Speaker 1: The Nicky Glizer podcastser Nikki, Hello here, I am welcome
Speaker 1: to the show. It's Nicky Glazer Podcast. We are pre
Speaker 1: recording these episodes. So we were at the super Bowl
Speaker 1: last weekend. But and it was great.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, it was amazing, man, right and experience.
Speaker 3: Remember when the ball went in the stands and you
Speaker 3: caught it.
Speaker 2: I caught it with one hand.
Speaker 3: Does that ever happen? Does it ever go into.
Speaker 2: The I guess if you're sitting in the end zone
Speaker 2: and they kick it over the field goal net, or
Speaker 2: sometimes the dopey guys don't lift the fueld goal net
Speaker 2: quick enough and it's going up and going up, and
Speaker 2: then the ball goes through and over before keep it.
Speaker 2: You get to keep it. And then on rare occasions,
Speaker 2: guy will score a touchdown, he'll throw the ball in
Speaker 2: the stands and I think they get fined for that.
Speaker 2: But passion take over.
Speaker 1: I love when those I see those clips of like
Speaker 1: bron or something giving his shoes to a fan. But
Speaker 1: they always take out the inserts first because those things
Speaker 1: are like that custom made, an expensive.
Speaker 3: I asked Chris, I'm like, that's so nice.
Speaker 1: They do that because they don't want him to like
Speaker 1: smell and he's like, no, it's because they're custom inserts.
Speaker 2: There's this commercial, it was a Mahomes commercial. Every commercial
Speaker 2: these days is Travis Kelcey. Those are the three on
Speaker 2: which they did win the Super Bowl last year, So
Speaker 2: that's fair. It's just very convenient that they're in the
Speaker 2: super Bowl again because all the commercials they made last
Speaker 2: year apply.
Speaker 1: Oh so you're saying it could be an inside job.
Speaker 3: Why wouldn't it be.
Speaker 1: Why wouldn't the NFL have it in their best interest
Speaker 1: to get the Chiefs all the way when they have
Speaker 1: made three hundred and sixty million dollars off of Taylor
Speaker 1: Swift being at their shows. Why would not they want
Speaker 1: the Chiefs to then make it all the way? I mean,
Speaker 1: how would you even fix a game?
Speaker 2: Though? I didn't realize that this was a Tucker Carlson episode,
Speaker 2: because yeah, this is the thing conspiracy, the conspiracy theory.
Speaker 1: Well, I don't think it has to do with Biden, although,
Speaker 1: but I just think it has to do with the Well,
Speaker 1: I guess the NFL is probably tight end too.
Speaker 4: I want to just piggyback on Nikki's question to Brian
Speaker 4: because from what I heard and this is even like
Speaker 4: before this whole movement. I have a friend who's skeptical
Speaker 4: about it, and he told me that wrestling and football
Speaker 4: are designated as sports entertainment, which is why the outcomes
Speaker 4: can be I don't want to.
Speaker 2: Say, hear that about football. I know that about wrestling, but.
Speaker 4: Like WWE wrestling like yeah, yeah, yeah, not like yeah,
Speaker 4: we all know that.
Speaker 1: Is like kind of predetermined and and a theatrical performance.
Speaker 1: At this point, I feel like we know that, but yeah,
Speaker 1: that's interesting that football is under that it would be
Speaker 1: so hard to pull off. That's why I'm like, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's what I think too, Like how would it even
Speaker 1: be fixed?
Speaker 2: Like fix? But let's just be clear to the besties
Speaker 2: out there who are listening to this basically in like
Speaker 2: April of twenty twenty five, that this is we're talking
Speaker 2: about the Super Bowl that happened like six weeks ago,
Speaker 2: but it was last week.
Speaker 3: I think is the we have not gone to it pretaping.
Speaker 1: These episodes because how it happened. I am traveling to
Speaker 1: Australia right now.
Speaker 2: It was a tight game. Also, by the way, the
Speaker 2: Niners and the Chiefs who played in the Super Bowl
Speaker 2: last week, did you know that the Niners and the
Speaker 2: Chiefs played in the Super Bowl three years ago and
Speaker 2: the Chiefs won. Oh no, So the fact that this
Speaker 2: is some kind of set up where they had to
Speaker 2: bring the Chiefs and the forty nine ers together for maximum.
Speaker 3: Wasn't it twenty like? Wasn't it like the election year?
Speaker 2: It was four Yearsah? Well, the super Bowl is in
Speaker 2: the February after the season, got it?
Speaker 3: Got it? Got it is the twenty twenty season though,
Speaker 3: got it?
Speaker 2: Yeah, so while Trump was president, the forty nine Ers
Speaker 2: and the Chiefs were in the super Bowl on twenty twenty,
Speaker 2: the election year. So to say that now they brought
Speaker 2: the Chiefs and the forty nine ers into the super
Speaker 2: Bowl again to get Biden elected makes no sense.
Speaker 1: Well, I don't even know how those would be connected,
Speaker 1: and I really don't care to know, because it's just
Speaker 1: a waste of myanity.
Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't want to.
Speaker 1: Hear about it. I really I just don't care. But
Speaker 1: I do think it's just well, I mean, it's all.
Speaker 1: It could also be, you know how, I don't think
Speaker 1: that anything is just like well how it was meant
Speaker 1: to be. It could also be that Taylor Shift is
Speaker 1: attracted to the most talented person on the most talented team,
Speaker 1: and therefore that's why she's attracted to him, because she's
Speaker 1: the most talented person in her field. So why wouldn't
Speaker 1: they win because she's attracted to someone who's talented, and
Speaker 1: so yes, the talented person gets far.
Speaker 3: It like might not be this, you know, like covert
Speaker 3: and slam.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's just it's just it all makes sense, Like, yeah,
Speaker 1: he's good.
Speaker 2: I think Travis Kelsey is probably the best tight end
Speaker 2: to ever have played the game. But to say that
Speaker 2: he's the most talented person on that field is top five?
Speaker 3: Well really on the field?
Speaker 2: If on the field, yeah, I think Patrick Mahomes, I
Speaker 2: think Christian McCaffrey, I think Nick Bosa, I think Fred Warner.
Speaker 2: I think all these guys are Yeah, I think all
Speaker 2: these guys are probably equal or better than Travis Kelcey.
Speaker 1: But I think Travis Kelcey is the best in commercials,
Speaker 1: although Andy Reid The Chiefs really funny and that chicken
Speaker 1: Fingers one, But the one commercial where he's talking about
Speaker 1: Mahomes is with a foot long sub and then a
Speaker 1: foot long cookie and he's like, it's the best pairing
Speaker 1: ever I could ever imagine it's the best duo and
Speaker 1: Travis Kelcey like he looks over and Kelsey is just
Speaker 1: looking so sad. That is that face he makes is
Speaker 1: so funny, it's so good man.
Speaker 3: I would he.
Speaker 2: Does a good job playing that sidekick Taylor.
Speaker 3: I'd be like, hebe you killed that, Yeah, I would be.
Speaker 1: I would really, I would be so proud of him
Speaker 1: because it's really it's really nice when your partner does
Speaker 1: something as a comedian, really comedically.
Speaker 3: Like soup like next level.
Speaker 1: So I guess if I wasn't Tailor, if I was
Speaker 1: me and I was dating him, I'd be like, whoa,
Speaker 1: you just like did something in my field that is
Speaker 1: like really impressive to me. Like Chris told me this
Speaker 1: idea he has for the thing he's working on right
Speaker 1: now last night, and it was like this really creative,
Speaker 1: funny idea, and it got me horned up because I
Speaker 1: was like, that's like you're stuffing into my world and
Speaker 1: I like it.
Speaker 2: And the idea was so good.
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was really good.
Speaker 2: I got your horny.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but he's in LA and I'm here, so it's
Speaker 1: easy for me to be like I'm horny because I
Speaker 1: don't have to.
Speaker 3: Do anything about it.
Speaker 1: I just get points for if you were here, I
Speaker 1: would have had sex with you.
Speaker 3: But I can't. Oh no, uh this is thirty nine,
Speaker 3: So yeah, I got. I'm wearing a Bestie shirt.
Speaker 1: It says I'm in my Besties Air in my Besties
Speaker 1: era Nikki Glazer podcast, and it has all these stars
Speaker 1: on it that have each one is Taylor Swift's different album,
Speaker 1: which there are ten of them, but now we know
Speaker 1: there's gonna be eleven coming up April nineteenth. I really
Speaker 1: appreciate it. These two guys made this shirt for me.
Speaker 1: I forget their names, but they were in Fort Pierce,
Speaker 1: I believe, and it was really really nice and they
Speaker 1: got me one and they were both wearing them and
Speaker 1: they were so sweet or maybe Daytona. It was wherever
Speaker 1: I was last time. So thank you so much for
Speaker 1: those and I'm wearing it and it's so cute.
Speaker 2: We're Pierce, a beautiful town filled with all sorts of
Speaker 2: beautiful people. They love drinking canned beer out of trail,
Speaker 2: out of coolers in parking lots in Fort Pierce.
Speaker 3: It was tailgating before your shows.
Speaker 2: No, they were just kind of like in the streets.
Speaker 1: Yeah, they just like drink in the streets and play
Speaker 1: music in the street. I don't really remember what forb oh,
Speaker 1: yes I do. It was kind of like really run
Speaker 1: down until you get right into where the theater was
Speaker 1: we were playing, and then it's like really pretty.
Speaker 2: There are lots of really abandoned parking lots with large
Speaker 2: men all circling a cooler, drinking beers and that night
Speaker 2: what a life.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that sounds great to me. I really want that
Speaker 1: for myself.
Speaker 2: I would just go to the lot.
Speaker 3: Yeah, like every night you have some place to go.
Speaker 3: Reminds you of high school.
Speaker 4: We would.
Speaker 1: Gardens and Noble every single night, and you would just
Speaker 1: go there and you'd get a chay tea latte, and
Speaker 1: you would read the books and like flirt with boys
Speaker 1: and work on your homework and it would just be
Speaker 1: in this cafe area and it was just a place
Speaker 1: to go to every night.
Speaker 3: And then you'd go outside and watch Doug Rey smoke.
Speaker 1: By the bike rack, and you would just like hang
Speaker 1: out with him while he smoked, even though like you
Speaker 1: wanted to smoke, but you're too scared to. But you
Speaker 1: would just flirt and then you would go home and
Speaker 1: it was just the thing you did every night to
Speaker 1: hang out, and there's nothing like that anymore unless you drink.
