WEBVTT - I’m Not Heartbroken 0:00:00.760 --> 0:00:03.800 This is the Ben and Ashley I Almost Famous podcast 0:00:03.840 --> 0:00:04.640 with iHeartRadio. 0:00:05.800 --> 0:00:08.520 Hey guys, welcome to the Almost Famous podcast. Today. 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:12.240 Trista is stepping in for Ben. As we do headlines, 0:00:13.240 --> 0:00:17.079 we are continuing. Probably Bachelination's the biggest headline right now. 0:00:17.280 --> 0:00:20.840 Grant and Juliana split. We got the announcement about a 0:00:20.840 --> 0:00:25.040 week ago and now they have officially unfollowed each other 0:00:25.120 --> 0:00:31.200 on Instagram. Grant got on his Instagram live the other 0:00:31.280 --> 0:00:34.360 day and he talked about the split. He was asked 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:37.440 if they still talk. He said, no, we don't really 0:00:37.479 --> 0:00:41.159 talk like that. I'm assuming it's like maybe like logistical 0:00:41.240 --> 0:00:43.720 if anything, Like hey, do you want. 0:00:43.600 --> 0:00:44.520 This sent back? 0:00:45.320 --> 0:00:48.640 Somebody asked why did you break up with Juliana, and 0:00:48.720 --> 0:00:50.600 he said, I didn't break up with anybody. 0:00:51.080 --> 0:00:53.200 He also noted this was a big thing. 0:00:53.240 --> 0:00:54.920 This is what stood out to me, and I sent 0:00:55.000 --> 0:00:59.160 our Almost Famous group chat this video the video because 0:00:59.200 --> 0:01:02.040 of it. He goes, I'm not heartbroken, and I'm like, ooh, 0:01:02.320 --> 0:01:04.280 I don't know. That seems kind of like a bad 0:01:04.319 --> 0:01:08.560 taste for me. He also said that he has no 0:01:08.680 --> 0:01:12.280 desire to going to like revisiting that one day, or 0:01:12.319 --> 0:01:14.760 to revisiting any of the other girls from his season. 0:01:14.800 --> 0:01:17.800 He just says, life goes on. It's all about moving forward. 0:01:17.880 --> 0:01:20.280 I am not looking back. He also said during the 0:01:20.360 --> 0:01:24.840 live that it was a mutual split. Trista, what is 0:01:25.040 --> 0:01:26.040 your take on this? 0:01:26.240 --> 0:01:28.640 And did you find the whole I'm not heartbroken thing 0:01:28.680 --> 0:01:30.200 to be a little sassy as I did? 0:01:30.319 --> 0:01:33.200 Okay, Well, I didn't know about this live. I wish 0:01:33.280 --> 0:01:34.320 I would have seen it. 0:01:34.640 --> 0:01:36.960 No, he just did it two days ago. Yeah, oh oh, 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:38.160 you didn't watch the clip yet. 0:01:38.400 --> 0:01:40.360 I didn't watch it. No, no, no, So you're just 0:01:40.440 --> 0:01:44.720 you're telling me all these things, and I'm shocked. I'm shocked. Yeah, 0:01:44.760 --> 0:01:48.240 the not heartbroken thing, I'm sorry you were engaged? How 0:01:48.480 --> 0:01:52.200 how are you not right? Like that's that's shocking to me. 0:01:52.520 --> 0:01:53.120 That's cool? 0:01:53.520 --> 0:01:55.880 Broken like this that as very cold. 0:01:56.080 --> 0:02:00.680 Yeah, even if it was a mutual split, like you say, heartbroken, 0:02:00.720 --> 0:02:03.200 because like you should be sad about the ending of 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:04.960 something that could have ended up in. 0:02:05.520 --> 0:02:07.840 That should have ended up in marriage or you know 0:02:07.880 --> 0:02:08.519 that was the attention. 