1 00:00:00,080 --> 00:00:13,360 Speaker 1: The nick Guy post. Nikky, Hello here, I am welcome 2 00:00:13,400 --> 00:00:17,880 Speaker 1: to the show. It's NICKI Podcast. It is Wednesday. I'm 3 00:00:17,920 --> 00:00:21,239 Speaker 1: in Sonny, Los Angeles. I don't know what it's like 4 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:24,400 Speaker 1: outside because I got the blackout curtain straw Jess kidding. 5 00:00:24,600 --> 00:00:27,400 Speaker 1: I went outside already to get a diet coke. I'm 6 00:00:27,440 --> 00:00:30,960 Speaker 1: back on the sauce and uh, you know what I got. 7 00:00:30,960 --> 00:00:33,640 Speaker 1: I found about diet cokes is that if I drink 8 00:00:33,680 --> 00:00:37,959 Speaker 1: them from cans, my mouth starts getting like sores in it. 9 00:00:38,080 --> 00:00:40,800 Speaker 1: Like I start like it is abrasive to my mouth. 10 00:00:41,200 --> 00:00:44,120 Speaker 1: But bottles, plastic bottles, which are terrible, like give source 11 00:00:44,159 --> 00:00:47,600 Speaker 1: to the planet, better for my mouth, more refreshing. I 12 00:00:47,640 --> 00:00:50,520 Speaker 1: like a I like a diet coke out of a bottle. Um, 13 00:00:50,560 --> 00:00:52,879 Speaker 1: what do you guys prefer your sodas out of? Like 14 00:00:52,920 --> 00:00:55,760 Speaker 1: some people are like I love the Burger king On 15 00:00:55,840 --> 00:01:00,800 Speaker 1: I seventy and olive the fountain. People love fountain soda 16 00:01:00,840 --> 00:01:05,600 Speaker 1: from specific places found soda, Chick fil a, diet coke. 17 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:10,760 Speaker 1: Good ice ice is very important. Always has the ice 18 00:01:11,280 --> 00:01:14,959 Speaker 1: has the same ice. Yeah, it's good ice. It's crushed. 19 00:01:15,400 --> 00:01:17,200 Speaker 1: Oh gotcha. I thought you were saying, like I I 20 00:01:17,280 --> 00:01:19,680 Speaker 1: get there Chick fil A. I get the good ice. 21 00:01:20,200 --> 00:01:25,679 Speaker 1: It's like as opposed to what they have like the 22 00:01:25,720 --> 00:01:28,880 Speaker 1: crushed isn't like the little um almost like little hackey 23 00:01:28,880 --> 00:01:31,360 Speaker 1: sacks of it like the little they're like little balls 24 00:01:31,560 --> 00:01:34,759 Speaker 1: or is it like shaved they're bolish is they're kind 25 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: of in the middle and there And for some reason, 26 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:42,160 Speaker 1: crushed ice is a little whiter less clear than regular ice, 27 00:01:42,200 --> 00:01:45,280 Speaker 1: I find, which which is interesting. I used to have 28 00:01:45,319 --> 00:01:49,559 Speaker 1: a friend whose dad became obsessed with making ice completely clear, 29 00:01:50,360 --> 00:01:53,480 Speaker 1: and he would like check on his ice. What I 30 00:01:53,520 --> 00:01:56,600 Speaker 1: gotta ask him about that? I remember his dad was obsessed. 31 00:01:56,600 --> 00:01:58,640 Speaker 1: He was like my dad's kind of losing it. He 32 00:01:58,760 --> 00:02:02,400 Speaker 1: like loves making his eyes clear. There's a certain way 33 00:02:02,440 --> 00:02:04,720 Speaker 1: to do it where your ice cubes will be completely 34 00:02:04,800 --> 00:02:07,920 Speaker 1: clear and there's no haziness in them. I guess the 35 00:02:07,920 --> 00:02:11,000 Speaker 1: haziness is like air. Who knows. I'm not a scientist, 36 00:02:11,440 --> 00:02:14,320 Speaker 1: but I could drink. He drank a lot of water 37 00:02:14,520 --> 00:02:17,200 Speaker 1: and then piste in an ice tray. That's how you 38 00:02:17,240 --> 00:02:23,600 Speaker 1: get it perfectly clear. Perfectly clear. Man. Oh yeah, no 39 00:02:23,680 --> 00:02:28,000 Speaker 1: beats no asparre guess, no beats welve dude. One time 40 00:02:28,080 --> 00:02:33,200 Speaker 1: I took um, I had stomach aches from taking Mooden hancers. 41 00:02:33,240 --> 00:02:36,160 Speaker 1: I think I told you that Sammy stuff. It hurt 42 00:02:36,160 --> 00:02:39,239 Speaker 1: my stomach. It hurt my stomach so bad. I started 43 00:02:39,240 --> 00:02:41,920 Speaker 1: taking pepto bismol and then I started shopping black, and 44 00:02:41,960 --> 00:02:47,720 Speaker 1: then I assumed I had stomach cancer from the Sammy. 45 00:02:47,760 --> 00:02:50,240 Speaker 1: But I didn't know that peto bismol makes your ship black. 46 00:02:50,600 --> 00:02:52,880 Speaker 1: So I didn't know that either. I don't think that's 47 00:02:52,880 --> 00:02:56,799 Speaker 1: a common thing. Really, isn't that weird? You could eat 48 00:02:56,840 --> 00:03:00,280 Speaker 1: marshmallows all day, like, only marshmallows all day and it 49 00:03:00,320 --> 00:03:02,560 Speaker 1: will still come out looking like poop. You can eat 50 00:03:02,639 --> 00:03:08,120 Speaker 1: only white, like the most crisp white like hickam a marshmallows, 51 00:03:08,560 --> 00:03:15,320 Speaker 1: And I don't know what's other cool with cauliflower, just 52 00:03:15,520 --> 00:03:19,919 Speaker 1: pure white foods like crackers. What are some other I'm 53 00:03:19,919 --> 00:03:24,200 Speaker 1: going to think of white people's foods, um um kind bars, 54 00:03:24,639 --> 00:03:28,440 Speaker 1: and it'll just come out looking, uh like poop. Yesterday 55 00:03:28,560 --> 00:03:30,880 Speaker 1: Kirsten wrote to me and was like, oh man, I 56 00:03:30,960 --> 00:03:33,120 Speaker 1: was not feeling good all day and all I can 57 00:03:33,160 --> 00:03:35,160 Speaker 1: think about I forget if we talked about it on 58 00:03:35,200 --> 00:03:38,040 Speaker 1: this podcast. But when you have a giant ship in 59 00:03:38,080 --> 00:03:41,040 Speaker 1: you and it's just like nothing but like a little 60 00:03:41,040 --> 00:03:43,840 Speaker 1: bit of skin is keeping that from everyone else in 61 00:03:43,840 --> 00:03:50,600 Speaker 1: that Lulu lemon. It's so people literally call it a 62 00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:53,840 Speaker 1: turtle head poking out like it's already out and people 63 00:03:53,840 --> 00:03:58,200 Speaker 1: are still walking around. It's so much in you. Yesterday, 64 00:03:58,240 --> 00:04:02,120 Speaker 1: I like, I, you know, went after I had a 65 00:04:02,160 --> 00:04:04,480 Speaker 1: long day of podcasting and I was like, oh my god, 66 00:04:04,520 --> 00:04:08,560 Speaker 1: I did Conan's podcast, in Marin's podcast with John Wayne. 67 00:04:08,680 --> 00:04:12,680 Speaker 1: Levels of ship in me like like impact, like it was, 68 00:04:13,560 --> 00:04:15,960 Speaker 1: I feel like you it was. I was almost there 69 00:04:16,000 --> 00:04:18,279 Speaker 1: with a partner, like we were doing a like it was. 70 00:04:18,480 --> 00:04:23,719 Speaker 1: They should have had an extra mic for it. I 71 00:04:23,720 --> 00:04:27,120 Speaker 1: didn't feel it, though. I didn't know. What's that thing 72 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:29,159 Speaker 1: when you have a hoe down where it's just you 73 00:04:29,240 --> 00:04:31,479 Speaker 1: and the ship and you're like making your partner around 74 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:34,680 Speaker 1: and around. I was thinking more you got your your 75 00:04:34,680 --> 00:04:37,360 Speaker 1: hand on your six, your six shooter, and then ship. 76 00:04:39,160 --> 00:04:41,400 Speaker 1: I didn't know that I was consuppated. Though that's a 77 00:04:41,400 --> 00:04:44,120 Speaker 1: problem with consulpation. I don't I'll just be a cranky 78 00:04:44,160 --> 00:04:48,359 Speaker 1: widow baby and not know that there's a lot of 79 00:04:48,360 --> 00:04:50,160 Speaker 1: stuff inside me that needs to get out, that it 80 00:04:50,480 --> 00:04:52,320 Speaker 1: is not ready to come out. I hate when you 81 00:04:52,360 --> 00:04:55,279 Speaker 1: can't Why can't you just poop? Why did your body 82 00:04:55,320 --> 00:04:57,880 Speaker 1: hold onto it? I know it's probably dehydration. Let me 83 00:04:58,000 --> 00:05:00,160 Speaker 1: as I chug a diet coke, let me get a 84 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:05,480 Speaker 1: smart one in me, But in person, how did that 85 00:05:05,560 --> 00:05:09,159 Speaker 1: feel compared to Because you've you've you've done like four, 86 00:05:09,320 --> 00:05:13,000 Speaker 1: like three things with him via zoom over covid, and 87 00:05:13,000 --> 00:05:16,400 Speaker 1: then you've done a show. No, I did a show 88 00:05:16,520 --> 00:05:18,520 Speaker 1: twice over zoom, and then I did this. I've done 89 00:05:18,520 --> 00:05:22,760 Speaker 1: this podcast in person before, but this isn't a new studio, 90 00:05:22,880 --> 00:05:25,599 Speaker 1: and this is after I have become a huge fan 91 00:05:25,680 --> 00:05:28,919 Speaker 1: of his podcast, Like it meant as much to me 92 00:05:28,960 --> 00:05:31,520 Speaker 1: as like doing his TV show when I first did it, 93 00:05:31,600 --> 00:05:33,600 Speaker 1: you know, like in terms of like how much I 94 00:05:33,640 --> 00:05:35,760 Speaker 1: listened to, Like I used to watch Late Night with 95 00:05:35,800 --> 00:05:39,680 Speaker 1: Conan O'Brien every single night from junior year of high 96 00:05:39,720 --> 00:05:43,800 Speaker 1: school until like senior year of college. Like it was 97 00:05:43,880 --> 00:05:46,760 Speaker 1: just a ritual every night to watch it. And so 98 00:05:46,800 --> 00:05:48,080 Speaker 1: it's a big deal to me to do it. And 99 00:05:48,120 --> 00:05:51,480 Speaker 1: then this podcast, like his podcast I listened to all 100 00:05:51,520 --> 00:05:54,080 Speaker 1: the time. They're like the way that people feel about 101 00:05:54,160 --> 00:05:57,120 Speaker 1: us as like their friends is exactly the way I 102 00:05:57,120 --> 00:06:01,200 Speaker 1: feel about Gorley Sona and Conan, Like, I just love 103 00:06:01,440 --> 00:06:04,039 Speaker 1: it's just such. It's such a good podcast. Not to 104 00:06:04,080 --> 00:06:06,080 Speaker 1: like talk about other podcasts, but I mean, it's so 105 00:06:06,200 --> 00:06:08,560 Speaker 1: fucking good. It's so funny. It's a few like ours. 106 00:06:08,600 --> 00:06:12,920 Speaker 1: You will like their's. It's very similar. Conan needs a friend, 107 00:06:12,960 --> 00:06:15,800 Speaker 1: con Brian needs a friend. How did I feel being 108 00:06:15,800 --> 00:06:19,599 Speaker 1: in a new was the studio more they put away 109 00:06:19,640 --> 00:06:21,880 Speaker 1: more money into it? Did it feel more like professional 110 00:06:22,000 --> 00:06:23,800 Speaker 1: or was it better work? Yeah? I mean it was 111 00:06:23,839 --> 00:06:25,520 Speaker 1: like a house. It's like you walk into a house 112 00:06:25,560 --> 00:06:29,080 Speaker 1: and it's like, um, someone a really nice girl met 113 00:06:29,080 --> 00:06:31,640 Speaker 1: me outside, so excited that you're here. I walk up 114 00:06:31,680 --> 00:06:33,760 Speaker 1: the stairs. There's like a basket with all these snacks. 115 00:06:33,800 --> 00:06:35,839 Speaker 1: Conan is at the top of the stairs. There's people 116 00:06:36,320 --> 00:06:38,680 Speaker 1: like there's all his producers who I recognize from doing 117 00:06:38,720 --> 00:06:42,080 Speaker 1: the Show of a Billion Times. Like in it used 118 00:06:42,120 --> 00:06:43,800 Speaker 1: to be like a we work space, not really what 119 00:06:43,880 --> 00:06:46,080 Speaker 1: we work, but like a women's we work. So it's 120 00:06:46,080 --> 00:06:48,200 Speaker 1: like this it almost looks like it could have been 121 00:06:48,240 --> 00:06:52,080 Speaker 1: a domestic abuse shelter for women. Like it's a house, 122 00:06:52,160 --> 00:06:55,440 Speaker 1: but it's like nice and it's like has a nice kitchen, 123 00:06:55,520 --> 00:06:58,120 Speaker 1: and then there's like living space where there's like tables, 124 00:06:58,160 --> 00:07:00,960 Speaker 1: and so there's producers working in like right D's and 125 00:07:01,000 --> 00:07:04,279 Speaker 1: then there is his studio that we went to. We 126 00:07:04,360 --> 00:07:06,799 Speaker 1: just walked to a studio and then just started potting 127 00:07:06,839 --> 00:07:09,160 Speaker 1: and just sat down. And you have to say, you know, 128 00:07:09,200 --> 00:07:11,840 Speaker 1: like I'm Nikki Glazer and I feel and then it's 129 00:07:11,880 --> 00:07:14,400 Speaker 1: like blank about being Conan O'Brien's friend, and then you 130 00:07:14,520 --> 00:07:16,600 Speaker 1: fill in the blank, and then the podcast just starts 131 00:07:16,640 --> 00:07:22,480 Speaker 1: and it's, uh, chill. Yes, last time I said overwhelmed 132 00:07:22,480 --> 00:07:24,440 Speaker 1: in the seme, I said chill because it's an inside 133 00:07:24,520 --> 00:07:28,080 Speaker 1: joke for people who listen to the podcast. Um that, 134 00:07:28,760 --> 00:07:30,440 Speaker 1: But I really struggled with it. I was gonna say 135 00:07:30,440 --> 00:07:33,760 Speaker 1: snuck because that would also be an inside joke because 136 00:07:33,800 --> 00:07:36,680 Speaker 1: one time Jennifer Garner was on Conan show and he 137 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:38,640 Speaker 1: said something like and then you snuck over here, and 138 00:07:38,680 --> 00:07:40,960 Speaker 1: she goes, snuck isn't a word, Conan, you should know 139 00:07:41,000 --> 00:07:43,160 Speaker 1: that you went to Harvard. And he's like, he's a 140 00:07:43,200 --> 00:07:45,600 Speaker 1: little miffed, and then they get out the dictionary and 141 00:07:45,600 --> 00:07:48,640 Speaker 1: he looks it up and he's like, snuck it. She 142 00:07:48,680 --> 00:07:52,960 Speaker 1: felt really stupid, and uh so I was rainstorming about 143 00:07:52,960 --> 00:07:54,920 Speaker 1: what to say, but it was a you know I'm 144 00:07:54,960 --> 00:07:58,080 Speaker 1: really struggling, toy. I honestly would like to like not 145 00:07:58,200 --> 00:08:01,240 Speaker 1: talk about my appearance on Conan, because I am going 146 00:08:01,280 --> 00:08:06,560 Speaker 1: through the thing I always go through after conan Um appearances, 147 00:08:06,600 --> 00:08:09,280 Speaker 1: which is man, I could have been so much funnier. 148 00:08:09,320 --> 00:08:12,160 Speaker 1: I was just so nervous. Not nervous, but I'm just 149 00:08:12,240 --> 00:08:17,640 Speaker 1: so like I'm trying. Like it's weird what my brain 150 00:08:17,720 --> 00:08:20,960 Speaker 1: does when I'm like relaxed and I'm around people who 151 00:08:21,640 --> 00:08:24,280 Speaker 1: I know are just like tickled and everything I say, 152 00:08:24,320 --> 00:08:26,400 Speaker 1: I can be really funny, like when I'm on stage, 153 00:08:26,400 --> 00:08:28,760 Speaker 1: I could be really funny when like people and Conan 154 00:08:28,800 --> 00:08:30,920 Speaker 1: thinks of funny, Sona thinks and funny girly. As a fan, 155 00:08:31,400 --> 00:08:34,640 Speaker 1: I just couldn't. I was just two in my head 156 00:08:34,640 --> 00:08:37,280 Speaker 1: of like be present, listen to what he's saying, try 157 00:08:37,320 --> 00:08:41,400 Speaker 1: to get it on the laughs like, and also be interesting, 158 00:08:41,440 --> 00:08:44,160 Speaker 1: don't be too like. I just feel like I always 159 00:08:45,160 --> 00:08:50,160 Speaker 1: um talk about my low self esteem, especially because like 160 00:08:50,200 --> 00:08:52,679 Speaker 1: Conan has it too, and I just feel very connected 161 00:08:52,720 --> 00:08:55,439 Speaker 1: to him in that way of like feeling like an imposter. 