1 00:00:03,680 --> 00:00:05,440 Speaker 1: She's like, yeah, have you seen Twitter? And I'm like no, 2 00:00:06,880 --> 00:00:09,160 Speaker 1: and she says, well, I don't think you should look, 3 00:00:09,200 --> 00:00:14,120 Speaker 1: but you know, apparently your mom's plane is missing. My 4 00:00:14,240 --> 00:00:20,000 Speaker 1: family and I are not okay, my extended family should 5 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:22,200 Speaker 1: I say my siblings? And I think goodness were good. 6 00:00:23,640 --> 00:00:26,920 Speaker 1: That's the way we can keep her alive is by 7 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:35,800 Speaker 1: listening to her music. Hello, guys, and welcome to another 8 00:00:35,880 --> 00:00:39,839 Speaker 1: episode of cheek, Ease and Chill. I hope you all 9 00:00:39,880 --> 00:00:42,360 Speaker 1: had a great weekend and your week is off to 10 00:00:42,440 --> 00:00:45,479 Speaker 1: a really great start. If you're listening to me today, 11 00:00:45,680 --> 00:00:48,479 Speaker 1: well I'm sure it will be. But thank you so 12 00:00:48,560 --> 00:00:51,120 Speaker 1: much for tuning in. Today's episode is one that's near 13 00:00:51,120 --> 00:00:54,960 Speaker 1: and dear to my heart. This podcast is very special 14 00:00:54,960 --> 00:00:57,560 Speaker 1: to me for many reasons. I've talked about that before. 15 00:00:58,080 --> 00:01:00,520 Speaker 1: It's a space where I can share very personal and 16 00:01:00,520 --> 00:01:03,080 Speaker 1: intimate details with you, and that's exactly what I'm going 17 00:01:03,120 --> 00:01:06,240 Speaker 1: to be doing today. It's dedicated to my mom. You guys, 18 00:01:06,640 --> 00:01:11,919 Speaker 1: it's going to be nine years since my mother, Jenny Rivera, 19 00:01:12,400 --> 00:01:17,640 Speaker 1: left us. So grab some tequila, some coffee, probably some tequila, 20 00:01:18,200 --> 00:01:21,480 Speaker 1: and let's do it. Let's get into checks and Chill. 21 00:01:29,880 --> 00:01:33,759 Speaker 1: So this Friday marks nine years since my mom died. UM. 22 00:01:33,880 --> 00:01:37,640 Speaker 1: December nine, my mom and six others died in a 23 00:01:37,680 --> 00:01:45,400 Speaker 1: plane crash in northern Mexico, and that day, yes the world, 24 00:01:46,480 --> 00:01:48,840 Speaker 1: we all lost her, and it was a very difficult day. 25 00:01:49,840 --> 00:01:51,360 Speaker 1: Those of you that know me, that I have read 26 00:01:51,400 --> 00:01:57,160 Speaker 1: my book, know that I lost my mom on October two. 27 00:01:58,640 --> 00:02:01,480 Speaker 1: I lost her before everyone else did her and I 28 00:02:01,560 --> 00:02:04,480 Speaker 1: had a falling out, a misunderstanding. There were a lot 29 00:02:04,480 --> 00:02:08,160 Speaker 1: of toxic voices around her at the time, and we 30 00:02:08,160 --> 00:02:10,400 Speaker 1: weren't talking. This is a second time that she had 31 00:02:10,440 --> 00:02:13,839 Speaker 1: done that to me. Um, she kind of just she 32 00:02:14,040 --> 00:02:16,160 Speaker 1: was a woman that was very strong and said in 33 00:02:16,160 --> 00:02:20,639 Speaker 1: her ways, so her lessons were always very tough. UM. 34 00:02:20,840 --> 00:02:22,720 Speaker 1: So the first time she did that to me, and 35 00:02:22,760 --> 00:02:26,000 Speaker 1: it was honestly two months as well, I was fourteen 36 00:02:26,080 --> 00:02:29,400 Speaker 1: going into my to my fifteenth birthday. It was that 37 00:02:29,560 --> 00:02:34,400 Speaker 1: summer of when I was fourteen. Um, we were ending 38 00:02:34,919 --> 00:02:38,200 Speaker 1: school and you know during that time, you know, like 39 00:02:38,280 --> 00:02:40,400 Speaker 1: at the end ever, you're doing all the tests and stuff. 40 00:02:40,440 --> 00:02:44,480 Speaker 1: So I'm I went with my friends. Instead of telling her, 41 00:02:44,520 --> 00:02:46,120 Speaker 1: I got out early. I remember it was a Monday 42 00:02:46,120 --> 00:02:49,400 Speaker 1: as well, and instead of telling her, hey, Mom, I 43 00:02:49,440 --> 00:02:50,960 Speaker 1: got out early. I went with my friends to go 44 00:02:51,040 --> 00:02:54,440 Speaker 1: have a cheeseburger and fries across the street. I just thought, okay, 45 00:02:54,480 --> 00:02:56,520 Speaker 1: I'll tell her that I'm off, you know, at twelve 46 00:02:56,520 --> 00:02:58,680 Speaker 1: o'clock the rest of the week. So she thought I 47 00:02:58,680 --> 00:03:00,519 Speaker 1: had lied to her. Well I kind of did in 48 00:03:00,560 --> 00:03:03,440 Speaker 1: a way. So anyways, she kicked me out. It was 49 00:03:03,480 --> 00:03:05,040 Speaker 1: a big thing. I explained all of it in my 50 00:03:05,040 --> 00:03:08,560 Speaker 1: book Forgiveness or better than in Spanish. And she stopped 51 00:03:08,560 --> 00:03:11,400 Speaker 1: talking to me for two months. And I'll never forget 52 00:03:11,440 --> 00:03:13,480 Speaker 1: because for my fifteenth birthday I didn't get a call 53 00:03:13,520 --> 00:03:16,560 Speaker 1: from her. Then later on, as I explained the book 54 00:03:16,560 --> 00:03:18,720 Speaker 1: as well, how we started talking. You know, she just 55 00:03:18,760 --> 00:03:20,359 Speaker 1: grabbed my little long because I was staying in my 56 00:03:20,400 --> 00:03:22,160 Speaker 1: grandma's house, and she said, you know, I think it's 57 00:03:22,200 --> 00:03:23,959 Speaker 1: time for you to come home. You've you've you've had 58 00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:26,520 Speaker 1: a very nice time here at your grandma's house eating, 59 00:03:26,560 --> 00:03:28,600 Speaker 1: so it's time for you to come home. And she 60 00:03:28,680 --> 00:03:31,640 Speaker 1: put me on a diet and she fixed my hair 61 00:03:31,639 --> 00:03:33,640 Speaker 1: because she had cut it. It's just so much, you know. 62 00:03:33,840 --> 00:03:36,640 Speaker 1: So anyways, the second time that ever happened was in October. 63 00:03:39,240 --> 00:03:42,560 Speaker 1: On October two, that was basically the last time I 64 00:03:42,600 --> 00:03:48,120 Speaker 1: had heard from my mother in September, things got really weird. 65 00:03:48,960 --> 00:03:53,080 Speaker 1: My mom was in a very weird place in her 66 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:57,240 Speaker 1: life um emotionally and mentally, I feel. And this is 67 00:03:57,280 --> 00:04:00,960 Speaker 1: another thing that we've never talked about publicly because it 68 00:04:01,000 --> 00:04:05,720 Speaker 1: was always just forbidden. But my mom wasn't wasn't doing 69 00:04:05,720 --> 00:04:08,960 Speaker 1: too well, and I could tell, and all of us 70 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:10,800 Speaker 1: could tell, but no one could say anything because we 71 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:13,320 Speaker 1: were afraid to upset her. But things were getting kind 72 00:04:13,320 --> 00:04:15,560 Speaker 1: of weird. And on October two, I did get the 73 00:04:15,600 --> 00:04:19,680 Speaker 1: email and the subject said lights on. I believe it 74 00:04:19,720 --> 00:04:23,960 Speaker 1: was lights on. And it was a long, long email, 75 00:04:24,640 --> 00:04:27,599 Speaker 1: which maybe one day I'll share with you guys, very 76 00:04:27,640 --> 00:04:31,520 Speaker 1: strong email, and basically what it said was that all 77 00:04:31,560 --> 00:04:33,960 Speaker 1: everything came together and the lights were now on, that 78 00:04:34,000 --> 00:04:36,800 Speaker 1: she could see clearly that I had been sleeping with 79 00:04:36,839 --> 00:04:43,680 Speaker 1: her husband Estevan at the time. And I remember being 80 00:04:43,800 --> 00:04:45,800 Speaker 1: at a dinner and I just dropped my phone. I 81 00:04:45,800 --> 00:04:50,680 Speaker 1: said what I was in disbelief. I drove to my 82 00:04:50,760 --> 00:04:54,320 Speaker 1: mom's house. I didn't even finished reading the entire email 83 00:04:54,920 --> 00:04:57,159 Speaker 1: that night, but I drove to my mom's house. I 84 00:04:57,200 --> 00:05:02,440 Speaker 1: had all the gate codes. Everything has changed, I remember, 85 00:05:02,480 --> 00:05:04,719 Speaker 1: I don't know how I did it, but I pulled 86 00:05:04,760 --> 00:05:08,559 Speaker 1: that gate open and I was knocking and on the door, 87 00:05:08,600 --> 00:05:11,960 Speaker 1: banging on it. Everything was closed, the keys were changed 88 00:05:12,000 --> 00:05:14,360 Speaker 1: on me. I was just like, what in the hell 89 00:05:14,480 --> 00:05:17,359 Speaker 1: is going on? I fell to the floor. I was crying. 90 00:05:17,400 --> 00:05:20,800 Speaker 1: I called my sister Jackie. I was confused. I was like, 91 00:05:20,880 --> 00:05:24,400 Speaker 1: what the heck is going on? I tried my very 92 00:05:24,440 --> 00:05:27,480 Speaker 1: best to contact her, and every way, through email, through 93 00:05:27,480 --> 00:05:30,239 Speaker 1: her Twitter, she blocked me. Everywhere. She changed her email, 94 00:05:30,279 --> 00:05:32,840 Speaker 1: she changed her number. I mean, coming from having all 95 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:35,160 Speaker 1: the access in the world to her to having none 96 00:05:35,279 --> 00:05:39,839 Speaker 1: was devastating. And then my siblings had to forcefully be 97 00:05:39,920 --> 00:05:42,040 Speaker 1: on her side because if not, it was an issue. 