1 00:00:03,720 --> 00:00:05,600 Speaker 1: She's like, yeah, have you seen Twitter? And I'm like no, 2 00:00:06,880 --> 00:00:09,160 Speaker 1: and she says, well, I don't think you should look, 3 00:00:09,240 --> 00:00:14,160 Speaker 1: but you know, apparently your mom's plane is missing. My 4 00:00:14,280 --> 00:00:20,000 Speaker 1: family and I are not okay, my extended family should 5 00:00:20,000 --> 00:00:22,239 Speaker 1: I say? My siblings? And I think goodness were good. 6 00:00:23,680 --> 00:00:26,720 Speaker 1: That's the way we can keep her alive is by 7 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:35,839 Speaker 1: listening to her music. Hello, guys, and welcome to another 8 00:00:35,920 --> 00:00:40,080 Speaker 1: episode of Cheeky's and Chill. I hope you all had 9 00:00:40,120 --> 00:00:42,559 Speaker 1: a great weekend and your week is off to a 10 00:00:42,600 --> 00:00:45,960 Speaker 1: really great start. If you're listening to me today, well 11 00:00:46,120 --> 00:00:48,760 Speaker 1: I'm sure it will be. But thank you so much 12 00:00:48,760 --> 00:00:51,239 Speaker 1: for tuning in. Today's episode is one that's near and 13 00:00:51,240 --> 00:00:55,080 Speaker 1: dear to my heart. This podcast is very special to 14 00:00:55,120 --> 00:00:58,240 Speaker 1: me for many reasons. I've talked about that before. It's 15 00:00:58,280 --> 00:01:01,360 Speaker 1: a space where I can share very personal, intimate details 16 00:01:01,360 --> 00:01:03,320 Speaker 1: with you, and that's exactly what I'm going to be 17 00:01:03,320 --> 00:01:06,880 Speaker 1: doing today. It's dedicated to my mom. You guys, it's 18 00:01:06,959 --> 00:01:11,279 Speaker 1: going to be nine years since my mother, Jenny Rivera, 19 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:17,119 Speaker 1: left us. So grab some tequila, some coffee, probably say 20 00:01:17,120 --> 00:01:21,000 Speaker 1: some tequila, and let's do it. Let's get into Cheeky's 21 00:01:21,080 --> 00:01:32,000 Speaker 1: and Chill. So this Friday marks nine years since my 22 00:01:32,080 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: mom died. December ninth, twenty twelve, my mom and six 23 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:42,120 Speaker 1: others died in a plane crash in northern Mexico, and 24 00:01:43,640 --> 00:01:47,440 Speaker 1: that day, yes the world, we all lost her, and 25 00:01:47,480 --> 00:01:50,440 Speaker 1: it was a very difficult day. Those of you that 26 00:01:50,560 --> 00:01:53,120 Speaker 1: know me, that have read my book, know that I 27 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:58,800 Speaker 1: lost my mom on October tewod of twenty twelve. I 28 00:01:58,880 --> 00:02:01,720 Speaker 1: lost her before everyone else did her and I had 29 00:02:01,760 --> 00:02:04,640 Speaker 1: a falling out, a misunderstanding. There were a lot of 30 00:02:04,680 --> 00:02:08,800 Speaker 1: toxic voices around her at the time, and we weren't talking. 31 00:02:09,280 --> 00:02:10,720 Speaker 1: This is the second time that she had done that 32 00:02:10,760 --> 00:02:14,639 Speaker 1: to me. She kind of just she was a woman 33 00:02:14,840 --> 00:02:17,160 Speaker 1: that was very strong and said in her ways, so 34 00:02:17,400 --> 00:02:21,520 Speaker 1: her lessons were always very tough. So the first time 35 00:02:21,560 --> 00:02:24,160 Speaker 1: she did that to me, and it was honestly two 36 00:02:24,200 --> 00:02:27,080 Speaker 1: months as well, I was fourteen going into to my 37 00:02:27,080 --> 00:02:32,079 Speaker 1: fifteenth birthday. It was that summer of when I was fourteen. 38 00:02:33,400 --> 00:02:37,800 Speaker 1: We were ending school and you know during that time, 39 00:02:37,840 --> 00:02:39,640 Speaker 1: you know, like at the end, you're doing all the 40 00:02:39,639 --> 00:02:44,120 Speaker 1: tests and stuff. So I went with my friends instead 41 00:02:44,120 --> 00:02:45,640 Speaker 1: of telling her, I got out early. I remember it 42 00:02:45,680 --> 00:02:49,320 Speaker 1: was a Monday as well, and instead of telling her, Hey, mom, 43 00:02:49,360 --> 00:02:50,880 Speaker 1: I got out early. I went with my friends to 44 00:02:50,919 --> 00:02:53,960 Speaker 1: go have a cheeseburger and fries across the street. I 45 00:02:54,000 --> 00:02:56,120 Speaker 1: just thought, okay, I'll tell her that I'm off, you know, 46 00:02:56,160 --> 00:02:58,280 Speaker 1: at twelve o'clock the rest of the week. So she 47 00:02:58,360 --> 00:03:00,280 Speaker 1: thought I had lied to her. Well I kind of 48 00:03:00,320 --> 00:03:03,200 Speaker 1: dated in a way. So anyways, she kicked me out. 49 00:03:03,240 --> 00:03:04,880 Speaker 1: It was a big thing. I explained all of it 50 00:03:04,919 --> 00:03:07,960 Speaker 1: in my book Forgiveness, or put it on in Spanish. 51 00:03:08,040 --> 00:03:10,560 Speaker 1: And she stopped talking to me for two months. And 52 00:03:10,720 --> 00:03:13,120 Speaker 1: I'll never forget because for my fifteenth birthday I didn't 53 00:03:13,120 --> 00:03:15,880 Speaker 1: get a call from her. Then later on, as I 54 00:03:15,880 --> 00:03:18,120 Speaker 1: explained in the book as well, how we started talking. 55 00:03:18,240 --> 00:03:20,080 Speaker 1: You know, she just grabbed my little Longchriitte because I'll 56 00:03:20,080 --> 00:03:21,880 Speaker 1: staying at my grandma's house, and she said, you know, 57 00:03:21,880 --> 00:03:23,760 Speaker 1: I think it's time for you to come home. You've 58 00:03:23,800 --> 00:03:26,560 Speaker 1: had a very nice time here at your grandma's house eating, 59 00:03:26,600 --> 00:03:28,640 Speaker 1: so it's time for you to come home. And she 60 00:03:28,720 --> 00:03:31,680 Speaker 1: put me on a diet, and she fixed my hair 61 00:03:31,680 --> 00:03:33,680 Speaker 1: because she had cut it. It's just so much, you know. 62 00:03:33,880 --> 00:03:36,120 Speaker 1: So anyways, the second time that ever happened was in 63 00:03:36,160 --> 00:03:41,880 Speaker 1: October of twenty twelve. On October second, that was basically 64 00:03:41,920 --> 00:03:44,840 Speaker 1: the last time I had heard from my mother. In 65 00:03:44,880 --> 00:03:49,360 Speaker 1: September of twenty twelve, things got really weird. My mom 66 00:03:49,440 --> 00:03:55,520 Speaker 1: was in a very weird place in her life emotionally 67 00:03:55,560 --> 00:03:57,840 Speaker 1: and mentally. I feel. And this is another thing that 68 00:03:57,840 --> 00:04:02,560 Speaker 1: we've never talked about publicly because it was always just forbidden. 69 00:04:03,360 --> 00:04:08,280 Speaker 1: But my mom wasn't doing too well and I could tell, 70 00:04:08,400 --> 00:04:10,119 Speaker 1: and all of us could tell, but no one could 71 00:04:10,120 --> 00:04:12,200 Speaker 1: say anything because we were afraid to upset her. But 72 00:04:12,560 --> 00:04:14,960 Speaker 1: things were getting kind of weird. And on October second, 73 00:04:14,960 --> 00:04:18,279 Speaker 1: I did get the email and the subject said lights on. 74 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:22,640 Speaker 1: I believe it was lights on. And it was a long, 75 00:04:23,200 --> 00:04:26,839 Speaker 1: long email, which maybe one day I'll share with you guys, 76 00:04:27,440 --> 00:04:31,320 Speaker 1: very strong email, And basically what it said was that 77 00:04:31,440 --> 00:04:33,680 Speaker 1: all everything came together and the lights were now on 78 00:04:33,880 --> 00:04:36,679 Speaker 1: that she could see clearly that I had been sleeping 79 00:04:36,720 --> 00:04:43,400 Speaker 1: with her husband Estevan at the time. And I remember 80 00:04:43,480 --> 00:04:45,680 Speaker 1: being at a diner and I just dropped my phone, 81 00:04:45,720 --> 00:04:50,560 Speaker 1: I said what I was in disbelief. I drove to 82 00:04:50,600 --> 00:04:53,920 Speaker 1: my mom's house. I didn't even finish reading the entire 83 00:04:53,960 --> 00:04:57,000 Speaker 1: email that night, but I drove to my mom's house 84 00:04:57,120 --> 00:05:02,479 Speaker 1: I had all the gatecodes. Everything was changed. I remember, 85 00:05:02,520 --> 00:05:04,760 Speaker 1: I don't know how I did it, but I pulled 86 00:05:04,800 --> 00:05:08,560 Speaker 1: that gate open and I was knocking and on the door, 87 00:05:08,640 --> 00:05:12,000 Speaker 1: banging on it. Everything was closed. The keys were changed 88 00:05:12,040 --> 00:05:14,400 Speaker 1: on me. I was just like, what in the hell 89 00:05:14,520 --> 00:05:17,359 Speaker 1: is going on? I fell to the floor. I was crying. 90 00:05:17,440 --> 00:05:20,839 Speaker 1: I called my sister Jackie. I was confused. I was like, 91 00:05:20,920 --> 00:05:24,440 Speaker 1: what the heck is going on. I tried my very 92 00:05:24,440 --> 00:05:27,480 Speaker 1: best to contact her, and every way, through email, through 93 00:05:27,520 --> 00:05:30,239 Speaker 1: her Twitter, she blocked me. Everywhere. She changed her email, 94 00:05:30,279 --> 00:05:32,880 Speaker 1: she changed her number. I mean, coming from having all 95 00:05:32,920 --> 00:05:35,200 Speaker 1: the access in the world to her to having none 96 00:05:35,360 --> 00:05:39,880 Speaker 1: was devastating. And then my siblings had to forcefully be 97 00:05:39,960 --> 00:05:42,800 Speaker 1: on her side because if not, it was an issue. 