WEBVTT - The MAGA Hat in Bali 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.520 Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife. 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:06.440 She couldn't She cleaned and cared for her children and 0:00:06.480 --> 0:00:08.840 the man of the house, and of course she didn't 0:00:08.960 --> 0:00:12.240 talk back. She was both obedient and soft by nature. 0:00:12.360 --> 0:00:15.520 She was a good woman who always made good choices. 0:00:16.320 --> 0:00:18.759 Sit, we're good Mom's bad choices. 0:00:18.840 --> 0:00:21.520 Who single mom who said fuck the patriarchy, shared all 0:00:21.520 --> 0:00:22.640 their bad choices. 0:00:22.320 --> 0:00:23.600 And sound out they were so bad. 0:00:23.640 --> 0:00:26.880 After all, we're expert overshares and your new besties. Sit 0:00:27.000 --> 0:00:32.760 back and enjoy the ride. I can do it. Welcome 0:00:32.800 --> 0:00:35.720 back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and I'm Mila. 0:00:35.960 --> 0:00:40.120 Happy hump Day, bitches, Happy motherfucking hump Day. It is 0:00:40.200 --> 0:00:43.680 our last episode of the year. We made it, Nigga, 0:00:43.720 --> 0:00:45.040 We made it, Nigga, we made it. 0:00:47.520 --> 0:00:48.800 I don't know if that's the beat, but in my 0:00:48.800 --> 0:00:53.400 head it sounds so in the spirit of twenty twenty 0:00:53.440 --> 0:00:55.080 five being over. I don't know if you're watching our 0:00:55.080 --> 0:00:56.480 YouTube right now, but if you're not, I just want 0:00:56.480 --> 0:00:58.840 to encourage you to go check out are You Tube 0:00:58.960 --> 0:01:03.880 because we're wearing special outfits for today. Now. I this 0:01:04.000 --> 0:01:07.800 was spirit led, this was you for My outfit was 0:01:07.840 --> 0:01:08.640 spirit guided. 0:01:08.920 --> 0:01:11.840 I just let the universe you needed to do today. 0:01:11.920 --> 0:01:14.280 I just came. I brought I thought that I brought 0:01:14.640 --> 0:01:16.280 my sparkly pants, like I. 0:01:16.560 --> 0:01:18.880 Thankt her this morning. It's the New Year's episode. Should 0:01:18.880 --> 0:01:22.479 we were Sparkles. She was like, I guess it's gonna 0:01:22.480 --> 0:01:23.679 be a little bit early. I was like, well, at 0:01:23.720 --> 0:01:25.720 least speaking dress festive. She's like, I was like, we 0:01:25.720 --> 0:01:26.960 don't have to. She's like, well, you're not going to 0:01:27.040 --> 0:01:28.039 just were Sparkles without me. 0:01:28.200 --> 0:01:29.759 That's why I was like, she can, Yeah exactly. 0:01:29.760 --> 0:01:35.160 I was like, okay, and so I wore this show. 0:01:35.400 --> 0:01:37.560 Show you off a baby, get up, come on, show 0:01:37.680 --> 0:01:40.600 showed off, showed off, yes, yes, uh showed the front 0:01:40.920 --> 0:01:45.480 this lick, get this lip yep. Yes, it's Sparkles, it's glitters. 0:01:45.520 --> 0:01:49.920 It's giving disco, Barbie, Barbie and Abisa. 0:01:50.120 --> 0:01:55.120 Why I own this? Who knows? But the point is 0:01:55.520 --> 0:01:56.640 I pulled this baby. 0:01:57.600 --> 0:02:01.120 We need we need a shoe cam. Shoe cam. Yeah. 0:02:01.320 --> 0:02:03.760 This is for our foot fetish lovers. Where I'm joining 0:02:03.760 --> 0:02:05.400 only feet in twenty twenty six, is there all a 0:02:05.440 --> 0:02:08.120 public service announcement? I'm joining only feet? 0:02:08.200 --> 0:02:09.200 Is there an only feet? 0:02:09.240 --> 0:02:09.480 Yeah? 0:02:09.880 --> 0:02:11.720 And I'm joining me too. 0:02:12.000 --> 0:02:15.079 The people have spoken. I did a poll on Instagram 0:02:15.160 --> 0:02:19.520 and ninety eight percent whatever two percent said no, fuck y'all, 0:02:19.800 --> 0:02:22.680 but ninety eight percent said yes, and there were like 0:02:22.680 --> 0:02:27.360 thirty people that voted, including my mother. My mother has 0:02:27.400 --> 0:02:31.160 approved my foot journey, and so because she has approved, 0:02:31.280 --> 0:02:34.680 I can move forward now without shame. Rancelova, thank you 0:02:34.720 --> 0:02:37.480 for your support and my only foot page. You're crazy 0:02:37.720 --> 0:02:38.280 hit the Lincoln. 