Speaker 1: So I guess, wait, the drinking is involved with this
Speaker 1: Fort Pierce hang. I'm guessing, but there's Yeah, people don't drink,
Speaker 1: there's nowhere to just go and hang with.
Speaker 2: I think there's more to that than just the hang.
Speaker 2: I think it's about a community when I think we
Speaker 2: all are searching to revisit our high school experience in
Speaker 2: that there's like a community of people where everybody knows everybody.
Speaker 3: Yeah. I was just gonna say, not all of them
Speaker 3: want that.
Speaker 2: No, you just don't realize you want it so bad.
Speaker 2: That's why you're having a baby, because you want a
Speaker 2: community of people. You see. You just want to say
Speaker 2: people again and again. Yeah.
Speaker 1: Babies do bring community, right, Yes, yeah, babies do. Like
Speaker 1: you meet new people through having a baby school, You're
Speaker 1: going to send them to school, and you're going to
Speaker 1: meet parents through that. You'll like make friends through a baby.
Speaker 1: Babies do bring community. It also brings isolation. Let's not
Speaker 1: forget that.
Speaker 4: Well, the main desire is just is to like redo
Speaker 4: my family and just like have it the way I
Speaker 4: want it, Yeah, not the way I was forced to
Speaker 4: have it.
Speaker 1: God, if my parents die, I will get pregnant, like
Speaker 1: over like at my dad's funeral. I don't because I
Speaker 1: think that's why I don't have kids, is because or
Speaker 1: want kids, is because I'm just like I have my
Speaker 1: parents like they're so good enough. I don't need I
Speaker 1: love them so much. I don't need to. I don't
Speaker 1: feel that desire to do that. But I keep thinking
Speaker 1: if they died, I I don't know what I I
Speaker 1: really I really want advice from people who's lost a
Speaker 1: parent and parents, because I actually I don't because I
Speaker 1: don't want to think about it. It's something that's like
Speaker 1: do you prepare yourself for it so that when it
Speaker 1: comes you can handle it better? Or or do you
Speaker 1: just live like it's never gonna happen because it's gonna
Speaker 1: happen anyway, and you don't want to think about it
Speaker 1: until it does. Because why dwell on something that you
Speaker 1: can't help that's still be inevitable, you know?
Speaker 3: Or how does kill yourself before they die?
Speaker 2: You know what?
Speaker 3: Yeah, what you say?
Speaker 2: That's how I feel about it. Going to France. I
Speaker 2: just don't want to think about it until it's over. Wait,
Speaker 2: are you going to France potentially.
Speaker 1: Yeah, oh yeah, oh that's right, I know your joke
Speaker 1: about that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I love I love that.
Speaker 1: That's the way I feel about Australia, which is where
Speaker 1: I am now as this podcast is being.
Speaker 2: Well, look that kangaroo out of your window?
Speaker 1: Oh timey kangaroo down Sport.
Speaker 3: I'm so nervous.
Speaker 4: What is Australia like any like besides the Taylor Swift Show,
Speaker 4: anything you're looking.
Speaker 3: Swift in Melbourne and.
Speaker 1: When I go see My Spooks twenty but the playing
Speaker 1: thirty miles outside of Melbourne the night I land or
Speaker 1: the I land in the morning, and then I don't
Speaker 1: know which direction probably is easte?
Speaker 3: Are you going around Australia or just to like just
Speaker 3: staying in Melbourne and then we have a wedding.
Speaker 1: In lorn like and then we have and then I'm
Speaker 1: flying to Sydney to go see Taylor and then we
Speaker 1: skid at all. But I'm just stressed about preparing for
Speaker 1: Australia because it's nearly two weeks and I don't know
Speaker 1: how people the week dude, it's ten days.
Speaker 3: I don't even know.
Speaker 1: I don't like to re wear jeans and like, I
Speaker 1: don't like I like things to be like tight when
Speaker 1: I put them on, and like and I smell.
Speaker 3: I think I make things stinky fast.
Speaker 1: I can't re wear things like a shirt more than
Speaker 1: once shirts once, so I need at least forty three
Speaker 1: shirts because I feel like each day I don't know
Speaker 1: what if I don't wear one of the tent like
Speaker 1: I can figure out each day, Like, I definitely know
Speaker 1: I need to wear.
Speaker 2: This shit, say each day with an Australian accent.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I don't know what to do. I know that
Speaker 1: I'll just bring literally three.
Speaker 2: Shirts, do laundry one weekend, chop it.
Speaker 3: In half or get it done.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what I'll probably If you're in Melbourny, Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's like I'm going to some Aboriginal tribe.
Speaker 2: You know what.
Speaker 3: You can buy stuff too.
Speaker 1: Yes, I could. I can buy stuff, but I hate shopping.
Speaker 1: I only shop online. I do not go to stores.
Speaker 1: It depresses me so greatly because of the consumerism, the
Speaker 1: amount of things. Then I have to go in the
Speaker 1: dressing room. I see a side of my body that
Speaker 1: will literally make me want to throw myself off of Bill.
Speaker 1: But then I stop and I go I don't want
Speaker 1: to throw myself off a building because then an autopsy
Speaker 1: person will see my naked body and I'm too ashamed.
Speaker 1: So then I'm in this weird limbaware to keep living
Speaker 1: in my body that I hate. Because I literally had
Speaker 1: that thought. I was like, I am so disgusting, I
Speaker 1: want to die, and then I go, but then they
Speaker 1: would have to do an autopsy and they would see
Speaker 1: my fucking, flat, fuck fat ass, and I just couldn't
Speaker 1: handle it. This is the last time I went shopping.
Speaker 1: That was in September, and I haven't gone back since.
Speaker 1: I do not like shopping in stores. If I try
Speaker 1: something on, it will be over my clothes in in
Speaker 1: the main area. I'll wear like tight enough clothes that
Speaker 1: I can put them on over. I will not step
Speaker 1: foot in a dressing room. I will not have someone
Speaker 1: assist me like that woman asking about your sister sizes.
Speaker 3: I would never ever allow that.
Speaker 1: I would just guess buy it like Chris actually did
Speaker 1: it the other day when we were planning for the
Speaker 1: Grammys party. He went to the store and came home
Speaker 1: with four thousand dollars worth of clothes because he didn't
Speaker 1: feel like trying them on. And I was like, yes,
Speaker 1: this is my man, because I don't. I don't want
Speaker 1: to try them on there. It's weird pressures. You are
Speaker 1: suddenly getting advice from this and you just met who
Speaker 1: you have no idea if they have good style or not,
Speaker 1: and it's just.
Speaker 3: You're on your own.
Speaker 2: The light, the.
Speaker 1: Mirror is skinny and it's lying to you. You can't
Speaker 1: trust fucking anything out there.
Speaker 3: And so the.
Speaker 1: Idea of like someone even said that to me before
Speaker 1: you said it. No, I'm like, you can just buy
Speaker 1: something there, And I'm like thinking of shopping in Australia
Speaker 1: and I don't know if I just am projecting.
Speaker 3: I don't.
Speaker 1: I don't think projecting this right word. But I'm I
Speaker 1: feel like I've been to Australia before and everyone's so
Speaker 1: put together there. Everything's like clean fabrics, yes, like all
Speaker 1: the women are like of like like really smooth hair,
Speaker 1: but it's simple, you know, Like there's not a lot
Speaker 1: of accessories. They wear like chunky sweatas, and they're always
Speaker 1: like they always look like right out of a J
Speaker 1: Crew catalog. Everything fits perfectly, but it's a little slouchy
Speaker 1: and comfy. There's not like they're they just don't look
Speaker 1: stained like idea not experience, the same thing you're really
Speaker 1: were in Australia.
Speaker 2: I went to Australia. I went to Melbourne and I
Speaker 2: went to Tasmania and I climbed a Cradle mountain and
Speaker 2: I almost died, but I did it. I got to
Speaker 2: the top and I was wrestled by Oh. I went
Speaker 2: by myself. I was with my dad. It was a
Speaker 2: troop with my dad. We went to Australia and he
Speaker 2: didn't want to climb Cradle Mountain. He's seventy and I
Speaker 2: went up there by myself. It was a little bit
Speaker 2: too difficult for me. And the reason I wanted to
Speaker 2: do it so bad was because I know a guy
Speaker 2: from Tasmania who said I should do it and it
Speaker 2: was easy. And then I watched a YouTube video and
Speaker 2: there was a Australian guy reviewing the climb and in
Speaker 2: the video the Miley Cyra song Yeah. He was reviewing
Speaker 2: the climb. He reviewed record.
Speaker 3: He said it's easy.
Speaker 2: Dad, he said, it's all easy to listen to. I
Speaker 2: listened to it. I almost died. I climbed. They said
Speaker 2: in the video they said this mountain is uh is
Speaker 2: an easy climb if you're Australian, But if you're American,
Speaker 2: you probably shouldn't try it. WHOA. So I took that
Speaker 2: personally and I was like, well, I'm gonna go fucking
Speaker 2: do this mountain challenge. I'm going to take a picture
Speaker 2: on top, and then's gonna come back to this YouTube
Speaker 2: video and comment, well, I'm American and I did it.
Speaker 2: I was American. I did.
Speaker 3: What do you mean by that? Like you Australians are
Speaker 3: just climbing shit all the time.
Speaker 2: Yes, they are. They are because I was climbing this
Speaker 2: mountain and Australian. There wasn't that many people when I
Speaker 2: was doing it, but Australians were basically like Spider Man
Speaker 2: lapping me and laughing at me.
Speaker 1: I like someone who would really struggle doing Like I
Speaker 1: can't picture you physically going up a mountain, even though
Speaker 1: I know you're pretty adventurous, Like you seem like someone who.
Speaker 2: I was not like with a it's not like rock climbing,
Speaker 2: like a harnessing. It's like scrambling and then like it's
Speaker 2: like it was really steep scrambling.
Speaker 1: Scrambling just is it called scrambling because you're just like
Speaker 1: going side to side.
Speaker 2: Scrambling is what I do in my career it's just
Speaker 2: kind of like you're climbing without using a harness because
Speaker 2: you don't need to go like sheer cliff straight up. Okay,
Speaker 2: I can show you. I'll pull up a picture during
Speaker 2: the brig. I can show a picture of what it
Speaker 2: looked like. But I almost died, and there was like
Speaker 2: people from Australia.
Speaker 3: Almost just like exhausted, like almost died.
Speaker 2: Yeah, both of those things happened. I felt one time
Speaker 2: I fell and like these are my legs and I
Speaker 2: fell like a cartoon in between a rock, like oh man.
Speaker 2: It was so scary because I was standing there trying
Speaker 2: to climb and then like the bottom leg just kind
Speaker 2: of slipped off.