162 00:08:55,600 --> 00:08:57,959 Speaker 1: And it's insane to me that Conan O'Brien, who is 163 00:08:58,000 --> 00:09:02,079 Speaker 1: my number one, thinks that he's not good enough sometimes 164 00:09:02,080 --> 00:09:05,920 Speaker 1: and he's very open about that, And um, I always 165 00:09:05,960 --> 00:09:09,320 Speaker 1: feel like I whenever I talk about my low self 166 00:09:09,360 --> 00:09:12,440 Speaker 1: seem on like literally every podcast, and and usually I'm 167 00:09:12,480 --> 00:09:15,000 Speaker 1: talking about how I have overcome it or how I'm 168 00:09:15,040 --> 00:09:18,320 Speaker 1: dealing with it, people tend to like feel sorry for 169 00:09:18,400 --> 00:09:22,280 Speaker 1: me or think that I have like that I'm struggling 170 00:09:22,320 --> 00:09:25,080 Speaker 1: all the time. But and not that he did or anything, 171 00:09:25,120 --> 00:09:27,520 Speaker 1: but a lot of times every time I leave Conan, 172 00:09:27,559 --> 00:09:30,600 Speaker 1: whether I'm doing his TV show or his podcast, he 173 00:09:30,720 --> 00:09:32,880 Speaker 1: always takes a moment afterwards to be like, hey, like 174 00:09:33,320 --> 00:09:35,000 Speaker 1: you can call me if you ever need to, like 175 00:09:35,120 --> 00:09:38,360 Speaker 1: I'm I'm here for you, like I ain't, like I 176 00:09:38,720 --> 00:09:40,680 Speaker 1: really want you to like get the help that you need. 177 00:09:40,720 --> 00:09:42,800 Speaker 1: And I always feel like, what am I saying that's 178 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:46,160 Speaker 1: making people think I'm like because I'm doing all right, 179 00:09:46,200 --> 00:09:51,960 Speaker 1: like I really am well, I feel chill about being 180 00:09:52,360 --> 00:09:56,200 Speaker 1: going on Brian's friend and then by the end, I'll 181 00:09:56,240 --> 00:09:59,680 Speaker 1: get your help, I know, But they did say so 182 00:09:59,720 --> 00:10:02,960 Speaker 1: I say a chill because, um, there was one podcast 183 00:10:02,960 --> 00:10:06,480 Speaker 1: where like Matt and Sona and Matt is like Noah 184 00:10:06,559 --> 00:10:11,400 Speaker 1: and Sona is like you, and they all Matt and 185 00:10:11,400 --> 00:10:13,560 Speaker 1: Sona are always talking about like you know, they're always 186 00:10:13,559 --> 00:10:15,840 Speaker 1: just teasing Codon because he's so uptight and like, you know, 187 00:10:15,920 --> 00:10:18,559 Speaker 1: a perfectionist, and like they're kind of chill. ConA will 188 00:10:18,600 --> 00:10:21,880 Speaker 1: like you know, do edibles, and Matt's just like an 189 00:10:21,880 --> 00:10:24,120 Speaker 1: easygoing guy and they're like, we're so chill, and He's like, 190 00:10:24,120 --> 00:10:26,680 Speaker 1: I could be chill and they're like, no, you can't. 191 00:10:27,000 --> 00:10:29,640 Speaker 1: So they started doing these episodes where they have no 192 00:10:29,760 --> 00:10:32,960 Speaker 1: guest on, where it's just um, two summers ago, you 193 00:10:33,000 --> 00:10:34,800 Speaker 1: guys got if you want to just step into the 194 00:10:34,840 --> 00:10:38,360 Speaker 1: Conan O'Brien universe, obviously, I would recommend. The Kevin Nealon 195 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:42,200 Speaker 1: episode is the funniest podcast besides my own that I 196 00:10:42,240 --> 00:10:44,400 Speaker 1: will you will ever listen to? I sent it to 197 00:10:44,520 --> 00:10:50,560 Speaker 1: Andrew to listen to. Wasn't it just insanely good? So funny? 198 00:10:50,760 --> 00:10:52,600 Speaker 1: Don't listen to it before you listen to my episode 199 00:10:52,600 --> 00:10:54,920 Speaker 1: of Conan. You will be sorely disappointed in me because 200 00:10:55,200 --> 00:10:58,520 Speaker 1: Kevin Ellen is so goddamn funny. It's just top to bottom. 201 00:10:58,559 --> 00:11:01,480 Speaker 1: Don't skip the first part. But way, um, they give 202 00:11:01,559 --> 00:11:04,160 Speaker 1: him shit about not being chill, and so they came 203 00:11:04,240 --> 00:11:06,000 Speaker 1: up with this thing that they were doing these like 204 00:11:06,040 --> 00:11:10,120 Speaker 1: extra episodes during COVID maybe when they could. You know, 205 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:12,880 Speaker 1: they were just trying to make more AD revenue, make 206 00:11:12,920 --> 00:11:15,480 Speaker 1: more episodes. But thank God for it because they did 207 00:11:15,559 --> 00:11:19,960 Speaker 1: this segment um based on that conversation called um Conan 208 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:23,120 Speaker 1: O'Brien and uh, like it's like something about the in 209 00:11:23,160 --> 00:11:25,920 Speaker 1: the chill chums, and they called him themselves that, like 210 00:11:26,440 --> 00:11:28,679 Speaker 1: the chill chums, and so I said, I was like, 211 00:11:28,720 --> 00:11:31,120 Speaker 1: really chill, And the truth is I'm not chill about 212 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:33,959 Speaker 1: being Brian's friend at all. I'm extremely anxious about it. 213 00:11:34,280 --> 00:11:37,680 Speaker 1: And but it is weird, like and not even just Conan, 214 00:11:37,760 --> 00:11:39,760 Speaker 1: like any time I do a podcast. I even went 215 00:11:39,800 --> 00:11:47,720 Speaker 1: and did Marin and like it's, uh, he's in um, 216 00:11:47,760 --> 00:11:51,880 Speaker 1: he's in a guesthouse kind of situation. He's moved since 217 00:11:52,000 --> 00:11:54,000 Speaker 1: that garage, and so it was a new I had 218 00:11:54,040 --> 00:11:55,640 Speaker 1: done his podcast when he was at his old place, 219 00:11:55,720 --> 00:11:57,800 Speaker 1: but and the whole place. I remember being like Barack 220 00:11:57,840 --> 00:11:59,800 Speaker 1: Obama has been in here, and he was like, yes, 221 00:12:00,200 --> 00:12:03,960 Speaker 1: right there, um and then yeah, he let me like 222 00:12:04,280 --> 00:12:06,959 Speaker 1: drink from the water bottle brock drink from I'm just kidding, 223 00:12:06,960 --> 00:12:08,240 Speaker 1: but I would have loved to do that. I wish 224 00:12:08,240 --> 00:12:15,720 Speaker 1: she would have kept it whatever Um ruined the seed. Yeah, 225 00:12:15,760 --> 00:12:18,280 Speaker 1: I mean you're so into brock Oh my god, I'm 226 00:12:18,280 --> 00:12:21,920 Speaker 1: so horning for brock Um. But even Marin, like I 227 00:12:21,920 --> 00:12:25,080 Speaker 1: can just tell there's always like this like poor nicky 228 00:12:25,280 --> 00:12:27,320 Speaker 1: thing and I and I want to just say, I 229 00:12:27,360 --> 00:12:30,240 Speaker 1: think it might be because other people aren't as honest 230 00:12:30,280 --> 00:12:33,760 Speaker 1: about having low self esteem and struggling with things as 231 00:12:33,800 --> 00:12:37,160 Speaker 1: I am, and so people think that me sharing that 232 00:12:37,200 --> 00:12:40,400 Speaker 1: I have this stuff, which we all have, other people 233 00:12:40,440 --> 00:12:43,760 Speaker 1: just don't share it as openly that people think it's 234 00:12:43,760 --> 00:12:45,880 Speaker 1: either a cry for help or that because it's so 235 00:12:46,000 --> 00:12:48,880 Speaker 1: rarely shared, she's clearly struggling more than any of us, 236 00:12:49,040 --> 00:12:51,800 Speaker 1: when really I just have less of the walls that 237 00:12:51,880 --> 00:12:54,640 Speaker 1: other people have. It's not that I'm struggling any more 238 00:12:54,679 --> 00:12:58,240 Speaker 1: than anyone else. I just don't censor myself about it, 239 00:12:58,320 --> 00:13:01,520 Speaker 1: which I'm so grateful, Like thank God for people that 240 00:13:01,600 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: pick up on people asking for help. And sometimes I 241 00:13:04,640 --> 00:13:06,920 Speaker 1: have done cries for help of being like I'm going 242 00:13:06,960 --> 00:13:09,559 Speaker 1: to shave my head or whatever, and like wanted people 243 00:13:09,559 --> 00:13:14,480 Speaker 1: to be concerned. Why do you think, Yeah, why do 244 00:13:14,520 --> 00:13:17,319 Speaker 1: you feel like because I've done similar similar things When 245 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:20,080 Speaker 1: I go on podcast where maybe I'll get nervous or 246 00:13:20,080 --> 00:13:23,400 Speaker 1: I want not people to like me more, but like 247 00:13:23,480 --> 00:13:26,040 Speaker 1: I'll share more where I feel like, oh, this will 248 00:13:26,080 --> 00:13:28,240 Speaker 1: get to people. This will rather than just like a 249 00:13:28,360 --> 00:13:30,720 Speaker 1: mundane conversation of like next thing. You know, we've just 250 00:13:30,840 --> 00:13:34,440 Speaker 1: choked about ice cream for twenty minutes, but that could 251 00:13:34,440 --> 00:13:38,720 Speaker 1: be great superpower. Yeah, I feel like and that's where 252 00:13:39,000 --> 00:13:42,640 Speaker 1: That's where I'm in the clutch, is being open emotionally, 253 00:13:42,760 --> 00:13:45,640 Speaker 1: Like I feel, yes, I'm funny, Yes I could talk 254 00:13:45,679 --> 00:13:50,280 Speaker 1: about ice cream and riff Conan though he's he's a 255 00:13:50,360 --> 00:13:53,600 Speaker 1: riff god like I no matter what, I will never 256 00:13:53,679 --> 00:13:56,080 Speaker 1: touch his level of riffing. And I would even say 257 00:13:56,080 --> 00:13:58,760 Speaker 1: Gorely and Sona like are on his level, like they 258 00:13:58,760 --> 00:14:01,120 Speaker 1: are so fucking fun and like have learned from him 259 00:14:01,120 --> 00:14:03,440 Speaker 1: and they just had like this great rapport. I want 260 00:14:04,480 --> 00:14:07,240 Speaker 1: it felt like I intentionally go to it. I think 261 00:14:07,280 --> 00:14:10,200 Speaker 1: that that's the one thing I can do that other 262 00:14:10,240 --> 00:14:12,839 Speaker 1: people can't do, is get really really really fast. And 263 00:14:12,880 --> 00:14:15,040 Speaker 1: I think sometimes obviously it throws people and it makes 264 00:14:15,040 --> 00:14:18,319 Speaker 1: people maybe a little bit uncomfortable. But I feel like 265 00:14:19,080 --> 00:14:22,080 Speaker 1: if I can't be I could not be my funniest yesterday, 266 00:14:22,160 --> 00:14:25,520 Speaker 1: I just couldn't there, I was not in my funny zone. 267 00:14:25,600 --> 00:14:28,240 Speaker 1: It just wasn't gonna happen for me. So why not 268 00:14:28,320 --> 00:14:31,040 Speaker 1: lean into the thing that I know? I you know, 269 00:14:31,360 --> 00:14:34,320 Speaker 1: even if I'm nervous, I can always kind of nail it, 270 00:14:34,360 --> 00:14:38,320 Speaker 1: can do better when I'm nervous at revealing uh personal things, 271 00:14:38,360 --> 00:14:40,520 Speaker 1: and so I think that sometimes they could come off, 272 00:14:41,120 --> 00:14:43,000 Speaker 1: and I just for some reason, Conan brings it out 273 00:14:43,000 --> 00:14:46,040 Speaker 1: of me because Conan is someone that I projected so 274 00:14:46,200 --> 00:14:49,880 Speaker 1: much perfection onto for so long and just admire so 275 00:14:50,000 --> 00:14:54,560 Speaker 1: much and would like, you know, I would probably kick 276 00:14:54,680 --> 00:14:59,280 Speaker 1: Marian to even have uh two ounces as much that 277 00:14:59,360 --> 00:15:03,080 Speaker 1: you know, committ talent as Conan from my estimation of 278 00:15:03,120 --> 00:15:04,720 Speaker 1: like how I see myself compared to him. And I 279 00:15:04,720 --> 00:15:07,000 Speaker 1: know that people will be like, no, you guys are, 280 00:15:07,440 --> 00:15:11,080 Speaker 1: but to me, I would do. He's a god to 281 00:15:11,200 --> 00:15:13,720 Speaker 1: me in terms of comedy, and so I think that 282 00:15:14,600 --> 00:15:18,680 Speaker 1: when I found out from watching his um from listening 283 00:15:18,680 --> 00:15:22,400 Speaker 1: to him on his podcast and then also his documentary 284 00:15:23,360 --> 00:15:25,840 Speaker 1: I Can't Stop or all die, I think it's called 285 00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:28,600 Speaker 1: something like that. I learned that like, oh my god, 286 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:30,560 Speaker 1: we're really similar, and so I always want to talk 287 00:15:30,560 --> 00:15:32,880 Speaker 1: to him about that because if I can find out 288 00:15:34,320 --> 00:15:37,120 Speaker 1: that Conan is like me in that way that he 289 00:15:37,240 --> 00:15:40,520 Speaker 1: doubts himself, then maybe I'm wrong about myself when I 290 00:15:40,560 --> 00:15:43,520 Speaker 1: doubt myself. Like uh, it also makes you feel the good, 291 00:15:44,720 --> 00:15:46,360 Speaker 1: you know. I don't know. That's I think why I 292 00:15:46,400 --> 00:15:48,560 Speaker 1: get into that, But I don't know. I think there's 293 00:15:48,600 --> 00:15:53,400 Speaker 1: something about sharing, sharing not just for you, but then 294 00:15:53,800 --> 00:15:57,360 Speaker 1: getting someone else to share some of their insecurities, which 295 00:15:57,400 --> 00:16:00,040 Speaker 1: then will get their fan base to actually relate to 296 00:16:00,080 --> 00:16:02,800 Speaker 1: them even more. Because usually Conan is the one interviewing, 297 00:16:02,880 --> 00:16:06,680 Speaker 1: like he's the one asking the questions. It's gonna be 298 00:16:06,760 --> 00:16:10,040 Speaker 1: it would be kind of weird if the interviewer was like, Okay, 299 00:16:10,040 --> 00:16:13,200 Speaker 1: but you know, I get sad sometimes Okay, you didn't 300 00:16:13,240 --> 00:16:15,120 Speaker 1: even ask a question yet, you know what I mean, 301 00:16:15,160 --> 00:16:21,200 Speaker 1: Like you're allowing him to open up stuff with like 302 00:16:21,560 --> 00:16:23,640 Speaker 1: asking him questions. I do have to say, though, I 303 00:16:23,680 --> 00:16:29,720 Speaker 1: have this weird thing with like podcasting now or going 304 00:16:29,800 --> 00:16:35,520 Speaker 1: on other people's shows where I just think everyone hates me, 305 00:16:35,680 --> 00:16:41,440 Speaker 1: like the the the tone. I'll I have to overcome 306 00:16:41,480 --> 00:16:46,720 Speaker 1: people hating me already because they think I'm too dirty 307 00:16:46,840 --> 00:16:49,000 Speaker 1: or they think they think I'm All she does is 308 00:16:49,000 --> 00:16:51,240 Speaker 1: share about her eating disorder. Or all she does is 309 00:16:51,280 --> 00:16:53,680 Speaker 1: talk about her low self esteem, like and it's weird 310 00:16:53,680 --> 00:16:55,080 Speaker 1: that I would even go into that, but I just 311 00:16:55,640 --> 00:16:57,640 Speaker 1: I mean, I know the audience listening to this show 312 00:16:57,720 --> 00:17:00,040 Speaker 1: right now cannot relate to that in anyway because you 313 00:17:00,080 --> 00:17:02,160 Speaker 1: guys really like me and it feels amazing, But I 314 00:17:02,200 --> 00:17:04,720 Speaker 1: just feel like, I don't know I was talking to 315 00:17:04,840 --> 00:17:07,919 Speaker 1: I went to uh coffee with Taylor Tomlinson yesterday. It 316 00:17:07,920 --> 00:17:11,720 Speaker 1: was so much fun and I was talking about um 317 00:17:11,760 --> 00:17:13,560 Speaker 1: someone recently asked me, like, who do you think are 318 00:17:13,600 --> 00:17:17,040 Speaker 1: worse for female comics? Other female comics or male comics? 