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Speaker 1: Scrubbing in with Beca Tilly and Tanya rad and iHeartRadio

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Speaker 1: and two time People's Choice Award winning podcast.

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Speaker 2: Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in. I don't know if

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Speaker 2: you could tell, but that is not Tanya. We have

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Speaker 2: a special guest filling in for Tanya as my co

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Speaker 2: host today, we.

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Speaker 3: Have Susie Evan.

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Speaker 1: I'm glad to be here.

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Speaker 3: Thank you for joining.

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Speaker 2: I was like, I knew Tanya was going out of town,

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Speaker 2: and I thought, who would I want to chat with

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Speaker 2: for around forty minutes? And flattered, I know, And I

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Speaker 2: also was like, I don't know, really, your freedom of

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Speaker 2: being able to chat right now, right now? Yeah? So

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Speaker 2: I reached out with fingers crossed and it worked out.

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Speaker 2: So I'm so happy you're here.

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Speaker 1: Me too, I know. My manager was like, do we

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Speaker 1: need to get this approved? We should we just do it?

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Speaker 1: I was like, I feel like we should.

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Speaker 4: Like I'm such a rule follower again, It's like we

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Speaker 4: should do we should just find out And then they

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Speaker 4: were like.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, of course. I was like, great, Okay, let's do it.

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Speaker 2: They're pretty strict with their rules, yeah they be.

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Speaker 1: I'm just so scared of like getting sued every day.

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Speaker 2: I know, Yeah, I was. I really lived with a

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Speaker 2: lot that fear for a long time. Literally, I would

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Speaker 2: say five years in I was still scared they were

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Speaker 2: gonna sneak. Did I do anything?

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Speaker 3: I don't think so, I know.

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Speaker 1: I feel like I constantly feel guilty.

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Speaker 4: I'm like, can they like go back through my posts

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Speaker 4: in every interview for the past five years and search

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Speaker 4: for something?

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Speaker 2: I don't know?

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Speaker 3: Maybe, how are you doing?

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Speaker 2: You've had a whirlwind.

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Speaker 1: I've had a whirlwind. I'm fine now.

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Speaker 4: I wasn't fine for a little bit, but I'm like

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Speaker 4: totally fine.

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Speaker 1: Now what was it?

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Speaker 2: Was it just the anxiety because I was watching your

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Speaker 2: Instagram stories and it was like friends and it was

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Speaker 2: just like dark dark time. But I was thinking, I

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Speaker 2: remember that feeling of And I don't know that anyone

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Speaker 2: can understand unless you have had a specific like reality

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Speaker 2: TV experience, right, specifically a dating reality TV experience. Yes,

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Speaker 2: so real, because you are not in control over what

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Speaker 2: they show in terms of what what scenes or conversations

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Speaker 2: you had or clips that you where you said certain things.

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Speaker 2: So you're just really hoping for the best for the best.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, and I will say I've had both times the

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Speaker 4: show aired I was. I was super anxious about it,

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Speaker 4: and this time, I would say even more so than

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Speaker 4: the first time, even though I would say the first

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Speaker 4: time there was way more room for like chopping things

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Speaker 4: up and like making me look a certain way, and

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Speaker 4: I was just kind of like, well, we'll see what happens.

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Speaker 1: But it was still anxious, but.

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Speaker 4: This time it was literally I was there for twenty

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Speaker 4: four hours, and the anxiety I felt from leaving until

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Speaker 4: it airing like I have not been this anxious since

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Speaker 4: I literally gone anxiety medication in twenty eight when I

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Speaker 4: thought I would, like I literally convinced myself that I

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Speaker 4: was dying. No I know, and and that was like

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Speaker 4: like staying up late like panic attacks like that was

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Speaker 4: like my pre bachelor era, and literally my life got

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Speaker 4: so much better. I like went to therapy, you know,

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Speaker 1: No I didn't. I didn't have the tools.

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Speaker 4: So it was like, really, I don't know why this

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Speaker 2: I also think there's something about being naive going into

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I didn't think it would be This is where

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Speaker 1: I didn't think it would be that big of a deal.

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Speaker 4: Like I knew there was gonna be a little bit

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Speaker 4: so like before we went, we were like in no contact,

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Speaker 4: We had a conversation, what's you know, fair to talk about?

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Speaker 4: What's not fair to talk about? There's so much love

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Speaker 4: there that we were like, we don't want to hurt

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Speaker 4: nobody wants to like talk about, you know, the things

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Speaker 4: that didn't work in a relationship. So we were just like,

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Speaker 4: let's just like protect each other, go have fun. It's

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Speaker 4: like kind of I mean, for most people, once in

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Speaker 1: I did not think it would like blow up the

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Speaker 4: I just was like, yeah, whatever, Like again, it was

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Speaker 1: Yes, it's fun.

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Speaker 2: You were pretty emotional, like right off the bat that

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Speaker 2: were you shocked by that or did you know that

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Speaker 2: it was going to be emotional coming in and being

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Speaker 4: I think, well, okay, So I mentioned this on a

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Speaker 4: different podcast as well, nixt podcast. I feel like this

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Speaker 1: Last actually, it's like I was so ready to have

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Speaker 4: Like everyone's tired, everyone's going to bed. I was like,

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Speaker 4: And I was literally, by the way, I got picked

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Speaker 1: I was like, I want to play, like I literally

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Speaker 4: And I was like I came in on such a buzzkill,

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Speaker 4: was like, okay, there's literally Dale, my ex, my ex's

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Speaker 3: Know, off limits.

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Speaker 1: And then who.

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Speaker 4: Else was Oh Spencer, And I was like Spencer very

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Speaker 4: don't think he's interested. Yes, I'm pretty sure. Even on Paradise,

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Speaker 4: And so then and right before coming, I had just

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Speaker 4: which is very emotional for me. I feel like I

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Speaker 1: And like, it's just a lot, and so.

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Speaker 4: Then of course, which I wouldn't expect the show to

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Speaker 4: I'm like, it's just a lot, and that's what makes

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Speaker 4: the cut, you know, which is fair, Like they why

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Speaker 2: Well, I mean it is kind of it is kind

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Speaker 2: it made it feel y'all's breakup was a lot more

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Speaker 2: So it just felt like to me as a viewer,

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Speaker 2: If he had if he and Lexi had stayed and

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Speaker 3: How would you have felt watching him date someone else?

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Speaker 4: I felt fine, Oh yeah, like I and I thought Lexi,

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Speaker 1: I was like, we are very similar. Like this is

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Speaker 4: Yeah, I was like, okay, and so yeah, I feel

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Speaker 4: like I don't know, I didn't feel weird about it

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Speaker 4: and I went through a lot in our relationship. We've

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Speaker 4: both grown so much and like poured into like healing

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Speaker 4: and being in therapy and like doing things to like

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Speaker 4: make ourselves better partners for the future. So I was like,

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Speaker 4: if you found somebody, like, I really didn't feel weird.

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Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know. I think I was

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Speaker 4: Maybe this is really lame to say, but I was like,

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Speaker 1: Yes, you're just selfish.

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Speaker 2: But I do though they brought you in with an

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Speaker 1: I was like, take the house, take it. Jill was like,

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Speaker 4: know what, I've been thinking about this since I got here.

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Speaker 2: Why did you do that?

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Speaker 4: bury my head in my pillow and cry. Well.

442
00:19:03,880 --> 00:19:05,840
Speaker 2: I don't think people realize, and I don't know if

443
00:19:05,840 --> 00:19:07,760
Speaker 2: it's changed at all, but when you go on Paradise,

444
00:19:07,880 --> 00:19:10,600
Speaker 2: you you just say like you're just saying I want

445
00:19:10,600 --> 00:19:13,600
Speaker 2: to go, but you have no control or awareness of

446
00:19:13,640 --> 00:19:15,919
Speaker 2: when you're going to be sent in, right, So like

447
00:19:16,520 --> 00:19:18,600
Speaker 2: you could literally go the last day for all you know,

448
00:19:18,720 --> 00:19:21,320
Speaker 2: I know, right, Like, yeah, that's still how it is.

449
00:19:21,800 --> 00:19:22,560
Speaker 1: Yeah, pretty much.

450
00:19:22,600 --> 00:19:24,480
Speaker 2: So you and Justin knew that you were both going,

451
00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:26,119
Speaker 2: but you didn't know if you were going to go

452
00:19:26,160 --> 00:19:28,399
Speaker 2: first or he would be there once you got there,

453
00:19:28,480 --> 00:19:29,000
Speaker 2: right I did?

454
00:19:29,040 --> 00:19:29,400
Speaker 1: I think?

455
00:19:29,880 --> 00:19:31,520
Speaker 4: I hope I'm allowed to share this, But the producers

456
00:19:31,520 --> 00:19:33,520
Speaker 4: did give me a headset that he was down there already,

457
00:19:33,640 --> 00:19:36,280
Speaker 4: because it was really nice of them. Yeah, I felt,

458
00:19:36,280 --> 00:19:38,320
Speaker 4: And I also like, I think I would have figured

459
00:19:38,359 --> 00:19:40,560
Speaker 4: it out because I was like, there's no way I'm

460
00:19:40,600 --> 00:19:43,520
Speaker 4: sitting in this hotel for nine days or whatever it was,

461
00:19:43,760 --> 00:19:47,160
Speaker 4: and Justin's not already down there. Yeah, there's no way

462
00:19:47,200 --> 00:19:50,440
Speaker 4: that we're both going to be late arrivals, you know, right, Like.

463
00:19:50,400 --> 00:19:52,760
Speaker 2: At the same time Bombshell was entering at the same time.

464
00:19:52,760 --> 00:19:54,359
Speaker 1: Imagine we walk in hand in hand.

465
00:19:55,200 --> 00:19:56,200
Speaker 3: They're like, why are they here?

466
00:19:56,560 --> 00:20:01,080
Speaker 2: Literally, so you talk after the show, you blow up

467
00:20:01,119 --> 00:20:04,560
Speaker 2: his phone? Yeah, and where are y'all? Now We're in

468
00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:06,800
Speaker 2: really good terms. We share a managers.

469
00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:11,280
Speaker 4: So we had been actively avoiding each other prior to Paradise,

470
00:20:11,880 --> 00:20:15,439
Speaker 4: Like we both were at stagecoach and I would somebody

471
00:20:15,440 --> 00:20:16,919
Speaker 4: would be like, oh, just so you know, Justin's on

472
00:20:16,920 --> 00:20:18,720
Speaker 4: the way, and I'd be like, great, I'm actually rapping

473
00:20:18,800 --> 00:20:19,240
Speaker 4: up my night.

474
00:20:20,080 --> 00:20:21,280
Speaker 2: I'm going to go home. Yeah.

475
00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:23,800
Speaker 1: So we were very much like I didn't want to

476
00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:24,359
Speaker 1: run into him.

477
00:20:24,400 --> 00:20:25,800
Speaker 4: I ran into him at the Super Bowl and I

478
00:20:25,800 --> 00:20:27,360
Speaker 4: think that was the last time I like ran into

479
00:20:27,440 --> 00:20:29,119
Speaker 4: him in the wild, which was in February.

480
00:20:29,240 --> 00:20:30,800
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I was.

481
00:20:30,760 --> 00:20:33,919
Speaker 4: Like, I don't want to do that again, Like I

482
00:20:33,960 --> 00:20:37,520
Speaker 4: just it was just like too much. I was like, I, yeah,

483
00:20:37,640 --> 00:20:43,359
Speaker 4: I don't want to run into him anywhere. And we

484
00:20:43,359 --> 00:20:46,760
Speaker 4: were in no contact. So coming off this show. It

485
00:20:46,800 --> 00:20:49,960
Speaker 4: definitely brought us back into each other's atmosphere. Like I

486
00:20:50,040 --> 00:20:52,440
Speaker 4: was immediately like we both were mad at each other.

487
00:20:52,520 --> 00:20:52,840
Speaker 2: Low key.

488
00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:54,040
Speaker 4: He was like, why didn't you take the rose? And

489
00:20:54,080 --> 00:20:55,800
Speaker 4: I'm like, why'd you give it to me? Like what

490
00:20:55,840 --> 00:20:59,359
Speaker 4: are we doing? Like, oh my gosh, but we both

491
00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:01,359
Speaker 4: were like I'm joking when I say we're mad at

492
00:21:01,359 --> 00:21:03,080
Speaker 4: each other because there was so much I was like,

493
00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:05,560
Speaker 4: I know that you were doing that with love for me,

494
00:21:06,080 --> 00:21:08,800
Speaker 4: and obviously when you paint the picture of like what

495
00:21:09,160 --> 00:21:12,679
Speaker 4: he was experiencing, I'm like, Okay, I get it, you

496
00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:15,920
Speaker 4: know I And then when he sees where I'm coming

497
00:21:15,920 --> 00:21:17,800
Speaker 4: from where he's like, oh, you literally just had a

498
00:21:17,840 --> 00:21:19,600
Speaker 4: conversation telling this girl to pursue me.