Speaker 3: And I why do this?
Speaker 1: Because someone Internet told you, like did you get up
Speaker 1: there and like taking the sites and.
Speaker 3: Leads for America.
Speaker 2: I did an American flag on the top of the
Speaker 2: I pushed over the Australian sign. I planted an American
Speaker 2: flag and I claimed the mountain. Well, actually I went
Speaker 2: up there and there's two guys from China up there. Okay,
Speaker 2: so they get they got there first, and I took
Speaker 2: my picture and I said thank you, and then they
Speaker 2: left and I then I was alone on the top
Speaker 2: of the mountain, contemplating going back down.
Speaker 1: Yeah, did did you feel a huge sense of accomplishment?
Speaker 1: Would you do it again?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: Was it?
Speaker 2: No? No, no, it's never worth it. Doing anything is
Speaker 2: not worthhip.
Speaker 1: I think, are you being serious? Like it really wasn't
Speaker 1: worth it?
Speaker 2: Not?
Speaker 3: Why did you? Why do you continue to do these things?
Speaker 3: Like still like to do something.
Speaker 2: There's a certain level of scrambling that I enjoy. That's
Speaker 2: not death defying that. I'm like, that was fun r
Speaker 2: I love that. This was like I risked my life
Speaker 2: on my own in Tasmania for no fucking reason other
Speaker 2: than to just comment on a YouTube video. The view
Speaker 2: was nice. He was right, well, he was so. On
Speaker 2: the way back down, there are these people who I
Speaker 2: was going back down, and going back down is always
Speaker 2: harder than going back up. You have to remember that
Speaker 2: going back down is harder.
Speaker 3: Why because you are like loosed up and you don't.
Speaker 2: It's easier to climb up because you're just pushing yourself
Speaker 2: up and to figure out ways to go down. A
Speaker 2: lot of times when you're going down, you can't even
Speaker 2: see where you can put your foot right. It's like
Speaker 2: down below you you're.
Speaker 4: Using your like your arm strength and your leg sturreen
Speaker 4: when you go down and you're just kind of like
Speaker 4: balancing everything on your use and your thighs.
Speaker 1: You know, what this appeals to me is doing it alone,
Speaker 1: because I think that's part of hiking and like doing
Speaker 1: out for stuff that I can't get behind because I'm fast, Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I want to get through it to say, I
Speaker 1: was like, that's the only reason I would want to
Speaker 1: do these things is to like accomplishment. Accomplish it and
Speaker 1: then go home and be like, Okay, now I can
Speaker 1: really like sleep and lay on the couch a lot
Speaker 1: because I just did this thing, and I feel like
Speaker 1: people are slow and I would just want to go fast.
Speaker 2: I think you would like to. I think you would
Speaker 2: like some solo too.
Speaker 1: Okay, But then but what about the rate thing and
Speaker 1: murder and that batistics.
Speaker 2: Yeah, if you're going fast, you're much less likely to
Speaker 2: get raped, you know, I.
Speaker 1: Mean more sunlight like Andrew Huberman, like every clip I
Speaker 1: see of him as talking about sunlight exposure, and you're
Speaker 1: supposed to get up in the morning like with the
Speaker 1: sunrise and like look at it. But then I have
Speaker 1: no idea how to do this without aging my face.
Speaker 1: Because there's also that like every every other clip is
Speaker 1: like you need sunlight exposure, and then it's like SPF
Speaker 1: is important, don't get wrinkles. It's like you're getting mixed messages.
Speaker 1: How are you supposed to get sunlight exposure? Will bestie
Speaker 1: please write me about sunlight exposure? And I hear that
Speaker 1: he says sunlight lamps in your house are not the same.
Speaker 1: So I don't know what to do. But I think
Speaker 1: I mean, you can't and you can't wear sunk Well,
Speaker 1: then you're supposed to stare at the sun.
Speaker 4: No, we just go outside with just a natural light
Speaker 4: and have your eyes absorb it and like, but.
Speaker 1: You're supposed he says, you're supposed to like bask in it,
Speaker 1: which means like face.
Speaker 3: It and look at it.
Speaker 2: You'd also like vitamin D supplements.
Speaker 1: I do take vitamin DE supplements. But I hear that's
Speaker 1: not enough. I need I need to know do you
Speaker 1: do this now? What do you go sunbathe? Do you
Speaker 1: like sit out in the sun? I don't do it
Speaker 1: now because of malasma?
Speaker 3: Okay, because my.
Speaker 2: Hormones are h That's Trump's wife.
Speaker 3: I hang out with her all the time.
Speaker 4: What your hormones make malasma worse. Well, yeah, during pregnancy,
Speaker 4: So I mean I don't I should. Let's just say
Speaker 4: I should go outside more, even for ten minutes in
Speaker 4: the morning where the sun is not as strong as
Speaker 4: in the afternoon.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I need more of it.
Speaker 1: If any besti's have any kind of advice on how
Speaker 1: to do this properly or a YouTube video, because I've
Speaker 1: looked into it and it's it's everyone's telling you different things.
Speaker 3: I need some concrete. Here's what you do, Nikki.
Speaker 1: This is the simplest way to do it without aging
Speaker 1: your face.
Speaker 3: I don't. Chris told me that I could just do
Speaker 3: my back and.
Speaker 1: Just have a hideous back, and I was laughing so
Speaker 1: hard because he said I could have a hideous back,
Speaker 1: because that is thank you for acknowledge saying that the
Speaker 1: sun will make whatever you have the sun on hideous.
Speaker 3: Okay, we gotta go to break. I'll be right back
Speaker 3: for this.
Speaker 1: Yeah. I need more sunlight exposure, I guess. And I've
Speaker 1: just been I've been feeling pretty down recently, and so
Speaker 1: I've been obsessively watching these YouTube videos of this girl
Speaker 1: that I've already talked about. Her name is Hannah Yuri
Speaker 1: or something, and she does trauma informed yoga or trauma
Speaker 1: yeah something, trauma informed you.
Speaker 3: I don't even know what it is.
Speaker 1: Someone a bestie or someone wrote to me recently being like,
Speaker 1: I'm so depressed. I don't know what to do anymore,
Speaker 1: Like I can't handle this, And I was like, all
Speaker 1: I know that makes me feel better is watching this
Speaker 1: girl speak gently to me. And you don't even do
Speaker 1: the yoga she's describing. You just listen to it, and
Speaker 1: it feels so calming and so soothing. I literally listened
Speaker 1: to like five hours of this girl a week, and
Speaker 1: she has one that's like for the hips, and she
Speaker 1: talks like this, and everything is her teets, like she'll write,
Speaker 1: she'll say like it the like guitar uh light ting,
Speaker 1: like everything that she says is enunciated so perfectly. I'm
Speaker 1: obsessed with her voice. I can't recommend it enough. I
Speaker 1: am so obsessed with it. It's it's truly my life recently.
Speaker 1: Did you just watching this I watch the video? Or
Speaker 1: do you do the yoga along with her?
Speaker 2: No?
Speaker 1: I just put it next to my head and I
Speaker 1: put on my sleep mask and I listen. I do
Speaker 1: not do any of it but you could do it
Speaker 1: and it would be amazing. And the comments underneath the ones,
Speaker 1: so it's called trauma in formed yoga hips releasing stored trauma,
Speaker 1: and all the comments are like, I cried so much,
Speaker 1: I release so much stress.
Speaker 3: I have released so much stress.
Speaker 1: Like people are like giving her donations because they can't
Speaker 1: they can't believe how much this released so much stuff
Speaker 1: for them. I don't cry when I listen to these
Speaker 1: because I'm not doing the exercises. But her voice is
Speaker 1: just so fucking soothing. It's Hannah h A n n
Speaker 1: a h y I are I you are I you?
Speaker 1: I are I euri eerie trauma informed yoga teacher. It's
Speaker 1: so gentle and soothing. I can't even It's so nurturing.
Speaker 1: I don't know what I would do without it right now,
Speaker 1: Like I am like obsessed with it because I'm just like, man,
Speaker 1: that's life has been hard.
Speaker 2: The more that I hear about stuff like that, if
Speaker 2: it was ten fifteen years ago, I'd be like, that's
Speaker 2: such bullshit, that trauma bullshit yoga bullshit. I would hate that.
Speaker 2: But the more I live, the more I realize that
Speaker 2: stuff like that works, and uh, especially if it works
Speaker 2: for you. It's like a it's great. Yeah, I actually
Speaker 2: believe that it works.
Speaker 1: Yeah, because well no, no, Brian, because you know all
Speaker 1: about how like stress stories in the body score, body
Speaker 1: keeps the score, and like all of your pain is
Speaker 1: pretty much just like your brain's anguish redirecting things that
Speaker 1: it can't handle from your childhood or from whatever. It
Speaker 1: doesn't have to be that traumatic, but it's just like
Speaker 1: rerouting it to.
Speaker 3: Weak parts of your body. Then it like beats the
Speaker 3: fuck out of those nerves.
Speaker 1: But it's like your brain doing it, and it's all, yeah,
Speaker 1: it's all connected. When did you realize that and was it?
Speaker 1: Did it take you a while to like believe it?
Speaker 2: Well, it's just you know, all the things that I've
Speaker 2: gone through in terms of like a chronic pain, the
Speaker 2: things that actually cured it were generally mental, and it
Speaker 2: takes you a while to get to that point where
Speaker 2: you accept that as your fate. And I know people
Speaker 2: who have not accepted that as their fate, and they
Speaker 2: resist and they just struggle and suffer when the answers
Speaker 2: are right before them.
Speaker 1: Well, I have to say that one of our friends
Speaker 1: who was experiencing horrible back pain, remember, oh, I remembered, Yeah,
Speaker 1: well he got surgery and now it's no, it's fine. Yeah,
Speaker 1: six months, Yeah, I know it'll come back because it
Speaker 1: again is mental because.
Speaker 2: He's believe but he's not great. Uh So you get
Speaker 2: the surgery and then you're right. The placebo happens and
Speaker 2: you feel like, oh my god, that did fix it.
Speaker 2: And then eight months later another stressful One.
Speaker 1: Months later, you start working on f Boy Island three
Speaker 1: and you get stressed out again because.
Speaker 2: I told under no circumstances, why would he listen to you?
Speaker 2: I don't know, because I was so adamant.
Speaker 3: I know it was constriction. He was out of options.
Speaker 3: It no, although he didn't know. I know he wasn't.
Speaker 3: I sent him the.
Speaker 1: Book Healing Back Pain, but he would have read it
Speaker 1: because people just don't want to believe it's in their head.