0:02:08.800 --> 0:02:11.280 I don't know. That's that's shocking to me. If you're 0:02:11.280 --> 0:02:13.200 not heartbroken, was your heart ever in it? 0:02:13.320 --> 0:02:14.000 Were you that? 0:02:14.400 --> 0:02:16.880 Like? Didn't you didn't you tell her? That you loved 0:02:16.919 --> 0:02:20.079 her and you're not heartbroken. That literally is the meaning 0:02:20.160 --> 0:02:23.840 of the word heart broken. Your heart is broken. And 0:02:23.919 --> 0:02:27.160 if your heart was complete because of this person or 0:02:27.360 --> 0:02:29.720 was happy because of this person, shouldn't it be broken 0:02:29.760 --> 0:02:31.400 if you broke up. I don't know, that just doesn't 0:02:31.440 --> 0:02:32.200 make any sense to me. 0:02:33.440 --> 0:02:38.040 Yeah, even on this show, like when somebody has to 0:02:38.360 --> 0:02:41.640 deny a rose, right, like let's just say it's top 0:02:41.760 --> 0:02:44.160 six and you have to deny a rose that person, 0:02:44.200 --> 0:02:46.320 you almost feel a little heartbroken. 0:02:45.840 --> 0:02:47.960 Because you're breaking somebody else's heart. 0:02:48.160 --> 0:02:51.400 I felt heartbroken on first night because I was breaking 0:02:51.440 --> 0:02:53.960 people's hearts. Like not they weren't in love with me 0:02:54.080 --> 0:02:57.480 by any means after like just meeting me for a 0:02:57.480 --> 0:03:01.880 couple hours. But but yeah, it was heartbreaking because you 0:03:02.000 --> 0:03:04.840 felt like they were there. They had given up you know, 0:03:04.960 --> 0:03:08.920 part time time of their life, you know, to come 0:03:09.040 --> 0:03:13.240 on the show and to meet me. It ended up 0:03:13.240 --> 0:03:16.920 being for my season, and so yeah, it is a 0:03:16.919 --> 0:03:20.720 little heartbreaking. So I feel maybe his definition of heartbreak 0:03:20.840 --> 0:03:22.800 is just different than ours. I don't know. 0:03:24.840 --> 0:03:27.520 Some people were saying in the comments that, like this 0:03:27.560 --> 0:03:32.160 seems like the classic like wanted fame is so ready 0:03:32.320 --> 0:03:34.840 to like go out there and be the single bachelor 0:03:35.440 --> 0:03:38.840 and be able to get girls really easily. I also 0:03:38.880 --> 0:03:39.880 think you can interpret it. 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:41.520 Which which I totally say that side. 0:03:41.520 --> 0:03:45.920 I'm kind of feeling that side, But you can also 0:03:46.000 --> 0:03:48.080 kind of turn it and say that this looks like 0:03:48.120 --> 0:03:50.760 a guy that's like on the defense and it didn't 0:03:50.760 --> 0:03:53.200 work out, and now he's like, oh, don't care about her, 0:03:53.520 --> 0:03:55.840 I'm moving on and it's not going to be a 0:03:55.880 --> 0:03:57.800 problem for me to move on, and just trying to 0:03:57.800 --> 0:03:58.960 look like he's not affected. 0:04:00.160 --> 0:04:02.640 Yeah, I mean, just be honest with people. People like 0:04:03.080 --> 0:04:06.480 honesty and authenticity way more than they like somebody who's 0:04:06.520 --> 0:04:09.160 like going to be just positive just for positive sake, 0:04:09.440 --> 0:04:12.160 you know, like be authentic with the fact that you 0:04:12.200 --> 0:04:16.480 were just engaged to someone and you obviously cared about her, 0:04:17.600 --> 0:04:21.920 and can you not admit that, you know, it's sad 0:04:22.240 --> 0:04:25.800 to be ending a relationship that you thought was your future. Yeah. 0:04:26.200 --> 0:04:28.440 Also there were comments that were like, this doesn't seem 0:04:28.480 --> 0:04:30.599 like the bachelor that we knew, Like he was like 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:34.800 very like warm and sweet and emotional, and yeah, this 0:04:34.880 --> 0:04:36.720 guy just didn't seem like that. 0:04:36.800 --> 0:04:38.120 It seems like a front. You know. 