98 00:05:42,920 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: So it was very hard for me. It was a 99 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:50,479 Speaker 1: woman that came into her life a couple of months 100 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:55,920 Speaker 1: before that started throwing Vaneno just evilness into her ear, 101 00:05:56,080 --> 00:06:00,000 Speaker 1: and I don't know how just made up this whole store, 102 00:06:00,200 --> 00:06:02,640 Speaker 1: and my mom again was not in the right place 103 00:06:02,680 --> 00:06:06,600 Speaker 1: emotionally or mentally. Don't take my word for it. One 104 00:06:06,680 --> 00:06:08,960 Speaker 1: day my siblings will talk and say the truth about 105 00:06:08,960 --> 00:06:12,120 Speaker 1: what was going on during that time. I have actually 106 00:06:12,120 --> 00:06:14,360 Speaker 1: on my evidence to show that that could have not happened. 107 00:06:14,360 --> 00:06:16,800 Speaker 1: The night that she thought it happened. I had the 108 00:06:16,960 --> 00:06:20,880 Speaker 1: phone record showing that when in the cameras it said that, Okay, 109 00:06:20,920 --> 00:06:24,400 Speaker 1: maybe I was gone in the room with a Stevan, 110 00:06:24,560 --> 00:06:28,279 Speaker 1: That's completely false. You could see my head in another camera. 111 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:30,760 Speaker 1: I have phone calls that I was actually on the 112 00:06:30,760 --> 00:06:33,640 Speaker 1: phone with my uncle Juan and my ex boyfriend for 113 00:06:33,720 --> 00:06:35,480 Speaker 1: thirty minutes during the time that she thought I was 114 00:06:35,480 --> 00:06:37,599 Speaker 1: gone and couldn't see me in the cameras. So it's 115 00:06:37,640 --> 00:06:39,799 Speaker 1: just I never had the opportunity. I tried to explain 116 00:06:39,839 --> 00:06:41,640 Speaker 1: this to her many times, and to my aunt and 117 00:06:41,680 --> 00:06:44,839 Speaker 1: everyone around tell her this, but she just wasn't She 118 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:47,120 Speaker 1: didn't want to listen. That's why it was so important 119 00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:50,640 Speaker 1: to me to write Forgiveness and to explain this is 120 00:06:50,640 --> 00:06:53,240 Speaker 1: my truth, for my future children, from my future husband, 121 00:06:53,839 --> 00:06:56,480 Speaker 1: for the people my followers that knew me from chickens 122 00:06:56,480 --> 00:06:58,760 Speaker 1: and control from chickens, and roxy from what I was 123 00:06:58,800 --> 00:07:02,479 Speaker 1: already starting. I did not do this that I to me, 124 00:07:02,600 --> 00:07:04,880 Speaker 1: it's accusing me of doing something like that is killing 125 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:07,359 Speaker 1: is like killing someone, is murdering someone. And I would 126 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:09,320 Speaker 1: never do that to my mother, first of all, as 127 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:11,280 Speaker 1: a woman, I just wouldn't do it, And secondly, I 128 00:07:11,280 --> 00:07:13,040 Speaker 1: would be too damn scared to do that to my mom. 129 00:07:13,080 --> 00:07:15,840 Speaker 1: I mean, I know my mother, like, there's no way, 130 00:07:16,000 --> 00:07:17,440 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And I loved to Stepan 131 00:07:17,520 --> 00:07:19,920 Speaker 1: as a stepfather, and I loved him because he loved 132 00:07:19,920 --> 00:07:22,240 Speaker 1: my siblings, because he was so good to my mother. 133 00:07:22,760 --> 00:07:26,560 Speaker 1: So no, it's completely false. And I invite you guys 134 00:07:26,560 --> 00:07:29,840 Speaker 1: to read Forgiveness so that you guys can understand the 135 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,080 Speaker 1: entire story in detail. That's why I wrote the book. 136 00:07:32,600 --> 00:07:34,640 Speaker 1: But that was what happened, and that's what that was, 137 00:07:34,720 --> 00:07:37,320 Speaker 1: a falling out between my mom and I. But I 138 00:07:37,360 --> 00:07:39,000 Speaker 1: always had a faith that we were going to talk, 139 00:07:39,280 --> 00:07:40,920 Speaker 1: that we were going to talk and sit down and 140 00:07:40,960 --> 00:07:43,800 Speaker 1: clear it up and everything was gonna be fine. But again, 141 00:07:44,280 --> 00:07:49,200 Speaker 1: there wasn't enough time, and that's when I lost my mom. 142 00:07:49,320 --> 00:07:52,120 Speaker 1: I remember going to therapy and the therapist told me, 143 00:07:52,160 --> 00:07:55,080 Speaker 1: you know what, you are going to have to start 144 00:07:55,120 --> 00:07:58,040 Speaker 1: living your life like if she was no longer here. 145 00:07:58,480 --> 00:08:01,280 Speaker 1: And I remember saying, like, what do you mean. It 146 00:08:01,400 --> 00:08:03,000 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, like if she had passed away. This 147 00:08:03,080 --> 00:08:06,240 Speaker 1: was two weeks before December nine, and I'll never forget. 148 00:08:06,280 --> 00:08:08,280 Speaker 1: And I looked and I looked at my therapist and 149 00:08:08,280 --> 00:08:10,760 Speaker 1: I said, what it hit me and I cried and 150 00:08:10,800 --> 00:08:12,560 Speaker 1: I cried and I said, you know what, Yes, I'm 151 00:08:12,640 --> 00:08:17,560 Speaker 1: dying slowly inside. I had suicidal thoughts. I didn't have 152 00:08:17,720 --> 00:08:21,440 Speaker 1: everything and everyone, my siblings, my mother that were so 153 00:08:21,480 --> 00:08:25,360 Speaker 1: important to me. But of course I didn't understand that then. 154 00:08:25,840 --> 00:08:29,120 Speaker 1: Now that I look back, now that I know how 155 00:08:29,160 --> 00:08:32,840 Speaker 1: God works and now I know everything that I went 156 00:08:32,840 --> 00:08:36,920 Speaker 1: through had a reason. But during that time it was 157 00:08:37,040 --> 00:08:40,080 Speaker 1: it was horrible. So when December nine came and the 158 00:08:40,120 --> 00:08:43,520 Speaker 1: world lost her, I was already a few steps into 159 00:08:43,559 --> 00:08:47,719 Speaker 1: the healing process, so I was able to be there 160 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:50,520 Speaker 1: for my siblings. And like I said, everything does happen 161 00:08:50,559 --> 00:08:54,840 Speaker 1: for a reason. God's plans are perfect. And it hurt 162 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:59,640 Speaker 1: me very much. Obviously I lost her twice. But who 163 00:08:59,720 --> 00:09:03,560 Speaker 1: kept me alive were my siblings, all four of them, 164 00:09:03,679 --> 00:09:05,640 Speaker 1: but more than anything, Johnny and Jensica. And my sister. 165 00:09:05,760 --> 00:09:09,840 Speaker 1: Jennica was fifteen, she's now twenty three. Johnny was eleven, 166 00:09:10,000 --> 00:09:13,200 Speaker 1: he's now about to be twenty one. So I took 167 00:09:13,400 --> 00:09:16,120 Speaker 1: them under my wing and I said, I let's go. 168 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:17,360 Speaker 1: I'm going to take care of you. I'm not going 169 00:09:17,440 --> 00:09:19,559 Speaker 1: to leave your side. And I didn't and I haven't. 170 00:09:20,840 --> 00:09:23,760 Speaker 1: And that's the way that I honor my mother every 171 00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:26,599 Speaker 1: single day since she passed. And yes, I was disinherited 172 00:09:26,640 --> 00:09:29,880 Speaker 1: because of this whole fallout and this misunderstanding, and by 173 00:09:29,880 --> 00:09:32,880 Speaker 1: the way, I gathered up all of my evidence to 174 00:09:32,920 --> 00:09:35,520 Speaker 1: show my mom what is being said is not true, 175 00:09:36,280 --> 00:09:38,720 Speaker 1: and she just kept saying that she needed time and 176 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:42,439 Speaker 1: time and time. And look, you know then there wasn't. 177 00:09:42,800 --> 00:09:46,920 Speaker 1: Time just took its course and God had other plans. 178 00:09:47,600 --> 00:09:51,760 Speaker 1: But anyways, I was disinherited. But I always say that 179 00:09:53,120 --> 00:09:55,520 Speaker 1: the inheritance that my mother left me were my siblings. 180 00:09:56,240 --> 00:10:00,400 Speaker 1: The most important and the biggest inheritance are my siblings. 181 00:10:01,160 --> 00:10:03,960 Speaker 1: And that's how I honor her legacy every single day 182 00:10:04,000 --> 00:10:07,960 Speaker 1: because I know how important her children. We're an art 183 00:10:08,000 --> 00:10:10,480 Speaker 1: to her till this day. Because I feel her around, 184 00:10:10,520 --> 00:10:12,880 Speaker 1: I feel her. I can't say because acio and that 185 00:10:13,280 --> 00:10:15,320 Speaker 1: i've seen her. No, I've seen her twice in these 186 00:10:15,360 --> 00:10:18,200 Speaker 1: past nine years. I've seen her twice in my dreams, 187 00:10:18,400 --> 00:10:21,320 Speaker 1: and I get so sad the next day and for 188 00:10:21,360 --> 00:10:22,880 Speaker 1: a few days that I feel she's like, I don't 189 00:10:22,880 --> 00:10:24,720 Speaker 1: want to do that to her, so she doesn't come 190 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:27,000 Speaker 1: around in my dreams. As much anymore, because I'm pretty 191 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:29,120 Speaker 1: sure knowing her, she's busy in heaven doing her thing. 