499
00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:23,360
Speaker 1: How crappy would that be if you are like, yeah,

500
00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:24,040
Speaker 1: date him?

501
00:21:24,119 --> 00:21:26,640
Speaker 4: Like we're moved on from each other, like blah blah blah.

502
00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:29,800
Speaker 4: And then all of a sudden, I'm like, actually, I'm

503
00:21:29,800 --> 00:21:32,399
Speaker 4: gonna take your rose. Like we both were just trying

504
00:21:32,400 --> 00:21:34,879
Speaker 4: to like be selfless. I think that's kind of a

505
00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:37,639
Speaker 4: thing that was happening. And so we went on a

506
00:21:37,640 --> 00:21:40,239
Speaker 4: trip with our management company in Mexico. So I'm like,

507
00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:43,600
Speaker 4: we're hanging out in Mexico doing like partying, having fun

508
00:21:43,720 --> 00:21:47,359
Speaker 4: like whatever. There have been like pick up all events

509
00:21:47,359 --> 00:21:51,040
Speaker 4: that our management company is either a part of or throwing.

510
00:21:51,880 --> 00:21:54,760
Speaker 4: We share a lot of the same friends, so we've

511
00:21:54,800 --> 00:21:58,880
Speaker 4: not divvied up the friend group in the divorce yet,

512
00:21:59,000 --> 00:22:00,840
Speaker 4: you know, like some people you're like, oh, who did

513
00:22:00,840 --> 00:22:03,960
Speaker 4: you get in the breakup? We still share a lot

514
00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:05,959
Speaker 4: of our same friends, and so for a long time

515
00:22:06,040 --> 00:22:07,639
Speaker 4: it was like, Okay, well, game night this week is

516
00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:10,600
Speaker 4: not with Justin or not with Suzie or whatever. Yeah,

517
00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:12,920
Speaker 4: and now we're just you know, we're on really great

518
00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:15,080
Speaker 4: terms and like I think we love each other so much,

519
00:22:15,119 --> 00:22:16,600
Speaker 4: and like probably if.

520
00:22:16,480 --> 00:22:20,400
Speaker 1: We were to ever move on from each other, we'd

521
00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:21,280
Speaker 1: have to probably go back.

522
00:22:21,280 --> 00:22:23,760
Speaker 4: And I just don't think an ex or a future

523
00:22:23,760 --> 00:22:25,920
Speaker 4: boyfriend or a girlfriend would be like, yeah, I'm totally

524
00:22:26,000 --> 00:22:26,480
Speaker 4: cool with this.

525
00:22:26,640 --> 00:22:27,040
Speaker 2: They won't.

526
00:22:27,160 --> 00:22:30,359
Speaker 4: Yeah, so we're gonna have to figure that out and

527
00:22:30,440 --> 00:22:32,520
Speaker 4: maybe divvy up the friend group or go back to

528
00:22:32,560 --> 00:22:33,280
Speaker 4: coexisting the.

529
00:22:33,200 --> 00:22:35,119
Speaker 2: Way we were before the show talk about getting back

530
00:22:35,160 --> 00:22:37,000
Speaker 2: together after all this or I mean.

531
00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:39,800
Speaker 4: We've definitely had conversations of like I think that That's

532
00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:42,520
Speaker 4: the thing though, is like when you're in no contact,

533
00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:46,560
Speaker 4: Like it's much easier to like actually move on, Like

534
00:22:46,600 --> 00:22:50,240
Speaker 4: we were both dating other people and like you know, yeah,

535
00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:53,800
Speaker 4: moving forward, And I think now it's like a lot

536
00:22:53,800 --> 00:22:57,040
Speaker 4: of it was just relying on each other for emotional

537
00:22:57,040 --> 00:22:59,399
Speaker 4: support as the show was coming out. Also, kind of

538
00:22:59,400 --> 00:23:01,240
Speaker 4: what we were talking about before we started is like

539
00:23:01,680 --> 00:23:05,000
Speaker 4: there's so much anxiety like leading up to like how

540
00:23:05,040 --> 00:23:06,000
Speaker 4: is this going to play out?

541
00:23:06,080 --> 00:23:07,920
Speaker 1: Like is just going to get a villain?

542
00:23:08,359 --> 00:23:08,520
Speaker 3: Edit?

543
00:23:08,600 --> 00:23:09,760
Speaker 1: Am I going to get a villain?

544
00:23:09,960 --> 00:23:13,879
Speaker 4: Edit? Like we just were so anxious and like it

545
00:23:13,920 --> 00:23:16,280
Speaker 4: was nice to have each other to like as friends,

546
00:23:16,320 --> 00:23:19,720
Speaker 4: to rely on and be like hey, like I appreciate you.

547
00:23:20,040 --> 00:23:23,800
Speaker 4: I understand where you're coming from, But I think right

548
00:23:23,840 --> 00:23:25,919
Speaker 4: now it wouldn't make sense for us to get back together.

549
00:23:25,960 --> 00:23:30,560
Speaker 4: I think we're both like really working on healing and

550
00:23:30,600 --> 00:23:32,520
Speaker 4: like I think we both have a lot of like

551
00:23:32,640 --> 00:23:35,800
Speaker 4: individual growth before we would be ready to like either

552
00:23:35,880 --> 00:23:39,159
Speaker 4: visit a relationship with each other or even like in

553
00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:41,919
Speaker 4: general just like going through this experience, Like I was like,

554
00:23:42,040 --> 00:23:45,040
Speaker 4: really I was like, gen I feel like I had

555
00:23:45,040 --> 00:23:46,840
Speaker 4: to like mourn without the experience. Like I was so

556
00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:50,040
Speaker 4: excited to like do something again with the Bachelor, and

557
00:23:50,080 --> 00:23:53,280
Speaker 4: it was just such a big disappointment. I was like

558
00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:56,600
Speaker 4: pretty low about it for a while, and I really

559
00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:57,000
Speaker 4: regret it.

560
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:58,800
Speaker 1: I still kind of just wish I hadn't gone.

561
00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:01,879
Speaker 4: I'm like, I just wish I had not gone back,

562
00:24:02,240 --> 00:24:04,119
Speaker 4: even though like they treated me fine and like they

563
00:24:04,119 --> 00:24:05,240
Speaker 4: didn't do anything bad to me.

564
00:24:05,280 --> 00:24:06,600
Speaker 1: It's just that like the situation.

565
00:24:06,840 --> 00:24:11,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, I just wish I hadn't gone. But yeah, I

566
00:24:11,080 --> 00:24:12,800
Speaker 4: think we Yeah, I think we're both just like focused

567
00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:15,760
Speaker 4: on individually healing and if that were to be a

568
00:24:15,800 --> 00:24:18,480
Speaker 4: conversation later, like it would be down the road.

569
00:24:18,560 --> 00:24:21,119
Speaker 1: But when we've both like been in some intensive therapy.

570
00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:25,080
Speaker 2: Okay, so it sounds like as of right now you're

571
00:24:25,119 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 2: not each other's person, but it's not fully off the table,

572
00:24:28,359 --> 00:24:29,720
Speaker 2: like you're not like never again.

573
00:24:30,119 --> 00:24:32,000
Speaker 4: I yeah, I don't feel that way, and I didn't

574
00:24:32,000 --> 00:24:34,160
Speaker 4: feel that way before, but I but it was enough

575
00:24:34,160 --> 00:24:37,560
Speaker 4: for us both to be like we can't be in contact,

576
00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,520
Speaker 4: you know what I mean, Like, yeah, before the show,

577
00:24:40,560 --> 00:24:44,400
Speaker 4: it was like you broke up in early January, ran

578
00:24:44,440 --> 00:24:46,920
Speaker 4: into each other in February. But during that whole time,

579
00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:49,200
Speaker 4: it's like we were like this isn't We're never gonna

580
00:24:49,200 --> 00:24:51,520
Speaker 4: be able to move on if we like stay friends.

581
00:24:52,000 --> 00:24:53,720
Speaker 2: So I just don't think there's any way to do

582
00:24:53,920 --> 00:24:56,400
Speaker 2: like I think you have to. I think no contact

583
00:24:56,440 --> 00:24:58,159
Speaker 2: sounds like the hardest thing in the world, but I

584
00:24:58,200 --> 00:25:00,639
Speaker 2: also think it's the only way to to move on

585
00:25:01,080 --> 00:25:03,560
Speaker 2: from someone. I agree, especially when y'all have a lot

586
00:25:03,600 --> 00:25:05,840
Speaker 2: of love and respect and it's not like someone did

587
00:25:06,320 --> 00:25:09,200
Speaker 2: as far as I know, something like that you can't

588
00:25:09,280 --> 00:25:11,600
Speaker 2: come back from. It was more just like we need

589
00:25:12,040 --> 00:25:14,600
Speaker 2: to like be on our own to grow, but like

590
00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:18,359
Speaker 2: there wasn't anything catastrophic that happened, which almost makes it harder.

591
00:25:18,400 --> 00:25:21,480
Speaker 2: Like sometimes you doesn't wish someone did something terrible literally

592
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:23,280
Speaker 2: so you had a reason to be like I never

593
00:25:23,320 --> 00:25:24,280
Speaker 2: want to talk to you again.

594
00:25:24,359 --> 00:25:27,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, that would make it so easy, It really would.

595
00:25:27,119 --> 00:25:29,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, And even I feel like people always say like, oh,

596
00:25:29,640 --> 00:25:31,560
Speaker 4: you and Clayton stayed friends, and I'm like, yeah, but

597
00:25:31,600 --> 00:25:35,000
Speaker 4: we also went a full month without any communication, like

598
00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:38,199
Speaker 4: no contact, and then we were going to be at

599
00:25:38,240 --> 00:25:40,119
Speaker 4: an event together or something, and we reached back out.

600
00:25:40,160 --> 00:25:44,720
Speaker 4: We had a conversation. We both like time heals so much.

601
00:25:45,600 --> 00:25:48,760
Speaker 4: And yes, I would personally say me and Clayton are

602
00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,520
Speaker 4: on great terms, but like we're not friends.

603
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:53,879
Speaker 2: You know, I like talking on the daily or hanging

604
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:54,639
Speaker 2: out totally.

605
00:25:54,760 --> 00:25:56,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, So I feel like and I think because our

606
00:25:56,720 --> 00:25:59,000
Speaker 4: lives are public, like it probably gets this label of like, oh,

607
00:25:59,000 --> 00:26:00,760
Speaker 4: I'm still friends with my exit. I'm like, well, we're

608
00:26:00,760 --> 00:26:03,080
Speaker 4: not actually like friends, but I still care about the

609
00:26:03,119 --> 00:26:06,040
Speaker 4: person and like, you know, respect him or whatever.

610
00:26:06,119 --> 00:26:10,080
Speaker 2: But yeah, well I wanted to ask about your reality

611
00:26:10,119 --> 00:26:11,520
Speaker 2: TV day since she brought it up.

612
00:26:11,520 --> 00:26:13,119
Speaker 3: But we're going to take a break and we'll be

613
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:29,600
Speaker 3: right back. All right, we're back.

614
00:26:29,680 --> 00:26:32,280
Speaker 2: So first of all, you're a big reality TV girl,

615
00:26:32,359 --> 00:26:33,720
Speaker 2: because I was listening to your podcast.

616
00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:34,879
Speaker 3: I was listening to The Vile.

617
00:26:34,760 --> 00:26:36,840
Speaker 2: Files with you on it, and I was like, she

618
00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:38,720
Speaker 2: loves you love reality TV?

619
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:42,119
Speaker 4: Yeah, ever since going on it? Oh really yeah not

620
00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:43,600
Speaker 4: before never before.

621
00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:45,960
Speaker 2: Interesting See yeah, I guess I kind of was the

622
00:26:45,960 --> 00:26:50,440
Speaker 2: same way, but more so Haley loves reality TV. So like, yeah,

623
00:26:50,480 --> 00:26:50,960
Speaker 2: she is a.

624
00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:52,120
Speaker 3: Huge Bachelor fan.

625
00:26:52,400 --> 00:26:53,240
Speaker 1: That's so funny.