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:41.760 They stopped following each other on Instagram from what our 0:04:41.800 --> 0:04:46.800 producers are telling us. And I find it very interesting 0:04:46.839 --> 0:04:49.359 and I've always felt it kind of sad in a 0:04:49.400 --> 0:04:54.120 way when relationships and it's not just people in the 0:04:54.160 --> 0:04:58.480 public eye. It's you know, teenagers that I know if 0:04:58.560 --> 0:05:03.600 they if they with their boyfriend or girlfriend and they've 0:05:03.640 --> 0:05:07.640 shared on Instagram, you know, all these pictures their life together, 0:05:07.800 --> 0:05:10.480 however long they were together. You know, like they share 0:05:10.480 --> 0:05:13.400 about their life together, and you know, whatever they've done, 0:05:13.440 --> 0:05:16.480 they've posted on Instagram in their infeed right, so it's 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:20.400 not just stories, but it lives on their feed. When 0:05:20.480 --> 0:05:25.160 they break up, they delete every single picture with that person. 0:05:25.480 --> 0:05:29.320 So it's like that relationship in social media land never existed. 0:05:29.360 --> 0:05:30.520 And it's so sad to me. 0:05:31.200 --> 0:05:34.640 I don't think it's necessary unless there was a cheating involved. 0:05:35.120 --> 0:05:36.920 I don't think it's a big deal to keep those 0:05:37.040 --> 0:05:37.440 up there. 0:05:38.320 --> 0:05:40.279 I agree, it's just like a chapter in your life, 0:05:40.320 --> 0:05:42.920 a memory to keep it. Yeah, unless there's like really 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:44.400 harsh feelings, I don't think you. 0:05:44.360 --> 0:05:47.159 Have to do that. I will say good. 0:05:47.680 --> 0:05:50.080 Yeah, Like if you get involved, you know, you get 0:05:50.160 --> 0:05:52.640 move on to a relationship in that person that you're 0:05:52.680 --> 0:05:54.799 with doesn't want those pictures up there anymore. 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:58.040 That's one thing. But I don't I don't know. 0:05:58.480 --> 0:06:00.719 Yeah right, it's just sad to me. I don't know. 0:06:00.720 --> 0:06:03.680 Why don't you just I see Instagram as kind of 0:06:03.720 --> 0:06:09.360 like a public diary in a way, you know, just 0:06:09.440 --> 0:06:13.040 sharing the diary of your life, the memories that you 0:06:13.080 --> 0:06:16.479 want to remember, the funny times, the whatever, you know, 0:06:16.800 --> 0:06:20.560 And it just makes me sad when people are like, oh, Okay, 0:06:20.600 --> 0:06:24.479 we're broken up, let's just delete, you know, the all 0:06:24.480 --> 0:06:26.279 of the photo evidence. I don't know. 0:06:26.279 --> 0:06:27.240 It's just do they do that? 0:06:27.920 --> 0:06:30.159 I don't know. I don't know. I'm just bringing that 0:06:30.320 --> 0:06:32.520 up as a I know that they unfollowed each other. 0:06:32.720 --> 0:06:34.680 Yeah, I bet you they didn't. 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:37.320 Oh no, she has her engagement photo up there from 0:06:37.320 --> 0:06:41.200 March twenty seventh, but that looks. 0:06:40.880 --> 0:06:42.880 To be it. I don't know if she had anything 0:06:42.880 --> 0:06:44.080 else with him up there. 0:06:45.120 --> 0:06:45.760 He has nothing. 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:50.320 He has nothing. Crazy. It's like, guys, we have a 0:06:50.360 --> 0:06:52.520 whole series. It's on Hulu. 0:06:54.120 --> 0:06:59.200 I know, Like that's the thing he does have. Yeah, 0:06:59.279 --> 0:07:04.839 he literally I'm going through there are there are no 0:07:06.120 --> 0:07:09.560 I think he got rid of. I'm assuming he had 0:07:09.600 --> 0:07:10.240 pictures of them. 0:07:10.320 --> 0:07:11.760 Yeah, that's why I'm actually not sure. 0:07:11.840 --> 0:07:13.720 I wonder if they just like never really posted about 0:07:13.720 --> 0:07:16.800 each other, because she has plenty of stuff about him 0:07:17.360 --> 0:07:20.840 before March twenty seventh, but nothing after March twenty seventh. 