WEBVTT - Call Me Mrs. Sanchez 0:00:03.400 --> 0:00:07.480 Labian Benigles. Welcome to this new episode of Cheeky's and 0:00:07.560 --> 0:00:10.799 Chill Podcast, your favorite podcast. I know, I know, I'm 0:00:10.800 --> 0:00:12.959 so excited. Thank you guys so much for coming back 0:00:13.000 --> 0:00:16.919 every week to listen in and learn and grow and 0:00:16.960 --> 0:00:19.479 all that good stuff. I don't know if it's Monday 0:00:19.560 --> 0:00:20.840 or Tuesday or what day it is, but I hope 0:00:20.880 --> 0:00:23.560 you're having an amazing day today. I'm going to be 0:00:23.600 --> 0:00:28.800 talking about something that I'm excited about, but wasn't that 0:00:28.920 --> 0:00:33.920 excited about. It's about changing my name. Guys. Now you 0:00:33.960 --> 0:00:40.960 can call me Janey Sanchez officially. Huge step for me. 0:00:41.400 --> 0:00:43.640 You have no idea. I've come such a long way, guys. 0:00:44.040 --> 0:00:46.000 So that's why I felt the need to talk about 0:00:46.000 --> 0:00:48.479 this on my podcast, because this is my safe space. 0:00:49.040 --> 0:00:51.120 This is where I talk about anything and everything. And 0:00:51.159 --> 0:00:55.000 thank goodness, you guys listen, so thank you so much. 0:00:56.720 --> 0:00:59.600 You guys know, I just got married. It'll be a 0:00:59.680 --> 0:01:03.880 year July. So let me just kind of give you 0:01:03.880 --> 0:01:06.679 guys a backstory before we get into like the nitty gritty. 0:01:07.480 --> 0:01:09.800 I have never had a middle name. I'm the only 0:01:09.880 --> 0:01:12.000 one of my siblings that doesn't have a middle name. 0:01:12.360 --> 0:01:14.800 I'm just Janee Marine. You know, that's the name my 0:01:14.840 --> 0:01:17.520 mother gave me. She wanted to name me Marie because 0:01:17.520 --> 0:01:20.000 she was really into Tina Marie, you know, the singer. 0:01:20.360 --> 0:01:23.640 But my dad, who was very traditional, which is weird 0:01:23.640 --> 0:01:26.400 because I feel like a lot of Mexicans or Latins 0:01:26.520 --> 0:01:28.520 have like so many different names, right they have the 0:01:28.520 --> 0:01:30.400 middle last and I don't know how many last names. 0:01:31.040 --> 0:01:35.560 But my dad said no for whatever reason, so my mom, 0:01:35.840 --> 0:01:38.840 you know, respected it, and then after that she didn't care. 0:01:38.920 --> 0:01:44.120 So all my siblings have middle names. There is Jackie Molina, Marin, 0:01:44.920 --> 0:01:48.480 Michael Angelo Marine, well actually his real name is Trinidad, 0:01:48.960 --> 0:01:52.440 and then there's Jenica Priscilla, and then there's Johnny Angel 0:01:52.920 --> 0:01:56.120 and I'm just Janee. So when this came up and 0:01:56.160 --> 0:01:59.000 I decided to get married again because when I first 0:01:59.080 --> 0:02:02.840 met Amidio, I was like, I don't. One of our 0:02:02.960 --> 0:02:06.280 very first conversations was like, you know what, I don't 0:02:06.280 --> 0:02:08.000 want to have kids and I don't ever want to 0:02:08.000 --> 0:02:10.840 get married again. I'm going through divorce right now and 0:02:10.880 --> 0:02:12.880 I just don't. I don't want to get married again. 0:02:12.960 --> 0:02:15.400 And he said, awesome, cool, I'm good with that. I 0:02:15.400 --> 0:02:19.200 don't either, And that was what our relationship was like 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:22.480 for the first year and a half almost two, and 0:02:22.919 --> 0:02:26.800 so as the relationship grew and you know, we fell 0:02:26.800 --> 0:02:28.560 more in love with each other, and this idea of 0:02:28.600 --> 0:02:30.720 getting married came about. And I think for a long 0:02:30.720 --> 0:02:32.440 time he said, I knew I wanted to marry you, 0:02:32.520 --> 0:02:37.400 but I was afraid because I knew that you were 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:41.839 afraid or hesitant or whatever the case, or maybe even 0:02:41.880 --> 0:02:45.200 he said not ready. So when he did