98 00:05:42,960 --> 00:05:47,279 Speaker 1: So it was very hard for me. It was a 99 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:50,839 Speaker 1: woman that came into her life a couple months before 100 00:05:51,360 --> 00:05:56,320 Speaker 1: that started throwing veneno just evilness into her ear, and 101 00:05:56,760 --> 00:06:00,160 Speaker 1: I don't know how just made up this whole story, 102 00:06:00,200 --> 00:06:02,680 Speaker 1: and my mom again was not in the right place 103 00:06:02,720 --> 00:06:06,640 Speaker 1: emotionally or mentally. Don't take my word for it. One 104 00:06:06,720 --> 00:06:08,960 Speaker 1: day my siblings will talk and say the truth about 105 00:06:09,000 --> 00:06:12,120 Speaker 1: what was going on during that time. I have actually 106 00:06:12,160 --> 00:06:14,000 Speaker 1: on my evidence to show that that could have not 107 00:06:14,080 --> 00:06:16,640 Speaker 1: happened the night that she thought it happened. I had 108 00:06:16,760 --> 00:06:20,240 Speaker 1: the phone record showing that when in the cameras it 109 00:06:20,279 --> 00:06:23,360 Speaker 1: said that, okay, maybe I was gone in the room 110 00:06:23,760 --> 00:06:27,159 Speaker 1: with a steban, that's completely false. You could see my 111 00:06:27,240 --> 00:06:30,240 Speaker 1: head in another camera. I have phone calls that I 112 00:06:30,240 --> 00:06:32,040 Speaker 1: was actually on the phone with my uncle Huan and 113 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:35,000 Speaker 1: my ex boyfriend for thirty minutes during the time that 114 00:06:35,040 --> 00:06:36,400 Speaker 1: she thought I was gone and couldn't see me in 115 00:06:36,440 --> 00:06:39,240 Speaker 1: the cameras. So it's just I never had the opportunity. 116 00:06:39,240 --> 00:06:41,080 Speaker 1: I try to explain this to her many times, and 117 00:06:41,120 --> 00:06:43,800 Speaker 1: to my aunt and everyone around tell her this, but 118 00:06:43,880 --> 00:06:46,440 Speaker 1: she just wasn't She didn't want to listen. That's why 119 00:06:46,480 --> 00:06:48,359 Speaker 1: it was so important to me to write Forgiveness and 120 00:06:48,400 --> 00:06:52,159 Speaker 1: to explain this is my truth, for my future children, 121 00:06:52,240 --> 00:06:55,440 Speaker 1: for my future husband, for the people my followers that 122 00:06:55,600 --> 00:06:57,919 Speaker 1: knew me from Cheeky's and control from Cheeky's and roxy 123 00:06:57,960 --> 00:07:01,520 Speaker 1: from what I was already starting. I did not do 124 00:07:01,600 --> 00:07:03,920 Speaker 1: this that I to me, it's accusing me of doing 125 00:07:03,920 --> 00:07:06,680 Speaker 1: something like that. It's like killing someone, is murdering someone, 126 00:07:06,960 --> 00:07:08,560 Speaker 1: and I would never do that to my mother. First 127 00:07:08,560 --> 00:07:10,560 Speaker 1: of all, as a woman, I just wouldn't do it. 128 00:07:10,800 --> 00:07:12,480 Speaker 1: And secondly, I would be too damn scared to do 129 00:07:12,520 --> 00:07:14,840 Speaker 1: that to my mom. I mean, I know my mother, like, 130 00:07:15,200 --> 00:07:16,760 Speaker 1: there's no way, you know what I mean. And I 131 00:07:16,800 --> 00:07:19,120 Speaker 1: loved to Stevan as a stepfather, and I loved him 132 00:07:19,320 --> 00:07:21,760 Speaker 1: because he loved my siblings, because he was so good 133 00:07:21,800 --> 00:07:25,920 Speaker 1: to my mother. So no, it's completely false. And I 134 00:07:25,960 --> 00:07:28,040 Speaker 1: invite you guys to read Forgiveness so that you guys 135 00:07:28,840 --> 00:07:31,480 Speaker 1: can understand the entire story in detail. That's why I 136 00:07:31,520 --> 00:07:34,160 Speaker 1: wrote the book. But that was what happened, and that's 137 00:07:34,160 --> 00:07:36,360 Speaker 1: what that was, the falling out between my mom and I. 138 00:07:37,120 --> 00:07:38,600 Speaker 1: But I always had a faith that we were going 139 00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:40,640 Speaker 1: to talk, that we were going to talk and sit 140 00:07:40,680 --> 00:07:42,200 Speaker 1: down and clear it up and everything was going to 141 00:07:42,240 --> 00:07:47,680 Speaker 1: be fine. But again, there wasn't enough time, and that's 142 00:07:47,720 --> 00:07:50,800 Speaker 1: when I lost my mom. I remember going to therapy 143 00:07:50,960 --> 00:07:53,400 Speaker 1: and the therapist told me, you know what, you are 144 00:07:53,440 --> 00:07:57,040 Speaker 1: going to have to start living your life like if 145 00:07:57,040 --> 00:08:00,160 Speaker 1: she was no longer here. And I remember saying, what 146 00:08:00,160 --> 00:08:02,200 Speaker 1: do you mean. I was like, yeah, like if she 147 00:08:02,280 --> 00:08:04,840 Speaker 1: had passed away. This was two weeks before December ninth, 148 00:08:05,280 --> 00:08:07,600 Speaker 1: and I'll never forget. And I looked and I looked 149 00:08:07,600 --> 00:08:10,200 Speaker 1: at my therapist and I said, what It hit me 150 00:08:10,240 --> 00:08:11,480 Speaker 1: and I cried and I cried and I said, you 151 00:08:11,560 --> 00:08:16,320 Speaker 1: know what, Yes, I'm dying slowly inside. I had suicidal thoughts. 152 00:08:16,880 --> 00:08:20,920 Speaker 1: I didn't have everything and everyone, my siblings, my mother 153 00:08:21,040 --> 00:08:24,280 Speaker 1: that were so important to me. But of course I 154 00:08:24,280 --> 00:08:28,440 Speaker 1: didn't understand that then. Now that I look back, now 155 00:08:28,440 --> 00:08:31,000 Speaker 1: that I know how God works, and now I know 156 00:08:31,960 --> 00:08:36,240 Speaker 1: everything that I went through had a reason. But during 157 00:08:36,280 --> 00:08:38,680 Speaker 1: that time it was it was horrible. So when December 158 00:08:38,800 --> 00:08:42,760 Speaker 1: ninth came and the world lost her, I was already 159 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:47,040 Speaker 1: a few steps into the healing process, so I was 160 00:08:47,040 --> 00:08:49,520 Speaker 1: able to be there for my siblings. And like I said, 161 00:08:49,600 --> 00:08:52,480 Speaker 1: everything does happen for a reason. God's plans are perfect. 162 00:08:52,600 --> 00:08:57,880 Speaker 1: And it hurt me very much. Obviously I lost her twice. 163 00:08:58,880 --> 00:09:02,840 Speaker 1: But who kept me alive were my siblings, all four 164 00:09:02,880 --> 00:09:05,440 Speaker 1: of them, but more than anything, Johnny and Jenica. My 165 00:09:05,480 --> 00:09:09,880 Speaker 1: sister Jenica was fifteen, she's now twenty three. Johnny was eleven, 166 00:09:10,040 --> 00:09:13,199 Speaker 1: he's now about to be twenty one. So I took 167 00:09:13,440 --> 00:09:16,200 Speaker 1: them under my wing and I said, I let's go. 168 00:09:16,280 --> 00:09:17,440 Speaker 1: I'm going to take care of you. I'm not going 169 00:09:17,480 --> 00:09:19,600 Speaker 1: to leave your side, and I didn't and I haven't. 170 00:09:20,880 --> 00:09:23,760 Speaker 1: And that's the way that I honor my mother every 171 00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:26,599 Speaker 1: single day since she passed. And yes, I was disinherited 172 00:09:26,679 --> 00:09:29,880 Speaker 1: because of this whole fallout and this misunderstanding and by 173 00:09:29,920 --> 00:09:32,920 Speaker 1: the way, I gathered up all of my evidence to 174 00:09:32,960 --> 00:09:35,560 Speaker 1: show my mom what is being said is not true, 175 00:09:36,280 --> 00:09:38,760 Speaker 1: and she just kept saying that she needed time and 176 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:42,480 Speaker 1: time and time. And look, you know then there wasn't. 177 00:09:42,840 --> 00:09:46,920 Speaker 1: Time just took its course and God had other plans. 178 00:09:47,640 --> 00:09:51,600 Speaker 1: But anyways, I was disinherited. But I always say that 179 00:09:53,120 --> 00:09:55,559 Speaker 1: the inheritance that my mother left me were my siblings. 180 00:09:56,280 --> 00:10:01,400 Speaker 1: The most important and the biggest inheritance are my And 181 00:10:01,480 --> 00:10:04,319 Speaker 1: that's how I honor her legacy every single day because 182 00:10:04,320 --> 00:10:08,080 Speaker 1: I know how important her children were an art to 183 00:10:08,120 --> 00:10:10,640 Speaker 1: her till this day. Because I feel her around, I 184 00:10:10,679 --> 00:10:12,800 Speaker 1: feel her. I can't say because I'm at paticio and 185 00:10:12,840 --> 00:10:15,200 Speaker 1: that i've seen her. Know I've seen her twice in 186 00:10:15,240 --> 00:10:18,280 Speaker 1: these past nine years. I've seen her twice in my dreams, 187 00:10:18,440 --> 00:10:21,360 Speaker 1: and I get so sad the next day and for 188 00:10:21,400 --> 00:10:22,880 Speaker 1: a few days that I feel she's like, I don't 189 00:10:22,880 --> 00:10:24,760 Speaker 1: want to do that to her. So she doesn't come 190 00:10:24,760 --> 00:10:27,040 Speaker 1: around in my dreams as much anymore because I'm pretty 191 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:29,160 Speaker 1: sure knowing her, she's busy in heaven doing her thing. 