0:07:21.120 --> 0:07:24.720 No, he has nothing. It's all gone. I guarantee you 0:07:25.040 --> 0:07:28.840 he had at least one post. Oh yeah, you know 0:07:28.880 --> 0:07:33.240 what I mean. Yeah, he must have. No, it's all like, 0:07:33.480 --> 0:07:37.040 it's all just it's all just him And listen. If 0:07:37.040 --> 0:07:39.840 that's what you want to do it, and that's your 0:07:40.400 --> 0:07:43.520 reason for having Instagram, you just want to promote yourself 0:07:43.640 --> 0:07:46.559 or you know whatever, then that's fine. That's your life. 0:07:46.800 --> 0:07:48.760 It's your it's your page. Do what you want with 0:07:48.800 --> 0:07:49.840 your page. 0:07:50.080 --> 0:07:51.480 I just I don't know. 0:07:51.600 --> 0:07:54.600 It makes me really sad that you just erase you know, 0:07:54.960 --> 0:07:58.120 what happened in your past. Yeah, yeah, she's she's not 0:07:58.160 --> 0:07:59.440 on his feed at all. 0:07:59.720 --> 0:08:01.840 That's okay. 0:08:01.880 --> 0:08:06.760 Moving on Bachelor's Star Hannah and Sluice. We know her 0:08:06.800 --> 0:08:10.559 from Peter season and she got married to NFL player 0:08:10.680 --> 0:08:15.240 Jake Funk last year. They are expecting a baby in November, 0:08:15.720 --> 0:08:18.239 So congratulations to Hannah Ann and Jake. 0:08:18.800 --> 0:08:21.000 She said. She told People magazine that it was. 0:08:21.000 --> 0:08:25.440 An unexpected and joyful surprise she got pregnant on a 0:08:25.600 --> 0:08:28.080 trip to Dubai. She says it's a moment they will 0:08:28.120 --> 0:08:32.040 always treasure finding out together. She said she'll be sharing 0:08:32.160 --> 0:08:36.440 Jake's reaction video soon it's so funny. She also said 0:08:36.679 --> 0:08:40.720 that for the first trimester, she's stuck to rest and 0:08:40.960 --> 0:08:44.840 the basics, work walks, taking care of their dog. She 0:08:44.880 --> 0:08:49.120 said she had food aversions. Almost everything tasted off except 0:08:49.160 --> 0:08:54.520 for fruit, which she has consistently loved. And we also 0:08:54.920 --> 0:08:58.040 found out that she told her bestie from the Bachelor 0:08:58.040 --> 0:09:01.920 of Victoria Fuller, in a very cute way. She said 0:09:02.000 --> 0:09:04.240 that she was getting in the car and she was 0:09:04.280 --> 0:09:05.400 apologizing for running late. 0:09:05.440 --> 0:09:06.480 She goes, sorry, I'm late. 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:09.200 I got you this. She hands over a bottle of 0:09:09.200 --> 0:09:14.960 wine and it says the label says only best friends 0:09:14.960 --> 0:09:18.200 get promoted to anti baby funk, and she goes, you know, like, 0:09:18.240 --> 0:09:20.840 I can't drink this. I'm forty five minutes late because 0:09:21.320 --> 0:09:24.439 I've been sick. All right, so here you go, And 0:09:24.480 --> 0:09:26.160 then Victoria. 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:30.160 Said that she immediately burst into tears before giving her 0:09:30.200 --> 0:09:34.720 a big hug. So sweet. I love cute. 0:09:34.800 --> 0:09:35.160 Idea. 0:09:35.440 --> 0:09:45.440 Yeah, that's really cute. It's really cute. 0:09:48.160 --> 0:09:49.640 So a couple of questions for you. 0:09:50.480 --> 0:09:54.360 Yeah, we all know that I hated being pregnant, especially 0:09:54.360 --> 0:09:57.000 with Dawson. It was like the worst. It was really 0:09:57.000 --> 0:09:58.960 like the it was a very dark time for me. 0:09:59.360 --> 0:10:01.920 I had hyper I'm assist with Dawson. Did not have 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:06.160 it with Hayden, which is very rare and weird, but 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:09.199 like still did not you know, still got plenty sick. 0:10:09.000 --> 0:10:14.040 And did not enjoy being pregnant with Hayden. I think that. 0:10:15.440 --> 0:10:19.160 Cravings are such a thing that we talk about with pregnancy. 