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Speaker 1: Hello, it is me. It is Lyle. Welcome to the

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Speaker 1: Therapy Gecko podcast. I don't normally record intros for these

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Speaker 1: I don't know, I felt like doing it today. I

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Speaker 1: I don't know, I just wanted to say thank you,

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Speaker 1: thank you for listening to this show. It's this summer,

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Speaker 1: it'll be five years of being the Therapy Gecko, and

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Speaker 1: it's been a really wild ride. It's had a lot

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Speaker 1: it's just so cool that this is, that this has

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Speaker 1: And so I just I maybe wanted a public record

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Speaker 1: today I am ready to talk to people on the phone.

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Speaker 1: I am currently recording this in my mom's basement, where

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Speaker 1: the whole thing started five years ago. I am home

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Speaker 1: for the Jewish holiday of Passover, so I'm gonna be

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Speaker 1: twenty twenty again, except with all the bad twenty twenty stuff.

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Speaker 1: So let's do it. Therapy GEcho Podcast Today. Hello, Hey,

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Speaker 1: what's up man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: My name's Cody, Cody.

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Speaker 1: What's happening Cody? What's life looking like for you? Today?

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Speaker 2: Life's been going great, man. I graduated school, I'm going

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Speaker 2: to become an EMT next week. Getting engaged. I got engaged.

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Speaker 2: I'm getting married September. I what else is now? Got

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Speaker 2: a house, watching love on the spectrum. Everything's going great, man.

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Speaker 1: That's a wonderful goddamn. Yeah, you sound like life is

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Speaker 1: going good. I talk a lot about real jobs on

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Speaker 1: like such a necessary thing. Although are you Are you worried?

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Speaker 1: I don't know why. I don't know why. I'm going

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Speaker 2: I saw her shooting. I well, I didn't see him

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Speaker 2: About four months? Five months or so? Actually my anniversary

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Speaker 1: Oh there's no ship really yeah?

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Speaker 2: You had a great time? Yeah? Yeah. I tried to

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Speaker 2: Especially the second guy that popped up there.

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Speaker 1: Was this the guy who talked about like how slavery

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Speaker 2: Yeah, and then he got into a fight with somebody

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Speaker 1: Know, no yeah yeah yeah yeah, yeah no. You know,

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Speaker 1: look that's at the therapy Gecko. Live shows characters do

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Speaker 1: fucking that's fucking sweet man, that's fucking sweet. Well, that's awesome.

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Speaker 1: That's interesting. I always feel like I learn a lot

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Speaker 2: Uh? She just had a birthday yesterday. She's twenty three.

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Speaker 1: You know, I don't know if that makes sense.

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Speaker 3: I'm still I'm close.

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Speaker 2: I'm still close with my dad. But I I noticed

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Speaker 2: My name is?

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Speaker 1: My name is Cody, Cody, Cody, is is there anything

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Speaker 2: Not not too not too much? Man. H Yeah, you're invited.

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Speaker 1: Where's the wedding.

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Speaker 1: North Carolina? Oh Man? When is Yeah? Free pizza September September.

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Speaker 2: We'd love to have you there. Free pizza and beer

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Speaker 1: Okay, okay, all right? Where's it from? Where you get

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Speaker 1: I hope you're at peace. I hope you're at peace.

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Speaker 1: You deserve some fun. You deserve some motherfucking piece. You

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Speaker 2: I'll see you man do some more stand up. I

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Speaker 1: Okay, well wait you were oh wait just oh at

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Speaker 1: the show. Yeah, I'm planning to do. I've been going

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Speaker 2: Bye.

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Speaker 1: What a sweet fucking guy. This happens on the show

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Speaker 1: on in Charlotte, maybe I'll go. I need I need

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00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 1: a If anyone has a second thing, it's really compelling

439
00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:18,240
Speaker 1: for me to go to Charlotte in September, maybe I'll

440
00:28:18,280 --> 00:28:19,720
Speaker 1: do it. I want to go back there for a

441
00:28:19,760 --> 00:28:23,560
Speaker 1: live show. I love the comedy club there, the Charlotte

442
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:26,400
Speaker 1: Comedies on that place is awesome. I've had great, great

443
00:28:26,440 --> 00:28:32,720
Speaker 1: fun shows there. But yeah, shout out Cody Mazeltov. Hello,

444
00:28:33,359 --> 00:28:33,720
Speaker 1: how are you?

445
00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:35,520
Speaker 2: Yeah? How are you? Can you hear me?

446
00:28:35,760 --> 00:28:37,440
Speaker 1: Yeah? I can hear you. What's up man? What's your name?

447
00:28:39,080 --> 00:28:39,280
Speaker 2: Uh?

448
00:28:40,120 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 6: My name's crazy.

449
00:28:41,720 --> 00:28:46,080
Speaker 1: Crazy. That's a good name. What's up, crazy? Why are

450
00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:46,680
Speaker 1: you crazy?

451
00:28:48,720 --> 00:28:52,560
Speaker 6: Oh? That that's a that's my artist name. Uh, it's

452
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 6: my rap name. And uh it's just uh it's because

453
00:28:56,080 --> 00:28:59,400
Speaker 6: I think that crazy it gets a bad rep.

454
00:29:00,680 --> 00:29:00,760
Speaker 4: Like.

455
00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:05,000
Speaker 6: Uh, so I'm trying to represent and uplift the name crazy.

456
00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:09,360
Speaker 1: Hmm. Do you do you feel as though you are crazy?

457
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:16,320
Speaker 6: Oh? I mean people have called me crazy before, but

458
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:19,960
Speaker 6: I think that crazy is such a like it's such

459
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:22,920
Speaker 6: like a broad term. So yeah, I would categoryize myself

460
00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:25,720
Speaker 6: as crazy, but I think that any like, I don't know.

461
00:29:25,760 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 6: I've never really met somebody who I don't think is

462
00:29:27,840 --> 00:29:30,120
Speaker 6: crazy unless they're like super boring.

463
00:29:30,760 --> 00:29:37,600
Speaker 1: Bro, you and I are are built of the same Uh,

464
00:29:37,800 --> 00:29:41,239
Speaker 1: we're cut from the same cloth. I was in a

465
00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:44,120
Speaker 1: car with my best friend the other day and he

466
00:29:44,280 --> 00:29:47,000
Speaker 1: was telling me about like, uh, he was like, you

467
00:29:47,080 --> 00:29:50,200
Speaker 1: think everyone is crazy. You've gone on so many rants

468
00:29:50,280 --> 00:29:54,040
Speaker 1: about how all things are crazy, all people are crazy.

469
00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:55,800
Speaker 1: You talk about how you don't shut the fuck up,

470
00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:59,600
Speaker 1: about how life is crazy, and it's it's true. I

471
00:29:59,600 --> 00:30:01,400
Speaker 1: am so with you. I feel like I've found a

472
00:30:01,480 --> 00:30:06,040
Speaker 1: kindred spirit in you crazy because I'm I'm with you.

473
00:30:06,160 --> 00:30:09,760
Speaker 1: I think, uh, life is I try not to think.

474
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,600
Speaker 1: I'm trying not think about it less because I don't

475
00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:14,640
Speaker 1: think it's fun to think about you know, as your

476
00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:18,720
Speaker 1: default way of thinking. But yeah, life is crazy. Everybody

477
00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:21,720
Speaker 1: is crazy, Consciousness is crazy, all people every Yeah, I'm

478
00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:24,680
Speaker 1: with you, I'm with you crazy, everything's crazy. Thank you, finally,

479
00:30:25,040 --> 00:30:28,040
Speaker 1: finally a god. I am so happy and excited to

480
00:30:28,040 --> 00:30:31,680
Speaker 1: talk to you crazy because for a while, for a

481
00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:35,760
Speaker 1: for a while crazy. I'm telling you, Yeah, I thought

482
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:38,280
Speaker 1: I was crazy for thinking that everything was crazy. And

483
00:30:38,320 --> 00:30:41,640
Speaker 1: here you are crazy and you're like, yeah, no, everything

484
00:30:41,720 --> 00:30:44,680
Speaker 1: is crazy. You're I feel very validated by you crazy.

485
00:30:44,720 --> 00:30:47,120
Speaker 1: So let's let's talk about things being crazy.

486
00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:49,720
Speaker 6: Hey, let's let's do it.

487
00:30:49,760 --> 00:30:49,920
Speaker 2: Well.

488
00:30:50,160 --> 00:30:52,600
Speaker 6: Yeah, no, I've been. I've been. I've been a fan

489
00:30:52,640 --> 00:30:56,680
Speaker 6: of your your stumper like a little bit. Now. I

490
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:59,720
Speaker 6: just I just started watching it randomly. But I think

491
00:30:59,720 --> 00:31:00,400
Speaker 6: it's cool.

492
00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:00,600
Speaker 2: Man.

493
00:31:00,840 --> 00:31:04,520
Speaker 6: See people calling, Yeah, I mean I'm down. I'm definitely

494
00:31:04,520 --> 00:31:05,360
Speaker 6: down to talk with you.

495
00:31:05,440 --> 00:31:05,600
Speaker 2: Man.

496
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:11,960
Speaker 6: Yeah, basically, I'm just I'm just calling because I've moved

497
00:31:12,000 --> 00:31:15,800
Speaker 6: to La like about a year ago to pursue music.

498
00:31:16,440 --> 00:31:19,600
Speaker 6: And I'm just kind of at like a like a

499
00:31:19,640 --> 00:31:21,760
Speaker 6: turning point in my life because I've just messed up

500
00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:27,080
Speaker 6: my leg, and uh so I can't work right now.

501
00:31:28,400 --> 00:31:31,160
Speaker 6: And well, I mean I'm trying to get jobs where

502
00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:33,560
Speaker 6: I can work with a mess up leg. But yeah, basically,

503
00:31:33,680 --> 00:31:36,480
Speaker 6: like I'm like debating whether or not I should just

504
00:31:36,560 --> 00:31:39,880
Speaker 6: like take out a bunch of student loans and live

505
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:43,480
Speaker 6: off those or or just like give up. I don't know,

506
00:31:43,720 --> 00:31:46,240
Speaker 6: but I don't know. Yeah, that's or just try and

507
00:31:46,280 --> 00:31:48,520
Speaker 6: make it happen some other way. I guess those are

508
00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 6: like my three options.

509
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:53,000
Speaker 1: Okay, sorry, I I I want let me let me

510
00:31:53,560 --> 00:31:56,960
Speaker 1: backtrack here. Your three options recount them again? Is to

511
00:31:57,160 --> 00:32:00,840
Speaker 1: take out student loans to go to a school, or

512
00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:02,600
Speaker 1: to just take out long.

513
00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:05,840
Speaker 6: Yeah yeah yeah, to to go to school, go to

514
00:32:05,880 --> 00:32:08,760
Speaker 6: school to do what? Audio production?

515
00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:10,000
Speaker 1: Okay?

516
00:32:10,320 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 2: Uh?

517
00:32:10,800 --> 00:32:11,720
Speaker 1: What are the other ones?

518
00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:16,400
Speaker 6: The other one is I give up and fly back home?

519
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:22,600
Speaker 1: Okay, live in Okay? Is living intent option three? Or

520
00:32:22,680 --> 00:32:25,640
Speaker 1: if you went back home, you'd live in a Yeah,

521
00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:28,480
Speaker 1: I live in Okay. Are Are you serious about living

522
00:32:28,480 --> 00:32:29,840
Speaker 1: in a tent or do you have like family you

523
00:32:29,880 --> 00:32:30,960
Speaker 1: could go back home with?

524
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:35,479
Speaker 6: Well, I'm serious about living a tent because like, if

525
00:32:35,520 --> 00:32:37,280
Speaker 6: I went back home, I'd be living in a tent

526
00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:38,720
Speaker 6: on my my dad's er.

527
00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:42,959
Speaker 1: Your dad would let you live. Your dad would let

528
00:32:43,000 --> 00:32:45,960
Speaker 1: you live in the in like the house part of

529
00:32:46,000 --> 00:32:46,520
Speaker 1: the property.

530
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:49,280
Speaker 6: He doesn't, he doesn't have a house. He just has lands.

531
00:32:50,360 --> 00:32:51,680
Speaker 1: Where does he live?

532
00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:54,960
Speaker 6: Uh, he lives with a roommate right now, But he's

533
00:32:54,960 --> 00:32:56,880
Speaker 6: trying to he's trying to make it happen in like

534
00:32:56,920 --> 00:32:58,760
Speaker 6: a van and build back a shack up there.

535
00:32:59,360 --> 00:33:02,160
Speaker 1: All right, cool? All right, so you would live in

536
00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:03,960
Speaker 1: a tent, and then what's option three?

537
00:33:06,080 --> 00:33:09,400
Speaker 6: Option three is just try and just try and hope

538
00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:13,480
Speaker 6: for the best with what I'm already doing, just trying

539
00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:17,040
Speaker 6: to like make money do jobs. And then like I

540
00:33:17,160 --> 00:33:19,840
Speaker 6: started a studio at my house is called a fuck

541
00:33:19,880 --> 00:33:24,040
Speaker 6: around and find out studio. And I'm only charging people

542
00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 6: twenty five an hour to record songs. And I've been

543
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:32,440
Speaker 6: doing this for like ten years recording, so I'm like

544
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:35,480
Speaker 6: confident in my skills as like a recording engineer, but

545
00:33:35,640 --> 00:33:37,480
Speaker 6: I still need to work on mixing and mastering. That's

546
00:33:37,480 --> 00:33:39,400
Speaker 6: why I want to go to school for audio profession.

547
00:33:39,800 --> 00:33:41,800
Speaker 1: Oh kah, So you've been doing this for ten years

548
00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:47,200
Speaker 1: in this, and where where is home for you? Like

549
00:33:47,280 --> 00:33:47,720
Speaker 1: what state?

550
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:49,320
Speaker 7: Oh?

551
00:33:49,640 --> 00:33:50,040
Speaker 2: Hawaii?