626
00:26:53,359 --> 00:26:55,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, And she tried to lie and say she hadn't

627
00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:57,359
Speaker 2: watched my seasons, but then I found out she did.

628
00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:00,320
Speaker 2: It's like it's okay, like it's a big show. It's

629
00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:03,760
Speaker 2: not like this like niche like embarrassing show that no.

630
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:05,679
Speaker 1: One watches like ninety eight Fiance or.

631
00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 2: Something like Jenner Branderson watches at the time, watch The Bachelor.

632
00:27:09,359 --> 00:27:11,760
Speaker 2: So I'm like, you're fine, Yeah, you can admit it.

633
00:27:11,880 --> 00:27:16,399
Speaker 2: But anyways, so now I'm into reality TV. But I

634
00:27:16,440 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 2: heard you talking about how Love Island was just like

635
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,680
Speaker 2: disappointing this season compared to last season, which I think

636
00:27:21,760 --> 00:27:25,760
Speaker 2: was the sentiment of the USA as a whole. Yeah,

637
00:27:25,800 --> 00:27:28,720
Speaker 2: And I didn't watch last season live, so I tried

638
00:27:28,760 --> 00:27:30,719
Speaker 2: to binge it to talk about on the podcast, but

639
00:27:30,760 --> 00:27:33,000
Speaker 2: it was like thirty episodes that I had to binge,

640
00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:34,680
Speaker 2: and I think I did it in like a week,

641
00:27:34,840 --> 00:27:38,000
Speaker 2: which was a brain rot that I don't wish on anyone.

642
00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:41,359
Speaker 2: And so I kind of hated it because I was like,

643
00:27:41,400 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 2: I don't get the appeal. Yeah, and then I watched

644
00:27:44,040 --> 00:27:45,840
Speaker 2: this season live and I was like, I get the

645
00:27:45,920 --> 00:27:48,399
Speaker 2: camaraderie of like all of us being in it together,

646
00:27:49,119 --> 00:27:52,439
Speaker 2: but I agree, there was just this lack of rooting

647
00:27:52,520 --> 00:27:53,120
Speaker 2: for anyone.

648
00:27:53,280 --> 00:27:56,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, That's how I felt. I was like, I feel

649
00:27:56,680 --> 00:28:01,520
Speaker 1: like there's no like genuine connection to like I don't

650
00:28:01,520 --> 00:28:04,520
Speaker 1: know the root for Like, it just felt like I

651
00:28:04,560 --> 00:28:04,879
Speaker 1: don't know.

652
00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:08,119
Speaker 4: It was not and don't get me wrong. Individually, I

653
00:28:08,240 --> 00:28:09,800
Speaker 4: like a lot of them, and I'm like, oh, they

654
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:13,199
Speaker 4: were great like people to watch and individually root for,

655
00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:17,040
Speaker 4: But there weren't a lot of couples with like highs,

656
00:28:17,119 --> 00:28:18,879
Speaker 4: lows pits.

657
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:21,399
Speaker 1: Yeah, like peaks. I was just like and then like

658
00:28:21,480 --> 00:28:22,200
Speaker 1: cosa more.

659
00:28:22,320 --> 00:28:24,800
Speaker 4: I'm like, what a brilliant twist of a show, But

660
00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:27,320
Speaker 4: like there was, it doesn't make any sense when there's

661
00:28:27,320 --> 00:28:27,840
Speaker 4: no couples.

662
00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:30,320
Speaker 1: It was like, what's the point, what's the point?

663
00:28:30,880 --> 00:28:32,960
Speaker 4: Save them or just send them all in, send a

664
00:28:32,960 --> 00:28:34,960
Speaker 4: bunch of bombshells and let it just be chaos.

665
00:28:35,080 --> 00:28:38,360
Speaker 2: Yes, but you were talking about how different it feels

666
00:28:38,400 --> 00:28:40,240
Speaker 2: to watch, y'all. We're talking about how different it feels

667
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:43,040
Speaker 2: to watch people kiss on Love Island make out on

668
00:28:43,080 --> 00:28:45,959
Speaker 2: Love Island versus Bachelor and Paradise. And it was so

669
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:50,120
Speaker 2: jarring to go from Bachelor and from Love Island challenges

670
00:28:50,160 --> 00:28:53,440
Speaker 2: to that challenge on Bachelorne Paradise where they were in.

671
00:28:53,400 --> 00:28:56,160
Speaker 1: The tent to kissing booth. Yeah, why is that?

672
00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:56,440
Speaker 2: Though?

673
00:28:56,480 --> 00:28:56,960
Speaker 3: Do you think?

674
00:28:57,440 --> 00:29:01,240
Speaker 1: I that's a great question, And I don't know.

675
00:29:01,320 --> 00:29:04,040
Speaker 4: I feel like so, I was like listening to some

676
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:07,040
Speaker 4: people talk about Love Island through the context of like

677
00:29:07,280 --> 00:29:12,920
Speaker 4: they'll do these crazy, like sexualized challenges where they're literally

678
00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:17,600
Speaker 4: like it's like sometimes like soft porn, Like it's bizarre,

679
00:29:18,040 --> 00:29:19,320
Speaker 4: and it's kind of like it kind of got to

680
00:29:19,360 --> 00:29:19,920
Speaker 4: be too much for me.

681
00:29:19,960 --> 00:29:21,320
Speaker 1: This season. I was like, I don't know that I'm

682
00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:24,400
Speaker 1: like into this, like, oh, it's a little Actually.

683
00:29:24,240 --> 00:29:26,200
Speaker 3: The milk thing was so gross.

684
00:29:26,360 --> 00:29:29,760
Speaker 2: I was physically like I can't watch this. Yeah, And

685
00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:32,640
Speaker 2: then the makeout sessions and they're grinding on each other

686
00:29:32,840 --> 00:29:33,080
Speaker 2: I know.

687
00:29:33,640 --> 00:29:37,440
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm like, are we getting old or is it?

688
00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:40,520
Speaker 2: Like I feel literally like a grandma. I have my

689
00:29:40,560 --> 00:29:42,960
Speaker 2: grandma now like these children on TV.

690
00:29:43,280 --> 00:29:44,040
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh.

691
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:47,320
Speaker 4: But then they go from these challenges to then being

692
00:29:47,400 --> 00:29:49,000
Speaker 4: in the villa and it's like, oh, we haven't made

693
00:29:49,000 --> 00:29:51,080
Speaker 4: out yet outside of a challenge, yes, And I'm like

694
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:54,920
Speaker 4: what you're literally like practically doing it, and then you

695
00:29:55,000 --> 00:29:57,239
Speaker 4: like don't kiss outside of a challenge, Like that's so

696
00:29:57,320 --> 00:30:00,480
Speaker 4: bizarre to me. Where I feel like in the back world,

697
00:30:00,480 --> 00:30:03,280
Speaker 4: it's like or at least this season, it's like there's

698
00:30:03,560 --> 00:30:07,880
Speaker 4: these challenges now and they're like maybe maybe the thing

699
00:30:07,960 --> 00:30:12,680
Speaker 4: is that like the Bachelor's like romanticized in a sense,

700
00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:14,720
Speaker 4: like I think of The Bachelor, it's more romantic.

701
00:30:15,080 --> 00:30:16,480
Speaker 1: But I don't know how you felt on the show.

702
00:30:16,800 --> 00:30:19,920
Speaker 4: I was like, oh my gosh, like this is too

703
00:30:20,040 --> 00:30:22,080
Speaker 4: romantic for me, like when something would be like so

704
00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:24,680
Speaker 4: grand and like oh yeah, I was like, I don't

705
00:30:24,720 --> 00:30:26,959
Speaker 4: even know you, but like this is like really a

706
00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:30,040
Speaker 4: big gesture where like, I don't know, it just felt

707
00:30:30,080 --> 00:30:31,520
Speaker 4: like there's a lot of pressure on these moments to

708
00:30:31,560 --> 00:30:33,600
Speaker 4: be like beautiful and romantic where it's like you're in

709
00:30:33,640 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 4: this like flowy like like kissing booth, and I was like,

710
00:30:37,280 --> 00:30:39,400
Speaker 4: it just is like it's like a juxtaposition.

711
00:30:39,480 --> 00:30:40,160
Speaker 2: It's weird.

712
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:41,480
Speaker 3: I agree.

713
00:30:41,520 --> 00:30:44,720
Speaker 2: I think The Bachelor has always almost like I think

714
00:30:44,760 --> 00:30:49,200
Speaker 2: it prides itself on this like romantic love story that

715
00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:51,960
Speaker 2: they're trying to create, and there's always been a there's

716
00:30:51,960 --> 00:30:55,560
Speaker 2: always been a type of person that they have on

717
00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:57,760
Speaker 2: the show, especially when it comes to the women, and

718
00:30:57,840 --> 00:31:00,600
Speaker 2: so I think that seeing them try to into this

719
00:31:00,680 --> 00:31:04,560
Speaker 2: like challenge space of like chemistry tests and what Love

720
00:31:04,600 --> 00:31:06,680
Speaker 2: Island's doing feels forced.

721
00:31:06,480 --> 00:31:09,720
Speaker 5: Because it's like that's not why people watch the Bachelor franchise.

722
00:31:10,200 --> 00:31:14,360
Speaker 2: But yeah, I remember on a group date, Chris Souls

723
00:31:14,440 --> 00:31:18,680
Speaker 2: took me up to this like the rooftop. Yeah, and

724
00:31:18,760 --> 00:31:21,959
Speaker 2: had like all this like moment romantic and I just

725
00:31:21,960 --> 00:31:25,960
Speaker 2: listened to all the girls talk about making out with him,

726
00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:27,160
Speaker 2: and so I go up there.

727
00:31:27,400 --> 00:31:28,760
Speaker 3: I'm like a virgin.

728
00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:34,000
Speaker 2: I'm like very selective of who I've kissed, and I'm like,

729
00:31:34,120 --> 00:31:37,280
Speaker 2: my parents are gonna be watching this, and I felt

730
00:31:37,280 --> 00:31:38,560
Speaker 2: like he was gonna kiss me, and I was like

731
00:31:38,720 --> 00:31:41,240
Speaker 2: I don't want to kiss right, Like, if we're gonna kiss,

732
00:31:41,320 --> 00:31:43,200
Speaker 2: I wanted to be like our moment and not on

733
00:31:43,240 --> 00:31:45,800
Speaker 2: a group day where you just kissed everyone. So I

734
00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:48,440
Speaker 2: really felt what you're talking about, where like everything felt

735
00:31:48,560 --> 00:31:52,200
Speaker 2: very grand and like trying to make it romantic. Yes,

736
00:31:52,240 --> 00:31:55,480
Speaker 2: but I'm like he just made up with every other

737
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,600
Speaker 2: girl in this state, and I'm like the last one.

738
00:31:58,040 --> 00:32:02,560
Speaker 4: I literally I remember were seeing Clayton with lipstick on

739
00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:05,760
Speaker 4: his slip at one point and I was like, get

740
00:32:05,760 --> 00:32:06,239
Speaker 4: me out of here.

741
00:32:06,800 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 1: I'm tapping out. I was like I can't because yeah,

742
00:32:09,400 --> 00:32:11,560
Speaker 1: I just knew in one girl.

743
00:32:11,560 --> 00:32:13,480
Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, Like I think it was Eliza. Literally

744
00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:15,960
Speaker 4: loved her. She was so it was such a funny moment.

745
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:17,880
Speaker 4: She came back and like or she like put lipless

746
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:18,520
Speaker 4: on before she left.

747
00:32:18,560 --> 00:32:18,920
Speaker 1: She came back.

748
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:20,640
Speaker 4: Her lips were like dry as a bone, and we

749
00:32:20,640 --> 00:32:23,239
Speaker 4: were like, we know what you were doing. But then

750
00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:25,800
Speaker 4: it's like, okay, Susie, it's your turn, and you're like, oh,

751
00:32:26,120 --> 00:32:27,920
Speaker 4: like I cannot.

752
00:32:27,680 --> 00:32:28,800
Speaker 3: Like what number am I?

753
00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:29,440
Speaker 1: Literally?