192 00:10:30,760 --> 00:10:32,200 Speaker 1: I always talk to her, though, I tell her, Mom, 193 00:10:32,200 --> 00:10:33,680 Speaker 1: I don't know where you're at, but I need you. 194 00:10:33,800 --> 00:10:36,640 Speaker 1: So I just know that that's how I'm honoring her. 195 00:10:36,679 --> 00:10:38,480 Speaker 1: And I know that her children and she said it 196 00:10:38,640 --> 00:10:42,560 Speaker 1: in any interview Jenny Rivera. Fans out there know how 197 00:10:42,600 --> 00:10:47,480 Speaker 1: important her children were to her. She said it anytime 198 00:10:47,520 --> 00:10:49,080 Speaker 1: and every time that she could, she said it, she 199 00:10:49,120 --> 00:10:53,040 Speaker 1: said in her book. So to me, that's what I've 200 00:10:53,040 --> 00:10:56,480 Speaker 1: done is I've done my best in every single way 201 00:10:56,640 --> 00:10:59,679 Speaker 1: to be a good older sister, to be a good 202 00:10:59,679 --> 00:11:03,559 Speaker 1: exam to my siblings, to have their back, to keep 203 00:11:03,640 --> 00:11:08,280 Speaker 1: us united. It's been tough sometimes because of outside noises 204 00:11:08,320 --> 00:11:11,880 Speaker 1: other toxic voices. It's made it a little difficult to 205 00:11:12,000 --> 00:11:15,240 Speaker 1: have a peaceful relationship. But I've always said, hey, wait 206 00:11:15,280 --> 00:11:18,000 Speaker 1: a second, let's come together. This is what Mom wants. 207 00:11:18,080 --> 00:11:20,280 Speaker 1: She's always wanted this. She always told me, no matter what, 208 00:11:20,880 --> 00:11:22,719 Speaker 1: you are the oldest, and I'm sorry that God made 209 00:11:22,720 --> 00:11:25,199 Speaker 1: you the oldest, but you are the oldest for a reason, 210 00:11:25,800 --> 00:11:31,000 Speaker 1: and you are to always keep your siblings united. Do 211 00:11:31,160 --> 00:11:35,000 Speaker 1: not allow you and your siblings to be what my 212 00:11:35,040 --> 00:11:40,920 Speaker 1: siblings and I are. She told me that countless times countless, 213 00:11:40,960 --> 00:11:47,880 Speaker 1: and that's what I try to do. I do want 214 00:11:48,160 --> 00:11:52,120 Speaker 1: to say that the day that I found out, December ninth, 215 00:11:52,160 --> 00:11:55,960 Speaker 1: twenty twelve, that my mom was missing, because that's what 216 00:11:56,000 --> 00:11:58,040 Speaker 1: it was at first, her plane was missing. It just 217 00:11:58,040 --> 00:12:00,960 Speaker 1: disappeared out of the sky. I was in Las Vegas. 218 00:12:01,520 --> 00:12:04,840 Speaker 1: We were celebrating my cousin Karina's wedding. She had gotten 219 00:12:04,880 --> 00:12:08,360 Speaker 1: married on the eighth, so that was during the day 220 00:12:08,520 --> 00:12:10,160 Speaker 1: and we all went to go eat, and then after 221 00:12:10,200 --> 00:12:12,240 Speaker 1: we all went to go party. And I remember being 222 00:12:12,320 --> 00:12:19,920 Speaker 1: at this rooftop nightclub. I think it was called The Voodoo, 223 00:12:20,280 --> 00:12:23,000 Speaker 1: and I was fine. I had already kind of said okay, 224 00:12:23,440 --> 00:12:26,160 Speaker 1: took my therapist's advice and said, okay, I'm going to 225 00:12:26,240 --> 00:12:28,480 Speaker 1: start living like my mom is no longer here. And 226 00:12:28,520 --> 00:12:31,240 Speaker 1: I was feeling a little bit better emotionally and mentally. 227 00:12:31,600 --> 00:12:33,800 Speaker 1: And I had just seen Johnny for the first time 228 00:12:34,000 --> 00:12:37,240 Speaker 1: in months and a few weeks, should I say, there 229 00:12:37,280 --> 00:12:39,559 Speaker 1: at my cousin's wedding. And it was so hard because 230 00:12:40,000 --> 00:12:42,560 Speaker 1: it was just a weird energy so it was kind 231 00:12:42,559 --> 00:12:44,400 Speaker 1: of eating me up inside. So that night we went 232 00:12:44,440 --> 00:12:47,040 Speaker 1: out and my friends and I were dancing on the 233 00:12:47,080 --> 00:12:48,960 Speaker 1: dance floor. I was looking up at the sky and 234 00:12:49,040 --> 00:12:53,760 Speaker 1: I felt this sadness come upon me that I can 235 00:12:53,920 --> 00:12:57,400 Speaker 1: explain that. I just felt like, oh, like I just 236 00:12:57,880 --> 00:13:00,200 Speaker 1: I wanted to fall to the floor and I just 237 00:13:00,200 --> 00:13:02,800 Speaker 1: started crying in the middle of the dance floor. I'm 238 00:13:02,800 --> 00:13:05,400 Speaker 1: telling you, I was. We were on a rooftop, so 239 00:13:05,440 --> 00:13:07,040 Speaker 1: I just said, you guys, I sat down and I 240 00:13:07,120 --> 00:13:09,480 Speaker 1: was just bawling and balling, like the sadness came over me, 241 00:13:09,520 --> 00:13:13,040 Speaker 1: and I didn't know why. So I remember just telling 242 00:13:13,160 --> 00:13:17,240 Speaker 1: my friends, Hey, it was Gerald at the time in Brianna, 243 00:13:17,480 --> 00:13:20,960 Speaker 1: and I said, let's just go back to the room, 244 00:13:21,200 --> 00:13:24,600 Speaker 1: and we did, and we got McDonald's because food just 245 00:13:24,840 --> 00:13:27,319 Speaker 1: you know, I've had an issue with food my whole life, 246 00:13:27,360 --> 00:13:29,920 Speaker 1: so when I'm sad, I just want fatty stuff, you know, so, 247 00:13:31,040 --> 00:13:34,640 Speaker 1: or should I say starchy foods. So we had McDonald's. 248 00:13:34,640 --> 00:13:36,240 Speaker 1: We sat on the floor, we ate it, and I 249 00:13:36,240 --> 00:13:39,800 Speaker 1: fell asleep and at ten am in the morning, I 250 00:13:39,880 --> 00:13:42,280 Speaker 1: was woken up by a phone call from my cousin Karina, 251 00:13:42,520 --> 00:13:44,720 Speaker 1: who was, like I said, always also in Vegas with me, 252 00:13:45,800 --> 00:13:49,400 Speaker 1: and she said, hey, cousin, we gotta go. I said, wait, well, 253 00:13:49,400 --> 00:13:50,480 Speaker 1: we have plans to do. What do you mean we 254 00:13:50,480 --> 00:13:51,600 Speaker 1: got to go? She said, no, we got to go. 255 00:13:52,200 --> 00:13:54,000 Speaker 1: My dad just called me and said it's an emergency. 256 00:13:54,080 --> 00:13:56,319 Speaker 1: We have to drive down to Grandma's house like now. 257 00:13:57,400 --> 00:14:00,000 Speaker 1: And I'm like what. She's like, yeah, have you seen Twitter? 258 00:14:00,040 --> 00:14:03,480 Speaker 1: And I'm like no, And she says, well, I don't 259 00:14:03,480 --> 00:14:06,680 Speaker 1: think you should look, but you know, apparently your mom's 260 00:14:06,679 --> 00:14:10,360 Speaker 1: plane is missing. I'm like, what do you mean, Yeah, 261 00:14:10,400 --> 00:14:14,080 Speaker 1: it's missing. They can't find it. So then I started. 262 00:14:14,120 --> 00:14:18,120 Speaker 1: Of course, I packed my stuff. I was driving a 263 00:14:18,160 --> 00:14:20,200 Speaker 1: Prius at the time. I don't know how I did, 264 00:14:20,240 --> 00:14:22,960 Speaker 1: and I don't recommend anyone to do this, but I 265 00:14:23,000 --> 00:14:26,880 Speaker 1: got from Vegas to Lakewood, California in less than three hours. 266 00:14:26,920 --> 00:14:30,720 Speaker 1: I was going so fast. After I read on Twitter 267 00:14:31,600 --> 00:14:34,200 Speaker 1: the late Jenny Rivera, like just so many things, like 268 00:14:34,240 --> 00:14:37,080 Speaker 1: she had already she was gone, like she had already disappeared, 269 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:38,720 Speaker 1: like she was you know, I was like, wait a second, 270 00:14:38,720 --> 00:14:40,440 Speaker 1: we don't even know what's going on. It was horrible. 271 00:14:40,440 --> 00:14:42,520 Speaker 1: It was all over the radio. I couldn't listen to music. 272 00:14:42,880 --> 00:14:45,000 Speaker 1: I was just in silence the entire time, crying and 273 00:14:45,040 --> 00:14:46,920 Speaker 1: I'm like the whole time, I'm like, God, you can't 274 00:14:46,920 --> 00:14:48,240 Speaker 1: do this to me. No, you can't do this to me. 275 00:14:48,280 --> 00:14:51,120 Speaker 1: Like that's what I kept just repeating. It felt like 276 00:14:51,240 --> 00:14:53,080 Speaker 1: forever to get to my grandma's house, but I got 277 00:14:53,120 --> 00:14:55,680 Speaker 1: there in less than three hours, which is crazy. I 278 00:14:55,720 --> 00:14:57,880 Speaker 1: don't know how I did that. Again, I don't recommend 279 00:14:57,960 --> 00:15:01,800 Speaker 1: anyone to do that. I was just so like in 280 00:15:01,840 --> 00:15:05,560 Speaker 1: the need of getting to my siblings because during that time, again, 281 00:15:05,600 --> 00:15:07,680 Speaker 1: I hadn't gotten a phone call from Jenica or Johnny. 282 00:15:07,680 --> 00:15:10,160 Speaker 1: And they called me and they said, Janica call, She's like, sister, 283 00:15:10,240 --> 00:15:12,800 Speaker 1: where are you? I need you here? And when she 284 00:15:12,920 --> 00:15:15,760 Speaker 1: said that, I was like, oh my god, Yes, they 285 00:15:15,840 --> 00:15:18,440 Speaker 1: need me. And I felt so uncomfortable because I hadn't 286 00:15:18,480 --> 00:15:22,560 Speaker 1: talked to none of my family and I was like, 287 00:15:22,560 --> 00:15:23,920 Speaker 1: how are they going to receive me? And at that 288 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:25,760 Speaker 1: moment when I got that phone call, I didn't care 289 00:15:25,880 --> 00:15:28,840 Speaker 1: everything you raised and I said, I have to be 290 00:15:28,880 --> 00:15:31,640 Speaker 1: there for these kids. I don't care. I walked in 291 00:15:31,680 --> 00:15:33,760 Speaker 1: there with my head held high and I got those 292 00:15:33,840 --> 00:15:35,880 Speaker 1: kids and I'm like, these are my kids. I don't 293 00:15:35,880 --> 00:15:37,440 Speaker 1: know what's going on with my mom. I still had 294 00:15:37,520 --> 00:15:39,560 Speaker 1: faith that my mom was going to come back. That 295 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:43,720 Speaker 1: was on a Sunday. I had faith Monday Tuesday until Wednesday. 