319 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:23,199 Speaker 1: And I was thinking about that. I think that what 320 00:17:23,359 --> 00:17:25,119 Speaker 1: was my point going to be with this? That I 321 00:17:25,119 --> 00:17:30,119 Speaker 1: feel like I feel like every like most men that 322 00:17:30,160 --> 00:17:33,600 Speaker 1: are kind of like your basic man that might not 323 00:17:33,640 --> 00:17:37,000 Speaker 1: be an outright feminist. Not that they were like a 324 00:17:37,040 --> 00:17:39,680 Speaker 1: bad person, they just haven't like they think maybe feminism 325 00:17:39,760 --> 00:17:43,439 Speaker 1: is like ikey, they allowed themselves to like one woman 326 00:17:43,520 --> 00:17:46,719 Speaker 1: at a time like that. They you know that they 327 00:17:46,760 --> 00:17:49,000 Speaker 1: don't want to fuck, and I would like to be 328 00:17:49,040 --> 00:17:50,720 Speaker 1: liked as a woman who they don't want to fuck, 329 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:54,600 Speaker 1: And they don't you either, like Taylor Tomlinson, like they 330 00:17:55,000 --> 00:17:58,240 Speaker 1: to prove that they're not a total misogynist. They like 331 00:17:58,440 --> 00:18:01,720 Speaker 1: one woman to go see. But I think Taylor is funny, 332 00:18:01,920 --> 00:18:03,880 Speaker 1: so I'm not. But when I so, when I say 333 00:18:03,880 --> 00:18:09,600 Speaker 1: Whitney and Nikki and Eliza and Amy suck, but I'm 334 00:18:09,640 --> 00:18:12,159 Speaker 1: that's not because they're women. I like Taylor or I 335 00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:15,119 Speaker 1: like Nikki. So when I say all those other women's stuff, 336 00:18:15,240 --> 00:18:18,879 Speaker 1: and I feel like I'm always trying to win over 337 00:18:18,920 --> 00:18:23,000 Speaker 1: that guy, and it's stupid because that guy is a 338 00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:26,960 Speaker 1: sad person. And but there's always this competence I think 339 00:18:26,960 --> 00:18:31,479 Speaker 1: with with men with these like kind of guy characters. 340 00:18:31,480 --> 00:18:33,479 Speaker 1: And Cohen's podcast is not have that kind of listeners. 341 00:18:33,480 --> 00:18:35,639 Speaker 1: They're actually more like our listeners for sure. But I 342 00:18:35,720 --> 00:18:39,360 Speaker 1: just feel like, um, and it's again here, I'm back 343 00:18:39,359 --> 00:18:41,240 Speaker 1: at my low self estatment. This is like the voice 344 00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:44,480 Speaker 1: that I'm trying to rewrite the thing I believe about 345 00:18:44,520 --> 00:18:47,160 Speaker 1: myself and trying to disprove it. I'm trying to win 346 00:18:47,240 --> 00:18:49,960 Speaker 1: over these guys who are actually the voice inside my 347 00:18:50,000 --> 00:18:52,560 Speaker 1: head that is like, you're not good enough. Everyone else 348 00:18:52,640 --> 00:18:55,359 Speaker 1: is better than you. And if I win over those guys, 349 00:18:55,440 --> 00:18:59,440 Speaker 1: then maybe I I'm wrong about myself. So it really 350 00:18:59,440 --> 00:19:01,800 Speaker 1: comes down to what I believe about myself that makes 351 00:19:01,800 --> 00:19:05,440 Speaker 1: any sense. No, it does. And I think about that 352 00:19:05,480 --> 00:19:09,160 Speaker 1: as well with those you know, certain guy comedians or whatever. 353 00:19:09,200 --> 00:19:10,439 Speaker 1: And I think a lot of it has to do 354 00:19:10,520 --> 00:19:13,280 Speaker 1: with like you have to be almost a certain kind 355 00:19:13,280 --> 00:19:16,480 Speaker 1: of comedian or be a certain way to get that 356 00:19:16,600 --> 00:19:20,920 Speaker 1: approval that you're searching for, and then you kind of 357 00:19:20,960 --> 00:19:23,679 Speaker 1: disregard people that maybe you like their comedy more, but 358 00:19:23,680 --> 00:19:26,480 Speaker 1: they're not they don't have as many they're you know, 359 00:19:26,520 --> 00:19:28,920 Speaker 1: they're not as famous or whatever. And then I don't know, 360 00:19:29,000 --> 00:19:31,240 Speaker 1: I feel like there's a line between me wanting to 361 00:19:31,280 --> 00:19:36,280 Speaker 1: impress someone just because they're famous, just because it could 362 00:19:36,280 --> 00:19:40,440 Speaker 1: help you, as opposed to just being true not trying 363 00:19:40,480 --> 00:19:46,040 Speaker 1: to get help. I'm not trying, Yeah, I'm just saying 364 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:49,160 Speaker 1: for me, like that's how I like where it comes from. 365 00:19:49,240 --> 00:19:51,840 Speaker 1: Where where it's like approval. I don't know, you don't 366 00:19:51,880 --> 00:19:53,960 Speaker 1: think like, let's go to break and finish the stuff 367 00:19:53,960 --> 00:20:00,359 Speaker 1: when we get back. I think the difference here and 368 00:20:00,359 --> 00:20:03,600 Speaker 1: what we're talking about is I want to win over 369 00:20:04,200 --> 00:20:07,160 Speaker 1: men who have the mentality of a seventh grade boy. 370 00:20:07,400 --> 00:20:11,359 Speaker 1: Something happened to me in middle school where I that 371 00:20:11,520 --> 00:20:14,280 Speaker 1: is when I decided that like boys don't like me, 372 00:20:14,640 --> 00:20:17,480 Speaker 1: I'll never be cool. These kind of guys decide what's cool, 373 00:20:17,520 --> 00:20:20,080 Speaker 1: the guys wearing jinkos and the guys that make fun 374 00:20:20,080 --> 00:20:23,000 Speaker 1: of everyone. I have to stay quiet and like dormant 375 00:20:23,040 --> 00:20:24,880 Speaker 1: so that they don't make fun of me, and if 376 00:20:24,880 --> 00:20:26,680 Speaker 1: they do notice me, I want to be like the 377 00:20:26,680 --> 00:20:28,959 Speaker 1: one girl that they're like Nikki school, she can hang 378 00:20:29,000 --> 00:20:30,600 Speaker 1: out with us, because I wanted to be hanging out 379 00:20:30,600 --> 00:20:32,320 Speaker 1: with I wanted to hang out with the boys, not 380 00:20:32,359 --> 00:20:34,119 Speaker 1: because I wanted to have sex with the boys or 381 00:20:34,240 --> 00:20:37,360 Speaker 1: blow the boys. I wanted to be friends with them 382 00:20:37,400 --> 00:20:40,720 Speaker 1: because I grew up, uh you know when my best 383 00:20:40,760 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 1: friend was a boy, and then suddenly I am in 384 00:20:44,119 --> 00:20:47,600 Speaker 1: school and I have no guy friends because you're you 385 00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:51,320 Speaker 1: either are a girl that they like romantically or you're 386 00:20:51,359 --> 00:20:54,360 Speaker 1: like a I didn't want to be a tomboy necessarily, 387 00:20:54,440 --> 00:20:57,200 Speaker 1: but I was just scared of boys and their judgment 388 00:20:57,240 --> 00:20:59,479 Speaker 1: and how mean they could be, and I didn't want 389 00:20:59,480 --> 00:21:00,960 Speaker 1: any of that. Though. I wanted to hang out with 390 00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:02,919 Speaker 1: them and also be mean with them, like I have 391 00:21:02,960 --> 00:21:05,360 Speaker 1: a mean stream. I love making fun of people. But 392 00:21:05,720 --> 00:21:08,520 Speaker 1: I think I still am trying to win over seventh 393 00:21:08,520 --> 00:21:13,520 Speaker 1: grade boys literally, like seventh grade. Two eleventh grade boys 394 00:21:13,880 --> 00:21:17,880 Speaker 1: that are just assholes, judgmental of everything, so insecure. All 395 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:20,320 Speaker 1: they want is to like get their dick sucked in 396 00:21:20,440 --> 00:21:23,400 Speaker 1: anything that that won't out like facilitate that they like 397 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:25,600 Speaker 1: hate and they're trying to be cool and and poor 398 00:21:25,720 --> 00:21:31,280 Speaker 1: those poor boys, like they're struggling so much, but they're fine. 399 00:21:31,480 --> 00:21:34,560 Speaker 1: Thing is they've got so many My senior year, there 400 00:21:34,680 --> 00:21:36,760 Speaker 1: is a different cup of anger. I don't really care 401 00:21:36,800 --> 00:21:40,080 Speaker 1: about winning over Eric Harris and Dylan Clebold, but there's 402 00:21:40,119 --> 00:21:44,359 Speaker 1: something about Eric cart like these these kind of antement 403 00:21:45,600 --> 00:21:49,480 Speaker 1: I think that like we are definitely yeah, like you 404 00:21:49,480 --> 00:21:52,960 Speaker 1: you you've pinpointed where it's come from. And also in 405 00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:56,560 Speaker 1: the last segment, you've had this epiphany that you're really 406 00:21:56,640 --> 00:22:00,359 Speaker 1: just competing with yourself. It's that inner voice, and it's 407 00:22:00,440 --> 00:22:03,840 Speaker 1: it's rooted, is the seventh grade boy. Yeah, And if 408 00:22:03,880 --> 00:22:06,640 Speaker 1: I win them over, then my voice will shut up 409 00:22:06,680 --> 00:22:09,160 Speaker 1: and and allow me to hang out with it. Now. 410 00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:11,840 Speaker 1: One thing that I want to say in addition to 411 00:22:11,880 --> 00:22:16,480 Speaker 1: this is that the thing is so many people, including myself. 412 00:22:16,480 --> 00:22:19,240 Speaker 1: Like every time I've said this before, but like a 413 00:22:19,280 --> 00:22:21,320 Speaker 1: big epiphany I had in therapy one time was like 414 00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:24,240 Speaker 1: telling my therapist I'm scared to go on dates. I 415 00:22:24,240 --> 00:22:25,520 Speaker 1: was about to go on a date, and she's like, 416 00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:27,640 Speaker 1: what's your biggest fear? And I'm like that they are 417 00:22:27,680 --> 00:22:31,560 Speaker 1: going to sexually advance on me. I'm going to reject them, 418 00:22:31,680 --> 00:22:34,000 Speaker 1: and then they're going to say I didn't want you anyway, 419 00:22:34,040 --> 00:22:36,840 Speaker 1: you're fat, you're old, you're ugly, and they're going to 420 00:22:36,920 --> 00:22:39,080 Speaker 1: do the mean thing that men do when they're rejected. 421 00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:43,080 Speaker 1: A lot of times. F Boy Island season to check 422 00:22:43,119 --> 00:22:44,800 Speaker 1: it out, we have a moment like that on the 423 00:22:44,840 --> 00:22:47,840 Speaker 1: show that to me was my worst fucking nightmare if 424 00:22:47,880 --> 00:22:49,320 Speaker 1: it happened to me but happened to girl on the 425 00:22:49,359 --> 00:22:51,920 Speaker 1: show where a guy gets rejected and then lashes out 426 00:22:52,000 --> 00:22:53,919 Speaker 1: like I didn't want you anyway to get you know, 427 00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:58,320 Speaker 1: that's always my fear. And my therapist goes, that is 428 00:22:58,359 --> 00:23:00,879 Speaker 1: the fear of like a girl who's dealing with fifteen 429 00:23:00,920 --> 00:23:04,359 Speaker 1: year old boys, Like where what are you talking about? 430 00:23:04,359 --> 00:23:06,760 Speaker 1: Like men don't do that, Like if you don't want 431 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:08,040 Speaker 1: to have sex with a guy, he's not going to 432 00:23:08,119 --> 00:23:10,560 Speaker 1: call you ugly. And I'm like, but I just that's 433 00:23:10,600 --> 00:23:12,840 Speaker 1: the fear, Like I know that it's rare, but there's 434 00:23:12,920 --> 00:23:15,400 Speaker 1: I can't get over that. I know that an air 435 00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:18,040 Speaker 1: show's planes don't crash, but I'm never going to go 436 00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:20,280 Speaker 1: to an air show, even if because there's is a 437 00:23:20,359 --> 00:23:22,880 Speaker 1: chance that could happen. And she was like, you are 438 00:23:22,960 --> 00:23:26,920 Speaker 1: stuck in seventh to eleventh grade. You're stuck somewhere in there, 439 00:23:27,240 --> 00:23:29,760 Speaker 1: And so what I'm saying that I want to win 440 00:23:29,840 --> 00:23:32,480 Speaker 1: over these seventh to eleven grade boys. I'm not marketing 441 00:23:32,560 --> 00:23:35,159 Speaker 1: my comedy to those boys. I don't care about, you, 442 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:37,880 Speaker 1: know I, But in a way I am because guess 443 00:23:37,920 --> 00:23:41,359 Speaker 1: who's stuck at that age? To every man, my age, 444 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:45,720 Speaker 1: every man, my everyone, I'm stuck at fourteen years old. 445 00:23:45,840 --> 00:23:48,280 Speaker 1: Have you ever looked at like? Girls? I want you 446 00:23:48,320 --> 00:23:49,680 Speaker 1: to do this, guys. I want you to do this 447 00:23:50,200 --> 00:23:53,439 Speaker 1: when your girlfriend or your boyfriend is acting in the 448 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:56,040 Speaker 1: way that you are most annoyed by that like the 449 00:23:56,080 --> 00:23:59,960 Speaker 1: side of themselves that comes out, shrink their body down 450 00:24:00,200 --> 00:24:02,199 Speaker 1: to like a smaller size, Like if you can in 451 00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:05,680 Speaker 1: your head and just blur your eyes and picture that 452 00:24:05,760 --> 00:24:10,240 Speaker 1: person um at different ages and see which one it fits. 453 00:24:10,480 --> 00:24:12,080 Speaker 1: Because a lot of times when I am being my 454 00:24:12,119 --> 00:24:15,399 Speaker 1: most like, I don't even want to go like and 455 00:24:15,440 --> 00:24:17,080 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna do it, and I'm like throwing a 456 00:24:17,080 --> 00:24:18,919 Speaker 1: little tantrum that I like will throw and be like 457 00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:21,119 Speaker 1: I don't even care, I don't even want to, like 458 00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:25,800 Speaker 1: my body movements, everything is it's it's like I'm mimicking 459 00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:28,560 Speaker 1: a thirteen year old girl. So like we all, if 460 00:24:28,560 --> 00:24:30,840 Speaker 1: your boyfriend gets more turned on by that, that could 461 00:24:30,880 --> 00:24:34,119 Speaker 1: be an issue. Listen, sometimes I role play it and I, 462 00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:39,760 Speaker 1: you know, slam my door and say down, um no no. 463 00:24:39,920 --> 00:24:42,320 Speaker 1: This is speaking a lot to like ship that I 464 00:24:42,400 --> 00:24:44,320 Speaker 1: go through. Now. I was friends with a lot of girl. 465 00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:46,359 Speaker 1: I was like that guy that was friends with every girl. 466 00:24:46,680 --> 00:24:48,800 Speaker 1: I never hooked up with them. I was always just 467 00:24:48,920 --> 00:24:51,159 Speaker 1: friends with them and it and it actually hurt me. 468 00:24:51,200 --> 00:24:54,680 Speaker 1: With my guy group, like the cool guys. I had 469 00:24:54,720 --> 00:24:58,000 Speaker 1: one cool guy that like me, and then forever I 470 00:24:58,000 --> 00:24:59,879 Speaker 1: tried to get these guys like me. And then around 471 00:24:59,880 --> 00:25:02,000 Speaker 1: you your senior year, I smoked a little weed, I 472 00:25:02,040 --> 00:25:04,679 Speaker 1: listened to a little fish, and I stopped chasing it 473 00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:08,080 Speaker 1: and it changed and now I'm like back to like 474 00:25:08,200 --> 00:25:10,919 Speaker 1: I'm literally like back to square one, but I stopped 475 00:25:10,960 --> 00:25:14,159 Speaker 1: passed on the campus of the University of India, Indiana 476 00:25:14,280 --> 00:25:18,520 Speaker 1: on scooters. We were on like little Lime scooters years 477 00:25:18,560 --> 00:25:23,600 Speaker 1: ago when we were first working together, and that was 478 00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:27,320 Speaker 1: our first Lime scooter, right, we got Andrew got so nervous, 479 00:25:27,960 --> 00:25:31,640 Speaker 1: not when we passed by girls, you know, college girls, 480 00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:35,280 Speaker 1: not when we passed by