754
00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:31,840
Speaker 2: And they also don't show that it's a turn thing,

755
00:32:31,960 --> 00:32:34,320
Speaker 2: like they just think that we go up and interrupt

756
00:32:34,400 --> 00:32:36,680
Speaker 2: when we want, but there is like an order to it,

757
00:32:36,800 --> 00:32:40,280
Speaker 2: so you don't really get to choose your your moment

758
00:32:40,400 --> 00:32:42,680
Speaker 2: of when you get to kiss him, if you were

759
00:32:42,680 --> 00:32:44,640
Speaker 2: going to kiss him, I know, but yeah, there was

760
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:48,240
Speaker 2: Caitlin Bristow would wear this like really bold lip color

761
00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:50,800
Speaker 2: and I'd be like, I know, he has that all

762
00:32:50,800 --> 00:32:52,800
Speaker 2: over his face. So she'd come back and I'm like,

763
00:32:53,240 --> 00:32:59,160
Speaker 2: you just got purple lipstick all over She'd be so funny. Okay,

764
00:32:59,200 --> 00:33:02,240
Speaker 2: so your reality TV days, Yes, in the dating world,

765
00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:03,800
Speaker 2: are you? Are you retired?

766
00:33:03,880 --> 00:33:06,640
Speaker 1: I have to be done. Unfortunately, what if?

767
00:33:06,760 --> 00:33:07,080
Speaker 2: What if?

768
00:33:07,440 --> 00:33:08,960
Speaker 3: What if Love Island came to you?

769
00:33:09,120 --> 00:33:10,320
Speaker 1: Okay, never Love Island.

770
00:33:10,480 --> 00:33:13,160
Speaker 4: I've been I like did a funny bit where I

771
00:33:13,280 --> 00:33:14,920
Speaker 4: tried to be funny bit where I was like, I'm

772
00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:17,960
Speaker 4: trying to get recruited by Love Island. Meanwhile, I'd already

773
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:19,760
Speaker 4: filmed Bachelor in Paradise, so I was like, I know,

774
00:33:20,000 --> 00:33:21,959
Speaker 4: like my contract wouldn't let me go anyways, but I

775
00:33:22,000 --> 00:33:23,760
Speaker 4: was just doing it as a bit and I went

776
00:33:23,800 --> 00:33:25,440
Speaker 4: home to visit my parents and my mom was.

777
00:33:25,400 --> 00:33:27,080
Speaker 1: Like, are you trying to go on that show? And

778
00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:28,920
Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, Mom, No, I was like,

779
00:33:28,960 --> 00:33:31,560
Speaker 1: it's just for the internet. Like I'm literally just trying

780
00:33:31,560 --> 00:33:32,960
Speaker 1: to get like I'm just clock chasing it.

781
00:33:33,400 --> 00:33:34,640
Speaker 3: This is this is content.

782
00:33:34,680 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 2: It's content.

783
00:33:35,320 --> 00:33:37,800
Speaker 4: I'm I'm literally writing the coattails of the biggest show

784
00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:40,320
Speaker 4: of the season, you know, like don't worry.

785
00:33:40,600 --> 00:33:41,880
Speaker 1: So like, no, I could never go.

786
00:33:41,960 --> 00:33:43,880
Speaker 4: I don't think I would even like be the prototype

787
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:46,040
Speaker 4: of what would go on anyways, but like I also

788
00:33:46,120 --> 00:33:49,800
Speaker 4: couldn't do it. I did get contacted by a show

789
00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:53,480
Speaker 4: actich I can't say what show, but I like considered

790
00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:55,720
Speaker 4: it for a hot minute coming off Paradise, and then

791
00:33:55,760 --> 00:33:58,120
Speaker 4: it's kind of when I hit the lull, the anxiety,

792
00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:00,880
Speaker 4: the like just feeling really sad about it, and I

793
00:34:00,920 --> 00:34:04,920
Speaker 4: was I was like, hey, appreciate the like so appreciate

794
00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:07,160
Speaker 4: you reaching out, but like I'm going to pass. And

795
00:34:07,160 --> 00:34:09,239
Speaker 4: then like the next day I was like, should I

796
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:11,160
Speaker 4: have done that, and then I was like, no, that's

797
00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:11,920
Speaker 4: the right decision.

798
00:34:12,080 --> 00:34:15,040
Speaker 1: And I think now I'm like.

799
00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:17,680
Speaker 4: I wanted to, like I would I want to do

800
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:20,960
Speaker 4: reality TV again, I'm like down, yeah, but like, what

801
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:22,880
Speaker 4: what is my pivot? I'm like, do I do like

802
00:34:22,920 --> 00:34:26,040
Speaker 4: the challenge or like Big Brother Survivor or something that's

803
00:34:26,080 --> 00:34:28,160
Speaker 4: like more challenge related.

804
00:34:28,840 --> 00:34:33,040
Speaker 2: I I've always wanted and I think they did it

805
00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:35,279
Speaker 2: with Bachelor Game.

806
00:34:35,600 --> 00:34:36,280
Speaker 3: They did something.

807
00:34:36,320 --> 00:34:38,080
Speaker 2: I know they did Winter Games, but like there weren't

808
00:34:38,120 --> 00:34:39,440
Speaker 2: they weren't really challenges.

809
00:34:39,600 --> 00:34:42,200
Speaker 5: Yeah, I wish they would do a road Rules type

810
00:34:42,360 --> 00:34:46,040
Speaker 5: show with like actual challenges, but with former Bachelor people

811
00:34:46,120 --> 00:34:50,080
Speaker 5: or Bachelor people and if people spark a romance, great,

812
00:34:50,440 --> 00:34:52,880
Speaker 5: kind of like show Rules, but that's not the goal

813
00:34:52,920 --> 00:34:54,560
Speaker 5: of the show, which I know they would never do

814
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:56,319
Speaker 5: because the whole goal is to get a rose whatever.

815
00:34:56,560 --> 00:34:58,719
Speaker 2: Right, But I've always wanted them to do that.

816
00:34:58,920 --> 00:35:02,040
Speaker 4: I would like that feels very on brand for what

817
00:35:02,120 --> 00:35:05,719
Speaker 4: I would want to do. Like that, Like I jokingly

818
00:35:05,760 --> 00:35:08,520
Speaker 4: said in my like farewell post to Paradise, was like

819
00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:10,240
Speaker 4: like I just wanted to like go have summer camp.

820
00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:12,080
Speaker 1: Like it felt when I got there, I was like,

821
00:35:12,120 --> 00:35:12,680
Speaker 1: this is so fun.

822
00:35:12,680 --> 00:35:14,120
Speaker 4: I'm here with a bunch of people, and like, I

823
00:35:14,200 --> 00:35:16,600
Speaker 4: was so excited to like make new friends and like,

824
00:35:17,000 --> 00:35:18,320
Speaker 4: and I was like, that would be more like summer

825
00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:20,160
Speaker 4: camp if I got to stay. Because I actually didn't

826
00:35:20,160 --> 00:35:23,080
Speaker 4: have a connection, I guess, so what, you know, why

827
00:35:23,120 --> 00:35:27,080
Speaker 4: would I be there? But I'm like, that's what I want, Like,

828
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:29,000
Speaker 4: I just want to like hang out and have fun.

829
00:35:29,560 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 2: If the gold did the Goldens come in while.

830
00:35:31,320 --> 00:35:32,879
Speaker 1: You were there, they came the next day.

831
00:35:32,920 --> 00:35:35,439
Speaker 2: If they had come and you and one of the

832
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:40,839
Speaker 2: men had, they might be more interested in you. Would

833
00:35:40,920 --> 00:35:41,960
Speaker 2: you accept their rose?

834
00:35:44,480 --> 00:35:45,480
Speaker 1: That's a good question.

835
00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:50,640
Speaker 4: If April was giving the rose to Jonathan the same week,

836
00:35:50,760 --> 00:35:52,920
Speaker 4: then yeah, like sure, but not to.

837
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:53,880
Speaker 3: Be the lone ranger.

838
00:35:55,120 --> 00:35:55,880
Speaker 1: I don't think so.

839
00:35:56,840 --> 00:35:58,560
Speaker 4: I mean, I don't think I would say no. I

840
00:35:58,560 --> 00:36:02,120
Speaker 4: think i'd probably do says, Oh, Gary's great.

841
00:36:01,920 --> 00:36:04,320
Speaker 2: I know, and he's fun. Yeah, and he doesn't feel

842
00:36:04,320 --> 00:36:07,640
Speaker 2: like that old to me. No, Yeah, he has a

843
00:36:07,719 --> 00:36:08,800
Speaker 2: very youthful spirit.

844
00:36:09,000 --> 00:36:11,560
Speaker 1: I agree. We'd be coming out of the car together

845
00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:12,160
Speaker 1: dancing with.

846
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:13,799
Speaker 2: I think Kaylee would let me go on if I

847
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:14,960
Speaker 2: could connect with Garrett.

848
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:18,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's a that's a fair ask, I think, But no,

849
00:36:18,280 --> 00:36:19,799
Speaker 4: I think if there was no pressure for it to

850
00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 4: be a romantic connection. I'd be like, yeah, let's yeah,

851
00:36:22,239 --> 00:36:26,560
Speaker 4: let's team up, let's do this, like for yeah, let's get.

852
00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:28,880
Speaker 2: Let's speak to money. Because they've added this money out.

853
00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:31,600
Speaker 2: The Bachelor Paradises thrown me for a loop because every

854
00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:35,040
Speaker 2: preview there's new rules. I'm like, wait, yeah, I feel

855
00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:38,160
Speaker 2: again feeling old because they're switching it up on me.

856
00:36:38,480 --> 00:36:39,359
Speaker 3: What do you think about that?

857
00:36:39,400 --> 00:36:41,560
Speaker 1: By the way, the money, well, like all of it.

858
00:36:41,560 --> 00:36:43,960
Speaker 2: It's like the camera's changed. They have this like all

859
00:36:43,960 --> 00:36:47,040
Speaker 2: the slow most stuff. The intro like yeah, had its

860
00:36:47,120 --> 00:36:49,920
Speaker 2: thing for so long and it was not just like

861
00:36:49,960 --> 00:36:51,200
Speaker 2: a gradual shift.

862
00:36:51,280 --> 00:36:54,800
Speaker 3: It was this like new location, Yeah, new I think.

863
00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:59,799
Speaker 2: Director, Yeah yeah, but what do you think of someone

864
00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:01,080
Speaker 2: who watch the show?

865
00:37:01,360 --> 00:37:01,920
Speaker 1: Oh?

866
00:37:02,800 --> 00:37:07,239
Speaker 4: You know, how do I say this? Because I love it.

867
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:09,960
Speaker 4: I'm just sick to my stomach. I came in with

868
00:37:09,960 --> 00:37:13,720
Speaker 4: an umbrella, that is what I think. I'm like, I

869
00:37:13,840 --> 00:37:16,400
Speaker 4: was so here for the rebrand, like I am a

870
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:17,400
Speaker 4: wedding videographer.

871
00:37:17,480 --> 00:37:20,239
Speaker 1: I love slow motion. I love a drone shot. Like

872
00:37:20,680 --> 00:37:23,000
Speaker 1: I was out on the Seado making hearts with Jeremy.

873
00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:24,880
Speaker 4: I was like, you start here, I'll start there, Like

874
00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:27,600
Speaker 4: let's make a heart for the drone, Like I was like, so,

875
00:37:27,640 --> 00:37:29,919
Speaker 4: I'm like, I love this so to come in with

876
00:37:30,080 --> 00:37:32,600
Speaker 4: my the way I came in. I'm sorry if you

877
00:37:32,600 --> 00:37:35,400
Speaker 4: guys are sick of hearing about it, because I literally

878
00:37:35,600 --> 00:37:37,920
Speaker 4: was like so bombed, and then watching it back, I

879
00:37:37,960 --> 00:37:40,160
Speaker 4: was like, I wasn't even in slow motion with the umbrella.

880
00:37:40,440 --> 00:37:42,800
Speaker 4: I was just in twenty four frames per second or

881
00:37:42,840 --> 00:37:44,799
Speaker 4: whatever they shoot in thirty maybe I don't know, And

882
00:37:44,840 --> 00:37:46,759
Speaker 4: I was like, this is just so sad for me.

883
00:37:47,120 --> 00:37:49,640
Speaker 4: So I actually love the cinematography of it. I'm like,

884
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:52,320
Speaker 4: I love the rebrand. And I haven't been a Bachelor

885
00:37:52,320 --> 00:37:55,440
Speaker 4: fan for so long, like I started watching like when

886
00:37:55,480 --> 00:37:57,120
Speaker 4: they first contacted me, which was a couple of years

887
00:37:57,120 --> 00:38:00,839
Speaker 4: before I went on, And so I don't have this

888
00:38:00,960 --> 00:38:04,080
Speaker 4: like emotional connection to the old like way that they shoot.