296 00:15:44,640 --> 00:15:46,520 Speaker 1: I got to my grandma's house. Like I said, I 297 00:15:46,600 --> 00:15:48,920 Speaker 1: was like there for Johnny. We were sleeping on the floor. 298 00:15:49,240 --> 00:15:54,120 Speaker 1: I mean, it was chaotic at my grandma's house. But 299 00:15:54,320 --> 00:15:56,960 Speaker 1: on Wednesday, I told my uncles, you guys need to 300 00:15:56,960 --> 00:15:59,880 Speaker 1: go find my mom. You need to find my mom. 301 00:16:00,120 --> 00:16:02,680 Speaker 1: You guys, sorry, I don't trust the authorities in Mexico. 302 00:16:02,960 --> 00:16:05,240 Speaker 1: I need someone from us, from our side to go 303 00:16:05,320 --> 00:16:07,360 Speaker 1: and look for my mom physically, go on that mountain, 304 00:16:07,440 --> 00:16:10,240 Speaker 1: find my mom. I had faith that maybe, yes, the 305 00:16:10,280 --> 00:16:13,120 Speaker 1: plane had fallen, maybe she survived. I was thinking all 306 00:16:13,200 --> 00:16:16,600 Speaker 1: kinds of things. But then when I saw some pictures 307 00:16:16,600 --> 00:16:22,240 Speaker 1: on the internet that showed some of her remains, and 308 00:16:22,280 --> 00:16:24,480 Speaker 1: I had asked Jenica, I said, Jenica, what new polish? 309 00:16:24,600 --> 00:16:27,680 Speaker 1: What color was Mom wearing? She says, oh, red, And 310 00:16:27,720 --> 00:16:29,520 Speaker 1: I started looking at pictures and sure enough, yes, on 311 00:16:29,560 --> 00:16:34,320 Speaker 1: her last concert at Men Monterrey, because she was coming 312 00:16:34,440 --> 00:16:39,720 Speaker 1: from Monterrey back to Mexico City to record lavos, she 313 00:16:39,800 --> 00:16:41,280 Speaker 1: wanted to leave and I knew my mom, So that's 314 00:16:41,280 --> 00:16:42,800 Speaker 1: why she left at three thirty in the morning, so 315 00:16:42,840 --> 00:16:45,240 Speaker 1: that when I was feeling that on the rooftop at 316 00:16:45,280 --> 00:16:49,040 Speaker 1: one thirty, it was I think when everything was happening, 317 00:16:49,040 --> 00:16:50,680 Speaker 1: when my mom had left, and I think she came 318 00:16:50,680 --> 00:16:52,720 Speaker 1: to visit all of us. That's what I personally believe, 319 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:57,520 Speaker 1: So it all made sense afterwards, you know. So at 320 00:16:57,560 --> 00:17:05,600 Speaker 1: three thirty am is when her plane disappeared. I think 321 00:17:05,600 --> 00:17:09,760 Speaker 1: that we all felt her that night. So anyways, I 322 00:17:09,800 --> 00:17:12,280 Speaker 1: told my uncles go find my mom. And that's when 323 00:17:12,320 --> 00:17:14,639 Speaker 1: I asked Janica about her nail polish and it was 324 00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:21,560 Speaker 1: red and in her remains, I saw, like it's so 325 00:17:21,720 --> 00:17:25,439 Speaker 1: tough to say this, but her toes and they were red, 326 00:17:26,720 --> 00:17:35,040 Speaker 1: and I knew, like we lost her. And I know 327 00:17:35,160 --> 00:17:41,720 Speaker 1: those feet because so many times when she was tired, 328 00:17:42,040 --> 00:17:43,760 Speaker 1: I would put on her shoes, I would take them off, 329 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:46,160 Speaker 1: I would massage her feet and I said, these are 330 00:17:46,160 --> 00:17:51,200 Speaker 1: my mom's feet, her toes, and that's when I knew, 331 00:17:52,440 --> 00:17:54,680 Speaker 1: and I remember, I felt something in my heart. I'll 332 00:17:54,680 --> 00:17:59,280 Speaker 1: never forget my safe place at my grandma's house because 333 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:02,719 Speaker 1: every corner my Grandma's house was full of just people 334 00:18:02,800 --> 00:18:07,600 Speaker 1: there trying to comfort us, and outside everywhere there was 335 00:18:07,640 --> 00:18:10,160 Speaker 1: just so many people, her fans, which I'm so grateful for. 336 00:18:10,240 --> 00:18:13,199 Speaker 1: But my only safe place was the restroom. And I 337 00:18:13,240 --> 00:18:16,280 Speaker 1: remember grabbing a picture that my grandma had in the 338 00:18:16,320 --> 00:18:19,240 Speaker 1: living room. I grabbed it and I knew I hadn't 339 00:18:19,240 --> 00:18:20,960 Speaker 1: told the kids yet. I hadn't told anybody that I 340 00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:24,560 Speaker 1: saw those pictures. I don't even know how I found 341 00:18:24,560 --> 00:18:27,600 Speaker 1: them or who sent them to me, some evil person. 342 00:18:27,760 --> 00:18:30,719 Speaker 1: I have no idea. But I went into the restroom 343 00:18:30,720 --> 00:18:35,199 Speaker 1: and I held the picture tight, and I swear to 344 00:18:35,240 --> 00:18:40,359 Speaker 1: you that I heard my mom's voice tell me you 345 00:18:40,560 --> 00:18:47,439 Speaker 1: have to be strong for these kids. And from that moment, 346 00:18:47,760 --> 00:18:50,119 Speaker 1: I was like okay, and I cried by myself and 347 00:18:50,160 --> 00:18:52,000 Speaker 1: I was like, okay, I'm going to be strong, and 348 00:18:52,080 --> 00:18:54,720 Speaker 1: I gotta tell them. I can't let them think anymore 349 00:18:54,920 --> 00:18:56,919 Speaker 1: that she's here, because she's not. And I knew it, 350 00:18:58,320 --> 00:19:00,800 Speaker 1: and I told them. I said, Johnny, sat down, Johnny, 351 00:19:00,840 --> 00:19:03,960 Speaker 1: and I said, Mommy's not coming back. So I just 352 00:19:04,040 --> 00:19:07,800 Speaker 1: knew I had to tell them. And that's when I 353 00:19:08,240 --> 00:19:12,200 Speaker 1: something came upon me. I said, I have to be resilient, 354 00:19:12,359 --> 00:19:15,439 Speaker 1: I have to be strong. That's when it all started 355 00:19:15,480 --> 00:19:17,960 Speaker 1: like making sense, like this is why everything happened because 356 00:19:17,960 --> 00:19:21,840 Speaker 1: my mom and I were so close. We were sisters, 357 00:19:22,040 --> 00:19:24,280 Speaker 1: we were husband and wife, we were so many things 358 00:19:24,320 --> 00:19:28,280 Speaker 1: that if this hadn't happened, this interruption in our relationship, 359 00:19:28,680 --> 00:19:31,680 Speaker 1: I wouldn't have been strong enough to sustain this pain. 360 00:19:33,560 --> 00:19:35,240 Speaker 1: And I knew it was going to be hard because 361 00:19:35,280 --> 00:19:36,920 Speaker 1: I would have to go out and defend and clean 362 00:19:37,000 --> 00:19:39,000 Speaker 1: up my name in some way. But the most important 363 00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:42,080 Speaker 1: thing for me at that time were my siblings, and 364 00:19:43,760 --> 00:19:46,040 Speaker 1: I think the best way and right now that we're 365 00:19:46,040 --> 00:19:48,560 Speaker 1: talking about her, because yes, the anniversary's coming up, is 366 00:19:48,600 --> 00:19:51,000 Speaker 1: the best way that I can honor hers to continue 367 00:19:51,040 --> 00:19:53,520 Speaker 1: being here from my siblings and doing my best to 368 00:19:53,520 --> 00:19:58,240 Speaker 1: be successful. For me, it's everything I do. Everything that 369 00:19:58,280 --> 00:20:01,480 Speaker 1: I do, I think about my siblings. I think about, yes, 370 00:20:01,520 --> 00:20:04,439 Speaker 1: they're okay, maybe financially they're okay right now, but what 371 00:20:04,480 --> 00:20:06,119 Speaker 1: if they're not one day. I want them to know 372 00:20:06,640 --> 00:20:09,240 Speaker 1: that their sister has their back, that they have a 373 00:20:09,280 --> 00:20:11,400 Speaker 1: home that they can come to, that the doors will 374 00:20:11,440 --> 00:20:15,520 Speaker 1: always be open. And it makes me just work harder, 375 00:20:16,160 --> 00:20:19,639 Speaker 1: you know, which is why it makes me so sad. 376 00:20:20,480 --> 00:20:21,840 Speaker 1: And this is the first time I talk about it, 377 00:20:21,840 --> 00:20:23,280 Speaker 1: you guys, I'm going to talk about it with you. 378 00:20:25,400 --> 00:20:28,840 Speaker 1: I haven't said in an interview, I haven't written it thoroughly. 