0:02:38.320 --> 0:02:39.359 His description. 0:02:40.400 --> 0:02:44.920 Anyway, I forgot my pants on the bed, including I 0:02:44.919 --> 0:02:47.079 had sparkly earrings as well. I was like, I had 0:02:47.120 --> 0:02:50.360 my like basic shirt and I had like my sparkly pants. Anyway, 0:02:50.360 --> 0:02:53.240 I get here and I have nothing, no earring, no 0:02:53.360 --> 0:02:58.000 fucking sparkly pant, just yellow polka dot parachute. 0:02:57.560 --> 0:02:58.840 Pants and I'm wearing this. 0:02:59.280 --> 0:03:02.040 Yeah. So I was like, I thought I looked in 0:03:02.120 --> 0:03:03.560 the closets. I say, I feel like there's a piece 0:03:03.600 --> 0:03:06.320 of fabric here. There's gotta be fabric. I don't know why. 0:03:06.440 --> 0:03:07.440 I knew that there was. 0:03:07.680 --> 0:03:10.160 Because I bought that, but I thought that it was left. 0:03:10.320 --> 0:03:13.760 I don't know why. I feel like there's sparkling. And 0:03:13.800 --> 0:03:15.799 then she gets here and I'm like, is there fabric here? 0:03:15.840 --> 0:03:19.600 And she's like, actually, she pulls this black, long piece 0:03:19.639 --> 0:03:22.519 of fabric and I decided to wrap it around my body. 0:03:22.600 --> 0:03:25.360 Let me give let me give you a little at OTD. 0:03:25.800 --> 0:03:30.000 This is custom custom gtur Okay. 0:03:30.880 --> 0:03:35.200 She's wrapped it around several times to create layers and 0:03:35.800 --> 0:03:39.720 body Yadayadi layers and texture split that custom created. 0:03:41.080 --> 0:03:46.760 A layers dresses cotour bi Erica. You know, I'm just 0:03:46.800 --> 0:03:48.920 here to prove that you can do anything. You can 0:03:48.960 --> 0:03:51.320 do anything at any point in your life. Just start. 0:03:51.880 --> 0:03:55.520 You can. But when I put it on, I looked 0:03:55.560 --> 0:03:58.440 in the mirror. The first thing I thought was, Oh, 0:03:58.440 --> 0:04:01.800 this is perfect because this is the funeral for twenty 0:04:01.840 --> 0:04:04.640 twenty five. This is like the funeral and you're like 0:04:05.160 --> 0:04:07.720 ushering us into twenty twenty six in Sparkle fashion. 0:04:07.800 --> 0:04:09.839 You're the twenty twenty five and I'm twenty twenty six. 0:04:09.960 --> 0:04:12.000 Yes we are. This is the birth. This is the 0:04:12.000 --> 0:04:15.680 birth and the death life cycles. Yes, you can't have 0:04:15.680 --> 0:04:17.680 the dock without the light, the light without the dock. 0:04:18.120 --> 0:04:19.920 So yeah, if you're wondering if buy our outfits are 0:04:19.960 --> 0:04:22.599 totally matching, that's why, because we're representing two sides of 0:04:22.640 --> 0:04:26.039 the coin. Yes, we're having a funeral for twenty twenty five. 0:04:26.760 --> 0:04:29.080 I think that a lot of people can attest that 0:04:29.120 --> 0:04:31.520 this year has been a bit challenging in different ways. 0:04:32.440 --> 0:04:35.560 If it hasn't, thank thank God for you. But for me, 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:39.080 it's been a bit. I feel like I've been walking 0:04:39.080 --> 0:04:42.000 through a lot of I feel like I'm on the edge, 0:04:42.040 --> 0:04:43.839 Like I've been walking up this mountain and I'm like 0:04:43.880 --> 0:04:45.920 scared to like jump on to the other side, and 0:04:45.960 --> 0:04:50.040 so instead I'm just like wallowing in the lack of surrender. 0:04:50.080 --> 0:04:52.520 And so I'm I'm ready. This is my funeral to 0:04:54.600 --> 0:04:58.280 resisting surrender. So it feels good because your feels to 0:04:58.480 --> 0:04:59.320 resisting surrender. 