889
00:38:04,239 --> 00:38:07,200
Speaker 4: And I think that I've been saying, I'm like, they

890
00:38:07,200 --> 00:38:09,240
Speaker 4: need a rebrand, they need a rebrand, they need a rebrand,

891
00:38:09,320 --> 00:38:11,239
Speaker 4: and now they did it, and I'm like, I love it.

892
00:38:11,239 --> 00:38:13,879
Speaker 1: It's a little blue, like the tint is a little

893
00:38:14,239 --> 00:38:15,200
Speaker 1: it's a little blue.

894
00:38:16,640 --> 00:38:19,319
Speaker 4: But also like maybe that's a psychology hack because people

895
00:38:19,400 --> 00:38:22,000
Speaker 4: love the color blue. It makes you like gravitate towards things.

896
00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:24,800
Speaker 4: Maybe they're like, shoot, they're like, I don't feel election.

897
00:38:25,120 --> 00:38:27,120
Speaker 4: I'm not feeling the blue. No, I just I don't like.

898
00:38:27,200 --> 00:38:27,239
Speaker 1: No.

899
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:32,239
Speaker 2: I love I like the I think the cinematography of

900
00:38:32,280 --> 00:38:35,200
Speaker 2: it is cool, Like I think they really upgraded big time.

901
00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:39,600
Speaker 2: I kind of missed the old spot like I miss

902
00:38:39,680 --> 00:38:41,600
Speaker 2: and I kind of miss them all like dying of

903
00:38:41,680 --> 00:38:43,880
Speaker 2: like heat and like bugs and stuff like there was

904
00:38:43,920 --> 00:38:48,120
Speaker 2: something nitty and gritty about it. Yeah, but the coloring.

905
00:38:48,520 --> 00:38:49,840
Speaker 3: I texted Susie.

906
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:52,680
Speaker 2: I was like, Susie's the only one who has escaped

907
00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:55,880
Speaker 2: this weird tint, Like you look so beautiful and everyone

908
00:38:55,920 --> 00:38:58,840
Speaker 2: looks great, but I'm like the camera's almost like not

909
00:38:59,000 --> 00:38:59,960
Speaker 2: doing them justice.

910
00:39:00,160 --> 00:39:02,680
Speaker 1: You know what. It's probably because my spray tanta was

911
00:39:02,719 --> 00:39:03,800
Speaker 1: so orange.

912
00:39:03,360 --> 00:39:06,200
Speaker 4: That the blue like contract con Yeah, it like brought

913
00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:08,319
Speaker 4: me back to a normal shade because I remember at

914
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:10,200
Speaker 4: one point seeing my leg next to Jeremy's on.

915
00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:12,680
Speaker 2: The very pinky he looked.

916
00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:16,719
Speaker 4: But I will tell you in real life, I looked orange.

917
00:39:16,920 --> 00:39:18,920
Speaker 4: I looked like a cheeto out there, And I was like,

918
00:39:19,120 --> 00:39:21,359
Speaker 4: I know, because I didn't have enough time to prep

919
00:39:21,400 --> 00:39:22,600
Speaker 4: my spray tanks, I didn't know I was going in

920
00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:24,400
Speaker 4: until the day up, so I was just putting on

921
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:27,800
Speaker 4: like everything, marinating and like, so that was it probably

922
00:39:27,840 --> 00:39:30,360
Speaker 4: did me a favor because I was marinated like a cheeto.

923
00:39:30,680 --> 00:39:33,480
Speaker 3: They they didn't let you know, but you hacked the system.

924
00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:35,399
Speaker 1: I hacked and nobody knew it at the time.

925
00:39:35,600 --> 00:39:38,239
Speaker 2: You know, I did it. I was like, well, Susie

926
00:39:38,400 --> 00:39:40,920
Speaker 2: has whatever hurt you routine is?

927
00:39:41,400 --> 00:39:42,760
Speaker 3: She beat the camera?

928
00:39:43,239 --> 00:39:44,200
Speaker 1: Wow, thank you?

929
00:39:44,239 --> 00:39:45,759
Speaker 4: And maybe that's why I got sent home though, because

930
00:39:45,760 --> 00:39:48,959
Speaker 4: in person they were like, who is this cheeto coming down?

931
00:39:49,000 --> 00:39:49,200
Speaker 2: Here?

932
00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:52,040
Speaker 3: This cheeto in the rain?

933
00:39:53,480 --> 00:39:55,440
Speaker 1: Production assistant coming down?

934
00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:58,480
Speaker 2: You know, they could have done something so cool with

935
00:39:58,520 --> 00:40:00,759
Speaker 2: the rain, like if they but you would have had

936
00:40:00,760 --> 00:40:02,640
Speaker 2: to like go of the umbrella and let yourself get drenched,

937
00:40:02,680 --> 00:40:04,759
Speaker 2: but like the slow move of the rain and you

938
00:40:04,880 --> 00:40:08,920
Speaker 2: being like not the villain walking in but the stirring things.

939
00:40:09,080 --> 00:40:12,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, that would have been great. I would have done it.

940
00:40:12,800 --> 00:40:15,719
Speaker 3: Maybe you should film that, Yeah, I thought about it.

941
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:16,440
Speaker 2: I have a hose.

942
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:17,839
Speaker 1: Oh oh my god, I'll come over.

943
00:40:18,000 --> 00:40:19,320
Speaker 2: Yeah, just bring your outfit.

944
00:40:19,760 --> 00:40:20,000
Speaker 1: Love.

945
00:40:20,560 --> 00:40:22,320
Speaker 4: I really was like trying to think of like funny

946
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:23,960
Speaker 4: things because I knew it was going to be bad

947
00:40:23,960 --> 00:40:25,440
Speaker 4: for me. So I was like, what are some funny

948
00:40:25,440 --> 00:40:27,400
Speaker 4: things I can do? So I did, Like I loved it.

949
00:40:27,680 --> 00:40:29,840
Speaker 4: Things I was thinking about, like getting back in the

950
00:40:29,920 --> 00:40:32,520
Speaker 4: outfit and just like putting like sopping wet hair and

951
00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:35,799
Speaker 4: then like shooting like a fake im as if I

952
00:40:35,840 --> 00:40:37,200
Speaker 4: like just got drenched from the water.

953
00:40:37,719 --> 00:40:39,880
Speaker 2: So you could. There's so much you could do with it.

954
00:40:39,920 --> 00:40:42,399
Speaker 2: There's a lot to work with. Yeah, did you get

955
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:43,680
Speaker 2: to see Hannah Brown at all?

956
00:40:44,160 --> 00:40:46,560
Speaker 1: Yes? Oh you did, but like a hot minute she was.

957
00:40:46,600 --> 00:40:48,400
Speaker 1: It's my first time meeting her. She was so nice.

958
00:40:48,800 --> 00:40:50,719
Speaker 2: Wait what why do I feel like y'all would be

959
00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:51,680
Speaker 2: a best friends?

960
00:40:52,040 --> 00:40:54,359
Speaker 1: Maybe we would. I mean she was great.

961
00:40:54,400 --> 00:40:56,959
Speaker 4: I literally talked to her for like probably ten minutes

962
00:40:57,000 --> 00:40:59,120
Speaker 4: before the Rose simony, and I was like, I'm going home,

963
00:40:59,160 --> 00:41:00,719
Speaker 4: but like, it was so nice to meet you.

964
00:41:01,360 --> 00:41:03,680
Speaker 1: Like let's chit chats, like tell me about your life.

965
00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:04,680
Speaker 3: She just got married.

966
00:41:04,840 --> 00:41:08,239
Speaker 1: I know, she looked so good done.

967
00:41:08,400 --> 00:41:10,840
Speaker 2: The whole thing looked just like magical.

968
00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:11,719
Speaker 1: It really did.

969
00:41:11,880 --> 00:41:15,000
Speaker 3: I was so impressed with her social media me too.

970
00:41:15,239 --> 00:41:18,640
Speaker 2: Someone she must have had someone just on site getting

971
00:41:18,640 --> 00:41:19,000
Speaker 2: it up.

972
00:41:19,360 --> 00:41:21,680
Speaker 4: I think, so, which is like so brilliant when you

973
00:41:21,680 --> 00:41:24,600
Speaker 4: think if you're a content creator, like so smart to

974
00:41:24,680 --> 00:41:29,440
Speaker 4: have an in person, like social media person, not the photographer,

975
00:41:29,440 --> 00:41:33,600
Speaker 4: but like somebody who's doing like tiktokuff, yeah, behind the scenes.

976
00:41:33,200 --> 00:41:34,759
Speaker 1: Like and it's just nice to have that.

977
00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:37,000
Speaker 4: Like when I was kind of finishing out my wedding

978
00:41:37,160 --> 00:41:40,080
Speaker 4: videography career, people were starting to bring in people for

979
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:42,040
Speaker 4: like a couple hundred bucks a day just to like

980
00:41:42,120 --> 00:41:44,440
Speaker 4: film bts of their day on their phone because it

981
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:47,920
Speaker 4: takes usually like weeks or months for photographers videographers to

982
00:41:47,920 --> 00:41:49,680
Speaker 4: get the video back, so it's nice to have like

983
00:41:49,760 --> 00:41:50,640
Speaker 4: immediate content.

984
00:41:50,880 --> 00:41:53,200
Speaker 2: Well that's what Tanya was saying that after she had

985
00:41:53,239 --> 00:41:57,960
Speaker 2: a social media person, Ashley there and she Tanya was saying,

986
00:41:57,960 --> 00:41:59,560
Speaker 2: at the end of the night, the whole time we

987
00:41:59,560 --> 00:42:01,840
Speaker 2: were there, after the rehearsal dinner, they went through and

988
00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:04,320
Speaker 2: got to watch all the videos and because she was like,

989
00:42:04,360 --> 00:42:06,319
Speaker 2: we weren't able to sleep before the wedding, so it

990
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:08,120
Speaker 2: was like fun to just go through the videos and

991
00:42:08,160 --> 00:42:12,360
Speaker 2: then have everything instantly there, not even to have content,

992
00:42:12,480 --> 00:42:16,560
Speaker 2: but mostly memories to have instantly because it's true, it's

993
00:42:16,560 --> 00:42:19,200
Speaker 2: such a whirlwind that you know, but I think people

994
00:42:19,239 --> 00:42:21,640
Speaker 2: see content and they're like, how are you not present

995
00:42:21,760 --> 00:42:24,440
Speaker 2: or in the moment. It's it's like you're not having

996
00:42:24,480 --> 00:42:25,600
Speaker 2: to be if you hire someone.

997
00:42:25,760 --> 00:42:26,840
Speaker 1: Literally, I saw.

998
00:42:26,680 --> 00:42:28,640
Speaker 4: Somebody say something like in her comment section that was

999
00:42:28,680 --> 00:42:31,520
Speaker 4: like were you even like paying, like were you even

1000
00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:33,600
Speaker 4: like a present or whatever? And I wanted to write

1001
00:42:33,600 --> 00:42:35,640
Speaker 4: back and be like, she probably was so present, like

1002
00:42:35,719 --> 00:42:39,000
Speaker 4: probably more so than a normal bride news not hired

1003
00:42:39,000 --> 00:42:40,400
Speaker 4: someone to do her social media.

1004
00:42:40,480 --> 00:42:42,840
Speaker 1: I'm like, she probably like didn't.

1005
00:42:42,640 --> 00:42:46,600
Speaker 4: Have to worry about anything, like when it comes to content, like, so,

1006
00:42:46,640 --> 00:42:49,319
Speaker 4: I think it's so smart even if you're not a

1007
00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:51,360
Speaker 4: content creator, just for the memes's I agree.

1008
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:54,680
Speaker 2: Yeah, do you have vision? Okay, so you've done so

1009
00:42:54,680 --> 00:42:57,480
Speaker 2: many weddings, have you been to a certain place or

1010
00:42:57,600 --> 00:43:02,640
Speaker 2: venue or like like a destination where you go this

1011
00:43:02,719 --> 00:43:03,280
Speaker 2: is my dream?

1012
00:43:05,480 --> 00:43:09,560
Speaker 1: You know what? I that's a great question.

1013
00:43:10,560 --> 00:43:11,120
Speaker 2: You like beach.

1014
00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:13,000
Speaker 3: I love I love a beat.

1015
00:43:13,120 --> 00:43:15,520
Speaker 4: I feel like anything like natury, so like I'm such

1016
00:43:15,520 --> 00:43:17,560
Speaker 4: a beach person that I would so be down for

1017
00:43:17,600 --> 00:43:19,080
Speaker 4: a beach wedding. I feel like for years I was like,

1018
00:43:19,120 --> 00:43:20,640
Speaker 4: oh I want a beach wedding and like no shoes.