379 00:20:28,960 --> 00:20:32,399 Speaker 1: In my book that's coming on in February, I mentioned it, 380 00:20:34,240 --> 00:20:36,600 Speaker 1: but I want to say it here with you, guys, 381 00:20:36,680 --> 00:20:40,560 Speaker 1: because another way of honoring my mother is by being honest, 382 00:20:41,680 --> 00:20:49,000 Speaker 1: because that's how she was. Notanos and a lingua. My 383 00:20:49,080 --> 00:20:55,000 Speaker 1: family and I are not okay my extended family. Should 384 00:20:55,000 --> 00:20:57,240 Speaker 1: I say my siblings and I think goodness were good. 385 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:02,760 Speaker 1: We have our disagreement, we have our discussions or arguments, 386 00:21:03,720 --> 00:21:07,320 Speaker 1: but we always come back to each other. But there 387 00:21:07,320 --> 00:21:11,080 Speaker 1: has always been issues in my family, unfortunately, because there 388 00:21:11,119 --> 00:21:17,359 Speaker 1: are so many of us in the industry. Fortunately and unfortunately, 389 00:21:17,440 --> 00:21:21,160 Speaker 1: I feel that we could have been a very successful 390 00:21:21,240 --> 00:21:26,399 Speaker 1: dynasty together. But I feel like jealousy and ego and 391 00:21:26,480 --> 00:21:32,920 Speaker 1: greed has ruined our family for years. And I'm now 392 00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:35,679 Speaker 1: ready to say that, Yeah, I'm not okay, and I 393 00:21:35,720 --> 00:21:37,080 Speaker 1: know some of my siblings and I don't want to 394 00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:40,840 Speaker 1: speak for them, are also not okay with most of 395 00:21:40,880 --> 00:21:45,000 Speaker 1: our family members. Today I'll speak about myself and what 396 00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:47,560 Speaker 1: I feel and how I feel and why it makes 397 00:21:47,560 --> 00:21:51,720 Speaker 1: me so sad because my mom was really the glue 398 00:21:52,160 --> 00:21:55,600 Speaker 1: to our family and although for many years. She was 399 00:21:55,640 --> 00:22:00,480 Speaker 1: also disappointed, and we have emails and conversations, and everyone 400 00:22:00,520 --> 00:22:03,880 Speaker 1: knows this. My mom was also very vocal about things 401 00:22:03,920 --> 00:22:08,200 Speaker 1: that she disagreed with with certain family members. So a 402 00:22:08,280 --> 00:22:12,560 Speaker 1: lot of people have wondered why I have unfollowed my grandmother. 403 00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:16,199 Speaker 1: I did. Maybe it's a little silly, maybe it's childish. 404 00:22:17,200 --> 00:22:21,240 Speaker 1: I didn't follow her on Instagram. I love my grandmother. 405 00:22:21,320 --> 00:22:23,600 Speaker 1: I still honor her. I still thank for her very 406 00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:28,199 Speaker 1: much for everything she did for me, for helping raise me. 407 00:22:28,520 --> 00:22:32,800 Speaker 1: I love her so much and I miss her. But 408 00:22:32,880 --> 00:22:37,000 Speaker 1: it goes back to me honoring my mother and her legacy. 409 00:22:37,080 --> 00:22:41,160 Speaker 1: And my siblings are the most important thing in my life, 410 00:22:42,040 --> 00:22:48,320 Speaker 1: and when you hurt them, you hurt me. And unfortunately, 411 00:22:48,359 --> 00:22:51,679 Speaker 1: my grandma has said a few things publicly that I 412 00:22:51,680 --> 00:22:58,280 Speaker 1: don't agree with that I'm very hurt by about my siblings, 413 00:22:58,680 --> 00:23:02,080 Speaker 1: Johnny and Jenica, mainly some things about me that I 414 00:23:02,119 --> 00:23:07,480 Speaker 1: just feel are unfair to say without first telling us, 415 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:10,800 Speaker 1: so I don't agree with it being said publicly. So 416 00:23:10,880 --> 00:23:13,520 Speaker 1: now I'm publicly stating that, yes, I have unfollowed her, 417 00:23:13,600 --> 00:23:15,959 Speaker 1: and I'm okay with my decision, and I love her, 418 00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:17,399 Speaker 1: and I still check up on her, but there are 419 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:19,280 Speaker 1: certain things on social media that I just don't want 420 00:23:19,280 --> 00:23:20,680 Speaker 1: to see and I don't want them to hurt me. 421 00:23:21,280 --> 00:23:24,080 Speaker 1: I could have muted her, yes, but I decided to 422 00:23:24,200 --> 00:23:30,000 Speaker 1: unfollow her because I'm also tired of pretending. I'm ready 423 00:23:30,000 --> 00:23:32,399 Speaker 1: for the world to know that we're not okay. I 424 00:23:32,440 --> 00:23:34,639 Speaker 1: also don't follow my uncle Juan, and I don't follow 425 00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:37,680 Speaker 1: my aunt Rosie, and I'm sure to them it doesn't matter, 426 00:23:37,720 --> 00:23:39,679 Speaker 1: but to me, it's just I'm ready to show the 427 00:23:39,720 --> 00:23:44,119 Speaker 1: world that there are bigger issues. You know, we have 428 00:23:44,240 --> 00:23:47,719 Speaker 1: always had some type of issue or tension in our 429 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:51,440 Speaker 1: family for years, because again, we're all in the same industry. 430 00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:56,480 Speaker 1: What really I think broke the camel's back Comodisen is 431 00:23:56,520 --> 00:23:59,439 Speaker 1: when my brother Johnny, he had been asking me to 432 00:23:59,440 --> 00:24:01,159 Speaker 1: do this since he was sixteen years old, when he 433 00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:05,760 Speaker 1: was still under my custody. Johnny asked me to look 434 00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:07,560 Speaker 1: into the finances. He said, you know what, I'm just 435 00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:09,919 Speaker 1: a little worried. There's some certain things that worry me, 436 00:24:09,960 --> 00:24:12,440 Speaker 1: and I just think that we should know I never 437 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:14,840 Speaker 1: did it, because I'm like, oh my god, I just 438 00:24:15,080 --> 00:24:16,960 Speaker 1: I already know they're going to think that it's me. 439 00:24:17,640 --> 00:24:19,520 Speaker 1: And of course I had my doubts. Don't get me wrong, 440 00:24:19,560 --> 00:24:21,480 Speaker 1: I had my doubts about it, but I just didn't 441 00:24:21,480 --> 00:24:24,200 Speaker 1: want to open up a kind of worms. I had 442 00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:25,840 Speaker 1: a feeling it was going to start an issue. So 443 00:24:25,880 --> 00:24:28,399 Speaker 1: when Johnny turned twenty, he said, you need to help me. Actually, 444 00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:30,959 Speaker 1: this January of twenty twenty one, he said, I need 445 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,720 Speaker 1: you to help me get an attorney. I really want 446 00:24:33,760 --> 00:24:36,159 Speaker 1: to do this. And I said, okay, fine, I told him. 447 00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:41,080 Speaker 1: He asked me in November of twenty twenty and I said, wait, 448 00:24:41,920 --> 00:24:43,600 Speaker 1: give me a few months, let me pray about it. 449 00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:46,280 Speaker 1: And when he came back in January of twenty twenty one, 450 00:24:46,320 --> 00:24:49,120 Speaker 1: he said, okay, I want to do it and I'm sure, 451 00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:51,320 Speaker 1: and I said, okay, I have your back. So I 452 00:24:51,359 --> 00:24:54,439 Speaker 1: hooked him up with an attorney. He spoke to them. 453 00:24:54,480 --> 00:24:57,600 Speaker 1: He's been dealing with it himself. I can't even talk 454 00:24:57,640 --> 00:25:00,240 Speaker 1: to the attorney without his permission. So it's all been 455 00:25:00,320 --> 00:25:03,879 Speaker 1: him wanting to just know what's up with the estate, 456 00:25:04,119 --> 00:25:07,800 Speaker 1: with the finances, with our trust, with the businesses, and 457 00:25:08,040 --> 00:25:12,919 Speaker 1: it has caused chaos. It's caused so much, even more 458 00:25:13,080 --> 00:25:16,919 Speaker 1: tension in our family. And I still don't know why. 459 00:25:17,040 --> 00:25:21,240 Speaker 1: But that's the truth of the matter, and I want 460 00:25:21,240 --> 00:25:23,800 Speaker 1: to clear that up because it's not an audit. An 461 00:25:23,840 --> 00:25:29,520 Speaker 1: audit comes from it comes legally. We didn't audit anybody. 462 00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:33,320 Speaker 1: We just asked for an accounting. Johnny asked for an accounting, 463 00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:37,400 Speaker 1: as as a beneficiary, he has the right to ask 464 00:25:37,400 --> 00:25:40,880 Speaker 1: for an accounting and my aunt was supposed to give 465 00:25:40,880 --> 00:25:44,560 Speaker 1: that to him annually and hasn't for the past nine years. 466 00:25:44,600 --> 00:25:48,120 Speaker 1: So he asked for that, and it became this big ruckus. 467 00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:52,320 Speaker 1: And I don't understand why this accounting was asked for 468 00:25:52,560 --> 00:26:00,080 Speaker 1: in what month, Johnny. This accounting was asked for in 469 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:04,440 Speaker 1: April of this year, twenty twenty one, and everything has 470 00:26:04,480 --> 00:26:09,320 Speaker 1: gone to shit since then, worse than it has been. 471 00:26:09,800 --> 00:26:12,880 Speaker 1: I feel that we have the right to know how 472 00:26:12,920 --> 00:26:15,920 Speaker 1: much money was in the account when my mom left, 473 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:19,400 Speaker 1: how much money has been made, how much money they 474 00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:22,880 Speaker 1: have made for the enterprises, for my Jenny River enterprises. 