ask, we 0:02:45.280 --> 0:02:48.280 talked about very early on when we were engaged, like 0:02:48.320 --> 0:02:51.799 would you change your name? And I think his one 0:02:51.800 --> 0:02:53.959 of his family members asked me, and I said, oh, yeah, 0:02:54.080 --> 0:02:57.880 you know, I would add it, and then Nimidia stayed quiet, 0:02:57.919 --> 0:02:59.720 and then later on he told me, He's like, I 0:02:59.720 --> 0:03:02.560 don't want you to just hyphen it, like I want 0:03:02.600 --> 0:03:06.919 you to like just be Jenne Sanchez. And I was like, oh, 0:03:07.120 --> 0:03:09.480 I thought it would be Janee Marine Sanchez because I 0:03:09.520 --> 0:03:11.880 still want to be me. And he's like, yeah, but 0:03:11.960 --> 0:03:14.520 as a man, like I don't know, I just like 0:03:14.600 --> 0:03:17.320 it to just be Sanchez. Like why are you so 0:03:17.400 --> 0:03:20.119 attached to Marine, especially if you don't have your dad 0:03:20.120 --> 0:03:22.640 in your life. I'm like, I don't know. I just 0:03:22.760 --> 0:03:25.920 really have always really liked my last name, guys, and 0:03:26.120 --> 0:03:28.240 way back when I'll tell you guys something I don't 0:03:28.240 --> 0:03:31.640 think I've ever talked about. But way back when, I 0:03:31.680 --> 0:03:38.560 want to say, wow, at least eight oh nine, I 0:03:38.560 --> 0:03:40.720 don't really remember exactly what year, but my mom was here, 0:03:40.760 --> 0:03:43.160 and my mom wanted all of us her children to 0:03:43.280 --> 0:03:47.280 change our last names because Johnny and Jenica, the younger 0:03:47.280 --> 0:03:49.760 ones are Lopez they have a different dad, and then 0:03:50.000 --> 0:03:53.160 the older ones, us three are Maren. So she's like, 0:03:53.160 --> 0:03:55.000 you know what, I really want you guys to have 0:03:55.440 --> 0:04:01.320 Rivera And I said no, I said, you know, I 0:04:01.400 --> 0:04:03.520 want to keep my last name. I like it. I 0:04:03.600 --> 0:04:05.520 just I don't know, I've always liked how Jane Marine 0:04:05.640 --> 0:04:07.760 sounds and I feel like it's a little different, you know. 0:04:08.800 --> 0:04:11.480 And she respected it. She said, okay, fine, I'm not 0:04:11.520 --> 0:04:13.240 going to force you, but whoever wants to change it, 0:04:13.280 --> 0:04:15.200 I would really appreciate it because I feel like I've 0:04:15.200 --> 0:04:17.800 been your mother and your father. Obviously, my mom was 0:04:17.800 --> 0:04:19.400 still here, so I was just like, it's cool, Mom, 0:04:19.400 --> 0:04:20.920 like I love you and you're my mom and you're 0:04:20.960 --> 0:04:24.040 my dad, and like, you know, so she respected it. 0:04:24.600 --> 0:04:27.560 So I never changed it, and never thought I was 0:04:27.600 --> 0:04:30.360 going to change it, but as time went by, I 0:04:31.240 --> 0:04:33.120 started noticing. I was like, well, you know what, Like 0:04:33.440 --> 0:04:35.760 Emilio is a good guy, I feel like he deserves it. 0:04:36.440 --> 0:04:39.520 I didn't do it my first marriage wouldn't even make 0:04:39.600 --> 0:04:42.880 it to the first year of being married. But I 0:04:42.920 --> 0:04:44.479 did tell myself. I was like, if we make it 0:04:44.520 --> 0:04:46.800 to the first year, then okay, I'll hyphen my name. 0:04:47.240 --> 0:04:48.840 And he was fine with it. I was going to 0:04:48.920 --> 0:04:51.719 like just add his last name. Never came around to it. 0:04:51.800 --> 0:04:57.240 We got separate and divorced fairly quickly anyways, So with Emilio, 0:04:57.360 --> 0:05:00.520 I was like, okay, I just started kind of getting 0:05:00.560 --> 0:05:04.080 more comfortable with the idea of possibly changing my last name. 0:05:04.120 --> 0:05:05.880 And as I got to know his family more and 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:08.239 I fell in love with his grandma and she became 0:05:08.320 --> 0:05:11.839 my grandma. I just I'm like, I love this freaking family, 0:05:12.000 --> 0:05:14.279 like I would love to