were sucking 345 00:18:50,720 --> 00:18:54,560 Speaker 1: a guy, but just to feel that penetrations close your eyes, 346 00:18:55,160 --> 00:18:57,160 Speaker 1: what do you close your eyes? I mean they want 347 00:18:57,160 --> 00:19:00,960 Speaker 1: to imagine they sucking They loved ones. Well, yeah, I said, 348 00:19:00,960 --> 00:19:05,199 Speaker 1: that's fine. I mean because again, being gay or it's 349 00:19:05,240 --> 00:19:08,320 Speaker 1: not about the act, it's about like what you feel, 350 00:19:08,359 --> 00:19:10,960 Speaker 1: what you like, what you're attracted to, Like that's where 351 00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:13,440 Speaker 1: it stems from. So it's like, just because you fucking 352 00:19:13,480 --> 00:19:18,280 Speaker 1: nigger one time, like that don't make you gaynsa in 353 00:19:18,280 --> 00:19:20,640 Speaker 1: in the sex club about that. He listened to our episode. 354 00:19:20,640 --> 00:19:21,880 Speaker 1: So I went to the sex club and this guy 355 00:19:21,960 --> 00:19:23,840 Speaker 1: was like, I'm a bone to pick with you. Uh. 356 00:19:23,960 --> 00:19:25,639 Speaker 1: There was just a guy in the CYD club. I'm 357 00:19:25,640 --> 00:19:27,399 Speaker 1: not gonna bring up his name, but he came to 358 00:19:27,440 --> 00:19:29,760 Speaker 1: me and wanted to have the conversation and by about 359 00:19:30,080 --> 00:19:36,000 Speaker 1: bisexuality because he identifies as by. But he also is like, 360 00:19:36,080 --> 00:19:38,040 Speaker 1: I would never be with a man, so I'm not 361 00:19:38,119 --> 00:19:41,040 Speaker 1: fully by. He says, just because a man fox man, 362 00:19:41,359 --> 00:19:44,480 Speaker 1: that doesn't make him by if he wouldn't be romantic, please, 363 00:19:44,520 --> 00:19:47,320 Speaker 1: I also would never be with the Republicand bitch, let's 364 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,399 Speaker 1: be real, what does that mean. That's just such an 365 00:19:49,440 --> 00:19:52,800 Speaker 1: exhausting Like I get so annoyed with that because people 366 00:19:52,840 --> 00:19:55,800 Speaker 1: equate like I'll be with you as the standard to 367 00:19:56,160 --> 00:20:02,080 Speaker 1: how gay you are them to me like, yes, maybe 368 00:20:02,160 --> 00:20:04,280 Speaker 1: you feel like there's maybe there's something about a man 369 00:20:04,359 --> 00:20:06,760 Speaker 1: that you don't see as ideal for you and a partner. 370 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:09,119 Speaker 1: You've been comments about not being with a woman, but 371 00:20:09,160 --> 00:20:11,760 Speaker 1: you never equate it too. You've talked about, like I 372 00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:14,760 Speaker 1: see myself with a man, You'll see that it's not like, oh, 373 00:20:14,800 --> 00:20:17,240 Speaker 1: I'm not that gay because I won't be with a girl. 374 00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:20,440 Speaker 1: Like I just think that that notion of it is strange. 375 00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:23,399 Speaker 1: It is they always separate that stuff like romance and 376 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:26,000 Speaker 1: like sexual, like what you're actually doing because I think 377 00:20:26,000 --> 00:20:28,919 Speaker 1: there's something like by romantic and like there's all these 378 00:20:28,960 --> 00:20:35,399 Speaker 1: different terms that they're coming out with, curious, curious on 379 00:20:35,440 --> 00:20:37,639 Speaker 1: the road. I don't know, like I'm not totally hit 380 00:20:37,720 --> 00:20:40,879 Speaker 1: with all the lingo, but I know I'm bi sexual. 381 00:20:40,920 --> 00:20:41,960 Speaker 1: A lot of people want to like, why are you 382 00:20:42,000 --> 00:20:44,600 Speaker 1: not paying sexual? Why are you not? And we're gonna 383 00:20:44,640 --> 00:20:47,720 Speaker 1: dig into it a lot. But also like we've talked 384 00:20:47,720 --> 00:20:49,359 Speaker 1: about it so much, and we've had so many people 385 00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:52,960 Speaker 1: come on here um in this sex space who also 386 00:20:53,040 --> 00:20:55,879 Speaker 1: just hated the labels altogether. They didn't want to identify 387 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:58,280 Speaker 1: as either or we We talked about the Kinzie scale 388 00:20:58,359 --> 00:21:01,359 Speaker 1: so much on this show. Where is a spectrum to 389 00:21:01,400 --> 00:21:03,879 Speaker 1: where you may not fully align with bi sexuality, but 390 00:21:03,920 --> 00:21:05,359 Speaker 1: you may not be all the way gay, but you 391 00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:09,399 Speaker 1: also may not be something. For Refinery twenty nine for 392 00:21:09,480 --> 00:21:12,280 Speaker 1: queer people. And in the clip that they posted on me, 393 00:21:12,359 --> 00:21:15,280 Speaker 1: I was like, I'm paying by hole whatever, and some 394 00:21:15,320 --> 00:21:17,080 Speaker 1: people are mean, like I've never heard you say pan before. 395 00:21:17,119 --> 00:21:18,600 Speaker 1: I was like, I don't mean to use it as 396 00:21:18,640 --> 00:21:20,520 Speaker 1: a joke, but like nigga, all of them, Yes, I 397 00:21:20,520 --> 00:21:23,120 Speaker 1: can understand me liking people for people but also liking 398 00:21:23,160 --> 00:21:24,919 Speaker 1: men because their men and women for women. Like, what 399 00:21:24,960 --> 00:21:27,440 Speaker 1: the fun you want me to say? That's an umbrella 400 00:21:27,480 --> 00:21:31,560 Speaker 1: thing queer too, ubrella super umbrella. So we are gonna 401 00:21:31,600 --> 00:21:33,800 Speaker 1: now get into our Hord Derve, So go hit and 402 00:21:33,840 --> 00:21:36,159 Speaker 1: handle six tip reading. So the hord Dirt for you 403 00:21:36,200 --> 00:21:38,159 Speaker 1: guys who were maybe watching us or listening to us 404 00:21:38,200 --> 00:21:41,439 Speaker 1: for the very first time. Our Horrid Derve segment is 405 00:21:41,600 --> 00:21:43,679 Speaker 1: sex tips. So we do like to help you all 406 00:21:43,680 --> 00:21:46,240 Speaker 1: in the bedroom just a little bit. And so this 407 00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:48,880 Speaker 1: one comes from my nigga and me said, y'all want 408 00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:51,879 Speaker 1: now on top um. But so this sex tip that 409 00:21:52,000 --> 00:21:55,280 Speaker 1: I have for today is just literally using things that 410 00:21:55,320 --> 00:21:59,280 Speaker 1: are around you for sex. So this actually came because 411 00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:02,439 Speaker 1: I realized me and my partner would be having sex 412 00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:04,840 Speaker 1: and bitch my sex toys and my whole, my whole 413 00:22:04,840 --> 00:22:07,680 Speaker 1: little sex bag is in the closet. So anytime I 414 00:22:07,720 --> 00:22:10,560 Speaker 1: wanted to kind of add anything, it was a whole pause, 415 00:22:10,640 --> 00:22:13,040 Speaker 1: like I'm trying to look in my closet in the 416 00:22:13,119 --> 00:22:14,400 Speaker 1: dark because I don't want to turn on the lights 417 00:22:14,400 --> 00:22:16,719 Speaker 1: and mess up the mood. Um. And so I got 418 00:22:16,800 --> 00:22:19,160 Speaker 1: an end table and I put it by my bed 419 00:22:19,480 --> 00:22:22,040 Speaker 1: and literally now on the end table um and in 420 00:22:22,080 --> 00:22:24,800 Speaker 1: the drawer I have oils for because we do massages 421 00:22:24,840 --> 00:22:29,160 Speaker 1: a lot. I have lotion, I have um lubes and wipes, 422 00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:32,000 Speaker 1: and then I do just keep either a vibrator or 423 00:22:32,119 --> 00:22:34,639 Speaker 1: one of my toys that I may want to use. 424 00:22:34,760 --> 00:22:37,120 Speaker 1: So before he comes over, I normally just make sure 425 00:22:37,119 --> 00:22:40,240 Speaker 1: everything is set up because it helps not having to 426 00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:42,200 Speaker 1: ruin the mood by having to go and get lube 427 00:22:42,320 --> 00:22:45,800 Speaker 1: or having to go just for we can go through. 428 00:22:45,920 --> 00:22:49,239 Speaker 1: We go through a lot of of rounds, and so 429 00:22:49,359 --> 00:22:51,520 Speaker 1: I normally get him a hot towel, but sometimes I'll 430 00:22:51,520 --> 00:22:57,680 Speaker 1: just lay there. I mean, I just do a little 431 00:22:57,680 --> 00:22:59,679 Speaker 1: white since oh no, no no, I wipe them all 432 00:22:59,680 --> 00:23:01,840 Speaker 1: down with hot towel and all of that, but also 433 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:04,760 Speaker 1: I wanted to bring up something as well as a 434 00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:08,479 Speaker 1: household item that is already there. I brought this up 435 00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:13,919 Speaker 1: on Patreon. Snow I wanted. I wanted to give you, guys, 436 00:23:14,240 --> 00:23:16,359 Speaker 1: maybe if you're not if you're a little bit more 437 00:23:16,480 --> 00:23:20,719 Speaker 1: vanilla and you haven't graduated to purchasing one of your 438 00:23:20,720 --> 00:23:23,080 Speaker 1: sex toys with our code. I don't know if they 439 00:23:23,119 --> 00:23:25,080 Speaker 1: sponsored this episode yet those so I'm gonna say it, 440 00:23:25,320 --> 00:23:27,720 Speaker 1: but anyways, if y'all don't have sex toys, one of 441 00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:29,560 Speaker 1: the things that he's introduced to me and that I've 442 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:33,000 Speaker 1: used for the very first time is a pillowcase. And 443 00:23:33,040 --> 00:23:36,439 Speaker 1: I brought this up on Patreon. He literally, while he 444 00:23:36,560 --> 00:23:39,280 Speaker 1: was sucking me from behind, he picks up my pillow 445 00:23:39,320 --> 00:23:41,400 Speaker 1: and I'm thinking he's gonna fucking suffocate me or nothing, 446 00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:43,560 Speaker 1: but no, he does not. He picks up the pillow, 447 00:23:44,040 --> 00:23:47,120 Speaker 1: take the pillow case off of my pillow and kind 448 00:23:47,119 --> 00:23:50,080 Speaker 1: of twirls it and uses uses it as a gag. Now, 449 00:23:51,040 --> 00:23:54,720 Speaker 1: then after household this is a household item, bitch. Then 450 00:23:54,800 --> 00:23:57,640 Speaker 1: after he takes it out of my mouth, he then 451 00:23:57,720 --> 00:24:00,320 Speaker 1: puts it underneath me to lift me up. So instead 452 00:24:00,320 --> 00:24:05,199 Speaker 1: of propping me up with hell, yeah, suck me like 453 00:24:05,200 --> 00:24:07,200 Speaker 1: I'm a I am a stalon. You know what I mean? 454 00:24:07,320 --> 00:24:09,480 Speaker 1: Did you say you know what to say? A worse 455 00:24:09,800 --> 00:24:13,600 Speaker 1: like a worse like getting a bitch. I like that 456 00:24:13,880 --> 00:24:17,040 Speaker 1: with my motherfucking pillow case. Now every time you lay 457 00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:19,360 Speaker 1: on that motherfucker pillow you're thinking like, I don't told 458 00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:23,280 Speaker 1: I didn't hold this nigga like way too much. You 459 00:24:23,280 --> 00:24:25,879 Speaker 1: made it at an a k cowboy esque kind of 460 00:24:25,920 --> 00:24:27,720 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying at you funk with me 461 00:24:28,280 --> 00:24:30,880 Speaker 1: what you got. I'm trying to sit my writer brain 462 00:24:30,920 --> 00:24:34,080 Speaker 1: ain't on just yard you said a household item. I 463 00:24:34,119 --> 00:24:40,720 Speaker 1: was ready the household. I don't know what it was 464 00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:43,720 Speaker 1: going for. First off, you missed that whole episode. I 465 00:24:43,720 --> 00:24:45,560 Speaker 1: don't talk about how nigger didn't have a deal though, 466 00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:49,880 Speaker 1: so he sucked his ass with the with the bro 467 00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:52,399 Speaker 1: that't want to get the old story. And at the time, 468 00:24:52,560 --> 00:24:54,680 Speaker 1: because it was it was one of them wave brushes. 