552
00:33:50,640 --> 00:33:55,000
Speaker 1: Hawaii? Oh cool? Okay, And so you have like the

553
00:33:55,080 --> 00:33:57,000
Speaker 1: past ten years, have you been in LA or have

554
00:33:57,040 --> 00:33:59,080
Speaker 1: you been in Hawaii? Because you still me just moved

555
00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:00,800
Speaker 1: right yeah?

556
00:34:00,840 --> 00:34:01,040
Speaker 3: Yeah?

557
00:34:01,080 --> 00:34:04,080
Speaker 6: So so I just got here to LA on April

558
00:34:04,160 --> 00:34:08,360
Speaker 6: fool Day last year, well technically April second, but my

559
00:34:09,000 --> 00:34:12,759
Speaker 6: I moved into my new spot. Yeah, it was like, yeah,

560
00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:17,280
Speaker 6: it's basically been April second because I missed the greyhound

561
00:34:17,640 --> 00:34:20,080
Speaker 6: I caught like a greyhound from Seattle because me and

562
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:22,440
Speaker 6: my friends moved from Seattle. I only lived in Seattle

563
00:34:22,480 --> 00:34:23,279
Speaker 6: for like four months ago.

564
00:34:26,000 --> 00:34:28,239
Speaker 1: So when you say you've been doing this for ten years,

565
00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:31,319
Speaker 1: like you've been doing it on your laptop for ten

566
00:34:31,400 --> 00:34:33,400
Speaker 1: years doing like Mexican Master and shit.

567
00:34:34,239 --> 00:34:39,359
Speaker 6: Yeah yeah yeah at least eight eight seriously, but around ten?

568
00:34:39,800 --> 00:34:40,799
Speaker 1: And why did you go to.

569
00:34:41,040 --> 00:34:46,200
Speaker 6: LA to make music? There's like a lot of opportunities

570
00:34:46,239 --> 00:34:49,480
Speaker 6: to make music here. There's a lot of creative people here.

571
00:34:51,320 --> 00:34:54,279
Speaker 6: It just feels like a place that I fit in

572
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:56,000
Speaker 6: more than in Hawaii.

573
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:58,920
Speaker 1: Okay, So you I mean you like being there?

574
00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:00,600
Speaker 3: Yeah?

575
00:35:03,719 --> 00:35:08,719
Speaker 1: Okay. So option one is to take a bunch of

576
00:35:08,760 --> 00:35:13,080
Speaker 1: student loans and go to music school in la Option

577
00:35:13,239 --> 00:35:15,080
Speaker 1: two is to go live in a tent in Hawaii.

578
00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:21,239
Speaker 1: Option three is to keep doing what you're doing right now,

579
00:35:21,880 --> 00:35:24,440
Speaker 1: which tell me again what that looks like.

580
00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:30,160
Speaker 6: What that looks like is hoping that my knee recovers quickly,

581
00:35:31,080 --> 00:35:35,040
Speaker 6: signing up for more jobs, and trying to freelance a

582
00:35:35,160 --> 00:35:36,399
Speaker 6: studio business.

583
00:35:37,080 --> 00:35:37,759
Speaker 2: Out of my house.

584
00:35:42,360 --> 00:35:47,680
Speaker 1: Can't you just okay? I have a few questions about

585
00:35:47,680 --> 00:35:50,759
Speaker 1: your options, right is like, okay, Well, number one with

586
00:35:50,920 --> 00:35:54,800
Speaker 1: the school thing is like, you know more about this

587
00:35:54,920 --> 00:36:00,200
Speaker 1: industry than than I do. But is there anything, uh

588
00:36:00,920 --> 00:36:04,960
Speaker 1: in the universe of music production that you can't just

589
00:36:05,080 --> 00:36:09,840
Speaker 1: fucking oh, there's a fire truck on Is there anything

590
00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:14,120
Speaker 1: in the world of music production that you can't just learn?

591
00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:19,680
Speaker 1: I feel like we're in a We're in a song

592
00:36:19,840 --> 00:36:23,720
Speaker 1: right now that has the police sirens in the background.

593
00:36:23,719 --> 00:36:24,279
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying?

594
00:36:24,280 --> 00:36:28,560
Speaker 6: Okay, sorry, No, you're good, you got that's just my house.

595
00:36:28,760 --> 00:36:33,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, I was okay, sorry, I was gonna say, why

596
00:36:33,480 --> 00:36:35,680
Speaker 1: can't okay, why can't you just learn this on the internet?

597
00:36:35,719 --> 00:36:37,279
Speaker 1: Why do you have to spend a billion dollars to.

598
00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:42,520
Speaker 6: School, because well, I can learn it on the internet.

599
00:36:42,600 --> 00:36:43,120
Speaker 2: To a degree.

600
00:36:43,520 --> 00:36:48,279
Speaker 6: It's just that I'm I'm limited by the type of

601
00:36:48,400 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 6: equipment that I can use. So you know, I have

602
00:36:51,680 --> 00:36:54,520
Speaker 6: like an okay setup, but if I went to school,

603
00:36:54,600 --> 00:36:58,160
Speaker 6: then I could learn how to use like a million

604
00:36:58,200 --> 00:37:01,040
Speaker 6: dollars uh like equipment.

605
00:37:02,840 --> 00:37:06,000
Speaker 1: Okay, what's your ultimate like goal? Is it to like,

606
00:37:06,480 --> 00:37:08,840
Speaker 1: do you want to do like your own artist project

607
00:37:09,120 --> 00:37:12,000
Speaker 1: or you want to be a producer for other people?

608
00:37:13,520 --> 00:37:15,080
Speaker 6: Well, I want to make music and I want to

609
00:37:15,280 --> 00:37:17,440
Speaker 6: be a recording engineer for other people.

610
00:37:18,320 --> 00:37:26,839
Speaker 1: Okay, do you think that how much would it cost

611
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:29,719
Speaker 1: for you to go to school? Oh?

612
00:37:29,880 --> 00:37:32,560
Speaker 6: Man, it's like eighty eight thousand, but I could probably

613
00:37:32,560 --> 00:37:34,000
Speaker 6: get some like student aids.

614
00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:40,800
Speaker 1: Here's the thing, I'm not a bit I've gone on

615
00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:42,759
Speaker 1: this rant on this show a billion times, but like

616
00:37:43,239 --> 00:37:46,400
Speaker 1: I'm not a huge fan of like going eighty eight

617
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:53,799
Speaker 1: thousand dollars into debt for you know, like something that's

618
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 1: not like a hot guarantee. You know, I'm not if

619
00:37:57,160 --> 00:37:59,520
Speaker 1: you were to tell me, like, yeah, I'm investing money

620
00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:04,759
Speaker 1: into equipment, you know, that would that would make sense?

621
00:38:04,840 --> 00:38:07,200
Speaker 1: Or you're investing money into like online courses. But I

622
00:38:07,360 --> 00:38:12,040
Speaker 1: just don't think that the absolute best way to invest

623
00:38:12,120 --> 00:38:15,560
Speaker 1: in this is like through school. I mean, I guess,

624
00:38:15,600 --> 00:38:17,360
Speaker 1: I guess if I were you, you're already out in

625
00:38:17,600 --> 00:38:21,600
Speaker 1: LA I assume you have your cost of living as

626
00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:25,960
Speaker 1: low as it can go with you know, roommates and whatever.

627
00:38:26,800 --> 00:38:29,280
Speaker 6: I don't know, I kind of screwed myself, how Yeah.

628
00:38:29,320 --> 00:38:30,280
Speaker 1: I had to screw yourself.

629
00:38:30,640 --> 00:38:33,680
Speaker 6: Well, I signed a year lease and then the like

630
00:38:33,800 --> 00:38:37,960
Speaker 6: literally the day before uh my like whole year started

631
00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:42,279
Speaker 6: for the least, or like two days before, I really

632
00:38:42,360 --> 00:38:47,200
Speaker 6: messed up my leg. Uh it's like my knee, it

633
00:38:47,320 --> 00:38:47,960
Speaker 6: was all messed up.

634
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:52,360
Speaker 1: Why did that screw Why did that screw you in

635
00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:53,240
Speaker 1: your living situation?

636
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:59,160
Speaker 6: Well, because now I don't have the three jobs that

637
00:38:59,239 --> 00:38:59,920
Speaker 6: I had anymore.

638
00:39:00,239 --> 00:39:04,120
Speaker 1: So yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah.

639
00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:08,360
Speaker 6: I mean I technically still have two of them, but

640
00:39:08,680 --> 00:39:13,000
Speaker 6: they're just I just have to figure out how I

641
00:39:13,040 --> 00:39:17,560
Speaker 6: can go back to them, and yeah, all that stuff.

642
00:39:18,160 --> 00:39:18,600
Speaker 3: Mm hm.

643
00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:27,720
Speaker 1: Hm hmmmmmmm. I don't know. Maybe I'm a boomer about

644
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:33,399
Speaker 1: all of this, but I don't know how the music

645
00:39:33,480 --> 00:39:37,120
Speaker 1: industry works. It just it just seems like something that

646
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:42,040
Speaker 1: has like a low barrier to entry in terms of

647
00:39:43,080 --> 00:39:47,959
Speaker 1: the making of the stuff, right, Like, and I'm sure

648
00:39:48,080 --> 00:39:52,960
Speaker 1: I'm sure that Uh, DJs and music producers will get

649
00:39:53,120 --> 00:39:57,080
Speaker 1: furious with me for saying that, you know, just as

650
00:39:57,280 --> 00:39:59,360
Speaker 1: just as I I say, I say that, you know,

651
00:39:59,520 --> 00:40:02,359
Speaker 1: you can make a great movie on your iPhone, right.

652
00:40:04,920 --> 00:40:07,400
Speaker 1: But I think when it comes to wanting to be

653
00:40:07,520 --> 00:40:13,920
Speaker 1: a producer for the people, it's like, well, well, you know,

654
00:40:14,440 --> 00:40:17,759
Speaker 1: make a list of the twenty fucking people that you

655
00:40:18,280 --> 00:40:21,040
Speaker 1: really want to do it for, or a hundred people

656
00:40:21,080 --> 00:40:22,440
Speaker 1: you really want to do it for, and find out

657
00:40:22,480 --> 00:40:24,720
Speaker 1: how to reach out to them and find a sample,

658
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:29,600
Speaker 1: make a sample that you're really proud of. And there's

659
00:40:29,640 --> 00:40:33,759
Speaker 1: a lot of kind of you know whatever, hustly entrepreneury

660
00:40:34,520 --> 00:40:36,520
Speaker 1: ways you can go about it other than just like

661
00:40:37,360 --> 00:40:38,240
Speaker 1: going to school.

662
00:40:40,880 --> 00:40:41,800
Speaker 2: I absolutely agree.

663
00:40:42,120 --> 00:40:48,480
Speaker 6: You know, I think you convinced me, manuck. I never

664
00:40:48,520 --> 00:40:52,480
Speaker 6: wanted to go to college genery, so yeah, you convinced me.

665
00:40:52,600 --> 00:40:52,759
Speaker 2: Man.

666
00:40:53,360 --> 00:40:55,640
Speaker 6: I'm just trying to make it happen probably here. I mean,

667
00:40:55,680 --> 00:40:57,040
Speaker 6: I don't I really don't want.

668
00:40:56,920 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 2: To go back to life.

669
00:40:58,920 --> 00:41:03,440
Speaker 6: I just don't. Yeah, oh yeah, try and make it here.

670
00:41:03,600 --> 00:41:08,160
Speaker 6: But yeah, man, I mean I just yeah, I realized,

671
00:41:08,200 --> 00:41:10,920
Speaker 6: like when my leg got messed up like that, I

672
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:16,040
Speaker 6: was just, uh, you know, all my jobs, like we're

673
00:41:16,040 --> 00:41:20,799
Speaker 6: almost like zero skill involved in them, unfortunately.

674
00:41:22,239 --> 00:41:23,880
Speaker 2: I mean I was I'm like a.

675
00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:29,120
Speaker 6: Delivery writer and uh I work at a grocery store

676
00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:32,360
Speaker 6: and a restaurant, and I was just like, dang, like

677
00:41:33,239 --> 00:41:36,919
Speaker 6: I just realized that like if I didn't have my leg,

678
00:41:37,080 --> 00:41:39,360
Speaker 6: like my job just doesn't give a fuck about me,

679
00:41:39,520 --> 00:41:42,200
Speaker 6: like or they just don't really have a room for me,

680
00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:46,239
Speaker 6: and like I don't know, yeah, just kind of like

681
00:41:47,680 --> 00:41:49,759
Speaker 6: well it did make me. It made me depressed, like

682
00:41:49,840 --> 00:41:53,040
Speaker 6: the first day, to be honest, I was like I

683
00:41:53,160 --> 00:41:54,919
Speaker 6: was a little bit depressed. I mean the doctor asked

684
00:41:54,920 --> 00:41:58,040
Speaker 6: me if I was depressed off like no, because I

685
00:41:58,080 --> 00:42:02,080
Speaker 6: don't know. I from it like kind of quickly.

686
00:42:02,760 --> 00:42:03,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, but.

687
00:42:04,600 --> 00:42:06,400
Speaker 6: Like I just tried to catch myself. I was like

688
00:42:07,160 --> 00:42:09,560
Speaker 6: I just noticed that I was I was starting to

689
00:42:09,640 --> 00:42:14,040
Speaker 6: do like bad habits that I've like since like moved

690
00:42:14,080 --> 00:42:15,800
Speaker 6: on from in my life. And I felt like that

691
00:42:16,000 --> 00:42:18,000
Speaker 6: was like a sign to me. I was like, Okay,

692
00:42:18,360 --> 00:42:23,560
Speaker 6: like I'm feeling a little bit depressed because yeah, I

693
00:42:23,640 --> 00:42:26,719
Speaker 6: was just bummed out because like I wasn't really even

694
00:42:26,800 --> 00:42:29,239
Speaker 6: appreciating my life. And I didn't even tell you the

695
00:42:29,320 --> 00:42:32,080
Speaker 6: worst part, man, I don't even tell you like how

696
00:42:32,120 --> 00:42:34,839
Speaker 6: I messed up my leg. Man, that's like the most

697
00:42:34,880 --> 00:42:41,400
Speaker 6: embarrassing part. Well, I messed up my leg because I

698
00:42:41,440 --> 00:42:44,840
Speaker 6: went to this concert. It was like a NASCAR a concert,

699
00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:47,520
Speaker 6: so it was like chat metal music and metal music,

700
00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:50,440
Speaker 6: and I was like dancing in the mastrap for like

701
00:42:50,520 --> 00:42:53,080
Speaker 6: the whole night. But then once nascar Al comes in

702
00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:55,000
Speaker 6: because he was the headliner, he was the last artist.