192 00:10:30,720 --> 00:10:32,160 Speaker 1: I always talk to her though I took her Mom, 193 00:10:32,160 --> 00:10:33,560 Speaker 1: I don't know where you're at, but I need you. 194 00:10:33,760 --> 00:10:36,560 Speaker 1: So I just know that that's how I'm honoring her. 195 00:10:36,679 --> 00:10:38,480 Speaker 1: And I know that her children. And she said in 196 00:10:38,800 --> 00:10:42,520 Speaker 1: any interview, any Jenny Rivera fans out there know how 197 00:10:42,559 --> 00:10:47,280 Speaker 1: important her children were to her. She said it any 198 00:10:47,280 --> 00:10:48,880 Speaker 1: time and every time that she could, she said it, 199 00:10:48,960 --> 00:10:52,800 Speaker 1: she said in her book. So to me, that's what 200 00:10:52,840 --> 00:10:56,160 Speaker 1: I've done is I've done my best in every single 201 00:10:56,200 --> 00:10:59,520 Speaker 1: way to be a good older sister, to be a 202 00:10:59,520 --> 00:11:03,000 Speaker 1: good exam pulled to my siblings, to have their back, 203 00:11:03,120 --> 00:11:07,000 Speaker 1: to keep us united. It's been tough sometimes because of 204 00:11:07,160 --> 00:11:10,840 Speaker 1: outside noises, other toxic voices. It's made it a little 205 00:11:10,840 --> 00:11:15,080 Speaker 1: difficult to have a peaceful relationship. But I've always said, hey, 206 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:17,960 Speaker 1: wait a second, let's come together. This is what Mom wants. 207 00:11:18,040 --> 00:11:20,360 Speaker 1: She's always wanted this. She always told me, no matter what, 208 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:22,679 Speaker 1: you are the oldest, and I'm sorry that God made 209 00:11:22,720 --> 00:11:25,200 Speaker 1: you the oldest, but you are the oldest for a reason, 210 00:11:25,800 --> 00:11:30,960 Speaker 1: and you are too. Always keep your siblings united. Do 211 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:35,000 Speaker 1: not allow you and your siblings to be what my 212 00:11:35,040 --> 00:11:39,559 Speaker 1: siblings and I are. She told me that countless times countless, 213 00:11:40,960 --> 00:11:47,680 Speaker 1: and that's what I try to do. I do want 214 00:11:48,080 --> 00:11:51,800 Speaker 1: to say that the day that I found out December 215 00:11:53,040 --> 00:11:56,199 Speaker 1: that my mom was missing, because that's what it was 216 00:11:56,240 --> 00:11:58,679 Speaker 1: at first, her plane was missing. It just disappeared out 217 00:11:58,679 --> 00:12:01,800 Speaker 1: of the sky. I was in Las Vegas. We were 218 00:12:01,800 --> 00:12:05,199 Speaker 1: celebrating my cousin Karina's wedding. She had gotten married on 219 00:12:05,240 --> 00:12:08,760 Speaker 1: the eighth, so that was during the day and we 220 00:12:08,800 --> 00:12:10,400 Speaker 1: all went to go eat, and then after we all 221 00:12:10,400 --> 00:12:12,720 Speaker 1: went to go party, and I remember being at this 222 00:12:15,200 --> 00:12:19,319 Speaker 1: roof top uh nightclub. I think it was called Voodoo, 223 00:12:20,240 --> 00:12:23,000 Speaker 1: and I was fine. I had already kind of said okay, 224 00:12:23,240 --> 00:12:26,200 Speaker 1: I took my therapists advice and said, okay, I'm gonna 225 00:12:26,200 --> 00:12:28,480 Speaker 1: start living like my mom is no longer here. And 226 00:12:28,520 --> 00:12:31,240 Speaker 1: I was feeling a little bit better emotionally and mentally. 227 00:12:31,559 --> 00:12:33,760 Speaker 1: And I had just seen Johnny for the first time 228 00:12:33,960 --> 00:12:37,200 Speaker 1: in months, in a few weeks, should I say, they're 229 00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:39,560 Speaker 1: at my cousin's wedding. And it was so hard because 230 00:12:39,960 --> 00:12:42,520 Speaker 1: it was just a weird energy. So it was kind 231 00:12:42,520 --> 00:12:44,400 Speaker 1: of eating me up inside. So that night we went 232 00:12:44,400 --> 00:12:47,000 Speaker 1: out and my friends and I were dancing on the 233 00:12:47,040 --> 00:12:48,920 Speaker 1: dance floor. I was looking up at the sky and 234 00:12:49,000 --> 00:12:53,840 Speaker 1: I felt this sadness come upon me that I can't 235 00:12:53,880 --> 00:12:57,360 Speaker 1: explain that. I just felt like, oh, like I just 236 00:12:58,040 --> 00:13:00,160 Speaker 1: I wanted to fall to the floor and I just 237 00:13:00,160 --> 00:13:02,760 Speaker 1: started crying in the middle of the dance floor. I'm 238 00:13:02,800 --> 00:13:05,360 Speaker 1: telling you, I was. We were on a rooftop, so 239 00:13:05,400 --> 00:13:07,000 Speaker 1: I just said, you guys, I sat down and I 240 00:13:07,040 --> 00:13:09,319 Speaker 1: was just bawling and bawling, like the sadness came over 241 00:13:09,360 --> 00:13:12,640 Speaker 1: me and I didn't know why. So I remember just 242 00:13:12,720 --> 00:13:16,640 Speaker 1: telling my friends, Hey, it was Gerald at the time 243 00:13:16,640 --> 00:13:20,439 Speaker 1: in Brianna, and um. I said, let's just go back 244 00:13:20,480 --> 00:13:23,800 Speaker 1: to the room, and we did, and we got McDonald's 245 00:13:23,840 --> 00:13:26,400 Speaker 1: because food just you know, I've had an issue with 246 00:13:26,440 --> 00:13:28,280 Speaker 1: food my whole life, so when I'm sad, I just 247 00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:31,440 Speaker 1: want fatty stuff, you know, so um or should I 248 00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:34,880 Speaker 1: say starchy foods. So I we had McDonald's. We sat 249 00:13:34,920 --> 00:13:36,840 Speaker 1: on the floor, we ate it, and I fell asleep 250 00:13:37,800 --> 00:13:40,199 Speaker 1: and at ten am in the morning, I was woken 251 00:13:40,240 --> 00:13:42,840 Speaker 1: up by a phone call from my cousin Karina, who was, 252 00:13:42,920 --> 00:13:46,040 Speaker 1: like I said, always also in Vegas with me, and 253 00:13:46,120 --> 00:13:49,400 Speaker 1: she said, hey, cousin, we gotta go. I said, wait, well, 254 00:13:49,400 --> 00:13:50,439 Speaker 1: we have plans to do. What do you mean we 255 00:13:50,440 --> 00:13:52,520 Speaker 1: gotta go to They know we gotta go. My dad 256 00:13:52,559 --> 00:13:54,280 Speaker 1: just called me and said it's an emergency. We have 257 00:13:54,400 --> 00:13:57,720 Speaker 1: to drive down to Grandma's house like now. And I'm 258 00:13:57,760 --> 00:14:00,080 Speaker 1: like what. She's like, yeah, have you seen Twitter? And 259 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:03,600 Speaker 1: I'm like no, And she says, well, I don't think 260 00:14:03,640 --> 00:14:07,000 Speaker 1: you should look, but you know, apparently your mom's plane 261 00:14:07,120 --> 00:14:10,880 Speaker 1: is missing. I'm like, what do you mean, Yeah, it's missing. 262 00:14:10,880 --> 00:14:14,520 Speaker 1: They can't find it. So when I started, of course, 263 00:14:14,760 --> 00:14:18,640 Speaker 1: I packed my stuff. I was driving a Prius at 264 00:14:18,640 --> 00:14:20,400 Speaker 1: the time. I don't know how I did, and I 265 00:14:20,480 --> 00:14:23,320 Speaker 1: don't recommend anyone to do this, but I got from 266 00:14:23,440 --> 00:14:27,040 Speaker 1: Vegas to Lakewood, California in less than three hours. I 267 00:14:27,080 --> 00:14:31,360 Speaker 1: was going so fast. After I read on Twitter Jenny, 268 00:14:31,600 --> 00:14:34,200 Speaker 1: the late Jenny Rivera, like just so many things, like 269 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:37,080 Speaker 1: she had already she was gone, like she had already disappeared, 270 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:38,680 Speaker 1: like she was you know, I was like, wait a second, 271 00:14:38,680 --> 00:14:40,400 Speaker 1: we don't even know what's going on. It was horrible. 272 00:14:40,440 --> 00:14:42,480 Speaker 1: It was all over the radio. I couldn't listen to music. 273 00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:45,000 Speaker 1: I was just in silence. The entire time crying and 274 00:14:45,000 --> 00:14:46,920 Speaker 1: I'm like the whole time, Oh my god, you can't 275 00:14:46,920 --> 00:14:48,200 Speaker 1: do this to me. No, you can't do this to me. 276 00:14:48,240 --> 00:14:51,120 Speaker 1: Like that's what I kept just repeating. It felt like 277 00:14:51,200 --> 00:14:53,080 Speaker 1: forever to get to my grandma's house, but I got 278 00:14:53,080 --> 00:14:55,640 Speaker 1: there in less than three hours, which is crazy. I 279 00:14:55,680 --> 00:14:57,880 Speaker 1: don't know how I did that. Again, I don't recommend 280 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:01,760 Speaker 1: anyone to do that. I was just so like in 281 00:15:01,800 --> 00:15:05,520 Speaker 1: the need of getting to my siblings because during that time, again, 282 00:15:05,560 --> 00:15:07,680 Speaker 1: I hadn't gotten a phone call from Jenica or Johnny. 283 00:15:07,720 --> 00:15:10,120 Speaker 1: And they called me and they said, Jennica, call SI sister, 284 00:15:10,240 --> 00:15:12,760 Speaker 1: where are you. I need you here. And when she 285 00:15:12,880 --> 00:15:15,720 Speaker 1: said that, I was like, oh my god, Yes, they 286 00:15:15,800 --> 00:15:18,400 Speaker 1: need me. And I felt so uncomfortable because I hadn't 287 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:22,520 Speaker 1: talked to none of my family and I was like, 288 00:15:22,560 --> 00:15:24,360 Speaker 1: hardly going to receive me. And at that moment when 289 00:15:24,400 --> 00:15:26,400 Speaker 1: I got that phone call, I didn't care. Everything you 290 00:15:26,520 --> 00:15:29,120 Speaker 1: raced and I said, I have to be there for 291 00:15:29,200 --> 00:15:31,960 Speaker 1: these kids. I don't care. I walked in there with 292 00:15:32,040 --> 00:15:34,080 Speaker 1: my head held high and I got those kids and 293 00:15:34,080 --> 00:15:36,160 Speaker 1: I'm like, these are my kids. I don't know what's 294 00:15:36,200 --> 00:15:37,800 Speaker 1: going on with my mom. I still had a faith 295 00:15:38,200 --> 00:15:39,680 Speaker 1: that my mom was going to come back. That was 296 00:15:39,720 --> 00:15:44,080 Speaker 1: on a Sunday. I had faith Monday Tuesday until Wednesday. 