469 00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:59,680 Speaker 1: I just thought it because he didn't want with the 470 00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:03,720 Speaker 1: so portant. Now but you know it's still wood the handle. 471 00:25:03,800 --> 00:25:08,800 Speaker 1: Now that's too much. First, we're going a lot. That's 472 00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,000 Speaker 1: definitely the gap in between the fingers. But yeah, so 473 00:25:11,040 --> 00:25:13,200 Speaker 1: I wanted to bring like they didn't go for toothbrush. 474 00:25:13,240 --> 00:25:15,280 Speaker 1: I think that really shows personally, you know what I mean? 475 00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:17,280 Speaker 1: The shows a little girl too. You got a little 476 00:25:17,320 --> 00:25:19,520 Speaker 1: but you showed me this video before we even had 477 00:25:19,560 --> 00:25:23,119 Speaker 1: a podcast. Yeah. I just remember thinking to myself, like, 478 00:25:23,280 --> 00:25:26,960 Speaker 1: did he have nothing else in the home? Baby? Not? 479 00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:30,359 Speaker 1: But he didn't always he was a struggling college student 480 00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:34,280 Speaker 1: at the time. So you got your little your bathroom 481 00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:37,960 Speaker 1: caddy and stuff whatever, that's all you got when you 482 00:25:38,000 --> 00:25:42,600 Speaker 1: got when you got out the toothbrush and what my 483 00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:45,159 Speaker 1: mom sent me in You think he was waiting for 484 00:25:45,200 --> 00:25:46,680 Speaker 1: his past but a hit, you know what I mean? 485 00:25:46,680 --> 00:25:50,720 Speaker 1: Because forever can you imagine like he could what it 486 00:25:50,920 --> 00:25:52,440 Speaker 1: was he now he could have only fans and I 487 00:25:52,480 --> 00:25:54,480 Speaker 1: don't know he's actually um I brought it up. I 488 00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:56,719 Speaker 1: ended up sucking him and I stopped at midway and 489 00:25:56,800 --> 00:25:59,240 Speaker 1: I was like, this isn't great. I'll call you uber 490 00:25:59,359 --> 00:26:01,960 Speaker 1: leave Like so actually by the time we did, it 491 00:26:02,040 --> 00:26:04,480 Speaker 1: just was not good to where I stopped midway and 492 00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:06,840 Speaker 1: was like, you're not sucking me like the bitches you 493 00:26:06,960 --> 00:26:09,879 Speaker 1: sent me, I'm cool, Like it just wasn't What did 494 00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:12,480 Speaker 1: he say? Nothing. I called him an uber to go. 495 00:26:13,280 --> 00:26:17,560 Speaker 1: Was he still I don't? Yeah? Yeah, Well, I was 496 00:26:17,600 --> 00:26:19,280 Speaker 1: just like, you gotta go. Well, he did come to 497 00:26:19,320 --> 00:26:21,840 Speaker 1: me from Jersey. He was up here visiting from Jersey, 498 00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:24,439 Speaker 1: so he came and chilled in my crib, and I 499 00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:26,040 Speaker 1: think I really got upset because he didn't give me 500 00:26:26,080 --> 00:26:29,960 Speaker 1: no bacon, egg and cheese, and that's what oh yeah, 501 00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:33,760 Speaker 1: sent him back to Jersey. I was like, you gotta go. 502 00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:37,880 Speaker 1: I would literally die if you like, whoa, my dick 503 00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:43,800 Speaker 1: is bleeding, bitch from that fucking That's why I'm telling 504 00:26:43,800 --> 00:26:46,879 Speaker 1: you that could cripple somebody's I know he loves me, 505 00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:49,359 Speaker 1: and I love him back. He's a sweet man and 506 00:26:49,400 --> 00:26:51,880 Speaker 1: I really cherished him, and I would really appreciate because 507 00:26:51,880 --> 00:26:53,240 Speaker 1: my head would have been sucked up if I knew 508 00:26:53,280 --> 00:26:55,440 Speaker 1: in the middle of us dating that I cut his dick. 509 00:26:55,640 --> 00:26:57,159 Speaker 1: And I was like, so, what did you tell? Well? 510 00:26:57,200 --> 00:27:00,639 Speaker 1: Real quick, then, um, can you give us tip on 511 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:04,439 Speaker 1: how you would handle something going not so well in 512 00:27:04,520 --> 00:27:06,280 Speaker 1: bed that you didn't like and how you would tell 513 00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:08,399 Speaker 1: your partner because the fact that he didn't tell me, 514 00:27:08,440 --> 00:27:11,040 Speaker 1: I was saying, so how he was just so embarrassed, 515 00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:14,760 Speaker 1: you know, hearing it now. Um To be fair, No, 516 00:27:14,880 --> 00:27:16,119 Speaker 1: I don't think he could have told me in the 517 00:27:16,160 --> 00:27:18,040 Speaker 1: moment because I probably would have been like, too fucked up. 518 00:27:18,160 --> 00:27:20,000 Speaker 1: But he absolutely should have told me. He shouldn't have 519 00:27:20,040 --> 00:27:22,919 Speaker 1: told me now, bro, Now you ain't even got no 520 00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:25,000 Speaker 1: way to fix it. Huh. He just don't remember you 521 00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:27,640 Speaker 1: was making his dick belief. You know what I'm saying, 522 00:27:27,680 --> 00:27:33,600 Speaker 1: like your You don't know if I'm sure he got 523 00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:37,240 Speaker 1: you came back from old I mean, I just didn't 524 00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:40,240 Speaker 1: you or maybe it made him believe the last I 525 00:27:40,240 --> 00:27:42,440 Speaker 1: don't even like me. It's still a good dick, sun 526 00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:45,159 Speaker 1: because I asked right. I was so upset about this. 527 00:27:45,240 --> 00:27:47,000 Speaker 1: I was like, so it was really that bad, and 528 00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:48,800 Speaker 1: he was like, no, it was good. It's just like 529 00:27:48,840 --> 00:27:50,959 Speaker 1: you got to you made me bleed. Your teeth came. 530 00:27:51,000 --> 00:27:52,439 Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold you. I ain't ever going to 531 00:27:52,480 --> 00:27:54,080 Speaker 1: the nail salon and been like, oh, she did my 532 00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:55,720 Speaker 1: nails good. As soon as the bitch made me bleed. 533 00:27:55,800 --> 00:27:59,200 Speaker 1: I hate everything she did. You nick my motherfucking nails. 534 00:27:59,320 --> 00:28:03,680 Speaker 1: I don't care how good God this is not good 535 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:06,920 Speaker 1: need because he made me bleeve. You know, he told 536 00:28:06,920 --> 00:28:08,560 Speaker 1: me though he said he didn't want to tell me 537 00:28:08,600 --> 00:28:10,600 Speaker 1: because he knew I would start thinking about it when 538 00:28:10,600 --> 00:28:12,800 Speaker 1: I was sucking dick. He's like, I didn't want you 539 00:28:12,840 --> 00:28:14,280 Speaker 1: to be doing it and be like he wanting to 540 00:28:14,400 --> 00:28:21,800 Speaker 1: thank you with a legend. No, but but for me, 541 00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:23,679 Speaker 1: you have a tip. One. I wouldn't do it in 542 00:28:23,720 --> 00:28:26,760 Speaker 1: the bedroom, okay, So I wouldn't do it like while 543 00:28:26,880 --> 00:28:28,800 Speaker 1: in bed or do it before sex. So I think 544 00:28:28,800 --> 00:28:29,919 Speaker 1: that would have put that in my head. But if 545 00:28:29,920 --> 00:28:31,320 Speaker 1: he would have told me while we were out and 546 00:28:31,359 --> 00:28:34,680 Speaker 1: like made a comment about it somewhere else, just outside, 547 00:28:35,000 --> 00:28:36,920 Speaker 1: I think I would have handled it better. But like that, 548 00:28:36,960 --> 00:28:39,120 Speaker 1: it needs to be a lighthearted like mentioned, not like 549 00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:46,120 Speaker 1: talk real quick, not really sensitive. And he's right, he's like, 550 00:28:46,160 --> 00:28:49,320 Speaker 1: you would have been sucking dick scared forever. So are 551 00:28:49,320 --> 00:28:58,200 Speaker 1: you scared now? Okay? So I look, maybe I need 552 00:28:58,200 --> 00:29:01,920 Speaker 1: to add my vis line back in the red. Um, 553 00:29:02,000 --> 00:29:05,680 Speaker 1: let's get a sex tip from you. What sex tip 554 00:29:05,760 --> 00:29:07,360 Speaker 1: do you have? And please let us know if it 555 00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:11,680 Speaker 1: applies to the men or the women? Since you're okay, well, 556 00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:15,200 Speaker 1: since we're talking about giving head, I'll stay on that track. 