703
00:42:55,719 --> 00:42:59,680
Speaker 6: He started playing his song move to Moved to America,

704
00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:05,799
Speaker 6: and and when he was playing that song, they they

705
00:43:05,920 --> 00:43:07,200
Speaker 6: messed up my leg pretty bad.

706
00:43:08,480 --> 00:43:08,680
Speaker 1: Yeah.

707
00:43:09,440 --> 00:43:14,560
Speaker 6: The mosh pit, yeah, yeah, I got distracted because I

708
00:43:14,640 --> 00:43:17,560
Speaker 6: was just busney dancing, like I don't even like mash

709
00:43:17,600 --> 00:43:20,320
Speaker 6: in the moshpit. I just was like dancing and dodging people.

710
00:43:21,320 --> 00:43:25,120
Speaker 6: But I got distracted because nascar Ala was going going

711
00:43:25,200 --> 00:43:28,239
Speaker 6: off and then oh my leg just got messed up.

712
00:43:29,480 --> 00:43:32,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean yeah, the mosh pit is a bit

713
00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:34,760
Speaker 1: of a fuck around and find out kind of place.

714
00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:35,759
Speaker 2: I was.

715
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:38,759
Speaker 6: Yeah, that's why I named my studio that.

716
00:43:39,000 --> 00:43:41,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, oh you named your studio the mash pit.

717
00:43:43,080 --> 00:43:45,560
Speaker 6: I named my studio fuck around and find out studio.

718
00:43:46,080 --> 00:43:50,360
Speaker 1: That's fun. I yeah, dude, some people I was I

719
00:43:50,400 --> 00:43:53,000
Speaker 1: don't know why, but I was at a like as

720
00:43:53,200 --> 00:43:57,399
Speaker 1: was four months ago. I was at a punk show

721
00:43:57,480 --> 00:44:01,319
Speaker 1: in Baltimore with my friends and and I hadn't been

722
00:44:01,440 --> 00:44:04,960
Speaker 1: to like something like that in a long time. And

723
00:44:05,760 --> 00:44:09,399
Speaker 1: the mosh pit is crazy. People are doing full three

724
00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:16,000
Speaker 1: sixty degree wheels with both arms, just like beating, just

725
00:44:16,280 --> 00:44:21,080
Speaker 1: just a tornado of fists, and they're running all around.

726
00:44:21,239 --> 00:44:21,880
Speaker 2: It is. It is.

727
00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: An orgy of kinetic energy and violence. It is a

728
00:44:29,200 --> 00:44:31,160
Speaker 1: lot of fun. It's fun to go near, but you don't.

729
00:44:31,239 --> 00:44:32,839
Speaker 1: You don't want to toe the line because you will

730
00:44:32,880 --> 00:44:35,600
Speaker 1: get punched in the fucking face. Unapologetically.

731
00:44:37,320 --> 00:44:39,560
Speaker 6: Yeah, luckily I didn't get punched in the face.

732
00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 2: That's what I was thankful for.

733
00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:47,120
Speaker 6: But I did get either kicked or just upper cut

734
00:44:47,160 --> 00:44:50,640
Speaker 6: it in the nme and the doctor said I might

735
00:44:50,680 --> 00:44:51,680
Speaker 6: have torn my miniscu.

736
00:44:52,880 --> 00:44:55,600
Speaker 1: But yeah, I don't know what's your name again?

737
00:44:55,680 --> 00:44:58,120
Speaker 4: I try to too crazy?

738
00:44:58,680 --> 00:45:03,560
Speaker 1: Crazy all right? Of course, how could I forget crazy? Okay?

739
00:45:03,560 --> 00:45:08,359
Speaker 1: A couple of things. One is, you know, if if

740
00:45:08,400 --> 00:45:09,960
Speaker 1: you decide you don't want to go to college and

741
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:11,960
Speaker 1: you want to save the money, you know, I think

742
00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:17,799
Speaker 1: that's cool. If you have to go back to well, yeah,

743
00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:20,160
Speaker 1: if you don't have any if you don't have any money.

744
00:45:20,840 --> 00:45:24,200
Speaker 1: You don't want to have negative money, you know, with debt.

745
00:45:24,760 --> 00:45:26,120
Speaker 6: Yeah, I guess that's true.

746
00:45:27,200 --> 00:45:31,000
Speaker 1: So I think, yeah, yeah, I mean that's that's the

747
00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:32,719
Speaker 1: If you're going to go into debt, I think it

748
00:45:32,719 --> 00:45:40,479
Speaker 1: should be for a real, real, fucking good reason. But also,

749
00:45:40,560 --> 00:45:41,960
Speaker 1: but like, look, man, here's a if you have to

750
00:45:42,040 --> 00:45:46,239
Speaker 1: go back and live in the tent in Hawaii, don't uh,

751
00:45:46,960 --> 00:45:48,520
Speaker 1: don't consider the dream dead.

752
00:45:49,800 --> 00:45:49,840
Speaker 3: No.

753
00:45:51,560 --> 00:45:53,960
Speaker 1: Look, look here, here's something. Here's what I'm saying. I

754
00:45:54,160 --> 00:45:56,080
Speaker 1: don't think you're gonna have to go back to the tent.

755
00:45:56,840 --> 00:45:58,239
Speaker 1: I don't think you're gonna have to go back to

756
00:45:58,320 --> 00:46:01,440
Speaker 1: the tent. I think you can make it in Los Angeles.

757
00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:04,200
Speaker 1: I think you can. I'm holding out for you to

758
00:46:04,320 --> 00:46:07,600
Speaker 1: hold out. But if you're looking around and you're just

759
00:46:08,360 --> 00:46:12,120
Speaker 1: financially leg lee whatever, you got to go back and

760
00:46:12,200 --> 00:46:15,879
Speaker 1: live in the tent for a second. It's not over.

761
00:46:15,960 --> 00:46:19,400
Speaker 1: If you have to go live in the tent, you

762
00:46:19,480 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 1: can make music and be around other creative people making

763
00:46:24,640 --> 00:46:31,000
Speaker 1: things in really any major city in the world and

764
00:46:31,280 --> 00:46:34,799
Speaker 1: just on or just fucking you know, in the world

765
00:46:34,880 --> 00:46:39,239
Speaker 1: we live in on the fucking computer, so you know what,

766
00:46:39,480 --> 00:46:42,319
Speaker 1: you can twitch, stream you can twitch stream sets from

767
00:46:42,400 --> 00:46:46,200
Speaker 1: the fucking tent. You know, there's ways to do all this,

768
00:46:47,280 --> 00:46:52,480
Speaker 1: So just I encourage you to just, I guess, try

769
00:46:52,520 --> 00:46:55,399
Speaker 1: to be creative and trying not to count yourself out,

770
00:46:55,680 --> 00:47:00,359
Speaker 1: and you know, keep keep doing your shit. Crazy. You're

771
00:47:00,440 --> 00:47:03,840
Speaker 1: you're you're fucking crazy. I'm crazy. Everything's everything's fucking crazy.

772
00:47:05,719 --> 00:47:11,600
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm crazy, all right, And and uh yeah,

773
00:47:11,600 --> 00:47:14,960
Speaker 6: I mean yeah, I mean that that was mostly, uh

774
00:47:15,400 --> 00:47:18,360
Speaker 6: mostly the reason called I'm gonna have it like a

775
00:47:18,440 --> 00:47:20,279
Speaker 6: house warming party to night. But yeah, it's just like

776
00:47:21,040 --> 00:47:24,480
Speaker 6: it's just it's just nerve wracking and stuff. But I

777
00:47:24,600 --> 00:47:27,279
Speaker 6: mean I think that I think I'll make it too.

778
00:47:27,400 --> 00:47:31,160
Speaker 6: My friend he moved out here too. He's like he

779
00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:34,400
Speaker 6: just like doubled his rent and stuff. But I don't know,

780
00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:37,440
Speaker 6: I'm not gonna put his information out too much.

781
00:47:37,480 --> 00:47:39,839
Speaker 1: You're having you're having a house party tonight.

782
00:47:41,520 --> 00:47:44,360
Speaker 6: Housewarming party. Yeah, but it's just two of my friends.

783
00:47:44,400 --> 00:47:45,280
Speaker 6: It's not really a party.

784
00:47:45,800 --> 00:47:48,680
Speaker 1: That's fucking fun. Man, got to have fun, don't. Well

785
00:47:48,719 --> 00:47:52,560
Speaker 1: look whatever, here's the thing. Uh, worry and stressed and

786
00:47:52,680 --> 00:47:55,399
Speaker 1: be out, I mean worry and stress out during the day,

787
00:47:55,480 --> 00:47:59,040
Speaker 1: but once it hits around seven PM, just clock out

788
00:47:59,080 --> 00:48:01,000
Speaker 1: and hang out with your friends, because you know that's

789
00:48:01,040 --> 00:48:02,319
Speaker 1: the only fucking real thing.

790
00:48:04,560 --> 00:48:09,080
Speaker 6: Yeah, yeah, you're right, you're right man. Well yeah, man, yeah,

791
00:48:09,560 --> 00:48:14,160
Speaker 6: uh that's definitely been helpful and and and yeah, like

792
00:48:14,400 --> 00:48:17,839
Speaker 6: uhh yeah, man, appreciate your help.

793
00:48:18,160 --> 00:48:19,879
Speaker 1: You want to plug, you can plug if you want.

794
00:48:19,960 --> 00:48:20,839
Speaker 1: I want to hear your ship.

795
00:48:22,840 --> 00:48:25,520
Speaker 6: I mean it's just uh, it's crazy spelt like k

796
00:48:26,120 --> 00:48:26,840
Speaker 6: r a y e.

797
00:48:27,760 --> 00:48:29,799
Speaker 3: Z y o k r a.

798
00:48:32,440 --> 00:48:37,200
Speaker 1: Y e y z Oh, cray cray easy.

799
00:48:38,680 --> 00:48:40,359
Speaker 6: Yeah yeah, some people say cray easy.

800
00:48:40,480 --> 00:48:48,759
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, Cray easy. Why yeah, yeah, Like what do

801
00:48:48,840 --> 00:48:52,600
Speaker 1: you want? R A y is your name? Okay? You're okay,

802
00:48:52,640 --> 00:48:53,800
Speaker 1: you're Kyle? Is that you?

803
00:48:55,640 --> 00:48:57,880
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, well you're on Instagram or somewhere?

804
00:48:58,200 --> 00:48:58,880
Speaker 3: Yeah? Oh is that?

805
00:48:59,080 --> 00:49:00,560
Speaker 1: Should we not? Is that bad to have?

806
00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:05,120
Speaker 6: Oh no, no, it's fine. I mean I don't really

807
00:49:05,160 --> 00:49:05,879
Speaker 6: care that people.

808
00:49:06,239 --> 00:49:08,080
Speaker 1: I don't really Oh no, I'm just looking for it.

809
00:49:08,160 --> 00:49:09,719
Speaker 1: I'm just I was just like, what are you okay?

810
00:49:09,760 --> 00:49:12,040
Speaker 1: I'm on your okay? SoundCloud? Is that where you have

811
00:49:12,160 --> 00:49:16,920
Speaker 1: most of your ship? I mean you have one you

812
00:49:16,960 --> 00:49:21,800
Speaker 1: have one song. You have one song. Listen to it.

813
00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:23,560
Speaker 1: It's not it's not gonna be able to play on

814
00:49:23,600 --> 00:49:26,080
Speaker 1: the podcast. I'll just live reaction listen to it.

815
00:49:27,520 --> 00:49:28,800
Speaker 6: Oh, thanks man, Yeah.

816
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:33,239
Speaker 1: All right, this is Cray all right. If the people

817
00:49:33,280 --> 00:49:36,400
Speaker 1: at home want to listen to this, this is Cray easy.

818
00:49:37,400 --> 00:49:41,440
Speaker 1: The song is antiseptic, so you can probably find it

819
00:49:41,520 --> 00:49:44,120
Speaker 1: on his if you can find it if you go

820
00:49:44,200 --> 00:49:46,160
Speaker 1: on the internet. All right, I'm gonna blind listen to this.

821
00:49:49,000 --> 00:50:18,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, well crazy, Yeah, I like it, thanks.

822
00:50:18,000 --> 00:50:21,160
Speaker 1: Man, Yeah, for sure, I like. I think people check

823
00:50:21,200 --> 00:50:22,960
Speaker 1: it out. I just realized that I wasn't. I just

824
00:50:23,040 --> 00:50:26,080
Speaker 1: realized that if I can't put it on the podcast,

825
00:50:26,160 --> 00:50:30,440
Speaker 1: I was gonna be staring standing there in silence.

826
00:50:30,120 --> 00:50:32,960
Speaker 6: For oh yeah, yeah, that would be awkward twenty seconds.

827
00:50:33,000 --> 00:50:34,600
Speaker 1: But I didn't want to talk over it. But uh,

828
00:50:34,920 --> 00:50:37,520
Speaker 1: I like it. I like, I'm not I'm not Anthony

829
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:44,440
Speaker 1: Fantana or anything, but I I uh uh I like.

830
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:44,960
Speaker 2: I like.

831
00:50:45,520 --> 00:50:50,160
Speaker 1: It's definitely crazy. I sound like I sound like I'm

832
00:50:50,239 --> 00:50:52,120
Speaker 1: trying to come up with something nice to say, but

833
00:50:52,200 --> 00:50:54,120
Speaker 1: I genuinely do. I genuinely do like it.