0:04:59.520 --> 0:05:03.120 Yeah. Yeah, I guess twenty twenty five it went by. 0:05:03.360 --> 0:05:04.640 I think we say this every year, but all the 0:05:04.680 --> 0:05:08.040 years go by fast. I was just twenty twenty four 0:05:08.080 --> 0:05:10.720 and now it's twenty twenty six and I'm just somewhere 0:05:10.720 --> 0:05:12.320 trying to catch up again. But I feel like it 0:05:12.360 --> 0:05:18.440 was a pretty outside of the obvious America dying quickly 0:05:18.600 --> 0:05:22.600 not slowly. It's been decent, but I guess it's pretty 0:05:22.600 --> 0:05:24.479 hard to have a decent year when everything around you 0:05:24.640 --> 0:05:29.240 is burning like humanity. And I think I think it 0:05:29.400 --> 0:05:32.719 my year has been I have so many things to 0:05:32.760 --> 0:05:35.159 be grateful for. And I think this year showed me 0:05:35.240 --> 0:05:39.960 how important it is to observe and protect what like 0:05:40.000 --> 0:05:42.839 your piece overall and how you allow it to impact you. 0:05:43.000 --> 0:05:45.960 So like I realized this year how much social media 0:05:45.960 --> 0:05:50.000 impacts me, Like I noticed the shifts in like my 0:05:50.160 --> 0:05:55.360 happiness even like when I am looking at that more 0:05:55.400 --> 0:05:57.200 and more and more, so like you could be living 0:05:57.240 --> 0:05:58.880 like the best life ever, but then you can feel 0:05:58.920 --> 0:06:01.440 like in fear things you don't even know where it 0:06:01.480 --> 0:06:02.040 comes from. 0:06:02.120 --> 0:06:04.640 So some of the fear that I feel like I'm 0:06:04.720 --> 0:06:06.440 ready to let go as the fear that's not even 0:06:06.480 --> 0:06:08.640 my own, because there's a lot of fear that's not 0:06:08.680 --> 0:06:10.960 even my own that's being like projected onto me and 0:06:11.000 --> 0:06:13.480 then I'm applying it to my life when I didn't. 0:06:13.520 --> 0:06:16.800 That wasn't even like crystallized in my body or by me. 0:06:16.880 --> 0:06:19.839 It was by something else or something I observed. 0:06:21.600 --> 0:06:24.840 I mean definitely, when I think about there is times 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:28.720 in this year, like things that happen politically or you know, 0:06:28.760 --> 0:06:31.080 like on a world scale, and I was like, are 0:06:31.080 --> 0:06:33.320 we gonna make it like the beginning last year, I 0:06:33.360 --> 0:06:35.560 was like, we have to leave the country next week, 0:06:35.680 --> 0:06:38.960 or we're gonna all die and I was serious, and 0:06:39.000 --> 0:06:41.040 the fear was literally living in my body. And then 0:06:41.040 --> 0:06:42.960 like every month, I'm like, oh, we're not dead yet. 0:06:43.000 --> 0:06:45.000 We're not dead yet. And now we're here, We're not 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:47.560 dead yet. It's still miserable and crazy, but it is. 0:06:47.760 --> 0:06:50.479 There is a level of fear and sadness. I realized 0:06:50.480 --> 0:06:52.920 there's like a lot of sadness on the Internet, and 0:06:53.400 --> 0:06:56.320 although some of it's informative, it's also like you really 0:06:56.320 --> 0:06:58.120 have to pick and choose, and I think it's difficult 0:06:58.160 --> 0:06:59.960 to do that, to filter it out because it's like 0:07:00.240 --> 0:07:04.039 there's this weird like balance between I'm grateful I have 0:07:04.160 --> 0:07:05.920 this thing and this thing and I have a roof 0:07:05.920 --> 0:07:07.200 over my head and fit on the table, And then 0:07:07.240 --> 0:07:09.320 it's like, well, how can I exist here when people 0:07:09.320 --> 0:07:12.120 are literally being starved to death and being bombed and 0:07:12.200 --> 0:07:14.440 dying for absolutely no reason, Like you feel like you're 0:07:14.440 --> 0:07:15.840 supposed to do something but you don't know what to do. 0:07:15.960 --> 0:07:17.640 But then you're like living in your regular life day 0:07:17.680 --> 0:07:19.520 to day and crying about shit that doesn't matter and 0:07:19.600 --> 0:07:22.720 meaning people can't even eat, so it's like you're constantly 0:07:22.720 --> 0:07:25.160 in a state of like confusion. 