297 00:15:44,640 --> 00:15:46,520 Speaker 1: I got to my grandma's house. Like I said, I 298 00:15:46,560 --> 00:15:49,080 Speaker 1: was like there for Johnny. We were sleeping on the floor. 299 00:15:49,200 --> 00:15:54,000 Speaker 1: I mean, it was. It was chaotic at my grandma's house. UM. 300 00:15:54,040 --> 00:15:56,840 Speaker 1: But on Wednesday, I told my uncle's you guys need 301 00:15:56,880 --> 00:15:59,880 Speaker 1: to go find my mom. You need to find my mom. 302 00:16:00,080 --> 00:16:02,600 Speaker 1: You guys, sorry, I don't trust the authorities in Mexico. 303 00:16:02,920 --> 00:16:05,200 Speaker 1: I need someone from us, from our side to go 304 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:07,360 Speaker 1: and look for my mom physically, go on that mountain, 305 00:16:07,440 --> 00:16:10,240 Speaker 1: find my mom. I had faith that maybe, yes, the 306 00:16:10,240 --> 00:16:13,080 Speaker 1: plane had fallen, maybe she survived. I was thinking all 307 00:16:13,160 --> 00:16:16,520 Speaker 1: kinds of things. But then when I saw some pictures 308 00:16:16,560 --> 00:16:22,200 Speaker 1: on the internet that showed some of her remains, and 309 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:24,560 Speaker 1: I had asked Jenica, I said, Jenica, what now, polished? 310 00:16:24,560 --> 00:16:27,680 Speaker 1: What color was Mom wearing? She says, oh, red? And 311 00:16:27,680 --> 00:16:29,480 Speaker 1: I started looking at pictures and sure enough, yes, in 312 00:16:29,560 --> 00:16:34,280 Speaker 1: her last concert at Monterey UM, because she was coming 313 00:16:34,400 --> 00:16:39,720 Speaker 1: from Monterrey back to Mexico City to record lavos, she 314 00:16:39,760 --> 00:16:41,240 Speaker 1: wanted to leave. And I knew my mom, so that's 315 00:16:41,240 --> 00:16:42,760 Speaker 1: why she left at three thirty in the morning, so 316 00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:45,280 Speaker 1: that when I was feeling that on the rooftop at 317 00:16:45,280 --> 00:16:49,000 Speaker 1: one thirty, it was I think when everything was happening, 318 00:16:49,000 --> 00:16:50,640 Speaker 1: when my mom had left, and I think she came 319 00:16:50,680 --> 00:16:52,680 Speaker 1: to visit all of us. That's what I personally believe, 320 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:57,520 Speaker 1: so it all made sense afterwards, you know. So at 321 00:16:57,560 --> 00:17:05,359 Speaker 1: three thirty am is when her her plane disappeared. I 322 00:17:05,400 --> 00:17:09,600 Speaker 1: think that we all felt her that night. So anyways, 323 00:17:09,640 --> 00:17:12,080 Speaker 1: I told my uncle's go find my mom. And that's 324 00:17:12,080 --> 00:17:14,439 Speaker 1: when I asked Jessica about her nail polish and it 325 00:17:14,520 --> 00:17:21,440 Speaker 1: was red and in her remains, I saw, like it's 326 00:17:21,440 --> 00:17:24,920 Speaker 1: so tough to say this, but her toes and they 327 00:17:24,920 --> 00:17:34,560 Speaker 1: were red, and I knew, like we lost her. And 328 00:17:34,720 --> 00:17:40,960 Speaker 1: I know those feet because so many times when she 329 00:17:41,119 --> 00:17:43,320 Speaker 1: was tired, I would put on her shoes, I would 330 00:17:43,320 --> 00:17:45,440 Speaker 1: take them off. I would missage her feet and I said, 331 00:17:45,520 --> 00:17:50,560 Speaker 1: these are my mom's feet, her toes, and um, that's 332 00:17:50,600 --> 00:17:53,960 Speaker 1: when I knew, and I remember, I felt something in 333 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:58,280 Speaker 1: my heart. I'll never forget my safe place at my 334 00:17:58,320 --> 00:18:01,239 Speaker 1: grandma's house because every corner of my grandma's house was 335 00:18:01,320 --> 00:18:05,879 Speaker 1: full of just people. They're trying to comfort us, and 336 00:18:06,119 --> 00:18:08,960 Speaker 1: outside everywhere. There was just so many people, her fans, 337 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:11,760 Speaker 1: which I'm so grateful for. But my only safe place 338 00:18:11,800 --> 00:18:14,840 Speaker 1: was the restroom. And I remember grabbing a picture that 339 00:18:14,880 --> 00:18:17,359 Speaker 1: my grandma had in the living room. I grabbed it 340 00:18:17,520 --> 00:18:19,960 Speaker 1: and I knew I hadn't told the kids yet. I 341 00:18:19,960 --> 00:18:23,640 Speaker 1: hadn't told anybody that I saw those pictures. I don't 342 00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:25,359 Speaker 1: even know how I found them or who sent them 343 00:18:25,400 --> 00:18:29,600 Speaker 1: to me, some evil person. I have no idea. But 344 00:18:29,760 --> 00:18:32,960 Speaker 1: I went into the restroom and I held the picture tight, 345 00:18:34,080 --> 00:18:37,960 Speaker 1: and I swear to you that I heard my mom's 346 00:18:38,040 --> 00:18:42,960 Speaker 1: voice tell me you have to be strong for these kids. 347 00:18:46,480 --> 00:18:48,919 Speaker 1: And from that moment, I was like okay, and I 348 00:18:48,960 --> 00:18:51,080 Speaker 1: cried by myself, and I was like, okay, I'm gonna 349 00:18:51,080 --> 00:18:53,600 Speaker 1: be strong, and I gotta tell them. I can't let 350 00:18:53,640 --> 00:18:56,280 Speaker 1: them think anymore that she's here, because she's not. And 351 00:18:56,359 --> 00:18:59,919 Speaker 1: I knew it, and I told them. I said, Johnny, 352 00:18:59,920 --> 00:19:01,760 Speaker 1: I sat down, Johnny, and I said, Mommy is not 353 00:19:01,840 --> 00:19:05,120 Speaker 1: coming back. So I just knew I had to tell them. 354 00:19:05,280 --> 00:19:09,920 Speaker 1: And that's when I something came upon me and said 355 00:19:10,760 --> 00:19:13,479 Speaker 1: I have to be resilient. I have to be strong. 356 00:19:14,359 --> 00:19:16,640 Speaker 1: That's when it all started like making sense, like this 357 00:19:16,680 --> 00:19:18,880 Speaker 1: is why everything happened. Because my mom and I were 358 00:19:19,000 --> 00:19:23,119 Speaker 1: so close. We were sisters, we were husband and wife, 359 00:19:23,160 --> 00:19:25,760 Speaker 1: we were so many things that if this hadn't happened, 360 00:19:26,200 --> 00:19:29,680 Speaker 1: this interruption in our relationship, I wouldn't have been strong 361 00:19:29,800 --> 00:19:34,280 Speaker 1: enough to sustain this pain. And I knew it was 362 00:19:34,280 --> 00:19:35,840 Speaker 1: going to be hard because I would have to go 363 00:19:35,840 --> 00:19:37,960 Speaker 1: out and defend and clean up my name in some way. 364 00:19:38,000 --> 00:19:39,840 Speaker 1: But the most important thing for me at that time 365 00:19:39,960 --> 00:19:45,439 Speaker 1: or my siblings, and I think the best way and 366 00:19:45,520 --> 00:19:47,320 Speaker 1: right now that we're talking about her, because yes, the 367 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,520 Speaker 1: anniversary's coming up, is the best way that I can 368 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:52,120 Speaker 1: honor her is to continue being here from my siblings 369 00:19:52,160 --> 00:19:55,480 Speaker 1: and and doing my best to be successful. For me, 370 00:19:55,520 --> 00:19:59,640 Speaker 1: it's everything I do. Everything that I do, I think 371 00:19:59,680 --> 00:20:03,040 Speaker 1: about siblings. I think about, Yes, they're okay, maybe financially 372 00:20:03,040 --> 00:20:05,280 Speaker 1: they're okay right now, but what if they're not one day. 373 00:20:05,320 --> 00:20:07,800 Speaker 1: I want them to know that their sister has their back, 374 00:20:07,880 --> 00:20:10,240 Speaker 1: that they have a home that they can come to, 375 00:20:10,400 --> 00:20:14,000 Speaker 1: that the doors will always be open. And it makes 376 00:20:14,040 --> 00:20:18,560 Speaker 1: me just work harder, you know, which is why it 377 00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:21,199 Speaker 1: makes me so sad. And this is the first time 378 00:20:21,240 --> 00:20:22,640 Speaker 1: I talked about it. You guys, I'm going to talk 379 00:20:22,640 --> 00:20:26,760 Speaker 1: about it with you. I haven't said in an interview, 380 00:20:26,880 --> 00:20:29,920 Speaker 1: I haven't written it thoroughly. In my book that's coming 381 00:20:29,920 --> 00:20:35,480 Speaker 1: on in February, I mentioned it, but I want to 382 00:20:35,520 --> 00:20:37,960 Speaker 1: say it here with you, guys, because another way of 383 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:42,280 Speaker 1: honoring my mother is by being honest, because that's how 384 00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:53,919 Speaker 1: she was. My family and I are not okay my 385 00:20:54,000 --> 00:20:56,160 Speaker 1: extended family. Should I say my siblings and I think 386 00:20:56,200 --> 00:21:00,439 Speaker 1: goodness were good. We have our disagreement into we have 387 00:21:00,760 --> 00:21:05,320 Speaker 1: our discussions or arguments, but we always come back to 388 00:21:05,359 --> 00:21:09,800 Speaker 1: each other. But there has always been issues in my family, unfortunately, 389 00:21:10,680 --> 00:21:14,440 Speaker 1: because there are so many of us in the industry. 