834
00:50:55,520 --> 00:50:57,480
Speaker 6: No, no, yeah, yeah, I'm just saying you tell me

835
00:50:57,520 --> 00:50:58,240
Speaker 6: of treasure.

836
00:51:00,040 --> 00:51:01,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, we'll tell you if it's if it's trash.

837
00:51:02,680 --> 00:51:05,360
Speaker 6: If it was trash, then i'd be I'd be on

838
00:51:05,440 --> 00:51:06,640
Speaker 6: the plane back to the wife.

839
00:51:06,719 --> 00:51:07,040
Speaker 2: Probably.

840
00:51:07,760 --> 00:51:08,560
Speaker 6: No, I'm just kidding.

841
00:51:08,760 --> 00:51:09,439
Speaker 2: I don't.

842
00:51:09,600 --> 00:51:12,279
Speaker 6: I don't take one person's opinion that seriously. But like,

843
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:15,920
Speaker 6: if enough people convince me that it's trash, then like,

844
00:51:16,440 --> 00:51:19,680
Speaker 6: I mean, I guess I'm like, I'm still gonna make music,

845
00:51:19,760 --> 00:51:21,680
Speaker 6: but I'm probably not gonna try and like make it

846
00:51:21,840 --> 00:51:25,399
Speaker 6: in a major city because it's a little bit tough.

847
00:51:25,680 --> 00:51:28,080
Speaker 6: I don't know, you know what, I screw other people.

848
00:51:28,120 --> 00:51:29,040
Speaker 2: I don't know. I don't.

849
00:51:29,160 --> 00:51:32,239
Speaker 6: I don't care what other people think of should but

850
00:51:32,960 --> 00:51:36,440
Speaker 6: it does make it easier if people are like, Okay, yeah,

851
00:51:36,480 --> 00:51:39,200
Speaker 6: you're going in the right direction. Like, I respect everybody's opinion,

852
00:51:39,800 --> 00:51:42,120
Speaker 6: but I don't think that I should let it affect

853
00:51:42,200 --> 00:51:42,800
Speaker 6: my actions.

854
00:51:42,960 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 1: I guess, you know, uh, getting validation on your life?

855
00:51:48,400 --> 00:51:52,359
Speaker 1: You know what the scariest fucking thing about uh being

856
00:51:52,520 --> 00:51:56,640
Speaker 1: like an adult with free will is is that no

857
00:51:56,760 --> 00:52:03,360
Speaker 1: one can really give you some sort of final validation

858
00:52:03,760 --> 00:52:05,160
Speaker 1: on any of your life choices.

859
00:52:07,080 --> 00:52:09,239
Speaker 6: No, yeah, that's true, that's true.

860
00:52:10,640 --> 00:52:11,440
Speaker 3: It's what it is.

861
00:52:11,640 --> 00:52:16,840
Speaker 1: It is one of the uh most terrifying parts of

862
00:52:17,640 --> 00:52:20,040
Speaker 1: being being an adult. But but you know what it's

863
00:52:20,200 --> 00:52:22,600
Speaker 1: that's it's a tax on having the freedom to make

864
00:52:23,560 --> 00:52:27,320
Speaker 1: those decisions. But anyway, crazy, is there anything else you

865
00:52:27,360 --> 00:52:28,919
Speaker 1: want to say to the people of the computer before

866
00:52:28,920 --> 00:52:29,080
Speaker 1: we go?

867
00:52:30,680 --> 00:52:33,280
Speaker 6: Oh yeah, yeah, okay, So to the people of the computer,

868
00:52:34,160 --> 00:52:37,360
Speaker 6: I just want to say that, you know, always love yourself,

869
00:52:37,600 --> 00:52:43,520
Speaker 6: always stay positive no matter Oh and well, I mean

870
00:52:44,120 --> 00:52:46,680
Speaker 6: I would just say to all the atheists out there,

871
00:52:47,200 --> 00:52:49,759
Speaker 6: I would just say, reconsider.

872
00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:53,399
Speaker 1: That you're a man. You're a man of God.

873
00:52:56,000 --> 00:52:57,160
Speaker 6: I believe in a higher power.

874
00:52:57,320 --> 00:52:58,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, I believe.

875
00:52:58,520 --> 00:53:03,120
Speaker 1: I don't know if I believe in like, uh, Christianity

876
00:53:04,320 --> 00:53:08,000
Speaker 1: so much, but uh, I think a higher power. I'm

877
00:53:08,160 --> 00:53:11,560
Speaker 1: starting to I'm starting to kind of think there's gotta

878
00:53:11,600 --> 00:53:14,360
Speaker 1: be uh some I don't know if I don't know

879
00:53:14,400 --> 00:53:19,360
Speaker 1: about Jesus, but there's almost certainly some form of higher

880
00:53:19,680 --> 00:53:21,279
Speaker 1: consciousness or something like that.

881
00:53:23,520 --> 00:53:23,719
Speaker 2: Yeah.

882
00:53:23,760 --> 00:53:24,360
Speaker 4: I respect that.

883
00:53:24,440 --> 00:53:25,040
Speaker 6: I respect that.

884
00:53:25,160 --> 00:53:25,319
Speaker 2: Yeah.

885
00:53:25,360 --> 00:53:27,800
Speaker 6: That's why I like, I'm not hating on the atheist

886
00:53:27,840 --> 00:53:30,360
Speaker 6: out there. I'm just I'm just asking them to to

887
00:53:30,480 --> 00:53:36,040
Speaker 6: maybe reconsider, because you know, why why commit to to

888
00:53:36,239 --> 00:53:42,280
Speaker 6: not believing and on afterlife or and you know, anything

889
00:53:42,360 --> 00:53:43,800
Speaker 6: greater than this world.

890
00:53:43,560 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 2: Because I don't know.

891
00:53:44,719 --> 00:53:47,800
Speaker 6: Sometimes like, uh, if you get super depressing, if you

892
00:53:47,880 --> 00:53:50,320
Speaker 6: think like, oh, yeah, this is it, this is the

893
00:53:50,840 --> 00:53:54,160
Speaker 6: this is the meaning of it all. We're just you know,

894
00:53:54,280 --> 00:53:57,080
Speaker 6: here doing this because like, uh, I mean at the

895
00:53:57,120 --> 00:53:59,120
Speaker 6: same time though, I mean, while you're here on earth,

896
00:53:59,160 --> 00:54:02,200
Speaker 6: I think that uh, spreading positivity is the best thing

897
00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 6: that we can do because we can, we can list

898
00:54:05,360 --> 00:54:08,239
Speaker 6: everybody around us up and we can give other people

899
00:54:08,320 --> 00:54:12,120
Speaker 6: the motivation to chase their dreams. Uh if we just

900
00:54:12,560 --> 00:54:15,440
Speaker 6: uh yeah, if we just don't give up on ourselves

901
00:54:15,480 --> 00:54:19,000
Speaker 6: then if we if we don't do things that because

902
00:54:19,000 --> 00:54:21,840
Speaker 6: I feel like everybody has the conscious and like sometimes

903
00:54:21,920 --> 00:54:25,839
Speaker 6: you ignore your conscious and and that's when, uh, that's

904
00:54:25,880 --> 00:54:28,520
Speaker 6: when you start taking negatively at those times.

905
00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:33,279
Speaker 1: Uh crazy, Thanks for calling, and good luck on your journey. Brother.

906
00:54:35,280 --> 00:54:39,759
Speaker 6: Thanks, well, it's super good talking with you. And yes,

907
00:54:39,840 --> 00:54:40,840
Speaker 6: stay stay crazy, bro.

908
00:54:42,400 --> 00:54:46,879
Speaker 1: Hopefully hopefully I'll be less crazy next time you talk

909
00:54:46,920 --> 00:54:50,279
Speaker 1: to me. But you you you stay crazy to you

910
00:54:50,360 --> 00:54:51,080
Speaker 1: stay crazy too.

911
00:54:51,239 --> 00:54:54,080
Speaker 6: Yeah, I'm gonna be crazy and then I'm gonna be

912
00:54:54,120 --> 00:54:59,520
Speaker 6: a little crazy eventually, because yeah, I feel like, yeah,

913
00:54:59,760 --> 00:55:00,560
Speaker 6: but you'll yeah.

914
00:55:00,360 --> 00:55:01,840
Speaker 1: You'll be you'll be a little crazy. You'll be a

915
00:55:01,880 --> 00:55:04,239
Speaker 1: little crazy because you're a little less crazy, all right. See,

916
00:55:04,239 --> 00:55:07,080
Speaker 1: you're crazy fuck. I hung up on him, but I

917
00:55:07,080 --> 00:55:08,920
Speaker 1: didn't ware to hang up on him. A conversation was over.

918
00:55:09,760 --> 00:55:15,040
Speaker 1: I liked that guy a lot, I really did. I

919
00:55:15,239 --> 00:55:16,040
Speaker 1: liked that guy a lot.

920
00:55:16,360 --> 00:55:16,520
Speaker 2: Uh.

921
00:55:16,880 --> 00:55:20,040
Speaker 1: He was talking about, well, okay, what is an atheist?

922
00:55:20,080 --> 00:55:28,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna actually google this. A theist definition A person

923
00:55:28,120 --> 00:55:32,400
Speaker 1: who lacks belief in the existence of God. But what, like,

924
00:55:32,520 --> 00:55:38,000
Speaker 1: what is God? God is like a supreme being, creator,

925
00:55:38,160 --> 00:55:44,600
Speaker 1: principal object of faith? Yeah, I think like the concept

926
00:55:44,719 --> 00:55:49,840
Speaker 1: of like God is like, uh, A is sort of

927
00:55:50,080 --> 00:55:57,080
Speaker 1: like there's a supreme being who is like and like

928
00:55:57,360 --> 00:56:03,040
Speaker 1: and like existence is is a monarchy ruled by God.

929
00:56:06,640 --> 00:56:08,560
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't think I believe in that,

930
00:56:09,760 --> 00:56:15,400
Speaker 1: but uh, there's gotta be some kind of higher power.

931
00:56:15,480 --> 00:56:18,560
Speaker 1: I was thinking a lot about like. I'm sure I've

932
00:56:18,560 --> 00:56:21,640
Speaker 1: talked about this on the fucking podcast before, but I

933
00:56:21,719 --> 00:56:24,640
Speaker 1: have to think it a lot about just like WHOA,

934
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:30,640
Speaker 1: what we are all experiencing is quite psychedelic and bizarre

935
00:56:32,160 --> 00:56:46,960
Speaker 1: and miraculous and beyond comprehension even if you, I guess,

936
00:56:47,000 --> 00:56:49,920
Speaker 1: even if you study stuff. Someone in the someone in

937
00:56:49,960 --> 00:56:52,319
Speaker 1: the in the in the stream chat said you could

938
00:56:52,360 --> 00:56:54,640
Speaker 1: even say that life is crazy and that's I believe that.

939
00:56:58,120 --> 00:56:59,759
Speaker 1: So I don't know if I believe in like there

940
00:56:59,880 --> 00:57:03,200
Speaker 1: is a God and he is watching and all that,

941
00:57:03,480 --> 00:57:07,839
Speaker 1: you know, Jesus and stuff. But uh, you know, when

942
00:57:07,920 --> 00:57:10,280
Speaker 1: we die or was just when we die, it's probably

943
00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:15,640
Speaker 1: exactly how it was before we were born. That makes

944
00:57:15,719 --> 00:57:19,760
Speaker 1: a lot of sense. But then what the fuck is

945
00:57:19,920 --> 00:57:24,200
Speaker 1: our consciousness? Where does that go? Does that go anywhere?

946
00:57:27,840 --> 00:57:32,800
Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't know what. Look I also

947
00:57:32,960 --> 00:57:34,959
Speaker 1: will also also you know what I was, I'm gonna

948
00:57:34,960 --> 00:57:36,880
Speaker 1: all right, I'm gonna keep going on this rant because

949
00:57:37,080 --> 00:57:39,360
Speaker 1: it's I'm enjoying it, like.

950
00:57:41,040 --> 00:57:41,320
Speaker 3: You ever.

951
00:57:41,920 --> 00:57:48,080
Speaker 1: Uh Like, sometimes you'll be walking and you'll see someone

952
00:57:48,520 --> 00:57:51,040
Speaker 1: and maybe they're like, I don't Like I'll be in

953
00:57:51,120 --> 00:57:54,600
Speaker 1: New York and I'll see somebody like sleeping on the street,

954
00:57:56,040 --> 00:57:59,760
Speaker 1: and I'll just be like, there's no like, tell me

955
00:57:59,800 --> 00:58:05,080
Speaker 1: if this makes sense to folks. There's no real reason

956
00:58:05,840 --> 00:58:12,479
Speaker 1: at all whatsoever why I am me and that guy

957
00:58:12,720 --> 00:58:21,720
Speaker 1: is him. There's no real reason, you know. I mean

958
00:58:22,040 --> 00:58:25,600
Speaker 1: people make arguments about like, you know, making different choices

959
00:58:25,760 --> 00:58:29,000
Speaker 1: and people make and you know, but but yeah, yeah,

960
00:58:29,160 --> 00:58:33,880
Speaker 1: this is the thing. You grow up in different circumstances

961
00:58:34,000 --> 00:58:43,080
Speaker 1: that are completely utterly fucking random. You know, your brain chemistry,

962
00:58:43,680 --> 00:58:46,800
Speaker 1: even if you and someone else do make different decisions,

963
00:58:48,480 --> 00:58:51,920
Speaker 1: your brain chemistry is completely fucking random.

964
00:58:52,960 --> 00:58:53,320
Speaker 5: And so.

965
00:58:56,440 --> 00:58:59,920
Speaker 1: The reason, so the reason why you make the decision

966
00:59:00,200 --> 00:59:03,560
Speaker 1: that you make is completely random. Like it's just so rare.

967
00:59:03,600 --> 00:59:06,880
Speaker 1: There's no fucking reason why I am me and anyone

968
00:59:06,960 --> 00:59:11,920
Speaker 1: else is anyone else? There's no I can't like you.