557 00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:19,080 Speaker 1: And this is for men and women. Um, when you're 558 00:29:19,080 --> 00:29:22,280 Speaker 1: giving head, don't be don't be afraid to choke on 559 00:29:22,320 --> 00:29:26,920 Speaker 1: the day, like like, don't be afraid to choke on it, 560 00:29:27,160 --> 00:29:30,360 Speaker 1: Like a little gag is actually sexy, like it's it's 561 00:29:30,440 --> 00:29:33,200 Speaker 1: because for a lot of men, specifically, you know, sex 562 00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:35,880 Speaker 1: has a lot to do with like a power. It's 563 00:29:35,920 --> 00:29:38,640 Speaker 1: like a power thing. And like to notice somebody is 564 00:29:38,640 --> 00:29:41,200 Speaker 1: like gagging on your ship, like that's really hot. And 565 00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:44,400 Speaker 1: I would say, if you're afraid, like some people say, 566 00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:46,240 Speaker 1: oh no, I don't want to the up or whatever, 567 00:29:46,760 --> 00:29:50,640 Speaker 1: don't eat, don't eat within the hour of like of 568 00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:54,320 Speaker 1: like fucking somebody you know, and if you before you 569 00:29:54,360 --> 00:29:56,240 Speaker 1: suck them, because then it should be all down, you know, 570 00:29:56,320 --> 00:29:58,920 Speaker 1: you should be good. But again, I ain't dying on 571 00:29:58,920 --> 00:30:01,080 Speaker 1: the dick. I ain't gonna lie. I hate gagging, but 572 00:30:01,120 --> 00:30:03,560 Speaker 1: I'm all some more dumb and I feel like the 573 00:30:03,640 --> 00:30:06,880 Speaker 1: gag is me in a Submissters scene because I feel 574 00:30:06,920 --> 00:30:09,640 Speaker 1: like I can't take the dick and I really can't. 575 00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,960 Speaker 1: But you'll never get better until you get past that 576 00:30:12,000 --> 00:30:13,920 Speaker 1: point where you because people be trying to put this 577 00:30:14,000 --> 00:30:16,640 Speaker 1: much dicken in black. Oh I can't Like no, I 578 00:30:16,640 --> 00:30:19,560 Speaker 1: ain't gonna be mad even be brushing my teeth and 579 00:30:19,600 --> 00:30:22,520 Speaker 1: be mad, I can't my teeth. I'll be like type 580 00:30:22,560 --> 00:30:26,160 Speaker 1: a weak bit of mine, sagging with a tooth crush. 581 00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:28,760 Speaker 1: I just want to god, I'll be so fed up 582 00:30:28,800 --> 00:30:31,240 Speaker 1: with my motherucker. I want to go this video. I 583 00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,400 Speaker 1: don't know if anyone has seen it, but I don't 584 00:30:33,400 --> 00:30:36,200 Speaker 1: want to know if y'all think this is spit, here 585 00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:40,240 Speaker 1: we go or she loves the visuals. I'm not watching you, 586 00:30:40,520 --> 00:30:42,880 Speaker 1: I'm not watching I think it's fit. No, you think 587 00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:51,240 Speaker 1: it's there's no color, it's disgusting, right, but she made 588 00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:58,960 Speaker 1: rees this pieces. But phone spit that's almost too much. 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Um, but it's came out of 650 00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:37,120 Speaker 1: my mom's vagina knowing I was a non binary. I mean, listen, 651 00:34:37,440 --> 00:34:40,560 Speaker 1: I think it's just it's an easier conversation in that community. 652 00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,160 Speaker 1: I think a lot of guys, I mean, they play, 653 00:34:42,280 --> 00:34:44,200 Speaker 1: especially with the friend Well, I mean we know where 654 00:34:44,200 --> 00:34:47,399 Speaker 1: it stems from. It's the mask complex that black men have. Right. 655 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:50,760 Speaker 1: So before we get into literally diving into our questions, 656 00:34:51,040 --> 00:34:52,719 Speaker 1: I do want you to kind of open up with 657 00:34:52,800 --> 00:34:56,480 Speaker 1: us about um, your journey with bisexuality and when you 658 00:34:56,600 --> 00:34:59,279 Speaker 1: realize or when you came to know that you know what, 659 00:34:59,360 --> 00:35:04,160 Speaker 1: I like men and women. So my journey, um well one, 660 00:35:04,160 --> 00:35:06,680 Speaker 1: I'll start with this. I was never a hyper masculine 661 00:35:06,760 --> 00:35:08,920 Speaker 1: kid like growing up like I was. I was just 662 00:35:09,040 --> 00:35:10,880 Speaker 1: regularly I think I was just a regular dude. But 663 00:35:10,920 --> 00:35:13,960 Speaker 1: I also was inquired. I was like I ran track, 664 00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:18,920 Speaker 1: like step team stuff like that. Um and so I 665 00:35:19,000 --> 00:35:20,719 Speaker 1: was just kind of like that kid. I didn't want 666 00:35:20,719 --> 00:35:23,120 Speaker 1: to do the sports that much, you know, until I 667 00:35:23,160 --> 00:35:26,040 Speaker 1: got the later part of high school. But um so, 668 00:35:26,080 --> 00:35:28,239 Speaker 1: people always thought I was like a little soft, like 669 00:35:28,400 --> 00:35:30,680 Speaker 1: just just for that reason, you know, being in the South, 670 00:35:30,760 --> 00:35:34,240 Speaker 1: not playing sports, not you know, wearing all the bag clothes. 671 00:35:34,280 --> 00:35:36,239 Speaker 1: My parents was not going for that. Um So I 672 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:39,600 Speaker 1: was very like prep preppy, you know, dressed um and 673 00:35:39,640 --> 00:35:41,960 Speaker 1: put together. And so because of that, people were like, 674 00:35:41,960 --> 00:35:43,920 Speaker 1: oh y, And I was like, I don't like no 675 00:35:44,040 --> 00:35:45,799 Speaker 1: niggas like I don't. I don't got nothing to do 676 00:35:45,840 --> 00:35:48,439 Speaker 1: with me, you know what I'm saying. So battling that 677 00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:52,200 Speaker 1: was one thing. I think. My first experience with the 678 00:35:52,239 --> 00:35:55,360 Speaker 1: guy was the summer after high school. It was a 679 00:35:55,400 --> 00:35:57,720 Speaker 1: friend of mine and they were they were on football 680 00:35:57,760 --> 00:36:01,080 Speaker 1: team all that kind of time. First, Oh yeah, yeah, 681 00:36:00,600 --> 00:36:03,520 Speaker 1: I started being women when I was like eleven, so 682 00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:06,360 Speaker 1: like so like I started doing like, you know, mainly 683 00:36:06,480 --> 00:36:08,400 Speaker 1: oral stuff and stuff like that. And then my first 684 00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:11,319 Speaker 1: like serious girlfriend. We were each other's first when when 685 00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:15,239 Speaker 1: we were sixteen, so so that was all I knew 686 00:36:15,320 --> 00:36:17,160 Speaker 1: up until then, so I was like well versed in 687 00:36:17,280 --> 00:36:20,200 Speaker 1: like sex up until this point. Um. And then my HOMEOK, 688 00:36:20,200 --> 00:36:22,760 Speaker 1: we were just chilling, you know, watching TV, started wrastling 689 00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:27,480 Speaker 1: and stuff like that as kids do, and then and 690 00:36:27,520 --> 00:36:29,520 Speaker 1: then suddenly, you know, you, I felt like something like 691 00:36:29,560 --> 00:36:31,919 Speaker 1: grabbing my dick or whatever, and I was like, oh, chill, 692 00:36:32,040 --> 00:36:34,680 Speaker 1: like whoa, whoa, like too much. It was like that. 693 00:36:34,920 --> 00:36:38,640 Speaker 1: We stopped and then maybe like ten fifteen minutes go by, 694 00:36:38,800 --> 00:36:42,520 Speaker 1: and suddenly my basketball starts to being pulled down and 695 00:36:42,600 --> 00:36:45,120 Speaker 1: he's like sucking my dick basically. So I was like, 696 00:36:45,680 --> 00:36:47,560 Speaker 1: I was stunned at first, but I didn't know what. 697 00:36:47,719 --> 00:36:49,319 Speaker 1: I didn't know what to do because it felt good, 698 00:36:49,520 --> 00:36:51,759 Speaker 1: but I was like, this ain't right, and so I 699 00:36:51,760 --> 00:36:53,640 Speaker 1: made him stop and I left. We didn't talk for 700 00:36:53,680 --> 00:36:55,919 Speaker 1: like like and this was my close friend. We didn't 701 00:36:55,920 --> 00:36:59,120 Speaker 1: talk for a couple of months, and then finally he 702 00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:00,760 Speaker 1: hit me up and we were like, yeah, that was crazy. 703 00:37:01,000 --> 00:37:03,160 Speaker 1: We came back over to chill because we were like, 704 00:37:03,280 --> 00:37:05,319 Speaker 1: it's whatever, and we kind of just picked up where 705 00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:08,480 Speaker 1: we left off. And you said, this isn't right. Did 706 00:37:08,520 --> 00:37:10,600 Speaker 1: that come from? Did you grow up in the church. Yeah, 707 00:37:10,600 --> 00:37:12,160 Speaker 1: I grew up. I grew up you did you have 708 00:37:12,239 --> 00:37:16,040 Speaker 1: of homosexuality earlier? Right? So growing up in a Bible belt, um, 709 00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:20,040 Speaker 1: it's religion is a big thing. Baptist, Like, that's all 710 00:37:20,080 --> 00:37:21,799 Speaker 1: I knew. I was in church five days a week, 711 00:37:22,200 --> 00:37:23,840 Speaker 1: you know. I was in the choir, I was in 712 00:37:24,560 --> 00:37:26,840 Speaker 1: the drill team, I was in I was in everything 713 00:37:27,040 --> 00:37:31,759 Speaker 1: like and so yeah, my parents were not feeling that, 714 00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:34,680 Speaker 1: Like my grandfather is a pastor, you know all that stuff. 715 00:37:34,719 --> 00:37:37,840 Speaker 1: So so I didn't. I never hung around gay people, Like, 716 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:40,120 Speaker 1: I didn't know any gay people up until this point 717 00:37:40,360 --> 00:37:42,319 Speaker 1: when you had that experience and you said, you guys 718 00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:45,000 Speaker 1: didn't talk for those couple of months. Did you start 719 00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:48,360 Speaker 1: looking up that like porn? I started. I did started 720 00:37:48,360 --> 00:37:51,279 Speaker 1: looking at porn um like gay porn. And my mom 721 00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:53,719 Speaker 1: actually saw it one time on the browser and was 722 00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:55,200 Speaker 1: trying to figure out what it was and I was like, 723 00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:58,120 Speaker 1: I don't know what happened. I was just like, right, 724 00:37:58,160 --> 00:37:59,799 Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know what happened. I was 725 00:38:00,040 --> 00:38:02,920 Speaker 1: through all emotions. But I used to hate sharing the 726 00:38:03,000 --> 00:38:10,880 Speaker 1: Mottle desktops. You it was the worst. And I remember 727 00:38:10,880 --> 00:38:13,359 Speaker 1: my computer almost like jammed. One time I almost tried 728 00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:17,200 Speaker 1: to print something like the internet page, but the printer 729 00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:20,640 Speaker 1: was jammed, so it never printed. But then months later 730 00:38:20,880 --> 00:38:24,239 Speaker 1: something printed out and I was like, oh my guy, 731 00:38:24,719 --> 00:38:31,719 Speaker 1: yeah right, I caught it, but right, like a whole 732 00:38:31,719 --> 00:38:34,000 Speaker 1: web page. But anyway, so a couple of months went by, 733 00:38:34,040 --> 00:38:35,560 Speaker 1: I was looking at a little bit of porn because 734 00:38:35,560 --> 00:38:37,480 Speaker 1: I was kind of curious. I just liked sex. I 735 00:38:37,480 --> 00:38:39,920 Speaker 1: thought I had like a sex addiction at first. Um, 736 00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:42,640 Speaker 1: and I remember just I got to college and I 737 00:38:42,719 --> 00:38:45,640 Speaker 1: met my serious girlfriend at the time and we were together, 738 00:38:46,160 --> 00:38:48,520 Speaker 1: and I was just like, we went on a break 739 00:38:48,840 --> 00:38:51,000 Speaker 1: and I started messing with these