475 00:26:22,960 --> 00:26:24,280 Speaker 1: We have a right, We have a right to ask 476 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:27,200 Speaker 1: how much people are getting paid. And I include myself 477 00:26:27,200 --> 00:26:29,360 Speaker 1: in this because yes, I was disinherited, but I'm still 478 00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,040 Speaker 1: a daughter, I'm still the oldest, I'm still the one 479 00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:34,680 Speaker 1: that helped my mom build this empire, and I still 480 00:26:34,720 --> 00:26:36,680 Speaker 1: have the right as a sister to ask what's going 481 00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:42,159 Speaker 1: on with my siblings with their finances. So let me 482 00:26:42,160 --> 00:26:44,800 Speaker 1: tell you the businesses. My mom's businesses are completely separate 483 00:26:45,160 --> 00:26:48,359 Speaker 1: from the trust. That's where what my mom left for 484 00:26:48,440 --> 00:26:57,800 Speaker 1: my siblings. The accounting was delivered months later, literally Johnny's 485 00:26:57,880 --> 00:26:59,960 Speaker 1: right here. So one hundred and ninety two days later 486 00:27:01,480 --> 00:27:03,840 Speaker 1: they asked for extensions. For a while, we hadn't heard 487 00:27:03,840 --> 00:27:06,199 Speaker 1: from them. I was like, wait, if we have everything 488 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:08,600 Speaker 1: in order, we have a good CPA for the company, 489 00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:12,159 Speaker 1: we have a good financial advisor, why aren't we getting 490 00:27:12,200 --> 00:27:16,119 Speaker 1: these things in a timely matter. I just don't understand, 491 00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:17,960 Speaker 1: And there's so many things that I can say, but 492 00:27:18,040 --> 00:27:20,800 Speaker 1: I just I want to be respectful to my siblings 493 00:27:22,560 --> 00:27:27,080 Speaker 1: and to still my family, because even though I love 494 00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:29,480 Speaker 1: them and I love them from Afar, I wish them well. 495 00:27:29,800 --> 00:27:34,000 Speaker 1: I'm better off without them, and I'm sure they are 496 00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:36,640 Speaker 1: as well without us or without me. Should I say? 497 00:27:37,680 --> 00:27:42,879 Speaker 1: And my heart is sad, my heart is hurt. But 498 00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,919 Speaker 1: sometimes it's better to love people from Afar and not 499 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:51,040 Speaker 1: be angry at them. Because I'm not angry, I'm disappointed. 500 00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:55,080 Speaker 1: I'm disappointed because this didn't have to turn out this way, 501 00:27:56,400 --> 00:28:00,440 Speaker 1: and I just felt that today talking about my mom, 502 00:28:00,760 --> 00:28:06,359 Speaker 1: the best way I can honor her is by being honest. Again. 503 00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:10,240 Speaker 1: I thought about this over and over about talking about this, 504 00:28:10,320 --> 00:28:12,119 Speaker 1: but you know what, because I thought about my cousins, 505 00:28:12,119 --> 00:28:16,359 Speaker 1: their children. I don't want to affect anybody in any way. Ever. 506 00:28:16,760 --> 00:28:20,040 Speaker 1: God knows my intentions. God knows that I wish with 507 00:28:20,080 --> 00:28:22,160 Speaker 1: all my heart that we were okay with my family 508 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:26,679 Speaker 1: and that we could all just be united and be 509 00:28:26,760 --> 00:28:29,920 Speaker 1: a strong force together. But that is not our case, 510 00:28:30,359 --> 00:28:35,760 Speaker 1: that is not our truth. Sadly, and you know what, 511 00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:41,600 Speaker 1: everyone kind of has to just own up to certain things. 512 00:28:41,640 --> 00:28:45,520 Speaker 1: And it's sad because ever since my mom left the 513 00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:51,120 Speaker 1: way Johnny says it, we've been living in hell. I 514 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 1: see it a little different. It has been very difficult. 515 00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:55,080 Speaker 1: I have tried my very best to be okay with 516 00:28:55,120 --> 00:29:00,440 Speaker 1: my family, to gain their approval, to show them, hey, 517 00:29:00,640 --> 00:29:02,920 Speaker 1: I'm working, I'm doing the thing, like are you proud? 518 00:29:03,760 --> 00:29:06,600 Speaker 1: You know, it's been very difficult to get that. And 519 00:29:07,000 --> 00:29:10,200 Speaker 1: it's just sad when you lose such a strong pillar 520 00:29:10,840 --> 00:29:16,320 Speaker 1: in your family, how things just start crumbling down. And 521 00:29:16,360 --> 00:29:20,040 Speaker 1: now that I look back to these nine years, it's 522 00:29:20,120 --> 00:29:24,840 Speaker 1: just we were in so much pain. We just trusted blindly. 523 00:29:25,880 --> 00:29:30,320 Speaker 1: We were too hurt and dealing with our pain and 524 00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:33,520 Speaker 1: with life and how to live life without my mom, 525 00:29:34,440 --> 00:29:39,440 Speaker 1: without parents. In reality that we didn't really care much 526 00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:41,760 Speaker 1: or not care, but we just didn't have the energy 527 00:29:41,840 --> 00:29:44,520 Speaker 1: or the mental space to deal with all these things. 528 00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:46,480 Speaker 1: And I feel like we finally woke up and we're like, oh, 529 00:29:46,480 --> 00:29:51,440 Speaker 1: wait a second, what's going on? I feel like naa teme, 530 00:29:51,960 --> 00:29:55,640 Speaker 1: So what's the problem. You know? I wish with all 531 00:29:55,680 --> 00:29:59,200 Speaker 1: my heart that we could spend this anniversary together as 532 00:29:59,200 --> 00:30:02,600 Speaker 1: a family Grandma's house, with my uncles, with my aunt, 533 00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:06,520 Speaker 1: with my cousins. It makes me sad, but I've accepted 534 00:30:06,920 --> 00:30:11,320 Speaker 1: that this is my reality, my new reality, and I've 535 00:30:11,360 --> 00:30:17,320 Speaker 1: come to peace with it and moving forward. It's just 536 00:30:17,640 --> 00:30:20,480 Speaker 1: really coming together as siblings is what we want to 537 00:30:20,520 --> 00:30:27,040 Speaker 1: do once my sister Jackie becomes CEO, to just continue 538 00:30:27,040 --> 00:30:32,440 Speaker 1: my mother's legacy, us having the control and as a 539 00:30:32,480 --> 00:30:38,240 Speaker 1: team making decisions from my mom's brand, from my mother's music. 540 00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:42,800 Speaker 1: We want a movie. We have so many ideas that 541 00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:45,880 Speaker 1: I think that the best now that we're a little 542 00:30:45,880 --> 00:30:50,440 Speaker 1: more healed, we're a little more mature. I think we 543 00:30:50,560 --> 00:30:52,880 Speaker 1: all can just come together and make it happen, and 544 00:30:52,920 --> 00:30:55,479 Speaker 1: that's what I'm hopeful for. And I'm hopeful that this 545 00:30:55,520 --> 00:30:58,800 Speaker 1: doesn't get any nastier and that we could just come 546 00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:05,600 Speaker 1: together and come to an agreement, maybe agree to disagree, 547 00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:07,560 Speaker 1: for the sake of my mother and her legacy and 548 00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:10,200 Speaker 1: all that she worked hard for, because she did for 549 00:31:10,320 --> 00:31:16,640 Speaker 1: her children mainly and mostly, and everyone that knows her, 550 00:31:16,760 --> 00:31:19,240 Speaker 1: especially her family, knows that. So that's why I'm so 551 00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:29,720 Speaker 1: confused today. I want to honor my mother and ask 552 00:31:29,840 --> 00:31:31,920 Speaker 1: you all, if you haven't heard her music, if you 553 00:31:31,960 --> 00:31:34,560 Speaker 1: have heard it, to just please listen to it every 554 00:31:34,600 --> 00:31:39,720 Speaker 1: single day. Go to any app that you guys use 555 00:31:40,400 --> 00:31:43,320 Speaker 1: to listen to music. That's the way we can keep 556 00:31:43,360 --> 00:31:48,160 Speaker 1: her alive is by listening to her music and just 557 00:31:48,240 --> 00:31:50,560 Speaker 1: honor her in that way. For me, it's the favor 558 00:31:50,640 --> 00:31:53,520 Speaker 1: that I ask you guys. And I'm really looking forward 559 00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:57,520 Speaker 1: to the future and doing this kind of being under 560 00:31:57,640 --> 00:32:01,080 Speaker 1: the umbrella again of just helping, you know, because I 561 00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:04,160 Speaker 1: can't be added to the will or anything, and nor 562 00:32:04,200 --> 00:32:06,360 Speaker 1: do I want to. I want my siblings to be Okay, 563 00:32:06,400 --> 00:32:10,920 Speaker 1: I'm working hard and I'm doing my