be a Sanchez. And I 0:05:14.400 --> 0:05:17.280 just it happened so organically. And I know if I 0:05:17.279 --> 0:05:19.640 would have told Emilio, like, I want to hyphen it, 0:05:19.680 --> 0:05:21.680 I'm just gonna be Jene Marine Sanchez, he would have 0:05:21.680 --> 0:05:24.480 been fine with it. But it just happened organically, Like 0:05:24.600 --> 0:05:27.760 I just fell more and more in love, not only 0:05:27.800 --> 0:05:30.560 with him, but with his family and the idea of 0:05:30.600 --> 0:05:33.520 getting remarried, I just I'm like, you know what, like 0:05:33.600 --> 0:05:37.080 why not, you know, And then I came up with 0:05:37.120 --> 0:05:40.320 the bright idea of saying, hey, I never changed my 0:05:40.400 --> 0:05:42.640 last name to Rivera the way my mom had asked 0:05:42.680 --> 0:05:45.799 me to. I was like, what if I do Jenny 0:05:46.080 --> 0:05:50.400 Marie Sanchez. I'll remove the marine and I'll do Marie 0:05:50.400 --> 0:05:52.480 because I've never had a middle name and I want 0:05:52.720 --> 0:05:54.680 to have a middle name. If I'm already going to 0:05:54.760 --> 0:05:56.560 change my name, I might as well do that. And 0:05:56.600 --> 0:05:59.160 that's something my mom really wanted, so I thought that's 0:05:59.279 --> 0:06:02.440 a way of honor her. But Amlia was like, you know, 0:06:02.480 --> 0:06:04.760 I just want you to be Janee Sanchez and I'm 0:06:04.800 --> 0:06:07.599 like no. But we kind of like not fought because 0:06:07.600 --> 0:06:11.600 we didn't. It wasn't like a huge conversation, but he 0:06:11.640 --> 0:06:13.279 really felt in his heart like I just want you 0:06:13.320 --> 0:06:17.880 to be Jane Sanchez. Just that's it, JS, And I'm 0:06:17.920 --> 0:06:22.120 like fine. I didn't argue. I'm like okay, But when 0:06:22.120 --> 0:06:24.240 it all came down to it, guys, I was like, 0:06:24.279 --> 0:06:26.760 you know what, I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna do it, 0:06:26.800 --> 0:06:28.279 and I'm gonna do it quickly, like I want to 0:06:28.320 --> 0:06:31.880 do it before we like celebrate our first year anniversary 0:06:32.120 --> 0:06:35.320 as a married couple. And I did, you know, thank 0:06:35.320 --> 0:06:37.960 God for my assistant Kim, because she did all the 0:06:38.080 --> 0:06:41.200 heavy lifting for me on the internet and she changed 0:06:41.200 --> 0:06:43.800 the Social because I didn't even know how this worked, guys, 0:06:43.800 --> 0:06:45.520 to be honest, so I was like, Kim, can you 0:06:45.560 --> 0:06:47.160 just help me and figure this out. I need to 0:06:47.200 --> 0:06:48.640 change my name and I want to prayse the media 0:06:48.680 --> 0:06:51.479 with it. But she went on the internet, she did it. 0:06:51.520 --> 0:06:53.120 She's like, oh, it's done. You'll be getting your new 0:06:53.160 --> 0:06:57.800 social card soon when it came in. Because I guess 0:06:57.800 --> 0:07:00.919 I didn't do the process myself, I didn't really feel it. 0:07:00.960 --> 0:07:03.920 I was like, okay, I'm like, well, what happens after this? Okay, 0:07:03.960 --> 0:07:06.320 so after this, now that you have your Social with 0:07:06.360 --> 0:07:09.120 your new name Jennay Sanchez, now you have to go 0:07:09.160 --> 0:07:11.040 to the DMV and then from there you do the 0:07:11.080 --> 0:07:13.920 passport and so on and so forth. So I was like, okay, cool. Still, 0:07:14.000 --> 0:07:16.040 I was like, I'm still Jenny Madin all my credit cards, 0:07:16.080 --> 0:07:19.080 my idea, everything, say Jenny Mighty, my passport, all of it. 0:07:19.480 --> 0:07:23.040 But guys, when I told Kim again, can you make 0:07:23.080 --> 0:07:25.240 me an appointment with the DMV so I can finally 0:07:25.320 --> 0:07:30.120 change my last name. It was crazy. I didn't think 0:07:30.160 --> 0:07:31.520 I was going to feel this way, but I got 0:07:31.520 --> 0:07:35.440 my hair done because, mind you, my driver's license has 0:07:35.480 --> 0:07:40.080 had the same picture since I was like nineteen years old, guys, 0:07:40.120 --> 0:07:44.920 the same freaking picture. One time at the airport last year, actually, 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:49.360 one of the TSA officers looked at me and they said, 0:07:49.400 --> 0:07:51.360 you know what, this is an old picture. You need 0:07:51.400 --> 0:07:53.520 to change it, like this doesn't even look like you anymore. 