Speaker 3: They want to believe.
Speaker 1: Staring don't cheering every head because I mean, I can't believe.
Speaker 1: My whole family, my mom, my dad, my sister, my
Speaker 1: brother in law, none of them have ever been to
Speaker 1: therapy ever. It is so fucking wild me. The other night,
Speaker 1: I was like, you guys have never.
Speaker 3: Gone, Like, how how do you think? You are just fine?
Speaker 3: Like how how why do you go to the doctor? Then?
Speaker 3: Why do you work out? Why do you do it?
Speaker 3: Why do you read books to learn more?
Speaker 1: Like do you think that you have all the information
Speaker 1: about yourself it figured out, and that you alone can solve.
Speaker 3: It all for yourself? Like I just don't.
Speaker 1: And people go, I don't have the money I've offered
Speaker 1: to pay for them to go. There's just no interest.
Speaker 1: Why because they're scared that it might mean they're they're
Speaker 1: what what is the fear?
Speaker 4: I truly might not understand it. They just don't believe
Speaker 4: in it.
Speaker 3: To not believe, I don't understand a.
Speaker 4: Person that goes to therapy and she's very well adjusted
Speaker 4: and wonderful, But everybody else like they just don't understand it.
Speaker 2: What am I going to talk to somebody for forty
Speaker 2: minutes and pay them two hundred dollars?
Speaker 4: They their opinions, Like they think a therapist just gives opinions.
Speaker 3: That's the that's the.
Speaker 2: Kind of therapyst or people. Some people believe that if
Speaker 2: you go to a therapist, then you're crazy. It's for
Speaker 2: crazy people. Yes you're not. I'm not crazy. I'm Where are.
Speaker 1: All the people that believe that gonna die, Like I
Speaker 1: know that's like a leftover thing.
Speaker 2: From Wait, you said you don't want them to die.
Speaker 2: You said you don't know what you're gonna do.
Speaker 3: No, Okay, that's a baby.
Speaker 1: I want all of them to die, except my parents.
Speaker 1: But not my parents, sorry, not yours, either.
Speaker 2: Anyone that we know or that anyone that we.
Speaker 1: Know or besties, anyone that you guys love. But if
Speaker 1: you don't love them, I hope they die.
Speaker 2: Oh that would be so good. I'm on board. That'd
Speaker 2: be so great.
Speaker 1: If everyone else I hope someone dies because it doesn't
Speaker 1: and people go, that's so mean. It's like, well, it's
Speaker 1: gonna happen eventually. Yeah, it's always.
Speaker 3: Going to happen. I had man.
Speaker 1: I know I talked about this in my special that's
Speaker 1: not released yet, but I truly forget.
Speaker 3: I'm gonna die sometimes.
Speaker 1: Sorry I'm not. I don't mean to trigger you, Brian,
Speaker 1: I know you don't like to talk about this. Let's
Speaker 1: change the subject.
Speaker 2: My least favorite thing I know to do it and
Speaker 2: like it.
Speaker 3: I'm not going to remember this morning. I have to die.
Speaker 3: And I really was like, ah, fuck.
Speaker 1: Like yeah, feel like that, just that feeling of like oh,
Speaker 1: my God, like I'm not gonna I don't.
Speaker 3: Get to opt out.
Speaker 1: Of this, Like I feel like most decisions, in getting
Speaker 1: married or having kids, like these big life moments, you
Speaker 1: get a choice of whether you can do them or not.
Speaker 1: As a woman in the modern world, like that, those
Speaker 1: used to be as imminent as death, Like you're gonna
Speaker 1: have a baby because if you don't want to, we'll
Speaker 1: just rape you and make you keep it, Like there's
Speaker 1: there was no choices. I just saw Poor Things last night,
Speaker 1: so I'm filled with like what women were supposed to
Speaker 1: be and what we what were made to be, and
Speaker 1: how suppressed we used to be. But and I can't
Speaker 1: stop seeing images of Emma Stone's bush, which I saw
Speaker 1: upwards of thirty two times in that film just a
Speaker 1: time out for a second, Poor Things. Yeah, Emma Stone
Speaker 1: was amazing, no question about it.
Speaker 3: Amazing performances.
Speaker 1: Uh, Mark Ruffalo so so funny love Robby was so
Speaker 1: good in his like Break for Me.
Speaker 3: I've seen you know, obviously he had the show, his
Speaker 3: show Rommy, but.
Speaker 2: His oh was.
Speaker 1: He Yeuh? He was so good in it as well.
Speaker 1: All the performance is great. Did I care for it?
Speaker 1: My mom and I almost walked out a couple of times,
Speaker 1: and it got to the point where I was like,
Speaker 1: is it gonna be? I go, mom, should we should
Speaker 1: walk out? Because this is funnier if we walk out
Speaker 1: than if we finish it. Like I don't, I literally
Speaker 1: don't care about how this ends. I'm not invested in this.
Speaker 1: I got a little invested about ten minutes. There was
Speaker 1: ten minutes left. It's it's two hours and twenty one
Speaker 1: minutes long.
Speaker 3: Too long?
Speaker 2: Too long?
Speaker 3: Why do they do that? Anyone killer?
Speaker 2: Only thirty views of the bush?
Speaker 1: Dude, there is no tell me the difference poor things.
Speaker 1: Please someone who's seen poor things. I want you exactly
Speaker 1: tell me the difference between what we saw Emma Stone
Speaker 1: do and what porn porn pornography pornographic actresses do.
Speaker 3: Tell me, tell me the difference.
Speaker 2: I'll tell the difference. How much they're getting paid exactly.
Speaker 1: Okay, and one is scripted and the other is also
Speaker 1: if they're.
Speaker 3: Both acting, yeah, they're both.
Speaker 1: And you could say, yeah, you could say they don't
Speaker 1: have the stuff that Emma Stone is doing is art.
Speaker 1: But why and because no one's gonna jerk off to it?
Speaker 1: I I beg yes they will, Yes, they will there's
Speaker 1: so many sex scenes in this there's so many dicks,
Speaker 1: there's so many. You see her bush, you see her tits,
Speaker 1: you see her ask, you see everything. You see her
Speaker 1: getting railed in every different way.
Speaker 2: Stone movies when she's not naked.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I just know this is no shade because, as
Speaker 1: you know, I love porn actresses, and I feel like
Speaker 1: they should be able to float seamlessly between Hollywood and
Speaker 1: Bollywood and pornography.
Speaker 3: I want them to do it all.
Speaker 1: Yeah, but I don't understand why this is different, because
Speaker 1: why it's art.
Speaker 2: But I'm watching Euphoria, which is an incredible show. I
Speaker 2: can't believe I'm so late to the game. I just
Speaker 2: finished the first season of Euphoria. I had watched a
Speaker 2: few episodes. Oh my god, the writing so good. But
Speaker 2: there is a lot of naked uh who they're playing teenagers.
Speaker 2: They're not teenagers in real life, but they're playing teenagers.
Speaker 2: And there's a lot of nudity in Euphoria. I think
Speaker 2: it's a thing these days. You gotta if you know,
Speaker 2: people don't. The actresses of today don't seem to care
Speaker 2: as much about just being full nude in a show
Speaker 2: or movie. That's just what I'm viewing from euphoria and
Speaker 2: from what you're describing core things, because I remember like
Speaker 2: in the nineties. In the nineties, if an actress show
Speaker 2: ripped her tits out, it was like on the Entertainment Tonight.
Speaker 1: And it would be it would kind of like define
Speaker 1: her career for so long, like that's all people would
Speaker 1: kind of talk about. I mean, Sharon Stone in whatever
Speaker 1: that one is where she uncrosses her legs, do you
Speaker 1: see pussy or is it just implied like I don't
Speaker 1: in that one you see lips? Because I don't think
Speaker 1: you do. Yet everyone assumes that that she just showed.
Speaker 2: Full push yeah, implication of puss. That got the country
Speaker 2: all horned up.
Speaker 1: I'm feeling bad for saying blowjob on stage in front
Speaker 1: of kids, and I'm being treated like I can't believe
Speaker 1: you did that. Yet Emma Stone is having sex in
Speaker 1: every different position completely nude, which no no judgment from me,
Speaker 1: Like it's fine. I just don't understand the different Why.
Speaker 2: We shame then probably? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Whereas like I, people act like I can't be around
Speaker 1: their kids because of the content of which I speak
Speaker 1: on stage in a safe space where only adults are
Speaker 1: there but Emma Stone gets to be on like have
Speaker 1: you know cover girl commercials like she is. She gets
Speaker 1: to be on any commercial she wants. She can be
Speaker 1: on any network she can do.
Speaker 3: She can. I can't. They won't let me on CBS anymore, ABC.
Speaker 1: These are family networks, and it's not like they won't
Speaker 1: let me on, but it's it's harder for me to
Speaker 1: get on those places because of the content of what
Speaker 1: I do. Yet she gets to do this film and
Speaker 1: still work. I just don't. Not that I don't want
Speaker 1: her to work. I just want I you know, the
Speaker 1: porn star that I were a Carter Cruz who I
Speaker 1: worked with on the Burt Chreisler tour, she wasn't allowed
Speaker 1: to do their Daytona or their dayton Ohio date because
Speaker 1: the venue owner found out that she was a porn
Speaker 1: star and she was.
Speaker 3: She wasn't doing porn in the show, She was just
Speaker 3: being a DJ.
Speaker 1: So why are some people forbidden from having sex on
Speaker 1: screen and it makes them a uh you know, they
Speaker 1: have to wear a scarlet letter and a pariah, but
Speaker 1: then others are like upheld for it.
Speaker 3: I just don't.
Speaker 1: I just don't get it. I was watching this and
Speaker 1: my mom and I were just like, enough, we get it.
Speaker 1: She's a prostitute and she has to have sex with
Speaker 1: a bunch of different guys. It just it doesn't feel
Speaker 1: like we needed to see it. It felt gratuitous. But
Speaker 1: because it's like this film that's shot with a fish
Speaker 1: eyelands and has all these wacky colors and William Willem
Speaker 1: Dafoe is in it, it's suddenly art, Like I just
Speaker 1: don't get it.
Speaker 2: What's Dafoe is in it? It's art Spider Man, Green Goblin.
Speaker 3: But then porn.
Speaker 1: If you watch porn, you're like a horrible person and
Speaker 1: you have to hide it from everyone that you saw it.
Speaker 3: But like, you know four things, you're like.
Speaker 1: A you're I was driving through Texas philistine. I don't
Speaker 1: know what that word means, but yes, uh.