dudes like from the 740 00:38:51,040 --> 00:38:54,520 Speaker 1: neighboring school, um, neighboring university, just because I wasn't trying 741 00:38:54,520 --> 00:38:56,919 Speaker 1: to do with nobody by me. I was like, for real, 742 00:38:57,000 --> 00:38:59,239 Speaker 1: d L. At this point, I was paranoid. I was like, 743 00:38:59,280 --> 00:39:03,560 Speaker 1: everybody's watching me everything I'm doing. And then finally, um, 744 00:39:03,600 --> 00:39:06,680 Speaker 1: I was getting really depressed about my sexuality. And I 745 00:39:06,719 --> 00:39:09,400 Speaker 1: went through this this very low period and I finally 746 00:39:09,480 --> 00:39:11,759 Speaker 1: told my mom, Like I called her and I was like, yo, 747 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:17,560 Speaker 1: I think I'm bisexual, like dealing with this. Her response 748 00:39:17,719 --> 00:39:21,719 Speaker 1: at first was you know, while you know, I love you, 749 00:39:21,840 --> 00:39:23,640 Speaker 1: and like we'll get through this, We'll figure it out, 750 00:39:23,640 --> 00:39:26,239 Speaker 1: are you sure? Kind of thing. Later on the line, 751 00:39:26,280 --> 00:39:28,680 Speaker 1: it was a very different story. We went through a 752 00:39:28,680 --> 00:39:33,120 Speaker 1: lot of bumps down the road. She's definitely coming back around. Um, 753 00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:36,680 Speaker 1: my mom's from Mississippi, my dad's from New Jersey. Um, Camden, 754 00:39:36,880 --> 00:39:39,400 Speaker 1: but we grew up in Arlington, Texas, so right outside 755 00:39:39,400 --> 00:39:42,880 Speaker 1: of Dallas. But um, but yeah, so that was that 756 00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:44,719 Speaker 1: was a different thing. So after I told my mom, 757 00:39:45,040 --> 00:39:47,160 Speaker 1: I was able to tell my girlfriend at the time, 758 00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:50,440 Speaker 1: and so, and that's one of the things that we're 759 00:39:50,440 --> 00:39:53,600 Speaker 1: definitely gonna get into once we um start asking about dating. 760 00:39:54,040 --> 00:39:57,000 Speaker 1: So you did tell her when you guys decided to 761 00:39:57,040 --> 00:40:01,360 Speaker 1: get back together. Yeah, once we got back together, I 762 00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:07,520 Speaker 1: guess I was eighteen nineteen, yeah around that. And no, 763 00:40:07,800 --> 00:40:12,320 Speaker 1: she's actually four years older than me, and that was 764 00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:13,960 Speaker 1: a freshman, she was senior. Can you share what that 765 00:40:14,000 --> 00:40:17,320 Speaker 1: conversation was like? It was okay. So this was around 766 00:40:17,360 --> 00:40:20,000 Speaker 1: the time that and I can't remember what the exact 767 00:40:20,040 --> 00:40:22,080 Speaker 1: exact site was, but they were like going through all 768 00:40:22,080 --> 00:40:24,840 Speaker 1: the campuses and like out in people about stuff like 769 00:40:24,880 --> 00:40:26,480 Speaker 1: I don't know, there was a whole form. There was 770 00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:28,840 Speaker 1: like a whole form was like so and so is 771 00:40:30,680 --> 00:40:33,520 Speaker 1: like going through it was like a U. S. Yde 772 00:40:33,600 --> 00:40:36,719 Speaker 1: thing like where all the campuses had a kind of site. Yeah, 773 00:40:36,760 --> 00:40:38,960 Speaker 1: all the colleges had a site and so anyways, there 774 00:40:39,000 --> 00:40:41,920 Speaker 1: was a lot of things circular circulating around, like athletes 775 00:40:41,960 --> 00:40:43,920 Speaker 1: out of school and all these people. So I was like, 776 00:40:44,480 --> 00:40:46,520 Speaker 1: let me just go because my name kind of like Linger, 777 00:40:46,560 --> 00:40:48,319 Speaker 1: but it wasn't my name. It was like I knew 778 00:40:48,360 --> 00:40:50,400 Speaker 1: they were talking about me though, and I was like, 779 00:40:50,520 --> 00:40:52,319 Speaker 1: let me just talk to her before something gets out 780 00:40:52,320 --> 00:40:54,239 Speaker 1: of hand and like, and so I told her and 781 00:40:54,280 --> 00:40:57,000 Speaker 1: she was like okay, okay, like and then she just 782 00:40:57,080 --> 00:40:58,960 Speaker 1: had a million questions that she wanted to ask him. 783 00:40:59,040 --> 00:41:01,440 Speaker 1: We talked about it and it was actually really it 784 00:41:01,760 --> 00:41:03,640 Speaker 1: set me up to be able to tell people going forward. 785 00:41:03,680 --> 00:41:07,000 Speaker 1: And I love that your first experience with someone that 786 00:41:07,080 --> 00:41:10,640 Speaker 1: you were dating was that way, because we brought it 787 00:41:10,719 --> 00:41:13,480 Speaker 1: up even early on in the in the UM episode 788 00:41:13,760 --> 00:41:17,839 Speaker 1: where we've seen it now more on TV with Molly 789 00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:20,480 Speaker 1: Um and she was dating someone who came out and 790 00:41:20,520 --> 00:41:23,120 Speaker 1: just said, hey, yeah, I experimented in college and there 791 00:41:23,160 --> 00:41:26,920 Speaker 1: was this whole Her response to it wasn't inquisitive, nor 792 00:41:27,000 --> 00:41:29,359 Speaker 1: was it that accepting. And I think that that is 793 00:41:29,400 --> 00:41:32,040 Speaker 1: why we do have so many men that remain in 794 00:41:32,040 --> 00:41:35,000 Speaker 1: the d L. So that's pretty good. But also we 795 00:41:35,000 --> 00:41:37,080 Speaker 1: we've had a lot of conversation and we've wanted to 796 00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:39,440 Speaker 1: talk about this with a buy man for a long time, 797 00:41:39,560 --> 00:41:42,640 Speaker 1: about d L culture and like why it exists and 798 00:41:42,680 --> 00:41:45,200 Speaker 1: things like that. Can you tell us, like did you 799 00:41:45,200 --> 00:41:48,480 Speaker 1: have any first off, like role models or mentors and 800 00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:51,719 Speaker 1: people to talk to about No, so when you talked 801 00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:55,200 Speaker 1: to her, you didn't get any friends. Even now, I'm 802 00:41:55,360 --> 00:41:59,520 Speaker 1: I'm a super like like men. People think I'm like 803 00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:01,480 Speaker 1: just open and I do talk about stuff now, but 804 00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:04,120 Speaker 1: in general, I'm a very private person. My parents don't 805 00:42:04,120 --> 00:42:05,680 Speaker 1: even know things unless I tell them. They don't know 806 00:42:05,719 --> 00:42:07,800 Speaker 1: who my friends like. Like, I'm very I've just always 807 00:42:07,840 --> 00:42:09,920 Speaker 1: been that way. Um, So I didn't really have anybody 808 00:42:09,920 --> 00:42:12,479 Speaker 1: talked to. I didn't have anybody to run it by 809 00:42:12,719 --> 00:42:15,120 Speaker 1: first to figure out. So I was just like kind 810 00:42:15,120 --> 00:42:16,719 Speaker 1: of going off the cup, like this is this is 811 00:42:16,760 --> 00:42:19,680 Speaker 1: what I'm doing and and I just want to know 812 00:42:19,719 --> 00:42:21,640 Speaker 1: what do you want to do? Like because I care 813 00:42:21,640 --> 00:42:24,120 Speaker 1: about you and you say you care about me, but 814 00:42:24,200 --> 00:42:26,440 Speaker 1: like what's this meaning for us? And so she was 815 00:42:26,560 --> 00:42:28,640 Speaker 1: very she was with it. You know, she was with it. 816 00:42:28,719 --> 00:42:32,520 Speaker 1: She actually she was well, I don't want to say, 817 00:42:33,239 --> 00:42:35,239 Speaker 1: but no, okay. So she was the first person I 818 00:42:35,239 --> 00:42:39,560 Speaker 1: actually did an't know with so so because of that experience, 819 00:42:39,600 --> 00:42:41,839 Speaker 1: because like she was like, well you have experience with this, 820 00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:45,799 Speaker 1: like I want to know down the path she was like, 821 00:42:45,840 --> 00:42:47,800 Speaker 1: she was like she wanted to try it. 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If you want to 861 00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:46,520 Speaker 1: stock him because he's cute. If not, just join the 862 00:44:46,520 --> 00:44:49,799 Speaker 1: stock club. He's black, he's great, We're about it, and 863 00:44:49,840 --> 00:44:56,120 Speaker 1: he's for us and joy the show. Bitches. What about Like, 864 00:44:57,080 --> 00:45:00,320 Speaker 1: I'm curious, did you or even with girlfriends now or 865 00:45:00,680 --> 00:45:03,879 Speaker 1: girls you date, do you see that there's insecurity with them? 866 00:45:04,680 --> 00:45:10,080 Speaker 1: With like absolutely and it doesn't happen with men or exhausting, 867 00:45:10,280 --> 00:45:12,920 Speaker 1: Um well, not as much with men. There is definitely 868 00:45:13,000 --> 00:45:15,640 Speaker 1: an insecurity on both sides. Um. I think it's a 869 00:45:15,640 --> 00:45:19,320 Speaker 1: lot easier to to date men because of that, because 870 00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:23,160 Speaker 1: of that level of insecurity. UM. I think men there's 871 00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:25,759 Speaker 1: kind of like okay, yere boy, yeah, but they think 872 00:45:25,760 --> 00:45:28,239 Speaker 1: they're like yeah, gay, like it's fine. They don't they 873 00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:30,319 Speaker 1: don't really, they're not really worried about it. That much, 874 00:45:30,400 --> 00:45:33,359 Speaker 1: especially if you see here saying they suck, right, You're 875 00:45:33,360 --> 00:45:36,400 Speaker 1: like sucking with me. It's but women is kind of 876 00:45:36,440 --> 00:45:39,560 Speaker 1: like it's not just convincing them that it's okay, um, 877 00:45:39,600 --> 00:45:41,880 Speaker 1: because when they always say, well they have something I 878 00:45:41,920 --> 00:45:46,080 Speaker 1: can't give you, you you know they haven't, and it's like, okay, 879 00:45:46,120 --> 00:45:48,000 Speaker 1: I get that, but I'm choosing to be with you, 880 00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:49,759 Speaker 1: so like you have everything that I need. You know 881 00:45:49,800 --> 00:45:52,480 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. That was actually I was gonna real 882 00:45:52,520 --> 00:45:56,160 Speaker 1: quick because it's going saying, um, someone actually asked that question, 883 00:45:56,280 --> 00:45:59,239 Speaker 1: and UM, the question is do you need different things 884 00:45:59,280 --> 00:46:01,440 Speaker 1: from men they you do from women, And do you 885 00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:04,280 Speaker 1: feel that being a bisexual man one of these people 886 00:46:04,320 --> 00:46:07,759 Speaker 1: can actually fulfill you? I think, Um, I think there 887 00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:11,000 Speaker 1: are aspects of each gender that that appealed to me. Um. 888 00:46:11,040 --> 00:46:13,000 Speaker 1: I think at a base level, there are certain things 889 00:46:13,040 --> 00:46:14,879 Speaker 1: that I want from a human being, and like that's 890 00:46:14,880 --> 00:46:17,840 Speaker 1: how I that's how I look at