0:07:53.560 --> 0:07:55.160 I was offended. First of all. I was like, what 0:07:55.200 --> 0:07:58.200 do you mean? I'm still cute and young. So anyways, 0:07:58.240 --> 0:07:59.640 from there, I was like, do I gotta get around 0:07:59.680 --> 0:08:01.520 to it? Like I got to change my picture because 0:08:01.520 --> 0:08:03.680 I'm not nineteen years old anymore, So I mean, come on, 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:06.720 And anyways, so I took the opportunity. I said, you know, 0:08:06.720 --> 0:08:08.280 I'm gonna get my hair and makeup done. You know, 0:08:08.280 --> 0:08:10.600 I'm going to try to pull a Kim Kardashian and like, 0:08:10.800 --> 0:08:13.200 you know, take a light in the whole thing the 0:08:13.240 --> 0:08:14.600 way she did. I don't know if you guys ever 0:08:14.640 --> 0:08:16.520 saw that episode of Keeping Up with the Kardashians, but 0:08:17.000 --> 0:08:19.720 Kim did that when she went to renew her license 0:08:19.920 --> 0:08:22.400 and renew the picture. So I was like, Okay, I'm 0:08:22.400 --> 0:08:23.840 going to get done up, like this is a huge 0:08:23.840 --> 0:08:25.440 thing for me. I need a new picture. I'm going 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:27.680 to change my name. And I was all cute and 0:08:27.720 --> 0:08:30.240 I was happy, and we got to the DMV and 0:08:30.280 --> 0:08:32.559 we were waiting in line, and while I was waiting 0:08:32.559 --> 0:08:34.360 in line, I was looking outside of the window because 0:08:34.360 --> 0:08:36.199 the line was kind of long, and Kim was there 0:08:36.240 --> 0:08:38.520 with me. Emilio couldn't go. I don't know what. I 0:08:38.559 --> 0:08:41.200 think he had to work. I don't remember exactly what 0:08:41.240 --> 0:08:43.839 he was doing, but he couldn't make it. Anyways, it 0:08:43.960 --> 0:08:46.959 so happened to be also Johnny's birthday, February eleventh, which 0:08:47.000 --> 0:08:49.480 I think is kind of ironic and kind of beautiful 0:08:49.520 --> 0:08:51.760 at the same time, because Johnny's the one that gave 0:08:51.800 --> 0:08:55.040 me away at the wedding, at the ceremony to Emilio, 0:08:55.240 --> 0:08:57.439 and Johnny and e Media are very very close. So 0:08:57.480 --> 0:08:59.800 I just thought, there's something so beautiful about this that 0:09:00.040 --> 0:09:02.200 we didn't plan it that way. Obviously, the DMV gives 0:09:02.200 --> 0:09:04.120 you a random ass date, and it happened to be 0:09:04.120 --> 0:09:07.120 on Johnny's birthday, so I'm thinking about Johnny and thinking 0:09:07.160 --> 0:09:09.400 about life and thinking about what I'm doing, and oh 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:14.440 my gosh, guys, I got this crazy, like like a 0:09:14.480 --> 0:09:16.800 panic attack. I was looking outside of the window and 0:09:16.800 --> 0:09:18.320 my eye started getting watery, and I was like, oh 0:09:18.360 --> 0:09:21.360 my god, I'm freaking out, like, oh my gosh, I'm 0:09:21.360 --> 0:09:23.960 going to change like like I'm Jane Mariene, like my 0:09:24.000 --> 0:09:28.040 whole identity. Like I started freaking out, and I text 0:09:28.080 --> 0:09:29.600 my friends and my group chat. I was like, you, guys, 0:09:29.600 --> 0:09:31.960 I'm freaking out. I need help. Like I hadn't told anyone. 0:09:32.000 --> 0:09:34.319 I just wanted to surprise everyone except to me. I 0:09:34.360 --> 0:09:36.080 told him, Hey, I'm just gonna go do this today. 