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:21.080 Oh my god, what are your cravings? I'm like, guess what. 0:10:21.600 --> 0:10:23.840 That is the least of anything that going on in 0:10:23.840 --> 0:10:24.640 my life right now. 0:10:24.960 --> 0:10:27.960 Like cravings is something that they put in rom coms 0:10:28.160 --> 0:10:32.000 and like has just infiltrated real life. I can't ever 0:10:32.080 --> 0:10:34.920 say that I was like I must have this now. 0:10:34.960 --> 0:10:38.360 What I always said was that that it was kind 0:10:38.400 --> 0:10:42.840 of like a hmm, what can I stomach? Now that 0:10:43.040 --> 0:10:45.680 sounds like I could handle it, And that's what I 0:10:45.679 --> 0:10:47.040 would call a craving. 0:10:47.280 --> 0:10:50.600 What about you, M that's such a good way to 0:10:50.600 --> 0:10:55.800 look at it. I have always said that pregnancy just 0:10:55.880 --> 0:10:59.200 doesn't agree with me. I feel like I would have 0:10:59.280 --> 0:11:02.680 been the kind of person and not the kind of person. 0:11:02.880 --> 0:11:10.000 I would have loved to have, like not healthy pregnancies, 0:11:10.040 --> 0:11:13.400 but like pregnancies that didn't disagree with my body. Yeah, 0:11:13.440 --> 0:11:15.480 because I feel like I would have loved to be 0:11:15.520 --> 0:11:19.440 a surrogate. I'm honestly, honestly, I would have loved to 0:11:19.520 --> 0:11:23.920 be pregnant for other people to get Ah's so see 0:11:24.080 --> 0:11:26.920 and I can't. Like I was like nope. After I 0:11:26.920 --> 0:11:30.000 got pregnant, I was like, Okay, well that's not happening 0:11:30.080 --> 0:11:35.040 because I was so sick, so sick for four months, 0:11:35.360 --> 0:11:36.480 sixteen weeks. 0:11:36.280 --> 0:11:36.880 That's about it. 0:11:36.880 --> 0:11:38.720 It was like six to eighteen weeks. Like once we 0:11:38.800 --> 0:11:41.160 got at eighteen weeks with both of them, I was like, okay, 0:11:41.160 --> 0:11:44.559 I guess I can live. Like yes, the first eighteen 0:11:44.600 --> 0:11:46.880 weeks with Dawson was like I actually can't live a 0:11:46.880 --> 0:11:48.520 normal life. 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:51.040 No, not at all. You lay on the couch, you 0:11:51.080 --> 0:11:54.360 don't brush your teeth. Yeah, what like you literally get 0:11:54.440 --> 0:11:56.079 up from your bed and you go to the couch 0:11:56.080 --> 0:11:58.000 and you lit. At least that's what I did. I 0:11:58.000 --> 0:12:00.600 didn't brush my teeth. I didn't like. I just I 0:12:00.679 --> 0:12:04.120 feel like I would pop fruit loops because I had 0:12:04.160 --> 0:12:08.120 to be eating something and fruit loops were so tiny, 0:12:08.240 --> 0:12:12.120 and would just keep me like digesting something. I don't 0:12:12.120 --> 0:12:14.560 know why that helped, but I had to be doing that. 0:12:15.240 --> 0:12:19.160 I would crave in the way that I feel like 0:12:19.240 --> 0:12:22.000 it always made me feel better when I was sick. 0:12:22.800 --> 0:12:25.719 French fries and hash browns. Those were the things that 0:12:25.800 --> 0:12:29.920 I needed. I had to have French fries and hash browns. 0:12:30.280 --> 0:12:35.600 And then I was I was also sick for Blake's 0:12:35.679 --> 0:12:39.959 With Blake's Lee not as bad, but I think it 0:12:40.080 --> 0:12:45.120 wasn't as bad because I had a sixteen month old 0:12:45.400 --> 0:12:48.120 running around and I had to like be a mom 0:12:48.440 --> 0:12:50.280 and not just lay on the couch and not brush 0:12:50.360 --> 0:12:53.120 my teeth so exactly. 