0:07:25.360 --> 0:07:27.320 Yeah, and then also as you're saying this, I'm thinking 0:07:27.360 --> 0:07:31.400 about like how those particular situations then also make you 0:07:31.480 --> 0:07:34.360 question your relationships with people. And so that's a whole 0:07:34.360 --> 0:07:36.960 other layer that's happening in the background of your psyche 0:07:37.280 --> 0:07:40.440 of like that feeling unsafe as well, like feeling like 0:07:40.520 --> 0:07:42.280 can I trust you? Like do I fuck with you? 0:07:42.320 --> 0:07:44.200 Like if something went down to so now you're looking 0:07:44.240 --> 0:07:47.640 at Jackie different when Jackie was just your homegirl last 0:07:47.720 --> 0:07:50.160 year and y'all were picnicking with kids, you know. 0:07:50.280 --> 0:07:52.720 So it's like, because there's a level of surfaceness that 0:07:52.760 --> 0:07:57.720 I feel like Americans have had, like the privilege of bypassing. 0:07:57.800 --> 0:08:00.320 Like there's a level of depth that Americans have had 0:08:00.320 --> 0:08:02.520 the level of bypassing because we pretend to be in 0:08:02.520 --> 0:08:04.960 this little bubble and like don't acknowledge the fucked up 0:08:04.960 --> 0:08:07.320 shit that America does. And so when it comes to 0:08:07.360 --> 0:08:09.600 the forefront and people are not on the same page 0:08:09.600 --> 0:08:12.680 as you, you're like, oh, you don't care about people, Wow, 0:08:12.800 --> 0:08:15.200 I don't care about like humanity. If they don't, they're not, like, 0:08:15.240 --> 0:08:17.160 look like you don't share the same religious beliefs as you. 0:08:17.240 --> 0:08:19.560 That's interesting, And then it makes you like shift, like 0:08:19.600 --> 0:08:21.200 did I ever know you? Who the fuck are you? 0:08:21.640 --> 0:08:24.880 Why are we friends? Right? Yeah? 0:08:24.960 --> 0:08:29.280 So anyway, I've just yeah that that piece I'm really 0:08:29.680 --> 0:08:31.760 I want to let go in twenty twenty six because 0:08:31.840 --> 0:08:35.360 that's going to continue just by design. That's an agenda 0:08:35.360 --> 0:08:37.760 they're pushing anyway, but I don't have to participate in it. 0:08:38.000 --> 0:08:39.840 Well, that's what I realized too, is that it's an 0:08:39.840 --> 0:08:43.400 agenda like the shifting of feelings. And you know, recently, 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:46.600 I guess, I don't know, we talked about this. Uh 0:08:46.679 --> 0:08:51.160 what's the fucking fuck fuck uh Tesla guy Uh yeah, 0:08:51.200 --> 0:08:55.320 Elon Musk he mistake like he added locations to Twitter. 0:08:55.679 --> 0:08:57.480 I saw that like a fucking fuck tart. 0:08:57.600 --> 0:09:00.000 And then like come to find out all of these 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:05.240 like like all these MAGA accounts were like in somewhere 0:09:05.240 --> 0:09:07.640 in like Russia or like all it was like basically 0:09:07.840 --> 0:09:12.240 robot accounts. And it goes to show how intentional the 0:09:12.280 --> 0:09:15.079 manipulation of our feelings is. And I was also seeing 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:17.320 something and that we're saying like like obviously like love 0:09:17.440 --> 0:09:20.520 is the highest frequency, but like the lowest frequency is 0:09:20.600 --> 0:09:23.840 like sadness and anger, And if they can manipulate masses 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:27.440 through this fucking tiny box to be angry, to be sad. 0:09:28.000 --> 0:09:31.720 Then they have they have full total control without having