0:09:36.480 --> 0:09:39.960 He was really excited about it. But anyways, I told 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:41.680 my friends, this is why it's so important to have 0:09:41.720 --> 0:09:44.080 good friends. Guys. Okay. I sent them a message in 0:09:44.080 --> 0:09:46.240 our group chat and I said, guys, I'm freaking the 0:09:46.440 --> 0:09:48.679 f out right now, like I'm having a pan attack, 0:09:48.760 --> 0:09:51.040 like legit, Like my I started getting watery and I 0:09:51.120 --> 0:09:53.040 had my makeup on, so I was like, I can't. 0:09:53.080 --> 0:09:54.199 I don't even have a touch up kit, Like I 0:09:54.200 --> 0:09:55.559 can't mess up my makeup because I want to look 0:09:55.559 --> 0:09:58.079 cute in my picture, and I thought, maybe I should 0:09:58.080 --> 0:09:59.800 just walk out. Maybe it's too soon, Maybe I should 0:09:59.800 --> 0:10:03.160 have wait till we like turn a year being married, 0:10:03.280 --> 0:10:05.520 like my last marriage didn't. Like you know, I just 0:10:05.559 --> 0:10:08.880 started thinking all these things and I was like freaking out. 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:11.040 And my friends were like, relax, it's gonna be fine. 0:10:11.080 --> 0:10:14.280 Like he deserves it. He's a great guy, like go 0:10:14.360 --> 0:10:16.520 all in. And I was like, you're right. I want 0:10:16.520 --> 0:10:19.000 to be all in. I don't want to be one 0:10:19.000 --> 0:10:20.880 foot in, one foot out. And this is my way 0:10:20.920 --> 0:10:24.199 of showing him I'm all in. I love you. He 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:27.440 deserves it, like he really does. He's a great guy 0:10:27.480 --> 0:10:29.839 to me. And again, I love his family. So they 0:10:29.880 --> 0:10:32.160 walk me through it, and I was so grateful in 0:10:32.160 --> 0:10:33.720 that moment. I'm like, oh my god, I have the 0:10:33.720 --> 0:10:36.200 best friends ever. Like they're amazing, all of them. We're like, 0:10:36.240 --> 0:10:38.280 you got it, Like you're fine, You're doing the right thing. 0:10:38.679 --> 0:10:40.600 We're so proud of you. Because I've always been a 0:10:40.720 --> 0:10:44.480 very independent woman of this is me and my identity 0:10:44.559 --> 0:10:47.520 and blah blah blah, and and yeah that's cute, you know, 0:10:47.720 --> 0:10:50.800 being an independent woman. But I don't want to be 0:10:50.840 --> 0:10:53.800 an independent woman that's alone and that doesn't give her 0:10:53.840 --> 0:10:58.440 man his place because eventually he's gonna get tired of that, 0:10:58.800 --> 0:11:02.280 you know. And I saw that time and time again 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:08.160 in my life and respectfully with my mom and her relationships, 0:11:08.200 --> 0:11:10.480 and those are things that I want to break, and 0:11:10.520 --> 0:11:13.000 those cycles and those generational curses that I want to break. 0:11:13.000 --> 0:11:14.760 So I'm like, I have to do this, and I 0:11:14.840 --> 0:11:18.800 have to do it fully. And I didn't add Marie. 0:11:19.000 --> 0:11:21.880 I could have, but I did it because I really 0:11:21.920 --> 0:11:25.200 want to honor him, and I want to honor his 0:11:25.240 --> 0:11:28.640 wishes and do things differently than I have in the past. 0:11:28.720 --> 0:11:30.439 And that's the only way that I'm going to see 0:11:30.480 --> 0:11:34.800 a change and see a difference and really say I 0:11:34.840 --> 0:11:39.600 did everything to make this relationship work. I really feel 0:11:39.679 --> 0:11:41.960 that need to do that. And I'm telling you I 0:11:42.000 --> 0:11:43.360 went through it. I was like, I'm going to walk away. 0:11:43.360 --> 0:11:44.760 I'm gonna just walk out. I'm gonna say, oh, the 0:11:44.800 --> 0:11:47.360 line's too long, blah blah blah. But we did it. 0:11:48.240 --> 0:11:50.960 I got through the line. My legs were kind of shaking. 