1019
00:43:20,680 --> 00:43:22,600
Speaker 4: I'm also like pretty tall, so I'm like if I

1020
00:43:22,640 --> 00:43:24,680
Speaker 4: marry a short guy, like works out in my favor.

1021
00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:26,400
Speaker 1: You know, I can just like bury my feet in

1022
00:43:26,400 --> 00:43:26,960
Speaker 1: the sand.

1023
00:43:26,800 --> 00:43:27,440
Speaker 2: For all the picture.

1024
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:28,680
Speaker 3: You can bear him as well as you need.

1025
00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:32,799
Speaker 4: Literally, it's kind of genius. So maybe I'll keep that

1026
00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:36,120
Speaker 4: plan going. But I'm also I would so be down

1027
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:38,440
Speaker 4: for like an elopement and then like a big party. Yes,

1028
00:43:38,600 --> 00:43:42,320
Speaker 4: I feel like as a wedding videographer, I love weddings.

1029
00:43:42,400 --> 00:43:44,719
Speaker 4: I love love, but I'm also like people go into

1030
00:43:44,800 --> 00:43:46,960
Speaker 4: debt or like they don't they can't buy a house

1031
00:43:47,040 --> 00:43:50,280
Speaker 4: because they're like spending so much money on the wedding.

1032
00:43:50,360 --> 00:43:52,640
Speaker 1: And I get it, like we all dream about a wedding.

1033
00:43:52,480 --> 00:43:54,840
Speaker 4: Day, but I'm also like, set yourself up, you know,

1034
00:43:55,040 --> 00:43:57,719
Speaker 4: like if it's just a if it's an elopement, get

1035
00:43:57,760 --> 00:44:00,720
Speaker 4: like a photographer, you're maybe your best friends or whatever,

1036
00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:03,040
Speaker 4: but just like do it for you and then.

1037
00:44:02,920 --> 00:44:04,240
Speaker 1: Have like a big party to celebrate.

1038
00:44:04,360 --> 00:44:04,560
Speaker 3: I know.

1039
00:44:04,680 --> 00:44:07,920
Speaker 2: I've talked to Haley about that because we I'm like,

1040
00:44:08,080 --> 00:44:10,520
Speaker 2: I don't I want us to have our dream wedding

1041
00:44:11,000 --> 00:44:17,000
Speaker 2: when we're able to do it without any like to

1042
00:44:17,120 --> 00:44:21,719
Speaker 2: overthink things. So but we've talked about the elopement and

1043
00:44:21,760 --> 00:44:23,279
Speaker 2: then a party. But then, like we've been to so

1044
00:44:23,360 --> 00:44:26,879
Speaker 2: many fun weddings recently, like wedding weekends where we're like, wow,

1045
00:44:26,920 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 2: it's so nice to have everyone yeah together. Yeah, So

1046
00:44:30,680 --> 00:44:32,879
Speaker 2: we've gone back and forth, But do you have any

1047
00:44:33,640 --> 00:44:36,640
Speaker 2: dues and don'ts for brides as a video as a former,

1048
00:44:36,840 --> 00:44:38,640
Speaker 2: are you still doing weddings? No?

1049
00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:40,720
Speaker 4: I would only do them if like a friend needed

1050
00:44:40,840 --> 00:44:45,480
Speaker 4: somebody to But do's and don'ts, I feel like the

1051
00:44:45,520 --> 00:44:47,680
Speaker 4: best thing you can do. I think like a really

1052
00:44:47,760 --> 00:44:51,319
Speaker 4: great coordinator is probably the best thing you can do

1053
00:44:51,360 --> 00:44:52,640
Speaker 4: as somebody who's gonna.

1054
00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:54,200
Speaker 2: Like like a wedding planner or a wedding yet, like a.

1055
00:44:54,120 --> 00:44:56,680
Speaker 4: Wedding planner who would also be there on site like yah,

1056
00:44:56,719 --> 00:45:01,040
Speaker 4: knows everything and not a free to run the show.

1057
00:45:01,280 --> 00:45:04,640
Speaker 1: Like I would never be good at that job, but

1058
00:45:05,760 --> 00:45:07,959
Speaker 1: like I would just I would actually make your day worse,

1059
00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:08,759
Speaker 1: you know, I.

1060
00:45:08,719 --> 00:45:12,200
Speaker 2: Would be the most stressful part of your day unfortunately.

1061
00:45:12,480 --> 00:45:16,359
Speaker 3: Literally, where's Becca? She's catering okay, Yeah.

1062
00:45:15,840 --> 00:45:17,360
Speaker 1: And she has no idea what time it is or

1063
00:45:17,400 --> 00:45:18,280
Speaker 1: what time the wedding starts.

1064
00:45:18,360 --> 00:45:21,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, and she was late, so that would literally be me.

1065
00:45:22,200 --> 00:45:24,520
Speaker 1: So I am not the right person for that job.

1066
00:45:24,560 --> 00:45:27,440
Speaker 4: But I think I've seen weddings done often where they're

1067
00:45:27,760 --> 00:45:30,799
Speaker 4: they don't have a coordinator and the bride is so

1068
00:45:31,040 --> 00:45:32,880
Speaker 4: stressed and I feel so bad because I'm like, you

1069
00:45:32,880 --> 00:45:35,399
Speaker 4: spent so much money and you really aren't enjoying the day.

1070
00:45:35,840 --> 00:45:38,440
Speaker 4: But if you hire someone or if you have a

1071
00:45:38,480 --> 00:45:41,480
Speaker 4: family friend, I've seen family friends be like someone's cousin

1072
00:45:41,520 --> 00:45:42,840
Speaker 4: and they're like I just love them so much, like

1073
00:45:42,880 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 4: I'm coordinating their day, and I'm like, that is such

1074
00:45:46,400 --> 00:45:49,920
Speaker 4: an asset and it just a good coordinator or planner.

1075
00:45:50,320 --> 00:45:52,719
Speaker 1: I think that's the number one tip I would give.

1076
00:45:53,080 --> 00:45:55,240
Speaker 2: That's a good one. I agree. I think that's everything.

1077
00:45:55,320 --> 00:45:58,920
Speaker 2: It's everything florals and your wedding planner.

1078
00:45:59,120 --> 00:45:59,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's so true.

1079
00:46:00,480 --> 00:46:01,680
Speaker 3: And your music.

1080
00:46:01,920 --> 00:46:04,120
Speaker 4: And your music? Yeah, are you doing like a DJ

1081
00:46:04,239 --> 00:46:06,480
Speaker 4: in trusting or a band or do you want to

1082
00:46:06,520 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 4: a playlist?

1083
00:46:07,080 --> 00:46:07,279
Speaker 5: Say?

1084
00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:10,560
Speaker 2: Because like a really good live band is so fun,

1085
00:46:10,719 --> 00:46:13,760
Speaker 2: but if they're not good, it's tough.

1086
00:46:14,000 --> 00:46:14,880
Speaker 1: It could be a miss.

1087
00:46:14,960 --> 00:46:17,560
Speaker 2: The DJ hits every time, Well, I guess if it's

1088
00:46:17,560 --> 00:46:20,440
Speaker 2: not a good DJ though, that's true. But everyone I've.

1089
00:46:20,280 --> 00:46:21,839
Speaker 3: Been too, there's been a really good DJ.

1090
00:46:22,000 --> 00:46:25,040
Speaker 2: And when the DJ comes on when the band's taking

1091
00:46:25,040 --> 00:46:26,640
Speaker 2: a break, fun.

1092
00:46:26,920 --> 00:46:30,239
Speaker 4: I yeah, I do think a live band is kind

1093
00:46:30,239 --> 00:46:31,640
Speaker 4: of iconic, and then you kind of get the best

1094
00:46:31,680 --> 00:46:34,239
Speaker 4: of both because yeah, they take breaks, you have to yeah, yeah,

1095
00:46:34,280 --> 00:46:36,240
Speaker 4: and then you could curate your playlist for in between

1096
00:46:36,280 --> 00:46:36,720
Speaker 4: the band.

1097
00:46:37,160 --> 00:46:39,520
Speaker 2: I like that, you think I could curry my own

1098
00:46:39,600 --> 00:46:42,799
Speaker 2: DJ playlist. There's something about the transitions of songs that

1099
00:46:42,880 --> 00:46:46,080
Speaker 2: gets everyone up and you here's the thing. You gotta

1100
00:46:46,160 --> 00:46:49,000
Speaker 2: have space where people can sit down and not feel

1101
00:46:49,000 --> 00:46:49,839
Speaker 2: like they're missing out.

1102
00:46:50,160 --> 00:46:52,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, but you also got to.

1103
00:46:52,120 --> 00:46:55,839
Speaker 2: Have enough songs that people aren't choosing to sit down, right,

1104
00:46:55,880 --> 00:46:57,600
Speaker 2: because there's some songs where you're like, I gotta be

1105
00:46:57,640 --> 00:46:58,640
Speaker 2: a part of this, or if.

1106
00:46:58,520 --> 00:47:00,640
Speaker 4: You're like in the bathroom when you hear like yeah

1107
00:47:00,680 --> 00:47:03,120
Speaker 4: by Usher, come on, you're not washing your hands. You're

1108
00:47:03,239 --> 00:47:05,520
Speaker 4: running to the dance floor, like I gotta get every

1109
00:47:05,560 --> 00:47:06,399
Speaker 4: minute of this song.

1110
00:47:06,600 --> 00:47:09,120
Speaker 2: I hear it over now by Taylor stuff but just

1111
00:47:09,160 --> 00:47:12,120
Speaker 2: not necessarily a wedding song, but it was me. Tanya

1112
00:47:12,160 --> 00:47:15,359
Speaker 2: and Sophia had like a moment so on her bachelorette

1113
00:47:15,400 --> 00:47:18,719
Speaker 2: and so I was running down the stairs, like sprinting

1114
00:47:18,760 --> 00:47:19,760
Speaker 2: to the dance floor.

1115
00:47:20,000 --> 00:47:22,680
Speaker 4: Yeah, you gotta have the bamers that get people back

1116
00:47:22,719 --> 00:47:24,839
Speaker 4: out there, you know, like you can't sit for too long.

1117
00:47:24,920 --> 00:47:42,520
Speaker 3: No, okay, So dating life, you're single.

1118
00:47:42,440 --> 00:47:47,919
Speaker 6: Single, mingling, not mingling, not mingling, healing, I think, yeah,

1119
00:47:47,960 --> 00:47:51,919
Speaker 6: I think I'm just like, yeah, I'm just focusing on

1120
00:47:52,400 --> 00:47:55,919
Speaker 6: my mental health and my and honestly, like, I'm gonna

1121
00:47:55,960 --> 00:47:56,239
Speaker 6: get my.

1122
00:47:56,160 --> 00:47:59,040
Speaker 4: Eggs frison in the next two months. I'm looking at

1123
00:47:59,040 --> 00:48:01,480
Speaker 4: the calendar right now. I think it'll be in two months.

1124
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:07,319
Speaker 2: We talk about that. Yeah, what was like, I have

1125
00:48:07,480 --> 00:48:10,839
Speaker 2: gone so back and forth on doing it, and I

1126
00:48:10,840 --> 00:48:12,840
Speaker 2: didn't know was it something that you've thought about for

1127
00:48:12,840 --> 00:48:15,080
Speaker 2: a long time and you finally were just like it's time.

1128
00:48:15,520 --> 00:48:15,840
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1129
00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:18,920
Speaker 4: So I remember when Clayton and I broke up, or

1130
00:48:19,120 --> 00:48:21,000
Speaker 4: we were kind of like talking about breaking up and

1131
00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:23,479
Speaker 4: we were like going through that. I was twenty seven

1132
00:48:23,480 --> 00:48:24,839
Speaker 4: when I went on the show, so it's probably around

1133
00:48:24,840 --> 00:48:26,600
Speaker 4: twenty eight, which is crazy because I'll be thirty two

1134
00:48:26,680 --> 00:48:29,319
Speaker 4: next month. I'm like, that's it blows my mind that

1135
00:48:29,320 --> 00:48:30,280
Speaker 4: that much time has passed.

1136
00:48:30,360 --> 00:48:30,920
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1137
00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:32,880
Speaker 1: But as we were like in the talks.

1138
00:48:32,600 --> 00:48:36,239
Speaker 4: Of like potentially breaking up, I remember saying to a friend,

1139
00:48:36,280 --> 00:48:39,040
Speaker 4: I was like, if we do break up, I'm getting

1140
00:48:39,040 --> 00:48:42,680
Speaker 4: my eggs frozen because I feel this like pressure of like,

1141
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:45,680
Speaker 4: oh gosh, I'm twenty eight starting over again, and like

1142
00:48:46,360 --> 00:48:48,600
Speaker 4: it just feels like a bit daunting.