to, 0:09:31.840 --> 0:09:34.440 Like they already controlled food, They're already controlling our minds, 0:09:34.480 --> 0:09:36.880 so like then they can just control the narrative. And 0:09:36.920 --> 0:09:40.600 it made me think about Bali when we were in 0:09:40.640 --> 0:09:43.440 the pool we ran in. We were in Bali, a 0:09:43.559 --> 0:09:47.840 thousand million miles from America, and you know, we're having 0:09:47.880 --> 0:09:50.080 a good time, and this fucking woman is there wearing 0:09:50.120 --> 0:09:53.000 a fucking Maga hat and I was like, immediately I 0:09:53.000 --> 0:09:54.360 saw the red hat and I was like, this can't 0:09:54.400 --> 0:09:57.520 possibly be what I think it is. In Bali and 0:09:57.559 --> 0:10:00.680 this fucking ugly hideous had came. 0:10:00.559 --> 0:10:02.480 To fuck with us, had way over she came to 0:10:02.480 --> 0:10:04.200 fuck with us because I had seen her earlier and 0:10:04.240 --> 0:10:05.200 I stared her the fun. 0:10:05.400 --> 0:10:09.120 Had way too much face lifts. It just wasn't looking good. 0:10:09.160 --> 0:10:10.960 She came to swim right in front of us, just 0:10:10.960 --> 0:10:11.520 flowed around. 0:10:11.640 --> 0:10:15.040 Yeah, we're a group of fourteen black women, so why 0:10:15.080 --> 0:10:17.440 the fuck would you swim your white ass in that 0:10:17.480 --> 0:10:22.000 fucking red hat over here? And it immediately, like it 0:10:22.040 --> 0:10:25.120 really pissed me off. And as much as I was 0:10:25.120 --> 0:10:28.000 trying to ignore it, I started to recognize, like how 0:10:28.080 --> 0:10:32.040 much power that hat had over me, because me and Erica. 0:10:31.800 --> 0:10:38.400 Definitely questioned her, interrogated her, and then I might. 0:10:38.280 --> 0:10:41.440 Have splashed a few splashes she did, pretending like I 0:10:41.480 --> 0:10:43.520 was stretching. Oh oops. 0:10:43.720 --> 0:10:46.520 I interrogated her first with a shout out to Nicole 0:10:47.679 --> 0:10:51.240 from the retree for saving she made me. She was like, 0:10:51.360 --> 0:10:53.439 let's go have a great day, ma'am. She like cut 0:10:53.480 --> 0:10:55.800 the conversation because she could see where I was going 0:10:55.840 --> 0:10:56.600 with it, I. 0:10:56.520 --> 0:10:57.640 Mean, and Eric trying to get in a fight. 0:10:57.679 --> 0:10:58.959 And so then I told me. I was like, I 0:10:59.000 --> 0:11:01.000 went over there, and she's like you, what did you say? 0:11:01.040 --> 0:11:02.959 And I was like, Nicole made me cut, like made 0:11:02.960 --> 0:11:05.160 me feel like I needed to like leave. She's like, 0:11:05.160 --> 0:11:09.120 fuck that, let's go back. We swim back over to 0:11:09.160 --> 0:11:09.679 the bar. 0:11:12.640 --> 0:11:13.040 Children. 0:11:13.080 --> 0:11:14.560 The thought of it is, actually. 0:11:16.280 --> 0:11:20.000 We're leading a retreat. We said, we're at a pool, 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:23.720 We're at a pool lounge party. Let's go, let's go 0:11:23.800 --> 0:11:25.360 pick a bone with this bitch that we don't know. 0:11:26.200 --> 0:11:28.880 So we swam back over like fucking black mermaids. But 0:11:28.920 --> 0:11:30.920 didn't she tell you that she was like married to 0:11:30.920 --> 0:11:31.679 an American or. 0:11:33.160 --> 0:11:34.760 She said she's married to an American and she just 0:11:35.280 --> 0:11:38.599 she's about common sense. She believes in common. 0:11:38.360 --> 0:11:40.000 Sense, That's what she said. And then I said, let's 0:11:40.000 --> 0:11:42.760 swim back over there. I said, common sense, huh, she believes. 0:11:42.920 --> 0:11:46.160 Let's as like we I initiated, let's go back. Let's 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:48.760 I think I need to go back over there. And 0:11:48.800 --> 0:11:51.360 then I just decided to just be like, I'm so 0:11:51.440 --> 0:11:53.600 happy we're black and we never have to get like 0:11:53.720 --> 0:11:56.920 have to have the embarrassment of having a terrible facelift 0:11:56.960 --> 0:11:58.959 and just like hiding from the sun and looking hideous. 