like people our age, when 481 00:25:35,280 --> 00:25:39,919 Speaker 1: we passed by guy like freshman, sophomore, junior guys and 482 00:25:42,080 --> 00:25:44,560 Speaker 1: at frat parties. He was so scared of what other 483 00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:47,880 Speaker 1: guys thought of him, Whereas I like, that would be 484 00:25:47,960 --> 00:25:50,800 Speaker 1: the yeah, I would be. I guess I don't care 485 00:25:50,800 --> 00:25:53,200 Speaker 1: what any college age people think of me really anymore, 486 00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:56,840 Speaker 1: but I'm scared of what people think of me who 487 00:25:56,840 --> 00:25:59,919 Speaker 1: are stuck in that age people age, stuck there. So 488 00:26:00,080 --> 00:26:04,720 Speaker 1: like I pursue the approval of men who act like 489 00:26:04,800 --> 00:26:07,240 Speaker 1: middle schoolers, like all the guys that I go, why 490 00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:09,720 Speaker 1: do I even care what this? And I get approval 491 00:26:09,920 --> 00:26:13,760 Speaker 1: of fraternity guys that act like well their age. Yeah. Yeah, 492 00:26:14,080 --> 00:26:17,760 Speaker 1: the best thing you said to me, you go, they're 493 00:26:17,760 --> 00:26:20,800 Speaker 1: not even You're so old that they're not thinking of 494 00:26:20,880 --> 00:26:23,760 Speaker 1: you as whether you're cool or not. You're just like 495 00:26:24,119 --> 00:26:31,399 Speaker 1: old man on camp. Yes, yeah, it was like we 496 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:34,000 Speaker 1: forget like sometimes I try to, like like when I 497 00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:36,439 Speaker 1: was at the Wilco Festival, I was like trying to 498 00:26:36,480 --> 00:26:40,840 Speaker 1: be befriend Um Glen Cocci and I think John Stewart, 499 00:26:41,280 --> 00:26:43,359 Speaker 1: the two band members, their daughters were there. They're like 500 00:26:43,440 --> 00:26:46,560 Speaker 1: thirteen and fourteen, and they were adorable girls. I wanted 501 00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:48,679 Speaker 1: nothing more than to hang out with these girls and 502 00:26:48,720 --> 00:26:51,000 Speaker 1: just like talk about what they care about, like hear 503 00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,080 Speaker 1: what they have to say about boys, and like not 504 00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:55,360 Speaker 1: like relate to them, but and and not even like 505 00:26:56,200 --> 00:26:59,760 Speaker 1: coach them or kind of like mentor them. I just 506 00:27:00,040 --> 00:27:02,240 Speaker 1: to to like hear what little girls are talking about 507 00:27:02,280 --> 00:27:05,119 Speaker 1: because I miss being that age so bad. And I realized, 508 00:27:05,359 --> 00:27:07,359 Speaker 1: I mean, it didn't even cross my mind that they 509 00:27:07,359 --> 00:27:10,040 Speaker 1: would think of me as anything more than just an 510 00:27:10,040 --> 00:27:12,640 Speaker 1: old woman. But um, even I did it with Bert 511 00:27:12,680 --> 00:27:14,879 Speaker 1: Chrysler's daughters when they were on tour, like I was 512 00:27:14,920 --> 00:27:17,600 Speaker 1: with Mark Norman and Shane Gillis and Big Jay Oakerson. 513 00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:19,600 Speaker 1: And as much fun as I was having with those guys, 514 00:27:19,600 --> 00:27:22,000 Speaker 1: the second Birch daughters arrived on the scene, who are 515 00:27:22,040 --> 00:27:24,840 Speaker 1: eighteen and I think sixteen. I was like, and they 516 00:27:24,840 --> 00:27:26,760 Speaker 1: brought their two friends with them that are of the 517 00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:29,520 Speaker 1: same age, these four girls. I was like, guys, can 518 00:27:29,520 --> 00:27:31,320 Speaker 1: you help me, like pick up my outfit, like should 519 00:27:31,320 --> 00:27:34,280 Speaker 1: I wear these shoes? Are? Like I was like dying 520 00:27:34,480 --> 00:27:36,760 Speaker 1: for not even their approval. I just wanted to like 521 00:27:36,880 --> 00:27:39,960 Speaker 1: hang with them, like I still I desperately. I can't 522 00:27:39,960 --> 00:27:42,600 Speaker 1: wait for Poppy and Harlow to like get older, because 523 00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:45,159 Speaker 1: I just I love talking to younger kids. But you 524 00:27:45,440 --> 00:27:47,919 Speaker 1: it is creepy when you try to like and you 525 00:27:48,040 --> 00:27:49,600 Speaker 1: never want to be the one that they're like, God, 526 00:27:49,600 --> 00:27:53,040 Speaker 1: thank god she's gone. That's true too. I got paired 527 00:27:53,119 --> 00:27:55,560 Speaker 1: up with a father and son and golf the other 528 00:27:55,680 --> 00:27:57,680 Speaker 1: day because I get rid of because I go out 529 00:27:57,720 --> 00:28:01,159 Speaker 1: and played by myself and I don't know what I 530 00:28:01,240 --> 00:28:04,720 Speaker 1: do because I think I coached the cross in middle school. 531 00:28:04,760 --> 00:28:07,600 Speaker 1: So I like I connect to younger kids like I 532 00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:10,400 Speaker 1: have an immaturity to me. But I do like, like 533 00:28:10,840 --> 00:28:13,639 Speaker 1: this kid could have been really can be very good 534 00:28:13,680 --> 00:28:15,560 Speaker 1: at golf, and I realized his dad is a little 535 00:28:15,600 --> 00:28:19,240 Speaker 1: passive and he probably doesn't get like, Dude, if you 536 00:28:19,280 --> 00:28:22,159 Speaker 1: work on this, you could, like you really could be something. 537 00:28:22,240 --> 00:28:25,360 Speaker 1: But how much is just a little encouragement like that 538 00:28:26,600 --> 00:28:29,639 Speaker 1: send you in a completely different direction? Dude? So I 539 00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:34,080 Speaker 1: do I just I go, your dad sucks, Your dad's 540 00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,480 Speaker 1: a loser. But I see something in you, That's what 541 00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:41,080 Speaker 1: I said. Him's not like it's It's been three weeks 542 00:28:41,400 --> 00:28:43,360 Speaker 1: and I'm out at the course the other day and 543 00:28:43,400 --> 00:28:47,000 Speaker 1: I'm driving and I just hear Andrew, Andrew, you know, 544 00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:50,880 Speaker 1: is that you? Is that you? You know? It's me Ben? 545 00:28:51,480 --> 00:28:53,840 Speaker 1: It's Ben? And I was like, who is Ben? And 546 00:28:53,880 --> 00:28:55,880 Speaker 1: then I look closer and I'm like, oh, it's the 547 00:28:55,920 --> 00:29:00,240 Speaker 1: fucking teenager to his dad when you like that you 548 00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:04,040 Speaker 1: overheard when you were leaving that was a different another 549 00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:08,120 Speaker 1: uncle and that was a different And he was like, 550 00:29:08,200 --> 00:29:12,240 Speaker 1: I like that guy. That was I couldn't imagine being 551 00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:17,600 Speaker 1: paired up with two better guys, uncle or whatever. Yeah, yeah, 552 00:29:17,720 --> 00:29:19,760 Speaker 1: but I don't know. But it was just like I 553 00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:22,560 Speaker 1: get what you're saying about, like getting like it's just 554 00:29:22,720 --> 00:29:26,000 Speaker 1: young energy. There's something that it doesn't feel as tainted 555 00:29:26,080 --> 00:29:29,520 Speaker 1: as some older people that I know remember being that 556 00:29:29,600 --> 00:29:32,840 Speaker 1: age and and the freedom and the fun and I 557 00:29:32,920 --> 00:29:37,320 Speaker 1: just I love and I love like opening their minds 558 00:29:37,320 --> 00:29:39,480 Speaker 1: a little bit, or saying something that will make them 559 00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:42,760 Speaker 1: give them some material for their friend group forever of 560 00:29:42,840 --> 00:29:45,320 Speaker 1: like oh, something cool or something funny or just something 561 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,480 Speaker 1: weird that I say, like nothing like inappropriate Um, I 562 00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:50,960 Speaker 1: just miss being a young teenage girl so bad, which 563 00:29:50,960 --> 00:29:53,080 Speaker 1: is why I'm looking so forward to this girl's trip 564 00:29:53,120 --> 00:29:56,240 Speaker 1: that I'm going on. Noah's going on it. It's ten 565 00:29:56,320 --> 00:30:02,400 Speaker 1: girls in the Hampton's next weekend. Yeah, who will survive? 566 00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:07,400 Speaker 1: Who will? A log line like it really does sound 567 00:30:07,400 --> 00:30:10,520 Speaker 1: like a yeah, it's next It's not this weekend, but 568 00:30:10,600 --> 00:30:14,240 Speaker 1: it's next weekend in the Hampton's at my friend Sara 569 00:30:14,320 --> 00:30:19,800 Speaker 1: Lena's house. Um, and it's gonna be ten of us 570 00:30:20,080 --> 00:30:24,080 Speaker 1: and my sister's going my you know, best friends from 571 00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:29,120 Speaker 1: grade school, college and adulthood all convening in one place. 572 00:30:29,200 --> 00:30:31,479 Speaker 1: And it's going to be so it's going to be 573 00:30:31,520 --> 00:30:33,440 Speaker 1: like word seventh grade again. I feel like it's gonna 574 00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:37,480 Speaker 1: wanted last year. I remember when we got to to 575 00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:41,120 Speaker 1: Loom and You're like, this is not what I envisioned. 576 00:30:41,160 --> 00:30:43,560 Speaker 1: I want us all in one song. I just want 577 00:30:43,560 --> 00:30:47,840 Speaker 1: to like hang out on the couch, watch movies, talk blakets, 578 00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:52,760 Speaker 1: all that stuff. That's like because Selena lives there. I mean, 579 00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:55,440 Speaker 1: it's so funny we're looking for airbnbs for this. When 580 00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,840 Speaker 1: I was like the early stages of planning, like what's 581 00:30:57,840 --> 00:31:01,400 Speaker 1: the house that could support ten to twelve girls and 582 00:31:02,040 --> 00:31:03,800 Speaker 1: it's costly, but I was willing to do it. And 583 00:31:03,840 --> 00:31:07,680 Speaker 1: then Selena, she lives in the Hampton's in this gorgeous house, 584 00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:10,680 Speaker 1: and I was like, how many people does your house bed? 585 00:31:10,840 --> 00:31:13,440 Speaker 1: And she's so generous, like she would like let me 586 00:31:13,720 --> 00:31:17,480 Speaker 1: move in, like if I wanted to, Like She's just like, oh, girls, totally, 587 00:31:17,840 --> 00:31:19,520 Speaker 1: you can have it. You can just have the house. 588 00:31:19,560 --> 00:31:22,120 Speaker 1: I'll just go live in the shack like she's so 589 00:31:22,120 --> 00:31:25,920 Speaker 1: so generous and um, but she was like, yeah, I 590 00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:28,880 Speaker 1: mean it's it bet like ten people. She has a 591 00:31:28,880 --> 00:31:31,440 Speaker 1: house that can have ten people stay in it and 592 00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:34,240 Speaker 1: they have to. I mean, it's wild, but this is 593 00:31:34,280 --> 00:31:40,600 Speaker 1: just there for the taking. I'm so grateful for it. Next, 594 00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:43,200 Speaker 1: like six months from now, you're like, so you think 595 00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:45,360 Speaker 1: we could do a girls trip again? It at your places? 596 00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:49,640 Speaker 1: Sarily not probably, Like sure, I mean I'm giving birth 597 00:31:50,200 --> 00:31:54,920 Speaker 1: that Tuesday, but the way, yeah, you know what, I'll 598 00:31:54,920 --> 00:31:56,840 Speaker 1: do it in the shallow end. I'll have the baby 599 00:31:56,840 --> 00:32:02,640 Speaker 1: in the shallow end. You guys keep diving when you 600 00:32:02,680 --> 00:32:06,560 Speaker 1: get something like that, where like you use someone house 601 00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:09,360 Speaker 1: and then it's like five later you're like, okay, maybe, 602 00:32:09,720 --> 00:32:12,720 Speaker 1: But she is different. She is the type to not 603 00:32:13,000 --> 00:32:19,480 Speaker 1: think that she had in I think April and um, 604 00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:21,800 Speaker 1: she has obviously a husband, but she also has an 605 00:32:21,840 --> 00:32:24,280 Speaker 1: apartment in the city. And I was like, hey, listen, 606 00:32:24,400 --> 00:32:26,600 Speaker 1: if we did your house, and she's like, oh, my god, 607 00:32:26,640 --> 00:32:27,920 Speaker 1: of course we can do in my house. Are you 608 00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:30,320 Speaker 1: kidding me? And she was like, are you okay with 609 00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:32,760 Speaker 1: my house? I'm like, are you It's like so nice. 610 00:32:33,200 --> 00:32:35,960 Speaker 1: I mean it would be like fifteen dollars a night rental. 611 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:40,160 Speaker 1: I'm not joking you like in this places gorgeous, yes, 612 00:32:40,360 --> 00:32:45,160 Speaker 1: insane during this this weekend in July. And and she's like, 613 00:32:45,200 --> 00:32:47,120 Speaker 1: and I go, and you know, you can have her 614 00:32:47,240 --> 00:32:49,920 Speaker 1: baby Leon. I was like, and you know, I don't 615 00:32:49,920 --> 00:32:51,440 Speaker 1: know how you want to work out with like Leon 616 00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:54,040 Speaker 1: being there, and like, but we will like give him space. 617 00:32:54,080 --> 00:32:56,840 Speaker 1: And she goes, oh no, can he not be there? 618 00:32:56,880 --> 00:33:00,800 Speaker 1: And I was like, yes, you know, I love a 619 00:33:00,880 --> 00:33:03,560 Speaker 1: mom that's like willing to take three days away from 620 00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:05,880 Speaker 1: their baby and it's not the end of the fucking world. 