0:11:51.000 --> 0:11:53.319 I was very nervous the entire time. Kin like it's 0:11:53.320 --> 0:11:56.000 gonna be okay, it's fine, Like, don't worry, Like it 0:11:56.040 --> 0:12:04.000 was nice. So Anyways, we get to the teller and 0:12:04.040 --> 0:12:07.560 she was very very sweet. Everything worked out nicely. We 0:12:07.640 --> 0:12:11.200 get to the picture part and Kim pulls out her 0:12:11.200 --> 0:12:15.240 a little light try to do it very discreetly. Didn't work. 0:12:15.800 --> 0:12:17.520 The guy got very upset, the guy that was taking 0:12:17.559 --> 0:12:20.000 the picture, so that didn't work. Guys. I wasn't able 0:12:20.040 --> 0:12:22.800 to like do my little Kim Kardashian moment at the DMV. 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:24.959 But I'm hoping the picture came out cue because it 0:12:24.960 --> 0:12:27.360 don't even show you the damn picture. And then I 0:12:27.480 --> 0:12:31.920 was fine. I was a little bit like quiet the 0:12:31.960 --> 0:12:34.600 rest of the day. And I think it was because 0:12:34.640 --> 0:12:38.160 in a way, I was mourning the person I'm leaving 0:12:38.200 --> 0:12:43.720 behind in a way, and I was not sad. I 0:12:43.720 --> 0:12:46.440 don't know what I was. I was just like, I 0:12:46.440 --> 0:12:49.000 guess that's what it is. I was mourning, and it 0:12:49.000 --> 0:12:51.520 still makes me emotional to think about it. But I'm like, 0:12:51.559 --> 0:12:54.640 you know, I'm still me, and this all makes sense, 0:12:54.679 --> 0:12:57.600 and I'm changing my name and I'm stepping into this 0:12:57.720 --> 0:13:01.280 new life that I'm creating and this is the perfect 0:13:01.320 --> 0:13:03.079 time to do so. So I just kind of had 0:13:03.080 --> 0:13:04.880 to give myself therapy and walk myself through it. And 0:13:04.920 --> 0:13:06.400 I was fine, and then I met a media for lunch. 0:13:06.400 --> 0:13:08.880 I went to Sugarfish because I love sugarfish right now. 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:10.200 I want to have it like once or twice a 0:13:10.200 --> 0:13:11.960 week if you guys haven't tried it to sushi plays, 0:13:11.960 --> 0:13:16.080 it's so good. And we went to Sugarfish and it 0:13:16.160 --> 0:13:20.200 was crazy because Kim dropped me off and she left 0:13:20.200 --> 0:13:21.920 because she had to do some stuff. So Amlia was 0:13:21.920 --> 0:13:23.959 on his way from from the gym or whatever it 0:13:24.040 --> 0:13:27.160 is he was doing, and he was late, and then 0:13:27.200 --> 0:13:30.000 my phone died. So I was sitting there at Sugarfish 0:13:30.040 --> 0:13:33.439 for at least almost forty minutes, at least thirty almost 0:13:33.480 --> 0:13:35.720 forty and I'm sitting there and my phone died. And 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:37.400 I had told the media my phone died, and he's 0:13:37.480 --> 0:13:40.319 never late, and I'm thinking, why the hell is he 0:13:40.320 --> 0:13:43.280 he late? Like I started freaking out. I was like, dude, 0:13:43.320 --> 0:13:45.400 I was going through so much that day. I'm sitting 0:13:45.400 --> 0:13:48.240 there at Sugarfish, waiting, waiting, waiting. My phone's dead, Like 0:13:48.280 --> 0:13:50.720 I don't know anyone's number. Who do I ask for 0:13:50.720 --> 0:13:53.840 a damn charger? I have the older phone, not even 0:13:53.840 --> 0:13:55.640 the newer ones, So it's like, is anyone even going 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:59.160 to have a charger for my phone, and I started thinking, 0:13:59.200 --> 0:14:01.880 I'm like, oh my god, like what if something happened 0:14:01.880 --> 0:14:03.920 to him? Like I started like freaking out. Then again 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:06.440 my eyes got watery and I'm like, God, please like 0:14:06.520 --> 0:14:08.400 just let him here safely. I want to tell him 0:14:08.440 --> 0:14:10.000 that I changed my name that I didn't because I 0:14:10.040 --> 0:14:12.200 had text him as well while I was in line 0:14:12.240 --> 0:14:14.640 at the DMV like a media I'm freaking out, like 0:14:14.800 --> 0:14:16.600 I'm so nervous to do this, like