thing, so I 564 00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:12,360 Speaker 1: just want to be able to be a part of 565 00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:16,640 Speaker 1: it again and really have a real say, you know, 566 00:32:16,920 --> 00:32:19,280 Speaker 1: in my mom's stuff. And I know my siblings feel 567 00:32:19,320 --> 00:32:22,960 Speaker 1: the same way. We want a movie. Imagine a movie 568 00:32:22,960 --> 00:32:25,800 Speaker 1: of Jenny Rivera's life in English with a little bit 569 00:32:25,800 --> 00:32:29,200 Speaker 1: of Spanish or vice versa. I don't know. I just 570 00:32:29,200 --> 00:32:31,120 Speaker 1: wanted to be like the real Jenny, you know what 571 00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:34,600 Speaker 1: I mean, what she was all about. A movie just 572 00:32:34,640 --> 00:32:38,520 Speaker 1: telling the story of a woman that worked her ass 573 00:32:38,520 --> 00:32:43,280 Speaker 1: off to leave the imprint that she has left forever, 574 00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:46,880 Speaker 1: and what she did for her kids as a single mother, 575 00:32:47,920 --> 00:32:50,400 Speaker 1: everything that she went through, things that you guys may 576 00:32:50,400 --> 00:32:52,920 Speaker 1: not even know, things that we've never talked about, that 577 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:57,400 Speaker 1: we're ready to talk about now. We want movies, we 578 00:32:57,480 --> 00:32:59,800 Speaker 1: want just we have huge plans. So I think it's 579 00:33:00,160 --> 00:33:03,360 Speaker 1: beautiful to be together at a table with my siblings 580 00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:05,520 Speaker 1: and discussing everything that we want to do for my 581 00:33:05,600 --> 00:33:09,200 Speaker 1: mom and how we want her music to sound. I 582 00:33:09,200 --> 00:33:12,520 Speaker 1: think we're ready. We're ready, and I'm excited for my 583 00:33:12,600 --> 00:33:16,160 Speaker 1: sister Jackie, who is stepping up like no other. I 584 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:18,360 Speaker 1: admire her so much. I don't know how she juggles 585 00:33:18,360 --> 00:33:21,600 Speaker 1: being a mother of four, a wife, a business owner 586 00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:25,080 Speaker 1: and now dealing with all of this with Jenny Rivera Enterprises, 587 00:33:25,160 --> 00:33:28,360 Speaker 1: and I'm excited to see her in this new position. 588 00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:33,160 Speaker 1: And she does everything with such grace and so peacefully, 589 00:33:33,240 --> 00:33:37,360 Speaker 1: and she has the best intentions and the best interests 590 00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:41,360 Speaker 1: at heart for everyone. So I think she's gonna be 591 00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:44,000 Speaker 1: an amazing CEO, and I can't wait to see that. 592 00:33:45,240 --> 00:33:48,800 Speaker 1: It's nice to know that Mom and I started all 593 00:33:48,840 --> 00:33:51,800 Speaker 1: of this, because it was really Mom and I. We 594 00:33:53,520 --> 00:33:56,560 Speaker 1: started from the ground up. I was at home with 595 00:33:56,600 --> 00:34:00,560 Speaker 1: the kids, cleaning, cooking, making sure everything was good, the bills, 596 00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:02,560 Speaker 1: and then later on I helped her with the businesses 597 00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:04,920 Speaker 1: and helped her build her empire, and every idea that 598 00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:08,160 Speaker 1: she had, I did my best to execute it. And 599 00:34:08,239 --> 00:34:10,360 Speaker 1: to know that it's become this and to know that 600 00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:16,640 Speaker 1: now my sister's going to take over is awesome. And 601 00:34:16,719 --> 00:34:19,040 Speaker 1: I also want to take this time in the space 602 00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:25,319 Speaker 1: to thank my uncle and my aunt for everything they did. 603 00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:30,279 Speaker 1: I know that they tried their best, and I know 604 00:34:30,400 --> 00:34:33,640 Speaker 1: that this was thrown on my aunt from one day 605 00:34:33,680 --> 00:34:36,680 Speaker 1: to another, and she really didn't know and never wanted 606 00:34:36,719 --> 00:34:41,000 Speaker 1: anything to do with the music industry. So I've always 607 00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:46,480 Speaker 1: been very compassionate about that and understanding and for so long. 608 00:34:46,560 --> 00:34:48,719 Speaker 1: She expressed that she wasn't happy in her position and 609 00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:52,160 Speaker 1: that it has ruined her her relationship with her kids, 610 00:34:52,200 --> 00:34:54,759 Speaker 1: with her with her husband. My uncle Juan felt the 611 00:34:54,760 --> 00:34:57,400 Speaker 1: same way. And again, my uncle Juan wasn't left in charge. 612 00:34:57,400 --> 00:35:00,920 Speaker 1: He just took that responsibility. I wanted to help and 613 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:03,920 Speaker 1: I am grateful for that. Believe me, I appreciate everything 614 00:35:03,920 --> 00:35:08,480 Speaker 1: that they did, but there are certain things that I 615 00:35:08,560 --> 00:35:12,760 Speaker 1: just feel I don't agree with, but I am grateful 616 00:35:12,920 --> 00:35:14,759 Speaker 1: and I do want them to be happy, and I 617 00:35:14,760 --> 00:35:17,120 Speaker 1: want them to be okay with their family and live 618 00:35:17,200 --> 00:35:23,040 Speaker 1: their best life. And I'm sorry if you know all 619 00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:29,920 Speaker 1: of this has caused pain, you know, the way that 620 00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:34,000 Speaker 1: we think about their feelings and their life. I would 621 00:35:34,160 --> 00:35:35,719 Speaker 1: love for them to take a moment and do the 622 00:35:35,719 --> 00:35:38,799 Speaker 1: same for us, you know, And I know they have. 623 00:35:38,920 --> 00:35:42,120 Speaker 1: I just don't know what happened throughout these nine years 624 00:35:42,120 --> 00:35:43,960 Speaker 1: that things have just gotten worse and worse, and it's 625 00:35:44,040 --> 00:35:49,880 Speaker 1: just what happened, you know, we just ask questions. I 626 00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:54,440 Speaker 1: want you guys to remember her for yes, her music, 627 00:35:54,760 --> 00:36:02,520 Speaker 1: because she definitely broke barriers. She has paved the path 628 00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:07,600 Speaker 1: for all women. I think in general, especially in you know, 629 00:36:07,680 --> 00:36:11,920 Speaker 1: the regional Mexican genre, but also for the woman, for 630 00:36:12,200 --> 00:36:21,000 Speaker 1: that Lucena, courageous, fearless woman that she was. She always said, 631 00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:22,840 Speaker 1: if they close the door in my face, it's okay. 632 00:36:23,280 --> 00:36:25,279 Speaker 1: I'm gonna find a window and I'm gonna crawl through 633 00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:27,520 Speaker 1: it and I'm gonna make sure I get what I want. 634 00:36:28,400 --> 00:36:33,560 Speaker 1: So she was just tenacious and so strong and strong willed. 635 00:36:34,280 --> 00:36:36,560 Speaker 1: I want you guys to remember her for that, for 636 00:36:36,840 --> 00:36:41,520 Speaker 1: the single mother of five that didn't let anyone get 637 00:36:41,520 --> 00:36:46,520 Speaker 1: in her way of feeding those children. For me, even 638 00:36:46,560 --> 00:36:49,640 Speaker 1: if I wasn't her daughter, I would still be a 639 00:36:49,680 --> 00:36:51,560 Speaker 1: fan of her music. I would still be a fan 640 00:36:51,640 --> 00:36:58,400 Speaker 1: of the woman because she's definitely a woman that represents 641 00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:04,120 Speaker 1: us so well, especially Latina. Is that when there is 642 00:37:04,160 --> 00:37:07,600 Speaker 1: a will, there is a way, easy sip boy, then 643 00:37:07,600 --> 00:37:11,839 Speaker 1: she's definitely that woman. And it really was who she was, 644 00:37:12,560 --> 00:37:15,319 Speaker 1: really like the person that you saw on stage, the 645 00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:18,160 Speaker 1: person that you saw in interviews, That was my mother 646 00:37:18,760 --> 00:37:23,920 Speaker 1: off stage in her core, she was a very passionate 647 00:37:23,960 --> 00:37:29,320 Speaker 1: woman and anything and everything that she did passionate. Loving. 