621 00:33:06,360 --> 00:33:09,440 Speaker 1: She is like good Like she is not there's nothing 622 00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:11,920 Speaker 1: about that that makes me go, oh she's it makes 623 00:33:11,960 --> 00:33:14,520 Speaker 1: me go she's a good mom. Like she's not obsessive 624 00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:17,040 Speaker 1: like on our group chat, there's like you have to 625 00:33:17,120 --> 00:33:19,120 Speaker 1: beg for a picture of this baby. It's not because 626 00:33:19,120 --> 00:33:21,120 Speaker 1: she doesn't love him. It's just because she's just not 627 00:33:21,960 --> 00:33:26,240 Speaker 1: one of these parents that thinks suddenly their baby, despite 628 00:33:26,480 --> 00:33:29,200 Speaker 1: having lived a life where every single time you see 629 00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:31,400 Speaker 1: a picture of a baby under six months, it is 630 00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:35,000 Speaker 1: not interesting. It's not different than anyone else's baby, unless 631 00:33:35,040 --> 00:33:37,640 Speaker 1: you like it's your sister's baby or your best friend's baby. 632 00:33:37,880 --> 00:33:42,560 Speaker 1: No one really cares. She she like, it's not that 633 00:33:42,640 --> 00:33:44,880 Speaker 1: she's like hiding it and being like my friends don't care. 634 00:33:44,960 --> 00:33:48,240 Speaker 1: She just is like not forcing it on us, and 635 00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:52,120 Speaker 1: and and we were incasonable for leon content. Where's the 636 00:33:52,160 --> 00:33:54,680 Speaker 1: baby going in the city. Yeah, in the city with 637 00:33:54,800 --> 00:33:58,280 Speaker 1: um the dad and and um she has people, like 638 00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:00,240 Speaker 1: you know, she's got a fucking house in the and 639 00:34:00,280 --> 00:34:04,200 Speaker 1: she has the help, and she's got an amazing like, um, 640 00:34:04,240 --> 00:34:07,520 Speaker 1: you know baby nurse that works with them, who's like 641 00:34:07,560 --> 00:34:09,720 Speaker 1: turned into her best friend. And we're all talking about 642 00:34:09,719 --> 00:34:11,920 Speaker 1: like this needs to be a sitcom because this baby 643 00:34:12,000 --> 00:34:18,080 Speaker 1: nurse's name is Mavis Davis. Who's gonna milk Sara Lena. Well, 644 00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:20,319 Speaker 1: that's a good point. She she hasn't uh you know, 645 00:34:20,680 --> 00:34:22,759 Speaker 1: as long as my sister is coming, my sister will 646 00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:27,040 Speaker 1: forget all of her pumps. And so I'm glad. I'm 647 00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:29,920 Speaker 1: sure you can find some boys in the Hantons. Hello, 648 00:34:31,160 --> 00:34:33,759 Speaker 1: I mean, are you gonna just cook out? And are 649 00:34:33,760 --> 00:34:35,359 Speaker 1: you guys gonna go out to dinner? Do you think 650 00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:38,120 Speaker 1: you're gonna do like I'm going to do like an 651 00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:40,759 Speaker 1: Insta cart thing, or I'm going to have I'm gonna 652 00:34:40,760 --> 00:34:43,880 Speaker 1: have Sarah Lena send someone out and I'll pay for 653 00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:48,160 Speaker 1: it obviously, like to um buy a ton of groceries, 654 00:34:48,160 --> 00:34:49,880 Speaker 1: and like I'll have every girl make a list of 655 00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:52,440 Speaker 1: like stuff she wants so that it's just there. And 656 00:34:52,480 --> 00:34:54,799 Speaker 1: then we'll also do like Postmates, because I'm sure that's 657 00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:57,400 Speaker 1: the thing down there, and we've stayed there before and 658 00:34:57,400 --> 00:34:59,600 Speaker 1: and had a good time. But uh, and then I'm 659 00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:03,200 Speaker 1: sure one night person and and there are some girls 660 00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:05,239 Speaker 1: in our group that like like to cook and like 661 00:35:05,360 --> 00:35:08,759 Speaker 1: make nourishing meals, um, and so I'm sure we'll do that. 662 00:35:08,880 --> 00:35:11,359 Speaker 1: But uh, yeah, we're just gonna like hang out and 663 00:35:11,400 --> 00:35:14,440 Speaker 1: go to the beach and um, but really just hang 664 00:35:14,480 --> 00:35:17,680 Speaker 1: out and talk and giggle and dance and like listen 665 00:35:17,719 --> 00:35:21,640 Speaker 1: to music and do meditations. And weird, like I don't know, 666 00:35:21,840 --> 00:35:24,480 Speaker 1: light as a feather, stiff as a board, uh kind 667 00:35:24,520 --> 00:35:26,480 Speaker 1: of things. I don't know. Noah, do you have any 668 00:35:26,560 --> 00:35:30,960 Speaker 1: like goals for our trip? Honestly, I have no goals. 669 00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:33,719 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be in the car with Carlisle, I think 670 00:35:33,760 --> 00:35:37,200 Speaker 1: for like eight hours driving from JFK to the Hampton's, 671 00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:40,040 Speaker 1: and I think it's gonna be so fun. I'm looking 672 00:35:40,080 --> 00:35:43,440 Speaker 1: forward to it because she's looking so fortunate to She's like, 673 00:35:43,480 --> 00:35:46,200 Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm gonna drive with Noah. I'm so 674 00:35:46,360 --> 00:35:48,719 Speaker 1: glad I'm with Noah on that rod. It's gonna be 675 00:35:48,719 --> 00:35:50,839 Speaker 1: so fun. It's just like it makes me feel so good. 676 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:52,640 Speaker 1: She's gonna be there. I don't know if we're gonna 677 00:35:52,680 --> 00:35:55,200 Speaker 1: leave together. I really hope so, Like so the car 678 00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:58,880 Speaker 1: rides are going to be a separate like adventure to exactly. 679 00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:01,960 Speaker 1: So she's like my travel buddy because our flights are 680 00:36:02,400 --> 00:36:06,200 Speaker 1: are lining up, and um, I just like I cannot wait. 681 00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:09,120 Speaker 1: We both rented it, like we we rented a car together, 682 00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:11,200 Speaker 1: so like we'll have our independence if we want to 683 00:36:11,320 --> 00:36:14,520 Speaker 1: pull off the road and all that, and um, I'm 684 00:36:14,560 --> 00:36:17,759 Speaker 1: just you know, like I haven't had really like one 685 00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:21,160 Speaker 1: on one quality time with Carlisle except for like one 686 00:36:21,200 --> 00:36:24,400 Speaker 1: of the walks into Loom, so it's been a long time. 687 00:36:25,360 --> 00:36:29,279 Speaker 1: And then I'm also I'm so excited to like how 688 00:36:30,000 --> 00:36:33,279 Speaker 1: I feel like this is going to sound very strange, 689 00:36:33,440 --> 00:36:37,400 Speaker 1: but I feel like I'm being transported to high school 690 00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:41,839 Speaker 1: where I get to have like this gaggle of girlfriends 691 00:36:41,880 --> 00:36:44,480 Speaker 1: that I've never had before and only have like one 692 00:36:44,560 --> 00:36:48,799 Speaker 1: close friend growing up. And um, I'm just like so 693 00:36:48,840 --> 00:36:53,000 Speaker 1: excited because I know everyone's personality. I've gotten to know 694 00:36:53,680 --> 00:36:57,080 Speaker 1: each one of your friends separately, and now I get 695 00:36:57,120 --> 00:37:00,439 Speaker 1: to like be in like the cluster. So I feel, yeah, 696 00:37:00,480 --> 00:37:03,000 Speaker 1: you're in the group. You're at our table at lunch, 697 00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:05,960 Speaker 1: and I was never the girl that had like, uh, 698 00:37:06,000 --> 00:37:08,200 Speaker 1: I mean, this is the coolest group of girls you'll 699 00:37:08,239 --> 00:37:11,600 Speaker 1: ever meet or ever know, and any bestie listening, Like 700 00:37:11,640 --> 00:37:13,680 Speaker 1: if I was your friend, you would totally be invited 701 00:37:13,719 --> 00:37:16,080 Speaker 1: to like if we were like, if it was possible, 702 00:37:16,120 --> 00:37:18,360 Speaker 1: I'd have all the girl besties that listen to the 703 00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:21,200 Speaker 1: show and maybe some of the guys too, Um, you 704 00:37:21,200 --> 00:37:22,680 Speaker 1: would all be able to sit at our table. But 705 00:37:22,719 --> 00:37:25,239 Speaker 1: it's true, It's like it feels so good to me 706 00:37:25,360 --> 00:37:28,880 Speaker 1: to like having this having. I it's not lost on 707 00:37:28,960 --> 00:37:32,399 Speaker 1: me that it's really hard to accrew a crew like 708 00:37:32,480 --> 00:37:35,880 Speaker 1: the ones we like the one we have and um, 709 00:37:36,360 --> 00:37:39,840 Speaker 1: and it makes me so happy that like it feels 710 00:37:39,840 --> 00:37:42,520 Speaker 1: selfish to be like, these are all my friends coming together, 711 00:37:42,600 --> 00:37:45,560 Speaker 1: but I didn't. I made sure to invite all people 712 00:37:45,560 --> 00:37:48,400 Speaker 1: that get along, and like, it makes me so happy 713 00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:51,480 Speaker 1: when my friends become friends and like go off on 714 00:37:51,520 --> 00:37:54,040 Speaker 1: their own and like don't need me to be the 715 00:37:54,040 --> 00:37:56,680 Speaker 1: connective tissue, you know, Like I think some girl friends 716 00:37:56,760 --> 00:37:58,880 Speaker 1: as I've been, and I've been this girl before that 717 00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:01,440 Speaker 1: like I'll introduce two friends and then they will become 718 00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:04,000 Speaker 1: better friends than I am with either of them, and 719 00:38:04,040 --> 00:38:06,560 Speaker 1: I will get like wit no, and I want to 720 00:38:06,560 --> 00:38:08,359 Speaker 1: control it and be like no, you come hang out 721 00:38:08,360 --> 00:38:13,720 Speaker 1: with me, and like you it becomes content. I never 722 00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:18,400 Speaker 1: care about that anymore because I am. I just don't 723 00:38:19,360 --> 00:38:23,319 Speaker 1: question my my friends love for me ever, Like that 724 00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:25,280 Speaker 1: is the one thing in my life. Like I questioned 725 00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:28,120 Speaker 1: my boyfriend's love even though I shouldn't. I questioned my 726 00:38:28,200 --> 00:38:31,279 Speaker 1: parents love, I questioned my fans love. I question you know, 727 00:38:31,360 --> 00:38:33,680 Speaker 1: my dogs love. I don't have to question it's just 728 00:38:33,800 --> 00:38:36,319 Speaker 1: a parent. He doesn't really care for me. But for 729 00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:38,719 Speaker 1: some reason, my friends I just that has always been 730 00:38:38,760 --> 00:38:42,040 Speaker 1: so solid for me. And I can always like lament 731 00:38:42,120 --> 00:38:45,120 Speaker 1: about other stuff that like other people have that I don't. 732 00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:49,840 Speaker 1: But I really won the friends lottery, uh, and I have, 733 00:38:50,040 --> 00:38:52,000 Speaker 1: like since fourth grade when I met Kirsten. And it 734 00:38:52,160 --> 00:38:55,160 Speaker 1: really is about luck. If you're a girl that has 735 00:38:55,239 --> 00:38:57,560 Speaker 1: just like never had friends and never been able to 736 00:38:57,640 --> 00:39:02,239 Speaker 1: like meet close girlfriends, it is nothing other than like, like, 737 00:39:02,320 --> 00:39:04,799 Speaker 1: there's nothing wrong with you. I've said this on stage 738 00:39:04,840 --> 00:39:07,320 Speaker 1: about people that have been molested or like been in 739 00:39:07,400 --> 00:39:10,959 Speaker 1: abusive relationships, Like you're not different than me just because 740 00:39:11,000 --> 00:39:13,799 Speaker 1: I haven't been. It's just I got lucky that I 741 00:39:13,840 --> 00:39:18,000 Speaker 1: haven't been hit in a relationship yet. And like and 742 00:39:17,760 --> 00:39:21,360 Speaker 1: and I got lucky that I I met these girls 743 00:39:21,360 --> 00:39:23,160 Speaker 1: that are cool at a time when we were all 744 00:39:23,160 --> 00:39:25,120 Speaker 1: in the same grade. Like I always think, like if 745 00:39:25,200 --> 00:39:28,000 Speaker 1: Kirsen was in a different grade, what would my life 746 00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:30,440 Speaker 1: look like she was in a different class than my 747 00:39:30,560 --> 00:39:33,160 Speaker 1: fourth grade class, Like what would it be? So it's 748 00:39:33,200 --> 00:39:36,120 Speaker 1: just luck, you know, And it's waiting for all of us. 749 00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:37,440 Speaker 1: If you're a girl out there or a guy out 750 00:39:37,480 --> 00:39:42,040 Speaker 1: there that like struggles to make friends, it's just circumstantial. Yes, 751 00:39:42,080 --> 00:39:43,600 Speaker 1: there are things you can do to put yourselves in 752 00:39:43,640 --> 00:39:47,239 Speaker 1: more circumstances to make friends, but there's nothing like inherently 753 00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:50,360 Speaker 1: wrong with you. You might have social anxiety or something 754 00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:52,840 Speaker 1: that does prevent you from maybe making more connections, but 755 00:39:52,880 --> 00:39:56,200 Speaker 1: it's not because you're like not worthy of being a 756 00:39:56,239 --> 00:39:59,120 Speaker 1: close friend. Like everyone's capable of it. I believe it's 757 00:39:59,160 --> 00:40:02,200 Speaker 1: also hard to get everyone together. I mean to find 758 00:40:02,239 --> 00:40:05,279 Speaker 1: a weekend. I feel like the older I get, well, 759 00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:07,160 Speaker 1: you know, an email will go out like, hey, let's 760 00:40:07,200 --> 00:40:11,840 Speaker 1: everyone October leave open October ten through, we'll all get together, 761 00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:15,160 Speaker 1: and then yeah, fuck yeah, bro, can't wait to do it. 762 00:40:15,320 --> 00:40:17,960 Speaker 1: Oh my god, we're gonna go here, We're gonna do this, 763 00:40:18,160 --> 00:40:21,399 Speaker 1: Oh my god. Yeah, and then slowly goes, hey, man, 764 00:40:21,800 --> 00:40:25,040 Speaker 1: I gotta back out because you know, Dave Davis is 765 00:40:25,239 --> 00:40:27,680 Speaker 1: recital and I gotta back out because I have a 766 00:40:27,680 --> 00:40:30,560 Speaker 1: hemorrhoid that Wednesday, and I gotta back out. And next 767 00:40:30,600 --> 00:40:33,160 Speaker 1: thing you know, it's just two guys just being like, well, 768 00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:36,600 Speaker 1: I'm still single and uh alone, so you want to 769 00:40:36,600 --> 00:40:39,160 Speaker 1: just want to just come over and watch the football game. 770 00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:42,279 Speaker 1: It's hard to get people together. Really, what it is like, 771 00:40:42,640 --> 00:40:45,239 Speaker 1: I knew there were certain girls in this group of 772 00:40:45,280 --> 00:40:49,160 Speaker 1: ten girls that I know bail and I'm I'm one 773 00:40:49,200 --> 00:40:52,080 Speaker 1: of them that like are prone to saying yes to 774 00:40:52,160 --> 00:40:54,799 Speaker 1: something and then when it comes up being like no, 775 00:40:55,080 --> 00:40:57,759 Speaker 1: Curson is not that. Kristen will commit, she will clear 776 00:40:57,760 --> 00:41:01,280 Speaker 1: her schedule, she'll make it happen. So it started out 777 00:41:01,960 --> 00:41:05,359 Speaker 1: me and and the two people that I know we're 778 00:41:05,440 --> 00:41:07,640 Speaker 1: probably gonna be on the fence about whether or not 779 00:41:07,719 --> 00:41:10,560 Speaker 1: they could go. My sister she has three kids and 780 00:41:10,680 --> 00:41:13,200 Speaker 1: a job and you know, um, she just went on 781 00:41:13,239 --> 00:41:15,960 Speaker 1: a trip to you know, Colorado with