sexuality, things like 891 00:46:17,920 --> 00:46:20,160 Speaker 1: I'm vibing with the soul, I'm vibing with a person, 892 00:46:20,600 --> 00:46:23,879 Speaker 1: and that's what I'm going for. As far as sexually, Yeah, 893 00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:26,360 Speaker 1: there's certain things like the more feminine side of women, 894 00:46:26,440 --> 00:46:28,160 Speaker 1: but I don't want necessarily want that for my for 895 00:46:28,200 --> 00:46:31,120 Speaker 1: the men that I'm dating, Like, and I've kind of 896 00:46:31,160 --> 00:46:34,160 Speaker 1: come to a point where I don't know if I 897 00:46:33,560 --> 00:46:37,160 Speaker 1: if I totally subscribe to monogamy at this point because 898 00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:39,120 Speaker 1: of because of that me personally, I know there's a 899 00:46:39,160 --> 00:46:41,959 Speaker 1: lot of bisexual people that are totally, you know, good 900 00:46:41,960 --> 00:46:44,839 Speaker 1: with monogamy there with one person and they love it. 901 00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:49,200 Speaker 1: And I want to be with one person emotionally, but sexually, 902 00:46:49,800 --> 00:46:52,640 Speaker 1: I know that I like to experience more than one person, 903 00:46:53,120 --> 00:46:55,799 Speaker 1: not necessarily, not necessarily more than one gender, like, but 904 00:46:55,880 --> 00:46:59,440 Speaker 1: more than one person, someone who's by for myself. Like 905 00:46:59,480 --> 00:47:01,200 Speaker 1: I had a uple which I felt like was like 906 00:47:01,239 --> 00:47:03,680 Speaker 1: the best thing, right, yeah, that's were you going to 907 00:47:03,719 --> 00:47:04,920 Speaker 1: trouble with a man and a woman? I was in 908 00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:08,520 Speaker 1: a trouble with two men. Now okay for the future, right, 909 00:47:08,560 --> 00:47:10,440 Speaker 1: Like you mentioned one person emotionally, which I think I 910 00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:12,640 Speaker 1: would want for myself. Do you think you can handle 911 00:47:12,680 --> 00:47:15,400 Speaker 1: a throuble with a man man and a woman? It 912 00:47:15,440 --> 00:47:18,160 Speaker 1: depends on them, Like, because it's a maturity level. It's 913 00:47:18,239 --> 00:47:21,680 Speaker 1: it's like how you relate to jealousy, It's how you 914 00:47:21,719 --> 00:47:24,240 Speaker 1: see yourself self esteem and things like that go into 915 00:47:24,280 --> 00:47:26,239 Speaker 1: a lot of it, and it's it's really about it's 916 00:47:26,239 --> 00:47:29,960 Speaker 1: like a chemistry project, like getting three people on you know, 917 00:47:30,080 --> 00:47:33,400 Speaker 1: three different mind mindsets to come together and say this 918 00:47:33,440 --> 00:47:36,279 Speaker 1: is what we're doing and understand that every relationship is 919 00:47:36,320 --> 00:47:38,200 Speaker 1: going to be different, like my relationship with you and 920 00:47:38,200 --> 00:47:40,520 Speaker 1: my ship with you, it can be totally different. Has 921 00:47:40,560 --> 00:47:44,480 Speaker 1: been different levels of relationship together. But like, I can't 922 00:47:44,520 --> 00:47:46,839 Speaker 1: say what that has something to do with me? What's 923 00:47:46,880 --> 00:47:48,560 Speaker 1: ideal for you? If you had to paint it? And 924 00:47:48,600 --> 00:47:50,920 Speaker 1: even if if it's not something that you can like, 925 00:47:50,920 --> 00:47:53,040 Speaker 1: where do you see yourself when you think about it? 926 00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:56,520 Speaker 1: When I m hm, that's something I think about all 927 00:47:56,560 --> 00:47:59,280 Speaker 1: the time. Yeah, I don't because I'm not sure. Sometimes 928 00:47:59,320 --> 00:48:01,400 Speaker 1: I say like I might just need to be single, 929 00:48:02,239 --> 00:48:04,840 Speaker 1: like and like go have a baby and like have 930 00:48:05,000 --> 00:48:09,319 Speaker 1: my kids. I want kids and stuff like that. Um 931 00:48:09,520 --> 00:48:11,520 Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know. So with this, so a 932 00:48:11,520 --> 00:48:13,880 Speaker 1: lot of people do like what you're saying, it's crazy 933 00:48:13,880 --> 00:48:16,359 Speaker 1: because we kind of have gone through it too. As 934 00:48:16,400 --> 00:48:19,360 Speaker 1: being women who identify as bisexual, A lot of people 935 00:48:19,440 --> 00:48:24,120 Speaker 1: either view you as confused, greedy or even in this 936 00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:27,640 Speaker 1: realm Polly, um So A lot of times and someone 937 00:48:27,680 --> 00:48:33,640 Speaker 1: are But do you associate being bisexual with being polly 938 00:48:33,719 --> 00:48:35,960 Speaker 1: because kind of like and even what we say, I know, 939 00:48:36,040 --> 00:48:38,640 Speaker 1: I've talked about often wanting to be in a swinger 940 00:48:38,760 --> 00:48:42,040 Speaker 1: type of couple. She's been in a thruffle and also open, 941 00:48:42,360 --> 00:48:45,680 Speaker 1: and you're saying you've been in a thruffle and also both. 942 00:48:45,960 --> 00:48:48,480 Speaker 1: Do you feel like they're one and the same? I 943 00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:52,719 Speaker 1: feel like, um, it's conducive to that, Like it makes 944 00:48:52,800 --> 00:48:55,719 Speaker 1: it makes sense why they would go together. But it's 945 00:48:55,719 --> 00:48:57,560 Speaker 1: not a it's not a half to. It's not an 946 00:48:57,640 --> 00:48:59,319 Speaker 1: end all, be all for people, like there are people 947 00:48:59,360 --> 00:49:01,600 Speaker 1: that still just to be with one person, you know, 948 00:49:01,680 --> 00:49:05,160 Speaker 1: and pollies are like a lifestyle. You know, it's not 949 00:49:05,239 --> 00:49:09,759 Speaker 1: just like right, it's not just one time. But it's 950 00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:11,480 Speaker 1: not just like oh I don't I don't have a 951 00:49:11,600 --> 00:49:15,759 Speaker 1: three people tell me they're in the lifestyle. I'm like, 952 00:49:15,760 --> 00:49:19,279 Speaker 1: oh my god, just say you're working free. So here's 953 00:49:19,280 --> 00:49:21,800 Speaker 1: my country. We talked about this often as well. Um, 954 00:49:21,840 --> 00:49:27,200 Speaker 1: and of course, just amongst the sexuality spectrum. When you're dating, 955 00:49:28,000 --> 00:49:31,160 Speaker 1: because you date men and women, how early do you 956 00:49:31,239 --> 00:49:36,920 Speaker 1: disclose that you're bisexual? Yeah, so okay, so go ahead, 957 00:49:37,000 --> 00:49:39,239 Speaker 1: go ahead with men. Off the top, it could be 958 00:49:39,280 --> 00:49:42,279 Speaker 1: easiest ship with women's women, you gotta feel them out 959 00:49:42,360 --> 00:49:44,279 Speaker 1: to you, hoping they are like I gotta see if 960 00:49:44,280 --> 00:49:46,320 Speaker 1: they're feeling me first, Like I always tell them before 961 00:49:46,360 --> 00:49:49,200 Speaker 1: we have sex. Okay, So that's that's kind of like 962 00:49:49,239 --> 00:49:52,600 Speaker 1: my hardline is like before we have sex, um, And 963 00:49:52,640 --> 00:49:57,160 Speaker 1: that could be because I feel like, wait, bit y'all 964 00:49:57,200 --> 00:50:00,799 Speaker 1: in bed and then you'd be like I'm about no, no, no. 965 00:50:00,840 --> 00:50:02,160 Speaker 1: It's like you kind of get a vibe, like if 966 00:50:02,160 --> 00:50:04,279 Speaker 1: you got a gender or whatever, you kind of know 967 00:50:04,360 --> 00:50:06,080 Speaker 1: where it's leading, like the night is leading. So I 968 00:50:06,160 --> 00:50:08,440 Speaker 1: might bring it up and just say, hey, how do 969 00:50:08,440 --> 00:50:10,960 Speaker 1: you feel about this or what it like? Have you 970 00:50:11,000 --> 00:50:14,040 Speaker 1: had any experiences around it? Like, and kind of segue 971 00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:16,040 Speaker 1: it into there you know, to get But it's always 972 00:50:16,160 --> 00:50:18,200 Speaker 1: a nervous conversation to have just because you never know 973 00:50:18,239 --> 00:50:20,120 Speaker 1: how they're going to react. And if it's somebody you've 974 00:50:20,120 --> 00:50:22,160 Speaker 1: been talking to for a minute, you don't want them 975 00:50:22,160 --> 00:50:23,759 Speaker 1: to be upset. You don't want them to see you 976 00:50:23,800 --> 00:50:25,920 Speaker 1: some kind of way, but like you also want them 977 00:50:25,920 --> 00:50:28,319 Speaker 1: to know the real you know, And so I want 978 00:50:28,320 --> 00:50:30,520 Speaker 1: to get that out the way off jump because I 979 00:50:30,520 --> 00:50:32,640 Speaker 1: don't want to spend three months or whatever trying to 980 00:50:32,680 --> 00:50:34,400 Speaker 1: like get to know you and make things pop, and 981 00:50:34,440 --> 00:50:36,480 Speaker 1: then suddenly like, oh, I could never do that. I 982 00:50:38,239 --> 00:50:41,640 Speaker 1: don't really use data apps. You haven't ever I have 983 00:50:41,719 --> 00:50:46,719 Speaker 1: you seen his Instagram? Well that is like a data 984 00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:49,440 Speaker 1: app if you it can be. But I'm curious to 985 00:50:49,480 --> 00:50:51,919 Speaker 1: know because it's like if you did, have you just 986 00:50:52,040 --> 00:50:54,000 Speaker 1: used like a gay dating app for if it was 987 00:50:54,040 --> 00:50:56,239 Speaker 1: for men or when you were you use both? So 988 00:50:56,360 --> 00:50:59,080 Speaker 1: I because I have both. I jumped on Tender before, 989 00:50:59,120 --> 00:51:02,040 Speaker 1: but it was like it was like passively. It was 990 00:51:02,080 --> 00:51:03,640 Speaker 1: like for like a month and a half or two 991 00:51:03,680 --> 00:51:07,160 Speaker 1: I just wasn't feeling it. I don't know um and 992 00:51:07,160 --> 00:51:08,919 Speaker 1: that I was just looking for women at that point. 993 00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,680 Speaker 1: Like who do you feel more emotionally connected to from 994 00:51:11,760 --> 00:51:15,240 Speaker 1: your experiences do you feel? I think I think women. Yeah, 995 00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:17,839 Speaker 1: I like that. I like the nurturing like I like that. 996 00:51:18,160 --> 00:51:22,560 Speaker 1: I love that, like softness, just like the motherly type 997 00:51:22,600 --> 00:51:25,120 Speaker 1: of feeling, like that they want to embrace and bring 998 00:51:25,120 --> 00:51:28,960 Speaker 1: you in. And I'm not super outwardly emotional, and so 999 00:51:29,000 --> 00:51:31,480 Speaker 1: I like people who are and like because they kind 1000 00:51:31,480 --> 00:51:32,960 Speaker 1: of like cooks me out of it a little bit, 1001 00:51:33,000 --> 00:51:35,040 Speaker 1: like if I'm with somebody's stone face, like me, I'm 1002 00:51:35,680 --> 00:51:37,720 Speaker 1: we're just gonna be looking at do you see yourself generally? 