969
00:59:12,120 --> 00:59:14,400
Speaker 1: And again, you sure, at a certain point you can

970
00:59:14,520 --> 00:59:18,320
Speaker 1: argue it's like I had I intrinsically made different decisions,

971
00:59:22,880 --> 00:59:25,240
Speaker 1: but there's but what is it in my head that

972
00:59:25,440 --> 00:59:29,600
Speaker 1: causes me to make decisions that negatively impact my life

973
00:59:29,680 --> 00:59:31,800
Speaker 1: or positively impact my life? And I'm not talking about

974
00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:36,720
Speaker 1: specifically me? And it's like, yeah, it's a fucking singularity.

975
00:59:36,840 --> 00:59:44,040
Speaker 1: We're all one. So I think that is God. That's

976
00:59:44,200 --> 00:59:52,240
Speaker 1: kind of God to me in a sense. Is answering

977
00:59:52,360 --> 00:59:56,120
Speaker 1: that question, why is anyone who they are? Why am

978
00:59:56,200 --> 01:00:01,520
Speaker 1: I me random? I'm so I'm I'm myself so randomly

979
01:00:02,360 --> 01:00:08,520
Speaker 1: it's insane. There's no fucking reason why I am I

980
01:00:08,640 --> 01:00:15,640
Speaker 1: am me and anyone else is who they are? Why

981
01:00:15,640 --> 01:00:16,880
Speaker 1: am I not a fucking dog?

982
01:00:17,120 --> 01:00:17,360
Speaker 2: Dude?

983
01:00:19,640 --> 01:00:20,720
Speaker 1: I think about this too much?

984
01:00:24,160 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 2: Uh?

985
01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:27,480
Speaker 1: All right, anyway I got. Yeah, that's my god. I think,

986
01:00:32,200 --> 01:00:34,920
Speaker 1: all right, that's it. I'm gonna stop rantic about this

987
01:00:35,120 --> 01:00:38,600
Speaker 1: because I'm gonna stop parrantic about this because I missed that.

988
01:00:38,800 --> 01:00:41,120
Speaker 1: I missed the times in my life where I just

989
01:00:41,200 --> 01:00:44,600
Speaker 1: fucking played Super Mario and I didn't think about any

990
01:00:44,600 --> 01:00:47,480
Speaker 1: of this shit. I'm glad I do think about this

991
01:00:47,600 --> 01:00:51,920
Speaker 1: shit sometimes. I think if I went through this, this

992
01:00:52,400 --> 01:00:55,840
Speaker 1: ride of life and I never thought about any of

993
01:00:55,920 --> 01:01:00,600
Speaker 1: this shit once, I'd probably have an awesome time. I'd

994
01:01:00,640 --> 01:01:04,880
Speaker 1: probably have so much more fun. But whatever, I am,

995
01:01:04,960 --> 01:01:07,640
Speaker 1: who I am, this is these thoughts come into my brain.

996
01:01:08,920 --> 01:01:11,880
Speaker 1: I accept it. It could be worse, all right, whatever,

997
01:01:11,960 --> 01:01:15,000
Speaker 1: let's keep going. Hello, Hi, what is your name?

998
01:01:15,400 --> 01:01:23,520
Speaker 4: No way, dude, lyle my name? Oh my gosh, wow,

999
01:01:24,280 --> 01:01:26,720
Speaker 4: my name is Lufa. Let's go with Lufa.

1000
01:01:27,920 --> 01:01:30,840
Speaker 1: Lufah, good to talk to you, Lufa. How are you

1001
01:01:30,880 --> 01:01:31,600
Speaker 1: doing this evening.

1002
01:01:32,800 --> 01:01:36,200
Speaker 4: It's good to talk to you, man. I'm I'm doing

1003
01:01:36,240 --> 01:01:41,400
Speaker 4: all right. Uh. Just got home from work, had some

1004
01:01:42,120 --> 01:01:47,800
Speaker 4: Chinese food. I was about to go ride my bike

1005
01:01:48,440 --> 01:01:52,640
Speaker 4: to get my car fixed, and I saw that you're streaming,

1006
01:01:53,240 --> 01:01:55,840
Speaker 4: so I thought i'd hit you up.

1007
01:01:55,960 --> 01:01:56,120
Speaker 2: Man.

1008
01:01:56,320 --> 01:01:59,840
Speaker 4: So it's super cool to be on. You know, I've

1009
01:02:00,080 --> 01:02:04,800
Speaker 4: sen for a for a hot minute and uh yeah, yeah,

1010
01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:07,640
Speaker 4: it's cool to catch you. How are you doing tonight?

1011
01:02:09,680 --> 01:02:13,320
Speaker 1: You know? Uh, I'm not just saying this, but I'm

1012
01:02:13,320 --> 01:02:19,080
Speaker 1: actually doing better now that I'm here recording. Uh you know,

1013
01:02:19,320 --> 01:02:23,680
Speaker 1: idle hands are are? They belong to the devil? The

1014
01:02:23,760 --> 01:02:29,240
Speaker 1: devil uses idle hands two to jerk him off and

1015
01:02:29,400 --> 01:02:34,400
Speaker 1: come devil fire on your face. That wasn't that funny?

1016
01:02:34,480 --> 01:02:37,880
Speaker 1: But I tried. You sound like you're having a chill night.

1017
01:02:37,920 --> 01:02:41,160
Speaker 1: I love a chill night. You're getting Chinese food and

1018
01:02:41,600 --> 01:02:44,440
Speaker 1: you're gonna ride a bike.

1019
01:02:47,000 --> 01:02:47,640
Speaker 2: That's the plan.

1020
01:02:48,160 --> 01:02:52,040
Speaker 4: I am gonna ride a bike. Are you?

1021
01:02:52,480 --> 01:02:58,920
Speaker 1: You know the chill guy meme like with the like

1022
01:02:59,120 --> 01:03:02,120
Speaker 1: dog with yeah, with the dog with hands. That's who

1023
01:03:02,160 --> 01:03:04,640
Speaker 1: I imagine you as. Are you what do you identify

1024
01:03:04,720 --> 01:03:04,920
Speaker 1: with that?

1025
01:03:08,000 --> 01:03:08,040
Speaker 2: No?

1026
01:03:09,720 --> 01:03:13,120
Speaker 1: Really no, Like, for.

1027
01:03:13,240 --> 01:03:22,200
Speaker 4: One, typically phone calls are like horrible, Like for me personally,

1028
01:03:23,120 --> 01:03:29,280
Speaker 4: I actually have a stutter, but right now I'm pretty fluent,

1029
01:03:29,640 --> 01:03:33,400
Speaker 4: which is kind of funny. But yeah, like phone calls

1030
01:03:33,440 --> 01:03:36,760
Speaker 4: for work and just even talking to like my parents

1031
01:03:36,840 --> 01:03:40,720
Speaker 4: and stuff. Sometimes like I just like, oh no, I'm

1032
01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:46,680
Speaker 4: not very chill, but yah, yeah, yeah, but I feel

1033
01:03:47,560 --> 01:03:49,240
Speaker 4: all right today it's Friday.

1034
01:03:50,400 --> 01:03:53,280
Speaker 1: What about in uh real life? Are you better in

1035
01:03:53,400 --> 01:03:55,880
Speaker 1: real life or is it? Is it just the phones.

1036
01:03:57,560 --> 01:03:58,959
Speaker 4: For sure? Better in real life?

1037
01:04:01,520 --> 01:04:01,760
Speaker 2: Yeah?

1038
01:04:02,320 --> 01:04:06,200
Speaker 4: Like I feel like phones like the only medium of

1039
01:04:06,280 --> 01:04:10,840
Speaker 4: conversation is you know, voice and like audio and so

1040
01:04:11,080 --> 01:04:17,960
Speaker 4: like every queue, like every non verbal queue that you

1041
01:04:18,080 --> 01:04:21,400
Speaker 4: have with talking in person, it's just not there, you know.

1042
01:04:25,280 --> 01:04:32,680
Speaker 1: So yeah, m hmm, Well what are you?

1043
01:04:33,520 --> 01:04:33,680
Speaker 4: Uh?

1044
01:04:34,160 --> 01:04:36,040
Speaker 1: Oh oh oh, I know what I was gonna say.

1045
01:04:38,320 --> 01:04:40,800
Speaker 1: Was there anything in particular that you wanted to talk

1046
01:04:40,840 --> 01:04:44,640
Speaker 1: about today? It's okay if notlge continue talking about nothing.

1047
01:04:46,000 --> 01:04:51,400
Speaker 4: No, I kind of do have something to talk about.

1048
01:04:51,480 --> 01:04:55,600
Speaker 4: I kind of like big picture in my life. I

1049
01:04:55,680 --> 01:04:59,080
Speaker 4: feel like I'm just kind of out of crossroads with

1050
01:05:00,240 --> 01:05:03,760
Speaker 4: where I want to take my life, you know, I

1051
01:05:09,960 --> 01:05:13,880
Speaker 4: I don't know or exactly to begin. I recently moved

1052
01:05:14,080 --> 01:05:19,640
Speaker 4: to Montana, which I'm loving. It's such a cool state,

1053
01:05:22,880 --> 01:05:26,240
Speaker 4: and I moved here to be in a smaller town

1054
01:05:26,360 --> 01:05:31,439
Speaker 4: but also be near the mountains. But also because there's

1055
01:05:31,480 --> 01:05:32,320
Speaker 4: a girl.

1056
01:05:35,160 --> 01:05:35,919
Speaker 2: I am.

1057
01:05:38,960 --> 01:05:45,400
Speaker 4: Who is Canadian. She is in Canada, and we're both

1058
01:05:45,560 --> 01:05:50,680
Speaker 4: like in this really strong like situationship where we both

1059
01:05:50,840 --> 01:05:54,200
Speaker 4: like really love each other, like we both like go

1060
01:05:54,440 --> 01:05:57,120
Speaker 4: and visit each other and go on hikes and go

1061
01:05:57,320 --> 01:06:00,360
Speaker 4: rock climbing and do all these awesome adventures together.

1062
01:06:00,520 --> 01:06:05,840
Speaker 2: And but she's.

1063
01:06:07,200 --> 01:06:12,120
Speaker 4: Living in a current like work living situation where she

1064
01:06:12,200 --> 01:06:15,520
Speaker 4: doesn't want to leave and I kind of don't really

1065
01:06:15,560 --> 01:06:20,480
Speaker 4: want to leave either to like try and get my

1066
01:06:21,680 --> 01:06:26,720
Speaker 4: Canadian citizenship, and like at the same time, it's just

1067
01:06:26,840 --> 01:06:32,120
Speaker 4: like this weird disconnect of poor conversation or like poor

1068
01:06:32,520 --> 01:06:38,520
Speaker 4: communication her and I have, and I just don't know

1069
01:06:38,600 --> 01:06:41,920
Speaker 4: if I should try and move to Canada to be

1070
01:06:42,000 --> 01:06:45,960
Speaker 4: closer to her and like jump through all these hoops

1071
01:06:46,560 --> 01:06:49,120
Speaker 4: to try and be with her, and you know, like

1072
01:06:49,240 --> 01:06:51,600
Speaker 4: maybe her and I don't work out in the long run,

1073
01:06:51,640 --> 01:06:53,480
Speaker 4: and then I'm in Canada and I don't really want

1074
01:06:53,520 --> 01:06:58,360
Speaker 4: to be in Canada anymore, but I've like worked so

1075
01:06:58,440 --> 01:07:02,840
Speaker 4: hard to get there. Or do I just stay here

1076
01:07:03,000 --> 01:07:07,120
Speaker 4: and keep living separate from her and you know, keep

1077
01:07:07,160 --> 01:07:13,400
Speaker 4: seeing each other like maybe once a month and I

1078
01:07:13,440 --> 01:07:15,840
Speaker 4: don't know, yeah, yeah, So it's just kind of like

1079
01:07:17,600 --> 01:07:21,120
Speaker 4: general broad terms of I don't know where to go

1080
01:07:21,320 --> 01:07:29,640
Speaker 4: from here, and like, uh, like if I should be Canadian.

1081
01:07:30,960 --> 01:07:39,960
Speaker 1: I don't know if I should become Canadian. Yeah, so

1082
01:07:40,120 --> 01:07:42,400
Speaker 1: you moved to Montana to be closer to this girl

1083
01:07:43,160 --> 01:07:46,440
Speaker 1: because Montana is near Canada? Is she near Montana?

1084
01:07:46,600 --> 01:07:46,760
Speaker 2: Ish?

1085
01:07:48,840 --> 01:07:54,040
Speaker 4: Yes? Yeah, We're five hours drive away from each other.

1086
01:07:54,480 --> 01:07:57,080
Speaker 4: So I'm like like an hour south of the border.

1087
01:07:57,240 --> 01:07:59,919
Speaker 4: She's like four hours north of the border.

1088
01:08:00,320 --> 01:08:03,120
Speaker 1: But then, how can't you hang out in Canada for

1089
01:08:03,240 --> 01:08:05,680
Speaker 1: a fair amount of time? Like don't isn't there a

1090
01:08:05,800 --> 01:08:08,960
Speaker 1: tourist visa you can get? Same with you know, to

1091
01:08:09,040 --> 01:08:09,439
Speaker 1: the US?

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01:08:11,960 --> 01:08:17,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, like there is like a visa. Well there's

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01:08:17,240 --> 01:08:21,760
Speaker 4: like a really expensive travel visa. I think that like

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01:08:21,880 --> 01:08:30,240
Speaker 4: you can only like that's only good for like two years,

1095
01:08:33,080 --> 01:08:36,240
Speaker 4: and after that, I think you just have to leave.

1096
01:08:38,880 --> 01:08:44,880
Speaker 4: But I think I could like get my permanent residency

1097
01:08:45,040 --> 01:08:59,479
Speaker 4: through my work maybe, But yeah, I guess, like I

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01:08:59,520 --> 01:09:04,000
Speaker 4: don't know, like like one of the big like cruxes

1099
01:09:04,080 --> 01:09:07,640
Speaker 4: of it all. And it's like I just don't know

1100
01:09:07,720 --> 01:09:12,479
Speaker 4: if if like if I moved and you know, did

1101
01:09:12,479 --> 01:09:17,879
Speaker 4: all this work, if she would be like like committed

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01:09:18,040 --> 01:09:24,200
Speaker 4: to like stay with me, I don't know.