me, so getting 782 00:41:15,960 --> 00:41:18,759 Speaker 1: her to go on this trip. And I just say 783 00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:22,120 Speaker 1: to them, like, you got to prioritize this, like there's 784 00:41:22,200 --> 00:41:25,719 Speaker 1: no way you'll regret it. I usually will. If it's 785 00:41:25,719 --> 00:41:27,560 Speaker 1: a cost thing, I'll be like, let me just take 786 00:41:27,600 --> 00:41:29,200 Speaker 1: care of that so you don't have to worry about that. 787 00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:32,120 Speaker 1: If that's like, I'm eliminate anything. And I also say, 788 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:33,800 Speaker 1: if you don't want to go, it's totally fine. You 789 00:41:33,800 --> 00:41:36,400 Speaker 1: could bail out at any point if you want, Like 790 00:41:36,560 --> 00:41:39,640 Speaker 1: it's going to be so and I won't judge you. 791 00:41:39,680 --> 00:41:41,440 Speaker 1: I don't care. I'll buy your ticket. And if you 792 00:41:41,520 --> 00:41:43,120 Speaker 1: fucking don't show up for the ticket. I'm not gonna 793 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:45,160 Speaker 1: be like you wasted my money, Like I just want, 794 00:41:45,200 --> 00:41:47,880 Speaker 1: like to give you the opportunity to go if you 795 00:41:47,920 --> 00:41:51,680 Speaker 1: want to, and I give them again. We talked about 796 00:41:51,719 --> 00:41:55,080 Speaker 1: this the other day. The freedom to bail gives people it, 797 00:41:55,880 --> 00:41:59,000 Speaker 1: you know when I remember in my relationship when I 798 00:41:59,040 --> 00:42:01,680 Speaker 1: told Chris like I really like, wouldn't mind. This was 799 00:42:01,719 --> 00:42:03,919 Speaker 1: early on when we were dating, like, I don't mind 800 00:42:03,960 --> 00:42:05,680 Speaker 1: you like hooking up with other girls, like if you 801 00:42:05,719 --> 00:42:07,480 Speaker 1: tell me about it, Like I kind of turned on 802 00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:09,640 Speaker 1: by it, and he was like, it's so funny, Like 803 00:42:10,000 --> 00:42:12,880 Speaker 1: as soon as you give me that freedom, like there's 804 00:42:13,000 --> 00:42:16,000 Speaker 1: no desire for anyone else. Like part of the desire 805 00:42:16,080 --> 00:42:18,080 Speaker 1: to bail is the fact that you can't get out 806 00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:20,400 Speaker 1: of it. If you do go, you're locked in. And 807 00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:23,640 Speaker 1: I always say to Carlisle, like Leather Night when karaoke, 808 00:42:23,719 --> 00:42:26,640 Speaker 1: I was like, if you come, literally I it just 809 00:42:26,719 --> 00:42:28,480 Speaker 1: take an uber with me there. I'll pay for us 810 00:42:28,480 --> 00:42:30,399 Speaker 1: to get there. If you walk in and you want 811 00:42:30,400 --> 00:42:32,000 Speaker 1: to turn on a dime and leave, I'll get you 812 00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:34,680 Speaker 1: an uber out immediately, Like you don't have to stay, 813 00:42:34,840 --> 00:42:38,160 Speaker 1: You'll never be stuck. I'll give you an aisle seat, 814 00:42:38,239 --> 00:42:39,960 Speaker 1: like when we went to go to Broadway show, Like 815 00:42:40,000 --> 00:42:42,480 Speaker 1: I realized some of my friends need that aisle seat, 816 00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:45,760 Speaker 1: Like you need an exit plan. You need the freedom 817 00:42:45,800 --> 00:42:47,440 Speaker 1: to be able to not be judged if you do 818 00:42:47,560 --> 00:42:52,360 Speaker 1: want to leave, And you need people to just be 819 00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:56,480 Speaker 1: be gentle and be very forgiving and and too and 820 00:42:56,640 --> 00:43:00,239 Speaker 1: to just like really reinforced like you deserve this. This 821 00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:02,520 Speaker 1: is a once in an opportunity, once in a lifetime 822 00:43:02,560 --> 00:43:04,640 Speaker 1: opportunity to hang out with girls, to not be with 823 00:43:04,680 --> 00:43:06,279 Speaker 1: your kids. I know you're gonna feel like a bad 824 00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:08,960 Speaker 1: mom for the weekend, but honestly, you're gonna be a 825 00:43:08,960 --> 00:43:12,440 Speaker 1: better mom because you're going to have friendships that you're 826 00:43:12,520 --> 00:43:15,040 Speaker 1: nurturing that your kids need to see you have. And 827 00:43:15,120 --> 00:43:17,240 Speaker 1: you need to have other things important in your life 828 00:43:17,239 --> 00:43:20,040 Speaker 1: than working at kids. And I need to fucking hear 829 00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:21,880 Speaker 1: that it's hard for me to take time off, like 830 00:43:21,920 --> 00:43:23,279 Speaker 1: I just want to stay and say I don't want 831 00:43:23,320 --> 00:43:26,839 Speaker 1: to travel on a weekend. I half off. I'm going 832 00:43:26,840 --> 00:43:28,839 Speaker 1: to New York next week for press. I'm flying back 833 00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:31,279 Speaker 1: on Wednesday to St. Louis, and then I'm flying back 834 00:43:31,280 --> 00:43:34,160 Speaker 1: to New York on Friday. It's so important for me 835 00:43:34,200 --> 00:43:36,200 Speaker 1: to get St. Louis time in to be home and 836 00:43:36,239 --> 00:43:40,040 Speaker 1: I'm leaving again and but you just have to you can't. 837 00:43:40,440 --> 00:43:43,480 Speaker 1: You gotta carpet. I think I'm going to go to 838 00:43:43,560 --> 00:43:49,439 Speaker 1: Nashville this weekend to see Rusty and uh, and he's there. 839 00:43:49,480 --> 00:43:54,799 Speaker 1: He's actually would Jake go in the country singer? You know, yeah, 840 00:43:54,840 --> 00:43:57,200 Speaker 1: and we're potentially gonna play a lot of golf. But 841 00:43:58,000 --> 00:44:00,600 Speaker 1: it's a five and a half hour drive. And I 842 00:44:00,680 --> 00:44:02,960 Speaker 1: talked to him and I'm like, you know, I don't know, 843 00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:05,640 Speaker 1: it's kind of a long drive. He's like, look, i'll 844 00:44:05,719 --> 00:44:07,759 Speaker 1: let you know what the plans are. You come, you come, 845 00:44:08,000 --> 00:44:10,839 Speaker 1: last second decision, All good. And then I'm like I'm 846 00:44:10,840 --> 00:44:13,960 Speaker 1: already gassing up the car. Like like his niceness about 847 00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:16,319 Speaker 1: that of like, dude, it doesn't it matter, like I'll 848 00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:18,719 Speaker 1: see you a month from now or two months from now. 849 00:44:19,239 --> 00:44:22,600 Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, what, Yeah, it's just uh, it's it's 850 00:44:22,640 --> 00:44:26,279 Speaker 1: just very inviting to peopin. You punish people for like 851 00:44:26,800 --> 00:44:30,080 Speaker 1: not showing up or bailing like you've got really people 852 00:44:30,160 --> 00:44:32,920 Speaker 1: gotta work on letting your friends off the hook when 853 00:44:32,920 --> 00:44:35,520 Speaker 1: you when they bail, and you might not relate to bailing. 854 00:44:35,560 --> 00:44:37,360 Speaker 1: Maybe you're someone who's just like I never do that, 855 00:44:37,440 --> 00:44:39,160 Speaker 1: so I just get mad when people do it to me. 856 00:44:40,520 --> 00:44:44,600 Speaker 1: It's not it's like it's never gonna help alleviate the bailing. 857 00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:47,440 Speaker 1: If anything, it's gonna make people stay further from me. 858 00:44:47,520 --> 00:44:49,640 Speaker 1: It's gonna make them not return your call because they 859 00:44:49,680 --> 00:44:52,040 Speaker 1: know when they do call you, there's a there ship 860 00:44:52,120 --> 00:44:54,960 Speaker 1: to be had. And so you're gonna lose friends if 861 00:44:54,960 --> 00:44:58,320 Speaker 1: you keep punishing people, even though you're justified because this 862 00:44:58,440 --> 00:45:02,480 Speaker 1: person is shitty and they're bailing. Just get into forgiveness. 863 00:45:03,080 --> 00:45:05,880 Speaker 1: I do find sometimes when you call that person that 864 00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:09,399 Speaker 1: will give you ship, they tend to only a lot 865 00:45:09,440 --> 00:45:11,759 Speaker 1: of them will give you ship the first three sentences 866 00:45:11,800 --> 00:45:14,040 Speaker 1: and then it's like back to normal. They just have 867 00:45:14,160 --> 00:45:16,840 Speaker 1: to get it out. Empathy for them that have to 868 00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:19,960 Speaker 1: get it out, I know, but those three sentences sometimes 869 00:45:20,040 --> 00:45:22,319 Speaker 1: I could get through just to get you know, but 870 00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:24,440 Speaker 1: sometimes those three sentences I don't even want to put 871 00:45:24,480 --> 00:45:26,040 Speaker 1: up with those, and I will just not all the 872 00:45:26,080 --> 00:45:28,200 Speaker 1: person because I don't want three sentences like that is 873 00:45:28,280 --> 00:45:30,439 Speaker 1: really enough to keep me away from someone for years 874 00:45:30,480 --> 00:45:34,239 Speaker 1: and ruin an entire friendship. And there's something wrong with 875 00:45:34,280 --> 00:45:36,799 Speaker 1: me for that too, like, hey, look, a sentence a year, 876 00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:39,880 Speaker 1: A sentence a year? Yeah, you want to give me 877 00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:42,360 Speaker 1: two sentences? I'll wait two year. All right, we'll be 878 00:45:42,400 --> 00:45:47,640 Speaker 1: back with more show after this. Alright, we're back. Um, 879 00:45:47,680 --> 00:45:51,719 Speaker 1: it is time for our Wednesday wild Card segment. Right 880 00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:53,400 Speaker 1: before we get to it, can I just say that 881 00:45:53,520 --> 00:45:58,680 Speaker 1: I just got sent a Vanity Fair headline about F 882 00:45:58,800 --> 00:46:02,759 Speaker 1: Boy Island. Can I read it? Vanity Fair tweeted F 883 00:46:02,920 --> 00:46:06,480 Speaker 1: Boy Island maybe conceptually among the worst of the current 884 00:46:06,560 --> 00:46:10,000 Speaker 1: dating shows, but as a vehicle for entertainment, it's an 885 00:46:10,320 --> 00:46:16,000 Speaker 1: it's a fucking tour to force. Oh man, that's great feeling. 886 00:46:16,120 --> 00:46:18,799 Speaker 1: That's like the sentence that we were just talking about 887 00:46:18,800 --> 00:46:21,640 Speaker 1: on the previous segment, where it's like you see you 888 00:46:21,920 --> 00:46:24,000 Speaker 1: let it all out and say something mean and then 889 00:46:24,000 --> 00:46:27,680 Speaker 1: you say something nice. Yes, yes, And you know why 890 00:46:27,800 --> 00:46:30,160 Speaker 1: I love a headline like that. It's just like this 891 00:46:30,280 --> 00:46:35,799 Speaker 1: thing is terrible, and because it's terrible, Yeah, it is 892 00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:38,960 Speaker 1: a terrible show conceptually, F Boy Island. I mean, we 893 00:46:39,080 --> 00:46:41,360 Speaker 1: give you hits. They're they're not saying anything that we 894 00:46:41,480 --> 00:46:44,959 Speaker 1: are not conceptually. It's it's it's terrible in the sense 895 00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:47,720 Speaker 1: that like there's three girls looking for Love and fifteen 896 00:46:47,800 --> 00:46:50,120 Speaker 1: or f Boys and fifteen are nice. Guy Like, that's 897 00:46:50,160 --> 00:46:52,719 Speaker 1: conceptually like kind of a nightmare. It's not anything you've 898 00:46:52,719 --> 00:46:55,320 Speaker 1: seen in the real world. It's funny, but it's conceptually 899 00:46:55,640 --> 00:46:58,440 Speaker 1: what they said, among the worst of the current dating shows. 900 00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:01,560 Speaker 1: But you know what, that doesn't insult me at all, 901 00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:04,439 Speaker 1: because you know, there's a show called Is This Cake 902 00:47:04,600 --> 00:47:06,719 Speaker 1: that conceptually is one of the worst things I've ever 903 00:47:06,719 --> 00:47:08,640 Speaker 1: heard in my life and it was a Netflix hit. 904 00:47:08,719 --> 00:47:11,360 Speaker 1: You know, Like, so conceptually, I can you can insult 905 00:47:11,400 --> 00:47:12,960 Speaker 1: me all the time. But when you call it a 906 00:47:13,000 --> 00:47:16,319 Speaker 1: fucking tour to force, which makes me think of, you know, 907 00:47:16,480 --> 00:47:20,840 Speaker 1: a bike race, I sucking. I'm so I'm so excited. 908 00:47:20,960 --> 00:47:23,480 Speaker 1: I like always cried when I saw this because I 909 00:47:23,520 --> 00:47:25,200 Speaker 1: read it and I'm like, but it was sent to 910 00:47:25,239 --> 00:47:28,360 Speaker 1: me by Elon Gale, who um is the you know 911 00:47:28,440 --> 00:47:32,400 Speaker 1: creator of the show and another executive producer, and he 912 00:47:32,440 --> 00:47:35,319 Speaker 1: would never send me something negative, so I was just like, yes, 913 00:47:35,600 --> 00:47:39,960 Speaker 1: it just makes me feel half of that he said, 914 00:47:40,160 --> 00:47:43,160 Speaker 1: this is a headline, that's it. Yeah, I wouldn't read 915 00:47:43,160 --> 00:47:45,560 Speaker 1: the article and it's it's all, you know, blowing. So 916 00:47:45,640 --> 00:47:47,719 Speaker 1: it will be on HBO back tonight at midnight. I 917 00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:50,359 Speaker 1: believe it's the first three episodes, but I don't even 918 00:47:50,360 --> 00:47:54,280 Speaker 1: know that yet. And we will be watching Watch this weekend, 919 00:47:55,000 --> 00:47:58,239 Speaker 1: whatever batch they give us right too, Max tonight and 920 00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:02,040 Speaker 1: on Monday's episode of Nicklas Podcast, we will review f 921 00:48:02,200 --> 00:48:06,160 Speaker 1: Boy Island in a new segment. We're calling f anals 922 00:48:06,200 --> 00:48:11,840 Speaker 1: Island something like that. We are getting to use Andrew's 923 00:48:11,880 --> 00:48:16,560 Speaker 1: idea for my day for my puzzle. Honestly, conceptually, it's 924 00:48:16,640 --> 00:48:21,800 Speaker 1: the worst name you've I've ever heard. But another review 925 00:48:21,920 --> 00:48:25,520 Speaker 1: came from fandom Wire that says comedian Nikki Glazer returns 926 00:48:25,560 --> 00:48:28,240 Speaker 1: to host the reality competition. She once again proves perfect 927 00:48:28,280 --> 00:48:30,719 Speaker 1: for the job. She uses her quick wit and incredible 928 00:48:30,800 --> 00:48:33,480 Speaker 1: humor to poke fun at the absurdity of f Boy 929 00:48:33,520 --> 00:48:36,520 Speaker 1: Island's premise, while also bringing a genuine perspective to the 930 00:48:36,560 --> 00:48:39,800 Speaker 1: blossoming relationships. She acts as a Jiminy cricket of sorts, 931 00:48:39,800 --> 00:48:42,320 Speaker 1: guiding the three women on their confusing and difficult journey 932 00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:45,799 Speaker 1: to find love and money. So that was nice to 933 00:48:46,080 --> 00:48:50,800 Speaker 1: be compared to a little booby cricket and just so little. 