390 00:21:16,040 --> 00:21:18,680 Speaker 1: Fortunately and unfortunately, I feel that we could have been 391 00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:25,440 Speaker 1: a very successful dynasty together. But I feel like jealousy 392 00:21:25,480 --> 00:21:29,600 Speaker 1: and ego and greed has ruined our family for years. 393 00:21:31,640 --> 00:21:35,440 Speaker 1: And I'm now ready to say that, Yeah, I'm not okay, 394 00:21:35,480 --> 00:21:36,840 Speaker 1: and I know some of my siblings, and I don't 395 00:21:36,840 --> 00:21:39,520 Speaker 1: want to speak for them, are also not okay with 396 00:21:40,160 --> 00:21:44,400 Speaker 1: most of our family members. Today I'll speak about myself 397 00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:47,120 Speaker 1: and what I feel and how I feel and why 398 00:21:47,119 --> 00:21:51,200 Speaker 1: it makes me so sad because my mom was really 399 00:21:51,240 --> 00:21:54,679 Speaker 1: the glue to our family. And although for many years. 400 00:21:55,280 --> 00:22:00,000 Speaker 1: She was also disappointed, and we have emails and conversations, 401 00:22:00,000 --> 00:22:02,159 Speaker 1: and everyone knows this. My mom was also very vocal 402 00:22:02,880 --> 00:22:06,640 Speaker 1: about things that she disagreed with with certain family members. 403 00:22:07,280 --> 00:22:11,560 Speaker 1: So a lot of people have wondered why I haven't 404 00:22:11,600 --> 00:22:15,040 Speaker 1: followed my grandmother. I did. Maybe it's a little silly, 405 00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:20,359 Speaker 1: maybe it's childish. I didn't follow her on Instagram. I 406 00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:22,800 Speaker 1: love my grandmother. I still honor her. I still thank 407 00:22:22,960 --> 00:22:27,040 Speaker 1: her very much for everything she did for me, for 408 00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:29,520 Speaker 1: helping raise me. I love her so much and I 409 00:22:29,600 --> 00:22:34,480 Speaker 1: miss her. But it goes back to me honoring my 410 00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:39,679 Speaker 1: mother and her legacy. And my siblings are the most 411 00:22:40,000 --> 00:22:44,959 Speaker 1: important thing in my life, and when you hurt them, 412 00:22:45,080 --> 00:22:49,639 Speaker 1: you hurt me. And unfortunately, my grandma has said a 413 00:22:49,680 --> 00:22:54,080 Speaker 1: few things publicly that I don't agree with that I'm 414 00:22:54,160 --> 00:22:59,919 Speaker 1: very hurt by about my siblings, Johnny and Jessica, mainly 415 00:23:00,920 --> 00:23:03,040 Speaker 1: some things about me that I just feel are unfair 416 00:23:05,040 --> 00:23:09,040 Speaker 1: to say without first telling us, so I don't agree 417 00:23:09,080 --> 00:23:12,400 Speaker 1: with it being said publicly. So now I'm publicly stating that, yes, 418 00:23:12,480 --> 00:23:15,040 Speaker 1: I have unfollowed her, and I'm okay with my decision, 419 00:23:15,359 --> 00:23:17,040 Speaker 1: and I love her, and I still check up on her, 420 00:23:17,080 --> 00:23:18,760 Speaker 1: but there are certain things on social media that I 421 00:23:18,800 --> 00:23:20,240 Speaker 1: just don't want to see and I don't want them 422 00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:22,879 Speaker 1: to hurt me. I could have muted her, yes, but 423 00:23:23,000 --> 00:23:27,560 Speaker 1: I I decided to unfollow her because I'm also tired 424 00:23:27,600 --> 00:23:30,600 Speaker 1: of pretending. I'm I'm ready for the world to know 425 00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:33,840 Speaker 1: that we're not okay. I also don't follow my uncle Juan, 426 00:23:33,920 --> 00:23:36,120 Speaker 1: and I don't follow my aunt Rosie, and I'm sure 427 00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:38,480 Speaker 1: to them it doesn't doesn't matter, but to me, it's 428 00:23:38,520 --> 00:23:40,640 Speaker 1: just I'm ready to show the world that there are 429 00:23:40,880 --> 00:23:45,439 Speaker 1: bigger issues. You know, we have always had some type 430 00:23:45,440 --> 00:23:50,080 Speaker 1: of issue or tension in our family for years, because again, 431 00:23:50,119 --> 00:23:53,600 Speaker 1: we're all in the same industry. What really I think 432 00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:57,840 Speaker 1: broke the camel's back, Como Lison, is when my brother Johnny, 433 00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:00,119 Speaker 1: he had been asking me to do this since was 434 00:24:00,160 --> 00:24:03,200 Speaker 1: sixteen years old, when he was still under my custody. 435 00:24:03,880 --> 00:24:06,960 Speaker 1: Johnny asked me to look into the finances. He said, 436 00:24:06,960 --> 00:24:08,639 Speaker 1: you know what, I'm just a little worried. There's some 437 00:24:08,760 --> 00:24:10,520 Speaker 1: certain things that worry me, and I just think that 438 00:24:10,560 --> 00:24:13,399 Speaker 1: we should know I never did it, because I'm like, 439 00:24:13,680 --> 00:24:16,159 Speaker 1: oh my god, I just I already know they're going 440 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:18,399 Speaker 1: to think that it's me, And of course I had 441 00:24:18,440 --> 00:24:20,160 Speaker 1: my doubts. Don't get me wrong, I had my doubts 442 00:24:20,160 --> 00:24:22,679 Speaker 1: about it, but I just didn't want to open up 443 00:24:22,680 --> 00:24:24,760 Speaker 1: a kind of worms. I had a feeling it was 444 00:24:24,760 --> 00:24:26,879 Speaker 1: going to start an issue. So when Johnny turned twenty, 445 00:24:26,920 --> 00:24:30,320 Speaker 1: he said, you need to help me. Actually, this January, 446 00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:32,440 Speaker 1: he said, I need you to help me get an attorney. 447 00:24:32,800 --> 00:24:35,359 Speaker 1: I really want to do this. And I said, okay, fine. 448 00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:39,960 Speaker 1: I told him. He asked me in in November and 449 00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:42,960 Speaker 1: I said, wait, give me a few months, let me 450 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:46,119 Speaker 1: pray about it. And when he came back in January, 451 00:24:46,320 --> 00:24:49,120 Speaker 1: he said, okay, I want to do it and I'm sure, 452 00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:51,320 Speaker 1: and I said, okay, I have your back. So I 453 00:24:51,320 --> 00:24:54,440 Speaker 1: hooked him up with an attorney. He spoke to them. 454 00:24:54,480 --> 00:24:57,560 Speaker 1: He's been dealing with it himself. I can't even talk 455 00:24:57,600 --> 00:25:00,200 Speaker 1: to the attorney without his permission. So it's all been 456 00:25:00,320 --> 00:25:03,840 Speaker 1: him wanting to just know what's up with the estate, 457 00:25:04,080 --> 00:25:07,840 Speaker 1: with the finances, with our trust, with the businesses, and 458 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:12,880 Speaker 1: it has caused chaos. It's caused so much, even more 459 00:25:13,040 --> 00:25:16,560 Speaker 1: tension in our family, and I still don't know why. 460 00:25:17,040 --> 00:25:21,200 Speaker 1: But that's the truth of the matter, and I want 461 00:25:21,200 --> 00:25:23,719 Speaker 1: to clear that up because it's not an audit. An 462 00:25:23,760 --> 00:25:29,440 Speaker 1: audit comes from it comes legally. We didn't audit anybody. 463 00:25:29,560 --> 00:25:33,320 Speaker 1: We just asked for an accounting. Johnny asked for an accounting, 464 00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:37,320 Speaker 1: as as a beneficiary, he has the right to ask 465 00:25:37,359 --> 00:25:40,840 Speaker 1: for an accounting and my aunt was supposed to give 466 00:25:40,880 --> 00:25:44,600 Speaker 1: that to him annually and hasn't for the past nine years. 467 00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:48,080 Speaker 1: So he asked for that, and it became this big ruckus. 468 00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:52,359 Speaker 1: And I don't understand why this accounting was asked for 469 00:25:52,560 --> 00:26:00,080 Speaker 1: in what month, Johnny. This accounting was asked for in 470 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:05,359 Speaker 1: April of this year, and everything has gone to ship 471 00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:10,320 Speaker 1: since then, worse than it it has been. I feel 472 00:26:10,359 --> 00:26:13,399 Speaker 1: that we have the right to know how much money 473 00:26:13,640 --> 00:26:16,280 Speaker 1: was in the account when my mom left, how much 474 00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:19,480 Speaker 1: money has been made um how much money they have 475 00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:23,040 Speaker 1: made for the enterprises, for my January River enterprises. We 476 00:26:23,080 --> 00:26:24,359 Speaker 1: have a right, We have a right to ask how 477 00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:27,280 Speaker 1: much people are getting paid. And I include myself in 478 00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:29,720 Speaker 1: this because yes, I was disinherited, but I'm still a daughter, 479 00:26:30,160 --> 00:26:32,400 Speaker 1: I'm still the oldest, I'm still the one that helped 480 00:26:32,440 --> 00:26:34,919 Speaker 1: my mom build this empire, and I still have the 481 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:37,040 Speaker 1: right as a sister to ask what's going on with 482 00:26:37,040 --> 00:26:42,119 Speaker 1: my siblings, with their with their finances. So let me 483 00:26:42,119 --> 00:26:44,760 Speaker 1: tell you the businesses. My mom's businesses are completely separate 484 00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:49,040 Speaker 1: from the trust that's where my mom left for my siblings. 