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01:09:24,439 --> 01:09:24,760
Speaker 6: I don't know.

1104
01:09:25,400 --> 01:09:27,479
Speaker 4: It's just something that I need to talk with her about.

1105
01:09:29,280 --> 01:09:30,240
Speaker 1: Uh, how old are you guys?

1106
01:09:32,520 --> 01:09:33,519
Speaker 4: We're both twenty eight.

1107
01:09:35,080 --> 01:09:35,840
Speaker 1: And had you meet her?

1108
01:09:38,760 --> 01:09:42,160
Speaker 4: We met hiking on the Arizona Trail in Arizona.

1109
01:09:42,760 --> 01:09:46,280
Speaker 1: Cool. Cool? How long have you guys known each other?

1110
01:09:48,920 --> 01:09:53,160
Speaker 4: Like two years now? Uh so we met, yeah, in

1111
01:09:53,920 --> 01:09:56,719
Speaker 4: twenty twenty three in the middle of the desert.

1112
01:09:58,160 --> 01:10:04,120
Speaker 1: And this is not like a girlfriend kat with a

1113
01:10:04,200 --> 01:10:04,720
Speaker 1: capital G.

1114
01:10:07,600 --> 01:10:11,679
Speaker 4: No no, which is another confusing thing. Like, we haven't

1115
01:10:11,760 --> 01:10:18,240
Speaker 4: made anything like official, but we really enjoy seeing each other,

1116
01:10:18,360 --> 01:10:20,560
Speaker 4: Like we plan to meet each other very often, and

1117
01:10:20,680 --> 01:10:25,000
Speaker 4: we do see each other very often, but it's nothing

1118
01:10:25,200 --> 01:10:30,400
Speaker 4: like official, like she says, if I were to be

1119
01:10:30,520 --> 01:10:35,200
Speaker 4: able to live with her, then we would, like she

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01:10:35,439 --> 01:10:37,880
Speaker 4: would be comfortable with like being official.

1121
01:10:40,800 --> 01:10:44,000
Speaker 1: So do you really do you really like this girl?

1122
01:10:44,040 --> 01:10:45,640
Speaker 1: Do you see a future with her?

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01:10:47,479 --> 01:10:47,920
Speaker 4: I really do?

1124
01:10:49,000 --> 01:10:51,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, I do.

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01:10:52,160 --> 01:10:57,880
Speaker 4: Like we have like similar I guess. Well, for sure

1126
01:10:58,360 --> 01:11:00,519
Speaker 4: things that we love to do. We love to be

1127
01:11:00,600 --> 01:11:10,080
Speaker 4: outside and adventure together and bird watching like, but more

1128
01:11:10,160 --> 01:11:13,519
Speaker 4: than that, like we just have similar you know, humors,

1129
01:11:14,400 --> 01:11:22,120
Speaker 4: and just have similar values and you know, want kind

1130
01:11:22,160 --> 01:11:28,560
Speaker 4: of the same thing out of life. So I do

1131
01:11:28,840 --> 01:11:32,519
Speaker 4: like really love her, and she, you know, says that

1132
01:11:32,600 --> 01:11:33,040
Speaker 4: she loves me.

1133
01:11:34,800 --> 01:11:36,800
Speaker 1: What is it that you guys both want out of life?

1134
01:11:40,880 --> 01:11:44,920
Speaker 4: I guess really just too have like a base camp

1135
01:11:45,840 --> 01:11:53,880
Speaker 4: somewhere that's like in like nature, you know, not have kids,

1136
01:11:55,320 --> 01:11:58,280
Speaker 4: but to just have some kind of base camp where we.

1137
01:11:59,800 --> 01:12:00,080
Speaker 3: Can and.

1138
01:12:02,160 --> 01:12:06,000
Speaker 4: You know, make just enough money to have a lot

1139
01:12:06,040 --> 01:12:10,320
Speaker 4: of free time to go explore and do cool things,

1140
01:12:13,439 --> 01:12:17,920
Speaker 4: and then to come back, you know, to our headquarters

1141
01:12:18,720 --> 01:12:26,920
Speaker 4: and just yeah, like live life there and like do

1142
01:12:27,040 --> 01:12:29,920
Speaker 4: it all over again, you know, go and leave for

1143
01:12:31,240 --> 01:12:37,320
Speaker 4: six months and go like hike and explore and yeah, yeah,

1144
01:12:37,360 --> 01:12:37,800
Speaker 4: and just do that.

1145
01:12:37,840 --> 01:12:41,640
Speaker 1: Again, you know, So you want to live yeah, like

1146
01:12:41,680 --> 01:12:45,240
Speaker 1: a little like six months traveling, six months hanging out

1147
01:12:45,280 --> 01:12:46,040
Speaker 1: at your base camp.

1148
01:12:48,120 --> 01:12:50,000
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, for sure.

1149
01:12:51,120 --> 01:12:51,759
Speaker 1: Sounds awesome.

1150
01:12:53,200 --> 01:12:58,800
Speaker 4: Yeah, kind of a random segue, But I remember when

1151
01:12:59,479 --> 01:13:05,840
Speaker 4: you and the oh my gosh, what's his name, uh

1152
01:13:07,200 --> 01:13:11,040
Speaker 4: something Merlin, the guy that you went to Japan.

1153
01:13:10,840 --> 01:13:15,400
Speaker 1: With, uh Jason Jason Sense Martian.

1154
01:13:16,720 --> 01:13:21,920
Speaker 4: Martian. Yeah, I was watching y'all stream on the last

1155
01:13:22,040 --> 01:13:23,639
Speaker 4: day of y'all walk.

1156
01:13:24,040 --> 01:13:24,920
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, and.

1157
01:13:27,080 --> 01:13:30,720
Speaker 4: I was the one that mentioned Heally's If you by

1158
01:13:30,880 --> 01:13:31,200
Speaker 4: chance to.

1159
01:13:31,200 --> 01:13:33,120
Speaker 1: Remember that, I do. I vaguely remember that.

1160
01:13:33,240 --> 01:13:39,599
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, hell yeah, uh.

1161
01:13:42,200 --> 01:13:42,400
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1162
01:13:43,240 --> 01:13:45,000
Speaker 1: That had nothing that had nothing to do with uh

1163
01:13:45,720 --> 01:13:47,200
Speaker 1: the rest of our conversation, did it.

1164
01:13:49,120 --> 01:13:49,479
Speaker 4: Correct?

1165
01:13:49,680 --> 01:13:51,439
Speaker 1: Okay, that's totally fine. I was just making sure. I

1166
01:13:51,520 --> 01:13:52,840
Speaker 1: was just making sure. I don't know if you had

1167
01:13:52,840 --> 01:14:01,840
Speaker 1: anything else, you know, so this base can't would it

1168
01:14:02,160 --> 01:14:04,240
Speaker 1: be in Canada?

1169
01:14:07,040 --> 01:14:07,479
Speaker 4: Probably?

1170
01:14:08,640 --> 01:14:08,840
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1171
01:14:09,760 --> 01:14:13,519
Speaker 4: Yeah, Like she's kind of turned off on the idea

1172
01:14:13,600 --> 01:14:23,120
Speaker 4: of being American, like especially right now. But and also

1173
01:14:23,280 --> 01:14:28,360
Speaker 4: like it'd be cool to not pay for expensive health care,

1174
01:14:29,360 --> 01:14:30,519
Speaker 4: you know, like in the US.

1175
01:14:31,200 --> 01:14:35,160
Speaker 1: Yeah you yeah, you becoming Canadian is the better the better.

1176
01:14:35,040 --> 01:14:41,000
Speaker 4: Deal, right yeah, Like, and mainly just not having to

1177
01:14:41,080 --> 01:14:44,200
Speaker 4: be tied down to a job for health care, you know,

1178
01:14:45,560 --> 01:14:49,679
Speaker 4: uh yeah, like a pretty lucrative thing.

1179
01:14:50,200 --> 01:14:52,519
Speaker 1: That's so sick that they just do that. They just

1180
01:14:52,640 --> 01:14:54,200
Speaker 1: don't have to pay for health care.

1181
01:14:56,120 --> 01:14:59,519
Speaker 4: Right right, Like that sounds amazing, Like I guess there

1182
01:14:59,560 --> 01:15:03,720
Speaker 4: are like some way that you do pay for it

1183
01:15:03,800 --> 01:15:06,160
Speaker 4: that everybody pays for it, like your taxes, right, but

1184
01:15:06,280 --> 01:15:10,479
Speaker 4: it it must be much cheaper than you know, getting

1185
01:15:10,520 --> 01:15:13,840
Speaker 4: injured and breaking your leg without insurance being slapped at

1186
01:15:13,840 --> 01:15:18,680
Speaker 4: the bill for a bajillion dollars here m.

1187
01:15:18,840 --> 01:15:23,679
Speaker 1: Hm, I feel I feel for you on this situation, brother.

1188
01:15:23,800 --> 01:15:26,960
Speaker 1: Love is is difficult, and and making things like this

1189
01:15:27,920 --> 01:15:31,799
Speaker 1: work is difficult, and it's and and everything you described

1190
01:15:31,840 --> 01:15:34,240
Speaker 1: to me, like being so aligned on the future that

1191
01:15:34,320 --> 01:15:37,200
Speaker 1: you guys want to have and everything is it sounded

1192
01:15:37,320 --> 01:15:43,920
Speaker 1: really uh, really compelling and really really touching, and so

1193
01:15:44,000 --> 01:15:47,000
Speaker 1: you're worried about going through the whole process and then

1194
01:15:47,040 --> 01:15:50,960
Speaker 1: it just doesn't work out. Uh what does that mean?

1195
01:15:51,080 --> 01:15:52,240
Speaker 1: It just doesn't work out?

1196
01:15:54,479 --> 01:15:54,599
Speaker 2: Oh?

1197
01:15:54,720 --> 01:15:54,920
Speaker 1: Man?

1198
01:15:57,080 --> 01:15:58,840
Speaker 5: Like I just feel like.

1199
01:16:01,240 --> 01:16:04,680
Speaker 4: She, I don't know, Like, for one, we just have

1200
01:16:04,960 --> 01:16:10,559
Speaker 4: kind of not the best like communication. Like we'll talk

1201
01:16:11,520 --> 01:16:16,280
Speaker 4: like like I will typically bring up the fact that like, hey,

1202
01:16:16,560 --> 01:16:19,800
Speaker 4: like it's kind of weird telling everyone that I know

1203
01:16:20,439 --> 01:16:24,120
Speaker 4: that you're just my friend when like it's kind of obvious,

1204
01:16:24,439 --> 01:16:29,519
Speaker 4: you know, like we're more than friends. Like it's uh,

1205
01:16:30,760 --> 01:16:35,479
Speaker 4: and like you know, whenever we whenever I bring up

1206
01:16:36,120 --> 01:16:39,439
Speaker 4: kind of that and just have try to start harder

1207
01:16:39,479 --> 01:16:45,360
Speaker 4: conversations like she just kind of has no input, just

1208
01:16:45,439 --> 01:16:49,560
Speaker 4: kind of like bottles up and doesn't really want to

1209
01:16:49,600 --> 01:16:50,160
Speaker 4: talk about it.

1210
01:16:50,840 --> 01:16:51,240
Speaker 1: Yeah you know.

1211
01:16:52,720 --> 01:16:55,000
Speaker 6: Yeah, And.

1212
01:16:56,920 --> 01:17:00,439
Speaker 4: Like it's hard too because I honestly don't I haven't

1213
01:17:00,680 --> 01:17:06,080
Speaker 4: talked to anyone about this, and like it like it

1214
01:17:06,160 --> 01:17:10,120
Speaker 4: does you know, just seem like kind of like there

1215
01:17:10,160 --> 01:17:16,240
Speaker 4: are some general red flags and like I don't know, like.

1216
01:17:17,720 --> 01:17:19,160
Speaker 2: Like I'm just.

1217
01:17:20,680 --> 01:17:23,760
Speaker 4: I've just had this like gut feeling of you know,

1218
01:17:24,080 --> 01:17:28,439
Speaker 4: maybe she might go meet someone else who you know,

1219
01:17:29,680 --> 01:17:34,600
Speaker 4: like has a situation like her, like like where they

1220
01:17:34,640 --> 01:17:39,519
Speaker 4: can take off months at a time, and like, you know,

1221
01:17:40,120 --> 01:17:44,920
Speaker 4: she just leaves me for for them, and you know,

1222
01:17:45,080 --> 01:17:51,240
Speaker 4: like her not being committed to me, like like would

1223
01:17:51,520 --> 01:17:54,840
Speaker 4: seem like a validation for her to just go and

1224
01:17:54,960 --> 01:17:57,800
Speaker 4: do that, you know, to just leave me for someone else.

1225
01:18:00,640 --> 01:18:05,200
Speaker 2: Mm hmm. Yeah.

1226
01:18:05,520 --> 01:18:14,639
Speaker 4: And I don't know if I want to. Uh, I've

1227
01:18:14,760 --> 01:18:23,000
Speaker 4: gone like back and forth with like, I don't know,

1228
01:18:23,080 --> 01:18:30,559
Speaker 4: I don't, I don't. Yeah, there's just some other things

1229
01:18:30,720 --> 01:18:36,719
Speaker 4: to it that is like we're both not proud of. Yeah,

1230
01:18:37,800 --> 01:18:39,240
Speaker 4: yeah is it?

1231
01:18:39,840 --> 01:18:42,720
Speaker 1: Uh, you know whatever. You don't have to talk about it,

1232
01:18:42,840 --> 01:18:53,680
Speaker 1: but you know, do you feel like you've expressed all

1233
01:18:53,760 --> 01:18:56,719
Speaker 1: your honest feelings to this person?