0:11:59.040 --> 0:12:02.280 I'm so croud to be black and beautiful and young 0:12:02.880 --> 0:12:05.160 and wow, God, that's and you know what I just 0:12:05.200 --> 0:12:07.360 I at that very moment, I decided that I was 0:12:07.360 --> 0:12:08.520 going to be a Karen and I was just going 0:12:08.559 --> 0:12:10.280 to say everything I wanted to say without looking at her, 0:12:10.320 --> 0:12:11.839 and then she could just hear me. And I was like, 0:12:11.880 --> 0:12:15.400 I'm so sick of ignorant, ugly hate to be themselves, 0:12:15.400 --> 0:12:18.920 white people spreading hate and Melissa, I was just going 0:12:18.960 --> 0:12:20.560 on and she was right there. 0:12:20.840 --> 0:12:22.480 She know she heard you. She eventually left. 0:12:22.559 --> 0:12:24.320 She kept looking at me, and then I said, you. 0:12:24.320 --> 0:12:26.760 Guys actually talk. No, Yeah, she eventually just left. 0:12:26.920 --> 0:12:29.880 Good. I kept going I know she did slashed. She 0:12:29.920 --> 0:12:33.000 came for her that her alcohol choices. I think she 0:12:33.040 --> 0:12:35.280 was like drinking bottom chelf. I was like, I'm so 0:12:35.320 --> 0:12:36.719 happy we won't have to be kind of four top 0:12:36.760 --> 0:12:40.720 shelf liquor. That's disgusting, especially at that big age. 0:12:40.800 --> 0:12:43.920 I was just maybe I was drunk, you were drunk. 0:12:43.960 --> 0:12:46.839 We were all drunk. We had had lots of shots 0:12:46.840 --> 0:12:47.240 at that point. 0:12:47.280 --> 0:12:51.280 And I was like stretching and like splashing, and then 0:12:51.320 --> 0:12:54.439 she finally left. But then I realized, Wow, she really 0:12:54.520 --> 0:12:56.360 made me angry. And I don't even know this bitch, 0:12:56.360 --> 0:12:59.040 and I probably didn't have to go that far. And 0:13:00.040 --> 0:13:02.880 but it's just again back to the point here, other 0:13:02.920 --> 0:13:05.280 than us harassing this woman in the maga hat in 0:13:05.400 --> 0:13:07.760 motherfucking Bali, because why are you wearing it? You know 0:13:07.760 --> 0:13:09.480 what it means? Well, she knew it. 0:13:09.760 --> 0:13:10.640 It's not American at all. 0:13:10.760 --> 0:13:12.080 Yeah, like, why are you even wearing it? But I 0:13:12.160 --> 0:13:18.040 realize how much power we give like others, especially black people, 0:13:18.040 --> 0:13:20.240 Like I could go down the black people loophole. All 0:13:20.280 --> 0:13:24.160 my my feed is about black power and also black history, 0:13:24.240 --> 0:13:28.000 which obviously in America is sad and makes me angry. 0:13:28.040 --> 0:13:30.120 But then it's like, what are you consuming? Because there's 0:13:30.160 --> 0:13:31.680 a lot of black joy too, there's a lot of 0:13:31.679 --> 0:13:33.959 black love. There's a lot of beautiful things, and it's 0:13:34.000 --> 0:13:36.760 like if you go down the route of sadness, you 0:13:36.800 --> 0:13:38.319 will find yourself there. 0:13:38.760 --> 0:13:42.560 Yeah, no, it's true, It's very true. I even I 0:13:42.600 --> 0:13:44.600 have this app on my phone. It's called be Present 0:13:44.840 --> 0:13:47.840 And this is not an ad. I'm paying for this app, 0:13:48.160 --> 0:13:50.439 and it literally I know you can kind of get 0:13:50.440 --> 0:13:52.760 on Locke. I think is it unlocked. It'll kick you 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:55.840 out maybe with your phone, and there's settings on your 0:13:55.840 --> 0:13:59.160 phone to like guard your intake of how much time 0:13:59.200 --> 0:14:02.360 you're on social media. This app makes it really. 