485 00:26:49,920 --> 00:26:58,119 Speaker 1: The accounting was delivered months later, literally Johnny's right here. 486 00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:01,840 Speaker 1: So a hundred and ninety two days later they asked 487 00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:04,240 Speaker 1: for extensions. For a while, we hadn't heard from them. 488 00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:06,560 Speaker 1: I was like, wait, if we have everything in order, 489 00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:08,520 Speaker 1: we have a good c p A for the company, 490 00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:12,119 Speaker 1: we have a good financial advisor, why aren't we getting 491 00:27:12,160 --> 00:27:16,040 Speaker 1: these things in a time we matter. I just don't understand, 492 00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:17,960 Speaker 1: and there's so many things that I can say, but 493 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:20,760 Speaker 1: I just I want to be respectful to my siblings 494 00:27:22,520 --> 00:27:27,040 Speaker 1: and to still my family, because even though I love 495 00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:29,360 Speaker 1: them and I love them from Afar, I wish them well. 496 00:27:29,720 --> 00:27:33,959 Speaker 1: I'm better off without them, and I'm sure they are 497 00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:36,600 Speaker 1: as well without us or without me. Should I say? 498 00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:42,879 Speaker 1: And my heart is sad, my heart is hurt. But 499 00:27:44,040 --> 00:27:47,879 Speaker 1: sometimes it's better to love people from Afar and not 500 00:27:47,960 --> 00:27:51,000 Speaker 1: be angry at them. Because I'm not angry, I'm disappointed. 501 00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:55,679 Speaker 1: I'm disappointed because this didn't have to turn out this way. 502 00:27:56,400 --> 00:28:00,679 Speaker 1: And I just felt that today talking about my mom. 503 00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:06,440 Speaker 1: The best way I can honor her is by being honest. Again, 504 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:10,240 Speaker 1: I thought about this over and over about talking about this, 505 00:28:10,280 --> 00:28:12,080 Speaker 1: but you know what, because I thought about my cousins, 506 00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:16,240 Speaker 1: their children. I don't want to affect anybody in any way. Ever. 507 00:28:16,720 --> 00:28:20,000 Speaker 1: God knows my intentions. God knows that I wish with 508 00:28:20,040 --> 00:28:22,119 Speaker 1: all my heart that we were okay with my family 509 00:28:22,160 --> 00:28:26,639 Speaker 1: and that we could all just be united and be 510 00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:29,879 Speaker 1: a strong force together. But that is not our case, 511 00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:35,800 Speaker 1: that is not our truth. Sadly, and you know what, 512 00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:39,760 Speaker 1: everyone kind of has to just own up two certain things. 513 00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:45,480 Speaker 1: And it's sad because ever since my mom left the 514 00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:51,080 Speaker 1: way Johnny says it, we've been living in hell. I 515 00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 1: see it a little different. It has been very difficult. 516 00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:55,080 Speaker 1: I have tried my very best to be okay with 517 00:28:55,080 --> 00:29:00,400 Speaker 1: my family, to gain their approval, to show them, hey, 518 00:29:00,600 --> 00:29:02,880 Speaker 1: I'm working, I'm doing my thing, like are you proud? 519 00:29:03,720 --> 00:29:06,680 Speaker 1: You know, it's been very difficult to get that. And 520 00:29:06,960 --> 00:29:10,200 Speaker 1: it's just sad when you lose such a strong pillar 521 00:29:10,800 --> 00:29:16,280 Speaker 1: in your family, how things just start crumbling down. And 522 00:29:16,320 --> 00:29:20,000 Speaker 1: now that I look back to these nine years, it's 523 00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:24,800 Speaker 1: just we were in so much pain. We just trusted blindly. 524 00:29:25,880 --> 00:29:30,280 Speaker 1: We were too hurt and dealing with our pain and 525 00:29:30,320 --> 00:29:34,200 Speaker 1: with life and how to live life without my mom, 526 00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:39,400 Speaker 1: without parents In reality that we didn't really care much 527 00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:41,760 Speaker 1: or not care, but we just didn't have the energy 528 00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:44,480 Speaker 1: or the mental space to deal with all these things. 529 00:29:44,480 --> 00:29:46,400 Speaker 1: And I feel like we finally woke up and we're like, oh, 530 00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:51,400 Speaker 1: wait a second, what's going on? I feel like that them, 531 00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:55,640 Speaker 1: so what's the problem. You know? I wish with all 532 00:29:55,640 --> 00:29:59,160 Speaker 1: my heart that we could spend this anniversary together as 533 00:29:59,160 --> 00:30:02,640 Speaker 1: a family and Grandma's house, with my uncle's, with my aunt, 534 00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:06,480 Speaker 1: with my cousins. It makes me sad, but I've accepted 535 00:30:06,880 --> 00:30:11,280 Speaker 1: that this is my reality, my new reality, and I've 536 00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:17,280 Speaker 1: come to peace with it and moving forward. It's just 537 00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:20,440 Speaker 1: really coming together as siblings is what we want to 538 00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:27,000 Speaker 1: do once my sister Jackie becomes CEO, to just continue 539 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:32,400 Speaker 1: my mother's legacy, us having the control and as a 540 00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:38,200 Speaker 1: team making decisions from my mom's brand, from my mother's music. 541 00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:42,760 Speaker 1: We want a movie. We have so many ideas that 542 00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:45,840 Speaker 1: I think that the best now that we're a little 543 00:30:45,840 --> 00:30:50,400 Speaker 1: more healed, we're a little more mature, I think we 544 00:30:50,520 --> 00:30:52,840 Speaker 1: all can just come together and make it happen, and 545 00:30:52,880 --> 00:30:55,440 Speaker 1: that's what I'm hopeful for, and I'm hopeful that this 546 00:30:55,480 --> 00:30:58,760 Speaker 1: doesn't get any nastier and that we could just come 547 00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:05,080 Speaker 1: together and coming to an agreement, maybe agree to disagree, 548 00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:07,560 Speaker 1: for the sake of my mother and her legacy and 549 00:31:07,560 --> 00:31:10,160 Speaker 1: all that she worked hard for, because she did for 550 00:31:10,280 --> 00:31:16,600 Speaker 1: her children mainly and mostly, and everyone that knows her, 551 00:31:16,720 --> 00:31:19,240 Speaker 1: especially her family, knows that. So that's why I'm so 552 00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:29,680 Speaker 1: confused today. I want to honor my mother and ask 553 00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:31,880 Speaker 1: you all, if you haven't heard her music, if you 554 00:31:31,920 --> 00:31:34,560 Speaker 1: have heard it, to just please listen to it every 555 00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:39,640 Speaker 1: single day. Go to any app that you guys use 556 00:31:40,360 --> 00:31:43,320 Speaker 1: to listen to music. That's the way we can keep 557 00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:48,120 Speaker 1: her alive is by listening to her music and just 558 00:31:48,200 --> 00:31:50,560 Speaker 1: honor her in that way. For me, it's the favor 559 00:31:50,600 --> 00:31:53,200 Speaker 1: that I ask you guys. And I'm little really looking 560 00:31:53,200 --> 00:31:57,040 Speaker 1: forward to the future and doing this kind of