1234
01:19:02,080 --> 01:19:04,680
Speaker 4: I feel like I have not told her what I

1235
01:19:04,880 --> 01:19:09,720
Speaker 4: just told you. I've not told her, but I just

1236
01:19:09,800 --> 01:19:10,120
Speaker 4: told you.

1237
01:19:12,439 --> 01:19:16,479
Speaker 1: What specifically, what specifically that you feel like she's the communication.

1238
01:19:16,080 --> 01:19:16,519
Speaker 2: Is bad.

1239
01:19:18,640 --> 01:19:22,160
Speaker 4: That and that she would just leave me for someone

1240
01:19:22,200 --> 01:19:26,080
Speaker 4: else if she were to meet someone that she likes more.

1241
01:19:28,920 --> 01:19:36,160
Speaker 1: Well, that's more of like I get I'm playing complete

1242
01:19:36,320 --> 01:19:41,720
Speaker 1: armchair psychologist and I'm truly, actually horrible with relationships and

1243
01:19:42,120 --> 01:19:48,120
Speaker 1: relationship matters and whatnot. But just from my gut, it's like,

1244
01:19:48,360 --> 01:19:50,080
Speaker 1: I do know something about that is like that's more

1245
01:19:50,080 --> 01:19:53,760
Speaker 1: of like a insecurity I think than it is like

1246
01:19:54,120 --> 01:20:00,240
Speaker 1: a actual like oh this this is like a thing

1247
01:20:00,400 --> 01:20:03,400
Speaker 1: that we need to communicate on and get an answer about,

1248
01:20:04,160 --> 01:20:08,240
Speaker 1: right hm hm, you know, because just just saying like, oh,

1249
01:20:08,280 --> 01:20:12,800
Speaker 1: I'm worried you're gonna leave me for someone else, it's like, uh,

1250
01:20:13,000 --> 01:20:16,720
Speaker 1: you know, I don't know how she's supposed to respond.

1251
01:20:17,000 --> 01:20:17,920
Speaker 5: To that like it.

1252
01:20:18,080 --> 01:20:20,080
Speaker 1: But like like the thing, the thing that you said

1253
01:20:20,080 --> 01:20:22,320
Speaker 1: where you're like, hey, listen, are we you know how

1254
01:20:22,760 --> 01:20:24,400
Speaker 1: the thing the thing where you're basically like, look, how

1255
01:20:24,439 --> 01:20:27,400
Speaker 1: committed are you to actually fucking doing this shit? You

1256
01:20:27,520 --> 01:20:32,000
Speaker 1: know that that prompts a response, So I mean that's

1257
01:20:32,040 --> 01:20:35,599
Speaker 1: worth talking about whether. But yeah, the other the other thing,

1258
01:20:35,640 --> 01:20:41,599
Speaker 1: I guess again I'm no what what what's the fucking

1259
01:20:41,640 --> 01:20:47,599
Speaker 1: lady's name who says stuff? But I'm not her? But yeah,

1260
01:20:47,640 --> 01:20:49,840
Speaker 1: the other one seems seems just kind of like an insecurity,

1261
01:20:49,920 --> 01:20:52,120
Speaker 1: Like I don't know if it needs to explicitly be

1262
01:20:53,080 --> 01:20:56,000
Speaker 1: brought up unless if you like actively have like ever

1263
01:20:56,200 --> 01:21:01,519
Speaker 1: believe that she is like cheating on you. You know,

1264
01:21:02,439 --> 01:21:04,240
Speaker 1: like you don't want to be like accusatory. You don't

1265
01:21:04,240 --> 01:21:06,479
Speaker 1: you don't want to be like accusatory, but you do

1266
01:21:06,600 --> 01:21:08,519
Speaker 1: want to be like hey, right, you don't have you

1267
01:21:08,520 --> 01:21:10,880
Speaker 1: don't to be accusatory, but you do kind of want

1268
01:21:10,920 --> 01:21:13,400
Speaker 1: to be like hey, look, if we're gonna do this,

1269
01:21:13,560 --> 01:21:16,320
Speaker 1: I kind of need this. What do you think about that?

1270
01:21:19,840 --> 01:21:23,599
Speaker 4: That's a good point. Yeah, yeah, that maybe the specific

1271
01:21:23,720 --> 01:21:27,080
Speaker 4: thing of her being with someone else is just kind

1272
01:21:27,120 --> 01:21:34,280
Speaker 4: of a like more of like an insecurity maybe on

1273
01:21:34,400 --> 01:21:39,200
Speaker 4: my part where it doesn't prompt like a response.

1274
01:21:40,800 --> 01:21:43,479
Speaker 2: M hmm, yeah, but.

1275
01:21:43,760 --> 01:21:47,240
Speaker 4: I mean okay, And then here's another kind of twist

1276
01:21:47,320 --> 01:21:54,240
Speaker 4: to it. She definitely has been with someone else, like

1277
01:21:54,400 --> 01:21:59,840
Speaker 4: last year, like she just like hooked up with someone

1278
01:22:02,560 --> 01:22:05,839
Speaker 4: and she told me, and like I you know, like asked,

1279
01:22:08,360 --> 01:22:13,519
Speaker 4: and it hurt, like and it's like a complicated thing

1280
01:22:13,680 --> 01:22:18,200
Speaker 4: because she's like not even talking to him anymore, and.

1281
01:22:24,280 --> 01:22:24,600
Speaker 3: And like.

1282
01:22:26,280 --> 01:22:31,360
Speaker 4: You know, like we're like I know, like we're not

1283
01:22:31,560 --> 01:22:36,479
Speaker 4: like you know, officially dating, but we also you know,

1284
01:22:36,600 --> 01:22:41,920
Speaker 4: like both like don't want to stop seeing each other.

1285
01:22:44,720 --> 01:22:46,640
Speaker 4: You know. It's just like I don't know. I don't know.

1286
01:22:46,720 --> 01:22:51,679
Speaker 4: It's all very complex but but simple.

1287
01:22:52,720 --> 01:22:57,679
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, now I get you on the complex

1288
01:22:57,760 --> 01:23:01,560
Speaker 1: but simple, My brother, we have all been in situations

1289
01:23:01,680 --> 01:23:06,760
Speaker 1: like this where we're like, yeah, this is not a

1290
01:23:06,920 --> 01:23:14,560
Speaker 1: movie romance. This is a fucking a formoist thing, unlabeled

1291
01:23:14,640 --> 01:23:20,439
Speaker 1: and undefined, and you know, yeah, being in purgatory with

1292
01:23:20,600 --> 01:23:26,080
Speaker 1: someone sucks. It sucks ass, It's not fun, it's not

1293
01:23:26,200 --> 01:23:31,920
Speaker 1: really fulfilling, and it's it is filled with tons of

1294
01:23:32,479 --> 01:23:39,080
Speaker 1: emotional drain and pain. So you know, I feel you

1295
01:23:39,200 --> 01:23:42,800
Speaker 1: on that, I would say again in this situation. Okay,

1296
01:23:42,800 --> 01:23:44,800
Speaker 1: so she hooked up with another guy, But so she

1297
01:23:44,880 --> 01:23:47,839
Speaker 1: looked up with another guy because there was no formal

1298
01:23:49,880 --> 01:23:54,280
Speaker 1: or even informal understanding of exclusivity between the two, which

1299
01:23:54,360 --> 01:23:58,080
Speaker 1: you do you agree upon that or is that not true?

1300
01:24:03,160 --> 01:24:03,200
Speaker 2: No?

1301
01:24:05,560 --> 01:24:11,200
Speaker 4: Ther question is she hooked up with him because her

1302
01:24:11,240 --> 01:24:15,800
Speaker 4: and I are not exclusive, right, like because of that?

1303
01:24:16,920 --> 01:24:21,040
Speaker 1: Well not because of not not because but she felt

1304
01:24:21,920 --> 01:24:24,200
Speaker 1: that it was not a problem because of that.

1305
01:24:24,400 --> 01:24:30,600
Speaker 2: Yeah maybe, And like.

1306
01:24:30,640 --> 01:24:34,360
Speaker 4: That's what I don't know, you know, like if she

1307
01:24:34,800 --> 01:24:42,960
Speaker 4: she thought it wasn't a problem because of that, Look.

1308
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Speaker 1: Man, let me ask you, because we could go in

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01:24:47,160 --> 01:24:51,280
Speaker 1: circles about this ship right is like do you what

1310
01:24:51,520 --> 01:24:56,240
Speaker 1: information do you need from from this lady? Or is

1311
01:24:56,280 --> 01:24:58,400
Speaker 1: it a matter of like what information do you need

1312
01:24:58,479 --> 01:25:00,800
Speaker 1: from this lady right now that you don't have?

1313
01:25:03,560 --> 01:25:11,040
Speaker 4: I I don't know. I guess just like some kind

1314
01:25:11,120 --> 01:25:19,360
Speaker 4: of like commitment that like if I were to work

1315
01:25:19,479 --> 01:25:23,800
Speaker 4: towards moving to Canada and being to Canada, that she

1316
01:25:23,880 --> 01:25:30,679
Speaker 4: wouldn't just like leave me for someone else.

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01:25:31,080 --> 01:25:33,360
Speaker 1: It's like, yeah, if I'm going on the fucking uh

1318
01:25:34,040 --> 01:25:37,479
Speaker 1: website and I'm converting American dollars to your you know,

1319
01:25:38,320 --> 01:25:42,200
Speaker 1: fucking Canada money, and I'm like submitting applications and doing

1320
01:25:42,280 --> 01:25:44,760
Speaker 1: papers and going to the embassy, and if I'm doing

1321
01:25:44,800 --> 01:25:47,479
Speaker 1: all this shit, you are my girlfriend. I'm not doing

1322
01:25:47,520 --> 01:25:50,880
Speaker 1: all this stuff for a uh you know, friends with

1323
01:25:51,040 --> 01:25:55,519
Speaker 1: benefits situation. This is just seems yeah, sort of what

1324
01:25:55,560 --> 01:25:56,240
Speaker 1: I'm hearing.

1325
01:25:57,720 --> 01:25:58,120
Speaker 4: For sure.

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01:25:58,800 --> 01:26:03,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, so I mean, ship brother, let me tell you.

1327
01:26:04,040 --> 01:26:06,680
Speaker 1: I I I know that uh making these kinds of

1328
01:26:06,800 --> 01:26:12,960
Speaker 1: decisions and and uh identifying deal breakers is fucking really

1329
01:26:13,080 --> 01:26:15,439
Speaker 1: scary and hard because you're like, well, what if she

1330
01:26:15,520 --> 01:26:18,640
Speaker 1: doesn't want to do that? It's like, well, then am

1331
01:26:18,680 --> 01:26:23,120
Speaker 1: I gonna have the strength to walk away. It's fucking

1332
01:26:23,200 --> 01:26:27,120
Speaker 1: insanely difficult. You form a strong attachments to people and

1333
01:26:27,560 --> 01:26:33,560
Speaker 1: and you you look back at uh you don't, you

1334
01:26:33,600 --> 01:26:36,519
Speaker 1: don't really it's time you don't be alone all this stuff, Like,

1335
01:26:38,240 --> 01:26:39,600
Speaker 1: I get it, I've been there, but a bunch of

1336
01:26:39,640 --> 01:26:41,439
Speaker 1: everyone's fucking listening that's probably been there.

1337
01:26:44,400 --> 01:26:45,360
Speaker 3: But uh.

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01:26:47,080 --> 01:26:48,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean it sounds like you know kind of

1339
01:26:48,760 --> 01:26:51,280
Speaker 1: what you want from this lady, and then it's just

1340
01:26:51,360 --> 01:26:55,920
Speaker 1: a matter of telling her, seeing how she responds, and

1341
01:26:56,360 --> 01:26:59,960
Speaker 1: deciding whether or not you're satisfied with her response.

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01:27:02,520 --> 01:27:08,439
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, for sure. Yeah, just you know, it'd be

1343
01:27:08,479 --> 01:27:12,280
Speaker 4: a huge life change, and you know there's some big

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01:27:12,320 --> 01:27:13,600
Speaker 4: conversations that go with that.

1345
01:27:14,400 --> 01:27:17,840
Speaker 1: You know, well, yeah, dude, I mean being being like, hey,

1346
01:27:17,960 --> 01:27:20,040
Speaker 1: I'll do this for you if you actually are like

1347
01:27:21,320 --> 01:27:24,360
Speaker 1: committed to making this life that we've been talking about

1348
01:27:24,360 --> 01:27:26,559
Speaker 1: wanting to live together. But if you're just like, oh,

1349
01:27:26,640 --> 01:27:29,120
Speaker 1: it would be cool if you came. I'm not gonna

1350
01:27:29,200 --> 01:27:33,439
Speaker 1: fucking I'm not going to change my nationality for that,

1351
01:27:35,720 --> 01:27:37,640
Speaker 1: right right, Like.

1352
01:27:38,240 --> 01:27:42,360
Speaker 4: And like I've even told her too, like nothing would

1353
01:27:42,439 --> 01:27:47,720
Speaker 4: change if we were like, you know, dating, you know,

1354
01:27:48,240 --> 01:27:51,800
Speaker 4: like it would still be cool to be like in

1355
01:27:52,360 --> 01:27:56,519
Speaker 4: you know, an open relationship where we like communicated and

1356
01:27:57,200 --> 01:28:03,400
Speaker 4: you know, told each other what was going on. Yeah, like,

1357
01:28:05,120 --> 01:28:09,320
Speaker 4: I don't know, spye some some things up times.

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01:28:10,640 --> 01:28:12,240
Speaker 2: Dum like, but.

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01:28:14,240 --> 01:28:20,880
Speaker 1: Well well well look look look look look hm hmm.

1360
01:28:22,880 --> 01:28:25,520
Speaker 1: Someone in the chat said, do not, under any circumstances

1361
01:28:26,040 --> 01:28:31,080
Speaker 1: move to Canada chasing a woman. Then someone said Gordon

1362
01:28:31,280 --> 01:28:40,560
Speaker 1: Lightfoot had whole albums about this. I don't know what

1363
01:28:40,680 --> 01:28:41,080
Speaker 1: that means.