please tell me 0:14:16.640 --> 0:14:18.760 we're going to be okay, Like you're gonna be a 0:14:18.760 --> 0:14:20.560 good man, You're going to continue to be a good man. 0:14:20.840 --> 0:14:22.280 And he answered me, and it was very cute what 0:14:22.360 --> 0:14:24.440 he said. He's like, Babe, I love you, like you 0:14:24.520 --> 0:14:27.400 just said all these beautiful things. So anyways, so I 0:14:27.440 --> 0:14:30.520 was just thinking, I'm like, oh my gosh, like what 0:14:30.560 --> 0:14:32.760 if something happen or whatever. And then he got there 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:35.520 because he was buying me flowers and the guy at 0:14:35.560 --> 0:14:37.560 the flower shop took a long time. So he brought 0:14:37.560 --> 0:14:39.640 me these beautiful red roses and asked me to be 0:14:39.720 --> 0:14:42.680 his Valentine. And he said, hey, so apparently I have 0:14:42.720 --> 0:14:44.520 to ask you to be my Valentine, So will you 0:14:44.560 --> 0:14:48.720 be my Valentine and I was like, oh, it's so cute. 0:14:48.720 --> 0:14:50.160 We had lunch and it was cute and it all 0:14:50.160 --> 0:14:51.560 went away and I was like, Okay, it's fine, It's 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:54.880 gonna be okay, Like it's fine. I even text my 0:14:54.920 --> 0:14:56.640 sisters too. I was like, sisters, I'm freaking out. They 0:14:56.680 --> 0:14:59.120 helped me out. It was awesome and I feel better. 0:14:59.160 --> 0:15:01.160 I'm fine with it, really excited to get my ID. 0:15:01.360 --> 0:15:03.280 It hasn't come in the mall. It takes like forever now, 0:15:03.320 --> 0:15:06.320 I guess. But I'm excited to see the picture and 0:15:06.560 --> 0:15:09.440 see my name as Janney Sanchez and start that whole process, 0:15:09.520 --> 0:15:11.720 because yeah, it's a new it's a new life for me. Guys. 0:15:11.720 --> 0:15:14.240 I feel like I'm starting this like new life. I 0:15:14.240 --> 0:15:15.960 don't even know how to explain it, Like, I don't 0:15:15.960 --> 0:15:19.240 even I've been trying to like find the words of 0:15:19.320 --> 0:15:21.320 what it is that I'm going through. But things are 0:15:21.360 --> 0:15:24.160 definitely just changing in my life, and I feel like 0:15:24.160 --> 0:15:26.680 for the better, and that's what I believe in. Anyways, 0:15:27.360 --> 0:15:30.720 we evolve, we change, and we become different versions of 0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:34.720 ourselves and and I'm I'm this is definitely different version. 0:15:35.560 --> 0:15:38.240 And I know that this is an important topic to 0:15:38.280 --> 0:15:40.760 speak about because I know some of you are listening 0:15:40.760 --> 0:15:42.840 and feel the way that I used to feel of like, 0:15:42.840 --> 0:15:44.160 oh am, I going to change my last name and 0:15:44.160 --> 0:15:45.960 this and that, and if you don't, that's fine, and 0:15:46.000 --> 0:15:49.720 that's it's totally fine. I've even heard of, you know, 0:15:49.840 --> 0:15:52.640 men changing their last names to their wives' last name. 0:15:53.040 --> 0:15:54.560 I even played around with Emilia and I was like, 0:15:54.600 --> 0:15:56.360 what if you become a marine? He's like, what the heck? No, 0:15:57.280 --> 0:16:00.080 He's like, what about my legacy? So he was and 0:16:00.200 --> 0:16:03.120 having it. But I'm happy and I'm very like proud 0:16:03.120 --> 0:16:05.720 of myself for taking this big step that I never 0:16:05.800 --> 0:16:10.080 thought that I would take completely. And I'm all in, guys, 0:16:10.760 --> 0:16:13.440 I'm all in. I'm gonna do everything I can to 0:16:13.480 --> 0:16:16.040 make this relationship and this marriage work and do my 0:16:16.160 --> 0:16:20.840 part and hopefully it pays off completely because he's in 0:16:20.880 --> 0:16:22.880 a place that he's doing his part. I'm doing my part, 0:16:22.880 --> 0:16:26.640 and together we'll just be better, you know. But I'm 0:16:26.680 --> 