0:12:53.280 --> 0:12:54.200 Yeah, I know. 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:56.440 Is it just because like our brain is like nope, 0:12:56.480 --> 0:12:59.920 you must power through or is it because I'm convinced 0:13:00.160 --> 0:13:01.720 my body was just like, oh okay, I know what 0:13:01.720 --> 0:13:02.600 I'm doing this time. 0:13:02.640 --> 0:13:05.200 It's not like as much of like a hormonal shift. 0:13:05.320 --> 0:13:07.720 I don't know, that's so true. And then I also 0:13:07.960 --> 0:13:13.320 had gestational diabetes. Oh gosh, I had help syndrome that 0:13:13.360 --> 0:13:15.520 I didn't find out until the end, but help syndrome 0:13:15.559 --> 0:13:19.880 and pre eclampsia, so I I literally almost died from 0:13:19.920 --> 0:13:22.560 giving birth. So I was like Okay, Well, I guess 0:13:22.600 --> 0:13:25.800 my body just doesn't like pregnancy. Thank god I got 0:13:25.840 --> 0:13:28.280 pregnant because it took us two years to get pregnant. 0:13:28.320 --> 0:13:32.319 Okay, and then sixteen months later he did it happened again? 0:13:33.480 --> 0:13:35.400 Yeah, well I think it was. No, it was actually 0:13:35.679 --> 0:13:39.160 sooner than that. It was right when I stopped nursing Max, 0:13:39.240 --> 0:13:42.440 and I nursed him for a year, So I got 0:13:42.520 --> 0:13:45.440 pregnant right when he was a year. And then I 0:13:45.440 --> 0:13:48.280 guess he was late, like nineteen months old when oh 0:13:48.320 --> 0:13:53.160 he was twenty months old. Sorry, the brain does not work, neither. 0:13:54.640 --> 0:13:55.680 Me neither. 0:13:56.840 --> 0:13:59.040 So he was twenty months old running around and I 0:13:59.120 --> 0:14:02.000 was like, yeah, I just I just have to exist. 0:14:02.120 --> 0:14:06.920 I remember specifically one day where I think I closed 0:14:06.960 --> 0:14:10.280 the door. There was nothing like dangerous around for the 0:14:10.360 --> 0:14:12.319 kids to get into, like no tables for them to 0:14:12.400 --> 0:14:15.240 hit their heads on or anything. I put. I think 0:14:15.280 --> 0:14:17.800 Blakesley was laying in a like a one of those 0:14:17.800 --> 0:14:22.520 mobile things on the ground, and I was like, I'm 0:14:22.560 --> 0:14:26.320 literally gonna lay down and just lay here, and I'm not. 0:14:26.760 --> 0:14:29.000 I was like, I can't even interact with my children 0:14:29.120 --> 0:14:33.040 right now because I feel maybe that was no. It 0:14:33.080 --> 0:14:35.520 was when I was pregnant. I'm so sorry, It's okay. 0:14:35.800 --> 0:14:38.320 I shouldn't even talk. Why am I a podcast host? 0:14:38.320 --> 0:14:39.920 Because I can't remember. 0:14:40.080 --> 0:14:42.840 I appreciate this so much because like with Ben, like 0:14:42.920 --> 0:14:47.880 I just I'm like, you are so incredibly like with it, Ben, 0:14:48.000 --> 0:14:49.800 And I'm like, can I switch brains with you for 0:14:49.840 --> 0:14:50.240 a day? 0:14:50.320 --> 0:14:52.440 Like I'm truly I'm like gonna be one of. 0:14:52.400 --> 0:14:55.760 Those women who gets like late diagnosed as ADHD, because like, 0:14:56.040 --> 0:14:59.600 I have never had eighty D symptoms in my entire 0:14:59.640 --> 0:15:06.000 life until becoming a mom of two. Same, same, yeah, 0:15:06.040 --> 0:15:08.320 Like this morning, I was like, where did my water 0:15:08.320 --> 0:15:08.680 bottle go? 0:15:08.720 --> 0:15:09.560 Where my water bottle go? 0:15:09.560 --> 0:15:09.680 Oh? 0:15:09.720 --> 0:15:15.920 Ashley, it's in your effing hand. Like it's petrifying sometimes. 