Speaker 2: And it was one of the worst roads I've ever
Speaker 2: driven down. It was in south western Texas. It was
Speaker 2: close to the border. I drove through a town that
Speaker 2: looked like it was like designed to look like a
Speaker 2: shitty town. And in this town there was a drive
Speaker 2: a drive in movie theater. You know, like everyone knows
Speaker 2: what that is. I drive you with that showed porn?
Speaker 2: Oh wow? It showed porn and the screen was the
Speaker 2: back of the screen was facing the roads. You couldn't
Speaker 2: like see the screen, but it was showing porn. That's
Speaker 2: how crazy. Yes, it was showing porn. It was because
Speaker 2: it said what movies are showing and it showed ads
Speaker 2: and it said XXX drive in movie theater. We took
Speaker 2: pictures of it. This is two years ago.
Speaker 1: I don't mind that, but it's I mean, there's theaters
Speaker 1: you could go to and jerk off in weren't Why
Speaker 1: not have an outdoor one, right? Yeah, and you're in
Speaker 1: your own car.
Speaker 3: I can't actually disturb anyone.
Speaker 1: This for a second, speaking of like disturbing people around you.
Speaker 1: So during the movie, I am texting Anya about how
Speaker 1: I don't really I'm not really sold on it, and
Speaker 1: I think it's like trying too hard to be kind
Speaker 1: of c and artsy, but also I'm maybe missing the points,
Speaker 1: much like I did it with May December.
Speaker 3: I was totally off about that one, like so poor things.
Speaker 3: It's not bad, but is it is?
Speaker 1: It's what I recommend someone see it, sure, yeah, because
Speaker 1: I just want to talk to someone about it. I
Speaker 1: think there were good things about it. I give it
Speaker 1: a b plus, but I'm not. It wasn't anywhere close
Speaker 1: to being something of like my favorite movie but the.
Speaker 3: And Will and Dafoe in that movie. Once you see it, Busties.
Speaker 1: That's how I look in the mirror to myself.
Speaker 3: I said it to my mom. He appeared on screaming,
Speaker 3: that's what I think I look like. And she laughed so.
Speaker 1: Hard because it's like it's just he's like fording it
Speaker 1: signed together, and I really do, and I feel like
Speaker 1: I do have like a structured face, but I feel
Speaker 1: like that grotesque most days when I wake up. And
Speaker 1: it was just a very clear indication of exactly how
Speaker 1: I feel I look.
Speaker 3: But okay, so I'm texting Anya.
Speaker 1: I'll just read to you what I texted because I
Speaker 1: want you to get the full idea of what happened here,
Speaker 1: and I.
Speaker 3: Want to get your opinion on it. Okay.
Speaker 1: So okay, Oh we got into it about God. We
Speaker 1: got okay. So I said, have you seen poor things?
Speaker 1: She said not yet, but want too? I said, I
Speaker 1: hate it.
Speaker 3: Okay. This is what time was this? Eight oh six?
Speaker 1: So this was only twenty minutes in Okay, that wasn't
Speaker 1: fair to say I need minutes.
Speaker 3: This is twenty minutes.
Speaker 1: This is maybe fifteen minutes in because it started its
Speaker 1: no actually, sorry, this was an hour in. This was
Speaker 1: an hour and five minutes in. Okay, I'm mistake. This
Speaker 1: movie started six forty five. That was at eight oh six.
Speaker 1: And you know you got to count for previous. She said,
Speaker 1: ha ha really. Maria said, it's trying to be too weird.
Speaker 1: I said, it's just trying to be so cool. She said,
Speaker 1: should I skip?
Speaker 2: It?
Speaker 3: Is Emma any good? I said, I want to hear
Speaker 3: what you think. She's really good, but it's just annoying.
Speaker 3: My mom hates it too.
Speaker 1: We want to walk out, and she goes, lool, you're
Speaker 1: in a theater, Nikki exclamation mark, ha ha ha ha ha.
Speaker 1: And I said, and I know what that's about, because
Speaker 1: Anya does not like when people have their phones out
Speaker 1: in theaters.
Speaker 3: Which who does. That's a very obnoxious thing to do.
Speaker 1: But can I just say, I said, yeah, my phone
Speaker 1: is nearly dark, okay. I turned down the brightness all
Speaker 1: the way down. It's I said, it's literally disturbing no one.
Speaker 1: The man coughing behind me is way worse. There's this
Speaker 1: man going wow every two minutes. He would like clear
Speaker 1: his throat with this really guttural cough that you could
Speaker 1: tell he was struggling and holding it in most of
Speaker 1: the time. He wanted to do it way more often
Speaker 1: than he was, so when it did happen, it would
Speaker 1: just sound like Mount Vesuvius. It was horrible. I said,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna row by myself, just with my mom. No
Speaker 1: one can see me. My mom doesn't care about all.
Speaker 1: My mom was literally sleeping. She fell asleep during it,
Speaker 1: and I said, that's a dumb rule, and then she
Speaker 1: just thumbs down. The man coughing behind me is way worse.
Speaker 1: Do you think it is? It is out of line
Speaker 1: for me to turn on my phone all the way.
Speaker 1: There's no one in my row. I'm keeping it very low,
Speaker 1: so literally, and there's no one in front of me either.
Speaker 1: There's only people behind me, but they cannot see my
Speaker 1: phone because it is so low and I'm holding it
Speaker 1: down by my waist looking into it. No one can
Speaker 1: I don't think any there's no way anyone can see.
Speaker 3: If you know me, I'm not someone who.
Speaker 1: Does anything to be obnoxious around other people, aside from
Speaker 1: talking openly about blowjobs on stage in front of kids,
Speaker 1: which I was horrified by when I realized I was
Speaker 1: doing it.
Speaker 3: I really don't like.
Speaker 1: To be like, look at me talking loudly, brightness on
Speaker 1: my phone, Like I'm so aware of how other people
Speaker 1: are are around me. Do you think it's out of line?
Speaker 1: And why do we have to treat the movies so delicately?
Speaker 1: It's the movies you can't like, why is it okay
Speaker 1: to open your phone on a plane that is totally
Speaker 1: dark in the middle of the night.
Speaker 3: Why is that not like shunned upon? But in the movies.
Speaker 3: This is the cinema.
Speaker 1: People of this, you know, like, why is it so
Speaker 1: protected at the movies?
Speaker 3: What do you think?
Speaker 2: Well, because you go there for an experience. I think
Speaker 2: one of the reasons why you go to a movie
Speaker 2: is so completely enrapped in the movie. You have a
Speaker 2: giant screen, you have surround sound, it's dark. I'm also
Speaker 2: experiencing with other people, and unlike when you're at home,
Speaker 2: you generally can't just get up and walk around and
Speaker 2: then come back to watch the movie.
Speaker 3: Oh, I was dying to do that.
Speaker 1: I wanted to press stop on it to see how
Speaker 1: much longer it had in it so many times, so many.
Speaker 2: Times I think if you want to do that. If
Speaker 2: you want to text or talk or cough like Mount
Speaker 2: Vesuvius during a film, you should just watch it at
Speaker 2: home because these days you can pretty much, and going
Speaker 2: to the movie should be a special experience where you're like,
Speaker 2: you wouldn't do that, say, at a live performance of something.
Speaker 2: I think it's a similar experience.
Speaker 1: You I would if no one, then I'm only disturbing myself.
Speaker 3: Literally, no one, but you don't do it. If I
Speaker 3: was at a full row, yes I did know, because I.
Speaker 2: Might be people behind you who were like, I can
Speaker 2: see that light and it's bothering.
Speaker 1: No way they could, because I was holding it down
Speaker 1: by my waist. I know what physics are, and I
Speaker 1: know like the angle at which people can see things.
Speaker 3: There's no way they could the calculations.
Speaker 1: No, but like I can kind of surmise. There was
Speaker 1: no one in my room, so if there was someone
Speaker 1: next to me, I absolutely wouldn't have done it, or
Speaker 1: I would have put it inside my purse and like
Speaker 1: created a little referee.
Speaker 2: I think we should do Mythbus Tunnel. There should be
Speaker 2: a MythBusters episode about this, where we got Nikki in
Speaker 2: a theater with some phone.
Speaker 1: My phone, even at full brightness where you could see
Speaker 1: it is not as annoying as people opening their bags
Speaker 1: of skinny pop popcorn, because this pop this place does
Speaker 1: not pop their own popcorn. They just sell you bags
Speaker 1: of skinny pop. And people are opening those and I know,
Speaker 1: and shoving in their mouths and chewing loudly and like
Speaker 1: that's annoying too.
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, it's all annoying. So I just I was
Speaker 2: watching a movie.
Speaker 1: Once I offended that she thought I was like someone
Speaker 1: who would like purposely or just like I don't care
Speaker 1: about other people's experience. It was literally bothering no one.
Speaker 2: There's no way everyone's existence is bothersome, and there's all
Speaker 2: sorts of things. Doesn't have to be noise or light.
Speaker 2: It could be smell, like sometimes someone whips out a
Speaker 2: disgusting hot dog and it's like, I know that they
Speaker 2: sell those there, but it stinks like pig shit now
Speaker 2: in this whole theater. Yes, I don't want to smell your.
Speaker 1: Stench, but I just don't know why these have to
Speaker 1: be such sacred spaces. I'm not I would never really
Speaker 1: truly do something disgusting and annoying if I had a
Speaker 1: chronic cough, I would not be going to the cinema,
Speaker 1: you know, like I'm not someone who would whoever wants
Speaker 1: anyone to be like that girl over there is so
Speaker 1: like I just I keep it, I keep it tight.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 2: There was a lot of time I went to a
Speaker 2: nikki that was that they did not treat it like
Speaker 2: a sacred space, and it was one of the best
Speaker 2: movie experiences I've ever had. I went to go see
Speaker 2: The Raid Redemption, which is one of the best like
Speaker 2: kung fu salot movies from Indonesia of all time. And
Speaker 2: I went to go see it at a theater that
Speaker 2: was in a predominantly black neighborhood. Yeah, and I mean this,
Speaker 2: there was five standing ovations during this movie.
Speaker 3: My best experience too at King's Plaza.
Speaker 2: Everyone was yelling at the scrap that's great, Okay.
Speaker 4: So I went with my brother's ex girlfriend and she's
Speaker 4: she was like just like unapologetically loud and obnoxious as is.
Speaker 4: And we went to King's Plaza and it was like
Speaker 4: a predominantly black audience and we saw I think it
Speaker 4: was The Conjuring. It was a movie about like a
Speaker 4: like haunting and every time something would happen with a ghost.
Speaker 4: The whole theater would scream, and then there was fun.