1003 00:51:37,760 --> 00:51:39,880 Speaker 1: Like when if you could think back in relationships, are 1004 00:51:39,920 --> 00:51:46,360 Speaker 1: you more masked with women or I'm I'm definitely because 1005 00:51:46,360 --> 00:51:48,480 Speaker 1: how I was, how I was raised and like how 1006 00:51:48,520 --> 00:51:50,080 Speaker 1: my dad taught me, like this is how to be 1007 00:51:50,120 --> 00:51:52,839 Speaker 1: a man kind of thing, like and being in the South. Yeah, 1008 00:51:52,840 --> 00:51:55,480 Speaker 1: it's like I'm super chivalrous, opening doors all that kind 1009 00:51:55,480 --> 00:51:58,120 Speaker 1: of stuff, and like I really catered to the women 1010 00:51:58,200 --> 00:51:59,680 Speaker 1: and like make sure they have a great experience, like 1011 00:51:59,719 --> 00:52:02,520 Speaker 1: all that kind of stuff. But I do some of 1012 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:04,640 Speaker 1: the best relationships with women are the ones where I 1013 00:52:04,719 --> 00:52:07,160 Speaker 1: was able to just let, you know, let my hair 1014 00:52:07,200 --> 00:52:09,799 Speaker 1: down kind of and like just be be comfortable because 1015 00:52:09,840 --> 00:52:13,239 Speaker 1: like I'm a former ballet modern dancer UM. I used 1016 00:52:13,239 --> 00:52:16,840 Speaker 1: to date a dancer UM as well. And our because 1017 00:52:16,920 --> 00:52:20,279 Speaker 1: I guess because she is exposed to gay men all 1018 00:52:20,280 --> 00:52:23,840 Speaker 1: the time, the dynamics difference, She's not expecting me to 1019 00:52:23,880 --> 00:52:26,640 Speaker 1: be hyper masculine. It was. That was actually one of 1020 00:52:26,640 --> 00:52:31,839 Speaker 1: the questions asked if as a bisexual man you're how 1021 00:52:31,960 --> 00:52:35,200 Speaker 1: you behave does it change around women than when you're 1022 00:52:35,200 --> 00:52:39,120 Speaker 1: around It actually changes based off the individual because even 1023 00:52:39,160 --> 00:52:41,279 Speaker 1: even with men. You know, you have more feminine men, 1024 00:52:41,360 --> 00:52:44,160 Speaker 1: you have more masculine men, And so I tend to 1025 00:52:44,200 --> 00:52:47,640 Speaker 1: be a more dominant person in general, and I so 1026 00:52:47,760 --> 00:52:52,640 Speaker 1: I tend to date a little bit more feminine men. 1027 00:52:53,360 --> 00:52:59,319 Speaker 1: Um not not super not not most of the time. 1028 00:52:59,360 --> 00:53:02,600 Speaker 1: Do you ever see I'm I'm not saying I'm verse, 1029 00:53:02,719 --> 00:53:06,279 Speaker 1: but I'm not saying I'm verse, but I mostly top. 1030 00:53:06,360 --> 00:53:08,960 Speaker 1: But how would you feel about or could you not 1031 00:53:09,040 --> 00:53:10,399 Speaker 1: do it because it's a woman, How would you feel 1032 00:53:10,400 --> 00:53:13,000 Speaker 1: about pegging? Yeah? I thought about that. I don't think 1033 00:53:13,000 --> 00:53:15,360 Speaker 1: I could do it. Why couldn't you see? Because I 1034 00:53:15,400 --> 00:53:19,920 Speaker 1: love this conversation because this is people are assuming people. 1035 00:53:20,520 --> 00:53:24,160 Speaker 1: People also assume that as a man, if you're taking 1036 00:53:24,280 --> 00:53:26,359 Speaker 1: a strap from a woman, you may as well take 1037 00:53:26,360 --> 00:53:29,480 Speaker 1: a real dick, right. I love as a bisexual man 1038 00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:32,799 Speaker 1: who you know has taken dick, you like, I'm good 1039 00:53:32,840 --> 00:53:36,480 Speaker 1: on Yeah, it's not the same, but my strong game 1040 00:53:36,520 --> 00:53:39,840 Speaker 1: is good. You know, I believe I'll give you that 1041 00:53:39,880 --> 00:53:41,759 Speaker 1: because like when I've had a strap used on me 1042 00:53:41,880 --> 00:53:45,359 Speaker 1: from a woman, I'm just like it's fun. And again 1043 00:53:45,400 --> 00:53:47,200 Speaker 1: it's it's I think for me, it goes back to 1044 00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:51,440 Speaker 1: that like power dynamic, Like it's like I would feel 1045 00:53:51,480 --> 00:53:56,080 Speaker 1: totally emasculated, like by a woman like now I love 1046 00:53:56,239 --> 00:53:59,920 Speaker 1: I do actually like like somewhat aggressive women, so like 1047 00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:02,040 Speaker 1: I would love I love wo women like choke me 1048 00:54:02,200 --> 00:54:04,000 Speaker 1: or like all that kind of ship, like that is 1049 00:54:04,040 --> 00:54:06,160 Speaker 1: kind of hot for me, like to bend me over, 1050 00:54:06,320 --> 00:54:08,400 Speaker 1: like to bend me over, and like, I don't know, 1051 00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:10,719 Speaker 1: that's just like a like a really feminine dude, like 1052 00:54:10,760 --> 00:54:17,759 Speaker 1: trying to climb my back, Like that's not It's like 1053 00:54:17,800 --> 00:54:20,359 Speaker 1: if you if you're if you're masculine enough, if you're 1054 00:54:20,400 --> 00:54:22,759 Speaker 1: masculine enough, and like you're dominant enough to be if 1055 00:54:22,760 --> 00:54:25,879 Speaker 1: you're more dominant than I am, you can make that work. 1056 00:54:26,080 --> 00:54:28,799 Speaker 1: If you're not, you're not convincing me. We're not like 1057 00:54:28,880 --> 00:54:36,239 Speaker 1: your turn women. What's your type of like normally, what's 1058 00:54:36,239 --> 00:54:41,520 Speaker 1: your type? Um? Normally they're they're short, right skin normally 1059 00:54:41,560 --> 00:54:46,040 Speaker 1: just being from some but right right right, um there. 1060 00:54:46,080 --> 00:54:48,480 Speaker 1: I'm an ask man, so I love a fat ass 1061 00:54:48,600 --> 00:54:53,640 Speaker 1: um and they're usually like more not I don't want 1062 00:54:53,640 --> 00:54:56,160 Speaker 1: to say submissive, but they're usually a little bit quieter 1063 00:54:56,440 --> 00:55:03,120 Speaker 1: than not, Like they're not like rowy, what about your mama? 1064 00:55:01,640 --> 00:55:07,799 Speaker 1: Like that vibe to me? What you described is like 1065 00:55:07,880 --> 00:55:10,839 Speaker 1: ideal girl. So like for me, I think I picked 1066 00:55:10,880 --> 00:55:12,880 Speaker 1: men and women based off of that as well. I 1067 00:55:12,920 --> 00:55:15,160 Speaker 1: think a lot of by friends I have do the same. 1068 00:55:15,360 --> 00:55:18,279 Speaker 1: Men especially, they'll talk about there the women that they 1069 00:55:18,360 --> 00:55:20,879 Speaker 1: like being with me, like smaller, more petite, like kind 1070 00:55:20,920 --> 00:55:25,440 Speaker 1: of girlly flirty, and the dude beings like broader shoulders, 1071 00:55:25,440 --> 00:55:27,880 Speaker 1: super bill whatever, like do you like height? Like what 1072 00:55:27,960 --> 00:55:30,560 Speaker 1: is it your thing? For men? For men? What? Again? 1073 00:55:30,600 --> 00:55:33,480 Speaker 1: That that changes because I'm versed. So if they're a top, 1074 00:55:33,520 --> 00:55:35,919 Speaker 1: I want them obviously to be like bigger than me, 1075 00:55:36,520 --> 00:55:39,680 Speaker 1: like broad shoulders. Everybody I want to be athletic and fit, 1076 00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:42,319 Speaker 1: and that's I just like that aesthetic for myself. I 1077 00:55:42,360 --> 00:55:44,640 Speaker 1: like people that care about their body and work on 1078 00:55:44,680 --> 00:55:47,839 Speaker 1: it um. But if if I'm topping, then they can 1079 00:55:47,880 --> 00:55:50,120 Speaker 1: be smaller, that can be thin, you know, a little 1080 00:55:50,120 --> 00:55:54,960 Speaker 1: bit of booty like we are. The questions that if 1081 00:55:55,000 --> 00:55:58,280 Speaker 1: you're having like your versing, you are having sex with women, 1082 00:55:58,320 --> 00:56:01,000 Speaker 1: but you also don't like to be damned by women. 1083 00:56:01,680 --> 00:56:04,040 Speaker 1: Have you ever had sex with a woman and been 1084 00:56:04,080 --> 00:56:06,839 Speaker 1: thinking about a man or vice versa. Have you ever 1085 00:56:06,880 --> 00:56:09,399 Speaker 1: had sex with a man and you've thought about being 1086 00:56:09,960 --> 00:56:14,560 Speaker 1: I've definitely both yes, it's definitely happened, and I don't 1087 00:56:14,560 --> 00:56:18,800 Speaker 1: think it was like necessarily intentional unless we were getting 1088 00:56:18,800 --> 00:56:20,120 Speaker 1: to the point I was like, Okay, this is not 1089 00:56:20,280 --> 00:56:22,879 Speaker 1: like like maybe the sex wasn't that great and I'm 1090 00:56:22,920 --> 00:56:25,160 Speaker 1: like trying to get through it. So I started thinking 1091 00:56:25,200 --> 00:56:27,360 Speaker 1: about something that was really good and it may just 1092 00:56:27,400 --> 00:56:30,000 Speaker 1: happen to be the opposite sex or or at the time, 1093 00:56:30,080 --> 00:56:32,840 Speaker 1: you know what I'm referencing with. When it comes to women, 1094 00:56:32,960 --> 00:56:35,799 Speaker 1: like you have talked about good experience, what's been your 1095 00:56:35,840 --> 00:56:38,640 Speaker 1: worst experience that someone's like, has anyone ever made you 1096 00:56:38,640 --> 00:56:43,520 Speaker 1: feel like ship for me and by or I've had Listen, 1097 00:56:43,640 --> 00:56:46,320 Speaker 1: I've definitely had women like flat out just like turned 1098 00:56:46,320 --> 00:56:48,560 Speaker 1: me down, just like oh no, you're cute, but like 1099 00:56:49,320 --> 00:56:51,640 Speaker 1: that gay ship like I don't and I'm like I 1100 00:56:51,640 --> 00:56:53,480 Speaker 1: can't fault to you, like do what you want to 1101 00:56:53,480 --> 00:56:56,319 Speaker 1: do whatever. But I've had I've had a girl like 1102 00:56:56,400 --> 00:56:59,920 Speaker 1: tearing to me like you ain't ship your gay like 1103 00:57:00,320 --> 00:57:02,680 Speaker 1: going on and like loud, like we were like at 1104 00:57:02,719 --> 00:57:05,279 Speaker 1: a restaurant and I was like, first of all, I'm 1105 00:57:05,280 --> 00:57:08,160 Speaker 1: not a public arguer or anything to that, you know, 1106 00:57:08,480 --> 00:57:11,000 Speaker 1: I'm just very quiet and calm and and so I 1107 00:57:11,080 --> 00:57:13,120 Speaker 1: just got up. I just like left because I was 1108 00:57:13,160 --> 00:57:16,320 Speaker 1: like this some bullshit, Like and you said your first 1109 00:57:16,360 --> 00:57:18,560 Speaker 1: experience with opening up to your girlfriend went well, your 1110 00:57:18,560 --> 00:57:21,240 Speaker 1: mom kind of took it well in the beginning, Um, 1111 00:57:21,280 --> 00:57:23,280 Speaker 1: before we get into the homemail and wrap everything up, 1112 00:57:23,680 --> 00:57:26,840 Speaker 1: do you have any advice for any men listening to 1113 00:57:27,960 --> 00:57:30,480 Speaker 1: this and and what you would tell them as far 1114 00:57:30,520 --> 00:57:33,520 Speaker 1: as how to navigate their bisexuality? Yeah, I would, I 1115 00:57:33,520 --> 00:57:35,640 Speaker 1: would say, And I don't want to start here because 1116 00:57:36,000 --> 00:57:38,760 Speaker 1: you know, people talk about like being d L and 1117 00:57:38,800 --> 00:57:41,480 Speaker 1: bisexual and how they kind of conflate the two, and 1118 00:57:41,520 --> 00:57:43,760 Speaker 1: I would say definitely, there was a period that a 1119 00:57:43,760 --> 00:57:45,919 Speaker 1: lot of bisexual people do go through a DL period 1120 00:57:45,920 --> 00:57:49,120 Speaker 1: because they're afraid, you know, but it's because of society 1121 00:57:49,160 --> 00:57:51,800 Speaker 1: does not allow people to be who they are authentically, 1122 00:57:52,200 --> 00:57:53,600 Speaker 1: and so they feel like they have to hide it. 1123 00:57:53,640 --> 00:57:55,840 Speaker 1: But I would say, you know, because with that comes 1124 00:57:55,840 --> 00:57:58,080 Speaker 1: a lot of paranoia, like people are not checking for 1125 00:57:58,120 --> 00:58:00,600 Speaker 1: you like that, like they're not looking at you that hard, 1126 00:58:00,800 --> 00:58:04,000 Speaker 1: like like relax, take a deep breath, and like live 1127 00:58:04,080 --> 00:58:05,360 Speaker 1: for you, because at the end of the day, you've 1128 00:58:05,360 --> 00:58:07,800 Speaker 1: got one life. Nobody else is gonna live it for you, 1129 00:58:07,960 --> 00:58:10,920 Speaker 1: and you don't want to have regrets. And honestly, the 1130 00:58:11,040 --> 00:58:14,520 Speaker 1: more open I got about my sexuality, the easier it 1131 00:58:14,600 --> 00:58:17,840 Speaker 1: was for me to breathe um in life. Like it 1132 00:58:17,920 --> 00:58:20,240 Speaker 1: was just because I knew where I stood and I 1133 00:58:20,360 --> 00:58:23,520 Speaker 1: was very clear about it, and so what anybody else 1134 00:58:23,520 --> 00:58:25,840 Speaker 1: had to say, I was like, okay, Like that's are 1135 00:58:25,880 --> 00:58:28,240 Speaker 1: you trying to fund me? Or like what are we doing? 