0:14:02.040 --> 0:14:05.240 Hard, like really hard to get back in, to get 0:14:05.280 --> 0:14:06.000 back in, like. 0:14:05.920 --> 0:14:09.360 You really got to try, you'll and it'll like, like 0:14:09.640 --> 0:14:12.120 my social media this this is actually annoying and actually 0:14:12.120 --> 0:14:14.679 need to change it right but right now it only 0:14:14.720 --> 0:14:16.720 allows me to be on Instagram five minutes at a time, 0:14:17.240 --> 0:14:19.560 and so sometimes when I'm making a real I'm like, bitch, 0:14:20.000 --> 0:14:23.440 but it shows me how I have it ready to go. No, 0:14:23.480 --> 0:14:25.440 but but I I really do, I will. I really 0:14:25.960 --> 0:14:28.560 I think that we have to kind of be a 0:14:28.560 --> 0:14:31.280 bit vigilant in that way. I don't think there's really 0:14:31.320 --> 0:14:34.680 a way at this point that you can really totally 0:14:34.720 --> 0:14:37.160 protect yourself on social media and what you intake, because 0:14:37.600 --> 0:14:40.520 like even with Instagram, like they are half of my feed, 0:14:40.560 --> 0:14:42.680 isn't even my feed. I have to select my feed, 0:14:43.080 --> 0:14:45.320 like I have to say, like only show me my following, 0:14:45.560 --> 0:14:46.200 my followers. 0:14:46.200 --> 0:14:47.720 Oh, is that they're a setting for that is sometime 0:14:48.040 --> 0:14:49.240 who the fuck are these people? 0:14:49.320 --> 0:14:49.520 Yeah? 0:14:49.880 --> 0:14:51.920 Sing for that and I realized I'm nosy, So so 0:14:52.240 --> 0:14:54.600 I start the I start the first ten seconds, but you. 0:14:54.520 --> 0:14:56.080 Have to go every time you open the app, you 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:58.160 have to select that. Oh it's not like a setting. 0:14:58.200 --> 0:15:00.880 You can just at least not to But that's also 0:15:00.920 --> 0:15:04.400 intentional exactly because we have Instagram's the Devil also which 0:15:04.560 --> 0:15:06.760 like I mean not also like for sure yeah the 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:10.400 Devil Instagram Yeah meta essentially meta. 0:15:10.480 --> 0:15:10.960 Yeah. 0:15:11.120 --> 0:15:16.920 So anyway, that that I'm going to keep and this 0:15:17.080 --> 0:15:19.680 energy in twenty twenty six because it's actually been helping, 0:15:19.760 --> 0:15:22.040 and because I don't really feel like you can really 0:15:22.080 --> 0:15:25.560 safeguard the Internet, like if I'm committed to like not, 0:15:26.040 --> 0:15:28.520 I know that I'm I'm too sensitive. I can't look 0:15:28.600 --> 0:15:32.600 at I cannot scroll, nor do I want to numb 0:15:32.640 --> 0:15:35.840 myself to be able to scroll between a dying child 0:15:35.840 --> 0:15:40.480 in Gaza and a fucking like Chris Corsini's sending the 0:15:40.520 --> 0:15:43.520 showing sharing my scorpio horoscope for the months. 0:15:43.640 --> 0:15:47.760 That's also probably a big, a big like agenda is that, 0:15:47.920 --> 0:15:51.560 of course, it's the numbing of absolutely we've been We've 0:15:51.600 --> 0:15:53.720 been being numbed for years at this point. But I'm 0:15:53.800 --> 0:15:56.040 I'm I'm just like really, I'm opting out. I don't 0:15:56.080 --> 0:15:57.960 want to be part of it anymore. So I realized 0:15:58.000 --> 0:15:59.640 how much it can I could just like go, go go, 0:15:59.720 --> 0:16:01.240 and then suddenly I'm like, bit, what the fuck have 0:16:01.280 --> 0:16:01.880 we even done doing? 0:16:01.960 --> 0:16:03.920 Even holding your breath for five minutes not even realizing 0:16:03.920 --> 0:16:07.040 it doesn't Yeah, why am I anxious? 0:16:07.880 --> 0:16:11.320 So yeah, that's also a funeral to that as well. 0:16:11.440 --> 0:16:17.360 So we're releasing instagram Ish in twenty twenty six. Maybe 0:16:17.400 --> 0:16:23.000 we should do a toast. Okay, yes, it's only eleven am, 0:16:23.120 --> 0:16:25.720 but they didn't have sparkling apple ciders, so here we 0:16:25.760 --> 0:16:29.200 are should be open one at a time. Maybe drink 0:16:29.240 --> 0:16:30.240 open that one. Okaykay? 