934 00:48:50,800 --> 00:48:53,520 Speaker 1: It's because I'm little, That's why they said that. Yeah, 935 00:48:54,200 --> 00:48:57,799 Speaker 1: so little. The whole show, Um, it's weird dat you 936 00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:01,120 Speaker 1: on camera. The camera adds a hundred pounds. Let's get 937 00:49:01,160 --> 00:49:03,800 Speaker 1: to her. Yeah. That was one of my favorite friends 938 00:49:03,800 --> 00:49:06,879 Speaker 1: lines ever was when Monica They're looking back on old 939 00:49:06,880 --> 00:49:10,520 Speaker 1: footage from high school and Monica is a lot heavier 940 00:49:10,560 --> 00:49:12,840 Speaker 1: than she is and she was like, oh, come on 941 00:49:12,920 --> 00:49:15,600 Speaker 1: the camera, it's ten pounds, and Chandler goes, how many 942 00:49:15,640 --> 00:49:19,280 Speaker 1: cameras were on you? I thought that was in sixth grade. 943 00:49:19,280 --> 00:49:21,359 Speaker 1: I remember being like, that is the funniest joke I've 944 00:49:21,400 --> 00:49:23,840 Speaker 1: ever heard of my life, ever, ever, And I still 945 00:49:23,880 --> 00:49:26,520 Speaker 1: make dame. That's one of the best jokes ever. Okay, um, 946 00:49:26,560 --> 00:49:28,719 Speaker 1: all right, let's get to our Wednesday segment. We haven't 947 00:49:28,719 --> 00:49:31,839 Speaker 1: played it in a while. We are playing the Blankest Thing, 948 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:36,399 Speaker 1: and today's um question, where we answered the mostest thing 949 00:49:36,560 --> 00:49:39,759 Speaker 1: ever is, um, what is it? The what ist thing 950 00:49:39,800 --> 00:49:46,800 Speaker 1: We've ever done? The cursed, the cursed thing We've ever done? Um? 951 00:49:46,920 --> 00:49:49,920 Speaker 1: I will start us off. I think I told Andrew 952 00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:53,520 Speaker 1: this once on like a car ride. It makes me 953 00:49:53,560 --> 00:49:57,000 Speaker 1: cringe to even think about it, but I once used 954 00:49:57,040 --> 00:50:02,399 Speaker 1: to bring a cigarette on stage when I smoked at 955 00:50:02,520 --> 00:50:05,840 Speaker 1: Sanford and Sun's Comedy Club in Kansas City, Missouri. For 956 00:50:06,160 --> 00:50:10,280 Speaker 1: my open mic set, which was a three minute set. 957 00:50:11,400 --> 00:50:15,520 Speaker 1: When did you know it was already lit? That would 958 00:50:15,520 --> 00:50:17,680 Speaker 1: have been care if I lit it on stage, but 959 00:50:17,719 --> 00:50:20,840 Speaker 1: it would have been lit, and I brought it on stage, 960 00:50:20,840 --> 00:50:23,640 Speaker 1: and I would definitely light it at a time where 961 00:50:23,840 --> 00:50:25,759 Speaker 1: I knew I was going to be up next, like 962 00:50:25,840 --> 00:50:27,960 Speaker 1: I needed. I wanted that cigarette to be a part 963 00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:33,480 Speaker 1: of my like like I'm so cool and relaxed, vibe disgusting, 964 00:50:33,840 --> 00:50:37,040 Speaker 1: so lame. Definitely knew I was being cooked because I 965 00:50:37,040 --> 00:50:38,400 Speaker 1: had a crush on a guy that was one of 966 00:50:38,440 --> 00:50:40,960 Speaker 1: the comedians who I ended up losing my virginity too, 967 00:50:41,680 --> 00:50:44,759 Speaker 1: but I wanted to look cool to him and he 968 00:50:48,080 --> 00:50:57,359 Speaker 1: tell me about it, get to your jokes. So I 969 00:50:57,400 --> 00:51:00,319 Speaker 1: gotta know more about this because it's what when did 970 00:51:00,360 --> 00:51:04,800 Speaker 1: you When did you like smokers? But I still brought 971 00:51:04,840 --> 00:51:06,719 Speaker 1: it on, But when did you think to do this? 972 00:51:07,400 --> 00:51:09,839 Speaker 1: Was it? Was it a one time thing and then 973 00:51:09,960 --> 00:51:13,160 Speaker 1: you like ran with it? And when did you feel 974 00:51:13,239 --> 00:51:15,879 Speaker 1: did it a few times? It was every Tuesday night 975 00:51:15,920 --> 00:51:17,839 Speaker 1: at the at Stanford and Suns It was open mic night. 976 00:51:17,920 --> 00:51:22,800 Speaker 1: They were probably like thirty comedians there plus audience. And 977 00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:25,840 Speaker 1: I think I thought to do it because I saw 978 00:51:26,239 --> 00:51:29,960 Speaker 1: other comedians and the whole time people are smoking in 979 00:51:30,000 --> 00:51:31,960 Speaker 1: the show room. I mean this was like when smoking 980 00:51:32,000 --> 00:51:34,520 Speaker 1: was indoors, so like I was smoking the entire show. 981 00:51:34,520 --> 00:51:35,960 Speaker 1: But it was like very important to me that like, 982 00:51:36,000 --> 00:51:38,800 Speaker 1: I gotta have it on stage with me to look cooler. 983 00:51:39,560 --> 00:51:45,239 Speaker 1: And it does make smoking at the time, and and 984 00:51:45,320 --> 00:51:47,680 Speaker 1: it does make him look cooler, and I you know, 985 00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:49,799 Speaker 1: you watch mad Men and you go, there's something to it. 986 00:51:49,840 --> 00:51:54,279 Speaker 1: But I definitely planned it and needed it because I 987 00:51:54,360 --> 00:51:59,040 Speaker 1: felt so uncool, you know, like I couldn't How did 988 00:51:59,040 --> 00:52:00,759 Speaker 1: you get over it? How did you when did you 989 00:52:00,800 --> 00:52:09,319 Speaker 1: stop doing it? Did you or a patch on stage? Um? 990 00:52:09,400 --> 00:52:11,759 Speaker 1: I think I just realized how cult was and how 991 00:52:11,840 --> 00:52:14,080 Speaker 1: dumb it was, because really, you don't you can take 992 00:52:14,080 --> 00:52:16,000 Speaker 1: a three minute break from a cigarette. Like if I 993 00:52:16,040 --> 00:52:18,040 Speaker 1: was doing an hour set, I can imagine if I'm 994 00:52:18,080 --> 00:52:20,000 Speaker 1: like that big of a smoker, I might need a 995 00:52:20,000 --> 00:52:22,480 Speaker 1: cigarette in the middle of it, But a three minute set, 996 00:52:22,560 --> 00:52:25,360 Speaker 1: I just and you know what, I started watching comedians 997 00:52:26,120 --> 00:52:28,800 Speaker 1: who would like take beers on stage or like their drinks, 998 00:52:29,080 --> 00:52:31,439 Speaker 1: and they would take beers on stage because a beer 999 00:52:31,480 --> 00:52:33,279 Speaker 1: on stage also makes you look like I'm one of 1000 00:52:33,280 --> 00:52:35,759 Speaker 1: the guys, especially Kansas City Comics used to be like 1001 00:52:35,960 --> 00:52:39,920 Speaker 1: very like everyone's trying to be um just you know, 1002 00:52:39,960 --> 00:52:43,400 Speaker 1: like Doug stand Hope, Yes, like very gritty, like Kansas 1003 00:52:43,400 --> 00:52:47,040 Speaker 1: City Comedy in the early midts or mid tooth. I 1004 00:52:47,160 --> 00:52:51,200 Speaker 1: was like early like two five is filthy, Like that's 1005 00:52:51,200 --> 00:52:53,040 Speaker 1: where I was. It was such a perfect place for 1006 00:52:53,080 --> 00:52:54,520 Speaker 1: me because I was like, yes, finally I can be 1007 00:52:54,560 --> 00:52:57,840 Speaker 1: so dirty. Like everyone was dirty and it was just 1008 00:52:57,880 --> 00:53:00,200 Speaker 1: a dirty club. It was behind the Hooters and like 1009 00:53:00,239 --> 00:53:04,680 Speaker 1: a part of like you but now it's like a 1010 00:53:04,680 --> 00:53:07,560 Speaker 1: cross fit and we were like, do but your cigarettes 1011 00:53:07,920 --> 00:53:14,160 Speaker 1: are still there. They're still there, I think, I mean 1012 00:53:14,200 --> 00:53:16,960 Speaker 1: there's somewhere some they're somewhere because those things do not 1013 00:53:17,320 --> 00:53:19,520 Speaker 1: bio degrade. And I probably threw them on the ground 1014 00:53:19,560 --> 00:53:21,680 Speaker 1: because I was like trying to be kid got it. 1015 00:53:22,600 --> 00:53:26,600 Speaker 1: But I remember seeing guys bring beers on stage and 1016 00:53:27,640 --> 00:53:30,360 Speaker 1: realizing how fucking lame it was. And and now I 1017 00:53:30,640 --> 00:53:32,120 Speaker 1: even when I see it now, I'm more it's just 1018 00:53:32,200 --> 00:53:35,360 Speaker 1: like kid, like you're doing a ten minute set. You 1019 00:53:35,440 --> 00:53:38,400 Speaker 1: do not need a beer. You're only bringing it to 1020 00:53:38,520 --> 00:53:40,720 Speaker 1: like look cool to the audience. And then I started 1021 00:53:40,920 --> 00:53:44,400 Speaker 1: after I quit drinking, I just saw people like drinking 1022 00:53:44,440 --> 00:53:47,120 Speaker 1: beers on stage. I saw them as weak more than 1023 00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:48,960 Speaker 1: I saw them as cool. Like I was like, oh, 1024 00:53:49,120 --> 00:53:52,000 Speaker 1: you need this thing. You're so nervous, you need this 1025 00:53:52,040 --> 00:53:54,360 Speaker 1: thing to calm down. It was like watching someone like 1026 00:53:54,480 --> 00:53:58,120 Speaker 1: us an Inhaler on stage, like I'm you know, like 1027 00:53:58,400 --> 00:54:00,520 Speaker 1: no offense to anyone who has as mom, but it's 1028 00:54:00,520 --> 00:54:03,400 Speaker 1: like kind of like a nerdy like I'm I'm scared 1029 00:54:03,600 --> 00:54:05,719 Speaker 1: kind of thing that I is. So I don't really 1030 00:54:05,719 --> 00:54:07,200 Speaker 1: think that a people with asthma. I know it's a 1031 00:54:07,200 --> 00:54:10,319 Speaker 1: whole different thing, but like there's just something about like 1032 00:54:10,600 --> 00:54:13,560 Speaker 1: you're like a nerd that needs like this assistance to 1033 00:54:13,680 --> 00:54:15,759 Speaker 1: get through this thing. It just seems. And now I 1034 00:54:15,800 --> 00:54:18,080 Speaker 1: see guys like chug It on stage and I'm like, oh, 1035 00:54:18,200 --> 00:54:20,239 Speaker 1: you're such an addict, Like it kind of makes me 1036 00:54:20,600 --> 00:54:22,440 Speaker 1: and I don't want to be judgmental with addicts, but 1037 00:54:22,800 --> 00:54:24,440 Speaker 1: I do think it's could now. And so I think 1038 00:54:24,560 --> 00:54:26,920 Speaker 1: there's the thing though, if you're at a comedy show 1039 00:54:26,960 --> 00:54:30,839 Speaker 1: and there's someone with an inhaler on stage, better heck, 1040 00:54:31,000 --> 00:54:34,799 Speaker 1: heck call that motherfucker. No, no, you gotta really Yeah, 1041 00:54:34,840 --> 00:54:37,239 Speaker 1: if someone's vaping on stage, I actually don't mind it 1042 00:54:37,280 --> 00:54:39,440 Speaker 1: because that is so lame that I think that they 1043 00:54:39,520 --> 00:54:41,880 Speaker 1: must be such an addict that I'm like, more power 1044 00:54:41,920 --> 00:54:43,640 Speaker 1: to them for just doing what they want to do. 1045 00:54:43,840 --> 00:54:46,960 Speaker 1: Like I love when people a lot of cloud and 1046 00:54:47,000 --> 00:54:50,720 Speaker 1: you can't see the act out. That's that's pretty cool. 1047 00:54:50,800 --> 00:54:53,160 Speaker 1: You know, if your cloud is so big it ruined 1048 00:54:53,200 --> 00:54:56,120 Speaker 1: your performance, don't bring a smokes scene, Like you don't 1049 00:54:56,120 --> 00:54:58,600 Speaker 1: need to send in a tone with that. You can 1050 00:54:58,640 --> 00:55:01,520 Speaker 1: just honestly on want to bring like a case of 1051 00:55:01,560 --> 00:55:04,680 Speaker 1: beer for a five minute set and just like hilarious, 1052 00:55:04,719 --> 00:55:08,920 Speaker 1: like the biggest a keg to be like what's the anyways? 1053 00:55:09,320 --> 00:55:13,400 Speaker 1: Let me fill up real quick? Um, so the city's cool? Wait, 1054 00:55:13,480 --> 00:55:16,080 Speaker 1: what are you a whore? Like the other night, I 1055 00:55:16,120 --> 00:55:17,880 Speaker 1: was on stage and I needed to call an uber 1056 00:55:19,400 --> 00:55:21,880 Speaker 1: because I was like, because I was going to my 1057 00:55:21,920 --> 00:55:24,000 Speaker 1: next set and like I needed it to be there 1058 00:55:24,080 --> 00:55:26,239 Speaker 1: right when I go off stage. And so, um now, 1059 00:55:26,280 --> 00:55:28,200 Speaker 1: I know you can like time ubers and so I 1060 00:55:28,239 --> 00:55:29,719 Speaker 1: don't need to as much, but I forgot to do 1061 00:55:29,800 --> 00:55:32,240 Speaker 1: that and so um or you could schedule them ahead 1062 00:55:32,239 --> 00:55:33,960 Speaker 1: of time to show up at a certain time, but 1063 00:55:34,080 --> 00:55:35,680 Speaker 1: I didn't do that, and so I was on stage 1064 00:55:35,680 --> 00:55:38,120 Speaker 1: and needed like an uber, and I thought this audience 1065 00:55:38,160 --> 00:55:40,040 Speaker 1: probably thinks I'm being so cool because I'm just like, 1066 00:55:40,160 --> 00:55:42,080 Speaker 1: I don't care about you. I'm getting an uber, Like 1067 00:55:42,520 --> 00:55:45,520 Speaker 1: it felt so lame to be doing anything on stage 1068 00:55:45,920 --> 00:55:49,680 Speaker 1: that makes it seem like you're like just distracted from 1069 00:55:49,719 --> 00:55:52,000 Speaker 1: what you're doing. Like it's so easy for me, like 1070 00:55:52,040 --> 00:55:55,080 Speaker 1: I don't even need like if I'm doing I remember 1071 00:55:55,280 --> 00:55:58,640 Speaker 1: one time one do I handstand on stage. They were 1072 00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:00,520 Speaker 1: just like so relaxed. They were like, I'm just gonna 1073 00:56:00,560 --> 00:56:03,440 Speaker 1: do a handstand against the wall and like they're like 1074 00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:06,680 Speaker 1: they stretch or they just do like oh, and it's 1075 00:56:06,680 --> 00:56:10,279 Speaker 1: just like, stop this performative. I'm relaxable shit, Like it's 1076 00:56:10,320 --> 00:56:12,239 Speaker 1: I can see through it, but a lot of times 1077 00:56:12,239 --> 00:56:15,799 Speaker 1: audiences can't see through it because audiences can't see through 1078 00:56:15,920 --> 00:56:21,440 Speaker 1: fucking anything. Open your eyes. Comedians are so lame. They 1079 00:56:21,440 --> 00:56:25,879 Speaker 1: are all using tricks. They are cool, They're not They're 1080 00:56:25,920 --> 00:56:29,160 Speaker 1: all on confident, they all have such lows. All this team. 1081 00:56:29,480 --> 00:56:33,319 Speaker 1: Stop thinking that these edgy comedians are cool. The edge 1082 00:56:33,360 --> 00:56:36,000 Speaker 1: needs to be brought back. I can't stand these fucking 1083 00:56:36,080 --> 00:56:39,440 Speaker 1: edgy comedians. I'm sorry. I just don't like the idea 1084 00:56:39,480 --> 00:56:42,520 Speaker 1: of people getting fans by being like listen no one 1085 00:56:42,560 --> 00:56:46,319 Speaker 1: else can handle this, can you like? It's just it's 1086 00:56:46,560 --> 00:56:49,760 Speaker 1: it's it's just, it's a lie. Just beef, You're funny, 1087 00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:51,960 Speaker 1: that's all you need to be. But it actually works, 1088 00:56:52,000 --> 00:56:56,080 Speaker 1: So maybe I'm jealous. Does it works. It's marketing at 1089 00:56:56,080 --> 00:56:58,719 Speaker 1: the end of the day, and good marketing marketing, and 1090 00:56:59,120 --> 00:57:02,080 Speaker 1: but I'm just saying you, as a consumer, when people 1091 00:57:02,120 --> 00:57:04,799 Speaker 1: are telling you they're edgy, you need to be a 1092 00:57:04,880 --> 00:57:09,520 Speaker 1: little that's so weird when I see someone with fake confidence, 1093 00:57:09,520 --> 00:57:11,800 Speaker 1: and I've been I've been known to do it myself. 