648 00:37:31,880 --> 00:37:37,120 Speaker 1: She was moody, you know, but when she was wrong, 649 00:37:37,600 --> 00:37:40,160 Speaker 1: she would eventually come around and say I apologize, I'm 650 00:37:40,160 --> 00:37:42,399 Speaker 1: sorry I was wrong. It would take her a little 651 00:37:42,400 --> 00:37:44,239 Speaker 1: bit of time, but she would she would always come 652 00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:48,040 Speaker 1: around and apologize. She was a woman that did her 653 00:37:48,080 --> 00:37:51,439 Speaker 1: best to read the Bible every single day, at least 654 00:37:51,440 --> 00:37:55,720 Speaker 1: averse to make sure she was honoring God and putting 655 00:37:55,800 --> 00:38:00,319 Speaker 1: him first, something that to me is super important now 656 00:38:00,360 --> 00:38:04,080 Speaker 1: because I saw it so much growing up. That woman 657 00:38:04,360 --> 00:38:08,919 Speaker 1: that you guys know is really it wasn't It wasn't 658 00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:12,279 Speaker 1: a facade. It was really her and the good and 659 00:38:12,320 --> 00:38:14,759 Speaker 1: the bad. Like she would say, you know, flaws and 660 00:38:14,840 --> 00:38:20,359 Speaker 1: all gon mis birtus id fectos. She really did own 661 00:38:20,400 --> 00:38:25,560 Speaker 1: it in every aspect. And I am so proud and 662 00:38:25,680 --> 00:38:28,680 Speaker 1: honored and it's such a privilege and a blessing to 663 00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:34,120 Speaker 1: be her daughter, to be her first born. It's like, wow, 664 00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:39,000 Speaker 1: that's my mama. You know, she's a badass in every 665 00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:43,680 Speaker 1: sense of the word. And it's crazy because I know this, 666 00:38:44,239 --> 00:38:48,600 Speaker 1: but I think I'm so engulfed in doing what I 667 00:38:48,640 --> 00:38:50,960 Speaker 1: got to do and being the best example that I 668 00:38:50,960 --> 00:38:56,120 Speaker 1: can to my siblings of doing working and that sometimes 669 00:38:56,160 --> 00:38:58,280 Speaker 1: not that I forget, it's just now that I'm talking 670 00:38:58,320 --> 00:39:02,960 Speaker 1: about her, I'm just like, damn that's my mom. It's 671 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:06,120 Speaker 1: so tight, you know, and I'm so grateful and I 672 00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:09,200 Speaker 1: thank God, and I hope that one day, when I 673 00:39:09,239 --> 00:39:15,880 Speaker 1: have a daughter, she could be half the woman my 674 00:39:15,960 --> 00:39:20,080 Speaker 1: mother was. I'm gonna name her Jenny. It might be 675 00:39:20,120 --> 00:39:26,439 Speaker 1: her middle name, but it has to be Jenny. And 676 00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:29,719 Speaker 1: just the way I asked you guys to listen to 677 00:39:29,760 --> 00:39:33,360 Speaker 1: her music, to my mother's music and honor her and 678 00:39:33,800 --> 00:39:36,480 Speaker 1: you know, keep her alive, keep her legacy alive. I 679 00:39:36,520 --> 00:39:39,439 Speaker 1: also do the same. I listen to her music a lot, 680 00:39:39,520 --> 00:39:42,839 Speaker 1: especially when I need that motivation or I'm gonna go 681 00:39:42,880 --> 00:39:45,960 Speaker 1: I'm gonna walk into a meeting, or when I was 682 00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:53,400 Speaker 1: going through a heartbreak, I would listen to sing like 683 00:39:53,440 --> 00:39:56,080 Speaker 1: all those songs. Usually, what we like to do on 684 00:39:56,160 --> 00:40:01,000 Speaker 1: December ninth is eat her favorite foods. She liked the cookies, 685 00:40:01,080 --> 00:40:05,040 Speaker 1: Nutter butters, she loved Diet coke, she loved pork rinds, 686 00:40:05,680 --> 00:40:09,600 Speaker 1: and just sit there and watch her favorite movies, one 687 00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:12,040 Speaker 1: of them being Life. The movie Life. If you guys 688 00:40:12,040 --> 00:40:15,839 Speaker 1: haven't watched it, I highly recommended. It's super funny. So 689 00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:18,400 Speaker 1: that's what we're going to do. Hopefully we can be together. 690 00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:20,239 Speaker 1: It's gotten to a point where now. I respect my 691 00:40:20,239 --> 00:40:22,160 Speaker 1: siblings are a lot older, so if they feel like 692 00:40:22,200 --> 00:40:25,520 Speaker 1: they need to be alone, especially Mikey, he's the one 693 00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:27,319 Speaker 1: that's always like, you know what, I want to take 694 00:40:27,320 --> 00:40:30,359 Speaker 1: my time. I want to do this by myself. I 695 00:40:30,400 --> 00:40:32,719 Speaker 1: respect that I would love for all of us to 696 00:40:32,719 --> 00:40:35,560 Speaker 1: be together in my new home hopefully, but if not, 697 00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:37,719 Speaker 1: then I'm going to do my best to do what 698 00:40:37,800 --> 00:40:40,320 Speaker 1: I do and listen to her music loud and proud, 699 00:40:41,200 --> 00:40:50,880 Speaker 1: and and just remember her because I do miss her 700 00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:53,359 Speaker 1: very much. It doesn't matter how old I get, I 701 00:40:53,400 --> 00:40:56,480 Speaker 1: still need my mom's hugs. I still need her kisses. 702 00:40:57,560 --> 00:41:00,279 Speaker 1: I still she had the best hugs ever, Like she 703 00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:04,160 Speaker 1: was the best hugger. She always smelled so good. She 704 00:41:04,239 --> 00:41:11,200 Speaker 1: had this certain scent that I'm never gonna forget. And 705 00:41:11,320 --> 00:41:14,640 Speaker 1: her advice. I need her, you know, I still need 706 00:41:14,680 --> 00:41:18,799 Speaker 1: her to me. It's yeah, it's been nine years, it's 707 00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:21,320 Speaker 1: gonna be ten, but it still feels like it was yesterday. 708 00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:23,360 Speaker 1: And if I can give you guys a piece of 709 00:41:23,400 --> 00:41:30,280 Speaker 1: advice before we go and we close up, is honor 710 00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:34,920 Speaker 1: your parents. Don't wait for a special holiday for their birthday, 711 00:41:35,040 --> 00:41:38,080 Speaker 1: for Christmas, for Mother's Day, for Father's Day, to say hi, 712 00:41:38,120 --> 00:41:41,759 Speaker 1: I love you, to send them flowers randomly. You just 713 00:41:41,840 --> 00:41:45,360 Speaker 1: never know what will happen. You never know when you 714 00:41:45,400 --> 00:41:49,120 Speaker 1: won't see them again. So that's my advice to you, guys, 715 00:41:52,040 --> 00:41:55,440 Speaker 1: to appreciate and value your loved ones, to take the 716 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:58,160 Speaker 1: time to spend time with them, to call them now 717 00:41:58,200 --> 00:42:01,879 Speaker 1: and then. I still do with my grandma, even though 718 00:42:01,880 --> 00:42:05,200 Speaker 1: I'm hurt. If she's sick, I call her, I send 719 00:42:05,200 --> 00:42:07,879 Speaker 1: her text messages. I want to make sure she knows 720 00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:10,600 Speaker 1: that I'm there because I'm still grateful for everything she 721 00:42:10,640 --> 00:42:15,400 Speaker 1: did for me. Things have just changed. But that's my 722 00:42:15,440 --> 00:42:19,279 Speaker 1: advice to you guys. Take care of those that you 723 00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:28,160 Speaker 1: love and keep their legacy alive once they're gone. So, guys, 724 00:42:28,160 --> 00:42:32,759 Speaker 1: sorry for yo Ra. It's a very touchy subject. It's 725 00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:35,080 Speaker 1: something that I thought I was not going to talk 726 00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:38,000 Speaker 1: about everything that we talked about here, but this is 727 00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:41,160 Speaker 1: a safe place and a way for me to express 728 00:42:41,160 --> 00:42:43,360 Speaker 1: myself and share with you guys on a deeper level, 729 00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:48,400 Speaker 1: like my thoughts, my heart, my mind, my soul, everything 730 00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:50,759 Speaker 1: that I go through. I hope you guys enjoyed this 731 00:42:50,840 --> 00:42:56,520 Speaker 1: episode and again December ninth, let's not be sad. Yes, 732 00:42:56,600 --> 00:43:00,160 Speaker 1: we miss her, but all the Jenny Rivera fans out there. 733 00:43:00,280 --> 00:43:09,080 Speaker 1: Let's celebrate her life and what she taught us. Thank 734 00:43:09,120 --> 00:43:12,440 Speaker 1: you guys so much. I will talk to you next 735 00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:24,560 Speaker 1: week and have a beautiful, wonderful, productive week. Listen. This 736 00:43:24,640 --> 00:43:28,480 Speaker 1: is a production of iHeartRadio and Mike Wultura podcast Network. 737 00:43:29,040 --> 00:43:33,480 Speaker 1: Follow us on Instagram at Mike Gultura Podcasts and follow 738 00:43:33,480 --> 00:43:37,040 Speaker 1: me Cheeky's That's c h i q u y s. 739 00:43:37,719 --> 00:43:43,280 Speaker 1: For more podcasts from iHeart, visit the iHeartRadio app, Apple Podcasts, 740 00:43:43,480 --> 00:43:45,480 Speaker 1: or wherever you listen to your favorite shows.