being 561 00:31:57,200 --> 00:32:00,920 Speaker 1: under the umbrella again of just helping, you know, because 562 00:32:00,960 --> 00:32:03,720 Speaker 1: I can't be added to the will or anything, and 563 00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:05,880 Speaker 1: nor do I want to. I want my siblings to 564 00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:08,040 Speaker 1: be Okay. I'm working hard and I'm doing my thing, 565 00:32:10,520 --> 00:32:12,000 Speaker 1: so I just want to be able to be a 566 00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:16,360 Speaker 1: part of it again and really have a real say, 567 00:32:16,400 --> 00:32:18,600 Speaker 1: you know, in my mom's stuff. And I know my 568 00:32:18,640 --> 00:32:22,400 Speaker 1: siblings feel the same way. We want a movie. Imagine 569 00:32:22,520 --> 00:32:25,360 Speaker 1: a movie of Jenny Rivera's life in English with a 570 00:32:25,400 --> 00:32:28,840 Speaker 1: little bit of Spanish or vice versa. I don't know. 571 00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:30,960 Speaker 1: I just wanted to be like the real Jenny, you 572 00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:33,880 Speaker 1: know what I mean, what she was all about. A 573 00:32:34,000 --> 00:32:38,000 Speaker 1: movie just telling the story of a woman that worked 574 00:32:38,000 --> 00:32:42,000 Speaker 1: her ass off to leave the imprint that she has 575 00:32:42,080 --> 00:32:46,160 Speaker 1: left forever, and what she did for her kids as 576 00:32:46,160 --> 00:32:49,520 Speaker 1: a single mother, everything that she went through, things that 577 00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:51,960 Speaker 1: you guys may not even know, things that we've never 578 00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:56,440 Speaker 1: talked about that we're ready to talk about now. We 579 00:32:56,480 --> 00:32:59,160 Speaker 1: want movies. We want just huge We have huge plans. 580 00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:01,320 Speaker 1: So I think it's to be beautiful to be together 581 00:33:01,840 --> 00:33:04,680 Speaker 1: at a table with my siblings and discussing everything that 582 00:33:04,720 --> 00:33:07,160 Speaker 1: we want to do for my mom and how we 583 00:33:07,200 --> 00:33:10,640 Speaker 1: want her music to sound. I think we're ready. We're ready, 584 00:33:10,800 --> 00:33:14,360 Speaker 1: and I'm excited for my sister Jackie, who is stepping 585 00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:17,320 Speaker 1: up like no other. I admire her so much. I 586 00:33:17,360 --> 00:33:19,240 Speaker 1: don't know how she juggles being a mother of four, 587 00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:23,000 Speaker 1: a wife, a business owner, and now dealing with all 588 00:33:23,040 --> 00:33:26,960 Speaker 1: of this with Jenny Rivera Enterprises, and I'm excited to 589 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:30,200 Speaker 1: see her in this new position. And she does everything 590 00:33:30,240 --> 00:33:33,479 Speaker 1: with such with such grace and so peacefully, and she 591 00:33:33,560 --> 00:33:37,760 Speaker 1: has the best intentions and the best interests at heart 592 00:33:37,840 --> 00:33:42,520 Speaker 1: for everyone. So I think she's gonna be an amazing CEO, 593 00:33:42,800 --> 00:33:45,920 Speaker 1: and I can't wait to see that. It's nice to 594 00:33:45,960 --> 00:33:49,400 Speaker 1: know that Mom and I started all of this, because 595 00:33:49,400 --> 00:33:53,840 Speaker 1: it was really Mom and I we um. We started 596 00:33:53,880 --> 00:33:57,840 Speaker 1: from the ground up. I was at home with the kids, cleaning, cooking, 597 00:33:58,600 --> 00:34:00,640 Speaker 1: making sure everything was good, pay in the bills, and 598 00:34:00,640 --> 00:34:02,640 Speaker 1: then later on I helped her with the businesses and 599 00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:05,360 Speaker 1: helped her build her empire, and every idea that she had, 600 00:34:05,680 --> 00:34:08,480 Speaker 1: I did my best to execute it. And to know 601 00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:10,880 Speaker 1: that it's become this and to know that now my 602 00:34:10,960 --> 00:34:16,799 Speaker 1: sister is going to take over is awesome. And I 603 00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:19,120 Speaker 1: also want to take this time in the space to 604 00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:25,279 Speaker 1: thank my uncle and my aunt for everything they did. 605 00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:30,279 Speaker 1: I know that they tried their best, and I know 606 00:34:30,360 --> 00:34:33,640 Speaker 1: that this was thrown on my aunt from one day 607 00:34:33,640 --> 00:34:36,640 Speaker 1: to another, and she really didn't know and never wanted 608 00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:41,000 Speaker 1: anything to do with the music industry. So I've always 609 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:46,480 Speaker 1: been very compassionate about that and understanding and for so long. 610 00:34:46,520 --> 00:34:48,680 Speaker 1: She expressed that she wasn't happy in her position and 611 00:34:48,719 --> 00:34:52,160 Speaker 1: that it has ruined her her her relationship with her kids, 612 00:34:52,160 --> 00:34:54,759 Speaker 1: with her with her husband. My uncle Juan felt the 613 00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:57,360 Speaker 1: same way, and again, my uncle Juan wasn't left in charge. 614 00:34:57,360 --> 00:35:00,719 Speaker 1: She just took that responsibility I and wanted to help. 615 00:35:00,760 --> 00:35:03,440 Speaker 1: And I am grateful for that. Believe me, I appreciate 616 00:35:03,480 --> 00:35:08,279 Speaker 1: everything that they did, but there are certain things that 617 00:35:08,360 --> 00:35:12,239 Speaker 1: I just feel I don't agree with, but I am 618 00:35:12,280 --> 00:35:14,640 Speaker 1: grateful and I do want them to be happy, and 619 00:35:14,640 --> 00:35:16,680 Speaker 1: I want them to be okay with their family and 620 00:35:16,920 --> 00:35:22,759 Speaker 1: live their best life. And I'm sorry if you know 621 00:35:22,840 --> 00:35:29,759 Speaker 1: all of this has caused pain, you know, the way 622 00:35:29,800 --> 00:35:33,600 Speaker 1: that we think about their feelings and their life. I 623 00:35:33,640 --> 00:35:35,560 Speaker 1: would love for them to take a moment and do 624 00:35:35,600 --> 00:35:38,680 Speaker 1: the same for us, you know, And I know they have. 625 00:35:38,880 --> 00:35:42,080 Speaker 1: I just don't know what happened throughout these nine years, 626 00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:43,920 Speaker 1: and things have just gotten worse and worse, and it's 627 00:35:44,000 --> 00:35:49,840 Speaker 1: just what happened, you know, we just asked questions. I 628 00:35:49,880 --> 00:35:54,400 Speaker 1: want you guys to remember her for yes, her music, 629 00:35:54,719 --> 00:36:02,440 Speaker 1: because she definitely broke barriers. She has paved the path 630 00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:07,560 Speaker 1: for all women, I think in general, especially in you know, 631 00:36:07,640 --> 00:36:11,880 Speaker 1: the regional Mexican genre, but also for the woman for 632 00:36:12,160 --> 00:36:20,960 Speaker 1: that lucona courageous, fearless woman that she was. She always said, 633 00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:23,000 Speaker 1: if they close the door in my face, it's okay, 634 00:36:23,239 --> 00:36:24,719 Speaker 1: I'm going to find a window and I'm going to 635 00:36:24,800 --> 00:36:26,960 Speaker 1: crawl through it and I'm gonna make sure I get 636 00:36:27,000 --> 00:36:31,600 Speaker 1: what I want. So she was just tenacious and so 637 00:36:31,760 --> 00:36:35,280 Speaker 1: strong and strong willed. I want you guys to remember 638 00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:39,319 Speaker 1: her for that, for the single mother of five that 639 00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:43,600 Speaker 1: didn't let anyone get in her way of feeding those children. 