0:16:31.640 okay with not being that strong independent woman that can 0:16:31.680 --> 0:16:34.160 do it all without a man and this and that, 0:16:34.360 --> 0:16:36.640 and it's like, no, I want a man. I don't 0:16:36.640 --> 0:16:39.000 want to be alone, you know. I want a partner, 0:16:39.240 --> 0:16:42.600 and not just any partner, because if Emidia wasn't the 0:16:42.640 --> 0:16:44.640 man he is, and if he starts acting up like 0:16:44.840 --> 0:16:47.720 I also like know my worth and my value and 0:16:48.280 --> 0:16:52.120 if things are going to start changing or things aren't 0:16:52.120 --> 0:16:55.560 what they were that made me fall in love with him, 0:16:56.080 --> 0:16:59.520 then you know, definitely got to put my foot down. 0:16:59.880 --> 0:17:02.000 That's not going to change. That is still the same 0:17:02.120 --> 0:17:06.040 for me. I'm like, I know what I deserve, I 0:17:06.080 --> 0:17:08.000 know what I want, I know what I don't want, 0:17:08.800 --> 0:17:12.240 and as much as I want those things, I know 0:17:12.320 --> 0:17:14.399 I also have to give those things. It can't just 0:17:14.440 --> 0:17:17.560 be a one one way straight here. So I'm very 0:17:17.560 --> 0:17:21.520 well aware of that. But I do I want a partner, 0:17:21.720 --> 0:17:23.920 And now I know more than ever. After I kiss 0:17:23.960 --> 0:17:27.480 so many frogs, you know what to do and not 0:17:27.600 --> 0:17:30.399 to do, and now I know I'm doing it. Guys, 0:17:30.440 --> 0:17:32.359 I'm doing it. I did it. Oh my god, I 0:17:32.400 --> 0:17:36.480 did it. So yeah, and he's happy. He's so happy. 0:17:36.520 --> 0:17:39.199 He said, thank you. He says, I know that this 0:17:39.400 --> 0:17:41.840 wasn't an easy decision for you, but I won't let 0:17:41.840 --> 0:17:44.359 you down. And he told me he was proud of 0:17:44.400 --> 0:17:46.280 me and he was going to take care of my heart. 0:17:46.400 --> 0:17:50.040 So I believe him, and I'm happy that I did it, 0:17:50.720 --> 0:17:53.240 and I'm happy to say that I'm Jenney Sanchez now. Guys. 0:17:53.800 --> 0:18:00.880 Oh my goodness is gracious. And now that I'm thinking 0:18:00.880 --> 0:18:05.280 about it, guys, I know exactly when it clicked in 0:18:05.320 --> 0:18:07.199 my head because I still had this idea. Remember, I 0:18:07.200 --> 0:18:11.560 had this idea of Janny Marie Sanchez or Janey Sanchez 0:18:11.640 --> 0:18:14.560 or Jane Marine Sanchez hyphenating. So I had that for 0:18:14.600 --> 0:18:18.480 a while. But what really made me change my mind 0:18:19.400 --> 0:18:23.640 was when I was pregnant, right before the miscarriage, obviously, 0:18:23.680 --> 0:18:26.720 when I was pregnant, and how he was treating me 0:18:26.800 --> 0:18:31.879 and how he was acting and like just being there 0:18:31.920 --> 0:18:35.359 for me and so patient and even after when we 0:18:35.400 --> 0:18:39.520 had the miscarriage, and how supportive he was. I really 0:18:39.600 --> 0:18:42.520 felt like, oh my god, this man is a good man. 0:18:42.880 --> 0:18:45.359 But when I was pregnant, that's when I was like, 0:18:45.400 --> 0:18:47.520 I need to change my last name because I really 0:18:47.560 --> 0:18:51.800 really want my child and myself to have the same 0:18:51.840 --> 0:18:55.040 last name. And I was like, I have to do it. 0:18:55.119 --> 0:18:56.560 That's when I knew, and I'm like, and this guy 0:18:56.640 --> 0:18:58.320 is the perfect guy to do it, Like he's he 0:18:58.520 --> 0:19:00.680 just he's so good to me. He treated me good. 0:19:00.680 --> 0:19:02.880 And mind you, guys, He's not perfect. Okay, there's things 0:19:02.880 --> 0:19:04.760 that are something I just want to, like, you know, 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:06.280 choke him out a little bit and not in a 0:19:06.280 --> 0:19:08.880 bad way, but you know, it's just it's a relationship. 0:19:09.240 --> 0:19:11.520 There are things and that's you know, it's normal because 0:19:11.560 --> 0:19:12.840