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01:28:42,680 --> 01:28:43,080
Speaker 6: I don't know.

1365
01:28:43,200 --> 01:28:48,240
Speaker 1: Man, Listen, here's here's I think we've been going a

1366
01:28:48,280 --> 01:28:50,360
Speaker 1: little bit in circles on this, but I'll say that, Yeah,

1367
01:28:50,439 --> 01:28:51,960
Speaker 1: you know, it sounds like you have some It sounds

1368
01:28:52,000 --> 01:28:55,320
Speaker 1: like you have some some conversations that you gotta have

1369
01:28:55,680 --> 01:28:58,200
Speaker 1: with this lady. And then after those conversations, you gotta

1370
01:28:58,280 --> 01:28:59,880
Speaker 1: fucking you.

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01:29:00,040 --> 01:29:00,280
Speaker 2: Got a.

1372
01:29:01,800 --> 01:29:08,320
Speaker 1: Deep breathe, uh, get high, look yourself in the mirror,

1373
01:29:08,360 --> 01:29:10,840
Speaker 1: and go what do I actually want? What do I

1374
01:29:10,880 --> 01:29:12,439
Speaker 1: actually want my fucking stupid life to be?

1375
01:29:12,600 --> 01:29:12,640
Speaker 2: Like?

1376
01:29:15,160 --> 01:29:18,400
Speaker 1: Those are hard questions to answer, is a really hard

1377
01:29:18,479 --> 01:29:22,920
Speaker 1: question to answer. But from from everything, if my life

1378
01:29:23,040 --> 01:29:27,680
Speaker 1: was your life, that's what I would be doing is

1379
01:29:27,720 --> 01:29:32,599
Speaker 1: asking myself those questions. And and with my life being

1380
01:29:32,640 --> 01:29:35,439
Speaker 1: my life, I'm asking myself these kinds of questions, so

1381
01:29:37,439 --> 01:29:44,040
Speaker 1: you're not alone in your imperfect navigation of the scary universe.

1382
01:29:44,640 --> 01:29:47,040
Speaker 1: I hope that makes you feel any bit better about

1383
01:29:48,600 --> 01:29:52,519
Speaker 1: the decision making process. Is there anything else you want

1384
01:29:52,560 --> 01:29:54,040
Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

1385
01:29:54,160 --> 01:30:03,439
Speaker 4: Man, Man, gosh, uh, it's so strange to hear you

1386
01:30:03,520 --> 01:30:08,400
Speaker 4: say that, and now I'm responding to it. Man, I

1387
01:30:08,479 --> 01:30:15,200
Speaker 4: just want to say that your podcast has been just

1388
01:30:15,280 --> 01:30:21,960
Speaker 4: to really just well for one, like really entertaining platform,

1389
01:30:22,960 --> 01:30:27,479
Speaker 4: you know, like it's really just gotten me through some

1390
01:30:27,600 --> 01:30:30,599
Speaker 4: hard times and it's just been.

1391
01:30:32,040 --> 01:30:32,439
Speaker 3: Fun to.

1392
01:30:34,240 --> 01:30:38,040
Speaker 4: Hear you continue, you know, everything that you've been doing.

1393
01:30:39,439 --> 01:30:44,800
Speaker 4: Do you travel and yeah, yeah, it's been awesome to

1394
01:30:45,400 --> 01:30:48,840
Speaker 4: follow along. And I guess what I'd like to finish

1395
01:30:48,920 --> 01:30:56,800
Speaker 4: with is that just remember that everything is temporary, you know,

1396
01:30:57,160 --> 01:31:03,120
Speaker 4: like everything like the good and the bad times throughout life.

1397
01:31:03,360 --> 01:31:08,200
Speaker 4: Like if there's some shitty thing that is happening, like

1398
01:31:08,360 --> 01:31:11,000
Speaker 4: just know that it's going to end. And if there's

1399
01:31:11,080 --> 01:31:14,720
Speaker 4: some awesome times that you're going through, just you know,

1400
01:31:14,920 --> 01:31:17,400
Speaker 4: like remember that times won't always be awesome and just

1401
01:31:18,640 --> 01:31:23,760
Speaker 4: just enjoy the good times while they're here and know

1402
01:31:23,920 --> 01:31:27,479
Speaker 4: that the bad times will eventually end as well.

1403
01:31:32,000 --> 01:31:32,880
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

1404
01:31:33,000 --> 01:31:33,160
Speaker 2: Man?

1405
01:31:35,280 --> 01:31:36,559
Speaker 4: My trail name is Lufa.

1406
01:31:37,760 --> 01:31:41,559
Speaker 1: That's my name, Lufa. Good luck with your life, buddy.

1407
01:31:41,600 --> 01:31:42,400
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you later.

1408
01:31:43,760 --> 01:31:46,280
Speaker 4: He thanks, Lyle. Have a good night.

1409
01:31:46,560 --> 01:31:49,240
Speaker 1: Thank you, Lufa. Thank you for sharing cool.

1410
01:31:49,720 --> 01:31:52,559
Speaker 4: See you have it going man, goodnight.

1411
01:31:54,920 --> 01:31:59,760
Speaker 1: Fuck man. I feel for that guy I called him,

1412
01:31:59,760 --> 01:32:09,519
Speaker 1: but because that felt Canadian. Uh, you know, I I

1413
01:32:09,960 --> 01:32:12,000
Speaker 1: feel for that guy. I feel for that guy. It's

1414
01:32:12,080 --> 01:32:17,960
Speaker 1: so hard to I don't know, it's hard to make decisions.

1415
01:32:22,280 --> 01:32:25,640
Speaker 1: Sometimes I wonder about that though. Sometimes I wonder if

1416
01:32:25,720 --> 01:32:29,840
Speaker 1: if a decision is hard to make, maybe that kind

1417
01:32:29,880 --> 01:32:35,400
Speaker 1: of informs your answer a bit, right, Does that make sense?

1418
01:32:35,479 --> 01:32:38,799
Speaker 1: Is that a stupid thing to say? Because some decisions

1419
01:32:38,840 --> 01:32:44,400
Speaker 1: are easy to make. There's an easy decision to Well,

1420
01:32:44,439 --> 01:32:48,840
Speaker 1: what's the less easy decision I made? Oh, they were

1421
01:32:48,880 --> 01:32:54,840
Speaker 1: giving out samples of Costco today ice cream with a

1422
01:32:54,920 --> 01:32:58,320
Speaker 1: cookie in it. That was an easy decision to make

1423
01:32:58,680 --> 01:33:01,439
Speaker 1: to eat that because it was just a little scoop

1424
01:33:01,439 --> 01:33:09,280
Speaker 1: of ice cream. It wasn't anything crazy. Yeah, that was

1425
01:33:09,280 --> 01:33:11,840
Speaker 1: a horrible example, but you know what I mean, Some

1426
01:33:12,000 --> 01:33:14,559
Speaker 1: decisions are easy to make, So maybe if a decision's

1427
01:33:14,560 --> 01:33:19,600
Speaker 1: hard to make, that's that's your answer. I don't know.

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01:33:20,640 --> 01:33:22,920
Speaker 1: I'm a gecko. Thank you for listening to my Therapy

1429
01:33:22,920 --> 01:33:28,400
Speaker 1: Gecko podcast. Thank you for your continued support of my

1430
01:33:28,520 --> 01:33:32,599
Speaker 1: Lizard endeavors. I feel really good today. I feel really

1431
01:33:32,600 --> 01:33:37,639
Speaker 1: good about continuing to do this podcast, and I'm extremely

1432
01:33:37,680 --> 01:33:41,240
Speaker 1: grateful to you guys for listening to the show. And

1433
01:33:41,400 --> 01:33:44,760
Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep doing the show, and I'm gonna keep

1434
01:33:45,000 --> 01:33:47,680
Speaker 1: trying to do other things. That's my goal right now.

1435
01:33:47,680 --> 01:33:52,240
Speaker 1: I'm like trying so fucking hard to figure out other

1436
01:33:52,439 --> 01:33:55,400
Speaker 1: stuff to keep doing with my life. I'm always chasing.

1437
01:33:55,439 --> 01:33:58,280
Speaker 1: I'm always wanting to do more shit. I'm always wanting

1438
01:33:58,320 --> 01:34:04,799
Speaker 1: to chase more. I'm editing a video right now about

1439
01:34:05,960 --> 01:34:09,600
Speaker 1: the fifty mile walk I took. It was referenced in

1440
01:34:09,640 --> 01:34:15,519
Speaker 1: the episode with Jason aka sense Martian. Uh So that'll

1441
01:34:15,560 --> 01:34:22,679
Speaker 1: be out when I finish it. I'm working on continuing

1442
01:34:22,720 --> 01:34:27,400
Speaker 1: to not go insane. We had some pretty good progress

1443
01:34:27,479 --> 01:34:31,120
Speaker 1: on that recently over the past three days. I'm back

1444
01:34:31,200 --> 01:34:34,960
Speaker 1: to smoking weed, which actually is good. It means that

1445
01:34:35,040 --> 01:34:37,200
Speaker 1: my brain is in a place where I can handle it.

1446
01:34:40,840 --> 01:34:43,679
Speaker 1: I'm I still have dreams and hopes for the future

1447
01:34:43,760 --> 01:34:50,720
Speaker 1: that I want to do. I have business ideas that

1448
01:34:50,760 --> 01:34:54,080
Speaker 1: I want to do and events that would be cool.

1449
01:34:54,240 --> 01:34:59,920
Speaker 1: And I was hanging out with my dad last night.

1450
01:35:01,240 --> 01:35:05,120
Speaker 1: My dad's sixty seven years old, and he showed me

1451
01:35:05,200 --> 01:35:09,719
Speaker 1: this big list of projects that he wants to get done,

1452
01:35:11,640 --> 01:35:15,720
Speaker 1: and I was like, oh fuck, I'm gonna be, like

1453
01:35:15,880 --> 01:35:22,920
Speaker 1: it's in my dna to wanna do stuff. I'm gonna

1454
01:35:22,960 --> 01:35:27,439
Speaker 1: be thirty years from now still trying to be doing

1455
01:35:27,560 --> 01:35:31,040
Speaker 1: stuff and making YouTube videos and whatever. And the reason

1456
01:35:31,040 --> 01:35:32,840
Speaker 1: I said, oh fuck, is because I don't know why

1457
01:35:32,880 --> 01:35:37,080
Speaker 1: I associate with I associate that with like never being satisfied.

1458
01:35:37,680 --> 01:35:40,400
Speaker 1: But maybe you know what, which is a blessing and

1459
01:35:40,479 --> 01:35:42,439
Speaker 1: a curse, because it kind of curses you with like

1460
01:35:42,800 --> 01:35:48,000
Speaker 1: forever is never ending sense that you didn't do your

1461
01:35:48,080 --> 01:35:50,240
Speaker 1: homework and it's due tomorrow night, and you know kind

1462
01:35:50,240 --> 01:35:53,439
Speaker 1: of that feeling every day. But you know, look, that

1463
01:35:53,520 --> 01:35:56,519
Speaker 1: feeling causes you to kind of lights a fire under

1464
01:35:56,520 --> 01:36:02,160
Speaker 1: your ass to be a present and conscious contributor to

1465
01:36:03,320 --> 01:36:10,080
Speaker 1: your own life and to hopefully the world. So I'm

1466
01:36:10,080 --> 01:36:13,040
Speaker 1: gonna try to embrace it instead of letting it drive

1467
01:36:13,120 --> 01:36:17,280
Speaker 1: me completely fucking insane. All Right, thank you for listening

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01:36:17,280 --> 01:36:21,080
Speaker 1: to the podcast. Ghek bless you. Uh catch you in

1469
01:36:21,160 --> 01:36:25,360
Speaker 1: a few days by Hello, folks, it's Lyle here. That's

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01:36:25,439 --> 01:36:29,000
Speaker 1: the end of this episode. But get this, I'm releasing

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Speaker 7: Well, I want to talk about my oldest daughter. Mainly,

1481
01:37:08,080 --> 01:37:10,599
Speaker 7: it's just my wife and I. For the past couple

1482
01:37:10,640 --> 01:37:15,160
Speaker 7: of years, we just feel like like maybe we babied

1483
01:37:15,200 --> 01:37:17,559
Speaker 7: her too much. He just seems like at this age

1484
01:37:17,600 --> 01:37:20,320
Speaker 7: she still isn't able to get a hold of her emotions.

1485
01:37:20,400 --> 01:37:22,120
Speaker 7: You know, we have a five year old as well.

1486
01:37:22,280 --> 01:37:24,559
Speaker 7: My oldest is eight, my youngest is five.

1487
01:37:24,520 --> 01:37:26,879
Speaker 5: And like you know, you're not supposed to pick favorites,

1488
01:37:26,960 --> 01:37:29,680
Speaker 5: but it's hard not to think of the other one

1489
01:37:29,720 --> 01:37:31,920
Speaker 5: as the good one and and not that we love

1490
01:37:32,000 --> 01:37:34,439
Speaker 5: the other one more, but it's very hard for us

1491
01:37:34,520 --> 01:37:37,599
Speaker 5: to like not have this space here.

1492
01:37:37,640 --> 01:37:39,559
Speaker 1: Okay, if you love one of your children more than

1493
01:37:39,600 --> 01:37:41,320
Speaker 1: the other, you can tell us. If you want to

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01:37:41,360 --> 01:37:43,719
Speaker 1: hear this full conversation, you can sign up to become

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Speaker 1: a premium member at therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com

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Speaker 1: or find the link in the episode description that's therapy

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Speaker 1: Gecko dot supercast dot com. All right, I have nothing

1498
01:37:57,040 --> 01:38:03,400
Speaker 1: else to say. Taking your phone calls every night, everythin

1499
01:38:03,840 --> 01:38:04,840
Speaker 1: goes doing his eyes.

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01:38:04,960 --> 01:38:05,800
Speaker 6: He's teaching you to.

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01:38:05,760 --> 01:38:09,640
Speaker 1: A house over your life, but he's not ready an expert.

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01:38:09,960 --> 01:38:10,519
Speaker 4: After do