640 00:36:45,840 --> 00:36:49,160 Speaker 1: For me, even if I wasn't her daughter, I would 641 00:36:49,160 --> 00:36:51,120 Speaker 1: still be a fan of her music. I would still 642 00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:57,239 Speaker 1: be a fan of the woman because she's definitely a 643 00:36:57,280 --> 00:37:03,719 Speaker 1: woman that represents us so well, especially latinas that when 644 00:37:03,800 --> 00:37:07,440 Speaker 1: there is a will, there is a way, easy said boy. 645 00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:11,359 Speaker 1: Then she's definitely that woman. And it really was who 646 00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:15,000 Speaker 1: she was, really like the person that you saw on stage, 647 00:37:15,200 --> 00:37:17,840 Speaker 1: the person that you saw on interviews, That was my 648 00:37:17,920 --> 00:37:23,319 Speaker 1: mother off stage in her core, she was a very 649 00:37:23,360 --> 00:37:31,800 Speaker 1: passionate woman and anything and everything that she did passionate. Loving. Um, 650 00:37:31,840 --> 00:37:37,040 Speaker 1: she was moody, you know, but and when she was wrong, 651 00:37:37,600 --> 00:37:40,160 Speaker 1: she would eventually come around and say, I apologize, I'm 652 00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:42,359 Speaker 1: sorry I was wrong. It would take her a little 653 00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:44,200 Speaker 1: bit of time, but she would. She would always come 654 00:37:44,200 --> 00:37:47,879 Speaker 1: around and and apologize. She was a woman that did 655 00:37:47,920 --> 00:37:51,120 Speaker 1: her best to read the Bible every single day, at 656 00:37:51,160 --> 00:37:55,360 Speaker 1: least averse to make sure she was honoring God and 657 00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:59,960 Speaker 1: putting him first, something that to me is super important 658 00:38:00,080 --> 00:38:03,640 Speaker 1: now because I saw it so much growing up, that 659 00:38:03,760 --> 00:38:08,640 Speaker 1: woman that you guys know, it's really it wasn't It 660 00:38:08,680 --> 00:38:12,160 Speaker 1: wasn't a facade. It was really her and the good 661 00:38:12,200 --> 00:38:14,640 Speaker 1: and the bad. Like she would say, you know, flaws 662 00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:20,480 Speaker 1: and all either fect those. She really did own it 663 00:38:20,719 --> 00:38:26,160 Speaker 1: in every aspect. And I am so proud and honored 664 00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:28,919 Speaker 1: and it's such a privilege and a blessing to be 665 00:38:29,200 --> 00:38:35,520 Speaker 1: her daughter, to be her firstborn. It's like, Wow, that's 666 00:38:35,600 --> 00:38:39,279 Speaker 1: my mama. You know, she's a badass in every sense 667 00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:43,640 Speaker 1: of the word. And it's crazy because I know this, 668 00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:48,560 Speaker 1: but I think I'm so engulfed in doing what I 669 00:38:48,600 --> 00:38:51,080 Speaker 1: gotta do and being the best example that I can 670 00:38:51,160 --> 00:38:56,200 Speaker 1: to my siblings of doing working and that sometimes not 671 00:38:56,280 --> 00:38:58,719 Speaker 1: that I forget, it's just now that I'm talking about her, 672 00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:03,480 Speaker 1: I'm just like Damn, that's my mom. It's so tight, 673 00:39:03,640 --> 00:39:06,520 Speaker 1: you know, And I'm so grateful and I thank God, 674 00:39:06,600 --> 00:39:09,680 Speaker 1: and I hope that one day, when I have a daughter, 675 00:39:12,480 --> 00:39:18,279 Speaker 1: she could be half the woman my mother was. I'm 676 00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:21,040 Speaker 1: gonna name her Jenny. It might be her middle name, 677 00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:27,160 Speaker 1: but it has to be Jenny. And just the way 678 00:39:27,200 --> 00:39:31,160 Speaker 1: I asked you guys to listen to her music, to 679 00:39:31,200 --> 00:39:34,239 Speaker 1: my mother's music and honor her and you know, keep 680 00:39:34,239 --> 00:39:37,319 Speaker 1: her alive, keep her legacy alive. I also do the same. 681 00:39:37,440 --> 00:39:40,840 Speaker 1: I listen to her music a lot, especially when I 682 00:39:40,960 --> 00:39:43,439 Speaker 1: need that motivation or I'm gonna go I'm gonna walk 683 00:39:43,440 --> 00:39:46,960 Speaker 1: into a meeting, or when I was going through a heartbreak, 684 00:39:47,719 --> 00:39:55,319 Speaker 1: I would listen too, like all those songs. Usually, what 685 00:39:55,360 --> 00:39:58,799 Speaker 1: we like to do on December nine is eat your 686 00:39:58,840 --> 00:40:02,879 Speaker 1: favorite foods. She liked the cookies, Nutter butters, she loved 687 00:40:02,880 --> 00:40:06,520 Speaker 1: Diet coke, she loved pork rinds, and just sit there 688 00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:10,440 Speaker 1: and watch her favorite movies, one of them being Life. 689 00:40:10,920 --> 00:40:13,480 Speaker 1: The movie Life, if you guys haven't watched today, highly recommended. 690 00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:16,640 Speaker 1: It's super funny. Um So that's what we're gonna do. 691 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:19,239 Speaker 1: Hopefully we can be together. It's gone to a point 692 00:40:19,239 --> 00:40:21,360 Speaker 1: where now. I respect my siblings are a lot older, 693 00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:23,080 Speaker 1: so if they feel like they need to be alone, 694 00:40:24,080 --> 00:40:26,400 Speaker 1: especially Mikey, he's the one that's always like, you know what, 695 00:40:26,480 --> 00:40:28,080 Speaker 1: I want to take my time. I want to do 696 00:40:28,120 --> 00:40:32,160 Speaker 1: this by myself. I respect that I would love for 697 00:40:32,200 --> 00:40:34,920 Speaker 1: all of us to be together in my new home hopefully, 698 00:40:34,960 --> 00:40:37,160 Speaker 1: but if not, then I'm going to do my best 699 00:40:37,200 --> 00:40:39,200 Speaker 1: to do what I do and listen to her music 700 00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:50,279 Speaker 1: loud and proud, and and just remember her because I 701 00:40:50,360 --> 00:40:52,640 Speaker 1: do miss her very much. It doesn't matter how old 702 00:40:52,680 --> 00:40:55,520 Speaker 1: I get, I still need my mom's hugs. I still 703 00:40:55,560 --> 00:40:59,560 Speaker 1: need her kisses. I still she had the best hugs ever. 704 00:41:00,160 --> 00:41:04,040 Speaker 1: She was the best hugger. She always smells so good. 705 00:41:04,080 --> 00:41:06,360 Speaker 1: She had this certain cent that I'm never going to forget, 706 00:41:10,840 --> 00:41:13,920 Speaker 1: and her advice. I just I need her, you know, 707 00:41:14,000 --> 00:41:18,080 Speaker 1: I still need her to me. It's yeah, it's been 708 00:41:18,160 --> 00:41:20,280 Speaker 1: nine years, it's gonna be ten, but it still feels 709 00:41:20,280 --> 00:41:22,520 Speaker 1: like it was yesterday. And if I can give you 710 00:41:22,560 --> 00:41:27,320 Speaker 1: guys a piece of advice before um we go and 711 00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:32,239 Speaker 1: we close up, is honor your parents. Don't wait for 712 00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:36,520 Speaker 1: a special holiday for their birthday, for Christmas, for Mother's Day, 713 00:41:36,560 --> 00:41:38,719 Speaker 1: for Father's Day, to say hi, I love you, to 714 00:41:38,840 --> 00:41:44,040 Speaker 1: send them flowers randomly. You just never know what will happen. 715 00:41:44,160 --> 00:41:47,719 Speaker 1: You never know when you won't see them again. So 716 00:41:47,760 --> 00:41:53,440 Speaker 1: that's my advice to you guys, to appreciate and value 717 00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:56,239 Speaker 1: your loved ones, to take the time to spend time 718 00:41:56,280 --> 00:42:00,399 Speaker 1: with them, to call them now and then. I still 719 00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:03,560 Speaker 1: do with my grandma, even though I'm hurt. If she's sick, 720 00:42:04,040 --> 00:42:07,040 Speaker 1: I call her, I send her text messages. I want 721 00:42:07,040 --> 00:42:08,759 Speaker 1: to make sure she knows that I'm there because I'm 722 00:42:08,760 --> 00:42:12,160 Speaker 1: still grateful for everything she did for me. Things have 723 00:42:12,280 --> 00:42:18,080 Speaker 1: just changed. But that's my advice to you guys. Take 724 00:42:18,120 --> 00:42:23,480 Speaker 1: care of those that you love and keep their legacy 725 00:42:23,520 --> 00:42:31,239 Speaker 1: alive once they're gone. So, guys, sorry for it's a 726 00:42:31,320 --> 00:42:34,440 Speaker 1: very touchy subject. It's something that I thought I was 727 00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:36,960 Speaker 1: not going to talk about everything that we talked about here, 728 00:42:37,040 --> 00:42:40,360 Speaker 1: but this is a safe place and a way for 729 00:42:40,440 --> 00:42:42,520 Speaker 1: me to express myself and share with you guys on 730 00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:45,880 Speaker 1: a deeper level, like my thoughts, my heart and my mind, 731 00:42:46,719 --> 00:42:50,120 Speaker 1: my soul, everything that I go through. I hope you 732 00:42:50,120 --> 00:42:54,040 Speaker 1: guys enjoyed this episode and again December nine, let's not 733 00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:59,000 Speaker 1: be sad. Yes, we miss her, but all the Jenny 734 00:42:59,120 --> 00:43:03,880 Speaker 1: Rivera fans out there. Let's celebrate her life and what 735 00:43:04,040 --> 00:43:11,480 Speaker 1: she taught us. Thank you guys so much. I will 736 00:43:11,520 --> 00:43:16,200 Speaker 1: talk to you next week and have a beautiful, wonderful, 737 00:43:16,239 --> 00:43:26,360 Speaker 1: productive week. This is a production of I Heart Radio 738 00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:31,160 Speaker 1: and Michael podcast Network. Follow us on Instagram at Michael 739 00:43:31,239 --> 00:43:35,960 Speaker 1: da Podcasts and follow me checks that's c h i 740 00:43:36,120 --> 00:43:39,960 Speaker 1: q u i s. For more podcasts from my heart, 741 00:43:40,200 --> 00:43:43,920 Speaker 1: visit the I Heart Radio app, Apple podcast, or wherever 742 00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:45,400 Speaker 1: you listen to your favorite shows.