1143
00:48:48,800 --> 00:48:50,680
Speaker 1: And I didn't get them frozen.

1144
00:48:51,040 --> 00:48:54,359
Speaker 4: And then then like the next year, I met Justin

1145
00:48:54,400 --> 00:48:58,240
Speaker 4: and I was like, okay, I'm I'm safe again. I'm like, Okay,

1146
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:00,759
Speaker 4: the trajectory, you know, will be in other five years.

1147
00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:02,799
Speaker 4: I'm like, okay, I'll be like thirty four, thirty five

1148
00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:05,719
Speaker 4: or whatever. And then we didn't work out, and so

1149
00:49:05,840 --> 00:49:07,400
Speaker 4: it's kind of been this thing of like, Okay, if

1150
00:49:07,440 --> 00:49:08,960
Speaker 4: I if we don't work out, then like I'll get.

1151
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:12,040
Speaker 1: Them frozen then or then. And I'm so lucky.

1152
00:49:12,080 --> 00:49:15,680
Speaker 4: But my cousin is opening up a clinic in Chicago

1153
00:49:15,800 --> 00:49:18,640
Speaker 4: with a friend who's a doctor, so she's worked in

1154
00:49:18,640 --> 00:49:21,240
Speaker 4: the industry for like fifteen years, and so I'm gonna

1155
00:49:21,320 --> 00:49:22,640
Speaker 4: They're gonna do it in an.

1156
00:49:22,520 --> 00:49:24,960
Speaker 1: Exchange for me. It's amazing, amazing.

1157
00:49:25,160 --> 00:49:27,960
Speaker 4: Yeah, and really because it's so expensive and my insurance

1158
00:49:27,960 --> 00:49:32,400
Speaker 4: doesn't cover it, so I yeah, I feel super super

1159
00:49:32,640 --> 00:49:35,640
Speaker 4: lucky and like hopefully it'll be mutually beneficial for them

1160
00:49:35,680 --> 00:49:37,360
Speaker 4: as well opening a new clinic.

1161
00:49:37,480 --> 00:49:39,640
Speaker 1: But but yeah, it's like very.

1162
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:43,480
Speaker 4: Like it has been very emotional for me because like

1163
00:49:43,680 --> 00:49:45,120
Speaker 4: I think when I was younger, I didn't even think

1164
00:49:45,120 --> 00:49:47,600
Speaker 4: about kids, and I was like, I don't know, Like

1165
00:49:47,640 --> 00:49:50,879
Speaker 4: I was like maybe like maybe, like I didn't grow

1166
00:49:50,920 --> 00:49:52,799
Speaker 4: up with like tons of little cousins, like I was

1167
00:49:52,800 --> 00:49:55,719
Speaker 4: the little cousin, and I was always career focused and

1168
00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:58,719
Speaker 4: I was never like dreamt about my wedding. I just

1169
00:49:58,880 --> 00:50:02,160
Speaker 4: was like it'll all happened, Like I didn't even think

1170
00:50:02,200 --> 00:50:04,279
Speaker 4: to worry about it, Like I just figured life would

1171
00:50:04,320 --> 00:50:07,200
Speaker 4: like fall into place. And now I'm like coming up

1172
00:50:07,239 --> 00:50:09,800
Speaker 4: on thirty two, and I'm like nothing has fallen into place,

1173
00:50:09,920 --> 00:50:12,359
Speaker 4: like I need to come up with a plan. And

1174
00:50:12,400 --> 00:50:15,839
Speaker 4: then I find myself like needing to make these decisions

1175
00:50:16,000 --> 00:50:18,640
Speaker 4: in whether it's in relationships or out of relationships, where

1176
00:50:18,640 --> 00:50:20,880
Speaker 4: I'm like I need to figure this out right now.

1177
00:50:21,040 --> 00:50:23,160
Speaker 4: And like anyone that I've talked to that's frozen their

1178
00:50:23,160 --> 00:50:26,480
Speaker 4: eggs are like, just do it, because that like constant

1179
00:50:26,600 --> 00:50:30,759
Speaker 4: noise goes away when you get the eggs frozen, and

1180
00:50:30,760 --> 00:50:33,360
Speaker 4: then you're not making decisions based on like a timeline.

1181
00:50:33,400 --> 00:50:36,480
Speaker 4: You're making decisions that make sense for right you know

1182
00:50:36,560 --> 00:50:37,479
Speaker 4: what you really want.

1183
00:50:37,600 --> 00:50:41,319
Speaker 3: Yeah, I it's interesting because you're thirty two, you said.

1184
00:50:41,560 --> 00:50:45,040
Speaker 2: In a month, Yeah, so I feel like all my friends.

1185
00:50:45,080 --> 00:50:47,360
Speaker 2: Obviously I'm thirty six, so all my friends are in

1186
00:50:47,440 --> 00:50:50,680
Speaker 2: my age range, and so many of them who also

1187
00:50:50,880 --> 00:50:53,520
Speaker 2: had this expectation of like I'll be married with kids

1188
00:50:53,560 --> 00:50:57,640
Speaker 2: by a certain age, like got married, you know, within

1189
00:50:57,680 --> 00:51:00,920
Speaker 2: the last few years and are starting to have the

1190
00:51:00,920 --> 00:51:04,040
Speaker 2: process of getting pregnant. My other best friend just had

1191
00:51:04,080 --> 00:51:07,400
Speaker 2: her baby and she's thirty seven, and it's like, it

1192
00:51:07,520 --> 00:51:10,880
Speaker 2: is this weird thing because the society is like, you

1193
00:51:10,920 --> 00:51:13,120
Speaker 2: don't have time, you don't have time. But I do

1194
00:51:13,200 --> 00:51:16,839
Speaker 2: think taking control of but also taking control of what

1195
00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:18,840
Speaker 2: you're able to do to put your mind to ease

1196
00:51:18,880 --> 00:51:22,719
Speaker 2: so that you're not making your moves based on those decisions,

1197
00:51:22,719 --> 00:51:25,759
Speaker 2: because you don't want to settle for someone based on

1198
00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:29,400
Speaker 2: the timeline that you've created for yourself. Yeah, when you

1199
00:51:29,440 --> 00:51:32,520
Speaker 2: could just freeze your eggs and have that security of

1200
00:51:32,560 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 2: knowing you did that and then be able to find

1201
00:51:35,200 --> 00:51:37,600
Speaker 2: the person that's not feel like you have to rush

1202
00:51:37,600 --> 00:51:40,760
Speaker 2: your healing or being single or whatever. You know. So totally,

1203
00:51:40,840 --> 00:51:43,480
Speaker 2: I think it's just I've always heard, you know, everyone's

1204
00:51:43,560 --> 00:51:45,919
Speaker 2: just like just do it. Yeah, everyone, if you're thinking

1205
00:51:45,920 --> 00:51:46,759
Speaker 2: about it, just do it.

1206
00:51:46,920 --> 00:51:49,040
Speaker 1: Literally, that's what everyone says. Who's done it.

1207
00:51:49,160 --> 00:51:51,080
Speaker 4: Yeah, And I just was on a girl's chip with

1208
00:51:51,440 --> 00:51:54,440
Speaker 4: literally like thirteen girls I didn't know. Well, yeah, that's

1209
00:51:54,719 --> 00:51:57,799
Speaker 4: very it was, and everybody was so amazing, and they

1210
00:51:57,800 --> 00:52:00,400
Speaker 4: were all older and they were mostly mom but like

1211
00:52:00,400 --> 00:52:03,000
Speaker 4: they were. The woman that really opened up and shared

1212
00:52:03,000 --> 00:52:06,440
Speaker 4: with me was forty two and she just had twins

1213
00:52:06,520 --> 00:52:10,239
Speaker 4: like a year ago, and she froze her eggs like

1214
00:52:10,280 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 4: ten years prior and then tried to get pregnant for

1215
00:52:12,960 --> 00:52:15,800
Speaker 4: like ten years, couldn't get pregnant, and this was like

1216
00:52:15,840 --> 00:52:17,879
Speaker 4: their last attempt, and they were the eggs from ten

1217
00:52:17,960 --> 00:52:21,239
Speaker 4: years earlier that she had frozen, I know. And so

1218
00:52:21,600 --> 00:52:25,080
Speaker 4: which is like also a mind like screw when you

1219
00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:26,440
Speaker 4: think about it and you're like, oh my gosh, this

1220
00:52:26,800 --> 00:52:29,560
Speaker 4: these are babies that were like pulled out and fertilized

1221
00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 4: with her same.

1222
00:52:30,080 --> 00:52:33,799
Speaker 1: Husband ten years ago. So they could be ten right now,

1223
00:52:34,160 --> 00:52:35,000
Speaker 1: but they're one.

1224
00:52:35,360 --> 00:52:39,239
Speaker 4: Yeah, And so yeah, I think it's like everybody that

1225
00:52:39,280 --> 00:52:41,520
Speaker 4: I talked to says the same thing.

1226
00:52:41,640 --> 00:52:43,400
Speaker 1: Just if you're thinking about it and you can.

1227
00:52:43,640 --> 00:52:45,640
Speaker 4: Afford it, or if you can figure out or if

1228
00:52:45,680 --> 00:52:48,399
Speaker 4: insurance covers it, just do it because it does give

1229
00:52:48,400 --> 00:52:50,960
Speaker 4: you peace of mind. And I think that that has

1230
00:52:51,040 --> 00:52:53,640
Speaker 4: been like an emotional part of like my breakup and

1231
00:52:54,320 --> 00:52:57,279
Speaker 4: even going to Paradise, like and also, can I just

1232
00:52:57,280 --> 00:53:00,360
Speaker 4: say people that have come online because Lexi talks about

1233
00:53:00,680 --> 00:53:03,960
Speaker 4: her journey with freezing her eggs and like endometriosis and

1234
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:07,319
Speaker 4: stuff like that, I've seen some really nasty comments being

1235
00:53:07,360 --> 00:53:10,960
Speaker 4: like if you're so you know, interested in like getting

1236
00:53:10,960 --> 00:53:12,279
Speaker 4: married and having babies, where are you going on a

1237
00:53:12,360 --> 00:53:12,839
Speaker 4: dating show?

1238
00:53:12,880 --> 00:53:14,840
Speaker 1: Like you, guys, it's three weeks of our life.

1239
00:53:15,080 --> 00:53:17,560
Speaker 4: If we've gone to thirty two and haven't met somebody,

1240
00:53:17,640 --> 00:53:19,960
Speaker 4: you think three weeks are going to make that much

1241
00:53:19,960 --> 00:53:22,719
Speaker 4: of a difference in finding the person you're gonna spend

1242
00:53:22,760 --> 00:53:25,480
Speaker 4: your life with, Like, get out of my comment section.

1243
00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,360
Speaker 2: Like so what if it works?

1244
00:53:27,440 --> 00:53:29,000
Speaker 1: And what if it works exactly?

1245
00:53:29,160 --> 00:53:31,200
Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, you never, I mean I was hopeful,

1246
00:53:31,320 --> 00:53:33,319
Speaker 4: Like yeah, I was hopeful that I would meet I

1247
00:53:33,400 --> 00:53:36,239
Speaker 4: kept hearing about this older guy that they were bringing on.

1248
00:53:36,600 --> 00:53:40,759
Speaker 1: I think it was Dale. They really talked him up

1249
00:53:41,160 --> 00:53:43,359
Speaker 1: and I didn't met him. Yeah, three times I get

1250
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:44,880
Speaker 1: there and I was like, is this what you're talking about?

1251
00:53:46,440 --> 00:53:47,840
Speaker 3: I met him and he doesn't remember me.

1252
00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:50,640
Speaker 1: Yeah, so exactly. But he's he was lovely like, when

1253
00:53:50,640 --> 00:53:52,880
Speaker 1: I met him, I was super nice. But you know,

1254
00:53:52,920 --> 00:53:55,400
Speaker 1: for the fourth time, I was kidding. I'm just kidding.

1255
00:53:55,800 --> 00:53:58,200
Speaker 1: He was nice all four times times he was pleasant.