0:15:16.480 --> 0:15:18.800 Oh I've done that with my phone, Like where is 0:15:18.880 --> 0:15:21.320 my phone? Where did I put my freaking phone? And 0:15:21.360 --> 0:15:22.040 it's in my hand? 0:15:22.200 --> 0:15:25.040 Did you watch This is Us? Yes? Okay? 0:15:25.080 --> 0:15:27.680 Do you remember how they made Rebecca seem like she 0:15:27.800 --> 0:15:31.000 was you know, her first sign of Alzheimer's was losing 0:15:31.000 --> 0:15:32.040 her phone all the time. 0:15:32.480 --> 0:15:34.440 If somebody that is. 0:15:34.400 --> 0:15:38.360 The worst example ever, because I lose my phone around 0:15:38.400 --> 0:15:40.040 the house five times a day. 0:15:40.840 --> 0:15:42.640 And I have Alzheimer's in my family. 0:15:42.800 --> 0:15:44.680 Me too, don't worry about that. Yeah, me too. 0:15:45.600 --> 0:15:48.880 Yeah, I'm not not looking good for either of us, Ashley, 0:15:49.120 --> 0:15:49.560 or We're just. 0:15:49.520 --> 0:15:54.680 Gonna keep going, okay, alrighty, So then my other question 0:15:54.720 --> 0:15:57.120 about pregnancy, but yes, I have to agree with you. 0:15:57.160 --> 0:16:01.920 Greasy potatoes was always the way to go. Greasy anything cheesy, 0:16:02.360 --> 0:16:03.360 totally pizza. 0:16:03.840 --> 0:16:04.880 Yeah, pizza. Okay. 0:16:05.160 --> 0:16:08.960 So then how did you tell your best friends you 0:16:09.000 --> 0:16:09.600 were pregnant? 0:16:10.520 --> 0:16:13.480 Gosh, I don't even remember. I literally, like, that is 0:16:13.520 --> 0:16:17.600 the cutest story of how she gave her like a 0:16:17.680 --> 0:16:19.920 wine bottle and stuff. No, the best auntie or what 0:16:20.080 --> 0:16:22.200 have That's the cutest thing ever. Why couldn't I have 0:16:22.240 --> 0:16:24.720 thought of that? I don't know. I do remember this. 0:16:24.840 --> 0:16:29.240 I'll tell you a funny story. So you know, we 0:16:29.320 --> 0:16:33.760 tried for two years. Ryan was going to climb a mountain. 0:16:34.200 --> 0:16:42.040 It's called yeah, right, so South America. He's going to 0:16:42.080 --> 0:16:47.200 South America, right. I was ovulating right before he left, 0:16:47.440 --> 0:16:51.440 and and we of course had sex when I was 0:16:51.440 --> 0:16:53.800 ovulating because we were trying to have a baby. Not 0:16:53.840 --> 0:16:55.760 only because you know we're trying to have a baby, 0:16:55.800 --> 0:16:58.360 but we're married and happily and you know he's going 0:16:58.400 --> 0:17:02.000 on a trip, so we have sex, right, and I 0:17:02.160 --> 0:17:06.960 find out that I'm pregnant while he's on this trip. Okay, 0:17:07.040 --> 0:17:10.600 so it was like two weeks. I can't remember. He 0:17:10.680 --> 0:17:13.040 was gone for two or three weeks. And so I 0:17:13.080 --> 0:17:17.520 find out, like and I had I think probably hundreds 0:17:17.840 --> 0:17:22.320 of pregnancy tests in my bathroom and I took them constantly, 0:17:22.720 --> 0:17:26.040 constantly taking them. So I constantly am taking the test. 0:17:26.119 --> 0:17:30.080 And I remember I took the pregnancy test and I 0:17:30.160 --> 0:17:33.320 read it and I had taken at least a couple 0:17:33.440 --> 0:17:36.080 hundred at this point. I feel like, so I'm standing 0:17:36.119 --> 0:17:37.879 there going, of course it's going to be no, you 0:17:37.920 --> 0:17:40.800 know you're not pregnant. You're not pregnant. And I read 0:17:40.840 --> 0:17:43.359 it and it said I was pregnant. And I stood 0:17:43.440 --> 0:17:46.320 in the doorway and I felt like my feet were 0:17:46.359 --> 0:17:48.720 suddenly in cement blocks, like I couldn't move. I was 0:17:48.880 --> 0:17:54.720 paralyzed with like, holy crap, it worked, like what's happening? 0:17:54.760 --> 0:17:57.680 And Ryan's not even here, Like what the hell? So 0:17:57.720 --> 0:18:00.480 it called my mom and told her I had to 0:18:00.520 --> 0:18:01.240 tell somebody. 0:18:01.359 --> 0:18:03.200 Yeah, so he was totally out of reach. 