Speaker 4: There was one part where it was like a very
Speaker 4: suspenseful scene and my brother's ex blew her nose and
Speaker 4: it sounded like a giant fart and the whole theater
Speaker 4: just like irrupted.
Speaker 3: It was so fun. That's so fun.
Speaker 1: Yeah, my dad and I still talk about when we
Speaker 1: want to see me myself and Irene. I mean, what
Speaker 1: year was at two thousand and three and it was
Speaker 1: at a in a predominantly black neighborhood, and.
Speaker 2: That makes us Is that weird that we're like, really,
Speaker 2: is that like white tourism? Like we I think it's.
Speaker 3: Very commonly known that black people in movie.
Speaker 2: Fed it into the black neighborhood to see the movie
Speaker 2: amongst I didn't.
Speaker 3: I didn't say it ventured.
Speaker 2: It's not like I was, like you implied ventured.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I almost died much like you on that mountain. No,
Speaker 3: it was just I lived there.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think, yeah, we just I was we were
Speaker 1: on a mission trip and no, it was just like
Speaker 1: where it was playing.
Speaker 2: Yes, I don't want to sound racist, but I do
Speaker 2: believe that black audiences in comedy are far superior to
Speaker 2: white audiences and if I would love, I.
Speaker 3: Wouldn't know there's like two black people per show for me.
Speaker 2: Oh my god, I mean I've been on well I well,
Speaker 2: you just gotta watch watch Like I was watching Chris
Speaker 2: Rock's Bigger and Blacker. I was we watching that. That
Speaker 2: was nineteen ninety nine, that was at the Apollo. And
Speaker 2: he even says the beginning of the show white people
Speaker 2: up top tonight, which is hilarious, and that audience is
Speaker 2: just like having so much fucking fun. Yes, I mean
Speaker 2: that specials maybe top five of all time. I mean
Speaker 2: he just which one was it Bigger and Blacker? Chris
Speaker 2: Bigger and Black where he does gun control? We need
Speaker 2: bullet control that one? Yes, yeah, And I'm just like, man,
Speaker 2: what I mean, how nice must it be to be
Speaker 2: able to perform at the Apollo, to do your special
Speaker 2: at the Apollo and from an audience that's just that
Speaker 2: reactive to everything you're doing, whereas I don't think a
Speaker 2: white audience. Maybe I don't know, is Burt Kurscher's show
Speaker 2: like that? Are they as wild and partying like what?
Speaker 2: B Kreisher? What's the equivalent? What's the equivalent white crowd
Speaker 2: having that good at the time.
Speaker 3: We have to get wasted.
Speaker 2: Yeah, unfortunately our phone.
Speaker 3: Yeah what'd you say?
Speaker 4: I said, Otherwise we're on our phone distracted and kind
Speaker 4: of just like coughing.
Speaker 2: There's a lot of coughing and white audiences.
Speaker 1: And just be holding in your pee because you don't
Speaker 1: want to be called out. So it's just like people
Speaker 1: just anxiously thinking about how they have to pee so badly,
Speaker 1: politely laughing if you look at them, Yeah, it's it's
Speaker 1: it is, it's we're so we're so uptight.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think that's what I get from it.
Speaker 1: But also the laughs that, like my mom and I
Speaker 1: were laughing. Let me just say the right places in
Speaker 1: this show, in this movie, because some stuff was really funny,
Speaker 1: but like it just made me realize how easy it
Speaker 1: is to make people laugh. Like I think I talked
Speaker 1: about this before when I went to go see a
Speaker 1: certain comedy movie and I was just disgusted with my
Speaker 1: fellow man at how they laughed at every dumb thing.
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh, this is why sitcoms are
Speaker 1: as cheesy as they are, because it's so easy to
Speaker 1: make people woa.
Speaker 3: Whoa whoa.
Speaker 2: She just said, oh.
Speaker 3: Like the classic like he's right behind me, is an.
Speaker 1: I like, whoa, We've never seen that before, Like just
Speaker 1: these these jokes you've seen a million times, and people
Speaker 1: were it was nice to see people laughing that freely, like, oh,
Speaker 1: they they're not as cynical, because I guess I am.
Speaker 3: But there was really.
Speaker 1: Funny stuff in it, but no one was laughing at
Speaker 1: the parts of my mom and I were laughing at
Speaker 1: and I'm not trying to say we're smarter, but I
Speaker 1: think we were, and all the other parts. I was
Speaker 1: just like, man, I gotta I gotta like change the
Speaker 1: way I do comedy. It's it's easier than I think.
Speaker 2: Mmmm, yeah, you know.
Speaker 3: Okay, okay, we're back. Final thought.
Speaker 1: I'm going to Australia. I think it's a fourteen hour flight.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, Melby, are you going? Where are you going
Speaker 2: to Hawaii first? Or is it full? No?
Speaker 1: That would be nice drop me off there. No, I'm going.
Speaker 1: I think it's just straight.
Speaker 2: There, damn from Saint Louis.
Speaker 1: Dude, I bought it with Miles. Yeah, I probably can.
Speaker 1: If I can, I really might do that. Chris will
Speaker 1: just be watching movies the entire time.
Speaker 2: He would get up and walk around at least once
Speaker 2: during a flight that long.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I will be because I have to pee.
Speaker 4: You know, you could open the window and get direct sunlight,
Speaker 4: like the sun will be right there.
Speaker 1: Apparently the sun rays up there really intense and you're
Speaker 1: not supposed to do that at all because it's like
Speaker 1: can't are causing for sure, because there's no like protection
Speaker 1: of the something.
Speaker 3: I don't know. They were just saying that, like in
Speaker 3: the air, you.
Speaker 1: Should keep that window down, but you're right, I should
Speaker 1: get a little sun that would be good. Yeah, I
Speaker 1: don't know what I'm going I mean, I love a
Speaker 1: long flight. The longer the better.
Speaker 2: I know.
Speaker 1: On these long bites, like when we went over to Europe,
Speaker 1: I would be like sad because it was only seven
Speaker 1: hours and I was like, I just want one more
Speaker 1: hour where no one can get me and there's nothing expected.
Speaker 1: I am a little nervous about like not being plugged
Speaker 1: into the like not working and not feeling like I'm
Speaker 1: doing something every day that I'm.
Speaker 2: Right the whole.
Speaker 1: Ten days you have the whole two weeks, like being
Speaker 1: over there and not having doing I guess I could
Speaker 1: do some sets or something, but then but then that
Speaker 1: turns into like everyone's got to come see you, like
Speaker 1: all of our friends.
Speaker 3: And I just don't want that. I would just want
Speaker 3: to perform for strangers.
Speaker 2: You know, you're gonna come back from Australia and like
Speaker 2: Taylor Tomlinson's gonna have another special out and she will
Speaker 2: is going to have another show on Netflix and it's
Speaker 2: just going to be what the.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I literally like made a boomerang of me, just
Speaker 1: I should do a boomerang.
Speaker 3: With me with a boomerang, Oh yeah, you know, like
Speaker 3: have the video.
Speaker 2: I wonder if that's been done ever. I don't think
Speaker 2: it's ever been done nopecially in Australia.
Speaker 1: Worried about other people accomplishing things because that keeps happening
Speaker 1: and I'm not getting anything. I like, I've been in
Speaker 1: a constant state of depression for I think like three years,
Speaker 1: no like three months now where it's just like I
Speaker 1: can't get out of it, and so I just I
Speaker 1: can't get things done at all. I like, I was
Speaker 1: supposed to pick a tour name and pictures of myself
Speaker 1: from my tour, Like I had a photo shoot on
Speaker 1: December twentieth, and I was supposed to go through those
Speaker 1: photos by the new year and send all the new
Speaker 1: photos to the promoter's promotion team, have them make a
Speaker 1: new posters. Let's rebrand my tour because I've had it
Speaker 1: called the Good Girl Tour for like almost two years now,
Speaker 1: and I'm really I'm going back to the same markets
Speaker 1: and they're gonna be like, this is the same tour
Speaker 1: and I'm like, no, it's not. So I just decided
Speaker 1: today I'm naming it Nikki Glazer Live. I don't want
Speaker 1: a name for the tour because I looked up tour
Speaker 1: names and I realized that everyone has like a co
Speaker 1: name for a tour, which is fine if you like
Speaker 1: really feel like that's what your tour is about. I'm
Speaker 1: always switching up my act and so I don't feel
Speaker 1: like there's any one thing I can call it. And
Speaker 1: then I saw Bill Burr called his tour bill Burr Live,
Speaker 1: and I'm just like, thank you, Like I don't need
Speaker 1: it to be anything else. That just tells you what
Speaker 1: it is. You see a poster, You're like, that's her live,
Speaker 1: that's here. So I'm just doing Nicki Glazer Live. Because
Speaker 1: I was struggling the past three days trying to come
Speaker 1: up with a name. And I'm just feeling so disconnected
Speaker 1: from all of them. I went through even the Depression's
Speaker 1: Era Tour, even though that fits so what my life
Speaker 1: is right now, I don't think that's a really good
Speaker 1: selling point. And I think she could get litigious and
Speaker 1: like sue me for it, And I think the Era's
Speaker 1: Tour is gonna change, Like I think making something based
Speaker 1: off of the Aras Tour. Oh sorry, I maybe didn't
Speaker 1: even mention that I was going to do it, call
Speaker 1: it the Depression Eras Tour and like have all the
Speaker 1: same imaging, but just obviously with me, and I thought
Speaker 1: it was a really good idea. Bestie suggested I think
Speaker 1: on an Instagram live once, and I decided to gainst
Speaker 1: that because if you don't know the Era's Tour, which
Speaker 1: is probably like twenty percent of America thirty percent, you'll
Speaker 1: like what is this?
Speaker 2: Yeah, especially if they're potentially going to go to one
Speaker 2: of your shows.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: But I just also like you are, like, do you
Speaker 1: want to hear a girl talk about depression?
Speaker 3: Like it just seems like.
Speaker 1: It's just not good marketing, right, Yeah, I mean all
Speaker 1: the all of it would be funny, The posters and
Speaker 1: stuff would be really funny. But if it's just on
Speaker 1: a marquee and you're like, what the fuck is that,
Speaker 1: or you just see it listed on something, it just
Speaker 1: doesn't say what it is.
Speaker 3: So I'm just NICKI. You guys arelive.
Speaker 1: I reviewed all these photos that I took in December yesterday.
Speaker 3: I don't take many of those like a depression tour era.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, you saw them too. I may have know
Speaker 1: go through them first. Oh boy, I could have helped
Speaker 1: you by the way.