1256
00:53:58,360 --> 00:54:03,680
Speaker 4: So but yeah, I think that you you know, you go, yeah,

1257
00:54:03,680 --> 00:54:05,879
Speaker 4: maybe it works, maybe you meet somebody, and if you don't,

1258
00:54:05,880 --> 00:54:07,800
Speaker 4: it's like, Okay, it's three weeks, like and it's a

1259
00:54:08,440 --> 00:54:11,279
Speaker 4: I think it's an amazing experience. Even the twenty four

1260
00:54:11,280 --> 00:54:13,080
Speaker 4: hours I was there, I was like, this was lit.

1261
00:54:13,600 --> 00:54:14,560
Speaker 4: I wish I could stay.

1262
00:54:15,680 --> 00:54:18,120
Speaker 2: Imagine if you had gotten there first, I know the

1263
00:54:18,160 --> 00:54:20,680
Speaker 2: party that you would have thrown for everybody.

1264
00:54:20,760 --> 00:54:23,319
Speaker 4: I feel like Bachelination does not know the lore of

1265
00:54:23,320 --> 00:54:25,840
Speaker 4: my wild side, you know, because I get edited into

1266
00:54:25,880 --> 00:54:26,680
Speaker 4: a very like.

1267
00:54:26,719 --> 00:54:27,680
Speaker 2: Your very southern.

1268
00:54:28,280 --> 00:54:31,640
Speaker 1: That's what they think, maybe a little bit. But I'm like,

1269
00:54:31,719 --> 00:54:35,080
Speaker 1: but also I can throw it down like I will

1270
00:54:35,120 --> 00:54:36,680
Speaker 1: literally yeah, I won't even say it.

1271
00:54:36,680 --> 00:54:38,800
Speaker 2: I'm like, if you had already been there and someone

1272
00:54:38,840 --> 00:54:41,200
Speaker 2: came down in the rain with an umbrella, you would

1273
00:54:41,200 --> 00:54:43,160
Speaker 2: have been ripping shots with them.

1274
00:54:43,520 --> 00:54:48,160
Speaker 4: Literally, I would not let the party not start, you

1275
00:54:48,200 --> 00:54:49,319
Speaker 4: know what I mean. I'm like, oh my god, they

1276
00:54:49,320 --> 00:54:51,680
Speaker 4: sent her down an umbrella, Like I am shaking my

1277
00:54:51,800 --> 00:54:56,680
Speaker 4: ass tonight, Like I am getting on the bar top like, yeah.

1278
00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:57,880
Speaker 3: Well that was their mistake.

1279
00:54:58,480 --> 00:55:01,439
Speaker 2: Thanks, and I'll remember for that for you and we'll

1280
00:55:01,520 --> 00:55:04,719
Speaker 2: remember that, thanks guys. But I do hope that What

1281
00:55:04,840 --> 00:55:07,640
Speaker 2: about what's this show where the Strongest Soldier or whatever

1282
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:09,879
Speaker 2: it's called where you go on and you're like, as

1283
00:55:09,920 --> 00:55:11,439
Speaker 2: a soldier or marine.

1284
00:55:11,080 --> 00:55:14,400
Speaker 1: Per special Forces, special Forces, you do that one thousand percent? Wow,

1285
00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:15,279
Speaker 1: I would do it.

1286
00:55:15,560 --> 00:55:17,839
Speaker 4: I really struggle in the cold, So I'd probably try

1287
00:55:17,880 --> 00:55:19,920
Speaker 4: to get a prescription because I think I have ray

1288
00:55:19,920 --> 00:55:22,560
Speaker 4: nods disease for oh, I think you know, like I'm

1289
00:55:22,600 --> 00:55:25,200
Speaker 4: like your hands, Yes, I turn purple and stuff. So

1290
00:55:25,680 --> 00:55:27,600
Speaker 4: I think there's this my doctor told me about this

1291
00:55:27,840 --> 00:55:29,600
Speaker 4: blood pressure pill where like you can take it. So

1292
00:55:29,600 --> 00:55:31,120
Speaker 4: I'm like, if I can get the blood pressure pill,

1293
00:55:31,280 --> 00:55:31,960
Speaker 4: I will do it.

1294
00:55:32,239 --> 00:55:34,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, let's do some testing before we put you in this.

1295
00:55:36,080 --> 00:55:37,600
Speaker 1: I'm like talking a big game and then I'm like,

1296
00:55:37,600 --> 00:55:39,239
Speaker 1: I'm actually going home. Nate one here too.

1297
00:55:39,960 --> 00:55:42,560
Speaker 3: I think the sleep part would be the end of me.

1298
00:55:43,200 --> 00:55:47,240
Speaker 2: I think that not sleeping in a comfortable cozy space

1299
00:55:47,280 --> 00:55:49,720
Speaker 2: would be where I like succumb.

1300
00:55:50,320 --> 00:55:53,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, oh you're a shower before bad girl, right, I

1301
00:55:53,760 --> 00:55:54,640
Speaker 4: saw you post.

1302
00:55:54,440 --> 00:55:55,920
Speaker 3: About that thousand, are you not?

1303
00:55:56,080 --> 00:55:58,920
Speaker 1: No, I'm a dirty Yeah, I'd thrive.

1304
00:55:59,600 --> 00:56:02,360
Speaker 4: I'd be like, no shower for a week, per I

1305
00:56:02,480 --> 00:56:04,840
Speaker 4: take out the contestants by not wearing deodorant like I

1306
00:56:04,840 --> 00:56:06,680
Speaker 4: would like, I'd be like I'm sending everyone home with

1307
00:56:06,719 --> 00:56:07,359
Speaker 4: my body odor.

1308
00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:08,520
Speaker 1: I'm joking.

1309
00:56:08,640 --> 00:56:10,120
Speaker 2: I'm joking. I would shower.

1310
00:56:10,160 --> 00:56:10,680
Speaker 3: I'm joking.

1311
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Speaker 4: But like I would thrive in like a dirty environment.

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00:56:13,280 --> 00:56:15,960
Speaker 4: I really think I would, Like, I really think I

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00:56:16,000 --> 00:56:18,160
Speaker 4: would thrive. Like the bed thing doesn't bother.

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Speaker 2: Me, Like what about pooping those stalls?

1315
00:56:21,960 --> 00:56:23,319
Speaker 1: Just knowing that you have to have a buddy would

1316
00:56:23,320 --> 00:56:24,480
Speaker 1: would bother me with the pooping.

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00:56:24,520 --> 00:56:26,960
Speaker 4: But like I'm also like constipated half the time, so

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00:56:27,000 --> 00:56:28,480
Speaker 4: I'm like I probably wouldn't poop the whole time.

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00:56:28,480 --> 00:56:28,839
Speaker 1: I'm there.

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00:56:29,040 --> 00:56:31,080
Speaker 3: Who's your like celebrity crush?

1321
00:56:31,400 --> 00:56:33,920
Speaker 1: Okay, very oh, this is gonna be like so on

1322
00:56:34,040 --> 00:56:37,359
Speaker 1: brand very specifically, Like it's Jake Jillenhall in the movie

1323
00:56:37,360 --> 00:56:40,439
Speaker 1: Everest when he's got like the long hair and he's

1324
00:56:40,480 --> 00:56:41,880
Speaker 1: like like a mountain man.

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00:56:42,680 --> 00:56:44,279
Speaker 3: I'm sorry, I'm a Taylor Swift fan.

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00:56:44,520 --> 00:56:48,680
Speaker 1: So oh no, that's actually it's like specifically that movie character,

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00:56:48,760 --> 00:56:51,520
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Okay, Oh, way, you've got

1328
00:56:51,560 --> 00:56:56,960
Speaker 1: an image like that right there, like sure, like I

1329
00:56:57,000 --> 00:56:59,080
Speaker 1: know that's why I'm like, I feel like.

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00:56:59,719 --> 00:57:03,520
Speaker 2: If there are someone who's not a character, okay.

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00:57:03,560 --> 00:57:08,040
Speaker 1: Yes, okay, Joe Jonas always was like she has ranged,

1332
00:57:08,400 --> 00:57:10,840
Speaker 1: she has range, And then Michael B. Jordan, I feel like,

1333
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Speaker 1: oh that's everyone I know.

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Speaker 2: It's like, well, those are like the Jake Joenhill one

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Speaker 2: through me, but the other two are very standardly yes,

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00:57:18,200 --> 00:57:20,680
Speaker 2: except yeah, okay, so Michael B.

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Speaker 3: Jordan is your poop buddy at.

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Speaker 1: No, I'm out, I'm tapping. I'm like, I will hold.

1339
00:57:27,480 --> 00:57:30,440
Speaker 2: It, Okay, I will hold it. How strong you are?

1340
00:57:30,600 --> 00:57:33,320
Speaker 1: No, oh my gosh, literally that would be like the

1341
00:57:33,400 --> 00:57:34,959
Speaker 1: end of me. But like if you were there.

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00:57:35,320 --> 00:57:37,680
Speaker 2: But what about Jake John Hall and Everest. He seems

1343
00:57:37,680 --> 00:57:39,040
Speaker 2: like he'd be down to be your.

1344
00:57:39,320 --> 00:57:41,560
Speaker 1: Might not judge me, Yeah, that's actually he might like it,

1345
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:44,440
Speaker 1: Like that would be that might be the love story,

1346
00:57:45,080 --> 00:57:45,920
Speaker 1: the love story.

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Speaker 4: I would just tell whoever I'm with, I'm like, plug

1348
00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:50,959
Speaker 4: your ears please, Like I just like don't even want

1349
00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:53,240
Speaker 4: the thought even like I get pea sh eye sometimes.

1350
00:57:53,240 --> 00:57:55,320
Speaker 4: So I think it would be a lot that that

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00:57:55,360 --> 00:57:56,720
Speaker 4: would be a hard part for me.

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00:57:57,200 --> 00:58:00,800
Speaker 1: But the sleeping, the being dirty. I think even.

1353
00:58:02,200 --> 00:58:03,880
Speaker 4: I'm talking a really big game, but I'm like getting

1354
00:58:03,960 --> 00:58:06,960
Speaker 4: dropped into cold water in a vehicle buckled in. I'm like,

1355
00:58:07,360 --> 00:58:08,480
Speaker 4: kind of sounds like a thrill.

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00:58:08,840 --> 00:58:11,680
Speaker 2: Wow. Yeah, I need to see you on this. This

1357
00:58:11,720 --> 00:58:13,960
Speaker 2: is a lot of This is a lot of confidence.

1358
00:58:14,880 --> 00:58:17,760
Speaker 1: I know, it really isn't I And I'm going to use.

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00:58:17,680 --> 00:58:21,360
Speaker 2: Our voiceover for your intro, this SloMo intro.

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Speaker 1: I think a panic attack. Yeah, literally time. Yeah, I

1361
00:58:26,760 --> 00:58:27,880
Speaker 1: can't get it unbuckled.

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00:58:29,600 --> 00:58:32,080
Speaker 2: Thank you so much for coming on and being so

1363
00:58:32,240 --> 00:58:35,600
Speaker 2: open and sharing, and I just love you. I can't

1364
00:58:35,600 --> 00:58:38,080
Speaker 2: wait to see what your next reality journey is.

1365
00:58:39,320 --> 00:58:43,200
Speaker 4: Maybe something less than Special Forces, but not as sincere

1366
00:58:43,320 --> 00:58:43,960
Speaker 4: is the Bachelor.

1367
00:58:44,040 --> 00:58:46,400
Speaker 1: Somewhere in the middle, you know what is that?

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00:58:46,840 --> 00:58:47,720
Speaker 2: I think? What did you say?

1369
00:58:47,800 --> 00:58:48,880
Speaker 1: Road road Rules?

1370
00:58:48,920 --> 00:58:49,560
Speaker 3: Like the challenge?

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00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:53,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, something like I haven't watched the challenge, Like I

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00:58:53,520 --> 00:58:55,920
Speaker 2: used to watch Road Rules, but I haven't watched the challenge.

1373
00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:58,320
Speaker 1: I've dabbled, but like not really but yeah, maybe something

1374
00:58:58,320 --> 00:59:00,680
Speaker 1: in the middle. We'll see. But Okay, I love you too.

1375
00:59:00,720 --> 00:59:01,600
Speaker 1: Thank you for having me.

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00:59:01,680 --> 00:59:03,800
Speaker 3: You're the best and we just wish you the best.

1377
00:59:03,840 --> 00:59:06,400
Speaker 3: What's where can people follow you? What's next for you?

1378
00:59:07,440 --> 00:59:10,480
Speaker 1: Just Susie c Evans on Instagram. Susie was like.

1379
00:59:10,720 --> 00:59:14,840
Speaker 4: TikTok and yeah, just figuring out the next steps in life.

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Speaker 3: We love it.

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Speaker 1: Bye bye