0:18:03.600 --> 0:18:05.960 He was out of reach. We could only talk via 0:18:06.119 --> 0:18:10.159 satellite phone, and even when we talked on satellite phone. 0:18:10.520 --> 0:18:14.800 It was for maybe like three minutes if that. I 0:18:14.960 --> 0:18:18.320 didn't even know if the call is this big honkin' 0:18:19.080 --> 0:18:22.440 satellite phone. I didn't even know if we would get 0:18:22.480 --> 0:18:25.240 cut off at some point. So I couldn't tell him 0:18:25.600 --> 0:18:28.720 on the satellite phone, right because I'm like, I can't 0:18:28.760 --> 0:18:31.320 tell you and then be cut off and be like, 0:18:31.400 --> 0:18:35.600 guess what happened? Is this click? You know? So I 0:18:35.640 --> 0:18:40.679 wrote him this sweet poem and he gets home to 0:18:40.760 --> 0:18:43.560 the airport. I pick him upt the airport. He can't 0:18:43.600 --> 0:18:46.320 smile because his lips are so chapped from being on 0:18:47.119 --> 0:18:50.399 this mountain. Like he's like, he's like, you know, I 0:18:50.520 --> 0:18:53.240 like windburn all this stuff, so he can't smile. I 0:18:53.240 --> 0:18:57.280 give him the poem and he doesn't really smile, and 0:18:57.320 --> 0:19:00.439 I was like, are you excited? Like what finally pregnant 0:19:00.520 --> 0:19:02.639 or whatever? And he's like I just can't smile, like 0:19:02.640 --> 0:19:08.240 I literally. So fast forward to like I don't know, 0:19:08.280 --> 0:19:11.400 maybe months or years later after Max was born, and 0:19:11.680 --> 0:19:14.199 he makes some joke about how, oh are you going 0:19:14.280 --> 0:19:16.280 to tell me who the real father is? Because I 0:19:16.359 --> 0:19:18.760 was were you got pregnant while I was on Ocapola 0:19:18.840 --> 0:19:19.360 And I was like. 0:19:19.600 --> 0:19:25.000 Dude, that's how it works. I was like, are you 0:19:25.080 --> 0:19:25.720 kidding me? 0:19:25.960 --> 0:19:29.880 Like, I'm sorry, but you get pregnant, you find out, 0:19:30.119 --> 0:19:32.439 like it's not like you have to wait until you 0:19:32.480 --> 0:19:34.800 know whatever. You all know the science, right. 0:19:35.119 --> 0:19:35.359 Yeah. 0:19:35.359 --> 0:19:38.119 And by the way, I think I have some pretty 0:19:38.119 --> 0:19:40.080 good proof that he is their father. 0:19:40.240 --> 0:19:49.040 Yeah, twins, that's hilarious. 0:19:49.080 --> 0:19:49.680 So fun. 0:19:50.600 --> 0:19:56.280 Oh, I love that, I am Like, I was so 0:19:56.320 --> 0:19:59.240 awkward to tell him. Jared was fun because Jared like 0:19:59.320 --> 0:20:02.040 didn't ever bel leave it ever. Like the first time 0:20:02.080 --> 0:20:05.280 with Dawson, I just like had a sort of feeling. 0:20:05.359 --> 0:20:06.840 And then I took a pregnancy test a couple of 0:20:06.880 --> 0:20:09.840 days earlier, and I don't know why. Both the times, 0:20:09.960 --> 0:20:12.040 all I had was the line ones, not like the 0:20:12.080 --> 0:20:13.359 pregnant not pregnant ones. 0:20:13.600 --> 0:20:13.919 Yes. 0:20:14.080 --> 0:20:18.120 So I took the line one and. 0:20:17.440 --> 0:20:21.040 I was like, there is a slight slight second line 0:20:21.320 --> 0:20:21.720 and then he. 0:20:21.720 --> 0:20:23.680 Was like, ah, nah, it's not. 0:20:24.080 --> 0:20:26.679 And then and then I'm like, oh, I don't know, 0:20:27.280 --> 0:20:30.400 and then I don't know, and then he it took 0:20:30.480 --> 0:20:33.119 like the third one to say pregnant not pregnant for 0:20:33.200 --> 0:20:36.520 him to actually believe it. And then with Hayden, I 0:20:36.560 --> 0:20:38.919 had a chemical pregnancy the first month that we were 0:20:38.920 --> 0:20:41.760 trying for Hayden. So that means like it's like a 0:20:42.119 --> 0:20:45.560 it's like when you say the Lord miscarriages, Like I 0:20:45.560 --> 0:20:47.359