0:16:30.960 --> 0:16:32.920 What are you guys releasing in twenty twenty six, So 0:16:32.960 --> 0:16:34.880 let us know in the comments if you're on our 0:16:34.880 --> 0:16:38.800 YouTube channel or if you're in our discord, let's talk 0:16:38.840 --> 0:16:41.280 about it because I want to know, because I need inspirations. 0:16:41.280 --> 0:16:44.080 Sometimes you need to hear other people's releases. I'm like, yeah, 0:16:44.160 --> 0:16:46.760 that's and that too. Let me add that one and 0:16:46.920 --> 0:16:52.480 m because yeah, it feels like what twenty twenty five 0:16:52.560 --> 0:16:54.840 is also revealed to me and probably my age too, 0:16:54.920 --> 0:16:57.240 as I'm getting older and my daughter's getting older. Is 0:16:57.320 --> 0:16:59.680 just like like we're in the middle of part of 0:16:59.680 --> 0:17:02.000 our life. If we're lucky, like God forbid anything happened 0:17:02.000 --> 0:17:03.520 to us. We're in the middle part of our life. 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:06.360 But like we're starting to see how precious life is 0:17:06.600 --> 0:17:09.119 and how quick it goes, and like I want to 0:17:09.160 --> 0:17:12.760 fucking I want to like make sure that I'm doing 0:17:12.960 --> 0:17:15.399 all the shit that I want to do with the 0:17:15.440 --> 0:17:18.199 things that I've acquired. Like we've worked really hard to 0:17:18.240 --> 0:17:22.920 be able to like live a life of live a life, 0:17:23.119 --> 0:17:26.320 sharing our stories, living a live a life storytelling, live 0:17:26.359 --> 0:17:29.320 a life where we can be virtual in some capacity 0:17:29.359 --> 0:17:31.560 if we want to. You know, we have the option. 0:17:31.840 --> 0:17:35.720 We have we have flexibility, Like we get to try, 0:17:35.800 --> 0:17:41.080 like am I fully capitalizing on all the manifestations that 0:17:41.119 --> 0:17:43.919 I asked for? Like am I am I enjoying the 0:17:43.960 --> 0:17:47.920 fruits of them, or am I just like continuously trying 0:17:47.920 --> 0:17:50.840 to create more of the fruits. And I do think 0:17:50.840 --> 0:17:53.760 that I enjoy them, but I want to go even harder. 0:17:54.240 --> 0:17:57.560 No, I realize that I don't know if it's human 0:17:57.640 --> 0:18:01.199 nature or capitalism, but there's a level of like more 0:18:01.200 --> 0:18:04.160 and more and more and more, more and more anxiousness 0:18:04.200 --> 0:18:08.480 and like, uh, just consumerism more like buy more, spend more. 0:18:08.920 --> 0:18:12.280 And you know, you always read those like memes or whatever, 0:18:12.440 --> 0:18:14.520 like people in their old age when they ask them 0:18:14.520 --> 0:18:16.720 like if you could tell your younger self anything, what 0:18:16.760 --> 0:18:17.199 would it be? 0:18:17.440 --> 0:18:17.840 Everything? 0:18:17.880 --> 0:18:20.040 And everyone's like, don't worry so much. 0:18:20.200 --> 0:18:21.160 Don't worry every. 0:18:20.960 --> 0:18:22.640 Single once, Like, don't worry so much. Do the things 0:18:22.680 --> 0:18:25.440 that make you scared live more. And my biggest fear 0:18:25.440 --> 0:18:27.639 and I realized, like I don't ever want to like 0:18:27.760 --> 0:18:31.280 be sitting at death's fucking doorstep and be like, oh 0:18:31.320 --> 0:18:33.199 my god, Like even the things that I did that 0:18:33.240 --> 0:18:35.280 I enjoyed, I wasn't fully in them because I was 0:18:35.280 --> 0:18:37.439 worried about something else, you know what I mean? Like 0:18:37.480 --> 0:18:40.040 what if like you have this a beautiful life and 0:18:40.080 --> 0:18:42.879 you've had like we've we've just created a bunch of 0:18:42.920 --> 0:18:44.600 shit and then a bunch of shit that we've like 0:18:45.080 --> 0:18:47.520