Speaker 4: I mean, I picked the ones that I wanted for
Speaker 4: the podcast, but I could have picked more fat them.
Speaker 1: And everyone was like, yeah, have have people look at them.
Speaker 1: I had my assistant Jen look at them. I had
Speaker 1: you look at them. But even if Jen sent me
Speaker 1: her faves, you sent me your faves. I even if
Speaker 1: I saw those, I'd be like, there could have been
Speaker 1: better ones in there that they missed.
Speaker 3: Like I can't.
Speaker 1: I can't just relinquish trust when it comes to like
Speaker 1: my face and my material to anyone else. Like if
Speaker 1: someone were to be like Nikki, let this person edit
Speaker 1: you're special for you, I still would be like, m
Speaker 1: there might be things that I really like about, Like
Speaker 1: I've never once had someone like people always like pictures
Speaker 1: of me that I'm like, I've never seen a more
Speaker 1: disgusting photo of myself, you know, Like I think we
Speaker 1: all can relate to that where someone's like, this is
Speaker 1: so you and you go like, no, I look disgusting,
Speaker 1: and you just can't even believe anyone would think you
Speaker 1: look good in that, and you go, that's what I
Speaker 1: look like now. So there was really just no way
Speaker 1: for me to have anyone do it but myself, and
Speaker 1: so I had to look through all of them, and
Speaker 1: it is so hard to model. Can I just say
Speaker 1: that it is? Models do have a very some of it.
Speaker 1: Some it just comes naturally to them, but like, you
Speaker 1: have to have everything from your shoulders to your fingertips
Speaker 1: doing a thing that looks smooth and delicate, and it
Speaker 1: is truly impossible. I really want every woman in my
Speaker 1: life who is not an entertainment to have to do
Speaker 1: this so that they can relate to my struggle, because
Speaker 1: it's so not what I am cut out to do,
Speaker 1: yet I still have to do it, and it.
Speaker 3: Is so hard.
Speaker 1: I would say one out of every one hundred photos
Speaker 1: was even even usable, because sometimes my face would be okay,
Speaker 1: but then my hand would be doing some weird claw
Speaker 1: thing when my shoulder would be bent forward or like
Speaker 1: I it.
Speaker 2: Just there was it was.
Speaker 1: It was a nightmare to look at them and gratefully
Speaker 1: I have enough space because it was December twentieth, so
Speaker 1: now it's a month and a half later and I'm like, oh,
Speaker 1: I've totally changed since then.
Speaker 3: And but it was people are.
Speaker 2: Kids are just growing up having to pose constantly for photos,
Speaker 2: and I feel like, yeah, they're just like learning the
Speaker 2: poses when it's like when they're seven, and it's going
Speaker 2: to be ingrained into their skill set forever.
Speaker 3: I think I want to take a class.
Speaker 1: If there was like a class about how to pose
Speaker 1: in pictures and be a model, I would take it
Speaker 1: because it's it's something I have to do frequently enough.
Speaker 1: And although I have like my main poses, Like the
Speaker 1: picture I put picked, it's the same picture that I
Speaker 1: took for the Good Girl Tour. It's the same one,
Speaker 1: it's the same post, it's the same kind of look.
Speaker 1: There's I don't have a multitude of looks to choose from.
Speaker 1: It's I wish I was like an artist who doesn't
Speaker 1: show their face, like not see it. I'm not talented
Speaker 1: enough to be sea, But like, I just wish that
Speaker 1: I didn't have to like show my face all the time.
Speaker 1: But that's part of it, you know, like that you
Speaker 1: have to do these things and it's just so hard
Speaker 1: to do, and it's it's not getting better, you know,
Speaker 1: like I'm only going to age more. Annie was talking
Speaker 1: last night about seeing some show that Hugh Grant and
Speaker 1: Nicole Kidman is in, and she said literally that Hugh
Speaker 1: Grant's face is just too giant crow's feet all the
Speaker 1: way down and it's somehow very sexy and distinguished. And
Speaker 1: Nicole Kidman has is so tight there's no movement on
Speaker 1: her face and and everyone can say, well, we didn't
Speaker 1: ask her to do that.
Speaker 3: I don't think she would have this role if she
Speaker 3: didn't do those things.
Speaker 2: If she looks like to collect rainwater after a storm,
Speaker 2: what do you mean? What would it like? A stretch?
Speaker 2: That's how you Okay, that's how you collect rainwater. Stretch
Speaker 2: Obviously this is they stretch out like a piece of
Speaker 2: paper or tarp or something, and then the rainwater collects
Speaker 2: and then goes down into a little bucket.
Speaker 1: Yes, but Adnian and I were like, how did Annius,
Speaker 1: Like I want to find out like how it got way,
Speaker 1: Like why is it this way that men get to
Speaker 1: be this way and women get to be this way?
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, it's it's both men and women
Speaker 1: contributing to this, Like we won't stand up. There's only
Speaker 1: like three of us and myself not included, that are like,
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna wear makeup anymore, I'm not going to
Speaker 1: dress like this.
Speaker 3: I'm not I'm gonna wear what I want.
Speaker 1: But the rest of us are still no one strong
Speaker 1: enough to stop it. We can't get out of it.
Speaker 1: And she's like, maybe the next generation. I go, no,
Speaker 1: We're fucked, Yeah, the next generation.
Speaker 2: Every picture, every time they're seen in the public light
Speaker 2: is usually on the internet where there's filters, and then
Speaker 2: they go out into the real world they have to
Speaker 2: look like not even themselves on camera. They look like
Speaker 2: a much worse version of what people are seeing on
Speaker 2: the internet because there's filters.
Speaker 3: Yes, yes, the filters are killing me.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: And there were some shots that I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: I want to take out my eyebags, but I'm really
Speaker 1: against like doing any of that stuff because not because
Speaker 1: I want to send an exam for little girls and
Speaker 1: be like this is what a real element looks like.
Speaker 1: I just don't like to lie to myself, and I
Speaker 1: don't want because then people will be like, Nick, you're
Speaker 1: so beautiful, and I won't believe them because I know
Speaker 1: what I did to that picture, so it won't it
Speaker 1: won't matter, and it doesn't matter when people say I
Speaker 1: look beautiful.
Speaker 3: I like I looked.
Speaker 1: Everyone's like, you look so amazing at the Grammys, and
Speaker 1: I'm just like, as I always say, I don't.
Speaker 3: It's not real, like, of course I do.
Speaker 1: There was five hours I had to pay literally six
Speaker 1: thousand dollars to look that good for hair, makeup and styling,
Speaker 1: spray tan. It was approximately probably fifty two hundred dollars there.
Speaker 1: That's anyone should look good with that, And people go, no,
Speaker 1: it's not everyone good.
Speaker 3: It's like, yes they could, because it's all.
Speaker 1: There was hair extensions, there was Alec's extensions, there was makeup,
Speaker 1: there was spray tan.
Speaker 3: Like it's it's it's just all. It's so exhausting to.
Speaker 1: Do it all, but you I don't know what to do,
Speaker 1: and it's always gonna get it's only gonna get worse.
Speaker 1: That's my fear is that it just doesn't I want
Speaker 1: to just do a massive dose of mushrooms or something
Speaker 1: to make my brain not care. Like, the only way
Speaker 1: this point is to get a like a lobotomy. I
Speaker 1: just like, I can't because my face, my outside is
Speaker 1: never going to start getting younger and hotter.
Speaker 3: It's just not gonna happen. What do I do?
Speaker 1: Because I watched this documentary about this guy named Boogie
Speaker 1: eight eight nine or something. He was like a YouTuber
Speaker 1: that did a bunch of like do you know about
Speaker 1: this guy, Brian?
Speaker 3: He's like a game or YouTuber.
Speaker 1: He was he made he was one of the first YouTubers.
Speaker 1: But okay, he made a He was making a bunch
Speaker 1: of money through YouTube, his channel where he would do
Speaker 1: live streaming and whatever, I don't know, maybe twitching or whatever.
Speaker 3: And and then he.
Speaker 1: Just started getting depressed, gaining a lot of weight, spending
Speaker 1: too much money than he had, and it's like.
Speaker 3: It's what was that? That's it?
Speaker 4: I think it's just managing your depression and working through that.
Speaker 4: That's the only way that you'll be able to continue
Speaker 4: working in the industry and not care so much about.
Speaker 3: Yeah, well I guess not to care.
Speaker 4: You will care about your appearance because you present yourself well,
Speaker 4: and even at your shows, you've talked about like dressing
Speaker 4: up on stage so that people come and they come
Speaker 4: for like the show, and it's.
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's stuck with me too, that's why we're Yeah.
Speaker 4: So I think just like it's it's the depression that
Speaker 4: is getting in your way because it's not the way
Speaker 4: you look in photos.
Speaker 3: I have a completely different opinion.
Speaker 2: It's tough because Nicky's career has so far up to
Speaker 2: this point, a lot of it has been based on
Speaker 2: looks like you're you're you're a good looking comedian. You
Speaker 2: always dress up you like this is a big part
Speaker 2: of your presentation. Yes, and so in order to get
Speaker 2: off of that, you'd have to like make a legitimate
Speaker 2: like pivot, like now I'm I won't ridden a black woman,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, sun burnt back lady. I won't get off it.
Speaker 1: I mean I have to eventually, because we all age
Speaker 1: to a point of being pretty grotesque. But I I
Speaker 1: think that I just need to do massive like it
Speaker 1: does start with my brain, Like I know that it's
Speaker 1: like it's I have a disease in my brain which
Speaker 1: gets no respect, like in terms of like people with
Speaker 1: cancer people with any kind of terminal physical illness, so
Speaker 1: much respect, so much pity, so much Oh my god,
Speaker 1: are you okay?
Speaker 3: How could? There's nothing we can do?
Speaker 1: But you know, even though we can't do anything, like
Speaker 1: we're here to help you here, like everyone fucking gets
Speaker 1: it with cancer, But with depression, it seems like it's
Speaker 1: just your choice. You're choosing not to find someone to to.
Speaker 1: You're not you're choosing not to find the right treatment
Speaker 1: or whatever. It's just like but but it's you can't
Speaker 1: find a repayment because the thing like you're trying to
Speaker 1: fix a broken leg and they're telling you to go
Speaker 1: run somewhere to get the treatment, so like you can.
Speaker 1: If you have depression, you it's hard to make doctor's appointments.
Speaker 3: It's hard.