1136 00:58:28,280 --> 00:58:29,760 Speaker 1: Because if you're not, we don't need what were we 1137 00:58:29,840 --> 00:58:35,120 Speaker 1: talking about? You know, what are we talking about? Keep talking? 1138 00:58:36,720 --> 00:58:38,160 Speaker 1: But I do like it because I think it is 1139 00:58:38,200 --> 00:58:41,560 Speaker 1: easier or more acceptable for women to be biseys than 1140 00:58:41,680 --> 00:58:45,800 Speaker 1: men um but also for a lot of the women listening. 1141 00:58:45,880 --> 00:58:47,760 Speaker 1: I guess this is where you guys listened to this 1142 00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:50,360 Speaker 1: show a lot and open up your mind about kinks. 1143 00:58:50,360 --> 00:58:53,960 Speaker 1: I love seeing the tweets that nothing surprises you all 1144 00:58:54,000 --> 00:58:56,440 Speaker 1: now because we've talked about all of these kinks. But 1145 00:58:56,480 --> 00:58:58,480 Speaker 1: I think sexuality needs to be a part of that. 1146 00:58:58,520 --> 00:59:00,960 Speaker 1: And I think that this is where as women, we 1147 00:59:01,000 --> 00:59:05,120 Speaker 1: can help alleviate the paranoia or even the d L 1148 00:59:05,200 --> 00:59:08,800 Speaker 1: community with a lot of our our own brothers um 1149 00:59:08,960 --> 00:59:12,000 Speaker 1: who are afraid to come out about being bisexual. The 1150 00:59:12,040 --> 00:59:14,920 Speaker 1: thing about that, like with so with women. It's like 1151 00:59:15,400 --> 00:59:17,760 Speaker 1: it's like I have a lot of friends who are like, oh, yeah, no, 1152 00:59:17,840 --> 00:59:19,840 Speaker 1: we accept you, We love that. Yeah, look at this guy. 1153 00:59:19,880 --> 00:59:21,760 Speaker 1: Like they're always like they're very into it. But if 1154 00:59:22,200 --> 00:59:24,200 Speaker 1: if they were to say, oh, this guy's trying to 1155 00:59:24,200 --> 00:59:26,480 Speaker 1: talk to me, but he's not, they would not before 1156 00:59:26,600 --> 00:59:28,960 Speaker 1: like they're not feeling it at all, Like they're very 1157 00:59:29,080 --> 00:59:32,120 Speaker 1: like like tearing them that kind of kind of that way, 1158 00:59:32,160 --> 00:59:34,360 Speaker 1: but they would. They think I'm the exception, right because 1159 00:59:34,360 --> 00:59:36,520 Speaker 1: I'm their friends. It's like, you can't just be choosy. 1160 00:59:36,560 --> 00:59:39,280 Speaker 1: And I think in the black community that I was 1161 00:59:39,280 --> 00:59:43,600 Speaker 1: about to say, that's like saying I work with her 1162 00:59:43,920 --> 00:59:47,880 Speaker 1: good but you know what I mean. Yeah, so it's 1163 00:59:47,920 --> 00:59:50,040 Speaker 1: kind of the same. It's like, did do you align 1164 00:59:50,080 --> 00:59:54,000 Speaker 1: that with homosexuality? Like I just had that question in 1165 00:59:54,040 --> 00:59:55,480 Speaker 1: my head, Like I was, I was like, can you 1166 00:59:55,520 --> 00:59:58,160 Speaker 1: be kind of kind of homosexual? Let mean kind of 1167 00:59:58,160 --> 01:00:01,600 Speaker 1: like homophobius be kind of right? No, like you can't, 1168 01:00:01,600 --> 01:00:03,640 Speaker 1: And so like, damn that because that knocks off a 1169 01:00:04,040 --> 01:00:05,640 Speaker 1: lot of people you know in my life who are 1170 01:00:05,720 --> 01:00:09,640 Speaker 1: like choosy with me, but like, damn, Liken also believe 1171 01:00:09,640 --> 01:00:11,320 Speaker 1: them because there's a lot of things that they'll say 1172 01:00:11,320 --> 01:00:13,240 Speaker 1: that they're accepting of or okay with in front of 1173 01:00:13,280 --> 01:00:15,320 Speaker 1: your face, but they'll be right there to keep that 1174 01:00:15,320 --> 01:00:17,920 Speaker 1: that's true whoever's talking about people that are essentially a 1175 01:00:17,960 --> 01:00:19,560 Speaker 1: part of your because it also they're worried about what 1176 01:00:19,560 --> 01:00:21,880 Speaker 1: it makes them look like, right right right, They're like, oh, now, 1177 01:00:22,080 --> 01:00:24,760 Speaker 1: like you're dating a guy. Who's this? I mean, where 1178 01:00:24,760 --> 01:00:26,720 Speaker 1: do we just see this? What show was it? Where 1179 01:00:26,760 --> 01:00:29,520 Speaker 1: she was someone's beard? Was it the politician? Oh? I 1180 01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:32,040 Speaker 1: don't know, it might have been the politician On Netflix? 1181 01:00:32,040 --> 01:00:34,840 Speaker 1: There's there's a billions. I feel like billions maybe that, 1182 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:37,640 Speaker 1: And it's like they're terrified the fucking you know, women 1183 01:00:37,640 --> 01:00:40,560 Speaker 1: are embarrassed to about that ship. Final question before we 1184 01:00:40,560 --> 01:00:44,600 Speaker 1: get into homemail, who you got more under your belt? Well, 1185 01:00:44,600 --> 01:00:51,640 Speaker 1: at this point, man, getting dick is the easiest thing. 1186 01:00:51,880 --> 01:00:53,480 Speaker 1: Can you go on? If you go on an app 1187 01:00:53,600 --> 01:00:59,840 Speaker 1: or Instagram, Facebook, anywhere and you message message guy social experiment, 1188 01:01:00,000 --> 01:01:03,240 Speaker 1: literally be like what's up? They'd be like, come chilling, horny, 1189 01:01:03,480 --> 01:01:08,720 Speaker 1: You look at like it's you. You have to wine 1190 01:01:08,720 --> 01:01:10,280 Speaker 1: and die and you have to fund that that you 1191 01:01:10,320 --> 01:01:13,440 Speaker 1: have to like give them experience. I do to a 1192 01:01:13,520 --> 01:01:17,120 Speaker 1: certain extent, but like sometimes I'm just I just want 1193 01:01:17,120 --> 01:01:20,520 Speaker 1: to funk like and it's like sex and emotion are 1194 01:01:20,600 --> 01:01:22,480 Speaker 1: very separate from me. You know, I can just have 1195 01:01:22,560 --> 01:01:24,840 Speaker 1: sex and it doesn't mean anything, but I can also 1196 01:01:25,000 --> 01:01:29,400 Speaker 1: apply emotion to sex and making something amazing. And I think, 1197 01:01:30,080 --> 01:01:32,960 Speaker 1: you know, women wanted to be the two all the time, 1198 01:01:33,560 --> 01:01:35,320 Speaker 1: and I just want to fund sometimes like I don't 1199 01:01:35,320 --> 01:01:38,000 Speaker 1: want to go through all this like this left and right. 1200 01:01:38,000 --> 01:01:39,520 Speaker 1: I don't want to take you on three dates and 1201 01:01:39,520 --> 01:01:42,320 Speaker 1: then try to find like. I mean, we can if 1202 01:01:42,320 --> 01:01:43,920 Speaker 1: I'm feeling you like that, but if I'm just like, 1203 01:01:43,960 --> 01:01:47,400 Speaker 1: damn you fine, like about reading the Steve Harvey book. 1204 01:01:47,400 --> 01:01:49,400 Speaker 1: You want to put you on throe. Oh that's not happening. 1205 01:01:49,880 --> 01:01:56,280 Speaker 1: That's not happening that I gotta be likely. I might 1206 01:01:56,280 --> 01:01:58,720 Speaker 1: give us give a little puss ap ain't gonna hold 1207 01:01:58,800 --> 01:02:04,880 Speaker 1: give a little pussy, lot of and a bussy. Alright, 1208 01:02:04,920 --> 01:02:08,200 Speaker 1: So guys, um today we do not have a helmail. 1209 01:02:08,280 --> 01:02:10,960 Speaker 1: We have a whole confession from one of our members 1210 01:02:10,960 --> 01:02:13,400 Speaker 1: of the hore Hive. They say, Hi, guys, I'm a 1211 01:02:13,400 --> 01:02:15,920 Speaker 1: proud member of the hor Hive and love listening to 1212 01:02:15,960 --> 01:02:18,760 Speaker 1: every episode. This email isn't a question, It's just an 1213 01:02:18,760 --> 01:02:22,360 Speaker 1: appreciation email to thank you guys for your platform. Because 1214 01:02:22,360 --> 01:02:25,280 Speaker 1: of YouTube, I knew how to mentally prepare myself for 1215 01:02:25,280 --> 01:02:27,920 Speaker 1: getting flown out of the country behind nigga. Let's just 1216 01:02:27,960 --> 01:02:30,160 Speaker 1: say the trick turned out to be trash, as this 1217 01:02:30,280 --> 01:02:32,600 Speaker 1: nigga thought he was working around with some bitch who 1218 01:02:32,600 --> 01:02:35,960 Speaker 1: would they used to ship. There's something about discovering that 1219 01:02:35,960 --> 01:02:37,680 Speaker 1: a nigga ain't ship while you're on a trip that 1220 01:02:37,720 --> 01:02:40,080 Speaker 1: he paid for, but being able to book an early 1221 01:02:40,080 --> 01:02:42,960 Speaker 1: flight home without needing him or his trash as accommodations. 1222 01:02:43,280 --> 01:02:45,920 Speaker 1: I obviously knew to always bring my own money on 1223 01:02:46,160 --> 01:02:48,640 Speaker 1: any date, but if it weren't for you guys, I 1224 01:02:48,640 --> 01:02:50,520 Speaker 1: wouldn't have been able to chuck the deuces on a 1225 01:02:50,560 --> 01:02:53,960 Speaker 1: nigga under these circumstances without feeling gill. You know what 1226 01:02:53,960 --> 01:03:00,280 Speaker 1: I mean. You're both the best keeping power a ring 1227 01:03:00,320 --> 01:03:03,960 Speaker 1: women to be shameless about whole activity a man. All right, 1228 01:03:04,080 --> 01:03:06,320 Speaker 1: and I take a free trip, but not no trash. 1229 01:03:06,360 --> 01:03:08,960 Speaker 1: I ain't gonna hold I ain't gonna hold you. I'll 1230 01:03:09,000 --> 01:03:10,640 Speaker 1: look to see. I mean, first off, I do need 1231 01:03:10,680 --> 01:03:13,360 Speaker 1: a round trip anywhere regardless, but I do be liking 1232 01:03:13,400 --> 01:03:15,680 Speaker 1: to make sure I have to itinerate flight change. Is 1233 01:03:15,760 --> 01:03:18,800 Speaker 1: that I need that in portation or I've been doing. 1234 01:03:18,840 --> 01:03:20,680 Speaker 1: Now I'll be right on the phone with Delta, like yes, 1235 01:03:20,840 --> 01:03:26,920 Speaker 1: d L one night, get me out of here. A 1236 01:03:26,960 --> 01:03:29,000 Speaker 1: lot of people who listen to this episode and watching 1237 01:03:29,040 --> 01:03:30,800 Speaker 1: us are gonna want to know where to find you 1238 01:03:31,240 --> 01:03:33,360 Speaker 1: and especially to we do have a male audience, so 1239 01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:34,960 Speaker 1: y'all gonna need the slide of them d M s 1240 01:03:35,040 --> 01:03:37,480 Speaker 1: or ask questions. I love just being able to have 1241 01:03:37,520 --> 01:03:39,960 Speaker 1: someone as a resource. Especially we need a good follow up, 1242 01:03:40,000 --> 01:03:41,480 Speaker 1: like a year from now. You know what I mean, 1243 01:03:41,520 --> 01:03:48,280 Speaker 1: like how how much pussy bring them on here? Keep 1244 01:03:48,320 --> 01:03:50,800 Speaker 1: bringing on, but go ahead and let our audience know 1245 01:03:50,840 --> 01:03:52,920 Speaker 1: where they can find you that you can find me 1246 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:55,480 Speaker 1: on Instagram, Um at Red the model that's R E. 1247 01:03:55,600 --> 01:04:00,160 Speaker 1: D D. The models like these um but yeah at 1248 01:04:00,160 --> 01:04:02,160 Speaker 1: me up. I'm always like trying to share a new content. 