1094 00:57:11,920 --> 00:57:14,400 Speaker 1: It might be where you come out, you're a little louder, 1095 00:57:14,560 --> 00:57:17,600 Speaker 1: you're in your face. It all comes from insecurity. It's 1096 00:57:17,640 --> 00:57:21,000 Speaker 1: all insecurity. We all fucking are. But I don't like 1097 00:57:21,080 --> 00:57:23,560 Speaker 1: being I don't And maybe I've done it in the past, 1098 00:57:23,560 --> 00:57:26,120 Speaker 1: and that's why I'm so grossed out by it. And 1099 00:57:26,200 --> 00:57:27,880 Speaker 1: I have. I just admitted I walked on stage with 1100 00:57:27,960 --> 00:57:30,200 Speaker 1: a fucking cigarette to do a three minute set in 1101 00:57:30,200 --> 00:57:34,560 Speaker 1: two thousand four or whatever it was. But now doing 1102 00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:37,720 Speaker 1: in a hospital waiting room, Nikki, do it in a 1103 00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:40,880 Speaker 1: do it in front of a baby dying of lung cancer. 1104 00:57:40,960 --> 00:57:43,240 Speaker 1: Why don't you do that, you fucking pussy and I 1105 00:57:43,280 --> 00:57:46,280 Speaker 1: can't even touch that concept. It's like so edgy that 1106 00:57:46,360 --> 00:57:50,000 Speaker 1: my brain is getting canceled right now for even thinking 1107 00:57:50,000 --> 00:57:54,760 Speaker 1: about it. Final thought, um, mark, coolest thing we got 1108 00:57:54,760 --> 00:57:58,080 Speaker 1: to do? Our? What should I just do? It? Based 1109 00:57:58,080 --> 00:58:00,200 Speaker 1: off kind of the same kind of idea, you know, 1110 00:58:00,360 --> 00:58:04,440 Speaker 1: I mean, what were you going to say? Though? I 1111 00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:09,480 Speaker 1: mean my colorst thing is probably like um things I 1112 00:58:09,520 --> 00:58:11,480 Speaker 1: did with money when I had a lot of money, 1113 00:58:11,720 --> 00:58:17,480 Speaker 1: just buying the truck for fifty thou dollars cash with 1114 00:58:17,600 --> 00:58:20,919 Speaker 1: big put big gas wheels on it. Just two months later, 1115 00:58:21,040 --> 00:58:24,920 Speaker 1: traded in for Mercedes, and I took out seven grand 1116 00:58:25,080 --> 00:58:28,400 Speaker 1: in cash from the bank and bought from a used 1117 00:58:28,440 --> 00:58:31,200 Speaker 1: car dealer Jack. I came back and I threw the 1118 00:58:31,240 --> 00:58:33,560 Speaker 1: bag of money in his face and I go, give 1119 00:58:33,600 --> 00:58:36,520 Speaker 1: me the keys to Decedes, and then he gave me 1120 00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:41,840 Speaker 1: the keys. It's pretty cool, It's pretty cool. Did you 1121 00:58:41,600 --> 00:58:45,240 Speaker 1: did you? Honestly? I felt and going to the bank 1122 00:58:45,760 --> 00:58:48,480 Speaker 1: to take out seven grand in cash though, just to 1123 00:58:48,600 --> 00:58:52,320 Speaker 1: trade in a truck, like it's so insane. And then 1124 00:58:52,360 --> 00:58:55,680 Speaker 1: I lost that car. I ended up losing, like I 1125 00:58:55,720 --> 00:58:57,640 Speaker 1: lost all my money and I ended up having to 1126 00:58:57,680 --> 00:59:00,720 Speaker 1: get that repot, you know, like was was was part 1127 00:59:00,760 --> 00:59:02,800 Speaker 1: of it for you though, Like did you want people 1128 00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:05,360 Speaker 1: obviously did you talk about how much money you paid 1129 00:59:05,400 --> 00:59:07,680 Speaker 1: for it in cash? Like it was it was a 1130 00:59:07,800 --> 00:59:10,040 Speaker 1: thing to get girls and guys to like you clearly, 1131 00:59:10,120 --> 00:59:12,720 Speaker 1: Like was it important to you to let people know 1132 00:59:12,760 --> 00:59:14,720 Speaker 1: how much it was? Did you leave the sticker on it? 1133 00:59:14,800 --> 00:59:18,200 Speaker 1: Like did you was already? The funniest part about it 1134 00:59:18,240 --> 00:59:20,680 Speaker 1: is once I drive it off the lot, the windows 1135 00:59:20,680 --> 00:59:25,480 Speaker 1: are tinted. There's a sad, scared little boy driving. I 1136 00:59:25,520 --> 00:59:27,840 Speaker 1: wouldn't even roll them down. I was too like like 1137 00:59:27,920 --> 00:59:30,200 Speaker 1: embarrassed of having like a because I didn't feel like 1138 00:59:30,240 --> 00:59:31,880 Speaker 1: I deserved it because I made all the money on 1139 00:59:31,880 --> 00:59:36,640 Speaker 1: one deal. So I'm driving this fifty dollar car that 1140 00:59:37,080 --> 00:59:41,440 Speaker 1: you four hundred thirty horsepower a mg. Meanwhile, like the 1141 00:59:41,480 --> 00:59:45,560 Speaker 1: windows are tinted to hide. Huh. This fits with you 1142 00:59:45,640 --> 00:59:50,480 Speaker 1: because like you were desperate for approval from like guys 1143 00:59:50,480 --> 00:59:52,760 Speaker 1: and girls back then, but you were also like scared 1144 00:59:52,800 --> 00:59:55,640 Speaker 1: to even have sex. So like you wanted to have 1145 00:59:55,720 --> 00:59:57,240 Speaker 1: girls want to have sex with you, but like you 1146 00:59:57,280 --> 01:00:00,920 Speaker 1: wouldn't even do it. So like it's almost like I 1147 01:00:01,000 --> 01:00:02,960 Speaker 1: felt like that what do you do with your money? 1148 01:00:03,240 --> 01:00:05,040 Speaker 1: That's what you do with your money, like I was 1149 01:00:05,120 --> 01:00:07,720 Speaker 1: like a very small scale of like you know an 1150 01:00:07,800 --> 01:00:11,200 Speaker 1: NBA player who doesn't make it but blows their first 1151 01:00:11,280 --> 01:00:14,840 Speaker 1: big check, but they bought fifty cool things that they 1152 01:00:14,920 --> 01:00:18,640 Speaker 1: just think that that's what I should do with my money. Like, yeah, 1153 01:00:18,680 --> 01:00:23,040 Speaker 1: we've all done those things before, where we like, what's 1154 01:00:23,040 --> 01:00:25,080 Speaker 1: the first time you got a big check? Do you 1155 01:00:25,080 --> 01:00:27,440 Speaker 1: remember what your first big check? Or you got all 1156 01:00:27,480 --> 01:00:31,320 Speaker 1: incremental until you got someone? Um No, I don't remember 1157 01:00:31,360 --> 01:00:34,560 Speaker 1: my first Like I think it was probably I remember 1158 01:00:34,600 --> 01:00:37,000 Speaker 1: telling my dad, like I was living at home with 1159 01:00:37,040 --> 01:00:40,000 Speaker 1: my parents and I got enough get like college gigs 1160 01:00:40,040 --> 01:00:42,760 Speaker 1: on my books that over two months period, I had 1161 01:00:42,800 --> 01:00:44,479 Speaker 1: no money and I was like, Dad, in two months, 1162 01:00:44,480 --> 01:00:46,680 Speaker 1: guess how much money I'm going to make? And I 1163 01:00:46,760 --> 01:00:50,040 Speaker 1: remember it being ten thousand dollars over two months, and 1164 01:00:50,360 --> 01:00:52,760 Speaker 1: you know it was like doing like eighteen college shows 1165 01:00:52,840 --> 01:00:55,120 Speaker 1: or something like that. But it was just to me 1166 01:00:55,200 --> 01:00:59,560 Speaker 1: that felt like I finally am going to be what 1167 01:00:59,720 --> 01:01:02,000 Speaker 1: did you go by when you got that nothing? Oh 1168 01:01:02,040 --> 01:01:04,520 Speaker 1: my god, you're kidding me that that's gonna go away. 1169 01:01:04,880 --> 01:01:08,000 Speaker 1: I gotta save it. I'm not good at that. I 1170 01:01:08,000 --> 01:01:12,200 Speaker 1: don't my first eight grand because and like the money 1171 01:01:12,400 --> 01:01:17,480 Speaker 1: is only especially the first eight grand that I got 1172 01:01:17,600 --> 01:01:21,560 Speaker 1: in real estate. I went to this club called Automatic 1173 01:01:21,600 --> 01:01:25,000 Speaker 1: Slims and Fort Larada with Rusty. I spent all my money. 1174 01:01:25,040 --> 01:01:28,280 Speaker 1: I bought bottles of champagne and I fell through the 1175 01:01:28,320 --> 01:01:33,240 Speaker 1: table with holding the waitress. She fell with me. I 1176 01:01:33,360 --> 01:01:35,680 Speaker 1: saved her by her landing on me. My back went 1177 01:01:35,720 --> 01:01:39,600 Speaker 1: through the glass table eight thousand dollars worth. The champagne broke, 1178 01:01:40,480 --> 01:01:42,320 Speaker 1: and then I woke up to a girl putting on 1179 01:01:42,360 --> 01:01:45,040 Speaker 1: a Hooters outfit, and I didn't help up with her, 1180 01:01:46,280 --> 01:01:49,920 Speaker 1: and then she wouldn't give me a right home. I 1181 01:01:49,960 --> 01:01:52,360 Speaker 1: was at her place, she was putting on a Hooters outfit. 1182 01:01:52,400 --> 01:01:54,200 Speaker 1: I go, hey, can you drive me back to downtown 1183 01:01:54,240 --> 01:01:56,760 Speaker 1: for LARAO. I woke up by forty minutes outside of 1184 01:01:56,760 --> 01:01:58,840 Speaker 1: for LARDA. I go, can you drive me back? She goes, 1185 01:01:58,880 --> 01:02:05,280 Speaker 1: I can't. I gotta getter uh inside internal Um, So 1186 01:02:05,440 --> 01:02:07,400 Speaker 1: I go, well drive me home? She goes, I can't, 1187 01:02:07,440 --> 01:02:09,760 Speaker 1: And then Rusty She's like, well you can't stay at 1188 01:02:09,760 --> 01:02:12,200 Speaker 1: my apartment either. It's like a hundred degrees out. I'm 1189 01:02:12,200 --> 01:02:15,040 Speaker 1: wearing a shirt that says you so crazy with a 1190 01:02:15,040 --> 01:02:22,880 Speaker 1: star date. Oh god, I'm walking in like it's like 1191 01:02:22,920 --> 01:02:25,200 Speaker 1: a hundred and thirty degrees in South Florida. Rusty comes 1192 01:02:25,200 --> 01:02:29,680 Speaker 1: and picks me up and like like eight grand gone, 1193 01:02:29,720 --> 01:02:31,840 Speaker 1: Like I know, I literally had less money than when 1194 01:02:31,880 --> 01:02:36,280 Speaker 1: I started the night, and uh, you know, but god, 1195 01:02:36,360 --> 01:02:39,160 Speaker 1: I kind of missed that guy. That guy is still 1196 01:02:39,240 --> 01:02:41,120 Speaker 1: in you. You still do stuff like that on a 1197 01:02:41,200 --> 01:02:46,560 Speaker 1: smaller scale, like getting into Celsia strengths, like getting a 1198 01:02:46,640 --> 01:02:50,360 Speaker 1: new golf shirt every day for some reason. I don't 1199 01:02:50,360 --> 01:02:52,800 Speaker 1: know how many golf shirts do you own at this point. 1200 01:02:53,480 --> 01:02:59,040 Speaker 1: It's the clubs is the problem. The shirts are the 1201 01:02:59,080 --> 01:03:03,520 Speaker 1: shirts on. Okay, the clubs are the problem. What's you've 1202 01:03:03,560 --> 01:03:09,280 Speaker 1: ever done? Okay? So for me, the thing that came 1203 01:03:09,320 --> 01:03:13,880 Speaker 1: to my mind was um earlier in my radio days 1204 01:03:13,920 --> 01:03:16,080 Speaker 1: and maybe like a little bit later into my radio days. 1205 01:03:16,200 --> 01:03:19,720 Speaker 1: Anytime there would be a celebrity coming to the studio, 1206 01:03:20,360 --> 01:03:22,200 Speaker 1: I would get a photo and then I would run 1207 01:03:22,240 --> 01:03:25,360 Speaker 1: to Facebook and post it just to like show off, 1208 01:03:25,480 --> 01:03:28,800 Speaker 1: like look at what I get to do and that 1209 01:03:29,000 --> 01:03:32,440 Speaker 1: you know, Like now, I just like cringe whenever I 1210 01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:34,520 Speaker 1: look at those posts, and I like, I just know 1211 01:03:34,600 --> 01:03:36,200 Speaker 1: that I did it just to show it off. It 1212 01:03:36,280 --> 01:03:38,919 Speaker 1: was not like any indication of like what my job 1213 01:03:39,000 --> 01:03:42,320 Speaker 1: is or anything like that. Although like now I just 1214 01:03:42,360 --> 01:03:44,520 Speaker 1: feel like I don't have to show off these things. 1215 01:03:44,520 --> 01:03:47,240 Speaker 1: Like if anyone is curious about what I do or 1216 01:03:47,280 --> 01:03:49,120 Speaker 1: what my history it is, they can just ask me 1217 01:03:49,160 --> 01:03:51,720 Speaker 1: and I'll talk about it. And those photos are just 1218 01:03:52,040 --> 01:03:55,400 Speaker 1: for me to bring those memories out, so like I 1219 01:03:55,440 --> 01:03:59,200 Speaker 1: don't know, like that it was for you to let 1220 01:03:59,200 --> 01:04:01,720 Speaker 1: people know that you were like crushing it and like 1221 01:04:01,840 --> 01:04:07,360 Speaker 1: that this were hob nobbing with celebrities, right and like 1222 01:04:07,440 --> 01:04:14,880 Speaker 1: all all all like wrestling and actors, musicians. I was 1223 01:04:14,920 --> 01:04:17,120 Speaker 1: just like I'm gonna show everybody, and you know, I 1224 01:04:17,240 --> 01:04:20,360 Speaker 1: claim about that no offense or what's about that is 1225 01:04:20,440 --> 01:04:24,200 Speaker 1: that you don't know them. They will never They don't 1226 01:04:24,200 --> 01:04:29,720 Speaker 1: remember you. They they's men. And I want to just say, 1227 01:04:29,720 --> 01:04:31,760 Speaker 1: if I take pictures with people at shows and they 1228 01:04:31,800 --> 01:04:34,000 Speaker 1: post them, you have every right to post that because 1229 01:04:34,000 --> 01:04:35,600 Speaker 1: we have an interaction. Even if you come up to 1230 01:04:35,600 --> 01:04:37,919 Speaker 1: me on the street, I will remember you. But like 1231 01:04:38,400 --> 01:04:42,000 Speaker 1: if someone is a radio producer that I'm doing a 1232 01:04:42,120 --> 01:04:44,160 Speaker 1: you know, a bunch of radio shows promote something, and 1233 01:04:44,200 --> 01:04:47,040 Speaker 1: the producer takes a picture and tries to put that 1234 01:04:47,120 --> 01:04:50,680 Speaker 1: on as Tinder, like we're friends and I think that 1235 01:04:50,680 --> 01:04:53,680 Speaker 1: that's like where and I can. And I think it's 1236 01:04:53,680 --> 01:04:55,840 Speaker 1: cool to post pictures with celebrities when you meet them, 1237 01:04:55,840 --> 01:04:57,880 Speaker 1: even if you don't have a good connection, Like sometimes 1238 01:04:57,880 --> 01:04:59,760 Speaker 1: it's like, oh my god, I'm with this person. I think. 1239 01:05:00,080 --> 01:05:02,919 Speaker 1: I don't think that's lame. I think it's lame when 1240 01:05:03,080 --> 01:05:05,680 Speaker 1: you try to make it seem like my life is 1241 01:05:05,720 --> 01:05:07,960 Speaker 1: just like these are my buds, Like I don't know, 1242 01:05:08,160 --> 01:05:12,120 Speaker 1: it's just like their first name. So it's the same post. 1243 01:05:12,160 --> 01:05:14,080 Speaker 1: It's like very quick, so you have to get it right, 1244 01:05:14,120 --> 01:05:17,120 Speaker 1: and it's just oh my god. You know what. I'm 1245 01:05:17,120 --> 01:05:20,480 Speaker 1: going to open tomorrow's show, which we're about to record 1246 01:05:20,600 --> 01:05:25,760 Speaker 1: after this, with a story of what I last night lived, 1247 01:05:26,520 --> 01:05:29,400 Speaker 1: one of what you just told, the story you just 1248 01:05:29,440 --> 01:05:34,800 Speaker 1: told the cursed thing of your life. I last night Andrew. 1249 01:05:35,200 --> 01:05:37,760 Speaker 1: What it would have been the curssed moment of Andrew's life. 1250 01:05:37,800 --> 01:05:39,640 Speaker 1: And he would have done the same thing that you 1251 01:05:39,680 --> 01:05:42,280 Speaker 1: would have done in my shoes last night if he 1252 01:05:42,320 --> 01:05:45,400 Speaker 1: would have been you know, back in this Andrew days 1253 01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:50,160 Speaker 1: of wearing uh hung out. I met one of your 1254 01:05:50,200 --> 01:05:56,840 Speaker 1: heroes for a moment. Tomorrow I read what are your Heroes? 1255 01:05:57,160 --> 01:05:59,640 Speaker 1: But only when I think around the time that you 1256 01:05:59,720 --> 01:06:02,280 Speaker 1: bought that stupid truck, it would have been a hero 1257 01:06:02,400 --> 01:06:04,360 Speaker 1: of that time. And I guess think you can think 1258 01:06:04,360 --> 01:06:07,520 Speaker 1: who it is. You know, you'll see on the next 1259 01:06:07,520 --> 01:06:13,000 Speaker 1: episode of the nick Lays podcast Tompika and Yeah Harlow 1260 01:06:13,160 --> 01:06:13,520 Speaker 1: Twitter