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Speaker 1: Hey, this is Annie and Samantha and welcome to Stephane.

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Speaker 1: Never told your prediction of I Heart Radio, and it's

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Speaker 1: time for another fiction piece. I'm not sure how. I

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Speaker 1: guess January just got all booked up, but this is

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Speaker 1: happening in February. There was no fiction piece in January.

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Speaker 1: Apologies if that upsets you, And as always, I only

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Speaker 1: put this in here not because anyone has like thrown

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Speaker 1: up a stink, as they say, but I know some

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Speaker 1: people aren't super into like sound effects and fiction. This

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Speaker 1: is a once a month thing. If it's not your thing,

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Speaker 1: that's okay. It's not gonna overtake our content. We produce

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Speaker 1: a lot of stuff we do. I just say we

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Speaker 1: have five other options a week, so I think we're good. Also,

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Speaker 1: I told you need to go watch Archive eighty one.

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Speaker 1: I have heard this well. And the reason I say

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Speaker 1: this is because I feel like, isn't I think that

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Speaker 1: may be the first I've seen now, to be fair,

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Speaker 1: that's probably others. But the first podcast we turned into

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Speaker 1: a series, and my partner and I binged at all.

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Speaker 1: We really did like it. I think this could be

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Speaker 1: right up that alley. So these little tales of ours.

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Speaker 1: I'm just saying I like these little tales of ours.

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Speaker 1: I like of yours. But you know, I'm just saying,

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Speaker 1: like that's things. Yeah, yeah, I numerous people have told

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Speaker 1: me about Archive eighty one, which is based on a

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Speaker 1: podcast I believe lour on Amazon Primes. The Lord doesn't.

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Speaker 1: It's not the same though, so the lore is just

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Speaker 1: essentially they're voicing over like, yeah, that's where Archive ad

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Speaker 1: one is an actual, like fictionalized series where they aren't

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Speaker 1: like there is a podcast character, which I do love,

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Speaker 1: documentary or anything. It's literally a show show. Uh, found

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Speaker 1: footage type of horror show. Yes, I really think you

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Speaker 1: would like it. You need to watch it. I know

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Speaker 1: I have great hopes for these fiction pieces. Okay, Oh

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Speaker 1: I did get some. I got some contexts from probably

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Speaker 1: cold call emails, but they were like, we noticed you're

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Speaker 1: doing fiction on some now would you like to get

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Speaker 1: an agent? And I was like, is this legit. I

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Speaker 1: don't know, but yes, I are friend and co worker

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Speaker 1: Ben Bowling from stuff they don't want you to know

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Speaker 1: a bunch of other stuff. Yes, most importantly, Samantha's nemesis

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Speaker 1: established this. Now he said it on his show, so

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Speaker 1: I texted back and said, I, for one, I'm finally

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Speaker 1: grateful to be able to well, actually that's not how

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Speaker 1: I think so, although it does kind of blay into

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Speaker 1: the joke that everybody has a podcast now. Alright, Well,

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Speaker 1: this fiction piece in classics sminty fashion. As we're entering

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Speaker 1: February and this month of of love of Valentine's a Day,

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Speaker 1: I wanted to bring up this fiction piece that I

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Speaker 1: happy Valantine's Day, Everybody's day. However, I was discussing with

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Speaker 1: That's the way of those young romances, like this piece

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Speaker 1: Perhaps more than any of us have ever realized. She

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Speaker 1: Trying to play god. We created something out of our

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Speaker 1: her will. For years, we imprisoned her, monitored her. She

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