1249 01:04:02,200 --> 01:04:05,240 Speaker 1: I'm trying to get into more you know, podcast spaces, um, 1250 01:04:05,320 --> 01:04:07,840 Speaker 1: and just get the message out there about bisexuals. You know, 1251 01:04:07,880 --> 01:04:10,400 Speaker 1: we're real, We're out here and we're trying to live 1252 01:04:10,960 --> 01:04:12,800 Speaker 1: your heads. Don't be going trying to snatch up all 1253 01:04:12,840 --> 01:04:17,360 Speaker 1: of our like he said, no, but let me follow 1254 01:04:17,480 --> 01:04:20,840 Speaker 1: for these girls trip you know what I mean. Also, um, guys, 1255 01:04:20,880 --> 01:04:23,080 Speaker 1: if you guys are all caught up with Horrible Decisions 1256 01:04:23,080 --> 01:04:26,880 Speaker 1: and want bonus content, we dropped three bonus episodes every month, 1257 01:04:27,000 --> 01:04:29,600 Speaker 1: so you guys can join us over on Patreon. That's 1258 01:04:29,600 --> 01:04:32,640 Speaker 1: patreon dot com backslide Horrible Decisions. You do have to 1259 01:04:32,680 --> 01:04:35,520 Speaker 1: type it in like that all of the way because 1260 01:04:35,520 --> 01:04:38,080 Speaker 1: it's a teen plus and we'll be posting not our 1261 01:04:38,080 --> 01:04:40,200 Speaker 1: own porns, but I share the points that I'm watching, 1262 01:04:40,240 --> 01:04:43,000 Speaker 1: and um, it is a teen plus content, So go 1263 01:04:43,000 --> 01:04:44,480 Speaker 1: ahead and check us out. We are gonna leave you 1264 01:04:44,480 --> 01:04:47,360 Speaker 1: guys with a five minute bonus clip for that. Um 1265 01:04:47,400 --> 01:04:50,560 Speaker 1: and also, as y'all know, always be be on the lookout, 1266 01:04:50,600 --> 01:04:53,440 Speaker 1: be on the checkout, follow me everywhere at full Court Pumps, 1267 01:04:53,520 --> 01:04:56,000 Speaker 1: and also check out. When you're done with this episode, 1268 01:04:56,240 --> 01:04:59,040 Speaker 1: go on over to period syst streaming on all platforms 1269 01:04:59,040 --> 01:05:00,880 Speaker 1: down you want to go ahead and let them know 1270 01:05:00,920 --> 01:05:05,040 Speaker 1: what all those links are in the description, all right, 1271 01:05:05,080 --> 01:05:07,800 Speaker 1: so go to the description in this episode again if 1272 01:05:07,800 --> 01:05:09,640 Speaker 1: you want to know where to follow Red. And we 1273 01:05:09,680 --> 01:05:12,440 Speaker 1: are leaving you with this bonus clip. This has been 1274 01:05:12,560 --> 01:05:20,880 Speaker 1: yet another episode of Horbit Decisions. Because when we communicate 1275 01:05:20,920 --> 01:05:23,040 Speaker 1: what our boundaries and our needs are. At certain times, 1276 01:05:23,800 --> 01:05:26,400 Speaker 1: I'm teaching my partner how I like to care for 1277 01:05:26,440 --> 01:05:28,480 Speaker 1: myself so they know how to care for me. But 1278 01:05:28,520 --> 01:05:31,440 Speaker 1: it's really about communicating it openly. And that's the intimacy 1279 01:05:31,480 --> 01:05:35,320 Speaker 1: that I'm more like focused on, is that we don't 1280 01:05:35,320 --> 01:05:37,040 Speaker 1: have a lot of intimate conversations. Like you meet somebody, 1281 01:05:37,080 --> 01:05:39,600 Speaker 1: they're like, Okay, what you see on what did you 1282 01:05:39,600 --> 01:05:42,760 Speaker 1: see the last episode of Game of Thrones? Did Jeffrey 1283 01:05:42,760 --> 01:05:45,320 Speaker 1: Epstein kill himself with a fucking piece of flaws? Like? 1284 01:05:45,360 --> 01:05:47,400 Speaker 1: You know that kind of ship. But people aren't necessarily 1285 01:05:47,400 --> 01:05:49,920 Speaker 1: always talking about what their intimate desires are, what their 1286 01:05:49,960 --> 01:05:55,080 Speaker 1: intimate needs are. Yeah, uncomfortable conversations, but but we want 1287 01:05:55,120 --> 01:05:57,000 Speaker 1: to get Yeah, so I want people to get comfortable 1288 01:05:57,040 --> 01:06:02,520 Speaker 1: being uncomfortable. Okay, right, So vulnerability, right is a sense 1289 01:06:02,520 --> 01:06:04,760 Speaker 1: we're like, oh man, this is this is like, this 1290 01:06:04,800 --> 01:06:08,640 Speaker 1: is unsafe, this is uncomfortable. Uh. Intimacy is putting myself 1291 01:06:08,640 --> 01:06:11,000 Speaker 1: in a vulnerable position where I'm like, yeah, but I 1292 01:06:11,000 --> 01:06:13,040 Speaker 1: feel I feel in a container where I feel brave, 1293 01:06:13,080 --> 01:06:14,840 Speaker 1: I feel safe in that spot. Do you think that 1294 01:06:14,880 --> 01:06:17,920 Speaker 1: your classes are good or your workshops are good for 1295 01:06:17,920 --> 01:06:21,080 Speaker 1: people that are single Yeah, you get single people. Um, 1296 01:06:21,120 --> 01:06:23,160 Speaker 1: you get people who are cruising. They come and they're like, listen, 1297 01:06:23,200 --> 01:06:25,040 Speaker 1: I just want to come to class because I'm looking 1298 01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:28,040 Speaker 1: for some pussy. Uh no, there there's there's a group 1299 01:06:28,040 --> 01:06:30,920 Speaker 1: of people that I like to call Polly for pussy 1300 01:06:31,120 --> 01:06:34,920 Speaker 1: and that's pretty much all their interesting. Yeah, don't steal it. 1301 01:06:35,200 --> 01:06:39,160 Speaker 1: Um you can. Well, pussy is like someone who's not 1302 01:06:39,200 --> 01:06:45,120 Speaker 1: really interested in developing meaningful relationships with people, whatever meaningful means. 1303 01:06:45,160 --> 01:06:46,919 Speaker 1: They just have sex, you know, I mean, but they'll 1304 01:06:46,920 --> 01:06:49,720 Speaker 1: describe themselves as Polly as opposed to saying I'm a 1305 01:06:49,760 --> 01:06:52,800 Speaker 1: swinger or I like to have sex with a lot 1306 01:06:52,800 --> 01:06:54,600 Speaker 1: of people. There's nothing wrong with that, So we want 1307 01:06:54,600 --> 01:06:57,000 Speaker 1: to take the stigma away from whatever decisions you make. 1308 01:06:57,400 --> 01:07:02,880 Speaker 1: So actually ethically a monogamous because of that, Okay, that's yeah, 1309 01:07:02,920 --> 01:07:05,400 Speaker 1: that's a distinction a lot of people use. Yeah it's 1310 01:07:05,440 --> 01:07:07,960 Speaker 1: crazy because I feel like a lot of people don't 1311 01:07:08,080 --> 01:07:12,560 Speaker 1: know how to even self diagnose themselves that way. Like 1312 01:07:13,520 --> 01:07:15,280 Speaker 1: you could have a lot of sex with someone and 1313 01:07:15,280 --> 01:07:17,120 Speaker 1: then get in a relationship, and then you're also the 1314 01:07:17,160 --> 01:07:19,560 Speaker 1: person that's probably going to but trade the person you're 1315 01:07:19,600 --> 01:07:22,360 Speaker 1: with because you're cheating. But people don't know how to 1316 01:07:22,480 --> 01:07:26,120 Speaker 1: openly say, Hey, although I like you and I know 1317 01:07:26,160 --> 01:07:27,280 Speaker 1: you want to be with me, and I do want 1318 01:07:27,280 --> 01:07:29,280 Speaker 1: to be with you, I also like to have sex 1319 01:07:29,320 --> 01:07:31,040 Speaker 1: with just a lot of people. A lot of people 1320 01:07:31,040 --> 01:07:35,360 Speaker 1: also don't know how to accept that. What's your definition 1321 01:07:35,440 --> 01:07:38,919 Speaker 1: of the difference between the both being Polly and non monogamist. Well, 1322 01:07:38,960 --> 01:07:42,680 Speaker 1: I think, uh, non monogamy is like an umbrella term, right, 1323 01:07:42,720 --> 01:07:45,040 Speaker 1: So it just means you don't practice monogamy, right at 1324 01:07:45,120 --> 01:07:47,360 Speaker 1: least in the current part of time in your life. 1325 01:07:47,400 --> 01:07:50,160 Speaker 1: You don't practice monogamy. Now polyamory, which I think is 1326 01:07:50,200 --> 01:07:52,840 Speaker 1: actually a very small group of people, because those are 1327 01:07:52,840 --> 01:07:55,960 Speaker 1: people who are developing like actual loving relationships with folks, 1328 01:07:56,160 --> 01:07:59,080 Speaker 1: multiple people, and trying to maintain those relationships, you know. 1329 01:07:59,160 --> 01:08:01,840 Speaker 1: So that's not necessarily always the easiest thing to do. 1330 01:08:02,360 --> 01:08:04,520 Speaker 1: Um So it's a lot it's a lot more challenging, 1331 01:08:04,520 --> 01:08:07,240 Speaker 1: and I think a fewer people fall into that category. 1332 01:08:07,360 --> 01:08:10,720 Speaker 1: I'd recently did a piece for Refinary twenty nine about 1333 01:08:10,720 --> 01:08:15,720 Speaker 1: being black and queer. Don't identify as Polly. However, for 1334 01:08:15,760 --> 01:08:19,760 Speaker 1: this piece, I identified with every single term that fit 1335 01:08:20,240 --> 01:08:23,240 Speaker 1: with me because they are such an umbrella, which led 1336 01:08:23,280 --> 01:08:26,640 Speaker 1: me to say, I am non monogamous, ethically non monogous, polyamorous. 1337 01:08:26,720 --> 01:08:28,680 Speaker 1: I also called myself a hoe I use the term 1338 01:08:28,720 --> 01:08:32,439 Speaker 1: they then I called myself bisexual, queer pan sexual as well, 1339 01:08:32,800 --> 01:08:35,200 Speaker 1: which I don't do on a daily basis, But that's 1340 01:08:35,240 --> 01:08:37,960 Speaker 1: how fitting they were because a lot of these seems 1341 01:08:37,960 --> 01:08:40,320 Speaker 1: so broad. I'm like, well, pan sexual, of course, I 1342 01:08:40,360 --> 01:08:43,680 Speaker 1: sucked people for their personalities they look like. But I'm 1343 01:08:43,680 --> 01:08:46,080 Speaker 1: also definitely bisexual because I'm looking at you for your 1344 01:08:46,080 --> 01:08:49,320 Speaker 1: masculinity and women for their femininity. So it's like there's 1345 01:08:49,400 --> 01:08:52,000 Speaker 1: so much ship. I feel like it's so hard to 1346 01:08:52,840 --> 01:08:55,800 Speaker 1: pick your lane sometimes, and I'm curious to know with 1347 01:08:55,920 --> 01:08:59,800 Speaker 1: your polyamory and POC conversations, you said you specialize in that, 1348 01:09:00,080 --> 01:09:02,280 Speaker 1: are those like for people of color? So why do 1349 01:09:02,360 --> 01:09:04,800 Speaker 1: they need something separate? I try to specialize in it, 1350 01:09:05,840 --> 01:09:09,720 Speaker 1: you now, So it's introducing that conversation UM on a 1351 01:09:09,760 --> 01:09:14,799 Speaker 1: broader scale is definitely more challenging. I think people of color, 1352 01:09:15,040 --> 01:09:18,920 Speaker 1: especially when they have the experience of living in the US, right, so, 1353 01:09:19,040 --> 01:09:23,200 Speaker 1: our sexuality is either over sexualized and fetishized or it's 1354 01:09:23,200 --> 01:09:26,559 Speaker 1: over sexualized and demonized, you know. So we've so the 1355 01:09:26,600 --> 01:09:32,240 Speaker 1: America has used the black sexuality to outlaw drugs to 1356 01:09:32,800 --> 01:09:34,599 Speaker 1: create segregation laws.