Speaker 1: I just got my fucking meds filled today. I'm supposed
Speaker 1: to be on sixty milligrams of something. Guess what, it's
Speaker 1: ten milligrams. I started crying because I'm just like I
Speaker 1: it took me so much fucking effort to get this
Speaker 1: med and now it's worthless because he gave me ten
Speaker 1: instead of sixty. So I wrote an email to him
Speaker 1: being like, I don't know how I could have been clearer.
Speaker 1: I'm trying to be heard and understood by you. We
Speaker 1: knew it, we needed sixty. I said, I wanted sixty.
Speaker 3: How did you? How did you give me ten?
Speaker 1: How are you making this more complicated for me when
Speaker 1: you're supposed to help me? What is the fucking point?
Speaker 1: It was so frustrating, but say that. Yeah I didn't
Speaker 1: say fucking but I just said okay. I wrote an email,
Speaker 1: so they haven't gotten back to me. But I'm just
Speaker 1: like this, it's really hard for me to trust you
Speaker 1: from now on. When I repeated four times, I think
Speaker 1: the sixty is best for me because I have a
Speaker 1: hard time filling it.
Speaker 3: Let's be honest.
Speaker 1: I take probably twenty to thirty a day of this
Speaker 1: medicine when I need it, But I empty out the
Speaker 1: sixties and I put them in water to be salt.
Speaker 3: It doesn't even matter.
Speaker 1: So I need the sixties to get me through because
Speaker 1: I can't fill these medications every fucking month because the
Speaker 1: Walgreens I go to because this medical substance it's control
Speaker 1: so nice. Yeah yeah, and it I can't get like
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't abuse it. I barely even take it,
Speaker 1: like thirty days of sixty will get me through like
Speaker 1: literally six months, but now I have to like, now
Speaker 1: go to this ten.
Speaker 3: It's just was so frustrating.
Speaker 1: Don't worry about it, I don't like to say, because
Speaker 1: then people start commenting about like you should be on
Speaker 1: this and I want to be on that, and they
Speaker 1: just like they start having opinions and I just don't
Speaker 1: need it.
Speaker 3: So but it's just it's just so I just it
Speaker 3: makes you just want to give up, try to get
Speaker 3: help and listening.
Speaker 4: Yeah, And you just can't have big expectations about managing depression.
Speaker 4: You just do one thing at a time and you
Speaker 4: just try, try, try. You know that you like watching
Speaker 4: the crime documentaries and the end of.
Speaker 3: The World stuff.
Speaker 4: But if you slowly eliminate things like that that create
Speaker 4: fear and anxiety in your head and just replace them.
Speaker 3: Feels good to me.
Speaker 1: Like it's just negativity, yes, yes, but I meant going
Speaker 1: shopping would make me more depressed than watching a whard
Speaker 1: or a documentary about like a rape murder crime like that.
Speaker 1: I avoid stuff all the time that causes me depression,
Speaker 1: in terms of like not looking in mirrors, not looking
Speaker 1: at a photo shoot. Until a month and a half later,
Speaker 1: like I have things in place where I know I'm
Speaker 1: instantly going to get depressed being around certain friends that
Speaker 1: are too perfect, Like I sometimes avoid certain friends because
Speaker 1: they trigger me to like hate myself, Like I try
Speaker 1: to like and that's not a good thing that I do,
Speaker 1: but I have to do it because I know what
Speaker 1: will make me fall off the deep end.
Speaker 3: And it's still.
Speaker 1: It's just ugh, I just I don't know, Like I
Speaker 1: just I'm frustrated that depression just always seems like you're
Speaker 1: it's your fault and like you're not doing enough, and
Speaker 1: then when I try to do something, it's just so
Speaker 1: hard to do anything about it.
Speaker 3: I know that people can relate who are listening, and.
Speaker 4: We're so lucky because earlier in the show we talked
Speaker 4: about our families not getting therapy and stuff, and it's like,
Speaker 4: if you think about growing up in your parents' time,
Speaker 4: they didn't even.
Speaker 3: Know what depression was. At least we know about it.
Speaker 1: Hold it like and the Killers of the flowermon this
Speaker 1: one guy has melancholy, and I was like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: someone representation. I was like, I have the melanchol and
Speaker 1: he's like he's been sad his whole life and I'm
Speaker 1: like me too, Like it's so nice to hear about
Speaker 1: other people who suffer with it. So I think that's
Speaker 1: why I'm so open about it, because obviously I get
Speaker 1: people writing to me that also suffer with it, and
Speaker 1: then I get you know it, and it helps me
Speaker 1: to hear that other people have it.
Speaker 3: But I also know that it helps to hear that
Speaker 3: someone has it.
Speaker 1: But it's just like, I don't really have anyone in
Speaker 1: my close life that suffers with depression like I do,
Speaker 1: except Ian Finance.
Speaker 3: I called him the other day because he always gets it.
Speaker 3: I can say the darkest shit and he's like me too, man.
Speaker 1: Like It's like remember when I told Carlisle one time
Speaker 1: I wanted to I was like, I think I'm just
Speaker 1: gonna have to kill myself some day, and instead of
Speaker 1: being like support, she just goes me too.
Speaker 3: It was that was hilarious.
Speaker 1: But Ian Uh was really great the other day because
Speaker 1: he caught me a a and then he just started
Speaker 1: like bombarding me with calls and I was like not
Speaker 1: picking up because I'm like on a plane and I
Speaker 1: can't talk, and he's like, well then I just pick
Speaker 1: up and just listen, and he just wasn't being so
Speaker 1: wacky and so funny and really really dark in it.
Speaker 1: Like it helps me because he has gone there before
Speaker 1: and thought those things, so it was nice. But otherwise
Speaker 1: it just seems like people are just like, just make
Speaker 1: your bed go for a while, and it's like that's
Speaker 1: that is all true, that it is all true, Like
Speaker 1: those things do help. Like Noah's suggestions of like watching
Speaker 1: more positive things is honestly a good suggestion, and I
Speaker 1: and I will be more mindful of that stuff. But
Speaker 1: it's just I just don't. I wish more people understood
Speaker 1: how bad it is. And I think that's why I
Speaker 1: try to That's why I like sometimes on Girls Chatter,
Speaker 1: like even on here, I can say like really dark,
Speaker 1: fucked up things that make may people go kind of
Speaker 1: go like whoa. But it's like, how else are you
Speaker 1: supposed to show.
Speaker 3: What you what is happening?
Speaker 1: Like I need to like kind of like this is
Speaker 1: how I actually feel like I honestly think it's why
Speaker 1: a lot of times people kill themselves. I think it's
Speaker 1: because people don't believe that they're in pain. And if
Speaker 1: you kill yourself, what does everyone say? She must have
Speaker 1: been in so much pain?
Speaker 3: I can't.
Speaker 1: The pain she must be feeling must have been unimaginable.
Speaker 1: Why does no one have that said about them until
Speaker 1: after they kill themselves. No one says, you know, she's
Speaker 1: on medication, she's going to a doctor. She must be
Speaker 1: in so much pain. She can't get out of bed today. Now,
Speaker 1: she must be in so much pain. It's usually just like, ugh,
Speaker 1: she's in one of her things. Like people only get
Speaker 1: that kind of sympathy and understanding from the general public
Speaker 1: after they throw themselves from a hotel roof. Like it's
Speaker 1: only after that people go, wow, we had no idea.
Speaker 1: People are in quiet pain all over and it's just like, well,
Speaker 1: maybe if we made it better more okay to talk
Speaker 1: about that, and we we could empathize more.
Speaker 3: But I do think that's the root of why, Like I.
Speaker 2: Always say, yeah, after they kill themselves, then that's an opera.
Speaker 2: They can make that about them, whereas when you're if
Speaker 2: someone's depressed, they can't make that about them. But when
Speaker 2: someone kills themselves, then all of a sudden they can
Speaker 2: be like, oh my god, I had no idea they
Speaker 2: were in so much pain, and I knew that person,
Speaker 2: And then it becomes like a little like a little
Speaker 2: trophy for them to hold up, whereas when someone's depressed,
Speaker 2: there's no there's there's no ego that you can apply
Speaker 2: to that.
Speaker 1: Well, because I'm not going to kill myself, but I
Speaker 1: talk about it a lot because I wish it was
Speaker 1: a thing that I could do more easily, or like
Speaker 1: that I could do it then come back again.
Speaker 3: You know, like there's a.
Speaker 1: Million reasons why I would never do it, and I'm
Speaker 1: not going to do it, But sometimes I say I'm
Speaker 1: going to do it because I just want people to understand.
Speaker 1: I just and I don't want them to get worried
Speaker 1: and call the cops or whatever, but I just want
Speaker 1: them to I get why people do it. I completely understand.
Speaker 1: Not only are you do you want the pain to stop?
Speaker 1: You want people to fucking get it. How miserable you are,
Speaker 1: Yeah to be understood. And I think that's what a
Speaker 1: lot of depression is is that people aren't understood, they
Speaker 1: don't feel understood. And I think that's what draws me
Speaker 1: to comedy, honestly, is like because I get to talk
Speaker 1: into a microphone and be like, these are my feelings,
Speaker 1: and you can't refute them by talking back or you'll
Speaker 1: get kicked out of here. So I wish it was
Speaker 1: helping more, but it's Yeah, it's just been a rough
Speaker 1: patch recently. But but it's not always this way.
Speaker 3: It's there's there's more.
Speaker 1: There's definitely if you spend time with friends is good,
Speaker 1: if you talk about it a lot, if you listen
Speaker 1: to like when you're depressed music sounds really good. Reaching
Speaker 1: out to other friends who are depressed has been very
Speaker 1: helpful for me, like not just talking to friends who
Speaker 1: are doing well, because it's just like it's just hard
Speaker 1: when I don't want to call people when they're doing well.
Speaker 1: Like I have a couple people in my life right
Speaker 1: now who are really going through a sad time, and
Speaker 1: it's been better for us to talk to each other.
Speaker 3: And yeah, so that that stuff has.
Speaker 1: Been helping and and and honestly that Hannah's videos. If
Speaker 1: you're depressed out there, listen to that woman. She is
Speaker 1: like so nurturing mother spirit, like so understanding of you
Speaker 1: being a little sad bitch.
Speaker 3: And I mean that with love. So I guess that's
Speaker 3: the end of the show. Yeah, we'll be back next week,
Speaker 3: all right, So I'm in Australia.
Speaker 1: I won't have stories from next week because we are
Speaker 1: still going to be doing pre taped episodes, but we
Speaker 1: will be up to date pretty soon.
Speaker 3: But these are all new episodes.
Speaker 1: These aren't repeats. We just banked them beforehand. We worked
Speaker 1: really hard to do so, so I hope you enjoy them.
Speaker 1: I love you, bust these WKA and see you next week.